THE BEST BRITISH SHORT
STORIES OF 1922
edited by Edward J,
O’brien and John Coumos
CONTENTS
1.WHERE WAS WYCH
STREET? by STACY AUMONIER
2.THE LOOKING GLASS by
J.D. BERESFORD
3.THE OLIVE by
ALGERNON BLACKWOOD
4.ONCE A HERO by
HAROLD BRIGHOUSE
5.THE PENSIONER by
WILLIAM CAINE
6.BROADSHEET BALLAD by
A.E. COPPARD
7.THE CHRISTMAS
PRESENT by RICHMAL CROMPTON
8.SEATON'S AUNT by
WALTER DE LA MARE
9.THE REAPER by
DOROTHY EASTON
11.A HEDONIST by JOHN
GALSWORTHY
12.THE BAT AND BELFRY
INN by ALAN GRAHAM
14.A GIRL IN IT by
ROWLAND KENNEY
15.THE BACKSTAIRS OF
THE MIND by ROSAMOND LANGBRIDGE
16.THE BIRTH OF A
MASTERPIECE by LUCAS MALET
17."GENIUS"
by ELINOR MORDAUNT
18.THE DEVIL TO PAY by
MAX PEMBERTON
19.EMPTY ARMS by
ROLAND PERTWEE
21.THE DICE THROWER by
SIDNEY SOUTHGATE
22.THE STRANGER WOMAN
by G.B. STERN
23.THE WOMAN WHO SAT
STILL by PARRY TRUSCOTT
24.MAJOR WILBRAHAM by
HUGH WALPOLE
INTRODUCTION
When Edward J. O'Brien
asked me to cooperate with him in choosing each year's best English short
stories, to be published as a companion volume to his annual selection of the
best American short stories, I had not realized that at the end of my arduous
task, which has involved the reading of many hundreds of stories in the English
magazines of an entire year, I should find myself asking the simple question:
What is a short story?
I do not suppose that a
hundred years ago such a question could have occurred to any one. Then all that
a story was and could be was implied in the simple phrase: "Tell me a
story...." We all know what that means. How many stories published today
would stand this simple if final test of being told by word of mouth? I doubt
whether fifty per cent would. Surely the universality of the printing press and
the linotype machine have done something to alter the character of literature,
just as the train and the telephone have done not a little to abolish polite
correspondence. Most stories of today are to be read, not told. Hence great
importance must be attached to the manner of writing; in some instances, the
whole effect of a modern tale is dependent on the manner of presentation. Henry
James is, possibly, an extreme example. Has any one ever attempted to tell a
tale in the Henry James manner by word of mouth, even when the manner pretends
to be conversational? I, for one, have yet to experience this pleasure, though
I have listened to a good many able and experienced tale-tellers in my time.
Now, there is a great
connection between the manner or method of a writer and the matter upon which
he works his manner or method. Henry James was not an accident. Life, as he
found it, was full of trivialities and polite surfaces; and a great deal of
manner—style, if you like—is needful to give life and meaning to trivial
things.
And James was, by no
means, an isolated phenomenon. In Russia Chekhov was creating an artistic
significance out of the uneventful lives of the petty bourgeoisie, whose
hitherto small numbers had vastly increased with the advent of machinery and
the industrialization of the country; as the villages became towns, the last
vestiges of the "romantic" and "heroic" elements seemed to
have departed from contemporary Russian literature. As widely divergent as the
two writers were in their choice of materials and methods of expression, they yet
met on common ground in their devotion to form, their painstaking perfecting of
their expressions; and this tense effort alone was often enough the very life
and soul of their adventure. They were like magicians creating marvels with the
flimsiest of materials; they did not complain of the poverty of life, but as
often as not created bricks without straw. Not for them Herman Melville's
dictum, to be found in Moby Dick: "To produce a mighty book
you must choose a mighty theme."
Roughly, then, there are
two schools of creative literature, and round them there have grown up two
schools of criticism. The one maintains that form is everything, that not only
is perfect form essential, and interesting material non-essential, but that
actually interesting material is a deterrent to perfect expression, inasmuch as
material from life, inherently imaginative, fantastic or romantic, is likely to
make an author lazy and negligent and cause him to throw his whole dependence
on objective facts rather than on his ingenuity in creating an individual
atmosphere and vibrant patterns of his own making. The other school maintains
with equal emphasis that form is not enough, that it wants a real and exciting
story, that where a man's materials are rich and "big" the necessity
for perfection is obviated; indeed, "rough edges" are a virtue. As
one English novelist tersely put it to me: "I don't care for the carving
of orange pips. All I ask of a writer is that his stuff should be big."
Undoubtedly, some people prefer a cultivated garden, others nature in all her
wildness. Nature, it is true, may exercise no selection; unfortunately it is
too often forgotten that she is all art in the wealth and minuteness of her
detail.
It seems to me that both
theories are equally fallacious. I do not see how either can be wholly
satisfying. There is no reason at all why a story should not contain both form
and matter, a form, I should say, suited to the matter. Among the painters
Vermeer is admittedly perfect; has then Rembrandt no art? Among the writers
Turgenev is perfect. George Moore has compared his perfection to that of the
Greeks; is it then justifiable to call Dostoevsky journalese, as some have
called him? Indeed, it takes a great artist to write about great things,
though, it is true, a great artist is often pardoned for lapses in style, where
a minor artist can afford no such lapses. It was in such a light, with the true
honesty and humility of a fine artist, that Flaubert, than whom none sought
greater perfection, regarded himself before the towering Shakespeare.
This preamble is no
digression, but is quite pertinent to any consideration of the contemporary
short story, for I must admit that however fallacious is either of the
prevalent theories which I have outlined, in practice both work out with an
appalling accuracy. Of the hundreds of stories which I have had to read the
number possessing a sense of form is relatively small, and of these only a few
are rich in content; strictly speaking, most of them stick to the facts of
everyday life, to the intimate realities of urban and suburban existence. Other
stories, and these are more numerous, possibly as a reaction and in response to
the human craving for the fairy tale, are concerned with the most impossible
adventure and fantastic unreality, Romance with the capital R. They are often
attractive in plot, able in construction, happy in invention, and their general
tendency may be to fall within the definition of "life's little
ironies"; yet, in spite of these admirable qualifications, the majority of
these stories are unconvincing, lacking in balance, in plausibility, in that
virtue which may be defined as "the writer's imagination," whose lack
is something more than careless writing. How often one puts down a story with
the feeling that it would take little to make it a "rattling good
tale," but alas, that little is everything. A story-teller's craft depends
not only on a sense of style, that is, form and good writing, but also on the
creation of an atmosphere, shall we say hypnotic in effect, and capable of
persuading the reader that he is a temporary inhabitant of the world the writer
is describing, however remote in time or space that world may be from the world
of the reader's own experience. And the more enlightened and culturally
emotional the reader, the greater the power of seduction is a writer called
upon to exercise. For it is obvious that all these hundreds of crude Arabian
Nights tales and jungle tales and all sorts of tales of impossible adventure
appearing in the pages of our periodicals would not be written if they were not
in demand by the large public.
The question arises: Why
is it that authors who deal with the intimate realities of our dull, everyday
life are, on the whole, so much better as writers than those who attempt to
portray the more glamorous existence of the East, of the jungle, of, so to
speak, other worlds? I have a theory of my own to offer in explanation, and it
is this:
A, let us say, is a writer who has stayed at
home. Let us suppose that his experience has been largely limited to London, or
still more precisely, to the East End of London. He has either lived or spent a
great deal of time here, and without having actively participated in the lives
of the natives and denizens of the district has observed them to good purpose
and saturated himself with their atmosphere. He has, in an intimate sense,
secured not only his scene, but also, either actually or potentially, his
characters. English—of a sort—is the language of his community; and the temper
of this community, except in petty externals, is, after all, but little
different from his own. He has lost no time in either travelling or in learning
another's language, he has had a great deal of time for developing his
technique. He has, indeed, spent the greater part of his time in working out
his form. He is, as you may guess, anything but a superlative genius;
certainly, we may venture to assume that he is, at all events, a fine talent, a
careful observer, a painstaking worker, possessed of inventive powers within
limitations. He knows his genre and his milieu, and he knows his job. He
observes his people with an artistic sympathy. He is an etcher, loving his
line, rather than a photographer. Vast mural decorations are beyond him.
Then there is B. B is
a traveller, something of an adventurer too. His wanderlust, or
possibly his occupation as a minor government official, journalist, or
representative for some commercial firm, has taken him East. He has spent some
time in Shanghai or Hong Kong, in Calcutta or Rangoon, in Tokyo or Nagasaki. He
has lived chiefly in the foreign quarter and occasionally sallied out to seek
adventure in the native habitat. He has secured a smattering of the native
tongue, and has even taken unto himself a temporary native wife. A bold man, he
has, in his way, lived dangerously and intensely. He has besides heard men of
his own race living in the quarter tell weird tales of romantic nature, perhaps
of a white girl who came out East, or of a native girl who had won the heart of
an Englishman to his undoing. At last B has had enough of it,
and has come home to the old country, his England, and sits down to his new
job, the exploitation of his knowledge and experience of the East. Possibly a
few friends who had listened to his tales urged him to set them down on paper,
and B, who had not thought of it before, thinks it is not such a
bad idea, and getting a supply of paper and a typewriter launches forth on a
career as a writer. He is intent on turning out a good tale, and does
remarkably well for a novice, but his inexperience as a writer, his lack of
form and technique and deliberateness will hinder his progress, though now and
then he will turn out a tolerable tale by sheer accident. The really great man
will, of course, break through the double barrier, and then you have a Conrad:
that is to say, you have a man who has lived abundantly and has been able to
apply an abundance of art to his abundance of material. But that is, indeed,
rare nowadays, and the whole moral of the little parable of A and B is
that in our own time it is given but to few men to do both. The one has
specialized in writing, the other in living. And the comparison may be applied,
of course, to the two writers who have stayed at home, even in the same
district. A hasn't much to say, but what he says he says well,
because writing means to him something as a thing in itself; he finds
compensation in the quality of his writings for his lack of rich material; the
whole content of his art is in his form, and that, if not wholly satisfying, is
surely no mean achievement. B, on the other hand, may have a great
deal to say, and says it badly. He thinks his material will carry him through.
He does not understand that the function of art is to crystallize; synthesize
the materials at hand, to distil the essences of life, to formalize natural
shapes. There should be no confusing of nature and art. A mountain is nature, a
pyramid is art. We have no man in the short story today who has synthesized his
age, who has thrown a light on the peculiar many-sided adventure of modernity,
who has achieved a sense of universality. Maupassant came near to it in his own
time. Never before have men had such opportunities for knowing the world, never
before has it been so easy to cover space, our means of communication have never
been so rapid; yet there is an almost maddening contradiction in the fact that
every man who writes is content in describing but a single facet of the great
adventure of life. Our age is an age of specialization, and many a man spends a
life in trying to visualize for us a fragment of existence in multitudinous
variations. An Empire may be said to stand for a universalizing tendency, yet
the extraordinary fact about the mass of English stories today is that, far
from being expressive of any tendency to unity, they are mostly concerned with
presenting the specialized atmospheres of so many individual localities and
vocations. We have writers who do not go beyond Dartmoor, or Park Lane, or the
East End of London; we have writers of sea stories, jungle stories, detective
stories, lost jewel stories, slum stories, and we have writers who seldom stray
from the cricket field or the prize ring, or Freudian complexes.
Yet, in putting on
record these individual tendencies of the short story, I should be overdrawing
the picture if I did not call attention to what general tendencies are in the
ascendent. The supernatural element is prominent among these. Stories of
ghosts, spiritualism and reincarnation are becoming increasingly popular with
authors, especially with the type I have described as A. This is
interesting, since it evinces a healthy desire to get away from the banal facts
of one's standardized atmosphere, the atmosphere of suburbia. It may be both a
reaction and an escape, and may express a desire for a more spiritual life than
is vouchsafed us. The love of adventure and the love of love will, of course,
remain with us as long as men live and love a tale, and nine tenths of the
stories still deal with the favored hero and the inevitable girl.
This book is to be an
annual venture and its object is the same as that of Mr. O'Brien's annual
selection of American stories. It is to gather and save from obscurity every
year those tales by English authors which are published in English and American
periodicals and are worth preserving in permanent form. It is well known that
short-story writers in Anglo-Saxon countries have not the same chance of
publishing their wares in book form as their more fortunate colleagues, the
novelists. This prejudice against the publication of short stories in book form
is not to be justified, and it does not exist on the Continent. Most of the
fine fiction, for example, published in Russia since Chekhov made the form
popular, took precisely the form of the short story. It is a good form and should
be encouraged. It is also the object of this volume to call attention to new
writers who show promise and to help to create a demand for their work by
publishing their efforts side by side with those already accepted and
established.
It has been the custom
to dedicate Mr. O'Brien's annual selection of American stories to some author
who has distinguished himself in the particular year by his valuable
contribution to the art of the short story. We propose to adopt it with regard
to our English selections. We are glad of the opportunity to associate this
year's collection with the name of Stacy Aumonier. As for the stories selected
for this volume, that is to some degree a matter of personal judgement; it is
quite possible that other editors would, in some instances, have made a
different choice.
JOHN COURNOS
An additional word may
be added on the principles which have governed our choice. We have set
ourselves the task of disengaging the essential human qualities in our
contemporary fiction which, when chronicled conscientiously by our literary
artists, may fairly be called a criticism of life. We are not at all interested
in formulae, and organised criticism at its best would be nothing more than
dead criticism, as all dogmatic interpretation of life is always dead. What has
interested us, to the exclusion of other things, is the fresh living current
which flows through the best British and Irish work, and the psychological and
imaginative reality which writers have conferred upon it.
No substance is of
importance in fiction, unless it is organic substance, that is to say,
substance in which the pulse of life is beating. Inorganic fiction has been our
curse in the past, and bids fair to remain so, unless we exercise much greater
artistic discrimination than we display at present.
The present record
covers the period from July, 1921, to June, 1922, inclusive. During this period
we have sought to select from the stories published in British and American
periodicals those stories by British and Irish authors which have rendered life
imaginatively in organic substance and artistic form. Substance is something
achieved by the artist in every act of creation, rather than something already
present, and accordingly a fact or a group of facts in a story only attain
substantial embodiment when the artist's power of compelling imaginative
persuasion transforms them into a living truth. The first test of a short
story, therefore, in any qualitative analysis is to report upon how vitally
compelling the writer makes his selected facts or incidents. This test may be
conveniently called the test of substance.
But a second test is
necessary if the story is to take rank above other stories. The true artist
will seek to shape this living substance into the most beautiful and satisfying
form, by skillful selection and arrangement of his materials, and by the most
direct and appealing presentation of it in portrayal and characterization.
The short stories which
we have examined in this study have fallen naturally into three groups. The
first consists of those stories which fail, in our opinion, to survive both the
test of substance and the test of form. These we have not chronicled.
The second group
includes such narratives as may lay convincing claim to further consideration,
because each of them has survived in a measure both tests, the test of
substance and the test of form. Stories included in this group are chronicled
in the list which immediately follows the "Roll of Honour."
Finally we have recorded
the names of a smaller group of stories which possess, we believe, the
distinction of uniting genuine substance and artistic form in a closely woven
pattern with such sincerity that they are worthy of being reprinted. If all of
these stories were republished, they would not occupy more space than six or
seven novels of average length. Our selection of them does not imply the
critical belief that they are great stories. A year which produced one great
story would be an exceptional one. It is simply to be taken as meaning that we
have found the equivalent of six or seven volumes worthy of republication among
all the stories published during the period under consideration. These stories
are listed in the special "Roll of Honour." In compiling these lists
we have permitted no personal preference or prejudice to consciously influence
our judgement. The general and particular results of our study will be found
explained and carefully detailed in the supplementary part of the volume. Mr.
Cournos has read the English periodicals, and I have read the American
periodicals. We have then compared our judgements.
EDWARD J. O'BRIEN
NOTE—The order in which
the stories in this volume are printed is not intended as an indication of
their comparative excellence; the arrangement is alphabetical by authors.
1.WHERE WAS WYCH STREET? by STACY AUMONIER
(From The Strand Magazine and The Saturday
Evening Post) 1921, 1922
In the public bar of the
Wagtail, in Wapping, four men and a woman were drinking beer and discussing
diseases. It was not a pretty subject, and the company was certainly not a
handsome one. It was a dark November evening, and the dingy lighting of the bar
seemed but to emphasize the bleak exterior. Drifts of fog and damp from without
mingled with the smoke of shag. The sanded floor was kicked into a muddy morass
not unlike the surface of the pavement. An old lady down the street had died
from pneumonia the previous evening, and the event supplied a fruitful topic of
conversation. The things that one could get! Everywhere were germs eager to
destroy one. At any minute the symptoms might break out. And so—one
foregathered in a cheerful spot amidst friends, and drank forgetfulness.
Prominent in this little
group was Baldwin Meadows, a sallow-faced villain with battered features and
prominent cheek-bones, his face cut and scarred by a hundred fights. Ex-seaman,
ex-boxer, ex-fish-porter —indeed, to every one's knowledge, ex-everything. No
one knew how he lived. By his side lurched an enormous coloured man who went by
the name of Harry Jones. Grinning above a tankard sat a pimply-faced young man
who was known as The Agent. Silver rings adorned his fingers. He had no other
name, and most emphatically no address, but he "arranged things" for
people, and appeared to thrive upon it in a scrambling, fugitive manner. The
other two people were Mr. and Mrs. Dawes. Mr. Dawes was an entirely negative
person, but Mrs. Dawes shone by virtue of a high, whining, insistent voice,
keyed to within half a note of hysteria.
Then, at one point, the
conversation suddenly took a peculiar turn. It came about through Mrs. Dawes
mentioning that her aunt, who died from eating tinned lobster, used to work in
a corset shop in Wych Street. When she said that, The Agent, whose right eye
appeared to survey the ceiling, whilst his left eye looked over the other side
of his tankard, remarked:
"Where was Wych
Street, ma?"
"Lord!"
exclaimed Mrs. Dawes. "Don't you know, dearie? You must be a young 'un,
you must. Why, when I was a gal every one knew Wych Street. It was just down
there where they built the Kingsway, like."
Baldwin Meadows cleared
his throat, and said:
"Wych Street used
to be a turnin' runnin' from Long Acre into Wellington Street."
"Oh, no, old
boy," chipped in Mr. Dawes, who always treated the ex-man with great
deference. "If you'll excuse me, Wych Street was a narrow lane at the back
of the old Globe Theatre, that used to pass by the church."
"I know what I'm
talkin' about," growled Meadows. Mrs. Dawes's high nasal whine broke in:
"Hi, Mr. Booth, you
used ter know yer wye abaht. Where was Wych Street?"
Mr. Booth, the
proprietor, was polishing a tap. He looked up.
"Wych Street? Yus,
of course I knoo Wych Street. Used to go there with some of the boys—when I was
Covent Garden way. It was at right angles to the Strand, just east of
Wellington Street."
"No, it warn't. It
were alongside the Strand, before yer come to Wellington Street."
The coloured man took no
part in the discussion, one street and one city being alike to him, provided he
could obtain the material comforts dear to his heart; but the others carried it
on with a certain amount of acerbity.
Before any agreement had
been arrived at three other men entered the bar. The quick eye of Meadows
recognized them at once as three of what was known at that time as "The
Gallows Ring." Every member of "The Gallows Ring" had done time,
but they still carried on a lucrative industry devoted to blackmail,
intimidation, shoplifting, and some of the clumsier recreations. Their leader,
Ben Orming, had served seven years for bashing a Chinaman down at Rotherhithe.
"The Gallows
Ring" was not popular in Wapping, for the reason that many of their
depredations had been inflicted upon their own class. When Meadows and Harry
Jones took it into their heads to do a little wild prancing they took the
trouble to go up into the West-end. They considered "The Gallows
Ring" an ungentlemanly set; nevertheless, they always treated them with a
certain external deference—an unpleasant crowd to quarrel with.
Ben Orming ordered beer
for the three of them, and they leant against the bar and whispered in sullen
accents. Something had evidently miscarried with the Ring. Mrs. Dawes continued
to whine above the general drone of the bar. Suddenly she said:
"Ben, you're a hot
old devil, you are. We was just 'aving a discussion like. Where was Wych
Street?"
Ben scowled at her, and
she continued:
"Some sez it was
one place, some sez it was another. I know where it was, 'cors
my aunt what died from blood p'ison, after eatin' tinned lobster, used to work
at a corset shop——"
"Yus," barked
Ben, emphatically. "I know where Wych Street was—it was just sarth of the
river, afore yer come to Waterloo Station."
It was then that the
coloured man, who up to that point had taken no part in the discussion, thought
fit to intervene.
"Nope. You's all
wrong, cap'n. Wych Street were alongside de church, way over where the Strand
takes a side-line up west."
Ben turned on him
fiercely.
"What the blazes
does a blanketty nigger know abaht it? I've told yer where Wych Street
was."
"Yus, and I know
where it was," interposed Meadows.
"Yer both wrong.
Wych Street was a turning running from Long Acre into Wellington Street."
"I didn't ask yer
what you thought," growled Ben.
"Well, I suppose
I've a right to an opinion?"
"You always think
you know everything, you do."
"You can just keep
yer mouth shut."
"It 'ud take more'n
you to shut it."
Mr. Booth thought it
advisable at this juncture to bawl across the bar:
"Now, gentlemen, no
quarrelling—please."
The affair might have
been subsided at that point, but for Mrs. Dawes. Her emotions over the death of
the old lady in the street had been so stirred that she had been, almost
unconsciously, drinking too much gin. She suddenly screamed out:
"Don't you take no
lip from 'im, Mr. Medders. The dirty, thieving devil, 'e always thinks 'e's
goin' to come it over every one."
She stood up
threateningly, and one of Ben's supporters gave her a gentle push backwards. In
three minutes the bar was in a complete state of pandemonium. The three members
of "The Gallows Ring" fought two men and a woman, for Mr. Dawes
merely stood in a corner and screamed out:
"Don't!
Don't!"
Mrs. Dawes stabbed the
man who had pushed her through the wrist with a hatpin. Meadows and Ben Orming
closed on each other and fought savagely with the naked fists. A lucky blow
early in the encounter sent Meadows reeling against the wall, with blood
streaming down his temple. Then the coloured man hurled a pewter tankard
straight at Ben and it hit him on the knuckles. The pain maddened him to a
frenzy. His other supporter had immediately got to grips with Harry Jones, and
picked up one of the high stools and, seizing an opportunity, brought it down
crash on to the coloured man's skull.
The whole affair was a
matter of minutes. Mr. Booth was bawling out in the street. A whistle sounded.
People were running in all directions.
"Beat it! Beat it
for God's sake!" called the man who had been stabbed through the wrist.
His face was very white, and he was obviously about to faint.
Ben and the other man,
whose name was Toller, dashed to the door. On the pavement there was a confused
scramble. Blows were struck indiscriminately. Two policemen appeared. One was
laid hors de combat by a kick on the knee-cap from Toller. The
two men fled into the darkness, followed by a hue-and-cry. Born and bred in the
locality, they took every advantage of their knowledge. They tacked through
alleys and raced down dark mews, and clambered over walls. Fortunately for
them, the people they passed, who might have tripped them up or aided in the
pursuit, merely fled indoors. The people in Wapping are not always on the side
of the pursuer. But the police held on. At last Ben and Toller slipped through
the door of an empty house in Aztec Street barely ten yards ahead of their
nearest pursuer. Blows rained on the door, but they slipped the bolts, and then
fell panting to the floor. When Ben could speak, he said:
"If they cop us, it
means swinging."
"Was the nigger
done in?"
"I think so. But
even if 'e wasn't, there was that other affair the night before last. The
game's up."
The ground-floor rooms
were shuttered and bolted, but they knew that the police would probably force
the front door. At the back there was no escape, only a narrow stable yard,
where lanterns were already flashing. The roof only extended thirty yards
either way and the police would probably take possession of it. They made a
round of the house, which was sketchily furnished. There was a loaf, a small
piece of mutton, and a bottle of pickles, and—the most precious possession—three
bottles of whisky. Each man drank half a glass of neat whisky; then Ben said:
"We'll be able to keep 'em quiet for a bit, anyway," and he went and
fetched an old twelve-bore gun and a case of cartridges. Toller was opposed to
this last desperate resort, but Ben continued to murmur, "It means
swinging, anyway."
And thus began the
notorious siege of Aztec Street. It lasted three days and four nights. You may
remember that, on forcing a panel of the front door, Sub-Inspector Wraithe, of
the V Division, was shot through the chest. The police then tried other
methods. A hose was brought into play without effect. Two policemen were killed
and four wounded. The military was requisitioned. The street was picketed.
Snipers occupied windows of the houses opposite. A distinguished member of the
Cabinet drove down in a motor-car, and directed operations in a top-hat. It was
the introduction of poison-gas which was the ultimate cause of the downfall of
the citadel. The body of Ben Orming was never found, but that of Toller was
discovered near the front door with a bullet through his heart. The medical
officer to the Court pronounced that the man had been dead three days, but
whether killed by a chance bullet from a sniper or whether killed deliberately
by his fellow-criminal was never revealed. For when the end came Orming had
apparently planned a final act of venom. It was known that in the basement a
considerable quantity of petrol had been stored. The contents had probably been
carefully distributed over the most inflammable materials in the top rooms. The
fire broke out, as one witness described it, "almost like an
explosion." Orming must have perished in this. The roof blazed up, and the
sparks carried across the yard and started a stack of light timber in the annexe
of Messrs. Morrel's piano-factory. The factory and two blocks of tenement
buildings were burnt to the ground. The estimated cost of the destruction was
one hundred and eighty thousand pounds. The casualties amounted to seven killed
and fifteen wounded.
At the inquiry held
under Chief Justice Pengammon various odd interesting facts were revealed. Mr.
Lowes-Parlby, the brilliant young K.C., distinguished himself by his searching
cross-examination of many witnesses. At one point a certain Mrs. Dawes was put in
the box.
"Now," said
Mr. Lowes-Parlby, "I understand that on the evening in question, Mrs.
Dawes, you, and the victims, and these other people who have been mentioned,
were all seated in the public bar of the Wagtail, enjoying its no doubt
excellent hospitality and indulging in a friendly discussion. Is that so?"
"Yes, sir."
"Now, will you tell
his lordship what you were discussing?"
"Diseases,
sir."
"Diseases! And did
the argument become acrimonious?"
"Pardon?"
"Was there a
serious dispute about diseases?"
"No, sir."
"Well, what was the
subject of the dispute?"
"We was arguin' as
to where Wych Street was, sir."
"What's that?"
said his lordship.
"The witness
states, my lord, that they were arguing as to where Wych Street was."
"Wych Street? Do
you mean W-Y-C-H?"
"Yes, sir."
"You mean the
narrow old street that used to run across the site of what is now the Gaiety
Theatre?"
Mr. Lowes-Parlby smiled
in his most charming manner.
"Yes, my lord, I
believe the witness refers to the same street you mention, though, if I may be
allowed to qualify your lordship's description of the locality, may I suggest
that it was a little further east—at the side of the old Globe Theatre, which
was adjacent to St. Martin's in the Strand? That is the street you were all
arguing about, isn't it, Mrs. Dawes?"
"Well, sir, my aunt
who died from eating tinned lobster used to work at a corset-shop. I ought to
know."
His lordship ignored the
witness. He turned to the counsel rather peevishly.
"Mr. Lowes-Parlby,
when I was your age I used to pass through Wych Street every day of my life. I
did so for nearly twelve years. I think it hardly necessary for you to
contradict me."
The counsel bowed. It
was not his place to dispute with a chief justice, although that chief justice
be a hopeless old fool; but another eminent K.C., an elderly man with a tawny
beard, rose in the body of the court, and said:
"If I may be
allowed to interpose, your lordship, I also spent a great deal of my youth
passing through Wych Street. I have gone into the matter, comparing past and
present ordnance survey maps. If I am not mistaken, the street the witness was
referring to began near the hoarding at the entrance to Kingsway and ended at
the back of what is now the Aldwych Theatre."
"Oh, no, Mr.
Backer!" exclaimed Lowes-Parlby.
His lordship removed his
glasses and snapped out:
"The matter is
entirely irrelevant to the case."
It certainly was, but
the brief passage-of-arms left an unpleasant tang of bitterness behind. It was
observed that Mr. Lowes-Parlby never again quite got the prehensile grip upon
his cross-examination that he had shown in his treatment of the earlier
witnesses. The coloured man, Harry Jones, had died in hospital, but Mr. Booth,
the proprietor of the Wagtail, Baldwin Meadows, Mr. Dawes, and the man who was
stabbed in the wrist, all gave evidence of a rather nugatory character.
Lowes-Parlby could do nothing with it. The findings of this Special Inquiry do
not concern us. It is sufficient to say that the witnesses already mentioned
all returned to Wapping. The man who had received the thrust of a hatpin
through his wrist did not think it advisable to take any action against Mrs.
Dawes. He was pleasantly relieved to find that he was only required as a
witness of an abortive discussion.
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In a few weeks' time the
great Aztec Street siege remained only a romantic memory to the majority of
Londoners. To Lowes-Parlby the little dispute with Chief Justice Pengammon
rankled unreasonably. It is annoying to be publicly snubbed for making a
statement which you know to be absolutely true, and which you have even taken
pains to verify. And Lowes-Parlby was a young man accustomed to score. He made
a point of looking everything up, of being prepared for an adversary
thoroughly. He liked to give the appearance of knowing everything. The
brilliant career just ahead of him at times dazzled him. He was one of the
darlings of the gods. Everything came to Lowes-Parlby. His father had
distinguished himself at the bar before him, and had amassed a modest fortune.
He was an only son. At Oxford he had carried off every possible degree. He was
already being spoken of for very high political honours. But the most sparkling
jewel in the crown of his successes was Lady Adela Charters, the daughter of
Lord Vermeer, the Minister for Foreign Affairs. She was his fiancée,
and it was considered the most brilliant match of the season. She was young and
almost pretty, and Lord Vermeer was immensely wealthy and one of the most
influential men in Great Britain. Such a combination was irresistible. There
seemed to be nothing missing in the life of Francis Lowes-Parlby, K.C.
One of the most regular
and absorbed spectators at the Aztec Street inquiry was old Stephen Garrit.
Stephen Garrit held a unique but quite inconspicuous position in the legal world
at that time. He was a friend of judges, a specialist at various abstruse legal
rulings, a man of remarkable memory, and yet—an amateur. He had never taken
sick, never eaten the requisite dinners, never passed an examination in his
life; but the law of evidence was meat and drink to him. He passed his life in
the Temple, where he had chambers. Some of the most eminent counsel in the
world would take his opinion, or come to him for advice. He was very old, very
silent, and very absorbed. He attended every meeting of the Aztec Street
inquiry, but from beginning to end he never volunteered an opinion.
After the inquiry was
over he went and visited an old friend at the London Survey Office. He spent
two mornings examining maps. After that he spent two mornings pottering about
the Strand, Kingsway, and Aldwych; then he worked out some careful calculations
on a ruled chart. He entered the particulars in a little book which he kept for
purposes of that kind, and then retired to his chambers to study other matters.
But before doing so, he entered a little apophthegm in another book. It was
apparently a book in which he intended to compile a summary of his legal
experiences. The sentence ran:
"The basic trouble
is that people make statements without sufficient data."
Old Stephen need not
have appeared in this story at all, except for the fact that he was present at
the dinner at Lord Vermeer's, where a rather deplorable incident occurred. And
you must acknowledge that in the circumstances it is useful to have such a
valuable and efficient witness.
Lord Vermeer was a
competent, forceful man, a little quick-tempered and autocratic. He came from
Lancashire, and before entering politics had made an enormous fortune out of
borax, artificial manure, and starch.
It was a small
dinner-party, with a motive behind it. His principal guest was Mr. Sandeman,
the London agent of the Ameer of Bakkan. Lord Vermeer was very anxious to
impress Mr. Sandeman and to be very friendly with him: the reasons will appear
later. Mr. Sandeman was a self-confessed cosmopolitan. He spoke seven languages
and professed to be equally at home in any capital in Europe. London had been
his headquarters for over twenty years. Lord Vermeer also invited Mr. Arthur
Toombs, a colleague in the Cabinet, his prospective son-in-law, Lowes-Parlby,
K.C., James Trolley, a very tame Socialist M.P., and Sir Henry and Lady Breyd,
the two latter being invited, not because Sir Henry was of any use, but because
Lady Breyd was a pretty and brilliant woman who might amuse his principal
guest. The sixth guest was Stephen Garrit.
The dinner was a great
success. When the succession of courses eventually came to a stop, and the
ladies had retired, Lord Vermeer conducted his male guests into another room
for a ten minutes' smoke before rejoining them. It was then that the
unfortunate incident occurred. There was no love lost between Lowes-Parlby and
Mr. Sandeman. It is difficult to ascribe the real reason of their mutual
animosity, but on the several occasions when they had met there had invariably
passed a certain sardonic by-play. They were both clever, both comparatively
young, each a little suspect and jealous of the other; moreover, it was said in
some quarters that Mr. Sandeman had had intentions himself with regard to Lord Vermeer's
daughter, that he had been on the point of a proposal when Lowes-Parlby had
butted in and forestalled him. Mr. Sandeman had dined well, and he was in the
mood to dazzle with a display of his varied knowledge and experiences. The
conversation drifted from a discussion of the rival claims of great cities to
the slow, inevitable removal of old landmarks. There had been a slightly
acrimonious disagreement between Lowes-Parlby and Mr. Sandeman as to the claims
of Budapest and Lisbon, and Mr. Sandeman had scored because he extracted from
his rival a confession that, though he had spent two months in Budapest, he had
only spent two days in Lisbon. Mr. Sandeman had lived for four years in either
city. Lowes-Parlby changed the subject abruptly.
"Talking of landmarks,"
he said, "we had a queer point arise in that Aztec Street inquiry. The
original dispute arose owing to a discussion between a crowd of people in a pub
as to where Wych Street was."
"I remember,"
said Lord Vermeer. "A perfectly absurd discussion. Why, I should have
thought that any man over forty would remember exactly where it was."
"Where would you
say it was, sir?" asked Lowes-Parlby.
"Why to be sure, it
ran from the corner of Chancery Lane and ended at the second turning after the
Law Courts, going west."
Lowes-Parlby was about
to reply, when Mr. Sandeman cleared his throat and said, in his supercilious,
oily voice:
"Excuse me, my
lord. I know my Paris, and Vienna, and Lisbon, every brick and stone, but I
look upon London as my home. I know my London even better. I have a perfectly
clear recollection of Wych Street. When I was a student I used to visit there
to buy books. It ran parallel to New Oxford Street on the south side, just
between it and Lincoln's Inn Fields."
There was something
about this assertion that infuriated Lowes-Parlby. In the first place, it was
so hopelessly wrong and so insufferably asserted. In the second place, he was
already smarting under the indignity of being shown up about Lisbon. And then
there suddenly flashed through his mind the wretched incident when he had been
publicly snubbed by Justice Pengammon about the very same point; and he knew
that he was right each time. Damn Wych Street! He turned on Mr. Sandeman.
"Oh, nonsense! You
may know something about these—eastern cities; you certainly know nothing about
London if you make a statement like that. Wych Street was a little further east
of what is now the Gaiety Theatre. It used to run by the side of the old Globe
Theatre, parallel to the Strand."
The dark moustache of
Mr. Sandeman shot upwards, revealing a narrow line of yellow teeth. He uttered
a sound that was a mingling of contempt and derision; then he drawled out:
"Really? How
wonderful—to have such comprehensive knowledge!"
He laughed, and his
small eyes fixed his rival. Lowes-Parlby flushed a deep red. He gulped down
half a glass of port and muttered just above a whisper: "Damned
impudence!" Then, in the rudest manner he could display, he turned his
back deliberately on Sandeman and walked out of the room.
000
In the company of Adela
he tried to forget the little contretemps. The whole thing was so absurd—so
utterly undignified. As though he didn't know! It was the
little accumulation of pin-pricks all arising out of that one argument. The
result had suddenly goaded him to—well, being rude, to say the least of it. It
wasn't that Sandeman mattered. To the devil with Sandeman! But what would his
future father-in-law think? He had never before given way to any show of
ill-temper before him. He forced himself into a mood of rather fatuous
jocularity. Adela was at her best in those moods. They would have lots of fun
together in the days to come. Her almost pretty, not too clever face was
dimpled with kittenish glee. Life was a tremendous rag to her. They were
expecting Toccata, the famous opera-singer. She had been engaged at a very high
fee to come on from Covent Garden. Mr. Sandeman was very fond of music. Adela
was laughing, and discussing which was the most honourable position for the
great Sandeman to occupy. There came to Lowes-Parlby a sudden abrupt misgiving.
What sort of wife would this be to him when they were not just fooling? He
immediately dismissed the curious, furtive little stab of doubt. The splendid
proportions of the room calmed his senses. A huge bowl of dark red roses
quickened his perceptions. His career.... The door opened. But it was not La
Toccata. It was one of the household flunkies. Lowes-Parlby turned again to his
inamorata.
"Excuse me, sir.
His lordship says will you kindly go and see him in the library?"
Lowes-Parlby regarded
the messenger, and his heart beat quickly. An uncontrollable presage of evil
racked his nerve-centres. Something had gone wrong; and yet the whole thing was
so absurd, trivial. In a crisis—well, he could always apologize. He smiled
confidently at Adela, and said:
"Why, of course;
with pleasure. Please excuse me, dear." He followed the impressive servant
out of the room. His foot had barely touched the carpet of the library when he
realized that his worst apprehensions were to be plumbed to the depths. For a
moment he thought Lord Vermeer was alone, then he observed old Stephen Garrit,
lying in an easy-chair in the corner like a piece of crumpled parchment. Lord
Vermeer did not beat about the bush. When the door was closed, he bawled out,
savagely:
"What the devil
have you done?"
"Excuse me, sir.
I'm afraid I don't understand. Is it Sandeman—?"
"Sandeman has
gone."
"Oh, I'm
sorry."
"Sorry! By God, I
should think you might be sorry! You insulted him. My prospective son-in-law
insulted him in my own house!"
"I'm awfully sorry.
I didn't realize—"
"Realize! Sit down,
and don't assume for one moment that you continue to be my prospective
son-in-law. Your insult was a most intolerable piece of effrontery, not only to
him, but to me."
"But I—"
"Listen to me. Do
you know that the government were on the verge of concluding a most
far-reaching treaty with that man? Do you know that the position was just
touch-and-go? The concessions we were prepared to make would have cost the
State thirty million pounds, and it would have been cheap. Do you hear that? It
would have been cheap! Bakkan is one of the most vulnerable outposts of the
Empire. It is a terrible danger-zone. If certain powers can usurp our
authority—and, mark you, the whole blamed place is already riddled with this
new pernicious doctrine—you know what I mean—before we know where we are the
whole East will be in a blaze. India! My God! This contract we were negotiating
would have countered this outward thrust. And you, you blockhead, you come here
and insult the man upon whose word the whole thing depends."
"I really can't
see, sir, how I should know all this."
"You can't see it!
But, you fool, you seemed to go out of your way. You insulted him about the
merest quibble—in my house!"
"He said he knew
where Wych Street was. He was quite wrong. I corrected him."
"Wych Street! Wych
Street be damned! If he said Wych Street was in the moon, you should have
agreed with him. There was no call to act in the way you did. And you—you think
of going into politics!"
The somewhat cynical
inference of this remark went unnoticed. Lowes-Parlby was too unnerved. He
mumbled:
"I'm very
sorry."
"I don't want your
sorrow. I want something more practical."
"What's that,
sir?"
"You will drive
straight to Mr. Sandeman's, find him, and apologize. Tell him you find that he
was right about Wych Street after all. If you can't find him to-night, you must
find him to-morrow morning. I give you till midday to-morrow. If by that time
you have not offered a handsome apology to Mr. Sandeman, you do not enter this
house again, you do not see my daughter again. Moreover, all the power I
possess will be devoted to hounding you out of that profession you have
dishonoured. Now you can go."
Dazed and shaken,
Lowes-Parlby drove back to his flat at Knightsbridge. Before acting he must
have time to think. Lord Vermeer had given him till to-morrow midday. Any
apologizing that was done should be done after a night's reflection. The
fundamental purposes of his being were to be tested. He knew that. He was at a
great crossing. Some deep instinct within him was grossly outraged. Is it that
a point comes when success demands that a man shall sell his soul? It was all
so absurdly trivial—a mere argument about the position of a street that had
ceased to exist. As Lord Vermeer said, what did it matter about Wych Street?
Of course he should
apologize. It would hurt horribly to do so, but would a man sacrifice
everything on account of some footling argument about a street?
In his own rooms, Lowes-Parlby
put on a dressing-gown, and, lighting a pipe, he sat before the fire. He would
have given anything for companionship at such a moment—the right companionship.
How lovely it would be to have—a woman, just the right woman, to talk this all
over with; some one who understood and sympathized. A sudden vision came to him
of Adela's face grinning about the prospective visit of La Toccata, and again
the low voice of misgiving whispered in his ears. Would Adela be—just the right
woman? In very truth, did he really love Adela? Or was it all—a rag? Was life a
rag—a game played by lawyers, politicians, and people?
The fire burned low, but
still he continued to sit thinking, his mind principally occupied with the
dazzling visions of the future. It was past midnight when he suddenly muttered
a low "Damn!" and walked to the bureau. He took up a pen and wrote:
"Dear Mr.
Sandeman,—I must apologize for acting so rudely to you last night. It was
quite unpardonable of me, especially as I since find, on going into the matter,
that you were quite right about the position of Wych Street. I can't think how
I made the mistake. Please forgive me.
"Yours cordially,
"FRANCIS
LOWES-PARLBY."
Having written this, he
sighed and went to bed. One might have imagined at that point that the matter
was finished. But there are certain little greedy demons of conscience that
require a lot of stilling, and they kept Lowes-Parlby awake more than half the
night. He kept on repeating to himself, "It's all positively absurd!"
But the little greedy demons pranced around the bed, and they began to group
things into two definite issues. On the one side, the great appearances; on the
other, something at the back of it all, something deep, fundamental, something
that could only be expressed by one word—truth. If he had really loved
Adela—if he weren't so absolutely certain that Sandeman was wrong and he was
right—why should he have to say that Wych Street was where it wasn't?
"Isn't there, after all," said one of the little demons,
"something which makes for greater happiness than success? Confess this,
and we'll let you sleep."
Perhaps that is one of
the most potent weapons the little demons possess. However full our lives may
be, we ever long for moments of tranquillity. And conscience holds before our
eyes some mirror of an ultimate tranquillity. Lowes-Parlby was certainly not
himself. The gay, debonair, and brilliant egoist was tortured, and tortured
almost beyond control; and it had all apparently risen through the ridiculous
discussion about a street. At a quarter past three in the morning he arose from
his bed with a groan, and, going into the other room, he tore the letter to Mr.
Sandeman to pieces.
Three weeks later old
Stephen Garrit was lunching with the Lord Chief Justice. They were old friends,
and they never found it incumbent to be very conversational. The lunch was an
excellent, but frugal, meal. They both ate slowly and thoughtfully, and their
drink was water. It was not till they reached the dessert stage that his
lordship indulged in any very informative comment, and then he recounted to
Stephen the details of a recent case in which he considered that the presiding
judge had, by an unprecedented paralogy, misinterpreted the law of evidence.
Stephen listened with absorbed attention. He took two cob-nuts from the silver
dish, and turned them over meditatively, without cracking them. When his
lordship had completely stated his opinion and peeled a pear, Stephen mumbled:
"I have been
impressed, very impressed indeed. Even in my own field of—limited
observation—the opinion of an outsider, you may say—so often it happens—the
trouble caused by an affirmation without sufficiently established data. I have
seen lives lost, ruin brought about, endless suffering. Only last week, a young
man—a brilliant career—almost shattered. People make statements without—"
He put the nuts back on
the dish, and then, in an apparently irrelevant manner, he said abruptly:
"Do you remember
Wych Street, my lord?"
The Lord Chief justice
grunted.
"Wych Street! Of
course I do."
"Where would you
say it was, my lord?"
"Why, here, of
course."
His lordship took a
pencil from his pocket and sketched a plan on the tablecloth.
"It used to run
from there to here."
Stephen adjusted his
glasses and carefully examined the plan. He took a long time to do this, and
when he had finished his hand instinctively went towards a breast pocket where
he kept a note-book with little squared pages. Then he stopped and sighed.
After all, why argue with the law? The law was like that—an excellent thing,
not infallible, of course (even the plan of the Lord Chief justice was a
quarter of a mile out), but still an excellent, a wonderful thing. He examined
the bony knuckles of his hands and yawned slightly.
"Do you remember
it?" said the Lord Chief justice.
Stephen nodded sagely,
and his voice seemed to come from a long way off:
"Yes, I remember
it, my lord. It was a melancholy little street."
2.THE LOOKING GLASS by J.D. BERESFORD
(From The Cornhill Magazine) 1921, 1922
This was the first
communication that had come from her aunt in Rachel's lifetime.
"I think your aunt
has forgiven me, at last," her father said as he passed the letter across
the table.
Rachel looked first at
the signature. It seemed strange to see her own name there. It was as if her
individuality, her very identity, was impugned by the fact that there should be
two Rachel Deanes. Moreover there was a likeness between her aunt's autograph
and her own, a characteristic turn in the looping of the letters, a hint of the
same decisiveness and precision. If Rachel had been educated fifty years
earlier, she might have written her name in just that manner.
"You're very like
her in some ways," her father said, as she still stared at the signature.
Rachel's eyelids drooped
and her expression indicated a faint, suppressed intolerance of her father's
remark. He said the same things so often, and in so precisely the same tone,
that she had formed a habit of automatically rejecting the truth of certain of
his statements. He had always appeared to her as senile. He had been over fifty
when she was born, and ever since she could remember she had doubted the
correctness of his information. She was, she had often told herself, "a
born sceptic; an ultra-modern." She had a certain veneration for the more
distant past, but none for her father's period. "Victorianism" was to
her a term of abuse. She had long since condemned alike the ethic and the
aesthetic of the nineteenth century as represented by her father's opinions;
so, that, even now, when his familiar comment coincided so queerly with her own
thought, she instinctively disbelieved him. Yet, as always, she was gentle in
her answer. She condescended from the heights of her youth and vigour to pity
him.
"I should think you
must almost have forgotten what Aunt Rachel was like, dear," she said.
"How many years is it since you've seen her?"
"More than forty;
more than forty," her father said, ruminating profoundly. "We
disagreed, we invariably disagreed. Rachel always prided herself on being so
modern. She read Huxley and Darwin and things like that. Altogether beyond me,
I admit. Still, it seems to me that the old truths have endured, and will—in
spite of all—in spite of all."
Rachel straightened her
shoulders and lifted her head; there was disdain in her face, but none in her
voice as she replied:
"And so it seems
that she wants to see me."
She was excited at the
thought of meeting this traditional, this almost mythical aunt whom she had so
often heard about. Sometimes she had wondered if the personality of this
remarkable relative had not been a figment of her father's imagination, long
pondered, and reconstructed out of half-forgotten material. But this letter of
hers that now lay on the breakfast table was admirable in character. There was
something of condescension and intolerance expressed in the very restraint of
its tone. She had written a kindly letter, but the kindliness had an air of
pity. It was all consistent enough with what her father had told her.
Mr. Deane came out of
his reminiscences with a sigh.
"Yes, yes; she
wants to see you, my dear," he said. "I think you had better accept
this invitation to stay with her. She—she is rich, almost wealthy; and I, as
you know, have practically nothing to leave you—practically nothing. If she took
a fancy to you...."
He sighed again, and
Rachel knew that for the hundredth time he was regretting his own past
weakness. He had been so foolish in money matters, frittering away his once
considerable capital in aimless speculations. He and his sister had shared
equally under their father's will, but while he had been at last compelled to
sink the greater part of what was left to him in an annuity, she had probably
increased her original inheritance.
"I'll certainly go,
if you can spare me for a whole fortnight," Rachel said. "I'm all
curiosity to see this remarkable aunt. By the way, how old is she?"
"There were only
fifteen months between us," Mr. Deane said, "so she must be,—dear me,
yes;—she must be seventy-three. Dear, dear. Fancy Rachel being seventy-three! I
always think of her as being about your age. It seems so absurd to think of her
as old...."
He continued his
reflections, but Rachel was not listening. He was asking for the understanding
of the young; quite unaware of his senility, reaching out over half a century
to try to touch the comprehension and sympathy of his daughter. But she was
already bent on her own adventure, looking forward eagerly to a visit to London
that promised delights other than the inspection of the mysterious, traditional
aunt whom she had so long known by report.
For this invitation had
come very aptly. Rachel pondered that, later in the morning, with a glow of
ecstatic resignation to her charming fate. She found the guiding hand of a
romantic inevitability in the fact that she and Adrian Flemming were to meet so
soon. It had seemed so unlikely that they would see each other again for many
months. They had only met three times; but they knew, although
their friendship had been too green for either of them to admit the knowledge
before he had gone back to town. He had, indeed, hinted far more in his two
letters than he had ever dared to say. He was sensitive, he lacked
self-confidence; but Rachel adored him for just those failings she criticised
so hardly in her father. She took out her letters and re-read them, thrilling
with the realisation that in her answer she would have such a perfectly amazing
surprise for him. She would refer to it quite casually, somewhere near the end.
She would write: "By the way, it's just possible that we may meet again
before long as I am going to stay with my aunt, Miss Deane, in Tavistock
Square." He would understand all that lay behind such an apparently
careless reference, for she had told him that she "never went to
London," had only once in her life ever been there.
She was in her own room,
and she stood, now, before the cheval glass and studied herself; raising her
chin and slightly pursing her lips, staring superciliously at her own image
under half-lowered eyelids. Candidly, she admired herself; but she could not
help that assumption of a disdainful criticism. It seemed to give her
confidence in her own integrity; hiding that annoying shadow of doubt which
sometimes fell upon her when she caught sight of her reflection by chance and
unexpectedly.
But no thought of doubt
flawed her satisfaction this morning. A sense of power came to her, a tranquil
realisation that she could charm Adrian as she would. With a graceful, habitual
gesture she put up her hand and lightly touched her cheek with a soft, caressing
movement of her finger-tips.
II
The elderly parlour-maid
showed Rachel straight to her bedroom when she arrived at Tavistock Square,
indicating on the way the extensive-looking first-floor drawing-room, in which
tea and her first sight of the wonderful aunt would await Rachel in half an
hour. She had been eager and excited. The air and promise of London had
thrilled her, but she found some influence in the atmosphere of the big house
that was vaguely repellent, almost sinister.
Her bedroom was expensively
furnished and beautifully kept; some of the pieces were, she supposed, genuine
antiques, perhaps immensely valuable. But how could she ever feel at home
there? She was hampered by the necessity for moving circumspectly among this
aged delicate stuff; so wonderfully preserved and yet surely fragile and
decrepit at the heart. That spindling escritoire, for instance, and that
mincing Louis Quinze settee, ought to be taking their well-earned leisure in
some museum. It would be indecent to write at the one or sit on the other. They
were relics of the past, foolishly pretending an ability for service when their
life had been sapped by dry-rot and their original functions outlived.
"Well, if ever I
have a house of my own," Rachel thought regarding these ancient
splendours, "I'll furnish it with something I shan't be afraid of."
With a gesture of
dismissal she turned and looked out of the window. From the square came the
sounds of a motor drawing up at a neighbouring house; she heard the throbbing
of the engine, the slam of the door, and then the strong, sonorous tones of a
man's voice. That was her proper milieu, she reflected, among the
strong vital things. Even after twenty minutes in that bedroom she had begun to
feel enervated, as if she herself were also beginning to suffer from
dry-rot....
She was anxious and
uneasy as she went slowly downstairs to the drawing-room. Her anticipations of
this meeting with her intimidating, wealthy aunt had changed within the last
half-hour. Her first idea of Miss Deane had been of a robust, stout woman,
frank in her speech and inclined to be very critical of the newly found niece
whom she had chosen to inspect. Now, she was prepared rather to expect a
fragile, rather querulous old lady, older even than her years; an aunt to be
talked to in a lowered voice and treated with the same delicate care that must
be extended to her furniture.
Rachel paused with her
hand on the drawing-room door, and sighed at the thought of all the repressions
and nervous strains that this visit might have in store for her.
She entered the room
almost on tiptoe, and then stood stock-still, suddenly shocked and bewildered
with surprise. Whatever she had expected, it was not this. For a moment she was
unable to believe that the sprightly, painted and bedizened figure before her
could possibly be that of her aunt. Her head was crowned with an exuberant
brown wig, her heavy eyebrows were grotesquely blackened, her hollow cheeks
stiff with powder, her lips brightened to a fantastic scarlet. And she was posed
there, standing before the tea-table with her head a little back, looking at
her niece with a tolerant condescension, with the air of a superb young beauty,
self-conscious and proud of her charms.
"Hm! So you're my
semi-mythical niece," she said, putting up her lorgnette. "I'm glad
at any rate to find that you're not, after all, a fabulous creature." She
spoke in a high, rather thin voice that produced an effect of effort, as if she
were playing on the top octave of a flute.
Rachel had never in her
life felt so gauche and awkward.
"Yes—I—you know,
aunt, I had begun to wonder if you were not fabulous, too," she tried,
desperately anxious to seem at ease. She was afraid to look at that, to her,
grotesque figure, afraid to show by some unconscious reflex her dislike for its
ugliness. As she took the bony, ring-bedecked hand that was held out to her,
she kept her eyes away from her aunt's face.
Miss Deane, however,
would not permit that evasion.
"Hold your head up,
my dear, I want to look at you," she said, and when Rachel reluctantly
obeyed, continued, "Yes, you're more like my father than your own, which
means that you're like me, for I took after him, too, so every one said."
Rachel drew in her
breath with a little gasp. Was it possible that her aunt could imagine for one
instant that there was any likeness between them?
"Our—our names are
the same," she said nervously.
Miss Deane nodded.
"There's more in it than that," she said with a touch of complacence;
"and there's no reason why there shouldn't be. It's good Mendelism that
you should take after an aunt rather than either of your parents."
"And you really
think that we are alike?" Rachel asked feebly, looking in vain for any
sign of a quizzical humour in her aunt's face.
Miss Deane looked down
under her half-lowered eyelids with a proud air of tolerance. "Ah, well, a
little without doubt," she said, as though the advantages of the
difference were on her own side. "Now sit down and have your tea, my
dear."
Rachel obeyed with a
vague wonder in her mind as to why that look of tolerance should be so
familiar. It seemed to her as if it was something she had felt rather than
seen; and as tea progressed she found herself half furtively studying the
raddled ugliness of her aunt's face in the search for possible relics of a
beautiful youth.
"Ah, I think you're
beginning to see it, too," Miss Deane said, marking her niece's scrutiny.
"It grows on one, doesn't it?"
Rachel shivered
slightly. "Yes, it does," she said experimentally, watching her
aunt's face for some indication of a malicious teasing humour. It seemed to her
so incredible that this hideous parody of her own youth could honestly believe
that any physical likeness still existed.
Miss Deane, however, was
faintly simpering. "I have been told that I've changed very little,"
she said; and Rachel suppressed a sigh of impatience at the reflection that she
was expected to play up to this absurd fantasy.
"Of course, I can't
judge of that," she said, "as we met for the first time five minutes
ago."
"No, no, you can't
judge of that," her aunt replied, with the half-bashful
emphasis of one who awaits a compliment.
Rachel decided to
plunge. "But you do look extraordinarily young for your age still,"
she lied desperately.
Miss Deane straightened
her back and toyed with a teaspoon. "I have always taken great care of
myself," she said.
Unquestionably she
believed it, Rachel decided. This was no pose, but a horrible piece of
self-deception. This raddled, repulsive creature had actually persuaded herself
into the delusion that she still had the appearance of a young girl. Heaven
help her if that delusion were ever shattered!
Yet outside this one
obsession Miss Deane, as Rachel soon discovered, had a clear and well-balanced
mind. For, now that she had received her desired assurance from this new
quarter, she began to talk of other things. Her boasted "modernism,"
it is true, had a smack of the stiff, broadcloth savour of the eighties, but
she had a point of view that coincided far more nearly with Rachel's own than
did that of her father. Her aunt, at least, had outlived the worst
superstitions and inanities of the mid-Victorians.
Indeed, by the time tea
was finished Rachel's spirits were beginning to revive. She would have to be
very careful in her treatment of her aunt, but on the whole it would not
perhaps be so bad; and presently she would see Adrian again. She would almost
certainly get a letter from him by the last post, making some appointment to
meet her, and after that she would introduce him to Miss Deane. She had a
feeling that Miss Deane would not raise any objection; that she might even
welcome the visit of a young man to her house.
The time was passing so
easily that Rachel was surprised when she heard the gong sound.
"Does that mean
it's time to dress already?" she asked.
Miss Deane nodded.
"You've an hour before dinner," she said, "but I'll go up now. I
like to be leisurely over my toilet."
She rose as she spoke,
but as she crossed the room, she paused with what seemed to be a little jerk of
surprise as she caught sight of her own reflection in a tall mirror above one
of the gilt-legged console tables against the wall. Then she deliberately
stopped, turned and surveyed herself, half contemptuously, under lowered
eyelids, with a set of her head and back that belied plainly enough the pout of
her critical lips. And having admired that haggard image, she lifted her wasted
hand and delicately touched her whitened, hollow cheeks with the tips of her
heavily jewelled fingers.
Rachel stared in horror.
It seemed to her just then as if the reflection of her aunt in the mirror was
indeed that of herself grown instantly and mysteriously old. For now, whether
because the reversal of the image by the mirror or because of that perfect
duplication of her own characteristic pose and gesture, the likeness had
flashed out clear and unmistakable. She saw that her father had been right.
Once, incalculable ages ago, this repulsive old woman might have been very like
herself.
She slipped quickly out
of the room and ran upstairs. She felt that she must instantly put that
question to the test; search herself for the signs of coming age as she had so
recently searched her aunt's face for the indications of her former youth.
But when, with an effect
of challenge, she scrutinised her reflection in the tall cheval glass, the
likeness appeared to have vanished. She saw her head thrust a little forward,
her arms stiff, and in her whole pose an air of vigorous defiance. She was
prepared to admit that she was ugly at that moment, if the ugliness was of another
kind than that she had seen downstairs. No! She drew herself up, more than a
little relieved by the result of her test. The likeness was all a fancy, the
result of suggestions, first by her father and then by Miss Deane herself. And
she need at least have no fear that she was ugly. Why....
She paused suddenly, and
the light died out of her face. Her image was looking back at her stiffly,
superciliously, with, so it seemed to her, the contemptible simper of one who
still fatuously admires the thing that has long since lost its charm. She
caught her breath and clenched her hands, drawing down her rather heavy
eyebrows in an expression of angry scorn. "Oh! never, never, never again,
will I look at myself like that," Rachel vowed fiercely.
She was to find, however,
before this first evening was over, that the mere avoidance of that one pose
before the mirror would not suffice to lay the ghost of the suspicion that was
beginning to haunt her.
At the very outset a new
version of the likeness was presented to her when, during the first course of
dinner, Miss Deane, with a lowering frown of her blackened eyebrows, found
occasion to reprimand the elderly parlour-maid. For a moment Rachel was again
puzzled by the intriguing sense of the familiar, before she remembered her own
scowl at the looking-glass an hour before. "Do I really frown like
that?" she thought. And on the instant found herself feeling like
her aunt.
That, indeed, was the
horror that, despite every effort of resistance, deepened steadily as the
evening wore on. Miss Deane had, without question, lost every trace of her
beauty; but her character, her spirit was unchanged, and it was, so Rachel
increasingly believed, the very spit and replica of her own.
They had the same
characteristic gestures and expressions; the look of kindly tolerance with
which her aunt regarded Rachel was precisely the same as that with which Rachel
regarded her father. When her aunt's voice dropped in speaking from the rather
shrill, strained tone that was obviously not natural to her, Rachel heard the
inflexions of her own voice. And as her knowledge of Miss Deane grew, so, also,
did that haunting unpleasant feeling of looking and speaking in precisely the
same manner. It seemed to her as if she were being invaded by an alien personality;
as if the character she had known and cherished all her life were no longer her
own, but merely a casual inheritance from some unknown ancestor. Her very
integrity was threatened by her consciousness of that likeness, her pride of
individuality. She was not, after all, a unique personality, but merely another
version—if she were even that?—of a Miss Rachel Deane born in the middle of the
previous century.
Moreover, with that
growing recognition of likeness in character, there came the thought that she
in time might look even as her aunt looked at this present moment. She also
would lose her beauty, until no facial resemblance could be traced between the
hag she was and the beauty she had once been. For, through all her torment,
Rachel proudly clung to the certainty that, physically at least, there was no
sort of likeness between her aunt and herself.
Miss Deane's belief in
that matter, however, was soon proved to be otherwise; for when they were alone
together in the drawing-room after dinner, and the topic so inevitably present
to both their minds came to the surface of conversation, she unexpectedly said:
"But we're evidently the poles apart in character and manner, my
dear."
"Oh! do you think
so?" Rachel exclaimed. "I—it's a queer thing to say perhaps—but I
curiously feel like you, aunt; when you speak sometimes and—and when I watch
the way you do things."
Miss Deane shook her
head. "I admit the physical resemblance," she said; "otherwise,
my dear, we are utterly different."
Did she too, Rachel
wondered, resent the aspersion of her integrity?
By the last post Rachel
received her expected letter from Adrian Flemming. Her aunt separated it from
the others brought in by her maid and passed it across to her niece with a
slight hint of displeasure in her face. "Miss Rachel Deane, junior,"
she said. "Really, it hadn't occurred to me how difficult it will be to
distinguish our letters. I hope my friends won't take to addressing me as Miss
Deane, senior. Properly, of course, I am Miss Deane, and you Miss
Rachel, but I'll admit there's sure to be some confusion. Now, my dear, I
expect you're tired. You'd better run up to bed."
Rachel was willing
enough to go. She was glad to have an opportunity to read her letter in
solitude; she was even more glad to get away from the company of this living
echo of herself. "I believe I should go mad if I had to live with
her," she reflected. "I should get into the way of copying her. I
should begin to grow old before my time."
When she reached her
bedroom, she put down her letter unopened on the toilet-table and once more
stared searchingly at her own reflection in the mirror. Was there any least
trace of a physical likeness, she asked herself; and began in imagination to
follow the possible stages of the change that time would inevitably work upon
her. She shrugged her shoulders. If there were indeed any sort of facial
resemblance between herself and her aunt, no one would ever see it except in
Miss Deane, and she was obsessed with a senile vanity. Yet was it, after all,
Rachel began to wonder, an unnatural obsession? Might she not in time suffer
from it herself? The change would be so slow, so infinitely gradual; and always
one would be cherishing the old, loved image of youth and beauty, falling in
love with it, like a deluded Hyacinth, and coming to be deceived by the fantasy
of an unchanging appearance of youth. Looking always for the desired thing, she
would suffer from the hallucination that the thing existed in fact, and imagine
that the only artifice needed to perfect the illusion was a touch of paint and
powder. No doubt her aunt—perhaps searching her own image in the mirror at this
moment—saw not herself but a picture of her niece. She was hypnotised by the
suggestion of a pose and the desire of her own mind. In time, Rachel herself
might also become the victim of a similar illusion!
Oh! it was horrible!
With a shudder, she picked up her letter and turned away from the
looking-glass. She would forget that ghastly warning in the thought of the joys
proper to her youth. She would think of Adrian and of her next meeting with
him. She opened her letter to find that he had, rather timorously, suggested
that she should meet him the next afternoon—at the Marble Arch at three
o'clock, if he heard nothing from her in the meantime.
For a few minutes she
lost herself in delighted anticipation, and then slowly, insidiously, a new
speculation crept into her mind. What would be the effect upon Adrian if he saw
her and her aunt together? Would he recognise the likeness and, anticipating the
movement of more than half a century, see her in one amazing moment as she
would presently become? And, in any case, what a terrible train of suggestion
might not be started in his mind by the impression left upon him by the old
woman? Once he had seen Miss Deane, Rachel's every gesture would serve to
remind him of that repulsive image of raddled, deluded age. It might well be
that, in time, he would come to see Rachel as she would presently be rather
than as she was. It would be a hideous reversal of the old romance; instead of
seeing the girl in the old woman, he would foresee the harridan in the girl!
That picture presented
itself to Rachel with a quite appalling effect of conviction. She suddenly
remembered a case she had known that had remarkable points of resemblance—the
case of a rather pretty girl with an unpleasant younger brother who, so she had
heard it said, "put men off his sister" because of the facial
likeness between them. She was pretty and he was ugly, but they were
unmistakably brother and sister.
