Lucy Maud Montgomery Short Stories from 1905 to 1906
contents
1.A Correspondence and a Climax 1905 2.An Adventure on Island Rock 1906 3.At Five O’Clock in the Morning 1905 4.Aunt Susanna’s Birthday Celebration 1905 5.Bertie’s New Year 1905 6.Between the Hill and the Valley 1905 7.Clorinda’s Gifts 1906 8.Cyrilla’s Inspiration 1905 9.Dorinda’s Desperate Deed 1906 10.Her Own People 1905 11.Ida’s New Year Cake 1905 12.In the Old Valley 1906 13.Jane Lavinia 1906 14.Mackereling Out in the Gulf 1905 15.Millicent’s Double 1905 16.The Blue North Room 1906 17.The Christmas Surprise at Enderly Road 1905 18.The Dissipation of Miss Ponsonby 1906 19.The Falson’s Christmas Dinner 1906 20.The Fraser Scholarship 1905 21.The Girl at the Gate 1906 22.The Light on the Big Dipper 1906 23.The Prodigal Brother 1906 24.The Redemption of John Churchill 1906 25.The Schoolmaster’s Letter 1905 26.The Story of Uncle Dick 1906 27.The Understanding of Sister Sara 1905 28.The Unforgotten One 1906 29.The Wooing of Bessy 1906 30.Their Girl Josie 1906 31.When Jack and Jill Took a Hand 1905
1.A Correspondence and A
Climax
At sunset Sidney hurried
to her room to take off the soiled and faded cotton dress she had worn while
milking. She had milked eight cows and pumped water for the milk-cans afterward
in the fag-end of a hot summer day. She did that every night, but tonight she
had hurried more than usual because she wanted to get her letter written before
the early farm bedtime. She had been thinking it out while she milked the cows
in the stuffy little pen behind the barn. This monthly letter was the only
pleasure and stimulant in her life. Existence would have been, so Sidney
thought, a dreary, unbearable blank without it. She cast aside her
milking-dress with a thrill of distaste that tingled to her rosy fingertips. As
she slipped into her blue-print afternoon dress her aunt called to her from
below. Sidney ran out to the dark little entry and leaned over the stair
railing. Below in the kitchen there was a hubbub of laughing, crying,
quarrelling children, and a reek of bad tobacco smoke drifted up to the girl's
disgusted nostrils.
Aunt Jane was standing at the foot of the stairs with a lamp in
one hand and a year-old baby clinging to the other. She was a big shapeless
woman with a round good-natured face—cheerful and vulgar as a sunflower was
Aunt Jane at all times and occasions.
"I want to run over and see how Mrs. Brixby is this evening,
Siddy, and you must take care of the baby till I get back."
Sidney sighed and went downstairs for the baby. It never would
have occurred to her to protest or be petulant about it. She had all her aunt's
sweetness of disposition, if she resembled her in nothing else. She had not
grumbled because she had to rise at four that morning, get breakfast, milk the
cows, bake bread, prepare seven children for school, get dinner, preserve
twenty quarts of strawberries, get tea, and milk the cows again. All her days
were alike as far as hard work and dullness went, but she accepted them cheerfully
and uncomplainingly. But she did resent having to look after the baby when she
wanted to write her letter.
She carried the baby to her room, spread a quilt on the floor for
him to sit on, and gave him a box of empty spools to play with. Fortunately he was
a phlegmatic infant, fond of staying in one place, and not given to roaming
about in search of adventures; but Sidney knew she would have to keep an eye on
him, and it would be distracting to literary effort.
She got out her box of paper and sat down by the little table at
the window with a small kerosene lamp at her elbow. The room was small—a mere
box above the kitchen which Sidney shared with two small cousins. Her bed and
the cot where the little girls slept filled up almost all the available space.
The furniture was poor, but everything was neat—it was the only neat room in
the house, indeed, for tidiness was no besetting virtue of Aunt Jane's.
Opposite Sidney was a small muslined and befrilled toilet-table,
above which hung an eight-by-six-inch mirror, in which Sidney saw herself
reflected as she devoutly hoped other people did not see her. Just at that
particular angle one eye appeared to be as large as an orange, while the other
was the size of a pea, and the mouth zigzagged from ear to ear. Sidney hated
that mirror as virulently as she could hate anything. It seemed to her to
typify all that was unlovely in her life. The mirror of existence into which
her fresh young soul had looked for twenty years gave back to her wistful gaze
just such distortions of fair hopes and ideals.
Half of the little table by which she sat was piled high with
books—old books, evidently well read and well-bred books, classics of fiction
and verse every one of them, and all bearing on the flyleaf the name of Sidney
Richmond, thereby meaning not the girl at the table, but her college-bred young
father who had died the day before she was born. Her mother had died the day
after, and Sidney thereupon had come into the hands of good Aunt Jane, with
those books for her dowry, since nothing else was left after the expenses of
the double funeral had been paid.
One of the books had Sidney Richmond's name printed on the
title-page instead of written on the flyleaf. It was a thick little volume of
poems, published in his college days—musical, unsubstantial, pretty little
poems, every one of which the girl Sidney loved and knew by heart.
Sidney dropped her pointed chin in her hands and looked dreamily
out into the moonlit night, while she thought her letter out a little more
fully before beginning to write. Her big brown eyes were full of wistfulness
and romance; for Sidney was romantic, albeit a faithful and understanding
acquaintance with her father's books had given to her romance refinement and
reason, and the delicacy of her own nature had imparted to it a self-respecting
bias.
Presently she began to write, with a flush of real excitement on
her face. In the middle of things the baby choked on a small twist spool and
Sidney had to catch him up by the heels and hold him head downward until the
trouble was ejected. Then she had to soothe him, and finally write the rest of
her letter holding him on one arm and protecting the epistle from the grabs of
his sticky little fingers. It was certainly letter-writing under difficulties,
but Sidney seemed to deal with them mechanically. Her soul and understanding
were elsewhere.
Four years before, when Sidney was sixteen, still calling herself
a schoolgirl by reason of the fact that she could be spared to attend school
four months in the winter when work was slack, she had been much interested in
the "Maple Leaf" department of the Montreal weekly her uncle took. It
was a page given over to youthful Canadians and filled with their contributions
in the way of letters, verses, and prize essays. Noms de plume were signed to
these, badges were sent to those who joined the Maple Leaf Club, and a general
delightful sense of mystery pervaded the department.
Often a letter concluded with a request to the club members to
correspond with the writer. One such request went from Sidney under the
pen-name of "Ellen Douglas." The girl was lonely in Plainfield; she
had no companions or associates such as she cared for; the Maple Leaf Club
represented all that her life held of outward interest, and she longed for
something more.
Only one answer came to "Ellen Douglas," and that was
forwarded to her by the long-suffering editor of "The Maple Leaf." It
was from John Lincoln of the Bar N Ranch, Alberta. He wrote that, although his
age debarred him from membership in the club (he was twenty, and the limit was
eighteen), he read the letters of the department with much interest, and often
had thought of answering some of the requests for correspondents. He never had
done so, but "Ellen Douglas's" letter was so interesting that he had
decided to write to her. Would she be kind enough to correspond with him? Life
on the Bar N, ten miles from the outposts of civilization, was lonely. He was
two years out from the east, and had not yet forgotten to be homesick at times.
Sidney liked the letter and answered it. Since then they had
written to each other regularly. There was nothing sentimental, hinted at or
implied, in the correspondence. Whatever the faults of Sidney's romantic
visions were, they did not tend to precocious flirtation. The Plainfield boys,
attracted by her beauty and repelled by her indifference and aloofness, could
have told that. She never expected to meet John Lincoln, nor did she wish to do
so. In the correspondence itself she found her pleasure.
John Lincoln wrote breezy accounts of ranch life and adventures on
the far western plains, so alien and remote from snug, humdrum Plainfield life
that Sidney always had the sensation of crossing a gulf when she opened a
letter from the Bar N. As for Sidney's own letter, this is the way it read as
she wrote it:
"The Evergreens," Plainfield.
Dear Mr. Lincoln:
The very best letter I can write in the half-hour before the
carriage will be at the door to take me to Mrs. Braddon's dance shall be yours
tonight. I am sitting here in the library arrayed in my smartest, newest,
whitest, silkiest gown, with a string of pearls which Uncle James gave me today
about my throat—the dear, glistening, sheeny things! And I am looking forward
to the "dances and delight" of the evening with keen anticipation.
You asked me in your last letter if I did not sometimes grow weary
of my endless round of dances and dinners and social functions. No, no, never!
I enjoy every one of them, every minute of them. I love life and its bloom and
brilliancy; I love meeting new people; I love the ripple of music, the hum of
laughter and conversation. Every morning when I awaken the new day seems to me
to be a good fairy who will bring me some beautiful gift of joy.
The gift she gave me today was my sunset gallop on my grey mare
Lady. The thrill of it is in my veins yet. I distanced the others who rode with
me and led the homeward canter alone, rocking along a dark, gleaming road,
shadowy with tall firs and pines, whose balsam made all the air resinous around
me. Before me was a long valley filled with purple dusk, and beyond it meadows
of sunset and great lakes of saffron and rose where a soul might lose itself in
colour. On my right was the harbour, silvered over with a rising moon. Oh, it
was all glorious—the clear air with its salt-sea tang, the aroma of the pines,
the laughter of my friends behind me, the spring and rhythm of Lady's grey
satin body beneath me! I wanted to ride on so forever, straight into the heart
of the sunset.
Then home and to dinner. We have a houseful of guests at
present—one of them an old statesman with a massive silver head, and eyes that
have looked into people's thoughts so long that you have an uncanny feeling
that they can see right through your soul and read motives you dare not avow even
to yourself. I was terribly in awe of him at first, but when I got acquainted
with him I found him charming. He is not above talking delightful nonsense even
to a girl. I sat by him at dinner, and he talked to me—not nonsense, either,
this time. He told me of his political contests and diplomatic battles; he was
wise and witty and whimsical. I felt as if I were drinking some rare,
stimulating mental wine. What a privilege it is to meet such men and take a
peep through their wise eyes at the fascinating game of empire-building!
I met another clever man a few evenings ago. A lot of us went for
a sail on the harbour. Mrs. Braddon's house party came too. We had three big
white boats that skimmed down the moonlit channel like great white sea birds.
There was another boat far across the harbour, and the people in it were
singing. The music drifted over the water to us, so sad and sweet and beguiling
that I could have cried for very pleasure. One of Mrs. Braddon's guests said to
me:
"That is the soul of music with all its sense and earthliness
refined away."
I hadn't thought about him before—I hadn't even caught his name in
the general introduction. He was a tall, slight man, with a worn, sensitive
face and iron-grey hair—a quiet man who hadn't laughed or talked. But he began
to talk to me then, and I forgot all about the others. I never had listened to
anybody in the least like him. He talked of books and music, of art and travel.
He had been all over the world, and had seen everything everybody else had seen
and everything they hadn't too, I think. I seemed to be looking into an
enchanted mirror where all my own dreams and ideals were reflected back to me,
but made, oh, so much more beautiful!
On my way home after the Braddon people had left us somebody asked
me how I liked Paul Moore! The man I had been talking with was Paul Moore, the
great novelist! I was almost glad I hadn't known it while he was talking to
me—I should have been too awed and reverential to have really enjoyed his
conversation. As it was, I had contradicted him twice, and he had laughed and
liked it. But his books will always have a new meaning to me henceforth,
through the insight he himself has given me.
It is such meetings as these that give life its sparkle for me.
But much of its abiding sweetness comes from my friendship with Margaret
Raleigh. You will be weary of my rhapsodies over her. But she is such a rare
and wonderful woman; much older then I am, but so young in heart and soul and
freshness of feeling! She is to me mother and sister and wise, clear-sighted
friend. To her I go with all my perplexities and hopes and triumphs. She has
sympathy and understanding for my every mood. I love life so much for giving me
such a friendship!
This morning I wakened at dawn and stole away to the shore before
anyone else was up. I had a delightful run-away. The long, low-lying meadows
between "The Evergreens" and the shore were dewy and fresh in that
first light, that was as fine and purely tinted as the heart of one of my white
roses. On the beach the water was purring in little blue ripples, and, oh, the
sunrise out there beyond the harbour! All the eastern Heaven was abloom with
it. And there was a wind that came dancing and whistling up the channel to
replace the beautiful silence with a music more beautiful still.
The rest of the folks were just coming downstairs when I got back
to breakfast. They were all yawny, and some were grumpy, but I had washed my
being in the sunrise and felt as blithesome as the day. Oh, life is so good to
live!
Tomorrow Uncle James's new vessel, the White Lady, is
to be launched. We are going to make a festive occasion of it, and I am to
christen her with a bottle of cobwebby old wine.
But I hear the carriage, and Aunt Jane is calling me. I had a
great deal more to say—about your letter, your big "round-up" and
your tribulations with your Chinese cook—but I've only time now to say goodbye.
You wish me a lovely time at the dance and a full programme, don't you?
Yours sincerely,
Sidney Richmond.
Aunt Jane came home presently and carried away her sleeping baby.
Sidney said her prayers, went to bed, and slept soundly and serenely.
She mailed her letter the next day, and a month later an answer
came. Sidney read it as soon as she left the post office, and walked the rest
of the way home as in a nightmare, staring straight ahead of her with
wide-open, unseeing brown eyes.
John Lincoln's letter was short, but the pertinent paragraph of it
burned itself into Sidney's brain. He wrote:
I am going east for a visit. It is six years since I was home, and
it seems like three times six. I shall go by the C.P.R., which passes through
Plainfield, and I mean to stop off for a day. You will let me call and see you,
won't you? I shall have to take your permission for granted, as I shall be gone
before a letter from you can reach the Bar N. I leave for the east in five
days, and shall look forward to our meeting with all possible interest and
pleasure.
Sidney did not sleep that night, but tossed restlessly about or
cried in her pillow. She was so pallid and hollow-eyed the next morning that
Aunt Jane noticed it, and asked her what the matter was.
"Nothing," said Sidney sharply. Sidney had never spoken
sharply to her aunt before. The good woman shook her head. She was afraid the
child was "taking something."
"Don't do much today, Siddy," she said kindly.
"Just lie around and take it easy till you get rested up. I'll fix you a
dose of quinine."
Sidney refused to lie around and take it easy. She swallowed the
quinine meekly enough, but she worked fiercely all day, hunting out superfluous
tasks to do. That night she slept the sleep of exhaustion, but her dreams were
unenviable and the awakening was terrible.
Any day, any hour, might bring John Lincoln to Plainfield. What
should she do? Hide from him? Refuse to see him? But he would find out the
truth just the same; she would lose his friendships and respect just as surely.
Sidney trod the way of the transgressor, and found that its thorns pierced to
bone and marrow. Everything had come to an end—nothing was left to her! In the
untried recklessness of twenty untempered years she wished she could die before
John Lincoln came to Plainfield. The eyes of youth could not see how she could
possibly live afterward.
000
Some days later a young man stepped from the
C.P.R. train at Plainfield station and found his way to the one small hotel the
place boasted. After getting his supper he asked the proprietor if he could
direct him to "The Evergreens."
Caleb Williams looked at his guest in bewilderment. "Never
heerd o' such a place," he said.
"It is the name of Mr. Conway's estate—Mr. James
Conway," explained John Lincoln.
"Oh, Jim Conway's place!" said Caleb. "Didn't know
that was what he called it. Sartin I kin tell you whar' to find it. You see
that road out thar'? Well, just follow it straight along for a mile and a half
till you come to a blacksmith's forge. Jim Conway's house is just this side of
it on the right—back from the road a smart piece and no other handy. You can't
mistake it."
John Lincoln did not expect to mistake it, once he found it; he
knew by heart what it appeared like from Sidney's description: an old stately
mansion of mellowed brick, covered with ivy and set back from the highway amid
fine ancestral trees, with a pine-grove behind it, a river to the left, and a
harbour beyond.
He strode along the road in the warm, ruddy sunshine of early
evening. It was not a bad-looking road at all; the farmsteads sprinkled along
it were for the most part snug and wholesome enough; yet somehow it was
different from what he had expected it to be. And there was no harbour or
glimpse of distant sea visible. Had the hotel-keeper made a mistake? Perhaps he
had meant some other James Conway.
Presently he found himself before the blacksmith's forge. Beside
it was a rickety, unpainted gate opening into a snake-fenced lane feathered
here and there with scrubby little spruces. It ran down a bare hill, crossed a
little ravine full of young white-stemmed birches, and up another bare hill to
an equally bare crest where a farmhouse was perched—a farmhouse painted a
stark, staring yellow and the ugliest thing in farmhouses that John Lincoln had
ever seen, even among the log shacks of the west. He knew now that he had been
misdirected, but as there seemed to be nobody about the forge he concluded that
he had better go to the yellow house and inquire within. He passed down the
lane and over the little rustic bridge that spanned the brook. Just beyond was
another home-made gate of poles.
Lincoln opened it, or rather he had his hand on the hasp of
twisted withes which secured it, when he was suddenly arrested by the
apparition of a girl, who flashed around the curve of young birch beyond and
stood before him with panting breath and quivering lips.
"I beg your pardon," said John Lincoln courteously,
dropping the gate and lifting his hat. "I am looking for the house of Mr.
James Conway—'The Evergreens.' Can you direct me to it?"
"That is Mr. James Conway's house," said the girl, with
the tragic air and tone of one driven to desperation and an impatient gesture
of her hand toward the yellow nightmare above them.
"I don't think he can be the one I mean," said Lincoln
perplexedly. "The man I am thinking of has a niece, Miss Richmond."
"There is no other James Conway in Plainfield," said the
girl. "This is his place—nobody calls it 'The Evergreens' but myself. I am
Sidney Richmond."
For a moment they looked at each other across the gate, sheer
amazement and bewilderment holding John Lincoln mute. Sidney, burning with
shame, saw that this stranger was exceedingly good to look upon—tall,
clean-limbed, broad-shouldered, with clear-cut bronzed features and a chin and
eyes that would have done honour to any man. John Lincoln, among all his
confused sensations, was aware that this slim, agitated young creature before
him was the loveliest thing he ever had seen, so lithe was her figure, so
glossy and dark and silken her bare, wind-ruffled hair, so big and brown and
appealing her eyes, so delicately oval her flushed cheeks. He felt that she was
frightened and in trouble, and he wanted to comfort and reassure her. But how
could she be Sidney Richmond?
"I don't understand," he said perplexedly.
"Oh!" Sidney threw out her hands in a burst of
passionate protest. "No, and you never will understand—I can't make you
understand."
"I don't understand," said John Lincoln again. "Can
you be Sidney Richmond—the Sidney Richmond who has written to me for four
years?"
"I am."
"Then, those letters—"
"Were all lies," said Sidney bluntly and desperately.
"There was nothing true in them—nothing at all. This is my home. We are
poor. Everything I told you about it and my life was just imagination."
"Then why did you write them?" he asked blankly.
"Why did you deceive me?"
"Oh, I didn't mean to deceive you! I never thought of such a
thing. When you asked me to write to you I wanted to, but I didn't know what to
write about to a stranger. I just couldn't write you about my life here, not
because it was hard, but it was so ugly and empty. So I wrote instead of the
life I wanted to live—the life I did live in imagination. And when once I had
begun, I had to keep it up. I found it so fascinating, too! Those letters made
that other life seem real to me. I never expected to meet you. These last four
days since your letter came have been dreadful to me. Oh, please go away and
forgive me if you can! I know I can never make you understand how it came
about."
Sidney turned away and hid her burning face against the cool white
bark of the birch tree behind her. It was worse than she had even thought it
would be. He was so handsome, so manly, so earnest-eyed! Oh, what a friend to
lose!
John Lincoln opened the gate and went up to her. There was a great
tenderness in his face, mingled with a little kindly, friendly amusement.
"Please don't distress yourself so, Sidney," he said,
unconsciously using her Christian name. "I think I do understand. I'm not
such a dull fellow as you take me for. After all, those letters were true—or,
rather, there was truth in them. You revealed yourself more faithfully in them
than if you had written truly about your narrow outward life."
Sidney turned her flushed face and wet eyes slowly toward him, a
little smile struggling out amid the clouds of woe. This young man was
certainly good at understanding. "You—you'll forgive me then?" she
stammered.
"Yes, if there is anything to forgive. And for my own part, I
am glad you are not what I have always thought you were. If I had come here and
found you what I expected, living in such a home as I expected, I never could
have told you or even thought of telling you what you have come to mean to me
in these lonely years during which your letters have been the things most
eagerly looked forward to. I should have come this evening and spent an hour or
so with you, and then have gone away on the train tomorrow morning, and that
would have been all.
"But I find instead just a dreamy romantic little girl, much
like my sisters at home, except that she is a great deal cleverer. And as a
result I mean to stay a week at Plainfield and come to see you every day, if
you will let me. And on my way back to the Bar N I mean to stop off at
Plainfield again for another week, and then I shall tell you something
more—something it would be a little too bold to say now, perhaps, although I
could say it just as well and truly. All this if I may. May I, Sidney?"
He bent forward and looked earnestly into her face. Sidney felt a
new, curious, inexplicable thrill at her heart. "Oh, yes.—I suppose
so," she said shyly.
"Now, take me up to the house and introduce me to your Aunt
Jane," said John Lincoln in satisfied tone.
2.An Adventure on Island
Rock
"Who was the man I
saw talking to you in the hayfield?" asked Aunt Kate, as Uncle Richard
came to dinner.
"Bob Marks," said Uncle Richard briefly. "I've sold
Laddie to him."
Ernest Hughes, the twelve-year-old orphan boy whom Uncle
"boarded and kept" for the chores he did, suddenly stopped eating.
"Oh, Mr. Lawson, you're not going to sell Laddie?" he
cried chokily.
Uncle Richard stared at him. Never before, in the five years that
Ernest had lived with him, had the quiet little fellow spoken without being
spoken to, much less ventured to protest against anything Uncle Richard might
do.
"Certainly I am," answered the latter curtly. "Bob
offered me twenty dollars for the dog, and he's coming after him next
week."
"Oh, Mr. Lawson," said Ernest, rising to his feet, his
small, freckled face crimson. "Oh, don't sell Laddie! Please,
Mr. Lawson, don't sell him!"
"What nonsense is this?" said Uncle Richard sharply. He
was a man who brooked no opposition from anybody, and who never changed his
mind when it was once made up.
"Don't sell Laddie!" pleaded Ernest miserably. "He
is the only friend I've got. I can't live if Laddie goes away. Oh, don't sell
him, Mr. Lawson!"
"Sit down and hold your tongue," said Uncle Richard
sternly. "The dog is mine, and I shall do with him as I think fit. He is
sold, and that is all there is about it. Go on with your dinner."
But Ernest for the first time did not obey. He snatched his cap
from the back of his chair, dashed it down over his eyes, and ran from the
kitchen with a sob choking his breath. Uncle Richard looked angry, but Aunt
Kate hastened to soothe him.
"Don't be vexed with the boy, Richard," she said.
"You know he is very fond of Laddie. He's had to do with him ever since he
was a pup, and no doubt he feels badly at the thought of losing him. I'm rather
sorry myself that you have sold the dog."
"Well, he is sold and there's an end of it.
I don't say but that the dog is a good dog. But he is of no use to us, and
twenty dollars will come in mighty handy just now. He's worth that to Bob, for
he is a good watch dog, so we've both made a fair bargain."
Nothing more was said about Ernest or Laddie. I had taken no part
in the discussion, for I felt no great interest in the matter. Laddie was a
nice dog; Ernest was a quiet, inoffensive little fellow, five years younger
than myself; that was all I thought about either of them.
I was spending my vacation at Uncle Richard's farm on the Nova
Scotian Bay of Fundy shore. I was a great favourite with Uncle Richard, partly
because he had been much attached to my mother, his only sister, partly because
of my strong resemblance to his only son, who had died several years before.
Uncle Richard was a stern, undemonstrative man, but I knew that he entertained
a deep and real affection for me, and I always enjoyed my vacation sojourns at
his place.
"What are you going to do this afternoon, Ned?" he
asked, after the disturbance caused by Ernest's outbreak had quieted down.
"I think I'll row out to Island Rock," I replied.
"I want to take some views of the shore from it."
Uncle Richard nodded. He was much interested in my new camera.
"If you're on it about four o'clock, you'll get a fine view
of the 'Hole in the Wall' when the sun begins to shine on the water through
it," he said. "I've often thought it would make a handsome
picture."
"After I've finished taking the pictures, I think I'll go
down shore to Uncle Adam's and stay all night," I said. "Jim's dark
room is more convenient than mine, and he has some pictures he is going to
develop tonight, too."
I started for the shore about two o'clock. Ernest was sitting on
the woodpile as I passed through the yard, with his arms about Laddie's neck
and his face buried in Laddie's curly hair. Laddie was a handsome and
intelligent black-and-white Newfoundland, with a magnificent coat. He and
Ernest were great chums. I felt sorry for the boy who was to lose his pet.
"Don't take it so hard, Ern," I said, trying to comfort
him. "Uncle will likely get another pup."
"I don't want any other pup!" Ernest blurted out.
"Oh, Ned, won't you try and coax your uncle not to sell him? Perhaps he'd
listen to you."
I shook my head. I knew Uncle Richard too well to hope that.
"Not in this case, Ern," I said. "He would say it
did not concern me, and you know nothing moves him when he determines on a
thing. You'll have to reconcile yourself to losing Laddie, I'm afraid."
Ernest's tow-coloured head went down on Laddie's neck again, and
I, deciding that there was no use in saying anything more, proceeded towards
the shore, which was about a mile from Uncle Richard's house. The beach along
his farm and for several farms along shore was a lonely, untenanted one, for
the fisher-folk all lived two miles further down, at Rowley's Cove. About three
hundred yards from the shore was the peculiar formation known as Island Rock.
This was a large rock that stood abruptly up out of the water. Below, about the
usual water-line, it was seamed and fissured, but its summit rose up in a
narrow, flat-topped peak. At low tide twenty feet of it was above water, but at
high tide it was six feet and often more under water.
I pushed Uncle Richard's small flat down the rough path and rowed
out to Island Rock. Arriving there, I thrust the painter deep into a narrow
cleft. This was the usual way of mooring it, and no doubt of its safety
occurred to me.
I scrambled up the rock and around to the eastern end, where there
was a broader space for standing and from which some capital views could be
obtained. The sea about the rock was calm, but there was quite a swell on and
an off-shore breeze was blowing. There were no boats visible. The tide was low,
leaving bare the curious caves and headlands along shore, and I secured a
number of excellent snapshots. It was now three o'clock. I must wait another
hour yet before I could get the best view of the "Hole in the Wall"—a
huge, arch-like opening through a jutting headland to the west of me. I went
around to look at it, when I saw a sight that made me stop short in dismay.
This was nothing less than the flat, drifting outward around the point. The
swell and suction of the water around the rock must have pulled her loose—and I
was a prisoner! At first my only feeling was one of annoyance. Then a thought
flashed into my mind that made me dizzy with fear. The tide would be high that
night. If I could not escape from Island Rock I would inevitably be drowned.
I sat down limply on a ledge and tried to look matters fairly in
the face. I could not swim; calls for help could not reach anybody; my only
hope lay in the chance of somebody passing down the shore or of some boat
appearing.
I looked at my watch. It was a quarter past three. The tide would
begin to turn about five, but it would be at least ten before the rock would be
covered. I had, then, little more than six hours to live unless rescued.
The flat was by this time out of sight around the point. I hoped
that the sight of an empty flat drifting down shore might attract someone's
attention and lead to investigation. That seemed to be my only hope. No alarm
would be felt at Uncle Richard's because of my non-appearance. They would
suppose I had gone to Uncle Adam's.
I have heard of time seeming long to a person in my predicament,
but to me it seemed fairly to fly, for every moment decreased my chance of
rescue. I determined I would not give way to cowardly fear, so, with a murmured
prayer for help, I set myself to the task of waiting for death as bravely as
possible. At intervals I shouted as loudly as I could and, when the sun came to
the proper angle for the best view of the "Hole in the Wall," I took
the picture. It afterwards turned out to be a great success, but I have never
been able to look at it without a shudder.
At five the tide began to come in. Very, very slowly the water
rose around Island Rock. Up, up, up it came, while I watched it with fascinated
eyes, feeling like a rat in a trap. The sun fell lower and lower; at eight
o'clock the moon rose large and bright; at nine it was a lovely night, dear,
calm, bright as day, and the water was swishing over the highest ledge of the
rock. With some difficulty I climbed to the top and sat there to await the end.
I had no longer any hope of rescue but, by a great effort, I preserved
self-control. If I had to die, I would at least face death staunchly. But when
I thought of my mother at home, it tasked all my energies to keep from breaking
down utterly.
Suddenly I heard a whistle. Never was sound so sweet. I stood up
and peered eagerly shoreward. Coming around the "Hole in the Wall"
headland, on top of the cliffs, I saw a boy and a dog. I sent a wild halloo
ringing shoreward.
The boy started, stopped and looked out towards Island Rock. The
next moment he hailed me. It was Ernest's voice, and it was Laddie who was
barking beside him.
"Ernest," I shouted wildly, "run for help—quick!
quick! The tide will be over the rock in half an hour! Hurry, or you will be
too late!"
Instead of starting off at full speed, as I expected him to do,
Ernest stood still for a moment, and then began to pick his steps down a narrow
path over the cliff, followed by Laddie.
"Ernest," I shouted frantically, "what are you
doing? Why don't you go for help?"
Ernest had by this time reached a narrow ledge of rock just above
the water-line. I noticed that he was carrying something over his arm.
"It would take too long," he shouted. "By the time
I got to the Cove and a boat could row back here, you'd be drowned. Laddie and
I will save you. Is there anything there you can tie a rope to? I've a coil of
rope here that I think will be long enough to reach you. I've been down to the
Cove and Alec Martin sent it up to your uncle."
I looked about me; a smooth, round hole had been worn clean
through a thin part of the apex of the rock.
"I could fasten the rope if I had it!" I called.
"But how can you get it to me?"
For answer Ernest tied a bit of driftwood to the rope and put it
into Laddie's mouth. The next minute the dog was swimming out to me. As soon as
he came close I caught the rope. It was just long enough to stretch from shore
to rock, allowing for a couple of hitches which Ernest gave around a small
boulder on the ledge. I tied my camera case on my head by means of some string
I found in my pocket, then I slipped into the water and, holding to the rope,
went hand over hand to the shore with Laddie swimming beside me. Ernest held on
to the shoreward end of the rope like grim death, a task that was no light one
for his small arms. When I finally scrambled up beside him, his face was
dripping with perspiration and he trembled like a leaf.
"Ern, you are a brick!" I exclaimed. "You've saved
my life!"
"No, it was Laddie," said Ernest, refusing to take any
credit at all.
We hurried home and arrived at Uncle Richard's about ten, just as
they were going to bed. When Uncle Richard heard what had happened, he turned
very pale, and murmured, "Thank God!" Aunt Kate got me out of my wet
clothes as quickly as possible, put me away to bed in hot blankets and dosed me
with ginger tea. I slept like a top and felt none the worse for my experience
the next morning.
At the breakfast table Uncle Richard scarcely spoke. But, just as
we finished, he said abruptly to Ernest, "I'm not going to sell Laddie.
You and the dog saved Ned's life between you, and no dog who helped do that is
ever going to be sold by me. Henceforth he belongs to you. I give him to you
for your very own."
"Oh, Mr. Lawson!" said Ernest, with shining eyes.
I never saw a boy look so happy. As for Laddie, who was sitting
beside him with his shaggy head on Ernest's knee, I really believe the dog
understood, too. The look in his eyes was almost human. Uncle Richard leaned
over and patted him.
"Good dog!" he said. "Good dog!"
3.At Five O'Clock in the
Morning
Fate, in the guise of
Mrs. Emory dropping a milk-can on the platform under his open window, awakened
Murray that morning. Had not Mrs. Emory dropped that can, he would have
slumbered peacefully until his usual hour for rising—a late one, be it
admitted, for of all the boarders at Sweetbriar Cottage Murray was the most
irregular in his habits.
"When a young man," Mrs. Emory was wont to remark sagely
and a trifle severely, "prowls about that pond half of the night,
a-chasing of things what he calls 'moonlight effecks,' it ain't to be wondered
at that he's sleepy in the morning. And it ain't the convenientest thing,
nuther and noways, to keep the breakfast table set till the farm folks are
thinking of dinner. But them artist men are not like other people, say what you
will, and allowance has to be made for them. And I must say that I likes him
real well and approves of him every other way."
If Murray had slept late that morning—well, he shudders yet over
that "if." But aforesaid Fate saw to it that he woke when the hour of
destiny and the milk-can struck, and having awakened he found he could not go
to sleep again. It suddenly occurred to him that he had never seen a sunrise on
the pond. Doubtless it would be very lovely down there in those dewy meadows at
such a primitive hour; he decided to get up and see what the world looked like
in the young daylight.
He scowled at a letter lying on his dressing table and thrust it
into his pocket that it might be out of sight. He had written it the night
before and the writing of it was going to cost him several things—a prospective
million among others. So it is hardly to be wondered at if the sight of it did
not reconcile him to the joys of early rising.
"Dear life and heart!" exclaimed Mrs. Emory, pausing in
the act of scalding a milk-can when Murray emerged from a side door. "What
on earth is the matter, Mr. Murray? You ain't sick now, surely? I told you them
pond fogs was p'isen after night! If you've gone and got—"
"Nothing is the matter, dear lady," interrupted Murray,
"and I haven't gone and got anything except an acute attack of early
rising which is not in the least likely to become chronic. But at what hour of
the night do you get up, you wonderful woman? Or rather do you ever go to bed
at all? Here is the sun only beginning to rise and—positively yes, you have all
your cows milked."
Mrs. Emory purred with delight.
"Folks as has fourteen cows to milk has to rise
betimes," she answered with proud humility. "Laws, I don't
complain—I've lots of help with the milking. How Mrs. Palmer manages, I really
cannot comperhend—or rather, how she has managed. I suppose she'll be all right
now since her niece came last night. I saw her posting to the pond pasture not
ten minutes ago. She'll have to milk all them seven cows herself. But dear life
and heart! Here I be palavering away and not a bite of breakfast ready for
you!"
"I don't want any breakfast until the regular time for
it," assured Murray. "I'm going down to the pond to see the sun
rise."
"Now don't you go and get caught in the ma'sh,"
anxiously called Mrs. Emory, as she never failed to do when she saw him
starting for the pond. Nobody ever had got caught in the marsh, but Mrs. Emory
lived in a chronic state of fear lest someone should.
"And if you once got stuck in that black mud you'd be sucked
right down and never seen or heard tell of again till the day of judgment, like
Adam Palmer's cow," she was wont to warn her boarders.
Murray sought his favourite spot for pond dreaming—a bloomy corner
of the pasture that ran down into the blue water, with a dump of leafy maples
on the left. He was very glad he had risen early. A miracle was being worked
before his very eyes. The world was in a flush and tremor of maiden loveliness,
instinct with all the marvellous fleeting charm of girlhood and spring and
young morning. Overhead the sky was a vast high-sprung arch of unstained
crystal. Down over the sand dunes, where the pond ran out into the sea, was a
great arc of primrose smitten through with auroral crimsonings. Beneath it the
pond waters shimmered with a hundred fairy hues, but just before him they were
clear as a flawless mirror. The fields around him glistened with dews, and a
little wandering wind, blowing lightly from some bourne in the hills, strayed
down over the slopes, bringing with it an unimaginable odour and freshness, and
fluttered over the pond, leaving a little path of dancing silver ripples across
the mirror-glory of the water. Birds were singing in the beech woods over on
Orchard Knob Farm, answering to each other from shore to shore, until the very
air was tremulous with the elfin music of this wonderful midsummer dawn.
"I will get up at sunrise every morning of my life
hereafter," exclaimed Murray rapturously, not meaning a syllable of it,
but devoutly believing he did.
Just as the fiery disc of the sun peered over the sand dunes
Murray heard music that was not of the birds. It was a girl's voice singing
beyond the maples to his left—a clear sweet voice, blithely trilling out the
old-fashioned song, "Five O'Clock in the Morning."
"Mrs. Palmer's niece!"
Murray sprang to his feet and tiptoed cautiously through the
maples. He had heard so much from Mrs. Palmer about her niece that he felt
reasonably well acquainted with her. Moreover, Mrs. Palmer had assured him that
Mollie was a very pretty girl. Now a pretty girl milking cows at sunrise in the
meadows sounded well.
Mrs. Palmer had not over-rated her niece's beauty. Murray said so
to himself with a little whistle of amazement as he leaned unseen on the
pasture fence and looked at the girl who was milking a placid Jersey less than
ten yards away from him. Murray's artistic instinct responded to the whole
scene with a thrill of satisfaction.
He could see only her profile, but that was perfect, and the
colouring of the oval cheek and the beautiful curve of the chin were something
to adore. Her hair, ruffled into lovable little ringlets by the morning wind,
was coiled in glistening chestnut masses high on her bare head, and her arms,
bare to the elbow, were as white as marble. Presently she began to sing again,
and this time Murray joined in. She half rose from her milking stool and cast a
startled glance at the maples. Then she dropped back again and began to milk
determinedly, but Murray could have sworn that he saw a demure smile hovering
about her lips. That, and the revelation of her full face, decided him. He
sprang over the fence and sauntered across the intervening space of lush clover
blossoms.
"Good morning," he said coolly. He had forgotten her
other name, and it did not matter; at five o'clock in the morning people who
met in dewy clover fields might disregard the conventionalities. "Isn't it
rather a large contract for you to be milking seven cows all alone? May I help
you?"
Mollie looked up at him over her shoulder. She had glorious grey
eyes. Her face was serene and undisturbed. "Can you milk?" she asked.
"Unlikely as it may seem, I can," said Murray. "I
have never confessed it to Mrs. Emory, because I was afraid she would inveigle
me into milking her fourteen cows. But I don't mind helping you. I learned to milk
when I was a shaver on my vacations at a grandfatherly farm. May I have that
extra pail?"
Murray captured a milking stool and rounded up another Jersey.
Before sitting down he seemed struck with an idea.
"My name is Arnold Murray. I board at Sweetbriar Cottage,
next farm to Orchard Knob. That makes us near neighbours."
"I suppose it does," said Mollie.
Murray mentally decided that her voice was the sweetest he had
ever heard. He was glad he had arranged his cow at such an angle that he could
study her profile. It was amazing that Mrs. Palmer's niece should have such a
profile. It looked as if centuries of fine breeding were responsible for it.
"What a morning!" he said enthusiastically. "It
harks back to the days when earth was young. They must have had just such
mornings as this in Eden."
"Do you always get up so early?" asked Mollie
practically.
"Always," said Murray without a blush. Then—"But
no, that is a fib, and I cannot tell fibs to you. The truth is your tribute. I
never get up early. It was fate that roused me and brought me here this
morning. The morning is a miracle—and you, I might suppose you were born of the
sunrise, if Mrs. Palmer hadn't told me all about you."
"What did she tell you about me?" asked Mollie, changing
cows. Murray discovered that she was tall and that the big blue print apron
shrouded a singularly graceful figure.
"She said you were the best-looking girl in Bruce county. I
have seen very few of the girls in Bruce county, but I know she is right."
"That compliment is not nearly so pretty as the sunrise
one," said Mollie reflectively. "Mrs. Palmer has told me things about
you," she added.
"Curiosity knows no gender," hinted Murray.
"She said you were good-looking and lazy and different from
other people."
"All compliments," said Murray in a gratified tone.
"Lazy?"
"Certainly. Laziness is a virtue in these strenuous days, I
was not born with it, but I have painstakingly acquired it, and I am proud of
my success. I have time to enjoy life."
"I think that I like you," said Mollie.
"You have the merit of being able to enter into a
situation," he assured her.
When the last Jersey was milked they carried the pails down to the
spring where the creamers were sunk and strained the milk into them. Murray
washed the pails and Mollie wiped them and set them in a gleaming row on the
shelf under a big maple.
"Thank you," she said.
"You are not going yet," said Murray resolutely.
"The time I saved you in milking three cows belongs to me. We will spend
it in a walk along the pond shore. I will show you a path I have discovered
under the beeches. It is just wide enough for two. Come."
He took her hand and drew her through the copse into a green lane,
where the ferns grew thickly on either side and the pond waters plashed
dreamily below them. He kept her hand in his as they went down the path, and
she did not try to withdraw it. About them was the great, pure silence of the
morning, faintly threaded with caressing sounds—croon of birds, gurgle of
waters, sough of wind. The spirit of youth and love hovered over them and they
spoke no word.
When they finally came out on a little green nook swimming in
early sunshine and arched over by maples, with the wide shimmer of the pond
before it and the gold dust of blossoms over the grass, the girl drew a long
breath of delight.
"It is a morning left over from Eden, isn't it?" said
Murray.
"Yes," said Mollie softly.
Murray bent toward her. "You are Eve," he said.
"You are the only woman in the world—for me. Adam must have told Eve just
what he thought about her the first time he saw her. There were no
conventionalities in Eden—and people could not have taken long to make up their
minds. We are in Eden just now. One can say what he thinks in Eden without
being ridiculous. You are divinely fair, Eve. Your eyes are stars of the
morning—your cheek has the flush it stole from the sunrise-your lips are redder
than the roses of paradise. And I love you, Eve."
Mollie lowered her eyes and the long fringe of her lashes lay in a
burnished semi-circle on her cheek.
"I think," she said slowly, "that it must have been
very delightful in Eden. But we are not really there, you know—we are only
playing that we are. And it is time for me to go back. I must get the
breakfast—that sounds too prosaic for paradise."
Murray bent still closer.
"Before we remember that we are only playing at paradise,
will you kiss me, dear Eve?"
"You are very audacious," said Mollie coldly.
"We are in Eden yet," he urged. "That makes all the
difference."
"Well," said Mollie. And Murray kissed her.
They had passed back over the fern path and were in the pasture
before either spoke again. Then Murray said, "We have left Eden behind—but
we can always return there when we will. And although we were only playing at
paradise, I was not playing at love. I meant all I said, Mollie."
"Have you meant it often?" asked Mollie significantly.
"I never meant it—or even played at it—before," he
answered. "I did—at one time—contemplate the possibility of playing at it.
But that was long ago—as long ago as last night. I am glad to the core of my
soul that I decided against it before I met you, dear Eve. I have the letter of
decision in my coat pocket this moment. I mean to mail it this afternoon."
"'Curiosity knows no gender,'" quoted Mollie.
"Then, to satisfy your curiosity, I must bore you with some
personal history. My parents died when I was a little chap, and my uncle
brought me up. He has been immensely good to me, but he is a bit of a tyrant.
Recently he picked out a wife for me—the daughter of an old sweetheart of his.
I have never even seen her. But she has arrived in town on a visit to some
relatives there. Uncle Dick wrote to me to return home at once and pay my court
to the lady; I protested. He wrote again—a letter, short and the reverse of
sweet. If I refused to do my best to win Miss Mannering he would disown
me—never speak to me again—cut me off with a quarter. Uncle always means what
he says—that is one of our family traits, you understand. I spent some
miserable, undecided days. It was not the threat of disinheritance that worried
me, although when you have been brought up to regard yourself as a prospective
millionaire it is rather difficult to adjust your vision to a pauper focus. But
it was the thought of alienating Uncle Dick. I love the dear, determined old chap
like a father. But last night my guardian angel was with me and I decided to
remain my own man. So I wrote to Uncle Dick, respectfully but firmly declining
to become a candidate for Miss Mannering's hand."
"But you have never seen her," said Mollie. "She
may be—almost—charming."
"'If she be not fair to me, what care I how fair she
be?'" quoted Murray. "As you say, she may be—almost charming; but she
is not Eve. She is merely one of a million other women, as far as I am
concerned. Don't let's talk of her. Let us talk only of ourselves—there is
nothing else that is half so interesting."
"And will your uncle really cast you off?" asked Mollie.
"Not a doubt of it."
"What will you do?"
"Work, dear Eve. My carefully acquired laziness must be
thrown to the winds and I shall work. That is the rule outside of Eden. Don't
worry. I've painted pictures that have actually been sold. I'll make a living
for us somehow."
"Us?"
"Of course. You are engaged to me."
"I am not," said Mollie indignantly.
"Mollie! Mollie! After that kiss! Fie, fie!"
"You are very absurd," said Mollie, "But your
absurdity has been amusing. I have—yes, positively—I have enjoyed your Eden
comedy. But now you must not come any further with me. My aunt might not
approve. Here is my path to Orchard Knob farmhouse. There, I presume, is yours
to Sweetbriar Cottage. Good morning."
"I am coming over to see you this afternoon," said
Murray coolly. "But you needn't be afraid. I will not tell tales out of
Eden. I will be a hypocrite and pretend to Mrs. Palmer that we have never met
before. But you and I will know and remember. Now, you may go. I reserve to
myself the privilege of standing here and watching you out of sight."
000
That afternoon Murray strolled over to
Orchard Knob, going into the kitchen without knocking as was the habit in that
free and easy world. Mrs. Palmer was lying on the lounge with a pungent
handkerchief bound about her head, but keeping a vigilant eye on a very pretty,
very plump brown-eyed girl who was stirring a kettleful of cherry preserve on
the range.
"Good afternoon, Mrs. Palmer," said Murray, wondering
where Mollie was. "I'm sorry to see that you look something like an
invalid."
"I've a raging, ramping headache," said Mrs. Palmer
solemnly. "I had it all night and I'm good for nothing. Mollie, you'd
better take them cherries off. Mr. Murray, this is my niece, Mollie
Booth."
"What?" said Murray explosively.
"Miss Mollie Booth," repeated Mrs. Palmer in a louder
tone.
Murray regained outward self-control and bowed to the blushing
Mollie.
"And what about Eve?" he thought helplessly.
"Who—what was she? Did I dream her? Was she a phantom of delight? No, no,
phantoms don't milk cows. She was flesh and blood. No chilly nymph exhaling
from the mists of the marsh could have given a kiss like that."
"Mollie has come to stay the rest of the summer with
me," said Mrs. Palmer. "I hope to goodness my tribulations with hired
girls is over at last. They have made a wreck of me."
Murray rapidly reflected. This development, he decided, released
him from his promise to tell no tales. "I met a young lady down in the
pond pasture this morning," he said deliberately. "I talked with her
for a few minutes. I supposed her to be your niece. Who was she?"
"Oh, that was Miss Mannering," said Mrs. Palmer.
"What?" said Murray again.
"Mannering—Dora Mannering," said Mrs. Palmer loudly,
wondering if Mr. Murray were losing his hearing. "She came here last night
just to see me. I haven't seen her since she was a child of twelve. I used to
be her nurse before I was married. I was that proud to think she thought it
worth her while to look me up. And, mind you, this morning, when she found me
crippled with headache and not able to do a hand's turn, that girl, Mr. Murray,
went and milked seven cows"—"only four," murmured Murray, but
Mrs. Palmer did not hear him—"for me. Couldn't prevent her. She said she
had learned to milk for fun one summer when she was in the country, and she did
it. And then she got breakfast for the men—Mollie didn't come till the ten
o'clock train. Miss Mannering is as capable as if she had been riz on a
farm."
"Where is she now?" demanded Murray.
"Oh, she's gone."
"What?"
"Gone," shouted Mrs. Palmer, "gone. She left on the
train Mollie come on. Gracious me, has the man gone crazy? He hasn't seemed
like himself at all this afternoon."
Murray had bolted madly out of the house and was striding down the
lane.
Blind fool—unspeakable idiot that he had been! To take her for
Mrs. Palmer's niece—that peerless creature with the calm acceptance of any
situation, which marked the woman of the world, with the fine appreciation and
quickness of repartee that spoke of generations of culture—to imagine that she
could be Mollie Booth! He had been blind, besottedly blind. And now he had lost
her! She would never forgive him; she had gone without a word or sign.
As he reached the last curve of the lane where it looped about the
apple trees, a plump figure came flying down the orchard slope.
"Mr. Murray, Mr. Murray," Mollie Booth called
breathlessly. "Will you please come here just a minute?"
Murray crossed over to the paling rather grumpily. He did not want
to talk with Mollie Booth just then. Confound it, what did the girl want? Why
was she looking so mysterious?
Mollie produced a little square grey envelope from some feminine
hiding place and handed it over the paling.
"She give me this at the station—Miss Mannering did,"
she gasped, "and asked me to give it to you without letting Aunt Emily
Jane see. I couldn't get a chanst when you was in, but as soon as you went I
slipped out by the porch door and followed you. You went so fast I near died
trying to head you off."
"You dear little soul," said Murray, suddenly radiant.
"It is too bad you have had to put yourself so out of breath on my
account. But I am immensely obliged to you. The next time your young man wants
a trusty private messenger just refer him to me."
"Git away with you," giggled Mollie. "I must hurry
back 'fore Aunt Emily Jane gits wind I'm gone. I hope there's good news in your
girl's letter. My, but didn't you look flat when Aunt said she'd went!"
Murray beamed at her idiotically. When she had vanished among the
trees he opened his letter.
"Dear Mr. Murray," it ran, "your unblushing
audacity of the morning deserves some punishment. I hereby punish you by prompt
departure from Orchard Knob. Yet I do not dislike audacity, at some times, in
some places, in some people. It is only from a sense of duty that I punish it
in this case. And it was really pleasant in Eden. If you do not mail that
letter, and if you still persist in your very absurd interpretation of the
meaning of Eve's kiss, we may meet again in town. Until then I remain,
"Very sincerely yours,
"Dora Lynne Mannering."
Murray kissed the grey letter and put it tenderly away in his
pocket. Then he took his letter to his uncle and tore it into tiny fragments.
Finally he looked at his watch.
"If I hurry, I can catch the afternoon train to town,"
he said.
4.Aunt Susanna's Birthday Celebration
Good afternoon, Nora
May. I'm real glad to see you. I've been watching you coming down the hill and
I hoping you'd turn in at our gate. Going to visit with me this afternoon?
That's good. I'm feeling so happy and delighted and I've been hankering for
someone to tell it all to.
Tell you about it? Well, I guess I might as well. It ain't any
breach of confidence.
You didn't know Anne Douglas? She taught school here three years
ago, afore your folks moved over from Talcott. She belonged up Montrose way and
she was only eighteen when she came here to teach. She boarded with us and her
and me were the greatest chums. She was just a sweet girl.
She was the prettiest teacher we ever had, and that's saying a
good deal, for Springdale has always been noted for getting good-looking
schoolmarms, just as Miller's Road is noted for its humly ones.
Anne had yards of brown wavy hair and big, dark
blue eyes. Her face was kind o' pale, but when she smiled you would have to
smile too, if you'd been chief mourner at your own funeral. She was a
well-spring of joy in the house, and we all loved her.
Gilbert Martin began to drive her the very first week she was
here. Gilbert is my sister Julia's son, and a fine young fellow he is. It ain't
good manners to brag of your own relations, but I'm always forgetting and doing
it. Gil was a great pet of mine. He was so bright and nice-mannered everybody
liked him. Him and Anne were a fine-looking couple, Nora May. Not but what they
had their shortcomings. Anne's nose was a mite too long and Gil had a crooked
mouth. Besides, they was both pretty proud and sperrited and high-strung.
But they thought an awful lot of each other. It made me feel young
again to see 'em. Anne wasn't a mossel vain, but nights she expected Gil she'd
prink for hours afore her glass, fixing her hair this way and that, and trying
on all her good clothes to see which become her most. I used to love her for
it. And I used to love to see the way Gil's face would light up when she came
into a room or place where he was. Amanda Perkins, she says to me once,
"Anne Douglas and Gil Martin are most terrible struck on each other."
And she said it in a tone that indicated that it was a dreadful disgraceful and
unbecoming state of affairs. Amanda had a disappointment once and it soured
her. I immediately responded, "Yes, they are most terrible struck on each
other," and I said it in a tone that indicated I thought it a most
beautiful and lovely thing that they should be so.
And so it was. You're rather too young to be thinking of such
things, Nora May, but you'll remember my words when the time comes.
Another nephew of mine, James Ebenezer Lawson—he calls himself
James E. back there in town, and I don't blame him, for I never could stand
Ebenezer for a name myself; but that's neither here nor there. Well, he said
their love was idyllic, I ain't very sure what that means. I looked it up in
the dictionary after James Ebenezer left—I wouldn't display my ignorance afore
him—but I can't say that I was much the wiser for it. Anyway, it meant
something real nice; I was sure of that by the way James Ebenezer spoke and the
wistful look in his eyes. James Ebenezer isn't married; he was to have been,
and she died a month afore the wedding day. He was never the same man again.
