Curious, If True
Strange
Tales
by Elizabeth Gaskell
contents
1.The Old
Nurse’s Story 2.The Poor Clare 3.Lois
the Witch 4.The Grey Woman 5.Curious, if True
1.THE OLD NURSE'S STORY
You know, my dears, that your
mother was an orphan, and an only child; and I daresay you have heard that your
grandfather was a clergyman up in Westmoreland, where I come from. I was just a
girl in the village school, when, one day, your grandmother came in to ask the
mistress if there was any scholar there who would do for a nurse-maid; and
mighty proud I was, I can tell ye, when the mistress called me up, and spoke of
me being a good girl at my needle, and a steady, honest girl, and one whose
parents were very respectable, though they might be poor. I thought I should
like nothing better than to serve the pretty young lady, who was blushing as
deep as I was, as she spoke of the coming baby, and what I should have to do
with it. However, I see you don't care so much for this part of my story, as
for what you think is to come, so I'll tell you at once. I was engaged and
settled at the parsonage before Miss Rosamond (that was the baby, who is now
your mother) was born. To be sure, I had little enough to do with her when she
came, for she was never out of her mother's arms, and slept by her all night
long; and proud enough was I sometimes when missis trusted her to me. There
never was such a baby before or since, though you've all of you been fine
enough in your turns; but for sweet, winning ways, you've none of you come up
to your mother. She took after her mother, who was a real lady born; a Miss
Furnivall, a grand-daughter of Lord Furnivall's, in Northumberland. I believe
she had neither brother nor sister, and had been brought up in my lord's family
till she had married your grandfather, who was just a curate, son to a
shopkeeper in Carlisle—but a clever, fine gentleman as ever was—and one who was
a right-down hard worker in his parish, which was very wide, and scattered all
abroad over the Westmoreland Fells. When your mother, little Miss Rosamond, was
about four or five years old, both her parents died in a fortnight—one after
the other. Ah! that was a sad time. My pretty young mistress and me was looking
for another baby, when my master came home from one of his long rides, wet and
tired, and took the fever he died of; and then she never held up her head
again, but just lived to see her dead baby, and have it laid on her breast,
before she sighed away her life. My mistress had asked me, on her death-bed,
never to leave Miss Rosamond; but if she had never spoken a word, I would have
gone with the little child to the end of the world.
The next thing, and before
we had well stilled our sobs, the executors and guardians came to settle the
affairs. They were my poor young mistress's own cousin, Lord Furnivall, and Mr.
Esthwaite, my master's brother, a shopkeeper in Manchester; not so well to do
then as he was afterwards, and with a large family rising about him. Well! I
don't know if it were their settling, or because of a letter my mistress wrote
on her death-bed to her cousin, my lord; but somehow it was settled that Miss
Rosamond and me were to go to Furnivall Manor House, in Northumberland, and my
lord spoke as if it had been her mother's wish that she should live with his
family, and as if he had no objections, for that one or two more or less could
make no difference in so grand a household. So, though that was not the way in
which I should have wished the coming of my bright and pretty pet to have been
looked at—who was like a sunbeam in any family, be it never so grand—I was well
pleased that all the folks in the Dale should stare and admire, when they heard
I was going to be young lady's maid at my Lord Furnivall's at Furnivall Manor.
But I made a mistake in
thinking we were to go and live where my lord did. It turned out that the
family had left Furnivall Manor House fifty years or more. I could not hear
that my poor young mistress had never been there, though she had been brought
up in the family; and I was sorry for that, for I should have liked Miss
Rosamond's youth to have passed where her mother's had been.
My lord's gentleman, from
whom I asked as many questions as I durst, said that the Manor House was at the
foot of the Cumberland Fells, and a very grand place; that an old Miss
Furnivall, a great-aunt of my lord's, lived there, with only a few servants;
but that it was a very healthy place, and my lord had thought that it would
suit Miss Rosamond very well for a few years, and that her being there might
perhaps amuse his old aunt.
I was bidden by my lord to
have Miss Rosamond's things ready by a certain day. He was a stern, proud man,
as they say all the Lords Furnivall were; and he never spoke a word more than
was necessary. Folk did say he had loved my young mistress; but that, because
she knew that his father would object, she would never listen to him, and
married Mr. Esthwaite; but I don't know. He never married, at any rate. But he
never took much notice of Miss Rosamond; which I thought he might have done if
he had cared for her dead mother. He sent his gentleman with us to the Manor
House, telling him to join him at Newcastle that same evening; so there was no
great length of time for him to make us known to all the strangers before he,
too, shook us off; and we were left, two lonely young things (I was not
eighteen) in the great old Manor House. It seems like yesterday that we drove
there. We had left our own dear parsonage very early, and we had both cried as
if our hearts would break, though we were travelling in my lord's carriage,
which I thought so much of once. And now it was long past noon on a September
day, and we stopped to change horses for the last time at a little smoky town,
all full of colliers and miners. Miss Rosamond had fallen asleep, but Mr. Henry
told me to waken her, that she might see the park and the Manor House as we
drove up. I thought it rather a pity; but I did what he bade me, for fear he
should complain of me to my lord. We had left all signs of a town, or even a
village, and were then inside the gates of a large wild park—not like the parks
here in the south, but with rocks, and the noise of running water, and gnarled
thorn-trees, and old oaks, all white and peeled with age.
The road went up about two
miles, and then we saw a great and stately house, with many trees close around
it, so close that in some places their branches dragged against the walls when
the wind blew; and some hung broken down; for no one seemed to take much charge
of the place;—to lop the wood, or to keep the moss-covered carriage-way in
order. Only in front of the house all was clear. The great oval drive was
without a weed; and neither tree nor creeper was allowed to grow over the long,
many-windowed front; at both sides of which a wing protected, which were each
the ends of other side fronts; for the house, although it was so desolate, was
even grander than I expected. Behind it rose the Fells; which seemed unenclosed
and bare enough; and on the left hand of the house, as you stood facing it, was
a little, old-fashioned flower-garden, as I found out afterwards. A door opened
out upon it from the west front; it had been scooped out of the thick, dark
wood for some old Lady Furnivall; but the branches of the great forest-trees
had grown and overshadowed it again, and there were very few flowers that would
live there at that time.
When we drove up to the
great front entrance, and went into the hall, I thought we would be lost—it was
so large, and vast and grand. There was a chandelier all of bronze, hung down
from the middle of the ceiling; and I had never seen one before, and looked at
it all in amaze. Then, at one end of the hall, was a great fire-place, as large
as the sides of the houses in my country, with massy andirons and dogs to hold
the wood; and by it were heavy, old-fashioned sofas. At the opposite end of the
hall, to the left as you went in—on the western side—was an organ built into
the wall, and so large that it filled up the best part of that end. Beyond it,
on the same side, was a door; and opposite, on each side of the fire-place,
were also doors leading to the east front; but those I never went through as
long as I stayed in the house, so I can't tell you what lay beyond.
The afternoon was closing
in, and the hall, which had no fire lighted in it, looked dark and gloomy, but
we did not stay there a moment. The old servant, who had opened the door for
us, bowed to Mr. Henry, and took us in through the door at the further side of
the great organ, and led us through several smaller halls and passages into the
west drawing-room, where he said that Miss Furnivall was sitting. Poor little
Miss Rosamond held very tight to me, as if she were scared and lost in that
great place; and as for myself, I was not much better. The west drawing-room
was very cheerful-looking, with a warm fire in it, and plenty of good,
comfortable furniture about. Miss Furnivall was an old lady not far from
eighty, I should think, but I do not know. She was thin and tall, and had a
face as full of fine wrinkles as if they had been drawn all over it with a
needle's point. Her eyes were very watchful, to make up, I suppose, for her
being so deaf as to be obliged to use a trumpet. Sitting with her, working at
the same great piece of tapestry, was Mrs. Stark, her maid and companion, and
almost as old as she was. She had lived with Miss Furnivall ever since they
both were young, and now she seemed more like a friend than a servant; she
looked so cold, and grey, and stony, as if she had never loved or cared for any
one; and I don't suppose she did care for any one, except her mistress; and,
owing to the great deafness of the latter, Mrs. Stark treated her very much as
if she were a child. Mr. Henry gave some message from my lord, and then he
bowed good-by to us all,—taking no notice of my sweet little Miss Rosamond's
outstretched hand—and left us standing there, being looked at by the two old
ladies through their spectacles.
I was right glad when they
rung for the old footman who had shown us in at first, and told him to take us
to our rooms. So we went out of that great drawing-room and into another
sitting-room, and out of that, and then up a great flight of stairs, and along
a broad gallery—which was something like a library, having books all down one
side, and windows and writing-tables all down the other—till we came to our
rooms, which I was not sorry to hear were just over the kitchens; for I began
to think I should be lost in that wilderness of a house. There was an old
nursery, that had been used for all the little lords and ladies long ago, with
a pleasant fire burning in the grate, and the kettle boiling on the hob, and
tea-things spread out on the table; and out of that room was the night-nursery,
with a little crib for Miss Rosamond close to my bed. And old James called up
Dorothy, his wife, to bid us welcome; and both he and she were so hospitable
and kind, that by-and-by Miss Rosamond and me felt quite at home; and by the
time tea was over, she was sitting on Dorothy's knee, and chattering away as
fast as her little tongue could go. I soon found out that Dorothy was from
Westmoreland, and that bound her and me together, as it were; and I would never
wish to meet with kinder people than were old James and his wife. James had
lived pretty nearly all his life in my lord's family, and thought there was no
one so grand as they. He even looked down a little on his wife; because, till
he had married her, she had never lived in any but a farmer's household. But he
was very fond of her, as well he might be. They had one servant under them, to
do all the rough work. Agnes they called her; and she and me, and James and
Dorothy, with Miss Furnivall and Mrs. Stark, made up the family; always
remembering my sweet little Miss Rosamond! I used to wonder what they had done
before she came, they thought so much of her now. Kitchen and drawing-room, it
was all the same. The hard, sad Miss Furnivall, and the cold Mrs. Stark, looked
pleased when she came fluttering in like a bird, playing and pranking hither
and thither, with a continual murmur, and pretty prattle of gladness. I am
sure, they were sorry many a time when she flitted away into the kitchen,
though they were too proud to ask her to stay with them, and were a little
surprised at her taste; though to be sure, as Mrs. Stark said, it was not to be
wondered at, remembering what stock her father had come of. The great, old
rambling house was a famous place for little Miss Rosamond. She made
expeditions all over it, with me at her heels; all, except the east wing, which
was never opened, and whither we never thought of going. But in the western and
northern part was many a pleasant room; full of things that were curiosities to
us, though they might not have been to people who had seen more. The windows
were darkened by the sweeping boughs of the trees, and the ivy which had
overgrown them; but, in the green gloom, we could manage to see old china jars
and carved ivory boxes, and great heavy books, and, above all, the old
pictures!
Once, I remember, my darling
would have Dorothy go with us to tell us who they all were; for they were all
portraits of some of my lord's family, though Dorothy could not tell us the
names of every one. We had gone through most of the rooms, when we came to the
old state drawing-room over the hall, and there was a picture of Miss Furnivall;
or, as she was called in those days, Miss Grace, for she was the younger
sister. Such a beauty she must have been! but with such a set, proud look, and
such scorn looking out of her handsome eyes, with her eyebrows just a little
raised, as if she wondered how anyone could have the impertinence to look at
her, and her lip curled at us, as we stood there gazing. She had a dress on,
the like of which I had never seen before, but it was all the fashion when she
was young; a hat of some soft white stuff like beaver, pulled a little over her
brows, and a beautiful plume of feathers sweeping round it on one side; and her
gown of blue satin was open in front to a quilted white stomacher.
'Well, to be sure!' said I,
when I had gazed my fill. 'Flesh is grass, they do say; but who would have
thought that Miss Furnivall had been such an out-and-out beauty, to see her
now.'
'Yes,' said Dorothy. 'Folks
change sadly. But if what my master's father used to say was true, Miss
Furnivall, the elder sister, was handsomer than Miss Grace. Her picture is here
somewhere; but, if I show it you, you must never let on, even to James, that
you have seen it. Can the little lady hold her tongue, think you?' asked she.
I was not so sure, for she
was such a little sweet, bold, open-spoken child, so I set her to hide herself;
and then I helped Dorothy to turn a great picture, that leaned with its face
towards the wall, and was not hung up as the others were. To be sure, it beat
Miss Grace for beauty; and, I think, for scornful pride, too, though in that
matter it might be hard to choose. I could have looked at it an hour, but
Dorothy seemed half frightened at having shown it to me, and hurried it back
again, and bade me run and find Miss Rosamond, for that there were some ugly
places about the house, where she should like ill for the child to go. I was a
brave, high-spirited girl, and thought little of what the old woman said, for I
liked hide-and-seek as well as any child in the parish; so off I ran to find my
little one.
As winter drew on, and the
days grew shorter, I was sometimes almost certain that I heard a noise as if
someone was playing on the great organ in the hall. I did not hear it every
evening; but, certainly, I did very often, usually when I was sitting with Miss
Rosamond, after I had put her to bed, and keeping quite still and silent in the
bedroom. Then I used to hear it booming and swelling away in the distance. The
first night, when I went down to my supper, I asked Dorothy who had been
playing music, and James said very shortly that I was a gowk to take the wind
soughing among the trees for music; but I saw Dorothy look at him very
fearfully, and Bessy, the kitchen-maid, said something beneath her breath, and
went quite white. I saw they did not like my question, so I held my peace till
I was with Dorothy alone, when I knew I could get a good deal out of her. So,
the next day, I watched my time, and I coaxed and asked her who it was that
played the organ; for I knew that it was the organ and not the wind well
enough, for all I had kept silence before James. But Dorothy had had her
lesson, I'll warrant, and never a word could I get from her. So then I tried
Bessy, though I had always held my head rather above her, as I was evened to
James and Dorothy, and she was little better than their servant. So she said I
must never, never tell; and if ever I told, I was never to say she had
told me; but it was a very strange noise, and she had heard it many a time, but
most of all on winter nights, and before storms; and folks did say it was the
old lord playing on the great organ in the hall, just as he used to do when he
was alive; but who the old lord was, or why he played, and why he played on
stormy winter evenings in particular, she either could not or would not tell
me. Well! I told you I had a brave heart; and I thought it was rather pleasant
to have that grand music rolling about the house, let who would be the player;
for now it rose above the great gusts of wind, and wailed and triumphed just
like a living creature, and then it fell to a softness most complete, only it
was always music, and tunes, so it was nonsense to call it the wind. I thought
at first, that it might be Miss Furnivall who played, unknown to Bessy; but one
day, when I was in the hall by myself, I opened the organ and peeped all about
it and around it, as I had done to the organ in Crosthwaite church once before,
and I saw it was all broken and destroyed inside, though it looked so brave and
fine; and then, though it was noon-day, my flesh began to creep a little, and I
shut it up, and run away pretty quickly to my own bright nursery; and I did not
like hearing the music for some time after that, any more than James and
Dorothy did. All this time Miss Rosamond was making herself more and more
beloved. The old ladies liked her to dine with them at their early dinner.
James stood behind Miss Furnivall's chair, and I behind Miss Rosamond's all in
state; and after dinner, she would play about in a corner of the great
drawing-room as still as any mouse, while Miss Furnivall slept, and I had my
dinner in the kitchen. But she was glad enough to come to me in the nursery
afterwards; for, as she said, Miss Furnivall was so sad, and Mrs. Stark so
dull; but she and I were merry enough; and by-and-by, I got not to care for
that weird rolling music, which did one no harm, if we did not know where it
came from.
That winter was very cold.
In the middle of October the frosts began, and lasted many, many weeks. I
remember one day, at dinner, Miss Furnivall lifted up her sad, heavy eyes, and
said to Mrs. Stark, 'I am afraid we shall have a terrible winter,' in a strange
kind of meaning way. But Mrs. Stark pretended not to hear, and talked very loud
of something else. My little lady and I did not care for the frost; not we! As
long as it was dry, we climbed up the steep brows behind the house, and went up
on the Fells, which were bleak and bare enough, and there we ran races in the
fresh, sharp air; and once we came down by a new path, that took us past the
two old gnarled holly-trees, which grew about half-way down by the east side of
the house. But the days grew shorter and shorter, and the old lord, if it was
he, played away, more and more stormily and sadly, on the great organ. One
Sunday afternoon—it must have been towards the end of November—I asked Dorothy
to take charge of little missy when she came out of the drawing-room, after
Miss Furnivall had had her nap; for it was too cold to take her with me to
church, and yet I wanted to go. And Dorothy was glad enough to promise, and was
so fond of the child, that all seemed well; and Bessy and I set off very
briskly, though the sky hung heavy and black over the white earth, as if the
night had never fully gone away, and the air, though still, was very biting and
keen.
'We shall have a fall of
snow,' said Bessy to me. And sure enough, even while we were in church, it came
down thick, in great large flakes,—so thick, it almost darkened the windows. It
had stopped snowing before we came out, but it lay soft, thick and deep beneath
our feet, as we tramped home. Before we got to the hall, the moon rose, and I
think it was lighter then—what with the moon, and what with the white dazzling
snow—than it had been when we went to church, between two and three o'clock. I
have not told you that Miss Furnivall and Mrs. Stark never went to church; they
used to read the prayers together, in their quiet, gloomy way; they seemed to
feel the Sunday very long without their tapestry-work to be busy at. So when I
went to Dorothy in the kitchen, to fetch Miss Rosamond and take her upstairs
with me, I did not much wonder when the old woman told me that the ladies had
kept the child with them, and that she had never come to the kitchen, as I had
bidden her, when she was tired of behaving pretty in the drawing-room. So I took
off my things and went to find her, and bring her to her supper in the nursery.
But when I went into the best drawing-room, there sat the two old ladies, very
still and quiet, dropping out a word now and then, but looking as if nothing so
bright and merry as Miss Rosamond had ever been near them. Still I thought she
might be hiding from me; it was one of her pretty ways,—and that she had
persuaded them to look as if they knew nothing about her; so I went softly
peeping under this sofa, and behind that chair, making believe I was sadly
frightened at not finding her.
'What's the matter, Hester?'
said Mrs. Stark, sharply. I don't know if Miss Furnivall had seen me, for, as I
told you, she was very deaf, and she sat quite still, idly staring into the
fire, with her hopeless face. 'I'm only looking for my little Rosy Posy,'
replied I, still thinking that the child was there, and near me, though I could
not see her.
'Miss Rosamond is not here,'
said Mrs. Stark. 'She went away, more than an hour ago, to find Dorothy.' And
she, too, turned and went on looking into the fire.
My heart sank at this, and I
began to wish I had never left my darling. I went back to Dorothy and told her.
James was gone out for the day, but she, and me, and Bessy took lights, and
went up into the nursery first; and then we roamed over the great, large house,
calling and entreating Miss Rosamond to come out of her hiding-place, and not
frighten us to death in that way. But there was no answer; no sound.
'Oh!' said I, at last, 'can
she have got into the east wing and hidden there?'
But Dorothy said it was not
possible, for that she herself had never been in there; that the doors were
always locked, and my lord's steward had the keys, she believed; at any rate,
neither she nor James had ever seen them: so I said I would go back, and see
if, after all, she was not hidden in the drawing-room, unknown to the old
ladies; and if I found her there, I said, I would whip her well for the fright
she had given me; but I never meant to do it. Well, I went back to the west
drawing-room, and I told Mrs. Stark we could not find her anywhere, and asked
for leave to look all about the furniture there, for I thought now that she
might have fallen asleep in some warm, hidden corner; but no! we looked—Miss
Furnivall got up and looked, trembling all over—and she was nowhere there; then
we set off again, every one in the house, and looked in all the places we had
searched before, but we could not find her. Miss Furnivall shivered and shook
so much, that Mrs. Stark took her back into the warm drawing-room; but not
before they had made me promise to bring her to them when she was found.
Well-a-day! I began to think she never would be found, when I bethought me to
look into the great front court, all covered with snow. I was upstairs when I
looked out; but, it was such clear moonlight, I could see, quite plain, two
little footprints, which might be traced from the hall-door and round the
corner of the east wing. I don't know how I got down, but I tugged open the
great stiff hall-door, and, throwing the skirt of my gown over my head for a
cloak, I ran out. I turned the east corner, and there a black shadow fell on
the snow; but when I came again into the moonlight, there were the little
foot-marks going up—up to the Fells. It was bitter cold; so cold, that the air
almost took the skin off my face as I ran; but I ran on crying to think how my
poor little darling must be perished and frightened. I was within sight of the
holly-trees, when I saw a shepherd coming down the hill, bearing something in
his arms wrapped in his maud. He shouted to me, and asked me if I had lost a
bairn; and, when I could not speak for crying, he bore towards me, and I saw my
wee bairnie, lying still, and white, and stiff in his arms, as if she had been
dead. He told me he had been up the Fells to gather in his sheep, before the
deep cold of night came on, and that under the holly-trees (black marks on the
hill-side, where no other bush was for miles around) he had found my little
lady—my lamb—my queen—my darling—stiff and cold in the terrible sleep which is
frost-begotten. Oh! the joy and the tears of having her in my arms once again!
for I would not let him carry her; but took her, maud and all, into my own
arms, and held her near my own warm neck and heart, and felt the life stealing
slowly back again into her little gentle limbs. But she was still insensible
when we reached the hall, and I had no breath for speech. We went in by the
kitchen-door.
'Bring me the warming-pan,'
said I; and I carried her upstairs and began undressing her by the nursery
fire, which Bessy had kept up. I called my little lammie all the sweet and
playful names I could think of,—even while my eyes were blinded by my tears;
and at last, oh! at length she opened her large blue eyes. Then I put her into
her warm bed, and sent Dorothy down to tell Miss Furnivall that all was well;
and I made up my mind to sit by my darling's bedside the live-long night. She
fell away into a soft sleep as soon as her pretty head had touched the pillow,
and I watched by her till morning light; when she wakened up bright and
clear—or so I thought at first—and, my dears, so I think now.
She said, that she had
fancied that she should like to go to Dorothy, for that both the old ladies
were asleep, and it was very dull in the drawing-room; and that, as she was
going through the west lobby, she saw the snow through the high window
falling—falling—soft and steady; but she wanted to see it lying pretty and
white on the ground; so she made her way into the great hall; and then, going
to the window, she saw it bright and soft upon the drive; but while she stood
there, she saw a little girl, not so old as she was, 'but so pretty,' said my
darling, 'and this little girl beckoned to me to come out; and oh, she was so
pretty and so sweet, I could not choose but go.' And then this other little
girl had taken her by the hand, and side by side the two had gone round the
east corner.
'Now you are a naughty
little girl, and telling stories,' said I. 'What would your good mamma, that is
in heaven, and never told a story in her life, say to her little Rosamond, if
she heard her—and I daresay she does—telling stories!'
'Indeed, Hester,' sobbed out
my child, 'I'm telling you true. Indeed I am.'
'Don't tell me!' said I,
very stern. 'I tracked you by your foot-marks through the snow; there were only
yours to be seen: and if you had had a little girl to go hand-in-hand with you
up the hill, don't you think the footprints would have gone along with yours?'
'I can't help it, dear, dear
Hester,' said she, crying, 'if they did not; I never looked at her feet, but
she held my hand fast and tight in her little one, and it was very, very cold.
She took me up the Fell-path, up to the holly-trees; and there I saw a lady
weeping and crying; but when she saw me, she hushed her weeping, and smiled
very proud and grand, and took me on her knee, and began to lull me to sleep;
and that's all, Hester—but that is true; and my dear mamma knows it is,' said
she, crying. So I thought the child was in a fever, and pretended to believe
her, as she went over her story—over and over again, and always the same. At
last Dorothy knocked at the door with Miss Rosamond's breakfast; and she told
me the old ladies were down in the eating parlour, and that they wanted to
speak to me. They had both been into the night-nursery the evening before, but
it was after Miss Rosamond was asleep; so they had only looked at her—not asked
me any questions.
'I shall catch it,' thought
I to myself, as I went along the north gallery. 'And yet,' I thought, taking
courage, 'it was in their charge I left her; and it's they that's to blame for
letting her steal away unknown and unwatched.' So I went in boldly, and told my
story. I told it all to Miss Furnivall, shouting it close to her ear; but when
I came to the mention of the other little girl out in the snow, coaxing and
tempting her out, and willing her up to the grand and beautiful lady by the
holly-tree, she threw her arms up—her old and withered arms—and cried aloud,
'Oh! Heaven forgive! Have mercy!'
Mrs. Stark took hold of her;
roughly enough, I thought; but she was past Mrs. Stark's management, and spoke
to me, in a kind of wild warning and authority.
'Hester! keep her from that
child! It will lure her to her death! That evil child! Tell her it is a wicked,
naughty child.' Then, Mrs. Stark hurried me out of the room; where, indeed, I
was glad enough to go; but Miss Furnivall kept shrieking out, 'Oh, have mercy!
Wilt Thou never forgive! It is many a long year ago——'
I was very uneasy in my mind
after that. I durst never leave Miss Rosamond, night or day, for fear lest she
might slip off again, after some fancy or other; and all the more, because I
thought I could make out that Miss Furnivall was crazy, from their odd ways
about her; and I was afraid lest something of the same kind (which might be in
the family, you know) hung over my darling. And the great frost never ceased
all this time; and, whenever it was a more stormy night than usual, between the
gusts, and through the wind, we heard the old lord playing on the great organ.
But, old lord, or not, wherever Miss Rosamond went, there I followed; for my
love for her, pretty, helpless orphan, was stronger than my fear for the grand
and terrible sound. Besides, it rested with me to keep her cheerful and merry,
as beseemed her age. So we played together, and wandered together, here and
there, and everywhere; for I never dared to lose sight of her again in that
large and rambling house. And so it happened, that one afternoon, not long before
Christmas-day, we were playing together on the billiard-table in the great hall
(not that we knew the right way of playing, but she liked to roll the smooth
ivory balls with her pretty hands, and I liked to do whatever she did); and,
by-and-by, without our noticing it, it grew dusk indoors, though it was still
light in the open air, and I was thinking of taking her back into the nursery,
when, all of a sudden, she cried out,
'Look, Hester! look! there
is my poor little girl out in the snow!'
I turned towards the long
narrow windows, and there, sure enough, I saw a little girl, less than my Miss
Rosamond—dressed all unfit to be out-of-doors such a bitter night—crying, and
beating against the window-panes, as if she wanted to be let in. She seemed to
sob and wail, till Miss Rosamond could bear it no longer, and was flying to the
door to open it, when, all of a sudden, and close upon us, the great organ
pealed out so loud and thundering, it fairly made me tremble; and all the more,
when I remembered me that, even in the stillness of that dead-cold weather, I
had heard no sound of little battering hands upon the windowglass, although the
phantom child had seemed to put forth all its force; and, although I had seen
it wail and cry, no faintest touch of sound had fallen upon my ears. Whether I
remembered all this at the very moment, I do not know; the great organ sound
had so stunned me into terror; but this I know, I caught up Miss Rosamond
before she got the hall-door opened, and clutched her, and carried her away,
kicking and screaming, into the large, bright kitchen, where Dorothy and Agnes
were busy with their mince-pies.
'What is the matter with my
sweet one?' cried Dorothy, as I bore in Miss Rosamond, who was sobbing as if
her heart would break.
'She won't let me open the
door for my little girl to come in; and she'll die if she is out on the Fells
all night. Cruel, naughty Hester,' she said, slapping me; but she might have
struck harder, for I had seen a look of ghastly terror on Dorothy's face, which
made my very blood run cold.
'Shut the back-kitchen door
fast, and bolt it well,' said she to Agnes. She said no more; she gave me
raisins and almonds to quiet Miss Rosamond; but she sobbed about the little
girl in the snow, and would not touch any of the good things. I was thankful
when she cried herself to sleep in bed. Then I stole down to the kitchen, and
told Dorothy I had made up my mind. I would carry my darling back to my
father's house in Applethwaite; where, if we lived humbly, we lived at peace. I
said I had been frightened enough with the old lord's organ-playing; but now
that I had seen for myself this little moaning child, all decked out as no
child in the neighbourhood could be, beating and battering to get in, yet
always without any sound or noise—with the dark wound on its right shoulder;
and that Miss Rosamond had known it again for the phantom that had nearly lured
her to her death (which Dorothy knew was true); I would stand it no longer.
I saw Dorothy change colour
once or twice. When I had done, she told me she did not think I could take Miss
Rosamond with me, for that she was my lord's ward, and I had no right over her;
and she asked me would I leave the child that I was so fond of just for sounds
and sights that could do me no harm; and that they had all had to get used to
in their turns? I was all in a hot, trembling passion; and I said it was very
well for her to talk; that knew what these sights and noises betokened, and
that had, perhaps, had something to do with the spectre child while it was
alive. And I taunted her so, that she told me all she knew at last; and then I
wished I had never been told, for it only made me more afraid than ever.
She said she had heard the
tale from old neighbours that were alive when she was first married; when folks
used to come to the hall sometimes, before it had got such a bad name on the
country side: it might not be true, or it might, what she had been told.
The old lord was Miss
Furnivall's father—Miss Grace, as Dorothy called her, for Miss Maude was the
elder, and Miss Furnivall by rights. The old lord was eaten up with pride. Such
a proud man was never seen or heard of; and his daughters were like him. No one
was good enough to wed them, although they had choice enough; for they were the
great beauties of their day, as I had seen by their portraits, where they hung
in the state drawing-room. But, as the old saying is, 'Pride will have a fall;'
and these two haughty beauties fell in love with the same man, and he no better
than a foreign musician, whom their father had down from London to play music
with him at the Manor House. For, above all things, next to his pride, the old
lord loved music. He could play on nearly every instrument that ever was heard
of, and it was a strange thing it did not soften him; but he was a fierce dour
old man, and had broken his poor wife's heart with his cruelty, they said. He
was mad after music, and would pay any money for it. So he got this foreigner
to come; who made such beautiful music, that they said the very birds on the
trees stopped their singing to listen. And, by degrees, this foreign gentleman
got such a hold over the old lord, that nothing would serve him but that he
must come every year; and it was he that had the great organ brought from
Holland, and built up in the hall, where it stood now. He taught the old lord
to play on it; but many and many a time, when Lord Furnivall was thinking of
nothing but his fine organ, and his finer music, the dark foreigner was walking
abroad in the woods with one of the young ladies; now Miss Maude, and then Miss
Grace.
Miss Maude won the day and
carried off the prize, such as it was; and he and she were married, all unknown
to any one; and before he made his next yearly visit, she had been confined of
a little girl at a farm-house on the Moors, while her father and Miss Grace
thought she was away at Doncaster Races. But though she was a wife and a
mother, she was not a bit softened, but as haughty and as passionate as ever;
and perhaps more so, for she was jealous of Miss Grace, to whom her foreign
husband paid a deal of court—by way of blinding her—as he told his wife. But
Miss Grace triumphed over Miss Maude, and Miss Maude grew fiercer and fiercer,
both with her husband and with her sister; and the former—who could easily shake
off what was disagreeable, and hide himself in foreign countries—went away a
month before his usual time that summer, and half-threatened that he would
never come back again. Meanwhile, the little girl was left at the farm-house,
and her mother used to have her horse saddled and gallop wildly over the hills
to see her once every week, at the very least; for where she loved she loved,
and where she hated she hated. And the old lord went on playing—playing on his
organ; and the servants thought the sweet music he made had soothed down his
awful temper, of which (Dorothy said) some terrible tales could be told. He
grew infirm too, and had to walk with a crutch; and his son—that was the
present Lord Furnivall's father—was with the army in America, and the other son
at sea; so Miss Maude had it pretty much her own way, and she and Miss Grace
grew colder and bitterer to each other every day; till at last they hardly ever
spoke, except when the old lord was by. The foreign musician came again the
next summer, but it was for the last time; for they led him such a life with
their jealousy and their passions, that he grew weary, and went away, and never
was heard of again. And Miss Maude, who had always meant to have her marriage
acknowledged when her father should be dead, was left now a deserted wife, whom
nobody knew to have been married, with a child that she dared not own, although
she loved it to distraction; living with a father whom she feared, and a sister
whom she hated. When the next summer passed over, and the dark foreigner never
came, both Miss Maude and Miss Grace grew gloomy and sad; they had a haggard
look about them, though they looked handsome as ever. But, by-and-by, Maude
brightened; for her father grew more and more infirm, and more than ever carried
away by his music; and she and Miss Grace lived almost entirely apart, having
separate rooms, the one on the west side, Miss Maude on the east—those very
rooms which were now shut up. So she thought she might have her little girl
with her, and no one need ever know except those who dared not speak about it,
and were bound to believe that it was, as she said, a cottager's child she had
taken a fancy to. All this, Dorothy said, was pretty well known; but what came
afterwards no one knew, except Miss Grace and Mrs. Stark, who was even then her
maid, and much more of a friend to her than ever her sister had been. But the
servants supposed, from words that were dropped, that Miss Maude had triumphed
over Miss Grace, and told her that all the time the dark foreigner had been
mocking her with pretended love—he was her own husband. The colour left Miss
Grace's cheek and lips that very day for ever, and she was heard to say many a
time that sooner or later she would have her revenge; and Mrs. Stark was for
ever spying about the east rooms.
One fearful night, just
after the New Year had come in, when the snow was lying thick and deep; and the
flakes were still falling—fast enough to blind any one who might be out and
abroad—there was a great and violent noise heard, and the old lord's voice
above all, cursing and swearing awfully, and the cries of a little child, and
the proud defiance of a fierce woman, and the sound of a blow, and a dead
stillness, and moans and wailings dying away on the hill-side! Then the old lord
summoned all his servants, and told them, with terrible oaths, and words more
terrible, that his daughter had disgraced herself, and that he had turned her
out of doors—her, and her child—and that if ever they gave her help, or food,
or shelter, he prayed that they might never enter heaven. And, all the while,
Miss Grace stood by him, white and still as any stone; and, when he had ended,
she heaved a great sigh, as much as to say her work was done, and her end was
accomplished. But the old lord never touched his organ again, and died within
the year; and no wonder! for, on the morrow of that wild and fearful night, the
shepherds, coming down the Fell side, found Miss Maude sitting, all crazy and
smiling, under the holly-trees, nursing a dead child, with a terrible mark on
its right shoulder. 'But that was not what killed it,' said Dorothy: 'it was
the frost and the cold. Every wild creature was in its hole, and every beast in
its fold, while the child and its mother were turned out to wander on the Fells!
And now you know all! and I wonder if you are less frightened now?'
I was more frightened than
ever; but I said I was not. I wished Miss Rosamond and myself well out of that
dreadful house for ever; but I would not leave her, and I dared not take her
away. But oh, how I watched her, and guarded her! We bolted the doors, and shut
the window-shutters fast, an hour or more before dark, rather than leave them
open five minutes too late. But my little lady still heard the weird child
crying and mourning; and not all we could do or say could keep her from wanting
to go to her, and let her in from the cruel wind and the snow. All this time I
kept away from Miss Furnivall and Mrs. Stark, as much as ever I could; for I
feared them—I knew no good could be about them, with their grey, hard faces,
and their dreamy eyes, looking back into the ghastly years that were gone. But,
even in my fear, I had a kind of pity for Miss Furnivall, at least. Those gone
down to the pit can hardly have a more hopeless look than that which was ever
on her face. At last I even got so sorry for her—who never said a word but what
was quite forced from her—that I prayed for her; and I taught Miss Rosamond to
pray for one who had done a deadly sin; but often when she came to those words,
she would listen, and start up from her knees, and say, 'I hear my little girl
plaining and crying very sad—oh, let her in, or she will die!'
One night—just after New
Year's Day had come at last, and the long winter had taken a turn, as I hoped—I
heard the west drawing-room bell ring three times, which was the signal for me.
I would not leave Miss Rosamond alone, for all she was asleep—for the old lord
had been playing wilder than ever—and I feared lest my darling should waken to
hear the spectre child; see her, I knew she could not. I had fastened the
windows too well for that. So I took her out of her bed, and wrapped her up in
such outer clothes as were most handy, and carried her down to the
drawing-room, where the old ladies sat at their tapestry-work as usual. They
looked up when I came in, and Mrs. Stark asked, quite astounded, 'Why did I
bring Miss Rosamond there, out of her warm bed?' I had begun to whisper,
'Because I was afraid of her being tempted out while I was away, by the wild
child in the snow,' when she stopped me short (with a glance at Miss
Furnivall), and said Miss Furnivall wanted me to undo some work she had done
wrong, and which neither of them could see to unpick. So I laid my pretty dear
on the sofa, and sat down on a stool by them, and hardened my heart against
them, as I heard the wind rising and howling.
Miss Rosamond slept on
sound, for all the wind blew so Miss Furnivall said never a word, nor looked
round when the gusts shook the windows. All at once she started up to her full
height, and put up one hand, as if to bid us to listen.
'I hear voices!' said she.
'I hear terrible screams—I hear my father's voice!'
Just at that moment my
darling wakened with a sudden start: 'My little girl is crying, oh, how she is
crying!' and she tried to get up and go to her, but she got her feet entangled
in the blanket, and I caught her up; for my flesh had begun to creep at these
noises, which they heard while we could catch no sound. In a minute or two the
noises came, and gathered fast, and filled our ears; we, too, heard voices and
screams, and no longer heard the winter's wind that raged abroad. Mrs. Stark
looked at me, and I at her, but we dared not speak. Suddenly Miss Furnivall
went towards the door, out into the ante-room, through the west lobby, and
opened the door into the great hall. Mrs. Stark followed, and I durst not be
left, though my heart almost stopped beating for fear. I wrapped my darling
tight in my arms, and went out with them. In the hall the screams were louder
than ever; they seemed to come from the east wing—nearer and nearer—close on
the other side of the locked-up doors—close behind them. Then I noticed that
the great bronze chandelier seemed all alight, though the hall was dim, and
that a fire was blazing in the vast hearth-place, though it gave no heat; and I
shuddered up with terror, and folded my darling closer to me. But as I did so
the east door shook, and she, suddenly struggling to get free from me, cried,
'Hester! I must go. My little girl is there! I hear her; she is coming! Hester,
I must go!'
I held her tight with all my
strength; with a set will, I held her. If I had died, my hands would have
grasped her still, I was so resolved in my mind. Miss Furnivall stood
listening, and paid no regard to my darling, who had got down to the ground,
and whom I, upon my knees now, was holding with both my arms clasped round her
neck; she still striving and crying to get free.
All at once, the east door
gave way with a thundering crash, as if torn open in a violent passion, and
there came into that broad and mysterious light, the figure of a tall old man,
with grey hair and gleaming eyes. He drove before him, with many a relentless
gesture of abhorrence, a stern and beautiful woman, with a little child
clinging to her dress.
'Oh, Hester! Hester!' cried
Miss Rosamond; 'it's the lady! the lady below the holly-trees; and my little
girl is with her. Hester! Hester! let me go to her; they are drawing me to
them. I feel them—I feel them. I must go!'
Again she was almost
convulsed by her efforts to get away; but I held her tighter and tighter, till
I feared I should do her a hurt; but rather that than let her go towards those
terrible phantoms. They passed along towards the great hall-door, where the
winds howled and ravened for their prey; but before they reached that, the lady
turned; and I could see that she defied the old man with a fierce and proud
defiance; but then she quailed—and then she threw up her arms wildly and
piteously to save her child—her little child—from a blow from his uplifted
crutch.
And Miss Rosamond was torn
as by a power stronger than mine and writhed in my arms, and sobbed (for by
this time the poor darling was growing faint).
'They want me to go with
them on to the Fells—they are drawing me to them. Oh, my little girl! I would
come, but cruel, wicked Hester holds me very tight.' But when she saw the
uplifted crutch, she swooned away, and I thanked God for it. Just at this
moment—when the tall old man, his hair streaming as in the blast of a furnace,
was going to strike the little shrinking child—Miss Furnivall, the old woman by
my side, cried out, 'Oh father! father! spare the little innocent child!' But
just then I saw—we all saw—another phantom shape itself, and grow clear out of
the blue and misty light that filled the hall; we had not seen her till now,
for it was another lady who stood by the old man, with a look of relentless
hate and triumphant scorn. That figure was very beautiful to look upon, with a
soft, white hat drawn down over the proud brows, and a red and curling lip. It
was dressed in an open robe of blue satin. I had seen that figure before. It
was the likeness of Miss Furnivall in her youth; and the terrible phantoms
moved on, regardless of old Miss Furnivall's wild entreaty,—and the uplifted
crutch fell on the right shoulder of the little child, and the younger sister
looked on, stony, and deadly serene. But at that moment, the dim lights, and
the fire that gave no heat, went out of themselves, and Miss Furnivall lay at
our feet stricken down by the palsy—death-stricken.
Yes! she was carried to her
bed that night never to rise again. She lay with her face to the wall,
muttering low, but muttering always: 'Alas! alas! what is done in youth can
never be undone in age! What is done in youth can never be undone in age!'
2.THE POOR CLARE
Chapter 1
December 12th, 1747.—My life
has been strangely bound up with extraordinary incidents, some of which
occurred before I had any connection with the principal actors in them, or,
indeed, before I even knew of their existence. I suppose, most old men are,
like me, more given to looking back upon their own career with a kind of fond
interest and affectionate remembrance, than to watching the events—though these
may have far more interest for the multitude—immediately passing before their
eyes. If this should be the case with the generality of old people, how much
more so with me!... If I am to enter upon that strange story connected with
poor Lucy, I must begin a long way back. I myself only came to the knowledge of
her family history after I knew her; but, to make the tale clear to any one
else, I must arrange events in the order in which they occurred—not that in
which I became acquainted with them.
There is a great old hall in
the north-east of Lancashire, in a part they call the Trough of Bolland,
adjoining that other district named Craven. Starkey Manor-House is rather like
a number of rooms clustered round a grey, massive, old keep than a
regularly-built hall. Indeed, I suppose that the house only consisted of the
great tower in the centre, in the days when the Scots made their raids terrible
as far south as this; and that after the Stuarts came in, and there was a
little more security of property in those parts, the Starkeys of that time
added the lower building, which runs, two stories high, all round the base of
the keep. There has been a grand garden laid out in my days, on the southern
slope near the house; but when I first knew the place, the kitchen-garden at
the farm was the only piece of cultivated ground belonging to it. The deer used
to come within sight of the drawing-room windows, and might have browsed quite
close up to the house if they had not been too wild and shy. Starkey
Manor-House itself stood on a projection or peninsula of high land, jutting out
from the abrupt hills that form the sides of the Trough of Bolland. These hills
were rocky and bleak enough towards their summit; lower down they were clothed
with tangled copsewood and green depths of fern, out of which a grey giant of
an ancient forest-tree would tower here and there, throwing up its ghastly
white branches, as if in imprecation, to the sky. These trees, they told me,
were the remnants of that forest which existed in the days of the Heptarchy,
and were even then noted as landmarks. No wonder that their upper and more
exposed branches were leafless, and that the dead bark had peeled away, from
sapless old age.
Not far from the house there
were a few cottages, apparently of the same date as the keep, probably built
for some retainers of the family, who sought shelter—they and their families
and their small flocks and herds—at the hands of their feudal lord. Some of
them had pretty much fallen to decay. They were built in a strange fashion.
Strong beams had been sunk firm in the ground at the requisite distance, and
their other ends had been fastened together, two and two, so as to form the
shape of one of those rounded waggon-headed gipsy-tents, only very much larger.
The spaces between were filled with mud, stones, osiers, rubbish, mortar—anything
to keep out the weather. The fires were made in the centre of these rude
dwellings, a hole in the roof forming the only chimney. No Highland hut or
Irish cabin could be of rougher construction.
The owner of this property,
at the beginning of the present century, was a Mr. Patrick Byrne Starkey. His
family had kept to the old faith, and were staunch Roman Catholics, esteeming
it even a sin to marry any one of Protestant descent, however willing he or she
might have been to embrace the Romish religion. Mr. Patrick Starkey's father
had been a follower of James the Second; and, during the disastrous Irish
campaign of that monarch, he had fallen in love with an Irish beauty, a Miss
Byrne, as zealous for her religion and for the Stuarts as himself. He had returned
to Ireland after his escape to France, and married her, bearing her back to the
court at St. Germains. But some licence on the part of the disorderly gentlemen
who surrounded King James in his exile, had insulted his beautiful wife, and
disgusted him; so he removed from St. Germains to Antwerp, whence, in a few
years' time, he quietly returned to Starkey Manor-House—some of his Lancashire
neighbours having lent their good offices to reconcile him to the powers that
were. He was as firm a Roman Catholic as ever, and as staunch an advocate for
the Stuarts and the divine right of kings; but his religion almost amounted to
asceticism, and the conduct of those with whom he had been brought in such
close contact at St. Germains would little bear the inspection of a stern
moralist. So he gave his allegiance where he could not give his esteem, and
learned to respect sincerely the upright and moral character of one whom he yet
regarded as an usurper. King William's government had little need to fear such
a one. So he returned, as I have said, with a sobered heart and impoverished
fortunes, to his ancestral house, which had fallen sadly to ruin while the
owner had been a courtier, a soldier, and an exile. The roads into the Trough
of Bolland were little more than cart-ruts; indeed, the way up to the house lay
along a ploughed field before you came to the deer-park. Madam, as the
country-folk used to call Mrs. Starkey, rode on a pillion behind her husband,
holding on to him with a light hand by his leather riding-belt. Little master
(he that was afterwards Squire Patrick Byrne Starkey) was held on to his pony
by a serving-man. A woman past middle age walked, with a firm and strong step,
by the cart that held much of the baggage; and, high up on the mails and boxes,
sat a girl of dazzling beauty, perched lightly on the topmost trunk, and
swaying herself fearlessly to and fro, as the cart rocked and shook in the
heavy roads of late autumn. The girl wore the Antwerp faille, or black Spanish
mantle over her head, and altogether her appearance was such that the old
cottager, who described the procession to me many years after, said that all
the country-folk took her for a foreigner. Some dogs, and the boy who held them
in charge, made up the company. They rode silently along, looking with grave,
serious eyes at the people, who came out of the scattered cottages to bow or
curtsy to the real Squire, 'come back at last,' and gazed after the little
procession with gaping wonder, not deadened by the sound of the foreign
language in which the few necessary words that passed among them were spoken.
One lad, called from his staring by the Squire to come and help about the cart,
accompanied them to the Manor-House. He said that when the lady had descended
from her pillion, the middle-aged woman whom I have described as walking while
the others rode, stepped quickly forward, and taking Madam Starkey (who was of
a slight and delicate figure) in her arms, she lifted her over the threshold,
and set her down in her husband's house, at the same time uttering a passionate
and outlandish blessing. The Squire stood by, smiling gravely at first; but
when the words of blessing were pronounced, he took off his fine feathered hat,
and bent his head. The girl with the black mantle stepped onward into the
shadow of the dark hall, and kissed the lady's hand; and that was all the lad
could tell to the group that gathered round him on his return, eager to hear
everything, and to know how much the Squire had given him for his services.
From all I could gather, the
Manor-House, at the time of the Squire's return, was in the most dilapidated
state. The stout grey walls remained firm and entire; but the inner chambers
had been used for all kinds of purposes. The great withdrawing-room had been a
barn; the state tapestry-chamber had held wool, and so on. But, by-and-by, they
were cleared out; and if the Squire had no money to spend on new furniture, he
and his wife had the knack of making the best of the old. He was no despicable
joiner; she had a kind of grace in whatever she did, and imparted an air of
elegant picturesqueness to whatever she touched. Besides, they had brought many
rare things from the Continent; perhaps I should rather say, things that were
rare in that part of England—carvings, and crosses, and beautiful pictures. And
then, again, wood was plentiful in the Trough of Bolland, and great log-fires
danced and glittered in all the dark, old rooms, and gave a look of home and
comfort to everything.
Why do I tell you all this?
I have little to do with the Squire and Madam Starkey; and yet I dwell upon
them, as if I were unwilling to come to the real people with whom my life was
so strangely mixed up. Madam had been nursed in Ireland by the very woman who
lifted her in her arms, and welcomed her to her husband's home in Lancashire.
Excepting for the short period of her own married life, Bridget Fitzgerald had
never left her nursling. Her marriage—to one above her in rank—had been
unhappy. Her husband had died, and left her in even greater poverty than that in
which she was when he had first met with her. She had one child, the beautiful
daughter who came riding on the waggon-load of furniture that was brought to
the Manor-House. Madam Starkey had taken her again into her service when she
became a widow. She and her daughter had followed 'the mistress' in all her
fortunes; they had lived at St. Germains and at Antwerp, and were now come to
her home in Lancashire. As soon as Bridget had arrived there, the Squire gave
her a cottage of her own, and took more pains in furnishing it for her than he
did in anything else out of his own house. It was only nominally her residence.
She was constantly up at the great house; indeed, it was but a short cut across
the woods from her own home to the home of her nursling. Her daughter Mary, in
like manner, moved from one house to the other at her own will. Madam loved
both mother and child dearly. They had great influence over her, and, through
her, over her husband. Whatever Bridget or Mary willed was sure to come to
pass. They were not disliked; for, though wild and passionate, they were also
generous by nature. But the other servants were afraid of them, as being in
secret the ruling spirits of the household. The Squire had lost his interest in
all secular things; Madam was gentle, affectionate, and yielding. Both husband
and wife were tenderly attached to each other and to their boy; but they grew
more and more to shun the trouble of decision on any point; and hence it was
that Bridget could exert such despotic power. But if every one else yielded to
her 'magic of a superior mind,' her daughter not unfrequently rebelled. She and
her mother were too much alike to agree. There were wild quarrels between them,
and wilder reconciliations. There were times when, in the heat of passion, they
could have stabbed each other. At all other times they both—Bridget
especially—would have willingly laid down their lives for one another.
Bridget's love for her child lay very deep—deeper than that daughter ever knew;
or I should think she would never have wearied of home as she did, and prayed
her mistress to obtain for her some situation—as waiting-maid—beyond the seas,
in that more cheerful continental life, among the scenes of which so many of
her happiest years had been spent. She thought, as youth thinks, that life
would last for ever, and that two or three years were but a small portion of it
to pass away from her mother, whose only child she was. Bridget thought
differently, but was too proud ever to show what she felt. If her child wished to
leave her, why—she should go. But people said Bridget became ten years older in
the course of two months at this time. She took it that Mary wanted to leave
her. The truth was, that Mary wanted for a time to leave the place, and to seek
some change, and would thankfully have taken her mother with her. Indeed, when
Madam Starkey had gotten her a situation with some grand lady abroad, and the
time drew near for her to go, it was Mary who clung to her mother with
passionate embrace, and, with floods of tears, declared that she would never
leave her; and it was Bridget, who at last loosened her arms, and, grave and
tearless herself, bade her keep her word, and go forth into the wide world.
Sobbing aloud, and looking back continually, Mary went away. Bridget was still
as death, scarcely drawing her breath, or closing her stony eyes; till at last
she turned back into her cottage, and heaved a ponderous old settle against the
door. There she sat, motionless, over the grey ashes of her extinguished fire,
deaf to Madam's sweet voice, as she begged leave to enter and comfort her
nurse. Deaf, stony, and motionless, she sat for more than twenty hours; till,
for the third time, Madam came across the snowy path from the great house,
carrying with her a young spaniel, which had been Mary's pet up at the hall,
and which had not ceased all night long to seek for its absent mistress, and to
whine and moan after her. With tears Madam told this story, through the closed
door—tears excited by the terrible look of anguish, so steady, so immovable—so
the same to-day as it was yesterday—on her nurse's face. The little creature in
her arms began to utter its piteous cry, as it shivered with the cold. Bridget
stirred; she moved—she listened. Again that long whine; she thought it was for
her daughter; and what she had denied to her nursling and mistress she granted
to the dumb creature that Mary had cherished. She opened the door, and took the
dog from Madam's arms. Then Madam came in, and kissed and comforted the old
woman, who took but little notice of her or anything. And sending up Master
Patrick to the hall for fire and food, the sweet young lady never left her
nurse all that night. Next day, the Squire himself came down, carrying a
beautiful foreign picture: Our Lady of the Holy Heart, the Papists call it. It
is a picture of the Virgin, her heart pierced with arrows, each arrow
representing one of her great woes. That picture hung in Bridget's cottage when
I first saw her; I have that picture now.
Years went on. Mary was
still abroad. Bridget was still and stern, instead of active and passionate.
The little dog, Mignon, was indeed her darling. I have heard that she talked to
it continually; although, to most people, she was so silent. The Squire and
Madam treated her with the greatest consideration, and well they might; for to
them she was as devoted and faithful as ever. Mary wrote pretty often, and
seemed satisfied with her life. But at length the letters ceased—I hardly know
whether before or after a great and terrible sorrow came upon the house of the
Starkeys. The Squire sickened of a putrid fever; and Madam caught it in nursing
him, and died. You may be sure, Bridget let no other woman tend her but
herself; and in the very arms that had received her at her birth, that sweet
young woman laid her head down, and gave up her breath. The Squire recovered,
in a fashion. He was never strong—he had never the heart to smile again. He
fasted and prayed more than ever; and people did say that he tried to cut off
the entail, and leave all the property away to found a monastery abroad, of
which he prayed that some day little Squire Patrick might be the reverend
father. But he could not do this, for the strictness of the entail and the laws
against the Papists. So he could only appoint gentlemen of his own faith as
guardians to his son, with many charges about the lad's soul, and a few about
the land, and the way it was to be held while he was a minor. Of course,
Bridget was not forgotten. He sent for her as he lay on his death-bed, and
asked her if she would rather have a sum down, or have a small annuity settled
upon her. She said at once she would have a sum down; for she thought of her
daughter, and how she could bequeath the money to her, whereas an annuity would
have died with her. So the Squire left her her cottage for life, and a fair sum
of money. And then he died, with as ready and willing a heart as, I suppose,
ever any gentleman took out of this world with him. The young Squire was
carried off by his guardians, and Bridget was left alone.
I have said that she had not
heard from Mary for some time. In her last letter, she had told of travelling
about with her mistress, who was the English wife of some great foreign
officer, and had spoken of her chances of making a good marriage, without naming
the gentleman's name, keeping it rather back as a pleasant surprise to her
mother; his station and fortune being, as I had afterwards reason to know, far
superior to anything she had a right to expect. Then came a long silence; and
Madam was dead, and the Squire was dead; and Bridget's heart was gnawed by
anxiety, and she knew not whom to ask for news of her child. She could not
write, and the Squire had managed her communication with her daughter. She
walked off to Hurst; and got a good priest there—one whom she had known at
Antwerp—to write for her. But no answer came. It was like crying into the awful
stillness of night.
