Not Pretty, but Precious,
and Other Short Stories
By
John Hay,
Clara F. Guernsey,
Margaret Hosmer,
Harriet Prescott Spofford,
Lucy Hamilton Hooper,
Etc
1872
Contents
1.Not Pretty,
but Precious, Margret Field
2.The
Victims of Dreams, Margaret Hosmer
3,The Cold
Hand, Clara F. Guernsey
4.The Blood
Seedling, John Hay
5.The
Marquis, Chauncey Hickox
6.Under
False Colors, Lucy Hamilton Hooper
7.The
Hungry Heart, J.W. De Forrest
8."How
Mother Did It," J.R. Hadermann
9.The Red
Fox, Clara F. Guernsey
10.Louie, Harriet
Prescott Spofford
11.Old
Sadler'S Resurrection, R.D. Minor
1.Not Pretty, But Precious
Mille modi veneris!
Part I
Mr. Norval: It is now four weeks since your accident. I have made
inquiry of your physician whether news or business communications, however
important, brought to your attention, would be detrimental to you, cause an
accession of feverish symptoms or otherwise harm you. He assures me, On the
contrary, he is sure you have not been for years so free from disease of any
sort, with the sole exception of the broken bones, as now. This being so, I
venture to approach you upon a subject which I doubt not you are quite as
willing to have definitely arranged, and at once, as myself. I can say what I
mean, and as I mean it, so much better on paper than in conversation--as I have
so little self-possession, and am so readily put out in the matter of
argument--that I have determined to write to you, thinking thus to be better
able to make you understand and appreciate my reasons and motives, since you
can read them when and how you choose.
I have been your wife three weeks. The horrible strangeness of
these words is quite beyond me to compass; nevertheless, realize it or not, it
is a fact. I am your wife--you, my husband. Why I am your wife I wish simply to
rehearse here. Not that we do not both know why, but that we may know it in the
same way. You, a handsome, cultivated man, whose dictum is considered law in
the world of fashion in which you move and reign, with an assured social
position, a handsome fortune, and a popularity that would have obtained for you
the hand of any beautiful or wealthy woman whom you sought, have deliberately
chosen to make me, a poor, plain, brown-faced little school-teacher, your wife.
Not because you wanted me, not because you thought or cared
about me, one way or the other, but simply because, in a time of
urgent necessity, I was literally the only available woman near you. It
chanced, from many points of view and by a chain of circumstances, that I was
particularly available. So you married me. The reasons for such a sacrifice of
yourself were--you had behaved badly, very badly, to a lady, compromising her
name and causing a separation between herself and her husband. Within a few
months, her husband having died, both herself and her father had determined to
force you to make her reparation by marriage. Going to work very warily, they
had taken an opportunity, after a very luxuriant and fast opera-supper, when
you were excited by your surroundings and flushed by the wine you had been
drinking, your head very light, your judgment very heavy, to draw from you a
promise of marriage at the expiration of the year of mourning for her husband.
As soon as you became aware of what you had done, you ignominiously fled, and
after a Western tour were about to sail for Europe when this unfortunate
accident overtook you. Your narrow escape from death, upon having been thrown
from the carriage of a distinguished gentleman while driving with him behind a
pair of celebrated racers, gave such publicity to your adventure that
your amorata was at once aware of your whereabouts. The fear
of this had taken possession of you as soon as you were able to think of
anything, and the dread that she would follow and marry you while you lay
helpless was made a certainty by this telegram from an intimate friend in New
York, received the sixth day of your illness:
"It's all up with you, old fellow. The R. has heard you're
fast with a broken leg, and she starts on Monday for Boston. Have the clergy
ready, for it's marriage."
Then in your bitter need you remembered having talked with me in
this hotel-parlor the very day of your accident. I had been a school-friend of
your dead sister, and for her sake, on the rare occasions of your seeing me,
you have always been polite and kindly patronized me. Now, lying helpless and
unable to extricate yourself from your dilemma, you recalled the evident
pleasure upon my foolish, tell-tale face at seeing you, the delight I had
betrayed in the attention you had shown me, such as finding a seat at dinner
for myself and my old lady friend, although some elegant and fashionable girls
were waiting with ill-suppressed eagerness for your escort. Remembering all
this, knowing as you did that I was poor, wearing out my life in teaching, in
your sore need you suddenly thought, "I wonder if the girl wouldn't marry
me? She'd make a good nurse, could look after my traps, and, though she is as
ugly as sin and a nobody, wouldn't be the deuced disgrace to a fellow this
Rollins woman will be. At all events, she'll save me from that fate if she
takes up with my offer. It's a choice of evils, and this would be the least;
and I'll try it." This, in plain, unadorned speech, was what you thought.
Then you sent for me, began very pathetically to talk of your desolate state,
your family all dead, and so on; that it had been sadly brought home to you how
alone you were while lying sick, hour after hour, in this great hotel, with
only your valet to attend to you and take an interest in your well-being; and
that, day after day, as you lay thinking of your fate, my face had come before
you, recalling tender memories of your lost and dearly-loved sister. Then you
had remembered that as girl and boy we had been lovers, and really cared very
much for each other. As you got this far toward your grande dénouement,
something in my face, I suppose, made you realize that if you were to compass
your ends with me it must be by honesty only. Then you blurted it all out--in,
as I could not help thinking as I listened, as school-boyish and abashed a way
as if you had--well, as if you had not been a consummate man of the world,
rather noted for your aplomb.
It came across me (as I heard you in dumb amazement, with crimson
face and trembling frame) that even the best polish of years' laying on will
crack somewhere under very hard pressure. Well, you were honest and told me
all, never pretending, as you had at first essayed to do, that it was out of
any lingering regard for myself as your sister's friend that you sought me now,
but simply on account of my availability. Had there been some bright young
beauty with wealth and station at hand, no thought of me would ever have
entered your mind: all this I understood at once from your half
confessions--all this, I was glad to find, you had at least enough honor to let
me know, although you risked what to you in your actual situation was very
perilous--a refusal.
I asked until the next day to consider the matter--whether it
would be better to take service with you, exchange for my boarding, clothing
and incidental expenses the daily care of your comfort and pleasure, or earn my
bread in the old wearing way. And the second day after that we were married.
That is all. I believe that to be a simple statement of the facts in your case:
I am right, am I not?
The day after our marriage your lady-love and her paternal
ancestor came. At my own suggestion and with your eager consent I received
them, and the result you know.
Now for my own reasons for this strange marriage. You are aware
that my father was a professor of mathematics in various schools and colleges
of the city where he lived, teaching in the school, among others, in which your
sister and myself were pupils. I believe you know that when a young man he had
eloped with and married one of his scholars, the daughter of a rich and proud
family, who discarded her. For years she was a stranger to them, until her
husband had won a name and handsome fortune for himself: then she was taken
into favor again, her husband's distinction in the scientific world being
supposed to add lustre to the family name. Alas for us! it was a favor that has
cost us dear. I was their only child. When my sweet, pretty mother lay dying
she left to me, her sixteen-year-old child, my dreamy, unworldly father as a
legacy. "Take care of him: he knows no guile, and your uncles will wrong
him if they can," she said. And they did, or one of them. Ere the bitter
agony of my mother's death had enabled him to return to his duties, it was
discovered that one of her brothers had forged his name and literally stripped
him of everything.
Of course, then he went to work again to earn our daily bread--not
with his old love or ability, but in an inert, feeble way that was pitiful to
see. I think from the day my mother was buried he was dying. Some people, you
know, die hard--some part with life lightly, as if it was a faded robe they
shook off to don a brighter one. Others--my father was one, and I am like
him--see one by one their trusts, their hopes, their loves die: then with a
deathly throe sunder themselves from life. But pardon my digression.
When I was twenty my father died. Since then, spite of expressions
of disapproval and offers of support from my mother's family, I have maintained
myself by teaching in the schools where my father had been known, preferring to
do without assistance so long as I had health. One of my uncles desired to take
me into his family, and thus wipe out the wrong done my father by his brother,
and my aunts proffered me an income out of their private means. I mention this
to do them every justice, but I think even a man of fashion like yourself will
acknowledge the impossibility of my accepting, while I could avoid it, a life
of dependence. I could not accept favors from those who had treated my dear
parents unkindly; so I have e'en gone my own way for these last ten years, and
led a not unhappy life, if a busy and rather wearing one.
My gay cousins, all of whom you know well--the Wilber girls, Leta
and Jennie, pretty little Lou Barton, and another set of Wilbers whom I think
you do not know so well, who are married now--my gay cousins, then, most of
them beauties, all of them rich and fashionable, are somewhat ashamed of me,
and have let me feel it in every petty way that we women know so well how to
find. I am ugly and poor, my earning my own living is a spot upon their
gentility, and I have unfortunately, and quite against my will, more than once
given them cause for serious annoyance and apprehension. Then, one of our
uncles, who is a bachelor and very rich, has insisted that I am never to be
slighted--always to be invited to everything in the shape of a party given by the
family. If it lay with me, of course I would never accept these invitations,
but I have had it explained to me over and over again that my not doing so is
visited upon the party-givers in one way or another by our masterful uncle
Rufus. So, occasionally, very much against my inclination, I leave my little
third-story room, with its cozy fire and humble adornments, and sit in the
corner of their great rooms, a "looker-on in Vienna" in every sense.
I have many kind friends: it would be strange if in all these
years I had not found some who did not care for outward advantages. I have
dreamed my sweet love-dream, and it is over, and the roses have grown above my
buried hopes.
Since then I have let one idea fill my life to the exclusion of
everything else, putting away from me all desires and thoughts of other needs;
and that too has left me. I call it an "idea" for lack of a better
name. I had put away all thought of marriage with my bright youth, but took
into my heart instead what I deemed would serve as well--a friendship for
another woman. For ten years we knew no separate life--I thought no separate
hopes. She had loved, been on the eve of marriage, her lover had died: that was
her heart's history, and henceforth the idea of love had fallen out of both our
lives--not the idea only, but the possibility of love. I thought so--she said so.
I trusted her and loved her with a perfect love. I wound my hopes
about her: I gave up all my life to her as if she had been my lover. I never
cared to form other friendships. I deprived myself of all possibilities of
making other ties of any sort, and with the first opportunity she whistled me
down the wind, and cared no more for me than if she had never professed to love
me. She had been my one bright thing--she was sweet and winsome--the one golden
gleam in my sombre life. My future was bound up in her so completely that when
she severed the fine, close cords (brittle, yet so strong) which had bound us
together for years, she cut into my heart--nay more, wrested from me all my
sweet trusts and faiths. If she is false, who else in all God's earth is true?
I pity myself very much. You, of course, will not see why her marrying should
make a difference if we loved, and will call me selfish. Not so, not so! She
might have married as soon as it pleased her, and I should have been glad. It
would have made a difference, of course: she must in some sort have been parted
from me, but that I could have borne if it made her happy. But from her
acceptance of her lover--about whom we will say nothing, save that he was the
sort of man she had always held in abhorrence--she has coolly ignored my right
to any part or lot in her fate. She had told me (or I, poor fool! thought so)
every hope and fear of her life: now she told me what she chose, and was
astonished that I expected more--hurt that I seemed changed and did not find my
friendship flourish on crumbs after being nourished for years from full
loaves--was quite unhappy that I cared so little for the minor concerns of her
life, when, good lack! I did not know what I might or might not ask and not be
snubbed; for once she told me there were things due to the man one is going to
marry (at that time she had not got to the extent of saying whom one loves)
that could not be spoken of to me. Of course she had only to mention the fact
to me to make it perfectly plain, and henceforth he and his doings, his
belongings and himself, all of them of the tamest sort at best, were a sealed
book to me. And again she quenched a feeble effort of mine to get back to my
old place, by telling me such topics she could discuss only with her sister,
"her shadow sister" she prettily called her. So I am desolate!
Knowing this, you may understand in some degree what could induce
a little waif like me to accept such an offer as yours. I think no one in all
God's earth is more desolate than I. In my heart I bear always that unforgotten
love in my life. I have only a barren waste to show. It is as if I had started
from a lovely, radiant garden in the fair morning of my life, in which I had
left the bright, sweet rose of my love, and walking along a narrow, dark path,
had clasped hands with, and drawn my light and warmth from, a figure walking
close beside me; and though from all sides as I walked forms had come to me, offering
me fair fruits and sweet flowers, I declined them all without ever a word of
thanks, being so content with my one companion. And suddenly, when all my
youth, all my prospects of other things, had gone, this idealized one had
withdrawn its hand-clasp, and turning on me a face I did not know, faded into
darkness, leaving me nothing but my broken hopes, a wreath of withered flowers,
"Tangled down in chains about my feet."
You do not of course realize how the old French émigré blood
in my veins, inherited from my father, makes this a very vital matter to me. We
cling to our hopes very tenaciously while they abide--then we are distraught.
We loved, my father and I, very few, but those with a clinging oneness that is
wellnigh pain: he loved my mother and myself--that was all. Likewise I had my
two: they having failed me, my life is a blank. I have heard of empty-hearted
people: I know now what the phrase means. I am empty-hearted: I have not one
hope, one particle of faith, one real, honest desire, except to "drie my
weir," as the Scotch say, doing my duty as best I may, as it comes to me.
But I have a woman's hatred of pity: my cousins have long accorded me a
contemptuous pity for being an old maid. I laughed their pity to scorn while I
had Esther Hooper. What more did I need? We could enact over again the sweet
old life of the Ladies of Llangollen.
We had planned our lives a thousand times. Poor we both were, yet
we would put something away every year for our old age, and work cheerily on
until we could work no more, then creep to our nest like a couple of old
kittens, and cuddle down by our warm, pleasant fire--together, and therefore
content. Well, you see it was not to be: she had grown affrighted, I suppose,
at the thought of all that weary life with only me, and has married a man who
outrages all her delicate instincts and traditions of an accordant husband. But
why speak of him? He supports her, and she has escaped the obloquy of
old-maidism. She has married a maintenance. She says she loves him, so of course
she does.
For myself, my health, which has always been very rugged, has
failed me utterly this last year; but as my bread depends upon my ability to
endure daily and constant fatigue, I have forced myself to endeavor to get up
the amount of strength required for my winter's work by the present expedition,
planned for me by a friend. Bah! what do I talk of friendship for? An old lady
who was once a teacher in the school from which my father had married my
mother, and who, I think, had cared with more than friendship for him, has in
these last few years fallen heir to a small property--not a very great deal,
but enough to enable her to live in comfort, and exercise her kindly heart in
deeds of charity occasionally. She has chosen for years to occupy rooms beneath
my own, and has always been a sort of mother to me. Most of the pretty things
that have fallen into my life, and most of its pleasures, have come to me
through her. She has many troublesome faults, as we all have, but she is old,
and I have always had Esther to talk them over and laugh them off with, so have
borne them easily. This year, because she saw I was dying, she took me with her
to the mountains of Vermont, and I have got a new lease of life, and new
capacities for suffering as well.
On our way back she was suddenly attacked with the illness which
detained us at this Boston hotel. Here your accident laid you up, and the rest
came as I have told.
You have married me to rid yourself of a union with a woman you
detest, being utterly indifferent to me. I have married you because I cannot
bring myself to go back to that old teaching-life, now so cold and gray. I
think I can earn my board in taking care of your belongings, and the having
saved you from a dreadful fate must compensate to you for the little of my
presence you will for the future be compelled to endure. It need not be much or
long continued if we start with a fair comprehension of each other.
This brings me to the reason of all this long history. I have
always looked upon marriage without love as nothing more or less than legalized
vice. I think you, who are so intrinsically a man of the world, will have
imbibed the (so-called) sensible and popular views upon such subjects, and will
at once coincide with me that in such a union as ours--a literal mariage
de convenance on both sides--my ideas are not unwise. Since upon you
will henceforth depend my maintenance (as I of course understand that a wife
who worked for her own support would be a disgrace to you: indeed, I doubt
whether the having married a girl who has already done so is not a cause of
shame), I ask that now, when Mrs. Keller is about to leave me, and my
arrangements as your wife must be finally made--when, in fact, her giving up
her room necessitates my coming to yours, her leaving compelling me either to
go with her, or come, as of course I must, to you--we may have a definite
understanding as to our future relations.
You have been kind enough to approve of the little I have been
able to do for you since our marriage--to say to Mrs. Keller you did not know
what it was to be taken care of in sickness; and to myself you have more than
once laughingly spoken of a wife as a good institution, adding, that had you
known how comfortable it was to have some one about you to think of and care
for you, you would have invested in the article before; and so on. I am glad of
this: I am pleased that my society has not proved repugnant to you; for since
it has been no annoyance in its first trial, I think we can manage that it
shall not be so in the future. I would ask, as an especial piece of mercy to
"your handmaiden," that you will grant her some favors at the outset
of our somewhat tangled fate. Please let me be your sister. It is for your
well-being the world should know me as your wife, and, the Lord helping me, I
will be a willing, faithful helpmeet to you, caring most for your comfort and
happiness, spending and being spent in your service; never demanding or
desiring your attention, except so much as is due me in outward seeming; interfering
with none of your pleasures or pursuits, or thrusting my needs or feelings
never before you. I have no expectation of winning your love: it has been an
understood thing from the first--that is something neither expects from the
other--therefore any show of caressing fondness upon your part would be quite
out of keeping with our position. I have watched with some amusement, and a
little pain that you should imagine it requisite, your attempts at petting me
during these last two weeks. Poor, helpless man! it was a little hard to have
to pretend an interest and tenderness you did not feel. Will you let this
cease, with every other demonstration of affection, in our private relations?
For the rest, claiming nothing from you, giving you nothing but
the services for which you render me a full equivalent, I grant you, as far as
I have a right to do so, the largest liberty of action. We are only jealous of
those we love: therefore all women will be as free to you as they have hitherto
been or their will accords, save that you have debarred yourself for a time
from offering any one of them marriage. I hope to be so little trouble to you,
and so serviceable to you in many ways, that you shall realize to the full that
if an unloving union could be so much more comfortable than a bachelor's life,
a life passed with a loving and beloved wife would be bliss indeed, and so when
my life has ended you will not be sorry that I stopped in your path a few
years. For I shall not trouble you very long. I am a poor little perfumeless
flower, having no sweetness or beauty with which to charm the eye or senses,
only fit to grow among the kitchen herbs--rue and thyme, and such old-fashioned
things. But I need a great deal of sunshine, spite of my plainness, to keep
life in me. And now that all the heat and passion of love, all the sunny hopes
and glow of friendship, have left me, I shall just fade and fade until some day
you will find the poor little weed has dropped to earth for ever.
I am but two years younger than yourself, and women, especially
women with a great sorrow, age cruelly fast. I look and feel older than I
am--you wear your years like a crown, and appear younger than you are. I have
made my little venture on life's ocean--made and failed: my barque, freighted
with a few cherished hopes, has been wrecked, and though I have reached a rock
to which I can cling for a time, yet I am terribly hurt, the waves have
buffeted me cruelly, and in a little while I shall let go my hold and float
out--out into the ocean of eternity. Ah! there is comfort after all: life is hard,
but afterward there is peace and rest!
I am nearly through this long tirade. Pardon its length: it is my
first, and shall be my last, heart-outpouring to you; and if it make you
comprehend me, I shall not have written or you have read in vain.
Your income will not support the establishment your position in
society would require if we went to housekeeping; besides, you would feel as if
you must then be more stationary, more in your own home, than is at present
your custom, therefore in a degree in bondage. And a hotel-life is very
expensive and very cheerless. You have kindly said you intended dividing your
income with me, giving me half. At first I was indignant at the idea, but now I
think I see that it will be in every way the best. One of my cousins has been
occupying a very elegantly-appointed suite of rooms on Twenty-fourth street.
Harry writes me he is going very suddenly to Europe. His rooms will of course
be vacant: he talks of renting them furnished. I have thought, if you would not
object to it, we might take them off his hands. I have calculated that the part
of your means you intend for me will meet all our expenses of every sort if you
permit me to have the arranging, of our daily affairs. I will pay the rent and
meet all the expenses of our living out of this sum, leaving you your reserved
funds to meet your ordinary requirements and pleasures. By this arrangement,
you see, I shall get my living free, and I am sure shall have a surplus over
and above our expenses, as I am a good manager and used to making the most of
everything.
There is one sacrifice which, do we enter into this arrangement, I
must ask of you--that when we return to New York you give up your valet. For
more than one reason: I cannot have a spy upon the mode of life we are to lead.
I am foolishly sensitive of the position of a neglected wife, and I feel
assured your gentlemanly instincts will prevent your ever offering any
observable slight to the woman who bears your name. Besides, in the apartments
I propose our taking there will be no room for a man-servant, and one of the
maids connected with the house will be all the assistant I shall require. When
you are away on your frequent excursions to all parts of the world it will be
very easy to provide yourself a servant. Will you try for a few weeks how well
I can supply, or have the place supplied, of this man, whom you intend in any
case to dismiss? This is all. Next week, the doctor thinks, you may be moved to
a lounge, and perhaps the week after be able to travel, or at farthest the week
following.
I acknowledge to the womanish feeling of being exultant at the
idea of the envy I shall awaken in the breasts of your adoring circle of lady
friends--my lady cousins among them--in having, spite of my unattractiveness,
secured the husband they have long striven by every wile to win. Ah! they
little know, and I trust never may, why I, without seeking, have ensnared
their rara avis to be my legal bondsman. Rather a
contradiction in terms!
The pretty fiction of our sudden marriage being a renewal of an
old love-affair is more of an untruth than I am used to letting pass, and yet
has enough truth in it to make it reality, since you were the hero of my
girlish dreams. So we will let the explanation thus worded, which you have
written to my uncles and stated verbally to Mrs. Keller, stand; also, that the
undue haste was caused by your pressing need of me during your accident. I
think, indeed, from my cousin Harry's letter yesterday, and one from Shelton last
week, they have taken the idea that we have been spending the summer together,
and that you were following me home when you were stayed in your mad career by
a broken leg.
I am done; are you not thankful? There have been some things in
this letter very hard to say, which, if I were braver or knew you better, I
should have liked to be more outspoken about. But enough has, I think, been
said to make you appreciate my earnest desires and my reasons for them. I am
most truly,
PERCY.
And he, prone upon his back this warm September day, read this
long epistle from his new wife, then laid it down and closing his eyes murmured
softly, "What a strange little puss it is!" Lying in the dim light
her hand had created for him, he thought of his own troubles and hers, just as
she had stated them. The blood would flush up to his brow as her cool ignoring
of his surpassing attractions, to which all other women accorded their full
meed of praise, rose up before him. He of whom it had been said if he beckoned
with his finger women left their duties, gave up their very life to do his
pleasure!--he to have the girl he had honored by making his wife, a little
brown woman, plain and almost passé (he was man enough not to
care for her poverty), show she cared no more for his love than he did for hers
I--was as indifferent to him as he to her! Indifference from a woman was a new
experience to him, and annoyed him.
Yet her quaint, frank letter touched him. What did she mean by
dying soon and letting him be free again? Poor little midge! was she dying of a
broken heart because a treacherous woman had fooled her out of a part of her
life? Poor little robin! she was his wife now, and he could heal the worst
heartache in any woman's breast. He had tried that thing before, and succeeded,
even if he broke the heart afterward. Die, indeed! Not if he knew it: even
Death should not have a little woman he meant to be good to.
And as he remembered all her faithfulness to him during these
weary weeks of pain, he thought, "By Jove! beauty's not all, for no woman,
had her face been like that of Phryne of Thebes, or her charms as entrancing as
the bewitching Dudu's, could have been more lovely in her kindness to me. How
brave and strong she has been! What a faithful little soul it is! Always ready,
day and night, to do just what I want done and in the way I want it, never
knocking things about or fidgeting round, but just ready-handed, neat and
bright. God knows, a handsome woman wouldn't have risked the spoiling her
beauty by all these weary, sleepless nights, especially for a man she did not
love." And then to think she was actually willing to work and slave for
him, and support him out of her share of the booty, and let him fool away his
own on other women! "Wonder what the little dame means to buy her own fine
things with, for even robins must get clothing? I'll ask her that. Bless the
little woman's soul! she makes me think of her so much that I believe I'm half
in love with her. Um!" and he stopped: "I'm getting sentimental and
poetic, I swear! But if it were in me to love anything that was not beautiful,
I believe I could love this little girl, who has come into my life so
strangely. She owns up to having loved, and is done with all the stale farce.
Some fools," and he felt very indignant, "slighted her because she
had no beauty, though, upon my soul, now I think of it, I'm not so certain
about that. There's a something in her face takes a man's breath--something
that one would rather die than lose if he once loved it, and which once loved
would be better than any beauty. What's that Spenser says?--
'A sweet, attractive kind of grace,...
The lineaments of gospel books,'
That's just it: it's a look that makes one think about one's
prayers, if one only knew them. But whether the man slighted her or not, he
missed it--confound him!--in losing such a love. I'll make her tell me his
name. And as for being my sister, that's all nonsense, of course, as she's my
wife." Then more thoughtfully, "Well, maybe not: a household where
there is no love is cruel--I knew that in my early home--and children are a
beastly trouble, and as expensive as a man's wines. She's a brick, this wife of
mine, and as sensible as steel. I'll put myself in her hands for better or for
worse, I vow I will!
"The jolly way she manged that Rollins affair was proof poz
of her ability. Her cool assumption of wifely dignity--her actually bringing
them up to see me without announcing their coming to me, and never letting them
have one bout at me, was beyond anything! It's like a dip in the sea to recall
it all. Her breezy voice coming in before them was all the warning I had: 'Oh
certainly, you can come up and look at him, but not talk to him: he's nervous
and feverish, and I cannot permit even such old friends as you doubtless are to
say anything to him. You know, of course, the doctor thought he needed constant
attention, and caused us to hurry our marriage in a most Gretna-Green style;
but I could not nurse him unless we were married. And it did not matter so
much, after all, since we had loved'--and she hesitated with the prettiest
affectation of having said something she ought not--'we had cared for each
other since we were quite children. Ross's sister Bell was my school-friend.'
Then she brought them straight to the bed, and stooping down gave me the only
kiss with which she has honored me--her show kiss, I call it--saying, 'My
darling' (how soft she said it, too, with a little trilling cadence upon the
sweet old word!)--'My darling, you are not to speak, or even look, save this
once: now I must cover up my dearie's eyes;' and she laid her cool hand over my
eyes and held it there while they stayed. 'These are some kind New York
friends, Mr. Rollins and his good wife'--and a faint pressure on my face
emphasized the joke--'who are come to see you. I cannot understand all they
mean, except that you have been behaving badly, making these good people's
daughter believe you meant to marry her, when of course you were only going to
marry your little, ugly Percy. Oh, my bad boy, what shall I ever do with you?
Oh the hearts you have broken while you have been waiting for me! Ah! dear, bad
boy!'--and, as if overcome with tenderness, she laid her cheek down on mine. I
clasped my arms about her--the first and last time I've had a chance, by
George!--but she sprang away with a laugh: 'No, you shall not be petted for
being bad. Why, Ross, these dear people came to take you and marry you to their
beautiful daughter, for I know she's a beauty, since her mother is still so
handsome.'
"Oh, it was gorgeous, to see the Rollins standing there in
all her Cleopatra-like splendor, utterly upset and put down by my little brown
berry! And the impossibility of correcting such a mistake without putting
herself in an absurd position actually stopped the Rollins speech, and--Lord
help me!--I thought that mouth could only be closed by bon-bons and a man's
kisses--any man's, par exemple. And her poor old catspaw of a pater stood
helpless before my little hurricane--a very reed shaken by the wind. Then my
sea-breeze spoke again: 'But the doctor will shed vials of wrath upon me for
letting you see strangers.' (It must have cut the Rollins sore to be called a
stranger to me!) 'But these kind friends could not realize your being ill, so I
was fain to let them see my Apollo in his box; but we will go now if you
please;' and she positively ushered them out in wordless dismay, bidding them
good-bye at once, and seeing them no more. I thought she would have rushed back
to laugh the scene over with me, but that shows how little I know her. When, in
the course of an hour, she did come, it was with such an utter ignoring of
having done a smart thing, waving aside my admiration of her finesse,
that I was taken aback. She said sadly, 'I am unused to falsehood, and finesse of
any sort is distasteful to me. I quenched this woman this time, but, in spite
of her bad, hard face, I pity her very much. You, and such men as you, have, I
suppose, made her what she is, God help her!' So by this good little girl's
management I am rid of my troubles. I declare I'll do just what she wishes, and
be thankful my follies have worked me no more harm."
Then he began to wish she'd come in, and to feel aggrieved and
neglected because she did not come--to feel an eager desire to see her and talk
the matter of the letter over with her. But he had read it through again twice
ere she appeared, and then, to his dismay, equipped for a journey, and saying,
in the most matter-of-fact, nonchalant manner possible, "Ross, Mrs. Keller
has come to say good-bye. I am going with her to Newport, where she makes the
only perilous part of the trip--the, to her, dreadful change from cars to boat.
So I shall be away all night, of course."
Then Mrs. Keller came forward with--"I hope you don't mind my
taking her off, Mr. Norval?"
"But I do mind it deucedly, madam," he said. "Why,
Percy, I don't like your traveling alone this way at all. Why can't James go
with Mrs. Keller?"
"Not for the world, Ross, thank you. I'm used to taking care
of myself, and of Mrs. Keller too, for that matter. I'm not much of a traveler,
because I have not had much of a chance--none, indeed, except what she's given
me--but somehow I always manage to come out right. You are very kind to offer
to spare James, but he's your necessity. I have told him about the medicines,
and how to loosen the bandages at night. So I expect to find you better than
usual when I get back. He knows your ways so much better than I, and I sha'n't
be here to interfere;" and she went about arranging little matters as she
spoke, and not looking at him.
But Mrs. Keller saw the look of annoyance upon his face, and said,
"But, Percy, Mr. Norval dislikes your going, and you're bound to
stay."
"Oh, nonsense, Mrs. Keller! Of course he don't care
particularly, as I am going to be away but one night, and he's got to spend all
my life with me;" and her face saddened, he thought. "I'm sure to
come back to-morrow: my cousin Shelton says, 'Percy always manages to be at
hand when she's wanted.' Am I to write to Harry that we will take the rooms? I
must do it at once, or he may let some one have them;" and she came and
stood beside him.
He answered, sullenly, "Do just as you like about it: it's no
concern of mine."
"Of course I shall do nothing of the kind. If you had liked
the idea, been very much pleased with it, it would have been different. I only
threw out the suggestion as a mere suggestion. But we will think of it no
more." All this in her quick, bright way, without a shade of annoyance
visible, and she began talking of something else as if the matter was settled:
"The hotel-keeper will put a sofa-bed into your dressing-room for me
to-morrow, so I shall be quite out of the way when your callers are here. I
have told them about bringing my trunk in there from Mrs. Keller's room: James
will attend to it all for me. So, as long as you are a 'prisoner of hope' in
here, I'll reign supreme in the dressing-room. Now say 'Good-bye,' Mrs. Keller:
James will put you in the coach while I finish my adieux."
"But, Percy, you mistake," he said, quite humbly, when
her old friend was gone: "you do talk a fellow down so confoundedly,"
with a laugh. "I like your idea about the rooms most heartily: indeed, I
like all your ideas, all your letter, except where you are so deucedly severe
upon me; but even that is true, and I like it when you tell me of it. I think
your management the best in everything, and I expect to be as happy as a king,
or rather a good subject, with my little queen to rule over me and keep me in
order in our new domain."
She clasped her hands in a quick, passionate sort of way at his
words, as if they gave her a pang. He saw that, but her calm face and voice
made him half doubt if it meant anything. "Are you quite sure, or are you
only saying it because you think I have a wish to go there? I thought you did
not seem to like it just now, and indeed I do not care: I shall be quite
content with whatever you arrange when you are well."
"No, Percy: write and say we will take the rooms from the
time he leaves them. I"--with a half-abashed laugh--"I was only cross
because you are going away. I shall miss you sorely, dear, and I'm sorry you're
going and are so glad to go--that's all."
Her face turned crimson to the very temples, and she said,
"I'm sorry I made my arrangements without consulting you: I will not do so
in future. I did not think you would care one way or the other."
"You've been so good to me, little one, and I'm so unused to
being cared for except as a society ornament, that I think I shall never be
able to get along without you again."
Her eyes filled with tears which she would not let fall, and she
said, "You are very kind to say so: I will be more careful in future. But
I must go now." He waited in quite an eager expectancy to see if she would
kiss him. "Take good care of yourself, and be sure I shall come by the
first train;" and she started to leave the bedside.
He caught her dress and drew her toward him, holding her hands:
"Is that all, Percy? Is there nothing else?"
"I think not, Ross," she said, doubtingly, but coloring
painfully.
"Kiss me good-bye, Percy." She held down her face
instantly, and when he had kissed her, drew herself away without a word; but he
clasped his arm about her: "You have not kissed me after all, my
darling."
"My kisses are nothing worth now, Ross: their sweetness died
out years ago. Yours are good enough for both;" and she laughed and left
him.
He was bitterly chagrined: it seemed a little thing to make him
feel so mortified. That she should leave him willingly, that doing so she
should refuse to grant him so small a favor, when almost all other women--her
own pretty cousins among them--had denied nothing he chose to ask, it was
incomprehensible!
"By Jove! I never cared so much for a little thing in my life
as her leaving me and not caring to kiss me. I swear, I'm a perfect baby about
her! Little, truthful, honest soul! I believe she could make another creature
of me if she cared enough for me to try. There is something restful in truth
and honest purity, after all: one feels safe, and grounded on a sure place.
It's good to have a little fairy lying close in one's bosom; and I vow I'll
have my little brownie there yet, though I have to go as suitor on a regular
courting expedition to my own wife before I win her heart. Curse this old lover
of hers, who bars her heart against me! And curse my own past follies, which
make a good woman fear to trust me! Marriage is a sell generally, even when a
vast amount of so-called love is brought to the sacrificial altar; so perhaps I
shall not make a bad thing of it if I win my wife's heart after she knows
me au fond, instead of in the glamour of gas-light flirtations.
Poor little heart! What a pitiful story it is! How quaintly she writes her
pathetic, desolate history! What a ready pen the little woman holds!" and
he took out her letter again. "I declare, the child has better attractions
than beauty--a lovely, faithful soul."
But though he was tender of her in his thoughts, he was a hard
master that night: everything went wrong, nothing pleased or contented him, and
the sullen, much-tried servant at last announced that with the morning he would
leave his master to his own devices.
"Go, and be damned to you!" was the savage reply; and
the man took him at his word, decamping, after making a few necessary
arrangements, as soon after breakfast as he could.
"And I have been as good to that fellow the year he has lived
with me as I could," thought Ross Norval as hour after hour he lay alone
wanting everything--water, the papers, a handkerchief. There was nothing he did
not want, and he could reach nothing but those nauseous medicines.
"Service cannot be bought: in very truth, love and patience must be a free
gift. However, now even love and patience seem to have fled from me. I want my
wife--I want her awfully."
Percy, with her sad little heart lying as heavy as a plummet in
her breast, was just as bright and useful and entertaining to her cranky old
friend as if life was a boon instead of a bane to her. You know from her letter
how bitter life was to her; and I think if you have ever known sorrow and a great
disappointment, you will comprehend how it was possible for her, with the fear
of God before her, and a desire to be His faithful child, to make this match
for herself. Anything was better than the dull stagnation into which she had
fallen: she had felt this year, unless some great change came to her to take
her out of this weary groove in which she was set, she must go melancholy mad.
She had laid out a hundred schemes, all of them, she knew, impracticable; and
now, in a strange, providential way, this chance to change every thought and
action of her whole life had come to her. Do you wonder much she accepted it? I
think it was not strange.
That night after his offer (the night she had asked for in which
to decide, although she said to herself, with a bitter little shrug as she made
the request, "A woman who hesitates is lost"), as she lay awake
pondering the whole matter, she thought: "It can't be worse than it is,
and it won't be very long either way, I think. I can be faithful to him, make
and mend, dig and delve, if needs be, for his benefit, in return for the honor
he does me in giving me his name and protection. I shall expect nothing,
literally nothing, from him that wives usually demand. I, who have borne for
years with the caprice of school-girls, can surely bear the humors of one man,
especially when his name shields me from other sorts of ills. I have rather
plumed myself these last few months upon having learned the depth of meaning
and force of truth there is in that expression from Sartor Resartus I
used to think so wicked: 'Say to happiness, I can do without you--in
self-renunciation life begins,' I can try it now. I need not be a spaniel or
fawn upon my lord, and yet I can obey and honor, if he will let me, this man to
whom I shall vow myself for life. For life! Can I endure it all the years I may
have to live an unloved wife--so near and yet so far from him to whom I am
bound? Will it not be a death in life? Will it be better than this dead, cold
monotony I now bear? Better or worse? Ah, there's the rub! I can never hope to
win his faithful, abiding love. Even did use make me acceptable to him, I could
not trust its continuance. And yet who knows whether, if I try to keep a pure
life and an honest purpose to walk before him worthily every day, I may not win
from him at last a sort of respect and friendship that will be next to love? I
will some time let him know of the friends my literary efforts have brought me.
I know he will be proud of the judgment that scholarly men, whose opinions he
honors, have placed upon the heirloom of intellectual ability that has been my
sole dower from my dear father and his learned ancestors. And when I am Ross
Norval's wife I will reveal myself to these letter-friends of my inner life,
and, meeting them no longer in the spirit only, let them see eye to eye their
hidden sister, their 'nebulous child,' as they have half playfully, half
angrily, called me. A husband's hand shall rive the rock in which their crystal
has been for years embedded.
"Oh, Ross, I shall be glad to come to my inheritance through
you; to gather my band of chosen ones into my actual, as I have long held them
in my inner, life; to know those at last whom my unprotected woman's state has
hitherto forbidden me to know. And if I take him, if I give myself to him, I
shall at last have the desire of my life. Ah, Ross! you will never know that
your boyish flattering, which meant nothing to you, and should have meant
nothing to me, did really mean so much that it simply broke my heart, leaving
me at sixteen so utterly incapable of loving any man but yourself that since
then no hand has ever touched the seal which closed the fountain of love and
passion in my heart for ever. Ah! I wonder what penalty there is for those who
carelessly destroy our hopes and blot out all possibilities of love from us?
What would you say, Ross Norval, if you knew that the last kiss I ever gave to
any man was given you that cold, dark day they buried my father? You came with
a note from Bell--she was dying, she said; after to-day no one but her family
would be admitted to her: would I come and say good-bye to her, even from my
father's grave? I went with you, and stayed an hour with her. Then you brought
me, more dead than alive, back to my desolate home, and taking me in your arms
carried me from the carriage to my bed. As you laid me down you said, 'My
sister's little friend, I am glad to have seen you once again. Bell tells me
all these years I have been absent you have been pleasant friends to each
other. You are dear and sweet because she loved you. I shall never see you
again perhaps, for when she dies I shall have no ties here and shall go
elsewhere. Kiss me good-bye,' and I did.
"For a year after that I was alone: then Esther Hooper came,
and I was not wretched. I have had my share of lovers and friends--what girl
has not?--have had rare treats of music, of books and paintings, and shared
their pleasant harmonies with an appreciative soul; and I have been very
contented.
"But now I am desolate again, and out of the darkness you
have come and beckoned me to follow you and stand near you all the rest of my
life. It will be happiness enough, as much as is good for me, to live with you,
even if I am nothing to you, for, oh, I love you very faithfully!"
And so, you know, they were married, with only the doctor and Mrs.
Keller to witness the ceremony; and at once, with her little decided way, the
sort of certainty that years of self-dependence give, she became his nurse,
attending to him as persistently and indefatigably as if the sole purpose for
which she had been born was that. From the first service she rendered
him--bathing his head and face through an intense August day with iced water
delicately perfumed, arranging the curtains so that the air, when there was a
breeze, blew freely to him, though the glare of the sun was gone, and his room
in dim, soothing shadow--she seemed a blessing to him. Some hours after she
came with her bright, quick ways, arranging his disordered room, bringing order
out of chaos on his dressing-table, never peeping into things, and yet getting
them into beautiful order, and, wonderful to relate, keeping them so: the air
seemed to grow cooler, his medicine less bitter, the time shorter, and his
broken leg and weary back to ache less acutely.
One day she said in a shy way, "Mr. Norval, if you will let
James lay out your things, I will see what mending they need, and will sit here
and do them, so you sha'n't spend so many hours alone. Mrs. Keller has made
some friends in the house, and they kindly sit with her so much that she does
not need me."
"But, Percy, what's the use of James having a hand in it?
Here are my keys," with a laugh as he handed them to her: "you know
they are a part of the worldly goods with which I did thee endow; and the keys
always belong to the female department by right, don't they?"
She took them with a vivid blush. "Shall I look over your
trunks and bureau, then?" she asked.
"Certainly, while I go to sleep and dream what a jolly thing
it is to have you here." Then, pretending to sleep, he watched her with
careful hands examine his belongings, with a contemptuous little smile at this
piece of bungling mending or an anxious frown over that frayed place. Then how
neatly she folded and laid back all the good, and seated herself with a pile
before her and began to sew! When he opened his eyes she handed him the keys.
"No, Percy, keep them: I make all right and title to them
over to you," he said.
From that day he seemed to feel delight in her companionship,
reading to her hour after hour while she sewed, always choosing some poetical
or light bit of reading--"To suit my capacity," she thought.
So they had gone on week after week--with the single exception of
the Rollins episode--without any change. He was a rare favorite in society, and
every day received a host of calls from gentlemen, baskets of fruits and
flowers from ladies. Always, when a card was sent up, she would gather all her
womanish "traps" together and go to Mrs. Keller--this, too, in spite
of his earnest invitation to her to remain.
"No: you can have a pleasanter call with no ladies present,
and Mrs. Keller needs me. I'll be back in time for your medicine."
Once or twice some one, more intimate or free than usual, would
run up unannounced and catch her there. Her acceptation of the situation was,
he thought, perfect. Without a shadow of embarrassment she acknowledged the
introduction, "My wife," did the honors of the occasion, said a few
words regarding his state, and with some such words as "I will be back in
an hour or so, Ross," would leave the room.
Thus he was utterly unaware of what her abilities were. Whether
she was capable of holding a conversation, or could hold her own in society, he
could not opine; and it annoyed him keenly, for he was, like most society-men,
very punctilious regarding the manners of the particular woman who belonged to
him. That she was, in fact, an elegant conversationalist, quick and brilliant
at repartee, a fine linguist and an intelligent thinker for a woman, he did not
dream.
Nevertheless, the mere having her about him day after day, with
her dainty little ways, grew to be a pleasure to him: the making her grave
little face, with its haunting look of sorrow, break into smiles, the light
come into her soft gray eyes, became a real delight to him. Then the color
flushed over her cheek at his lightest word, and he found a real interest in
watching it glow and fade from her pale face.
"She's the sort of brune that colors
well," he thought. "Old Sir John's fancy of--
'Her cheek was like a Cathrine pear,
The side that's next the sun'--
suits her exactly. And her hair, with the glint of gold in the
chestnut hue, would be a glory in a beautiful woman. Every motion of her heart
shows in her face. She'd never make a woman of the world: she cannot hide her
feelings, but lets one read them like an open book." Which was all he knew
about it, since, spite of her treacherous color, those years of hard duty had
trained her into the most perfect self-control on all needful and great
occasions and matters.
How he missed her light step! how he had wanted her all these two
days! for, though it was scarcely past noon, and she had gone late the day
before, he was sure it was that--"And seems like six, by George!"
But, as he lay feverish and famished for a drink, a very ill-used man, she
opened the door, and the air seemed lightened of its troubles at once.
Part II
"Shall we go to Niagara for our wedding-trip?" Mr.
Norval asked when the doctor had taken his last fee, pronouncing his patient
cured.
"Unless you care particularly about it, I would rather go
straight to New York. I have canceled all my school-engagements by letter,
having taken a new service"--and she bowed to him--"and Mrs. Keller
promised to see to my little rooms and their belongings; but I should like to
see Harry before he sails."
"Want to make him promise to be a good boy while he's
away?" said he with a smile.
"Something like it," she answered, laughingly. "But
Harry's not a bad fellow, at all."
"Well, then, let's start for home to-morrow;" and they
made their arrangements to that effect, though he was disappointed, for in an
unwonted moment of confidence she had told him of the pictures of travel to be
taken, the glories to be first seen together, never apart, both in Europe and
America, that had been among the happiest dreams and made up a large part of
the talks between herself and her lost friend, Esther Hooper. He felt that her
indifference to seeing the glories of Niagara and the sublimities of the White
Mountains was caused by his companionship not being her heart's choice (which
was all he knew about it!), and the idea gave him angry pain and a passionate
desire to win her in spite of all.
As they stood the next morning ready equipped for their journey,
he put his arm around her, saying, "I've been very happy, little wife,
here with you. Are you glad you happened to be here that August day, and that I
saw you?"
"I have had no cause to regret it," she said quietly.
"But you are not glad," he said, taking his arm away.
"As glad, Ross, as I can be for anything--more glad than I am
for most things."
He looked at her with a sigh. "My father--and I am like
him--loved only once." Her words came constantly into his mind. "I
came too late," he thought; and it seemed to him this little plain woman,
looking wan and pale in the early morning light, was better worth winning than
any other earthly thing he had ever known. He had left her side, and was
standing looking with a frown out of the window as they awaited the summons to
breakfast. After a while she came and stood beside him, leaning her head
against his arm. He turned slightly toward her, but took no further notice of
the action. She stayed so for a while, then said, softly stealing her hand in
his as it lay upon the window-ledge, "Dear Ross, I am glad:
I am happier than I ever dreamed it possible for me to be. I would not undo the
deed we have done so long as you are content. I like being with you dearly, and
I like to think that so long as I live I shall be your wife--your little girl
to whom you are so very tender and good."
"My Preciosa"--and he drew her into his arms--"so
long as we both shall live, you mean. I want no life without you now."
Then turning her, face up, he scanned it hastily: "You are so white, my
pet, so deathly pale! Are you ill, my Percy?"
"No, no," she said quickly. "I think I need my
breakfast: I have been up a couple of hours, and I did not sleep very much all
night."
"My poor little girl; when I get you safely home in those
famous rooms of ours, perhaps you'll get some rest. But you talk in this
strange way of dying: just now you did, and once before in your letter. What
makes you do it? Is there anything the matter of which you have not told
me?"