Well, to get back to Gilbert and Anne. When Anne's school year
ended in June she resigned and went home to get ready to be married. The
wedding was to be in September, and I promised Anne faithful I'd go over to
Montrose in August for two weeks and help her to get her quilts ready. Anne
thought that nobody could quilt like me. I was as tickled as a girl at the
thought of visiting with Anne for two weeks, but I never went; things happened
before August.
I don't know rightly how the trouble began. Other folks—jealous
folks—made mischief. Anne was thirty miles away and Gilbert couldn't see her
every day to keep matters clear and fair. Besides, as I've said, they were both
proud and high-sperrited. The upshot of it was they had a terrible quarrel and
the engagement was broken.
When two people don't care overly much for each other, Nora May, a
quarrel never amounts to much between them, and it's soon made up. But when
they love each other better than life it cuts so deep and hurts so much that
nine times out of ten they won't ever forgive each other. The more you love
anybody, Nora May, the more he can hurt you. To be sure, you're too young to be
thinking of such things.
It all came like a thunderclap on Gil's friends here at Greendale,
because we hadn't ever suspected things were going wrong. The first thing we
knew was that Anne had gone up west to teach school again at St. Mary's, eighty
miles away, and Gilbert, he went out to Manitoba on a harvest excursion and
stayed there. It just about broke his parents' hearts. He was their only child
and they just worshipped him.
Gil and Anne both wrote to me off and on, but never a word, not so
much as a name, did they say of each other. I'd 'a' writ and asked 'em the
rights of the fuss if I could, in hopes of patching it up, but I can't write
now—my hand is too shaky—and mebbe it was just as well, for meddling is
terribly risky work in a love trouble, Nora May. Ninety-nine times out of a
hundred the last state of a meddler and them she meddles with is worse than the
first.
So I just set tight and said nothing, while everybody else in the
clan was talking Anne and Gil sixty words to the minute.
Well, last birthday morning I was feeling terrible disperrited. I
had made up my mind that my birthday was always to be a good thing for other
people, and there didn't seem one blessed thing I could do to make anybody
glad. Emma Matilda and George and the children were all well and happy and
wanted for nothing that I could give them. I begun to be afraid I'd lived long
enough, Nora May. When a woman gets to the point where she can't give a gift of
joy to anyone, there ain't much use in her living. I felt real old and worn out
and useless.
I was sitting here under these very trees—they was just budding
out in leaf then, as young and cheerful as if they wasn't a hundred years old.
And I sighed right out loud and said, "Oh, Grandpa Holland, it's time I
was put away up on the hill there with you." And with that the gate banged
and there was Nancy Jane Whitmore's boy, Sam, with two letters for me.
One was from Anne up at St. Mary's and the other was from Gil out
in Manitoba.
I read Anne's first. She just struck right into things in the
first paragraph. She said her year at St. Mary's was nearly up, and when it was
she meant to quit teaching and go away to New York and learn to be a trained
nurse. She said she was just broken-hearted about Gilbert, and would always
love him to the day of her death. But she knew he didn't care anything more
about her after the way he had acted, and there was nothing left for her in
life but to do something for other people, and so on and so on, for twelve
mortal pages. Anne is a fine writer, and I just cried like a babe over that
letter, it was so touching, although I was enjoying myself hugely all the time,
I was so delighted to find out that Anne loved Gilbert still. I was getting
skeered she didn't, her letters all winter had been so kind of jokey and
frivolous, all about the good times she was having, and the parties she went
to, and the new dresses she got. New dresses! When I read that letter of
Anne's, I knew that all the purple and fine linen in the world was just like so
much sackcloth and ashes to her as long as Gilbert was sulking out on a prairie
farm.
Well, I wiped my eyes and polished up my specs, but I might have
spared myself the trouble, for in five minutes, Nora May, there was I sobbing again;
over Gilbert's letter. By the most curious coincidence he had opened his heart
to me too. Being a man, he wasn't so discursive as Anne; he said his say in
four pages, but I could read the heartache between the lines. He wrote that he
was going to Klondike and would start in a month's time. He was sick of living
now that he'd lost Anne. He said he loved her better than his life and always
would, and could never forget her, but he knew she didn't care anything about
him now after the way she'd acted, and he wanted to get as far away from her
and the torturing thought of her as he could. So he was going to Klondike—going
to Klondike, Nora May, when his mother was writing to him to come home every
week and Anne was breaking her heart for him at St. Mary's.
Well, I folded up them letters and, says I, "Grandpa Holland,
I guess my birthday celebration is here ready to hand." I thought real
hard. I couldn't write myself to explain to those two people that they each
thought the world of each other still—my hands are too stiff; and I couldn't
get anyone else to write because I couldn't let out what they'd told me in
confidence. So I did a mean, dishonourable thing, Nora May. I sent Anne's
letter to Gilbert and Gilbert's to Anne. I asked Emma Matilda to address them,
and Emma Matilda did it and asked no questions. I brought her up that way.
Then I settled down to wait. In less than a month Gilbert's mother
had a letter from him saying that he was coming home to settle down and marry
Anne. He arrived home yesterday and last night Anne came to Springdale on her
way home from St. Mary's. They came to see me this morning and said things to
me I ain't going to repeat because they would sound fearful vain. They were so
happy that they made me feel as if it was a good thing to have lived eighty
years in a world where folks could be so happy. They said their new joy was my
birthday gift to them. The wedding is to be in September and I'm going to
Montrose in August to help Anne with her quilts. I don't think anything will happen
to prevent this time—no quarrelling, anyhow. Those two young creatures have
learned their lesson. You'd better take it to heart too, Nora May. It's less
trouble to learn it at second hand. Don't you ever quarrel with your real
beau—it don't matter about the sham ones, of course. Don't take offence at
trifles or listen to what other people tell you about him—outsiders, that is,
that want to make mischief. What you think about him is of more importance than
what they do. To be sure, you're too young yet to be thinking of such things at
all. But just mind what old Aunt Susanna told you when your time comes.
He stood on the sagging
doorstep and looked out on the snowy world. His hands were clasped behind him,
and his thin face wore a thoughtful, puzzled look. The door behind him opened
jerkingly, and a scowling woman came out with a pan of dishwater in her hand.
"Ain't you gone yet, Bert?" she said sharply. "What
in the world are you hanging round for?"
"It's early yet," said Bertie cheerfully. "I
thought maybe George Fraser'd be along and I'd get a lift as far as the
store."
"Well, I never saw such laziness! No wonder old Sampson won't
keep you longer than the holidays if you're no smarter than that. Goodness, if
I don't settle that boy!"—as the sound of fretful crying came from the
kitchen behind her.
"What is wrong with William John?" asked Bertie.
"Why, he wants to go out coasting with those Robinson boys,
but he can't. He hasn't got any mittens and he would catch his death of cold
again."
Her voice seemed to imply that William John had died of cold
several times already.
Bertie looked soberly down at his old, well-darned mittens. It was
very cold, and he would have a great many errands to run. He shivered, and
looked up at his aunt's hard face as she stood wiping her dish-pan with a grim
frown which boded no good to the discontented William John. Then he suddenly
pulled off his mittens and held them out.
"Here—he can have mine. I'll get on without them well
enough."
"Nonsense!" said Mrs. Ross, but less unkindly. "The
fingers would freeze off you. Don't be a goose."
"It's all right," persisted Bertie. "I don't need
them—much. And William John doesn't hardly ever get out."
He thrust them into her hand and ran quickly down the street, as
though he feared that the keen air might make him change his mind in spite of
himself. He had to stop a great many times that day to breathe on his purple
hands. Still, he did not regret having lent his mittens to William John—poor,
pale, sickly little William John, who had so few pleasures.
It was sunset when Bertie laid an armful of parcels down on the
steps of Doctor Forbes's handsome house. His back was turned towards the big
bay window at one side, and he was busy trying to warm his hands, so he did not
see the two small faces looking at him through the frosty panes.
"Just look at that poor little boy, Amy," said the
taller of the two. "He is almost frozen, I believe. Why doesn't Caroline
hurry and open the door?"
"There she goes now," said Amy. "Edie, couldn't we
coax her to let him come in and get warm? He looks so cold." And she drew
her sister out into the hall, where the housekeeper was taking Bertie's
parcels.
"Caroline," whispered Edith timidly, "please tell
that poor little fellow to come in and get warm—he looks very cold."
"He's used to the cold, I warrant you," said the
housekeeper rather impatiently. "It won't hurt him."
"But it is Christmas week," said Edith gravely,
"and you know, Caroline, when Mamma was here she used to say that we ought
to be particularly thoughtful of others who were not so happy or well-off as we
were at this time."
Perhaps Edith's reference to her mother softened Caroline, for she
turned to Bertie and said cordially enough, "Come in, and warm yourself
before you go. It's a cold day."
Bertie shyly followed her to the kitchen.
"Sit up to the fire," said Caroline, placing a chair for
him, while Edith and Amy came round to the other side of the stove and watched
him with friendly interest.
"What's your name?" asked Caroline.
"Robert Ross, ma'am."
"Oh, you're Mrs. Ross's nephew then," said Caroline,
breaking eggs into her cake-bowl, and whisking them deftly round. "And
you're Sampson's errand boy just now? My goodness," as the boy spread his
blue hands over the fire, "where are your mittens, child? You're never out
without mittens a day like this!"
"I lent them to William John—he hadn't any," faltered
Bertie. He did not know but that the lady might consider it a grave crime to be
mittenless.
"No mittens!" exclaimed Amy in dismay. "Why, I have
three pairs. And who is William John?"
"He is my cousin," said Bertie. "And he's awful
sickly. He wanted to go out to play, and he hadn't any mittens, so I lent him
mine. I didn't miss them—much."
"What kind of a Christmas did you have?"
"We didn't have any."
"No Christmas!" said Amy, quite overcome. "Oh,
well, I suppose you are going to have a good time on New Year's instead."
Bertie shook his head.
"No'm, I guess not. We never have it different from other
times."
Amy was silent from sheer amazement. Edith understood better, and
she changed the subject.
"Have you any brothers or sisters, Bertie?"
"No'm," returned Bertie cheerfully. "I guess
there's enough of us without that. I must be going now. I'm very much obliged
to you."
Edith slipped from the room as he spoke, and met him again at the
door. She held out a pair of warm-looking mittens.
"These are for William John," she said simply, "so
that you can have your own. They are a pair of mine which are too big for me. I
know Papa will say it is all right. Goodbye, Bertie."
"Goodbye—and thank you," stammered Bertie, as the door
closed. Then he hastened home to William John.
That evening Doctor Forbes noticed a peculiarly thoughtful look on
Edith's face as she sat gazing into the glowing coal fire after dinner. He laid
his hand on her dark curls inquiringly.
"What are you musing over?"
"There was a little boy here today," began Edith.
"Oh, such a dear little boy," broke in Amy eagerly from
the corner, where she was playing with her kitten. "His name was Bertie
Ross. He brought up the parcels, and we asked him in to get warm. He had no
mittens, and his hands were almost frozen. And, oh, Papa, just think!—he said
he never had any Christmas or New Year at all."
"Poor little fellow!" said the doctor. "I've heard
of him; a pretty hard time he has of it, I think."
"He was so pretty, Papa. And Edie gave him her blue mittens
for William John."
"The plot deepens. Who is William John?"
"Oh, a cousin or something, didn't he say Edie? Anyway, he is
sick, and he wanted to go coasting, and Bertie gave him his mittens. And I
suppose he never had any Christmas either."
"There are plenty who haven't," said the doctor, taking
up his paper with a sigh. "Well, girlies, you seem interested in this
little fellow so, if you like, you may invite him and his cousin to take dinner
with you on New Year's night."
"Oh, Papa!" said Edith, her eyes shining like stars.
The doctor laughed. "Write him a nice little note of
invitation—you are the lady of the house, you know—and I'll see that he gets it
tomorrow."
And this was how it came to pass that Bertie received the next day
his first invitation to dine out. He read the little note through three times
in order fully to take in its contents, and then went around the rest of the
day in deep abstraction as though he was trying to decide some very important
question. It was with the same expression that he opened the door at home in
the evening. His aunt was stirring some oatmeal mush on the stove.
"Is that you, Bert?" She spoke sharply. She always spoke
sharply, even when not intending it; it had grown to be a habit.
"Yes'm," said Bertie meekly, as he hung up his cap.
"I s'pose you've only got one day more at the store,"
said Mrs. Ross. "Sampson didn't say anything about keeping you longer, did
he?"
"No. He said he couldn't—I asked him."
"Well, I didn't expect he would. You'll have a holiday on New
Year's anyhow; whether you'll have anything to eat or not is a different
question."
"I've an invitation to dinner," said Bertie timidly,
"me and William John. It's from Doctor Forbes's little girls—the ones that
gave me the mittens."
He handed her the little note, and Mrs. Ross stooped down and read
it by the fitful gleam of light which came from the cracked stove.
"Well, you can please yourself," she said as she handed
it back, "but William John couldn't go if he had ten invitations. He
caught cold coasting yesterday. I told him he would, but he was bound to go,
and now he's laid up for a week. Listen to him barking in the bedroom
there."
"Well, then, I won't go either," said Bertie with a
sigh, it might be of relief, or it might be of disappointment. "I wouldn't
go there all alone."
"You're a goose!" said his aunt. "They wouldn't eat
you. But as I said, please yourself. Anyhow, hold your tongue about it to
William John, or you'll have him crying and bawling to go too."
The caution came too late. William John had already heard it, and
when his mother went in to rub his chest with liniment, she found him with the
ragged quilt over his head crying.
"Come, William John, I want to rub you."
"I don't want to be rubbed—g'way," sobbed William John.
"I heard you out there—you needn't think I didn't. Bertie's going to Doctor
Forbes's to dinner and I can't go."
"Well, you've only yourself to thank for it," returned
his mother. "If you hadn't persisted in going out coasting yesterday when
I wanted you to stay in, you'd have been able to go to Doctor Forbes's. Little
boys who won't do as they're told always get into trouble. Stop crying, now. I
dare say if Bertie goes they'll send you some candy, or something."
But William John refused to be comforted. He cried himself to
sleep that night, and when Bertie went in to see him next morning, he found him
sitting up in bed with his eyes red and swollen and the faded quilt drawn up
around his pinched face.
"Well, William John, how are you?"
"I ain't any better," replied William John mournfully.
"I s'pose you'll have a great time tomorrow night, Bertie?"
"Oh, I'm not going since you can't," said Bertie
cheerily. He thought this would comfort William John, but it had exactly the
opposite effect. William John had cried until he could cry no more, but he
turned around and sobbed.
"There now!" he said in tearless despair. "That's
just what I expected. I did s'pose if I couldn't go you would, and tell me
about it. You're mean as mean can be."
"Come now, William John, don't be so cross. I thought you'd
rather have me home, but I'll go, if you want me to."
"Honest, now?"
"Yes, honest. I'll go anywhere to please you. I must be off
to the store now. Goodbye."
Thus committed, Bertie took his courage in both hands and went.
The next evening at dusk found him standing at Doctor Forbes's door with a very
violently beating heart. He was carefully dressed in his well-worn best suit
and a neat white collar. The frosty air had crimsoned his cheeks and his hair
was curling round his face.
Caroline opened the door and showed him into the parlour, where Edith
and Amy were eagerly awaiting him.
"Happy New Year, Bertie," cried Amy. "And—but, why,
where is William John?"
"He couldn't come," answered Bertie anxiously—he was
afraid he might not be welcome without William John. "He's real sick. He
caught cold and has to stay in bed; but he wanted to come awful bad."
"Oh, dear me! Poor William John!" said Amy in a
disappointed tone. But all further remarks were cut short by the entrance of
Doctor Forbes.
"How do you do?" he said, giving Bertie's hand a hearty
shake. "But where is the other little fellow my girls were
expecting?"
Bertie patiently reaccounted for William John's non-appearance.
"It's a bad time for colds," said the doctor, sitting
down and attacking the fire. "I dare say, though, you have to run so fast
these days that a cold couldn't catch you. I suppose you'll soon be leaving
Sampson's. He told me he didn't need you after the holiday season was over.
What are you going at next? Have you anything in view?"
Bertie shook his head sorrowfully.
"No, sir; but," he added more cheerfully, "I guess
I'll find something if I hunt around lively. I almost always do."
He forgot his shyness; his face flushed hopefully, and he looked
straight at the doctor with his bright, earnest eyes. The doctor poked the fire
energetically and looked very wise. But just then the girls came up and carried
Bertie off to display their holiday gifts. And there was a fur cap and a pair
of mittens for him! He wondered whether he was dreaming.
"And here's a picture-book for William John," said Amy,
"and there is a sled out in the kitchen for him. Oh, there's the
dinner-bell. I'm awfully hungry. Papa says that is my 'normal condition,' but I
don't know what that means."
As for that dinner—Bertie might sometimes have seen such a repast
in delightful dreams, but certainly never out of them. It was a feast to be
dated from.
When the plum pudding came on, the doctor, who had been notably
silent, leaned back in his chair, placed his finger-tips together, and looked
critically at Bertie.
"So Mr. Sampson can't keep you?"
Bertie's face sobered at once. He had almost forgotten his
responsibilities.
"No, sir. He says I'm too small for the heavy work."
"Well, you are rather small—but no doubt you will grow. Boys
have a queer habit of doing that. I think you know how to make yourself useful.
I need a boy here to run errands and look after my horse. If you like, I'll try
you. You can live here, and go to school. I sometimes hear of places for boys
in my rounds, and the first good one that will suit you, I'll bespeak for you.
How will that do?"
"Oh, sir, you are too good," said Bertie with a choke in
his voice.
"Well, that is settled," said the doctor genially.
"Come on Monday then. And perhaps we can do something for that other
little chap, William, or John, or whatever his name is. Will you have some more
pudding, Bertie?"
"No, thank you," said Bertie. Pudding, indeed! He could
not have eaten another mouthful after such wonderful and unexpected good
fortune.
After dinner they played games, and cracked nuts, and roasted
apples, until the clock struck nine; then Bertie got up to go.
"Off, are you?" said the doctor, looking up from his
paper. "Well, I'll expect you on Monday, remember."
"Yes, sir," said Bertie happily. He was not likely to
forget.
As he went out Amy came through the hall with a red sled.
"Here is William John's present. I've tied all the other
things on so that they can't fall off."
Edith was at the door-with a parcel. "Here are some nuts and
candies for William John," she said. "And tell him we all wish him a
'Happy New Year.'"
"Thank you," said Bertie. "I've had a splendid
time. I'll tell William John. Goodnight."
He stepped out. It was frostier than ever. The snow crackled and
snapped, the stars were keen and bright, but to Bertie, running down the street
with William John's sled thumping merrily behind him, the world was aglow with
rosy hope and promise. He was quite sure he could never forget this wonderful
New Year.
6.Between the Hill and
the Valley
It was one of the moist,
pleasantly odorous nights of early spring. There was a chill in the evening
air, but the grass was growing green in sheltered spots, and Jeffrey Miller had
found purple-petalled violets and pink arbutus on the hill that day. Across a
valley filled with beech and fir, there was a sunset afterglow, creamy yellow
and pale red, with a new moon swung above it. It was a night for a man to walk
alone and dream of his love, which was perhaps why Jeffrey Miller came so
loiteringly across the springy hill pasture, with his hands full of the
mayflowers.
He was a tall, broad-shouldered man of forty, and looking no
younger, with dark grey eyes and a tanned, clean-cut face, clean-shaven save
for a drooping moustache. Jeffrey Miller was considered a handsome man, and
Bayside people had periodical fits of wondering why he had never married. They
pitied him for the lonely life he must lead alone there at the Valley Farm,
with only a deaf old housekeeper as a companion, for it did not occur to the
Bayside people in general that a couple of shaggy dogs could be called
companions, and they did not know that books make very excellent comrades for
people who know how to treat them.
One of Jeffrey's dogs was with him now—the oldest one, with white
breast and paws and a tawny coat. He was so old that he was half-blind and
rather deaf, but, with one exception, he was the dearest of living creatures to
Jeffrey Miller, for Sara Stuart had given him the sprawly, chubby little pup
years ago.
They came down the hill together. A group of men were standing on
the bridge in the hollow, discussing Colonel Stuart's funeral of the day
before. Jeffrey caught Sara's name and paused on the outskirts of the group to
listen. Sometimes he thought that if he were lying dead under six feet of turf
and Sara Stuart's name were pronounced above him, his heart would give a bound
of life.
"Yes, the old kunnel's gone at last," Christopher
Jackson was saying. "He took his time dyin', that's sartain. Must be a
kind of relief for Sara—she's had to wait on him, hand and foot, for years. But
no doubt she'll feel pretty lonesome. Wonder what she'll do?"
"Is there any particular reason for her to do anything?"
asked Alec Churchill.
"Well, she'll have to leave Pinehurst. The estate's entailed
and goes to her cousin, Charles Stuart."
There were exclamations of surprise from the other men on hearing
this. Jeffrey drew nearer, absently patting his dog's head. He had not known it
either.
"Oh, yes," said Christopher, enjoying all the importance
of exclusive information. "I thought everybody knew that. Pinehurst goes
to the oldest male heir. The old kunnel felt it keen that he hadn't a son. Of
course, there's plenty of money and Sara'll get that. But I guess she'll feel
pretty bad at leaving her old home. Sara ain't as young as she used to be,
neither. Let me see—she must be thirty-eight. Well, she's left pretty
lonesome."
"Maybe she'll stay on at Pinehurst," said Job Crowe.
"It'd only be right for her cousin to give her a home there."
Christopher shook his head.
"No, I understand they're not on very good terms. Sara don't
like Charles Stuart or his wife—and I don't blame her. She won't stay there,
not likely. Probably she'll go and live in town. Strange she never married. She
was reckoned handsome, and had plenty of beaus at one time."
Jeffrey swung out of the group and started homeward with his dog.
To stand by and hear Sara Stuart discussed after this fashion was more than he
could endure. The men idly watched his tall, erect figure as he went along the
valley.
"Queer chap, Jeff," said Alec Churchill reflectively.
"Jeff's all right," said Christopher in a patronizing
way. "There ain't a better man or neighbour alive. I've lived next farm to
him for thirty years, so I ought to know. But he's queer sartainly—not like
other people—kind of unsociable. He don't care for a thing 'cept dogs and
reading and mooning round woods and fields. That ain't natural, you know. But I
must say he's a good farmer. He's got the best farm in Bayside, and that's a
real nice house he put up on it. Ain't it an odd thing he never married? Never
seemed to have no notion of it. I can't recollect of Jeff Miller's ever
courting anybody. That's another unnatural thing about him."
"I've always thought that Jeff thought himself a cut or two
above the rest of us," said Tom Scovel with a sneer. "Maybe he thinks
the Bayside girls ain't good enough for him."
"There ain't no such dirty pride about Jeff," pronounced
Christopher conclusively. "And the Millers are the best
family hereabouts, leaving the kunnel's out. And Jeff's well off—nobody knows
how well, I reckon, but I can guess, being his land neighbour. Jeff ain't no
fool nor loafer, if he is a bit queer."
Meanwhile, the object of these remarks was striding homeward and
thinking, not of the men behind him, but of Sara Stuart. He must go to her at
once. He had not intruded on her since her father's death, thinking her sorrow
too great for him to meddle with. But this was different. Perhaps she needed
the advice or assistance only he could give. To whom else in Bayside could she
turn for it but to him, her old friend? Was it possible that she must leave
Pinehurst? The thought struck cold dismay to his soul. How could he bear his
life if she went away?
He had loved Sara Stuart from childhood. He remembered vividly the
day he had first seen her—a spring day, much like this one had been; he, a boy
of eight, had gone with his father to the big, sunshiny hill field and he had
searched for birds' nests in the little fir copses along the crest while his
father plowed. He had so come upon her, sitting on the fence under the pines at
the back of Pinehurst—a child of six in a dress of purple cloth. Her long,
light brown curls fell over her shoulders and rippled sleekly back from her
calm little brow; her eyes were large and greyish blue, straight-gazing and
steadfast. To the end of his life the boy was to carry in his heart the picture
she made there under the pines.
"Little boy," she had said, with a friendly smile,
"will you show me where the mayflowers grow?"
Shyly enough he had assented, and they set out together for the
barrens beyond the field, where the arbutus trailed its stars of sweetness
under the dusty dead grasses and withered leaves of the old year. The boy was
thrilled with delight. She was a fairy queen who thus graciously smiled on him
and chattered blithely as they searched for mayflowers in the fresh spring
sunshine. He thought it a wonderful thing that it had so chanced. It overjoyed
him to give the choicest dusters he found into her slim, waxen little fingers,
and watch her eyes grow round with pleasure in them. When the sun began to
lower over the beeches she had gone home with her arms full of arbutus, but she
had turned at the edge of the pineland and waved her hand at him.
That night, when he told his mother of the little girl he had met
on the hill, she had hoped anxiously that he had been "very polite,"
for the little girl was a daughter of Colonel Stuart, newly come to Pinehurst.
Jeffrey, reflecting, had not been certain that he had been polite; "But I
am sure she liked me," he said gravely.
A few days later a message came from Mrs. Stuart on the hill to
Mrs. Miller in the valley. Would she let her little boy go up now and then to
play with Sara? Sara was very lonely because she had no playmates. So Jeff,
overjoyed, had gone to his divinity's very home, where the two children played
together many a day. All through their childhood they had been fast friends.
Sara's parents placed no bar to their intimacy. They had soon concluded that
little Jeff Miller was a very good playmate for Sara. He was gentle,
well-behaved, and manly.
Sara never went to the district school which Jeff attended; she
had her governess at home. With no other boy or girl in Bayside did she form
any friendship, but her loyalty to Jeff never wavered. As for Jeff, he
worshipped her and would have done anything she commanded. He belonged to her
from the day they had hunted arbutus on the hill.
When Sara was fifteen she had gone away to school. Jeff had missed
her sorely. For four years he saw her only in the summers, and each year she
had seemed taller, statelier, further from him. When she graduated her father
took her abroad for two years; then she came home, a lovely, high-bred girl,
dimpling on the threshold of womanhood; and Jeffrey Miller was face to face
with two bitter facts. One was that he loved her—not with the boy-and-girl love
of long ago, but with the love of a man for the one woman in the world; and the
other was that she was as far beyond his reach as one of those sunset stars of
which she had always reminded him in her pure, clear-shining loveliness.
He looked these facts unflinchingly in the face until he had grown
used to them, and then he laid down his course for himself. He loved Sara—and
he did not wish to conquer his love, even if it had been possible. It were
better to love her, whom he could never win, than to love and be loved by any
other woman. His great office in life was to be her friend, humble and
unexpectant; to be at hand if she should need him for ever so trifling a
service; never to presume, always to be faithful.
Sara had not forgotten her old friend. But their former
comradeship was now impossible; they could be friends, but never again companions.
Sara's life was full and gay; she had interests in which he had no share; her
social world was utterly apart from his; she was of the hill and its
traditions, he was of the valley and its people. The democracy of childhood
past, there was no common ground on which they might meet. Only one thing
Jeffrey had found it impossible to contemplate calmly. Some day Sara would
marry—a man who was her equal, who sat at her father's table as a guest. In
spite of himself, Jeffrey's heart filled with hot rebellion at the thought; it
was like a desecration and a robbery.
But, as the years went by, this thing he dreaded did not happen.
Sara did not marry, although gossip assigned her many suitors not unworthy of
her. She and Jeffrey were always friends, although they met but seldom.
Sometimes she sent him a book; it was his custom to search for the earliest
mayflowers and take them to her; once in a long while they met and talked of
many things. Jeffrey's calendar from year to year was red-lettered by these small
happenings, of which nobody knew, or, knowing, would have cared.
So he and Sara drifted out of youth, together yet apart. Her
mother had died, and Sara was the gracious, stately mistress of Pinehurst,
which grew quieter as the time went on; the lovers ceased to come, and holiday
friends grew few; with the old colonel's failing health the gaieties and lavish
entertaining ceased. Jeffrey thought that Sara must often be lonely, but she
never said so; she remained sweet, serene, calm-eyed, like the child he had met
on the hill. Only, now and then, Jeffrey fancied he saw a shadow on her face—a
shadow so faint and fleeting that only the eye of an unselfish, abiding love,
made clear-sighted by patient years, could have seen it. It hurt him, that
shadow; he would have given anything in his power to have banished it.
And now this long friendship was to be broken. Sara was going
away. At first he had thought only of her pain, but now his own filled his
heart. How could he live without her? How could he dwell in the valley knowing
that she had gone from the hill? Never to see her light shine down on him
through the northern gap in the pines at night! Never to feel that perhaps her
eyes rested on him now and then as he went about his work in the valley fields!
Never to stoop with a glad thrill over the first spring flowers because it was
his privilege to take them to her! Jeffrey groaned aloud. No, he could not go
up to see her that night; he must wait—he must strengthen himself.
Then his heart rebuked him. This was selfishness; this was putting
his own feelings before hers—a thing he had sworn never to do. Perhaps she
needed him—perhaps she had wondered why he had not come to offer her such poor
service as might be in his power. He turned and went down through the orchard
lane, taking the old field-path across the valley and up the hill, which he had
traversed so often and so joyfully in boyhood. It was dark now, and a few stars
were shining in the silvery sky. The wind sighed among the pines as he walked
under them. Sometimes he felt that he must turn back—that his pain was going to
master him; then he forced himself to go on.
The old grey house where Sara lived seemed bleak and stricken in
the dull light, with its leafless vines clinging to it. There were no lights in
it. It looked like a home left soulless.
Jeffrey went around to the garden door and knocked. He had
expected the maid to open it, put Sara herself came.
"Why, Jeff," she said, with pleasure in her tones.
"I am so glad to see you. I have been wondering why you had not come
before."
"I did not think you would want to see me yet," he said
hurriedly. "I have thought about you every hour—but I feared to
intrude."
"You couldn't intrude," she said gently.
"Yes, I have wanted to see you, Jeff. Come into the library."
He followed her into the room where they had always sat in his
rare calls. Sara lighted the lamp on the table. As the light shot up she stood
clearly revealed in it—a tall, slender woman in a trailing gown of grey. Even a
stranger, not knowing her age, would have guessed it to be what it was, yet it
would have been hard to say what gave the impression of maturity. Her face was
quite unlined—a little pale, perhaps, with more finely cut outlines than those
of youth. Her eyes were clear and bright; her abundant brown hair waved back
from her face in the same curves that Jeffrey had noted in the purple-gowned
child of six, under the pines. Perhaps it was the fine patience and serenity in
her face that told her tale of years. Youth can never acquire it.
Her eyes brightened when she saw the mayflowers he carried. She
came and took them from him, and her hands touched his, sending a little thrill
of joy through him.
"How lovely they are! And the first I have seen this spring.
You always bring me the first, don't you, Jeff? Do you remember the first day
we spent picking mayflowers together?"
Jeff smiled. Could he forget? But something held him back from
speech.
Sara put the flowers in a vase on the table, but slipped one
starry pink cluster into the lace on her breast. She came and sat down beside
Jeffrey; he saw that her beautiful eyes had been weeping, and that there were
lines of pain around her lips. Some impulse that would not be denied made him
lean over and take her hand. She left it unresistingly in his clasp.
"I am very lonely now, Jeff," she said sadly.
"Father has gone. I have no friends left."
"You have me," said Jeffrey quietly.
"Yes. I shouldn't have said that. You are my friend, I know,
Jeff. But, but—I must leave Pinehurst, you know."
"I learned that tonight for the first time," he
answered.
"Did you ever come to a place where everything seemed
ended—where it seemed that there was nothing—simply nothing—left, Jeff?"
she said wistfully. "But, no, it couldn't seem so to a man. Only a woman
could fully understand what I mean. That is how I feel now. While I had Father
to live for it wasn't so hard. But now there is nothing. And I must go
away."
"Is there anything I can do?" muttered Jeffrey
miserably. He knew now that he had made a mistake in coming tonight; he could
not help her. His own pain had unmanned him. Presently he would say something
foolish or selfish in spite of himself.
Sara turned her eyes on him.
"There is nothing anybody can do, Jeff," she said
piteously. Her eyes, those clear child-eyes, filled with tears. "I shall
be braver—stronger—after a while. But just now I have no strength left. I feel
like a lost, helpless child. Oh, Jeff!"
She put her slender hands over her face and sobbed. Every sob cut
Jeffrey to the heart.
"Don't—don't, Sara," he said huskily. "I can't bear
to see you suffer so. I'd die for you if it would do you any good. I love you—I
love you! I never meant to tell you so, but it is the truth. I oughtn't to tell
you now. Don't think that I'm trying to take any advantage of your loneliness
and sorrow. I know—I have always known—that you are far above me. But that
couldn't prevent my loving you—just humbly loving you, asking nothing else. You
may be angry with my presumption, but I can't help telling you that I love you.
That's all. I just want you to know it."
Sara had turned away her head. Jeffrey was overcome with
contrition. Ah, he had no business to speak so—he had spoiled the devotion of
years. Who was he that he should have dared to love her? Silence alone had
justified his love, and now he had lost that justification. She would despise
him. He had forfeited her friendship for ever.
"Are you angry, Sara?" he questioned sadly, after a
silence.
"I think I am," said Sara. She kept her stately head
averted. "If—if you have loved me, Jeff, why did you never tell me so
before?"
"How could I dare?" he said gravely. "I knew I
could never win you—that I had no right to dream of you so. Oh, Sara, don't be
angry! My love has been reverent and humble. I have asked nothing. I ask
nothing now but your friendship. Don't take that from me, Sara. Don't be angry
with me."
"I am angry," repeated Sara, "and
I think I have a right to be."
"Perhaps so," he said simply, "but not because I
have loved you. Such love as mine ought to anger no woman, Sara. But you have a
right to be angry with me for presuming to put it into words. I should not have
done so—but I could not help it. It rushed to my lips in spite of me. Forgive
me."
"I don't know whether I can forgive you for not telling me
before," said Sara steadily. "That is what I have to
forgive—not your speaking at last, even if it was dragged from you against your
will. Did you think I would make you such a very poor wife, Jeff, that you
would not ask me to marry you?"
"Sara!" he said, aghast. "I—I—you were as far above
me as a star in the sky—I never dreamed—I never hoped——"
"That I could care for you?" said Sara, looking round at
last. "Then you were more modest than a man ought to be, Jeff. I did not
know that you loved me, or I should have found some way to make you speak out
long ago. I should not have let you waste all these years. I've loved you—ever
since we picked mayflowers on the hill, I think—ever since I came home from
school, I know. I never cared for anyone else—although I tried to, when I thought
you didn't care for me. It mattered nothing to me that the world may have
thought there was some social difference between us. There, Jeff, you cannot
accuse me of not making my meaning plain."
"Sara," he whispered, wondering, bewildered, half-afraid
to believe this unbelievable joy. "I'm not half worthy of
you—but—but"—he bent forward and put his arm around her, looking straight
into her clear, unshrinking eyes. "Sara, will you be my wife?"
"Yes." She said the word clearly and truly. "And I
will think myself a proud and happy and honoured woman to be so, Jeff. Oh, I
don't shrink from telling you the truth, you see. You mean too much to me for
me to dissemble it. I've hidden it for eighteen years because I didn't think
you wanted to hear it, but I'll give myself the delight of saying it frankly
now."
She lifted her delicate, high-bred face, fearless love shining in
every lineament, to his, and they exchanged their first kiss.
7.Clorinda's Gifts
"It is a dreadful
thing to be poor a fortnight before Christmas," said Clorinda, with the
mournful sigh of seventeen years.
Aunt Emmy smiled. Aunt Emmy was sixty, and spent the hours she
didn't spend in a bed, on a sofa or in a wheel chair; but Aunt Emmy was never
heard to sigh.
"I suppose it is worse then than at any other time," she
admitted.
That was one of the nice things about Aunt Emmy. She always
sympathized and understood.
"I'm worse than poor this Christmas ... I'm stony
broke," said Clorinda dolefully. "My spell of fever in the summer and
the consequent doctor's bills have cleaned out my coffers completely. Not a
single Christmas present can I give. And I did so want to give some little
thing to each of my dearest people. But I simply can't afford it ... that's the
hateful, ugly truth."
Clorinda sighed again.
"The gifts which money can purchase are not the only ones we
can give," said Aunt Emmy gently, "nor the best, either."
"Oh, I know it's nicer to give something of your own
work," agreed Clorinda, "but materials for fancy work cost too. That
kind of gift is just as much out of the question for me as any other."
"That was not what I meant," said Aunt Emmy.
"What did you mean, then?" asked Clorinda, looking puzzled.
Aunt Emmy smiled.
"Suppose you think out my meaning for yourself," she
said. "That would be better than if I explained it. Besides, I don't think
I could explain it. Take the beautiful line of a beautiful
poem to help you in your thinking out: 'The gift without the giver is
bare.'"
"I'd put it the other way and say, 'The giver without the
gift is bare,'" said Clorinda, with a grimace. "That is my
predicament exactly. Well, I hope by next Christmas I'll not be quite bankrupt.
I'm going into Mr. Callender's store down at Murraybridge in February. He has
offered me the place, you know."
"Won't your aunt miss you terribly?" said Aunt Emmy
gravely.
Clorinda flushed. There was a note in Aunt Emmy's voice that
disturbed her.
"Oh, yes, I suppose she will," she answered hurriedly.
"But she'll get used to it very soon. And I will be home every Saturday
night, you know. I'm dreadfully tired of being poor, Aunt Emmy, and now that I
have a chance to earn something for myself I mean to take it. I can help Aunt Mary,
too. I'm to get four dollars a week."
"I think she would rather have your companionship than a part
of your salary, Clorinda," said Aunt Emmy. "But of course you must
decide for yourself, dear. It is hard to be poor. I know it. I am poor."
"You poor!" said Clorinda, kissing her. "Why, you
are the richest woman I know, Aunt Emmy—rich in love and goodness and
contentment."
"And so are you, dearie ... rich in youth and health and
happiness and ambition. Aren't they all worth while?"
"Of course they are," laughed Clorinda. "Only,
unfortunately, Christmas gifts can't be coined out of them."
"Did you ever try?" asked Aunt Emmy. "Think out
that question, too, in your thinking out, Clorinda."
"Well, I must say bye-bye and run home. I feel cheered up—you
always cheer people up, Aunt Emmy. How grey it is outdoors. I do hope we'll
have snow soon. Wouldn't it be jolly to have a white Christmas? We always have
such faded brown Decembers."
Clorinda lived just across the road from Aunt Emmy in a tiny white
house behind some huge willows. But Aunt Mary lived there too—the only relative
Clorinda had, for Aunt Emmy wasn't really her aunt at all. Clorinda had always
lived with Aunt Mary ever since she could remember.
Clorinda went home and upstairs to her little room under the eaves,
where the great bare willow boughs were branching athwart her windows. She was
thinking over what Aunt Emmy had said about Christmas gifts and giving.
"I'm sure I don't know what she could have meant,"
pondered Clorinda. "I do wish I could find out if it would help me any.
I'd love to remember a few of my friends at least. There's Miss Mitchell ...
she's been so good to me all this year and helped me so much with my studies.
And there's Mrs. Martin out in Manitoba. If I could only send her something! She
must be so lonely out there. And Aunt Emmy herself, of course; and poor old
Aunt Kitty down the lane; and Aunt Mary and, yes—Florence too, although she did
treat me so meanly. I shall never feel the same to her again. But she gave me a
present last Christmas, and so out of mere politeness I ought to give her
something."
Clorinda stopped short suddenly. She had just remembered that she
would not have liked to say that last sentence to Aunt Emmy. Therefore, there
was something wrong about it. Clorinda had long ago learned that there was sure
to be something wrong in anything that could not be said to Aunt Emmy. So she
stopped to think it over.
Clorinda puzzled over Aunt Emmy's meaning for four days and part
of three nights. Then all at once it came to her. Or if it wasn't Aunt Emmy's
meaning it was a very good meaning in itself, and it grew clearer and expanded
in meaning during the days that followed, although at first Clorinda shrank a
little from some of the conclusions to which it led her.
"I've solved the problem of my Christmas giving for this
year," she told Aunt Emmy. "I have some things to give after all.
Some of them quite costly, too; that is, they will cost me something, but I
know I'll be better off and richer after I've paid the price. That is what Mr.
Grierson would call a paradox, isn't it? I'll explain all about it to you on
Christmas Day."
On Christmas Day, Clorinda went over to Aunt Emmy's. It was a
faded brown Christmas after all, for the snow had not come. But Clorinda did
not mind; there was such joy in her heart that she thought it the most
delightful Christmas Day that ever dawned.
She put the queer cornery armful she carried down on the kitchen
floor before she went into the sitting room. Aunt Emmy was lying on the sofa
before the fire, and Clorinda sat down beside her.
"I've come to tell you all about it," she said.
Aunt Emmy patted the hand that was in her own.
"From your face, dear girl, it will be pleasant hearing and
telling," she said.
Clorinda nodded.
"Aunt Emmy, I thought for days over your meaning ... thought
until I was dizzy. And then one evening it just came to me, without any
thinking at all, and I knew that I could give some gifts after all. I thought
of something new every day for a week. At first I didn't think I could give
some of them, and then I thought how selfish I was. I would have been willing
to pay any amount of money for gifts if I had had it, but I wasn't willing to
pay what I had. I got over that, though, Aunt Emmy. Now I'm going to tell you
what I did give.
"First, there was my teacher, Miss Mitchell. I gave her one
of father's books. I have so many of his, you know, so that I wouldn't miss
one; but still it was one I loved very much, and so I felt that that love made
it worth while. That is, I felt that on second thought. At first, Aunt Emmy, I
thought I would be ashamed to offer Miss Mitchell a shabby old book, worn with
much reading and all marked over with father's notes and pencillings. I was
afraid she would think it queer of me to give her such a present. And yet
somehow it seemed to me that it was better than something brand new and
unmellowed—that old book which father had loved and which I loved. So I gave it
to her, and she understood. I think it pleased her so much, the real meaning in
it. She said it was like being given something out of another's heart and life.
"Then you know Mrs. Martin ... last year she was Miss Hope,
my dear Sunday School teacher. She married a home missionary, and they are in a
lonely part of the west. Well, I wrote her a letter. Not just an ordinary
letter; dear me, no. I took a whole day to write it, and you should have seen
the postmistress's eyes stick out when I mailed it. I just told her everything
that had happened in Greenvale since she went away. I made it as newsy and cheerful
and loving as I possibly could. Everything bright and funny I could think of
went into it.
"The next was old Aunt Kitty. You know she was my nurse when
I was a baby, and she's very fond of me. But, well, you know, Aunt Emmy, I'm
ashamed to confess it, but really I've never found Aunt Kitty very
entertaining, to put it mildly. She is always glad when I go to see her, but
I've never gone except when I couldn't help it. She is very deaf, and rather
dull and stupid, you know. Well, I gave her a whole day. I took my knitting
yesterday, and sat with her the whole time and just talked and talked. I told
her all the Greenvale news and gossip and everything else I thought she'd like
to hear. She was so pleased and proud; she told me when I came away that she hadn't
had such a nice time for years.
"Then there was ... Florence. You know, Aunt Emmy, we were
always intimate friends until last year. Then Florence once told Rose Watson
something I had told her in confidence. I found it out and I was so hurt. I
couldn't forgive Florence, and I told her plainly I could never be a real
friend to her again. Florence felt badly, because she really did love me, and
she asked me to forgive her, but it seemed as if I couldn't. Well, Aunt Emmy,
that was my Christmas gift to her ... my forgiveness. I went down last night
and just put my arms around her and told her that I loved her as much as ever
and wanted to be real close friends again.
"I gave Aunt Mary her gift this morning. I told her I wasn't
going to Murraybridge, that I just meant to stay home with her. She was so
glad—and I'm glad, too, now that I've decided so."
"Your gifts have been real gifts, Clorinda," said Aunt
Emmy. "Something of you—the best of you—went into each of them."
Clorinda went out and brought her cornery armful in.
"I didn't forget you, Aunt Emmy," she said, as she
unpinned the paper.
There was a rosebush—Clorinda's own pet rosebush—all snowed over
with fragrant blossoms.
Aunt Emmy loved flowers. She put her finger under one of the roses
and kissed it.
"It's as sweet as yourself, dear child," she said
tenderly. "And it will be a joy to me all through the lonely winter days.
You've found out the best meaning of Christmas giving, haven't you, dear?"
"Yes, thanks to you, Aunt Emmy," said Clorinda softly.
8.Cyrilla's Inspiration
It was a rainy Saturday
afternoon and all the boarders at Mrs. Plunkett's were feeling dull and stupid,
especially the Normal School girls on the third floor, Cyrilla Blair and Carol
Hart and Mary Newton, who were known as The Trio, and shared the big front room
together.
They were sitting in that front room, scowling out at the weather.
At least, Carol and Mary were scowling. Cyrilla never scowled; she was sitting
curled up on her bed with her Greek grammar, and she smiled at the rain and her
grumbling chums as cheerfully as possible.
"For pity's sake, Cyrilla, put that grammar away,"
moaned Mary. "There is something positively uncanny about a girl who can
study Greek on Saturday afternoons—at least, this early in the term."
"I'm not really studying," said Cyrilla, tossing the
book away. "I'm only pretending to. I'm really just as bored and lonesome
as you are. But what else is there to do? We can't stir outside the door; we've
nothing to read; we can't make candy since Mrs. Plunkett has forbidden us to
use the oil stove in our room; we'll probably quarrel all round if we sit here
in idleness; so I've been trying to brush up my Greek verbs by way of keeping
out of mischief. Have you any better employment to offer me?"
"If it were only a mild drizzle we might go around and see
the Patterson girls," sighed Carol. "But there is no venturing out in
such a downpour. Cyrilla, you are supposed to be the brainiest one of us. Prove
your claim to such pre-eminence by thinking of some brand-new amusement,
especially suited to rainy afternoons. That will be putting your grey matter to
better use than squandering it on Greek verbs out of study limits."
"If only I'd got a letter from home today," said Mary,
who seemed determined to persist in gloom. "I wouldn't mind the weather.
Letters are such cheery things:—especially the letters my sister writes.
They're so full of fun and nice little news. The reading of one cheers me up
for the day. Cyrilla Blair, what is the matter? You nearly frightened me to
death!" Cyrilla had bounded from her bed to the centre of the floor,
waving her Greek grammar wildly in the air.
"Girls, I have an inspiration!" she exclaimed.
"Good! Let's hear it," said Carol.
"Let's write letters—rainy-day letters—to everyone in the
house," said Cyrilla. "You may depend all the rest of the folks under
Mrs. Plunkett's hospitable roof are feeling more or less blue and lonely too,
as well as ourselves. Let's write them the jolliest, nicest letters we can
compose and get Nora Jane to take them to their rooms. There's that pale little
sewing girl, I don't believe she ever gets letters from anybody, and Miss
Marshall, I'm sure she doesn't, and poor old Mrs. Johnson,
whose only son died last month, and the new music teacher who came yesterday, a
letter of welcome to her—and old Mr. Grant, yes, and Mrs. Plunkett too,
thanking her for all her kindness to us. You knew she has been awfully nice to
us in spite of the oil stove ukase. That's six—two apiece. Let's do it,
girls."
Cyrilla's sudden enthusiasm for her plan infected the others.
"It's a nice idea," said Mary, brightening up. "But
who's to write to whom? I'm willing to take anybody but Miss Marshall. I couldn't
write a line to her to save my life. She'd be horrified at anything funny or
jokey and our letters will have to be mainly nonsense—nonsense of the best
brand, to be sure, but still nonsense."
"Better leave Miss Marshall out," suggested Carol.
"You know she disapproves of us anyhow. She'd probably resent a letter of
the sort, thinking we were trying to play some kind of joke on her."
"It would never do to leave her out," said Cyrilla
decisively. "Of course, she's a bit queer and unamiable, but, girls, think
of thirty years of boarding-house life, even with the best of Plunketts.
Wouldn't that sour anybody? You know it would. You'd be cranky and grumbly and
disagreeable too, I dare say. I'm really sorry for Miss Marshall. She's had a
very hard life. Mrs. Plunkett told me all about her one day. I don't think we
should mind her biting little speeches and sharp looks. And anyway, even if she
is really as disagreeable as she sometimes seems to be, why, it must make it
all the harder for her, don't you think? So she needs a letter most of all.
I'll write to her, since it's my suggestion. We'll draw lots for the
others."
Besides Miss Marshall, the new music teacher fell to Cyrilla's
share. Mary drew Mrs. Plunkett and the dressmaker, and Carol drew Mrs. Johnson
and old Mr. Grant. For the next two hours the girls wrote busily, forgetting
all about the rainy day, and enjoying their epistolary labours to the full. It
was dusk when all the letters were finished.
"Why, hasn't the afternoon gone quickly after all!" exclaimed
Carol. "I just let my pen run on and jotted down any good working idea
that came into my head. Cyrilla Blair, that big fat letter is never for Miss
Marshall! What on earth did you find to write her?"
"It wasn't so hard when I got fairly started," said
Cyrilla, smiling. "Now, let's hunt up Nora Jane and send the letters
around so that everybody can read his or hers before tea-time. We should have a
choice assortment of smiles at the table instead of all those frowns and sighs
we had at dinner." Miss Emily Marshall was at that moment sitting in her
little back room, all alone in the dusk, with the rain splashing drearily
against the windowpanes outside. Miss Marshall was feeling as lonely and dreary
as she looked—and as she had often felt in her life of sixty years. She told
herself bitterly that she hadn't a friend in the world—not even one who cared
enough for her to come and see her or write her a letter now and then. She
thought her boarding-house acquaintances disliked her and she resented their dislike,
without admitting to herself that her ungracious ways were responsible for it.
She smiled sourly when little ripples of laughter came faintly down the hall
from the front room where The Trio were writing their letters and laughing over
the fun they were putting into them.
"If they were old and lonesome and friendless they wouldn't
see much in life to laugh at, I guess," said Miss Marshall bitterly,
drawing her shawl closer about her sharp shoulders. "They never think of
anything but themselves and if a day passes that they don't have 'some fun'
they think it's a fearful thing to put up with. I'm sick and tired of their
giggling and whispering."
In the midst of these amiable reflections Miss Marshall heard a
knock at her door. When she opened it there stood Nora Jane, her broad red face
beaming with smiles.
"Please, Miss, here's a letter for you," she said.
"A letter for me!" Miss Marshall shut her door and
stared at the fat envelope in amazement. Who could have written it? The postman
came only in the morning. Was it some joke, perhaps? Those giggling girls? Miss
Marshall's face grew harder as she lighted her lamp and opened the letter
suspiciously.
"Dear Miss Marshall," it ran in Cyrilla's pretty girlish
writing, "we girls are so lonesome and dull that we have decided to write
rainy-day letters to everybody in the house just to cheer ourselves up. So I'm
going to write to you just a letter of friendly nonsense."
Pages of "nonsense" followed, and very delightful
nonsense it was, for Cyrilla possessed the happy gift of bright and easy
letter-writing. She commented wittily on all the amusing episodes of the
boarding-house life for the past month; she described a cat-fight she had
witnessed from her window that morning and illustrated it by a pen-and-ink sketch
of the belligerent felines; she described a lovely new dress her mother had
sent her from home and told all about the class party to which she had worn it;
she gave an account of her vacation camping trip to the mountains and pasted on
one page a number of small snapshots taken during the outing; she copied a joke
she had read in the paper that morning and discussed the serial story in the
boarding-house magazine which all the boarders were reading; she wrote out the
directions for a new crocheted tidy her sister had made—Miss Marshall had a
mania for crocheting; and she finally wound up with "all the good will and
good wishes that Nora Jane will consent to carry from your friend, Cyrilla
Blair."
Before Miss Marshall had finished reading that letter she had
cried three times and laughed times past counting. More tears came at the
end—happy, tender tears such as Miss Marshall had not shed for years. Something
warm and sweet and gentle seemed to thrill to life within her heart. So those
girls were not such selfish, heedless young creatures as she had supposed! How
kind it had been in Cyrilla Blair to think of her and write so to her. She no
longer felt lonely and neglected. Her whole sombre world had been brightened to
sunshine by that merry friendly letter.