One day, Bridget was missed
by those neighbours who had been accustomed to mark her goings-out and
comings-in. She had never been sociable with any of them; but the sight of her
had become a part of their daily lives, and slow wonder arose in their minds,
as morning after morning came, and her house-door remained closed, her window
dead from any glitter, or light of fire within. At length, some one tried the
door; it was locked. Two or three laid their heads together, before daring to
look in through the blank, unshuttered window. But, at last, they summoned up
courage; and then saw that Bridget's absence from their little world was not
the result of accident or death, but of premeditation. Such small articles of
furniture as could be secured from the effects of time and damp by being packed
up, were stowed away in boxes. The picture of the Madonna was taken down, and
gone. In a word, Bridget had stolen away from her home, and left no trace
whither she was departed. I knew afterwards, that she and her little dog had
wandered off on the long search for her lost daughter. She was too illiterate
to have faith in letters, even had she had the means of writing and sending
many. But she had faith in her own strong love, and believed that her
passionate instinct would guide her to her child. Besides, foreign travel was
no new thing to her, and she could speak enough of French to explain the object
of her journey, and had, moreover, the advantage of being, from her faith, a
welcome object of charitable hospitality at many a distant convent. But the
country people round Starkey Manor-House knew nothing of all this. They
wondered what had become of her, in a torpid, lazy fashion, and then left off
thinking of her altogether. Several years passed. Both Manor-House and cottage
were deserted. The young Squire lived far away under the direction of his
guardians. There were inroads of wool and corn into the sitting-rooms of the
Hall; and there was some low talk, from time to time, among the hinds and
country people, whether it would not be as well to break into old Bridget's
cottage, and save such of her goods as were left from the moth and rust which must
be making sad havoc. But this idea was always quenched by the recollection of
her strong character and passionate anger; and tales of her masterful spirit,
and vehement force of will, were whispered about, till the very thought of
offending her, by touching any article of hers, became invested with a kind of
horror: it was believed that, dead or alive, she would not fail to avenge it.
Suddenly she came home; with
as little noise or note of preparation as she had departed. One day, some one
noticed a thin, blue curl of smoke, ascending from her chimney. Her door stood
open to the noon-day sun; and, ere many hours had elapsed, some one had seen an
old travel-and-sorrow-stained woman dipping her pitcher in the well; and said,
that the dark, solemn eyes that looked up at him were more like Bridget
Fitzgerald's than any one else's in this world; and yet, if it were she, she
looked as if she had been scorched in the flames of hell, so brown, and scared,
and fierce a creature did she seem. By-and-by many saw her; and those who met
her eye once cared not to be caught looking at her again. She had got into the
habit of perpetually talking to herself; nay, more, answering herself, and
varying her tones according to the side she took at the moment. It was no
wonder that those who dared to listen outside her door at night, believed that
she held converse with some spirit; in short, she was unconsciously earning for
herself the dreadful reputation of a witch.
Her little dog, which had
wandered half over the Continent with her, was her only companion; a dumb
remembrancer of happier days. Once he was ill; and she carried him more than
three miles, to ask about his management from one who had been groom to the
last Squire, and had then been noted for his skill in all diseases of animals.
Whatever this man did, the dog recovered; and they who heard her thanks,
intermingled with blessings (that were rather promises of good fortune than
prayers), looked grave at his good luck when, next year, his ewes twinned, and
his meadow-grass was heavy and thick.
Now it so happened that,
about the year seventeen hundred and eleven, one of the guardians of the young
Squire, a certain Sir Philip Tempest, bethought him of the good shooting there
must be on his ward's property; and, in consequence, he brought down four or
five gentlemen, of his friends, to stay for a week or two at the Hall. From all
accounts, they roystered and spent pretty freely. I never heard any of their
names but one, and that was Squire Gisborne's. He was hardly a middle-aged man
then; he had been much abroad, and there, I believe, he had known Sir Philip
Tempest, and done him some service. He was a daring and dissolute fellow in
those days: careless and fearless, and one who would rather be in a quarrel
than out of it. He had his fits of ill-temper beside, when he would spare
neither man nor beast. Otherwise, those who knew him well, used to say he had a
good heart, when he was neither drunk, nor angry, nor in any way vexed. He had
altered much when I came to know him.
One day, the gentlemen had
all been out shooting, and with but little success, I believe; anyhow, Mr.
Gisborne had had none, and was in a black humour accordingly. He was coming
home, having his gun loaded, sportsman-like, when little Mignon crossed his
path, just as he turned out of the wood by Bridget's cottage. Partly for
wantonness, partly to vent his spleen upon some living creature, Mr. Gisborne
took his gun, and fired—he had better have never fired gun again, than aimed
that unlucky shot. He hit Mignon; and at the creature's sudden cry, Bridget
came out, and saw at a glance what had been done. She took Mignon up in her
arms, and looked hard at the wound; the poor dog looked at her with his glazing
eyes, and tried to wag his tail and lick her hand, all covered with blood. Mr.
Gisborne spoke in a kind of sullen penitence:
'You should have kept the
dog out of my way—a little poaching varmint.'
At this very moment, Mignon
stretched out his legs, and stiffened in her arms—her lost Mary's dog, who had
wandered and sorrowed with her for years. She walked right into Mr. Gisborne's
path, and fixed his unwilling, sullen look with her dark and terrible eye.
'Those never throve that did
me harm,' said she. 'I'm alone in the world, and helpless; the more do the
Saints in Heaven hear my prayers. Hear me, ye blessed ones! hear me while I ask
for sorrow on this bad, cruel man. He has killed the only creature that loved
me—the dumb beast that I loved. Bring down heavy sorrow on his head for it, O
ye Saints! He thought that I was helpless, because he saw me lonely and poor;
but are not the armies of Heaven for the like of me?'
'Come, come,' said he,
half-remorseful, but not one whit afraid. 'Here's a crown to buy thee another
dog. Take it, and leave off cursing! I care none for thy threats.'
'Don't you?' said she,
coming a step closer, and changing her imprecatory cry for a whisper which made
the gamekeeper's lad, following Mr. Gisborne, creep all over. 'You shall live
to see the creature you love best, and who alone loves you—ay, a human
creature, but as innocent and fond as my poor, dead darling—you shall see this
creature, for whom death would be too happy, become a terror and a loathing to
all, for this blood's sake. Hear me, O holy Saints, who never fail them that
have no other help!'
She threw up her right hand,
filled with poor Mignon's life-drops; they spirted, one or two of them, on his
shooting-dress,—an ominous sight to the follower. But the master only laughed a
little, forced, scornful laugh, and went on to the Hall. Before he got there,
however, he took out a gold piece, and bade the boy carry it to the old woman
on his return to the village. The lad was 'afeard,' as he told me in after
years; he came to the cottage, and hovered about, not daring to enter. He peeped
through the window at last; and by the flickering wood-flame, he saw Bridget
kneeling before the picture of our Lady of the Holy Heart, with dead Mignon
lying between her and the Madonna. She was praying wildly, as her outstretched
arms betokened. The lad shrank away in redoubled terror; and contented himself
with slipping the gold-piece under the ill-fitting door. The next day it was
thrown out upon the midden; and there it lay, no one daring to touch it.
Meanwhile Mr. Gisborne, half
curious, half uneasy, thought to lessen his uncomfortable feelings by asking
Sir Philip who Bridget was? He could only describe her—he did not know her
name. Sir Philip was equally at a loss. But an old servant of the Starkeys, who
had resumed his livery at the Hall on this occasion—a scoundrel whom Bridget
had saved from dismissal more than once during her palmy days—said:—
'It will be the old witch,
that his worship means. She needs a ducking, if ever woman did, does that
Bridget Fitzgerald.'
'Fitzgerald!' said both the
gentlemen at once. But Sir Philip was the first to continue:
'I must have no talk of
ducking her, Dickon. Why, she must be the very woman poor Starkey bade me have
a care of; but when I came here last she was gone, no one knew where. I'll go
and see her tomorrow. But mind you, sirrah, if any harm comes to her, or any
more talk of her being a witch—I've a pack of hounds at home, who can follow
the scent of a lying knave as well as ever they followed a dog-fox; so take
care how you talk about ducking a faithful old servant of your dead master's.'
'Had she ever a daughter?'
asked Mr. Gisborne, after a while.
'I don't know—yes! I've a
notion she had; a kind of waiting-woman to Madam Starkey.'
'Please your worship,' said
humbled Dickon, 'Mistress Bridget had a daughter—one Mistress Mary—who went
abroad, and has never been heard on since; and folk do say that has crazed her
mother.'
Mr. Gisborne shaded his eyes
with his hand.
'I could wish she had not
cursed me,' he muttered. 'She may have power—no one else could.' After a while,
he said aloud, no one understanding rightly what he meant, 'Tush! it's
impossible!'—and called for claret; and he and the other gentlemen set to to a
drinking-bout.
Chapter 2
I now come to the time in
which I myself was mixed up with the people that I have been writing about. And
to make you understand how I became connected with them, I must give you some
little account of myself. My father was the younger son of a Devonshire
gentleman of moderate property; my eldest uncle succeeded to the estate of his
forefathers, my second became an eminent attorney in London, and my father took
orders. Like most poor clergymen, he had a large family; and I have no doubt
was glad enough when my London uncle, who was a bachelor, offered to take
charge of me, and bring me up to be his successor in business.
In this way I came to live
in London, in my uncle's house, not far from Gray's Inn, and to be treated and
esteemed as his son, and to labour with him in his office. I was very fond of
the old gentleman. He was the confidential agent of many country squires, and
had attained to his present position as much by knowledge of human nature as by
knowledge of law; though he was learned enough in the latter. He used to say
his business was law, his pleasure heraldry. From his intimate acquaintance
with family history, and all the tragic courses of life therein involved, to
hear him talk, at leisure times, about any coat of arms that came across his
path was as good as a play or a romance. Many cases of disputed property,
dependent on a love of genealogy, were brought to him, as to a great authority
on such points. If the lawyer who came to consult him was young, he would take
no fee, only give him a long lecture on the importance of attending to
heraldry; if the lawyer was of mature age and good standing, he would mulct him
pretty well, and abuse him to me afterwards as negligent of one great branch of
the profession. His house was in a stately new street called Ormond Street, and
in it he had a handsome library; but all the books treated of things that were
past; none of them planned or looked forward into the future. I worked
away—partly for the sake of my family at home, partly because my uncle had
really taught me to enjoy the kind of practice in which he himself took such
delight. I suspect I worked too hard; at any rate, in seventeen hundred and
eighteen I was far from well, and my good uncle was disturbed by my ill looks.
One day, he rang the bell
twice into the clerk's room at the dingy office in Gray's Inn Lane. It was the
summons for me, and I went into his private room just as a gentleman—whom I
knew well enough by sight as an Irish lawyer of more reputation than he
deserved—was leaving.
My uncle was slowly rubbing
his hands together and considering. I was there two or three minutes before he
spoke. Then he told me that I must pack up my portmanteau that very afternoon,
and start that night by post-horse for West Chester. I should get there, if all
went well, at the end of five days' time, and must then wait for a packet to
cross over to Dublin; from thence I must proceed to a certain town named
Kildoon, and in that neighbourhood I was to remain, making certain inquiries as
to the existence of any descendants of the younger branch of a family to whom
some valuable estates had descended in the female line. The Irish lawyer whom I
had seen was weary of the case, and would willingly have given up the property,
without further ado, to a man who appeared to claim them; but on laying his
tables and trees before my uncle, the latter had foreseen so many possible
prior claimants, that the lawyer had begged him to undertake the management of
the whole business. In his youth, my uncle would have liked nothing better than
going over to Ireland himself, and ferreting out every scrap of paper or
parchment, and every word of tradition respecting the family. As it was, old
and gouty, he deputed me.
Accordingly, I went to
Kildoon. I suspect I had something of my uncle's delight in following up a
genealogical scent, for I very soon found out, when on the spot, that Mr.
Rooney, the Irish lawyer, would have got both himself and the first claimant
into a terrible scrape, if he had pronounced his opinion that the estates ought
to be given up to him. There were three poor Irish fellows, each nearer of kin
to the last possessor; but, a generation before, there was a still nearer
relation, who had never been accounted for, nor his existence ever discovered
by the lawyers, I venture to think, till I routed him out from the memory of
some of the old dependants of the family. What had become of him? I travelled
backwards and forwards; I crossed over to France, and came back again with a
slight clue, which ended in my discovering that, wild and dissipated himself,
he had left one child, a son, of yet worse character than his father; that this
same Hugh Fitzgerald had married a very beautiful serving-woman of the Byrnes—a
person below him in hereditary rank, but above him in character; that he had
died soon after his marriage, leaving one child, whether a boy or a girl I
could not learn, and that the mother had returned to live in the family of the
Byrnes. Now, the chief of this latter family was serving in the Duke of
Berwick's regiment, and it was long before I could hear from him; it was more
than a year before I got a short, haughty letter—I fancy he had a soldier's
contempt for a civilian, an Irishman's hatred for an Englishman, an exiled
Jacobite's jealousy of one who prospered and lived tranquilly under the
government he looked upon as an usurpation. 'Bridget Fitzgerald,' he said, 'had
been faithful to the fortunes of his sister—had followed her abroad, and to
England when Mrs. Starkey had thought fit to return. Both her sister and her
husband were dead; he knew nothing of Bridget Fitzgerald at the present time:
probably Sir Philip Tempest, his nephew's guardian, might be able to give me
some information.' I have not given the little contemptuous terms; the way in
which faithful service was meant to imply more than it said—all that has
nothing to do with my story. Sir Philip, when applied to, told me that he paid
an annuity regularly to an old woman named Fitzgerald, living at Coldholme (the
village near Starkey Manor-House). Whether she had any descendants he could not
say.
One bleak March evening, I
came in sight of the places described at the beginning of my story. I could
hardly understand the rude dialect in which the direction to old Bridget's
house was given.
'Yo' see yon furleets,' all
run together, gave me no idea that I was to guide myself by the distant lights
that shone in the windows of the Hall, occupied for the time by a farmer who
held the post of steward, while the Squire, now four or five and twenty, was
making the grand tour. However, at last, I reached Bridget's cottage—a low, moss-grown
place; the palings that had once surrounded it were broken and gone; and the
underwood of the forest came up to the walls, and must have darkened the
windows. It was about seven o'clock—not late to my London notions—but, after
knocking for some time at the door and receiving no reply, I was driven to
conjecture that the occupant of the house was gone to bed. So I betook myself
to the nearest church I had seen, three miles back on the road I had come, sure
that close to that I should find an inn of some kind; and early the next
morning I set off back to Coldholme, by a field-path which my host assured me I
should find a shorter cut than the road I had taken the night before. It was a
cold, sharp morning; my feet left prints in the sprinkling of hoar-frost that
covered the ground; nevertheless, I saw an old woman, whom I instinctively
suspected to be the object of my search, in a sheltered covert on one side of
my path. I lingered and watched her. She must have been considerably above the
middle size in her prime, for when she raised herself from the stooping
position in which I first saw her, there was something fine and commanding in
the erectness of her figure. She drooped again in a minute or two, and seemed
looking for something on the ground, as, with bent head, she turned off from
the spot where I gazed upon her, and was lost to my sight. I fancy I missed my
way, and made a round in spite of the landlord's directions; for by the time I
had reached Bridget's cottage she was there, with no semblance of hurried walk
or discomposure of any kind. The door was slightly ajar. I knocked, and the
majestic figure stood before me, silently awaiting the explanation of my
errand. Her teeth were all gone, so the nose and chin were brought near
together; the grey eyebrows were straight, and almost hung over her deep,
cavernous eyes, and the thick white hair lay in silvery masses over the low,
wide, wrinkled forehead. For a moment, I stood uncertain how to shape my answer
to the solemn questioning of her silence.
'Your name is Bridget
Fitzgerald, I believe?' She bowed her head in assent.
'I have something to say to
you. May I come in? I am unwilling to keep you standing.'
'You cannot tire me,' she
said, and at first she seemed inclined to deny me the shelter of her roof. But
the next moment—she had searched the very soul in me with her eyes during that
instant—she led me in, and dropped the shadowing hood of her grey, draping
cloak, which had previously hid part of the character of her countenance. The
cottage was rude and bare enough. But before that picture of the Virgin, of
which I have made mention, there stood a little cup filled with fresh
primroses. While she paid her reverence to the Madonna, I understood why she
had been out seeking through the clumps of green in the sheltered copse. Then
she turned round, and bade me be seated. The expression of her face, which all
this time I was studying, was not bad, as the stories of my last night's
landlord had led me to expect; it was a wild, stern, fierce, indomitable countenance,
seamed and scarred by agonies of solitary weeping; but it was neither cunning
nor malignant.
'My name is Bridget
Fitzgerald,' said she, by way of opening our conversation.
'And your husband was Hugh
Fitzgerald, of Knock-Mahon, near Kildoon, in Ireland?'
A faint light came into the
dark gloom of her eyes.
'He was.'
'May I ask if you had any
children by him?'
The light in her eyes grew
quick and red. She tried to speak, I could see; but something rose in her
throat, and choked her, and until she could speak calmly, she would fain not
speak at all before a stranger. In a minute or so she said:
'I had a daughter—one Mary
Fitzgerald,'—then her strong nature mastered her strong will, and she cried
out, with a trembling, wailing cry: 'Oh, man! what of her?—what of her?'
She rose from her seat, and
came and clutched at my arm, and looked in my eyes. There she read, as I
suppose, my utter ignorance of what had become of her child; for she went
blindly back to her chair, and sat rocking herself and softly moaning, as if I
were not there; I not daring to speak to the lone and awful woman. After a
little pause, she knelt down before the picture of our Lady of the Holy Heart,
and spoke to her by all the fanciful and poetic names of the Litany.
'O Rose of Sharon! O Tower
of David! O Star of the Sea! have you no comfort for my sore heart? Am I for
ever to hope? Grant me at least despair!'—and so on she went, heedless of my
presence. Her prayers grew wilder and wilder, till they seemed to me to touch
on the borders of madness and blasphemy. Almost involuntarily, I spoke as if to
stop her.
'Have you any reason to
think that your daughter is dead?'
She rose from her knees, and
came and stood before me.
'Mary Fitzgerald is dead,'
said she. 'I shall never see her again in the flesh. No tongue ever told me.
But I know she is dead. I have yearned so to see her, and my heart's will is
fearful and strong: it would have drawn her to me before now, if she had been a
wanderer on the other side of the world. I wonder often it has not drawn her
out of the grave to come and stand before me, and hear me tell her how I loved
her. For, sir, we parted unfriends.'
I knew nothing but the dry
particulars needed for my lawyer's quest, but I could not help feeling for the
desolate woman; and she must have read the unusual sympathy with her wistful
eyes.
'Yes, sir, we did. She never
knew how I loved her; and we parted unfriends; and I fear me that I wished her
voyage might not turn out well, only meaning,—O, blessed Virgin! you know I
only meant that she should come home to her mother's arms as to the happiest
place on earth; but my wishes are terrible—their power goes beyond my
thought—and there is no hope for me, if my words brought Mary harm.'
'But,' I said, 'you do not
know that she is dead. Even now, you hoped she might be alive. Listen to me,'
and I told her the tale I have already told you, giving it all in the driest
manner, for I wanted to recall the clear sense that I felt almost sure she had
possessed in her younger days, and by keeping up her attention to details,
restrain the vague wildness of her grief.
She listened with deep
attention, putting from time to time such questions as convinced me I had to do
with no common intelligence, however dimmed and shorn by solitude and mysterious
sorrow. Then she took up her tale; and in few brief words, told me of her
wanderings abroad in vain search after her daughter; sometimes in the wake of
armies, sometimes in camp, sometimes in city. The lady, whose waiting-woman
Mary had gone to be, had died soon after the date of her last letter home; her
husband, the foreign officer, had been serving in Hungary, whither Bridget had
followed him, but too late to find him. Vague rumours reached her that Mary had
made a great marriage; and this sting of doubt was added,—whether the mother
might not be close to her child under her new name, and even hearing of her
every day, and yet never recognising the lost one under the appellation she
then bore. At length the thought took possession of her, that it was possible
that all this time Mary might be at home at Coldholme, in the Trough of
Bolland, in Lancashire, in England; and home came Bridget, in that vain hope,
to her desolate hearth, and empty cottage. Here she had thought it safest to
remain; if Mary was in life, it was here she would seek for her mother.
I noted down one or two
particulars out of Bridget's narrative that I thought might be of use to me;
for I was stimulated to further search in a strange and extraordinary manner.
It seemed as if it were impressed upon me, that I must take up the quest where
Bridget had laid it down; and this for no reason that had previously influenced
me (such as my uncle's anxiety on the subject, my own reputation as a lawyer,
and so on), but from some strange power which had taken possession of my will
only that very morning, and which forced it in the direction it chose.
'I will go,' said I. 'I will
spare nothing in the search. Trust to me. I will learn all that can be learnt.
You shall know all that money, or pains, or wit can discover. It is true she
may be long dead: but she may have left a child.'
'A child!' she cried, as if
for the first time this idea had struck her mind. 'Hear him, Blessed Virgin! he
says she may have left a child. And you have never told me, though I have
prayed so for a sign, waking or sleeping!'
'Nay,' said I, 'I know
nothing but what you tell me. You say you heard of her marriage.'
But she caught nothing of
what I said. She was praying to the Virgin in a kind of ecstacy, which seemed
to render her unconscious of my very presence.
From Coldholme I went to Sir
Philip Tempest's. The wife of the foreign officer had been a cousin of his
father's, and from him I thought I might gain some particulars as to the
existence of the Count de la Tour d'Auvergne, and where I could find him; for I
knew questions de vive voix aid the flagging recollection, and
I was determined to lose no chance for want of trouble. But Sir Philip had gone
abroad, and it would be some time before I could receive an answer. So I followed
my uncle's advice, to whom I had mentioned how wearied I felt, both in body and
mind, by my will-o'-the-wisp search. He immediately told me to go to Harrogate,
there to await Sir Philip's reply. I should be near to one of the places
connected with my search, Coldholme; not far from Sir Philip Tempest, in case
he returned, and I wished to ask him any further questions; and, in conclusion,
my uncle bade me try to forget all about my business for a time.
This was far easier said
than done. I have seen a child on a common blown along by a high wind, without
power of standing still and resisting the tempestuous force. I was somewhat in
the same predicament as regarded my mental state. Something resistless seemed
to urge my thoughts on, through every possible course by which there was a
chance of attaining to my object. I did not see the sweeping moors when I
walked out: when I held a book in my hand, and read the words, their sense did
not penetrate to my brain. If I slept, I went on with the same ideas, always
flowing in the same direction. This could not last long without having a bad
effect on the body. I had an illness, which, although I was racked with pain,
was a positive relief to me, as it compelled me to live in the present
suffering, and not in the visionary researches I had been continually making
before. My kind uncle came to nurse me; and after the immediate danger was
over, my life seemed to slip away in delicious languor for two or three months.
I did not ask—so much did I dread falling into the old channel of
thought—whether any reply had been received to my letter to Sir Philip. I
turned my whole imagination right away from all that subject. My uncle remained
with me until nigh summer, and then returned to his business in London; leaving
me perfectly well, although not completely strong. I was to follow him in a
fortnight; when, as he said, 'we would look over letters, and talk about
several things.' I knew what this little speech alluded to, and shrank from the
train of thought it suggested, which was so intimately connected with my first
feelings of illness. However, I had a fortnight more to roam on those
invigorating Yorkshire moors.
In those days, there was one
large, rambling inn at Harrogate, close to the Medicinal Spring; but it was
already becoming too small for the accommodation of the influx of visitors, and
many lodged round about, in the farm-houses of the district. It was so early in
the season, that I had the inn pretty much to myself; and, indeed, felt rather
like a visitor in a private house, so intimate had the landlord and landlady
become with me during my long illness. She would chide me for being out so late
on the moors, or for having been too long without food, quite in a motherly
way; while he consulted me about vintages and wines, and taught me many a
Yorkshire wrinkle about horses. In my walks I met other strangers from time to
time. Even before my uncle had left me, I had noticed, with half-torpid
curiosity, a young lady of very striking appearance, who went about always accompanied
by an elderly companion, hardly a gentlewoman, but with something in her look
that prepossessed me in her favour. The younger lady always put her veil down
when any one approached; so it had been only once or twice, when I had come
upon her at a sudden turn in the path, that I had even had a glimpse of her
face. I am not sure if it was beautiful, though in after-life I grew to think
it so. But it was at this time over-shadowed by a sadness that never varied: a
pale, quiet, resigned look of intense suffering, that irresistibly attracted
me, not with love, but with a sense of infinite compassion for one so young yet
so hopelessly unhappy. The companion wore something of the same look: quiet,
melancholy, hopeless, yet resigned. I asked my landlord who they were. He said
they were called Clarke, and wished to be considered as mother and daughter;
but that, for his part, he did not believe that to be their right name, or that
there was any such relationship between them. They had been in the neighbourhood
of Harrogate for some time, lodging in a remote farm-house. The people there
would tell nothing about them; saying that they paid handsomely, and never did
any harm; so why should they be speaking of any strange things that might
happen? That, as the landlord shrewdly observed, showed there was something out
of the common way: he had heard that the elderly woman was a cousin of the
farmer's where they lodged, and so the regard existing between relations might
help to keep them quiet.
'What did he think, then,
was the reason for their extreme seclusion?' asked I.
'Nay, he could not tell, not
he. He had heard that the young lady, for all as quiet as she seemed, played
strange pranks at times.' He shook his head when I asked him for more
particulars, and refused to give them, which made me doubt if he knew any, for
he was in general a talkative and communicative man. In default of other
interests, after my uncle left, I set myself to watch these two people. I
hovered about their walks, drawn towards them with a strange fascination, which
was not diminished by their evident annoyance at so frequently meeting me. One
day, I had the sudden good fortune to be at hand when they were alarmed by the
attack of a bull, which, in those unenclosed grazing districts, was a
particularly dangerous occurrence. I have other and more important things to
relate, than to tell of the accident which gave me an opportunity of rescuing
them; it is enough to say, that this event was the beginning of an
acquaintance, reluctantly acquiesced in by them, but eagerly prosecuted by me.
I can hardly tell when intense curiosity became merged in love, but in less
than ten days after my uncle's departure I was passionately enamoured of Mrs.
Lucy, as her attendant called her; carefully—for this I noted well—avoiding any
address which appeared as if there was an equality of station between them. I
noticed also that Mrs. Clarke, the elderly woman, after her first reluctance to
allow me to pay them any attentions had been overcome, was cheered by my
evident attachment to the young girl; it seemed to lighten her heavy burden of
care, and she evidently favoured my visits to the farm-house where they lodged.
It was not so with Lucy. A more attractive person I never saw, in spite of her
depression of manner, and shrinking avoidance of me. I felt sure at once, that
whatever was the source of her grief, it rose from no fault of her own. It was
difficult to draw her into conversation; but when at times, for a moment or
two, I beguiled her into talk, I could see a rare intelligence in her face, and
a grave, trusting look in the soft, grey eyes that were raised for a minute to
mine. I made every excuse I possibly could for going there. I sought wild
flowers for Lucy's sake; I planned walks for Lucy's sake; I watched the heavens
by night, in hopes that some unusual beauty of sky would justify me in tempting
Mrs. Clarke and Lucy forth upon the moors, to gaze at the great purple dome
above.
It seemed to me that Lucy
was aware of my love; but that, for some motive which I could not guess, she
would fain have repelled me; but then again I saw, or fancied I saw, that her
heart spoke in my favour, and that there was a struggle going on in her mind,
which at times (I loved so dearly) I could have begged her to spare herself,
even though the happiness of my whole life should have been the sacrifice; for
her complexion grew paler, her aspect of sorrow more hopeless, her delicate
frame yet slighter. During this period I had written, I should say, to my
uncle, to beg to be allowed to prolong my stay at Harrogate, not giving any
reason; but such was his tenderness towards me, that in a few days I heard from
him, giving me a willing permission, and only charging me to take care of
myself, and not use too much exertion during the hot weather.
One sultry evening I drew
near the farm. The windows of their parlour were open, and I heard voices when
I turned the corner of the house, as I passed the first window (there were two
windows in their little ground-floor room). I saw Lucy distinctly; but when I
had knocked at their door—the house-door stood always ajar—she was gone, and I
saw only Mrs. Clarke, turning over the work-things lying on the table, in a
nervous and purposeless manner. I felt by instinct that a conversation of some importance
was coming on, in which I should be expected to say what was my object in
paying these frequent visits. I was glad of the opportunity. My uncle had
several times alluded to the pleasant possibility of my bringing home a young
wife, to cheer and adorn the old house in Ormond Street. He was rich, and I was
to succeed him, and had, as I knew, a fair reputation for so young a lawyer. So
on my side I saw no obstacle. It was true that Lucy was shrouded in mystery;
her name (I was convinced it was not Clarke), birth, parentage, and previous
life were unknown to me. But I was sure of her goodness and sweet innocence,
and although I knew that there must be something painful to be told, to account
for her mournful sadness, yet I was willing to bear my share in her grief,
whatever it might be.
Mrs. Clarke began, as if it
was a relief to her to plunge into the subject.
'We have thought, sir—at
least I have thought—that you know very little of us, nor we of you, indeed;
not enough to warrant the intimate acquaintance we have fallen into. I beg your
pardon, sir,' she went on, nervously; 'I am but a plain kind of woman, and I
mean to use no rudeness; but I must say straight out that I—we—think it would
be better for you not to come so often to see us. She is very unprotected,
and——'
'Why should I not come to
see you, dear madam?' asked I, eagerly, glad of the opportunity of explaining
myself. 'I come, I own, because I have learnt to love Mistress Lucy, and wish
to teach her to love me.'
Mistress Clarke shook her
head, and sighed.
'Don't, sir—neither love
her, nor, for the sake of all you hold sacred, teach her to love you! If I am
too late, and you love her already, forget her,—forget these last few weeks. O!
I should never have allowed you to come!' she went on, passionately; 'but what
am I to do? We are forsaken by all, except the great God, and even He permits a
strange and evil power to afflict us—what am I to do? Where is it to end?' She
wrung her hands in her distress; then she turned to me: 'Go away, sir; go away,
before you learn to care any more for her. I ask it for your own sake—I
implore. You have been good and kind to us, and we shall always recollect you
with gratitude; but go away now, and never come back to cross our fatal path!'
'Indeed, madam,' said I, 'I
shall do no such thing. You urge it for my own sake. I have no fear, so
urged—nor wish, except to hear more—all. I cannot have seen Mistress Lucy in
all the intimacy of this last fortnight, without acknowledging her goodness and
innocence; and without seeing—pardon me, madam—that for some reason you are two
very lonely women, in some mysterious sorrow and distress. Now, though I am not
powerful myself, yet I have friends who are so wise and kind, that they may be
said to possess power. Tell me some particulars. Why are you in grief—what is
your secret—why are you here? I declare solemnly that nothing you have said has
daunted me in my wish to become Lucy's husband; nor will I shrink from any
difficulty that, as such an aspirant, I may have to encounter. You say you are
friendless—why cast away an honest friend? I will tell you of people to whom
you may write, and who will answer any questions as to my character and
prospects. I do not shun inquiry.'
She shook her head again.
'You had better go away, sir. You know nothing about us.'
'I know your names,' said I,
'and I have heard you allude to the part of the country from which you came,
which I happen to know as a wild and lonely place. There are so few people
living in it that, if I chose to go there, I could easily ascertain all about
you; but I would rather hear it from yourself.' You see I wanted to pique her
into telling me something definite.
'You do not know our true
names, sir,' said she, hastily.
'Well, I may have
conjectured as much. But tell me, then, I conjure you. Give me your reasons for
distrusting my willingness to stand by what I have said with regard to Mistress
Lucy.'
'Oh, what can I do?'
exclaimed she. 'If I am turning away a true friend as he says?—Stay!' coming to
a sudden decision—'I will tell you something—I cannot tell you all—you would
not believe it. But, perhaps, I can tell you enough to prevent your going on in
your hopeless attachment. I am not Lucy's mother.'
'So I conjectured,' I said.
'Go on.'
'I do not even know whether
she is the legitimate or illegitimate child of her father. But he is cruelly
turned against her; and her mother is long dead; and, for a terrible reason,
she has no other creature to keep constant to her but me. She—only two years
ago—such a darling and such a pride in her father's house! Why, sir, there is a
mystery that might happen in connection with her any moment; and then you would
go away like all the rest; and, when you next heard her name, you would loathe
her. Others, who have loved her longer, have done so before now. My poor child,
whom neither God nor man has mercy upon—or, surely, she would die!'
The good woman was stopped
by her crying. I confess, I was a little stunned by her last words; but only
for a moment. At any rate, till I knew definitely what was this mysterious
stain upon one so simple and pure, as Lucy seemed, I would not desert her, and
so I said; and she made answer:
'If you are daring in your
heart to think harm of my child, sir, after knowing her as you have done, you
are no good man yourself; but I am so foolish and helpless in my great sorrow,
that I would fain hope to find a friend in you. I cannot help trusting that,
although you may no longer feel towards her as a lover, you will have pity upon
us; and perhaps, by your learning, you can tell us where to go for aid.'
'I implore you to tell me
what this mystery is,' I cried, almost maddened by this suspense.
'I cannot,' said she,
solemnly. 'I am under a deep vow of secrecy. If you are to be told, it must be
by her.' She left the room, and I remained to ponder over this strange
interview. I mechanically turned over the few books, and with eyes that saw
nothing at the time, examined the tokens of Lucy's frequent presence in that
room.
When I got home at night, I
remembered how all these trifles spoke of a pure and tender heart and innocent
life. Mistress Clarke returned; she had been crying sadly.
'Yes,' said she, 'it is as I
feared: she loves you so much that she is willing to run the fearful risk of
telling you all herself—she acknowledges it is but a poor chance; but your
sympathy will be a balm, if you give it. To-morrow, come here at ten in the
morning; and as you hope for pity in your hour of agony, repress all show of
fear or repugnance you may feel towards one so grievously afflicted.'
I half smiled. 'Have no
fear,' I said. It seemed too absurd to imagine my feeling dislike to Lucy.
'Her father loved her well,'
said she, gravely, 'yet he drove her out like some monstrous thing.'
Just at this moment came a
peal of ringing laughter from the garden. It was Lucy's voice; it sounded as if
she were standing just on one side of the open casement—and as though she were
suddenly stirred to merriment—merriment verging on boisterousness, by the
doings or sayings of some other person. I can scarcely say why, but the sound
jarred on me inexpressibly. She knew the subject of our conversation, and must
have been at least aware of the state of agitation her friend was in: she
herself usually so gentle and quiet. I half rose to go to the window, and satisfy
my instinctive curiosity as to what had provoked this burst of ill-timed
laughter; but Mrs. Clarke threw her whole weight and power upon the hand with
which she pressed and kept me down.
'For God's sake!' she said,
white and trembling all over, 'sit still; be quiet. Oh! be patient. To-morrow
you will know all. Leave us, for we are all sorely afflicted. Do not seek to
know more about us.'
Again that laugh—so musical
in sound, yet so discordant to my heart. She held me tight—tighter; without
positive violence I could not have risen. I was sitting with my back to the
window, but I felt a shadow pass between the sun's warmth and me, and a strange
shudder ran through my frame. In a minute or two she released me.
'Go,' repeated she. 'Be
warned, I ask you once more. I do not think you can stand this knowledge that
you seek. If I had had my own way, Lucy should never have yielded, and promised
to tell you all. Who knows what may come of it?'
'I am firm in my wish to
know all. I return at ten to-morrow morning, and then expect to see Mistress
Lucy herself.'
I turned away; having my own
suspicions, I confess, as to Mistress Clarke's sanity.
Conjectures as to the
meaning of her hints, and uncomfortable thoughts connected with that strange
laughter, filled my mind. I could hardly sleep. I rose early; and long before
the hour I had appointed, I was on the path over the common that led to the old
farm-house where they lodged. I suppose that Lucy had passed no better a night
than I; for there she was also, slowly pacing with her even step, her eyes bent
down, her whole look most saintly and pure. She started when I came close to
her, and grew paler as I reminded her of my appointment, and spoke with
something of the impatience of obstacles that, seeing her once more, had called
up afresh in my mind. All strange and terrible hints, and giddy merriment were
forgotten. My heart gave forth words of fire, and my tongue uttered them. Her
colour went and came, as she listened; but, when I had ended my passionate
speeches, she lifted her soft eyes to me, and said:
'But you know that you have
something to learn about me yet. I only want to say this: I shall not think
less of you—less well of you, I mean—if you, too, fall away from me when you
know all. Stop!' said she, as if fearing another burst of mad words. 'Listen to
me. My father is a man of great wealth. I never knew my mother; she must have
died when I was very young. When first I remember anything, I was living in a
great, lonely house, with my dear and faithful Mistress Clarke. My father,
even, was not there; he was—he is—a soldier, and his duties lie abroad. But he
came, from time to time, and every time I think he loved me more and more. He
brought me rarities from foreign lands, which prove to me now how much he must
have thought of me during his absences. I can sit down and measure the depth of
his lost love now, by such standards as these. I never thought whether he loved
me or not, then; it was so natural, that it was like the air I breathed. Yet he
was an angry man at times, even then; but never with me. He was very reckless,
too; and, once or twice, I heard a whisper among the servants that a doom was
over him, and that he knew it, and tried to drown his knowledge in wild
activity, and even sometimes, sir, in wine. So I grew up in this grand mansion,
in that lonely place. Everything around me seemed at my disposal, and I think
every one loved me; I am sure loved them. Till about two years ago—I remember
it well—my father had come to England, to us; and he seemed so proud and so
pleased with me and all I had done. And one day his tongue seemed loosened with
wine, and he told me much that I had not known till then,—how dearly he had
loved my mother, yet how his wilful usage had caused her death; and then he
went on to say how he loved me better than any creature on earth, and how, some
day, he hoped to take me to foreign places, for that he could hardly bear these
long absences from his only child. Then he seemed to change suddenly, and said,
in a strange, wild way, that I was not to believe what he said; that there was
many a thing he loved better—his horse—his dog—I know not what.
'And 'twas only the next
morning that, when I came into his room to ask his blessing as was my wont, he
received me with fierce and angry words. 'Why had I,' so he asked, 'been
delighting myself in such wanton mischief—dancing over the tender plants in the
flower-beds, all set with the famous Dutch bulbs he had brought from Holland?'
I had never been out of doors that morning, sir, and I could not conceive what
he meant, and so I said; and then he swore at me for a liar, and said I was of
no true blood, for he had seen me doing all that mischief himself—with his own
eyes. What could I say? He would not listen to me, and even my tears seemed
only to irritate him. That day was the beginning of my great sorrows. Not long
after, he reproached me for my undue familiarity—all unbecoming a
gentlewoman—with his grooms. I had been in the stable-yard, laughing and
talking, he said. Now, sir, I am something of a coward by nature, and I had
always dreaded horses; besides that, my father's servants—those whom he brought
with him from foreign parts—were wild fellows, whom I had always avoided, and
to whom I had never spoken, except as a lady must needs from time to time speak
to her father's people. Yet my father called me by names of which I hardly know
the meaning, but my heart told me they were such as shame any modest woman; and
from that day he turned quite against me;—nay, sir, not many weeks after that,
he came in with a riding-whip in his hand; and, accusing me harshly of evil
doings, of which I knew no more than you, sir, he was about to strike me, and
I, all in bewildering tears, was ready to take his stripes as great kindness
compared to his harder words, when suddenly he stopped his arm mid-way, gasped
and staggered, crying out, 'The curse—the curse!' I looked up in terror. In the
great mirror opposite I saw myself, and, right behind, another wicked, fearful
self, so like me that my soul seemed to quiver within me, as though not knowing
to which similitude of body it belonged. My father saw my double at the same
moment, either in its dreadful reality, whatever that might be, or in the
scarcely less terrible reflection in the mirror; but what came of it at that
moment I cannot say, for I suddenly swooned away; and when I came to myself I
was lying in my bed, and my faithful Clarke sitting by me. I was in my bed for
days; and even while I lay there my double was seen by all, flitting about the
house and gardens, always about some mischievous or detestable work. What
wonder that every one shrank from me in dread—that my father drove me forth at
length, when the disgrace of which I was the cause was past his patience to
bear. Mistress Clarke came with me; and here we try to live such a life of
piety and prayer as may in time set me free from the curse.'
All the time she had been
speaking, I had been weighing her story in my mind. I had hitherto put cases of
witchcraft on one side, as mere superstitions; and my uncle and I had had many
an argument, he supporting himself by the opinion of his good friend Sir
Matthew Hale. Yet this sounded like the tale of one bewitched; or was it merely
the effect of a life of extreme seclusion telling on the nerves of a sensitive girl?
My scepticism inclined me to the latter belief, and when she paused I said:
'I fancy that some physician
could have disabused your father of his belief in visions——'
Just at that instant,
standing as I was opposite to her in the full and perfect morning light, I saw
behind her another figure—a ghastly resemblance, complete in likeness, so far
as form and feature and minutest touch of dress could go, but with a loathsome
demon soul looking out of the grey eyes, that were in turns mocking and
voluptuous. My heart stood still within me; every hair rose up erect; my flesh
crept with horror. I could not see the grave and tender Lucy—my eyes were
fascinated by the creature beyond. I know not why, but I put out my hand to
clutch it; I grasped nothing but empty air, and my whole blood curdled to ice.
For a moment I could not see; then my sight came back, and I saw Lucy standing
before me, alone, deathly pale, and, I could have fancied, almost, shrunk in
size.
'It has been near me?' she
said, as if asking a question.
The sound seemed taken out
of her voice; it was husky as the notes on an old harpsichord when the strings
have ceased to vibrate. She read her answer in my face, I suppose, for I could
not speak. Her look was one of intense fear, but that died away into an aspect
of most humble patience. At length she seemed to force herself to face behind
and around her: she saw the purple moors, the blue distant hills, quivering in
the sunlight, but nothing else.
'Will you take me home?' she
said, meekly.
I took her by the hand, and
led her silently through the budding heather—we dared not speak; for we could
not tell but that the dread creature was listening, although unseen,—but that
IT might appear and push us asunder. I never loved her more fondly than now
when—and that was the unspeakable misery—the idea of her was becoming so
inextricably blended with the shuddering thought of IT. She seemed to
understand what I must be feeling. She let go my hand, which she had kept
clasped until then, when we reached the garden gate, and went forwards to meet
her anxious friend, who was standing by the window looking for her. I could not
enter the house: I needed silence, society, leisure, change—I knew not what—to
shake off the sensation of that creature's presence. Yet I lingered about the
garden—I hardly know why; I partly suppose, because I feared to encounter the
resemblance again on the solitary common, where it had vanished, and partly
from a feeling of inexpressible compassion for Lucy. In a few minutes Mistress
Clarke came forth and joined me. We walked some paces in silence.
'You know all now,' said
she, solemnly.
'I saw it,' said I, below my breath.
'And you shrink from us,
now,' she said, with a hopelessness which stirred up all that was brave or good
in me.
'Not a whit,' said I. 'Human
flesh shrinks from encounter with the powers of darkness: and, for some reason
unknown to me, the pure and holy Lucy is their victim.'
'The sins of the fathers
shall be visited upon the children,' she said.
'Who is her father?' asked
I. 'Knowing as much as I do, I may surely know more—know all. Tell me, I
entreat you, madam, all that you can conjecture respecting this demoniac
persecution of one so good.'
'I will; but not now. I must
go to Lucy now. Come this afternoon, I will see you alone; and oh, sir! I will
trust that you may yet find some way to help us in our sore trouble!'
I was miserably exhausted by
the swooning affright which had taken possession of me. When I reached the inn,
I staggered in like one overcome by wine. I went to my own private room. It was
some time before I saw that the weekly post had come in, and brought me my
letters. There was one from my uncle, one from my home in Devonshire, and one,
re-directed over the first address, sealed with a great coat of arms. It was
from Sir Philip Tempest: my letter of inquiry respecting Mary Fitzgerald had
reached him at Liège, where it so happened that the Count de la Tour d'Auvergne
was quartered at the very time. He remembered his wife's beautiful attendant;
she had had high words with the deceased countess, respecting her intercourse
with an English gentleman of good standing, who was also in the foreign
service. The countess augured evil of his intentions; while Mary, proud and
vehement, asserted that he would soon marry her, and resented her mistress's
warnings as an insult. The consequence was, that she had left Madame de la Tour
d'Auvergne's service, and, as the Count believed, had gone to live with the
Englishman; whether he had married her, or not, he could not say. 'But,' added
Sir Philip Tempest, 'you may easily hear what particulars you wish to know
respecting Mary Fitzgerald from the Englishman himself, if, as I suspect, he is
no other than my neighbour and former acquaintance, Mr. Gisborne, of Skipford
Hall, in the West Riding. I am led to the belief that he is no other by several
small particulars, none of which are in themselves conclusive, but which, taken
together, make a mass of presumptive evidence. As far as I could make out from
the Count's foreign pronunciation, Gisborne was the name of the Englishman: I
know that Gisborne of Skipford was abroad and in the foreign service at that
time—he was a likely fellow enough for such an exploit, and, above all, certain
expressions recur to my mind which he used in reference to old Bridget
Fitzgerald, of Coldholme, whom he once encountered while staying with me at
Starkey Manor-House. I remember that the meeting seemed to have produced some
extraordinary effect upon his mind, as though he had suddenly discovered some
connection which she might have had with his previous life. I beg you to let me
know if I can be of any further service to you. Your uncle once rendered me a
good turn, and I will gladly repay it, so far as in me lies, to his nephew.'
I was now apparently close on
the discovery which I had striven so many months to attain. But success had
lost its zest. I put my letters down, and seemed to forget them all in thinking
of the morning I had passed that very day. Nothing was real but the unreal
presence, which had come like an evil blast across my bodily eyes, and burnt
itself down upon my brain. Dinner came, and went away untouched. Early in the
afternoon I walked to the farm-house. I found Mistress Clarke alone, and I was
glad and relieved. She was evidently prepared to tell me all I might wish to
hear.
'You asked me for Mistress
Lucy's true name; it is Gisborne,' she began.
'Not Gisborne of Skipford?'
I exclaimed, breathless with anticipation.
'The same,' said she,
quietly, not regarding my manner. 'Her father is a man of note; although, being
a Roman Catholic, he cannot take that rank in this country to which his station
entitles him. The consequence is that he lives much abroad—has been a soldier,
I am told.'
'And Lucy's mother?' I
asked.
She shook her head. 'I never
knew her,' said she. 'Lucy was about three years old when I was engaged to take
charge of her. Her mother was dead.'
'But you know her name?—you
can tell if it was Mary Fitzgerald?'
She looked astonished. 'That
was her name. But, sir, how came you to be so well acquainted with it? It was a
mystery to the whole household at Skipford Court. She was some beautiful young
woman whom he lured away from her protectors while he was abroad. I have heard
said he practised some terrible deceit upon her, and when she came to know it,
she was neither to have nor to hold, but rushed off from his very arms, and
threw herself into a rapid stream and was drowned. It stung him deep with
remorse, but I used to think the remembrance of the mother's cruel death made
him love the child yet dearer.'
I told her, as briefly as
might be, of my researches after the descendant and heir of the Fitzgeralds of
Kildoon, and added—something of my old lawyer spirit returning into me for the
moment—that I had no doubt but that we should prove Lucy to be by right
possessed of large estates in Ireland.
No flush came over her grey
face; no light into her eyes. 'And what is all the wealth in the whole world to
that poor girl?' she said. 'It will not free her from the ghastly bewitchment
which persecutes her. As for money, what a pitiful thing it is; it cannot touch
her.'
'No more can the Evil
Creature harm her,' I said. 'Her holy nature dwells apart, and cannot be
defiled or stained by all the devilish arts in the whole world.'
'True! but it is a cruel
fate to know that all shrink from her, sooner or later, as from one
possessed—accursed.'
'How came it to pass?' I
asked.
'Nay, I know not. Old
rumours there are, that were bruited through the household at Skipford.'
'Tell me,' I demanded.
'They came from servants,
who would fain account for everything. They say that, many years ago, Mr.
Gisborne killed a dog belonging to an old witch at Coldholme; that she cursed,
with a dreadful and mysterious curse, the creature, whatever it might be, that
he should love best; and that it struck so deeply into his heart that for years
he kept himself aloof from any temptation to love aught. But who could help
loving Lucy?'
'You never heard the witch's
name?' I gasped.
'Yes—they called her
Bridget; they said he would never go near the spot again for terror of her. Yet
he was a brave man!'
'Listen,' said I, taking
hold of her arm, the better to arrest her full attention; 'if what I suspect
holds true, that man stole Bridget's only child—the very Mary Fitzgerald who
was Lucy's mother; if so, Bridget cursed him in ignorance of the deeper wrong
he had done her. To this hour she yearns after her lost child, and questions
the saints whether she be living or not. The roots of that curse lie deeper
than she knows: she unwittingly banned him for a deeper guilt than that of
killing a dumb beast. The sins of the fathers are indeed visited upon the
children.'
'But,' said Mistress Clarke,
eagerly, 'she would never let evil rest on her own grandchild? Surely, sir, if
what you say be true, there are hopes for Lucy. Let us go—go at once, and tell
this fearful woman all that you suspect, and beseech her to take off the spell
she has put upon her innocent grandchild.'
It seemed to me, indeed,
that something like this was the best course we could pursue. But first it was
necessary to ascertain more than what mere rumour or careless hearsay could
tell. My thoughts turned to my uncle—he could advise me wisely—he ought to know
all. I resolved to go to him without delay; but I did not choose to tell
Mistress Clarke of all the visionary plans that flitted through my mind. I
simply declared my intention of proceeding straight to London on Lucy's
affairs. I bade her believe that my interest on the young lady's behalf was
greater than ever, and that my whole time should be given up to her cause. I
saw that Mistress Clarke distrusted me, because my mind was too full of
thoughts for my words to flow freely. She sighed and shook her head, and said,
'Well, it is all right!' in such a tone that it was an implied reproach. But I
was firm and constant in my heart, and I took confidence from that.
I rode to London. I rode
long days drawn out into the lovely summer nights: I could not rest. I reached
London. I told my uncle all, though in the stir of the great city the horror
had faded away, and I could hardly imagine that he would believe the account I
gave him of the fearful double of Lucy which I had seen on the lonely
moor-side. But my uncle had lived many years, and learnt many things; and, in
the deep secrets of family history that had been confided to him, he had heard
of cases of innocent people bewitched and taken possession of by evil spirits
yet more fearful than Lucy's. For, as he said, to judge from all I told him,
that resemblance had no power over her—she was too pure and good to be tainted
by its evil, haunting presence. It had, in all probability, so my uncle
conceived, tried to suggest wicked thoughts and to tempt to wicked actions; but
she, in her saintly maidenhood, had passed on undefiled by evil thought or
deed. It could not touch her soul: but true, it set her apart from all sweet
love or common human intercourse. My uncle threw himself with an energy more
like six-and-twenty than sixty into the consideration of the whole case. He
undertook the proving Lucy's descent, and volunteered to go and find out Mr.
Gisborne, and obtain, firstly, the legal proofs of her descent from the
Fitzgeralds of Kildoon, and, secondly, to try and hear all that he could
respecting the working of the curse, and whether any and what means had been
taken to exorcise that terrible appearance. For he told me of instances where,
by prayers and long fasting, the evil possessor had been driven forth with
howling and many cries from the body which it had come to inhabit; he spoke of
those strange New England cases which had happened not so long before; of Mr.
Defoe, who had written a book, wherein he had named many modes of subduing
apparitions, and sending them back whence they came; and, lastly, he spoke low
of dreadful ways of compelling witches to undo their witchcraft. But I could
not endure to hear of those tortures and burnings. I said that Bridget was
rather a wild and savage woman than a malignant witch; and, above all, that
Lucy was of her kith and kin; and that, in putting her to the trial, by water
or by fire, we should be torturing—it might be to the death—the ancestress of
her we sought to redeem.
My uncle thought awhile, and
then said, that in this last matter I was right—at any rate, it should not be
tried, with his consent, till all other modes of remedy had failed; and he
assented to my proposal that I should go myself and see Bridget, and tell her
all.
In accordance with this, I
went down once more to the wayside inn near Coldholme. It was late at night
when I arrived there; and, while I supped, I inquired of the landlord more
particulars as to Bridget's ways. Solitary and savage had been her life for
many years. Wild and despotic were her words and manner to those few people who
came across her path. The country-folk did her imperious bidding, because they
feared to disobey. If they pleased her, they prospered; if, on the contrary,
they neglected or traversed her behests, misfortune, small or great, fell on
them and theirs. It was not detestation so much as an indefinable terror that
she excited.
In the morning I went to see
her. She was standing on the green outside her cottage, and received me with
the sullen grandeur of a throneless queen. I read in her face that she
recognised me, and that I was not unwelcome; but she stood silent till I had
opened my errand.
'I have news of your
daughter,' said I, resolved to speak straight to all that I knew she felt of
love, and not to spare her. 'She is dead!'
The stern figure scarcely
trembled, but her hand sought the support of the door-post.
'I knew that she was dead,'
said she, deep and low, and then was silent for an instant. 'My tears that
should have flowed for her were burnt up long years ago. Young man, tell me
about her.'
'Not yet,' said I, having a
strange power given me of confronting one, whom, nevertheless, in my secret
soul I dreaded.
'You had once a little dog,'
I continued. The words called out in her more show of emotion than the
intelligence of her daughter's death. She broke in upon my speech:
'I had! It was hers—the last
thing I had of hers—and it was shot for wantonness! It died in my arms. The man
who killed that dog rues it to this day. For that dumb beast's blood, his
best-beloved stands accursed.'
Her eyes distended, as if
she were in a trance and saw the working of her curse. Again I spoke:
'O, woman!' I said, 'that
best-beloved, standing accursed before men, is your dead daughter's child.'
The life, the energy, the
passion came back to the eyes with which she pierced through me, to see if I
spoke truth; then, without another question or word, she threw herself on the
ground with fearful vehemence, and clutched at the innocent daisies with
convulsed hands.
'Bone of my bone! flesh of
my flesh! have I cursed thee—and art thou accursed?'