Oh! it would be nothing
less than folly to let Adrian and her aunt meet, Rachel decided. In
imagination, she could follow the process of his growing dismay; she could see
his puzzled stare as he watched Miss Deane, and struggled to fix that tantalising
suggestion of likeness to some one he knew; his flash of illumination as he
solved the puzzle and turned with that gentle, winning smile of his to herself;
and then the progress of his disillusionment as, day by day, he realised more
plainly the intriguing similarities of expression and gesture, until he felt
that he was making love to the spirit of an aged spinster temporarily disguised
behind the appearance of beauty.
III
Rachel had believed on
the first night of her arrival in Tavistock Square that, so far as her love
affair was concerned, she would be able to avoid all danger by keeping her
lover and her aunt unknown to each other. She very soon found, however, that
the spell Miss Deane seemed to have put upon her was not to be laid by any
effect of mere distance.
She and Adrian met
rather shyly at their first appointment. Both of them were a little conscious
of having been overbold, one for having suggested, and the other for having
agreed to so significant an assignation. And for the first few minutes their
talk was nothing but a quick, nervous reminiscence of their earlier meetings.
They had to recover the lost ground on which they had parted before they could
go on to any more intimate knowledge of each other. But for some reason she had
not yet realised, Rachel found it very difficult to recover that lost ground.
She knew that she was being unnecessarily distant and cold, and though she
inwardly accused herself of "putting on absurd airs," her manner, as
she was uncomfortably aware, remained at once stilted and detached.
"I suppose it's
because I'm self-conscious before all these people," she thought, and,
indeed, Hyde Park was very full that afternoon.
And it was Adrian who
first, a little desperately, tried to reach across the barrier that was dividing
them.
"You're different,
rather, in town," he began shyly. "Is it the effect of your aunt's
grandeurs?"
"Am I different? I
feel exactly the same," Rachel replied mechanically.
"You didn't think
it was rather impudent of me to ask you to meet me here, did you?" he went
on anxiously.
She shook her head
emphatically. "Oh! no, it wasn't that," she said.
"But then you admit
that it was—something?" he pleaded.
"The people,
perhaps," she admitted. "I—I feel so exposed to the public
view."
"We might walk across
the Park if you preferred it," he suggested; "and have tea at that
place in Kensington Gardens? It would be quieter there."
She agreed to that
willingly. She wanted to be alone with him. The crowd made her nervous and
self-conscious this afternoon. Always before, she had delighted in moving among
a crowd, appreciating and enjoying the casual glances of admiration she
received. Today she was afraid of being noticed. She had a queer feeling that
these smart, clever people in the Park might see through her, if they stared
too closely. Just what they would discover she did not know; but she suffered a
disquieting qualm of uneasiness whenever she saw any one observing her with
attention.
They cut across the
grass and, leaving the Serpentine on their left, found two chairs in a quiet
spot under the trees. Here, at least, they were quite unwatched, but still
Rachel found it impossible to regain the relations that had existed between her
and Adrian when they had parted a month earlier. And Adrian, too, it seemed,
was staring at her with a new, inquisitive scrutiny.
"Why do you look at
me like that?" she broke out at last. "Do you notice any difference
in me, or what? You—you've been staring so!"
"Difference!"
he repeated. "Well, I told you just now, didn't I, that you were different
this afternoon?"
"Yes, but in what
way?" she asked. "Do I—do I look different?"
He paused a little
judiciously over his answer. "N—no," he hesitated. "There's
something, though. Don't be offended, will you, if I say that you don't seem to
be quite yourself to-day; not quite natural. I miss a rather characteristic
expression of yours. You've never once looked at me with that rather tolerating
air you used to put on."
"It was a horrid
air," she said sharply. "I've made up my mind to cure myself of
it."
"Oh! no,
don't," he protested. "It wasn't at all horrid. It was—don't think
I'm trying to pay you a compliment—it was, well, charming. I've missed it
dreadfully."
She turned and looked at
him, determined to try an experiment. "This sort of air, do you
mean?" she asked, and with a sickening sensation of presenting the very
gestures and appearance of her aunt, she regarded him under lowered eyelids
with an expression of faintly supercilious approval.
His smile at once
thanked and answered her.
"But it's an
abominable look," she exclaimed. "The look of an old, old, painted
woman, vain, ridiculous."
He stared at her in
amazement. "How absurd!" he protested. "Why, it's you;
and you're certainly not old or painted nor unduly vain, and no one could say
you were ridiculous."
"And you want me to
look like that?" she asked.
"It's—it's so you,"
he said shyly.
"But, just
suppose," she cried, "that I went on looking like that after I'd
grown old and ugly. Think how hateful it would be to see a hideous old woman
posturing and pretending and making eyes. And, you see, if one gets a habit,
it's so hard to get rid of it. Think of me at seventy, all painted and
powdered, trying to seem as if I hadn't altered and really believing that I
hadn't."
He laughed that pleasant,
kind laugh of his which had been one of the first things in him that had so
attracted her.
"Oh! I'll chance
the future," he said. "Besides if—if it could ever happen that—that
your growing old came to me gradually, that I should be seeing you every day, I
mean, I shouldn't notice it. I should be old too; and I should
think you hadn't altered either." He was afraid, as yet, to be too plain
spoken, but his tone made it quite clear that he asked for no greater happiness
than that of seeing her grow old beside him.
She did not pretend to
misunderstand him. "Would you? Perhaps you would," she said.
"But, all the same, I don't think you need insist on that
particular—pose."
He passed that by, too
eager at the moment to claim the concession she had offered him. "Is there
any hope that I may be allowed to—to watch you growing old?" he asked.
"Perhaps—if you'll
let me do it in my own way," Rachel said.
Adrian shyly took her
hand. "You mean that you will—that you don't mind?" He put the
question as if he had no doubt of its intelligibility—to her.
She nodded.
"When did you begin
to know?" he asked, awed by the wonder of this stupendous thing that had
happened to him.
"From the
beginning, I think," Rachel murmured.
"So did I, from the
very beginning—" he agreed, and from that they dropped into sacred
reminiscences and comparisons concerning the innumerable things they had
adoringly seen in each other and had had as yet no opportunity to glory in.
And in the midst of all
these new and bewildering, embarrassing, delightful revelations and
discoveries, Rachel completely forgot the shadow that was haunting her, forgot
how she looked or felt or acted, forgot that there was or had ever been a
terrible old woman who lived in Tavistock Square and whose hold on life was maintained
by her horrible mimicry of youth. And then, in a moment, she was lifted out of
her dream and cruelly set down on the hard, unsympathetic earth by the sound of
her lover's voice.
"I suppose I'll
have to meet your aunt?" he was saying. "Shall we go back there now,
and tell her?"
Rachel flushed, as if he
had suggested some startling invasion of her secret life. "Oh! no,"
she ejaculated impulsively.
Adrian looked his
surprise. "But why not?" he asked. "I'm—I'm a perfectly
respectable, eligible party."
"I wasn't thinking
of that," Rachel said.
"Is she a terrible
dragon?" he inquired with a smile.
Rachel shook her head,
rejecting the excuse offered in favour of a more probable modification.
"She's odd rather. She might prefer my giving her some kind of notice,"
she said.
He accepted that without
hesitation. "Will you warn her then?" he replied. "And I'll come
and do my duty to-morrow. I understand she's a lady to be propitiated."
"Not
to-morrow," Rachel said.
The irk and disgust of
it all had returned to her with renewed force at the first mention of her
aunt's name. The thought of Miss Deane had revived the repulsive sense of
acting, speaking, looking like that aged caricature of herself. Yet she wanted
strangely enough, to get back to Tavistock Square; for only there, it seemed to
her, was she safe from the examination of an inquisitive stare that might at
any moment penetrate her secret and reveal her as a posturing hag masquerading
in the alluring freshness of a young girl.
"I ought to be
going back to her now," she said.
"But you promised
that we should have tea together," Adrian remonstrated.
"Yes, I know; but
please don't pester me. I'll see you again to-morrow," Rachel returned
with a touch of elderly hauteur. And, despite all his entreaties, she would not
be persuaded to change her mind. Already he was looking at her with a touch of
suspicion, she thought; and as she checked his remonstrances, she was aware of
doing it with the air, the tone, the very look that were her inheritance from
endless generations of precisely similar ancestors.
IV
If she could but have
lived a double life, Rachel thought, her present position might have been
endurable, and then, in a few months or even weeks, the problem would be solved
for ever by her marriage with Adrian and the final obliteration of Miss Deane
from her memory. But she could not live a double life. Day by day, as her
intimacy with her aunt increased, Rachel found it more difficult to forget her
when she was away from Tavistock Square. In the deepest and most beautiful
moments of her intercourse with Adrian, she was aware now of practising upon
him a subtle deception, of pretending that she was other than she was in
reality—an awareness that was constantly pricked and stimulated by the
continually growing consciousness of her likeness to Miss Deane.
Miss Deane on her part
evidently took a great pleasure in her niece's society. The fortnight of her
original invitation had already been exceeded, but she would not hear of
Rachel's return to Devonshire.
"Why should you go
back?" she demanded scornfully. "Your father doesn't want you—Richard
is one of those slip-shod people who prefer to live alone. I used to try to
stir him up, and he ran away from me. He'll run away from you, my dear, in a
few years' time. He hasn't the courage to stand up to women like us."
Miss Deane
unquestionably wanted her niece to stay with her. She was even beginning to
hint at the desirability of making the present arrangement a permanent one.
Rachel, however, was not
flattered by this display of pleasure in her society. She knew that it was due
to no individual charm of her own, but to the fact that she had become her
aunt's mirror. For Miss Deane no longer, in Rachel's presence at least, gazed
at herself in the looking-glass; she gazed at her niece instead. And as Rachel
endured the posings and simperings, the alternate adoration and fond contempt
with which her aunt regarded her, she was unable to resist the impulse to
reflect them. Every day she fell a little lower in that weakness, and however
slight the likeness had once been, she knew that now it must be patent to every
observer. She copied her aunt, mimicked, duplicated her. It was easier to do
that than fight the resemblance, against her aunt's determination; and so, by
unnoticed degrees, she had permitted herself to become a lay figure upon which
was dressed the image of Miss Deane's youth. She had even come to desire the
look of almost sensual gratification on her aunt's face when she saw her niece
so perfectly reflecting her own well-remembered airs.
And Rachel, too, had
come to avoid the looking-glass, dreading to see there the poses and
gesticulations of the old, repulsive woman whose every feature and expression
had become so sickeningly familiar.
And, in all that time,
Adrian had not once been to the house in Tavistock Square. Rachel had kept him
away by what she felt had become all too transparent excuses. That terror, at
least, she felt must be kept at bay. For she could not conceive it possible
that, once he had seen her and her aunt together, he could retain one spark of
his admiration. He would, he must, see her then as she was, see that her
contemptible vanity was the essential enduring thing, all that would remain
when time had stripped her of youth's allurement.
Nevertheless, the day
came when Rachel could no longer endure to deceive him. He had challenged her,
at last, with hiding something from him. Inevitably, he had become increasingly
curious about her strange reticences concerning the Miss Deane whom he, in
turn, had grown to regard as almost mythical; and all his suppressed suspicions
had suddenly found expression in a question.
"What are you
hiding? Do you really live with your aunt in Tavistock Square?" he had
asked that day, with all the fierce intensity of a jealous lover.
Rachel had been stirred
to a quick response. "Oh, if you don't believe me, you'd better come and
see for yourself," she had said. "Come this afternoon—to tea."
And afterwards, even when Adrian had humbly sought to make amends for his unwarrantable
jealousy, she had stuck to that invitation. The moment that she had issued it,
she had had a sense of relief, a sense of having gratefully confessed her
weakness. Adrian's visit would consummate that confession, and thereafter she
would have no further secrets from him. And if he found that he could no longer
love her after he had seen her as she was, well, it would be better in the end
than that he should marry a simulacrum and make the discovery by slow degrees.
"Yes, come this
afternoon. We'll expect you about four" had been her last words to him.
And, now, she had to tell her aunt, who was still unaware that such a person as
Adrian Flemming existed. Rachel postponed the telling until after lunch. Her
knowledge of Miss Deane, though in some respects it equalled her knowledge of
her own mind, did not tell her how her aunt would take this particular piece of
news. She might possibly, Rachel thought, be annoyed, fearful lest her beloved
looking-glass should be stolen from her. But she could wait no longer. In half
an hour Miss Deane would go upstairs to rest, and Adrian himself would be in
the house before she appeared again.
"I've something to
tell you, aunt," Rachel began abruptly.
Miss Deane put up her
lorgnette and surveyed her lovely portrait with an interested air.
"Aunt—I've never
told you and I know I ought to have," Rachel blurted out. "But
I'm—I'm engaged to a Mr. Adrian Flemming, and he's coming here to call on
you—to call on us, this afternoon at four o'clock."
Miss Deane closed her
eyes and gave a little sigh.
"You might have
given me rather longer notice, dear," she said.
"It isn't two
yet," Rachel replied. "There are more than two hours to get ready for
him."
Miss Deane bridled
slightly. "I must have my rest before he comes," she said, and added:
"I suppose you've told him about us, dear?"
"About you?"
Rachel asked.
Miss Deane nodded,
complacently.
"Well, not very
much," Rachel admitted.
Miss Dean's look, as she
playfully threatened Rachel with her long-handled lorgnette, was distinctly
sly.
"Then he doesn't
know yet that there are two of us?" she simpered. "Won't it be just a
little bit of a shock to him, my dear?"
Rachel drew a long
breath and leaned back in her chair. "Yes," she said curtly, "I
expect it will."
Never before had the
realisation of that strange likeness seemed so intolerable as at that moment.
Even now her aunt was looking at her with the very air and gesture which had
once charmed her in her own reflection, and that she knew still charmed and
fascinated her lover. It was an air and gesture of which she could never break
herself. It was natural to her, a true expression of something ineradicable in
her being. Indeed, one of the worst penalties imposed upon her during the past
month had been the omission of those pleasant ceremonies before the mirror. She
had somehow missed herself, lost the sweetest and most adorable of companions!
Miss Deane got up, and
holding herself very erect, moved with a little mincing step towards the tall
mirror over the console table. Rachel held her breath. She saw that her aunt,
suddenly aroused by this thought of the coming lover, was returning
mechanically to her old habit of self-admiration. Was it possible, Rachel
wondered, that the sight of the image she would see in the looking-glass,
contrasted now with the memories of the living reflection she had so intimately
studied for the past four weeks, might shock her into a realisation of the
starkly hideous truth?
But it seemed that the
aged woman must be blind. She gave no start of surprise as she paused before
the glass; she showed no sign of anxiety concerning the vision she saw there.
Her left hand, in which she held her lorgnette, had fallen to her side, and
with the finger-tips of her right she daintily caressed the hollows of her
sunken cheeks. She stayed there until Rachel, unable to endure the sight any
longer, and with some vague purpose of defiance in her mind, jumped to her
feet, crossed the room and stood shoulder by shoulder with her aunt staring
into the glass.
For a moment Miss Deane
did not move; then, with a queer hesitation, she dropped her right hand and
slowly lifted her lorgnette.
Rachel felt a cold chill
of horror invading her. Something fearful and terrible was happening before her
eyes; her aunt was shrinking, withering, growing old in a moment. The stiffness
had gone out of her pose, her head had begun to droop; the proud contempt in
her face was giving way to the moping, resentful reminiscence of the aged. She
still held up her lorgnette, still stared half fearfully at the glaring contrast
that was presented to her, but her hand and arm had begun to tremble under the
strain, and, instant by, instant, all life and vigour seemed to be draining
away from her.
Then, suddenly, with a
fierce effort she turned away her head, straightened herself, and walked over
to the door, passing out with a high, thin cackle of laughter that had in it
the suggestion of a vehement, petulant derision; of a bitterness outmastering
control.
Rachel shivered, but
held her ground before the mirror. She had nothing to fear from that
contemplation. As for her aunt, she had had her day. It was time she knew the
truth.
"She had to
know," Rachel repeated, addressing the dear likeness that so proudly
reflected her.
V
She found consolation in
that thought. Her aunt had to know and Rachel herself was only
the chance instrument of the revelation. She had not meant, so she
persisted, to do more than vindicate her own integrity.
Nevertheless, her own
passionate problem was not yet solved. Her aunt would not, so Rachel believed,
give way without a struggle. Had she not made a gallant effort at recovery even
as she left the room, and would she not make a still greater effort while
Adrian was there; assert her rivalry if only in revenge?
She must meet that,
Rachel decided, by presenting a contrast. She would be meek and humble in her
aunt's presence. Adrian might recognise the admired airs and gestures in those
of the old woman, but he should at least have no opportunity to compare
them....
And it was with this
thought and intention in her mind that Rachel received him, when he arrived
with a lover's promptness a little before four o'clock.
"Are you so
dreadfully nervous?" he asked her, when they were alone together in the
drawing-room. "You're like you were the first day we met in town—different
from your usual self."
"Oh! What a memory
you have for my looks and behaviour," she replied pettishly. "Of
course, I'm nervous."
He tried to argue with
her, questioning her as to Miss Deane's probable reception of him, but she
refused to answer. "You'll see for yourself in a few minutes," she
said; but the minutes passed and still Miss Deane did not come.
At a quarter to five the
elderly parlour-maid brought in tea. "Miss Deane said you were not to wait
for her, Miss Rachel," was the message she delivered. "She'll be down
presently, I was to say."
Rachel could not
suppress a scornful twist of her mouth. She had no doubt that her aunt was
taking very special pains with her toilet; trying to obliterate, perhaps, her
recent vision before the console glass. Rachel saw her entrance in imagination,
stiff-necked and proud, defying the criticisms of youth and the suggestions of
age.
"Oh! why doesn't
she come and let me get it over?" she passionately demanded, and even as
she spoke she heard the sounds of some one coming down the stairs, not the
accustomed sounds of her aunt's finicking, high-heeled steps, but a shuffling
and creaking, accompanied by the murmurs of a weak, protesting voice.
Rachel jumped to her
feet. She knew everything then—before the door opened, and she saw first of all
the shocked, scared face of the elderly parlour-maid who supported the
crumpled, palsied figure of the old, old woman who, three hours before, had
been so miraculously young, magically upheld and supported then by the omnipotent
strength of an idea.
She only stayed in the
drawing-room for five minutes; a querulous, resentful old lady, malignantly
jealous, so it seemed, of their vigour and impatient of their sympathy.
When the parlour-maid
had been sent for and Miss Deane had gone, Rachel stood up and looked down at
Adrian with all her old hauteur.
"Can you
realise," she asked, "that once my aunt was supposed to be very, very
like me?"
He smiled and shook his
head, as if the possibility was too absurd to contemplate.
Rachel turned and looked
at herself in the glass, raising her chin and slightly pursing her lips,
staring superciliously at her own image under half-lowered eyelids.
"Some day I may be
as she is now," she said, with the superb contemptuous arrogance of youth.
Adrian was watching her
with adoration. "You will never grow old," he said.
"So long as one
does not get the idea of growing old into one's head," Rachel began
speculatively....
000
But Miss Deane had got
the idea so strongly now that she died that night.
Rachel was with her at
the last.
The old woman was trying
to mouth a text from the Bible.
"What did you say,
dear?" Rachel murmured, bending over her, and caught enough of the answer
to guess that Miss Deane was mumbling again and again: "Now we see through
a glass darkly, but then face to face."
3.THE OLIVE by ALGERNON BLACKWOOD
(From Pearson's Magazine, London) 1922
He laughed involuntarily
as the olive rolled towards his chair across the shiny parquet floor of the
hotel dining-room.
His table in the cavernous salle
à manger was apart: he sat alone, a solitary guest; the table from
which the olive fell and rolled towards him was some distance away. The angle,
however, made him an unlikely objective. Yet the lob-sided, juicy thing, after
hesitating once or twice en route as it plopped along, came to
rest finally against his feet.
It settled with an
inviting, almost an aggressive air. And he stooped and picked it up, putting it
rather self-consciously, because of the girl from whose table it had come, on
the white tablecloth beside his plate.
Then, looking up, he
caught her eye, and saw that she too was laughing, though not a bit
self-consciously. As she helped herself to the hors d'oeuvres a
false move had sent it flying. She watched him pick the olive up and set it
beside his plate. Her eyes then suddenly looked away again—at her
mother—questioningly.
The incident was closed.
But the little oblong, succulent olive lay beside his plate, so that his
fingers played with it. He fingered it automatically from time to time until
his lonely meal was finished.
When no one was looking
he slipped it into his pocket, as though, having taken the trouble to pick it
up, this was the very least he could do with it. Heaven alone knows why, but he
then took it upstairs with him, setting it on the marble mantelpiece among his
field glasses, tobacco tins, ink-bottles, pipes and candlestick. At any rate,
he kept it—the moist, shiny, lob-sided, juicy little oblong olive. The hotel
lounge wearied him; he came to his room after dinner to smoke at his ease, his
coat off and his feet on a chair; to read another chapter of Freud, to write a
letter or two he didn't in the least want to write, and then go to bed at ten
o'clock. But this evening the olive kept rolling between him and the thing he
read; it rolled between the paragraphs, between the lines; the olive was more
vital than the interest of these eternal "complexes" and
"suppressed desires."
The truth was that he
kept seeing the eyes of the laughing girl beyond the bouncing olive. She had
smiled at him in such a natural, spontaneous, friendly way before her mother's
glance had checked her—a smile, he felt, that might lead to acquaintance on the
morrow.
He wondered! A thrill of
possible adventure ran through him.
She was a merry-looking
sort of girl, with a happy, half-roguish face that seemed on the lookout for
somebody to play with. Her mother, like most of the people in the big hotel,
was an invalid; the girl, a dutiful and patient daughter. They had arrived that
very day apparently. A laugh is a revealing thing, he thought as he fell asleep
to dream of a lob-sided olive rolling consciously towards him, and of a girl's
eyes that watched its awkward movements, then looked up into his own and
laughed. In his dream the olive had been deliberately and cleverly dispatched
upon its uncertain journey. It was a message.
He did not know, of
course, that the mother, chiding her daughter's awkwardness, had muttered:
"There you are
again, child! True to your name, you never see an olive without doing something
queer and odd with it!"
A youngish man, whose
knowledge of chemistry, including invisible inks and such-like mysteries, had
proved so valuable to the Censor's Department that for five years he had
overworked without a holiday, the Italian Riviera had attracted him, and he had
come out for a two months' rest. It was his first visit. Sun, mimosa, blue seas
and brilliant skies had tempted him; exchange made a pound worth forty, fifty,
sixty and seventy shillings. He found the place lovely, but somewhat
untenanted.
Having chosen at random,
he had come to a spot where the companionship he hoped to find did not exist.
The place languished after the war, slow to recover; the colony of resident
English was scattered still; travellers preferred the coast of France with
Mentone and Monte Carlo to enliven them. The country, moreover, was distracted
by strikes. The electric light failed one week, letters the next, and as soon
as the electricians and postal-workers resumed, the railways stopped running. Few
visitors came, and the few who came soon left.
He stayed on, however,
caught by the sunshine and the good exchange, also without the physical energy
to discover a better, livelier place. He went for walks among the olive groves,
he sat beside the sea and palms, he visited shops and bought things he did not
want because the exchange made them seem cheap, he paid immense
"extras" in his weekly bill, then chuckled as he reduced them to
shillings and found that a few pence covered them; he lay with a book for hours
among the olive groves.
The olive groves! His
daily life could not escape the olive groves; to olive groves, sooner or later,
his walks, his expeditions, his meanderings by the sea, his shopping—all led
him to these ubiquitous olive groves.
If he bought a picture
postcard to send home, there was sure to be an olive grove in one corner of it.
The whole place was smothered with olive groves, the people owed their incomes
and existence to these irrepressible trees. The villages among the hills swam roof-deep
in them. They swarmed even in the hotel gardens.
The guide books praised
them as persistently as the residents brought them, sooner or later, into every
conversation. They grew lyrical over them:
"And how do you
like our olive trees? Ah, you think them pretty. At first, most people are
disappointed. They grow on one."
"They do," he
agreed.
"I'm glad you
appreciate them. I find them the embodiment of grace. And when the wind lifts
the under-leaves across a whole mountain slope—why, it's wonderful, isn't it?
One realises the meaning of 'olive-green'."
"One does," he
sighed. "But all the same I should like to get one to eat—an olive, I
mean."
"Ah, to eat, yes.
That's not so easy. You see, the crop is—"
"Exactly," he
interrupted impatiently, weary of the habitual and evasive explanations.
"But I should like to taste the fruit. I should like to enjoy
one."
For, after a stay of six
weeks, he had never once seen an olive on the table, in the shops, nor even on
the street barrows at the market place. He had never tasted one. No one sold
olives, though olive trees were a drug in the place; no one bought them, no one
asked for them; it seemed that no one wanted them. The trees, when he looked
closely, were thick with a dark little berry that seemed more like a sour sloe
than the succulent, delicious spicy fruit associated with its name.
Men climbed the trunks,
everywhere shaking the laden branches and hitting them with long bamboo poles
to knock the fruit off, while women and children, squatting on their haunches,
spent laborious hours filling baskets underneath, then loading mules and
donkeys with their daily "catch." But an olive to eat was
unobtainable. He had never cared for olives, but now he craved with all his
soul to feel his teeth in one.
"Ach! But it is the
Spanish olive that you eat," explained the head waiter, a
German "from Basel." "These are for oil only." After which
he disliked the olive more than ever—until that night when he saw the first
eatable specimen rolling across the shiny parquet floor, propelled towards him
by the careless hand of a pretty girl, who then looked up into his eyes and
smiled.
He was convinced that
Eve, similarly, had rolled the apple towards Adam across the emerald sward of
the first garden in the world.
He slept usually like the
dead. It must have been something very real that made him open his eyes and sit
up in bed alertly. There was a noise against his door. He listened. The room
was still quite dark. It was early morning. The noise was not repeated.
"Who's there?"
he asked in a sleepy whisper. "What is it?"
The noise came again.
Some one was scratching on the door. No, it was somebody tapping.
"What do you
want?" he demanded in a louder voice. "Come in," he added,
wondering sleepily whether he was presentable. Either the hotel was on fire or
the porter was waking the wrong person for some sunrise expedition.
Nothing happened. Wide
awake now, he turned the switch on, but no light flooded the room. The
electricians, he remembered with a curse, were out on strike. He fumbled for
the matches, and as he did so a voice in the corridor became distinctly
audible. It was just outside his door.
"Aren't you
ready?" he heard. "You sleep for ever."
And the voice, although
never having heard it before, he could not have recognised it, belonged, he
knew suddenly, to the girl who had let the olive fall. In an instant he was out
of bed. He lit a candle.
"I'm coming,"
he called softly, as he slipped rapidly into some clothes. "I'm sorry I've
kept you. I shan't be a minute."
"Be quick
then!" he heard, while the candle flame slowly grew, and he found his
garments. Less than three minutes later he opened the door and, candle in hand,
peered into the dark passage.
"Blow it out!"
came a peremptory whisper. He obeyed, but not quick enough. A pair of red lips
emerged from the shadows. There was a puff, and the candle was extinguished.
"I've got my reputation to consider. We mustn't be seen, of course!"
The face vanished in the
darkness, but he had recognised it—the shining skin, the bright glancing eyes.
The sweet breath touched his cheek. The candlestick was taken from him by a
swift, deft movement. He heard it knock the wainscoting as it was set down. He
went out into a pitch-black corridor, where a soft hand seized his own and led
him—by a back door, it seemed—out into the open air of the hill-side
immediately behind the hotel.
He saw the stars. The
morning was cool and fragrant, the sharp air waked him, and the last vestiges
of sleep went flying. He had been drowsy and confused, had obeyed the summons
without thinking. He now realised suddenly that he was engaged in an act of
madness.
The girl, dressed in
some flimsy material thrown loosely about her head and body, stood a few feet
away, looking, he thought, like some figure called out of dreams and slumber of
a forgotten world, out of legend almost. He saw her evening shoes peep out; he
divined an evening dress beneath the gauzy covering. The light wind blew it
close against her figure. He thought of a nymph.
"I say—but haven't
you been to bed?" he asked stupidly. He had meant to expostulate, to
apologise for his foolish rashness, to scold and say they must go back at once.
Instead, this sentence came. He guessed she had been sitting up all night. He
stood still a second, staring in mute admiration, his eyes full of bewildered
question.
"Watching the
stars," she met his thought with a happy laugh. "Orion has touched
the horizon. I came for you at once. We've got just four hours!" The
voice, the smile, the eyes, the reference to Orion, swept him off his feet.
Something in him broke loose, and flew wildly, recklessly to the stars.
"Let us be
off!" he cried, "before the Bear tilts down. Already Alcyone begins
to fade. I'm ready. Come!"
She laughed. The wind
blew the gauze aside to show two ivory white limbs. She caught his hand again,
and they scampered together up the steep hill-side towards the woods. Soon the
big hotel, the villas, the white houses of the little town where natives and
visitors still lay soundly sleeping, were out of sight. The farther sky came
down to meet them. The stars were paling, but no sign of actual dawn was yet
visible. The freshness stung their cheeks.
Slowly, the heavens grew
lighter, the east turned rose, the outline of the trees defined themselves,
there was a stirring of the silvery green leaves. They were among olive
groves—but the spirits of the trees were dancing. Far below them, a pool of
deep colour, they saw the ancient sea. They saw the tiny specks of distant
fishing-boats. The sailors were singing to the dawn, and birds among the mimosa
of the hanging gardens answered them.
Pausing a moment at
length beneath a gaunt old tree, whose struggle to leave the clinging earth had
tortured its great writhing arms and trunk, they took their breath, gazing at
one another with eyes full of happy dreams.
"You understood so
quickly," said the girl, "my little message. I knew by your eyes and
ears you would." And she first tweaked his ears with two slender fingers
mischievously, then laid her soft palm with a momentary light pressure on both
eyes.
"You're
half-and-half, at any rate," she added, looking him up and down for a
swift instant of appraisement, "if you're not altogether." The
laughter showed her white, even little teeth.
"You know how to
play, and that's something," she added. Then, as if to herself,
"You'll be altogether before I've done with you."
"Shall I?" he
stammered, afraid to look at her.
Puzzled, some spirit of
compromise still lingering in him, he knew not what she meant; he knew only
that the current of life flowed increasingly through his veins, but that her
eyes confused him.
"I'm longing for
it," he added. "How wonderfully you did it! They roll so
awkwardly——"
"Oh, that!"
She peered at him through a wisp of hair. "You've kept it, I hope."
"Rather. It's on my
mantelpiece——"
"You're sure you
haven't eaten it?" and she made a delicious mimicry with her red lips, so
that he saw the tip of a small pointed tongue.
"I shall keep
it," he swore, "as long as these arms have life in them," and he
seized her just as she was crouching to escape, and covered her with kisses.
"I knew you longed
to play," she panted, when he released her. "Still, it was sweet of
you to pick it up before another got it."
"Another!" he
exclaimed.
"The gods decide.
It's a lob-sided thing, remember. It can't roll straight." She looked
oddly mischievous, elusive.
He stared at her.
"If it had rolled
elsewhere—and another had picked it up——?" he began.
"I should be with
that other now!" And this time she was off and away before he could
prevent her, and the sound of her silvery laughter mocked him among the olive
trees beyond. He was up and after her in a second, following her slim whiteness
in and out of the old-world grove, as she flitted lightly, her hair flying in
the wind, her figure flashing like a ray of sunlight or the race of foaming
water—till at last he caught her and drew her down upon his knees, and kissed
her wildly, forgetting who and where and what he was.
"Hark!" she
whispered breathlessly, one arm close about his neck. "I hear their
footsteps. Listen! It is the pipe!"
"The pipe——!"
he repeated, conscious of a tiny but delicious shudder.
For a sudden chill ran
through him as she said it. He gazed at her. The hair fell loose about her
cheeks, flushed and rosy with his hot kisses. Her eyes were bright and wild for
all their softness. Her face, turned sideways to him as she listened, wore an
extraordinary look that for an instant made his blood run cold. He saw the
parted lips, the small white teeth, the slim neck of ivory, the young bosom
panting from his tempestuous embrace. Of an unearthly loveliness and brightness
she seemed to him, yet with this strange, remote expression that touched his
soul with sudden terror.
Her face turned slowly.
"Who are you?"
he whispered. He sprang to his feet without waiting for her answer.
He was young and agile;
strong, too, with that quick response of muscle they have who keep their bodies
well; but he was no match for her. Her speed and agility out-classed his own
with ease. She leapt. Before he had moved one leg forward towards escape, she
was clinging with soft, supple arms and limbs about him, so that he could not
free himself, and as her weight bore him downwards to the ground, her lips
found his own and kissed them into silence. She lay buried again in his embrace,
her hair across his eyes, her heart against his heart, and he forgot his
question, forgot his little fear, forgot the very world he knew....
"They come, they
come," she cried gaily. "The Dawn is here. Are you ready?"
"I've been ready
for five thousand years," he answered, leaping to his feet beside her.
"Altogether!"
came upon a sparkling laugh that was like wind among the olive leaves.
Shaking her last gauzy
covering from her, she snatched his hand, and they ran forward together to join
the dancing throng now crowding up the slope beneath the trees. Their happy
singing filled the sky. Decked with vine and ivy, and trailing silvery green
branches, they poured in a flood of radiant life along the mountain side.
Slowly they melted away into the blue distance of the breaking dawn, and, as
the last figure disappeared, the sun came up slowly out of a purple sea.
They came to the place
he knew—the deserted earthquake village—and a faint memory stirred in him. He
did not actually recall that he had visited it already, had eaten his
sandwiches with "hotel friends" beneath its crumbling walls; but
there was a dim troubling sense of familiarity—nothing more. The houses still
stood, but pigeons lived in them, and weasels, stoats and snakes had their uncertain
homes in ancient bedrooms. Not twenty years ago the peasants thronged its
narrow streets, through which the dawn now peered and cool wind breathed among
dew-laden brambles.
"I know the
house," she cried, "the house where we would live!" and raced, a
flying form of air and sunlight, into a tumbled cottage that had no roof, no
floor or windows. Wild bees had hung a nest against the broken wall.
He followed her. There
was sunlight in the room, and there were flowers. Upon a rude, simple table lay
a bowl of cream, with eggs and honey and butter close against a home-made loaf.
They sank into each other's arms upon a couch of fragrant grass and boughs
against the window where wild roses bloomed ... and the bees flew in and out.
It was Bussana, the
so-called earthquake village, because a sudden earthquake had fallen on it one
summer morning when all the inhabitants were at church. The crashing roof
killed sixty, the tumbling walls another hundred, and the rest had left it
where it stood.
"The Church,"
he said, vaguely remembering the story. "They were at prayer——"
The girl laughed
carelessly in his ear, setting his blood in a rush and quiver of delicious joy.
He felt himself untamed, wild as the wind and animals. "The true God
claimed His own," she whispered. "He came back. Ah, they were not
ready—the old priests had seen to that. But he came. They heard his music. Then
his tread shook the olive groves, the old ground danced, the hills leapt for
joy——"
"And the houses
crumbled," he laughed as he pressed her closer to his heart—
"And now we've come
back!" she cried merrily. "We've come back to worship and be
glad!" She nestled into him, while the sun rose higher.
"I hear
them—hark!" she cried, and again leapt, dancing from his side. Again he
followed her like wind. Through the broken window they saw the naked fauns and
nymphs and satyrs rolling, dancing, shaking their soft hoofs amid the ferns and
brambles. Towards the appalling, ruptured church they sped with feet of light
and air. A roar of happy song and laughter rose.
"Come!" he
cried. "We must go too."
Hand in hand they raced
to join the tumbling, dancing throng. She was in his arms and on his back and
flung across his shoulders, as he ran. They reached the broken building, its
whole roof gone sliding years ago, its walls a-tremble still, its shattered
shrines alive with nesting birds.
"Hush!" she
whispered in a tone of awe, yet pleasure. "He is there!" She pointed,
her bare arm outstretched above the bending heads.
There, in the empty
space, where once stood sacred Host and Cup, he sat, filling the niche
sublimely and with awful power. His shaggy form, benign yet terrible, rose
through the broken stone. The great eyes shone and smiled. The feet were lost
in brambles.
"God!" cried a
wild, frightened voice yet with deep worship in it—and the old familiar panic
came with portentous swiftness. The great Figure rose.
The birds flew
screaming, the animals sought holes, the worshippers, laughing and glad a
moment ago, rushed tumbling over one another for the doors.
"He goes again! Who
called? Who called like that? His feet shake the ground!"
"It is the
earthquake!" screamed a woman's shrill accents in ghastly terror.
"Kiss me—one kiss
before we forget again...!" sighed a laughing, passionate voice against
his ear. "Once more your arms, your heart beating on my lips...! You
recognised his power. You are now altogether! We shall remember!"
But he woke, with the
heavy bed-clothes stuffed against his mouth and the wind of early morning
sighing mournfully about the hotel walls.
000
"Have they left
again—those ladies?" he inquired casually of the head waiter, pointing to
the table. "They were here last night at dinner."
"Who do you
mean?" replied the man, stupidly, gazing at the spot indicated with a face
quite blank. "Last night—at dinner?" He tried to think.
"An English lady,
elderly, with—her daughter——" at which moment precisely the girl came in
alone. Lunch was over, the room empty. There was a second's difficult pause. It
seemed ridiculous not to speak. Their eyes met. The girl blushed furiously.
He was very quick for an
Englishman. "I was allowing myself to ask after your mother," he
began. "I was afraid"—he glanced at the table laid for one—"she
was not well, perhaps?"
"Oh, but that's
very kind of you, I'm sure." She smiled. He saw the small white even
teeth....
And before three days
had passed, he was so deeply in love that he simply couldn't help himself.
"I believe,"
he said lamely, "this is yours. You dropped it, you know. Er—may I keep
it? It's only an olive."
They were, of course, in
an olive grove when he asked it, and the sun was setting.
She looked at him,
looked him up and down, looked at his ears, his eyes. He felt that in another
second her little fingers would slip up and tweak the first, or close the
second with a soft pressure——
"Tell me," he
begged: "did you dream anything—that first night I saw you?"
She took a quick step
backwards. "No," she said, as he followed her more quickly still,
"I don't think I did. But," she went on breathlessly as he caught her
up, "I knew—from the way you picked it up——"
"Knew what?"
he demanded, holding her tightly so that she could not get away again.
"That you were
already half and half, but would soon be altogether."
And, as he kissed her,
he felt her soft little fingers tweak his ears.
4.ONCE A HERO by HAROLD BRIGHOUSE
(From Pan) 1922
Standing in a sheltered
doorway a tramp, with a slouch hat crammed low over a notably unwashed face,
watched the outside of the new works canteen of the Sir William Rumbold Ltd.,
Engineering Company. Perhaps because they were workers while he was a tramp, he
had an air of compassionate cynicism as the audience assembled and thronged
into the building, which, as prodigally advertised throughout Calderside, was
to be opened that night by Sir William in person.
There being no one to
observe him, the tramp could be frank with his cynicism; but inside the
building, in the platform ante-room, Mr. Edward Fosdike, who was Sir William's
locally resident secretary, had to discipline his private feelings to a suave
concurrence in his employer's florid enthusiasm. Fosdike served Sir William
well, but no man is a hero to his (male) secretary.
"I hope you will
find the arrangements satisfactory," Fosdike was saying, tugging nervously
at his maltreated moustache. "You speak at seven and declare the canteen
open. Then there's a meal." He hesitated. "Perhaps I should have
warned you to dine before you came."
Sir William was aware of
being a very gallant gentleman. "Not at all," he said heroically,
"not at all. I have not spared my purse over this War Memorial. Why should
I spare my feelings? Well, now, you've seen about the Press?"
"Oh, yes. The
reporters are coming. There'll be flash-light photographs. Everything quite as
usual when you make a public appearance, sir."
Sir William wondered if
this resident secretary of his were quite adequate. Busy in London, he had left
all arrangements in his local factotum's hands, and he was doubting whether
those hands had grasped the situation competently. "Only as usual?"
he said sharply. "This War Memorial has cost me ten thousand pounds."
"The amount,"
Fosdike hastened to assure him, "has been circulated, with appropriate
tribute to your generosity."
"Generosity,"
criticised Rumbold. "I hope you didn't use that word."
Mr. Fosdike referred to
his notebook. "We said," he read, "'the cost, though amounting
to ten thousand pounds, is entirely beside the point. Sir William felt that no
expense was excessive that would result in a fitting and permanent expression
of our gratitude to the glorious dead.'"
"Thank you,
Fosdike. That is exactly my feeling," said the gratified Sir William,
paying Fosdike the unspoken compliment of thinking him less of a fool than he
looked. "It is," he went on, "from no egotistic motive that I
wish the Press to be strongly represented to-night. I believe that in deciding
that Calderside's War Memorial should take the form of a Works Canteen, I am
setting an example of enlightenment which other employers would do well to
follow. I have erected a monument, not in stone, but in goodwill, a club-house
for both sexes to serve as a centre of social activities for the firm's
employees, wherein the great spirit of the noble work carried out at the Front
by by the Y.M.C.A. will be recaptured and adapted to peace conditions in our
local organisation in the Martlow Works Canteen. What are you taking notes
for?"
"I thought——"
began Fosdike.
"Oh, well, perhaps
you are right. Reporters have been known to miss one's point, and a little
first aid, eh? By the way, I sent you some notes from town of what I intended
to say in my speech. I just sent them ahead in case there was any local point
I'd got wrong."
He put it as a question,
but actually it was an assertion and a challenge. It asserted that by no
possible chance could there be anything injudicious in the proposed speech, and
it challenged Fosdike to deny that assertion if he dared.
And Fosdike had to dare;
he had to accuse himself of assuming too easily that Rumbold's memory of local
Calderside detail was as fresh as the memory of the man on the spot.
"I did want to
suggest a modification, sir," he hazarded timidly.
"Really?"—quite
below zero—"Really? I felt very contented with the speech."
"Yes, sir, it's
masterly. But on the spot here——"
"Oh, agreed. Quite
right, Fosdike. I am speaking to-night to the world—no; let me guard against
exaggeration. The world includes the Polynesians and Esquimaux—I am speaking to
the English-speaking races of the world, but first and foremost to Calderside.
My own people. Yes? You have a little something to suggest? Some happy local
allusion?"
"It's about
Martlow," said Fosdike shortly.
Sir William took him up.
"Ah, now you're talking," he approved. "Yes, indeed, anything
you can add to my notes about Martlow will be most welcome. I have noted much,
but too much is not enough for such an illustrious example of conspicuous
gallantry, so noble a life, so great a deed, and so self-sacrificing an end.
Any details you can add about Timothy Martlow will indeed——"
Fosdike coughed.
"Excuse me, sir, that's just the point. If you talk like that about
Martlow down here, they'll laugh at you."
"Laugh?"
gasped Rumbold, his sense of propriety outraged. "My dear Fosdike, what's
come to you? I celebrate a hero. Our hero. Why, I'm calling the Canteen after
Martlow when I might have given it my own name. That speaks volumes." It
did.
But Fosdike knew too
well what would be the attitude of a Calderside audience if he allowed his
chief to sing in top-notes an unreserved eulogy of Tim Martlow. Calderside knew
Tim, the civilian, if it had also heard of Tim, the soldier. "Don't you
remember Martlow, sir? Before the war, I mean."
"No. Ought I
to?"
"Not on the
bench?"
"Martlow? Yes, now
I think of the name in connection with the old days, there was a drunken
fellow. To be sure, an awful blackguard, continually before the bench. Dear me!
Well, well, but a man is not responsible for his undesirable relations, I
hope."
"No, sir. But that
was Martlow. The same man. You really can't speak to Calderside of his as an
ennobling life and a great example. The war changed him, but—well, in peace,
Tim was absolutely the local bad man, and they all know it. I thought you did,
or——"
Sir William turned a
face expressive of awe-struck wonder. "Fosdike," he said with deep
sincerity, "this is the most amazing thing I've heard of the war. I never
connected Martlow the hero with—well, well de mortuis." He
quoted:
"'Nothing in his life
Became
him like the leaving it; he died
As one
that had been studied in his death
To throw
away the dearest thing he owed
As
'there a careless trifle.'
"Appropriate, I
think? I shall use that."
It was, at least, a
magnificent recovery from an unexpected blow, administered by the very man
whose duty it was to guard Sir William against just that sort of blow. If Fosdike
was not the local watch-dog, he was nothing; and here was an occasion when the
dog had omitted to bark until the last minute of the eleventh hour.
"Very apt
quotation, sir, though there have never been any exact details of Martlow's
death."
Sir William meditated.
"Do you recall the name of the saint who was a regular rip before he got
religion?" he asked.
"I think that
applies to most of them," said Fosdike.
"Yes, but the one
in particular. Francis. That's it." He filled his chest. "Timothy
Martlow," he pronounced impressively, "is the St. Francis of the
Great War, and this Canteen is his shrine. Now, I think I will go into the
hall. It is early, but I shall chat with the people. Oh, one last thought. When
you mentioned Martlow, I thought you were going to tell me of some undesirable
connections. There are none?"
"There is his
mother. A widow. You remember the Board voted her an addition to her
pension."
"Oh, yes. And
she?"
"Oh, most grateful.
She will be with you on the platform. I have seen myself that she is—fittingly
attired."
"I think I can
congratulate you, Fosdike," said Sir William magnanimously. "You've
managed very well. I look forward to a pleasant evening, a widely reported
speech, and—"
Then Dolly Wainwright
came into the ante-room.
"If you please,
sir," she said, "what's going to be done about me?"
Two gentlemen who had
all but reached the smug bathos of a mutual admiration society turned
astonished eyes at the intruder.
She wore a tam, and a
check blanket coat, which she unbuttoned as they watched her. Beneath it,
suitable to the occasion, was a white dress, and Sir William, looking at it,
felt a glow of tenderness for this artless child who had blundered into the
privacy of the ante-room. Something daintily virginal in Dolly's face appealed
to him; he caught himself thinking that her frock was more than a miracle in
bleached cotton—it was moonshine shot with alabaster; and the improbability of
that combination had hardly struck him when Fosdike's voice forced itself
harshly on his ears.
"How did you get in
here?"
Sir William moved to
defend the girl from the anger of his secretary, but when she said, with a
certain challenge, "Through the door," he doubted if she were so
defenceless as she seemed.
"But there's a
doorkeeper at the bottom," said Fosdike. "I gave him my orders."
"I gave him my
smile," said Dolly. "I won."
"Upon my
word—" Fosdike began.
"Well, well,"
interrupted Sir William, "what can I do for you?"
The reply was indirect,
but caused Sir William still further to readjust his estimate of her.
"I've got friends
in the meeting to-night," she concluded. "They'll speak up for me,
too, if I'm not righted. So I'm telling you."
"Don't threaten me,
my girl," said Sir William without severity. "I am always ready to
pay attention to any legitimate grievance, but——"
"Legitimate?"
she interrupted. "Well, mine's not legitimate. So there!"
"I beg your
pardon?" She puzzled Sir William. "Come now," he went on in his
most patriarchal manner, "don't assume I'm not going to listen to you. I
am. To-night there is no thought in my mind except the welfare of
Calderside."
"Oh, well,"
she said apologetically, "I'm sorry if I riled you, but it's a bit awkward
to speak it out to a man. Only" (the unconscious cruelty of youth—or was
it conscious?) "you're both old, so perhaps I can get through. It's about
Tim Martlow."
"Ah," said Sir
William encouragingly, "our glorious hero."
"Yes," said
Dolly. "I'm the mother of his child."
We are all balloons
dancing our lives amongst pins. Therefore, be compassionate towards Sir
William. He collapsed speechlessly on a hard chair.
Fosdike reacted more
alertly. "This is the first I've heard of Martlow's being married,"
he said aggressively.
Dolly looked up at him
indignantly. "You ain't heard it now, have you?" she protested.
"I said it wasn't legitimate. I don't say we'd not have got married if
there'd been time, but you can't do everything on short leave."
There seemed an obvious
retort. Rumbold and Fosdike looked at each other, and neither made the retort.
Instead, Fosdike asked: "Are you employed in the works here?"
"I was here, on
munitions," she said, "and then on doles."
"And now you're on
the make," he sneered.
"Oh, I dunno,"
she said. "All this fuss about Tim Martlow. I ought to have my bit out of
it."
"Deplorable,"
grieved Sir William. "The crass materialism of it all. This is so sad. How
old are you?"
"Twenty," said
Dolly. "Twenty, with a child to keep, and his father's name up in gold
lettering in that hall there. I say somebody ought to do something."
"I suppose now, Miss——"
Fosdike baulked.
"Wainwright, Dolly
Wainwright, though it ought to be Martlow."
"I suppose you
loved Tim very dearly?"
"I liked him well
enough. He was good-looking in his khaki."
"Liked him? I'm
sure it was more than that."
"Oh, I dunno.
Why?" asked the girl, who said she was the mother of Martlow's child.
"I am sure,"
said Fosdike gravely, "you would never do anything to bring a stain upon
his memory."
Dolly proposed a
bargain. "If I'm rightly done by," she said, "I'll do right by
him."
"Anything that
marred the harmony of to-night's ceremony, Miss Wainwright, would be
unthinkable," said Sir William, coming to his lieutenant's support.
"Right," said
Dolly cheerfully. "If you'll take steps according, I'm sure I've no desire
to make a scene."
"A scene,"
gasped Sir William.
"Though," she
pointed out, "it's a lot to ask of any one, you know. Giving up the
certain chance of getting my photograph in the papers. I make a good picture,
too. Some do and some don't, but I take well and when you know you've got the
looks to carry off a scene, it's asking something of me to give up the
idea."
"But you said you'd
no desire to make a scene."
"Poor girls have
often got to do what they don't wish to. I wouldn't make a scene in the usual
way. Hysterics and all that. Hysterics means cold water in your face and your
dress messed up and no sympathy. But with scenes, the greater the occasion the
greater the reward, and there's no denying this is an occasion, is there?
You're making a big to-do about Tim Martlow and the reward would be according.
I don't know if you've noticed that if a girl makes a scene and she's got the
looks for it, she gets offers of marriage, like they do in the police-court
when they've been wronged and the magistrate passes all the men's letters on to
the court missionary and the girl and the missionary go through them and choose
the likeliest fellow out of the bunch?"
"But my dear young
lady——" Fosdike began.
She silenced him.
"Oh, it's all right. I don't know that I want to get married."
"Then you ought
to," said Sir William virtuously.
"There's better
things in life than getting married," Dolly said. "I've weighed up
marriage, and I don't see what there is in it for a girl nowadays."
"In your case, I
should have thought there was everything."
Dolly sniffed.
"There isn't liberty," she said. "And we won the fight for
liberty, didn't we? No; if I made that scene it 'ud be to get my photograph in
the papers where the film people could see it. I've the right face for the
pictures, and my romantic history will do the rest."
"Good heavens,
girl," cried the scandalised Sir William, "have you no reverence at
all? The pictures! You'd turn all my disinterested efforts to ridicule.
You'd—oh, but there! You're not going to make a scene?"
"That's a matter of
arrangement, of course," said the cool lady. "I'm only showing you
what a big chance I shall miss if I oblige you. Suppose I pipe up my tale of
woe just when you're on the platform with the Union Jack behind you and the
reporters in front of you, and that tablet in there that says Tim is the
greatest glory of Calderside——"
Sir William nearly
screamed. "Be quiet, girl. Fosdike," he snarled, turning viciously on
his secretary, "what the deuce do you mean by pretending to keep an eye on
local affairs when you miss a thing like this?"
"'Tisn't his
fault," said Dolly. "I've been saving this up for you."
"Oh," he
groaned, "and I'd felt so happy about to-night." He took out a
fountain pen. "Well, I suppose there's no help for it. Fosdike, what's the
amount of the pension we allow Martlow's mother?"
"Double it, add a
pound a week, and what's the answer, Mr. Fosdike?" asked Dolly quickly.
Sir William gasped
ludicrously.
"I mean to
say," said Dolly, conferring on his gasp the honour of an explanation,
"she's old and didn't go on munitions, and didn't get used to wangling
income tax on her wages, and never had no ambitions to go on the pictures,
neither. What's compensation to her isn't compensation to me. I've got a higher
standard."
"The less you say
about your standards, the better, my girl," retorted Sir William. "Do
you know that this is blackmail?"
"No, it isn't. Not
when I ain't asked you for nothing. And if I pass the remark how that three
pounds a week is my idea of a minimum wage, it isn't blackmail to state the
fact."
Sir William paused in
the act of tearing a page out of Fosdike's note-book. "Three pounds a
week!"
"Well," said
Dolly reasonably, "I didn't depreciate the currency. Three pounds a week
is little enough these times for the girl who fell from grace through the chief
glory of Calderside."
"But suppose you
marry," suggested Mr. Fosdike.
"Then I marry
well," she said, "having means of my own. And I ought to, seeing I'm
kind of widow to the chief glory of—"
Sir William looked up
sharply from the table. "If you use that phrase again," he said,
"I'll tear this paper up."
"Widow to Tim
Martlow," she amended it, defiantly. He handed her the document he had
drawn up. It was an undertaking in brief, unambiguous terms to pay her three
pounds a week for life. As she read it, exulting, the door was kicked open.
The tramp, whose name
was Timothy Martlow, came in and turning, spoke through the doorway to the
janitor below. "Call out," he said, "and I'll come back and
knock you down again." Then he locked the door.
Fosdike went
courageously towards him. "What do you mean by this intrusion? Who are
you?"
The tramp assured
himself that his hat was well pulled down over his face. He put his hands in
his pockets and looked quizzically at the advancing Mr. Fosdike. "So
far," he said, "I'm the man that locked the door."
Fosdike started for the
second door, which led directly to the platform. The tramp reached it first,
and locked it, shouldering Fosdike from him. "Now," he said, Sir
William was searching the wall, "are there no bells?" he asked
desperately.
"No."
"No?" jeered
the tramp. "No bell. No telephone. No nothing. You're scotched without
your rifle this time."
Fosdike consulted Sir
William. "I might shout for the police," he suggested.
"It's risky,"
commented the tramp. "They sometimes come when they're called."
"Then——" began
the secretary.
"It's your
risk," emphasised the tramp. "And, I don't advise it. I've gone to a
lot of trouble this last week to keep out of sight of the Calderside police.
They'd identify me easy, and Sir William wouldn't like that."
"I wouldn't
like?" said Rumbold. "I? Who are you?"
"Wounded and
missing, believed dead," quoted the tramp. "Only there's been a lot
of beliefs upset in this war, and I'm one of them."
"One of what?"
"I'm telling you.
One of the strayed sheep that got mislaid and come home at the awkwardest
times." He snatched his hat off. "Have a good look at that face, your
worship."
"Timothy
Martlow," cried Sir William.
Fosdike staggered to a
chair while Dolly, who had shown nothing but amusement at the tramp, now gave a
quick cry and shrank back against the wall, exhibiting every symptom of the
liveliest terror. Of the trio, Sir William, for whom surely this inopportune
return had the most serious implications, alone stood his ground, and Martlow
grimly appreciated his pluck.
"It's very near
made a stretcher-case of him," he said, indicating the prostrated Fosdike.
"You're cooler. Walking wounded."
"I ...
really...."
"Shake hands, old
cock," said Martlow, "I know you've got it writ up in there——"
he jerked his head towards the hall—"that I'm the chief glory of
Calderside, but damme if you're not the second best yourself, and I'll
condescend to shake your hand if it's only to show you I'm not a ghost."
Sir William decided that
it was politic to humour this visitor. He shook hands. "Then, if you
know," he said, "if you know what this building is, it isn't accident
that brings you here to-night."
"The sort of
accident you set with a time-fuse," said Martlow grimly. "I told you
I'd been dodging the police for a week lest any of my old pals should recognise
me. I was waiting to get you to-night, and sitting tight and listening. The
things I heard! Nearly made me take my hat off to myself. But not quite. Not
quite. I kept my hat on and I kept my hair on. It's a mistake to act premature
on information received. If I'd sprung this too soon, the wrong thing might
have happened to me."
"What wrong thing,
Martlow?" asked Sir William with some indignation. If the fellow meant
anything, it was that he would have been spirited away by Sir William.
"Oh,
anything," replied Martlow. "Anything would be wrong that made me
miss this pleasure. You and me conversing affable here. Not a bit like it was
in the old days before I rose to being the chief glory of Calderside.
Conversation was one-sided then, and all on your side instead of mine. 'Here
again, Martlow,' you'd say, and then they'd gabble the evidence, and you'd say
'fourteen days' or 'twenty-one days,' if you'd got up peevish and that's all
there was to our friendly intercourse. This time, I make no doubt you'll be
asking me to stay at the Towers to-night. And," he went on blandly,
enjoying every wince that twisted Sir William's face in spite of his efforts to
appear unmoved, "I don't know that I'll refuse. It's a levelling thing,
war. I've read that war makes us all conscious we're members of one
brotherhood, and I know it's true now. Consequently the chief glory of the
place ain't got no right to be too high and mighty to accept your humble
invitation. The best guest-room for Sergeant Martlow, you'll say. See there's a
hot water-bottle in his bed, you'll say, and in case he's thirsty in the night,
you'll tell them to put the whisky by his side."
After all, a man does
not rise to become Sir William Rumbold by being flabby. Sir William struck the
table heavily. Somehow he had to put a period to this mocking harangue.
"Martlow," he said, "how many people know you're here?"
Tim gave a good
imitation of Sir William's gesture. He, too, could strike a table.
"Rumbold," he retorted, "what's the value of a secret when it's
not a secret? You three in this room know, and not another soul in
Calderside."
"Not even your
mother?" queried Rumbold.
"No. I been a bad
son to her in the past. I'm a good one now I'm dead. She's got a bit o'
pension, and I'll not disturb that. I'll stay dead—to her," he added
forcibly, dashing the hope which leapt in Rumbold.
"Why have you come
here? Here—to-night?"
The easy mockery renewed
itself in Martlow's voice. "People's ideas of fun vary," he stated.
"The fly's idea ain't the same as the spider's. This 'ere is my
idea—shaking your hand and sitting cosy with the bloke that's sent me down more
times than I can think. And the fun 'ull grow furious when you and I walk arm
in arm on to that platform, and you tell them all I'm resurrected."
"Like this?"
The proper Mr. Fosdike interjected.
"Eh?" said
Tim. "Like what?"
"You can't go on to
the platform in those clothes, Martlow. Have you looked in a mirror lately? Do
you know what you look like? This is a respectable occasion, man."
"Yes," said
Tim drily. "It's an occasion for showing respect to me. I'll do as I am,
not having had time to go to the tailor's for my dress suit yet."
"Martlow,"
said Sir William briskly, "time's short. I'm due on that platform."
"Right, I'm with
you." Tim moved towards the platform door.
Sir William, with a
serene air of triumph, played his trump card. He took out his cheque-book.
"No," he said. "You're not coming. Instead—"
He shrank back hastily
as a huge fist was projected vehemently towards his face. But the fist swerved
and opened. The cheque-book, not Sir William's person, was its objective.
"Instead be damned," said Tim Martlow, pitching the cheque-book to
the floor. "To hell with your money. Thought I was after money, did you?"
Sir William met his eye.
"Yes, I did," he said hardily.
"That's the sort of
mean idea you would have, Sir William Rumbold. They say scum rises. You grew a
handle to your name during the war, but you ain't grown manners to go with it.
War changes them that's changeable. T'others are too set to change."
Sir William felt a
strange glow of appreciation for this man who, with so easy an opportunity to
grow rich, refused money. "It's changed you," he said with ungrudging
admiration that had no tincture of diplomacy in it.
"Has it?"
mused Tim. "From what?"
"Well—" Sir
William was embarrassed. "From what you were."
"What was I?"
demanded Tim. "Go on, spit it out. What sort of character would you have
given me then?" "I'd have called you," said Sir William boldly,
"a disreputable drunken loafer who never did an honest day's work in his
life." Which had the merit of truth, and, he thought, the demerit of
rashness.
To his surprise he found
that Tim was looking at him with undisguised admiration. "Lummy," he
said, "you've got guts. Yes, that's right. 'Disreputable drunken loafer.'
And if I came back now?" he asked.
"You were
magnificent in the war, Martlow."
"First thing I did
when I got civvies on was to get blind and skinned. Drink and civvies go
together in my mind."
"You'll get over
that," said Sir William encouragingly; but he was puzzled by the curiously
wistful note which had replaced Tim's hectoring.
"There's a
chance," admitted Tim. "A bare chance. Not a chance I'd gamble on.
Not when I've a bigger chance than that. You wouldn't say, weighing me up now,
that I've got a reformed look, would you?"
Sir William couldn't.
"But you'll pull yourself together. You'll remember—"
"I'll remember the
taste of beer," said Tim with fierce conviction. "No, I never had a
chance before, but I've got one now, and, by heaven, I'm taking it." Sir
William's apprehension grew acute; if money was not the question, what
outrageous demand was about to be made of him? Tim went on, "I'm nothing
but a dirty, drunken tramp to-day. Yes, drunk when I can get it and craving
when I can't. That's Tim Martlow when he's living. Tim Martlow dead's a
different thing. He's a man with his name wrote up in letters of gold in a dry
canteen. Dry! By God, that's funny! He's somebody, honoured in Calderside for
ever and ever, amen. And we won't spoil a good thing by taking chances on my
reformation. I'm dead. I'll stay dead." He paused in enjoying the effect
he made.
Sir William stooped to
pick his cheque-book from the floor. "Don't do that," said Tim sharply.
"It isn't out of your mind yet that money's what I came for. Fun's one
thing that brought me. Just for the treat of showing you myself and watching
your quick-change faces while I did it. And I've had my fun." His voice
grew menacing. "The other thing I came for isn't fun. It's this."
Dolly screamed as he took her arm and jerked her to her feet from the corner
where she had sought obscurity. He shook her urgently. "You've been
telling tales about me. I've heard of it. You hear all the news when you lie quiet
yourself and let other people do the talking. You came in here to-night to spin
a yarn. I watched you in. Well, is it true?"
"No," said
Dolly, gasping for breath. "I mean—" he insisted, "what you said
about you and me. That isn't true?"
She repeated her denial.
"No," he said, releasing her, "it 'ud have a job to be seeing
this is the first time I've had the pleasure of meeting you. That'll do."
He opened the platform door politely. "I hope I haven't made you late on
the platform, sir," he said.
Both Sir William and the
secretary stared fascinated at Dolly, the enterprising young person who had so
successfully bluffed them. "I repeat, don't let me make you late,"
said Tim from the now wide open door.
Rumbold checked Fosdike
who was, apparently, bent on doing Dolly a personal violence. "That can
wait," he said. "What can't wait is this." He held out his hand
to Martlow. "In all sincerity, I beg the honour."
Tim shook his hand, and
Rumbold turned to the door. Fosdike ran after him with the notes of his speech.
"Your speech, sir."
Sir William turned on
him angrily. "Man," he said, "haven't you heard? That muck won't
do now. I have to try to do Martlow justice." He went out to the platform,
Fosdike after him.
Tim Martlow sat at the
table and took a bottle from his pocket. He drew the cork with his teeth, then
felt a light touch on his arm. "I was forgetting you," he said,
replacing the bottle.
"I ain't likely to
forget you," said Dolly ruefully.
He gripped her hard.
"But you are going to forget me, my girl," he said. "Tim
Martlow's dead, and his letters of gold ain't going to be blotted by the likes
of you. You that's been putting it about Calderside I'm the father of your
child, and I ain't never seen you in my life till to-night."
"Yes, but you're
getting this all wrong," she blubbered. "I didn't have a baby. I was
going to borrow one if they'd claimed to see it."
"What? No baby? And
you put it across old Rumbold?" Laughter and sheer admiration of her
audacity were mingled in his voice. With a baby it was a good bluff; without
one, the girl's ingenuity seemed to him to touch genius.
"He gave me that
paper," she said, pride subduing tears as she handed him her splendid
trophy.
"Three pounds a
week for life," he read, with profound reverence. "If you ain't a
blinkin' marvel." He complimented her, giving her the paper back. Then he
realised that, through him, her gains were lost.
"Gawd, I done
wrong. I got no right to mess up a thing like that. I didn't know. See, I'll
tell him I made you lie. I'll own the baby's mine."
"But there ain't no
baby," she persisted.
"There's plenty of
babies looking for a mother with three pounds a week," he said.
She tore the paper up.
"Then they'll not find me," she said. "Three pounds a week's
gone. And your letters of gold, Mr. Martlow, remain."
The practised voice of
Sir William Rumbold, speaking on the platform, filled the ante-room, not with
the rhetorician's counterfeit of sincerity, but, unmistakably, with sincerity
itself. "I had prepared a speech," he was saying. "A prepared speech
is useless in face of the emotion I feel at the life of Timothy Martlow. I say
advisedly to you that when I think of Martlow, I know myself for a worm. He was
despised and rejected. What had England done for him that he should give his
life for her? We wronged him. We made an outcast of him. I personally wronged
him from the magistrate's bench, and he pays us back like this, rising from an
undeserved obscurity to a height where he rests secure for ever, a reproach to
us, and a great example of the man who won. And against what odds he played it
out to a supreme end, and——"
"You're
right," said Tim Martlow, motioning the girl to close the door. He wasn't
used to hearing panegyrics on himself, nor was he aware that, mechanically, he
had raised the bottle to his lips.