"Nothing--only my life seemed ended, Ross, as if all my
places were filled and I was no more needed, so that I had got in the way of
hoping for death as a boon which God would send me soon."
"But you do not now?--you don't want to die and leave me
desolate?"
"No, dear! indeed, no! though I don't think you'd care
really." He clasped her in a closer embrace and kissed her reproachfully.
"Well, yes, just at first, perhaps. Yet so long as you want me, I want to
stay and be your willing, working wife. I've got a new reason and aim now: I
have you, dear old Ross."
"Oh, Percy, I do care. God knows even the
thought of it gives me a bitter agony, I know you cannot trust me yet, because
I married you so carelessly, and because you think I can't be true to one woman
with my battered old heart. But that's because you judge me by what my long,
unloved life has made me. No good woman ever made me love her before. I never
knew how beautiful a pure life was, my darling, until I knew it through
watching yours. When I think of all you have saved me from, which would have
caused my undying gratitude had I learned to hate you--as if I ever
could!" and he paused to kiss her--"when I think of all the new and
better hopes you have awakened in my heart, I feel--God knows I do--as if He
had sent my angel, and let her drag me out of a hell into which I was plunged,
and year after year sinking deeper. Stay with me, dear: I will be true. I never
cared for any woman in the way--in the deep, absorbing way--I do for you. I
wish you would believe me."
"I do, Ross--you are so good to me, so good! Oh, Ross,
Ross!" and she held up her face to his, "you are so good to me!"
She clung to him one moment, then suddenly, as soon as she could trust her
voice, said gayly, "But it's breakfast-time, and your wife is so
unromantically hungry;" and with a sigh that nothing more ever came of
their talks he took her down.
When they reached New York the next afternoon, they drove at once
to the rooms they had engaged. Percy's cousin, Harry Barton, was there to
welcome them, having come round from his hotel for the purpose.
"Why, Norval," said he--they were old
acquaintances--"you've won our bone of contention, after all. I wonder
what we shall do, now that Percy's safely landed out of our reach? You're a
brave man to dare our rage."
"Don't, Harry!" said Percy, putting her hand on his arm.
"I won't, dear, if you say not;" and he covered her hand
with his own. "I always did do your lightest bidding, little girl, didn't
I?"
"Yes, you're a dear old cousin. Ross knows how much I
appreciate your kindness to me always. Why, I gave up what he calls my 'bridal
tour,' partly because I wanted to come back and say 'good-bye' to you."
His face flushed crimson at her words, and, all his careless,
fashionable manner gone, he said, "Did you, Percy? You always were
good."
"That, and because--because I shall be so sorry if you join
this African expedition."
"Don't ask me not to, Percy--don't ask me to stay now you
have broken my hope for ever. I shall go to the dogs, dear, if I stay here
now."
"I don't want you to, Harry. Only your mother is so delicate
and getting old, and she loves you beyond all the rest of the world, though you
think she don't because she has been cruel to me. It will break her heart if
you join this dangerous enterprise. Stay in Europe, go to Heidelberg and finish
the course you so foolishly broke up. They'll blame me, Harry, for all the evil
that comes to you."
"Well, I'll think about it, dear." Then to Ross;
"Does she kiss you, Norval?"
"Well, I can't say she does," said that gentleman, who
had been a surprised listener to their talk, and it annoyed him to have to
confess she did not.
"Nor let you kiss her, either?"
"Well, yes," with a laugh. "She can't very well
help that, you know."
"Don't you believe it: if she didn't want you to, you'd never
kiss her, I know. Why, we three cousins, Sheldon, Mac and I, have tried every
way to get her to kiss us for years, and never succeeded. You're a lucky
dog!"
"He's my husband, Harry;" and she laid her head down on
Ross's arm.
"Don't, Percy!" said her cousin with a quick motion of
his hand: "I'll be gone soon;" then hurriedly and gayly: "Let me
do the honors of your new domains. And, Norval, I have a great favor to ask of
you. My little cousin's amour propre won't be touched, or
herself involved now she's a married woman, by taking an honest gift from me,
and all brides take bridal gifts, you know. I want you to let me give her all
the traps I've left in the rooms. It isn't much grace to ask, old fellow,
seeing you're to have her always and I not at all."
"Why, certainly, Barton, I have no objections if she has
none."
"Percy, you've never let me give you anything all these
years, you proud little soul, nor any of the rest of us: you've come scot-free
from all our endeavors to snare you through all your hard-working life. You
won't go quite empty-handed to your husband's arms, just to plague me, will
you?"
"No, indeed! I'm delighted to have all your pretty things. I
saw them once, you know, when you gave your mother her birth-night party;"
and they began their round of inspection. "But, Harry, you've refurnished
the whole suite!"
"You didn't think I was going to make you and Norval (I can't
call you Cousin Ross yet, old fellow--I hate you too bad, you know) cast your
lines among my smoke-and-wine-scented traps, did you?"
As she saw how exquisitely he had chosen everything, how
delicately he had regarded every one of her tastes in his selection, and
thought how little reason he had to be good to her, she turned quickly and put
her arms about him. With a shuddering sob he held his own out as if to clasp
her, saying, "May I, Ross?" The answering nod was scarcely given ere
he had gathered her to his breast, murmuring, "Percy! Percy! my lost
darling!"
As he held her thus, she said softly, "Promise me,
Harry--dear old Hal--promise me this!"
"Anything, everything, Percy," he said.
"That you will give up Africa and go to Heidelberg."
"I will, I will, since you wish it."
She drew his face down and kissed him on his mouth, two long,
sweet kisses, saying, "Good-bye, and God bless you, cousin!"
He stood like a blind man as she gently drew herself from his
embrace, then wringing Ross's hand in a grasp that made him wince, he strode
out of the house without a word.
Percy, going to where her husband sat, said humbly, "I was so
sorry for him, I could not help it. You do not care--very much?"
"Harry Barton loved you and wanted to marry you?"
"Yes, Ross. I've been very unhappy about it for years, he's
wasted his life so, and angered his family. Indeed, it was not my fault: I
never gave him reason."
"Yet you married me without a pretence of love, and he's
richer and handsomer and a better man than I, every way? I don't understand it,
child."
"Yes, I married you, knowing you did not love me." His
arms almost crushed her at that truth. "He may be richer: he is no better,
I think, and"--holding his face between her hands with a quizzical survey
for an instant--"it's barefaced scandal to assert that he is as handsome,
by one half. Poor, handsome Ross, to think that all your manifold charms should
have purchased you only ugly little me!" and she laughed a merry, mocking
laugh at his protesting hug. "It's true, though--it's the very climax of
opposites, a perfection of contrasts." Then, her light manner gone, she
added: "You are very, very good to me, Ross. He would never have been so patient
of my old griefs and lost loves. I told you my masculine cousins were always
crying for the grapes that hung out of their reach, you know." Then
suddenly growing grave: "Oh, Ross, it was not my fault: I could not help
it. I think the boys got to pitying me because they thought my life was hard,
and because their sisters treated me very cruelly sometimes. Then my uncles
very foolishly ordained that I should teach their sons their Latin and help
them with their studies. So out of school-hours my time was mostly spent with
one or the other, or all of them. Sheldon Wilber and I are of the same age, and
having been my father's constant companion, I was better up in all his studies
than he was himself; so I used to do his college lessons with him, until he got
to thinking, as he used to say, I was his very breath. Then afterward I gave
the other two the benefit of what we had studied, got them out of scrapes, and
indeed, being with them so much, kept them out. Don't let's talk about them any
more, Ross: I have 'fessed' all now."
"Not all, my sweet: you have not told me who it is that has
shut your heart from us all."
"Don't, Ross!" and she shrank away from him as if he had
struck her a blow.
"Ah, well, my wife, keep your secret: I'll not touch your
sacred past. I'll try to learn to be content with my little sister, thankful I
have so much."
"Oh, Ross, my good, kind Ross!" and she clasped her arms
around his neck in passionate, longing regret, "if I might tell you
all--if I might!"
"Tell me nothing, dear, you would rather keep. I am
infinitely content to even have you thus, and know you love me somewhat. Yes, I
know, sweet," he said with a sad smile as she kissed his hand in
passionate regret--"the very best you can, with all the heart you have. I
know, I know!"
Quite late in the evening, Sheldon Wilber came. After sitting an
hour or so, talking gayly, he rose to go. When they were standing he said,
"Percy, I had just left the Flemmings before I came in here."
"Had you? I hope they are all well, especially Miss Lizzie,
who is so pretty."
"They're all well enough. She--Miss Lizzie the pretty--is
going to be married."
"To be married!--to whom?" she asked.
"To my honorable self: don't you congratulate
her?"--with a bitter laugh. "I asked her to-night if she'd have me,
and she said 'Yes.'"
"I am so glad, Sheldon--so very glad!" and she held out
her hand.
"Are you? It's more than anyone else is but my mother. Well,
no--I suppose the Flemmings are, to get another daughter off their hands, and
she to have a safe man to pay her bills. And of course all our cousins and
sisters will be glad to have another house to dance the German in; so it is
rather a jubilee occasion, taking it all in all."
"Oh, Sheldon, how hard and bitter you are! She loves you, I
know, and the rest think you will be happier with a good wife to care
for."
"Yes, the wife I cared for would have made me supremely
happy, but vive la bagatelle! I want to know when I am to tie
this knot?"
"Whenever she wishes, of course," she answered.
"By the Lord, no! If she gets me, she's got to take me
when I choose."
Percy went up to him and put her hands in his: "She'll be a
good wife, and, dear Sheldon, you'll be a good husband to her."
He looked at her curiously, then answered, "I'll try: I'll
begin by letting her set the hanging--no, I mean the wedding--day. Norval, I
know you'll be good to our little girl--better, likely as not, than the rest of
us would have been had we got possession of her. Only remember, old fellow, the
shadows must never come to her through you, or some of us will make a shadow of
you. Would you mind my coming around sometimes to see the little woman? If
you'll let me come and spend an evening now and then with you both, it will
keep me from getting utterly down-hearted, and maybe will make me a better
husband to the future Mrs. Sheldon Wilber. I'll never come without sending word
to know if I may." And the poor fellow took himself away.
"How they love you, dear! It's strange you took me, and I
thought I was conferring a favor on you! I'm ashamed to remember it now, but it
was so."
"Yes, I know"--and she laughed--"but it's not
strange, Ross. Any woman would have chosen you: I have always heard of your
successes with women. And you know it was take or lose when you gave me my
chance. I had but one choice; it was not likely you would drop your
handkerchief before me a second time; so I took you quick, before some other
woman caught you."
She kept a light, gay tone thus far, standing the other side of
the grate from him, but when he came near as if to draw her toward him, she
said hurriedly, "These boys have been too much for me, and tried me
terribly. If you will not care, Ross, I think I'll say 'Good-night,' though
it's early. Don't stay in, if you would like to go to your club or anywhere,
because it is our first evening. You see, I am going to desert you first. It's
part of the compact, you know, that I am never to be in your way."
"Oh, Percy," he said, in a very boyishly aggrieved tone,
"I don't want to go anywhere where you are not."
"You will soon get tired of that, Ross. But I'm glad you
don't want to go to-night: I doubt your being quite able to walk much in the
evening. Yet I feel as if I must say 'Good-night' and get myself in the dark.
Why? I'm unstrung. The newness of my life with you, the traveling, this coming
home with you to a place where I am to know either joy or woe, and all this
talk with Harry and Sheldon, have been almost more than I could bear;" and
her lip quivered. "It's all I have been able to do this last hour to keep
from crying, and I do hate to cry before people." The long-suppressed
emotion of all these weeks had broken bounds and she shook with sobs, while
every nerve seemed quivering, and all she said was, "Ross, Ross! please
forgive me! I am so sorry to be so foolish!" And though he strove by every
tender method to comfort and soothe her, it was in vain; and at length, really
frightened, he carried her to the little room she had appropriated for herself,
and as tenderly as a mother, though as shyly as a girl, put his poor little
done-out wife in her bed, too weak to resist his kind services, indeed,
scarcely noticing them.
The next day, when he returned from what he and his friends, by an
agreeable fiction, called an "office," where he generally spent as
many hours as served to give him a flavor of business and a figurative title as
a businessman--where were to be found the best cigars and choicest wines, and
generally a pleasant circle of good fellows congregated--he found Percy with
the most charming little dinner awaiting him; the table exquisite in the
finest, whitest napery, gleaming with silver, sparkling in glass, and every
dish cooked and served in quite Parisian style, and the little lady herself in
the brightest toilette, with such a matronly air that he could hardly realize
the scene of the last night's misery.
"Tears all gone, Ross, tragedy played out, and the little
woman who keeps house for you is herself again, and has been as busy as a
nailer. Are nailers busier than other men, I wonder? All your boxes came. Such
bliss as it was to us poor women to feast our eyes upon all that heritage of
linen and silver, and china and glass! Your mother must have been a famous
manager, Ross, to leave you such a store. I'm so glad we've got that old place
on the Harlem stored with all this beautiful array. Do you know, Ross, I think
I've discovered my especial calling to-day? It's housekeeping, and I elect
myself to go some time to that lovely old mansion and expend myself in
hospitality. I'll invite you to come and visit me."
Flying about the room, then making him seat himself in the cozy
chair which was placed for him at the table--"the side that's next the
fire," she said--rattling gayly on of all her day's employment, she caught
the look upon his face and came to his side. "What were you thinking of,
Ross?" she asked, anxiously.
"What a little tornado you were, for the first thing, and how
I liked seeing you busy among our household gods; also and moreover, that you
had not given me a chance to say a word; and worst of all, that you had never
given me my kiss of welcome, my rightful perquisite." Instantly she held
up her face. "Ah, pet, you are always submissive; but never aggressive:
still, this is sweet. And I was wondering what had become of the weeping willow
I left."
"Wasn't I a silly goose, Ross?" she said, a little
breathlessly.
"Well, no, dear: you were very nervous and worn-out."
"I hate nervous, fidgety women so: they're detestable with
their whims."
"I did not find you so, but I'm glad you're over it, all the
same."
"And so am I. You could not make me cry like that again,
Ross, if you were to pinch me."
"But I did not make you cry."
"Yes you did, though. In truth, I was unstrung, and you were
so kind and unlike what any one had ever been to me before, so different from
what I had expected when we were married "--and her lips
quivered--"that it touched me to the quick."
"Why, darling, did you think I was going to be a brute to
you?"
"I thought you would be nothing to me, one way or the
other--simply forget me, and be utterly indifferent so long as I kept your
clothes made and mended, and did not bother you about my wants or tastes or
opinions."
A flush came over his face at the truth of her words. It would
have been just so had he found her what he expected her to be; but he said,
"I don't think any one could treat you like that, little girl." Then,
while they ate their dinner, he told her of his day's doings and of his
determination for the future: "I have a good opening--no man better. I
mean to attend to my practice hereafter, make a name and fortune for my
sweetheart, and in a few years we'll go to Europe and see the sights. Ah,
Percy, such a vista, such a new life, such a bright future, as I see opening
before me! But, first of all, I am going shopping with you, young lady,
to-morrow. I have ordered a carriage at eleven, and we'll buy all those pretty
fixings you women doat on. Do you know, little bride, I think all my vanity is
going to take the form of having you more prettily dressed than your cousins,
mine ancient flames when I was a bad boy?"
"Oh, Ross," with a little laugh, "you can't do it:
you can't make a rival specimen out of your bad bargain. Nothing will make me a
beauty."
"Don't, Percy! I do like beauty. I have run after and made a
fool of myself for years over pretty women, but I like your face, just as it
is, better than any other woman's face I ever knew. If I could change you any
way, I would not do it. Your face is beautiful to me, though I know it is not a
pretty one: you are like sunlight to me." His voice shook, and he strained
her slight form to him with a clasp that was positive pain. "I said I
would not change you, but I would if I might put that old love out of your
heart for ever. Why, in those far-off years when we were childish friends, did
I not know my truest life lay in winning you? It is strange! I have never
failed to gain the love I wanted until now, when I want the only one that would
complete my life. Dear Percy, love me all you can. If there are things in
me--and I know there are many--which turn you from me, tell me of them and I
will change them if I can."
"Oh, Ross, don't, don't! I am not worthy of such words."
"Oh, little Preciosa, I am glad to have even a little of your
heart: the half of your love has come to be more to me than the love of all the
world besides."
Do you think it was not agony for her to hear such words as these
and make no response to them, fearing lest with assurance should come satiety?
And yet the knowledge of his growing love was very sweet to her, and worth the
agony.
They settled down in their new home, and were purposely
"out" to all callers during the next month--then returned the cards
that had been left for them. As they grew accustomed to their new life, she
thought to see his pleasure and interest in it wane as the novelty wore away,
but it was not so. That love of home which is, after all, the truest test of a
really manly nature, seemed to grow upon him. It was always so bright and
cheery by their cozy fire, the glare of public rooms, the noise and glitter of
theatres and concert-rooms, struck him with a feeling akin to disgust, after
the soft, subdued light of his home, and his wife's merry, breezy voice. He
sang and played for her, never giving a thought to her having any musical
ability, since she never touched the instrument. He read to her hour after
hour, having at last discovered her taste and ability to understand the kind of
books he relished, perfectly content if she would favor him by sitting near
enough to him to let him pull down that wealth of "tresses brown," a
glossy cloud about her.
Of course this Arcadian life could not continue in the very heart
of Sodom. Society was not going to lose Ross Norval if he had made
a fool of himself and married a little nobody. So callers flowed in upon them,
and Ross, having in boyish glee arrayed himself in purple and fine linen, took
her in state to see his friends.
Of course her cousins and their friends hated her: she had won
their bonne louche, and the crimson of her plainness and poverty,
of the having to "have Percy always around to please Uncle Rufus,"
was pink to the enormity of her being Ross Norval's wife. And "why he
married her," and "of course he's dead tired of her by this
time," were their politest surmises.
One morning they paid a cousinly visit--a triple call. "And,
by Jove!" thought Ross as he watched her haughty little face and nonchalant manner,
"she's no milk-and-water nature, though she's always so sweet-tempered
with me. She's got all the temper a true nature ought to have."
"To think of your ever getting married, Percy, and to Mr.
Norval, of all men!" said Miss Leta Wilber. "Why, we thought him
engaged to the beauty and belle of last winter, Miss Agnes Lorton."
"Well, yes, Leta, old girls like you and I are rather off the
cards: we don't expect to catch the prizes generally--we leave that for these
younger ones, like Jennie and Lucille," said Percy, coolly.
"A Roland for your Oliver, Leta!" laughed Jennie Wayne.
"I never venture to break a lance with Percy: she always has an arrow in
reserve to pierce you with. I suppose you've found that out, Mr. Norval?"
"Found what out? I fear I don't follow you, Miss
Jennie," said he.
"That she's very able to take her own part, this little
cousin of ours," said she, her beautiful face scarlet at his manner.
"Is she, though? Well, I like that amazingly, do you
know?"
"Like ill-tempered people?" said Miss Leta, snappishly.
"Is it possible?"
"Ill-tempered people?" with a wellbred stare. (Is there
such a thing?) "No, indeed! Why, birdie"--and he leaned over, and,
taking her hand, raised it to his lips--"to think of any one calling you
ill-tempered!"
"You silly boy!" laughed she. "I'll take my hand if
you please, and don't you believe but what you've married a termagant."
The girls said afterward, in recounting the scene, it was simply
disgusting. Leta vowed, "The little baggage must be a witch and throw
spells over people. Look what fools she's made of our boys for years, and Ross
Norval, with all his splendid endowments, is just as bad."
"And he did use to admire your form, Leta," said Jennie,
maliciously. "I've seen him waltz you until it was hard to tell which face
that long blonde moustache belonged to."
"Ditto, cousin, and worse, if gossips speak the truth. But
don't let's say ugly things to each other. We both hoped to win him once, and
we have both lost him. The little wretch will watch him like a hawk, and never
let him come near a body."
"Oh dear!" said her sister Laura, "if I only knew I
was to do a German with him to-night, I'd be happy: he holds one better than
any man I know; and if Percy will let him dance with a body occasionally, I'd
as leave she should have him as the rest of you."
"Unless he'd chosen yourself, Laura, I suppose?"
"Well, yes, that would have made a difference, even to my
laziness, especially if she'd have made dear old Harry stay at home by marrying
him."
That's the way they talked, yet in a couple of weeks after each
house had sent her an invitation to a large party--"for you and Mr.
Norval, dear Percy"--and the invitation-cards stated the fact.
"It's my Viking they want," laughed she: "they take
his mouse in for the sake of securing him. He's such a credit to the
family!"
"Well, it's your Viking they won't get," said he.
"Now, Ross, don't be a bother, dear, and complicate matters.
They will say--and be glad of the chance--that it's my fault. You've such a
passion for dancing, they will say I prevented your coming. And besides, as I
dance so little, you'll ask them as much as ever?"
"How do you know I am so fond of it, Percy?"
"I've watched you too many years not to know that. You forget
that, though a flower unnoticed and unseen--a very wall-flower in fact--I have
been a looker-on in Vienna. I might have made a point of that, Ross, if I'd
thought in time, and 'hung i' the walls of Venice, a sightly flower.' You were
the bright particular star, or sun, in whose light all the fairest flowers
disported themselves. Why, I could tell you every woman--that is, of your own
set--you've been what Jennie calls 'bad about,' for years." He held up his
hand deprecatingly: she laughed gayly. "Never fear. I don't intend to name
them: I have not time to go over such a thing of shreds and patches. Ah! the
hopes I've watched you raise to heaven and then dash to earth!"
"Oh, Percy, I don't wonder that you are afraid to trust me
now: I am paying the penalty of my years of folly."
"That's nonsense, Ross. I don't believe in fashionable
women's hearts. You were too good for them, and they led you on always,"
she said, almost passionately.
"That's my good darling trying to excuse her sinner. But how
was it you never danced at any of those parties? Harry and Mac are both good
dancers, and Sheldon's the best waltzer I ever saw. How is it you never danced
with them?"
"With them, indeed! Why, that would have been an aggravation
past enduring to my rich relations. Sheldon had actually the insolence to tell
his sister Leta that I was the best waltzer in society. Think of the prize
you've got, young man!"
"I do always, sweetheart," he said, answering her gay
tone with a grave one. "Did you waltz much with Sheldon and the
others?"
"I never waltzed with any of them in my life. Why, Ross, I
never let them speak to me at parties, except by turns to take me out to supper
and home."
"But how have you managed to keep up your waltzing
then?"
"Oh, Mr. Vanity, men are not all. Esther and I waltzed
constantly: then I used to help Lucille, who is my favorite cousin, 'along in
her paces;' and the children at our school-parties doat on me as a partner.
Would you like to know who was the last man, and indeed almost the only one, I
ever went round a room with?" and her face turned crimson, though she
laughed.
"Indeed I should--curse him!" he said under his breath.
"Your honorable self, at Madame's school-party;" and she
sprang away from his outstretched hands with a mocking laugh.
The day of the party she wrote a few little violet-perfumed notes,
and sent them off. This is a specimen:
"DEAR DOCTOR: You have so often wanted to know your 'nebulous
child,' and been indignant that she hid her face from you behind her veil of
clouds, you will be pleased to know that the sunshine has dispelled the clouds,
and made her at last able to meet the starry train of which you are the sun.
Will you greet Ross Norval's bride at the Wilber party to-night as the child
you have trained and been so good to in the past, and who, ever honoring you,
is still your loving child for the future? If you'll ask me prettily to-night,
I'll sing the foolish words I made for the sweet, tripping Languedoc air you
sent me last year. I am, now and ever,
"MIRA CANAM."
In consequence of these notes, when Ross led his wife into the
room, arrayed in a crimson cloud of his choosing, which made even her brown
face a picture, all her bronze hair, her husband's glory, floating round her
far below her waist, confined lightly here and there by diamond clusters, which
sparkled like stars amidst its creped luxuriance--"Daring to dress in the
very height of the fashion," said Leta, "and all those diamonds on
her--his mother's, of course;" and of course they were--the consequence, I
say, was, that first one distinguished man and then another met her with a warm
greeting--"deucedly warm," thought the jealous fellow, who was so
uncertain of her yet, and wanted all of her--and were introduced to "my
husband." Taking for granted that "my husband" was glad to get
her off his hands, they took possession of her, to his infinite disgust.
These were the men with whom she could talk, whose minds struck
diamond flashes from her own, whose thoughts she had followed for years, and
who looked upon her as their peer, and deferred to her opinion on many things.
And she, knowing Ross was her amazed listener, was stirred to do her best
before him--glad her triumph over her relatives should be in his presence and
brought to her through his means. It may not have been a lovely thing in her to
desire or enjoy a victory, but ah! it is so natural, and my little heroine had
had hard lines meted out to her for years. Besides, no woman is free, you know,
from vanity: only men are that.
She stood near the door of the dancing-room. Ross came to her
after every dance, but it was always, "Not me yet, Ross--Leta, or
Jennie," or whoever stood nearest her. Even the girl to whom report had
given him (with reason) the year before was, at her open entreaty, which he
could not evade, his partner; but half the time he stood beside her, forgetful
of the dance in listening to the conversation in which she bore so large a
part.
A lull in the music after supper announced the suspension of
dancing hostilities for a time, that due strength might be gathered for the
last waltz, and then the German. The time was occupied by a very weak tenor,
who came to an ignominious end in the middle of "Spirito Gentil."
Miss Jennie Barton and her cousin Laura gave a sweet duo, in rather a tearing
style, Jennie being a fast young lady everyhow; another lady sang a Scottish
ballad as if it had been manipulated by Verdi; then one of the gentlemen said,
"Mr. Norval, I hope you will lay your commands on your wife to sing for
us."
"I hope that will not be needed," he said,
bowing (thinking with a pang, "They all know her better than I do").
"I am sure she will do equally well if we all beg the favor of her."
"She has promised me to sing," said Dr. B----, "my
pretty Languedoc air, which she has--"
"Now that's enough, you foolish old doctor!" and she
went to the piano. "Foolish old doctor!" He was the great gun of the
scientific world: the people about looked aghast at such impertinence, but the
"great gun" only laughed and said, "I am mute if you
command."
How her hands trembled as she began! This was her last and
greatest card: by it she had always felt she must hold him to her for ever, or
lose her husband's love in time. She had never touched the piano before him or
sung a note, but much of her leisure since their return to New York had been
taken up, when he was out, in keeping herself in practice against the time when
she should have a chance to play for him and sing to him. She played the sweet
air, with its Mozart-like, mournful cadences, entirely through ere she felt
nerved enough to begin. Then she sang in such a voice as made the most
indifferent pause--a voice that was like purple velvet for richness, as sweet
as the breath of an heliotrope to which the sun had just said adieu, as clear
as the notes of an English skylark--this little song:
"See, love! the rosy radiance gleams
Athwart the sunset sky:
List, love! and hear the bird's sweet notes
In lingering cadence die.
Clasp, love, thy clinging hands in mine,
And, holding fast by me,
Trust, love! I will be true, my dove,
Be ever true to thee--
So true, sweetheart, I'll be,
Sweetheart, to thee!
"Come, love! I waiting pine so long,
And weary watch for thee:
Dear love! amidst my darkest night
Thy star-like face I see.
Heart's love! ah, come thou close to me:
I'll shelter thee from harms,
From every foe or secret woe,
Close clasped within my arms:
Lie safe from all alarms,
Sweetheart, with me."
While they listened to her, those careless men and women, they
thought they began to understand why this little, plain girl had won Ross
Norval. While everybody praised her, he stood utterly silent, too moved for
words she saw, and refusing to sing again, she went up to him as the band began
to play. "My waltz, Ross," she said. He put his arm around her with a
loving gesture that made those about them smile, and whirled her off.
"He's the hardest hit man I've seen for years," said
one.
"And that such a thing should come to pass, as Ross Norval in
love with his own wife, is beyond belief--after making love to everybody
else's!"
"That's it! He was always the darling of fortune: the
choicest fruit always dropped his side the wall."
But Ross, as he held her in that "tight hold" which was
so much admired by his partners, said only, "Percy! Percy! I do not know
you at all. How cruel you are to me! Everybody knows you and your gifts but
me."
When the German had commenced he came to her and whispered,
"Do you care for it?"
"The German, Ross? Indeed no: I am tired too, and was just
coming to ask you if I might let old Mr. L---- take me home: he says it will be
no trouble."
"And you would not have asked me to take you?" he said,
reproachfully.
"Take you away from the German, Ross! Such an unheard-of
thing as that! You must think me very selfish. Indeed; I am not where your
pleasure is concerned: I only want you to enjoy yourself."
"Then, for Charity's sake, let's go home," he said.
"With all my heart if you really wish it!" and she
started; then pausing: "Are you going because you think I want to go? I do
not indeed: I will stay gladly."
"I am going because I want to--because I am dead tired, and
long, with a perfect passion, for our cozy room, the dim firelight, and my
darling toasting her pretty slippers."
"You dear, foolish Ross!" and she was gone like the wind.
On their way out, Sheldon Wilber met them in the hall, and, handing her
something, said, "To-night, little girl: if you have ever doubted, doubt
no more. And remember, a trusting heart is a priceless one;" and he was
gone.
When they were home and comfortable, Ross said, "My wife, it
was cruel to let me learn your wonderful gifts through strangers: it has hurt
me cruelly."
"Oh, Ross, don't say so! Hurt you! I hurt you, my love, my
love! I had hoped no pang of the lightest sort would ever reach you through me,
and now I've grieved you sorely! It's all due to my morbid fancies, dear. I
could not ask to sing to you lest you should not like my singing: I think I
should have gone mad if you had not liked my voice, Ross I have so hoped it
would be pleasant to your ear! Do you like it, Ross? Is my voice sweet to
you?" and she held his face between her hands and looked eagerly and
steadfastly into his eyes.
"The sweetest thing I ever heard. It thrills my blood yet,
that love-song you sang."
She gave a little cooing laugh: "That is your love-song,
dear--your very own." Then she said, gravely, "I must tell you all about
myself now, Ross, so you shall never be able to reproach me with having given
you pain. No matter, dear: it was, true," she said in answer to his caressing
protest, "and I feel the hurt through you. I am your wife. The reason
those gentlemen are so fond of me is because--Wait;" and she slid from his
embrace and brought a pile of books: "this and this are mine; these two I
translated from the German, others from the old Provençal tongue, with which my
father made me familiar." Then she told him how lovingly she did this
work, how kind scholarly men had been to her, and how eagerly they had sought
to know her otherwise than by letter--"Until, to-night, I bade them find
Ross Norval's wife, and know the little girl who, shielded by his name, feared
nothing any more."
"Percy," he said, quite humbly, "you must bear with
me, dear. I lose all hope of winning you when I learn these things of
you."
"But you are not sorry, Ross? I will not write any more if
you dislike literary women."
But he stopped her: "Dislike it! I am proud as a king of all
your endowments. But, sweetheart, you said a word just now that is worth all
else that you have told me--a word, I know, you said only half meaning it. Oh,
my little girl, will there ever come a time when, meaning it and out of a full
heart, you will say, My love! my love!"
She held him tight a long, long moment, then with one lingering
love-kiss on his lips--her very first--she said faintly, putting him away from
her, "Ross, not now--wait, my dearest. Sheldon gave me this to give to you
to-night;" and she held out a little worn letter, then buried her face
upon his breast and tremblingly waited while he read it. It ran thus:
"Sheldon, my cousin, it can never be: give up all hope for
ever. I kill it now, because it is best you should know the truth. I almost
give up my life, my cousin, when I make my heritage of woe known to you. You
will pity me, Sheldon, when you realize what agony the confession you thus
wring from me gives my heart. But if it cures your passion it is not borne in
vain. I love with an undying love, a faith that knows no change, an endurance
that years of neglect have not weakened, that years of cruelty could never
change, a man who would laugh to scorn my very name. I love--and have loved
since I was sixteen years old, until now--Ross Norval. Keep my secret.
"PERCY HASTINGS."
It was dated four years back.
"Ross, Ross! you know it now! Oh, my love! my love!"
I will attempt no painting of the effect that confession had upon
him. But after a long, long time she whispered, "I will sing the last
verse of your song, dear, which only you shall ever hear." And lying on
his breast, she sang--
"Dear love I thy face above me gleaming
A sunset radiance gives:
Ah, love! thy tones' sweet cadence dying
Sings in my heart and lives.
Clasped, love, close to thy heart, thy birdling
Foldeth her wings in peace--
Trusts, love! feeling nor cold nor shadow,
Finding at last her ease,
From fear a safe release,
Heart's love, with thee."
2.The Victims of Dreams
My friend Bessie Haines had no mother, but her father was such a
very large man that I remember thinking, when I was quite a child, that a kind
Providence had intended to make up her loss in that way. She and I did not live
in the same city, but managed to keep up a lively friendship through the medium
of correspondence and half-yearly visits.
I was a complete orphan, and my uncle, with whom I lived, was her
father's attached friend. She had a very happy home, and I was glad to enjoy it
with her, particularly when my uncle accompanied me, for then her father and he
became absorbed in each other, and left us to our own devices--not very evil
ones, but too childish and trifling to claim the sympathy of such very grave
men as they were.
We had both become tall, womanly girls, but Uncle Pennyman and Mr.
Haines called us children, and treated us as such; and Bessie was just writing
to me about her father's telling her she must begin to think of serious things,
when my uncle remarked to me that the time was approaching when I should
prepare myself to assume the duties and responsibilities of a rational female.
Just as if we had waited to be told this, when in fact Bessie and I had been
consulting about our bonnets and dresses in the most grave and mature manner
for years past, and arranging our future on plans that for variety and
agreeability could not have been surpassed had we been brought up on the Arabian
Nights and Moore's Poems, instead of Baxter's Saint's
Rest and Pollok's Course of Time.
"There are several questions of vital importance that have
been growing daily stronger in my mind," said my uncle Pennyman. "My
friend Thomas Haines has a gift in clearing points and expounding meanings; so
that I feel it to be for my mind's edifying and my soul's profit to go to him
for counsel."
I was delighted to hear this. I wanted to see Bessie, and I
blessed the bond that united these good brothers in Israel and drew us together
so often. Mr. Haines was good at texts, and my uncle was wonderfully expert at
dreams. Mr. Haines was a great dreamer, and my uncle constantly stumbled over
passages needing elucidation. So we lived in harmonious intercourse, and Bessie
and I talked of all our plans and delights while they got themselves entangled
in obscurities with a commentary under each arm.
It would have appeared, from Mr. Haines' dreams, that Bessie's
mother had been a most fussy and bothering lady, though I was told by the
housekeeper, who knew her well, that she was the mildest and most timid of
little wives while living.
According to these visions, she was constantly troubled in her
spiritual state on the greatest variety of small subjects; and my expert uncle,
in expounding her communications, was always able to draw from them strong
religious lessons, and to administer much strengthening comfort to his friend
the dreamer.
"I was hoping papa would soon have a vision," said
Bessie when we were settled together all comfortably, and she had told me how
glad she was to see me again. "Mrs. Tanner said last week that she was
sure he was going to have another, because the spire which he felt he was
directed in his last dream to put on the little chapel was all complete, and
the missionary outfit which he had believed himself called upon to provide was
ready and gone to the South Seas, and he naturally looked for more work. When
he said last week, 'Bessie, I have sent for Brother Pennyman concerning a
visitation in the night,' I was so glad, for, Winnie dear--would you believe
it?--I have been dreaming too, and I want you to tell me if I have read my
dream aright."
Now, this was the most wonderful thing that Bessie Haines could
have told me--the most startling and least to be expected altogether; for if
ever there was a wide-awake girl, it was she.
I suppose my perfectly frank stare said as much, for she blushed a
little, and continued with a very suspicious flutter, which I had learnt, in
the case of young engaged persons I knew, to look on as a bad symptom:
"I do not mean dreaming with my eyes shut, you know, but
having deep, serious thoughts, unlike the gay fancies that have held me captive
all my life."
"Dress trimmings and poetry?" I suggested.
"Yes, yes--all the useless, perishable fancies of thoughtless
youth," she replied.
This sounded more like an Essay on Vanity than Bessie Haines, and
I really was astonished, and had nothing to say for a little while, during
which she, being full of her subject, went on:
"I can scarcely trace the beginning of the--the awakening,
shall I call it?"
"You called it a dream before."
"Yes, dear Winnie, but it is so hard to know how to classify
new emotions, and this is such a peculiar one that it seems nameless. You know
papa feels bound, ever since that water-dream he had, to go down to the
Mariners' Chapel on Sunday afternoon, and I used to read solemn poetry when it
was too warm or too cold to go with him. Well, about two months ago it was
fearfully warm, and papa had come home a fortnight earlier from the shore, on
account of a suspicion he had that he had dreamed something and had forgotten
it as soon as he awoke. This indistinct warning made him think we had better go
home at all events, and home we came the first week in September, to the roasting,
dusty city. But I did not then know that I was perhaps drawn back for a
purpose; and oh, dear Winnie, there may be something in papa's visions, after
all."
"He has had a good many of them," I said.
"So he has," assented Bessie; "and I was inclined
to be impatient at this one, since it brought me home in the heat, and the
house seemed so lonely, because Mrs. Tanner was still in the country with her
married daughter."
"She having received no spectral warning," I hinted.
"Oh dear! no. Mrs. Tanner never dreams: she's opposed to it.
Well, the first Sunday was so warm that I took up Solemn Thoughts in
Verse instead of the Mariners'; and after I had read eight pages, it
really seemed as if I had better have tried the heat out of doors, it was
getting so gloomy within. So I got up and dressed, meaning to walk out and meet
papa, and return with him. I don't know whether it was the Solemn
Thoughts that confused me, or whether I was not paying attention, but
I actually lost my way by turning at the wrong corner, and so came down Barton
street toward a little chapel that I had often noticed before. Two dreadfully
red-faced and short-haired little boys were at the entrance by the small iron
gate. They had disagreed about something, I suppose, just as I came up, and they
instantly began to fight, with the wickedest determination visible in their
freckled little faces. At first, they kicked at each other, and growled out
some awful words without the least sense, but with a great deal of profanity in
them, and then they laid down their little books and tracts, and apparently
tried to pull each other's head off. Of course it made me quite wretched to see
them hurt each other in that shocking way, and so I interfered and tried to
reconcile them, but the naughty little souls must have had a certain amount of
kicking and scratching on hand to dispose of, for they united in bestowing it
all on me the moment I came between them.
"I was just trying to save my dress and lace sacque from
their boots and claws, when a reverend gentleman appeared at the door, and the
bad boys became sneaking cowards at sight of him. I picked up their little
tracts, while he tried to apologize for them; and it was so sad, Winnie, to
think that those dear children had not profited by their lessons: one was
called 'Love One Another,' and the other, 'Be Meek and Lowly.'
"While we were talking a lady joined us, and I went into the
school at their invitation.
"Winnie, do you know anything practical about
Sunday-school?"
"I went to one, and was for years in the class of an elderly
maiden lady who urged us all to learn Scripture and hymns. I was so expert and
high in favor that I could repeat forty verses at a time as glibly as a
parrot."
"But I don't quite mean that sort of thing," said
Bessie. "I mean a real, earnest teaching-place, where children are
gathered in and told all about Christ's love and mercy--where they are softened
and won to better thoughts and kinder actions, and their poor little minds
filled with shining truth, instead of street dirt and abuse."
"I never thought about it before, but such an institution
could not help being a popular one, and a very useful one too," I
confessed.
"Oh, I am so glad, so very glad, that you approve, dear, for
I am engaged in that work; and I did not want to write it to you, for somehow
it seemed so strange for such a thoughtless, silly girl as I have been to
attempt such a serious thing."
"As teaching in a Sunday-school?"
"Yes, in a sort of mission school for little scholars of the
lower classes. Miss Mary Pepper and I have at this time nearly two hundred boys
and girls of all ages, and some of them are very interesting and lovable, while
others are--"
"Like the two gladiators who introduced you to the
scene?"
"Yes. I am afraid there are quite a number of that kind; but,
Winnie, you must like Miss Mary Pepper. Oh, she is one of the most excellent
women I ever knew, so truly, so nobly, so devotedly good. You cannot imagine
what a comfort it is to me to be with her--to feel that I am under her
influence, and may learn from her to be a little like her."
"Miss Mary Pepper?" I repeated: "then she is a
young lady?"
"No--not young: indeed, she is rather elderly."
"An old maid," I remarked, coldly. "She is pretty
and sweet, though faded, I suppose."
"Why, no--not to look at: her nature is beautiful, but her
manner and figure are rather--rather unprepossessing at first."
"A stiff, hard, straight-laced old maid," I said,
contemptuously. "Well, really, I cannot see the fascination--"
Bessie's face flushed painfully: "I confess that dear Miss
Pepper's person is not so beautiful as her nature, but, Winnie, it is the cause
of doing good and trying to be good that draws us together so closely; and of
course I do not love her as I love you, my dear, precious first friend."
These last words were full of balm, for of course it was the sting
of jealousy that had made my heart resent the venerable Pepper's powerful
influence over my dear Bessie. Being once assured that it was a second-rate
power, and that I still held my supremacy, I entered into the Sunday-school
question like a second Raikes, and volunteered to help, and try to learn the
way to the young hearts that beat under the pugilistic exterior of the
juveniles of Canon lane, where the mission chapel was.
Then, having become one on this serious subject, we began to
wonder what Mr. Haines' dream might portend this time, and prepare our minds
for the verse from the prophecies over which dear Uncle Pennyman had made his
latest stumble.
"Mrs. Tanner thinks it was something about a journey, and she
is quite out of sorts on the subject: for, as she says, the house can't be shut
up without worriment, and as to staying in it alone she really has not got the
nerve."
"I do not think that Uncle Pennyman will interpret it that
way, because he cannot go too, as he is at present very deep in the minor
prophets, and has fallen out of humor with all the commentaries."
"I am so glad!" said Bessie, placidly--"so glad, I
mean, that we need not go: I think every one must find his life-work at
home."
I stared a little at this, because I knew that only a few months
before Bessie Haines had wanted very much to find style and fashion abroad; but
I remembered the Sunday-school, and tried to be as serious and convinced as I
could; and to that end I talked a good deal of church interests, and the
prophecies, and Light in Obscurity, a new work which had utterly
confused me at the first chapter, but which I had read through to Uncle
Pennyman one warm July day when he stayed at home to keep Tom's birth-day.
That reminds me: I have not mentioned Tom, but as he was away at
college, and Bessie never seemed to like to talk of him--I'm sure I can't see
why--it is quite natural that he slipped out of my memory.
He was a ward of Uncle Pennyman, who called him his son, and indeed
had adopted him formally.
How two such opposite people ever came to love each other as they
did, I never can explain. It was not a natural, commonplace affection: it was a
strong, deep, earnest love, as firm in the hearts of both as the life that
caused their throbbings.
Tom was wild and full of frolic: if there is a graver word than
gravity, it should be used to describe Uncle Pennyman's demeanor. Tom was quick
and restless by nature, but his good sense and determination to make a niche
for himself in life, and fill it respectably, had toned down his exuberant
spirits into active energy; while Uncle Penny man's naturally slow tendencies
had become aggravated by the ponderous character of his pursuits and tastes:
all hurry was obnoxious to him, and he firmly believed that haste was another
name for sin. Yet the solemn, slow old man loved the busy, merry young one, and
neither saw any fault or failing in the other.
There was no earthly relationship between Thomas Gray Pennyman and
me, and yet I was always spoken of as his sister by my dear, worrying old
uncle. Tom did not seem to like it, and I knew I did not.
People often said to me, "What a splendid brother you have,
Miss Pennyman but what a pity that all these handsome brothers have to be given
up to stronger ties!"
How utterly silly! I never had any patience with such nonsense.
There was not much comfort in talking to Bessie about him. I'm
sure I do not know why, but I suppose she saw that I avoided the subject; so I
was really quite surprised when she said to me, laughing and looking a little
mischievous--
"Mr. Tom is to join us by and by, your uncle says. I hope we
may be able to make it pleasant for him. I believe he likes Mrs. Tanner: he
used to like her buns when he was a boy, and I hope he has not forgotten the
fancy."
Tom coming to visit the Haines! Such a thing had never happened
before, and must mean something now. I began to feel quite uneasy, though I
really could not have explained why.
We never had much of my uncle's or Mr. Haines' society except in
the evening: they spent the day going about together and worrying texts of
Scripture with other good old men, before whom Mr. Haines liked to show off
uncle's Bible knowledge. They took some pious excursions in company, and had a
solemnly festive time, I have no doubt, for they always came in looking
perfectly satisfied with the result of their day.
It generally took some time to hear the dream and find its proper
interpretation. While it was pending the expounder generally gave out his
puzzling verses, and then both pondered a good while before they arrived at
their conclusions and made them known.
Both the dream and the text must have been of an unusually
difficult nature this time, for a whole week went by without either
transpiring; and although Bessie and I watched for some allusions to them in
our morning and evening family worship, at which the two good men officiated
alternately, yet not a hint could we gain until one night at the end of the
week it seemed from Uncle Pennyman's prayer that the matter in some wise
referred to Bessie, since Divine guidance was sought under many rhetorical
forms for the welfare, future and temporal, of "the young handmaiden, the
daughter of thy servant, who would fain know thy will concerning her."
"Bessie," said I that night, when we got up stairs,
"I think I have found out what your father's last dream was: I solemnly
believe that he means to send you out as a missionary."
Now I thought I had said something calculated to make Bessie turn
pale and gasp, but I could scarcely believe it when I looked up, expecting to
find her almost fainting, and saw her pensively, but by no means alarmedly,
shaking her head.
"I am not devoted enough, Winnie, love," she remarked.
"I have not the grand self-abnegating spirit necessary for such a work.
No; mine is a home field."
If I had not known about the young warriors of Canon lane, I
should have thought her demented: as it was, I could scarcely wait for the next
day, which was Sunday, to be introduced to the scene which had already produced
such a marked change in her character and tastes.
It transpired during breakfast that Uncle Pennyman's peace had
been disturbed by a verse in the book of Nahum, that talked about the lions and
lionesses, and their whelps and prey, in what appeared to him a mysterious
manner. Mr. Haines, who was a dear, good man, elaborated it so that we all felt
as if we had made a visit to the Zoological Gardens, and afterward been carried
into Babylonish captivity. My uncle followed his words with a brightening face,
and when they grew particularly mixed and long-syllabled, he would exclaim
softly,
"It is a great gift! a great gift!" and seem really
overcome with the magnitude of his friend's powers.
