THE NINTH VIBRATION AND
OTHER STORIES
by L Adams Beck
contents: 1.The Ninth Vibration
2.The Interpreter A Romance of the East
3.The Incomparable Lady
4.The Harted of The Queen
5.Fire of Beauty
6.The Building of The Taj Mahal
7.”How Great is the Glory of Kwannoni!”
8.The Round-Face Beauty
1.THE NINTH VIBRATION
There is a place uplifted nine thousand feet in purest air where one of the most ancient tracks in the world runs from India into Tibet. It leaves Simla of the Imperial councils by a stately road; it passes beyond, but now narrowing, climbing higher beside the khuds or steep drops to the precipitous valleys beneath, and the rumor of Simla grows distant and the way is quiet, for, owing to the danger of driving horses above the khuds, such baggage as you own must be carried by coolies, and you yourself must either ride on horseback or in the little horseless carriage of the Orient, here drawn and pushed by four men. And presently the deodars darken the way with a solemn presence, for—
“These
are the Friars of the wood,
The
Brethren of the Solitude
Hooded
and grave—”
their breath most austerely pure in the gradually chilling air.
Their companies increase and now the way is through a great wood where it has
become a trail and no more, and still it climbs for many miles and finally a
rambling bungalow, small and low, is sighted in the deeps of the trees, a
mountain stream from unknown heights falling beside it. And this is known as
the House in the Woods. Very few people are permitted to go there, for the
owner has no care for money and makes no provision for guests. You must take
your own servant and the khansamah will cook you such simple food as men expect
in the wilds, and that is all. You stay as long as you please and when you
leave not even a gift to the khansamah is permitted.
I had been staying in Ranipur of the plains while I considered the
question of getting to Upper Kashmir by the route from Simla along the old way
to Chinese Tibet where I would touch Shipki in the Dalai Lama’s territory and
then pass on to Zanskar and so down to Kashmir—a tremendous route through the
Himalaya and a crowning experience of the mightiest mountain scenery in the
world. I was at Ranipur for the purpose of consulting my old friend Olesen, now
an irrigation official in the Rampur district—a man who had made this journey
and nearly lost his life in doing it. It is not now perhaps so dangerous as it
was, and my life was of no particular value to any one but myself, and the plan
interested me.
I pass over the long discussions of ways and means in the blinding
heat of Ranipur. Olesen put all his knowledge at my service and never uttered a
word of the envy that must have filled him as he looked at the distant snows
cool and luminous in blue air, and, shrugging good-natured shoulders, spoke of
the work that lay before him on the burning plains until the terrible summer
should drag itself to a close. We had vanquished the details and were smoking
in comparative silence one night on the veranda, when he said in his slow
reflective way;
“You don’t like the average hotel, Ormond, and you’ll like it
still less up Simla way with all the Simla crowd of grass-widows and fellows
out for as good a time as they can cram into the hot weather. I wonder if I
could get you a permit for The House in the Woods while you re waiting to fix
up your men and route for Shipki.”
He explained and of course I jumped at the chance. It belonged, he
said, to a man named Rup Singh, a pandit, or learned man of Ranipur. He had
always spent the summer there, but age and failing health made this impossible
now, and under certain conditions he would occasionally allow people known to
friends of his own to put up there.
“And Rup Singh and I are very good friends,” Olesen said; “I won
his heart by discovering the lost Sukh Mandir, or Hall of Pleasure, built many
centuries ago by a Maharao of Ranipur for a summer retreat in the great woods
far beyond Simla. There are lots of legends about it here in Ranipur. They call
it The House of Beauty. Rup Singh’s ancestor had been a close friend of the
Maharao and was with him to the end, and that’s why he himself sets such store
on the place. You have a good chance if I ask for a permit.
“He told me the story and since it is the heart of my own I give
it briefly. Many centuries ago the Ranipur Kingdom was ruled by the Maharao Rai
Singh a prince of the great lunar house of the Rajputs. Expecting a bride from
some far away kingdom (the name of this is unrecorded) he built the Hall of Pleasure
as a summer palace, a house of rare and costly beauty. A certain great chamber
he lined with carved figures of the Gods and their stories, almost unsurpassed
for truth and life. So, with the pine trees whispering about it the secret they
sigh to tell, he hoped to create an earthly Paradise with this Queen in whom
all loveliness was perfected. And then some mysterious tragedy ended all his
hopes. It was rumoured that when the Princess came to his court, she was, by
some terrible mistake, received with insult and offered the position only of
one of his women. After that nothing was known. Certain only is it that he fled
to the hills, to the home of his broken hope, and there ended his days in
solitude, save for the attendance of two faithful friends who would not abandon
him even in the ghostly quiet of the winter when the pine boughs were heavy
with snow and a spectral moon stared at the panthers shuffling through the
white wastes beneath. Of these two Rup Singh’s ancestor was one. And in his
thirty fifth year the Maharao died and his beauty and strength passed into
legend and his kingdom was taken by another and the jungle crept silently over
his Hall of Pleasure and the story ended.
“There was not a memory of the place up there,” Olesen went on.
“Certainly I never heard anything of it when I went up to the Shipki in 1904.
But I had been able to be useful to Rup Singh and he gave me a permit for The
House in the Woods, and I stopped there for a few days’ shooting. I remember
that day so well. I was wandering in the dense woods while my men got their
midday grub, and I missed the trail somehow and found myself in a part where
the trees were dark and thick and the silence heavy as lead. It was as if the
trees were on guard—they stood shoulder to shoulder and stopped the way. Well,
I halted, and had a notion there was something beyond that made me doubt
whether to go on. I must have stood there five minutes hesitating. Then I
pushed on, bruising the thick ferns under my shooting boots and stooping under
the knotted boughs. Suddenly I tramped out of the jungle into a clearing, and
lo and behold a ruined House, with blocks of marble lying all about it, and
carved pillars and a great roof all being slowly smothered by the jungle. The
weirdest thing you ever saw. I climbed some fallen columns to get a better
look, and as I did I saw a face flash by at the arch of a broken window. I sang
out in Hindustani, but no answer: only the echo from the woods. Somehow that
dampened my ardour, and I didn’t go in to what seemed like a great ruined hall
for the place was so eerie and lonely, and looked mighty snaky into the
bargain. So I came ingloriously away and told Rup Singh. And his whole face
changed. ‘That is The House of Beauty,’ he said. ‘All my life have I sought it
and in vain. For, friend of my soul, a man must lose himself that he may find
himself and what lies beyond, and the trodden path has ever been my doom. And
you who have not sought have seen. Most strange are the way of the Gods’. Later
on I knew this was why he had always gone up yearly, thinking and dreaming God
knows what. He and I tried for the place together, but in vain and the whole
thing is like a dream. Twice he has let friends of mine stay at The House in
the Woods, and I think he won’t refuse now.”
“Did he ever tell you the story?”
“Never. I only know what I’ve picked up here. Some horrible
mistake about the Rani that drove the man almost mad with remorse. I’ve heard
bits here and there. There’s nothing so vital as tradition in India.”
“I wonder’. what really happened.”
“That we shall never know. I got a little old picture of the
Maharao—said to be painted by a Pahari artist. It’s not likely to be authentic,
but you never can tell. A Brahman sold it to me that he might complete his
daughter’s dowry, and hated doing it.”
“May I see it?”
“Why certainly. Not a very good light, but—can do,” as the Chinks
say.
He brought it out rolled in silk stuff and I carried it under the
hanging lamp. A beautiful young man indeed, with the air of race these people
have beyond all others;—a cold haughty face, immovably dignified. He sat with
his hands resting lightly on the arms of his chair of State. A crescent of
rubies clasped the folds of the turban and from this sprang an aigrette
scattering splendours. The magnificent hilt of a sword was ready beside him.
The face was not only beautiful but arresting.
“A strange picture,” I said. “The artist has captured the man
himself. I can see him trampling on any one who opposed him, and suffering in
the same cold secret way. It ought to be authentic if it isn’t. Don’t you know
any more?”
“Nothing. Well—to bed, and tomorrow I’ll see Rup Singh.”
I was glad when he returned with the permission. I was to be very
careful, he said, to make no allusion to the lost palace, for two women were
staying at the House in the Woods—a mother and daughter to whom Rup Singh had
granted hospitality because of an obligation he must honor. But with true
Oriental distrust of women he had thought fit to make no confidence to them. I
promised and asked Olesen if he knew them.
“Slightly. Canadians of Danish blood like my own. Their name is
Ingmar. Some people think the daughter good-looking. The mother is supposed to
be clever; keen on occult subjects which she came back to India to study. The
husband was a great naturalist and the kindest of men. He almost lived in the
jungle and the natives had all sorts of rumours about his powers. You know what
they are. They said the birds and beasts followed him about. Any old thing
starts a legend.”
“What was the connection with Rup Singh?”
“He was in difficulties and undeservedly, and Ingmar generously
lent him money at a critical time, trusting to his honour for repayment. Like
most Orientals he never forgets a good turn and would do anything for any of
the family—except trust the women with any secret he valued. The father is long
dead. By the way Rup Singh gave me a queer message for you. He said; ‘Tell the
Sahib these words—“Let him who finds water in the desert share his cup with him
who dies of thirst.” He is certainly getting very old. I don’t suppose he knew
himself what he meant.”
I certainly did not. However my way was thus smoothed for me and I
took the upward road, leaving Olesen to the long ungrateful toil of the man who
devotes his life to India without sufficient time or knowledge to make his way
to the inner chambers of her beauty. There is no harder mistress unless you
hold the pass-key to her mysteries, there is none of whom so little can be told
in words but who kindles so deep a passion. Necessity sometimes takes me from
that enchanted land, but when the latest dawns are shining in my skies I shall
make my feeble way back to her and die at her worshipped feet. So I went up
from Kalka.
I have never liked Simla. It is beautiful enough—eight thousand feet
up in the grip of the great hills looking toward the snows, the famous summer
home of the Indian Government. Much diplomacy is whispered on Observatory Hill
and many are the lighter diversions of which Mr. Kipling and lesser men have
written. But Simla is also a gateway to many things—to the mighty deodar
forests that clothe the foot-hills of the mountains, to Kulu, to the eternal
snows, to the old, old bridle way that leads up to the Shipki Pass and the
mysteries of Tibet—and to the strange things told in this story. So I passed
through with scarcely a glance at the busy gayety of the little streets and the
tiny shops where the pretty ladies buy their rouge and powder. I was attended
by my servant Ali Khan, a Mohammedan from Nagpur, sent up with me by Olesen
with strong recommendation. He was a stout walker, so too am I, and an
inveterate dislike to the man-drawn carriage whenever my own legs would serve
me decided me to walk the sixteen miles to the House in the Woods, sending on
the baggage. Ali Khan despatched it and prepared to follow me, the fine cool
air of the hills giving us a zest.
“Subhan Alla! (Praise be to God!) the air is sweet!” he said,
stepping out behind me. “What time does the Sahib look to reach the House?”
“About five or six. Now, Ali Khan, strike out of the road. You
know the way.”
So we struck up into the glorious pine woods, mountains all about
us. Here and there as we climbed higher was a little bank of forgotten snow,
but spring had triumphed and everywhere was the waving grace of maiden-hair
ferns, banks of violets and strangely beautiful little wild flowers. These
woods are full of panthers, but in day time the only precaution necessary is to
take no dog,—a dainty they cannot resist. The air was exquisite with the
sun-warm scent of pines, and here and there the trees broke away disclosing
mighty ranges of hills covered with rich blue shadows like the bloom on a
plum,—the clouds chasing the sunshine over the mountain sides and the dark
green velvet of the robe of pines. I looked across ravines that did not seem
gigantic and yet the villages on the other side were like a handful of peas, so
tremendous was the scale. I stood now and then to see the rhododendrons, forest
trees here with great trunks and massive boughs glowing with blood-red blossom,
and time went by and I took no count of it, so glorious was the climb.
It must have been hours later when it struck me that the sun was
getting low and that by now we should be nearing The House in the Woods. I said
as much to Ali Khan. He looked perplexed and agreed. We had reached a
comparatively level place, the trail faint but apparent, and it surprised me
that we heard no sound of life from the dense wood where our goal must be.
“I know not, Presence,” he said. “May his face be blackened that
directed me. I thought surely I could not miss the way, and yet-”
We cast back and could see no trail forking from the one we were
on. There was nothing for it but to trust to luck and push on. But I began to
be uneasy and so was the man. I had stupidly forgotten to unpack my revolver,
and worse, we had no food, and the mountain air is an appetiser, and at night
the woods have their dangers, apart from being absolutely trackless. We had not
met a living being since we left the road and there seemed no likelihood of
asking for directions. I stopped no longer for views but went steadily on, Ali
Khan keeping up a running fire of low-voiced invocations and lamentations. And
now it was dusk and the position decidedly unpleasant.
It was at that moment I saw a woman before us walking lightly and
steadily under the pines. She must have struck into the trail from the side for
she never could have kept before us all the way. A native woman, but wearing
the all-concealing boorka, more like a town dweller than a woman of the hills.
I put on speed and Ali Khan, now very tired, toiled on behind me as I came up
with her and courteously asked the way. Her face was entirely hidden, but the
answering voice was clear and sweet. I made up my mind she was young, for it
had the bird-like thrill of youth.
“If the Presence continues to follow this path he will arrive. It
is not far. They wait for him.”
That was all. It left me with a desire to see the veiled face. We
passed on and Ali Khan looked fearfully back.
“Ajaib! (Wonderful!) A strange place to meet one of the
purdah-nashin (veiled women)” he muttered. “What would she be doing up here in
the heights? She walked like a Khanam (khan’s wife) and I saw the gleam of gold
under the boorka.”
I turned with some curiosity as he spoke, and lo! there was no
human being in sight. She had disappeared from the track behind us and it was
impossible to say where. The darkening trees were beginning to hold the dusk
and it seemed unimaginable that a woman should leave the way and take to the dangers
of the woods.
“Puna-i-Khoda—God protect us!” said Ali Khan in a shuddering
whisper. “She was a devil of the wilds. Press on, Sahib. We should not be here
in the dark.”
There was nothing else to do. We made the best speed we could, and
the trees grew more dense and the trail fainter between the close trunks, and
so the night came bewildering with the expectation that we must pass the night
unfed and unarmed in the cold of the heights. They might send out a search
party from The House in the Woods—that was still a hope, if there were no
other. And then, very gradually and wonderfully the moon dawned over the tree
tops and flooded the wood with mysterious silver lights and about her rolled
the majesty of the stars. We pressed on into the heart of the night. From the
dense black depths we emerged at last. An open glade lay before us—the trees
falling back to right and left to disclose—what?
A long low house of marble, unlit, silent, bathed in pale
splendour and shadow. About it stood great deodars, clothed in clouds of the
white blossoming clematis, ghostly and still. Acacias hung motionless trails of
heavily scented bloom as if carved in ivory. It was all silent as death. A
flight of nobly sculptured steps led up to a broad veranda and a wide open door
with darkness behind it. Nothing more.
I forced myself to shout in Hindustani—the cry seeming a brutal
outrage upon the night, and an echo came back numbed in the black woods. I
tried once more and in vain. We stood absorbed also into the silence.
“Ya Alla! it is a house of the dead!” whispered Ali Khan,
shuddering at my shoulder,—and even as the words left his lips I understood
where we were. “It is the Sukh Mandir.” I said. “It is the House of the Maharao
of Ranipur.”
It was impossible to be in Ranipur and hear nothing of the dead
house of the forest and Ali Khan had heard—God only knows what tales. In his
terror all discipline, all the inborn respect of the native forsook him, and
without word or sign he turned and fled along the track, crashing through the
forest blind and mad with fear. It would have been insanity to follow him, and
in India the first rule of life is that the Sahib shows no fear, so I left him
to his fate whatever it might be, believing at the same time that a little
reflection and dread of the lonely forest would bring him to heel quickly.
I stood there and the stillness flowed like water about me. It was
as though I floated upon it—bathed in quiet. My thoughts adjusted themselves.
Possibly it was not the Sukh Mandir. Olesen had spoken of ruin. I could see
none. At least it was shelter from the chill which is always present at these
heights when the sun sets,—and it was beautiful as a house not made with hands.
There was a sense of awe but no fear as I went slowly up the great steps and into
the gloom beyond and so gained the hall.
The moon went with me and from a carven arch filled with marble
tracery rained radiance that revealed and hid. Pillars stood about me,
wonderful with horses ramping forward as in the Siva Temple at Vellore. They appeared
to spring from the pillars into the gloom urged by invisible riders, the effect
barbarously rich and strange—motion arrested, struck dumb in a violent gesture,
and behind them impenetrable darkness. I could not see the end of this hall—for
the moon did not reach it, but looking up I beheld the walls fretted in great
panels into the utmost splendour of sculpture, encircling the stories of the
Gods amid a twining and under-weaving of leaves and flowers. It was more like a
temple than a dwelling. Siva, as Nataraja the Cosmic Dancer, the Rhythm of the
Universe, danced before me, flinging out his arms in the passion of creation.
Kama, the Indian Eros, bore his bow strung with honey-sweet black bees that
typify the heart’s desire. Krishna the Beloved smiled above the herd-maidens
adoring at his feet. Ganesha the Elephant-Headed, sat in massive calm,
wreathing his wise trunk about him. And many more. But all these so far as I
could see tended to one centre panel larger than any, representing two
life-size figures of a dim beauty. At first I could scarcely distinguish one
from the other in the upward-reflected light, and then, even as I stood, the
moving moon revealed the two as if floating in vapor. At once I recognized the
subject—I had seen it already in the ruined temple of Ranipur, though the
details differed. Parvati, the Divine Daughter of the Himalaya, the Emanation
of the mighty mountains, seated upon a throne, listening to a girl who played
on a Pan pipe before her. The goddess sat, her chin leaned upon her hand, her
shoulders slightly inclined in a pose of gentle sweetness, looking down upon
the girl at her feet, absorbed in the music of the hills and lonely places. A
band of jewels, richly wrought, clasped the veil on her brows, and below the
bare bosom a glorious girdle clothed her with loops and strings and tassels of
jewels that fell to her knees—her only garment.
The girl was a lovely image of young womanhood, the proud swell of
the breast tapering to the slim waist and long limbs easily folded as she half
reclined at the divine feet, her lips pressed to the pipe. Its silent music
mysteriously banished fear. The sleep must be sweet indeed that would come
under the guardianship of these two fair creatures—their gracious influence was
dewy in the air. I resolved that I would spend the night beside them. Now with
the march of the moon dim vistas of the walls beyond sprang into being. Strange
mythologies—the incarnations of Vishnu the Preserver, the Pastoral of Krishna
the Beautiful. I promised myself that next day I would sketch some of the
loveliness about me. But the moon was passing on her way—I folded the coat I
carried into a pillow and lay down at the feet of the goddess and her nymph.
Then a moonlit quiet I slept in a dream of peace.
Sleep annihilates time. Was it long or short when I woke like a
man floating up to the surface from tranquil deeps? That I cannot tell, but
once more I possessed myself and every sense was on guard.
My hearing first. Bare feet were coming, falling softly as leaves,
but unmistakable. There was a dim whispering but I could hear no word. I rose
on my elbow and looked down the long hall. Nothing. The moonlight lay in pools
of light and seas of shadow on the floor, and the feet drew nearer. Was I
afraid? I cannot tell, but a deep expectation possessed me as the sound grew
like the rustle of grasses parted in a fluttering breeze, and now a girl came
swiftly up the steps, irradiate in the moonlight, and passing up the hall stood
beside me. I could see her robe, her feet bare from the jungle, but her face
wavered and changed and re-united like the face of a dream woman. I could not
fix it for one moment, yet knew this was the messenger for whom I had waited
all my life—for whom one strange experience, not to be told at present, had
prepared me in early manhood. Words came, and I said:
“Is this a dream?”
“No. We meet in the Ninth Vibration. All here is true.”
“Is a dream never true?”
“Sometimes it is the echo of the Ninth Vibration and therefore a
harmonic of truth. You are awake now. It is the day-time that is the sleep of
the soul. You are in the Lower Perception, wherein the truth behind the veil of
what men call Reality is perceived.”
“Can I ascend?”
“I cannot tell. That is for you, not me.
“What do I perceive tonight?”
“The Present as it is in the Eternal. Say no more. Come with me.”
She stretched her hand and took mine with the assurance of a
goddess, and we went up the hall where the night had been deepest between the
great pillars.
Now it is very clear to me that in every land men, when the doors
of perception are opened, will see what we call the Supernatural clothed in the
image in which that country has accepted it. Blake, the mighty mystic, will see
the Angels of the Revelation, driving their terrible way above Lambeth—it is
not common nor unclean. The fisherman, plying his coracle on the Thames will
behold the consecration of the great new Abbey of Westminster celebrated with
mass and chant and awful lights in the dead mid-noon of night by that Apostle
who is the Rock of the Church. Before him who wanders in Thessaly Pan will
brush the dewy lawns and slim-girt Artemis pursue the flying hart. In the pale
gold of Egyptian sands the heavy brows of Osiris crowned with the pshent will
brood above the seer and the veil of Isis tremble to the lifting. For all this
is the rhythm to which the souls of men are attuned and in that vibration they
will see, and no other, since in this the very mountains and trees of the land
are rooted. So here, where our remote ancestors worshipped the Gods of Nature,
we must needs stand before the Mystic Mother of India, the divine daughter of
the Himalaya.
How shall I describe the world we entered? The carvings upon the
walls had taken life—they had descended. It was a gathering of the dreams men
have dreamed here of the Gods, yet most real and actual. They watched in a
serenity that set them apart in an atmosphere of their own—forms of indistinct
majesty and august beauty, absolute, simple, and everlasting. I saw them as one
sees reflections in rippled water—no more. But all faces turned to the place
where now a green and flowering leafage enshrined and partly hid the living
Nature Goddess, as she listened to a voice that was not dumb to me. I saw her
face only in glimpses of an indescribable sweetness, but an influence came from
her presence like the scent of rainy pine forests, the coolness that breathes
from great rivers, the passion of Spring when she breaks on the world with a
wave of flowers. Healing and life flowed from it. Understanding also. It seemed
I could interpret the very silence of the trees outside into the expression of
their inner life, the running of the green life-blood in their veins, the
delicate trembling of their finger-tips.
My companion and I were not heeded. We stood hand in hand like
children who have innocently strayed into a palace, gazing in wonderment. The
august life went its way upon its own occasions, and, if we would, we might
watch. Then the voice, clear and cold, proceeding, as it were, with some story
begun before we had strayed into the Presence, the whole assembly listening in
silence.
“—and as it has been so it will be, for the Law will have the
blind soul carried into a body which is a record of the sins it has committed,
and will not suffer that soul to escape from rebirth into bodies until it has
seen the truth—”
And even as this was said and I listened, knowing myself on the
verge of some great knowledge, I felt sleep beginning to weigh upon my eyelids.
The sound blurred, flowed unsyllabled as a stream, the girl’s hand grew light
in mine; she was fading, becoming unreal; I saw her eyes like faint stars in a
mist. They were gone. Arms seemed to receive me—to lay me to sleep and I sank
below consciousness, and the night took me.
When I awoke the radiant arrows of the morning were shooting into
the long hall where I lay, but as I rose and looked about me, strange—most
strange, ruin encircled me everywhere. The blue sky was the roof. What I had
thought a palace lost in the jungle, fit to receive its King should he enter,
was now a broken hall of State; the shattered pillars were festooned with
waving weeds, the many coloured lantana grew between the fallen blocks of
marble. Even the sculptures on the walls were difficult to decipher. Faintly I
could trace a hand, a foot, the orb of a woman’s bosom, the gracious outline of
some young God, standing above a crouching worshipper. No more. Yes, and now I
saw above me as the dawn touched it the form of the Dweller in the Windhya
Hills, Parvati the Beautiful, leaning softly over something breathing music at
her feet. Yet I knew I could trace the almost obliterated sculpture only
because I had already seen it defined in perfect beauty. A deep crack ran
across the marble; it was weathered and stained by many rains, and little ferns
grew in the crevices, but I could reconstruct every line from my own knowledge.
And how? The Parvati of Ranipur differed in many important details. She stood,
bending forward, wheras this sweet Lady sat. Her attendants were small
satyr-like spirits of the wilds, piping and fluting, in place of the reclining
maiden. The sweeping scrolls of a great halo encircled her whole person. Then
how could I tell what this nearly obliterated carving had been? I groped for
the answer and could not find it. I doubted—
“Were
such things here as we do speak about?
Or have
we eaten of the insane root
That
takes the reason captive?”
Memory rushed over me like the sea over dry sands. A girl—there
had been a girl—we had stood with clasped hands to hear a strange music, but in
spite of the spiritual intimacy of those moments I could not recall her face. I
saw it cloudy against a background of night and dream, the eyes remote as
stars, and so it eluded me. Only her presence and her words survived; “We meet
in the Ninth Vibration. All here is true.” But the Ninth Vibration itself was
dream-land. I had never heard the phrase—I could not tell what was meant, nor
whether my apprehension was true or false. I knew only that the night had taken
her and the dawn denied her, and that, dream or no dream, I stood there with a
pang of loss that even now leaves me wordless.
A bird sang outside in the acacias, clear and shrill for day, and
this awakened my senses and lowered me to the plane where I became aware of
cold and hunger, and was chilled with dew. I passed down the tumbled steps that
had been a stately ascent the night before and made my way into the jungle by
the trail, small and lost in fern, by which we had come. Again I wandered, and
it was high noon before I heard mule bells at a distance, and, thus guided,
struck down through the green tangle to find myself, wearied but safe, upon the
bridle way that leads to Fagu and the far Shipki. Two coolies then directed me
to The House in the Woods.
All was anxiety there. Ali Khan had arrived in the night, having
found his way under the guidance of blind flight and fear. He had brought the
news that I was lost in the jungle and amid the dwellings of demons. It was, of
course, hopeless to search in the dark, though the khansamah and his man had
gone as far as they dared with lanterns and shouting, and with the daylight
they tried again and were even now away. It was useless to reproach the man
even if I had cared to do so. His ready plea was that as far as men were
concerned he was as brave as any (which was true enough as I had reason to know
later) but that when it came to devilry the Twelve Imaums themselves would
think twice before facing it.
“Inshalla ta-Alla! (If the sublime God wills!) this unworthy one
will one day show the Protector of the poor, that he is a respectable person
and no coward, but it is only the Sahibs who laugh in the face of devils.”
He went off to prepare me some food, consumed with curiosity as to
my adventures, and when I had eaten I found my tiny whitewashed cell, for the
room was little more, and slept for hours.
Late in the afternoon I waked and looked out. A low but glowing
sunlight suffused the wild garden reclaimed from the strangle-hold of the
jungle and hemmed in with rocks and forest. A few simple flowers had been
planted here and there, but its chief beauty was a mountain stream, brown and
clear as the eyes of a dog, that fell from a crag above into a rocky basin,
maidenhair ferns growing in such masses about it that it was henceforward
scarcely more than a woodland voice. Beside it two great deodars spread their
canopies, and there a woman sat in a low chair, a girl beside her reading
aloud. She had thrown her hat off and the sunshine turned her massed dark hair
to bronze. That was all I could see. I went out and joined them, taking the
note of introduction which Olesen had given me.
I pass over the unessentials of my story; their friendly greetings
and sympathy for my adventure. It set us at ease at once and I knew my stay
would be the happier for their presence though it is not every woman one would
choose as a companion in the great mountain country. But what is germane to my
purpose must be told, and of this a part is the personality of Brynhild Ingmar.
That she was beautiful I never doubted, though I have heard it disputed and
smiled inwardly as the disputants urged lip and cheek and shades of rose and
lily, weighing and appraising. Let me describe her as I saw her or, rather, as
I can, adding that even without all this she must still have been beautiful
because of the deep significance to those who had eyes to see or feel some
mysterious element which mingled itself with her presence comparable only to
the delight which the power and spiritual essence of Nature inspires in all but
the dullest minds. I know I cannot hope to convey this in words. It means
little if I say I thought of all quiet lovely solitary things when I looked
into her calm eyes,—that when she moved it was like clear springs renewed by
flowing, that she seemed the perfect flowering of a day in June, for these are
phrases. Does Nature know her wonders when she shines in her strength? Does a
woman know the infinite meanings her beauty may have for the beholder? I cannot
tell. Nor can I tell if I saw this girl as she may have seemed to those who
read only the letter of the book and are blind to its spirit, or in the deepest
sense as she really was in the sight of That which created her and of which she
was a part. Surely it is a proof of the divinity of love that in and for a
moment it lifts the veil of so-called reality and shows each to the other
mysteriously perfect and inspiring as the world will never see them, but as
they exist in the Eternal, and in the sight of those who have learnt that the
material is but the dream, and the vision of love the truth.
I will say then, for the alphabet of what I knew but cannot tell,
that she had the low broad brows of a Greek Nature Goddess, the hair swept back
wing-like from the temples and massed with a noble luxuriance. It lay like
rippled bronze, suggesting something strong and serene in its essence. Her eyes
were clear and gray as water, the mouth sweetly curved above a resolute chin.
It was a face which recalled a modelling in marble rather than the charming
pastel and aquarelle of a young woman’s colouring, and somehow I thought of it
less as the beauty of a woman than as some sexless emanation of natural things,
and this impression was strengthened by her height and the long limbs, slender
and strong as those of some youth trained in the pentathlon, subject to the
severest discipline until all that was superfluous was fined away and the
perfect form expressing the true being emerged. The body was thus more
beautiful than the face, and I may note in passing that this is often the case,
because the face is more directly the index of the restless and unhappy soul
within and can attain true beauty only when the soul is in harmony with its
source.
She was a little like her pale and wearied mother. She might
resemble her still more when the sorrow of this world that worketh death should
have had its will of her. I had yet to learn that this would never be—that she
had found the open door of escape.
We three spent much time together in the days that followed. I
never tired of their company and I think they did not tire of mine, for my
wanderings through the world and my studies in the ancient Indian literatures
and faiths with the Pandit Devaswami were of interest to them both though in
entirely different ways. Mrs. Ingmar was a woman who centred all her interests
in books and chiefly in the scientific forms of occult research. She was no
believer in anything outside the range of what she called human experience. The
evidences had convinced her of nothing but a force as yet unclassified in the
scientific categories and all her interest lay in the undeveloped powers of
brain which might be discovered in the course of ignorant and credulous
experiment. We met therefore on the common ground of rejection of the so-called
occultism of the day, though I knew even then, and how infinitely better now,
that her constructions were wholly misleading.
Nearly all day she would lie in her chair under the deodars by the
delicate splash and ripple of the stream. Living imprisoned in the crystal
sphere of the intellect she saw the world outside, painted in few but distinct
colours, small, comprehensible, moving on a logical orbit. I never knew her
posed for an explanation. She had the contented atheism of a certain type of
French mind and found as much ease in it as another kind of sweet woman does in
her rosary and confessional.
“I cannot interest Brynhild,” she said, when I knew her better.
“She has no affinity with science. She is simply a nature worshipper, and in
such places as this she seems to draw life from the inanimate life about her. I
have sometimes wondered whether she might not be developed into a kind of
bridge between the articulate and the inarticulate, so well does she understand
trees and flowers. Her father was like that—he had all sorts of strange power with
animals and plants, and thought he had more than he had. He could never realize
that the energy of nature is merely mechanical.”
“You think all energy is mechanical?”
“Certainly. We shall lay our finger on the mainspring one day and
the mystery will disappear. But as for Brynhild—I gave her the best education
possible and yet she has never understood the conception of a universe moving
on mathematical laws to which we must submit in body and mind. She has the
oddest ideas. I would not willingly say of a child of mine that she is a
mystic, and yet—”
She shook her head compassionately. But I scarcely heard. My eyes
were fixed on Brynhild, who stood apart, looking steadily out over the snows.
It was a glorious sunset, the west vibrating with gorgeous colour spilt over in
torrents that flooded the sky, Terrible splendours—hues for which we have no
thought—no name. I had not thought of it as music until I saw her face but she
listened as well as saw, and her expression changed as it changes when the pomp
of a great orchestra breaks upon the silence. It flashed to the chords of
blood-red and gold that was burning fire. It softened through the fugue of
woven crimson gold and flame, to the melancholy minor of ashes-of-roses and
paling green, and so through all the dying glories that faded slowly to a
tranquil grey and left the world to the silver melody of one sole star that
dawned above the ineffable heights of the snows. Then she listened as a child
does to a bird, entranced, with a smile like a butterfly on her parted lips. I
never saw such a power of quiet.
She and I were walking next day among the forest ways, the
pine-scented sunshine dappling the dropped frondage. We had been speaking of
her mother. “It is such a misfortune for her,” she said thoughtfully, “that I
am not clever. She should have had a daughter who could have shared her
thoughts. She analyses everything, reasons about everything, and that is quite
out of my reach.”
She moved beside me with her wonderful light step—the poise and
balance of a nymph in the Parthenon frieze.
“How do you see things?”
“See? That is the right word. I see things—I never reason about
them. They are. For her they move like figures in a sum. For me every one of
them is a window through which one may look to what is beyond.”
“To where?”
“To what they really are—not what they seem.”
I looked at her with interest.
“Did you ever hear of the double vision?”
For this is a subject on which the spiritually learned men of
India, like the great mystics of all the faiths, have much to say. I had
listened with bewilderment and doubt to the expositions of my Pandit on this
very head. Her simple words seemed for a moment the echo of his deep and
searching thought. Yet it surely could not be. Impossible.
“Never. What does it mean?” She raised clear unveiled eyes. “You
must forgive me for being so stupid, but it is my mother who is at home with
all these scientific phrases. I know none of them.”
“It means that for some people the material universe—the things we
see with our eyes—is only a mirage, or say, a symbol, which either hides or
shadows forth the eternal truth. And in that sense they see things as they
really are, not as they seem to the rest of us. And whether this is the
statement of a truth or the wildest of dreams, I cannot tell.”
She did not answer for a moment; then said;
“Are there people who believe this—know it?”
“Certainly. There are people who believe that thought is the only
real thing—that the whole universe is thought made visible. That we create with
our thoughts the very body by which we shall re-act on the universe in lives to
be.
“Do you believe it?”
“I don’t know. Do you?”
She paused; looked at me, and then went on:
“You see, I don’t think things out. I only feel. But this cannot
interest you.”
I felt she was eluding the question. She began to interest me more
than any one I had ever known. She had extraordinary power of a sort. Once, in
the woods, where I was reading in so deep a shade that she never saw me, I had
an amazing vision of her. She stood in a glade with the sunlight and shade
about her; she had no hat and a sunbeam turned her hair to pale bronze. A small
bright April shower was falling through the sun, and she stood in pure light
that reflected itself in every leaf and grass-blade. But it was nothing of all this
that arrested me, beautiful as it was. She stood as though life were for the
moment suspended;—then, very softly, she made a low musical sound, infinitely
wooing, from scarcely parted lips, and instantly I saw a bird of azure plumage
flutter down and settle on her shoulder, pluming himself there in happy
security. Again she called softly and another followed the first. Two flew to
her feet, two more to her breast and hand. They caressed her, clung to her,
drew some joyous influence from her presence. She stood in the glittering rain
like Spring with her birds about her—a wonderful sight. Then, raising one hand
gently with the fingers thrown back she uttered a different note, perfectly
sweet and intimate, and the branches parted and a young deer with full bright
eyes fixed on her advanced and pushed a soft muzzle into her hand.
In my astonishment I moved, however slightly, and the picture
broke up. The deer sprang back into the trees, the birds fluttered up in a
hurry of feathers, and she turned calm eyes upon me, as unstartled as if she
had known all the time that I was there.
“You should not have breathed,” she said smiling. “They must have
utter quiet.”
I rose up and joined her.
“It is a marvel. I can scarcely believe my eyes. How do you do
it?”
“My father taught me. They come. How can I tell?”
She turned away and left me. I thought long over this episode. I
recalled words heard in the place of my studies—words I had dismissed without
any care at the moment. “To those who see, nothing is alien. They move in the
same vibration with all that has life, be it in bird or flower. And in the
Uttermost also, for all things are One. For such there is no death.”
That was beyond me still, but I watched her with profound
interest. She recalled also words I had half forgotten—
“There
was nought above me and nought below,
My
childhood had not learnt to know;
For
what are the voices of birds,
Aye,
and of beasts, but words, our words,—
Only so
much more sweet.”
That might have been written of her. And more.
She had found one day in the woods a flower of a sort I had once
seen in the warm damp forests below Darjiling—ivory white and shaped like a
dove in flight. She wore it that evening on her bosom. A week later she wore
what I took to be another.
“You have had luck,” I said; “I never heard of such a thing being
seen so high up, and you have found it twice.”
“No, it is the same.”
“The same? Impossible. You found it more than a week ago.” “I
know. It is ten days. Flowers don’t die when one understands them—not as most
people think.”
Her mother looked up and said fretfully:
“Since she was a child Brynhild has had that odd idea. That flower
is dead and withered. Throw it away, child. It looks hideous.”
Was it glamour? What was it? I saw the flower dewy fresh in her
bosom She smiled and turned away.
It was that very evening she left the veranda where we were
sitting in the subdued light of a little lamp and passed beyond where the ray
cut the darkness. She went down the perspective of trees to the edge of he
clearing and I rose to follow for it seemed absolutely unsafe that she should
be on the verge of the panther-haunted woods alone. Mrs. Ingmar turned a page
of her book serenely;
“She will not like it if you go. I cannot imagine that she should
come to harm. She always goes her own way—light or dark.”
I returned to my seat and watched steadfastly. At first I could
see nothing but as my sight adjusted itself I saw her a long way down the
clearing that opened the snows, and quite certainly also I saw something like a
huge dog detach itself from the woods and bound to her feet. It mingled with
her dark dress and I lost it. Mrs. Ingmar said, seeing my anxiety but nothing
else; “Her father was just the same;—he had no fear of anything that lives. No
doubt some people have that power. I have never seen her attract birds and
beasts as he certainly did, but she is quite as fond of them.”
I could not understand her blindness—what I myself had seen raised
questions I found unanswerable, and her mother saw nothing! Which of us was
right? presently she came back slowly and I ventured no word.
A woodland sorcery, innocent as the dawn, hovered about her. What
was it? Did the mere love of these creatures make a bond between her soul and
theirs, or was the ancient dream true and could she at times move in the same
vibration? I thought of her as a wood-spirit sometimes, an expression herself
of some passion of beauty in Nature, a thought of snows and starry nights and
flowing rivers made visible in flesh. It is surely when seized with the urge of
some primeval yearning which in man is merely sexual that Nature conceives her
fair forms and manifests them, for there is a correspondence that runs through
all creation.
Here I ask myself—Did I love her? In a sense, yes, deeply, but not
in the common reading of the phrase. I have trembled with delight before the
wild and terrible splendour of the Himalayan heights-; low golden moons have
steeped my soul longing, but I did not think of these things as mine in any
narrow sense, nor so desire them. They were Angels of the Evangel of beauty. So
too was she. She had none of the “silken nets and traps of adamant,” she was no
sister of the “girls of mild silver or of furious gold;”—but fair, strong, and
her own, a dweller in the House of Quiet. I did not covet her. I loved her.
Days passed. There came a night when the winds were loosed—no
moon, the stars flickering like blown tapers through driven clouds, the trees
swaying and lamenting.