Dolly meant to close the
door discreetly; instead, she threw it from her and jumped at the bottle. Tim
was conscious of a double crash, putting an emphatic stop to the sound of Sir
William's eulogy—the crash of the door and the bottle which Dolly snatched from
him and pitched against the wall.
"Letters of
gold," she panted, "and you shan't tarnish them. I'll see to
that."
He gaped for a moment at
the liquor flowing from the bottle, then raised his eyes to hers.
"You?" he said.
"I haven't got a baby
to look after," said Dolly. "But—I've you. Where were you thinking of
going now?"
His eyes went to the
door behind which Sir William was, presumably, still praising him, and his head
jerked resolutely. "Playing it out," he said. "I've got to
vanish good, and sure after that. I'll play it out, by God. I was a hero once,
I'll be a hero still." His foot crunched broken glass as he moved.
"I'm going to America, my girl. It's dry."
Perhaps she distrusted
the absolute dryness of America, and perhaps that had nothing to do with Dolly.
She examined her hand minutely. "Going to the Isle of Man on a rough day,
I wasn't a bit ill," she said casually. "I'm a good sailor."
"You put it across
Sir William," he said. "You're a blinkin' marvel."
"No," she
said, "but a thing that's worth doing is worth doing well. I'm not a
marvel, but I might be the metal polish in those gold letters of yours if you
think it worth while."
His trampish squalor
seemed to him suddenly appalling. "There, don't do that," he
protested—her arm had found its way into his. "My sleeve's dirty."
"Idiot!" said
Dolly Wainwright, drawing him to the door.
5.THE PENSIONER by WILLIAM CAINE
(From The Graphic) 1922
Miss Crewe was born in
the year 1821. She received a sort of education, and at the age of twenty
became the governess of a little girl, eight years old, called Martha Bond. She
was Martha's governess for the next ten years. Then Martha came out and Miss
Crewe went to be the governess of somebody else. Martha married Mr. William
Harper. A year later she gave birth to a son, who was named Edward. This brings
us to the year 1853.
When Edward was six,
Miss Crewe came back, to be his governess. Four years later he went to school
and Miss Crewe went away to be the governess of somebody else. She was now
forty-two years old.
Twelve years passed and
Mrs. Harper died, recommending Miss Crewe to her husband's care, for Miss Crewe
had recently been smitten by an incurable disease which made it impossible for
her to be a governess any longer.
Mr. Harper, who had
passionately loved his wife, gave instructions to his solicitor to pay Miss
Crewe the sum of one hundred and fifty pounds annually. He had some thoughts of
buying her an annuity, but she seemed so ill that he didn't. Edward was now
twenty-two.
In the year 1888, Mr.
Harper died after a very short illness. He had expected Miss Crewe to die any
day during the past thirteen years, but since she hadn't he thought it proper
now to recommend her to Edward's care. This is how he did it.
"That confounded
old Crewe, Eddie. You'll have to see to her. Let her have her money as before,
but for the Lord's sake don't go and buy her an annuity now. If you do, she'll
die on your hands in a week!" Shortly afterwards the old gentleman passed
away.
Edward was now thirty-five.
Miss Crewe was sixty-seven and reported to be in an almost desperate state.
Edward followed his father's advice. He bought no annuity for Miss Crewe. Her
one hundred and fifty pounds continued to be paid each year into her bank; but
by Edward, not by his late father's solicitors.
Edward had his own ideas
of managing the considerable fortune which he had inherited. These ideas were
unsound. The first of them was that he should assume the entire direction of
his own affairs. Accordingly he instructed his solicitors to realise all the
mortgages and railway-stock and other admirable securities in which his money
was invested and hand over the cash to him. He then went in for the highest
rate of interest which anyone would promise him. The consequence was that,
within twelve years, he was almost a poor man, his annual income having
dwindled from about three thousand to about four hundred pounds.
Though he was a fool he
was an honourable man, and so he continued to pay Miss Crewe her one hundred
and fifty pounds each year. This left him about two hundred and fifty for
himself. The capital which his so reduced income represented was invested in a
Mexican brewery in which he had implicit faith. Nevertheless, he began to think
that he might do well were he to try to earn a little extra money.
The only thing he could
do was to paint, not at all well, in water-colours. He became the pupil, quite
seriously, of a young artist whom he knew. He was now forty-seven years old,
while Miss Crewe was seventy-nine. The year was 1900.
To everybody's amazement
Edward soon began to make quite good progress in his painting. Yes, his
pictures were not at all unpleasant little things. He sent one of them to the
Academy. It was accepted. It was, as I live, sold for ten pounds. Edward was an
artist.
Soon he was making
between thirty and forty pounds a year. Then he was making over a hundred. Then
two hundred. Then the Mexican brewery failed, General Malefico having burned it
to the ground for a lark.
This happened in the
spring of 1914 when Edward was sixty-one and Miss Crewe was ninety-three.
Edward, after paying her money to Miss Crewe, might flatter himself on the
possibility of having some fifty pounds a year for himself, that is to say, if
his picture sales did not decline. A single man can, however, get along, more
or less, on fifty pounds more or less.
Then the Great War broke
out.
It has been said that in
the autumn of 1914 the Old Men came into their kingdom. As the fields of
Britain were gradually stripped bare of their valid toilers, the Fathers of
each village assumed, at good wages, the burden of agriculture. From their
offices the juniors departed or were torn; the senior clerks carried on
desperately until the Girls were introduced. No man was any longer too old at
forty. Octogenarians could command a salary. The very cinemas were glad to
dress up ancient fellows in uniform and post them on their doorsteps.
Edward could do nothing
but paint rather agreeable water-colours, and that was all. The market for his
kind of work was shut. A patriotic nation was economising in order to get five
per cent on the War Loans. People were not giving inexpensive little
water-colours away to one another as wedding gifts any longer. Only the
painters of high reputation, whose work was regarded as a real investment,
could dispose of their wares.
Starvation stared Edward
in the face, not only his own starvation, you understand, but Miss Crewe's. And
Edward was a man of honour.
He hated Miss Crewe
intensely, but he had undertaken to provide for her, and provide for her he
must—even if he failed to provide for himself.
He wrapped some samples
of his paintings in brown paper, and began to seek for a job among the
wholesale stationers. He offered himself as one who was prepared to design
Christmas-cards and calendars, and things of the kind.
Adversity had sharpened
his wits. Even the wholesale stationers were not turning white-headed men from
their portals. To Edward was accorded the privilege of displaying the rather
agreeable contents of his parcel. After he had unpacked it and packed it up
again some thirty times he was offered work. His pictures were really rather
agreeable. It was piecework, and he was to do it off the premises, no matter
where. By toiling day and night he might be able to earn as much as £4 a week.
He went away and toiled. His employers were pleased with what, each Monday, he
brought them. They did not offer to increase his remuneration, but they
encouraged him to produce, and took practically everything he offered. Edward
was very fortunate.
During the first year of
the war he lived like a beast, worked like a slave, and earned exactly enough
to keep his soul in his body and pay Miss Crewe her one hundred and fifty
pounds. During the second year of the war he did it again. The fourth year of
the war found him still alive and still punctual to his obligations towards
Miss Crewe.
Miss Crewe, however,
found one hundred and fifty pounds no longer what it had been. Prices were
rising in every direction. She wrote to Edward pointing this out, and asking
him if he couldn't see his way to increasing her allowance. She invoked the
memory of his dear mother and father, added something about the happy hours
that he and she had spent together in the dear old school-room, and signed
herself his affectionately.
Edward petitioned for an
increase of pay. He pointed out to his firm of wholesale stationers that prices
were rising in every direction. The firm, who knew when they had a marketable
thing cheap, granted his petition. Henceforth Edward was able to earn five
pounds a week. He increased Miss Crewe's allowance by fifty pounds, and
continued to live more like a beast than ever, for the price of paper and
paints was soaring. He worked practically without ceasing, save to sleep (which
he could not do) and to eat (which he could not afford). He was now sixty-four,
while Miss Crewe was rising ninety-seven.
Edward had been ailing
for a long time. On Armistice Day he struck work for an hour in order to walk
about in the streets and share in the general rejoicing. He caught a severe
cold, and the next day, instead of staying between his blankets (he had no
sheets), he went up to the City with some designs which he had just completed.
That night he was feverish. The next night he was delirious. The third night he
was dead, and there was an end of him.
He had, however,
managed, before he died (two days before), to send to Miss Crewe a money order
for her quarter's allowance of fifty pounds. This had left him with precisely
four shillings and twopence in the Post Office Savings Bank.
He was, consequently,
buried by the parish.
Miss Crewe received her
money. She was delighted to have it, and at once wrote to Edward her customary
letter of grateful and affectionate thanks. She added in a post-script that if
he could find it in his generous heart to let her have a still
little more next quarter it would be most acceptable, because every day seemed
to make it harder and harder for her to get along.
Edward was dead when
this letter was delivered.
Miss Crewe sent her
money order to her bank, asking that it might be placed to her deposit account.
This she reminded the bank, would bring up the amount of her deposit to exactly
two thousand pounds.
6.BROADSHEET BALLAD by A.E. COPPARD
(From The Dial) 1922
At noon the tiler and
the mason stepped down from the roof of the village church which they were
repairing and crossed over the road to the tavern to eat their dinner. It had
been a nice little morning, but there were clouds massing in the south; Sam the
tiler remarked that it looked like thunder. The two men sat in the dim little
tap-room eating, Bob the mason at the same time reading from a newspaper an
account of a trial for murder.
"I dunno what
thunder looks like," Bob said, "but I reckon this chap is going to be
hung, though I can't rightly say for why. To my thinking he didn't do it at
all: but murder's a bloody thing and someone ought to suffer for it."
"I don't
think," spluttered Sam as he impaled a flat piece of beet-root on the
point of a pocket-knife and prepared to contemplate it with patience until his
stuffed mouth was ready to receive it, "he ought to be hung."
"There can be no
other end for him though, with a mob of lawyers like that, and a judge like
that, and a jury too ... why the rope's half round his neck this minute; he'll
be in glory within a month, they only have three Sundays, you know, between the
sentence and the execution. Well, hark at that rain then!"
A shower that began as a
playful sprinkle grew to a powerful steady summer downpour. It splashed in the
open window and the dim room grew more dim, and cool.
"Hanging's a
dreadful thing," continued Sam, "and 'tis often unjust I've no doubt,
I've no doubt at all."
"Unjust! I tell you
... at majority of trials those who give their evidence mostly knows nothing at
all about the matter; them as knows a lot—they stays at home and don't budge,
not likely!"
"No? But why?"
"Why? They has
their reasons. I know that, I knows it for truth ... hark at that rain, it's
made the room feel cold."
They watched the
downfall in complete silence for some moments.
"Hanging's a
dreadful thing," Sam at length repeated, with almost a sigh.
"I can tell you a
tale about that, Sam, in a minute," said the other. He began to fill his
pipe from Sam's brass box which was labelled cough lozenges and smelled of
paregoric.
"Just about ten
years ago I was working over in Cotswold country. I remember I'd been into
Gloucester one Saturday afternoon and it rained. I was jogging along home in a
carrier's van; I never seen it rain like that afore, no, nor never afterwards,
not like that. B-r-r-r-r! it came down ... bashing! And we came to a
cross-roads where there's a public house called The Wheel of Fortune, very
lonely and onsheltered it is just there. I see'd a young woman standing in the
porch awaiting us, but the carrier was wet and tired and angry or something and
wouldn't stop. 'No room'—he bawled out to her—'full up, can't take you!' and he
drove on. 'For the love o' God, mate,' I says, 'pull up and take that young
creature! She's ... she's ... can't you see!' 'But I'm all behind as 'tis'—he
shouts to me—'You knows your gospel, don't you: time and tide wait for no man?'
'Ah, but dammit all, they always call for a feller'—I says. With that he turned
round and we drove back for the girl. She clumb in and sat on my knees; I squat
on a tub of vinegar, there was nowhere else and I was right and all, she was
going on for a birth. Well, the old van rattled away for six or seven miles;
whenever it stopped you could hear the rain clattering on the tarpaulin, or
sounding outside on the grass as if it was breathing hard, and the old horse
steamed and shivered with it. I had knowed the girl once in a friendly way, a
pretty young creature, but now she was white and sorrowful and wouldn't say much.
By and bye we came to another cross-roads near a village, and she got out
there. 'Good day, my gal'—I says, affable like, and 'Thank you sir,'—says she,
and off she popped in the rain with her umbrella up. A rare pretty girl, quite
young, I'd met her before, a girl you could get uncommon fond of, you know, but
I didn't meet her afterwards: she was mixed up in a bad business. It all
happened in the next six months while I was working round those parts.
Everybody knew of it. This girl's name was Edith and she had a younger sister
Agnes. Their father was old Harry Mallerton, kept The British Oak at North
Quainy; he stuttered. Well, this Edith had a love affair with a young chap
William, and having a very loving nature she behaved foolish. Then she couldn't
bring the chap up to the scratch nohow by herself, and of course she was afraid
to tell her mother or father: you know how girls are after being so pesky
natural, they fear, O they do fear! But soon it couldn't be hidden any longer
as she was living at home with them all, so she wrote a letter to her mother.
'Dear Mother,' she wrote, and told her all about her trouble.
"By all accounts
the mother was angry as an old lion, but Harry took it calm like and sent for
young William, who'd not come at first. He lived close by in the village so
they went down at last and fetched him.
"'Alright, yes,' he
said, 'I'll do what's lawful to be done. There you are, I can't say no fairer,
that I can't.'
"'No,' they said,
'you can't.'
"So he kissed the
girl and off he went, promising to call in and settle affairs in a day or two.
The next day Agnes, which was the younger girl, she also wrote a note to her
mother telling her some more strange news:
"'God above!' the
mother cried out, 'can it be true, both of you girls, my own daughters, and by
the same man! Oh, whatever were you thinking on, both of ye! Whatever can be
done now!"
"What!"
ejaculated Sam, "both on 'em, both on 'em!"
"As true as God's
my mercy—both on 'em—same chap. Ah! Mrs. Mallerton was afraid to tell her
husband at first, for old Harry was the devil born again when he were roused
up, so she sent for young William herself, who'd not come again, of course, not
likely. But they made him come, O yes, when they told the girl's father.
"'Well may I go to
my d-d-d-damnation at once!' roared old Harry—he stuttered you know—'at once,
if that ain't a good one!' So he took off his coat, he took up a stick, he
walked down street to William and cut him off his legs. Then he beat him till
he howled for his mercy, but you couldn't stop old Harry once he were roused
up—he was the devil born again. They do say as he beat him for a solid hour; I
can't say as to that, but then old Harry picked him up and carried him off to
The British Oak on his own back, and threw him down in his own kitchen between
his own two girls like a dead dog. They do say that the little one Agnes flew
at her father like a raging cat until he knocked her senseless with a clout
over head; rough man he was."
"Well, a' called
for it sure," commented Sam.
"Her did,"
agreed Bob, "but she was the quietest known girl for miles round those
parts, very shy and quiet."
"A shady lane
breeds mud," said Sam.
"What do you say?—O
ah!—mud, yes. But pretty girls both, girls you could get very fond of, skin
like apple bloom, and as like as two pinks they were. They had to decide which
of them William was to marry."
"Of course,
ah!"
"I'll marry
Agnes'—says he.
"'You'll not'—says
the old man—'you'll marry Edie.'
"'No I
won't'—William says—'it's Agnes I love and I'll be married to her or I won't be
married to e'er of 'em.' All the time Edith sat quiet, dumb as a shovel, never
a word, crying a bit; but they do say the young one went on like a ... a young
... Jew."
"The jezebel!"
commented Sam.
"You may say it;
but wait, my man, just wait. Another cup of beer? We can't go back to church
until this humbugging rain have stopped."
"No, that we
can't."
"It's my belief the
'bugging rain won't stop this side of four."
"And if the roof
don't hold it off it 'ull spoil the Lord's Commandments that's just done up on
the chancel front."
"Oh, they be dry by
now," spoke Bob reassuringly and then continued his tale. "'I'll
marry Agnes or I won't marry nobody'—William says—and they couldn't budge him.
No, old Harry cracked on, but he wouldn't have it, and at last Harry says:
'It's like this.' He pulls a half-crown out of his pocket and 'Heads it's
Agnes,' he says, 'or tails it's Edith,' he says."
"Never! Ha!
ha!" cried Sam.
"Heads it's Agnes,
tails it's Edie, so help me God. And it come down Agnes, yes, heads it
was—Agnes—and so there they were."
"And they lived
happy ever after?"
"Happy! You don't
know your human nature, Sam; wherever was you brought up? 'Heads it's Agnes,'
said old Harry, and at that Agnes flung her arms round William's neck and was
for going off with him then and there, ha! But this is how it happened about
that. William hadn't any kindred, he was a lodger in the village, and his
landlady wouldn't have him in her house one mortal hour when she heard all of
it; give him the right-about there and then. He couldn't get lodgings anywhere
else, nobody would have anything to do with him, so of course, for safety's
sake, old Harry had to take him, and there they all lived together at The
British Oak—all in one happy family. But they girls couldn't bide the sight of
each other, so their father cleaned up an old outhouse in his yard that was
used for carts and hens and put William and his Agnes out in it. And there they
had to bide. They had a couple of chairs, a sofa, and a bed and that kind of thing,
and the young one made it quite snug."
"'Twas a hard thing
for that other, that Edie, Bob."
"It was hard, Sam,
in a way, and all this was happening just afore I met her in the carrier's van.
She was very sad and solemn then; a pretty girl, one you could like. Ah, you
may choke me, but there they lived together. Edie never opened her lips to
either of them again, and her father sided with her, too. What was worse, it
came out after the marriage that Agnes was quite free of trouble—it was only a
trumped-up game between her and this William because he fancied her better than
the other one. And they never had no child, them two, though when poor Edie's
mischance come along I be damned if Agnes weren't fonder of it than its own
mother, a jolly sight more fonder, and William—he fair worshipped it."
"You don't
say!"
"I do. 'Twas a rum
go, that, and Agnes worshipped it, a fact, can prove it by scores o' people to
this day, scores, in them parts. William and Agnes worshipped it, and Edie—she
just looked on, long of it all, in the same house with them, though she never
opened her lips again to her young sister to the day of her death."
"Ah, she died?
Well, it's the only way out of such a tangle, poor woman."
"You're
sympathizing with the wrong party." Bob filled his pipe again from the
brass box; he ignited it with deliberation; going to the open window he spat
into a puddle in the road. "The wrong party, Sam; 'twas Agnes that died.
She was found on the sofa one morning stone dead, dead as a adder."
"God bless me,"
murmured Sam.
"Poisoned,"
added Bob, puffing serenely.
"Poisoned!"
Bob repeated the word
poisoned. "This was the way of it," he continued. "One morning
the mother went out in the yard to collect her eggs, and she began calling out
'Edie, Edie, here a minute, come and look where that hen have laid her egg; I
would never have believed it'—she says. And when Edie went out her mother led
her round the back of the outhouse, and there on the top of a wall this hen had
laid an egg. 'I would never have believed it, Edie'—she says—'scooped out a
nest there beautiful, ain't she; I wondered where her was laying. T'other
morning the dog brought an egg round in his mouth and laid it on the doormat.
There now, Aggie, Aggie, here a minute, come and look where the hen have laid
that egg.' And as Aggie didn't answer the mother went in and found her on the
sofa in the outhouse, stone dead."
"How'd they account
for it?" asked Sam, after a brief interval.
"That's what brings
me to the point about this young feller that's going to be hung," said
Bob, tapping the newspaper that lay upon the bench. "I don't know what
would lie between two young women in a wrangle of that sort; some would get
over it quick, but some would never sleep soundly any more not for a minute of
their mortal lives. Edie must have been one of that sort. There's people living
there now as could tell a lot if they'd a mind to it. Some knowed all about it,
could tell you the very shop where Edith managed to get hold of the poison, and
could describe to me or to you just how she administrated it in a glass of
barley water. Old Harry knew all about it, he knew all about everything, but he
favoured Edith and he never budged a word. Clever old chap was Harry, and
nothing came out against Edie at the inquest—nor the trial either."
"Was there a trial then?"
"There was a kind
of a trial. Naturally. A beautiful trial. The police came and fetched poor
William, they took him away and in due course he was hanged."
"William! But what
had he got to do with it?"
"Nothing. It was
rough on him, but he hadn't played straight and so nobody struck up for him.
They made out a case against him—there was some onlucky bit of evidence which
I'll take my oath old Harry knew something about—and William was done for. Ah,
when things take a turn against you it's as certain as twelve o'clock, when
they take a turn; you get no more chance than a rabbit from a weasel. It's like
dropping your matches into a stream, you needn't waste the bending of your back
to pick them out—they're no good on, they'll never strike again. And Edith, she
sat in court through it all, very white and trembling and sorrowful, but when
the judge put his black cap on they do say she blushed and looked across at
William and gave a bit of a smile. Well, she had to suffer for his doings, so
why shouldn't he suffer for hers. That's how I look at it...."
"But
God-a-mighty...!"
"Yes, God-a-mighty
knows. Pretty girls they were, both, and as like as two pinks."
There was quiet for some
moments while the tiler and the mason emptied their cups of beer. "I
think," said Sam then, "the rain's give over now."
"Ah, that it
has," cried Bob. "Let's go and do a bit more on this 'bugging church
or she won't be done afore Christmas."
7.THE CHRISTMAS PRESENT by RICHMAL CROMPTON
(From Truth) 1922
Mary Clay looked out of
the window of the old farmhouse. The view was dreary enough—hill and field and
woodland, bare, colourless, mist-covered—with no other house in sight. She had
never been a woman to crave for company. She liked sewing. She was passionately
fond of reading. She was not fond of talking. Probably she could have been very
happy at Cromb Farm—alone. Before her marriage she had looked forward to the
long evenings with her sewing and reading. She knew that she would be busy
enough in the day, for the farmhouse was old and rambling, and she was to have
no help in the housework. But she looked forward to quiet, peaceful, lamplit
evenings; and only lately, after ten years of married life, had she reluctantly
given up the hope of them. For peace was far enough from the old farm kitchen
in the evening. It was driven away by John Clay's loud voice, raised always in
orders or complaints, or in the stumbling, incoherent reading aloud of his
newspaper.
Mary was a silent woman
herself and a lover of silence. But John liked to hear the sound of his voice;
he liked to shout at her; to call for her from one room to another; above all,
he liked to hear his voice reading the paper out loud to her in the evening.
She dreaded that most of all. It had lately seemed to jar on her nerves till
she felt she must scream aloud. His voice going on and on, raucous and
sing-song, became unspeakably irritating. His "Mary!" summoning her
from her household work to wherever he happened to be, his "Get my
slippers," or "Bring me my pipe," exasperated her almost to the
point of rebellion. "Get your own slippers" had trembled on her lips,
but had never passed them, for she was a woman who could not bear anger. Noise
of any kind appalled her.
She had borne it for ten
years, so surely she could go on with it. Yet today, as she gazed hopelessly at
the wintry country side, she became acutely conscious that she could not go on
with it. Something must happen. Yet what was there that could happen?
It was Christmas next
week. She smiled ironically at the thought. Then she noticed the figure of her
husband coming up the road. He came in at the gate and round to the side-door.
"Mary!"
She went slowly in
answer to the summons. He held a letter in his hand.
"Met the
postman," he said. "From your aunt."
She opened the letter
and read it in silence. Both of them knew quite well what it contained.
"She wants us to go
over for Christmas again," said Mary.
He began to grumble.
"She's as deaf as a
post. She's 'most as deaf as her mother was. She ought to know better than to
ask folks over when she can't hear a word any one says."
Mary said nothing. He
always grumbled about the invitation at first, but really he wanted to go. He
liked to talk with her uncle. He liked the change of going down to the village
for a few days and hearing all its gossip. He could quite well leave the farm
to the "hands" for that time.
The Crewe deafness was
proverbial. Mary's great-grandmother had gone stone deaf at the age of
thirty-five; her daughter had inherited the affliction and her grand-daughter,
the aunt with whom Mary had spent her childhood, had inherited it also at
exactly the same age.
"All right,"
he said at last, grudgingly, as though in answer to her silence, "we'd
better go. Write and say we'll go."
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It was Christmas Eve.
They were in the kitchen of her uncle's farmhouse. The deaf old woman sat in
her chair by the fire knitting. Upon her sunken face there was a curious
sardonic smile that was her habitual expression. The two men stood in the
doorway. Mary sat at the table looking aimlessly out of the window. Outside,
the snow fell in blinding showers. Inside, the fire gleamed on to the copper
pots and pans, the crockery on the old oak dresser, the hams hanging from the
ceiling.
Suddenly James turned.
"Jane!" he
said.
The deaf woman never
stirred.
"Jane!"
Still there was no
response upon the enigmatic old face by the fireside.
"Jane!"
She turned slightly
towards the voice.
"Get them photos
from upstairs to show John," he bawled.
"What about
boats?" she said.
"Photos!"
roared her husband.
"Coats?" she
quavered.
Mary looked from one to
the other. The man made a gesture of irritation and went from the room.
He came back with a pile
of picture postcards in his hand.
"It's quicker to do
a thing oneself," he grumbled. "They're what my brother sent from
Switzerland, where he's working now. It's a fine land, to judge from the views
of it."
John took them from his
hand. "She gets worse?" he said nodding towards the old woman.
She was sitting gazing
at the fire, her lips curved into the curious smile.
Her husband shrugged his
shoulders. "Aye. She's nigh as bad as her mother was."
"And her
grandmother."
"Aye. It takes
longer to tell her to do something than to do it myself. And deaf folks get a
bit stupid, too. Can't see what you mean. They're best let alone."
The other man nodded and
lit his pipe. Then James opened the door.
"The snow's
stopped," he said. "Shall we go to the end of the village and
back?"
The other nodded, and
took his cap from behind the door. A gust of cold air filled the room as they
went out.
Mary took a paper-backed
book from the table and came over to the fireplace.
"Mary!"
She started. It was not
the sharp, querulous voice of the deaf old woman, it was more like the voice of
the young aunt whom Mary remembered in childhood. The old woman was leaning
forward, looking at her intently.
"Mary! A happy
Christmas to 'ee."
And, as if in spite of
herself, Mary answered in her ordinary low tones.
"The same to you,
auntie."
"Thank 'ee. Thank
'ee."
Mary gasped.
"Aunt! Can you hear
me speaking like this?"
The old woman laughed,
silently, rocking to and fro in her chair as if with pent-up merriment of
years.
"Yes, I can hear
'ee, child. I've allus heard 'ee."
Mary clasped her hand
eagerly.
"Then—you're cured,
Aunt—"
"Ay. I'm cured as
far as there was ever anything to be cured."
"You—?"
"I was never deaf,
child, nor never will be, please God. I've took you all in fine."
Mary stood up in
bewilderment.
"You? Never
deaf?"
The old woman chuckled
again.
"No, nor my mother—nor
her mother neither."
Mary shrank back from
her.
"I—I don't know
what you mean," she said, unsteadily. "Have you
been—pretending?"
"I'll make you a
Christmas present of it, dearie," said the old woman. "My mother made
me a Christmas present of it when I was your age, and her mother made her one.
I haven't a lass of my own to give it to, so I give it to you. It can come on
quite sudden like, if you want it, and then you can hear what you choose and
not hear what you choose. Do you see?" She leant nearer and whispered,
"You're shut out of it all—of having to fetch and carry for 'em, answer
their daft questions and run their errands like a dog. I've watched you, my
lass. You don't get much peace, do you?"
Mary was trembling.
"Oh, I don't know
what to think," she said. "I—I couldn't do it."
"Do what you
like," said the old woman. "Take it as a present, anyways—the Crewe
deafness for a Christmas present," she chuckled. "Use it or not as
you like. You'll find it main amusin', anyways."
And into the old face there
came again that curious smile as if she carried in her heart some jest fit for
the gods on Olympus.
The door opened suddenly
with another gust of cold air, and the two men came in again, covered with fine
snow.
"I—I'll not do
it," whispered Mary, trembling.
"We didn't get far.
It's coming on again," remarked John, hanging up his cap.
The old woman rose and
began to lay the supper, silently and deftly, moving from cupboard to table
without looking up. Mary sat by the fire, motionless and speechless, her eyes
fixed on the glowing coals.
"Any signs o' the
deafness in her?" whispered James, looking towards Mary. "It come on
my wife jus' when she was that age."
"Aye. So I've
heered."
Then he said loudly,
"Mary!"
A faint pink colour came
into her cheeks, but she did not show by look or movement that she had heard.
James looked significantly at her husband.
The old woman stood
still for a minute with a cup in each hand and smiled her slow, subtle smile.
8.SEATON'S AUNT by WALTER DE LA MARE
(From The London Mercury) 1922
I had heard rumours of
Seaton's Aunt long before I actually encountered her. Seaton, in the hush of
confidence, or at any little show of toleration on our part, would remark,
"My aunt," or "My old aunt, you know," as if his relative might
be a kind of cement to an entente cordiale.
He had an unusual
quantity of pocket-money; or, at any rate, it was bestowed on him in unusually
large amounts; and he spent it freely, though none of us would have described
him as an "awfully generous chap." "Hullo, Seaton," he
would say, "the old Begum?" At the beginning of term, too, he used to
bring back surprising and exotic dainties in a box with a trick padlock that
accompanied him from his first appearance at Gummidge's in a billycock hat to
the rather abrupt conclusion of his school-days.
From a boy's point of
view he looked distastefully foreign, with his yellow skin, and slow
chocolate-coloured eyes, and lean weak figure. Merely for his looks he was
treated by most of us true-blue Englishmen with condescension, hostility, or
contempt. We used to call him "Pongo," but without any better excuse
for the nickname than his skin. He was, that is, in one sense of the term what
he assuredly was not in the other sense, a sport.
Seaton and I were never
in any sense intimate at school, our orbits only intersected in class. I kept
instinctively aloof from him. I felt vaguely he was a sneak, and remained quite
unmollified by advances on his side, which, in a boy's barbarous fashion,
unless it suited me to be magnanimous, I haughtily ignored.
We were both of us
quick-footed, and at Prisoner's Base used occasionally to hide together. And so
I best remember Seaton—his narrow watchful face in the dusk of summer evening;
his peculiar crouch, and his inarticulate whisperings and mumblings. Otherwise
he played all games slackly and limply; used to stand and feed at his locker
with a crony or two until his "tuck" gave out; or waste his money on
some outlandish fancy or other. He bought, for instance, a silver bangle, which
he wore above his left elbow, until some of the fellows showed their masterly
contempt of the practice by dropping it nearly red-hot down his neck.
It needed, therefore, a
rather peculiar taste, a rather rare kind of schoolboy courage and indifference
to criticism, to be much associated with him. And I had neither the taste nor
the courage. None the less, he did make advances, and on one memorable occasion
went to the length of bestowing on me a whole pot of some outlandish
mulberry-coloured jelly that had been duplicated in his term's supplies. In the
exuberance of my gratitude I promised to spend the next half-term holiday with
him at his aunt's house.
I had clean forgotten my
promise when, two or three days before the holiday, he came up and triumphantly
reminded me of it.
"Well, to tell you
the honest truth, Seaton, old chap——" I began graciously; but he cut me
short.
"My aunt expects
you," he said; "she is very glad you are coming. She's sure to be
quite decent to you, Withers."
I looked at him in some
astonishment; the emphasis was unexpected. It seemed to suggest an aunt not
hitherto hinted at, and a friendly feeling on Seaton's side that was more
disconcerting than welcome.
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We reached his home
partly by train, partly by a lift in an empty farm-cart, and partly by walking.
It was a whole-day holiday, and we were to sleep the night; he lent me
extraordinary night-gear, I remember. The village street was unusually wide,
and was fed from a green by two converging roads, with an inn, and a high green
sign at the corner. About a hundred yards down the street was a chemist's
shop—Mr. Tanner's. We descended the two steps into his dusky and odorous
interior to buy, I remember, some rat poison. A little beyond the chemist's was
the forge. You then walked along a very narrow path, under a fairly high wall,
nodding here and there with weeds and tufts of grass, and so came to the iron
garden-gates, and saw the high flat house behind its huge sycamore. A
coach-house stood on the left of the house, and on the right a gate led into a
kind of rambling orchard. The lawn lay away over to the left again, and at the
bottom (for the whole garden sloped gently to a sluggish and rushy pond-like
stream) was a meadow.
We arrived at noon, and
entered the gates out of the hot dust beneath the glitter of the dark-curtained
windows. Seaton led me at once through the little garden-gate to show me his
tadpole pond, swarming with what, being myself not the least bit of a
naturalist, I considered the most horrible creatures—of all shapes, consistencies,
and sizes, but with whom Seaton seemed to be on the most intimate of terms. I
can see his absorbed face now as he sat on his heels and fished the slimy
things out in his sallow palms. Wearying at last of his pets, we loitered about
awhile in an aimless fashion. Seaton seemed to be listening, or at any rate
waiting, for something to happen or for some one to come. But nothing did
happen and no one came.
That was just like
Seaton. Anyhow, the first view I got of his aunt was when, at the summons of a
distant gong, we turned from the garden, very hungry and thirsty, to go into
luncheon. We were approaching the house when Seaton suddenly came to a
standstill. Indeed, I have always had the impression that he plucked at my
sleeve. Something, at least, seemed to catch me back, as it were, as he cried,
"Look out, there she is!"
She was standing in an
upper window which opened wide on a hinge, and at first sight she looked an
excessively tall and overwhelming figure. This, however, was mainly because the
window reached all but to the floor of her bedroom. She was in reality rather
an under-sized woman, in spite of her long face and big head. She must have
stood, I think, unusually still, with eyes fixed on us, though this impression
may be due to Seaton's sudden warning and to my consciousness of the cautious
and subdued air that had fallen on him at sight of her. I know that without the
least reason in the world I felt a kind of guiltiness, as if I had been
"caught." There was a silvery star pattern sprinkled on her black
silk dress, and even from the ground I could see the immense coils of her hair
and the rings on her left hand which was held fingering the small jet buttons
of her bodice. She watched our united advance without stirring, until,
imperceptibly, her eyes raised and lost themselves in the distance, so that it
was out of an assumed reverie that she appeared suddenly to awaken to our
presence beneath her when we drew close to the house.
"So this is your
friend, Mr. Smithers, I suppose?" she said, bobbing to me.
"Withers,
aunt," said Seaton.
"It's much the
same," she said, with eyes fixed on me. "Come in, Mr. Withers, and
bring him along with you."
She continued to gaze at
me—at least, I think she did so. I know that the fixity of her scrutiny and her
ironical "Mr." made me feel peculiarly uncomfortable. But she was
extremely kind and attentive to me, though perhaps her kindness and attention
showed up more vividly against her complete neglect of Seaton. Only one remark
that I have any recollection of she made to him: "When I look on my
nephew, Mr. Smithers, I realise that dust we are, and dust shall become. You
are hot, dirty, and incorrigible, Arthur."
She sat at the head of
the table, Seaton at the foot, and I, before a wide waste of damask tablecloth,
between them. It was an old and rather close dining-room, with windows thrown
wide to the green garden and a wonderful cascade of fading roses. Miss Seaton's
great chair faced this window, so that its rose-reflected light shone full on
her yellowish face, and on just such chocolate eyes as my schoolfellow's,
except that hers were more than half-covered by unusually long and heavy lids.
There she sat, eating,
with those sluggish eyes fixed for the most part on my face; above them stood
the deep-lined fork between her eyebrows; and above that the wide expanse of a
remarkable brow beneath its strange steep bank of hair. The lunch was copious,
and consisted, I remember, of all such dishes as are generally considered
mischievous and too good for the schoolboy digestion—lobster mayonnaise, cold
game sausages, an immense veal and ham pie farced with eggs and numberless
delicious flavours; besides sauces, kickshaws, creams, and sweetmeats. We even
had wine, a half-glass of old darkish sherry each.
Miss Seaton enjoyed and
indulged an enormous appetite. Her example and a natural schoolboy voracity
soon overcame my nervousness of her, even to the extent of allowing me to enjoy
to the best of my bent so rare a "spread." Seaton was singularly
modest; the greater part of his meal consisted of almonds and raisins, which he
nibbled surreptitiously and as if he found difficulty in swallowing them.
I don't mean that Miss
Seaton "conversed" with me. She merely scattered trenchant remarks
and now and then twinkled a baited question over my head. But her face was like
a dense and involved accompaniment to her talk. She presently dropped the
"Mr.," to my intense relief, and called me now Withers, or Wither,
now Smithers, and even once towards the close of the meal distinctly Johnson,
though how on earth my name suggested it, or whose face mine had reanimated in
memory, I cannot conceive.
"And is Arthur a
good boy at school, Mr. Wither?" was one of her many questions. "Does
he please his masters? Is he first in his class? What does the reverend Dr.
Gummidge think of him, eh?"
I knew she was jeering
at him, but her face was adamant against the least flicker of sarcasm or
facetiousness. I gazed fixedly at a blushing crescent of lobster.
"I think you're
eighth, aren't you, Seaton?"
Seaton moved his small
pupils towards his aunt. But she continued to gaze with a kind of concentrated
detachment at me.
"Arthur will never
make a brilliant scholar, I fear," she said, lifting a
dexterously-burdened fork to her wide mouth....
After luncheon she preceded
me up to my bedroom. It was a jolly little bedroom, with a brass fender and
rugs and a polished floor, on which it was possible, I afterwards found, to
play "snow-shoes." Over the washstand was a little black-framed
water-colour drawing, depicting a large eye with an extremely fishlike
intensity in the spark of light on the dark pupil; and in
"illuminated" lettering beneath was printed very minutely, "Thou
God Seest ME," followed by a long looped monogram, "S.S.," in
the corner. The other pictures were all of the sea: brigs on blue water; a
schooner overtopping chalk cliffs; a rocky island of prodigious steepness, with
two tiny sailors dragging a monstrous boat up a shelf of beach.
"This is the room,
Withers, my brother William died in when a boy. Admire the view!"
I looked out of the
window across the tree-tops. It was a day hot with sunshine over the green
fields, and the cattle were standing swishing their tails in the shallow water.
But the view at the moment was only exaggeratedly vivid because I was horribly
dreading that she would presently enquire after my luggage, and I had not
brought even a toothbrush. I need have had no fear. Hers was not that
highly-civilised type of mind that is stuffed with sharp material details. Nor
could her ample presence be described as in the least motherly.
"I would never
consent to question a schoolfellow behind my nephew's back," she said,
standing in the middle of the room, "but tell me, Smithers, why is Arthur
so unpopular? You, I understand, are his only close friend." She stood in
a dazzle of sun, and out of it her eyes regarded me with such leaden
penetration beneath their thick lids that I doubt if my face concealed the
least thought from her. "But there, there," she added very suavely,
stooping her head a little, "don't trouble to answer me. I never extort an
answer. Boys are queer fish. Brains might perhaps have suggested his washing
his hands before luncheon; but—not my choice, Smithers. God forbid! And now,
perhaps, you would like to go into the garden again. I cannot actually see from
here, but I should not be surprised if Arthur is now skulking behind that
hedge."
He was. I saw his head
come out and take a rapid glance at the windows.
"Join him, Mr.
Smithers; we shall meet again, I hope, at the tea-table. The afternoon I spend
in retirement."
Whether or not, Seaton
and I had not been long engaged with the aid of two green switches in riding
round and round a lumbering old gray horse we found in the meadow, before a
rather bunched-up figure appeared, walking along the field-path on the other
side of the water, with a magenta parasol studiously lowered in our direction
throughout her slow progress, as if that were the magnetic needle and we the
fixed pole. Seaton at once lost all nerve in his riding. At the next lurch of
the old mare's heels he toppled over into the grass, and I slid off the sleek
broad back to join him where he stood, rubbing his shoulder and sourly watching
the rather pompous figure till it was out of sight.
"Was that your
aunt, Seaton?" I enquired; but not till then.
He nodded.
"Why didn't she
take any notice of us, then?"
"She never
does."
"Why not?"
"Oh, she knows all
right, without; that's the dam awful part of it." Seaton was about the
only fellow at Gummidge's who ever had the ostentation to use bad language. He
had suffered for it, too. But it wasn't, I think, bravado. I believe he really
felt certain things more intensely than most of the other fellows, and they
were generally things that fortunate and average people do not feel at all—the
peculiar quality, for instance, of the British schoolboy's imagination.
"I tell you,
Withers," he went on moodily, slinking across the meadow with his hands
covered up in his pockets, "she sees everything. And what she doesn't see
she knows without."
"But how?" I
said, not because I was much interested, but because the afternoon was so hot
and tiresome and purposeless, and it seemed more of a bore to remain silent.
Seaton turned gloomily and spoke in a very low voice.
"Don't appear to be
talking of her, if you wouldn't mind. It's—because she's in league with the
devil." He nodded his head and stooped to pick up a round flat pebble.
"I tell you," he said, still stooping, "you fellows don't
realise what it is. I know I'm a bit close and all that. But so would you be if
you had that old hag listening to every thought you think."
I looked at him, then
turned and surveyed one by one the windows of the house.
"Where's your pater?"
I said awkwardly.
"Dead, ages and
ages ago, and my mother too. She's not my aunt by rights."
"What is she,
then?"
"I mean she's not
my mother's sister, because my grandmother married twice; and she's one of the
first lot. I don't know what you call her, but anyhow she's not my real
aunt."
"She gives you
plenty of pocket-money."
Seaton looked
steadfastly at me out of his flat eyes. "She can't give me what's mine.
When I come of age half of the whole lot will be mine; and what's more"—he
turned his back on the house—"I'll make her hand over every blessed
shilling of it."
I put my hands in my
pockets and stared at Seaton. "Is it much?"
He nodded.
"Who told
you?" He got suddenly very angry; a darkish red came into his cheeks, his
eyes glistened, but he made no answer, and we loitered listlessly about the
garden until it was time for tea....
Seaton's aunt was
wearing an extraordinary kind of lace jacket when we sidled sheepishly into the
drawing-room together. She greeted me with a heavy and protracted smile, and
bade me bring a chair close to the little table.
"I hope Arthur has
made you feel at home," she said as she handed me my cup in her crooked
hand. "He don't talk much to me; but then I'm an old woman. You must come
again, Wither, and draw him out of his shell. You old snail!" She wagged
her head at Seaton, who sat munching cake and watching her intently.
"And we must
correspond, perhaps." She nearly shut her eyes at me. "You must write
and tell me everything behind the creature's back." I confess I found her
rather disquieting company. The evening drew on. Lamps were brought by a man with
a nondescript face and very quiet footsteps. Seaton was told to bring out the
chess-men. And we played a game, she and I, with her big chin thrust over the
board at every move as she gloated over the pieces and occasionally croaked
"Check!" after which she would sit back inscrutably staring at me.
But the game was never finished. She simply hemmed me defencelessly in with a
cloud of men that held me impotent, and yet one and all refused to administer
to my poor flustered old king a merciful coup de grâce.
"There," she
said, as the clock struck ten—"a drawn game, Withers. We are very evenly
matched. A very creditable defence, Withers. You know your room. There's supper
on a tray in the dining-room. Don't let the creature over-eat himself. The gong
will sound three-quarters of an hour before a punctual breakfast." She
held out her cheek to Seaton, and he kissed it with obvious perfunctoriness.
With me she shook hands.
"An excellent
game," she said cordially, "but my memory is poor, and"—she
swept the pieces helter-skelter into the box—"the result will never be
known." She raised her great head far back. "Eh?"
It was a kind of
challenge, and I could only murmur: "Oh, I was absolutely in a hole, you
know!" when she burst out laughing and waved us both out of the room.
Seaton and I stood and
ate our supper, with one candlestick to light us, in a corner of the
dining-room. "Well, and how would you like it?" he said very softly,
after cautiously poking his head round the doorway.
"Like what?"
"Being spied
on—every blessed thing you do and think?"
"I shouldn't like
it at all," I said, "if she does."
"And yet you let
her smash you up at chess!"
"I didn't let
her!" I said indignantly.
"Well, you funked
it, then."
"And I didn't funk
it either," I said; "she's so jolly clever with her knights."
Seaton stared fixedly at the candle. "You wait, that's all," he said
slowly. And we went upstairs to bed.
I had not been long in
bed, I think, when I was cautiously awakened by a touch on my shoulder. And
there was Seaton's face in the candlelight and his eyes looking into mine.
"What's up?" I
said, rising quickly to my elbow.
"Don't
scurry," he whispered, "or she'll hear. I'm sorry for waking you, but
I didn't think you'd be asleep so soon."
"Why, what's the
time, then?" Seaton wore, what was then rather unusual, a night-suit, and
he hauled his big silver watch out of the pocket in his jacket.
"It's a quarter to
twelve. I never get to sleep before twelve—not here."
"What do you do,
then?"
"Oh, I read and
listen."
"Listen?"
Seaton stared into his
candle-flame as if he were listening even then. "You can't guess what it
is. All you read in ghost stories, that's all rot. You can't see much, Withers,
but you know all the same."
"Know what?"
"Why, that they're
there."
"Who's there?"
I asked fretfully, glancing at the door.
"Why, in the house.
It swarms with 'em. Just you stand still and listen outside my bedroom door in
the middle of the night. I have, dozens of times; they're all over the
place."
"Look here,
Seaton," I said, "you asked me to come here, and I didn't mind
chucking up a leave just to oblige you and because I'd promised; but don't get
talking a lot of rot, that's all, or you'll know the difference when we get
back."
"Don't fret,"
he said coldly, turning away. "I shan't be at school long. And what's
more, you're here now, and there isn't anybody else to talk to. I'll chance the
other."
"Look here,
Seaton," I said, "you may think you're going to scare me with a lot
of stuff about voices and all that. But I'll just thank you to clear out; and
you may please yourself about pottering about all night."
He made no answer; he
was standing by the dressing-table looking across his candle into the
looking-glass; he turned and stared slowly round the walls.
"Even this room's
nothing more than a coffin. I suppose she told you—'It's all exactly the same
as when my brother William died'—trust her for that! And good luck to him, say
I. Look at that." He raised his candle close to the little water-colour I
have mentioned. "There's hundreds of eyes like that in the house; and even
if God does see you, he takes precious good care you don't see Him. And it's
just the same with them. I tell you what, Withers, I'm getting sick of all
this. I shan't stand it much longer."
The house was silent
within and without, and even in the yellowish radiance of the candle a faint
silver showed through the open window on my blind. I slipped off the
bedclothes, wide awake, and sat irresolute on the bedside.
"I know you're only
guying me," I said angrily, "but why is the house full of—what you
say? Why do you hear—what you do hear? Tell me that, you silly
foal!"
Seaton sat down on a
chair and rested his candlestick on his knee. He blinked at me calmly.
"She brings them," he said, with lifted eyebrows.
"Who? Your
aunt?"
He nodded.
"How?"
"I told you,"
he answered pettishly. "She's in league. You don't know. She as good as
killed my mother; I know that. But it's not only her by a long chalk. She just
sucks you dry. I know. And that's what she'll do for me; because I'm like
her—like my mother, I mean. She simply hates to see me alive. I wouldn't be
like that old she-wolf for a million pounds. And so"—he broke off, with a
comprehensive wave of his candlestick—"they're always here. Ah, my boy,
wait till she's dead! She'll hear something then, I can tell you. It's all very
well now, but wait till then! I wouldn't be in her shoes when she has to clear
out—for something. Don't you go and believe I care for ghosts, or whatever you
like to call them. We're all in the same box. We're all under her thumb."
He was looking almost
nonchalantly at the ceiling at the moment, when I saw his face change, saw his
eyes suddenly drop like shot birds and fix themselves on the cranny of the door
he had just left ajar. Even from where I sat I could see his colour change; he
went greenish. He crouched without stirring, simply fixed. And I, scarcely
daring to breathe, sat with creeping skin, simply watching him. His hands
relaxed, and he gave a kind of sigh.
"Was that
one?" I whispered, with a timid show of jauntiness. He looked round,
opened his mouth, and nodded. "What?" I said. He jerked his thumb
with meaningful eyes, and I knew that he meant that his aunt had been there
listening at our door cranny.
"Look here,
Seaton," I said once more, wriggling to my feet. "You may think I'm a
jolly noodle; just as you please. But your aunt has been civil to me and all
that, and I don't believe a word you say about her, that's all, and never did.
Every fellow's a bit off his pluck at night, and you may think it a fine sport
to try your rubbish on me. I heard your aunt come upstairs before I fell
asleep. And I'll bet you a level tanner she's in bed now. What's more, you can
keep your blessed ghosts to yourself. It's a guilty conscience, I should
think."
Seaton looked at me
curiously, without answering for a moment. "I'm not a liar, Withers; but
I'm not going to quarrel either. You're the only chap I care a button for; or,
at any rate, you're the only chap that's ever come here; and it's something to
tell a fellow what you feel. I don't care a fig for fifty thousand ghosts,
although I swear on my solemn oath that I know they're here. But she"—he
turned deliberately—"you laid a tanner she's in bed, Withers; well, I know
different. She's never in bed much of the night, and I'll prove it, too, just
to show you I'm not such a nolly as you think I am. Come on!"
"Come on
where?"
"Why, to see."
I hesitated. He opened a
large cupboard and took out a small dark dressing-gown and a kind of
shawl-jacket. He threw the jacket on the bed and put on the gown. His dusky
face was colourless, and I could see by the way he fumbled at the sleeves he
was shivering. But it was no good showing the white feather now. So I threw the
tasselled shawl over my shoulders and, leaving our candle brightly burning on
the chair, we went out together and stood in the corridor. "Now then,
listen!" Seaton whispered.
We stood leaning over
the staircase. It was like leaning over a well, so still and chill the air was
all around us. But presently, as I suppose happens in most old houses, began to
echo and answer in my ears a medley of infinite small stirrings and
whisperings. Now out of the distance an old timber would relax its fibers, or a
scurry die away behind the perishing wainscot. But amid and behind such sounds
as these I seemed to begin to be conscious, as it were, of the lightest of
footfalls, sounds as faint as the vanishing remembrance of voices in a dream.
Seaton was all in obscurity except his face; out of that his eyes gleamed
darkly, watching me.
"You'd hear, too,
in time, my fine soldier," he muttered. "Come on!"
He descended the stairs,
slipping his lean fingers lightly along the balusters. He turned to the right
at the loop, and I followed him barefooted along a thickly-carpeted corridor.
At the end stood a door ajar. And from here we very stealthily and in complete
blackness ascended five narrow stairs. Seaton, with immense caution, slowly
pushed open a door and we stood together looking into a great pool of
duskiness, out of which, lit by the feeble clearness of a night-light, rose a
vast bed. A heap of clothes lay on the floor; beside them two slippers dozed,
with noses each to each, two yards apart. Somewhere a little clock ticked
huskily. There was a rather close smell of lavender and eau de Cologne, mingled
with the fragrance of ancient sachets, soap, and drugs. Yet it was a scent even
more peculiarly commingled than that.
And the bed! I stared
warily in; it was mounded gigantically, and it was empty.
Seaton turned a vague
pale face, all shadows: "What did I say?" he muttered.
"Who's—who's the fool now, I say? How are we going to get back without
meeting her, I say? Answer me that! Oh, I wish to goodness you hadn't come
here, Withers."
He stood visibly
shivering in his skimpy gown, and could hardly speak for his teeth chattering.
And very distinctly, in the hush that followed his whisper, I heard approaching
a faint unhurried voluminous rustle. Seaton clutched my arm, dragged me to the
right across the room to a large cupboard, and drew the door close to on us.
And, presently, as with bursting lungs I peeped out into the long, low,
curtained bedroom, waddled in that wonderful great head and body. I can see her
now, all patched and lined with shadow, her tied-up hair (she must have had
enormous quantities of it for so old a woman), her heavy lids above those flat,
slow, vigilant eyes. She just passed across my ken in the vague dusk; but the
bed was out of sight.
We waited on and on,
listening to the clock's muffled ticking. Not the ghost of a sound rose up from
the great bed. Either she lay archly listening or slept a sleep serener than an
infant's. And when, it seemed, we had been hours in hiding and were cramped,
chilled, and half suffocated, we crept out on all fours, with terror knocking at
our ribs, and so down the five narrow stairs and back to the little candle-lit
blue-and-gold bedroom.
Once there, Seaton gave
in. He sat livid on a chair with closed eyes.
"Here," I
said, shaking his arm, "I'm going to bed; I've had enough of this foolery;
I'm going to bed." His lids quivered, but he made no answer. I poured out
some water into my basin and, with that cold pictured azure eye fixed on us,
bespattered Seaton's sallow face and forehead and dabbled his hair. He
presently sighed and opened fish-like eyes.
"Come on!" I
said. "Don't get shamming, there's a good chap. Get on my back, if you
like, and I'll carry you into your bedroom."
He waved me away and
stood up. So, with my candle in one hand, I took him under the arm and walked
him along according to his direction down the corridor. His was a much dingier
room than mine, and littered with boxes, paper, cages, and clothes. I huddled
him into bed and turned to go. And suddenly, I can hardly explain it now, a
kind of cold and deadly terror swept over me. I almost ran out of the room,
with eyes fixed rigidly in front of me, blew out my candle, and buried my head
under the bedclothes.
When I awoke, roused by
a long-continued tapping at my door, sunlight was raying in on cornice and
bedpost, and birds were singing in the garden. I got up, ashamed of the night's
folly, dressed quickly, and went downstairs. The breakfast-room was sweet with
flowers and fruit and honey. Seaton's aunt was standing in the garden beside
the open French window, feeding a great flutter of birds. I watched her for a
moment, unseen. Her face was set in a deep reverie beneath the shadow of a big
loose sunhat. It was deeply lined, crooked, and, in a way I can't describe,
fixedly vacant and strange. I coughed, and she turned at once with a prodigious
smile to inquire how I had slept. And in that mysterious way by which we learn
each other's secret thoughts without a sentence spoken I knew that she had
followed every word and movement of the night before, and was triumphing over
my affected innocence and ridiculing my friendly and too easy advances.
We returned to school,
Seaton and I, lavishly laden, and by rail all the way. I made no reference to
the obscure talk we had had, and resolutely refused to meet his eyes or to take
up the hints he let fall. I was relieved—and yet I was sorry—to be going back,
and strode on as fast as I could from the station, with Seaton almost trotting
at my heels. But he insisted on buying more fruit and sweets—my share of which
I accepted with a very bad grace. It was uncomfortably like a bribe; and, after
all, I had no quarrel with his rum old aunt, and hadn't really believed half
the stuff he had told me.
I saw as little of him
as I could after that. He never referred to our visit or resumed his confidences,
though in class I would sometimes catch his eye fixed on mine, full of a mute
understanding, which I easily affected not to understand. He left Gummidge's,
as I have said, rather abruptly, though I never heard of anything to his
discredit. And I did not see him or have any news of him again till by chance
we met one summer's afternoon in the Strand.
He was dressed rather
oddly in a coat too large for him and a bright silky tie. But we instantly
recognised one another under the awning of a cheap jeweler's shop. He
immediately attached himself to me and dragged me off, not too cheerfully, to
lunch with him at an Italian restaurant near by. He chattered about our old
school, which he remembered only with dislike and disgust; told me
cold-bloodedly of the disastrous fate of one or two of the old fellows who had
been among his chief tormentors; insisted on an expensive wine and the whole
gamut of the "rich" menu; and finally informed me, with a good deal
of niggling, that he had come up to town to buy an engagement-ring.
And of course: "How
is your aunt?" I enquired at last.
He seemed to have been
awaiting the question. It fell like a stone into a deep pool, so many
expressions flitted across his long un-English face.
"She's aged a good
deal," he said softly, and broke off.
"She's been very
decent," he continued presently after, and paused again. "In a
way." He eyed me fleetingly. "I dare say you heard that she—that is,
that we—had lost a good deal of money."
"No," I said.
"Oh, yes!"
said Seaton, and paused again.
And somehow, poor
fellow, I knew in the clink and clatter of glass and voices that he had lied to
me; that he did not possess, and never had possessed, a penny beyond what his
aunt had squandered on his too ample allowance of pocket-money.
"And the ghosts?"
I enquired quizzically. He grew instantly solemn, and, though it may have been
my fancy, slightly yellowed. But "You are making game of me,
Withers," was all he said.
He asked for my address,
and I rather reluctantly gave him my card.
"Look here, Withers,"
he said, as we stood in the sunlight on the thronging kerb, saying good-bye,
"here I am, and it's all very well; I'm not perhaps as fanciful as I was.
But you are practically the only friend I have on earth—except Alice.... And
there—to make a clean breast of it, I'm not sure that my aunt cares much about
my getting married. She doesn't say so, of course. You know her well enough for
that." He looked sidelong at the rattling gaudy traffic.
"What I was going
to say is this. Would you mind coming down? You needn't stay the night unless
you please, though, of course, you know you would be awfully welcome. But I
should like you to meet my—to meet Alice; and then, perhaps, you might tell me
your honest opinion of—of the other too."
I vaguely demurred. He
pressed me. And we parted with a half promise that I would come. He waved his
ball-topped cane at me and ran off in his long jacket after a 'bus.
A letter arrived soon
after, in his small weak handwriting, giving me full particulars regarding
route and trains. And without the least curiosity, even, perhaps with some
little annoyance that chance should have thrown us together again, I accepted
his invitation and arrived one hazy midday at his out-of-the-way station to
find him sitting on a low seat under a clump of double hollyhocks, awaiting me.
His face looked absent
and singularly listless; but he seemed, none the less, pleased to see me.
We walked up the village
street, past the little dingy apothecary's and the empty forge, and, as on my
first visit, skirted the house together, and, instead of entering by the front
door, made our way down the green path into the garden at the back. A pale haze
of cloud muffled the sun; the garden lay in a grey shimmer—its old trees, its
snap-dragoned faintly glittering walls. But there seemed now an air of neglect
where before all had been neat and methodical. There was a patch of
shallowly-dug soil and a worn-down spade leaning against a tree. There was an
old broken wheelbarrow. The goddess of neglect was there.
"You ain't much of
a gardener, Seaton," I said, with a sigh of ease.
"I think, do you
know, I like it best like this," said Seaton. "We haven't any
gardener now, of course. Can't afford it." He stood staring at his little
dark square of freshly-turned earth. "And it always seems to me," he
went on ruminatingly, "that, after all, we are nothing better than
interlopers on the earth, disfiguring and staining wherever we go. I know it's
shocking blasphemy to say so, but then it's different here, you see. We are
farther away."
"To tell you the
truth, Seaton, I don't quite see," I said; "but it isn't a new
philosophy, is it? Anyhow, it's a precious beastly one."
"It's only what I
think," he replied, with all his odd old stubborn meekness.
We wandered on together,
talking little, and still with that expression of uneasy vigilance on Seaton's
face. He pulled out his watch as we stood gazing idly over the green meadow and
the dark motionless bulrushes.
"I think, perhaps,
it's nearly time for lunch," he said. "Would you like to come
in?"
We turned and walked
slowly towards the house, across whose windows I confess my own eyes, too, went
restlessly wandering in search of its rather disconcerting inmate. There was a
pathetic look of draggledness, of want of means and care, rust and overgrowth
and faded paint. Seaton's aunt, a little to my relief, did not share our meal.
Seaton carved the cold meat, and dispatched a heaped-up plate by the elderly
servant for his aunt's private consumption. We talked little and in
half-suppressed tones, and sipped a bottle of Madeira which Seaton had rather
heedfully fetched out of the great mahogany sideboard.
I played him a dull and
effortless game of chess, yawning between the moves he generally made almost at
haphazard, and with attention elsewhere engaged. About five o'clock came the
sound of a distant ring, and Seaton jumped up, overturning the board, and so
ending a game that else might have fatuously continued to this day. He
effusively excused himself, and after some little while returned with a slim,
dark, rather sallow girl of about nineteen, in a white gown and hat, to whom I
was presented with some little nervousness as "his dear old friend and
schoolfellow."
We talked on in the pale
afternoon light, still, as it seemed to me, and even in spite of real effort to
be clear and gay, in a half-suppressed, lack-lustre fashion. We all seemed, if
it were not my fancy, to be expectant, to be rather anxiously awaiting an
arrival, the appearance of someone who all but filled our collective
consciousness. Seaton talked least of all, and in a restless interjectory way,
as he continually fidgeted from chair to chair. At last he proposed a stroll in
the garden before the sun should have quite gone down.
Alice walked between us.
Her hair and eyes were conspicuously dark against the whiteness of her gown.
She carried herself not ungracefully, and yet without the least movement of her
arms or body, and answered us both without turning her head. There was a
curious provocative reserve in that impassive and rather long face, a
half-unconscious strength of character.
And yet somehow I knew—I
believe we all knew—that this walk, this discussion of their future plans was a
futility. I had nothing to base such a cynicism on, except only a vague sense
of oppression, the foreboding remembrance of the inert invincible power in the
background, to whom optimistic plans and love-making and youth are as chaff and
thistledown. We came back, silent, in the last light. Seaton's aunt was
there—under an old brass lamp. Her hair was as barbarously massed and curled as
ever. Her eye-lids, I think, hung even a little heavier in age over their
slow-moving inscrutable pupils. We filed in softly out of the evening, and I
made my bow.
"In this short
interval, Mr. Withers," she remarked amiably, "you have put off
youth, put on the man. Dear me, how sad it is to see the young days vanishing!
Sit down. My nephew tells me you met by chance—or act of Providence, shall we
call it?—and in my beloved Strand! You, I understand, are to be best man—yes,
best man, or am I divulging secrets?" She surveyed Arthur and Alice with
overwhelming graciousness. They sat apart on two low chairs and smiled in
return.
"And Arthur—how do
you think Arthur is looking?"
"I think he looks
very much in need of a change," I said deliberately.
"A change!
Indeed?" She all but shut her eyes at me and with an exaggerated
sentimentality shook her head. "My dear Mr. Withers! Are we not all in
need of a change in this fleeting, fleeting world?" She mused over the
remark like a connoisseur. "And you," she continued, turning abruptly
to Alice, "I hope you pointed out to Mr. Withers all my pretty bits?"
"We walked round
the garden," said Alice, looking out of the window. "It's a very
beautiful evening."
"Is it?" said
the old lady, starting up violently. "Then on this very beautiful evening
we will go in to supper. Mr. Withers, your arm; Arthur, bring your bride."
I can scarcely describe
with what curious ruminations I led the way into the faded, heavy-aired
dining-room, with this indefinable old creature leaning weightily on my arm—the
large flat bracelet on the yellow-laced wrist. She fumed a little, breathed
rather heavily, as if with an effort of mind rather than of body; for she had
grown much stouter and yet little more proportionate. And to talk into that
great white face, so close to mine, was a queer experience in the dim light of
the corridor, and even in the twinkling crystal of the candles. She was
naïve—appallingly naïve; she was sudden and superficial; she was even arch; and
all these in the brief, rather puffy passage from one room to the other, with
these two tongue-tied children bringing up the rear. The meal was tremendous. I
have never seen such a monstrous salad. But the dishes were greasy and
over-spiced, and were indifferently cooked. One thing only was quite
unchanged—my hostess's appetite was as Gargantuan as ever. The old solid
candelabra that lighted us stood before her high-backed chair. Seaton sat a
little removed, with his plate almost in darkness.
And throughout this
prodigious meal his aunt talked, mainly to me, mainly at Seaton, with an
occasional satirical courtesy to Alice and muttered explosions of directions to
the servant. She had aged, and yet, if it be not nonsense to say so, seemed no
older. I suppose to the Pyramids a decade is but as the rustling down of a
handful of dust. And she reminded me of some such unshakable prehistoricism.
She certainly was an amazing talker—racy, extravagant, with a delivery that was
perfectly overwhelming. As for Seaton—her flashes of silence were for him. On
her enormous volubility would suddenly fall a hush: acid sarcasm would be left
implied; and she would sit softly moving her great head, with eyes fixed full
in a dreamy smile; but with her whole attention, one could see, slowly,
joyously absorbing his mute discomfiture.
She confided in us her
views on a theme vaguely occupying at the moment, I suppose, all our minds.
"We have barbarous institutions, and so must put up, I suppose, with a
never-ending procession of fools—of fools ad infinitum. Marriage,
Mr. Withers, was instituted in the privacy of a garden; sub rosa,
as it were. Civilization flaunts it in the glare of day. The dull marry the
poor; the rich the effete; and so our New Jerusalem is peopled with naturals,
plain and coloured, at either end. I detest folly; I detest still more (if I
must be frank, dear Arthur) mere cleverness. Mankind has simply become a
tailless host of uninstinctive animals. We should never have taken to
Evolution, Mr. Withers. 'Natural Selection!'—little gods and fishes!—the deaf
for the dumb. We should have used our brains—intellectual pride, the
ecclesiastics call it. And by brains I mean—what do I mean, Alice?—I mean, my
dear child," and she laid two gross fingers on Alice's narrow sleeve.
"I mean courage. Consider it, Arthur. I read that the scientific world is
once more beginning to be afraid of spiritual agencies. Spiritual agencies that
tap, and actually float, bless their hearts! I think just one more of those
mulberries—thank you.