Mrs. Plunkett's table was surrounded by a ring of smiling faces
that night. Everybody seemed in good spirits in spite of the weather. The pale
little dressmaker, who had hardly uttered a word since her arrival a week
before, talked and laughed quite merrily and girlishly, thanking Cyrilla
unreservedly for her "jolly letter." Old Mr. Grant did not grumble
once about the rain or the food or his rheumatism and he told Carol that she
might be a good letter writer in time if she looked after her grammar more carefully—which,
from Mr. Grant, was high praise. All the others declared that they were
delighted with their letters—all except Miss Marshall. She said nothing but
later on, when Cyrilla was going upstairs, she met Miss Marshall in the shadows
of the second landing.
"My dear," said Miss Marshall gently, "I want to
thank you for your letter, I don't think you can realize just what it has meant
to me. I was so—so lonely and tired and discouraged. It heartened me right up.
I—I know you have thought me a cross and disagreeable person. I'm afraid I have
been, too. But—but—I shall try to be less so in future. If I can't succeed all
at once don't mind me because, under it all, I shall always be your friend. And
I mean to keep your letter and read it over every time I feel myself getting
bitter and hard again." "Dear Miss Marshall, I'm so glad you liked
it," said Cyrilla frankly. "We're all your friends and would be glad
to be chummy with you. Only we thought perhaps we bothered you with our nonsense."
"Come and see me sometimes," said Miss Marshall with a
smile. "I'll try to be 'chummy'—perhaps I'm not yet too old to learn the
secret of friendliness. Your letter has made me think that I have missed much
in shutting all young life out from mine as I have done. I want to reform in
this respect if I can."
When Cyrilla reached the front room she found Mrs. Plunkett there.
"I've just dropped in, Miss Blair," said that worthy
woman, "to say that I dunno as I mind your making candy once in a while if
you want to. Only do be careful not to set the place on fire. Please be particularly careful
not to set it on fire."
"We'll try," promised Cyrilla with dancing eyes. When
the door closed behind Mrs. Plunkett the three girls looked at each other.
"Cyrilla, that idea of yours was a really truly
inspiration," said Carol solemnly.
"I believe it was," said Cyrilla, thinking of Miss
Marshall.
9.Dorinda's Desperate
Deed
Dorinda had been home
for a whole wonderful week and the little Pages were beginning to feel
acquainted with her. When a girl goes away when she is ten and doesn't come
back until she is fifteen, it is only to be expected that her family should
regard her as somewhat of a stranger, especially when she is really a Page, and
they are really all Carters except for the name. Dorinda had been only ten when
her Aunt Mary—on the Carter side—had written to Mrs. Page, asking her to let
Dorinda come to her for the winter.
Mrs. Page, albeit she was poor—nobody but herself knew how
poor—and a widow with five children besides Dorinda, hesitated at first. She
was afraid, with good reason, that the winter might stretch into other seasons;
but Mary had lost her own only little girl in the summer, and Mrs. Page
shuddered at the thought of what her loneliness must be. So, to comfort her,
Mrs. Page had let Dorinda go, stipulating that she must come home in the
spring. In the spring, when Dorinda's bed of violets was growing purple under
the lilac bush, Aunt Mary wrote again. Dorinda was contented and happy, she
said. Would not Emily let her stay for the summer? Mrs. Page cried bitterly
over that letter and took sad counsel with herself. To let Dorinda stay with
her aunt for the summer really meant, she knew, to let her stay altogether.
Mrs. Page was finding it harder and harder to get along; there was so little
and the children needed so much; Dorinda would have a good home with her Aunt
Mary if she could only prevail on her rebellious mother heart to give her up.
In the end she agreed to let Dorinda stay for the summer—and Dorinda had never
been home since.
But now Dorinda had come back to the little white house on the
hill at Willowdale, set back from the road in a smother of apple trees and
vines. Aunt Mary had died very suddenly and her only son, Dorinda's cousin, had
gone to Japan. There was nothing for Dorinda to do save to come home, to enter
again into her old unfilled place in her mother's heart, and win a new place in
the hearts of the brothers and sisters who barely remembered her at all.
Leicester had been nine and Jean seven when Dorinda went away; now they were
respectively fourteen and twelve.
At first they were a little shy with this big, practically
brand-new sister, but this soon wore off. Nobody could be shy long with
Dorinda; nobody could help liking her. She was so brisk and jolly and
sympathetic—a real Page, so everybody said—while the brothers and sisters were
Carter to their marrow; Carters with fair hair and blue eyes, and small, fine,
wistful features; but Dorinda had merry black eyes, plump, dusky-red cheeks,
and a long braid of glossy dark hair, which was perpetually being twitched from
one shoulder to another as Dorinda whisked about the house on domestic duties
intent.
In a week Dorinda felt herself one of the family again, with all
the cares and responsibilities thereof resting on her strong young shoulders.
Dorinda and her mother talked matters out fully one afternoon over their
sewing, in the sunny south room where the winds got lost among the vines
halfway through the open window. Mrs. Page sighed and said she really did not
know what to do. Dorinda did not sigh; she did not know just what to do either,
but there must be something that could be done—there is always something that
can be done, if one can only find it. Dorinda sewed hard and pursed up her red
lips determinedly.
"Don't you worry, Mother Page," she said briskly.
"We'll be like that glorious old Roman who found a way or made it. I like
overcoming difficulties. I've lots of old Admiral Page's fighting blood in me,
you know. The first step is to tabulate just exactly what difficulties among
our many difficulties must be ravelled out first—the capital difficulties, as
it were. Most important of all comes—"
"Leicester," said Mrs. Page.
Dorinda winked her eyes as she always did when she was doubtful.
"Well, I knew he was one of them, but I wasn't going to put
him the very first. However, we will. Leicester's case stands thus. He is a
pretty smart boy—if he wasn't my brother, I'd say he was a very smart boy. He
has gone as far in his studies as Willowdale School can take him, has qualified
for entrance into the Blue Hill Academy, wants to go there this fall and begin
the beginnings of a college course. Well, of course, Mother Page, we can't send
Leicester to Blue Hill any more than we can send him to the moon."
"No," mourned Mrs. Page, "and the poor boy feels so
badly over it. His heart is set on going to college and being a doctor like his
father. He believes he could work his way through, if he could only get a
start. But there isn't any chance. And I can't afford to keep him at school any
longer. He is going into Mr. Churchill's store at Willow Centre in the fall.
Mr. Churchill has very kindly offered him a place. Leicester hates the thought
of it—I know he does, although he never says so."
"Next to Leicester's college course we want—"
"Music lessons for Jean."
Dorinda winked again.
"Are music lessons for Jean really a difficulty?" she
said. "That is, one spelled with a capital?"
"Oh, yes, Dorinda dear. At least, I'm worried over it. Jean
loves music so, and she has never had anything, poor child, not even as much
school as she ought to have had. I've had to keep her home so much to help me
with the work. She has been such a good, patient little girl too, and her heart
is set on music lessons."
"Well, she must have them then—after we get Leicester's year
at the academy for him. That's two. The third is a new—"
"The roof must be shingled this fall,"
said Mrs. Page anxiously. "It really must, Dorinda. It is no better than a
sieve. We are nearly drowned every time it rains. But I don't know where the
money to do it is going to come from."
"Shingles for the roof, three," said Dorinda, as if she
were carefully jotting down something in a mental memorandum. "And
fourth—now, Mother Page, I will have my say this
time—fourthly, biggest capital of all, a Nice, New Dress and a Warm Fur Coat
for Mother Page this winter. Yes, yes, you must have them, dearest. It's
absolutely necessary. We can wait a year or so for college courses and music
lessons to grow; we can set basins under the leaks and borrow some more if we
haven't enough. But a new dress and coat for you we must, shall, and will have,
however it is to be brought about."
"I wouldn't mind if I never got another new stitch, if I
could only manage the other things," said Mrs. Page stoutly. "If your
Uncle Eugene would only help us a little, until Leicester got through! He
really ought to. But of course he never will."
"Have you ever asked him?" said Dorinda.
"Oh, my dear, no; of course not," said Mrs. Page in a
horrified tone, as if Dorinda had asked if she had ever stolen a neighbour's
spoons.
"I don't see why you shouldn't," said Dorinda seriously.
"Oh, Dorinda, Uncle Eugene hates us all. He is terribly
bitter against us. He would never, never listen to any request for help, even
if I could bring myself to make it."
"Mother, what was the trouble between us and Uncle Eugene? I
have never known the rights of it. I was too small to understand when I was
home before. All I remember is that Uncle Eugene never came to see us or spoke
to us when he met us anywhere, and we were all afraid of him somehow. I used to
think of him as an ogre who would come creeping up the back stairs after dark
and carry me off bodily if I wasn't good. What made him our enemy? And how did
he come to get all of Grandfather Page's property when Father got
nothing?"
"Well, you know, Dorinda, that your Grandfather Page was
married twice. Eugene was his first wife's son, and your father the second
wife's. Eugene was a great deal older than your father—he was twenty-five when
your father was born. He was always an odd man, even in his youth, and he had
been much displeased at his father's second marriage. But he was very fond of
your father—whose mother, as you know, died at his birth—and they were good
friends and comrades until just before your father went to college. They then
quarrelled; the cause of the quarrel was insignificant; with anyone else than
Eugene a reconciliation would soon have been effected. But Eugene never was
friendly with your father from that time. I think he was jealous of old
Grandfather's affection; thought the old man loved your father best. And then,
as I have said, he was very eccentric and stubborn. Well, your father went away
to college and graduated, and then—we were married. Grandfather Page was very
angry with him for marrying me. He wanted him to marry somebody else. He told
him he would disinherit him if he married me. I did not know this until we were
married. But Grandfather Page kept his word. He sent for a lawyer and had a new
will made, leaving everything to Eugene. I think, nay, I am sure, that he would
have relented in time, but he died the very next week; they found him dead in
his bed one morning, so Eugene got everything; and that is all there is of the
story, Dorinda."
"And Uncle Eugene has been our enemy ever since?"
"Yes, ever since. So you see, Dorinda dear, that I cannot ask
any favours of Uncle Eugene."
"Yes, I see," said Dorinda understandingly. To herself
she added, "But I don't see why I shouldn't."
Dorinda thought hard and long for the next few days about the
capital difficulties. She could think of only one thing to do and, despite old
Admiral Page's fighting blood, she shrank from doing it. But one night she
found Leicester with his head down on his books and—no, it couldn't be tears in
his eyes, because Leicester laughed scornfully at the insinuation.
"I wouldn't cry over it, Dorinda; I hope I'm more of a man
than that. But I do really feel rather cut up because I've no
chance of getting to college. And I hate the thought of going into a store. But
I know I must for Mother's sake, and I mean to pitch in and like it in spite of
myself when the time comes. Only—only—"
And then Leicester got up and whistled and went to the window and
stood with his back to Dorinda.
"That settles it," said Dorinda out loud, as she brushed
her hair before the glass that night. "I'll do it."
"Do what?" asked Jean from the bed.
"A desperate deed," said Dorinda solemnly, and that was
all she would say.
Next day Mrs. Page and Leicester went to town on business. In the
afternoon Dorinda put on her best dress and hat and started out. Admiral Page's
fighting blood was glowing in her cheeks as she walked briskly up the hill
road, but her heart beat in an odd fashion.
"I wonder if I am a little scared, 'way down deep," said
Dorinda. "I believe I am. But I'm going to do it for all that, and the
scareder I get the more I'll do it."
Oaklawn, where Uncle Eugene lived, was two miles away. It was a
fine old place in beautiful grounds. But Dorinda did not quail before its
splendours; nor did her heart fail her, even after she had rung the bell and
had been shown by a maid into a very handsome parlour, but it still continued
to beat in that queer fashion halfway up her throat.
Presently Uncle Eugene came in, a tall, black-eyed old man, with a
fine head of silver hair that should have framed a ruddy, benevolent face,
instead of Uncle Eugene's hard-lipped, bushy-browed countenance.
Dorinda stood up, dusky and crimson, with brave, glowing eyes.
Uncle Eugene looked at her sharply.
"Who are you?" he said bluntly.
"I am your niece, Dorinda Page," said Dorinda steadily.
"And what does my niece, Dorinda Page, want with me?"
demanded Uncle Eugene, motioning to her to sit down and sitting down himself.
But Dorinda remained standing. It is easier to fight on your feet.
"I want you to do four things, Uncle Eugene," she said,
as calmly as if she were making the most natural and ordinary request in the
world. "I want you to lend us the money to send Leicester to Blue Hill
Academy; he will pay it back to you when he gets through college. I want you to
lend Jean the money for music lessons; she will pay you back when she gets far enough
along to give lessons herself. And I want you to lend me the money to shingle
our house and get Mother a new dress and fur coat for the winter. I'll pay you
back sometime for that, because I am going to set up as a dressmaker pretty
soon."
"Anything more?" said Uncle Eugene, when Dorinda
stopped.
"Nothing more just now, I think," said Dorinda
reflectively.
"Why don't you ask for something for yourself?" said
Uncle Eugene.
"I don't want anything for myself," said Dorinda
promptly. "Or—yes, I do, too. I want your friendship, Uncle Eugene."
"Be kind enough to sit down," said Uncle Eugene.
Dorinda sat.
"You are a Page," said Uncle Eugene. "I saw that as
soon as I came in. I will send Leicester to college and I shall not ask or
expect to be paid back. Jean shall have her music lessons, and a piano to
practise them on as well. The house shall be shingled, and the money for the
new dress and coat shall be forthcoming. You and I will be friends."
"Thank you," gasped Dorinda, wondering if, after all, it
wasn't a dream.
"I would have gladly assisted your mother before," said
Uncle Eugene, "if she had asked me. I had determined that she must ask me
first. I knew that half the money should have been your father's by rights. I
was prepared to hand it over to him or his family, if I were asked for it. But
I wished to humble his pride, and the Carter pride, to the point of asking for
it. Not a very amiable temper, you will say? I admit it. I am not amiable and I
never have been amiable. You must be prepared to find me very unamiable. I see
that you are waiting for a chance to say something polite and pleasant on that
score, but you may save yourself the trouble. I shall hope and expect to have
you visit me often. If your mother and your brothers and sisters see fit to
come with you, I shall welcome them also. I think that this is all it is
necessary to say just now. Will you stay to tea with me this evening?"
Dorinda stayed to tea, since she knew that Jean was at home to
attend to matters there. She and Uncle Eugene got on famously. When she left,
Uncle Eugene, grim and hard-lipped as ever, saw her to the door.
"Good evening, Niece Dorinda. You are a Page and I am proud
of you. Tell your mother that many things in this life are lost through not
asking for them. I don't think you are in need of the information for
yourself."
10.Her Own People
The Taunton School had
closed for the summer holidays. Constance Foster and Miss Channing went down
the long, elm-shaded street together, as they generally did, because they
happened to board on the same block downtown.
Constance was the youngest teacher on the staff, and had charge of
the Primary Department. She had taught in Taunton school a year, and at its
close she was as much of a stranger in the little corps of teachers as she had
been at the beginning. The others thought her stiff and unapproachable; she was
unpopular in a negative way with all except Miss Channing, who made it a
profession to like everybody, the more so if other people disliked them. Miss
Channing was the oldest teacher on the staff, and taught the fifth grade. She
was short and stout and jolly; nothing, not even the iciest reserve, ever
daunted Miss Channing.
"Isn't it good to think of two whole blessed months of
freedom?" she said jubilantly. "Two months to dream, to be lazy, to
go where one pleases, no exercises to correct, no reports to make, no pupils to
keep in order. To be sure, I love them every one, but I'll love them all the
more for a bit of a rest from them. Isn't it good?"
A little satirical smile crossed Constance Foster's dark,
discontented face, looking just then all the more discontented in contrast to
Miss Channing's rosy, beaming countenance.
"It's very good, if you have anywhere to go, or anybody who
cares where you go," she said bitterly. "For my own part, I'm sorry
school is closed. I'd rather go on teaching all summer."
"Heresy!" said Miss Channing. "Rank heresy! What
are your vacation plans?"
"I haven't any," said Constance wearily. "I've put
off thinking about vacation as long as I possibly could. You'll call that
heresy, too, Miss Channing."
"It's worse than heresy," said Miss Channing briskly.
"It's a crying necessity for blue pills, that's what it is. Your whole
mental and moral and physical and spiritual system must be out of kilter, my
child. No vacation plans! You must have vacation plans. You
must be going somewhere."
"Oh, I suppose I'll hunt up a boarding place somewhere in the
country, and go there and mope until September."
"Have you no friends, Constance?"
"No—no, I haven't anybody in the world. That is why I hate
vacation, that is why I've hated to hear you and the others discussing your
vacation plans. You all have somebody to go to. It has just filled me up with
hatred of my life."
Miss Channing swallowed her honest horror at such a state of
feeling.
"Constance, tell me about yourself. I've often wanted to ask
you, but I was always a little afraid to. You seem so reserved and—and, as if
you didn't want to be asked about yourself."
"I know it. I know I'm stiff and hateful, and that nobody
likes me, and that it is all my own fault. No, never mind trying to smooth it
over, Miss Channing. It's the truth, and it hurts me, but I can't help it. I'm
getting more bitter and pessimistic and unwholesome every day of my life.
Sometimes it seems as if I hated all the world because I'm so lonely in it. I'm
nobody. My mother died when I was born—and Father—oh, I don't know. One can't
say anything against one's father, Miss Channing. But I had a hard childhood—or
rather, I didn't have any childhood at all. We were always moving about. We
didn't seem to have any friends at all. My mother might have had relatives
somewhere, but I never heard of any. I don't even know where her home was.
Father never would talk of her. He died two years ago, and since then I've been
absolutely alone."
"Oh, you poor girl," said Miss Channing softly.
"I want friends," went on Constance, seeming to take a
pleasure in open confession now that her tongue was loosed. "I've always
just longed for somebody belonging to me to love. I don't love anybody, Miss
Channing, and when a girl is in that state, she is all wrong. She gets hard and
bitter and resentful—I have, anyway. I struggled against it at first, but it
has been too much for me. It poisons everything. There is nobody to care
anything about me, whether I live or die."
"Oh, yes, there is One," said Miss Channing gently.
"God cares, Constance."
Constance gave a disagreeable little laugh.
"That sounds like Miss Williams—she is so religious. God
doesn't mean anything to me, Miss Channing. I've just the same resentful
feeling toward him that I have for all the world, if he exists at all. There,
I've shocked you in good earnest now. You should have left me alone, Miss
Channing."
"God means nothing to you because you've never had him
translated to you through human love, Constance," said Miss Channing
seriously. "No, you haven't shocked me—at least, not in the way you mean.
I'm only terribly sorry."
"Oh, never mind me," said Constance, freezing up into
her reserve again as if she regretted her confidences. "I'll get along all
right. This is one of my off days, when everything looks black."
Miss Channing walked on in silence. She must help Constance, but
Constance was not easily helped. When school reopened, she might be able to do
something worthwhile for the girl, but just now the only thing to do was to put
her in the way of a pleasant vacation.
"You spoke of boarding," she said, when Constance paused
at the door of her boarding-house. "Have you any particular place in view?
No? Well, I know a place which I am sure you would like. I was there two
summers ago. It is a country place about a hundred miles from here. Pine Valley
is its name. It's restful and homey, and the people are so nice. If you like,
I'll give you the address of the family I boarded with."
"Thank you," said Constance indifferently. "I might
as well go there as anywhere else."
"Yes, but listen to me, dear. Don't take your morbidness with
you. Open your heart to the summer, and let its sunshine in, and when you come
back in the fall, come prepared to let us all be your friends. We'd like to be,
and while friendship doesn't take the place of the love of one's own people,
still it is a good and beautiful thing. Besides, there are other unhappy people
in the world—try to help them when you meet them, and you'll forget about
yourself. Good-by for now, and I hope you'll have a pleasant vacation in spite
of yourself."
Constance went to Pine Valley, but she took her evil spirit with
her. Not even the beauty of the valley, with its great balmy pines, and the
cheerful friendliness of its people could exorcise it.
Nevertheless, she liked the place and found a wholesome pleasure
in the long tramps she took along the piney roads.
"I saw such a pretty spot in my ramble this afternoon,"
she told her landlady one evening. "It is about three miles from here at
the end of the valley. Such a picturesque, low-eaved little house, all covered
over with honeysuckle. It was set between a big orchard and an old-fashioned
flower garden with great pines at the back."
"Heartsease Farm," said Mrs. Hewitt promptly.
"Bless you, there's only one place around here of that description. Mr.
and Mrs. Bruce, Uncle Charles and Aunt Flora, as we all call them, live there.
They are the dearest old couple alive. You ought to go and see them, they'd be
delighted. Aunt Flora just loves company. They're real lonesome by times."
"Haven't they any children?" asked Constance indifferently.
Her interest was in the place, not in the people.
"No. They had a niece once, though. They brought her up and
they just worshipped her. She ran away with a worthless fellow—I forget his
name, if I ever knew it. He was handsome and smooth-tongued, but he was a
scamp. She died soon after and it just broke their hearts. They don't even know
where she was buried, and they never heard anything more about her husband.
I've heard that Aunt Flora's hair turned snow-white in a month. I'll take you
up to see her some day when I find time."
Mrs. Hewitt did not find time, but thereafter Constance ordered
her rambles that she might frequently pass Heartsease Farm. The quaint old spot
had a strange attraction for her. She found herself learning to love it, and so
unused was this unfortunate girl to loving anything that she laughed at herself
for her foolishness.
One evening a fortnight later Constance, with her arms full of
ferns and wood-lilies, came out of the pine woods above Heartsease Farm just as
heavy raindrops began to fall. She had prolonged her ramble unseasonably, and
it was now nearly night, and very certainly a rainy night at that. She was
three miles from home and without even an extra wrap.
She hurried down the lane, but by the time she reached the main
road, the few drops had become a downpour. She must seek shelter somewhere, and
Heartsease Farm was the nearest. She pushed open the gate and ran up the slope
of the yard between the hedges of sweetbriar. She was spared the trouble of
knocking, for as she came to a breathless halt on the big red sandstone
doorstep, the door was flung open, and the white-haired, happy-faced little
woman standing on the threshold had seized her hand and drawn her in bodily
before she could speak a word.
"I saw you coming from upstairs," said Aunt Flora
gleefully, "and I just ran down as fast as I could. Dear, dear, you are a
little wet. But we'll soon dry you. Come right in—I've a bit of a fire in the
grate, for the evening is chilly. They laughed at me for loving a fire so, but
there's nothing like its snap and sparkle. You're rained in for the night, and
I'm as glad as I can be. I know who you are—you are Miss Foster. I'm Aunt
Flora, and this is Uncle Charles."
Constance let herself be put into a cushiony chair and fussed over
with an unaccustomed sense of pleasure. The rain was coming down in torrents,
and she certainly was domiciled at Heartsease Farm for the night. Somehow, she
felt glad of it. Mrs. Hewitt was right in calling Aunt Flora sweet, and Uncle
Charles was a big, jolly, ruddy-faced old man with a hearty manner. He shook
Constance's hand until it ached, threw more pine knots in the fire and told her
he wished it would rain every night if it rained down a nice little girl like
her.
She found herself strangely attracted to the old couple. The name
of their farm was in perfect keeping with their atmosphere. Constance's frozen
soul expanded in it. She chatted merrily and girlishly, feeling as if she had
known them all her life.
When bedtime came, Aunt Flora took her upstairs to a little gable
room.
"My spare room is all in disorder just now, dearie, we have
been painting its floor. So I'm going to put you here in Jeannie's room.
Someway you remind me of her, and you are just about the age she was when she
left us. If it wasn't for that, I don't think I could put you in her room, not
even if every other floor in the house were being painted. It is so sacred to
me. I keep it just as she left it, not a thing is changed. Good night dearie,
and I hope you'll have pleasant dreams."
When Constance found herself alone in the room, she looked about
her with curiosity. It was a very dainty, old-fashioned little room. The floor
was covered with braided mats; the two square, small-paned windows were draped
with snowy muslin. In one corner was a little white bed with white curtains and
daintily ruffled pillows, and in the other a dressing table with a gilt-framed
mirror and the various knick-knacks of a girlish toilet. There was a little
blue rocker and an ottoman with a work-basket on it. In the work-basket was a
bit of unfinished, yellowed lace with a needle sticking in it. A small bookcase
under the sloping ceiling was filled with books.
Constance picked up one and opened it at the yellowing title-page.
She gave a little cry of surprise. The name written across the page in a fine,
dainty script was "Jean Constance Irving," her mother's name!
For a moment Constance stood motionless. Then she turned
impulsively and hurried downstairs again. Mr. and Mrs. Bruce were still in the
sitting room talking to each other in the firelight.
"Oh," cried Constance excitedly. "I must know, I
must ask you. This is my mother's name, Jean Constance Irving, can it be
possible she was your little Jeannie?"
000
A fortnight later Miss Channing received a
letter from Constance.
"I am so happy," she wrote. "Oh, Miss Channing, I
have found 'mine own people,' and Heartsease Farm is to be my own, own dear
home for always.
"It was such a strange coincidence, no, Aunt Flora says it
was Providence, and I believe it was, too. I came here one rainy night, and
Aunty put me in my mother's room, think of it! My own dear mother's room, and I
found her name in a book. And now the mystery is all cleared up, and we are so
happy.
"Everything is dear and beautiful, and almost the dearest and
most beautiful thing is that I am getting acquainted with my mother, the mother
I never knew before. She no longer seems dead to me. I feel that she lives and
loves me, and I am learning to know her better every day. I have her room and
her books and all her little girlish possessions. When I read her books, with
their passages underlined by her hand, I feel as if she were speaking to me.
She was very good and sweet, in spite of her one foolish, bitter mistake, and I
want to be as much like her as I can.
"I said that this was almost the dearest and
most beautiful thing. The very dearest and most beautiful is this—God means
something to me now. He means so much! I remember that you said to me that he
meant nothing to me because I had no human love in my heart to translate the
divine. But I have now, and it has led me to Him.
"I am not going back to Taunton. I have sent in my
resignation. I am going to stay home with Aunty and Uncle. It is so sweet to
say home and know what it means.
"Aunty says you must come and spend all your next vacation
with us. You see, I have lots of vacation plans now, even for a year ahead.
After all, there is no need of the blue pills!
"I feel like a new creature, made over from the heart and
soul out. I look back with shame and contrition on the old Constance. I want
you to forget her and only remember your grateful friend, the new Constance."
11.Ida's New Year Cake
Mary Craig and Sara Reid
and Josie Pye had all flocked into Ida Mitchell's room at their boarding-house
to condole with each other because none of them was able to go home for New
Year's. Mary and Josie had been home for Christmas, so they didn't really feel
so badly off. But Ida and Sara hadn't even that consolation.
Ida was a third-year student at the Clifton Academy; she had
holidays, and nowhere, so she mournfully affirmed, to spend them. At home three
brothers and a sister were down with the measles, and, as Ida had never had
them, she could not go there; and the news had come too late for her to make
any other arrangements.
Mary and Josie were clerks in a Clifton bookstore, and Sara was
stenographer in a Clifton lawyer's office. And they were all jolly and
thoughtless and very fond of one another.
"This will be the first New Year's I have ever spent away
from home," sighed Sara, nibbling chocolate fudge. "It does make me
so blue to think of it. And not even a holiday—I'll have to go to work just the
same. Now Ida here, she doesn't really need sympathy. She has holidays—a whole
fortnight—and nothing to do but enjoy them."
"Holidays are dismal things when you've nowhere to
holiday," said Ida mournfully. "The time drags horribly. But never
mind, girls, I've a plummy bit of news for you. I'd a letter from Mother today
and, bless the dear woman, she is sending me a cake—a New Year's cake—a great
big, spicy, mellow, delicious fruit cake. It will be along tomorrow and, girls,
we'll celebrate when it comes. I've asked everybody in the house up to my room
for New Year's Eve, and we'll have a royal good time."
"How splendid!" said Mary. "There's nothing I like
more than a slice of real countrified home-made fruit cake, where they don't
scrimp on eggs or butter or raisins. You'll give me a good big piece, won't
you, Ida?"
"As much as you can eat," promised Ida. "I can
warrant Mother's fruit cake. Yes, we'll have a jamboree. Miss Monroe has
promised to come in too. She says she has a weakness for fruit cake."
"Oh!" breathed all the girls. Miss Monroe was their
idol, whom they had to be content to worship at a distance as a general thing.
She was a clever journalist, who worked on a paper, and was reputed to be
writing a book. The girls felt they were highly privileged to be boarding in
the same house, and counted that day lost on which they did not receive a
businesslike nod or an absent-minded smile from Miss Monroe. If she ever had
time to speak to one of them about the weather, that fortunate one put on airs
for a week. And now to think that she had actually promised to drop into Ida's
room on New Year's Eve and eat fruit cake!
"There goes that funny little namesake of yours, Ida,"
said Josie, who was sitting by the window. "She seems to be staying in
town over the holidays too. Wonder why. Perhaps she doesn't belong anywhere.
She really is a most forlorn-appearing little mortal."
There were two Ida Mitchells attending the Clifton Academy. The
other Ida was a plain, quiet, pale-faced little girl of fifteen who was in the
second year. Beyond that, none of the third-year Ida Mitchell's set knew
anything about her, or tried to find out.
"She must be very poor," said Ida carelessly. "She
dresses so shabbily, and she always looks so pinched and subdued. She boards in
a little house out on Marlboro Road, and I pity her if she has to spend her
holidays there, for a more dismal place I never saw. I was there once on the
trail of a book I had lost. Going, girls? Well, don't forget tomorrow
night."
Ida spent the next day decorating her room and watching for the
arrival of her cake. It hadn't come by tea-time, and she concluded to go down
to the express office and investigate. It would be dreadful if that cake didn't
turn up in time, with all the girls and Miss Monroe coming in. Ida felt that she
would be mortified to death.
Inquiry at the express office discovered two things. A box had
come in for Miss Ida Mitchell, Clifton; and said box had been delivered to Miss
Ida Mitchell, Clifton.
"One of our clerks said he knew you personally—boarded next door
to you—and he'd take it round himself," the manager informed her.
"There must be some mistake," said Ida in perplexity.
"I don't know any of the clerks here. Oh—why—there's another Ida Mitchell
in town! Can it be possible my cake has gone to her?"
The manager thought it very possible, and offered to send around
and see. But Ida said it was on her way home and she would call herself.
At the dismal little house on Marlboro Road she was sent up three
flights of stairs to the other Ida Mitchell's small hall bedroom. The other Ida
Mitchell opened the door for her. Behind her, on the table, was the cake—such a
fine, big, brown cake, with raisins sticking out all over it!
"Why, how do you do, Miss Mitchell!" exclaimed the other
Ida with shy pleasure. "Come in. I didn't know you were in town. It's real
good of you to come and see me. And just see what I've had sent to me! Isn't it
a beauty? I was so surprised when it came—and, oh, so glad! I was feeling so
blue and lonesome—as if I hadn't a friend in the world. I—I—yes, I was crying
when that cake came. It has just made the world over for me. Do sit down and
I'll cut you a piece. I'm sure you're as fond of fruit cake as I am."
Ida sat down in a chair, feeling bewildered and awkward. This was
a nice predicament! How could she tell that other Ida that the cake didn't
belong to her? The poor thing was so delighted. And, oh, what a bare, lonely
little room! The big, luxurious cake seemed to emphasize the bareness and
loneliness.
"Who—who sent it to you?" she asked lamely.
"It must have been Mrs. Henderson, because there is nobody
else who would," answered the other Ida. "Two years ago I was going
to school in Trenton and I boarded with her. When I left her to come to Clifton
she told me she would send me a cake for Christmas. Well, I expected that cake
last year—and it didn't come. I can't tell you how disappointed I was. You'll
think me very childish. But I was so lonely, with no home to go to like the
other girls. But she sent it this year, you see. It is so nice to think that
somebody has remembered me at New Year's. It isn't the cake itself—it's the
thought behind it. It has just made all the difference in the world. There—just
sample it, Miss Mitchell."
The other Ida cut a generous slice from the cake and passed it to
her guest. Her eyes were shining and her cheeks were flushed. She was really a
very sweet-looking little thing—not a bit like her usual pale, timid self.
Ida ate the cake slowly. What was she to do? She couldn't tell the
other Ida the truth about the cake. But the girls she had asked in to help eat
it that very evening! And Miss Monroe! Oh, dear, it was too bad. But it
couldn't be helped. She wouldn't blot out that light on the other Ida's face
for anything! Of course, she would find out the truth in time—probably after
she had written to thank Mrs. Henderson for the cake; but meanwhile she would
have enjoyed the cake, and the supposed kindness back of it would tide her over
her New Year loneliness.
"It's delicious," said Ida heartily, swallowing her own
disappointment with the cake. "I'm—I'm glad I happened to drop in as I was
passing." Ida hoped that speech didn't come under the head of a fib.
"So am I," said the other Ida brightly. "Oh, I've
been so lonesome and downhearted this week. I'm so alone, you see—there isn't
anybody to care. Father died three years ago, and I don't remember my mother at
all. There is nobody but myself, and it is dreadfully lonely at times. When the
Academy is open and I have my lessons to study, I don't mind so much. But the holidays
take all the courage out of me."
"We should have fraternized more this week," smiled Ida,
regretting that she hadn't thought of it before. "I couldn't go home
because of the measles, and I've moped a lot. We might have spent the time
together and had a real nice, jolly holiday."
The other Ida blushed with delight.
"I'd love to be friends with you," she said slowly.
"I've often thought I'd like to know you. Isn't it odd that we have the
same name? It was so nice of you to come and see me. I—I'd love to have you
come often."
"I will," said Ida heartily.
"Perhaps you will stay the evening," suggested the other
Ida. "I've asked some of the girls who board here in to have some cake,
I'm so glad to be able to give them something—they've all been so good to me.
They are all clerks in stores and some of them are so tired and lonely. It's so
nice to have a pleasure to share with them. Won't you stay?"
"I'd like to," laughed Ida, "but I have some guests
of my own invited in for tonight. I must hurry home, for they will most surely
be waiting for me."
She laughed again as she thought what else the guests would be
waiting for. But her face was sober enough as she walked home.
"But I'm glad I left the cake with her," she said
resolutely. "Poor little thing! It means so much to her. It meant only 'a
good feed,' as Josie says, to me. I'm simply going to make it my business next
term to be good friends with the other Ida Mitchell. I'm afraid we third-year
girls are very self-centred and selfish. And I know what I'll do! I'll write to
Abby Morton in Trenton to send me Mrs. Henderson's address, and I'll write her
a letter and ask her not to let Ida know she didn't send the cake."
Ida went into a confectionery store and invested in what Josie Pye
was wont to call "ready-to-wear eatables"—fancy cakes, fruit, and
candies. When she reached her room she found it full of expectant girls, with
Miss Monroe enthroned in the midst of them—Miss Monroe in a wonderful evening
dress of black lace and yellow silk, with roses in her hair and pearls on her
neck—all donned in honour of Ida's little celebration. I won't say that, just
for a moment, Ida didn't regret that she had given up her cake.
"Good evening, Miss Mitchell," cried Mary Craig gaily.
"Walk right in and make yourself at home in your own room, do! We all met
in the hall, and knocked and knocked. Finally Miss Monroe came, so we made bold
to walk right in. Where is the only and original fruit cake, Ida? My mouth has
been watering all day."
"The other Ida Mitchell is probably entertaining her friends
at this moment with my fruit cake," said Ida, with a little laugh.
Then she told the whole story.
"I'm so sorry to disappoint you," she concluded,
"but I simply couldn't tell that poor, lonely child that the cake wasn't
intended for her. I've brought all the goodies home with me that I could buy,
and we'll have to do the best we can without the fruit cake."
Their "best" proved to be a very good thing. They had a
jolly New Year's Eve, and Miss Monroe sparkled and entertained most brilliantly.
They kept their celebration up until twelve to welcome the new year in, and
then they bade Ida good night. But Miss Monroe lingered for a moment behind the
others to say softly:
"I want to tell you how good and sweet I think it was of you
to give up your cake to the other Ida. That little bit of unselfishness was a
good guerdon for your new year."
And Ida, radiant-faced at this praise from her idol, answered
heartily:
"I'm afraid I'm anything but unselfish, Miss Monroe. But I
mean to try to be more this coming year and think a little about the girls
outside of my own little set who may be lonely or discouraged. The other Ida
Mitchell isn't going to have to depend on that fruit cake alone for comfort and
encouragement for the next twelve months."
12.In the Old Valley
The man halted on the
crest of the hill and looked sombrely down into the long valley below. It was
evening, and although the hills around him were still in the light the valley
was already filled with kindly, placid shadows. A wind that blew across it from
the misty blue sea beyond was making wild music in the rugged firs above his
head as he stood in an angle of the weather-grey longer fence, knee-deep in
bracken. It had been by these firs he had halted twenty years ago, turning for
one last glance at the valley below, the home valley which he had never seen
since. But then the firs had been little more than vigorous young saplings;
they were tall, gnarled trees now, with lichened trunks, and their lower boughs
were dead. But high up their tops were green and caught the saffron light of
the west. He remembered that when a boy he had thought there was nothing more
beautiful than the evening sunshine falling athwart the dark green fir boughs
on the hills.
As he listened to the swish and murmur of the wind, the earth-old
tune with the power to carry the soul back to the dawn of time, the years fell
away from him and he forgot much, remembering more. He knew now that there had
always been a longing in his heart to hear the wind-chant in the firs. He had
called that longing by other names, but he knew it now for what it was when,
hearing, he was satisfied.
He was a tall man with iron-grey hair and the face of a
conqueror—strong, pitiless, unswerving. Eagle eyes, quick to discern and
unfaltering to pursue; jaw square and intrepid; mouth formed to keep secrets
and cajole men to his will—a face that hid much and revealed little. It told of
power and intellect, but the soul of the man was a hidden thing. Not in the
arena where he had fought and triumphed, giving fierce blow for blow, was it to
be shown; but here, looking down on the homeland, with the strength of the
hills about him, it rose dominantly and claimed its own. The old bond held.
Yonder below him was home—the old house that had sheltered him, the graves of
his kin, the wide fields where his boyhood dreams had been dreamed.
Should he go down to it? This was the question he asked himself.
He had come back to it, heartsick of his idols of the marketplace. For years
they had satisfied him, the buying and selling and getting gain, the pitting of
strength and craft against strength and craft, the tireless struggle, the
exultation of victory. Then, suddenly, they had failed their worshipper; they
ceased to satisfy; the sacrifices he had heaped on their altars availed him
nothing in this new need and hunger of his being. His gods mocked him and he
wearied of their service. Were there not better things than these, things he
had once known and loved and forgotten? Where were the ideals of his youth, the
lofty aspirations that had upborne him then? Where was the eagerness and zest
of new dawns, the earnestness of well-filled, purposeful hours of labour, the
satisfaction of a good day worthily lived, at eventide the unbroken rest of
long, starry nights? Where might he find them again? Were they yet to be had
for the seeking in the old valley? With the thought came a great yearning for
home. He had had many habitations, but he realized now that he had never
thought of any of these places as home. That name had all unconsciously been
kept sacred to the long, green, seaward-looking glen where he had been born.
So he had come back to it, drawn by a longing not to be resisted.
But at the last he felt afraid. There had been many changes, of that he felt
sure. Would it still be home? And if not, would not the loss be most
irreparable and bitter? Would it not be better to go away, having looked at it
from the hill and having heard the saga of the firs, keeping his memory of it
unblurred, than risk the probable disillusion of a return to the places that
had forgotten him and friends whom the varying years must certainly have
changed as he had changed himself? No, he would not go down. It had been a
foolish whim to come at all—foolish, because the object of his quest was not to
be found there or elsewhere. He could not enter again into the heritage of
boyhood and the heart of youth. He could not find there the old dreams and
hopes that had made life sweet. He understood that he could not bring back to
the old valley what he had taken from it. He had lost that intangible, all-real
wealth of faith and idealism and zest; he had bartered it away for the hard,
yellow gold of the marketplace, and he realized at last how much poorer he was
than when he had left that home valley. His was a name that stood for millions,
but he was beggared of hope and purpose.
No, he would not go down. There was no one left there, unchanged
and unchanging, to welcome him. He would be a stranger there, even among his
kin. He would stay awhile on the hill, until the night came down over it, and
then he would go back to his own place.
Down below him, on the crest of a little upland, he saw his old
home, a weather-grey house, almost hidden among white birch and apple trees,
with a thick fir grove to the north of it. He had been born in that old house;
his earliest memory was of standing on its threshold and looking afar up to the
long green hills.
"What is over the hills?" he had asked of his mother.
With a smile she had made answer,
"Many things, laddie. Wonderful things, beautiful things,
heart-breaking things."
"Some day I shall go over the hills and find them all,
Mother," he had said stoutly.
She had laughed and sighed and caught him to her heart. He had no
recollection of his father, who had died soon after his son's birth, but how
well he remembered his mother, his little, brown-eyed, girlish-faced mother!
He had lived on the homestead until he was twenty. He had tilled
the broad fields and gone in and out among the people, and their life had been
his life. But his heart was not in his work. He wanted to go beyond the hills
and seek what he knew must be there. The valley was too narrow, too placid. He
longed for conflict and accomplishment. He felt power and desire and the lust
of endeavour stirring in him. Oh, to go over the hills to a world where men
lived! Such had been the goal of all his dreams.
When his mother died he sold the farm to his cousin, Stephen Marshall.
He supposed it still belonged to him. Stephen had been a good sort of a fellow,
a bit slow and plodding, perhaps, bovinely content to dwell within the hills,
never hearkening or responding to the lure of the beyond. Yet it might be he
had chosen the better part, to dwell thus on the land of his fathers, with a
wife won in youth, and children to grow up around him. The childless, wifeless
man looking down from the hill wondered if it might have been so with him had
he been content to stay in the valley. Perhaps so. There had been Joyce.
He wondered where Joyce was now and whom she had married, for of
course she had married. Did she too live somewhere down there in the valley,
the matronly, contented mother of lads and lassies? He could see her old home
also, not so far from his own, just across a green meadow by way of a footpath
and stile and through the firs beyond it. How often he had traversed that path
in the old days, knowing that Joyce would be waiting at the end of it among the
firs—Joyce, the playmate of childhood, the sweet confidante and companion of
youth! They had never been avowed lovers, but he had loved her then, as a boy
loves, although he had never said a word of love to her. Joyce alone knew of
his longings and his ambitions and his dreams; he had told them all to her
freely, sure of the understanding and sympathy no other soul in the valley
could give him. How true and strong and womanly and gentle she had always been!
When he left home he had meant to go back to her some day. They
had parted without pledge or kiss, yet he knew she loved him and that he loved
her. At first they corresponded, then the letters began to grow fewer. It was
his fault; he had gradually forgotten. The new, fierce, burning interests that
came into his life crowded the old ones out. Boyhood's love was scorched up in
that hot flame of ambition and contest. He had not heard from or of Joyce for
many years. Now, again, he remembered as he looked down on the homeland fields.
The old places had changed little, whatever he might fear of the
people who lived in them. There was the school he had attended, a small,
low-eaved, white-washed building set back from the main road among green
spruces. Beyond it, amid tall elms, was the old church with its square tower
hung with ivy. He felt glad to see it; he had expected to see a new church,
offensively spick-and-span and modern, for this church had been old when he was
a boy. He recalled the many times he had walked to it on the peaceful Sunday
afternoons, sometimes with his mother, sometimes with Joyce.
The sun set far out to sea and sucked down with it all the light
out of the winnowed dome of sky. The stars came out singly and crystal clear
over the far purple curves of the hills. Suddenly, glancing over his shoulder,
he saw through an arch of black fir boughs a young moon swung low in a lake of
palely tinted saffron sky. He smiled a little, remembering that in boyhood it
had been held a good omen to see the new moon over the right shoulder.
Down in the valley the lights began to twinkle out here and there
like earth-stars. He would wait until he saw the kitchen light from the window
of his old home. Then he would go. He waited until the whole valley was zoned
with a glittering girdle, but no light glimmered out through his native trees.
Why was it lacking, that light he had so often hailed at dark, coming home from
boyish rambles on the hills? He felt anxious and dissatisfied, as if he could
not go away until he had seen it.
When it was quite dark he descended the hill resolutely. He must
know why the homelight had failed him. When he found himself in the old garden
his heart grew sick and sore with disappointment and a bitter homesickness. It
needed but a glance, even in the dimness of the summer night, to see that the
old house was deserted and falling to decay. The kitchen door swung open on
rusty hinges; the windows were broken and lifeless; weeds grew thickly over the
yard and crowded wantonly up to the very threshold through the chinks of the
rotten platform.
Cuthbert Marshall sat down on the old red sandstone step of the
door and bowed his head in his hands. This was what he had come back to—this
ghost and wreck of his past! Oh, bitterness!
From where he sat he saw the new house that Stephen had built
beyond the fir grove, with a cheerful light shining from its window. After a
long time he went over to it and knocked at the door. Stephen came to it, a
stout grizzled farmer, with a chubby boy on his shoulder. He was not much
changed; Cuthbert easily recognized him, but to Stephen Marshall no recognition
came of this man with whom he had played and worked for years. Cuthbert was
obliged to tell who he was. He was made instantly and warmly welcome. Stephen
was unfeignedly glad to see him, and Stephen's comely wife, whom he remembered
as a slim, fresh-cheeked valley girl, extended a kind and graceful hospitality.
The boys and girls, too, soon made friends with him. Yet he felt himself the
stranger and the alien, whom the long, swift-passing years had shut forever
from his old place.
He and Stephen talked late that night, and in the morning he
yielded to their entreaties to stay another day with them. He spent it
wandering about the farm and the old haunts of wood and stream. Yet he could
not find himself. This valley had his past in its keeping, but it could not
give it back to him; he had lost the master word that might have compelled it.
He asked Stephen fully about all his old friends and neighbours
with one exception. He could not ask him what had become of Joyce Cameron. The
question was on his lips a dozen times, but he shrank from uttering it. He had
a vague, secret dread that the answer, whatever it might be, would hurt him.
In the evening he yielded to a whim and went across to the Cameron
homestead, by the old footpath which was still kept open. He walked slowly and
dreamily, with his eyes on the far hills scarfed in the splendour of sunset. So
he had walked in the old days, but he had no dreams now of what lay beyond the
hills, and Joyce would not be waiting among the firs.
The stile he remembered was gone, replaced by a little rustic
gate. As he passed through it he lifted his eyes and there before him he saw
her, standing tall and gracious among the grey trees, with the light from the
west falling over her face. So she had stood, so she had looked many an evening
of the long-ago. She had not changed; he realized that in the first amazed,
incredulous glance. Perhaps there were lines on her face, a thread or two of
silver in the soft brown hair, but those splendid steady blue eyes were the
same, and the soul of her looked out through them, true to itself, the staunch,
brave, sweet soul of the maiden ripened to womanhood.
"Joyce!" he said, stupidly, unbelievingly.
She smiled and put out her hand. "I am glad to see you,
Cuthbert," she said simply. "Stephen's Mary told me you had come. And
I thought you would be over to see us this evening."
She had offered him only one hand but he took both and held her
so, looking hungrily down at her as a man looks at something he knows must be
his salvation if salvation exists for him.
"Is it possible you are here still, Joyce?" he said
slowly. "And you have not changed at all."
She coloured slightly and pulled away her hands, laughing.
"Oh, indeed I have. I have grown old. The twilight is so kind it hides
that, but it is true. Come into the house, Cuthbert. Father and Mother will be
glad to see you."
"After a little," he said imploringly. "Let us stay
here awhile first, Joyce. I want to make sure that this is no dream. Last night
I stood on those hills yonder and looked down, but I meant to go away because I
thought there would be no one left to welcome me. If I had known you were here!
You have lived here in the old valley all these years?"
"All these years," she said gently, "I suppose you
think it must have been a very meagre life?"
"No. I am much wiser now than I was once, Joyce. I have
learned wisdom beyond the hills. One learns there—in time—but sometimes the
lesson is learned too late. Shall I tell you what I have learned, Joyce? The
gist of the lesson is that I left happiness behind me in the old valley, when I
went away from it, happiness and peace and the joy of living. I did not miss
these things for a long while; I did not even know I had lost them. But I have
discovered my loss."
"Yet you have been a very successful man," she said
wonderingly.
"As the world calls success," he answered bitterly.
"I have place and wealth and power. But that is not success, Joyce. I am
tired of these things; they are the toys of grown-up children; they do not
satisfy the man's soul. I have come back to the old valley seeking for what
might satisfy, but I have little hope of finding it, unless—unless—"
He was silent, remembering that he had forfeited all right to her
help in the quest. Yet he realized clearly that only she could help him, only
she could guide him back to the path he had missed. It seemed to him that she
held in her keeping all the good of his life, all the beauty of his past, all
the possibilities of his future. Hers was the master word, but how should he
dare ask her to utter it?
They walked among the firs until the stars came out, and they
talked of many things. She had kept her freshness of soul and her ideals
untarnished. In the peace of the old valley she had lived a life, narrow
outwardly, wondrously deep and wide in thought and aspiration. Her native hills
bounded the vision of her eyes, but the outlook of the soul was far and
unhindered. In the quiet places and the green ways she had found what he had
failed to find—the secret of happiness and content. He knew that if this woman
had walked hand in hand with him through the years, life, even in the glare and
tumult of that world beyond the hills, would never have lost its meaning for
him. Oh, fool and blind that he had been! While he had sought and toiled afar,
the best that God had meant for him had been here in the home of youth. When
darkness came down through the firs he told her all this, haltingly,
blunderingly, yearningly.
"Joyce, is it too late? Can you forgive my mistake, my long
blindness? Can you care for me again—a little?"
She turned her face upward to the sky between the swaying fir tops
and he saw the reflection of a star in her eyes. "I have never ceased to
care," she said in a low tone. "I never really wanted to cease. It would
have left life too empty. If my love means so much to you it is yours,
Cuthbert—it always has been yours."
He drew her close into his arms, and as he felt her heart beating
against his he understood that he had found the way back to simple happiness and
true wisdom, the wisdom of loving and the happiness of being loved.
13.Jane Lavinia
Jane Lavinia put her
precious portfolio down on the table in her room, carefully, as if its contents
were fine gold, and proceeded to unpin and take off her second-best hat. When
she had gone over to the Whittaker place that afternoon, she had wanted to wear
her best hat, but Aunt Rebecca had vetoed that uncompromisingly.
"Next thing you'll be wanting to wear your best muslin to go
for the cows," said Aunt Rebecca sarcastically. "You go right back
upstairs and take off that chiffon hat. If I was fool enough to be coaxed into
buying it for you, I ain't going to have you spoil it by traipsing hither and
yon with it in the dust and sun. Your last summer's sailor is plenty good
enough to go to the Whittakers' in, Jane Lavinia."
"But Mr. Stephens and his wife are from New York,"
pleaded Jane Lavinia, "and she's so stylish."
"Well, it's likely they're used to seeing chiffon hats,"
Aunt Rebecca responded, more sarcastically than ever. "It isn't probable
that yours would make much of a sensation. Mr. Stephens didn't send for you to
show him your chiffon hat, did he? If he did, I don't see what you're lugging
that big portfolio along with you for. Go and put on your sailor hat, Jane
Lavinia."
Jane Lavinia obeyed. She always obeyed Aunt Rebecca. But she took
off the chiffon hat and pinned on the sailor with bitterness of heart. She had
always hated that sailor. Anything ugly hurt Jane Lavinia with an intensity
that Aunt Rebecca could never understand; and the sailor hat was ugly, with its
stiff little black bows and impossible blue roses. It jarred on Jane Lavinia's
artistic instincts. Besides, it was very unbecoming.
I look horrid in it, Jane Lavinia had thought sorrowfully; and
then she had gone out and down the velvet-green springtime valley and over the
sunny birch hill beyond with a lagging step and a rebellious heart.
But Jane Lavinia came home walking as if on the clear air of the
crystal afternoon, her small, delicate face aglow and every fibre of her body
and spirit thrilling with excitement and delight. She forgot to fling the
sailor hat into its box with her usual energy of dislike. Just then Jane
Lavinia had a soul above hats. She looked at herself in the glass and nodded
with friendliness.