“There will be rain tomorrow.” Mrs. Ingmar said, as we parted for
the night. I closed my door. Some great cat of the woods was crying harshly
outside my window, the sound receding towards the bridle way. I slept in a
dream of tossing seas and ships labouring among them.
With the sense of a summons I waked—I cannot tell when.
Unmistakable, as if I were called by name. I rose and dressed, and heard
distinctly bare feet passing my door. I opened it noiselessly and looked out
into the little passage way that made for the entry, and saw nothing but pools
of darkness and a dim light from the square of the window at the end. But the
wind had swept the sky clear with its flying bosom and was sleeping now in its
high places and the air was filled with a mild moony radiance and a great
stillness.
Now let me speak with restraint and exactness. I was not afraid
but felt as I imagine a dog feels in the presence of his master, conscious of a
purpose, a will entirely above his own and incomprehensible, yet to be obeyed
without question. I followed my reading of the command, bewildered but docile,
and understanding nothing but that I was called.
The lights were out. The house dead silent; the familiar veranda
ghostly in the night. And now I saw a white figure at the head of the
steps—Brynhild. She turned and looked over her shoulder, her face pale in the
moon, and made the same gesture with which she summoned her birds. I knew her
meaning, for now we were moving in the same rhythm, and followed as she took
the lead. How shall I describe that strange night in the jungle. There were
fire-flies or dancing points of light that recalled them. Perhaps she was only
thinking them—only thinking the moon and the quiet, for we were in the world
where thought is the one reality. But they went with us in a cloud and faintly
lighted our way. There were exquisite wafts of perfume from hidden flowers
breathing their dreams to the night. Here and there a drowsy bird stirred and
chirped from the roof of darkness, a low note of content that greeted her
passing. It was a path intricate and winding and how long we went, and where, I
cannot tell. But at last she stooped and parting the boughs before her we
stepped into an open space, and before us—I knew it—I knew it!—The House of
Beauty.
She paused at the foot of the great marble steps and looked at me.
“We have met here already.”
I did not wonder—I could not. In the Ninth vibration surprise had
ceased to be. Why had I not recognized her before—O dull of heart! That was my
only thought. We walk blindfold through the profound darkness of material
nature, the blinder because we believe we see it. It is only when the doors of
the material are closed that the world appears to man as it exists in the
eternal truth.
“Did you know this?” I asked, trembling before mystery.
“I knew it, because I am awake. You forgot it in the dull sleep
which we call daily life. But we were here and THEY began the story of the King
who made this house. Tonight we shall hear it. It he story of Beauty wandering
through the world and the world received her not. We hear it in this place
because here he agonized for what he knew too late.”
“Was that our only meeting?”
“We meet every night, but you forget when the day brings the sleep
of the soul.—You do not sink deep enough into rest to remember. You float on
the surface where the little bubbles of foolish dream are about you and I
cannot reach you then.”
“How can I compel myself to the deeps?”
“You cannot. It will come. But when you have passed up the bridle
way and beyond the Shipki, stop at Gyumur. There is the Monastery of Tashigong,
and there one will meet you—
“His name?”
“Stephen Clifden. He will tell you what you desire to know.
Continue on then with him to Yarkhand. There in the Ninth Vibration we shall
meet again. It is a long journey but you will be content.”
“Do you certainly know that we shall meet again?”
“When you have learnt, we can meet when we will. He will teach you
the Laya Yoga. You should not linger here in the woods any longer. You should
go on. In three days it will be possible.”
“But how have you learnt—a girl and young?”
“Through a close union with Nature—that is one of the three roads.
But I know little as yet. Now take my hand and come.
“One last question. Is this house ruined and abject as I have seen
it in the daylight, or royal and the house of Gods as we see it now? Which is
truth?”
“In the day you saw it in the empty illusion of blind thought.
Tonight, eternally lovely as in the thought of the man who made it. Nothing
that is beautiful is lost, though in the sight of the unwise it seems to die.
Death is in the eyes we look through—when they are cleansed we see Life only.
Now take my hand and come. Delay no more.”
She caught my hand and we entered the dim magnificence of the
great hall. The moon entered with us.
Instantly I had the feeling of supernatural presence. Yet I only
write this in deference to common use, for it was absolutely natural—more so
than any I have met in the state called daily life. It was a thing in which I
had a part, and if this was supernatural so also was I.
Again I saw the Dark One, the Beloved, the young Krishna, above
the women who loved him. He motioned with his hand as we passed, as though he
waved us smiling on our way. Again the dancers moved in a rhythmic tread to the
feet of the mountain Goddess—again we followed to where she bent to hear. But
now, solemn listening faces crowded in the shadows about her, grave eyes fixed
immovably upon what lay at her feet—a man, submerged in the pure light that
fell from her presence, his dark face stark and fine, lips locked, eyes shut,
arms flung out cross-wise in utter abandonment, like a figure of grief
invisibly crucified upon his shame. I stopped a few feet from him, arrested by
a barrier I could not pass. Was it sleep or death or some mysterious state that
partook of both? Not sleep, for there was no flutter of breath. Not death—no
rigid immobility struck chill into the air. It was the state of subjection
where the spirit set free lies tranced in the mighty influences which surround
us invisibly until we have entered, though but for a moment, the Ninth Vibration.
And now, with these Listeners about us, a clear voice began and
stirred the air with music. I have since been asked in what tongue it spoke and
could only answer that it reached my ears in the words of my childhood, and
that I know whatever that language had been it would so have reached me.
“Great Lady, hear the story of this man’s fall, for it is the
story of man. Be pitiful to the blind eyes and give them light.”
There was long since in Ranipur a mighty King and at his birth the
wise men declared that unless he cast aside all passions that debase the soul,
relinquishing the lower desires for the higher until a Princess laden with
great gifts should come to be his bride, he would experience great and terrible
misfortunes. And his royal parents did what they could to possess him with this
belief, but they died before he reached manhood. Behold him then, a young King
in his palace, surrounded with splendour. How should he withstand the
passionate crying of the flesh or believe that through pleasure comes satiety
and the loss of that in the spirit whereby alone pleasure can be enjoyed? For
his gift was that he could win all hearts. They swarmed round him like hiving
bees and hovered about him like butterflies. Sometimes he brushed them off.
Often he caressed them, and when this happened, each thought proudly “I am the
Royal Favourite. There is none other than me.”
Also the Princess delayed who would be the crest-jewel of the
crown, bringing with her all good and the blessing of the High Gods, and in consequence
of all these things the King took such pleasures as he could, and they were
many, not knowing they darken the inner eye whereby what is royal is known
through disguises.
(Most pitiful to see, beneath the close-shut lids of the man at
the feet of the Dweller in the Heights, tears forced themselves, as though a
corpse dead to all else lived only to anguish. They flowed like blood-drops
upon his face as he lay enduring, and the voice proceeded.) What was the charm
of the King? Was it his stately height and strength? Or his faithless gayety?
Or his voice, deep and soft as the sitar when it sings of love? His women
said—some one thing, some another, but none of these ladies were of royal
blood, and therefore they knew not.
Now one day, the all-privileged jester of the King, said, laughing
harshly:
“Maharaj, you divert yourself. But how if, while we feast and
play, the Far Away Princess glided past and was gone, unknown and unwelcomed?”
And the King replied:
“Fool, content yourself. I shall know my Princess, but she delays
so long that I weary.”
Now in a far away country was a Princess, daughter of the
Greatest, and her Father hesitated to give her in marriage to such a King for
all reported that he was faithless of heart, but having seen his portrait she
loved him and fled in disguise from the palaces of her Father, and being
captured she was brought before the King in Ranipur.
He sat upon a cloth of gold and about him was the game he had
killed in hunting, in great masses of ruffled fur and plumage, and he turned
the beauty of his face carelessly upon her, and as the Princess looked upon
him, her heart yearned to him, and he said in his voice that was like the male
string of the sitar:
“Little slave, what is your desire?”
Then she saw that the long journey had scarred her feet and dimmed
her hair with dust, and that the King’s eyes, worn with days and nights of
pleasure did not pierce her disguise. Now in her land it is a custom that the
blood royal must not proclaim itself, so she folded her hands and said gently:
“A place in the household of the King.” And he, hearing that the
Waiting slave of his chief favorite Jayashri was dead, gave her that place. So
the Princess attended on those ladies, courteous and obedient to all authority
as beseemed her royalty, and she braided her bright hair so that it hid the
little crowns which the Princesses of her House must wear always in token of
their rank, and every day her patience strengthened.
Sometimes the King, carelessly desiring her laughing face and sad
eyes, would send for her to wile away an hour, and he would say; “Dance, little
slave, and tell me stories of the far countries. You quite unlike my Women,
doubtless because you are a slave.”
And she thought—“No, but because I am a Princess,”—but this she
did not say. She laughed and told him the most marvellous stories in the world
until he laid his head upon her warm bosom, dreaming awake.
There were stories of the great Himalayan solitudes where in the
winter nights the white tiger stares at the witches’ dance of the Northern
Lights dazzled by the hurtling of their myriad spears. And she told how the
King-eagle, hanging motionless over the peaks of Gaurisankar, watches with
golden eyes for his prey, and falling like a plummet strikes its life out with
his clawed heel and, screaming with triumph, bears it to his fierce mate in her
cranny of the rocks.
“A gallant story!” the King would say. “More!” Then she told of
the tropical heats and the stealthy deadly creatures of forest and jungle, and
the blue lotus of Buddha swaying on the still lagoon,—And she spoke of loves of
men and women, their passion and pain and joy. And when she told of their
fidelity and valour and honour that death cannot quench, her voice was like the
song of a minstrel, for she had read all the stories of the ages and the heart
of a Princess told her the rest. And the King listened unwearying though he
believed this was but a slave.
(The face of the man at the feet of the Dweller in the Heights
twitched in a white agony. Pearls of sweat were distilled upon his brows, but
he moved neither hand nor foot, enduring as in a flame of fire. And the voice
continued.)
So one day, in the misty green of the Spring, while she rested at
his feet in the garden Pavilion, he said to her:
“Little slave, why do you love me?”
And she answered proudly:
“Because you have the heart of a King.”
He replied slowly;
“Of the women who have loved me none gave this reason, though they
gave many.”
She laid her cheek on his hand.
“That is the true reason.”
But he drew it away and was vaguely troubled, for her words, he
knew not why, reminded him of the Far Away Princess and of things he had long
forgotten, and he said; “What does a slave know of the hearts of Kings?” And
that night he slept or waked alone.
Winter was at hand with its blue and cloudless days, and she was
commanded to meet the King where the lake lay still and shining like an ecstasy
of bliss, and she waited with her chin dropped into the cup of her hands,
looking over the water with eyes that did not see, for her whole soul said;
“How long O my Sovereign Lord, how long before you know the truth and we enter
together into our Kingdom?”
As she sat she heard the King’s step, and the colour stole up into
her face in a flush like the earliest sunrise. “He is coming,” she said; and
again; “He loves me.”
So he came beside the water, walking slowly. But the King was not
alone. His arm embraced the latest-come beauty from Samarkhand, and, with his
head bent, he whispered in her willing ear.
Then clasping her hands, the Princess drew a long sobbing breath,
and he turned and his eyes grew hard as blue steel.
“Go, slave,” he cried. “What place have you in Kings’ gardens? Go.
Let me see you no more.”
(The man lying at the feet of the Dweller in the Heights, raised a
heavy arm and flung it above his head, despairing, and it fell again on the
cross of his torment. And the voice went on.)
And as he said this, her heart broke; and she went and her feet
were weary. So she took the wise book she loved and unrolled it until she came
to a certain passage, and this she read twice; “If the heart of a slave be
broken it may be mended with jewels and soft words, but the heart of a Princess
can be healed only by the King who broke it, or in Yamapura, the City under the
Sunset where they make all things new. Now, Yama, the Lord of this City, is the
Lord of Death.” And having thus read the Princess rolled the book and put it
from her.
And next day, the King said to his women; “Send for her,” for his
heart smote him and he desired to atone royally for the shame of his speech.
And they sought and came back saying;
“Maharaj, she is gone. We cannot find her.”
Fear grew in the heart of the King—a nameless dread, and he said,
“Search.” And again they sought and returned and the King was striding up and down
the great hall and none dared cross his path. But, trembling, they told him,
and he replied; “Search again. I will not lose her, and, slave though be, she
shall be my Queen.”
So they ran, dispersing to the Four Quarters, and King strode up
and down the hall, and Loneliness kept step with him and clasped his hand and
looked his eyes.
Then the youngest of the women entered with a tale to tell.
“Majesty, we have found her. She lies beside the lake. When the birds fled this
morning she fled with them, but upon a longer journey. Even to Yamapura, the
City under the Sunset.”
And the King said; “Let none follow.” And he strode forth swiftly,
white with thoughts he dared not think.
The Princess lay among the gold of the fallen leaves. All was
gold, for her bright hair was out-spread in shining waves and in it shone the
glory of the hidden crown. On her face was no smile—only at last was revealed
the patience she had covered with laughter so long that even the voice of the
King could not now break it into joy. The hands that had clung, the swift feet
that had run beside his, the tender body, mighty to serve and to love, lay
within touch but farther away than the uttermost star was the Far Away
Princess, known and loved too late.
And he said; “My Princess—O my Princess!” and laid his head on her
cold bosom.
“Too late!” a harsh Voice croaked beside him, and it was the voice
of the Jester who mocks at all things. “Too late! O madness, to despise the
blood royal because it humbled itself to service and so was doubly royal. The
Far Away Princess came laden with great gifts, and to her the King’s gift was
the wage of a slave and a broken heart. Cast your crown and sceptre in the
dust, O King—O King of Fools.”
(The man at the feet of the Dweller in the Heights moved. Some dim
word shaped upon his locked lips. She listened in a divine calm. It seemed that
the very Gods drew nearer. Again the man essayed speech, the body dead, life
only in the words that none could hear. The voice went on.)
But the Princess flying wearily because of the sore wound in her
heart, came at last to the City under the Sunset, where the Lord of Death rules
in the House of Quiet, and was there received with royal honours for in that
land are no disguises. And she knelt before the Secret One and in a voice
broken with agony entreated him to heal her. And with veiled and pitying eyes
he looked upon her, for many and grievous as are the wounds he has healed this
was more grievous still. And he said;
“Princess, I cannot, But this I can do—I can give a new heart in a
new birth—happy and careless as the heart of a child. Take this escape from the
anguish you endure and be at peace.”
But the Princess, white with pain, asked only;
“In this new heart and birth, is there room for the King?”
And the Lord of Peace replied;
“None. He too will be forgotten.”
Then she rose to her feet.
“I will endure and when he comes I will serve him once more. If he
will he shall heal me, and if not I will endure for ever.”
And He who is veiled replied;
“In this sacred City no pain may disturb the air, therefore you
must wait outside in the chill and the dark. Think better, Princess! Also, he
must pass through many rebirths, because he beheld the face of Beauty unveiled
and knew her not. And when he comes he will be weary and weak as a new-born
child, and no more a great King.” And the Princess smiled;
“Then he will need me the more,” she said; “I will wait and kiss
the feet of my King.”
“And the Lord of Death was silent. So she went outside into the
darkness of the spaces, and the souls free passed her like homing doves, and
she sat with her hands clasped over the sore wound in her heart, watching the
earthward way. And the Princess is keeping still the day of her long patience.”
The voice ceased. And there was a great silence, and the listening
faces drew nearer.
Then the Dweller in the Heights spoke in a voice soft as the
falling of snow in the quiet of frost and moon. I could have wept myself blind
with joy to hear that music. More I dare not say.
“He is in the Lower State of Perception. He sorrows for his loss.
Let him have one instant’s light that still he may hope.”
She bowed above the man, gazing upon him as a mother might upon
her sleeping child. The dead eyelids stirred, lifted, a faint gleam showed
beneath them, an unspeakable weariness. I thought they would fall unsatisfied.
Suddenly he saw What looked upon him, and a terror of joy no tongue can tell
flashed over the dark mirror of his face. He stretched a faint hand to touch
her feet, a sobbing sigh died upon his lips, and once more the swooning sleep
took him. He lay as a dead man before the Assembly.
“The night is far spent,” a voice said, from I know not where. And
I knew it was said not only for the sleeper but for all, for though the flying
feet of Beauty seem for a moment to outspeed us she will one day wait our
coming and gather us to her bosom.
As before, the vision spread outward like rings in a broken
reflection in water. I saw the girl beside me, but her hand grew light in mine.
I felt it no longer. I heard the roaring wind in the trees, or was it a great
voice thundering in my ears? Sleep took me. I waked in my little room.
Strange and sad—I saw her next day and did not remember her whom
of all things I desired to know. I remembered the vision and knew that whether
in dream or waking I had heard an eternal truth. I longed with a great longing
to meet my beautiful companion, and she stood at my side and I was blind.
Now that I have climbed a little higher on the Mount of Vision it
seems even to myself that this could not be. Yet it was, and it is true of not
this only but of how much else!
She knew me. I learnt that later, but she made no sign. Her
simplicities had carried her far beyond and above me, to places where only the
winged things attain—“as a bird among the bird-droves of God.”
I have since known that this power of direct simplicity in her was
why among the great mountains we beheld the Divine as the emanation of the
terrible beauty about us. We cannot see it as it is—only in some shadowing
forth, gathering sufficient strength for manifestation from the spiritual atoms
that haunt the region where that form has been for ages the accepted vehicle of
adoration. But I was now to set forth to find another knowledge—to seek the
Beauty that blinds us to all other. Next day the man who was directing my
preparations for travel sent me word from Simla that all was ready and I could
start two days later. I told my friends the time of parting was near.
“But it was no surprise to me,” I added, “for I had heard already
that in a very few days I should be on my way.”
Mrs. Ingmar was more than kind. She laid a frail hand on mine.
“We shall miss you indeed. If it is possible to send us word of
your adventures in those wild solitudes I hope you will do it. Of course
aviation will soon lay bare their secrets and leave them no mysteries, so you
don’t go too soon. One may worship science and yet feel it injures the beauty
of the world. But what is beauty compared with knowledge?”
“Do you never regret it?” I asked.
“Never, dear Mr. Ormond. I am a worshipper of hard facts and
however hideous they may be I prefer them to the prismatic colours of romance.”
Brynhild, smiling, quoted;
“Their
science roamed from star to star
And
than itself found nothing greater.
What
wonder? In a Leyden jar
They
bottled the Creator?”
“There is nothing greater than science,” said Mrs. Ingmar with
soft reverence. “The mind of man is the foot-rule of the universe.”
She meditated for a moment and then added that my kind interests
in their plans decided her to tell me that she would be returning to Europe and
then to Canada in a few months with a favourite niece as her companion while
Brynhild would remain in India with friends in Mooltan for a time. I looked
eagerly at her but she was lost in her own thoughts and it was evidently not
the time to say more.
If I had hoped for a vision before I left the neighbourhood of
that strange House of Beauty where a spirit imprisoned appeared to await the
day of enlightenment I was disappointed. These things do not happen as one
expects or would choose. The wind bloweth where it listeth until the laws which
govern the inner life are understood, and then we would not choose if we could
for we know that all is better than well. In this world, either in the blinded
sight of daily life or in the clarity of the true sight I have not since seen
it, but that has mattered little, for having heard an authentic word within its
walls I have passed on my way elsewhere.
Next day a letter from Olesen reached me.
“Dear Ormond, I hope you have had a good time at the House in the
Woods. I saw Rup Singh a few days ago and he wrote the odd message I enclose.
You know what these natives are, even the most sensible of them, and you will
humour the old fellow for he ages very fast and I think is breaking up. But
this was not what I wanted to say. I had a letter from a man I had not seen for
years—a fellow called Stephen Clifden, who lives in Kashmir. As a matter of
fact I had forgotten his existence but evidently he has not repaid the compliment
for he writes as follows—No, I had better send you the note and you can do as
you please. I am rushed off my legs with work and the heat is hell with the lid
off. And-”
But the rest was of no interest except to a friend of years’
standing. I read Rup Singh’s message first. It was written in his own tongue.
“To the Honoured One who has attained to the favour of the
Favourable.
“You have with open eyes seen what this humble one has dreamed but
has not known. If the thing be possible, write me this word that I may depart
in peace. ‘With that one who in a former birth you loved all is well. Fear
nothing for him. The way is long but at the end the lamps of love are lit and
the Unstruck music is sounded. He lies at the feet of Mercy and there awaits
his hour.’ And if it be not possible to write these words, write nothing, O
Honoured, for though it be in the hells my soul shall find my King, and again I
shall serve him as once I served.”
I understood, and wrote those words as he had written them.
Strange mystery of life—that I who had not known should see, and that this man
whose fidelity had not deserted his broken King in his utter downfall should
have sought with passion for one sight of the beloved face across the waters of
death and sought in vain. I thought of those Buddhist words of Seneca—“The soul
may be and is in the mass of men drugged and silenced by the seductions of
sense and the deceptions of the world. But if, in some moment of detachment and
elation, when its captors and jailors relax their guard, it can escape their
clutches, it will seek at once the region of its birth and its true home.”
Well—the shell must break before the bird can fly, and the time
drew near for the faithful servant to seek his lord. My message reached him in
time and gladdened him.
I turned then to Clifden’s letter.
“Dear Olesen, you will have forgotten me, and feeling sure of this
I should scarcely have intruded a letter into your busy life were it not that I
remember your good-nature as a thing unforgettable though so many years have
gone by. I hear of you sometimes when Sleigh comes up the Sind valley, for I
often camp at Sonamarg and above the Zoji La and farther. I want you to give a
message to a man you know who should be expecting to hear from me. Tell him I
shall be at the Tashigong Monastery when he reaches Gyumur beyond the Shipki.
Tell him I have the information he wants and I will willingly go on with him to
Yarkhand and his destination. He need not arrange for men beyond Gyumur. All is
fixed. So sorry to bother you, old man, but I don’t know Ormond’s address,
except that he was with you and has gone up Simla way. And of course he will be
keen to hear the thing is settled.”
Amazing. I remembered the message I had heard and this man’s words
rang true and kindly, but what could it mean? I really did not question farther
than this for now I could not doubt that I was guided. Stronger hands than mine
had me in charge, and it only remained for me to set forth in confidence and
joy to an end that as yet I could not discern. I turned my face gladly to the
wonder of the mountains.
Gladly—but with a reservation. I was leaving a friend and one whom
I dimly felt might one day be more than a friend—Brynhild Ingmar. That problem
must be met before I could take my way. I thought much of what might be said at
parting. True, she had the deepest attraction for me, but true also that I now
beheld a quest stretching out into the unknown which I must accept in the
spirit of the knight errant. Dare I then bind my heart to any allegiance which
would pledge me to a future inconsistent with what lay before me? How could I
tell what she might think of the things which to me were now real and
external—the revelation of the only reality that underlies all the seeming.
Life can never be the same for the man who has penetrated to this, and though
it may seem a hard saying there can be but a maimed understanding between him
and those who still walk amid the phantoms of death and decay.
Her sympathy with nature was deep and wonderful but might it not
be that though the earth was eloquent to her the skies were silent? I was but a
beginner myself—I knew little indeed. Dare I risk that little in a sweet
companionship which would sink me into the contentment of the life lived by the
happily deluded between the cradle and the grave and perhaps close to me for
ever that still sphere where my highest hope abides? I had much to ponder, for
how could I lose her out of my life—though I knew not at all whether she who
had so much to make her happiness would give me a single thought when I was
gone.
If all this seem the very uttermost of selfish vanity, forgive a
man who grasped in his hand a treasure so new, so wonderful that he walked in
fear and doubt lest it should slip away and leave him in a world darkened for
ever by the torment of the knowledge that it might have been his and he had
bartered it for the mess of pottage that has bought so many birthrights since
Jacob bargained with his weary brother in the tents of Lahai-roi. I thought I
would come back later with my prize gained and throwing it at her feet ask her
wisdom in return, for whatever I might not know I knew well she was wiser than
I except in that one shining of the light from Eleusis. I walked alone in the
woods thinking of these things and no answer satisfied me.
I did not see her alone until the day I left, for I was compelled
by the arrangements I was making to go down to Simla for a night. And now the
last morning had come with golden sun—shot mists rolling upward to disclose the
far white billows of the sea of eternity, the mountains awaking to their
enormous joys. The trees were dripping glory to the steaming earth; it flowed
like rivers into their most secret recesses, moss and flower, fern and leaf
floated upon the waves of light revealing their inmost soul in triumphant
gladness. Far off across the valleys a cuckoo was calling—the very voice of
spring, and in the green world above my head a bird sang, a feathered joy, so
clear, so passionate that I thought the great summer morning listened in silence
to his rapture ringing through the woods. I waited until the Jubilate was ended
and then went in to bid good-bye to my friends.
Mrs. Ingmar bid me the kindest farewell and I left her serene in
the negation of all beauty, all hope save that of a world run on the lines of a
model municipality, disease a memory, sewerage, light and air systems
perfected, the charted brain sending its costless messages to the outer parts
of the habitable globe, and at least a hundred years of life with a decent
cremation at the end of it assured to every eugenically born citizen. No more.
But I have long ceased to regret that others use their own eyes whether clear
or dim. Better the merest glimmer of light perceived thus than the hearsay of
the revelations of others. And by the broken fragments of a bewildered hope a
man shall eventually reach the goal and rejoice in that dawn where the morning
stars sing together and the sons of God shout for joy. It must come, for it is
already here.
Brynhild walked with me through the long glades in the fresh thin
air to the bridle road where my men and ponies waited, eager to be off. We
stood at last in the fringe of trees on a small height which commanded the
way;—a high uplifted path cut along the shoulders of the hills and on the left
the sheer drop of the valleys. Perhaps seven or eight feet in width and
dignified by the name of the Great Hindustan and Tibet Road it ran winding far
away into Wonderland. Looking down into the valleys, so far beneath that the
solitudes seem to wall them in I thought of all the strange caravans which have
taken this way with tinkle of bells and laughter now so long silenced, and as I
looked I saw a lost little monastery in a giant crevice, solitary as a planet
on the outermost ring of the system, and remembrance flashed into my mind and I
said;
“I have marching orders that have countermanded my own plans. I am
to journey to the Buddhist Monastery of Tashigong, and there meet a friend who
will tell me what is necessary that I may travel to Yarkhand and beyond. It
will be long before I see Kashmir.”
In those crystal clear eyes I saw a something new to me—a faint
smile, half pitying, half sad;
“Who told you, and where?”
“A girl in a strange place. A woman who has twice guided me—”
I broke off. Her smile perplexed me. I could not tell what to say.
She repeated in a soft undertone;
“Great Lady, be pitiful to the blind eyes and give them light.”
And instantly I knew. O blind—blind! Was the unhappy King of the
story duller of heart than I? And shame possessed me. Here was the chrysoberyl
that all day hides its secret in deeps of lucid green but when the night comes
flames with its fiery ecstasy of crimson to the moon, and I—I had been
complacently considering whether I might not blunt my own spiritual instinct by
companionship with her, while she had been my guide, as infinitely beyond me in
insight as she was in all things beautiful. I could have kissed her feet in my
deep repentance. True it is that the gateway of the high places is reverence
and he who cannot bow his head shall receive no crown. I saw that my long
travel in search of knowledge would have been utterly vain if I had not learnt
that lesson there and then. In those moments of silence I learnt it once and
for ever.
She stood by me breathing the liquid morning air, her face turned
upon the eternal snows. I caught her hand in a recognition that might have
ended years of parting, and its warm youth vibrated in mine, the foretaste of
all understanding, all unions, of love that asks nothing, that fears nothing,
that has no petition to make. She raised her eyes to mine and her tears were a
rainbow of hope. So we stood in silence that was more than any words, and the
golden moments went by. I knew her now for what she was, one of whom it might
have been written;
“I come
from where night falls clearer
Than
your morning sun can rise;
From an
earth that to heaven draws nearer
Than
your visions of Paradise,—
For the
dreams that your dreamers dream
We
behold them with open eyes.”
With open eyes! Later I asked the nature of the strange bond that
had called her to my side.
“I do not understand that fully myself,” she said—“That is part of
the knowledge we must wait for. But you have the eyes that see, and that is a
tie nothing can break. I had waited long in the House of Beauty for you. I
guided you there. But between you and me there is also love.”
I stretched an eager hand but she repelled it gently, drawing back
a little. “Not love of each other though we are friends and in the future may
be infinitely more. But—have you ever seen a drawing of Blake’s—a young man
stretching his arms to a white swan which flies from him on wings he cannot
stay? That is the story of both our lives. We long to be joined in this life,
here and now, to an unspeakable beauty and power whose true believers we are
because we have seen and known. There is no love so binding as the same
purpose. Perhaps that is the only true love. And so we shall never be apart
though we may never in this world be together again in what is called
companionship.”
“We shall meet,” I said confidently. She smiled and was silent.
“Do we follow a will-o’-the wisp in parting? Do we give up the
substance for the shadow? Shall I stay?”
She laughed joyously;
“We give a single rose for a rose-tree that bears seven times
seven. Daily I see more, and you are going where you will be instructed. As you
know my mother prefers for a time to have my cousin with her to help her with
the book she means to write. So I shall have time to myself. What do you think
I shall do?”
“Blow away on a great wind. Ride on the crests of tossing waves.
Catch a star to light the fireflies!”
She laughed like a bird’s song.
“Wrong—wrong! I shall be a student. All I know as yet has come to
me by intuition, but there is Law as well as Love and I will learn. I have
drifted like a happy cloud before the wind. Now I will learn to be the wind
that blows the clouds.”
I looked at her in astonishment. If a flower had desired the same
thing it could scarcely have seemed more incredible, for I had thought her
whole life and nature instinctive not intellective. She smiled as one who has a
beloved secret to keep.
“When you have gained what in this country they call The Knowledge
of Regeneration, come back and ask me what I have learnt.”
She would say no more of that and turned to another matter,
speaking with earnestness;
“Before you came here I had a message for you, and Stephen Clifden
will tell you the same thing when you meet. Believe it for it is true. Remember
always that the psychical is not the mystical and that what we seek is not
marvel but vision. These two things are very far apart, so let the first with
all its dangers pass you by, for our way lies to the heights, and for us there
is only one danger—that of turning back and losing what the whole world cannot
give in exchange. I have never seen Stephen Clifden but I know much of him. He
is a safe guide—a man who has had much and strange sorrow which has brought him
joy that cannot be told. He will take you to those who know the things that you
desire. I wish I might have gone too.”
Something in the sweetness of her voice, its high passion, the
strong beauty of her presence woke a poignant longing in my heart. I said;
“I cannot leave you. You are the only guide I can follow. Let us
search together—you always on before.”
“Your way lies there,” she pointed to the high mountains. “And
mine to the plains, and if we chose our own we should wander. But we shall meet
again in the way and time that will be best and with knowledge so enlarged that
what we have seen already will be like an empty dream compared to daylight
truth. If you knew what waits for you you would not delay one moment.”
She stood radiant beneath the deodars, a figure of Hope, pointing
steadily to the heights. I knew her words were true though as yet I could not
tell how. I knew that whereas we had seen the Wonderful in beautiful though
local forms there is a plane where the Formless may be apprehended in clear
dream and solemn vision-the meeting of spirit with Spirit. What that revelation
would mean I could not guess—how should I?—but I knew the illusion we call
death and decay would wither before it. There is a music above and beyond the
Ninth Vibration though I must love those words for ever for what their hidden
meaning gave me.
I took her hand and held it. Strange—beyond all strangeness that
that story of an ancient sorrow should have made us what we were to each
other—should have opened to me the gates of that Country where she wandered
content. For the first time I had realized in its fulness the loveliness of
this crystal nature, clear as flowing water to receive and transmit the
light—itself a prophecy and fulfilment of some higher race which will one day
inhabit our world when it has learnt the true values. She drew a flower from
her breast and gave it to me. It lies before me white and living as I write
these words.
I sprang down the road and mounted, giving the word to march. The
men shouted and strode on—our faces to the Shipki Pass and what lay beyond.
We had parted.
Once, twice, I looked back, and standing in full sunlight, she
waved her hand.
We turned the angle of the rocks.
What I found—what she found is a story strange and beautiful which
I may tell one day to those who care to hear. That for me there were pauses,
hesitancies, dreads, on the way I am not concerned to deny, for so it must
always be with the roots of the old beliefs of fear and ignorance buried in the
soil of our hearts and ready to throw out their poisonous fibres. But there was
never doubt. For myself I have long forgotten the meaning of that word in
anything that is of real value.
Do not let it be thought that the treasure is reserved for the few
or those of special gifts. And it is as free to the West as to the East though
I own it lies nearer to the surface in the Orient where the spiritual genius of
the people makes it possible and the greater and more faithful teachers are
found. It is not without meaning that all the faiths of the world have dawned
in those sunrise skies. Yet it is within reach of all and asks only
recognition, for the universe has been the mine of its jewels—
“Median
gold it holds, and silver from Atropatene, Ruby and
emerald
from Hindustan, and Bactrian agate, Bright with beryl
and
pearl, sardonyx and sapphire.”—
and more
that cannot be uttered—
the
Lights and Perfections.
So for all seekers I pray this prayer—beautiful in its sonorous
Latin, but noble in all the tongues;
“Supplico tibi, Pater et Dux—I pray Thee, Guide of our vision,
that we may remember the nobleness with which Thou hast endowed us, and that
Thou wouldest be always on our right and on our left in the motion of our
wills, that we may be purged from the contagion of the body and the affections
of the brute and overcome and rule them. And I pray also that Thou wouldest
drive away the blinding darkness from the eyes of our souls that we may know
well what is to be held for divine and what for mortal.”
“The nobleness with which Thou hast endowed us-” this, and not the
cry of the miserable sinner whose very repentance is no virtue but the
consequence of failure and weakness is the strong music to which we must march.
And the way is open to the mountains.
2.THE INTERPRETER A ROMANCE OF THE EAST
I
There are strange things
in this story, but, so far as I understand them, I tell the truth. If you
measure the East with a Western foot-rule you will say, “Impossible.” I should
have said it myself.
Of myself I will say as little as I can, for this story is of
Vanna Loring. I am an incident only, though I did not know that at first.
My name is Stephen Clifden, and I was eight-and-thirty; plenty of
money, sound in wind and limb. I had been by way of being a writer before the
war, the hobby of a rich man; but if I picked up anything in the welter in
France, it was that real work is the only salvation this mad world has to
offer; so I meant to begin at the beginning, and learn my trade like a
journeyman labourer. I had come to the right place. A very wonderful city is
Peshawar—rather let us say, two cities—the compounds, the fortifications where
Europeans dwell in such peace as their strong right arms can secure them; and
the native city and bazaar humming and buzzing like a hive of angry bees with
the rumours that come up from Lower India or down the Khyber Pass with the
camel caravans loaded with merchandise from Afghanistan, Bokhara, and farther.
And it is because of this that Peshawar is the Key of India, and a city of
Romance that stands at every corner, and cries aloud in the market—place. For
at Peshawar every able-bodied man sleeps with his revolver under his pillow,
and the old Fort is always ready in case it should be necessary at brief and
sharp notice to hurry the women and children into it, and possibly, to die in
their defense. So enlivening is the neighbourhood of the frontier tribes that
haunt the famous Khyber Pass and the menacing hills where danger is always
lurking.
But there was society here, and I was swept into it—there was
chatter, and it galled me.
I was beginning to feel that I had missed my mark, and must go
farther afield, perhaps up into Central Asia, when I met Vanna Loring. If I say
that her hair was soft and dark; that she had the deepest hazel eyes I have
ever seen, and a sensitive, tender mouth; that she moved with a flowing grace
like “a wave of the sea”—it sounds like the portrait of a beauty, and she was
never that. Also, incidentally, it gives none of her charm. I never heard any
one get any further than that she was “oddly attractive”—let us leave it at
that. She was certainly attractive to me.
She was the governess of little Winifred Meryon, whose father held
the august position of General Commanding the Frontier Forces, and her mother
the more commanding position of the reigning beauty of Northern India,
generally speaking. No one disputed that. She was as pretty as a picture, and
her charming photograph had graced as many illustrated papers as there were
illustrated papers to grace.
But Vanna—I gleaned her story by bits when I came across her with
the child in the gardens. I was beginning to piece it together now.
Her love of the strange and beautiful she had inherited from a
young Italian mother, daughter of a political refugee; her childhood had been
spent in a remote little village in the West of England; half reluctantly she
told me how she had brought herself up after her mother’s death and her
father’s second marriage. Little was said of that, but I gathered that it had
been a grief to her, a factor in her flight to the East.
We were walking in the Circular Road then with Winifred in front
leading her Pekingese by its blue ribbon, and we had it almost to ourselves
except for a few natives passing slow and dignified on their own occasions, for
fashionable Peshawar was finishing its last rubber of bridge, before separating
to dress for dinner, and had no time to spare for trivialities and sunsets.
“So when I came to three-and-twenty,” she said slowly, “I felt I
must break away from our narrow life. I had a call to India stronger than
anything on earth. You would not understand but that was so, and I had spent
every spare moment in teaching myself India—its history, legends, religions,
everything! And I was not wanted at home, and I had grown afraid.”
I could divine years of patience and repression under this plain
tale, but also a power that would be dynamic when the authentic voice called.
That was her charm—gentleness in strength—a sweet serenity.
“What were you afraid of?”
“Of growing old and missing what was waiting for me out here. But
I could not get away like other people. No money, you see. So I thought I would
come out here and teach. Dare I? Would they let me? I knew I was fighting life
and chances and risks if I did it; but it was death if I stayed there. And
then—Do you really care to hear?”
“Of course. Tell me how you broke your chain.”
“I spare you the family quarrels. I can never go back. But I was
spurred—spurred to take some wild leap; and I took it. Six years ago I came
out. First I went to a doctor and his wife at Cawnpore. They had a wonderful
knowledge of the Indian peoples, and there I learned Hindustani and much else.
Then he died. But an aunt had left me two hundred pounds, and I could wait a
little and choose; and so I came here.”
It interested me. The courage that pale elastic type of woman has!
“Have you ever regretted it? Would they take you back if you
failed?”
“Never, to both questions,” she said, smiling. “Life is glorious.
I’ve drunk of a cup I never thought to taste; and if I died tomorrow I should
know I had done right. I rejoice in every moment I live—even when Winifred and
I are wrestling with arithmetic.”
“I shouldn’t have thought life was very easy with Lady Meryon.”
“Oh, she is kind enough in an indifferent sort of way. I am not
the persecuted Jane Eyre sort of governess at all. But that is all on the
surface and does not matter. It is India I care for-the people, the sun, the
infinite beauty. It was coming home. You would laugh if I told you I knew
Peshawar long before I came here. Knew it—walked here, lived. Before there were
English in India at all.” She broke off. “You won’t understand.”
“Oh, I have had that feeling, too,” I said patronizingly. “If one
has read very much about a place-”
“That was not quite what I meant. Never mind. The people, the
place—that is the real thing to me. All this is the dream.” The sweep of her
hand took in not only Winifred and myself, but the general’s stately residence,
which to blaspheme in Peshawar is rank infidelity.
“By George, I would give thousands to feel that! I can’t get out
of Europe here. I want to write, Miss Loring,” I found myself saying. “I’d done
a bit, and then the war came and blew my life to pieces. Now I want to get
inside the skin of the East, and I can’t do it. I see it from outside, with a
pane of glass between. No life in it. If you feel as you say, for God’s sake be
my interpreter!”