I never saw any harm in Uncle Pennyman's texts: they never worried
any one but himself; though I must confess that verse about Ephraim being a
cake not turned affected us a little. But that was because he had the ague, and
Mr. Haines was attending some kind of convention; and what with the chills, and
that unexplained cake of Ephraim's, we were kept a little uncomfortable for a
time.
But Mr. Haines' visions were perplexing: no one could tell where
their signification might point; and this sending for Tom (of course he would
never have thought of coming if he had not been sent for) made me quite uneasy.
I began to fear that this would be the first time I had ever gone
to see Bessie without enjoying the visit; and as we walked along to Canon Lane
Chapel together, her manner was so absent and fluttered that I really did not
know what to do.
"It is a delightful and meritorious thing to be pious, no
doubt," I said to myself, "but it has not improved the manner of my
dear Bessie: on the contrary, I should say it has entirely shaken her nerves,
and given her palpitation of the heart."
When we reached the chapel we found quite a number and variety of
youths already collected around the door, and when we went into a large and
airy room, well lighted and filled with seats, a goodly selection awaited us
there.
A lady stood on a small platform with a bell in her hand: she had
a large, bony figure, and a long, bony face, and turned her eyes toward us
without changing their expression into any beam of recognition, as she used her
voice without any softening tone or tender cadence whatever:
"Miss Haines, good-afternoon. Mary Bryan, where's your
brother? John Mott, you have dropped your tract. Miss Pennyman, glad to see
you. Sarah Harper, give your sister a seat."
Bessie had pushed me on her attention between the monotonous
sentences she jerked out at her scholars, and she gave me five words just like
the rest, and dropped me off again.
Bessie seemed to become calmer after she had looked around the
room once in a hasty, fluttered way, and placing a chair for me, she threw
herself energetically into her philanthropic work.
I never knew before what a serious thing it was to be a
Sunday-school teacher, or how varied the requirements for such duty were.
Thirst seemed to be a prevailing agony among the scholars, and it seized its
victims as an epidemic does--without warning. They would just reach their seats
and drop into them listlessly, or gain them by energetic contest with some
previous intruder, and after an empty stare around them would be taken with a
sudden pang, expressed in writhing, shaking the right hand wildly and gasping,
"Teacher, I want a drink! I want a drink!"
Then they were subject to a terrible vacillation on the subject of
their hats: they would almost consign them to the care of a monitor appointed
to hang them on the pegs made and provided, when a sense of their preciousness
would suddenly present itself to their minds, and they would rescue them
wildly, and throw themselves on the defensive while they sat upon or otherwise
protected the contested article of dress.
There were six windows with broad sills in the room, and every
child seemed beset with a passionate desire to leave its seat and lodge itself
in a surreptitious manner on one of these perches, as if they had been posts of
honor.
Whether bits of bright tin, glass bottle-stoppers, ends of twine,
broken sticks and marbles were accessions to biblical instruction, or were only
so considered by the pupils themselves, did not transpire, but poor Bessie
seemed to find them stumbling-blocks in her path, and Miss Pepper had no sooner
confiscated one lot than another appeared in circulation and broke the story of
Joseph's coat into a parenthetical narrative:
"Israel loved Joseph so much that as a particular proof of
his parental regard (James Moore, stop putting that stick in your brother's
eye) he prepared a variegated garment known as a 'coat of many colors.' (John
Mink, take that marble out of your throat, or you'll swallow it.) The bestowal
of this beautiful gift (Mary Dunn, put your ticket away, and, Sally Harris, let
her hair alone) awakened feelings akin to envy and bitterness in (Jane Sloper
must not borrow her cousin's bonnet in Sunday-school) the bosoms of his
perverted brethren. (Hugh Fraley will leave those strings at home, and, William
Grove, stop climbing over the bench.) Alas! what sorrow can evil and
disobedient sons, too little conscious (Dicky Taylor, bring that insect to me)
of the sacrifices and prayerful struggles of their venerable parents (no,
Henry, not another drink), call down upon their already care-burdened
minds!"
Of course I felt sure that Miss Pepper was in earnest and meant to
do good, but I suspected that she had not what my uncle called "a
gift" with children, and I saw how much harder it made it for Bessie, who
really was a natural teacher, and who contrived to rule with a steady but
gracious firmness, and to win with a sweet simplicity that explained itself to
the minds of little ones.
I wondered not a little at her infatuation on the Pepper question
when I saw how contrary their ways and influence were. There were plenty of
nice, interesting little girls among the two hundred, and some very
well-behaved boys too; but Bessie set herself to win the unruly, and it was a
lesson to thoughtless me to see her do it. One terrible little soul, with a
thin, wiry body and tight-cropped head, fell into a conflict with a square-set,
hard-faced boy, and they rolled under the seats together just as Miss Pepper
had succeeded in raising the ill-used Joseph out of the pit with words of three
syllables. Bessie went to the rescue, and separated and inverted the
combatants, only the soles of whose boots had been visible a moment before. She
sat down with them, and although I could not hear her words, I saw that they
were slowly smoothing the angry creases of both the thin and the square face.
"Then let him stop a-callin' me 'Skinny,'" was the last
outbreak of the injured lean one, and his antagonist confessed--
"I won't say nothin' to you no more if you stop grinning
'Flathead' at me."
Before Miss Pepper had succeeded in describing the paraphernalia
of Eastern travel and the approach of the Ishmaelites, the two were induced to
shake hands silently across their gentle mediatrix, whose face suddenly grew
radiant with the sweetest blush I ever saw as the door opened and a new feature
was added to the scene.
I do not mean to detract from the good impulses or high motives of
my dear girl when I say that this was the key that opened the subject to me,
and made it bright and plain. It wore the form of a truly good and good-looking
young gentleman, who had just enough of the clergyman in his appearance to show
that he honored his holy calling above all things. He gave Bessie a glance that
set my heart at rest--for I naturally felt anxious that the blush and
brightness and other signs should not be thrown away on an unappreciative
object--and then he went right into his work. Oh dear! what a difference! One
could not imagine, without seeing for one's self, what a beautiful sympathy
could do with material that a hard, dry purpose could only irritate. Of course
he bowed to me, and met Miss Pepper like an old friend, and then he began, and
in beginning caught every single wandering mind, and held it with that
mysterious fascination which individualizes, and convinces each one that he is
the particular soul addressed.
He had been spending the hour of his absence from us in the
chamber of a little fellow, one of our number, who had been terribly hurt by
the machinery of a factory in which he worked. He took every one of us there
with him, awakening our liveliest interest, and making us anxious to be helpful
to every suffering fellow-creature. Some of us had to cry a little at the kind
remembrances the poor crushed child sent us, and we felt quite self-reproachful
that we had not thought more of him, and been quieter and more orderly in every
way. Then, without any dry, hard preaching, he planted that lesson, left it to
take root without digging it up again with personal exhortation, and told us
something else. Surely no one could have better divined just what we wanted to
know, and just how we would have liked it related. Love first of all; then
cheerfulness, simplicity, and a strong, earnest enthusiasm that made attention
compulsory and the attraction irresistible.
I do not believe I ever felt better satisfied in my life than when
he closed and the orderly dismission began: then he turned to Bessie, and I saw
that my friend had found the mission of heart-and soul-work, and was being
drawn heavenward by the hand she loved. Such a timid tenderness as pervaded his
every look and word! such a sweet consciousness as lighted hers! I laughed at
my folly about Tom, and felt that I should be delighted to see him at Haines',
and introduce him to the dear, good clergyman whom Bessie had the good sense to
appreciate.
The Rev. Charles Pepper was the nephew of Miss Mary. I soon
changed my prejudiced opinion of that lady into a clearer view of her merits.
She was the Paul that planted: being a woman of wealth and strong religious
bias, she had built the mission chapel, gathered together the children and
taught them, while her good nephew added the superintendence of the school to
his church duties in a different quarter.
"Bessie, does your father know--?" I began as we went
homeward together.
She interrupted me: "About Miss Pepper? Oh yes, indeed! She
called to ask his permission for me to teach them, and has been at our house
twice since.
"You know I don't mean her at all," I said, laughing.
"I mean her nephew, Bessie Haines."
But Bessie faltered: she had not the courage to speak freely,
since it was evident they had not spoken so to each other yet. She knew she
loved and was beloved, but could not force the delicate secret into words,
since it was yet unavowed between them.
"All I am afraid of, Bess," said I, determined to make
her practical, for she was as ethereal as if she and her love meant to live in
the clouds all their days--"all I am afraid of is, that your father's
vision may threaten your peace; for, rely on it, Bess, it is about you and you
alone, or why should uncle keep praying for you as a 'young damsel,' and
'handmaiden,' and 'female pilgrim,' and all that?"
Bessie seemed troubled, but she could not be brought to confidence
until the minister had opened his heart to her. I saw that, and though I had never
had a warning dream in my life, I felt it was my mission to help her.
The Rev. Charles and I had had a little, a very little, talk, but
I saw that Bessie had named me to him--that pleased me; that he was very
desirous of gaining my good-will--that pleased me too. So I had happened to say
that I admired church architecture, particularly Gothic: some one had said that
his church belonged to that style, and he immediately, offered to take us to
examine it. I asked him to call for us next day, and he delightedly promised
that he would.
I told Bessie, and the ungrateful creature was alarmed and
nervous, and gave way to all sorts of nonsense; but I consoled her and admired
him in a way that seemed to give her satisfaction. The next morning I made a
startling discovery. I went into the little bookroom that opened out of the
great old-fashioned back parlor, where uncle and Mr. Haines sat every morning
with Scott and Clarke and Cruden open before them: I went in very quietly, and
didn't make much noise when there. Mr. Haines was talking in a slow, set way,
and I could hear the scratching of a pen over stiff paper.
"Would you mention my reasons for recording this, my dear
Daniel?" he said to Uncle Pennyman.
"I have set them down at the commencement," said my
uncle, who was acting as scribe. "I have said that, your mind being clear
and your feelings at ease, you retired to your couch on the night of the 28th
of October; that the form of your dear wife seemed waiting for you, since you
became conscious of her presence immediately after your sinking asleep; and so
on."
"Yes," said Mr. Haines, witty a deep sigh: "it is a
great thing, no doubt, to be so guided in the visions of the night, and I have
many times considered myself greatly favored by the knowledge of the ministry
of my dear wife's blessed spirit; but, friend Daniel, if she had been a little
more explicit in this instance it would have been a great comfort to me. Follow
me now, friend Daniel. You have got it down to where she spoke. Well, she
raised her hand and seemed to point to the couch of Dorcas Elizabeth"
(that was what Bess had been baptized, and was called by her father on solemn
occasions)--"my thoughts had been dwelling on the child, and her
increasing age and future duties--and she said, 'Marry her wisely to Thomas,'
and repeated the words three times."
I heard the scratching pen and Mr. Haines' depressed, uncertain
sigh, and my own heart sank heavily. There was no Thomas to marry her to but
our Tom, and such a thing was simply preposterous and wicked. I could not, I
would not, bear even to think of it.
Oh, good Mrs. Haines, departed so long ago! why should you come
back troubling us about such, things? and, above all, why could you not as well
have said Charles as Thomas?
"I have that set down," said Uncle Pennyman. Mr. Haines
sighed again in that anxious, uncertain way of his:
"During the first day after the visitation, Daniel, I could
not recall whether my wife's appearance said, 'To Thomas, marry her wisely,' or
as we now put it down; but since you have set it clearly before me, and your
son will so soon be here, I feel that I am justified in having it stated in
that way, and that Providence is guiding me."
Oh how my heart rose against Uncle Pennyman as I listened! He was
the one to blame for such a shameful, foolish notion stealing into Mr. Haines'
head! Left to himself, any name would have suited him equally well, and here
was Tom's thrust in without any earthly reason. It was really dreadful! I could
scarcely stand on my feet when I remembered how Tom loved his adopted father,
and with what unselfish devotion he always spoke of him. "If he's told
that it will be a family blessing, he never will have the heart to deny them
and grieve Uncle Pennyman. Poor Tom! he is so shockingly unselfish himself that
he would rather enjoy a sacrifice than otherwise, I suppose." So ran my
thoughts, and I grew desperate. Desperation awakens courage. Tom would be there
in the evening, and if anything could be done it had to be done at once.
I slipped out silently as I came: no one heard me. I did not mean
that they should do so, for, to confess the truth, I was listening on purpose.
I dressed to go out with Mr. Pepper; so did Bessie, though I must say she was
very nervous and uncertain about it. "You know papa does not know him
in--in the character of a friend of mine," she said, hesitatingly.
"Miss Pepper introduced him, and that is all."
"But that is no reason why it should be all," I said to
myself, and paid no attention to her little bashful fussiness.
When he arrived, I saw in his eyes that he meant to take advantage
of the opportunity I was making for him, and so I boldly carried out my plan.
We started, and had gone a block or two when I discovered that they were
becoming unaware of my existence and completely absorbed in each other.
"Poor dears!" I thought, "let them have a still better
chance." So I stopped in the most natural way possible at a window where
trimmings were displayed, and began to stare at some ribbon. "The very
shade!" I said: "I would not miss it for anything. Pray go on slowly,
and I'll join you presently. Keep on till you reach the church--I know the way.
And be sure you stay till I come. No, you shall not come in: I insist that you
go right on, and do not bother. I have a sort of pride in making bargains, and
they never can be made in company, you know." I laughed and wouldn't
listen to their waiting, and managed it so well that they went away as
unsuspecting and tender as two lambs. I waited till they were out of sight, and
then I started straight for home.
I was in high glee till Mrs. Tanner came up stairs.
"There are great preparations making for Mr. Tom," said
she with a portentous face. "Mr. Haines has given more orders about his
reception than I ever knew him to issue before; and, what seems strange, he
actually insists on my calling him Mr. Thomas, when I never can get my tongue
round anything but Mr. Tom, in the world."
Both seemed threatening--the preparations and the name; and when
Mrs. Tanner asked where Miss Bessie was, and heard that she had gone out, she
shook her head and said that she was afraid her pa wouldn't like it. This
convinced me that she too had guessed the nature of the vision, and made me
more than ever anxious to save poor Bessie and Tom from mutual unhappiness. The
first effort was made, and I must consider the next step. I felt nearly sure
that by this time the two dear Sunday-school workers had become personal in
their conversation, and taking up my position on the broad sofa in the quiet,
shady back parlor, I set myself to thinking out the plan. It was a great,
solidly-furnished old room, staid and handsome like the rest of the house, and
meant for comfort in every particular. Over the mantelpiece, and directly
opposite to me, was a life-size picture of Mrs. Haines, a very young lady with
a mild shyness of expression and a great deal of flaxen hair. She had died when
Bessie was a baby, and was altogether a more childlike and undecided person
than her daughter. The wonder therefore was that she should have become so
dictatorial in the visions of the night, and undertaken to control the family
affairs after so many years, never having meddled with them while there was a
living opportunity.
I was just thinking how useless it would be to appeal to Uncle
Pennyman without--without saying something about Tom (and that under the
circumstances could not be thought of: it made me burn all over merely to have
it in my mind for a moment), when I became drowsy, and had not time to question
the feeling until I was sound asleep.
A murmur of voices roused me, or perhaps I was going to wake at
any rate, for they were singularly low, and the speakers quite unconscious of
my presence. I looked up, and in the faint light coming between the bowed
shutters and lace curtains I saw the Rev. Charles and Bessie directly under the
portrait of Mrs. Haines. He had thrown his arm around her, and, although she
struggled just a little in the embrace, held her to his heart.
"Oh, I cannot believe it," she was saying: "it is
like a dream. And Winnie too!--to forget all about dear Winnie just because I
am so happy. It is selfish and unkind, dear, I am afraid."
He told her I was too good, too lovable to quarrel with their
bliss, and held her to his heart while he looked up to the flaxed-haired,
baby-faced mother for a blessing with quite a glow of feeling on his face and
real tears in his eyes.
There was something in mine I suppose, for when I looked too I
could scarcely believe them: the portrait seemed to show a different face
entirely. The blue eyes bent down on those upturned to meet them with a look I
had never beheld in them before, and the delicate little pink mouth seemed to
tremble with a blessing.
"Am I dreaming?" I almost asked it aloud, and the
question and the sound of Uncle Pennyman's voice in the book-room gave me a new
idea. Softly I slipped from my place and out at the open door, leaving the
absorbed ones to themselves, and joined my uncle and Mr. Haines where they were
preparing for another conflict with the commentators.
"I have had a dream," I said solemnly.
"A dream!" repeated they.
"Yes, and it was so lifelike that I must tell it to you, for
I am convinced it is no common warning, but one full of meaning and
truth."
They gazed at me blankly, and I went on, fearing to stop an
instant lest I should lose my courage:
"I was lying on the sofa opposite Mrs. Haines'
portrait--"
"The very place where I lay when last I dreamed,"
murmured her husband.
"And I saw Bessie and a gentleman hand in hand beneath it,
looking up into the sweet face for a blessing; and oh such a heavenly smile
lighted it while the beautiful lips seemed to murmur, 'She will marry wisely,
dear Thomas!'"
Mr. Haines was so shaken by my words that my heart misgave me. He
covered his face with his hands. "She used to call me dear Thomas," he
said, and the tears ran through his fingers.
"Then the name was yours" said Uncle
Pennyman with weighty consideration. "You remember I said it was capable
of a double application: those things are wonderful, and interpret each other.
Winnie, my dear girl, could you distinguish this person's face?"
Before I could answer, Mrs. Tanner at the door said, "Here's
Mr. Tom, bless his heart! I never can learn to call him anything else."
Tom was so glad to see me! Yes, I may as well
tell it, for it told itself: dear Tom never seemed so glad before.
"Was it his face, Winnie?" whispered Mr. Haines.
If ever No was said with energy and decision, it
was in my reply. The parlor door opened just as we were about to go in all
together, shaking hands and making kind speeches over Tom, and Bessie and the
Rev. Charles appeared in the act of taking leave of each other.
"That's the face!" I cried dramatically; and then I
really and truly did faint--stone dead, as Mrs. Tanner said afterward--for I
was not used to telling lies, and even white ones were exciting things to tell,
and scarcely justified themselves to my conscience by the magnitude of the good
they were to do.
When I came to myself, Bessie was hanging over me with all the
love she had left from Mr. Charles, I suppose; and I heard Mr. Haines and Uncle
Pennyman talking with Tom, and trying to explain to him the remarkable nature
of the vision that had overcome me. I sat up, and tried to laugh and declare
that it was nothing at all, though my heart kept throbbing.
"You have all had dreams," said Tom: "you have yet
to hear mine. Uncle, I dreamed that Winnie and I loved each other, and that I
asked you for her and you said yes."
"No, Thomas," said Uncle Pennyman gravely, but with a
kind of breaking about his mouth: "your eyes were open when you had that
vision, and you must not jest with serious subjects. But it is well you
mentioned it, dear boy, and it is well our child Winnie received such a
remarkable direction, since it throws light on friend Haines' visitation, and
apparently the happiness of that excellent young minister and our dear Bessie
here."
"The young man has just expressed himself in corroboration of
the vision," said Mr. Haines, much affected.
Bessie threw her arms round her father, then round me, and then
she ran away. Mr. Haines and Uncle Pennyman went out to their commentaries,
Mrs. Tanner to see to her buns: Tom and I were alone.
"What is this about, Winnie darling?" he said.
"Tom," said I, "we are all the victims of
dreams."
3.The Cold Hand
There is a rocky hill in what was till recently the town of
Dorchester, looking out over Boston Bay. It takes its name from the stiff black
savins with which it is covered, and which contrive to find nourishment and
support in the rock to which they cling. Some of these trees show their great
age by their gnarled and knotted trunks and boughs. Black and impassive they
stand, alike in the brightest summer or the grayest winter, sighing restlessly
in the breeze, but wailing piteously when the sea-winds sweep over the hill.
Partway up the little rocky eminence stands an old house, now fast falling to
pieces. It is a low building, with a gambrel roof and a huge chimney. It has
stood there many years, for it was built not long after the Revolution, and it
might have stood many years more had it not been suffered to go to decay with a
carelessness which seemed to belie the general thrift of the town.
Wandering over the hill one bright winter day, with no companion
but a large dog, I stopped to look in at the window of the old house. The glass
was gone from the sash, and the sash itself was broken in many places; but the
obscurity was so deep within that I obtained only a partial glimpse of an
interior which to my fancy had a peculiarly deserted and eerie look. I felt a
desire to explore the place, attracted rather than repelled by its forlorn look
of falling age; for I came from a part of the country where the most ancient
relic dates back only forty years, and the aspect of everything old and quaint
in the place had a charm for me which I suspect it offers to few of the
natives. The front door was locked, but I obtained an entrance without
difficulty at the back, and made my way through a little shed, which was
evidently of more modern construction than the main part of the building. I
came first into the kitchen, where was a large fireplace blackened with the
smoke of long-dead fires, and a narrow, high mantelpiece. A little cupboard was
let into the side of the great chimney, which projected far across the floor.
The room was long and narrow, running the whole length of the house, with a
window at each end. The blackened plaster was dropping from the walls and
ceiling, exposing in some places the heavy beams, and the floor was dark and
discolored with age and dust, although quite firm to the tread. By a low door I
passed into a small room lighted by two windows--one in front, the other at the
end of the house, and presenting the same appearance of desolate decay. There
were four doors in this room--the one through which I had just entered, another
leading to the rooms above, a third, secured by a bolt, which I did not then
open, and a fourth leading into a narrow passage, in which was the locked front
door. I crossed this passage, and found myself in a room of the same size as
the one I had just left. It was that into which I had attempted to look from
the outside. Here I missed the dog, who had hitherto followed me, though with
seeming reluctance, and no persuasion could induce him to cross the threshold.
This room was in rather better repair than were the other two. There was the
same high mantelpiece, rather less narrow, and the same little cupboard let
into the massive chimney. The floor was less discolored, but there was a deep
burnt spot on it near the fireplace, as if some one had dropped a shovelful of
hot coals, or rather as if some corrosive fluid had been spilled. I remained
here a few moments, idly wondering what might have been the history of the
former tenants, and what could have induced any one to build a house in a spot
so bleak and exposed, where scarcely a pretence of soil offered itself for a
garden. As I stood there, a singular impression came upon me that I was not
alone. For a moment, and a moment only, I became conscious of another presence
in the room. The impression passed as suddenly as it had come, but, transient
as it was, it awoke me from my reverie. Smiling at myself for the fancy, I
recrossed the passage and ascended the steep, narrow winding stairs to the
chambers above. There were four small rooms, opening one into the other, with a
closet partitioned off in each, and so low that in the highest part a tall man
could but just have stood upright. Here the ruin was farther advanced. The
floor creaked under my foot, the plaster had nearly all fallen from the ceiling
and was peeling from the walls, while deep stains on the remaining portion
showed that the rain and thawing snow had made their way through the roof. The
place had a lonesome, forlorn look, even more than usually belongs to a
deserted house, though such might not have been its aspect to other than my
unaccustomed Western eyes.
Turning, I made my way down the short staircase, and was about to
leave the house when the third door, as yet unopened, caught my eye. I drew
with some difficulty the rusted bolt, and found myself at the head of a steep
flight of stairs, seemingly longer than that which I had just descended. It led
to the cellar, and though the afternoon was getting on, I thought I would
finish my exploration, and therefore went down, though repelled by the close
and peculiarly damp air. The cellar was blasted and hewn in the solid rock to a
depth which, considering the extreme hardness of the stone, seemed remarkable
in a house so unpretending. A dim light made its way through a narrow window at
each end and fell upon the stone floor. I walked forward, looking up at the
windows, but I had not taken ten steps before I recoiled with a start. At my
feet lay a pit, seemingly of considerable depth, and filled with water to
within four feet of the top. The cellar did not lie under the kitchen, but only
under the two front rooms and the passage, and this pit occupied the whole
length and fully half the breadth of the space of the rooms above, and, what
was more peculiar, seemed to extend even farther forward than the house itself.
Another step, and I should have fallen into it. Curious to try its depth, I
picked up a little fragment of stone and dropped it in. As the stone touched
the water, and the circles on the sullen surface began to widen, a current of
air rushed down the stairs, and the door above shut violently. At that moment
the impression which I had experienced in the room above came back upon me with
tenfold distinctness, and was accompanied with a feeling of exceeding horror.
It seemed as if there was closing around me some evil influence, from which I
could only escape by instant flight. For one moment I resisted the unreasonable
terror, and made an attempt to explain, or at least analyze, a sensation so
unwonted: the next, the loathing dread grew too strong. I turned and hurried
across the damp floor, up the narrow stairs, and, opening the door, made my way
as quickly as possible into the outside air. The dog was waiting for me in the
little shed, and seemed delighted at seeing me again. I closed the door,
ashamed of my senseless fright, but nevertheless I was thankful that I had
found no trouble in getting out. I am not quite prepared to say, however, that
these sudden and apparently unreasonable starts are independent of external causes.
The Vermont-bred horse will be thrown into an agony of fright when the closed
cage of a lion passes by, though he has never learned by experience that lions
will kill horses, and though the lion himself is unseen.
I walked briskly home. I had some distance to go, and had quite
lost the impression of my ghostly terror when I reached the house where I was
staying, a modern shingle Gothic erection, which in vain endeavored to disguise
its barny appearance with sundry wooden adornments modeled after crochet-work.
"Freda," said I to my friend after tea, when she and I
were sitting comfortably by the fire in the library, "do you know anything
about the old yellow-gray house up on the hill?"
"Why, what of it?"
"Nothing, only I went into it to-day. What is its
history?"
"Nothing particular. It was built for a Doctor Haywood. Have
you read Alp's last essay on the Semi-occasional?"
"Yes, and great stuff it is."
Freda looked inexpressibly shocked. I had better have condemned
law and gospel together than made light of Alp; but she put up with it,
probably considering it excusable as the utterance of a savage from the wilds
of New York.
"Never mind him now. He shall proclaim his figs in the name
of the Prophet for all time if you will tell me about the old house. I know it
has a story."
She rose and took from the drawer an old manuscript volume, which
she placed in my hands. It was a little note-book, in which the entries were
made not from day to day, but at irregular intervals, in a singularly clear,
precise hand:
"Nov. 3, 1784. This day my neighbor Ball's cow,
getting out of the pasture and running on the highway, was put in the pound.
Took her out, and cautioned my neighbor to have more care of the
creature. Mem.: To bespeak a pair of shoes for her eldest
girl.
"Jan. 1, 1785. This day the wind very high.
"Jan. 10. Neighbor Ball's cow, getting among my
wife's rosebushes, did do some damage, whereat she was much vexed. Caught the
said cow, and begged my neighbor to keep her at home, which she promised to do,
but in an hour back again. However, she is a widow.
"Jan. 13. Doctor Haywood, newly come to this
place from the old country, has taken lodging with Neighbor Ball. Said to be a
learned man--has much baggage, and they say some curious machines. Is curious
about plants and the like. Neighbor Ball did hint to my wife that he knew about
matters better let alone, whereat my wife did tell her that she wished he would
give her a charm to keep her cow out of our yard.
"Jan. 15. Dr. Haywood has bought a lot on the
hill, and is to build upon it. Has spoken to me about it. Have drawn the plan,
and shall make the estimate.
"Feb. 1. Doctor Haywood hurries on the work--says
he is in haste to get into his own house. Saw Indian Will to-day, quite drunk.
With much trouble got him to our house, where my wife did let him lie in the
kitchen all night. Had she not done so, the poor man might have frozen to death
before morning, for it was a very cold night. Argued with him in the morning,
whereat he promised amendment.
"Feb. 10. My daughter Faithful this day, with my
consent, promised herself to John Clark, skipper of the Federalist schooner.
"Feb. 18. Blasting out the cellar for Haywood's
house. He wants it more than common deep--says it makes the house warm.
"Feb. 21. Came this day upon a great hollow in
the rock filled with water, which ran in as soon as pumped but. The doctor much
displeased at first--talked of beginning over again, but finally contented
himself.
"June 3. Doctor Haywood moved into his house this
day. Has much curious stuff. The minister says he is a chemist.
"June 8. Went up to the doctor's house to settle
with him. He came to the door and said he was too busy then, but would drop
round soon. They say he lets no one inside the place since he moved. Has taken
a pew in the meeting-house, and comes once of a Sabbath. "July 22.
Doctor Haywood and me did settle accounts. He beat everything down to the last
penny--offered to pay part in attendance on my family if sick. Did not care to
settle that way, knowing his charges. Charged James Sumner five dollars for one
visit to his child, which child, nevertheless, he did greatly help.
"August 18. News came this day that the
Federalist went down in the gale of the tenth, off Marblehead, with all on
board. A sore affliction to my daughter Faithful. The Lord's will be done!
"August 26. Neighbor Ball's eldest girl gets
lower. Doctor Cray does no good. She would call in Doctor Haywood if she dared,
but his charges are so high. James Sumner and me did consult together and agree
to take the charges between us. I have heard say that he has helped several
poor people free: did especially help Indian Will when he lay like to die of
pleurisy at Neponset Village.
"Sept. 1. Neighbor Ball, going up the hill last
night to call Doctor Haywood to her daughter Hepsey, did tell my wife that she
had a look into the south room as he opened the door, and that there were queer
things there, such as a brick furnace, all red with fire; and she did say, too,
that she saw things like snakes, only thin like mist, twisting about in the air
by the firelight, which I do hold to be her own invention or mere foolish
notions.
"Sept. 2. Doctor Haywood has helped Hepsey Ball
some considerable, though he says he cannot cure her, for she has consumption.
"Sept. 16. Doctor Haywood told James Sumner and
me that he would ask nothing for attending Hepsey Ball, but would keep on to
ease her what he could as long as she lived. He told my wife she might last a
year.
"Nov. 3. Jonathan Phelps told me that Doctor
Haywood had borrowed one hundred dollars of him, giving security on the house
and lot.
"Nov. 8. James Sumner this day, his wife being
dead a year, did ask my daughter Sophonisba to marry him, the which she did
refuse, and snapped him off too short. Then he spoke to Faithful, and she burst
out crying and ran up stairs, and could by no means be got to listen.
Recommended James to Hannah Gardner.
"Nov. 16. Doctor Hay wood this day borrowed fifty
dollars of me. If he had not been so considerate to Widow Ball should not have
felt like letting it go.
"Dec. 16. Coming home from Boston last night,
overtook Indian Will. He showed me a big iron tobacco-box nearly full of
money--silver, with two gold-pieces, one a Spanish piece, the other an English
half guinea. He got it for a lot of deer-skins in Boston. Begged him not to
drink it all up, which he said he would not do, but would give it to his squaw.
Did ask him to come home with me, which he refused, as he meant to go on to
Neponset Village.
"Dec. 17. The wind blowing these two days to the
land made it very high water, coming nearly up to Governor Stoughton's elm, and
covering the road.
"Dec. 18. A great gale last night--much damage at
sea, doubtless. The water very high.
"Dec. 19. Two men out in a boat found an old hat
and blanket floating by the Point, said to belong to Indian Will: no one has
seen him since the 16th. Likely he went to the tavern and got drunk, so missed
his way and was drowned by the tide.
"Dec. 20, Last night Indian Will's body came
ashore, much beaten by the rocks, but known to be his by those who knew him.
The verdict was, 'Drowned by the tide.'
"Feb. 11, 1786. Doctor Haywood spent the evening
at our house. He has been more social of late, going a good deal among people,
especially poor people, to help them. Has never paid me the fifty dollars, but
makes promises. I was led on to speak of Indian Will. The doctor said the night
of the 16th he thought he heard some one cry out, but thought it some drunken
person, and besides was busy with his studies, and so did not mind. My wife
asked him what he studied. He said a good many different matters, but that he
had given it all up now, and meant to practice. Shortly after jumped up and
went away very sudden."
Here the journal came to an abrupt end. The rest of the book was
filled with accounts relating to the business of a milliner and dressmaker.
Slipped in between its leaves were two letters, written in a cramped, scratchy
hand and rather irregular in spelling. They were directed to Sophonisba T----,
Salem, Massachusetts, and seemed to be from a mother to her daughter:
"DORCHESTER, May 1, 1786.
"My Dear Child: I take my pen in hand to let you knew that we
are all in good health, and hope you are enjoying the same blessing. James
Sumner is married to Hannah Gardner. Most people think she will have her hands
full with his children. Parson H---- married them. She wore a blue silk at two
dollars the yard. Hepsey Ball is dead. She departed this life on the 29th of
April, at half-past eight in the evening, being quite resigned and in good hope
of her election to grace. She had not much pain at the last. Doctor Haywood
called to see her in the morning, and she being then, as we thought, asleep,
did start up and cry out that there was a black shadow, not his own, always
following after him, which made me think her light-headed; but her mother says
the doctor turned as pale as a sheet, and made as if to go off again. Your
sister Faithful is at Mr. Trueman's, helping to make up Lorenda's
wedding-clothes. I would not have had her go, but she seemed willing to
undertake it. Your loving mother, ANNA T----."
The second was also addressed to Sophonisba, who on the 3d of June
was yet visiting friends in Salem. After a few details of domestic news, it
went on:
"Doctor Haywood is missing: no one knows where he is gone. He
has been looked for in Boston, but they have found no news of him; only that a
little black boy says he saw a man like him go on board a ship bound for the
East Indies. Now he is gone, they find he owes money to a great many besides
your father. He owes to people in Boston for drugs and medicines--some, it is
said, very costly, and sent for express to the old country. Mr. Sewell, the
bookseller there, says he tried to dispose of his books to him; and when he did
not buy them, thinks he sent them to the old country. He owes every one he
could get to trust him. It is odd what he did with all the money. It is thought
Jonathan Phelps will get the house. They went up to it and found the door
unlocked. They found nothing in the house but the furniture, and that very
common and cheap. There were none of all those things they said he had; only in
the south room a lot of bottles and jars, and a brick place built up with a
vent outside, which Parson H---- says is a furnace such as folks use that study
chemistry. There was a great heap of ashes in the fireplace, as if he had
burned papers or books there, and a great burned spot on the floor right before
it."
"Who was the writer of these?" I asked as I refolded the
little old letter, "and what became of Doctor Haywood? Was nothing more
heard?"
In answer to these questions my friend gave the following
narration.
The writer of the journal was my great uncle, Silas T----.
Sophonisba and Faithful were my mother's cousins. Both were much older than
she, but I have often seen Faithful when I was a girl, and I had all the story
there is from herself. The little house on the hill fell into the hands of the
chief creditor, who took down the furnace in the south room and offered the
place to rent, but no tenant ever remained there long, either because of the
bleak situation or the want of a garden. There were rumors that the place was
not quite canny. One woman, indeed, went so far as to declare that she had seen
the doctor's figure, dim and unsubstantial, standing before the fireplace in
the twilight, and that once, as she came up the cellar stairs, something
followed her and laid a cold hand on her shoulder; but as she was a nervous,
hysterical person, and moreover was known to be somewhat given to exaggeration,
no one paid much attention to her tale.
It was certain, however, that there was a great deal of sickness
in the house. One family who rented the place lost three children by fever in
one summer, and it was remarkable that all three seemed to fall under the same
delusion, and insisted that something or some one, coming behind them, laid
upon their shoulders a cold hand. One of them, toward the last, said that a
shadow kept moving to and fro in the room, and kept the sunshine all away. The
woman who had seen the vision of the old doctor became a widow the next month,
and so much sickness and death took place in the house that at last no one
would live there, and it was shut up by its owner.
In due course of time the father and mother of Sophonisba and Faithful
were laid in Dorchester burial-ground. Mr. T---- had never been a rich man by
any means, and when he died there was little left for the two girls, even after
the sale of the homestead. They did not, however, consider themselves poor, but
with their fifteen hundred dollars in the bank and their trade of milliner and
dressmaker thought themselves very well to do in the world. Sophonisba, the
elder, was at that time a little under fifty--an energetic, hard-working woman,
with a constitution of wrought iron and bend leather, and no more under the
influence of what are called "nerves" than if they had been left out
of her system entirely. If ever a woman was born into this world an old maid,
it was Sophonisba T----. Her fine name was the only romantic thing about her.
She had had more than one offer of marriage in her day, but she had no talent
for matrimony, and had turned such a very cold shoulder on her admirers that
the swains became dispirited, and betook themselves to the courtship of more
impressible damsels. There was no hidden romance or tale of unreturned
affection in Miss Sophonisba's experience. The simple fact was, she had never
wished to be married. Miss Faithful was five years her sister's junior. She had
never found room in her heart for a second love since John Clark went down in
the Federalist. She had been a young and pretty girl then, and now she was a
thin, silent, rather nervous little body, depending entirely upon her sister
with a helpless kind of affection that was returned on Miss Sophonisba's part
by a devotion which might almost be called passionate.
"I tell you what it is, Faithful," said Miss Sophonisba
one evening, as they sat over their tea, "if they raise the rent on us
here, I won't stay."
The sisters had lived in the house ever since the death of their
mother, five years before. Their business had prospered, and they were
conveniently situated, but, for all that, Miss Sophonisba had no mind to pay
additional rent.
"No?" said Faithful, inquiringly.
"That I won't! We pay all it's worth now, and more too. It
ain't the extra four shillings," said Miss Sophonisba, rubbing her
spectacles in irritation, "but I do hate to be imposed upon."
"It will be some trouble to find a new place," suggested
Miss Faithful meekly, "and we can afford it, I suppose."
"I don't care if we can afford it a dozen times over,"
said her sister, with increased decision. "I won't be imposed upon. If
I've got either to drive or be driven, I'd rather drive."
"Of course," said Miss Faithful, who had never driven
any living creature in the whole course of her life.
"I saw Peter Phelps to-day," said Miss Sophonisba,
"and he says he'll let us have the old house up on the hill for anything
we like to give."
Miss Faithful gave a little start: "Would you like to live
there, Sophonisba?"
"Why, it's a good convenient situation, and plenty big enough
for you and me and the cat."
"But you know," said Miss Faithful, timidly, "they
have told such queer stories about it." "Stuff and nonsense!"
said Miss Sophonisba. "You don't believe them, I hope?"
"No," hesitated her sister, "but then one remembers
them, you know. Widow Eldridge always said she saw old Doctor Haywood
there."
"Stuff and nonsense!" said Miss Sophonisba again.
"You know perfectly well you couldn't trust a word she said about
anything."
"Oh, Sophonisba, she's dead!" said Miss Faithful,
shocked.
"I can't help that, child. It don't hinder her having told
fibs all her lifetime."
"Her husband died the next month."
"Well, so he might anywhere. My wonder is he lived as long as
he did, considering."
"And Mrs. Jones's three children died there."
"Well, and didn't Mrs. Gardner lose her two and that brother
of hers? and I never heard their place was haunted; and didn't two die out of
the Trueman house? and ever so many more all over town? It was a dreadful
sickly summer."
"And Sarah Jane McClean was taken sick there with
fever."
"Well, they had dirt enough to account for anything. Doctor
Brown told me himself that they had a great heap of potatoes sprouted in the
cellar, and there ain't anything so bad as that."
The last vestige of a ghost was demolished: Miss Faithful had
nothing more to say.
"It's nigh twenty-five years since the old doctor went
off," said Miss Sophonisba. "It ain't very probable he's alive now;
and if he is, he won't be very apt to come back: and if he is dead, he
certainly won't. If he did, I'd like to ask him why he never paid father that
fifty dollars. I saw Peter Phelps to-day, and he says he'll fix the place all
up for us if we'll have it, but of course I wouldn't say anything about it till
I'd spoken to you."
"Just as you please, Sophonisba," said Miss Faithful.
"He says he'll give us a bit of ground down on the flat for a
garden, and let his man dig it up for us. I went up and looked at the house. It
ain't so much out of repair as you'd think."
"Did you see the burnt spot on the floor?" asked Miss
Faithful with some interest.
"Yes, I saw it--a great blackened place. Most likely he
spilled some of his chemical stuff on it."
Miss Sophonisba was not, as she expressed herself, one to let the
grass grow under her feet. She concluded the bargain for the house next day,
and informed their landlord--who, by the by, was a son of their old neighbor,
Widow Ball--of their intention to move. That gentleman was not at all pleased
at the idea of losing his tenants. In vain he offered to recede from the
obnoxious demand of four shillings more. Miss Sophonisba told him that she had
made up her mind, and that she wasn't in the habit of going
back from her bargains when she had given her word, whatever other people might
be.
"Well, Miss T----," said Mr. Ball, "I hope you
won't repent. They've said queer things about that house ever since the old
doctor went off so mysterious. Some folks said he drowned himself in that place
in the cellar."
"Stuff and nonsense!" said Miss Sophonisba. "The
old doctor never hurt any one when he was alive, except by borrowing money of
them, and it ain't likely he'll want to do that now that he's dead; and if he
did, I shouldn't let him have it."
"Well, my mother was in the house when Miss Eldridge came
running up the stairs as pale as a sheet, and said he came behind her and
caught hold of her shoulder."
"Joanna Eldridge was always a poor, miserable, shiftless,
narvy thing," said Miss Sophonisba, "and half the time you couldn't
believe a word she said."
"Well she was a connexion of our'n, Miss T----, and I always
thought there was something in it. Narves won't account for everything."
"Well, I never trusted her a bit more for that," said
Miss Sophonisba. "I know one time she told mother a long story about how
you sent in a bill for shoes to Widow Sumner that James had paid you before he
died, and she said you'd have made her a deal of trouble if she hadn't ha'
found the receipt. A good many folks talked about it, but I always said it was
just one of Joanna's stories."
Mr. Ball was put down, and took his leave.
As soon as the necessary repairs were finished the sisters moved
into the house, and during that summer found reason to congratulate themselves
on their change of abode. The high, airy situation was very pleasant in warm
weather, and the view over the waters of the bay across to Boston and far out
to sea, with the coming and departing ships, afforded much pleasure and a
subject of conversation to the sisters. Their little garden on the flat throve
well, and was a source of never-ending interest. They had been troubled by no
ghostly visitations. Miss Sophonisba had indeed once heard a mysterious noise
in the cellar, but on going down stairs she found that the cat had jumped on
the hanging shelf and was helping herself out of the milk-pan.
The sisters were sitting one day toward the end of November--I
think it was the twenty-fifth--in the north room, which they had made their
work-room. The south room, according to the custom of our ancestors, still
religiously preserved among us, was shut up "for company." The
kitchen served them also for dining-room, and the largest room up stairs was
their bed-chamber. Miss Sophonisba was trimming a bonnet, a task for which she
had an especial gift. Ladies came to her even from Boston, saying that her work
had an air and style quite its own, while her charges were not nearly so high
as those of the more fashionable milliners in the city. Faithful was altering a
dress of her own. Both were much engaged with their work, and neither had
spoken for some time. Suddenly, Faithful started slightly, and the needle
dropped from her hand.
"What's the matter?" asked her sister.
"Nothing," said Faithful, rather confused.
"Yes, there is," said Miss Sophonisba. "People
don't jump that way for nothing. What is it?"
"Oh, I don't know," hesitated Miss Faithful. "I
guess I pricked my finger."
"Umph!" said Miss Sophonisba in a very incredulous way,
but she pushed her inquiries no farther.
As soon as her sister was silent, Miss Faithful's conscience began
to chide her for her little evasion. Twice she opened her mouth to speak, and
as often checked herself, but the third time the words were uttered: "If I
tell you, Sophonisba, you will laugh at me."
"Well, that wouldn't kill you, child."
"No; but--well--it was only that I thought all of a sudden
some one was standing behind my chair."
"How could you think so when there was no one there?"
"I don't know, but it felt as if there was."
"Nonsense, Faithful! If you didn't see any one, how did you
know there was any one? Have you got eyes in the back of your head?"
"I didn't see it--I sort of felt so."
"'Sort of felt so!'" said Miss Sophonisba, with
good-natured contempt. "If I was you, I'd take some catnip tea when I went
to bed: you're kind of narvy."
Miss Faithful assented, and went on quietly with her sewing, but
she changed the seat which she had occupied, with her back to the cellar door,
for one close to her sister.
No further disturbance occurred till the middle of December. It
had been a very windy day. The bay was tossing in long gray-green lines of
waves crested with flying foam. The black savins sighed and wailed as they bent
to the cutting blast. The wind was east, and it took a good deal of fire to
keep the old house warm, but wood was cheap in those days, and Miss Sophonisba,
though prudent and economical, was not given to what New England expressively
calls "skrimping."
Miss Faithful, not feeling very well, had gone up stairs to bed
soon after tea. A windy day always made her uncomfortable, recalling, too
vividly perhaps, the gale in which the Federalist had gone down. Miss
Sophonisba, having some work on hand which she was anxious to finish, was
sitting up rather beyond her usual hour. Pausing for a moment in her sewing,
she heard some one walking about in the room above her to and fro, with a
regular though light step, as of bare or thinly-shod feet, on the boards.
"Why, what can ail the child," she said to herself,
"to be walking about barefoot this time of night? She'll get her death of
cold;" and she put down her work and went up stairs, intending to
administer a sisterly lecture. To her surprise, Faithful was fast asleep in
bed, and no other living creature was in the room. It could not have been the
cat this time, for Puss was comfortably purring before the fire down stairs.
Miss Sophonisba stood by the bed for a moment, candle in hand, listening for a
repetition of the sound.
Suddenly a wilder gust shook the house perceptibly. Miss Faithful
started from her sleep with a cry of terror. "Oh, I have had such a
dream!" said she, clinging to her sister.
"What was it?" said Miss Sophonisba, soothing and
quieting her like a child.
"I thought I was lying in bed just as I was, when all of a
sudden I knew that Something had come in, and was going up and down, up and
down the room."
"What was it like?" asked her sister, rather impressed
in spite of herself.
"I couldn't see: it was all shifty and mist-like--like the
shadow of smoke on the ground--and I couldn't tell if it was like a human being
or not; but it seemed to me as if I ought to know it and what it was, and as if
it was trying to make me understand something, and couldn't, just as it is when
the cat sits and looks at you. You know the creature wants something, if she
could tell what it was."
"She wants something out of the cupboard most
generally," said Miss Sophonisba; "but go on."
"And finally," said Miss Faithful with a nervous
shudder, "after it had gone back and forth two or three times--and I could
hear it on the floor too, just like some one walking in their stocking-feet--it
came close up to me and seemed to bend over me, or to be all around me in the
air some way--I can't tell you how--and I was dreadfully scared, and woke up."