"You'll do something yet," she said. "Mr. Stephens
said you would. Oh, I like you, Jane Lavinia, you dear thing! Sometimes I
haven't liked you because you're nothing to look at, and I didn't suppose you
could really do anything worthwhile. But I do like you now after what Mr.
Stephens said about your drawings."
Jane Lavinia smiled radiantly into the little cracked glass. Just
then she was pretty, with the glow on her cheeks and the sparkle in her eyes.
Her uncertainly tinted hair and an all-too-certain little tilt of her nose no
longer troubled her. Such things did not matter; nobody would mind them in a
successful artist. And Mr. Stephens had said that she had talent enough to win
success.
Jane Lavinia sat down by her window, which looked west into a
grove of firs. They grew thickly, close up to the house, and she could touch
their wide, fan-like branches with her hand. Jane Lavinia loved those fir trees,
with their whispers and sighs and beckonings, and she also loved her little
shadowy, low-ceilinged room, despite its plainness, because it was gorgeous for
her with visions and peopled with rainbow fancies.
The stained walls were covered with Jane Lavinia's pictures—most
of them pen-and-ink sketches, with a few flights into water colour. Aunt
Rebecca sniffed at them and deplored the driving of tacks into the plaster.
Aunt Rebecca thought Jane Lavinia's artistic labours a flat waste of time,
which would have been much better put into rugs and crochet tidies and afghans.
All the other girls in Chestercote made rugs and tidies and afghans. Why must
Jane Lavinia keep messing with ink and crayons and water colours?
Jane Lavinia only knew that she must—she could not
help it. There was something in her that demanded expression thus.
When Mr. Stephens, who was a well-known artist and magazine
illustrator, came to Chestercote because his wife's father, Nathan Whittaker,
was ill, Jane Lavinia's heart had bounded with a shy hope. She indulged in some
harmless manoeuvring which, with the aid of good-natured Mrs. Whittaker, was
crowned with success. One day, when Mr. Whittaker was getting better, Mr.
Stephens had asked her to show him some of her work. Jane Lavinia, wearing the
despised sailor hat, had gone over to the Whittaker place with some of her best
sketches. She came home again feeling as if all the world and herself were
transfigured.
She looked out from the window of her little room with great
dreamy brown eyes, seeing through the fir boughs the golden western sky beyond,
serving as a canvas whereon her fancy painted glittering visions of her future.
She would go to New York—and study—and work, oh, so hard—and go abroad—and work
harder—and win success—and be great and admired and famous—if only Aunt
Rebecca—ah! if only Aunt Rebecca! Jane Lavinia sighed. There was spring in the
world and spring in Jane Lavinia's heart; but a chill came with the thought of
Aunt Rebecca, who considered tidies and afghans nicer than her pictures.
"But I'm going, anyway," said Jane Lavinia decidedly.
"If Aunt Rebecca won't give me the money, I'll find some other way. I'm
not afraid of any amount of work. After what Mr. Stephens said, I believe I
could work twenty hours out of the twenty-four. I'd be content to live on a
crust and sleep in a garret—yes, and wear sailor hats with stiff bows and blue
roses the year round."
Jane Lavinia sighed in luxurious renunciation. Oh, it was good to
be alive—to be a girl of seventeen, with wonderful ambitions and all the world
before her! The years of the future sparkled and gleamed alluringly. Jane
Lavinia, with her head on the window sill, looked out into the sunset splendour
and dreamed.
Athwart her dreams, rending in twain their frail, rose-tinted
fabric, came Aunt Rebecca's voice from the kitchen below, "Jane Lavinia!
Jane Lavinia! Ain't you going for the cows tonight?"
Jane Lavinia started up guiltily; she had forgotten all about the
cows. She slipped off her muslin dress and hurried into her print; but with all
her haste it took time, and Aunt Rebecca was grimmer than ever when Jane
Lavinia ran downstairs.
"It'll be dark before we get the cows milked. I s'pose you've
been day-dreaming again up there. I do wish, Jane Lavinia, that you had more sense."
Jane Lavinia made no response. At any other time she would have
gone out with a lump in her throat; but now, after what Mr. Stephens had said,
Aunt Rebecca's words had no power to hurt her.
"After milking I'll ask her about it," she said to
herself, as she went blithely down the sloping yard, across the little mossy
bridge over the brook, and up the lane on the hill beyond, where the ferns grew
thickly and the grass was beset with tiny blue-eyes like purple stars. The air
was moist and sweet. At the top of the lane a wild plum tree hung out its
branches of feathery bloom against the crimson sky. Jane Lavinia lingered, in
spite of Aunt Rebecca's hurry, to look at it. It satisfied her artistic
instinct and made her glad to be alive in the world where wild plums blossomed
against springtime skies. The pleasure of it went with her through the pasture
and back to the milking yard; and stayed with her while she helped Aunt Rebecca
milk the cows.
When the milk was strained into the creamers down at the spring,
and the pails washed and set in a shining row on their bench, Jane Lavinia
tried to summon up her courage to speak to Aunt Rebecca. They were out on the
back verandah; the spring twilight was purpling down over the woods and fields;
down in the swamp the frogs were singing a silvery, haunting chorus; a little
baby moon was floating in the clear sky above the white-blossoming orchard on
the slope.
Jane Lavinia tried to speak and couldn't. For a wonder, Aunt
Rebecca spared her the trouble.
"Well, what did Mr. Stephens think of your pictures?"
she asked shortly.
"Oh!" Everything that Jane Lavinia wanted to say came
rushing at once and together to her tongue's end. "Oh, Aunt Rebecca, he
was delighted with them! And he said I had remarkable talent, and he wants me
to go to New York and study in an art school there. He says Mrs. Stephens finds
it hard to get good help, and if I'd be willing to work for her in the
mornings, I could live with them and have my afternoons off. So it won't cost
much. And he said he would help me—and, oh, Aunt Rebecca, can't I go?"
Jane Lavinia's breath gave out with a gasp of suspense.
Aunt Rebecca was silent for so long a space that Jane Lavinia had
time to pass through the phases of hope and fear and despair and resignation
before she said, more grimly than ever, "If your mind is set on going, go
you will, I suppose. It doesn't seem to me that I have anything to say in the
matter, Jane Lavinia."
"But, oh, Aunt Rebecca," said Jane Lavinia tremulously.
"I can't go unless you'll help me. I'll have to pay for my lessons at the
art school, you know."
"So that's it, is it? And do you expect me to give you the
money to pay for them, Jane Lavinia?"
"Not give—exactly," stammered Jane Lavinia. "I'll
pay it back some time, Aunt Rebecca. Oh, indeed, I will—when I'm able to earn
money by my pictures!"
"The security is hardly satisfactory," said Aunt Rebecca
immovably. "You know well enough I haven't much money, Jane Lavinia. I
thought when I was coaxed into giving you two quarters' lessons with Miss
Claxton that it was as much as you could expect me to do for you. I didn't
suppose the next thing would be that you'd be for betaking yourself to New York
and expecting me to pay your bills there."
Aunt Rebecca turned and went into the house. Jane Lavinia, feeling
sore and bruised in spirit; fled to her own room and cried herself to sleep.
Her eyes were swollen the next morning, but she was not sulky.
Jane Lavinia never sulked. She did her morning's work faithfully, although
there was no spring in her step. That afternoon, when she was out in the
orchard trying to patch up her tattered dreams, Aunt Rebecca came down the
blossomy avenue, a tall, gaunt figure, with an uncompromising face.
"You'd better go down to the store and get ten yards of white
cotton, Jane Lavinia," she said. "If you're going to New York, you'll
have to get a supply of underclothing made."
Jane Lavinia opened her eyes.
"Oh, Aunt Rebecca, am I going?"
"You can go if you want to. I'll give you all the money I can
spare. It ain't much, but perhaps it'll be enough for a start."
"Oh, Aunt Rebecca, thank you!" exclaimed Jane Lavinia,
crimson with conflicting feelings. "But perhaps I oughtn't to take
it—perhaps I oughtn't to leave you alone—"
If Aunt Rebecca had shown any regret at the thought of Jane
Lavinia's departure, Jane Lavinia would have foregone New York on the spot. But
Aunt Rebecca only said coldly, "I guess you needn't worry over that. I can
get along well enough."
And with that it was settled. Jane Lavinia lived in a whirl of
delight for the next week. She felt few regrets at leaving Chestercote. Aunt
Rebecca would not miss her; Jane Lavinia thought that Aunt Rebecca regarded her
as a nuisance—a foolish girl who wasted her time making pictures instead of
doing something useful. Jane Lavinia had never thought that Aunt Rebecca had
any affection for her. She had been a very little girl when her parents had
died, and Aunt Rebecca had taken her to bring up. Accordingly she had been
"brought up," and she was grateful to Aunt Rebecca, but there was no
closer bond between them. Jane Lavinia would have given love for love
unstintedly, but she never supposed that Aunt Rebecca loved her.
On the morning of departure Jane Lavinia was up and ready early.
Her trunk had been taken over to Mr. Whittaker's the night before, and she was
to walk over in the morning and go with Mr. and Mrs. Stephens to the station.
She put on her chiffon hat to travel in, and Aunt Rebecca did not say a word of
protest. Jane Lavinia cried when she said good-by, but Aunt Rebecca did not
cry. She shook hands and said stiffly, "Write when you get to New York.
You needn't let Mrs. Stephens work you to death either."
Jane Lavinia went slowly over the bridge and up the lane. If only
Aunt Rebecca had been a little sorry! But the morning was perfect and the air
clear as crystal, and she was going to New York, and fame and fortune were to
be hers for the working. Jane Lavinia's spirits rose and bubbled over in a
little trill of song. Then she stopped in dismay. She had forgotten her watch—her
mother's little gold watch; she had left it on her dressing table.
Jane Lavinia hurried down the lane and back to the house. In the
open kitchen doorway she paused, standing on a mosaic of gold and shadow where
the sunshine fell through the morning-glory vines. Nobody was in the kitchen,
but Aunt Rebecca was in the little bedroom that opened off it, crying bitterly
and talking aloud between her sobs, "Oh, she's gone and left me all
alone—my girl has gone! Oh, what shall I do? And she didn't care—she was glad
to go—glad to get away. Well, it ain't any wonder. I've always been too cranky
with her. But I loved her so much all the time, and I was so proud of her! I
liked her picture-making real well, even if I did complain of her wasting her
time. Oh, I don't know how I'm ever going to keep on living now she's
gone!"
Jane Lavinia listened with a face from which all the sparkle and
excitement had gone. Yet amid all the wreck and ruin of her tumbling castles in
air, a glad little thrill made itself felt. Aunt Rebecca was sorry—Aunt Rebecca
did love her after all!
Jane Lavinia turned and walked noiselessly away. As she went
swiftly up the wild plum lane, some tears brimmed up in her eyes, but there was
a smile on her lips and a song in her heart. After all, it was nicer to be
loved than to be rich and admired and famous.
When she reached Mr. Whittaker's, everybody was out in the yard
ready to start.
"Hurry up, Jane Lavinia," said Mr. Whittaker.
"Blest if we hadn't begun to think you weren't coming at all. Lively
now."
"I am not going," said Jane Lavinia calmly.
"Not going?" they all exclaimed.
"No. I'm very sorry, and very grateful to you, Mr. Stephens,
but I can't leave Aunt Rebecca. She'd miss me too much."
"Well, you little goose!" said Mrs. Whittaker.
Mrs. Stephens said nothing, but frowned coldly. Perhaps her
thoughts were less of the loss to the world of art than of the difficulty of
hunting up another housemaid. Mr. Stephens looked honestly regretful.
"I'm sorry, very sorry, Miss Slade," he said. "You
have exceptional talent, and I think you ought to cultivate it."
"I am going to cultivate Aunt Rebecca," said Jane
Lavinia.
Nobody knew just what she meant, but they all understood the
firmness of her tone. Her trunk was taken down out of the express wagon, and
Mr. and Mrs. Stephens drove away. Then Jane Lavinia went home. She found Aunt
Rebecca washing the breakfast dishes, with the big tears rolling down her face.
"Goodness me!" she cried, when Jane Lavinia walked in.
"What's the matter? You ain't gone and been too late!"
"No, I've just changed my mind, Aunt Rebecca. They've gone
without me. I am not going to New York—I don't want to go. I'd rather stay at
home with you."
For a moment Aunt Rebecca stared at her. Then she stepped forward
and flung her arms about the girl.
"Oh, Jane Lavinia," she said with a sob, "I'm so
glad! I couldn't see how I was going to get along without you, but I thought
you didn't care. You can wear that chiffon hat everywhere you want to, and I'll
get you a pink organdy dress for Sundays."
14.Mackereling Out in
the Gulf
The mackerel boats were
all at anchor on the fishing grounds; the sea was glassy calm—a pallid blue,
save for a chance streak of deeper azure where some stray sea breeze ruffled
it.
It was about the middle of the afternoon, and intensely warm and
breathless. The headlands and coves were blurred by a purple heat haze. The
long sweep of the sandshore was so glaringly brilliant that the pained eye
sought relief among the rough rocks, where shadows were cast by the big red
sandstone boulders. The little cluster of fishing houses nearby were bleached
to a silvery grey by long exposure to wind and rain. Far off were several
"Yankee" fishing schooners, their sails dimly visible against the
white horizon.
Two boats were hauled upon the "skids" that ran from the
rocks out into the water. A couple of dories floated below them. Now and then a
white gull, flashing silver where its plumage caught the sun, soared landward.
A young man was standing by the skids, watching the fishing boats
through a spyglass. He was tall, with a straight, muscular figure clad in a
rough fishing suit. His face was deeply browned by the gulf breezes and was
attractive rather than handsome, while his eyes, as blue and clear as the gulf
waters, were peculiarly honest and frank.
Two wiry, dark-faced French-Canadian boys were perched on one of
the boats, watching the fishing fleet with lazy interest in their inky-black
eyes, and wondering if the "Yanks" had seined many mackerel that day.
Presently three people came down the steep path from the
fish-houses. One of them, a girl, ran lightly forward and touched Benjamin
Selby's arm. He lowered his glass with a start and looked around. A flash of
undisguised delight transfigured his face.
"Why, Mary Stella! I didn't expect you'd be down this hot
day. You haven't been much at the shore lately," he added reproachfully.
"I really haven't had time, Benjamin," she answered
carelessly, as she took the glass from his hand and tried to focus it on the
fishing fleet. Benjamin steadied it for her; the flush of pleasure was still
glowing on his bronzed cheek, "Are the mackerel biting now?"
"Not just now. Who is that stranger with your father, Mary
Stella?"
"That is a cousin of ours—a Mr. Braithwaite. Are you very
busy, Benjamin?"
"Not busy at all—idle as you see me. Why?"
"Will you take me out for a little row in the dory? I haven't
been out for so long."
"Of course. Come—here's the dory—your namesake, you know. I
had her fresh painted last week. She's as clean as an eggshell."
The girl stepped daintily off the rocks into the little
cream-coloured skiff, and Benjamin untied the rope and pushed off.
"Where would you like to go, Mary Stella?"
"Oh, just upshore a little way—not far. And don't go out into
very deep water, please, it makes me feel frightened and dizzy."
Benjamin smiled and promised. He was rowing along with the easy
grace of one used to the oar. He had been born and brought up in sound of the
gulf's waves; its never-ceasing murmur had been his first lullaby. He knew it
and loved it in every mood, in every varying tint and smile, in every change of
wind and tide. There was no better skipper alongshore than Benjamin Selby.
Mary Stella waved her hand gaily to the two men on the rocks.
Benjamin looked back darkly.
"Who is that young fellow?" he asked again. "Where
does he belong?"
"He is the son of Father's sister—his favourite sister,
although he has never seen her since she married an American years ago and went
to live in the States. She made Frank come down here this summer and hunt us
up. He is splendid, I think. He is a New York lawyer and very clever."
Benjamin made no response. He pulled in his oars and let the dory
float amid the ripples. The bottom of white sand, patterned over with coloured
pebbles, was clear and distinct through the dark-green water. Mary Stella
leaned over to watch the distorted reflection of her face by the dory's side.
"Have you had pretty good luck this week, Benjamin? Father
couldn't go out much—he has been so busy with his hay, and Leon is such a poor
fisherman."
"We've had some of the best hauls of the summer this week.
Some of the Rustler boats caught six hundred to a line yesterday. We had four
hundred to the line in our boat."
Mary Stella began absently to dabble her slender brown hand in the
water. A silence fell between them, with which Benjamin was well content, since
it gave him a chance to feast his eyes on the beautiful face before him.
He could not recall the time when he had not loved Mary Stella. It
seemed to him that she had always been a part of his inmost life. He loved her
with the whole strength and fidelity of a naturally intense nature. He hoped
that she loved him, and he had no rival that he feared. In secret he exalted
and deified her as something almost too holy for him to aspire to. She was his
ideal of all that was beautiful and good; he was jealously careful over all his
words and thoughts and actions that not one might make him more unworthy of
her. In all the hardship and toil of his life his love was as his guardian
angel, turning his feet from every dim and crooked byway; he trod in no path
where he would not have the girl he loved to follow. The roughest labour was
glorified if it lifted him a step nearer the altar of his worship.
But today he felt faintly disturbed. In some strange, indefinable
way it seemed to him that Mary Stella was different from her usual self. The
impression was vague and evanescent—gone before he could decide wherein the
difference lay. He told himself that he was foolish, yet the vexing, transient
feeling continued to come and go.
Presently Mary Stella said it was time to go back. Benjamin was in
no hurry, but he never disputed her lightest inclination. He turned the dory
about and rowed shoreward.
Back on the rocks, Mosey Louis and Xavier, the French Canadians,
were looking through the spyglass by turns and making characteristic comments
on the fleet. Mr. Murray and Braithwaite were standing by the skids, watching
the dory.
"Who is that young fellow?" asked the latter. "What
a splendid physique he has! It's a pleasure to watch him rowing."
"That," said the older man, with a certain proprietary
pride in his tone, "is Benjamin Selby—the best mackerel fisherman on the
island. He's been high line all along the gulf shore for years. I don't know a
finer man every way you take him. Maybe you'll think I'm partial," he
continued with a smile. "You see, he and Mary Stella think a good deal of
each other. I expect to have Benjamin for a son-in-law some day if all goes
well."
Braithwaite's expression changed slightly. He walked over to the
dory and helped Mary Stella out of it while Benjamin made the painter fast.
When the latter turned, Mary Stella was walking across the rocks with her
cousin. Benjamin's blue eyes darkened, and he strode moodily over to the boats.
"You weren't out this morning, Mr. Murray?"
"No, that hay had to be took in. Reckon I missed it—pretty
good catch, they tell me. Are they getting any now?"
"No. It's not likely the fish will begin to bite again for
another hour."
"I see someone standing up in that off boat, don't I?"
said Mr. Murray, reaching for the spyglass.
"No, that's only Rob Leslie's crew trying to fool us. They've
tried it before this afternoon. They think it would be a joke to coax us out
there to broil like themselves."
"Frank," shouted Mr. Murray, "come here, I want
you."
Aside to Benjamin he said, "He's my nephew—a fine young chap.
You'll like him, I know."
Braithwaite came over, and Mr. Murray put one hand on his shoulder
and one on Benjamin's.
"Boys, I want you to know each other. Benjamin, this is Frank
Braithwaite. Frank, this is Benjamin Selby, the high line of the gulf shore, as
I told you."
While Mr. Murray was speaking, the two men looked steadily at each
other. The few seconds seemed very long; when they had passed, Benjamin knew
that the other man was his rival.
Braithwaite was the first to speak. He put out his hand with easy
cordiality.
"I am glad to meet you, Mr. Selby," he said heartily,
"although I am afraid I should feel very green in the presence of such a
veteran fisherman as yourself."
His frank courtesy compelled some return. Benjamin took the
proffered hand with restraint.
"I'm sorry there's no mackerel going this afternoon,"
continued the American. "I wanted to have a chance at them. I never saw
mackerel caught before. I suppose I'll be very awkward at first."
"It's not a very hard thing to do," said Benjamin
stiffly, speaking for the first time since their meeting. "Most anybody
could catch mackerel for a while—it's the sticking to it that counts."
He turned abruptly and went back to his boat. He could not force
himself to talk civilly to the stranger, with that newly born demon of distrust
gnawing at his heart.
"I think I'll go out," he said. "It's freshening
up. I shouldn't wonder if the mackerel schooled soon."
"I'll go, too, then," said Mr. Murray. "Hi, up
there! Leon and Pete! Hi, I say!"
Two more French Canadians came running down from the Murray
fish-house, where they had been enjoying a siesta. They fished in the Murray
boat. A good deal of friendly rivalry as to catch went on between the two
boats, while Leon and Mosey Louis were bitter enemies on their own personal
account.
"Think you'll try it, Frank?" shouted Mr. Murray.
"Well, not this afternoon," was the answer. "It's
rather hot. I'll see what it is like tomorrow."
The boats were quickly launched and glided out from the shadow of
the cliffs. Benjamin stood at his mast. Mary Stella came down to the water's
edge and waved her hand gaily.
"Good luck to you and the best catch of the season," she
called out.
Benjamin waved his hat in response. His jealousy was forgotten for
the moment and he felt that he had been churlish to Braithwaite.
"You'll wish you'd come," he shouted to him. "It's
going to be a great evening for fish."
When the boats reached the fishing grounds, they came to and
anchored, their masts coming out in slender silhouette against the sky. A row
of dark figures was standing up in every boat; the gulfs shining expanse was
darkened by odd black streaks—the mackerel had begun to school.
Frank Braithwaite went out fishing the next day and caught 30
mackerel. He was boyishly proud of it. He visited the shore daily after that
and soon became very popular. He developed into quite an expert fisherman; nor,
when the boats came in, did he shirk work, but manfully rolled up his trousers
and helped carry water and "gib" mackerel as if he enjoyed it. He
never put on any "airs," and he stoutly took Leon's part against the
aggressive Mosey Louis. Even the French Canadians, those merciless critics,
admitted that the "Yankee" was a good fellow. Benjamin Selby alone
held stubbornly aloof.
One evening the loaded boats came in at sunset. Benjamin sprang
from his as it bumped against the skids, and ran up the path. At the corner of
his fish-house he stopped and stood quite still, looking at Braithwaite and
Mary Stella, who were standing by the rough picket fence of the pasture land.
Braithwaite's back was to Benjamin; he held the girl's hand in his and was
talking earnestly. Mary Stella was looking up at him, her delicate face thrown
back a little. There was a look in her eyes that Benjamin had never seen there
before—but he knew what it meant.
His face grew pale and rigid; he clenched his hands and a
whirlpool of agony and bitterness surged up in his heart. All the great
blossoms of the hope that had shed beauty and fragrance over his rough life
seemed suddenly to shrivel up into black unsightliness.
He turned and went swiftly and noiselessly down the road to his
boat. The murmur of the sea sounded very far off. Mosey Louis was busy counting
out the mackerel, Xavier was dipping up buckets of water and pouring it over
the silvery fish. The sun was setting in a bank of purple cloud, and the long
black headland to the west cut the golden seas like a wedge of ebony. It was
all real and yet unreal. Benjamin went to work mechanically.
Presently Mary Stella came down to her father's boat. Braithwaite
followed slowly, pausing a moment to exchange some banter with saucy Mosey
Louis. Benjamin bent lower over his table; now and then he caught the dear
tones of Mary Stella's voice or her laughter at some sally of Pete or Leon. He
knew when she went up the road with Braithwaite; he caught the last glimpse of
her light dress as she passed out of sight on the cliffs above, but he worked
steadily on and gave no sign.
It was late when they finished. The tired French Canadians went
quickly off to their beds in the fish-house loft. Benjamin stood by the skids
until all was quiet, then he walked down the cove to a rocky point that jutted
out into the water. He leaned against a huge boulder and laid his head on his
arm, looking up into the dark sky. The stars shone calmly down on his misery;
the throbbing sea stretched out before him; its low, murmuring moan seemed to
be the inarticulate voice of his pain.
The air was close and oppressive; fitful flashes of heat lightning
shimmered here and there over the heavy banks of cloud on the horizon; little
wavelets sobbed at the base of the rocks.
When Benjamin lifted his head he saw Frank Braithwaite standing
between him and the luminous water. He took a step forward, and they came face
to face as Braithwaite turned with a start.
Benjamin clenched his hands and fought down a hideous temptation
to thrust his rival off the rock.
"I saw you today," he said in a low, intense tone.
"What do you think of yourself, coming down here to steal the girl I loved
from me? Weren't there enough girls where you came from to choose among? I hate
you. I'd kill you—"
"Selby, stop! You don't know what you are saying. If I have
wronged you, I swear I did it unintentionally. I loved Stella from the
first—who could help it? But I thought she was virtually bound to you, and I
did not try to win her away. You don't know what it cost me to remain passive.
I know that you have always distrusted me, but hitherto you have had no reason
to. But today I found that she was free—that she did not care for you! And I
found—or thought I found—that there was a chance for me. I took it. I forgot
everything else then."
"So she loves you?" said Benjamin dully.
"Yes," said Braithwaite softly.
Benjamin turned on him with sudden passion.
"I hate you—and I am the most miserable wretch alive, but if
she is happy, it is no matter about me. You've won easily what I've slaved and
toiled all my life for. You won't value it as I'd have done—but if you make her
happy, nothing else matters. I've only one favour to ask of you. Don't let her
come to the shore after this. I can't stand it."
August throbbed and burned itself out. Affairs along shore
continued as usual. Benjamin shut his sorrow up in himself and gave no outward
sign of suffering. As if to mock him, the season was one of phenomenal
prosperity; it was a "mackerel year" to be dated from. He worked hard
and unceasingly, sparing himself in no way.
Braithwaite seldom came to the shore now. Mary Stella never. Mr.
Murray had tried to speak of the matter, but Benjamin would not let him.
"It's best that nothing be said," he told him with
simple dignity. He was so calm that Mr. Murray thought he did not care greatly,
and was glad of it. The older man regretted the turn of affairs. Braithwaite
would take his daughter far away from him, as his sister had been taken, and he
loved Benjamin as his own son.
One afternoon Benjamin stood by his boat and looked anxiously at
sea and sky. The French Canadians were eager to go out, for the other boats
were catching.
"I don't know about it," said Benjamin doubtfully.
"I don't half like the look of things. I believe we're in for a squall
before long. It was just such a day three years ago when that terrible squall
came up that Joe Otway got drowned in."
The sky was dun and smoky, the glassy water was copper-hued, the
air was heavy and breathless. The sea purred upon the shore, lapping it
caressingly like some huge feline creature biding its time to seize and crunch
its victim.
"I reckon I'll try it," said Benjamin after a final
scrutiny. "If a squall does come up, we'll have to run for the shore
mighty quick, that's all."
They launched the boat speedily; as there was no wind, they had to
row. As they pulled out, Braithwaite and Leon came down the road and began to
launch the Murray boat.
"If dem two gits caught in a squall dey'll hav a tam,"
grinned Mosey Louis. "Dat Leon, he don't know de fust ting 'bout a boat,
no more dan a cat!"
Benjamin came to anchor close in, but Braithwaite and Leon kept on
until they were further out than any other boat.
"Reckon dey's after cod," suggested Xavier.
The mackerel bit well, but Benjamin kept a close watch on the sky.
Suddenly he saw a dark streak advancing over the water from the northwest. He
wheeled around.
"Boys, the squall's coming! Up with the anchor—quick!"
"Dere's plenty tam," grumbled Mosey Louis, who hated to
leave the fish. "None of de oder boats is goin' in yit."
The squall struck the boat as he spoke. She lurched and staggered.
The water was tossing choppily. There was a sudden commotion all through the fleet
and sails went rapidly up. Mosey Louis turned pale and scrambled about without
delay. Benjamin was halfway to the shore before the sail went up in the Murray
boat.
"Don' know what dey're tinkin' of," growled Mosey Louis.
"Dey'll be drown fust ting!"
Benjamin looked back anxiously. Every boat was making for the
shore. The gale was steadily increasing. He had his doubts about making a
landing himself, and Braithwaite would be twenty minutes later.
"But it isn't my lookout," he muttered.
Benjamin had landed and was hauling up his boat when Mr. Murray
came running down the road.
"Frank?" he gasped. "Him and Leon went out, the
foolish boys! They neither of them know anything about a time like this."
"I guess they'll be all right," said Benjamin
reassuringly. "They were late starting. They may find it rather hard to
land."
The other boats had all got in with more or less difficulty. The
Murray boat alone was out. Men came scurrying along the shore in frightened
groups of two and three.
The boat came swiftly in before the wind. Mr. Murray was half
beside himself.
"It'll be all right, sir," said one of the men. "If
they can't land here, they can beach her on the sandshore."
"If they only knew enough to do that," wailed the old
man. "But they don't—they'll come right on to the rocks."
"Why don't they lower their sail?" said another.
"They will upset if they don't."
"They're lowering it now," said Benjamin.
The boat was now about 300 yards from the shore. The sail did not
go all the way down—it seemed to be stuck.
"Good God, what's wrong?" exclaimed Mr. Murray.
As he spoke, the boat capsized. A yell of horror rose I from the
beach. Mr. Murray sprang toward Benjamin's boat, but one of the men held him
back.
"You can't do it, sir. I don't know that anybody can."
Braithwaite and Leon were clinging to the boat. Benjamin Selby,
standing in the background, his lips set, his hands clenched, was fighting the
hardest battle of his life. He knew that he alone, out of all the men there,
possessed the necessary skill and nerve to reach the boat if she could be
reached at all. There was a bare chance and a great risk. This man whom he
hated was drowning before his eyes. Let him drown, then! Why should he risk—ay,
and perchance lose—his life for his enemy? No one could blame him for refusing—and
if Braithwaite were out of the way, Mary Stella might yet be his!
The temptation and victory passed in a few brief seconds. He
stepped forward, cool and self-possessed.
"I'm going out. I want one man with me. No one with child or
wife. Who'll go?"
"I will," shouted Mosey Louis. "I haf some spat wid
dat Leon, but I not lak to see him drown for all dat!"
Benjamin offered no objection. The French Canadian's arm was
strong and he possessed skill and experience. Mr. Murray caught Benjamin's arm.
"No, no, Benjamin—not you—I can't see both my boys
drowned."
Benjamin gently loosed the old man's hold.
"It's for Mary Stella's sake," he said hoarsely.
"If I don't come back, tell her that."
They launched the large dory with difficulty and pulled out into
the surf. Benjamin did not lose his nerve. His quick arm, his steady eye did
not fail. A dozen times the wild-eyed watchers thought the boat was doomed, but
as often she righted triumphantly.
At last the drowning men were reached and somehow or other hauled on
board Benjamin's craft. It was easier to come back, for they beached the boat
on the sand. With a wild cheer the men on the shore rushed into the surf and
helped to carry the half-unconscious Braithwaite and Leon ashore and up to the
Murray fish-house. Benjamin went home before anyone knew he had gone. Mosey
Louis was left behind to reap the honours; he sat in a circle of admiring lads
and gave all the details of the rescue.
"Dat Leon, he not tink he know so much now!" he said.
Braithwaite came to the shore next day somewhat pale and shaky. He
went straight to Benjamin and held out his hand.
"Thank you," he said simply.
Benjamin bent lower over his work.
"You needn't thank me," he said gruffly. "I wanted
to let you drown. But I went out for Mary Stella's sake. Tell me one thing—I
couldn't bring myself to ask it of anyone else. When are you to
be—married?"
"The 12th of September."
Benjamin did not wince. He turned away and looked out across the
sea for a few moments. The last agony of his great renunciation was upon him.
Then he turned and held out his hand.
"For her sake," he said earnestly.
Frank Braithwaite put his slender white hand into the fisherman's
hard brown palm. There were tears in both men's eyes. They parted in silence.
On the morning of the 12th of September Benjamin Selby went out to
the fishing grounds as usual. The catch was good, although the season was
almost over. In the afternoon the French Canadians went to sleep. Benjamin
intended to row down the shore for salt. He stood by his dory, ready to start,
but he seemed to be waiting for something. At last it came: a faint train
whistle blew, a puff of white smoke floated across a distant gap in the
sandhills.
Mary Stella was gone at last—gone forever from his life. The
honest blue eyes looking out over the sea did not falter; bravely he faced his
desolate future.
The white gulls soared over the water, little swishing ripples
lapped on the sand, and through all the gentle, dreamy noises of the shore came
the soft, unceasing murmur of the gulf.
15.Millicent's Double
When Millicent Moore and
Worth Gordon met each other on the first day of the term in the entrance hall
of the Kinglake High School, both girls stopped short, startled. Millicent
Moore had never seen Worth Gordon before, but Worth Gordon's face she had seen
every day of her life, looking at her out of her own mirror!
They were total strangers, but when two girls look enough alike to
be twins, it is not necessary to stand on ceremony. After the first blank stare
of amazement, both laughed outright. Millicent held out her hand.
"We ought to know each other right away," she said frankly.
"My name is Millicent Moore, and yours is—?"
"Worth Gordon," responded Worth, taking the proffered
hand with dancing eyes. "You actually frightened me when you came around
that corner. For a moment I had an uncanny feeling that I was a disembodied
spirit looking at my own outward shape. I know now what it feels like to have a
twin."
"Isn't it odd that we should look so much alike?" said
Millicent. "Do you suppose we can be any relation? I never heard of any
relations named Gordon."
Worth shook her head. "I'm quite sure we're not," she
said. "I haven't any relatives except my father's stepsister with whom
I've lived ever since the death of my parents when I was a baby."
"Well, you'll really have to count me as a relative after
this," laughed Millicent. "I'm sure a girl who looks as much like you
as I do must be at least as much relation as a stepaunt."
From that moment they were firm friends, and their friendship was
still further cemented by the fact that Worth found it necessary to change her
boarding-house and became Millicent's roommate. Their odd likeness was the
wonder of the school and occasioned no end of amusing mistakes, for all the
students found it hard to distinguish between them. Seen apart it was
impossible to tell which was which except by their clothes and style of
hairdressing. Seen together there were, of course, many minor differences which
served to distinguish them. Both girls were slight, with dark-brown hair, blue
eyes and fair complexions. But Millicent had more colour than Worth. Even in
repose, Millicent's face expressed mirth and fun; when Worth was not laughing
or talking, her face was rather serious. Worth's eyes were darker, and her nose
in profile slightly more aquiline. But still, the resemblance between them was
very striking. In disposition they were also very similar. Both were merry,
fun-loving girls, fond of larks and jokes. Millicent was the more heedless, but
both were impulsive and too apt to do or say anything that came into their
heads without counting the cost. One late October evening Millicent came in,
her cheeks crimson after her walk in the keen autumn air, and tossed two
letters on the study table. "It's a perfect evening, Worth. We had the
jolliest tramp. You should have come with us instead of staying in moping over
your books."
Worth smiled ruefully. "I simply had to prepare those
problems for tomorrow," she said. "You see, Millie dear, there is a
big difference between us in some things at least. I'm poor. I simply have to
pass my exams and get a teacher's licence. So I can't afford to take any
chances. You're just attending high school for the sake of education alone, so
you don't really have to grind as I do."
"I'd like to do pretty well in the exams, though, for Dad's
sake," answered Millicent, throwing aside her wraps. "But I don't
mean to kill myself studying, just the same. Time enough for that when exams
draw nigh. They're comfortably far off yet. But I'm in a bit of a predicament,
Worth, and I don't know what to do. Here are two invitations for Saturday afternoon
and I simply must accept them both. Now, how can I do it?
You're a marvel at mathematics—so work out that problem for me.
"See, here's a note from Mrs. Kirby inviting me to tea at
Beechwood. She called on me soon after the term opened and invited me to tea
the next week. But I had another engagement for that afternoon, so couldn't go.
Mr. Kirby is a business friend of Dad's, and they are very nice people. The
other invitation is to the annual autumn picnic of the Alpha Gammas. Now, Worth
Gordon, I simply must go to that. I wouldn't miss it for
anything. But I don't want to offend Mrs. Kirby, and I'm afraid I shall if I
plead another engagement a second time. Mother will be fearfully annoyed at me
in that case. Dear me, I wish there were two of me, one to go to the Alpha
Gammas and one to Beechwood—Worth Gordon!"
"What's the matter?"
"There are two of me! What's the use of a
double if not for a quandary like this! Worth, you must go to tea at Beechwood
Saturday afternoon in my place. They'll think you are my very self. They'll
never know the difference. Go and keep my place warm for me, there's a
dear."
"Impossible," cried Worth. "I'd never dare! They'd
know there was something wrong."
"They wouldn't—they couldn't. None of the Kirbys have ever
seen me except Mrs. Kirby, and she only for a few minutes one evening at dusk.
They don't know I have a double and they can't possibly suspect. Do go,
Worth. Why, it'll be a regular lark, the best little joke ever! And you'll
oblige me immensely besides. Worthie, please."
Worth did not consent all at once; but the idea rather appealed to
her for its daring and excitement. It would be a lark—just at that time Worth
did not see it in any other light. Besides, she wanted to oblige Millicent, who
coaxed vehemently. Finally, Worth yielded and promised Millicent that she would
go to Beechwood in her place.
"You darling!" said Millicent emphatically, flying to
her table to write acceptances of both invitations.
Saturday afternoon Worth got ready to keep Millicent's engagement.
"Suppose I am found out and expelled from Beechwood in disgrace," she
suggested laughingly, as she arranged her lace bertha before the glass.
"Nonsense," said Millicent, pointing to their reflected
faces. "The Kirbys can never suspect. Why, if it weren't for the hair and
the dresses, I'd hardly know myself which of those reflections belonged to
which."
"What if they begin asking me about the welfare of the
various members of your family?"
"They won't ask any but the most superficial questions. We're
not intimate enough for anything else. I've coached you pretty thoroughly, and
I think you'll get on all right."
Worth's courage carried her successfully through the ordeal of
arriving at Beechwood and meeting Mrs. Kirby. She was unsuspectingly accepted
as Millicent Moore, and found her impersonation of that young lady not at all
difficult. No dangerous subject of conversation was introduced and nothing
personal was said until Mr. Kirby came in. He looked so scrutinizingly at Worth
as he shook hands with her that the latter felt her heart beating very fast.
Did he suspect?
"Upon my word, Miss Moore," he said genially, "you
gave me quite a start at first. You are very like what a half-sister of mine
used to be when a girl long ago. Of course the resemblance must be quite
accidental."
"Of course," said Worth, without any very clear sense of
what she was saying. Her face was uncomfortably flushed and she was glad when
tea was announced.
As nothing more of an embarrassing nature was said, Worth soon
recovered her self-possession and was able to enter into the conversation. She
liked the Kirbys; still, under her enjoyment, she was conscious of a strange,
disagreeable feeling that deepened as the evening wore on. It was not fear—she
was not at all afraid of betraying herself now. It had even been easier than
she had expected. Then what was it? Suddenly Worth flushed again. She knew
now—it was shame. She was a guest in that house as an impostor! What she had
done seemed no longer a mere joke. What would her host and hostess say if they
knew? That they would never know made no difference. She herself
could not forget it, and her realization of the baseness of the deception grew
stronger under Mrs. Kirby's cordial kindness.
Worth never forgot that evening. She compelled herself to chat as
brightly as possible, but under it all was that miserable consciousness of
falsehood, deepening every instant. She was thankful when the time came to
leave. "You must come up often, Miss Moore," said Mrs. Kirby kindly.
"Look upon Beechwood as a second home while you are in Kinglake. We have
no daughter of our own, so we make a hobby of cultivating other people's."
When Millicent returned home from the Alpha Gamma outing, she
found Worth in their room, looking soberly at the mirror. Something in her
chum's expression alarmed her. "Worth, what is it? Did they suspect?"
"No," said Worth slowly. "They never suspected.
They think I am what I pretended to be—Millicent Moore. But, but, I wish I'd
never gone to Beechwood, Millie. It wasn't right. It was mean and wrong. It was
acting a lie. I can't tell you how ashamed I felt when I realized that."
"Nonsense," said Millicent, looking rather sober,
nevertheless. "No harm was done. It's only a good joke, Worth."
"Yes, harm has been done. I've done harm to
myself, for one thing. I've lost my self-respect. I don't blame you, Millie.
It's all my own fault. I've done a dishonourable thing, dishonourable."
Millicent sighed. "The Alpha Gamma picnic was horribly
slow," she said. "I didn't enjoy myself a bit. I wish I had gone to
Beechwood. I didn't think about it's being a practical falsehood before. I
suppose it was. And I've always prided myself on my strict truthfulness! It
wasn't your fault, Worth! It was mine. But it can't be undone now."
"No, it can't be undone," said Worth slowly, "but
it might be confessed. We might tell Mrs. Kirby the truth and ask her to
forgive us."
"I couldn't do such a thing," cried Millicent. "It
isn't to be thought of!"
Nevertheless, Millicent did think of it several times that night
and all through the following Sunday. She couldn't help thinking of it. A
dishonourable trick! That thought stung Millicent. Monday evening Millicent
flung down the book from which she was vainly trying to study.
"Worthie, it's no use. You were right. There's nothing to do
but go and 'fess up to Mrs. Kirby. I can't respect Millicent Moore again until
I do. I'm going right up now."
"I'll go with you," said Worth quietly. "I was
equally to blame and I must take my share of the humiliation."
When the girls reached Beechwood, they were shown into the library
where the family were sitting. Mrs. Kirby came smilingly forward to greet
Millicent when her eyes fell upon Worth. "Why! why!" she
said. "I didn't know you had a twin sister, Miss Moore."
"Neither I have," said Millicent, laughing nervously.
"This is my chum, Worth Gordon, but she is no relation whatever."
At the mention of Worth's name, Mr. Kirby started slightly, but
nobody noticed it. Millicent went on in a trembling voice. "We've come up
to confess something, Mrs. Kirby. I'm sure you'll think it dreadful, but we
didn't mean any harm. We just didn't realize, until afterwards."
Then Millicent, with burning cheeks, told the whole story and
asked to be forgiven. "I, too, must apologize," said Worth, when Millicent
had finished. "Can you pardon me, Mrs. Kirby?"
Mrs. Kirby had listened in amazed silence, but now she laughed.
"Certainly," she said kindly. "I don't suppose it was altogether
right for you girls to play such a trick on anybody. But I can make allowances
for schoolgirl pranks. I was a school girl once myself, and far from a model
one. You have atoned for your mistake by coming so frankly and confessing, and
now we'll forget all about it. I think you have learned your lesson. Both of
you must just sit down and spend the evening with us. Dear me, but you are bewilderingly
alike!"
"I've something I want to say," interposed Mr. Kirby
suddenly. "You say your name is Worth Gordon," he added, turning to
Worth. "May I ask what your mother's name was?"
"Worth Mowbray," answered Worth wonderingly.
"I was sure of it," said Mr. Kirby triumphantly,
"when I heard Miss Moore mention your name. Your mother was my
half-sister, and you are my niece."
Everybody exclaimed and for a few moments they all talked and
questioned together. Then Mr. Kirby explained fully. "I was born on a farm
up-country. My mother was a widow when she married my father, and she had one
daughter, Worth Mowbray, five years older than myself. When I was three years
old, my mother died. Worth went to live with our mother's only living relative,
an aunt. My father and I removed to another section of the country. He, too,
died soon after, and I was brought up with an uncle's family. My sister came to
see me once when she was a girl of seventeen and, as I remember her, very like
you are now. I never saw her again and eventually lost trace of her. Many years
later I endeavoured to find out her whereabouts. Our aunt was dead, and the
people in the village where she had lived informed me that my sister was also
dead. She had married a man named Gordon and had gone away, both she and her
husband had died, and I was informed that they left no children, so I made no
further inquiries. There is no doubt that you are her daughter. Well, well,
this is a pleasant surprise, to find a little niece in this fashion!"
It was a pleasant surprise to Worth, too, who had thought herself
all alone in the world and had felt her loneliness keenly. They had a wonderful
evening, talking and questioning and explaining. Mr. Kirby declared that Worth
must come and live with them. "We have no daughter," he said.
"You must come to us in the place of one, Worth."
Mrs. Kirby seconded this with a cordiality that won Worth's
affection at once. The girl felt almost bewildered by her happiness.
"I feel as if I were in a dream," she said to Millicent
as they walked to their boarding-house. "It's really all too wonderful to
grasp at once. You don't know, Millie, how lonely I've felt often under all my
nonsense and fun. Aunt Delia was kind to me, but she was really no relation,
she had a large family of her own, and I have always felt that she looked upon
me as a rather inconvenient duty. But now I'm so happy!"
"I'm so glad for you, Worth," said Millicent warmly,
"although your gain will certainly be my loss, for I shall miss my
roommate terribly when she goes to live at Beechwood. Hasn't it all turned out
strangely? If you had never gone to Beechwood in my place, this would never
have happened."
"Say rather that if we hadn't gone to confess our fault, it
would never have happened," said Worth gently. "I'm very, very glad
that I have found Uncle George and such a loving welcome to his home. But I'm
gladder still that I've got my self-respect back. I feel that I can look Worth
Gordon in the face again."
"I've learned a wholesome lesson, too," admitted
Millicent.
16.The Blue North Room
"This," said
Sara, laying Aunt Josephina's letter down on the kitchen table with such energy
that in anybody but Sara it must have been said she threw it down, "this
is positively the last straw! I have endured all the rest. I have given up my
chance of a musical education, when Aunt Nan offered it, that I might stay home
and help Willard pay the mortgage off—if it doesn't pay us off first—and I
have, which was much harder, accepted the fact that we can't possibly afford to
send Ray to the Valley Academy, even if I wore the same hat and coat for four
winters. I did not grumble when Uncle Joel came here to live because he wanted
to be 'near his dear nephew's children.' I felt it my Christian duty to look
pleasant when we had to give Cousin Caroline a home to save her from the
poorhouse. But my endurance and philosophy, and worst of all, my furniture, has
reached a limit. I cannot have Aunt Josephina come here to spend the winter,
because I have no room to put her in."
"Hello, Sally, what's the matter?" asked Ray, coming in
with a book. It would have been hard to catch Ray without a book; he generally
took one even to bed with him. Ray had a headful of brains, and Sara thought it
was a burning shame that there seemed to be no chance for his going to college.
"You look all rumpled up in your conscience, beloved sis," the boy
went on, chaffingly.
"My conscience is all right," said Sara severely.
"It's worse than that. If you please, here's a letter from Aunt Josephina!
She writes that she is very lonesome. Her son has gone to South America, and
won't be back until spring, and she wants to come and spend the winter with
us."
"Well, why not?" asked Ray serenely. Nothing ever
bothered Ray. "The more the merrier."
"Ray Sheldon! Where are we to put her? We have no spare room,
as you well know."
"Can't she room with Cousin Caroline?"
"Cousin Caroline's room is too small for two. It's full to
overflowing with her belongings now, and Aunt Josephina will bring two trunks
at least. Try again, bright boy."
"What's the matter with the blue north room?"
"There is nothing the matter with it—oh, nothing at all! We
could put Aunt Josephina there, but where will she sleep? Where will she wash
her face? Will it not seem slightly inhospitable to invite her to sit on a bare
floor? Have you forgotten that there isn't a stick of furniture in the blue
north room and, worse still, that we haven't a spare cent to buy any, not even
the cheapest kind?"
"I'll give it up," said Ray. "I might have a try at
squaring the circle if you asked me, but the solution of the Aunt Josephina
problem is beyond me."
"The solution is simply that we must write to Aunt Josephina,
politely but firmly, that we can't have her come, owing to lack of
accommodation. You must write the letter, Ray. Make it as polite as you can,
but above all make it firm."
"Oh, but Sally, dear," protested Ray, who didn't relish
having to write such a letter, "isn't this rather hasty, rather
inhospitable? Poor Aunt Josephina must really be rather lonely, and it's only
natural she should want to visit her relations."
"We're not her relations," cried Sara.
"We're not a speck of relation really. She's only the half-sister of
Mother's half-brother. That sounds nice and relationy, doesn't it? And she's
fussy and interfering, and she will fight with Cousin Caroline, everybody
fights with Cousin Caroline—"
"Except Sara," interrupted Ray, but Sara went on with a
rush, "And we won't have a minute's peace all winter. Anyhow, where could
we put her even if we wanted her to come? No, we can't have her!"
"Mother was always very fond of Aunt Josephina," said
Ray reflectively. Sara had her lips open, all ready to answer whatever Ray
might say, but she shut them suddenly and the boy went on. "Aunt Josephina
thought a lot of Mother, too. She used to say she knew there was always a
welcome for her at Maple Hollow. It does seem a pity, Sally dear, for your
mother's daughter to send word to Aunt Josephina, per my mother's son, that
there isn't room for her any longer at Maple Hollow."
"I shall leave it to Willard," said Sara abruptly.
"If he says to let her come, come she shall, even if Dorothy and I have to
camp in the barn."
"I'm going to have a prowl around the garret," said Ray,
apropos of nothing.
"And I shall get the tea ready," answered Sara briskly.
"Dorothy will be home from school very soon, and I hear Uncle Joel
stirring. Willard won't be back till dark, so there is no use waiting for
him."
At twilight Sara decided to walk up the lane and meet Willard. She
always liked to meet him thus when he had been away for a whole day. Sara
thought there was nobody in the world as good and dear as Willard.
It was a dull grey November twilight; the maples in the hollow
were all leafless, and the hawthorn hedge along the lane was sere and frosted;
a little snow had fallen in the afternoon, and lay in broad patches on the
brown fields. The world looked very dull and dispirited, and Sara sighed. She
could not help thinking of the dark side of things just then. "Everything
is wrong," said poor Sara dolefully. "Willard has to work like a
slave, and yet with all his efforts he can barely pay the interest on the
mortgage. And Ray ought to go to college. But I don't see how we can ever
manage. To be sure, he won't be ready until next fall, but we won't have the
money then any more than now. It would take every bit of a hundred and fifty
dollars to fit him out with books and clothes, and pay for board and tuition at
the academy. If he could just have a year there he could teach and earn his own
way through college. But we might as well hope for the moon as one hundred and
fifty dollars."
Sara sighed again. She was only eighteen, but she felt very old.
Willard was nineteen, and Willard had never had a chance to be young. His
father had died when he was twelve, and he had run the farm since then, he and
Sara together indeed, for Sara was a capital planner and manager and worker.
The little mother had died two years ago, and the household cares had all
fallen on Sara's shoulders since. Sometimes, as now, they pressed very heavily,
but a talk with Willard always heartened her up. Willard had his blue spells
too, but Sara thought it a special Providence that their blue turns never came
together. When one got downhearted the other was always ready to do the
cheering up.
Sara was glad to hear Willard whistling when he drove into the
lane; it was a sign he was in good spirits. He pulled up, and Sara climbed into
the wagon.
"Things go all right today, Sally?" he asked cheerfully.
"There was a letter from Aunt Josephina," answered Sara,
anxious to get the worst over, "and she wants to come to Maple Hollow for
the winter. I thought at first we just couldn't have her, but I decided to
leave it to you."
"Well, we've got a pretty good houseful already," said
Willard thoughtfully. "But I suppose if Aunt Josephina wants to come we'd
better have her. I always liked Aunt Josephina, and so did Mother, you
know."
"I don't know where we can put her. We haven't any spare
room, Will."
"Ray and I can sleep in the kitchen loft. You and Dolly take
our room, and let Aunt Josephina take yours."
"The kitchen loft isn't really fit to sleep in," said
Sara pessimistically. "It's awfully cold, and there're mice and rats—ugh!
You and Ray will get nibbled in spots. But it's the only thing to do if we must
have Aunt Josephina. I'll get Ray to write to her tomorrow. I couldn't put enough
cordiality into the letter if I wrote it myself."
Ray came in while Willard was at supper. There were cobwebs all
over him from his head to his heels. "I've solved the Aunt J.
problem," he announced cheerfully. "We will furnish the blue north
room."
"With what?" asked Sara disbelievingly.
"I've been poking about in the garret and in the carriage
house loft," said Ray, "and I've found furniture galore. It's very
old and cobwebby—witness my appearance—and very much in want of scrubbing and a
few nails. But it will do."
"I'd forgotten about those old things," said Sara
slowly. "They've never been used since I can remember, and long before.
They were discarded before Mother came here. But I thought they were all broken
and quite useless."