I really meant what I said. I knew she was a harp that any breeze
would sweep into music. I divined that temperament in her and proposed to use
it for my own ends. She had and I had not, the power to be a part of all she
saw, to feel kindred blood running in her own veins. To the average European
the native life of India is scarcely interesting, so far is it removed from all
comprehension. To me it was interesting, but I could not tell why. I stood
outside and had not the fairy gold to pay for my entrance. Here at all events
she could buy her way where I could not. Without cruelty, which honestly was
not my besetting sin—especially where women were concerned, the egoist in me
felt I would use her, would extract the last drop of the enchantment of her
knowledge before I went on my way. What more natural than that Vanna or any
other woman should minister to my thirst for information? Men are like that. I
pretend to be no better than the rest. She pleased my fastidiousness—that
fastidiousness which is the only austerity in men not otherwise austere.
“Interpret?” she said, looking at me with clear hazel eyes; “how
could I? You were in the native city yesterday. What did you miss?”
“Everything! I saw masses of colour, light, movement. Brilliantly
picturesque people. Children like Asiatic angels. Magnificently scowling
ruffians in sheepskin coats. In fact, a movie staged for my benefit. I was
afraid they would ring down the curtain before I had had enough. It had no
meaning. When I got back to my diggings I tried to put down what I had just
seen, and I swear there’s more inspiration in the guide-book.”
“Did you go alone?”
“Yes, I certainly would not go sight-seeing with the Meryon crowd.
Tell me what you felt when you saw it first.”
“I went with Sir John’s uncle. He was a great traveler. The colour
struck me dumb. It flames—it sings. Think of the grey pinched life in the West!
I saw a grave dark potter turning his wheel, while his little girl stood by,
glad at our pleasure, her head veiled like a miniature woman, tiny baggy
trousers, and a silver nose-stud, like a star, in one delicate nostril. In her
thin arms she held a heavy baby in a gilt cap, like a monkey. And the wheel
turned and whirled until it seemed to be spinning dreams, thick as motes in the
sun. The clay rose in smooth spirals under his hand, and the wheel sang, ‘Shall
the vessel reprove him who made one to honour and one to dishonour?’ And I saw
the potter thumping his wet clay, and the clay, plastic as dream-stuff, shaped
swift as light, and the three Fates stood at his shoulder. Dreams, dreams, and
all in the spinning of the wheel, and the rich shadows of the old broken
courtyard where he sat. And the wheel stopped and the thread broke, and the
little new shapes he had made stood all about him, and he was only a potter in
Peshawar.”
Her voice was like a song. She had utterly forgotten my existence.
I did not dislike it at the moment, for I wanted to hear more, and the
impersonal is the rarest gift a woman can give a man.
“Did you buy anything?”
“He gave me a gift—a flawed jar of turquoise blue, faint turquoise
green round the lip. He saw I understood. And then I bought a little gold cap
and a wooden box of jade-green Kabul grapes. About a rupee, all told. But it
was Eastern merchandise, and I was trading from Balsora and Baghdad, and
Eleazar’s camels were swaying down from Damascus along the Khyber Pass, and
coming in at the great Darwazah, and friends’ eyes met me everywhere. I am
profoundly happy here.”
The sinking sun lit an almost ecstatic face.
I envied her more deeply than I had ever envied any one. She had
the secret of immortal youth, and I felt old as I looked at her. One might be
eighty and share that passionate impersonal joy. Age could not wither nor
custom stale the infinite variety of her world’s joys. She had a child’s dewy
youth in her eyes.
There are great sunsets at Peshawar, flaming over the plain, dying
in melancholy splendour over the dangerous hills. They too were hers, in a
sense in which they could never be mine. But what a companion! To my
astonishment a wild thought of marriage flashed across me, to be instantly
rebuffed with a shrug. Marriage—that one’s wife might talk poetry to one about
the East! Absurd! But what was it these people felt and I could not feel?
Almost, shut up in the prison of self, I knew what Vanna had felt in her
village—a maddening desire to escape, to be a part of the loveliness that lay
beyond me. So might a man love a king’s daughter in her hopeless heights.
“It may be very beautiful on the surface,” I said morosely; “but
there’s a lot of misery below—hateful, they tell me.”
“Of course. We shall get to work one day. But look at the sunset.
It opens like a mysterious flower. I must take Winifred home now.”
“One moment,” I pleaded; “I can only see it through your eyes. I
feel it while you speak, and then the good minute goes.”
She laughed.
“And so must I. Come, Winifred. Look, there’s an
owl; not like the owls
in the summer dark in England—
“Lovely
are the curves of the white owl sweeping, Wavy in the
dark, lit by one low star.”
Suddenly she turned again and looked at me half wistfully.
“It is good to talk to you. You want to know. You are so near it
all. I wish I could help you; I am so exquisitely happy myself.”
My writing was at a standstill. It seemed the groping of a blind
man in a radiant world. Once perhaps I had felt that life was good in
itself—when the guns came thundering toward the Vimy Ridge in a mad gallop of
horses, and men shouting and swearing and frantically urging them on. Then,
riding for more than life, I had tasted life for an instant. Not before or
since. But this woman had the secret.
Lady Meryon, with her escort of girls and subalterns, came
daintily past the hotel compound, and startled me from my brooding with her
pretty silvery voice.
“Dreaming, Mr. Clifden? It isn’t at all wholesome to dream in the
East. Come and dine with us tomorrow. A tiny dance afterwards, you know; or
bridge for those who like it.”
I had not the faintest notion whether governesses dined with the
family or came in afterward with the coffee; but it was a sporting chance, and
I took it.
Then Sir John came up and joined us.
“You can’t well dance tomorrow, Kitty,” he said to his wife.
“There’s been an outpost affair in the Swat Hills, and young Fitzgerald has
been shot. Come to dinner of course, Clifden. Glad to see you. But no dancing,
I think.”
Kitty Meryon’s mouth drooped like a pouting child’s. Was it for
the lost dance, or the lost soldier lying out on the hills in the dying sunset.
Who could tell? In either case it was pretty enough for the illustrated papers.
“How sad! Such a dear boy. We shall miss him at tennis.” Then
brightly; “Well, we’ll have to put the dance off for a week, but come tomorrow
anyhow.”
II
Next evening I went into
Lady Meryon’s flower-scented drawing-room. The electric fans were fluttering
and the evening air was cool. Five or six pretty girls and as many men made up
the party—Kitty Meryon the prettiest of them all, fashionably undressed in
faint pink and crystal, with a charming smile in readiness, all her gay little
flags flying in the rich man’s honour. I am no vainer than other men, but I saw
that. Whatever her charm might be it was none for me. What could I say to
interest her who lived in her foolish little world as one shut in a bright
bubble? And she had said the wrong word about young Fitzgerald—I wanted Vanna,
with her deep seeing eyes, to say the right one and adjust those cruel values.
Governesses dine, it appeared, only to fill an unexpected place,
or make a decorous entry afterward, to play accompaniments. Fortunately Kitty
Meryon sang, in a pinched little soprano, not nearly so pretty as her silver
ripple of talk.
It was when the party had settled down to bridge and I was
standing out, that I ventured to go up to her as she sat knitting by a
window—not unwatched by the quick flash of Lady Meryon’s eyes as I did it.
“I think you hypnotize me, Miss Loring. When I hear anything I
straightway want to know what you will say. Have you heard of Fitzgerald’s
death?”
“That is why we are not dancing tonight. Tomorrow the cable will
reach his home in England. He was an only child, and they are the great people
of the village where we are the little people. I knew his mother as one knows a
great lady who is kind to all the village folk. It may kill her. It is
travelling tonight like a bullet to her heart, and she does not know.”
“His father?”
“A brave man—a soldier himself. He will know it was a good death
and that Harry would not fail. He did not at Ypres. He would not here. But all
joy and hope will be dead in that house tomorrow.”
“And what do you think?”
“I am not sorry for Harry, if you mean that. He knew—we all
know—that he was on guard here holding the outposts against blood and treachery
and terrible things—playing the Great Game. One never loses at that game if one
plays it straight, and I am sure that at the last it was joy he felt and not
fear. He has not lost. Did you notice in the church a niche before every
soldier’s seat to hold his loaded gun? And the tablets on the walls; “Killed at
Kabul River, aged 22.”—“Killed on outpost duty.”—“Murdered by an Afghan
fanatic.” This will be one memory more. Why be sorry.”
Presently:—
“I am going up to the hills tomorrow, to the Malakhand Fort, with
Mrs. Delany, Lady Meryon’s aunt, and we shall see the wonderful Tahkt-i-Bahi
Monastery on the way. You should do that run before you go. The fort is the
last but one on the way to Chitral, and beyond that the road is so beset that
only soldiers may go farther, and indeed the regiments escort each other up and
down. But it is an early start, for we must be back in Peshawar at six for fear
of raiding natives.”
“I know; they hauled me up in the dusk the other day, and told me
I should be swept off to the hills if I fooled about after dusk. But I say—is
it safe for you to go? You ought to have a man. Could I go too?”
I thought she did not look enthusiastic at the proposal.
“Ask. You know I settle nothing. I go where I am sent.” She said
it with the happiest smile. I knew they could send her nowhere that she would
not find joy. I thought her mere presence must send the vibrations of happiness
through the household. Yet again—why? For where there is no receiver the
current speaks in vain; and for an instant I seemed to see the air full of messages—of
speech striving to utter its passionate truths to deaf ears stopped for ever
against the breaking waves of sound. But Vanna heard.
She left the room; and when the bridge was over, I made my
request. Lady Meryon shrugged her shoulders and declared it would be a terribly
dull run—the scenery nothing, “and only” (she whispered) “Aunt Selina and poor
Miss Loring?”
Of course I saw at once that she did not like it; but Sir John was
all for my going, and that saved the situation.
I certainly could have dispensed with Aunt Selina when the
automobile drew up in the golden river of the sunrise at the hotel. There were
only the driver, a personal servant, and the two ladies; Mrs. Delany, comely,
pleasant, talkative, and Vanna—
Her face in its dark motoring veil, fine and delicate as a young
moon in a cloud drift—the sensitive sweet mouth that had quivered a little when
she spoke of Fitzgerald—the pure glance that radiated such kindness to all the
world. She sat there with the Key of Dreams pressed against her slight
bosom—her eyes dreaming above it. Already the strange airs of her unknown world
were breathing about me, and as yet I knew not the things that belonged unto my
peace.
We glided along the straight military road from Peshawar to
Nowshera, the gold-bright sun dazzling in its whiteness—a strange drive through
the flat, burned country, with the ominous Kabul River flowing through it.
Military preparations everywhere, and the hills looking watchfully down—alive,
as it were, with keen, hostile eyes. War was at present about us as behind the
lines in France; and when we crossed the Kabul River on a bridge of boats, and
I saw its haunted waters, I began to feel the atmosphere of the place closing
down upon me. It had a sinister beauty; it breathed suspense; and I wished, as
I was sure Vanna did, for silence that was not at our command.
For Mrs. Delany felt nothing of it. A bright shallow ripple of
talk was her contribution to the joys of the day; though it was, fortunately,
enough for her happiness if we listened and agreed. I knew Vanna listened only
in show. Her intent eyes were fixed on the Tahkt-i-Bahi hills after we had
swept out of Nowshera; and when the car drew up at the rough track, she had a
strange look of suspense and pallor. I remember I wondered at the time if she
were nervous in the wild open country.
“Now pray don’t be shocked,” said Mrs. Delany comfortably; “but
you two young people may go up to the monastery, and I shall stay here. I am
dreadfully ashamed of myself, but the sight of that hill is enough for me.
Don’t hurry. I may have a little doze, and be all the better company when you
get back. No, don’t try to persuade me, Mr. Clifden. It isn’t the part of a
friend.”
I cannot say I was sorry, though I had a moment of panic when
Vanna offered to stay with her—very much, too, as if she really meant it. So we
set out perforce, Vanna leading steadily, as if she knew the way. She never
looked up, and her wish for silence was so evident, that I followed, lending my
hand mutely when the difficulties obliged it, she accepting absently, and as if
her thoughts were far away.
Suddenly she quickened her pace. We had climbed about nine hundred
feet, and now the narrow track twisted through the rocks—a track that looked as
age-worn as no doubt it was. We threaded it, and struggled over the ridge, and
looked down victorious on the other side.
There she stopped. A very wonderful sight, of which I had never
seen the like, lay below us. Rock and waste and towering crags, and the mighty
ruin of the monastery set in the fangs of the mountain like a robber baron’s
castle, looking far away to the blue mountains of the Debatable Land—the land
of mystery and danger. It stood there—the great ruin of a vast habitation of
men. Building after building, mysterious and broken, corridors, halls,
refectories, cells; the dwelling of a faith so alien that I could not
reconstruct the life that gave it being. And all sinking gently into ruin that
in a century more would confound it with the roots of the mountains.
Grey and wonderful, it clung to the heights and looked with
eyeless windows at the past. Somehow I found it infinitely pathetic; the very
faith it expressed is dead in India, and none left so poor to do it reverence.
But Vanna knew her way. Unerringly she led me from point to point,
and she was visibly at home in the intricacies. Such knowledge in a young woman
bewildered me. Could she have studied the plans in the Museum? How else should
she know where the abbot lived, or where the refractory brothers were punished?
Once I missed her, while I stooped to examine some scroll-work,
and following, found her before one of the few images of the Buddha that the
rapacious Museum had spared—a singularly beautiful bas-relief, the hand raised
to enforce the truth the calm lips were speaking, the drapery falling in
stately folds to the bare feet. As I came up, she had an air as if she had just
ceased from movement, and I had a distinct feeling that she had knelt before
it—I saw the look of worship! The thing troubled me like a dream, haunting,
impossible, but real.
“How beautiful!” I said in spite of myself, as she pointed to the
image. “In this utter solitude it seems the very spirit of the place.”
“He was. He is,” said Vanna.
“Explain to me. I don’t understand. I know so little of him. What
is the subject?”
She hesitated; then chose her words as if for a beginner;—“It is
the Blessed One preaching to the Tree-Spirits. See how eagerly they lean from
the boughs to listen. This other relief represents him in the state of mystic
vision. Here he is drowned in peace. See how it overflows from the closed eyes;
the closed lips. The air is filled with his quiet.”
“What is he dreaming?”
“Not dreaming—seeing. Peace. He sits at the point where time and
infinity meet. To attain that vision was the aim of the monks who lived here.”
“Did they attain?” I found myself speaking as if she could
certainly answer.
“A few. There was one, Vasettha, the Brahman, a young man who had
renounced all his possessions and riches, and seated here before this image of
the Blessed One, he fell often into the mystic state. He had a strange vision
at one time of the future of India, which will surely be fulfilled. He did not
forget it in his rebirths. He remembers-”
She broke off suddenly and said with forced indifference,—“He would
sit here often looking out over the mountains; the monks sat at his feet to
hear. He became abbot while still young. But his story is a sad one.”
“I entreat you to tell me.”
She looked away over the mountains. “While he was abbot
here,—still a young man,—a famous Chinese Pilgrim came down through Kashmir to
visit the Holy Places in India. The abbot went forward with him to Peshawar,
that he might make him welcome. And there came a dancer to Peshawar, named
Lilavanti, most beautiful! I dare not tell you her beauty. I tremble now to
think-”
Again she paused, and again the faint creeping sense of mystery
invaded me.
She resumed;—
“The abbot saw her and he loved her. He was young still, you
remember. She was a woman of the Hindu faith and hated Buddhism. It swept him
down into the lower worlds of storm and desire. He fled with Lilavanti and
never returned here. So in his rebirth he fell-”
She stopped dead; her face pale as death.
“How do you know? Where have you read it? If I could only find
what you find and know what you know! The East is like an open book to you.
Tell me the rest.”
“How should I know any more?” she said hurriedly. “We must be
going back. You should study the plans of this place at Peshawar. They were
very learned monks who lived here. It is famous for learning.”
The life had gone out of her words-out of the ruins. There was no
more to be said.
We clambered down the hill in the hot sunshine, speaking only of
the view, the strange shrubs and flowers, and, once, the swift gliding of a
snake, and found Mrs. Delany blissfully asleep in the most padded corner of the
car. The spirit of the East vanished in her comfortable presence, and luncheon
seemed the only matter of moment.
“I wonder, my dears,” she said, “if you would be very disappointed
and think me very dense if I proposed our giving up the Malakhand Fort? The
driver has been giving me in very poor English such an account of the dangers
of that awful road up the hill that I feel no Fort would repay me for its
terrors. Do say what you feel, Miss Loring. Mr. Clifden can lunch with the
officers at Nowshera and come any time. I know I am an atrocity.”
There could be only one answer, though Vanna and I knew perfectly
well the crafty design of the driver to spare himself work. Mrs. Delany
remained brightly awake for the run home, and favored us with many remarkable
views on India and its shortcomings, Vanna, who had a sincere liking for her,
laughing with delight at her description of a visit of condolence with Lady
Meryon to the five widows of one of the hill Rajas.
But I own I was pre-occupied. I knew those moments at the
monastery had given me a glimpse into the wonderland of her soul that made me
long for more. It was rapidly becoming clear to me that unless my intentions
developed on very different lines I must flee Peshawar. For love is born of
sympathy, and sympathy was strengthening daily, but for love I had no courage
yet.
I feared it as men fear the unknown. I despised myself—but I
feared. I will confess my egregious folly and vanity—I had no doubt as to her
reception of my offer if I should make it, but possessed by a colossal
selfishness, I thought only of myself, and from that point of view could not
decide how I stood to lose or gain. In my wildest accesses of vanity I did not
suppose Vanna loved me, but I felt she liked me, and I believe the advantages I
had to offer would be overwhelming to a woman in her position. So, tossed on
the waves of indecision, I inclined to flight.
That night I resolutely began my packing, and wrote a note of farewell
to Lady Meryon. The next morning I furiously undid it, and destroyed the note.
And that afternoon I took the shortest way to the sun-set road to lounge about
and wait for Vanna and Winifred. She never came, and I was as unreasonably
angry as if I had deserved the blessing of her presence.
Next day I could see that she tried gently hut clearly to
discourage our meeting and for three days I never saw her at all. Yet I knew
that in her solitary life our talks counted for a pleasure, and when we met
again I thought I saw a new softness in the lovely hazel deeps of her eyes.
III
On the day when things
became clear to me, I was walking towards the Meryons’ gates when I met her
coming alone along the sunset road, in the late gold of the afternoon. She
looked pale and a little wearied, and I remembered I wished I did not know
every change of her face as I did. It was a symptom that alarmed my
selfishness—it galled me with the sense that I was no longer my own despot.
“So you have been up the Khyber Pass,” she said as I fell into
step at her side. “Tell me—was it as wonderful as you expected?”
“No, no,—you tell me! It will give me what I missed. Begin at the
beginning. Tell me what I saw.”
I could not miss the delight of her words, and she laughed,
knowing my whim.
“Oh, that Pass!—the wonder of those old roads that have borne the
traffic and romance of the world for ages. Do you think there is anything in
the world so fascinating as they are? But did you go on Tuesday or Friday?”
For these are the only days in the week when the Khyber can be
safely entered. The British then turn out the Khyber Rifles and man every crag,
and the loaded caravans move like a tide, and go up and down the narrow road on
their occasions.
Naturally mere sightseers are not welcomed, for much business must
be got through in that urgent forty eight hours in which life is not risked in
entering.
“Tuesday. But make a picture for me.”
“Well, you gave your word not to photograph or sketch—as if one
wanted to when every bit of it is stamped on one’s brain! And you went up to
Jumrood Fort at the entrance. Did they tell you it is an old Sikh Fort and has
been on duty in that turbulent place for five hundred years And did you see the
machine guns in the court? And every one armed—even the boys with belts of
cartridges? Then you went up the narrow winding track between the mountains,
and you said to yourself, ‘This is the road of pure romance. It goes up to
silken Samarkhand, and I can ride to Bokhara of the beautiful women and to all
the dreams. Am I alive and is it real?’ You felt that?”
“All. Every bit. Go on!”
She smiled with pleasure.
“And you saw the little forts on the crags and the men on guard
all along the bills, rifles ready! You could hear the guns rattle as they
saluted. Do you know that up there men plough with rifles loaded beside them?
They have to be men indeed.”
“Do you mean to imply that we are not men?”
“Different men at least. This is life in a Border ballad. Such a
life as you knew in France but beautiful in a wild—hawk sort of way. Don’t the
Khyber Rifles bewilder you? They are drawn from these very Hill tribes, and
will shoot their own fathers and brothers in the way of duty as comfortably as
if they were jackals. Once there was a scrap here and one of the tribesmen
sniped our men unbearably. What do you suppose happened? A Khyber Rifle came to
the Colonel and said, ‘Let me put an end to him, Colonel Sahib. I know exactly
where he sits. He is my grandfather.’ And he did it!”
“The bond of bread and salt?”
“Yes, and discipline. I’m sometimes half frightened of discipline.
It moulds a man like wax. Even God doesn’t do that. Well—then you had the
traders—wild shaggy men in sheepskin and women in massive jewelry of silver and
turquoise,-great earrings, heavy bracelets loading their arms, wild, fierce,
handsome. And the camels—thousands of them, some going up, some coming down, a
mass of human and animal life. Above you, moving figures against the keen blue
sky, or deep below you in the ravines.
“The camels were swaying along with huge bales of goods, and dark
beautiful women in wicker cages perched on them. Silks and carpets from
Bokhara, and blue—eyed Persian cats, and bluer Persian turquoises. Wonderful!
And the dust, gilded by the sunshine, makes a vaporous golden atmosphere for it
all.”
“What was the most wonderful thing you saw there?”
“The most beautiful, I think, was a man—a splendid dark ruffian
lounging along. He wanted to show off, and his swagger was perfect. Long black
onyx eyes and a tumble of black curls, and teeth like almonds. But what do you
think he carried on his wrist—a hawk with fierce yellow eyes, ringed and
chained. Hawking is a favourite sport in the hills. Oh, why doesn’t some great
painter come and paint it all before they take to trains and cars? I long to
see it all again, but I never shall.”
“Why not,” said I. “Surely Sir John can get you up there any day?”
“Not now. The fighting makes it difficult. But it isn’t that. I am
leaving.”
“Leaving?” My heart gave a leap. “Why? Where?”
“Leaving Lady Meryon.”
“Why—for Heaven’s sake?”
“I had rather not tell you.”
“But I must know.”
“You cannot.”
“I shall ask Lady Meryon.”
“I forbid you.”
And then the unexpected happened, and an unbearable impulse swept
me into folly—or was it wisdom?
“Listen to me. I would not have said it yet, but this settles it.
I want you to marry me. I want it atrociously!”
It was a strange word. What I felt for her at that moment was
difficult to describe. I endured it like a pain that could only be assuaged by
her presence, but I endured it angrily. We were walking on the sunset road—very
deserted and quiet at the time. The place was propitious if nothing else was.
She looked at me in transparent astonishment;
“Mr. Clifden, are you dreaming? You can’t mean what you say.”
“Why can’t I? I do. I want you. You have the key of all I care
for. I think of the world without you and find it tasteless.”
“Surely you have all the world can give? What do you want more?”
“The power to enjoy it—to understand it. You have got that—I
haven’t. I want you always with me to interpret, like a guide to a blind
fellow. I am no better.”
“Say like a dog, at once!” she interrupted. “At least you are
frank enough to put it on that ground. You have not said you love me. You could
not say it.”
“I don’t know whether I do or not. I know nothing about love. I
want you. Indescribably. Perhaps that is love—is it? I never wanted any one
before. I have tried to get away and I can’t.”
I was brutally frank, you see. She compelled my very thoughts.
“Why have you tried?”
“Because every man likes freedom. But I like you better.” “I can
tell you the reason,” she said in her gentle unwavering voice. “I am Lady
Meryon’s governess, and an undesirable. You have felt that?”
“Don’t make me out such a snob. No—yes. You force me into honesty.
I did feel it at first like the miserable fool I am, but I could kick myself
when I think of that now. It is utterly forgotten. Take me and make me what you
will, and forgive me. Only tell me your secret of joy. How is it you understand
everything alive or dead? I want to live—to see, to know.”
It was a rhapsody like a boy’s. Yet at the moment I was not even
ashamed of it, so sharp was my need.
“I think,” she said, slowly, looking straight before her, “that I
had better be quite frank. I don’t love you. I don’t know what love means in
the Western sense. It has a very different meaning for me. Your voice comes to
me from an immense distance when you speak in that way. You want me—but never
with a thought of what I might want. Is that love? I like you very deeply as a
friend, but we are of different races. There is a gulf.”
“A gulf? You are English.”
“By birth, yes. In mind, no. And there are things that go deeper,
that you could not understand. So I refuse quite definitely, and our ways part
here, for in a few days I go. I shall not see you again, but I wish to say
good-bye.”
The bitterest chagrin was working in my soul. I felt as if all
were deserting me-a sickening feeling of loneliness. I did not know the man who
was in me, and was a stranger to myself.
“I entreat you to tell me why, and where.”
“Since you have made me this offer, I will tell you why. Lady
Meryon objected to my friendship with you, and objected in a way which-”
She stopped, flushing palely. I caught her hand.
“That settles it!-that she should have dared! I’ll go up this
minute and tell her we are engaged. Vanna-Vanna!”
For she disengaged her hand, quietly but firmly.
“On no account. How can I make it more plain to you? I should have
gone soon in any case. My place is in the native city—that is the life I want.
I have work there, I knew it before I came out. My sympathies are all with
them. They know what life is—why even the beggars, poorer than poor, are
perfectly happy, basking in the great generous sun. Oh, the splendour and riot
of life and colour! That’s my life—I sicken of this.”
“But I’ll give it to you. Marry me, and we will travel till you’re
tired of it.”
“Yes, and look on as at a play—sitting in the stalls, and
applauding when we are pleased. No, I’m going to work there.” “For God’s sake,
how? Let me come too.”
“You can’t. You’re not in it. I am going to attach myself to the
medical mission at Lahore and learn nursing, and then I shall go to my own
people.”
“Missionaries? You’ve nothing in common with them?”
“Nothing. But they teach what I want. Mr. Clifden, I shall not
come this way again. If I remember—I’ll write to you, and tell you what the
real world is like.”
She smiled, the absorbed little smile I knew and feared. I saw
pleading was useless then. I would wait, and never lose sight of her and of
hope.
“Vanna, before you go, give me your gift of sight. Interpret for
me. Stay with me a little and make me see.”
“What do you mean exactly?” she asked in her gentlest voice, half
turning to me.
“Make one journey with me, as my sister, if you will do no more.
Though I warn you that all the time I shall be trying to win my wife. But come
with me once, and after that—if you will go, you must. Say yes.”
Madness! But she hesitated—a hesitation full of hope, and looked
at me with intent eyes.
“I will tell you frankly,” she said at last, “that I know my
knowledge of the East and kinship with it goes far beyond mere words. In my
case the doors were not shut. I believe—I know that long ago this was my life.
If I spoke for ever I could not make you understand how much I know and why. So
I shall quite certainly go back to it. Nothing—you least of all, can hold me.
But you are my friend—that is a true bond. And if you would wish me to give you
two months before I go, I might do that if it would in any way help you. As
your friend only—you clearly understand. You would not reproach me afterwards
when I left you, as I should most certainly do?”
“I swear I would not. I swear I would protect you even from
myself. I want you for ever, but if you will only give me two months—come! But
have you thought that people will talk. It may injure you. I’m not worth that,
God knows. And you will take nothing I could give you in return.”
She spoke very quietly.
“That does not trouble me.—It would only trouble me if you asked
what I have not to give. For two months I would travel with you as a friend,
if, like a friend, I paid my own expenses-”
I would have interrupted, but she brushed that firmly aside. “No,
I must do as I say, and I am quite able to or I should not suggest it. I would
go on no other terms. It would be hard if because we are man and woman I might
not do one act of friendship for you before we part. For though I refuse your
offer utterly, I appreciate it, and I would make what little return I can. It
would be a sharp pain to me to distress you.”
Her gentleness and calm, the magnitude of the offer she was making
stunned me so that I could scarcely speak. There was such an extraordinary
simplicity and generosity in her manner that it appeared to me more enthralling
and bewildering than the most finished coquetry I had ever known. She gave me
opportunities that the most ardent lover could in his wildest dream desire, and
with the remoteness in her eyes and her still voice she deprived them of all
hope. It kindled in me a flame that made my throat dry when I tried to speak.
“Vanna, is it a promise? You mean it?”
“If you wish it, yes. But I warn you I think it will not make it
easier for you when the time is over.
“Why two months?”
“Partly because I can afford no more. No! I know what you would
say. Partly because I can spare no more time. But I will give you that, if you
wish, though, honestly, I had very much rather not. I think it unwise for you.
I would protect you if I could—indeed I would!”
It was my turn to hesitate now. Every moment revealed to me some
new sweetness, some charm that I saw would weave itself into the very fibre of
my I had been! Was I not now a fool? Would it not being if the opportunity were
given. Oh, fool that be better to let her go before she had become a part of my
daily experience? I began to fear I was courting my own shipwreck. She read my
thoughts clearly.
“Indeed you would be wise to decide against it. Release me from my
promise. It was a mad scheme.”
The superiority—or so I felt it—of her gentleness maddened me. It
might have been I who needed protection, who was running the risk of
misjudgment—not she, a lonely woman. She looked at me, waiting—trying to be
wise for me, never for one instant thinking of herself. I felt utterly exiled
from the real purpose of her life.
“I will never release you. I claim your promise. I hold to it.”
“Very well then—I will write, and tell you where I shall be.
Good-bye, and if you change your mind, as I hope you will, tell me.”
She extended her hand cool as a snowflake, and was gone, walking
swiftly up the road. Ah, let a man beware when his wishes fulfilled, rain down
upon him!
To what had I committed myself? She knew her
strength and had no fears.
I could scarcely realize that she had liking
enough for me to make the
offer. That it meant no shade more than she had
said I knew well. She
was safe, but what was to be the result for me?
I knew nothing—she was
a beloved mystery.
“Strange
she is and secret, Strange her eyes; her
cheeks are
cold as cold sea-shells.”
Yet I would risk it, for I knew there was no hope if I let her go
now, and if I saw her again, some glimmer might fall upon my dark.
Next day this reached me:—Dear Mr. Clifden,—
I am going to some Indian friends for a time. On the 15th of June
I shall be at Srinagar in Kashmir. A friend has allowed me to take her little
houseboat, the “Kedarnath.” If you like this plan we will share the cost for
two months. I warn you it is not luxurious, but I think you will like it. I
shall do this whether you come or no, for I want a quiet time before I take up
my nursing in Lahore. In thinking of all this will you remember that I am not a
girl but a woman. I shall be twenty-nine my next birthday. Sincerely yours,
VANNA LORING.
P.S. But I still think you would be wiser not to come. I hope to
hear you will not.
I replied only this:—Dear Miss Loring,—I think I understand the
position fully. I will be there. I thank you with all my heart. Gratefully
yours, STEPHEN CLIFDEN.
IV
Three days later I met
Lady Meryon, and was swept in to tea. Her manner was distinctly more cordial as
she mentioned casually that Vanna had left—she understood to take up missionary
work—“which is odd,” she added with a woman’s acrimony, “for she had no more in
common with missionaries than I have, and that is saying a good deal. Of course
she speaks Hindustani perfectly, and could be useful, but I haven’t grasped the
point of it yet.” I saw she counted on my knowing nothing of the real reason of
Vanna’s going and left it, of course, at that. The talk drifted away under my
guidance. Vanna evidently puzzled her. She half feared, and wholly
misunderstood her.
No message came to me, as time went by, and for the time she had
vanished completely, but I held fast to her promise and lived on that only.
I take up my life where it ceased to be a mere suspense and became
life once more.
On the 15th of June, I found myself riding into Srinagar in
Kashmir, through the pure tremulous green of the mighty poplars that hedge the
road into the city. The beauty of the country had half stunned me when I
entered the mountain barrier of Baramula and saw the snowy peaks that guard the
Happy Valley, with the Jhelum flowing through its tranquil loveliness. The
flush of the almond blossom was over, but the iris, like a blue sea of peace
had overflowed the world—the azure meadows smiled back at the radiant sky. Such
blossom! the blue shading into clear violet, like a shoaling sea. The earth,
like a cup held in the hand of a god, brimmed with the draught of youth and
summer and—love? But no, for me the very word was sinister. Vanna’s face,
immutably calm, confronted it.
That night I slept in a boat at Sopor, and I remember that, waking
at midnight, I looked out and saw a mountain with a gloriole of hazy silver
about it, misty and faint as a cobweb threaded with dew. The river, there
spreading into a lake, was dark under it, flowing in a deep smooth blackness of
shadow, and everything awaited—what? And even while I looked, the moon floated
serenely above the peak, and all was bathed in pure light, the water rippling
and shining in broken silver and pearl. So had Vanna floated into my sky,
luminous, sweet, remote. I did not question my heart any more. I knew I loved
her.
Two days later I rode into Srinagar, and could scarcely see the
wild beauty of that strange Venice of the East, my heart was so beating in my
eyes. I rode past the lovely wooden bridges where the balconied houses totter
to each other across the canals in dim splendour of carving and age; where the
many-coloured native life crowds down to the river steps and cleanses its
flower-bright robes, its gold-bright brass vessels in the shining stream, and
my heart said only—Vanna, Vanna!
One day, one thought, of her absence had taught me what she was to
me, and if humility and patient endeavor could raise me to her feet, I was
resolved that I would spend my life in labor and think it well spent.
My servant dismounted and led his horse, asking from every one
where the “Kedarnath” could be found, and eager black eyes sparkled and two
little bronze images detached themselves from the crowd of boys, and ran, fleet
as fauns, before us.
Above the last bridge the Jhelum broadens out into a stately
river, controlled at one side by the banked walk known as the Bund, with the
Club House upon it and the line of houseboats beneath. Here the visitors
flutter up and down and exchange the gossip, the bridge appointments, the
little dinners that sit so incongruously on the pure Orient that is Kashmir.
She would not be here. My heart told me that, and sure enough the
boys were leading across the bridge and by a quiet shady way to one of the many
backwaters that the great river makes in the enchanting city. There is one
waterway stretching on afar to the Dal Lake. It looks like a river—it is the
very haunt of peace. Under those mighty chenar, or plane trees, that are the
glory of Kashmir, clouding the water with deep green shadows, the sun can
scarcely pierce, save in a dipping sparkle here and there to intensify the
green gloom. The murmur of the city, the chatter of the club, are hundreds of
miles away. We rode downward under the towering trees, and dismounting, saw a
little houseboat tethered to the bank. It was not of the richer sort that
haunts the Bund, where the native servants follow in a separate boat, and even
the electric light is turned on as part of the luxury. This was a long low
craft, very broad, thatched like a country cottage afloat. In the forepart
lived the native owner, and his family, their crew, our cooks and servants; for
they played many parts in our service. And in the afterpart, room for a life, a
dream, the joy or curse & many days to be.
But then, I saw only one thing—Vanna sat under the trees, reading,
or looking at the cool dim watery vista, with a single boat, loaded to the
river’s edge with melons and scarlet tomatoes, punting lazily down to Srinagar
in the sleepy afternoon.
She was dressed in white with a shady hat, and her delicate dark
face seemed to glow in the shadow like the heart of a pale rose. For the first
time I knew she was beautiful. Beauty shone in her like the flame in an
alabaster lamp, serene, diffused in the very air about her, so that to me she
moved in a mild radiance. She rose to meet me with both hands outstretched—the
kindest, most cordial welcome. Not an eyelash flickered, not a trace of
self-consciousness. If I could have seen her flush or tremble—but no—her eyes
were clear and calm as a forest pool. So I remembered her. So I saw her once
more.
I tried, with a hopeless pretence, to follow her example and hide
what I felt, where she had nothing to hide.
“What a place you have found. Why, it’s like the deep heart of a
wood!”
“Yes, I saw it once when I was here with the Meryons. But we lay
at the Bund then—just under the Club. This is better. Did you like the ride
up?”
I threw myself on the grass beside her with a feeling of perfect
rest.
“It was like a new heaven and a new earth. What a country!”
The very spirit of Quiet seemed to be drowsing in those branches
towering up into the blue, dipping their green fingers into the crystal of the
water. What a heaven!
“Now you shall have your tea and then I will show you your rooms,”
she said, smiling at my delight. “We shall stay here a few days more that you
may see Srinagar, and then they tow us up into the Dal Lake opposite the
Gardens of the Mogul Emperors. And if you think this beautiful what will you
say then?”
I shut my eyes and see still that first meal of my new life. The
little table that Pir Baksh, breathing full East in his jade-green turban, set
before her, with its cloth worked in a pattern of the chenar leaves that are
the symbol of Kashmir; the brown cakes made by Ahmad Khan in a miraculous
kitchen of his own invention—a few holes burrowed in the river bank, a
smoldering fire beneath them, and a width of canvas for a roof. But it served,
and no more need be asked of luxury. And Vanna, making it mysteriously the
first home I ever had known, the central joy of it all. Oh, wonderful days of
life that breathe the spirit of immortality and pass so quickly—surely they
must be treasured somewhere in Eternity that we may look upon their beloved
light once more.
“Now you must see the boat. The Kedarnath is not a Dreadnought,
but she is broad and very comfortable. And we have many chaperons. They all
live in the bows, and exist simply to protect the Sahiblog from all discomfort,
and very well they do it. That is Ahmad Khan by the kitchen. He cooks for us.
Salama owns the boat, and steers her and engages the men to tow us when we
move. And when I arrived he aired a little English and said piously; The Lord
help me to give you no trouble, and the Lord help you! That is his wife sitting
on the bank. She speaks little but Kashmiri, but I know a little of that. Look
at the hundred rat-tail plaits of her hair, lengthened with wool, and see her
silver and turquoise jewelry. She wears much of the family fortune and is quite
a walking bank. Salama, Ahmad Khan and I talk by the hour. Ahmad comes from
Fyzabad. Look at Salama’s boy—I call him the Orange Imp. Did you ever see
anything so beautiful?”
I looked in sheer delight, and grasped my camera. Sitting near us
was a lovely little Kashmiri boy of about eight, in a faded orange coat, and a
turban exactly like his father’s. His curled black eyelashes were so long that
they made a soft gloom over the upper part of the little golden face. The
perfect bow of the scarlet lips, the long eyes, the shy smile, suggested an
Indian Eros. He sat dipping his feet in the water with little pigeon-like cries
of content.
“He paddles at the bow of our little shikara boat with a paddle
exactly like a water-lily leaf. Do you like our friends? I love them already,
and know all their affairs. And now for the boat.”
“One moment—If we are friends on a great adventure, I must call
you Vanna, and you me Stephen.”
“Yes, I suppose that is part of it,” she said, smiling. “Come,
Stephen.”
It was like music, but a cold music that chilled me. She should
have hesitated, should have flushed—it was I who trembled. So I followed her
across the broad plank into our new home.
“This is our sitting-room. Look, how charming!”
It was better than charming; it was home indeed. Windows at each
side opening down almost to the water, a little table for meals that lived
mostly on the bank, with a grey pot of iris in the middle. Another table for
writing, photography, and all the little pursuits of travel. A bookshelf with
some well—worn friends. Two long cushioned chairs. Two for meals, and a Bokhara
rug, soft and pleasant for the feet. The interior was plain unpainted wood, but
set so that the grain showed like satin in the rippling lights from the water.
