MEN WITHOUT WOMEN
by ERNEST HEMINGWAY
TO
EVAN SHIPMAN
CONTENTS
The Undefeated
In Another Country
Hills Like White
Elephants
The Killers
Che Ti Dice La Patria?
Fifty Grand
A Simple Enquiry
Ten Indians
A Canary for One
An Alpine Idyll
A Pursuit Race
To-day is Friday
Banal Story
Now I Lay Me
THE UNDEFEATED
Manuel Garcia climbed the stairs to Don Miguel
Retana’s office. He set down his suitcase and knocked on the door. There was no
answer. Manuel, standing in the hallway, felt there was some one in the room.
He felt it through the door.
“Retana,” he said, listening.
There was no answer.
He’s there, all right, Manuel thought.
“Retana,” he said and banged the door.
“Who’s there?” said some one in the office.
“Me, Manolo,” Manuel said.
“What do you want?” asked the voice.
“I want to work,” Manuel said.
Something in the door clicked several times and
it swung open. Manuel went in, carrying his suitcase.
A little man sat behind a desk at the far side
of the room. Over his head was a bull’s head, stuffed by a Madrid taxidermist;
on the walls were framed photographs and bull-fight posters.
The little man sat looking at Manuel.
“I thought they’d killed you,” he said.
Manuel knocked with his knuckles on the desk.
The little man sat looking at him across the desk.
“How many corridas you had this year?” Retana
asked.
“One,” he answered.
“Just that one?” the little man asked.
“That’s all.”
“I read about it in the papers,” Retana said.
He leaned back in the chair and looked at Manuel.
Manuel looked up at the stuffed bull. He had
seen it often before. He felt a certain family interest in it. It had killed
his brother, the promising one, about nine years ago. Manuel remembered the
day. There was a brass plate on the oak shield the bull’s head was mounted on.
Manuel could not read it, but he imagined it was in memory of his brother.
Well, he had been a good kid.
The plate said: “The Bull ‘Mariposa’ of the
Duke of Veragua, which accepted 9 varas for 7 caballos, and caused the death of
Antonio Garcia, Novillero, April 27, 1909.”
Retana saw him looking at the stuffed bull’s
head.
“The lot the Duke sent me for Sunday will make
a scandal,” he said. “They’re all bad in the legs. What do they say about them
at the Café?”
“I don’t know,” Manuel said. “I just got in.”
“Yes,” Retana said. “You still have your bag.”
He looked at Manuel, leaning back behind the
big desk.
“Sit down,” he said. “Take off your cap.”
Manuel sat down; his cap off, his face was
changed. He looked pale, and his coleta pinned forward on his head, so that it
would not show under the cap, gave him a strange look.
“You don’t look well,” Retana said.
“I just got out of the hospital,” Manuel said.
“I heard they’d cut your leg off,” Retana said.
“No,” said Manuel. “It got all right.”
Retana leaned forward across the desk and
pushed a wooden box of cigarettes toward Manuel.
“Have a cigarette,” he said.
“Thanks.”
Manuel lit it.
“Smoke?” he said, offering the match to Retana.
“No,” Retana waved his hand, “I never smoke.”
Retana watched him smoking.
“Why don’t you get a job and go to work?” he
said.
“I don’t want to work,” Manuel said. “I am a
bull-fighter.”
“There aren’t any bull-fighters any more,”
Retana said.
“I’m a bull-fighter,” Manuel said.
“Yes, while you’re in there,” Retana said.
Manuel laughed.
Retana sat, saying nothing and looking at
Manuel.
“I’ll put you in a nocturnal if you want,”
Retana offered.
“When?” Manuel asked.
“To-morrow night.”
“I don’t like to substitute for anybody,”
Manuel said. That was the way they all got killed. That was the way Salvador
got killed. He tapped with his knuckles on the table.
“It’s all I’ve got,” Retana said.
“Why don’t you put me on next week?” Manuel
suggested.
“You wouldn’t draw,” Retana said. “All they
want is Litri and Rubito and La Torre. Those kids are good.”
“They’d come to see me get it,” Manuel said,
hopefully.
“No, they wouldn’t. They don’t know who you are
any more.”
“I’ve got a lot of stuff,” Manuel said.
“I’m offering to put you on to-morrow night,”
Retana said. “You can work with young Hernandez and kill two novillos after the
Chariots.”
“Whose novillos?” Manuel asked.
“I don’t know. Whatever stuff they’ve got in
the corrals. What the veterinaries won’t pass in the daytime.”
“I don’t like to substitute,” Manuel said.
“You can take it or leave it,” Retana said. He
leaned forward over the papers. He was no longer interested. The appeal that
Manuel had made to him for a moment when he thought of the old days was gone.
He would like to get him to substitute for Larita because he could get him
cheaply. He could get others cheaply too. He would like to help him though.
Still he had given him the chance. It was up to him.
“How much do I get?” Manuel asked. He was still
playing with the idea of refusing. But he knew he could not refuse.
“Two hundred and fifty pesetas,” Retana said.
He had thought of five hundred, but when he opened his mouth it said two
hundred and fifty.
“You pay Villalta seven thousand,” Manuel said.
“You’re not Villalta,” Retana said.
“I know it,” Manuel said.
“He draws it, Manolo,” Retana said in
explanation.
“Sure,” said Manuel. He stood up. “Give me
three hundred, Retana.”
“All right,” Retana agreed. He reached in the
drawer for a paper.
“Can I have fifty now?” Manuel asked.
“Sure,” said Retana. He took a fifty peseta
note out of his pocket-book and laid it, spread out flat, on the table.
Manuel picked it up and put it in his pocket.
“What about a cuadrilla?” he asked.
“There’s the boys that always work for me
nights,” Retana said. “They’re all right.”
“How about picadors?” Manuel asked.
“They’re not much,” Retana admitted.
“I’ve got to have one good pic,” Manuel said.
“Get him then,” Retana said. “Go and get him.”
“Not out of this,” Manuel said. “I’m not paying
for any cuadrilla out of sixty duros.”
Retana said nothing but looked at Manuel across
the big desk.
“You know I’ve got to have one good pic,”
Manuel said.
Retana said nothing but looked at Manuel from a
long way off.
“It isn’t right,” Manuel said.
Retana was still considering him, leaning back
in his chair, considering him from a long way away.
“There’re the regular pics,” he offered.
“I know,” Manuel said. “I know your regular
pics.”
Retana did not smile. Manuel knew it was over.
“All I want is an even break,” Manuel said
reasoningly. “When I go out there I want to be able to call my shots on the
bull. It only takes one good picador.”
He was talking to a man who was no longer
listening.
“If you want something extra,” Retana said, “go
and get it. There will be a regular cuadrilla out there. Bring as many of your
own pics as you want. The charlotada is over by 10.30.”
“All right,” Manuel said. “If that’s the way
you feel about it.”
“That’s the way,” Retana said.
“I’ll see you to-morrow night,” Manuel said.
“I’ll be out there,” Retana said.
Manuel picked up his suitcase and went out.
“Shut the door,” Retana called.
Manuel looked back. Retana was sitting forward
looking at some papers. Manuel pulled the door tight until it clicked.
He went down the stairs and out of the door
into the hot brightness of the street. It was very hot in the street and the
light on the white buildings was sudden and hard on his eyes. He walked down
the shady side of the steep street toward the Puerta del Sol. The shade felt
solid and cool as running water. The heat came suddenly as he crossed the
intersecting streets. Manuel saw no one he knew in all the people he passed.
Just before the Puerta del Sol he turned into a
café.
It was quiet in the café. There were a few men
sitting at tables against the wall. At one table four men played cards. Most of
the men sat against the wall smoking, empty coffee-cups and liqueur-glasses
before them on the tables. Manuel went through the long room to a small room in
back. A man sat at a table in the corner asleep. Manuel sat down at one of the
tables.
A waiter came in and stood beside Manuel’s
table.
“Have you seen Zurito?” Manuel asked him.
“He was in before lunch,” the waiter answered.
“He won’t be back before five o’clock.”
“Bring me some coffee and milk and a shot of
the ordinary,” Manuel said.
The waiter came back into the room carrying a
tray with a big coffee-glass and a liqueur-glass on it. In his left hand he
held a bottle of brandy. He swung these down to the table and a boy who had
followed him poured coffee and milk into the glass from two shiny, spouted pots
with long handles.
Manuel took off his cap and the waiter noticed
his pigtail pinned forward on his head. He winked at the coffee-boy as he
poured out the brandy into the little glass beside Manuel’s coffee. The
coffee-boy looked at Manuel’s pale face curiously.
“You fighting here?” asked the waiter, corking
up the bottle.
“Yes,” Manuel said. “To-morrow.”
The waiter stood there, holding the bottle on
one hip.
“You in the Charlie Chaplins?” he asked.
The coffee-boy looked away, embarrassed.
“No. In the ordinary.”
“I thought they were going to have Chaves and
Hernandez,” the waiter said.
“No. Me and another.”
“Who? Chaves or Hernandez?”
“Hernandez, I think.”
“What’s the matter with Chaves?”
“He got hurt.”
“Where did you hear that?”
“Retana.”
“Hey, Looie,” the waiter called to the next
room, “Chaves got cogida.”
Manuel had taken the wrapper off the lumps of
sugar and dropped them into his coffee. He stirred it and drank it down, sweet,
hot, and warming in his empty stomach. He drank off the brandy.
“Give me another shot of that,” he said to the
waiter.
The waiter uncorked the bottle and poured the
glass full, slopping another drink into the saucer. Another waiter had come up
in front of the table. The coffee-boy was gone.
“Is Chaves hurt bad?” the second waiter asked
Manuel.
“I don’t know,” Manuel said, “Retana didn’t
say.”
“A hell of a lot he cares,” the tall waiter
said. Manuel had not seen him before. He must have just come up.
“If you stand in with Retana in this town,
you’re a made man,” the tall waiter said. “If you aren’t in with him, you might
just as well go out and shoot yourself.”
“You said it,” the other waiter who had come in
said. “You said it then.”
“You’re right I said it,” said the tall waiter.
“I know what I’m talking about when I talk about that bird.”
“Look what he’s done for Villalta,” the first
waiter said.
“And that ain’t all,” the tall waiter said.
“Look what he’s done for Marcial Lalanda. Look what he’s done for Nacional.”
“You said it, kid,” agreed the short waiter.
Manuel looked at them, standing talking in
front of his table. He had drunk his second brandy. They had forgotten about
him. They were not interested in him.
“Look at that bunch of camels,” the tall waiter
went on. “Did you ever see this Nacional II?”
“I seen him last Sunday didn’t I?” the original
waiter said.
“He’s a giraffe,” the short waiter said.
“What did I tell you?” the tall waiter said.
“Those are Retana’s boys.”
“Say, give me another shot of that,” Manuel
said. He had poured the brandy the waiter had slopped over in the saucer into
his glass and drank it while they were talking.
The original waiter poured his glass full
mechanically, and the three of them went out of the room talking.
In the far corner the man was still asleep,
snoring slightly on the intaking breath, his head back against the wall.
Manuel drank his brandy. He felt sleepy
himself. It was too hot to go out into the town. Besides there was nothing to
do. He wanted to see Zurito. He would go to sleep while he waited. He kicked
his suitcase under the table to be sure it was there. Perhaps it would be
better to put it back under the seat, against the wall. He leaned down and
shoved it under. Then he leaned forward on the table and went to sleep.
When he woke there was some one sitting across
the table from him. It was a big man with a heavy brown face like an Indian. He
had been sitting there some time. He had waved the waiter away and sat reading
the paper and occasionally looking down at Manuel, asleep, his head on the
table. He read the paper laboriously, forming the words with his lips as he
read. When it tired him he looked at Manuel. He sat heavily in the chair, his
black Cordoba hat tipped forward.
Manuel sat up and looked at him.
“Hello, Zurito,” he said.
“Hello, kid,” the big man said.
“I’ve been asleep.” Manuel rubbed his forehead
with the back of his fist.
“I thought maybe you were.”
“How’s everything?”
“Good. How is everything with you?”
“Not so good.”
They were both silent. Zurito, the picador,
looked at Manuel’s white face. Manuel looked down at the picador’s enormous
hands folding the paper to put away in his pocket.
“I got a favor to ask you, Manos,” Manuel said.
Manosduros was Zurito’s nickname. He never
heard it without thinking of his huge hands. He put them forward on the table
self-consciously.
“Let’s have a drink,” he said.
“Sure,” said Manuel.
The waiter came and went and came again. He
went out of the room looking back at the two men at the table.
“What’s the matter, Manolo?” Zurito set down
his glass.
“Would you pic two bulls for me to-morrow
night?” Manuel asked, looking up at Zurito across the table.
“No,” said Zurito. “I’m not pic-ing.”
Manuel looked down at his glass. He had
expected that answer; now he had it. Well, he had it.
“I’m sorry, Manolo, but I’m not pic-ing.”
Zurito looked at his hands.
“That’s all right,” Manuel said.
“I’m too old,” Zurito said.
“I just asked you,” Manuel said.
“Is it the nocturnal to-morrow?”
“That’s it. I figured if I had just one good
pic, I could get away with it.”
“How much are you getting?”
“Three hundred pesetas.”
“I get more than that for pic-ing.”
“I know,” said Manuel. “I didn’t have any right
to ask you.”
“What do you keep on doing it for?” Zurito
asked. “Why don’t you cut off your coleta, Manolo?”
“I don’t know,” Manuel said.
“You’re pretty near as old as I am,” Zurito
said.
“I don’t know,” Manuel said. “I got to do it.
If I can fix it so that I get an even break, that’s all I want. I got to stick
with it, Manos.”
“No, you don’t.”
“Yes, I do. I’ve tried keeping away from it.”
“I know how you feel. But it isn’t right. You
ought to get out and stay out.”
“I can’t do it. Besides, I’ve been going good
lately.”
Zurito looked at his face.
“You’ve been in the hospital.”
“But I was going great when I got hurt.”
Zurito said nothing. He tipped the cognac out
of his saucer into his glass.
“The papers said they never saw a better
faena,” Manuel said.
Zurito looked at him.
“You know when I get going I’m good,” Manuel
said.
“You’re too old,” the picador said.
“No,” said Manuel. “You’re ten years older than
I am.”
“With me it’s different.”
“I’m not too old,” Manuel said.
They sat silent, Manuel watching the picador’s
face.
“I was going great till I got hurt,” Manuel
offered.
“You ought to have seen me, Manos,” Manuel
said, reproachfully.
“I don’t want to see you,” Zurito said. “It
makes me nervous.”
“You haven’t seen me lately.”
“I’ve seen you plenty.”
Zurito looked at Manuel, avoiding his eyes.
“You ought to quit it, Manolo.”
“I can’t,” Manuel said. “I’m going good now, I
tell you.”
Zurito leaned forward, his hands on the table.
“Listen. I’ll pic for you and if you don’t go
big to-morrow night, you’ll quit. See? Will you do that?”
“Sure.”
Zurito leaned back, relieved.
“You got to quit,” he said. “No monkey
business. You got to cut the coleta.”
“I won’t have to quit,” Manuel said. “You watch
me. I’ve got the stuff.”
Zurito stood up. He felt tired from arguing.
“You got to quit,” he said. “I’ll cut your
coleta myself.”
“No, you won’t,” Manuel said. “You won’t have a
chance.”
Zurito called the waiter.
“Come on,” said Zurito. “Come on up to the
house.”
Manuel reached under the seat for his suitcase.
He was happy. He knew Zurito would pic for him. He was the best picador living.
It was all simple now.
“Come on up to the house and we’ll eat,” Zurito
said.
Manuel stood in the patio de caballos waiting
for the Charlie Chaplins to be over. Zurito stood beside him. Where they stood
it was dark. The high door that led into the bull-ring was shut. Above them
they heard a shout, then another shout of laughter. Then there was silence.
Manuel liked the smell of the stables about the patio de caballos. It smelt
good in the dark. There was another roar from the arena and then applause,
prolonged applause, going on and on.
“You ever seen these fellows?” Zurito asked,
big and looming beside Manuel in the dark.
“No,” Manuel said.
“They’re pretty funny.” Zurito said. He smiled
to himself in the dark.
The high, double, tight-fitting door into the
bull-ring swung open and Manuel saw the ring in the hard light of the
arc-lights, the plaza, dark all the way around, rising high; around the edge of
the ring were running and bowing two men dressed like tramps, followed by a
third in the uniform of a hotel bell-boy who stooped and picked up the hats and
canes thrown down onto the sand and tossed them back up into the darkness.
The electric light went on in the patio.
“I’ll climb onto one of those ponies while you
collect the kids,” Zurito said.
Behind them came the jingle of the mules,
coming out to go into the arena and be hitched onto the dead bull.
The members of the cuadrilla, who had been
watching the burlesque from the runway between the barrera and the seats, came
walking back and stood in a group talking, under the electric light in the
patio. A good-looking lad in a silver-and-orange suit came up to Manuel and
smiled.
“I’m Hernandez,” he said and put out his hand.
Manuel shook it.
“They’re regular elephants we’ve got to-night,”
the boy said cheerfully.
“They’re big ones with horns,” Manuel agreed.
“You drew the worst lot,” the boy said.
“That’s all right,” Manuel said. “The bigger
they are, the more meat for the poor.”
“Where did you get that one?” Hernandez
grinned.
“That’s an old one,” Manuel said. “You line up
your cuadrilla, so I can see what I’ve got.”
“You’ve got some good kids,” Hernandez said. He
was very cheerful. He had been on twice before in nocturnals and was beginning
to get a following in Madrid. He was happy the fight would start in a few
minutes.
“Where are the pics?” Manuel asked.
“They’re back in the corrals fighting about who
gets the beautiful horses,” Hernandez grinned.
The mules came through the gate in a rush, the
whips snapping, bells jangling and the young bull ploughing a furrow of sand.
They formed up for the paseo as soon as the
bull had gone through.
Manuel and Hernandez stood in front. The youths
of the cuadrillas were behind, their heavy capes furled over their arms. In
back, the four picadors, mounted, holding their steel-tipped push-poles erect
in the half-dark of the corral.
“It’s a wonder Retana wouldn’t give us enough
light to see the horses by,” one picador said.
“He knows we’ll be happier if we don’t get too
good a look at these skins,” another pic answered.
“This thing I’m on barely keeps me off the
ground,” the first picador said.
“Well, they’re horses.”
“Sure, they’re horses.”
They talked, sitting their gaunt horses in the
dark.
Zurito said nothing. He had the only steady
horse of the lot. He had tried him, wheeling him in the corrals and he
responded to the bit and the spurs. He had taken the bandage off his right eye
and cut the strings where they had tied his ears tight shut at the base. He was
a good, solid horse, solid on his legs. That was all he needed. He intended to
ride him all through the corrida. He had already, since he had mounted, sitting
in the half-dark in the big, quilted saddle, waiting for the paseo, pic-ed through
the whole corrida in his mind. The other picadors went on talking on both sides
of him. He did not hear them.
The two matadors stood together in front of
their three peones, their capes furled over their left arms in the same
fashion. Manuel was thinking about the three lads in back of him. They were all
three Madrileños, like Hernandez, boys about nineteen. One of them, a gypsy,
serious, aloof, and dark-faced, he liked the look of. He turned.
“What’s your name, kid?” he asked the gypsy.
“Fuentes,” the gypsy said.
“That’s a good name,” Manuel said.
The gypsy smiled, showing his teeth.
“You take the bull and give him a little run
when he comes out,” Manuel said.
“All right,” the gypsy said. His face was
serious. He began to think about just what he would do.
“Here she goes,” Manuel said to Hernandez.
“All right. We’ll go.”
Heads up, swinging with the music, their right
arms swinging free, they stepped out, crossing the sanded arena under the
arc-lights, the cuadrillas opening out behind, the picadors riding after,
behind came the bull-ring servants and the jingling mules. The crowd applauded
Hernandez as they marched across the arena. Arrogant, swinging, they looked
straight ahead as they marched.
They bowed before the president, and the
procession broke up into its component parts. The bull-fighters went over to
the barrera and changed their heavy mantles for the light fighting capes. The
mules went out. The picadors galloped jerkily around the ring, and two rode out
the gate they had come in by. The servants swept the sand smooth.
Manuel drank a glass of water poured for him by
one of Retana’s deputies, who was acting as his manager and sword-handler.
Hernandez came over from speaking with his own manager.
“You got a good hand, kid,” Manuel complimented
him.
“They like me,” Hernandez said happily.
“How did the paseo go?” Manuel asked Retana’s
man.
“Like a wedding,” said the handler. “Fine. You
came out like Joselito and Belmonte.”
Zurito rode by, a bulky equestrian statue. He
wheeled his horse and faced him toward the toril on the far side of the ring
where the bull would come out. It was strange under the arc-light. He pic-ed in
the hot afternoon sun for big money. He didn’t like this arc-light business. He
wished they would get started.
Manuel went up to him.
“Pic him, Manos,” he said. “Cut him down to
size for me.”
“I’ll pic him, kid,” Zurito spat on the sand.
“I’ll make him jump out of the ring.”
“Lean on him, Manos,” Manuel said.
“I’ll lean on him,” Zurito said. “What’s
holding it up?”
“He’s coming now,” Manuel said.
Zurito sat there, his feet in the box-stirrups,
his great legs in the buckskin-covered armor gripping the horse, the reins in
his left hand, the long pic held in his right hand, his broad hat well down
over his eyes to shade them from the lights, watching the distant door of the
toril. His horse’s ears quivered. Zurito patted him with his left hand.
The red door of the toril swung back and for a
moment Zurito looked into the empty passageway far across the arena. Then the
bull came out in a rush, skidding on his four legs as he came out under the
lights, then charging in a gallop, moving softly in a fast gallop, silent
except as he woofed through wide nostrils as he charged, glad to be free after
the dark pen.
In the first row of seats, slightly bored,
leaning forward to write on the cement wall in front of his knees, the
substitute bull-fight critic of El Heraldo scribbled: “Campagnero,
Negro, 42, came out at 90 miles an hour with plenty of gas——”
Manuel, leaning against the barrera, watching
the bull, waved his hand and the gypsy ran out, trailing his cape. The bull, in
full gallop, pivoted and charged the cape, his head down, his tail rising. The
gypsy moved in a zigzag, and as he passed, the bull caught sight of him and
abandoned the cape to charge the man. The gyp sprinted and vaulted the red
fence of the barrera as the bull struck it with his horns. He tossed into it
twice with his horns, banging into the wood blindly.
The critic of El Heraldo lit a cigarette
and tossed the match at the bull, then wrote in his note-book, “large and with
enough horns to satisfy the cash customers, Campagnero showed a tendency to cut
into the terrane of the bull-fighters.”
Manuel stepped out on the hard sand as the bull
banged into the fence. Out of the corner of his eye he saw Zurito sitting the
white horse close to the barrera, about a quarter of the way around the ring to
the left. Manuel held the cape close in front of him, a fold in each hand, and
shouted at the bull. “Huh! Huh!” The bull turned, seemed to brace against the
fence as he charged in a scramble, driving into the cape as Manuel
side-stepped, pivoted on his heels with the charge of the bull, and swung the cape
just ahead of the horns. At the end of the swing he was facing the bull again
and held the cape in the same position close in front of his body, and pivoted
again as the bull recharged. Each time, as he swung, the crowd shouted.
Four times he swung with the bull, lifting the
cape so it billowed full, and each time bringing the bull around to charge
again. Then, at the end of the fifth swing, he held the cape against his hip
and pivoted, so the cape swung out like a ballet dancer’s skirt and wound the
bull around himself like a belt, to step clear, leaving the bull facing Zurito
on the white horse, come up and planted firm, the horse facing the bull, its
ears forward, its lips nervous, Zurito, his hat over his eyes, leaning forward,
the long pole sticking out before and behind in a sharp angle under his right
arm, held half-way down, the triangular iron point facing the bull.
El Heraldo’s second-string critic, drawing on his
cigarette, his eyes on the bull, wrote: “the veteran Manolo designed a series
of acceptable veronicas, ending in a very Belmontistic recorte that earned
applause from the regulars, and we entered the tercio of the cavalry.”
Zurito sat his horse, measuring the distance
between the bull and the end of the pic. As he looked, the bull gathered
himself together and charged, his eyes on the horse’s chest. As he lowered his
head to hook, Zurito sunk the point of the pic in the swelling hump of muscle
above the bull’s shoulder, leaned all his weight on the shaft, and with his
left hand pulled the white horse into the air, front hoofs pawing, and swung
him to the right as he pushed the bull under and through so the horns passed
safely under the horse’s belly and the horse came down, quivering, the bull’s
tail brushing his chest as he charged the cape Hernandez offered him.