"Not at all. I believe we can furbish them up sufficiently to
make the room habitable. It will be rather old-fashioned, but then it's
Hobson's choice. There are the pieces of an old bed out in the loft, and they
can be put together. There's an old corner cupboard out there too, with leaded
glass doors, two old solid wooden armchairs, and a funny old chest of drawers
with a writing desk in place of the top drawer, all full of yellow old letters
and trash. I found it under a pile of old carpet. Then there's a washstand, and
also a towel rack up in the garret, and the funniest old table with three claw
legs, and a tippy top. One leg is broken off, but I hunted around and found it,
and I guess we can fix it on. And there are two more old chairs and a queer
little oval table with a cracked swing mirror on it."
"I have it," exclaimed Sara, with a burst of
inspiration, "let us fix up a real old-fashioned room for Aunt Josephina.
It won't do to put anything modern with those old things. One would kill the
other. I'll put Mother's rag carpet down in it, and the four braided mats
Grandma Sheldon gave me, and the old brass candlestick and the Irish chain
coverlet. Oh, I believe it will be lots of fun."
It was. For a week the Sheldons hammered and glued and washed and
consulted. The north room was already papered with a blue paper of an
old-fashioned stripe-and-diamond pattern. The rag carpet was put down, and the
braided rugs laid on it. The old bedstead was set up in one corner and, having
been well cleaned and polished with beeswax and turpentine, was really a
handsome piece of furniture. On the washstand Sara placed a quaint old basin
and ewer which had been Grandma Sheldon's. Ray had fixed up the table as good
as new; Sara had polished the brass claws, and on the table she put the brass
tray, two candlesticks, and snuffers which had been long stowed away in the
kitchen loft. The dressing table and swing mirror, with its scroll frame of
tarnished gilt, was in the window corner, and opposite it was the old chest of
drawers. The cupboard was set up in a corner, and beside it stood the
spinning-wheel from the kitchen loft. The big grandfather clock, which had
always stood in the hall below was carried up, and two platters of blue
willow-ware were set up over the mantel. Above them was hung the faded sampler
that Grandma Sheldon had worked ninety years ago when she was a little girl.
"Do you know," said Sara, when they stood in the middle
of the room and surveyed the result, "I expected to have a good laugh over
this, but it doesn't look funny after all. The things all seem to suit each
other, some way, and they look good, don't they? I mean they look real,
clear through. I believe that table and those drawers are solid mahogany. And
look at the carving on those bedposts. Cleaning them has made such a difference.
I do hope Aunt Josephina won't mind their being so old."
Aunt Josephina didn't. She was very philosophical about it when
Sara explained that Cousin Caroline had the spare room, and the blue north room
was all they had left. "Oh, it will be all right," she said, plainly
determined to make the best of things. "Those old things are thought a lot
of now, anyhow. I can't say I fancy them much myself—I like something a little
brighter. But the rich folks have gone cracked over them. I know a woman in
Boston that's got her whole house furnished with old truck, and as soon as she
hears of any old furniture anywhere she's not contented till she's got it. She
says it's her hobby, and she spends a heap on it. She'd be in raptures if she
saw this old room of yours, Sary."
"Do you mean," said Sara slowly, "that there are
people who would buy old things like these?"
"Yes, and pay more for them than would buy a real nice set
with a marble-topped burey. You may well say there's lots of fools in the
world, Sary." Sara was not saying or thinking any such thing. It was a new
idea to her that any value was attached to old furniture, for Sara lived very
much out of the world of fads and collectors. But she did not forget what Aunt
Josephina had said.
The winter passed away. Aunt Josephina plainly enjoyed her visit,
whatever the Sheldons felt about it. In March her son returned, and Aunt
Josephina went home to him. Before she left, Sara asked her for the address of
the woman whose hobby was old furniture, and the very afternoon after Aunt
Josephina had gone Sara wrote and mailed a letter. For a week she looked so
mysterious that Willard and Ray could not guess what she was plotting. At the
end of that time Mrs. Stanton came.
Mrs. Stanton always declared afterwards that the mere sight of
that blue north room gave her raptures. Such a find! Such a discovery! A
bedstead with carved posts, a claw-footed table, real old willow-ware plates
with the birds' bills meeting! Here was luck, if you like!
When Willard and Ray came home to tea Sara was sitting on the
stairs counting her wealth.
"Sally, where did you discover all that long-lost
treasure?" demanded Ray.
"Mrs. Stanton of Boston was here today," said Sara,
enjoying the moment of revelation hugely. "She makes a hobby of collecting
old furniture. I sold her every blessed thing in the blue north room except
Mother's carpet and Grandma's mats and sampler. She wanted those too, but I
couldn't part with them. She bought everything else and," Sara lifted her
hands, full of bills, dramatically, "here are two hundred and fifty
dollars to take you to the Valley Academy next fall, Ray."
"It wouldn't be fair to take it for that," said Ray,
flushing. "You and Will—" "Will and I say you must take
it," said Sara. "Don't we, Will? There is nothing we want so much as
to give you a college start. It is an enormous burden off my mind to think it
is so nicely provided for. Besides, most of those old things were yours by the
right of rediscovery, and you voted first of all to have Aunt Josephina come."
"You must take it, of course, Ray," said Willard.
"Nothing else would give Sara and me so much pleasure. A blessing on Aunt
Josephina."
"Amen," said Sara and Ray.
17.The Christmas
Surprise at Enderly Road
"Phil, I'm getting
fearfully hungry. When are we going to strike civilization?"
The speaker was my chum, Frank Ward. We were home from our academy
for the Christmas holidays and had been amusing ourselves on this sunshiny
December afternoon by a tramp through the "back lands," as the
barrens that swept away south behind the village were called. They were grown
over with scrub maple and spruce, and were quite pathless save for meandering
sheep tracks that crossed and recrossed, but led apparently nowhere.
Frank and I did not know exactly where we were, but the back lands
were not so extensive but that we would come out somewhere if we kept on. It
was getting late and we wished to go home.
"I have an idea that we ought to strike civilization
somewhere up the Enderly Road pretty soon," I answered.
"Do you call that civilization?" said
Frank, with a laugh.
No Blackburn Hill boy was ever known to miss an opportunity of
flinging a slur at Enderly Road, even if no Enderly Roader were by to feel the
sting.
Enderly Road was a miserable little settlement straggling back
from Blackburn Hill. It was a forsaken looking place, and the people, as a
rule, were poor and shiftless. Between Blackburn Hill and Enderly Road very
little social intercourse existed and, as the Road people resented what they
called the pride of Blackburn Hill, there was a good deal of bad feeling
between the two districts.
Presently Frank and I came out on the Enderly Road. We sat on the
fence a few minutes to rest and discuss our route home. "If we go by the
road it's three miles," said Frank. "Isn't there a short cut?"
"There ought to be one by the wood-lane that comes out by
Jacob Hart's," I answered, "but I don't know where to strike
it."
"Here is someone coming now; we'll inquire," said Frank,
looking up the curve of the hard-frozen road. The "someone" was a
little girl of about ten years old, who was trotting along with a basketful of
school books on her arm. She was a pale, pinched little thing, and her jacket
and red hood seemed very old and thin.
"Hello, missy," I said, as she came up, and then I
stopped, for I saw she had been crying.
"What is the matter?" asked Frank, who was much more at
ease with children than I was, and had always a warm spot in his heart for
their small troubles. "Has your teacher kept you in for being
naughty?"
The mite dashed her little red knuckles across her eyes and
answered indignantly, "No, indeed. I stayed after school with Minnie
Lawler to sweep the floor."
"And did you and Minnie quarrel, and is that why you are
crying?" asked Frank solemnly.
"Minnie and I never quarrel. I am crying
because we can't have the school decorated on Monday for the examination, after
all. The Dickeys have gone back on us ... after promising, too," and the
tears began to swell up in the blue eyes again.
"Very bad behaviour on the part of the Dickeys,"
commented Frank. "But can't you decorate the school without them?"
"Why, of course not. They are the only big boys in the
school. They said they would cut the boughs, and bring a ladder tomorrow and
help us nail the wreaths up, and now they won't ... and everything is spoiled
... and Miss Davis will be so disappointed."
By dint of questioning Frank soon found out the whole story. The
semi-annual public examination was to be held on Monday afternoon, the day
before Christmas. Miss Davis had been drilling her little flock for the
occasion; and a program of recitations, speeches, and dialogues had been
prepared. Our small informant, whose name was Maggie Bates, together with
Minnie Lawler and several other little girls, had conceived the idea that it
would be a fine thing to decorate the schoolroom with greens. For this it was
necessary to ask the help of the boys. Boys were scarce at Enderly school, but the
Dickeys, three in number, had promised to see that the thing was done.
"And now they won't," sobbed Maggie. "Matt Dickey
is mad at Miss Davis 'cause she stood him on the floor today for not learning
his lesson, and he says he won't do a thing nor let any of the other boys help
us. Matt just makes all the boys do as he says. I feel dreadful bad, and so
does Minnie."
"Well, I wouldn't cry any more about it," said Frank
consolingly. "Crying won't do any good, you know. Can you tell us where to
find the wood-lane that cuts across to Blackburn Hill?" Maggie could, and
gave us minute directions. So, having thanked her, we left her to pursue her
disconsolate way and betook ourselves homeward.
"I would like to spoil Matt Dickey's little game," said
Frank. "He is evidently trying to run things at Enderly Road school and
revenge himself on the teacher. Let us put a spoke in his wheel and do Maggie a
good turn as well."
"Agreed. But how?"
Frank had a plan ready to hand and, when we reached home, we took
his sisters, Carrie and Mabel, into our confidence; and the four of us worked
to such good purpose all the next day, which was Saturday, that by night
everything was in readiness.
At dusk Frank and I set out for the Enderly Road, carrying a
basket, a small step-ladder, an unlit lantern, a hammer, and a box of tacks. It
was dark when we reached the Enderly Road schoolhouse. Fortunately, it was
quite out of sight of any inhabited spot, being surrounded by woods. Hence,
mysterious lights in it at strange hours would not be likely to attract
attention.
The door was locked, but we easily got in by a window, lighted our
lantern, and went to work. The schoolroom was small, and the old-fashioned
furniture bore marks of hard usage; but everything was very snug, and the
carefully swept floor and dusted desks bore testimony to the neatness of our
small friend Maggie and her chum Minnie.
Our basket was full of mottoes made from letters cut out of
cardboard and covered with lissome sprays of fir. They were, moreover, adorned
with gorgeous pink and red tissue roses, which Carrie and Mabel had
contributed. We had considerable trouble in getting them tacked up properly,
but when we had succeeded, and had furthermore surmounted doors, windows, and
blackboard with wreaths of green, the little Enderly Road schoolroom was quite
transformed.
"It looks nice," said Frank in a tone of satisfaction.
"Hope Maggie will like it."
We swept up the litter we had made, and then scrambled out of the
window.
"I'd like to see Matt Dickey's face when he comes Monday
morning," I laughed, as we struck into the back lands.
"I'd like to see that midget of a Maggie's," said Frank.
"See here, Phil, let's attend the examination Monday afternoon. I'd like
to see our decorations in daylight."
We decided to do so, and also thought of something else. Snow fell
all day Sunday, so that, on Monday morning, sleighs had to be brought out.
Frank and I drove down to the store and invested a considerable share of our
spare cash in a varied assortment of knick-knacks. After dinner we drove
through to the Enderly Road schoolhouse, tied our horse in a quiet spot, and
went in. Our arrival created quite a sensation for, as a rule, Blackburn
Hillites did not patronize Enderly Road functions. Miss Davis, the pale,
tired-looking little teacher, was evidently pleased, and we were given seats of
honour next to the minister on the platform.
Our decorations really looked very well, and were further enhanced
by two large red geraniums in full bloom which, it appeared, Maggie had brought
from home to adorn the teacher's desk. The side benches were lined with Enderly
Road parents, and all the pupils were in their best attire. Our friend Maggie
was there, of course, and she smiled and nodded towards the wreaths when she
caught our eyes.
The examination was a decided success, and the program which
followed was very creditable indeed. Maggie and Minnie, in particular, covered
themselves with glory, both in class and on the platform. At its close, while
the minister was making his speech, Frank slipped out; when the minister sat
down the door opened and Santa Claus himself, with big fur coat, ruddy mask,
and long white beard, strode into the room with a huge basket on his arm, amid
a chorus of surprised "Ohs" from old and young.
Wonderful things came out of that basket. There was some little
present for every child there—tops, knives, and whistles for the boys, dolls
and ribbons for the girls, and a "prize" box of candy for everybody,
all of which Santa Claus presented with appropriate remarks. It was an exciting
time, and it would have been hard to decide which were the most pleased,
parents, pupils, or teacher.
In the confusion Santa Claus discreetly disappeared, and school
was dismissed. Frank, having tucked his toggery away in the sleigh, was waiting
for us outside, and we were promptly pounced upon by Maggie and Minnie, whose
long braids were already adorned with the pink silk ribbons which had been
their gifts.
"You decorated the school," cried Maggie
excitedly. "I know you did. I told Minnie it was you the minute I saw
it."
"You're dreaming, child," said Frank.
"Oh, no, I'm not," retorted Maggie shrewdly, "and
wasn't Matt Dickey mad this morning! Oh, it was such fun. I think you are two
real nice boys and so does Minnie—don't you Minnie?"
Minnie nodded gravely. Evidently Maggie did the talking in their
partnership.
"This has been a splendid examination," said Maggie,
drawing a long breath. "Real Christmassy, you know. We never had such a
good time before."
"Well, it has paid, don't you think?" asked Frank, as we
drove home.
"Rather," I answered.
It did "pay" in other ways than the mere pleasure of it.
There was always a better feeling between the Roaders and the Hillites
thereafter. The big brothers of the little girls, to whom our Christmas
surprise had been such a treat, thought it worthwhile to bury the hatchet, and
quarrels between the two villages became things of the past.
18.The Dissipation of
Miss Ponsonby
We hadn't been very long
in Glenboro before we managed to get acquainted with Miss Ponsonby. It did not
come about in the ordinary course of receiving and returning calls, for Miss
Ponsonby never called on anybody; neither did we meet her at any of the Glenboro
social functions, for Miss Ponsonby never went anywhere except to church, and
very seldom there. Her father wouldn't let her. No, it simply happened because
her window was right across the alleyway from ours. The Ponsonby house was next
to us, on the right, and between us were only a fence, a hedge of box, and a
sprawly acacia tree that shaded Miss Ponsonby's window, where she always sat
sewing—patchwork, as I'm alive—when she wasn't working around the house.
Patchwork seemed to be Miss Ponsonby's sole and only dissipation of any kind.
We guessed her age to be forty-five at least, but we found out
afterward that we were mistaken. She was only thirty-five. She was tall and
thin and pale, one of those drab-tinted persons who look as if they had never felt
a rosy emotion in their lives. She had any amount of silky, fawn-coloured hair,
always combed straight back from her face, and pinned in a big, tight bun just
above her neck—the last style in the world for any woman with Miss Ponsonby's
nose to adopt. But then I doubt if Miss Ponsonby had any idea what her nose was
really like. I don't believe she ever looked at herself critically in a mirror
in her life. Her features were rather nice, and her expression tamely sweet;
her eyes were big, timid, china-blue orbs that looked as if she had been badly
scared when she was little and had never got over it; she never wore anything
but black, and, to crown all, her first name was Alicia.
Miss Ponsonby sat and sewed at her window for hours at a time, but
she never looked our way, partly, I suppose, from habit induced by modesty,
since the former occupants of our room had been two gay young bachelors, whose
names Jerry and I found out all over our window-panes with a diamond.
Jerry and I sat a great deal at ours, laughing and talking, but
Miss Ponsonby never lifted her head or eyes. Jerry couldn't stand it long; she
declared it got on her nerves; besides, she felt sorry to see a fellow creature
wasting so many precious moments of a fleeting lifetime at patchwork. So one
afternoon she hailed Miss Ponsonby with a cheerful "hello," and Miss
Ponsonby actually looked over and said "good afternoon," as prim as
an eighteen-hundred-and-forty fashion plate.
Then Jerry, whose name is Geraldine only in the family Bible,
talked to her about the weather. Jerry can talk interestingly about anything.
In five minutes she had performed a miracle—she had made Miss Ponsonby laugh.
In five minutes more she was leaning half out of the window showing Miss
Ponsonby a new, white, fluffy, frivolous, chiffony waist of hers, and Miss
Ponsonby was leaning halfway out of hers looking at it eagerly. At the end of a
quarter of an hour they were exchanging confidences about their favourite
books. Jerry was a confirmed Kiplingomaniac, but Miss Ponsonby adored Laura
Jean Libbey. She said sorrowfully she supposed she ought not to read novels at
all since her father disapproved. We found out later on that Mr. Ponsonby's way
of expressing disapproval was to burn any he got hold of, and storm at his
daughter about them like the confirmed old crank he was. Poor Miss Ponsonby had
to keep her Laura Jeans locked up in her trunk, and it wasn't often she got a
new one.
From that day dated our friendship with Miss Ponsonby, a curious
friendship, only carried on from window to window. We never saw Miss Ponsonby
anywhere else; we asked her to come over but she said her father didn't allow
her to visit anybody. Miss Ponsonby was one of those meek women who are ruled
by whomsoever happens to be nearest them, and woe be unto them if that nearest
happen to be a tyrant. Her meekness fairly infuriated Jerry.
But we liked Miss Ponsonby and we pitied her. She confided to us
that she was very lonely and that she wrote poetry. We never asked to see the
poetry, although I think she would have liked to show it. But, as Jerry says,
there are limits.
We told Miss Ponsonby all about our dances and picnics and beaus
and pretty dresses; she was never tired of hearing of them; we smuggled new
library novels—Jerry got our cook to buy them—and boxes of chocolates, from our
window to hers; we sat there on moonlit nights and communed with her while
other girls down the street were entertaining callers on their verandahs; we
did everything we could for her except to call her Alicia, although she begged
us to do so. But it never came easily to our tongues; we thought she must have
been born and christened Miss Ponsonby; "Alicia" was something her
mother could only have dreamed about her.
We thought we knew all about Miss Ponsonby's past; but even pale,
drab, china-blue women can have their secrets and keep them. It was a full half
year before we discovered Miss Ponsonby's.
000
In October, Stephen Shaw came home from the west to visit his
father and mother after an absence of fifteen years. Jerry and I met him at a
party at his brother-in-law's. We knew he was a bachelor of forty-five or so
and had made heaps of money in the lumber business, so we expected to find him
short and round and bald, with bulgy blue eyes and a double chin. On the contrary,
he was a tall, handsome man with clear-cut features, laughing black eyes like a
boy's, and iron-grey hair. That iron-grey hair nearly finished Jerry; she
thinks there is nothing so distinguished and she had the escape of her life
from falling in love with Stephen Shaw.
He was as gay as the youngest, danced splendidly, went everywhere,
and took all the Glenboro girls about impartially. It was rumoured that he had
come east to look for a wife but he didn't seem to be in any particular hurry
to find her.
One evening he called on Jerry; that is to say, he did ask for
both of us, but within ten minutes Jerry had him mewed up in the cosy corner to
the exclusion of all the rest of the world. I felt that I was a huge crowd, so
I obligingly decamped upstairs and sat down by my window to "muse,"
as Miss Ponsonby would have said.
It was a glorious moonlight night, with just a hint of October
frost in the air—enough to give sparkle and tang. After a few moments I became
aware that Miss Ponsonby was also "musing" at her window in the
shadow of the acacia tree. In that dim light she looked quite pretty. It was
suddenly borne in upon me for the first time that, when Miss Ponsonby was
young, she must have been very pretty, with that delicate elusive fashion of
beauty which fades so early if the life is not kept in it by love and
tenderness. It seemed odd, somehow, to think of Miss Ponsonby as young and
pretty. She seemed so essentially middle-aged and faded.
"Lovely night, Miss Ponsonby," I said brilliantly.
"A very beautiful night, dear Elizabeth," answered Miss
Ponsonby in that tired little voice of hers that always seemed as drab-coloured
as the rest of her.
"I'm mopy," I said frankly. "Jerry has concentrated
herself on Stephen Shaw for the evening and I'm left on the fringe of
things."
Miss Ponsonby didn't say anything for a few moments. When she
spoke some strange and curious note had come into her voice, as if a chord,
long unswept and silent, had been suddenly thrilled by a passing hand.
"Did I understand you to say that Geraldine was—entertaining
Stephen Shaw?"
"Yes. He's home from the west and he's delightful," I
replied. "All the Glenboro girls are quite crazy over him. Jerry and I are
as bad as the rest. He isn't at all young but he's very fascinating."
"Stephen Shaw!" repeated Miss Ponsonby faintly. "So
Stephen Shaw is home again!"
"Why, I suppose you would know him long ago," I said,
remembering that Stephen Shaw's youth must have been contemporaneous with Miss
Ponsonby's.
"Yes, I used to know him," said Miss Ponsonby very
slowly.
She did not say anything more, which I thought a little odd, for
she was generally full of mild curiosity about all strangers and sojourners in
Glenboro. Presently she got up and went away from her window. Deserted even by
Miss Ponsonby, I went grumpily to bed.
Then Mrs. George Hubbard gave a big dance. Jerry and I were
pleasantly excited. The Hubbards were the smartest of the Glenboro smart set
and their entertainments were always quite brilliant affairs for a small
country village like ours. This party was professedly given in honour of
Stephen Shaw, who was to leave for the west again in a week's time.
On the evening of the party Jerry and I went to our room to dress.
And there, across at her window in the twilight, sat Miss Ponsonby, crying. I
had never seen Miss Ponsonby cry before.
"What is the matter?" I called out softly and anxiously.
"Oh, nothing," sobbed Miss Ponsonby, "only—only—I'm
invited to the party tonight—Susan Hubbard is my cousin, you know—and I would
like so much to go."
"Then why don't you?" said Jerry briskly.
"My father won't let me," said Miss Ponsonby, swallowing
a sob as if she were a little girl of ten years old. Jerry had to dodge behind
the curtain to hide a smile.
"It's too bad," I said sympathetically, but wondering a
little why Miss Ponsonby seemed so worked up about it. I knew she had sometimes
been invited out before and had not been allowed to go, but she had never cared
apparently.
"Well, what is to be done?" I whispered to Jerry.
"Take Miss Ponsonby to the party with us, of course,"
said Jerry, popping out from behind the curtain.
I didn't ask her if she expected to fly through the air with Miss
Ponsonby, although short of that I couldn't see how the latter was to be got
out of the house without her father knowing. The old gentleman had a den off
the hall where he always sat in the evening and smoked fiercely, after having
locked all the doors to keep the servants in. He was a delightful sort of
person, that old Mr. Ponsonby.
Jerry poked her head as far as she could out of the window.
"Miss Ponsonby, you are going to the dance," she said in a cautious
undertone, "so don't cry any more or your eyes will be dreadfully
red."
"It is impossible," said Miss Ponsonby resignedly.
"Nothing is impossible when I make up my mind," said
Jerry firmly. "You must get dressed, climb down that acacia tree, and join
us in our yard. It will be pitch dark in a few minutes and your father will
never know."
I had a frantic vision of Miss Ponsonby scrambling down that
acacia tree like an eloping damsel. But Jerry was in dead earnest, and really
it was quite possible if Miss Ponsonby only thought so. I did not believe she
would think so, but I was mistaken. Her thorough course in Libbey heroines and
their marvellous escapades had quite prepared her to contemplate such an
adventure calmly—in the abstract at least. But another obstacle presented
itself.
"It's impossible," she said again, after her first flash
hope. "I haven't a fit dress to wear—I've nothing at all but my black
cashmere and it is three years old."
But the more hindrances in Jerry's way when she sets out to
accomplish something the more determined and enthusiastic she becomes. I
listened to her with amazement.
"I have a dress I'll lend you," she said resolutely.
"And I'll go over and fix you up as soon as it's a little darker. Go now
and bathe your eyes and just trust to me."
Miss Ponsonby's long habit of obedience to whatever she was told
stood her in good stead now. She obeyed Jerry without another word. Jerry
seized me by the waist and waltzed me around the room in an ecstasy.
"Jerry Elliott, how are you going to carry this thing
through?" I demanded sternly.
"Easily enough," responded Jerry. "You know that
black lace dress of mine—the one with the apricot slip. I've never worn it
since I came to Glenboro, so nobody will know it's mine, and I never mean to
wear it again for it's got too tight. It's a trifle old-fashioned, but that
won't matter for Glenboro, and it will fit Miss Ponsonby all right. She's about
my height and figure. I'm determined that poor soul shall have a dissipation
for once in her life since she hankers for it. Come on now, Elizabeth. It will
be a lark."
I caught Jerry's enthusiasm, and while she hunted out the box
containing the black lace dress, I hastily gathered together some other odds
and ends I thought might be useful—a black aigrette, a pair of black silk
gloves, a spangled gauze fan, and a pair of slippers. They wouldn't have stood
daylight, but they looked all right after night. As we left the room I caught
up some pale pink roses on my table.
We pushed through a little gap in the privet hedge and found
ourselves under the acacia tree with Miss Ponsonby peering anxiously at us from
above. I wanted to shriek with laughter, the whole thing seemed so funny and
unreal. Jerry, although she hasn't climbed trees since she was twelve, went up
that acacia as nimbly as a pussy-cat, took the box and things from me, passed
them to Miss Ponsonby, and got in at the window while I went back to my own
room to dress, hoping old Mr. Ponsonby wouldn't be running out to ring the fire
alarm.
In a very short time I heard Miss Ponsonby and Jerry at the
opposite window, and I rushed to mine to see the sight. But Miss Ponsonby, with
a red fascinator over her head and a big cape wrapped round her, slipped out of
the window and down that blessed acacia tree as neatly and nimbly as if she had
been accustomed to doing it for exercise every day of her life. There were
possibilities in Miss Ponsonby. In two more minutes they were both safe in our
room.
Then Jerry threw off Miss Ponsonby's wraps and stepped back. I
know I stared until my eyes stuck out of my head. Was that Miss Ponsonby—that!
The black lace dress, with the pinkish sheen of its slip beneath,
suited her slim shape to perfection and clung around her in lovely, filmy
curves that made her look willowy and girlish. It was high-necked, just cut
away slightly at the throat, and had great, loose, hanging frilly sleeves of
lace. Jerry had shaken out her hair and piled it high on her head in satiny
twists and loops, with a pompadour such as Miss Ponsonby could never have
thought about. It suited her tremendously and seemed to alter the whole
character of her face, giving verve and piquancy to her delicate little
features. The excitement had flushed her cheeks into positive pinkness and her
eyes were starry. The roses were pinned on her shoulder. Miss Ponsonby, as she
stood there, was a pretty woman, with fifteen apparent birthdays the less.
"Oh, Alicia, you look just lovely!" I gasped. The name
slipped out quite naturally. I never thought about it at all.
"My dear Elizabeth," she said, "it's like a dream
of lost youth."
We got Jerry ready and then we started for the Hubbards', out by
our back door and through our neighbour-on-the-left's lane to avoid all
observation. Miss Ponsonby was breathless with terror. She was sure every
footstep she heard behind her was her father's in pursuit. She almost fainted
on the spot when a belated man came tearing along the street. Jerry and I breathed
a sigh of devout thanksgiving when we found ourselves safely in the Hubbard
parlour.
We were early, but Stephen Shaw was there before us. He came up to
us at once, and just then Miss Ponsonby turned around.
"Alicia!" he said.
"How do you do, Stephen?" she said tremulously.
And there he was looking down at her with an expression on his
face that none of the Glenboro girls he had been calling on had ever seen.
Jerry and I just simply melted away. We can see through grindstones when there
are holes in them!
We went out and sat down on the stairs.
"There's a mystery here," said Jerry, "but Miss
Ponsonby shall explain it to us before we let her climb up that acacia tree
tonight. Now that I come to think of it, the first night he called he asked me
about her. Wanted to know if her father were the same old blustering tyrant he
always was, and if we knew her at all. I'm afraid I made a little mild fun of
her, and he didn't say anything more. Well, I'm awfully glad now that I didn't
fall in love with him. I could have, but I wouldn't."
Miss Ponsonby's appearance at the Hubbards' party was the biggest
sensation Glenboro had had for years. And in her way, she was a positive belle.
She didn't dance, but all the middle-aged men, widowers, wedded, and bachelors,
who had known her in her girlhood crowded around her, and she laughed and
chatted as I hadn't even imagined Miss Ponsonby could laugh and chat. Jerry and
I revelled in her triumph, for did we not feel that it was due to us? At last
Miss Ponsonby disappeared; shortly after Jerry and I blundered into the library
to fix some obstreperous hairpins, and there we found her and Stephen Shaw in
the cosy corner.
There were no explanations on the road home, for Miss Ponsonby
walked behind us with Stephen Shaw in the pale, late-risen October moonshine.
But when we had sneaked through the neighbour-to-the-left's lane and reached
our side verandah we waited for her, and as soon as Stephen Shaw had gone we
laid violent hands on Miss Ponsonby and made her 'fess up there on the dark,
chilly verandah, at one o'clock in the morning.
"Miss Ponsonby," said Jerry, "before we assist you
in returning to those ancestral halls of yours you've simply got to tell us
what all this means."
Miss Ponsonby gave a little, shy, nervous laugh.
"Stephen Shaw and I were engaged to be married long
ago," she said simply. "But Father disapproved. Stephen was poor
then. And so—and so—I sent him away. What else could I do?"—for Jerry had
snorted—"Father had to be obeyed. But it broke my heart. Stephen went away—he
was very angry—and I have never seen him since. When Susan Hubbard invited me
to the party I felt as if I must go—I must see Stephen once more. I never
thought for a minute that he remembered me—or cared still...."
"But he does?" said Jerry breathlessly. Jerry never
scruples to ask anything right out that she wants to know.
"Yes," said Miss Ponsonby softly. "Isn't it
wonderful? I could hardly believe it—I am so changed. But he said tonight he
had never thought of any other woman. He—he came home to see me. But when I
never went anywhere, even when I must know he was home, he thought I didn't
want to see him. If I hadn't gone tonight—oh, I owe it all to you two dear
girls!"
"When are you to be married?" demanded that terrible
Jerry.
"As soon as possible," said Miss Ponsonby. "Stephen
was going away next week, but he says he will wait until I can get ready."
"Do you think your father will object this time?" I
queried.
"No, I don't think so. Stephen is a rich man now, you know.
That wouldn't make any difference with me—but Father is very—practical. Stephen
is going to see him tomorrow."
"But what if he does object?" I persisted anxiously.
"The acacia tree will still be there," said Miss
Ponsonby firmly.
19.The Falsoms'
Christmas Dinner
"Well, so it's all
settled," said Stephen Falsom.
"Yes," assented Alexina. "Yes, it is," she
repeated, as if somebody had questioned it.
Then Alexina sighed. Whatever "it" was, the fact of its
being settled did not seem to bring Alexina any great peace of mind—nor Stephen
either, judging from his face, which wore a sort of "suffer and be
strong" expression just then. "When do you go?" said Alexina,
after a pause, during which she had frowned out of the window and across the
Tracy yard. Josephine Tracy and her brother Duncan were strolling about the
yard in the pleasant December sunshine, arm in arm, laughing and talking. They
appeared to be a nice, harmless pair of people, but the sight of them did not
seem to please Alexina.
"Just as soon as we can sell the furniture and move
away," said Stephen moodily. "Heigh-ho! So this is what all our fine
ambitions have come to, Lexy, your music and my M.D. A place in a department
store for you, and one in a lumber mill for me."
"I don't dare to complain," said Alexina slowly.
"We ought to be so thankful to get the positions. I am thankful.
And I don't mind so very much about my music. But I do wish you could have gone
to college, Stephen."
"Never mind me," said Stephen, brightening up
determinedly. "I'm going to go into the lumber business enthusiastically.
You don't know what unsuspected talents I may develop along that line. The
worst of it is that we can't be together. But I'll keep my eyes open, and
perhaps I'll find a place for you in Lessing."
Alexina said nothing. Her separation from Stephen was the one
point in their fortunes she could not bear to discuss. There were times when
Alexina did not see how she was going to exist without Stephen. But she never
said so to him. She thought he had enough to worry him without her making
matters worse. "Well," said Stephen, getting up, "I'll run down
to the office. And see here, Lexy. Day after tomorrow is Christmas. Are we
going to celebrate it at all? If so I'd better order the turkey."
Alexina looked thoughtful. "I don't know, Stephen. We're
short of money, you know, and the fund is dwindling every day. Don't you think
it's a little extravagant to have a turkey for two people? And somehow I don't
feel a bit Christmassy. I think I'd rather spend it just like any other day and
try to forget that it is Christmas. Everything would be so
different."
"That's true, Lexy. And we must look after the bawbees
closely, I'll admit." When Stephen had gone out Alexina cried a little,
not very much, because she didn't want her eyes to be red against Stephen's
return. But she had to cry a little. As she had said, everything was so
different from what it had been a year ago. Their father had been alive then
and they had been very cosy and happy in the little house at the end of the
street. There had been no mother there since Alexina's birth sixteen years ago.
Alexina had kept house for her father and Stephen since she was ten. Stephen
was a clever boy and intended to study medicine. Alexina had a good voice, and
something was to be done about training it. The Tracys lived next door to them.
Duncan Tracy was Stephen's particular chum, and Josephine Tracy was Alexina's
dearest friend. Alexina was never lonely when Josie was near by to laugh and
chat and plan with.
Then, all at once, troubles came. In June the firm of which Mr.
Falsom was a member failed. There was some stigma attached to the failure, too,
although the blame did not rest upon Mr. Falsom, but with his partner. Worry
and anxiety aggravated the heart trouble from which he had suffered for some
time, and a month later he died. Alexina and Stephen were left alone to face
the knowledge that they were penniless, and must look about for some way of
supporting themselves. At first they hoped to be able to get something to do in
Thorndale, so that they might keep their home. This proved impossible. After
much discouragement and disappointment Stephen had secured a position in the
lumber mill at Lessing, and Alexina was promised a place in a departmental
store in the city.
To make matters worse, Duncan Tracy and Stephen had quarrelled in
October. It was only a boyish disagreement over some trifle, but bitter words
had passed. Duncan, who was a quick-tempered lad, had twitted Stephen with his
father's failure, and Stephen had resented it hotly. Duncan was sorry for and
ashamed of his words as soon as they were uttered, but he would not humble
himself to say so. Alexina had taken Stephen's part and her manner to Josie
assumed a tinge of coldness. Josie quickly noticed and resented it, and the
breach between the two girls widened almost insensibly, until they barely spoke
when they met. Each blamed the other and cherished bitterness in her heart.
When Stephen came home from the post office he looked excited.
"Were there any letters?" asked Alexina.
"Well, rather! One from Uncle James!"
"Uncle James," exclaimed Alexina, incredulously.
"Yes, beloved sis. Oh, you needn't try to look as surprised
as I did. And I ordered the turkey after all. Uncle James has invited himself
here to dinner on Christmas Day. You'll have a chance to show your culinary
skill, for you know we've always been told that Uncle James was a
gourmand."
Alexina read the letter in a maze. It was a brief epistle, stating
that the writer wished to make the acquaintance of his niece and nephew, and
would visit them on Christmas Day. That was all. But Alexina instantly saw a
future of rosy possibilities. For Uncle James, who lived in the city and was
really a great-uncle, had never taken the slightest notice of their family
since his quarrel with their father twenty years ago; but this looked as if
Uncle James were disposed to hold out the olive branch.
"Oh, Stephen, if he likes you, and if he offers to educate
you!" breathed Alexina. "Perhaps he will if he is favourably
impressed. But we'll have to be so careful, he is so whimsical and odd, at
least everybody has always said so. A little thing may turn the scale either
way. Anyway, we must have a good dinner for him. I'll have plum pudding and
mince pie."
For the next thirty-six hours Alexina lived in a whirl. There was
so much to do. The little house was put in apple pie order from top to bottom,
and Stephen was set to stoning raisins and chopping meat and beating eggs. Alexina
was perfectly reckless; no matter how big a hole it made in their finances
Uncle James must have a proper Christmas dinner. A favourable impression must
be made. Stephen's whole future—Alexina did not think about her own at all just
then—might depend on it.
Christmas morning came, fine and bright and warm. It was more like
a morning in early spring than in December, for there was no snow or frost, and
the air was moist and balmy. Alexina was up at daybreak, cleaning and
decorating at a furious rate. By eleven o'clock everything was finished or
going forward briskly. The plum pudding was bubbling in the pot, the
turkey—Burton's plumpest—was sizzling in the oven. The shelf in the pantry bore
two mince pies upon which Alexina was willing to stake her culinary reputation.
And Stephen had gone to the train to meet Uncle James.
From her kitchen window Alexina could see brisk preparations going
on in the Tracy kitchen. She knew Josie and Duncan were all alone; their
parents had gone to spend Christmas with friends in Lessing. In spite of her
hurry and excitement Alexina found time to sigh. Last Christmas Josie and
Duncan had come over and eaten their dinner with them. But now last Christmas
seemed very far away. And Josie had behaved horridly. Alexina was quite clear
on that point.
Then Stephen came with Uncle James. Uncle James was a rather
pompous, fussy old man with red cheeks and bushy eyebrows. "H'm! Smells
nice in here," was his salutation to Alexina. "I hope it will taste
as good as it smells. I'm hungry."
Alexina soon left Uncle James and Stephen talking in the parlour
and betook herself anxiously to the kitchen. She set the table in the little
dining room, now and then pausing to listen with a delighted nod to the murmur
of voices and laughter in the parlour. She felt sure that Stephen was making a
favourable impression. She lifted the plum pudding and put it on a plate on the
kitchen table; then she took out the turkey, beautifully done, and put it on a
platter; finally, she popped the two mince pies into the oven. Just at this
moment Stephen stuck his head in at the hall door.
"Lexy, do you know where that letter of Governor Howland's to
Father is? Uncle James wants to see it."
Alexina, not waiting to shut the oven door—for delay might impress
Uncle James unfavourably—rushed upstairs to get the letter. She was ten minutes
finding it. Then, remembering her pies, she flew back to the kitchen. In the
middle of the floor she stopped as if transfixed, staring at the table. The
turkey was gone. And the plum pudding was gone! And the mince pies were gone!
Nothing was left but the platters! For a moment Alexina refused to believe her
eyes. Then she saw a trail of greasy drops on the floor to the open door, out
over the doorstep, and along the boards of the walk to the back fence.
Alexina did not make a fuss. Even at that horrible moment she
remembered the importance of making a favourable impression. But she could not
quite keep the alarm and excitement out of her voice as she called Stephen, and
Stephen knew that something had gone wrong as he came quickly through the hall.
"Is the turkey burned, Lexy?" he cried.
"Burned! No, it's ten times worse," gasped Alexina.
"It's gone—gone, Stephen. And the pudding and the mince pies, too. Oh,
what shall we do? Who can have taken them?"
It may be stated right here and now that the Falsoms never
really knew anything more about the disappearance of their
Christmas dinner than they did at that moment. But the only reasonable
explanation of the mystery was that a tramp had entered the kitchen and made
off with the good things. The Falsom house was right at the end of the street.
The narrow backyard opened on a lonely road. Across the road was a stretch of
pine woods. There was no house very near except the Tracy one.
Stephen reached this conclusion with a bound. He ran out to the
yard gate followed by the distracted Alexina. The only person visible was a man
some distance down the road. Stephen leaped over the gate and tore down the
road in pursuit of him. Alexina went back to the doorstep, sat down upon it,
and began to cry. She couldn't help it. Her hopes were all in ruins around her.
There was no dinner for Uncle James.
Josephine Tracy saw her crying. Now, Josie honestly thought that
she had a grievance against Alexina. But an Alexina walking unconcernedly by
with a cool little nod and her head held high was a very different person from
an Alexina sitting on a back doorstep, on Christmas morning, crying. For a
moment Josie hesitated. Then she slowly went out and across the yard to the
fence. "What is the trouble?" she asked.
Alexina forgot that there was such a thing as dignity to be kept
up; or, if she remembered it, she was past caring for such a trifle. "Our
dinner is gone," she sobbed. "And there is nothing to give Uncle
James to eat except vegetables—and I do so want to make a favourable
impression!"
This was not particularly lucid, but Josie, with a flying mental
leap, arrived at the conclusion that it was very important that Uncle James,
whoever he was, should have a dinner, and she knew where one was to be had. But
before she could speak Stephen returned, looking rueful. "No use, Lexy.
That man was only old Mr. Byers, and he had seen no signs of a tramp. There is
a trail of grease right across the road. The tramp must have taken directly to
the woods. We'll simply have to do without our Christmas dinner."
"By no means," said Josie quickly, with a little red
spot on either cheek. "Our dinner is all ready—turkey, pudding and all.
Let us lend it to you. Don't say a word to your uncle about the accident."
Alexina flushed and hesitated. "It's very kind of you,"
she stammered, "but I'm afraid—it would be too much—"
"Not a bit of it," Josie interrupted warmly.
"Didn't Duncan and I have Christmas dinner at your house last year? Just
come and help us carry it over."
"If you lend us your dinner you and Duncan must come and help
us eat it," said Alexina, resolutely.
"I'll come of course," said Josie, "and I think
that Duncan will too if—if—" She looked at Stephen, the scarlet spots
deepening. Stephen coloured too.
"Duncan must come," he said quietly. "I'll go and
ask him."
Two minutes later a peculiar procession marched out of the Tracy
kitchen door, across the two yards, and into the Falsom house. Josie headed it,
carrying a turkey on a platter. Alexina came next with a plum pudding. Stephen
and Duncan followed with a hot mince pie apiece. And in a few more minutes
Alexina gravely announced to Uncle James that dinner was ready.
The dinner was a pronounced success, marked by much suppressed hilarity
among the younger members of the party. Uncle James ate very heartily and
seemed to enjoy everything, especially the mince pie.
"This is the best mince pie I have ever sampled," he
told Alexina. "I am glad to know that I have a niece who can make such a
mince pie." Alexina cast an agonized look at Josie, and was on the point
of explaining that she wasn't the maker of the pie. But Josie frowned her into
silence.
"I felt so guilty to sit there and take the credit—your credit,"
she told Josie afterwards, as they washed up the dishes.
"Nonsense," said Josie. "It wasn't as if you
couldn't make mince pies. Your mince pies are better than mine, if it comes to
that. It might have spoiled everything if you'd said a word. I must go home
now. Won't you and Stephen come over after your uncle goes, and spend the
evening with us? We'll have a candy pull."
When Josie and Duncan had gone, Uncle James called his nephew and
niece into the parlour, and sat down before them with approving eyes. "I
want to have a little talk with you two. I'm sorry I've let so many years go by
without making your acquaintance, because you seem worth getting acquainted
with. Now, what are your plans for the future?"
"I'm going into a lumber mill at Lessing and Alexina is going
into the T. Morson store," said Stephen quietly.
"Tut, tut, no, you're not. And she's not. You're coming to
live with me, both of you. If you have a fancy for cutting and carving people
up, young man, you must be trained to cut and carve them scientifically,
anyhow. As for you, Alexina, Stephen tells me you can sing. Well, there's a
good Conservatory of Music in town. Wouldn't you rather go there instead of
behind a counter?"
"Oh, Uncle James!" exclaimed Alexina with shining eyes.
She jumped up, put her arms about Uncle James' neck and kissed him.
Uncle James said, "Tut, tut," again, but he liked it.
When Stephen had seen his uncle off on the six o'clock train he
returned home and looked at the radiant Alexina.
"Well, you made your favourable impression, all right, didn't
you?" he said gaily. "But we owe it to Josie Tracy. Isn't she a
brick? I suppose you're going over this evening?"
"Yes, I am. I'm so tired that I feel as if I couldn't crawl
across the yard, but if I can't you'll have to carry me. Go I will. I can't begin
to tell you how glad I am about everything, but really the fact that you and
Duncan and Josie and I are good friends again seems the best of all. I'm glad
that tramp stole the dinner and I hope he enjoyed it. I don't grudge him one
single bite!"
20.The Fraser
Scholarship
Elliot Campbell came
down the main staircase of Marwood College and found himself caught up with a
whoop into a crowd of Sophs who were struggling around the bulletin board. He
was thumped on the back and shaken hands with amid a hurricane of shouts and
congratulations.
"Good for you, Campbell! You've won the Fraser. See your
little name tacked up there at the top of the list, bracketed off all by itself
for the winner? 'Elliott H. Campbell, ninety-two per cent.' A class yell for
Campbell, boys!"
While the yell was being given with a heartiness that might have
endangered the roof, Elliott, with flushed face and sparkling eyes, pushed
nearer to the important typewritten announcement on the bulletin board. Yes, he
had won the Fraser Scholarship. His name headed the list of seven competitors.
Roger Brooks, who was at his side, read over the list aloud:
"'Elliott H. Campbell, ninety-two.' I said you'd do it, my
boy. 'Edward Stone, ninety-one'—old Ned ran you close, didn't he? But of course
with that name he'd no show. 'Kay Milton, eighty-eight.' Who'd have thought
slow-going old Kay would have pulled up so well? 'Seddon Brown, eighty-seven;
Oliver Field, eighty-four; Arthur McIntyre, eighty-two'—a very respectable
little trio. And 'Carl McLean, seventy.' Whew! what a drop! Just saved his
distance. It was only his name took him in, of course. He knew you weren't
supposed to be strong in mathematics."
Before Elliott could say anything, a professor emerged from the
president's private room, bearing the report of a Freshman examination, which
he proceeded to post on the Freshman bulletin board, and the rush of the
students in that direction left Elliott and Roger free of the crowd. They
seized the opportunity to escape.
Elliott drew a long breath as they crossed the campus in the fresh
April sunshine, where the buds were swelling on the fine old chestnuts and elms
that surrounded Marwood's red brick walls.
"That has lifted a great weight off my mind," he said
frankly. "A good deal depended on my winning the Fraser. I couldn't have
come back next year if I hadn't got it. That four hundred will put me through
the rest of my course."
"That's good," said Roger Brooks heartily.
He liked Elliott Campbell, and so did all the Sophomores. Yet none
of them was at all intimate with him. He had no chums, as the other boys had.
He boarded alone, "dug" persistently, and took no part in the social
life of the college. Roger Brooks came nearest to being his friend of any, yet
even Roger knew very little about him. Elliott had never before said so much
about his personal affairs as in the speech just recorded.
"I'm poor—woefully poor," went on Elliott gaily. His
success seemed to have thawed his reserve for the time being. "I had just
enough money to bring me through the Fresh and Soph years by dint of careful
management. Now I'm stone broke, and the hope of the Fraser was all that stood
between me and the dismal certainty of having to teach next year, dropping out
of my class and coming back in two or three years' time, a complete, rusty
stranger again. Whew! I made faces over the prospect."
"No wonder," commented Roger. "The class would have
been sorry if you had had to drop out, Campbell. We want to keep all our stars
with us to make a shining coruscation at the finish. Besides, you know we all
like you for yourself. It would have been an everlasting shame if that little
cad of a McLean had won out. Nobody likes him."
"Oh, I had no fear of him," answered Elliott. "I
don't see what induced him to go in, anyhow. He must have known he'd no chance.
But I was afraid of Stone—he's a born dabster at mathematics, you know, and I
only hold my own in them by hard digging."
"Why, Stone couldn't have taken the Fraser over you in any
case, if you made over seventy," said Roger with a puzzled look. "You
must have known that. McLean was the only competitor you had to fear."
"I don't understand you," said Elliott blankly.
"You must know the conditions of the Fraser!" exclaimed
Roger.
"Certainly," responded Elliott. "'The Fraser
scholarship, amounting to four hundred dollars, will be offered annually in the
Sophomore class. The competitors will be expected to take a special examination
in mathematics, and the winner will be awarded two hundred dollars for two
years, payable in four annual instalments, the payment of any instalment to be
conditional on the winner's attending the required classes for undergraduates
and making satisfactory progress therein.' Isn't that correct?"
"So far as it goes, old man. You forget the most important
part of all. 'Preference is to be given to competitors of the name Fraser,
Campbell or McLean, provided that such competitor makes at least seventy per
cent in his examination.' You don't mean to tell me that you didn't know
that!"
"Are you joking?" demanded Elliott with a pale face.
"Not a joke. Why, man, it's in the calendar."
"I didn't know it," said Elliott slowly. "I read
the calendar announcement only once, and I certainly didn't notice that
condition."
"Well, that's curious. But how on earth did you escape
hearing it talked about? It's always discussed extensively among the boys,
especially when there are two competitors of the favoured names, which doesn't
often happen."
"I'm not a very sociable fellow," said Elliott with a
faint smile. "You know they call me 'the hermit.' As it happened, I never
talked the matter over with anyone or heard it referred to. I—I wish I had
known this before."
"Why, what difference does it make? It's all right, anyway.
But it is odd to think that if your name hadn't been Campbell, the Fraser would
have gone to McLean over the heads of Stone and all the rest. Their only hope
was that you would both fall below seventy. It's an absurd condition, but there
it is in old Professor Fraser's will. He was rich and had no family. So he left
a number of bequests to the college on ordinary conditions. I suppose he
thought he might humour his whim in one. His widow is a dear old soul, and
always makes a special pet of the boy who wins the Fraser. Well, here's my
street. So long, Campbell."
Elliott responded almost curtly and walked onward to his
boarding-house with a face from which all the light had gone. When he reached
his room he took down the Marwood calendar and whirled over the leaves until he
came to the announcement of bursaries and scholarships. The Fraser
announcement, as far as he had read it, ended at the foot of the page. He
turned the leaf and, sure enough, at the top of the next page, in a paragraph
by itself, was the condition: "Preference shall be given to candidates of
the name Fraser, Campbell or McLean, provided that said competitor makes at
least seventy per cent in his examination."
Elliott flung himself into a chair by his table and bowed his head
on his hands. He had no right to the Fraser Scholarship. His name was not
Campbell, although perhaps nobody in the world knew it save himself, and he
remembered it only by an effort of memory.
He had been born in a rough mining camp in British Columbia, and
when he was a month old his father, John Hanselpakker, had been killed in a
mine explosion, leaving his wife and child quite penniless and almost
friendless. One of the miners, an honest, kindly Scotchman named Alexander
Campbell, had befriended Mrs. Hanselpakker and her little son in many ways, and
two years later she had married him. They returned to their native province of
Nova Scotia and settled in a small country village. Here Elliott had grown up,
bearing the name of the man who was a kind and loving father to him, and whom
he loved as a father. His mother had died when he was ten years old and his
stepfather when he was fifteen. On his deathbed he asked Elliott to retain his
name.
"I've cared for you and loved you since the time you were
born, lad," he said. "You seem like my own son, and I've a fancy to
leave you my name. It's all I can leave you, for I'm a poor man, but it's an
honest name, lad, and I've kept it free from stain. See that you do likewise,
and you'll have your mother's blessing and mine."
Elliott fought a hard battle that spring evening.
"Hold your tongue and keep the Fraser," whispered the
tempter. "Campbell is your name. You've borne it all your
life. And the condition itself is a ridiculous one—no fairness about it. You
made the highest marks and you ought to be the winner. It isn't as if you were
wronging Stone or any of the others who worked hard and made good marks. If you
throw away what you've won by your own hard labour, the Fraser goes to McLean,
who made only seventy. Besides, you need the money and he doesn't. His father
is a rich man."
"But I'll be a cheat and a cad if I keep it," Elliott
muttered miserably. "Campbell isn't my legal name, and I'd never again
feel as if I had even the right of love to it if I stained it by a dishonest
act. For it would be stained, even though nobody but myself
knew it. Father said it was a clean name when he left it, and I cannot soil
it."
The tempter was not silenced so easily as that. Elliott passed a
sleepless night of indecision. But next day he went to Marwood and asked for a
private interview with the president. As a result, an official announcement was
posted that afternoon on the bulletin board to the effect that, owing to a
misunderstanding, the Fraser Scholarship had been wrongly awarded. Carl McLean
was posted as winner.
The story soon got around the campus, and Elliott found himself
rather overwhelmed with sympathy, but he did not feel as if he were very much
in need of it after all. It was good to have done the right thing and be able
to look your conscience in the face. He was young and strong and could work his
own way through Marwood in time.
"No condolences, please," he said to Roger Brooks with a
smile. "I'm sorry I lost the Fraser, of course, but I've my hands and
brains left. I'm going straight to my boarding-house to dig with double vim,
for I've got to take an examination next week for a provincial school
certificate. Next winter I'll be a flourishing pedagogue in some up-country
district."