That is the inventory of the place I have loved best in the world,
but what eloquence can describe what it gave me, what its memory gives me to
this day? And I have no eloquence—what I felt leaves me dumb.
“It is perfect,” was all I said as she waved her hand proudly. “It
is home.”
“And if you had come alone to Kashmir you would have had a great
rich boat with electric light and a butler. You would never have seen the
people except at meal—times. I think you will like this better. Well, this is
your tiny bedroom, and your bathroom, and beyond the sitting—room are mine. Do
you like it all?”
But I could say no more. The charm of her own personality had
touched everything and left its fragrance like a flower—breath in the air. I
was beggared of thanks, but my whole soul was gratitude. We dined on the bank
that evening, the lamp burning steadily in the still air and throwing broken
reflections in the water, while the moon looked in upon them through the
leaves. I felt extraordinarily young and happy.
The quiet of her voice was soft as the little lap of water against
the bows of the boat, and Kahdra, the Orange Imp, was singing a little wordless
song to himself as he washed the plates beside us. It was a simple meal, and
Vanna, abstemious as a hermit never ate anything but rice and fruit, but I
could remember no meal in all my days of luxury where I had eaten with such
zest.
“It looks very grand to have so many to wait upon us, doesn’t it?
But this is one of the cheapest countries in the world though the old timers
mourn over present expenses. You will laugh when I show you your share of the
cost.”
“The wealth of the world could not buy this,” I said, and was
silent.
“But you must listen to my plans. We must do a little camping the
last three weeks before we part. Up in the mountains. Are they not marvellous?
They stand like a rampart round us, but not cold and terrible, but “Like as the
hills stand round about Jerusalem”—they are guardian presences. And running up
into them, high-very high, are the valleys and hills where we shall camp.
Tomorrow we shall row through Srinagar, by the old Maharaja’s palace.”
V
And so began a life of
sheer enchantment. We knew no one. The visitors in Kashmir change nearly every
season, and no one cared-no one asked anything of us, and as for our shipmates,
a willing affectionate service was their gift, and no more. Looking back, I
know in what a wonder-world I was privileged to live. Vanna could talk with
them all. She did not move apart, a condescending or indifferent foreigner.
Kahdra would come to her knee and prattle to her of the great snake that lived
up on Mahadeo to devour erring boys who omitted their prayers at proper Moslem
intervals. She would sit with the baby in her lap while the mother busied
herself in the sunny bows with the mysterious dishes that smelt so savory to a
hungry man. The cuts, the bruises of the neighbourhood all came to Vanna for
treatment.
“I am graduating as a nurse,” she would say laughing as she bent
over the lean arm of some weirdly wrinkled old lady, bandaging and soothing at
the same moment. Her reward would be some bit of folk-lore, some quaintness of
gratitude that I noted down in the little book I kept for remembrance—that I do
not need, for every word is in my heart.
We rowed down through the city next day—Salama rowing, and little
Kahdra lazily paddling at the bow—a wonderful city, with its narrow ways
begrimed with the dirt of ages, and its balconied houses looking as if disease
and sin had soaked into them and given them a vicious tottering beauty,
horrible and yet lovely too. We saw the swarming life of the bazaar, the white
turbans coming and going, diversified by the rose and yellow Hindu turbans, and
the caste-marks, orange and red, on the dark brows.
I saw two women—girls—painted and tired like Jezebel, looking out
of one window carved and old, and the grey burnished doves flying about it.
They leaned indolently, like all the old, old wickedness of the East that yet
is ever young—“Flowers of Delight,” with smooth black hair braided with gold
and blossoms, and covered with pale rose veils, and gold embossed disks
swinging like lamps beside the olive cheeks, the great eyes artificially
lengthened and darkened with soorma, and the curves of the full lips emphasized
with vermilion. They looked down on us with apathy, a dull weariness that held
all the old evil of the wicked humming city.
It had taken shape in those indolent bodies and heavy eyes that
could flash into life as a snake wakes into fierce darting energy when the time
comes to spring—direct inheritrixes from Lilith, in the fittest setting in the
world—the almost exhausted vice of an Oriental city as old as time.
“And look-below here,” said Vanna, pointing to one of the ghauts—long
rugged steps running down to the river.
“When I came yesterday, a great broken crowd was collected here,
almost shouldering each other into the water where a boat lay rocking. In it
lay the body of a man brutally murdered for the sake of a few rupees and flung
into the river. I could see the poor brown body stark in the boat with a friend
weeping beside it. On the lovely deodar bridge people leaned over, watching
with a grim open-mouthed curiosity, and business went on gaily where the
jewelers make the silver bangles for slender wrists, and the rows of silver
chains that make the necks like ‘the Tower of Damascus builded for an armory.’
It was all very wild and cruel. I went down to them-”
“Vanna—you went down? Horrible!”
“No, you see I heard them say the wife was almost a child and
needs help. So I went. Once long ago at Peshawar I saw the same thing happen,
and they came and took the child for the service of the gods, for she was most
lovely, and she clung to the feet of a man in terror, and the priest stabbed
her to the heart. She died in my arms.
“Good God!” I said, shuddering; “what a sight for you! Did they
never hang him?”
“He was not punished. I told you it was a very long time ago. Her
expression had a brooding quiet as she looked down into the running river,
almost it might be as if she saw the picture of that past misery in the deep
water. She said no more. But in her words and the terrible crowding of its
life, Srinagar seemed to me more of a nightmare than anything I had seen,
excepting only Benares; for the holy Benares is a memory of horror, with a
sense of blood hidden under its frantic crazy devotion, and not far hidden
either.
“Our own green shade, when we pulled back to it in the evening
cool, was a refuge of unspeakable quiet. She read aloud to me that evening by
the small light of our lamp beneath the trees, and, singularly, she read of
joy.
“I have drunk of the Cup of the Ineffable, I have found the key of
the Mystery, Travelling by no track I have come to the Sorrowless Land; very
easily has the mercy of the great Lord come upon me. Wonderful is that Land of
rest to which no merit can win. There have I seen joy filled to the brim,
perfection of joy. He dances in rapture and waves of form arise from His dance.
He holds all within his bliss.”
“What is that?”
“It is from the songs of the great Indian mystic—Kabir. Let me
read you more. It is like the singing of a lark, lost in the infinite of light
and heaven.”
So in the soft darkness I heard for the first time those immortal
words; and hearing, a faint glimmer of understanding broke upon me as to the
source of the peace that surrounded her. I had accepted it as an emanation of
her own heart when it was the pulsing of the tide of the Divine. She read,
choosing a verse here and there, and I listened with absorption.
Suppose I had been wrong in believing that sorrow is the keynote
of life; that pain is the road of ascent, if road there be; that an implacable
Nature and that only, presides over all our pitiful struggles and seekings and
writes a black “Finis” to the holograph of our existence?
What then? What was she teaching me? Was she the Interpreter of a
Beauty eternal in the heavens, and reflected like a broken prism in the beauty
that walked visible beside me? So I listened like a child to an unknown
language, yet ventured my protest.
“In India, in this wonderful country where men have time and will
for speculation such thoughts may be natural. Can they be found in the West?”
“This is from the West—might not Kabir himself have said it?
Certainly he would have felt it. ‘Happy is he who seeks not to understand the
Mystery of God, but who, merging his spirit into Thine, sings to Thy face, O
Lord, like a harp, understanding how difficult it is to know—how easy to love
Thee.’ We debate and argue and the Vision passes us by. We try to prove it, and
kill it in the laboratory of our minds, when on the altar of our souls it will
dwell for ever.”
Silence—and I pondered. Finally she laid the book aside, and
repeated from memory and in a tone of perfect music; “Kabir says, ‘I shall go
to the House of my Lord with my Love at my side; then shall I sound the trumpet
of triumph.’”
And when she left me alone in the moonlight silence the old doubts
came back to me—the fear that I saw only through her eyes, and began to believe
in joy only because I loved her. I remember I wrote in the little book I kept
for my stray thoughts, these words which are not mine but reflect my thought of
her; “Thine is the skill of the Fairy Woman, and the virtue of St. Bride, and
the faith of Mary the Mild, and the gracious way of the Greek woman, and the
beauty of lovely Emer, and the tenderness of heart-sweet Deirdre, and the
courage of Maev the great Queen, and the charm of Mouth-of-Music.”
Yes, all that and more, but I feared lest I should see the heaven
of joy through her eyes only and find it mirage as I had found so much else.
SECOND PART Early in the pure dawn the men came and our boat was
towed up into the Dal Lake through crystal waterways and flowery banks, the men
on the path keeping step and straining at the rope until the bronze muscles
stood out on their legs and backs, shouting strong rhythmic phrases to mark the
pull.
“They shout the Wondrous Names of God—as they are called,” said
Vanna when I asked. “They always do that for a timid effort. Bad shah! The
Lord, the Compassionate, and so on. I don’t think there is any religion about
it but it is as natural to them as One, Two, Three, to us. It gives a
tremendous lift. Watch and see.”
It was part of the delightful strangeness that we should move to
that strong music. We sat on the upper deck and watched the dream—like beauty
drift slowly by until we emerged beneath a little bridge into the fairy land of
the lake which the Mogul Emperors loved so well that they made their noble
pleasance gardens on the banks, and thought it little to travel up yearly from
far—off Delhi over the snowy Pir Panjal with their Queens and courts for the
perfect summer of Kashmir.
We moored by a low bank under a great wood of chenar trees, and saw
the little table in the wilderness set in the greenest shade with our chairs
beside it, and my pipe laid reverently upon it by Kahdra.
Across the glittering water lay on one side the Shalimar Garden
known to all readers of “Lalla Ruhk”—a paradise of roses; and beyond it again
the lovelier gardens of Nour-Mahal, the Light of the Palace, that imperial
woman who ruled India under the weak Emperor’s name—she whose name he set thus
upon his coins:
“By order of King Jehangir. Gold has a hundred splendours added to
it by receiving the name of Nour-Jahan the Queen.”
Has any woman ever had a more royal homage than this most royal
lady—known first as Mihr-u-nissa—Sun of Women, and later, Nour-Mahal, Light of
the Palace, and latest, Nour-Jahan-Begam, Queen, Light of the World?
Here in these gardens she had lived—had seen the snow mountains
change from the silver of dawn to the illimitable rose of sunset. The life, the
colour beat insistently upon my brain. They built a world of magic where every
moment was pure gold. Surely—surely to Vanna it must be the same. I believed in
my very soul that she who gave and shared such joy could not be utterly apart
from me? Could I then feel certain that I had gained any ground in these days
we had been together? Could she still define the cruel limits she had laid
down, or were her eyes kinder, her tones a more broken music? I did not know.
Whenever I could hazard a guess the next minute baffled me.
Just then, in the sunset, she was sitting on deck, singing under
her breath and looking absently away to the Gardens across the Lake. I could
catch the words here and there, and knew them.
“Pale
hands I loved beside the Shalimar,
Where
are you now—who lies beneath your spell?
Whom do
you lead on Rapture’s roadway far,
Before
you agonize them in farewell?”
“Don’t!” I said abruptly. It stung me.
“What?” she asked in surprise. “That is the song every one
remembers here. Poor Laurence Hope! How she knew and loved this India! What are
you grumbling at?”
Her smile stung me.
“Never mind,” I said morosely. “You don’t understand. You never
will.”
And yet I believed sometimes that she would—that time was on my
side.
When Kahdra and I pulled her across to Nour-Mahal’s garden next
day, how could I not believe it—her face was so full of joy as she looked at me
for sympathy?
“I don’t think so much beauty is crowded into any other few miles
in the world—beauty of association, history, nature, everything!” she said with
shining eyes. “The lotus flowers are not out yet but when they come that is the
last touch of perfection. Do you remember Homer—‘But whoso ate of the
honey-sweet fruit of the lotus, was neither willing to bring me word again, nor
to depart. Nay, their desire was to remain there for ever, feeding on the lotus
with the Lotus Eaters, forgetful of all return.’ You know the people here eat
the roots and seeds? I ate them last year and perhaps that is why I cannot stay
away. But look at Nour-Mahal’s garden!”
We were pulling in among the reeds and the huge carven leaves of
the water plants, and the snake-headed buds lolling upon them with the slippery
half-sinister look that water-flowers have, as though their cold secret life
belonged to the hidden water world and not to ours. But now the boat was
touching the little wooden steps.
O beautiful—most beautiful the green lawns, shaded with huge
pyramids of the chenar trees, the terraced gardens where the marble steps
climbed from one to the other, and the mountain streams flashed singing and
shining down the carved marble slopes that cunning hands had made to delight
the Empress of Beauty, between the wildernesses of roses. Her pavilion stands
still among the flowers, and the waters ripple through it to join the lake—and
she is—where? Even in the glory of sunshine the passing of all fair things was
present with me as I saw the empty shell that had held the Pearl of Empire, and
her roses that still bloom, her waters that still sing for others.
The spray of a hundred fountains was misty diamond dust in the
warm air laden with the scent of myriad flowers. Kahdra followed us everywhere,
singing his little tuneless happy song. The world brimmed with beauty and joy.
And we were together. Words broke from me.
“Vanna, let it be for ever! Let us live here. I’ll give up all the
world for this and you.”
“But you see,” she said delicately, “it would be ‘giving up.’ You
use the right word. It is not your life. It is a lovely holiday, no more. You
would weary of it. You would want the city life and your own kind.”
I protested with all my soul.
“No. Indeed I will say frankly that it would be lowering yourself
to live a lotus-eating life among my people. It is a life with which you have
no tie. A Westerner who lives like that steps down; he loses his birthright
just as an Oriental does who Europeanizes himself. He cannot live your life nor
you his. If you had work here it would be different. No—six or eight weeks
more; then go away and forget it.”
I turned from her. The serpent was in Paradise. When is he absent?
On one of the terraces a man was beating a tom-tom, and veiled
women listened, grouped about him in brilliant colours.
“Isn’t that all India?” she said; “that dull reiterated sound? It
half stupefies, half maddens. Once at Darjiling I saw the Lamas’ Devil
Dance—the soul, a white-faced child with eyes unnaturally enlarged, fleeing
among a rabble of devils—the evil passions. It fled wildly here and there and
every way was blocked. The child fell on its knees, screaming dumbly—you could
see the despair in the staring eyes, but all was drowned in the thunder of
Tibetan drums. No mercy—no escape. Horrible!”
“Even in Europe the drum is awful,” I said. “Do you remember in
the French Revolution how they Drowned the victims’ voices in a thunder roll of
drums?”
“I shall always see the face of the child, hunted down to hell,
falling on its knees, and screaming without a sound, when I hear the drum. But
listen—a flute! Now if that were the Flute of Krishna you would have to follow.
Let us come!”
I could hear nothing of it, but she insisted and we followed the
music, inaudible to me, up the slopes of the garden that is the foot-hill of
the mighty mountain of Mahadeo, and still I could hear nothing. And Vanna told
me strange stories of the Apollo of India whom all hearts must adore, even as
the herd-girls adored him in his golden youth by Jumna river and in the
pastures of Brindaban.
Next day we were climbing the hill to the ruins where the evil
magician brought the King’s daughter nightly to his will, flying low under a
golden moon. Vanna took my arm and I pulled her laughing up the steepest
flowery slopes until we reached the height, and lo! the arched windows were
eyeless and a lonely breeze blowing through the cloisters, and the beautiful
yellowish stone arches supported nothing and were but frames for the blue of
far lake and mountain and the divine sky. We climbed the broken stairs where
the lizards went by like flashes, and had I the tongue of men and angels I
could not tell the wonder that lay before us,—the whole wide valley of Kashmir
in summer glory, with its scented breeze singing, singing above it.
We sat on the crushed aromatic herbs and among the wild roses and
looked down.
“To think,” she said, “that we might have died and never seen it!”
There followed a long silence. I thought she was tired, and would
not break it. Suddenly she spoke in a strange voice, low and toneless;
“The story of this place. She was the Princess Padmavati, and her
home was in Ayodhya. When she woke and found herself here by the lake she was
so terrified that she flung herself in and was drowned. They held her back, but
she died.”
“How do you know?”
“Because a wandering monk came to the abbey of Tahkt-i-Bahi near
Peshawar and told Vasettha the Abbot.”
I had nearly spoilt all by an exclamation, but I held myself back.
I saw she was dreaming awake and was unconscious of what she said.
“The Abbot said, ‘Do not describe her. What talk is this for holy
men? The young monks must not hear. Some of them have never seen a woman.
Should a monk speak of such toys?’ But the wanderer disobeyed and spoke, and
there was a great tumult, and the monks threw him out at the command of the
young Abbot, and he wandered down to Peshawar, and it was he later—the evil
one!—that brought his sister, Lilavanti the Dancer, to Peshawar, and the Abbot
fell into her snare. That was his revenge!”
Her face was fixed and strange, for a moment her cheek looked
hollow, her eyes dim and grief-worn. What was she seeing?—what remembering? Was
it a story—a memory? What was it?
“She was beautiful?” I prompted.
“Men have said so, but for it he surrendered the Peace. Do not
speak of her accursed beauty.”
Her voice died away to a drowsy murmur; her head dropped on my
shoulder and for the mere delight of contact I sat still and scarcely breathed,
praying that she might speak again, but the good minute was gone. She drew one
or two deep breaths, and sat up with a bewildered look that quickly passed.
“I was quite sleepy for a minute. The climb was so strenuous.
Hark—I hear the Flute of Krishna again.”
And again I could hear nothing, but she said it was sounding from
the trees at the base of the hill. Later when we climbed down I found she was
right—that a peasant lad, dark and amazingly beautiful as these Kashmiris often
are, was playing on the flute to a girl at his feet—looking up at him with rapt
eyes. He flung Vanna a flower as we passed. She caught it and put it in her
bosom. A singular blossom, three petals of purest white, set against three
leaves of purest green, and lower down the stem the three green leaves were
repeated. It was still in her bosom after dinner, and I looked at it more
closely.
“That is a curious flower,” I said. “Three and three and three.
Nine. That makes the mystic number. I never saw a purer white. What is it?”
“Of course it is mystic,” she said seriously. “It is the Ninefold
Flower. You saw who gave it?”
“That peasant lad.”
She smiled.
“You will see more some day. Some might not even have seen that.”
“Does it grow here?”
“This is the first I have seen. It is said to grow only where the
gods walk. Do you know that throughout all India Kashmir is said to be holy
ground? It was called long ago the land of the gods, and of strange, but not
evil, sorceries. Great marvels were seen here.”
I felt the labyrinthine enchantments of that enchanted land were
closing about me—a slender web, grey, almost impalpable, finer than fairy silk,
was winding itself about my feet. My eyes were opening to things I had not
dreamed. She saw my thought.
“Yes, you could not have seen even that much of him in Peshawar.
You did not know then.”
“He was not there,” I answered, falling half unconsciously into
her tone.
“He is always there—everywhere, and when he plays, all who hear
must follow. He was the Pied Piper in Hamelin, he was Pan in Hellas. You will
hear his wild fluting in many strange places when you know how to listen. When
one has seen him the rest comes soon. And then you will follow.”
“Not away from you, Vanna.”
“From the marriage feast, from the Table of the Lord,” she said,
smiling strangely. “The man who wrote that spoke of another call, but it is the
same—Krishna or Christ. When we hear the music we follow. And we may lose or
gain heaven.”
It might have been her compelling personality—it might have been
the marvels of beauty about me, but I knew well I had entered at some mystic
gate. A pass word had been spoken for me—I was vouched for and might go in.
Only a little way as yet. Enchanted forests lay beyond, and perilous seas, but
there were hints, breaths like the wafting of the garments of unspeakable
Presences. My talk with Vanna grew less personal, and more introspective. I
felt the touch of her finger-tips leading me along the ways of Quiet—my feet
brushed a shining dew. Once, in the twilight under the chenar trees, I saw a
white gleaming and thought it a swiftly passing Being, but when in haste I
gained the tree I found there only a Ninefold flower, white as a spirit in the
evening calm. I would not gather it but told Vanna what I had seen.
“You nearly saw;” she said. “She passed so quickly. It was the
Snowy One, Uma, Parvati, the Daughter of the Himalaya. That mountain is the
mountain of her lord—Shiva. It is natural she should be here. I saw her last
night lean over the height—her face pillowed on her folded arms, with a low
star in the mists of her hair. Her eyes were like lakes of blue darkness. Vast
and wonderful. She is the Mystic Mother of India. You will see soon. You could
not have seen the flower until now.”
“Do you know,” she added, “that in the mountains there are poppies
of clear blue—blue as turquoise. We will go up into the heights and find them.”
And next moment she was planning the camping details, the men, the
ponies, with a practical zest that seemed to relegate the occult to the absurd.
Yet the very next day came a wonderful moment.
The sun was just setting and, as it were, suddenly the purple
glooms banked up heavy with thunder. The sky was black with fury, the earth
passive with dread. I never saw such lightning—it was continuous and tore in
zigzag flashes down the mountains like rents in the substance of the world’s
fabric. And the thunder roared up in the mountain gorges with shattering
echoes. Then fell the rain, and the whole lake seemed to rise to meet it, and
the noise was like the rattle of musketry. We were standing by the cabin window
and she suddenly caught my hand, and I saw in a light of their own two dancing
figures on the tormented water before us. Wild in the tumult, embodied delight,
with arms tossed violently above their heads, and feet flung up behind them,
skimming the waves like seagulls, they passed. Their sex I could not tell—I
think they had none, but were bubble emanations of the rejoicing rush of the
rain and the wild retreating laughter of the thunder. I saw the fierce aerial
faces and their inhuman glee as they fled by, and she dropped my hand and they
were gone. Slowly the storm lessened, and in the west the clouds tore raggedly
asunder and a flood of livid yellow light poured down upon the lake—an awful
light that struck it into an abyss of fire. Then, as if at a word of command,
two glorious rainbows sprang across the water with the mountains for their
piers, each with its proper colours chorded. They made a Bridge of Dread that
stood out radiant against the background of storm—the Twilight of the Gods, and
the doomed gods marching forth to the last fight. And the thunder growled
sullenly away into the recesses of the hill and the terrible rainbows faded
until the stars came quietly out and it was a still night.
But I had seen that what is our dread is the joy of the spirits of
the Mighty Mother, and though the vision faded and I doubted what I had seen,
it prepared the way for what I was yet to see. A few days later we started on
what was to be the most exquisite memory of my life. A train of ponies carried
our tents and camping necessaries and there was a pony for each of us. And so,
in the cool grey of a divine morning, with little rosy clouds flecking the
eastern sky, we set out from Islamabad for Vernag. And this was the order of
our going. She and I led the way, attended by a sais (groom) and a coolie
carrying the luncheon basket. Half way we would stop in some green dell, or by
some rushing stream, and there rest and eat our little meal while the rest of
the cavalcade passed on to the appointed camping place, and in the late
afternoon we would follow, riding slowly, and find the tents pitched and the
kitchen department in full swing. If the place pleased us we lingered for some
days;—if not, the camp was struck next morning, and again we wandered in search
of beauty.
The people were no inconsiderable part of my joy. I cannot see
what they have to gain from such civilization as ours—a kindly people and
happy. Courtesy and friendliness met us everywhere, and if their labor was
hard, their harvest of beauty and laughter seemed to be its reward. The little
villages with their groves of walnut and fruit trees spoke of no unfulfilled
want, the mulberries which fatten the sleek bears in their season fattened the
children too. I compared their lot with that of the toilers in our cities and
knew which I would choose. We rode by shimmering fields of barley, with red
poppies floating in the clear transparent green as in deep sea water, through
fields of millet like the sky fallen on the earth, so innocently blue were its
blossoms, and the trees above us were trellised with the wild roses, golden and
crimson, and the ways tapestried with the scented stars of the large white
jasmine.
It was strange that later much of what she said, escaped me. Some
I noted down at the time, but there were hints, shadows of lovelier things
beyond that eluded all but the fringes of memory when I tried to piece them
together and make a coherence of a living wonder. For that reason, the best
things cannot be told in this history. It is only the cruder, grosser matters
that words will hold. The half-touchings—vanishing looks, breaths—O God, I know
them, but cannot tell.
In the smaller villages, the head man came often to greet us and
make us welcome, bearing on a flat dish a little offering of cakes and fruit,
the produce of the place. One evening a man so approached, stately in white
robes and turban, attended by a little lad who carried the patriarchal gift
beside him. Our tents were pitched under a glorious walnut tree with a running
stream at our feet.
Vanna of course, was the interpreter, and I called her from her
tent as the man stood salaaming before me. It was strange that when she came,
dressed in white, he stopped in his salutation, and gazed at her in what, I
thought, was silent wonder.
She spoke earnestly to him, standing before him with clasped
hands, almost, I could think, in the attitude of a suppliant. The man listened
gravely, with only an interjection, now and again, and once he turned and
looked curiously at me. Then he spoke, evidently making some announcement which
she received with bowed head—and when he turned to go with a grave salute, she
performed a very singular ceremony, moving slowly round him three times with
clasped hands; keeping him always on the right. He repaid it with the usual
salaam and greeting of peace, which he bestowed also on me, and then departed
in deep meditation, his eyes fixed on the ground. I ventured to ask what it all
meant, and she looked thoughtfully at me before replying.
“It was a strange thing. I fear you will not altogether understand,
but I will tell you what I can. That man though living here among Mahomedans,
is a Brahman from Benares, and, what is very rare in India, a Buddhist. And
when he saw me he believed he remembered me in a former birth. The ceremony you
saw me perform is one of honour in India. It was his due.”
“Did you remember him?” I knew my voice was incredulous.
“Very well. He has changed little but is further on the upward
path. I saw him with dread for he holds the memory of a great wrong I did. Yet
he told me a thing that has filled my heart with joy.”
“Vanna-what is it?”
She had a clear uplifted look which startled me. There was
suddenly a chill air blowing between us.
“I must not tell you yet but you will know soon. He was a good
man. I am glad we have met.”
She buried herself in writing in a small book I had noticed and
longed to look into, and no more was said.
We struck camp next day and trekked on towards Vernag—a rough
march, but one of great beauty, beneath the shade of forest trees, garlanded
with pale roses that climbed from bough to bough and tossed triumphant wreaths
into the uppermost blue.
In the afternoon thunder was flapping its wings far off in the
mountains and a little rain fell while we were lunching under a big tree. I was
considering anxiously how to shelter Vanna, when a farmer invited us to his
house—a scene of Biblical hospitality that delighted us both. He led us up some
break-neck little stairs to a large bare room, open to the clean air all round
the roof, and with a kind of rough enclosure on the wooden floor where the
family slept at night. There he opened our basket, and then, with anxious care,
hung clothes and rough draperies about us that our meal might be unwatched by
one or two friends who had followed us in with breathless interest. Still
further to entertain us a great rarity was brought out and laid at Vanna’s feet
as something we might like to watch—a curious bird in a cage, with brightly
barred wings and a singular cry. She fed it with fruit, and it fluttered to her
hand. Just so Abraham might have welcomed his guests, and when we left with
words of deepest gratitude, our host made the beautiful obeisance of touching
his forehead with joined hands as he bowed. To me the whole incident had an
extraordinary grace, and ennobled both host and guest. But we met an ascending
scale of loveliness so varied in its aspects that I passed from one emotion to
another and knew no sameness.
That afternoon the camp was pitched at the foot of a mighty hill,
under the waving pyramids of the chenars, sweeping their green like the robes
of a goddess. Near by was a half circle of low arches falling into ruin, and as
we went in among them I beheld a wondrous sight—the huge octagonal tank or
basin made by the Mogul Emperor Jehangir to receive the waters of a mighty
Spring which wells from the hill and has been held sacred by Hindu and Moslem.
And if loveliness can sanctify surely it is sacred indeed.
The tank was more than a hundred feet in diameter and circled by a
roughly paved pathway where the little arched cells open that the devotees may
sit and contemplate the lustral waters. There on a black stone, is sculptured
the Imperial inscription comparing this spring to the holier wells of Paradise,
and I thought no less of it, for it rushes straight from the rock with no
aiding stream, and its waters are fifty feet deep, and sweep away from this
great basin through beautiful low arches in a wild foaming river—the crystal
life-blood of the mountains for ever welling away. The colour and perfect
purity of this living jewel were most marvellous—clear blue-green like a
chalcedony, but changing as the lights in an opal—a wonderful quivering
brilliance, flickering with the silver of shoals of sacred fish.
But the Mogul Empire is with the snows of yesteryear and the
wonder has passed from the Moslems into the keeping of the Hindus once more,
and the Lingam of Shiva, crowned with flowers, is the symbol in the little
shrine by the entrance. Surely in India, the gods are one and have no
jealousies among them—so swiftly do their glories merge the one into the other.
“How all the Mogul Emperors loved running water,” said Vanna. “I
can see them leaning over it in their carved pavilions with delicate dark faces
and pensive eyes beneath their turbans, lost in the endless reverie of the East
while liquid melody passes into their dream. It was the music they best loved.”
She was leading me into the royal garden below, where the young
river flows beneath the pavilion set above and across the rush of the water.
“I remember before I came to India,” she went on, “there were
certain words and phrases that meant the whole East to me. It was an
enchantment. The first flash picture I had was Milton’s—
‘Dark
faces with white silken turbans wreathed.’
and it still is. I have thought ever since that every man should
wear a turban. It dignifies the un-comeliest and it is quite curious to see how
many inches a man descends in the scale of beauty the moment he takes it off
and you see only the skull-cap about which they wind it. They wind it with
wonderful skill too. I have seen a man take eighteen yards of muslin and throw
it round his head with a few turns, and in five or six minutes the beautiful
folds were all in order and he looked like a king. Some of the Gujars here wear
black ones and they are very effective and worth painting—the black folds and
the sullen tempestuous black brows underneath.”
We sat in the pavilion for awhile looking down on the rushing
water, and she spoke of Akbar, the greatest of the Moguls, and spoke with a curious
personal touch, as I thought.
“I wish you would try to write a story of him—one on more human
lines than has been done yet. No one has accounted for the passionate quest of
truth that was the real secret of his life. Strange in an Oriental despot if
you think of it! It really can only be understood from the Buddhist belief,
which curiously seems to have been the only one he neglected, that a mysterious
Karma influenced all his thoughts. If I tell you as a key-note for your story,
that in a past life he had been a Buddhist priest—one who had fallen away,
would that in any way account to you for attempts to recover the lost way? Try
to think that out, and to write the story, not as a Western mind sees it, but
pure East.”
“That would be a great book to write if one could catch the voices
of the past. But how to do it?”
“I will give you one day a little book that may help you. The
other story I wish you would write is the story of a Dancer of Peshawar. There
is a connection between the two—a story of ruin and repentance.”
“Will you tell it to me?”
“A part. In this same book you will find much more, but not all.
All cannot be told. You must imagine much. But I think your imagination will be
true.”
“Why do you think so?”
“Because in these few days you have learnt so much. You have seen
the Ninefold Flower, and the rain spirits. You will soon hear the Flute of
Krishna which none can hear who cannot dream true.”
That night I heard it. I waked, suddenly, to music, and standing
in the door of my tent, in the dead silence of the night, lit only by a few low
stars, I heard the poignant notes of a flute. If it had called my name it could
not have summoned me more clearly, and I followed without a thought of delay,
forgetting even Vanna in the strange urgency that filled me. The music was
elusive, seeming to come first from one side, then from the other, but finally
I tracked it as a bee does a flower by the scent, to the gate of the royal
garden—the pleasure place of the dead Emperors.
The gate stood ajar—strange! for I had seen the custodian close it
that evening. Now it stood wide and I went in, walking noiselessly over the
dewy grass. I knew and could not tell how, that I must be noiseless. Passing as
if I were guided, down the course of the strong young river, I came to the
pavilion that spanned it—the place where we had stood that afternoon—and there
to my profound amazement, I saw Vanna, leaning against a slight wooden pillar.
As if she had expected me, she laid one finger on her lip, and stretching out
her hand, took mine and drew me beside her as a mother might a child. And
instantly I saw!
On the further bank a young man in a strange diadem or miter of
jewels, bare-breasted and beautiful, stood among the flowering oleanders, one
foot lightly crossed over the other as he stood. He was like an image of pale
radiant gold, and I could have sworn that the light came from within rather
than fell upon him, for the night was very dark. He held the flute to his lips,
and as I looked, I became aware that the noise of the rushing water was
tapering off into a murmur scarcely louder than that of a summer bee in the
heart of a rose. Therefore the music rose like a fountain of crystal drops,
cold, clear, and of an entrancing sweetness, and the face above it was such
that I had no power to turn my eyes away. How shall I say what it was? All I
had ever desired, dreamed, hoped, prayed, looked at me from the remote beauty
of the eyes and with the most persuasive gentleness entreated me, rather than
commanded to follow fearlessly and win. But these are words, and words shaped
in the rough mould of thought cannot convey the deep desire that would have
hurled me to his feet if Vanna had not held me with a firm restraining hand.
Looking up in adoring love to the dark face was a ring of woodland creatures. I
thought I could distinguish the white clouded robe of a snow-leopard, the soft
clumsiness of a young bear, and many more, but these shifted and blurred like
dream creatures—I could not be sure of them nor define their numbers. The eyes
of the Player looked down upon their passionate delight with careless kindness.
Dim images passed through my mind. Orpheus—No, this was no Greek.
Pan-yet again, No. Where were the pipes, the goat hoofs? The young Dionysos—No,
there were strange jewels instead of his vines. And then Vanna’s voice said as
if from a great distance;
“Krishna—the Beloved.” And I said aloud, “I see!” And even as I
said it the whole picture blurred together like a dream, and I was alone in the
pavilion and the water was foaming past me. Had I walked in my sleep, I
thought, as I made my way hack? As I gained the garden gate, before me, like a
snowflake, I saw the Ninefold Flower.
When I told her next day, speaking of it as a dream, she said
simply; “They have opened the door to you. You will not need me soon.
“I shall always need you. You have taught me everything. I could
see nothing last night until you took my hand.”
“I was not there,” she said smiling. “It was only the thought of
me, and you can have that when I am very far away. I was sleeping in my tent.
What you called in me then you can always call, even if I am—dead.”
“That is a word which is beginning to have no meaning for me. You
have said things to me—no, thought them, that have made me doubt if there is
room in the universe for the thing we have called death.”
She smiled her sweet wise smile.
“Where we are death is not. Where death is we are not. But you
will understand better soon.”
Our march curving took us by the Mogul gardens of Achibal, and the
glorious ruins of the great Temple at Martund, and so down to Bawan with its
crystal waters and that loveliest camping ground beside them. A mighty grove of
chenar trees, so huge that I felt as if we were in a great sea cave where the
air is dyed with the deep shadowy green of the inmost ocean, and the murmuring
of the myriad leaves was like a sea at rest. I looked up into the noble height
and my memory of Westminster dwindled, for this led on and up to the infinite
blue, and at night the stars hung like fruit upon the branches. The water ran
with a great joyous rush of release from the mountain behind, but was first
received in a broad basin full of sacred fish and reflecting a little temple of
Maheshwara and one of Surya the Sun. Here in this basin the water lay pure and
still as an ecstasy, and beside it was musing the young Brahman priest who
served the temple. Since I had joined Vanna I had begun with her help to study
a little Hindustani, and with an aptitude for language could understand here
and there. I caught a word or two as she spoke with him that startled me, when
the high-bred ascetic face turned serenely upon her, and he addressed her as
“My sister,” adding a sentence beyond my learning, but which she willingly
translated later.—“May He who sits above the Mysteries, have mercy upon thy
rebirth.”
She said afterwards;
“How beautiful some of these men are. It seems a different type of
beauty from ours, nearer to nature and the old gods. Look at that priest—the
tall figure, the clear olive skin, the dark level brows, the long lashes that
make a soft gloom about the eyes—eyes that have the fathomless depth of a
deer’s, the proud arch of the lip. I think there is no country where
aristocracy is more clearly marked than in India. The Brahmans are aristocrats
of the world. You see it is a religious aristocracy as well. It has everything
that can foster pride and exclusiveness. They spring from the Mouth of Deity.
They are His word incarnate. Not many kings are of the Brahman caste, and the
Brahmans look down upon them from Sovereign heights. I have known men who would
not eat with their own rulers who would have drunk the water that washed the
Brahmans’ feet.”
She took me that day, the Brahman with us, to see a cave in the
mountain. We climbed up the face of the cliff to where a little tree grew on a
ledge, and the black mouth yawned. We went in and often it was so low we had to
stoop, leaving the sunlight behind until it was like a dim eye glimmering in
the velvet blackness. The air was dank and cold and presently obscene with the
smell of bats, and alive with their wings, as they came sweeping about us,
gibbering and squeaking. I thought of the rush of the ghosts, blown like dead
leaves in the Odyssey. And then a small rock chamber branched off, and in this,
lit by a bit of burning wood, we saw the bones of a holy man who lived and died
there four hundred years ago. Think of it! He lived there always, with the slow
dropping of water from the dead weight of the mountain above his head, drop by
drop tolling the minutes away: the little groping feet through the cave that
would bring him food and drink, hurrying into the warmth and sunlight again,
and his only companion the sacred Lingam which means the Creative Energy that
sets the worlds dancing for joy round the sun—that, and the black solitude to
sit down beside him. Surely his bones can hardly be dryer and colder now than
they were then! There must be strange ecstasies in such a life—wild visions in
the dark, or it could never be endured.
And so, in marches of about ten miles a day, we came to Pahlgam on
the banks of the dancing Lidar. There was now only three weeks left of the time
she had promised. After a few days at Pahlgam the march would turn and bend its
way back to Srinagar, and to—what? I could not believe it was to separation—in
her lovely kindness she had grown so close to me that, even for the sake of
friendship, I believed our paths must run together to the end, and there were
moments when I could still half convince myself that I had grown as necessary
to her as she was to me. No—not as necessary, for she was life and soul to me,
but a part of her daily experience that she valued and would not easily part
with. That evening we were sitting outside the tents, near the camp fire, of
pine logs and cones, the leaping flames making the night beautiful with gold
and leaping sparks, in an attempt to reach the mellow splendours of the moon.
The men, in various attitudes of rest, were lying about, and one had been
telling a story which had just ended in excitement and loud applause.
“These are Mahomedans,” said Vanna, “and it is only a story of
love and fighting like the Arabian Nights. If they had been Hindus, it might
well have been of Krishna or of Rama and Sita. Their faith comes from an
earlier time and they still see visions. The Moslem is a hard practical faith
for men—men of the world too. It is not visionary now, though it once had its
great mysteries.”
“I wish you would tell me what you think of the visions or
apparitions of the gods that are seen here. Is it all illusion? Tell me your
thought.”
“How difficult that is to answer. I suppose if love and faith are
strong enough they will always create the vibrations to which the greater
vibrations respond, and so make God in their own image at any time or place.
But that they call up what is the truest reality I have never doubted. There is
no shadow without a substance. The substance is beyond us but under certain
conditions the shadow is projected and we see it.
“Have I seen or has it been dream?”
“I cannot tell. It may have been the impress of my mind on yours,
for I see such things always. You say I took your hand?”
“Take it now.”
She obeyed, and instantly, as I felt the firm cool clasp, I heard
the rain of music through the pines—the Flute Player was passing. She dropped it
smiling and the sweet sound ceased.