So she moaned, as she lay
prostrate in her great agony. I stood aghast at my own work. She did not hear
my broken sentences; she asked no more, but the dumb confirmation which my sad
looks had given that one fact, that her curse rested on her own daughter's
child. The fear grew on me lest she should die in her strife of body and soul;
and then might not Lucy remain under the spell as long as she lived?
Even at this moment, I saw
Lucy coming through the woodland path that led to Bridget's cottage; Mistress
Clarke was with her: I felt at my heart that it was she, by the balmy peace
which the look of her sent over me, as she slowly advanced, a glad surprise
shining out of her soft quiet eyes. That was as her gaze met mine. As her looks
fell on the woman lying stiff, convulsed on the earth, they became full of
tender pity; and she came forward to try and lift her up. Seating herself on
the turf, she took Bridget's head into her lap; and, with gentle touches, she
arranged the dishevelled grey hair streaming thick and wild from beneath her
mutch.
'God help her!' murmured
Lucy. 'How she suffers!'
At her desire we sought for
water; but when we returned, Bridget had recovered her wandering senses, and
was kneeling with clasped hands before Lucy, gazing at that sweet sad face as
though her troubled nature drank in health and peace from every moment's
contemplation. A faint tinge on Lucy's pale cheeks showed me that she was aware
of our return; otherwise it appeared as if she was conscious of her influence
for good over the passionate and troubled woman kneeling before her, and would
not willingly avert her grave and loving eyes from that wrinkled and careworn
countenance.
Suddenly—in the twinkling of
an eye—the creature appeared, there, behind Lucy; fearfully the same as to
outward semblance, but kneeling exactly as Bridget knelt, and clasping her
hands in jesting mimicry as Bridget clasped hers in her ecstasy that was
deepening into a prayer. Mistress Clarke cried out—Bridget arose slowly, her
gaze fixed on the creature beyond: drawing her breath with a hissing sound,
never moving her terrible eyes, that were steady as stone, she made a dart at
the phantom, and caught, as I had done, a mere handful of empty air. We saw no
more of the creature—it vanished as suddenly as it came, but Bridget looked
slowly on, as if watching some receding form. Lucy sat still, white, trembling,
drooping—I think she would have swooned if I had not been there to uphold her.
While I was attending to her, Bridget passed us, without a word to any one,
and, entering her cottage, she barred herself in, and left us without.
All our endeavours were now
directed to get Lucy back to the house where she had tarried the night before.
Mistress Clarke told me that, not hearing from me (some letter must have
miscarried), she had grown impatient and despairing, and had urged Lucy to the
enterprise of coming to seek her grandmother; not telling her, indeed, of the
dread reputation she possessed, or how we suspected her of having so fearfully
blighted that innocent girl; but, at the same time, hoping much from the
mysterious stirring of blood, which Mistress Clarke trusted in for the removal
of the curse. They had come, by a different route from that which I had taken,
to a village inn not far from Coldholme, only the night before. This was the
first interview between ancestress and descendant.
All through the sultry noon
I wandered along the tangled wood-paths of the old neglected forest, thinking
where to turn for remedy in a matter so complicated and mysterious. Meeting a
countryman, I asked my way to the nearest clergyman, and went, hoping to obtain
some counsel from him. But he proved to be a coarse and common-minded man,
giving no time or attention to the intricacies of a case, but dashing out a
strong opinion involving immediate action. For instance, as soon as I named
Bridget Fitzgerald, he exclaimed:
'The Coldholme witch! the
Irish papist! I'd have had her ducked long since but for that other papist, Sir
Philip Tempest. He has had to threaten honest folk about here over and over
again, or they'd have had her up before the justices for her black doings. And
it's the law of the land that witches should be burnt! Ay, and of Scripture,
too, sir! Yet you see a papist, if he's a rich squire, can overrule both law
and Scripture. I'd carry a fagot myself to rid the country of her!'
Such a one could give me no
help. I rather drew back what I had already said; and tried to make the parson
forget it, by treating him to several pots of beer, in the village inn, to
which we had adjourned for our conference at his suggestion. I left him as soon
as I could, and returned to Coldholme, shaping my way past deserted Starkey
Manor-House, and coming upon it by the back. At that side were the oblong
remains of the old moat, the waters of which lay placid and motionless under
the crimson rays of the setting sun; with the forest-trees lying straight along
each side, and their deep-green foliage mirrored to blackness in the burnished
surface of the moat below—and the broken sun-dial at the end nearest the
hall—and the heron, standing on one leg at the water's edge, lazily looking
down for fish—the lonely and desolate house scarce needed the broken windows,
the weeds on the door-sill, the broken shutter softly flapping to and fro in
the twilight breeze, to fill up the picture of desertion and decay. I lingered
about the place until the growing darkness warned me on. And then I passed
along the path, cut by the orders of the last lady of Starkey Manor-House, that
led me to Bridget's cottage. I resolved at once to see her; and, in spite of
closed doors—it might be of resolved will—she should see me. So I knocked at
her door, gently, loudly, fiercely. I shook it so vehemently that at length the
old hinges gave way, and with a crash it fell inwards, leaving me suddenly face
to face with Bridget—I, red, heated, agitated with my so long-baffled
efforts—she, stiff as any stone, standing right facing me, her eyes dilated
with terror, her ashen lips trembling, but her body motionless. In her hands
she held her crucifix, as if by that holy symbol she sought to oppose my
entrance. At sight of me, her whole frame relaxed, and she sank back upon a
chair. Some mighty tension had given way. Still her eyes looked fearfully into
the gloom of the outer air, made more opaque by the glimmer of the lamp inside,
which she had placed before the picture of the Virgin.
'Is she there?' asked
Bridget, hoarsely.
'No! Who? I am alone. You
remember me.'
'Yes,' replied she, still
terror-stricken. 'But she—that creature—has been looking in upon me through
that window all day long. I closed it up with my shawl; and then I saw her feet
below the door, as long as it was light, and I knew she heard my very
breathing—nay, worse, my very prayers; and I could not pray, for her listening
choked the words ere they rose to my lip. Tell me, who is she?—what means that
double girl I saw this morning? One had a look of my dead Mary; but the other
curdled my blood, and yet it was the same!'
She had taken hold of my
arm, as if to secure herself some human companionship. She shook all over with
the slight, never-ceasing tremor of intense terror. I told her my tale, as I
have told it you, sparing none of the details.
How Mistress Clarke had
informed me that the resemblance had driven Lucy forth from her father's
house—how I had disbelieved, until, with mine own eyes, I had seen another Lucy
standing behind my Lucy, the same in form and feature, but with the demon-soul
looking out of the eyes. I told her all, I say, believing that she—whose curse
was working so upon the life of her innocent grandchild—was the only person who
could find the remedy and the redemption. When I had done, she sat silent for
many minutes.
'You love Mary's child?' she
asked.
'I do, in spite of the
fearful working of the curse—I love her. Yet I shrink from her ever since that
day on the moor-side. And men must shrink from one so accompanied; friends and
lovers must stand afar off. Oh, Bridget Fitzgerald! loosen the curse! Set her
free!'
'Where is she?'
I eagerly caught at the idea
that her presence was needed, in order that, by some strange prayer or
exorcism, the spell might be reversed.
'I will go and bring her to
you,' I exclaimed. But Bridget tightened her hold upon my arm.
'Not so,' said she, in a
low, hoarse voice. 'It would kill me to see her again as I saw her this
morning. And I must live till I have worked my work. Leave me!' said she,
suddenly, and again taking up the cross. 'I defy the demon I have called up.
Leave me to wrestle with it!'
She stood up, as if in an
ecstasy of inspiration, from which all fear was banished. I lingered—why, I can
hardly tell—until once more she bade me begone. As I went along the forest way,
I looked back, and saw her planting the cross in the empty threshold, where the
door had been.
The next morning Lucy and I
went to seek her, to bid her join her prayers with ours. The cottage stood open
and wide to our gaze. No human being was there: the cross remained on the
threshold, but Bridget was gone.
Chapter 3
What was to be done next?
was the question that I asked myself. As for Lucy, she would fain have
submitted to the doom that lay upon her. Her gentleness and piety, under the
pressure of so horrible a life, seemed over-passive to me. She never
complained. Mrs. Clarke complained more than ever. As for me, I was more in
love with the real Lucy than ever; but I shrunk from the false similitude with
an intensity proportioned to my love. I found out by instinct that Mrs. Clarke
had occasional temptations to leave Lucy. The good lady's nerves were shaken, and,
from what she said, I could almost have concluded that the object of the Double
was to drive away from Lucy this last and almost earliest friend. At times, I
could scarcely bear to own it, but I myself felt inclined to turn recreant; and
I would accuse Lucy of being too patient—too resigned. One after another, she
won the little children of Coldholme. (Mrs. Clarke and she had resolved to stay
there, for was it not as good a place as any other to such as they? and did not
all our faint hopes rest on Bridget—never seen or heard of now, but still we
trusted to come back, or give some token?) So, as I say, one after another, the
little children came about my Lucy, won by her soft tones, and her gentle
smiles, and kind actions. Alas! one after another they fell away, and shrunk
from her path with blanching terror; and we too surely guessed the reason why.
It was the last drop. I could bear it no longer. I resolved no more to linger
around the spot, but to go back to my uncle, and among the learned divines of the
city of London, seek for some power whereby to annul the curse.
My uncle, meanwhile, had
obtained all the requisite testimonials relating to Lucy's descent and birth,
from the Irish lawyers, and from Mr. Gisborne. The latter gentleman had written
from abroad (he was again serving in the Austrian army), a letter alternately
passionately self-reproachful and stoically repellent. It was evident that when
he thought of Mary—her short life—how he had wronged her, and of her violent
death, he could hardly find words severe enough for his own conduct; and from
this point of view, the curse that Bridget had laid upon him and his was
regarded by him as a prophetic doom, to the utterance of which she was moved by
a Higher Power, working for the fulfilment of a deeper vengeance than for the
death of the poor dog. But then, again, when he came to speak of his daughter,
the repugnance which the conduct of the demoniac creature had produced in his
mind, was but ill disguised under a show of profound indifference as to Lucy's
fate. One almost felt as if he would have been as content to put her out of
existence, as he would have been to destroy some disgusting reptile that had
invaded his chamber or his couch.
The great Fitzgerald
property was Lucy's; and that was all—was nothing.
My uncle and I sat in the
gloom of a London November evening, in our house in Ormond Street. I was
out of health, and felt as if I were in an inextricable coil of misery. Lucy
and I wrote to each other, but that was little; and we dared not see each other
for dread of the fearful Third, who had more than once taken her place at our
meetings. My uncle had, on the day I speak of, bidden prayers to be put up, on
the ensuing Sabbath, in many a church and meeting-house in London, for one
grievously tormented by an evil spirit. He had faith in prayers—I had none; I
was fast losing faith in all things. So we sat—he trying to interest me in the
old talk of other days, I oppressed by one thought—when our old servant,
Anthony, opened the door, and, without speaking, showed in a very gentlemanly
and prepossessing man, who had something remarkable about his dress, betraying
his profession to be that of the Roman Catholic priesthood. He glanced at my
uncle first, then at me. It was to me he bowed. 'I did not give my name,' said
he, 'because you would hardly have recognised it; unless, sir, when in the
north, you heard of Father Bernard, the chaplain at Stoney Hurst?'
I remembered afterwards that
I had heard of him, but at the time I had utterly forgotten it; so I professed
myself a complete stranger to him; while my ever-hospitable uncle, although
hating a papist as much as it was in his nature to hate anything, placed a
chair for the visitor, and bade Anthony bring glasses and a fresh jug of
claret.
Father Bernard received this
courtesy with the graceful ease and pleasant acknowledgment which belongs to
the man of the world. Then he turned to scan me with his keen glance. After
some slight conversation, entered into on his part, I am certain, with an
intention of discovering on what terms of confidence I stood with my uncle, he
paused, and said gravely:
'I am sent here with a
message to you, sir, from a woman to whom you have shown kindness, and who is
one of my penitents, in Antwerp—one Bridget Fitzgerald.'
'Bridget Fitzgerald!'
exclaimed I. 'In Antwerp? Tell me, sir, all that you can about her.'
'There is much to be said,'
he replied. 'But may I inquire if this gentleman—if your uncle is acquainted
with the particulars of which you and I stand informed?'
'All that I know, he knows,'
said I, eagerly laying my hand on my uncle's arm, as he made a motion as if to
quit the room.
'Then I have to speak before
two gentlemen who, however they may differ from me in faith, are yet fully
impressed with the fact, that there are evil powers going about continually to
take cognizance of our evil thoughts; and, if their Master gives them power, to
bring them into overt action. Such is my theory of the nature of that sin, of
which I dare not disbelieve—as some sceptics would have us do—the sin of
witchcraft. Of this deadly sin, you and I are aware Bridget Fitzgerald has been
guilty. Since you saw her last, many prayers have been offered in our churches,
many masses sung, many penances undergone, in order that, if God and the Holy Saints
so willed it, her sin might be blotted out. But it has not been so willed.'
'Explain to me,' said I,
'who you are, and how you come connected with Bridget. Why is she at Antwerp? I
pray you, sir, tell me more. If I am impatient, excuse me; I am ill and
feverish, and in consequence bewildered.'
There was something to me
inexpressibly soothing in the tone of voice with which he began to narrate, as
it were from the beginning, his acquaintance with Bridget.
'I had known Mr. and Mrs.
Starkey during their residence abroad, and so it fell out naturally that, when
I came as chaplain to the Sherburnes at Stoney Hurst, our acquaintance was
renewed; and thus I became the confessor of the whole family, isolated as they
were from the offices of the Church, Sherburne being their nearest neighbour
who professed the true faith. Of course, you are aware that facts revealed in
confession are sealed as in the grave; but I learnt enough of Bridget's
character to be convinced that I had to do with no common woman; one powerful
for good as for evil. I believe that I was able to give her spiritual
assistance from time to time, and that she looked upon me as a servant of that
Holy Church, which has such wonderful power of moving men's hearts, and
relieving them of the burden of their sins. I have known her cross the moors on
the wildest nights of storm, to confess and be absolved; and then she would
return, calmed and subdued, to her daily work about her mistress, no one
witting where she had been during the hours that most passed in sleep upon
their beds. After her daughter's departure—after Mary's mysterious
disappearance—I had to impose many a long penance, in order to wash away the
sin of impatient repining that was fast leading her into the deeper guilt of
blasphemy. She set out on that long journey of which you have possibly
heard—that fruitless journey in search of Mary—and during her absence, my
superiors ordered my return to my former duties at Antwerp, and for many years
I heard no more of Bridget.
'Not many months ago, as I
was passing homewards in the evening, along one of the streets near St.
Jacques, leading into the Meer Straet, I saw a woman sitting crouched up under
the shrine of the Holy Mother of Sorrows. Her hood was drawn over her head, so
that the shadow caused by the light of the lamp above fell deep over her face;
her hands were clasped round her knees. It was evident that she was some one in
hopeless trouble, and as such it was my duty to stop and speak. I naturally
addressed her first in Flemish, believing her to be one of the lower class of
inhabitants. She shook her head, but did not look up. Then I tried French, and
she replied in that language, but speaking it so indifferently, that I was sure
she was either English or Irish, and consequently spoke to her in my own native
tongue. She recognised my voice; and, starting up, caught at my robes, dragging
me before the blessed shrine, and throwing herself down, and forcing me, as
much by her evident desire as by her action, to kneel beside her, she exclaimed:
'"O Holy Virgin! you
will never hearken to me again, but hear him; for you know him of old, that he
does your bidding, and strives to heal broken hearts. Hear him!"
'She turned to me.
'"She will hear you, if
you will only pray. She never hears me: she and all the saints in Heaven cannot
hear my prayers, for the Evil One carries them off, as he carried that first
away. O, Father Bernard, pray for me!"
'I prayed for one in sore
distress, of what nature I could not say; but the Holy Virgin would know.
Bridget held me fast, gasping with eagerness at the sound of my words. When I
had ended, I rose, and, making the sign of the Cross over her, I was going to
bless her in the name of the Holy Church, when she shrank away like some
terrified creature, and said:
'"I am guilty of deadly
sin, and am not shriven."
'"Arise, my
daughter," said I, "and come with me." And I led the way into
one of the confessionals of St. Jacques.
'She knelt; I listened. No
words came. The evil powers had stricken her dumb, as I heard afterwards they
had many a time before, when she approached confession.
'She was too poor to pay for
the necessary forms of exorcism; and hitherto those priests to whom she had
addressed herself were either so ignorant of the meaning of her broken French,
or her Irish-English, or else esteemed her to be one crazed—as, indeed, her
wild and excited manner might easily have led any one to think—that they had
neglected the sole means of loosening her tongue, so that she might confess her
deadly sin, and after due penance, obtain absolution. But I knew Bridget of
old, and felt that she was a penitent sent to me. I went through those holy
offices appointed by our church for the relief of such a case. I was the more
bound to do this, as I found that she had come to Antwerp for the sole purpose
of discovering me, and making confession to me. Of the nature of that fearful
confession I am forbidden to speak. Much of it you know; possibly all.
'It now remains for her to
free herself from mortal guilt, and to set others free from the consequences
thereof. No prayer, no masses, will ever do it, although they may strengthen
her with that strength by which alone acts of deepest love and purest
self-devotion may be performed. Her words of passion, and cries for revenge—her
unholy prayers could never reach the ears of the Holy Saints! Other powers
intercepted them, and wrought so that the curses thrown up to Heaven have
fallen on her own flesh and blood; and so, through her very strength of love,
have bruised and crushed her heart. Henceforward her former self must be
buried,—yea, buried quick, if need be,—but never more to make sign, or utter
cry on earth! She has become a Poor Clare, in order that, by perpetual penance
and constant service of others, she may at length so act as to obtain final
absolution and rest for her soul. Until then, the innocent must suffer. It is
to plead for the innocent that I come to you; not in the name of the witch,
Bridget Fitzgerald, but of the penitent and servant of all men, the Poor Clare,
Sister Magdalen.'
'Sir,' said I, 'I listen to
your request with respect; only I may tell you it is not needed to urge me to
do all that I can on behalf of one, love for whom is part of my very life. If
for a time I have absented myself from her, it is to think and work for her
redemption. I, a member of the English Church—my uncle, a Puritan—pray morning
and night for her by name: the congregations of London, on the next Sabbath,
will pray for one unknown, that she may be set free from the Powers of
Darkness. Moreover, I must tell you, sir, that those evil ones touch not the
great calm of her soul. She lives her own pure and loving life, unharmed and
untainted, though all men fall off from her. I would I could have her faith!'
My uncle now spoke.
'Nephew,' said he, 'it seems
to me that this gentleman, although professing what I consider an erroneous
creed, has touched upon the right point in exhorting Bridget to acts of love
and mercy, whereby to wipe out her sin of hate and vengeance. Let us strive
after our fashion, by almsgiving and visiting of the needy and fatherless, to
make our prayers acceptable. Meanwhile, I myself will go down into the north,
and take charge of the maiden. I am too old to be daunted by man or demon. I
will bring her to this house as to a home; and let the Double come if it will!
A company of godly divines shall give it the meeting, and we will try issue.'
The kindly brave old man!
But Father Bernard sat on musing.
'All hate,' said he, 'cannot
be quenched in her heart; all Christian forgiveness cannot have entered into
her soul, or the demon would have lost its power. You said, I think, that her
grandchild was still tormented?'
'Still tormented!' I
replied, sadly, thinking of Mistress Clarke's last letter.
He rose to go. We afterwards
heard that the occasion of his coming to London was a secret political mission
on behalf of the Jacobites. Nevertheless, he was a good and a wise man.
Months and months passed
away without any change. Lucy entreated my uncle to leave her where she
was,—dreading, as I learnt, lest if she came, with her fearful companion, to
dwell in the same house with me, that my love could not stand the repeated
shocks to which I should be doomed. And this she thought from no distrust of
the strength of my affection, but from a kind of pitying sympathy for the
terror to the nerves which she observed that the demoniac visitation caused in
all.
I was restless and
miserable. I devoted myself to good works; but I performed them from no spirit
of love, but solely from the hope of reward and payment, and so the reward was
never granted. At length, I asked my uncle's leave to travel; and I went forth,
a wanderer, with no distincter end than that of many another wanderer—to get
away from myself. A strange impulse led me to Antwerp, in spite of the wars and
commotions then raging in the Low Countries—or rather, perhaps, the very
craving to become interested in something external, led me into the thick of
the struggle then going on with the Austrians. The cities of Flanders were all
full at that time of civil disturbances and rebellions, only kept down by
force, and the presence of an Austrian garrison in every place.
I arrived in Antwerp, and
made inquiry for Father Bernard. He was away in the country for a day or two.
Then I asked my way to the Convent of Poor Clares; but, being healthy and
prosperous, I could only see the dim, pent-up, grey walls, shut closely in by
narrow streets, in the lowest part of the town. My landlord told me, that had I
been stricken by some loathsome disease, or in desperate case of any kind, the
Poor Clares would have taken me, and tended me. He spoke of them as an order of
mercy of the strictest kind, dressing scantily in the coarsest materials, going
barefoot, living on what the inhabitants of Antwerp chose to bestow, and
sharing even those fragments and crumbs with the poor and helpless that swarmed
all around; receiving no letters or communication with the outer world; utterly
dead to everything but the alleviation of suffering. He smiled at my inquiring
whether I could get speech of one of them; and told me that they were even
forbidden to speak for the purposes of begging their daily food; while yet they
lived, and fed others upon what was given in charity.
'But,' exclaimed I,
'supposing all men forgot them! Would they quietly lie down and die, without
making sign of their extremity?'
'If such were their rule,
the Poor Clares would willingly do it; but their founder appointed a remedy for
such extreme case as you suggest. They have a bell—'tis but a small one, as I
have heard, and has yet never been rung in the memory of man: when the Poor
Clares have been without food for twenty-four hours, they may ring this bell,
and then trust to our good people of Antwerp for rushing to the rescue of the
Poor Clares, who have taken such blessed care of us in all our straits.'
It seemed to me that such
rescue would be late in the day; but I did not say what I thought. I rather
turned the conversation, by asking my landlord if he knew, or had ever heard,
anything of a certain Sister Magdalen.
'Yes,' said he, rather under
his breath; 'news will creep out, even from a convent of Poor Clares. Sister
Magdalen is either a great sinner or a great saint. She does more, as I have
heard, than all the other nuns put together; yet, when last month they would
fain have made her mother-superior, she begged rather that they would place her
below all the rest, and make her the meanest servant of all.'
'You never saw her?' asked
I.
'Never,' he replied.
I was weary of waiting for
Father Bernard, and yet I lingered in Antwerp. The political state of things
became worse than ever, increased to its height by the scarcity of food
consequent on many deficient harvests. I saw groups of fierce, squalid men, at
every corner of the street, glaring out with wolfish eyes at my sleek skin and
handsome clothes.
At last Father Bernard
returned. We had a long conversation, in which he told me that, curiously
enough, Mr. Gisborne, Lucy's father, was serving in one of the Austrian
regiments, then in garrison at Antwerp. I asked Father Bernard if he would make
us acquainted; which he consented to do. But, a day or two afterwards, he told
me that, on hearing my name, Mr. Gisborne had declined responding to any
advances on my part, saying he had abjured his country, and hated his
countrymen.
Probably he recollected my
name in connection with that of his daughter Lucy. Anyhow, it was clear enough
that I had no chance of making his acquaintance. Father Bernard confirmed me in
my suspicions of the hidden fermentation, for some coming evil, working among
the 'blouses' of Antwerp, and he would fain have had me depart from out the
city; but I rather craved the excitement of danger, and stubbornly refused to
leave.
One day, when I was walking
with him in the Place Verte, he bowed to an Austrian officer, who was crossing
towards the cathedral.
'That is Mr. Gisborne,' said
he, as soon as the gentleman was past.
I turned to look at the
tall, slight figure of the officer. He carried himself in a stately manner,
although he was past middle age, and from his years, might have had some excuse
for a slight stoop. As I looked at the man, he turned round, his eyes met mine,
and I saw his face. Deeply lined, sallow, and scathed was that countenance;
scarred by passion as well as by the fortunes of war. 'Twas but a moment our
eyes met. We each turned round, and went on our separate way.
But his whole appearance was
not one to be easily forgotten; the thorough appointment of the dress, and
evident thought bestowed on it, made but an incongruous whole with the dark,
gloomy expression of his countenance. Because he was Lucy's father, I sought
instinctively to meet him everywhere. At last he must have become aware of my
pertinacity, for he gave me a haughty scowl whenever I passed him. In one of
these encounters, however, I chanced to be of some service to him. He was
turning the corner of a street, and came suddenly on one of the groups of
discontented Flemings of whom I have spoken. Some words were exchanged, when my
gentleman out with his sword, and with a slight but skilful cut drew blood from
one of those who had insulted him, as he fancied, though I was too far off to
hear the words. They would all have fallen upon him had I not rushed forwards
and raised the cry, then well known in Antwerp, of rally, to the Austrian
soldiers who were perpetually patrolling the streets, and who came in numbers
to the rescue. I think that neither Mr. Gisborne nor the mutinous group of
plebeians owed me much gratitude for my interference. He had planted himself
against a wall, in a skilful attitude of fence, ready with his bright glancing
rapier to do battle with all the heavy, fierce, unarmed men, some six or seven
in number. But when his own soldiers came up, he sheathed his sword; and,
giving some careless word of command, sent them away again, and continued his
saunter all alone down the street, the workmen snarling in his rear, and more
than half-inclined to fall on me for my cry for rescue. I cared not if they
did, my life seemed so dreary a burden just then; and, perhaps, it was this
daring loitering among them that prevented their attacking me. Instead, they
suffered me to fall into conversation with them; and I heard some of their
grievances. Sore and heavy to be borne were they, and no wonder the sufferers
were savage and desperate.
The man whom Gisborne had
wounded across his face would fain have got out of me the name of his
aggressor, but I refused to tell it. Another of the group heard his inquiry,
and made answer:
'I know the man. He is one
Gisborne, aide-de-camp to the General-Commandant. I know him well.'
He began to tell some story
in connection with Gisborne in a low and muttering voice; and while he was
relating a tale, which I saw excited their evil blood, and which they evidently
wished me not to hear, I sauntered away and back to my lodgings.
That night Antwerp was in
open revolt. The inhabitants rose in rebellion against their Austrian masters.
The Austrians, holding the gates of the city, remained at first pretty quiet in
the citadel; only, from time to time, the boom of a great cannon swept sullenly
over the town. But, if they expected the disturbance to die away, and spend
itself in a few hours' fury, they were mistaken. In a day or two, the rioters
held possession of the principal municipal buildings. Then the Austrians poured
forth in bright flaming array, calm and smiling, as they marched to the posts
assigned, as if the fierce mob were no more to them than the swarms of buzzing
summer flies. Their practised manœuvres, their well-aimed shot, told with
terrible effect; but in the place of one slain rioter, three sprang up of his
blood to avenge his loss. But a deadly foe, a ghastly ally of the Austrians,
was at work. Food, scarce and dear for months, was now hardly to be obtained at
any price. Desperate efforts were being made to bring provisions into the city,
for the rioters had friends without. Close to the city port nearest to the
Scheldt, a great struggle took place. I was there, helping the rioters, whose
cause I had adopted. We had a savage encounter with the Austrians. Numbers fell
on both sides; I saw them lie bleeding for a moment; then a volley of smoke
obscured them; and when it cleared away, they were dead—trampled upon or
smothered, pressed down and hidden by the freshly-wounded whom those last guns
had brought low. And then a grey-robed and grey-veiled figure came right across
the flashing guns, and stooped over some one, whose life-blood was ebbing away;
sometimes it was to give him drink from cans which they carried slung at their
sides, sometimes I saw the cross held above a dying man, and rapid prayers were
being uttered, unheard by men in that hellish din and clangour, but listened to
by One above. I saw all this as in a dream: the reality of that stern time was
battle and carnage. But I knew that these grey figures, their bare feet all wet
with blood, and their faces hidden by their veils, were the Poor Clares—sent
forth now because dire agony was abroad and imminent danger at hand. Therefore,
they left their cloistered shelter, and came into that thick and evil mêlée.
Close to me—driven past me
by the struggle of many fighters—came the Antwerp burgess with the
scarce-healed scar upon his face; and in an instant more, he was thrown by the
press upon the Austrian officer Gisborne, and ere either had recovered the
shock, the burgess had recognised his opponent.
'Ha! the Englishman
Gisborne!' he cried, and threw himself upon him with redoubled fury. He had
struck him hard—the Englishman was down; when out of the smoke came a dark-grey
figure, and threw herself right under the uplifted flashing sword. The
burgess's arm stood arrested. Neither Austrians nor Anversois willingly harmed
the Poor Clares.
'Leave him to me!' said a
low stern voice. 'He is mine enemy—mine for many years.'
Those words were the last I
heard. I myself was struck down by a bullet. I remember nothing more for days.
When I came to myself, I was at the extremity of weakness, and was craving for
food to recruit my strength. My landlord sat watching me. He, too, looked pinched
and shrunken; he had heard of my wounded state, and sought me out. Yes! the
struggle still continued, but the famine was sore; and some, he had heard, had
died for lack of food. The tears stood in his eyes as he spoke. But soon he
shook off his weakness, and his natural cheerfulness returned. Father Bernard
had been to see me—no one else. (Who should, indeed?) Father Bernard would come
back that afternoon—he had promised. But Father Bernard never came, although I
was up and dressed, and looking eagerly for him.
My landlord brought me a
meal which he had cooked himself: of what it was composed he would not say, but
it was most excellent, and with every mouthful I seemed to gain strength. The
good man sat looking at my evident enjoyment with a happy smile of sympathy;
but, as my appetite became satisfied, I began to detect a certain wistfulness
in his eyes, as if craving for the food I had so nearly devoured—for, indeed,
at that time I was hardly aware of the extent of the famine. Suddenly, there
was a sound of many rushing feet past our window. My landlord opened one of the
sides of it, the better to learn what was going on. Then we heard a faint,
cracked, tinkling bell, coming shrill upon clear and distinct from all other
sounds. 'Holy Mother!' exclaimed my landlord, 'the Poor Clares!'
He snatched up the fragments
of my meal, and crammed them into my hands, bidding me follow. Down-stairs he
ran, clutching at more food, as the women of his house eagerly held it out to
him; and in a moment we were in the street, moving along with the great
current, all tending towards the Convent of the Poor Clares. And still, as if
piercing our ears with its inarticulate cry, came the shrill tinkle of the
bell. In that strange crowd were old men trembling and sobbing, as they carried
their little pittance of food; women with the tears running down their cheeks,
who had snatched up what provisions they had in the vessels in which they
stood, so that the burden of these was in many cases much greater than that
which they contained; children, with flushed faces, grasping tight the morsel
of bitten cake or bread, in their eagerness to carry it safe to the help of the
Poor Clares; strong men—yea, both Anversois and Austrians—pressing onwards with
set teeth, and no word spoken; and over all, and through all, came that sharp
tinkle—that cry for help in extremity.
We met the first torrent of
people returning with blanched and piteous faces: they were issuing out of the
convent to make way for the offerings of others. 'Haste, haste!' said they.
'A Poor Clare is dying! A
Poor Clare is dead for hunger! God forgive us, and our city!'
We pressed on. The stream
bore us along where it would. We were carried through refectories, bare and
crumbless; into cells over whose doors the conventual name of the occupant was
written. Thus it was that I, with others, was forced into Sister Magdalen's
cell. On her couch lay Gisborne, pale unto death, but not dead. By his side was
a cup of water, and a small morsel of mouldy bread, which he had pushed out of
his reach, and could not move to obtain. Over against his bed were these words,
copied in the English version: 'Therefore, if thine enemy hunger, feed him; if
he thirst, give him drink.'
Some of us gave him of our
food, and left him eating greedily, like some famished wild animal. For now it
was no longer the sharp tinkle, but that one solemn toll, which in all
Christian countries tells of the passing of the spirit out of earthly life into
eternity; and again a murmur gathered and grew, as of many people speaking with
awed breath, 'A Poor Clare is dying! a Poor Clare is dead!'
Borne along once more by the
motion of the crowd, we were carried into the chapel belonging to the Poor
Clares. On a bier before the high altar, lay a woman—lay sister Magdalen—lay
Bridget Fitzgerald. By her side stood Father Bernard, in his robes of office,
and holding the crucifix on high while he pronounced the solemn absolution of
the Church, as to one who had newly confessed herself of deadly sin. I pushed
on with passionate force, till I stood close to the dying woman, as she
received extreme unction amid the breathless and awed hush of the multitude
around. Her eyes were glazing, her limbs were stiffening; but when the rite was
over and finished, she raised her gaunt figure slowly up, and her eyes
brightened to a strange intensity of joy, as, with the gesture of her finger
and the trance-like gleam of her eye, she seemed like one who watched the
disappearance of some loathed and fearful creature.
'She is freed from the
curse!' said she, as she fell back dead.
Now, of all our party who
had first listened to my Lady Ludlow, Mr. Preston was the only one who had not
told us something, either of information, tradition, history, or legend. We
naturally turned to him; but we did not like asking him directly for his
contribution, for he was a grave, reserved, and silent man.
He understood us, however,
and, rousing himself as it were, he said:
'I know you wish me to tell
you, in my turn, of something which I have learnt or heard during my life. I
could tell you something of my own life, and of a life dearer still to my
memory; but I have shrunk from narrating anything so purely personal. Yet,
shrink as I will, no other but those sad recollections will present themselves
to my mind. I call them sad when I think of the end of it all. However I am not
going to moralize. If my dear brother's life and death does not speak for
itself, no words of mine will teach you what may be learnt from it.'
3.LOIS THE WITCH
Chapter 1
In the year 1691, Lois Barclay
stood on a little wooden pier, steadying herself on the stable land, in much
the same manner as, eight or nine weeks ago, she had tried to steady herself on
the deck of the rocking ship which had carried her across from Old to New
England. It seemed as strange now to be on solid earth as it had been, not long
ago, to be rocked by the sea, both by day and by night; and the aspect of the
land was equally strange. The forests which showed in the distance all round,
and which, in truth, were not very far from the wooden houses forming the town
of Boston, were of different shades of green, and different, too, in shape of
outline to those which Lois Barclay knew well in her old home in Warwickshire.
Her heart sank a little as she stood alone, waiting for the captain of the good
ship Redemption, the kind rough old sailor, who was her only known friend in
this unknown continent. Captain Holdernesse was busy, however, as she saw, and
it would probably be some time before he would be ready to attend, to her; so
Lois sat down on one of the casks that lay about, and wrapped her grey duffle
cloak tight around her, and sheltered herself under her hood, as well as might
be, from the piercing wind, which seemed to follow those whom it had tyrannized
over at sea with a dogged wish of still tormenting them on land. Very patiently
did Lois sit there, although she was weary, and shivering with cold; for the
day was severe for May, and the Redemption, with store of necessaries and
comforts for the Puritan colonists of New England, was the earliest ship that
had ventured across the seas.
How could Lois help thinking
of the past, and speculating on the future, as she sat on Boston pier, at this
breathing-time of her life? In the dim sea-mist which she gazed upon with
aching eyes (filled, against her will, with tears, from time to time), there
rose the little village church of Barford (not three miles from Warwick—you may
see it yet), where her father had preached ever since 1661, long before she was
born. He and her mother both lay dead in Barford churchyard; and the old low
grey church could hardly come before her vision without her seeing the old
parsonage too, the cottage covered with Austrian roses, and yellow jessamine,
where she had been born, sole child of parents already long past the prime of
youth. She saw the path, not a hundred yards long, from the parsonage to the
vestry door: that path which her father trod daily; for the vestry was his
study, and the sanctum, where he pored over the ponderous tomes of the Father,
and compared their precepts with those of the authorities of the Anglican
Church of that day—the day of the later Stuarts; for Barford Parsonage at that
time scarcely exceeded in size and dignity the cottages by which it was
surrounded: it only contained three rooms on a floor, and was but two stories
high. On the first, or ground floor, were the parlour, kitchen, and back or
working kitchen; up-stairs, Mr. and Mrs. Barclay's room, that belonging to
Lois, and the maid-servant's room. If a guest came, Lois left her own chamber,
and shared old Clemence's bed. But those days were over. Never more should Lois
see father or mother on earth; they slept, calm and still, in Barford
churchyard, careless of what became of their orphan child, as far as earthly
manifestations of care or love went. And Clemence lay there too, bound down in
her grassy bed by withes of the briar-rose, which Lois had trained over those
three precious graves before leaving England for ever.
There were some who would
fain have kept her there; one who swore in his heart a great oath unto the Lord
that he would seek her sooner or later, if she was still upon the earth. But he
was the rich heir and only son of the Miller Lucy, whose mill stood by the
Avon-side in the grassy Barford meadows, and his father looked higher for him
than the penniless daughter of Parson Barclay (so low were clergymen esteemed
in those days!); and the very suspicion of Hugh Lucy's attachment to Lois
Barclay made his parents think it more prudent not to offer the orphan a home, although
none other of the parishioners had the means, even if they had the will, to do
so.
So Lois swallowed her tears
down till the time came for crying, and acted upon her mother's words:
'Lois, thy father is dead of
this terrible fever, and I am dying. Nay, it is so, though I am easier from
pain for these few hours, the Lord be praised! The cruel men of the
Commonwealth have left thee very friendless. Thy father's only brother was shot
down at Edgehill. I, too, have a brother, though thou hast never heard me speak
of him, for he was a schismatic; and thy father and he had words, and he left
for that new country beyond the seas, without ever saying farewell to us. But
Ralph was a kind lad until he took up these new-fangled notions, and for the
old days' sake he will take thee in, and love thee as a child, and place thee
among his children. Blood is thicker than water. Write to him as soon as I am
gone—for Lois, I am going—and I bless the Lord that has letten me join my
husband again so soon.' Such was the selfishness of conjugal love; she thought
little of Lois's desolation in comparison with her rejoicing over her speedy
reunion with her dead husband! 'Write to thine uncle, Ralph Hickson, Salem, New
England (put it down, child, on thy tablets), and say that I, Henrietta
Barclay, charge him, for the sake of all he holds dear in heaven or on
earth,—for his salvation's sake, as well as for the sake of the old home at
Lester-bridge,—for the sake of the father and mother that gave us birth, as
well as for the sake of the six little children who lie dead between him and
me,—that he take thee into his home as if thou wert his own flesh and blood, as
indeed thou art. He has a wife and children of his own, and no one need fear
having thee, my Lois, my darling, my baby, among his household. Oh, Lois, would
that thou wert dying with me! The thought of thee makes death sore!' Lois
comforted her mother more than herself, poor child, by promises to obey her
dying wishes to the letter, and by expressing hopes she dared not feel of her
uncle's kindness.
'Promise me'—the dying
woman's breath came harder and harder—'that thou wilt go at once. The money our
goods will bring—the letter thy father wrote to Captain Holdernesse, his old
schoolfellow—thou knowest all I would say—my Lois, God bless thee!'
Solemnly did Lois promise;
strictly she kept her word. It was all the more easy, for Hugh Lucy met her,
and told her, in one great burst of love, of his passionate attachment, his
vehement struggles with his father, his impotence at present, his hope and
resolves for the future. And, intermingled with all this, came such outrageous
threats and expressions of uncontrolled vehemence, that Lois felt that in
Barford she must not linger to be a cause of desperate quarrel between father
and son, while her absence might soften down matters, so that either the rich
old miller might relent, or—and her heart ached to think of the other
possibility—Hugh's love might cool, and the dear play-fellow of her childhood
learn to forget. If not—if Hugh were to be trusted in one tithe of what he
said—God might permit him to fulfil his resolve of coming to seek her out
before many years were over. It was all in God's hands, and that was best,
thought Lois Barclay.
She was roused out of her
trance of recollections by Captain Holdernesse, who, having done all that was
necessary in the way of orders and directions to his mate, now came up to her,
and, praising her for her quiet patience, told her that he would now take her
to the Widow Smith's, a decent kind of house, where he and many other sailors
of the better order were in the habit of lodging, during their stay on the New
England shores. Widow Smith, he said, had a parlour for herself and her
daughters, in which Lois might sit, while he went about the business that, as
he had told her, would detain him in Boston for a day or two, before he could
accompany her to her uncle's at Salem. All this had been to a certain degree
arranged on ship-board; but Captain Holdernesse, for want of anything else that
he could think of to talk about, recapitulated it as he and Lois walked along.
It was his way of showing sympathy with the emotion that made her grey eyes
full of tears, as she started up from the pier at the sound of his voice. In
his heart he said, 'Poor wench! poor wench! it's a strange land to her, and
they are all strange folks, and, I reckon, she will be feeling desolate. I'll
try and cheer her up.' So he talked on about hard facts, connected with the
life that lay before her, until they reached Widow Smith's; and perhaps Lois
was more brightened by this style of conversation, and the new ideas it
presented to her, than she would have been by the tenderest woman's sympathy.
'They are a queer set, these
New Englanders,' said Captain Holdernesse. 'They are rare chaps for praying;
down on their knees at every turn of their life. Folk are none so busy in a new
country, else they would have to pray like me, with a "Yo-hoy!" on
each side of my prayers, and a rope cutting like fire through my hand. Yon pilot
was for calling us all to thanksgiving for a good voyage, and lucky escape from
the pirates; but I said I always put up my thanks on dry land, after I had got
my ship into harbour. The French colonists, too, are vowing vengeance for the
expedition against Canada, and the people here are raging like heathens—at
least, as like as godly folk can be—for the loss of their charter. All that is
the news the pilot told me; for, for all he wanted us to be thanksgiving
instead of casting the lead, he was as down in the mouth as could be about the
state of the country. But here we are at Widow Smith's! Now, cheer up, and show
the godly a pretty smiling Warwickshire lass!'
Anybody would have smiled at
Widow Smith's greeting. She was a comely, motherly woman, dressed in the primmest
fashion in vogue twenty years before, in England, among the class to which she
belonged. But, somehow, her pleasant face gave the lie to her dress; were it as
brown and sober-coloured as could be, folk remembered it bright and cheerful,
because it was a part of Widow Smith herself.
She kissed Lois on both
cheeks, before she rightly understood who the stranger maiden was, only because
she was a stranger, and looked sad and forlorn; and then she kissed her again,
because Captain Holdernesse commended her to the widow's good offices. And so
she led Lois by the hand into her rough, substantial log-house, over the door
of which hung a great bough of a tree, by way of sign of entertainment for man
and horse. Yet not all men were received by Widow Smith. To some she could be
as cold and reserved as need be, deaf to all inquiries save one—where else they
could find accommodation? To this question she would give a ready answer, and
speed the unwelcome guest on his way. Widow Smith was guided in these matters
by instinct: one glance at a man's face told her whether or not she chose to
have him as an inmate of the same house as her daughters; and her promptness of
decision in these matters gave her manner a kind of authority which no one
liked to disobey, especially as she had stalwart neighbours within call to back
her, if her assumed deafness in the first instance, and her voice and gesture
in the second, were not enough to give the would-be guest his dismissal. Widow
Smith chose her customers merely by their physical aspect; not one whit with
regard to their apparent worldly circumstances. Those who had been staying at
her house once, always came again, for she had the knack of making every one
beneath her roof comfortable and at his ease. Her daughters, Prudence and
Hester, had somewhat of their mother's gifts, but not in such perfection. They
reasoned a little upon a stranger's appearance, instead of knowing at the first
moment whether they liked him or no; they noticed the indications of his
clothes, the quality and cut thereof, as telling somewhat of his station in
society; they were more reserved, they hesitated more than their mother; they
had not her prompt authority, her happy power. Their bread was not so light,
their cream went sometimes to sleep when it should have been turning into
butter, their hams were not always 'just like the hams of the old country,' as
their mother's were invariably pronounced to be; yet they were good, orderly,
kindly girls, and rose and greeted Lois with a friendly shake of the hand, as
their mother, with her arm round the stranger's waist, led her into the private
room which she called her parlour. The aspect of this room was strange in the
English girl's eyes. The logs of which the house was built, showed here and
there through the mud plaster, although before both plaster and logs were hung
the skins of many curious animals,—skins presented to the widow by many a
trader of her acquaintance, just as her sailor guests brought her another
description of gift—shells, strings of wampum-beads, sea-birds' eggs, and
presents from the old country. The room was more like a small museum of natural
history of these days than a parlour; and it had a strange, peculiar, but not
unpleasant smell about it, neutralized in some degree by the smoke from the
enormous trunk of pinewood which smouldered on the hearth.
The instant their mother
told them that Captain Holdernesse was in the outer room, the girls began
putting away their spinning-wheel and knitting-needles, and preparing for a
meal of some kind; what meal, Lois, sitting there and unconsciously watching,
could hardly tell. First, dough was set to rise for cakes; then came out of a
corner cupboard—a present from England—an enormous square bottle of a cordial
called Golden Wasser; next, a mill for grinding chocolate—a rare unusual treat
anywhere at that time; then a great Cheshire cheese. Three venison steaks were
cut ready for broiling, fat cold pork sliced up and treacle poured over it, a
great pie something like a mince-pie, but which the daughters spoke of with
honour as the 'punken-pie,' fresh and salt fish brandered, oysters cooked in
various ways. Lois wondered where would be the end of the provisions for
hospitably receiving the strangers from the old country. At length everything
was placed on the table, the hot food smoking; but all was cool, not to say
cold, before Elder Hawkins (an old neighbour of much repute and standing, who
had been invited in by Widow Smith to hear the news) had finished his grace,
into which was embodied thanksgivings for the past and prayers for the future
lives of every individual present, adapted to their several cases, as far as
the elder could guess at them from appearances. This grace might not have ended
so soon as it did, had it not been for the somewhat impatient drumming of his
knife-handle on the table with which Captain Holdernesse accompanied the latter
half of the elder's words.
When they first sat down to
their meal, all were too hungry for much talking; but as their appetites
diminished their curiosity increased, and there was much to be told and heard
on both sides. With all the English intelligence Lois was, of course, well
acquainted; but she listened with natural attention to all that was said about
the new country, and the new people among whom she had come to live. Her father
had been a Jacobite, as the adherents of the Stuarts were beginning at this
time to be called. His father, again, had been a follower of Archbishop Laud;
so Lois had hitherto heard little of the conversation, and seen little of the
ways of the Puritans. Elder Hawkins was one of the strictest of the strict, and
evidently his presence kept the two daughters of the house considerably in awe.
But the widow herself was a privileged person; her known goodness of heart (the
effects of which had been experienced by many) gave her the liberty of speech
which was tacitly denied to many, under penalty of being esteemed ungodly if
they infringed certain conventional limits. And Captain Holdernesse and his
mate spoke out their minds, let who would be present. So that on this first
landing in New England, Lois was, as it were, gently let down into the midst of
the Puritan peculiarities, and yet they were sufficient to make her feel very
lonely and strange.
The first subject of
conversation was the present state of the colony—Lois soon found out that,
although at the beginning she was not a little perplexed by the frequent
reference to names of places which she naturally associated with the old
country. Widow Smith was speaking: 'In the county of Essex the folk are ordered
to keep four scouts, or companies of minute-men; six persons in each company;
to be on the look-out for the wild Indians, who are for ever stirring about in
the woods, stealthy brutes as they are! I am sure, I got such a fright the
first harvest-time after I came over to New England, I go on dreaming, now near
twenty years after Lothrop's business, of painted Indians, with their shaven
scalps and their war-streaks, lurking behind the trees, and coming nearer and
nearer with their noiseless steps.'
'Yes,' broke in one of her
daughters; 'and, mother, don't you remember how Hannah Benson told us how her
husband had cut down every tree near his house at Deerbrook, in order that no
one might come near him, under cover; and how one evening she was a-sitting in
the twilight, when all her family were gone to bed, and her husband gone off to
Plymouth on business, and she saw a log of wood, just like a trunk of a felled
tree, lying in the shadow, and thought nothing of it, till, on looking again a
while after, she fancied it was come a bit nearer to the house, and how her
heart turned sick with fright, and how she dared not stir at first, but shut
her eyes while she counted a hundred, and looked again, and the shadow was
deeper, but she could see that the log was nearer; so she ran in and bolted the
door, and went up to where her eldest lad lay. It was Elijah, and he was but
sixteen then; but he rose up at his mother's words, and took his father's long
duck-gun down, and he tried the loading, and spoke for the first time to put up
a prayer that God would give his aim good guidance, and went to a window that
gave a view upon the side where the log lay, and fired, and no one dared to
look what came of it, but all the household read the Scriptures, and prayed the
whole night long, till morning came and showed a long stream of blood lying on
the grass close by the log, which the full sunlight showed to be no log at all,
but just a Red Indian covered with bark, and painted most skilfully, with his war-knife
by his side.'
All were breathless with
listening, though to most the story, or such like it, were familiar. Then
another took up the tale of horror:
'And the pirates have been
down at Marblehead since you were here, Captain Holdernesse. 'Twas only the
last winter they landed,—French Papist pirates; and the people kept close
within their houses, for they knew not what would come of it; and they dragged
folk ashore. There was one woman among those folk—prisoners from some vessel,
doubtless—and the pirates took them by force to the inland marsh; and the
Marblehead folk kept still and quiet, every gun loaded, and every ear on the
watch, for who knew but what the wild sea-robbers might take a turn on land
next; and, in the dead of the night, they heard a woman's loud and pitiful
outcry from the marsh, 'Lord Jesu! have mercy on me! Save me from the power of
man, O Lord Jesu!' And the blood of all who heard the cry ran cold with terror,
till old Nance Hickson, who had been stone-deaf and bedridden for years, stood
up in the midst of the folk all gathered together in her grandson's house, and
said, that as they, the dwellers in Marblehead, had not had brave hearts or
faith enough to go and succour the helpless, that cry of a dying woman should
be in their ears, and in their children's ears, till the end of the world. And
Nance dropped down dead as soon as she had made an end of speaking, and the
pirates set sail from Marblehead at morning dawn; but the folk there hear the
cry still, shrill and pitiful, from the waste marshes, "Lord Jesu! have
mercy on me! Save me from the power of man, O Lord Jesu!"'
'And by token,' said Elder
Hawkins's deep bass voice, speaking with the strong nasal twang of the Puritans
(who, says Butler,
"Blasphemed custard
through the nose"),
'godly Mr. Noyes ordained a
fast at Marblehead, and preached a soul-stirring discourse on the words;
"Inasmuch as ye did it not unto one of the least of these, my brethren, ye
did it not unto me." But it has been borne in upon me at times, whether
the whole vision of the pirates and the cry of the woman was not a device of
Satan's to sift the Marblehead folk, and see what fruit their doctrine bore,
and so to condemn them in the sight of the Lord. If it were so, the enemy had a
great triumph, for assuredly it was no part of Christian men to leave a
helpless woman unaided in her sore distress.'
'But, Elder,' said Widow
Smith, 'it was no vision; they were real living men who went ashore, men who
broke down branches and left their footmarks on the ground.'
'As for that matter, Satan
hath many powers, and if it be the day when he is permitted to go about like a
roaring lion, he will not stick at trifles, but make his work complete. I tell
you, many men are spiritual enemies in visible forms, permitted to roam about
the waste places of the earth. I myself believe that these Red Indians are
indeed the evil creatures of whom we read in Holy Scripture; and there is no
doubt that they are in league with those abominable Papists, the French people
in Canada. I have heard tell, that the French pay the Indians so much gold for
every dozen scalps off Englishmen's heads.'
'Pretty cheerful talk this,'
said Captain Holdernesse to Lois, perceiving her blanched cheek and
terror-stricken mien. 'Thou art thinking that thou hadst better have stayed at
Barford, I'll answer for it, wench. But the devil is not so black as he is
painted.'
'Ho! there again!' said
Elder Hawkins. 'The devil is painted, it hath been said so from old times; and
are not these Indians painted, even like unto their father?'
'But is it all true?' asked
Lois, aside, of Captain Holdernesse, letting the elder hold forth unheeded by
her, though listened to, however, with the utmost reverence by the two
daughters of the house.
'My wench,' said the old
sailor, 'thou hast come to a country where there are many perils, both from
land and from sea. The Indians hate the white men. Whether other white men'
(meaning the French away to the north) 'have hounded on the savages, or whether
the English have taken their lands and hunting-grounds without due recompense,
and so raised the cruel vengeance of the wild creatures—who knows? But it is
true that it is not safe to go far into the woods, for fear of the lurking
painted savages; nor has it been safe to build a dwelling far from a
settlement; and it takes a brave heart to make a journey from one town to
another, and folk do say the Indian creatures rise up out of the very ground to
waylay the English; and then offers affirm they are all in league with Satan to
affright the Christians out of the heathen country over which he has reigned so
long. Then, again, the seashore is infested by pirates, the scum of all
nations: they land, and plunder, and ravage, and burn, and destroy. Folk get
affrighted of the real dangers, and in their fright imagine, perchance, dangers
that are not. But who knows? Holy Scripture speaks of witches and wizards, and
of the power of the Evil One in desert places; and even in the old country we
have heard tell of those who have sold their souls for ever for the little
power they get for a few years on earth.'
By this time the whole table
was silent, listening to the captain; it was just one of those chance silences
that sometimes occur, without any apparent reason, and often without any
apparent consequence. But all present had reason, before many months had-passed
over, to remember the words which Lois spoke in answer, although her voice was
low, and she only thought, in the interest of the moment, of being heard by her
old friend the captain.
'They are fearful creatures,
the witches! and yet I am sorry for the poor old women, whilst I dread them. We
had one in Barford, when I was a little child. No one knew whence she came, but
she settled herself down in a mud hut by the common side; and there she lived,
she and her cat.' (At the mention of the cat, Elder Hawkins shook his head long
and gloomily.) 'No one knew how she lived, if it were not on nettles and scraps
of oatmeal and such-like food given her more for fear than for pity. She went
double, always talking and muttering to herself. Folk said she snared birds and
rabbits, in the thicket that came down to her hovel. How it came to pass I
cannot say, but many a one fell sick in the village, and much cattle died one
spring, when I was near four years old. I never heard much about it, for my
father said it was ill talking about such things; I only know I got a sick
fright one afternoon, when the maid had gone out for milk and had taken me with
her, and we were passing a meadow where the Avon, circling, makes a deep round
pool, and there was a crowd of folk, all still—and a still, breathless crowd
makes the heart beat worse than a shouting, noisy one. They were all gazing
towards the water, and the maid held me up in her arms to see the sight above
the shoulders of the people; and I saw old Hannah in the water, her grey hair
all streaming down her shoulders, and her face bloody and black with the stones
and the mud they had been throwing at her, and her cat tied round her neck. I
hid my face, I know, as soon as I saw the fearsome sight, for her eyes met mine
as they were glaring with fury—poor, helpless, baited creature!—and she caught
the sight of me, and cried out, "Parson's wench, parson's wench, yonder,
in thy nurse's arms, thy dad hath never tried for to save me, and none shall
save thee when thou art brought up for a witch." Oh! the words rang in my
ears, when I was dropping asleep, for years after. I used to dream that I was
in that pond, all men hating me with their eyes because I was a witch; and, at
times, her black cat used to seem living again, and say over those dreadful
words.'