Hernandez ran sideways, taking the bull out and
away with the cape, toward the other picador. He fixed him with a swing of the
cape, squarely facing the horse and rider, and stepped back. As the bull saw
the horse he charged. The picador’s lance slid along his back, and as the shock
of the charge lifted the horse, the picador was already half-way out of the
saddle, lifting his right leg clear as he missed with the lance and falling to
the left side to keep the horse between him and the bull. The horse, lifted and
gored, crashed over with the bull driving into him, the picador gave a shove
with his boots against the horse and lay clear, waiting to be lifted and hauled
away and put on his feet.
Manuel let the bull drive into the fallen
horse; he was in no hurry, the picador was safe; besides, it did a picador like
that good to worry. He’d stay on longer next time. Lousy pics! He looked across
the sand at Zurito a little way out from the barrera, his horse rigid, waiting.
“Huh!” he called to the bull, “Tomar!” holding
the cape in both hands so it would catch his eye. The bull detached himself
from the horse and charged the cape, and Manuel, running sideways and holding
the cape spread wide, stopped, swung on his heels, and brought the bull sharply
around facing Zurito.
“Campagnero accepted a pair of varas for the
death of one rosinante, with Hernandez and Manolo at the quites,” El
Heraldo’s critic wrote. “He pressed on the iron and clearly showed he was
no horse-lover. The veteran Zurito resurrected some of his old stuff with the
pike-pole, notably the suerte——”
“Olé Olé!” the man sitting beside him shouted.
The shout was lost in the roar of the crowd, and he slapped the critic on the
back. The critic looked up to see Zurito, directly below him, leaning far out
over his horse, the length of the pic rising in a sharp angle under his armpit,
holding the pic almost by the point, bearing down with all his weight, holding
the bull off, the bull pushing and driving to get at the horse, and Zurito, far
out, on top of him, holding him, holding him, and slowly pivoting the horse
against the pressure, so that at last he was clear. Zurito felt the moment when
the horse was clear and the bull could come past, and relaxed the absolute
steel lock of his resistance, and the triangular steel point of the pic ripped
in the bull’s hump of shoulder muscle as he tore loose to find Hernandez’s cape
before his muzzle. He charged blindly into the cape and the boy took him out
into the open arena.
Zurito sat patting his horse and looking at the
bull charging the cape that Hernandez swung for him out under the bright light
while the crowd shouted.
“You see that one?” he said to Manuel.
“It was a wonder,” Manuel said.
“I got him that time,” Zurito said. “Look at
him now.”
At the conclusion of a closely turned pass of
the cape the bull slid to his knees. He was up at once, but far out across the
sand Manuel and Zurito saw the shine of the pumping flow of blood, smooth
against the black of the bull’s shoulder.
“I got him that time,” Zurito said.
“He’s a good bull,” Manuel said.
“If they gave me another shot at him, I’d kill
him,” Zurito said.
“They’ll change the thirds on us,” Manuel said.
“Look at him now,” Zurito said.
“I got to go over there,” Manuel said, and
started on a run for the other side of the ring, where the monos were leading a
horse out by the bridle toward the bull, whacking him on the legs with rods and
all, in a procession, trying to get him toward the bull, who stood, dropping
his head, pawing, unable to make up his mind to charge.
Zurito, sitting his horse, walking him toward
the scene, not missing any detail, scowled.
Finally the bull charged, the horse leaders ran
for the barrera, the picador hit too far back, and the bull got under the
horse, lifted him, threw him onto his back.
Zurito watched. The monos, in their red shirts,
running out to drag the picador clear. The picador, now on his feet, swearing
and flopping his arms. Manuel and Hernandez standing ready with their capes.
And the bull, the great, black bull, with a horse on his back, hooves dangling,
the bridle caught in the horns. Black bull with a horse on his back, staggering
short-legged, then arching his neck and lifting, thrusting, charging to slide
the horse off, horse sliding down. Then the bull into a lunging charge at the
cape Manuel spread for him.
The bull was slower now, Manuel felt. He was
bleeding badly. There was a sheen of blood all down his flank.
Manuel offered him the cape again. There he
came, eyes open, ugly, watching the cape. Manuel stepped to the side and raised
his arms, tightening the cape ahead of the bull for the veronica.
Now he was facing the bull. Yes, his head was
going down a little. He was carrying it lower. That was Zurito.
Manuel flopped the cape; there he comes; he
side-stepped and swung in another veronica. He’s shooting awfully accurately,
he thought. He’s had enough fight, so he’s watching now. He’s hunting now. Got
his eye on me. But I always give him the cape.
He shook the cape at the bull; there he comes;
he side-stepped. Awful close that time. I don’t want to work that close to him.
The edge of the cape was wet with blood where
it had swept along the bull’s back as he went by.
All right, here’s the last one.
Manuel, facing the bull, having turned with him
each charge, offered the cape with his two hands. The bull looked at him. Eyes
watching, horns straight forward, the bull looked at him, watching.
“Huh!” Manuel said, “Toro!” and leaning back,
swung the cape forward. Here he comes. He side-stepped, swung the cape in back
of him, and pivoted, so the bull followed a swirl of cape and then was left
with nothing, fixed by the pass, dominated by the cape. Manuel swung the cape
under his muzzle with one hand, to show the bull was fixed, and walked away.
There was no applause.
Manuel walked across the sand toward the
barrera, while Zurito rode out of the ring. The trumpet had blown to change the
act to the planting of the banderillos while Manuel had been working with the
bull. He had not consciously noticed it. The monos were spreading canvas over
the two dead horses and sprinkling sawdust around them.
Manuel came up to the barrera for a drink of
water. Retana’s man handed him the heavy porous jug.
Fuentes, the tall gypsy, was standing holding a
pair of banderillos, holding them together, slim, red sticks, fish-hook points
out. He looked at Manuel.
“Go on out there,” Manuel said.
The gypsy trotted out. Manuel set down the jug
and watched. He wiped his face with his handkerchief.
The critic of El Heraldo reached for the
bottle of warm champagne that stood between his feet, took a drink, and
finished his paragraph.
“—the aged Manolo rated no applause for a
vulgar series of lances with the cape and we entered the third of the palings.”
Alone in the centre of the ring the bull stood,
still fixed. Fuentes, tall, flat-backed, walking toward him arrogantly, his
arms spread out, the two slim, red sticks, one in each hand, held by the
fingers, points straight forward. Fuentes walked forward. Back of him and to
one side was a peon with a cape. The bull looked at him and was no longer
fixed.
His eyes watched Fuentes, now standing still.
Now he leaned back, calling to him. Fuentes twitched the two banderillos and
the light on the steel points caught the bull’s eye.
His tail went up and he charged.
He came straight, his eyes on the man. Fuentes
stood still, leaning back, the banderillos pointing forward. As the bull
lowered his head to hook, Fuentes leaned backward, his arms came together and
rose, his two hands touching, the banderillos two descending red lines, and
leaning forward drove the points into the bull’s shoulder, leaning far in over
the bull’s horns and pivoting on the two upright sticks, his legs tight
together, his body curving to one side to let the bull pass.
“Olé!” from the crowd.
The bull was hooking wildly, jumping like a
trout, all four feet off the ground. The red shaft of the banderillos tossed as
he jumped.
Manuel standing at the barrera, noticed that he
hooked always to the right.
“Tell him to drop the next pair on the right,”
he said to the kid who started to run out to Fuentes with the new banderillos.
A heavy hand fell on his shoulder. It was
Zurito.
“How do you feel, kid?” he asked.
Manuel was watching the bull.
Zurito leaned forward on the barrera, leaning
the weight of his body on his arms. Manuel turned to him.
“You’re going good,” Zurito said.
Manuel shook his head. He had nothing to do now
until the next third. The gypsy was very good with the banderillos. The bull
would come to him in the next third in good shape. He was a good bull. It had
all been easy up to now. The final stuff with the sword was all he worried
over. He did not really worry. He did not even think about it. But standing
there he had a heavy sense of apprehension. He looked out at the bull, planning
his faena, his work with the red cloth that was to reduce the bull, to make him
manageable.
The gypsy was walking out toward the bull
again, walking heel-and-toe, insultingly, like a ball-room dancer, the red
shafts of the banderillos twitching with his walk. The bull watched him, not
fixed now, hunting him, but waiting to get close enough so he could be sure of
getting him, getting the horns into him.
As Fuentes walked forward the bull charged.
Fuentes ran across the quarter of a circle as the bull charged and, as he
passed running backward, stopped, swung forward, rose on his toes, arms
straight out, and sunk the banderillos straight down into the tight of the big
shoulder muscles as the bull missed him.
The crowd were wild about it.
“That kid won’t stay in this night stuff long,”
Retana’s man said to Zurito.
“He’s good,” Zurito said.
“Watch him now.”
They watched.
Fuentes was standing with his back against the
barrera. Two of the cuadrilla were back of him, with their capes ready to flop
over the fence to distract the bull.
The bull, with his tongue out, his barrel
heaving, was watching the gypsy. He thought he had him now. Back against the
red planks. Only a short charge away. The bull watched him.
The gypsy bent back, drew back his arms, the
banderillos pointing at the bull. He called to the bull, stamped one foot. The
bull was suspicious. He wanted the man. No more barbs in the shoulder.
Fuentes walked a little closer to the bull.
Bent back. Called again. Somebody in the crowd shouted a warning.
“He’s too damn close,” Zurito said.
“Watch him,” Retana’s man said.
Leaning back, inciting the bull with the
banderillos, Fuentes jumped, both feet off the ground. As he jumped the bull’s
tail rose and he charged. Fuentes came down on his toes, arms straight out,
whole body arching forward, and drove the shafts straight down as he swung his
body clear of the right horn.
The bull crashed into the barrera where the
flopping capes had attracted his eye as he lost the man.
The gypsy came running along the barrera toward
Manuel, taking the applause of the crowd. His vest was ripped where he had not
quite cleared the point of the horn. He was happy about it, showing it to the
spectators. He made the tour of the ring. Zurito saw him go by, smiling,
pointing at his vest. He smiled.
Somebody else was planting the last pair of
banderillos. Nobody was paying any attention.
Retana’s man tucked a baton inside the red
cloth of a muleta, folded the cloth over it, and handed it over the barrera to
Manuel. He reached in the leather sword-case, took out a sword, and holding it
by its leather scabbard, reached it over the fence to Manuel. Manuel pulled the
blade out by the red hilt and the scabbard fell limp.
He looked at Zurito. The big man saw he was
sweating.
“Now you get him, kid,” Zurito said.
Manuel nodded.
“He’s in good shape,” Zurito said.
“Just like you want him,” Retana’s man assured
him.
Manuel nodded.
The trumpeter, up under the roof, blew for the
final act, and Manuel walked across the arena toward where, up in the dark
boxes, the president must be.
In the front row of seats the substitute
bull-fight critic of El Heraldo took a long drink of the warm champagne.
He had decided it was not worth while to write a running story and would write
up the corrida back in the office. What the hell was it anyway? Only a
nocturnal. If he missed anything he would get it out of the morning papers. He
took another drink of the champagne. He had a date at Maxim’s at twelve. Who
were these bull-fighters anyway? Kids and bums. A bunch of bums. He put his pad
of paper in his pocket and looked over toward Manuel, standing very much alone
in the ring, gesturing with his hat in a salute toward a box he could not see
high up in the dark plaza. Out in the ring the bull stood quiet, looking at
nothing.
“I dedicate this bull to you, Mr. President,
and to the public of Madrid, the most intelligent and generous of the world,”
was what Manuel was saying. It was a formula. He said it all. It was a little
long for nocturnal use.
He bowed at the dark, straightened, tossed his
hat over his shoulder, and, carrying the muleta in his left hand and the sword
in his right, walked out toward the bull.
Manuel walked toward the bull. The bull looked
at him; his eyes were quick. Manuel noticed the way the banderillos hung down
on his left shoulder and the steady sheen of blood from Zurito’s pic-ing. He
noticed the way the bull’s feet were. As he walked forward, holding the muleta
in his left hand and the sword in his right, he watched the bull’s feet. The
bull could not charge without gathering his feet together. Now he stood square
on them, dully.
Manuel walked toward him, watching his feet.
This was all right. He could do this. He must work to get the bull’s head down,
so he could go in past the horns and kill him. He did not think about the
sword, not about killing the bull. He thought about one thing at a time. The
coming things oppressed him, though. Walking forward, watching the bull’s feet,
he saw successively his eyes, his wet muzzle, and the wide, forward-pointing
spread of his horns. The bull had light circles about his eyes. His eyes watched
Manuel. He felt he was going to get this little one with the white face.
Standing still now and spreading the red cloth
of the muleta with the sword, pricking the point into the cloth so that the
sword, now held in his left hand, spread the red flannel like the jib of a
boat, Manuel noticed the points of the bull’s horns. One of them was splintered
from banging against the barrera. The other was sharp as a porcupine quill.
Manuel noticed while spreading the muleta that the white base of the horn was
stained red. While he noticed these things he did not lose sight of the bull’s
feet. The bull watched Manuel steadily.
He’s on the defensive now, Manuel thought. He’s
reserving himself. I’ve got to bring him out of that and get his head down.
Always get his head down. Zurito had his head down once, but he’s come back.
He’ll bleed when I start him going and that will bring it down.
Holding the muleta, with the sword in his left
hand widening it in front of him, he called to the bull.
The bull looked at him.
He leaned back insultingly and shook the
wide-spread flannel.
The bull saw the muleta. It was a bright
scarlet under the arc-light. The bull’s legs tightened.
Here he comes. Whoosh! Manuel turned as the
bull came and raised the muleta so that it passed over the bull’s horns and
swept down his broad back from head to tail. The bull had gone clean up in the
air with the charge. Manuel had not moved.
At the end of the pass the bull turned like a
cat coming around a corner and faced Manuel.
He was on the offensive again. His heaviness
was gone. Manuel noted the fresh blood shining down the black shoulder and
dripping down the bull’s leg. He drew the sword out of the muleta and held it
in his right hand. The muleta held low down in his left hand, leaning toward
the left, he called to the bull. The bull’s legs tightened, his eyes on the
muleta. Here he comes, Manuel thought. Yuh!
He swung with the charge, sweeping the muleta
ahead of the bull, his feet firm, the sword following the curve, a point of
light under the arcs.
The bull recharged as the pase natural finished
and Manuel raised the muleta for a pase de pecho. Firmly planted, the bull came
by his chest under the raised muleta. Manuel leaned his head back to avoid the
clattering banderillo shafts. The hot, black bull body touched his chest as it
passed.
Too damn close, Manuel thought. Zurito, leaning
on the barrera, spoke rapidly to the gypsy, who trotted out toward Manuel with
a cape. Zurito pulled his hat down low and looked out across the arena at
Manuel.
Manuel was facing the bull again, the muleta
held low and to the left. The bull’s head was down as he watched the muleta.
“If it was Belmonte doing that stuff, they’d go
crazy,” Retana’s man said.
Zurito said nothing. He was watching Manuel out
in the centre of the arena.
“Where did the boss dig this fellow up?”
Retana’s man asked.
“Out of the hospital,” Zurito said.
“That’s where he’s going damn quick,” Retana’s
man said.
Zurito turned on him.
“Knock on that,” he said, pointing to the
barrera.
“I was just kidding, man,” Retana’s man said.
“Knock on the wood.”
Retana’s man leaned forward and knocked three
times on the barrera.
“Watch the faena,” Zurito said.
Out in the centre of the ring, under the
lights, Manuel was kneeling, facing the bull, and as he raised the muleta in
both hands the bull charged, tail up.
Manuel swung his body clear and, as the bull
recharged, brought around the muleta in a half-circle that pulled the bull to
his knees.
“Why, that one’s a great bull-fighter,”
Retana’s man said.
“No, he’s not,” said Zurito.
Manuel stood up and, the muleta in his left
hand, the sword in his right, acknowledged the applause from the dark plaza.
The bull had humped himself up from his knees
and stood waiting, his head hung low.
Zurito spoke to two of the other lads of the
cuadrilla and they ran out to stand back of Manuel with their capes. There were
four men back of him now. Hernandez had followed him since he first came out
with the muleta. Fuentes stood watching, his cape held against his body, tall,
in repose, watching lazy-eyed. Now the two came up. Hernandez motioned them to
stand one at each side. Manuel stood alone, facing the bull.
Manuel waved back the men with the capes.
Stepping back cautiously, they saw his face was white and sweating.
Didn’t they know enough to keep back? Did they
want to catch the bull’s eye with the capes after he was fixed and ready? He
had enough to worry about without that kind of thing.
The bull was standing, his four feet square,
looking at the muleta. Manuel furled the muleta in his left hand. The bull’s
eyes watched it. His body was heavy on his feet. He carried his head low, but
not too low.
Manuel lifted the muleta at him. The bull did
not move. Only his eyes watched.
He’s all lead, Manuel thought. He’s all square.
He’s framed right. He’ll take it.
He thought in bull-fight terms. Sometimes he
had a thought and the particular piece of slang would not come into his mind
and he could not realize the thought. His instincts and his knowledge worked
automatically, and his brain worked slowly and in words. He knew all about
bulls. He did not have to think about them. He just did the right thing. His
eyes noted things and his body performed the necessary measures without
thought. If he thought about it, he would be gone.
Now, facing the bull, he was conscious of many
things at the same time. There were the horns, the one splintered, the other
smoothly sharp, the need to profile himself toward the left horn, lance himself
short and straight, lower the muleta so the bull would follow it, and, going in
over the horns, put the sword all the way into a little spot about as big as a
five-peseta piece straight in back of the neck, between the sharp pitch of the
bull’s shoulders. He must do all this and must then come out from between the
horns. He was conscious he must do all this, but his only thought was in words:
“Corto y derecho.”
“Corto y derecho,” he thought, furling the
muleta. Short and straight. Corto y derecho, he drew the sword out of the
muleta, profiled on the splintered left horn, dropped the muleta across his
body, so his right hand with the sword on the level with his eye made the sign
of the cross, and, rising on his toes, sighted along the dipping blade of the
sword at the spot high up between the bull’s shoulders.
Corto y derecho he lanced himself on the bull.
There was a shock, and he felt himself go up in
the air. He pushed on the sword as he went up and over, and it flew out of his
hand. He hit the ground and the bull was on him. Manuel, lying on the ground,
kicked at the bull’s muzzle with his slippered feet. Kicking, kicking, the bull
after him, missing him in his excitement, bumping him with his head, driving
the horns into the sand. Kicking like a man keeping a ball in the air, Manuel
kept the bull from getting a clean thrust at him.
Manuel felt the wind on his back from the capes
flopping at the bull, and then the bull was gone, gone over him in a rush.
Dark, as his belly went over. Not even stepped on.
Manuel stood up and picked up the muleta.
Fuentes handed him the sword. It was bent where it had struck the
shoulder-blade. Manuel straightened it on his knee and ran toward the bull,
standing now beside one of the dead horses. As he ran, his jacket flopped where
it had been ripped under his armpit.
“Get him out of there,” Manuel shouted to the
gypsy. The bull had smelled the blood of the dead horse and ripped into the
canvas-cover with his horns. He charged Fuentes’s cape, with the canvas hanging
from his splintered horn, and the crowd laughed. Out in the ring, he tossed his
head to rid himself of the canvas. Hernandez, running up from behind him,
grabbed the end of the canvas and neatly lifted it off the horn.
The bull followed it in a half-charge and
stopped still. He was on the defensive again. Manuel was walking toward him
with the sword and muleta. Manuel swung the muleta before him. The bull would
not charge.
Manuel profiled toward the bull, sighting along
the dipping blade of the sword. The bull was motionless, seemingly dead on his
feet, incapable of another charge.
Manuel rose to his toes, sighting along the
steel, and charged.
Again there was the shock and he felt himself
being borne back in a rush, to strike hard on the sand. There was no chance of
kicking this time. The bull was on top of him. Manuel lay as though dead, his
head on his arms, and the bull bumped him. Bumped his back, bumped his face in
the sand. He felt the horn go into the sand between his folded arms. The bull
hit him in the small of the back. His face drove into the sand. The horn drove
through one of his sleeves and the bull ripped it off. Manuel was tossed clear
and the bull followed the capes.
Manuel got up, found the sword and muleta,
tried the point of the sword with his thumb, and then ran toward the barrera
for a new sword.
Retana’s man handed him the sword over the edge
of the barrera.
“Wipe off your face,” he said.
Manuel, running again toward the bull, wiped
his bloody face with his handkerchief. He had not seen Zurito. Where was
Zurito?
The cuadrilla had stepped away from the bull
and waited with their capes. The bull stood, heavy and dull again after the
action.
Manuel walked toward him with the muleta. He
stopped and shook it. The bull did not respond. He passed it right and left,
left and right before the bull’s muzzle. The bull’s eyes watched it and turned
with the swing, but he would not charge. He was waiting for Manuel.
Manuel was worried. There was nothing to do but
go in. Corto y derecho. He profiled close to the bull, crossed the muleta in
front of his body and charged. As he pushed in the sword, he jerked his body to
the left to clear the horn. The bull passed him and the sword shot up in the
air, twinkling under the arc-lights, to fall red-hilted on the sand.
Manuel ran over and picked it up. It was bent
and he straightened it over his knee.
As he came running toward the bull, fixed again
now, he passed Hernandez standing with his cape.
“He’s all bone,” the boy said encouragingly.
Manuel nodded, wiping his face. He put the
bloody handkerchief in his pocket.
There was the bull. He was close to the barrera
now. Damn him. Maybe he was all bone. Maybe there was not any place for the
sword to go in. The hell there wasn’t! He’d show them.
He tried a pass with the muleta and the bull
did not move. Manuel chopped the muleta back and forth in front of the bull.
Nothing doing.
He furled the muleta, drew the sword out,
profiled and drove in on the bull. He felt the sword buckle as he shoved it in,
leaning his weight on it, and then it shot high in the air, end-over-ending
into the crowd. Manuel had jerked clear as the sword jumped.
The first cushions thrown down out of the dark
missed him. Then one hit him in the face, his bloody face looking toward the
crowd. They were coming down fast. Spotting the sand. Somebody threw an empty
champagne-bottle from close range. It hit Manuel on the foot. He stood there
watching the dark, where the things were coming from. Then something whished
through the air and struck by him. Manuel leaned over and picked it up. It was
his sword. He straightened it over his knee and gestured with it to the crowd.
“Thank you,” he said. “Thank you.”
Oh, the dirty bastards! Dirty bastards! Oh, the
lousy, dirty bastards! He kicked into a cushion as he ran.
There was the bull. The same as ever. All
right, you dirty, lousy bastard!
Manuel passed the muleta in front of the bull’s
black muzzle.
Nothing doing.
You won’t! All right. He stepped close and
jammed the sharp peak of the muleta into the bull’s damp muzzle.
The bull was on him as he jumped back and as he
tripped on a cushion he felt the horn go into him, into his side. He grabbed
the horn with his two hands and rode backward, holding tight onto the place.
The bull tossed him and he was clear. He lay still. It was all right. The bull
was gone.
He got up coughing and feeling broken and gone.
The dirty bastards!
“Give me the sword,” he shouted. “Give me the
stuff.”
Fuentes came up with the muleta and the sword.
Hernandez put his arm around him.
“Go on to the infirmary, man,” he said. “Don’t
be a damn fool.”
“Get away from me,” Manuel said. “Get to hell
away from me.”
He twisted free. Hernandez shrugged his
shoulders. Manuel ran toward the bull.
There was the bull standing, heavy, firmly
planted.
All right, you bastard! Manuel drew the sword
out of the muleta, sighted with the same movement, and flung himself onto the
bull. He felt the sword go in all the way. Right up to the guard. Four fingers
and his thumb into the bull. The blood was hot on his knuckles, and he was on
top of the bull.
The bull lurched with him as he lay on, and
seemed to sink; then he was standing clear. He looked at the bull going down
slowly over on his side, then suddenly four feet in the air.
Then he gestured at the crowd, his hand warm
from the bull blood.
All right, you bastards! He wanted to say
something, but he started to cough. It was hot and choking. He looked down for
the muleta. He must go over and salute the president. President hell! He was
sitting down looking at something. It was the bull. His four feet up. Thick
tongue out. Things crawling around on his belly and under his legs. Crawling
where the hair was thin. Dead bull. To hell with the bull! To hell with them
all! He started to get to his feet and commenced to cough. He sat down again,
coughing. Somebody came and pushed him up.
They carried him across the ring to the
infirmary, running with him across the sand, standing blocked at the gate as
the mules came in, then around under the dark passageway, men grunting as they
took him up the stairway, and then laid him down.
The doctor and two men in white were waiting
for him. They laid him out on the table. They were cutting away his shirt.
Manuel felt tired. His whole chest felt scalding inside. He started to cough
and they held something to his mouth. Everybody was very busy.
There was an electric light in his eyes. He
shut his eyes.
He heard some one coming very heavily up the
stairs. Then he did not hear it. Then he heard a noise far off. That was the
crowd. Well, somebody would have to kill his other bull. They had cut away all
his shirt. The doctor smiled at him. There was Retana.