“You see! How can I tell what you have seen? You will know better
when I am gone. You will stand alone then.”
“You will not go—you cannot. I have seen how you have loved all
this wonderful time. I believe it has been as dear to you as to me. And every
day I have loved you more. I depend upon you for everything that makes life
worth living. You could not—you who are so gentle—you could not commit the
senseless cruelty of leaving me when you have taught me to love you with every
beat of my heart. I have been patient—I have held myself in, but I must speak
now. Marry me, and teach me. I know nothing. You know all I need to know. For
pity’s sake be my wife.”
I had not meant to say it; it broke from me in the firelight
moonlight with a power that I could not stay. She looked at me with a disarming
gentleness.
“Is this fair? Do you remember how at Peshawar I told you I
thought it was a dangerous experiment, and that it would make things harder for
you. But you took the risk like a brave man because you felt there were things
to be gained—knowledge, insight, beauty. Have you not gained them?”
“Yes. Absolutely.”
“Then, is it all loss if I go?”
“Not all. But loss I dare not face.”
“I will tell you this. I could not stay if I would. Do you
remember the old man on the way to Vernag? He told me that I must very soon
take up an entirely new life. I have no choice, though if I had I would still
do it.”
There was silence and down a long arcade, without any touch of her
hand I heard the music, receding with exquisite modulations to a very great
distance, and between the pillared stems, I saw a faint light.
“Do you wish to go?”
“Entirely. But I shall not forget you, Stephen. I will tell you
something. For me, since I came to India, the gate that shuts us out at birth
has opened. How shall I explain? Do you remember Kipling’s ‘Finest Story in the
World’?”
“Yes. Fiction!”
“Not fiction—true, whether he knew it or no. But for me the door
has opened wide. First, I remembered piecemeal, with wide gaps, then more
connectedly. Then, at the end of the first year, I met one day at Cawnpore, an
ascetic, an old man of great beauty and wisdom, and he was able by his own
knowledge to enlighten mine. Not wholly—much has come since then. Has come,
some of it in ways you could not understand now, but much by direct sight and
hearing. Long, long ago I lived in Peshawar, and my story was a sorrowful one.
I will tell you a little before I go.”
“I hold you to your promise. What is there I cannot believe when
you tell me? But does that life put you altogether away from me? Was there no
place for me in any of your memories that has drawn us together now? Give me a
little hope that in the eternal pilgrimage there is some bond between us and
some rebirth where we may met again.”
“I will tell you that also before we part. I have grown to believe
that you do love me—and therefore love something which is infinitely above me.”
“And do you love me at all? Am I nothing, Vanna—Vanna?”
“My friend,” she said, and laid her hand on mine.
A silence, and then she spoke, very low.
“You must be prepared for very great change, Stephen, and yet
believe that it does not really change things at all. See how even the gods
pass and do not change! The early gods of India are gone and Shiva, Vishnu,
Krishna have taken their places and are one and the same. The old Buddhist
stories say that in heaven “The flowers of the garland the God wore are
withered, his robes of majesty are waxed old and faded; he falls from his high
estate, and is re-born into a new life.” But he lives still in the young God
who is born among men. The gods cannot die, nor can we nor anything that has
life. Now I must go in.”
I sat long in the moonlight thinking. The whole camp was sunk in
sleep and the young dawn was waking upon the peaks when I turned in.
The days that were left we spent in wandering up the Lidar River
to the hills that are the first ramp of the ascent to the great heights. We
found the damp corners where the mushrooms grow like pearls—the mushrooms of
which she said—“To me they have always been fairy things. To see them in the
silver-grey dew of the early mornings—mysteriously there like the manna in the
desert—they are elfin plunder, and as a child I was half afraid of them. No
wonder they are the darlings of folklore, especially in Celtic countries where
the Little People move in the starlight. Strange to think they are here too
among strange gods!”
We climbed to where the wild peonies bloom in glory that few eyes
see, and the rosy beds of wild sweet strawberries ripen. Every hour brought
with it some new delight, some exquisiteness of sight or of words that I shall
remember for ever. She sat one day on a rock, holding the sculptured leaves and
massive seed-vessels of some glorious plant that the Kashmiris believe has
magic virtues hidden in the seeds of pure rose embedded in the white down.
“If you fast for three days and eat nine of these in the Night of
No Moon, you can rise on the air light as thistledown and stand on the peak of
Haramoukh. And on Haramoukh, as you know it is believed, the gods dwell. There
was a man here who tried this enchantment. He was a changed man for ever after,
wandering and muttering to himself and avoiding all human intercourse as far as
he could. He was no Kashmiri—A Jat from the Punjab, and they showed him to me
when I was here with the Meryons, and told me he would speak to none. But I
knew he would speak to me, and he did.”
“Did he tell you anything of what he had seen in the high world up
yonder?”
“He said he had seen the Dream of the God. I could not get more
than that. But there are many people here who believe that the Universe as we
know it is but an image in the dream of Ishvara, the Universal Spirit—in whom
are all the gods—and that when He ceases to dream we pass again into the Night
of Brahm, and all is darkness until the Spirit of God moves again on the face
of the waters. There are few temples to Brahm. He is above and beyond all
direct worship.”
“Do you think he had seen anything?”
“What do I know? Will you eat the seeds? The Night of No Moon will
soon be here.”
She held out the seed-vessels, laughing. I write that down but how
record the lovely light of kindliness in her eyes—the almost submissive
gentleness that yet was a defense stronger than steel. I never knew—how should
I?—whether she was sitting by my side or heavens away from me in her own
strange world. But always she was a sweetness that I could not reach, a cup of
nectar that I might not drink, unalterably her own and never mine, and yet—my
friend.
She showed me the wild track up into the mountains where the
Pilgrims go to pay their devotions at the Great God’s shrine in the awful
heights, regretting that we were too early for that most wonderful sight. Above
where we were sitting the river fell in a tormented white cascade, crashing and
feathering into spray-dust of diamonds. An eagle was flying above it with a
mighty spread of wings that seemed almost double-jointed in the middle—they
curved and flapped so wide and free. The fierce head was outstretched with the
rake of a plundering galley as he swept down the wind, seeking his meat from
God, and passed majestic from our sight. The valley beneath us was littered
with enormous boulders spilt from the ancient hollows of the hills. It must
have been a great sight when the giants set them trundling down in work or
play!—I said this to Vanna, who was looking down upon it with meditative eyes.
She roused herself.
“Yes, this really is Giant-Land up here—everything is so huge. And
when they quarrel up in the heights—in Jotunheim—and the black storms come down
the valleys it is like colossal laughter or clumsy boisterous anger. And the
Frost giants are still at work up there with their great axes of frost and
rain. They fling down the side of a mountain or make fresh ways for the rivers.
About sixty years ago—far above here—they tore down a mountain side and damned
up the mighty Indus, so that for months he was a lake, shut back in the hills.
But the river giants are no less strong up here in the heights of the world, and
lie lay brooding and hiding his time. And then one awful day he tore the
barrier down and roared down the valley carrying death and ruin with him, and
swept away a whole Sikh army among other unconsidered trifles. That must have
been a soul-shaking sight.”
She spoke on, and as she spoke I saw. What are her words as I
record them? Stray dead leaves pressed in a book—the life and grace dead. Yet I
record, for she taught me what I believe the world should learn, that the
Buddhist philosophers are right when they teach that all forms of what we call
matter are really but aggregates of spiritual units, and that life itself is a
curtain hiding reality as the vast veil of day conceals from our sight the
countless orbs of space. So that the purified mind even while prisoned in the
body, may enter into union with the Real and, according to attainment, see it
as it is.
She was an interpreter because she believed this truth profoundly.
She saw the spiritual essence beneath the lovely illusion of matter, and the
air about her was radiant with the motion of strange forces for which the dull
world has many names aiming indeed at the truth, but falling—O how far short of
her calm perception! She was indeed of a Household higher than the Household of
Faith. She had received enlightenment. She beheld with open eyes.
Next day our camp was struck and we turned our faces again to
Srinagar and to the day of parting. I set down but one strange incident of our
journey, of which I did not speak even to her.
We were camping at Bijbehara, awaiting our house boat, and the
site was by the Maharaja’s lodge above the little town. It was midnight and I
was sleepless—the shadow of the near future was upon me. I wandered down to the
lovely old wooded bridge across the Jhelum, where the strong young trees grow
up from the piles. Beyond it the moon was shining on the ancient Hindu remains
close to the new temple, and as I stood on the bridge I could see the figure of
a man in deepest meditation by the ruins. He was no European. I saw the straight
dignified folds of the robes. But it was not surprising he should be there and
I should have thought no more of it, had I not heard at that instant from the
further side of the river the music of the Flute. I cannot hope to describe
that music to any who have not heard it. Suffice it to say that where it calls
he who hears must follow whether in the body or the spirit. Nor can I now tell
in which I followed. One day it will call me across the River of Death, and I
shall ford it or sink in the immeasurable depths and either will be well.
But immediately I was at the other side of the river, standing by
the stone Bull of Shiva where he kneels before the Symbol, and looking
steadfastly upon me a few paces away was a man in the dress of a Buddhist monk.
He wore the yellow robe that leaves one shoulder bare; his head was bare also
and he held in one hand a small bowl like a stemless chalice. I knew I was
seeing a very strange inexplicable sight—one that in Kashmir should be
incredible, but I put wonder aside for I knew now that I was moving in the
sphere where the incredible may well be the actual. His expression was of the
most unbroken calm. If I compare it to the passionless gaze of the Sphinx I
misrepresent, for the Riddle of the Sphinx still awaits solution, but in this
face was a noble acquiescence and a content that had it vibrated must have
passed into joy.
Words or their equivalent passed between us. I felt his voice.
“You have heard the music of the Flute?”
“I have heard.”
“What has it given?”
“A consuming longing.”
“It is the music of the Eternal. The creeds and the faiths are the
words that men have set to that melody. Listening, it will lead you to Wisdom.
Day by day you will interpret more surely.”
“I cannot stand alone.”
“You will not need. What has led you will lead you still. Through
many births it has led you. How should it fail?”
“What should I do?”
“Go forward.”
“What should I shun?”
“Sorrow and fear.”
“What should I seek?”
“Joy.”
“And the end?”
“Joy. Wisdom. They are the Light and Dark of the Divine.” A cold
breeze passed and touched my forehead. I was still standing in the middle of
the bridge above the water gliding to the Ocean, and there was no figure by the
Bull of Shiva. I was alone. I passed back to the tents with the shudder that is
not fear but akin to death upon me. I knew I had been profoundly withdrawn from
what we call actual life, and the return is dread.
The days passed as we floated down the river to Srinagar. On board
the Kedarnath, now lying in our first berth beneath the chenars near and yet
far from the city, the last night had come. Next morning I should begin the
long ride to Baramula and beyond that barrier of the Happy Valley down to
Murree and the Punjab. Where afterwards? I neither knew nor cared. My lesson
was before me to be learned. I must try to detach myself from all I had
prized—to say to my heart it was but a loan and no gift, and to cling only to
the imperishable. And did I as yet certainly know more than the A B C of the
hard doctrine by which I must live? “Que vivre est difficile, O mon cocur
fatigue!”—an immense weariness possessed me—a passive grief.
Vanna would follow later with the wife of an Indian doctor. I
believed she was bound for Lahore but on that point she had not spoken
certainly and I felt we should not meet again.
And now my packing was finished, and, as far as my possessions
went, the little cabin had the soulless emptiness that comes with departure. I
was enduring as best I could. If she had held loyally to her pact, could I do
less. Was she to blame for my wild hope that in the end she would relent and
step down to the household levels of love?
She sat by the window—the last time I should see the moonlit banks
and her clear face against them. I made and won my fight for the courage of
words.
“And now I’ve finished everything—thank goodness! and we can talk.
Vanna—you will write to me?”
“Once. I promise that.”
“Only once? Why? I counted on your words.”
“I want to speak to you of something else now. I want to tell you
a memory. But look first at the pale light behind the Takht-i-Suliman.”
So I had seen it with her. So I should not see it again. We
watched until a line of silver sparkled on the black water, and then she spoke
again.
“Stephen, do you remember in the ruined monastery near Peshawar,
how I told you of the young Abbot, who came down to Peshawar with a Chinese
pilgrim? And he never returned.”
“I remember. There was a Dancer.”
“There was a Dancer. She was Lilavanti, and she was brought there
to trap him but when she saw him she loved him, and that was his ruin and hers.
Trickery he would have known and escaped. Love caught him in an unbreakable
net, and they fled down the Punjab and no one knew any more. But I know. For
two years they lived together and she saw the agony in his heart—the anguish of
his broken vows, the face of the Blessed One receding into an infinite
distance. She knew that every day added a link to the heavy Karma that was
bound about the feet she loved, and her soul said “Set him free,” and her heart
refused the torture. But her soul was the stronger. She set him free.”
“How?”
“She took poison. He became an ascetic in the hills and died in
peace but with a long expiation upon him.”
“And she?”
“I am she.”
“You!” I heard my voice as if it were another man’s. Was it
possible that I—a man of the twentieth century, believed this impossible thing?
Impossible, and yet—what had I learnt if not the unity of Time, the illusion of
matter? What is the twentieth century, what the first? Do they not lie before
the Supreme as one, and clean from our petty divisions? And I myself had seen
what, if I could trust it, asserted the marvels that are no marvels to those
who know.
“You loved him?”
“I love him.”
“Then there is nothing at all for me.”
She resumed as if she had heard nothing.
“I have lost him for many lives. He stepped above me at once, for
he was clean gold though he fell, and though I have followed I have not found.
But that Buddhist beyond Islamabad—you shall hear now what he said. It was
this. ‘The shut door opens, and this time he awaits.’ I cannot yet say all it
means, but there is no Lahore for me. I shall meet him soon.”
“Vanna, you would not harm yourself again?”
“Never. I should not meet him. But you will see. Now I can talk no
more. I will be there tomorrow when you go, and I will ride with you to the
poplar road.”
She passed like a shadow into her little dark cabin, and I was
left alone. I will not dwell on that black loneliness of the spirit, for it has
passed—it was the darkness of hell, a madness of jealousy, and could have no enduring
life in any heart that had known her. But it was death while it lasted. I had
moments of horrible belief, of horrible disbelief, but however it might be I
knew that she was out of reach for ever. Near me—yes! but only as the silver
image of the moon floated in the water by the boat, with the moon herself cold
myriads of miles away. I will say no more of that last eclipse of what she had
wrought in me.
The bright morning came, sunny as if my joys were beginning
instead of ending. Vanna mounted her horse and led the way from the boat. I
cast one long look at the little Kedarnath, the home of those perfect weeks, of
such joy and sorrow as would have seemed impossible to me in the chrysalis of
my former existence. Little Kahdra stood crying bitterly on the bank—the kindly
folk who had served us were gathered saddened and quiet. I set my teeth and
followed her.
How dear she looked, how kind, how gentle her appealing eyes, as I
drew up beside her. She knew what I felt. She knew that the sight of little Kahdra
crying as he said good—bye was the last pull at my sore heart. Still she rode
steadily on, and still I followed. Once she spoke.
“Stephen, there was a man in Peshawar, kind and true, who loved
that Lilavanti who had no heart for him. And when she died, it was in his arms,
as a sister might cling to a brother, for the man she loved had left her. It
seems that will not be in this life, but do not think I have been so blind that
I did not know my friend.”
I could not answer—it was the realization of the utmost I could
hope and it came like healing to my spirit. Better that bond between us, slight
as most men might think it, than the dearest and closest with a woman not
Vanna. It was the first thrill of a new joy in my heart—the first, I thank the
Infinite, of many and steadily growing joys and hopes that cannot be uttered
here.
I bent to take the hand she stretched to me, but even as they
touched, I saw, passing behind the trees by the road, the young man I had seen
in the garden at Vernag—most beautiful, in the strange miter of his jewelled
diadem. His flute was at his lips and the music rang out sudden and crystal
clear as though a woodland god were passing to awaken all the joys of the dawn.
The horses heard too. In an instant hers had swerved wildly, and she
lay on the ground at my feet. The music had ceased.
Days had gone before I could recall what had happened then. I
lifted her in my arms and carried her into the rest-house near at hand, and the
doctor came and looked grave, and a nurse was sent from the Mission Hospital.
No doubt all was done that was possible, but I knew from the first what it
meant and how it would be. She lay in a white stillness, and the room was quiet
as death. I remembered with unspeakable gratitude later that the nurse had been
merciful and had not sent me away.
So Vanna lay all day and through the night, and when the dawn came
again she stirred and motioned with her hand, although her eyes were closed. I
understood, and kneeling, I put my hand under her head, and rested it against
my shoulder. Her faint voice murmured at my ear.
“I dreamed—I was in the pine wood at Pahlgam and it was the Night
of No Moon, and I was afraid for it was dark, but suddenly all the trees were
covered with little lights like stars, and the greater light was beyond.
Nothing to be afraid of.”
“Nothing, Beloved.”
“And I looked beyond Peshawar, further than eyes could see, and in
the ruins of the monastery where we stood, you and I—I saw him, and he lay with
his head at the feet of the Blessed One. That is well, is it not?”
“Well, Beloved.”
“And it is well I go? Is it not?”
“It is well.”
A long silence. The first sun ray touched the floor. Again the
whisper.
“Believe what I have told you. For we shall meet again.” I
repeated—
“We shall meet again.”
In my arms she died.
Later, when all was over I asked myself if I believed this and
answered with full assurance—Yes.
If the story thus told sounds incredible it was not incredible to
me. I had had a profound experience. What is a miracle? It is simply the vision
of the Divine behind nature. It will come in different forms according to the
eyes that see, but the soul will know that its perception is authentic.
I could not leave Kashmir, nor was there any need. On the contrary
I saw that there was work for me here among the people she had loved, and my
first aim was to fit myself for that and for the writing I now felt was to be
my career in life. After much thought I bought the little Kedarnath and made it
my home, very greatly to the satisfaction of little Kahdra and all the friendly
people to whom I owed so much.
Vanna’s cabin I made my sleeping room, and it is the simple truth
that the first night I slept in the place that was a Temple of Peace in my
thoughts, I had a dream of wordless bliss, and starting awake for sheer joy I
saw her face in the night, human and dear, looking down upon me with that
poignant sweetness which would seem to be the utmost revelation of love and
pity. And as I stretched my hands, another face dawned solemnly from the shadow
beside her with grave brows bent on mine—one I had known and seen in the ruins
at Bijbehara. Outside and very near I could hear the silver weaving of the
Flute that in India is the symbol of the call of the Divine. A dream—yes, but
it taught me to live. At first, in my days of grief and loss, I did but
dream—the days were hard to endure. I will not dwell on that illusion of
sorrow, now long dead. I lived only for the night.
“When
sleep comes to close each difficult day,
When
night gives pause to the long watch I keep,
And
all my bonds I needs must loose apart,
Must
doff my will as raiment laid away—
With
the first dream that comes with the first sleep,
I
run—I run! I am gathered to thy heart!”
To the heart of her pity. Thus for awhile I lived. Slowly I became
conscious of her abiding presence about me, day or night It grew clearer,
closer.
Like the austere Hippolytus to his unseen Goddess, I could say;
“Who am
more to thee than other mortals are,
Whose
is the holy lot,
As
friend with friend to walk and talk with thee,
Hearing thy sweet mouth’s music in mine ear,
But
thee beholding not.”
That was much, but later, the sunshine was no bar, the bond
strengthened and there have been days in the heights of the hills, in the
depths of the woods, when I saw her as in life, passing at a distance, but real
and lovely. Life? She had never lived as she did now—a spirit, freed and
rejoicing. For me the door she had opened would never shut. The Presences were
about me, and I entered upon my heritage of joy, knowing that in Kashmir, the
holy land of Beauty, they walk very near, and lift up the folds of the Dark
that the initiate may see the light behind.
So I began my solitary life of gladness. I wrote, aided by the
little book she had left me, full of strangest stories, stranger by far than my
own brain could conceive. Some to be revealed—some to be hidden. And thus the
world will one day receive the story of the Dancer of Peshawar in her upward
lives, that it may know, if it will, that death is nothing—for Life and Love
are all.
3.THE INCOMPARABLE LADY
A STORY OF CHINA WITH A MORAL
It is recorded that when
the Pearl Empress (his mother) asked of the philosophic Yellow Emperor which he
considered the most beautiful of the Imperial concubines, he replied instantly:
“The Lady A-Kuei”: and when the Royal Parent in profound astonishment demanded
bow this could be, having regard to the exquisite beauties in question, the
Emperor replied;
“I have never seen her. It was dark when I entered the Dragon Chamber
and dusk of dawn when I rose and left her.”
Then said the Pearl Princess;
“Possibly the harmony of her voice solaced the Son of Heaven?”
But he replied;
“She spoke not.”
And the Pearl Empress rejoined:
“Her limbs then are doubtless softer than the kingfisher’s
plumage?”
But the Yellow Emperor replied;
“Doubtless. Yet I have not touched them. I was that night immersed
in speculations on the Yin and the Yang. How then should I touch a woman?”
And the Pearl Empress was silent from very great amazement, not
daring to question further but marveling how the thing might be. And seeing
this, the Yellow Emperor recited a poem to the following effect:
“It is
said that Power rules the world
And
who shall gainsay it?
But
Loveliness is the head-jewel upon the brow of Power.”
And when the Empress had listened with reverence to the Imperial
Poet, she quitted the August Presence.
Immediately, having entered her own palace of the Tranquil
Motherly Virtues, she caused the Lady A-Kuei to be summoned to her presence,
who came, habited in a purple robe and with pins of jade and coral in her hair.
And the Pearl Empress considered her attentively, recalling the perfect
features of the White Jade Concubine, the ambrosial smile of the Princess of
Feminine Propriety, and the willow-leaf eyebrows of the Lady of Chen, and her
astonishment was excessive, because the Lady A-Kuei could not in beauty
approach any one of these ladies. Reflecting further she then placed her behind
the screen, and summoned the court artist, Lo Cheng, who had been formerly
commissioned to paint the heavenly features of the Emperor’s Ladies, mirrored
in still water, though he had naturally not been permitted to view the beauties
themselves. Of him the Empress demanded:
“Who is the most beautiful—which the most priceless jewel of the
dwellers in the Dragon Palace?”
And, with humility, Lo Cheng replied:
“What mortal man shall decide between the white Crane and the
Swan, or between the paeony flower and the lotus?” And having thus said he
remained silent, and in him was no help. Finally and after exhortation the
Pearl Empress condescended to threaten him with the loss of a head so useless
to himself and to her majesty. Then, in great fear and haste he replied:
“Of all the flowers that adorn the garden of the Sun of Heaven,
the Lady A-Kuei is the fittest to be gathered by the Imperial Hand, and this is
my deliberate opinion.”
Now, hearing this statement, the Pearl Empress was submerged in
bewilderment, knowing that the Lady A-Kuei had modestly retired when the artist
had depicted the reflection of the assembled loveliness of the Inner Chambers,
as not counting herself worthy of portraiture, and her features were therefore
unknown to him. Nor could the Empress further question the artist, for when she
had done so, he replied only:
“This is the secret of the Son of Heaven,” and, having gained
permission, he swiftly departed.
Nor could the Lady A-Kuei herself aid her Imperial Majesty, for on
being questioned she was overwhelmed with modesty and confusion, and with
stammering lips could only repeat:
“This is the secret of his Divine Majesty,” imploring with the
utmost humility, forgiveness from the Imperial Mother.
The Pearl Empress was unable to eat her supper. In vain were
spread before her the delicacies of the Empire. She could but trifle with a
shark’s fin and a “Silver Ear” fungus and a dish of slugs entrapped upon roses,
with the dew-like pearls upon them. Her burning curiosity had wholly deprived
her of appetite, nor could the amusing exertions of the Palace mimes, or a
lantern fete upon the lake restore her to any composure. “This circumstance
will cause my flight on the Dragon (death),” she said to herself, “unless I
succeed in unveiling the mystery. What therefore should be my next proceeding?”
And so, deeply reflecting, she caused the Chief of the Eunuchs to
summon the Princess of Feminine Propriety, the White Jade Concubine and all the
other exalted beauties of the Heavenly Palace.
In due course of time these ladies arrived, paying suitable
respect and obeisance to the Mother of his Divine Majesty. They were
resplendent in king-fisher ornaments, in jewels of jade, crystal and coral, in
robes of silk and gauze, and still more resplendent in charms that not the
Celestial Empire itself could equal, setting aside entirely all countries of
the foreign barbarians. And in grace and elegance of manners, in skill in the
arts of poetry and the lute, what could surpass them?
Like a parterre of flowers they surrounded her Majesty, and
awaited her pleasure with perfect decorum, when, having saluted them with
affability she thus addressed them—“Lovely ones—ladies distinguished by the
particular attention of your sovereign and mine, I have sent for you to resolve
a doubt and a difficulty. On questioning our sovereign as to whom he regarded
as the loveliest of his garden of beauty he benignantly replied: “The Lady
A-Kuei is incomparable,” and though this may well be, he further graciously
added that he had never seen her. Nor, on pursuing the subject, could I learn
the Imperial reason. The artist Lo Cheng follows in his Master’s footsteps, he
also never having seen the favored lady, and he and she reply to me that this
is an Imperial secret. Declare to me therefore if your perspicacity and the
feminine interest which every lady property takes in the other can unravel this
mystery, for my liver is tormented with anxiety beyond measure.”
As soon as the Pearl Empress had spoken she realized that she had
committed a great indiscretion. A babel of voices, of cries, questions and
contradictions instantly arose. Decorum was abandoned. The Lady of Chen
swooned, nor could she be revived for an hour, and the Princess of Feminine
Propriety and the White Jade Concubine could be dragged apart only by the
united efforts of six of the Palace matrons, so great was their fury the one
with the other, each accusing each of encouragement to the Lady A-Kuei’s
pretensions. So also with the remaining ladies. Shrieks resounded through the
Hall of Virtuous Tranquillity, and when the Pearl Empress attempted to pour oil
on the troubled waters by speaking soothing and comfortable words, the august
Voice was entirely inaudible in the tumult.
All sought at length in united indignation for the Lady A-Kuei,
but she had modestly withdrawn to the Pearl Pavilion in the Imperial Garden
and, foreseeing anxieties, had there secured herself on hearing the opening of
the Royal Speech.
Finally the ladies were led away by their attendants, weeping,
lamenting, raging, according to their several dispositions, and the Pearl
Empress, left with her own maidens, beheld the floor strewn with jade pins,
kingfisher and coral jewels, and even with fragments of silk and gauze. Nor was
she any nearer the solution of the desired secret.
That night she tossed upon a bed sleepless though heaped with
down, and her mind raged like a fire up and down all possible answers to the
riddle, but none would serve. Then, at the dawn, raising herself on one august
elbow she called to her venerable nurse and foster mother, the Lady Ma, wise
and resourceful in the affairs and difficulties of women, and, repeating the
circumstances, demanded her counsel.
The Lady Ma considering the matter long and deeply, slowly
replied:
“This is a great riddle and dangerous, for to intermeddle with the
divine secrets is the high road to the Yellow Springs (death). But the child of
my breasts and my exalted Mistress shall never ask in vain, for a thwarted
curiosity is dangerous as a suppressed fever. I will conceal myself nightly in
the Dragon Bedchamber and this will certainly unveil the truth. And if I perish
I perish.”
It is impossible to describe how the Empress heaped Lady Ma with
costly jewels and silken brocades and taels of silver beyond measuring—how she
placed on her breast the amulet of jade that had guarded herself from all evil
influences, how she called the ancestral spirits to witness that she would
provide for the Lady Ma’s remotest descendants if she lost her life in this
sublime devotion to duty.
That night Lady Ma concealed herself behind the Imperial couch in
the Dragon Chamber, to await the coming of the Son of Heaven. Slowly dripped
the water-clock as the minutes fled away; sorely ached the venerable limbs of
the Lady Ma as she crouched in the shadows and saw the rising moon scattering
silver through the elegant traceries of carved ebony and ivory; wildly beat her
heart as delicately tripping footsteps approached the Dragon Chamber, and the
Princess of Feminine Propriety, attended by her maidens, ascended the Imperial
Couch and hastily dismissed them. Yet no sweet repose awaited this favored
lady. The Lady Ma could hear her smothered sobs, her muttered exclamations—nay
could even feel the couch itself tremble as the Princess uttered the hated name
of the Lady A-Kuei, the poison of jealousy running in every vein. It was
impossible for Lady Ma to decide which was the most virulent, this, or the
poison of curiosity in the heart of the Pearl Empress. Though she loved not the
Princess she was compelled to pity such suffering. But all thought was banished
by the approach of the Yellow Emperor, prepared for repose and unattended, in
simple but divine grandeur.
It cannot indeed be supposed that a Celestial Emperor is human,
yet there was mortality in the start which his Augustness gave when the
Princess of Feminine Propriety flinging herself from the Dragon couch, threw
herself at his feet and with tears that flowed like that river known as “The
Sorrow of China,” demanded to know what she had done that another should be
preferred before her; reciting in frantic haste such imperfections of the Lady
A-Kuei’s appearance as she could recall (or invent) in the haste of that
agitating moment.
“That one of her eyes is larger than the other—no human being can
doubt” sobbed the lady—“and surely your Divine Majesty cannot be aware that her
hair reaches but to her waist, and that there is a brown mole on the nape of
her neck? When she sings it resembles the croak of the crow. It is true that
most of the Palace ladies are chosen for anything but beauty, yet she is the
most ill-favored. And is it this—this bat-faced lady who is preferred to me!
Would I had never been born: Yet even your Majesty’s own lips have told me I am
fair!”
The Yellow Emperor supported the form of the Princess in his arms.
There are moments when even a Son of Heaven is but human. “Fair as the
rainbow,” he murmured, and the Princess faintly smiled; then gathering the
resolution of the Philosopher he added manfully—“But the Lady A-Kuei is
incomparable. And the reason is—”
The Lady Ma eagerly stretched her head forward with a hand to
either ear. But the Princess of Feminine Propriety with one shriek had swooned
and in the hurry of summoning attendants and causing her to be conveyed to her
own apartments that precious sentence was never completed.
Still the Lady Ma groveled behind the Dragon Couch as the Son of
Heaven, left alone, approached the veranda and apostrophizing the moon,
murmured—
“O loveliest pale watcher of the destinies of men, illuminate the
beauty of the Lady A-Kuei, and grant that I who have never seen that beauty may
never see it, but remain its constant admirer!” So saying, he sought his
solitary couch and slept, while the Lady Ma, in a torment of bewilderment,
glided from the room.
The matter remained in suspense for several days. The White Jade
Concubine was the next lady commanded to the Dragon Chamber, and again the Lady
Ma was in her post of observation. Much she heard, much she saw that was not to
the point, but the scene ended as before by the dismissal of the lady in tears,
and the departure of the Lady Ma in ignorance of the secret.
The Emperor’s peace was ended.
The singular circumstance was that the Lady A-Kuei was never
summoned by the Yellow Emperor. Eagerly as the Empress watched, no token of
affection for her was ever visible. Nothing could be detected. It was
inexplicable. Finally, devoured by curiosity that gave her no respite, she
resolved on a stratagem that should dispel the mystery, though it carried with
it a risk on which she trembled to reflect. It was the afternoon of a languid
summer day, and the Yellow Emperor, almost unattended, had come to pay a visit
of filial respect to the Pearl Empress. She received him with the ceremony due
to her sovereign in the porcelain pavilion of the Eastern Gardens, with the
lotos fish ponds before them, and a faint breeze occasionally tinkling the
crystal wind-bells that decorated the shrubs on the cloud and dragon-wrought
slopes of the marble approach. A bird of brilliant plumage uttered a cry of
reverence from its gold cage as the Son of Heaven entered. As was his
occasional custom, and after suitable inquiries as to his parent’s health, the
attendants were all dismissed out of earshot and the Emperor leaned on his
cushions and gazed reflectively into the sunshine outside. So had the Court
Artist represented him as “The Incarnation of Philosophic Calm.”
“These gardens are fair,” said the Empress after a respectful
silence, moving her fan illustrated with the emblem of Immortality—the Ho Bird.
“Fair indeed,” returned the Emperor.—“It might be supposed that
all sorrow and disturbance would be shut without the Forbidden Precincts. Yet
it is not so. And though the figures of my ladies moving among the flowers
appear at this distance instinct with joy, yet—”
He was silent.
“They know not,” said the Empress with solemnity “that death
entered the Forbidden Precincts but last night. A disembodied spirit has
returned to its place and doubtless exists in bliss.” “Indeed?” returned the
Yellow Emperor with indifference—“yet if the spirit is absorbed into the Source
whence it came, and the bones have crumbled into nothingness, where does the
Ego exist? The dead are venerable, but no longer of interest.”
“Not even when they were loved in life?” said the Empress,
caressing the bird in the cage with one jewelled finger, but attentively
observing her son from the corner of her august eye. “They were; they are not,”
he remarked sententiously and stifling a yawn; it was a drowsy afternoon. “But
who is it that has abandoned us? Surely not the Lady Ma—your Majesty’s faithful
foster-mother?”
“A younger, a lovelier spirit has sought the Yellow Springs,”
replied the trembling Empress. “I regret to inform your Majesty that a sudden
convulsion last night deprived the Lady A-Kuei of life. I would not permit the
news to reach you lest it should break your august night’s rest.”
There was a silence, then the Emperor turned his eyes serenely
upon his Imperial Mother. “That the statement of my august Parent is merely—let
us say—allegoric—does not detract from its interest. But had the Lady A-Kuei in
truth departed to the Yellow Springs I should none the less have received the
news without uneasiness. What though the sun set—is not the memory of his light
all surpassing?”
No longer could the Pearl Empress endure the excess of her
curiosity. Deeply kowtowing, imploring pardon, with raised hands and tears
which no son dare neglect, she besought the Emperor to enlighten her as to this
mystery, recounting his praises of the lady and his admission that he had never
beheld her, and all the circumstances connected with this remarkable episode.
She omitted only, (from considerations of delicacy and others,) the vigils of
the Lady Ma in the Dragon Chamber. The Emperor, sighing, looked upon the
ground, and for a time was silent. Then he replied as follows:
“Willingly would I have kept silence, but what child dare
withstand the plea of a parent? Is it necessary to inform the Heavenly Empress
that beauty seen is beauty made familiar and that familiarity is the foe of
admiration? How is it possible that I should see the Princess of Feminine
Propriety, for instance, by night and day without becoming aware of her
imperfections as well as her graces? How awake in the night without hearing the
snoring of the White Jade Concubine and considering the mouth from which it
issues as the less lovely. How partake of the society of any woman without
finding her chattering as the crane, avid of admiration, jealous, destructive
of philosophy, fatal to composure, fevered with curiosity; a creature, in
short, a little above the gibbon, but infinitely below the notice of the sage,
save as a temporary measure of amusement in itself unworthy the philosopher.
The faces of all my ladies are known to me. All are fair and all alike. But one
night, as I lay in the Dragon Couch, lost in speculation, absorbed in
contemplation of the Yin and the Yang, the night passed for the solitary
dreamer as a dream. In the darkness of the dawn I rose still dreaming, and
departed to the Pearl Pavilion in the garden, and there remained an hour
viewing the sunrise and experiencing ineffable opinions on the destiny of man.
Returning then to a couch which I believed to have been that of the solitary
philosopher I observed a depression where another form had lain, and in it a
jade hairpin such as is worn by my junior beauties. Petrified with amazement at
the display of such reserve, such continence, such august self-restraint, I
perceived that, lost in my thoughts, I had had an unimagined companion and that
this gentle reminder was from her gentle hand. But whom? I knew not. I then
observed Lo Cheng the Court Artist in attendance and immediately despatched him
to make secret enquiry and ascertain the name and circumstances of that beauty
who, unknown, had shared my vigil. I learnt on his return that it was the Lady
A-Kuei. I had entered the Dragon Chamber in a low moonlight, and guessed not
her presence. She spoke no word. Finding her Imperial Master thus absorbed, she
invited no attention, nor in any way obtruded her beauties upon my notice. Scarcely
did she draw breath. Yet reflect upon what she might have done! The night
passed and I remained entirely unconscious of her presence, and out of respect
she would not sleep but remained reverently and modestly awake, assisting, if
it may so be expressed, at a humble distance, in the speculations which held me
prisoner. What a pearl was here! On learning these details by Lo Cheng from her
own roseate lips, and remembering the unexampled temptation she had resisted
(for well she knew that had she touched the Emperor the Philosopher had
vanished) I despatched an august rescript to this favored Lady, conferring on
her the degree of Incomparable Beauty of the First Rank. On condition of
secrecy.”
The Pearl Empress, still in deepest bewilderment, besought his
majesty to proceed. He did so, with his usual dignity.
“Though my mind could not wholly restrain its admiration, yet
secrecy was necessary, for had the facts been known, every lady, from the
Princess of Feminine Propriety to the Junior Beauty of the Bed Chamber would
henceforward have observed only silence and a frigid decorum in the Dragon Bed
Chamber. And though the Emperor be a philosopher, yet a philosopher is still a
man, and there are moments when decorum—”
The Emperor paused discreetly; then resumed.
“The world should not be composed entirely of A-Kueis, yet in my
mind I behold the Incomparable Lady fair beyond expression. Like the moon she
sails glorious in the heavens to be adored only in vision as the one woman who
could respect the absorption of the Emperor, and of whose beauty as she lay
beside him the philosopher could remain unconscious and therefore untroubled in
body. To see her, to find her earthly, would be an experience for which the
Emperor might have courage, but the philosopher never. And attached to all this
is a moral:”
The Pearl Empress urgently inquired its nature.
“Let the wisdom of my august parent discern it,” said the Emperor
sententiously.
“And the future?” she inquired.
“The—let us call it parable—” said the Emperor politely—“with
which your Majesty was good enough to entertain me, has suggested a precaution
to my mind. I see now a lovely form moving among the flowers. It is possible
that it may be the Incomparable Lady, or that at any moment I may come upon her
and my ideal be shattered. This must be safeguarded. I might command her
retirement to her native province, but who shall insure me against the weakness
of my own heart demanding her return? No. Let Your Majesty’s words
spoken—well—in parable, be fulfilled in truth. I shall give orders to the Chief
Eunuch that the Incomparable Lady tonight shall drink the Draught of Crushed
Pearls, and be thus restored to the sphere that alone is worthy of her. Thus
are all anxieties soothed, and the honours offered to her virtuous spirit shall
be a glorious repayment of the ideal that will ever illuminate my soul.”
The Empress was speechless. She had borne the Emperor in her womb,
but the philosopher outsoared her comprehension. She retired, leaving his
Majesty in a reverie, endeavoring herself to grasp the moral of which he had
spoken, for the guidance of herself and the ladies concerned. But whether it
inculcated reserve or the reverse in the Dragon Chamber, and what the Imperial
ladies should follow as an example she was, to the end of her life, totally
unable to say. Philosophy indeed walks on the heights. We cannot all expect to
follow it.
That night the Incomparable Lady drank the Draught of Crushed
Pearls.