Lois stopped: the two
daughters looked at her excitement with a kind of shrinking surprise, for the
tears were in her eyes. Elder Hawkins shook his head, and muttered texts from
Scripture; but cheerful Widow Smith, not liking the gloomy turn of the
conversation, tried to give it a lighter cast by saying, 'And I don't doubt but
what the parson's bonny lass has bewitched many a one since, with her dimples
and her pleasant ways—eh, Captain Holdernesse? It's you must tell us tales of
this young lass' doings in England.'
'Ay, ay,' said the captain,
'there's one under her charms in Warwickshire who will never get the better of
it, I'm thinking.'
Elder Hawkins rose to speak;
he stood leaning on his hands, which were placed on the table: 'Brethren,' said
he, 'I must upbraid you if ye speak lightly; charms and witchcraft are evil
things. I trust this maiden hath had nothing to do with them, even in thought.
But my mind misgives me at her story. The hellish witch might have power from
Satan to infect her mind, she being yet a child, with the deadly sin. Instead
of vain talking, I call upon you all to join with me in prayer for this
stranger in our land, that her heart may be purged from all iniquity. Let us
pray.'
'Come, there's no harm in
that,' said the captain; 'but, Elder Hawkins, when you are at work, just pray
for us all, for I am afeard there be some of us need purging from iniquity a
good deal more than Lois Barclay, and a prayer for a man never does mischief.'
Captain Holdernesse had
business in Boston which detained him there for a couple of days, and during
that time Lois remained with the Widow Smith, seeing what was to be seen of the
new land that contained her future home. The letter of her dying mother was
sent off to Salem, meanwhile, by a lad going thither, in order to prepare her
Uncle Ralph Hickson for his niece's coming, as soon as Captain Holdernesse
could find leisure to take her; for he considered her given into his own personal
charge, until he could consign her to her uncle's care. When the time came for
going to Salem, Lois felt very sad at leaving the kindly woman under whose roof
she had been staying, and looked back as long as she could see anything of
Widow Smith's dwelling. She was packed into a rough kind of country cart, which
just held her and Captain Holdernesse, beside the driver. There was a basket of
provisions under their feet, and behind them hung a bag of provender for the
horse; for it was a good day's journey to Salem, and the road was reputed so
dangerous that it was ill tarrying a minute longer than necessary for
refreshment. English roads were bad enough at that period and for long after,
but in America the way was simply the cleared ground of the forest; the stumps
of the felled trees still remaining in the direct line, forming obstacles,
which it required the most careful driving to avoid; and in the hollows, where
the ground was swampy, the pulpy nature of it was obviated by logs of wood laid
across the boggy part. The deep green forest, tangled into heavy darkness even
thus early in the year, came within a few yards of the road all the way, though
efforts were regularly made by the inhabitants of the neighbouring settlements
to keep a certain space clear on each side, for fear of the lurking Indians,
who might otherwise come upon them unawares. The cries of strange birds, the
unwonted colour of some of them, all suggested to the imaginative or
unaccustomed traveller the idea of war-whoops and painted deadly enemies. But
at last they drew near to Salem, which rivalled Boston in size in those days,
and boasted the name of one or two streets, although to an English eye they
looked rather more like irregularly built houses, clustered round the
meeting-house, or rather one of the meeting-houses, for a second was in process
of building. The whole place was surrounded with two circles of stockades;
between the two were the gardens and grazing ground for those who dreaded their
cattle straying into the woods, and the consequent danger of reclaiming them.
The lad who drove them
flogged his spent horse into a trot, as they went through Salem to Ralph
Hickson's house. It was evening, the leisure time for the inhabitants, and
their children were at play before the houses. Lois was struck by the beauty of
one wee toddling child, and turned to look after it; it caught its little foot
in a stump of wood, and fell with a cry that brought the mother out in
affright. As she ran out, her eye caught Lois's anxious gaze, although the
noise of the heavy wheels drowned the sound of her words of inquiry as to the
nature of the hurt the child had received. Nor had Lois time to think long upon
the matter, for the instant after, the horse was pulled up at the door of a
good, square, substantial wooden house, plastered over into a creamy white,
perhaps as handsome a house as any in Salem; and there she was told by the
driver that her uncle, Ralph Hickson, lived. In the flurry of the moment she
did not notice, but Captain Holdernesse did, that no one came out at the
unwonted sound of wheels, to receive and welcome her. She was lifted down by
the old sailor, and led into a large room, almost like the hall of some English
manor-house as to size. A tall, gaunt young man of three or four and twenty,
sat on a bench by one of the windows, reading a great folio by the fading light
of day. He did not rise when they came in, but looked at them with surprise, no
gleam of intelligence coming into his stern, dark face. There was no woman in
the house-place. Captain Holdernesse paused a moment, and then said:
'Is this house Ralph
Hickson's?'
'It is,' said the young man,
in a slow, deep voice. But he added no word further.
'This is his niece, Lois
Barclay,' said the captain, taking the girl's arm, and pushing her forwards.
The young man looked at her steadily and gravely for a minute; then rose, and
carefully marking the page in the folio which hitherto had lain open upon his
knee, said, still in the same heavy, indifferent manner, 'I will call my mother,
she will know.'
He opened a door which
looked into a warm bright kitchen, ruddy with the light of the fire over which
three women were apparently engaged in cooking something, while a fourth, an
old Indian woman, of a greenish-brown colour, shrivelled up and bent with
apparent age, moved backwards and forwards, evidently fetching the others the
articles they required.
'Mother,' said the young
man; and having arrested her attention, he pointed over his shoulder to the
newly-arrived strangers, and returned to the study of his book, from time to
time, however, furtively examining Lois from beneath his dark shaggy eyebrows.
A tall, largely made woman,
past middle life, came in from the kitchen, and stood reconnoitring the
strangers.
Captain Holdernesse spoke.
'This is Lois Barclay,
Master Ralph Hickson's niece.'
'I know nothing of her,'
said the mistress of the house, in a deep voice, almost as masculine as her
son's.
'Master Hickson received his
sister's letter, did he not? I sent it off myself by a lad named Elias
Wellcome, who left Boston for this place yester morning.'
'Ralph Hickson has received
no such letter. He lies bedridden in the chamber beyond. Any letters for him
must come through my hands; wherefore I can affirm with certainty that no such
letter has been delivered here. His sister Barclay, she that was Henrietta
Hickson, and whose husband took the oaths to Charles Stuart, and stuck by his
living when all godly men left theirs——'
Lois, who had thought her
heart was dead and cold a minute before at the ungracious reception she had met
with, felt words come up into her mouth at the implied insult to her father,
and spoke out, to her own and the captain's astonishment:
'They might be godly men who
left their churches on that day of which you speak, madam; but they alone were
not the godly men, and no one has a right to limit true godliness for mere
opinion's sake.'
'Well said, lass,' spoke out
the captain, looking round upon her with a kind of admiring wonder, and patting
her on the back.
Lois and her aunt gazed into
each other's eyes unflinchingly, for a minute or two of silence; but the girl
felt her colour coming and going, while the elder woman's never varied; and the
eyes of the young maiden were filling fast with tears, while those of Grate
Hickson kept on their stare, dry and unwavering.
'Mother!' said the young
man, rising up with a quicker motion than any one had yet used in this house,
'it is ill speaking of such matters when my cousin comes first among us. The
Lord may give her grace hereafter, but she has travelled from Boston city
to-day, and she and this seafaring man must need rest and food.'
He did not attend to see the
effect of his words, but sat down again, and seemed to be absorbed in his book
in an instant. Perhaps he knew that his word was law with his grim mother, for
he had hardly ceased speaking before she had pointed to a wooden settle; and
smoothing the lines on her countenance, she said, 'What Manasseh says is true.
Sit down here, while I bid Faith and Nattee get food ready; and meanwhile I
will go tell my husband, that one who calls herself his sister's child is come
over to pay him a visit.'
She went to the door leading
into the kitchen, and gave some directions to the elder girl, whom Lois now
knew to be the daughter of the house. Faith stood impassive, while her mother
spoke, scarcely caring to look at the newly-arrived strangers. She was like her
brother Manasseh in complexion, but had handsomer features, and large,
mysterious-looking eyes, as Lois saw, when once she lifted them up, and took
in, as it were, the aspect of the sea-captain and her cousin with one swift
searching look. About the stiff, tall, angular mother, and the scarce less
pliant figure of the daughter, a girl of twelve years old, or thereabouts,
played all manner of impish antics, unheeded by them, as if it were her
accustomed habit to peep about, now under their arms, now at this side, now at
that, making grimaces all the while at Lois and Captain Holdernesse, who sat
facing the door, weary, and somewhat disheartened by their reception. The
captain pulled out tobacco, and began to chew it by way of consolation; but in
a moment or two, his usual elasticity of spirit came to his rescue, and he said
in a low voice to Lois:
'That scoundrel Elias, I
will give it him! If the letter had but been delivered, thou wouldst have had a
different kind of welcome; but as soon as I have had some victuals, I will go
out and find the lad, and bring back the letter, and that will make all right,
my wench. Nay, don't be downhearted, for I cannot stand women's tears. Thou'rt
just worn out with the shaking and the want of food.'
Lois brushed away her tears,
and looking round to try and divert her thoughts by fixing them on present
object, she caught her cousin Manasseh's deep-set eyes furtively watching her.
It was with no unfriendly gaze, yet it made Lois uncomfortable, particularly as
he did not withdraw his looks after he must have seen that she observed him.
She was glad when her aunt called her into an inner room to see her uncle, and
she escaped from the steady observance of her gloomy, silent cousin.
Ralph Hickson was much older
than his wife, and his illness made him look older still. He had never had the
force of character that Grace, his spouse, possessed, and age and sickness had
now rendered him almost childish at times. But his nature was affectionate, and
stretching out his trembling arms from where he lay bedridden, he gave Lois an
unhesitating welcome, never waiting for the confirmation of the missing letter
before he acknowledged her to be his niece.
'Oh! 'tis kind in thee to
come all across the sea to make acquaintance with thine uncle; kind in Sister
Barclay to spare thee!'
Lois had to tell him that
there was no one living to miss her at home in England; that in fact she had no
home in England, no father nor mother left upon earth; and that she had been
bidden by her mother's last words to seek him out, and ask him for a home. Her
words came up, half choked from a heavy heart, and his dulled wits could not
take their meaning in without several repetitions; and then he cried like a
child, rather at his own loss of a sister, whom he had not seen for more than
twenty years, than at that of the orphan's standing before him, trying hard not
to cry, but to start bravely in this new strange home. What most of all helped
Lois in her self-restraint was her aunt's unsympathetic look. Born and bred in
New England, Grace Hickson had a kind of jealous dislike to her husband's
English relations, which had increased since of late years his weakened mind
yearned after them, and he forgot the good reason he had had for his
self-exile, and moaned over the decision which had led to it as the great
mistake of his life. 'Come,' said she, 'it strikes me that, in all this sorrow
for the loss of one who died full of years, ye are forgetting in Whose hands
life and death are!'
True words, but ill-spoken
at that time. Lois looked up at her with a scarcely disguised indignation;
which increased as she heard the contemptuous tone in which her aunt went on
talking to Ralph Hickson, even while she was arranging his bed with a regard to
his greater comfort.
'One would think thou wert a
godless man, by the moan thou art always making over spilt milk; and truth is,
thou art but childish in thine old age. When we were wed, thou left all things
to the Lord; I would never have married thee else. Nay, lass,' said she,
catching the expression on Lois's face, 'thou art never going to browbeat me
with thine angry looks. I do my duty as I read it, and there is never a man in
Salem that dare speak a word to Grace Hickson about either her works or her
faith. Godly Mr. Cotton Mather hath said, that even he might learn of me; and I
would advise thee rather to humble thyself, and see if the Lord may not convert
thee from thy ways, since he has sent thee to dwell, as it were, in Zion, where
the precious dew falls daily on Aaron's beard.'
Lois felt ashamed and sorry
to find that her aunt had so truly interpreted the momentary expression of her
features; she blamed herself a little for the feeling that had caused that
expression, trying to think how much her aunt might have been troubled with
something before the unexpected irruption of the strangers, and again hoping
that the remembrance of this little misunderstanding would soon pass away. So
she endeavoured to reassure herself, and not to give way to her uncle's tender
trembling pressure of her hand, as, at her aunt's bidding, she wished him good
night, and returned into the outer, or 'keeping'-room, where all the family were
now assembled, ready for the meal of flour cakes and venison-steaks which
Nattee, the Indian servant, was bringing in from the kitchen. No one seemed to
have been speaking to Captain Holdernesse while Lois had been away. Manasseh
sat quiet and silent where he did, with the book open upon his knee, his eyes
thoughtfully fixed on vacancy, as if he saw a vision, or dreamed dreams. Faith
stood by the table, lazily directing Nattee in her preparations; and Prudence
lolled against the door-frame, between kitchen and keeping-room, playing tricks
on the old Indian woman as she passed backwards and forwards, till Nattee
appeared to be in a strong state of expressed irritation, which he tried in
vain to repress, as whenever she showed any sign of it, Prudence only seemed
excited to greater mischief. When all was ready, Manasseh lifted his right
hand, and 'asked a blessing,' as it was termed; but the grace became a long
prayer for abstract spiritual blessings, for strength to combat Satan, and to
quench his fiery darts, and at length assumed, so Lois thought, a purely
personal character, as if the young man had forgotten the occasion, and even
the people present, but was searching into the nature of the diseases that
beset his own sick soul, and spreading them out before the Lord. He was brought
back by a pluck at the coat from Prudence; he opened his shut eyes, cast an
angry glance at the child, who made a face at him for sole reply, and then he
sat down, and they all fell to. Grace Hickson would have thought her hospitality
sadly at fault, if she had allowed Captain Holdernesse to go out in search of a
bed. Skins were spread for him on the floor of the keeping-room; a Bible, and a
square bottle of spirits were placed on the table, to supply his wants during
the night; and in spite of all the cares and troubles, temptations, or sins of
the members of that household, they were all asleep before the town clock
struck ten.
In the morning, the
captain's first care was to go out in search of the boy Elias, and the missing
letter. He met him bringing it with an easy conscience, for, thought Elias, a
few hours sooner or later will make no difference; to-night or the morrow
morning will be all the same. But he was startled into a sense of wrong-doing
by a sound box on the ear, from the very man who had charged him to deliver it
speedily, and whom he believed to be at that very moment in Boston city.
The letter delivered, all
possible proof being given that Lois had a right to claim a home from her
nearest relations, Captain Holdernesse thought it best to take leave.
'Thou'lt take to them, lass,
maybe, when there is no one here to make thee think on the old country. Nay,
nay! parting is hard work at all times, and best get hard work done out of
hand. Keep up thine heart, my wench, and I'll come back and see thee next
spring, if we are all spared till then; and who knows what fine young miller
mayn't come with me? Don't go and get wed to a praying Puritan, meanwhile.
There, there—I'm off! God bless thee!'
And Lois was left alone in
New England.
Chapter 2
It was hard up-hill work for
Lois to win herself a place in this family. Her aunt was a woman of narrow,
strong affections. Her love for her husband, if ever she had any, was burnt out
and dead long ago. What she did for him she did from duty; but duty was not
strong enough to restrain that little member the tongue; and Lois's heart often
bled at the continual flow of contemptuous reproof which Grace constantly
addressed to her husband, even while she was sparing no pains or trouble to
minister to his bodily ease and comfort. It was more as a relief to herself
that she spoke in this way, than with any desire that her speeches should
affect him; and he was too deadened by illness to feel hurt by them; or, it may
be, the constant repetition of her sarcasms had made him indifferent; at any
rate, so that he had his food and his state of bodily warmth attended to, he
very seldom seemed to care much for anything else. Even his first flow of
affection towards Lois was soon exhausted; he cared for her because she
arranged his pillows well and skilfully, and because she could prepare new and
dainty kinds of food for his sick appetite, but no longer for her as his dead
sister's child. Still he did care for her, and Lois was too glad of this little
hoard of affection to examine how or why it was given. To him she could give
pleasure, but apparently to no one else in that household. Her aunt looked
askance at her for many reasons: the first coming of Lois to Salem was
inopportune, the expression of disapprobation on her face on that evening still
lingered and rankled in Grace's memory, early prejudices, and feelings, and
prepossessions of the English girl were all on the side of what would now be
called Church and State, what was then esteemed in that country a superstitious
observance of the directions of a Popish rubric, and a servile regard for the
family of an oppressing and irreligious king. Nor is it to be supposed that
Lois did not feel, and feel acutely, the want of sympathy that all those with whom
she was now living manifested towards the old hereditary loyalty (religious as
well as political loyalty) in which she had been brought up. With her aunt and
Manasseh it was more than want of sympathy; it was positive, active antipathy
to all the ideas Lois held most dear. The very allusion, however incidentally
made, to the little old grey church at Barford, where her father had preached
so long,—the occasional reference to the troubles in which her own country had
been distracted when she left,—and the adherence, in which she had been brought
up, to the notion that the king could do no wrong, seemed to irritate Manasseh
past endurance. He would get up from his reading, his constant employment when
at home, and walk angrily about the room after Lois had said anything of this
kind, muttering to himself; and once he had even stopped before her, and in a
passionate tone bade her not talk so like a fool. Now this was very different
to his mother's sarcastic, contemptuous way of treating all poor Lois's little
loyal speeches. Grace would lead her on—at least she did at first, till
experience made Lois wiser—to express her thoughts on such subjects, till, just
when the girl's heart was opening, her aunt would turn round upon her with some
bitter sneer that roused all the evil feelings in Lois's disposition by its
sting. Now Manasseh seemed, through all his anger, to be so really grieved by
what he considered her error, that he went much nearer to convincing her that
there might be two sides to a question. Only this was a view, that it appeared
like treachery to her dead father's memory to entertain.
Somehow, Lois felt
instinctively that Manasseh was really friendly towards her. He was little in
the house; there was farming, and some kind of mercantile business to be
transacted by him, as real head of the house; and as the season drew on, he
went shooting and hunting in the surrounding forests, with a daring which
caused his mother to warn and reprove him in private, although to the
neighbours she boasted largely of her son's courage and disregard of danger.
Lois did not often walk out for the mere sake of walking, there was generally
some household errand to be transacted when any of the women of the family went
abroad; but once or twice she had caught glimpses of the dreary, dark wood,
hemming in the cleared land on all sides,—the great wood with its perpetual
movement of branch and bough, and its solemn wail, that came into the very
streets of Salem when certain winds blew, bearing the sound of the pine-trees clear
upon the ears that had leisure to listen. And from all accounts, this old
forest, girdling round the settlement, was full of dreaded and mysterious
beasts, and still more to be dreaded Indians, stealing in and out among the
shadows, intent on bloody schemes against the Christian people;
panther-streaked, shaven Indians, in league by their own confession, as well as
by the popular belief, with evil powers.
Nattee, the old Indian
servant, would occasionally make Lois's blood run cold as she and Faith and Prudence
listened to the wild stories she told them of the wizards of her race. It was
often in the kitchen, in the darkening evening, while some cooking process was
going on, that the old Indian crone, sitting on her haunches by the bright red
wood embers which sent up no flame, but a lurid light reversing the shadows of
all the faces around, told her weird stories while they were awaiting the
rising of the dough, perchance, out of which the household bread had to be
made. There ran through these stories always a ghastly, unexpressed suggestion
of some human sacrifice being needed to complete the success of any incantation
to the Evil One; and the poor old creature, herself believing and shuddering as
she narrated her tale in broken English, took a strange, unconscious pleasure
in her power over her hearers—young girls of the oppressing race, which had
brought her down into a state little differing from slavery, and reduced her
people to outcasts on the hunting-grounds which had belonged to her fathers.
After such tales, it required no small effort on Lois's part to go out, at her
aunt's command, into the common pasture round the town, and bring the cattle
home at night. Who knew but what the double-headed snake might start up from
each blackberry-bush—that wicked, cunning, accursed creature in the service of
the Indian wizards, that had such power over all those white maidens who met
the eyes placed at either end of his long, sinuous, creeping body, so that
loathe him, loathe the Indian race as they would, off they must go into the
forest to seek but some Indian man, and must beg to be taken into his wigwam,
abjuring faith and race for ever? Or there were spells—so Nattee said—hidden
about the ground by the wizards, which changed that person's nature who found them;
so that, gentle and loving as they might have been before, thereafter they took
no pleasure but in the cruel torments of others, and had a strange power given
to them of causing such torments at their will. Once Nattee, speaking low to
Lois, who was alone with her in the kitchen, whispered out her terrified belief
that such a spell had Prudence found; and when the Indian showed her arms to
Lois, all pinched and black and blue by the impish child, the English girl
began to be afraid of her cousin as of one possessed. But it was not Nattee
alone, nor young imaginative girls alone, that believed in these stories. We
can afford to smile at them now; but our English ancestors entertained
superstitions of much the same character at the same period, and with less
excuse, as the circumstances surrounding them were better known, and
consequently more explicable by common sense than the real mysteries of the
deep, untrodden forests of New England. The gravest divines not only believed
stories similar to that of the double-headed serpent, and other tales of
witchcraft, but they made such narrations the subjects of preaching and prayer;
and as cowardice makes us all cruel, men who were blameless in many of the
relations of life, and even praiseworthy in some, became, from superstition,
cruel persecutors about this time, showing no mercy towards any one whom they
believed to be in league with the Evil One.
Faith was the person with
whom the English girl was the most intimately associated in her uncle's house.
The two were about the same age, and certain household employments were shared
between them. They took it in turns to call in the cows, to make up the butter
which had been churned by Hosea, a stiff old out-door servant, in whom Grace
Hickson placed great confidence; and each lassie had her great spinning-wheel
for wool, and her lesser for flax, before a month had elapsed after Lois's
coming. Faith was a grave, silent person, never merry, sometimes very sad,
though Lois was a long time in even guessing why. She would try in her sweet,
simple fashion to cheer her cousin up, when the latter was depressed, by
telling her old stories of English ways and life. Occasionally, Faith seemed to
care to listen, occasionally she did not heed one word, but dreamed on. Whether
of the past or of the future, who could tell?
Stern old ministers came in
to pay their pastoral visits. On such occasions, Grace Hickson would put on
clean apron and clean cap, and make them more welcome than she was ever seen to
do no one else, bringing out the best provisions of her store, and setting of
all before them. Also, the great Bible was brought forth, and Hosea and Nattee
summoned from their work to listen while the minister read a chapter, and, as
he read, expounded it at considerable length. After this all knelt, while he,
standing, lifted up his right hand, and prayed for all possible combinations of
Christian men, for all possible cases of spiritual need; and lastly, taking the
individuals before him, he would put up a very personal supplication for each,
according to his notion of their wants. At first Lois wondered at the aptitude
of one or two prayers of this description to the outward circumstances of each
case; but when she perceived that her aunt had usually a pretty long
confidential conversation with the minister in the early part of his visit, she
became aware that he received both his impressions and his knowledge through
the medium of 'that godly woman, Grace Hickson;' and I am afraid she paid less
regard to the prayer 'for the maiden from another land, who hath brought the
errors of that land as a seed with her, even across the great ocean, and who is
letting even now the little seeds shoot up into an evil tree, in which all
unclean creatures may find shelter.'
'I like the prayers of our
Church better,' said Lois, one day to Faith. 'No clergyman in England can pray
his own words, and therefore it is that he cannot judge of others so as to fit
his prayers to what he esteems to be their case, as Mr. Tappau did this
morning.'
'I hate Mr. Tappau!' said
Faith, shortly, a passionate flash of light coming out of her dark, heavy eyes.
'Why so cousin? It seems to
me as if he were a good man, although I like not his prayers.'
Faith only repeated her
words, 'I hate him.'
Lois was sorry for this strong
bad feeling; instinctively sorry, for she was loving herself, delighted in
being loved, and felt a jar run through her at every sign of want of love in
others. But she did not know what to say, and was silent at the time. Faith,
too, went on turning her wheel with vehemence, but spoke never a word until her
thread snapped, and then she pushed the wheel away hastily and left the room.
Then Prudence crept softly
up to Lois's side. This strange child seemed to be tossed about by varying
moods: to-day she was caressing and communicative, to-morrow she might be
deceitful, mocking, and so indifferent to the pain or sorrows of others that
you could call her almost inhuman.
'So thou dost not like
Pastor Tappau's prayers?' she whispered.
Lois was sorry to have been
overheard, but she neither would nor could take back her words.
'I like them not so well as
the prayers I used to hear at home.'
'Mother says thy home was
with the ungodly. Nay, don't look at me so—it was not I that said it. I'm none
so fond of praying myself, nor of Pastor Tappau for that matter. But Faith
cannot abide him, and I know why. Shall I tell thee, cousin Lois?'
'No! Faith did not tell me,
and she was the right person to give her own reasons.'
'Ask her where young Mr.
Nolan is gone to, and thou wilt hear. I have seen Faith cry by the hour
together about Mr. Nolan.'
'Hush, child, hush!' said
Lois, for she heard Faith's approaching step, and feared lest she should
overhear what they were saying.
The truth was that, a year
or two before, there had been a great struggle in Salem village, a great
division in the religious body, and Pastor Tappau had been the leader of the
more violent, and, ultimately, the successful party. In consequence of this,
the less popular minister, Mr. Nolan, had had to leave the place. And him Faith
Hickson loved with all the strength of her passionate heart, although he never
was aware of the attachment he had excited, and her own family were too
regardless of manifestations of mere feeling to ever observe the signs of any emotion
on her part. But the old Indian servant Nattee saw and observed them all. She
knew, as well as if she had been told the reason, why Faith had lost all care
about father or mother, brother and sister, about household work and daily
occupation, nay, about the observances of religion as well. Nattee read the
meaning of the deep smouldering of Faith's dislike to Pastor Tappau aright; the
Indian woman understood why the girl (whom alone of all the white people she
loved) avoided the old minister,—would hide in the wood-stack sooner than be
called in to listen to his exhortations and prayers. With savage, untutored
people, it is not 'Love me, love my dog,' they are often jealous of the
creature beloved; but it is, 'Whom thou hatest I will hate;' and Nattee's
feeling towards Pastor Tappau was even an exaggeration of the mute unspoken
hatred of Faith.
For a long time, the cause
of her cousin's dislike and avoidance of the minister was a mystery to Lois;
but the name of Nolan remained in her memory whether she would or no, and it
was more from girlish interest in a suspected love affair, than from any
indifferent and heartless curiosity, that she could not help piecing together
little speeches and actions, with Faith's interest in the absent banished
minister, for an explanatory clue, till not a doubt remained in her mind. And
this without any further communication with Prudence, for Lois declined hearing
any more on the subject from her, and so gave deep offence.
Faith grew sadder and duller
as the autumn drew on. She lost her appetite, her brown complexion became
sallow and colourless, her dark eyes looked hollow and wild. The first of
November was near at hand. Lois, in her instinctive, well-intentioned efforts
to bring some life and cheerfulness into the monotonous household, had been
telling Faith of many English customs, silly enough, no doubt, and which
scarcely lighted up a flicker of interest in the American girl's mind. The
cousins were lying awake in their bed in the great unplastered room, which was in
part store-room, in part bedroom. Lois was full of sympathy for Faith that
night. For long she had listened to her cousin's heavy, irrepressible sighs, in
silence. Faith sighed because her grief was of too old a date for violent
emotion or crying. Lois listened without speaking in the dark, quiet night
hours, for a long, long time. She kept quite still, because she thought such
vent for sorrow might relieve her cousin's weary heart. But when at length,
instead of lying motionless, Faith seemed to be growing restless even to
convulsive motions of her limbs, Lois began to speak, to talk about England,
and the dear old ways at home, without exciting much attention on Faith's part,
until at length she fell upon the subject of Hallow-e'en, and told about customs
then and long afterwards practised in England, and that have scarcely yet died
out in Scotland. As she told of tricks she had often played, of the apple eaten
facing a mirror, of the dripping sheet, of the basins of water, of the nuts
burning side by side, and many other such innocent ways of divination, by which
laughing, trembling English maidens sought to see the form of their future
husbands, if husbands they were to have, then Faith listened breathlessly,
asking short, eager questions, as if some ray of hope had entered into her
gloomy heart. Lois went on speaking, telling her of all the stories that would
confirm the truth of the second sight vouchsafed to all seekers in the
accustomed methods, half believing, half incredulous herself, but desiring, above
all things, to cheer up poor Faith.
Suddenly, Prudence rose up
from her truckle-bed in the dim corner of the room. They had not thought that
she was awake, but she had been listening long.
'Cousin Lois may go out and
meet Satan by the brook-side if she will, but if thou goest, Faith, I will tell
mother—ay, and I will tell Pastor Tappau, too. Hold thy stories, Cousin Lois, I
am afeard of my very life. I would rather never be wed at all, than feel the
touch of the creature that would take the apple out of my hand, as I held it
over my left shoulder.' The excited girl gave a loud scream of terror at the
image her fancy had conjured up. Faith and Lois sprang out towards her, flying
across the moonlit room in their white nightgowns. At the same instant, summoned
by the same cry, Grace Hickson came to her child.
'Hush! hush!' said Faith,
authoritatively.
'What is it, my wench?'
asked Grace. While Lois, feeling as if she had done all the mischief, kept
silence.
'Take her away, take her
away!' screamed Prudence. 'Look over her shoulder—her left shoulder—the Evil
One is there now, I see him stretching over for the half-bitten apple.'
'What is this she says?'
said Grace, austerely.
'She is dreaming,' said
Faith; 'Prudence, hold thy tongue.' And she pinched the child severely, while
Lois more tenderly tried to soothe the alarms she felt that she had conjured
up.
'Be quiet, Prudence,' said
she, 'and go to sleep. I will stay by thee till thou hast gone off into
slumber.'
'No, go! go away,' sobbed
Prudence, who was really terrified at first, but was now assuming more alarm:
than she felt, if from the pleasure she received at perceiving herself the
centre of attention. 'Faith shall stay by me, not you, wicked English witch!'
So Faith sat by her sister;
and Grace, displeased and perplexed, withdrew to her own bed, purposing to
inquire more into the matter in the morning. Lois only hoped it might all be
forgotten by that time, and resolved never to talk again of such things. But an
event happened in the remaining hours of the night to change the current of
affairs. While Grace had been absent from her room, her husband had had another
paralytic stroke: whether he, too, had been alarmed by that eldritch scream no
one could ever know. By the faint light of the rush candle burning at the
bedside, his wife perceived that a great change had taken place in his aspect
on her return: the irregular breathing came almost like snorts—the end was
drawing near. The family were roused, and all help given that either the doctor
or experience could suggest. But before the late November morning light, all
was ended for Ralph Hickson.
The whole of the ensuing
day, they sat or moved in darkened rooms, and spoke few words, and those below
their breath. Manasseh kept at home, regretting his father, no doubt, but
showing little emotion. Faith was the child that bewailed her loss most
grievously; she had a warm heart, hidden away somewhere under her moody
exterior, and her father had shown her far more passive kindness than ever her
mother had done, for Grace made distinct favourites of Manasseh, her only son,
and Prudence, her youngest child. Lois was about as unhappy as any of them, for
she had felt strongly drawn towards her uncle as her kindest friend, and the
sense of his loss renewed the old sorrow she had experienced at her own
parents' death. But she had no time and no place to cry in. On her devolved
many of the cares, which it would have seemed indecorous in the nearer
relatives to interest themselves in enough to take an active part: the change
required in their dress, the household preparations for the sad feast of the
funeral—Lois had to arrange all under her aunt's stern direction.
But a day or two
afterwards—the last day before the funeral—she went into the yard to fetch in
some fagots for the oven; it was a solemn, beautiful, starlit evening, and some
sudden sense of desolation in the midst of the vast universe thus revealed
touched Lois's heart, and she sat down behind the woodstack, and cried very
plentiful tears.
She was startled by Manasseh,
who suddenly turned the corner of the stack, and stood before her.
'Lois crying!'
'Only a little,' she said,
rising up, and gathering her bundle of fagots, for she dreaded being questioned
by her grim, impassive cousin. To her surprise, he laid his hand on her arm,
and said:
'Stop one minute. Why art
thou crying, cousin?'
'I don't know,' she said,
just like a child questioned in like manner; and she was again on the point of
weeping.
'My father was very kind to
thee, Lois; I do not wonder that thou grievest after him. But the Lord who
taketh away can restore tenfold. I will be as kind as my father—yea, kinder.
This is not a time to talk of marriage and giving in marriage. But after we
have buried our dead, I wish to speak to thee.'
Lois did not cry now, but
she shrank with affright. What did her cousin mean? She would far rather that
he had been angry with her for unreasonable grieving, for folly.
She avoided him carefully—as
carefully as she could, without seeming to dread him—for the next few days. Sometimes
she thought it must have been a bad dream; for if there had been no English
lover in the case, no other man in the whole world, she could never have
thought of Manasseh as her husband; indeed, till now, there had been nothing in
his words or actions to suggest such an idea. Now it had been suggested, there
was no telling how much she loathed him. He might be good, and pious—he
doubtless was—but his dark fixed eyes, moving so slowly and heavily, his lank
black hair, his grey coarse skin, all made her dislike him now—all his personal
ugliness and ungainliness struck on her senses with a jar, since those few
words spoken behind the haystack.
She knew that sooner or
later the time must come for further discussion of this subject; but, like a
coward, she tried to put it off, by clinging to her aunt's apron-string, for
she was sure that Grace Hickson had far different views for her only son. As,
indeed, she had, for she was an ambitious, as well as a religious woman; and by
an early purchase of land in Salem village, the Hicksons had become wealthy
people, without any great exertions of their own; partly, also, by the silent
process of accumulation, for they had never cared to change their manner of
living from the time when it had been suitable to a far smaller income than
that which they at present enjoyed. So much for worldly circumstances. As for
their worldly character, it stood as high. No one could say a word against any
of their habits or actions. The righteousness and godliness were patent to every
one's eyes. So Grace Hickson thought herself entitled to pick and choose among
the maidens, before she should meet with one fitted to be Manasseh's wife. None
in Salem came up to her imaginary standard. She had it in her mind even at this
very time—so soon after her husband's death—to go to Boston, and take counsel
with the leading ministers there, with worthy Mr. Cotton Mather at their head,
and see if they could tell her of a well-favoured and godly young maiden in
their congregations worthy of being the wife of her son. But, besides good
looks and godliness, the wench must have good birth, and good wealth, or Grace
Hickson would have put her contemptuously on one side. When once this paragon
was found, the ministers had approved, Grace anticipated no difficulty on her
son's part. So Lois was right in feeling that her aunt would dislike any speech
of marriage between Manasseh and herself.
But the girl was brought to
bay one day in this wise. Manasseh had ridden forth on some business, which
every one said would occupy him the whole day; but, meeting the man with whom
he had to transact his affairs, he returned earlier than any one expected. He
missed Lois from the keeping-room where his sisters were spinning, almost
immediately. His mother sat by at her knitting—he could see Nattee in the
kitchen through the open door. He was too reserved to ask where Lois was, but
he quietly sought till he found her—in the great loft, already piled with
winter stores of fruit and vegetables. Her aunt had sent her there to examine
the apples one by one, and pick out such as were unsound, for immediate use.
She was stooping down, and intent upon this work, and was hardly aware of his
approach, until she lifted up her head and saw him standing close before her.
She dropped the apple she was holding, went a little paler than her wont, and
faced him in silence.
'Lois,' he said, 'thou
rememberest the words that I spoke while we yet mourned over my father. I think
that I am called to marriage now, as the head of this household. And I have
seen no maiden so pleasant in my sight as thou art, Lois!' He tried to take her
hand. But she put it behind her with a childish shake of her head, and,
half-crying, said:
'Please, Cousin Manasseh, do
not say this to me. I dare say you ought to be married, being the head of the
household now; but I don't want to be married. I would rather not.'
'That is well spoken,'
replied he, frowning a little, nevertheless. 'I should not like to take to wife
an over-forward maiden, ready to jump at wedlock. Besides, the congregation
might talk, if we were to be married too soon after my father's death. We have,
perchance, said enough, even now. But I wished thee to have thy mind set at
ease as to thy future well-doing. Thou wilt have leisure to think of it, and to
bring thy mind more fully round to it.' Again he held out his hand. This time
she took hold of it with a free, frank gesture.
'I owe you somewhat for your
kindness to me ever since I came, Cousin Manasseh; and I have no way of paying
you but by telling you truly I can love you as a dear friend, if you will let
me, but never as a wife.'
He flung her hand away, but
did not take his eyes off her face, though his glance was lowering and gloomy.
He muttered something which she did not quite hear, and so she went on bravely
although she kept trembling a little, and had much ado to keep from crying.
'Please let me tell you all.
There was a young man in Barford—nay, Manasseh, I cannot speak if you are so
angry; it is hard work to tell you any how—he said that he wanted to marry me;
but I was poor, and his father would have none of it, and I do not want to
marry any one; but if I did, it would be—' Her voice dropped, and her blushes
told the rest. Manasseh stood looking at her with sullen, hollow eyes, that had
a glittering touch of wilderness in them, and then he said:
'It is borne in upon
me—verily I see it as in a vision—that thou must be my spouse, and no other
man's. Thou canst not escape what is foredoomed. Months ago, when I set myself
to read the old godly books in which my soul used to delight until thy coming,
I saw no letters of printers' ink marked on the page, but I saw a gold and
ruddy type of some unknown language, the meaning whereof was whispered into my
soul; it was, "Marry Lois! marry Lois!" And when my father died, I
knew it was the beginning of the end. It is the Lord's will, Lois, and thou
canst not escape from it.' And again he would have taken her hand and drawn her
towards him. But this time she eluded him with ready movement.
'I do not acknowledge it be
the Lord's will, Manasseh,' said she. 'It is not "borne in upon me,"
as you Puritans call it, that I am to be your wife. I am none so set upon
wedlock as to take you, even though there be no other chance for me. For I do
not care for you as I ought to care for my husband. But I could have cared for
you very much as a cousin—as a kind cousin.'
She stopped speaking; she
could not choose the right words with which to speak to him of her gratitude
and friendliness, which yet could never be any feeling nearer and dearer, no
more than two parallel lines can ever meet.
But he was so convinced, by
what he considered the spirit of prophecy, that Lois was to be his wife, that
he felt rather more indignant at what he considered to be her resistance to the
preordained decree, than really anxious as to the result. Again he tried to
convince her that neither he nor she had any choice in the matter, by saying:
'The voice said unto me
"Marry Lois," and I said, "I will, Lord."'
'But,' Lois replied, 'the
voice, as you call it, has never spoken such a word to me.'
'Lois,' he answered,
solemnly, 'it will speak. And then wilt thou obey, even as Samuel did?'
'No, indeed I cannot!' she
answered, briskly. 'I may take a dream to be truth, and hear my own fancies, if
I think about them too long. But I cannot marry any one from obedience.'
'Lois, Lois, thou art as yet
unregenerate; but I have seen thee in a vision as one of the elect, robed in
white. As yet thy faith is too weak for thee to obey meekly, but it shall not
always be so. I will pray that thou mayest see thy preordained course.
Meanwhile, I will smooth away all worldly obstacles.'
'Cousin Manasseh! Cousin
Manasseh!' cried Lois after him, as he was leaving the room, 'come back. I
cannot put it in strong enough words. Manasseh, there is no power in heaven or
earth that can make me love thee enough to marry thee, or to wed thee without
such love. And this I say solemnly, because it is better that this should end
at once.'
For a moment he was
staggered; then he lifted up his hands, and said,
'God forgive thee thy
blasphemy! Remember Hazael, who said, "Is thy servant a dog, that he
should do this great thing?" and went straight and did it, because his
evil courses were fixed and appointed for him from before the foundation of the
world. And shall not thy paths be laid out among the godly as it hath been
foretold to me?'
He went away; and for a
minute or two Lois felt as if his words must come true, and that, struggle as
she would, hate her doom as she would, she must become his wife; and, under the
circumstances, many a girl would have succumbed to her apparent fate. Isolated
from all previous connections, hearing no word from England, living in the
heavy, monotonous routine of a family with one man for head, and this man esteemed
a hero by most of those around him, simply because he was the only man in the
family,—these facts alone would have formed strong presumptions that most girls
would have yielded to the offers of such a one. But, besides this, there was
much to tell upon the imagination in those days, in that place, and time. It
was prevalently believed that there were manifestations of spiritual
influence—of the direct influence both of good and bad spirits—constantly to be
perceived in the course of men's lives. Lots were drawn, as guidance from the
Lord; the Bible was opened, and the leaves allowed to fall apart, and the first
text the eye fell upon was supposed to be appointed from above a direction.
Sounds were heard that could not be accounted for; they were made by the evil
spirits not yet banished from the desert places of which they had so long held
possession. Sights, inexplicable and mysterious, were dimly seen—Satan, in some
shape, seeking whom he might devour. And at the beginning of the long winter
season, such whispered tales, such old temptations and hauntings, and devilish
terrors, were supposed to be peculiarly rife. Salem was, as it were, snowed up,
and left to prey upon itself. The long, dark evenings, the dimly-lighted rooms,
the creaking passages, where heterogeneous articles were piled away out of
reach of the keen-piercing frost, and where occasionally, in the dead of night,
a sound was heard, as of some heavy falling body, when, next morning,
everything appeared to be in its right place—so accustomed are we to measure
noises by comparison with themselves, and not with the absolute stillness of
the night-season—the white mist, coming nearer and nearer to the windows every
evening in strange shapes, like phantoms,—all these, and many other
circumstances, such as the distant fall of mighty trees in the mysterious
forests girdling them round, the faint whoop and cry of some Indian seeking his
camp, and unwittingly nearer to the white men's settlement than either he or
they would have liked could they have chosen, the hungry yells of the wild
beasts approaching the cattle-pens,—these were the things which made that
winter life in Salem, in the memorable time of 1691-2, seem strange, and
haunted, and terrific to many: peculiarly weird and awful to the English girl
in her first year's sojourn in America.
And now imagine Lois worked
upon perpetually by Manasseh's conviction that it was decreed that she should
be his wife, and you will see that she was not without courage and spirit to
resist as she did, steadily, firmly, and yet sweetly. Take one instance out of
many, when her nerves were subjected to a shock, slight in relation it is true,
but then remember that she had been all day, and for many days, shut up within
doors, in a dull light, that at mid-day was almost dark with a long-continued
snow-storm. Evening was coming on, and the wood fire was more cheerful than any
of the human beings surrounding it; the monotonous whirr of the smaller
spinning-wheels had been going on all day, and the store of flax down stairs
was nearly exhausted, when Grace Hickson bade Lois fetch down some more from
the store-room, before the light so entirely waned away that it could not be
found without a candle, and a candle it would be dangerous to carry into that
apartment full of combustible materials, especially at this time of hard frost,
when every drop of water was locked up and bound in icy hardness. So Lois went,
half-shrinking from the long passage that led to the stairs leading up into the
storeroom, for it was in this passage that the strange night sounds were heard,
which every one had begun to notice, and speak about in lowered tones. She
sang, however, as she went, 'to keep her courage up'—sang, however, in a
subdued voice, the evening hymn she had so often sung in Barford church:
'Glory to Thee, my God, this
night—'
and so it was, I suppose,
that she never heard the breathing or motion of any creature near her till,
just as she was loading herself with flax to carry down, she heard some one—it
was Manasseh—say close to her ear:
'Has the voice spoken yet?
Speak, Lois! Has the voice spoken yet to thee—that speaketh to me day and
night, "Marry Lois?"'
She started and turned a
little sick, but spoke almost directly in a brave, clear manner:
'No! Cousin Manasseh. And it
never will.'
'Then I must wait yet
longer,' he replied, hoarsely, as if to himself. 'But all submission—all
submission.'
At last a break came upon
the monotony of the long, dark winter. The parishioners once more raised the
discussion whether—the parish extending as it did—it was not absolutely
necessary for Pastor Tappau to have help. This question had been mooted once
before; and then Pastor Tappau had acquiesced in the necessity, and all had
gone on smoothly for some months after the appointment of his assistant, until
a feeling had sprung up on the part of the elder minister, which might have
been called jealousy of the younger, if so godly a man as Pastor Tappau could
have been supposed to entertain so evil a passion. However that might be, two
parties were speedily formed, the younger and more ardent being in favour of
Mr. Nolan, the elder and more persistent—and, at the time, the more
numerous—clinging to the old grey-headed, dogmatic Mr. Tappau, who had married
them, baptized their children, and was to them literally as a 'pillar of the
church.' So Mr. Nolan left Salem, carrying away with him, possibly, more hearts
than that of Faith Hickson's; but certainly she had never been the same
creature since.
But now—Christmas, 1691—one
or two of the older members of the congregation being dead, and some who were
younger men having come to settle in Salem—Mr. Tappau being also older, and,
some charitably supposed, wiser—a fresh effort had been made, and Mr. Nolan was
returning to labour in ground apparently smoothed over. Lois had taken a keen
interest in all the proceedings for Faith's sake,—far more than the latter did
for herself, any spectator would have said. Faith's wheel never went faster or
slower, her thread never broke, her colour never came, her eyes were never
uplifted with sudden interest, all the time these discussions respecting Mr.
Nolan's return were going on. But Lois, after the hint given by Prudence, had
found a clue to many a sigh and look of despairing sorrow, even without the
help of Nattee's improvised songs, in which, under strange allegories, the
helpless love of her favourite was told to ears heedless of all meaning, except
those of the tender-hearted and sympathetic Lois. Occasionally, she heard a
strange chant of the old Indian woman's—half in her own language, half in
broken English—droned over some simmering pipkin, from which the smell was, to
say the least, unearthly. Once, on perceiving this odour in the keeping-room,
Grace Hickson suddenly exclaimed:
'Nattee is at her heathen
ways again; we shall have some mischief unless she is stayed.'
But Faith, moving quicker
than ordinary, said something about putting a stop to it, and so forestalled
her mother's evident intention of going into the kitchen. Faith shut the door
between the two rooms, and entered upon some remonstrance with Nattee; but no
one could hear the words used. Faith and Nattee seemed more bound together by
love and common interest, than any other two among the self-contained
individuals comprising this household. Lois sometimes felt as if her presence
as a third interrupted some confidential talk between her cousin and the old
servant. And yet she was fond of Faith, and could almost think that Faith liked
her more than she did either mother, brother, or sister; for the first two were
indifferent as to any unspoken feelings, while Prudence delighted in
discovering them only to make an amusement to herself out of them.
One day Lois was sitting by
herself at her sewing table, while Faith and Nattee were holding one of the
secret conclaves from which Lois felt herself to be tacitly excluded, when the
outer door opened, and a tall, pale young man, in the strict professional habit
of a minister, entered. Lois sprang up with a smile and a look of welcome for
Faith's sake, for this must be the Mr. Nolan whose name had been on the tongue
of every one for days, and who was, as Lois knew, expected to arrive the day
before.
He seemed half surprised at
the glad alacrity with which he was received by this stranger: possibly he had
not heard of the English girl, who was an inmate in the house where formerly he
had seen only grave, solemn, rigid, or heavy faces, and had been received with
a stiff form of welcome, very different from the blushing, smiling, dimpled
looks that innocently met him with the greeting almost of an old acquaintance.
Lois having placed a chair for him, hastened out to call Faith, never doubting
but that the feeling which her cousin entertained for the young pastor was
mutual, although it might be unrecognised in its full depth by either.
'Faith!' said she, bright
and breathless. 'Guess—no,' checking herself to an assumed unconsciousness of
any particular importance likely to be affixed to her words, 'Mr. Nolan, the
new pastor, is in the keeping-room. He has asked for my aunt and Manasseh. My
aunt is gone to the prayer meeting at Pastor Tappau's, and Manasseh is away.'
Lois went on speaking to give Faith time, for the girl had become deadly white
at the intelligence, while, at the same time, her eyes met the keen, cunning
eyes of the old Indian with a peculiar look of half-wondering awe, while
Nattee's looks expressed triumphant satisfaction.
'Go,' said Lois, smoothing
Faith's hair, and kissing the white, cold cheek, 'or he will wonder why no one
comes to see him, and perhaps think he is not welcome.' Faith went without
another word into the keeping-room, and shut the door of communication. Nattee
and Lois were left together. Lois felt as happy as if some piece of good
fortune had befallen herself. For the time, her growing dread of Manasseh's
wild, ominous persistence in his suit, her aunt's coldness, her own loneliness,
were all forgotten, and she could almost have danced with joy. Nattee laughed
aloud, and talked and chuckled to herself: 'Old Indian woman great mystery. Old
Indian woman sent hither and thither; go where she is told, where she hears
with her ears. But old Indian woman'—and here she drew herself up, and the
expression of her face quite changed—'know how to call, and then white man must
come; and old Indian have spoken never a word, and white man have hear nothing
with his ears.' So, the old crone muttered.
All this time, things were
going on very differently in the keeping-room to what Lois imagined. Faith sat
stiller even than usual; her eyes downcast, her words few. A quick observer
might have noticed a certain tremulousness about her hands, and an occasional
twitching throughout all her frame. But Pastor Nolan was not a keen observer
upon this occasion; he was absorbed with his own little wonders and perplexities.
His wonder was that of a carnal man—who that pretty stranger might be, who had
seemed, on his first coming, so glad to see him, but had vanished instantly,
apparently not to reappear. And, indeed, I am not sure if his perplexity was
not that of a carnal man rather than that of a godly minister, for this was his
dilemma. It was the custom of Salem (as we have already seen) for the minister,
on entering a household for the visit which, among other people and in other
times, would have been termed a 'morning call,' to put up a prayer for the
eternal welfare of the family under whose roof-tree he was. Now this prayer was
expected to be adapted to the individual character, joys, sorrows, wants, and
failings of every member present; and here was he, a young pastor, alone with a
young woman, and he thought—vain thoughts, perhaps, but still very natural—that
the implied guesses at her character, involved in the minute supplications
above described, would be very awkward in a tête-à-tête prayer; so, whether it
was his wonder or his perplexity, I do not know, but he did not contribute much
to the conversation for some time, and at last, by a sudden burst of courage
and impromptu hit, he cut the Gordian knot by making the usual proposal for
prayer, and adding to it a request that the household might be summoned. In
came Lois, quiet and decorous; in came Nattee, all one impassive, stiff piece
of wood,—no look of intelligence or trace of giggling near her countenance.
Solemnly recalling each wandering thought, Pastor Nolan knelt in the midst of
these three to pray. He was a good and truly religious man, whose name here is
the only thing disguised, and played his part bravely in the awful trial to
which he was afterwards subjected; and if at the time, before he went through his
fiery persecutions, the human fancies which beset all young hearts came across
his, we at this day know that these fancies are no sin. But now he prays in
earnest, prays so heartily for himself, with such a sense of his own spiritual
need and spiritual failings, that each one of his hearers feels as if a prayer
and a supplication had gone up for each of them. Even Nattee muttered the few
words she knew of the Lord's Prayer; gibberish though the disjointed nouns and
verbs might be, the poor creature said them because she was stirred to unwonted
reverence. As for Lois, she rose up comforted and strengthened, as no special
prayers of Pastor Tappau had ever made her feel. But Faith was sobbing, sobbing
aloud, almost hysterically, and made no effort to rise, but lay on her
outstretched arms spread out upon the settle. Lois and Pastor Nolan looked at
each other for an instant. Then Lois said:
'Sir, you must go. My cousin
has not been strong for some time, and doubtless she needs more quiet than she
has had to-day.'
Pastor Nolan bowed, and left
the house; but in a moment he returned. Half opening the door, but without
entering, he said:
'I come back to ask, if
perchance I may call this evening to inquire how young Mistress Hickson finds
herself?'
But Faith did not hear this;
she was sobbing louder than ever.
'Why did you send him away,
Lois? I should have been better directly, and it is so long since I have seen
him.'
She had her face hidden as
she uttered these words, and Lois could not hear them distinctly. She bent her
head down by her cousin's on the settle, meaning to ask her to repeat what she
had said. But in the irritation of the moment, and prompted possibly by some
incipient jealousy, Faith pushed Lois away so violently that the latter was
hurt against the hard, sharp corner of the wooden settle. Tears came into her
eyes; not so much because her cheek was bruised, as because of the surprised
pain she felt at this repulse from the cousin towards whom she was feeling so
warmly and kindly. Just for the moment, Lois was as angry as any child could
have been; but some of the words of Pastor Nolan's prayer yet rang in her ears,
and she thought it would be a shame if she did not let them sink into her
heart. She dared not, however, stoop again to caress Faith, but stood quietly
by her, sorrowfully waiting, until a step at the outer door caused Faith to
rise quickly, and rush into the kitchen, leaving Lois to bear the brunt of the
new-comer. It was Manasseh, returned from hunting. He had been two days away,
in company with other young men belonging to Salem. It was almost the only
occupation which could draw him out of his secluded habits. He stopped suddenly
at the door on seeing Lois, and alone, for she had avoided him of late in every
possible way.
'Where is my mother?'
'At a prayer meeting at
Pastor Tappau's. She has taken Prudence. Faith has left the room this minute. I
will call her.' And Lois was going towards the kitchen, when he placed himself
between her and the door.
'Lois,' said he, 'the time
is going by, and I cannot wait much longer. The visions come thick upon me, and
my sight grows clearer and clearer. Only this last night, camping out in the
woods, I saw in my soul, between sleeping and waking, the spirit come and offer
thee two lots, and the colour of the one was white, like a bride's, and the
other was black and red, which is, being interpreted, a violent death. And when
thou didst choose the latter the spirit said unto me, 'Come!' and I came, and
did as I was bidden. I put it on thee with mine own hands, as it is
preordained, if thou wilt not hearken unto the voice and be my wife. And when
the black and red dress fell to the ground, thou wert even as a corpse three
days old. Now, be advised, Lois, in time. Lois, my cousin, I have seen it in a
vision, and my soul cleaveth unto thee—I would fain spare thee.'