"They talk about
'blind Love,'" she ran inconsequently on as she helped herself, with eyes
fixed on the dish, "but why blind? I think, do you know, from weeping over
its rickets. After all, it is we plain women that triumph, Mr. Withers, beyond
the mockery of time. Alice, now! Fleeting, fleeting is youth, my child! What's
that you were confiding to your plate, Arthur? Satirical boy! He laughs at his
old aunt: nay, but thou didst laugh. He detests all sentiment. He whispers the
most acid asides. Come, my love, we will leave these cynics; we will go and
commiserate with each other on our sex. The choice of two evils, Mr.
Smithers!" I opened the door, and she swept out as if borne on a torrent
of unintelligible indignation; and Arthur and I were left in the clear four-flamed
light alone.
For a while we sat in
silence. He shook his head at my cigarette-case, and I lit a cigarette.
Presently he fidgeted in his chair and poked his head forward into the light.
He paused to rise and shut again the shut door.
"How long will you
be?" he said, standing by the table.
I laughed.
"Oh, it's not
that!" he said, in some confusion. "Of course, I like to be with her.
But it's not that only. The truth is, Withers, I don't care about leaving her
too long with my aunt."
I hesitated. He looked
at me questioningly.
"Look here,
Seaton," I said, "you know well enough that I don't want to interfere
in your affairs, or to offer advice where it is not wanted. But don't you think
perhaps you may not treat your aunt quite in the right way? As one gets old,
you know, a little give and take. I have an old godmother, or something. She
talks, too.... A little allowance: it does no harm. But, hang it all, I'm no
talker."
He sat down with his
hands in his pockets and still with his eyes fixed almost incredulously on
mine. "How?" he said.
"Well, my dear
fellow, if I'm any judge—mind, I don't say that I am—but I can't help thinking
she thinks you don't care for her; and perhaps takes your silence for—for bad
temper. She has been very decent to you, hasn't she?"
"'Decent'? My
God!" said Seaton.
I smoked on in silence;
but he still continued to look at me with that peculiar concentration I
remembered of old.
"I don't think,
perhaps, Withers," he began presently, "I don't think you quite
understand. Perhaps you are not quite our kind. You always did, just like the
other fellows, guy me at school. You laughed at me that night you came to stay
here—about the voices and all that. But I don't mind being laughed at—because I
know."
"Know what?"
It was the same old system of dull question and evasive answer.
"I mean I know that
what we see and hear is only the smallest fraction of what is. I know she lives
quite out of this. She talks to you; but it's all
make-believe. It's all a 'parlour game.' She's not really with you; only
pitting her outside wits against yours and enjoying the fooling. She's living
on inside, on what you're rotten without. That's what it is—a cannibal feast.
She's a spider. It does't much matter what you call it. It means the same kind
of thing. I tell you, Withers, she hates me; and you can scarcely dream what
that hatred means. I used to think I had an inkling of the reason. It's oceans
deeper than that. It just lies behind: herself against myself. Why, after all,
how much do we really understand of anything? We don't even know our own
histories, and not a tenth, not a tenth of the reasons. What has life been to
me?—nothing but a trap. And when one is set free, it only begins again. I
thought you might understand; but you are on a different level: that's
all."
"What on earth are
you talking about?" I said, half contemptuously, in spite of myself.
"I mean what I
say," he said gutturally. "All this outside's only make-believe—but
there! what's the good of talking? So far as this is concerned I'm as good as
done. You wait."
Seaton blew out three of
the candles and, leaving the vacant room in semi-darkness, we groped our way
along the corridor to the drawing-room. There a full moon stood shining in at
the long garden windows. Alice sat stooping at the door, with her hands
clasped, looking out, alone.
"Where is
she?" Seaton asked in a low tone.
Alice looked up; their
eyes met in a kind of instantaneous understanding, and the door immediately
afterwards opened behind us.
"Such a
moon!" said a voice that, once heard, remained unforgettably on the ear.
"A night for lovers, Mr. Withers, if ever there was one. Get a shawl, my
dear Arthur, and take Alice for a little promenade. I dare say we old cronies
will manage to keep awake. Hasten, hasten, Romeo! My poor, poor Alice, how
laggard a lover!"
Seaton returned with a
shawl. They drifted out into the moonlight. My companion gazed after them till
they were out of hearing, turned to me gravely, and suddenly twisted her white
face into such a convulsion of contemptuous amusement that I could only stare
blankly in reply.
"Dear innocent
children!" she said, with inimitable unctuousness. "Well, well, Mr.
Withers, we poor seasoned old creatures must move with the times. Do you
sing?"
I scouted the idea.
"Then you must listen
to my playing. Chess"—she clasped her forehead with both cramped
hands—"chess is now completely beyond my poor wits."
She sat down at the
piano and ran her fingers in a flourish over the keys. "What shall it be?
How shall we capture them, those passionate hearts? That first fine careless
rapture? Poetry itself." She gazed softly into the garden a moment, and
presently, with a shake of her body, began to play the opening bars of
Beethoven's "Moonlight" Sonata. The piano was old and woolly. She
played without music. The lamplight was rather dim. The moonbeams from the
window lay across the keys. Her head was in shadow. And whether it was simply
due to her personality or to some really occult skill in her playing I cannot
say: I only know that she gravely and deliberately set herself to satirise the
beautiful music. It brooded on the air, disillusioned, charged with mockery and
bitterness. I stood at the window; far down the path I could see the white
figure glimmering in that pool of colourless light. A few faint stars shone;
and still that amazing woman behind me dragged out of the unwilling keys her
wonderful grotesquerie of youth and love and beauty. It came to an end. I knew
the player was watching me. "Please, please, go on!" I murmured, without
turning. "Please go on playing, Miss Seaton."
No answer was returned
to my rather fluttering sarcasm, but I knew in some indefinite way that I was
being acutely scrutinised, when suddenly there followed a procession of quiet,
plaintive chords which broke at last softly into the hymn, A Few More
Years Shall Roll.
I confess it held me
spellbound. There is a wistful strained, plangent pathos in the tune; but
beneath those masterly old hands it cried softly and bitterly the solitude and
desperate estrangement of the world. Arthur and his lady-love vanished from my
thoughts. No one could put into a rather hackneyed old hymn-tune such an appeal
who had never known the meaning of the words. Their meaning, anyhow, isn't
commonplace. I turned very cautiously and glanced at the musician. She was
leaning forward a little over the keys, so that at the approach of my cautious
glance she had but to turn her face into the thin flood of moonlight for every
feature to become distinctly visible. And so, with the tune abruptly terminated,
we steadfastly regarded one another, and she broke into a chuckle of laughter.
"Not quite so
seasoned as I supposed, Mr. Withers. I see you are a real lover of music. To me
it is too painful. It evokes too much thought...."
I could scarcely see her
little glittering eyes under their penthouse lids.
"And now," she
broke off crisply, "tell me, as a man of the world, what do you think of
my new niece?"
I was not a man of the
world, nor was I much flattered in my stiff and dullish way of looking at
things by being called one; and I could answer her without the least
hesitation.
"I don't think,
Miss Seaton, I'm much of a judge of character. She's very charming."
"A brunette?"
"I think I prefer
dark women."
"And why? Consider,
Mr. Withers; dark hair, dark eyes, dark cloud, dark night, dark vision, dark
death, dark grave, dark DARK!"
Perhaps the climax would
have rather thrilled Seaton, but I was too thick-skinned. "I don't know
much about all that," I answered rather pompously. "Broad daylight's
difficult enough for most of us."
"Ah," she
said, with a sly inward burst of satirical laughter.
"And I
suppose," I went on, perhaps a little nettled, "it isn't the actual
darkness one admires, its the contrast of the skin, and the colour of the eyes,
and—and their shining. Just as," I went blundering on, too late to turn
back, "just as you only see the stars in the dark. It would be a long day
without any evening. As for death and the grave, I don't suppose we shall much
notice that." Arthur and his sweetheart were slowly returning along the
dewy path. "I believe in making the best of things."
"How very
interesting!" came the smooth answer. "I see you are a philosopher,
Mr. Withers. H'm! 'As for death and the grave, I don't suppose we shall much
notice that.' Very interesting.... And I'm sure," she added in a
particularly suave voice, "I profoundly hope so." She rose slowly
from her stool. "You will take pity on me again, I hope. You and I would
get on famously—kindred spirits—elective affinities. And, of course, now that
my nephew's going to leave me, now that his affections are centred on another,
I shall be a very lonely old woman.... Shall I not, Arthur?"
Seaton blinked stupidly.
"I didn't hear what you said, Aunt."
"I was telling our
old friend, Arthur, that when you are gone I shall be a very lonely old
woman."
"Oh, I don't think
so;" he said in a strange voice.
"He means, Mr.
Withers, he means, my dear child," she said, sweeping her eyes over Alice,
"he means that I shall have memory for company—heavenly memory—the ghosts
of other days. Sentimental boy! And did you enjoy our music, Alice? Did I
really stir that youthful heart?... O, O, O," continued the horrible old
creature, "you billers and cooers, I have been listening to such
flatteries, such confessions! Beware, beware, Arthur, there's many a
slip." She rolled her little eyes at me, she shrugged her shoulders at
Alice, and gazed an instant stonily into her nephew's face.
I held out my hand.
"Good night, good night!" she cried. "'He that fights and runs
away.' Ah, good night, Mr. Withers; come again soon!" She thrust out her
cheek at Alice, and we all three filed slowly out of the room.
Black shadow darkened
the porch and half the spreading sycamore. We walked without speaking up the
dusty village street. Here and there a crimson window glowed. At the fork of
the high-road I said good-bye. But I had taken hardly more than a dozen paces
when a sudden impulse seized me.
"Seaton!" I
called.
He turned in the
moonlight.
"You have my
address; if by any chance, you know, you should care to spend a week or two in
town between this and the—the Day, we should be delighted to see you."
"Thank you,
Withers, thank you," he said in a low voice.
"I dare say"—I
waved my stick gallantly to Alice—"I dare say you will be doing some shopping;
we could all meet," I added, laughing.
"Thank you, thank
you, Withers—immensely;" he repeated.
And so we parted.
But they were out of the
jog-trot of my prosaic life. And being of a stolid and incurious nature, I left
Seaton and his marriage, and even his aunt, to themselves in my memory, and
scarcely gave a thought to them until one day I was walking up the Strand
again, and passed the flashing gloaming of the covered-in jeweller's shop where
I had accidentally encountered my old schoolfellow in the summer. It was one of
those still close autumnal days after a rainy night. I cannot say why, but a
vivid recollection returned to my mind of our meeting and of how suppressed
Seaton had seemed, and of how vainly he had endeavoured to appear assured and eager.
He must be married by now, and had doubtless returned from his honeymoon. And I
had clean forgotten my manners, had sent not a word of congratulation, nor—as I
might very well have done, and as I knew he would have been immensely pleased
at my doing—the ghost of a wedding-present.
On the other hand, I
pleaded with myself, I had had no invitation. I paused at the corner of
Trafalgar Square, and at the bidding of one of those caprices that seize
occasionally on even an unimaginative mind, I suddenly ran after a green 'bus
that was passing, and found myself bound on a visit I had not in the least
foreseen.
All the colours of
autumn were over the village when I arrived. A beautiful late afternoon
sunlight bathed thatch and meadow. But it was close and hot. A child, two dogs,
a very old woman with a heavy basket I encountered. One or two incurious
tradesmen looked idly up as I passed by. It was all so rural and so still, my
whimsical impulse had so much flagged, that for a while I hesitated to venture
under the shadow of the sycamore-tree to enquire after the happy pair. I
deliberately passed by the faint-blue gates and continued my walk under the
high green and tufted wall. Hollyhocks had attained their topmost bud and
seeded in the little cottage gardens beyond; the Michaelmas daisies were in
flower; a sweet warm aromatic smell of fading leaves was in the air. Beyond the
cottages lay a field where cattle were grazing, and beyond that I came to a
little churchyard. Then the road wound on, pathless and houseless, among gorse
and bracken. I turned impatiently and walked quickly back to the house and rang
the bell.
The rather colourless
elderly woman who answered my enquiry informed me that Miss Seaton was at home,
as if only taciturnity forbade her adding, "But she doesn't want to
see you."
"Might I, do you
think, have Mr. Arthur's address?" I said.
She looked at me with
quiet astonishment, as if waiting for an explanation. Not the faintest of
smiles came into her thin face.
"I will tell Miss
Seaton," she said after a pause. "Please walk in."
She showed me into the
dingy undusted drawing-room, filled with evening sunshine and the green-dyed
light that penetrated the leaves overhanging the long French windows. I sat
down and waited on and on, occasionally aware of a creaking footfall overhead.
At last the door opened a little, and the great face I had once known peered
round at me. For it was enormously changed; mainly, I think, because the old
eyes had rather suddenly failed, and so a kind of stillness and darkness lay
over its calm and wrinkled pallor.
"Who is it?"
she asked.
I explained myself and
told her the occasion of my visit.
She came in and shut the
door carefully after her and, though the fumbling was scarcely perceptible,
groped her way to a chair. She had on an old dressing-gown, like a cassock, of
a patterned cinnamon colour.
"What is it you
want?" she said, seating herself and lifting her blank face to mine.
"Might I just have
Arthur's address?" I said deferentially. "I am so sorry to have
disturbed you."
"H'm. You have come
to see my nephew?"
"Not necessarily to
see him, only to hear how he is, and, of course, Mrs. Seaton too. I am afraid
my silence must have appeared...."
"He hasn't noticed
your silence," croaked the old voice out of the great mask; "besides,
there isn't any Mrs. Seaton."
"Ah, then," I
answered, after a momentary pause, "I have not seemed so black as I
painted myself! And how is Miss Outram?"
"She's gone into
Yorkshire," answered Seaton's aunt.
"And Arthur
too?"
She did not reply, but
simply sat blinking at me with lifted chin, as if listening, but certainly not
for what I might have to say. I began to feel rather at a loss.
"You were no close
friend of my nephew's, Mr. Smithers?" she said presently.
"No," I
answered, welcoming the cue, "and yet, do you know, Miss Seaton, he is one
of the very few of my old schoolfellows I have come across in the last few
years, and I suppose as one gets older one begins to value old
associations...." My voice seemed to trail off into a vacuum. "I
thought Miss Outram," I hastily began again, "a particularly charming
girl. I hope they are both quite well."
Still the old face
solemnly blinked at me in silence.
"You must find it
very lonely, Miss Seaton, with Arthur away?"
"I was never lonely
in my life," she said sourly. "I don't look to flesh and blood for my
company. When you've got to be my age, Mr. Smithers (which God forbid), you'll
find life a very different affair from what you seem to think it is now. You
won't seek company then, I'll be bound. It's thrust on you." Her face
edged round into the clear green light, and her eyes, as it were, groped over
my vacant, disconcerted face. "I dare say, now," she said, composing
her mouth, "I dare say my nephew told you a good many tarradiddles in his
time. Oh, yes, a good many, eh? He was always a liar. What, now, did he say of
me? Tell me, now." She leant forward as far as she could, trembling, with
an ingratiating smile.
"I think he is
rather superstitious," I said coldly, "but, honestly, I have a very
poor memory, Miss Seaton."
"Why?" she
said. "I haven't."
"The engagement
hasn't been broken off, I hope."
"Well, between you
and me," she said, shrinking up and with an immensely confidential
grimace, "it has."
"I'm sure I'm very
sorry to hear it. And where is Arthur?"
"Eh?"
"Where is
Arthur?"
We faced each other
mutely among the dead old bygone furniture. Past all my scrutiny was that
large, flat, grey, cryptic countenance. And then, suddenly, our eyes for the
first time, really met. In some indescribable way out of that thick-lidded
obscurity a far small something stooped and looked out at me for a mere instant
of time that seemed of almost intolerable protraction. Involuntarily I blinked
and shook my head. She muttered something with great rapidity, but quite inarticulately;
rose and hobbled to the door. I thought I heard, mingled in broken mutterings,
something about tea.
"Please, please,
don't trouble," I began, but could say no more, for the door was already
shut between us. I stood and looked out on the long-neglected garden. I could
just see the bright greenness of Seaton's old tadpole pond. I wandered about
the room. Dusk began to gather, the last birds in that dense shadowiness of
trees had ceased to sing. And not a sound was to be heard in the house. I waited
on and on, vainly speculating. I even attempted to ring the bell; but the wire
was broken, and only jangled loosely at my efforts.
I hesitated, unwilling
to call or to venture out, and yet more unwilling to linger on, waiting for a
tea that promised to be an exceedingly comfortless supper. And as darkness drew
down, a feeling of the utmost unease and disquietude came over me. All my talks
with Seaton returned on me with a suddenly enriched meaning. I recalled again
his face as we had stood hanging over the staircase, listening in the small
hours to the inexplicable stirrings of the night. There were no candles in the
room; every minute the autumnal darkness deepened. I cautiously opened the door
and listened, and with some little dismay withdrew, for I was uncertain of my
way out. I even tried the garden, but was confronted under a veritable thicket
of foliage by a padlocked gate. It would be a little too ignominious to be
caught scaling a friend's garden fence!
Cautiously returning
into the still and musty drawing-room, I took out my watch and gave the
incredible old woman ten minutes in which to reappear. And when that tedious
ten minutes had ticked by I could scarcely distinguish its hands. I determined
to wait no longer, drew open the door, and, trusting to my sense of direction,
groped my way through the corridor that I vaguely remembered led to the front
of the house.
I mounted three or four
stairs and, lifting a heavy curtain, found myself facing the starry fanlight of
the porch. Hence I glanced into the gloom of the dining-room. My fingers were
on the latch of the outer door when I heard a faint stirring in the darkness
above the hall. I looked up and became conscious of, rather than saw, the
huddled old figure looking down on me.
There was an immense hushed
pause. Then, "Arthur, Arthur," whispered an inexpressively peevish,
rasping voice, "is that you? Is that you, Arthur?"
I can scarcely say why,
but the question horribly startled me. No conceivable answer occurred to me.
With head craned back, hand clenched on my umbrella, I continued to stare up
into the gloom, in this fatuous confrontation.
"Oh, oh;" the
voice croaked. "It is you, is it? That disgusting man!...
Go away out. Go away out."
Hesitating no longer, I
caught open the door and, slamming it behind me, ran out into the garden, under
the gigantic old sycamore, and so out at the open gate.
I found myself half up
the village street before I stopped running. The local butcher was sitting in
his shop reading a piece of newspaper by the light of a small oil-lamp. I
crossed the road and enquired the way to the station. And after he had with
minute and needless care directed me, I asked casually if Mr. Arthur Seaton
still lived with his aunt at the big house just beyond the village. He poked
his head in at the little parlour door.
"Here's a gentleman
enquiring after young Mr. Seaton, Millie," he said. "He's dead, ain't
he?"
"Why, yes, bless
you," replied a cheerful voice from within. "Dead and buried these
three months or more—young Mr. Seaton. And just before he was to be married,
don't you remember, Bob?"
I saw a fair young
woman's face peer over the muslin of the little door at me.
"Thank you," I
replied, "then I go straight on?"
"That's it, sir;
past the pond, bear up the hill a bit to the left, and then there's the station
lights before your eyes."
We looked intelligently
into each other's faces in the beam of the smoky lamp. But not one of the many
questions in my mind could I put into words.
And again I paused
irresolutely a few paces further on. It was not, I fancy, merely a foolish
apprehension of what the raw-boned butcher might "think" that
prevented my going back to see if I could find Seaton's grave in the benighted
churchyard. There was precious little use in pottering about in the muddy dark merely
to find where he was buried. And yet I felt a little uneasy. My rather horrible
thought was that, so far as I was concerned—one of his esteemed few friends—he
had never been much better than "buried" in my mind.
9.THE REAPER by DOROTHY EASTON
(From The English Review) 1922
Milgate is a rich
farmer, owning his own machines; not like those poorer, smaller men who hire an
engine from a neighbour. He has his reaping machine, a red and yellow
"Walter Wood" Cleveland brand. Every morning now, as soon as it's dry
enough, about nine o'clock, the engine starts, and from the farmer's Manor
House its heavy, drowsy sounds are heard. For those on the machine the noise is
harder. The only human sound that penetrates it is the old conductor's
"Ohoy!" to the driver if the canvas sticks, or if weeds are making a
"block." Then the young man in front slows his engine down, and wipes
his forehead with his hand. Reaping goes on until nine at night.
No strange workman sits
on the reaper, but one of Milgate's best men, the most trustworthy, most
faithful—the waggoner; a man well over sixty, with side-whiskers, grey eyes, a
long nose, and forehead and chin carved out of granite. On his head a flat
"wide-awake" hat, on his bent back a white jacket. When he speaks,
his mouth moves sideways first; there's always a spot of dried blood on his
lip; when he smiles a tooth-stump appears like an ancient fossil. He talks
slowly, stopping to spit now and then; every day of his life he gets up at
half-past three. Now, mounted on the high iron seat (a crumpled sack for
saddle), he rides like some old charioteer, a Hercules with great bowed back,
head jutting out, chin straight; a hard, weathered look about his face, and in
his heart disgust—this year, for the first time, they are using a motor engine
to pull the reaper round instead of horses. He lives for his horses; he's the
"Waggoner," they are his "job;" if one falls ill, he sleeps
with it. He believes in horses; but, speaking of the motor, he says:
"She's arlraight—when she's arlraight!" with a look which ends the
sentence for him! In his youth he had reaped with a scythe.
This "Walter
Wood" is a neat arrangement, you can't deny that; one bit of mechanism
works as a divider, while a big, light kind of wooden windmill arrangement, continually
revolving, beats the corn down into a flat pan from which it's carried, on a
canvas slide, up an incline, then shot over and down the other side in one
continual long, flat stream like yellow matting. And then the needle, the
"threadle" as he calls it, nips in somewhere, binding the flat mass
into separate, neat, round sheaves, pitched out every few moments with perfect
precision by a three-pronged iron fork. Above the one big, heavy central wheel
the charioteer is shaken and jolted from nine till nine. In front, on another
iron seat by the boxlike engine, the driver works. Behind runs a red-faced
labourer "clearing corners." The motor has to run out the full length
of its cogged iron wheel bands before it can turn, and sheaves dropped on the
last round get in the way; so at each corner they have to be lifted and set
back. The labourer "clears," then runs after the machine—now half-way
up the field—stops at the next corner, stoops once more to lift and shift three
sheaves, then runs again.
This labourer was a man
of forty with a face as naïve as a boy of fifteen. Though getting bald, his
eyes were young; his mouth loose, untrained as a child's. He's
"touched," as we say, and had never really grown up. He slept in an
attic, ate in a kitchen, and worked, but was not "responsible;" he
was always given "light jobs"—walking with the "clappers,"
weeding, cleaning sties, "clearing." His greatest friend was a boy of
twelve; on Sundays they'd laugh for an hour at nothing. Going to the coast for
the first time last year, he was so taken by a Punch and Judy show that he
never saw the sea. His smile was the most ridiculous thing in the world. He
blushed continually, panted, grinned like some boy caught kissing, and was
always apologetic. Lightning made him hide his head, and he was afraid of
engines—their regularity upset him. Running behind the reaper—this
quick-moving, noisy thing smelling of oil, made up of sliding chains—appalled
him; there were five wheels at an angle, and all the time an oil-wet, black,
flat, chain-band ran round over them! Underneath, the heavy central wheel ran
round and round! To the imbecile the waggoner's courage appeared supernatural.
There should have been
another man to take two corners, but all hands were wanted; so the labourer had
to run all day. It was hot, no wind, no shade. If he looked up for a moment,
the hills and distant elms appeared bright blue. The big field itself was
ablaze with colour; wheat like brown burnt amber, poppies, small white daisies,
thistles. When the engine stopped the only sounds were plaintive, anxious
bird-calls from the centre of the field; sometimes a rabbit or a hare looked
out, then bolted back. Once five graceful, sleek, brown pheasants ran out
towards the hedge, then lost their nerve, turned and went running back. The sun
shone steadily; sheaves picked up by the labourer made his hands smell oily,
their string band raised a blister on his forefinger. Very often he grabbed
hold of nettles and sharp thistles, and the backs of his hands were swollen and
covered with stings. Blue butterflies twirled in front of his face, pale moths
flew out. When his hat fell off he had no time to get it. The sweat ran down
his egg-shaped forehead to his long, square, hairy chin (though he could shave
himself on Sundays, he looked a little like a monkey).
When the engine stuck,
the waggoner asked in his slow, flat voice:
"Woan't she
speak?"
"She's not comin'
out!" was the youth's reply.
Once the driver was
thrown up a foot when the motor went over a hole. He yelled: "Men are
often killed by the reaper." The imbecile got the startled look of a child
seeing snakes at the Zoo. Each time the engine snorted, or the waggoner called
out "Ohoy!" a spurt of sweat ran down his spine; the blood was
beating in his head; the sun shone mercilessly on his pale, bald patch; the
field began to bounce before his eyes, bloodshot from stooping. When yards of
bindweed shackled the machinery, the waggoner just turned his head—a sign—for
the labourer, who had to run, had to catch and tear away the long green chains
full of small pink flowers.
By four o'clock they
were overtaking him before he got round; the driver had to turn more sharply,
the canvas stuck.
"Doan you do that
agen!" the old waggoner scolded with stern eye; "you'll tourn us
oover!"
The engine stuck when
they tried to start again; for half an hour the young driver tinkered with
tools from the box, unscrewing small oily "nuts," testing
"wires," feeling "levers," and in desperation wiping his
black, dripping hands on his hair. Twenty times he turned the "starting
handle," but "she wouldn't speak!" Then, suddenly, with a sound
like a pistol-shot, the engine "fired," the machine ran backwards,
upsetting the labourer, and before he could move, the central wheel ran over
his ankles.
When the imbecile came
to himself they were still at the corner, his feet were tied up in a jacket, he
was suffering horribly, yet seemed unable to focus it; but seeing the red and
yellow reaper standing close beside his head, some memory soaked his face with
sweat; he fainted.
Brandy was fetched; they
had lifted him on to a hurdle when he recovered again. The whole group were
still at the corner. His employer stood there, stout, well-dressed, and
anxious, in his grey felt hat, dark coat and trousers; the driver stood there,
too, and the old waggoner. Corn was still "up" in the middle of the
field. The labourer looked surprised at seeing sky before him; as a rule when
he stared he saw fields. He turned his face; the men watching saw his round,
boyish eyes project at sight of something red and wet and sticky (like the mess
they made out sheep-killing) splashed on the stubble, while two broken boots
lay oozing the same stuff in a large pool of it. Following this look, the old
waggoner said slowly:
"Eh, me boy, they'm
youers...." Tears were running down his stiff, dried cheeks.
"How d'you
feel?" asked the farmer. His labourer blushed, then whispered to the
waggoner:
"What's 'appened,
Mister Collard?"
"Why, you've
a-loarst your feet."
For yet another minute
the imbecile lay panting, shy, self-conscious under his master's eye—until an
idea struck him; once more whispering to the waggoner, he said:
"'Elp me oop. I'll
get 'ome, Willy."
"You carn't
walk," said the old man simply. "You carn't walk no moar."
Black hairs stiffened suddenly
on the idiot's chin; he had understood that in those bleeding, mangled boots
his feet were lying; he began to cry. But then, catching sight of his master,
smiled as though to apologise——
10.THE SONG by MAY EDGINTON
(From Lloyd's Story Magazine) 1922
Charlie had no true vice
in him. All the same, a man may be overtaxed, over-harassed, over-routined,
over-driven, over-pricked, over-preached and over-starved right up to the edge;
and then the fascination of the big space below may easily pull him over.
But his wife's uncle's
assertion that he must always, inwardly, have been naturally wild and bad, was
as wrong as such assertions usually are, for he was no more truly vicious than
his youngest baby was.
On the warm evening when
he came home on that fateful autumn day, Charlie had been pushed, in the course
of years, right up to the edge, and was looking into the abyss, though he was
hardly aware of it, so well had he been disciplined. He emerged from a
third-class carriage of the usual train without an evening paper because his
wife had shown him the decency of cutting down small personal expenses, and
next morning's papers would have the same news in anyway; he walked home up the
suburban road for the four thousandth five hundredth and fiftieth time; entered
quietly not to disturb the baby; rubbed his boots on the mat; answered his wife
brightly and manfully; washed his hands in cold water—the hot water being saved
for the baby's bath and the washing-up in the evenings—and sat down to about
the four thousandth five hundredth and fiftieth cold supper.
His wife said she was
tired and seemed proud of it.
"But never
mind," she said, "one must expect to be tired." He went on
eating without verbally questioning her; it was an assertion to which she
always held firmly. But in his soul something stirred vaguely, as if mutinous
currents fretted there.
"I have been
thinking," she said, "that you really ought not to buy that new suit
you were considering if Maud is to go to a better school next term. I have been
looking over your pepper-and-salt, and there are those people who turn suits
like new. You can have that done."
"But——" he
murmured.
"We ought not to
think of ourselves," she added.
"I never
have," said Charlie in rather a low voice.
"We ought to give a
little subscription to the Parish Magazine," she continued. "The
Vicar is calling round for extra subscriptions."
Charlie nodded. He was
wishing he knew the football results in the evening paper.
His wife served a rice
shape. She doled out jam with a careful hand and a measuring eye. "We
ought to see about the garden gate," she said.
"I'll mend it on
Saturday," Charlie replied.
"I was
thinking," she said presently, "that we ought to ask Uncle Henry and
Aunt round soon. They will be expecting it."
Charlie put his spoon
and fork together, hesitated and then replied slowly: "Life is nothing but
'ought.' 'Ought' to do this: 'Ought' to do that."
His wife looked at him,
astonished. He could see that she was grieved—or rather, aggrieved—at his
glimmer of anarchy.
"Of course,"
she explained at last. "People can't have what they like. There's one's
duty to do. Life isn't for enjoyment, Charlie. It's given to us ... it is given
to us...."
As she paused to
crystallise an idea, Charlie cut in.
"Yes," he
said, "it is given to us.... What for?"
He leaned his head on
his hand. He was not looking at her. He was looking at the cloth, weaving
patterns upon it. And with this question something of boyhood came upon him
again, and he weaved visions upon the cloth.
"To do one's duty in,"
she replied gently, but rebukingly.
Charlie did not know the
classic phrase, "Cui bono." He merely repeated:
"What for?"
After supper he helped
her to wash up, for the daily help left early in the afternoon; and then he
asked her, idle as he knew the question to be, if she would like to come for a
walk—just a short walk up the road.
She shook her head.
"I ought not to leave the children."
"They're in
bed," he argued, "and Maud's big enough to look after the others for
half-an-hour. Maud's twelve."
She shook her head.
"I ought not to leave the house."
"But," he
began slowly.
"I am not the kind
of woman who leaves her house and children in the evenings," she said
gently, but finally.
Charlie took his hat. He
turned it round and round in his hands, pinching the crown in, and punching it
out. He had a curious, almost uncontrollable wish to cry. For a moment it was
terrible. Before it was over, she was speaking again.
"You ought not to
mess your hats about like that; they don't last half as long."
Charlie went out.
He knew other men who
were as puzzled about life as himself, but mostly they were of cruder stuff,
and if things at home went beyond their bearing they flung out of their houses,
swearing, and went to play a hundred up at the local club. Then they were
philosophers again. But for Charlie this evening there was no philosophy big
enough, for he was looking, though he did not know it, over the edge of that
awful, but enchanting abyss. Its depths were obscured by rolling clouds of
mist, and it was only this mist which he now saw, terrifying and confusing him.
He was a little man, and knew it. He was a poor man, and knew it. He was a
weary man, and knew it. He hated his wife, and knew it. He hated his
children—whom she had made like herself, prim, peeking and childishly
censorious—and knew it.
He had not meant it to
be like this at all.
When he got married she
was the starched daughter of starched parents from a starched small house—like
the one he came from—but she was young, and her figure was pliant, and her hair
curled rather sweetly.
He had dreamed of happy
days, cosy days with laughter; little treats together—Soho restaurants,
Richmond Park, something colourful, something for which he had vaguely and
secretly longed all the dingy, narrow, church-parading, humbugging days of his
good little boyhood. But he soon woke up to find he had married another hard
holy woman like his mother.
He walked along,
thinking mistily and hotly. Supposing he had a baby who roared with joy and
stole the sugar ... but she wouldn't have babies like that. The first coherent
thing her babies learned to say was a text.
Babies.... He hadn't
wanted three, because they couldn't afford them. He tried to talk to her about
it. She made him ashamed of himself, though he didn't know why; and showed him
how wicked he was, though he didn't know why; and how good she was, though he
didn't know why—then. But he knew now that there are still many women who are
gluttons for martyrdom, who long to exalt themselves by a parrot righteousness,
and who are only happy when destroying natural joy in others. And he knew there
were many men like himself, married and done for; tied up to these pettifogging
saints; goaded under their stupid yoke; belittled through their narrow eyes.
He thought all this mistily
and hotly.
He had come to the end
of the road; and the end of another road more populous; and the end of another
road, more populous.
At a corner of this road
stood Kitty.
She was soft and
colourful, painted to a perfect peachiness, young—twenty-four and looking less;
old as the world and wise. She was gay. She did not much care if it snowed; she
knew enough to wriggle in somewhere, somehow, out of it. The years had not yet
scared her. She was joy.
Charlie paused before he
knew why. She looked at him. Then the mists rolled away from the abyss below
the tottering edge on which he had been balanced for longer time than he
guessed, and he saw the garden far below; lotus flowers dreaming in the sun. He
launched himself simply into space towards them.
Kitty helped him. She
knew how.
Charlie had, as it
happened, his next week's personal allowance of seven and sixpence in his
pocket—for to-day had been pay day; and his season ticket. The rest he had
handed over to his wife at supper time. He had also, however, the moral support
of knowing that he had in the savings bank the exact amount of his sickness and
life insurance premiums due that very week. So it did not embarrass him to take
Kitty straight away up to town—she, making a shrewd summary of him, did not object
to third-class travelling—and to stand her coffee and a sandwich at the Monico.
"I don't happen to
have much change on me, and my bank's closed," was the explanation he
offered, and she tactfully accepted of this modest entertainment.
It was ten-thirty when
she took him to see her tiny flat a stone's throw away. She was looking for
another supporter for that flat, and explained her reason for being in
Charlie's suburb that evening. She'd been trying to find the house of a man
friend—a rich friend—who lived there, and might have helped her over a
temporary difficulty, but when she found the house the servants told her he was
away. She confided these things, leaning in Charlie's arms on a little striped
divan by a gas fire. She made him a drink, and showed him the cunning and
luxurious little contrivances for comfort about the flat. He loved it. She
didn't try to conceal from him her real vocation, for that would have been too
silly. Even Charlie might not have been such a fool as to believe her. But she invested
it with glamour; she made of it romance. Once more as in boyhood he saw the
world full of allurement.
So he went home, having
promised her that to-morrow he would come again.
And going in quietly, so
as not to disturb the baby, he undressed quietly so as not to disturb his wife,
and he crept cautiously into the double bed that she decreed they must share
for ever and ever, whatever their feelings towards one another, because they
were married; and he hoped to fall asleep with enchantment unbroken. But she
was awake, and waiting patiently to speak. "Where have you been,
Charlie?"
"At the club,"
he whispered back. "Watching two fellows play a billiard match."
She sighed.
"Charlie," she
said, "you ought to have more consideration for me. Maudie said to me when
I went in to look at them before I came to bed: 'Is daddy still out?' she said.
'I do think he ought not to go out and leave you alone, mamma.' She's such a
sweet child, Charlie, and I do think you ought to think more of her. Children
often say little things in the innocence of their hearts that do even us
grown-up people good sometimes."
So the next morning
Charlie left home with a suit-case—alleged to contain the one suit for turning,
but really crammed to bursting. His wife being busy with the baby, Maud saw him
off with her usual air of smug reproof; and that evening he did not come back.
He had written a letter to his wife, on the journey to town, telling her his
decision, which she would receive by the afternoon post. But he gave her no
address.
He drew out the whole
amount in the savings bank, surrendered his life insurance, realising £160; and
he went home after the day's work to Kitty.
Little Kitty was looking
for any kind of mug, pending better developments, and she certainly had found
one; but what a happy mug he was! Life was warm and light, gay and uncritical.
He spent even less on his own lunches—he retained his seven and sixpence weekly
personal allowance, though of course he posted the rest of his salary home—so
that he might have an extra half-crown or so to buy chocolates for Kitty. It
was nice to buy chocolates instead of subscribing to the Vicar's Fund. And
little Kitty, who was wise, guessed he hadn't much and couldn't afford her
long, so pending better things, like a sensible person, she eked him out.
She made him so happy.
They laughed. She sang—
I'm for
ever blowing bubbles,
Pretty
bubbles in the air.
They fly
so high, nearly reach the sky....
She had a gramophone and
she taught him to dance, and then he had to take her to the best dancing place
he could afford and they danced a long evening through. He bought her a
wonderful little woollen frock at one of the small French shops in Shaftesbury
Avenue, and she looked exactly what she was in it; and he knew she was the most
wonderful thing in the world. When he propounded the frock question to her one
morning when they woke up, saying: "I would like to see you in a dress I'd
bought, Kitty," she did not tell him it was wrong to consider themselves,
and she would have her old black turned. She put a dear fat little arm round
his neck, laid a soft selfish cheek to his, and muttered cosily, "It shall
buy her a frock then. It shall."
She was sporting enough
not to protest when she knew where his weekly pay went. "Three kids must
be fed," she said. In fact, according to her own codes, she was not
ungenerous towards the other woman.
All the while he knew:
£160 can't last. What will happen when...?
Charlie's wife thought
she was sure of what must happen pretty soon. So did her Uncle Henry and Aunt,
for whom she had sent a day or two after the blow had fallen.
They found her cutting
down Maud's oldest dress for the second child in her tidy house.
"Charlie has left
me for an immoral woman," she said, after preparing them with
preliminaries.
"What!" said
Uncle Henry. He was a churchwarden at the church to which Charlie, in a bowler
hat, had had to take the critical Maud on Sundays.
"Fancy
leaving that!" said Aunt, when they had digested and credited
the news. She pointed at her niece sewing diligently even through this painful
conversation. "Look at her scraping and economising and contriving. And he
leaves her!"
"He must be
naturally wild and bad," said Uncle Henry. "Shall I speak to the
Vicar for you?"
"Have you written
to his firm?" asked Aunt.
Charlie's wife spoke
wisely, gently, and with perfection as ever. "No," she said. "I
have thought it over, and I think the best thing, for the children's sake, is
to say nothing. We ought not to consider ourselves. Besides, I dare say it's my
duty to forgive him."
"Always thinking of
your duty!" murmured Aunt admiringly.
"If I wrote to his
firm about it," said Charlie's wife, "they would dismiss him."
"Ah! and he sends
you his pay, you say?" said Uncle Henry, seizing the point like a business
man.
"What a position
for a conscientious woman like you!" mourned Aunt.
"You are quite
right, my dear," said Uncle Henry. "You have three children and no
other means of sustenance, and you cannot afford to do as I should otherwise
advise you."
"Besides, he will
come back," said Charlie's wife gently. "Men are soon sickened of
these women."
"Of course,"
agreed Aunt.
"Well! Well!"
said Uncle Henry, "you are very magnanimous, my dear, and one day Charles
will fully appreciate it. And I hope he will be duly thankful to you for your
great goodness. Yes! You will soon have Master Charles creeping back, very
ashamed of himself, and when he comes, I for one, intend to give him the
biggest talking to he has ever had in his life. But I really think the Vicar
too, should be told, in confidence, so that he may decide upon the right course
of action for himself."
"Because he could
not allow your husband to communicate, my love," said Aunt, "without
being sure of his genuine repentance."
"I have been
thinking of that too," said Charlie's wife. "It would not be
right."
"I wonder what he
feels about himself, when he remembers his dear little children," said
Aunt. "Maud nearly old enough to understand, and all!"
So they lay for Charlie,
while he basked and thrived in the abyss of the lotus-flower; and the £160
dwindled.
It was towards the end
of the second month that Charlie sensed a new element in his precarious dream.
All day when he was out, thinking of Kitty through the routine of his work, he
had no idea of what she was doing. Sometimes he was afraid to think of what she
might be doing, and for fear of shattering the dream, he never dared to ask.
Always she was sweet and joyful towards him—save for petulant quarrels she
raised as if to make the ensuing sweetness and joyfulness the dearer—until
towards the close of the second month. Then one evening she was distrait; one
evening, critical; one night, cold; then she had a dinner and dance engagement
at the Savoy. Then he knew that his time had come.
He waited up for her. He
had the gas fire lighted in the tiny sitting-room, and little sugary cakes and
wine on the table; and the gas fire lighted in the bedroom to warm it for her,
and the bed turned down, and her nightgown and slippers, so frail, warming
before the fire.
But he knew.
In the early dawn her
key clicked in the lock, and she came in, followed by a man. He was pale,
sensual, moneyed, fashionable. Charlie got up stoutly; but he was already
beaten.
The Jew looked at him,
and turned to Kitty.
"I told you,"
she said, stammering a little, "I told you how it was. By to-morrow ... I
told you...."
"I'll come again,
to-morrow, then," said the man very meaningly, "fetch you out——"
"At eight,"
she nodded firmly.
He kissed her on the
mouth, while Charlie stood looking at them with eyes that seemed to stare
themselves out of his head, turned and went out.
"Nighty-night!"
Kitty called after him.
After the front door
clicked again there was a moment's silence. Kitty advanced, shook off her
cloak, took up one of the sugary cakes, and began to munch it. She looked
beautiful and careless and sorry and hard all at once.
"What are you
sitting up for, Charlie?" she asked. "I didn't expect to see you. I
brought that fellow in to talk."
"What about?"
said Charlie in a hoarse desolate voice.
"Charlie," said
Kitty, hurriedly, "you know this arrangement of ours can't last, now, can
it, dear? You haven't the cash for one thing, dear. Now, have you? And I've got
to think of myself a little; a girl's got to provide. You've been awf'ly good
to me. Let's part friends."
"'Part!'" he
repeated.
His eyes seemed to start
from his head.
"Let's part
friends," wheedled Kitty. "Shall us?"
The night passed in a
kind of evil vision of desolation, and Kitty was asleep long before he had
stopped his futile whisperings into her ear.
Before he went to the
office in the morning, he asked her from a breaking heart: "You mean
it?"
"I've got to,"
she explained. She cried easily. "Dearie, you'll leave peaceably? You
won't make a row? Now, for my sake! To oblige me! While you're out to-day I'll
pack your suit-case and give it to the hall-porter for you to call for. Shall
I, Charlie? Kiss me, dear. Don't take your latch-key. Good-bye. You've been
awfully decent to me. We'll part friends, shall us?"
He kissed her, and went
out to work, speaking no more. He had said all the things in his heart during
the hours of that sleepless dawn. She knew how he loved her ... though possibly
she didn't quite believe. He realised her position acutely, perhaps more
acutely than his own. She had to live. And yet....
He had taken his
latch-key the same as usual, and he found himself at the end of the day, going
the same as usual to the tiny flat that was home if ever there was any place
called home. He let himself in noiselessly. The little hall was dark. He stood
in a corner against the coat cupboard. The flat was silent. He stood there a
long while without moving and a clock chimed seven. He heard her singing—
"I'm for ever blowing bubbles....
Lal-la!
la! la!... la! la! la!..."
She would be in her
bedroom, sitting before the mirror in her diaphanous underwear, touching up her
face. The pauses in the song made him see her.... Now she was using the eyebrow
pencil.... The song went on and broke again; now she would be half turning from
the mirror, curved on the gilt chair as he had so often seen her, hand-glass in
hand, looking at the back of her head, and her eyelashes, and her profile,
fining away all hard edges of rouge and lipstick. He felt quite peaceful as he
imaged her.
Peace was shattered at a
blast by the ringing of the front door bell. Then light streamed from the
opened bedroom door, was switched off, and Kitty ran into the darkish hall. She
clicked on the light by the front door, opened the door, and the big man came
in.
He kissed her on the
mouth.
Then Charlie stepped
from beside the coat cupboard, suddenly as though some strong spring which held
him there had been released, and the strong spring was in his tense body alone.
For the first time in his life he felt all steel and wire and whipcord, and
many fires. He threw himself on the intruder and fought for his woman.
Kitty did not scream.
She knew better.
"Oh Charlie!"
she panted. "For —— sake go! Go! I can't have a row here. Oh, Charlie, be
a good boy, do."
"He shall go,"
said the other man.
He was a big man; and
still young and lithe. Kitty opened the front door, whispering: "Oh,
Charlie! Oh! Charlie!" and the man pushed Charlie out. The lift was not
working at the moment, the landing was quiet, there was not a soul on the
stairway beside the liftshaft when the man flung Charlie headlong down the
first flight and broke him on the unyielding stone.
Charlie heard his own
spine crack; but as the other, scared and pale, reached him, he heard something
else also; the voice of Kitty, who stood above them, looking down, sobbing:
"I c-c-can't have a row here. It'd break me. Oh! Charlie! Oh Charlie! If
you love me, go away!"
Charlie loved Kitty very
much. "My back's broken," he whispered to the enemy bending over him.
"But if you get me under the armpits, lift me down the stairs, and put me
into the street, and if the hall-porter sees us go out tell him I'm dead
drunk——"
The man lifted him as
instructed, an arm round him, just under the shoulder-blades and armpits. Below
he could feel the crumpled weight sway and sag. He tried to be merciful in his
handling. "D-d-do you no g-g-good," he faltered as he lifted Charlie
downstairs, "t-to get me into a mess. I'm sorry. D-d-didn't mean.... But
I've got a wife and don't want hell raised.... You asked for it.... I'm sorry.
I'm sorry...." When they reached the ground floor the single-handed porter
was just carrying a passenger in the lift to the floor above, so they got
unobserved into the street, a quietish street, a cul-de-sac.
"Take me a f-f-few
d-d-doors off, and put me down," said Charlie, and the sweat of pain ran
down his face, but when the man had put him down against some area railings,
and laid him straight, he was comfortable.
The other man simply
vanished.
A taxi-driver found
Charlie by-and-by, and the police fetched an ambulance and took him to the
hospital, and in a white bed he lay sleepily, revealing nothing, all that
night. But they found, searching for an address in his pockets, the address of
his family, and they sent a message to his wife.
His wife received it
early the next morning, and first she sent Maud for Uncle Henry and Aunt, who
found that all was turning out as they prophesied, save for the slight
deviation of Charlie's accident.
"They don't say
exactly how bad he is?" said Uncle Henry. "Ah! but he was well enough
to send for you! He knows which side his bread's buttered. Yes! we shall have
Master Charles creeping back again, very thankful to be in his home with every
comfort, nursed by you; and I will give him the worse talking to be has ever
had in his life!"
"And if he's ill he
can't prevent the Vicar visiting him too," said Aunt.
So Charlie's wife set
out to do her duty.
But still earlier that
morning, instructed by the tremendous peace which was stealing over him that
time was short, Charlie was making his first request. Would they please ring
up Shaftesbury 84 to ask for "Kitty" and tell her
"Charlie" just wanted to see her very urgently for a few minutes at
once, but not to be frightened, for everything would be perfectly all right?
Pending her arrival,
which in a faltering voice over the phone she promised as soon as possible,
Charlie asked the kindly Sister who was hovering near to help him die:
"Sister, when a
friend of mine comes in, a young lady who isn't used to—to seeing—things, if I
go off suddenly as it were-what I'm afraid of is, she may be afraid if there's
any kind of struggle—I saw a fellow die once and he gave a sort of rattle—well,
will you just pull the bed-clothes up over me, so that she doesn't see?"
Kitty came in, wearing,
perhaps incidentally, perhaps by some grace of kindness, the woollen frock, and
she crept, shaking, round the screen, and stood beside Charlie, and said,
"Oh Charlie! Oh Charlie!" opening his closing eyes.
"Kitty!" he
smiled, "sing 'Bubbles.'"
The look Sister—who had
taken her right in—gave her, pried Kitty's trembling mouth open like a crowbar,
and leaning against Charlie's cot she sang—
"When shadows creep,
When I'm
asleep,
To lands
of hope I stray,
Then at
daybreak, when I awake...."
The Sister drew the
bed-clothes shadily round Charlie's face.
"... My blue bird flutters away,
I'm
forever blowing bubbles....
Pretty
bubbles in the air...."
Just then the good woman
was brought into the ward, bearing with her messages from Maud worthy of Little
Eva herself; and full of holy forgiveness; and at edge of the screen Sister met
her.
"His wife?"
said Sister. "A moment too late. I am sorry." The good woman was
looking at the bad woman by the bed, so Sister made a vague explanation.
"He just wanted a song,"
she said.
11.A HEDONIST by JOHN GALSWORTHY
(From Pears' Annual and The Century Magazine)
1921
Rupert K. Vaness remains
freshly in my mind because he was so fine and large, and because he summed up
in his person and behavior a philosophy which, budding before the war,
hibernated during that distressing epoch, and is now again in bloom.
He was a New-Yorker
addicted to Italy. One often puzzled over the composition of his blood. From
his appearance, it was rich, and his name fortified the conclusion. What the K.
stood for, however, I never learned; the three possibilities were equally
intriguing. Had he a strain of Highlander with Kenneth or Keith; a drop of
German or Scandinavian with Kurt or Knut; a blend of Syrian or Armenian with
Kahalil or Kassim? The blue in his fine eyes seemed to preclude the last, but
there was an encouraging curve in his nostrils and a raven gleam in his auburn
hair, which, by the way, was beginning to grizzle and recede when I knew him.
The flesh of his face, too, had sometimes a tired and pouchy appearance, and
his tall body looked a trifle rebellious within his extremely well-cut clothes;
but, after all, he was fifty-five. You felt that Vaness was a philosopher, yet
he never bored you with his views, and was content to let you grasp his moving
principle gradually through watching what he ate, drank, smoked, wore, and how
he encircled himself with the beautiful things and people of this life. One
presumed him rich, for one was never aware of money in his presence. Life moved
round him with a certain noiseless ease or stood still at a perfect
temperature, like the air in a conservatory round a choice blossom which a
draught might shrivel.
This image of a flower
in relation to Rupert K. Vaness pleases me, because of that little incident in
Magnolia Gardens, near Charleston, South Carolina.
Vaness was the sort of a
man of whom one could never say with safety whether he was revolving round a
beautiful young woman or whether the beautiful young woman was revolving round
him. His looks, his wealth, his taste, his reputation, invested him with a
certain sun-like quality; but his age, the recession of his locks, and the
advancement of his waist were beginning to dim his lustre, so that whether he
was moth or candle was becoming a moot point. It was moot to me, watching him
and Miss Sabine Monroy at Charleston throughout the month of March. The casual
observer would have said that she was "playing him up," as a young
poet of my acquaintance puts it; but I was not casual. For me Vaness had the
attraction of a theorem, and I was looking rather deeply into him and Miss
Monroy.
That girl had charm. She
came, I think, from Baltimore, with a strain in her, they said, of old Southern
French blood. Tall and what is known as willowy, with dark chestnut hair, very
broad, dark eyebrows, very soft, quick eyes, and a pretty mouth,—when she did
not accentuate it with lip-salve,—she had more sheer quiet vitality than any
girl I ever saw. It was delightful to watch her dance, ride, play tennis. She
laughed with her eyes; she talked with a savouring vivacity. She never seemed
tired or bored. She was, in one hackneyed word, attractive. And Vaness, the
connoisseur, was quite obviously attracted. Of men who professionally admire
beauty one can never tell offhand whether they definitely design to add a
pretty woman to their collection, or whether their dalliance is just matter of
habit. But he stood and sat about her, he drove and rode, listened to music,
and played cards with her; he did all but dance with her, and even at times
trembled on the brink of that. And his eyes, those fine, lustrous eyes of his,
followed her about.
How she had remained
unmarried to the age of twenty-six was a mystery till one reflected that with
her power of enjoying life she could not yet have had the time. Her perfect
physique was at full stretch for eighteen hours out of the twenty-four every
day. Her sleep must have been like that of a baby. One figured her sinking into
dreamless rest the moment her head touched the pillow, and never stirring till
she sprang up into her bath.
As I say, for me Vaness,
or rather his philosophy, erat demonstrandum. I was philosophically
in some distress just then. The microbe of fatalism, already present in the
brains of artists before the war, had been considerably enlarged by that
depressing occurrence. Could a civilization, basing itself on the production of
material advantages, do anything but insure the desire for more and more
material advantages? Could it promote progress even of a material character
except in countries whose resources were still much in excess of their
population? The war had seemed to me to show that mankind was too combative an
animal ever to recognize that the good of all was the good of one. The
coarse-fibred, pugnacious, and self-seeking would, I had become sure, always
carry too many guns for the refined and kindly.
The march of science
appeared, on the whole, to be carrying us backward. I deeply suspected that
there had been ages when the populations of this earth, though less numerous
and comfortable, had been proportionately healthier than they were at present.
As for religion, I had never had the least faith in Providence rewarding the
pitiable by giving them a future life of bliss. The theory seemed to me
illogical, for the more pitiable in this life appeared to me the thick-skinned
and successful, and these, as we know, in the saying about the camel and the
needle's eye, our religion consigns wholesale to hell. Success, power, wealth,
those aims of profiteers and premiers, pedagogues and pandemoniacs, of all, in
fact, who could not see God in a dewdrop, hear Him in distant goat-bells, and
scent Him in a pepper-tree, had always appeared to me akin to dry rot. And yet
every day one saw more distinctly that they were the pea in the thimblerig of
life, the hub of a universe which, to the approbation of the majority they
represented, they were fast making uninhabitable. It did not even seem of any
use to help one's neighbors; all efforts at relief just gilded the pill and encouraged
our stubbornly contentious leaders to plunge us all into fresh miseries. So I
was searching right and left for something to believe in, willing to accept
even Rupert K. Vaness and his basking philosophy. But could a man bask his life
right out? Could just looking at fine pictures, tasting rare fruits and wines,
the mere listening to good music, the scent of azaleas and the best tobacco,
above all the society of pretty women, keep salt in my bread, an ideal in my
brain? Could they? That's what I wanted to know.
Every one who goes to
Charleston in the spring, soon or late, visits Magnolia Gardens. A painter of
flowers and trees, I specialize in gardens, and freely assert that none in the
world is so beautiful as this. Even before the magnolias come out, it consigns
the Boboli at Florence, the Cinnamon Gardens of Colombo, Concepcion at Malaga,
Versailles, Hampton Court, the Generaliffe at Granada, and La Mortola to the
category of "also ran." Nothing so free and gracious, so lovely and
wistful, nothing so richly coloured, yet so ghostlike, exists, planted by the
sons of men. It is a kind of paradise which has wandered down, a miraculously
enchanted wilderness. Brilliant with azaleas, or magnolias, it centres round a
pool of dreamy water, overhung by tall trunks wanly festooned with the grey
Florida moss. Beyond anything I have ever seen, it is otherworldly. And I went
there day after day, drawn as one is drawn in youth by visions of the Ionian
Sea, of the East, or the Pacific Isles. I used to sit paralysed by the
absurdity of putting brush to canvas in front of that dream-pool. I wanted to
paint of it a picture like that of the fountain, by Helleu, which hangs in the
Luxembourg. But I knew I never should.
I was sitting there one
sunny afternoon, with my back to a clump of azaleas, watching an old coloured
gardener—so old that he had started life as an "owned" negro, they
said, and certainly still retained the familiar suavity of the old-time darky—I
was watching him prune the shrubs when I heard the voice of Rupert K. Vaness
say, quite close:
"There's nothing
for me but beauty, Miss Monroy."
The two were evidently
just behind my azalea clump, perhaps four yards away, yet as invisible as if in
China.
"Beauty is a wide,
wide word. Define it, Mr. Vaness."
"An ounce of fact
is worth a ton of theory: it stands before me."
"Come, now, that's
just a get-out. Is beauty of the flesh or of the spirit?"
"What is the
spirit, as you call it? I'm a pagan."
"Oh, so am I. But
the Greeks were pagans."
"Well, spirit is
only the refined side of sensuous appreciations."
"I wonder!"
"I have spent my
life in finding that out."
"Then the feeling
this garden rouses in me is purely sensuous?"
"Of course. If you
were standing there blind and deaf, without the powers of scent and touch, where
would your feeling be?"
"You are very
discouraging, Mr. Vaness." "No, madam; I face facts. When I was a
youngster I had plenty of fluffy aspiration towards I didn't know what; I even
used to write poetry."
"Oh! Mr. Vaness,
was it good?"
"It was not. I very
soon learned that a genuine sensation was worth all the uplift in the
world."
"What is going to
happen when your senses strike work?"
"I shall sit in the
sun and fade out."
"I certainly do
like your frankness."
"You think me a
cynic, of course; I am nothing so futile, Miss Sabine. A cynic is just a posing
ass proud of his attitude. I see nothing to be proud of in my attitude, just as
I see nothing to be proud of in the truths of existence."
"Suppose you had
been poor?"
"My senses would be
lasting better than they are, and when at last they failed, I should die
quicker, from want of food and warmth, that's all."
"Have you ever been
in love, Mr. Vaness?"
"I am in love
now."
"And your love has
no element of devotion, no finer side?"
"None. It
wants."
"I have never been
in love. But, if I were, I think I should want to lose myself rather than to
gain the other."
"Would you?
Sabine, I am in love with you."
"Oh! Shall we walk
on?"
I heard their footsteps,
and was alone again, with the old gardener lopping at his shrubs.
But what a perfect
declaration of hedonism! How simple and how solid was the Vaness theory of
existence! Almost Assyrian, worthy of Louis Quinze!
And just then the old
negro came up.
"It's pleasant
settin'," he said in his polite and hoarse half-whisper; "dar ain't
no flies yet."
"It's perfect,
Richard. This is the most beautiful spot in the world."
"Such," he
answered, softly drawling. "In deh war-time de Yanks nearly burn deh house
heah—Sherman's Yanks. Such dey did; po'ful angry wi' ol' massa dey was, 'cause
he hid up deh silver plate afore he went away. My ol' fader was de factotalum
den. De Yanks took 'm, suh; dey took 'm, and deh major he tell my fader to show
'm whar deh plate was. My ol' fader he look at 'm an' say: 'Wot yuh take me
foh? Yuh take me foh a sneakin' nigger? No, sub, you kin du wot yuh like wid
dis chile; he ain't goin' to act no Judas. No, suh!' And deh Yankee major he
put 'm up ag'in' dat tall live-oak dar, an' he say: 'Yuh darn ungrateful
nigger! I's come all dis way to set yuh free. Now, whar's dat silver plate, or
I shoot yuh up, such!' 'No, suh,' says my fader; 'shoot away. I's neber goin'
t' tell.' So dey begin to shoot, and shot all roun' 'm to skeer 'm up. I was a
li'l boy den, an' I see my ol' fader wid my own eyes, suh, standin' thar's
bold's Peter. No, suh, dey didn't neber git no word from him. He loved deh folk
heah; such he did, suh."
The old man smiled, and
in that beatific smile I saw not only his perennial pleasure in the well-known
story, but the fact that he, too, would have stood there, with the bullets
raining round him, sooner than betray the folk he loved.
"Fine story,
Richard; but—very silly, obstinate old man, your father, wasn't he?"
He looked at me with a
sort of startled anger, which slowly broadened into a grin; then broke into
soft, hoarse laughter.
"Oh, yes, suh,
sueh; berry silly, obstinacious ol' man. Yes, suh indeed." And he went off
cackling to himself. He had only just gone when I heard footsteps again behind
my azalea clump, and Miss Monroy's voice.
"Your philosophy is
that of faun and nymph. Can you play the part?"
"Only let me
try." Those words had such a fevered ring that in imagination I could see
Vaness all flushed, his fine eyes shining, his well-kept hands trembling, his
lips a little protruded.
There came a laugh,
high, gay, sweet.
"Very well, then;
catch me!" I heard a swish of skirts against the shrubs, the sound of
flight, an astonished gasp from Vaness, and the heavy thud, thud of
his feet following on the path through the azalea maze. I hoped fervently that
they would not suddenly come running past and see me sitting there. My
straining ears caught another laugh far off, a panting sound, a muttered oath,
a far-away "Cooee!" And then, staggering, winded, pale with
heat and vexation, Vaness appeared, caught sight of me, and stood a moment.
Sweat was running down his face, his hand was clutching at his side, his
stomach heaved—a hunter beaten and undignified. He muttered, turned abruptly on
his heel, and left me staring at where his fastidious dandyism and all that it
stood for had so abruptly come undone.
I know not how he and
Miss Monroy got home to Charleston; not in the same car, I fancy. As for me, I
travelled deep in thought, aware of having witnessed something rather tragic,
not looking forward to my next encounter with Vaness.
He was not at dinner,
but the girl was there, as radiant as ever, and though I was glad she had not
been caught, I was almost angry at the signal triumph of her youth. She wore a
black dress, with a red flower in her hair, and another at her breast, and had
never looked so vital and so pretty. Instead of dallying with my cigar beside
cool waters in the lounge of the hotel, I strolled out afterward on the
Battery, and sat down beside the statue of a tutelary personage. A lovely
evening; from some tree or shrub close by emerged an adorable faint fragrance,
and in the white electric light the acacia foliage was patterned out against a
thrilling, blue sky. If there were no fireflies abroad, there should have been.
A night for hedonists, indeed!
And suddenly, in fancy,
there came before me Vaness's well-dressed person, panting, pale, perplexed;
and beside him, by a freak of vision, stood the old darky's father, bound to
the live-oak, with the bullets whistling past, and his face transfigured. There
they stood alongside the creed of pleasure, which depended for fulfilment on
its waist measurement; and the creed of love, devoted unto death!
"Aha!" I
thought, "which of the two laughs last?"
And just then I saw
Vaness himself beneath a lamp, cigar in mouth, and cape flung back so that its
silk lining shone. Pale and heavy, in the cruel white light, his face had a
bitter look. And I was sorry—very sorry, at that moment for Rupert K. Vaness.
12.THE BAT AND BELFRY INN by ALAN GRAHAM
(From The Story-Teller) 1922
It was the maddest and
most picturesque hotel at which we have ever stopped. Tony and I were touring
North Wales. We had left Llandudno that morning in the twoseater, lunched at
Festiniog, and late in the afternoon were trundling down a charming valley with
the reluctant assistance of a road whose surface, if it ever had possessed such
an asset, had long since vanished. On rounding one of the innumerable hairpin
bends on our road, there burst upon us the most gorgeous miniature scene that
we had ever encountered. I stopped the car almost automatically.
"Oh, George, what a
charming hotel!" exclaimed Tony. "Let's stop and have tea."
Tony, I should mention,
is my wife. She is intensely practical.
I had not noticed the hotel,
for before us the valley opened out into a perfect stage setting. From the road
the land fell sharply a hundred feet to a rocky mountain stream, the rustle of
whose water came up to us faintly like the music heard in a sea-shell. Beyond
rose hills—hill upon hill lit patchily by the sun, so that their contours were
a mingling of brilliant purple heather, red-brown bracken, and indigo shadow.
Far down the valley the stream glinted, mirror-like, through a veil of trees.
And Tony spoke of tea!
I dragged my eyes from
the magnet of the view and found that I had stopped the car within a few yards
of a little hotel that must have been planted there originally by someone with
a soul. It lay by the open roadside five miles from anywhere. It was built of
the rough grey-green stone of the district, but it was rescued from the
commonplace by its leaded windows, the big old beams that angled across its
white plastered gables, and by the clematis and late tea roses that clung about
its porch.
I could hardly blame
Tony for her materialism. The hotel blended admirably with its surroundings.
There was nothing about it of the beerhouse-on-the-mountain-top so dear to the
German mind. It looked quiet, refined and restful, and one felt instinctively
that it would be managed in a fashion in keeping with all about it.
"By Jove,
Tony!" I said, as I drew up to the clematis-covered porch, "we might
do worse than stop here for a day or two."
"We'll have tea
anyhow, and see what we think of it." I clattered over the red-tiled
floor, and when my eyes had grown accustomed to the dim light that contrasted
so well with the sunshine without, found myself in a small sunshiny room, with
a low ceiling, oak-rafted, some comfortable chairs, an old eight-day clock
stopped at ten-thirty-five, and a man.
He was a long thin man,
clean-shaven, wearing an old shooting coat and a pair of shabby grey flannel
trousers. He smoked a pipe and read in a book. At my entrance he did not look
up, and I set him down as a guest in the hotel.
One side of the room was
built of obscured glass panes, with an open square in the middle and a ledge
upon which rested several suggestive empty glasses, so I crossed to this
hospitable-looking gap, and tapped upon the ledge. Several repetitions bringing
no response, I turned to the only living creature who appeared to be available.
"Can you tell me,
sir, if we can have tea in the hotel," I asked.
The long man started,
looked up, closed his book, and jumped to his feet as if galvanized to life.
"Of course, of
course, of course," he cried hastily, and added, as by an afterthought,
"of course."