"It made a noise, did it?" said Miss Sophonisba.
"Yes; and somehow the noise made me feel as if I ought to
know what it wanted and what it was."
"It was the wind," said Miss Sophonisba. "It got
mixed up in your dreams, I expect. How it does blow!--fit to take the roof off.
There! the cellar door has started open. That latch doesn't catch: I must go
down and bolt it."
At that moment the cat rushed up the short staircase from the
lower room, and springing on the bed, stood with bristling tail and glaring
eyes, intently watching the door.
"Has she got a fit?" exclaimed Miss Sophonisba; and she
put out her hand to push the cat off, but it turned to Miss Faithful, who was
sitting up in bed, and crawling under the bed-clothes, lay there trembling and
mewing in a very curious fashion.
"Some one has got in down stairs," said Miss Faithful,
turning white. "Oh, Sophonisba, we shall all be murdered!"
"Nonsense!" said Miss Sophonisba, quite restored to
herself at the thought of actual danger. She caught up a great pair of tongs
and started down stairs, the candlestick in one hand, the tongs in the other,
Miss Faithful, who dared not stay behind, threw a shawl over her night-dress
and followed close at her sister's heels, while the cat crawled still farther
under the clothes, and refused to answer to Miss Sophonisba's call. There was
nothing unusual down stairs. The two outside doors were locked, the fire was
burning brightly, and Miss Sophonisba's work lay on the table just as she had
left it. The cellar door indeed, which latched imperfectly, stood open.
"Some one has come in and locked the door after them, and
gone down cellar," was Miss Faithful's whispered suggestion.
"How could they?" said Miss Sophonisba. "We didn't
hear any one; and besides, they would have left their tracks on the floor this
wet night; but I'll go down and look. You stay here by the fire."
But Miss Faithful preferred to follow her sister. They found
nothing out of place in the cellar, into which, if you remember, there is no
outside door. Every tub and barrel and milk-pan was in its place, and the
surface of the pit of water, which served the family as a cistern, was
undisturbed.
"It must have been the door flying open that scared the
cat," said Miss Sophonisba, "Faithful, you're as white as a sheet. I
shall just heat up some elderberry wine and make you drink it;" which she
did then and there, and, no further disturbance taking place, the sisters went
to bed. The cat, however, whose usual place was by the kitchen fire, would not
go down stairs, and when at last turned out, she mewed so piteously and
scratched so persistently at the bed-room door that Miss Sophonisba gave way to
her and let her in to sleep all night at the foot of the bed.
No further annoyance took place, nor was Miss Faithful troubled
with a repetition of her curious dream. The next week, however, as Miss
Sophonisba was in the kitchen making preparations for tea, she was startled by
a scream from her sister in the next room, succeeded by the sound of a heavy
fall. She hurried into the work-room. Miss Faithful lay on the floor quite
insensible. It was some time before her sister's anxious exertions were
rewarded by signs of returning animation. When at last she opened her eyes, she
burst into a fit of hysterical sobbing and crying.
"For gracious sake, sister!" said Miss Sophonisba,
really alarmed, "what is the matter?"
"Oh dear! oh dear!" sobbed Miss Faithful. "It was
John! I know it was John, and I could not speak to him!"
"What?" said Miss Sophonisba, alarmed for her sister's
wits. "What was John?"
"It--that--the thing that came behind me: I know it
was!"
"When?" asked her sister.
"As I was sitting there in my chair something came behind me
and put a hand on my shoulder. It was John--I know it was. His hand was all
cold and wet: he came out of the sea to call me."
"Now just look here, Faithful!" said Miss Sophonisba.
"John was one of the most careful, considerate fellows I ever knew, and he
was always particular careful of you. Do you think it's likely he wouldn't have
no more sense, now that he's a saint in heaven, than to come scaring you out of
your wits in that way? Is it like him, now?"
"But oh, sister, if you had felt it as I did, clear into the
bone!"
"Then it's over twenty-five years since the Federalist was
lost. Do you suppose he's been going round the other world all this while
without getting a chance to be dry? Did you see him?"
"No, but I felt it."
"Well, now if there'd been anything real there, anything
material, you'd have seen it; and if it wasn't material, how could it be
wet?"
Faithful was not prepared to answer, but it was evident that she
had received a great shock. In vain did her sister argue, reason and coax. She
could not explain, but that something had come behind her, and that this
Something had touched her, she was convinced; and she added: "I do believe
it was John I saw the other night. I thought then I was awake all the time, and
now I know I was."
This last assertion quite overset Miss Sophonisba's patience,
"If ever any one was asleep," she said, "you were when I came up
stairs. I thought I heard you walking about with your bare feet, and I came up
to see."
"Then you: heard it too?" said Miss Faithful, eagerly.
It was an unlucky admission, but Miss Sophonisba would not allow
that she had made it.
"I heard the wind make the boards creak, I suppose; and do
you think John wouldn't have more sense than to be walking about our room at
half-past ten at night? What nonsense!"
"You may call it nonsense as much as you like,
Sophonisba," said Miss Faithful, beginning to cry afresh, "but I know
what I know, and I can't help it."
"Well, well, dear, we won't think of it any more. You're
nervous and worried, and you'd just best put on your wrapper and lie down and
try to go to sleep."
"I don't like to stay alone just now," said Miss
Faithful, timidly.
"I don't want you to: I'll bring my work up stairs and stay
with you."
Miss Sophonisba helped her sister up stairs, and began to assist
her to undress. As she took into her hand the cape of Miss Faithful's woolen
dress she nearly uttered an exclamation of surprise, but checked herself in
time. On the left shoulder was a wet spot, and the dress directly beneath was
quite damp. Miss Sophonisba said nothing, of this matter to her sister, but she
made an excuse to leave the room for a moment, and going down stairs looked to
see if any water had been spilled on the floor. There was none, and Miss
Sophonisba was puzzled. She remembered that when her sister was startled before
she had occupied the same seat, with her back to the cellar door. She noticed
that the door was slightly ajar, and it occurred to her that the cold air
blowing through the crack might account for her sister's feeling of sudden
chill, if not for the dampness. She went down the cellar stairs, carrying with
her a lighted candle. Bold as she was, a singular sensation came over her when
she saw upon each stair a print, as if some one with wet feet had ascended or
descended, and that very recently. The track was not such as would be left by a
person heavily shod: it was rather like that of one wearing a stocking or thin
slipper.
"What under the sun--" was her perplexed exclamation as
she went down, following the marks of the unknown feet until they were lost on
the stone floor. It was certain that there was no one in the cellar, but as she
went up again, and paused for a moment at the top of the staircase, she heard,
or thought she heard, close to her ear, a long, weary sigh, as of one in pain,
and a sudden breath of cold air swept past her down the stairs. She turned, and
crossing the little passage went into the south room. The burned spot on the
floor was covered by the neat rag carpet, but there were still some slight
marks on the wall of the old doctor's brick furnace. Miss Sophonisba glanced
round the room, but her eyes fell upon nothing but the familiar and
well-preserved furniture; yet there came over her a strange sense that she was
not alone. She saw nothing, but in spite of herself a feeling of a Presence not
her own gathered about her. It was but for a moment, and then her habitual
firmness and common sense reasserted themselves.
"Stuff and nonsense!" she said. "I am getting as
bad as Faithful;" and leaving the room, she went back to her sister. Miss
Faithful had sought comfort in her devotions, and was more composed than could
have been expected. Neither felt inclined to comment on the recent disturbance.
Miss Faithful's health seemed to have received no permanent harm from the
sudden shock she had undergone, but she had a nervous dread of being alone,
which was a source of some inconvenience to her sister.
The month of December passed, and the uncomfortable impression
left by Faithful's attack was beginning to fade away from the minds of both,
when it happened that the disturbance was renewed in a singular manner.
Miss Sophonisba was alone, her sister having gone to a household
in the village to take the measure for some mourning garments to be made up
immediately. Miss Sophonisba was busy with a black bonnet intended for a member
of the same family, and was thinking of nothing but the folds of the material
directly under her fingers. Gradually there came over her a feeling that she
was not alone. She struggled against it, and resolutely bent her mind on her
work; but the impression grew upon her, and with it a sensation of horror such
as she had never before experienced. The idea that something stood behind her
became so strong that she raised her eyes from her work and looked around. Was
there anything actually there, or was the shapeless darkness anything more than
an accidental shadow? Another instant, and something touched her
cheek--something like soft, cold, moist fingers. The touch, if such it was, was
very gentle, such as a child might give to attract attention. Miss Sophonisba
would not give way. She took up her work and went quietly on with it, though
her fingers trembled. The same long sigh fell upon her ear, the same chill
breath of air swept past her, and the Presence, if such it was, was gone, and
with it the shadow.
"Well," said Miss Sophonisba to herself, "some
things are kind of curious, after all!"
There had certainly been no living creature in the house but
herself, for their cat had disappeared some days before, and the loss of their
favorite had been a great vexation to both sisters. The shadow behind her chair,
if indeed it had been anything but fancy, had been too indistinct to allow her
to say that she had really seen it before it had vanished, but what had given
her the touch, the recollection of which yet caused a shiver? She put up her
hand to her cheek. The place was wet--an actual drop of water adhered to her
finger.
"Dear me!" said she, "I wish I did know what to
think."
To one of her temperament the uncertainty was very annoying. She
could not bear to think that her experience was not directly owing to
natural--by which she meant, common--causes. "I am very glad Faithful was
not here," she thought as she turned to her work again. She would not
indulge herself by changing her seat, but kept her place with her back to the
cellar door, though she could not help now and then casting a glance over her
shoulder. Neither shadow nor substance, however, made itself manifest.
That same night Miss Sophonisba woke from her sleep with the
feeling that some one had called her. She found herself mistaken, however, and
lay quietly awake, thinking over the events of the afternoon. The more she
thought the more puzzled, and even provoked, did she become. She was one of
those people who cannot bear to feel themselves incapable of accounting for
anything that is brought under their notice. A mystery, as such, is an
exasperation to them, and they will sometimes adopt an explanation more
perplexing than the phenomenon itself, rather than say, "I don't
know." As she lay there thinking over the matter, and trying to make herself
believe that the afternoon's experience was the effect of the wind or her own
fancy, she was startled by a step on the floor of the lower room--the same
light step. It crossed the floor, and she heard it on the stairs. Miss
Sophonisba raised her head from her pillow and looked around. There could be no
doubt that she was awake. She could see everything in the room: her sister
slept quietly at her side, and the moonlight shone in brightly at the window.
The slow step came up the stairs and in at the open door. She heard it on the
boards: her eyes beheld the shadow of her sister's vision, so wavering and
indistinct that she could not say with certainty that it wore the semblance of
a human form. The blood at her heart seemed to stand still, but yet she neither
screamed nor fainted, nor tried to wake her sister. She watched the Thing as it
moved to and fro in the chamber. Suddenly it came toward her, and stood at the
bedside, seeming indeed, as Faithful had said, to be "all around her in
the air," and weigh upon her with a sense of oppression almost unendurable
as the shadowy Presence obscured the moonbeams. Miss Sophonisba bent all her
will to the effort, and with an heroic exertion she put out her hand to try by
the sense of touch if indeed she was in her waking senses. Her fingers were met
by others, soft, cold and damp. For a second, which seemed an hour, they
grasped her extended hand with a close, clinging touch that some way seemed
half familiar. For one instant the shapeless gloom appeared to take definite
form--a tall human figure, a man in poor and ragged clothes; for one instant a
pair of wistful, eager eyes looked into her own; the next, the cock without
crowed loud and shrill. Her hand was released, and with the same long, weary
sigh the ghostly Presence passed away. Miss Sophonisba sank back on her pillow
nearly insensible. She did not know how long she lay there, but when she at
last gathered her senses she saw and felt, with an involuntary shudder, that
her hand was wet and cold, and that across the floor, plain in the moonlight,
leading to the half-open door, were the marks of wet feet. She did not waken
her sister, who still slept quietly at her side, but it was with unspeakable
relief that she saw the morning dawn at last.
In spite of herself, Miss Sophonisba was forced to the conclusion
that, except on the supposition that some inhabitant of another world had been
permitted to approach her, her experience was wholly inexplicable. "If it
comes again," said she to herself, "I'll certainly speak to it.
Goodness me!" she added, somewhat irritated in spite of her terror,
"if it's got anything to say, why don't it speak and be done with
it?"
She said nothing of the matter to her sister, and she so far
controlled herself as to preserve her usual manner.
The sisters were busily engaged all day over the mourning dresses,
when toward night Miss Faithful's thread gave out and her work came to a
stand-still.
"How provoking!" said she. "Three yards more would
finish, and now I shall have to go down to the village and buy a whole skein,
just for that."
"No," said Miss Sophonisba, who would not have
acknowledged to herself her dread of being alone in the house, "I think
there's some like that in the chimney cupboard in the south room: I'll get
it."
She put down her work, and taking a candle went into the south
room. Placing the light on a chair, she opened the cupboard door and began
searching for the thread among a variety of miscellaneous matters. Some slight
noise startled her. She turned, and saw standing before the fireplace an
elderly gentleman, whose face was, as she thought, familiar, though she could
not recall at the moment where she had seen it. It did not occur to her that
her companion was not a living man, and she stood for a moment with a look of surprised
inquiry, expecting him to speak. The eyes met hers in a fixed stare, like that
of a corpse. She had not seen the figure move, yet the same instant it was at
her side. It, was too much, even for her. She turned and sprang through the
open door into the passage, but not before it had flashed across her mind that
the dead face bore a horrible resemblance to the old doctor. The Thing did not
follow her, and she stood still in the passage, not daring to alarm her more
timid sister, and yet dreading inexpressibly to re-enter the haunted room. Her
terror was not merely the oppression, the natural fear of the unknown, the
sense of a nature differing from her own, which she had experienced the past
night: it was all this, together with a sense of an evil influence, a feeling
of loathing and horror, that made her sick in soul and in body. However strong
her resolution, Miss Sophonisba felt that she could never endure, much less
question, this frightful Presence. The candle was yet burning on the chair
where she had left it, and, summoning all her strength, with an inward prayer
she recrossed the threshold. The light still burned brightly, the thread she
had come to seek lay on the floor where she had dropped it, but the figure was
gone. She looked about the room: there was no trace of living presence save her
own. She had even the courage to stoop down and examine the place on the carpet
where the Shape had stood, and which covered the burned spot on the floor; but
this time the mysterious footsteps had failed to leave their mark.
"Whatever shall I do?" said Miss Sophonisba to herself.
"If Faithful was to see what I have, she'd nigh go crazy; and what excuse
can we make for leaving the house?"
If no one but herself had been concerned, I think she would have
stood a siege from the hosts of the unknown world rather than confess that she
left the house because it was haunted. She caught herself up as the word was
formed in her thoughts. "Haunted, indeed!" she said. "I'll think
I'm losing my wits first. Stuff and nonsense!" But she paused, for through
the middle of the room, close by her side, making an angry gesture as it
passed, swept the same Shape, visible for one moment, vanishing the next. She
went back into the other room, and giving her sister the thread, sat down so as
to hide her face, busying herself with her work until she could in some measure
regain her wonted steady composure.
Miss Faithful was much engaged with her sewing just at that
moment, and her sister's unusual agitation escaped her notice. Presently she
said, "Sophonisba, isn't there a bit of old black ribbon in that cupboard?
I want something of the kind, just to put round inside the neck of the dress,
and then it will be done."
"Yes--I don't know--I think not," said her sister, with
a hesitation so unlike her usual promptness that Miss Faithful looked up
surprised. "I mean, I think there is," said Miss Sophonisba. "If
you'd like to look, I'll hold the candle for you."
"Oh, you needn't put down your work for that," said Miss
Faithful, but Miss Sophonisba dropped the ribbon she was plaiting and followed
her sister with the candle. She threw a half-frightened glance around the room
as she entered, but the Vision did not reappear. It was some time before the
ribbon was found. It had been pushed into the farther corner of the lower
shelf, which was a wide and very thick pine board, slipping easily on the
cleats by which it was upheld. One end of the roll had caught behind this
shelf, and Miss Faithful pulled the board a little forward. As she did so a little
roll of paper fell into the bottom of the cupboard. Miss Sophonisba picked it
up. It consisted of several stained and discolored sheets of paper, seemingly
torn from an account-book or journal, and covered all over with very fine and
closely-written though perfectly legible characters, in a very precise hand.
"What is that?" said Miss Faithful.
"It's nothing of ours, I'm pretty sure," said her
sister, looking at it. "But come, if you've got what you want: let's go
into the other room--it's cold here."
As they crossed the threshold, Miss Faithful started.
"What's the matter?" said her sister, though she well
knew the reason. She too had heard the same long sigh felt the same breath of
chill air.
"Why, it seemed as if something breathed close to my
ear," said Miss Faithful, turning white; "and what's more," she
continued, as they crossed the passage and entered the work-room, "I
believe you heard it too, and that you've seen things in this house you haven't
told me of."
"Well, child," said Miss Sophonisba in a subdued tone,
"there are some queer things in this world, that's a
fact--queerer than ever I thought till lately."
Miss Faithful did not press for an explanation: she went quietly
on with her dressmaking, and her sister, hurried though she was about her work,
set herself to examine the papers.
I remember seeing the original manuscript when I was a little
girl, but it was unfortunately destroyed by an accident. My father, however,
had copied part of it, and this copy is yet in my possession. Miss Sophonisba
could make very little of the record, which related to scientific matters of
which she was quite ignorant; and as the most important words were indicated by
signs and figures, she was completely puzzled. The writer seemed to have been
seeking in vain some particular result. She looked on through the dates of the
year 1785, and saw here and there familiar names, and at last commenced reading
at these words:
"June 3. This day took possession of my house.
Busied in making arrangements. Shall build my own furnace. Am sure now that I
am in the right way. Am determined no one shall come into the house."
Much followed which Miss Sophonisba could not understand, until,
under the date of July 1, she found recorded:
"Being over at Neponset, looking for the plant witch-hazel,
bethought myself to ask of the fellow they call Indian Will. Going to the
little hovel he lives in, found him lying very ill with pleurisy. By the grace
of God was able to help him. His wife told me where to find what I sought. To
my surprise, discovered she knew much of its virtues. It may be these people
have a knowledge of simples worth investigating.
"Sept. 3. No nearer my great end. My means fast
growing less. Have borrowed from Jonathan Phelps, but the sum is but a drop for
such a purpose. Most like some of these people, who complain of my price for
the exercise of my skill, would give me threefold did they know what I work
for, if they might share in its result. Yet I know I am in the right way.
Should I die before I come to its end--Is Death the gate of knowledge?"
"Oct. 7. I advance just so far and no farther.
Why is it that I see my path so plain just to the one point, and there it
stops? How small our understanding of the endless mysteries around us! yet
should something differing from every day's experience befall us, how quickly
we speak of the supernatural!
"Oct. 29. No nearer, no nearer, and my money all
but done. Took some of my books into Boston and offered them to sell. Refused,
of course. How should they know their value? Have sent them to London. It was
hard, but patience! patience!"
"Oct. 30. This day Indian Will brought the plants
I wanted. Have bade him never to tell any one that he comes here. He only has
ever entered. So far as I know, he has obeyed. He thinks me like one of his own
powahs.
"Dec. 15. At last! I have passed the crisis, and
without accident. How simple it seems, now that I know! It was my last bit of
the essential metal: like from like. Each element has its seed in itself. The
poor people say I have been good to them. Should success be final, I can indeed
help mankind.
"Dec. 16. Last night, lifting the crucible from
the furnace, spilled the liquor on the floor. Had I one particle more of the
essential element! All was utterly lost: no one will lend to me.
"Dec. 18. What have I done that I should feel
guilt? What was worth the life of such a useless creature to the interests of
mankind? Why did he not trust my word and give me what I needed when I asked
him? If he had not waked from his half-drunken sleep when I made the attempt, I
would have given him threefold. I gave him his life once: why will not that
atone? No one will know ever. I will devote my life to relieve distress. What
is such as his, weighed in the balance with my purpose? It is strange that
since then I have forgot the very essential thing in the process. I cannot read
my own cipher in which I wrote it down; but it will come, it will come.
"Dec. 19. Have been all day trying to read the
cipher in vain. Have lost the key, have forgotten the chief link. Until I can
recall it the metal is useless. What if it should never come to me? This night
went down to the Point. Threw into the sea the evidences of what I have brought
to pass. The tide will soon wash them away.
"Dec. 20. Surely it is not meant this thing
should be known. To-day a body came on shore, bruised and shattered, but said
to be identified by those who should have known best. Now, no one will ever
search this house. Twice to-day I have been to look at the place: nothing can
be seen. Providence means I should live to finish my work--to complete that
which I alone of mortal men have rightly understood. Why is it this link is
broken off in my mind, and the cipher I myself wrote darker than before? Would
the creature but have given it up quietly! It was in self-defence I struck at
last. What was it to repent of? Some have held that such as he are not
human--only animals a little more sagacious than the brutes about us.
"Dec. 22. Useless, useless! My memory fails me
entirely. I have tried to go on in vain. What is this that is with me now these
last two days?
"Dec. 25. Once I kept Christmas in another
fashion than this. I had no guest but one I dare not name--
'Tumulum circumvolat umbra.'
"Dec. 27. To day it put out its hand: the soft
wet fingers touched me. I will go out into the world, I will go out into the
world. I will help those who are sick and in misery. Will it not be at peace
then?"
Then the journal paused: there was no further entry till April 29,
1786:
"The girl, Hepsey Ball, died to-day. Her eyes were opened to
see what I see all the hours in the day. I must go. I have not dared to leave,
lest the awful Thing should be found in its hiding-place. They begin to press
me for money. The house will go on the mortgage. Heard Phelps say if it was his
he would drain the place in the cellar. To-day received fifty dollars from the
sale of apparatus. Could not part with it before, thinking I should recover my
lost knowledge, and should use it. Perhaps it will come back to me if I go
away: it may be This will not follow me. I will drop the gold into the same
place: if it is that it wants, it will rest. I cannot tell what I have done, my
life is too precious. I only, of all men, have seen unveiled the mystery. I
will leave This behind. When I am safe it may be found, and they will lay it to
rest in the earth, if that is what it seeks. Then it will cease to persecute me
with its step close at my back, its loathsome clinging touch."
Miss Sophonisba (my friend went on) looked up from her reading
with such a strange expression that her sister was startled. "Put on your
bonnet, Faithful," said she: "I'm going down to see the
minister."
"What do you mean?" said Miss Faithful: "it's
nearly nine o'clock."
"I don't care if it's midnight. I'm going to show these to
him, and tell him what's happened here, and he may make what he can of
it."
"Then you have seen something?" said Miss Faithful,
turning pale.
Miss Sophonisba made a sign of assent; "I'll tell you all
about it when we get there, but do come along now. You're work's done, and I'll
take the bonnet with me and finish it there."
They lived at some distance from the parsonage, and the roads were
in even worse condition than they are now. It was a tiresome walk, and Miss
Faithful, clinging to her sister's side, was almost inclined to wish they had
braved the terrors at home rather than ventured out into the dark. The
clergyman was a middle-aged bachelor, a grandson of the Parson H---- mentioned
by Mrs. T----. He heard Miss Sophonisba's story in silence, but without any
sign of dissent. Faithful, in spite of her terror, could not but feel a mild
degree of triumph in her sister's evident conviction that what she had seen
was, to say the least, unaccountable.
Mr. H---- looked over the papers which had been found in the cupboard,
and which Miss Sophonisba had brought with her. "This is undoubtedly
Doctor Haywood's writing," he said at last. "I have a book purchased
of him by my grandfather, and which has marginal notes in the same hand."
"What shall we do, sir?" asked Miss Sophonisba.
"If I were you I should leave the house as soon as possible.
If there is anything in the air which induces such--" Mr. H---- hesitated
for a word--"sensations as these, it would be better to go."
"Sensations!" said Miss Sophonisba, almost indignant.
"I tell you I saw it myself; and what made the wet spot on Faithful's
cape, and the rest?"
"I can't undertake to say, Miss T----; but if you like I will
just come up to-morrow, and we will look into the matter a little. My cousin,
Lieutenant V----, is here from his ship, and he will assist me. And meantime
you had best stay here to-night: my sister will be very glad to see you."
Miss H---- was a particular friend of the sisters, but she could
not but feel a little curious to know the object of their visit. Miss
Sophonisba would have kept the matter to herself, but Miss Faithful, in her
excitement, could not but tell the story of their experiences. Miss H----,
however, was a discreet woman, and kept the tale to herself.
The next evening the clergyman, his cousin the lieutenant and Miss
Sophonisba went quietly about dusk to the old house. They went down into the
cellar, and the drag which the sailor had constructed brought up some bleached
bones, and at the second cast a skeleton hand and a skull. As the latter was
disengaged from the drag something fell glittering from it upon the cellar
floor: two coins rolled to different corners. Mr. H----, picked them up. One
was a Spanish piece, the other an English half guinea.
"Miss T----," said the clergyman in a low tone, "I
will see that these poor relics are laid in the burial-ground; and then--really
I think you had better leave the house."
Miss Sophonisba made no opposition.
The three ascended the cellar stairs, but as they entered the room
they paused terror-stricken, for across the floor, making, as it passed, a wild
gesture of despair, swept the Shape, living yet dead.
"What was that?" said the clergyman, who was the first
to recover himself, "It," said Miss Sophonisba in a whisper.
"I have seen that face before," said the sailor.
"Once on a stormy passage round the Cape we came upon a deserted wreck
rolling helplessly upon the waves. I, then a young midshipman, went in the boat
which was sent to board her. No living creature was there, but in the cabin we
found a corpse, that of an old, old man. The look of the Thing was so awful
that I could not bear it and hid my face. One of the sailors, however, took
from the dead hand a paper covered with characters in cipher, which no one
could read. This paper afterward fell into my possession, and I submitted it in
vain to several experts, all of whom failed to read it. By an accident it was
destroyed, and the secret, whatever it was, is hidden for ever; but the face of
that corpse was the face I have just seen in this room."
4.The Blood Seedling
In a bit of green pasture that rose, gradually narrowing, to the
tableland that ended in prairie, and widened out descending to the wet and
willowy sands that border the Great River, a broad-shouldered young man was
planting an apple tree one sunny spring morning when Tyler was President. The
little valley was shut in on the south and east by rocky hills, patched with
the immortal green of cedars and gay with clambering columbines. In front was
the Mississippi, reposing from its plunge over the rapids, and idling down
among the golden sandbars and the low, moist islands, which were looking their
loveliest in their new spring dresses of delicate green.
The young man was digging with a certain vicious energy, forcing
the spade into the black crumbling loam with a movement full of vigor and
malice. His straight black brows were knitted till they formed one dark line
over his deep-set eyes. His beard was not yet old enough to hide the massive
outline of his firm, square jaw. In the set teeth, in the clouded face, in the
half-articulate exclamations that shot from time to time from the compressed
lips, it was easy to see that the thoughts of the young horticulturist were far
from his work.
A bright young girl came down the path through the hazel thicket
that skirted the hillside, and putting a plump brown hand on the topmost rail
of the fence vaulted lightly over, and lit on the soft springy turf with a thud
that announced a wholesome and liberal architecture. It is usually expected of
poets and lovers that they shall describe the ladies of their love as so airy
and delicate in structure that the flowers they tread on are greatly improved
in health and spirits by the visitation. But not being a poet or in love, we
must admit that there was no resurrection for the larkspurs and pansies upon
which the little boots of Miss Susie Barringer landed. Yet she was not of the
coarse peasant type, though her cheeks were so rosy as to cause her great
heaviness of heart on Sunday mornings, and her blue lawn dress was as full as
it could afford from shoulders to waist. She was a neat, hearty and very pretty
country girl, with a slightly freckled face, and rippled brown hair, and
astonished blue eyes, but perfectly self-possessed, and graceful as a young
quail.
A young man's ears are quick to catch the rustling of a woman's
dress. The flight of this plump bird in its fluttering blue plumage over the
rail-fence caused our young man to look up from his spading: the scowl was
routed from his brow by a sudden incursion of blushes, and his mouth was
attacked by an awkward smile.
The young lady nodded, and was hurrying past. The scowl came back
in force, and the smile was repulsed from the bearded mouth with great loss:
"Miss Tudie, are you in a hurry?"
The lady thus addressed turned and said, in a voice that was half
pert and half coaxing, "No particular hurry. Al, I've told you a dozen
times not to call me that redicklis name."
"Why, Tudie, I hain't never called you nothing else sence you
was a little one so high. You ort to know yer own name, and you give yerself
that name when you was a yearling. Howsom-ever, ef you don't like it now, sence
you've been to Jacksonville, I reckon I can call you Miss Susie--when I don't
disremember."
The frank amende seemed to satisfy Miss Susie, for she at once
interrupted in the kindest manner: "Never mind, Al Golyer: you can call me
what you are a-mind to." Then, as if conscious of the feminine
inconsistency, she changed the subject by asking, "What are you going to
do with that great hole?--big enough to bury a fellow."
"I'm going to plant this here seedlin', that growed up in
Colonel Blood's pastur', nobody knows how: belike somebody was eatin' an apple
and throwed the core down-like. I'm going to plant a little orchard here next
spring, but the colonel and me, we reckoned this one 'ud be too old by that
time for moving, so I thought I'd stick it in now, and see what come out'n it.
It's a powerful thrifty chunk of a saplin'."
"Yes. I speak for the first peck of apples off'n it. Don't
forget. Good-morning."
"Hold on a minute, Miss Susan, twell I git my coat. I'll walk
down a piece with you. I have got something to say to you."
Miss Susie turned a little red and a little pale. These occasions
were not entirely unknown in her short experience of life. When young men in
the country in that primitive period had something to say, it was something
very serious and earnest. Allen Golyer was a good-looking, stalwart young
farmer, well-to-do, honest, able to provide for a family. There was nothing
presumptuous in his aspiring to the hand of the prettiest girl on Chaney Creek.
In childhood he had trotted her to Banbury Cross and back a hundred times,
beguiling the tedium of the journey with kisses and the music of bells. When
the little girl was old enough to go to school, the big boy carried her books
and gave her the rosiest apple out of his dinner-basket. He fought all her
battles and wrote all her compositions; which latter, by the way, never gained
her any great credit. When she was fifteen and he twenty he had his great
reward in taking her twice a week during one happy winter to singing-school.
This was the bloom of life--nothing before or after could compare with it. The
blacking of shoes and brushing of stiff, electric, bristling hair, all on end
with frost and hope, the struggling into the plate-armor of his starched shirt,
the tying of the portentous and uncontrollable cravat before the glass, which
was hopelessly dimmed every moment by his eager breath,--these trivial and
vulgar details were made beautiful and unreal by the magic of youth and love.
Then came the walk through the crisp, dry snow to the Widow Barringer's, the
sheepish talk with the old lady while Susie "got on her things," and
the long, enchanting tramp to the "deestrick school-house."
There is not a country-bred man or woman now living but will tell
you that life can offer nothing comparable with the innocent zest of that old
style of courting that was done at singing-school in the starlight and candlelight
of the first half of our century. There are few hearts so withered and old but
they beat quicker sometimes when they hear, in old-fashioned churches, the
wailing, sobbing or exulting strains of "Bradstreet" or
"China" or "Coronation;" and the mind floats down on the
current of these old melodies to that fresh young day of hopes and
illusions--of voices that were sweet, no matter how false they sang--of nights
that were rosy with dreams, no matter what Fahrenheit said--of girls that
blushed without cause, and of lovers who talked for hours about everything but
love.
I know I shall excite the scorn of all the ingenuous youth of my
time when I say that there was nothing that our superior civilization would
call love making in those long walks through the winter nights. The heart of
Allen Golyer swelled under his satin waistcoat with love and joy and devotion
as he walked over the crunching roads with his pretty enslaver. But he talked
of apples and pigs and the heathen and the teacher's wig, and sometimes ventured
an illusion to other people's flirtations in a jocose and distant way; but as
to the state of his own heart, his lips were sealed. It would move a blasé
smile on the downy lips of juvenile Lovelaces, who count their conquests by
their cotillons, and think nothing of making a declaration in an avant-deux, to
be told of young people spending several evenings of each week in the year
together, and speaking no word of love until they were ready to name their
wedding-day. Yet such was the sober habit of the place and time.
So there was no troth plighted between Allen and Susie, though the
youth loved the maiden with all the energy of his fresh, unused nature, and she
knew it very well. He never dreamed of marrying any other woman than Susie
Barringer, and she sometimes tried a new pen by writing and carefully erasing
the initials S.M.G., which, as she was christened Susan Minerva, may be taken
as showing the direction of her thoughts.
If Allen Golyer had been less bashful or more enterprising, this
history would never have been written; for Susie would probably have said Yes
for want of anything better to say, and when she went to visit her aunt Abigail
in Jacksonville she would have gone engaged, her finger bound with
gold and her maiden meditations fettered by promises. But she went, as it was,
fancy free, and there is no tinder so inflammable as the imagination of a
pretty country girl of sixteen.
One day she went out with her easy-going aunt Abigail to buy
ribbons, the Chancy Creek invoices not supplying the requirements of
Jacksonville society. As they traversed the court-house square on their way to
Deacon Pettybones' place, Miss Susie's vagrant glances rested on an iris of
ribbons displayed in an opposition window. "Let's go in here," she said
with the impetuous decision of her age and sex.
"We will go where you like, dear," said easy-going Aunt
Abigail. "It makes no difference."
Aunt Abigail was wrong. It made the greatest difference to several
persons whether Susie Barringer bought her ribbons at Simmons' or Pettybones'
that day. If she had but known!
But, all unconscious of the Fate that beckoned invisibly on the
threshold, Miss Susie tripped into "Simmons' Emporium" and asked for
ribbons. Two young men stood at the long counter. One was Mr. Simmons,
proprietor of the emporium, who advanced with his most conscientious smile:
"Ribbons, ma'am? Yes, ma'am--all sorts, ma'am. Cherry, ma'am? Certingly,
ma'am. Jest got a splendid lot from St. Louis this morning, ma'am. This way,
ma'am."
The ladies were soon lost in the delight of the eyes. The voice of
Mr. Simmons accompanied the feast of color, insinuating but unheeded.
The other young man approached: "Here is what you want,
miss--rich and elegant. Just suits your style. Sets off your hair and eyes
beautiful."
The ladies looked up. A more decided voice than Mr. Simmons';
whiter hands than Mr. Simmons' handled the silken bands; bolder eyes than the
weak, pink-bordered orbs of Mr. Simmons looked unabashed admiration into the
pretty face of Susie Barringer.
"Look here, Simmons, old boy, introduce a fellow."
Mr. Simmons meekly obeyed: "Mrs. Barringer, let me interduce
you to Mr. Leon of St. Louis, of the house of Draper & Mercer."
"Bertie Leon, at your service," said the brisk young
fellow, seizing Miss Susie's hand with energy. His hand was so much softer and
whiter than hers that she felt quite hot and angry about it.
When they had made their purchases, Mr. Leon insisted on walking
home with them, and was very witty and agreeable all the way. He had all the
wit of the newspapers, of the concert-rooms, of the steamboat bars at his
fingers' ends. In his wandering life he had met all kinds of people: he had
sold ribbons through a dozen States. He never had a moment's doubt of himself.
He never hesitated to allow himself any indulgence which would not interfere
with business. He had one ambition in life--to marry Miss Mercer and get a
share in the house. Miss Mercer was as ugly as a millionaire's tombstone. Mr.
Bertie Leon--who, when his moustache was not dyed nor his hair greased, was
really quite a handsome fellow--considered that the sacrifice he proposed to
make in the interests of trade must be made good to him in some way. So,
"by way of getting even," he made violent love to all the pretty eyes
he met in his commercial travels--"to have something to think about after
he should have found favor in the strabismic optics of Miss Mercer," he
observed, disrespectfully.
Simple Susie, who had seen nothing of young men besides the
awkward and blushing clodhoppers of Chaney Creek, was somewhat dazzled by the
free-and-easy speech and manner of the hard-cheeked bagman. Yet there was
something in his airy talk and point-blank compliments that aroused a faint
feeling of resentment which she could scarcely account for. Aunt Abigail was
delighted with him, and when he bowed his adieux at the gate in the most recent
Planters'-House style, she cordially invited him to call--"to drop in any
time: he must be lonesome so far from home."
He said he wouldn't neglect such a chance, with another
Planters'-House bow.
"What a nice young man!" said Aunt Abigail.
"Awful conceited and not overly polite," said Susie as
she took off her bonnet and went into a revel of bows and trimmings.
The oftener Albert Leon came to Mrs. Barringer's bowery cottage,
the more the old lady was pleased with him and the more the young one
criticised him, until it was plain to be seen that Aunt Abigail was growing
tired of him and pretty Susan dangerously interested. But just at this point
his inexorable carpet-bag dragged him off to a neighboring town, and Susie soon
afterward went back to Chaney Creek.
Her Jacksonville hat and ribbons made her what her pretty eyes
never could have done--the belle of the neighborhood. Non cuivis contingit
adire Lutetiam, but to a village where no one has been at Paris the county-town
is a shrine of fashion. Allen Golyer felt a vague sense of distrust chilling
his heart as he saw Mr. Simmons' ribbons decking the pretty head in the village
choir the Sunday after her return, and, spurred on by a nascent jealousy of the
unknown, resolved to learn his fate without loss of time. But the little lady
received him with such cool and unconcerned friendliness, talked so much and so
fast about her visit, that the honest fellow was quite bewildered, and had to
go home to think the matter over, and cudgel his dull wits to divine whether
she was pleasanter than ever, or had drifted altogether out of his reach.
Allen Golyer was, after all, a man of nerve and decision. He
wasted only a day or two in doubts and fears, and one Sunday afternoon, with a
beating but resolute heart, he left his Sunday-school class to walk down to
Crystal Glen and solve his questions and learn his doom. When he came in sight
of the widow's modest house, he saw a buggy hitched by the gate.
"Dow Padgett's chestnut sorrel, by jing! What is Dow after
out here?"
It is natural, if not logical, that young men should regard the
visits of all other persons of their age and sex in certain quarters as a
serious impropriety.
But it was not his friend and crony Dow Padgett, the liveryman,
who came out of the widow's door, leading by the hand the blushing and bridling
Susie. It was a startling apparition of the Southwestern dandy of the
period--light hair drenched with bear's oil, blue eyes and jet-black moustache,
an enormous paste brooch in his bosom, a waistcoat and trowsers that shrieked
in discordant tones, and very small and elegant varnished boots. The gamblers
and bagmen of the Mississippi River are the best-shod men in the world.
Golyer's heart sank within him as this splendid being shone upon
him. But with his rustic directness he walked to meet the laughing couple at
the gate, and said, "Tudie, I come to see you. Shall I go in and talk to
your mother twell you come back?"
"No, that won't pay," promptly replied the brisk
stranger. "We will be gone the heft of the afternoon, I reckon. This hoss
is awful slow," he added with a wink of preternatural mystery to Miss
Susie.
"Mr. Golyer," said the young lady, "let me
interduce you to my friend, Mr. Leon."
Golyer put out his hand mechanically, after the cordial fashion of
the West. But Leon nodded and said, "I hope to see you again." He
lifted Miss Susie into the buggy, sprang lightly in, and went off with laughter
and the cracking of his whip after Dow Padgett's chestnut sorrel.
The young farmer walked home desolate, comparing in his simple
mind his own plain exterior with his rival's gorgeous toilet, his awkward
address with the other's easy audacity, till his heart was full to the brim
with that infernal compound of love and hate which is called jealousy, from
which pray Heaven to guard you.
It was the next morning that Miss Susie vaulted over the fence
where Allen Golyer was digging the hole for Colonel Blood's apple tree.
"Something middlin' particular," continued Golyer,
resolutely.
"There is no use leaving your work," said Miss Barringer
pluckily. "I will stay and listen."
Poor Allen began as badly as possible: "Who was that feller
with you yesterday?"
"Thank you, Mr. Golyer--my friends ain't fellers! What's that
to you, who he was?"
"Susie Barringer, we have been keeping company now a matter
of a year. I have loved you well and true: I would have give my life to save
you any little care or trouble. I never dreamed of nobody but you--not that I
was half good enough for you, but because I did not know any better man around
here. Ef it ain't too late, Susie, I ask you to be my wife. I will love you and
care for you, good and true."
Before this solemn little speech was finished, Susie was crying and
biting her bonnet-strings in a most undignified manner. "Hush, Al
Golyer!" she burst out. "You mustn't talk so. You are too good for
me. I am kind of promised to that fellow. I 'most wish I had never seen
him."
Allen sprang to her and took her in his strong arms: she struggled
free from him. In a moment the vibration which his passionate speech had
produced in her passed away. She dried her eyes and said firmly enough,
"It's no use, Al: we wouldn't be happy together. Good-bye! I shouldn't
wonder if I went away from Chaney Creek before long."
She walked rapidly down to the river-road. Allen stood fixed and
motionless, gazing at the light, graceful form until the blue dress vanished
behind the hill, and leaned long on his spade, unconscious of the lapse of
time.
When Susan reached her home she found Leon at the gate.
"Ah, my little rosebud! I came near missing you. I am going
to Keokuk this morning, to be gone a few days. I stopped here a minute to give
you something to keep for me till I come back."
"What is it?"
He took her chubby cheeks between his hands and laid on her
cherry-ripe lips a keepsake which he never reclaimed.
She stood watching him from the gate until, as a clump of willows
snatched him from her, she thought, "He will go right by where Al is at
work. It would be jest like him to jump over the fence and have a talk with
him. I'd like to hear it."
An hour or so later, as she sat and sewed in the airy little
entry, a shadow fell upon her work, and as she looked up her startled eyes met
the piercing glance of her discarded lover. A momentary ripple of remorse
passed over her cheerful heart as she saw Allen's pale and agitated face. He
was paler than she had ever seen him, with that ghastly pallor of
weather-beaten faces. His black hair, wet with perspiration, clung clammily to
his temples. He looked beaten, discouraged, utterly fatigued with the conflict
of emotion. But one who looked closely in his eyes would have seen a curious
stealthy, half-shaded light in them, as of one who, though working against
hope, was still not without resolute will.
Dame Barringer, who had seen him coming up the walk, bustled in:
"Good-morning, Allen. How beat out you do look! Now, I like a stiddy young
man, but don't you think you run this thing of workin' into the ground?"
"Wail, maybe so," said Golyer with a weary
smile--"leastways I've been a-running this spade into the ground all the
morning, and--"
"You want buttermilk--that's your idee: ain't it,
now?"
"Well, Mizzes Barringer, I reckon you know my failin's."
The good woman trotted off to the dairy, and Susie sewed demurely,
waiting with some trepidation for what was to come next.
"Susie Barringer," said a low, husky voice which she
could scarcely recognize as Golyer's, "I've come to ask pardon--not for
nothing I've done, for I never did and never could do you wrong--but for what I
thought for a while arter you left me this morning. It's all over now, but I
tell you the Bad Man had his claws into my heart for a spell.
Now it's all over, and I wish you well. I wish your husband well. If ever you
git into any trouble where I can help, send for me: it's my right. It's the
last favor I ask of you."
Susceptible Susie cried a little again. Allen, watching her with
his ambushed eyes, said, "Don't take it to heart, Tudie. Perhaps there is
better days in store for me yet."
This did not appear to comfort Miss Barringer in the least. She
was greatly grieved when she thought she had broken a young man's heart: she
was still more dismal at the slightest intimation that she had not. If any
explanation of this paradox is required, I would observe, quoting a phrase much
in vogue among the witty writers of the present age, that Miss Susie Barringer
was "a very female woman."
So pretty Susan's rising sob subsided into a coquettish pout by
the time her mother came in with the foaming pitcher of subacidulous nectar,
and plied young Golyer with brimming beakers of it with all the beneficent
delight of a Lady Bountiful.
"There, Mizzes Barringer! there's about as much as I can
tote. Temperance in all things."
"Very well, then, you work less and play more. We never get a
sight of you lately. Come in neighborly and play checkers with Tudie."
It was the darling wish of Mother Barringer's heart to see her
daughter married and settled with "a stiddy young man that you knowed all
about, and his folks before him." She had observed with great disquietude
the brilliant avatar of Mr. Bertie Leon and the evident pride of her daughter
in the bright-plumaged captive she had brought to Chaney Creek, the spoil of
her maiden snare. "I don't more'n half like that little feller." (It
is a Western habit to call a well-dressed man a "little feller." The
epithet would light on Hercules Farnese if he should go to Illinois dressed as
a Cocodès.) "No honest folks wears beard onto their upper lips. I wouldn't
be surprised if he wasn't a gamboller."
Allen Golyer, apparently unconscious in his fatigue of the cap
which Dame Barringer was vicariously setting for him, walked away with his
spade on his shoulder, and the good woman went systematically to work in making
Susie miserable by sharp little country criticisms of her heart's idol.
Day after day wore on, and, to Dame Barringer's delight and
Susie's dismay, Mr. Leon did not come.
"He is such a businessman," thought trusting Susan,
"he can't get away from Keokuk. But he'll be sure to write." So Susie
put on her sun-bonnet and hurried up to the post-office: "Any letters for
me, Mr. Whaler?" The artful and indefinite plural was not disguise enough
for Miss Susie, so she added, "I was expecting a letter from my
aunt."
"No letters here from your aunt, nor your uncle, nor none of
the tribe," said old Whaler, who had gone over with Tyler to keep his
place, and so had no further use for good manners.
"I think old Tommy Whaler is an impudent old wretch,"
said Susie that evening, "and I won't go near his old post-office
again." But Susie forgot her threat of vengeance the next day, and she
went again, lured by family affection, to inquire for that letter which Aunt
Abbie must have written. The third time she went, rummy old
Whaler roared very improperly, "Bother your aunt! You've got a beau
somewheres--that's what's the matter."
Poor Susan was so dazzled by this flash of clairvoyance that she
hurried from that dreadful post-office, scarcely hearing the terrible words
that the old gin-pig hurled after her: "And he's forgot you!--that's
what's the matter."
Susie Barringer walked home along the river-road, revolving many
things in her mind. She went to her room and locked her door by sticking a
pen-knife over the latch, and sat down to have a good cry. Her faculties being
thus cleared for action, she thought seriously for an hour. If you can remember
when you were a school-girl, you know a great deal of solid thinking can be
done in an hour. But we can tell you in a moment what it footed up. You can
walk through the Louvre in a minute, but you cannot see it in a week.