The Princess of Feminine Propriety and the White Jade Concubine,
learning these circumstances, redoubled their charms, their coquetries and
their efforts to occupy what may be described as the inner sanctuary of the
Emperor’s esteem. Both lived to a green old age, wealthy and honored, alike
firm in the conviction that if the Incomparable Lady had not shown herself so
superior to temptation the Emperor might have been on the whole better pleased,
whatever the sufferings of the philosopher. Both lived to be the tyrants of
many generations of beauties at the Celestial Court. Both were assiduous in
their devotions before the spirit tablet of the departed lady, and in
recommending her example of reserve and humility to every damsel whom it might
concern.
It will probably occur to the reader of this unique but veracious
story that there is more in it than meets the eye, and more than the one moral
alluded to by the Emperor according to the point of view of the different
actors.
To the discernment of the reader it must accordingly be left.
A Story of Burma
Most wonderful is the
Irawadi, the mighty river of Burma. In all the world elsewhere is no such
river, bearing the melted snows from its mysterious sources in the high places
of the mountains. The dawn rises upon its league-wide flood; the moon walks
upon it with silver feet. It is the pulsing heart of the land, living still
though so many rules and rulers have risen and fallen beside it, their pomps
and glories drifting like flotsam dawn the river to the eternal ocean that is
the end of all—and the beginning. Dead civilizations strew its banks, dreaming
in the torrid sunshine of glories that were—of blood-stained gold, jewels wept
from woeful crowns, nightmare dreams of murder and terror; dreaming also of
heavenly beauty, for the Lord Buddha looks down in moonlight peace upon the
land that leaped to kiss His footprints, that has laid its heart in the hand of
the Blessed One, and shares therefore in His bliss and content. The Land of the
Lord Buddha, where the myriad pagodas lift their golden flames of worship
everywhere, and no idlest wind can pass but it ruffles the bells below the
knees until they send forth their silver ripple of music to swell the hymn of
praise!
There is a little bay on the bank of the flooding river—a silent,
deserted place of sanddunes and small bills. When a ship is in sight, some poor
folk come and spread out the red lacquer that helps their scanty subsistence,
and the people from the passing ship land and barter and in a few minutes are
gone on their busy way and silence settles down once more. They neither know
nor care that, near by, a mighty city spread its splendour for miles along the
river bank, that the king known as Lord of the Golden Palace, The Golden Foot,
Lord of the White Elephant, held his state there with balls of magnificence, obsequious
women, fawning courtiers and all the riot and colour of an Eastern tyranny. How
should they care? Now there are ruins—ruins, and the cobras slip in and out
through the deserted holy places. They breed their writhing young in the
sleeping-chambers of queens, the tigers mew in the moonlight, and the giant
spider, more terrible than the cobra, strikes with its black poison-claw and,
paralyzing the life of the victim, sucks its brain with slow, lascivious
pleasure.
Are these foul creatures more dreadful than some of the men, the
women, who dwelt in these palaces—the more evil because of the human brain that
plotted and foresaw? That is known only to the mysterious Law that in silence
watches and decrees.
But this is a story of the dead days of Pagan, by the Irawadi, and
it will be shown that, as the Lotus of the Lord Buddha grows up a white
splendour from the black mud of the depths, so also may the soul of a woman.
In the days of the Lord of the White Elephant, the King Pagan Men,
was a boy named Mindon, son of second Queen and the King. So, at least, it was
said in the Golden Palace, but those who knew the secrets of such matters
whispered that, when the King had taken her by the hand she came to him no
maid, and that the boy was the son of an Indian trader. Furthermore it was said
that she herself was woman of the Rajputs, knowledgeable in spells,
incantations and elemental spirits such as the Beloos that terribly haunt waste
places, and all Powers that move in the dark, and that thus she had won the King.
Certainly she had been captured by the King’s war-boats off the coast from a
trading-ship bound for Ceylon, and it was her story that, because of her
beauty, she was sent thither to serve as concubine to the King, Tissa of
Ceylon. Being captured, she was brought to the Lord of the Golden Palace. The
tongue she spoke was strange to all the fighting men, but it was wondrous to
see how swiftly she learnt theirs and spoke it with a sweet ripple such as is
in the throat of a bird.
She was beautiful exceedingly, with a colour of pale gold upon her
and lengths of silk-spun hair, and eyes like those of a jungle-deer, and water
might run beneath the arch of her foot without wetting it, and her breasts were
like the cloudy pillows where the sun couches at setting. Now, at Pagan, the
name they called her was Dwaymenau, but her true name, known only to herself,
was Sundari, and she knew not the Law of the Blessed Buddha but was a heathen
accursed. In the strong hollow of her hand she held the heart of the King, so that
on the birth of her son she had risen from a mere concubine to be the second
Queen and a power to whom all bowed. The First Queen, Maya, languished in her
palace, her pale beauty wasting daily, deserted and lonely, for she had been
the light of the King’s eyes until the coming of the Indian woman, and she
loved her lord with a great love and was a noble woman brought up in honour and
all things becoming a queen. But sigh as she would, the King came never. All
night he lay in the arms of Dwaymenau, all day he sat beside her, whether at
the great water pageants or at the festival when the dancing-girls swayed and
postured before him in her gilded chambers. Even when he went forth to hunt the
tiger, she went with him as far as a woman may go, and then stood back only
because he would not risk his jewel, her life. So all that was evil in the man
she fostered and all that was good she cherished not at all, fearing lest he
should return to the Queen. At her will he had consulted the Hiwot Daw, the
Council of the Woon-gyees or Ministers, concerning a divorce of the Queen, but
this they told him could not be since she had kept all the laws of Manu, being
faithful, noble and beautiful and having borne him a son.
For, before the Indian woman had come to the King, the Queen had
borne a son, Ananda, and he was pale and slender and the King despised him
because of the wiles of Dwaymenau, saying he was fit only to sit among the
women, having the soul of a slave, and he laughed bitterly as the pale child
crouched in the corner to see him pass. If his eyes had been clear, he would
have known that here was no slave, but a heart as much greater than his own as
the spirit is stronger than the body. But this he did not know and he strode
past with Dwaymenau’s boy on his shoulder, laughing with cruel glee.
And this boy, Mindon, was beautiful and strong as his mother, pale
olive of face, with the dark and crafty eyes of the cunning Indian traders,
with black hair and a body straight, strong and long in the leg for his
years—apt at the beginnings of bow, sword and spear—full of promise, if the
promise was only words and looks.
And so matters rested in the palace until Ananda had ten years and
Mindon nine.
It was the warm and sunny winter and the days were pleasant, and
on a certain day the Queen, Maya, went with her ladies to worship the Blessed
One at the Thapinyu Temple, looking down upon the swiftly flowing river. The
temple was exceedingly rich and magnificent, so gilded with pure gold-leaf that
it appeared of solid gold. And about the upper part were golden bells beneath
the jewelled knee, which wafted very sweetly in the wind and gave forth a
crystal-clear music. The ladies bore in their hands more gold-leaf, that they
might acquire merit by offering this for the service of the Master of the Law,
and indeed this temple was the offering of the Queen herself, who, because she
bore the name of the Mother of the Lord, excelled in good works and was the
Moon of this lower world in charity and piety.
Though wan with grief and anxiety, this Queen was beautiful. Her
eyes, like mournful lakes of darkness, were lovely in the pale ivory of her
face. Her lips were nobly cut and calm, and by the favour of the Guardian Nats,
she was shaped with grace and health, a worthy mother of kings. Also she wore
her jewels like a mighty princess, a magnificence to which all the people
shikoed as she passed, folding their hands and touching the forehead while they
bowed down, kneeling.
Before the colossal image of the Holy One she made her offering
and, attended by her women, she sat in meditation, drawing consolation from the
Tranquillity above her and the silence of the shrine. This ended, the Queen
rose and did obeisance to the Lord and, retiring, paced back beneath the White
Canopy and entered the courtyard where the palace stood—a palace of noble
teakwood, brown and golden and carved like lace into strange fantasies of
spires and pinnacles and branches where Nats and Tree Spirits and Beloos and
swaying river maidens mingled and met amid fruits and leaves and flowers in a
wild and joyous confusion. The faces, the blowing garments, whirled into points
with the swiftness of the dance, were touched with gold, and so glad was the
building that it seemed as if a very light wind might whirl it to the sky, and even
the sad Queen stopped to rejoice in its beauty as it blossomed in the sunlight.
And even as she paused, her little son Ananda rushed to meet her,
pale and panting, and flung himself into her arms with dry sobs like those of
an overrun man. She soothed him until he could speak, and then the grief made
way in a rain of tears.
“Mindon has killed my deer. He bared his knife, slit his throat
and cast him in the ditch and there he lies.”
“There will he not lie long!” shouted Mindon, breaking from the
palace to the group where all were silent now. “For the worms will eat him and
the dogs pick clean his bones, and he will show his horns at his lords no more.
If you loved him, White-liver, you should have taught him better manners to his
betters.”
With a stifled shriek Ananda caught the slender knife from his
girdle and flew at Mindon like a cat of the woods. Such things were done daily
by young and old, and this was a long sorrow come to a head between the boys.
Suddenly, lifting the hangings of the palace gateway, before them
stood the mother of Mindon, the Lady Dwaymenau, pale as wool, having heard the
shout of her boy, so that the two Queens faced each other, each holding the
shoulders of her son, and the ladies watched, mute as fishes, for it was years
since these two had met.
“What have you done to my son?” breathed Maya the Queen, dry in
the throat and all but speechless with passion. For indeed his face, for a
child, was ghastly.
“Look at his knife! What would he do to my son?” Dwaymenau was
stiff with hate and spoke as to a slave.
“He has killed my deer and mocks me because I loved him, He is the
devil in this place. Look at the devils in his eyes. Look quick before he
smiles, my mother.”
And indeed, young as the boy was, an evil thing sat in either eye
and glittered upon them. Dwaymenau passed her hand across his brow, and he
smiled and they were gone.
“The beast ran at me and would have flung me with his horns,” he
said, looking up brightly at his mother. “He had the madness upon him. I struck
once and he was dead. My father would have done the same.
“That would he not!” said Queen Maya bitterly. “Your father would
have crept up, fawning on the deer, and offered him the fruits he loved,
stroking him the while. And in trust the beast would have eaten, and the poison
in the fruit would have slain him. For the people of your father meet neither
man nor beast in fair fight. With a kiss they stab!”
Horror kept the women staring and silent. No one had dreamed that
the scandal had reached the Queen. Never had she spoken or looked her knowledge
but endured all in patience. Now it sprang out like a sword among them, and
they feared for Maya, whom all loved.
Mindon did not understand. It was beyond him, but he saw he was
scorned. Dwaymenau, her face rigid as a mask, looked pitilessly at the shaking
Queen, and each word dropped from her mouth, hard and cold as the falling of
diamonds. She refused the insult.
“If it is thus you speak of our lord and my love, what wonder he
forsakes you? Mother of a craven milk runs in your veins and his for blood.
Take your slinking brat away and weep together! My son and I go forth to meet
the King as he comes from hunting, and to welcome him kingly!” She caught her
boy to her with a magnificent gesture; he flung his little arm about her, and
laughing loudly they went off together.
The tension relaxed a little when they were out of sight. The
women knew that, since Dwaymenau had refused to take the Queen’s meaning, she
would certainly not carry her complaint to the King. They guessed at her reason
for this forbearance, but, be that as it might, it was Certain that no other
person would dare to tell him and risk the fate that waits the messenger of
evil.
The eldest lady led away the Queen, now almost tottering in the
reaction of fear and pain. Oh, that she had controlled her speech! Not for her
own sake—for she had lost all and the beggar can lose no more—but for the boy’s
sake, the unloved child that stood between the stranger and her hopes. For him
she had made a terrible enemy. Weeping, the boy followed her.
“Take comfort, little son,” she said, drawing him to her tenderly.
“The deer can suffer no more. For the tigers, he does not fear them. He runs in
green woods now where there is none to hunt. He is up and away. The Blessed One
was once a deer as gentle as yours.”
But still the child wept, and the Queen broke down utterly. “Oh,
if life be a dream, let us wake, let us wake!” she sobbed. “For evil things
walk in it that cannot live in the light. Or let us dream deeper and forget.
Go, little son, yet stay—for who can tell what waits us when the King comes.
Let us meet him here.”
For she believed that Dwaymenau would certainly carry the tale of
her speech to the King, and, if so, what hope but death together?
That night, after the feasting, when the girls were dancing the
dance of the fairies and spirits, in gold dresses, winged on the legs and
shoulders, and high, gold-spired and pinnacled caps, the King missed the little
Prince, Ananda, and asked why he was absent.
No one answered, the women looking upon each other, until
Dwaymenau, sitting beside him, glimmering with rough pearls and rubies, spoke
smoothly: “Lord, worshipped and beloved, the two boys quarreled this day, and
Ananda’s deer attacked our Mindon. He had a madness upon him and thrust with
his horns. But, Mindon, your true son, flew in upon him and in a great fight he
slit the beast’s throat with the knife you gave him. Did he not well?”
“Well,” said the King briefly. “But is there no hurt? Have
searched? For he is mine.”
There was arrogance in the last sentence and her proud soul
rebelled, but smoothly as ever she spoke: “I have searched and there is not the
littlest scratch. But Ananda is weeping because the deer is dead, and his
mother is angry. What should I do?”
“Nothing. Ananda is worthless and worthless let him be! And for
that pale shadow that was once a woman, let her be forgotten. And now, drink,
my Queen!”
And Dwaymenau drank but the drink was bitter to her, for a ghost
had risen upon her that day. She had never dreamed that such a scandal had been
spoken, and it stunned her very soul with fear, that the Queen should know her
vileness and the cheat she had put upon the King. As pure maid he had received
her, and she knew, none better, what the doom would be if his trust were broken
and he knew the child not his. She herself had seen this thing done to a
concubine who had a little offended. She was thrust living in a sack and this
hung between two earthen jars pierced with small holes, and thus she was set
afloat on the terrible river. And not till the slow filling and sinking of the
jars was the agony over and the cries for mercy stilled. No, the Queen’s speech
was safe with her, but was it safe with the Queen? For her silence, Dwaymenau
must take measures.
Then she put it all aside and laughed and jested with the King and
did indeed for a time forget, for she loved him for his black-browed beauty and
his courage and royalty and the childlike trust and the man’s passion that
mingled in him for her. Daily and nightly such prayers as she made to strange
gods were that she might bear a son, true son of his.
Next day, in the noonday stillness when all slept, she led her
young son by the hand to her secret chamber, and, holding him upon her knees in
that rich and golden place, she lifted his face to hers and stared into his
eyes. And so unwavering was her gaze, so mighty the hard, unblinking stare that
his own was held against it, and he stared back as the earth stares breathless
at the moon. Gradually the terror faded out of his eyes; they glazed as if in a
trance; his head fell stupidly against her bosom; his spirit stood on the
borderland of being and waited.
Seeing this, she took his palm and, molding it like wax, into the
cup of it she dropped clear fluid from a small vessel of pottery with the
fylfot upon its side and the disks of the god Shiva. And strange it was to see
that lore of India in the palace where the Blessed Law reigned in peace. Then,
fixing her eyes with power upon Mindon, she bade him, a pure child, see for her
in its clearness.
“Only virgin-pure can see!” she muttered, staring into his eyes.
“See! See!”
The eyes of Mindon were closing. He half opened them and looked
dully at his palm. His face was pinched and yellow.
“A woman—a child, on a long couch. Dead! I see!”
“See her face. Is her head crowned with the Queen’s jewels? See!”
“Jewels. I cannot see her face. It is hidden.”
“Why is it hidden?”
“A robe across her face. Oh, let me go!”
“And the child? See!”
“Let me go. Stop—my head—my head! I cannot see. The child is hidden.
Her arm holds it. A woman stoops above them.”
“A woman? Who? Is it like me? Speak! See!”
“A woman. It is like you, mother—it is like you. I fear very
greatly. A knife—a knife! Blood! I cannot see—I cannot speak! I—I sleep.”
His face was ghastly white now, his body cold and collapsed.
Terrified, she caught him to her breast and relaxed the power of her will upon
him. For that moment, she was only the passionate mother and quaked to think
she might have hurt him. An hour passed and he slept heavily in her arms, and
in agony she watched to see the colour steal back into the olive cheek and
white lips. In the second hour he waked and stretched himself indolently,
yawning like a cat. Her tears dropped like rain upon him as she clasped him
violently to her.
He writhed himself free, petulant and spoilt. “Let me be. I hate
kisses and women’s tricks. I want to go forth and play. I have had a devil’s
dream.
“What did you see in your dream, prince of my heart?” She caught
frantically at the last chance.
“A deer—a tiger. I have forgotten. Let me go.” He ran off and she
sat alone with her doubts and fears. Yet triumph coloured them too. She saw a
dead woman, a dead child, and herself bending above them. She hid the vessel in
her bosom and went out among her women.
Weeks passed, and never a word that she dreaded from Maya the
Queen. The women of Dwaymenau, questioning the Queen’s women, heard that she
seemed to have heavy sorrow upon her. Her eyes were like dying lamps and she
faded as they. The King never entered her palace. Drowned in Dwaymenau’s wiles
and beauty, her slave, her thrall, he forgot all else but his fighting, his
hunting and his long war-boats, and whether the Queen lived or died, he cared
nothing. Better indeed she should die and her place be emptied for the beloved,
without offence to her powerful kindred.
And now he was to sail upon a raid against the Shan Tsaubwa, who
had denied him tribute of gold and jewels and slaves. Glorious were the boats
prepared for war, of brown teak and gilded until they shone like gold. Seventy
men rowed them, sword and lance beside each. Warriors crowded them, flags and
banners fluttered about them; the shining water reflected the pomp like a
mirror and the air rang with song. Dwaymenau stood beside the water with her women,
bidding the King farewell, and so he saw her, radiant in the dawn, with her boy
beside her, and waved his hand to the last.
The ships were gone and the days languished a little at Pagan.
They missed the laughter and royalty of the King, and few men, and those old
and weak, were left in the city. The pulse of life beat slower.
And Dwaymenau took rule in the Golden Palace. Queen Maya sat like
one in a dream and questioned nothing, and Dwaymenau ruled with wisdom but none
loved her. To all she was the interloper, the witch-woman, the out-land
upstart. Only the fear of the King guarded her and her boy, but that was
strong. The boys played together sometimes, Mindon tyrannizing and cruel,
Ananda fearing and complying, broken in spirit.
Maya the Queen walked daily in the long and empty Golden Hall of
Audience, where none came now that the King was gone, pacing up and down,
gazing wearily at the carved screens and all their woodland beauty of gods that
did not hear, of happy spirits that had no pity. Like a spirit herself she
passed between the red pillars, appearing and reappearing with steps that made
no sound, consumed with hate of the evil woman that had stolen her joy. Like a
slow fire it burned in her soul, and the face of the Blessed One was hidden
from her, and she had forgotten His peace. In that atmosphere of hate her life
dwindled. Her son’s dwindled also, and there was talk among the women of some
potion that Dwaymenau had been seen to drop into his noontide drink as she went
swiftly by. That might he the gossip of malice, but he pined. His eyes were
large like a young bird’s; his hands like little claws. They thought the
departing year would take him with it. What harm? Very certainly the King would
shed no tear.
It was a sweet and silent afternoon and she wandered in the great
and lonely hall, sickened with the hate in her soul and her fear for her boy.
Suddenly she heard flying footsteps—a boy’s, running in mad haste in the outer
hall, and, following them, bare feet, soft, thudding.
She stopped dead and every pulse cried—Danger! No time to think or
breathe when Mindon burst into sight, wild with terror and following close
beside him a man—a madman, a short bright dah in his grasp, his jaws grinding
foam, his wild eyes starting—one passion to murder. So sometimes from the Nats
comes pitiless fury, and men run mad and kill and none knows why.
Maya the Queen stiffened to meet the danger. Joy swept through her
soul; her weariness was gone. A fierce smile showed her teeth—a smile of hate,
as she stood there and drew her dagger for defense. For defense—the man would
rend the boy and turn on her and she would not die. She would live to triumph
that the mongrel was dead, and her son, the Prince again and his father’s
joy—for his heart would turn to the child most surely. Justice was rushing on
its victim. She would see it and live content, the long years of agony wiped
out in blood, as was fitting. She would not flee; she would see it and rejoice.
And as she stood in gladness—these broken thoughts rushing through her like
flashes of lightning—Mindon saw her by the pillar and, screaming in anguish for
the first time, fled to her for refuge.
She raised her knife to meet the staring eyes, the chalk white
face, and drive him back on the murderer. If the man failed, she would not! And
even as she did this a strange thing befell. Something stronger than hate swept
her away like a leaf on the river; something primeval that lives in the lonely
pangs of childbirth, that hides in the womb and breasts of the mother. It was stronger
than she. It was not the hated Mindoin—she saw him no more. Suddenly it was the
eternal Child, lifting dying, appealing eyes to the Woman, as he clung to her
knees. She did not think this—she felt it, and it dominated her utterly. The
Woman answered. As if it had been her own flesh and blood, she swept the
panting body behind her and faced the man with uplifted dagger and knew her
victory assured, whether in life or death. On came the horrible rush, the
flaming eyes, and, if it was chance that set the dagger against his throat, it
was cool strength that drove it home and never wavered until the blood welling
from the throat quenched the flame in the wild eyes, and she stood triumphing
like a war-goddess, with the man at her feet. Then, strong and flushed, Maya
the Queen gathered the half-dead boy in her arms, and, both drenched with
blood, they moved slowly down the hall and outside met the hurrying crowd, with
Dwaymenau, whom the scream had brought to find her son.
“You have killed him! She has killed him!” Scarcely could the
Rajput woman speak. She was kneeling beside him—he hideous with blood. “She
hated him always. She has murdered him. Seize her!”
“Woman, what matter your hates and mine?” the Queen said slowly.
“The boy is stark with fear. Carry him in and send for old Meh Shway Gon.
Woman, be silent!”
When a Queen commands, men and women obey, and a Queen commanded
then. A huddled group lifted the child and carried him away, Dwaymenau with
them, still uttering wild threats, and the Queen was left alone.
She could not realize what she had done and left undone. She could
not understand it. She had hated, sickened with loathing, as it seemed for
ages, and now, in a moment it had blown away like a whirlwind that is gone.
Hate was washed out of her soul and had left it cool and white as the Lotus of
the Blessed One. What power had Dwaymenau to hurt her when that other Power
walked beside her? She seemed to float above her in high air and look down upon
her with compassion. Strength, virtue flowed in her veins; weakness, fear were
fantasies. She could not understand, but knew that here was perfect
enlightenment. About her echoed the words of the Blessed One: “Never in this
world doth hatred cease by hatred, but only by love. This is an old rule.”
“Whereas I was blind, now I see,” said Maya the Queen slowly to
her own heart. She had grasped the hems of the Mighty.
Words cannot speak the still passion of strength and joy that
possessed her. Her step was light. As she walked, her soul sang within her, for
thus it is with those that have received the Law. About them is the Peace.
In the dawn she was told that the Queen, Dwaymenau, would speak
with her, and without a tremor she who had shaken like a leaf at that name
commanded that she should enter. It was Dwaymenau that trembled as she came
into that unknown place.
With cloudy brows and eyes that would reveal no secret, she stood
before the high seat where the Queen sat pale and majestic.
“Is it well with the boy?” the Queen asked earnestly.
“Well,” said Dwaymenau, fingering the silver bosses of her girdle.
“Then—is there more to say?” The tone was that of the great lady
who courteously ends an audience. “There is more. The men brought in the body
and in its throat your dagger was sticking. And my son has told me that your
body was a shield to him. You offered your life for his. I did not think to
thank you—but I thank you.” She ended abruptly and still her eyes had never met
the Queen’s.
“I accept your thanks. Yet a mother could do no less.”
The tone was one of dismissal but still Dwaymenau lingered.
“The dagger,” she said and drew it from her bosom. On the clear,
pointed blade the blood had curdled and dried. “I never thought to ask a gift
of you, but this dagger is a memorial of my son’s danger. May I keep it?”
“As you will. Here is the sheath.” From her girdle she drew
it—rough silver, encrusted with rubies from the mountains.
The hand rejected it.
“Jewels I cannot take, but bare steel is a fitting gift between us
two.”
“As you will.”
The Queen spoke compassionately, and Dwaymenau, still with veiled
eyes, was gone without fare well. The empty sheath lay on the seat—a symbol of
the sharp-edged hate that had passed out of her life. She touched the sheath to
her lips and, smiling, laid it away.
And the days went by and Dwaymenau came no more before her, and
her days were fulfilled with peace. And now again the Queen ruled in the palace
wisely and like a Queen, and this Dwaymenau did not dispute, but what her
thoughts were no man could tell.
Then came the end.
One night the city awakened to a wild alarm. A terrible fleet of
war-boats came sweeping along the river thick as locusts—the war fleet of the
Lord of Prome. Battle shouts broke the peace of the night to horror; axes
battered on the outer doors; the roofs of the outer buildings were all aflame.
It was no wonderful incident, but a common one enough of those turbulent
days—reprisal by a powerful ruler with raids and hates to avenge on the Lord of
the Golden Palace. It was indeed a right to be gainsaid only by the strong arm,
and the strong arm was absent; as for the men of Pagan, if the guard failed and
the women’s courage sank, they would return to blackened walls, empty chambers
and desolation.
At Pagan the guard was small, indeed, for the King’s greed of
plunder had taken almost every able man with him. Still, those who were left
did what they could, and the women, alert and brave, with but few exceptions,
gathered the children and handed such weapons as they could muster to the men,
and themselves, taking knives and daggers, helped to defend the inner rooms.
In the farthest, the Queen, having given her commands and
encouraged all with brave words, like a wise, prudent princess, sat with her
son beside her. Her duty was now to him. Loved or unloved, he was still the heir,
the root of the House tree. If all failed, she must make ransom and terms for
him, and, if they died, it must be together. He, with sparkling eyes, gay in
the danger, stood by her. Thus Dwaymenau found them.
She entered quietly and without any display of emotion and stood
before the high seat.
“Great Queen”—she used that title for the first time—“the leader
is Meng Kyinyo of Prome. There is no mercy. The end is near. Our men fall fast,
the women are fleeing. I have come to say this thing: Save the Prince.”
“And how?” asked the Queen, still seated. “I have no power.”
“I have sent to Maung Tin, abbot of the Golden Monastery, and he
has said this thing. In the Kyoung across the river he can hide one child among
the novices. Cut his hair swiftly and put upon him this yellow robe. The time
is measured in minutes.”
Then the Queen perceived, standing by the pillar, a monk of a
stern, dark presence, the creature of Dwaymenau. For an instant she pondered.
Was the woman selling the child to death? Dwaymenau spoke no word. Her face was
a mask. A minute that seemed an hour drifted by, and the yelling and shrieks
for mercy drew nearer.
“There will be pursuit,” said the Queen. “They will slay him on
the river. Better here with me.”
“There will be no pursuit.” Dwaymenau fixed her strange eyes on
the Queen for the first time.
What moved in those eyes? The Queen could not tell. But
despairing, she rose and went to the silent monk, leading the Prince by the
hand. Swiftly he stripped the child of the silk pasoh of royalty, swiftly he
cut the long black tresses knotted on the little head, and upon the slender
golden body he set the yellow robe worn by the Lord Himself on earth, and in
the small hand he placed the begging-bowl of the Lord. And now, remote and
holy, in the dress that is of all most sacred, the Prince, standing by the
monk, turned to his mother and looked with grave eyes upon her, as the child
Buddha looked upon his Mother—also a Queen. But Dwaymenau stood by silent and
lent no help as the Queen folded the Prince in her arms and laid his hand in
the hand of the monk and saw them pass away among the pillars, she standing
still and white.
She turned to her rival. “If you have meant truly, I thank you.”
“I have meant truly.”
She turned to go, but the Queen caught her by the hand.
“Why have you done this?” she asked, looking into the strange eyes
of the strange woman.
Something like tears gathered in them for a moment, but she
brushed them away as she said hurriedly:
“I was grateful. You saved my son. Is it not enough?”
“No, not enough!” cried the Queen. “There is more. Tell me, for
death is upon us.”
“His footsteps are near,” said the Indian. “I will speak. I love
my lord. In death I will not cheat him. What you have known is true. My child
is no child of his. I will not go down to death with a lie upon my lips. Come
and see.”
Dwaymenau was no more. Sundari, the Indian woman, awful and calm,
led the Queen down the long ball and into her own chamber, where Mindon, the
child, slept a drugged sleep. The Queen felt that she had never known her; she
herself seemed diminished in stature as she followed the stately figure, with
its still, dark face. Into this room the enemy were breaking, shouldering their
way at the door—a rabble of terrible faces. Their fury was partly checked when
only a sleeping child and two women confronted them, but their leader, a grim
and evil-looking man, strode from the huddle.
“Where is the son of the King?” he shouted. “Speak, women! Whose
is this boy?”
Sundari laid her hand upon her son’s shoulder. Not a muscle of her
face flickered.
“This is his son.”
“His true son—the son of Maya the Queen?”
“His true son, the son of Maya the Queen.”
“Not the younger—the mongrel?”
“The younger—the mongrel died last week of a fever.”
Every moment of delay was precious. Her eyes saw only a monk and a
boy fleeing across the wide river.
“Which is Maya the Queen?”
“This,” said Sundari. “She cannot speak. It is her son—the
Prince.”
Maya had veiled her face with her hands. Her brain swam, but she
understood the noble lie. This woman could love. Their lord would not be left
childless. Thought beat like pulses in her—raced along her veins. She held her
breath and was dumb.
His doubt was assuaged and the lust of vengeance was on him—a
madness seized the man. But even his own wild men shrank back a moment, for to
slay a sleeping child in cold blood is no man’s work.
“You swear it is the Prince. But why? Why do you not lie to save
him if you are the King’s woman?”
“Because his mother has trampled me to the earth. I am the Indian
woman—the mother of the younger, who is dead and safe. She jeered at me—she
mocked me. It is time I should see her suffer. Suffer now as I have suffered,
Maya the Queen!”
This was reasonable—this was like the women he had known. His
doubt was gone—he laughed aloud.
“Then feed full of vengeance!” he cried, and drove his knife
through the child’s heart.
For a moment Sundari wavered where she stood, but she held herself
and was rigid as the dead.
“Tha-du! Well done!” she said with an awful smile. “The tree is broken,
the roots cut. And now for us women—our fate, O master?”
“Wait here,” he answered. “Let not a hair of their heads be
touched. Both are fair. The two for me. For the rest draw lots when all is
done.”
The uproar surged away. The two stood by the dead boy. So swift
had been his death that he lay as though he still slept—the black lashes
pressed upon his cheek.
With the heredity of their different races upon them, neither
wept. But silently the Queen opened her arms; wide as a woman that entreats she
opened them to the Indian Queen, and speechlessly the two clung together. For a
while neither spoke.
“My sister!” said Maya the Queen. And again, “O great of heart!”
She laid her cheek against Sundari’s, and a wave of solemn joy
seemed to break in her soul and flood it with life and light.
“Had I known sooner!” she said. “For now the night draws on.”
“What is time?” answered the Rajput woman. “We stand before the
Lords of Life and Death. The life you gave was yours, and I am unworthy to kiss
the feet of the Queen. Our lord will return and his son is saved. The House can
be rebuilt. My son and I were waifs washed up from the sea. Another wave washes
us back to nothingness. Tell him my story and he will loathe me.”
“My lips are shut,” said the Queen. “Should I betray my sister’s
honour? When he speaks of the noble women of old, your name will be among them.
What matters which of us he loves and remembers? Your soul and mine have seen
the same thing, and we are one. But I—what have I to do with life? The ship and
the bed of the conqueror await us. Should we await them, my sister?”
The bright tears glittered in the eyes of Sundari at the tender
name and the love in the face of the Queen. At last she accepted it.
“My sister, no,” she said, and drew from her bosom the dagger of
Maya, with the man’s blood rusted upon it. “Here is the way. I have kept this
dagger in token of my debt. Nightly have I kissed it, swearing that, when the
time came, I would repay my debt to the great Queen. Shall I go first or
follow, my sister?”
Her voice lingered on the word. It was precious to her. It was
like clear water, laying away the stain of the shameful years.
“Your arm is strong,” answered the Queen. “I go first. Because the
King’s son is safe, I bless you. For your love of the King, I love you. And
here, standing on the verge of life, I testify that the words of the Blessed
One are truth—that love is All; that hatred is Nothing.”
She bared the breast that this woman had made desolate—that, with
the love of this woman, was desolate ho longer, and, stooping, laid her hand on
the brow of Mindon. Once more they embraced, and then, strong and true, and
with the Rajput passion behind the blow, the stroke fell and Sundari had given
her sister the crowning mercy of deliverance. She laid the body beside her own
son, composing the stately limbs, the quiet eyelids, the black lengths of hair
into majesty. So, she thought, in the great temple of the Rajput race, the
Mother Goddess shed silence and awe upon her worshippers. The two lay like
mother and son—one slight hand of the Queen she laid across the little body as
if to guard it.
Her work done, she turned to the entrance and watched the dawn
coming glorious over the river. The men shouted and quarreled in the distance,
but she heeded them no more than the chattering of apes. Her heart was away
over the distance to the King, but with no passion now: so might a mother have
thought of her son. He was sleeping, forgetful of even her in his dreams. What
matter? She was glad at heart. The Queen was dearer to her than the King—so
strange is life; so healing is death. She remembered without surprise that she
had asked no forgiveness of the Queen for all the cruel wrongs, for the deadly
intent—had made no confession. Again what matter? What is forgiveness when love
is all?
She turned from the dawn-light to the light in the face of the
Queen. It was well. Led by such a hand, she could present herself without fear
before the Lords of Life and Death—she and the child. She smiled. Life is good,
but death, which is more life, is better. The son of the King was safe, but her
own son safer.
When the conqueror reentered the chamber, he found the dead Queen
guarding the dead child, and across her feet, as not worthy to lie beside her,
was the body of the Indian woman, most beautiful in death.
(Salutation to Ganesa
the Lord of Wisdom, and to Saraswate the Lady of Sweet Speech!)
This story was composed by the Brahmin Visravas, that dweller on
the banks of holy Kashi; and though the events it records are long past, yet it
is absolutely and immutably true because, by the power of his yoga, he summoned
up every scene before him, and beheld the persons moving and speaking as in
life. Thus he had naught to do but to set down what befell.
What follows, that hath he seen.
I
Wide was the plain, the
morning sun shining full upon it, drinking up the dew as the Divine drinks up
the spirit of man. Far it stretched, resembling the ocean, and riding upon it
like a stately ship was the league-long Rock of Chitor. It is certainly by the
favour of the Gods that this great fortress of the Rajput Kings thus rises from
the plain, leagues in length, noble in height; and very strange it is to see
the flat earth fall away from it like waters from the bows of a boat, as it
soars into the sky with its burden of palaces and towers.
Here dwelt the Queen Padmini and her husband Bhimsi, the Rana of
the Rajputs.
The sight of the holy ascetic Visravas pierced even the secrets of
the Rani’s bower, where, in the inmost chamber of marble, carved until it
appeared like lace of the foam of the sea, she was seated upon cushions of blue
Bokhariot silk, like the lotus whose name she bore floating upon the blue
depths of the lake. She had just risen from the shallow bath of marble at her
feet.
Most beautiful was this Queen, a haughty beauty such as should be
a Rajput lady; for the name “Rajput” signifies Son of a King, and this lady was
assuredly the daughter of Kings and of no lesser persons. And since that beauty
is long since ashes (all things being transitory), it is permitted to describe
the mellowed ivory of her body, the smooth curves of her hips, and the defiance
of her glimmering bosom, half veiled by the long silken tresses of
sandal-scented hair which a maiden on either side, bowing toward her, knotted
upon her head. But even he who with his eyes has seen it can scarce tell the
beauty of her face—the slender arched nose, the great eyes like lakes of
darkness in the reeds of her curled lashes, the mouth of roses, the glance,
deer-like but proud, that courted and repelled admiration. This cannot be told,
nor could the hand of man paint it. Scarcely could that fair wife of the
Pandava Prince, Draupadi the Beautiful (who bore upon her perfect form every
auspicious mark) excel this lady.
(Ashes—ashes! May Maheshwara have mercy upon her rebirths!)
Throughout India had run the fame of this beauty. In the bazaar of
Kashmir they told of it. It was recorded in the palaces of Travancore, and all
the lands that lay between; and in an evil hour—may the Gods curse the mother
that bore him!—it reached the ears of Allah-u-Din, the Moslem dog, a very great
fighting man who sat in Middle India, looting and spoiling.
(Ahi! for the beauty that is as a burning flame!)
In the gardens beneath the windows of the Queen, the peacocks,
those maharajas of the birds, were spreading the bronze and emerald of their
tails. The sun shone on them as on heaps of jewels, so that they dazzled the
eyes. They stood about the feet of the ancient Brahmin sage, he who had tutored
the Queen in her childhood and given her wisdom as the crest-jeweled of her
loveliness. He, the Twice-born sat under the shade of a neem tree, hearing the
gurgle of the sacred waters from the Cow’s Mouth, where the great tank shone
under the custard-apple boughs; and, at peace with all the world, he read in
the Scripture which affirms the transience of all things drifting across the
thought of the Supreme like clouds upon the surface of the Ocean.
(Ahi! that loveliness is also illusion!)
Her women placed about the Queen—that Lotus of Women—a robe of
silk of which none could say that it was green or blue, the noble colours so
mingled into each other under the latticed gold work of Kashi. They set the
jewels on her head, and wide thin rings of gold heavy with great pearls in her
ears. Upon the swell of her bosom they clasped the necklace of table emeralds,
large, deep, and full of green lights, which is the token of the Chitor queens.
Upon her slender ankles they placed the chooris of pure soft gold, set also
with grass-green emeralds, and the delicate souls of her feet they reddened
with lac. Nor were her arms forgotten, but loaded with bangles so free from
alloy that they could be bent between the hands of a child. Then with fine
paste they painted the Symbol between her dark brows, and, rising, she shone
divine as a nymph of heaven who should cause the righteous to stumble in his
austerities and arrest even the glances of Gods.
(Ahi! that the Transient should be so fair!)
II
Now it was the hour that
the Rana should visit her; for since the coming of the Lotus Lady, he had
forgotten his other women, and in her was all his heart. He came from the Hall
of Audience where petitions were heard, and justice done to rich and poor; and
as he came, the Queen, hearing his step on the stone, dismissed her women, and
smiling to know her loveliness, bowed before him, even as the Goddess Uma bows
before Him who is her other half.
Now he was a tall man, with the falcon look of the Hill Rajputs,
and moustaches that curled up to his eyes, lion-waisted and lean in the flanks
like Arjoon himself, a very ruler of men; and as he came, his hand was on the
hilt of the sword that showed beneath his gold coat of khincob. On the high
cushions he sat, and the Rani a step beneath him; and she said, raising her
lotus eyes:—
“Speak, Aryaputra, (son of a noble father)—what hath befallen?”
And he, looking upon her beauty with fear, replied,—
“It is thy beauty, O wife, that brings disaster.”
“And how is this?” she asked very earnestly.
For a moment he paused, regarding her as might a stranger, as one
who considers a beauty in which he hath no part; and, drawn by this
strangeness, she rose and knelt beside him, pillowing her head upon his heart.
“Say on,” she said in her voice of music.