I may have shown a
natural surprise at this almost choral response, for he pulled himself together
and became something more explicit.
"I'll see to it at
once," he said hurriedly. "I'm—I'm the proprietor, you know. You
won't mind if we're—if we're a little upset. You see, I—I've just moved in.
Left me by an uncle, you know, an uncle in Australia. I'll see to it at once.
Anything you would like—specially fancy? Bread and butter now, or cake perhaps?
Will you take a seat—two seats." (Tony had followed me in). "And look
at yesterday's paper. Oh yes, you can have tea—of course, of course, of course.
Of——"
His words petered out,
as he clattered off down a like-flagged passage. I looked at Tony and raised my
eyebrows.
"Seems a trifle
mad," I said.
"How delightfully
cool," said she, looking round the old-fashioned room appraisingly,
"and so clean! I think we'll stop."
"Let's have tea
before we decide," I suggested. "The proprietor is distinctly eccentric,
to say the least of it."
"He looked quite a
superior man. I thought," said Tony. "Not the least like a
Welshman."
Tony herself comes from
far north of the Tweed.
The hotel was small, and
the kitchen, apparently, not far away, for we could not avoid hearing sounds of
what appeared to be a heated argument coming from the direction in which mine
host had vanished. We were used to heated arguments in the hotels at which we
had put up, but they had invariably taken place in Welsh, whereas this one was
undoubtedly in English. Snatches of it reached our ears.
"... haven't the
pluck of a rabbit, Bill."
"... all very well,
but——"
"I'm not afraid,
I'll——"
Then our host returned.
"It's coming, it's
coming, it's coming," he said, his hands thrust deep in his trousers
pockets, jingling loose change in a manner that suggested agitation.
He stood looking down at
us as though we were something he didn't quite know what to do with, and then
an idea seemed to strike him, and be vanished for a moment to reappear almost
immediately in the square gap of the bar window.
"Have a drink while
you're waiting?" he asked, much more naturally.
I looked at my watch. It
was half-past four. Very free-and-easy with the licensing laws, I thought.
"I thought six
o'clock was opening time?" I said.
The thin man was
overcome with confusion. His face flushed red, he shut the window down with a
bang, and a moment after came round to us again.
"Awfully
sorry," he stammered apologetically. "Might get the house a bad name.
Deuced inconsiderate of—of my uncle not to leave me a book of the rules. Very
bad break, that—what?"
Evidently Tony was not
so much impressed by the eccentricities of our host as was I. She approved of
the hotel and its situation, and had made up her mind to stop. I could tell it
by her face as she addressed the proprietor.
"Have you
accommodation if we should make up our minds to stay here for a few days?"
she asked.
"Stay here? You
want to stay?" he repeated, consternation written large all over his face.
"Good G—— I mean certainly, of course, of course."
He bolted down the
passage like a rabbit, and we heard hoarse whispering from the direction in
which he had gone.
"Dotty?" I
suggested.
"Not a bit of
it," retorted Tony. "Nervous because he is new to his job, but very
anxious to be obliging. We shall do splendidly here."
I shrugged my shoulders
and said no more, because I know Tony. I have been married to her for years and
years.
Light steps upon the
tiles heralded something new—different, but equally surprising.
"Tea is served, madam,
if you will step this way."
She was the apotheosis
of all waitresses. Her frock was black, but it was of silk and finely cut. Her
apron, of coarse white cotton, was grotesque against it. She had neat little
feet encased in high-heeled shoes, and her stockings were of silk. Her common
cap that she wore sat coquettishly on her dark curls, and her face was
charming, though petrified in that unnatural expression of distance which, as a
rule, only the very best menials can attain.
There were no other guests
in the coffee-room, and this marvel of maids devoted the whole of her attention
to us, standing over us like a column of ice which thawed only to attend upon
our wants. There was no getting past her veil of reticence. Tony tried her with
questions, but "Yes, madam," "No, madam," and
"Certainly, madam," appeared the sum of her vocabulary. Yet when we
sent her to the kitchen for more hot water, we were conscious of a whispering
and giggling which assured us that off the stage she could thaw.
"We must stay a day
or two," said Tony. "I'm dying to paidle in that burn."
"My dear, how often
have you promised me that you would never subject me to Scotch after we were
married!" I protested.
"When I see a burn
I e'en must juist paidle in it," retorted Tony, deliberately forswearing
herself. "So we'll book that room."
At that moment the
celestial waitress returned with the hot water, and Tony made known her
determination. I drive the car, but Tony supplies the driving-power.
"Certainly, madam.
I shall speak to Mr. Gunthorpe." Quickly she returned.
"Number ten is
vacant. The boots and chambermaid are both away at a sheep-trial, but we expect
them back any moment. I shall show you the room, madam, and if you will leave
the car, sir, until the boots returns——"
"That will be all
right. No hurry, no hurry."
While we were examining
our bedroom and finding it all that could be desired, I heard a car draw up
before the hotel, and the sound of voices in conversation. A few minutes later,
on going downstairs, I made the acquaintance of the boots. He was obviously
awaiting me by my car, and touched his forelock in a manner rarely seen off the
stage. He wore khaki cord breeches with leather leggings, a striped shirt open
at the neck, and chewed a straw desperately. In no other respect did he
resemble the boots of an out-of-the-way hotel.
"Garage round this
way, sir," he said, guiding me to my destination, which, I found, already
contained a two-seater of the same make as my own.
"Ripping little
car, eh?" said the boots, chewing vigorously at his straw as he stood, his
hands deep in what are graphically known as "go-to-hell" pockets and
his legs well straddled. "Hop over anything, what? Topping weather we're
having—been like this for weeks. If you don't mind, old chap, you might wiggle
her over this way a bit. Something else might blow in, eh?"
I looked at this latest
manifestation with undisguised astonishment, but he was imperturbable, and
merely chewed his straw with renewed energy.
"That's the stuff,
old lad," he said, as I laid the car in position. "What now? Shall I
give you a hand up with the trunk, or will you hump it yourself? Don't mind me
a bit. I'm ready for anything."
He looked genial, but I
found him familiar, so with a curt:
"Take it to number
ten," I strode off to overtake Tony, whom I saw half-way down a rough path
that led to her beloved "burn."
"I've seen the
chambermaid," she said, when I overtook her. "Such a pretty girl, but
very shy and unsophisticated. Quite a girl, but wears a wedding-ring."
I watched Tony
"paidling" for some time, but as the amusement consisted mainly of
getting her under-apparel wet, I grew tired of it, and climbed back to the
hotel.
The bar-window was open
once more in the little lounge, and Mr. Gunthorpe was behind, his arms resting
upon the ledge.
"Have a
drink?" he said, as I entered. "It's all right now. The balloon's
gone up."
I looked at my watch. It
was after six o'clock.
"I'll have a small
Scotch and soda," I decided.
"This is on the
house," said the eccentric landlord.
He produced two glasses
and filled them, and I noticed that he took money from his pocket and placed it
in the till.
"Well, success to
the new management!" I said, raising my glass to his.
"Cheerio, and thank
you," said he, smiling genially upon me.
He seemed to me more self-possessed
and less eccentric than he had appeared upon our arrival. I determined to draw
him out.
"It's funny that an
Australian should have owned an hotel away up in the Welsh hills," I
hazarded. "Did he die recently?"
"Australia? You
must have misunderstood me," said Mr. Gunthorpe with a hunted look in his
eyes. "Very likely—very likely I said Ostend."
"Ostend? Well,
possibly I did," I agreed, feeling certain that I had made no mistake.
"Had he a hotel there as well?"
"Yes, yes. Of
course, of course, of course," agreed the landlord, largely redundant.
"And are you
running that as well?"
"Heaven
forbid!" he exclaimed, with a shudder. "You see ... this—this is just
a small legacy. It'll be all right by and by. All right, all right. Let's have
another drink."
"With me," I
insisted.
"Not at all, not at
all. On the house. All for the good of the house. Come along, Bob, have a
drink!"
It was the boots who had
now entered, and he strolled up to the bar with all the self-possession of a
welcome guest.
"Just a spot of
Scotch, old thing!" he said brightly. "It's a hard life. Shaking down
good and comfy, laddie?"—this last to me. "Ask for anything you
fancy. It doesn't follow you'll get it, but if we have it, it's yours. Tinkle,
tinkle; crash, crash!" With this unusual toast he raised his glass and
drained it.
"Have
another," he said. "Three Scotches, Boniface."
I protested. This was
too hot and fast for me altogether. Besides, I did not fancy being indebted to
this somewhat overwhelming boots. My protest was of no avail. The glasses were
filled while yet the words were upon my lips. I thought of Tony, and trembled.
Common decency would force me to stand still another round before I could cry a
halt.
"All well in the
buttery?" asked the boots, in a confidential tone of the landlord.
"The banquet is in
preparation," replied the latter. "Everything is in train."
"Heaven grant that
it comes out of train reasonably, laddie," said boots fervently. "But
you know Molly. I wouldn't trust an ostrich to her cooking. Here's hoping for
the best."
He drained his glass
again, and this time I managed to get a show. "Three more whiskies, please
landlord," and Tony in clear view cut up into nice squares by the little
leaded panes. I got mine absorbed just in time, and was on the doorstep to meet
her, draggle-skirted and untidy, but enthusiastic about her "burn."
She broke her vows three times on the way up to number ten, and excused her
lapses on the ground that the "burn" was the perfect image of one
near a place she called "Pairth."
When she rang for hot
water to wash away the traces of her ablutions in the burn, I had my first view
of the chambermaid. I found her even more ravishing than the waitress
downstairs, and with the additional advantage that she was not
stand-offish—indeed, she was a giggler. She giggled at my slightest word, and
Tony altered her first impression and dubbed her a forward hussy. Personally, I
liked the girl, though she broke all precedent by attending upon us in a silk
blouse and a tailor-made tweed skirt.
When I wandered
downstairs before dinner I came upon her again, this time unmistakably in the
arms of the ubiquitous boots. I had walked innocently into a small sitting-room
where a lamp already shone, and I came upon the romantic picture unexpectedly.
With a murmured word of inarticulate apology I made to retire.
"It's all right,
old fruit, don't hurry away," said boots affably. "Awfully sorry, and
all that. Quite forgot it was a public room, don't you know."
The chambermaid giggled
once more and bolted, straightening her cap as she went.
"You don't mind, do
you?" continued boots, making a clumsy show of trimming the lamp.
"Warm is the greeting when seas have rolled between us. Perhaps not quite
that, but you see the idea, eh?"
He would doubtless have
said more, being evidently of a cheery nature, had not the waitress of the
afternoon appeared in the doorway, her face as frozen as a mask of ice.
"Bob—kennel!"
she said sharply, and held the door wide.
The cheeriness vanished
and the boots followed it through the open doorway.
"I trust you will
excuse him, sir," said the waitress deferentially. "He is just a
little deranged, but quite harmless. We employ him out of charity, sir."
I may have been
mistaken, but a sound uncommonly like the chambermaid's giggle came to me from
the passage without.
The sound of a car
stopping outside the hotel drew me to the window as the waitress left me, and I
was in time to see an old gentleman with a long white beard step from the
interior of a Daimler landaulette, the door of which was held open by a
dignified chauffeur, whose attire seemed to consist mainly of brass buttons.
A consultation evidently
took place in the smoking-room or bar between this patriarch and the
proprietor, and then I heard agitated voices in the passage without.
"It's a blinking
invasion," said Mr. Gunthorpe. "I tell you we can't do it. Good
heavens, they threaten to stop a month if they are comfortable."
"Don't worry then,
old bean. They won't stop long." This in the voice of boots.
"And they want
special diet. Old girl can't eat meat. Suffers from a duodenal ulcer. I tell
you, we got quick intimate! We can't do it, Molly."
"Fathead, of course
we can. I'll concoct her something the like of which her what-you-may-call-it
has never before tackled. Run along, Bill, and be affable."
"Shall I stand them
a drink?"—Mr. Gunthorpe again.
"Do, old bean. I'll
come and have one, too," said boots.
"You won't, Bob.
You'll see to the chauffeur and the car, and the
luggage."
"Hang the luggage!
I'll stand the chauffeur a drink."
Then the female voice
spoke warningly.
"You've had enough
drinks already, both of you," it said. "You ought to bear in mind
that you're not running the hotel just for your two selves."
"It's all right,
old girl. There's plenty for everybody. Cellar's full of it."
The voices died away,
and I strolled out into the bar once more. Mr. Gunthorpe was being affable,
according to instructions, to the old gentleman, while an old lady in a bonnet
looked on piercingly.
"Quite all right
about the diet," the landlord was saying as I entered. "We make a
specialty of special diets. In fact, our ordinary diet is a special diet.
Certainly, of course. We've got mulligatawny soup, sardines, roast beef, trifle
and gorgonzola cheese. Perhaps you'll have a drink while you wait?"
"Certainly not,
sir," replied the old gentleman testily. "You seem to be unable to
comprehend. My wife has a duodenal ulcer, sir. Had it for fourteen years in
September, and you talk to me of mulligatawny soup."
"I quite
understand, of course, of course," replied Mr. Gunthorpe urbanely.
"Everything of a—an irritating character will be left out of the—"
"Then it won't be
mulligatawny soup, you fool!" exploded the old lady, whose pressure I had
seen rising for some time.
"Certainly not,
madam. Of course, indubitably. We'll call it beef-tea, and it will never
know."
"What will never
know?" asked the old gentleman, with an air of puzzlement.
"Madam's duodenal
ulcer, sir," replied the landlord, with a deferential bow, dedicated,
doubtless, to that organ.
Each separate hair in
the old gentleman's beard began to curl and coil with the electricity of
exasperation, and at every moment I expected to see sparks fly out from it. The
old lady folded her hands across her treasure, and looked daggers at the
landlord.
"How far is it to
the nearest hotel, John?" she demanded acidly.
"Too far to go
to-night, Mary. I'm afraid we must put up with this—this sanatorium,"
replied her husband.
As a diversion I
demanded an appetizer—a gin and bitters.
Mr. Gunthorpe's face lit
up and he bolted behind the bar.
"Certainly, of
course. Have it with me!" he exclaimed eagerly, his eyes full of gratitude
for the diversion.
I had the greatest
difficulty in paying for our two drinks, for of course Mr. Gunthorpe would not
let me drink alone, and I was equally insistent that the house had done enough
for me.
"Then we must have
another," he declared, as the only way out of the difficulty.
Fortunately for me, Tony
appeared on the scene, clothed and in her right mind, speaking once more the
English language, and I contrived to avoid further stimulation. Mr. Gunthorpe
looked at me reproachfully as I moved off with my wife. I could see that he
dreaded further interrogation on the subject of diets.
Nothing further of
moment occurred before dinner. Tony and I went out and admired the wonderful
view in the dim half-light, and just as the midges got the better of us—even my
foul old pipe did not give us the victory—the gong sounded for dinner and
covered our retreat.
It was the maddest
dinner in which I have ever participated. Three tables were laid in the little
coffee-room, and, as Tony and I were the first to put in an appearance, I had
the curiosity to look at the bill of fare at the first table I came to.
"This way, sir, if
you please," said the chilling voice of our exemplary waitress.
Already I had deciphered
"beef-tea" and "steamed sole" on the card, and concluded
that the table was reserved for the duodenal ulcer. At the table to which we
were conducted I found "mulligatawny soup" figuring on the menu, and
I wondered.
The old lady and
gentleman were ushered to their seats by the boots, now smartly dressed in
striped trousers and black coat and waistcoat. I say "smartly,"
because the clothes were of good material, and the wearer looked easily the
best-clad man in the hotel.
The two places laid at
the third table were taken by a boy and girl of such youthful appearance that
both Tony and I were astonished to find them living alone in an hotel. The boy
might have been fifteen and the girl twelve at the most; but that they were
overwhelmingly at home in their surroundings was quickly manifest, as was the
fact that they were brother and sister. This latter fact was evidenced by the
manner in which the boy bullied the girl, and contradicted her at every opportunity.
There was something of a
strained wait when all of us had taken our places. I saw the old gentleman,
eye-glasses on the tip of his nose, studying the bill of fare intently. Then he
turned to his wife.
"Minced chicken and
rice—peptonized," he said suspiciously. "Did you ever hear of such a
dish, Mary?"
"Never. But nothing
would surprise me in this place," replied his wife, looking round the room
with a censorious eye that even included the innocent Tony and myself.
The two children
chuckled. They wore an air of expectancy such as I have noticed in my nephews
and nieces when I have been inveigled into taking them to Maskelyne's show.
They seemed on very intimate terms with the waitress, and the mere sight of the
boots sent them into fits of suppressed chuckling. He, standing by the
sideboard, napkin over arm, added to their hilarity by winking violently at
regular intervals. Catching my eye upon him, he crossed to our table.
"Everything all
right, eh?" he said, glancing over the lay-out of our table.
"Everything—except
that so far we have had no food," I replied.
"It's the
soup," he said, leaning confidentially to my ear. "The cat fell into
it, and they're combing it out of her fur. Have a drink while you wait? No! All
right, old thing. I dare say you know best when you've had enough. Shut up, you
kids! Don't you see you're irritating the old boy."
This in a hoarse aside
to the children at the next table. It made them giggle the more.
"Surely they are
very young to be stopping here alone!" said Tony, with a touch of her
national inquisitiveness.
"Very sad case,
madam," replied the boots. "We found them here when we came. You
know—wrapped in a blanket on the doorstep. Not quite, perhaps, but you see the
idea. Sort of wards of the hotel."
He was interrupted by
the entrance of the waitress with soup. She gave him a frozen glance and a jerk
of the head, and he vanished to the kitchen, to return with more soup, and at
last we got a start on our meal. The soup was good notwithstanding the story of
the cat. It really was mulligatawny. There was no doubt about that.
The old couple were not
so well satisfied. They sipped a little, had a whispered consultation, and
beckoned the boots.
"Waiter, why do you
call this beef-tea?" demanded the old gentleman.
"You can't have me
there, my lad," retorted boots cheerily. "From the Latin beef, beef
and tea, tea—beef-tea. Take a spoonful of tea and a lump of beef, shake well
together, simmer gently till ready, and serve with a ham-frill."
The old gentleman's face
showed deep purple against his white whiskers, and the waitress left our table
hurriedly, hustled the boots from the room, and crossed to the old couple. I
could not hear all she said, but I understood that the boots was liable to
slight delusions, but quite harmless. The beef-tea was the best that could be
prepared on such short notice, and so on.
It was the main course
of the meal that brought the climax. It was roast beef and Yorkshire pudding,
excellently cooked, and, so far as we were concerned, efficiently served. The irrepressible
boots had, however, by this time drifted back to duty. I saw him bear plates to
the old people's table containing a pale mess which I rightly concluded was the
"minced chicken and rice—peptonized," already referred to by the old
gentleman. The couple eyed it suspiciously while their attendant hovered near,
apparently awaiting the congratulations which were bound to follow the
consumption of the dish.
"John, it's
beef!" screamed the old lady, starting to her feet and spluttering.
"Damme, so it is!"
confirmed her husband, after a bare mouthful. "Hi, you—scoundrel,
poisoner, assassin—send the manager here at once."
He waved his napkin in
fury, and boots cocked an eye at him curiously.
"Won't you have
another try?" he urged. "Be sporty about it. Hang it, it looks like
chopped chicken, and it is chopped. I chopped it myself. Have another try.
You'll believe it in time if you persevere. It's the first step that counts,
you know. I used to be able to say that in French, but—"
He only got so far
because the old gentleman had been inarticulate with rage.
"Fetch the manager,
and don't dare utter another word, confound you!" he shouted.
A few moments later our
friend Mr. Gunthorpe entered. His eyes were bright, and a satisfied smile
rested on his lips.
"Good evening,
sir," he began affably. "I believe you sent for me. I hope everything
is to your taste?"
"Everything is
nothing of the sort, sir!" retorted the old gentleman. "You have
attempted a gross fraud upon us, sir. I find on the menu, chicken, and it is nothing
more nor less than chopped beef. And 'peptonized'—peptonized be hanged, sir!
It's no more peptonized than my hat!"
"Well, sir, as for
your hat I can say nothing, but—"
"None of your
insolence, sir. I insist on having this—filth taken away and something suitable
put before us. My wife has possessed a duodenal ulcer for fourteen years come
September, and—"
"Be hanged to your
duodenal ulcer! As this isn't its birthday, why should it have a blinking
banquet. Let it take pot-luck with the rest of us."
A sudden burst of
uncontrollable laughter made me turn sharply, to find that the reserve had
fallen from our chilly waitress, who was vainly endeavouring to smother her
laughter in her professional napkin.
"Oh, Bill!"
she cried, "you've done it now. The game's up."
The old lady and
gentleman arose in outraged dignity and started to leave the room, when a
diversion was caused by the entrance of a pleasant-faced lady in hat and cloak.
I had been semi-conscious for some moments of a motor-engine running at the hotel
door.
"Oh, Mr. Gunthorpe,
what luck!" cried the newcomer. "I've collected a full staff, and
brought them all up from Dolgelly with me, look you."
"Thank
heaven!" exclaimed the proprietor. "As soon as your barmaid is on her
job we'll drink all their healths. I hope you won't be annoyed, Miss Jones, but
I fear, I very greatly fear, you will lose a couple of likely customers at dawn
or soon after. Here they are. Perhaps you can still pacify them. I can't."
Miss Jones turned to the
old couple, who were waiting for the doorway to clear, with a disarming and
conciliatory smile.
"I hope you will
make allowances," she said, with a musical Welsh intonation. "I am
the manageress, and everything is at sixes and sevens, look you. This morning I
had trouble with the staff, and just to annoy me they all cleared off together.
I had to leave the hotel to see what I could find in Dolgelly. Mr. Gunthorpe
and the other guests in the hotel very kindly offered to see to things while I
was away, and I'm sure they have done their best, indeed."
"Done their best to
poison us, certainly," growled the old gentleman. "My wife has a
duo—"
"That's all right,
old chap," interrupted Mr. Gunthorpe. "Miss Jones is an expert in
those things. She'll feed it the proper tack, believe me. Give her a chance,
and don't blame her for our shortcomings."
By this time the whole
mock staff had taken the stage—waitress, boots, chambermaid, and a
pleasant-faced lady of matronly appearance who, I learnt, was Mrs. Gunthorpe
and the mother of the two children of whom we had been told such a harrowing
history.
"And just think,
dear," said Tony, smiling at me across the table. "The boots and the
chambermaid are on their honeymoon. He is a journalist."
"How do you know
all this?" I demanded suspiciously.
"I wormed the whole
thing out of the chambermaid at the very beginning," said Tony. "I
didn't tell you because I thought it would be more fun."
Miss Jones succeeded in
pacifying the old couple somehow—mainly, I think, by promises of a new
régime—and we left them in the coffee-room looking almost cheerful.
Tony and I went out to
talk in the moonlight, while I smoked an after-dinner cigar. We were gone for
some time, and on our return decided to go straight upstairs to bed. I noticed
that lights still burned in the coffee-room, and heard the sound of voices from
that direction. Thinking that some late guests had arrived during our absence,
I had the curiosity to glance round the door. The whole of our late staff sat
round a table, on which were arrayed much food and several gilt-topped bottles.
"Come along. Do
join us!" cried Mr. Gunthorpe, sighting us at once.
"Come and celebrate
the end of this bat in the belfry sort of management," added boots,
holding high a sparkling glass.
It ended in Tony and
I being dragged into the celebration, and that ended in quite
a late sitting.
Tony and I lingered on
for over a week at the Bat and Belfry Inn, as we all called it, and so, strange
to say, did the duodenal couple, whom, indeed, we left there, special-dieting
to their hearts' content.
13.THE LIE by HOLLOWAY HORN
(From The Blue Magazine and Harper's Bazar) 1922
The hours had passed
with the miraculous rapidity which tinctures time when one is on the river, and
now overhead the moon was a gorgeous yellow lantern in a greyish purple sky.
The punt was moored at
the lower end of Glover's Island on the Middlesex side, and rose and fell
gently on the ebbing tide.
A girl was lying back
amidst the cushions, her hands behind her head, looking up through the vague
tracery of leaves to the soft moonlight. Even in the garish day she was pretty,
but in that enchanting dimness she was wildly beautiful. The hint of strength
around her mouth was not quite so evident perhaps. Her hair was the colour of
oaten straw in autumn and her deep blue eyes were dark in the gathering night.
But despite her beauty,
the man's face was averted from her. He was gazing out across the
smoothly-flowing water, troubled and thoughtful. A good-looking face, but not
so strong as the girl's in spite of her prettiness, and enormously less vital.
Ten minutes before he
had proposed to her and had been rejected.
It was not the first
time, but he had been very much more hopeful than on the other occasions.
The air was softly,
embracingly warm that evening. Together they had watched the lengthening
shadows creep out across the old river. And it was spring still, which makes a
difference. There is something in the year's youth—the sap is rising in the
plants—something there is, anyway, beyond the sentimentality of the poets. And
overhead was the great yellow lantern gleaming at them through the branches
with ironic approval.
But, in spite of
everything, she had shaken her head and all he received was the maddening
assurance that she "liked" him.
"I shall never
marry," she had concluded. "Never. You know why."
"Yes, I know,"
the man said miserably. "Carruthers."
And so he was looking
out moodily, almost savagely, across the water when the temptation came to him.
He would not have minded
quite so much if Carruthers had been alive, but he was dead and slept in the
now silent Salient where a little cross marked his bed. Alive one could have
striven against him, striven desperately, although Carruthers had always been
rather a proposition. But now it seemed hopeless—a man cannot strive with a
memory. It was not fair—so the man's thoughts were running. He had shared
Carruthers' risks, although he had come back. This persistent and exclusive
devotion to a man who would never return to her was morbid. Suddenly, his mind
was made up.
"Olive," he
said.
"Yes," she
replied quietly.
"What I am going to
tell you I do for both our sakes. You will probably think I'm a cad, but I'm
taking the risk." He was sitting up but did not meet her eyes.
"What on earth are
you talking about?" she demanded.
"You know
that—apart from you—Carruthers and I were pals?"
"Yes," she
said wondering. And suddenly she burst out petulantly. "What is it you
want to say?"
"He was no better
than other men," he replied bluntly. "It is wrong that you should
sacrifice your life to a memory, wrong that you should worship an idol with
feet of clay."
"I loath
parables," she said coldly. "Will you tell me exactly what you mean
about feet of clay?" The note in her voice was not lost on the man by her
side.
"I don't like
telling you—under other conditions I wouldn't. But I do it for both our
sakes."
"Then, for goodness
sake, do it!"
"I came across it
accidentally at the Gordon Hotel at Brighton. He stayed there, whilst he was
engaged to you, with a lady whom he described as Mrs. Carruthers. It was on his
last leave."
"Why do you tell me
this?" she asked after a silence; her voice was low and a little husky.
"Surely, my dear,
you must see. He was no better than other men. The ideal you have conjured up
is no ideal. He was a brave soldier, a darned brave soldier, and—until we both
fell in love with you—my pal. But it is not fair that his memory should absorb
you. It's—it's unnatural."
"I suppose you
think I should be indignant?" There was no emotion of any kind in her
voice.
"I simply want you
to see that your idol has feet of clay," he said, with the stubbornness of
a man who feels he is losing.
"What has that to
do with it? You know I loved him."
"Other girls have
loved——" he said bitterly.
"And forgotten?
Yes, I know," she interrupted him. "But I do not forget, that is
all."
"But after what I
have told you. Surely——"
"You see I
knew," she said, even more quietly than before.
"You—knew?"
"Yes. It was I who
was with him. It was his last leave," she added thoughtfully.
And only the faint noise
of the water and the wistful wind in the trees overhead broke the silence.
14.A GIRL IN IT by ROWLAND KENNEY
(From The New Age) 1922
I was just cooking a
couple of two-eyed steaks when Black Mick walked in, and, noting the look in
his eyes and being for some reason in an expansive mood, I offered him a sit
down. After comparing notes on the various possibilities of the district with
regard to job-getting, we turned on to a discussion of the relative moralities
of begging and stealing. But in this, I found, Mick was not vitally
interested—both were too deeply immoral for him to touch. For Mick was a
worker. He liked work. Vagrancy to him made no appeal. To "settle
down" was his one definite desire. But jobs refused to hold him, and the
road gripped him in spite of himself. So the problem presented itself to him in
an abstract way only; to me there was a real—but let that go.
Mick's respectability
was uncanny. He could speculate on these things as if they were matters
affecting none of us there. In that fourpenny doss-house he remained as aloof
as a god, and in some vague way the calmness of the man in face of this
infringing realism for a time repelled me.
We cleaned up my packet
to the last shred and crumb, and I found a couple of fag ends in my pocket. We
smoked silently. Mick's manner gradually affected me. We became somehow
mentally detached from the place in which we sat. We were in a corner of the
room, at the end of the longest table, and so incurious about the rest of the
company that neither of us knew whether there were two or twenty men there. For
a while Mick was absorbed in his smoke, and then I saw him slowly turn his head
to the door. It was a languid movement. His dark eyes were half veiled as he
watched for the entrance of someone who fumbled at the latch. Then, in an
instant, as the face of the newcomer thrust forward, Black Mick's whole
personality seemed to change. His eyelids lifted, showing great, glowing eyes
staring from a cold set face. His back squared, and the table, clamped to the
floor, creaked protestingly as his sprawled legs were drawn up and the knees
pressed against the under part. A second only he stared, then slung himself
full forward.
The newcomer was a live
man, quicker than Mick. The recognition between the two was apparently mutual;
for as Mick vaulted the table the other rushed forward, grabbed the poker from
the grate, and got home on Mick's head with it. Before I could get near enough
to grip, the door again banged and our visitor had disappeared.
"There was a girl
in it," said Mick to me when we took the road together a fortnight later,
and that was as far as he got in explanation. It was enough. I could read men a
little. To Mick women—all women—were sacred creatures. In the scheme of nature
woman was good and man was evil. Passion was a male attribute, an evil fire
that scorched and burned and rendered impotent the protesting innocence of
hapless femininity....
So we tramped. One
public works after the other we made, always with the same result—no chance of
a take-on. Often we got a lift in food, ale, or even cash from some gang where
one of us was known, but that was all. Everywhere the reply to our request for
a job was the same: Full Up. And then we made Liverpool.
My favourite kip in
Liverpool was Bevington House in the Scotland Road district, but on this
occasion I had news that Twinetoes, an old mate of mine, had taken in that
night at a private doss-house, and the probability was that he would not only
give us a lift but would be able to tell us pretty accurately what was the
state of the labour market.
It was a rotten kip.
Four men were squabbling over the frying pan when we entered, and over against
the far wall sat an old crone, crooning an Irish song. The men were of the
ordinary dock rat type, scraggily built, unshaven, with cunning, shifty eyes.
The woman had an old browned-green kerchief round her head, and a ragged shawl
drawn tightly round her breasts. One side of her face had evidently been burned
some time, and the eye on that side ran continually.
"Got any money,
dearie?" she said to Mick.
"No, mother,"
Mick replied, gently taking her hand. "Is there a fellow here called
Twinetoes?"
"No blurry use t'me
if no money," and she went on with her damnable singing, like a lost soul
wailing for its natural hell.
The Boss came in from
the kitchen. "Twinetoes? Damned funny moniker! Never 'eerd it," he
said. "But there's a bloke asleep upstairs as calls 'isself Brum. Mebbe
it's 'im."
It was. Twinetoes lay in
his navvy clobber on a dirty bed, drunk, dead to the world. We could not rouse
him.
"What a
kennel!" said Mick. "There's a smell about it I don't like."
There was a smell; not the common musty smell of cheap doss-houses, something
much worse than that....
"You pay your
fourpence and takes your choice," I said, with an intended grandiloquent
sweep of my hand towards the dozen derelict beds. We selected two that lay in
an alcove at the end of the room farthest from the door, and turned in. In a
few minutes we were both asleep.
Suddenly I awoke. A
clock outside struck one. There was no sound in the room but the now subdued
snoring of Twinetoes. I was at once wide awake, but I lay quite still,
breathing as naturally as possible, keeping my eyes more than half closed, for
I felt some sinister presence in the room. A new pollution affected the
atmosphere. Bending over me was the old crone. Downstairs she had seemed
aimless, shapeless, almost helpless, an object of disgusting pitifulness. Now,
dark as it was, and unexpected as was the visit, I could at once see that she
was as active and alert as a monkey.
On going to bed I had
put my boots under my pillow, and thrown my coat over me, keeping the cuff of
one sleeve in my hand. A practised claw slipped under my head and deftly
fingered the insides of my boots: Blank. The coat pockets were next examined:
Blank. Still I dog-slept. The wrinkled lips were now working angrily, churning
up two specks of foam that shone white in the corners of the mouth. The running
eye rained tears of rage down her left cheek; and the other one glowed and
dulled, a winking red spark in the gloom, as she looked quickly up and down the
bed. Her left hand hung down by her side, the arm tense. Then, as she slipped
her right hand under the clothes in an effort to go over the rest of me, I gave
a half turn and a low sleep moan to warn her off. At once the left hand shot up
over my head, the lean fingers clutching a foot of lead pipe. Again I tried to
appear sound asleep. With eyes tight shut I lay still. I dared not move. One
glimpse of that tortured face had shown me that I could hope for nothing; the
utter folly of mercy or half measures was fully understood. Yet, effort was
impossible. I was simply and completely afraid.
The lead pipe did not,
however, meet my skull. Hearing a slight scuffle, I peeped out to find that
there were now two figures in the gloom. The Boss had crept up, seized the
hag's left arm, and was pointing to the door. She held back, and in silent
pantomime showed that Mick had not been gone over yet. With her free hand she gathered
her one skirt over her dirty, skinny knees and danced with rage by the side of
my bed. She looked like the parody of some carrion creature seen in the
nightmare of a starving man. The most terrible thing about her was her amazing
silence; the mad dance of her stockinged feet on the bare boards made no sound.
The Boss loosened his
hold on her wrist, but took away the lead pipe from her, and she slipped over
to Mick. Again those skinny claws went through their evolutions with uncanny
silence and effect, whilst I lay, every muscle taut, ready to spring up if
occasion required. My nerve had returned, and now that the piece of lead pipe
was in the hands of the less fiendish partner of this strange concern, I was
ready to wade in. But she found nothing, and Mick slept on. We were too poor to
rob; but this only enraged her the more. Her fingers twisted themselves into
the shawl at her breast, and she silently but vehemently spat at Mick's head as
she moved away.
For half an hour I tried
in vain to sleep, and then the Boss again appeared. This time he bore a huge
bulk of patched and soiled canvas, part of an old sail, which he hung from the
ceiling across the middle of the room, thus shutting off Twinetoes, Mick and
myself from that part where was the door on to the stairs. He was not noisy,
but he made no attempt to keep the previous death stillness of the house.
As the Boss descended
the stairs, a surprising thing happened—and Mick awoke. Girlish laughter
rippled up the stairs! "God Almighty," said Mick, "what's
that?"
Again it came, and with
it the gurgling of the old woman. It was impossible and incredible, that
mingling in the fetid air of those two sounds, as if the babble of clear spring
water had suddenly broken into and merged with the turgid roll of a city sewer.
Mick sat up. "But this is bloody!" he said.
"Wait," was
all I replied.
We waited. Mick slipped
out of bed, carefully opened his knife and made a few judicious slits in the
veiling canvas. My senses had become abnormally acute. I seemed to hear every
shade of sound within and without the house. I could sense, I imagined, the
very positions in which sat the persons in the kitchen below. Even Twinetoes
was affected by the tense atmosphere. He murmured in his sleep and seemed
somewhat sobered, for his limbs took more natural positions on the bed. The
darkness was no longer a bar to vision. By now I could see quite clearly; and
so, I believe, could Mick.
The old woman was
mumbling to the girl. "'S aw ri', mi dear. 'Av' a drink o' this. W'll fix
y'up aw ri'."
She had again dropped
into the low uncertain voice of aimless senility. The girl remained silent.
Glasses clinked. The Boss, I could hear, walked up and down the kitchen, busy
with some final work of the night. A confused murmur came from another corner;
but I could not distinguish the words: The dock rats were apparently discussing
something.
Again that ripple of
sound ascended the stairs, but this time there was an added note of
apprehension. It broke very faintly but pitifully, before dying away to the
sound of light footsteps. Half a dozen stairs were pressed, then came a stumble
and a girlish "A-ah." She recovered herself as the hateful voice from
behind said, "Aw ri', m'dear," and older, surer feet felt the stairs
and pushed on behind the girl. Through the veiling canvas and the old walls I
seemed to see the pair ascending. A few seconds more, and a slight farm rounded
the jamb of the door. The girl's eyes blinked in the walled twilight of the
room. She hesitated on the threshold, but only for a second. The touch of a
following frame impelled her forward. Her uncertain foot caught against a bed
leg and a white hand gripped the steadying rail. Long-nailed claws laced
themselves in the fingers of her other hand and the old woman half drew, half
twisted her into sitting down on the edge of the bed. They began to talk
quietly. I examined them more closely....
The old crone still
played the part of ancient childhood, mumbling words of little import and
obscenely fingering the girl's arms, head, and waist. Some instinct led her to
veil her eyes from the girl, for from those differing orbs gleamed all the
wickedness of her mangled and distorted soul. Fountains rained from her left
eye, whilst the right again held that sinister glow. The girl was half drunk,
and, I fancied, drugged. She swayed slightly where she sat.
She wore a small hat of
a dark velvety material; a white, loose blouse, and what seemed a dark blue
skirt. Round her neck hung an old-fashioned link of coral beads. Her brow was
low but broad, and her hair, brushed back from the forehead, was bunched large
behind, but not below, the head. Her roving eyes, gradually overcoming the
clinging gloom of the place, were dark brown and unnaturally bright. Half open
in an empty smile, her lips disclosed white but somewhat irregular teeth. Seen
plainly in such surroundings, she was—to me—a pitiable and undesirable
creature. I did not like the looks of her now. The mental image formed on the
sound of her laughter was infinitely preferable to the sight of her. She was, I
fancied, some servant girl of a romantic nature. I was right. "I don't
care," she was saying, "I'll never go back. Trust me. Had enough.
Slavey for four bob a week. 'Taint good enough. They said if I couldn't be in
by arf past nine I'd find the door locked. And I did! They c'n keep it
locked."
"'S aw 'ri'. You go
t'sleep 'ere wi' me. W'll put yo' t' ri's. Y'll 'av' a luvly dress t'morro',
an' a go' time. Wait t'l y'see the young man we'll find y' t'morro'. Now go
t'bed." Those twining fingers ceased toying with the girl's hair and
deftly slipped a protecting hook from an all-too-easy eye in the back of the
girl's blouse.
"Three years I've
been a slavey for those stuck-up pigs," said the girl in a subdued mutter,
and then she went on to recount, quaintly and in a half incoherent jumble, the
salient facts of her life. I glanced at Mick. He was leaning forward, peering
through another slit. His face had its old set look; stern, condemnatory. Twice
I had had to reach out and grip his wrist. He wanted to interfere; I was
waiting—I knew not for what.
As the muttering
proceeded, the busy fingers of the old woman loosened the clothes of the
indifferent girl, who soon stood swaying by the side of the bed in her chemise.
Deftly the dirty quilt was slipped back and the girlish form rolled into the
creaking bed. The muttering went on for a few minutes whilst the old woman sat
watching the flushed face and the tumbled hair on the pillow. The girl's right
arm was thrown carelessly abroad over the quilt, the shoulder gleaming white in
the deeper shadow thrown by the old woman who sat with her back to us, looking
down intently at this waiting morsel of humanity. If we had not seen her
before, we could have imagined her to be praying.
Mick, for the first time
since their entry into the room, suddenly looked over at me. The same thoughts
must have flashed through both our brains. What was wrong? Was anything wrong?
Surely the affair was quite simple; and the canvas screen, violated by Mick's
knife, had expressed the needed attempt at decency.
The muttering died down
and the room was hushed to strained silence—to be broken soon by a furtive pad
on the stairs. Mick and I were again alert, staring through the canvas slits.
The Boss now appeared, followed by one of the dock rats. They glanced at the
bed and then looked enquiringly at the old woman.
"Ol' Soloman sh'd
fork out a termer for this," she said in low but clear tones. "But
it's got to be a proper job." Then, to the Boss, and pointing to the
screen, indicating the position of our beds: "You lamming idiot! Didn't I
tell yo'? Yo' sh'd a took their bits an' outed 'm."
The dock rat was
tip-toeing about the bed, like a starved rodent outside a wire-screened piece
of food. His glance shifted from that gleaming shoulder hunched up over the
slim neck to the heavy face of the Boss and then to the old woman, returning
quickly to the form on the bed.
"Oo's goin' t'do
it?" asked the old crone of the Boss. "You or Bill?" and she
drew down the clothes, exposing the limp sprawled limbs of the sleeping girl.
The Boss did not reply. He simply took a half-stride back, away from the bed.
The dock rat's eyes gleamed: he had noted the movement. He ceased his
tip-toeing about and looked at the Boss. "What's my share?"
"Blimy! Your
share?" returned the Boss in a hoarse whisper. Then, pointing to the
waiting, half-naked form: "That!"
In their contemplation
of their victim they were so absorbed that they apparently forgot entirely the
three of us bedded on the other side of the hanging sail. Mick and I were
staggered. We looked at each other, realising at the self-same instant the
whole purpose of this curious conference. By some subtle and secret processes
of the mind again there seemed to be a change in the atmosphere of the room.
Its sordid dinginess was no longer present to our consciousness. There was new
life, heart, and vigour and, in some curious way, our mentalities seemed merged
together. No longer puzzled, we were vibrant with a common purpose. I was angry
and disgusted; Mick was moved to the inmost sanctuary of his Celtic being. He
manifested the last degree of outrage and insult, of agonised anger. For the
moment we were cleansed of all the pettiness and grossness common to manhood,
inspired only with a new-born worship of the inviolable right of the individual
to the disposal of its own tokens of affection and life.
And this new spirit of
ours pervaded the room. The girl moaned in her drunken sleep. Twinetoes turned
restlessly in bed, and the lines of his face sharpened and deepened. Something
was killing the poison in both. Even the trio about the girl were momentarily
moved by some new sensation.
Mick's accustomed
recklessness of action was gone, he was cool and prepared to be calculating. We
slipped on our boots and I moved over to Twinetoes' bed. I touched his arm.
Mumbling curses he opened his eyes. "It's Mac," I whispered, leaning
over and looking steadyingly into his face.
"Wot the
'ell...." he began, but I managed to silence him. Once accustomed to the
gloom, his eyes took in the strangeness of the situation and, painfully
swallowing the foul nausea of his drunk, he calmly and quietly pulled on his
boots.
The old woman had again
covered up the still sleeping girl and engaged the Boss in a wrangle about
money. "You'll bloody well swing yet," said the Boss irrelevantly.
"Mebbe; but that
don't alter it. I wants my full share 'n I means to 'av' it."
Dispassionately, the
dock rat eyed them both and hoped for the best for himself. We had ceased to
exist for them. "Goin'?" asked the dock rat as the others moved
towards the stairs. They looked at him, but did not reply. So far as we were
aware, though we had forgotten the entire world outside that room, there had
been complete silence downstairs; but now we could hear movement. The other dock
rats were evidently awake and waiting. As the foot of the Boss fell on the top
stair, the spell seemed to fall from Mick. He glared fixedly at the dock rat
who stood by the girl's bed. "I'll tear his guts out," said Mick with
appalling certainty of tone.
The old woman heard it.
The lead pipe again in her fist, like a cornered rat she whipped round. Mick
did not wait; full at the canvas he sprang. His Irish impulsiveness overcame
caution, and in a moment he was wrapped in the hanging sail, the old woman battering
the bellying folds. The dock rat's head was knocking at the wall, Twinetoes
cursing rhythmically and shutting off his breath with fingers of steel. My left
eye was half closed and the Boss's knuckles were bleeding. The girl, awake and
utterly confounded, blinked foolishly and silently, weakly trying to fix her
eyes on some definite point in the tangled thread of palpitating life that
surged about her.
"Look out! Drop
him!" I shouted to Twinetoes as I swung in, furious but with some care, to
the face of the Boss. Twinetoes did not heed; he staggered across the room
under a blow from one of the new arrivals; but he did not loose his hold. He
was a hefty man, entirely reliable, indeed almost happy in such an affair. As
number two dock rat tried to follow up his blow, Twinetoes swung number one
round in his way; then, changing his hold, taking both the man's shoulders in
his hands, he drew back his head as a snake does and butted his man clean over
one of the beds.... His face a pitiful pulp, number one was definitely out of
it.
Ordinarily, the Boss
would have been much too much for me; but now fate favoured me. He was
considerably perturbed about the possible outcome of the row and its effect on
his business; I was intent only on the fight. With a clean left-hand cut I
drove him over, tore a quilt from a bed and flung it over his dazed head, then
swung round to where the lead pipe was still flailing. I was concerned for
Mick. Seizing the old woman's shoulders I flung her back from Mick and the
sail. He would have cleared himself, but his legs were somehow mixed up with
the foot of the bed, and she occupied his attention too much. The hag raised
the lead and rushed, and for the only time in my life I hit a woman. Without
hesitancy or compunction, only revolted at the thought of such contact with
such matter, I smashed her down. The Boss and Mick freed themselves together
and embraced each other willingly. Twinetoes was playing skittles with the
remaining dock rats. There was surprisingly little noise. No one shouted. There
was no howling hounding on of each other. All but the girl were absorbed in the
immediate business of giving or warding off of blows.
"Dress,
quick!" I said to the girl.
The fight had shifted to
the centre, and her bed had remained unmoved, herself unmolested. In wondering
silence she obeyed. "Quicker! Quicker!" I enjoined, with a new brutal
note in my voice. The reaction had set in. I could cheerfully have shoved her
down the stairs and flung her garments after her.
The kip was hidden away
in a dark alley, the history and reputation of which were shudderingly
doubtful, but there were police within dangerous hailing distance. The girl's
lips began to quiver. Supposing she broke down and raised the court by
hysterical howling! "Don't breathe a sound, or we'll leave you to
it," I threatened. She shrank back, gave a low moan, and clutched my coat.
I tore her hand loose and turned away in time to floor the Boss by an easy blow
on his left ear. The fight was finished.
We wasted no time but
descended the stairs and passed out through the court into the street. There
were signs of life in the gloomy court, though no one spoke or molested us; the
street was dead silent. Mick's arms and shoulders were a mass of bruises from
the lead pipe, but his face was clear. Twinetoes was all right, he said, but
craving for a wet. I alone showed evidence of the struggle; my eye was
unsightly and painful, and my left wrist was slightly sprained. The girl sobbed
quietly. "Oh! Oh!" she cried repeatedly, "whatever's to become
of me!"
She irritated me.
"Shut up!" I said at last, "You'll be all right."
She snuffled unceasingly. I looked across at Mick—she walked between us,
Twinetoes on my right—and at once I saw the outcome of it all. "Stop it,
blast you!" I shook her shoulder. "My pal is the best, biggest fool
that ever raised a fist. He's silly enough for anything decent," and then,
with the voice of conviction born of absolute certainty of mind: "He'll
never chuck you over. He'll marry you sometime, you fool!"
15.THE BACKSTAIRS OF THE MIND by ROSAMOND LANGBRIDGE
(From The Manchester Guardian) 1922
Patrick Deasey described
himself as a "philosopher, psychologist, and humorist." It was partly
because Patrick delighted in long words, and partly to excuse himself for being
full of the sour cream of an inhuman curiosity. His curiosity, however, did not
extend itself to science and belles lettres; it concerned itself
wholly with the affairs of other people. At first, when Deasey retired from the
police force with a pension and an heiress with three hundred pounds, and time
hung heavy on his hands, he would try to satisfy this craving through the
medium of a host of small flirtations with everybody's maid. In this way he
could inform himself exactly how many loaves were taken by the Sweeneys for a
week's consumption, as compared with those which were devoured by all the
Cassidys; for whom the bottles at the Presbytery went in by the back door; and
what was the real cause of the quarrel between the twin Miss McInerneys.
But these were but
blackbird-scratchings, as it were, upon the deep soil of the human heart. What
Deasey cared about was what he called "the secrets of the soul."
"Never met a
man," he was wont to say, "with no backstairs to his mind! And the
quieter, decenter, respectabler, innocenter a man looked—like enough!—the
darker those backstairs!"
It was up these stairs
he craved to go. To ring at the front door of ordinary intercourse was not
enough for him. When Deasey invested his wife's money in a public-house he
developed a better plan. It was the plan which made him ultimately describe
himself as a humorist. He would wait until the bar was deserted by all but the
one lingering victim whom his trained eye had picked out. Then, rolling that
same eye about him, as though to make quite sure no other living creature was
in sight, he would gently close the door of the bar-parlour, pick up a tumbler,
breathe on it, polish the breath, lean one elbow on the bar, look round him
once again, and, setting the whisky-bottle betwixt his customer and himself,
with a nod which said "Help yourself," he would lean forward, with
the soft indulgent grin of the human man-of-the-world, and begin:
"Now, don't
distress yourself, me dear man, but as between frien's, certain delicate
little—facts—in your past life have come inadvertently to me hearing."
Sometimes he would
allude to a "certain document," or "incriminating facts,"
or "certain letters"—he would ring the changes on these three,
according to the sex and temperament with which he had to deal. But always,
whatever the words, whatever the nature or sex, the shot would tell. First came
the little start, the straightened figure, the pallor or flush, the shamed and
suddenly-lit eyes, and then—
"Who told you, Mr.
Deasey, sir?" Or "Where did you get the letter?"
"Ah, now, that
would be telling!" Deasey would make reply. "But 'twas from a certain
person whom, perhaps, we need not name!" Then the whiskey-bottle
would move forward, like a pawn in chess, and the next soothing words would be,
"Help yourself now—don't be shy, me dear man! And—your secret is safe with
me!"
Forthwith the little
skeleton in that man's cupboard would lean forward and press upon the door,
until at last the door flew open and a bone or two, and sometimes the whole
skeleton, would rattle out upon the floor.
He had played this game
so often, that, almost at first sight he could classify his dupes under the
three heads into which he had divided them: Those who demanded with violent
threats—(which melted like snow before the sunshine of John Jamieson) the
letter, or the name of the informant; those who asked, after a gentle sip or
two how the letter had come into his hands, and those who asked immediately if
the letter hadn't been destroyed. As a rule, from the type that demanded the
letter back, he only caught sight of the tip of the secret's ears. From
those—they were nearly always the women—who swiftly asked if he hadn't
destroyed the letters, he caught shame-faced gleams of the truth.
But those who asked
between pensive sips, how the facts or the letter had come his way, these were
the ones who yielded Deasey the richest harvest of rattling skeleton bones.
Indeed, it was curiously
instructive how John Jamieson laid down a causeway of gleaming stepping-stones,
so that Deasey might cross lightly over the turgid waters of his victims'
souls. At the words, accompanied by John Jamieson—"A certain dark page of
your past history—help yourself, me boy!—has been inadvertently revealed to me,
but is for ever sacred in me breast!"—it was strange to see how, from the
underworld of the man's mind, there would trip out the company of misshapen
hobgoblins and gnomes which had been locked away in darkness, maybe, this many
a year.
"Well—how would I
get the time to clane the childer and to wash their heads, and I working all
the day at curing stinkin' hides! 'Twas Herself should have got it, and Herself
alone!"...
Or—
"No, I never done
it, for all me own mother sworn I did. I only give the man a little push—that
way!—and he fell over on the side, and busted all his veins!"
Or—
"Well, an' wouldn't
you draw two pinsions yourself, Mr. Deasey, if you'd a wife with two han's like
a sieve for yellow gold!"
But there were some
confessions, haltingly patchy and inadequate, but hauntingly suggestive, which
Deasey could neither piece out on the spot, nor yet unravel in the small hours
of the night. There was one of this nature which troubled his rest long:
"Well, the way of
it was, you see, he put it up the chimbley, but when the chimbley-sweepers come
he transferred it in his weskit to my place, and I dropped it down the well.
They found it when they let the bucket down, but I wasn't his accomplice at
all, 'twas only connivance with me!"
When he had spoken of
the chimney and the well Deasey concluded at once it was a foully murdered
corpse. But then, again, you could not well conceal a corpse in someone's
waistcoat; and gold coins would melt or be mislaid amongst the loose bricks of
a sooty chimney. Deasey had craved for corpses, but nothing so grim as that had
risen to his whisky-bait until he tried the same old game on Mrs. Geraghty.
What subtle instinct was it that had prompted him to add to the first unvarying
words: "But all that is now past and over, and safe beneath the mouldering
clay!"
At these last words, the
Widow Geraghty knew well, the barrier was down that fences off one human soul
from another; all the same, she shook her trembling head when Deasey drew the
cork. At her refusal Deasey was struck with the most respectful compassion; until
that hour he had never known one single lacerated soul decline this
consolation.
"And to look at
me!" she wept forthwith, "would you think I could shed a drop of
ruddy gore?"
"No, ma'am,"
returned Deasey. "To look at you, ye'd think ma'am ye could never kill a
fly!"
And respectfully he
passed the peppermints.
"Sometimes,"
the widow muttered, "I hears it, and it bawling in me dreams o' night. And
the two bright eyes of it, and the little clay cold feet!" Deasey knew
what was coming now, and he twitched in every vein. And she so white-haired and
so regular at church: and the black bonnet on the head of her, an' all!
"It was the only little one she had," went on the widow, bowed almost
to the bar by shame, "and it always perched up on her knee, and taking food
from her mouth, and she nursing it agin her face. But I had bad teeth in me
head, and I couldn't get my rest, with the jaws aching, and all the whiles it
screeching with the croup. 'Twould madden you!"
"All the
same," Deasey whispered, "maybe it wasn't your fault: 'twas maybe
your man egged you on to do the shameful deed——"
"It was so,"
said the widow. "'Let you get up and cut its throat,' says he, 'and then
we will be shut of the domned screechin' thing.'" "Then you got the
knife, ma'am," prompted Deasey. "It was the bread-knife," she
answered, "with the ugly notches in the blade,—and I stole in the back way
to her place in the dead hours of the night—and I had me apron handy for to
quench the cries; and when I c'ot it be the throat didn't it look up at me with
the two bright, innocent eyes!"
"And what'd you do
with the body?" he asked.
"I dug a grave in
the shine of the moon," she answered. "And I put it in by the two
little cold grey feet——"
This touch of the grey
feet laid a spell on Deasey's hankering morbidity.
"What turned the
feet grey?" he whispered.
"Nature, I
s'pose!" replied the white-haired widow. She drew her shawl about her
shrinking form before she turned away.
"'Twas never found
out, from that hour to this, who done it!" muttered the Widow Geraghty,
"but, may the Divvle skelp me if I touch one drop of chucken-tea
again!"
16.THE BIRTH OF A MASTERPIECE by LUCAS MALET
(From The Story-Teller) 1922
Looking back on it from
this distance of time—it began in the early and ended in the middle eighties—I
see the charm of ingenuous youth stamped on the episode, the touching glamour
of limitless faith and expectation. We were, the whole little band of us, so
deliciously self-sufficient, so magnificently critical of established
reputations in contemporary letters and art. We sniffed and snorted, noses in
air, at popular idols, while ourselves weighted down with a cargo of guileless
enthusiasm only asking opportunity to dump itself at an idol's feet. We ached
to burn incense before the altar of some divinity; but it must be a divinity of
our own discovering, our own choosing. We scorned to acclaim ready-made,
second-hand goods. Then we encountered Pogson—Heber Pogson. Our fate, and even
more, perhaps, his fate, was henceforth sealed.
He was a large, sleek,
pink creature, slow and rare of movement, from much sitting bulky, not to say
squashy, in figure, mild-eyed, slyly jovial and—for no other word, to my mind,
so closely fits his attitude—resigned. A positive glutton of books, he read as
instinctively, almost as unconsciously, as other men breathe. But he not only
absorbed. He gave forth and that copiously, with taste, with discrimination,
now and again with startlingly eloquent flights and witty sallies. His memory
was prodigious. The variety and vivacity of his conversation, the immense range
of subjects he brilliantly laboured, when in the vein, remain with me as simply
marvellous. With us he mostly was in the vein. And, vanity apart, we must have
composed a delightful audience, generously censer-swinging. No man of even
average feeling but would be moved by such fresh, such spontaneous admiration!
Thus, if our divinity melodiously piped, we did very radiantly dance to his
piping.
Oh! Heber Pogson enjoyed
it. Never tell me he didn't revel in those highly articulate evenings of
monologue, gasconade, heated yet brotherly argument, lasting on to midnight and
after, every bit as much as we did! Anyhow at first. Later he may have had
twinges, been sensible of strain; though never, I still believe, a very severe
one. In any case, Nature showed herself his friend—his saviour, if also, in
some sort, his executioner. When the strain tended to become distressing, for
him personally, very simply and cleverly, she found a way out.
A background of dark
legend only brought the steady glow of his—and our—present felicity into richer
relief. We gathered hints of, caught in passing smiling allusion to, straitened
and impecunious early years. He had endured a harsh enough apprenticeship to
the profession of letters in its least satisfactory, because most ephemeral,
form—namely journalism, and provincial journalism at that. This must have
painfully cribbed and confined his free-ranging spirit. We were filled by
reverent sympathy for the trials and deprivations of his past. But at the
period when the members—numbering a dozen, more or less—of our devoted band
trooped up from Chelsea and down from the Hampstead heights to worship in the
studio-library of the Church Street, Kensington, house, Pogson was lapped in a
material well-being altogether sufficient. He treated us, his youthful friends
and disciples, to very excellent food and drink; partaking of these himself,
moreover, with evident readiness and relish. Those little
"help-yourselves," stand-up suppers in the big, quiet, comfortably
warmed and shaded room revealed in him no ascetic tendency, though, I hasten to
add, no tendency to unbecoming excess. Such hospitality testified to the
soundness of Pogson's existing financial position; as did his repeated
assertions that now, at last—praise heaven—he had leisure to do worthy and
abiding work, work through which he could freely express his personality,
express in terms of art his judgments upon, and appreciations of, the human
scene.
We listened breathless,
nodding exuberant approval. For weren't we ourselves, each and all of us,
mightily in love with art and with the human scene? And hadn't we, listening
thus breathlessly to our amazing master, the enchanting assurance that we were
on the track of a masterpiece? Not impossibly a whole gallery of masterpieces,
since Heber Pogson had barely touched middle age as yet. For him there still
was time. Fiction, we gathered to be the selected medium. He not only meant to
write, but was actually now engaged in writing, a novel during those withdrawn
and sacred morning hours when we were denied admittance to his presence. We
previsaged something tremendous, poetic yet fearlessly modern, fixed on the
bedrock of realism, a drama and a vision wide, high, deep, spectacular yet
subtle as life itself. Let his confreres, French and Russian—not to mention
those merely British born—look to their laurels, when Heber Pogson blossomed
into print! And—preciously inspiring thought—he was our Pogson. He inalienably
belonged to us; since hadn't we detected the quality of his genius when the
veil was still upon its face? Oh! we knew, bless you; we knew. We'd the right
to sniff and snort, noses in air, at contemporary reputations because we were
snugly awaiting the disclosure of a talent which would prick them into
nothingness like so many bubbles, pop them like so many inflated paper bags,
knock them one and all into the proverbial cocked hat!
Unfortunately youth,
with a fine illogic, though having all the time there is before it, easily
waxes impatient. In our eagerness for his public recognition, his apotheosis,
we did, I am afraid, hustle our great man a little. Instead of being satisfied
with his nocturnal coruscations—they brilliant as ever, let it be noted—we just
a fraction resented the slowness of his progress, began ever so gently to shove
that honoured bulky form behind and pull at it in front. We wanted the tangible
result of those many sacred and secret morning hours during which his novel was
in process of being formed and fashioned, gloriously built up. Wouldn't he tell
us the title, enlighten us as to the theme, the scheme, thus allaying the
hunger pangs of our pious curiosity by crumbs—ever so small and few—dropped
from his richly furnished table? With exquisite good-humour, he fenced and
feinted. Almost roguishly he would laugh us off and launch the conversation
into other channels, holding us—after the first few vexatiously outwitted
seconds—at once enthralled and delicately rebuked.
But at last—in the late
spring, as far as I remember, of the second year of our devotion—there came a
meeting at which things got pressed somehow to a head. Contrary to custom
feminine influence made itself felt.
And here I pause and
blush. For it strikes me as so intimately characteristic of our whole
relation—in that earlier stage, at least—that I should have written all this on
the subject of Heber Pogson without making one solitary mention of his wife.
She existed. Was permanently in evidences—or wasn't it, rather, in eclipse?—as
a shadowy parasitic entity perambulating the hinterland of his domestic life.
She must have been by some years his junior—a tall, thin, flat-chested woman,
having heavy, yellowish brown hair, a complexion to match, and pale, nervous
eyes. Her clothes hung on her as on a clothes-peg. She affected vivid greens—as
was the mistaken habit of Victorian ladies possessing the colouring falsely
called "auburn"—but clouded their excessive verdure to neutrality by
semi-transparent over-draperies of black. Harry Lessingham, in a crudely unchivalrous
mood, once described her as "without form and void," adding that she
"had a mouth like a fish." These statements I considered unduly
harsh, yet admitted her almost miraculously negative. She mattered less, when
one was in the room with her, than anything human and feminine which I, so far,
had ever run across. And I was at least normally susceptible, I'm very sure of
that.
As a matter of course,
on our arrival at the blest house in Church Street, we one and all respectfully
greeted her, passed, to put it vulgarly, the time of day with her. But there
intercourse ceased. At some subsequent instant she faded out—whether into space
or into some adjacent connubial chamber, I had no notion. I only realized, when
the act was accomplished, that we now were without her, that she had vanished,
leaving behind her no faintest moral or emotional trace.
But, on the occasion in
question, she did not vanish. We fed her at supper. And still she remained—in
the interests of social propriety, as we imagined, since for once the Pogson
symposium included a stranger, an eminently attractive lady guest.
Harry Lessingham had
begged to bring his sister with him. He told me of this beforehand, and I
rejoiced. Lessingham had long been dear to me as a brother; while that Arabella
should only be dear to me as a sister was, just then, I own, among the things I
wished least. I craved, therefore, to have her share our happy worship. She had
a pretty turn for literature herself. I coveted to see her dazzled, exalted,
impressed—it would be a fascinating spectacle. Before I slept that night, or
rather next morning, I recognized her coming as a disastrous mistake. For she
had received insufficient instruction in ritual, in the suitable forms of
approach to so august a presence as that of our host. She played round him,
flickering, darting, like lightning round a cathedral tower, metal tipped.
Where we, in our young male modesty, had but gently drawn or furtively shoved,
she tickled the soft, sedentary creature's ribs as with a rapier point. And—to
us agitated watchers—the amazing thing was, that Pogson didn't seem to mind. He
neither rebuked her nor laughed her off; but purred, veritably purred, under
her alternate teasing and petting like some big, sleek cat.
At last, with a cajoling
but really alarming audacity, she went for him straight.
"Of course, dear
Mr. Pogson, Harry has told me all about your wonderful novel," she said.
"I am so interested, so thrilled—and so grateful to you for letting me
join your audience to-night. But I want quite frightfully to know more.
Speaking not only for myself, but for all who are present, may I implore a
further revelation? Pray don't send us empty away in respect of the wonderful
book. It would be so lovely while we sit here at your feet."...
She, in fact, sat by his
side, her chair placed decidedly close to his.
"If you would read
us a chapter.... A chapter is impossible?"...
Her charming, pliant
mouth; her charming dancing eyes; her caressing voice—I won't swear even her
caressing hands didn't, for a brief space, take part—all wooed him to
surrender.
"Well, a page then,
a paragraph? Ah! don't be obdurate. The merest sentence? Surely we may claim as
much as that? Picture our pride, our happiness."
She enclosed us all in a
circular and sympathetic glance, which ended, as it had started, by meeting his
mild eyes, lingering appealingly upon his large, pink countenance.
Pogson succumbed. No, he
wouldn't read; but, since she so amiably desired it....
"More than anything
in all my life!" with the most convincing and virginal sincerity.
... He thought he might
rehearse a passage, which wasn't—as he gladly believed—altogether devoid of
merit. He did rehearse it. And we broke into applause the more tempestuous
because suspicion of a chill queerly lay upon us. A chill insidious as it was
vague, disturbing as it was—wasn't it? we silently, quite violently, hoped
so—ridiculously uncalled for.
"After all, that
passage is thundering good, you know," Harry Lessingham announced, as
though arguing with himself, arguing himself out of that same invidious chill,
an hour later.
Arabella had refused a
hansom, declaring herself excited, still under the spell, and so wanting to
walk. Leaving the Church Street house, the three of us crossed into Campden
Grove, with a view to turning down Campden House Road, thus reaching Kensington
High Street.
"It was out of
sight of the average—packed with epigram; worthy of all we've ever believed or
asked of him. It takes a master of technique, of style, to write like
that."
"Beloved brother,
which of us ever said it didn't?" Arabella took him up sweetly.