“Hello, Retana!” Manuel said. He could not hear
his voice.
Retana smiled at him and said something. Manuel
could not hear it.
Zurito stood beside the table, bending over
where the doctor was working. He was in his picador clothes, without his hat.
Zurito said something to him. Manuel could not
hear it.
Zurito was speaking to Retana. One of the men
in white smiled and handed Retana a pair of scissors. Retana gave them to
Zurito. Zurito said something to Manuel. He could not hear it.
To hell with this operating-table! He’d been on
plenty of operating-tables before. He was not going to die. There would be a
priest if he was going to die.
Zurito was saying something to him. Holding up
the scissors.
That was it. They were going to cut off his
coleta. They were going to cut off his pigtail.
Manuel sat up on the operating-table. The
doctor stepped back, angry. Some one grabbed him and held him.
“You couldn’t do a thing like that, Manos,” he
said.
He heard suddenly, clearly, Zurito’s voice.
“That’s all right,” Zurito said. “I won’t do
it. I was joking.”
“I was going good,” Manuel said. “I didn’t have
any luck. That was all.”
Manuel lay back. They had put something over
his face. It was all familiar. He inhaled deeply. He felt very tired. He was
very, very tired. They took the thing away from his face.
“I was going good,” Manuel said weakly. “I was
going great.”
Retana looked at Zurito and started for the
door.
“I’ll stay here with him,” Zurito said.
Retana shrugged his shoulders.
Manuel opened his eyes and looked at Zurito.
“Wasn’t I going good, Manos?” he asked, for
confirmation.
“Sure,” said Zurito. “You were going great.”
The doctor’s assistant put the cone over
Manuel’s face and he inhaled deeply. Zurito stood awkwardly, watching.
IN ANOTHER COUNTRY
In the fall the war was always there, but we
did not go to it any more. It was cold in the fall in Milan and the dark came
very early. Then the electric lights came on, and it was pleasant along the
streets looking in the windows. There was much game hanging outside the shops,
and the snow powdered in the fur of the foxes and the wind blew their tails.
The deer hung stiff and heavy and empty, and small birds blew in the wind and
the wind turned their feathers. It was a cold fall and the wind came down from the
mountains.
We were all at the hospital every afternoon,
and there were different ways of walking across the town through the dusk to
the hospital. Two of the ways were alongside canals, but they were long.
Always, though, you crossed a bridge across a canal to enter the hospital.
There was a choice of three bridges. On one of them a woman sold roasted
chestnuts. It was warm, standing in front of her charcoal fire, and the
chestnuts were warm afterward in your pocket. The hospital was very old and
very beautiful, and you entered through a gate and walked across a courtyard
and out a gate on the other side. There were usually funerals starting from the
courtyard. Beyond the old hospital were the new brick pavilions, and there we
met every afternoon and were all very polite and interested in what was the
matter, and sat in the machines that were to make so much difference.
The doctor came up to the machine where I was
sitting and said: “What did you like best to do before the war? Did you
practise a sport?”
I said: “Yes, football.”
“Good,” he said. “You will be able to play
football again better than ever.”
My knee did not bend and the leg dropped
straight from the knee to the ankle without a calf, and the machine was to bend
the knee and make it move as in riding a tricycle. But it did not bend yet, and
instead the machine lurched when it came to the bending part. The doctor said:
“That will all pass. You are a fortunate young man. You will play football
again like a champion.”
In the next machine was a major who had a
little hand like a baby’s. He winked at me when the doctor examined his hand,
which was between two leather straps that bounced up and down and flapped the
stiff fingers, and said: “And will I too play football, captain-doctor?” He had
been a very great fencer, and before the war the greatest fencer in Italy.
The doctor went to his office in a back room
and brought a photograph which showed a hand that had been withered almost as
small as the major’s, before it had taken a machine course, and after was a
little larger. The major held the photograph with his good hand and looked at
it very carefully. “A wound?” he asked.
“An industrial accident,” the doctor said.
“Very interesting, very interesting,” the major
said, and handed it back to the doctor.
“You have confidence?”
“No,” said the major.
There were three boys who came each day who
were about the same age I was. They were all three from Milan, and one of them
was to be a lawyer, and one was to be a painter, and one had intended to be a
soldier, and after we were finished with the machines, sometimes we walked back
together to the Café Cova, which was next door to the Scala. We walked the
short way through the communist quarter because we were four together. The
people hated us because we were officers, and from a wine-shop some one would
call out, “A basso gli ufficiali!” as we passed. Another boy who walked with us
sometimes and made us five wore a black silk handkerchief across his face
because he had no nose then and his face was to be rebuilt. He had gone out to
the front from the military academy and been wounded within an hour after he
had gone into the front line for the first time. They rebuilt his face, but he
came from a very old family and they could never get the nose exactly right. He
went to South America and worked in a bank. But this was a long time ago, and
then we did not any of us know how it was going to be afterward. We only knew
then that there was always the war, but that we were not going to it any more.
We all had the same medals, except the boy with
the black silk bandage across his face, and he had not been at the front long
enough to get any medals. The tall boy with a very pale face who was to be a
lawyer had been a lieutenant of Arditi and had three medals of the sort we each
had only one of. He had lived a very long time with death and was a little
detached. We were all a little detached, and there was nothing that held us
together except that we met every afternoon at the hospital. Although, as we walked
to the Cova through the tough part of town, walking in the dark, with light and
singing coming out of the wine-shops, and sometimes having to walk into the
street when the men and women would crowd together on the sidewalk so that we
would have had to jostle them to get by, we felt held together by there being
something that had happened that they, the people who disliked us, did not
understand.
We ourselves all understood the Cova, where it
was rich and warm and not too brightly lighted, and noisy and smoky at certain
hours, and there were always girls at the tables and the illustrated papers on
a rack on the wall. The girls at the Cova were very patriotic, and I found that
the most patriotic people in Italy were the café girls—and I believe they are
still patriotic.
The boys at first were very polite about my
medals and asked me what I had done to get them. I showed them the papers,
which were written in very beautiful language and full of fratellanza
and abnegazione, but which really said, with the adjectives removed,
that I had been given the medals because I was an American. After that their
manner changed a little toward me, although I was their friend against
outsiders. I was a friend, but I was never really one of them after they had
read the citations, because it had been different with them and they had done
very different things to get their medals. I had been wounded, it was true; but
we all knew that being wounded, after all, was really an accident. I was never
ashamed of the ribbons, though, and sometimes, after the cocktail hour, I would
imagine myself having done all the things they had done to get their medals;
but walking home at night through the empty streets with the cold wind and all
the shops closed, trying to keep near the street lights, I knew that I would
never have done such things, and I was very much afraid to die, and often lay
in bed at night by myself, afraid to die and wondering how I would be when I
went back to the front again.
The three with the medals were like
hunting-hawks; and I was not a hawk, although I might seem a hawk to those who
had never hunted; they, the three, knew better and so we drifted apart. But I
stayed good friends with the boy who had been wounded his first day at the
front, because he would never know now how he would have turned out; so he
could never be accepted either, and I liked him because I thought perhaps he
would not have turned out to be a hawk either.
The major, who had been the great fencer, did
not believe in bravery, and spent much time while we sat in the machines
correcting my grammar. He had complimented me on how I spoke Italian, and we
talked together very easily. One day I had said that Italian seemed such an
easy language to me that I could not take a great interest in it; everything
was so easy to say. “Ah, yes,” the major said. “Why, then, do you not take up
the use of grammar?” So we took up the use of grammar, and soon Italian was
such a difficult language that I was afraid to talk to him until I had the
grammar straight in my mind.
The major came very regularly to the hospital.
I do not think he ever missed a day, although I am sure he did not believe in
the machines. There was a time when none of us believed in the machines, and
one day the major said it was all nonsense. The machines were new then and it
was we who were to prove them. It was an idiotic idea, he said, “a theory, like
another.” I had not learned my grammar, and he said I was a stupid impossible
disgrace, and he was a fool to have bothered with me. He was a small man and he
sat straight up in his chair with his right hand thrust into the machine and
looked straight ahead at the wall while the straps thumped up and down with his
fingers in them.
“What will you do when the war is over if it is
over?” he asked me. “Speak grammatically!”
“I will go to the States.”
“Are you married?”
“No, but I hope to be.”
“The more of a fool you are,” he said. He
seemed very angry. “A man must not marry.”
“Why, Signor Maggiore?”
“Don’t call me ‘Signor Maggiore.’ ”
“Why must not a man marry?”
“He cannot marry. He cannot marry,” he said
angrily. “If he is to lose everything, he should not place himself in a
position to lose that. He should not place himself in a position to lose. He
should find things he cannot lose.”
He spoke very angrily and bitterly, and looked
straight ahead while he talked.
“But why should he necessarily lose it?”
“He’ll lose it,” the major said. He was looking
at the wall. Then he looked down at the machine and jerked his little hand out
from between the straps and slapped it hard against his thigh. “He’ll lose it,”
he almost shouted. “Don’t argue with me!” Then he called to the attendant who
ran the machines. “Come and turn this damned thing off.”
He went back into the other room for the light
treatment and the massage. Then I heard him ask the doctor if he might use his
telephone and he shut the door. When he came back into the room, I was sitting
in another machine. He was wearing his cape and had his cap on, and he came
directly toward my machine and put his arm on my shoulder.
“I am so sorry,” he said, and patted me on the
shoulder with his good hand. “I would not be rude. My wife has just died. You
must forgive me.”
“Oh—” I said, feeling sick for him. “I am so
sorry.”
He stood there biting his lower lip. “It is
very difficult,” he said. “I cannot resign myself.”
He looked straight past me and out through the
window. Then he began to cry. “I am utterly unable to resign myself,” he said
and choked. And then crying, his head up looking at nothing, carrying himself
straight and soldierly, with tears on both his cheeks and biting his lips, he
walked past the machines and out the door.
The doctor told me that the major’s wife, who
was very young and whom he had not married until he was definitely invalided
out of the war, had died of pneumonia. She had been sick only a few days. No
one expected her to die. The major did not come to the hospital for three days.
Then he came at the usual hour, wearing a black band on the sleeve of his
uniform. When he came back, there were large framed photographs around the
wall, of all sorts of wounds before and after they had been cured by the machines.
In front of the machine the major used were three photographs of hands like his
that were completely restored. I do not know where the doctor got them. I
always understood we were the first to use the machines. The photographs did
not make much difference to the major because he only looked out of the window.
HILLS LIKE WHITE ELEPHANTS
The hills across the valley of the Ebro were
long and white. On this side there was no shade and no trees and the station
was between two lines of rails in the sun. Close against the side of the
station there was the warm shadow of the building and a curtain, made of
strings of bamboo beads, hung across the open door into the bar, to keep out
flies. The American and the girl with him sat at a table in the shade, outside
the building. It was very hot and the express from Barcelona would come in
forty minutes. It stopped at this junction for two minutes and went on to
Madrid.
“What should we drink?” the girl asked. She had
taken off her hat and put it on the table.
“It’s pretty hot,” the man said.
“Let’s drink beer.”
“Dos cervezas,” the man said into the curtain.
“Big ones?” a woman asked from the doorway.
“Yes. Two big ones.”
The woman brought two glasses of beer and two
felt pads. She put the felt pads and the beer glasses on the table and looked
at the man and the girl. The girl was looking off at the line of hills. They
were white in the sun and the country was brown and dry.
“They look like white elephants,” she said.
“I’ve never seen one,” the man drank his beer.
“No, you wouldn’t have.”
“I might have,” the man said. “Just because you
say I wouldn’t have doesn’t prove anything.”
The girl looked at the bead curtain. “They’ve
painted something on it,” she said. “What does it say?”
“Anis del Toro. It’s a drink.”
“Could we try it?”
The man called “Listen” through the curtain.
The woman came out from the bar.
“Four reales.”
“We want two Anis del Toro.”
“With water?”
“Do you want it with water?”
“I don’t know,” the girl said. “Is it good with
water?”
“It’s all right.”
“You want them with water?” asked the woman.
“Yes, with water.”
“It tastes like licorice,” the girl said and
put the glass down.
“That’s the way with everything.”
“Yes,” said the girl. “Everything tastes of
licorice. Especially all the things you’ve waited so long for, like absinthe.”
“Oh, cut it out.”
“You started it,” the girl said. “I was being
amused. I was having a fine time.”
“Well, let’s try and have a fine time.”
“All right. I was trying. I said the mountains
looked like white elephants. Wasn’t that bright?”
“That was bright.”
“I wanted to try this new drink. That’s all we
do, isn’t it—look at things and try new drinks?”
“I guess so.”
The girl looked across at the hills.
“They’re lovely hills,” she said. “They don’t
really look like white elephants. I just meant the coloring of their skin
through the trees.”
“Should we have another drink?”
“All right.”
The warm wind blew the bead curtain against the
table.
“The beer’s nice and cool,” the man said.
“It’s lovely,” the girl said.
“It’s really an awfully simple operation, Jig,”
the man said. “It’s not really an operation at all.”
The girl looked at the ground the table legs
rested on.
“I know you wouldn’t mind it, Jig. It’s really
not anything. It’s just to let the air in.”
The girl did not say anything.
“I’ll go with you and I’ll stay with you all
the time. They just let the air in and then it’s all perfectly natural.”
“Then what will we do afterward?”
“We’ll be fine afterward. Just like we were
before.”
“What makes you think so?”
“That’s the only thing that bothers us. It’s
the only thing that’s made us unhappy.”
The girl looked at the bead curtain, put her
hand out and took hold of two of the strings of beads.
“And you think then we’ll be all right and be
happy.”
“I know we will. You don’t have to be afraid.
I’ve known lots of people that have done it.”
“So have I,” said the girl. “And afterward they
were all so happy.”
“Well,” the man said, “if you don’t want to you
don’t have to. I wouldn’t have you do it if you didn’t want to. But I know it’s
perfectly simple.”
“And you really want to?”
“I think it’s the best thing to do. But I don’t
want you to do it if you don’t really want to.”
“And if I do it you’ll be happy and things will
be like they were and you’ll love me?”
“I love you now. You know I love you.”
“I know. But if I do it, then it will be nice
again if I say things are like white elephants, and you’ll like it?”
“I’ll love it. I love it now but I just can’t
think about it. You know how I get when I worry.”
“If I do it you won’t ever worry?”
“I won’t worry about that because it’s
perfectly simple.”
“Then I’ll do it. Because I don’t care about
me.”
“What do you mean?”
“I don’t care about me.”
“Well, I care about you.”
“Oh, yes. But I don’t care about me. And I’ll
do it and then everything will be fine.”
“I don’t want you to do it if you feel that
way.”
The girl stood up and walked to the end of the
station. Across, on the other side, were fields of grain and trees along the
banks of the Ebro. Far away, beyond the river, were mountains. The shadow of a
cloud moved across the field of grain and she saw the river through the trees.
“And we could have all this,” she said. “And we
could have everything and every day we make it more impossible.”
“What did you say?”
“I said we could have everything.”
“We can have everything.”
“No, we can’t.”
“We can have the whole world.”
“No, we can’t.”
“We can go everywhere.”
“No, we can’t. It isn’t ours any more.”
“It’s ours.”
“No, it isn’t. And once they take it away, you
never get it back.”
“But they haven’t taken it away.”
“We’ll wait and see.”
“Come on back in the shade,” he said. “You
mustn’t feel that way.”
“I don’t feel any way,” the girl said. “I just
know things.”
“I don’t want you to do anything that you don’t
want to do——”
“Nor that isn’t good for me,” she said. “I
know. Could we have another beer?”
“All right. But you’ve got to realize——”
“I realize,” the girl said. “Can’t we maybe
stop talking?”
They sat down at the table and the girl looked
across at the hills on the dry side of the valley and the man looked at her and
at the table.
“You’ve got to realize,” he said, “that I don’t
want you to do it if you don’t want to. I’m perfectly willing to go through
with it if it means anything to you.”
“Doesn’t it mean anything to you? We could get
along.”
“Of course it does. But I don’t want anybody
but you. I don’t want any one else. And I know it’s perfectly simple.”
“Yes, you know it’s perfectly simple.”
“It’s all right for you to say that, but I do
know it.”
“Would you do something for me now?”
“I’d do anything for you.”
“Would you please please please please please
please please stop talking?”
He did not say anything but looked at the bags
against the wall of the station. There were labels on them from all the hotels
where they had spent nights.
“But I don’t want you to,” he said, “I don’t
care anything about it.”
“I’ll scream,” the girl said.
The woman came out through the curtains with
two glasses of beer and put them down on the damp felt pads. “The train comes
in five minutes,” she said.
“What did she say?” asked the girl.
“That the train is coming in five minutes.”
The girl smiled brightly at the woman, to thank
her.
“I’d better take the bags over to the other
side of the station,” the man said. She smiled at him.
“All right. Then come back and we’ll finish the
beer.”
He picked up the two heavy bags and carried
them around the station to the other tracks. He looked up the tracks but could
not see the train. Coming back, he walked through the barroom, where people
waiting for the train were drinking. He drank an Anis at the bar and looked at
the people. They were all waiting reasonably for the train. He went out through
the bead curtain. She was sitting at the table and smiled at him.
“Do you feel better?” he asked.
“I feel fine,” she said. “There’s nothing wrong
with me. I feel fine.”
THE KILLERS
The door of Henry’s lunch-room opened and two
men came in. They sat down at the counter.
“What’s yours?” George asked them.
“I don’t know,” one of the men said. “What do
you want to eat, Al?”
“I don’t know,” said Al. “I don’t know what I
want to eat.”
Outside it was getting dark. The street-light
came on outside the window. The two men at the counter read the menu. From the
other end of the counter Nick Adams watched them. He had been talking to George
when they came in.
“I’ll have a roast pork tenderloin with apple
sauce and mashed potatoes,” the first man said.
“It isn’t ready yet.”
“What the hell do you put it on the card for?”
“That’s the dinner,” George explained. “You can
get that at six o’clock.”
George looked at the clock on the wall behind
the counter.
“It’s five o’clock.”
“The clock says twenty minutes past five,” the
second man said.
“It’s twenty minutes fast.”
“Oh, to hell with the clock,” the first man
said. “What have you got to eat?”
“I can give you any kind of sandwiches,” George
said. “You can have ham and eggs, bacon and eggs, liver and bacon, or a steak.”
“Give me chicken croquettes with green peas and
cream sauce and mashed potatoes.”
“That’s the dinner.”
“Everything we want’s the dinner, eh? That’s
the way you work it.”
“I can give you ham and eggs, bacon and eggs,
liver——”
“I’ll take ham and eggs,” the man called Al
said. He wore a derby hat and a black overcoat buttoned across the chest. His
face was small and white and he had tight lips. He wore a silk muffler and
gloves.
“Give me bacon and eggs,” said the other man.
He was about the same size as Al. Their faces were different, but they were
dressed like twins. Both wore overcoats too tight for them. They sat leaning
forward, their elbows on the counter.
“Got anything to drink?” Al asked.
“Silver beer, bevo, ginger-ale,” George said.
“I mean you got anything to drink?”
“Just those I said.”
“This is a hot town,” said the other. “What do
they call it?”
“Summit.”
“Ever hear of it?” Al asked his friend.
“No,” said the friend.
“What do you do here nights?” Al asked.
“They eat the dinner,” his friend said. “They
all come here and eat the big dinner.”
“That’s right,” George said.
“So you think that’s right?” Al asked George.
“Sure.”
“You’re a pretty bright boy, aren’t you?”
“Sure,” said George.
“Well, you’re not,” said the other little man.
“Is he, Al?”
“He’s dumb,” said Al. He turned to Nick.
“What’s your name?”
“Adams.”
“Another bright boy,” Al said. “Ain’t he a
bright boy, Max?”
“The town’s full of bright boys,” Max said.
George put the two platters, one of ham and
eggs, the other of bacon and eggs, on the counter. He set down two side-dishes
of fried potatoes and closed the wicket into the kitchen.
“Which is yours?” he asked Al.
“Don’t you remember?”
“Ham and eggs.”
“Just a bright boy,” Max said. He leaned
forward and took the ham and eggs. Both men ate with their gloves on. George
watched them eat.
“What are you looking at?” Max looked at
George.
“Nothing.”
“The hell you were. You were looking at me.”
“Maybe the boy meant it for a joke, Max,” Al
said.
George laughed.
“You don’t have to laugh,” Max said to
him. “You don’t have to laugh at all, see?”
“All right,” said George.
“So he thinks it’s all right.” Max turned to
Al. “He thinks it’s all right. That’s a good one.”
“Oh, he’s a thinker,” Al said. They went on
eating.
“What’s the bright boy’s name down the
counter?” Al asked Max.
“Hey, bright boy,” Max said to Nick. “You go
around on the other side of the counter with your boy friend.”
“What’s the idea?” Nick asked.
“There isn’t any idea.”
“You better go around, bright boy,” Al said.
Nick went around behind the counter.
“What’s the idea?” George asked.
“None of your damn business,” Al said. “Who’s
out in the kitchen?”
“The nigger.”
“What do you mean the nigger?”
“The nigger that cooks.”
“Tell him to come in.”
“What’s the idea?”
“Tell him to come in.”
“Where do you think you are?”
“We know damn well where we are,” the man
called Max said. “Do we look silly?”
“You talk silly,” Al said to him. “What the
hell do you argue with this kid for? Listen,” he said to George, “tell the
nigger to come out here.”
“What are you going to do to him?”
“Nothing. Use your head, bright boy. What would
we do to a nigger?”
George opened the slit that opened back into
the kitchen. “Sam,” he called. “Come in here a minute.”
The door to the kitchen opened and the nigger
came in. “What was it?” he asked. The two men at the counter took a look at
him.
“All right, nigger. You stand right there,” Al
said.
Sam, the nigger, standing in his apron, looked
at the two men sitting at the counter. “Yes, sir,” he said. Al got down from
his stool.
“I’m going back to the kitchen with the nigger
and bright boy,” he said. “Go on back to the kitchen, nigger. You go with him,
bright boy.” The little man walked after Nick and Sam, the cook, back into the
kitchen. The door shut after them. The man called Max sat at the counter
opposite George. He didn’t look at George but looked in the mirror that ran
along back of the counter. Henry’s had been made over from a saloon into a
lunch-counter.
“Well, bright boy,” Max said, looking into the
mirror, “why don’t you say something?”
“What’s it all about?”
“Hey, Al,” Max called, “bright boy wants to
know what it’s all about.”
“Why don’t you tell him?” Al’s voice came from
the kitchen.
“What do you think it’s all about?”
“I don’t know.”
“What do you think?”
Max looked into the mirror all the time he was
talking.
“I wouldn’t say.”
“Hey, Al, bright boy says he wouldn’t say what
he thinks it’s all about.”
“I can hear you, all right,” Al said from the
kitchen. He had propped open the slit that dishes passed through into the
kitchen with a catsup bottle. “Listen, bright boy,” he said from the kitchen to
George. “Stand a little further along the bar. You move a little to the left,
Max.” He was like a photographer arranging for a group picture.
“Talk to me, bright boy,” Max said. “What do
you think’s going to happen?”
George did not say anything.
“I’ll tell you,” Max said. “We’re going to kill
a Swede. Do you know a big Swede named Ole Andreson?”
“Yes.”
“He comes here to eat every night, don’t he?”
“Sometimes he comes here.”
“He comes here at six o’clock, don’t he?”
“If he comes.”
“We know all that, bright boy,” Max said. “Talk
about something else. Ever go to the movies?”
“Once in a while.”
“You ought to go to the movies more. The movies
are fine for a bright boy like you.”
“What are you going to kill Ole Andreson for?
What did he ever do to you?”
“He never had a chance to do anything to us. He
never even seen us.”
“And he’s only going to see us once,” Al said
from the kitchen.
“What are you going to kill him for, then?”
George asked.
“We’re killing him for a friend. Just to oblige
a friend, bright boy.”
“Shut up,” said Al from the kitchen. “You talk
too goddam much.”
“Well, I got to keep bright boy amused. Don’t
I, bright boy?”
“You talk too damn much,” Al said. “The nigger
and my bright boy are amused by themselves. I got them tied up like a couple of
girl friends in the convent.”
“I suppose you were in a convent.”
“You never know.”
“You were in a kosher convent. That’s where you
were.”
George looked up at the clock.
“If anybody comes in you tell them the cook is
off, and if they keep after it, you tell them you’ll go back and cook yourself.
Do you get that, bright boy?”
“All right,” George said. “What you going to do
with us afterward?”
“That’ll depend,” Max said. “That’s one of
those things you never know at the time.”
George looked up at the clock. It was a quarter
past six. The door from the street opened. A street-car motorman came in.
“Hello, George,” he said. “Can I get supper?”
“Sam’s gone out,” George said. “He’ll be back
in about half an hour.”
“I’d better go up the street,” the motorman
said. George looked at the clock. It was twenty minutes past six.