He was not, however. The next afternoon he received a summons to
the president's office. The president was there, and with him was a plump,
motherly-looking woman of about sixty.
"Mrs. Fraser, this is Elliott Hanselpakker, or Campbell, as I
understand he prefers to be called. Elliott, I told your story to Mrs. Fraser
last evening, and she was greatly interested when she heard your rather
peculiar name. She will tell you why herself."
"I had a young half-sister once," said Mrs. Fraser
eagerly. "She married a man named John Hanselpakker and went West, and
somehow I lost all trace of her. There was, I regret to say, a coolness between
us over her marriage. I disapproved of it because she married a very poor man.
When I heard your name, it struck me that you might be her son, or at least
know something about her. Her name was Mary Helen Rodney, and I loved her very
dearly in spite of our foolish quarrel."
There was a tremour in Mrs. Fraser's voice and an answering one in
Elliott's as he replied: "Mary Helen Rodney was my dear mother's name, and
my father was John Hanselpakker."
"Then you are my nephew," exclaimed Mrs. Fraser. "I
am your Aunt Alice. My boy, you don't know how much it means to a lonely old
woman to have found you. I'm the happiest person in the world!"
She slipped her arm through Elliott's and turned to the
sympathetic president with shining eyes.
"He is my boy forever, if he will be. Blessings on the Fraser
Scholarship!"
"Blessings rather on the manly boy who wouldn't keep it under
false colours," said the president with a smile. "I think you are
fortunate in your nephew, Mrs. Fraser."
So Elliott Hanselpakker Campbell came back to Marwood the next
year after all.
Something very strange
happened the night old Mr. Lawrence died. I have never been able to explain it
and I have never spoken of it except to one person and she said that I dreamed
it. I did not dream it ... I saw and heard, waking.
We had not expected Mr. Lawrence to die then. He did not seem very
ill ... not nearly so ill as he had been during his previous attack. When we
heard of his illness I went over to Woodlands to see him, for I had always been
a great favourite with him. The big house was quiet, the servants going about
their work as usual, without any appearance of excitement. I was told that I
could not see Mr. Lawrence for a little while, as the doctor was with him. Mrs.
Yeats, the housekeeper, said the attack was not serious and asked me to wait in
the blue parlour, but I preferred to sit down on the steps of the big, arched
front door. It was an evening in June. Woodlands was very lovely; to my right
was the garden, and before me was a little valley abrim with the sunset. In
places under the big trees it was quite dark even then.
There was something unusually still in the evening ... a stillness
as of waiting. It set me thinking of the last time Mr. Lawrence had been ill
... nearly a year ago in August. One night during his convalescence I had
watched by him to relieve the nurse. He had been sleepless and talkative,
telling me many things about his life. Finally he told me of Margaret.
I knew a little about her ... that she had been his sweetheart and
had died very young. Mr. Lawrence had remained true to her memory ever since,
but I had never heard him speak of her before.
"She was very beautiful," he said dreamily, "and
she was only eighteen when she died, Jeanette. She had wonderful pale-golden
hair and dark-brown eyes. I have a little ivory miniature of her. When I die it
is to be given to you, Jeanette. I have waited a long while for her. You know
she promised she would come."
I did not understand his meaning and kept silence, thinking that
he might be wandering a little in his mind.
"She promised she would come and she will keep her
word," he went on. "I was with her when she died. I held her in my
arms. She said to me, 'Herbert, I promise that I will be true to you forever,
through as many years of lonely heaven as I must know before you come. And when
your time is at hand I will come to make your deathbed easy as you have made
mine. I will come, Herbert.' She solemnly promised, Jeanette. We made a
death-tryst of it. And I know she will come."
He had fallen asleep then and after his recovery he had not
alluded to the matter again. I had forgotten it, but I recalled it now as I sat
on the steps among the geraniums that June evening. I liked to think of
Margaret ... the lovely girl who had died so long ago, taking her lover's heart
with her to the grave. She had been a sister of my grandfather, and people told
me that I resembled her slightly. Perhaps that was why old Mr. Lawrence had
always made such a pet of me.
Presently the doctor came out and nodded to me cheerily. I asked
him how Mr. Lawrence was.
"Better ... better," he said briskly. "He will be
all right tomorrow. The attack was very slight. Yes, of course you may go in.
Don't stay longer than half an hour."
Mrs. Stewart, Mr. Lawrence's sister, was in the sickroom when I
went in. She took advantage of my presence to lie down on the sofa a little
while, for she had been up all the preceding night. Mr. Lawrence turned his
fine old silver head on the pillow and smiled a greeting. He was a very
handsome old man; neither age nor illness had marred his finely modelled face
or impaired the flash of his keen, steel-blue eyes. He seemed quite well and
talked naturally and easily of many commonplace things.
At the end of the doctor's half-hour I rose to go. Mrs. Stewart
had fallen asleep and he would not let me wake her, saying he needed nothing
and felt like sleeping himself. I promised to come up again on the morrow and
went out.
It was dark in the hall, where no lamp had been lighted, but
outside on the lawn the moonlight was bright as day. It was the clearest,
whitest night I ever saw. I turned aside into the garden, meaning to cross it,
and take the short way over the west meadow home. There was a long walk of rose
bushes leading across the garden to a little gate on the further side ... the
way Mr. Lawrence had been wont to take long ago when he went over the fields to
woo Margaret. I went along it, enjoying the night. The bushes were white with
roses, and the ground under my feet was all snowed over with their petals. The
air was still and breezeless; again I felt that sensation of waiting ... of
expectancy. As I came up to the little gate I saw a young girl standing on the
other side of it. She stood in the full moonlight and I saw her distinctly.
She was tall and slight and her head was bare. I saw that her hair
was a pale gold, shining somewhat strangely about her head as if catching the
moonbeams. Her face was very lovely and her eyes large and dark. She was
dressed in something white and softly shimmering, and in her hand she held a
white rose ... a very large and perfect one. Even at the time I found myself
wondering where she could have picked it. It was not a Woodlands rose. All the
Woodlands roses were smaller and less double.
She was a stranger to me, yet I felt that I had seen her or
someone very like her before. Possibly she was one of Mr. Lawrence's many
nieces who might have come up to Woodlands upon hearing of his illness.
As I opened the gate I felt an odd chill of positive fear. Then
she smiled as if I had spoken my thought.
"Do not be frightened," she said. "There is no
reason you should be frightened. I have only come to keep a tryst."
The words reminded me of something, but I could not recall what it
was. The strange fear that was on me deepened. I could not speak.
She came through the gateway and stood for a moment at my side.
"It is strange that you should have seen me," she said,
"but now behold how strong and beautiful a thing is faithful love—strong
enough to conquer death. We who have loved truly love always—and this makes our
heaven."
She walked on after she had spoken, down the long rose path. I
watched her until she reached the house and went up the steps. In truth I
thought the girl was someone not quite in her right mind. When I reached home I
did not speak of the matter to anyone, not even to inquire who the girl might
possibly be. There seemed to be something in that strange meeting that demanded
my silence.
The next morning word came that old Mr. Lawrence was dead. When I
hurried down to Woodlands I found all in confusion, but Mrs. Yeats took me into
the blue parlour and told me what little there was to tell.
"He must have died soon after you left him, Miss
Jeanette," she sobbed, "for Mrs. Stewart wakened at ten o'clock and
he was gone. He lay there, smiling, with such a strange look on his face as if
he had just seen something that made him wonderfully happy. I never saw such a
look on a dead face before."
"Who is here besides Mrs. Stewart?" I asked.
"Nobody," said Mrs. Yeats. "We have sent word to
all his friends but they have not had time to arrive here yet."
"I met a young girl in the garden last night," I said
slowly. "She came into the house. I did not know her but I thought she
must be a relative of Mr. Lawrence's."
Mrs. Yeats shook her head.
"No. It must have been somebody from the village, although I
didn't know of anyone calling after you went away."
I said nothing more to her about it.
After the funeral Mrs. Stewart gave me Margaret's miniature. I had
never seen it or any picture of Margaret before. The face was very lovely—also
strangely like my own, although I am not beautiful. It was the face of the
young girl I had met at the gate!
22.The Light on the Big
Dipper
"Don't let Nellie
run out of doors, Mary Margaret, and be careful of the fire, Mary Margaret. I
expect we'll be back pretty soon after dark, so don't be lonesome, Mary
Margaret."
Mary Margaret laughed and switched her long, thick braid of black
hair from one shoulder to the other.
"No fear of my being lonesome, Mother Campbell. I'll be just
as careful as can be and there are so many things to be done that I'll be as
busy and happy as a bee all day long. Nellie and I will have just the nicest
kind of a time. I won't get lonesome, but if I should feel just tempted to,
I'll think, Father is on his way home. He will soon be here.' And that would
drive the lonesomeness away before it dared to show its face. Don't you worry,
Mother Campbell."
Mother Campbell smiled. She knew she could trust Mary
Margaret—careful, steady, prudent little Mary Margaret. Little! Ah, that was
just the trouble. Careful and steady and prudent as Mary Margaret might be, she
was only twelve years old, after all, and there would not be another soul
besides her and Nellie on the Little Dipper that whole day. Mrs. Campbell felt
that she hardly dared to go away under such circumstances. And yet she must dare
it. Oscar Bryan had sailed over from the mainland the evening before with word
that her sister Nan—her only sister, who lived in Cartonville—was ill and about
to undergo a serious operation. She must go to see her, and Uncle Martin was
waiting with his boat to take her over to the mainland to catch the morning
train for Cartonville.
If five-year-old Nellie had been quite well Mrs. Campbell would
have taken both her and Mary Margaret and locked up the house. But Nellie had a
very bad cold and was quite unfit to go sailing across the harbour on a raw,
chilly November day. So there was nothing to do but leave Mary Margaret in
charge, and Mary Margaret was quite pleased at the prospect.
"You know, Mother Campbell, I'm not afraid of anything except
tramps. And no tramps ever come to the Dippers. You see what an advantage it is
to live on an island! There, Uncle Martin is waving. Run along, little
mother."
Mary Margaret watched the boat out of sight from the window and
then betook herself to the doing of her tasks, singing blithely all the while.
It was rather nice to be left in sole charge like this—it made you feel so
important and grown-up. She would do everything very nicely and Mother would
see when she came back what a good housekeeper her daughter was.
Mary Margaret and Nellie and Mrs. Campbell had been living on the
Little Dipper ever since the preceding April. Before that they had always lived
in their own cosy home at the Harbour Head. But in April Captain Campbell had
sailed in the Two Sisters for a long voyage and, before he
went, Mrs. Campbell's brother, Martin Clowe, had come to them with a
proposition. He ran a lobster cannery on the Little Dipper, and he wanted his
sister to go and keep house for him while her husband was away. After some
discussion it was so arranged, and Mrs. Campbell and her two girls moved to the
Little Dipper. It was not a lonesome place then, for the lobstermen and their
families lived on it, and boats were constantly sailing to and fro between it
and the mainland. Mary Margaret enjoyed her summer greatly; she bathed and
sailed and roamed over the rocks, and on fine days her Uncle George, who kept
the lighthouse on the Big Dipper, and lived there all alone, often came over
and took her across to the Big Dipper. Mary Margaret thought the lighthouse was
a wonderful place. Uncle George taught her how to light the lamps and manage
the light.
When the lobster season dosed, the men took up codfishing and
carried this on till October, when they all moved back to the mainland. But
Uncle Martin was building a house for himself at Harbour Head and did not wish
to move until the ice formed over the bay because it would then be so much
easier to transport his goods and chattels; so the Campbells stayed with him
until the Captain should return.
Mary Margaret found plenty to do that day and wasn't a bit
lonesome. But when evening came she didn't feel quite so cheerful. Nellie had
fallen asleep, and there wasn't another living creature except the cat on the
Little Dipper. Besides, it looked like a storm. The harbour was glassy calm,
but the sky was very black and dour in the northeast—like snow, thought
weather-wise Mary Margaret. She hoped her mother would get home before it
began, and she wished the lighthouse star would gleam out on the Big Dipper. It
would seem like the bright eye of a steady old friend. Mary Margaret always watched
for it every night; just as soon as the sun went down the big lighthouse star
would flash goldenly out in the northeastern sky.
"I'll sit down by the window and watch for it," said
Mary Margaret to herself. "Then, when it is lighted, I'll get up a nice
warm supper for Mother and Uncle Martin."
Mary Margaret sat down by the kitchen window to watch. Minute
after minute passed, but no light flashed out on the Big Dipper. What was the
matter? Mary Margaret began to feel uneasy. It was too cloudy to tell just when
the sun had set, but she was sure it must be down, for it was quite dark in the
house. She lighted a lamp, got the almanac, and hunted out the exact time of
sunsetting. The sun had been down fifteen minutes!
And there was no light on the Big Dipper!
Mary Margaret felt alarmed and anxious. What was wrong at the Big
Dipper? Was Uncle George away? Or had something happened to him? Mary Margaret
was sure he had never forgotten!
Fifteen minutes longer did Mary Margaret watch restlessly at the
window. Then she concluded that something was desperately wrong somewhere. It
was half an hour after sunset and the Big Dipper light, the most important one
along the whole coast, was not lighted. What would she do? What could she
do?
The answer came swift and dear into Mary Margaret's steady,
sensible little mind. She must go to the Big Dipper and light the lamps!
But could she? Difficulties came crowding thick and fast into her
thoughts. It was going to snow; the soft broad flakes were falling already.
Could she row the two miles to the Big Dipper in the darkness and the snow? If
she could, dare she leave Nellie all alone in the house? Oh, she couldn't!
Somebody at the Harbour Head would surely notice that the Big Dipper light was
unlighted and would go over to investigate the cause. But suppose they
shouldn't? If the snow came thicker they might never notice the absence of the
light. And suppose there was a ship away out there, as there nearly always was,
with the dangerous rocks and shoals of the outer harbour to pass, with precious
lives on board and no guiding beacon on the Big Dipper.
Mary Margaret hesitated no longer. She must go.
Bravely, briskly and thoughtfully she made her preparations.
First, the fire was banked and the draughts dosed; then she wrote a little note
for her mother and laid it on the table. Finally she wakened Nellie.
"Nellie," said Mary Margaret, speaking very kindly and
determinedly, "there is no light on the Big Dipper and I've got to row
over and see about it. I'll be back as quickly as I can, and Mother and Uncle
Martin will soon be here. You won't be afraid to stay alone, will you, dearie?
You mustn't be afraid, because I have to go. And, Nellie, I'm going to tie you
in your chair; it's necessary, because I can't lock the door, so you mustn't
cry; nothing will hurt you, and I want you to be a brave little girl and help
sister all you can."
Nellie, too sleepy and dazed to understand very clearly what Mary
Margaret was about, submitted to be wrapped up in quilts and bound securely in
her chair. Then Mary Margaret tied the chair fast to the wall so that Nellie
couldn't upset it. That's safe, she thought. Nellie can't run out now or fall
on the stove or set herself afire.
Mary Margaret put on her jacket, hood and mittens, and took Uncle
Martin's lantern. As she went out and closed the door, a little wail from
Nellie sounded on her ear. For a moment she hesitated, then the blackness of
the Big Dipper confirmed her resolution. She must go. Nellie was really quite
safe and comfortable. It would not hurt her to cry a little, and it might hurt
somebody a great deal if the Big Dipper light failed. Setting her lips firmly,
Mary Margaret ran down to the shore.
Like all the Harbour girls, Mary Margaret could row a boat from
the time she was nine years old. Nevertheless, her heart almost failed her as
she got into the little dory and rowed out. The snow was getting thick. Could
she pull across those black two miles between the Dippers before it got so much
thicker that she would lose her way? Well, she must risk it. She had set the
light in the kitchen window; she must keep it fair behind her and then she
would land on the lighthouse beach. With a murmured prayer for help and
guidance she pulled staunchly away.
It was a long, hard row for the little twelve-year-old arms.
Fortunately there was no wind. But thicker and thicker came the snow; finally
the kitchen light was hidden in it. For a moment Mary Margaret's heart sank in
despair; the next it gave a joyful bound, for, turning, she saw the dark tower
of the lighthouse directly behind her. By the aid of her lantern she rowed to
the landing, sprang out and made her boat fast. A minute later she was in the
lighthouse kitchen.
The door leading to the tower stairs was open and at the foot of
the stairs lay Uncle George, limp and white.
"Oh, Uncle George," gasped Mary Margaret, "what is
the matter? What has happened?"
"Mary Margaret! Thank God! I was just praying to Him to send
somebody to 'tend the light. Who's with you?"
"Nobody.... I got frightened because there was no light and I
rowed over. Mother and Uncle Martin are away."
"You don't mean to say you rowed yourself over here alone in
the dark and snow! Well, you are the pluckiest little girl about this harbour!
It's a mercy I've showed you how to manage the light. Run up and start it at
once. Don't mind about me. I tumbled down those pesky stairs like the awkward
old fool I am and I've broke my leg and hurt my back so bad I can't crawl an
inch. I've been lying here for three mortal hours and they've seemed like three
years. Hurry with the light, Mary Margaret."
Mary Margaret hurried. Soon the Big Dipper light was once more
gleaming cheerfully athwart the stormy harbour. Then she ran back to her uncle.
There was not much she could do for him beyond covering him warmly with quilts,
placing a pillow under his head, and brewing him a hot drink of tea.
"I left a note for Mother telling her where I'd gone, Uncle
George, so I'm sure Uncle Martin will come right over as soon as they get
home."
"He'll have to hurry. It's blowing up now ... hear it ... and
snowing thick. If your mother and Martin haven't left the Harbour Head before
this, they won't leave it tonight. But, anyhow, the light is lit. I don't mind
my getting smashed up compared to that. I thought I'd go crazy lying here
picturing to myself a vessel out on the reefs."
That night was a very long and anxious one. The storm grew rapidly
worse, and snow and wind howled around the lighthouse. Uncle George soon grew
feverish and delirious, and Mary Margaret, between her anxiety for him and her
dismal thoughts of poor Nellie tied in her chair over at the Little Dipper, and
the dark possibility of her mother and Uncle Martin being out in the storm,
felt almost distracted. But the morning came at last, as mornings blessedly
will, be the nights never so long and anxious, and it dawned fine and clear
over a white world. Mary Margaret ran to the shore and gazed eagerly across at
the Little Dipper. No smoke was visible from Uncle Martin's house!
She could not leave Uncle George, who was raving wildly, and yet
it was necessary to obtain assistance somehow. Suddenly she remembered the
distress signal. She must hoist it. How fortunate that Uncle George had once
shown her how!
Ten minutes later there was a commotion over at Harbour Head where
the signal was promptly observed, and very soon—although it seemed long enough
to Mary Margaret—a boat came sailing over to the Big Dipper. When the men
landed they were met by a very white-faced little girl who gasped out a rather
disjointed story of a light that hadn't been lighted and an uncle with a broken
leg and a sister tied in her chair, and would they please see to Uncle George
at once, for she must go straight over to the other Dipper?
One of the men rowed her over, but before they were halfway there
another boat went sailing across the harbour, and Mary Margaret saw a woman and
two men land from it and hurry up to the house.
That is Mother and Uncle Martin, but who can the other man be?
wondered Mary Margaret.
When she reached the cottage her mother and Uncle Martin were
reading her note, and Nellie, just untied from the chair where she had been
found fast asleep, was in the arms of a great, big, brown, bewhiskered man.
Mary Margaret just gave one look at the man. Then she flew across the room with
a cry of delight.
"Father!"
For ten minutes not one intelligible word was said, what with
laughing and crying and kissing. Mary Margaret was the first to recover herself
and say briskly, "Now, do explain, somebody. Tell me how
it all happened."
"Martin and I got back to Harbour Head too late last night to
cross over," said her mother. "It would have been madness to try to
cross in the storm, although I was nearly wild thinking of you two children.
It's well I didn't know the whole truth or I'd have been simply frantic. We
stayed at the Head all night, and first thing this morning came your
father."
"We came in last night," said Captain Campbell,
"and it was pitch dark, not a light to be seen and beginning to snow. We
didn't know where we were and I was terribly worried, when all at once the Big
Dipper light I'd been looking for so vainly flashed out, and everything was all
right in a moment. But, Mary Margaret, if that light hadn't appeared, we'd
never have got in past the reefs. You've saved your father's ship and all the
lives in her, my brave little girl."
"Oh!" Mary Margaret drew a long breath and her eyes were
starry with tears of happiness. "Oh, I'm so thankful I went over. And
I had to tie Nellie in her chair, Mother, there was no other
way. Uncle George broke his leg and is very sick this morning, and there's no
breakfast ready for anyone and the fire black out ... but that doesn't matter
when Father is safe ... and oh, I'm so tired!"
And then Mary Margaret sat down just for a moment, intending to
get right up and help her mother light the fire, laid her head on her father's
shoulder, and fell sound asleep before she ever suspected it.
23.The Prodigal Brother
Miss Hannah was cutting
asters in her garden. It was a very small garden, for nothing would grow beyond
the shelter of the little, grey, low-eaved house which alone kept the northeast
winds from blighting everything with salt spray; but small as it was, it was a
miracle of blossoms and a marvel of neatness. The trim brown paths were swept
clean of every leaf or fallen petal, each of the little square beds had its
border of big white quahog clamshells, and not even a sweet-pea vine would have
dared to straggle from its appointed course under Miss Hannah's eye.
Miss Hannah had always lived in the little grey house down by the
shore, so far away from all the other houses in Prospect and so shut away from
them by a circle of hills that it had a seeming isolation. Not another house
could Miss Hannah see from her own doorstone; she often declared she could not
have borne it if it had not been for the lighthouse beacon at night flaming
over the northwest hill behind the house like a great unwinking, friendly star
that never failed even on the darkest night. Behind the house a little tongue
of the St. Lawrence gulf ran up between the headlands until the wavelets of its
tip almost lapped against Miss Hannah's kitchen doorstep. Beyond, to the north,
was the great crescent of the gulf, whose murmur had been Miss Hannah's lullaby
all her life. When people wondered to her how she could endure living in such a
lonely place, she retorted that the loneliness was what she loved it for, and
that the lighthouse star and the far-away call of the gulf had always been
company enough for her and always would be ... until Ralph came back. When
Ralph came home, of course, he might like a livelier place and they might move
to town or up-country as he wished.
"Of course," said Miss Hannah with a proud smile,
"a rich man mightn't fancy living away down here in a little grey house by
the shore. He'll be for building me a mansion, I expect, and I'd like it fine.
But until he comes I must be contented with things as they are."
People always smiled to each other when Miss Hannah talked like
this. But they took care not to let her see the smile.
Miss Hannah snipped her white and purple asters off ungrudgingly
and sang, as she snipped, an old-fashioned song she had learned long ago in her
youth. The day was one of October's rarest, and Miss Hannah loved fine days.
The air was clear as golden-hued crystal, and all the slopes around her were
mellow and hazy in the autumn sunshine. She knew that beyond those sunny slopes
were woods glorying in crimson and gold, and she would have the delight of a
walk through them later on when she went to carry the asters to sick Millie
Starr at the Bridge. Flowers were all Miss Hannah had to give, for she was very
poor, but she gave them with a great wealth of friendliness and goodwill.
Presently a wagon drove down her lane and pulled up outside of her
white garden paling. Jacob Delancey was in it, with a pretty young niece of his
who was a visitor from the city, and Miss Hannah, her sheaf of asters in her arms,
went over to the paling with a sparkle of interest in her faded blue eyes. She
had heard a great deal of the beauty of this strange girl. Prospect people had
been talking of nothing else for a week, and Miss Hannah was filled with a
harmless curiosity concerning her. She always liked to look at pretty people,
she said; they did her as much good as her flowers.
"Good afternoon, Miss Hannah," said Jacob Delancey.
"Busy with your flowers, as usual, I see."
"Oh, yes," said Miss Hannah, managing to stare with
unobtrusive delight at the girl while she talked. "The frost will soon be
coming now, you know; so I want to live among them as much as I can while
they're here."
"That's right," assented Jacob, who made a profession of
cordial agreement with everybody and would have said the same words in the same
tone had Miss Hannah announced a predilection for living in the cellar.
"Well, Miss Hannah, it's flowers I'm after myself just now. We're having a
bit of a party at our house tonight, for the young folks, and my wife told me
to call and ask you if you could let us have a few for decoration."
"Of course," said Miss Hannah, "you can have these.
I meant them for Millie, but I can cut the west bed for her."
She opened the gate and carried the asters over to the buggy. Miss
Delancey took them with a smile that made Miss Hannah remember the date
forever.
"Lovely day," commented Jacob genially.
"Yes," said Miss Hannah dreamily. "It reminds me of
the day Ralph went away twenty years ago. It doesn't seem so long. Don't you
think he'll be coming back soon, Jacob?"
"Oh, sure," said Jacob, who thought the very opposite.
"I have a feeling that he's coming very soon," said Miss
Hannah brightly. "It will be a great day for me, won't it, Jacob? I've
been poor all my life, but when Ralph comes back everything will be so
different. He will be a rich man and he will give me everything I've always
wanted. He said he would. A fine house and a carriage and a silk dress. Oh, and
we will travel and see the world. You don't know how I look forward to it all.
I've got it all planned out, all I'm going to do and have. And I believe he
will be here very soon. A man ought to be able to make a fortune in twenty
years, don't you think, Jacob?"
"Oh, sure," said Jacob. But he said it a little uncomfortably.
He did not like the job of throwing cold water, but it seemed to him that he
ought not to encourage Miss Hannah's hopes. "Of course, you shouldn't
think too much about it, Miss Hannah. He mightn't ever come back, or he might
be poor."
"How can you say such things, Jacob?" interrupted Miss
Hannah indignantly, with a little crimson spot flaming out in each of her pale
cheeks. "You know quite well he will come back. I'm as sure of it as that
I'm standing here. And he will be rich, too. People are always trying to hint
just as you've done to me, but I don't mind them. I know."
She turned and went back into her garden with her head held high.
But her sudden anger floated away in a whiff of sweet-pea perfume that struck
her in the face; she waved her hand in farewell to her callers and watched the
buggy down the lane with a smile.
"Of course, Jacob doesn't know, and I shouldn't have snapped
him up so quick. It'll be my turn to crow when Ralph does come. My, but isn't
that girl pretty. I feel as if I'd been looking at some lovely picture. It just
makes a good day of this. Something pleasant happens to me most every day and
that girl is today's pleasant thing. I just feel real happy and thankful that
there are such beautiful creatures in the world and that we can look at
them."
"Well, of all the queer delusions!" Jacob Delancey was
ejaculating as he and his niece drove down the lane.
"What is it all about?" asked Miss Delancey curiously.
"Well, it's this way, Dorothy. Long ago Miss Hannah had a
brother who ran away from home. It was before their father and mother died.
Ralph Walworth was as wild a young scamp as ever was in Prospect and a
spendthrift in the bargain. Nobody but Hannah had any use for him, and she just
worshipped him. I must admit he was real fond of her too, but he and his father
couldn't get on at all. So finally he ups and runs away; it was generally
supposed he went to the mining country. He left a note for Hannah bidding her
goodbye and telling her that he was going to make his fortune and would come
back to her a rich man. There's never been a word heard tell of him since, and
in my opinion it's doubtful if he's still alive. But Miss Hannah, as you saw,
is sure and certain he'll come back yet with gold dropping out of his pockets.
She's as sane as anyone everyway else, but there is no doubt she's a little
cracked on that p'int. If he never turns up she'll go on hoping quite happy to
her death. But if he should turn up and be poor, as is ten times likelier than
anything else, I believe it'd most kill Miss Hannah. She's terrible proud for
all she's so sweet, and you saw yourself how mad she got when I kind of hinted
he mightn't be rich. If he came back poor, after all her boasting about him, I
don't fancy he'd get much of a welcome from her. And she'd never hold up her
head again, that's certain. So it's to be hoped, say I, that Ralph Walworth
never will turn up, unless he comes in a carriage and four, which is about as
likely, in my opinion, as that he'll come in a pumpkin drawn by mice."
When October had passed and the grey November days came, the glory
of Miss Hannah's garden was over. She was very lonely without her flowers. She
missed them more this year than ever. On fine days she paced up and down the
walks and looked sadly at the drooping, unsightly stalks and vines. She was
there one afternoon when the northeast wind was up and doing, whipping the gulf
waters into whitecaps and whistling up the inlet and around the grey eaves.
Miss Hannah was mournfully patting a frosted chrysanthemum under its golden
chin when she saw a man limping slowly down the lane.
"Now, who can that be?" she murmured. "It isn't any
Prospect man, for there's nobody lame around here."
She went to the garden gate to meet him. He came haltingly up the
slope and paused before her, gazing at her wistfully. He looked old and bent
and broken, and his clothes were poor and worn. Who was he? Miss Hannah felt
that she ought to know him, and her memory went groping back amongst all her
recollections. Yet she could think of nobody but her father, who had died
fifteen years before.
"Don't ye know me, Hannah?" said the man wistfully.
"Have I changed so much as all that?"
"Ralph!"
It was between a cry and a laugh. Miss Hannah flew through the
gate and caught him in her arms. "Ralph, my own dear brother! Oh, I always
knew you'd come back. If you knew how I've looked forward to this day!"
She was both laughing and crying now. Her face shone with a soft gladness.
Ralph Walworth shook his head sadly.
"It's a poor wreck of a man I am come back to you,
Hannah," he said. "I've never accomplished anything and my health's
broken and I'm a cripple as ye see. For a time I thought I'd never show my face
back here, such a failure as I be, but the longing to see you got too strong.
It's naught but a wreck I am, Hannah."
"You're my own dear brother," cried Miss Hannah.
"Do you think I care how poor you are? And if your health is poor I'm the
one to nurse you up, who else than your only sister, I'd like to know! Come
right in. You're shivering in this wind. I'll mix you a good hot currant drink.
I knew them black currants didn't bear so plentiful for nothing last summer.
Oh, this is a good day and no mistake!"
In twenty-four hours' time everybody in Prospect knew that Ralph
Walworth had come home, crippled and poor. Jacob Delancey shook his head as he
drove away from the station with Ralph's shabby little trunk standing on end in
his buggy. The station master had asked him to take it down to Miss Hannah's,
and Jacob did not fancy the errand. He was afraid Miss Hannah would be in a bad
way and he did not know what to say to her.
She was in her garden, covering her pansies with seaweed, when he
drove up, and she came to the garden gate to meet him, all smiles.
"So you've brought Ralph's trunk, Mr. Delancey. Now, that was
real good of you. He was going over to the station to see about it himself, but
he had such a cold I persuaded him to wait till tomorrow. He's lying down
asleep now. He's just real tired. He brought this seaweed up from the shore for
me this morning and it played him out. He ain't strong. But didn't I tell you
he was coming back soon? You only laughed at me, but I knew."
"He isn't very rich, though," said Jacob jokingly. He
was relieved to find that Miss Hannah did not seem to be worrying over this.
"That doesn't matter," cried Miss Hannah. "Why,
he's my brother! Isn't that enough? I'm rich if he isn't, rich in love and
happiness. And I'm better pleased in a way than if he had come back rich. He
might have wanted to take me away or build a fine house, and I'm too old to be
making changes. And then he wouldn't have needed me. I'd have been of no use to
him. As it is, it's just me he needs to look after him and coddle him. Oh, it's
fine to have somebody to do things for, somebody that belongs to you. I was
just dreading the loneliness of the winter, and now it's going to be such a
happy winter. I declare last night Ralph and I sat up till morning talking over
everything. He's had a hard life of it. Bad luck and illness right along. And
last winter in the lumber woods he got his leg broke. But now he's come home
and we're never going to be parted again as long as we live. I could sing for
joy, Jacob."
"Oh, sure," assented Jacob cordially. He felt a little
dazed. Miss Hannah's nimble change of base was hard for him to follow, and he
had an injured sense of having wasted a great deal of commiseration on her when
she didn't need it at all. "Only I kind of thought, we all thought, you
had such plans."
"Well, they served their turn," interrupted Miss Hannah
briskly. "They amused me and kept me interested till something real would
come in their place. If I'd had to carry them out I dare say they'd have
bothered me a lot. Things are more comfortable as they are. I'm happy as a
bird, Jacob."
"Oh, sure," said Jacob. He pondered the business deeply
all the way back home, but could make nothing of it.
"But I ain't obliged to," he concluded sensibly.
"Miss Hannah's satisfied and happy and it's nobody else's concern.
However, I call it a curious thing."
24.The Redemption of
John Churchill
John Churchill walked
slowly, not as a man walks who is tired, or content to saunter for the pleasure
of it, but as one in no haste to reach his destination through dread of it. The
day was well on to late afternoon in mid-spring, and the world was abloom.
Before him and behind him wound a road that ran like a red ribbon through
fields of lush clovery green. The orchards scattered along it were white and
fragrant, giving of their incense to a merry south-west wind; fence-corner
nooks were purple with patches of violets or golden-green with the curly heads
of young ferns. The roadside was sprinkled over with the gold dust of
dandelions and the pale stars of wild strawberry blossoms. It seemed a day
through which a man should walk lightly and blithely, looking the world and his
fellows frankly in the face, and opening his heart to let the springtime in.
But John Churchill walked laggingly, with bent head. When he met
other wayfarers or was passed by them, he did not lift his face, but only
glanced up under his eyebrows with a furtive look that was replaced by a sort
of shamed relief when they had passed on without recognizing him. Some of them he
knew for friends of the old time. Ten years had not changed them as he had been
changed. They had spent those ten years in freedom and good repute, under God's
blue sky, in His glad air and sunshine. He, John Churchill, had spent them
behind the walls of a prison.
His close-clipped hair was grey; his figure, encased in an
ill-fitting suit of coarse cloth, was stooped and shrunken; his face was deeply
lined; yet he was not an old man in years. He was only forty; he was thirty
when he had been convicted of embezzling the bank funds for purposes of
speculation and had been sent to prison, leaving behind a wife and father who
were broken-hearted and a sister whose pride had suffered more than her heart.
He had never seen them since, but he knew what had happened in his
absence. His wife had died two months later, leaving behind her a baby boy; his
father had died within the year. He had killed them; he, John Churchill, who
loved them, had killed them as surely as though his hand had struck them down
in cold blood. His sister had taken the baby, his little son whom he had never
seen, but for whom he had prepared such a birthright of dishonour. She had
never forgiven her brother and she never wrote to him. He knew that she would
have brought the boy up either in ignorance of his father's crime or in utter
detestation of it. When he came back to the world after his imprisonment, there
was not a single friendly hand to clasp his and help him struggle up again. The
best his friends had been able to do for him was to forget him.
He was filled with bitterness and despair and a gnawing hatred of
the world of brightness around him. He had no place in it; he was an ugly blot
on it. He was a friendless, wifeless, homeless man who could not so much as
look his fellow men in the face, who must henceforth consort with outcasts. In
his extremity he hated God and man, burning with futile resentment against
both.
Only one feeling of tenderness yet remained in his heart; it
centred around the thought of his little son.
When he left the prison he had made up his mind what to do. He had
a little money which his father had left him, enough to take him west. He would
go there, under a new name. There would be novelty and adventure to blot out
the memories of the old years. He did not care what became of him, since there
was no one else to care. He knew in his heart that his future career would
probably lead him still further and further downward, but that did not matter.
If there had been anybody to care, he might have thought it worthwhile to
struggle back to respectability and trample his shame under feet that should
henceforth walk only in the ways of honour and honesty. But there was nobody to
care. So he would go to his own place.
But first he must see little Joey, who must be quite a big boy
now, nearly ten years old. He would go home and see him just once, even
although he dreaded meeting aversion in the child's eyes. Then, when he had
bade him good-bye, and, with him, good-bye to all that remained to make for
good in his desolated existence, he would go out of his life forever.
"I'll go straight to the devil then," he said sullenly.
"That's where I belong, a jail-bird at whom everybody except other
jail-birds looks askance. To think what I was once, and what I am now! It's
enough to drive a man mad! As for repenting, bah! Who'd believe that I really
repented, who'd give me a second chance on the faith of it? Not a soul.
Repentance won't blot out the past. It won't give me back my wife whom I loved
above everything on earth and whose heart I broke. It won't restore me my
unstained name and my right to a place among honourable men. There's no chance
for a man who has fallen as low as I have. If Emily were living, I could
struggle for her sake. But who'd be fool enough to attempt such a fight with no
motive and not one chance of success in a hundred. Not I. I'm down and I'll
stay down. There's no climbing up again."
He celebrated his first day of freedom by getting drunk, although
he had never before been an intemperate man. Then, when the effects of the
debauch wore off, he took the train for Alliston; he would go home and see
little Joey once.
Nobody at the station where he alighted recognized him or paid any
attention to him. He was as a dead man who had come back to life to find
himself effaced from recollection and his place knowing him no more. It was
three miles from the station to where his sister lived, and he resolved to walk
the distance. Now that the critical moment drew near, he shrank from it and
wished to put it off as long as he could.
When he reached his sister's home he halted on the road and
surveyed the place over its snug respectability of iron fence. His courage
failed him at the thought of walking over that trim lawn and knocking at that
closed front door. He would slip around by the back way; perhaps, who knew, he
might come upon Joey without running the gauntlet of his sister's cold,
offended eyes. If he might only find the boy and talk to him for a little while
without betraying his identity, meet his son's clear gaze without the danger of
finding scorn or fear in it—his heart beat high at the thought.
He walked furtively up the back way between high, screening hedges
of spruce. When he came to the gate of the yard, he paused. He heard voices
just beyond the thick hedge, children's voices, and he crept as near as he
could to the sound and peered through the hedge, with a choking sensation in
his throat and a smart in his eyes. Was that Joey, could that be his little
son? Yes, it was; he would have known him anywhere by his likeness to Emily.
Their boy had her curly brown hair, her sensitive mouth, above all, her
clear-gazing, truthful grey eyes, eyes in which there was never a shadow of
falsehood or faltering.
Joey Churchill was sitting on a stone bench in his aunt's kitchen
yard, holding one of his black-stockinged knees between his small, brown hands.
Jimmy Morris was standing opposite to him, his back braced against the trunk of
a big, pink-blossomed apple tree, his hands in his pockets, and a scowl on his
freckled face. Jimmy lived next door to Joey and as a rule they were very good
friends, but this afternoon they had quarrelled over the right and proper way
to construct an Indian ambush in the fir grove behind the pig-house. The
argument was long and warm and finally culminated in personalities. Just as
John Churchill dropped on one knee behind the hedge, the better to see Joey's
face, Jimmy Morris said scornfully:
"I don't care what you say. Nobody believes you. Your father
is in the penitentiary."
The taunt struck home as it always did. It was not the first time
that Joey had been twitted with his father by his boyish companions. But never
before by Jimmy! It always hurt him, and he had never before made any response
to it. His face would flush crimson, his lips would quiver, and his big grey
eyes darken miserably with the shadow that was on his life; he would turn away
in silence. But that Jimmy, his best beloved chum, should say such a thing to
him; oh, it hurt terribly.
There is nothing so merciless as a small boy. Jimmy saw his
advantage and vindictively pursued it.
"Your father stole money, that's what he did! You know he
did. I'm pretty glad my father isn't a thief. Your father
is. And when he gets out of prison, he'll go on stealing again. My father says
he will. Nobody'll have anything to do with him, my father says. His own sister
won't have anything to do with him. So there, Joey Churchill!"
"There will somebody have something to do
with him!" cried Joey hotly. He slid off the bench and faced Jimmy proudly
and confidently. The unseen watcher on the other side of the hedge saw his face
grow white and intense and set-lipped, as if it had been the face of a man. The
grey eyes were alight with a steady, fearless glow.
"I'll have something to do with him. He is my father
and I love him. I don't care what he did, I love him just as well as if he was
the best man in the world. I love him better than if he was as good as your
father, because he needs it more. I've always loved him ever since I found out
about him. I'd write to him and tell him so, if Aunt Beatrice would tell me
where to send the letter. Aunt Beatrice won't ever talk about him or let me
talk about him, but I think about him all the time. And he's
going to be a good man yet, yes, he is, just as good as your father, Jimmy
Morris. I'm going to make him good. I made up my mind years
ago what I would do and I'm going to do it, so there, Jimmy."
"I don't see what you can do," muttered Jimmy, already
ashamed of what he had said and wishing he had let Joey's father alone.
"I'll tell you what I can do!" Joey was confronting all
the world now, with his head thrown back and his face flushed with his
earnestness. "I can love him and stand by him, and I will. When he gets
out of—of prison, he'll come to see me, I know he will. And I'm just going to
hug him and kiss him and say, 'Never mind, Father. I know you're sorry for what
you've done, and you're never going to do it any more. You're going to be a
good man and I'm going to stand by you.' Yes, sir, that's just what I'm going
to say to him. I'm all the children he has and there's nobody else to love him,
because I know Aunt Beatrice doesn't. And I'm going with him wherever he
goes."
"You can't," said Jimmy in a scared tone. "Your
Aunt Beatrice won't let you."
"Yes, she will. She'll have to. I belong to my father. And I
think he'll be coming pretty soon some way. I'm pretty sure the time must be
'most up. I wish he would come. I want to see him as much as can be, 'cause I
know he'll need me. And I'll be proud of him yet, Jimmy Morris, yes, I'll be
just as proud as you are of your father. When I get bigger, nobody will call my
father names, I can tell you. I'll fight them if they do, yes, sir, I will. My
father and I are going to stand by each other like bricks. Aunt Beatrice has
lots of children of her own and I don't believe she'll be a bit sorry when I go
away. She's ashamed of my father 'cause he did a bad thing. But I'm not, no,
sir. I'm going to love him so much that I'll make up to him for everything
else. And you can just go home, Jimmy Morris, so there!"
Jimmy Morris went home, and when he had gone, Joey flung himself
face downward in the grass and fallen apple blossoms and lay very still.
On the other side of the spruce hedge knelt John Churchill with
bowed head. The tears were running freely down his face, but there was a new,
tender light in his eyes. The bitterness and despair had fallen out of his
heart, leaving a great peace and a dawning hope in their place. Bless that
loyal little soul! There was something to live for after all—there was a motive
to make the struggle worthwhile. He must justify his son's faith in him; he
must strive to make himself worthy of this sweet, pure, unselfish love that was
offered to him, as a divine draught is offered to the parched lips of a man
perishing from thirst. Aye, and, God helping him, he would. He would redeem the
past. He would go west, but under his own name. His little son should go with
him; he would work hard; he would pay back the money he had embezzled, as much
of it as he could, if it took the rest of his life to do so. For his boy's sake
he must cleanse his name from the dishonour he had brought on it. Oh, thank
God, there was somebody to care, somebody to love him, somebody to believe him
when he said humbly, "I repent." Under his breath he said, looking
heavenward:
"God be merciful to me, a sinner."
Then he stood up erectly, went through the gate and over the grass
to the motionless little figure with its face buried in its arms.
"Joey boy," he said huskily. "Joey boy."
Joey sprang to his feet with tears still glistening in his eyes.
He saw before him a bent, grey-headed man looking at him lovingly and
wistfully. Joey knew who it was—the father he had never seen. With a glad cry
of welcome he sprang into the outstretched arms of the man whom his love had
already won back to God.
25.The Schoolmaster's
Letters
At sunset the
schoolmaster went up to his room to write a letter to her. He always wrote to
her at the same time—when the red wave of the sunset, flaming over the sea,
surged in at the little curtainless window and flowed over the pages he wrote
on. The light was rose-red and imperial and spiritual, like his love for her, and
seemed almost to dye the words of the letters in its own splendid hues—the
letters to her which she never was to see, whose words her eyes never were to
read, and whose love and golden fancy and rainbow dreams never were to be so
much as known by her. And it was because she never was to see them that he
dared to write them, straight out of his full heart, taking the exquisite
pleasure of telling her what he never could permit himself to tell her face to
face. Every evening he wrote thus to her, and the hour so spent glorified the
entire day. The rest of the hours—all the other hours of the commonplace day—he
was merely a poor schoolmaster with a long struggle before him, one who might
not lift his eyes to gaze on a star. But at this hour he was her equal, meeting
her soul to soul, telling out as a man might all his great love for her, and
wearing the jewel of it on his brow. What wonder indeed that the precious hour
which made him a king, crowned with a mighty and unselfish passion, was above
all things sacred to him? And doubly sacred when, as tonight, it followed upon
an hour spent with her? Its mingled delight and pain were almost more than he
could bear.
He went through the kitchen and the hall and up the narrow
staircase with a glory in his eyes that thus were held from seeing his sordid
surroundings. Link Houseman, sprawled out on the platform before the kitchen
door, saw him pass with that rapt face, and chuckled. Link was ill enough to
look at any time, with his sharp, freckled features and foxy eyes. When he
chuckled his face was that of an unholy imp.
But the schoolmaster took no heed of him. Neither did he heed the
girl whom he met in the hall. Her handsome, sullen face flushed crimson under
the sting of his utter disregard, and her black eyes followed him up the stairs
with a look that was not good to see.
"Sis," whispered Link piercingly, "come out here!
I've got a joke to tell you, something about the master and his girl. You ain't
to let on to him you know, though. I found it out last night when he was off to
the shore. That old key of Uncle Jim's was just the thing. He's a softy, and no
mistake."
000
Upstairs in his little room, the schoolmaster was writing his
letter. The room was as bare and graceless as all the other rooms of the
farmhouse where he had boarded during his term of teaching; but it looked out
on the sea, and was hung with such priceless tapestry of his iris dreams and
visions that it was to him an apartment in a royal palace. From it he gazed
afar on bays that were like great cups of sapphire brimming over with ruby wine
for gods to drain, on headlands that were like amethyst, on wide sweeps of sea
that were blue and far and mysterious; and ever the moan and call of the
ocean's heart came up to his heart as of one great, hopeless love and longing
crying out to another love and longing, as great and hopeless. And here, in the
rose-radiance of the sunset, with the sea-music in the dim air, he wrote his
letter to her.
My Lady: How beautiful it is to think that there is nothing to prevent
my loving you! There is much—everything—to prevent me from telling you that I
love you. But nothing has any right to come between my heart and its own; it is
permitted to love you forever and ever and serve and reverence you in secret
and silence. For so much, dear, I thank life, even though the price of the
permission must always be the secret and the silence.
I have just come from you, my lady. Your voice is still in my
ears; your eyes are still looking into mine, gravely yet half smilingly,
sweetly yet half provokingly. Oh, how dear and human and girlish and queenly
you are—half saint and half very womanly woman! And how I love you with all
there is of me to love—heart and soul and brain, every fibre of body and spirit
thrilling to the wonder and marvel and miracle of it! You do not know it, my
sweet, and you must never know it. You would not even wish to know it, for I am
nothing to you but one of many friends, coming into your life briefly and
passing out of it, of no more account to you than a sunshiny hour, a bird's
song, a bursting bud in your garden. But the hour and the bird and the flower
gave you a little delight in their turn, and when you remembered them once
before forgetting, that was their reward and blessing. That is all I ask, dear
lady, and I ask that only in my own heart. I am content to love you and be
forgotten. It is sweeter to love you and be forgotten than it would be to love
any other woman and live in her lifelong remembrance: so humble has love made
me, sweet, so great is my sense of my own unworthiness.
Yet love must find expression in some fashion, dear, else it is
only pain, and hence these letters to you which you will never read. I put all
my heart into them; they are the best and highest of me, the buds of a love
that can never bloom openly in the sunshine of your life. I weave a chaplet of
them, dear, and crown you with it. They will never fade, for such love is
eternal.
It is a whole summer since I first met you. I had been waiting for
you all my life before and did not know it. But I knew it when you came and
brought with you a sense of completion and fulfilment. This has been the
precious year of my life, the turning-point to which all things past tended and
all things future must look back. Oh, my dear, I thank you for this year! It
has been your royal gift to me, and I shall be rich and great forever because
of it. Nothing can ever take it from me, nothing can mar it. It were well to
have lived a lifetime of loneliness for such a boon—the price would not be too
high. I would not give my one perfect summer for a generation of other men's
happiness.
There are those in the world who would laugh at me, who would pity
me, Una. They would say that the love I have poured out in secret at your feet
has been wasted, that I am a poor weak fool to squander all my treasure of
affection on a woman who does not care for me and who is as far above me as
that great white star that is shining over the sea. Oh, my dear, they do not
know, they cannot understand. The love I have given you has not left me poorer.
It has enriched my life unspeakably; it has opened my eyes and given me the
gift of clear vision for those things that matter; it has been a lamp held
before my stumbling feet whereby I have avoided snares and pitfalls of baser
passions and unworthy dreams. For all this I thank you, dear, and for all this
surely the utmost that I can give of love and reverence and service is not too
much.
I could not have helped loving you. But if I could have helped it,
knowing with just what measure of pain and joy it would brim my cup, I would
have chosen to love you, Una. There are those who strive to forget a hopeless
love. To me, the greatest misfortune that life could bring would be that I
should forget you. I want to remember you always and love you and long for you.
That would be unspeakably better than any happiness that could come to me
through forgetting.
Dear lady, good night. The sun has set; there is now but one fiery
dimple on the horizon, as if a golden finger had dented it—now it is gone; the
mists are coming up over the sea.
A kiss on each of your white hands, dear. Tonight I am too humble
to lift my thoughts to your lips.
The schoolmaster folded up his letter and held it against his
cheek for a little space while he gazed out on the silver-shining sea with his
dark eyes full of dreams. Then he took from his shabby trunk a little inlaid
box and unlocked it with a twisted silver key. It was full of letters—his
letters to Una. The first had been written months ago, in the early promise of
a northern spring. They linked together the golden weeks of the summer. Now, in
the purple autumn, the box was full, and the schoolmaster's term was nearly
ended.
He took out the letters reverently and looked over them, now and
then murmuring below his breath some passages scattered through the written
pages. He had laid bare his heart in those letters, writing out what he never
could have told her, even if his love had been known and returned, for dead and
gone generations of stern and repressed forefathers laid their unyielding
fingers of reserve on his lips, and the shyness of dreamy, book-bred youth
stemmed the language of eye and tone.
I will love you forever and ever. And even though you know it not,
surely such love will hover around you all your life. Like an invisible
benediction, not understood but dimly felt, guarding you from ill and keeping
far from you all things and thoughts of harm and evil!
000
Sometimes I let myself dream. And in those dreams you love me, and
we go out to meet life together. I have dreamed that you kissed me—dreamed it
so reverently that the dream did your womanhood no wrong. I have dreamed that
you put your hands in mine and said, "I love you." Oh, the rapture of
it!
000
We may give all we will if we do not ask for a return. There
should be no barter in love. If, by reason of the greatness of my love for you,
I were to ask your love in return, I should be a base creature. It is only
because I am content to love and serve for the sake of loving and serving that
I have the right to love you.
000
I have a memory of a blush of yours—a rose of the years that will
bloom forever in my garden of remembrance. Tonight you blushed when I came upon
you suddenly among the flowers. You were startled—perhaps I had broken too
rudely on some girlish musing; and straightway your round, pale curve of cheek
and your white arch of brow were made rosy as with the dawn of beautiful
sunrise. I shall see you forever as you looked at that time. In my mad moments
I shall dream, knowing all the while that it is only a dream, that you blushed
with delight at my coming. I shall be able to picture forevermore how you would
look at one you loved.
000
Tonight the moon was low in the west. It hung over the sea like a
shallop of ruddy gold moored to a star in the harbour of the night. I lingered
long and watched it, for I knew that you, too, were watching it from your
window that looks on the sea. You told me once that you always watched the moon
set. It has been a bond between us ever since.
000
This morning I rose at dawn and walked on the shore to think of
you, because it seemed the most fitting time. It was before sunrise, and the
world was virgin. All the east was a shimmer of silver and the morning star
floated in it like a dissolving pearl. The sea was a great miracle. I walked up
and down by it and said your name over and over again. The hour was sacred to
you. It was as pure and unspoiled as your own soul. Una, who will bring into
your life the sunrise splendour and colour of love?
000
Do you know how beautiful you are, Una? Let me tell you, dear. You
are tall, yet you have to lift your eyes a little to meet mine. Such dear eyes,
Una! They are dark blue, and when you smile they are like wet violets in
sunshine. But when you are pensive they are more lovely still—the spirit and
enchantment of the sea at twilight passes into them then. Your hair has the
gloss and brownness of ripe nuts, and your face is always pale. Your lips have
a trick of falling apart in a half-smile when you listen. They told me before I
knew you that you were pretty. Pretty! The word is cheap and tawdry. You are
beautiful, with the beauty of a pearl or a star or a white flower.