Slender, light-footed,
the train of her evening gown switched over her arm, beneath her flowing orange
and white-flowered satin cloak, she walked between us.
"Why, it was good
to the point of being inevitable. One seemed—I certainly did—to know every
phrase, every word which was coming. None could have been other, or been placed
otherwise than it was—and that's the highest praise one can give to anybody's
prose, isn't it? One jumped to the perfect rightness of the whole—a rightness
so perfect as to make the sentences sound quite extraordinarily familiar."
This last assertion
dropped as a bomb between Lessingham and myself.
"By the way,"
the girl presently said, as our awkward silence continued, "has either of
you happened to read, or re-read, Meredith's 'Egoist' just lately?"
Lessingham stopped
short, and in the light of a neighbouring gas-lamp I saw his handsome, boyish
face look troubled to the point of physical pain.
"What on earth are
you driving at? What do you mean, Arabella—that Pogson is a plagiarist?"
"Don't eat me,
Harry dearest, if I incline to use a shorter, commoner expression."
"A thief?"
"An unconscious
one, no doubt," she threw off quickly, fearful of explosions, possibly, in
her turn. "He may have been betrayed by his own extraordinary
memory."
"But this is
horrible, horrible," Lessingham cried. "All the names, though, were
different."
Arabella appeared to
have overcome her fear of explosions. Her charming eyes again danced.
"Exactly," she
said. "That was the peculiar part of it, the thing which riveted my
attention. He had—I mean the names of the characters and places were
different—were altered, changed."
Lessingham stood
bare-headed in the light of a gas-lamp. He ran the fingers of his left hand
through his crisp fair hair, rumpling it up into a distracted crest. I could
see, could almost hear, the travail of his honest soul. Loyalty, faith and
honour worked at high pressure to hit on a satisfactory explanation.
Suddenly he threw back
his head and laughed.
"Why, of
course," he cried, "it's as clear as mud. Pogson wasn't betrayed by
anything. He did it on purpose. Don't you understand, you dear goose, you
very-much-too-clever-by-half dear goose? It was simply his kindly joke, his
good-natured little game. And we, like the pack of idiots which—compared with
him—we are, never scented it. You pestered—yes, Arabella, most unconscionably
pestered him to read an excerpt from his novel; and to pacify you he quoted a
page from Meredith instead."
Harry Lessingham tucked
his hand under the folds of the orange and white-flowered cloak, and taking the
girl affectionately by the elbow, trotted her down the sloping pavement towards
Kensington High Street.
"All the honours of
war rest with Pogson," he joyfully assured her. "You made an
importunate, impertinent demand for bread. He didn't mean to be drawn; but was
too civil, too tender-hearted to put you off with a stone, so slyly cut you a
slice from another man's loaf. Does it occur to you, my sweet sister, you've
been had—very neatly had?"
"If it comes to
that, Miss Lessingham by no means stands alone," I interrupted.
"We've all been had, as you so gracefully put it, very neatly and very
extensively had."
For though I trusted
Lessingham's view was the correct one—trusted so most devoutly—I could not but
regret the discomfiture of Arabella. Her approach to our chosen idol may have
slightly lacked in reverence; she may, indeed, in plain English, have cheeked
him. But she had done so in the prettiest, airiest manner. Pogson's punishment
of her indiscretion, if highly ingenious, still struck me as not in the best
taste. For was it not at once rather mean and rather cheap to make so charming
a person the subject, and that before witnesses, of a practical joke?
If, after all, it really
was a joke. That insidious, odious chill which earlier prompted my tempestuous
applause, as I woefully registered, hung about me yet. Unquestionably Arabella
Lessingham's visit to Church Street showed more and more, when I considered it,
as a radical mistake! From it I date the waning of the moon of my delight in
respect of both Pogson and herself. I had bowed in worship, equally sincere,
though diverse in sentiment, before each; and to each had pledged my
allegiance. To have them thus discredit one another represented the most trying
turn of events.
For a full month I
cold-shouldered the band, abjured the shrine, and avoided the lady. Then, while
still morose and brooding, my trouble at its height, a cousin—in the third
degree—rich, middle-aged, and conveniently restless, invited me to be his
travelling companion. We had taken trips together before. This one promised
fields of wider adventure—nothing less than the quartering of southern Europe,
along with nibblings at African and Asiatic Mediterranean coasts. It was the
chance of a life-time. I embraced it. I also called at the house in Church
Street to make my farewells. I could do no less.
I have used the word
"resigned" in describing Pogson. To-day that word notably covered
him. Our friend appeared depressed; yet bland in his depression, anxious to
mollify and placate rather than reproach. His attitude touched me. I hardly
deserved it after my neglect—to which, by the way, he made no smallest
reference. But as I unfolded my plans, he increasingly threw off his depression
and generously entered into them. Would have me fetch an atlas and trace out my
proposed itinerary upon the map. It included names to conjure with. These set
wide the flood-gates of his speech. He at once enchanted and confounded me by
his knowledge of the literature, art, history, of Syria, Egypt, Italy, Greece,
and the Levant.
For the next
three-quarters of an hour I had Pogson at his best. And oh! how vastly good
that same best was! Under the flashing, multi-coloured light of it, he routed
my suspicions; put my annoyance and distrust to flight. As he leaned back in
the roomy library chair, filled to veritable overflowing by his big, squashy,
brown-velvet jacketted person—Pogson had put on flesh of late; put it on
sensibly, as I remarked, even during the few weeks of my absence—he reconquered
all my admiration and belief.
As I rose to depart:
"Ah! you fortunate
youth," he thus genially addressed me; "thrice fortunate youth, in
your freedom, your enterprise, your happy elasticity of flesh and spirit! What
won't you have to tell me of things actually seen, of lands, cities,
civilizations, past and present, and the storied wonder of them, when you come
back!"
"And what won't you
have to read to me in return, dear Master," I echoed, eager to testify to
my recovered faith. "By then the book will be finished on which all our
hopes and affections are set. Ten times more precious, more illuminating than
anything I have seen, will be what I hear from you when I come back!"
But, as I spoke, surely
I wasn't mistaken in thinking that for an agitating minute the pinkness of
Pogson's large countenance sickly ebbed and blanched. And while my attention
was still engaged by this disquieting phenomenon, I became aware that Mrs.
Pogson had joined us. Silently, mysteriously, she faded—the term holds
good—into evidence, as on so many former occasions she had silently,
mysteriously faded out.
Dressed in one of those
verdant gowns, so dolorously veiled in semi-transparent black, she stood behind
her husband's chair. Her eyes met mine. They were no longer nervous or in
expression vague; but oddly aggressive, challenging, defiantly alight.
"Oh, yes," she
declared, "by then Heber will have completed his great novel, without
doubt."
When uttering his name,
she laid a thin, long-fingered hand upon his rounded shoulder, and to my—little
short of—stupefaction, I saw Pogson's fat, pink hand move up to seek and clasp
it.
On me this action—hers
soothing, protective; his appealing, welcoming—produced the most bewildering
effect. I felt embarrassed and abashed; an indecently impertinent intruder upon
the secret places of two human hearts. That any such intimate and tender
correspondence existed between this so strangely ill-assorted couple I never
dreamed.
I uttered what must have
sounded wildly incoherent farewells and fled.
Of the ensuing eighteen
months of foreign travel it is irrelevant here to speak. Suffice it that on my
return to England and to Chelsea, the earliest news which greeted me was that
Arabella Lessingham had been now five weeks married and Heber Pogson a
fortnight dead. Lessingham, dear, good fellow, was my informant, and minded
acquainting me, so I fancied, only a degree less with the first item than with
the second.
For some considerable
time, he told me, Pogson had been ailing. He grew inordinately stout, unwieldy
to the extent of all exertion, all movement causing him distress. Suffocation
threatened if he attempted to lie down; so that, latterly, he spent not only
all day, but all night sitting in the big library chair we knew so well. If not
actually in pain, he must still have suffered intolerable discomfort. But he
never complained, and to the last his passion for books never failed.
"We took him any
new ones we happened to run across, as you'd take a sick woman flowers. To the
end he read."
"And wrote?" I
asked.
"That I can't
say," Lessingham replied. "There were things I could not make out.
And I couldn't question him. It didn't seem to be my place, though I had an
idea he'd something on his mind to speak of which would be a relief. It worried
me badly. I felt sure he wanted to tell us, but couldn't bring himself to the
point. He talked of you. He cared for you more than for any of us; yet—I may be
all wrong—it seemed to me he was glad you weren't here. Once or twice, I
thought, he felt almost afraid you might come back before—before it was all
over, you know. It sounds rather horrible, but I had a feeling he longed to
slink off quietly out of sight—for he did not dread death, I'm certain of that.
What he dreaded was that life had some trick up her sleeve which, if he delayed
too long, might give him away; put him to shame somehow at the last."
"And Mrs.
Pogson?"
Lessingham looked at me
absently.
"Oh! Mrs. Pogson?
She's never interested me. She's too invertebrate; but I believe she took care
of Pogson all right."
Next day I called at the
house in Church Street. After some parley I was admitted into the
studio-library. Neither in Mrs. Pogson nor in the familiar room did I find any
alteration, save that the green had disappeared from her dress. She wore
hanging, trailing, unrelieved black. And that a piece of red woollen cord was
tied across, from arm to arm, of Pogson's large library chair, forbidding
occupation of it. This pleased me. It struck the positive, the, in a way,
aggressive note, which Mrs. Pogson had once before so strangely, unexpectedly,
sounded in my presence.
I said the things common
to such occasions as that of our present meeting; said them with more than
merely conventional feeling and emphasis. I praised her husband's great gifts,
his amazing learning, his eloquence, the magnetic charm by which he captivated
and held us.
Finally I dared the
question I had come here to ask, which had burned upon my tongue, indeed, from
the moment I heard of Pogson's death.
"What about the
novel? Might we hope for speedy, though posthumous, publication? We were
greedy; the world should know how great a literary genius it had lost. Was it
ready for press, as—did she remember?—she'd assured me it would certainly be by
the time I came back?"
Mrs. Pogson did not
betray any sign of emotion. Her thin hands remained perfectly still in her
crape-covered lap.
"There is no
novel," she calmly told me. "There never has been any novel. Heber
did not finish it because he never began it. He did not possess the creative
faculty. You were not content with what he gave. You asked of him that which he
could not give. At first he played with you—it amused him. You were so
gullible, so absurdly ignorant. Then he hesitated to undeceive you—in that, I
admit, he was weak. But he suffered for his weakness. It made him unhappy. Oh I
how I have hated—how I still hate you!—for I saved him from poverty, from hard
work. I secured him a peaceful, beautiful life, till you came and spoilt it....
All the money was mine," she said.
17."GENIUS" by ELINOR MORDAUNT
(From Hutchinson's Magazine and The Century
Magazine) 1921, 1922
I have written before of
Ben Cohen, with his eternal poring and humming over the scores of great
masters; of the timber-yard at Canning Town, for ever changing and for ever the
same, devouring forests with the eternal wind-like rush of saws, slide of
gigantic planes; practical and chill; wrapped in river-fogs, and yet exotic
with the dust of cedar, camphor, paregoric.
In those days Ben Cohen
was wont to read music as other boys read their penny-dreadfuls, avidly, with
the imagined sounds like great waves for ever a-rush through his soul.
In the very beginning it
was any music, just music. Then for a while Wagner held him. Any Wagnerian
concert, any mixed entertainment which included Wagner—it seemed as though he
sniffed them upon the breeze—and he would tramp for miles, wait for hours;
biting cold, sleet, snow, mud, rain, all alike disregarded by that persistence
which the very poor must bring to the pursuit of pleasure, the capture of cheap
seats.
Once ensconced,
regardless of hard, narrow seats, heights, crowds, his passion of adoration and
excitement took him, shook him, tore him so that it was wonder his frail body
did not split in two, render up the soul coming forth as Lazarus from the
sepulchre. It was indeed, if you knew little Ben Cohen, him, himself,
difficult to realise that his body had anything more to do with him than the
yellow-drab water-proof which is a sort of uniform—a species of charity,
covering a multitude of sins of poverty, shabbiness, thread-bareness—had to do
with the real Jenny Bligh.
And yet, Ben Cohen's
body was more completely his than one might have imagined. Jenny could, and
indeed did, slough off her disguise on Sundays or rare summer days; but Ben and
that self which was apart from music—that wildly-beating heart, pulsing blood,
flooding warmth, grateful as the watchman's fire in the fog-sodden yard, that
little fire over which he used to hang, warming his stiffened hands—were, after
all, amazingly one.
The thing surprised him
even more than it surprised any one else; above all, when it refused to be
separated from his holy of holies, crept, danced, smiled its way through the
most portentous scores—a thrilling sense of Jenny Bligh, all crotchets and
quavers, smiles and thrills, quaint homeliness, sudden dignity.
By the time he first met
Jenny he was clear of Wagner, had glanced a little patronisingly at Beethoven,
turned aside and enwrapped himself in the sombre splendour of Bach, right away
from the world; then, harking back, with a fresh vision, a sudden sense of the
inevitable, had anchored himself in the solemn, wide-stretching harbourage of
Beethoven.
It was like a return
from a long voyage, tearing round a world full of beauty and interest, and yet,
at the same time, full of pettiness, fuss, annoyance: a home-coming beyond
words. There was a sense of eternity, a harmony which drew everything to
itself, smoothing out the pattern of life, the present life and the life to
come, so crumpled that, up to this time, he had had no real idea of the meaning
of it.
All at once everything
was immensely right, with Jenny as an essential and inevitable part of the
rightness. He felt this so strongly that he never stopped to wonder if other
people felt it as plainly as he did.
Apart from all this, he
was bound by the inarticulateness of his class. His Jewish blood lent him a
wider and more picturesque vocabulary than most, and yet it stopped at any discussion
of his feelings.
We have an idea that
what we call the "common people" are more communicative on such
subjects than we are; but this is not so. They talk of their physical ailments
and sensations, but they are deeply shy upon the subject of their feelings.
Ben's mother would discuss the state of her inside, the deaths of her relations
and friends; his own birth, down to the smallest detail. But she would never
have dreamt of telling her son that she loved him, desired his love, hungered
for his coming, grieved at his going.
Ben himself put none of
his feeling for Beethoven into words, above all to his mother; she would not
have understood him if he had. He said nothing of Jenny, either, save as a girl
he'd met, a girl he was going to bring home to tea; but she understood that
without any words; that was courting, part of the business of human nature;
much like the preparation of meals.
It was odd, coming to
think of it—might have been ridiculous, save that ridicule was the sort of
thing which could find no possible lodgment with Ben—that his determination to
devote his whole musical life to Beethoven, to interpret him as no Englishman
had ever done before, should have been synonymous with his sacred, heady, and
yet absolute determination to marry Jenny Bligh.
Jenny worked in the
jam-factory, and there was something of the aroma of ripe fruit about her: ripe
strawberries, raspberries, plums, damsons. She was plumpish and fresh: very red
lips and very bright eyes, reddish-brown, the colour of blackberry leaves in
autumn, with hair to match. Her little figure was neat; her small hands, with
their square-tipped fingers, deft and quick in their movements; there was
something at once rounded and clear-cut about everything she did.
A sea-faring admirer
used to say that she was "a bit short in the beam, but a daisy fur
carryin' sail"; and that was the idea she gave: so well-balanced, so trim,
going off to work in her wide white apron on those rare mornings when she shook
off the yellow mackintosh.
Ben saw her like that
for the first time crossing the Lee just below the timber-yard with its cranes
like black notes zigzagging out over the river, which had for once discarded
its fog. It was a day of bright blue sky, immense, rounded, silvery clouds,
fresh and clean; with a wind which caught up the white apron and billowed it
out for the sheer fun of the thing: showing trim ankles, the turn of a plump
calf, such as Ben Cohen had never even thought of before, the realisation of
which was like wine: freshly tasted, red, fruity, running through his veins,
mounting to his head. He had known that women had legs; his mother, the
laundress, suffered from hers—complainingly, devoted woman as she was—swollen
with much standing, and "them there dratted veins": stocky legs, with
loose folds of stocking.
As to thinking any more
of a woman's legs than of the legs of a table, the idea had never even occurred
to him. But there you are! It is the unexpected that happens: the sort of thing
which we could never have imagined ourselves as doing, thinking, feeling. The
temptations we have recognised, struggled against, are nothing; but there comes
a sort of wild, whistling wind from nowhere—much the same as that wind about
jenny's skirts, white apron—and our life is like a kaleidoscope, suddenly
shaken up and showing a completely fresh pattern.
Who could have thought
it—who?—that Ben Cohen, dreamer, idealist, passionate, pure, the devotee of
art, would have fallen in love with Jenny Bligh's legs—or, rather, a pair of
ankles, and a little more at that side where the wind caught her skirt—before
he had so much as a glimpse of her face?
Just over the bridge she
stopped to speak with another girl who worked in his own counting-house. As Ben
hurried up to pass them before they separated, really see her, this other girl
recognised him, flung him a friendly "Hullo!" and was answered in the
same fashion.
As he moved on he heard
her—was meant to hear, knew that he was meant to hear, from the pitch of the
voice—"Clever ain't no word fur it! There ain't no tune as——"
The end of the sentence
was lost; but he knew the sort of thing, knew it by heart, had spent his time
running away from it. Now, however, he was grateful: more grateful still when
he met Miss Ankles again, and she herself, regarding Florry Hines' eulogy as a
sort of introduction, smiled, moved on a step, and herself tossed a
"Hullo" over one shoulder.
Ben's thin olive-tinted
face was flushed as he drew forward to her side with his odd stoop, his way of
ducking his head and raising his eyes, dark and glowing. He took jenny's
dinner-basket, and she noticed his hands, large and well-shaped, with long
fingers, widened at the tips. Florry had said that he was a "Sheeny,"
but there was nothing of the Jew about him apart from his colouring, his
brilliant dark eyes; unless it were a sort of inner glow, an ardour, curbed by
his almost childlike shyness, lack of self-confidence in everything apart from
his music: that something, at once finer and more cruelly persistent, vital,
than is to be found in the purely Anglo-Saxon race.
Though Jenny liked what
she called "a pretty tune," she knew nothing whatever of music,
understood less. And yet, almost from that first moment, she understood Ben
Cohen, realising him as lover and child: understood him better, maybe, then
than she did later on: losing her sureness for a while, shaken and bewildered;
everything blurred by her own immensity of love, longing; of fearing that she
did not understand—feeling out of it.
But that was not for
sometime to come: in the meanwhile she was like a dear little bantam hen with
one chick; while Ben himself was content to shelter under her wing, until it
grew upon him that, loving her as he did, loving his mother—realising what it
meant to be a mother, in thinking of jenny herself with a child—his child—in
her arms—it was "up to" him to prove himself for their sakes, to make
them proud of him and his music, without the faintest idea of how proud they
were already, lift the whole weight of care from their shoulders.
The worst of it was, he
told them nothing whatever about it. The better sort of men are given to these
crablike ways of appearing to move away from what they intend to move towards.
It simply seemed as though he were forgetting them a little—then, more and
more; elbowing them aside to clear the way for his beloved music.
He was no longer
deprecating, appealing, leaning upon them: each woman thought of him as
"her child," and when his love made a man of him, they realised the
hurt, nothing more.
He overdid it, too, as
genius does overdo things; was brusque, entirely immersed in his great scheme.
Sometimes he even laughed to himself over this. "They don't know what I'm
up to!" he would declare to himself, with a sense of triumph.
He had never even
thought of his music in the money sense before, but as his love and ambition
for the two women grew upon him, he was like a child with a new toy. He would
not only make a great name, he would make an immense fortune: his mind blinked,
dazzled at the very thought. He moved with a new pride, and also—alas!—a new
remoteness.
His health had broken
when he was about seventeen—his bent shoulders still showed that old drag upon
the chest—and he was away in a sanatorium for a year. When he came back he was
cured. It was young Saere, the junior partner in the timber business, who had
sent him away; and it was he who, when Ben returned, paid for lessons for him,
so that he learnt to play as well as read music.
From that time onward he
had always stuck to the firm, working in the tally sheds; paid, out of his
earnings, for the use of a room and a piano for practising upon so many hours
each week, completely happy and contented.
He had never even
thought of leaving the business until he realised his immense love for Jenny,
and, through her, for his mother; the necessity for doing something big. What
did sacrifice matter? What did it matter being poor, hungry, shabby?—What did
anything matter just for a while? There was so little he wanted; meals were a
nuisance; his eyes were so dazzled by the brilliance of the future, set upon a
far horizon, that he forgot the path of the present, still beneath his feet.
If his mother had not
set food before him he would scarcely have thought of it. But, all the same, he
ate it, and money had to be earned by some one or other.
His mother had never let
him know the actual pinch of poverty; she wore that shoe upon her own foot. He
had no more idea than a child of the cost of mere daily necessities; and during
the last few years, between his work and hers, they had been comfortable
enough.
"We can hang on for
a bit," he said, when he spoke of leaving the wood-yard; and she answered,
almost with triumph, that she had "hung on" well enough before he'd
earned "aught but a licking."
At first she was proud
of reshouldering the entire burden; it made him more entirely hers. He could
not do without her; even with Jenny he could not do without her. But she had
not been a young woman when Ben was born; she was old now, and tired, with that
sort of tiredness which accumulates, heaps up, and which no single night's rest
can ever cure; the tiredness which is ready, more than ready, for a narrower
bed—eternal sleep.
"—Hold on until
after the concert?"
"Sorry fur meself
if I couldn't."
The concert! That was
the goal. There was a public hall at Clapton where Ben had chanced on some
really good music—just one night of it, and quite by chance—and this, to his
mind, ennobled the Claptonites; there was the place in which to start the
revolutionising of the musical world. Besides—and here he thought himself very
canny, by no means a Jew for nothing—there were fine old houses at Clapton, and
where there were such houses there must be rich people.
When the date was
actually arranged, he practised for the best part of the day. While he was at
home he read music; he lived in a maze of music. He never thought of
advertising, collecting his public; he even avoided his old friends, his
patrons at the timber-yard, overcome by agonies of shyness at the very thought
of so much as mentioning his concert. Quite simply, in a way he did not even
attempt to explain to himself, he felt that the world of London would scent it
from afar off. As to paid claques, presentation-tickets, patrons,
advance agents, all the booming and flattery, the jam of the powder for an English
audience, he had no idea of the existence of such things. Beethoven was
wonderful, and he had found out wonderful things about him: that was enough.
When the Angel Gabriel
blew the last trump, there would be no need to invite the dead to rise. Neither
was there any need to invite the really elect to his concert. Not to hear him,
Ben Cohen, but to hear Beethoven as he ought to be heard; that's how he felt.
During those weeks of
preparation for the concert, his mother worked desperately hard to keep their
home together without his earnings, while Jenny helped. At first that had been
enough for her, too: to help. But later—
Throughout those long
evenings when, already tired from her work in the factory, she had stood
sorting, sprinkling, folding, ironing, the two women got to a state where they
scarcely dared to look at each other: just a passing glance, a hardish stare,
but no looking into.
If he had but once said,
"I can't bear you to work so hard for me," everything would have been
different, the fatigue wiped out. But he didn't; he didn't even know they were
working for him, working beyond the limit of an ordinary working-woman's
working-day, hard enough, in all conscience.
"Men can't not be
expected to notice things the way we do." That's what they told
themselves—they did not say even this much to each other. But far, far away,
out of sight, out of all actual knowledge, was the fear which neither of them
would have dared to realise, a vague horror, a sort of ghost....
"He don't care—he's
changed."
And, indeed, this is how
it appeared. All through that time he wore an odd look of excitement, triumph,
pleasure, which lifted him away from himself. There was a sort of lilt in his
very step; his eyes shone, his cheeks were flushed. When he cleared a pile of freshly-ironed,
starched things from the end of a table, so as to spread out a score upon it,
laid them on the floor where the cat padded them over with dirty feet, and his
mother railed at him, as she still did rail—on any subject apart from this of
not caring—he glanced up at her with bright, amused eyes, his finger still
following the black-and-white tangle of notes, looked at Jenny, and
laughed—actually laughed.
"You great
oaf!" cried Mrs. Cohen, and could have killed him. Up at four o'clock next
morning, rewashing, starching, ironing, she retched with sick fatigue and
something more—that sense of giddiness, of being hit on the head which had
oppressed her of late. It was as though that laugh of Ben's had stuck like a
bone in her chest, so sharp that she could scarcely draw breath; driven all the
blood to her head.
And yet it had been full
of nothing but triumph, a sort of tender triumph, almost childish delight. He
was going to do wonders— wonders!—open a new world to them! He was so dazzled
by his own work, dreams, by all he had in store for them, that he did not even
see them, themselves, worn with toil, realise the meaning of it, the reason for
it. In any case he would have laughed, because they had no idea how near it was
to an end.
That concert! It would
be like nothing so much as opening a door into a new world, where they need
never so much as soil a finger: floating around, dressed in silk, feeding from
off the finest china, sleeping upon down.
Man-like, his eyes were
fixed upon the future. No two women had ever been loved as they were loved. All
this work, this washing and ironing, it resembled nothing more than the opening
scene in an opera: a sort of prelude, for the sake of contrast. They would
see—O-o-oh, yes, they would see!
It was like that old
childish "Shut your eyes and open your mouth."
But they—they were bound
in the close-meshed strait-waistcoat of endless toil, petty anxiety. The days
and hours heaped in front of them obliterated all possible view of the future.
In the beginning they
had been as excited as he was over the thought of the concert. He must wear a
rosette—no, a flower in his button-hole; and white kid gloves; as he moved
forward upon the platform, he must bow right and left, and draw them off as he
bowed.
This was Jenny's idea.
It was Jenny who made him practise his bows, and it was Jenny who borrowed a
dress-suit from a waiter-friend; while it was his mother who "got up"
the borrowed shirt to go with it, stiff and shining; who polished his best
boots until they looked "near as near like patent."
All this had been done
close upon a fortnight before. Jenny was a good girl, but if she was not there
to see to things, Jenny might fail with a bubble on the shirt-front. No amount
of meaning well was of any use in getting up a stiff shirt as it ought to be
got up.
"Better 'ave it all
ready, 'a-case o' anything happening." That was what Mrs. Cohen said to
herself, with a dull dread at the back of her mind: a feeling as though every
next day were a Friday.
Her face had been oddly
flushed of late, with a rather fixed and glassy look about the eyes. Jenny
thought of this, on her way to the concert; alone, for by some ill fate, his
nearer vision blurred in that golden maze of the future, Ben had fixed his
concert for a Friday.
This Friday! Always a
bad day, bad in itself, bad for every one, like an east wind; worst of all for
a laundress: not so depressing as a Monday, but so hurried, so overcrowded,
with all the ironing and folding, the packing of the lots, all small, into
their separate newspaper parcels; the accumulated fatigue of a whole week. Some
demon seemed to possess her clients that week: they had come in with a collar
here, a shirt there, an odd pillow-slip, tablecloth, right over Thursday. She
was working until after twelve o'clock that night—so was Jenny—up before dawn
next morning, though no one save herself knew of this.
"Whatever they do,
they shan't not keep me from my Ben's concert!" That was what she said,
with a vision of motors blocking the road in front of the little hall. But she
had been a laundress best part of a lifetime—before she discovered herself as
the mother of a genius—and it had bit into her bone: she could not get
finished, and she could not leave the work undone.
"Some one's got to
earn a living!"—that was what she said, embittered by fatigue, the sweat
pouring down her face, beaten to every sensibility, apart from her swollen
feet, by the time that Jenny called in for her, soon after six. She had longed
to go, had never even thought of not going; but by now, apart from her physical
pain and weariness, she was alive to but one point, her whole being drawn out
to a sort of cone with an eye at the end of it; and far, far away at the back
of her brain, struggling with impenetrable mists, but one thought—if she scorched
anything, she would have to replace it.
When Jenny found that it
was impossible to move her, she made her own way up to Clapton alone. For Ben
had to be at the hall early; there were certain matters to arrange, and he
would try over the piano.
Her efforts with Mrs.
Cohen had delayed her; she was driven desperate by that cruel malice of
inanimate things: every 'bus and tram was against her, whisking out of sight
just as she wanted them, or blocked by slow crawling carts and lorries. There
was a tight, hard pain in her heart, like toothache, round which her whole body
gathered, pressing, impaled upon it; a sense of desperation, and yet at the
heart of this, like a nerve, the wonder if anything really mattered.
Ben had promised to
reserve seats for his mother and herself; but had he?—Had he? Would she find
the place blocked by swells with their hard stare, duchesses and such-like,
glistening in diamonds? In her mind's eye she saw billows of silk, slabs of
black cloth and shining white shirt-fronts—hundreds and hundreds of them. And
Ben bowing, bowing to them as she had taught him to do.
For some time past he
had been so far away, so detached that she was haunted by the fear that if she
put out a finger to touch him it might go through him, as though he were a
ghost. At times she had caught him, held him to her in a passion of love and
longing. But even then, with his head against her heart, his lips, or some
pulse or nerve, had moved in a wordless tune, the beat of time.
If only he had still
seemed to need her, nothing, nothing would have mattered. But he didn't: he
needed no one—no one. He seemed so frail, she had made sure that he wanted
looking after; but he didn't. A drunkard might have fallen down in the street,
needed fetching, supporting, exhorting; a bully come home with a broken head.
But it seemed as though Ben were, in reality, for all his air of appeal,
sufficient to himself, moving like a steady light through the darkness;
unstirred by so much as a breath of wind.
Overcome by anxiety, she
got out of the tram too soon. It had begun to rain, a dull, dark night, and
there was a blur of misty light flooding the pavement a little way ahead. That
must be the hall. She was afraid of over-shooting the mark. Those trams had
such a way of getting going just as one wanted to be out of them!
But the light was
nothing more than a cinema, and she she had a good quarter of a mile to walk in
the wet. The cruel wet!—just like it to be wet on this night of all nights!
Even her optimism was gone. She kept on thinking of Mrs. Cohen, her flushed
face and oddly-glazed eyes; the queer stiff way in which she moved, held her
head. For once she was angry with Ben.
"'Im and his
crowds,' 'Im an' 'is fine lydies! 'Im an' 'is motor-cars!"
After all, she did
overshoot her mark; on inquiry for the hall, she was told that she had passed
it, and was obliged to retrace her steps.
No wonder she had passed
it; with all she had expected at the back of her mind! The strip of pavement
outside was dark, with not so much as a single taxi in sight; the door
half-shut, the dreary vestibule badly-lighted, empty, smelling of damp. The
sodden-looking sketch of a man in the pay-box seemed half asleep; stretched,
yawned when she spoke, pushing a strip of pink paper towards her as she gave
her name.
"For two." He
poked out a long neck and peered round the edge of the box, like a tortoise
from its shell.
"The other lydy
wasn't not able ter come ter-night," answered Jenny with dignity, and the
beast grinned, displaying a wreckage of broken teeth.
"Ain't not what you
might call a crowd, anyway," he remarked.
She could have killed
him for that! She realised the white face of a clock, but she would not look at
it. She was early, that was it. Look how she had hurried. No wonder that she
was early. And great ladies were always late: she had learnt that from
the Daily Mail stories.
"Two an' two make
four—them too late an' me too early!" she said to herself, with a gallant
effort after her own brisk way of taking things, a surer tap of heels on the
stone floor as she turned towards a swing-door to her left; pushed it open, and
was hit in the face by what seemed like a thick black curtain.
A dim white-gloved hand
was thrust through it and took her ticket.
"Mind you don't
fall—no good wasting the lights until they come—if ever they does come,"
exhorted and explained a voice out of the darkness; for, after all, it was not
a curtain, but just darkness.
At first Jenny could see
nothing. Then, little by little, it seemed as though different objects crept
forward, one by one, like wild animals from their lair.
Those white patches, the
hands of two white-gloved men, holding sheaves of programmes—she realised one
between her own fingers—whispering together.
There was the platform,
the great piano sprawling over it; and in front of this, rows and rows and
rows—and rows upon rows—of empty seats.
She looked behind
her—they had argued long over the question of places for herself and his
mother. "The very best," that's what Ben had said; but they fought
against this, fought and conquered, for the best seats meant money.
"What's a seat more or less, I'd like to know?"
"Money, all
money." Old Mrs. Cohen had been firm upon this point.
Still, there were a
great many seats yet further back—and all empty: a little raised, seeming to
push themselves forward with the staring vacuity of an idiot: more seats
overhead in a curving balcony, rising above each other as though proud of their
emptiness. It would have been impossible to believe that mere vacant places
could wear so sinister, as well as foolish, an aspect. An idiot, but a cruel
idiot, too: the whole thing one cruel idiot, of the sort that likes to pull
legs from flies.
There was a clock there,
also. For a long while Jenny would not allow herself to look at it. But
something drew her, until it became an unbearable effort to keep her eyes away
from it, to look anywhere else; and at last she turned her head, stared,
sharply, defiantly, as though daring it.
It was five-and-twenty
minutes to nine. Five-and-twenty minutes to nine, and the concert was to have
begun at eight!—Five-and-twenty minutes to nine, and there was no one there—no
one whatever!
The clock hands dragged
themselves on for another five-minutes; then one of the men disappeared behind
the scene; came back, speaking excitedly, gesticulating with white hands:
"We're to turn on
the light. 'E swears as 'e won't give it up—'e's goin' ter play."
"Goin' ter play?
Well, I'll be blowed!—Goin' ter play! An' with nothing 'ere but That"
Jenny saw how he jerked
his head in her direction. So she was "That"—she, Jenny Bligh!—and so
far gone that she did not even care.
As the lights went up
the hall seemed to swim in a sort of mist: the terra-cotta walls, the heavy
curtains at either side of the platform, those awful empty seats!
Jenny spread her skirt
wide, catching at the chair to either side of her, stretching out her arms
along the backs of them. She had a wild feeling as though it were up to her to
spread herself sufficiently to cover them all. She half rose. Perhaps she could
hide more of that emptiness if she moved nearer to the front: that was her
thought.
But no; she mustn't do
that: this was the place Ben had chosen for her; she must stay where she was.
He might look there, miss her, and imagine that there was nobody, nobody at
all; that even she had failed him.
If only she could spread
herself—spread herself indefinitely—multiply herself: anything, anything to
cover those beastly chairs: sticking out there, grinning, shaming her man!
Then she had a sudden
idea of running into the street, entreating the people to come in; was upon her
feet for the second time, when Ben walked on to the platform.
For once he was not
ducking or moving sideways; he came straight forward, bowed to the front of
him, right and left; drew off his gloves and bowed again. Mingling with her
agony of pity, a thrill, ran through Jenny Bligh at this. He remembered her
teaching; he was hers—hers—hers—after all, hers—more than ever hers!
The borrowed coat, far
too big for him, rose in a sort of hood at the back of his neck; as he bowed
something happened to the centre stud of his shirt, and it disappeared into an
aperture shaped like a dark gourd in the whiteness.
But, for all that, Jenny
felt herself overawed by his dignity, as any one would have been: there was
something in the man so much greater than his clothes, greater than his
conscious, half-childish self.
Jenny's hands were
raised to clap; but they dropped into her lap, lay there, as, with a face set
like marble, Ben turned and seated himself at the piano. There was a moment's
pause, while he stared straight in front of him—such a pause that a feeling of
goose-flesh ran down the back of her arms—then he began to play.
Jenny had not even
glanced at her programme; she would have understood nothing of it if she had;
but it gave the Sonata, Op. III, as the opening piece.
Ben, however, took no
notice of this; but, for some reason he could not have explained, flung himself
straight-way into the third item, the tremendous "Hammerclavier."
The sounds flooded the
hall; swept through it as if it were not there, obliterating time and space. It
was as though the Heavenly Host had descended upon the earth, sweet, wonderful,
and yet terrible, with a sweep of pinions, deep-drawn breath—Tubal Cain and his
kind, deified and yet human in their immense masculinity and strength.
Jenny Bligh was neither
imaginative nor susceptible to sound, but it drew her out of herself. It was
like bathing in a sea whose waves overpower one so that, try as one may to
cling to the earth, it slips off from beneath one's feet—shamed, beaten. She
had a feeling that if it did not stop soon she would die; and would yet die
when it did stop. Her heart beat thickly and heavily, her eyes were dim; she
was bewildered, lost, and yet exhilarated. It was worse than an air raid, she
thought—more exciting, more wonderful.
The end left her almost
as much exhausted as Ben himself. The sweat was running down his face as he got
up from his seat, came forward to the front of the platform, and bowed right
and left. Jenny had not clapped—she would as soon have thought of clapping God
with His last trump—but Ben bowed as though a whole multitude had applauded
him.
By some chance, the only
direction in which he did not turn his eyes was the gallery: even then, he
might not have seen a single figure seated a little to one side—a man with a
dark overcoat buttoned up to his chin, who clapped his two thumbs noiselessly
together, drawing in his breath with a sort of whistle.
"That's the
stuff!" he said. "That's the stuff to give 'em!"
After a moment's pause,
Ben turned again to the piano. This time he played the Sonata Pathétique in C
Minor, Op. XIII; then the Sonata Walstein in C Major. Between each, he got up,
moved forward to the edge of the platform, and bowed.
At the end of the Sonata,
Op. III—by rights the first on the programme—during the short interval which
followed it he straightened his shoulders with a sort of swagger, utterly
unlike himself, swung round to the piano again, and slammed out "God Save
the King."
He played it through to
the very end, then rose, bowed from where he stood, stared round at the empty
hall—a dreadful, strained, defiant smile stiffening upon his face—and sinking
back upon his stool, laid his arms across the keyboard with a crash of notes,
burying his head upon them.
In a moment Jenny was
out of her seat. There were chairs in her way, and she kicked them aside; raked
one forward with her foot, and scrambled on to the platform; then, catching a
sideways glimpse of the empty seats, bent forward and shook her fist at them.
"Beasts! Pigs!
A-a-a-ah!—You!"
The attendants had
disappeared, the stranger was lost in shadows. There was nobody there but
themselves: it would not have mattered if there had been: all the lords and
ladies, all the swells in the world, would not have mattered. The great empty
hall, suddenly friendly, closed, curving, around them.
Jenny dropped upon her
knees at Ben's side, and flung her arms about him, with little moans of love
and pity; slid one hand beneath his cheek, with a muffled roll of notes, raised
his head and pressed it against her heart.
"There, my dear!
There, my love—there—there—there!"
She laid her lips to his
thick dark hair, in a passion of adoration, loving every lock of it; and then,
woman-like, picked a white thread from off his black coat; clasped him afresh,
with joy and sorrow like runnels of living water pouring through and through
her.
"There, there,
there, there!"
He was too much of a
child to fight against her: all his pride was gone. "Oh, Jenny, Jenny,
Jenny!" he cried; then, in an extremity of innocent anguish, amazement—
"They didn't come!
They don't care—they don't want it! Jenny, they don't want it!"
"Don't you worry
about them there blighters, my darling. Selfish pigs! they ain't not worth a
thought. Don't you worry about them."
"But—Beethoven...."
"Don't you worry
about Beethoven, neifer—ain't no better nor he oughter be, taeke my word fur
it. Lettin' you in like this 'ere! There—there—there, my dear!"
They clung together,
weeping, rocking to and fro. "Well," said the man in the gallery,
"I'm jiggered!" and crept out very softly, stumbling a little because
of the damp air which seemed to have got into his eyes and made them smart.
As the lovers came out
into the little vestibule, clinging to each other, they did not so much as see
the stranger, who stood talking to the man in the box-office, but went straight
on out into the rain, with their umbrellas unopened in their hands.
"A good thing as
the 'all people insists upon payment in advance," remarked the man in the
box-office.
The other gave him a
curious, half-contemptuous glance. "I'd like to hear you say that in a
year's time."
"Why?"
"Because that chap
will be able to buy and sell a place like this a hundred times over by
then—Queen's Hall—Albert Hall—I know. It's my business to know. There's
something about his playing. That something different they're
all out for."
It took a long time to
get back to Canning Town. Even Jenny had lost her certainty: her grasp of the
ways of 'buses and such things. She felt oddly clear and empty: like a room
swept and garnished, with the sense of a ghost in some dim corner of it;
physically sapped out.
Ben clung to her. He
said very little, but he clung to her, with an odd, lost air: the look of a
child who has been slapped in the face, and cannot understand why.
She was so much smaller
than he, like a diminutive, sturdy steam-tug; and yet if she could have carried
him, she would have done so.
As it was, she threw her
whole heart and soul into guiding, comforting; thinking of a hundred things at
once, her soft mouth folded tight with anxiety.—How to prevent him from feeling
shamed before his mother: how to keep the trouble away from her: though at the
back of her own mind was a feeling—and she had an idea that it would be at the
back of old Mrs. Cohen's also—of immense relief, of some load gone: almost as
though her child had been through a bad attack of scarlet-fever, or something
which one does not take twice.
With all this, there was
the thought of what she would step out and buy for their supper, if the
fried-fish shop were still open; all she would do and say to cheer them.
As for Ben, the
"Hammerclavier" was surging through his brain, carrying the empty
hall with it, those rows upon rows of empty seats—swinging them to and fro so
that he felt physically sick, as though he were at sea.
Quite suddenly, as they
got out of the last tram, the rain ceased. At the worst it had been a mild
night of velvety darkness and soft airs, the reflection from the lamps swimming
in a haze of gold across the wet pavement; but now, just as they reached the
end of his own street, the black sky opened upon a wide sea of pinkish-amber
and a full moon sailed into sight. At the same moment, Ben's sense of anguished
bewilderment cleared away, leaving in its place a feeling of incalculable
weariness.
To be back in his own
home again—that was all he asked. "You'll stay the night at our place,
Jenny?" "Yes; I promised your mother." Her brow knitted, and
then cleared again. Ah, well; that was all over: Ben would go back to his
regular job again; they would get married; then there would be her money, too:
no need for old Mrs. Cohen to do another hand's turn. Plenty of time for her to
rest now: all her life for resting in.
"Your mother."
As she spoke Ben remembered, for the first time, actively remembered, for of
course it was his mother that he meant when he thought of home.
"She wasn't there,
Jenny! She wasn't there!"
"She was very busy,
'adn't not finished 'er work." Something beyond Jenny's will stiffened
within her. So he had only just realised it! She tried not to remember, but she
could not help it—the flushed face, the glassy eyes: the whole look of a woman
beaten, with her back against a wall; condemning Ben by her very silence,
desperate courage.
"Work?"
"Yes, work."
Jenny snapped it: hating herself for it, drawing him closer, and yet unable to
help it. "Why——" began Ben, and then stopped—horrified. At last he
realised it: perhaps it ran to him through Jenny's arm; perhaps it was just
that he was down on earth again, humble, ductile, seeing other people's lives
as they were, not as he meant to make them.
"Ter-night—workin'"
"All night; one the
saeme as another."
"But why——" he
began again; stopped dead, loosed his own arm and caught hers. "All this
while workin' like that! She works too hard. Jenny, look here: she works too
hard. And I—this damned music! Look here, Jenny, it's got to stop! I'll never
play a note again; she shall never do a hard stroke of work again; never,
never—not so long as I'm here to work for her. All my life—ever since I can
remember—washing and ironing, like—like—the very devil!"
He pulled the girl along
with him. "That was what I was thinking all the time: to make a fortune so
that you'd both have everything you wanted, a big house, servants, motors, silk
dresses——And all the time letting you both work yourselves to death! But this
is the end; no more of that. To be happy—that's all that matters—sort of
everyday happiness.
"No more of that
beastly washing, ironing—it's the end of that, anyhow. When I'm back at the
timber-yard——"
He was like a child
again, planning; they almost ran down the street. "No more o' that damned
washin' and ironin'—no more work——"
True! How true! The
street door opened straight into the little kitchen. She was not in bed, for
the light was still burning; they could see it at either side of the blind,
shrunk crooked with steam. There was one step down into the kitchen; but for
all that, the door would not open when they raised the latch and pushed it,
stuck against something.
"Some of those
beastly old clothes!" Ben shoved it, hailing his mother. "Mother!
Mother, you've got something stuck against the door." Odd that she did not
come to his help, quick as she always was.
After all, it gave way
too suddenly for him to altogether realise the oddness; and he stumbled forward
right across the kitchen, seeing nothing until he turned and faced Jenny still
standing upon the step, staring downward, with an ashy-white face, wide eyes
fixed upon old Mrs. Cohen, who lay there at her feet, resting—incomprehensibly
resting.
They need not have been
so emphatic about it all—"No more beastly washing, no more work"—for
the whole thing was out of their hands once and for all.
She had fallen across
the doorway, a flat-iron still in her hand—the weapon with which she had fought
the world, kept the wolf from that same door—all the strain gone out of her
face, a little twisted to the left side, and oddly smiling. One child's
pinafore was still unironed; the rest were folded, finished.
They raised her between
them, laid her upon her bed. It was Jenny who washed her, wrapped her in clean
linen—no one else should touch her; Ben who sat by her, with hardly a break,
until the day that she was buried, wiped out with self-reproach, grief; desolate
as any child, sodden with tears.
He collected all his
music into a pile, the day before the funeral, gave it to Jenny to put under
the copper—a burnt-offering.
"If it hadn't been
for that, she might be here now. I don't want ever to see it again—ever to hear
a note of it!" That was what he said.
Jenny went back to the
house with him after the funeral: she was going to give him his tea, and then
return to her own room. In a week they were to be married, and she would be
with him for good, looking after him. That evening, before she left, she would
set his breakfast, cut his lunch ready for the morrow. By Saturday week they
would be settled down to their regular life together. She would not think about
his music; pushed it away at the back of her mind—over and done with—would not
even allow herself the disloyalty of being glad. And yet was glad, deeply glad,
relieved, despite her pride in it, in him: as though it were something unknown,
alien, dangerous, like things forbidden.
Two men were waiting at
the door of the narrow slip of a house: the tall, thin one with his overcoat
still buttoned up to his chin, and another fat and shining, with a top-hat,
black frock-coat, and white spats.
"About that
concert——" said the first man.
"We were thinking
that if we could persuade you to play——" put in the other.
"There was no one
there," interrupted Ben roughly. His shoulders were bent, his head dropped
forward on his chest, poking sideways, his eyes sullen as a child's.
"I was there,"
put in the first man, "and I must say, impressed——"
"Very deeply
impressed," added the other; but once again Ben brushed him aside.
"You were there—at
my concert!" Jenny, standing a little back—for they were all three crowded
upon the tiny door-step—saw him glance up at the speaker with something
luminous shining through the darkness of his face. "At my concert——! And
you liked it? You liked it?"
"'Like' is scarcely
the word."
"We feel that if
you could be persuaded to give another concert," put in the stout man,
blandly, "and would allow——"
"I shall never play
again—never—never!" cried Ben, harshly; but this time the other went on
imperturbably: "—allow us to make all arrangements, take all
responsibility: boom you; see to the advertising and all that—we thought if we
were to let practically all the seats for the first concert go in complimentary
tickets; get a few good names on the committee—perhaps a princess or something
of that sort as a patroness—a strong claque"
"Of course, playing
Beethoven—playing him as you played him the other night. Grand-magnificent!"
put in the first man realising the weariness, the drop to blank indifference in
the musician's face. "The 'Hammerclavier' for instance——"
It was
magical.—"Oh, yes, yes—that—that!" Ben's eyes widened, his face
glowed. He hummed a bar or so. "Was there ever anything like it? My God!
was there ever anything like it!"
Jenny, who had the key,
squeezed past them at this, and ran through the kitchen to the scullery, where
she filled the kettle and put it upon the gas-ring to boil; looked round her
for a moment, with quick, darting eyes—like a small wild animal at bay in a
strange place—then drew a bucketful of water, turned up her sleeves, the skirt
of her new black frock, tied on an old hessian apron of Mrs. Cohen's, with a
savage jerk of the strings, and dropping upon her knees, started to scrub the
floor, the rough stone floor.
"Men!—trapsin' in
an' out, muckin' up a place!"
She could hear the
murmur of men's voices in the kitchen, and through it that "trapsin'"
of other men struggling with a long coffin on the steep narrow stairs.
On and on it went—the
agonised remembrance of all that banging, trampling; the swish of her own
scrubbing-brush; the voices round the table where old Mrs. Cohen had stood
ironing for hours and hours upon end.
Then the door into the
scullery was opened. For a moment or so she kept her head obstinately lowered,
determined that she would not look up. Then, feeling her own
unkindness, she raised it and smiled upon Ben, who stood there, flushed,
glowing, and yet too shame-faced to speak—smiled involuntarily, as one must
smile at a child.
"Well?"
"That—that—music
stuff—I suppose it's burnt?" he began, fidgeting from one foot to another,
his head bent, ducking sideways, his shoulder to his ear.
Her glance enwrapped
him—smiling, loving, bitter-sweet. Things were not going to be as she had
thought; none of that going out regularly to work, coming home to tea like
other men; none of that safe sameness of life. At the back of her calm was a
fierce battle; then she rose to her feet, wiped her hands upon her apron,
stooped to the lowest shelf of the cupboard, and drew out a pile of music.
"There you are, my
dear. I didn't not burn it, a'cause Well, I suppose as I sorter knowed all the
time as you'd be wantin' it."
Children! Well, one knew
where one was with children—real children. But men, that was a different pair
of shoes altogether—something you could never be sure of—unless you remembered,
always remembered, to treat them as though they were grown-up, think of them as
children.
"Now you taeke that
an' get along back to yer friends an' yer playin', and let me get on with my
work. It'll be dark an' tea-time on us afore ever I've time ter so much as turn
round."
"That woman,"
said the fat, shining man, as they moved away down the street, greasy with
river-mist.—"Hang it all! where in the world are we to get a
taxi?—Common-place little thing; a bit of a drag on him, I should think."
"Don't you believe
it, my friend—that's the sort to give 'em—some'un who will sort of dry-nurse
'em—feed em—mind 'em. That's the wife for a genius. The only sort of wife—mark
my word for it."
18.THE DEVIL TO PAY by MAX PEMBERTON
(From The Story-Teller) 1922
To say that the usually
amiable Ambrose Cleaver was in the devil of a temper would be merely to echo
the words of his confidential clerk, John, who, looking through the glass
partition between their offices, confessed to James, the office boy, that he
had not seen such goings on since old Ambrose, the founder of the firm, was
gathered to his fathers.
"There won't be a
bit of furniture in the place presently," said he, "and I wouldn't
give twopence for the cat when he's finished kicking her. This comes of the
women, my boy. Never have nothing to say to a woman until you've finished your
dinner and lighted your cigar. Many a good business have I seen go into the
Bankruptcy Court because of a petticoat before lunch. You keep away from 'em if
you want to be Lord Mayor of London, same as Dick Whittington was."
James did not desire
particularly to become Lord Mayor of London, but he was greatly amused by his
employer's temper.
"Never heard such
language," said he—"and him about to marry her. Why, he almost threw
them jewels at her 'ead; and when she told him he must have let the devil in by
accident, he says as he was always glad to see her friends. They'll make a
happy couple, surely."
John shook his old dense
head, and would express no opinion upon the point.
"Misfortunes never
come singly," said he. "Here's that Count Florian waiting for him in
the ante-room. Now that's a man I can't abide. If anybody told me he was the
devil, I'd believe him soon enough. A bad 'un, James, or I don't know the
breed. An evil man who seems to pollute the very air you breathe."
James was not so sure of
it.
"He give me half a
crown for fetching of a cab yesterday, and told me to go to the music-hall with
it. He must have a lot of money, for he never smokes his cigars more than
half-way through, and he wears a different scarf-pin every day. That's wot
comes of observation, Mr. John. I could tell you all the different pairs of
trousers he's worn for the last three weeks, and so I'm going to make my
fortune as the advertisements say."
Mr. John would not argue
about that. The bell of the inner office now tinkled, and that was an intimation
that the Count Nicholas Florian was to be admitted to the Holy of Holies. So
the old man hurried away and, opening the sacred door with circumspection,
narrowly escaped being knocked down by an enraged and hasty cat—glad to escape
that inferno at any cost.
"You rang,
sir?"
Ambrose Cleaver,
thirty-three years of age, square-jawed, fair-haired, a florid complexion and
with a wonderful pair of clear blue eyes, admitted that he did ring.
"And don't be so
d——d slow next time," he snapped. "I'll see the Count Florian at
once."
The old man withdrew
timidly, while his master mopped up the ink from the pot he had broken in his
anger.
"Enough to try the
devil himself," was the sop that argument offered to his heated
imagination. "She knows I hate Deauville like poison, and of course it's
to Deauville she must go for the honeymoon. And she looks so confoundedly
pretty when she's in a temper—what wonderful eyes she's got! And when she's
angry the curls get all round her ears, and it's as much as a man can do not to
kiss her on the spot. Of course, I didn't really want her to have opals if she
thinks they're unlucky, but she needn't have insisted that I knew about it and
bought them on purpose to annoy her. Good God! I wish there were no women in
the world sometimes. What a splendid place it would be to live in, and what a
fine time the men would have—for, of course, they are all the daughters of the
devil really, and that's why they make life too hot for us."
Mr. John entered at this
moment showing in the Count, and so a very cheerful argument was thus cut
short. Ambrose pulled himself together and suppressing, as best he could, any
appearance of aversion from the caller who now presented himself, he sat back
in his chair and prepared to hear "the tale."
Count Florian was at
that time some fifty-nine years of age, dark as an Italian and not without
trace of an Eastern origin. Though it was early in the month of May, he still
wore a light Inverness cape of an ancient fashion, while his patent-leather
boots and his silk hat shone with the polish of a well-kept mirror. When he
laughed, however, he showed ferocious teeth, some capped with gold, and in his
eyes was a fiery light not always pleasant to behold.
"A chilly
morning," he began. "You have no fire, I see."
"You find it
so?" queried Ambrose. "Well, I thought it quite warm."
"Ah," said the
count, "you were born, of course, in this detestable country. Do not
forget that where I live there are people who call the climate hell," and
he laughed sardonically, with a laugh quite unpleasant to hear.
Ambrose did not like
such talk, and showed his displeasure plainly.
"The climate is
good enough for me," he said. "Personally, I don't want to live in
the particular locality you name. Have a cigar and tell me why you called—the
old business, I suppose? Well, you know my opinion about that. I want none of
it. I don't believe it is honest business, and I think that if we did it, we
might all end in the dock. So you know my mind before we begin."
The Count heard him
patiently, but did not seem in any way disturbed.
"There is very
little business that is honest," he said; "practically none at all.
Look at politics, the Church, art, the sciences—those who flourish are the
imposters, while your honest men are foolish enough to starve in garrets. If a
man will undertake nothing that is open to the suspicion of self-interest, he
should abandon all his affairs at once and retire to a monastery, where
possibly he will discover that the prior is cheating the abbot and the cellarer
cheating them both. You have a great business opportunity, and if anybody
suffers it is only the Government, which you must admit is a pure
abstraction—suggesting chiefly a company of undiscovered rascals. The deal
which I have to propose to you concerns a sum of half a million sterling, and
that is not to be passed by lightly. I suggest, therefore, that at least you
read the documents I have brought with me, and that we leave the matter of
honesty to be discussed by the lawyers."
He laid upon the table a
bundle of papers as he spoke, and lighted a cigarette by lightly rubbing a
match against the tip of the fourth finger of his left hand. Ambrose felt
strangely uneasy. A most uncanny suspicion had come upon him while the man was
speaking. He felt that no ordinary human being faced him, and that he might in
very truth be talking with the devil. Nor would this idea quit him despite its
apparent absurdity.
"You must have
great influence, Count," he remarked presently—"great influence to
get such a valuable commission as this!"
The Count was flattered.
"I have servants in
every country," he said; "the rich are always my friends—the poor
often come to me because they are not rich. Few who know me can do without me;
indeed, I may say that but for such men as I am the world would not go on. I am
the mainspring of its endeavour."
"And yet when I met
you it was on the links above La Turbie."
The count laughed,
showing his glittering teeth as any carnivorous animal might have done.
"Ah, I remember.
You met me when I was playing golf with a very saintly lady. Latterly, I hear,
she has ceased to go to church and taken to bobbed hair. Women are strange
creatures, Mr. Cleaver, but difficult, very difficult sometimes. I have had
many disappointments with women."
"You find men
easier?"
"Indeed, there are
few men who are not willing to go to the devil if the consideration be large
enough. A woman, on the other hand, is too often the victim of her emotions.
She will suffer eternal torment for the man she loves, and she will cheat for
him. But for the rest of us—nothing, positively nothing at all; she is neither
honest nor dishonest, she merely passes us by."
"Ah,"
exclaimed Ambrose, a little wearily, "I wish I could think that about
my fiancée. She's just been up—that's why you find me upset. I bought
her opals, and, of course, she wants diamonds. You see, I forgot she wasn't
born in October."
The Count nodded his
head in sympathy.
"I must have a
little talk to her. I am sure we shall be good friends. Miss Kitty Palmer, is
it not? Forgive me, I read it in the newspapers—a charming face but a little
temper, I think. Well, well, there is no harm in that. What a dull place the
world would be but for a little temper! You have much to be thankful for, Mr.
Cleaver—very, very much. And now this concession, by which you will make two
hundred thousand pounds at a very moderate estimate. There will be very little
temper when you take home that news. No woman is angry with a man who makes
money, but she has a great contempt for him who does not."
"Even if he made it
dishonestly?"
"She does not care
a snap of the fingers how he makes it, believe me."
"And afterwards,
when he goes to prison——"
"Pshaw—only fools
go to prison. If your foolish principles were made the test, there would hardly
be a free man in Mincing Lane. We should have to lock up the whole City. Come,
let me have your signature, and I will do the rest. To refuse is madness. You
are offered the chance of a lifetime."
Ambrose did not reply to
him immediately. It had come to him suddenly that this was the hour of a great
temptation, and he sat very still, conscious that his heart beat fast because
of the evil that was near him. The Count watched him, meanwhile, as a wild
beast may watch its prey. The man's eyes appeared to have turned to coals of
fire; his fingers twitched; his teeth were on edge—he had even ceased to smoke.
"Well?" he
said at last, unable to suffer the silence any longer.
Ambrose rose from his
chair and went over slowly to the great safe, which stood in the corner of his
office; he unlocked it and took some documents from a shelf upon the right-hand
side. The Count stood at his elbow while he did so, and he could feel the man's
breath warm upon his shoulder.
Suddenly a violent
impulse overcame him. He swung round and seized the fellow by the collar, and
in an instant, endowed as it were with superhuman strength, he hurled the man
into the safe and turned the key upon him.
"By heaven!"
he cried, "but I have locked up the devil."
II
Ambrose dismissed John,
the man, and James, the boy, and told them he would have no need of their
services for some days.
"I am going away
for a little holiday," he said. "The letters can await my return. You
may both go down to Brighton for a week, and I will pay your expenses. It is
right that you should have a little change of air more than once a year, so
away with you both, and don't let me hear of you until Monday next."
James looked at John and
John looked at James. Was their excellent employer demented, then, or had they
understood him incorrectly?
"Not," said
John, when they were alone together, "that I particularly wished to go to
Brighton just now, but there you are. Half the pleasure in life, my boy, is
wanting to do things, and when you have to do them without wanting it, even
though they are pleasant things, somehow all the savour has gone out of the
salt, so to speak. But, of course, we shall have to go, seeing that we couldn't
tell Mr. Cleaver a lie."
James was a little
astonished at that, for he had told thousands of lies in his brief life, though
now he really had no desire to tell one at all.
"I shall be glad to
get away from here for a few days, any'ow," he said; "it's so 'ot and
close, and when you go near the safe in the other horfice it's just as though
you stood by a roaring fire. Good thing, Mr. John, that the thing is
fire-proof, or we might have the whole show burned down, as Mr. Ambrose hisself
was saying. 'Very 'ot for the time of year, James,' says he, and 'burnin, 'ot,'
says I. We'll find it cooler at Brighton, Mr. John, and perhaps we can go to
the pictures, though I'm fed up with all them rotten stories about crooks and
such like, and so are you, I'm sure."
Mr. John said that he
was, though he was surprised at such an opinion emanating from James. When they
locked up the inner office—their master being gone home—they discovered in the
fire-grate the ashes of what had been a formidable-looking document, and it
really did seem as though the concrete upon which the great safe stood had
become quite hot, but there was no visible sign of fire, and so they went off,
wondering and contented, but by no means in a mood of exhilaration, as properly
they should have been.
Ambrose had taken a cab
at his own door, and his first visit was to the Bond Street jeweller who had
sold him the opals.
He was quite sure that
he had shut up the devil in his office safe, and as he drove it seemed to him
that he became conscious of a new world round about him, though just how it was
new he could not have told you.
Everybody wore a look of
great content—there was subdued laughter but no real merriment—nor did any
hasten as though he had real business to do; while the very taxi-cabs drove
with circumspection, and actually waited for old ladies to cross the street
before them. When his own cab stopped he gave the man half a crown as usual;
but the driver called him back and pointed out his error.
"Excuse me, sir,
eighteenpence is the fare with threepence for my gratuity, that makes one and
ninepence. So I have to give you ninepence back, although I thank you all the
same."
Ambrose pocketed the
money, quite insensible of anything but the man's civility, and entered
immediately into the sanctum of the great jeweller. He found that worthy a
little distrait and far from any desire to do big business. In fact, his first
words told of his coming retirement from an occupation which had enriched him
during a good forty years of profit and rarely of loss.
"The fact is, Mr.
Cleaver, that I foresee the day coming when women will wear no jewellery.
Already the spirit of competition has passed, and it is by competition and the
pride of competition that this trade has flourished. A woman buys a rope of
pearls because another woman wears one. Lady A cannot allow Lady B to have more
valuable diamonds than she possesses. Very few really admire the gems for their
own sake, and when you think of the crimes that have been committed because of
them, the envious passions they arouse, and the swindles to which they give
birth, then, indeed, we may wish that every precious stone lay deep at the bottom
of the sea."
"But, my dear sir,
are you not thus banishing much beauty from the world—did not the Almighty
create precious stones for pretty women to wear?"
The jeweller shrugged
his shoulders, sweeping aside carelessly some priceless pearls that lay on the
table before him.
"The Almighty
created them to lie securely in their shells, or deep in the caverns of the
earth; for the rivers to wash them with sweet waters or the lurid fire to shape
them in the bowls of the mountains. The beauties given us to enjoy are those
upon which our eyes may light in the woodlands or from the heights—the glory of
the sunset, the stillness of the sea, the thousand hues of a garden of flowers,
or the cascade as it falls from the mountain top. These things are common to all,
but the precious stone is too often for the neck or the fingers of the harlot
and the adventuress. No, sir, I shall retire from this business and seek out
some quiet spot where I can await with composure the solemn moment of
dissolution we all must face."
Ambrose was almost too
astonished to speak.
"I admire your
philosophy," he said at length, "but the fact is, that I want a
diamond ring and a rope of pearls and if——"
"Ah," said the
old man interrupting him, "it is odd that you should speak of pearls, for
I have just been telling my partner here that whatever he may do in the future,
he will find pearls of little profit to him. What with imitations and the
'cultured' article, women are coming already to despise them. But even if you
take your fiancée a diamond ring, will she not merely say to
herself: 'an excellent beginning, now what is the next thing I can get out of
him?' Be wise and cultivate no such spirit of cupidity, foreign to a good
woman's nature but encouraged by the men, who, for vanity's sake, heap presents
upon her. Take rather this little cross, set with pure amethysts, the emblem of
faith and so discover, my dear sir, whether she loves the man or the jewel, for
indeed but few women love both, as all their story teaches us."
Ambrose took the cross
and thanked the old man for his words of wisdom. Another cab carried him on his
way to Upper Gloucester Place where Kitty Palmer then lived with her saintly
mother—and as he went, he reflected upon the jeweller's words.
"I'll put her to
the proof," he said to himself, "if she likes this twopenny halfpenny
cross, she is a miracle among women. But, of course, she won't like it and
there'll be another scene. What a devil of a temper she was in this morning and
how she made the fur fly! If she's like that now, I shall just take her into my
arms and kiss her until she's done fighting. After all, I wouldn't give
sixpence for a woman who had no spirit. It's their moods that make them so
fascinating —little devils that they are at their best!"
The arrival at the house
cut short his ruminations and he hastened into the well-known drawing-room and
there waited impatiently while the maid summoned Kitty from her bedroom. She
came down immediately to his great surprise—for usually she kept him waiting at
least half an hour—and her mood was strangely changed, he thought. A pretty,
flaxen-haired, blue-eyed, cream and white English type she was, but her chin
spoke also of determination and the eyes which could "look love to eyes
that looked again," upon occasion could also speak of anger which resented
all control. This afternoon, however, Kitty was as meek as a lamb. She had
become so utterly changed in an hour that Ambrose hardly knew her.
"My dear
girl," he began, "I am so sorry that I lost my temper this
morning——"
"Oh, no—not you,
Ambrose dear. It was I—of course it was awfully silly and we won't go to
Deauville if you don't want to. Let it be Fontainebleau by all means—though
really, it does not seem important whether we do get married or don't while you
love me. Love after all is what matters, isn't it, Ambrose dearest?"