“That was nice, bright boy,” Max said. “You’re
a regular little gentleman.”
“He knew I’d blow his head off,” Al said from
the kitchen.
“No,” said Max. “It ain’t that. Bright boy is
nice. He’s a nice boy. I like him.”
At six-fifty-five George said: “He’s not
coming.”
Two other people had been in the lunch-room.
Once George had gone out to the kitchen and made a ham-and-egg sandwich “to go”
that a man wanted to take with him. Inside the kitchen he saw Al, his derby hat
tipped back, sitting on a stool beside the wicket with the muzzle of a
sawed-off shotgun resting on the ledge. Nick and the cook were back to back in
the corner, a towel tied in each of their mouths. George had cooked the
sandwich, wrapped it up in oiled paper, put it in a bag, brought it in, and the
man had paid for it and gone out.
“Bright boy can do everything,” Max said. “He
can cook and everything. You’d make some girl a nice wife, bright boy.”
“Yes?” George said. “Your friend, Ole Andreson,
isn’t going to come.”
“We’ll give him ten minutes,” Max said.
Max watched the mirror and the clock. The hands
of the clock marked seven o’clock, and then five minutes past seven.
“Come on, Al,” said Max. “We better go. He’s
not coming.”
“Better give him five minutes,” Al said from
the kitchen.
In the five minutes a man came in, and George
explained that the cook was sick.
“Why the hell don’t you get another cook?” the
man asked. “Aren’t you running a lunch-counter?” He went out.
“Come on, Al,” Max said.
“What about the two bright boys and the
nigger?”
“They’re all right.”
“You think so?”
“Sure. We’re through with it.”
“I don’t like it,” said Al. “It’s sloppy. You
talk too much.”
“Oh, what the hell,” said Max. “We got to keep
amused, haven’t we?”
“You talk too much, all the same,” Al said. He
came out from the kitchen. The cut-off barrels of the shotgun made a slight
bulge under the waist of his too tight-fitting overcoat. He straightened his
coat with his gloved hands.
“So long, bright boy,” he said to George. “You
got a lot of luck.”
“That’s the truth,” Max said. “You ought to
play the races, bright boy.”
The two of them went out the door. George
watched them, through the window, pass under the arc-light and cross the
street. In their tight overcoats and derby hats they looked like a vaudeville
team. George went back through the swinging-door into the kitchen and untied
Nick and the cook.
“I don’t want any more of that,” said Sam, the
cook. “I don’t want any more of that.”
Nick stood up. He had never had a towel in his
mouth before.
“Say,” he said. “What the hell?” He was trying
to swagger it off.
“They were going to kill Ole Andreson,” George
said. “They were going to shoot him when he came in to eat.”
“Ole Andreson?”
“Sure.”
The cook felt the corners of his mouth with his
thumbs.
“They all gone?” he asked.
“Yeah,” said George. “They’re gone now.”
“I don’t like it,” said the cook. “I don’t like
any of it at all.”
“Listen,” George said to Nick. “You better go
see Ole Andreson.”
“All right.”
“You better not have anything to do with it at
all,” Sam, the cook, said. “You better stay way out of it.”
“Don’t go if you don’t want to,” George said.
“Mixing up in this ain’t going to get you
anywhere,” the cook said. “You stay out of it.”
“I’ll go see him,” Nick said to George. “Where
does he live?”
The cook turned away.
“Little boys always know what they want to do,”
he said.
“He lives up at Hirsch’s rooming-house,” George
said to Nick.
“I’ll go up there.”
Outside the arc-light shone through the bare
branches of a tree. Nick walked up the street beside the car-tracks and turned
at the next arc-light down a side-street. Three houses up the street was
Hirsch’s rooming-house. Nick walked up the two steps and pushed the bell. A
woman came to the door.
“Is Ole Andreson here?”
“Do you want to see him?”
“Yes, if he’s in.”
Nick followed the woman up a flight of stairs
and back to the end of a corridor. She knocked on the door.
“Who is it?”
“It’s somebody to see you, Mr. Andreson,” the
woman said.
“It’s Nick Adams.”
“Come in.”
Nick opened the door and went into the room.
Ole Andreson was lying on the bed with all his clothes on. He had been a
heavyweight prizefighter and he was too long for the bed. He lay with his head
on two pillows. He did not look at Nick.
“What was it?” he asked.
“I was up at Henry’s,” Nick said, “and two
fellows came in and tied up me and the cook, and they said they were going to
kill you.”
It sounded silly when he said it. Ole Andreson
said nothing.
“They put us out in the kitchen,” Nick went on.
“They were going to shoot you when you came in to supper.”
Ole Andreson looked at the wall and did not say
anything.
“George thought I better come and tell you
about it.”
“There isn’t anything I can do about it,” Ole
Andreson said.
“I’ll tell you what they were like.”
“I don’t want to know what they were like,” Ole
Andreson said. He looked at the wall. “Thanks for coming to tell me about it.”
“That’s all right.”
Nick looked at the big man lying on the bed.
“Don’t you want me to go and see the police?”
“No,” Ole Andreson said. “That wouldn’t do any
good.”
“Isn’t there something I could do?”
“No. There ain’t anything to do.”
“Maybe it was just a bluff.”
“No. It ain’t just a bluff.”
Ole Andreson rolled over toward the wall.
“The only thing is,” he said, talking toward
the wall, “I just can’t make up my mind to go out. I been in here all day.”
“Couldn’t you get out of town?”
“No,” Ole Andreson said. “I’m through with all
that running around.”
He looked at the wall.
“There ain’t anything to do now.”
“Couldn’t you fix it up some way?”
“No. I got in wrong.” He talked in the same
flat voice. “There ain’t anything to do. After a while I’ll make up my mind to
go out.”
“I better go back and see George,” Nick said.
“So long,” said Ole Andreson. He did not look
toward Nick. “Thanks for coming around.”
Nick went out. As he shut the door he saw Ole
Andreson with all his clothes on, lying on the bed looking at the wall.
“He’s been in his room all day,” the landlady
said downstairs. “I guess he don’t feel well. I said to him: ‘Mr. Andreson, you
ought to go out and take a walk on a nice fall day like this,’ but he didn’t
feel like it.”
“He doesn’t want to go out.”
“I’m sorry he don’t feel well,” the woman said.
“He’s an awfully nice man. He was in the ring, you know.”
“I know it.”
“You’d never know it except from the way his
face is,” the woman said. They stood talking just inside the street door. “He’s
just as gentle.”
“Well, good-night, Mrs. Hirsch,” Nick said.
“I’m not Mrs. Hirsch,” the woman said. “She
owns the place. I just look after it for her. I’m Mrs. Bell.”
“Well, good-night, Mrs. Bell,” Nick said.
“Good-night,” the woman said.
Nick walked up the dark street to the corner
under the arc-light, and then along the car-tracks to Henry’s eating-house.
George was inside, back of the counter.
“Did you see Ole?”
“Yes,” said Nick. “He’s in his room and he
won’t go out.”
The cook opened the door from the kitchen when
he heard Nick’s voice.
“I don’t even listen to it,” he said and shut
the door.
“Did you tell him about it?” George asked.
“Sure. I told him but he knows what it’s all
about.”
“What’s he going to do?”
“Nothing.”
“They’ll kill him.”
“I guess they will.”
“He must have got mixed up in something in
Chicago.”
“I guess so,” said Nick.
“It’s a hell of a thing.”
“It’s an awful thing,” Nick said.
They did not say anything. George reached down
for a towel and wiped the counter.
“I wonder what he did?” Nick said.
“Double-crossed somebody. That’s what they kill
them for.”
“I’m going to get out of this town,” Nick said.
“Yes,” said George. “That’s a good thing to
do.”
“I can’t stand to think about him waiting in
the room and knowing he’s going to get it. It’s too damned awful.”
“Well,” said George, “you better not think
about it.”
CHE TI DICE LA PATRIA?
The road of the pass was hard and smooth and
not yet dusty in the early morning. Below were the hills with oak and chestnut
trees, and far away below was the sea. On the other side were snowy mountains.
We came down from the pass through wooded
country. There were bags of charcoal piled beside the road, and through the
trees we saw charcoal-burners’ huts. It was Sunday and the road, rising and
falling, but always dropping away from the altitude of the pass, went through
the scrub woods and through villages.
Outside the villages there were fields with
vines. The fields were brown and the vines coarse and thick. The houses were
white, and in the streets the men, in their Sunday clothes, were playing bowls.
Against the walls of some of the houses there were pear trees, their branches
candelabraed against the white walls. The pear trees had been sprayed, and the
walls of the houses were stained a metallic blue-green by the spray vapor.
There were small clearings around the villages where the vines grew, and then the
woods.
In a village, twenty kilometres above Spezia,
there was a crowd in the square, and a young man carrying a suitcase came up to
the car and asked us to take him in to Spezia.
“There are only two places, and they are
occupied,” I said. We had an old Ford coupé.
“I will ride on the outside.”
“You will be uncomfortable.”
“That makes nothing. I must go to Spezia.”
“Should we take him?” I asked Guy.
“He seems to be going anyway,” Guy said. The
young man handed in a parcel through the window.
“Look after this,” he said. Two men tied his
suitcase on the back of the car, above our suitcases. He shook hands with every
one, explained that to a Fascist and a man as used to travelling as himself
there was no discomfort, and climbed up on the running-board on the left-hand
side of the car, holding on inside, his right arm through the open window.
“You can start,” he said. The crowd waved. He
waved with his free hand.
“What did he say?” Guy asked me.
“That we could start.”
“Isn’t he nice?” Guy said.
The road followed a river. Across the river
were mountains. The sun was taking the frost out of the grass. It was bright
and cold and the air came cold through the open wind-shield.
“How do you think he likes it out there?” Guy
was looking up the road. His view out of his side of the car was blocked by our
guest. The young man projected from the side of the car like the figurehead of
a ship. He had turned his coat collar up and pulled his hat down and his nose
looked cold in the wind.
“Maybe he’ll get enough of it,” Guy said.
“That’s the side our bum tire’s on.”
“Oh, he’d leave us if we blew out,” I said. “He
wouldn’t get his travelling-clothes dirty.”
“Well, I don’t mind him,” Guy said—“except the
way he leans out on the turns.”
The woods were gone; the road had left the
river to climb; the radiator was boiling; the young man looked annoyedly and
suspiciously at the steam and rusty water; the engine was grinding, with both
Guy’s feet on the first-speed pedal, up and up, back and forth and up, and,
finally, out level. The grinding stopped, and in the new quiet there was a
great churning bubbling in the radiator. We were at the top of the last range
above Spezia and the sea. The road descended with short, barely rounded turns.
Our guest hung out on the turns and nearly pulled the top-heavy car over.
“You can’t tell him not to,” I said to Guy.
“It’s his sense of self-preservation.”
“The great Italian sense.”
“The greatest Italian sense.”
We came down around curves, through deep dust,
the dust powdering the olive trees. Spezia spread below along the sea. The road
flattened outside the town. Our guest put his head in the window.
“I want to stop.”
“Stop it,” I said to Guy.
We slowed up, at the side of the road. The
young man got down, went to the back of the car and untied the suitcase.
“I stop here, so you won’t get into trouble
carrying passengers,” he said. “My package.”
I handed him the package. He reached in his
pocket.
“How much do I owe you?”
“Nothing.”
“Why not?”
“I don’t know,” I said.
“Then thanks,” the young man said, not “thank
you,” or “thank you very much,” or “thank you a thousand times,” all of which
you formerly said in Italy to a man when he handed you a time-table or
explained about a direction. The young man uttered the lowest form of the word
“thanks” and looked after us suspiciously as Guy started the car. I waved my
hand at him. He was too dignified to reply. We went on into Spezia.
“That’s a young man that will go a long way in
Italy,” I said to Guy.
“Well,” said Guy, “he went twenty kilometres
with us.”
A MEAL IN SPEZIA
We came into Spezia looking for a place to eat.
The street was wide and the houses high and yellow. We followed the tram-track
into the centre of town. On the walls of the houses were stencilled eye-bugging
portraits of Mussolini, with hand-painted “vivas,” the double V in black paint
with drippings of paint down the wall. Side-streets went down to the harbor. It
was bright and the people were all out for Sunday. The stone paving had been
sprinkled and there were damp stretches in the dust. We went close to the curb
to avoid a tram.
“Let’s eat somewhere simple,” Guy said.
We stopped opposite two restaurant signs. We
were standing across the street and I was buying the papers. The two
restaurants were side by side. A woman standing in the doorway of one smiled at
us and we crossed the street and went in.
It was dark inside and at the back of the room
three girls were sitting at a table with an old woman. Across from us, at
another table, sat a sailor. He sat there neither eating nor drinking. Further
back, a young man in a blue suit was writing at a table. His hair was pomaded
and shining and he was very smartly dressed and clean-cut looking.
The light came through the doorway, and through
the window where vegetables, fruit, steaks, and chops were arranged in a
show-case. A girl came and took our order and another girl stood in the
doorway. We noticed that she wore nothing under her house dress. The girl who
took our order put her arm around Guy’s neck while we were looking at the menu.
There were three girls in all, and they all took turns going and standing in
the doorway. The old woman at the table in the back of the room spoke to them
and they sat down again with her.
There was no doorway leading from the room
except into the kitchen. A curtain hung over it. The girl who had taken our
order came in from the kitchen with spaghetti. She put it on the table and
brought a bottle of red wine and sat down at the table.
“Well,” I said to Guy, “you wanted to eat some
place simple.”
“This isn’t simple. This is complicated.”
“What do you say?” asked the girl. “Are you
Germans?”
“South Germans,” I said. “The South Germans are
a gentle, lovable people.”
“Don’t understand,” she said.
“What’s the mechanics of this place?” Guy
asked. “Do I have to let her put her arm around my neck?”
“Certainly,” I said. “Mussolini has abolished
the brothels. This is a restaurant.”
The girl wore a one-piece dress. She leaned
forward against the table and put her hands on her breasts and smiled. She
smiled better on one side than on the other and turned the good side toward us.
The charm of the good side had been enhanced by some event which had smoothed
the other side of her nose in, as warm wax can be smoothed. Her nose, however,
did not look like warm wax. It was very cold and firmed, only smoothed in. “You
like me?” she asked Guy.
“He adores you,” I said. “But he doesn’t speak
Italian.”
“Ich spreche Deutsch,” she said, and stroked
Guy’s hair.
“Speak to the lady in your native tongue, Guy.”
“Where do you come from?” asked the lady.
“Potsdam.”
“And you will stay here now for a little
while?”
“In this so dear Spezia?” I asked.
“Tell her we have to go,” said Guy. “Tell her
we are very ill, and have no money.”
“My friend is a misogynist,” I said, “an old
German misogynist.”
“Tell him I love him.”
I told him.
“Will you shut your mouth and get us out of
here?” Guy said. The lady had placed another arm around his neck. “Tell him he
is mine,” she said. I told him.
“Will you get us out of here?”
“You are quarrelling,” the lady said. “You do
not love one another.”
“We are Germans,” I said proudly, “old South
Germans.”
“Tell him he is a beautiful boy,” the lady
said. Guy is thirty-eight and takes some pride in the fact that he is taken for
a travelling salesman in France. “You are a beautiful boy,” I said.
“Who says so?” Guy asked, “you or her?”
“She does. I’m just your interpreter. Isn’t
that what you got me in on this trip for?”
“I’m glad it’s her,” said Guy. “I didn’t want
to have to leave you here too.”
“I don’t know. Spezia’s a lovely place.”
“Spezia,” the lady said. “You are talking about
Spezia.”
“Lovely place,” I said.
“It is my country,” she said. “Spezia is my
home and Italy is my country.”
“She says that Italy is her country.”
“Tell her it looks like her country,” Guy said.
“What have you for dessert?” I asked.
“Fruit,” she said. “We have bananas.”
“Bananas are all right,” Guy said. “They’ve got
skins on.”
“Oh, he takes bananas,” the lady said. She
embraced Guy.
“What does she say?” he asked, keeping his face
out of the way.
“She is pleased because you take bananas.”
“Tell her I don’t take bananas.”
“The Signor does not take bananas.”
“Ah,” said the lady, crestfallen, “he doesn’t
take bananas.”
“Tell her I take a cold bath every morning,”
Guy said.
“The Signor takes a cold bath every morning.”
“No understand,” the lady said.
Across from us, the property sailor had not
moved. No one in the place paid any attention to him.
“We want the bill,” I said.
“Oh, no. You must stay.”
“Listen,” the clean-cut young man said from the
table where he was writing, “let them go. These two are worth nothing.”
The lady took my hand. “You won’t stay? You
won’t ask him to stay?”
“We have to go,” I said. “We have to get to
Pisa, or if possible, Firenze, to-night. We can amuse ourselves in those cities
at the end of the day. It is now the day. In the day we must cover distance.”
“To stay a little while is nice.”
“To travel is necessary during the light of
day.”
“Listen,” the clean-cut young man said. “Don’t
bother to talk with these two. I tell you they are worth nothing and I know.”
“Bring us the bill,” I said. She brought the
bill from the old woman and went back and sat at the table. Another girl came
in from the kitchen. She walked the length of the room and stood in the
doorway.
“Don’t bother with these two,” the clean-cut
young man said in a wearied voice. “Come and eat. They are worth nothing.”
We paid the bill and stood up. All the girls,
the old woman, and the clean-cut young man sat down at table together. The
property sailor sat with his head in his hands. No one had spoken to him all
the time we were at lunch. The girl brought us our change that the old woman
counted out for her and went back to her place at the table. We left a tip on
the table and went out. When we were seated in the car ready to start, the girl
came out and stood in the door. We started and I waved to her. She did not wave,
but stood there looking after us.
AFTER THE RAIN
It was raining hard when we passed through the
suburbs of Genoa and, even going very slowly behind the tram-cars and the motor
trucks, liquid mud splashed on to the sidewalks, so that people stepped into
doorways as they saw us coming. In San Pier d’Arena, the industrial suburb
outside of Genoa, there is a wide street with two car-tracks and we drove down
the centre to avoid sending the mud on to the men going home from work. On our
left was the Mediterranean. There was a big sea running and waves broke and the
wind blew the spray against the car. A river-bed that, when we had passed,
going into Italy, had been wide, stony and dry, was running brown, and up to
the banks. The brown water discolored the sea and as the waves thinned and
cleared in breaking, the light came through the yellow water and the crests,
detached by the wind, blew across the road.
A big car passed us, going fast, and a sheet of
muddy water rose up and over our wind-shield and radiator. The automatic
wind-shield cleaner moved back and forth, spreading the film over the glass. We
stopped and ate lunch at Sestri. There was no heat in the restaurant and we
kept our hats and coats on. We could see the car outside, through the window.
It was covered with mud and was stopped beside some boats that had been pulled
up beyond the waves. In the restaurant you could see your breath.
The pasta asciuta was good; the wine
tasted of alum, and we poured water in it. Afterward the waiter brought
beefsteak and fried potatoes. A man and a woman sat at the far end of the
restaurant. He was middle-aged and she was young and wore black. All during the
meal she would blow out her breath in the cold damp air. The man would look at
it and shake his head. They ate without talking and the man held her hand under
the table. She was good-looking and they seemed very sad. They had a
travelling-bag with them.
We had the papers and I read the account of the
Shanghai fighting aloud to Guy. After the meal, he left with the waiter in
search for a place which did not exist in the restaurant, and I cleaned off the
wind-shield, the lights and the license plates with a rag. Guy came back and we
backed the car out and started. The waiter had taken him across the road and
into an old house. The people in the house were suspicious and the waiter had
remained with Guy to see nothing was stolen.
“Although I don’t know how, me not being a
plumber, they expected me to steal anything,” Guy said.
As we came up on a headland beyond the town,
the wind struck the car and nearly tipped it over.
“It’s good it blows us away from the sea,” Guy
said.
“Well,” I said, “they drowned Shelley somewhere
along here.”
“That was down by Viareggio,” Guy said. “Do you
remember what we came to this country for?”
“Yes,” I said, “but we didn’t get it.”
“We’ll be out of it to-night.”
“If we can get past Ventimiglia.”
“We’ll see. I don’t like to drive this coast at
night.” It was early afternoon and the sun was out. Below, the sea was blue
with whitecaps running toward Savona. Back, beyond the cape, the brown and blue
waters joined. Out ahead of us, a tramp steamer was going up the coast.
“Can you still see Genoa?” Guy asked.
“Oh, yes.”
“That next big cape ought to put it out of
sight.”
“We’ll see it a long time yet. I can still see
Portofino Cape behind it.”
Finally we could not see Genoa. I looked back
as we came out and there was only the sea, and below in the bay, a line of
beach with fishing-boats and above, on the side of the hill, a town and then
capes far down the coast.
“It’s gone now,” I said to Guy.
“Oh, it’s been gone a long time now.”
“But we couldn’t be sure till we got way out.”
There was a sign with a picture of an S-turn
and Svolta Pericolosa. The road curved around the headland and the wind blew
through the crack in the wind-shield. Below the cape was a flat stretch beside
the sea. The wind had dried the mud and the wheels were beginning to lift dust.
On the flat road we passed a Fascist riding a bicycle, a heavy revolver in a
holster on his back. He held the middle of the road on his bicycle and we
turned out for him. He looked up at us as we passed. Ahead there was a railway
crossing, and as we came toward it the gates went down.
As we waited, the Fascist came up on his
bicycle. The train went by and Guy started the engine.
“Wait,” the bicycle man shouted from behind the
car. “Your number’s dirty.”
I got out with a rag. The number had been
cleaned at lunch.
“You can read it,” I said.
“You think so?”
“Read it.”
“I cannot read it. It is dirty.”
I wiped it off with the rag.
“How’s that?”
“Twenty-five lire.”
“What?” I said. “You could have read it. It’s
only dirty from the state of the roads.”
“You don’t like Italian roads?”
“They are dirty.”
“Fifty lire.” He spat in the road. “Your car is
dirty and you are dirty too.”
“Good. And give me a receipt with your name.”
He took out a receipt-book, made in duplicate,
and perforated, so one side could be given to the customer, and the other side
filled in and kept as a stub. There was no carbon to record what the customer’s
ticket said.
“Give me fifty lire.”
He wrote in indelible pencil, tore out the slip
and handed it to me. I read it.
“This is for twenty-five lire.”
“A mistake,” he said, and changed the
twenty-five to fifty.
“And now the other side. Make it fifty in the
part you keep.”
He smiled a beautiful Italian smile and wrote
something on the receipt stub, holding it so I could not see.
“Go on,” he said, “before your number gets
dirty again.”
We drove for two hours after it was dark and
slept in Mentone that night. It seemed very cheerful and clean and sane and
lovely. We had driven from Ventimiglia to Pisa and Florence, across the Romagna
to Rimini, back through Forli, Imola, Bologna, Parma, Piacenza and Genoa, to
Ventimiglia again. The whole trip had only taken ten days. Naturally, in such a
short trip, we had no opportunity to see how things were with the country or
the people.
FIFTY GRAND
“How are you going yourself, Jack?” I asked
him.
“You seen this, Walcott?” he says.
“Just in the gym.”
“Well,” Jack says, “I’m going to need a lot of
luck with that boy.”
“He can’t hit you, Jack,” Soldier said.
“I wish to hell he couldn’t.”
“He couldn’t hit you with a handful of
bird-shot.”
“Bird-shot’d be all right,” Jack says. “I
wouldn’t mind bird-shot any.”
“He looks easy to hit,” I said.
“Sure,” Jack says, “he ain’t going to last
long. He ain’t going to last like you and me, Jerry. But right now he’s got
everything.”
“You’ll left-hand him to death.”
“Maybe,” Jack says. “Sure. I got a chance to.”
“Handle him like you handled Kid Lewis.”
“Kid Lewis,” Jack said. “That kike!”
The three of us, Jack Brennan, Soldier
Bartlett, and I were in Handley’s. There were a couple of broads sitting at the
next table to us. They had been drinking.
“What do you mean, kike?” one of the broads
says. “What do you mean, kike, you big Irish bum?”
“Sure,” Jack says. “That’s it.”
“Kikes,” this broad goes on. “They’re always
talking about kikes, these big Irishmen. What do you mean, kikes?”
“Come on. Let’s get out of here.”
“Kikes,” this broad goes on. “Whoever saw you
ever buy a drink? Your wife sews your pockets up every morning. These Irishmen
and their kikes! Ted Lewis could lick you too.”
“Sure,” Jack says. “And you give away a lot of
things free too, don’t you?”
We went out. That was Jack. He could say what
he wanted to when he wanted to say it.
Jack started training out at Danny Hogan’s
health-farm over in Jersey. It was nice out there but Jack didn’t like it much.
He didn’t like being away from his wife and the kids, and he was sore and
grouchy most of the time. He liked me and we got along fine together; and he
liked Hogan, but after a while Soldier Bartlett commenced to get on his nerves.