Susan Barringer (sola, loquitur): "Three weeks yesterday. Yes, I s'pose
it's so. What a little fool I was! He goes everywheres--says the same things to
everybody, like he was selling ribbons. Mean little scamp! Mother seen through
him in a minute. I'm mighty glad I didn't tell her nothing about it."
[Fie, Susie! your principles are worse than your grammar.] "He'll marry
some rich girl--I don't envy her, but I hate her--and I am as good as she is.
Maybe he will come back--no, and I hope he won't;--and I wish I was dead!"
(Pocket handkerchief.)
Yet in the midst of her grief there was one comforting
thought--nobody knew of it. She had no confidante--she had not even opened her
heart to her mother: these Western maidens have a fine gift of reticence. A few
of her countryside friends and rivals had seen with envy and admiration the
pretty couple on the day of Leon's arrival. But all their poisonous little
compliments and questions had never elicited from the prudent Susie more than
the safe statement that the handsome stranger was a friend of Aunt Abbie's,
whom she had met at Jacksonville. They could not laugh at her: they could not
sneer at gay deceivers and lovelorn damsels when she went to the sewing-circle.
The bitterness of her tears was greatly sweetened by the consideration that in
any case no one could pity her. She took such consolation from this thought
that she faced her mother unflinchingly at tea, and baffled the maternal
inquest on her "redness of eyes" by the school-girl's invaluable and
ever-ready headache.
It was positively not until a week later, when she met Allen
Golyer at choir-meeting, that she remembered that this man knew the secret of
her baffled hopes. She blushed scarlet as he approached her: "Have you got
company home, Miss Susie?"
"Yes--that is, Sally Withers and me came together,
and--"
"No, that's hardly fair to Tom Fleming: three ain't the
pleasantest company. I will go home with you."
Susie took the strong arm that was held out to her, and leaned
upon it with a mingled feeling of confidence and dread as they walked home
through the balmy night under the clear, starry heaven of the early spring. The
air was full of the quickening breath of May.
Susie Barringer waited in vain for some signal of battle from
Allen Golyer. He talked more than usual, but in a grave, quiet, protecting
style, very different from his former manner of worshiping bashfulness. His
tone had in it an air of fatherly caressing which was inexpressibly soothing to
his pretty companion, tired and lonely with her silent struggle of the past
month. When they came to her gate and he said good-night, she held his hand a
moment with a tremulous grasp, and spoke impulsively: "Al, I once told you
something I never told anybody else. I'll tell you something else now, because
I believe I can trust you."
"Be sure of that, Susie Barringer."
"Well, Al, my engagement is broken off."
"I am sorry for you, Susie, if you set much store by
him."
Miss Susie answered with great and unnecessary impetuosity,
"I don't, and I am glad of it!" and then ran into the house and to
bed, her cheeks all aflame at the thought of her indiscretion, and yet with a
certain comfort in having a friend from whom she had no secrets.
I protest there was no thought of coquetry in the declaration
which Susan Barringer blurted out to her old lover under the sympathetic
starlight of the May heaven. But Allen Golyer would have been a dull boy not to
have taken heart and hope from it. He became, as of old, a frequent and welcome
visitor at Crystal Glen. Before long the game of chequers with Susie became so
enthralling a passion that it was only adjourned from one evening to another.
Allen's white shirts grew fringy at the edges with fatigue-duty, and his large
hands were furry at the fingers with much soap. Susie's affectionate heart,
which had been swayed a moment from its orbit by the irresistible attraction of
Bertie Leon's diamond breastpin and city swagger, swung back to its ancient
course under the mild influence of time and the weather and opportunity. So
that Dame Barringer was not in the least surprised, on entering her little
parlor one soft afternoon in that very May, to see the two young people
economically occupying one chair, and Susie shouting the useless appeal,
"Mother, make him behave!"
"I never interfere in young folks' matters, especially when
they're going all right," said the motherly old soul, kissing "her
son Allen" and trotting away to dry her happy tears.
I am almost ashamed to say how soon they were married--so soon
that when Miss Susan went with her mother to Keokuk to buy a wedding-garment,
she half expected to find, in every shop she entered, the elegant figure of Mr.
Leon leaning over the counter. But the dress was bought and made, and worn at
wedding and in-fair and in a round of family visits among the
Barringer and Golyer kin, and carefully laid away in lavender when the pair
came back from their modest holiday and settled down to real life on Allen's
prosperous farm; and no word of Bertie Leon ever came to Mrs. Golyer to trouble
her joy. In her calm and busy life the very name faded from her tranquil mind.
These wholesome country hearts do not bleed long. In that wide-awake country
eyes are too useful to be wasted in weeping. My dear Lothario Urban us, those
peaches are very sound and delicious, but they will not keep for ever. If you
do not secure them to-day, they will go to some one else, and in no case, as
the Autocrat hath said with authority, can you stand there "mellering 'em
with your thumb."
There was no happier home in the county, and few finer farms. The
good sense and industry of Golyer and the practical helpfulness of his wife
found their full exercise in the care of his spreading fields and growing
orchards. The Warsaw merchants fought for his wheat, and his apples were known
in St. Louis. Mrs. Golyer, with that spice of romance which is hidden away in
every woman's heart, had taken a special fancy to the seedling apple tree at
whose planting she had so intimately assisted. Allen shared in this, as in all
her whims, and tended and nursed it like a child. In time he gave up the care
of his orchard to other hands, but he reserved this seedling for his own especial
coddling. He spaded and mulched and pruned it, and guarded it in the winter
from rodent rabbits and in summer from terebrant grubs. It was not ungrateful.
It grew a noble tree, producing a rich and luscious fruit, with a deep scarlet
satin coat, and a flesh tinged as delicately as a pink seashell. The first peck
of apples was given to Susie with great ceremony, and the next year the first
bushel was carried to Colonel Blood, the Congressman. He was loud in his
admiration, as the autumn elections were coming on: "Great Scott, Golyer!
I'd rather give my name to a horticultooral triumph like that there than be
Senator."
"You've got your wish, then, colonel," said Golyer.
"Me and my wife have called that tree The Blood Seedling sence the day it
was transplanted from your pastur'."
It was the pride and envy of the neighborhood. Several neighbors
asked for scions and grafts, but could do nothing with them.
"Fact is," said old Silas Withers, "those folks
that expects to raise good fruit by begging graffs, and then layin' abed and
readin' newspapers, will have a good time waitin'. Elbow-grease is the secret
of the Blood Seedlin', ain't it, Al?"
"Well, I reckon, Squire Withers, a man never gits anything
wuth havin' without a tussle for it; and as to secrets, I don't believe in
them, nohow."
A square-browed, resolute, silent, middle-aged man, who loved his
home better than any amusement, regular at church, at the polls, something
richer every Christmas than he had been on the New Year's preceding--a man whom
everybody liked and few loved much--such had Allen Golyer grown to be.
If I have lingered too long over this colorless and commonplace
picture of rural Western life, it is because I have felt an instinctive
reluctance to recount the startling and most improbable incident which fell one
night upon this quiet neighborhood, like a thunderbolt out of blue sky. The
story I must tell will be flatly denied and easily refuted. It is absurd and
fantastic, but, unless human evidence is to go for nothing when it testifies of
things unusual, the story is true.
At the head of the rocky hollow through which Chaney Creek ran to
the river, lived the family who gave the brook its name. They were among the
early pioneers of the county. In the squatty yellow stone house the present
Chaney occupied his grandfather had stood a siege from Black Hawk all one
summer day and night, until relieved by the garrison of Fort Edward. The family
had not grown with the growth of the land. Like many others of the pioneers,
they had shown no talent for keeping abreast of the civilization whose guides
and skirmishers they had been. In the progress of a half century they had sold,
bit by bit, their section of land, which kept intact would have proved a
fortune. They lived very quietly, working enough to secure their own pork and
hominy, and regarding with a sort of impatient scorn every scheme of public or
private enterprise that passed under their eyes.
The elder Chaney had married, some years before, at the Mormon
town of Nauvoo, the fair-haired daughter of a Swedish mystic, who had come
across the sea beguiled by dreams of a perfect theocracy, and who on arriving
at the city of the Latter-Day Saints had died, broken-hearted from his lost
illusions.
The only dowry that Seraphita Neilsen brought her husband, besides
her delicate beauty and her wide blue eyes, was a full set of Swedenborg's
later writings in English. These became the daily food of the solitary
household. Saul Chaney would read the exalted rhapsodies of the Northern seer
for hours together, without the first glimmer of their meaning crossing his
brain. But there was something in the majesty of their language and the solemn
roll of their poetical development that irresistibly impressed and attracted
him. Little Gershom, his only child, sitting at his feet, would listen in
childish wonder to the strange things his silent, morose and gloomy father
found in the well-worn volumes, until his tired eyelids would fall at last over
his pale, bulging eyes.
As he grew up his eyes bulged more and more: his head seemed too
large for his rickety body. He pored over the marvelous volumes until he knew
long passages by heart, and understood less of them than his father--which was
unnecessary. He looked a little like his mother, but while she in her youth had
something of the faint and flickering beauty of the Boreal Lights, poor Gershom
never could have suggested anything more heavenly than a foggy moonlight. When
he was fifteen he went to the neighboring town of Warsaw to school. He had
rather heavy weather among the well-knit, grubby-knuckled urchins of the town,
and would have been thoroughly disheartened but for one happy chance. At the
house where he boarded an amusement called the "Sperrit Rappin's" was
much in vogue. A group of young folks, surcharged with all sorts of animal
magnetism, with some capacity for belief and much more for fun, used to gather
about a light pine table every evening, and put it through a complicated course
of mystical gymnastics. It was a very good-tempered table: it would dance, hop
or slam at the word of command, or, if the exercises took a more intellectual
turn, it would answer any questions addressed to it in a manner not much below
the average capacity of its tormentors.
Gershom Chaney took all this in solemn earnest. He was from the
first moment deeply impressed. He lay awake whole nights, with his eyes fast
closed, in the wildest dreams. His school-hours were passed in trancelike
contemplation. He cared no more for punishment than the fakeer for his
self-inflicted tortures. He longed for the coming of the day when he could
commune in solitude with the unfleshed and immortal. This was the full
flowering of those seeds of fantasy that had fallen into his infant mind as he
lay baking his brains by the wide fire in the old stone house at the head of
the hollow, while his father read, haltingly, of the wonders of the invisible
world.
But, to his great mortification, he saw nothing, heard nothing,
experienced nothing but in the company of others. He must brave the ridicule of
the profane to taste the raptures which his soul loved. His simple, trusting
faith made him inevitably the butt of the mischievous circle. They were not
slow in discovering his extreme sensibility to external influences. One
muscular, black-haired, heavy-browed youth took especial delight in practicing
upon him. The table, under Gershom's tremulous hands, would skip like a lamb at
the command of this Thomas Fay.
One evening, Tom Fay had a great triumph. They had been trying to
get the "medium"--for Gershom had reached that dignity--to answer
sealed questions, and had met with indifferent success. Fay suddenly approached
the table, scribbled a phrase, folded it and tossed it, doubled up, before
Gershom; then leaned over the table, staring at his pale, unwholesome face with
all the might of his black eyes.
Chaney seized the pencil convulsively and wrote,
"Balaam!"
Fay burst into a loud laugh and said, "Read the
question?"
It was, "Who rode on your grandfather's back?"
This is a specimen of the cheap wit and harmless malice by which
poor Gershom suffered as long as he stayed at school. He was never offended,
but was often sorely perplexed, at the apparent treachery of his unseen
counselors. He was dismissed at last from the academy for utter and
incorrigible indolence. He accepted his disgrace as a crown of martyrdom, and
went proudly home to his sympathizing parents.
Here, with less criticism and more perfect faith, he renewed the
exercise of what he considered his mysterious powers. His fastings and vigils,
and want of bodily movement and fresh air, had so injured his health as to make
him tenfold more nervous and sensitive than ever. But his faintings and
hysterics and epileptic paroxysms were taken more and more as evidences of his
lofty mission. His father and mother regarded him as an oracle, for the simple
reason that he always answered just as they expected. A curious or
superstitious neighbor was added from time to time to the circle, and their
reports heightened the half-uncanny interest with which the Chaney house was
regarded.
It was on a moist and steamy evening of spring that Allen Golyer,
standing by his gate, saw Saul Chaney slouching along in the twilight, and
hailed him: "What news from the sperrits, Saul?"
"Nothing for you, Al Golyer," said Saul, gloomily.
"The god of this world takes care of the like o' you."
Golyer smiled, as a prosperous man always does when his poorer
neighbors abuse him for his luck, and rejoined: "I ain't so fortunate as
you think for, Saul Chaney. I lost a Barksher pig yesterday: I reckon I must
come up and ask Gershom what's come of it."
"Come along, if you like. It's been a long while sence you've
crossed my sill. But I'm gitting to be quite the style. Young Lawyer Marshall
is a-coming up this evening to see my Gershom."
Before Mr. Golyer started he filled a basket, "to make
himself welcome and pay for the show," with the reddest and finest fruit
of his favorite apple tree. His wife followed him to the gate and kissed him--a
rather unusual attention among Western farmer-people. Her face, still rosy and
comely, was flushed and smiling: "Al, do you know what day o' the year it
is?"
"Nineteenth of Aprile?"
"Yes; and twenty years ago to-day you planted the Blood
Seedlin' and I give you the mitten!" She turned and went into the house,
laughing comfortably.
Allen walked slowly up the hollow to the Chaney house, and gave
the apples to Seraphita and told her their story. A little company was
assembled--two or three Chaney Creek people, small market-gardeners, with eyes
the color of their gooseberries and hands the color of their currants; Mr.
Marshall, a briefless young barrister from Warsaw, with a tawny friend, who
spoke like a Spaniard.
"Take seats, friends, and form a circle o' harmony,"
said Saul Chaney. "The me'jum is in fine condition: he had two fits this
arternoon."
Gershom looked shockingly ill and weak. He reclined in a great
hickory arm-chair, with his eyes half open, his lips moving noiselessly. All
the persons present formed a circle and joined hands.
The moment the circle was completed by Saul and Seraphita, who
were on either side of their son, touching his hands, an expression of pain and
perplexity passed over his pale face, and he began to writhe and mutter.
"He's seein' visions," said Saul.
"Yes, too many of 'em," said Gershom, querulously.
"A boy in a boat, a man on a shelf, and a man with a spade--all at once:
too many. Get me a pencil. One at a time, I tell you--one at a time!"
The circle broke up, and a table was brought, with writing
materials. Gershom grasped a pencil, and said, with imperious and feverish
impatience, "Come on, now, and don't waste the time of the shining
ones."
An old woman took his right hand. He wrote with his left very
rapidly an instant, and threw her the paper, always with his eyes shut close.
Old Mrs. Scritcher read with difficulty, "A boy in a
boat--over he goes;" and burst out in a piteous wail, "Oh, my poor
little Ephraim! I always knowed it."
"Silence, woman!" said the relentless medium.
"Mr. Marshall," said Saul, "would you like a
test?"
"No, thank you," said the young gentleman. "I
brought my friend, Mr. Baldassano, who, as a traveler, is interested in these
things."
"Will you take the medium's hand, Mr. What's-your-name?"
The young foreigner took the lean and feverish hand of Gershom,
and again the pencil flew rapidly over the paper. He pushed the manuscript from
him and snatched his hand away from Baldassano. As the latter looked at what
was written, his tawny cheek grew deadly pale. "Dios mio!" he
exclaimed to Marshall. "This is written in Castilian!"
The two young men retired to the other end of the room and read by
the tallow candle the notes scrawled on the paper. Baldassano translated:
"A man on a shelf--table covered with bottles beside him: man's face
yellow as gold: bottles tumble over without being touched."
"What nonsense is that?" said Marshall.
"My brother died of yellow fever at sea last year."
Both the young men became suddenly very thoughtful, and observed
with great interest the result of Golyer's "test." He sat by Gershom,
holding his hand tightly, but gazing absently into the dying blaze of the wide
chimney. He seemed to have forgotten where he was: a train of serious thought
appeared to hold him completely under its control. His brows were knit with an
expression of severe almost fierce determination. At one moment his breathing
was hard and thick--a moment after hurried and broken.
All this while the fingers of Gershom were flying rapidly over the
paper, independently of his eyes, which were sometimes closed, and sometimes rolling
as if in trouble.
A wind which had been gathering all the evening now came moaning
up the hollow, rattling the window-blinds, and twisting into dull complaint the
boughs of the leafless trees. Its voice came chill and cheerless into the dusky
room, where the fire was now glimmering near its death, and the only sounds
were those of Gershom's rushing pencil, the whispering of Marshall and his
friend, and old Mother Scritcher feebly whimpering in her corner. The scene was
sinister. Suddenly, a rushing gust blew the door wide open.
Golyer started to his feet, trembling in every limb, and looking
furtively over his shoulder out into the night. Quickly recovering himself, he
turned to resume his place. But the moment he dropped Gershom's hand, the
medium had dropped his pencil, and had sunk back in his chair in a deep and
deathlike slumber. Golyer seized the sheet of paper, and with the first line
that he read a strange and horrible transformation was wrought in the man. His
eyes protruded, his teeth chattered, he passed his hand over his head
mechanically, and his hair stood up like the bristles on the back of a swine in
rage. His face was blotched white and purple. He looked piteously about him for
a moment, then crumpling the paper in his hand, cried out in a hoarse, choking
voice, "Yes, it's a fact: I done it. It's no use denying on't.. Here it
is, in black and white. Everybody knows it: ghosts come spooking around to
tattle about it. What's the use of lying? I done it."
He paused, as if struck by a sudden recollection, then burst into
tears and shook like a tree in a high wind. In a moment he dropped on his
knees, and in that posture crawled over to Marshall: "Here, Mr.
Marshall--here's the whole story. For God's sake, spare my wife and children all
you can. Fix my little property all right for 'em, and God bless you for
it!" Even while he was speaking, with a quick revulsion of feeling he rose
to his feet, with a certain return of his natural dignity, and said, "But
they sha'n't take me! None of my kin ever died that way: I've got too much sand
in my gizzard to be took that way. Good-bye, friends all!"
He walked deliberately out into the wild, windy night.
Marshall glanced hurriedly at the fatal paper in his hand. It was
full of that capricious detail with which in reverie we review scenes that are
past. But a line here and there clearly enough told the story--how he went out
to plant the apple tree; how Susie came by and rejected him; how he passed into
the power of the devil for the time; how Bertie Leon came by and spoke to him,
and patted him on the shoulder, and talked about city life; how he hated him
and his pretty face and his good clothes; how they came to words and blows, and
he struck him with his spade, and he fell into the trench, and he buried him
there at the roots of the tree.
Marshall, following his first impulse, thrust the paper into the
dull red coals. It flamed for an instant, and flew with a sound like a sob up
the chimney.
They hunted for Golyer all night, but in the morning found him lying
as if asleep, with the peace of expiation on his pale face, his pruning-knife
in his, heart, and the red current of his life tinging the turf with crimson
around the roots of the Blood Seedling.
5.The Marquis
Mrs. Ruggles lived near Crawfish Creek. Crawfish Creek ran near
Thompson City. Thompson City was in a Western State, but now is in a Middle
one. It was always in the midst of a great country--accepting local testimony
and a rank growth of corn and politicians as the tests of greatness. The earth
there was monotonously parched in summer, and monotonously muddy at all other
times. The forests were gigantic, the air carbonic, and when the citizens
wished to give Thompson City the highest commendation, they did so by saying
that "fevernagur" was worse in some other places.
In the parlor of Mrs. Ruggles, which was also her kitchen and
dining-hall, hung a frame containing a seven-by-nine mirror, which was the
frame's excuse for being, although a compartment above and one below held
squares of glass covered with paint instead of mercury. The lower one was
colored like the contents of a wash-tub after a liberal use of indigo; and in
the centre was a horizontal stroke of red, surmounted by a perpendicular dash
of white, intersected by an oblique line of black--all of which represented a
red boat, with a white sail and black spar, making an endless voyage across the
lake of indigo. The black crosses in the sky were birds. The black lines on the
left were bulrushes. And among these bulrushes a certain gloomy little object
was either a Hebrew prophet or a muskrat.
Above the mirror was painted a long-tailed coat, from behind which
extended a hand holding a bell-crowned hat, to whose scarlet lining the holder
seemed inviting the spectator's particular attention. There were also a pair of
legs and boots, a heavy shock of hair, a labyrinth of neckcloth and a florid
human face. Under the boots were the words,
MARQUIS DE LA FAYETTE.
And the beholder was ever in doubt whether the marquis was trying
to stand exclusively upon this title or was unconsciously trampling it into the
ground.
Mrs. Ruggles admired this picture. Her knowledge of French was not
great, but her ear was delicate; and thinking the words "sounded
handsome," she had deliberately conferred them in full on her first-born.
When in good-humor she was content with calling him "Marquis-dee." In
fact, it was only when chasing him into the street with a lilac bush in her
hand that she insisted on addressing him by his full name. At such times, between
each flourish of the lilac bush and each yell of the young nobleman, she
pronounced with significant fullness, with fearful exactness, the
handsome-sounding name of Marquis de la Fayette Ruggles. His playmates,
however, had not the delicate ear of the mother, and as the son had brown
specks on his face, he was popularly known as "Frecky Rug."
Mrs. Ruggles and her late husband were pioneers in the Crawfish
Valley. Subsequent settlers knew little, and apparently cared less, about her.
They knew, however, that she had been a Peables, and that Peables blood was
still doing its duty in her veins. And from her independence and reserve they
argued that the Peableses must have been "high up"--at least in the
estimation of Mrs. Ruggles. After Mr. Ruggles had been overcome by malaria in
clearing the creek bottoms the pride of the Peables blood had sustained her in
a long, brave fight with circumstances.
It was while he lay one night upon his deathbed, mistaking a
watching neighbor for his wife, that he started up, saying, "Becky, if I
could prove it to you afore I died!"
"Out of his head," was the quiet remark of Mrs. Ruggles
to the watching neighbor by the bedside. There was no further sign of delirium.
That exclamation of the dying Mr. Ruggles was a mystery to the women of
Crawfish Creek, and remains so to this day.
It may be that the pride of Mrs. Ruggles was in excess of her
wisdom. It may be if that pride had been a little more respected by the
irreverent Crawfish settlers, they would not have had occasion to wonder, as
they did wonder, how a heart so true, an honesty so stoical, a discrimination
so acute could exist with an independence so absurd, a mind so uncultured, a
sense of dignity so ridiculous as were found united in her character. It may be
that the Peables blood was worthy of receiving honor as great as the ridicule
it did receive. It may be if the world had known the Peableses it would have
been as proud of them as she was.
She was a person of scrupulous neatness, careful never to be seen
by strangers except in a tidy dress, and with her hair in a Grecian knot,
gracefully secured by a leather string and a wooden peg. "Weak
creepings" were her main reliance in the way of disease. She was also
troubled, at times, with a "fullness of the head." In addition, there
were other times when her right side "felt separate." But she seldom
complained of anything belonging to herself. Even her maladies, she took
pleasure in knowing, were very different from those enjoyed by certain other
women. Unwilling to be too familiar with any one baser than a Ruggles, she
usually dined, as she lived, alone with her noble son.
On a certain summer evening she stirred her tea a long time in
silence. She stirred it vigorously, creating a maelstrom inside her cup, where,
very like a whale in the story-books, a little crust of bread disappeared and
reappeared, and sailed round and round as if very much perplexed. Then she
unconsciously reversed the current of the maelstrom, sending the baked and
buttered whale to the bottom.
"She smilingly waited a moment for the composure of the young
naturalist's feelings."
"I never see that air Miller, no odds how well I be,"
she remarked mechanically to the tea-pot, "but what I feel weak creepin's
come over me. He puts dye-stuff on his baird. An' when a man's whiskers is gray
an' his head keeps black, it's a sign he uses his jaw more'n he does his
brains. An' that yaller-headed doll-baby o' his'n--the peert thing:--I'll lay
fifty cents she never washed a dish. To think o' her sayin' a thing like that
about Markis-dee!--an' there's more o' the Peables in him to-day--But I s'pose
she don't know no better." And Mrs. Ruggles rose from the table, while the
corner of her apron made a sudden journey to the corner of her eye. It was
evident her moral nature had received a wound that rankled.
A year before this time the marquis and his playmates had watched
several vigorous fellows plant a theodolite on the bank of Crawfish Creek, very
much as the natives must have watched the Spaniards plant their first cross on
San Salvador. The contract for grading the new railway bed was in the hands of
a stranger named Miller, who was said to have known better days, and in the
time of his prosperity had been thought a proper person to be called Colonel.
He was a bluff man of forty years, who appeared to have known both the ups and
downs of life, and whose determination to wear a black beard was equaled only
by its determination to be gray. Rumor said that he had been a railroad
president, that he made and spent vast sums of money, and that his home was
somewhere in the East.
His only child, Alice, ten or twelve years old, bright, fair, full
of animal spirits, who was indulged to the last degree by the roughly generous
colonel, sometimes accompanied him about the half-developed country, searching
for strange birds and blossoms in the woods or watching demurely the laborers
ply their picks and shovels while he inspected their work.
The two rode almost daily between Thompson City and the line of
excavation, passing the house of Mrs. Ruggles and a cool spring by the roadside
near it, whence that lady had obtained the water which made the tea which was
stirred into the maelstrom which has been described. While obtaining it, clad
in her working garb, the patter of hoofs and a clear girlish laugh--sweet as
the carol of a meadow lark--came ringing along the road. As the colonel and
Alice halted to let her high-mettled pony and his heavier Morgan drink, Mrs.
Ruggles, who could not otherwise escape observation, with becoming pride and
modesty stepped behind the thick willows, leaving the marquis with a pail of
water between his legs and a bunch of mottled feathers in his hand.
He stood dumb before the lovely girl, with her face sparkling from
exercise and enjoyment, and her golden hair escaping from its prison of blue
ribbons. While the horses drank she espied a cluster of cool violets
brightening the damp grass near the spring. The marquis had presence of mind
enough left to step forward and pluck them. Her "Thank you!" added
greatly to his embarrassment, which he expressed by vigorously twisting the
mottled feathers.
"What bird are those from?" asked Alice.
The question so increased his embarrassment that now the marquis
could express it only by chewing his cap, and she smilingly waited a moment for
the composure of the young naturalist's feelings.
"She was a low, chunky hen," said he, at
length--"she was a low, chunky hen, an' she laid a hundred an' seven eggs,
an' then she had spazzums an' whirled roun' till she died."
A burst of irrepressible laughter escaped Alice, with the
exclamation, "Did anybody ever see such a boy?" as she and her father
rode away. And those were the exceptionable words concerning her son which so
rankled that evening in the heart of Mrs. Ruggles.
The marquis gazed with hungry eyes after the airy little figure as
it dashed down the unlovely, worm-fenced road. The golden hair, overflowing its
boundaries of blue ribbon, was more glorious to him than the golden sunshine
overflowing the blue sky. They met no more at the spring, but several times a
week, from a respectful distance, he watched her riding by. From Thompson City
to the little log bridge over Crawfish Creek the road lay for four miles
through heavy woods. Then came cleared fields, and soon the house of Mrs.
Ruggles.
So the summer days went by. The season was waning, the grading was
almost done, and soon the contractor would be elsewhere. Then came one
particularly warm and sultry day. The screams of locusts everywhere suggested
that they were frying. The colonel, riding once more slowly out toward the
workmen with his daughter, was near the middle of the forest. The trees on
either hand were tall, and the road was so straight and narrow that the
sunlight scarcely touched it. The marquis, in the top of a tall chestnut that
overhung the road near the edge of the wood, was overhauling a nest of flying
squirrels--perhaps in the hope of finding mottled feathers on their wings. From
his elevation he could see for a great distance down the level, dusty road
between the trees, and far across the surrounding country.
The sun did not shine bright, yet no cloud was in the sky. The
atmosphere, thick, oppressive, opaque, veiled the horizon with strange gloom.
Not a leaf could stir in the vast forest. Not a dimple nor the semblance of a
current broke the surface of the sluggish creek. Not a sound, save the
interminable frying of the locusts.
The colonel slackened his pace, surprised that his horse should so
soon begin to drip and pant--Alice, familiar with the road, in the mean time riding
a mile ahead. The marquis clung to the topmost branches, looking at the still
sky far above him, the still stream far below him, the still tree-tops far
around him, till he caught a glimpse of the only interesting object to be
seen--a black pony bearing its usual burden, if Alice Miller could be called a
burden, and pacing leisurely up the road beneath him. He gazed as far as the
palisade of trees permitted, but her father was not yet in sight.
Suddenly, in the west, a single vein of lightning darted down the
sky. A few trees shuddered as if to shake the gathering shadows from their
bosoms. Then tenfold stillness. A bird flew past with a scream of terror, the
marquis looking in vain to see a hawk pursuing it. The distant moan of a cow
came from the fields. Not another sound, it seemed, was in the world.
In an instant the south-west was black. A strange, remote murmur
smote the colonel's ear. Overhead he could see but a strip of hot, hazy sky.
Had he seen the whole heavens, he could have done nothing but go on. Quickly
the murmur became an awful muttering, then a deafening roar. The clatter, the
rush, the crash of a tornado were behind him. The groans of the very earth were
about him. The darkness of twilight was upon him. Alice and Death were before
him. A cloudy demon, towering high as the heavens, in whose path nothing could
live, was striding near and nearer.
Farm-houses were overthrown. Trees were twisted off from their
roots and torn to pieces. Wild animals and birds were dashed to death. Streams
were emptied of their waters. Human beings and horses and cattle were lifted
into the air, hurled hither and thither and thrown dead upon the earth.
The whirlwind was following the line of the road! Colonel Miller
had no opportunity to see this, nor could he ride aside from that line if he
chose. He could but cry aloud, "My darling! O God! Alice!" and lash
his horse forward. The high, close forest would keep the wind from lifting his
horse from the ground or himself from the saddle. But the great trees crashed
like thunder behind him. Their fragments whirled above him. Their branches fell
before him. The limb of a huge oak grazed his face, crushed his horse, and both
rolled to the ground, blinded with dust, imprisoned within a barricade of
splintered trunks and shattered tree-tops.
The marquis, from his high lookout, saw, before any one else, the
approaching tornado, and, descending like a flash, he yet noted its direction.
As Alice reached the foot of his tree he was on the ground, had seized the
pony's mane, was half seated and half clinging in front of her, had snatched
the reins from her hand, and was urging the frightened animal to its utmost
speed. Overcome with terror and confusion, Alice clung instinctively to the
saddle and to him, without hearing his hurried advice to "stick like a old
burdock."
They shot like an arrow up the road. The noise of the tempest was
audible. Closer it was coming, crushing, rending, annihilating all before it.
The way grew darker. The terrified pony scarce touched the ground. His only
will was to go forward, and he still obeyed a firm use of the bit. But who
could hope to outrun a hurricane? Twelve miles an hour against eighty! The
marquis heeded nothing. Not far behind, the road was but a slash of fallen,
writhing tree-tops. The sweat dropped from his face. He dared not look behind.
They reached it--the lane, by the log bridge, running at right
angles to the road--and in a moment, behind them, that lane was choked with
whirling debris.
But in that moment they had cleared the track of the whirlwind.
For the first time Alice comprehended the conduct of the marquis. For the first
time he turned to see. A quarter of a mile each side the road the hurricane had
carried complete desolation. But after passing the heavy timber it had veered
several degrees, and was sparing the house of Mrs. Ruggles.
With a white face she met them at the gate. A word of explanation
from the marquis--an ejaculation of mental anguish from the girl. Two fugitive
tie-choppers from the woods turned back to find the colonel's body. Mrs.
Ruggles, carrying Alice in her arms to the door--the yaller-headed doll-baby
that never washed a dish--did what she could to soothe her, but did it as
silently as possible.
Mrs. Ruggles intercepted the returning tie-choppers in the lane. A
look of eager joy was in their faces. The bruised colonel, assisted to the
threshold, sank into the big arm-chair, and Alice was in his arms. Mrs. Ruggles
did not see their meeting, not at all. No, her back was toward them, but the
corner of her apron made another journey to the corner of her eye as the father
folded his lost child once more to his heart.
His desire to express his gratitude to Mrs. Ruggles and her boy
was equaled only by her fears that he would do so. As a last resort he called
the marquis to him, and, while a tear stood on his rough cheek, drew a handful
of money from his pocket. But a bony hand appeared majestically between them,
and a voice said, "Not by no means. We're not them kind o' persons.
Markis-dee, put away the camfire."
Then a rickety gig rattled up to the gate:
"Contusion--severe--no danger--there!--be lame a while--so!--the other
bandage--bridge gone--creek half dry--bend your leg--so!--current turned
up-stream--now the shoulder--not strange Crawfish Creek should run backward--he!
he!" And the rickety gig rattled merrily off in search of broken bones.
Alice, meeting the marquis outside the door, approached him in a
way that made him tremble. What was said will never be known, but she placed
her white little hand upon his shoulder, the golden head bowed for a moment and
her sweet lips touched his sunburnt face.
By remaining quiet that night the colonel would be able to get
back to Thompson City in the morning. Before nine o'clock he was at rest in the
bed-room. A couch for Alice had been prepared in the same room. In the
other--kitchen, parlor and dining-hall--a blanket was thrown down for the
marquis, and two chairs fixed for the bed of Mrs. Ruggles. Before retiring,
however, she sat down at her lonely table, where, notwithstanding the tea she
drank to keep them off, an unusual number of weak creepings came over her.
"I couldn't help it," was all she said to the tea-pot.
Whether she referred to the tornado, or her kindness to the sufferers, or to
the manner of rendering the kindness, no one knows. That was all she said to
the tea-pot, but to her son, who sat for a while beside her, she spoke in a low
tone: "Markis-dee, you could never c'verse with her. You're better'n she
is. Put her out o' yer head. She laughed at ye."
"But she kissed me wi' tears in 'er eyes afterward," was
his answer as he turned toward his bed on the floor.
An hour later the tea was exhausted, but Mrs. Ruggles yet sat at
her lonely table, as still as the sleepers around her. The clock struck ten:
she nervously drew a soiled paper from her bosom. Eleven: she rose with
hesitation and set the tallow candle behind the door. Then she softly entered
the bed-room and stood before the window where Alice lay. The sky was clear
again. The moon shone on the face and form of the sleeping girl, making softer
their graceful lines, richer the shadows in the golden hair, tenderer the tint
of cheek and lip.
She stepped again into the shade and stole to the colonel's
bedside. His disturbed mind had turned backward over the path of life from the
sudden death escaped, and, sleeping or waking, his memory had been busy with
the people and events of other days.
"John Miller!" she said, in a suppressed tone. He
started. "John Miller, I know ye. Common name--I wa'n't sure afore to-day.
When you pulled that money out o' yer pocket I see that in yer face that
satisfied me. It's fer the good name o' the dead I've come. Elseways I never'd
ha' troubled ye." The astonished colonel shifted his position painfully,
prepared to speak or to listen. "There yer girl lies in the light o'
heaven. Nex' room my boy lies in the shadder an' dark. He don't know, an' he
never will. John Miller, I married as honest an' as good a man as ever you see.
Folks has come to me in sickness an' trouble, an' gone behin' my back to talk.
Some said I done right to take him--'twas Christian in me. Some said I must ha'
been a fool. Some said we wa'n't married a-tall. Wasn't I a Peables? Didn't I
know 'twould be flung up to my face? Wasn't I prouder'n any on 'em?"
A moment's confusion and doubting of senses: then, as the
suppressed voice went on, the colonel remembered. A dozen years ago; before he
had meddled with railroads; back in the old town; soon after taking his
father's shop; he was plaintiff; Ruggles worked in the first room; Porter's
testimony; Becky Peables the sweetheart of both; burglary; loss trifling;
George Ruggles, for one year; came back and married when released; went West.
The old case had scarce crossed his mind for years.
"Yes, you sent him, an' I waited fer him. The day he come out
I married him. We had to dig hard. I'd do it ag'in. Now his boy's saved yer
girl's life to pay ye fer puttin' his father'n State's pris'n. Two year ago
didn't Bill Porter--sick an' a-dyin'--hunt till he foun' me here? Didn't he go
an' swear? Done fer spite. Didn't he sen' me the affydavy?--an' I've got it
safe. Got it swore to by him, with the justice o' the peace's name signed, an'
two witnissis, an' the judge's red seal on top o' that. Could I go back an'
show that paper'n tell how 'twas? Too late! George was dead. I couldn't go. My
folks a'most disowned me when I took him. I said then I never'd step my foot
into their doors. Them that gives me the col' shoulder once don't do it no
more. Come to me?--well an' good. Go to them?--never."
The bewildered colonel, promising every possible reparation, would
have thrown himself at her feet, could he have done so, for the part he had
taken in the prosecution. But she permitted no interruption, and continued:
"He lay by the winder where yer girl lies. The moon come in on his bed as
it does on her'n. In the night, when I see the light o' the sky shine there
where he died, I feel his sperit in the room. I moved the bed to this corner,
where it's darker. I wa'n't good enough to lie there. But 'twas on his mind. He
said, 'Becky, if I could prove it to you afore I died!' An' I say, George's
sperit sent Bill Porter here, an' sent you here, an' sent me into this room
to-night. Now, fer the sake o'him an' Markis-dee, go back an' tell the truth!"
Speaking the word "truth," she vanished across the light
to her dark place of rest.
Next morning the colonel examined and copied the confession while
a buggy waited for him at the door. Respecting the evident wishes of Mrs.
Ruggles, he went away with no attempt to express the feelings that were
uppermost in his heart.
She sleeps beside her husband in the orchard. Her old log-house
has been replaced by a large white box, of which her son the marquis is
proprietor. Each year adds to his acres or his stock. An able-bodied wife,
whose industry and English are equal to his own, sits near him at the door on a
summer evening, while he smokes his pipe, takes an oakum-headed child upon his
knee, and gazes quietly in the direction of the spring and across the grain-fields
where once he saw--or rather heard, without waiting to see--a forest swept down
in a moment. He smokes and gazes as he sees again a dazzling creature ride down
the dreary road, and wonders where on earth that face can be, and how much it
has changed, and whether, through so many years, any memory of him can linger
in her heart. He says nothing. But he hugs closer the oakum-headed child as he
remembers the one romance in his hard, humdrum life.
6.Under False Colors
Chapter I
Hoisting The Flag
A dreary, murky November day brooded over Southampton, and an
impenetrable fog hung over sea and shore alike, penetrating the clothing,
chilling the blood and depressing the spirits of every unlucky person who was
so unfortunate as to come within the range of its influence. The passengers on
the steamship America, from Bremen for New York via Southampton, found the
brief period of their stay at the latter port almost unendurable; and while
some paced the wet decks impatiently, others grumbled both loudly and deeply in
the cabins, or shut themselves up in their state-rooms in sulky discomfort.
Those who remained on deck had at least the amusement of watching for the
steamboat which was to bring the Southampton passengers--a pastime which,
however, being indefinitely prolonged, began to grow wearisome. It came at
last--a wretched little vessel, rather smaller than the smallest of the noisy
tugs that puff and paddle on our American rivers--and the wet, sick,
unsheltered passengers were gradually transferred to the deck of the ship.
Among those who appeared to have suffered most severely from the
rocking of the miserable little steamboat was a young, fair-haired girl,
apparently about seventeen years of age, who seemed almost insensible. She
would have fallen had not one of her fellow-travelers, a lady evidently not
much her senior, thrown her arm around her; thus aided, she managed to reach
the steamer's deck and to totter down the staircase leading to the ladies'
cabin. The active, busy steward at once bustled up to the two young girls:
"Your names, ladies, if you please. I will point out your
state-rooms in a moment. Miss Marion Nugent--Miss Rhoda Steele? Miss Nugent,
berth No. 20, state-room G--"
"Cannot I occupy the same state-room with this young lady?"
interrupted the taller girl, who was still lending the support of her arm to
sustain her half-fainting companion.
"Do not leave me, please," murmured the sufferer.
The steward threw a compassionate glance upon the pair, went away,
and after a short consultation with the unseen powers, returned and said that
the arrangement had been effected, and that they could take possession at once
of their state-room, into which he proceeded to usher them. It was more
spacious than such apartments usually are, and abounded with all those little
contrivances for comfort and convenience for which the steamers of the North
German Lloyds are justly famed. The invalid sank down on the soft-cushioned
little sofa and gasped painfully for breath.
"For Heaven's sake, get me some wine or some brandy!"
exclaimed her companion. "This poor thing seems very ill; and do tell the
doctor to come here at once."
With a quick, energetic movement, as she spoke she unclasped the
heavy waterproof cloak of the sufferer and threw it back, thus revealing a
fair, pallid face, framed in loosened curls of silky golden hair. It was a face
that must have looked singularly lovely when tinted with the rosy hues of
health, so delicate were the features and so large and blue the half-closed
eyes, but it was ghastly pale, and a livid, bluish tinge had settled around the
small mouth, whose ruby hues had fled to give place to a sickly purple. The
steward speedily returned with some brandy, the bull's-eye was thrown open, and
the cold sea air and potent spirit soon asserted their restorative powers. She
sat up, a more natural color over-spreading her countenance, and she murmured
inarticulately a few words of thanks, while the kind-hearted steward hastened
away again in search of the doctor.
"I am subject to these attacks," she said, faintly; to
her companion when they were again left alone. "Only feel how my heart is
beating."
The ship's surgeon soon made his appearance. He was a young,
light-haired, solemn-looking German, who shook his head and looked very grave
as he listened to the labored breathing and felt the bounding, irregular pulse
of the sufferer.
"It is a pity that the ship has started," he said in
very good English, "for I hardly think you are fitted to bear the fatigues
of a sea-voyage at this season of the year; and had we been still at anchor, I
should have counseled you to return to shore. But it is too late now, and you
must try to keep as quiet as possible. I would advise you to retire to your
berth at once: it will probably be a stormy night, and you had better settle
yourself comfortably before the motion begins to be unpleasant. I will see you
again in the morning, and if you feel worse meanwhile, let me know at
once."
The doctor and the steward then quitted the state-room, and its
two occupants, being left alone, surveyed each other curiously.
The active and energetic girl who had acted as spokeswoman and
directress throughout the brief scene we have just described had let fall her
waterproof cloak and stood arrayed in a black velvet jacket and dark silk
skirt, both much the worse for wear, and contrasting sadly with the neat but
simple traveling costume of her companion. But about her slender,
finely-proportioned figure there was an air of style and grace which lent an
elegance even to her shabby and faded finery, and which was wanting in the
owner of the fresher and more appropriate attire. Her face was beautiful, with
a singular and weird beauty which owed nothing of its fascinations to the
ordinary charms of delicate outlines and dainty coloring. Her features were
small and attenuated, and her complexion was of a sallow paleness, whose lack
of freshness seemed caused by dissipation and late hours or by the ravages of
illness. Heavy masses of soft silken hair, black as midnight, with bluish
reflections on its lustrous waves (bleu à force d'être noir, as
Alexandre Dumas describes such tresses), untortured by crimping-pins or
curling-tongs, were rolled back in plain folds above her low, broad brow. Her
eyes would have lent beauty to a plainer face. Large almost to a fault, of that
dark, clear blue which is too perfect and too transparent ever to look black
even under the shadow of such long, thick eyelashes as shaded them in the
present instance, they were perfectly magnificent; and their lustrous azure and
ever-varying expression lent to the mobile countenance of their possessor its
most potent and peculiar charm.
She was the first to speak. "Do you not think you had better
retire to your berth?" she asked. "The rocking of the ship is
increasing, and we had better, early as it is, settle ourselves for the night,
before it becomes so violent as to prevent us from moving."
At this moment two porters made their appearance laden with
packages. Two small new trunks--one marked R.S., the other M.N.--were deposited
on the floor and identified by their possessors. The sick girl then attempted,
with trembling hands, to disembarrass herself of her apparel, but it was not
without much assistance from her companion that she was enabled to remove her
traveling costume and make her preparations for retiring. At last, however, she
was ready, and was about to make an attempt to reach the upper berth, which was
the one allotted to her by number, when a quick, imperative gesture from her
companion stopped her.
"No, no," she said: "you must take the lower berth.
I can reach the upper one without any trouble, and you are not strong enough
for so much exertion."
"You are very, very kind," said the invalid, gratefully.
She sank back on the pillow and watched the other for some minutes in silence,
as she quietly and quickly gathered up and put in order the scattered articles
with which the state-room was strewn.
"Will you not give me that little black bag?" she said
at last. "Thanks! that is it. I wished to be certain that I had put my
letter of introduction in it. Ah! here it is, quite safe. It would never do for
me to lose that letter, for the lady with whom I am going to live as governess
has never seen me, and she might take me for an impostor were I to come without
it. An English lady who was her most intimate friend engaged me for her. I
wonder what New York is like?--very rough, and wild, no doubt, and I am afraid
I shall be much annoyed by the rattlesnakes. You are going to New York too, are
you not?"
"I am."
"Have you friends there?"
"None."
"I wish I had some acquaintances among our fellow-passengers,
but I do not know a single one. Do you?"
"No."
"You have not told me your name yet. Mine is Marion Nugent;
and yours--"
"Is not so pretty a one--Rhoda Steele."
There was something in the tone of these replies that quelled the
invalid's disposition to talk, and she remained silent while her companion
finished her arrangements and prepared to take possession of her berth. It was
time that she did so. The threatened gale was by this time blowing in earnest,
and the ship was commencing to roll fearfully; so, after securing all the boxes
and bags as well as possible, and hanging up all the scattered garments, she
made a hasty retreat to her couch, and lay there only half undressed, but
utterly prostrate, and as unable to touch the tea and biscuits brought by the
attentive stewardess as was her more delicate and suffering room-mate.
Time passed on: the daylight faded from the sky, a feeble
glimmering lamp shed its faint rays into the state-room, and the great
steamship went steadily on, though rocked and tossed like a plaything by the
whistling winds and angry sea. Then midnight came: the lights in the
state-rooms were extinguished and a profound silence reigned throughout the cabins,
broken only by the ceaseless throb of the mighty engines and the noisy clanking
of the screw.