He had to say that it
was, though he did not like her argument. When, with some hesitation and not a
little fear he showed her the little gold cross, she admitted to his
astonishment that it was one of the prettiest things she had ever seen.
"Somehow," she
said, "I do not seem to care much for jewellery now. It has become so
vulgar—the commoner the people, the more diamonds they wear. I shall treasure
this, darling—I'll wear it now at lunch. Of course you are going to take me to
lunch, aren't you? Suppose we go to the Ritz grill-room, the restaurants are so
noisy, and I know that you like grill-rooms, don't you, dear?"
Ambrose said
"yes" and they started off. Somehow he felt rather depressed and he had
to confess that Kitty—usually so smart—looked quite shabby. She wore one of her
oldest dresses and obviously had neither powder on her face nor the lightest
touch of the rouge which became her so well. Moreover, she was listless beyond
experience, and when he asked her if she would go to the Savoy and dance that
night, she answered that she thought she would give up dancing altogether. It
quite took his breath away.
"Give up
dancing—but, Kitty, you're mad about it!"
"No, dear, I was
mad to be mad about it: but what good does it do to anybody, just going up and
down and round and round with a man you may never see again. Surely we were not
sent into the world to do that! Ask the vicar of the parish what he thinks, or
Doctor Lanfry, who is doing such splendid work at the hospitals. I think we
have to make good in life, and dancing, surely, will not help us. So I mean to
give it up, and smoking and all horrid things. I'm sure you'll like me better
for that, dear; you know how jealous my dancing used to make you, but now
you'll never have any cause to be jealous again."
Ambrose did not know
what to say. This seemed to him quite the flattest lunch he had ever sat out
with her, while, as for the people round about, he thought he had never seen a
duller lot. Perhaps, after all, he had been a little hasty in shutting up the
devil so unceremoniously, but it made him laugh to think that the fellow would
get no lunch anyway and that his stock of cigars would hardly last him through
the day. "And at any rate," he argued, "the rascal will do no
mischief to-day."
He drove Kitty to the
King's New Hospital when the stupid meal was over—she was visiting some old
people there—and while he waited for her, he met Dr. Lanfry himself and had a
little chat with that benevolent old gentleman. Naturally their talk concerned
the hospital and he was not a little surprised to find the worthy doctor
altogether in an optimistic mood.
"Yes," he
said, "we shall have no need of these costly places. Disease is
disappearing rapidly from our midst. I see the day coming when men and women
will go untroubled by any ailment from the cradle to the grave. In some ways, I
confess the world will be poorer. Think of all the human sympathy which human
suffering awakens—the profound love of the mother for the ailing child, the
sacrifice of those who wait and watch by the beds of the sick, the agony of
parting leading to the eternal hope in the justice of God. All these things,
the world will miss when we conquer disease, and the spirit will be the poorer for
them. Indeed, I foresee the day when men will forget the existence of God just
because they have no need to pray for those who suffer; the devil will have no
work to do in that day; but, who knows, humanity may be worse and not better
because of his idleness."
Ambrose agreed with him,
though he would never have expressed such sentiments to Kitty. He found her a
little sad when she came out of the ward, and it seemed that all the patients
were so very much better that they cared but little for her kindly attentions,
and when she tried to read to them, most of them fell asleep. So she went back
to Ambrose and asked him to drive to the vicarage where she hoped to see Canon
Kenny, her good pastor, and find out if he could tell her of some work of mercy
to be done.
"I feel," she
said, "that I must find out the sorrow in the world, I must help it."
"But suppose, my
dear, that there isn't any sorrow——"
"Oh, then the world
would not be worth living in, I should go out to the islands of the Pacific and
become a missionary. Do you know, Ambrose dear, I've often thought of putting
on boys' clothes and going to live in the wilderness. A boy seems so much more
active than a girl, and what does it matter since sex no longer counts?"
He looked at her aghast.
"Sex no longer
counts!"
"No," she said
in the simplest way, "people will become too spiritual for that. You will
have to love me as though I were your sister, Ambrose——"
Ambrose gulped down a
"d——n" and was quite relieved to find himself presently in the study
of the venerable canon, who was just leaving England for a Continental holiday.
He said that he was not tired, but really there was very little work to do—and
he added, with a laugh: "It would almost appear, my children, as though
some one had locked up the devil and there was no more work left for us
parsons."
"But that surely
would be a great, good thing," exclaimed Ambrose, astonished.
"In a way,
yes," the canon rejoined, "but consider, all life depends upon that
impulse which comes of strife—strife of the body, strife of the soul. I worship
God believing He has called upon me to take my share in fighting the evil which
is in the world. Remove that evil, and what is my inspiration? Beyond the
grave, yes, there may be that sphere of holiness to which the human condition
contributes nothing—a sphere in which all happiness, all goodness centres about
the presence of the Eternal—but here we know that man must strive or perish,
must fight or be conquered—must school his immortal soul in the fire of
temptation and of suffering. So, I say, it may even be a bad day for the world
could the devil be chained in bonds which even he could not burst. It might
even be the loss of the knowledge of the God by whom evil is permitted to live
that good may come."
This and much more he said,
always in the tone of one who bared his head to destiny and had a faith
unconquerable. When they left him, Kitty appeared to have made up her mind, and
she spoke so earnestly that even her lover could not argue with her.
"Ambrose,
dear," she said, "I must see you no more, I shall devote my life to
good works. To-night I shall enter the Convent of the Little Sisters at
Kensington. It is a long, long good-bye, my dearest."
He did not answer her,
but calling a taxi, he ordered the man to drive to Throgmorton Street like the
deuce.
III
He had told James and
John to go home, but to his annoyance he found them still in the office and
busy as though nothing extraordinary had happened. Brushing by them, he dashed
into the inner room and turned the key in the lock of his safe.
"Come out!" he
cried, but nobody answered him.
It was odd, but when he
looked inside that massive room of steel, nobody was to be discerned there. At
the same instant, however, he heard the Count's voice immediately behind him,
and turning he discovered the man at his elbow.
"Well?" asked
the fellow.
So there he stood,
exactly in the same attitude as Ambrose had left him when he crossed the room
to find the document. Indeed, the very same cigarette was held by his
evil-looking fingers, and it was clear that he waited for the word which would
signify acceptance of his contract.
"Good
heavens," thought Ambrose, "I must have imagined it all."
He returned to his chair
and tossed the paper across the table.
"I refuse to sign
it," he said curtly, "you had better call on Alderman Karlbard; he's
a church-warden, a justice of the peace and a philanthropist. He's your man and
he's pretty sure to end in prison anyway."
"Thank you for your
introduction," said the Count quietly, and, bowing, he withdrew with the
same nonchalant air as he had entered. Trust the devil to know when he is
beaten.
Ambrose watched him go
and then calling John, he asked what time it was.
"A quarter to one,
sir," said that worthy.
"Just in time to
lunch with Kitty," Ambrose thought. And then jumping up as a man who comes
by a joyous idea, he cried: "By Gad, what a row I mean to have with
her—the darling!"
19.EMPTY ARMS by ROLAND PERTWEE
(From The Ladies' Home Journal) 1922
There was a maroon wall
paper in the dining-room, abundantly decorated with sweeping curves unlike any
known kind of vegetation. There were amber silk sashes to the Nottingham lace
curtains at the huge bow window and an amber winding sheet was wrapped about
the terra cotta pot in which a tired aspidistra bore forth a yearly leaf. Upon
the Brussels carpet was a massive mahogany dining table, and facing the window
a Georgian chiffonier, brass railed and surmounted by a convex mirror. The
mantlepiece was draped in red serge, ball fringed. There were bronzes upon it
and a marble clock, while above was an overmantel, columned and bemirrored,
upon the shelves of which reposed sorrowful examples of Doulton ware and a pair
of wrought-iron candlesticks. It was a room divorced from all sense of youth
and live beings, sunless, grave, unlovely; an arid room that bore to the
nostrils the taint and humour of the tomb.
From somewhere near the
Edgware Road came the clot-clot of a late four-wheeler and the shake and rumble
of an underground train. The curtains had been discreetly drawn, the gas turned
off at the metre and an hour had passed since the creaking of the old lady's
shoes and the jingle of the plate basket ascending the stairs had died away. A
dim light from the street lamp outside percolated through the blinds and faintly
illuminated the frame and canvas of a large picture hanging opposite the
mantlepiece.
It was a beautiful
picture, a piece of perfect painting—three figures in a simple curve of rocks,
lit as it were by an afterglow of sunset. In the centre was a little Madonna
draped in blue and gold. Her elbows were tight to her sides and her upturned
palms with their tender curving fingers were empty. It seemed almost as though
they cradled some one who was not there. Her mouth was pulled down at the
corners, as is a child's at the edge of tears, and in her eyes was a questing
and bewildered look. To her right, leaning upon a slender staff, was the figure
of St. John the Baptist, and upon his face also perplexity was written. A trick
brushwork had given to his eyes a changing direction whereby at a certain angle
you would say he was looking at the Madonna, and again that he was following
the direction of her gaze out into unknown places. His lips were shaped to the
utterance of such a word as "why" or "where." It seemed as
though the two were in a partnership of sorrow or of search.
The third figure was of
Saint Anne, standing a little behind and looking upward. A strange composition,
oddly incomplete, giving an impression of sadness, of unrest and of loss
irredeemable.
A clock was chiming the
parts of an hour when the little Madonna stepped from the frame and tiptoed
across the room. To her own reflection in the mirror opposite she shook her
head in a sorrowful negative. She peeped into a cupboard and behind the draperies
of the mantlepiece, but there was nothing there. She paused before an engraving
of Raphael's Holy Family, murmured "Happy Lady" and passed on.
On a small davenport
table next to one of the two inexorable armchairs she found the old lady's
workbasket. That was a great piece of good fortune, since nightly it was locked
away with the tea, the stamps and other temptations that might persuade a soul
to steal should opportunity allow.
In the many years of her
dwelling in the house, but three times only had she found it unguarded. There
are glorious possibilities in a workbasket. Once she had found wool there, not
carded, but a hank of it, soft, white and most delicate to touch. To handle it
had given her the queerest sensation. She had shut her eyes, and it had seemed
to weave itself into the daintiest garments—very small, you understand, and
with sleeves no longer than a middle finger. But it was a silly imagining, for
not many days afterward, looking down from the canvas, she had seen the old
lady, with her clicking ivory needles, knit the wool into an ugly pair of bed
socks.
Quite a while she played
in the basket that night. She liked the little pearl buttons in the pill box,
and the safety pins were nice too. Kind and trustworthy pins they were to hide
their points beneath smooth round shields. She felt it would be good to take
some of them back in one of her empty hands and hide them in that little
crevice of rock under the juniper tree.
It was the banging of a
front door opposite and the sound of running footsteps that moved her to the
window. She drew back the curtain and peeped out across the way. There were
lights in an upstairs window and a shadow kept crossing and recrossing the
blind. It was a nice shadow and wore a head-dress like her own except that it
was more sticky out.
The hall, too, showed a
light, and, looking up the street, she saw a maidservant, running very fast,
disappear round the corner. After that there was silence for a long time. In
the street no one moved; it was deserted, empty as the little Madonna's arms,
and dark. A fine rain was falling, and there were no stars. The sound of
distant traffic had died away. The last underground train had drilled its way
through sulphurous tunnels to the sheds where engines sleep.
She could not tell what
kept her waiting at the window; perhaps it was the moving shadow on the blind,
perhaps a prescience, a sense of happenings near at hand, wonderful yet
frightening. A thousand other times she had looked across the street in the
dead of night, only to shake her head and steal back sorrowfully to her canvas.
But to-night it was different; there was a feeling of promise, as though the
question that she ever asked with her eyes might at last be given an answer.
The front door opened a
second time, and a man came out and, though he was quite young, he looked older
than the world. He was shaking and very white; his hair was disordered and
straggled across his brow. He wore no collar, but held the lapels of his coat
across his throat with trembling fingers. Fearfully he looked up the street
where the maid had gone, then stamped his foot on the paving stones and with
his free hand rubbed his forehead and beat it with his knuckles.
"Oh, will he never
come!" she heard him cry, and the words echoed through her as though they
had been her own. If it was a prayer he had uttered it was swiftly answered;
for at the moment the maid and a bearded man came round the corner at a fast
walk. The bearded man had a kind face and broad shoulders.
She did not hear what
passed between them; but the bearded man seemed confident and comfortable and
compelling, and presently he and the maid went into the house, while the other
man leaned against the railings and stared out before him at a tiny star which
had appeared in a crack between the driven clouds. Lonely and afraid he looked,
and strangely like herself. The misery of him drew her irresistibly. Always
before, she had shunned the people of every day, having no understanding of
their pleasures or sorrows, seeing little meaning in their lives or deaths. But
here was a mortal who was different, who was magnetic, and, almost without
realising, she passed out of the house, crossed the road and stood before him,
the corners of her cloak draped across her arms.
He did not seem aware of
her at once, and even when she spoke to him in Italian of the Renaissance he
did not hear. So she spoke again and this time in English: "What is
it?"
He started, rubbed his
eyes, blinked at her and answered: "Hullo, who are you?"
"What is it?"
she repeated. "Have you lost something?"
"Don't—don't!"
he pleaded. "Don't even suggest such a thing, little lady."
"I won't. I only
thought—and you looked so sad."
"Be all right
directly. It's the waiting. Kind of you to stop and speak to me." His eyes
strayed over the gold and blue of her cloak. "Been to a theatre?" he
asked.
She shook her head and
looked up at him with a child's perplexity.
"A play?" he
amended.
"I've no one to
play with," she answered simply. "See!" And she held out her
empty arms.
"What's wrong
then?"
"I don't
know." She seemed to dwell on the last word. "I only thought—perhaps
you could tell me."
"Tell you
what?"
"Help me to find it
perhaps. It seemed as if you were looking, too; that's why I came."
"Looking?" he
repeated. "I'm waiting; that's all."
"Me too. But it's
such a long time, and I get no nearer."
"Nearer to
what?"
"Finding."
"Something you
lost?"
"I think so. Must
be. I'll go back now."
He put out a hand to
stop her. "Listen," he said. "It'll be hours before I shall
know. I'm frightened to spend them alone. Be a friend, little lady, and bear me
company. 'Tisn't fair to ask, but if you could stay a little."
"I'll stay,"
she said.
"And will you talk
to me?"
"Yes."
"Tell me a story
then—just as if I were a kid, a child. A man isn't much more these times."
At the word
"child" her arms went out to him, but dropped to her sides again as
he said "a man."
"Come under the
porch, where the rain won't spoil your pretty silk. That's better. Now tell
away."
They sat side by side,
and she began to talk. He must have been listening for other sounds, or surely
he would have been bewildered at the very beginning of what she told.
"It's hard to
remember when one was alive, but I used to be—yes, hundreds of years ago. I
lived—can't remember very well; there was a high wall all around, and a tower
and a bell that rang for prayers—and long, long passages where we walked up and
down to tell our beads. Outside were mountains with snow caps like the heads of
the sisters, and it was cold as snow within, cold and pure as snow. I was
sixteen years old and very unhappy. We did not know how to smile; that I learnt
later and have forgotten since. There was the skull of a dead man upon the
table where we sat to eat, that we might never forget to what favour we must
come. There were no pretty rooms in that house."
"What would you
call a pretty room?" he asked, for the last sentence was the first of
which he was aware.
"I don't
know," she answered. "I think a room with little beds, and wooden
bars across the window, and a high fender would be a pretty room."
"We have been busy
making such a room as that," he said. "There's a wall paper with pigs
and chickens and huntsmen on it. But go on."
"There were iron
bars to the window of my cell. He was very strong and tore them out with his hands
as he stood up on the saddle of his horse. We rode into Florence as dawn broke,
and the sun was an angry red; while we rode his arm was around me and my head
upon his shoulder. He spoke in my ear and his voice trembled for love of me. We
had thrown away the raiment of the sisterhood to which I had belonged, and as I
lay across the saddle I was wrapped in a cloak as crimson as the sun."
"Been reading
Tennyson, little lady?" asked the man.
She did not understand,
and went on: "It was a palace to which he brought me, bright with gold,
mosaic and fine hangings that dazzled my eyes after the grey they had been used
to look upon. There were many servants and richly clad friends, who frightened
me with their laughter and the boldness of their looks. On his shoulder he bore
me into the great dining hall, where they sat awaiting us, and one and all they
rose to their feet, leaping upon stools and tables with uplifted goblets and
shouting toasts.
"The noise was
greater than any I had heard before and set my heart a-beating like the clapper
of the convent bell. But one only stayed in his chair, and his looks were heavy
with anger. At him the rest pointed fingers and called on him derisively to pay
the wager and be glad. Whereat he tugged from his belt a bag of gold which he
flung at us as though with the will to injure. But he who held me caught the
bag in his free hand, broke the sealed cord at the neck of it and scattered the
coins in a golden rain among the servants.
"After this, he set
me by his side at the board, gave me drink from a brimming goblet and quails
cooked in honey from wild bees and silver dishes of nectarines and passion
fruit. And presently by twos and threes the guests departed, singing and
reeling as they went, and he and I were left alone. Alone," she repeated
shuddering.
"Did you hear
anything?" said the young man, raising his head. "A cry, a little
cry? No? I can hear footsteps moving up and down. Doctors' boots always creak.
There! Listen! It was nothing. What were you saying?"
"Twice in the months
that followed I tried to run away, to return to the convent; but the servants
whom I had counted my friends deceived me, and I was brought back to a beating,
brought back strapped to his stirrup iron as I might have been a Nubian slave.
Long since he had ceased loving me; that lasted such a little while. He called
me Madonna, as though it were a term of shame, and cursed me for coldness and
my nunnery ways. He was only happy when he read in my face the fear I held him
in. And I was always afraid!"
"Afraid!"
echoed the man. "Until to-night I was never afraid."
"And then my baby
came, and I was not afraid any more, but contented all through. I carried him
always in my arms by day and night. So pink and little and with a smile that
warmed like sunshine." She paused and added plaintively: "It's hard
to remember when one was alive. My hands, my arms have forgotten the feel of
him."
"I wish," said
the man, "I'd had a second opinion. It might have frightened her though.
Oh, heaven, how much longer! Don't mind me, little lady. You're helping no end.
You were speaking of baby. Yes!"
"He killed my
baby," said the little Madonna, "because he had killed my fear of
him. Then being done with me, he threw me out in the streets alone. I thought
to end it that night, because my arms were empty and nothing could be good
again. But I could not believe the baby was indeed gone; I thought if I
searched I would find him in the course of time. Therefore I searched the city
from end to end and spoke with mothers and peeped into nurseries and knocked at
many doors. And one day a door was opened by a man with great eyes and bronze
hair swept back from his brow—a good man. He wore a loose smock over his
doublet, smeared with many colours, and in his left hand he held a palette and
brushes. When he saw me he fell back a pace and his mouth opened. 'Mother of
mercy!' he breathed. 'A real Madonna at last!' His name was Andrea del Sarto,
and he was a painter."
"I am a painter,
too," said the young man, forgetting his absorption at the mention of a
great name.
"He brought me into
his room, which was bright with windows and a fire. He bade me tell my story,
and while I spoke never once did his eyes desert me. When I had ended he rose
and walked up and down. Then he took from a chest a cloak of blue and gold and
draped it round me. 'Stand upon that throne, Madonna,' said he, 'and I will put
an infant in your arms that shall live down all the ages.' And he painted me.
So with the child at my breast, I myself had passed into the picture and found
contentment there.
"When it was
finished the great ones of many cities came to look upon it, and the story of
how I came to be painted went from mouth to mouth. Among those who were there
was he who had taken me from the nunnery, and, seeing me in perfect happiness,
a fury was born in him.
"I was hidden
behind a hanging and watched the black anger rising up and knotting his brow
into ugly lines. He bought the canvas, and his servants carried it away. But
since the child was in my arms for all time it mattered little to me.
"Then one night two
men came to my lodging and without question took me across the city and led me
into the palace where I had lived with him. And he came forward to meet me in
the great hall. There was a mocking smile on his lips and he pointed to a wall
upon which a curtain was hanging.
"'I took away that
child,' he said, 'because you valued it higher than the love of man. Look now.'
At a gesture a servant threw back the hanging and revealed the picture. The
babe was gone and my arms crooked to cradle him were empty with the palms
upturned.
"I died then—to the
sound of his laughter I died, and, looking down from the canvas, I watched them
carry me away. And long into the night the man who twice had robbed me of my
child sat at the long table staring out before him, drinking great draughts and
sometimes beating the boards with his bare fists. As dawn broke he clapped his
hands and a servant entered. He pointed at me with a shaking hand. 'Take it
away,' he cried. 'To a cellar, and let masons brick up the door.' He was
weeping as they carried me down to the dark beneath the house."
"What a strange
being you are!" said the young man. "You speak as though these were
real memories. What happened to the picture then?"
"I lay in the dark
for so long—hundreds of years, I think—and there was nowhere I might look.
Afterward I was found and packed in a box and presently put upon the wall in
the sad room, where everything is so old that I shall not find him there. This
is the furthest I have dared to look. Help me find him, please! Won't you help
me find him?"
"Why, little
lady," he answered soothingly, "how shall I help? That's a woman's
burden that heaven isn't merciful enough to let a man share." He stopped
abruptly and threw up his head. "Did you hear that—there?"
Through the still, early
morning air came a faint, reedy cry.
The young man was upon
his feet, fiercely fitting a key into the lock.
The little Madonna had
risen, too, and her eyes were luminous, like glowworms in the dark.
"He's calling me,"
she cried. "He's calling."
"Mine," said
the young man.
She turned to follow,
but the door closed between them.
000
To the firm of Messrs.
Ridgewell, Ridgewell, Hitchcock and Plum was given the task of disposing of the
furniture and effects of the late Sabina Prestwich, spinster, of 22a Cambridge
Avenue, Hyde Park, W.
As Mr. Ridgewell,
junior, remarked to Mr. Plum while engaged in compiling the sale list and
supplying appropriate encomiums to describe an upright grand by Rubenthal,
Berlin: "Victorian muck! Lucky if we clean up two-fifty on the lot."
Mr. Plum was disposed to
agree. "Though I must say," he added, "it wouldn't surprise me
if that picture was worth a bit. Half a mind to let old Kineagie have a squint
at it."
"Please
yourself," responded Mr. Ridgewell, junior, "but to my mind it's ten
guineas for nix."
It was the chance
discovery of an old document amongst a litter of receipts and papers that
persuaded them to engage an expert opinion. The document stated that the
picture had been discovered bricked up in a Florentine cellar some fifty years
before and had been successfully smuggled out of Italy. But the man who found
it died, and it passed with a few other unvalued possessions to Sabina
Prestwich, now deceased.
The result of Eden
Kineagie's visit to the house in Cambridge Avenue was the immediate
transference of the canvas to Sotheby's Sale Rooms, a concerted rush on the
part of every European and American connoisseur, a threatening letter from the
Italian Foreign Office, some extravagant bidding and the ultimate purchase of
the picture for the nation, after a heated debate on the part of twenty-two
Royal Academicians and five painters of the new school, who would have accepted
death rather than the letters; R.A., after their names. Extensive correspondence
appeared in the leading papers; persons wrote expressing the opinion that the
picture had never been painted by Del Sarto, that it was the finest example of
his work, that the price paid was a further example of government waste, and
that the money would have been better employed repairing the main road between
Croydon Town Hall and Sydenham High Street, the condition of which constituted
a menace to motor-cyclists.
For nearly ten days
scarcely a single publication appeared that failed to reproduce a comment or
criticism upon the subject; but, strangely enough, no single leader, writer or
casual contributor remarked upon the oddness of the composition or the absence
of the Infant from the Madonna's arms. In the course of time—that is to say, on
the eleventh day—the matter passed from the public mind, a circumstance
explainable perhaps by the decent interment of the canvas in the National
Gallery, where it affected no one save those mysterious folk who look at
pictures for their pleasure and the umbrellaless refugee who is driven to take
shelter from the fierceness of storms.
The little Madonna was
placed upon a south wall, whence she could look out upon a brave company. And
sometimes people would pause to gaze at her and then shake their heads. And once
a girl said, "How sad she looks! I wonder why." And once a little old
lady with industrious hands set up an easel before her and squeezed little
twists of colour upon a palette, then thought a long time and pursed her lips,
and puzzled her brow and finally murmured, "I could never copy it. It's
so—so changing." And she, too, went away.
The little Madonna did
not dare to step from her frame at night, for other mothers were at hand
cradling their babes and the sound of her footfalls might have wakened them.
But it was hard to stay still and alone in that happy nursery. She could see
through an archway to the right a picture Rubens had painted, and it was all
aglow with babies like roses clustered at a porch—fat, dimpled babies who
rolled and laughed in aërial garlands. It would have been nice to pick one and
carry it back with her. Yet perhaps they were not really mothers' children, but
sprites and joys that had not learned the way to nestle. Had it been otherwise
surely the very call of her spirit must have brought one leaping to her arms.
And then one day came a
man and girl, who stopped before her. The girl was half child, half woman, and
the man grey and bearded, but with brave blue eyes. It was seventeen years
since the night she had stolen across the way and talked with this man in his
hour of terror, but time did not cloud the little Madonna's memory with the
dust of forgetfulness.
"That's the new Del
Sarto," said the girl, who was reading from a small blue book. "See,
daddy?"
Then the man turned and
looked at her, fell back a step, came forward again, passed a hand across his
mouth and gasped. "What is it?" asked the girl.
He did not answer at
once, then: "The night you were born——" he said. "I'm
certain.... It's—it's Del Sarto too! And the poor empty arms. Just how she
looked, and I closed the door on her."
"Daddy, what are
you saying?" There was a frightened tone in the girl's voice.
"It's all right,
dear, don't mind me. I must find the keeper of the gallery. Poor little lady!
Run back home, tell your mother I may be late."
"But, daddy——"
"There are more
things in heaven and earth," he began, but did not finish. It seemed as
though the Madonna's eyes were pleading to him, and it seemed as if he could
still hear her say, "Help me find him, please!"
He told his story to the
Committee of the National Gallery and, to do them credit, it was received with
the utmost courtesy.
They did not require him
to leave them while their decision was made. This was arrived at by a mere
exchange of glances, a nod answered by a tilt of the head, a wave of the hand,
a kindly smile; and the thing was done.
As the chairman
remarked: "We must not forget that this gentleman was living at the time
opposite to the house in which the picture was hanging, and it is possible that
a light had been left burning in the room that contained it.
"Those of us who
are fathers—and I regret for my own part that I cannot claim the
distinction—will bear me out that the condition of a man's mind during the
painful period of waiting for news as to his wife's progress is apt to depart
from the normal and make room for imaginings that in saner moments he must
dismiss as absurd. There has been a great deal of discussion and not a little
criticism on the part of the public as to the committee's wisdom in purchasing
this picture, and I am confident you will all agree with me that we could be
responsible for no greater folly than to work upon the canvas with various
removers on the bare hypothesis, unsupported by surface suggestion, that the
Madonna's arms actually contain a child painted in the first intention. For my
own part, I am well assured that at no period of its being has the picture been
tampered with, and it is a matter of no small surprise to me, sir, that an
artist of your undoubted quality and achievement should hold a contrary
opinion. We are, greatly obliged for the courtesy of your visit and trust that
you will feel after this liberal discussion that your conscience is free from
further responsibility in the matter. Good-day."
That was the end of the
interview. Once again the door was slammed in the little Madonna's face.
That night the man told
his wife all about it. "So you see," he concluded, "there is
nothing more I can do."
But she lay awake and
puzzled and yearned long after he had fallen asleep. And once she rose and
peeped into the room that used to be the nursery. It was a changed room now,
for the child had grown up, and where once pigs and chickens and huntsmen had
jostled in happy, farmyard disorder upon the walls, now there were likenesses
of Owen Nares and Henry Ainley, obligingly autographed.
But for her the spirit
prevailed, the kindly bars still ribbed the windows and the sense of sleeping
children still haunted the air.
And she it was who told
the man what he must do; and although it scared him a great deal he agreed, for
in the end all good husbands obey their wives.
It felt very eerie to be
alone in the National Gallery in the dead of the night with a tiny electric
lamp in one's buttonhole and a sponge of alcohol and turpentine in one's hand.
While he worked the little Madonna's eyes rested upon him and it could hardly
have been mere fancy that made him believe they were full of gratitude and
trust. At the end of an hour the outline of a child, faint and misty, appeared
in her arms, its head, circled by a tiny white halo, snuggling against the
curve of her little breast.
Then the man stepped
back and gave a shout of joy and, remembering the words the painter had used,
he cried out, "I will put an infant in your arms that shall live down all
the ages."
He had thought perhaps
there would come an answering gladness from the Madonna herself and looked into
her face to find it. And truly enough it was there. Her eyes, which for
centuries had looked questingly forth from the canvas, now drooped and rested
upon the baby. Her mouth, so sadly downturned at the corners, had sweetened to
a smile of perfect and serene content.
But the men will not
believe he washed away the sadness of her looks with alcohol and turpentine.
"I did not touch the head. I am certain I did not," he repeated.
"Then how can you
explain——"
"Oh, heaven!"
he answered. "Put a child in any woman's arms."
20.LENA WRACE by MAY SINCLAIR
(From The Dial) 1921, 1922
She arranged herself
there, on that divan, and I knew she'd come to tell me all about it. It was
wonderful, how, at forty-seven, she could still give that effect of triumph and
excess, of something rich and ruinous and beautiful spread out on the brocades.
The attitude showed me that her affair with Norman Hippisley was prospering;
otherwise she couldn't have afforded the extravagance of it.
"I know what you
want," I said. "You want me to congratulate you."
"Yes. I do."
"I congratulate you
on your courage."
"Oh, you don't like
him," she said placably.
"No, I don't like
him at all."
"He likes
you," she said. "He thinks no end of your painting."
"I'm not denying
he's a judge of painting. I'm not even denying he can paint a little
himself."
"Better than you,
Roly."
"If you allow for
the singular, obscene ugliness of his imagination, yes."
"It's beautiful
enough when he gets it into paint," she said. "He makes beauty. His
own beauty."
"Oh, very much his
own."
"Well, you just
go on imitating other people's—God's or somebody's."
She continued with her
air of perfect reasonableness. "I know he isn't good-looking. Not half so
good-looking as you are. But I like him. I like his slender little body and his
clever, faded face. There's a quality about him, a distinction. And look at his
eyes. Your mind doesn't come rushing and blazing out of your
eyes, my dear."
"No. No. I'm afraid
it doesn't rush. And for all the blaze—"
"Well, that's what
I'm in love with, the rush, Roly, and the blaze. And I'm in love, for
the first time" (she underlined it) "with a man."
"Come," I
said, "come."
"Oh, I know.
I know you're thinking of Lawson Young and Dickey Harper."
I was.
"Well, but they
don't count. I wasn't in love with Lawson. It was his career. If he hadn't been
a Cabinet Minister; if he hadn't been so desperately gone on me; if he hadn't said
it all depended on me—"
"Yes," I said.
"I can see how it would go to your head."
"It didn't. It went
to my heart." She was quite serious and solemn. "I held him in my
hands, Roly. And he held England. I couldn't let him drop, could I? I had to
think of England."
It was wonderful—Lena
Wrace thinking that she thought of England.
I said "Of course.
But for your political foresight and your virtuous action we should never have
had Tariff Reform."
"We should never
have had anything," she said. "And look at him now. Look how he's
crumpled up since he left me. It's pitiful."
"It is. I'm afraid
Mrs. Withers doesn't care about Tariff Reform."
"Poor thing. No.
Don't imagine I'm jealous of her, Roly. She hasn't got him. I mean she hasn't
got what I had."
"All the same he
left you. And you weren't ecstatically happy with him the last year or
two."
"I daresay I'd have
done better to have married you, if that's what you mean."
It wasn't what I meant.
But she'd always entertained the illusion that she could marry me any minute if
she wanted to; and I hadn't the heart to take it from her since it seemed to
console her for the way, the really very infamous way, he had left her.
So I said, "Much
better."
"It would have been
so nice, so safe," she said. "But I never played for safety."
Then she made one of her quick turns.
"Frances Archdale
ought to marry you. Why doesn't she?"
"How should I know?
Frances's reasons would be exquisite. I suppose I didn't appeal to her sense of
fitness."
"Sense of
fiddlesticks. She just hasn't got any temperament, that girl."
"Any temperament
for me, you mean."
"I mean pure
cussedness," said Lena.
"Perhaps. But, you
see, if I were unfortunate enough she probably would marry me.
If I lost my eyesight or a leg or an arm, if I couldn't sell any more
pictures—"
"If you can
understand Frances, you can understand me. That's how I felt about Dickey. I
wasn't in love with him. I was sorry for him. I knew he'd go to pieces if I
wasn't there to keep him together. Perhaps it's the maternal instinct."
"Perhaps," I
said. Lena's reasons for her behaviour amused me; they were never exquisite,
like Frances's, but she was anxious that you should think they were.
"So you see,"
she said, "they don't count, and Norry really is the
first."
I reflected that he
would be also, probably, the last. She had, no doubt, to make the most of him.
But it was preposterous that she should waste so much good passion;
preposterous that she should imagine for one moment she could keep the fellow.
I had to warn her.
"Of course, if you
care to take the risk of him—" I said. "He won't stick to you,
Lena."
"Why shouldn't
he?"
I couldn't tell her. I
couldn't say, "Because you're thirteen ears older than he is." That
would have been cruel. And it would have been absurd, too, when she could so
easily look not a year older than his desiccated thirty-four.
It only took a little
success like this, her actual triumph in securing him.
So I said, "Because
it isn't in him. He's a bounder and a rotter." Which was true.
"Not a bounder,
Roly dear. His father's Sir Gilbert Hippisley. Hippisleys of
Leicestershire."
"A moral bounder,
Lena. A slimy eel. Slips and wriggles out of things. You'll never hold him.
You're not his first affair, you know."
"I don't
care," she said, "as long as I'm his last."
I could only stand and
stare at that; her monstrous assumption of his fidelity. Why, he couldn't even
be faithful to one art. He wrote as well as he painted, and he acted as well as
he wrote, and he was never really happy with a talent till he had debauched it.
"The others,"
she said, "don't bother me a bit. He's slipped and wriggled out of their
clutches, if you like.... Yet there was something about all of them.
Distinguished. That's it. He's so awfully fine and fastidious about the women
he takes up with. It flatters you, makes you feel so sure of yourself. You know
he wouldn't take up with you if you weren't fine and
fastidious, too—one of his great ladies.... You think I'm a snob, Roly?"
"I think you don't
mind coming after Lady Willersey."
"Well," she
said, "if you have to come after somebody—"
"True." I
asked her if she was giving me her reasons.
"Yes, if you want
them. I don't. I'm content to love out of all reason."
And she did. She loved
extravagantly, unintelligibly, out of all reason; yet irrefutably. To the end.
There's a sort of reason in that, isn't there? She had the sad logic of her
passions.
She got up and gathered
herself together in her sombre, violent beauty and in its glittering sheath,
her red fox skins, all her savage splendour, leaving a scent of crushed orris
root in the warmth of her lair.
Well, she managed to
hold him, tight, for a year, fairly intact. I can't for the life of me imagine
how she could have cared for the fellow, with his face all dried and frayed
with make-up. There was something lithe and sinuous about him that may, of
course, have appealed to her. And I can understand his infatuation. He was
decadent, exhausted; and there would be moments when he found her primitive
violence stimulating, before it wore him out.
They kept up the ménage for
two astounding years.
Well, not so very
astounding, if you come to think of it. There was Lena's money, left her by old
Weinberger, her maternal uncle. You've got to reckon with Lena's money. Not
that she, poor soul, ever reckoned with it; she was absolutely free from that
taint, and she couldn't conceive other people reckoning. Only, instinctively,
she knew. She knew how to hold Hippisley. She knew there were things he
couldn't resist, things like wines and motor cars he could be faithful to. From
the very beginning she built for permanence, for eternity. She took a house in
Avenue Road with a studio for Hippisley in the garden; she bought a motor car
and engaged an inestimable cook. Lena's dinners, in those years, were exquisite
affairs, and she took care to ask the right people, people who would be useful
to Hippisley, dealers whom old Weinberger had known, and journalists and
editors and publishers. And all his friends and her own; even friends' friends.
Her hospitality was boundless and eccentric, and Hippisley liked that sort of
thing. He thrived in a liberal air, an air of gorgeous spending, though he
sported a supercilious smile at the fioritura, the luscious excess
of it. He had never had too much, poor devil, of his own. I've seen the little
fellow swaggering about at her parties, with his sharp, frayed face, looking
fine and fastidious, safeguarding himself with twinklings and gestures that
gave the dear woman away. I've seen him, in goggles and a magnificent fur-lined
coat, shouting to her chauffeur, giving counter orders to her own, while she
sat snuggling up in the corner of the car, smiling at his mastery.
It went on till poor
Lena was forty-nine. Then, as she said, she began to "shake in her
shoes." I told her it didn't matter so long as she didn't let him see her
shaking. That depressed her, because she knew she couldn't hide it; there was
nothing secret in her nature; she had always let "them" see. And they
were bothering her—"the others"—more than "a bit." She was
jealous of every one of them, of any woman he said more than five words to.
Jealous of the models, first of all, before she found out that they didn't
matter; he was so used to them. She would stick there, in his studio, while
they sat, until one day he got furious and turned her out of it. But she'd seen
enough to set her mind at rest. He was fine and fastidious, and the models were
all "common."
"And their figures,
Roly, you should have seen them when they were undressed. Of course, you have seen
them. Well, there isn't—is there?"
And there wasn't.
Hippisley had grown out of models just as he had grown out of cheap Burgundy.
And he'd left the stage, because he was tired of it, so there was, mercifully,
no danger from that quarter. What she dreaded was the moment when he'd
"take" to writing again, for then he'd have to have a secretary. Also
she was jealous of his writing because it absorbed more of his attention than
his painting, and exhausted him more, left her less of him.
And that year, their
third year, he flung up his painting and was, as she expressed it, "at
it" again. Worse than ever. And he wanted a secretary.
She took care to find
him one. One who wouldn't be dangerous. "You should just see her,
Roly." She brought her in to tea one day for me to look at and say whether
she would "do."
I wasn't sure—what can
you be sure of?—but I could see why Lena thought she would. She was a little
unhealthy thing, dark and sallow and sulky, with thin lips that showed a lack
of temperament, and she had a stiffness and preciseness, like a Board School
teacher—just that touch of "commonness" which Lena relied on to put
him off. She wore a shabby brown skirt and a yellowish blouse. Her name was
Ethel Reeves.
Lena had secured safety,
she said, in the house. But what was the good of that, when outside it he was
going about everywhere with Sybil Fermor? She came and told me all about it,
with a sort of hope that I'd say something either consoling or revealing,
something that she could go on.
"You know
him, Roly," she said.
I reminded her that she
hadn't always given me that credit.
"I know
how he spends his time," she said. "How do you know?"
"Well, for one
thing, Ethel tells me."
"How does she
know?"
"She—she posts the
letters."
"Does she read
them?"
"She needn't. He's
too transparent."
"Lena, do you use
her to spy on him?" I said.
"Well," she
retorted, "if he uses her—"
I asked her if it hadn't
struck her that Sybil Fermor might be using him?
"Do you mean—as
a paravent? Or," she revised it, "a parachute?"
"For Bertie
Granville," I elucidated. "A parachute, by all means."
She considered it.
"It won't work," she said. "If it's her reputation she's
thinking of, wouldn't Norry be worse?"
I said that was the
beauty of him, if Letty Granville's attention was to be diverted.
"Oh, Roly,"
she said, "do you really think it's that?" I said I did, and she
powdered her nose and said I was a dear and I'd bucked her up no end, and went
away quite happy.
Letty Granville's
divorce suit proved to her that I was right.
The next time I saw her
she told me she'd been mistaken about Sybil Fermor. It was Lady Hermione Nevin.
Norry had been using Sybil as a "paravent" for her.
I said she was wrong again. Didn't she know that Hermione was engaged to Billy
Craven? They were head over ears in love with each other. I asked her what on
earth had made her think of her? And she said Lady Hermione had paid him thirty
guineas for a picture. That looked, she said, as if she was pretty far gone on
him. (She tended to disparage Hippisley's talents. Jealousy again.)
I said it looked as if
he had the iciest reasons for cultivating Lady Hermione. And again she told me
I was a dear. "You don't know, Roly, what a comfort you are to me."
Then Barbara Vining
turned up out of nowhere, and from the first minute Lena gave herself up for
lost.
"I'm done
for," she said. "I'd fight her if it was any good fighting. But what
chance have I? At forty-nine against nineteen, and that face?"
The face was adorable if
you adore a child's face on a woman's body. Small and pink; a soft, innocent
forehead; fawn skin hair, a fawn's nose, a fawn's mouth, a fawn's eyes. You saw
her at Lena's garden parties, staring at Hippisley over the rim of her plate
while she browsed on Lena's cakes and ices, or bounding about Lena's tennis
court with the sash ribbons flying from her little butt end.
Oh, yes; she had her
there. As much as he wanted. And there would be Ethel Reeves, in a new blouse,
looking on from a back seat, subtle and sullen, or handing round cups and
plates without speaking to anybody, like a servant. I used to think she spied
on them for Lena. They were always mouthing about the garden together or
sitting secretly in corners; Lena even had her to stay with them, let him take
her for long drives in her car. She knew when she was beaten.
I said, "Why do you
let him do it, Lena? Why don't you turn them both neck and crop out of the
house?" "Because I want him in it. I want him at any cost. And I want
him to have what he wants, too, even if it's Barbara. I want him to be
happy.... I'm making a virtue of necessity. It can be done, Roly, if you give
up beautifully."
I put it to her it
wasn't giving up beautifully to fret herself into an unbecoming illness, to
carry her disaster on her face. She would come to me looking more ruined than
ruinous, haggard and ashy, her eyes all shrunk and hot with crying, and stand
before the glass, looking at herself and dabbing on powder in an utter
abandonment to misery.
"I know," she
moaned. "As if losing him wasn't enough I must go and lose my looks. I
know crying's simply suicidal at my age, yet I keep on at it. I'm doing for
myself. I'm digging my own grave, Roly. A little deeper every day."
Then she said suddenly,
"Do you know, you're the only man in London I could come to looking like
this."
I said, "Isn't that
a bit unkind of you? It sounds as though you thought I didn't matter."
She broke down on that.
"Can't you see it's because I know I don't any more? Nobody cares whether
my nose is red or not. But you're not a brute. You don't let me feel I don't
matter. I know I never did matter to you, Roly, but the effect's soothing, all
the same.... Ethel says if she were me she wouldn't stand it. To have it going
on under my nose. Ethel is so high-minded. I suppose it's easy to be
high-minded if you've always looked like that. And if you've never had anybody.
She doesn't know what it is. I tell you, I'd rather have Norry there with
Barbara than not have him at all."
I thought and said that
would just about suit Hippisley's book. He'd rather be there than anywhere
else, since he had to be somewhere. To be sure she irritated him with her
perpetual clinging, and wore him out. I've seen him wince at the sound of her
voice in the room. He'd say things to her; not often, but just enough to see
how far he could go. He was afraid of going too far. He wasn't prepared to give
up the comfort of Lena's house, the opulence and peace. There wasn't one of
Lena's wines he could have turned his back on. After all, when she worried him
he could keep himself locked up in the studio away from her.
There was Ethel Reeves;
but Lena didn't worry about his being locked up with her. She was
very kind to Hippisley's secretary. Since she wasn't dangerous, she liked to
see her there, well housed, eating rich food, and getting stronger and stronger
every day.
I must say my heart bled
for Lena when I thought of young Barbara. It was still bleeding when one
afternoon she walked in with her old triumphant look; she wore her hat with
an air crâne, and the powder on her face was even and intact, like
the first pure fall of snow. She looked ten years younger and I judged that
Hippisley's affair with Barbara was at an end.
Well—it had never had a
beginning; nor the ghost of a beginning. It had never happened at all. She had
come to tell me that: that there was nothing in it; nothing but her jealousy;
the miserable, damnable jealousy that made her think things. She said it would
be a lesson to her to trust him in the future not to go falling in love. For,
she argued, if he hadn't done it this time with Barbara, he'd never do it.
I asked her how she knew
he hadn't, this time, when appearances all pointed that way? And she said that
Barbara had come and told her. Somebody, it seemed, had been telling Barbara it
was known that she'd taken Hippisley from Lena, and that Lena was crying
herself into a nervous break-down. And the child had gone straight to Lena and
told her it was a beastly lie. She hadn't taken Hippisley. She liked ragging
with him and all that, and being seen about with him at parties, because he was
a celebrity and it made the other women, the women he wouldn't talk to,
furious. But as for taking him, why, she wouldn't take him from anybody as a
gift. She didn't want him, a scrubby old thing like that. She didn't like that
dragged look about his mouth and the way the skin wrinkled on his eyelids.
There was a sincerity about Barbara that would have blasted Hippisley if he'd
known.
Besides, she wouldn't
have hurt Lena for the world. She wouldn't have spoken to Norry if she'd
dreamed that Lena minded. But Lena had seemed so remarkably not to mind. When
she came to that part of it she cried.
Lena said that was all
very well, and it didn't matter whether Barbara was in love with Norry or not;
but how did she know Norry wasn't in love with her? And Barbara
replied amazingly that of course she knew. They'd been alone together.
When I remarked that it
was precisely that, Lena said, No. That was nothing in itself; but
it would prove one way or another; and it seemed that when Norry found himself
alone with Barbara, he used to yawn.
After that Lena settled
down to a period of felicity. She'd come to me, excited and exulting, bringing
her poor little happiness with her like a new toy. She'd sit there looking at
it, turning it over and over, and holding it up to me to show how beautiful it
was.
She pointed out to me
that I had been wrong and she right about him, from the beginning. She knew
him. "And to think what a fool, what a damned silly fool I was, with my
jealousy. When all those years there was never anybody but me. Do you remember
Sybil Fermor, and Lady Hermione—and Barbara? To think I should have so clean
forgotten what he was like.... Don't you think, Roly, there must be something
in me, after all, to have kept him all those years?"
I said there must indeed
have been, to have inspired so remarkable a passion. For Hippisley was making
love to her all over again. Their happy relations were proclaimed, not only by
her own engaging frankness, but still more by the marvellous renaissance of her
beauty. She had given up her habit of jealousy as she had given up eating
sweets, because both were murderous to her complexion. Not that Hippisley gave
her any cause. He had ceased to cultivate the society of young and pretty
ladies, and devoted himself with almost ostentatious fidelity to Lena. Their
affair had become irreproachable with time; it had the permanence of a
successful marriage without the unflattering element of legal obligation. And
he had kept his secretary. Lena had left off being afraid either that Ethel
would leave or that Hippisley would put some dangerous woman in her place.
There was no change in
Ethel, except that she looked rather more subtle and less sullen. Lena ignored
her subtlety as she had ignored her sulks. She had no more use for her as a
confidant and spy, and Ethel lived in a back den off Hippisley's study with her
Remington, and displayed a convenient apathy in allowing herself to be ignored.
"Really," Lena
would say in the unusual moments when she thought of her, "if it wasn't
for the clicking, you wouldn't know she was there."
And as a secretary she
maintained, up to the last, an admirable efficiency.
Up to the last.
It was Hippisley's death
that ended it. You know how it happened—suddenly, of heart failure, in Paris.
He'd gone there with Furnival to get material for that book they were doing
together. Lena was literally "prostrated" with the shock; and Ethel
Reeves had to go over to Paris to bring back his papers and his body.
It was the day after the
funeral that it all came out. Lena and Ethel were sitting up together over the
papers and the letters, turning out his bureau. I suppose that, in the grand
immunity his death conferred on her, poor Lena had become provokingly
possessive. I can hear her saying to Ethel that there had never been anybody but
her, all those years. Praising his faithfulness; holding out her dead
happiness, and apologizing to Ethel for talking about it when Ethel didn't
understand, never having had any.
She must have said
something like that, to bring it on herself, just then, of all moments.
And I can see Ethel
Reeves, sitting at his table, stolidly sorting out his papers, wishing that
Lena'd go away and leave her to her work. And her sullen eyes firing out
questions, asking her what she wanted, what she had to do with Norman Hippisley's
papers, what she was there for, fussing about, when it was all over?
What she wanted—what she
had come for—was her letters. They were locked up in his bureau in the secret
drawer.
She told me what had
happened then. Ethel lifted her sullen, subtle eyes and said, "You think
he kept them?"
She said she knew he'd
kept them. They were in that drawer.
And Ethel said,
"Well then, he didn't. They aren't. He burnt them. We burnt
them.... We could, at least, get rid of them!"
Then she threw it at
her. She had been Hippisley's mistress for three years.
When Lena asked for
proofs of the incredible assertion she had her letters to
show.
Oh, it was her moment.
She must have been looking out for it, saving up for it, all those years;
gloating over her exquisite secret, her return for all the slighting and
ignoring. That was what had made her poisonous, the fact that Lena hadn't
reckoned with her, hadn't thought her dangerous, hadn't been afraid to leave
Hippisley with her, the rich, arrogant contempt in her assumption that Ethel
would "do" and her comfortable confidences. It made her amorous and
malignant. It stimulated her to the attempt.
I think she must have
hated Lena more vehemently than she loved Hippisley. She couldn't, then,
have had much reliance on her power to capture; but her hatred was a perpetual
suggestion.
Supposing—supposing she
were to try and take him?
Then she had tried.
I daresay she hadn't
much difficulty. Hippisley wasn't quite so fine and fastidious as Lena thought
him. I've no doubt he liked Ethel's unwholesomeness, just as he had liked the
touch of morbidity in Lena.
And the spying? That had
been all part of the game; his and Ethel's. They played for
safety, if you like. They had had to throw Lena off the scent.
They used Sybil Fermor and Lady Hermione and Barbara Vining, one after the
other, as their paravents. Finally they had used Lena. That was
their cleverest stroke. It brought them a permanent security. For, you see,
Hippisley wasn't going to give up his free quarters, his studio, the dinners
and the motor car, if he could help it. Not for Ethel. And Ethel knew it. They
insured her, too.
Can't you see her,
letting herself go in an ecstasy of revenge, winding up with a hysterical youp?
"You? You thought it was you? It was me—me—ME.... You thought what
we meant you to think."
Lena still comes and
talks to me. To hear her you would suppose that Lawson Young and Dickey Harper
never existed, that her passion for Norman Hippisley was the unique, solitary
manifestation of her soul. It certainly burnt with the intensest flame. It
certainly consumed her. What's left of her's all shrivelled, warped, as she
writhed in her fire.
Yesterday she said to
me, "Roly, I'm glad he's dead. Safe from her
clutches."
She'll cling for a
little while to this last illusion: that he had been reluctant; but I doubt if
she really believes it now.
For you see, Ethel
flourishes. In passion, you know, nothing succeeds like success; and her affair
with Norman Hippisley advertised her, so that very soon it ranked as the first
of a series of successes. She goes about dressed in stained-glass futurist
muslins, and contrives provocative effects out of a tilted nose, and sulky
eyes, and sallowness set off by a black velvet band on the forehead, and a
black scarf of hair dragged tight from a raking backward peak.
I saw her the other
night sketching a frivolous gesture—
21.THE DICE THROWER by SIDNEY SOUTHGATE
(Thomas Moult) (From Colour)
1922
Hunger is the most
poignant when it has forced physical suffering to the highest point without
impairing the mental functions. Thus it was with Silas Carringer, a young man
of uncommonly high spirit, when he found himself a total stranger in a
ramshackle Mexican city one rainy night in November. In his possession remained
not a single article that he might have pawned for a morsel of food. And he had
already stripped his body of every shred of clothing except the few garments he
was compelled by an inborn sense of the fitness of things to retain. Bodily
starvation, as a consequence, was added to hunger, and his misery was complete.
It chanced that an
extraordinary happening awaited Silas Carringer that night in Mexico; otherwise
he would either have drowned himself in the river within twenty-four hours or
died of pneumonia within three days. He had been without food for seventy
hours, and his mental desperation had driven him far in its race with his
physical needs to consume the remaining strength of his emaciated body. Pale,
weak, and tottering, he took what comfort he could find in the savoury odours
which came streaming up from the basement kitchens of the restaurants in the
main streets. He lacked the courage to beg or steal. For he had been reared as
a gentleman, and was accordingly out of place in the world.
His teeth chattered, his
eyes had dark, ugly lines under them, he shambled, stooped, and gasped. He was
too desperate to curse his fate—he could only long for food. He could not
reason. He could not reflect. He could not understand that there were pitying
hands somewhere that might gladly have succoured him. He could think only of
the hunger which consumed him, of the food that could give him warmth and
comparative happiness.
Staggering along the
streets, he came at last to a restaurant a little way from the main
thoroughfares. Stopping before the window, he stared greedily at the steaks
within, thick and juicy and lined with big, fat oysters lying on ice; at the
slices of ham as large as his hat; at the roasted chickens, brown and ready for
the table; and he ground his teeth, groaned, and staggered on.
A few steps onward was a
drinking saloon. At one side of it was a private door with the words
"Family entrance" painted thereon. And in the recess of the door
(which was closed) there stood the dark figure of a man.
In spite of his own agony,
Carringer saw something which appalled him in the stranger's face as the street
light fell upon it; and yet at the same time he was fascinated. Perhaps it was
the unspeakable anguish of those features that appealed to the starving man's
sympathy, and he came to an uncertain halt at the doorway and stared rudely
upon the stranger. At first the man did not notice him, seeming to look
straight out into the street with a curious fixity of expression, and the
death-like pallor of his face sent a chill through Carringer's limbs, chilled
nigh to stone though they were already.
The stranger caught
sight of him at last. "Ah," he said slowly, and with peculiar
clearness, "the rain has caught you too, without overcoat or umbrella.
Stand in this doorway—there is room for two."
The voice was not
unkind, though it sounded strangely harsh. It was the first word that had been
addressed to Carringer since hunger possessed him, and to be spoken to at all
gave him cheer. So he took his place in the doorway beside the mysterious
stranger, who at once relapsed into his fixed gaze at nothingness across the
street.
"It may rain for a
long time," he said presently, stirring himself. "I am cold, and I
can feel you trembling and shivering. Let us step inside and drink."
He turned and opened the
door. Carringer followed, hope slowly warming his chilled heart. The pale
stranger led the way into one of the little private compartments with which the
place was fitted. Before sitting down he drew from his pocket a roll of bank
bills.
"You are younger
than I," he said to Carringer. "Will you go to the bar and buy a
bottle of absinthe, and bring also a pitcher of water and some glasses? I don't
like the waiters hanging round. Here is a twenty-dollar bill."
Carringer took the money
and started down the corridor towards the bar. He clutched the sudden wealth in
his hand tightly. It felt warm and comfortable, sending a delicious tingling
sensation through his arm. How many glorious meals did not the money represent?
He could smell an imaginary steak, broiled, with fat mushrooms and melted
butter in the steaming dish. Then he paused and looked stealthily backward to
where he had left the stranger. Why not slip away while he had the
opportunity—away from the drinking saloon with the money, to the restaurant he
had passed half-an-hour ago, and buy something to eat? It was risky, but.... He
hesitated, and the coward in him (there are other names than this) triumphed.
He went straight to the bar as the stranger had requested, and ordered the
liquor.
His step was weaker as
he returned to the compartment. The stranger was sitting at the little table,
staring at the opposite wall just as he had stared across the street. He wore a
wide-brimmed slouch hat, pulled well over his eyes. Carringer could only vaguely
take the measure of the man's face.
It was only after
Carringer had set the bottle and the glasses on the table and seated himself
opposite that the stranger noticed his return. "Oh, you have brought
it!" he exclaimed without raising his voice. "How kind of you. Now
please close the door."
Carringer was counting
out the change from his pocket when the stranger interrupted him. "Keep
that," he said. "You will need it, for I am going to win it back in a
way that may interest you. Let us drink first, though, and I will
explain."
He mixed two drinks of
absinthe and water, and the two men lifted their glasses. Carringer had never
tasted the liquor before, and it offended his palate at first; but no sooner
had it passed down his throat than he began to feel warm again, and the most
delicious thrills. He had heard of the absinthe drinkers of Paris, and he
wondered no longer at the deadly fascination of the liquor—not realising that
his extreme weakness and the emptiness of his stomach made him peculiarly susceptible
to its effects.
"This will do us
good," murmured the stranger, setting down his glass. "Presently we
shall have more. Meanwhile, tell me if you know how to play with the
dice."
Carringer replied that
he did not.
"I was afraid that
you might not," said the stranger. "All the same, please go to the
bar and bring a dice-box. I would ring for it," he explained, seeing
Carringer glance towards the bell, "but I don't want the waiters coming in
and out."
Carringer brought the
dice-box, closed the door carefully again, and the play began. It was not one
of the simpler games, but had complications in which judgment as well as chance
played a part. After a game or two without stakes, the stranger said:
"You have picked it
up very quickly. All the same, I will show you that you don't understand it. We
will throw for a dollar a game, and in that way I shall win the money that you
received in change. Otherwise I would be robbing you, and I imagine that you
cannot afford to lose. I mean no offence. I am a plain-spoken man, but I
believe in honesty before politeness." Here his face relaxed into a most
fearful grin.... "I merely want a little recreation, and you are so
good-natured that I am sure you will not object."
"On the
contrary," replied Carringer politely, "I shall enjoy it."
"Very well; but let
us drink again before we start. I believe I am growing colder."
They drank again.
Carringer took the liquor now with relish, for it was something in his stomach
at least, and it warmed and soothed him. Then the play commenced. He won.
The pale stranger smiled
quietly and opened another game. Again Carringer won.
Then the stranger pushed
back his hat, and fixed his quiet gaze upon his opponent, smiling yet.
Carringer obtained a full view of the man's face for the first time, and it
appalled him. He had begun to acquire a certain self-possession and ease, and
the novelty of the adventure was beginning to pall before the new advances of
his terrible hunger, when this revelation of the man's face threw him back into
confusion.
It was the extraordinary
expression of the face that alarmed him. Never upon the face of a living being
had he beheld a pallor so chilling, so death-like. The features were more than
pale. They were ghastly as sunless frost. Carringer's powers of observation had
been sharpened by the absinthe, and after having detected the stranger in an
absent-minded effort on several occasions to stroke a beard which had no
existence, he reflected that some of the whiteness of the face might be due to
the recent shaving and removal of a full beard. The eyes were black, and his
lower lip was purple. The hands were fine, white and thin, and black veins
bulged out upon them.
After gazing for a few
moments at Carringer, the stranger pulled his hat down over his eyes again.
"You are lucky," he said, referring to the success of his opponent.
"Suppose we try another drink. There is nothing to sharpen a man's wits
like absinthe, and I see that you and I are going to have a delightful
game."
After the drink the play
proceeded. Carringer won from the first, rarely losing a game. He became
greatly excited. Colour flooded his cheeks, and he forgot his hunger. The
stranger exhausted the little roll of bills which he had first produced and
drew forth another, much larger in amount. There were several thousand dollars
in the roll.
At Carringer's right
hand were his winnings—something like two hundred dollars. The stakes were
raised, and the game went on. Another drink was taken and then fortune turned
to the stranger. He began to win easily. Carringer was stung by these reverses,
and began to play with all the skill and judgment at his command. He took the
lead again. Only once did it occur to him to wonder what he should do with the
money if he continued to win. But a sense of honour decided for him that it
belonged to the stranger.
As the play went on
Carringer's physical suffering returned with increased aggressiveness. Sharp
pains darted through him viciously, and he writhed within him and ground his
teeth in agony. Could he not order a supper with his winnings, he wondered? No;
it was, of course, out of the question.
The stranger did not
observe his suffering, for he was now completely absorbed in the game. He
seemed puzzled and disconcerted. He played with great care, studying each throw
minutely. Not a word escaped him. The two men drank occasionally, and the dice
continued to rattle. And the money kept piling up at Carringer's hand.
The pale stranger
suddenly began to behave strangely. At moments he would start and throw back
his head, listening intently. His eyes would sharpen and flash as he did so;
then they sank back into heaviness once more. Carringer saw a strange
expression sweep over the man's face on several occasions—an expression of
ghastly frightfulness, and the features would become fixed in a peculiar
grimace.
He noticed also that his
companion was steadily sinking deeper and deeper into a condition of apathy.
Occasionally, none the less, he would raise his eyes to Carringer's face after
some lucky throw, and he would fix them upon him with a steadiness that made
the starving man grow chiller than ever he had been before.
Then came the time when
the stranger produced another roll of bills, and braced himself for a bigger
effort. With speech somewhat thick, but still deliberate and very quiet, he
addressed his young opponent.
"You have won
seventy-four thousand dollars, and that is the exact amount I have remaining.
We have been playing for several hours, and I am very tired, and so are you.
Let us hasten the finish. You have seventy-four thousand dollars, I have
seventy-four thousand dollars. Nether of us has a cent beside. Each will now
stake his all and throw a final game for it."
Without hesitation
Carringer agreed. The bills made a considerable pile upon the table. Carringer
threw, and his starving heart beat violently as the pale stranger took up the
dice-box with exasperating deliberation. Hours seemed to pass before he threw,
but at last the dice rattled on to the table, and the pale stranger had won.
The winner sat staring at the dice, and then he leaned slowly back in his
chair, settled himself with seeming comfort, raised his eyes to Carringer's and
fixed that unearthly stare upon him.
He did not speak. His
face showed not a trace of emotion or even of intelligence. He simply stared.
One cannot keep one's eyes open very long without winking, but the stranger
never winked at all. He sat so motionless that Carringer became filled with a
vague dread.
"I will go
now," he said, standing back from the table. As he spoke he recollected
his position and found himself swaying like a drunken man.
The stranger made no
reply, nor did he relax his gaze. Under that gaze the younger man shrank back
into his chair, terrified and faint. A deathly silence filled the
compartment.... Suddenly he became aware that two men were talking in the next
room, and he listened curiously. The walls were of wood, and he heard every
word distinctly.
"Yes," said a
voice, "he was seen to turn into this street about three hours ago."
"And he must have
shaved?"
"He must have
shaved. To remove a full beard would naturally make a great change in the man.
His extreme pallor attracted attention. As you know, he has been seriously
troubled with heart disease lately, and it has greatly altered him."
"Yes, but his old
skill remains. Why, this is the most daring bank-robbery we have ever had! A
hundred and forty-eight thousand dollars—think of it! How long is it since he
came out of prison after that New York affair?"
"Eight years. In
that time he has grown a beard, and lived by throwing dice. No human being can
come out winner in a game with him."
The two men clinked
glasses and a silence fell between them. Then Carringer heard the shuffling of
their feet as they passed out, and he sat on, suffering terrible mental and
bodily pain.
The silence remained
unbroken, save for the sounds of voices far off, and the clink of glasses. The
dice-players—the pale man and the starving one—sat gazing at each other, with a
hundred and forty-eight thousand dollars piled upon the table between them. The
winner made no attempt to gather up the money. He merely sat and stared at
Carringer, wholly unmoved by the conversation in the adjoining compartment.
Carringer began to shake
with an ague. The cold, unwavering gaze of the stranger sent ice into his
veins. Unable to bear it longer, he moved to one side, and was amazed to
discover that the eyes of the pale man, instead of following him, remained
fixed upon the spot where he had sat.
A great fear came over
him. He poured out absinthe for himself with shaking fingers, staring back at
his companion all the while, watching him, watching him as he drank alone and
unnoticed. He drained the glass, and the poison had a peculiar effect upon him;
he felt his heart bounding with alarming force and rapidity, and his breathing
came in great, pumping spasms. His hunger was now become a deadly thing, for
the absinthe was destroying his vitals. In terror he leaned forward to beg the
hospitality of the stranger, but his whisper had no effect. One of the man's
hands lay on the table. Carringer placed his own upon it, and drew back
quickly, for the hand was as cold as stone!
Then there came into the
starving man's face a crafty expression, and he turned eagerly to the money.
Silently he grasped the pile of bills with his skeleton fingers, looking
stealthily every moment at the stark figure of his companion, mortally dreading
lest he should stir.
And yet, instead of
hastening from the room with the stolen fortune, he sank back into his chair
again. A deadly fascination forced him there, and he sat rigid, staring back
into the wide stare of the other man. He felt his breath coming heavier and his
heart-beats growing weaker, but he was comforted because his hunger was no
longer causing him that acute pain. He felt easier, and actually yawned. If he
had dared he would have gone to sleep. The pale stranger still stared at him
without ceasing. And Carringer had no inclination for anything but simply to
stare back.
000
The two detectives who
had traced the notorious bank robber to the drink saloon moved slowly through
the compartments, searching in every nook and cranny of the building. At last
they reached a compartment from which no answer came when they knocked.
They pushed the door
open with a stereotyped apology on their lips. They beheld two men before them,
one of middle age and the other very young, sitting perfectly still, and in the
queerest manner imaginable staring at each other across the table. Between the
two was a pile of money, and near at hand an empty absinthe bottle, a water
pitcher, two glasses, and a dice-box. The dice lay before the elder man as
though he had just thrown them.