A kidder gets to be an awful thing around a camp if his stuff goes sort of
sour. Soldier was always kidding Jack, just sort of kidding him all the time. It
wasn’t very funny and it wasn’t very good, and it began to get to Jack. It was
sort of stuff like this. Jack would finish up with the weights and the bag and
pull on the gloves.
“You want to work?” he’d say to Soldier.
“Sure. How you want me to work?” Soldier would
ask. “Want me to treat you rough like Walcott? Want me to knock you down a few
times?”
“That’s it,” Jack would say. He didn’t like it
any, though.
One morning we were all out on the road. We’d
been out quite a way and now we were coming back. We’d go along fast for three
minutes and then walk a minute, and then go fast for three minutes again. Jack
wasn’t ever what you would call a sprinter. He’d move around fast enough in the
ring if he had to, but he wasn’t any too fast on the road. All the time we were
walking Soldier was kidding him. We came up the hill to the farmhouse.
“Well,” says Jack, “you better go back to town,
Soldier.”
“What do you mean?”
“You better go back to town and stay there.”
“What’s the matter?”
“I’m sick of hearing you talk.”
“Yes?” says Soldier.
“Yes,” says Jack.
“You’ll be a damn sight sicker when Walcott
gets through with you.”
“Sure,” says Jack, “maybe I will. But I know
I’m sick of you.”
So Soldier went off on the train to town that
same morning. I went down with him to the train. He was good and sore.
“I was just kidding him,” he said. We were
waiting on the platform. “He can’t pull that stuff with me, Jerry.”
“He’s nervous and crabby,” I said. “He’s a good
fellow, Soldier.”
“The hell he is. The hell he’s ever been a good
fellow.”
“Well,” I said, “so long, Soldier.”
The train had come in. He climbed up with his
bag.
“So long, Jerry,” he says. “You be in town
before the fight?”
“I don’t think so.”
“See you then.”
He went in and the conductor swung up and the
train went out. I rode back to the farm in the cart. Jack was on the porch
writing a letter to his wife. The mail had come and I got the papers and went
over on the other side of the porch and sat down to read. Hogan came out the
door and walked over to me.
“Did he have a jam with Soldier?”
“Not a jam,” I said. “He just told him to go
back to town.”
“I could see it coming,” Hogan said. “He never
liked Soldier much.”
“No. He don’t like many people.”
“He’s a pretty cold one,” Hogan said.
“Well, he’s always been fine to me.”
“Me too,” Hogan said. “I got no kick on him.
He’s a cold one, though.”
Hogan went in through the screen door and I sat
there on the porch and read the papers. It was just starting to get fall
weather and it’s nice country there in Jersey, up in the hills, and after I
read the paper through I sat there and looked out at the country and the road
down below against the woods with cars going along it, lifting the dust up. It
was fine weather and pretty nice-looking country. Hogan came to the door and I
said, “Say, Hogan, haven’t you got anything to shoot out here?”
“No,” Hogan said. “Only sparrows.”
“Seen the paper?” I said to Hogan.
“What’s in it?”
“Sande booted three of them in yesterday.”
“I got that on the telephone last night.”
“You follow them pretty close, Hogan?” I asked.
“Oh, I keep in touch with them,” Hogan said.
“How about Jack?” I says. “Does he still play
them?”
“Him?” said Hogan. “Can you see him doing it?”
Just then Jack came around the corner with the
letter in his hand. He’s wearing a sweater and an old pair of pants and boxing
shoes.
“Got a stamp, Hogan?” he asks.
“Give me the letter,” Hogan said. “I’ll mail it
for you.”
“Say, Jack,” I said, “didn’t you used to play
the ponies?”
“Sure.”
“I knew you did. I knew I used to see you out
at Sheepshead.”
“What did you lay off them for?” Hogan asked.
“Lost money.”
Jack sat down on the porch by me. He leaned
back against a post. He shut his eyes in the sun.
“Want a chair?” Hogan asked.
“No,” said Jack. “This is fine.”
“It’s a nice day,” I said. “It’s pretty nice
out in the country.”
“I’d a damn sight rather be in town with the
wife.”
“Well, you only got another week.”
“Yes,” Jack says. “That’s so.”
We sat there on the porch. Hogan was inside at
the office.
“What do you think about the shape I’m in?”
Jack asked me.
“Well, you can’t tell,” I said. “You got a week
to get around into form.”
“Don’t stall me.”
“Well,” I said, “you’re not right.”
“I’m not sleeping,” Jack said.
“You’ll be all right in a couple of days.”
“No,” says Jack, “I got the insomnia.”
“What’s on your mind?”
“I miss the wife.”
“Have her come out.”
“No. I’m too old for that.”
“We’ll take a long walk before you turn in and
get you good and tired.”
“Tired!” Jack says. “I’m tired all the time.”
He was that way all week. He wouldn’t sleep at
night and he’d get up in the morning feeling that way, you know, when you can’t
shut your hands.
“He’s stale as poorhouse cake,” Hogan said.
“He’s nothing.”
“I never seen Walcott,” I said.
“He’ll kill him,” said Hogan. “He’ll tear him
in two.”
“Well,” I said, “everybody’s got to get it
sometime.”
“Not like this, though,” Hogan said. “They’ll
think he never trained. It gives the farm a black eye.”
“You hear what the reporters said about him?”
“Didn’t I! They said he was awful. They said
they oughtn’t to let him fight.”
“Well,” I said, “they’re always wrong, ain’t
they?”
“Yes,” said Hogan. “But this time they’re
right.”
“What the hell do they know about whether a
man’s right or not?”
“Well,” said Hogan, “they’re not such fools.”
“All they did was pick Willard at Toledo. This
Lardner, he’s so wise now, ask him about when he picked Willard at Toledo.”
“Aw, he wasn’t out,” Hogan said. “He only
writes the big fights.”
“I don’t care who they are,” I said. “What the
hell do they know? They can write maybe, but what the hell do they know?”
“You don’t think Jack’s in any shape, do you?”
Hogan asked.
“No. He’s through. All he needs is to have
Corbett pick him to win for it to be all over.”
“Well, Corbett’ll pick him,” Hogan says.
“Sure. He’ll pick him.”
That night Jack didn’t sleep any either. The
next morning was the last day before the fight. After breakfast we were out on
the porch again.
“What do you think about, Jack, when you can’t
sleep?” I said.
“Oh, I worry,” Jack says. “I worry about
property I got up in the Bronx, I worry about property I got in Florida. I
worry about the kids. I worry about the wife. Sometimes I think about fights. I
think about that kike Ted Lewis and I get sore. I got some stocks and I worry
about them. What the hell don’t I think about?”
“Well,” I said, “to-morrow night it’ll all be
over.”
“Sure,” said Jack. “That always helps a lot,
don’t it? That just fixes everything all up, I suppose. Sure.”
He was sore all day. We didn’t do any work.
Jack just moved around a little to loosen up. He shadow-boxed a few rounds. He
didn’t even look good doing that. He skipped the rope a little while. He
couldn’t sweat.
“He’d be better not to do any work at all,”
Hogan said. We were standing watching him skip rope. “Don’t he ever sweat at
all any more?”
“He can’t sweat.”
“Do you suppose he’s got the con? He never had
any trouble making weight, did he?”
“No, he hasn’t got any con. He just hasn’t got
anything inside any more.”
“He ought to sweat,” said Hogan.
Jack came over, skipping the rope. He was
skipping up and down in front of us, forward and back, crossing his arms every
third time.
“Well,” he says. “What are you buzzards talking
about?”
“I don’t think you ought to work any more,”
Hogan says. “You’ll be stale.”
“Wouldn’t that be awful?” Jack says and skips
away down the floor, slapping the rope hard.
That afternoon John Collins showed up out at
the farm. Jack was up in his room. John, came out in a car from town. He had a
couple of friends with him. The car stopped and they all got out.
“Where’s Jack?” John asked me.
“Up in his room, lying down.”
“Lying down?”
“Yes,” I said.
“How is he?”
I looked at the two fellows that were with
John.
“They’re friends of his,” John said.
“He’s pretty bad,” I said.
“What’s the matter with him?”
“He don’t sleep.”
“Hell,” said John. “That Irishman could never
sleep.”
“He isn’t right,” I said.
“Hell,” John said. “He’s never right. I’ve had
him for ten years and he’s never been right yet.”
The fellows who were with him laughed.
“I want you to shake hands with Mr. Morgan and
Mr. Steinfelt,” John said. “This is Mr. Doyle. He’s been training Jack.”
“Glad to meet you,” I said.
“Let’s go up and see the boy,” the fellow
called Morgan said.
“Let’s have a look at him,” Steinfelt said.
We all went upstairs.
“Where’s Hogan?” John asked.
“He’s out in the barn with a couple of his
customers,” I said.
“He got many people out here now?” John asked.
“Just two.”
“Pretty quiet, ain’t it?” Morgan said.
“Yes,” I said. “It’s pretty quiet.”
We were outside Jack’s room. John knocked on
the door. There wasn’t any answer.
“Maybe he’s asleep,” I said.
“What the hell’s he sleeping in the daytime
for?”
John turned the handle and we all went in. Jack
was lying asleep on the bed. He was face down and his face was in the pillow.
Both his arms were around the pillow.
“Hey, Jack!” John said to him.
Jack’s head moved a little on the pillow.
“Jack!” John says, leaning over him. Jack just dug a little deeper in the
pillow. John touched him on the shoulder. Jack sat up and looked at us. He
hadn’t shaved and he was wearing an old sweater.
“Christ! Why can’t you let me sleep?” he says
to John.
“Don’t be sore,” John says. “I didn’t mean to
wake you up.”
“Oh no,” Jack says. “Of course not.”
“You know Morgan and Steinfelt,” John said.
“Glad to see you,” Jack says.
“How do you feel, Jack,” Morgan asks him.
“Fine,” Jack says. “How the hell would I feel?”
“You look fine,” Steinfelt says.
“Yes, don’t I,” says Jack. “Say,” he says to
John. “You’re my manager. You get a big enough cut. Why the hell don’t you come
out here when the reporters was out! You want Jerry and me to talk to them?”
“I had Lew fighting in Philadelphia,” John
said.
“What the hell’s that to me?” Jack says.
“You’re my manager. You get a big enough cut, don’t you? You aren’t making me
any money in Philadelphia, are you? Why the hell aren’t you out here when I
ought to have you?”
“Hogan was here.”
“Hogan,” Jack says. “Hogan’s as dumb as I am.”
“Soldier Bathlett was out here wukking with you
for a while, wasn’t he?” Steinfelt said to change the subject.
“Yes, he was out here,” Jack says. “He was out
here all right.”
“Say, Jerry,” John said to me. “Would you go
and find Hogan and tell him we want to see him in about half an hour?”
“Sure,” I said.
“Why the hell can’t he stick around?” Jack
says. “Stick around, Jerry.”
Morgan and Steinfelt looked at each other.
“Quiet down, Jack,” John said to him.
“I better go find Hogan,” I said.
“All right, if you want to go,” Jack says.
“None of these guys are going to send you away, though.”
“I’ll go find Hogan,” I said.
Hogan was out in the gym in the barn. He had a
couple of his health-farm patients with the gloves on. They neither one wanted
to hit the other, for fear the other would come back and hit him.
“That’ll do,” Hogan said when he saw me come
in. “You can stop the slaughter. You gentlemen take a shower and Bruce will rub
you down.”
They climbed out through the ropes and Hogan
came over to me.
“John Collins is out with a couple of friends
to see Jack,” I said.
“I saw them come up in the car.”
“Who are the two fellows with John?”
“They’re what you call wise boys,” Hogan said.
“Don’t you know them two?”
“No,” I said.
“That’s Happy Steinfelt and Lew Morgan. They
got a pool-room.”
“I been away a long time,” I said.
“Sure,” said Hogan. “That Happy Steinfelt’s a
big operator.”
“I’ve heard his name,” I said.
“He’s a pretty smooth boy,” Hogan said.
“They’re a couple of sharpshooters.”
“Well,” I said. “They want to see us in half an
hour.”
“You mean they don’t want to see us until a
half an hour?”
“That’s it.”
“Come on in the office,” Hogan said. “To hell
with those sharpshooters.”
After about thirty minutes or so Hogan and I
went upstairs. We knocked on Jack’s door. They were talking inside the room.
“Wait a minute,” somebody said.
“To hell with that stuff,” Hogan said. “When
you want to see me I’m down in the office.”
We heard the door unlock. Steinfelt opened it.
“Come on in, Hogan,” he says. “We’re all going
to have a drink.”
“Well,” says Hogan. “That’s something.”
We went in. Jack was sitting on the bed. John
and Morgan were sitting on a couple of chairs. Steinfelt was standing up.
“You’re a pretty mysterious lot of boys,” Hogan
said.
“Hello, Danny,” John says.
“Hello, Danny,” Morgan says and shakes hands.
Jack doesn’t say anything. He just sits there
on the bed. He ain’t with the others. He’s all by himself. He was wearing an
old blue jersey and pants and had on boxing shoes. He needed a shave. Steinfelt
and Morgan were dressers. John was quite a dresser too. Jack sat there looking
Irish and tough.
Steinfelt brought out a bottle and Hogan
brought in some glasses and everybody had a drink. Jack and I took one and the
rest of them went on and had two or three each.
“Better save some for your ride back,” Hogan
said.
“Don’t you worry. We got plenty,” Morgan said.
Jack hadn’t drunk anything since the one drink.
He was standing up and looking at them. Morgan was sitting on the bed where
Jack had sat.
“Have a drink, Jack,” John said and handed him
the glass and the bottle.
“No,” Jack said, “I never liked to go to these
wakes.”
They all laughed. Jack didn’t laugh.
They were all feeling pretty good when they
left. Jack stood on the porch when they got into the car. They waved to him.
“So long,” Jack said.
We had supper. Jack didn’t say anything all
during the meal except, “Will you pass me this?” or “Will you pass me that?”
The two health-farm patients ate at the same table with us. They were pretty
nice fellows. After we finished eating we went out on the porch. It was dark
early.
“Like to take a walk, Jerry?” Jack asked.
“Sure,” I said.
We put on our coats and started out. It was
quite a way down to the main road and then we walked along the main road about
a mile and a half. Cars kept going by and we would pull out to the side until
they were past. Jack didn’t say anything. After we had stepped out into the
bushes to let a big car go by Jack said, “To hell with this walking. Come on
back to Hogan’s.”
We went along a side road that cut up over the
hill and cut across the fields back to Hogan’s. We could see the lights of the
house up on the hill. We came around to the front of the house and there
standing in the doorway was Hogan.
“Have a good walk?” Hogan asked.
“Oh, fine,” Jack said. “Listen, Hogan. Have you
got any liquor?”
“Sure,” says Hogan. “What’s the idea?”
“Send it up to the room,” Jack says. “I’m going
to sleep to-night.”
“You’re the doctor,” Hogan says.
“Come on up to the room, Jerry,” Jack says.
Upstairs Jack sat on the bed with his head in
his hands.
“Ain’t it a life?” Jack says.
Hogan brought in a quart of liquor and two
glasses.
“Want some ginger-ale?”
“What do you think I want to do, get sick?”
“I just asked you,” said Hogan.
“Have a drink?” said Jack.
“No, thanks,” said Hogan. He went out.
“How about you, Jerry?”
“I’ll have one with you,” I said.
Jack poured out a couple of drinks. “Now,” he
said, “I want to take it slow and easy.”
“Put some water in it,” I said.
“Yes,” Jack said. “I guess that’s better.”
We had a couple of drinks without saying
anything. Jack started to pour me another.
“No,” I said, “that’s all I want.”
“All right,” Jack said. He poured himself out
another big shot and put water in it. He was lighting up a little.
“That was a fine bunch out here this
afternoon,” he said. “They don’t take any chances, those two.”
Then a little later, “Well,” he says, “they’re
right. What the hell’s the good in taking chances?”
“Don’t you want another, Jerry?” he said. “Come
on, drink along with me.”
“I don’t need it, Jack,” I said. “I feel all
right.”
“Just have one more,” Jack said. It was
softening him up.
“All right,” I said.
Jack poured one for me and another big one for
himself.
“You know,” he said, “I like liquor pretty
well. If I hadn’t been boxing I would have drunk quite a lot.”
“Sure,” I said.
“You know,” he said, “I missed a lot, boxing.”
“You made plenty of money.”
“Sure, that’s what I’m after. You know I miss a
lot, Jerry.”
“How do you mean?”
“Well,” he says, “like about the wife. And
being away from home so much. It don’t do my girls any good. ‘Whose your old
man?’ some of those society kids’ll say to them. ‘My old man’s Jack Brennan.’
That don’t do them any good.”
“Hell,” I said, “all that makes a difference is
if they got dough.”
“Well,” says Jack, “I got the dough for them
all right.”
He poured out another drink. The bottle was
about empty.
“Put some water in it,” I said. Jack poured in
some water.
“You know,” he says, “you ain’t got any idea
how I miss the wife.”
“Sure.”
“You ain’t got any idea. You can’t have an idea
what it’s like.”
“It ought to be better out in the country than
in town.”
“With me now,” Jack said, “it don’t make any
difference where I am. You can’t have an idea what it’s like.”
“Have another drink.”
“Am I getting soused? Do I talk funny?”
“You’re coming on all right.”
“You can’t have an idea what it’s like. They
ain’t anybody can have an idea what it’s like.”
“Except the wife,” I said.
“She knows,” Jack said. “She knows all right.
She knows. You bet she knows.”
“Put some water in that,” I said.
“Jerry,” says Jack, “you can’t have an idea
what it gets to be like.”
He was good and drunk. He was looking at me
steady. His eyes were sort of too steady.
“You’ll sleep all right,” I said.
“Listen, Jerry,” Jack says. “You want to make
some money? Get some money down on Walcott.”
“Yes?”
“Listen, Jerry,” Jack put down the glass. “I’m
not drunk now, see? You know what I’m betting on him? Fifty grand.”
“That’s a lot of dough.”
“Fifty grand,” Jack says, “at two to one. I’ll
get twenty-five thousand bucks. Get some money on him, Jerry.”
“It sounds good,” I said.
“How can I beat him?” Jack says. “It ain’t
crooked. How can I beat him? Why not make money on it?”
“Put some water in that,” I said.
“I’m through after this fight,” Jack says. “I’m
through with it. I got to take a beating. Why shouldn’t I make money on it?”
“Sure.”
“I ain’t slept for a week,” Jack says. “All
night I lay awake and worry my can off. I can’t sleep, Jerry. You ain’t got an
idea what it’s like when you can’t sleep.”
“Sure.”
“I can’t sleep. That’s all. I just can’t sleep.
What’s the use of taking care of yourself all these years when you can’t
sleep?”
“It’s bad.”
“You ain’t got an idea what it’s like, Jerry,
when you can’t sleep.”
“Put some water in that,” I said.
Well, about eleven o’clock Jack passes out and
I put him to bed. Finally he’s so he can’t keep from sleeping. I helped him get
his clothes off and got him into bed.
“You’ll sleep all right, Jack,” I said.
“Sure,” Jack says, “I’ll sleep now.”
“Good-night, Jack,” I said.
“Good-night, Jerry,” Jack says. “You’re the
only friend I got.”
“Oh, hell,” I said.
“You’re the only friend I got,” Jack says, “the
only friend I got.”
“Go to sleep,” I said.
“I’ll sleep,” Jack says.
Downstairs Hogan was sitting at the desk in the
office reading the papers. He looked up. “Well, you get your boy friend to
sleep?” he asks.
“He’s off.”
“It’s better for him than not sleeping,” Hogan
said.
“Sure.”
“You’d have a hell of a time explaining that to
these sport writers though,” Hogan said.
“Well, I’m going to bed myself,” I said.
“Good-night,” said Hogan.
In the morning I came downstairs about eight
o’clock and got some breakfast. Hogan had his two customers out in the barn
doing exercises. I went out and watched them.
“One! Two! Three! Four!” Hogan was counting for
them. “Hello, Jerry,” he said. “Is Jack up yet?”
“No. He’s still sleeping.”
I went back to my room and packed up to go in
to town. About nine-thirty I heard Jack getting up in the next room. When I
heard him go downstairs I went down after him. Jack was sitting at the
breakfast table. Hogan had come in and was standing beside the table.
“How do you feel, Jack?” I asked him.
“Not so bad.”
“Sleep well?” Hogan asked.
“I slept all right,” Jack said. “I got a thick
tongue but I ain’t got a head.”
“Good,” said Hogan. “That was good liquor.”
“Put it on the bill,” Jack says.
“What time you want to go into town?” Hogan
asked.
“Before lunch,” Jack says. “The eleven o’clock
train.”
“Sit down, Jerry,” Jack said. Hogan went out.
I sat down at the table. Jack was eating a
grape-fruit. When he’d find a seed he’d spit it out in the spoon and dump it on
the plate.
“I guess I was pretty stewed last night,” he
started.
“You drank some liquor.”
“I guess I said a lot of fool things.”
“You weren’t bad.”
“Where’s Hogan?” he asked. He was through with
the grape-fruit.
“He’s out in front in the office.”
“What did I say about betting on the fight?”
Jack asked. He was holding the spoon and sort of poking at the grape-fruit with
it.
The girl came in with some ham and eggs and
took away the grape-fruit.
“Bring me another glass of milk,” Jack said to
her. She went out.
“You said you had fifty grand on Walcott,” I
said.
“That’s right,” Jack said.
“That’s a lot of money.”
“I don’t feel too good about it,” Jack said.
“Something might happen.”
“No,” Jack said. “He wants the title bad.
They’ll be shooting with him all right.”
“You can’t ever tell.”
“No. He wants the title. It’s worth a lot of
money to him.”
“Fifty grand is a lot of money,” I said.
“It’s business,” said Jack. “I can’t win. You
know I can’t win anyway.”
“As long as you’re in there you got a chance.”
“No,” Jack says. “I’m all through. It’s just
business.”
“How do you feel?”
“Pretty good,” Jack said. “The sleep was what I
needed.”
“You might go good.”
“I’ll give them a good show,” Jack said.
After breakfast Jack called up his wife on the
long-distance. He was inside the booth telephoning.
“That’s the first time he’s called her up since
he’s out here,” Hogan said.
“He writes her every day.”
“Sure,” Hogan says, “a letter only costs two
cents.”
Hogan said good-by to us and Bruce, the nigger
rubber, drove us down to the train in the cart.
“Good-by, Mr. Brennan,” Bruce said at the
train, “I sure hope you knock his can off.”
“So long,” Jack said. He gave Bruce two
dollars. Bruce had worked on him a lot. He looked kind of disappointed. Jack
saw me looking at Bruce holding the two dollars.
“It’s all in the bill,” he said. “Hogan charged
me for the rubbing.”
On the train going into town Jack didn’t talk.
He sat in the corner of the seat with his ticket in his hat-band and looked out
of the window. Once he turned and spoke to me.
“I told the wife I’d take a room at the Shelby
to-night,” he said. “It’s just around the corner from the Garden. I can go up
to the house to-morrow morning.”
“That’s a good idea,” I said. “Your wife ever
see you fight, Jack?”
“No,” Jack says. “She never seen me fight.”
I thought he must be figuring on taking an
awful beating if he doesn’t want to go home afterward. In town we took a taxi
up to the Shelby. A boy came out and took our bags and we went in to the desk.
“How much are the rooms?” Jack asked.
“We only have double rooms,” the clerk says. “I
can give you a nice double room for ten dollars.”
“That’s too steep.”
“I can give you a double room for seven
dollars.”
“With a bath?”
“Certainly.”
“You might as well bunk with me, Jerry,” Jack
says.
“Oh,” I said, “I’ll sleep down at my
brother-in-law’s.”
“I don’t mean for you to pay it,” Jack says. “I
just want to get my money’s worth.”
“Will you register, please?” the clerk says. He
looked at the names. “Number 238, Mister Brennan.”
We went up in the elevator. It was a nice big
room with two beds and a door opening into a bath-room.
“This is pretty good,” Jack says.
The boy who brought us up pulled up the
curtains and brought in our bags. Jack didn’t make any move, so I gave the boy
a quarter. We washed up and Jack said we better go out and get something to
eat.
We ate a lunch at Jimmey Handley’s place. Quite
a lot of the boys were there. When we were about half through eating, John came
in and sat down with us. Jack didn’t talk much.
“How are you on the weight, Jack?” John asked
him. Jack was putting away a pretty good lunch.
“I could make it with my clothes on,” Jack
said. He never had to worry about taking off weight. He was a natural
welter-weight and he’d never gotten fat. He’d lost weight out at Hogan’s.
“Well, that’s one thing you never had to worry
about,” John said.
“That’s one thing,” Jack says.
We went around to the garden to weigh in after
lunch. The match was made at a hundred forty-seven pounds at three o’clock.
Jack stepped on the scales with a towel around him. The bar didn’t move.
Walcott had just weighed and was standing with a lot of people around him.