He was really in earnest—in
passionate earnest; whatever his visions, as he called them, might be, he
believed in them, and this belief gave something of unselfishness to his love
for Lois. This she felt at this moment, if she had never done so before, and it
seemed like a contrast to the repulse she had just met with from his sister. He
had drawn near her, and now he took hold of her hand, repeating in his wild,
pathetic, dreamy way:
'And the voice said unto me,
"Marry Lois!"' And Lois was more inclined to soothe and reason with
him than she had ever been before, since the first time of his speaking to her
on the subject,—when Grace Hickson—and Prudence entered the room from the
passage. They had returned from the prayer meeting by the back way, which had
prevented the sound of their approach from being heard.
But Manasseh did not stir or
look round; he kept his eyes fixed on Lois, as if to note the effect of his
words. Grace came hastily forwards, and lifting up her strong right arm, smote
their joined hands in twain, in spite of the fervour of Manasseh's grasp.
'What means this?' said she,
addressing herself more to Lois than to her son, anger flashing out of her
deep-set eyes.
Lois waited for Manasseh to
speak. He seemed, but a few minutes before, to be more gentle and less
threatening than he had been of late on this subject, and she did not wish to
irritate him. But he did not speak, and her aunt stood angrily waiting for an
answer.
'At any rate,' thought Lois,
'it will put an end to the thought in his mind when my aunt speaks out about
it.'
'My cousin seeks me in
marriage,' said Lois.
'Thee!' and Grace struck out
in the direction of her niece with a gesture of supreme contempt. But now
Manasseh spoke forth:
'Yea! it is preordained. The
voice has said it, and the spirit has brought her to me as my bride.'
'Spirit! an evil spirit
then. A good spirit would have chosen out for thee a godly maiden of thine own
people, and not a prelatist and a stranger like this girl. A pretty return,
Mistress Lois, for all our kindness.'
'Indeed, Aunt Hickson, I
have done all I could—Cousin Manasseh knows it—to show him I can be none of
his. I have told him,' said she, blushing, but determined to say the whole out
at once, 'that I am all but troth-plight to a young man of our own village at
home; and, even putting all that on one side, I wish not for marriage at
present.'
'Wish rather for conversion
and regeneration. Marriage is an unseemly word in the mouth of a maiden. As for
Manasseh, I will take reason with him in private; and, meanwhile, if thou hast
spoken truly, throw not thyself in his path, as I have noticed thou hast done
but too often of late.'
Lois's heart burnt within
her at this unjust accusation, for she knew how much she had dreaded and
avoided her cousin, and she almost looked to him to give evidence that her
aunt's last words were not true. But, instead, he recurred to his one fixed
idea, and said:
'Mother, listen! If I wed
not Lois, both she and I die within the year. I care not for life; before this,
as you know, I have sought for death' (Grace shuddered, and was for a moment
subdued by some recollection of past horror); 'but if Lois were my wife I
should live, and she would be spared from what is the other lot. That whole
vision grows clearer to me day by day. Yet, when I try to know whether I am one
of the elect, all is dark. The mystery of Free-Will and Fore-Knowledge is a
mystery of Satan's devising, not of God's.'
'Alas, my son! Satan is
abroad among the brethren even now; but let the old vexed topics rest. Sooner
than fret thyself again, thou shalt have Lois to be thy wife, though my heart
was set far differently for thee.'
'No, Manasseh,' said Lois.
'I love you well as a cousin, but wife of yours I can never be. Aunt Hickson,
it is not well to delude him so. I say, if ever I marry man, I am troth-plight
to one in England.'
'Tush, child! I am your
guardian in my dead husband's place. Thou thinkest thyself so great a prize
that I would clutch at thee whether or no, I doubt not. I value thee not, save
as a medicine for Manasseh, if his mind get disturbed again, as I have noted
signs of late.'
This, then, was the secret
explanation of much that had alarmed her in her cousin's manner: and if Lois
had been a physician of modern times, she might have traced somewhat of the
same temperament in his sisters as well—in Prudence's lack of natural feeling
and impish delight in mischief, in Faith's vehemence of unrequited love. But as
yet Lois did not know, any more than Faith, that the attachment of the latter
to Mr. Nolan was not merely unreturned, but even unperceived, by the young
minister.
He came, it is true—came
often to the house, sat long with the family, and watched them narrowly, but
took no especial notice of Faith. Lois perceived this, and grieved over it;
Nattee perceived it, and was indignant at it, long before Faith slowly
acknowledged it to herself, and went to Nattee the Indian woman, rather than to
Lois her cousin, for sympathy and counsel.
'He cares not for me,' said
Faith. 'He cares more for Lois's little finger than for my whole body,' the
girl moaned out in the bitter pain of jealousy.
'Hush thee, hush thee,
prairie bird! How can he build a nest, when the old bird has got all the moss
and the feathers? Wait till the Indian has found means to send the old bird
flying far away.' This was the mysterious comfort Nattee gave.
Grace Hickson took some kind
of charge over Manasseh that relieved Lois of much of her distress at his
strange behaviour. Yet at times he escaped from his mother's watchfulness, and
in such opportunities he would always seek Lois, entreating her, as of old, to
marry him—sometimes pleading his love for her, oftener speaking wildly of his
visions and the voices which he heard foretelling a terrible futurity.
We have now to do with
events which were taking place in Salem, beyond the narrow circle of the
Hickson family; but as they only concern us in as far as they bore down in
their consequences on the future of those who formed part of it, I shall go
over the narrative very briefly. The town of Salem had lost by death, within a
very short time preceding the commencement of my story, nearly all its
venerable men and leading citizens—men of ripe wisdom and sound counsel. The
people had hardly yet recovered from the shock of their loss, as one by one the
patriarchs of the primitive little community had rapidly followed each other to
the grave. They had been beloved as fathers, and looked up to as judges in the
land. The first bad effect of their loss was seen in the heated dissension
which sprang up between Pastor Tappau and the candidate Nolan. It had been
apparently healed over; but Mr. Nolan had not been many weeks in Salem, after
his second coming, before the strife broke out afresh, and alienated many for
life who had till then been bound together by the ties of friendship or
relationship. Even in the Hickson family something of this feeling soon sprang
up; Grace being a vehement partisan of the elder pastor's more gloomy
doctrines, while Faith was a passionate, if a powerless, advocate of Mr. Nolan.
Manasseh's growing absorption in his own fancies, and imagined gift of
prophecy, making him comparatively indifferent to all outward events, did not
tend to either the fulfilment of his visions, or the elucidation of the dark
mysterious doctrines over which he had pondered too long for the health either
of his mind or body; while Prudence delighted in irritating every one by her
advocacy of the views of thinking to which they were most opposed, and
retailing every gossiping story to the person most likely to disbelieve, and be
indignant at what she told, with an assumed unconsciousness of any such effect
to be produced. There was much talk of the congregational difficulties and
dissensions being carried up to the general court, and each party naturally
hoped that, if such were the course of events, the opposing pastor and that
portion of the congregation which adhered to him might be worsted in the
struggle.
Such was the state of things
in the township when, one day towards the end of the month of February, Grace
Hickson returned from the weekly prayer meeting; which it was her custom to
attend at Pastor Tappau's house, in a state of extreme excitement. On her
entrance into her own house she sat down, rocking her body backwards and
forwards, and praying to herself: both Faith and Lois stopped their spinning,
in wonder at her agitation, before either of them ventured to address her. At
length Faith rose, and spoke:
'Mother, what is it? Hath
anything happened of an evil nature?'
The brave, stern, old
woman's face was blenched, and her eyes were almost set in horror, as she
prayed; the great drops running down her cheeks.
It seemed almost as if she
had to make a struggle to recover her sense of the present homely accustomed
life, before she could find words to answer:
'Evil nature! Daughters,
Satan is abroad,—is close to us. I have this very hour seen him afflict two
innocent children, as of old he troubled those who were possessed by him in
Judea. Hester and Abigail Tappau have been contorted and convulsed by him and
his servants into such shapes as I am afeard to think on; and when their
father, godly Mr. Tappau, began to exhort and to pray, their howlings were like
the wild beasts of the field. Satan is of a truth let loose amongst us. The
girls kept calling upon him as if he were even then present among us. Abigail
screeched out that he stood at my very back in the guise of a black man; and
truly, as I turned round at her words, I saw a creature like a shadow
vanishing, and turned all of a cold sweat. Who knows where he is now? Faith,
lay straws across on the door-sill.'
'But if he be already
entered in,' asked Prudence, 'may not that make it difficult for him to
depart?'
Her mother, taking no notice
of her question, went on rocking herself, and praying, till again she broke out
into narration:
'Reverend Mr. Tappau says,
that only last night he heard a sound as of a heavy body dragged all through
the house by some strong power; once it was thrown against his bedroom door,
and would, doubtless, have broken it in, if he had not prayed fervently and
aloud at that very time; and a shriek went up at his prayer that made his hair
stand on end; and this morning all the crockery in the house was found broken and
piled up in the middle of the kitchen floor; and Pastor Tappau says, that as
soon as he began to ask a blessing on the morning's meal, Abigail and Hester
cried out, as if some one was pinching them. Lord, have mercy upon us all!
Satan is of a truth let loose.'
'They sound like the old
stories I used to hear in Barford,' said Lois, breathless with affright.
Faith seemed less alarmed;
but then her dislike to Pastor Tappau was so great, that she could hardly
sympathise with any misfortunes that befell him or his family.
Towards evening Mr. Nolan
came in. In general, so high did party spirit run, Grace Hickson only tolerated
his visits, finding herself often engaged at such hours, and being too much
abstracted in thought to show him the ready hospitality which was one of her
most prominent virtues. But to-day, both as bringing the latest intelligence of
the new horrors sprung up in Salem, and as being one of the Church militant (or
what the Puritans considered as equivalent to the Church militant) against Satan,
he was welcomed by her in an unusual manner.
He seemed oppressed with the
occurrences of the day: at first it appeared to be almost a relief to him to
sit still, and cogitate upon them, and his hosts were becoming almost impatient
for him to say something more than mere monosyllables, when he began:
'Such a day as this, I pray
that I may never see again. It is as if the devils whom our Lord banished into
the herd of swine, had been permitted to come again upon the earth. And I would
it were only the lost spirits who were tormenting us; but I much fear, that
certain of those whom we have esteemed as God's people have sold their souls to
Satan, for the sake of a little of his evil power, whereby they may afflict
others for a time. Elder Sherringham hath lost this very day a good and
valuable horse, wherewith he used to drive his family to meeting, his wife
being bedridden.'
'Perchance,' said Lois, 'the
horse died of some natural disease.'
'True,' said Pastor Nolan;
'but I was going on to say, that as he entered into his house, full of dolour
at the loss of his beast, a mouse ran in before him so sudden that it almost
tripped him up, though an instant before there was no such thing to be seen;
and he caught at it with his shoe and hit it, and it cried out like a human
creature in pain, and straight ran up the chimney, caring nothing for the hot
flame and smoke.'
Manasseh listened greedily
to all this story, and when it was ended he smote upon his breast, and prayed
aloud for deliverance from the power of the Evil One; and he continually went
on praying at intervals through the evening, with every mark of abject terror
on his face and in his manner—he, the bravest, most daring hunter in all the
settlement. Indeed, all the family huddled together in silent fear, scarcely
finding any interest in the usual household occupations. Faith and Lois sat
with arms entwined, as in days before the former had become jealous of the
latter; Prudence asked low, fearful questions of her mother and of the pastor
as to the creatures that were abroad, and the ways in which they afflicted
others; and when Grace besought the minister to pray for her and her household,
he made a long and passionate supplication that none of that little flock might
ever so far fall away into hopeless perdition as to be guilty of the sin
without forgiveness—the sin of Witchcraft.
Chapter 3
'The sin of witchcraft.' We
read about it, we look on it from the outside; but we can hardly realize the
terror it induced. Every impulsive or unaccustomed action, every little nervous
affection, every ache or pain was noticed, not merely by those around the
sufferer, but by the person himself, whoever he might be, that was acting, or
being acted upon, in any but the most simple and ordinary manner. He or she
(for it was most frequently a woman or girl that was the supposed subject) felt
a desire for some unusual kind of food—some unusual motion or rest her hand
twitched, her foot was asleep, or her leg had the cramp; and the dreadful
question immediately suggested itself, 'Is any one possessing an evil power
over me, by the help of Satan?' and perhaps they went on to think, 'It is bad
enough to feel that my body can be made to suffer through the power of some
unknown evil-wisher to me, but what if Satan gives them still further power,
and they can touch my soul, and inspire me with loathful thoughts leading me
into crimes which at present I abhor?' and so on, till the very dread of what
might happen, and the constant dwelling of the thoughts, even with horror, upon
certain possibilities, or what were esteemed such, really brought about the
corruption of imagination at least, which at first they had shuddered at.
Moreover, there was a sort of uncertainty as to who might be infected—not
unlike the overpowering dread of the plague, which made some shrink from their
best-beloved with irrepressible fear. The brother or sister, who was the
dearest friend of their childhood and youth, might now be bound in some
mysterious deadly pact with evil spirits of the most horrible kind—who could
tell? And in such a case it became a duty, a sacred duty, to give up the
earthly body which had been once so loved, but which was now the habitation of
a soul corrupt and horrible in its evil inclinations. Possibly, terror of death
might bring on confession and repentance, and purification. Or if it did not,
why away with the evil creature, the witch, out of the world, down to the
kingdom of the master, whose bidding was done on earth in all manner of
corruption and torture of God's creatures! There were others who, to these more
simple, if more ignorant, feelings of horror at witches and witchcraft, added
the desire, conscious or unconscious, of revenge on those whose conduct had
been in any way displeasing to them. Where evidence takes a supernatural character,
there is no disproving it. This argument comes up: 'You have only the natural
powers; I have supernatural. You admit the existence of the supernatural by the
condemnation of this very crime of witchcraft. You hardly know the limits of
the natural powers; how then can you define the supernatural? I say that in the
dead of night, when my body seemed to all present to be lying in quiet sleep, I
was, in the most complete and wakeful consciousness, present in my body at an
assembly of witches and wizards with Satan at their head; that I was by them
tortured in my body, because my soul would not acknowledge him as its king; and
that I witnessed such and such deeds. What the nature of the appearance was
that took the semblance of myself, sleeping quietly in my bed, I know not; but
admitting, as you do, the possibility of witchcraft, you cannot disprove my
evidence.' This evidence might be given truly or falsely, as the person
witnessing believed it or not; but every one must see what immense and terrible
power was abroad for revenge. Then, again, the accused themselves ministered to
the horrible panic abroad. Some, in dread of death, confessed from cowardice to
the imaginary crimes of which they were accused, and of which they were
promised a pardon on confession. Some, weak and terrified, came honestly to
believe in their own guilt, through the diseases of imagination which were sure
to be engendered at such a time as this.
Lois sat spinning with
Faith. Both were silent, pondering over the stories that were abroad. Lois
spoke first.
'Oh, Faith! this country is
worse than ever England was, even in the days of Master Matthew Hopkins, the
witch-finder. I grow frightened of every one, I think. I even get afeard
sometimes of Nattee!'
Faith coloured a little. Then
she asked,
'Why? What should make you
distrust the Indian woman?'
'Oh! I am ashamed of my fear
as soon as it arises in my mind. But, you know, her look and colour were
strange to me when first I came; and she is not a christened woman; and they
tell stories of Indian wizards; and I know not what the mixtures are which she
is sometimes stirring over the fire, nor the meaning of the strange chants she
sings to herself. And once I met her in the dusk, just close by Pastor Tappau's
house, in company with Hota, his servant—it was just before we heard of the
sore disturbance in his house—and I have wondered if she had aught to do with
it.'
Faith sat very still, as if
thinking. At last she said:
'If Nattee has powers beyond
what you and I have, she will not use them for evil; at least not evil to those
whom she loves.'
'That comforts me but
little,' said Lois. 'If she has powers beyond what she ought to have, I dread
her, though I have done her no evil; nay, though I could almost say she bore me
a kindly feeling. But such powers are only given by the Evil One; and the proof
thereof is, that, as you imply, Nattee would use them on those who offend her.'
'And why should she not?'
asked Faith, lifting her eyes, and flashing heavy fire out of them at the
question.
'Because,' said Lois, not
seeing Faith's glance, 'we are told to pray for them that despitefully use us,
and to do good to them that persecute us. But poor Nattee is not a christened
woman. I would that Mr. Nolan would baptize her; it would, maybe, take her out
of the power of Satan's temptations.'
'Are you never tempted?'
asked Faith, half scornfully; 'and yet I doubt not you were well baptized!'
'True,' said Lois, sadly; 'I
often do very wrong, but, perhaps, I might have done worse, if the holy form
had not been observed.'
They were again silent for a
time.
'Lois,' said Faith, 'I did
not mean any offence. But do you never feel as if you would give up all that
future life, of which the parsons talk, and which seems so vague and so
distant, for a few years of real, vivid blessedness to begin to-morrow—this
hour, this minute? Oh! I could think of happiness for which I would willingly
give up all those misty chances of heaven——'
'Faith, Faith!' cried Lois,
in terror, holding her hand before her cousin's mouth, and looking around in
fright. 'Hush! you know not who may be listening; you are putting yourself in
his power.'
But Faith pushed her hand
away, and said, 'Lois, I believe in him no more than I believe in heaven. Both
may exist, but they are so far away that I defy them. Why, all this ado about
Mr. Tappau's house—promise me never to tell living creature, and I will tell
you a secret.'
'No!' said Lois, terrified.
'I dread all secrets. I will hear none. I will do all that I can for you,
cousin Faith, in any way; but just at this time, I strive to keep my life and
thoughts within the strictest bounds of godly simplicity, and I dread pledging
myself to aught that is hidden and secret.'
'As you will, cowardly girl,
full of terrors, which, if you had listened to me, might have been lessened, if
not entirely done away with.' And Faith would not utter another word, though
Lois tried meekly to entice her into conversation on some other subject.
The rumour of witchcraft was
like the echo of thunder among the hills. It had broken out in Mr. Tappau's
house, and his two little daughters were the first supposed to be bewitched;
but round about, from every quarter of the town, came in accounts of sufferers
by witchcraft. There was hardly a family without one of these supposed victims.
Then arose a growl and menaces of vengeance from many a household—menaces
deepened, not daunted by the terror and mystery of the suffering that gave rise
to them.
At length a day was
appointed when, after solemn fasting and prayer, Mr. Tappau invited the
neighbouring ministers and all godly people to assemble at his house, and unite
with him in devoting a day to solemn religious services, and to supplication
for the deliverance of his children, and those similarly afflicted, from the
power of the Evil One. All Salem poured out towards the house of the minister.
There was a look of excitement on all their faces; eagerness and horror were
depicted on many, while stern resolution, amounting to determined cruelty, if
the occasion arose, was seen on others.
In the midst of the prayer,
Hester Tappau, the younger girl, fell into convulsions; fit after fit came on,
and her screams mingled with the shrieks and cries of the assembled
congregation. In the first pause, when the child was partially recovered, when the
people stood around exhausted and breathless, her father, the Pastor Tappau,
lifted his right hand, and adjured her, in the name of the Trinity, to say who
tormented her. There was a dead silence; not a creature stirred of all those
hundreds. Hester turned wearily and uneasily, and moaned out the name of Hota,
her father's Indian servant. Hota was present, apparently as much interested as
any one; indeed, she had been busying herself much in bringing remedies to the
suffering child. But now she stood aghast, transfixed, while her name was
caught up and shouted out in tones of reprobation and hatred by all the crowd
around her. Another moment and they would have fallen upon the trembling
creature and torn her limb from limb—pale, dusky, shivering Hota, half
guilty-looking from her very bewilderment. But Pastor Tappau, that gaunt, grey
man, lifting himself to his utmost height, signed to them to go back, to keep
still while he addressed them; and then he told them, that instant vengeance
was not just, deliberate punishment; that there would be need of conviction,
perchance of confession—he hoped for some redress for his suffering children
from her revelations, if she were brought to confession. They must leave the
culprit in his hands, and in those of his brother ministers, that they might
wrestle with Satan before delivering her up to the civil power. He spoke well,
for he spoke from the heart of a father seeing his children exposed to dreadful
and mysterious suffering, and firmly believing that he now held the clue in his
hand which should ultimately release them and their fellow-sufferers. And the
congregation moaned themselves into unsatisfied submission, and listened to his
long, passionate prayer, which he uplifted even while the hapless Hota stood
there, guarded and bound by two men, who glared at her like bloodhounds ready
to slip, even while the prayer ended in the words of the merciful Saviour.
Lois sickened and shuddered
at the whole scene; and this was no intellectual shuddering at the folly and
superstition of the people, but tender moral shuddering at the sight of guilt
which she believed in, and at the evidence of men's hatred and abhorrence,
which, when shown even to the guilty, troubled and distressed her merciful
heart. She followed her aunt and cousins out into the open air, with downcast
eyes and pale face. Grace Hickson was going home with a feeling of triumphant
relief at the detection of the guilty one. Faith alone seemed uneasy and
disturbed beyond her wont, for Manasseh received the whole transaction as the
fulfilment of a prophecy, and Prudence was excited by the novel scene into a
state of discordant high spirits.
'I am quite as old as Hester
Tappau,' said she; 'her birthday is in September and mine in October.'
'What has that to do with it?'
said Faith, sharply.
'Nothing, only she seemed
such a little thing for all those grave ministers to be praying for, and so
many folk come from a distance—some from Boston they said—all for her sake, as
it were. Why, didst thou see, it was godly Mr. Henwick that held her head when
he wriggled so, and old Madam Holbrook had herself helped upon a chair to see
the better. I wonder how long I might wriggle, before great and godly folk
would take so much notice of me? But, I suppose, that comes of being a pastor's
daughter. She'll be so set up there'll be no speaking to her now. Faith!
thinkest thou that Hota really had bewitched her? She gave me corn-cakes, the
last time I was at Pastor Tappau's, just like any other woman, only, perchance,
a trifle more good-natured; and to think of her being a witch after all!'
But Faith seemed in a hurry
to reach home, paid no attention to Prudence's talking. Lois hastened on with
Faith, for Manasseh was walking alongside of his mother, and she kept steady to
her plan of avoiding him, even though she pressed her company upon Faith, who
had seemed of late desirous of avoiding her.
That evening the news spread
through Salem, that Hota had confessed her sin—had acknowledged that she was a
witch. Nattee was the first to hear the intelligence. She broke into the room
where the girls were sitting with Grace Hickson, solemnly doing nothing,
because of the great prayer-meeting in the morning, and cried out, 'Mercy,
mercy, mistress, everybody! take care of poor Indian Nattee, who never do
wrong, but for mistress and the family! Hota one bad wicked witch, she say so
herself; oh, me! oh me!' and stooping over Faith, she said something in a low,
miserable tone of voice, of which Lois only heard the word 'torture.' But Faith
heard all, and turning very pale, half accompanied, half led Nattee back to her
kitchen.
Presently, Grace Hickson
came in. She had been out to see a neighbour; it will not do to say that so
godly a woman had been gossiping; and, indeed, the subject of the conversation
she had held was of too serious and momentous a nature for me to employ a light
word to designate it. There was all the listening to and repeating of small
details and rumours, in which the speakers have no concern, that constitutes
gossiping; but in this instance, all trivial facts and speeches might be
considered to bear such dreadful significance, and might have so ghastly an
ending, that such whispers were occasionally raised to a tragic importance.
Every fragment of intelligence that related to Mr. Tappau's household was
eagerly snatched at; how his dog howled all one long night through, and could
not be stilled; how his cow suddenly failed in her milk only two months after
she had calved; how his memory had forsaken him one morning, for a minute or two,
in repeating the Lord's Prayer, and he had even omitted a clause thereof in his
sudden perturbation; and how all these forerunners of his children's strange
illness might now be interpreted and understood—this had formed the staple of
the conversation between Grace Hickson and her friends. There had arisen a
dispute among them at last, as to how far these subjections to the power of the
Evil One were to be considered as a judgment upon Pastor Tappau for some sin on
his part; and if so, what? It was not an unpleasant discussion, although there
was considerable difference of opinion; for as none of the speakers had had
their families so troubled, it was rather a proof that they had none of them
committed any sin. In the midst of this talk, one, entering in from the street,
brought the news that Hota had confessed all—had owned to signing a certain
little red book which Satan had presented to her—had been present at impious
sacraments—had ridden through the air to Newbury Falls—and, in fact, had
assented to all the questions which the elders and magistrates, carefully
reading over the confessions of the witches who had formerly been tried in
England, in order that they might not omit a single inquiry, had asked of her.
More she had owned to, but things of inferior importance, and partaking more of
the nature of earthly tricks than of spiritual power. She had spoken of
carefully adjusted strings, by which all the crockery in Pastor Tappau's house
could be pulled down or disturbed; but of such intelligible malpractices the
gossips of Salem took little heed. One of them said that such an action showed
Satan's prompting, but they all preferred to listen to the grander guilt of the
blasphemous sacraments and supernatural rides. The narrator ended with saying
that Hota was to be hung the next morning, in spite of her confession, even
although her life had been promised to her if she acknowledged her sin; for it
was well to make an example of the first-discovered witch, and it was also well
that she was an Indian, a heathen, whose life would be no great loss to the
community. Grace Hickson on this spoke out. It was well that witches should
perish off the face of the earth, Indian or English, heathen or, worse, a
baptized Christian who had betrayed the Lord, even as Judas did, and had gone
over to Satan. For her part, she wished that the first-discovered witch had
been a member of a godly English household, that it might be seen of all men
that religious folk were willing to cut off the right hand, and pluck out the
right eye, if tainted with this devilish sin. She spoke sternly and well. The
last comer said, that her words might be brought to the proof, for it had been
whispered that Hota had named others, and some from the most religious families
of Salem, whom she had seen among the unholy communicants at the sacrament of
the Evil One. And Grace replied that she would answer for it, all godly folk
would stand the proof, and quench all natural affection rather than that such a
sin should grow and spread among them. She herself had a weak bodily dread of
witnessing the violent death even of an animal; but she would not let that
deter her from standing amidst those who cast the accursed creature out from
among them on the morrow morning.
Contrary to her wont, Grace
Hickson told her family much of this conversation. It was a sign of her
excitement on the subject that she thus spoke, and the excitement spread in
different forms through her family. Faith was flushed and restless, wandering
between the keeping-room and the kitchen, and questioning her mother
particularly as to the more extraordinary parts of Hota's confession, as if she
wished to satisfy herself that the Indian witch had really done those horrible
and mysterious deeds.
Lois shivered and trembled
with affright at the narration, and the idea that such things were possible.
Occasionally she found herself wandering off into sympathetic thought for the
woman who was to die, abhorred of all men, and unpardoned by God, to whom she
had been so fearful a traitor, and who was now, at this very time—when Lois sat
among her kindred by the warm and cheerful firelight, anticipating many
peaceful, perchance happy, morrows—solitary, shivering, panic-stricken, guilty,
with none to stand by her and exhort her, shut up in darkness between the cold
walls of the town prison. But Lois almost shrank from sympathising with so
loathsome an accomplice of Satan, and prayed for forgiveness for her charitable
thought; and yet, again, she remembered the tender spirit of the Saviour, and
allowed herself to fall into pity, till at last her sense of right and wrong
became so bewildered that she could only leave all to God's disposal, and just
ask that He would take all creatures and all events into His hands.
Prudence was as bright as if
she were listening to some merry story—curious as to more than her mother would
tell her—seeming to have no particular terror of witches or witchcraft, and yet
to be especially desirous to accompany her mother the next morning to the
hanging. Lois shrank from the cruel, eager face of the young girl as she begged
her mother to allow her to go. Even Grace was disturbed and perplexed by her
daughter's pertinacity.
'No!' said she. 'Ask me no
more. Thou shalt not go. Such sights are not for the young. I go, and I sicken
at the thoughts of it. But I go to show that I, a Christian woman, take God's
part against the devil's. Thou shalt not go, I tell thee. I could whip thee for
thinking of it.'
'Manasseh says Hota was well
whipped by Pastor Tappau ere she was brought to confession,' said Prudence, as
if anxious to change the subject of discussion.
Manasseh lifted up his head
from the great folio Bible, brought by his father from England, which he was
studying. He had not heard what Prudence said, but he looked up at the sound of
his name. All present were startled at his wild eyes, his bloodless face. But
he was evidently annoyed at the expression of their countenances.
'Why look ye at me in that
manner?' asked he. And his manner was anxious and agitated. His mother made
haste to speak:
'It was but that Prudence
said something that thou hast told her—that Pastor Tappau defiled his hands by
whipping the witch Hota. What evil thought has got hold of thee? Talk to us,
and crack not thy skull against the learning of man.'
'It is not the learning of
man that I study: it is the word of God. I would fain know more of the nature
of this sin of witchcraft, and whether it be, indeed, the unpardonable sin
against the Holy Ghost. At times I feel a creeping influence coming over me,
prompting all evil thoughts and unheard-of deeds, and I question within myself,
"Is not this the power of witchcraft?" and I sicken, and loathe all
that I do or say, and yet some evil creature hath the mastery over me, and I
must needs do and say what I loathe and dread. Why wonder you, mother, that I,
of all men, strive to learn the exact nature of witchcraft, and for that end
study the word of God? Have you not seen me when I was, as it were, possessed
with a devil?'
He spoke calmly, sadly, but
as under deep conviction. His mother rose to comfort him.
'My son,' she said, 'no one
ever saw thee do deeds, or heard thee utter words, which any one could say were
prompted by devils. We have seen thee, poor lad, with thy wits gone astray for
a time, but all thy thoughts sought rather God's will in forbidden places, than
lost the clue to them for one moment in hankering after the powers of darkness.
Those days are long past; a future lies before thee. Think not of witches or of
being subject to the power of witchcraft. I did evil to speak of it before
thee. Let Lois come and sit by thee, and talk to thee.'
Lois went to her cousin,
grieved at heart for his depressed state of mind, anxious to soothe and comfort
him, and yet recoiling more than ever from the idea of ultimately becoming his
wife—an idea to which she saw her aunt reconciling herself unconsciously day by
day, as she perceived the English girl's power of soothing and comforting her
cousin, even by the very tones of her sweet cooing voice.
He took Lois's hand.
'Let me hold it. It does me
good,' said he. 'Ah, Lois, when I am by you I forget all my troubles—will the
day never come when you will listen to the voice that speaks to me
continually?'
'I never hear it, Cousin
Manasseh,' she said, softly; 'but do not think of the voices. Tell me of the
land you hope to enclose from the forest—what manner of trees grow on it?'
Thus, by simple questions on
practical affairs, she led him back, in her unconscious wisdom, to the subjects
on which he had always shown strong practical sense. He talked on these with
all due discretion till the hour for family prayer came round, which was early
in those days. It was Manasseh's place to conduct it, as head of the family; a
post which his mother had always been anxious to assign to him since her
husband's death. He prayed extempore; and to-night his supplications wandered
off into wild, unconnected fragments of prayer, which all those kneeling around
began, each according to her anxiety for the speaker, to think would never end.
Minutes elapsed, and grew to quarters of an hour, and his words only became
more emphatic and wilder, praying for himself alone, and laying bare the
recesses of his heart. At length his mother rose, and took Lois by the hand,
for she had faith in Lois's power over her son, as being akin to that which the
shepherd David, playing on his harp, had over king Saul sitting on his throne.
She drew her towards him, where he knelt facing into the circle, with his eyes
upturned, and the tranced agony of his face depicting the struggle of the
troubled soul within.
'Here is Lois,' said Grace,
almost tenderly; 'she would fain go to her chamber.' (Down the girl's face the
tears were streaming.) 'Rise, and finish thy prayer in thy closet.'
But at Lois's approach he
sprang to his feet,—sprang aside.
'Take her away, mother! Lead
me not into temptation. She brings me evil and sinful thoughts. She overshadows
me, even in the presence of my God. She is no angel of light, or she would not
do this. She troubles me with the sound of a voice bidding me marry her, even
when I am at my prayers. Avaunt! Take her away!'
He would have struck at Lois
if she had not shrunk back, dismayed and affrighted. His mother, although
equally dismayed, was not affrighted. She had seen him thus before; and
understood the management of his paroxysm.
'Go, Lois! the sight of thee
irritates him, as once that of Faith did. Leave him to me.'
And Lois rushed away to her
room, and threw herself on her bed, like a panting, hunted creature. Faith came
after her slowly and heavily.
'Lois,' said she, 'wilt thou
do me a favour? It is not much to ask. Wilt thou arise before daylight, and
bear this letter from me to Pastor Nolan's lodgings? I would have done it
myself, but mother has bidden me to come to her, and I may be detained until
the time when Hota is to be hung; and the letter tells of matters pertaining to
life and death. Seek out Pastor Nolan wherever he may be, and have speech of
him after he has read the letter.'
'Cannot Nattee take it?'
asked Lois.
'No!' Faith answered, fiercely.
'Why should she?'
But Lois did not reply. A
quick suspicion darted through Faith's mind, sudden as lightning. It had never
entered there before.
'Speak, Lois. I read thy
thoughts. Thou wouldst fain not be the bearer of this letter?'
'I will take it,' said Lois,
meekly. 'It concerns life and death, you say?'
'Yes!' said Faith, in quite
a different tone of voice. But, after a pause of thought, she added: 'Then, as
soon as the house is still, I will write what I have to say, and leave it here,
on this chest; and thou wilt promise me to take it before the day is fully up,
while there is yet time for action.'
'Yes! I promise,' said Lois.
And Faith knew enough of her to feel sure that the deed would be done, however
reluctantly.
The letter was written—laid
on the chest; and, ere day dawned, Lois was astir, Faith watching her from
between her half-closed eyelids—eyelids that had never been fully closed in
sleep the livelong night. The instant Lois, cloaked and hooded, left the room,
Faith sprang up, and prepared to go to her mother, whom she heard already
stirring. Nearly every one in Salem was awake and up on this awful morning,
though few were out of doors, as Lois passed along the streets. Here was the
hastily erected gallows, the black shadow of which fell across the street with
ghastly significance; now she had to pass the iron-barred gaol, through the
unglazed windows of which she heard the fearful cry of a woman, and the sound
of many footsteps. On she sped, sick almost to faintness, to the widow woman's
where Mr. Nolan lodged. He was already up and abroad, gone, his hostess
believed, to the gaol. Thither Lois, repeating the words 'for life and for
death!' was forced to go. Retracing her steps, she was thankful to see him come
out of those dismal portals, rendered more dismal for being in heavy shadow,
just as she approached. What his errand had been she knew not; but he looked
grave and sad, as she put Faith's letter into his hands, and stood before him
quietly waiting, until he should read it, and deliver the expected answer. But,
instead of opening it, he held it in his hand, apparently absorbed in thought.
At last he spoke aloud, but more to himself than to her:
'My God! and is she then to
die in this fearful delirium? It must be—can be—only delirium, that prompts
such wild and horrible confessions. Mistress Barclay, I come from the presence
of the Indian woman appointed to die. It seems, she considered herself betrayed
last evening by her sentence not being respited, even after she had made
confession of sin enough to bring down fire from heaven; and, it seems to me,
the passionate, impotent anger of this helpless creature has turned to madness,
for she appalls me by the additional revelations she has made to the keepers
during the night—to me this morning. I could almost fancy that she thinks, by
deepening the guilt she confesses, to escape this last dread punishment of all,
as if, were a tithe of what she say true, one could suffer such a sinner to
live. Yet to send her to death in such a state of mad terror! What is to be
done?'
'Yet Scripture says that we
are not to suffer witches in the land,' said Lois, slowly.
'True; I would but ask for a
respite till the prayers of God's people had gone up for His mercy. Some would
pray for her, poor wretch as she is. You would, Mistress Barclay, I am sure?'
But he said it in a questioning tone.
'I have been praying for her
in the night many a time,' said Lois, in a low voice. 'I pray for her in my
heart at this moment; I suppose; they are bidden to put her out of the land,
but I would not have her entirely God-forsaken. But, sir, you have not read my
cousin's letter. And she bade me bring back an answer with much urgency.'
Still he delayed. He was
thinking of the dreadful confession he came from hearing. If it were true, the
beautiful earth was a polluted place, and he almost wished to die, to escape
from such pollution, into the white innocence of those who stood in the
presence of God.
Suddenly his eyes fell on
Lois's pure, grave face, upturned and watching his. Faith in earthly goodness
came over his soul in that instant, 'and he blessed her unaware.'
He put his hand on her
shoulder, with an action half paternal—although the difference in their ages
was not above a dozen years—and, bending a little towards her, whispered, half
to himself, 'Mistress Barclay, you have done me good.'
'I!' said Lois, half
affrighted—'I done you good! How?'
'By being what you are. But,
perhaps, I should rather thank God, who sent you at the very moment when my
soul was so disquieted.'
At this instant, they were
aware of Faith standing in front of them, with a countenance of thunder. Her
angry look made Lois feel guilty. She had not enough urged the pastor to read
his letter, she thought; and it was indignation at this delay in what she had
been commissioned to do with the urgency of life or death, that made her cousin
lower at her so from beneath her straight black brows. Lois explained how she
had not found Mr. Nolan at his lodgings, and had had to follow him to the door
of the gaol. But Faith replied, with obdurate contempt:
'Spare thy breath, cousin
Lois. It is easy seeing on what pleasant matters thou and the Pastor Nolan were
talking. I marvel not at thy forgetfulness. My mind is changed. Give me back my
letter, sir; it was about a poor matter—an old woman's life. And what is that
compared to a young girl's love?'
Lois heard but for an
instant; did not understand that her cousin, in her jealous anger, could
suspect the existence of such a feeling as love between her and Mr. Nolan. No imagination
as to its possibility had ever entered her mind; she had respected him, almost
revered him—nay, had liked him as the probable husband of Faith. At the thought
that her cousin could believe her guilty of such treachery, her grave eyes
dilated, and fixed themselves on the flaming countenance of Faith. That
serious, unprotesting manner of perfect innocence must have told on her
accuser, had it not been that, at the same instant, the latter caught sight of
the crimsoned and disturbed countenance of the pastor, who felt the veil rent
off the unconscious secret of his heart. Faith snatched her letter out of his
hands, and said:
'Let the witch hang! What
care I? She has done harm enough with her charms and her sorcery on Pastor
Tappau's girls. Let her die, and let all other witches look to themselves; for
there be many kinds of witchcraft abroad. Cousin Lois, thou wilt like best to
stop with Pastor Nolan, or I would pray thee to come back with me to
breakfast.'
Lois was not to be daunted
by jealous sarcasm. She held out her hand to Pastor Nolan, determined to take
no heed of her cousin's mad words, but to bid him farewell in her accustomed
manner. He hesitated before taking it, and when he did, it was with a
convulsive squeeze that almost made her start. Faith waited and watched all,
with set lips and vengeful eyes. She bade no farewell; she spake no word; but
grasping Lois tightly by the back of the arm, she almost drove her before her
down the street till they reached their home.
The arrangement for the morning
was this: Grace Hickson and her son Manasseh were to be present at the hanging
of the first witch executed in Salem, as pious and godly heads of a family. All
the other members were strictly forbidden to stir out, until such time as the
low-tolling bell announced that all was over in this world for Hota, the Indian
witch. When the execution was ended, there was to be a solemn prayer-meeting of
all the inhabitants of Salem; ministers had come from a distance to aid by the
efficacy of their prayers in these efforts to purge the land of the devil and
his servants. There was reason to think that the great old meeting-house would
be crowded, and when Faith and Lois reached home, Grace Hickson was giving her
directions to Prudence, urging her to be ready for an early start to that
place. The stern old woman was troubled in her mind at the anticipation of the
sight she was to see, before many minutes were over, and spoke in a more
hurried and incoherent manner than was her wont. She was dressed in her Sunday best;
but her face was very grey and colourless, and she seemed afraid to cease
speaking about household affairs, for fear she should have time to think.
Manasseh stood by her, perfectly, rigidly still; he also was in his Sunday
clothes. His face, too, was paler than its wont, but it wore a kind of absent,
rapt expression, almost like that of a man who sees a vision. As Faith entered,
still holding Lois in her fierce grasp, Manasseh started and smiled; but still
dreamily. His manner was so peculiar, that even his mother stayed her talking
to observe him more closely; he was in that state of excitement which usually
ended in what his mother and certain of her friends esteemed a prophetic
revelation. He began to speak, at first very low, and then his voice increased
in power:
'How beautiful is the land
of Beulah, far over the sea, beyond the mountains! Thither the angels carry
her, lying back in their arms like one fainting. They shall kiss away the black
circle of death, and lay her down at the feet of the Lamb. I hear her pleading
there for those on earth who consented to her death. O Lois! pray also for me,
pray for me, miserable!'
When he uttered his cousin's
name all their eyes turned towards her. It was to her that his vision related!
She stood among them, amazed, awe-stricken, but not like one affrighted or
dismayed. She was the first to speak:
'Dear friends, do not think
of me; his words may or may not be true. I am in God's hands all the same,
whether he have the gift of prophecy or not. Besides, hear you not that I end
where all would fain end? Think of him, and of his needs. Such times as these
always leave him exhausted and weary, when he comes out of them.'
And she busied herself in
cares for his refreshment, aiding her aunt's trembling hands to set before him
the requisite food, as he now sat tired and bewildered, gathering together with
difficulty his scattered senses.
Prudence did all she could
to assist and speed their departure. But Faith stood apart, watching in silence
with her passionate, angry eyes.
As soon as they had set out
on their solemn, fatal errand, Faith left the room. She had not tasted food or
touched drink. Indeed, they all felt sick at heart. The moment her sister had
gone up stairs, Prudence sprang to the settle on which Lois had thrown down her
cloak and hood:
'Lend me your muffles and
mantle, Cousin Lois. I never yet saw a woman hanged, and I see not why I should
not go. I will stand on the edge of the crowd; no one will know me, and I will
be home long before my mother.'
'No!' said Lois, 'that may
not be. My aunt would be sore displeased. I wonder at you, Prudence, seeking to
witness such a sight.' And as she spoke she held fast her cloak, which Prudence
vehemently struggled for.
Faith returned, brought back
possibly by the sound of the struggle. She smiled—a deadly smile.
'Give it up, Prudence.
Strive no more with her. She has bought success in this world, and we are but
her slaves.'
'Oh, Faith!' said Lois,
relinquishing her hold of the cloak, and turning round with passionate reproach
in her look and voice, 'what have I done that you should speak so of me; you,
that have loved as I think one love a sister?'
Prudence did not lose her
opportunity, but hastily arrayed herself in the mantle, which was too large for
her, and which she had, therefore, considered as well adapted for concealment;
but, as she went towards the door, her feet became entangled in the unusual
length, and she fell, bruising her arm pretty sharply.
'Take care, another time,
how you meddle with a witch's things,' said Faith, as one scarcely believing
her own words, but at enmity with all the world in her bitter jealousy of
heart. Prudence rubbed her arm and looked stealthily at Lois.
'Witch Lois! Witch Lois!'
said she at last, softly, pulling a childish face of spite at her.
'Oh, hush, Prudence! Do not
bandy such terrible words. Let me look at thine arm. I am sorry for thy hurt,
only glad that it has kept thee from disobeying thy mother.'
'Away, away!' said Prudence,
springing from her. 'I am afeard of her in very truth, Faith. Keep between me
and the witch, or I will throw a stool at her.'
Faith smiled—it was a bad
and wicked smile—but she did not stir to calm the fears she had called up in
her young sister. Just at this moment, the bell began to toll. Hota, the Indian
witch, was dead. Lois covered her face with her hands. Even Faith went a
deadlier pale than she had been, and said, sighing, 'Poor Hota! But death is
best.'
Prudence alone seemed
unmoved by any thoughts connected with the solemn, monotonous sound. Her only
consideration was, that now she might go out into the street and see the
sights, and hear the news, and escape from the terror which she felt at the
presence of her cousin. She flew up stairs to find her own mantle, ran down
again, and past Lois, before the English girl had finished her prayer, and was
speedily mingled among the crowd going to the meetinghouse. There also Faith
and Lois came in due course of time, but separately, not together. Faith so
evidently avoided Lois, that she, humbled and grieved, could not force her
company upon her cousin, but loitered a little behind,—the quiet tears stealing
down her face, shed for the many causes that had occurred this morning.
The meeting-house was full
to suffocation; and, as it sometimes happens on such occasions, the greatest
crowd was close about the doors, from the fact that few saw, on their first
entrance, where there might be possible spaces into which they could wedge
themselves. Yet they were impatient of any arrivals from the outside, and pushed
and hustled Faith, and after her Lois, till the two were forced on to a
conspicuous place in the very centre of the building, where there was no chance
of a seat, but still space to stand in. Several stood around, the pulpit being
in the middle, and already occupied by two ministers in Geneva bands and gowns,
while other ministers, similarly attired, stood holding on to it, almost as if
they were giving support instead of receiving it. Grace Hickson and her son sat
decorously in their own pew, thereby showing that they had arrived early from
the execution. You might almost have traced out the number of those who had
been at the hanging of the Indian witch, by the expression of their
countenances. They were awestricken into terrible repose; while the crowd pouring
in, still pouring in, of those who had not attended the execution, looked all
restless, and excited, and fierce. A buzz went round the meeting, that the
stranger minister who stood along with Pastor Tappau in the pulpit was no other
than Dr. Cotton Mather himself, come all the way from Boston to assist in
purging Salem of witches.
And now Pastor Tappau began
his prayer, extempore, as was the custom. His words were wild and incoherent,
as might be expected from a man who had just been consenting to the bloody
death of one who was, but a few days ago, a member of his own family; violent
and passionate, as was to be looked for in the father of children, whom he
believed to suffer so fearfully from the crime he would denounce before the
Lord. He sat down at length from pure exhaustion. Then Dr. Cotton Mather stood
forward: he did not utter more than a few words of prayer, calm in comparison
with what had gone before, and then he went on to address the great crowd
before him in a quiet, argumentative way, but arranging what he had to say with
something of the same kind of skill which Antony used in his speech to the
Romans after Cæsar's murder. Some of Dr. Mather's words have been preserved to
us, as he afterwards wrote them down in one of his works. Speaking of those
'unbelieving Sadducees' who doubted the existence of such a crime, he said:
'Instead of their apish shouts and jeers at blessed Scripture, and histories
which have such undoubted confirmation as that no man that has breeding enough
to regard the common laws of human society will offer to doubt of them, it
becomes us rather to adore the goodness of God, who from the mouths of babes
and sucklings has ordained truth, and by the means of the sore-afflicted
children of your godly pastor, has revealed the fact that the devils have with
most horrid operations broken in upon your neighbourhood. Let us beseech Him
that their power may be restrained, and that they go not so far in their evil
machinations as they did but four years ago in the city of Boston, where I was
the humble means, under God, of loosing from the power of Satan the four
children of that religious and blessed man, Mr. Goodwin. These four babes of
grace were bewitched by an Irish witch; there is no end to the narration of the
torments they had to submit to. At one time they would bark like dogs, at
another purr like cats; yea, they would fly like geese, and be carried with an
incredible swiftness, having but just their toes now and then upon the ground,
sometimes not once in twenty feet, and their arms waved like those of a bird.
Yet at other times, by the hellish devices of the woman who had bewitched them,
they could not stir without limping, for, by means of an invisible chain, she
hampered their limbs, or, sometimes, by means of a noose, almost choked them.
One in especial was subjected by this woman of Satan to such heat as of an
oven, that I myself have seen the sweat drop from off her, while all around
were moderately cold and well at ease. But not to trouble you with more of my
stories, I will go on to prove that it was Satan himself that held power over
her. For a very remarkable thing it was, that she was not permitted by that
evil spirit to read any godly or religious book, speaking the truth as it is in
Jesus. She could read Popish books well enough, while both sight and speech
seemed to fail her when I gave her the Assembly's Catechism. Again, she was
fond of that prelatical Book of Common Prayer, which is but the Roman mass-book
in an English and ungodly shape. In the midst of her sufferings, if one put the
Prayer-book into her hands it relieved her. Yet mark you, she could never be
brought to read the Lord's Prayer, whatever book she met with it in, proving
thereby distinctly that she was in league with the devil. I took her into my
own house, that I, even as Dr. Martin Luther did, might wrestle with the devil
and have my fling at him. But when I called my household to prayer, the devils
that possessed her caused her to whistle, and sing, and yell in a discordant
and hellish fashion.'
At this very instant, a
shrill, clear whistle pierced all ears. Dr. Mather stopped for a moment:
'Satan is among you!' he
cried. 'Look to yourselves!' And he prayed with fervour, as if against a
present and threatening enemy; but no one heeded him. Whence came that ominous,
unearthly whistle? Every man watched his neighbour. Again the whistle, out of
their very midst! And then a bustle in a corner of the building, three or four
people stirring, without any cause immediately perceptible to those at a distance,
the movement spread, and, directly after, a passage even in that dense mass of
people was cleared for two men, who bore forwards Prudence Hickson, lying rigid
as a log of wood, in the convulsive position of one who suffered from an
epileptic fit. They laid her down among the ministers who were gathered round
the pulpit. Her mother came to her, sending up a wailing cry at the sight of
her distorted child. Dr. Mather came down from the pulpit and stood over her,
exorcising the devil in possession, as one accustomed to such scenes. The crowd
pressed forward in mute horror. At length, her rigidity of form and feature
gave way, and she was terribly convulsed—torn by the devil, as they called it.
By-and-by the violence of the attack was over, and the spectators began to
breathe once more, though still the former horror brooded over them, and they
listened as if for the sudden ominous whistle again, and glanced fearfully
around, as if Satan were at their backs picking out his next victim.
Meanwhile, Dr. Mather,
Pastor Tappau, and one or two others were exhorting Prudence to reveal, if she
could, the name of the person, the witch, who, by influence over Satan, had
subjected the child to such torture as that which they had just witnessed. They
bade her speak in the name of the Lord. She whispered a name in the low voice
of exhaustion. None of the congregation could hear what it was. But the Pastor
Tappau, when he heard it, drew back in dismay, while Dr. Mather, knowing not to
whom the name belonged, cried out, in a clear, cold voice,
'Know ye one Lois Barclay;
for it is she who hath bewitched this poor child?'
The answer was given rather
by action than by word, although a low murmur went up from many. But all fell
back, as far as falling back in such a crowd was possible, from Lois Barclay,
where she stood,—and looked on her with surprise and horror. A space of some
feet, where no possibility of space had seemed to be not a minute before, left
Lois standing alone, with every eye fixed upon her in hatred and dread. She
stood like one speechless, tongue-tied, as if in a dream. She a witch! accursed
as witches were in the sight of God and man! Her smooth, healthy face became
contracted into shrivel and pallor, but she uttered not a word, only looked at
Dr. Mather with her dilated, terrified eyes.
Some one said, 'She is of
the household of Grace Hickson, a God-fearing woman.' Lois did not know if the
words were in her favour or not. She did not think about them, even; they told
less on her than on any person present. She a witch! and the silver glittering
Avon, and the drowning woman she had seen in her childhood at Barford,—at home
in England,—were before her, and her eyes fell before her doom. There was some
commotion—some rustling of papers; the magistrates of the town were drawing
near the pulpit and consulting with the ministers. Dr. Mather spoke again:
'The Indian woman, who was
hung this morning, named certain people, whom she deposed to having seen at the
horrible meetings for the worship of Satan; but there is no name of Lois
Barclay down upon the paper, although we are stricken at the sight of the names
of some——'
An interruption—a
consultation. Again Dr. Mather spoke:
'Bring the accused witch,
Lois Barclay, near to this poor suffering child of Christ.'
They rushed forward to force
Lois to the place where Prudence lay. But Lois walked forward of herself.
'Prudence,' she said, in
such a sweet, touching voice, that, long afterwards, those who heard it that
day, spoke of it to their children, 'have I ever said an unkind word to you,
much less done you an ill turn? Speak, dear child. You did not know what you
said just now, did you?'
But Prudence writhed away
from her approach, and screamed out, as if stricken with fresh agony.
'Take her away! take her
away! Witch Lois, witch Lois, who threw me down only this morning, and turned
my arm black and blue.' And she bared her arm, as if in confirmation of her
words. It was sorely bruised.
'I was not near you,
Prudence!' said Lois, sadly. But that was only reckoned fresh evidence of her
diabolical power.
Lois's brain began to get
bewildered. Witch Lois! she a witch, abhorred of all men! Yet she would try to
think, and make one more effort.
'Aunt Hickson,' she said,
and Grace came forwards—'am I a witch, Aunt Hickson?' she asked; for her aunt,
stern, harsh, unloving as she might be, was truth itself, and Lois thought—so
near to delirium had she come—if her aunt condemned her, it was possible she
might indeed be a witch.
Grace Hickson faced her
unwillingly.
'It is a stain upon our
family for ever,' was the thought in her mind.
'It is for God to judge
whether thou art a witch, or not. Not for me.'
'Alas, alas!' moaned Lois;
for she had looked at Faith, and learnt that no good word was to be expected
from her gloomy face and averted eyes. The meeting-house was full of eager
voices, repressed, out of reverence for the place, into tones of earnest
murmuring that seemed to fill the air with gathering sounds of anger, and those
who had at first fallen back from the place where Lois stood were now pressing
forwards and round about her, ready to seize the young friendless girl, and
bear her off to prison. Those who might have been, who ought to have been, her
friends, were either averse or indifferent to her; though only Prudence made
any open outcry upon her. That evil child cried out perpetually that Lois had
cast a devilish spell upon her, and bade them keep the witch away from her;
and, indeed, Prudence was strangely convulsed when once or twice Lois's
perplexed and wistful eyes were turned in her direction. Here and there girls,
women uttering strange cries, and apparently suffering from the same kind of
convulsive fit as that which had attacked Prudence, were centres of a group of
agitated friends, who muttered much and savagely of witchcraft, and the list
which had been taken down only the night before from Hota's own lips. They
demanded to have it made public, and objected to the slow forms of the law.
Others, not so much or so immediately interested in the sufferers, were
kneeling around, and praying aloud for themselves and their own safety, until
the excitement should be so much quelled as to enable Dr. Cotton Mather to be
again heard in prayer and exhortation.