With a quick movement
one of the detectives covered the older man with a revolver and commanded him
to put up his hands. But the dice-thrower paid not the slightest heed.
The detectives exchanged
startled glances. They stepped nearer, looked closely into the gamesters'
faces, and knew in the same instant that they were dead.
22.THE STRANGER WOMAN by G.B. STERN
(From John o'London's Weekly) 1922
After Hal Burnham had
banged himself with his usual vigour out of the house, Dickie sat quite
inconsolably staring in front of him at a favourite picture on his wall; a dim,
sombre effect of quays and masts and intent hurrying men; his neat little brows
were pulled down in a worried frown, his childish mouth was puckered.
Was it accurate and
just, what Hal had said? Or, simpler still, was it true?
"What you damn well
need, Dickie, old son, is life in the raw. You're living in a lady's work-box
here."
It was a bludgeoning
return for the courteous attention with which Dickie had that evening listened
to his friend's experiences of travel, for Hal was not even a good raconteur;
he started an anecdote by its point, and roughly slapped in the scenery
afterwards; he had likewise a habit of disconnecting his impressions from any
sequence of time; also he exaggerated, and forgot names and dates; and even
occasionally lapsed into odd silence just when Dickie was offering himself
receptively for a climax.
And then the inevitable:
"Well—and what have you been doing meanwhile?"
Dickie was not in the
least at a loss; he had refurnished his rooms, to begin with; and that involved
a diligent search in antique shops and at sale rooms, and one or two trips across
country in order not to miss a real gem. And they had to be ready for
comfortable habitation before the arrival of M. and Mlle. St. André for their
annual stay with him—a delightful old pair, brother and sister, with peppery
manners and hypercritical appreciation of a good cuisine—but so poor, so really
painfully poor, that, as Dickie delicately put it: "I could not help
knowing that it might make a difference to them if I postponed their visit, of
less trivial annoyance, but more vital in quality, than with other of my
friends for whom I should therefore have hurried my preparations rather
less—this is in confidence, of course, my dear Hal!" He had set himself to
complete his collection of Watts's Literary Souvenirs—"I have the whole
eleven volumes now——" And he had been a guest at two charming
house-parties in the country, and at one of them had been given the full
responsibility of rehearsing a comic opera in the late eighteenth-century
style. "Amateurs, of course. But I was so bent on realizing the flavour of
the period, that I'm indeed afraid that I did not draw a clear enough line
between the deliciously robust and the obnoxiously coarse——"
"Coarse—you!"
Hal guffawed. And then—out came the accusation which was so disturbing little
Dickie.
Life in the raw! Why did
the phrase make him want to clear his throat? Raw—yes, that was the
association—when you opened your mouth and the fog swirled in. Newsboys
scampering along a foggy street that was neither elegant nor squalid, but just
a street of mixed shops and mixed traffic and barrows lit with a row of
flapping lights, and men and women with faces that showed they worked hard to
earn a little less than they needed.... Public-houses.... Butchers' shops with
great slabs of red meat.... Yes, and a queue outside the picture palace—and a
station; people bought the evening papers as they hurried in and out of the
station. "'Ere yer are, sir," and on the sheets were headlines that
blared out all the most sordid crimes of the past twenty-four hours, ignored
during a sober morning of politics and commerce, but dragged into bold view for
the people's more leisured reading.
Newsboys in a foggy
street on a Saturday night—thus was Dickie's first instinct to define
"life in the raw...." Then he discovered that this was only the
archway, and that the crimes themselves were life in the raw—and the criminals.
But one must get nearer
by slow degrees.
If at all.
Hal had said that he was
living in a lady's work-box. Dickie was sensitive, and not at all stupid. His
penetration was quite aware that Burnham's remark was not applied to the
harmonizing shades of the walls between which he dwelt, nor to the soft, mellow
pattern of his silky Persian rugs, nor to his collections—heavens, how he
collected!—of glowing Sèvres china, of Second Empire miniatures, of quaint old
musical instruments with names that in themselves were a tender tinkle of song,
and of the shoes that had been worn by queens.
All these things were
merely accessories: his soul making neat, tiny gestures, shrugging its
shoulders, pointing a toe. What Hal meant was that Dickie dared not live
dangerously.
"What am I to
do?"
He raised wistful, light
brown eyes to the picture which was the one incongruous touch to the dainty
perfection of his octagonal sitting-room. He had bought it at a rummage sale;
it was unsigned, and the canvas, overcrowded with figures, had grown sombre and
blurred; yet queerly Dickie liked the suggestion of powerful, half-naked men;
the foreign quay-side street, with a slatternly woman silent against a doorway,
and the clumsy ship straining to swing out to a menacing sea beyond.
All these things that he
would never do: strip and carry bales on his back; linger in strange doorways
and love hotly an animal woman who was unaccomplished and without grace and
breeding; and then embark on an evil-smelling hulk that would have no human
sympathy with his human ills.
He had done a little
yachting, of course; with the Ansteys the year before last.
His lips bent to a small
ironical smile as he reflected on the difference between "a little
yachting" and the sinister fascination of that ugly, uninspired
painting....
Slowly he got up and
went out; that is to say, he very precisely selected the hat, gloves, coat, and
silk muffler suitable to wear, and as precisely put them on. Then he blew up
the fire with an old-fashioned pair of worked brass bellows; turned out the
lamp; told Mrs. Derrick—who would have died in his service every day from eight
to eight o'clock, but would not crook a finger for him a minute before she
entered the house nor five seconds after she left it—that he was going for a
walk and would certainly be back at a quarter to seven, but probably before;
and then went out.
For this was the natural
way for Dickie Maybury to behave.
At twenty to seven he returned,
with a sheaf of news-papers—raucous, badly-printed papers with smudged lines
and a sort of speckled film over the illustrations, and startlingly intimate
headlines to every item of news.
Dickie was trying to get
into touch with "life in the raw."
At first he was merely
bewildered. He had read his daily newspaper, of course—though not with the
stolid regularity with which the average man does so. And besides, it was
pre-eminently a journal of dignity and good form, with an art column, and a
curio column, and a literary page, and a chess problem, and rather a delicately
witty causerie by "Rapier"; it is to be feared that Dickie absorbed
himself in these items first, and altogether left out most of the topical and
sensational news.
Now, however, he read
it. And out of it, the horror of the underworld swayed up at him. A twilit
world, where cisterns dripped, and where homely, familiar things like
gas-brackets and braces and coal-shovels were turned to dreadful weapons of
death. The coroner and the broker's man and the undertaker sidled in and out of
this world, dispassionately playing their frequent parts.... Stunted boys and
girls died for love, like Romeo and Juliet, leaving behind them
badly-punctuated cries of passion and despair that made Dickie wince as he read
them....
Pale but fascinated,
Dickie turned over a page, and came to the great sensation of the moment.
"Is Ruth Oliver Guilty?" "Dramatic Developments." "I
Wish You Were Dead, Lucas!"
The account of the first
day of the trial filled the entire page, and dribbled excitedly over on to the
next. There was a photograph of Ruth Oliver, accused of murdering her husband.
You could see that she had gay eyes in a small oval face, and a child's wistful
mouth. This must have been taken while she was very happy.
Dickie had never read
through a murder trial before. But he did so now, every line of it ... and the
next day, and the next. Until the woman who had pleaded "Not guilty"
was acquitted. And then he wrote to her, and asked her to marry him.
And who would dare say
of him now that he had feared to meet life in the raw?
He did not know, of
course, that his offer was one among fifty; did not know that the curious state
of mind he was in, between trance and hysteria, was a very common one to the
public after a trial in which the elements are dramatic or the central figure
in any way picturesque. He did not even know how Ruth Oliver was being noisily
besieged by Pressmen and Editors anxious for her biography; by music-hall and
theatrical managers willing to star her; by old friends curiously proud of
association with her notoriety; by religious fanatics with their proofs of a
strictly localized Deity—"whose Hand has clearly been outstretched to save
you!"; by unhealthy flappers who had Believed in her all along—(autograph,
please).
But not knowing, yet his
letter, chivalrous, without ardour, promised her a cool, quiet retreat from the
plague of insects which was buzzing and stinging in the hot air all about
her.... "My house is in a little square with trees all around it; it is
shady and you cannot hear the traffic. I wonder if you are interested in old
china and Japanese water-colours?..." Finally: "I shall be very proud
and happy if you can trust me to understand how deeply you must be longing for
sanctuary after the sorrowful time you have been through...."
"Sanctuary."
She saw it open for her like a cloistered aisle between cold pillars. He
offered her, not the emotional variations, intolerable to her weariness just
then, of a new devotion; but green shaded rooms, and the beauty of old things,
and a little old-fashioned gentleman's courtesy.... So, ignoring the fifty
other offers of marriage which had assailed her, she wrote to Dickie Maybury
and asked him to come and see her.
He went, still in a
strangely exultant mood, in which his will acted as easily and yet as
fantastically as though it were on a slippery surface. And if he had met Hal
Burnham on his way back from his visit to Ruth Oliver he would undoubtedly have
swaggered a little. Nevertheless, he was thinking of Ruth, too, as well as of
his own dare-devilry in thus seizing reality with both hands. Ruth's face, much
older and more tormented than it had been in the photograph, had still that
elusive quality which had from the beginning and through all the period of her
trial haunted him. It outraged his refinement that any woman with the high
looks and the breeding of his own class should have been for any space of time
the property of a coarse public. As his wife, the insult
should be tenderly rectified.... "The poor child! the poor sweet
child!" He felt almost godlike with this new power upon him of acting, on
impulse.
As for the peril of
death which for a short while had threatened her, that was a fact too stark and
hideous for contemplation: even with Dickie's altered appetite for primitive
adventure....
They did not leave town
after their quiet, matter-of-fact wedding at the registrar's. A journey, in
Dickie's eyes, would have seemed too blatant an interruption to his everyday
existence, as though he were tactlessly emphasising to his wife the necessity
of a break and a complete change; she might even think—and again "poor
child!" that events should have rubbed into such super-sensitiveness—that
he was slightly ashamed of his act, and was therefore hustling her and himself
out of sight. So they went straight home. And Mrs. Derrick said: "Indeed,
sir," when informed that her new mistress was the Ruth Oliver who had
recently been acquitted of the charge of murdering her husband; she neither proffered
a motherly bosom to Ruth, nor did she tender a haughty resignation from Mr.
Maybury's service; but said she hoped it wouldn't be expected of her, under the
new circumstances, to arrive earlier, nor to leave later, because she couldn't
do it. As for Dickie's friends, most of them were of the country-house variety
whom he visited once a year; next autumn would show whether Ruth would be
included in those week and week-end invitations. Meanwhile, those few dwelling
in London marvelled in a detached sort of way at Dickie's feat, liked Ruth, and
pronounced it a shame that she should have been accused. Hal Burnham, the
indirect promoter of the match, had returned to China.
Nobody was unkind; no
word jarred; life was padded in dim brocade—Ruth drew a long breath, and was at
peace. She was perfectly happy, watching Dickie. And Dickie was at play again,
enjoying his collection and his objets d'art, and even his daily
habits, with the added appreciation of a gambler who had staked, but
miraculously, not lost them. Because, after all, anything might have resulted
from his tempestuous decision at all costs to get into contact with naked
actuality; all that had resulted was the presence in his house
of a slim, grave woman who dressed her hair like a very skilful and not at all unconscious
Madonna; whose taste was as fastidious as his own, and whose radiantly human
smile had survived in vivid contrast to something quenched from her voice and
shadowed in her eyes. A woman who, with a "May I?" of half-laughing
reverence, discovered that she could slip on to her exquisite feet one pair
after another from his collection of the shoes of dead queens—"It sounds
like a ballade—Austin Dobson, I think—except that they're not all
powder-and-patch queens."
For she had an excellent
feel of period—the texture of it, the fine shades of language, the outlook;
Dickie hated people who had a blunt sense of period and in a jumbled fashion
referred to old Venetian lace, and the Early Spanish School, and Louise de la
Vallière, and a play by Wycherley indiscriminately as "historical."
Yes, Dickie had
certainly been lucky, and, like a wise man, he did not strain his star to
another effort. The big thing—well, he had squared up to it—and, truth to say,
he had been fearfully shaky and uncertain about his capacity to do so when Hal
had first roused his pride in the matter. Now the little things again, the
little beautiful things—he had earned them.
Anyway, he could not
have a newspaper in the house nowadays, for Ruth's sake—he owed it to Ruth to
shut out for ever those cries of horror and fear and violence from the
battering underworld.
"What I love about
the way we live, Dickie, is that the just-rightness of it all flows on evenly
the whole time; one can be certain of it. Most people get it set aside for them
in stray lumps—picture galleries and churches and a holiday on the Continent.
And all the rest of their time is just-wrongness."
Dickie wondered how much
of her existence with Lucas Oliver had been "just-wrongness"—or
indeed "all-wrongness." But he never disturbed her surface of creamy
serenity by referring to the husband who had been murdered by "some person
or persons unknown."
He and Ruth were the
most harmonious of comrades, but never, so far, confidential. Perhaps Dickie
overdid tact and non-intrusiveness; or perhaps Ruth, in her very passion of
gratitude to him, was yet checked for ever from passionate expression by the
memory that her innermost love and her innermost hate, wrung into words, had
once, and not so long ago, been read aloud and commented upon in public court
and in half the homes of England.
One evening, sitting
together in front of the fire, they drifted into talk of their separate
childhoods.
"There was a garden
in mine," said Ruth.
"And in mine—a
Casino garden!" His eyes twinkled. "Palm trees like giant pineapples,
and flower beds in a pattern, and a fountain—"
"Oh, you poor
little Continental kiddie!"
He shrugged his
shoulders. "The ways of the Lord are thoughtful and orderly. Why should He
have wasted a heavenly wilderness of gnarled old apple-trees on a small boy who
hated climbing?"
"You can't have
hated climbing—if you hang that on your wall." She nodded towards the
quayside picture. "Surely you must have played 'pirates and South Seas'
with your brothers."
"I had none. A
sister, that's all—who carried a sunshade." "I had no sisters; but
there was a girl next door—and her brother."
"I note in jealous
anguish of spirit," remarked Dickie. "that you do not simply say 'a
girl and boy next door.'"
Ruth's mischievous laugh
affirmed his accusation. "The wall was not very high—I kicked a foothold
into it half-way up, and Tommy gave me a pull from the top."
"Tommy was
ungallant enough to leave the wall to you?"
"There were
cherries in his garden—sweet black cherries. And only crab-apples in ours."
"He might have
filled his pockets with cherries, and then climbed. No—I reject Tommy, he was
unworthy of you. I may have been a horrid little Casino brat, I may even have
worn a white satin sailor-suit with trousers down to my ankles—"
"Oh!" Ruth
winced.
"I may have danced
too well, and I understood too early the art of complimenting ladies whose hats
were too big and whose eyes were too bright.... But once, after Annunciata
Maddalena's nose had bled over this same sailor-suit, I said it was my own nose,
because I knew how bitterly she was ashamed of her one bourgeois
lapse...."
"Tommy would have
disowned her, instead of owning the nose. Oh, I grant you the nobler nature ...
but it breaks my heart that you didn't have the wild English garden and the
cherries and the grubby old dark-blue jersey."
"If we have a
kiddie—" Dickie began softly, his mouth puckered to its special elvish
little smile. Then he met her eyes lapping him round with such velvet
tenderness—that Dickie suddenly knew he was loved, knew that impulsively she
was going to tell him so, and breathlessly happier than he had ever been
before, waited for it—
"I did kill
my husband. They acquitted me, but I was guilty. It was an accident. I was so
afraid. They would never have believed it could be an accident. But I had to,
in self-defence."
And now she had told him
she loved him.
Only Dickie was too numb
to recognise the form her confession of love had taken; love, as always, was
clamouring to be clearly seen—naked, if need be, blood-guilty, if need
be—but seen ... and then swept up, sin and all, by another
love big enough to accept this truth, also, as essentially part of her.
Ruth waited several
seconds for Dickie to speak. Then she got up, and strolled over to the picture,
and said, examining intently, as though for the first time, the woman in the
doorway: "I'm not sorry, Dickie. That is to say, I'm sorry, of course, if
I've shattered an illusion of yours, but—I can't be melodramatic, you know, not
even to the extent of using the word 'murderess' on myself. If I hadn't killed
Lucas—"
"He would have
killed you?" So he was able to utter quite natural and coherent sounds!
Dickie was surprised.
"Yes—" But
Ruth found that, after all, she could not tell Dickie much about Lucas. Lucas
had not been a pleasant gentleman to live with—and there were things that
Dickie was too fine himself, and too innocent, to realise. The only
comprehension in this thoroughly well-groomed atmosphere of soft carpets and
dim silken panels and miniatures and rare frail china might have come from the
woman in the doorway of that incongruous picture ... a woman sullenly patient,
brutalised, but—yes, her man might quite easily have been another Lucas.
For that which Dickie
had always thought of as mysterious, elusive, was, to Ruth's eyes, only
sorrowful wisdom.
"Come here,
Ruth."
She dragged her eyes
away from the picture; crossed the room; broke down completely, her head on his
knees, her shuddering body crouched closely to the floor: "When
you've—been frightened—and have to live with it—and it doesn't even stop at
night—for weeks and months and years—one's nerves aren't quite reliable....
They've no right to call that murder, have they? have they, Dickie? When you've
been afraid for a long time—and there's no one you can tell about it except the
person who makes the fear...."
But Dickie was all that
she had perilously dared to hope he would be at this crisis. He soothed her and
healed her by his loyalty; promised, without her extorting it, that he would
never tell a soul what she had just told him; pixie-shy, yet he spoke of his
personal need of her—and more than anything else she had desired to hear this.
He mentioned some trivial intimate plans for their unbroken, unchanged future
together, so as to reassure her of its continuance. He even made her laugh.
In fact, for a last
appearance in the rôle of a gallant little gentleman, Dickie
did not do so badly.
He woke in the night
from a bad dream—with terror clinging thickly about his senses. But it did not
slowly dissolve and release him, as nightmare is wont to do. It remained—so
that he lay still as a man in his winding-sheet, afraid to move—remembering—
"I did kill
my husband."
Yes—that was it. In the
room with him was a strange woman who had killed her husband.
Not Ruth—but a strange
woman. How had she got into the room with him?
She had killed her
husband. And now, he was her husband.
He lay motionless, but
his imagination began to crawl.... What might happen to a man shut up alone in
a house with a woman who—murdered?
His imagination began to
race—and he lost control of it. Murder ... with dry, sandy throat and a kicking
heart, Dickie had to pay for his audacity in imagining he was big enough to
claim life in the raw.
"Not big enough!
Not big enough!"—the goblins of the underworld croaked at him in
triumphant chorus.... They capered ... they snapped their fingers at him ...
they spun him down to where fear was ... he had delivered himself to them, by
not being big enough.
"Mrs. Bigger had a
baby—which was bigger, Mrs. Bigger or the baby?"
The silly conundrum
sprang at him from goodness knows what void—and over and over again he repeated
it to himself, trying to remember the answer, trying to forget fear....
"Mrs. Bigger had a
baby—"
He dared not fall asleep
... with the woman who had killed her husband, alone in the room with him ...
alone in the house with him.
A stir from the other
bed, and one arm flung out in sleep. Dickie's knees jerked violently—his skin
went cold and sticky with sweat. "You fool—it's only Ruth!"
But she did it—she
did it once. There are people who can't kill, and a few, just a very few, who
can. And because they can, they are different, and have to be shut away from
the herd.
But—but this woman.
They've made a ghastly mistake—they've let her go free—and I can't tell anyone
... nobody knows, except me and Ruth—— Ah, yes—a quivering sigh of relief
here—Ruth knows, too—Ruth, my wife—ruth means pity....
There is no Ruth ...
there never was ... quite alone except for a strange, strange woman—the kind
that gets shut away and kept by herself....
000
To this bondage had
Dickie's nerves delivered him. The custom of punctilious courtesy, so deeply
ingrained as to mean in his case the impossibility of wounding another, decreed
that some pretence must be kept up before Ruth. But with one shock she divined
the next morning the significant change in him, and bowed her head to it. What
could she do? She loved him, but she had overrated the capacity of his spirit.
There had never been any courage, only kindness and sweetness and chivalry—all
no good to him, now that courage was wanted. She had made a mistake in telling
him the truth.
Suffering—she thought
she had suffered fiercely with Lucas, she thought she had suffered while she
was being ignominiously tried for her life—but what were either of these phases
compared with the helpless bitterness of seeing Dickie, whom she loved, afraid
of her?
Even her periodic fits
of wild arrogant passion, which usually, when they surged past restraint,
wrecked and altered whatever situation was hemming her in, and left gaps for a
passage through to something else—even these had now to be curbed. Useful in
hate, they were impotent in love. So Ruth recognised in her new humility. But
when one day, seized by panic at having spoken irritably to her, Dickie hastily
tried to propitiate her, to ingratiate himself so that she might spare him,
might let him live a little longer, then Ruth felt she must cry aloud under the
strain of this subtle torture. Why, he was her lover, her man, her child.... In
thought, her arm shaped itself into a crook for his head to lie there; her
fingers smoothed out the drawn perplexity of his brows; her kisses were cool as
snow on his hot, twitching little mouth; her voice, hushed to a lullaby croon,
promised him that nobody should hurt him, nobody, while she was there to heal
and protect—
"Sleep, baby, sleep,
The
hills are white with sheep——"
Over and over again she
lulled herself with the old rhyme, for comfort's sake. But Dickie she could not
comfort, since, irony of ironies, she was the cause of his pitiful breakdown.
Why, if she spoke, he started; if she moved towards him, he shrank. Yet still
Ruth dreamt that if he would only let her touch him, she could bring him
reassurance. But meanwhile his appetite was meagre, the rare half-hours he
slept were broken with evil dreams, from which he awoke whimpering. He did not
care any more about the little beautiful things he had collected and grouped
about him, but sat for hours listless and blank; his appearance a grotesque
parody of the trim and dapper Dickie Maybury of the past—what could it matter
how he looked with death slicing so close to him?
"The master seems
poorly of late, don't he, ma'am? His digestion ain't strong. P'r'aps something
'as disagreed with 'im." Thus Mrs. Derrick, taking her part in the drama,
as the simple character who makes speeches of more significant portent than she
is aware of.
Something had, indeed,
disagreed with Dickie. In the slang phrase: "He had bitten off more than
he could chew."
And the goblins were
hunting him; whispering how she would creep up to him stealthily from behind,
this woman who killed ... and put her arms round him, and put her fingers to
his throat—that was one way.
Other ways there were,
of course. He must learn about them all, so as to be watchful and prepared.
Self-defence ... accident. Of course, they always said it was accident. He knew
that now, for the evening crime-sheets began to appear in the flat again, and
Dickie studied them, in place of the villanelles, the graceful essays,
the belles-lettres of his former choice. Ruth saw him, with
his delicate shaking hands clutching the newspapers, his mild eyes bright with
sordid fascination. He was ill, certainly; and brain-sick and oppressed; and
she yearned for his illness to show itself a tangible, serious matter; a matter
of bed and doctor and complete prostration and unwearied effort on the part of
his nurse. "My darling—my darling.... He did everything for me, when I
most needed it. And now, I can do nothing.... It isn't fair!"
She stood by one of the
open windows of the pretty Watteau sitting-room. The lamps had just sprung to
fiery stars in the blue glamorous twilight of the square; the fragrance of wet
lilac blew up to her, and a blackbird among the bushes began to sing like mad
... the fist which was cruelly squeezing Ruth's spirit seemed slowly to
unclench ... and suddenly it struck her that things might be made worth while
again for her and Dickie.
After all, how insane it
was for him to be huddling miserably, as she knew he would be, in the arm-chair
of his study, gazing with forlorn eyes at the squalid columns, which it had
grown too dark for him to decipher. She had a vision of what this very evening
might yet hold of recovered magic, if only she had the courage to carry out her
simple cure of his head drawn down on to her left breast, just where her heart
was beating. "Dickie, it's all right, you know—it's only Ruth
I You've been sitting with your bogies all the time the white lilac has been
coming out——"
A faint smile lay at
last on Ruth's mouth, and in the curve of her tired eyelids. She went softly
into the study. The door was open....
Dickie sprang to his
feet with a yell of terror as her hands came round his neck from behind. He
clutched at the revolver in his pocket and fired, at random, backwards.... In
the wall behind them was the round dark mark of a merciful bullet. And——
"Dickie—oh,
Dickie—when you've been frightened—and have to live with it—and it doesn't even
stop at nights—do you understand, now, how it happens? They've no right to
call that murder, have they, Dickie?"
And now, indeed,
understanding that the awful act of killing could be, in a rare once or twice,
a human accident for the frightened little human to commit—understanding,
Dickie was shocked back to sanity.
"Dear, dear
Ruth——" Why, this stranger woman was no stranger, after all, but Ruth, his
own sweet wife. Dickie was tired, and he knew he need not explain things to
her. He laid his head down on her left breast, just where the heart was
beating.
23.THE WOMAN WHO SAT STILL by PARRY TRUSCOTT
(From Colour) 1922
When he went, when he
had to go, he took with him the memory of her that had become crystallised, set
for him in his own frequent words to her, standing at her side, looking down at
her with his keen, restless eyes—such words as: "It puzzles me how on
earth you manage to sit so still...."
Then, enlarging:
"It is wonderful to me how you can keep so happy doing nothing—make of
enforced idleness a positive pleasure! I suppose it is a gift, and I haven't
got it—not a bit. It doesn't matter how tired I am, I have to keep going—people
call it industry, but its real name is nervous energy, run riot. I can't even
take a holiday peacefully. I must be actively playing if I cannot work. I'm
just the direct descendant of the girl in the red shoes—they were red, weren't
they?—who had to dance on and on until she dropped. I shall go on and on until
I drop, and then I shall attempt a few more useless yards on all
fours...."
"Come now," in
answer to the way she shook her head at him, smiled at him from her sofa,
"you know very well how I envy you your gift, your power of sitting
still—happily still—your power of contemplation...."
And one day, more
intimately still, with a sigh and a look (Oh, a look she understood!), "To
me you are the most restful person in the world...."
000
Why he went, except that
he had to go; why he stayed away so long, so very long, are not really relevant
to this story; the facts, stripped of conjecture, were simply these: she was
married, and he was not, and there came the time, as it always comes in such
relationships as theirs, when he had to choose between staying without honour
and going quickly. He went. But even the bare facts concerning his protracted
absence are less easily stated because his absence dragged on long after the
period when he might, with impeccable honour, have returned.
The likeliest solution
was that setting her aside when he had to, served so to cut in two his life, so
wrenched at his heartstrings, so burnt and bruised his spirit, that when, in
his active fashion he had lived some of the hurt down, he could not bring
himself easily to reopen the old subject—fresh wounds for him might still lurk
in it—how could he tell? Although it had been at the call, the insistence of
honour, still hadn't he left her—deserted her? Does any woman, even his own
appointed woman, forgive a man who goes speechless away? Useless, useless
speculation! For some reason, some man's reason, when another's death made her
a free woman, yet he lingered and did not come.
He knew, afterwards,
that it was from the first his intention to claim her. He wanted her—deep down
he wanted her as he had always wanted her; meant to come—some time. Knew all
the time that he could not always keep away. And then, responding to a sudden
whim, some turn of his quickly moving mind—a mind that could forcibly bury a
subject and as forcibly resurrect it—hot-foot and eager he came.
000
He had left her
recovering slowly and surely from a long illness; an illness that must have
proved fatal but for her gift of tranquillity, her great gift of keeping
absolutely, restfully still in body, while retaining a happily occupied mind.
Her books, and her big quiet room, and the glimpse of the flower-decked garden
from her window, with just these things to help her, she had dug herself into
the deep heart of life where the wells of contentment spring. Bird's song in
the early morn and the long, still day before her in which to find herself—to
take a new, firmer hold on the hidden strength of the world. And, just to keep
her in touch with the surface of things, visits from her friends. Then later,
more tightly gripping actuality, with a new, keen, sharp, growing pleasure—the
visits of a friend.
While those lasted there
was nothing she would have changed for her quiet room, her sofa: the room that
he lit with his coming; where she rested and rested, shut in with the memory of
all he said, looked, thought in her presence—until again he came.
While they lasted! She
had been content, never strong, never able to do very much, with seclusion
before. During the time of his visits she revelled, rejoiced in it, asking
nothing further. While they lasted, sitting still (Oh, so still), hugging her
joy, she didn't think, wouldn't think, how it might end.
Sometimes, just
sometimes, by a merciful providence, things do not end. She lived for months on
the bare chance of its not ending.
Yet, as we know, the end
came.
At first while the world
called her widowed she sat with her unwidowed heart waiting for him in the old
room, in the old way. Surely now he would come? She had given good measure of
fondness and duty and friendship—that was only that under another name—to the
one who until now had stood between her and her heart's desire, and parting
with him, and all the associations that went with him, had surprisingly hurt
her. Always frail, she was ill—torn with sorrow and pity—and then, very slowly
again, she recovered. And while she recovered, lying still in the old way, she
gave her heart wings—wild, surging wings—at last, at last. Sped it forth, forth
to bring her joy—to compel it.
While she waited in this
fashion a sweet, recaptured sense of familiarity made his coming seem imminent.
She had only to wait and he would be here. She couldn't have mistaken the looks
that had never been translated into words—that hadn't needed words. Though she
had longed and ached for a word—then—she was quite content now. He had wanted
her just as she was, unashamed and untainted. And to preserve her as she was he
had gone away. And now for the very first time she was truly glad he had gone
in that abrupt, speechless fashion—in spite of the heartache and the long years
between them, really and truly glad. Nothing had been spoilt; they had snatched
at no stolen joys. And the rapture, (what rapture!) of meeting would blot out
all that they had suffered in silence—the separation—all of it!
As she waited, getting
well for him, she had no regrets, growing more and more sure of his coming.
It was not until she was
well again, not until the months had piled themselves on each other, that,
growing more frightened than she knew, she began her new work of preparation.
000
Suddenly, impulsively,
when she had reached the stage of giving him up for days at a time, when hope
had nearly abandoned her, then he came.
He had left a woman so
hopeful in outlook, so young and peaceful in spirit, that with her the
advancing years would not matter. On his journey back to her, visualising her
afresh, touching up his memory of her, he pictured her going a little grey.
That would suit her—grey was her colour—blending to lavender in the clothes she
always wore for him. A little grey, but her clear, pale skin unfaded, her large
eyes full of pure, guarded secrets—secrets soon to unfold for him alone.
A haven—a haven! So he
thought of her, and now, ready for her, coming to her, he craved the rest she
would give him—rest more than anything in all the world. She, with her sweet
white hands, when he held them, kissed them, would unlock the doors of peace
for him, drawing him into her life, letting him potter and linger—linger at her
side. Even when long ago he had insisted to her that for him there was no way
of rest, he had known that she, just she, meant rest for him, when he could
claim her for his own. Other women, other pursuits, offered him excitement,
stimulation—and then a weariness too profound for words. But rest, bodily,
spiritually, was her unique gift for him. She—he smiled as he thought it—would
teach him to sit still.
And tired, so tired, he
hurried to her across the world as fast as he could go.
Waiting at her door, the
door opened, crossing the threshold—Oh, he had never thought his luck would be
so great as to be taken direct to the well remembered room upstairs! Yet with
only a few short inquiries he was taken there—she for whom he asked, the
mistress of the house, would be in her sitting-room, he was told, and if he was
an old friend...? He explained that he was a very old friend, following the
maid upstairs. But the maid was mistaken; her mistress was not in her private
sitting-room; not in the house at all—she had gone out, and it proved on
investigation that she had left no word. The maid, returning, suggested
however, that she would not be long. Her mistress had a meeting this evening;
she was expecting some one before dinner; no, she would certainly not be long,
so—so if he would like to wait?
He elected to wait—a
little impatiently. He knew it was absurd that coming, without warning—after
how many years was it?—he should yet have made so sure of finding her at home.
Absurd, unreasonable—and yet he was disappointed. He ought to have written, but
he had not waited to write. He had pictured the meeting—how many times? Times
without number—and always pictured her waiting at home. And then the room?
Left alone in it he
paced the room. But the room enshrined in his heart of hearts was not this
room. Was there, surely there was some mistake?
There could be no
mistake. There could not be two upstairs rooms in this comparatively small
house, of this size and with this aspect; westward, and overlooking with two
large windows the little walled garden into which he had so often gazed,
standing and talking to her, saying over his shoulders the things he dare not
say face to face—that would have meant so much more, helped out with look and
gesture, face to face.
The garden, as far as he
could see, was the same except that he fancied it less trim, less perfect in
order: in the old days it would be for months at a time all the outside world
she saw—there had been object enough in keeping it trim. Now it looked, to his
fancy, like a woman whose beauty was fading a little because she had lost
incentive to be beautiful. He turned from the garden, his heart amazed,
fearful, back to the room.
The room of the old
days—with closed eyes he reproduced it; its white walls, its few good pictures,
its curtains and carpet of deep blue. Her sofa by the window, the wide armchair
on which he always sat, the table where, in and out of season, roses, his
roses, stood. The little old gilt clock on the mantlepiece that so quickly,
cruelly ticked away their hour. Books, books everywhere, the most important
journals and a medley of the lighter magazines; those, with her work-basket,
proving her feminine and the range of her interests, her inconsistency. A
woman's room, revealing at a glance her individuality, her spirit.
But this room—! He
looked for the familiar things—the sofa, the bookshelves, the little table
dedicated to flowers. Yes, the sofa was there, but pushed away as though seldom
used; on the bookshelves new, strange books were crowding out the old; on the
little table drooped a few faded flowers in an awkward vase. On the
mantlepiece, where she would never have more than one or two good ornaments,
and the old gilt clock, were now stacks of papers, a rack bulging with packing
materials—something like that—an ink-bottle, a candlestick, the candle trailed
over with sealing-wax, and an untidy ball of string. And right in the centre of
the room a great clumsy writing-table, an office table, piled with papers
again, ledgers, a portable typewriter, and—a litter of cigarette ends.
Like a Mistress on the
track of a much-doubted maid he ran his finger along the edge of a bookcase and
then the mantlepiece. He looked at his fingers; there was no denying the dust
he had wiped away.
She must have changed
her room—why had she done it? But the maid had said—in her sitting-room—
He waited now
frightened, now fuming. Still she did not come. Should he not wait—should he
go—if this was her room? But he had come so far, and he needed her so—he must
stay. For some dear, foolish woman's reason she must have lent her room for the
use of a feminine busy-body; a political, higher-thought, pseudo-spiritualistic
friend. (He must weed out her friends!) The trend of the work done in this room
now his quick mind had seized upon—titles of books, papers, it was enough.
Notices stuck in the Venetian Mirror (the desecration!) for meetings of this
and that society, and all of them, so he judged, just excuses for putting
unwanted fingers into unwanted, dangerous pies. He thought of it like that—he
could not help it; he saw too far into motive and internal action; was too
impatient of the little storms, the paltry, tea-cup things. She, with her
unique gift of serenity—her place was not among the busybodies grinding axes
that were better blunt; interfering with the slow, slow working of the Mills of
God. Her gift was example—rare and delicate; her light the silver light of a
soul, that through 'suffering and patience and contemplation, knows itself and
is unafraid.
For such fussing,
unstable work as it was used for now she ought not even to have lent her
room—the room he had looked on as a temple of quietness; the shrine of a
priceless temperament.
He smiled his first
smile—she should not lend it again.
Then the door opened.
Suddenly, almost noisily, she came in.
She had heard,
downstairs, his name. So far she was prepared with her greeting. She came with
hands out-stretched—he took her hands and dropped them.
When he could interrupt
her greeting he said—forcing the words—"So now you are quite strong—and
busy?"
She told him how busy.
She told him how, (but not why) she had awakened from her long, selfish dream.
She said she had found so late—but surely not too late?—the joy of action;
constant, unremitting work for the world's sake. "Do you remember
how you used to complain you couldn't sit still? I am like that now—"
And he listened,
listened, each word a deeper stab straight at his defenceless heart.
Of all the many things
he had done since they met he had nothing to say.
Having just let her talk
(how she talked!) as soon as he decently could he went. Of all he had come to
tell her he said not a word. Tired, so bitterly tired, he had come seeking
rest, and now there was no more a place of rest for him—anywhere.
Yes, he had come across
the world to find himself overdue; to find himself too late. He went out
again—as soon as he decently could—taking only a picture of her that in sixty
over-charged minutes had wiped out the treasured picture of years.
Sixty minutes! After
waiting for years she had kept him an hour, desperately, by sheer force of will
keeping a man too stunned at first to resist, to break free. (Then at last he
broke free of that room and that woman, and went!) For years he had pictured
her sitting still as no other woman sat still, tranquil and graceful, her hair
going a little grey above her clear, pale skin, her eyes of a dream-ridden
saint. And now he must picture her forced into life, vivaciously, restlessly eager;
full of plans, (futile plans, how he knew those plans!) for the world's
upheaval, adding unrest to unrest. And now he must picture her with the grey
hair outwitted by art, with paint on her beautiful ravaged face.
At first he had wanted
to take her in his arms; with his strength to still her, with his tears to wash
the paint off.
But he couldn't—he
couldn't. He knew that his had been a dream of such supreme sweetness that to
awaken was an agony he could never hide; knew that you can't re-enter dreamland
once you wake.
So he went.
He never knew, with the
door shut on him, how she fell on her sofa—her vivacity quenched, her soul
spent. He never knew that having failed, (as she thought) to draw him to her
with what she was, she had vainly, foolishly tried a new model—himself.
He did not know how
inartistic love can be when love is desperate.
24.MAJOR WILBRAHAM by HUGH WALPOLE
(From The Chicago Tribune) 1921
I am quite aware that in
giving you this story just as I was told it I shall incur the charge of downright
and deliberate lying.
Especially I shall be
told this by any one who knew Wilbraham personally. Wilbraham was not, of
course, his real name, but I think that there are certain people who will
recognize him from this description of him. I do not know that it matters very
much if they do. Wilbraham himself would certainly not mind did he know. (Does
he know?) It was the thing above all that he wanted those last hours before he
died—that I should pass on my conviction of the truth of what he told me to
others. What he did not know was that I was not convinced. How could I be? But
when the whole comfort of his last hours hung on the simple fact that I was, of
course I pretended to the best of my poor ability. I would have done more than
that to make him happy.
It is precisely the
people who knew him well who will declare at once that my little story is
impossible. But did they know him well? Does any one know any one else well?
Aren't we all as lonely and removed from one another as mariners on separate
desert islands? In any case I did not know him well and perhaps for that very
reason was not so greatly surprised at his amazing revelations—surprised at the
revelations themselves, of course, but not at his telling them. There was
always in him—and I have known him here and there, loosely, in club and London
fashion, for nearly twenty years—something romantic and something sentimental.
I knew that because it was precisely those two attributes that he drew out of
me.
Most men are conscious
at some time in their lives of having felt for a member of their own sex an
emotion that is something more than simple companionship. It is a queer feeling
quite unlike any other in life, distinctly romantic and the more that perhaps
for having no sex feeling in it.
Like the love of women,
it is felt generally at sight, but, unlike that love, it is, I think, a
supremely unselfish emotion. It is not acquisitive, nor possessive, nor
jealous, and exists best perhaps when it is not urged too severely, but is
allowed to linger in the background of life, giving real happiness and security
and trust, standing out, indeed, as something curiously reliable just because
it is so little passionate. This emotion has an odd place in our English life
because the men who feel it, if they have been to public school and university,
have served a long training in repressing every sign or expression of sentiment
towards any other man; nevertheless it persists, romantically and deeply
persists, and the war of 1914 offered many curious examples of it.
Wilbraham roused just
that feeling in me. I remember with the utmost distinctness my first meeting
with him. It was just after the Boer war and old Johnny Beaminster gave a
dinner party to some men pals of his at the Phoenix. Johnny was not so old then—none
of us were; it was a short time after the death of that old harpy, the Duchess
of Wrexe, and some wag said that the dinner was in celebration of that happy
occasion. Johnny was not so ungracious as that, but he gave us a very merry
evening and he did undoubtedly feel a kind of lightness in the general air.
There were about fifteen
of us and Wilbraham was the only man present I'd never seen before. He was only
a captain then and neither so red faced nor so stout as he afterwards became.
He was pretty bulky, though, even then, and with his sandy hair cropped close,
his staring blue eyes, his toothbrush moustache and sharp, alert movements,
looked the typical traditional British officer.
There was nothing at all
to distinguish him from a thousand other officers of his kind, and yet from the
moment I saw him I had some especial and personal feeling about him. He was not
in type at all the man to whom at that time I should have felt drawn. My first
book had just been published and, although as I now perceive, its publication
had not caused the slightest ripple upon any water, the congratulations of my
friends and relations, who felt compelled, poor things, to say something,
because "they had received copies from the author," had made me feel
that the literary world was all buzzing at my ears. I could see at a glance
that Kipling was probably the only "decent" author about whom
Wilbraham knew anything, and the fragments of his conversation that I caught
did not promise anything intellectually exciting from his acquaintanceship.
The fact remains that I
wanted to know him more than any other man in the room, and although I only
exchanged a few words with him that night, I thought of him for quite a long
time afterwards.
It did not follow from
this as it ought to have done that we became great friends. That we never were,
although it was myself whom he sent for three days before his death to tell me
his queer little story. It was then at the very last that he confided to me
that he, too, had felt something at our first meeting "different" to
what one generally feels, that he had always wanted to turn our acquaintance
into friendship and had been too shy. I also was shy—and so we missed one
another, as I suppose in this funny, constrained, traditional country of ours
thousands of people miss one another every day.
But although I did not
see him very often and was in no way intimate with him, I kept my ears open for
any account of his doings. From one point of view, the Club Window outlook, he
was a very usual figure, one of those stout, rubicund, jolly men, a good polo
player, a good man in a house party, genial-natured, and none too brilliantly
brained, whom every one liked and no one thought about. All this he was on one
side of the report, but, on the other, there were certain stories that were
something more than the ordinary.
Wilbraham was obviously
a sentimentalist and an enthusiast; there was the extraordinary case shortly
after I first met him of his championship of X, a man who had been caught in an
especially bestial kind of crime and received a year's imprisonment for it. On
X leaving prison Wilbraham championed and defended him, put him up for months
in his rooms in Duke Street, walked as often as possible in his company down
Piccadilly, and took him over to Paris. It says a great deal for Wilbraham's
accepted normality and his general popularity that this championship of X did
him no harm. It was so obvious that he himself was the last man in the world to
be afflicted with X's peculiar habits. Some men, it is true, did murmur
something about "birds of a feather"; one or two kind friends warned
Wilbraham in the way kind friends have, and to them he simply said: "If a
feller's a pal he's a pal."
All this might in the
end have done Wilbraham harm had not X most happily committed suicide in Paris
in 1905. There followed a year or two later the much more celebrated business
of Lady C. I need not go into all that now, but here again Wilbraham
constituted himself her defender, although she robbed, cheated, and maligned
him as she robbed, cheated, and maligned every one who was good to her. It was
quite obvious that he was not in love with her; the obviousness of it was one
of the things in him that annoyed her.
He simply felt
apparently that she had been badly treated (the very last thing that she had
been), gave her any money he had, put his rooms at the disposal of herself and
her friends, and, as I have said, championed her everywhere. This affair did
very nearly finish him socially, and in his regiment. It was not so much that
they minded his caring for Lady C—(after all, any man can be fooled by any
woman)—but it was Lady C's friends who made the whole thing so impossible. Such
a crew! Such a horrible crew! And it was a queer thing to see Wilbraham with
his straight blue eyes and innocent mouth and general air of amiable simplicity
in the company of men like Colonel B and young Kenneth Parr. (There is no harm,
considering the later publicity of his case, in mentioning his name.) Well,
that affair luckily came to an end just in time. Lady C disappeared to Berlin
and was no more seen.
There were other cases
into which I need not go when Wilbraham was seen in strange company, always
championing somebody who was not worth the championing. He had no "social
tact," and for them at any rate no moral sense. In himself he was the
ordinary normal man about town, no prude, but straight as a man can be in his
debts, his love affairs, his friendships, and his sport. Then came the war. He
did brilliantly at Mons, was wounded twice, went out to Gallipoli, had a touch
of Palestine, and returned to France again to share in Foch's final triumph.
No man can possibly have
had more of the war than he had, and it is my own belief that he had just a
little too much of it.
He had been always perhaps
a little "queer," as we are most of us "queer" somewhere,
and the horrors of that horrible war undoubtedly affected him. Finally he lost,
just a week before the armistice, one of his best friends, Ross McLean, a loss
from which he certainly never recovered.
I have now, I think,
brought together all the incidents that can throw any kind of light upon the
final scene. In the middle of 1919 he retired from the army, and it was from
this time to his death that I saw something of him. He went back to his old
home at Horton's in Duke street, and as I was living at that time in
Marlborough Chambers in Jermyn street we were in easy reach of one another. The
early part of 1920 was a "queer time." People had become, I imagine,
pretty well accustomed to realizing that those two wonderful hours of Armistice
day had not ushered in the millennium any more than those first marvellous
moments of the Russian revolution produced it.
Every one has always
hoped for the millennium, but the trouble since the days of Adam and Eve has
always been that people have such different ideas as to what exactly that
millennium shall be. The plain facts of the matter simply were that during 1919
and 1920 the world changed from a war of nations to a war of classes, that
inevitable change that history has always shown follows on great wars.
As no one ever reads
history, it was natural enough that there should be a great deal of
disappointment and a great deal of astonishment. Men at the head of affairs who
ought to have known better cried aloud, "How ungrateful these people are,
after all we've done for them!" and the people underneath shouted that
everything had been muddled and spoiled and that they would have done much
better had they been at the head of affairs, an assertion for which there was
no sort of justification.
Wilbraham, being a
sentimentalist and an idealist, suffered more from this general disappointment
than most people. He had had wonderful relations with the men under him
throughout the war. He had never tired of recounting how marvelously they had
behaved, what heroes they were, and that it was they who would pull the country
together.
At the same time he had
a naive horror of bolshevism and anything unconstitutional, and he watched the
transformation of his "brave lads" into discontented and idle workmen
with dismay and deep distress. He used sometimes to come around to my rooms and
talk to me; he had the bewildered air of a man walking in his sleep.
He made the fatal
mistake of reading all the papers, and he took in the Daily Herald in order
that he might see "what it was these fellows had to say for
themselves."
The Herald upset him
terribly. Its bland assumption that Russians and Sein Feiners could do no
wrong, but that the slightest sign of assertion of authority on the part of any
government was "wicked tyranny," shocked his very soul. I remember
that he wrote a long, most earnest letter to Lansbury, pointing out to him that
if he subverted all authority and constitutional government his own party would
in its turn be subverted when it came to govern. Of course, he received no
answer.
During these months I
came to love the man. The attraction that I had felt for him from the very
first deeply underlay all my relation to him, but as I saw more of him I found
many very positive reasons for my liking. He was the simplest, bravest, purest,
most loyal, and most unselfish soul alive. He seemed to me to have no faults at
all unless it were a certain softness towards the wishes of those whom he
loved. He could not bear to hurt anybody, but he never hesitated if some
principle in which he believed was called in question.
He had not, of course, a
subtle mind—he was no analyst of character—but that did not make him
uninteresting. I never heard any one call him dull company, although men
laughed at him for his good nature and unselfishness and traded on him all the
time. He was the best human being I have ever known or am ever likely to know.
Well, the crisis arrived
with astonishing suddenness. About the second or third of August I went down to
stay with some friends at the little fishing village of Rafiel in Glebeshire.
I saw him just before I
left London, and he told me that he was going to stay in London for the first
half of August, that he liked London in August, even though his club would be
closed and Horton's delivered over to the painters.
I heard nothing about
him for a fortnight, and then I received a most extraordinary letter from Box
Hamilton, a fellow clubman of mine and Wilbraham's. Had I heard, he said, that
poor old Wilbraham had gone right off his "knocker"? Nobody knew
exactly what had happened, but suddenly one day at lunch time Wilbraham had
turned up at Grey's (the club to which our own club was a visitor during its
cleaning), had harangued every one about religion in the most extraordinary
way, had burst out from there and started shouting in Piccadilly, had, after
collecting a crowd, disappeared and not been seen until the next morning, when
he had been found, nearly killed, after a hand-to-hand fight with the market
men in Covent Garden.
It may be imagined how
deeply this disturbed me, especially as I felt that I was myself to blame. I
had noticed that Wilbraham was ill when I had seen him in London, and I should
either have persuaded him to come with me to Glebeshire or stayed with him in
London. I was just about to pack up and go to town when I received a letter
from a doctor in a nursing home in South Audley street saying that a certain
Major Wilbraham was in the home dying and asking persistently for myself. I took
a motor to Drymouth and was in London by five o'clock.
I found the South Audley
Street nursing home and was at once surrounded with the hush, the shaded rooms,
the scents of medicine and flowers, and some undefinable cleanliness that
belongs to those places.
I waited in a little
room, the walls decorated with sporting prints, the green baize table gloomily
laden with volumes of Punch and the Tatler. Wilbraham's doctor came in to see
me, a dapper, smart little man, efficient and impersonal. He told me that
Wilbraham had at most only twenty-four hours to live, that his brain was quite
clear, and that he was suffering very little pain, that he had been brutally
kicked in the stomach by some man in the Covent Garden crowd and had there
received the internal injuries from which he was now dying.
"His brain is quite
clear," the doctor said. "Let him talk. It can do him no harm.
Nothing can save him. His head is full of queer fancies; he wants every one to
listen to him. He's worrying because there's some message he wants to send...
he wants to give it to you."
When I saw Wilbraham he
was so little changed that I felt no shock. Indeed, the most striking change in
him was the almost exultant happiness in his voice and eyes.
It is true that after
talking to him a little I knew that he was dying. He had that strange peace and
tranquillity of mind that one saw so often with dying men in the war.
I will try to give an
exact account of Wilbraham's narrative; nothing else is of importance in this
little story but that narrative; I can make no comment. I have no wish to do
so. I only want to pass it on as he begged me to do.
"If you don't
believe me," he said, "give other people the chance of doing so. I
know that I am dying. I want as many men and women to have a chance of judging
this as is humanly possible. I swear to you that I am telling the truth and the
exact truth in every detail."
I began my account by
saying that I was not convinced. How could I be convinced?
At the same time I have
none of those explanations with which people are so generously forthcoming on
these occasions. I can only say that I do not think Wilbraham was insane, nor
drunk, nor asleep. Nor do I believe that some one played a practical joke....
Whether Wilbraham was
insane between the hours when his visitor left him and his entrance into the
nursing home I must leave to my readers. I myself think he was not.
After all, everything
depends upon the relative importance that we place upon ambitions, possessions,
emotions,—ideas.
Something suddenly became
of so desperate an importance to Wilbraham that nothing else at all mattered.
He wanted every one else to see the importance of it as he did. That is all....
It had been a hot and
oppressive day; London had seemed torrid and uncomfortable. The mere fact that
Oxford street was "up" annoyed him. After a slight meal in his flat
he went to the Promenade Concert at Queen's Hall. It was the second night of
the season—Monday night, Wagner night.
He bought himself a five
shilling ticket and sat in the middle of the balcony overlooking the floor. He
was annoyed again when he discovered that he had been given a ticket for the
"non-smoking" section of the balcony.
He had heard no Wagner
since August, 1914, and was anxious to discover the effect that hearing it again
would have upon him. The effect was disappointing. The music neither caught nor
held him.
"The
Meistersinger" had always been a great opera for him. The third act music
that Sir Henry Wood gave to him didn't touch him anywhere. He also discovered
that six years' abstinence had not enraptured him any more deeply with the
rushing fiddles in the "Tannhäuser" Overture nor with the spinning
music in the "Flying Dutchman." Then came suddenly the prelude to the
third act of "Tristan." That caught him; the peace and tranquillity
that he needed lapped him round; he was fully satisfied and could have listened
for another hour.
He walked home down
Regent Street, the quiet melancholy of the shepherd's pipe accompanying him,
pleasing him and tranquillizing him. As he reached his flat ten o'clock struck
from St. James' Church. He asked the porter whether any one had wanted him
during his absence—whether any one was waiting for him now—(some friend had
told him that he might come up and use his spare room one night that week). No,
no one had been. There was no one there waiting.
Great was his surprise,
therefore, when opening the door of his flat he found some one standing there,
one hand resting on the table, his face turned towards the open door. Stronger,
however, than Wilbraham's surprise was his immediate conviction that he knew
his visitor well, and this was curious because the face was, undoubtedly
strange to him.
"I beg your
pardon," Wilbraham said to him, hesitating.
"I wanted to see
you," the Stranger said, smiling.
When Wilbraham was
telling me this part of his story he seemed to be
enveloped—"enveloped" is the word that best conveys my own experience
of him—by some quite radiant happiness. He smiled at me confidentially as
though he were telling me something that I had experienced with him and that
must give me the same happiness that it gave to him.
"Ought I to have
expected? Ought I to have known—" he stammered.
"No, you couldn't
have known," the Stranger answered. "You're not late. I knew when you
would come."
Wilbraham told me that
during these moments he was surrendering himself to an emotion and intimacy and
companionship that was the most wonderful thing that he had ever known. It was
that intimacy and companionship, he told me, for which all his days he had been
searching. It was the one thing that life never seemed to give; even in the
greatest love, the deepest friendship, there was that seed of loneliness
hidden. He had never found it in man or woman.
Now it was so wonderful
that the first thing he said was: "And now you're going to stay, aren't
you? You won't go away at once...?"
"Of course, I'll
stay," he answered. "If you want me."
His Visitor was dressed
in some dark suit; there was nothing about Him in any way odd or unusual. His
Face was thin and pale, His smile kindly.
His English was without
accent. His voice was soft and very melodious.
But Wilbraham could
notice nothing but His Eyes; they were the most beautiful, tender, gentle Eyes
that he had ever seen in any human being.
They sat down. Wilbraham's
overwhelming fear was lest his Guest should leave him. They began to talk and
Wilbraham took it at once as accepted that his Friend knew all about
him—everything.
He found himself eagerly
plunging into details of scenes, episodes that he had long put behind him—put
behind him for shame perhaps or for regret or for sorrow. He knew at once that
there was nothing that he need veil nor hide—nothing. He had no sense that he
must consider susceptibilities nor avoid self-confession that was humiliating.
But he did find, as he
talked on, a sense of shame from another side creep towards him and begin to
enclose him. Shame at the smallness, meanness, emptiness of the things that he
declared.
He had had always behind
his mistakes and sins a sense that he was a rather unusually interesting
person; if only his friends knew everything about him they would be surprised
at the remarkable man that he really was. Now it was exactly the opposite sense
that came over him. In the gold-rimmed mirror that was over his mantlepiece he
saw himself diminishing, diminishing, diminishing ... First himself, large,
red-faced, smiling, rotund, lying back in his chair; then the face shrivelling,
the limbs shortening, then the face small and peaked, the hands and legs little
and mean, then the chair enormous about and around the little trembling animal
cowering against the cushion.
He sprang up.
"No, no ... I can't
tell you any more—and you've known it all so long. I am mean, small, nothing—I
have not even great ambition ... nothing."
His Guest stood up and
put His Hand on his shoulder.
They talked, standing
side by side, and He said some things that belonged to Wilbraham alone, that he
would not tell me.
Wilbraham asked Him why
He had come—and to him.
"I will come now to
a few of My friends," He said. "First one and then another. Many
people have forgotten Me behind My words. They have built up such a mountain
over Me with the doctrines they have attributed to Me, the things that they say
that I did. I am not really," He said laughing, His Hand on Wilbraham's
shoulder, "so dull and gloomy and melancholy as they have made Me. I loved
Life—I loved men; I loved laughter and games and the open air—I liked jokes and
good food and exercise. All things that they have forgotten. So from now I shall
come back to one or two.... I am lonely when they see Me so solemnly."
Another thing He said.
"They are making life complicated now. To lead a good life, to be happy,
to manage the world only the simplest things are needed—Love, Unselfishness,
Tolerance."
"Can I go with You
and be with You always?" Wilbraham asked.
"Do you really want
that?" He said.
"Yes," said
Wilbraham, bowing his head.
"Then you shall
come and never leave Me again. In three days from now."
Then he kissed Wilbraham
on the forehead and went away.
I think that Wilbraham
himself became conscious as he told me this part of his story of the difference
between the seen and remembered Figure and the foolish, inadequate reported
words. Even now as I repeat a little of what Wilbraham said I feel the virtue
and power slipping away.
And so it goes on! As
the Figure recedes the words become colder and colder and the air that
surrounds them has in it less and less of power. But on that day when I sat
beside Wilbraham's bed the conviction in his voice and eyes held me so that
although my reason kept me back my heart told me that he had been in contact
with some power that was a stronger force than anything that I myself had ever
known.
But I have determined to
make no personal comment on this story. I am here simply as a narrator of
fact....
Wilbraham told me that
after his Visitor left him he sat there for some time in a dream. Then he sat
up, startled, as though some voice, calling, had wakened him, with an impulse
that was like a fire suddenly blazing up and lighting the dark places of his
brain. I imagine that all Wilbraham's impulses in the past, chivalric,
idealistic, foolish, had been of that kind—sudden, of an almost ferocious
energy and determination, blind to all consequences. He must go out at once and
tell every one of what had happened to him.
I once read a story
somewhere about some town that was expecting a great visitor. Everything was
ready, the banners hanging, the music prepared, the crowds waiting in the
street.
A man who had once been
for some years at the court of the expected visitor saw him enter the city,
sombrely clad, on foot. Meanwhile his Chamberlain entered the town in full
panoply with the trumpets blowing and many riders in attendance. The man who
knew the real thing ran to every one telling the truth, but they laughed at him
and refused to listen. And the real king departed quietly as he had come.
It was, I suppose, an
influence of this kind that drove Wilbraham now. Suddenly something was of so
great an importance to him that nothing else, mockery, hostility, scorn,
counted. After all, simply a supreme example of the other impulses that had
swayed him throughout his life.
What followed might I
think have been to some extent averted had his appearance been different.
London is a home of madmen and casually permits any lunacy so that public peace
is not endangered; had poor Wilbraham looked a fanatic with pale face, long
hair, ragged clothes, much would have been forgiven him, but for a stout,
middle-aged gentleman, well dressed, well groomed.... What could be supposed
but insanity and insanity of a very ludicrous kind?
He put on his coat and
went out. From this moment his account was confused. His mind, as he spoke to
me, kept returning to that Visitor... What happened after his Friend's
departure was vague and uncertain to him, largely because it was unimportant.
He does not know what time it was when he went out, but I gather that it must
have been about midnight. There were still people in Piccadilly.
Somewhere near the
Berkeley Hotel he stopped a gentleman and a lady. He spoke, I am sure, so
politely that the man he addressed must have supposed that he was asking for a
match, or an address, or something of the kind. Wilbraham told me that very
quietly he asked the gentleman whether he might speak to him for a moment, that
he had something very important to say.
That he would not, as a
rule, dream of interfering in any man's private affairs, but that the
importance of his communication outweighed all ordinary conventions; that he expected
that the gentleman had hitherto, as had been his own case, felt much doubt
about religious questions, but that now all doubt was, once and forever, over,
that...
I expect that at that
fatal word "Religion" the gentleman started as though he had been
stung by a snake, felt that this mild-looking man was a dangerous lunatic and
tried to move away. It was the lady with him, so far as I can discover, who
cried out:
"Oh, poor man, he's
ill," and wanted at once to do something for him. By this time a crowd was
beginning to collect and as the crowd closed around the central figures more
people gathered upon the outskirts and, peering through, wondered what had
happened, whether there was an accident, whether it were a "drunk,"
whether there had been a quarrel, and so on.
Wilbraham, I fancy,
began to address them all, telling them his great news, begging them with
desperate urgency to believe him. Some laughed, some stared in wide-eyed
wonder, the crowd was increasing and then, of course, the inevitable policeman
with his "move on, please," appeared.
How deeply I regret that
Wilbraham was not, there and then, arrested. He would be alive and with us now
if that had been done. But the policeman hesitated, I suppose, to arrest any
one as obviously a gentleman as Wilbraham, a man, too, as he soon perceived,
who was perfectly sober, even though he was not in his right mind.
Wilbraham was surprised
at the policeman's interference. He said that the last thing that he wished to
do was to create any disturbance, but that he could not bear to let all these
people go to their beds without giving them a chance of realizing first that
everything was now altered, that he had the most wonderful news..
The crowd was dispersed
and Wilbraham found himself walking alone with the policeman beside the Green
Park.
He must have been a very
nice policeman because before Wilbraham's death he called at the Nursing Home
and was very anxious to know how the poor gentleman was getting on.
He allowed Wilbraham to
talk to him and then did all he could to persuade him to walk home and go to
bed. He offered to get him a taxi. Wilbraham thanked him, said he would do so,
and bade him good night, and the policeman, seeing that Wilbraham was perfectly
composed and sober, left him.
After that the narrative
is more confused. Wilbraham apparently walked down Knightsbridge and arrived at
last somewhere near the Albert Hall. He must have spoken to a number of
different people. One man, a politician apparently, was with him for a
considerable time, but only because he was so anxious to emphasise his own
views about the Coalition Government and the wickedness of Lloyd George.
Another was a journalist, who continued with him for a while because he scented
a story for his newspaper. Some people may remember that there was a garbled
paragraph about a "Religious Army Officer" in the Daily
Record. One lady thought that Wilbraham wanted to go home with her and was
both angry and relieved when she found that it was not so.
He stayed at a cabman's
shelter for a time and drank a cup of coffee and told the little gathering
there his news. They took it very calmly. They had met so many queer things in
their time that nothing seemed odd to them.
His account becomes
clearer again when he found himself a little before dawn in the park and in the
company of a woman and a broken down pugilist. I saw both these persons
afterwards and had some talk with them. The pugilist had only the vaguest sense
of what had happened. Wilbraham was a "proper old bird" and had given
him half a crown to get his breakfast with. They had all slept together under a
tree and he had made some rather voluble protests because the other two would
talk so continuously and prevented his sleeping. It was a warm night and the
sun had come up behind the trees "surprisin' quick." He had liked the
old boy, especially as he had given him half a crown.
The woman was another
story. She was quiet and reserved, dressed in black, with a neat little black
hat with a green feather in it. She had yellow fluffy hair and bright childish
blue eyes and a simple, innocent expression. She spoke very softly and almost
in a whisper. So far as I could discover she could see nothing odd in Wilbraham
nor in anything that he had said. She was the one person in all the world who
had understood him completely and found nothing out of the way in his talk.
She had liked him at
once, she said. "I could see that he was kind," she added earnestly,
as though to her that was the most important thing in all the world. No, his
talk had not seemed odd to her. She had believed every word that he had said.
Why not? You could not look at him and not believe what he said.
Of course it was true.
And why not? What was there against it? It had been a great help for her what
the gentleman had told her... Yes, and he had gone to sleep with his head in
her lap... and she had stayed awake all night thinking... and he had waked up
just in time to see the sun rise. Some sunrise that was, too.
That was a curious
little fact that all three of them, even the battered pugilist, should have
been so deeply struck by that sunrise. Wilbraham on the last day of his life,
when he hovered between consciousness and unconsciousness, kept recalling it as
though it had been a vision.
"The sun—and the
trees suddenly green and bright like glittering swords. All shapes—swords,
plowshares, elephants, and camels—and the sky pale like ivory. See, now the sun
is rushing up, faster than ever, to take us with him, up, up, leaving the trees
like green clouds beneath us—far, far beneath us—"
The woman said that it
was the finest sunrise she had ever seen. He talked to her all the time about
his plans. He was looking disheveled now and unshaven and dirty. She suggested
that he should go back to his flat. No, he wished to waste no time. Who knew
how long he had got? It might be only a day or two ... He would go to Covent
Garden and talk to the men there.
She was confused as to
what happened after that. When they got to the market the carts were coming in
and men were very busy.
She saw the gentleman
speak to one of them very earnestly, but he was busy and pushed him aside. He
spoke to another, who told him to clear out.
Then he jumped on to a
box, and almost the last sight she had of him was his standing there in his
soiled clothes, a streak of mud on his face, his arms outstretched and crying:
"It's true! Stop just a moment—you must hear me!"
Some one pushed him off
the box. The pugilist rushed in then, cursing them and saying that the man was
a gentleman and had given him half a crown, and then some hulking great fellow
fought the pugilist and there was a regular mêlée. Wilbraham was in the middle
of them, was knocked down and trampled upon. No one meant to hurt him, I think.
They all seemed very sorry afterwards....
He died two days after
being brought into the Nursing Home. He was very happy just before he died,
pressed my hand and asked me to look after the girl....
"Isn't it
wonderful," were his last words to me, "that it should be true after
all?"
As to Truth, who knows?
Truth is a large order. This is true as far as Wilbraham goes,
every word of it. Beyond that? Well, it must be jolly to be so happy as
Wilbraham was.
This will seem a lying
story to some, a silly and pointless story to others.
I wonder....
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