“Let’s see what you weigh, Jack,” Freedman,
Walcott’s manager said.
“All right, weigh him then,” Jack jerked
his head toward Walcott.
“Drop the towel,” Freedman said.
“What do you make it?” Jack asked the fellows
who were weighing.
“One hundred and forty-three pounds,” the fat
man who was weighing said.
“You’re down fine, Jack,” Freedman says.
“Weigh him,” Jack says.
Walcott came over. He was a blond with wide
shoulders and arms like a heavyweight. He didn’t have much legs. Jack stood
about half a head taller than he did.
“Hello, Jack,” he said. His face was plenty
marked up.
“Hello,” said Jack. “How you feel?”
“Good,” Walcott says. He dropped the towel from
around his waist and stood on the scales. He had the widest shoulders and back
you ever saw.
“One hundred and forty-six pounds and twelve
ounces.”
Walcott stepped off and grinned at Jack.
“Well,” John says to him, “Jack’s spotting you
about four pounds.”
“More than that when I come in, kid,” Walcott
says. “I’m going to go and eat now.”
We went back and Jack got dressed. “He’s a
pretty tough-looking boy,” Jack says to me.
“He looks as though he’d been hit plenty of
times.”
“Oh, yes,” Jack says. “He ain’t hard to hit.”
“Where are you going?” John asked when Jack was
dressed.
“Back to the hotel,” Jack says. “You looked
after everything?”
“Yes,” John says. “It’s all looked after.”
“I’m going to lie down a while,” Jack says.
“I’ll come around for you about a quarter to
seven and we’ll go and eat.”
“All right.”
Up at the hotel Jack took off his shoes and his
coat and lay down for a while. I wrote a letter. I looked over a couple of
times and Jack wasn’t sleeping. He was lying perfectly still but every once in
a while his eyes would open. Finally he sits up.
“Want to play some cribbage, Jerry?” he says.
“Sure,” I said.
He went over to his suitcase and got out the
cards and the cribbage board. We played cribbage and he won three dollars off
me. John knocked at the door and came in.
“Want to play some cribbage, John?” Jack asked
him.
John put his kelly down on the table. It was
all wet. His coat was wet too.
“Is it raining?” Jack asks.
“It’s pouring,” John says. “The taxi I had, got
tied up in the traffic and I got out and walked.”
“Come on, play some cribbage,” Jack says.
“You ought to go and eat.”
“No,” says Jack. “I don’t want to eat yet.”
So they played cribbage for about half an hour
and Jack won a dollar and a half off him.
“Well, I suppose we got to go eat,” Jack says.
He went to the window and looked out.
“Is it still raining?”
“Yes.”
“Let’s eat in the hotel,” John says.
“All right,” Jack says, “I’ll play you once
more to see who pays for the meal.”
After a little while Jack gets up and says,
“You buy the meal, John,” and we went downstairs and ate in the big
dining-room.
After we ate we went upstairs and Jack played
cribbage with John again and won two dollars and a half off him. Jack was
feeling pretty good. John had a bag with him with all his stuff in it. Jack
took off his shirt and collar and put on a jersey and a sweater, so he wouldn’t
catch cold when he came out, and put his ring clothes and his bathrobe in a
bag.
“You all ready?” John asks him. “I’ll call up
and have them get a taxi.”
Pretty soon the telephone rang and they said
the taxi was waiting.
We rode down in the elevator and went out
through the lobby, and got in a taxi and rode around to the Garden. It was
raining hard but there was a lot of people outside on the streets. The Garden
was sold out. As we came in on our way to the dressing-room I saw how full it
was. It looked like half a mile down to the ring. It was all dark. Just the
lights over the ring.
“It’s a good thing, with this rain, they didn’t
try and pull this fight in the ball park,” John said.
“They got a good crowd,” Jack says.
“This is a fight that would draw a lot more
than the Garden could hold.”
“You can’t tell about the weather,” Jack says.
John came to the door of the dressing-room and
poked his head in. Jack was sitting there with his bathrobe on, he had his arms
folded and was looking at the floor. John had a couple of handlers with him.
They looked over his shoulder. Jack looked up.
“Is he in?” he asked.
“He’s just gone down,” John said.
We started down. Walcott was just getting into
the ring. The crowd gave him a big hand. He climbed through between the ropes
and put his two fists together and smiled, and shook them at the crowd, first
at one side of the ring, then at the other, and then sat down. Jack got a good
hand coming down through the crowd. Jack is Irish and the Irish always get a
pretty good hand. An Irishman don’t draw in New York like a Jew or an Italian
but they always get a good hand. Jack climbed up and bent down to go through
the ropes and Walcott came over from his corner and pushed the rope down for
Jack to go through. The crowd thought that was wonderful. Walcott put his hand
on Jack’s shoulder and they stood there just for a second.
“So you’re going to be one of these popular
champions,” Jack says to him. “Take your goddam hand off my shoulder.”
“Be yourself,” Walcott says.
This is all great for the crowd. How
gentlemanly the boys are before the fight! How they wish each other luck!
Solly Freedman came over to our corner while
Jack is bandaging his hands and John is over in Walcott’s corner. Jack puts his
thumb through the slit in the bandage and then wrapped his hand nice and
smooth. I taped it around the wrist and twice across the knuckles.
“Hey,” Freedman says. “Where do you get all
that tape?”
“Feel of it,” Jack says. “It’s soft, ain’t it?
Don’t be a hick.”
Freedman stands there all the time while Jack
bandages the other hand, and one of the boys that’s going to handle him brings
the gloves and I pull them on and work them around.
“Say, Freedman,” Jack asks, “what nationality
is this Walcott?”
“I don’t know,” Solly says. “He’s some sort of
a Dane.”
“He’s a Bohemian,” the lad who brought the
gloves said.
The referee called them out to the centre of
the ring and Jack walks out. Walcott comes out smiling. They met and the
referee put his arm on each of their shoulders.
“Hello, popularity,” Jack says to Walcott.
“Be yourself.”
“What do you call yourself ‘Walcott’ for?” Jack
says. “Didn’t you know he was a nigger?”
“Listen—” says the referee, and he gives them
the same old line. Once Walcott interrupts him. He grabs Jack’s arm and says,
“Can I hit when he’s got me like this?”
“Keep your hands off me,” Jack says. “There
ain’t no moving-pictures of this.”
They went back to their corners. I lifted the
bathrobe off Jack and he leaned on the ropes and flexed his knees a couple of
times and scuffed his shoes in the rosin. The gong rang and Jack turned quick
and went out. Walcott came toward him and they touched gloves and as soon as
Walcott dropped his hands Jack jumped his left into his face twice. There
wasn’t anybody ever boxed better than Jack. Walcott was after him, going
forward all the time with his chin on his chest. He’s a hooker and he carries
his hands pretty low. All he knows is to get in there and sock. But every time
he gets in there close, Jack has the left hand in his face. It’s just as though
it’s automatic. Jack just raises the left hand up and it’s in Walcott’s face.
Three or four times Jack brings the right over but Walcott gets it on the
shoulder or high up on the head. He’s just like all these hookers. The only
thing he’s afraid of is another one of the same kind. He’s covered everywhere
you can hurt him. He don’t care about a left-hand in his face.
After about four rounds Jack has him bleeding
bad and his face all cut up, but every time Walcott’s got in close he’s socked
so hard he’s got two big red patches on both sides just below Jack’s ribs.
Every time he gets in close, Jack ties him up, then gets one hand loose and
uppercuts him, but when Walcott gets his hands loose he socks Jack in the body
so they can hear it outside in the street. He’s a socker.
It goes along like that for three rounds more.
They don’t talk any. They’re working all the time. We worked over Jack plenty
too, in between the rounds. He don’t look good at all but he never does much
work in the ring. He don’t move around much and that left-hand is just
automatic. It’s just like it was connected with Walcott’s face and Jack just
had to wish it in every time. Jack is always calm in close and he doesn’t waste
any juice. He knows everything about working in close too and he’s getting away
with a lot of stuff. While they were in our corner I watched him tie Walcott
up, get his right hand loose, turn it and come up with an uppercut that got
Walcott’s nose with the heel of the glove. Walcott was bleeding bad and leaned
his nose on Jack’s shoulder so as to give Jack some of it too, and Jack sort of
lifted his shoulder sharp and caught him against the nose, and then brought
down the right hand and did the same thing again.
Walcott was sore as hell. By the time they’d
gone five rounds he hated Jack’s guts. Jack wasn’t sore; that is, he wasn’t any
sorer than he always was. He certainly did used to make the fellows he fought
hate boxing. That was why he hated Kid Lewis so. He never got the Kid’s goat.
Kid Lewis always had about three new dirty things Jack couldn’t do. Jack was as
safe as a church all the time he was in there, as long as he was strong. He
certainly was treating Walcott rough. The funny thing was it looked as though
Jack was an open classic boxer. That was because he had all that stuff too.
After the seventh round Jack says, “My left’s
getting heavy.”
From then he started to take a beating. It
didn’t show at first. But instead of him running the fight it was Walcott was
running it, instead of being safe all the time now he was in trouble. He
couldn’t keep him out with the left hand now. It looked as though it was the
same as ever, only now instead of Walcott’s punches just missing him they were
just hitting him. He took an awful beating in the body.
“What’s the round?” Jack asked.
“The eleventh.”
“I can’t stay,” Jack says. “My legs are going
bad.”
Walcott had been just hitting him for a long
time. It was like a baseball catcher pulls the ball and takes some of the shock
off. From now on Walcott commenced to land solid. He certainly was a
socking-machine. Jack was just trying to block everything now. It didn’t show
what an awful beating he was taking. In between the rounds I worked on his
legs. The muscles would flutter under my hands all the time I was rubbing them.
He was sick as hell.
“How’s it go?” he asked John, turning around,
his face all swollen.
“It’s his fight.”
“I think I can last,” Jack says. “I don’t want
this bohunk to stop me.”
It was going just the way he thought it would.
He knew he couldn’t beat Walcott. He wasn’t strong any more. He was all right
though. His money was all right and now he wanted to finish it off right to
please himself. He didn’t want to be knocked out.
The gong rang and we pushed him out. He went
out slow. Walcott came right out after him. Jack put the left in his face and
Walcott took it, came in under it and started working on Jack’s body. Jack
tried to tie him up and it was just like trying to hold on to a buzz-saw. Jack
broke away from it and missed with the right. Walcott clipped him with a
left-hook and Jack went down. He went down on his hands and knees and looked at
us. The referee started counting. Jack was watching us and shaking his head. At
eight John motioned to him. You couldn’t hear on account of the crowd. Jack got
up. The referee had been holding Walcott back with one arm while he counted.
When Jack was on his feet Walcott started
toward him.
“Watch yourself, Jimmy,” I heard Solly Freedman
yell to him.
Walcott came up to Jack looking at him. Jack
stuck the left hand at him. Walcott just shook his head. He backed Jack up
against the ropes, measured him and then hooked the left very light to the side
of Jack’s head and socked the right into the body as hard as he could sock,
just as low as he could get it. He must have hit him five inches below the
belt. I thought the eyes would come out of Jack’s head. They stuck way out. His
mouth come open.
The referee grabbed Walcott. Jack stepped
forward. If he went down there went fifty thousand bucks. He walked as though
all his insides were going to fall out.
“It wasn’t low,” he said. “It was a accident.”
The crowd were yelling so you couldn’t hear
anything.
“I’m all right,” Jack says. They were right in
front of us. The referee looks at John and then he shakes his head.
“Come on, you polak son-of-a-bitch,” Jack says
to Walcott.
John was hanging onto the ropes. He had the
towel ready to chuck in. Jack was standing just a little way out from the
ropes. He took a step forward. I saw the sweat come out on his face like
somebody had squeezed it and a big drop went down his nose.
“Come on and fight,” Jack says to Walcott.
The referee looked at John and waved Walcott
on.
“Go in there, you slob,” he says.
Walcott went in. He didn’t know what to do
either. He never thought Jack could have stood it. Jack put the left in his
face. There was such a hell of a lot of yelling going on. They were right in
front of us. Walcott hit him twice. Jack’s face was the worst thing I ever
saw,—the look on it! He was holding himself and all his body together and it
all showed on his face. All the time he was thinking and holding his body in
where it was busted.
Then he started to sock. His face looked awful
all the time. He started to sock with his hands low down by his side, swinging
at Walcott. Walcott covered up and Jack was swinging wild at Walcott’s head.
Then he swung the left and it hit Walcott in the groin and the right hit
Walcott right bang where he’d hit Jack. Way low below the belt. Walcott went
down and grabbed himself there and rolled and twisted around.
The referee grabbed Jack and pushed him toward
his corner. John jumps into the ring. There was all this yelling going on. The
referee was talking with the judges and then the announcer got into the ring
with the megaphone and says, “Walcott on a foul.”
The referee is talking to John and he says,
“What could I do? Jack wouldn’t take the foul. Then when he’s groggy he fouls
him.”
“He’d lost it anyway,” John says.
Jack’s sitting on the chair. I’ve got his
gloves off and he’s holding himself in down there with both hands. When he’s
got something supporting it his face doesn’t look so bad.
“Go over and say you’re sorry,” John says into
his ear. “It’ll look good.”
Jack stands up and the sweat comes out all over
his face. I put the bathrobe around him and he holds himself in with one hand
under the bathrobe and goes across the ring. They’ve picked Walcott up and
they’re working on him. There’re a lot of people in Walcott’s corner. Nobody
speaks to Jack. He leans over Walcott.
“I’m sorry,” Jack says. “I didn’t mean to foul
you.”
Walcott doesn’t say anything. He looks too
damned sick.
“Well, you’re the champion now,” Jack says to
him. “I hope you get a hell of a lot of fun out of it.”
“Leave the kid alone,” Solly Freedman says.
“Hello, Solly,” Jack says. “I’m sorry I fouled
your boy.”
Freedman just looks at him.
Jack went to his corner walking that funny
jerky way and we got him down through the ropes and through the reporters’
tables and out down the aisle. A lot of people want to slap Jack on the back.
He goes out through all that mob in his bathrobe to the dressing-room. It’s a
popular win for Walcott. That’s the way the money was bet in the Garden.
Once we got inside the dressing-room Jack lay
down and shut his eyes.
“We want to get to the hotel and get a doctor,”
John says.
“I’m all busted inside,” Jack says.
“I’m sorry as hell, Jack,” John says.
“It’s all right,” Jack says.
He lies there with his eyes shut.
“They certainly tried a nice double-cross,”
John said.
“Your friends Morgan and Steinfelt,” Jack said.
“You got nice friends.”
He lies there, his eyes are open now. His face
has still got that awful drawn look.
“It’s funny how fast you can think when it
means that much money,” Jack says.
“You’re some boy, Jack,” John says.
“No,” Jack says. “It was nothing.”
A SIMPLE ENQUIRY
Outside, the snow was higher than the window.
The sunlight came in through the window and shone on a map on the pine-board
wall of the hut. The sun was high and the light came in over the top of the
snow. A trench had been cut along the open side of the hut, and each clear day
the sun, shining on the wall, reflected heat against the snow and widened the
trench. It was late March. The major sat at a table against the wall. His
adjutant sat at another table.
Around the major’s eyes were two white circles
where his snow-glasses had protected his face from the sun on the snow. The
rest of his face had been burned and then tanned and then burned through the
tan. His nose was swollen and there were edges of loose skin where blisters had
been. While he worked at the papers he put the fingers of his left hand into a
saucer of oil and then spread the oil over his face, touching it very gently
with the tips of his fingers. He was very careful to drain his fingers on the
edge of the saucer so there was only a film of oil on them, and after he had
stroked his forehead and his cheeks, he stroked his nose very delicately
between his fingers. When he had finished he stood up, took the saucer of oil
and went into the small room of the hut where he slept. “I’m going to take a
little sleep,” he said to the adjutant. In that army an adjutant is not a
commissioned officer. “You will finish up.”
“Yes, signor maggiore,” the adjutant answered.
He leaned back in his chair and yawned. He took a paper-covered book out of the
pocket of his coat and opened it; then laid it down on the table and lit his
pipe. He leaned forward on the table to read and puffed at his pipe. Then he
closed the book and put it back in his pocket. He had too much paper-work to
get through. He could not enjoy reading until it was done. Outside, the sun
went behind a mountain and there was no more light on the wall of the hut. A soldier
came in and put some pine branches, chopped into irregular lengths, into the
stove. “Be soft, Pinin,” the adjutant said to him. “The major is sleeping.”
Pinin was the major’s orderly. He was a
dark-faced boy, and he fixed the stove, putting the pine wood in carefully,
shut the door, and went into the back of the hut again. The adjutant went on
with his papers.
“Tonani,” the major called.
“Signor maggiore?”
“Send Pinin in to me.”
“Pinin!” the adjutant called. Pinin came into
the room. “The major wants you,” the adjutant said.
Pinin walked across the main room of the hut
toward the major’s door. He knocked on the half-opened door. “Signor maggiore?”
“Come in,” the adjutant heard the major say,
“and shut the door.”
Inside the room the major lay on his bunk.
Pinin stood beside the bunk. The major lay with his head on the rucksack that
he had stuffed with spare clothing to make a pillow. His long, burned, oiled
face looked at Pinin. His hands lay on the blankets.
“You are nineteen?” he asked.
“Yes, signor maggiore.”
“You have ever been in love?”
“How do you mean, signor maggiore?”
“In love—with a girl?”
“I have been with girls.”
“I did not ask that. I asked if you had been in
love—with a girl.”
“Yes, signor maggiore.”
“You are in love with this girl now? You don’t
write her. I read all your letters.”
“I am in love with her,” Pinin said, “but I do
not write her.”
“You are sure of this?”
“I am sure.”
“Tonani,” the major said in the same tone of
voice, “can you hear me talking?”
There was no answer from the next room.
“He can not hear,” the major said. “And you are
quite sure that you love a girl?”
“I am sure.”
“And,” the major looked at him quickly, “that
you are not corrupt?”
“I don’t know what you mean, corrupt.”
“All right,” the major said. “You needn’t be
superior.”
Pinin looked at the floor. The major looked at
his brown face, down and up him, and at his hands. Then he went on, not
smiling, “And you don’t really want—” the major paused. Pinin looked at the
floor. “That your great desire isn’t really—” Pinin looked at the floor. The
major leaned his head back on the rucksack and smiled. He was really relieved:
life in the army was too complicated. “You’re a good boy,” he said. “You’re a
good boy, Pinin. But don’t be superior and be careful some one else doesn’t come
along and take you.”
Pinin stood still beside the bunk.
“Don’t be afraid,” the major said. His hands
were folded on the blankets. “I won’t touch you. You can go back to your
platoon if you like. But you had better stay on as my servant. You’ve less
chance of being killed.”
“Do you want anything of me, signor maggiore?”
“No,” the major said. “Go on and get on with
whatever you were doing. Leave the door open when you go out.”
Pinin went out, leaving the door open. The
adjutant looked up at him as he walked awkwardly across the room and out the
door. Pinin was flushed and moved differently than he had moved when he brought
in the wood for the fire. The adjutant looked after him and smiled. Pinin came
in with more wood for the stove. The major, lying on his bunk, looking at his
cloth-covered helmet and his snow-glasses that hung from a nail on the wall,
heard him walk across the floor. The little devil, he thought, I wonder if he lied
to me.
TEN INDIANS
After one Fourth of July, Nick, driving home
late from town in the big wagon with Joe Garner and his family, passed nine
drunken Indians along the road. He remembered there were nine because Joe
Garner, driving along in the dusk, pulled up the horses, jumped down into the
road and dragged an Indian out of the wheel rut. The Indian had been asleep,
face down in the sand. Joe dragged him into the bushes and got back up on the
wagon-box.
“That makes nine of them,” Joe said, “just
between here and the edge of town.”
“Them Indians,” said Mrs. Garner.
Nick was on the back seat with the two Garner
boys. He was looking out from the back seat to see the Indian where Joe had
dragged him alongside of the road.
“Was it Billy Tabeshaw?” Carl asked.
“No.”
“His pants looked mighty like Billy.”
“All Indians wear the same kind of pants.”
“I didn’t see him at all,” Frank said. “Pa was
down into the road and back up again before I seen a thing. I thought he was
killing a snake.”
“Plenty of Indians’ll kill snakes to-night, I
guess,” Joe Garner said.
“Them Indians,” said Mrs. Garner.
They drove along. The road turned off from the
main highway and went up into the hills. It was hard pulling for the horses and
the boys got down and walked. The road was sandy. Nick looked back from the top
of the hill by the schoolhouse. He saw the lights of Petoskey and, off across
Little Traverse Bay, the lights of Harbour Springs. They climbed back in the
wagon again.
“They ought to put some gravel on that
stretch,” Joe Garner said. The wagon went along the road through the woods. Joe
and Mrs. Garner sat close together on the front seat. Nick sat between the two
boys. The road came out into a clearing.
“Right here was where Pa ran over the skunk.”
“It was further on.”
“It don’t make no difference where it was,” Joe
said without turning his head. “One place is just as good as another to run
over a skunk.”
“I saw two skunks last night,” Nick said.
“Where?”
“Down by the lake. They were looking for dead
fish along the beach.”
“They were coons probably,” Carl said.
“They were skunks. I guess I know skunks.”
“You ought to,” Carl said. “You got an Indian
girl.”
“Stop talking that way, Carl,” said Mrs.
Garner.
“Well, they smell about the same.”
Joe Garner laughed.
“You stop laughing, Joe,” Mrs. Garner said. “I
won’t have Carl talk that way.”
“Have you got an Indian girl, Nickie?” Joe
asked.
“No.”
“He has too, Pa,” Frank said. “Prudence
Mitchell’s his girl.”
“She’s not.”
“He goes to see her every day.”
“I don’t.” Nick, sitting between the two boys
in the dark, felt hollow and happy inside himself to be teased about Prudence
Mitchell. “She ain’t my girl,” he said.
“Listen to him,” said Carl. “I see them
together every day.”
“Carl can’t get a girl,” his mother said, “not
even a squaw.”
Carl was quiet.
“Carl ain’t no good with girls,” Frank said.
“You shut up.”
“You’re all right, Carl,” Joe Garner said.
“Girls never got a man anywhere. Look at your pa.”
“Yes, that’s what you would say,” Mrs. Garner
moved close to Joe as the wagon jolted. “Well, you had plenty of girls in your
time.”
“I’ll bet Pa wouldn’t ever have had a squaw for
a girl.”
“Don’t you think it,” Joe said. “You better
watch out to keep Prudie, Nick.”
His wife whispered to him and Joe laughed.
“What you laughing at?” asked Frank.
“Don’t you say it, Garner,” his wife warned.
Joe laughed again.
“Nickie can have Prudence,” Joe Garner said. “I
got a good girl.”
“That’s the way to talk,” Mrs. Garner said.
The horses were pulling heavily in the sand.
Joe reached out in the dark with the whip.
“Come on, pull into it. You’ll have to pull
harder than this to-morrow.”
They trotted down the long hill, the wagon
jolting. At the farmhouse everybody got down. Mrs. Garner unlocked the door,
went inside, and came out with a lamp in her hand. Carl and Nick unloaded the
things from the back of the wagon. Frank sat on the front seat to drive to the
barn and put up the horses. Nick went up the steps and opened the kitchen door.
Mrs. Garner was building a fire in the stove. She turned from pouring kerosene
on the wood.
“Good-by, Mrs. Garner,” Nick said. “Thanks for
taking me.”
“Oh shucks, Nickie.”
“I had a wonderful time.”
“We like to have you. Won’t you stay and eat
some supper?”
“I better go. I think Dad probably waited for
me.”
“Well, get along then. Send Carl up to the
house, will you?”
“All right.”
“Good-night, Nickie.”
“Good-night, Mrs. Garner.”
Nick went out the farmyard and down to the
barn. Joe and Frank were milking.
“Good-night,” Nick said. “I had a swell time.”
“Good-night, Nick,” Joe Garner called. “Aren’t
you going to stay and eat?”
“No, I can’t. Will you tell Carl his mother
wants him?”
“All right. Good-night, Nickie.”
Nick walked barefoot along the path through the
meadow below the barn. The path was smooth and the dew was cool on his bare
feet. He climbed a fence at the end of the meadow, went down through a ravine,
his feet wet in the swamp mud, and then climbed up through the dry beech woods
until he saw the lights of the cottage. He climbed over the fence and walked
around to the front porch. Through the window he saw his father sitting by the
table, reading in the light from the big lamp. Nick opened the door and went
in.
“Well, Nickie,” his father said, “was it a good
day?”
“I had a swell time, Dad. It was a swell Fourth
of July.”
“Are you hungry?”
“You bet.”
“What did you do with your shoes?”
“I left them in the wagon at Garner’s.”
“Come on out to the kitchen.”