000
Do you remember our first meeting? It was one evening last spring.
You were in your garden. The snow had not all gone, but your hands were full of
pale, early flowers. You wore a white shawl over your shoulders and head. Your
face was turned upward a little, listening to a robin's call in the leafless
trees above you. I thought God had never made anything so lovely and
love-deserving. I loved you from that moment, Una.
000
This is your birthday. The world has been glad of you for twenty
years. It is fitting that there have been bird songs and sunshine and blossom
today, a great light and fragrance over land and sea. This morning I went far
afield to a long, lonely valley lying to the west, girt round about with dim
old pines, where feet of men seldom tread, and there I searched until I found
some rare flowers meet to offer you. I sent them to you with a little book, an
old book. A new book, savouring of the shop and marketplace, however beautiful
it might be, would not do for you. So I sent the book that was my mother's. She
read it and loved it—the faded rose-leaves she placed in it are there still. At
first, dear, I almost feared to send it. Would you miss its meaning? Would you
laugh a little at the shabby volume with its pencil marks and its rose-leaves?
But I knew you would not; I knew you would understand.
000
Today I saw you with the child of your sister in your arms. I felt
as the old painters must have felt when they painted their Madonnas. You bent
over his shining golden head, and on your face was the mother passion and
tenderness that is God's finishing touch to the beauty of womanhood. The next
moment you were laughing with him—two children playing together. But I had
looked upon you in that brief space. Oh, the pain and joy of it!
000
It is so sweet, dear, to serve you a little, though it be only in
opening a door for you to pass through, or handing you a book or a sheet of
music! Love wishes to do so much for the beloved! I can do so little for you,
but that little is sweet.
000
This evening I read to you the poem which you had asked me to
read. You sat before me with your brown head leaning on your hands and your
eyes cast down. I stole dear glances at you between the lines. When I finished
I put a red, red rose from your garden between the pages and crushed the book
close on it. That poem will always be dear to me, stained with the life-blood
of a rose-like hour.
000
I do not know which is the sweeter, your laughter or your sadness.
When you laugh you make me glad, but when you are sad I want to share in your
sadness and soothe it. I think I am nearer to you in your sorrowful moods.
000
Today I met you by accident at the turn of the lane. Nothing told
me that you were coming—not even the wind, that should have known. I was sad,
and then all at once I saw you, and wondered how I could have been sad. You
walked past me with a smile, as if you had tossed me a rose. I stood and
watched you out of sight. That meeting was the purple gift the day gave me.
000
Today I tried to write a poem to you, Una, but I could not find
words fine enough, as a lover could find no raiment dainty enough for his
bride. The old words other men have used in singing to their loves seemed too
worn and common for you. I wanted only new words, crystal clear or coloured
only by the iris of the light, not words that have been steeped and stained
with all the hues of other men's thoughts. So I burned the verses that were so
unworthy of you.
000
Una, some day you will love. You will watch for him; you will
blush at his coming, be sad at his going. Oh, I cannot think of it!
000
Today I saw you when you did not see me. I was walking on the shore,
and as I came around a rock you were sitting on the other side. I drew back a
little and looked at you. Your hands were clasped over your knees; your hat had
fallen back, and the sea wind was ruffling your hair. Your face was lifted to
the sky, your lips were parted, your eyes were full of light. You seemed to be
listening to something that made you happy. I crept gently away, that I might
not mar your dream. Of what were you thinking, Una?
000
I must leave you soon. Sometimes I think I cannot bear it. Oh,
Una, how selfish it is of me to wish that you might love me! Yet I do wish it,
although I have nothing to offer you but a great love and all my willing work
of hand and brain. If you loved me, I fear I should be weak enough to do you
the wrong of wooing you. I want you so much, dear!
The schoolmaster added the last letter to the others and locked
the box. When he unlocked it again, two days later, the letters were gone.
He gazed at the empty box with dilated eyes. At first he could not
realize what had happened. The letters could not be gone! He must have made a
mistake, have put them in some other place! With trembling fingers he ransacked
his trunk. There was no trace of the letters. With a groan he dropped his face
in his hands and tried to think.
His letters were gone—those precious letters, held almost too
sacred for his own eyes to read after they were written—had been stolen from
him! The inmost secrets of his soul had been betrayed. Who had done this
hideous thing?
He rose and went downstairs. In the farmyard he found Link
tormenting his dog. Link was happy only when he was tormenting something. He
never had been afraid of anything in his life before, but now absolute terror
took possession of him at sight of the schoolmaster's face. Physical strength
and force had no power to frighten the sullen lad, but all the irresistible
might of a fine soul roused to frenzy looked out in the young man's blazing
eyes, dilated nostrils, and tense white mouth. It cowed the boy, because it was
something he could not understand. He only realized that he was in the presence
of a force that was not to be trifled with.
"Link, where are my letters?" said the schoolmaster.
"I didn't take 'em, Master!" cried Link, crumpling up
visibly in his sheer terror. "I didn't. I never teched 'em! It was Sis. I
told her not to—I told her you'd be awful mad, but she wouldn't tend to me. It
was Sis took 'em. Ask her, if you don't believe me."
The schoolmaster believed him. Nothing was too horrible to believe
just then. "What has she done with them?" he said hoarsely.
"She—she sent 'em to Una Clifford," whimpered Link.
"I told her not to. She's mad at you, cause you went to see Una and
wouldn't go with her. She thought Una would be mad at you for writing 'em,
cause the Cliffords are so proud and think themselves above everybody else. So
she sent 'em. I—I told her not to."
The schoolmaster said not another word. He turned his back on the
whining boy and went to his room. He felt sick with shame. The indecency of the
whole thing revolted him. It was as if his naked heart had been torn from his
breast and held up to the jeers of a vulgar world by the merciless hand of a
scorned and jealous woman. He felt stunned as if by a physical blow.
After a time his fierce anger and shame died into a calm desperation.
The deed was done beyond recall. It only remained for him to go to Una, tell
her the truth, and implore her pardon. Then he must go from her sight and
presence forever.
000
It was dusk when he went to her home. They told him that she was
in the garden, and he found her there, standing at the curve of the box walk,
among the last late-blooming flowers of the summer.
Have you thought from his letters that she was a wonderful woman
of marvellous beauty? Not so. She was a sweet and slender slip of girlhood,
with girlhood's own charm and freshness. There were thousands like her in the
world—thank God for it!—but only one like her in one man's eyes.
He stood before her mute with shame, his boyish face white and
haggard. She had blushed crimson all over her dainty paleness at sight of him,
and laid her hand quickly on the breast of her white gown. Her eyes were
downcast and her breath came shortly.
He thought her silence the silence of anger and scorn. He wished
that he might fling himself in the dust at her feet.
"Una—Miss Clifford—forgive me!" he stammered miserably.
"I—I did not send them. I never meant that you should see them. A shameful
trick has been played upon me. Forgive me!"
"For what am I to forgive you?" she asked gravely. She
did not look up, but her lips parted in the little half-smile he loved. The
blush was still on her face.
"For my presumption," he whispered. "I—I could not
help loving you, Una. If you have read the letters you know all the rest."
"I have read the letters, every word," she answered,
pressing her hand a little more closely to her breast. "Perhaps I should
not have done so, for I soon discovered that they were not meant for me to
read. I thought at first you had sent them, although the writing of the address
on the packet did not look like yours; but even when I knew you did not I could
not help reading them all. I do not know who sent them, but I am very grateful
to the sender."
"Grateful?" he said wonderingly.
"Yes. I have something to forgive you, but not—not your presumption.
It is your blindness, I think—and—and your cruel resolution to go away and
never tell me of your—your love for me. If it had not been for the sending of
these letters I might never have known. How can I forgive you for that?"
"Una!" he said. He had been very blind, but he was
beginning to see. He took a step nearer and took her hands. She threw up her
head and gazed, blushingly, steadfastly, into his eyes. From the folds of her
gown she drew forth the little packet of letters and kissed it.
"Your dear letters!" she said bravely. "They have
given me the right to speak out. I will speak out! I love you, dear! I will be
content to wait through long years until you can claim me. I—I have been so
happy since your letters came!"
He put his arms around her and drew her head close to his. Their
lips met.
26.The Story of Uncle
Dick
I had two schools
offered me that summer, one at Rocky Valley and one at Bayside. At first I
inclined to Rocky Valley; it possessed a railway station and was nearer the
centres of business and educational activity. But eventually I chose Bayside,
thinking that its country quietude would be a good thing for a student who was
making school-teaching the stepping-stone to a college course.
I had reason to be glad of my choice, for in Bayside I met Uncle
Dick. Ever since it has seemed to me that not to have known Uncle Dick would
have been to miss a great sweetness and inspiration from my life. He was one of
those rare souls whose friendship is at once a pleasure and a benediction,
showering light from their own crystal clearness into all the dark corners in
the souls of others until, for the time being at least, they reflected his own
simplicity and purity. Uncle Dick could no more help bringing delight into the
lives of his associates than could the sunshine or the west wind or any other
of the best boons of nature.
I had been in Bayside three weeks before I met him, although his
farm adjoined the one where I boarded and I passed at a little distance from
his house every day in my short cut across the fields to school. I even passed
his garden unsuspectingly for a week, never dreaming that behind that rank of
leafy, rustling poplars lay a veritable "God's acre" of loveliness
and fragrance. But one day as I went by, a whiff of something sweeter than the
odours of Araby brushed my face and, following the wind that had blown it
through the poplars, I went up to the white paling and found there a trellis of
honeysuckle, and beyond it Uncle Dick's garden. Thereafter I daily passed close
by the fence that I might have the privilege of looking over it.
It would be hard to define the charm of that garden. It did not
consist in order or system, for there was no trace of either, except, perhaps,
in that prim row of poplars growing about the whole domain and shutting it away
from all idle and curious eyes. For the rest, I think the real charm must have
been in its unexpectedness. At every turn and in every nook you stumbled on
some miracle of which you had never dreamed. Or perhaps the charm was simply
that the whole garden was an expression of Uncle Dick's personality.
In one corner a little green dory, filled with earth, overflowed
in a wave of gay annuals. In the centre of the garden an old birch-bark canoe
seemed sailing through a sea of blossoms, with a many-coloured freight of
geraniums. Paths twisted and turned among flowering shrubs, and clumps of
old-fashioned perennials were mingled with the latest fads of the floral
catalogues. The mid-garden was a pool of sunshine, with finely sifted winds
purring over it, but under the poplars there were shadows and growing things
that loved the shadows, crowding about the old stone benches at each side.
Somehow, my daily glimpse of Uncle Dick's garden soon came to symbolize for me
a meaning easier to translate into life and soul than into words. It was a
power for good within me, making its influence felt in many ways.
Finally I caught Uncle Dick in his garden. On my way home one
evening I found him on his knees among the rosebushes, and as soon as he saw me
he sprang up and came forward with outstretched hand. He was a tall man of
about fifty, with grizzled hair, but not a thread of silver yet showed itself
in the ripples of his long brown beard. Later I discovered that his splendid
beard was Uncle Dick's only vanity. So fine and silky was it that it did not
hide the candid, sensitive curves of his mouth, around which a mellow smile,
tinged with kindly, quizzical humour, always lingered. His face was tanned even
more deeply than is usual among farmers, for he had an inveterate habit of
going about hatless in the most merciless sunshine; but the line of forehead
under his hair was white as milk, and his eyes were darkly blue and as tender
as a woman's.
"How do you do, Master?" he said heartily. (The Bayside
pedagogue was invariably addressed as "Master" by young and old.)
"I'm glad to see you. Here I am, trying to save my rosebushes. There are
green bugs on 'em, Master—green bugs, and they're worrying the life out of
me."
I smiled, for Uncle Dick looked very unlike a worrying man, even
over such a serious accident as green bugs.
"Your roses don't seem to mind, Mr. Oliver," I said.
"They are the finest I have ever seen."
The compliment to his roses, well-deserved as it was, did not at
first engage his attention. He pretended to frown at me.
"Don't get into any bad habit of mistering me, Master,"
he said. "You'd better begin by calling me Uncle Dick from the start and
then you won't have the trouble of changing. Because it would come to that—it
always does. But come in, come in! There's a gate round here. I want to get
acquainted with you. I have a taste for schoolmasters. I didn't possess it when
I was a boy" (a glint of fun appeared in his blue eyes). "It's an
acquired taste."
I accepted his invitation and went, not only into his garden but,
as was proved later, into his confidence and affection. He linked his arm with
mine and piloted me about to show me his pets.
"I potter about this garden considerable," he said.
"It pleases the women folks to have lots of posies."
I laughed, for Uncle Dick was a bachelor and considered to be a
hopeless one.
"Don't laugh, Master," he said, pressing my arm.
"I've no woman folk of my own about me now, 'tis true. But all the girls
in the district come to Uncle Dick when they want flowers for their little
diversions. Besides—perhaps—sometimes—"
Uncle Dick broke off and stood in a brown study, looking at an old
stump aflame with nasturtiums for fully three minutes. Later on I was to learn
the significance of that pause and reverie.
I spent the whole evening with Uncle Dick. After we had explored
the garden he took me into his house and into his "den." The house
was a small white one and wonderfully neat inside, considering the fact that
Uncle Dick was his own housekeeper. His "den" was a comfortable
place, its one window so shadowed by a huge poplar that the room had a
grotto-like effect of emerald gloom. I came to know it well, for, at Uncle
Dick's invitation, I did my studying there and browsed at will among his
classics. We soon became close friends. Uncle Dick had always "chummed
with the masters," as he said, but our friendship went deeper. For my own
part, I preferred his company to that of any young man I knew. There was a
perennial spring of youth in Uncle Dick's soul that yet had all the fascinating
flavour of ripe experience. He was clever, kindly, humorous and, withal, so
crystal clear of mind and heart that an atmosphere partaking of childhood hung
around him.
I knew Uncle Dick's outward history as the Bayside people knew it.
It was not a very eventful one. He had lost his father in boyhood; before that
there had been some idea of Dick's going to college. After his father's death
he seemed quietly to have put all such hopes away and settled down to look
after the farm and take care of his invalid stepmother. This woman, as I
learned from others, but never from Uncle Dick, had been a peevish, fretful,
exacting creature, and for nearly thirty years Uncle Dick had been a very slave
to her whims and caprices.
"Nobody knows what he had to put up with, for he never
complained," Mrs. Lindsay, my landlady, told me. "She was out of her
mind once and she was liable to go out of it again if she was crossed in
anything. He was that good and patient with her. She was dreadful fond of him
too, for all she did almost worry his life out. No doubt she was the reason he
never married. He couldn't leave her and he knew no woman would go in there.
Uncle Dick never courted anyone, unless it was Rose Lawrence. She was a cousin
of my man's. I've heard he had a kindness for her; it was years ago, before I
came to Bayside. But anyway, nothing came of it. Her father's health failed and
he had to go out to California. Rose had to go with him, her mother being dead,
and that was the end of Uncle Dick's love affair."
But that was not the end of it, as I discovered when Uncle Dick
gave me his confidence. One evening I went over and, piloted by the sound of
shrieks and laughter, found Uncle Dick careering about the garden, pursued by
half a dozen schoolgirls who were pelting him with overblown roses. At sight of
the master my pupils instantly became prim and demure and, gathering up their
flowery spoil, they beat a hasty retreat down the lane.
"Those little girls are very sweet," said Uncle Dick
abruptly. "Little blossoms of life! Have you ever wondered, Master, why I
haven't some of my own blooming about the old place instead of just looking
over the fence of other men's gardens, coveting their human roses?"
"Yes, I have," I answered frankly. "It has been a
puzzle to me why you, Uncle Dick, who seem to me fitted above all men I have
ever known for love and husbandhood and fatherhood, should have elected to live
your life alone."
"It has not been a matter of choice," said Uncle Dick
gently. "We can't always order our lives as we would, Master. I loved a
woman once and she loved me. And we love each other still. Do you think I could
bear life else? I've an interest in it that the Bayside folk know nothing of.
It has kept youth in my heart and joy in my soul through long, lonely years.
And it's not ended yet, Master—it's not ended yet! Some day I hope to bring a
wife here to my old house—my wife, my rose of joy!"
He was silent for a space, gazing at the stars. I too kept
silence, fearing to intrude into the holy places of his thought, although I was
tingling with interest in this unsuspected outflowering of romance in Uncle
Dick's life.
After a time he said gently,
"Shall I tell you about it, Master? I mean, do you care to
know?"
"Yes," I answered, "I do care to know. And I shall
respect your confidence, Uncle Dick."
"I know that. I couldn't tell you, otherwise," he said.
"I don't want the Bayside folk to know—it would be a kind of desecration.
They would laugh and joke me about it, as they tease other people, and I
couldn't bear that. Nobody in Bayside knows or suspects, unless it's old Joe
Hammond at the post office. And he has kept my secret, or what he knows of it,
well. But somehow I feel that I'd like to tell you, Master.
"Twenty-five years ago I loved Rose Lawrence. The Lawrences
lived where you are boarding now. There was just the father, a sickly man, and
Rose, my "Rose of joy," as I called her, for I knew my Emerson pretty
well even then. She was sweet and fair, like a white rose with just a hint of
pink in its cup. We loved each other, but we couldn't marry then. My mother was
an invalid, and one time, before I had learned to care for Rose, she, the
mother, had asked me to promise her that I'd never marry as long as she lived.
She didn't think then that she would live long, but she lived for twenty years,
Master, and she held me to my promise all the time. Yes, it was hard"—for
I had given an indignant exclamation—"but you see, Master, I had promised
and I had to keep my word. Rose said I was right in doing it. She said she was
willing to wait for me, but she didn't know, poor girl, how long the waiting
was to be. Then her father's health failed completely, and the doctor ordered
him to another climate. They went to California. That was a hard parting,
Master. But we promised each other that we would be true, and we have been.
I've never seen my Rose of joy since then, but I've had a letter from her every
week. When the mother died, five years ago, I wanted to move to California and
marry Rose. But she wrote that her father was so poorly she couldn't marry me
yet. She has to wait on him every minute, and he's restless, and they move here
and there—a hard life for my poor girl. So I had to take a new lease of
patience, Master. One learns how to wait in twenty years. But I shall have her
some day, God willing. Our love will be crowned yet. So I wait, Master, and try
to keep my life and soul clean and wholesome and young for her.
"That's my story, Master, and we'll not say anything more
about it just now, for I dare say you don't exactly know what to say. But at
times I'll talk of her to you and that will be a rare pleasure to me; I think
that was why I wanted you to know about her."
He did talk often to me of her, and I soon came to realize what
this far-away woman meant in his life. She was for him the centre of
everything. His love was strong, pure, and idyllic—the ideal love of which the
loftiest poets sing. It glorified his whole inner life with a strange,
unfailing radiance. I found that everything he did was done with an eye single
to what she would think of it when she came. Especially did he put his love
into his garden.
"Every flower in it stands for a thought of her,
Master," he said. "It is a great joy to think that she will walk in
this garden with me some day. It will be complete then—my Rose of joy will be
here to crown it."
That summer and winter passed away, and when spring came again,
lettering her footsteps with violets in the meadows and waking all the sleeping
loveliness of old homestead gardens, Uncle Dick's long deferred happiness came
with her. One evening when I was in our "den," mid-deep in study of
old things that seemed musty and unattractive enough in contrast with the
vivid, newborn, out-of-doors, Uncle Dick came home from the post office with an
open letter in his hand. His big voice trembled as he said,
"Master, she's coming home. Her father is dead and she has
nobody in the world now but me. In a month she will be here. Don't talk to me
of it yet—I want to taste the joy of it in silence for a while."
He hastened away to his garden and walked there until darkness
fell, with his face uplifted to the sky, and the love rapture of countless
generations shining in his eyes. Later on, we sat on one of the old stone
benches and Uncle Dick tried to talk practically.
Bayside people soon found out that Rose Lawrence was coming home
to marry Uncle Dick. Uncle Dick was much teased, and suffered under it; it
seemed, as he had said, desecration. But the real goodwill and kindly feeling
in the banter redeemed it.
He went to the station to meet Rose Lawrence the day she came.
When I went home from school Mrs. Lindsay told me she was in the parlour and
took me in to be introduced. I was bitterly disappointed. Somehow, I had
expected to meet, not indeed a young girl palpitating with youthful bloom, but
a woman of ripe maturity, dowered with the beauty of harmonious middle-age—the
feminine counterpart of Uncle Dick. Instead, I found in Rose Lawrence a small,
faded woman of forty-five, gowned in shabby black. She had evidently been very
pretty once, but bloom and grace were gone. Her face had a sweet and gentle
expression, but was tired and worn, and her fair hair was plentifully streaked
with grey. Alas, I thought compassionately, for Uncle Dick's dreams! What a
shock the change to her must have given him! Could this be the woman on whom he
had lavished such a life-wealth of love and reverence? I tried to talk to her,
but I found her shy and timid. She seemed to me uninteresting and commonplace.
And this was Uncle Dick's Rose of joy!
I was so sorry for Uncle Dick that I shrank from meeting him.
Nevertheless, I went over after tea, fearing that he might misunderstand, nay,
rather, understand, my absence. He was in the garden, and he came down the path
where the buds were just showing. There was a smile on his face and the glory
in his eyes was quite undimmed.
"Master, she's come. And she's not a bit changed. I feared
she would be, but she is just the same—my sweet little Rose of joy!"
I looked at Uncle Dick in some amazement. He was thoroughly
sincere, there was no doubt of that, and I felt a great throb of relief. He had
found no disillusioning change. I saw Rose Lawrence merely with the cold eyes
of the stranger. He saw her through the transfiguring medium of a love that
made her truly his Rose of joy. And all was well.
They were married the next morning and walked together over the
clover meadow to their home. In the evening I went over, as I had promised
Uncle Dick to do. They were in the garden, with a great saffron sky over them
and a glory of sunset behind the poplars. I paused unseen at the gate. Uncle
Dick was big and splendid in his fine new wedding suit, and his faded little bride
was hanging on his arm. Her face was upturned to him; it was a glorified face,
so transformed by the tender radiance of love shining through it that I saw her
then as Uncle Dick must always see her, and no longer found it hard to
understand how she could be his Rose of joy. Happiness clothed them as a
garment; they were crowned king and queen in the bridal realm of the
springtime.
27.The Understanding of
Sister Sara
June First.
I began this journal last New Year's—wrote two entries in it and
then forgot all about it. I came across it today in a rummage—Sara insists on
my cleaning things out thoroughly every once in so long—and I'm going to keep
it up. I feel the need of a confidant of some kind, even if it is only an
inanimate journal. I have no other. And I cannot talk my thoughts over with
Sara—she is so unsympathetic.
Sara is a dear good soul and I love her as much as she will let
me. I am also very grateful to her. She brought me up when our mother died. No
doubt she had a hard time of it, poor dear, for I never was easily brought up,
perversely preferring to come up in my own way. But Sara did her duty
unflinchingly and—well, it's not for me to say that the result does her credit.
But it really does, considering the material she had to work with. I'm a bundle
of faults as it is, but I tremble to think what I would have been if there had
been no Sara.
Yes, I love Sara, and I'm grateful to her. But she doesn't understand
me in the least. Perhaps it is because she is so much older than I am, but it
doesn't seem to me that Sara could really ever have been young. She laughs at
things I consider the most sacred and calls me a romantic girl, in a tone of
humorous toleration. I am chilled and thrown back on myself, and the dreams and
confidences I am bubbling over with have no outlet. Sara couldn't
understand—she is so practical. When I go to her with some beautiful thought I
have found in a book or poem she is quite likely to say, "Yes, yes, but I
noticed this morning that the braid was loose on your skirt, Beatrice. Better
go and sew it on before you forget again. 'A stitch in time saves nine.'"
When I come home from a concert or lecture, yearning to talk over
the divine music or the wonderful new ideas with her, she will say, "Yes,
yes, but are you sure you didn't get your feet damp? Better go and change your
stockings, my dear. 'An ounce of prevention is worth a pound of cure.'"
So I have given up trying to talk things over with Sara. This old
journal will be better.
Last night Sara and I went to Mrs. Trent's musicale. I had to sing
and I had the loveliest new gown for the occasion. At first Sara thought my old
blue dress would do. She said we must economize this summer and told me I was
entirely too extravagant in the matter of clothes. I cried about it after I
went to bed. Sara looked at me very sharply the next morning without saying
anything. In the afternoon she went uptown and bought some lovely pale yellow
silk organdie. She made it up herself—Sara is a genius at dressmaking—and it
was the prettiest gown at the musicale. Sara wore her old grey silk made over.
Sara doesn't care anything about dress, but then she is forty.
Walter Shirley was at the Trents'. The Shirleys are a new family
here; they moved to Atwater two months ago. Walter is the oldest son and has
been at college in Marlboro all winter so that nobody here knew him until he
came home a fortnight ago. He is very handsome and distinguished-looking and everybody
says he is so clever. He plays the violin just beautifully and has such a
melting, sympathetic voice and the loveliest deep, dark, inscrutable eyes. I
asked Sara when we came home if she didn't think he was splendid.
"He'd be a nice boy if he wasn't rather conceited," said
Sara.
After that it was impossible to say anything more about Mr.
Shirley.
I am glad he is going to be in Atwater all summer. We have so few
really nice young men here; they go away just as soon as they grow up and those
who stay are just the muffs. I wonder if I shall see Mr. Shirley soon again.
June Thirtieth.
It does not seem possible that it is only a month since my last
entry. It seems more like a year—a delightful year. I can't believe that I am
the same Beatrice Mason who wrote then. And I am not, either. She was just a
simple little girl, knowing nothing but romantic dreams. I feel that I am very
much changed. Life seems so grand and high and beautiful. I want to be a true
noble woman. Only such a woman could be worthy of—of—a fine, noble man. But
when I tried to say something like this to Sara she replied calmly:
"My dear child, the average woman is quite good enough for
the average man. If she can cook his meals decently and keep his buttons sewed
on and doesn't nag him he will think that life is a pretty comfortable affair.
And that reminds me, I saw holes in your black lace stockings yesterday. Better
go and darn them at once. 'Procrastination is the thief of time.'"
Sara cannot understand.
Blanche Lawrence was married yesterday to Ted Martin. I thought it
the most solemn and sacred thing I had ever listened to—the marriage ceremony,
I mean. I had never thought much about it before. I don't see how Blanche could
care anything for Ted—he is so stout and dumpy; with shallow blue eyes and a
little pale moustache. I must say I do not like fair men. But there is no doubt
that he and Blanche love each other devotedly and that fact sufficed to make
the service very beautiful to me—those two people pledging each other to go
through life together, meeting its storm and sunshine hand in hand, thinking
joy the sweeter because they shared it, finding sorrow sacred because it came
to them both.
When Sara and I walked home from the church Sara said, "Well,
considering the chances she has had, Blanche Lawrence hasn't done so well after
all."
"Oh, Sara," I cried, "she has married the man she
loves and who loves her. What better is there to do? I thought it
beautiful."
"They should have waited another year at least," said
Sara severely. "Ted Martin has only been practising law for a year, and he
had nothing to begin with. He can't have made enough in one year in Atwater to
justify him in setting up housekeeping. I think a man ought to be ashamed of
himself to take a girl from a good home to an uncertainty like that."
"Not if she loved him and was willing to share the
uncertainty," I said softly.
"Love won't pay the butcher's bill," said Sara with a
sniff, "and landlords have an unfeeling preference for money over
affection. Besides, Blanche is a mere child, far too young to be burdened with
the responsibilities of life."
Blanche is twenty—two years older than I am. But Sara talks as if
I were a mere infant.
July Thirtieth.
Oh, I am so happy! I wonder if there is another girl in the world
as happy as I am tonight. No, of course there cannot be, because there is only
one Walter!
Walter and I are engaged. It happened last night when we were
sitting out in the moonlight under the silver maple on the lawn. I cannot write
down what he said—the words are too sacred and beautiful to be kept anywhere
but in my own heart forever and ever as long as I live. And I don't remember
just what I said. But we understood each other perfectly at last.
Of course Sara had to do her best to spoil things. Just as Walter
had taken my hand in his and bent forward with his splendid earnest eyes just
burning into mine, and my heart was beating so furiously, Sara came to the
front door and called out, "Beatrice! Beatrice! Have you your rubbers on?
And don't you think it is too damp out there for you in that heavy dew? Better
come into the house, both of you. Walter has a cold now."
"Oh, we'll be in soon, Sara," I said impatiently. But we
didn't go in for an hour, and when we did Sara was cross, and after Walter had
gone she told me I was a very silly girl to be so reckless of my health and
risk getting pneumonia loitering out in the dew with a sentimental boy.
I had had some vague thoughts of telling Sara all about my new
happiness, for it was so great I wanted to talk it over with somebody, but I
couldn't after that. Oh, I wish I had a mother! She could understand. But Sara
cannot.
Walter and I have decided to keep our engagement a secret for a
month—just our own beautiful secret unshared by anyone. Then before he goes
back to college he is going to tell Sara and ask her consent. I don't think
Sara will refuse it exactly. She really likes Walter very well. But I know she
will be horrid and I just dread it. She will say I am too young and that a boy
like Walter has no business to get engaged until he is through college and that
we haven't known each other long enough to know anything about each other and
that we are only a pair of romantic children. And after she has said all this
and given a disapproving consent she will begin to train me up in the way a
good housekeeper should go, and talk to me about table linen and the best way
to manage a range and how to tell if a chicken is really a chicken or only an
old hen. Oh, I know Sara! She will set the teeth of my spirit on edge a dozen
times a day and rub all the bloom off my dear, only, little romance with her
horrible practicalities. I know one must learn about those things of course and
I do want to make Walter's home the best and dearest and most comfortable spot
on earth for him and be the very best little wife and housekeeper I can be when
the time comes. But I want to dream my dreams first and Sara will wake me up so
early to realities.
This is why we determined to keep one month sacred to ourselves.
Walter will graduate next spring—he is to be a doctor—and then he intends to
settle down in Atwater and work up a practice. I am sure he will succeed for
everyone likes him so much. But we are to be married as soon as he is through
college because he has a little money of his own—enough to set up housekeeping
in a modest way with care and economy. I know Sara will talk about risk and
waiting and all that just as she did in Ted Martin's case. But then Sara does
not understand.
Oh, I am so happy! It almost frightens me—I don't see how anything
so wonderful can last. But it will last, for nothing can ever separate Walter
and me, and as long as we are together and love each other this great happiness
will be mine. Oh, I want to be so good and noble for his sake. I want to make
life "one grand sweet song." I have gone about the house today
feeling like a woman consecrated and set apart from other women by Walter's
love. Nothing could spoil it, not even when Sara scolded me for letting the
preserves burn in the kettle because I forgot to stir them while I was planning
out our life together. Sara said she really did not know what would happen to
me some day if I was so careless and forgetful. But then, Sara does not
understand.
August Twentieth.
It is all over. Life is ended for me and I do not know how I can
face the desolate future. Walter and I have quarrelled and our engagement is
broken. He is gone and my heart is breaking.
I hardly know how it began. I'm sure I never meant to flirt with
Jack Ray. I never did flirt with him either, in spite of Walter's unmanly
accusations. But Walter has been jealous of Jack all summer, although he knew
perfectly well he needn't be, and two nights ago at the Morley dance poor Jack
seemed so dull and unhappy that I tried to cheer him up a little and be kind to
him. I danced with him three times and sat out another dance just to talk with
him in a real sisterly fashion. But Walter was furious and last night when he
came up he said horrid things—things no girl of any spirit could endure, and
things he could never have said to me if he had really cared one bit for me. We
had a frightful quarrel and when I saw plainly that Walter no longer loved me I
told him that he was free and that I never wanted to see him again and that I
hated him. He glared at me and said that I should have my wish—I never should
see him again and he hoped he would never again meet such a faithless, fickle
girl. Then he went away and slammed the front door.
I cried all night, but today I went about the house singing. I
would not for the world let other people know how Walter has treated me. I will
hide my broken heart under a smiling face bravely. But, oh, I am so miserable!
Just as soon as I am old enough I mean to go away and be a trained nurse. There
is nothing else left in life for me. Sara does not suspect that anything is
wrong and I am so thankful she does not. She would not understand.
September Sixth.
Today I read this journal over and thought I would burn it, it is
so silly. But on second thought I concluded to keep it as a reminder of how
blind and selfish I was and how good Sara is. For I am happy again and
everything is all right, thanks to Sara. The very day after our quarrel Walter
left Atwater. He did not have to return to college for three weeks, but he went
to visit some friends down in Charlotteville and I heard—Mollie Roach told
me—Mollie Roach was always wild about Walter herself—that he was not coming
back again, but would go right on to Marlboro from Charlotteville. I smiled
squarely at Mollie as if I didn't care a particle, but I can't describe how I
felt. I knew then that I had really been hoping that something would happen in
three weeks to make our quarrel up. In a small place like Atwater people in the
same set can't help meeting. But Walter had gone and I should never see him
again, and what was worse I knew he didn't care or he wouldn't have gone.
I bore it in silence for three weeks, but I will shudder to the
end of my life when I remember those three weeks. Night before last Sara came
up to my room where I was lying on my bed with my face in the pillow. I wasn't
crying—I couldn't cry. There was just a dreadful dull ache in everything. Sara
sat down on the rocker in front of the window and the sunset light came in
behind her and made a sort of nimbus round her head, like a motherly saint's in
a cathedral.
"Beatrice," she said gently, "I want to know what
the trouble is. You can't hide it from me that something is wrong. I've noticed
it for some time. You don't eat anything and you cry all night—oh, yes, I know
you do. What is it, dear?"
"Oh, Sara!"
I just gave a little cry, slipped from the bed to the floor, laid
my head in her lap, and told her everything. It was such a relief, and such a
relief to feel those good motherly arms around me and to realize that here was
a love that would never fail me no matter what I did or how foolish I was. Sara
heard me out and then she said, without a word of reproach or contempt,
"It will all come out right yet, dear. Write to Walter and tell him you
are sorry."
"Sara, I never could! He doesn't love me any longer—he said
he hoped he'd never see me again."
"Didn't you say the same to him, child? He meant it as little
as you did. Don't let your foolish pride keep you miserable."
"If Walter won't come back to me without my asking him he'll
never come, Sara," I said stubbornly.
Sara didn't scold or coax any more. She patted my head and kissed
me and made me bathe my face and go to bed. Then she tucked me in just as she
used to do when I was a little girl.
"Now, don't cry, dear," she said, "it will come
right yet."
Somehow, I began to hope it would when Sara thought so, and anyhow
it was such a comfort to have talked it all over with her. I slept better than
I had for a long time, and it was seven o'clock yesterday morning when I woke
to find that it was a dull grey day outside and that Sara was standing by my
bed with her hat and jacket on.
"I'm going down to Junction Falls on the 7:30 train to see
Mr. Conway about coming to fix the back kitchen floor," she said,
"and I have some other business that may keep me for some time, so don't
be anxious if I'm not back till late. Give the bread a good kneading in an
hour's time and be careful not to bake it too much."
That was a dismal day. It began to rain soon after Sara left and
it just poured. I never saw a soul all day except the milkman, and I was really
frantic by night. I never was so glad of anything as when I heard Sara's step
on the verandah. I flew to the front door to let her in—and there was Walter
all dripping wet—and his arms were about me and I was crying on the shoulder of
his mackintosh.
I only guessed then what I knew later on. Sara had heard from Mrs.
Shirley that Walter was going to Marlboro that day without coming back to
Atwater. Sara knew that he must change trains at Junction Falls and she went
there to meet him. She didn't know what train he would come on so she went to
meet the earliest and had to wait till the last, hanging around the dirty
little station at the Falls all day while it poured rain, and she hadn't a
thing to eat except some fancy biscuits she had bought on the train. But Walter
came at last on the 7:50 train and there was Sara to pounce on him. He told me
afterwards that no angel could have been so beautiful a vision to him as Sara
was, standing there on the wet platform with her tweed skirt held up and a
streaming umbrella over her head, telling him he must come back to Atwater
because Beatrice wanted him to.
But just at the moment of his coming I didn't care how he had come
or who had brought him. I just realized that he was there and that was enough.
Sara came in behind him. Walter's wet arms were about me and I was standing
there with my thin-slippered feet in a little pool of water that dripped from
his umbrella. But Sara never said a word about colds and dampness. She just
smiled, went on into the sitting-room, and shut the door. Sara understood.
28.The Unforgotten One
It was Christmas Eve,
but there was no frost, or snow, or sparkle. It was a green Christmas, and the
night was mild and dim, with hazy starlight. A little wind was laughing
freakishly among the firs around Ingleside and rustling among the sere grasses
along the garden walks. It was more like a night in early spring or late fall
than in December; but it was Christmas Eve, and there was a light in every
window of Ingleside, the glow breaking out through the whispering darkness like
a flame-red blossom swung against the background of the evergreens; for the
children were coming home for the Christmas reunion, as they always came—Fritz
and Margaret and Laddie and Nora, and Robert's two boys in the place of Robert,
who had died fourteen years ago—and the old house must put forth its best of
light and good cheer to welcome them.
Doctor Fritz and his brood were the last to arrive, driving up to
the hall door amid a chorus of welcoming barks from the old dogs and a hail of
merry calls from the group in the open doorway.
"We're all here now," said the little mother, as she put
her arms about the neck of her stalwart firstborn and kissed his bearded face.
There were handshakings and greetings and laughter. Only Nanny, far back in the
shadows of the firelit hall, swallowed a resentful sob, and wiped two bitter tears
from her eyes with her little red hand.
"We're not all here," she murmured under her breath.
"Miss Avis isn't here. Oh, how can they be so glad? How can they have
forgotten?"
But nobody heard or heeded Nanny—she was only the little orphan
"help" girl at Ingleside. They were all very good to her, and they
were all very fond of her, but at the times of family reunion Nanny was
unconsciously counted out. There was no bond of blood to unite her to them, and
she was left on the fringe of things. Nanny never resented this—it was all a
matter of course to her; but on this Christmas Eve her heart was broken because
she thought that nobody remembered Miss Avis.
After supper they all gathered around the open fireplace of the
hall, hung with its berries and evergreens in honour of the morrow. It was
their unwritten law to form a fireside circle on Christmas Eve and tell each
other what the year had brought them of good and ill, sorrow and joy. The
circle was smaller by one than it had been the year before, but none spoke of
that. There was a smile on every face and happiness in every voice.
The father and mother sat in the centre, grey-haired and placid,
their fine old faces written over with the history of gracious lives. Beside
the mother, Doctor Fritz sat like a boy, on the floor, with his massive head,
grey as his father's, on her lap, and one of his smooth, muscular hands, that
were as tender as a woman's at the operating table, clasped in hers. Next to
him sat sweet Nora, the twenty-year-old "baby," who taught in a city
school; the rosy firelight gleamed lovingly over her girlish beauty of
burnished brown hair, dreamy blue eyes, and soft, virginal curves of cheek and
throat. Doctor Fritz's spare arm was about her, but Nora's own hands were
clasped over her knee, and on one of them sparkled a diamond that had not been
there at the last Christmas reunion. Laddie, who figured as Archibald only in
the family Bible, sat close to the inglenook—a handsome young fellow with a
daring brow and rollicking eyes. On the other side sat Margaret, hand in hand
with her father, a woman whose gracious sweetness of nature enveloped her as a
garment; and Robert's two laughing boys filled up the circle, looking so much
alike that it was hard to say which was Cecil and which was Sid.
Margaret's husband and Fritz's wife were playing games with the
children in the parlour, whence shrieks of merriment drifted out into the hall.
Nanny might have been with them had she chosen, but she preferred to sit alone
in the darkest corner of the hall and gaze with jealous, unhappy eyes at the
mirthful group about the fire, listening to their story and jest and laughter
with unavailing protest in her heart. Oh, how could they have forgotten so
soon? It was not yet a full year since Miss Avis had gone. Last Christmas Eve
she had sat there, a sweet and saintly presence, in the inglenook, more, so it
had almost seemed, the centre of the home circle than the father and mother;
and now the December stars were shining over her grave, and not one of that
heedless group remembered her; not once was her name spoken; even her old dog
had forgotten her—he sat with his nose in Margaret's lap, blinking with drowsy,
aged contentment at the fire.
"Oh, I can't bear it!" whispered Nanny, under cover of
the hearty laughter which greeted a story Doctor Fritz had been telling. She
slipped out into the kitchen, put on her hood and cloak, and took from a box
under the table a little wreath of holly. She had made it out of the bits left
over from the decorations. Miss Avis had loved holly; Miss Avis had loved every
green, growing thing.
As Nanny opened the kitchen door something cold touched her hand,
and there stood the old dog, wagging his tail and looking up at her with
wistful eyes, mutely pleading to be taken, too.
"So you do remember her, Gyppy," said Nanny, patting his
head. "Come along then. We'll go together."
They slipped out into the night. It was quite dark, but it was not
far to the graveyard—just out through the evergreens and along a field by-path
and across the road. The old church was there, with its square tower, and the
white stones gleaming all around it. Nanny went straight to a shadowy corner
and knelt on the sere grasses while she placed her holly wreath on Miss Avis's
grave. The tears in her eyes brimmed over.
"Oh, Miss Avis! Miss Avis!" she sobbed. "I miss you
so—I miss you so! It can't ever seem like Christmas to me without you. You were
always so sweet and kind to me. There ain't a day passes but I think of you and
all the things you used to say to me, and I try to be good like you'd want me
to be. But I hate them for forgetting you—yes, I do! I'll never forget you,
darling Miss Avis! I'd rather be here alone with you in the dark than back
there with them."
Nanny sat down by the grave. The old dog lay down by her side with
his forepaws on the turf and his eyes fixed on the tall white marble shaft. It
was too dark for Nanny to read the inscription but she knew every word of it:
"In loving remembrance of Avis Maywood, died January 20, 1902, aged
45." And underneath the lines of her own choosing:
"Say not good
night, but in some brighter climeBid me good morning."
But they had forgotten her—oh, they had forgotten her already!
When half an hour had passed, Nanny was startled by approaching
footsteps. Not wishing to be seen, she crept softly behind the headstones into
the shadow of the willow on the farther side, and the old dog followed. Doctor
Fritz, coming to the grave, thought himself alone with the dead. He knelt down
by the headstone and pressed his face against it.
"Avis," he said gently, "dear Avis, I have come to
visit your grave tonight because you seem nearer to me here than elsewhere. And
I want to talk to you, Avis, as I have always talked to you every Christmastide
since we were children together. I have missed you so tonight, dear friend and
sympathizer—no words can tell how I have missed you—your welcoming handclasp
and your sweet face in the firelight shadows. I could not bear to speak your
name, the aching sense of loss was so bitter. Amid all the Christmas mirth and
good fellowship I felt the sorrow of your vacant chair. Avis, I wanted to tell
you what the year had brought to me. My theory has been proved; it has made me
a famous man. Last Christmas, Avis, I told you of it, and you listened and understood
and believed in it. Dear Avis, once again I thank you for all you have been to
me—all you are yet. I have brought you your roses; they are as white and pure
and fragrant as your life."
Other footsteps came so quickly on Doctor Fritz' retreating ones that
Nanny could not rise. It was Laddie this time—gay, careless, thoughtless
Laddie.
"Roses? So Fritz has been here! I have brought you lilies,
Avis. Oh, Avis, I miss you so! You were so jolly and good—you understood a
fellow so well. I had to come here tonight to tell you how much I miss you. It
doesn't seem half home without you. Avis, I'm trying to be a better chap—more
the sort of man you'd have me be. I've given the old set the go-by—I'm trying
to live up to your standard. It would be easier if you were here to help me.
When I was a kid it was always easier to be good for awhile after I'd talked
things over with you. I've got the best mother a fellow ever had, but you and I
were such chums, weren't we, Avis? I thought I'd just break down in there tonight
and put a damper on everything by crying like a baby. If anybody had spoken
about you, I should have. Hello!"
Laddie wheeled around with a start, but it was only Robert's two
boys, who came shyly up to the grave, half hanging back to find anyone else there.
"Hello, boys," said Laddie huskily. "So you've come
to see her grave too?"
"Yes," said Cecil solemnly. "We—we just had to. We
couldn't go to bed without coming. Oh, isn't it lonesome without Cousin
Avis?"
"She was always so good to us," said Sid.
"She used to talk to us so nice," said Cecil chokily.
"But she liked fun, too."
"Boys," said Laddie gravely, "never forget what
Cousin Avis used to say to you. Never forget that you have got to
grow up into men she'd be proud of."
They went away then, the boys and their boyish uncle; and when
they had gone Nora came, stealing timidly through the shadows, starting at the
rustle of the wind in the trees.
"Oh, Avis," she whispered. "I want to see you so
much! I want to tell you all about it—about him. You would understand
so well. He is the best and dearest lover ever a girl had. You would think so
too. Oh, Avis, I miss you so much! There's a little shadow even on my happiness
because I can't talk it over with you in the old way. Oh, Avis, it was dreadful
to sit around the fire tonight and not see you. Perhaps you were there in
spirit. I love to think you were, but I wanted to see you. You were always
there to come home to before, Avis, dear."
Sobbing, she went away; and then came Margaret, the grave, strong
Margaret.
"Dear cousin, dear to me as a sister, it seemed to me that I
must come to you here tonight. I cannot tell you how much I miss your wise,
clear-sighted advice and judgment, your wholesome companionship. A little son
was born to me this past year, Avis. How glad you would have been, for you
knew, as none other did, the bitterness of my childless heart. How we would
have delighted to talk over my baby together, and teach him wisely between us!
Avis, Avis, your going made a blank that can never be filled for me!"
Margaret was still standing there when the old people came.
"Father! Mother! Isn't it too late and chilly for you to be
here?"
"No, Margaret, no," said the mother. "I couldn't go
to my bed without coming to see Avis's grave. I brought her up from a baby—her
dying mother gave her to me. She was as much my own child as any of you. And
oh! I miss her so. You only miss her when you come home, but I miss her all the
time—every day!"
"We all miss her, Mother," said the old father,
tremulously. "She was a good girl—Avis was a good girl. Good night,
Avis!"
"'Say not good night, but in some brighter clime bid her good
morning,'" quoted Margaret softly. "That was her own wish, you know.
Let us go back now. It is getting late."
When they had gone Nanny crept out from the shadows. It had not
occurred to her that perhaps she should not have listened—she had been too shy
to make her presence known to those who came to Avis's grave. But her heart was
full of joy.
"Oh, Miss Avis, I'm so glad, I'm so glad! They haven't forgotten
you after all, Miss Avis, dear, not one of them. I'm sorry I was so cross at
them; and I'm so glad they haven't forgotten you. I love them for it."
Then the old dog and Nanny went home together.
29.The Wooing of Bessy
When Lawrence Eastman
began going to see Bessy Houghton the Lynnfield people shrugged their shoulders
and said he might have picked out somebody a little younger and prettier—but
then, of course, Bessy was well off. A two-hundred-acre farm and a substantial
bank account were worth going in for. Trust an Eastman for knowing upon which
side his bread was buttered.
Lawrence was only twenty, and looked even younger, owing to his
smooth, boyish face, curly hair, and half-girlish bloom. Bessy Houghton was in
reality no more than twenty-five, but Lynnfield people had the impression that
she was past thirty. She had always been older than her years—a quiet, reserved
girl who dressed plainly and never went about with other young people. Her
mother had died when Bessy was very young, and she had always kept house for
her father. The responsibility made her grave and mature. When she was twenty
her father died and Bessy was his sole heir. She kept the farm and took the
reins of government in her own capable hands. She made a success of it too,
which was more than many a man in Lynnfield had done.
Bessy had never had a lover. She had never seemed like other
girls, and passed for an old maid when her contemporaries were in the flush of
social success and bloom.
Mrs. Eastman, Lawrence's mother, was a widow with two sons.
George, the older, was the mother's favourite, and the property had been willed
to him by his father. To Lawrence had been left the few hundreds in the bank.
He stayed at home and hired himself to George, thereby adding slowly to his
small hoard. He had his eye on a farm in Lynnfield, but he was as yet a mere
boy, and his plans for the future were very vague until he fell in love with
Bessy Houghton.
In reality nobody was more surprised over this than Lawrence
himself. It had certainly been the last thing in his thoughts on the dark, damp
night when he had overtaken Bessy walking home alone from prayer meeting and
had offered to drive her the rest of the way.
Bessy assented and got into his buggy. At first she was very
silent, and Lawrence, who was a bashful lad at the best of times, felt
tongue-tied and uncomfortable. But presently Bessy, pitying his evident
embarrassment, began to talk to him. She could talk well, and Lawrence found
himself entering easily into the spirit of her piquant speeches. He had an odd
feeling that he had never known Bessy Houghton before; he had certainly never
guessed that she could be such good company. She was very different from the
other girls he knew, but he decided that he liked the difference.
"Are you going to the party at Baileys' tomorrow night?"
he asked, as he helped her to alight at her door.
"I don't know," she answered. "I'm invited—but I'm
all alone—and parties have never been very much in my line."
There was a wistful note in her voice, and Lawrence detecting it,
said hurriedly, not giving himself time to get frightened: "Oh, you'd
better go to this one. And if you like, I'll call around and take you."
He wondered if she would think him very presumptuous. He thought
her voice sounded colder as she said: "I am afraid that it would be too
much trouble for you."
"It wouldn't be any trouble at all," he stammered.
"I'll be very pleased to take you."
In the end Bessy had consented to go, and the next evening
Lawrence called for her in the rose-red autumn dusk.
Bessy was ready and waiting. She was dressed in what was for her
unusual elegance, and Lawrence wondered why people called Bessy Houghton so
plain. Her figure was strikingly symmetrical and softly curved. Her abundant,
dark-brown hair, instead of being parted plainly and drawn back into a prim
coil as usual, was dressed high on her head, and a creamy rose nestled amid the
becoming puffs and waves. She wore black, as she usually did, but it was a
lustrous black silk, simply and fashionably made, with frost-like frills of
lace at her firm round throat and dainty wrists. Her cheeks were delicately
flushed, and her wood-brown eyes were sparkling under her long lashes.
She offered him a half-opened bud for his coat and pinned it on
for him. As he looked down at her he noticed what a sweet mouth she had—full
and red, with a half child-like curve.
The fact that Lawrence Eastman took Bessy Houghton to the Baileys'
party made quite a sensation at that festal scene. People nodded and winked and
wondered. "An old maid and her money," said Milly Fiske spitefully.
Milly, as was well known, had a liking for Lawrence herself.
Lawrence began to "go with" Bessy Houghton regularly
after that. In his single-mindedness he never feared that Bessy would misjudge
his motives or imagine him to be prompted by mercenary designs. He never
thought of her riches himself, and it never occurred to him that she would
suppose he did.
He soon realized that he loved her, and he ventured to hope
timidly that she loved him in return. She was always rather reserved, but the
few favours that meant nothing from other girls meant a great deal from Bessy.
The evenings he spent with her in her pretty sitting-room, their moonlight
drives over long, satin-smooth stretches of snowy roads, and their walks home
from church and prayer meeting under the winter stars, were all so many moments
of supreme happiness to Lawrence.
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Matters had gone thus far before Mrs. Eastman got her eyes opened.
At Mrs. Tom Bailey's quilting party an officious gossip took care to inform her
that Lawrence was supposed to be crazy over Bessy Houghton, who was, of course,
encouraging him simply for the sake of having someone to beau her round, and
who would certainly throw him over in the end since she knew perfectly well
that it was her money he was after.
Mrs. Eastman was a proud woman and a determined one. She had
always disliked Bessy Houghton, and she went home from the quilting resolved to
put an instant stop to "all such nonsense" on her son's part.
"Where is Lawrie?" she asked abruptly; as she entered
the small kitchen where George Eastman was lounging by the fire.
"Out in the stable grooming up Lady Grey," responded her
older son sulkily. "I suppose he's gadding off to see Bessy Houghton
again, the young fool that he is! Why don't you put a stop to it?"
"I am going to put a stop to it," said Mrs. Eastman
grimly. "I'd have done it before if I'd known. You should have told me of it
if you knew. I'm going out to see Lawrence right now."