He unfurled a scroll that he had crushed in his
strong right hand, and
read aloud:—
“‘Thus
says Allah-u-Din, Shadow of God, Wonder of the Age,
Viceregent of Kings. We have heard that in the
Treasury of Chitor is a
jewel, the like of which is not in the Four
Seas—the work of the hand
of the Only God, to whom be praise! This jewel
is thy Queen, the Lady
Padmini. Now, since the sons of the Prophet are
righteous, I desire but
to look upon this jewel, and ascribing glory to
the Creator, to depart
in peace. Granted requests are the bonds of
friendship; therefore
lay the head of acquiescence in the dust of
opportunity and name an
auspicious day.’”
He crushed it again and flung it furiously from him on the marble.
“The insult is deadly. The sorry son of a debased mother! Well he
knows that to the meanest Rajput his women are sacred, and how much more the
daughters and wives of the Kings! The jackals feast on the tongue that speaks
this shame! But it is a threat, Beloved—a threat! Give me thy counsel that
never failed me yet.”
For the Rajputs take counsel with their women who are wise.
They were silent, each weighing the force of resistance that could
be made; and this the Rani knew even as he.
“It cannot be,” she said; “the very ashes of the dead would
shudder to hear. Shall the Queens of India be made the sport of the
barbarians?”
Her husband looked upon her fair face. She could feel his heart
labor beneath her ear.
“True, wife; but the barbarians are strong. Our men are tigers,
each one, but the red dogs of the Dekkan can pull down the tiger, for they are
many, and he alone.”
Then that great Lady, accepting his words, and conscious of the
danger, murmured this, clinging to her husband:—
“There was a Princess of our line whose beauty made all other
women seem as waning moons in the sun’s splendour. And many great Kings sought
her, and there was contention and war. And, she, fearing that the Rajputs would
be crushed to powder between the warring Kings, sent unto each this message:
‘Come on such and such a day, and thou shalt see my face and hear my choice.’
And they, coming, rejoiced exceedingly, thinking each one that he was the
Chosen. So they came into the great Hall, and there was a table, and somewhat
upon it covered with a gold cloth; and an old veiled woman lifted the gold, and
the head of the Princess lay there with the lashes like night upon her cheek,
and between her lips was a little scroll, saying this: ‘I have chosen my Lover
and my Lord, and he is mightiest, for he is Death.’—So the Kings went silently
away. And there was Peace.”
The music of her voice ceased, and the Rana clasped her closer.
“This I cannot do. Better die together. Let us take counsel with
the ancient Brahman, thy guru [teacher], for he is very wise.”
She clapped her hands, and the maidens returned, and, bowing,
brought the venerable Prabhu Narayan into the Presence, and again those roses
retired.
Respectful salutation was then offered by the King and the Queen
to that saint, hoary with wisdom—he who had seen her grow into the loveliness
of the sea-born Shri, yet had never seen that loveliness; for he had never
raised his eyes above the chooris about her ankles. To him the King related his
anxieties; and he sat rapt in musing, and the two waited in dutiful silence
until long minutes had fallen away; and at the last he lifted his head,
weighted with wisdom, and spoke.
“O King, Descendant of Rama! this outrage cannot be. Yet, knowing
the strength and desire of this obscene one and the weakness of our power, it
is plain that only with cunning can cunning be met. Hear, therefore, the
history of the Fox and the Drum.
“A certain Fox searched for food in the jungle, and so doing
beheld a tree on which hung a drum; and when the boughs knocked upon the
parchment, it sounded aloud. Considering, he believed that so round a form and
so great a voice must portend much good feeding. Neglecting on this account a
fowl that fed near by, he ascended to the drum. The drum being rent was but air
and parchment, and meanwhile the fowl fled away. And from the eye of folly he
shed the tear of disappointment, having bartered the substance for the shadow.
So must we act with this budmash [scoundrel]. First, receiving his oath that he
will depart without violence, hid him hither to a great feast, and say that he
shall behold the face of the Queen in a mirror. Provide that some fair woman of
the city show her face, and then let him depart in peace, showing him
friendship. He shall not know he hath not seen the beauty he would befoul.”
After consultation, no better way could be found; but the heart of
the great Lady was heavy with foreboding.
(A hi! that Beauty should wander a pilgrim in the ways of sorrow!)
To Allah-u-Din therefore did the King dispatch this letter by
swift riders on mares of Mewar.
After salutations—“Now whereas thou hast said thou wouldest look
upon the beauty of the Treasure of Chitor, know it is not the custom of the
Rajputs that any eye should light upon their treasure. Yet assuredly, when
requests arise between friends, there cannot fail to follow distress of mind
and division of soul if these are ungranted. So, under promises that follow, I
bid thee to a feast at my poor house of Chitor, and thou shalt see that beauty
reflected in a mirror, and so seeing, depart in peace from the house of a
friend.”
This being writ by the Twice-Born, the Brahman, did the Rana sign
with bitter rage in his heart. And the days passed.
III
On a certain day found
fortunate by the astrologers—a day of early winter, when the dawns were pure
gold and the nights radiant with a cool moon—did a mighty troop of Moslems set
their camp on the plain of Chitor. It was as if a city had blossomed in an
hour. Those who looked from the walls muttered prayers to the Lord of the
Trident; for these men seemed like the swarms of the locust—people, warriors
all, fierce fighting-men. And in the ways of Chitor, and up the steep and
winding causeway from the plains, were warriors also, the chosen of the
Rajputs, thick as blades of corn hedging the path.
(Ahi! that the blossom of beauty should have swords for thorns!)
Then, leaving his camp, attended by many Chiefs,—may the mothers
and sires that begot them be accursed!—came Allah-u-Din, riding toward the
Lower Gate, and so upward along the causeway, between the two rows of men who
neither looked nor spoke, standing like the carvings of war in the Caves of
Ajunta. And the moon was rising through the sunset as he came beneath the last
and seventh gate. Through the towers and palaces he rode with his following,
but no woman, veiled or unveiled,—no, not even an outcast of the city,—was
there to see him come; only the men, armed and silent. So he turned to Munim
Khan that rode at his bridle, saying,—
“Let not the eye of watchfulness close this night on the pillow of
forgetfulness!”
And thus he entered the palace.
Very great was the feast in Chitor, and the wines that those
accursed should not drink (since the Outcast whom they call their Prophet
forbade them) ran like water, and at the right hand of Allah-u-Din was set the
great crystal Cup inlaid with gold by a craft that is now perished; and he
filled and refilled it—may his own Prophet curse the swine!
But because the sons of Kings eat not with the outcasts, the Rana
entered after, clothed in chain armor of blue steel, and having greeted him,
bid him to the sight of that Treasure. And Allah-u-Din, his eyes swimming with
wine, and yet not drunken, followed, and the two went alone.
Purdahs [curtains] of great splendour were hung in the great Hall
that is called the Raja’s Hall, exceeding rich with gold, and in front of the
opening was a kneeling-cushion, and an a gold stool before it a polished
mirror.
(Ahi! for gold and beauty, the scourges of the world!)
And the Rana was pale to the lips.
Now as the Princes stood by the purdah, a veiled woman, shrouded
in white so that no shape could be seen in her, came forth from within, and
kneeling upon the cushion, she unveiled her face bending until the mirror, like
a pool of water, held it, and that only. And the King motioned his guest to
look, and he looked over her veiled shoulder and saw. Very great was the bowed
beauty that the mirror held, but Allah-u-Din turned to the Rana.
“By the Bread and the Salt, by the Guest-Right, by the Honour of
thy House, I ask—is this the Treasure of Chitor?”
And since the Sun-Descended cannot lie, no, not though they
perish, the Rana answered, flushing darkly,—“This is not the Treasure. Wilt
thou spare?”
But he would not, and the woman slipped like a shadow behind the
purdah and no word said.
Then was heard the tinkling of chooris, and the little noise fell
upon the silence like a fear, and, parting the curtains, came a woman veiled
like the other. She did not kneel, but took the mirror in her hand, and
Allah-u-Din drew up behind her back. From her face she raised the veil of gold
Dakka webs, and gazed into the mirror, holding it high, and that Accursed
stumbled back, blinded with beauty, saying this only,—“I have seen the Treasure
of Chitor.”
So the purdah fell about her.
The next day, after the Imaum of the Accursed had called them to
prayer, they departed, and Allah-u-Din, paying thanks to the Rana for honours
given and taken, and swearing friendship, besought him to ride to his camp, to
see the marvels of gold and steel armor brought down from the passes, swearing
also safe-conduct. And because the Rajputs trust the word even of a foe, he
went.
(A hi! that honour should strike hands with traitors!)
IV
The hours went by,
heavy-footed like mourners. Padmini the Rani knelt by the window in her tower
that overlooks the plains. Motionless she knelt there, as the Goddess Uma lost
in her penances, and she saw her Lord ride forth, and the sparkle of steel
where the sun shone on them, and the Standard of the Cold Disk on its black
ground. So the camp of the Moslem swallowed them up, and they returned no more.
Still she knelt and none dared speak with her; and as the first shade of
evening fell across the hills of Rajasthan, she saw a horseman spurting over
the flat; and he rode like the wind, and, seeing, she implored the Gods.
Then entered the Twice-Born, that saint of clear eyes, and he bore
a scroll; and she rose and seated herself, and he stood by her, as her ladies
cowered like frightened doves before the woe in his face as he read.
“To the Rose of Beauty, The Pearl among Women, the Chosen of the
Palace. Who, having seen thy loveliness, can look on another? Who, having
tasted the wine of the Houris, but thirsts forever? Behold, I have thy King as
hostage. Come thou and deliver him. I have sworn that he shall return in thy
place.”
And from a smaller scroll, the Brahman read this:—
“I am fallen in the snare. Act thou as becomes a Rajputni.”
Then that Daughter of the Sun lifted her head, for the thronging
of armed feet was heard in the Council Hall below. From the floor she caught
her veil and veiled herself in haste, and the Brahman with bowed head followed,
while her women mourned aloud. And, descending, between the folds of the purdah
she appeared white and veiled, and the Brahman beside her, and the eyes of all
the Princes were lowered to her shrouded feet, while the voice they had not
heard fell silvery upon the air, and the echoes of the high roof repeated it.
“Chief of the Rajputs, what is your counsel?” And he of Marwar
stepped forward, and not raising his eyes above her feet, answered,—
“Queen, what is thine?”
For the Rajputs have ever heard the voice of their women.
And she said,—
“I counsel that I die and my head be sent to him, that my blood
may quench his desire.”
And each talked eagerly with the other, but amid the tumult the
Twice-Born said,—
“This is not good talk. In his rage he will slay the King. By my
yoga, I have seen it. Seek another way.”
So they sought, but could determine nothing, and they feared to
ride against the dog, for he held the life of the King; and the tumult was
great, but all were for the King’s safety.
Then once more she spoke.
“Seeing it is determined that the King’s life is more than my
honour, I go this night. In your hand I leave my little son, the Prince Ajeysi.
Prepare my litters, seven hundred of the best, for all my women go with me.
Depart now, for I have a thought from the Gods.”
Then, returning to her bower, she spoke this letter to the saint,
and he wrote it, and it was sent to the camp.
After salutations—“Wisdom and strength have attained their end.
Have ready for release the Rana of Chitor, for this night I come with my
ladies, the prize of the conqueror.”
When the sun sank, a great procession with torches descended the
steep way of Chitor—seven hundred litters, and in the first was borne the
Queen, and all her women followed.
All the streets were thronged with women, weeping and beating
their breasts. Very greatly they wept, and no men were seen, for their livers
were black within them for shame as the Treasure of Chitor departed, nor would
they look upon the sight. And across the plains went that procession; as if the
stars had fallen upon the earth, so glittered the sorrowful lights of the
Queen.
But in the camp was great rejoicing, for the Barbarians knew that
many fair women attended on her.
Now, before the entrance to the camp they had made a great
shamiana [tent] ready, hung with shawls of Kashmir and the plunder of Delhi;
and there was set a silk divan for the Rani, and beside it stood the Loser and
the Gainer, Allah-u-Din and the King, awaiting the Treasure.
Veiled she entered, stepping proudly, and taking no heed of the
Moslem, she stood before her husband, and even through the veil he could feel
the eyes he knew.
And that Accursed spoke, laughing.
“I have won-I have won, O King! Bid farewell to the Chosen of the
Palace—the Beloved of the Viceregent of Kings!”
Then she spoke softly, delicately, in her own tongue, that the
outcast should not guess the matter of her speech.
“Stand by me. Stir not. And when I raise my arm, cry the cry of
the Rajputs. NOW!”
And she flung her arm above her head, and instantly, like a lion
roaring, he shouted, drawing his sword, and from every litter sprang an armed
man, glittering in steel, and the bearers, humble of mien, were Rajput knights,
every one.
And Allah-u-Din thrust at the breast of the Queen; but around them
surged the war, and she was hedged with swords like a rose in the thickets.
Very full of wine, dull with feasting and lust and surprised, the
Moslems fled across the plains, streaming in a broken rabble, cursing and
shouting like low-caste women; and the Rajputs, wiping their swords, returned
from the pursuit and laughed upon each other.
But what shall be said of the joy of the King and of her who had
imagined this thing, instructed of the Goddess who is the other half of her
Lord?
So the procession returned, singing, to Chitor with those Two in
the midst; but among the dogs that fled was Allah-u-Din, his face blackened
with shame and wrath, the curses choking in his foul throat.
(Aid! that the evil still walk the ways of the world!)
V
So the time went by and
the beauty of the Queen grew, and her King could see none but hers. Like the
moon she obscured the stars, and every day he remembered her wisdom, her
valour, and his soul did homage at her feet, and there was great content in
Chitor.
It chanced one day that the Queen, looking from her high window
that like an eagle’s nest overhung the precipice, saw, on the plain beneath, a
train of men, walking like ants, and each carried a basket on his back, and
behind them was a cloud of dust like a great army. Already the city was astir
because of this thing, and the rumours came thick and the spies were sent out.
In the dark they returned, and the Rana entered the bower of
Padmini, his eyes burning like coal with hate and wrath, and he flung his arm
round his wife like a shield.
“He is returned, and in power. Counsel me again, O wife, for great
is thy wisdom!”
But she answered only this,—
“Fight, for this time it is to the death.”
Then each day she watched bow the baskets of earth, emptied upon
the plain at first, made nothing, an ant heap whereat fools might laugh. But
each day as the trains of men came, spilling their baskets, the great
earthworks grew and their height mounted. Day after day the Rajputs rode forth
and slew; and as they slew it seemed that all the teeming millions of the earth
came forth to take the places of the slain. And the Rajputs fell also, and
under the pennons the thundering forces returned daily, thinned of their best.
(A hi! that Evil rules the world as God!)
And still the earth grew up to the heights, and the protection of
the hills was slowly withdrawn from Chitor, for on the heights they made they
set their engines of war.
Then in a red dawn that great saint Narayan came to the Queen,
where she watched by her window, and spoke.
“O great lady, I have dreamed a fearful dream. Nay, rather have I
seen a vision.”
With her face set like a sword, the Queen said,—
“Say on.”
“In a light red like blood, I waked, and beside me stood the
Mother,—Durga,—awful to see, with a girdle of heads about her middle; and the
drops fell thick and slow from That which she held in her hand, and in the
other was her sickle of Doom. Nor did she speak, but my soul heard her words.”
“Narrate them.”
“She commanded: ‘Say this to the Rana: “In Chitor is My altar; in
Chitor is thy throne. If thou wouldest save either, send forth twelve crowned
Kings of Chitor to die.’”
As he said this, the Rana, fore-spent with fighting, entered and
heard the Divine word.
Now there were twelve princes of the Rajput blood, and the
youngest was the son of Padmini. What choice had these most miserable but to
appease the dreadful anger of the Goddess? So on each fourth day a King of
Chitor was crowned, and for three days sat upon the throne, and on the fourth
day, set in the front, went forth and died fighting. So perished eleven Kings
of Chitor, and now there was left but the little Ajeysi, the son of the Queen.
And that day was a great Council called.
Few were there. On the plains many lay dead; holding the gates many
watched; but the blood was red in their hearts and flowed like Indus in the
melting of the snows. And to them spoke the Rana, his hand clenched on his
sword, and the other laid on the small dark head of the Prince Ajeysi, who
stood between his knees. And as he spoke his voice gathered strength till it
rang through the hall like the voice of Indra when he thunders in the heavens.
“Men of the Rajputs, this child shall not die. Are we become
jackals that we fall upon the weak and tear them? When have we put our women
and children in the forefront of the war? I—I only am King of Chitor. Narayan
shall save this child for the time that will surely come. And for us—what shall
we do? I die for Chitor!”
And like the hollow waves of a great sea they answered him,—
“We will die for Chitor.”
There was silence and Marwar spoke.
“The women?”
“Do they not know the duty of a Rajputni?” said the King. “My
household has demanded that the caves be prepared.”
And the men clashed stew joy with their swords, and the council dispersed.
Then that very great saint, the Twice-Born, put off the sacred
thread that is the very soul of the Brahman. In his turban he wound it
secretly, and he stained his noble Aryan body until it resembled the Pariahs,
foul for the pure to see, loathsome for the pure to touch, and he put on him
the rags of the lowest of the earth, and taking the Prince, he removed from the
body of the child every trace of royal and Rajput birth, and he appeared like a
child of the Bhils—the vile forest wanderers that shame not to defile their
lips with carrion. And in this guise they stood before the Queen; and when she
looked on the saint, the tears fell from her eyes like rain, not for grief for
her son, nor for death, but that for their sake the pure should be made impure
and the glory of the Brahman-hood be defiled. And she fell at the old man’s
feet and laid her head on the ground before him.
“Rise, daughter!” he said, “and take comfort! Are not the eyes of
the Gods clear that they should distinguish?—and this day we stand before the
God of Gods. Have not the Great Ones said, ‘That which causes life causes also
decay and death’? Therefore we who go and you who stay are alike a part of the
Divine. Embrace now your child and bless him, for we depart. And it is on
account of the sacrifice of the Twelve that he is saved alive.”
So, controlling her tears, she rose, and clasping the child to her
bosom, she bade him be of good cheer since he went with the Gods. And that
great saint took his hand from hers, and for the first time in the life of the
Queen he raised his aged eyes to her face, and she gazed at him; but what she
read, even the ascetic Visravas, who saw all by the power of his yoga, could
not tell, for it was beyond speech. Very certainly the peace thereafter possessed
her.
So those two went out by the secret ways of the rocks, and
wandering far, were saved by the favour of Durga.
VI
And the nights went by
and the days, and the time came that no longer could they hold Chitor, and all
hope was dead.
On a certain day the Rana and the Rani stood for the last time in
her bower, and looked down into the city; and in the streets were gathered in a
very wonderful procession the women of Chitor; and not one was veiled. Flowers
that had bloomed in the inner chambers, great ladies jewelled for a festival,
young brides, aged mothers, and girl children clinging to the robes of their
mothers who held their babes, crowded the ways. Even the low-caste women walked
with measured steps and proudly, decked in what they had of best, their eyes
lengthened with soorma, and flowers in the darkness of their hair.
The Queen was clothed in a gold robe of rejoicing, her bodice
latticed with diamonds and great gems, and upon her bosom the necklace of table
emeralds, alight with green fire, which is the jewel of the Queens of Chitor.
So she stood radiant as a vision of Shri, and it appeared that rays encircled
her person.
And the Rana, unarmed save for his sword, had the saffron dress of
a bridegroom and the jeweled cap of the Rajput Kings, and below in the hall
were the Princes and Chiefs, clad even as he.
Then, raising her lotus eyes to her lord, the Princess said,—
“Beloved, the time is come, and we have chosen rightly, for this
is the way of honour, and it is but another link forged in the chain of
existence; for until existence itself is ended and rebirth destroyed, still
shall we meet in lives to come and still be husband and wife. What room then
for despair?”
And he answered,—
“This is true. Go first, wife, and I follow. Let not the door
swing to behind thee. But oh, to see thy beauty once more that is the very
speech of Gods with men! Wilt thou surely come again to me and again be fair?”
And for all answer she smiled upon him, and at his feet performed
the obeisance of the Rajput wife when she departs upon a journey; and they went
out together, the Queen unveiled.
As she passed through the Princes, they lowered their eyes so that
none saw her; but when she stood on the steps of the palace, the women all
turned eagerly toward her like stars about the moon, and lifting their arms,
they began to sing the dirge of the Rajput women.
So they marched, and in great companies they marched, company
behind company, young and old, past the Queen, saluting her and drawing courage
from the loveliness and kindness of her unveiled face.
In the rocks beneath the palaces of Chitor are very great
caves—league long and terrible, with ways of darkness no eyes have seen; and it
is believed that in times past spirits have haunted them with strange wailings.
In these was prepared great store of wood and oils and fragrant matters for
burning. So to these caves they marched and, company by company, disappeared
into the darkness; and the voice of their singing grew faint and hollow, and
died away, as the men stood watching their women go.
Now, when this was done and the last had gone, the Rani descended
the steps, and the Rana, taking a torch dipped in fragrant oils, followed her,
and the Princes walked after, clad like bridegrooms but with no faces of bridal
joy. At the entrance of the caves, having lit the torch, he gave it into her
hand, and she, receiving it and smiling, turned once upon the threshold, and
for the first time those Princes beheld the face of the Queen, but they hid
their eyes with their hands when they had seen. So she departed within, and the
Rana shut to the door and barred and bolted it, and the men with him flung down
great rocks before it so that none should know the way, nor indeed is it known
to this day; and with their hands on their swords they waited there, not
speaking, until a great smoke rose between the crevices of the rocks, but no
sound at all.
(Ashes of roses—ashes of roses!—Ahi! for beauty that is but
touched and remitted!)
The sun was high when those men with their horses and on foot
marched down the winding causeway beneath the seven gates, and so forth into
the plains, and charging unarmed upon the Moslems, they perished every man.
After, it was asked of one who had seen the great slaughter,—
“Say how my King bore himself.”
And he who had seen told this:—
“Reaper of the harvest of battle, on the bed of honour he has
spread a carpet of the slain! He sleeps ringed about by his enemies. How can
the world tell of his deeds? The tongue is silent.”
When that Accursed, Allah-u-Din, came up the winding height of the
hills, he found only a dead city, and his heart was sick within him.
Now this is the Sack of Chitor, and by the Oath of the Sack of
Chitor do the Rajputs swear when they bind their honour.
But it is only the ascetic Visravas who by the power of his yoga
has heard every word, and with his eyes beheld that Flame of Beauty, who, for a
brief space illuminating the world as a Queen, returns to birth in many a shape
of sorrowful loveliness until the Blue-throated God shall in his favour destroy
her rebirths.
Salutation to Ganesa the Elephant-Headed One, and to Shri the Lady
of Beauty!
6.THE BUILDING OF THE TAJ MAHAL
In the
Name of God, the Compassionate, the Merciful—the Smiting!
A day
when the soul shall know what it has sent on or kept back.
A day
when no soul shall control aught for another.
And the
bidding belongs to God.
THE KORAN.
I
Now the Shah-in-Shah,
Shah Jahan, Emperor in India, loved his wife with a great love. And of all the
wives of the Mogul Emperors surely this Lady Arjemand, Mumtaz-i-Mahal—-the
Chosen of the Palace—was the most worthy of love. In the tresses of her
silk-soft hair his heart was bound, and for none other had he so much as a
passing thought since his soul had been submerged in her sweetness. Of her he said,
using the words of the poet Faisi,—
“How shall I understand the magic of Love the Juggler? For he made
thy beauty enter at that small gate the pupil of my eye, And now—and now my
heart cannot contain it!”
But who should marvel? For those who have seen this Arjemand
crowned with the crown the Padishah set upon her sweet low brows, with the
lamps of great jewels lighting the dimples of her cheeks as they swung beside
them, have most surely seen perfection. He who sat upon the Peacock Throne,
where the outspread tail of massed gems is centred by that great ruby, “The Eye
of the Peacock, the Tribute of the World,” valued it not so much as one Jock of
the dark and perfumed tresses that rolled to her feet. Less to him the twelve
throne columns set close with pearls than the little pearls she showed in her
sweet laughter. For if this lady was all beauty, so too she was all goodness;
and from the Shah-in-Shah to the poorest, all hearts of the world knelt in
adoration, before the Chosen of the Palace. She was, indeed, an extraordinary
beauty, in that she had the soul of a child, and she alone remained unconscious
of her power; and so she walked, crowned and clothed with humility.
Cold, haughty, and silent was the Shah-in-Shah before she blessed
his arms—flattered, envied, but loved by none. But the gift this Lady brought
with her was love; and this, shining like the sun upon ice, melted his
coldness, and he became indeed the kingly centre of a kingly court May the
Peace be upon her!
Now it was the dawn of a sorrowful day when the pains of the Lady
Arjemand came strong and terrible, and she travailed in agony. The hakims
(physicians) stroked their beards and reasoned one with another; the wise women
surrounded her, and remedies many and great were tried; and still her anguish
grew, and in the hall without sat the Shah-in-Shah upon his divan, in anguish
of spirit yet greater. The sweat ran on his brows, the knotted veins were thick
on his temples, and his eyes, sunk in their caves, showed as those of a
maddened man. He crouched on his cushions and stared at the purdah that divided
him from the Lady; and all day the people came and went about him, and there
was silence from the voice he longed to hear; for she would not moan, lest the
sound should slay the Emperor. Her women besought her, fearing that her strong
silence would break her heart; but still she lay, her hands clenched in one
another, enduring; and the Emperor endured without. The Day of the Smiting!
So, as the time of the evening prayer drew nigh, a child was born,
and the Empress, having done with pain, began to sink slowly into that profound
sleep that is the shadow cast by the Last. May Allah the Upholder have mercy on
our weakness! And the women, white with fear and watching, looked upon her, and
whispered one to another, “It is the end.”
And the aged mother of Abdul Mirza, standing at her head, said,
“She heeds not the cry of the child. She cannot stay.” And the newly wed wife
of Saif Khan, standing at her feet, said, “The voice of the beloved husband is
as the Call of the Angel. Let the Padishah be summoned.”
So, the evening prayer being over (but the Emperor had not
prayed), the wisest of the hakims, Kazim Sharif, went before him and spoke:—
“Inhallah! May the will of the Issuer of Decrees in all things be
done! Ascribe unto the Creator glory, bowing before his Throne.”
And he remained silent; but the Padishah, haggard in his jewels,
with his face hidden, answered thickly, “The truth! For Allah has forgotten his
slave.”
And Kazim Sharif, bowing at his feet and veiling his face with his
hands, replied:
“The voice of the child cannot reach her, and the Lady of Delight
departs. He who would speak with her must speak quickly.”
Then the Emperor rose to his feet unsteadily, like a man drunk
with the forbidden juice; and when Kazim Sharif would have supported him, he
flung aside his hands, and he stumbled, a man wounded to death, as it were, to
the marble chamber where she lay.
In that white chamber it was dusk, and they had lit the little
cressets so that a very faint light fell upon her face. A slender fountain a
little cooled the hot, still air with its thin music and its sprinkled
diamonds, and outside, the summer lightnings were playing wide and blue on the
river; but so still was it that the dragging footsteps of the Emperor raised
the hair on the flesh of those who heard, So the women who should, veiled
themselves, and the others remained like pillars of stone.
Now, when those steps were heard, a faint colour rose in the cheek
of the Lady Arjemand; but she did not raise the heavy lashes, or move her hand.
And he came up beside her, and the Shadow of God, who should kneel to none,
knelt, and his head fell forward upon her breast; and in the hush the women
glided out like ghosts, leaving the husband with the wife excepting only that
her foster-nurse stood far off, with eyes averted.
So the minutes drifted by, falling audibly one by one into
eternity, and at the long last she slowly opened her eyes and, as from the
depths of a dream, beheld the Emperor; and in a voice faint as the fall of a
rose-leaf she said the one word, “Beloved!”
And he from between his clenched teeth, answered, “Speak, wife.”
So she, who in all things had loved and served him,—she, Light of
all hearts, dispeller of all gloom,—gathered her dying breath for consolation,
and raised one hand slowly; and it fell across his, and so remained.
Now, her beauty had been broken in the anguish like a rose in
storm; but it returned to her, doubtless that the Padishah might take comfort
in its memory; and she looked like a houri of Paradise who, kneeling beside the
Zemzem Well, beholds the Waters of Peace. Not Fatmeh herself, the daughter of
the Prophet of God, shone more sweetly. She repeated the word, “Beloved”; and
after a pause she whispered on with lips that scarcely stirred, “King of the
Age, this is the end.”
But still he was like a dead man, nor lifted his face.
“Surely all things pass. And though I go, in your heart I abide,
and nothing can sever us. Take comfort.”
But there was no answer.
“Nothing but Love’s own hand can slay Love. Therefore, remember
me, and I shall live.”
And he answered from the darkness of her bosom, “The whole world
shall remember. But when shall I be united to thee? O Allah, how long wilt thou
leave me to waste in this separation?”
And she: “Beloved, what is time? We sleep and the night is gone.
Now put your arms about me, for I sink into rest. What words are needed between
us? Love is enough.”
So, making not the Profession of Faith,—and what need, since all
her life was worship,—the Lady Arjemand turned into his arms like a child. And
the night deepened.
Morning, with its arrows of golden light that struck the river to
splendour! Morning, with its pure breath, its sunshine of joy, and the koels
fluting in the Palace gardens! Morning, divine and new from the hand of the
Maker! And in the innermost chamber of marble a white silence; and the Lady,
the Mirror of Goodness, lying in the Compassion of Allah, and a broken man
stretched on the ground beside her. For all flesh, from the camel-driver to the
Shah-in-Shah, is as one in the Day of the Smiting.
II
For weeks the Emperor
lay before the door of death; and had it opened to him, he had been blessed. So
the months went by, and very slowly the strength returned to him; but his eyes
were withered and the bones stood out in his cheeks. But he resumed his throne,
and sat upon it kingly, black-bearded, eagle-eyed, terribly apart in his grief
and his royalty; and so seated among his Usbegs, he declared his will.
“For this Lady (upon whom be peace), departed to the mercy of the
Giver and Taker, shall a tomb-palace be made, the Like of which is not found in
the four corners of the world. Send forth therefore for craftsmen like the
builders of the Temple of Solomon the Wise; for I will build.”
So, taking counsel, they sent in haste into Agra for Ustad Isa,
the Master-Builder, a man of Shiraz; and he, being presented before the
Padishah, received his instructions in these words:—
“I will that all the world shall remember the Flower of the World,
that all hearts shall give thanks for her beauty, which was indeed the perfect
Mirror of the Creator. And since it is abhorrent of Islam that any image be
made in the likeness of anything that has life, make for me a palace-tomb,
gracious as she was gracious, lovely as she was lovely. Not such as the tombs
of the Kings and the Conquerors, but of a divine sweetness. Make me a garden on
the banks of Jumna, and build it there, where, sitting in my Pavilion of
Marble, I may see it rise.”
And Ustad Isa, having heard, said, “Upon my head and eyes!” and
went out from the Presence.
So, musing upon the words of the Padishah, he went to his house in
Agra, and there pondered the matter long and deeply; and for a whole day and
night he refused all food and secluded himself from the society of all men; for
he said:—
“This is a weighty thing, for this Lady (upon whom be peace) must
visibly dwell in her tomb-palace on the shore of the river; and how shall I,
who have never seen her, imagine the grace that was in her, and restore it to
the world? Oh, had I but the memory of her face! Could I but see it as the
Shah-in-Shah sees it, remembering the past! Prophet of God, intercede for me,
that I may look through his eyes, if but for a moment!”
That night he slept, wearied and weakened with fasting; and
whether it were that the body guarded no longer the gates of the soul, I cannot
say; for, when the body ails, the soul soars free above its weakness. But a
strange marvel happened.
For, as it seemed to him, he awoke at the mid-noon of the night,
and he was sitting, not in his own house, but upon the roof of the royal
palace, looking down on the gliding Jumna, where the low moon slept in silver,
and the light was alone upon the water; and there were no boats, but sleep and
dream, hovering hand-in-hand, moved upon the air, and his heart was dilated in
the great silence.
Yet he knew well that he waked in some supernatural sphere: for
his eyes could see across the river as if the opposite shore lay at his feet;
and he could distinguish every leaf on every tree, and the flowers
moon-blanched and ghost-like. And there, in the blackest shade of the pippala
boughs, he beheld a faint light like a pearl; and looking with unspeakable
anxiety, he saw within the light, slowly growing, the figure of a lady
exceedingly glorious in majesty and crowned with a rayed crown of mighty jewels
of white and golden splendour. Her gold robe fell to her feet, and—very strange
to tell—her feet touched not the ground, but hung a span’s length above it, so
that she floated in the air.
But the marvel of marvels was her face—not, indeed, for its
beauty, though that transcended all, but for its singular and compassionate
sweetness, wherewith she looked toward the Palace beyond the river as if it
held the heart of her heart, while death and its river lay between.
And Ustad Isa said:—“O dream, if this sweetness be but a dream,
let me never wake! Let me see forever this exquisite work of Allah the Maker,
before whom all the craftsmen are as children! For my knowledge is as nothing,
and I am ashamed in its presence.”
And as he spoke, she turned those brimming eyes on him, and he saw
her slowly absorbed into the glory of the moonlight; but as she faded into
dream, he beheld, slowly rising, where her feet had hung in the blessed air, a
palace of whiteness, warm as ivory, cold as chastity, domes and cupolas,
slender minars, arches of marble fretted into sea-foam, screen within screen of
purest marble, to hide the sleeping beauty of a great Queen—silence in the
heart of it, and in every line a harmony beyond all music. Grace was about
it—the grace of a Queen who prays and does not command; who, seated in her
royalty yet inclines all hearts to love. And he saw that its grace was her
grace, and its soul her soul, and that she gave it for the consolation of the
Emperor.
And he fell on his face and worshipped the Master-Builder of the
Universe, saying,—“Praise cannot express thy Perfection. Thine Essence
confounds thought. Surely I am but the tool in the hand of the Builder.”
And when he awoke, he was lying in his own secret chamber, but
beside him was a drawing such as the craftsmen make of the work they have
imagined in their hearts. And it was the Palace of the Tomb.
Henceforward, how should he waver? He was as a slave who obeys his
master, and with haste he summoned to Agra his Army of Beauty.
Then were assembled all the master craftsmen of India and of the
outer world. From Delhi, from Shiraz, even from Baghdad and Syria, they came.
Muhammad Hanif, the wise mason, came from Kandahar, Muhammad Sayyid from
Mooltan. Amanat Khan, and other great writers of the holy Koran, who should
make the scripts of the Book upon fine marble. Inlayers from Kanauj, with
fingers like those of the Spirits that bowed before Solomon the King, who
should make beautiful the pure stone with inlay of jewels, as did their
forefathers for the Rajah of Mewar; mighty dealers with agate, cornelian, and
lapis lazuli. Came also, from Bokhara, Ata Muhammad and Shakri Muhammad, that
they might carve the lilies of the field, very glorious, about that Flower of
the World. Men of India, men of Persia, men of the outer lands, they came at
the bidding of Ustad Isa, that the spirit of his vision might be made manifest.
And a great council was held among these servants of beauty, so they
made a model in little of the glory that was to be, and laid it at the feet of
the Shah-in-Shah; and he allowed it, though not as yet fully discerning their
intent. And when it was approved, Ustad Isa called to him a man of Kashmir; and
the very hand of the Creator was upon this man, for he could make gardens
second only to the Gardens of Paradise, having been born by that Dal Lake where
are those roses of the earth, the Shalimar and the Nishat Bagh; and to him said
Ustad Isa,—
“Behold, Rain Lal Kashmiri, consider this design! Thus and thus
shall a white palace, exquisite in perfection, arise on the banks of Jumna.
Here, in little, in this model of sandalwood, see what shall be. Consider these
domes, rounded as the Bosom of Beauty, recalling the mystic fruit of the lotus
flower. Consider these four minars that stand about them like Spirits about the
Throne. And remembering that all this shall stand upon a great dais of purest
marble, and that the river shall be its mirror, repeating to everlasting its loveliness,
make me a garden that shall be the throne room to this Queen.”
And Ram Lal Kashmiri salaamed and said, “Obedience!” and went
forth and pondered night and day, journeying even over the snows of the Pir
Panjal to Kashmir, that he might bathe his eyes in beauty where she walks,
naked and divine, upon the earth, and he it was who imagined the black marble
and white that made the way of approach.
So grew the palace that should murmur, like a seashell, in the ear
of the world the secret of love.
Veiled had that loveliness been in the shadow of the palace; but
now the sun should rise upon it and turn its ivory to gold, should set upon it
and flush its snow with rose. The moon should lie upon it like the pearls upon
her bosom, the visible grace of her presence breathe about it, the music of her
voice hover in the birds and trees of the garden. Times there were when Ustad
Isa despaired lest even these mighty servants of beauty should miss perfection.
Yet it grew and grew, rising like the growth of a flower.
So on a certain day it stood completed, and beneath the small tomb
in the sanctuary, veiled with screens of wrought marble so fine that they might
lift in the breeze,—the veils of a Queen,—slept the Lady Arjemand; and above
her a narrow coffer of white marble, enriched in a great script with the
Ninety-Nine Wondrous Names of God. And the Shah-in-Shah, now grey and worn,
entered and, standing by her, cried in a loud voice,—“I ascribe to the Unity,
the only Creator, the perfection of his handiwork made visible here by the hand
of mortal man. For the beauty that was secret in my Palace is here revealed;
and the Crowned Lady shall sit forever upon the banks of the Jumna River. It
was love that commanded this Tomb.”
And the golden echo carried his voice up into the high dome, and
it died away in whispers of music.
But Ustad Isa standing far off in the throng (for what are
craftsmen in the presence of the mighty?), said softly in his beard, “It was
Love also that built, and therefore it shall endure.”
Now it is told that, on a certain night in summer, when the moon
is full, a man who lingers by the straight water, where the cypresses stand
over their own image, may see a strange marvel—may see the Palace of the Taj
dissolve like a pearl, and so rise in a mist into the moonlight; and in its
place, on her dais of white marble, he shall see the Lady Arjemand,
Mumtaz-i-Mahal, the Chosen of the Palace, stand there in the white perfection
of beauty, smiling as one who hath attained unto the Peace. For she is its
soul.
And kneeling before the dais, he shall see Ustad Isa, who made
this body of her beauty; and his face is hidden in his hands.
7.“HOW GREAT IS THE GLORY OF KWANNON!”
A JAPANESE STORY
(O Lovely One-O thou
Flower! With Thy beautiful face, with Thy beautiful eyes, pour light upon the
world! Adoration to Kwannon.)
In Japan in the days of the remote Ancestors, near the little
village of Shiobara, the river ran through rocks of a very strange blue colour,
and the bed of the river was also composed of these rocks, so that the clear
water ran blue as turquoise gems to the sea.
The great forests murmured beside it, and through their swaying
boughs was breathed the song of Eternity. Those who listen may hear if their
ears are open. To others it is but the idle sighing of the wind.
Now because of all this beauty there stood in these forests a
roughly built palace of unbarked wood, and here the great Emperor would come
from City-Royal to seek rest for his doubtful thoughts and the cares of state,
turning aside often to see the moonlight in Shiobara. He sought also the free
air and the sound of falling water, yet dearer to him than the plucked strings
of sho and biwa. For he said;
“Where and how shall We find peace even for a moment, and afford
Our heart refreshment even for a single second?”
And it seemed to him that he found such moments at Shiobara.