Nick’s father went ahead with the lamp. He
stopped and lifted the lid of the ice-box. Nick went on into the kitchen. His
father brought in a piece of cold chicken on a plate and a pitcher of milk and
put them on the table before Nick. He put down the lamp.
“There’s some pie too,” he said. “Will that
hold you?”
“It’s grand.”
His father sat down in a chair beside the
oilcloth-covered table. He made a big shadow on the kitchen wall.
“Who won the ball game?”
“Petoskey. Five to three.”
His father sat watching him eat and filled his
glass from the milk-pitcher. Nick drank and wiped his mouth on his napkin. His
father reached over to the shelf for the pie. He cut Nick a big piece. It was
huckleberry pie.
“What did you do, Dad?”
“I went out fishing in the morning.”
“What did you get?”
“Only perch.”
His father sat watching Nick eat the pie.
“What did you do this afternoon?” Nick asked.
“I went for a walk up by the Indian camp.”
“Did you see anybody?”
“The Indians were all in town getting drunk.”
“Didn’t you see anybody at all?”
“I saw your friend, Prudie.”
“Where was she?”
“She was in the woods with Frank Washburn. I
ran onto them. They were having quite a time.”
His father was not looking at him.
“What were they doing?”
“I didn’t stay to find out.”
“Tell me what they were doing.”
“I don’t know,” his father said. “I just heard
them threshing around.”
“How did you know it was them?”
“I saw them.”
“I thought you said you didn’t see them.”
“Oh, yes, I saw them.”
“Who was it with her?” Nick asked.
“Frank Washburn.”
“Were they—were they——”
“Were they what?”
“Were they happy?”
“I guess so.”
His father got up from the table and went out
the kitchen screen door. When he came back Nick was looking at his plate. He
had been crying.
“Have some more?” His father picked up the
knife to cut the pie.
“No,” said Nick.
“You better have another piece.”
“No, I don’t want any.”
His father cleared off the table.
“Where were they in the woods?” Nick asked.
“Up back of the camp.” Nick looked at his
plate. His father said, “You better go to bed, Nick.”
“All right.”
Nick went into his room, undressed, and got
into bed. He heard his father moving around in the living-room. Nick lay in the
bed with his face in the pillow.
“My heart’s broken,” he thought. “If I feel
this way my heart must be broken.”
After a while he heard his father blow out the
lamp and go into his own room. He heard a wind come up in the trees outside and
felt it come in cool through the screen. He lay for a long time with his face
in the pillow, and after a while he forgot to think about Prudence and finally
he went to sleep. When he awoke in the night he heard the wind in the hemlock
trees outside the cottage and the waves of the lake coming in on the shore, and
he went back to sleep. In the morning there was a big wind blowing and the
waves were running high up on the beach and he was awake a long time before he
remembered that his heart was broken.
A CANARY FOR ONE
The train passed very quickly a long, red stone
house with a garden and four thick palm-trees with tables under them in the
shade. On the other side was the sea. Then there was a cutting through red
stone and clay, and the sea was only occasionally and far below against rocks.
“I bought him in Palermo,” the American lady
said. “We only had an hour ashore and it was Sunday morning. The man wanted to
be paid in dollars and I gave him a dollar and a half. He really sings very
beautifully.”
It was very hot in the train and it was very
hot in the lit salon compartment. There was no breeze came through the
open window. The American lady pulled the window-blind down and there was no
more sea, even occasionally. On the other side there was glass, then the
corridor, then an open window, and outside the window were dusty trees and an
oiled road and flat fields of grapes, with gray-stone hills behind them.
There was smoke from many tall chimneys—coming
into Marseilles, and the train slowed down and followed one track through many
others into the station. The train stayed twenty-five minutes in the station at
Marseilles and the American lady bought a copy of The Daily Mail and a
half-bottle of Evian water. She walked a little way along the station platform,
but she stayed near the steps of the car because at Cannes, where it stopped
for twelve minutes, the train had left with no signal of departure and she had
only gotten on just in time. The American lady was a little deaf and she was
afraid that perhaps signals of departure were given and that she did not hear
them.
The train left the station in Marseilles and
there was not only the switch-yards and the factory smoke but, looking back,
the town of Marseilles and the harbor with stone hills behind it and the last
of the sun on the water. As it was getting dark the train passed a farmhouse
burning in a field. Motor-cars were stopped along the road and bedding and
things from inside the farmhouse were spread in the field. Many people were
watching the house burn. After it was dark the train was in Avignon. People got
on and off. At the news-stand Frenchmen, returning to Paris, bought that day’s
French papers. On the station platform were negro soldiers. They wore brown
uniforms and were tall and their faces shone, close under the electric light.
Their faces were very black and they were too tall to stare. The train left
Avignon station with the negroes standing there. A short white sergeant was
with them.
Inside the lit salon compartment the
porter had pulled down the three beds from inside the wall and prepared them
for sleeping. In the night the American lady lay without sleeping because the
train was a rapide and went very fast and she was afraid of the speed in
the night. The American lady’s bed was the one next to the window. The canary
from Palermo, a cloth spread over his cage, was out of the draft in the
corridor that went into the compartment wash-room. There was a blue light
outside the compartment, and all night the train went very fast and the
American lady lay awake and waited for a wreck.
In the morning the train was near Paris, and
after the American lady had come out from the wash-room, looking very wholesome
and middle-aged and American in spite of not having slept, and had taken the
cloth off the birdcage and hung the cage in the sun, she went back to the
restaurant-car for breakfast. When she came back to the lit salon
compartment again, the beds had been pushed back into the wall and made into
seats, the canary was shaking his feathers in the sunlight that came through
the open window, and the train was much nearer Paris.
“He loves the sun,” the American lady said.
“He’ll sing now in a little while.”
The canary shook his feathers and pecked into
them. “I’ve always loved birds,” the American lady said. “I’m taking him home
to my little girl. There—he’s singing now.”
The canary chirped and the feathers on his
throat stood out, then he dropped his bill and pecked into his feathers again.
The train crossed a river and passed through a very carefully tended forest.
The train passed through many outside of Paris towns. There were tram-cars in
the towns and big advertisements for the Belle Jardinière and Dubonnet and
Pernod on the walls toward the train. All that the train passed through looked
as though it were before breakfast. For several minutes I had not listened to
the American lady, who was talking to my wife.
“Is your husband American too?” asked the lady.
“Yes,” said my wife. “We’re both Americans.”
“I thought you were English.”
“Oh, no.”
“Perhaps that was because I wore braces,” I
said. I had started to say suspenders and changed it to braces in the mouth, to
keep my English character. The American lady did not hear. She was really quite
deaf; she read lips, and I had not looked toward her. I had looked out of the
window. She went on talking to my wife.
“I’m so glad you’re Americans. American men
make the best husbands,” the American lady was saying. “That was why we left
the Continent, you know. My daughter fell in love with a man in Vevey.” She
stopped. “They were simply madly in love.” She stopped again. “I took her away,
of course.”
“Did she get over it?” asked my wife.
“I don’t think so,” said the American lady.
“She wouldn’t eat anything and she wouldn’t sleep at all. I’ve tried so very
hard, but she doesn’t seem to take an interest in anything. She doesn’t care
about things. I couldn’t have her marrying a foreigner.” She paused. “Some one,
a very good friend, told me once, ‘No foreigner can make an American girl a
good husband.’ ”
“No,” said my wife, “I suppose not.”
The American lady admired my wife’s
travelling-coat, and it turned out that the American lady had bought her own
clothes for twenty years now from the same maison de couturier in the Rue Saint
Honoré. They had her measurements, and a vendeuse who knew her and her tastes
picked the dresses out for her and they were sent to America. They came to the
post-office near where she lived up-town in New York, and the duty was never
exorbitant because they opened the dresses there in the post-office to appraise
them and they were always very simple-looking and with no gold lace nor
ornaments that would make the dresses look expensive. Before the present
vendeuse, named Thérèse, there had been another vendeuse, named Amélie.
Altogether there had only been these two in the twenty years. It had always
been the same couturier. Prices, however, had gone up. The exchange, though,
equalized that. They had her daughter’s measurements now too. She was grown up
and there was not much chance of their changing now.
The train was now coming into Paris. The
fortifications were levelled but grass had not grown. There were many cars
standing on tracks—brown wooden restaurant-cars and brown wooden sleeping-cars
that would go to Italy at five o’clock that night, if that train still left at
five; the cars were marked Paris-Rome, and cars, with seats on the roofs, that
went back and forth to the suburbs with, at certain hours, people in all the
seats and on the roofs, if that were the way it were still done, and passing were
the white walls and many windows of houses. Nothing had eaten any breakfast.
“Americans make the best husbands,” the
American lady said to my wife. I was getting down the bags. “American men are
the only men in the world to marry.”
“How long ago did you leave Vevey?” asked my
wife.
“Two years ago this fall. It’s her, you know,
that I’m taking the canary to.”
“Was the man your daughter was in love with a
Swiss?”
“Yes,” said the American lady. “He was from a
very good family in Vevey. He was going to be an engineer. They met there in
Vevey. They used to go on long walks together.”
“I know Vevey,” said my wife. “We were there on
our honeymoon.”
“Were you really? That must have been lovely. I
had no idea, of course, that she’d fall in love with him.”
“It was a very lovely place,” said my wife.
“Yes,” said the American lady. “Isn’t it
lovely? Where did you stop there?”
“We stayed at the Trois Couronnes,” said my
wife.
“It’s such a fine old hotel,” said the American
lady.
“Yes,” said my wife. “We had a very fine room
and in the fall the country was lovely.”
“Were you there in the fall?”
“Yes,” said my wife.
We were passing three cars that had been in a
wreck. They were splintered open and the roofs sagged in.
“Look,” I said. “There’s been a wreck.”
The American lady looked and saw the last car.
“I was afraid of just that all night,” she said. “I have terrific presentiments
about things sometimes. I’ll never travel on a rapide again at night.
There must be other comfortable trains that don’t go so fast.”
Then the train was in the dark of the Gare de
Lyons, and then stopped and porters came up to the windows. I handed bags
through the windows, and we were out on the dim longness of the platform, and
the American lady put herself in charge of one of three men from Cook’s who
said: “Just a moment, madame, and I’ll look for your name.”
The porter brought a truck and piled on the
baggage, and my wife said good-by and I said good-by to the American lady,
whose name had been found by the man from Cook’s on a typewritten page in a
sheaf of typewritten pages which he replaced in his pocket.
We followed the porter with the truck down the
long cement platform beside the train. At the end was a gate and a man took the
tickets.
We were returning to Paris to set up separate
residences.
AN ALPINE IDYLL
It was hot coming down into the valley even in
the early morning. The sun melted the snow from the skis we were carrying and
dried the wood. It was spring in the valley but the sun was very hot. We came
along the road into Galtur carrying our skis and rucksacks. As we passed the
churchyard a burial was just over. I said, “Grüss Gott,” to the priest as he
walked past us coming out of the churchyard. The priest bowed.
“It’s funny a priest never speaks to you,” John
said.
“You’d think they’d like to say ‘Grüss Gott.’ ”
“They never answer,” John said.
We stopped in the road and watched the sexton
shovelling in the new earth. A peasant with a black beard and high leather
boots stood beside the grave. The sexton stopped shovelling and straightened
his back. The peasant in the high boots took the spade from the sexton and went
on filling in the grave—spreading the earth evenly as a man spreading manure in
a garden. In the bright May morning the grave-filling looked unreal. I could
not imagine any one being dead.
“Imagine being buried on a day like this,” I
said to John.
“I wouldn’t like it.”
“Well,” I said, “we don’t have to do it.”
We went on up the road past the houses of the
town to the inn. We had been skiing in the Silvretta for a month, and it was
good to be down in the valley. In the Silvretta the skiing had been all right,
but it was spring skiing, the snow was good only in the early morning and again
in the evening. The rest of the time it was spoiled by the sun. We were both
tired of the sun. You could not get away from the sun. The only shadows were
made by rocks or by the hut that was built under the protection of a rock beside
a glacier, and in the shade the sweat froze in your underclothing. You could
not sit outside the hut without dark glasses. It was pleasant to be burned
black but the sun had been very tiring. You could not rest in it. I was glad to
be down away from snow. It was too late in the spring to be up in the
Silvretta. I was a little tired of skiing. We had stayed too long. I could
taste the snow water we had been drinking melted off the tin roof of the hut.
The taste was a part of the way I felt about skiing. I was glad there were
other things beside skiing, and I was glad to be down, away from the unnatural
high mountain spring, into this May morning in the valley.
The innkeeper sat on the porch of the inn, his
chair tipped back against the wall. Beside him sat the cook.
“Ski-heil!” said the innkeeper.
“Heil!” we said and leaned the skis against the
wall and took off our packs.
“How was it up above?” asked the innkeeper.
“Schön. A little too much sun.”
“Yes. There’s too much sun this time of year.”
The cook sat on in his chair. The innkeeper
went in with us and unlocked his office and brought out our mail. There was a
bundle of letters and some papers.
“Let’s get some beer,” John said.
“Good. We’ll drink it inside.”
The proprietor brought two bottles and we drank
them while we read the letters.
“We better have some more beer,” John said. A
girl brought it this time. She smiled as she opened the bottles.
“Many letters,” she said.
“Yes. Many.”
“Prosit,” she said and went out, taking the
empty bottles.
“I’d forgotten what beer tasted like.”
“I hadn’t,” John said. “Up in the hut I used to
think about it a lot.”
“Well,” I said, “we’ve got it now.”
“You oughtn’t to ever do anything too long.”
“No. We were up there too long.”
“Too damn long,” John said. “It’s no good doing
a thing too long.”
The sun came through the open window and shone
through the beer bottles on the table. The bottles were half full. There was a
little froth on the beer in the bottles, not much because it was very cold. It
collared up when you poured it into the tall glasses. I looked out of the open
window at the white road. The trees beside the road were dusty. Beyond was a
green field and a stream. There were trees along the stream and a mill with a
water wheel. Through the open side of the mill I saw a long log and a saw in it
rising and falling. No one seemed to be tending it. There were four crows
walking in the green field. One crow sat in a tree watching. Outside on the
porch the cook got off his chair and passed into the hall that led back into
the kitchen. Inside, the sunlight shone through the empty glasses on the table.
John was leaning forward with his head on his arms.
Through the window I saw two men come up the
front steps. They came into the drinking room. One was the bearded peasant in
the high boots. The other was the sexton. They sat down at the table under the
window. The girl came in and stood by their table. The peasant did not seem to
see her. He sat with his hands on the table. He wore his old army clothes.
There were patches on the elbows.
“What will it be?” asked the sexton. The
peasant did not pay any attention.
“What will you drink?”
“Schnapps,” the peasant said.
“And a quarter litre of red wine,” the sexton
told the girl.
The girl brought the drinks and the peasant
drank the schnapps. He looked out of the window. The sexton watched him. John
had his head forward on the table. He was asleep.
The innkeeper came in and went over to the
table. He spoke in dialect and the sexton answered him. The peasant looked out
of the window. The innkeeper went out of the room. The peasant stood up. He
took a folded ten-thousand kronen note out of a leather pocket-book and
unfolded it. The girl came up.
“Alles?” she asked.
“Alles,” he said.
“Let me buy the wine,” the sexton said.
“Alles,” the peasant repeated to the girl. She
put her hand in the pocket of her apron, brought it out full of coins and
counted out the change. The peasant went out the door. As soon as he was gone
the innkeeper came into the room again and spoke to the sexton. He sat down at
the table. They talked in dialect. The sexton was amused. The innkeeper was
disgusted. The sexton stood up from the table. He was a little man with a
mustache. He leaned out of the window and looked up the road.
“There he goes in,” he said.
“In the Löwen?”
“Ja.”
They talked again and then the innkeeper came
over to our table. The innkeeper was a tall man and old. He looked at John
asleep.
“He’s pretty tired.”
“Yes, we were up early.”
“Will you want to eat soon?”
“Any time,” I said. “What is there to eat?”
“Anything you want. The girl will bring the
eating-card.”
The girl brought the menu. John woke up. The
menu was written in ink on a card and the card slipped into a wooden paddle.
“There’s the speise-karte,” I said to John. He
looked at it. He was still sleepy.
“Won’t you have a drink with us?” I asked the
innkeeper. He sat down. “Those peasants are beasts,” said the innkeeper.
“We saw that one at a funeral coming into
town.”
“That was his wife.”
“Oh.”
“He’s a beast. All these peasants are beasts.”
“How do you mean?”
“You wouldn’t believe it. You wouldn’t believe
what just happened about that one.”
“Tell me.”
“You wouldn’t believe it.” The innkeeper spoke
to the sexton. “Franz, come over here.” The sexton came, bringing his little
bottle of wine and his glass.
“The gentlemen are just come down from the
Wiesbadenerhütte,” the innkeeper said. We shook hands.
“What will you drink?” I asked.
“Nothing,” Franz shook his finger.
“Another quarter litre?”
“All right.”
“Do you understand dialect?” the innkeeper
asked.
“No.”
“What’s it all about?” John asked.
“He’s going to tell us about the peasant we saw
filling the grave, coming into town.”
“I can’t understand it, anyway,” John said. “It
goes too fast for me.”
“That peasant,” the innkeeper said, “to-day he
brought his wife in to be buried. She died last November.”
“December,” said the sexton.
“That makes nothing. She died last December
then, and he notified the commune.”
“December eighteenth,” said the sexton.
“Anyway, he couldn’t bring her over to be
buried until the snow was gone.”
“He lives on the other side of the Paznaun,”
said the sexton. “But he belongs to this parish.”
“He couldn’t bring her out at all?” I asked.
“No. He can only come, from where he lives, on
skis until the snow melts. So to-day he brought her in to be buried and the
priest, when he looked at her face, didn’t want to bury her. You go on and tell
it,” he said to the sexton. “Speak German, not dialect.”
“It was very funny with the priest,” said the
sexton. “In the report to the commune she died of heart trouble. We knew she
had heart trouble here. She used to faint in church sometimes. She did not come
for a long time. She wasn’t strong to climb. When the priest uncovered her face
he asked Olz, ‘Did your wife suffer much?’ ‘No,’ said Olz. ‘When I came in the
house she was dead across the bed.’
“The priest looked at her again. He didn’t like
it.
“ ‘How did her face get
that way?’
“ ‘I don’t
know,’ Olz said.
“ ‘You’d
better find out,’ the priest said, and put the blanket back. Olz didn’t
say anything. The priest looked at him. Olz looked back at the priest. ‘You
want to know?’
“ ‘I must know,’
the priest said.”
“This is where it’s good,” the innkeeper said.
“Listen to this. Go on Franz.”
“ ‘Well,’
said Olz, ‘when she died I made the report to the commune and I put
her in the shed across the top of the big wood. When I started to use the big
wood she was stiff and I put her up against the wall. Her mouth was open and
when I came into the shed at night to cut up the big wood, I hung the lantern
from it.’
“ ‘Why did you do that?’
asked the priest.
“ ‘I don’t
know,’ said Olz.
“ ‘Did you do that many
times?’
“ ‘Every time I went to
work in the shed at night.’
“ ‘It was very wrong,’
said the priest. ‘Did you love your wife?’
“ ‘Ja, I loved her,’
Olz said. ‘I loved her fine.’ ”
“Did you understand it all?” asked the
innkeeper. “You understand it all about his wife?”
“I heard it.”
“How about eating?” John asked.
“You order,” I said. “Do you think it’s true?”
I asked the innkeeper.
“Sure it’s true,” he said. “These peasants are
beasts.”
“Where did he go now?”
“He’s gone to drink at my colleague’s, the
Löwen.”
“He didn’t want to drink with me,” said the
sexton.
“He didn’t want to drink with me, after he knew
about his wife,” said the innkeeper.
“Say,” said John. “How about eating?”
“All right,” I said.
A PURSUIT RACE
William Campbell had been in a pursuit race
with a burlesque show ever since Pittsburgh. In a pursuit race, in bicycle
racing, riders start at equal intervals to ride after one another. They ride
very fast because the race is usually limited to a short distance and if they
slow their riding another rider who maintains his pace will make up the space
that separated them equally at the start. As soon as a rider is caught and
passed he is out of the race and must get down from his bicycle and leave the
track. If none of the riders are caught the winner of the race is the one who
has gained the most distance. In most pursuit races, if there are only two
riders, one of the riders is caught inside of six miles. The burlesque show
caught William Campbell at Kansas City.
William Campbell had hoped to hold a slight
lead over the burlesque show until they reached the Pacific coast. As long as
he preceded the burlesque show as advance man he was being paid. When the
burlesque show caught up with him he was in bed. He was in bed when the manager
of the burlesque troupe came into his room and after the manager had gone out
he decided that he might as well stay in bed. It was very cold in Kansas City
and he was in no hurry to go out. He did not like Kansas City. He reached under
the bed for a bottle and drank. It made his stomach feel better. Mr. Turner,
the manager of the burlesque show, had refused a drink.
William Campbell’s interview with Mr. Turner
had been a little strange. Mr. Turner had knocked on the door. Campbell had
said: “Come in!” When Mr. Turner came into the room he saw clothing on a chair,
an open suitcase, the bottle on a chair beside the bed, and some one lying in
the bed completely covered by the bed-clothes.
“Mister Campbell,” Mr. Turner said.
“You can’t fire me,” William Campbell said from
underneath the covers. It was warm and white and close under the covers. “You
can’t fire me because I’ve got down off my bicycle.”
“You’re drunk,” Mr. Turner said.
“Oh, yes,” William Campbell said, speaking
directly against the sheet and feeling the texture with his lips.
“You’re a fool,” Mr. Turner said. He turned off
the electric light. The electric light had been burning all night. It was now
ten o’clock in the morning. “You’re a drunken fool. When did you get into this
town?”
“I got into this town last night,” William
Campbell said, speaking against the sheet. He found he liked to talk through a
sheet. “Did you ever talk through a sheet?”
“Don’t try to be funny. You aren’t funny.”
“I’m not being funny. I’m just talking through
a sheet.”
“You’re talking through a sheet all right.”
“You can go now, Mr. Turner,” Campbell said. “I
don’t work for you any more.”
“You know that anyway.”
“I know a lot,” William Campbell said. He
pulled down the sheet and looked at Mr. Turner. “I know enough so I don’t mind
looking at you at all. Do you want to hear what I know?”
“No.”
“Good,” said William Campbell. “Because really
I don’t know anything at all. I was just talking.” He pulled the sheet up over
his face again. “I love it under a sheet,” he said. Mr. Turner stood beside the
bed. He was a middle-aged man with a large stomach and a bald head and he had
many things to do. “You ought to stop off here, Billy, and take a cure,” he
said. “I’ll fix it up if you want to do it.”
“I don’t want to take a cure,” William Campbell
said. “I don’t want to take a cure at all. I am perfectly happy. All my life I
have been perfectly happy.”
“How long have you been this way?”
“What a question!” William Campbell breathed in
and out through the sheet.
“How long have you been stewed, Billy?”
“Haven’t I done my work?”
“Sure. I just asked you how long you’ve been
stewed, Billy.”
“I don’t know. But I’ve got my wolf back,” he
touched the sheet with his tongue. “I’ve had him for a week.”
“The hell you have.”
“Oh, yes. My dear wolf. Every time I take a
drink he goes outside the room. He can’t stand alcohol. The poor little
fellow.” He moved his tongue round and round on the sheet. “He’s a lovely wolf.
He’s just like he always was.” William Campbell shut his eyes and took a deep
breath.
“You got to take a cure, Billy,” Mr. Turner
said. “You won’t mind the Keeley. It isn’t bad.”
“The Keeley,” William Campbell said. “It isn’t
far from London.” He shut his eyes and opened them, moving the eyelashes
against the sheet. “I just love sheets,” he said. He looked at Mr. Turner.
“Listen, you think I’m drunk.”
“You are drunk.”
“No, I’m not.”
“You’re drunk and you’ve had dt’s.”
“No.” William Campbell held the sheet around
his head. “Dear sheet,” he said. He breathed against it gently. “Pretty sheet.
You love me, don’t you, sheet? It’s all in the price of the room. Just like in
Japan. No,” he said. “Listen Billy, dear Sliding Billy, I have a surprise for
you. I’m not drunk. I’m hopped to the eyes.”
“No,” said Mr. Turner.
“Take a look.” William Campbell pulled up the
right sleeve of his pyjama jacket under the sheet, then shoved the right
forearm out. “Look at that.” On the forearm, from just above the wrist to the
elbow, were small blue circles around tiny dark blue punctures. The circles
almost touched one another. “That’s the new development,” William Campbell
said. “I drink a little now once in a while, just to drive the wolf out of the
room.”
“They got a cure for that, ‘Sliding Billy’ ”
Turner said.
“No,” William Campbell said. “They haven’t got
a cure for anything.”
“You can’t just quit like that, Billy,” Turner
said. He sat on the bed.
“Be careful of my sheet,” William Campbell
said.
“You can’t just quit at your age and take to
pumping yourself full of that stuff just because you got in a jam.”