And where was Manasseh? What
said he? You must remember, that the stir of the outcry, the accusation, the
appeals of the accused, all seemed to go on at once amid the buzz and din of
the people who had come to worship God, but remained to judge and upbraid their
fellow-creature. Till now Lois had only caught a glimpse of Manasseh, who was
apparently trying to push forwards, but whom his mother was holding back with
word and action, as Lois knew she would hold him back; for it was not for the
first time that she was made aware how carefully her aunt had always shrouded
his decent reputation among his fellow-citizens from the least suspicion of his
seasons of excitement and incipient insanity. On such days, when he himself
imagined that he heard prophetic voices, and saw prophetic visions, his mother
would do much to prevent any besides his own family from seeing him; and now
Lois, by a process swifter than reasoning, felt certain, from her one look at
his face, when she saw it, colourless and deformed by intensity of expression,
among a number of others all simply ruddy and angry, that he was in such a
state that his mother would in vain do her utmost to prevent his making himself
conspicuous. Whatever force or argument Grace used, it was of no avail. In
another moment he was by Lois's side, stammering with excitement, and giving vague
testimony, which would have been of little value in a calm court of justice,
and was only oil to the smouldering fire of that audience.
'Away with her to gaol!'
'Seek out the witches!' 'The sin has spread into all households!' 'Satan is in
the very midst of us!' 'Strike and spare not!' In vain Dr. Cotton Mather raised
his voice in loud prayers, in which he assumed the guilt of the accused girl;
no one listened, all were anxious to secure Lois, as if they feared she would
vanish from before their very eyes; she, white, trembling, standing quite still
in the tight grasp of strange, fierce men, her dilated eyes only wandering a
little now and then in search of some pitiful face—some pitiful face that among
all those hundreds was not to be found. While some fetched cords to bind her,
and others, by low questions, suggested new accusations to the distempered
brain of Prudence, Manasseh obtained a hearing once more. Addressing Dr. Cotton
Mather, he said, evidently anxious to make clear some new argument that had
just suggested itself to him: 'Sir, in this matter, be she witch or not, the
end has been foreshown to me by the spirit of prophecy. Now, reverend sir, if
the event be known to the spirit, it must have been foredoomed in the councils
of God. If so, why punish her for doing that in which she had no free will?'
'Young man,' said Dr.
Mather, bending down from the pulpit and looking very severely upon Manasseh,
'take care! you are trenching on blasphemy.'
'I do not care. I say it
again. Either Lois Barclay is a witch, or she is not. If she is, it has been
foredoomed for her, for I have seen a vision of her death as a condemned witch
for many months past—and the voice has told me there was but one escape for
her, Lois—the voice you know—' In his excitement he began to wander a little,
but it was touching to see how conscious he was that by giving way he would
lose the thread of the logical argument by which he hoped to prove that Lois
ought not to be punished, and with what an effort he wrenched his imagination away
from the old ideas, and strove to concentrate all his mind upon the plea that,
if Lois was a witch, it had been shown him by prophecy; and if there was
prophecy there must be foreknowledge; if foreknowledge, foredoom; if foredoom,
no exercise of free will, and, therefore, that Lois was not justly amenable to
punishment.
On he went, plunging into
heresy, caring not—growing more and more passionate every instant, but
directing his passion into keen argument, desperate sarcasm, instead of
allowing it to excite his imagination. Even Dr. Mather felt himself on the
point of being worsted in the very presence of this congregation, who, but a
short half-hour ago, looked upon him as all but infallible. Keep a good heart,
Cotton Mather! your opponent's eye begins to glare and flicker with a terrible
yet uncertain light—his speech grows less coherent, and his arguments are mixed
up with wild glimpses at wilder revelations made to himself alone. He has
touched on the limits,—he has entered the borders of blasphemy, and with an
awful cry of horror and reprobation the congregation rise up, as one man,
against the blasphemer. Dr. Mather smiled a grim smile, and the people were
ready to stone Manasseh, who went on, regardless, talking and raving.
'Stay, stay!' said Grace Hickson—all
the decent family shame which prompted her to conceal the mysterious misfortune
of her only son from public knowledge done away with by the sense of the
immediate danger to his life. 'Touch him not. He knows not what he is saying.
The fit is upon him. I tell you the truth before God. My son, my only son, is
mad.'
They stood aghast at the
intelligence. The grave young citizen, who had silently taken his part in life
close by them in their daily lives—not mixing much with them, it was true, but
looked up to, perhaps, all the more—the student of abstruse books on theology,
fit to converse with the most learned ministers that ever came about those
parts—was he the same with the man now pouring out wild words to Lois the
witch, as if he and she were the only two present! A solution of it all
occurred to them. He was another victim. Great was the power of Satan! Through
the arts of the devil, that white statue of a girl had mastered the soul of
Manasseh Hickson. So the word spread from mouth to mouth. And Grace heard it.
It seemed a healing balsam for her shame. With wilful, dishonest blindness, she
would not see—not even in her secret heart would she acknowledge, that Manasseh
had been strange, and moody, and violent long before the English girl had reached
Salem. She even found some specious reason for his attempt at suicide long ago.
He was recovering from a fever—and though tolerably well in health, the
delirium had not finally left him. But since Lois came, how headstrong he had
been at times! how unreasonable! how moody! What a strange delusion was that
which he was under, of being bidden by some voice to marry her! How he followed
her about, and clung to her, as under some compulsion of affection! And over
all reigned the idea that, if he were indeed suffering from being bewitched, he
was not mad, and might again assume the honourable position he had held in the
congregation and in the town, when the spell by which he was held was
destroyed. So Grace yielded to the notion herself, and encouraged it in others,
that Lois Barclay had bewitched both Manasseh and Prudence. And the consequence
of this belief was, that Lois was to be tried, with little chance in her
favour, to see whether she was a witch or no; and if a witch, whether she would
confess, implicate others, repent, and live a life of bitter shame, avoided by
all men, and cruelly treated by most; or die impenitent, hardened, denying her
crime upon the gallows.
And so they dragged Lois
away from the congregation of Christians to the gaol, to await her trial. I say
'dragged her,' because, although she was docile enough to have followed them
whither they would, she was now so faint as to require extraneous force—poor
Lois! who should have been carried and tended lovingly in her state of
exhaustion, but, instead, was so detested by the multitude, who looked upon her
as an accomplice of Satan in all his evil doings, that they cared no more how
they treated her than a careless boy minds how he handles the toad that he is
going to throw over the wall.
When Lois came to her full
senses, she found herself lying on a short hard bed in a dark square room,
which she at once knew must be a part of the city gaol. It was about eight feet
square, it had stone walls on every side, and a grated opening high above her
head, letting in all the light and air that could enter through about a square
foot of aperture. It was so lonely, so dark to that poor girl, when she came
slowly and painfully out of her long faint. She did so want human help in that
struggle which always supervenes after a swoon; when the effort is to clutch at
life, and the effort seems too much for the will. She did not at first
understand where she was; did not understand how she came to be there, nor did
she care to understand. Her physical instinct was to lie still and let the
hurrying pulses have time to calm. So she shut her eyes once more. Slowly,
slowly the recollection of the scene in the meeting-house shaped itself into a
kind of picture before her. She saw within her eyelids, as it were, that sea of
loathing faces all turned towards her, as towards something unclean and
hateful. And you must remember, you who in the nineteenth century read this
account, that witchcraft was a real terrible sin to her, Lois Barclay, two
hundred years ago. The look on their faces, stamped on heart and brain, excited
in her a sort of strange sympathy. Could it, oh God!—could it be true, that
Satan had obtained the terrific power over her and her will, of which she had
heard and read? Could she indeed be possessed by a demon and be indeed a witch,
and yet till now have been unconscious of it? And her excited imagination
recalled, with singular vividness, all she had ever heard on the subject—the
horrible midnight sacrament, the very presence and power of Satan. Then remembering
every angry thought against her neighbour, against the impertinences of
Prudence, against the overbearing authority of her aunt, against the
persevering crazy suit of Manasseh, the indignation—only that morning, but such
ages off in real time—at Faith's injustice; oh, could such evil thoughts have
had devilish power given to them by the father of evil, and, all unconsciously
to herself, have gone forth as active curses into the world? And so, on the
ideas went careering wildly through the poor girl's brain—the girl thrown
inward upon herself. At length, the sting of her imagination forced her to
start up impatiently. What was this? A weight of iron on her legs—a weight
stated afterwards, by the gaoler of Salem prison, to have been 'not more than eight
pounds.' It was well for Lois it was a tangible ill, bringing her back from the
wild illimitable desert in which her imagination was wandering. She took hold
of the iron, and saw her torn stocking,—her bruised ankle, and began to cry
pitifully, out of strange compassion with herself. They feared, then, that even
in that cell she would find a way to escape. Why, the utter, ridiculous
impossibility of the thing convinced her of her own innocence, and ignorance of
all supernatural power; and the heavy iron brought her strangely round from the
delusions that seemed to be gathering about her.
No! she never could fly out
of that deep dungeon; there was no escape, natural or supernatural, for her,
unless by man's mercy. And what was man's mercy in such times of panic? Lois
knew that it was nothing; instinct more than reason taught her, that panic
calls out cowardice, and cowardice cruelty. Yet she cried, cried freely, and
for the first time, when she found herself ironed and chained. It seemed so
cruel, so much as if her fellow-creatures had really learnt to hate and dread
her—her, who had had a few angry thoughts, which God forgive! but whose
thoughts had never gone into words, far less into actions. Why, even now she
could love all the household at home, if they would but let her; yes, even yet,
though she felt that it was the open accusation of Prudence and the withheld
justifications of her aunt and Faith that had brought her to her present
strait. Would they ever come and see her? Would kinder thoughts of her,—who had
shared their daily bread for months and months,—bring them to see her, and ask
her whether it were really she who had brought on the illness of Prudence, the
derangement of Manasseh's mind?
No one came. Bread and water
were pushed in by some one, who hastily locked and unlocked the door, and cared
not to see if he put them within his prisoner's reach, or perhaps thought that
physical fact mattered little to a witch. It was long before Lois could reach
them; and she had something of the natural hunger of youth left in her still,
which prompted her, lying her length on the floor, to weary herself with
efforts to obtain the bread. After she had eaten some of it, the day began to
wane, and she thought she would lay her down and try to sleep. But before she
did so, the gaoler heard her singing the Evening Hymn:
Glory to thee, my God, this
night,
For all the blessings of the light.
And a dull thought came into
his dull mind, that she was thankful for few blessings, if she could tune up
her voice to sing praises after this day of what, if she were a witch, was
shameful detection in abominable practices, and if not—. Well, his mind stopped
short at this point in his wondering contemplation. Lois knelt down and said
the Lord's Prayer, pausing just a little before one clause, that she might be
sure that in her heart of hearts she did forgive. Then she looked at her ankle,
and the tears came into her eyes once again, but not so much because she was
hurt, as because men must have hated her so bitterly before they could have
treated her thus. Then she lay down, and fell asleep.
The next day, she was led
before Mr. Hathorn and Mr. Curwin, justices of Salem, to be accused legally and
publicly of witchcraft. Others were with her, under the same charge. And when
the prisoners were brought in, they were cried out at by the abhorrent crowd.
The two Tappaus, Prudence, and one or two other girls of the same age were
there, in the character of victims of the spells of the accused. The prisoners
were placed about seven or eight feet from the justices and the accusers
between the justices and them; the former were then ordered to stand right
before the justices. All this Lois did at their bidding, with something of the
wondering docility of a child, but not with any hope of softening the hard,
stony look of detestation that was on all the countenances around her, save
those that were distorted by more passionate anger. Then an officer was bidden
to hold each of her hands, and Justice Hathorn bade her keep her eyes
continually fixed on him, for this reason—which, however, was not told to
her—lest, if she looked on Prudence, the girl might either fall into a fit, or
cry out that she was suddenly and violently hurt. If any heart could have been
touched of that cruel multitude, they would have felt some compassion for the
sweet young face of the English girl, trying so meekly to do all that she was
ordered, her face quite white, yet so full of sad gentleness, her grey eyes, a
little dilated by the very solemnity of her position, fixed with the intent
look of innocent maidenhood on the stern face of Justice Hathorn. And thus they
stood in silence, one breathless minute. Then they were bidden to say the
Lord's Prayer. Lois went through it as if alone in her cell; but, as she had
done alone in her cell the night before, she made a little pause, before the
prayer to be forgiven as she forgave. And at this instant of hesitation—as if
they had been on the watch for it—they all cried out upon her for a witch, and
when the clamour ended the justices bade Prudence Hickson come forwards. Then
Lois turned a little to one side, wishing to see at least one familiar face;
but when her eyes fell upon Prudence, the girl stood stock-still, and answered
no questions, nor spoke a word, and the justices declared that she was struck
dumb by witchcraft. Then some behind took Prudence under the arms, and would
have forced her forwards to touch Lois, possibly esteeming that as a cure for
her being bewitched. But Prudence had hardly been made to take three steps
before she struggled out of their arms, and fell down writhing as in a fit,
calling out with shrieks, and entreating Lois to help her, and save her from
her torment. Then all the girls began 'to tumble down like swine' (to use the
words of an eye-witness) and to cry out upon Lois and her fellow-prisoners.
These last were now ordered to stand with their hands stretched out, it being
imagined that if the bodies of the witches were arranged in the form of a cross
they would lose their evil power. By-and-by Lois felt her strength going, from
the unwonted fatigue of such a position, which she had borne patiently until
the pain and weariness had forced both tears and sweat down her face, and she
asked in a low, plaintive voice, if she might not rest her head for a few
moments against the wooden partition. But Justice Hathorn told her she had
strength enough to torment others, and should have strength enough to stand.
She sighed a little, and bore on, the clamour against her and the other accused
increasing every moment; the only way she could keep herself from utterly
losing consciousness was by distracting herself from present pain and danger,
and saying to herself verses of the Psalms as she could remember them,
expressive of trust in God. At length she was ordered back to gaol, and dimly
understood that she and others were sentenced to be hanged for witchcraft. Many
people now looked eagerly at Lois, to see if she would weep at this doom. If
she had had strength to cry, it might—it was just possible that it might—have
been considered a plea in her favour, for witches could not shed tears, but she
was too exhausted and dead. All she wanted was to lie down once more on her
prison-bed, out of the reach of men's cries of abhorrence, and out of shot of
their cruel eyes. So they led her back to prison, speechless and tearless.
But rest gave her back her
power of thought and suffering. Was it, indeed, true that she was to die? She,
Lois Barclay, only eighteen, so well, so young, so full of love and hope as she
had been, till but these little days past! What would they think of it at
home—real, dear home at Barford, in England? There they had loved her; there
she had gone about, singing and rejoicing all the day long in the pleasant
meadows by the Avon side. Oh, why did father and mother die, and leave her
their bidding to come here to this cruel New England shore, where no one had
wanted her, no one had cared for her, and where now they were going to put her
to a shameful death as a witch? And there would be no one to send kindly
messages by to those she should never see more. Never more! Young Lucy was
living, and joyful—probably thinking of her, and of his declared intention of
coming to fetch her home to be his wife this very spring. Possibly he had
forgotten her; no one knew. A week before, she would have been indignant at her
own distrust in thinking for a minute that he could forget. Now, she doubted
all men's goodness for a time; for those around her were deadly, and cruel, and
relentless.
Then she turned round, and
beat herself with angry blows (to speak in images), for ever doubting her
lover. Oh! if she were but with him! Oh! if she might but be with him! He would
not let her die; but would hide her in his bosom from the wrath of this people,
and carry her back to the old home at Barford. And he might even now be sailing
on the wide blue sea, coming nearer, nearer every moment, and yet be too late
after all.
So the thoughts chased each
other through her head all that feverish night, till she clung almost
deliriously to life, and wildly prayed that she might not die; at least, not
just yet, and she so young!
Pastor Tappau and certain
elders roused her up from a heavy sleep, late on the morning of the following
day. All night long she had trembled and cried, till morning had come peering
in through the square grating up above. It soothed her, and she fell asleep, to
be awakened, as I have said, by Pastor Tappau.
'Arise!' said he, scrupling
to touch her, from his superstitious idea of her evil powers. 'It is noonday.'
'Where am I?' said she,
bewildered at this unusual wakening, and the array of severe faces all gazing
upon her with reprobation.
'You are in Salem gaol,
condemned for a witch.'
'Alas! I had forgotten for
an instant,' said she, dropping her head upon her breast.
'She has been out on a
devilish ride all night long, doubtless, and is weary and perplexed this
morning,' whispered one, in so low a voice that he did not think she could
hear; but she lifted up her eyes, and looked at him, with mute reproach.
'We are come' said Pastor
Tappau, 'to exhort you to confess your great and manifold sin.'
'My great and manifold sin!'
repeated Lois to herself, shaking her head.
'Yea, your sin of
witchcraft. If you will confess, there may yet be balm in Gilead.'
One of the elders, struck
with pity at the young girl's wan, shrunken look, said, that if she confessed,
and repented, and did penance, possibly her life might yet be spared.
A sudden flash of light came
into her sunk, dulled eye. Might she yet live? Was it yet in her power?
Why, no one knew how soon
Ralph Lucy might be here, to take her away for ever into the peace of a new
home! Life! Oh, then, all hope was not over—perhaps she might still live, and
not die. Yet the truth came once more out of her lips, almost without any exercise
of her will.
'I am not a witch,' she
said.
Then Pastor Tappau
blindfolded her, all unresisting, but with languid wonder in her heart as to
what was to come next. She heard people enter the dungeon softly, and heard
whispering voices; then her hands were lifted up and made to touch some one
near, and in an instant she heard a noise of struggling, and the well-known
voice of Prudence shrieking out in one of her hysterical fits, and screaming to
be taken away and out of that place. It seemed to Lois as if some of her judges
must have doubted of her guilt, and demanded yet another test. She sat down
heavily on her bed, thinking she must be in a horrible dream, so compassed
about with dangers and enemies did she seem. Those in the dungeon—and by the oppression
of the air she perceived that they were many—kept on eager talking in low
voices. She did not try to make out the sense of the fragments of sentences
that reached her dulled brain, till, all at once, a word or two made her
understand they were discussing the desirableness of applying the whip or the
torture to make her confess, and reveal by what means the spell she had cast
upon those whom she had bewitched could be dissolved. A thrill of affright ran
through her; and she cried out, beseechingly:
'I beg you, sirs, for God's
mercy sake, that you do not use such awful means. I may say anything—nay, I may
accuse any one if I am subjected to such torment as I have heard tell about.
For I am but a young girl, and not very brave, or very good, as some are.'
It touched the hearts of one
or two to see her standing there; the tears streaming down from below the
coarse handkerchief tightly bound over her eyes; the clanking chain fastening
the heavy weight to the slight ankle; the two hands held together as if to keep
down a convulsive motion.
'Look!' said one of these.
'She is weeping. They say no witch can weep tears.'
But another scoffed at this
test, and bade the first remember how those of her own family, the Hicksons
even, bore witness against her.
Once more she was bidden to
confess. The charges, esteemed by all men (as they said) to have been proven
against her, were read over to her, with all the testimony borne against her in
proof thereof. They told her that, considering the godly family to which she belonged,
it had been decided by the magistrates and ministers of Salem that he should
have her life spared, if she would own her guilt, make reparation, and submit
to penance; but that if not, she, and others convicted of witchcraft along with
her, were to be hung in Salem market-place on the next Thursday morning
(Thursday being market day). And when they had thus spoken, they waited
silently for her answer. It was a minute or two before she spoke. She had sat
down again upon the bed meanwhile, for indeed she was very weak. She asked,
'May I have this handkerchief unbound from my eyes, for indeed, sirs, it hurts
me?'
The occasion for which she
was blindfolded being over, the bandage was taken off, and she was allowed to
see. She looked pitifully at the stern faces around her, in grim suspense as to
what her answer would be. Then she spoke:
'Sirs, I must choose death
with a quiet conscience, rather than life to be gained by a lie. I am not a
witch. I know not hardly what you mean when you say I am. I have done many,
many things very wrong in my life; but I think God will forgive me them for my
Saviour's sake.'
'Take not His name on your
wicked lips,' said Pastor Tappau, enraged at her resolution of not confessing,
and scarcely able to keep himself from striking her. She saw the desire he had,
and shrank away in timid fear. Then Justice Hathorn solemnly read the legal
condemnation of Lois Barclay to death by hanging, as a convicted witch. She
murmured something which nobody heard fully, but which sounded like a prayer
for pity and compassion on her tender years and friendless estate. Then they
left her to all the horrors of that solitary, loathsome dungeon, and the
strange terror of approaching death.
Outside the prison walls,
the dread of the witches, and the excitement against witchcraft, grew with
fearful rapidity. Numbers of women, and men, too, were accused, no matter what
their station of life and their former character had been. On the other side,
it is alleged that upwards of fifty persons were grievously vexed by the devil,
and those to whom he had imparted of his power for vile and wicked
considerations. How much of malice, distinct, unmistakable personal malice, was
mixed up with these accusations, no one can now tell. The dire statistics of
this time tell us, that fifty-five escaped death by confessing themselves
guilty, one hundred and fifty were in prison, more than two hundred accused,
and upwards of twenty suffered death, among whom was the minister I have called
Nolan, who was traditionally esteemed to have suffered through hatred of his
co-pastor. One old man, scorning the accusation, and refusing to plead at his
trial, was, according to the law, pressed to death for his contumacy. Nay, even
dogs were accused of witchcraft, suffered the legal penalties, and are recorded
among the subjects of capital punishment. One young man found means to effect
his mother's escape from confinement, fled with her on horseback, and secreted
her in the Blueberry Swamp, not far from Taplay's Brook, in the Great Pasture;
he concealed her here in a wigwam which he built for her shelter, provided her
with food and clothing, and comforted and sustained her until after the
delusion had passed away. The poor creature must, however, have suffered
dreadfully, for one of her arms was fractured in the all but desperate effort
of getting her out of prison.
But there was no one to try
and save Lois. Grace Hickson would fain have ignored her altogether. Such a
taint did witchcraft bring upon a whole family, that generations of blameless
life were not at that day esteemed sufficient to wash it out. Besides, you must
remember that Grace, along with most people of her time, believed most firmly
in the reality of the crime of witchcraft. Poor, forsaken Lois, believed in it
herself, and it added to her terror, for the gaoler, in an unusually
communicative mood, told her that nearly every cell was now full of witches;
and it was possible he might have to put one, if more came, in with her. Lois
knew that she was no witch herself; but not the less did she believe that the
crime was abroad, and largely shared in by evil-minded persons who had chosen
to give up their souls to Satan; and she shuddered with terror at what the
gaoler said, and would have asked him to spare her this companionship if it
were possible. But, somehow, her senses were leaving her, and she could not
remember the right words in which to form her request, until he had left the
place.
The only person who yearned
after Lois—who would have befriended her if he could—was Manasseh: poor, mad
Manasseh. But he was so wild and outrageous in his talk, that it was all his
mother could do to keep his state concealed from public observation. She had
for this purpose given him a sleeping potion; and, while he lay heavy and inert
under the influence of the poppy-tea, his mother bound him with cords to the
ponderous, antique bed in which he slept. She looked broken-hearted while she
did this office, and thus acknowledged the degradation of her first-born—him of
whom she had ever been so proud.
Late that evening, Grace
Hickson stood in Lois's cell, hooded and cloaked up to her eyes. Lois was
sitting quite still, playing idly with a bit of string which one of the
magistrates had dropped out of his pocket that morning. Her aunt was standing
by her for an instant or two in silence, before Lois seemed aware of her
presence. Suddenly she looked up, and uttered a little cry, shrinking away from
the dark figure. Then, as if her cry had loosened Grace's tongue, she began:
'Lois Barclay, did I ever do
you any harm?' Grace did not know how often her want of loving-kindness had
pierced the tender heart of the stranger under her roof; nor did Lois remember
it against her now. Instead, Lois's memory was filled with grateful thoughts of
how much that might have been left undone, by a less conscientious person, her
aunt had done for her, and she half stretched out her arms as to a friend in
that desolate place, while she answered:
'Oh no, no you were very
good! very kind!'
But Grace stood immovable.
'I did you no harm, although
I never rightly knew why you came to us.'
'I was sent by my mother on
her death-bed,' moaned Lois, covering her face. It grew darker every instant.
Her aunt stood, still and silent.
'Did any of mine ever wrong
you?' she asked, after a time.
'No, no; never, till
Prudence said—Oh, aunt, do you think I am a witch?' And now Lois was standing
up, holding by Grace's cloak, and trying to read her face. Grace drew herself,
ever so little, away from the girl, whom she dreaded, and yet sought to propitiate.
'Wiser than I, godlier than
I, have said it. But oh, Lois, Lois! he was my first-born. Loose him from the
demon, for the sake of Him whose name I dare not name in this terrible
building, filled with them who have renounced the hopes of their baptism; loose
Manasseh from his awful state, if ever I or mine did you a kindness!'
'You ask me for Christ's
sake,' said Lois. 'I can name that holy name—for oh, aunt! indeed, and in holy
truth, I am no witch; and yet I am to die—to be hanged! Aunt, do not let them
kill me! I am so young, and I never did any one any harm that I know of.'
'Hush! for very shame! This
afternoon I have bound my first-born with strong cords, to keep him from doing
himself or us a mischief—he is so frenzied. Lois Barclay, look here!' and Grace
knelt down at her niece's feet, and joined her hands as if in prayer—'I am a
proud woman, God forgive me! and I never thought to kneel to any save to Him.
And now I kneel at your feet, to pray you to release my children, more
especially my son Manasseh, from the spells you have put upon them. Lois,
hearken to me, and I will pray to the Almighty for you, if yet there may be
mercy.'
'I cannot do it; I never did
you or yours any wrong. How can I undo it? How can I?' And she wrung her hands
in intensity of conviction of the inutility of aught she could do.
Here Grace got up, slowly,
stiffly, and sternly. She stood aloof from the chained girl, in the remote
corner of the prison cell near the door, ready to make her escape as soon as
she had cursed the witch, who would not, or could not, undo the evil she had
wrought. Grace lifted up her right hand, and held it up on high, as she doomed
Lois to be accursed for ever, for her deadly sin, and her want of mercy even at
this final hour. And, lastly, she summoned her to meet her at the
judgment-seat, and answer for this deadly injury done to both souls and bodies
of those who had taken her in, and received her when she came to them an orphan
and a stranger.
Until this last summons,
Lois had stood as one who hears her sentence and can say nothing against it,
for she knows all would be in vain. But she raised her head when she heard her
aunt speak of the judgment-seat, and at the end of Grace's speech she, too,
lifted up her right hand, as if solemnly pledging herself by that action, and
replied:
'Aunt! I will meet you
there. And there you will know my innocence of this deadly thing. God have
mercy on you and yours!'
Her calm voice maddened
Grace, and making a gesture as if she plucked up a handful of dust of the floor,
and threw it at Lois, she cried:
'Witch! witch! ask mercy for
thyself—I need not your prayers. Witches' prayers are read backwards. I spit at
thee, and defy thee!' And so she went away.
Lois sat moaning that whole
night through. 'God comfort me! God strengthen me!' was all she could remember
to say. She just felt that want, nothing more,—all other fears and wants seemed
dead within her. And when the gaoler brought in her breakfast the next morning,
he reported her as 'gone silly;' for, indeed, she did not seem to know him, but
kept rocking herself to and fro, and whispering softly to herself, smiling a
little from time to time.
But God did comfort her, and
strengthen her too late on that Wednesday afternoon, they thrust another
'witch' into her cell, bidding the two, with opprobrious words, keep company
together. The new comer fell prostrate with the push given her from without;
and Lois, not recognizing anything but an old ragged woman lying helpless on
her face on the ground, lifted her up; and lo! it was Nattee—dirty, filthy
indeed, mud-pelted, stone-bruised, beaten, and all astray in her wits with the
treatment she had received from the mob outside. Lois held her in her arms, and
softly wiped the old brown wrinkled face with her apron, crying over it, as she
had hardly yet cried over her own sorrows. For hours she tended the old Indian
woman—tended her bodily woes; and as the poor scattered senses of the savage
creature came slowly back, Lois gathered her infinite dread of the morrow, when
she too, as well as Lois, was to be led out to die, in face of all that
infuriated crowd. Lois sought in her own mind for some source of comfort for
the old woman, who shook like one in the shaking palsy at the dread of
death—and such a death.
When all was quiet through
the prison, in the deep dead midnight, the gaoler outside the door heard Lois
telling, as if to a young child, the marvellous and sorrowful story of one who
died on the cross for us and for our sakes. As long as she spoke, the Indian
woman's terror seemed lulled; but the instant she paused, for weariness, Nattee
cried out afresh, as if some wild beast were following her close through the
dense forests in which she had dwelt in her youth. And then Lois went on,
saying all the blessed words she could remember, and comforting the helpless
Indian woman with the sense of the presence of a Heavenly Friend. And in
comforting her, Lois was comforted; in strengthening her, Lois was
strengthened.
The morning came, and the
summons to come forth and die came. They who entered the cell found Lois
asleep, her face resting on the slumbering old woman, whose head she still held
in her lap. She did not seem clearly to recognize where she was, when she
awakened; the 'silly' look had returned to her wan face; all she appeared to
know was, that somehow or another, through some peril or another, she had to
protect the poor Indian woman. She smiled faintly when she saw the bright light
of the April day; and put her arm round Nattee, and tried to keep the Indian
quiet with hushing, soothing words of broken meaning, and holy fragments of the
Psalms. Nattee tightened her hold upon Lois as they drew near the gallows, and
the outrageous crowd below began to hoot and yell. Lois redoubled her efforts
to calm and encourage Nattee, apparently unconscious that any of the
opprobrium, the hootings, the stones, the mud, was directed towards her
herself. But when they took Nattee from her arms, and led her out to suffer
first, Lois seemed all at once to recover her sense of the present terror. She
gazed wildly around, stretched out her arms as if to some person in the
distance, who was yet visible to her, and cried out once with a voice that
thrilled through all who heard it, 'Mother!' Directly afterwards, the body of
Lois the Witch swung in the air, and every one stood, with hushed breath, with
a sudden wonder, like a fear of deadly crime, fallen upon them.
The stillness and the
silence were broken by one crazed and mad, who came rushing up the steps of the
ladder, and caught Lois's body in his arms, and kissed her lips with wild
passion. And then, as if it were true what the people believed, that he was
possessed by a demon, he sprang down, and rushed through the crowd, out of the
bounds of the city, and into the dark dense forest, and Manasseh Hickson was no
more seen of Christian man.
The people of Salem had
awakened from their frightful delusion before the autumn, when Captain
Holdernesse and Ralph Lucy came to find out Lois, and bring her home to
peaceful Barford, in the pleasant country of England. Instead, they led them to
the grassy grave where she lay at rest, done to death by mistaken men. Ralph
Lucy shook the dust off his feet in quitting Salem, with a heavy, heavy heart;
and lived a bachelor all his life long for her sake.
Long years afterwards,
Captain Holdernesse sought him out, to tell him some news that he thought might
interest the grave miller of the Avonside. Captain Holdernesse told him that in
the previous year, it was then 1713, the sentence of excommunication against
the witches of Salem was ordered, in godly sacramental meeting of the church,
to be erased and blotted out, and that those who met together for this purpose
'humbly requested the merciful God would pardon whatsoever sin, error, or
mistake was in the application of justice, through our merciful High Priest,
who knoweth how to have compassion on the ignorant, and those that are out of
the way.' He also said that Prudence Hickson—now woman grown—had made a most
touching and pungent declaration of sorrow and repentance before the whole
church, for the false and mistaken testimony she had given in several
instances, among which she particularly mentioned that of her cousin Lois
Barclay. To all which Ralph Lucy only answered:
'No repentance of theirs can
bring her back to life.'
Then Captain Holdernesse
took out a paper, and read the following humble and solemn declaration of
regret on the part of those who signed it, among whom Grace Hickson was one:
'We, whose names are
undersigned, being, in the year 1692, called to serve as jurors in court of
Salem, on trial of many who were by some suspected guilty of doing acts of
witchcraft upon the bodies of sundry persons; we confess that we ourselves were
not capable to understand, nor able to withstand, the mysterious delusions of
the powers of darkness, and prince of the air, but were, for want of knowledge
in ourselves, and better information from others, prevailed with to take up
with such evidence against the accused, as, on further consideration, and
better information, we justly fear was insufficient for the touching the lives
of any (Deut. xvii. 6), whereby we fear we have been instrumental, with others,
though ignorantly and unwittingly, to bring upon ourselves and this people of
the Lord the guilt of innocent blood; which sin, the Lord saith in Scripture,
he would not pardon (2 Kings, xxiv. 4), that is, we suppose, in regard of his
temporal judgments. We do, therefore, signify to all in general (and to the
surviving sufferers in special) our deep sense of, and sorrow for, our errors,
in acting on such evidence to the condemning of any person; and do hereby
declare, that we justly fear that we were sadly deluded and mistaken, for which
we are much disquieted and distressed in our minds, and do therefore humbly beg
forgiveness, first of God for Christ's sake, for this our error; and pray that
God would not impute the guilt of it to ourselves nor others; and we also pray
that we may be considered candidly and aright by the living sufferers, as being
then under the power of a strong and general delusion, utterly unacquainted
with, and not experienced in, matters of that nature.
'We do heartily ask
forgiveness of you all, whom we have justly offended; and do declare, according
to our present minds, we would none of us do such things again on such grounds
for the whole world; praying you to accept of this in way of satisfaction for
our offence, and that you would bless the inheritance of the Lord, that he may
be entreated for the land.
'Foreman, Thomas Fisk, &c.'
To the reading of this paper
Ralph Lucy made no reply save this, even more gloomily than before:
'All their repentance will
avail nothing to my Lois, nor will it bring back her life.'
Then Captain Holdernesse
spoke once more, and said that on the day of the general fast, appointed to be
held all through New England, when the meeting-houses were crowded, an old, old
man with white hair had stood up in the place in which he was accustomed to
worship, and had handed up into the pulpit a written confession, which he had
once or twice essayed to read for himself, acknowledging his great and grievous
error in the matter of the witches of Salem, and praying for the forgiveness of
God and of his people, ending with an entreaty that all then present would join
with him in prayer that his past conduct might not bring down the displeasure
of the Most High upon his country, his family, or himself. That old man, who
was no other than Justice Sewall, remained standing all the time that his
confession was read; and at the end he said, 'The good and gracious God be
pleased to save New England and me and my family.' And then it came out that,
for years past, Judge Sewall had set apart a day for humiliation and prayer, to
keep fresh in his mind a sense of repentance and sorrow for the part he had borne
in these trials, and that this solemn anniversary he was pledged to keep as
long as he lived, to show his feeling of deep humiliation.
Ralph Lucy's voice trembled
as he spoke:
'All this will not bring my
Lois to life again, or give me back the hope of my youth.'
But—as Captain Holdernesse
shook his head (for what word could he say, or how dispute what was so
evidently true?)—Ralph added, 'What is the day, know you, that this justice has
set apart?'
'The twenty-ninth of April.'
'Then on that day will I,
here at Barford in England, join my prayer as long as I live with the repentant
judge, that his sin may be blotted out and no more had in remembrance. She
would have willed it so.'
4.THE GREY WOMAN
Portion 1
There is a mill by the
Neckar-side, to which many people resort for coffee, according to the fashion
which is almost national in Germany. There is nothing particularly attractive
in the situation of this mill; it is on the Mannheim (the flat and unromantic)
side of Heidelberg. The river turns the mill-wheel with a plenteous gushing
sound; the out-buildings and the dwelling-house of the miller form a well-kept
dusty quadrangle. Again, further from the river, there is a garden full of
willows, and arbours, and flower-beds not well kept, but very profuse in
flowers and luxuriant creepers, knotting and looping the arbours together. In
each of these arbours is a stationary table of white painted wood, and light
moveable chairs of the same colour and material.
I went to drink coffee there
with some friends in 184—. The stately old miller came out to greet us, as some
of the party were known to him of old. He was of a grand build of a man, and
his loud musical voice, with its tone friendly and familiar, his rolling laugh
of welcome, went well with the keen bright eye, the fine cloth of his coat, and
the general look of substance about the place. Poultry of all kinds abounded in
the mill-yard, where there were ample means of livelihood for them strewed on
the ground; but not content with this, the miller took out handfuls of corn
from the sacks, and threw liberally to the cocks and hens that ran almost under
his feet in their eagerness. And all the time he was doing this, as it were
habitually, he was talking to us, and ever and anon calling to his daughter and
the serving-maids, to bid them hasten the coffee we had ordered. He followed us
to an arbour, and saw us served to his satisfaction with the best of everything
we could ask for; and then left us to go round to the different arbours and see
that each party was properly attended to; and, as he went, this great,
prosperous, happy-looking man whistled softly one of the most plaintive airs I
ever heard.
'His family have held this
mill ever since the old Palatinate days; or rather, I should say, have
possessed the ground ever since then, for two successive mills of theirs have
been burnt down by the French. If you want to see Scherer in a passion, just
talk to him of the possibility of a French invasion.'
But at this moment, still
whistling that mournful air, we saw the miller going down the steps that led
from the somewhat raised garden into the mill-yard; and so I seemed to have
lost my chance of putting him in a passion.
We had nearly finished our
coffee, and our 'kucken,' and our cinnamon cake, when heavy splashes fell on
our thick leafy covering; quicker and quicker they came, coming through the
tender leaves as if they were tearing them asunder; all the people in the
garden were hurrying under shelter, or seeking for their carriages standing
outside. Up the steps the miller came hastening, with a crimson umbrella, fit
to cover every one left in the garden, and followed by his daughter, and one or
two maidens, each bearing an umbrella.
'Come into the house—come
in, I say. It is a summer-storm, and will flood the place for an hour or two,
till the river carries it away. Here, here.'
And we followed him back
into his own house. We went into the kitchen first. Such an array of bright
copper and tin vessels I never saw; and all the wooden things were as
thoroughly scoured. The red tile floor was spotless when we went in, but in two
minutes it was all over slop and dirt with the tread of many feet; for the
kitchen was filled, and still the worthy miller kept bringing in more people
under his great crimson umbrella. He even called the dogs in, and made them lie
down under the tables.
His daughter said something
to him in German, and he shook his head merrily at her. Everybody laughed.
'What did she say?' I asked.
'She told him to bring the
ducks in next; but indeed if more people come we shall be suffocated. What with
the thundery weather, and the stove, and all these steaming clothes, I really
think we must ask leave to pass on. Perhaps we might go in and see Frau
Scherer.'
My friend asked the daughter
of the house for permission to go into an inner chamber and see her mother. It
was granted, and we went into a sort of saloon, over-looking the Neckar; very
small, very bright, and very close. The floor was slippery with polish; long
narrow pieces of looking-glass against the walls reflected the perpetual motion
of the river opposite; a white porcelain stove, with some old-fashioned
ornaments of brass about it; a sofa, covered with Utrecht velvet, a table
before it, and a piece of worsted-worked carpet under it; a vase of artificial
flowers; and, lastly, an alcove with a bed in it, on which lay the paralysed
wife of the good miller, knitting busily, formed the furniture. I spoke as if
this was all that was to be seen in the room; but, sitting quietly, while my
friend kept up a brisk conversation in a language which I but half understood,
my eye was caught by a picture in a dark corner of the room, and I got up to
examine it more nearly.
It was that of a young girl
of extreme beauty; evidently of middle rank. There was a sensitive refinement
in her face, as if she almost shrank from the gaze which, of necessity, the
painter must have fixed upon her. It was not over-well painted, but I felt that
it must have been a good likeness, from this strong impress of peculiar
character which I have tried to describe. From the dress, I should guess it to
have been painted in the latter half of the last century. And I afterwards
heard that I was right.
There was a little pause in
the conversation.
'Will you ask Frau Scherer
who this is?'
My friend repeated my
question, and received a long reply in German. Then she turned round and
translated it to me.
'It is the likeness of a
great-aunt of her husband's.' (My friend was standing by me, and looking at the
picture with sympathetic curiosity.) 'See! here is the name on the open page of
this Bible, "Anna Scherer, 1778." Frau Scherer says there is a
tradition in the family that this pretty girl, with her complexion of lilies
and roses, lost her colour so entirely through fright, that she was known by the
name of the Grey Woman. She speaks as if this Anna Scherer lived in some state
of life-long terror. But she does not know details; refers me to her husband
for them. She thinks he has some papers which were written by the original of
that picture for her daughter, who died in this very house not long after our
friend there was married. We can ask Herr Scherer for the whole story if you
like.'
'Oh yes, pray do!' said I.
And, as our host came in at this moment to ask how we were faring, and to tell
us that he had sent to Heidelberg for carriages to convey us home, seeing no
chance of the heavy rain abating, my friend, after thanking him, passed on to
my request.
'Ah!' said he, his face
changing, 'the aunt Anna had a sad history. It was all owing to one of those
hellish Frenchmen; and her daughter suffered for it—the cousin Ursula, as we
all called her when I was a child. To be sure, the good cousin Ursula was his
child as well. The sins of the fathers are visited on their children. The lady
would like to know all about it, would she? Well, there are papers—a kind of
apology the aunt Anna wrote for putting an end to her daughter's engagement—or
rather facts which she revealed, that prevented cousin Ursula from marrying the
man she loved; and so she would never have any other good fellow, else I have
heard say my father would have been thankful to have made her his wife.' All
this time he was rummaging in the drawer of an old-fashioned bureau, and now he
turned round, with a bundle of yellow MSS. in his hand, which he gave to my
friend, saying, 'Take it home, take it home, and if you care to make out our
crabbed German writing, you may keep it as long as you like, and read it at
your leisure. Only I must have it back again when you have done with it, that's
all.'
And so we became possessed
of the manuscript of the following letter, which it was our employment, during
many a long evening that ensuing winter, to translate, and in some parts to
abbreviate. The letter began with some reference to the pain which she had
already inflicted upon her daughter by some unexplained opposition to a project
of marriage; but I doubt if, without the clue with which the good miller had
furnished us, we could have made out even this much from the passionate, broken
sentences that made us fancy that some scene between the mother and
daughter—and possibly a third person—had occurred just before the mother had
begun to write.
'Thou dost not love thy
child, mother! Thou dost not care if her heart is broken!' Ah, God! and these
words of my heart-beloved Ursula ring in my ears as if the sound of them would
fill them when I lie a-dying. And her poor tear-stained face comes between me
and everything else. Child! hearts do not break; life is very tough as well as
very terrible. But I will not decide for thee. I will tell thee all; and thou
shalt bear the burden of choice. I may be wrong; I have little wit left, and
never had much, I think; but an instinct serves me in place of judgement, and
that instinct tells me that thou and thy Henri must never be married. Yet I may
be in error. I would fain make my child happy. Lay this paper before the good
priest Schriesheim; if, after reading it, thou hast doubts which make thee
uncertain. Only I will tell thee all now, on condition that no spoken word ever
passes between us on the subject. It would kill me to be questioned. I should
have to see all present again.
My father held, as thou
knowest, the mill on the Neckar, where thy new-found uncle, Scherer, now lives.
Thou rememberest the surprise with which we were received there last vintage
twelvemonth. How thy uncle disbelieved me when I said that I was his sister
Anna, whom he had long believed to be dead, and how I had to lead thee
underneath the picture, painted of me long ago, and point out, feature by
feature, the likeness between it and thee; and how, as I spoke, I recalled
first to my own mind, and then by speech to his, the details of the time when
it was painted; the merry words that passed between us then, a happy boy and
girl; the position of the articles of furniture in the room; our father's
habits; the cherry-tree, now cut down, that shaded the window of my bedroom,
through which my brother was wont to squeeze himself, in order to spring on to
the topmost bough that would bear his weight; and thence would pass me back his
cap laden with fruit to where I sat on the window-sill, too sick with fright
for him to care much for eating the cherries.
And at length Fritz gave
way, and believed me to be his sister Anna, even as though I were risen from
the dead. And thou rememberest how he fetched in his wife, and told her that I
was not dead, but was come back to the old home once more, changed as I was.
And she would scarce believe him, and scanned me with a cold, distrustful eye,
till at length—for I knew her of old as Babette Müller—I said that I was
well-to-do, and needed not to seek out friends for what they had to give. And
then she asked—not me, but her husband—why I had kept silent so long, leading
all—father, brother, every one that loved me in my own dear home—to esteem me
dead. And then thine uncle (thou rememberest?) said he cared not to know more
than I cared to tell; that I was his Anna, found again, to be a blessing to him
in his old age, as I had been in his boyhood. I thanked him in my heart for his
trust; for were the need for telling all less than it seems to me now I could
not speak of my past life. But she, who was my sister-in-law still, held back
her welcome, and, for want of that, I did not go to live in Heidelberg as I had
planned beforehand, in order to be near my brother Fritz, but contented myself
with his promise to be a father to my Ursula when I should die and leave this
weary world.
That Babette Müller was, as
I may say, the cause of all my life's suffering. She was a baker's daughter in
Heidelberg—a great beauty, as people said, and, indeed, as I could see for
myself I, too—thou sawest my picture—was reckoned a beauty, and I believe I was
so. Babette Müller looked upon me as a rival. She liked to be admired, and had
no one much to love her. I had several people to love me—thy grandfather,
Fritz, the old servant Kätchen, Karl, the head apprentice at the mill—and I
feared admiration and notice, and the being stared at as the 'Schöne Müllerin,'
whenever I went to make my purchases in Heidelberg.
Those were happy, peaceful
days. I had Kätchen to help me in the housework, and whatever we did pleased my
brave old father, who was always gentle and indulgent towards us women, though
he was stern enough with the apprentices in the mill. Karl, the oldest of
these, was his favourite; and I can see now that my father wished him to marry
me, and that Karl himself was desirous to do so. But Karl was rough-spoken, and
passionate—not with me, but with the others—and I shrank from him in a way
which, I fear, gave him pain. And then came thy uncle Fritz's marriage; and
Babette was brought to the mill to be its mistress. Not that I cared much for
giving up my post, for, in spite of my father's great kindness, I always feared
that I did not manage well for so large a family (with the men, and a girl
under Kätchen, we sat down eleven each night to supper). But when Babette began
to find fault with Kätchen, I was unhappy at the blame that fell on faithful
servants; and by-and-by I began to see that Babette was egging on Karl to make
more open love to me, and, as she once said, to get done with it, and take me
off to a home of my own. My father was growing old, and did not perceive all my
daily discomfort. The more Karl advanced, the more I disliked him. He was good
in the main, but I had no notion of being married, and could not bear any one
who talked to me about it.
Things were in this way when
I had an invitation to go to Carlsruhe to visit a schoolfellow, of whom I had
been very fond. Babette was all for my going; I don't think I wanted to leave
home, and yet I had been very fond of Sophie Rupprecht. But I was always shy
among strangers. Somehow the affair was settled for me, but not until both
Fritz and my father had made inquiries as to the character and position of the
Rupprechts. They learned that the father had held some kind of inferior
position about the Grand-duke's court, and was now dead, leaving a widow, a
noble lady, and two daughters, the elder of whom was Sophie, my friend. Madame
Rupprecht was not rich, but more than respectable—genteel. When this was
ascertained, my father made no opposition to my going; Babette forwarded it by
all the means in her power, and even my dear Fritz had his word to say in its
favour. Only Kätchen was against it—Kätchen and Karl. The opposition of Karl
did more to send me to Carlsruhe than anything. For I could have objected to
go; but when he took upon himself to ask what was the good of going a-gadding,
visiting strangers of whom no one knew anything, I yielded to circumstances—to
the pulling of Sophie and the pushing of Babette. I was silently vexed, I
remember, at Babette's inspection of my clothes; at the way in which she
settled that this gown was too old-fashioned, or that too common, to go with me
on my visit to a noble lady; and at the way in which she took upon herself to
spend the money my father had given me to buy what was requisite for the
occasion. And yet I blamed myself, for every one else thought her so kind for
doing all this; and she herself meant kindly, too.
At last I quitted the mill
by the Neckar-side. It was a long day's journey, and Fritz went with me to
Carlsruhe. The Rupprechts lived on the third floor of a house a little behind
one of the principal streets, in a cramped-up court, to which we gained
admittance through a doorway in the street. I remember how pinched their rooms
looked after the large space we had at the mill, and yet they had an air of
grandeur about them which was new to me, and which gave me pleasure, faded as
some of it was. Madame Rupprecht was too formal a lady for me; I was never at
my ease with her; but Sophie was all that I had recollected her at school:
kind, affectionate, and only rather too ready with her expressions of
admiration and regard. The little sister kept out of our way; and that was all
we needed, in the first enthusiastic renewal of our early friendship. The one
great object of Madame Rupprecht's life was to retain her position in society;
and as her means were much diminished since her husband's death, there was not
much comfort, though there was a great deal of show, in their way of living;
just the opposite of what it was at my father's house. I believe that my coming
was not too much desired by Madame Rupprecht, as I brought with me another mouth
to be fed; but Sophie had spent a year or more in entreating for permission to
invite me, and her mother, having once consented, was too well bred not to give
me a stately welcome.
The life in Carlsruhe was
very different from what it was at home. The hours were later, the coffee was
weaker in the morning, the pottage was weaker, the boiled beef less relieved by
other diet, the dresses finer, the evening engagements constant. I did not find
these visits pleasant. We might not knit, which would have relieved the tedium
a little; but we sat in a circle, talking together, only interrupted
occasionally by a gentleman, who, breaking out of the knot of men who stood
near the door, talking eagerly together, stole across the room on tiptoe, his
hat under his arm, and, bringing his feet together in the position we called
the first at the dancing-school, made a low bow to the lady he was going to
address. The first time I saw these manners I could not help smiling; but
Madame Rupprecht saw me, and spoke to me next morning rather severely, telling
me that, of course, in my country breeding I could have seen nothing of court
manners, or French fashions, but that that was no reason for my laughing at
them. Of course I tried never to smile again in company. This visit to Carlsruhe
took place in '89, just when every one was full of the events taking place at
Paris; and yet at Carlsruhe French fashions were more talked of than French
politics. Madame Rupprecht, especially, thought a great deal of all French
people. And this again was quite different to us at home. Fritz could hardly
bear the name of a Frenchman; and it had nearly been an obstacle to my visit to
Sophie that her mother preferred being called Madame to her proper title of
Frau.
One night I was sitting next
to Sophie, and longing for the time when we might have supper and go home, so
as to be able to speak together, a thing forbidden by Madame Rupprecht's rules
of etiquette, which strictly prohibited any but the most necessary conversation
passing between members of the same family when in society. I was sitting, I
say, scarcely keeping back my inclination to yawn, when two gentlemen came in,
one of whom was evidently a stranger to the whole party, from the formal manner
in which the host led him up, and presented him to the hostess. I thought I had
never seen any one so handsome or so elegant. His hair was powdered, of course,
but one could see from his complexion that it was fair in its natural state.
His features were as delicate as a girl's, and set off by two little 'mouches,'
as we called patches in those days, one at the left corner of his mouth, the
other prolonging, as it were, the right eye. His dress was blue and silver. I
was so lost in admiration of this beautiful young man, that I was as much
surprised as if the angel Gabriel had spoken to me, when the lady of the house
brought him forward to present him to me. She called him Monsieur de la
Tourelle, and he began to speak to me in French; but though I understood him
perfectly, I dared not trust myself to reply to him in that language. Then he
tried German, speaking it with a kind of soft lisp that I thought charming.
But, before the end of the evening, I became a little tired of the affected
softness and effeminacy of his manners, and the exaggerated compliments he paid
me, which had the effect of making all the company turn round and look at me.
Madame Rupprecht was, however, pleased with the precise thing that displeased
me. She liked either Sophie or me to create a sensation; of course she would
have preferred that it should have been her daughter, but her daughter's friend
was next best. As we went away, I heard Madame Rupprecht and Monsieur de la
Tourelle reciprocating civil speeches with might and main, from which I found
out that the French gentleman was coming to call on us the next day. I do not
know whether I was more glad or frightened, for I had been kept upon stilts of
good manners all the evening. But still I was flattered when Madame Rupprecht
spoke as if she had invited him, because he had shown pleasure in my society,
and even more gratified by Sophie's ungrudging delight at the evident interest
I had excited in so fine and agreeable a gentleman. Yet, with all this, they
had hard work to keep me from running out of the salon the next day, when we
heard his voice inquiring at the gate on the stairs for Madame Rupprecht. They
had made me put on my Sunday gown, and they themselves were dressed as for a
reception.
When he was gone away,
Madame Rupprecht congratulated me on the conquest I had made; for, indeed, he
had scarcely spoken to anyone else, beyond what mere civility required, and had
almost invited himself to come in the evening to bring some new song, which was
all the fashion in Paris, he said. Madame Rupprecht had been out all morning, as
she told me, to glean information about Monsieur de la Tourelle. He was a
propriétaire, had a small château on the Vosges mountains; he owned land there,
but had a large income from some sources quite independent of this property.
Altogether, he was a good match, as she emphatically observed. She never seemed
to think that I could refuse him after this account of his wealth, nor do I
believe she would have allowed Sophie a choice, even had he been as old and
ugly as he was young and handsome. I do not quite know—so many events have come
to pass since then, and blurred the clearness of my recollections—if I loved
him or not. He was very much devoted to me; he almost frightened me by the
excess of his demonstrations of love. And he was very charming to everybody
around me, who all spoke of him as the most fascinating of men, and of me as
the most fortunate of girls. And yet I never felt quite at my ease with him. I
was always relieved when his visits were over, although I missed his presence
when he did not come. He prolonged his visit to the friend with whom he was
staying at Carlsruhe, on purpose to woo me. He loaded me with presents, which I
was unwilling to take, only Madame Rupprecht seemed to consider me an affected
prude if I refused them. Many of these presents consisted of articles of
valuable old jewellery, evidently belonging to his family; by accepting these I
doubled the ties which were formed around me by circumstances even more than by
my own consent. In those days we did not write letters to absent friends as
frequently as is done now, and I had been unwilling to name him in the few
letters that I wrote home. At length, however, I learned from Madame Rupprecht
that she had written to my father to announce the splendid conquest I had made,
and to request his presence at my betrothal. I started with astonishment. I had
not realized that affairs had gone so far as this. But when she asked me, in a
stern, offended manner, what I had meant by my conduct if I did not intend to
marry Monsieur de la Tourelle—I had received his visits, his presents, all his
various advances without showing any unwillingness or repugnance—(and it was
all true; I had shown no repugnance, though I did not wish to be married to
him,—at least, not so soon)—what could I do but hang my head, and silently
consent to the rapid enunciation of the only course which now remained for me
if I would not be esteemed a heartless coquette all the rest of my days?