The state-room was wrapped in profound darkness when Rhoda Steele
awoke with a start as from some troubled dream. Was she still dreaming, or did
she indeed hear a strange choking sound proceeding from the lower berth? She
sprang to the floor at once, heeding neither the darkness nor the violent
motion, and clinging to the side of the berth she called aloud. There was no
answer: even the gurgling, choking sound she had at first heard had ceased. She
put out her hand, and it encountered her companion's face. It was deathly cold,
and the features quivered as if convulsed under her touch. Again she called
aloud--still no answer; and then, thoroughly frightened, she caught up a cloak
from the sofa, threw it around her, and opening the state-room door, she rushed
into the cabin. It was almost deserted. The lamps swung heavily overhead,
swayed by the unceasing rolling of the ship; a drowsy waiter slumbered at one of
the tables, his head resting on his folded arms; and one or two sleepy
passengers tried to maintain a recumbent posture on the broad sofas that lined
the sides. The cries of the terrified girl soon brought several of the waiters
to her assistance, and Captain Wessels himself, who had not retired to rest,
owing to the stormy weather, came to ascertain the cause of the unusual
disturbance. Her story was quickly told: lights were brought, and the captain
accompanied her back to the state-room.
It was a pitiful sight that met their eyes. The young girl lay
motionless in her berth, her face tinged with a livid bluish hue, her eyes
closed, and her small hands clenched as if in agony.
"The doctor!--run for the doctor!" was the instant and
universal exclamation. The doctor came. One look at the pallid face, one touch
on the slender wrist, and he turned with a grave face to the bystanders.
"There is nothing to be done," he said. "She is
dead. I feared some such catastrophe when I saw her last evening. She was in
the last stages of heart disease."
"And who was she?--what was her name?" asked
kind-hearted Captain Wessels, looking down with pitying eyes at the fair pale
face.
The steward brought his lists.
"Berth No. 22," he read--"Miss Rhoda Steele."
"And this young lady?" continued the captain, turning to
the other occupant of the state-room, who had sunk back as if exhausted on the
sofa, still enveloped in the shrouding folds of her large waterproof cloak.
She raised her head. The answer came after a moment's hesitation--came
with a strange, defiant ring in its tone:
"My name is Marion Nugent."
Chapter II
Under Full Sail
More than a year has passed away since the events narrated in our
first chapter took place, and the curtain now rises on a far different scene--a
dinner-party in one of the most splendid of the gorgeous mansions on Madison
avenue, New York.
Mrs. Walton Rutherford, the giver of the entertainment in
question, was a member of a class unhappily now fast dying out of New York
society--one of those ladies of high social position and ancient lineage who
adorn the station which they occupy as much by their virtues as by their social
talents. A high-minded, pure-souled matron, a devoted wife and mother, as well
as a queen of society, inheriting the noble qualities of her Revolutionary
forefathers as well as their great estates--such was the lady who presided over
the brilliant festivity we are about to describe. She had been left for many
years a widow, and her surviving children--two sons, Clement and Horace--were
both of mature age; Horace, the younger, being just thirty years old, and
Clement, the elder, some seven years his senior. Mrs. Rutherford herself was a
few years over sixty. A year or two before the period at which our story opens
a terrible misfortune had befallen her. Amaurosis--that most insidious and
unmanageable of diseases of the eye--had attacked her vision, and in a few
months after it declared itself she was totally, hopelessly blind. But,
although debarred by her infirmity from going into society, she still received
her friends in her own home; and her evening receptions and elegant dinners
were always cited as being among the most agreeable and successful
entertainments of the season.
Another sorrow had recently come to trouble the calm of her
honored and tranquil existence--the marriage of her eldest son. Clement
Rutherford, unlike any other member of the family, was a cold, reserved man,
unpleasant in temper and disagreeable in manner. When he was still quite a boy,
his mother's only sister, Miss Myra Van Vleyden, had died, and had bequeathed
to him the large fortune which she had inherited conjointly with Mrs.
Rutherford from her father, the two sisters being the only children of Schuyler
Van Vleyden. She was a soured, morose old maid, and probably saw some
congeniality of disposition in her eldest nephew which caused her to single him
out as her heir. After he attained to years of manhood, he always manifested a
decided antipathy to ladies' society, and was generally looked upon as a confirmed
old bachelor; so that when he announced to his mother the fact of his
engagement to Mrs. Archer's pretty governess, Miss Nugent, her distress of mind
was fully equaled by her astonishment. The match met with her strongest
disapproval, as was to have been expected; for it was hardly probable that she,
the oldest surviving representative of the old Knickerbocker family the Van
Vleydens, an acknowledged leader of society by the triple right of wealth,
birth and intellect, should be inclined to welcome very warmly as a
daughter-in-law the penniless beauty who had been occupied for some months past
in teaching Mrs. Archer's little daughters the rudiments of French and music.
Moreover, the investigations and inquiries respecting the young lady's origin
which she had at once caused to be instituted on hearing of her son's
engagement, had revealed a state of affairs which had placed Miss Nugent in a
very unenviable light. Her parents were well born, though poor. She was the
daughter of a curate in the North of England, who had lost his young wife by
heart disease when Marion was but a few months old, and two years later Mr.
Nugent died of consumption, leaving his little daughter to the care of his
unmarried and elderly brother, the Reverend Walter Nugent, who, though the
living he held was but a small one, contrived to rear and educate his niece as
his own child. He had only allowed her to leave him and become a governess on
the assurance of the village physician that her health was seriously impaired,
and that a sea voyage and complete change of scene would prove the best and
surest of restoratives. But the pained though manly tone of the letter in which
he replied to Mrs. Rutherford's inquiries had prepossessed that warm-hearted,
high-minded lady most strongly against her future daughter-in-law. "I
loved Marion always as though she were my own child," wrote Mr. Nugent,
"and I cannot but look upon her total neglect of me since her arrival in
America as being wholly inexcusable. She has never even written me one line since
her departure, and I learned of her safe arrival only by the newspapers. I can
but infer from her obstinate and persistent silence that she wishes to sever
all ties between herself and me, and I have resigned myself to the prospect of
a lonely and cheerless old age. I trust that she may be happy in the brilliant
marriage which, you say, she is about to make, and I can assure her that her
old uncle will never disturb her in her new prosperity."
Mrs. Rutherford had one long, stormy interview with her eldest
son, and learning therein that his determination to marry Miss Nugent was fixed
and unalterable, she had with commendable wisdom accepted the situation, and
resolved to so order the conduct of herself and her relatives as to give the
scandalous world no room for that contemptuous pity and abundant gossip which
an open rupture between herself and her son would doubtless have occasioned.
The manner of the wooing had been in this wise: John Archer, a
sober, staid gentleman of great wealth, was Clement Rutherford's most intimate
friend, and naturally, when the Archers moved into their new and splendid villa
at Newport, Clement was invited to spend a few weeks with them--an invitation
which he readily accepted. A few days after his arrival, Mrs. Archer, who was a
pretty, lively little coquette, not in the least sobered by some thirteen years
of married life, offered to drive him out in her little phaeton. "John has
just given me a new pair of ponies," she said--"such perfect beauties
and so gentle that I long to drive them." So the pretty, stylish equipage,
with its fair driver and faultless appointments, made its first appearance on
the avenue that afternoon, and also, I am sorry to say, its last; for the
"gentle beauties" afore-said, excited to emulation by the number of
spirited steeds around them, became ambitious of distinction, and sought for
and decidedly obtained it by running away, thereby overturning the phaeton,
breaking the harness, bruising Mrs. Archer severely and dislocating Mr.
Rutherford's ankle.
Mrs. Archer was as well as ever in a few days, but the injuries
received by her guest proved sufficiently serious to compel him to maintain a
recumbent position for a long time, and prevented him from walking for several
weeks. She made every arrangement possible for his comfort, and she had a
charming little reception-room on the ground floor, adjoining the library,
fitted up as a bed-chamber, and installed him there; so that as soon as he was
able to quit his bed for a sofa, he could be wheeled into the latter apartment,
and there enjoy the distractions of literature and society. For a few days
after he made his first appearance there his lovely hostess was all attention
and devotion; but, finding that he was anything but an agreeable or
impressionable companion, she soon wearied of his society. Mr. Archer, shortly
after the accident had taken place, had been summoned from home by important
business connected with some mining property which he possessed, and which
necessitated his presence in the interior of Pennsylvania; so Mrs. Archer, thus
left with the entertainment of her most uncongenial guest exclusively confided
to her care, came speedily to the conclusion that he was a nuisance, and began
to look about for a substitute to relieve her from her unwelcome duties. She
decided that her pretty governess, who spoke French so well, and sang little
French chansonettes so sweetly, and got herself up in such a
charming manner, giving so much "chic" and style even to the simplest
of toilettes, was just the person to take upon herself the task of amusing the
uninteresting invalid.
"Do look after Mr. Rutherford a little, there's a
dear, good creature," whispered Mrs. Archer confidentially to Miss Nugent.
"He is dreadfully tiresome, to be sure, but John thinks the world of him,
you know, and it would not exactly do to leave him alone all the time. I wish
him to receive every attention while he is in the house, of course; but as for
sitting for hours at a time with him in that stuffy little library--just in the
height of the season, too--why, I cannot think of doing it. If you will just go
and sit with him sometimes, and read to him a little, it will be an absolute
charity to me. I'll see that Alice and Emily do not get into any
mischief."
Which, considering that the young ladies in question were, one
twelve, the other ten years of age, and both much addicted to flirtation and
dancing the "German," was rather a rash promise and inconsiderately
made.
So Miss Nugent was definitely installed as reader and garde
malade in general, and Clement Rutherford soon learned to await her
coming with impatience and to welcome her with delight. All his life long will
he remember those summer days, when her voice and the low plash of the far-off
ocean waves wove themselves together into music as she read, and when the blue
splendors of her lustrous eyes lent a new meaning to the poet's story as it
flowed in melodious verses from her lips. Then came a day when the book was
laid aside, and the impassioned utterances of poetry gave place to the more
prosaic but not less fervent accents of a newly-awakened passion. Cold, silent
and morose as Clement Rutherford had always been, it had so happened that but
few women had ever attempted to attract him, notwithstanding his wealth and
social position; and the interested motives of those few had been so apparent
that he had been repelled and disgusted, instead of being fascinated, by their
wiles; so that Miss Nugent's grace and beauty and syren charms proved all too
potent for his unoccupied though icy heart to resist; and thus it chanced that
the day before Mr. Rutherford left Newport he astonished his hostess by
requesting a private interview with her, and therein announcing his engagement
to her governess.
"You could have knocked me down with a feather," Mrs.
Archer said afterward to an intimate friend. "I never should have
suspected that such a quiet, stupid man as he was would fall in love in that
ridiculous kind of a way. Good gracious! how indignant old Mrs. Rutherford will
be! and I shall be blamed for the whole affair, no doubt. I wish John had never
brought the man here--I never did like him; and then, too, it
is so provoking to lose Miss Nugent just now, while we are at Newport. Of
course I can find no one to replace her till we return to New York. Well, I
always was an unlucky little woman."
The marriage took place in the latter part of September, only a
few weeks after the engagement had been first announced. Mrs. Rutherford, true
to her resolution of making the best of the affair, was careful that none of
the usual courtesies and observances should be neglected. The bridal gifts from
the Rutherford family, if less splendid, were as numerous as they would have
been had Mr. Rutherford married a member of his mother's decorous, high-bred "set,"
and all his immediate relatives called most punctiliously on the bride when the
newly-wedded pair arrived in New York after their six weeks' trip to
Philadelphia and Washington.
Mr. Rutherford decided to take rooms at the Brevoort House till he
could purchase a suitable residence. His mother's splendid home was not thrown
open to receive him and his unwelcome bride, as it would have been had he made
a choice more consonant with her wishes.
But we have wandered far from the dinner given by Mrs. Rutherford
in honor of her new daughter-in-law, and with which our chapter commences.
It was a superb entertainment, as the Rutherford dinners usually
were. The service of gold plate purchased by Schuyler Van Vleyden when he was
minister to Austria adorned the table, which was also decorated with three
splendid pyramids of choicest flowers. An exquisite bouquet bloomed in front of
each lady's plate, and the painted blossoms on the peerless dinner-service of
rare old Sèvres vied in every respect save fragrance with their living
counterparts. An unseen orchestra, stationed in the conservatory, sent forth
strains of music, now grave, now gay, as Gounod or Offenbach ruled the tuneful
spirit of the hour. Twelve guests only were present, including Mrs. John
Archer, to whom Mrs. Rutherford had in this fashion testified her forgiveness,
and who had accepted the proffered olive-branch with delight, wearing, in order
to do honor to the occasion, an exquisite dress, fresh from one of the most
renowned ateliers of Parisian fashion. Mrs. Rutherford, as
usual, notwithstanding her infirmity, presided with unfailing grace and
dignity; and in her splendid dress of black satin, brocaded with bouquets of
flowers in their natural hues, her cap and collar of priceless old point lace,
and her antiquely set but magnificent ornaments of sapphires and diamonds, she
still looked a queen of society. A well-trained servant was stationed behind
her chair, who from time to time placed before her suitably-prepared portions
of the various delicacies of the entertainment, of which she slightly partook,
in order to obviate the restraint which her presence at the festivity without
participating in it would have occasioned. On her left hand sat her younger
son, Horace, whose watchful eyes followed her every movement, and whose loving
care anticipated her every wish. He was a tall, stalwart-looking young man,
fair-haired and blue-eyed, like his elder brother, but his frank, joyous
expression and winning manners bore no resemblance to the sullen countenance and
surly demeanor of Clement.
The bride was, of course, the, cynosure of all eyes. Attired in
rich, creamy-white satin, the corsage shaded with folds of delicate lace, with
coral ornaments on her neck and arms, and with the heavy masses of her dark
hair interwoven with coral beads, she looked extremely beautiful, and was
pronounced by the ladies present to be "handsome and stylish-looking, but
decidedly dull." This latter accusation was more truthful than such
charges usually are. Mrs. Clement Rutherford did feel unusually stupid. She
was ennuyé by the long, formal, stately dinner; she knew but
few of the persons present; and her point-lace fan was frequently called into
requisition to conceal her yawns. The game had been served before her next
neighbor, a sprightly young New Yorker, who had been rather fascinated by her
beauty, contrived to arouse her into something like animation. He succeeded at
last, however, and it was not long before an unusually brilliant sally drew a
merry laugh from her lips. Her laugh was peculiar--a low, musical, trilling
sound, mirthful and melodious as the chime of a silver bell.
As its joyous music rang on the air, Mrs. Rutherford turned
ghastly pale. She gasped convulsively, half rose from her seat and fell back in
a deathlike swoon.
Of course all was instantly confusion and dismay. The guests
sprang up, the waiters hurried forward--Horace was instantly at his mother's
side.
"She has only fainted," he said in his clear, decided
tones. "She will be better in a few moments. Let me beg of you, my
friends, to resume your seats. Clement, will you oblige me by taking our
mother's post?"
With the help of Mrs. Rutherford's special attendant, Horace
supported the already reviving sufferer from the room. They conveyed her to her
sleeping apartment, where restoratives and cold water were freely used, and she
soon regained perfect consciousness. But returning animation seemed to bring
with it a strange and overwhelming sorrow. When the servant had retired,
leaving her alone with her son, she refused to answer any of his queries, and
burying her face in her pillow, she wept with convulsive and irrepressible
violence. At length the very vehemence of her grief seemed, by exhausting
itself, to restore her to comparative calm: her tears ceased to flow, her heavy
sobs no longer shook her frame, and she remained for some time perfectly quiet
and silent. At length she spoke:
"Horace!"
"What is it, mother?"
"Describe to me the personal appearance of your brother's
wife--minutely, as though a picture were to be painted from your words."
It was no unusual request. Horace was in the habit of thus
minutely describing persons and places for his mother's benefit.
"She is rather below the middle height, and her form, though
slender, is finely moulded and of perfect proportions. Her hands and feet are
faultless, and her walk is extremely graceful, resembling more the gait of a
French-woman than that of an English girl. Her complexion is pale and rather
sallow, and her countenance is full of expression, which varies constantly when
she talks. The lower part of her face is somewhat too thin for perfect beauty,
and the chin is inclined to be pointed, and the cheeks are rather hollow, but
the upper part is superb. Her brow is low and broad, and she folds back from it
the heavy waves of her black hair in the plainest possible style. Her eyes are
her chief beauty, and would transfigure any face into loveliness. They are very
large, and of a dark, transparent blue, of so lustrous and so perfect an azure
that not even in shadow do they look black. Stay--I can give you a better idea
of her appearance than by multiplying words. Did you, when you were in Munich,
visit the Gallery of Beauties in the Royal Palace?"
"I did."
"Do you remember the portrait of Lola Montez?"
"Certainly--as though I had seen it yesterday."
"Marion resembles that portrait very strikingly, particularly
in the shape and carriage of her head."
"I am not mistaken--it is she. Would that I had never lived
to see this day!" And Mrs. Rutherford wrung her hands in an agony of
helpless, hopeless distress.
"It is she?" repeated Horace, in perplexity. "Whom
do you mean, mother? Who was Marion Nugent?"
"She is not Marion Nugent--this impostor who has thrust
herself into our midst, bringing scandal and dishonor as her dower."
"And who, then, is she?"
Mrs. Rutherford turned toward him and fixed on his face her
tear-bathed eyes, as though sight were restored to her, and she were trying to
read his thoughts in his countenance.
"Why should I tell you?" she said, after a pause:
"why reveal to you the shameful secret, and tell of a misfortune which is
without a remedy? Clement is married: what words of mine can divorce him? And
who will believe the evidence of a blind woman? If I were not blind, I might
openly denounce her, but now--" And again she wrung her hands in
unspeakable anguish.
Horace knelt beside his mother's couch and folded her hands in his
own.
"I will believe you, mother," he said, earnestly.
"Trust me--tell me all. If this woman whom my brother has married be an impostor,
he may yet be freed from the matrimonial chain."
"Could that be possible?"
"It may be. Let me try, at least. I will devote myself to
your service if you will but confide in me."
"Close the door, and then come near me, Horace--nearer still.
I will tell you all."
Two days later the steamship Pereire sailed from New York for
Brest, numbering among her passengers Horace Rutherford.
Chapter III
Striking the Flag
The events narrated in our last chapter took place early in
November, and it was not till the following March that the astonished friends
of Horace Rutherford saw him reappear amongst them as suddenly and as
unexpectedly as he had departed. "Business of importance" was the
sole explanation he vouchsafed to those who questioned him respecting the
motive of his brief European tour; and with that answer public curiosity was
perforce obliged to content itself. Society had, in fact, grown weary of
discussing the affairs of the Rutherford family. Clement Rutherford's mesalliance,
his mother's sudden illness at that memorable dinner-party, her subsequent
seclusion from the world, and Horace's inexplicable absence, had all afforded
food for the insatiable appetite of the scandal-mongers. Then Gossip grew
eloquent respecting the flirtations and "fast" manners of Clement
Rutherford's wife, and whispered that the old lady's seizure had been either
apoplexy or paralysis, brought on by her distress of mind at her son's
marriage, and that she had never been herself since. Next, the elegant
establishment of the newly-wedded pair on Twenty-sixth street, with its
gorgeous furniture and costly appointments, furnished a theme for much
conversation, and doubts were expressed as to whether the "Upper Ten"
would honor with its august presence the ball which Mrs. Clement Rutherford
proposed giving on Shrove Tuesday, which in that year came about the middle of
March. But as to that, it was generally conceded that they would. Youth,
beauty, wealth and the shadow of an old family name could cover a multitude of
such sins as rapid manners, desperate flirtations and a questionable origin;
and notwithstanding her fastness, and, worse still, her ci-devant governess-ship,
Mrs. Clement Rutherford was a decided social success.
On the day succeeding that oh which he had arrived, Horace made
his appearance at his brother's house. Clement had not heard of his return, and
received him with a cordiality strikingly at variance with his usual manner.
"Come into the library," he said, after the first
greetings had been exchanged. "I have some fine cigars for you to try, and
you can tell me something about your travels."
"Thank you, Clement: I believe I must decline your offer. I
have a message for your wife: can I see her?"
A cloud swept over the brow of the elder brother.
"I suppose you can," he said, coldly, looking at his
watch as he spoke. "Two o'clock. She took breakfast about half an hour
ago, so she is probably at home. You had better go up stairs to her boudoir,
as she calls it, and Christine, her maid, will tell her that you wish to see
her."
He turned away, and was about to leave the room when Horace caught
his hand.
"Clement! brother! Answer me one question: Are you happy in
your married life?"
"Go ask the scandal-mongers of New York," was the bitter
reply: "they are eloquent respecting the perfection of my
connubial bliss."
"If she had been a kind and affectionate wife, if she had
made him happy," muttered Horace as he ascended the stairs, "my task
would have been a harder one. Now my duty is clear, and my course lies smooth
and straight before, me."
The room into which he was ushered by Christine, the pretty French
maid, was a perfect marvel of elegance and extravagance. It was very small, and
on every part of it had been lavished all that the combined efforts of taste
and expenditure could achieve. The walls had been painted in fresco by an
eminent Italian artist, and bevies of rosy Cupids, trailing after them garlands
of many-hued flowers, disported on a background of a delicate green tint. The
same tints and design were repeated in the Aubusson carpet, and on the fine
Gobelin tapestry which covered the few chairs and the one luxurious couch that
formed the useful furniture of the tiny apartment. Étagères of carved and
gilded wood occupied each corner, and, together with the low mantelshelf (which
was upheld by two dancing nymphs in Carrara marble), were crowded with costly
trifles in Bohemian glass, Dresden and Sèvres porcelain, gilded bronze, carved
ivory and Parian ware. An easel, drawn toward the centre of the room, supported
the one painting that it contained, the designs on the walls being unsuited for
the proper display of pictures. This one picture had evidently been selected on
account of the contrast which it afforded to the gay coloring and riante style
of the decorations. It was a superb marine view by Hamilton--a cloudy sunset
above a stormy sea, the lurid sinking sun flinging streaks of blood-red light
upon the leaden waters that, in the foreground, foamed and dashed themselves
wildly against the rocks of a barren and precipitous shore.
Horace stood lost in contemplation before the easel, when the door
opened and his sister-in-law entered. He turned to greet her, and her beauty,
enhanced as it was by the elegance of her attire, drew from him an involuntary
glance of admiration. Her dress was an exemplification of how much splendor may
be lavished on a morning-costume without rendering it absolutely and
ridiculously inappropriate. She wore a robe of turquoise-blue Indian cashmere,
edged around the long train and flowing sleeves with a broad border of that
marvelous gold embroidery which only Eastern fingers can execute or Eastern
imaginations devise. A band of the same embroidery confined the robe around her
slender, supple waist, and showed to advantage the perfection of her figure. A
brooch and long ear-pendants of lustreless yellow gold, and a fan of azure silk
with gilded sticks, were the adjuncts to this costume, whose rich hues and
gorgeous effects would have crushed a less brilliant and stylish-looking woman,
but which were wonderfully becoming to its graceful wearer.
"Welcome home, Horace!" she said in that low sweet voice
which was one of her most potent charms. "How kind it is of you to pay me
a visit so soon after your return!"
She placed herself on the couch and motioned to him to take a seat
near her. He drew up his chair, and a short, embarrassed pause succeeded.
Mrs. Rutherford toyed with her fan and stole glances from under
her long black lashes at her visitor, who sat twisting one of his gloves and
wishing most ardently that Providence had entrusted the painful task before him
to some one of a more obdurate and less chivalrous nature.
Wearied of silence, the lady spoke at last.
"Have you nothing of interest respecting your travels to tell
me?" she asked.
Her voice seemed to break the spell which paralyzed him. He turned
toward her with the look of one who nerves himself up to take a desperate
resolution:
"Yes: I have a story to relate to you, and one of more than
common interest."
"Really!" She yawned behind her fan. "Excuse me,
but I was at Mrs. Houdon's ball last evening, and the 'German' was kept up till
five o'clock this morning. I am wretchedly tired. Now do go on with your story:
I have no doubt but that I shall find it amusing, but do not be much surprised
if I fall asleep."
"I think you will find it interesting, and I have no fear of
its putting you to sleep. But you must make me one promise. I am but a poor
narrator, and you must engage not to interrupt me."
"I have no hesitation in promising to remain perfectly quiet,
no matter how startling your incidents or how vivid your descriptions may
be."
She leaned back among the cushions with another stifled yawn and
shaded her eyes with her fan. Without heeding the veiled impertinence of her
manner, Horace commenced his narrative:
"Some twenty-five years ago a friendless, penniless
Englishwoman died at one of the cheap boarding-schools in Dieppe, where she had
officiated for some time as English teacher and general drudge. She left behind
her a little girl about five years of age--a pretty, engaging child, whose
beauty and infantile fascinations so won the heart of Madame Tellier, the
proprietress of the establishment, that she decided to take charge of the
little creature and educate her, her project being to fit her for the post of
English teacher in her school. But the pretty child grew up to be a beautiful
but unprincipled girl, with an inborn passion for indolence and luxury. At the
age of seventeen she eloped from the school with a young Parisian gentleman, who
had been spending the summer months at one of the seaside hotels in Dieppe, and
her benefactress saw her and heard of her no more.
"We will pass over the events of the next few years. It would
hardly interest you to follow, as I did, each step by which the heroine of my
history progressed ever downward on the path of vice. We find her at last
traveling in Italy under the protection of the Count von Erlenstein, an
Austrian noble of great wealth and dissolute character. She has cast aside the
name she once bore, and, anticipating the jewel-borrowed cognomens of Cora
Pearl and La Reine Topaze, she adopts a title from the profusion of pink coral
jewelry which she habitually wears, and Rose Sherbrooke is known as Rose
Coral."
Horace paused. A short, sharp sound broke the momentary silence:
it was caused by the snapping of one of the gilded fan-sticks under the
pressure of the white, rigid fingers that clasped it. But the listener kept her
face hidden, and but for that convulsive motion the speaker might have fancied
that she slept, so silent and motionless did she remain. After a short pause
Horace continued:
"The attachment of Count von Erlenstein proved to be a
lasting one, and we find Rose Coral at a later period installed in a luxurious
establishment in Vienna, and one of the reigning queens of that realm of many
sovereigns, the demi-monde of the gay capital of Austria. But
the count falls ill; his sickness speedily assumes a dangerous form; his death
deprives Rose Coral of her splendor; and the sunny streets of Vienna know her
fair face no more. I will not retrace for you, as I could do, each step in her
rapid descent from luxury to poverty, from splendor to vice, from celebrity to
ruin. But one day she makes her appearance, under the name of Rhoda Steele, on
board the steamship America, bound for New York. The state-room which she
occupies is shared by a young girl named Marion Nugent, whose future career is
to be that of a governess in the United States. On the first night out one of
the occupants of the state-room is taken suddenly ill and dies, the corpse is
committed to the deep, and it is reported throughout the ship that the name of
the deceased is Rhoda Steele. The tale was false: it was Marion Nugent who
died--it was Rose Sherbrooke, alias Rose Coral, alias Rhoda
Steele, who lived to rob the dead girl of her effects and to assume her
name!"
The broken fan was flung violently to the floor, and Mrs.
Rutherford sprang to her feet, her face livid with passion and her blue eyes
blazing with a steel-like light.
"How dare you come here to assert such falsehoods?" she
cried. "You have always hated me--you and all the rest of your haughty
family--because it pleased Clement Rutherford to marry me--me, a penniless
governess. But I am your sister-in-law, and I demand that you
treat me with proper respect. You came here to-day simply to insult me. Well,
sir, I will summon my husband, and he shall protect me from your
insolence."
She turned toward the door as she spoke, but he motioned her back
with an imperative and scornful gesture.
"Softly, Rose Coral," he said, with a sneer: "the
manners of the Quartier Brèda are not much to my taste, nor do they suit the
character you have been pleased to assume. Do you think me so void of common
sense as to return home without full proof of your identity? I have in my
possession a large colored photograph of you, taken some years ago by
Hildebrandt of Vienna, and endorsed by him on the back with a certificate
stating that it is an accurate likeness of the celebrated Rose Coral. Secondly,
I have brought home with me two witnesses--one is Jane Sheldon, late
housekeeper for the Rev. Walter Nugent, and formerly nurse to the deceased
Marion Nugent; and the other is a French hairdresser who lived many years in
Vienna, and who, for several months, daily arranged the profuse tresses of Rose
Coral. One will prove who you are not, and the other will as
certainly prove who you are."
"Who I was" she said, defiantly. "I
will deny it no longer: I am Rose Sherbrooke, once known as Rose Coral, and, what
is more to the purpose, I am the wife of Clement Rutherford. Have a care, my
brother Horace, lest you reveal to the world that your immaculate relatives
have been touching pitch of the blackest hue and greatest tenacity. Prove me to
be the vilest of my sex, I remain none the less a wedded wife--your brother's
wife--and I defy you. The game is played out, and I have won it."
She threw herself back in her chair and cast on him a glance of
insolent disdain. Horace Rutherford looked at her with a scornful smile.
"The game is not played out," he said,
calmly. "One card remains in my hand, and I produce it. It is the Ace of
Diamonds, and its title is The Rose of the Morning."
A livid paleness overspread Mrs. Rutherford's features, and a
stifled cry escaped from her lips. She half rose from her seat, but, seeming to
recollect herself, she sank back and covered her face with her hands. Horace
continued, after a momentary pause:
"My investigations into the history of the Count Wilhelm von
Erlenstein during the last years of his life revealed the fact that he had lost
the most valuable of the jewels of his family. It had been stolen. It was a
pink diamond of great size and beauty, known to gem-connoisseurs by the name of
The Rose of the Morning--one of those remarkable stones which have a history
and a pedigree, and which are as well known by reputation to diamond-fanciers
as are Raphael's Transfiguration and the Apollo Belvidere to the lovers of art.
This gem was worn by Count Wilhelm as a clasp to the plume in his toque at a
fancy ball given by one of the Metternich family, at which he appeared in the
costume of Henri III. of France. He afterward, with culpable carelessness,
placed it, amongst his studs, pins, watch-chains and other similar bijouterie,
in a small steel cabinet which stood in his bed-chamber. His illness and the
dismissal of Rose Coral occurred soon after the fancy ball in question, and it
was not till his heir, the present count, had been for some time in possession
of the estates that it was discovered that the great diamond was missing. It
was not to be found, and suspicion immediately fell upon the late count's
valet, a Frenchman named Antoine Lasalle; who was found to have been
mysteriously possessed of a large sum of money after the count's death. He was
arrested, and it was conclusively proved that he had stolen a number of
valuable trinkets from his dying master, but still no trace of The Rose of the
Morning could be discovered, and Lasalle strenuously denied all knowledge
respecting it. The family offered large rewards for its recovery, and the
detectives of all the large cities of Europe have been for some time on the
alert to discover it, but in vain. As soon as I heard this story, I thought
that I could make a tolerably shrewd guess as to the whereabouts of the missing
jewel; and I caused investigations to be set on foot in New York by a trusty
agent, which resulted in the discovery that The Rose of the Morning had been
sold some six months before to a jeweler in Maiden lane for about one-twenty-fifth
of its value, the peculiar tint of the stone, and the purchaser's ignorance of
the estimation in which it is held by the gem-fanciers of Europe, having
militated against the magnitude of the valuation set upon it. It was secured
for me at a comparatively trifling price. The person who sold it to the jeweler
some six months ago, in spite of a partial disguise and an assumed name, was
easy to recognize, from the description given, as that lady of many names, Mrs.
John Archer's governess. Now, Rose Coral, what say you? You may be Mrs. Clement
Rutherford, my brother's lawful wife, but you are not the less a thief and a
criminal, for whom the laws have terrible punishment and bitter
degradation."
"This is but a poor invention: where are your proofs?"
she cried, looking up as she spoke, but her faltering voice and quivering lips
contradicted her words.
"Here is my chief witness." He drew off his left-hand
glove as he spoke, and extended his hand toward her. On the third finger blazed
the beautiful gem of which he had spoken, its great size and purity fully
displayed in the pale afternoon sunlight that flashed back in rosy radiance
from its bright-tinted depths.
"It is almost too large to wear as a ring," he said with
great coolness, looking at the jewel, "but I wish it to run no further
risks till I can transfer it to its lawful owner, which will be as soon as it
has played its talismanic part by freeing my brother from his
impostor-wife."
The lady rose from her seat, pale, calm and resolved.
"Further insults are useless, sir," she said. "The
game is ended now, and you have won it. What is it that you wish me to
do?"
"You must sail for Europe in one of next week's steamers,
leaving behind you such a confession of guilt as will enable my brother to
procure a divorce without revealing the shameful fact that he was the innocent
means of introducing an impostor--a ci-devant lorette--to his
family and friends as his wife. Better this scandal of an elopement than the
horror of having such a story made public. An income amply sufficient for your
wants will be settled upon you, on condition that you never return to the
United States, and never, in any way, proclaim the fact that Mrs. Clement
Rutherford and Rose Coral were one and the same person."
"I accept your conditions," she said, wearily. "I
will go, never to return. Now leave me. But stay: will you not answer me one
question?"
"I will, certainly."
"Who was it that discovered my secret?"
"My mother--my blind mother. Some years ago, before she lost
her sight, I accompanied her on a short European tour, in which we visited
England, France, Switzerland, and finally Italy. While we were at Rome I fell
ill with the fever of the country, and my physicians gave orders that as soon
as I was well enough to travel I should leave Italy for a more bracing climate.
We had not visited Naples, and I was anxious that my mother should not return
home without seeing the wonders of that city; so as soon as I became
convalescent I prevailed upon her to leave me in the care of some friends and
to join a party who were going thither. During her stay she went frequently to
the opera. One evening she was greatly disturbed by the loud talking and
laughing of some persons in the box next to the one she occupied, and she was
much struck with the beauty, the brilliant toilette and the boisterous conduct
of one of the female members of the party. She inquired the name of the person
she had thus remarked. It was yourself, and she learned not only your name, but
your whole history. When at her own dinner-table she heard the sweet and
singular laugh that had so struck her on that occasion, the sensitiveness of
hearing peculiar to the blind caused her to recognize the sound at once; and
the description which I afterward gave her of your personal appearance only
changed torturing doubt into agonizing certainty."
"Thanks for your courtesy: I will detain you no longer."
Horace bowed and approached the door. Suddenly, as if moved by a
sudden impulse, he turned back.
"Believe me, this task has been a hard one," he said,
earnestly. "And remember, if hereafter you may need pecuniary aid, do not
hesitate to apply to me. For Heaven's sake, do not return to the life you once
led. There was one redeeming feature in the imposture which you practiced: it showed
that some yearning for a pure name and an innocent life was yet possible to
you."
"I want no sermons," she answered, abruptly. "Only
leave me at peace. Go: I am sick of the sight of you."
As he closed the door he cast one parting glance on the room and
its occupant. She stood leaning against the back of a large arm-chair, her
clasped hands resting on the top, and her white, rigid face set in the fixed
calmness of total despair.
Thus left alone, she remained standing for some time as motionless
as though she were a marble statue and not a living woman. Suddenly she seemed
to take some desperate resolve: she threw back her head with a bitter,
mirthless laugh, and going to the bell she rang it. Her maid quickly appeared.
"I have a wretched headache, Christine," she said.
"I shall not come down to dinner, and do not disturb me till nine o'clock:
that will give me time enough to dress for Mrs. Winchester's ball. I will wear
the pale-blue satin and my point-lace tunic. Be sure you change the white roses
that loop it for pink ones, and lay out my parure of pearls and diamonds, and
my point-lace fan and handkerchief. Now bring me the two phials that stand on
the third shelf of the closet in my bed-chamber."
Christine departed on her errand and soon returned, bringing with
her two bottles, the smallest of which was labeled "Solution of
Morphia--POISON. Dose for an adult, ten drops;" while the largest Was
simply inscribed "Sulphuric Ether." These she placed on the
chimney-piece, and then proceeded to arrange the cushions of the lounge and to
draw the curtains. "I will now leave madame to her repose," she said.
"Does madame need anything more?"
"No, I shall want nothing more," was the reply. The door
closed upon the maid's retreating form, and Mrs. Rutherford instantly shot the bolt.
She cast a sad and wistful glance around the dainty room and on
its glittering contents. "J'etais si bien ici," she said
regretfully. "I had found here the existence which suited me, and now the
end has come. It is not in my nature to remain satisfied with a life of poverty
and respectability, and I will not return to one of degradation and vice. But,
after all, what does it matter? My fate would have found me sooner or later,
and this soft couch is better than a hospital bed or the slabs of La Morgue:
this draught is more soothing than the cold waters of the Thames or the Seine.
Life is no longer a game that is worth the candle: let us extinguish the lights
and put the cards away."
She took up the phial of morphia, drew the little sofa nearer to
the fireplace and extended herself upon it. The daylight faded from the sky and
night came, and with the night came sleep--a sleep whose dream was of Eternity,
and whose wakening light would be the dawn of the resurrection morning.
"Accidental death" was the verdict of the coroner and
the newspapers, and, in fact, of the world in general--a conclusion much
assisted by the evidence of Christine, who testified that her mistress was in
the habit of using narcotics and anaesthetics in large quantities to relieve the
pain of the neuralgic headaches from which she was a constant sufferer. Society
said, "How sad! Dreadful, is it not?" and went on its way--not
exactly rejoicing, for the death of Mrs. Rutherford deprived its members of her
long-promised, long-talked-of Shrove-Tuesday ball, and consequently the gay
world mourned her loss very sincerely for a short time; in fact, till a
well-known leader of fashion announced her intention of giving a fancy-dress
party on the night thus left vacant, whereupon Society was consoled, and Mrs.
Rutherford's sad fate was forgotten.
Only two persons--Horace Rutherford and his mother--suspected that
her death was not an accidental one; but they guarded their secret carefully,
and Clement Rutherford will never learn that his dead wife was other than the
innocent English girl she represented herself to be. Walter Nugent wrote a
pathetic letter to Mrs. Rutherford, begging that a lock of his lost and now
forgiven darling's hair might be sent to him; and it cost Horace a sharp pang
of regret when he substituted for the black, wavy tress furnished by Clement a
golden ringlet purchased from one of the leading hairdressers of New York.
"Heaven forgive me!" he said to himself, remorsefully,
as he sealed the little packet; "but I really think that this is one of
the cases wherein one cannot be blamed for not revealing the truth."
A few months later, Horace Rutherford stood in Greenwood Cemetery
contemplating with curiosity and interest the inscription on a recently-erected
monument of pure white marble.
"Sacred to the memory of Marion Nugent, beloved wife of
Clement Rutherford," he read. "Well, this is consistent at least. She
wears the disguise of a virtuous woman in her very tomb. Marion Nugent rests
beneath the waves of the Atlantic ocean, and here Rose Sherbrooke sleeps in an
honored grave beneath the shelter of the dead girl's stainless name. But the
deception has power to harm no longer, so let us leave her in peace. It is well
for our family that, even as a sunken wreck, we still find this pirate bark
Under False Colors,"
7.The Hungry Heart
A village on the coast of Maine; in this village a boarding-house;
in this boarding-house a parlor.
This parlor is, strictly speaking, a chamber: it is in the second
story, and until lately it contained a bed, washstand, etc.; but a visitor from
New York has taken a fancy to change it to a reception-room. In the rear,
communicating with it, is a sleeping-closet.
The room is what you might expect to find in a village
boarding-house: the floor of liliuptian extent; the ceiling low, uneven,
cracked and yellow; the originally coarse and ugly wall-paper now blotched with
age; the carpet thin, threadbare, patched and stained; the furniture of various
woods and colors, and in various stages of decrepitude.
But a tiny bracket or two, three or four handsome engravings, two
fresh wreaths of evergreens, two vases of garden flowers, a number of Swiss and
French knickknacks, and a few prettily-bound books, give the little nest an air
of refinement which is almost elegance.
You judge at once that the occupant must be a woman--a woman
moreover of sensibility and taste; a woman of good society. Of all this you
become positive when you look at her, take note of her gracious manner and
listen to her cultured voice.
Her expression is singularly frank and almost childlike: it
exhibits a rapid play of thoughts, and even of emotions: it is both vivacious
and refined, both eager and sweet. It would seem as if here were the impossible
combination, the ideal union, so often dreamed of by poets and artists, of
girlish simplicity and innocence with womanly cleverness and feeling.
In a large easy-chair reclines her rather small, slender and
willowy form, starting slightly forward when she speaks, and sinking back when
she listens. Her sparkling eyes are fixed on the eyes of her one visitor with
an intentness and animation of interest which should be very fascinating.
He, a young man, not five years older than herself, very gentle in
manner and with a remarkably sweet expression of face, evidently is fascinated,
and even strongly moved, if one may judge by the feverish color in his cheeks,
the eager inquiry of his gaze and the tremor of his lips.
The first words of hers which we shall record are a strange
utterance to come from a woman:
"Let me tell you something which I have read lately. It
sounds like a satire, and yet there is too much truth in it: 'Every woman in
these days needs two husbands--one to fill her purse, and one to fill her
heart; one to dress her, and one to love her. It is not easy to be the two in
one.' That is what I have read, and it is only too true. Remember it, and don't
marry."
A spasm of intense spiritual pain crossed the young man's fine and
kindly face.
"Don't say such things, I beg of you!" he implored.
"I am sure that in what you have quoted there is a slander upon most
women. I know that it slanders you."
Her lips parted as if for a contradiction, but it was evidently
very pleasant to her to hear such words from him, and with a little childlike smile
of gratification she let him proceed.
"I have perfect confidence in you," he murmured. "I
am willing to put all my chances of happiness in your hands. My only fear is
that I am not half worthy of you--not a thousandth part worthy of you. Will you
not listen to me seriously? Will you not be so kind?"
A tremor of emotion slightly lifted her hands, and it seemed for a
moment as if she would extend them to him. Then there was a sudden revulsion:
with a more violent shudder, evidently of a painful nature, she threw herself
backward, her face turned pale, and she closed her eyes as if to shut him from
her sight.
"I ought to ask your pardon," she whispered. "I
never thought that it would come to this. I never meant that it should. Oh, I
ask your pardon." Recovering herself with singular quickness, a bright
smile dancing along the constantly changing curves of her lips, like sunbeams
leaping from wavelet to wavelet, she once more leaned cordially toward him, and
said in a gay yet pleading tone, "Let us talk of something else. Come,
tell me about yourself--all about yourself, nothing about me."
"I cannot speak of anything else," he replied, after
looking at her long in silence. "My whole being is full of you: I cannot
think of anything else."
A smile of gratitude sweetly mastered her mouth: then it suddenly
turned to a smile of pity; then it died in a quiver of remorse.
"Oh, we cannot marry," she sighed. "We must not
marry, if we could. Let me tell you something dreadful. People hate each other
after they are married. I know: I have seen it. I knew a girl of seventeen who
married a man ten years older--a man who was Reason itself. Her friends told
her, and she herself believed it, that she was sure of happiness. But after
three years she found that she did not love, that she was not loved, and that
she was miserable. He was too rational: he used to judge her as he would a
column of figures--he had no comprehension for her feelings."
There was a momentary pause, during which she folded her hands and
looked at him, but with an air of not seeing him. In the recollection of this
heart-tragedy of the past and of another she had apparently forgotten the one
which was now pressing upon herself.
"It was incredible how cold and unsympathizing and dull he
could be," she went on. "Once, after she had worked a week in secret
to surprise him with a dressing-gown made by her own hands--labored a week,
waited and hoped a week for one word of praise--he only said, 'It is too
short.' Don't you think it was cruel? It was. I suppose he soon forgot it, but
she never could. A woman cannot forget such slights: they do not seem little
blows to her; they make her very soul bleed."
"Don't reproach me for it," whispered
the young man with a pleading smile. "You seem to be reproving me, and I
can't bear it. I am not guilty."
"Oh, not you," she answered quickly. "I am not
scolding you. I could not."
She did not mean it, but she gave him a smile of indescribable
sweetness: she had had no intention of putting out her hands toward him, but
she did it. He seized the delicate fingers and slowly drew her against his
heart. Her face crimson with feeling, her whole form trembling to the tiniest
vein, she rose to her feet, turning away her head as if to fly, and yet did not
escape, and could not wish to escape. Holding her in his arm, he poured into
her ear a murmur which was not words, it was so much more than words.
"Oh, could you truly love me?" she at
last sobbed. "Could you keep loving me?"
After a while some painful recollection seemed to awaken her from
this dream of happiness, and, drawing herself out of his embrace, she looked
him sadly in the eyes, saying, "I must not be so weak. I must save myself
and you from misery. Oh, I must. Go now--leave me for a while: do go. I must
have time to think before I say another word to you."
"Good-bye, my love--soon to be my wife," he answered,
stifling with a kiss the "No, no," which she tried to utter.
Although he meant to go, and although she was wretchedly anxious
that he should go, he was far from gone. All across the room, at every square
of the threadbare carpet, they halted to renew their talk. Minutes passed, an
hour had flown, and still he was there. And when he at last softly opened the
door, she herself closed it, saying, "Oh no! not yet."
So greedy is a loving woman for love, so much does she hate to
lose the breath of it from her soul: to let it be withdrawn is like consenting
to die when life is sweetest.
Thus it was through her, who had bidden him to go, and who had
meant that he should go, that he remained for minutes longer, dropping into her
ear whispers of love which at last drew out her confession of love. And when
the parting moment came--that moment of woman's life in which she least belongs
to herself--there was not in this woman a single reservation of feeling or
purpose.
These people, who were so madly in love with each other, were
almost strangers. The man was Charles Leighton, a native of Northport, who had
never gone farther from his home than to Boston, and there only to graduate in
the Harvard College and Medical School.
The lady was Alice Duvernois: her name was all that was known of
her in the village--it was all that she had told of herself. Only a month
previous to the scene above described she had arrived in Northport to obtain,
as she said, a summer of quiet and sea-bathing. She had come alone, engaged her
own rooms, and for a time seemed to want nothing but solitude.
Even after she had made herself somewhat familiar with the other
inmates of the boarding-house, nothing positive was learned of her history.
That she had been married was probable: an indefinable something in her face
and carriage seemed to reveal thus much: moreover, her trunks were marked
"James Duvernois."
And yet, so young did she sometimes look, so childlike was her smile
and so simple her manner, that there were curious ones who scouted the
supposition of wifehood. People addressed her both as "Miss" and
"Mrs."; at last it was discovered that her letters bore the latter
title: then she became popularly known as "the beautiful widow."