“There’s a law against it. If that’s what you
mean.”
“No, I mean you got to fight it out.”
Billy Campbell caressed the sheet with his lips
and his tongue. “Dear sheet,” he said. “I can kiss this sheet and see right
through it at the same time.”
“Cut it out about the sheet. You can’t just
take to that stuff, Billy.”
William Campbell shut his eyes. He was
beginning to feel a slight nausea. He knew that this nausea would increase
steadily, without there ever being the relief of sickness, until something were
done against it. It was at this point that he suggested that Mr. Turner have a
drink. Mr. Turner declined. William Campbell took a drink from the bottle. It
was a temporary measure. Mr. Turner watched him. Mr. Turner had been in this
room much longer than he should have been, he had many things to do; although
living in daily association with people who used drugs, he had a horror of
drugs, and he was very fond of William Campbell; he did not wish to leave him.
He was very sorry for him and he felt a cure might help. He knew there were
good cures in Kansas City. But he had to go. He stood up.
“Listen, Billy,” William Campbell said, “I want
to tell you something. You’re called ‘Sliding Billy.’ That’s because you can
slide. I’m called just Billy. That’s because I never could slide at all. I
can’t slide, Billy. I can’t slide. It just catches. Every time I try it, it
catches.” He shut his eyes. “I can’t slide, Billy. It’s awful when you can’t
slide.”
“Yes,” said “Sliding Billy” Turner.
“Yes, what?” William Campbell looked at him.
“You were saying.”
“No,” said William Campbell. “I wasn’t saying.
It must have been a mistake.”
“You were saying about sliding.”
“No. It couldn’t have been about sliding. But
listen, Billy, and I’ll tell you a secret. Stick to sheets, Billy. Keep away
from women and horses and, and—” he stopped “—eagles, Billy. If you love horses
you’ll get horse-s—, and if you love eagles you’ll get eagle-s—.” He stopped
and put his head under the sheet.
“I got to go,” said “Sliding Billy” Turner.
“If you love women you’ll get a dose,” William
Campbell said. “If you love horses——”
“Yes, you said that.”
“Said what?”
“About horses and eagles.”
“Oh, yes. And if you love sheets.” He breathed
on the sheet and stroked his nose against it. “I don’t know about sheets,” he
said. “I just started to love this sheet.”
“I have to go,” Mr. Turner said. “I got a lot
to do.”
“That’s all right,” William Campbell said.
“Everybody’s got to go.”
“I better go.”
“All right, you go.”
“Are you all right, Billy?”
“I was never so happy in my life.”
“And you’re all right?”
“I’m fine. You go along. I’ll just lie here for
a little while. Around noon I’ll get up.”
But when Mr. Turner came up to William
Campbell’s room at noon William Campbell was sleeping and as Mr. Turner was a
man who knew what things in life were very valuable he did not wake him.
TO-DAY IS FRIDAY
Three Roman soldiers are in a drinking-place at
eleven o’clock at night. There are barrels around the wall. Behind the wooden
counter is a Hebrew wine-seller. The three Roman soldiers are a little
cock-eyed.
1st Roman Soldier—You tried the red?
2d Soldier—No, I ain’t tried it.
1st Soldier—You better try it.
2d Soldier—All right, George, we’ll have a round
of the red.
Hebrew Wine-seller—Here you are,
gentlemen. You’ll like that. [He sets down an earthenware pitcher that he
has filled from one of the casks.] That’s a nice little wine.
1st Soldier—Have a drink of it yourself. [He
turns to the third Roman soldier who is leaning on a barrel.] What’s the
matter with you?
3d Roman Soldier—I got a gut-ache.
2d Soldier—You’ve been drinking water.
1st Soldier—Try some of the red.
3d Soldier—I can’t drink the damn stuff. It makes
my gut sour.
1st Soldier—You been out here too long.
3d Soldier—Hell, don’t I know it?
1st Soldier—Say, George, can’t you give this
gentleman something to fix up his stomach?
Hebrew Wine-seller—I got it right here.
[The third Roman soldier tastes the cup that
the wine-seller has mixed for him.]
3d Soldier—Hey, what you put in that, camel chips?
Wine-seller—You drink that right down, Lootenant.
That’ll fix you up right.
3d Soldier—Well, I couldn’t feel any worse.
1st Soldier—Take a chance on it. George fixed me up
fine the other day.
Wine-seller—You were in bad shape, Lootenant. I
know what fixes up a bad stomach.
[The third Roman soldier drinks the cup
down.]
3d Roman Soldier—Jesus Christ. [He
makes a face.]
2d Soldier—That false alarm!
1st Soldier—Oh, I don’t know. He was pretty good in
there to-day.
2d Soldier—Why didn’t he come down off the cross?
1st Soldier—He didn’t want to come down off the
cross. That’s not his play.
2d Soldier—Show me a guy that doesn’t want to come
down off the cross.
1st Soldier—Aw, hell, you don’t know anything about
it. Ask George there. Did he want to come down off the cross, George?
Wine-seller—I’ll tell you, gentlemen, I wasn’t out
there. It’s a thing I haven’t taken any interest in.
2d Soldier—Listen, I seen a lot of them—here and
plenty of other places. Any time you show me one that doesn’t want to get down
off the cross when the time comes—when the time comes, I mean—I’ll climb right
up with him.
1st Soldier—I thought he was pretty good in there
to-day.
3d Soldier—He was all right.
2d Roman Soldier—You guys don’t know
what I’m talking about. I’m not saying whether he was good or not. What I mean
is, when the time comes. When they first start nailing him, there isn’t none of
them wouldn’t stop it if they could.
1st Soldier—Didn’t you follow it, George?
Wine-seller—No, I didn’t take any interest in it,
Lootenant.
1st Soldier—I was surprised how he acted.
3d Soldier—The part I don’t like is the nailing
them on. You know, that must get to you pretty bad.
2d Soldier—It isn’t that that’s so bad, as when
they first lift ’em up. [He makes a lifting gesture with his two palms
together.] When the weight starts to pull on ’em. That’s when it gets ’em.
3d Roman Soldier—It takes some of them
pretty bad.
1st Soldier—Ain’t I seen ’em? I seen plenty of
them. I tell you, he was pretty good in there to-day.
[The second Roman soldier smiles at the
Hebrew wine-seller.]
2d Soldier—You’re a regular Christer, big boy.
1st Soldier—Sure, go on and kid him. But listen
while I tell you something. He was pretty good in there to-day.
2d Soldier—What about some more wine?
[The wine-seller looks up expectantly. The
third Roman soldier is sitting with his head down. He does not look well.]
3d Soldier—I don’t want any more.
2d Soldier—Just for two, George.
[The wine-seller puts out a pitcher of wine,
a size smaller than the last one. He leans forward on the wooden counter.]
1st Roman Soldier—You see his girl?
2d Soldier—Wasn’t I standing right by her?
1st Soldier—She’s a nice-looker.
2d Soldier—I knew her before he did. [He winks
at the wine-seller.]
1st Soldier—I used to see her around the town.
2d Soldier—She used to have a lot of stuff. He
never brought her no good luck.
1st Soldier—Oh, he ain’t lucky. But he looked
pretty good to me in there to-day.
2d Soldier—What become of his gang?
1st Soldier—Oh, they faded out. Just the women
stuck by him.
2d Roman Soldier—They were a pretty
yellow crowd. When they seen him go up there they didn’t want any of it.
1st Soldier—The women stuck all right.
2d Soldier—Sure, they stuck all right.
1st Roman Soldier—You see me slip the
old spear into him?
2d Roman Soldier—You’ll get into
trouble doing that some day.
1st Soldier—It was the least I could do for him.
I’ll tell you he looked pretty good to me in there to-day.
Hebrew Wine-seller—Gentlemen, you know I
got to close.
1st Roman Soldier—We’ll have one more
round.
2d Roman Soldier—What’s the use? This
stuff don’t get you anywhere. Come on, let’s go.
1st Soldier—Just another round.
3d Roman Soldier—[Getting up from
the barrel.] No, come on. Let’s go. I feel like hell to-night.
1st Soldier—Just one more.
2d Soldier—No, come on. We’re going to go.
Good-night, George. Put it on the bill.
Wine-seller—Good-night, gentlemen. [He looks a
little worried.] You couldn’t let me have a little something on account,
Lootenant?
2d Roman Soldier—What the hell, George!
Wednesday’s pay-day.
Wine-seller—It’s all right, Lootenant. Good-night,
gentlemen.
[The three Roman soldiers go out the door
into the street.]
[Outside in the street.]
2d Roman Soldier—George is a kike just
like all the rest of them.
1st Roman Soldier—Oh, George is a nice
fella.
2d Soldier—Everybody’s a nice fella to you
to-night.
3d Roman Soldier—Come on, let’s go up
to the barracks. I feel like hell to-night.
2d Soldier—You been out here too long.
3d Roman Soldier—No, it ain’t just
that. I feel like hell.
2d Soldier—You been out here too long. That’s all.
Curtain.
BANAL STORY
So he ate an orange, slowly spitting out the
seeds. Outside, the snow was turning to rain. Inside, the electric stove seemed
to give no heat and rising from his writing-table, he sat down upon the stove.
How good it felt! Here, at last, was life.
He reached for another orange. Far away in
Paris, Mascart had knocked Danny Frush cuckoo in the second round. Far off in
Mesopotamia, twenty-one feet of snow had fallen. Across the world in distant
Australia, the English cricketers were sharpening up their wickets. There
was Romance.
Patrons of the arts and letters have discovered
The Forum, he read. It is the guide, philosopher, and friend of the
thinking minority. Prize short-stories—will their authors write our
best-sellers of to-morrow?
You will enjoy these warm, homespun, American
tales, bits of real life on the open ranch, in crowded tenement or comfortable
home, and all with a healthy undercurrent of humor.
I must read them, he thought.
He read on. Our children’s children—what of
them? Who of them? New means must be discovered to find room for us under the
sun. Shall this be done by war or can it be done by peaceful methods?
Or will we all have to move to Canada?
Our deepest convictions—will Science upset
them? Our civilization—is it inferior to older orders of things?
And meanwhile, in the far-off dripping jungles
of Yucatan, sounded the chopping of the axes of the gum-choppers.
Do we want big men—or do we want them cultured?
Take Joyce. Take President Coolidge. What star must our college students aim
at? There is Jack Britton. There is Dr. Henry Van Dyke. Can we reconcile the
two? Take the case of Young Stribling.
And what of our daughters who must make their
own Soundings? Nancy Hawthorne is obliged to make her own Soundings in the sea
of life. Bravely and sensibly she faces the problems which come to every girl
of eighteen.
It was a splendid booklet.
Are you a girl of eighteen? Take the case of
Joan of Arc. Take the case of Bernard Shaw. Take the case of Betsy Ross.
Think of these things in 1925—Was there a
risqué page in Puritan history? Were there two sides to Pocahontas? Did he have
a fourth dimension?
Are modern paintings—and poetry—Art? Yes and
No. Take Picasso.
Have tramps codes of conduct? Send your mind
adventuring.
There is Romance everywhere. Forum
writers talk to the point, are possessed of humor and wit. But they do not try
to be smart and are never long-winded.
Live the full life of the mind, exhilarated by
new ideas, intoxicated by the Romance of the unusual. He laid down the booklet.
And meanwhile, stretched flat on a bed in a
darkened room in his house in Triana, Manuel Garcia Maera lay with a tube in
each lung, drowning with the pneumonia. All the papers in Andalucia devoted
special supplements to his death, which had been expected for some days. Men
and boys bought full-length colored pictures of him to remember him by, and
lost the picture they had of him in their memories by looking at the
lithographs. Bull-fighters were very relieved he was dead, because he did
always in the bull-ring the things they could only do sometimes. They all
marched in the rain behind his coffin and there were one hundred and
forty-seven bull-fighters followed him out to the cemetery, where they buried
him in the tomb next to Joselito. After the funeral every one sat in the cafés
out of the rain, and many colored pictures of Maera were sold to men who rolled
them up and put them away in their pockets.
NOW I LAY ME
That night we lay on the floor in the room and
I listened to the silk-worms eating. The silk-worms fed in racks of mulberry
leaves and all night you could hear them eating and a dropping sound in the
leaves. I myself did not want to sleep because I had been living for a long
time with the knowledge that if I ever shut my eyes in the dark and let myself
go, my soul would go out of my body. I had been that way for a long time, ever
since I had been blown up at night and felt it go out of me and go off and then
come back. I tried never to think about it, but it had started to go since, in
the nights, just at the moment of going off to sleep, and I could only stop it
by a very great effort. So while now I am fairly sure that it would not really
have gone out, yet then, that summer, I was unwilling to make the experiment.
I had different ways of occupying myself while
I lay awake. I would think of a trout stream I had fished along when I was a
boy and fish its whole length very carefully in my mind; fishing very carefully
under all the logs, all the turns of the bank, the deep holes and the clear
shallow stretches, sometimes catching trout and sometimes losing them. I would
stop fishing at noon to eat my lunch; sometimes on a log over the stream;
sometimes on a high bank under a tree, and I always ate my lunch very slowly and
watched the stream below me while I ate. Often I ran out of bait because I
would take only ten worms with me in a tobacco tin when I started. When I had
used them all I had to find more worms, and sometimes it was very difficult
digging in the bank of the stream where the cedar trees kept out the sun and
there was no grass but only the bare moist earth and often I could find no
worms. Always though I found some kind of bait, but one time in the swamp I
could find no bait at all and had to cut up one of the trout I had caught and
use him for bait.
Sometimes I found insects in the swamp meadows,
in the grass or under ferns, and used them. There were beetles and insects with
legs like grass stems, and grubs in old rotten logs; white grubs with brown
pinching heads that would not stay on the hook and emptied into nothing in the
cold water, and wood ticks under logs where sometimes I found angle-worms that
slipped into the ground as soon as the log was raised. Once I used a salamander
from under an old log. The salamander was very small and neat and agile and a
lovely color. He had tiny feet that tried to hold on to the hook, and after
that one time I never used a salamander, although I found them very often. Nor
did I use crickets, because of the way they acted about the hook.
Sometimes the stream ran through an open
meadow, and in the dry grass I would catch grasshoppers and use them for bait
and sometimes I would catch grasshoppers and toss them into the stream and
watch them float along swimming on the stream and circling on the surface as
the current took them and then disappear as a trout rose. Sometimes I would
fish four or five different streams in the night; starting as near as I could
get to their source and fishing them down stream. When I had finished too
quickly and the time did not go, I would fish the stream over again, starting
where it emptied into the lake and fishing back up stream, trying for all the
trout I had missed coming down. Some nights too I made up streams, and some of
them were very exciting, and it was like being awake and dreaming. Some of
those streams I still remember and think that I have fished in them, and they
are confused with streams I really know. I gave them all names and went to them
on the train and sometimes walked for miles to get to them.
But some nights I could not fish, and on those
nights I was cold-awake and said my prayers over and over and tried to pray for
all the people I had ever known. That took up a great amount of time, for if
you try to remember all the people you have ever known, going back to the
earliest thing you remember—which was, with me, the attic of the house where I
was born and my mother and father’s wedding-cake in a tin box hanging from one
of the rafters, and, in the attic, jars of snakes and other specimens that my
father had collected as a boy and preserved in alcohol, the alcohol sunken in
the jars so the backs of some of the snakes and specimens were exposed and had
turned white—if you thought back that far, you remembered a great many people.
If you prayed for all of them, saying a Hail Mary and an Our Father for each
one, it took a long time and finally it would be light, and then you could go
to sleep, if you were in a place where you could sleep in the daylight.
On those nights I tried to remember everything
that had ever happened to me, starting with just before I went to the war and
remembering back from one thing to another. I found I could only remember back
to that attic in my grandfather’s house. Then I would start there and remember
this way again, until I reached the war.
I remembered, after my grandfather died we
moved away from that house and to a new house designed and built by my mother.
Many things that were not to be moved were burned in the back-yard and I
remember those jars from the attic being thrown in the fire, and how they
popped in the heat and the fire flamed up from the alcohol. I remember the
snakes burning in the fire in the back-yard. But there were no people in that,
only things. I could not remember who burned the things even, and I would go on
until I came to people and then stop and pray for them.
About the new house I remembered how my mother
was always cleaning things out and making a good clearance. One time when my
father was away on a hunting trip she made a good thorough cleaning out in the
basement and burned everything that should not have been there. When my father
came home and got down from his buggy and hitched the horse, the fire was still
burning in the road beside the house. I went out to meet him. He handed me his
shotgun and looked at the fire. “What’s this?” he asked.
“I’ve been cleaning out the basement, dear,” my
mother said from the porch. She was standing there smiling, to meet him. My
father looked at the fire and kicked at something. Then he leaned over and
picked something out of the ashes. “Get a rake, Nick,” he said to me. I went to
the basement and brought a rake and my father raked very carefully in the
ashes. He raked out stone axes and stone skinning knives and tools for making
arrow-heads and pieces of pottery and many arrow-heads. They had all been blackened
and chipped by the fire. My father raked them all out very carefully and spread
them on the grass by the road. His shotgun in its leather case and his
game-bags were on the grass where he had left them when he stepped down from
the buggy.
“Take the gun and the bags in the house, Nick,
and bring me a paper,” he said. My mother had gone inside the house. I took the
shotgun, which was heavy to carry and banged against my legs, and the two
game-bags and started toward the house. “Take them one at a time,” my father
said. “Don’t try and carry too much at once.” I put down the game-bags and took
in the shotgun and brought out a newspaper from the pile in my father’s office.
My father spread all the blackened, chipped stone implements on the paper and
then wrapped them up. “The best arrow-heads went all to pieces,” he said. He
walked into the house with the paper package and I stayed outside on the grass
with the two game-bags. After a while I took them in. In remembering that,
there were only two people, so I would pray for them both.
Some nights, though, I could not remember my
prayers even. I could only get as far as “On earth as it is in heaven” and then
have to start all over and be absolutely unable to get past that. Then I would
have to recognize that I could not remember and give up saying my prayers that
night and try something else. So on some nights I would try to remember all the
animals in the world by name and then the birds and then fishes and then
countries and cities and then kinds of food and the names of all the streets I
could remember in Chicago, and when I could not remember anything at all any
more I would just listen. And I do not remember a night on which you could not
hear things. If I could have a light I was not afraid to sleep, because I knew
my soul would only go out of me if it were dark. So, of course, many nights I
was where I could have a light and then I slept because I was nearly always
tired and often very sleepy. And I am sure many times too that I slept without
knowing it—but I never slept knowing it, and on this night I listened to the
silk-worms. You can hear silk-worms eating very clearly in the night and I lay
with my eyes open and listened to them.
There was only one other person in the room and
he was awake too. I listened to him being awake, for a long time. He could not
lie as quietly as I could because, perhaps, he had not had as much practice
being awake. We were lying on blankets spread over straw and when he moved the
straw was noisy, but the silk-worms were not frightened by any noise we made
and ate on steadily. There were the noises of night seven kilometres behind the
lines outside but they were different from the small noises inside the room in
the dark. The other man in the room tried lying quietly. Then he moved again. I
moved too, so he would know I was awake. He had lived ten years in Chicago.
They had taken him for a soldier in nineteen fourteen when he had come back to
visit his family, and they had given him to me for an orderly because he spoke
English. I heard him listening, so I moved again in the blankets.
“Can’t you sleep, Signor Tenente?” he asked.
“No.”
“I can’t sleep, either.”
“What’s the matter?”
“I don’t know. I can’t sleep.”
“You feel all right?”
“Sure. I feel good. I just can’t sleep.”
“You want to talk a while?” I asked.
“Sure. What can you talk about in this damn
place.”
“This place is pretty good,” I said.
“Sure,” he said. “It’s all right.”
“Tell me about out in Chicago,” I said.
“Oh,” he said, “I told you all that once.”
“Tell me about how you got married.”
“I told you that.”
“Was the letter you got Monday—from her?”
“Sure. She writes me all the time. She’s making
good money with the place.”
“You’ll have a nice place when you go back.”
“Sure. She runs it fine. She’s making a lot of
money.”
“Don’t you think we’ll wake them up, talking?”
I asked.
“No. They can’t hear. Anyway, they sleep like
pigs. I’m different,” he said. “I’m nervous.”
“Talk quiet,” I said. “Want a smoke?”
We smoked skilfully in the dark.
“You don’t smoke much, Signor Tenente.”
“No. I’ve just about cut it out.”
“Well,” he said, “it don’t do you any good and
I suppose you get so you don’t miss it. Did you ever hear a blind man won’t
smoke because he can’t see the smoke come out?”
“I don’t believe it.”
“I think it’s all bull, myself,” he said. “I
just heard it somewhere. You know how you hear things.”
We were both quiet and I listened to the
silk-worms.
“You hear those damn silk-worms?” he asked.
“You can hear them chew.”
“It’s funny,” I said.
“Say, Signor Tenente, is there something really
the matter that you can’t sleep? I never see you sleep. You haven’t slept
nights ever since I been with you.”
“I don’t know, John,” I said. “I got in pretty
bad shape along early last spring and at night it bothers me.”
“Just like I am,” he said. “I shouldn’t have
ever got in this war. I’m too nervous.”
“Maybe it will get better.”
“Say, Signor Tenente, what did you get in this
war for, anyway?”
“I don’t know, John. I wanted to, then.”
“Wanted to,” he said. “That’s a hell of a
reason.”
“We oughtn’t to talk out loud,” I said.
“They sleep just like pigs,” he said. “They
can’t understand the English language, anyway. They don’t know a damn thing.
What are you going to do when it’s over and we go back to the States?”
“I’ll get a job on a paper.”
“In Chicago?”
“Maybe.”
“Do you ever read what this fellow Brisbane
writes? My wife cuts it out for me and sends it to me.”
“Sure.”
“Did you ever meet him?”
“No, but I’ve seen him.”
“I’d like to meet that fellow. He’s a fine
writer. My wife don’t read English but she takes the paper just like when I was
home and she cuts out the editorials and the sport page and sends them to me.”
“How are your kids?”
“They’re fine. One of the girls is in the
fourth grade now. You know, Signor Tenente, if I didn’t have the kids I
wouldn’t be your orderly now. They’d have made me stay in the line all the
time.”
“I’m glad you’ve got them.”
“So am I. They’re fine kids but I want a boy.
Three girls and no boy. That’s a hell of a note.”
“Why don’t you try and go to sleep.”
“No, I can’t sleep now. I’m wide awake now,
Signor Tenente. Say, I’m worried about you not sleeping though.”
“It’ll be all right, John.”
“Imagine a young fellow like you not to sleep.”
“I’ll get all right. It just takes a while.”
“You got to get all right. A man can’t get
along that don’t sleep. Do you worry about anything? You got anything on your
mind?”
“No, John, I don’t think so.”
“You ought to get married, Signor Tenente. Then
you wouldn’t worry.”
“I don’t know.”
“You ought to get married. Why don’t you pick
out some nice Italian girl with plenty of money. You could get any one you
want. You’re young and you got good decorations and you look nice. You been
wounded a couple of times.”
“I can’t talk the language well enough.”
“You talk it fine. To hell with talking the
language. You don’t have to talk to them. Marry them.”
“I’ll think about it.”
“You know some girls, don’t you?”
“Sure.”
“Well, you marry the one with the most money.
Over here, the way they’re brought up, they’ll all make you a good wife.”
“I’ll think about it.”
“Don’t think about it, Signor Tenente. Do it.”
“All right.”
“A man ought to be married. You’ll never regret
it. Every man ought to be married.”
“All right,” I said. “Let’s try and sleep a
while.”
“All right, Signor Tenente. I’ll try it again.
But you remember what I said.”
“I’ll remember it,” I said. “Now let’s sleep a
while, John.”
“All right,” he said. “I hope you sleep, Signor
Tenente.”
I heard him roll in his
blankets on the straw and then he was very quiet and I listened to him
breathing regularly. Then he started to snore. I listened to him snore for a
long time and then I stopped listening to him snore and listened to the
silk-worms eating. They ate steadily, making a dropping in the leaves. I had a
new thing to think about and I lay in the dark with my eyes open and thought of
all the girls I had ever known and what kind of wives they would make. It was a
very interesting thing to think about and for a while it killed off
trout-fishing and interfered with my prayers. Finally, though, I went back to
trout-fishing, because I found that I could remember all the streams and there
was always something new about them, while the girls, after I had thought about
them a few times, blurred and I could not call them into my mind and finally
they all blurred and all became rather the same and I gave up thinking about
them almost altogether. But I kept on with my prayers and I prayed very often for
John in the nights and his class was removed from active service before the
October offensive. I was glad he was not there, because he would have been a
great worry to me. He came to the hospital in Milan to see me several months
after and was very disappointed that I had not yet married, and I know he would
feel very badly if he knew that, so far, I have never married. He was going
back to America and he was very certain about marriage and knew it would fix up
everything.
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