There was some difficulty,
which I afterwards learnt that my sister-in-law had obviated, about my
betrothal taking place from home. My father, and Fritz especially, were for
having me return to the mill, and there be betrothed, and from thence be
married. But the Rupprechts and Monsieur de la Tourelle were equally urgent on
the other side; and Babette was unwilling to have the trouble of the commotion
at the mill; and also, I think, a little disliked the idea of the contrast of
my grander marriage with her own.
So my father and Fritz came
over to the betrothal. They were to stay at an inn in Carlsruhe for a
fortnight, at the end of which time the marriage was to take place. Monsieur de
la Tourelle told me he had business at home, which would oblige him to be
absent during the interval between the two events; and I was very glad of it, for
I did not think that he valued my father and my brother as I could have wished
him to do. He was very polite to them; put on all the soft, grand manner, which
he had rather dropped with me; and complimented us all round, beginning with my
father and Madame Rupprecht, and ending with little Alwina. But he a little
scoffed at the old-fashioned church ceremonies which my father insisted on; and
I fancy Fritz must have taken some of his compliments as satire, for I saw
certain signs of manner by which I knew that my future husband, for all his
civil words, had irritated and annoyed my brother. But all the money
arrangements were liberal in the extreme, and more than satisfied, almost
surprised, my father. Even Fritz lifted up his eyebrows and whistled. I alone
did not care about anything. I was bewitched,—in a dream,—a kind of despair. I
had got into a net through my own timidity and weakness, and I did not see how
to get out of it. I clung to my own home-people that fortnight as I had never
done before. Their voices, their ways were all so pleasant and familiar to me,
after the constraint in which I had been living. I might speak and do as I
liked without being corrected by Madame Rupprecht, or reproved in a delicate,
complimentary way by Monsieur de la Tourelle. One day I said to my father that
I did not want to be married, that I would rather go back to the dear old mill;
but he seemed to feel this speech of mine as a dereliction of duty as great as
if I had committed perjury; as if, after the ceremony of betrothal, no one had
any right over me but my future husband. And yet he asked me some solemn
questions; but my answers were not such as to do me any good.
'Dost thou know any fault or
crime in this man that should prevent God's blessing from resting on thy marriage
with him? Dost thou feel aversion or repugnance to him in any way?'
And to all this what could I
say? I could only stammer out that I did not think I loved him enough; and my
poor old father saw in this reluctance only the fancy of a silly girl who did
not know her own mind, but who had now gone too far to recede.
So we were married, in the
Court chapel, a privilege which Madame Rupprecht had used no end of efforts to
obtain for us, and which she must have thought was to secure us all possible
happiness, both at the time and in recollection afterwards.
We were married; and after
two days spent in festivity at Carlsruhe, among all our new fashionable friends
there, I bade good-by for ever to my dear old father. I had begged my husband
to take me by way of Heidelberg to his old castle in the Vosges; but I found an
amount of determination, under that effeminate appearance and manner, for which
I was not prepared, and he refused my first request so decidedly that I dared
not urge it. 'Henceforth, Anna,' said he, 'you will move in a different sphere
of life; and though it is possible that you may have the power of showing
favour to your relations from time to time, yet much or familiar intercourse
will be undesirable, and is what I cannot allow.' I felt almost afraid, after
this formal speech, of asking my father and Fritz to come and see me; but, when
the agony of bidding them farewell overcame all my prudence, I did beg them to
pay me a visit ere long. But they shook their heads, and spoke of business at home,
of different kinds of life, of my being a Frenchwoman now. Only my father broke
out at last with a blessing, and said, 'If my child is unhappy—which God
forbid—let her remember that her father's house is ever open to her.' I was on
the point of crying out, 'Oh! take me back then now, my father! oh, my father!'
when I felt, rather than saw, my husband present near me. He looked on with a
slightly contemptuous air; and, taking my hand in his, he led me weeping away,
saying that short farewells were always the best when they were inevitable.
It took us two days to reach
his château in the Vosges, for the roads were bad and the way difficult to
ascertain. Nothing could be more devoted than he was all the time of the
journey. It seemed as if he were trying in every way to make up for the
separation which every hour made me feel the more complete between my present
and my former life. I seemed as if I were only now wakening up to a full sense
of what marriage was, and I dare say I was not a cheerful companion on the
tedious journey. At length, jealousy of my regret for my father and brother got
the better of M. de la Tourelle, and he became so much displeased with me that
I thought my heart would break with the sense of desolation. So it was in no
cheerful frame of mind that we approached Les Rochers, and I thought that
perhaps it was because I was so unhappy that the place looked so dreary. On one
side, the château looked like a raw new building, hastily run up for some
immediate purpose, without any growth of trees or underwood near it, only the
remains of the stone used for building, not yet cleared away from the immediate
neighbourhood, although weeds and lichens had been suffered to grow near and
over the heaps of rubbish; on the other, were the great rocks from which the
place took its name, and rising close against them, as if almost a natural
formation, was the old castle, whose building dated many centuries back.
It was not large nor grand,
but it was strong and picturesque, and I used to wish that we lived in it
rather than in the smart, half-furnished apartment in the new edifice, which
had been hastily got ready for my reception. Incongruous as the two parts were,
they were joined into a whole by means of intricate passages and unexpected
doors, the exact positions of which I never fully understood. M. de la Tourelle
led me to a suite of rooms set apart for me, and formally installed me in them,
as in a domain of which I was sovereign. He apologised for the hasty
preparation which was all he had been able to make for me, but promised, before
I asked, or even thought of complaining, that they should be made as luxurious
as heart could wish before many weeks had elapsed. But when, in the gloom of an
autumnal evening, I caught my own face and figure reflected in all the mirrors,
which showed only a mysterious background in the dim light of the many candles
which failed to illuminate the great proportions of the half-furnished salon, I
clung to M. de la Tourelle, and begged to be taken to the rooms he had occupied
before his marriage, he seemed angry with me, although he affected to laugh,
and so decidedly put aside the notion of my having any other rooms but these,
that I trembled in silence at the fantastic figures and shapes which my
imagination called up as peopling the background of those gloomy mirrors. There
was my boudoir, a little less dreary—my bedroom, with its grand and tarnished
furniture, which I commonly made into my sitting-room, locking up the various
doors which led into the boudoir, the salon, the passages—all but one, through
which M. de la Tourelle always entered from his own apartments in the older
part of the castle. But this preference of mine for occupying my bedroom
annoyed M. de la Tourelle, I am sure, though he did not care to express his
displeasure. He would always allure me back into the salon, which I disliked
more and more from its complete separation from the rest of the building by the
long passage into which all the doors of my apartment opened. This passage was
closed by heavy doors and portières, through which I could not hear a sound
from the other parts of the house, and, of course, the servants could not hear
any movement or cry of mine unless expressly summoned. To a girl brought up as
I had been in a household where every individual lived all day in the sight of
every other member of the family, never wanted either cheerful words or the
sense of silent companionship, this grand isolation of mine was very
formidable; and the more so, because M. de la Tourelle, as landed proprietor,
sportsman, and what not, was generally out of doors the greater part of every
day, and sometimes for two or three days at a time. I had no pride to keep me
from associating with the domestics; it would have been natural to me in many
ways to have sought them out for a word of sympathy in those dreary days when I
was left so entirely to myself, had they been like our kindly German servants.
But I disliked them, one and all; I could not tell why. Some were civil, but
there was a familiarity in their civility which repelled me; others were rude,
and treated me more as if I were an intruder than their master's chosen wife;
and yet of the two sets I liked these last the best.
The principal male servant
belonged to this latter class. I was very much afraid of him, he had such an
air of suspicious surliness about him in all he did for me; and yet M. de la
Tourelle spoke of him as most valuable and faithful. Indeed, it sometimes
struck me that Lefebvre ruled his master in some things; and this I could not make
out. For, while M. de la Tourelle behaved towards me as if I were some precious
toy or idol, to be cherished, and fostered, and petted, and indulged, I soon
found out how little I, or, apparently, any one else, could bend the terrible
will of the man who had on first acquaintance appeared to me too effeminate and
languid to exert his will in the slightest particular. I had learnt to know his
face better now; and to see that some vehement depth of feeling, the cause of
which I could not fathom, made his grey eye glitter with pale light, and his
lips contract, and his delicate cheek whiten on certain occasions. But all had
been so open and above board at home, that I had no experience to help me to
unravel any mysteries among those who lived under the same roof. I understood
that I had made what Madame Rupprecht and her set would have called a great
marriage, because I lived in château with many servants, bound ostensibly to
obey me as a mistress. I understood that M. de la Tourelle was fond enough of
me in his way—proud of my beauty, I dare say (for he often enough spoke about
it to me)—but he was also jealous, and suspicious, and uninfluenced by my
wishes, unless they tallied with his own. I felt at this time as if I could
have been fond of him too, if he would have let me; but I was timid from my
childhood, and before long my dread of his displeasure (coming down like
thunder into the midst of his love, for such slight causes as a hesitation in
reply, a wrong word, or a sigh for my father), conquered my humorous
inclination to love one who was so handsome, so accomplished, so indulgent and
devoted. But if I could not please him when indeed I loved him, you may imagine
how often I did wrong when I was so much afraid of him as to quietly avoid his
company for fear of his outbursts of passion. One thing I remember noticing,
that the more M. de la Tourelle was displeased with me, the more Lefebvre
seemed to chuckle; and when I was restored to favour, sometimes on as sudden an
impulse as that which occasioned my disgrace, Lefebvre would look askance at me
with his cold, malicious eyes, and once or twice at such times he spoke most
disrespectfully to M. de la Tourelle.
I have almost forgotten to
say that, in the early days of my life at Les Rochers, M. de la Tourelle, in
contemptuous indulgent pity at my weakness in disliking the dreary grandeur of
the salon, wrote up to the milliner in Paris from whom my corbeille de mariage
had come, to desire her to look out for me a maid of middle age, experienced in
the toilette, and with so much refinement that she might on occasion serve as
companion to me.
Portion 2
A Norman woman, Amante by
name, was sent to Les Rochers by the Paris milliner, to become my maid. She was
tall and handsome, though upwards of forty, and somewhat gaunt. But, on first
seeing her, I liked her; she was neither rude nor familiar in her manners, and
had a pleasant look of straightforwardness about her that I had missed in all
the inhabitants of the château, and had foolishly set down in my own mind as a
national want. Amante was directed by M. de la Tourelle to sit in my boudoir,
and to be always within call. He also gave her many instructions as to her
duties in matters which, perhaps, strictly belonged to my department of
management. But I was young and inexperienced, and thankful to be spared any
responsibility.
I daresay it was true what
M. de la Tourelle said—before many weeks had elapsed—that, for a great lady, a
lady of a castle, I became sadly too familiar with my Norman waiting-maid. But
you know that by birth we were not very far apart in rank: Amante was the
daughter of a Norman farmer, I of a German miller; and besides that, my life
was so lonely! It almost seemed as if I could not please my husband. He had
written for some one capable of being my companion at times, and now he was
jealous of my free regard for her—angry because I could sometimes laugh at her
original tunes and amusing proverbs, while when with him I was too much
frightened to smile.
From time to time families
from a distance of some leagues drove through the bad roads in their heavy
carriages to pay us a visit, and there was an occasional talk of our going to
Paris when public affairs should be a little more settled. These little events
and plans were the only variations in my life for the first twelve months, if I
except the alternations in M. de la Tourelle's temper, his unreasonable anger,
and his passionate fondness.
Perhaps one of the reasons
that made me take pleasure and comfort in Amante's society was, that whereas I
was afraid of everybody (I do not think I was half as much afraid of things as
of persons), Amante feared no one. She would quietly beard Lefebvre, and he
respected her all the more for it; she had a knack of putting questions to M.
de la Tourelle, which respectfully informed him that she had detected the weak
point, but forebore to press him too closely upon it out of deference to his
position as her master. And with all her shrewdness to others, she had quite
tender ways with me; all the more so at this time because she knew, what I had
not yet ventured to tell M. de la Tourelle, that by-and-by I might become a
mother—that wonderful object of mysterious interest to single women, who no
longer hope to enjoy such blessedness themselves.
It was once more autumn;
late in October. But I was reconciled to my habitation; the walls of the new
part of the building no longer looked bare and desolate; the débris had
been so far cleared away by M. de la Tourelle's desire as to make me a little
flower-garden, in which I tried to cultivate those plants that I remembered as
growing at home. Amante and I had moved the furniture in the rooms, and
adjusted it to our liking; my husband had ordered many an article from time to
time that he thought would give me pleasure, and I was becoming tame to my
apparent imprisonment in a certain part of the great building, the whole of
which I had never yet explored. It was October, as I say, once more. The days
were lovely, though short in duration, and M. de la Tourelle had occasion, so he
said, to go to that distant estate the superintendence of which so frequently
took him away from home. He took Lefebvre with him, and possibly some more of
the lacqueys; he often did. And my spirits rose a little at the thought of his
absence; and then the new sensation that he was the father of my unborn babe
came over me, and I tried to invest him with this fresh character. I tried to
believe that it was his passionate love for me that made him so jealous and
tyrannical, imposing, as he did, restrictions on my very intercourse with my
dear father, from whom I was so entirely separated, as far as personal
intercourse was concerned.
I had, it is true, let
myself go into a sorrowful review of all the troubles which lay hidden beneath
the seeming luxury of my life. I knew that no one cared for me except my
husband and Amante; for it was clear enough to see that I, as his wife, and
also as a parvenue, was not popular among the few neighbours who
surrounded us; and as for the servants; the women were all hard and
impudent-looking, treating me with a semblance of respect that had more of
mockery than reality in it; while the men had a lurking kind of fierceness
about them, sometimes displayed even to M. de la Tourelle, who on his part, it
must be confessed, was often severe even to cruelty in his management of them.
My husband loved me, I said to myself, but I said it almost in the form of a
question. His love was shown fitfully, and more in ways calculated to please
himself than to please me. I felt that for no wish of mine would he deviate one
tittle from any predetermined course of action. I had learnt the inflexibility
of those thin delicate lips; I knew how anger would turn his fair complexion to
deadly white, and bring the cruel light into his pale blue eyes. The love I
bore to any one seemed to be a reason for his hating them, and so I went on
pitying myself one long dreary afternoon during that absence of his of which I
have spoken, only sometimes remembering to check myself in my murmurings by
thinking of the new unseen link between us, and then crying afresh to think how
wicked I was. Oh, how well I remember that long October evening! Amante came in
from time to time, talking away to cheer me—talking about dress and Paris, and
I hardly know what, but from time to time looking at me keenly with her
friendly dark eyes, and with serious interest, too, though all her words were
about frivolity. At length she heaped the fire with wood, drew the heavy silken
curtains close; for I had been anxious hitherto to keep them open, so that I
might see the pale moon mounting the skies, as I used to see her—the same
moon—rise from behind the Kaiser Stuhl at Heidelberg; but the sight made me
cry, so Amante shut it out. She dictated to me as a nurse does to a child.
'Now, madame must have the
little kitten to keep her company,' she said, 'while I go and ask Marthon for a
cup of coffee.' I remember that speech, and the way it roused me, for I did not
like Amante to think I wanted amusing by a kitten. It might be my petulance, but
this speech—such as she might have made to a child—annoyed me, and I said that
I had reason for my lowness of spirits—meaning that they were not of so
imaginary a nature that I could be diverted from them by the gambols of a
kitten. So, though I did not choose to tell her all, I told her a part; and as
I spoke, I began to suspect that the good creature knew much of what I
withheld, and that the little speech about the kitten was more thoughtfully
kind than it had seemed at first. I said that it was so long since I had heard
from my father; that he was an old man, and so many things might happen—I might
never see him again—and I so seldom heard from him or my brother. It was a more
complete and total separation than I had ever anticipated when I married, and
something of my home and of my life previous to my marriage I told the good
Amante; for I had not been brought up as a great lady, and the sympathy of any
human being was precious to me.
Amante listened with
interest, and in return told me some of the events and sorrows of her own life.
Then, remembering her purpose, she set out in search of the coffee, which ought
to have been brought to me an hour before; but, in my husband's absence, my
wishes were but seldom attended to, and I never dared to give orders.
Presently she returned,
bringing the coffee and a great large cake.
'See!' said she, setting it
down. 'Look at my plunder. Madame must eat. Those who eat always laugh. And,
besides, I have a little news that will please madame.' Then she told me that,
lying on a table in the great kitchen, was a bundle of letters, come by the
courier from Strasburg that very afternoon: then, fresh from her conversation
with me, she had hastily untied the string that bound them, but had only just
traced out one that she thought was from Germany, when a servant-man came in,
and, with the start he gave her, she dropped the letters, which he picked up,
swearing at her for having untied and disarranged them. She told him that she
believed there was a letter there for her mistress; but he only swore the more,
saying, that if there was it was no business of hers, or of his either, for
that he had the strictest orders always to take all letters that arrived during
his master's absence into the private sitting-room of the latter—a room into
which I had never entered, although it opened out of my husband's
dressing-room.
I asked Amante if she had
not conquered and brought me this letter. No, indeed, she replied, it was
almost as much as her life was worth to live among such a set of servants: it
was only a month ago that Jacques had stabbed Valentin for some jesting talk.
Had I never missed Valentin—that handsome young lad who carried up the wood
into my salon? Poor fellow! he lies dead and cold now, and they said in the
village he had put an end to himself, but those of the household knew better.
Oh! I need not be afraid; Jacques was gone, no one knew where; but with such
people it was not safe to upbraid or insist. Monsieur would be at home the next
day, and it would not be long to wait.
But I felt as if I could not
exist till the next day, without the letter. It might be to say that my father
was ill, dying—he might cry for his daughter from his death-bed! In short,
there was no end to the thoughts and fancies that haunted me. It was of no use
for Amante to say that, after all, she might be mistaken—that she did not read
writing well—that she had but a glimpse of the address; I let my coffee cool,
my food all became distasteful, and I wrung my hands with impatience to get at
the letter, and have some news of my dear ones at home. All the time, Amante
kept her imperturbable good temper, first reasoning, then scolding. At last she
said, as if wearied out, that if I would consent to make a good supper, she
would see what could be done as to our going to monsieur's room in search of
the letter, after the servants were all gone to bed. We agreed to go together
when all was still, and look over the letters; there could be no harm in that;
and yet, somehow, we were such cowards we dared not do it openly and in the
face of the household.
Presently my supper came
up—partridges, bread, fruits, and cream. How well I remember that supper! We
put the untouched cake away in a sort of buffet, and poured the cold coffee out
of the window, in order that the servants might not take offence at the
apparent fancifulness of sending down for food I could not eat. I was so
anxious for all to be in bed, that I told the footman who served that he need
not wait to take away the plates and dishes, but might go to bed. Long after I
thought the house was quiet, Amante, in her caution, made me wait. It was past
eleven before we set out, with cat-like steps and veiled light, along the
passages, to go to my husband's room and steal my own letter, if it was indeed
there; a fact about which Amante had become very uncertain in the progress of
our discussion.
To make you understand my
story, I must now try to explain to you the plan of the château. It had been at
one time a fortified place of some strength, perched on the summit of a rock,
which projected from the side of the mountain. But additions had been made to
the old building (which must have borne a strong resemblance to the castles
overhanging the Rhine), and these new buildings were placed so as to command a
magnificent view, being on the steepest side of the rock, from which the
mountain fell away, as it were, leaving the great plain of France in full
survey. The ground-plan was something of the shape of three sides of an oblong;
my apartments in the modern edifice occupied the narrow end, and had this grand
prospect. The front of the castle was old, and ran parallel to the road far
below. In this were contained the offices and public rooms of various
descriptions, into which I never penetrated. The back wing (considering the new
building, in which my apartments were, as the centre) consisted of many rooms,
of a dark and gloomy character, as the mountain-side shut out much of the sun,
and heavy pine woods came down within a few yards of the windows. Yet on this
side—on a projecting plateau of the rock—my husband had formed the
flower-garden of which I have spoken; for he was a great cultivator of flowers
in his leisure moments.
Now my bedroom was the
corner room of the new buildings on the part next to the mountains. Hence I
could have let myself down into the flower-garden by my hands on the
window-sill on one side, without danger of hurting myself; while the windows at
right angles with these looked sheer down a descent of a hundred feet at least.
Going still farther along this wing, you came to the old building; in fact,
these two fragments of the ancient castle had formerly been attached by some
such connecting apartments as my husband had rebuilt. These rooms belonged to
M. de la Tourelle. His bedroom opened into mine, his dressing-room lay beyond;
and that was pretty nearly all I knew, for the servants, as well as he himself,
had a knack of turning me back, under some pretence, if ever they found me
walking about alone, as I was inclined to do, when first I came, from a sort of
curiosity to see the whole of the place of which I found myself mistress. M. de
la Tourelle never encouraged me to go out alone, either in a carriage or for a
walk, saying always that the roads were unsafe in those disturbed times;
indeed, I have sometimes fancied since that the flower-garden, to which the
only access from the castle was through his rooms, was designed in order to
give me exercise and employment under his own eye.
But to return to that night.
I knew, as I have said, that M. de la Tourelle's private room opened out of his
dressing-room, and this out of his bedroom, which again opened into mine, the
corner-room. But there were other doors into all these rooms, and these doors
led into a long gallery, lighted by windows, looking into the inner court. I do
not remember our consulting much about it; we went through my room into my
husband's apartment through the dressing-room, but the door of communication
into his study was locked, so there was nothing for it but to turn back and go
by the gallery to the other door. I recollect noticing one or two things in
these rooms, then seen by me for the first time. I remember the sweet perfume
that hung in the air, the scent bottles of silver that decked his toilet-table,
and the whole apparatus for bathing and dressing, more luxurious even than
those which he had provided for me. But the room itself was less splendid in
its proportions than mine. In truth, the new buildings ended at the entrance to
my husband's dressing-room. There were deep window recesses in walls eight or
nine feet thick, and even the partitions between the chambers were three feet
deep; but over all these doors or windows there fell thick, heavy draperies, so
that I should think no one could have heard in one room what passed in another.
We went back into my room, and out into the gallery. We had to shade our
candle, from a fear that possessed us, I don't know why, lest some of the
servants in the opposite wing might trace our progress towards the part of the
castle unused by any one except my husband. Somehow, I had always the feeling
that all the domestics, except Amante, were spies upon me, and that I was
trammelled in a web of observation and unspoken limitation extending over all
my actions.
There was a light in the
upper room; we paused, and Amante would have again retreated, but I was chafing
under the delays. What was the harm of my seeking my father's unopened letter
to me in my husband's study? I, generally the coward, now blamed Amante for her
unusual timidity. But the truth was, she had far more reason for suspicion as
to the proceedings of that terrible household than I had ever known of. I urged
her on, I pressed on myself; we came to the door, locked, but with the key in
it; we turned it, we entered; the letters lay on the table, their white oblongs
catching the light in an instant, and revealing themselves to my eager eyes,
hungering after the words of love from my peaceful, distant home. But just as I
pressed forward to examine the letters, the candle which Amante held, caught in
some draught, went out, and we were in darkness. Amante proposed that we should
carry the letters back to my salon, collecting them as well as we could in the
dark, and returning all but the expected one for me; but I begged her to return
to my room, where I kept tinder and flint, and to strike a fresh light; and I
remained alone in the room, of which I could only just distinguish the size,
and the principal articles of furniture: a large table, with a deep,
overhanging cloth, in the middle, escritoires and other heavy articles against
the walls; all this I could see as I stood there, my hand on the table close by
the letters, my face towards the window, which, both from the darkness of the
wood growing high up the mountain-side and the faint light of the declining
moon, seemed only like an oblong of paler purpler black than the shadowy room.
How much I remembered from my one instantaneous glance before the candle went
out, how much I saw as my eyes became accustomed to the darkness, I do not
know, but even now, in my dreams, comes up that room of horror, distinct in its
profound shadow. Amante could hardly have been gone a minute before I felt an
additional gloom before the window, and heard soft movements outside—soft, but
resolute, and continued until the end was accomplished, and the window raised.
In mortal terror of people
forcing an entrance at such an hour, and in such a manner as to leave no doubt
of their purpose, I would have turned to fly when first I heard the noise, only
that I feared by any quick motion to catch their attention, as I also ran the
danger of doing by opening the door, which was all but closed and to whose
handlings I was unaccustomed. Again, quick as lightning, I bethought me of the
hiding-place between the locked door to my husband's dressing-room and the
portière which covered it; but I gave that up, I felt as if I could not reach
it without screaming or fainting. So I sank down softly, and crept under the
table, hidden as I hoped, by the great, deep table-cover, with its heavy
fringe. I had not recovered my swooning senses fully, and was trying to
reassure myself as to my being in a place of comparative safety, for, above all
things, I dreaded the betrayal of fainting, and struggled hard for such courage
as I might attain by deadening myself to the danger I was in by inflicting
intense pain on myself. You have often asked me the reason of that mark on my
hand; it was there, in my agony, I bit out a piece of flesh with my relentless
teeth, thankful for the pain, which helped to numb my terror. I say, I was but
just concealed within I heard the window lifted, and one after another stepped
over the sill, and stood by me so close that I could have touched their feet.
Then they laughed and whispered; my brain swam so that I could not tell the
meaning of their words, but I heard my husband's laughter among the rest—low,
hissing, scornful—as he kicked something heavy that they had dragged in over
the floor, and which layed near me; so near, that my husband's kick, in touching
it, touched me too. I don't know why—I can't tell how—but some feeling, and not
curiosity, prompted me to put out my hand, ever so softly, ever so little, and
feel in the darkness for what lay spurned beside me. I stole my groping palm
upon the clenched and chilly hand of a corpse!
Strange to say, this roused
me to instant vividness of thought. Till this moment I had almost forgotten
Amante; now I planned with feverish rapidity how I could give her a warning not
to return; or rather, I should say, I tried to plan, for all my projects were
utterly futile, as I might have seen from the first. I could only hope she
would hear the voices of those who were now busy in trying to kindle a light,
swearing awful oaths at the mislaid articles which would have enabled them to
strike fire. I heard her step outside coming nearer and nearer; I saw from my
hiding-place the line of light beneath the door more and more distinctly; close
to it her footstep paused; the men inside—at the time I thought they had been
only two, but I found out afterwards there were three—paused in their
endeavours, and were quite still, as breathless as myself, I suppose. Then she
slowly pushed the door open with gentle motion, to save her flickering candle
from being again extinguished. For a moment all was still. Then I heard my
husband say, as he advanced towards her (he wore riding-boots, the shape of
which I knew well, as I could see them in the light):
'Amante, may I ask what
brings you here into my private room?'
He stood between her and the
dead body of a man, from which ghastly heap I shrank away as it almost touched
me, so close were we all together. I could not tell whether she saw it or not;
I could give her no warning, nor make any dumb utterance of signs to bid her
what to say—if, indeed, I knew myself what would be best for her to say.
Her voice was quite changed
when she spoke; quite hoarse, and very low; yet it was steady enough as she
said, what was the truth, that she had come to look for a letter which she
believed had arrived for me from Germany. Good, brave Amante! Not a word about
me. M. de la Tourelle answered with a grim blasphemy and a fearful threat. He
would have no one prying into his premises; madame should have her letters, if
there were any, when he chose to give them to her, if, indeed, he thought it
well to give them to her at all. As for Amante, this was her first warning, but
it was also her last; and, taking the candle out of her hand, he turned her out
of the room, his companions discreetly making a screen, so as to throw the
corpse into deep shadow. I heard the key turn in the door after her—if I had
ever had any thought of escape it was gone now. I only hoped that whatever was
to befall me might soon be over, for the tension of nerve was growing more than
I could bear. The instant she could be supposed to be out of hearing, two
voices began speaking in the most angry terms to my husband, upbraiding him for
not having detained her, gagged her—nay, one was for killing her, saying he had
seen her eye fall on the face of the dead man, whom he now kicked in his
passion. Though the form of their speech was as if they were speaking to
equals, yet in their tone there was something of fear. I am sure my husband was
their superior, or captain, or somewhat. He replied to them almost as if he
were scoffing at them, saying it was such an expenditure of labour having to do
with fools; that, ten to one, the woman was only telling the simple truth, and
that she was frightened enough by discovering her master in his room to be thankful
to escape and return to her mistress, to whom he could easily explain on the
morrow how he happened to return in the dead of night. But his companions fell
to cursing me, and saying that since M. de la Tourelle had been married he was
fit for nothing but to dress himself fine and scent himself with perfume; that,
as for me, they could have got him twenty girls prettier, and with far more
spirit in them. He quietly answered that I suited him, and that was enough. All
this time they were doing something—I could not see what—to the corpse;
sometimes they were too busy rifling the dead body, I believe, to talk; again
they let it fall with a heavy, resistless thud, and took to quarrelling. They
taunted my husband with angry vehemence, enraged at his scoffing and scornful
replies, his mocking laughter. Yes, holding up his poor dead victim, the better
to strip him of whatever he wore that was valuable, I heard my husband laugh
just as he had done when exchanging repartees in the little salon of the
Rupprechts at Carlsruhe. I hated and dreaded him from that moment. At length,
as if to make an end of the subject, he said, with cool determination in his
voice:
'Now, my good friends, what
is the use of all this talking, when you know in your hearts that, if I suspected
my wife of knowing more than I chose of my affairs, she would not outlive the
day? Remember Victorine. Because she merely joked about my affairs in an
imprudent manner, and rejected my advice to keep a prudent tongue—to see what
she liked, but ask nothing and say nothing—she has gone a long journey—longer
than to Paris.'
'But this one is different
to her; we knew all that Madame Victorine knew, she was such a chatterbox; but
this one may find out a vast deal, and never breathe a word about it, she is so
sly. Some fine day we may have the country raised, and the gendarmes down upon
us from Strasburg, and all owing to your pretty doll, with her cunning ways of
coming over you.'
I think this roused M. de la
Tourelle a little from his contemptuous indifference, for he ground an oath
through his teeth, and said, 'Feel! this dagger is sharp, Henri. If my wife
breathes a word, and I am such a fool as not to have stopped her mouth
effectually before she can bring down gendarmes upon us, just let that good
steel find its way to my heart. Let her guess but one tittle, let her have but
one slight suspicion that I am not a "grand propriétaire," much less
imagine that I am a chief of chauffeurs, and she follows Victorine on the long
journey beyond Paris that very day.'
'She'll outwit you yet; or I
never judged women well. Those still silent ones are the devil. She'll be off
during some of your absences, having picked out some secret that will break us
all on the wheel.'
'Bah!' said his voice; and
then in a minute he added, 'Let her go if she will. But, where she goes, I will
follow; so don't cry before you're hurt.'
By this time, they had
nearly stripped the body; and the conversation turned on what they should do
with it. I learnt that the dead man was the Sieur de Poissy, a neighbouring
gentleman, whom I had often heard of as hunting with my husband. I had never
seen him, but they spoke as if he had come upon them while they were robbing
some Cologne merchant, torturing him after the cruel practice of the
chauffeurs, by roasting the feet of their victims in order to compel them to
reveal any hidden circumstances connected with their wealth, of which the
chauffeurs afterwards made use; and this Sieur de Poissy coming down upon them,
and recognising M. de la Tourelle, they had killed him, and brought him thither
after nightfall. I heard him whom I called my husband, laugh his little light
laugh as he spoke of the way in which the dead body had been strapped before
one of the riders, in such a way that it appeared to any passer-by as if, in
truth, the murderer were tenderly supporting some sick person. He repeated some
mocking reply of double meaning, which he himself had given to some one who
made inquiry. He enjoyed the play upon words, softly applauding his own wit.
And all the time the poor helpless outstretched arms of the dead lay close to
his dainty boot! Then another stooped (my heart stopped beating), and picked up
a letter lying on the ground—a letter that had dropped out of M. de Poissy's
pocket—a letter from his wife, full of tender words of endearment and pretty
babblings of love. This was read aloud, with coarse ribald comments on every
sentence, each trying to outdo the previous speaker. When they came to some
pretty words about a sweet Maurice, their little child away with its mother on
some visit, they laughed at M. de la Tourelle, and told him that he would be
hearing such woman's drivelling some day. Up to that moment, I think, I had
only feared him, but his unnatural, half-ferocious reply made me hate even more
than I dreaded him. But now they grew weary of their savage merriment; the
jewels and watch had been apprised, the money and papers examined; and
apparently there was some necessity for the body being interred quietly and
before daybreak. They had not dared to leave him where he was slain for fear
lest people should come and recognise him, and raise the hue and cry upon them.
For they all along spoke as if it was their constant endeavour to keep the
immediate neighbourhood of Les Rochers in the most orderly and tranquil
condition, so as never to give cause for visits from the gendarmes. They
disputed a little as to whether they should make their way into the castle
larder through the gallery, and satisfy their hunger before the hasty
interment, or afterwards. I listened with eager feverish interest as soon as
this meaning of their speeches reached my hot and troubled brain, for at the
time the words they uttered seemed only to stamp themselves with terrible force
on my memory, so that I could hardly keep from repeating them aloud like a
dull, miserable, unconscious echo; but my brain was numb to the sense of what
they said, unless I myself were named, and then, I suppose, some instinct of
self-preservation stirred within me, and quickened my sense. And how I strained
my ears, and nerved my hands and limbs, beginning to twitch with convulsive
movements, which I feared might betray me! I gathered every word they spoke,
not knowing which proposal to wish for, but feeling that whatever was finally
decided upon, my only chance of escape was drawing near. I once feared lest my
husband should go to his bedroom before I had had that one chance, in which
case he would most likely have perceived my absence. He said that his hands
were soiled (I shuddered, for it might be with life-blood), and he would go and
cleanse them; but some bitter jest turned his purpose, and he left the room
with the other two—left it by the gallery door. Left me alone in the dark with
the stiffening corpse!
Now, now was my time, if
ever; and yet I could not move. It was not my cramped and stiffened joints that
crippled me, it was the sensation of that dead man's close presence. I almost
fancied—I almost fancy still—I heard the arm nearest to me move; lift itself
up, as if once more imploring, and fall in dead despair. At that fancy—if fancy
it were—I screamed aloud in mad terror, and the sound of my own strange voice
broke the spell. I drew myself to the side of the table farthest from the
corpse, with as much slow caution as if I really could have feared the clutch
of that poor dead arm, powerless for evermore. I softly raised myself up, and
stood sick and trembling, holding by the table, too dizzy to know what to do
next. I nearly fainted, when a low voice spoke—when Amante, from the outside of
the door, whispered, 'Madame!' The faithful creature had been on the watch, had
heard my scream, and having seen the three ruffians troop along the gallery
down the stairs, and across the court to the offices in the other wing of the
castle, she had stolen to the door of the room in which I was. The sound of her
voice gave me strength; I walked straight towards it, as one benighted on a
dreary moor, suddenly perceiving the small steady light which tells of human
dwellings, takes heart, and steers straight onward. Where I was, where that
voice was, I knew not; but go to it I must, or die. The door once opened—I know
not by which of us—I fell upon her neck, grasping her tight, till my hands
ached with the tension of their hold. Yet she never uttered a word. Only she
took me up in her vigorous arms, and bore me to my room, and laid me on my bed.
I do not know more; as soon as I was placed there I lost sense; I came to
myself with a horrible dread lest my husband was by me, with a belief that he
was in the room, in hiding, waiting to hear my first words, watching for the
least sign of the terrible knowledge I possessed to murder me. I dared not
breathe quicker, I measured and timed each heavy inspiration; I did not speak,
nor move, nor even open my eyes, for long after I was in my full, my miserable
senses. I heard some one treading softly about the room, as if with a purpose,
not as if for curiosity, or merely to beguile the time; some one passed in and
out of the salon; and I still lay quiet, feeling as if death were inevitable,
but wishing that the agony of death were past. Again faintness stole over me;
but just as I was sinking into the horrible feeling of nothingness, I heard
Amante's voice close to me, saying:
'Drink this, madame, and let
us begone. All is ready.'
I let her put her arm under
my head and raise me, and pour something down my throat. All the time she kept
talking in a quiet, measured voice, unlike her own, so dry and authoritative;
she told me that a suit of her clothes lay ready for me, that she herself was
as much disguised as the circumstances permitted her to be, that what
provisions I had left from my supper were stowed away in her pockets, and so
she went on, dwelling on little details of the most commonplace description,
but never alluding for an instant to the fearful cause why flight was
necessary. I made no inquiry as to how she knew, or what she knew. I never
asked her either then or afterwards, I could not bear it—we kept our dreadful
secret close. But I suppose she must have been in the dressing-room adjoining,
and heard all.
In fact, I dared not speak
even to her, as if there were anything beyond the most common event in life in
our preparing thus to leave the house of blood by stealth in the dead of night.
She gave me directions—short condensed directions, without reasons—just as you
do to a child; and like a child I obeyed her. She went often to the door and
listened; and often, too, she went to the window, and looked anxiously out. For
me, I saw nothing but her, and I dared not let my eyes wander from her for a
minute; and I heard nothing in the deep midnight silence but her soft
movements, and the heavy beating of my own heart. At last she took my hand, and
led me in the dark, through the salon, once more into the terrible gallery, where
across the black darkness the windows admitted pale sheeted ghosts of light
upon the floor. Clinging to her I went; unquestioning—for she was human
sympathy to me after the isolation of my unspeakable terror. On we went,
turning to the left instead of to the right, past my suite of sitting-rooms
where the gilding was red with blood, into that unknown wing of the castle that
fronted the main road lying parallel far below. She guided me along the
basement passages to which we had now descended, until we came to a little open
door, through which the air blew chill and cold, bringing for the first time a
sensation of life to me. The door led into a kind of cellar, through which we
groped our way to an opening like window, but which, instead of being glazed, was
only fenced with iron bars, two of which were loose, as Amante evidently knew,
for she took them out with the ease of one who had performed the action often
before, and then helped me to follow her out into the free, open air.
We stole round the end of
the building, and on turning the corner—she first—I felt her hold on me tighten
for an instant, and the next step I, too, heard distant voices, and the blows
of a spade upon the heavy soil, for the night was very warm and still.
We had not spoken a word; we
did not speak now. Touch was safer and as expressive. She turned down towards
the high road; I followed. I did not know the path; we stumbled again and
again, and I was much bruised; so doubtless was she; but bodily pain did me
good. At last, we were on the plainer path of the high road.
I had such faith in her that
I did not venture to speak, even when she paused, as wondering to which hand
she should turn. But now, for the first time, she spoke:
'Which way did you come when
he brought you here first?'
I pointed, I could not
speak.
We turned in the opposite
direction; still going along the high road. In about an hour, we struck up to
the mountainside, scrambling far up before we even dared to rest; far up and
away again before day had fully dawned. Then we looked about for some place of
rest and concealment: and now we dared to speak in whispers. Amante told me
that she had locked the door of communication between his bedroom and mine,
and, as in a dream, I was aware that she had also locked and brought away the
key of the door between the latter and the salon.
'He will have been too busy
this night to think much about you—he will suppose you are asleep—I shall be
the first to be missed; but they will only just now be discovering our loss.'
I remember those last words
of hers made me pray to go on; I felt as if we were losing precious time in
thinking either of rest or concealment; but she hardly replied to me, so busy
was she in seeking out some hiding-place. At length, giving it up in despair,
we proceeded onwards a little way; the mountain-side sloped downwards rapidly,
and in the full morning light we saw ourselves in a narrow valley, made by a
stream which forced its way along it. About a mile lower down there rose the
pale blue smoke of a village, a mill-wheel was lashing up the water close at
hand, though out of sight. Keeping under the cover of every sheltering tree or
bush, we worked our way down past the mill, down to a one-arched bridge, which
doubtless formed part of the road between the village and the mill.
'This will do,' said she;
and we crept under the space, and climbing a little way up the rough stonework,
we seated ourselves on a projecting ledge, and crouched in the deep damp
shadow. Amante sat a little above me, and made me lay my head on her lap. Then
she fed me, and took some food herself; and opening out her great dark cloak,
she covered up every light-coloured speck about us; and thus we sat, shivering
and shuddering, yet feeling a kind of rest through it all, simply from the fact
that motion was no longer imperative, and that during the daylight our only
chance of safety was to be still. But the damp shadow in which we were sitting
was blighting, from the circumstance of the sunlight never penetrating there;
and I dreaded lest, before night and the time for exertion again came on, I
should feel illness creeping all over me. To add to our discomfort, it had
rained the whole day long, and the stream, fed by a thousand little mountain
brooklets, began to swell into a torrent, rushing over the stones with a
perpetual and dizzying noise.
Every now and then I was
wakened from the painful doze into which I continually fell, by a sound of
horses' feet over our head: sometimes lumbering heavily as if dragging a
burden, sometimes rattling and galloping; and with the sharper cry of men's
voices coming cutting through the roar of the waters. At length, day fell. We
had to drop into the stream, which came above our knees as we waded to the
bank. There we stood, stiff and shivering. Even Amante's courage seemed to
fail.
'We must pass this night in
shelter, somehow,' said she. For indeed the rain was coming down pitilessly. I
said nothing. I thought that surely the end must be death in some shape; and I
only hoped that to death might not be added the terror of the cruelty of men.
In a minute or so she had resolved on her course of action. We went up the
stream to the mill. The familiar sounds, the scent of the wheat, the flour
whitening the walls—all reminded me of home, and it seemed to me as if I must struggle
out of this nightmare and waken, and find myself once more a happy girl by the
Neckar side. They were long in unbarring the door at which Amante had knocked:
at length, an old feeble voice inquired who was there, and what was sought?
Amante answered shelter from the storm for two women; but the old woman
replied, with suspicious hesitation, that she was sure it was a man who was
asking for shelter, and that she could not let us in. But at length she
satisfied herself, and unbarred the heavy door, and admitted us. She was not an
unkindly woman; but her thoughts all travelled in one circle, and that was,
that her master, the miller, had told her on no account to let any man into the
place during his absence, and that she did not know if he would not think two
women as bad; and yet that as we were not men, no one could say she had
disobeyed him, for it was a shame to let a dog be out such a night as this.
Amante, with ready wit, told her to let no one know that we had taken shelter
there that night, and that then her master could not blame her; and while she
was thus enjoining secrecy as the wisest course, with a view to far other
people than the miller, she was hastily helping me to take off my wet clothes,
and spreading them, as well as the brown mantle that had covered us both,
before the great stove which warmed the room with the effectual heat that the
old woman's failing vitality required. All this time the poor creature was
discussing with herself as to whether she had disobeyed orders, in a kind of
garrulous way that made me fear much for her capability of retaining anything
secret if she was questioned. By-and-by, she wandered away to an unnecessary
revelation of her master's whereabouts: gone to help in the search for his
landlord, the Sieur de Poissy, who lived at the chateau just above, and who had
not returned from his chase the day before; so the intendant imagined he might
have met with some accident, and had summoned the neighbours to beat the forest
and the hill-side. She told us much besides, giving us to understand that she
would fain meet with a place as housekeeper where there were more servants and
less to do, as her life here was very lonely and dull, especially since her
master's son had gone away—gone to the wars. She then took her supper, which
was evidently apportioned out to her with a sparing hand, as, even if the idea
had come into her head, she had not enough to offer us any. Fortunately, warmth
was all that we required, and that, thanks to Amante's cares, was returning to
our chilled bodies. After supper, the old woman grew drowsy; but she seemed
uncomfortable at the idea of going to sleep and leaving us still in the house.
Indeed, she gave us pretty broad hints as to the propriety of our going once
more out into the bleak and stormy night; but we begged to be allowed to stay
under shelter of some kind; and, at last, a bright idea came over her, and she
bade us mount by a ladder to a kind of loft, which went half over the lofty
mill-kitchen in which we were sitting. We obeyed her—what else could we do?—and
found ourselves in a spacious floor, without any safeguard or wall, boarding,
or railing, to keep us from falling over into the kitchen in case we went too
near the edge. It was, in fact, the store-room or garret for the household.
There was bedding piled up, boxes and chests, mill sacks, the winter store of
apples and nuts, bundles of old clothes, broken furniture, and many other
things. No sooner were we up there, than the old woman dragged the ladder, by
which we had ascended, away with a chuckle, as if she was now secure that we
could do no mischief, and sat herself down again once more, to doze and await
her master's return. We pulled out some bedding, and gladly laid ourselves down
in our dried clothes and in some warmth, hoping to have the sleep we so much
needed to refresh us and prepare us for the next day. But I could not sleep,
and I was aware, from her breathing, that Amante was equally wakeful. We could
both see through the crevices between the boards that formed the flooring into
the kitchen below, very partially lighted by the common lamp that hung against
the wall near the stove on the opposite side to that on which we were.
Portion 3
Far on in the night there
were voices outside reached us in our hiding-place; an angry knocking at the
door, and we saw through the chinks the old woman rouse herself up to go and
open it for her master, who came in, evidently half drunk. To my sick horror,
he was followed by Lefebvre, apparently as sober and wily as ever. They were talking
together as they came in, disputing about something; but the miller stopped the
conversation to swear at the old woman for having fallen asleep, and, with
tipsy anger, and even with blows, drove the poor old creature out of the
kitchen to bed. Then he and Lefebvre went on talking—about the Sieur de
Poissy's disappearance. It seemed that Lefebvre had been out all day, along
with other of my husband's men, ostensibly assisting in the search; in all
probability trying to blind the Sieur de Poissy's followers by putting them on
a wrong scent, and also, I fancied, from one or two of Lefebvre's sly
questions, combining the hidden purpose of discovering us.
Although the miller was
tenant and vassal to the Sieur de Poissy, he seemed to me to be much more in league
with the people of M. de la Tourelle. He was evidently aware, in part, of the
life which Lefebvre and the others led; although, again, I do not suppose he
knew or imagined one-half of their crimes; and also, I think, he was seriously
interested in discovering the fate of his master, little suspecting Lefebvre of
murder or violence. He kept talking himself, and letting out all sorts of
thoughts and opinions; watched by the keen eyes of Lefebvre gleaming out below
his shaggy eyebrows. It was evidently not the cue of the latter to let out that
his master's wife had escaped from that vile and terrible den; but though he
never breathed a word relating to us, not the less was I certain he was
thirsting for our blood, and lying in wait for us at every turn of events.
Presently he got up and took his leave; and the miller bolted him out, and
stumbled off to bed. Then we fell asleep, and slept sound and long.
The next morning, when I
awoke, I saw Amante, half raised, resting on one hand, and eagerly gazing, with
straining eyes, into the kitchen below. I looked too, and both heard and saw
the miller and two of his men eagerly and loudly talking about the old woman,
who had not appeared as usual to make the fire in the stove, and prepare her
master's breakfast, and who now, late on in the morning, had been found dead in
her bed; whether from the effect of her master's blows the night before, or
from natural causes, who can tell? The miller's conscience upbraided him a
little, I should say, for he was eagerly declaring his value for his
housekeeper, and repeating how often she had spoken of the happy life she led
with him. The men might have their doubts, but they did not wish to offend the
miller, and all agreed that the necessary steps should be taken for a speedy funeral.
And so they went out, leaving us in our loft, but so much alone, that, for the
first time almost, we ventured to speak freely, though still in hushed voice,
pausing to listen continually. Amante took a more cheerful view of the whole
occurrence than I did. She said that, had the old woman lived, we should have
had to depart that morning, and that this quiet departure would have been the
best thing we could have had to hope for, as, in all probability, the
housekeeper would have told her master of us and of our resting-place, and this
fact would, sooner or later, have been brought to the knowledge of those from
whom we most desired to keep it concealed; but that now we had time to rest,
and a shelter to rest in, during the first hot pursuit, which we knew to a
fatal certainty was being carried on. The remnants of our food, and the
stored-up fruit, would supply us with provision; the only thing to be feared
was, that something might be required from the loft, and the miller or someone
else mount up in search of it. But even then, with a little arrangement of
boxes and chests, one part might be so kept in shadow that we might yet escape
observation. All this comforted me a little; but, I asked, how were we ever to
escape? The ladder was taken away, which was our only means of descent. But
Amante replied that she could make a sufficient ladder of the rope lying coiled
among other things, to drop us down the ten feet or so—with the advantage of
its being portable, so that we might carry it away, and thus avoid all betrayal
of the fact that any one had ever been hidden in the loft.
During the two days that
intervened before we did escape, Amante made good use of her time. She looked
into every box and chest during the man's absence at his mill; and finding in one
box an old suit of man's clothes, which had probably belonged to the miller's
absent son, she put them on to see if they would fit her; and, when she found
that they did, she cut her own hair to the shortness of a man's, made me clip
her black eyebrows as close as though they had been shaved, and by cutting up
old corks into pieces such as would go into her cheeks, she altered both the
shape of her face and her voice to a degree which I should not have believed
possible.
All this time I lay like one
stunned; my body resting, and renewing its strength, but I myself in an almost
idiotic state—else surely I could not have taken the stupid interest which I
remember I did in all Amante's energetic preparations for disguise. I
absolutely recollect once the feeling of a smile coming over my stiff face as
some new exercise of her cleverness proved a success.
But towards the second day,
she required me, too, to exert myself; and then all my heavy despair returned.
I let her dye my fair hair and complexion with the decaying shells of the
stored-up walnuts, I let her blacken my teeth, and even voluntarily broke a
front tooth the better to effect my disguise. But through it all I had no hope
of evading my terrible husband. The third night the funeral was over, the drinking
ended, the guests gone; the miller put to bed by his men, being too drunk to
help himself. They stopped a little while in the kitchen, talking and laughing
about the new housekeeper likely to come; and they, too, went off, shutting,
but not locking the door. Everything favoured us. Amante had tried her ladder
on one of the two previous nights, and could, by a dexterous throw from
beneath, unfasten it from the hook to which it was fixed, when it had served
its office; she made up a bundle of worthless old clothes in order that we
might the better preserve our characters of a travelling pedlar and his wife;
she stuffed a hump on her back, she thickened my figure, she left her own
clothes deep down beneath a heap of others in the chest from which she had taken
the man's dress which she wore; and with a few francs in her pocket—the sole
money we had either of us had about us when we escaped—we let ourselves down
the ladder, unhooked it, and passed into the cold darkness of night again.
We had discussed the route
which it would be well for us to take while we lay perdues in our loft. Amante
had told me then that her reason for inquiring, when we first left Les Rochers,
by which way I had first been brought to it, was to avoid the pursuit which she
was sure would first be made in the direction of Germany; but that now she
thought we might return to that district of country where my German fashion of
speaking French would excite least observation. I thought that Amante herself
had something peculiar in her accent, which I had heard M. de la Tourelle sneer
at as Norman patois; but I said not a word beyond agreeing to her proposal that
we should bend our steps towards Germany. Once there, we should, I thought, be
safe. Alas! I forgot the unruly time that was overspreading all Europe,
overturning all law, and all the protection which law gives.
How we wandered—not daring
to ask our way—how we lived, how we struggled through many a danger and still
more terrors of danger, I shall not tell you now. I will only relate two of our
adventures before we reached Frankfort. The first, although fatal to an
innocent lady, was yet, I believe, the cause of my safety; the second I shall
tell you, that you may understand why I did not return to my former home, as I
had hoped to do when we lay in the miller's loft, and I first became capable of
groping after an idea of what my future life might be. I cannot tell you how
much in these doubtings and wanderings I became attached to Amante. I have
sometimes feared since, lest I cared for her only because she was so necessary
to my own safety; but, no! it was not so; or not so only, or principally. She
said once that she was flying for her own life as well as for mine; but we
dared not speak much on our danger, or on the horrors that had gone before. We
planned a little what was to be our future course; but even for that we did not
look forward long; how could we, when every day we scarcely knew if we should
see the sun go down? For Amante knew or conjectured far more than I did of the
atrocity of the gang to which M. de la Tourelle belonged; and every now and
then, just as we seemed to be sinking into the calm of security, we fell upon
traces of a pursuit after us in all directions. Once I remember—we must have
been nearly three weeks wearily walking through unfrequented ways, day after
day, not daring to make inquiry as to our whereabouts, nor yet to seem
purposeless in our wanderings—we came to a kind of lonely roadside farrier's
and blacksmith's. I was so tired, that Amante declared that, come what might,
we would stay there all night; and accordingly she entered the house, and
boldly announced herself as a travelling tailor, ready to do any odd jobs of
work that might be required, for a night's lodging and food for herself and
wife. She had adopted this plan once or twice before, and with good success;
for her father had been a tailor in Rouen, and as a girl she had often helped
him with his work, and knew the tailors' slang and habits, down to the
particular whistle and cry which in France tells so much to those of a trade.
At this blacksmith's, as at most other solitary houses far away from a town,
there was not only a store of men's clothes laid by as wanting mending when the
housewife could afford time, but there was a natural craving after news from a
distance, such news as a wandering tailor is bound to furnish. The early
November afternoon was closing into evening, as we sat down, she cross-legged
on the great table in the blacksmith's kitchen, drawn close to the window, I
close behind her, sewing at another part of the same garment, and from time to
time well scolded by my seeming husband. All at once she turned round to speak
to me. It was only one word, 'Courage!' I had seen nothing; I sat out of the
light; but I turned sick for an instant, and then I braced myself up into a
strange strength of endurance to go through I knew not what.
The blacksmith's forge was
in a shed beside the house, and fronting the road. I heard the hammers stop
plying their continual rhythmical beat. She had seen why they ceased. A rider
had come up to the forge and dismounted, leading his horse in to be re-shod.
The broad red light of the forge-fire had revealed the face of the rider to
Amante, and she apprehended the consequence that really ensued.
The rider, after some words
with the blacksmith, was ushered in by him into the house-place where we sat.
'Here, good wife, a cup of
wine and some galette for this gentleman.'
'Anything, anything, madame,
that I can eat and drink in my hand while my horse is being shod. I am in
haste, and must get on to Forbach to-night.'
The blacksmith's wife
lighted her lamp; Amante had asked her for it five minutes before. How thankful
we were that she had not more speedily complied with our request! As it was, we
sat in dusk shadow, pretending to stitch away, but scarcely able to see. The
lamp was placed on the stove, near which my husband, for it was he, stood and
warmed himself. By-and-by he turned round, and looked all over the room, taking
us in with about the same degree of interest as the inanimate furniture.
Amante, cross-legged, fronting him, stooped over her work, whistling softly all
the while. He turned again to the stove, impatiently rubbing his hands. He had
finished his wine and galette, and wanted to be off.
'I am in haste, my good
woman. Ask thy husband to get on more quickly. I will pay him double if he
makes haste.'
The woman went out to do his
bidding; and he once more turned round to face us. Amante went on to the second
part of the tune. He took it up, whistled a second for an instant or so, and
then the blacksmith's wife re-entering, he moved towards her, as if to receive
her answer the more speedily.