It would be a waste of time to sketch the opening and ripening of
the intimacy between Doctor Leighton and this fascinating stranger. On his part
it was as nearly a case of love at first sight as perhaps can occur among
people of the Anglo-Saxon race. From the beginning he had no doubts about
giving her his whole heart: he was mastered at once by an emotion which would
not let him hesitate: he longed with all his soul for her soul, and he strove
to win it.
Well, we will not go over the story: we know that he had
triumphed. Yes, in spite of her terror of the future, in spite of some
withholding mystery in the past, she had granted him--or rather she had not
been able to prevent him from seizing--her passionate affection. She had
uttered a promise which, a month before, she would not have dreamed herself
capable of making.
In so doing she had acquired an almost unendurable happiness. It
was one of those mighty and terrible joys which are like the effect of
opium--one of those joys which condense life and abbreviate it, which excite
and yet stupefy, which intoxicate and kill. With this in her heart she lived
ten of her old days in one, but also she drew for those ten days upon her
future.
After one of her interviews with Leighton, after an hour of
throbbing, of trembling, of vivid but confused emotions, her face would be as
pale as death, and her weakness such that she could hardly speak. The hands
which, while they clung to his, had been soft and moist, became dry and hot as
with fever, and then cold as ice. At night she could scarcely sleep: for hours
her brain throbbed with the thought of him, and of what stood between him and
her. In the morning she was heavy with headache, dizzy, faint, hysterical; yet
the moment she saw him again she was all life, all freshness.
From the point of confession there was no more resistance. She
would be his wife; she would be married whenever he wished; she seemed mad to
reward him for his love; she wanted somehow to sacrifice herself for his sake.
Yet, although she hesitated no longer, she sometimes gazed at him with eyes
full of anxiety, and uttered words which presaged evil.
"If any trouble springs from this, you must pardon me,"
she more than once whispered. "I cannot help it. I have never, never,
never been loved before; and oh, I have been so hungry, so famished for it, I
had begun to despair of it. Yes, when I first met you, I had quite despaired of
there being any love in the world for me. I could not help listening to you: I
could not help taking all your words and looks into my craving heart; and now I
am yours--forgive me!"
Stranger as she was in Northport, everybody trusted the frank
sweetness in her face, and sought no other cause for admiring her and wishing
her happiness. The whole village came to the church to witness her marriage and
to doat upon a bridal beauty which lay far more in expression than in form or
feature. A few words of description--inadequate notes to represent the precious
gold of reality--must be given to one who could change the stare of curiosity
to a beaming glance of sympathy.
Small, slender, fragile; neither blonde nor brunette; a clear
skin, with a hectic flush; light chestnut hair, glossy and curling; eyes of
violet blue, large, humid and lustrous, which at the first glance seemed black
because of the darkness, length and closeness of the lashes, and capable of
expressing an earnestness and sweetness which no writer or artist might hope to
depict; a manner which in solitude might be languid, but which the slightest
touch of interest kindled into animation; in fine, white teeth that sparkled
with gayety, and glances that flashed happiness.
She was married without bridal costume, and there was no wedding
journey. Leighton was poor, and must attend to his business; and his wife wanted
nothing from him which he could not spare--nothing but his love. Impossible to
paint her pathetic gratitude for this affection; the spiritual--it was not
passionate--fondness which she bore him; the softness of her eyes as she gazed
for minutes together into his; the sudden, tremulous outreachings of her hands
toward him, as she just touches him with her finger and draws back, then leans
forward and lies in his arms, uttering a little cry of happiness. Here was a
heart that must long have hungered for affection--a heart unspeakably thankful
and joyous at obtaining it.
"I have been smiling all day," she sometimes said to
him. "People have asked me why I looked so gay, and what I had heard that
was funny. It is just because I am entirely happy, and because the feeling is
still a surprise. Shall I ever get over it? Am I silly? No!"
Her gladness of heart seemed to make her angelic. She rejoiced in
every joy around her, and grieved for every sorrow. She visited the poor of her
husband's patients, watched with them when there was need, made little
collections for their relief, chatted away their forebodings, half cured them
with her smile. There was something catching, comforting, uplifting in the
spectacle of that overbrimming content.
The well were as susceptible to its influence as the sick. Once,
half a dozen men and twice as many boys were seen engaged in recovering her
veil out of a pond into which the wind had blown it; and when it was handed to
her by a shy youth on the end of a twenty-foot pole, all felt repaid for their
labors by the childlike burst of laughter with which she received it. Now and
then, however, shadows fell across this sunshine. In those dark moments she
frequently reverted to the unhappy couple of whom she had told Leighton when he
first spoke to her of marriage. She was possessed to describe the man--his
dull, filmy, unsympathetic black eyes, his methodical life and hard
rationality, his want of sentiment and tenderness.
"Why do you talk of that person so much?" Leighton
implored. "You seem to be charging me with his cruelty. I am not like
him."
The tears filled her eyes as she started toward him, saying,
"No, you are not like him. Even if you should become like
him, I couldn't reproach you. I should merely die."
"But you know him so well?" he added, inquiringly.
"You seem to fear him. Has he any power over you?"
For a moment she was so sombre that he half feared lest her mind
was unstrung on this one subject.
"No," she at last said. "His power is gone--nearly
gone. Oh, if I could only forget!"
After another pause, during which she seemed to be nerving herself
to a confession, she threw herself into her husband's arms and whispered,
"He is my--uncle."
He was puzzled by the contrast between the violence of her emotion
and the unimportance of this avowal; but as he at least saw that the subject
was painful to her, and as he was all confidence and gentleness, he put no more
inquiries.
"Forget it all," he murmured, caressing her; and with a
deep sigh, the sigh of tired childhood, she answered, "Yes."
The long summer days, laden with happiness for these two, sailed
onward to their sunset havens. After a time, as August drew near its perfumed
death, Alice began to speak of a journey which she should soon be obliged to
make to New York. She must go, she said to Leighton--it was a
matter of property, of business: she would tell him all about it some day. But
she would return soon; that is, she would return as soon as possible: she would
let him know how soon by letter.
When he proposed to accompany her she would not hear of it. To
merely go on with her, she represented, would be a useless expense, and to stay
as long as she might need to stay would injure his practice. In these days her
gayety seemed forced, and more than once he found her weeping; yet so innocent
was he, so simple in his views of life, so candid in soul, that he suspected no
hidden evil: he attributed her agitation entirely to grief at the prospect of
separation.
His own annoyance in view of the journey centred in the fact that
his wife would be absent from him, and that he could not incessantly surround
her with his care. Whether she would be happy, whether she would be treated
with consideration, whether she would be safe from accidents and alarms,
whether her delicate health would not suffer, were the questions which troubled
him. He had the masculine instinct of protection: he was as virile as he was
gentle and affectionate.
The parting was more painful to him than he had expected, because
to her it was such an undisguised and terrible agony.
"You will not forget me?" she pleaded. "You will
never, never hate me? You will always love me? You are the only person who has
ever made the world pleasant to me; and you have made it so pleasant! so
different from what it was! a new earth to me! a star! I will come back as soon
as this business will let me. Some day I will come back, never to go away. Oh,
will not that be delightful?"
Her extreme distress, her terror lest she might not return, her
forebodings lest he should some day cease to love her, impressed him for a
moment--only for a truant moment--with doubts as to a mystery. As he left the
railway station, full of gratitude for the last glance of her loving eyes, he
asked himself once or twice, "What is it?"
What was it?
We will follow her. She is ominously sad during the lonely
journey: she is almost stern by the time she arrives in New York. In place of
the summer's sweetness and gayety, there is a wintry and almost icy expression
in her face, as if she were about to encounter trials to which she had been
long accustomed, and which she had learned to bear with hardness if not with
resentment.
No one meets her at the railway station, no one at the door of the
sombre house where her carriage stops--no one until she has passed up stairs
into a darkling parlor.
There she is received by the man whom she has so often described
to Deighton--a man of thin, erect form, a high and narrow forehead, regular and
imperturbable features, fixed and filmy black eyes, a mechanical carriage, an
icy demeanor.
At sight of her he slightly bowed--then he advanced slowly to her
and took her hand: he seemed to be hesitating whether he should give her any
further welcome.
"You need not kiss me," she said, her eyes fixed on the
floor. "You do not wish to do it."
He sighed, as if he too were unhappy, or at least weary; but he
drew his hand away and resumed his walk up and down the room.
"So you chose to pass your summer in a village?" he
presently said, in the tone of a man who has ceased to rule, but not ceased to
criticise. "I hope you liked it."
"I told you in my letters that I liked it," she replied
in an expressionless monotone.
"And I told you in my letters that I did not like it. It
would have been more decent in you to stay in Portland, among the people whom I
had requested to take care of you. However, you are accustomed to have your own
way. I can only observe that when a woman will have her own way, she ought to
pay her own way."
A flush, perhaps of shame, perhaps of irritation, crossed her
hitherto pale face, but she made no response to the scoff, and continued to
look at the floor.
After a few seconds, during which neither of them broke the
silence, she seemed to understand that the reproof was over, and she quietly
quitted the room.
The man pushed the door to violently with his foot, and said in an
accent of angry scorn, "That is what is now called a wife."
Well, we have reached the mystery: we have found that it was a
crime.
In the working of social laws there occur countless cases of
individual hardship. The institution of marriage is as beneficent as the
element of fire; yet, like that, it sometimes tortures when it should only have
comforted.
The sufferer, if a woman, usually bears her smart tamely--with
more or less domestic fretting and private weeping indeed, but without violent
effort to escape from her bed of embers. Divorce is public, ugly and brutal:
her sensibility revolts from it. Moreover, mere unhappiness, mere
disappointment of the affections, does not establish a claim for legal
separation. Finally, there is woman's difficulty of self-maintenance--the fact
that her labor will not in general give her both comfort and position.
What then? Unloved, unable to love, yet with an intense desire for
affection, and an immense capacity for granting it, her heart is tempted to
wander beyond the circle of her duty. A flattering shape approaches her
dungeon-walls; a voice calls to her to come forth and be glad, if only for a
moment; there seems to be a chance of winning the adoration which has been her
whole life's desire; there is an opportunity of using the emotions which are
burning within her. Shall she burst open the gate on which is written LEGALITY?
Evidently the temptation is mighty. Laden with a forsaken, wounded
and perhaps angry heart, she is so easily led into the belief that her
exceptional suffering gives her a right to exceptional action! She feels
herself justified in setting aside law, when law, falsifying its purpose,
violating its solemn pledge, brings her misery instead of happiness. She will
not, or cannot, reflect that special hardships must occur under all law; that
it is the duty of the individual to bear such chance griefs without
insurrection against the public conscience; that entire freedom of private
judgment would dissolve society.
Too often--though far less often than man does the like--she makes
of her sorrow an armor of excuse, and enters into a contest for unwarrantable
chances of felicity. Only, in general, she is so far conscious of guilt, or at
least so far fearful of punishment, as to carry on her struggle in the
darkness. Few, however maddened by suffering, openly defy the serried phalanx
of the world. Still fewer venture the additional risk of defying it under the
forms of a legality which they have ventured to violate.
Why is it that so few women, even of a low and reckless class,
have been bigamists? It is because the feminine soul has a profound respect, a
little less than religious veneration, for the institution of marriage; because
it instinctively recoils from trampling upon the form which consecrates love;
because in very truth it regards the nuptial bond as a sacrament. I believe
that the average woman would turn away from bigamy with a deeper shudder than
from any other stain of conjugal infidelity.
But there are exceptions to all modes of feeling and of reasoning.
Here is Alice Duvernois: she is a woman of good position, of
intellectual quickness, of unusual sensitiveness of spirit; yet she has thought
out this woeful question differently from the great majority of her sex. To
her, thirsty for sympathy and love, bound to a man who gives her neither, grown
feverish and delirious with the torment of an empty heart, it has seemed that
the sanctity of a second marriage will somehow cover the violation of a first.
This aberration we can only explain on the ground that she was one
of those natures--mature in some respects, but strangely childlike in
others--whom most of us love to stigmatize as unpractical, and who in fact
never become quite accustomed to this world and its rules.
On the very evening of her arrival home she put to her husband a
question of infantile and almost incredible simplicity. It was one of the many
observations which made him tell her from time to time that she was a fool.
"What do they do," she asked, "to women who marry
two husbands?"
"They put them in jail," was his cool reply.
"I think it is brutal," she broke out indignantly, as if
the iron gates were already closing upon her, and she were contesting the
justice of the punishment.
"You are a pretty simpleton, to set up your opinion against
that of all civilized society!" was the response of incarnate Reason.
From that moment she trembled at her danger, and quivered under
the remorse which terror brings. At times she thought of flying, of abandoning the
husband who did not love her for the one who did; but she was afraid of being
pursued, afraid of discovery. The knowledge that society had already passed
judgment upon her made her see herself in the new light of a criminal,
friendless, hunted and doomed. The penalty of her illegal grasp after happiness
was already tracking her like a bloodhound.
Yet when she further learned that her second marriage was not
binding because of the first, her heart rose in mutiny. Faithful to the only
love that there had been for her in the world, she repeated to herself, a
hundred times a day, "It is binding--it is!"
She was in dark insurrection against her kind; at times she was on
the point of bursting out into open defiance. She stared at Duvernois, crazy to
tell him, "I am wedded to another."
He noticed the wild expression, the longing, wide-open eyes, the
parted and eager lips, the trembling chin. At last he said, with a brutality
which had become customary with him, "What are you putting on those airs
for? I suppose you are imagining yourself the heroine of a romance."
With a glare of pain and scorn she walked away from him in
silence.
It is shocking indeed to be fastened speechless upon a rack, and
to be charged by uncomprehending souls with counterfeiting emotion. She was so
constituted that she could not help laying up this speech of her husband's
against him as one of many stolid misdoings which justified both contempt and
aversion. In fact, his inability or unwillingness to comprehend her had always
been, in her searching and sensitive eyes, his chief crime. To be understood,
to be accepted at her full worth, was one of the most urgent demands of her
nature.
The life of this young woman, not only within but without, was
strange indeed. She fulfilled that problem of Hawthorne's--an individual
bearing one character, living one life in one place, and a totally different
one in another place--upon one spot of earth angelic, and upon another vile.
Stranger still, her harsher qualities appeared where her manner of
life was lawful, and her finer ones where it was condemnable. At Northport she
had been like sunlight to her intimates and like a ministering seraph to the
poor. In New York she avoided society: she had no tenderness for misery.
The explanation seems to be that love was her only motive of
feeling and action. Not a creature of reason, not a creature of conscience--she
was only a creature of emotion, an exaggerated woman.
Unfortunately, her husband, methodical in life, judicial in mind,
contemptuous of sentiment, was an exaggerated man. Here was a beating heart
united to a skeleton. The result of this unfortunate combination had been a
wreck of happiness and defiance of law.
Duvernois had not a friend intelligent enough to say to him,
"You must love your wife; if you cannot love her, you
must with merciful deception make her believe that you do. You must show her
when you return from business that you have thought of her; you must buy a
bouquet, a toy, a trifle, to carry home to her. If you do these things, you
will be rewarded; if not, you will be punished."
But had there been such a friend, Duvernois would not have
comprehended him. Ho would have replied, or at least he would have thought,
"My wife is a fool. She is not worth the money that I now spend upon her,
much less the reflection and time that you call upon me to spend."
Two such as Alice and Duvernois could not live together in peace.
Notwithstanding her old dread of him, and notwithstanding the new alarm with
which she was filled by the discovery that she was a felon, she could not
dissemble her feelings when she looked him in the face. Sometimes she was
silently contemptuous--sometimes (when her nerves were shaken) openly hostile.
Rational, impassive, vigorous as he was, she made him unhappy.
The letters of Leighton were at once a joy and a sorrow. She
awaited them impatiently; she went every day to the delivery post-office
whither she had directed them to be sent; she took them from the hands of the
indifferent clerk with a suffocating beating of the heart. Alone, she devoured
them, kissed them passionately a hundred times, sat down in loving haste to
answer them. But then came the necessity of excusing her long absence, of
inventing some lie for the man she worshiped, of deterring him from coming to
see her.
During that woeful winter of terror, of aversion, of vain longing,
her health failed rapidly. A relentless cough pursued her, the beautiful flame
in her cheek burned freely, and a burst of blood from the lungs warned her that
her future was not to be counted by years.
She cared little: her sole desire was to last until summer. She
merely asked to end her hopeless life in loving arms--to end it before those
arms should recoil from her in horror.
No discovery. Her husband was too indifferent toward her to watch
her closely, or even to suspect her. As early in June as might be she obtained
permission to go to the seaside, and with an eagerness which would have found
the hurricane slow she flew to Northport.
Leighton received her with a joy which at first blinded him to her
enfeebled health.
"Oh, how could you stay so long away from me?" were his
first words. "Oh, my love, my darling wife! thank you for coming back to
me."
But after a few moments, when the first flush and, sparkle of
excitement had died out of her cheeks and eyes, he asked eagerly, "What is
the matter with you? Have you been sick?"
"I am all well again, now that I see you," she answered,
putting out her arms to him with that little start of love and joy which had so
often charmed him.
It absolutely seemed that in the presence of the object of her
affection this erring woman became innocent. Her smile was as simple and pure
as that of childhood: her violet eyes reminded one of a heaven without a cloud.
It must have been that, away from punishment and from terror, she did not feel
herself to be guilty.
But the day of reckoning was approaching. She had scarcely begun
to regain an appearance of health under the stimulus of country air and renewed
happiness, when a disquieting letter arrived from Duvernois. In a tone which
was more than usually authoritative, he directed her to meet him at Portland,
to go to Nahant and Newport. Did he suspect something?
She would have given years of life to be able to show the letter
to Leighton and ask his counsel. But here her punishment began to double upon
her: the being whom she most loved was precisely the one to whom she must not
expose this trouble--the one from whom she was most anxious to conceal it.
In secret, and with unconfided tears, she wrote a reply, alleging
(what was true) that her feeble health demanded quiet, and praying that she
might be spared the proposed journey. For three days she feverishly expected an
answer, knowing the while that she ought to go to Portland to meet Duvernois,
should he chance to come, yet unable to tear herself away from Leighton, even
for twenty-four hours.
In the afternoon of the third day she made one of her frequent
visits of charity. At the house of a poor and bed-ridden widow she met, as she
had hoped to meet, her husband. When they left the place he took her into his
gig and carried her home.
It was a delicious day of mid June: the sun was setting in clouds
of crimson and gold; the earth was in its freshest summer glory. In the beauty
of the scene, and in the companionship of the heart which was all hers, she
forgot, or seemed to forget, her troubles. One hand rested on Leighton's arm;
her face was lifted steadily to his, like a flower to the light; her violet
eyes were dewy and sparkling with happiness. There were little clutches of her
fingers on his wrist whenever he turned to look at her. There were spasms of
joy in her slender and somewhat wasted frame as she leaned from time to time
against his shoulder. Arrived at the house, she was loth to have him leave her
for even the time required to take his horse to the stable.
"Come soon," she said--"come as quick as you can. I
shall be at the window. Look up when you reach the gate. Look at the window all
the way from the gate to the door."
In an instant, not even taking off her bonnet, she was sitting by
the window waiting for him to appear.
A man approached, walking behind the hedge of lilacs which
bordered the yard, and halted at the gate with an air of hesitation. She turned
ghastly white: retribution was upon her. It was Duvernois.
With that swift instinct of escape which sensitive and timorous
creatures possess, she glided out of the room, through the upper hall, down a
back stairway, into the garden behind the house, and so on to an orchard
already obscure in the twilight. Here she paused in her breathless flight, and
burst into one of her frequent coughs, which she vainly attempted to smother.
"I was already dying," she groaned. "Ah, why could
he not have given me time to finish?"
From the orchard she could faintly see the road, and she now
discovered Leighton returning briskly toward the house. Her first thought was,
"He will look up at the window, and he will not see me!" Her next
was, "They will meet, and all will be known!"
Under the sting of this last reflection she again ran onward until
her breath failed. She had no idea where she should go: her only purpose was to
fly from immediate exposure and scorn--to fly both from the man she detested
and the man she loved. Her speed was quickened to the extent of her strength by
the consideration that she was already missed, and would soon be pursued.
"Oh, don't let them come!--don't let them find me!" she
prayed to some invisible power, she could not have said what.
Mainly intent as she was upon mere present escape from reproachful
eyes, she at times thought of lurking in the woods or in some neighboring
village until Duvernois should disappear and leave her free to return to
Leighton. But always the reflection came up, "Now he knows that I have
deceived him; now he will despise me and hate me, and refuse to see me; now I
can never go back."
In such stresses of extreme panic and anguish an adult is simply a
child, with the same overweight of emotions and the same imperfections of
reason. During the moments when she was certain that Leighton would not forgive
her, Alice made wild clutches at the hope that Duvernois might. There were
glimpses of the earlier days of her married life; cheering phantoms of the days
when she believed that she loved and that she was beloved--phantoms which swore
by altars and bridal veils to secure her pardon.
She imagined Duvernois overtaking her with the words, "Alice,
I forgive your madness: do you also forgive the coldness which drove you to
it?"
She imagined herself springing to him, reaching out her hands for
reconciliation, putting up her mouth for a kiss, and sobbing, "Ah, why
were you not always so?"
Then of a sudden she scorned this fancy, trampled it under her
weary, aching feet, and abhorred herself for being faithless to Leighton.
At last she reached a sandy, lonely coast-road, a mile from the
village, with a leaden, pulseless, corpselike sea on the left, and on the right
a long stretch of black, funereal marshes. Seating herself on a ruinous little
bridge of unpainted and wormeaten timbers, she looked down into a narrow,
sluggish rivulet, of the color of ink, which oozed noiselessly from the morass
into the ocean. Her strength was gone: for the present farther flight was
impossible, unless she fled from earth--fled into the unknown.
This thought had indeed followed her from the house: at first it
had been vague, almost unnoticed, like the whisper of some one far behind; then
it had become clearer, as if the persuading fiend went faster than she through
the darkness, and were overtaking her. Now it was urgent, and would not be
hushed, and demanded consideration.
"If you should die," it muttered, "then you will
escape: moreover, those who now abhor you and scorn you, will pity you; and
pity for the dead is almost respect, almost love."
"Oh, how can a ruined woman defend herself but by
dying?" She wept as she gazed with a shudder into the black rivulet.
Then she thought that the water seemed foul; that her body would
become tangled in slimy reeds and floating things; that when they found her she
would be horrible to look upon. But even in this there was penance, a meriting
of forgiveness, a claim for pity.
Slowly, inch by inch, like one who proposes a step which cannot be
retraced, she crept under the railing of the bridge, seated herself on the edge
of the shaky planking and continued to gaze into the inky waters.
A quarter of an hour later, when the clergyman of Northport passed
by that spot, returning from a visit to a dying saint of his flock, no one was
there.
We must revert to the two husbands. Duvernois had long wondered
what could keep his wife in a sequestered hamlet, and immediately on her
refusal to join him in a summer tour he had resolved to look into her manner of
life.
At the village hotel he had learned that a lady named Duvernois
had arrived in the place during the previous summer, and that she had been
publicly married to a Doctor Leighton. He did not divulge his name--he did not
so much as divulge his emotions: he listened to this story calmly, his eyes
fixed on vacancy.
At the door of the boarding-house he asked for Mrs. Duvernois, and
then corrected himself, saying, "I mean Mrs. Leighton."
He must have had singular emotions at the moment, yet the
servant-girl noticed nothing singular in his demeanor.
Mrs. Leighton could not be found. None of the family had seen her
enter or go out: it was not known that she had been in the house for an hour.
"But there comes Doctor Leighton," remarked the girl as
the visitor turned to leave.
Even in this frightful conjuncture the characteristic coolness of
Duvernois did not forsake him: after a moment's hesitation and a quick glance
at his rival, he said, "I do not know him: I will call again."
On the graveled walk which led from the yard gate to the doorstep
the two men met and passed without a word--the face of the one as inexpressive
of the strangeness and horror of the encounter as the mind of the other was
unconscious of them.
Leighton immediately missed Alice. In a quarter of an hour he
became anxious: in an hour he was in furious search of her.
Somewhat later, when Duvernois came once more to the house,
accompanied by a fashionably-dressed youth, who, as it subsequently appeared,
was his younger brother, he found the family and the neighborhood in wild alarm
over the disappearance of Mrs. Leighton. The two at once returned to the hotel,
procured saddle-horses and joined in the general chase.
It was ten o'clock at night, and the moon was shining with a
vaporous, spectral light, when the maddest of chances brought the two husbands
together over a body which the tide, with its multitudinous cold fingers, had
gently laid upon the beach.
Leighton leaped from his horse, lifted the corpse with a loud cry,
and covered the white wet face with kisses.
Duvernois leaned forward in his saddle, and gazed at both without
a word or a movement.
"Oh, what could have led her to this?" groaned the
physician, already too sure that life had departed.
"Insanity," was the monotoned response of the statue on
horseback.
The funeral took place two days later: the coffin-plate bore the
inscription, "Alice Leighton, aged 23." Duvernois read it, and said
not a word.
"If you don't claim her as your wife," whispered the
brother, "you may find it difficult to marry again."
"Do you think I shall want to marry again?" responded
the widower with an icy stare.
He was aware that he had lost a shame and a torment, and not aware
that she might have been an honor and a joy, if only he had been able to love.
8."How Mother Did It"
The year 1839--that is, the year in which I was born--is of no
manner of importance to myself or anybody else. The year 1859--that is, the
year in which I began to live (Charlie and I got married that
year)--is of considerable importance to myself and to somebody else. The two
decades forming the interim between those years constitute my Dark Age, in
which I teethed and measled and whooping-coughed, and went to school, and wore
my hair in two long pig-tails, and loved molasses candy, and regarded a
school-room as purgatory, a ball-room as heaven--when I sang and danced and
grew as the birds and grasshoppers and flowers sing and dance and grow, because
they having nothing else to do.
Then came my Golden Age. That means, then came Charlie into my
life, when I felt for the first time that there was music in the birds' voices
and perfume in the flowers--that there was light in the heavens above and on
the earth beneath, for God was in heaven and Charlie was on earth--when I, who
had all along been hardly more than a human grasshopper, became the happiest of
happy women--so much happier, I thought, than I deserved. For who was I, and
what great thing had I ever done, that I should be crowned with such a crown of
glory as--Charlie? why should I, insignificant I, be so blest among women as to
be taken to wife by Charlie?
I was insanely sentimental enough to rather resent the fact that
Charlie was prosaically well off: his circumstances were distressingly easy. It
would have been so much nicer, so deliciously romantic, if there had been an
opportunity afforded me to show how ready, nay, eager, I was to sacrifice
friends, home and country for his dear sake. But Charlie didn't want me to
sacrifice my friends; nor did it require any great amount of heroism to
exchange my modestly comfortable home for his decidedly luxurious one; and as
for country, nothing on earth could have induced Charlie to leave his own
country, much less his own parish, much less his own plantation. So we were
married without any talk of sacrifice on either side, and moved quietly enough
from father's small plantation to Charlie's large one.
There was but one drawback to the perfectness of my happiness:
there was so little hope of my ever having an opportunity to air those
magnanimous traits of character upon the possession of which I so plumed myself.
I felt sure that I could meet the most adverse circumstances with the most
smiling patience, but circumstances obstinately refused to be adverse. I was
inwardly conscious that the most trying emergency could not shake my heroic but
purely feminine fortitude; but, alas! my fortitude was likely to rust while
waiting for the emergency. Injury and wrong should be met with sublime dignity,
but the most wildly speculative imagination could not look upon Charlie's
placidly handsome face and convert him into a possible tyrant.
To tell how the longed-for opportunity to exercise my powers of
endurance, and my dignity, and all the rest of it, did finally come about, and
to tell how I bore the test, is the object of this paper.
For the first six months of our married life, Charlie and I were
simply ridiculously happy--selfishly happy too. We resented a neighbor's visit
as an act of barbarous invasion, and the necessity of returning such visits was
acknowledged with a sublimity of resignation worthy of pictorial representation
in that exquisite parlor manual, Fox's Book of Martyrs. If Charlie
left the house for an hour or two, I looked upon his enforced absence as a
cruel dispensation of Providence, which I did not bear with
"fortitude and sublime dignity," but pouted over like the ridiculous
baby I was. Bare conjugal civility required that on leaving the house Charlie
should kiss me three times, and on returning six times: anything short of that
I should have considered a pre-monitory symptom of approaching separation. If
Charlie had ever been so savage as to call me plain "Lulie," I should
have felt certain he was sick and tired of me, and was repenting of having
married me instead of that spectacled bas-bleu, Miss Minerva Henshaw, who read
Buckle and talked dictionary. I believe I was intoxicated with my own
happiness, and was a little nonsensical because I was so happy.
Fortunately for the comfort of both Charlie and myself, his
domestic cabinet consisted of a marvelously well-trained set of servants, who
were simply perfect--as perfect in their way as Charlie was in his. They had
been trained by Charlie's mother, who had been the head of affairs in his house
up to the hour of her death--an event which had occurred some dozen years
before my first meeting with Charlie. Everybody said she had been a celebrated
housekeeper, and Charlie's devotion to her had been the talk of the
country-side. There were people malicious enough to say that if Charlie's
mother had never died, he would never have married, but I take the liberty of
resenting such an assertion as a personal insult; for, although I don't doubt
the dear old lady was a perfect jewel in her way, yet, looking at the portrait
of her which hangs over our parlor mantelpiece, I see the face of a hard,
determined-looking woman with cold gray eyes and rigidly set mouth, in a
funny-looking black dress, neither high-necked nor low-necked, having a starchy
white ruffle round the edge, in vivid white contrast to the yellow skin; with
grizzly, iron-gray curls peeping out from under a cap that is fearfully and
wonderfully made, with a huge ruffled border radiating in a circumference of
several feet, while its two black-and-white gauze ribbon strings lie in rigid
exactness over her two rigidly exact shoulders. Looking on this portrait, I do
not thank anybody for saying that it was only because death chose that shining
mark that I had found favor in Charlie's eyes.
We had been married, I suppose, about six months, when, sitting
one evening over a cozy wood-fire in our cozy little parlor, just under the
work of art I have described at such length, Charlie committed his first
matrimonial solecism. He yawned, actually gaped--an open-mouthed, audible,
undeniable yawn!
Glancing up at him from my work (which consisted of the inevitable
worked slippers without which no woman considers her wifehood absolutely
asserted), I caught him in the act. "Are you tired, Charlie?" I asked
in accents of wifely anxiety.
Tired! Poor fellow! he ought to have been, for he had ridden all
over the plantation that day, had written two business letters, and smoked
there's no telling how many cigars, and had only taken one little cat-nap after
dinner.
He was leaning back in his arm-chair, with his eyes fixed in
mournful meditation upon his mother's portrait (at least I thought so), when I
asked him if he was tired, and I fancied he was thinking sad thoughts of the
mother who had not been dead so very long as never to trouble the thoughts of
the living; so, laying down my slippers, I crossed the rug and perched myself
on Charlie's knee.
"Talk to me about her, Charlie dear."
"About whom, little one?" asked Charlie, turning his
eyes toward me with a little lazy look of inquiry.
"About your mother, Charlie: weren't you thinking about her
just now?"
"I don't know--maybe I was. Dear mother! you don't find many
women like her now-a-days."
Reader, that was my first glimpse of Charlie's hobby. And from the
luck-less moment when I so innocently invited him to mount it, up to the time
when I forcibly compelled him to dismount from it, I had ample opportunity to
exercise my "smiling patience, sublime dignity and heroic fortitude."
Whether or not I improved my opportunities properly, I will leave you to judge
for yourself. But for two whole years "how mother did it" seemed to
be the watchword of Charlie's existence, and was the bête noir of
mine.
So long as Charlie and I were in Paradise the house kept itself,
and very nicely it did it too, but by the time we were ready to come back to
earth the perfect servants, who had been taking such good care of themselves,
and our two daft selves into the bargain, were found to be sadly demoralized.
The discovery came upon us gradually. I think my husband noticed the decadence
as soon as I did, but I wasn't going to invite his attention to the fact; and
he, I suppose, thought that I thought that everything was just as it should be.
One of Charlie's inherited manias was for early rising--a habit
which would have been highly commendable and undeniably invaluable in a
laboring man, but which struck me, who had an equally strong mania for not
rising early, as extremely inconvenient and the least little bit absurd.
Charlie got up early simply because "mother did it" before him; and
after he had risen at earliest dawn and dressed himself, he had nothing better
to do than walk out on the front gallery, locate himself in a big wicker chair,
tilt his chair back and elevate his feet to the top of the banisters, and stare
out over the cottonfields. This position he would maintain, probably, about
twenty minutes. Then the pangs of hunger would render him restless, and he
would draw out his watch to note the time of day. The next step in the formula
would bring him back to my room door while I was still sleepily trying to
reconnect the broken links of a dream, from which vain effort he would startle
me into wide-awake reality by a stentorian "Lulie, Lulie! Come, wife--it's
breakfast-time."
Upon which, instead of "heroic fortitude," I would treat
him to a little cross "Please yell at the cook, Charlie, and not at me.
I'm sure if people will get up at such unearthly hours, they
should expect to be kept waiting for their breakfast."
Then the spirit of unrest would impel Charlie toward the back
door, where I would hear him commanding, exhorting, entreating.
Mentally registering a vow to give my husband a dose of Mrs.
Winslow's Soothing Syrup on the coming night, I would relinquish all hope of
another nap, get up and dress myself, and join my roaring lion on the front
gallery, where we would both sit meekly waiting for the allied forces of
kitchen and dining-room to decide upon the question of revictualing us.
"Lulie," said Charlie to me one morning at the
breakfast-table, "things are getting all out of gear about this house,
somehow or other."
I put down the coffee-pot with a resigned thump and asked my lord,
with an injured air, to please explain himself.
"Well, when mother was alive I never knew what it was to sit
down to my breakfast later than six o'clock in summer or seven in winter."
"How did she manage it, Charlie?" I asked, very meekly.
"Why, by getting up early herself. No servant on the face of
the globe is going to get up at daybreak and go to work in earnest when she
knows her mistress is sound asleep in bed. I will tell you how mother did: she
had a pretty good-sized bell, that she kept on a table by her bedside, and
every morning, as soon as her eyes were open, she would give such a peal with
that old bell that all the servants on the premises knew that 'Mistress was
awake and up,' and bestirred themselves accordingly. There was no discount on
mother: that was the way she made father a rich man, too."
"But, Charlie, you're already a rich man, and why on earth
should we get out of bed at daybreak just because your mother and father did so
before us?"
"Of course, Lulie," said Charlie, the least little bit
coldly, "I have no desire in the world to force you to conform to my
views: I only told you how mother did it."
Reader, you know how I loved Charlie, and after that I out-larked
the lark in early rising; and although Charlie and I did little more than gape
in each other's faces for an hour or two, and wish breakfast would come, and
wonder what made them take so long, he was perfectly satisfied that we were
both on the road that was to make us healthier, wealthier and wiser.
Among other points on which my husband and I were mutually agreed
was a liking for good strong coffee, and we also held in common one decided
opinion, and that was, that our coffee was gradually becoming anything but good
and strong.
Charlie broached the subject first. "Lulie, our coffee is
getting to be perfectly undrinkable," said he one morning, putting his cup
down with a face of disgust.
"It is indeed, Charlie: it's perfectly villainous. Milly
ought to be ashamed of herself: I shall speak to her again after
breakfast."
"Maybe you don't give out enough coffee?" suggested
Charlie.
"I don't know how much Milly takes," I replied,
innocently.
"Takes! Do you mean to say that you don't know how much
coffee goes out of your pantry, Lulie? I don't wonder we never have any fit to
drink!"
If I had been of an argumentative turn, I would have asked Charlie
to explain how giving the cook carte blanche in the matter of quantity should
have had such a disastrous effect in the matter of quality. But I was not of an
argumentative turn, so I took no notice of his queer logic.
"Why should I bother about every spoonful of coffee, Charlie?
You assured me, when I first came here, that every servant you had was as
honest as you or I, and I'm sure Milly knows better than I do how much coffee
she ought to take."
"Well," said Charlie with a sigh of mock resignation,
"that may be the way they do things now-a-days, but I remember exactly how
mother managed to have good coffee." Here the hobby broke into a brisk
canter: "I recollect she had a little oval wooden box, that held, I
suppose, about a quart--or two, maybe--of roasted coffee, and that box stood on
the mantelpiece in her room; and every morning, as soon as her bell rang, Milly
would come with a cup and spoon, and mother would measure out two
table-spoonfuls of coffee with her own hands and give it to the cook, and the
cook knew better than not to have good coffee, I can tell you."
"Are you sure it was only two spoonfuls, Charlie?"
"I am sure," responded Charlie, solemnly.
As good-luck would have it, while rummaging in the store-room a
day or two after that coffee talk, I came upon a little old oval wooden box,
the lid of which I detached with some difficulty, and as the scent of the roses
hung round it still, I had no difficulty in identifying my treasure-trove with
the wooden box that had played such a distinguished part in the good old times
when cooks "knew better than not to have good coffee, I can tell
you."
Hoping that some relic of my dead predecessor might prove more
awe-inspiring to contumacious Milly than my own despised monitions, I exhumed
the wooden box, had it thoroughly cleansed, filled with roasted coffee and
placed upon my mantelpiece, giving Milly orders to come to me hereafter,
every morning, for the coffee.
Charlie gave me a grateful little kiss when he saw the old box in
the old place, either as a reward for my amiable endeavor to do things as
mother did, or because he took the old wooden box for an outward and visible
sign of the inward and spiritual grace that was to move Milly to make good
coffee.
But somehow or other, in spite of the unsightly old wooden box on
my mantelshelf, the coffee didn't improve in the least. Maybe the charm failed
to work because Charlie had forgotten which end of the mantelpiece his mother
used to keep it on, or I used the wrong spoon. I'm inclined to lay it on the
spoon myself, but there's no telling.
The first cotton-picking season that came round after my marriage
seemed to afford Charlie no end of opportunities for riding his hobby at a fast
and furious pace. It seemed as if there was no end to the things that mother
used to do at that important season. I suppose she really was a wonderful
woman, and I humbly hope that by the time I have lived as long as she did, and get
to looking as she does in her portrait, and can wear a wonderful-looking cap
with the wonderful composure she wore it with, and have little iron-gray curls
hanging round my iron-gray visage, I may be only half as wonderful.
"Would I see to the making of the cotton sacks? That was one
thing mother always did." Thus Charlie.
Of course I would: why should I object to doing anything that
would forward my husband's interests? Besides, I was actually pining for some
healthful occupation: I was tired of playing at living. I resolved on a
brilliant plan. I would out-mother mother, for she only saw to
the making of the sacks: I would make them myself, every one of them, on my
sewing-machine. If I couldn't make cotton-sacks on it, what was the use of
having it?
Charlie had informed me that he would send me down seven or eight
women from the quarters to make the sacks. I informed him with a flourish that
I should need but one: I should want her to cut the sacks out. Charlie thanked
me, and Martha and I and "Wheeler & Wilson" made the sacks.
Was I to blame that the wretched things burst in twenty places at
once the first time they were used? Was I to blame that two women were kept
busy mending my sacks until they ceased to be sacks? Charlie might think so,
but I did not.
He reported the failure of my cotton-sack experiment with very
unbecoming levity, as it struck me, accompanying his report with a somewhat
unjust comment upon new-fangled notions, such as sewing-machines, etc., etc.,
winding up with--"Now, when mother was alive" (I fairly winced),
"the house was not considered too good for the darkies to sit on the back
gallery with their work and make the sacks right under mother's eye--sewing
them with good strong thread, too, that was spun for the purpose. I can remember
the old spinning-wheel: it used to sit right at that end of the gallery."
Like Captain Cuttle, I "made a note of it" for future
use.
I often had occasion to wonder, during the early years of my
married life, how it happened that the son of such an exceptionally perfect
woman as I was compelled to presume my respected mother-in-law to have been,
should have grown up with such shockingly disorderly habits as had my Charlie.
The wretched creature would stalk into my bed-room--which I was particularly
dainty about--fresh from shooting or fishing, with pounds of mud clinging to
his boots, bristling all over with cockleburs, his hands grimed with gunpowder;
and helping himself to water from my ewer, he would begin dabbling in my china
basin until he had reduced its originally pure contents into a compound of mud
and ink, and would wind up by making a finish of my fresh damask towel, and
throwing it on the bed or a chair instead of returning it to the rack, as he
should have done.
"Charlie," said I one day, saucily inviting a dose of
"what mother did," "what did mother used to do when you came
into her room and turned it into a pig-stye, and then left it for her to clean
up again?"
"She never let me do it," said Charlie with a laugh.
"I'll tell you how she did. She had a tin basin on a shelf on the back
gallery, and one of those great big rolling towels that lasted about a week;
and after her washstand was fixed up in the morning, we knew better than to
upset it, I can tell you."
"Very well, sir: I intend you shall know better than to upset
mine, I'll show you."
In fact, things had come to that pass that I had mentally resolved
to "show" Charlie a great many things. I firmly believed that the
secret of the power that Charlie's mother had exercised over her household, and
still exercised over him in memory, lay in the fact that she made them all
afraid of her: so I firmly resolved that they should all be afraid of me, poor
little me! It is true, I was but twenty, and she was fifty; I was but a pocket
edition of a woman, and she was a Webster Unabridged; I had little
meek blue eyes, that dropped to the ground in the most shamefaced manner if a
body did but look at me, and she had hard, cold gray eyes, that not only looked
straight at you, but right through you. Still, I hoped, notwithstanding these
trifling drawbacks, to make myself very awe-inspiring by dint of a grand
assumption of spirit.
To put it into very plain language, I resolved to bully Charlie
off his hobby. He had thrown his mother at my head (figuratively speaking, of
course) until, if she had been present in propria persona, I should
have been tempted to try Hiawatha's remarkable feat with his grandmother, and
throw her up against the moon. But as I could not revenge myself upon her
personally, I began to lay deep and subtle plans for inducing Charlie to leave
her to her repose.
As the veritable bell which, in the days when "mother did
it," had acted as a sort of Gabriel's trump, was still extant, minus
clapper and handle, I was enabled to provide myself with its fac-simile. Armed
with this instrument of retribution, I laid me down to sleep by Charlie's side,
gloating in anticipation over my ripening scheme of vengeance.
It was a rare thing for me to wake up before Charlie, but I did
manage to do so on the morning in question, by dint, I think, of a powerful
mental resolution to that effect made the night before. I raised myself very
softly, so as not to disturb my husband's gentle slumbers, and, possessing
myself of my big bell, I laid on with a will, raising such a clatter in the
quiet morning air that Charlie fairly bounded into the middle of the room
before he in the least comprehended where it came from.
"In the name of God, Lulie, what is the meaning of
that?" he exclaimed, looking at me as if he half doubted my sanity.
"That's the way mother did it, Charlie," I replied
placidly enough, and, replacing my big bell on the table, I settled myself on
my pillow once more, ostensibly to go to sleep again--in reality to have my
laugh out in a quiet fashion, for it was enough to have made the very bed-posts
laugh to see Charlie's funny look of astonishment and indignation. But of
course he couldn't say a word, you know.
For two more mornings I clattered my bell about his precious old
head, and then he paid me to quit, and after that began riding his hobby at a
little slower gait.
The next direct intimation he gave that his faith in inherited
ideas was growing shaky was a plaintive little request that I would not stick
so close to the old wooden box, but give out enough coffee to ensure him
something to drink for his breakfast.
Now, I had no wish that my husband should drink bad coffee just
because Providence had seen fit to remove his mother from this sublunary
sphere: I merely wanted to cure him of telling me how mother did it; so as soon
as he thus tacitly acknowledged that his suggestion had not been a success, I
took matters into my own hands, and proved to him that coffee could be made as
well by young wives as by old mothers.
In the due revolution of the seasons King Cotton donned his royal
robes of ermine once more, and sacks again became the one thing needful. It was
the very rainiest, wettest, muddiest picking-season that had ever been seen. In
pursuance of my plan, I had seven or eight women down from the quarters, and a
spinning-wheel also, which was set to humming right under our bed-room window.
The rainy weather had kept Charlie in the house, and he was
lounging on a couch in my room, enjoying a pleasant semi-doze, when the
monotonous whirr-r-r of the spinning-wheel first attracted his attention.
"Lulie," he asked, rising into a sitting posture, "what is that
infernal noise on the back gallery?"
"The spinning-wheel, Charlie. They are spinning thread to
make the sacks with," I answered, without looking up from my work.
"Oh!" and Charlie subsided for a while. "Ahem!
Lulie, my dear, how long is that devilish spinning to be kept up?"
"Devilish! Why, Charlie, that's the way mother did it."
"Well," said Charlie, scratching his head and looking
foolish, "I know she did, Lulie, but I'll be confounded if I can stand it
much longer."
"Why, Charlie, you used to stand it when mother did it,"
I answered maliciously.
"I was hardly ever about the house in those days, Lulie: I
suppose that was why I didn't mind it."
"Why weren't you about the house much in those days,
Charlie?"
"Because you weren't in it, you witch, I suppose."
This was such a decided triumph over the old lady of the portrait
that I could afford to be amiable; so, giving him a spasmodic little hug and an
energetic little kiss, I went out and stopped the spinning nuisance
immediately.
After that the hobby went slower and slower, feebler and feebler.
One more energetic display of my bogus spirit and "the enemy was
mine."
Winter came on in its duly-appointed time, bringing with it the
usual quantity of wild ducks and more than the usual degree of severe cold.
Charlie was an inveterate duck-shooter, and with the return of the season came
the return of mud and dirt in my bowls.
I determined to do as mother did. A tin basin made its appearance
on the back gallery, four yards of crash sewed together at the end were made to
revolve over the roller, and by way of forcing the experiment to a successful
issue orders were given that my own pitchers should be filled only after
nightfall.
I was sitting in my bed-room sewing away, in placid
unconsciousness of outside cold and discomfort, when Charlie got home from his
first hunt of the season.
"No water, Lulie?" and the monster took hold of my nice
pitcher with a pair of muddy, half-frozen hands.
"On the gallery, dear, just where mother used to keep
it;" and I smiled up at him angelically.
With a muttered something or other, poor Charlie bounded out to
the back gallery. He came back in a minute, his hands as muddy and cold as ever.
"Look here, Lulie: the water's all frozen in that confounded
tin basin out there."