George Eastman muttered something inaudible as the door closed
behind her. He was a short, thickset man, not in the least like Lawrence, who
was ten years his junior. Two years previously he had made a furtive attempt to
pay court to Bessy Houghton for the sake of her wealth, and her decided repulse
of his advances was a remembrance that made him grit his teeth yet. He had
hated her bitterly ever since.
Lawrence was brushing his pet mare's coat until it shone like
satin, and whistling "Annie Laurie" until the rafters rang. Bessy had
sung it for him the night before. He could see her plainly still as she had
looked then, in her gown of vivid red—a colour peculiarly becoming to her—with
her favourite laces at wrist and throat and a white rose in her hair, which was
dressed in the high, becoming knot she had always worn since the night he had
shyly told her he liked it so.
She had played and sung many of the sweet old Scotch ballads for
him, and when she had gone to the door with him he had taken both her hands in
his and, emboldened by the look in her brown eyes, he had stooped and kissed
her. Then he had stepped back, filled with dismay at his own audacity. But
Bessy had said no word of rebuke, and only blushed hotly crimson. She must care
for him, he thought happily, or else she would have been angry.
When his mother came in at the stable door her face was hard and
uncompromising.
"Lawrie," she said sharply, "where are you going
again tonight? You were out last night."
"Well, Mother, I promise you I wasn't in any bad company.
Come now, don't quiz a fellow too close."
"You are going to dangle after Bessy Houghton again. It's
time you were told what a fool you were making of yourself. She's old enough to
be your mother. The whole settlement is laughing at you."
Lawrence looked as if his mother had struck him a blow in the
face. A dull, purplish flush crept over his brow.
"This is some of George's work," he broke out fiercely.
"He's been setting you on me, has he? Yes, he's jealous—he wanted Bessy
himself, but she would not look at him. He thinks nobody knows it, but I do.
Bessy marry him? It's very likely!"
"Lawrie Eastman, you are daft. George hasn't said anything to
me. You surely don't imagine Bessy Houghton would marry you. And if she would,
she is too old for you. Now, don't you hang around her any longer."
"I will," said Lawrence flatly. "I don't care what
anybody says. You needn't worry over me. I can take care of myself."
Mrs. Eastman looked blankly at her son. He had never defied or
disobeyed her in his life before. She had supposed her word would be law.
Rebellion was something she had not dreamed of. Her lips tightened ominously
and her eyes narrowed.
"You're a bigger fool than I took you for," she said in
a voice that trembled with anger. "Bessy Houghton laughs at you
everywhere. She knows you're just after her money, and she makes fun—"
"Prove it," interrupted Lawrence undauntedly, "I'm
not going to put any faith in Lynnfield gossip. Prove it if you can."
"I can prove it. Maggie Hatfield told me what Bessy Houghton
said to her about you. She said you were a lovesick fool, and she only went
with you for a little amusement, and that if you thought you had nothing to do
but marry her and hang up your hat there you'd find yourself vastly
mistaken."
Possibly in her calmer moments Mrs. Eastman might have shrunk from
such a deliberate falsehood, although it was said of her in Lynnfield that she
was not one to stick at a lie when the truth would not serve her purpose.
Moreover, she felt quite sure that Lawrence would never ask Maggie Hatfield
anything about it.
Lawrence turned white to the lips, "Is that true,
Mother?" he asked huskily.
"I've warned you," replied his mother, not choosing to
repeat her statement. "If you go after Bessy any more you can take the
consequences."
She drew her shawl about her pale, malicious face and left him
with a parting glance of contempt.
"I guess that'll settle him," she thought grimly.
"Bessy Houghton turned up her nose at George, but she shan't make a fool
of Lawrence too."
Alone in the stable Lawrence stood staring out at the dull red
ball of the winter sun with unseeing eyes. He had implicit faith in his mother,
and the stab had gone straight to his heart. Bessy Houghton listened in vain
that night for his well-known footfall on the verandah.
The next night Lawrence went home with Milly Fiske from prayer
meeting, taking her out from a crowd of other girls under Bessy Houghton's very
eyes as she came down the steps of the little church.
Bessy walked home alone. The light burned low in her sitting-room,
and in the mirror over the mantel she saw her own pale face, with its tragic,
pain-stricken eyes. Annie Hillis, her "help," was out. She was alone
in the big house with her misery and despair.
She went dizzily upstairs to her own room and flung herself on the
bed in the chill moonlight.
"It is all over," she said dully. All night she lay
there, fighting with her pain. In the wan, grey morning she looked at her
mirrored self with pitying scorn—at the pallid face, the lifeless features, the
dispirited eyes with their bluish circles.
"What a fool I have been to imagine he could care for
me!" she said bitterly. "He has only been amusing himself with my
folly. And to think that I let him kiss me the other night!"
She thought of that kiss with a pitiful shame. She hated herself
for the weakness that could not check her tears. Her lonely life had been
brightened by the companionship of her young lover. The youth and girlhood of
which fate had cheated her had come to her with love; the future had looked
rosy with promise; now it had darkened with dourness and greyness.
Maggie Hatfield came that day to sew. Bessy had intended to have a
dark-blue silk made up and an evening waist of pale pink cashmere. She had
expected to wear the latter at a party which was to come off a fortnight later,
and she had got it to please Lawrence, because he had told her that pink was
his favourite colour. She would have neither it nor the silk made up now. She put
them both away and instead brought out an ugly pattern of snuff-brown stuff,
bought years before and never used.
"But where is your lovely pink, Bessy?" asked the
dressmaker. "Aren't you going to have it for the party?"
"No, I'm not going to have it made up at all," said
Bessy listlessly. "It's too gay for me. I was foolish to think it would
ever suit me. This brown will do for a spring suit. It doesn't make much
difference what I wear."
Maggie Hatfield, who had not been at prayer meeting the night
beforehand knew nothing of what had occurred, looked at her curiously,
wondering what Lawrence Eastman could see in her to be as crazy about her as
some people said he was. Bessy was looking her oldest and plainest just then,
with her hair combed severely back from her pale, dispirited face.
"It must be her money he is after," thought the
dressmaker. "She looks over thirty, and she can't pretend to be pretty. I
believe she thinks a lot of him, though."
For the most part, Lynnfield people believed that Bessy had thrown
Lawrence over. This opinion was borne out by his woebegone appearance. He was
thin and pale; his face had lost its youthful curves and looked hard and
mature. He was moody and taciturn and his speech and manner were marked by a
new cynicism.
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In April a well-to-do storekeeper from an adjacent village began
to court Bessy Houghton. He was over fifty, and had never been a handsome man
in his best days, but Lynnfield oracles opined that Bessy would take him. She
couldn't expect to do any better, they said, and she was looking terribly old
and dowdy all at once.
In June Maggie Hatfield went to the Eastmans' to sew. The first
bit of news she imparted to Mrs. Eastman was that Bessy Houghton had refused
Jabez Lea—at least, he didn't come to see her any more.
Mrs. Eastman twitched her thread viciously. "Bessy Houghton
was born an old maid," she said sharply. "She thinks nobody is good
enough for her, that is what's the matter. Lawrence got some silly boy-notion
into his head last winter, but I soon put a stop to that."
"I always had an idea that Bessy thought a good deal of
Lawrence," said Maggie. "She has never been the same since he left
off going with her. I was up there the morning after that prayer-meeting night
people talked so much of, and she looked positively dreadful, as if she hadn't
slept a wink the whole night."
"Nonsense!" said Mrs. Eastman decisively. "She
would never think of taking a boy like him when she'd turned up her nose at
better men. And I didn't want her for a daughter-in-law anyhow. I can't bear
her. So I put my foot down in time. Lawrence sulked for a spell, of
course—boy-fashion—and he's been as fractious as a spoiled baby ever
since."
"Well, I dare say you're right," assented the
dressmaker. "But I must say I had always imagined that Bessy had a great
notion of Lawrence. Of course, she's so quiet it is hard to tell. She never
says a word about herself."
There was an unsuspected listener to this conversation. Lawrence
had come in from the field for a drink, and was standing in the open kitchen
doorway, within easy earshot of the women's shrill tones.
He had never doubted his mother's word at any time in his life,
but now he knew beyond doubt that there had been crooked work somewhere. He
shrank from believing his mother untrue, yet where else could the crookedness
come in?
When Mrs. Eastman had gone to the kitchen to prepare dinner,
Maggie Hatfield was startled by the appearance of Lawrence at the low open
window of the sitting-room.
"Mercy me, how you scared me!" she exclaimed nervously.
"Maggie," said Lawrence seriously, "I want to ask
you a question. Did Bessy Houghton ever say anything to you about me or did you
ever say that she did? Give me a straight answer."
The dressmaker peered at him curiously.
"No. Bessy never so much as mentioned your name to me,"
she said, "and I never heard that she did to anyone else. Why?"
"Thank you. That was all I wanted to know," said
Lawrence, ignoring her question, and disappearing as suddenly as he had come.
That evening at moonrise he passed through the kitchen dressed in
his Sunday best. His mother met him at the door.
"Where are you going?" she asked querulously.
Lawrence looked her squarely in the face with accusing eyes,
before which her own quailed.
"I'm going to see Bessy Houghton, Mother," he said
sternly, "and to ask her pardon for believing the lie that has kept us
apart so long."
Mrs. Eastman flushed crimson and opened her lips to speak. But
something in Lawrence's grave, white face silenced her. She turned away without
a word, knowing in her secret soul that her youngest-born was lost to her
forever.
Lawrence found Bessy in the orchard under apple trees that were
pyramids of pearly bloom. She looked at him through the twilight with reproach
and aloofness in her eyes. But he put out his hands and caught her reluctant
ones in a masterful grasp.
"Listen to me, Bessy. Don't condemn me before you've heard
me. I've been to blame for believing falsehoods about you, but I believe them
no longer, and I've come to ask you to forgive me."
He told his story simply and straightforwardly. In strict justice
he could not keep his mother's name out of it, but he merely said she had been
mistaken. Perhaps Bessy understood none the less. She knew what Mrs. Eastman's
reputation in Lynnfield was.
"You might have had a little more faith in me," she
cried reproachfully.
"I know—I know. But I was beside myself with pain and
wretchedness. Oh, Bessy, won't you forgive me? I love you so! If you send me
away I'll go to the dogs. Forgive me, Bessy."
And she, being a woman, did forgive him.
"I've loved you from the first, Lawrence," she said,
yielding to his kiss.
30.Their Girl Josie
When Paul Morgan, a
rising young lawyer with justifiable political aspirations, married Elinor
Ashton, leading woman at the Green Square Theatre, his old schoolmates and
neighbours back in Spring Valley held up their hands in horror, and his father
and mother up in the weather-grey Morgan homestead were crushed in the depths
of humiliation. They had been too proud of Paul ... their only son and such a
clever fellow ... and this was their punishment! He had married an actress! To
Cyrus and Deborah Morgan, brought up and nourished all their lives on the strictest
and straightest of old-fashioned beliefs both as regards this world and that
which is to come, this was a tragedy.
They could not be brought to see it in any other light. As their
neighbours said, "Cy Morgan never hilt up his head again after Paul married
the play-acting woman." But perhaps it was less his humiliation than his
sorrow which bowed down his erect form and sprinkled grey in his thick black
hair that fifty years had hitherto spared. For Paul, forgetting the sacrifices
his mother and father had made for him, had bitterly resented the letter of
protest his father had written concerning his marriage. He wrote one angry,
unfilial letter back and then came silence. Between grief and shame Cyrus and
Deborah Morgan grew old rapidly in the year that followed.
At the end of that time Elinor Morgan, the mother of an hour,
died; three months later Paul Morgan was killed in a railroad collision. After
the funeral Cyrus Morgan brought home to his wife their son's little daughter,
Joscelyn Morgan.
Her aunt, Annice Ashton, had wanted the baby. Cyrus Morgan had
been almost rude in his refusal. His son's daughter should never be brought up
by an actress; it was bad enough that her mother had been one and had doubtless
transmitted the taint to her child. But in Spring Valley, if anywhere, it might
be eradicated.
At first neither Cyrus nor Deborah cared much for Joscelyn. They
resented her parentage, her strange, un-Morgan-like name, and the pronounced
resemblance she bore to the dark-haired, dark-eyed mother they had never seen.
All the Morgans had been fair. If Joscelyn had had Paul's blue eyes and golden
curls her grandfather and grandmother would have loved her sooner.
But the love came ... it had to. No living mortal could have
resisted Joscelyn. She was the most winsome and lovable little mite of babyhood
that ever toddled. Her big dark eyes overflowed with laughter before she could
speak, her puckered red mouth broke constantly into dimples and cooing sounds.
She had ways that no orthodox Spring Valley baby ever thought of having. Every
smile was a caress, every gurgle of attempted speech a song. Her grandparents
came to worship her and were stricter than ever with her by reason of their
love. Because she was so dear to them she must be saved from her mother's
blood.
Joscelyn shot up through a roly-poly childhood into slim,
bewitching girlhood in a chill repressive atmosphere. Cyrus and Deborah were
nothing if not thorough. The name of Joscelyn's mother was never mentioned to
her; she was never called anything but Josie, which sounded more
"Christian-like" than Joscelyn; and all the flowering out of her
alien beauty was repressed as far as might be in the plainest and dullest of
dresses and the primmest arrangement possible to riotous ripe-brown curls.
The girl was never allowed to visit her Aunt Annice, although
frequently invited. Miss Ashton, however, wrote to her occasionally, and every
Christmas sent a box of presents which even Cyrus and Deborah Morgan could not
forbid her to accept, although they looked with disapproving eyes and ominously
set lips at the dainty, frivolous trifles the actress woman sent. They would
have liked to cast those painted fans and lace frills and beflounced lingerie
into the fire as if they had been infected rags from a pest-house.
The path thus set for Joscelyn's dancing feet to walk in was
indeed sedate and narrow. She was seldom allowed to mingle with the young
people of even quiet, harmless Spring Valley; she was never allowed to attend
local concerts, much less take part in them; she was forbidden to read novels,
and Cyrus Morgan burned an old copy of Shakespeare which Paul had given him
years ago and which he had himself read and treasured, lest its perusal should
awaken unlawful instincts in Joscelyn's heart. The girl's passion for reading
was so marked that her grandparents felt that it was their duty to repress it
as far as lay in their power.
But Joscelyn's vitality was such that all her bonds and bands
served but little to check or retard the growth of her rich nature. Do what
they might they could not make a Morgan of her. Her every step was a dance, her
every word and gesture full of a grace and virility that filled the old folks
with uneasy wonder. She seemed to them charged with dangerous tendencies all
the more potent from repression. She was sweet-tempered and sunny, truthful and
modest, but she was as little like the trim, simple Spring Valley girls as a
crimson rose is like a field daisy, and her unlikeness bore heavily on her
grandparents.
Yet they loved her and were proud of her. "Our girl
Josie," as they called her, was more to them than they would have admitted
even to themselves, and in the main they were satisfied with her, although the
grandmother grumbled because Josie did not take kindly to patchwork and rug-making
and the grandfather would fain have toned down that exuberance of beauty and
vivacity into the meeker pattern of maidenhood he had been accustomed to.
When Joscelyn was seventeen Deborah Morgan noticed a change in
her. The girl became quieter and more brooding, falling at times into strange,
idle reveries, with her hands clasped over her knee and her big eyes fixed
unseeingly on space; or she would creep away for solitary rambles in the beech
wood, going away droopingly and returning with dusky glowing cheeks and a
nameless radiance, as of some newly discovered power, shining through every
muscle and motion. Mrs. Morgan thought the child needed a tonic and gave her
sulphur and molasses.
One day the revelation came. Cyrus and Deborah had driven across
the valley to visit their married daughter. Not finding her at home they
returned. Mrs. Morgan went into the house while her husband went to the stable.
Joscelyn was not in the kitchen, but the grandmother heard the sound of voices
and laughter in the sitting room across the hall.
"What company has Josie got?" she wondered, as she
opened the hall door and paused for a moment on the threshold to listen. As she
listened her old face grew grey and pinched; she turned noiselessly and left
the house, and flew to her husband as one distracted.
"Cyrus, Josie is play-acting in the room ... laughing and
reciting and going on. I heard her. Oh, I've always feared it would break out
in her and it has! Come you and listen to her."
The old couple crept through the kitchen and across the hall to
the open parlour door as if they were stalking a thief. Joscelyn's laugh rang
out as they did so ... a mocking, triumphant peal. Cyrus and Deborah shivered
as if they had heard sacrilege.
Joscelyn had put on a trailing, clinging black skirt which her
aunt had sent her a year ago and which she had never been permitted to wear. It
transformed her into a woman. She had cast aside her waist of dark
plum-coloured homespun and wrapped a silken shawl about herself until only her
beautiful arms and shoulders were left bare. Her hair, glossy and brown, with
burnished red lights where the rays of the dull autumn sun struck on it through
the window, was heaped high on her head and held in place by a fillet of pearl
beads. Her cheeks were crimson, her whole body from head to foot instinct and
alive with a beauty that to Cyrus and Deborah, as they stood mute with horror
in the open doorway, seemed akin to some devilish enchantment.
Joscelyn, rapt away from her surroundings, did not perceive her grandparents.
Her face was turned from them and she was addressing an unseen auditor in
passionate denunciation. She spoke, moved, posed, gesticulated, with an inborn
genius shining through every motion and tone like an illuminating lamp.
"Josie, what are you doing?"
It was Cyrus who spoke, advancing into the room like a stern, hard
impersonation of judgment. Joscelyn's outstretched arm fell to her side and she
turned sharply around; fear came into her face and the light went out of it. A
moment before she had been a woman, splendid, unafraid; now she was again the
schoolgirl, too confused and shamed to speak.
"What are you doing, Josie?" asked her grandfather
again, "dressed up in that indecent manner and talking and twisting to
yourself?"
Joscelyn's face, that had grown pale, flamed scarlet again. She
lifted her head proudly.
"I was trying Aunt Annice's part in her new play," she
answered. "I have not been doing anything wrong, Grandfather."
"Wrong! It's your mother's blood coming out in you, girl, in
spite of all our care! Where did you get that play?"
"Aunt Annice sent it to me," answered Joscelyn, casting
a quick glance at the book on the table. Then, when her grandfather picked it
up gingerly, as if he feared contamination, she added quickly, "Oh, give it
to me, please, Grandfather. Don't take it away."
"I am going to burn it," said Cyrus Morgan sternly.
"Oh, don't, Grandfather," cried Joscelyn, with a sob in
her voice. "Don't burn it, please. I ... I ... won't practise out of it
any more. I'm sorry I've displeased you. Please give me my book."
"No," was the stern reply. "Go to your room, girl,
and take off that rig. There is to be no more play-acting in my house, remember
that."
He flung the book into the fire that was burning in the grate. For
the first time in her life Joscelyn flamed out into passionate defiance.
"You are cruel and unjust, Grandfather. I have done no wrong
... it is not doing wrong to develop the one gift I have. It's the only thing I
can do ... and I am going to do it. My mother was an actress and a good woman.
So is Aunt Annice. So I mean to be."
"Oh, Josie, Josie," said her grandmother in a scared
voice. Her grandfather only repeated sternly, "Go, take that rig off,
girl, and let us hear no more of this."
Joscelyn went but she left consternation behind her. Cyrus and
Deborah could not have been more shocked if they had discovered the girl
robbing her grandfather's desk. They talked the matter over bitterly at the
kitchen hearth that night.
"We haven't been strict enough with the girl, Mother,"
said Cyrus angrily. "We'll have to be stricter if we don't want to have
her disgracing us. Did you hear how she defied me? 'So I mean to be,' she says.
Mother, we'll have trouble with that girl yet."
"Don't be too harsh with her, Pa ... it'll maybe only drive
her to worse," sobbed Deborah.
"I ain't going to be harsh. What I do is for her own good,
you know that, Mother. Josie is as dear to me as she is to you, but we've got
to be stricter with her."
They were. From that day Josie was watched and distrusted. She was
never permitted to be alone. There were no more solitary walks. She felt
herself under the surveillance of cold, unsympathetic eyes every moment and her
very soul writhed. Joscelyn Morgan, the high-spirited daughter of high-spirited
parents, could not long submit to such treatment. It might have passed with a
child; to a woman, thrilling with life and conscious power to her very
fingertips, it was galling beyond measure. Joscelyn rebelled, but she did
nothing secretly ... that was not her nature. She wrote to her Aunt Annice, and
when she received her reply she went straight and fearlessly to her
grandparents with it.
"Grandfather, this letter is from my aunt. She wishes me to
go and live with her and prepare for the stage. I told her I wished to do so. I
am going."
Cyrus and Deborah looked at her in mute dismay.
"I know you despise the profession of an actress," the
girl went on with heightened colour. "I am sorry you think so about it
because it is the only one open to me. I must go ... I must."
"Yes, you must," said Cyrus cruelly. "It's in your
blood ... your bad blood, girl."
"My blood isn't bad," cried Joscelyn proudly. "My
mother was a sweet, true, good woman. You are unjust, Grandfather. But I don't
want you to be angry with me. I love you both and I am very grateful indeed for
all your kindness to me. I wish that you could understand what...."
"We understand enough," interrupted Cyrus harshly.
"This is all I have to say. Go to your play-acting aunt if you want to.
Your grandmother and me won't hinder you. But you'll come back here no more.
We'll have nothing further to do with you. You can choose your own way and walk
in it."
With this dictum Joscelyn went from Spring Valley. She clung to
Deborah and wept at parting, but Cyrus did not even say goodbye to her. On the
morning of her departure he went away on business and did not return until
evening.
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Joscelyn went on the stage. Her aunt's influence and her mother's
fame helped her much. She missed the hard experiences that come to the
unassisted beginner. But her own genius must have won in any case. She had all
her mother's gifts, deepened by her inheritance of Morgan intensity and
sincerity ... much, too, of the Morgan firmness of will. When Joscelyn Morgan
was twenty-two she was famous over two continents.
When Cyrus Morgan returned home on the evening after his
granddaughter's departure he told his wife that she was never to mention the
girl's name in his hearing again. Deborah obeyed. She thought her husband was
right, albeit she might in her own heart deplore the necessity of such a
decree. Joscelyn had disgraced them; could that be forgiven?
Nevertheless both the old people missed her terribly. The house
seemed to have lost its soul with that vivid, ripely tinted young life. They got
their married daughter's oldest girl, Pauline, to come and stay with them.
Pauline was a quiet, docile maiden, industrious and commonplace—just such a
girl as they had vainly striven to make of Joscelyn, to whom Pauline had always
been held up as a model. Yet neither Cyrus nor Deborah took to her, and they
let her go unregretfully when they found that she wished to return home.
"She hasn't any of Josie's gimp," was old Cyrus's
unspoken fault. Deborah spoke, but all she said was, "Polly's a good girl,
Father, only she hasn't any snap."
Joscelyn wrote to Deborah occasionally, telling her freely of her
plans and doings. If it hurt the girl that no notice was ever taken of her
letters she still wrote them. Deborah read the letters grimly and then left
them in Cyrus's way. Cyrus would not read them at first; later on he read them
stealthily when Deborah was out of the house.
When Joscelyn began to succeed she sent to the old farmhouse
papers and magazines containing her photographs and criticisms of her plays and
acting. Deborah cut them out and kept them in her upper bureau drawer with
Joscelyn's letters. Once she overlooked one and Cyrus found it when he was
kindling the fire. He got the scissors and cut it out carefully. A month later
Deborah discovered it between the leaves of the family Bible.
But Joscelyn's name was never mentioned between them, and when
other people asked them concerning her their replies were cold and ungracious.
In a way they had relented towards her, but their shame of her remained. They
could never forget that she was an actress.
Once, six years after Joscelyn had left Spring Valley, Cyrus, who
was reading a paper by the table, got up with an angry exclamation and stuffed
it into the stove, thumping the lid on over it with grim malignity.
"That fool dunno what he's talking about," was all he
would say. Deborah had her share of curiosity. The paper was the National
Gazette and she knew that their next-door neighbour, James Pennan,
took it. She went over that evening and borrowed it, saying that their own had
been burned before she had had time to read the serial in it. With one
exception she read all its columns carefully without finding anything to
explain her husband's anger. Then she doubtfully plunged into the exception ...
a column of "Stage Notes." Halfway down she came upon an adverse
criticism of Joscelyn Morgan and her new play. It was malicious and
vituperative. Deborah Morgan's old eyes sparkled dangerously as she read it.
"I guess somebody is pretty jealous of Josie," she muttered.
"I don't wonder Pa was riled up. But I guess she can hold her own. She's a
Morgan."
No long time after this Cyrus took a notion he'd like a trip to
the city. He'd like to see the Horse Fair and look up Cousin Hiram Morgan's
folks.
"Hiram and me used to be great chums, Mother. And we're
getting kind of mossy, I guess, never stirring out of Spring Valley. Let's go
and dissipate for a week—what say?"
Deborah agreed readily, albeit of late years she had been much
averse to going far from home and had never at any time been very fond of
Cousin Hiram's wife. Cyrus was as pleased as a child over their trip. On the
second day of their sojourn in the city he slipped away when Deborah had gone
shopping with Mrs. Hiram and hurried through the streets to the Green Square
Theatre with a hang-dog look. He bought a ticket apologetically and sneaked in
to his seat. It was a matinee performance, and Joscelyn Morgan was starring in
her famous new play.
Cyrus waited for the curtain to rise, feeling as if every one of
his Spring Valley neighbours must know where he was and revile him for it. If
Deborah were ever to find out ... but Deborah must never find out! For the
first time in their married life the old man deliberately plotted to deceive
his old wife. He must see his girl Josie just once; it was a terrible thing
that she was an actress, but she was a successful one, nobody could deny that,
except fools who yapped in the National Gazette.
The curtain went up and Cyrus rubbed his eyes. He had certainly
braced his nerves to behold some mystery of iniquity; instead he saw an old
kitchen so like his own at home that it bewildered him; and there, sitting by
the cheery wood stove, in homespun gown, with primly braided hair, was
Joscelyn—his girl Josie, as he had seen her a thousand times by his own
ingle-side. The building rang with applause; one old man pulled out a red
bandanna and wiped tears of joy and pride from his eyes. She hadn't
changed—Josie hadn't changed. Play-acting hadn't spoiled her—couldn't spoil
her. Wasn't she Paul's daughter! And all this applause was for her—for Josie.
Joscelyn's new play was a homely, pleasant production with
rollicking comedy and heart-moving pathos skilfully commingled. Joscelyn
pervaded it all with a convincing simplicity that was really the triumph of
art. Cyrus Morgan listened and exulted in her; at every burst of applause his
eyes gleamed with pride. He wanted to go on the stage and box the ears of the
villain who plotted against her; he wanted to shake hands with the good woman
who stood by her; he wanted to pay off the mortgage and make Josie happy. He
wiped tears from his eyes in the third act when Josie was turned out of doors
and, when the fourth left her a happy, blushing bride, hand in hand with her
farmer lover, he could have wept again for joy.
Cyrus Morgan went out into the daylight feeling as if he had
awakened from a dream. At the outer door he came upon Mrs. Hiram and Deborah.
Deborah's face was stained with tears, and she caught at his hand.
"Oh, Pa, wasn't it splendid—wasn't our girl Josie splendid!
I'm so proud of her. Oh, I was bound to hear her. I was afraid you'd be mad, so
I didn't let on and when I saw you in the seat down there I couldn't believe my
eyes. Oh, I've just been crying the whole time. Wasn't it splendid! Wasn't our
girl Josie splendid?"
The crowd around looked at the old pair with amused, indulgent
curiosity, but they were quite oblivious to their surroundings, even to Mrs.
Hiram's anxiety to decoy them away. Cyrus Morgan cleared his throat and said,
"It was great, Mother, great. She took the shine off the other play-actors
all right. I knew that National Gazette man didn't know what
he was talking about. Mother, let us go and see Josie right off. She's stopping
with her aunt at the Maberly Hotel—I saw it in the paper this morning. I'm
going to tell her she was right and we were wrong. Josie's beat them all, and
I'm going to tell her so!"
31.When Jack and Jill
Took a Hand
Jack's
Side of It
Jill says I have to begin this story because it was me—I mean it
was I—who made all the trouble in the first place. That is so like Jill. She is
such a good hand at forgetting. Why, it was she who suggested the plot to me. I
should never have thought of it myself—not that Jill is any smarter than I am,
either, but girls are such creatures for planning up mischief and leading other
folks into it and then laying the blame on them when things go wrong. How could
I tell Dick would act so like a mule? I thought grown-up folks had more sense.
Aunt Tommy was down on me for weeks, while she thought Jill a regular heroine.
But there! Girls don't know anything about being fair, and I am determined I
will never have anything more to do with them and their love affairs as long as
I live. Jill says I will change my mind when I grow up, but I won't.
Still, Jill is a pretty good sort of girl. I have to scold her
sometimes, but if any other chap tried to I would punch his head for him.
I suppose it is time I explained who Dick and
Aunt Tommy are. Dick is our minister. He hasn't been it very long. He only came
a year ago. I shall never forget how surprised Jill and I were that first
Sunday we went to church and saw him. We had always thought that ministers had
to be old. All the ministers we knew were. Mr. Grinnell, the one before Dick
came, must have been as old as Methuselah. But Dick was young—and good-looking.
Jill said she thought it a positive sin for a minister to be so good-looking,
it didn't seem Christian; but that was just because all the ministers we knew
happened to be homely so that it didn't appear natural.
Dick was tall and pale and looked as if he had heaps of brains. He
had thick curly brown hair and big dark blue eyes—Jill said his eyes were like
an archangel's, but how could she tell? She never saw an archangel. I liked his
nose. It was so straight and finished-looking. Mr. Grinnell had the
worst-looking nose you ever saw. Jill and I used to make poetry about it in
church to keep from falling asleep when he preached such awful long sermons.
Dick preached great sermons. They were so nice and short. It was
such fun to hear him thump the pulpit when he got excited; and when he got more
excited still he would lean over the pulpit, his face all white, and talk so
low and solemn that it would just send the most gorgeous thrills through you.
Dick came to Owlwood—that's our place; I hate these
explanations—quite a lot, even before Aunt Tommy came. He and Father were
chums; they had been in college together and Father said Dick was the best
football player he ever knew. Jill and I soon got acquainted with him and this
was another uncanny thing. We had never thought it possible to get acquainted
with a minister. Jill said she didn't think it proper for a real live minister
to be so chummy. But then Jill was a little jealous because Dick and I, being
both men; were better friends than he and she could be. He taught me to skate
that winter and fence with canes and do long division. I could never understand
long division before Dick came, although I was away on in fractions.
Jill has just been in and says I ought to explain that Dick's name
wasn't Dick. I do wish Jill would mind her own business. Of course it wasn't.
His real name was the Reverend Stephen Richmond, but Jill and I always called
him Dick behind his back; it seemed so jolly and venturesome, somehow, to speak
of a minister like that. Only we had to be careful not to let Father and Mother
hear us. Mother wouldn't even let Father call Dick "Stephen"; she
said it would set a bad example of familiarity to the children. Mother is an
old darling. She won't believe we're half as bad as we are.
Well, early in May comes Aunt Tommy. I must explain who Aunt Tommy
is or Jill will be at me again. She is Father's youngest sister and her real
name is Bertha Gordon, but Father has always called her Tommy and she likes it.
Jill and I had never seen Aunt Tommy before, but we took to her
from the start because she was so pretty and because she talked to us just as
if we were grown up. She called Jill Elizabeth, and Jill would adore a
Hottentot who called her Elizabeth.
Aunt Tommy is the prettiest girl I ever saw. If Jill is half as
good-looking when she gets to be twenty—she's only ten now, same age as I am,
we're twins—I shall be proud of her for a sister.
Aunt Tommy is all white and dimpled. She has curly red hair and
big jolly brown eyes and scrumptious freckles. I do like freckles in a girl,
although Jill goes wild if she thinks she has one on her nose. When we talked
of writing this story Jill said I wasn't to say that Aunt Tommy had freckles
because it wouldn't sound romantic. But I don't care. She has freckles and I
think they are all right.
We went to church with Aunt Tommy the first Sunday after she came,
one on each side of her. Aunt Tommy is the only girl in the world I'd walk hand
in hand with before people. She looked fine that day. She had on a gorgeous
dress, all frills and ruffles, and a big white floppy hat. I was proud of her
for an aunt, I can tell you, and I was anxious for Dick to see her. When he
came up to speak to me and Jill after church came out I said, "Aunt Tommy,
this is Mr. Richmond," just like the grown-up people say. Aunt Tommy and
Dick shook hands and Dick got as red as anything. It was funny to see him.
The very next evening he came down to Owlwood. We hadn't expected
him until Tuesday, for he never came Monday night before. That is Father's
night for going to a lodge meeting. Mother was away this time too. I met Dick
on the porch and took him into the parlour, thinking what a bully talk we could
have all alone together, without Jill bothering around. But in a minute Aunt
Tommy came in and she and Dick began to talk, and I just couldn't get a word in
edgewise. I got so disgusted I started out, but I don't believe they ever
noticed I was gone. I liked Aunt Tommy very well, but I didn't think she had
any business to monopolize Dick like that when he and I were such old chums.
Outside I came across Jill. She was sitting all alone in the dark,
curled up on the edge of the verandah just where she could see into the parlour
through the big glass door. I sat down beside her, for I wanted sympathy.
"Dick's in there talking to Aunt Tommy," I said. "I
don't see what makes him want to talk to her."
"What a goose you are!" said Jill in that aggravatingly
patronizing way of hers. "Why, Dick has fallen in love with Aunt
Tommy!"
Honest, I jumped. I never was so surprised.
"How do you know?" I asked.
"Because I do," said Jill. "I knew it yesterday at
church and I think it is so romantic."
"I don't see how you can tell," I said—and I didn't.
"You'll understand better when you get older," said
Jill. Sometimes Jill talks as if she were a hundred years older than I am,
instead of being a twin. And really, sometimes I think she is older.
"I didn't think ministers ever fell in love," I
protested.
"Some do," said Jill sagely. "Mr. Grinnell wouldn't
ever, I suppose. But Dick is different. I'd like him for a husband myself. But
he'd be too old for me by the time I grew up, so I suppose I'll have to let
Aunt Tommy have him. It will be all in the family anyhow—that is one comfort. I
think Aunt Tommy ought to have me for a flower girl and I'll wear pink silk
clouded over with white chiffon and carry a big bouquet of roses."
"Jill, you take my breath away," I said, and she did. My
imagination couldn't travel as fast as that. But after I had thought the idea
over a bit I liked it. It was a good deal like a book; and, besides, a minister
is a respectable thing to have in a family.
"We must help them all we can," said Jill.
"What can we do?" I asked.
"We must praise Dick to Aunt Tommy and Aunt Tommy to Dick and
we must keep out of the way—we mustn't ever hang around when they want to be
alone," said Jill.
"I don't want to give up being chums with Dick," I
grumbled.
"We must be self-sacrificing," said Jill. And that
sounded so fine it reconciled me to the attempt.
We sat there and watched Dick and Aunt Tommy for an hour. I
thought they were awfully prim and stiff. If I'd been Dick I'd have gone over
and hugged her. I said so to Jill and Jill was shocked. She said it wouldn't be
proper when they weren't even engaged.
When Dick went away Aunt Tommy came out to the verandah and
discovered us. She sat down between us and put her arms about us. Aunt Tommy
has such cute ways.
"I like your minister very much," she said.
"He's bully," I said.
"He's as handsome as a prince," Jill said.
"He preaches splendid sermons—he makes people sit up in
church, I can tell you," I said.
"He has a heavenly tenor voice," Jill said.
"He's got a magnificent muscle," I said.
"He has the most poetical eyes," Jill said.
"He swims like a duck," I said.
"He looks just like a Greek god," Jill said.
I'm sure Jill couldn't have known what a Greek god looked like, but
I suppose she got the comparison out of some novel. Jill is always reading
novels. She borrows them from the cook.
Aunt Tommy laughed and said, "You darlings."
For the next three months Jill and I were wild. It was just like
reading a serial story to watch Dick and Aunt Tommy. One day when Dick came
Aunt Tommy wasn't quite ready to come down, so Jill and I went in to the
parlour to help things along. We knew we hadn't much time, so we began right
off.
"Aunt Tommy is the jolliest girl I know," I said.
"She is as beautiful as a dream," Jill said.
"She can play games as good as a boy," I said.
"She does the most elegant fancy work," Jill said.
"She never gets mad," I said.
"She plays and sings divinely," Jill said.
"She can cook awfully good things," I said, for I was
beginning to run short of compliments. Jill was horrified; she said afterwards
that it wasn't a bit romantic. But I don't care—I believe Dick liked it, for he
smiled with his eyes I just as he always does when he's pleased. Girls don't
understand everything.
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But at the end of three months we began to get anxious. Things
were going so slow. Dick and Aunt Tommy didn't seem a bit further ahead than at
first. Jill said it was because Aunt Tommy didn't encourage Dick enough.
"I do wish we could hurry them up a little," she said.
"At this rate they will never be married this year and by next I'll be too
big to be a flower girl. I'm stretching out horribly as it is. Mother has had
to let down my frocks again."
"I wish they would get engaged and have done with it," I
said. "My mind would be at rest then. It's all Dick's fault. Why doesn't
he ask Aunt Tommy to marry him? What's making him so slow about it? If I wanted
a girl to marry me—but I wouldn't ever—I'd tell her so right spang off."
"I suppose ministers have to be more dignified," said
Jill, "but three months ought to be enough time for anyone. And Aunt Tommy
is only going to be here another month. If Dick could be made a little jealous
it would hurry him up. And he could be made jealous if you had any spunk about
you."
"I guess I've got more spunk than you have," I said.
"The trouble with Dick is this," said Jill. "There
is nobody else coming to see Aunt Tommy and he thinks he is sure of her. If you
could tell him something different it would stir him up."
"Are you sure it would?" I asked.
"It always does in novels," said Jill. And that settled
it, of course.
Jill and I fixed up what I was to say and Jill made me say it over
and over again to be sure I had it right. I told her—sarcastically—that she'd
better say it herself and then it would be done properly. Jill said she would
if it were Aunt Tommy, but when it was Dick it was better for a man to do it.
So of course I agreed.
I didn't know when I would have a chance to stir Dick up, but
Providence—so Jill said—favoured us. Aunt Tommy didn't expect Dick down the
next night, so she and Father and Mother all went away somewhere. Dick came
after all, and Jill sent me into the parlour to tell him. He was standing
before the mantel looking at Aunt Tommy's picture. There was such an adoring
look in his eyes. I could see it quite plain in the mirror before him. I
practised that look a lot before my own glass after that—because I thought it
might come in handy some time, you know—but I guess I couldn't have got it just
right because when I tried it on Jill she asked me if I had a pain.
"Well, Jack, old man," said Dick, sitting down on the
sofa. I sat down before him.
"Aunt Tommy is out," I said, to get the worst over.
"I guess you like Aunt Tommy pretty well, don't you, Mr. Richmond?"
"Yes," said Dick softly.
"So do other men," I said—mysterious, as Jill had
ordered me.
Dick thumped one of the sofa pillows.
"Yes, I suppose so," he said.
"There's a man in New York who just worships Aunt
Tommy," I said. "He writes her most every day and sends her books and
music and elegant presents. I guess she's pretty fond of him too. She keeps his
photograph on her bedroom table and I've seen her kissing it."
I stopped there, not because I had said all I had to say, but
because Dick's face scared me—honest, it did. It had all gone white, like it
does in the pulpit sometimes when he is tremendously in earnest, only ten times
worse. But all he said was,
"Is your Aunt Bertha engaged to this—this man?"
"Not exactly engaged," I said, "but I guess anybody
else who wants to marry her will have to reckon with him."
Dick got up.
"I think I won't wait this evening," he said.
"I wish you'd stay and have a talk with me," I said.
"I haven't had a talk with you for ages and I have a million things to
tell you."
Dick smiled as if it hurt him to smile.
"I can't tonight, Jacky. Some other time we'll have a good
powwow, old chap."
He took his hat and went out. Then Jill came flying in to hear all
about it. I told her as well as I could, but she wasn't satisfied. If Dick took
it so quietly, she declared, I couldn't have made it strong enough.
"If you had seen Dick's face," I said, "you would
have thought I made it plenty strong. And I'd like to know what Aunt Tommy will
say to all this when she finds out."
"Well, you didn't tell a thing but what was true," said
Jill.
The next evening was Dick's regular night for coming, but he
didn't come, although Jill and I went down the lane a dozen times to watch for
him. The night after that was prayer-meeting night. Dick had always walked home
with Aunt Tommy and us, but that night he didn't. He only just bowed and smiled
as he passed us in the porch. Aunt Tommy hardly spoke all the way home, only
just held tight to Jill's and my hands. But after we got home she seemed in
great spirits and laughed and chatted with Father and Mother.
"What does this mean?" asked Jill, grabbing me in the
hall on our way to bed.
"You'd better get another novel from the cook and find
out," I said grouchily. I was disgusted with things in general and Dick in
particular.
The three weeks that followed were awful. Dick never came near
Owlwood. Jill and I fought every day, we were so cross and disappointed.
Nothing had come out right, and Jill blamed it all on me. She said I must have
made it too strong. There was no fun in anything, not even in going to church.
Dick hardly thumped the pulpit at all and when he did it was only a measly
little thump. But Aunt Tommy didn't seem to worry any. She sang and laughed and
joked from morning to night.
"She doesn't mind Dick's making an ass of himself, anyway,
that's one consolation," I said to Jill.
"She is breaking her heart about it," said Jill,
"and that's your consolation!"
"I don't believe it," I said. "What makes you think
so?"
"She cries every night," said Jill. "I can tell by
the look of her eyes in the morning."
"She doesn't look half as woebegone over it as you do,"
I said.
"If I had her reason for looking woebegone I wouldn't look it
either," said Jill.
I asked her to explain her meaning, but she only said that little
boys couldn't understand those things.
Things went on like this for another week. Then they reached—so
Jill says—a climax. If Jill knows what that means I don't. But Pinky Carewe was
the climax. Pinky's name is James, but Jill and I always called him Pinky
because we couldn't bear him. He took to calling at Owlwood and one evening he
took Aunt Tommy out driving. Then Jill came to me.
"Something has got to be done," she said resolutely.
"I am not going to have Pinky Carewe for an Uncle Tommy and that is all
there is about it. You must go straight to Dick and tell him the truth about
the New York man."
I looked at Jill to see if she were in earnest. When I saw that
she was I said, "I wouldn't take all the gems of Golconda and go and tell
Dick that I'd been hoaxing him. You can do it yourself, Jill Gordon."
"You didn't tell him anything that wasn't true," said
Jill.
"I don't know how a minister might look upon it," I
said. "Anyway, I won't go."
"Then I suppose I've got to," said Jill very dolefully.
"Yes, you'll have to," I said.
And this finishes my part of the story, and Jill is going to tell
the rest. But you needn't believe everything she says about me in it.
Jill's
Side of It
Jacky has made a fearful muddle of his part, but I suppose I shall
just have to let it go. You couldn't expect much better of a boy. But I am
determined to re-describe Aunt Tommy, for the way Jacky has done it is just
disgraceful. I know exactly how to do it, the way it is always done in stories.
Aunt Tommy is divinely beautiful. Her magnificent wealth of
burnished auburn hair flows back in amethystine waves from her sun-kissed brow.
Her eyes are gloriously dark and deep, like midnight lakes mirroring the stars
of heaven; her features are like sculptured marble and her mouth is like a
trembling, curving Cupid's bow (this is a classical allusion) luscious and
glowing as a dewy rose. Her creamy skin is as fair and flawless as the inner
petals of a white lily. (She may have a weeny teeny freckle or two in summer,
but you'd never notice.) Her slender form is matchless in its symmetry and her
voice is like the ripple of a woodland brook.
There, I'm sure that's ever so much better than Jacky's
description, and now I can proceed with a clear conscience.
Well, I didn't like the idea of going and explaining to Dick very
much, but it had to be done unless I wanted to run the risk of having Pinky
Carewe in the family. So I went the next morning.
I put on my very prettiest pink organdie dress and did my hair the
new way, which is very becoming to me. When you are going to have an important
interview with a man it is always well to look your very best. I put on my big
hat with the wreath of pink roses that Aunt Tommy had brought me from New York
and took my spandy ruffled parasol.
"With your shield or upon it, Jill," said Jacky when I
started. (This is another classical allusion.)
I went straight up the hill and down the road to the manse where
Dick lived with his old housekeeper, Mrs. Dodge. She came to the door when I
knocked and I said, very politely, "Can I see the Reverend Stephen
Richmond, if you please?"
Mrs. Dodge went upstairs and came right back saying would I please
go up to the study. Up I went, my heart in my mouth, I can tell you, and there
was Dick among his books, looking so pale and sorrowful and interesting, for
all the world like Lord Algernon Francis in the splendid serial in the paper
cook took. There was a Madonna on his desk that looked just like Aunt Tommy.
"Good evening, Miss Elizabeth," said Dick, just as if I
were grown up, you know. "Won't you sit down? Try that green velvet chair.
I am sure it was created for a pink dress and unfortunately neither Mrs. Dodge
nor I possess one. How are all your people?"
"We are all pretty well; thank you," I said, "except
Aunt Tommy. She—" I was going to say, "She cries every night after
she goes to bed," but I remembered just in time that if I were in Aunt
Tommy's place I wouldn't want a man to know I cried about him even if I did. So
I said instead "—she has got a cold."
"Ah, indeed, I am sorry to hear it," said Dick, politely
but coldly, as if it were part of his duty as a minister to be sorry for
anybody who had a cold, but as if, apart from that, it was not a concern of his
if Aunt Tommy had galloping consumption.
"And Jack and I are terribly harrowed up in our minds,"
I went on. "That is what I've come up to see you about."
"Well, tell me all about it," said Dick.
"I'm afraid to," I said. "I know you'll be cross
even if you are a minister. It's about what Jack told you about that man in New
York and Aunt Tommy."
Dick turned as red as fire.
"I'd rather not discuss your Aunt Bertha's affairs," he
said stiffly.
"You must hear this," I cried, feeling thankful that
Jacky hadn't come after all, for he'd never have got any further ahead after
that snub. "It's all a mistake. There is a man in New York and he just
worships Aunt Tommy and she just adores him. But he's seventy years old and
he's her Uncle Matthew who brought her up ever since her father died and you've
heard her talking about him a hundred times. That's all, cross my heart solemn
and true."
You never saw anything like Dick's face when I stopped. It looked
just like a sunrise. But he said slowly, "Why did Jacky tell me such
a—tell me it in such a way?"
"We wanted to make you jealous," I said. "I put
Jacky up to it."
"I didn't think it was in either of you to do such a
thing," said Dick reproachfully.
"Oh, Dick," I cried—fancy my calling him Dick right to
his face! Jacky will never believe I really did it. He says I would never have
dared. But it wasn't daring at all, it was just forgetting. "Oh, Dick, we
didn't mean any harm. We thought you weren't getting on fast enough and we
wanted to stir you up like they do in books. We thought if we made you jealous
it would work all right. We didn't mean any harm. Oh, please forgive us!"
I was just ready to cry. But that dear Dick leaned over the table
and patted my hand.
"There, there, it's all right. I understand and of course I
forgive you. Don't cry, sweetheart."
The way Dick said "sweetheart" was perfectly lovely. I
envied Aunt Tommy, and I wanted to keep on crying so that he would go on
comforting me.
"And you'll come back to see Aunt Tommy again?" I said.
Dick's face clouded over; he got up and walked around the room several
times before he said a word. Then he came and sat down beside me and explained
it all to me, just as if I were grown up.
"Sweetheart, we'll talk this all out. You see, it is this
way. Your Aunt Bertha is the sweetest woman in the world. But I'm only a poor
minister and I have no right to ask her to share my life of hard work and
self-denial. And even if I dared I know she wouldn't do it. She doesn't care
anything for me except as a friend. I never meant to tell her I cared for her
but I couldn't help going to Owlwood, even though I knew it was a weakness on
my part. So now that I'm out of the habit of going I think it would be wisest
to stay out. It hurts dreadfully, but it would hurt worse after a while. Don't
you agree with me, Miss Elizabeth?"
I thought hard and fast. If I were in Aunt Tommy's place I
mightn't want a man to know I cried about him, but I was quite sure I'd rather
have him know than have him stay away because he didn't know. So I spoke right
up.
"No, I don't, Mr. Richmond; Aunt Tommy does care—you just ask
her. She cries every blessed night because you never come to Owlwood."
"Oh, Elizabeth!" said Dick.
He got up and stalked about the room again.
"You'll come back?" I said.
"Yes," he answered.
I drew a long breath. It was such a responsibility off my mind.
"Then you'd better come down with me right off," I said,
"for Pinky Carewe had her out driving last night and I want a stop put to
that as soon as possible. Even if he is rich he's a perfect pig."
Dick got his hat and came. We walked up the road in lovely creamy
yellow twilight and I was, oh, so happy.
"Isn't it just like a novel?" I said.
"I am afraid, Elizabeth," said Dick preachily,
"that you read too many novels, and not the right kind, either. Some of
these days I am going to ask you to promise me that you will read no more books
except those your mother and I pick out for you."
You don't know how squelched I felt. And I knew I would have to
promise, too, for Dick can make me do anything he likes.
When we got to Owlwood I left Dick in the parlour and flew up to
Aunt Tommy's room. I found her all scrunched up on her bed in the dark with her
face in the pillows.
"Aunt Tommy, Dick is down in the parlour and he wants to see
you," I said.
Didn't Aunt Tommy fly up, though!
"Oh, Jill—but I'm not fit to be seen—tell him I'll be down in
a few minutes."
I knew Aunt Tommy wanted to fix her hair and dab rose-water on her
eyes, so I trotted meekly down and told Dick. Then I flew out to Jacky and
dragged him around to the glass door. It was all hung over with vines and a wee
bit ajar so that we could see and hear everything that went on.
Jacky said it was only sneaks that listened—but he didn't say it
until next day. At the time he listened just as hard as I did. I didn't care if
it was mean. I just had to listen. I was perfectly wild to hear how a man would
propose and how a girl would accept and it was too good a chance to lose.
Presently in sweeps Aunt Tommy, in an elegant dress, not a hair
out of place. She looked perfectly sweet, only her nose was a little red. Dick
looked at her for just a moment, then he stepped forward and took her right
into his arms.
Aunt Tommy drew back her head for just a second as if she were
going to crush him in the dust, and then she just all kind of crumpled up and
her face went down on his shoulder.
"Oh—Bertha—I—love—you—I—love you," he said, just like
that, all quick and jerky.
"You—you have taken a queer way of showing it," said
Aunt Tommy, all muffled.
"I—I—was led to believe that there was another man—whom you
cared for—and I thought you were only trifling with me. So I sulked like a
jealous fool. Bertha, darling, you do love me a little, don't you?"
Aunt Tommy lifted her head and stuck up her mouth and he kissed
her. And there it was, all over, and they were engaged as quick as that, mind
you. He didn't even go down on his knees. There was nothing romantic about it
and I was never so disgusted in my life. When I grow up and anybody proposes to
me he will have to be a good deal more flowery and eloquent than that, I can
tell you, if he wants me to listen to him.
I left Jacky peeking still and I went to bed. After a long time
Aunt Tommy came up to my room and sat down on my bed in the moonlight.
"You dear blessed Elizabeth!" she said.
"It's all right then, is it?" I asked.
"Yes, it is all right, thanks to you, dearie. We are to be
married in October and somebody must be my little flower girl."
"I think Dick will make a splendid husband," I said.
"But Aunt Tommy, you mustn't be too hard on Jacky. He only wanted to help things
along, and it was I who put him up it in the first place."
"You have atoned by going and confessing," said Aunt
Tommy with a hug, "Jacky had no business to put that off on you. I'll
forgive him, of course, but I'll punish him by not letting him know that I will
for a little while. Then I'll ask him to be a page at my wedding."
Well, the wedding came off last week. It was a perfectly gorgeous
affair. Aunt Tommy's dress was a dream—and so was mine, all pink silk and
chiffon and carnations. Jacky made a magnificent page too, in a suit of white
velvet. The wedding cake was four stories high, and Dick looked perfectly
handsome. He kissed me too, right after he kissed Aunt Tommy.
So everything turned out all right, and I believe Dick would never
have dared to speak up if we hadn't helped things along. But Jacky and I have
decided that we will never meddle in an affair of the kind again. It is too
hard on the nerves.
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