Only one of his great nobles would His Majesty bring with him—the
Dainagon, and him be chose because he was a worthy and honorable person and
very simple of heart.
There was yet another reason why the Son of Heaven inclined to the
little Shiobara. It had reached the Emperor that a Recluse of the utmost
sanctity dwelt in that forest. His name was Semimaru. He had made himself a
small hut in the deep woods, much as a decrepit silkworm might spin his last
Cocoon and there had the Peace found him.
It had also reached His Majesty that, although blind, he was
exceedingly skilled in the art of playing the biwa, both in the Flowing Fount
manner and the Woodpecker manner, and that, especially on nights when the moon
was full, this aged man made such music as transported the soul. This music His
Majesty desired very greatly to hear.
Never had Semimaru left his hut save to gather wood or seek food
until the Divine Emperor commanded his attendance that he might soothe his
august heart with music.
Now on this night of nights the moon was full and the snow heavy
on the pines, and the earth was white also, and when the moon shone through the
boughs it made a cold light like dawn, and the shadows of the trees were black
upon it.
The attendants of His Majesty long since slept for sheer
weariness, for the night was far spent, but the Emperor and the Dainagon still
sat with their eyes fixed on the venerable Semimaru. For many hours he had
played, drawing strange music from his biwa. Sometimes it had been like rain
blowing over the plains of Adzuma, sometimes like the winds roaring down the
passes of the Yoshino Mountains, and yet again like the voice of far cities.
For many hours they listened without weariness, and thought that all the
stories of the ancients might flow past them in the weird music that seemed to
have neither beginning nor end.
“It is as the river that changes and changes not, and is ever and
ever the same,” said the Emperor in his own soul.
And certainly had a voice announced to His Augustness that
centuries were drifting by as he listened, he could have felt no surprise.
Before them, as they sat upon the silken floor cushions, was a
small shrine with a Buddha shelf, and a hanging picture of the Amida Buddha
within it—the expression one of rapt peace. Figures of Fugen and Fudo were
placed before the curtain doors of the shrine, looking up in adoration to the
Blessed One. A small and aged pine tree was in a pot of grey porcelain from
Chosen—the only ornament in the chamber.
Suddenly His Majesty became aware that the Dainagon also had
fallen asleep from weariness, and that the recluse was no longer playing, but
was speaking in a still voice like a deeply flowing stream. The Emperor had
observed no change from music to speech, nor could he recall when the music had
ceased, so that it altogether resembled a dream.
“When I first came here”—the Venerable one continued—“it was not
my intention to stay long in the forest. As each day dawned, I said; ‘In seven
days I go.’ And again—‘In seven.’ Yet have I not gone. The days glided by and
here have I attained to look on the beginnings of peace. Then wherefore should
I go?—for all life is within the soul. Shall the fish weary of his pool? And I,
who through my blind eyes feel the moon illuming my forest by night and the sun
by day, abide in peace, so that even the wild beasts press round to hear my
music. I have come by a path overblown by autumn leaves. But I have come.”
Then said the Divine Emperor as if unconsciously;
“Would that I also might come! But the august duties cannot easily
be laid aside. And I have no wife—no son.”
And Semimaru, playing very softly on the strings of his biwa made
no other answer, and His Majesty, collecting his thoughts, which had become, as
it were, frozen with the cold and the quiet and the strange music, spoke thus,
as if in a waking dream;
“Why have I not wedded? Because I have desired a bride beyond the
women of earth, and of none such as I desire has the rumor reached me. Consider
that Ancestor who wedded Her Shining Majesty! Evil and lovely was she, and the
passions were loud about her. And so it is with women. Trouble and vexation of
spirit, or instead a great weariness. But if the Blessed One would vouchsafe to
my prayers a maiden of blossom and dew, with a heart calm as moonlight, her
would I wed. O, honorable One, whose wisdom surveys the world, is there in any
place near or far—in heaven or in earth, such a one that I may seek and find?”
And Semimaru, still making a very low music on his biwa, said
this;
“Supreme Master, where the Shiobara River breaks away through the
gorges to the sea, dwelt a poor couple—the husband a wood-cutter. They had no
children to aid in their toil, and daily the woman addressed her prayers for a
son to the Bodhisattwa Kwannon, the Lady of Pity who looketh down for ever upon
the sound of prayer. Very fervently she prayed, with such offerings as her
poverty allowed, and on a certain night she dreamed this dream. At the shrine
of the Senju Kwannon she knelt as was her custom, and that Great Lady, sitting
enthroned upon the Lotos of Purity, opened Her eyes slowly from Her divine
contemplation and heard the prayer of the wood-cutter’s wife. Then stooping
like a blown willow branch, she gathered a bud from the golden lotos plant that
stood upon her altar, and breathing upon it it became pure white and living,
and it exhaled a perfume like the flowers of Paradise, This flower the Lady of
Pity flung into the bosom of her petitioner, and closing Her eyes returned into
Her divine dream, whilst the woman awoke, weeping for joy.
“But when she sought in her bosom for the Lotos it was gone. Of
all this she boasted loudly to her folk and kin, and the more so, when in due
time she perceived herself to be with child, for, from that august favour she
looked for nothing less than a son, radiant with the Five Ornaments of riches,
health, longevity, beauty, and success. Yet, when her hour was come, a girl was
born, and blind.”
“Was she welcomed?” asked the dreaming voice of the Emperor.
“Augustness, but as a household drudge. For her food was cruelty
and her drink tears. And the shrine of the Senju Kwannon was neglected by her
parents because of the disappointment and shame of the unwanted gift. And they
believed that, lost in Her divine contemplation, the Great Lady would not
perceive this neglect. The Gods however are known by their great memories.”
“Her name?”
“Majesty, Tsuyu-Morning Dew. And like the morning dew she shines
in stillness. She has repaid good for evil to her evil parents, serving them
with unwearied service.”
“What distinguishes her from others?”
“Augustness, a very great peace. Doubtless the shadow of the dream
of the Holy Kwannon. She works, she moves, she smiles as one who has tasted of
content.”
“Has she beauty?”
“Supreme Master, am I not blind? But it is said that she has no
beauty that men should desire her. Her face is flat and round, and her eyes
blind.”
“And yet content?”
“Philosophers might envy her calm. And her blindness is without
doubt a grace from the excelling Pity, for could she see her own exceeding
ugliness she must weep for shame. But she sees not. Her sight is inward, and
she is well content.”
“Where does she dwell?”
“Supreme Majesty, far from here—where in the heart of the woods the
river breaks through the rocks.”
“Venerable One, why have you told me this? I asked for a royal
maiden wise and beautiful, calm as the dawn, and you have told me of a
wood-cutter’s drudge, blind and ugly.”
And now Semimaru did not answer, but the tones of the biwa grew
louder and clearer, and they rang like a song of triumph, and the Emperor could
hear these words in the voice of the strings.
“She is beautiful as the night, crowned with moon and stars for
him who has eyes to see. Princess Splendour was dim beside her; Prince
Fireshine, gloom! Her Shining Majesty was but a darkened glory before this
maid. All beauty shines within her hidden eyes.”
And having uttered this the music became wordless once more, but
it still flowed on more and more softly like a river that flows into the far
distance.
The Emperor stared at the mats, musing—the light of the lamp was
burning low. His heart said within him;
“This maiden, cast like a flower from the hand of Kwannon Sama,
will I see.”
And as he said this the music had faded away into a thread-like
smallness, and when after long thought he raised his august head, he was alone
save for the Dainagon, sleeping on the mats behind him, and the chamber was in
darkness. Semimaru had departed in silence, and His Majesty, looking forth into
the broad moonlight, could see the track of his feet upon the shining snow, and
the music came back very thinly like spring rain in the trees. Once more he
looked at the whiteness of the night, and then, stretching his august person on
the mats, he slept amid dreams of sweet sound.
The next day, forbidding any to follow save the Dainagon, His
Majesty went forth upon the frozen snow where the sun shone in a blinding
whiteness. They followed the track of Semimaru’s feet far under the pine trees
so heavy with their load of snow that they were bowed as if with fruit. And the
track led on and the air was so still that the cracking of a bough was like the
blow of a hammer, and the sliding of a load of snow from a branch like the fall
of an avalanche. Nor did they speak as they went. They listened, nor could they
say for what.
Then, when they had gone a very great way, the track ceased
suddenly, as if cut off, and at this spot, under the pines furred with snow,
His Majesty became aware of a perfume so sweet that it was as though all the
flowers of the earth haunted the place with their presence, and a music like
the biwa of Semimaru was heard in the tree tops. This sounded far off like the
whispering of rain when it falls in very small leaves, and presently it died
away, and a voice followed after, singing, alone in the woods, so that the
silence appeared to have been created that such a music might possess the
world. So the Emperor stopped instantly, and the Dainagon behind him and he
heard these words.
“In me
the Heavenly Lotos grew,
The
fibres ran from head to feet,
And my
heart was the august Blossom.
Therefore the sweetness flowed through the veins of my flesh,
And I
breathed peace upon all the world,
And
about me was my fragrance shed
That
the souls of men should desire me.”
Now, as he listened, there came through the wood a maiden,
bare—footed, save for grass sandals, and clad in coarse clothing, and she came
up and passed them, still singing.
And when she was past, His Majesty put up his hand to his eyes,
like one dreaming, and said;
“What have you seen?”
And the Dainagon answered;
“Augustness, a country wench, flat—faced, ugly and blind, and with
a voice like a crow. Has not your Majesty seen this?”
The Emperor, still shading his eyes, replied;
“I saw a maiden so beautiful that her Shining Majesty would be a
black blot beside her. As she went, the Spring and all its sweetness blew from
her garments. Her robe was green with small gold flowers. Her eyes were closed,
but she resembled a cherry tree, snowy with bloom and dew. Her voice was like
the singing flowers of Paradise.”
The Dainagon looked at him with fear and compassion;
“Augustness, how should such a lady carry in her arms a bundle of
firewood?”
“She bore in her hands three lotos flowers, and where each foot
fell I saw a lotos bloom and vanish.”
They retraced their steps through the wood; His Majesty radiant as
Prince Fireshine with the joy that filled his soul; the Dainagon darkened as
Prince Firefade with fear, believing that the strange music of Semimaru had
bewitched His Majesty, or that the maiden herself might possibly have the power
of the fox in shape-changing and bewildering the senses.
Very sorrowful and careful was his heart for he loved his Master.
That night His Majesty dreamed that he stood before the kakemono
of the Amida Buddha, and that as he raised his eyes in adoration to the Blessed
Face, he beheld the images of Fugen and Fudo, rise up and bow down before that
One Who Is. Then, gliding in, before these Holinesses stood a figure, and it
was the wood-cutter’s daughter homely and blinded. She stretched her hands
upward as though invoking the supreme Buddha, and then turning to His Majesty
she smiled upon him, her eyes closed as in bliss unutterable. And he said
aloud.
“Would that I might see her eyes!” and so saying awoke in a great
stillness of snow and moonlight.
Having waked, he said within himself
“This marvel will I wed and she shall be my Empress were she lower
than the Eta, and whether her face be lovely or homely. For she is certainly a
flower dropped from the hand of the Divine.”
So when the sun was high His Majesty, again followed by the
Dainagon, went through the forest swiftly, and like a man that sees his goal,
and when they reached the place where the maiden went by, His Majesty straitly
commanded the Dainagon that he should draw apart, and leave him to speak with
the maiden; yet that he should watch what befell.
So the Dainagon watched, and again he saw her come, very poorly
clad, and with bare feet that shrank from the snow in her grass sandals, bowed
beneath a heavy load of wood upon her shoulders, and her face flat and homely
like a girl of the people, and her eyes blind and shut.
And as she came she sang this.
“The
Eternal way lies before him,
The
way that is made manifest in the Wise.
The
Heart that loves reveals itself to man.
For
now he draws nigh to the Source.
The
night advances fast,
And
lo! the moon shines bright.”
And to the Dainagon it seemed a harsh crying nor could he
distinguish any words at all.
But what His Majesty beheld was this. The evening had come on and
the moon was rising. The snow had gone. It was the full glory of spring, and
the flowers sprang thick as stars upon the grass, and among them lotos flowers,
great as the wheel of a chariot, white and shining with the luminance of the
pearl, and upon each one of these was seated an incarnate Holiness, looking
upward with joined hands. In the trees were the voices of the mystic Birds that
are the utterance of the Blessed One, proclaiming in harmony the Five Virtues,
The Five Powers, the Seven Steps ascending to perfect Illumination, the Noble
Eightfold Path, and all the Law. And, bearing, in the heart of the Son of
Heaven awoke the Three Remembrances—the Remembrance of Him who is Blessed,
Remembrance of the Law, and Remembrance of the Communion of the Assembly.
So, looking upward to the heavens, he beheld the Infinite Buddha,
high and lifted up in a great raying glory. About Him were the exalted Bodhisattwas,
the mighty Disciples, great Arhats all, and all the countless Angelhood. And
these rose high into the infinite until they could be seen but as a point of
fire against the moon. With this golden multitude beyond all numbering was He.
Then, as His Majesty had seen in the dream of the night, the
wood-cutter’s daughter, moving through the flowers like one blind that gropes
his way, advanced before the Blessed Feet, and uplifting her hands, did
adoration, and her face he could not see, but his heart went with her, adoring
also the infinite Buddha seated in the calms of boundless Light.
Then enlightenment entered at his eyes, as a man that wakes from
sleep, and suddenly he beheld the Maiden crowned and robed and terrible in
beauty, and her feet were stayed upon an open lotos, and his soul knew the
Senju Kwannon Herself, myriad-armed for the helping of mankind.
And turning, she smiled as in the vision, but his eyes being now
clear her blinded eyes were opened, and that glory who shall tell as those
living founts of Wisdom rayed upon him their ineffable light? In that ocean was
his being drowned, and so, bowed before the Infinite Buddha, he received the
Greater Illumination.
How great is the Glory of Kwannon!
When the radiance and the vision were withdrawn and only the moon
looked over the trees, His Majesty rose upon his feet, and standing on the
snow, surrounded with calm, he called to the Dainagon, and asked this;
“What have you seen?”
“Augustness, nothing but the country wench and moon and snow.”
“And heard?”
“Augustness, nothing but the harsh voice of the wood-cutter’s
daughter.”
“And felt?”
“Augustness, nothing but the bone-piercing cold.” So His Majesty
adored that which cannot be uttered, saying;
“So Wisdom, so Glory encompass us about, and we see them not for
we are blinded with illusion. Yet every stone is a jewel and every clod is
spirit and to the hems of the Infinite Buddha all cling. Through the compassion
of the Supernal Mercy that walks the earth as the Bodhisattwa Kwannon, am I
admitted to wisdom and given sight and hearing. And what is all the world to
that happy one who has beheld Her eyes!”
And His Majesty returned through the forest.
When, the next day, he sent for the venerable Semimaru that holy
recluse had departed and none knew where. But still when the moon is full a
strange music moves in the tree tops of Shiobara.
Then His sacred Majesty returned to City-Royal, having determined
to retire into the quiet life, and there, abandoning the throne to a kinsman
wise in greatness, he became a dweller in the deserted hut of Semimaru.
His life, like a descending moon approaching the hill that should
hide it, was passed in meditation on that Incarnate Love and Compassion whose
glory had augustly been made known to him, and having cast aside all save the
image of the Divine from his soul, His Majesty became even as that man who
desired enlightenment of the Blessed One.
For he, desiring instruction, gathered precious flowers, and
journeyed to present them as an offering to the Guatama Buddha. Standing before
Him, he stretched forth both his hands holding the flowers.
Then said the Holy One, looking upon his petitioner’s right hand;
“Loose your hold of these.”
And the man dropped the flowers from his right hand. And the Holy
One looking upon his left hand, said;
“Loose your hold of these.”
And, sorrowing, he dropped the flowers from his left hand. And
again the Master said;
“Loose your hold of that which is neither in the right nor in the
left.”
And the disciple said very pitifully;
“Lord, of what should I loose my hold for I have nothing left?”
And He looked upon him steadfastly.
Therefore at last understanding he emptied his soul of all desire,
and of fear that is the shadow of desire, and being enlightened relinquished
all burdens.
So was it also with His Majesty. In peace he dwelt, and becoming a
great Arhat, in peace he departed to that Uttermost Joy where is the Blessed
One made manifest in Pure Light.
As for the parents of the maiden, they entered after sore troubles
into peace, having been remembered by the Infinite. For it is certain that the
enemies also of the Supreme Buddha go to salvation by thinking on Him, even
though it be against Him.
And he who tells this truth makes this prayer to the Lady of Pity;
“Grant
me, I pray,
One
dewdrop from Thy willow spray,
And in
the double Lotos keep
My
hidden heart asleep.”
How great is the Glory of Kwannon!
8.THE ROUND-FACED BEAUTY
A STORY OF THE CHINESE COURT
In the city of Chang-an
music filled the palaces, and the festivities of the Emperor were measured by
its beat. Night, and the full moon swimming like a gold-fish in the garden
lakes, gave the signal for the Feather Jacket and Rainbow Skirt dances.
Morning, with the rising sun, summoned the court again to the feast and
wine-cup in the floating gardens.
The Emperor Chung Tsu favored this city before all others. The Yen
Tower soaring heavenward, the Drum Towers, the Pearl Pagoda, were the only fit
surroundings of his magnificence; and in the Pavilion of Tranquil Learning were
held those discussions which enlightened the world and spread the fame of the
Jade Emperor far and wide. In all respects he adorned the Dragon Throne—in all
but one; for Nature, bestowing so much, withheld one gift, and the Imperial
heart, as precious as jade, was also as hard, and he eschewed utterly the
company of the Hidden Palace Flowers.
Yet the Inner Chambers were filled with ladies chosen from all
parts of the Celestial Empire—ladies of the most exquisite and torturing
beauty, moons of loveliness, moving coquettishly on little feet, with all the
grace of willow branches in a light breeze. They were sprinkled with perfumes,
adorned with jewels, robed in silks woven with gold and embroidered with
designs of flowers and birds. Their faces were painted and their eyebrows formed
into slender and perfect arches whence the soul of man might well slip to
perdition, and a breath of sweet odor followed each wherever she moved. Every
one might have been the Empress of some lesser kingdom; but though rumours
reached the Son of Heaven from time to time of their charms,—especially when
some new blossom was added to the Imperial bouquet,—he had dismissed them from
his august thoughts, and they languished in a neglect so complete that the
Great Cold Palaces of the Moon were not more empty than their hearts. They
remained under the supervision of the Princess of Han, August Aunt of the
Emperor, knowing that their Lord considered the company of sleeve-dogs and
macaws more pleasant than their own. Nor had he as yet chosen an Empress, and it
was evident that without some miracle, such as the intervention of the
Municipal God, no heir to the throne could be hoped for.
Yet the Emperor one day remembered his imprisoned beauties, and it
crossed the Imperial thoughts that even these inferior creatures might afford
such interest as may be found in the gambols of trained fleas or other insects
of no natural attainments.
Accordingly, he commanded that the subject last discussed in his
presence should be transferred to the Inner Chambers, and it was his Order that
the ladies should also discuss it, and their opinions be engraved on ivory,
bound together with red silk and tassels and thus presented at the Dragon feet.
The subject chosen was the following:—
Describe the Qualities of the Ideal Man
Now when this command was laid before the August Aunt, the
guardian of the Inner Chambers, she was much perturbed in mind, for such a
thing was unheard of in all the annals of the Empire. Recovering herself, she
ventured to say that the discussion of such a question might raise very
disquieting thoughts in the minds of the ladies, who could not be supposed to
have any opinions at all on such a subject. Nor was it desirable that they
should have. To every woman her husband and no other is and must be the Ideal
Man. So it was always in the past; so it must ever be. There are certain things
which it is dangerous to question or discuss, and how can ladies who have never
spoken with any other man than a parent or a brother judge such matters?
“How, indeed,” asked this lady of exalted merit, “can the bat form
an idea of the sunlight, or the carp of the motion of wings? If his Celestial
Majesty had commanded a discussion on the Superior Woman and the virtues which
should adorn her, some sentiments not wholly unworthy might have been offered.
But this is a calamity. They come unexpectedly, springing up like mushrooms,
and this one is probably due to the lack of virtue of the inelegant and
unintellectual person who is now speaking.”
This she uttered in the presence of the principal beauties of the
Inner Chambers. They sat or reclined about her in attitudes of perfect
loveliness. Two, embroidering silver pheasants, paused with their needles
suspended above the stretched silk, to hear the August Aunt. One, threading
beads of jewel jade, permitted them to slip from the string and so distended
the rose of her mouth in surprise that the small pearl-shells were visible
within. The Lady Tortoise, caressing a scarlet and azure macaw, in her
agitation so twitched the feathers that the bird, shrieking, bit her finger.
The Lady Golden Bells blushed deeply at the thought of what was required of
them; and the little Lady Summer Dress, youngest of all the assembled beauties,
was so alarmed at the prospect that she began to sob aloud, until she met the
eye of the August Aunt and abruptly ceased.
“It is not, however, to be supposed,” said the August Aunt,
opening her snuff-bottle of painted crystal, “that the minds of our deplorable
and unattractive sex are wholly incapable of forming opinions. But speech is a
grave matter for women, naturally slow-witted and feeble-minded as they are.
This unenlightened person recalls the Odes as saying:—
‘A flaw
in a piece of white jade
May be
ground away,
But
when a woman has spoken foolishly
Nothing
can be done-’
a consideration which should make every lady here and throughout
the world think anxiously before speech.” So anxiously did the assembled
beauties think, that all remained mute as fish in a pool, and the August Aunt
continued:—
“Let Tsu-ssu be summoned. It is my intention to suggest to the
Dragon Emperor that the virtues of women be the subject of our discourse, and I
will myself open and conclude the discussion.”
Tsu-ssu was not long in kotowing before the August Aunt, who
despatched her message with the proper ceremonial due to its Imperial
destination; and meanwhile, in much agitation, the beauties could but twitter
and whisper in each other’s ears, and await the response like condemned
prisoners who yet hope for reprieve.
Scarce an hour had dripped away on the water-clock when an
Imperial Missive bound with yellow silk arrived, and the August Aunt, rising,
kotowed nine times before she received it in her jewelled hand with its
delicate and lengthy nails ensheathed in pure gold and set with gems of the
first water. She then read it aloud, the ladies prostrating themselves.
To the Princess of Han, the August Aunt, the Lady of the Nine
Superior Virtues:—
“Having deeply reflected on the wisdom submitted, We thus reply.
Women should not be the judges of their own virtues, since these exist only in
relation to men. Let Our Command therefore be executed, and tablets presented
before us seven days hence, with the name of each lady appended to her tablet.”
It was indeed pitiable to see the anxiety of the ladies! A
sacrifice to Kwan-Yin, the Goddess of Mercy, of a jewel from each, with
intercession for aid, was proposed by the Lustrous Lady; but the majority shook
their heads sadly. The August Aunt, tossing her head, declared that, as the Son
of Heaven had made no comment on her proposal of opening and closing the
discussion, she should take no part other than safeguarding the interests of
propriety. This much increased the alarm, and, kneeling at her feet, the
swan-like beauties, Deep-Snow and Winter Moon implored her aid and compassion.
But, rising indignantly, the August Aunt sought her own apartments, and for the
first time the inmates of the Pepper Chamber saw with regret the golden dragons
embroidered on her back.
It was then that the Round-Faced Beauty ventured a remark. This
maiden, having been born in the far-off province of Suchuan, was considered a
rustic by the distinguished elegance of the Palace and, therefore, had never
spoken unless decorum required. Still, even her detractors were compelled to
admit the charms that had gained her her name. Her face had the flawless
outline of the pearl, and like the blossom of the plum was the purity of her
complexion, upon which the darkness of her eyebrows resembled two silk-moths
alighted to flutter above the brilliance of her eyes—eyes which even the August
Aunt had commended after a banquet of unsurpassed variety. Her hair had been
compared to the crow’s plumage; her waist was like a roll of silk, and her
discretion in habiting herself was such that even the Lustrous Lady and the
Lady Tortoise drew instruction from the splendours of her robes. It created,
however, a general astonishment when she spoke.
“Paragons of beauty, what is this dull and opaque-witted person
that she should speak?”
“What, indeed!” said the Celestial Sister. “This entirely
undistinguished person cannot even imagine.”
A distressing pause followed, during which many whispered
anxiously. The Lustrous Lady broke it.
“It is true that the highly ornamental Round-Faced Beauty is but lately
come, yet even the intelligent Ant may assist the Dragon; and in the presence
of alarm, what is decorum? With a tiger behind one, who can recall the Book of
Rites and act with befitting elegance?”
“The high-born will at all times remember the Rites!” retorted the
Celestial Sister. “Have we not heard the August Aunt observe: ‘Those who
understand do not speak. Those who speak do not understand’?”
The Round-Faced Beauty collected her courage.
“Doubtless this is wisdom; yet if the wise do not speak, who should
instruct us? The August Aunt herself would be silent.”
All were confounded by this dilemma, and the little Lady
Summer-Dress, still weeping, entreated that the Round-Faced Beauty might be
heard. The Heavenly Blossoms then prepared to listen and assumed attitudes of
attention, which so disconcerted the Round-Faced Beauty that she blushed like a
spring tulip in speaking.
“Beautiful ladies, our Lord, who is unknown to us all, has issued
an august command. It cannot be disputed, for the whisper of disobedience is
heard as thunder in the Imperial Presence. Should we not aid each other? If any
lady has formed a dream in her soul of the Ideal Man, might not such a picture
aid us all? Let us not be ‘say-nothing-do-nothing,’ but act!”
They hung their heads and smiled, but none would allow that she
had formed such an image. The little Lady Tortoise, laughing behind her fan of
sandalwood, said roguishly: “The Ideal Man should be handsome, liberal in
giving, and assuredly he should appreciate the beauty of his wives. But this we
cannot say to the Divine Emperor.”
A sigh rustled through the Pepper Chamber. The Celestial Sister
looked angrily at the speaker.
“This is the talk of children,” she said. “Does no one remember
Kung-fu-tse’s [Confucius] description of the Superior Man?”
Unfortunately none did—not even the Celestial Sister herself.
“Is it not probable,” said the Round-Faced Beauty, “that the
Divine Emperor remembers it himself and wishes—”
But the Celestial Sister, yawning audibly, summoned the attendants
to bring rose-leaves in honey, and would hear no more.
The Round-Faced Beauty therefore wandered forth among the mossy
rocks and drooping willows of the Imperial Garden, deeply considering the
matter. She ascended the bow-curved bridge of marble which crossed the Pool of
Clear Weather, and from the top idly observed the reflection of her
rose-and-gold coat in the water while, with her taper fingers, she crumbled
cake for the fortunate gold-fish that dwelt in it. And, so doing, she remarked
one fish, four-tailed among the six-tailed, and in no way distinguished by
elegance, which secured by far the largest share of the crumbs dropped into the
pool. Bending lower, she observed this singular fish and its methods.
The others crowded about the spot where the crumbs fell, all
herded together. In their eagerness and stupidity they remained like a cloud of
gold in one spot, slowly waving their tails. But this fish, concealing itself
behind a miniature rock, waited, looking upward, until the crumbs were falling,
and then, rushing forth with the speed of an arrow, scattered the stupid mass
of fish, and bore off the crumbs to its shelter, where it instantly devoured
them.
“This is notable,” said the Round-Faced Beauty. “Observation
enlightens the mind. To be apart—to be distinguished—secures notice!” And she
plunged into thought again, wandering, herself a flower, among the gorgeous
tree peonies.
On the following day the August Aunt commanded that a writer among
the palace attendants should, with brush and ink, be summoned to transcribe the
wisdom of the ladies. She requested that each would give three days to thought,
relating the following anecdote. “There was a man who, taking a piece of ivory,
carved it into a mulberry leaf, spending three years on the task. When finished
it could not be told from the original, and was a gift suitable for the Brother
of the Sun and Moon. Do likewise!”
“But yet, O Augustness!” said the Celestial Sister, “if the Lord
of Heaven took as long with each leaf, there would be few leaves on the trees,
and if-”
The August Aunt immediately commanded silence and retired. On the
third day she seated herself in her chair of carved ebony, while the attendant
placed himself by her feet and prepared to record her words.
“This insignificant person has decided,” began her Augustness,
looking round and unscrewing the amber top of her snuff-bottle, “to take an
unintelligent part in these proceedings. An example should be set. Attendant,
write!”
She then dictated as follows: “The Ideal Man is he who now
decorates the Imperial Throne, or he who in all humility ventures to resemble
the incomparable Emperor. Though he may not hope to attain, his endeavor is his
merit. No further description it needed.”
With complacence she inhaled the perfumed snuff, as the writer appended
the elegant characters of her Imperial name.
If it is permissible to say that the faces of the beauties
lengthened visibly, it should now be said. For it had been the intention of
every lady to make an illusion to the Celestial Emperor and depict him as the
Ideal Man. Nor had they expected that the August Aunt would take any part in
the matter.
“Oh, but it was the intention of this commonplace and undignified
person to say this very thing!” cried the Lustrous Lady, with tears in the
jewels of her eyes. “I thought no other high-minded and distinguished lady
would for a moment think of it.”
“And it was my intention also!” fluttered the little Lady
Tortoise, wringing her hands! “What now shall this most unlucky and unendurable
person do? For three nights has sleep forsaken my unattractive eyelids, and,
tossing and turning on a couch deprived of all comfort, I could only repeat,
‘The Ideal Man is the Divine Dragon Emperor!’”
“May one of entirely contemptible attainments make a suggestion in
this assemblage of scintillating wit and beauty?” inquired the Celestial
Sister. “My superficial opinion is that it would be well to prepare a single
paper to which all names should be appended, stating that His Majesty in his
Dragon Divinity comprises all ideals in his sacred Person.”
“Let those words be recorded,” said the August Aunt. “What else
should any lady of discretion and propriety say? In this Palace of Virtuous
Peace, where all is consecrated to the Son of Heaven, though he deigns not to
enter it, what other thought dare be breathed? Has any lady ventured to step
outside such a limit? If so, let her declare herself!”
All shook their heads, and the August Aunt proceeded: “Let the
writer record this as the opinion of every lady of the Imperial Household, and
let each name be separately appended.”
Had any desired to object, none dared to confront the August Aunt;
but apparently no beauty so desired, for after three nights’ sleepless
meditation, no other thought than this had occurred to any.
Accordingly, the writer moved from lady to lady and, under the
supervision of the August Aunt, transcribed the following: “The Ideal Man is
the earthly likeness of the Divine Emperor. How should it be otherwise?” And
under this sentence wrote the name of each lovely one in succession. The papers
were then placed in the hanging sleeves of the August Aunt for safety.
By the decree of Fate, the father of the Round-Faced Beauty had,
before he became an ancestral spirit, been a scholar of distinction, having
graduated at the age of seventy-two with a composition commended by the Grand
Examiner. Having no gold and silver to give his daughter, he had formed her
mind, and had presented her with the sole jewel of his family-a pearl as large
as a bean. Such was her sole dower, but the accomplished Aunt may excel the
indolent Prince.
Yet, before the thought in her mind, she hesitated and trembled,
recalling the lesson of the gold-fish; and it was with anxiety that paled her
roseate lips that, on a certain day, she had sought the Willow Bridge Pavilion.
There had awaited her a palace attendant skilled with the brush, and there in
secrecy and dire affright, hearing the footsteps of the August Aunt in every
rustle of leafage, and her voice in the call of every crow, did the Round-Faced
Beauty dictate the following composition:—
“Though the sky rain pearls, it cannot equal the beneficence of
the Son of Heaven. Though the sky rain jade it cannot equal his magnificence.
He has commanded his slave to describe the qualities of the Ideal Man. How
should I, a mere woman, do this? I, who have not seen the Divine Emperor, how
should I know what is virtue? I, who have not seen the glory of his
countenance, how should I know what is beauty? Report speaks of his
excellencies, but I who live in the dark know not. But to the Ideal Woman, the
very vices of her husband are virtues. Should he exalt another, this is a mark
of his superior taste. Should he dismiss his slave, this is justice. To the
Ideal Woman there is but one Ideal Man—and that is her lord. From the day she
crosses his threshold, to the day when they clothe her in the garments of
Immortality, this is her sole opinion. Yet would that she might receive
instruction of what only are beauty and virtue in his adorable presence.”
This being written, she presented her one pearl to the attendant
and fled, not looking behind her, as quickly as her delicate feet would permit.
On the seventh day the compositions, engraved on ivory and bound
with red silk and tassels, were presented to the Emperor, and for seven days
more he forgot their existence. On the eighth the High Chamberlain ventured to
recall them to the Imperial memory, and the Emperor glancing slightly at one
after another, threw them aside, yawning as he did so. Finally, one arrested
his eyes, and reading it more than once he laid it before him and meditated. An
hour passed in this way while the forgotten Lord Chamberlain continued to
kneel. The Son of Heaven, then raising his head, pronounced these words: “In
the society of the Ideal Woman, she to whom jealousy is unknown, tranquillity
might possibly be obtained. Let prayer be made before the Ancestors with the
customary offerings, for this is a matter deserving attention.”
A few days passed, and an Imperial attendant, escorted by two
mandarins of the peacock-feather and crystal-button rank, desired an audience
of the August Aunt, and, speaking before the curtain, informed her that his
Imperial Majesty would pay a visit that evening to the Hall of Tranquil
Longevity. Such was her agitation at this honour that she immediately swooned;
but, reviving, summoned all the attendants and gave orders for a banquet and
musicians.
Lanterns painted with pheasants and exquisite landscapes were hung
on all the pavilions. Tapestries of rose, decorated with the Five-Clawed
Dragons, adorned the chambers; and upon the High Seat was placed a robe of
yellow satin embroidered with pearls. All was hurry and excitement. The
Blossoms of the Palace were so exquisitely decked that one grain more of powder
would have made them too lily-like, and one touch more of rouge, too
rosecheeked. It was indeed perfection, and, like lotuses upon a lake, or Asian
birds, gorgeous of plumage, they stood ranged in the outer chamber while the
Celestial Emperor took his seat.
The Round-Faced Beauty wore no jewels, having bartered her pearl
for her opportunity; but her long coat of jade-green, embroidered with golden
willows, and her trousers of palest rose left nothing to be desired. In her
hair two golden peonies were fastened with pins of kingfisher work. The Son of
Heaven was seated upon the throne as the ladies approached, marshaled by the
August Aunt. He was attired in the Yellow Robe with the Flying Dragons, and
upon the Imperial Head was the Cap, ornamented with one hundred and forty-four
priceless gems. From it hung the twelve pendants of strings of pearls, partly
concealing the august eyes of the Jade Emperor. No greater splendour can strike
awe into the soul of man.
At his command the August Aunt took her seat upon a lesser chair
at the Celestial Feet. Her mien was majestic, and struck awe into the assembled
beauties, whose names she spoke aloud as each approached and prostrated
herself. She then pronounced these words:
“Beautiful ones, the Emperor, having considered the opinions
submitted by you on the subject of the Superior Man, is pleased to express his
august commendation. Dismiss, therefore, anxiety from your minds, and prepare
to assist at the humble concert of music we have prepared for his Divine
pleasure.”
Slightly raising himself in his chair, the Son of Heaven looked
down upon that Garden of Beauty, holding in his hand an ivory tablet bound with
red silk.
“Lovely ladies,” he began, in a voice that assuaged fear, “who
among you was it that laid before our feet a composition beginning thus—‘Though
the sky rain pearls’?”
The August Aunt immediately rose.
“Imperial Majesty, none! These eyes supervised every composition.
No impropriety was permitted.”
The Son of Heaven resumed: “Let that lady stand forth.”
The words were few, but sufficient. Trembling in every limb, the
Round-Faced Beauty separated herself from her companions and prostrated
herself, amid the breathless amazement of the Blossoms of the Palace. He looked
down upon her as she knelt, pale as a lady carved in ivory, but lovely as the
lotus of Chang-Su. He turned to the August Aunt. “Princess of Han, my Imperial
Aunt, I would speak with this lady alone.”
Decorum itself and the custom of Palaces could not conceal the
indignation of the August Aunt as she rose and retired, driving the ladies
before her as a shepherd drives his sheep.
The Hall of Tranquil Longevity being now empty, the Jade Emperor
extended his hand and beckoned the Round-Faced Beauty to approach. This she
did, hanging her head like a flower surcharged with dew and swaying gracefully
as a wind-bell, and knelt on the lowest step of the Seat of State.
“Loveliest One,” said the Emperor, “I have read your composition.
I would know the truth. Did any aid you as you spoke it? Was it the thought of
your own heart?”
“None aided, Divine,” said she, almost fainting with fear. “It was
indeed the thought of this illiterate slave, consumed with an unwarranted but
uncontrollable passion.”
“And have you in truth desired to see your Lord?”
“As a prisoner in a dungeon desires the light, so was it with this
low person.”
“And having seen?”
“Augustness, the dull eyes of this slave are blinded with beauty.”
She laid her head before his feet.
“Yet you have depicted, not the Ideal Man, but the Ideal Woman.
This was not the Celestial command. How was this?”
“Because, O versatile and auspicious Emperor, the blind cannot
behold the sunlight, and it is only the Ideal Woman who is worthy to comprehend
and worship the Ideal Man. For this alone is she created.”
A smile began to illuminate the Imperial Countenance. “And how, O
Round-Faced Beauty, did you evade the vigilance of the August Aunt?”
She hung her head lower, speaking almost in a whisper. “With her
one pearl did this person buy the secrecy of the writer; and when the August
Aunt slept, did I conceal the paper in her sleeve with the rest, and her own
Imperial hand gave it to the engraver of ivory.”
She veiled her face with two jade-white hands that trembled
excessively. On hearing this statement the Celestial Emperor broke at once into
a very great laughter, and he laughed loud and long as a tiller of wheat. The
Round-Faced Beauty heard it demurely until, catching the Imperial eye, decorum
was forgotten and she too laughed uncontrollably. So they continued, and
finally the Emperor leaned back, drying the tears in his eyes with his august
sleeve, and the lady, resuming her gravity, hid her face in her hands, yet
regarded him through her fingers.
When the August Aunt returned at the end of an hour with the
ladies, surrounded by the attendants with their instruments of music, the
Round-Faced Beauty was seated in the chair that she herself had occupied, and
on the whiteness of her brow was hung the chain of pearls, which had formed the
frontal of the Cap of the Emperor.
It is recorded that, advancing from honour to honour, the
Round-Faced Beauty was eventually chosen Empress and became the mother of the
Imperial Prince. The celestial purity of her mind and the absence of all flaws
of jealousy and anger warranted this distinction. But it is also recorded that,
after her elevation, no other lady was ever exalted in the Imperial favour or
received the slightest notice from the Emperor. For the Empress, now well
acquainted with the Ideal Man, judged it better that his experiences of the
Ideal Woman should be drawn from herself alone. And as she decreed, so it was
done. Doubtless Her Majesty did well.
It is known that the Emperor departed to the Ancestral Spirits at
an early age, seeking, as the August Aunt observed, that repose which on earth
could never more be his. But no one has asserted that this lady’s disposition
was free from the ordinary blemishes of humanity.
As for the Celestial Empress (who survives in history as one of
the most astute rulers who ever adorned the Dragon Throne), she continued to
rule her son and the Empire, surrounded by the respectful admiration of all.
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