'One moment, monsieur—only
one moment. There was a nail out of the off-foreshoe which my husband is
replacing; it would delay monsieur again if that shoe also came off.'
'Madame is right,' said he,
'but my haste is urgent. If madame knew my reasons, she would pardon my
impatience. Once a happy husband, now a deserted and betrayed man, I pursue a
wife on whom I lavished all my love, but who has abused my confidence, and fled
from my house, doubtless to some paramour; carrying off with her all the jewels
and money on which she could lay her hands. It is possible madame may have
heard or seen something of her; she was accompanied in her flight by a base,
profligate woman from Paris, whom I, unhappy man, had myself engaged for my
wife's waiting-maid, little dreaming what corruption I was bringing into my
house!'
'Is it possible?' said the
good woman, throwing up her hands.
Amante went on whistling a
little lower, out of respect to the conversation.
'However, I am tracing the
wicked fugitives; I am on their track' (and the handsome, effeminate face
looked as ferocious as any demon's). 'They will not escape me; but every minute
is a minute of misery to me, till I meet my wife. Madame has sympathy, has she
not?'
He drew his face into a
hard, unnatural smile, and then both went out to the forge, as if once more to
hasten the blacksmith over his work.
Amante stopped her whistling
for one instant.
'Go on as you are, without
change of an eyelid even; in a few minutes he will be gone, and it will be
over!'
It was a necessary caution,
for I was on the point of giving way, and throwing myself weakly upon her neck.
We went on; she whistling and stitching, I making semblance to sew. And it was
well we did so; for almost directly he came back for his whip, which he had
laid down and forgotten; and again I felt one of those sharp, quick-scanning
glances, sent all round the room, and taking in all.
Then we heard him ride away;
and then, it had been long too dark to see well, I dropped my work, and gave
way to my trembling and shuddering. The blacksmith's wife returned. She was a
good creature. Amante told her I was cold and weary, and she insisted on my
stopping my work, and going to sit near the stove; hastening, at the same time,
her preparations for supper, which, in honour of us, and of monsieur's liberal
payment, was to be a little less frugal than ordinary. It was well for me that
she made me taste a little of the cider-soup she was preparing, or I could not
have held up, in spite of Amante's warning look, and the remembrance of her
frequent exhortations to act resolutely up to the characters we had assumed,
whatever befell. To cover my agitation, Amante stopped her whistling, and began
to talk; and, by the time the blacksmith came in, she and the good woman of the
house were in full flow. He began at once upon the handsome gentleman, who had
paid him so well; all his sympathy was with him, and both he and his wife only
wished he might overtake his wicked wife, and punish her as she deserved. And
then the conversation took a turn, not uncommon to those whose lives are quiet
and monotonous; every one seemed to vie with each other in telling about some
horror; and the savage and mysterious band of robbers called the Chauffeurs,
who infested all the roads leading to the Rhine, with Schinderhannes at their
head, furnished many a tale which made the very marrow of my bones run cold,
and quenched even Amante's power of talking. Her eyes grew large and wild, her
cheeks blanched, and for once she sought by her looks help from me. The new
call upon me roused me. I rose and said, with their permission my husband and I
would seek our bed, for that we had travelled far and were early risers. I
added that we would get up betimes, and finish our piece of work. The
blacksmith said we should be early birds if we rose before him; and the good
wife seconded my proposal with kindly bustle. One other such story as those
they had been relating, and I do believe Amante would have fainted.
As it was, a night's rest
set her up; we arose and finished our work betimes, and shared the plentiful
breakfast of the family. Then we had to set forth again; only knowing that to
Forbach we must not go, yet believing, as was indeed the case, that Forbach lay
between us and that Germany to which we were directing our course. Two days
more we wandered on, making a round, I suspect, and returning upon the road to
Forbach, a league or two nearer to that town than the blacksmith's house. But
as we never made inquiries I hardly knew where we were, when we came one night
to a small town, with a good large rambling inn in the very centre of the
principal street. We had begun to feel as if there were more safety in towns
than in the loneliness of the country. As we had parted with a ring of mine not
many days before to a travelling jeweller, who was too glad to purchase it far
below its real value to make many inquiries as to how it came into the
possession of a poor working tailor, such as Amante seemed to be, we resolved
to stay at this inn all night, and gather such particulars and information as
we could by which to direct our onward course.
We took our supper in the
darkest corner of the salle-à-manger, having previously bargained for a small
bedroom across the court, and over the stables. We needed food sorely; but we
hurried on our meal from dread of any one entering that public room who might
recognize us. Just in the middle of our meal, the public diligence drove
lumbering up under the porte-cochère, and disgorged its passengers.
Most of them turned into the room where we sat, cowering and fearful, for the
door was opposite to the porter's lodge, and both opened on to the wide-covered
entrance from the street. Among the passengers came in a young, fair-haired
lady, attended by an elderly French maid. The poor young creature tossed her
head, and shrank away from the common room, full of evil smells and promiscuous
company, and demanded, in German French, to be taken to some private apartment.
We heard that she and her maid had come in the coupé, and, probably from pride,
poor young lady! she had avoided all association with her fellow-passengers,
thereby exciting their dislike and ridicule. All these little pieces of hearsay
had a significance to us afterwards, though, at the time, the only remark made
that bore upon the future was Amante's whisper to me that the young lady's hair
was exactly the colour of mine, which she had cut off and burnt in the stove in
the miller's kitchen in one of her descents from our hiding-place in the loft.
As soon as we could, we
struck round in the shadow, leaving the boisterous and merry fellow-passengers
to their supper. We crossed the court, borrowed a lantern from the ostler, and
scrambled up the rude step to our chamber above the stable. There was no door
into it; the entrance was the hole into which the ladder fitted. The window
looked into the court. We were tired and soon fell asleep. I was wakened by a
noise in the stable below. One instant of listening, and I wakened Amante,
placing my hand on her mouth, to prevent any exclamation in her half-roused
state. We heard my husband speaking about his horse to the ostler. It was his
voice. I am sure of it. Amante said so too. We durst not move to rise and
satisfy ourselves. For five minutes or so he went on giving directions. Then he
left the stable, and, softly stealing to our window, we saw him cross the court
and re-enter the inn. We consulted as to what we should do. We feared to excite
remark or suspicion by descending and leaving our chamber, or else immediate
escape was our strongest idea. Then the ostler left the stable, locking the
door on the outside.
'We must try and drop
through the window—if, indeed, it is well to go at all,' said Amante.
With reflection came wisdom.
We should excite suspicion by leaving without paying our bill. We were on foot,
and might easily be pursued. So we sat on our bed's edge, talking and
shivering, while from across the court the laughter rang merrily, and the
company slowly dispersed one by one, their lights flitting past the windows as
they went upstairs and settled each one to his rest.
We crept into our bed,
holding each other tight, and listening to every sound, as if we thought we
were tracked, and might meet our death at any moment. In the dead of night,
just at the profound stillness preceding the turn into another day, we heard a
soft, cautious step crossing the yard. The key into the stable was turned—some
one came into the stable—we felt rather than heard him there. A horse started a
little, and made a restless movement with his feet, then whinnied recognition.
He who had entered made two or three low sounds to the animal, and then led him
into the court. Amante sprang to the window with the noiseless activity of a
cat. She looked out, but dared not speak a word. We heard the great door into
the street open—a pause for mounting, and the horse's footsteps were lost in
distance.
Then Amante came back to me.
'It was he! he is gone!' said she, and once more we lay down, trembling and
shaking.
This time we fell sound
asleep. We slept long and late. We were wakened by many hurrying feet, and many
confused voices; all the world seemed awake and astir. We rose and dressed ourselves,
and coming down we looked around among the crowd collected in the court-yard,
in order to assure ourselves he was not there before we left
the shelter of the stable.
The instant we were seen,
two or three people rushed to us.
'Have you heard?—Do you
know?—That poor young lady—oh, come and see!' and so we were hurried, almost in
spite of ourselves, across the court, and up the great open stairs of the main
building of the inn, into a bed-chamber, where lay the beautiful young German
lady, so full of graceful pride the night before, now white and still in death.
By her stood the French maid, crying and gesticulating.
'Oh, madame! if you had but
suffered me to stay with you! Oh! the baron, what will he say?' and so she went
on. Her state had but just been discovered; it had been supposed that she was
fatigued, and was sleeping late, until a few minutes before. The surgeon of the
town had been sent for, and the landlord of the inn was trying vainly to
enforce order until he came, and, from time to time, drinking little cups of
brandy, and offering them to the guests, who were all assembled there, pretty
much as the servants were doing in the court-yard.
At last the surgeon came.
All fell back, and hung on the words that were to fall from his lips.
'See!' said the landlord.
'This lady came last night by the diligence with her maid. Doubtless, a great
lady, for she must have a private sitting-room—'
'She was Madame the Baroness
de Rœder,' said the French maid.
—'And was difficult to
please in the matter of supper, and a sleeping-room. She went to bed well,
though fatigued. Her maid left her—'
'I begged to be allowed to
sleep in her room, as we were in a strange inn, of the character of which we
knew nothing; but she would not let me, my mistress was such a great lady.'
—'And slept with my
servants,' continued the landlord. 'This morning we thought madame was still
slumbering; but when eight, nine, ten, and near eleven o'clock came, I bade her
maid use my pass-key, and enter her room——'
'The door was not locked,
only closed. And here she was found—dead is she not, monsieur?—with her face
down on her pillow, and her beautiful hair all scattered wild; she never would
let me tie it up, saying it made her head ache. Such hair!' said the
waiting-maid, lifting up a long golden tress, and letting it fall again.
I remembered Amante's words
the night before, and crept close up to her.
Meanwhile, the doctor was
examining the body underneath the bed-clothes, which the landlord, until now,
had not allowed to be disarranged. The surgeon drew out his hand, all bathed
and stained with blood; and holding up a short, sharp knife, with a piece of
paper fastened round it.
'Here has been foul play,'
he said. 'The deceased lady has been murdered. This dagger was aimed straight
at her heart.' Then putting on his spectacles, he read the writing on the
bloody paper, dimmed and horribly obscured as it was:
Numéro Un.
Ainsi les Chauffeurs se vengent.
'Let us go!' said I to
Amante. 'Oh, let us leave this horrible place!'
'Wait a little,' said she.
'Only a few minutes more. It will be better.'
Immediately the voices of
all proclaimed their suspicions of the cavalier who had arrived last the night
before. He had, they said, made so many inquiries about the young lady, whose
supercilious conduct all in the salle-à-manger had been
discussing on his entrance. They were talking about her as we left the room; he
must have come in directly afterwards, and not until he had learnt all about
her, had he spoken of the business which necessitated his departure at dawn of
day, and made his arrangements with both landlord and ostler for the possession
of the keys of the stable and porte-cochère. In short, there was no
doubt as to the murderer, even before the arrival of the legal functionary who
had been sent for by the surgeon; but the word on the paper chilled every one
with terror. Les Chauffeurs, who were they? No one knew, some of the gang might
even then be in the room overhearing, and noting down fresh objects for
vengeance. In Germany, I had heard little of this terrible gang, and I had paid
no greater heed to the stories related once or twice about them in Carlsruhe
than one does to tales about ogres. But here in their very haunts, I learnt the
full amount of the terror they inspired. No one would be legally responsible
for any evidence criminating the murderer. The public prosecutor shrank from
the duties of his office. What do I say? Neither Amante nor I, knowing far more
of the actual guilt of the man who had killed that poor sleeping young lady, durst
breathe a word. We appeared to be wholly ignorant of everything: we, who might
have told so much. But how could we? we were broken down with terrific anxiety
and fatigue, with the knowledge that we, above all, were doomed victims; and
that the blood, heavily dripping from the bed-clothes on to the floor, was
dripping thus out of the poor dead body, because, when living, she had been
mistaken for me.
At length Amante went up to
the landlord, and asked permission to leave his inn, doing all openly and humbly,
so as to excite neither ill-will nor suspicion. Indeed, suspicion was otherwise
directed, and he willingly gave us leave to depart. A few days afterwards we
were across the Rhine, in Germany, making our way towards Frankfort, but still
keeping our disguises, and Amante still working at her trade.
On the way, we met a young
man, a wandering journeyman from Heidelberg. I knew him, although I did not
choose that he should know me. I asked him, as carelessly as I could, how the
old miller was now? He told me he was dead. This realization of the worst
apprehensions caused by his long silence shocked me inexpressibly. It seemed as
though every prop gave way from under me. I had been talking to Amante only
that very day of the safety and comfort of the home that awaited her in my
father's house; of the gratitude which the old man would feel towards her; and
how there, in that peaceful dwelling, far away from the terrible land of
France, she should find ease and security for all the rest of her life. All
this I thought I had to promise, and even yet more had I looked for, for
myself. I looked to the unburdening of my heart and conscience by telling all I
knew to my best and wisest friend. I looked to his love as a sure guidance as
well as a comforting stay, and, behold, he was gone away from me for ever!
I had left the room hastily
on hearing of this sad news from the Heidelberger. Presently, Amante followed.
'Poor madame,' said she,
consoling me to the best of her ability. And then she told me by degrees what
more she had learned respecting my home, about which she knew almost as much as
I did, from my frequent talks on the subject both at Les Rochers and on the
dreary, doleful road we had come along. She had continued the conversation
after I left, by asking about my brother and his wife. Of course, they lived on
at the mill, but the man said (with what truth I know not, but I believed it
firmly at the time) that Babette had completely got the upper hand of my
brother, who only saw through her eyes and heard with her ears. That there had
been much Heidelberg gossip of late days about her sudden intimacy with a grand
French gentleman who had appeared at the mill—a relation, by marriage—married,
in fact, to the miller's sister, who, by all accounts, had behaved abominably
and ungratefully. But that was no reason for Babette's extreme and sudden
intimacy with him, going about everywhere with the French gentleman; and since
he left (as the Heidelberger said he knew for a fact) corresponding with him
constantly. Yet her husband saw no harm in it all, seemingly; though, to be
sure, he was so out of spirits, what with his father's death and the news of
his sister's infamy, that he hardly knew how to hold up his head.
'Now,' said Amante, 'all
this proves that M. de la Tourelle has suspected that you would go back to the
nest in which you were reared, and that he has been there, and found that you
have not yet returned; but probably he still imagines that you will do so, and
has accordingly engaged your sister-in-law as a kind of informant. Madame has
said that her sister-in-law bore her no extreme good-will; and the defamatory
story he has got the start of us in spreading, will not tend to increase the
favour in which your sister-in-law holds you. No doubt the assassin was retracing
his steps when we met him near Forbach, and having heard of the poor German
lady, with her French maid, and her pretty blonde complexion, he followed her.
If madame will still be guided by me—and, my child, I beg of you still to trust
me,' said Amante, breaking out of her respectful formality into the way of
talking more natural to those who had shared and escaped from common
dangers—more natural, too, where the speaker was conscious of a power of
protection which the other did not possess—'we will go on to Frankfort, and
lose ourselves, for a time, at least, in the numbers of people who throng a
great town; and you have told me that Frankfort is a great town. We will still
be husband and wife; we will take a small lodging, and you shall house-keep and
live in-doors. I, as the rougher and the more alert, will continue my father's
trade, and seek work at the tailors' shops.'
I could think of no better
plan, so we followed this out. In a back street at Frankfort we found two
furnished rooms to let on a sixth story. The one we entered had no light from
day; a dingy lamp swung perpetually from the ceiling, and from that, or from
the open door leading into the bedroom beyond, came our only light. The bedroom
was more cheerful, but very small. Such as it was, it almost exceeded our
possible means. The money from the sale of my ring was almost exhausted, and
Amante was a stranger in the place, speaking only French, moreover, and the
good Germans were hating the French people right heartily. However, we succeeded
better than our hopes, and even laid by a little against the time of my
confinement. I never stirred abroad, and saw no one, and Amante's want of
knowledge of German kept her in a state of comparative isolation.
At length my child was
born—my poor worse than fatherless child. It was a girl, as I had prayed for. I
had feared lest a boy might have something of the tiger nature of its father,
but a girl seemed all my own. And yet not all my own, for the faithful Amante's
delight and glory in the babe almost exceeded mine; in outward show it
certainly did.
We had not been able to
afford any attendance beyond what a neighbouring sage-femme could give, and she
came frequently, bringing in with her a little store of gossip, and wonderful
tales culled out of her own experience, every time. One day she began to tell
me about a great lady in whose service her daughter had lived as scullion, or
some such thing. Such a beautiful lady! with such a handsome husband. But grief
comes to the palace as well as to the garret, and why or wherefore no one knew,
but somehow the Baron de Rœder must have incurred the vengeance of the terrible
Chauffeurs; for not many months ago, as madame was going to see her relations
in Alsace, she was stabbed dead as she lay in bed at some hotel on the road.
Had I not seen it in the Gazette? Had I not heard? Why, she had
been told that as far off as Lyons there were placards offering a heavy reward
on the part of the Baron de Rœder for information respecting the murderer of
his wife. But no one could help him, for all who could bear evidence were in
such terror of the Chauffeurs; there were hundreds of them she had been told,
rich and poor, great gentlemen and peasants, all leagued together by most
frightful oaths to hunt to the death any one who bore witness against them; so
that even they who survived the tortures to which the Chauffeurs subjected many
of the people whom they plundered, dared not to recognise them again, would not
dare, even did they see them at the bar of a court of justice; for, if one were
condemned, were there not hundreds sworn to avenge his death?
I told all this to Amante,
and we began to fear that if M. de la Tourelle, or Lefebvre, or any of the gang
at Les Rochers, had seen these placards, they would know that the poor lady
stabbed by the former was the Baroness de Rœder, and that they would set forth
again in search of me.
This fresh apprehension told
on my health and impeded my recovery. We had so little money we could not call
in a physician, at least, not one in established practice. But Amante found out
a young doctor for whom, indeed, she had sometimes worked; and offering to pay
him in kind, she brought him to see me, her sick wife. He was very gentle and
thoughtful, though, like ourselves, very poor. But he gave much time and
consideration to the case, saying once to Amante that he saw my constitution
had experienced some severe shock from which it was probable that my nerves
would never entirely recover. By-and-by I shall name this doctor, and then you
will know, better than I can describe, his character.
I grew strong in
time—stronger, at least. I was able to work a little at home, and to sun myself
and my baby at the garret-window in the roof. It was all the air I dared to
take. I constantly wore the disguise I had first set out with; as constantly
had I renewed the disfiguring dye which changed my hair and complexion. But the
perpetual state of terror in which I had been during the whole months
succeeding my escape from Les Rochers made me loathe the idea of ever again
walking in the open daylight, exposed to the sight and recognition of every
passer-by. In vain Amante reasoned—in vain the doctor urged. Docile in every
other thing, in this I was obstinate. I would not stir out. One day Amante
returned from her work, full of news—some of it good, some such as to cause us
apprehension. The good news was this; the master for whom she worked as
journeyman was going to send her with some others to a great house at the other
side of Frankfort, where there were to be private theatricals, and where many
new dresses and much alteration of old ones would be required. The tailors
employed were all to stay at this house until the day of representation was
over, as it was at some distance from the town, and no one could tell when their
work would be ended. But the pay was to be proportionately good.
The other thing she had to
say was this: she had that day met the travelling jeweller to whom she and I
had sold my ring. It was rather a peculiar one, given to me by my husband; we
had felt at the time that it might be the means of tracing us, but we were
penniless and starving, and what else could we do? She had seen that this
Frenchman had recognised her at the same instant that she did him, and she
thought at the same time that there was a gleam of more than common
intelligence on his face as he did so. This idea had been confirmed by his
following her for some way on the other side of the street; but she had evaded
him with her better knowledge of the town, and the increasing darkness of the
night. Still it was well that she was going to such a distance from our
dwelling on the next day; and she had brought me in a stock of provisions,
begging me to keep within doors, with a strange kind of fearful oblivion of the
fact that I had never set foot beyond the threshold of the house since I had
first entered it—scarce ever ventured down the stairs. But, although my poor,
my dear, very faithful Amante was like one possessed that last night, she spoke
continually of the dead, which is a bad sign for the living. She kissed
you—yes! it was you, my daughter, my darling, whom I bore beneath my bosom away
from the fearful castle of your father—I call him so for the first time, I must
call him so once again before I have done—Amante kissed you, sweet baby,
blessed little comforter, as if she never could leave off. And then she went
away, alive.
Two days, three days passed
away. That third evening I was sitting within my bolted doors—you asleep on
your pillow by my side—when a step came up the stair, and I knew it must be for
me; for ours were the top-most rooms. Some one knocked; I held my very breath.
But some one spoke, and I knew it was the good Doctor Voss. Then I crept to the
door, and answered.
'Are you alone?' asked I.
'Yes,' said he, in a still
lower voice. 'Let me in.' I let him in, and he was as alert as I in bolting and
barring the door. Then he came and whispered to me his doleful tale. He had
come from the hospital in the opposite quarter of the town, the hospital which
he visited; he should have been with me sooner, but he had feared lest he
should be watched. He had come from Amante's death-bed. Her fears of the
jeweller were too well founded. She had left the house where she was employed
that morning, to transact some errand connected with her work in the town; she
must have been followed, and dogged on her way back through solitary
wood-paths, for some of the wood-rangers belonging to the great house had found
her lying there, stabbed to death, but not dead; with the poniard again plunged
through the fatal writing, once more; but this time with the word 'un'
underlined, so as to show that the assassin was aware of his precious mistake.
Numéro Un.
Ainsi les Chauffeurs se vengent.
They had carried her to the
house, and given her restoratives till she had recovered the feeble use of her
speech. But, oh, faithful, dear friend and sister! even then she remembered me,
and refused to tell (what no one else among her fellow workmen knew), where she
lived or with whom. Life was ebbing away fast, and they had no resource but to
carry her to the nearest hospital, where, of course, the fact of her sex was
made known. Fortunately both for her and for me, the doctor in attendance was
the very Doctor Voss whom we already knew. To him, while awaiting her confessor,
she told enough to enable him to understand the position in which I was left;
before the priest had heard half her tale Amante was dead.
Doctor Voss told me he had
made all sorts of détours, and waited thus, late at night, for fear
of being watched and followed. But I do not think he was. At any rate, as I
afterwards learnt from him, the Baron Rœder, on hearing of the similitude of
this murder with that of his wife in every particular, made such a search after
the assassins, that, although they were not discovered, they were compelled to
take to flight for the time.
I can hardly tell you now by
what arguments Dr. Voss, at first merely my benefactor, sparing me a portion of
his small modicum, at length persuaded me to become his wife. His wife he called
it, I called it; for we went through the religious ceremony too much slighted
at the time, and as we were both Lutherans, and M. de la Tourelle had pretended
to be of the reformed religion, a divorce from the latter would have been
easily procurable by German law both ecclesiastical and legal, could we have
summoned so fearful a man into any court.
The good doctor took me and
my child by stealth to his modest dwelling; and there I lived in the same deep
refinement, never seeing the full light of day, although when the dye had once
passed away from my face my husband did not wish me to renew it. There was no
need; my yellow hair was grey, my complexion was ashen-coloured, no creature
could have recognized the fresh-coloured, bright-haired young woman of eighteen
months before. The few people whom I saw knew me only as Madame Voss; a widow
much older than himself, whom Dr. Voss had secretly married. They called me the
Grey Woman.
He made me give you his
surname. Till now you have known no other father—while he lived you needed no
father's love. Once only, only once more, did the old terror come upon me. For
some reason which I forget, I broke through my usual custom, and went to the
window of my room for some purpose, either to shut or to open it. Looking out
into the street for an instant, I was fascinated by the sight of M. de la
Tourelle, gay, young, elegant as ever, walking along on the opposite side of
the street. The noise I had made with the window caused him to look up; he saw
me, an old grey woman, and he did not recognize me! Yet it was not three years
since we had parted, and his eyes were keen and dreadful like those of the
lynx.
I told M. Voss, on his
return home, and he tried to cheer me, but the shock of seeing M. de la
Tourelle had been too terrible for me. I was ill for long months afterwards.
Once again I saw him. Dead.
He and Lefebvre were at last caught; hunted down by the Baron de Rœder in some
of their crimes. Dr. Voss had heard of their arrest; their condemnation, their
death; but he never said a word to me, until one day he bade me show him that I
loved him by my obedience and my trust. He took me a long carriage journey,
where to I know not, for we never spoke of that day again; I was led through a
prison, into a closed court-yard, where, decently draped in the last robes of
death, concealing the marks of decapitation, lay M. de la Tourelle, and two or
three others, whom I had known at Les Rochers.
After that conviction Dr.
Voss tried to persuade me to return to a more natural mode of life, and to go
out more. But although I sometimes complied with his wish, yet the old terror
was ever strong upon me, and he, seeing what an effort it was, gave up urging
me at last.
You know all the rest. How
we both mourned bitterly the loss of that dear husband and father—for such I
will call him ever—and as such you must consider him, my child, after this one
revelation is over.
Why has it been made, you
ask. For this reason, my child. The lover, whom you have only known as M.
Lebrun, a French artist, told me but yesterday his real name, dropped because
the blood-thirsty republicans might consider it as too aristocratic. It is
Maurice de Poissy.
5.CURIOUS, IF TRUE
(Extract from a letter from Richard Whittingham,
Esq.)
You were formerly so much
amused at my pride in my descent from that sister of Calvin's, who married a
Whittingham, Dean of Durham, that I doubt if you will be able to enter into the
regard for my distinguished relation that has led me to France, in order to
examine registers and archives, which, I thought, might enable me to discover
collateral descendants of the great reformer, with whom I might call cousins. I
shall not tell you of my troubles and adventures in this research; you are not
worthy to hear of them; but something so curious befell me one evening last
August, that if I had not been perfectly certain I was wide awake, I might have
taken it for a dream.
For the purpose I have
named, it was necessary that I should make Tours my head-quarters for a time. I
had traced descendants of the Calvin family out of Normandy into the centre of
France; but I found it was necessary to have a kind of permission from the
bishop of the diocese before I could see certain family papers, which had
fallen into the possession of the Church; and, as I had several English friends
at Tours, I awaited the answer to my request to Monseigneur de——, at that town.
I was ready to accept any invitation; but I received very few; and was
sometimes a little at a loss what to do with my evenings. The table
d'hôte was at five o'clock; I did not wish to go to the expense of a
private sitting-room, disliked the dinnery atmosphere of the salle à
manger, could not play either at pool or billiards, and the aspect of my
fellow guests was unprepossessing enough to make me unwilling to enter into
any tête-à-tête gamblings with them. So I usually rose from
table early, and tried to make the most of the remaining light of the August
evenings in walking briskly off to explore the surrounding country; the middle
of the day was too hot for this purpose, and better employed in lounging on a
bench in the Boulevards, lazily listening to the distant band, and noticing
with equal laziness the faces and figures of the women who passed by.
One Thursday evening, the
18th of August it was, I think, I had gone further than usual in my walk, and I
found that it was later than I had imagined when I paused to turn back. I
fancied I could make a round; I had enough notion of the direction in which I
was, to see that by turning up a narrow straight lane to my left I should
shorten my way back to Tours. And so I believe I should have done, could I have
found an outlet at the right place, but field-paths are almost unknown in that
part of France, and my lane, stiff and straight as any street, and marked into
terribly vanishing perspective by the regular row of poplars on each side,
seemed interminable. Of course night came on, and I was in darkness. In England
I might have had a chance of seeing a light in some cottage only a field or two
off, and asking my way from the inhabitants; but here I could see no such
welcome sight; indeed, I believe French peasants go to bed with the summer
daylight, so if there were any habitations in the neighbourhood I never saw
them. At last—I believe I must have walked two hours in the darkness,—I saw the
dusky outline of a wood on one side of the weariful lane, and, impatiently
careless of all forest laws and penalties for trespassers, I made my way to it,
thinking that if the worst came to the worst, I could find some covert—some
shelter where I could lie down and rest, until the morning light gave me a
chance of finding my way back to Tours. But the plantation, on the outskirts of
what appeared to me a dense wood, was of young trees, too closely planted to be
more than slender stems growing up to a good height, with scanty foliage on
their summits. On I went towards the thicker forest, and once there I slackened
my pace, and began to look about me for a good lair. I was as dainty as
Lochiel's grandchild, who made his grandsire indignant at the luxury of his
pillow of snow: this brake was too full of brambles, that felt damp with dew;
there was no hurry, since I had given up all hope of passing the night between
four walls; and I went leisurely groping about, and trusting that there were no
wolves to be poked up out of their summer drowsiness by my stick, when all at
once I saw a château before me, not a quarter of a mile off, at the end of what
seemed to be an ancient avenue (now overgrown and irregular), which I happened
to be crossing, when I looked to my right, and saw the welcome sight. Large,
stately, and dark was its outline against the dusky night-sky; there were
pepper-boxes and tourelles and what-not fantastically going up into the dim
starlight. And more to the purpose still, though I could not see the details of
the building that I was now facing, it was plain enough that there were lights
in many windows, as if some great entertainment was going on.
'They are hospitable people,
at any rate,' thought I. 'Perhaps they will give me a bed. I don't suppose
French propriétaires have traps and horses quite as plentiful as English
gentlemen; but they are evidently having a large party, and some of their
guests may be from Tours, and will give me a cast back to the Lion d'Or. I am
not proud, and I am dog-tired. I am not above hanging on behind, if need be.'
So, putting a little
briskness and spirit into my walk, I went up to the door, which was standing
open, most hospitably, and showing a large lighted hall, all hung round with
spoils of the chase, armour, &c., the details of which I had not time to
notice, for the instant I stood on the threshold a huge porter appeared, in a
strange, old-fashioned dress, a kind of livery which well befitted the general
appearance of the house. He asked me, in French (so curiously pronounced that I
thought I had hit upon a new kind of patois), my name, and whence I came. I
thought he would not be much the wiser, still it was but civil to give it
before I made my request for assistance; so, in reply, I said:
'My name is
Whittingham—Richard Whittingham, an English gentleman, staying at ——.' To my
infinite surprise, a light of pleased intelligence came over the giant's face;
he made me a low bow, and said (still in the same curious dialect) that I was
welcome, that I was long expected.
'Long expected!' What could
the fellow mean? Had I stumbled on a nest of relations by John Calvin's side,
who had heard of my genealogical inquiries, and were gratified and interested
by them? But I was too much pleased to be under shelter for the night to think
it necessary to account for my agreeable reception before I enjoyed it. Just as
he was opening the great heavy battants of the door that led
from the hall to the interior, he turned round and said:
'Apparently Monsieur le
Géanquilleur is not come with you.'
'No! I am all alone; I have
lost my way,'—and I was going on with my explanation, when he, as if quite
indifferent to it, led the way up a great stone staircase, as wide as many
rooms, and having on each landing-place massive iron wickets, in a heavy
framework; these the porter unlocked with the solemn slowness of age. Indeed, a
strange, mysterious awe of the centuries that had passed away since this
château was built, came over me as I waited for the turning of the ponderous
keys in the ancient locks. I could almost have fancied that I heard a mighty
rushing murmur (like the ceaseless sound of a distant sea, ebbing and flowing
for ever and for ever), coming forth from the great vacant galleries that
opened out on each side of the broad staircase, and were to be dimly perceived
in the darkness above us. It was as if the voices of generations of men yet
echoed and eddied in the silent air. It was strange, too, that my friend the
porter going before me, ponderously infirm, with his feeble old hands striving
in vain to keep the tall flambeau he held steadily before him,—strange, I say,
that he was the only domestic I saw in the vast halls and passages, or met with
on the grand staircase. At length we stood before the gilded doors that led
into the saloon where the family—or it might be the company, so great was the
buzz of voices—was assembled. I would have remonstrated when I found he was
going to introduce me, dusty and travel-smeared, in a morning costume that was not
even my best, into this grand salon, with nobody knew how many
ladies and gentlemen assembled; but the obstinate old man was evidently bent
upon taking me straight to his master, and paid no heed to my words.
The doors flew open, and I
was ushered into a saloon curiously full of pale light, which did not culminate
on any spot, nor proceed from any centre, nor flicker with any motion of the
air, but filled every nook and corner, making all things deliciously distinct;
different from our light of gas or candle, as is the difference between a clear
southern atmosphere and that of our misty England.
At the first moment, my
arrival excited no attention, the apartment was so full of people, all intent
on their own conversation. But my friend the porter went up to a handsome lady
of middle age, richly attired in that antique manner which fashion has brought
round again of late years, and, waiting first in an attitude of deep respect
till her attention fell upon him, told her my name and something about me, as far
as I could guess from the gestures of the one and the sudden glance of the eye
of the other.
She immediately came towards
me with the most friendly actions of greeting, even before she had advanced
near enough to speak. Then,—and was it not strange?—her words and accent were
that of the commonest peasant of the country. Yet she herself looked highbred,
and would have been dignified had she been a shade less restless, had her
countenance worn a little less lively and inquisitive expression. I had been poking
a good deal about the old parts of Tours, and had had to understand the dialect
of the people who dwelt in the Marché au Vendredi and similar places, or I
really should not have understood my handsome hostess, as she offered to
present me to her husband, a henpecked, gentlemanly man, who was more quaintly
attired than she in the very extreme of that style of dress. I thought to
myself that in France, as in England, it is the provincials who carry fashion
to such an excess as to become ridiculous.
However, he spoke (still in
the patois) of his pleasure in making my acquaintance, and led me
to a strange uneasy easy-chair, much of a piece with the rest of the furniture,
which might have taken its place without any anachronism by the side of that in
the Hôtel Cluny. Then again began the clatter of French voices, which my
arrival had for an instant interrupted, and I had leisure to look about me.
Opposite to me sat a very sweet-looking lady, who must have been a great beauty
in her youth, I should think, and would be charming in old age, from the
sweetness of her countenance. She was, however, extremely fat, and on seeing
her feet laid up before her on a cushion, I at once perceived that they were so
swollen as to render her incapable of walking, which probably brought on her
excessive embonpoint. Her hands were plump and small, but rather
coarse-grained in texture, not quite so clean as they might have been, and
altogether not so aristocratic-looking as the charming face. Her dress was of
superb black velvet, ermine-trimmed, with diamonds thrown all abroad over it.
Not far from her stood the
least little man I had ever seen; of such admirable proportions no one could
call him a dwarf, because with that word we usually associate something of
deformity; but yet with an elfin look of shrewd, hard, worldly wisdom in his
face that marred the impression which his delicate regular little features
would otherwise have conveyed. Indeed, I do not think he was quite of equal
rank with the rest of the company, for his dress was inappropriate to the
occasion (and he apparently was an invited, while I was an involuntary guest);
and one or two of his gestures and actions were more like the tricks of an
uneducated rustic than anything else. To explain what I mean: his boots had evidently
seen much service, and had been re-topped, re-heeled, re-soled to the extent of
cobbler's powers. Why should he have come in them if they were not his best—his
only pair? And what can be more ungenteel than poverty? Then again he had an
uneasy trick of putting his hand up to his throat, as if he expected to find
something the matter with it; and he had the awkward habit—which I do not think
he could have copied from Dr. Johnson, because most probably he had never heard
of him—of trying always to retrace his steps on the exact boards on which he
had trodden to arrive at any particular part of the room. Besides, to settle
the question, I once heard him addressed as Monsieur Poucet, without any
aristocratic 'de' for a prefix; and nearly every one else in the room was a
marquis, at any rate.
I say, 'nearly every one;'
for some strange people had the entrée; unless, indeed, they were, like me,
benighted. One of the guests I should have taken for a servant, but for the
extraordinary influence he seemed to have over the man I took for his master,
and who never did anything without, apparently, being urged thereto by this
follower. The master, magnificently dressed, but ill at ease in his clothes as
if they had been made for some one else, was a weak-looking, handsome man,
continually sauntering about, and I almost guessed an object of suspicion to
some of the gentlemen present, which, perhaps, drove him on the companionship
of his follower, who was dressed something in the style of an ambassador's
chasseur; yet it was not a chasseur's dress after all; it was something more
thoroughly old-world; boots half way up his ridiculously small legs, which
clattered as he walked along, as if they were too large for his little feet;
and a great quantity of grey fur, as trimming to coat, court mantle, boots,
cap—everything. You know the way in which certain countenances remind you
perpetually of some animal, be it bird or beast! Well, this chasseur (as I will
call him for want of a better name) was exceedingly like the great Tom-cat that
you have seen so often in my chambers, and laughed at almost as often for his
uncanny gravity of demeanour. Grey whiskers has my Tom—grey whiskers had the
chasseur: grey hair overshadows the upper lip of my Tom—grey mustachios hid
that of the chasseur. The pupils of Tom's eyes dilate and contract as I had
thought cats' pupils only could do, until I saw those of the chasseur. To be
sure, canny as Tom is, the chasseur had the advantage in the more intelligent
expression. He seemed to have obtained most complete sway over his master or
patron, whose looks he watched, and whose steps he followed, with a kind of
distrustful interest that puzzled me greatly.
There were several other
groups in the more distant part of the saloon, all of the stately old school,
all grand and noble, I conjectured from their bearing. They seemed perfectly
well acquainted with each other, as if they were in the habit of meeting. But I
was interrupted in my observations by the tiny little gentleman on the opposite
side of the room coming across to take a place beside me. It is no difficult
matter to a Frenchman to slide into conversation, and so gracefully did my
pigmy friend keep up the character of the nation, that we were almost
confidential before ten minutes had elapsed.
Now I was quite aware that
the welcome which all had extended to me, from the porter up to the vivacious
lady and meek lord of the castle, was intended for some other person. But it
required either a degree of moral courage, of which I cannot boast, or the
self-reliance and conversational powers of a bolder and cleverer man than I, to
undeceive people who had fallen into so fortunate a mistake for me. Yet the
little man by my side insinuated himself so much into my confidence, that I had
half a mind to tell him of my exact situation, and to turn him into a friend
and an ally.
'Madame is perceptibly
growing older,' said he, in the midst of my perplexity, glancing at our
hostess.
'Madame is still a very fine
woman,' replied I.
'Now, is it not strange,'
continued he, lowering his voice, 'how women almost invariably praise the
absent, or departed, as if they were angels of light while as for the present,
or the living'—here he shrugged up his little shoulders, and made an expressive
pause. 'Would you believe it! Madame is always praising her late husband to
monsieur's face; till, in fact, we guests are quite perplexed how to look: for,
you know, the late M. de Retz's character was quite notorious,—everybody has
heard of him.' All the world of Touraine, thought I, but I made an assenting
noise.
At this instant, monsieur
our host came up to me, and with a civil look of tender interest (such as some
people put on when they inquire after your mother, about whom they do not care
one straw), asked if I had heard lately how my cat was? 'How my cat was!' What
could the man mean? My cat! Could he mean the tailless Tom, born in the Isle of
Man, and now supposed to be keeping guard against the incursions of rats and
mice into my chambers in London? Tom is, as you know, on pretty good terms with
some of my friends, using their legs for rubbing-posts without scruple, and
highly esteemed by them for his gravity of demeanour, and wise manner of
winking his eyes. But could his fame have reached across the Channel? However,
an answer must be returned to the inquiry, as monsieur's face was bent down to
mine with a look of polite anxiety; so I, in my turn, assumed an expression of
gratitude, and assured him that, to the best of my belief, my cat was in
remarkably good health.
'And the climate agrees with
her?'
'Perfectly,' said I, in a
maze of wonder at this deep solicitude in a tailless cat who had lost one foot
and half an ear in some cruel trap. My host smiled a sweet smile, and,
addressing a few words to my little neighbour, passed on.
'How wearisome those
aristocrats are!' quoth my neighbour, with a slight sneer. 'Monsieur's
conversation rarely extends to more than two sentences to any one. By that time
his faculties are exhausted, and he needs the refreshment of silence. You and I,
monsieur, are, at any rate, indebted to our own wits for our rise in the
world!'
Here again I was bewildered!
As you know, I am rather proud of my descent from families which, if not noble
themselves, are allied to nobility,—and as to my 'rise in the world'—if I had
risen, it would have been rather for balloon-like qualities than for
mother-wit, to being unencumbered with heavy ballast either in my head or my
pockets. However, it was my cue to agree: so I smiled again.
'For my part,' said he, 'if
a man does not stick at trifles, if he knows how to judiciously add to, or
withhold facts, and is not sentimental in his parade of humanity, he is sure to
do well; sure to affix a de or von to his
name, and end his days in comfort. There is an example of what I am saying'—and
he glanced furtively at the weak-looking master of the sharp, intelligent
servant, whom I have called the chasseur.
'Monsieur le Marquis would
never have been anything but a miller's son, if it had not been for the talents
of his servant. Of course you know his antecedents?'
I was going to make some
remarks on the changes in the order of the peerage since the days of Louis
XVI.—going, in fact, to be very sensible and historical—when there was a slight
commotion among the people at the other end of the room. Lacqueys in quaint
liveries must have come in from behind the tapestry, I suppose (for I never saw
them enter, though I sate right opposite to the doors), and were handing about
the slight beverages and slighter viands which are considered sufficient
refreshments, but which looked rather meagre to my hungry appetite. These
footmen were standing solemnly opposite to a lady,—beautiful, splendid as the
dawn, but—sound asleep in a magnificent settee. A gentleman who showed so much
irritation at her ill-timed slumbers, that I think he must have been her
husband, was trying to awaken her with actions not far removed from shakings.
All in vain; she was quite unconscious of his annoyance, or the smiles of the
company, or the automatic solemnity of the waiting footman, or the perplexed
anxiety of monsieur and madame.
My little friend sat down
with a sneer, as if his curiosity was quenched in contempt.
'Moralists would make an
infinity of wise remarks on that scene,' said he. 'In the first place, note the
ridiculous position into which their superstitious reverence for rank and title
puts all these people. Because monsieur is a reigning prince over some minute
principality, the exact situation of which no one has as yet discovered, no one
must venture to take their glass of eau sucré till Madame la Princesse awakens;
and, judging from past experience, those poor lacqueys may have to stand for a
century before that happens. Next—always speaking as a moralist, you will
observe—note how difficult it is to break off bad habits acquired in youth!'
Just then the prince
succeeded, by what means I did not see, in awaking the beautiful sleeper. But
at first she did not remember where she was, and looking up at her husband with
loving eyes, she smiled and said:
'Is it you, my prince?'
But he was too conscious of
the suppressed amusement of the spectators and his own consequent annoyance, to
be reciprocally tender, and turned away with some little French expression,
best rendered into English by 'Pooh, pooh, my dear!'
After I had had a glass of
delicious wine of some unknown quality, my courage was in rather better plight
than before, and I told my cynical little neighbour—whom I must say I was
beginning to dislike—that I had lost my way in the wood, and had arrived at the
château quite by mistake.
He seemed mightily amused at
my story; said that the same thing had happened to himself more than once; and
told me that I had better luck than he had on one of these occasions, when,
from his account, he must have been in considerable danger of his life. He
ended his story by making me admire his boots, which he said he still wore,
patched though they were, and all their excellent quality lost by patching,
because they were of such a first-rate make for long pedestrian excursions.
'Though, indeed,' he wound up by saying, 'the new fashion of railroads would
seem to supersede the necessity for this description of boots.'
When I consulted him as to
whether I ought to make myself known to my host and hostess as a benighted
traveller, instead of the guest whom they had taken me for, he exclaimed, 'By
no means! I hate such squeamish morality.' And he seemed much offended by my
innocent question, as if it seemed by implication to condemn something in
himself. He was offended and silent; and just at this moment I caught the
sweet, attractive eyes of the lady opposite—that lady whom I named at first as
being no longer in the bloom of youth, but as being somewhat infirm about the
feet, which were supported on a raised cushion before her. Her looks seemed to
say, 'Come here, and let us have some conversation together;' and, with a bow
of silent excuse to my little companion, I went across to the lame old lady.
She acknowledged my coming with the prettiest gesture of thanks possible; and,
half apologetically, said, 'It is a little dull to be unable to move about on
such evenings as this; but it is a just punishment to me for my early vanities.
My poor feet, that were by nature so small, are now taking their revenge for my
cruelty in forcing them into such little slippers ... Besides, monsieur,' with
a pleasant smile, 'I thought it was possible you might be weary of the
malicious sayings of your little neighbour. He has not borne the best character
in his youth, and such men are sure to be cynical in their old age.'
'Who is he?' asked I, with
English abruptness.
'His name is Poucet, and his
father was, I believe, a woodcutter, or charcoal burner, or something of the
sort. They do tell sad stories of connivance at murder, ingratitude, and
obtaining money on false pretences—but you will think me as bad as he if I go
on with my slanders. Rather let us admire the lovely lady coming up towards us,
with the roses in her hand—I never see her without roses, they are so closely
connected with her past history, as you are doubtless aware. Ah, beauty!' said
my companion to the lady drawing near to us, 'it is like you to come to me, now
that I can no longer go to you.' Then turning to me, and gracefully drawing me
into the conversation, she said, 'You must know that, although we never met
until we were both married, we have been almost like sisters ever since. There
have been so many points of resemblance in our circumstances, and I think I may
say in our characters. We had each two elder sisters—mine were but half-sisters,
though—who were not so kind to us as they might have been.'
'But have been sorry for it
since,' put in the other lady.
'Since we have married
princes,' continued the same lady, with an arch smile that had nothing of
unkindness in it, 'for we both have married far above our original stations in
life; we are both unpunctual in our habits, and, in consequence of this failing
of ours, we have both had to suffer mortification and pain.'
'And both are charming,'
said a whisper close behind me. 'My lord the marquis, say it—say, "And
both are charming."'
'And both are charming,' was
spoken aloud by another voice. I turned, and saw the wily cat-like chasseur,
prompting his master to make civil speeches.
The ladies bowed with that
kind of haughty acknowledgement which shows that compliments from such a source
are distasteful. But our trio of conversation was broken up, and I was sorry
for it. The marquis looked as if he had been stirred up to make that one
speech, and hoped that he would not be expected to say more; while behind him
stood the chasseur, half impertinent and half servile in his ways and
attitudes. The ladies, who were real ladies, seemed to be sorry for the
awkwardness of the marquis, and addressed some trifling questions to him,
adapting themselves to the subjects on which he could have no trouble in
answering. The chasseur, meanwhile, was talking to himself in a growling tone
of voice. I had fallen a little into the background at this interruption in a
conversation which promised to be so pleasant, and I could not help hearing his
words.
'Really, De Carabas grows
more stupid every day. I have a great mind to throw off his boots, and leave
him to his fate. I was intended for a court, and to a court I will go, and make
my own fortune as I have made his. The emperor will appreciate my talents.'
And such are the habits of
the French, or such his forgetfulness of good manners in his anger, that he
spat right and left on the parquetted floor.
Just then a very ugly, very
pleasant-looking man, came towards the two ladies to whom I had lately been
speaking, leading up to them a delicate, fair woman, dressed all in the softest
white, as if she were vouée au blanc. I do not think there was a
bit of colour about her. I thought I heard her making, as she came along, a
little noise of pleasure, not exactly like the singing of a tea-kettle, nor yet
like the cooing of a dove, but reminding me of each sound.
'Madame de Mioumiou was
anxious to see you,' said he, addressing the lady with the roses, 'so I have
brought her across to give you a pleasure!' What an honest, good face! but oh!
how ugly! And yet I liked his ugliness better than most persons' beauty. There
was a look of pathetic acknowledgement of his ugliness, and a deprecation of
your too hasty judgement, in his countenance that was positively winning. The
soft, white lady kept glancing at my neighbour the chasseur, as if they had had
some former acquaintance, which puzzled me very much, as they were of such
different rank. However, their nerves were evidently strung to the same tune,
for at a sound behind the tapestry, which was more like the scuttering of rats
and mice than anything else, both Madame de Mioumiou and the chasseur started
with the most eager look of anxiety on their countenances, and by their
restless movements—madame's panting, and the fiery dilation of his eyes—one
might see that commonplace sounds affected them both in a manner very different
to the rest of the company. The ugly husband of the lovely lady with the roses
now addressed himself to me.
'We are much disappointed,'
he said, 'in finding that monsieur is not accompanied by his countryman—le
grand Jean d'Angleterre; I cannot pronounce his name rightly'—and he looked at
me to help him out.
'Le grand Jean
d'Angleterre!' now who was le grand Jean d'Angleterre? John Bull? John Russell?
John Bright?
'Jean—Jean'—continued the
gentleman, seeing my embarrassment. 'Ah, these terrible English
names—"Jean de Géanquilleur!"'
I was as wise as ever. And
yet the name struck me as familiar, but slightly disguised. I repeated it to
myself. It was mighty like John the Giant-killer, only his friends always call
that worthy 'Jack'. I said the name aloud.
'Ah, that is it!' said he.
'But why has he not accompanied you to our little reunion to-night?'
I had been rather puzzled
once or twice before, but this serious question added considerably to my
perplexity. Jack the Giant-killer had once, it is true, been rather an intimate
friend of mine, as far as (printer's) ink and paper can keep up a friendship, but
I had not heard his name mentioned for years; and for aught I knew he lay
enchanted with King Arthur's knights, who lie entranced until the blast of the
trumpets of four mighty kings shall call them to help at England's need. But
the question had been asked in serious earnest by that gentleman, whom I more
wished to think well of me than I did any other person in the room. So I
answered respectfully that it was long since I had heard anything of my
countryman; but that I was sure it would have given him as much pleasure as it
was doing myself to have been present at such an agreeable gathering of
friends. He bowed, and then the lame lady took up the word.
'To-night is the night when,
of all the year, this great old forest surrounding the castle is said to be
haunted by the phantom of a little peasant girl who once lived hereabouts; the
tradition is that she was devoured by a wolf. In former days I have seen her on
this night out of yonder window at the end of the gallery. Will you, ma belle,
take monsieur to see the view outside by the moonlight (you may possibly see
the phantom-child); and leave me to a little tête-à-tête with
your husband?'
With a gentle movement the
lady with the roses complied with the other's request, and we went to a great
window, looking down on the forest, in which I had lost my way. The tops of the
far-spreading and leafy trees lay motionless beneath us in the pale, wan light,
which shows objects almost as distinct in form, though not in colour, as by
day. We looked down on the countless avenues, which seemed to converge from all
quarters to the great old castle; and suddenly across one, quite near to us,
there passed the figure of a little girl, with the 'capuchon' on, that takes
the place of a peasant girl's bonnet in France. She had a basket on one arm,
and by her, on the side to which her head was turned, there went a wolf. I
could almost have said it was licking her hand, as if in penitent love, if
either penitence or love had ever been a quality of wolves,—but though not of
living, perhaps it may be of phantom wolves.
'There, we have seen her!'
exclaimed my beautiful companion. 'Though so long dead, her simple story of
household goodness and trustful simplicity still lingers in the hearts of all
who have ever heard of her; and the country-people about here say that seeing
that phantom-child on this anniversary brings good luck for the year. Let us
hope that we shall share in the traditionary good fortune. Ah! here is Madame
de Retz—she retains the name of her first husband, you know, as he was of
higher rank than the present.' We were joined by our hostess.
'If monsieur is fond of the
beauties of nature and art,' said she, perceiving that I had been looking at
the view from the great window, 'he will perhaps take pleasure in seeing the
picture.' Here she sighed, with a little affectation of grief. 'You know the
picture I allude to,' addressing my companion, who bowed assent, and smiled a
little maliciously, as I followed the lead of madame.
I went after her to the
other end of the saloon, noting by the way with what keen curiosity she caught
up what was passing either in word or action on each side of her. When we stood
opposite to the end wall, I perceived a full-length picture of a handsome,
peculiar-looking man, with—in spite of his good looks—a very fierce and
scowling expression. My hostess clasped her hands together as her arms hung
down in front, and sighed once more. Then, half in soliloquy, she said:
'He was the love of my
youth; his stern yet manly character first touched this heart of mine.
When—when shall I cease to deplore his loss!'
Not being acquainted with
her enough to answer this question (if, indeed, it were not sufficiently
answered by the fact of her second marriage), I felt awkward; and, by way of
saying something, I remarked:
'The countenance strikes me
as resembling something I have seen before—in an engraving from an historical
picture, I think; only, it is there the principal figure in a group: he is
holding a lady by her hair, and threatening her with his scimitar, while two
cavaliers are rushing up the stairs, apparently only just in time to save her
life.'
'Alas, alas!' said she, 'you
too accurately describe a miserable passage in my life, which has often been
represented in a false light. The best of husbands'—here she sobbed, and became
slightly inarticulate with her grief—'will sometimes be displeased. I was young
and curious, he was justly angry with my disobedience—my brothers were too
hasty—the consequence is, I became a widow!'
After due respect for her tears,
I ventured to suggest some commonplace consolation. She turned round sharply:—
'No, monsieur: my only
comfort is that I have never forgiven the brothers who interfered so cruelly,
in such an uncalled-for manner, between my dear husband and myself. To quote my
friend Monsieur Sganarelle—"Ce sont petites choses qui sont de temps en
temps nécessaires dans l'amitié; et cinq ou six coups d'épée entre gens qui
s'aiment ne font que ragaillardir l'affection." You observe the colouring
is not quite what it should be?'
'In this light the beard is
of rather a peculiar tint,' said I.
'Yes: the painter did not do
it justice. It was most lovely, and gave him such a distinguished air, quite
different from the common herd. Stay, I will show you the exact colour, if you
will come near this flambeau!' And going near the light, she took off a
bracelet of hair, with a magnificent clasp of pearls. It was peculiar,
certainly. I did not know what to say. 'His precious lovely beard!' said she.
'And the pearls go so well with the delicate blue!'
Her husband, who had come up
to us, and waited till her eye fell upon him before venturing to speak, now
said, 'It is strange Monsieur Ogre is not yet arrived!'
'Not at all strange,' said
she, tartly. 'He was always very stupid, and constantly falls into mistakes, in
which he comes worse off; and it is very well he does, for he is credulous and
cowardly fellow. Not at all strange! If you will'—turning to her husband, so
that I hardly heard her words, until I caught—'Then everybody would have their
rights, and we should have no more trouble. Is it not, monsieur?' addressing
me.
'If I were in England, I
should imagine madame was speaking of the reform bill, or the millennium,—but I
am in ignorance.'
And just as I spoke, the
great folding-doors were thrown open wide, and every one started to their feet
to greet a little old lady, leaning on a thin black wand—and—
'Madame la Féemarraine,' was
announced by a chorus of sweet shrill voices.
And in a moment I was lying
in the grass close by a hollow oak-tree, with the slanting glory of the dawning
day shining full in my face, and thousands of little birds and delicate insects
piping and warbling out their welcome to the ruddy splendour.
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