"I'll have it thawed out for you," I said sweetly,
rising as I spoke.
"I say, wifey"--and the great, handsome fellow came
close up to me with his mud and his burs--"do you think it's exactly fair,
when a fellow's been out all the morning shooting ducks for your dinner, to
make him stand out on the gallery such a day as this and scrub the mud off his
frozen hands?"
"That's the way mother did," was all my answer.
"Look here, Lulie, I cry quits. If you'll only let a body off
this once, you may keep house on your own plan, little lady, and I'll never
tell you how mother did it again so long as I live."
"Well, then, don't, that's a dear," I replied, "for
you'll only make me dislike her memory, without doing any good. Just be patient
with me, Charlie, and maybe after a while I'll be as good a housekeeper as your
mother was before me. The mistake you and all other men make is, in comparing
your wives at the end of their first year of housekeeping with your mothers,
whose housekeeping you knew nothing about until it was of ever so many years'
duration. I'm young yet, but I'm improving in that matter every day,
Charlie."
With which little moral lecture I gave Charlie a kiss, and some water
to wash the mud from his poor red hands.
Moral.--My dear girls, don't you ever marry a man that cannot take his
affidavit he never had a mother, unless it is expressly stipulated in the
marriage contract that he is never to tell you how his mother did it.
9.The Red Fox:
A Tale of
New Year's Eve
It was New Year's Eve, 184-. I and my two little boys, children of
five and seven, were alone in the house. My husband had been unexpectedly
called away on business, and the servant had gone to her friends to spend the
coming holiday.
It was drawing toward night. The cold shadows of the winter
twilight were already falling. A dull red glow in the west told where the sun
was going down. Over the rest of the sky hung heavy gray clouds. A few drops of
rain fell from time to time, and the wind was rising, coming round the corner
of the house with a long, mournful howl like that of a lost hound.
I am not a very nervous person, but I did not like the idea of
spending by myself the long evening that would come after the children's
bed-time.
We were living then in a very new place in Michigan, which I shall
call Maysville. My husband, an ex-army officer, had resigned the sword for the
saw-mill. Our house was the oldest in the village, which does not speak much
for its antiquity, as five years before Maysville had been unbroken forest. The
house stood outside the cluster of houses that formed the little settlement: it
was a quarter of a mile to our nearest neighbor.
Now, Maysville calls itself a city, has an academy and a college,
and a great quantity of church in proportion to its population. Then, we
"went to meeting" in a little white-painted, pine box of a thing,
like a barn that had risen in life. The stumps stood about the street: the cows
wandered at will and pastured in the "public square," an irregular
clearing running out into indefinite space. Here also the Indians would encamp
when they came to town from their reservation about five miles away, and here
also, I regret to say, they would sometimes get drunk, and add what Martha
Penney calls "a revolving animosity to the scenery." The squaws,
however, would generally secure the knives and guns before the quarrelsome
stage was reached. Not unfrequently the ladies would bring the weapons to Mrs.
Moore or myself to hide away till their lords and masters should be sober.
Then, feeling secure that no great harm could happen, they would look on with
the utmost placidity at the antics of their better halves until they dropped
down to sleep off their liquor.
There were no Indians in town that night, however, and if there
had been, I was not at all afraid of them, for we were on excellent terms with
the whole reservation. My feeling about staying alone was merely one of those
unreasonable sensations that sometimes overtake people of ill-regulated minds.
I went to the door and looked out at the gray, angry sky. It was
not cold, but chill. The wind howled and shivered among the leafless branches:
everything promised a storm.
I was not at all sorry to see Mr. and Mrs. Moore drive up in their
light buggy, with their two high-stepping, little brown horses. Mrs. Moore had
in her arms a bundle in a long blue embroidered cloak--a baby, in short. She
and her husband firmly believed this infant to be the most beautiful, most
intelligent and altogether most charming creature which the world had ever
seen. They had been married three years, and little Carry was their first
child.
Mr. and Mrs. Moore were by no means ordinary people. Mrs.
Moore--born Minny or Hermione Adams--was a very small woman, exceedingly
pretty, with light brown curly hair, dark blue eyes and a complexion like an
apple blossom.
Mr. Moore was the son of a Seneca mother and Cherokee father, with
not a drop of white blood in his veins. So he thought, at least, but I never
could quite believe it, because he could and did work, and never so much as
touched even a glass of wine. His parents had died when he was very young, and
he had been brought up and educated by a missionary, a gentle, scholarly old
Presbyterian minister, whose memory his adopted son held in loving reverence.
The story of our acquaintance with Richard Moore is too long to be
told here. Four years before he had come with us from the Pawnee country. He
had married Minny Adams with the full consent of her parents and the opposition
of all her other friends. Contrary to all prophecies, and with that inartistic
disregard of the probable which events often show, they had been very happy
together.
Mr. Moore--otherwise Wyanota--was a civil engineer, and stood high
in his profession.
"Look here, mamma," he said as he drove up. "Will
you take in the wife and the small child for to-night? I must go away."
"Certainly," said I, overjoyed. "But where are you
going, to be caught in a storm?"
"Oh, they have got into a fuss with the hands over on the
railroad, and have sent for me. I might have known Robinson wouldn't manage
when I left him?"
"Why not?"
"English!" said Wyn, most expressively. "No one can
stand the airs he puts on."
Now, such airs as Mr. Moore possessed--and they were neither few
nor far between--were not put on, but were perfectly natural to him.
"Can't you come in and get your tea?" I asked as he
handed me the baby and helped his wife down.
"No: I must go over directly and compose matters. Good-bye,
little woman: by-bye, baby! Do you know, we think she's beginning to say
'papa?'" said Wyn, proudly; and then he kissed his wife and child and
drove away.
I carried the infant phenomenon into the house and took off its
wrappings. She was my namesake, and I loved the little creature, but I can't
say she was a pretty baby. She was a soft, brown thing, with her father's
beautiful southern eyes and her mother's mouth, but otherwise she certainly was
not handsome. She was ten months old, but she had a look of experience and
wisdom in her wee face that would have made her seem old at twenty years. She
sat on my lap and watched me in a meditative way, as though she were reviewing
her former estimate of my character, and considering whether her opinions on
that subject were well founded. There was something quite weird and awful in
her dignity and gravity.
"Isn't she a wise-looking little thing?" said Minny.
"She makes me think sometimes of the fairy changeling that was a hundred
and fifty years old, and never saw soap made in an egg-shell."
"This baby never would have made such a confession of
ignorance, you may depend. She would not have acknowledged that anything lay
out of the range of her experience. Take your chicken till I get tea, for I am
my own girl to-night."
We had a very merry time over the tea-table and in washing up the
dishes. Until the boys went to bed we were in something of a frolic with them
and the baby, and it was not till the little one was asleep in her crib and Ed
and Charley were quiet in bed that we noticed how wild the weather was getting.
The rain, which had at first fallen in pattering drops, was now
driving in sheets before a mighty wind, which roared through the woods back of
the house with a noise like thunder. The branches of the huge oaks in the front
yard creaked and groaned as only oak boughs can. The house shook, the rain
lashed the roof, and the wind clawed and rattled the blinds like some wild
creature trying to get in.
"I hope Wyn is safe under shelter,'' said Mrs. Moore.
"He will have reached the end of his journey long before
this. I hope he will have no trouble with the men, but he is not apt to. I pity
poor Mr. Robinson. When Wyn chooses, his extreme politeness is something quite
awful."
"I will say for my husband," observed Mrs. Moore,
"that when he sets himself to work to be disagreeable, he can, without
doing one uncourteous thing, be more aggravating than any one I ever saw in my
life."
"It is perfectly evident that he never tries his airs on you,
or you would not speak so. Hear the wind blow!"
"It is no use listening to the weather. The house will stand,
I suppose. Have you got your work? Then let me read to you. It will seem like
old times, before I was married."
Minny Moore was in some respects a very remarkable woman. Though
little Carry was her first baby, she could talk on other
subjects. She did not expect you to listen with rapture to the tenth account of
how baby had said "Da-da," or thrill with agony over the tale of an
attack of wind. She had been her husband's friend and companion before the baby
was born: she did not entirely throw him over now that it had come. She had
always been fond of reading, and she continued to keep up her interest in the
world outside of her nursery. She thought that as her daughter grew up her
mother would be as valuable as a guide and friend if she did not wholly sink
the educated woman in the nurse-maid and seamstress. These habits may have been
"unfeminine," but they certainly made Mrs. Moore much more agreeable
as a companion than if she had been able to talk of nothing but the baby's
clothes, teeth and ailments.
I took out my work, and Minny began to read Locksley Hall,
which was then a new poem on this side the water. I had never heard it before,
and I must confess I was much affected--more than I should be now. Mrs. Moore,
however, chose to say that she thought Amy had made a most fortunate escape,
that she had no doubt but the hero would have been a most intolerable person to
live with, and that their marriage, had it come to pass, would have ended in
Amy's taking in sewing to support both herself and her husband. As for the
Squire, why we had no word for his character but his disappointed rival's, and
his drinking might be all a slander. As to his snoring, why poets might snore as
well as other people. If he loved his wife "somewhat better than his dog,
a little dearer than his horse," "Why what more," said Mrs.
Moore, "could any woman ask of a man given to horses and hunting? If
Calvin Bruce ever cares more for a woman than he does for his brown pointer and
his fast trotter, she may think herself happy indeed."
At that instant a sudden and furious blast rushed out of the
woods, and tore and shook at the four corners of the house as if to wrench it
from its foundations.
"It's quite awful to hear the wind scream like that,"
said Minny. "It is like the banshee. Hark! is not that some one knocking
at the back door?"
I listened, and amid the rattling and shaking of blinds and
timbers I heard what sounded like a hurried, impatient knock at the side door.
"Who can it be on such a wild night?" I said, and took the candle and
went to open the door. I set the light in the hall, for I knew the wind would
blow it out. In spite of this precaution, however, the flame was extinguished,
for as I drew back the bolt and lifted the latch the blast threw the door
violently back on its hinges, and rushed into the hall as though exulting in
having finally made an entrance.
"Pretty bad weather, mamma," said some one in the
softest, sweetest voice, like a courteous flute, and there entered my old
friend the Black Panther.
This gentleman measured seven feet in his moccasins, and as he
stood in our little entry he looked gigantic indeed. He closed the door with
some difficulty, and I relit the candle.
"You are quite wet through," I said, for the water
dripped from his blanket and woolen hunting-frock. He carried his rifle in his
hand, and I thought the old man looked very tired and sad, and even anxious.
"You all well?" he asked, earnestly.
"Certainly. The captain has gone away, and Minny and the baby
are here for the night. My dear friend, where have you been in this weather?
There is a good fire in the kitchen. Come and get dry there, and let me make
you a cup of hot coffee and get you something to eat."
Here Minny came out into the hall and held up her hands in
sunrise.
"Oh, uncle," she said, calling him by the name she had
used toward him since her childhood, "how could you come out in all this
rain, and bring on your rheumatism? How do you think any one is ever going to
find dry clothes for such a big creature as you?"
The Panther gave a little grunt and a smile. He was used to
Minny's lectures, and he followed us both into the kitchen, where she made him
sit down by the fire and took off his wet blanket, waiting on him like a
daughter, and scolding him gently meanwhile. The old gentleman had of late
years been subject to rheumatism, and it was too likely that this exposure
would bring on another attack. The Panther patted her two little hands between
his own. Like most of his race, he had beautiful hands, soft and rounded even
in his old age, with long taper fingers that had, I dare say, taken more than
one scalp in their time.
"Pooh!" said he, lightly. "You think old Ingin melt
like maple sugar? You well?" he asked, anxiously.
"Quite so."
"And little one?"
"As well as a little pig, fast asleep in the other
room."
"Where your husband?"
"Gone over to the railroad on business."
"And yours?" he asked, turning to me.
"Gone to Carysville. Do you know anything about him? is
anything the matter?" I asked, a little alarmed at his persistent
questioning and an indefinite something in the old man's tone and manner.
"Oh no," said he, earnestly. "I come right over
from our place."
"Walked from the reservation in this storm!" said I.
"What could have made you do such a thing?"
"Nothing--just to see you. Not very strange come see two nice
women," said the old gentleman, with a little complimentary bow.
The Panther was somewhat vain of his knowledge of what he called
"white manners," but I never saw a white man who could be so gently
dignified, so courteous, so altogether charming in manner, as the old chief
when he chose. He hardly knew one letter from another, but he had had
sixty-five years of experience in war and council. Many a man "got up
regardless of expense" in college and society might have taken lessons in
deportment from this old Pottawatomie. He had known Minny from her childhood.
Her father's farm had been the first clearing in all that part of the country.
Deacon Adams had always been on excellent terms with the Indians, and his
little daughter had found her earliest playmates among their children. The
Panther had carried Minny in his arms when she was a baby; and as his own
family of boys and girls died one after another, he clung closer to the child
who had been their pet as well as his own.
The Panther was one of those big, soft, easy men who seem made to
be ruled by one woman or another. He was greatly respected in his tribe, and
had much influence. When they had been a nation he had been one of their most
distinguished warriors, and his word had been law. He had always maintained
toward the "young men" a somewhat imperious manner. He had conducted
himself with dignity and decision in all his visits to Washington, where he had
been a great lion, and in all his dealings with the United States he had shown
much wisdom and ability. But report said that when once within the domestic
circle and before his squaw, the diplomatist and warrior was exceedingly meek.
He bore his wife's death with resignation, but he had never married again. He
loved Minny Adams better than anything on earth, and the girl had great
influence over him. She, in her turn, was very fond of him. From her earliest
years he had been her friend, confidant and admirer. He looked so fierce and
dangerous, and was so kind and simple, that the alliance between the girl and
himself was very much like that between a little child and a big mastiff--the
child protected and leader, the dog protector and led.
Minny made flannel shirts for him, and he wore them: she trimmed
his moccasins, and the dainty cambric ruffles which he wore when in grand
costume were got up by her hands. The Panther, however, did not often appear in
full dress. She tried to teach him to read, and she did get him through the
alphabet, but he greatly preferred hearing stories read to learning to do it
for himself, and was especially fond of the Arabian Nights, which
he quite believed. She even coaxed him to go to church with her, and might have
made a convert of him but for the interference of an exceedingly silly young
clergyman. The Panther rather liked to hear the Bible, but I fear he was more
attracted by the sound than the sense: his favorite chapter was the story of
David and Goliah. He used to say that "Ingin religion was good for Ingin,
and white religion was good for white man." However, he never offered the
least opposition to the missionary who had settled among his people: indeed, he
rather patronized that gentleman.
He and Wyanota were excellent friends. It was good to see the
deference and respect with which the younger man treated the elder. I always
said that it was the Panther who made the match between Minny and Mr. Moore.
Their house was one of his homes, and he was a frequent guest at our own. He
petted and spoiled my two children: he was very soft and kind to me, whom he
called "Mamma," after Wyn's example, and he considered that my
husband "understood good manners"--a compliment which he did not pay
to every one.
A dear little daughter whom we had lost had been very fond of him:
the child had died in his arms. I was alone at the time, and the old man's
sympathy was such a comfort to me in my trouble that for his own sake, as well
as for our little girl's, he had become very dear to us.
For an Indian, the Panther might be called almost a sober
character. He was seldom drunk more than four or five times a year, and when he
was, he always was very careful to keep out of the way of his white friends
until he was sober, when he would lecture the young men on the evils of
intemperance in most impressive fashion. He was a good deal of an orator,
possessing a voice of great sweetness and power; and though he was such an
immense creature, all his movements were light and graceful as those of a
kitten. He could speak perfectly good, even elegant, English when he chose, but
he did not always choose, and generally omitted the pronouns; but his voice,
manner and gestures in speaking were perfectly charming when he was in a good
temper. When he was not, he was somewhat awful, but it was only under great
provocation that he became savage. In general, he was an amiable, kind, lazy
creature, whom it was very easy to love.
I could not but wonder that night, as I set out the table and made
the coffee, what had brought the Panther so far in such wild weather. He did
not seem like himself. He was usually very conversable, and would chat away by
the hour together, in a fashion half shrewd, half simple, often very
interesting; but now he was silent and distrait.
"Carry," said Mrs. Moore, "are there not some of
Wyn's things here yet in that old trunk in your lumber-room?"
"Yes. Perhaps you can find something the chief can put on,
and bring down a pair of the captain's socks and slippers."
"Oh, never mind, never mind," said the damp giant.
"But I will mind," said the little woman; and she went
out and soon returned with the things, which she insisted he should go and put
on.
"Well, always one woman or another," said the Panther in
a tone of resignation: "always squaw git her own way. You see that little
girl, mamma? Could squeeze her up just like a rabbit. Always she order me round
since she so high, and I just big fool enough let her;" and he went into
the next room, and presently came out arrayed in dry garments, as to his upper
man at least. I set the table with the best I had in the house, and Minny and I
sat down to get a cup of coffee with our guest.
At any other time the old gentleman would have purred and talked
over this little feast like an amiable old cat, but now he was rather silent;
and I noticed that in the pauses of the wind he would stop as though listening
for some expected sound. I began to think he was concealing from me some
misfortune or danger, and the same thought was evidently in Minny's mind, for
she watched him anxiously.
When we went back into the parlor the Panther walked to the baby's
crib, and stood for a moment looking at the sleeping child with a tenderness
which softened his whole aspect. Then he asked for the little boys.
"They are fast asleep in the next room," I said.
"Go and look at them, and you will be sure."
The Panther smiled, but he went into my room, which opened from
the parlor, and bending down softly kissed the two little faces resting on the
same pillow.
I drew a large chair to the fire for him, and Minny filled his
pipe, for I had "followed the drum" too long to object to smoking.
The giant stretched his length of limb before the fire, but he did not seem
quite at ease, even under the influence of the tobacco. He looked a little
troubled and anxious, and lifted his head once or twice with a sudden motion,
like a dog who has misgivings that something is wrong out-doors.
The baby stirred in her sleep, and the chief began gently to rock
the cradle. "'Spose she order me about too, by and by," he said,
"like her mother."
"Oh, you like to make that out," said Minny,
"because you are such a great big, strong man. If you were a little bit of
a creature, you would always be standing on your dignity to make yourself look
tall. The last time Wyn and I were at Detroit we went to church, and I heard
the very smallest man I ever saw preach a tremendous sermon about the man being
the head of the woman, insisting mightily on the respect we all owe to the
other sex. When we came out I asked Wyn what he thought, and he said he thought
it was exactly such a sermon as such a very tiny man might be expected to
preach."
"Ah! and he heard you both, my dear," said I; "and
he says Mr. Moore has no element of reverence in his character!"
Here the Panther dropped his pipe, and starting from his chair
looked like his namesake just ready for a spring, as the sharp, quick bark of a
little dog was heard from the nearest house.
"Only dog," he said in a tone of relief, and resumed his
smoking.
"Uncle," said Minny, "I do wish you would tell me
what the matter is, or what you are listening for. You make me think there is
something wrong."
I looked up and seconded Minny's request.
"'Spose I tell you, you think it all Ingin nonsense," he
said, looking a little embarrassed.
"Even if I did, sir, I should feel more comfortable," I
said.
"Yes, do tell us, please," said Minny, earnestly.
"Well, then," said the old man, speaking with an effort,
"last night went out after a coon--up in the woods right back of
here--"
"Yes: well?"
"And went up on that little hill over your pasture, and
then," said the old man lowering his voice and speaking with great
earnestness, "hear red fox bark--one, two, three times out
loud, and then again farther off. There, now!"
I was greatly relieved at finding that I was threatened by nothing
worse than the oracle of the red fox. I knew the Indian superstition that if
this animal is heard to bark anywhere near a dwelling, he foretells death
within twenty-four hours to some one beneath its roof.
"But," said I, "the red fox is only a sign for
Indians. He does not bark for white people, and you were not under a roof at
the time, so it cannot apply to you."
"Don't know!" said the Panther, shaking his head.
"Never know that sign fail. Then here this little woman and this baby--all
the same as Ingin now."
Minny looked a little troubled. In spite of his reading, his
college education and mathematics, Wyanota had sundry queer notions and
superstitions, about which he very seldom spoke, but which nevertheless had
some weight with him, and it is possible that he had in some degree
communicated his ideas to his wife.
"I don't believe in signs," said Minny, but nevertheless
she looked annoyed.
"So I thought," said the chief with a little smile.
"Know mamma here think it all nonsense, or else come over this morning to
tell her. Then think she not believe it and not mind, and so keep quiet. Then
storm come up and wind blow, and couldn't stand it; so set out and walk over
here to take care of her; and she--maybe she laugh at me?"
"No indeed, sir," said I, greatly touched by the anxious
affection which had brought the old man so far in such weather. "How good
you are to me! You mean to stay here to-night of course, and in the morning you
will see that the red fox was simply barking for his own amusement; but I am
sorry he drove you to take such a toilsome walk, though we are glad to have you
here."
"My business take care of you when your men gone. Got no one
my own blood," he said, rather sadly: "boys dead, girl dead, squaw
dead--no one but you two care much for old man."
Minny went and kissed him softly. "You know I belong to
you," she said, "and baby has no grandfather but you."
"Ah! your father!" said the Panther, rocking the cradle.
"He and I always good friends. 'Member when you come, your mother she got
no milk for you, poor little starved thing! My squaw she lose her baby--nice
little boy too," said the old man, with a sigh--"she tell your mother
she nurse you; so she did. You git fat and rosy right off. You all the same one
of us after that. No spoil your pretty white skin, though," said the
Panther, patting Minny's cheek with his brown fingers. "Seem just like
that happen yesterday: now you got baby yourself. Ah! your father--mighty well
pleased he be 'spose he see that little one."
"How often I wish he could!" said "Minny with a
sigh, for both her father and mother were dead.
"You 'pend upon it, he comfortable somewhere," said the
chief, consolingly. "Deacon Adams, he real good man. Look here, mamma!
Like to ask you question. You say when we die white man go to one place, Indian
go to another--"
"I don't say so, sir. I don't pretend to know all this world
by heart, much less the other."
"Well, that what Indian say, any way. Now 'spose that so,
what come of half-breed, eh?"
"What do you think?" I asked, for neither Minny nor I
could venture an opinion on this abstruse point.
"Don't know," said the old man. "Saw young Cherokee
in Washington: he marry pretty little schoolmistress go down there to teach,
and their little boy die. Then that young man feel bad, and he fret good deal
'bout where that baby gone to, and he ask me, and I no able tell him. Guess me
find out when get there: no use to trouble till then, You make these?" he
asked, changing the subject, and looking with admiration at the captain's
embroidered slippers which I had lent him.
"Yes. They were pretty when they were new. I'll make you a
pair just like them, if you wish. Shall I?"
The old gentleman looked greatly delighted, for he was as fond of
finery as any girl, and took no small pride in adorning his still handsome
person.
I brought out all my embroidery-patterns, and the giant took as
much pleasure as a child in the pretty painted pictures and gay-colored wools
and silks. I made all the conversation I could over the slippers, willing to
divert him from the melancholy which seemed to have taken possession of his
mind. Over my work-basket he brightened a little, and chatted away quite like
himself, and listened with pleasure to Minny's singing. We did not rise to go
to bed till eleven o'clock, which was a very late hour for Maysville. When the
Panther spent the night at our house, as was frequently the case, he never
would go regularly to bed, but would take his blanket and lie down before the
kitchen fire. With great politeness he insisted on getting the wood ready for
morning, a thing he never would have dreamed of doing for a woman of his own
race.
As he came back into the kitchen from the shed he took up his
rifle, which he had set down by the door. As he did so an angry look came over
his face. "Look here," he said: "somebody been spoil my
rifle!"
I looked at the piece in surprise, for the lock was broken.
"It cannot have been done since you came," I said. "There is no
one in the house but ourselves."
"Of course not, of course not!" said the Panther, eager
to show that he had no suspicion of his friends.
"Did you stop anywhere on your way?"
"Yes," said he with some slight embarrassment.
"Stop at Ryan's," mentioning a low tavern on the borders of the
reservation, which was a terrible thorn in the side of all the missionary's
efforts. "Stop a minute light my pipe, but no drink one drop," he
added with great earnestness; "but they ask me good deal."
"Did you put your gun down?"
"Guess so," he said after a moment's reflection.
"Yes, know did put it down a minute or two."
"Then that was when the mischief was done, you may be sure.
This lock was never broken by accident. It must have been a mere piece of spite
because you would not stay. I wonder you did not notice it when you came
out."
"In a hurry, and kept the buckskin over it, not to git it
wet. Wish knew who did that," said he, with a look not good to see.
"Guess not do it again."
"I am very sorry, but it can easily be mended."
I spread out on the floor for him the comfortable and blankets I
had brought for his use, and hung up his woolen hunting-frock, now quite dry.
As I took it into my hand, I felt something very heavy in the
pocket.
"I hope you have nothing here that will be spoiled with
wet?" I said.
"Oh, nothing but money," said the chief, carelessly.
"Mean to tell Minny to take some of it and buy clothes for me."
He took out as he spoke a handful of loose change--copper, silver
and two or three gold-pieces--and a roll of bills a good deal damp, and put it
all into my apron. I counted the money and found there were seventy-five
dollars. Strong indeed must have been the attraction which had brought the old
man away from the tavern-fire in his sober senses with such a sum of money in
his pocket.
"Just got that," he said. "Part from Washington,
part sell deer-skins."
There was no need to tell me that it had not been long in his
possession. Money in the Panther's hands was like water in a sieve.
"You give me five dollars, give the rest to Minny," he
said; and as this was by much the wisest arrangement for him, I did as he
wished.
"You got captain's gun?" he asked me. "Never like
to go to sleep without something to catch up: hit somebody 'spose somebody
come."
"I am sorry to say the captain has his rifle with him, and I
lent the shotgun to Jim Brewster this afternoon."
He looked annoyed, but he went out into the woodshed and returned
with the axe, which was new and sharp. "Have something, anyway," he
said, doggedly.
"Why, what do you think can possibly happen?"
"Don't know. Always like to have something to catch up.
Good-night, mamma. You go to sleep."
I went to bed and fell asleep almost on the minute, but I could
not have slept long when I was wakened by the noise of the wind against the
shutters. The rain had ceased, but the blast was still roaring without. Minny
and her child were in a room which opened out of the parlor opposite my own.
The lamp which was burning there threw a dim light into my chamber, and showed
me each familiar object and my little boys asleep beside me.
Some one says that between the hours of one and four in the
morning the human mind is not itself. I fully believe it. In those hours you do
not "fix your mind" on melancholy subjects--they fix themselves upon
you. If you turn back into the past, there comes up before you every occasion
on which you made a fool of yourself, every lost opportunity, every slight
injury you ever experienced. If you look at the future, you see nothing but
coming failure and disappointment. The present moment connects itself with
every tale you ever heard or read of ghosts, murder, vampires or robbers.
That night, either because of the wind or because I had taken too
strong coffee, I fell into "the fidgets," as this state of mind is
sometimes called, and selected for immediate cause of discomfort the Panther's
presentiment about the red fox. Who could explain the mysterious way in which
animals are warned of approaching danger? Perhaps the old science of divination
was not so entirely a delusion; and then I remembered all the old stories in
Roman history of people who had come to grief by neglecting the oracles. The
old idea that whatever incident is considered as an omen will be such in
reality, seemed to me at that hour of the night not wholly an unreasonable
theory.
I had known, to be sure, some fifty presentiments which came to
nothing, but then I had known as many as three which had been verified: perhaps
the present case might be one of the exceptions to the rule. Then I remembered
all the stories in Scott's Demonology, which I had lately read, and
quite forgot all the arguments intended to disprove them.
[Illustration: The Attack on the "Panther."]
I thought of the broken gun-lock: I thought it not improbable that
the Panther had, when at Ryan's, mentioned that he was coming to our house, and
that it was very likely he had let it appear that he carried his money with
him. Ryan's was one of the worst places in all the State. I remembered that the
money was in the house, and I began to wish, like the Panther, that I had
something to "catch up." Then there were so many noises about! I
heard footsteps, which you will always hear if you listen for them on a windy
night. When our petted old cat jumped from his place on the parlor sofa to lie
down before the fire, I started up in bed in a sudden fright.
I must have been in this uncomfortable state of mind and body for
the best part of an hour before I remembered that in a drawer in the front
parlor lay two little old-fashioned pistols, unloaded but in good order.
I had grown so excited and uneasy that I felt as if I could not
rest unless I got up, found those pistols and loaded them, though nobody had
ever heard of a burglary in Maysville, and half the time the doors were left
unlocked at night. Rather despising myself for my nervousness, but yielding to
it nevertheless, I rose, put on my dressing-gown and slippers, lit my candle
and went to find the two little pistols. I stepped very softly, not to disturb
Minny, for I should have been quite ashamed then to have her know my cowardice.
I looked in at the door as I passed. She was sound asleep, with her baby on her
arm. The baby, however, was broad awake, but lying perfectly still, with her
little finger in her mouth. Her eyes shone in the lamplight as she turned them
on me--not startled like another child, but simply questioning. The little
creature looked so unnaturally wise and self-possessed that I was reminded
perforce of a wild tale Wyanota had once told me about a remote ancestress of
his who had married some sort of a wood-demon. The legend ran that Wyanota's
family was descended from the offspring of this marriage, and I think Wyn more
than half believed the story.
I passed on, and going into the next room found the pistols,
carried them back to my own chamber, and loaded them carefully. I was quite
accustomed to the use of firearms. There had been times in my life when I never
sat down to my work or went to rest without having rifle or pistol within easy
reach of my hand. When I had loaded the weapons, I put them on the table by my
bed and lay down again. My excitement seemed to have subsided, and I was just
falling asleep when I heard a door in the kitchen violently burst open. I
thought the wind had done it, and waited a moment to hear if the Panther would
rise and shut it.
The next instant there was a shot, a wild cry as of mingled pain
and fury, the sound of a heavy fall and a struggle. Before I had well realized
that the noise was in the house, I found myself at the kitchen door with my
pistols in my hand. I was greatly startled, but my one idea was to help my old
friend. The miserable door resisted me for a moment. Seconds passed that seemed
hours. When at last I tore it open, I saw a man in his shirt sleeves lying dead
on the floor, his head shattered apparently by a blow from the axe: another, a
large, powerful Irishman, was kneeling on the Panther's breast, with his hands
at the old man's throat.
I sprang forward, but something swifter than I darted past me with
a savage cry, and, tearing and biting with claws and teeth, flung itself full
at the ruffian's face and naked throat. It was our big old brindle cat, Tom,
roused from his place before the fire. The unexpected fierceness of Tom's
assault took the man quite by surprise. Before he could tear the creature away
I had the pistol at his head.
"If you move," I said, "I'll kill you;" for,
as I saw that my old friend was hurt, wrath took the place of fear.
He gave in directly. Indeed the cat, a large, powerful animal, had
almost scratched his eyes out. In the most abject tones the fellow implored me
to let him go.
"Don't you do it, mamma," said the Panther, faintly.
"I don't mean to," I said.
Under the kitchen stairs was a dark closet with a strong outside
bolt. I ordered the man into this place. He obeyed, and I drew the bolt upon
him. His face and throat were streaming with blood from Tom's teeth and claws.
All this passed in much less time than it takes to tell it. Roused
by the noise, the children, and Minny with the baby in her arms, were already
in the kitchen.
"Oh, my dear, my poor darling!" said Minny, kneeling by
the old man's side, "you are hurt!"
"Yes," he said, quietly, "pretty considerable bad.
Charley, you fasten that door;" for the door into the shed, which had been
secured only by a button, was wide open. "You get the hammer and two,
three big nails, and drive 'em in," he continued. "Maybe more them
darn scamps round."
Charley obeyed directions in a way which did him credit. Little
Ned, with wide, surprised eyes, clung to me in silence; little Carry, seeing
her mother in tears, put up a piteous lip and sobbed in her unbaby-like,
sorrowful fashion; the old cat, in great excitement, went purring and talking
from one to another.
"Tell me where you are hurt," I said, holding the
chief's hand.
He had been shot through the stomach with a great, old-fashioned
smooth-bore musket, which lay on the floor--a gun not carrying less than
twenty-five to the pound. I had seen gunshot wounds before, and I knew that
this was serious. It did not bleed much externally, but the edges of the wound
were torn and discolored.
"That fellow dead?" asked the Panther.
"Yes indeed!" for the man's head was split like a
walnut.
The old warrior looked gratified. "Mamma," he said,
touching his hunting-knife, "you take that fellow's scalp."
"Don't think of such a thing," I said, not so much
shocked as I might have been had I not lived on the Indian frontier. "Do
you know who they are?"
"See them to Ryan's. Guess they some folks that mizzable
railroad bring into this country. 'Spect they follow me. Mamma," said the
Panther, looking up into my face, "tell you, red fox not bark for nothing.
Better be old man than you."
"Oh, my dear old friend, if you had only not come to us
to-night! It was all your love for us that has done this, but I pray God you
may get well. Charley, do you think you can go for Doctor Beach?"
"Yes, mamma," said the boy, though he turned pale.
"No, no," said the Panther. "You no send that
little fellow out in the dark. Besides, no good. You go wrap yourselves up. You
two, you git bad cold."
At that moment we heard the sound of wheels and horses' feet.
"Go, Charley," said Minny. "Stop whoever it is, and
tell them what has happened."
Charley ran out, and soon returned with Dr. Beach, who, happily
for us, had been out on one of those errands which are always rousing doctors
from their beds.
Dr. Beach was a burly, rough-mannered sort of man, but he could be
very kind and tender in the exercise of his profession. He wasted no time in
questions, but looked grave when he saw how the old man was hurt.
"Needn't tell me," said the Panther, quietly. "Know
it's the end. Kill one of 'em, anyhow!" he concluded in a tone of calm
satisfaction.
"And I wish with all my heart you had killed the other,"
said the doctor, bitterly. "He got off, I suppose."
The Panther showed his white teeth in a laugh. "No," he
said, pointing to me: "she got him--she and the cat. Pretty well for one
little squaw and pussy-cat. Mamma, you keep that kitty always."
"Where is the scoundrel?" asked the doctor.
"Shut up in that closet."
Here the man within cried out that he was "kilt"
already, and should be hung if we did not let him go.
"I hope you will, with all my heart," said the doctor.
With some difficulty we helped the Panther into the parlor and
laid him on the sofa.
He told us the story in a few words. He had been asleep when the
door was burst open. The man whom he had killed had fired the shot. He had kept
his feet to strike one blow with the axe, and the other man had sprung upon him
as he fell.
The doctor did what little he could to ease his patient, and then
went away, but soon returned with some men from the village, who were quite
ready to lynch the criminal when they heard what he had done. They took the man
away, however, and I am happy to say he afterward received the heaviest
sentence the law would allow. He confessed that, knowing the chief had a large
sum in his possession, himself and his companion had broken the lock of the
rifle, intending to waylay the old man and shoot him in the woods. They had not,
however, been able to overtake him till he reached the clearing, and then,
fearing to encounter him, they had followed him at a distance and watched him
enter our house. Knowing that the captain was gone, they had waited until all
was quiet, and then made their entrance as described.
The Panther asked that some one might go to the reservation and
send over three of his friends, whom he named. He was very anxious to see
Wyanota, and Calvin Bruce, who had come with the doctor, instantly volunteered
to take his trotting mare and do both errands. The chestnut did her work
gallantly, though unhappily in vain, for the old man did not live to see his
friends.
"Don't you fret, you two," he said, softly, as Minny and
I watched over him. "Great deal the best way for old Ingin. Die like a man
now: not cough myself to death, like an old dog. Minny, little girl, you tell
your husband be good to our people, well as he can. Not much of our nation left
now--not good for much, either," he added; "but you tell him and the
captain stand their friends, won't you?"
"Indeed, indeed they will," said Minny in tears.
A Methodist clergyman of some kind, who preached in Maysville at
that time, hearing what had happened, came in to offer his services and to pray
with the dying man. The Panther thanked him courteously, but he clung to the
simple creed of his fathers and his belief that "Ingin religion was good
for Ingin;" and Mr. Lawrence had the sense and feeling not to disturb him
by argument.
"Want your Charley to have my rifle," he said to me.
"Nobody left of our people but my cousin's son, and he most a mizzable
Ingin. You 'member that, please," he said to Mr. Lawrence, who sat quietly
at the head of the sofa. "Do you think," he asked wistfully of the
clergyman, "that I ever see these two again where I go?" The
minister--Heaven bless him!--answered stoutly that he had not a doubt of it.
"All right, then," said the Panther, quietly. "Now, mamma, you
see red fox know, after all."
Minny brought her baby for him to kiss. Little Carry's dark eyes
were full of tears, for, like most babies, she felt the influence of sorrow she
could not understand. She did not scream, as another child would, but hid her
face on her mother's bosom and sobbed quietly, like a grown-up woman. My two
little boys, understanding all at once that their old friend was going away,
burst out crying.
"Hush! hush!" he said, gently. "You be good boys to
your mother. Say 'good-bye.'"
We kissed him, keeping back the lamentations which we knew would
trouble him.
"Good-bye," he said, softly, and then he spoke some few
words in his own tongue, as Minny told me afterward, about going to his lost
children. Then a smile came over his face, a look of sweet relief and comfort
softened the stern features, the hand that had held mine so close slowly
relaxed; and with a sigh he was gone.
The old minister gently closed his eyes. "My dear," said
Mr. Lawrence to Minny, who was in an agony of grief, "God knows, but it
was His Son who said, 'Greater love hath no man than this--that a man lay down
his life for his friends!'"
When we buried the old chief we wrote those words on the stone we
placed over his grave.
Since then the New Year's Eve brings back to me very vividly the
memory of the augury that so strangely accomplished its own fulfillment.
10.Louie
The great river was flowing peacefully down to the sea, opening
its blue tides at the silver fretting of the bar into a shallow expanse some
miles in width, a part of which on either side overlay stretches where the
submerged eel-grass lent a tint of chrysoprase to the sheathing flow, and into
which one gazed, half expecting to see so ideal a depth peopled by something
other than the long ribbons of the weed streaming out on the slow current--the
only cool sight, albeit, beneath the withering heat of the day across all that
shining extent. Far down the shores, on the right, a line of low sand-hills
rose, protecting the placid harbor from sea and storm with the bulwark of their
dunes, whose yellow drifts were ranged by the winds in all fantastic shapes,
and bound together by ropes of the wild poison-ivy and long tangles of
beach-grass and the blossoming purple pea, and which to-day cast back the rays
of the sun as though they were of beaten brass. Above these hills the white lighthouse
loomed, the heated air trembling around it, and giving it so vague and misty a
guise that, being by itself a thing of night and storm and darkness, it looked
now as unreal as a ghost by daylight. On the other side of the harbor lay the
marshes, threaded by steaming creeks, up which here and there the pointed sails
of the hidden hay-barges crept, the sunshine turning them to white flames:
farther off stood a screen of woods, and from brim to brim between swelled the
broad, smooth sheet of the river, coming from the great mountains that gave it
birth, washing clean a score of towns on its way, and loitering just here by
the pleasant old fishing-town, whose wharves, once doing a mighty business with
the Antilles and the farther Indies, now, in the absence of their half dozen
foreign-going craft, lay at the mercy of any sand-droger that chose to fling
her cable round their capstans. A few idle masts swayed there, belonging to
small fishers and fruiters, a solid dew of pitch oozing from their sides in the
sun, but not a sail set: a lonely watchman went the rounds among them, a ragged
urchin bobbed for flounders in the dock, but otherwise wharves and craft were
alike forsaken, and the sun glared down on them as though his rays had made
them a desert. The harbor-water lay like glass: now and then the tide stirred
it, and all the brown and golden reflections of masts and spars with it, into
the likeness of a rippled agate. Not one of the boats that were ordinarily to
be seen darting hither and yon, like so many water-bugs, were in motion now;
none of the white sails of the gay sea-parties were running up and swelling
with the breeze; none of the usual naked and natatory cherubs were diving off
the wharves into that deep, warm water; the windows on the seaward side of the
town were closed; the countless children, that were wont to infest the lower
streets as if they grew with no more cost or trouble than the grass between the
bricks, had disappeared in the mysterious way in which swarms of flies will
disappear, as if an east wind had blown them; but no east wind was blowing
here. In all the scene there was hardly any other sign of life than the fervent
sunbeams shedding their cruel lustre overhead: the river flowed silent and
lonely from shore to shore; the whole hot summer sky stretched just as silent
and lonely from horizon to horizon; only the old ferryman, edging along the
bank till he was far up stream, crossed the narrower tide and drifted down
effortless on the other side; only an old black brig lay at anchor, with furled
sail and silent deck, in the middle channel down below the piers, and from her
festering and blistering hull it was that all the heat and loneliness and
silence of the scene seemed to exude--for it was the fever-ship.
It was a different picture on the bright river when that brig
entered the harbor on the return of her last voyage, to receive how different a
welcome! But pestilence raged abroad in the country now, and the people of the
port, who had so far escaped the evil, were loth to let it enter among them at
last, and had not yet recovered from the recoil of their first shock and shiver
at thought of it in their waters--waters than which none could have fostered it
more kindly, full as they were in their shallow breadth of rotting weeds and the
slime of sewers. Perhaps the owner of some pale face looked through the pane
and thought of brother or father, or, it may be, of lover, and grew paler with
pity, and longed to do kind offices for those who suffered; but the greater
part of all the people hived upon the shores would have scouted the thought of
going out with aid to those hot pillows rocking there upon the tide, and of
bringing back infection to the town, as much as though the act had been piracy
on the high seas. And they stayed at home, and watched their vanes and longed
for an east wind--an east wind whose wings would shake out healing, whose
breath would lay the destroying fever low; but the east wind refused to seek
their shores, and chose rather to keep up its wild salt play far out on the
bosom of its mid-sea billows.
Yes, on that return of the last voyage of the brig the stream had
swarmed with boats, flags had fluttered from housetops and staffs, piers and
quays had been lined with cheering people, all flocking forth to see the broken,
battered little craft; for the brig had been spoken by a tug, and word had been
brought to the wharves, and had spread like wild-fire through the town, that,
wrecked in a tempest and deserted by the panic-stricken crew, the steadfast
master and a boy who stood by him had remained with her, had refitted her as
best they might when the storm abated, and had brought her into port at last
through fortunate days of fair weather and slow sailing. The town was ringing
with the exploit, with praise of the noble faithfulness of master and boy; and
now the river rang again, and no conquering galley of naval hero ever moved
through a gladder, gayer welcome than that through which the little black brig
lumbered on her clumsy way to her moorings.
But though all the rest of the populace of the seaport had turned
out with their greetings that day, there was one little body there who, so far
from hurrying down to shore or sea-wall with a waving handkerchief, ran crying
into a corner; and it was there that Andrew Traverse, the person of only
secondary importance in the river scene, rated as a boy on the brig's books,
but grown into a man since the long voyage began,--it was there he found her
when the crowd had let him alone and left him free to follow his own devices.
"It's the best part of all the welcome, I declare it
is!" said he, standing in the doorway and enjoying the sight before him a
moment.
"Oh, Andrew," cried the little body with a sob, but
crouching farther away into the corner, "it was so splendid of you!"
"What was so splendid of me?" said he, still in the
doorway, tall and erect in the sunshine that lay around him, and that glanced
along his red shirt and his bronzed cheek to light a flame in the black eyes
that surveyed her.
"Standing by him so," she sobbed--"standing by the
captain when the others left--bringing home the ship!"
"It's not a ship--it's a brig," said Andrew, possibly
too conscious of his merit to listen to the praise of it. "Well, is this
all? Ain't you going to shake hands with me? Ain't you glad to see me?"
"Oh, Andrew! So glad!" and she turned and let him see
the blushing, rosy face one moment, the large, dark, liquid eyes, the tangled,
tawny curls; and then overcome once more, as a sudden shower overcomes the
landscape, the lips quivered again, the long-lashed eyelids fell, and the face
was hidden in another storm of tears. And then, perhaps because he was a
sailor, and perhaps because he was a man, his arms were round her and he was
kissing off those tears, and the little happy body was clinging to him and
trembling with excitement and with joy like a leaf in the wind.
Certainly no two happier, prouder beings walked along the sea-wall
that night, greeted with hearty hands at every step, followed by all eyes till
the shelter of deepening dusk obscured them, and with impish urchins,
awe-struck for once, crying mysteriously under their breath to each other,
"That's him! That's the feller saved the Sabrina! That's him and
her!" How proud the little body was! how her heart beat with pleasure at
thought of the way in which all men were ready to do him honor! how timidly she
turned her eyes upon him and saw the tint deepen on his cheek, the shadow flash
into light in his eye, the smile kindle on his lips, as he looked down on
her--glad with her pride and pleasure, strong, confident, content himself--till
step by step they had left the town behind, wandering down the sandy island
road, through the wayside hedge of blossoming wild roses and rustling young
birches, till they leaned upon the parapet of the old island bridge and heard
the water lap and saw the stars come out, and only felt each other and their
love in all the wide, sweet summer universe.
Poor Louie! She had always been as shy and wary as any little
brown bird of the woods. It was Andrew's sudden and glorious coming that had
surprised her into such expression of a feeling that had grown up with her
until it was a part of every thought and memory. And as for Andrew--certainly
he had not known that he cared for her so much until she turned that tearful,
rosy face upon him in welcome; but now it seemed to him that she had been his
and he hers since time began: he could neither imagine nor remember any other
state than this: he said to himself, and then repeated it to her, that he had
loved her always, that it was thought of her that had kept him firm and
faithful to his duty, that she had been the lodestar toward which he steered on
that slow homeward way; and he thanked Heaven, no doubt devoutly enough, that
had saved him from such distress and brought him back to such bliss. And Louie
listened and clung closer, more joyful and more blest with every pulse of her
bounding heart.
After all, sudden as the slipping into so divine a dream had been,
it had need to be full as intense and deep, for it was only for a little while
it lasted. A week's rapt walking in these mid-heavens, where earth and care and
each to-morrow was forgotten, and there broke in upon them the voice of the
Sabrina's owner seeking for Andrew Traverse.
Of course such conduct as that of one who preferred to do his
utmost to save a sinking ship rather than seek safety with her flying crew, was
something too unusual to go unrewarded: it must be signalized into such a
shining light that all other mariners must needs follow it. And if the sky had
fallen, Andrew declared, he could have been no more surprised than he was when
he found himself invited with great ceremony to a stately tea-drinking at the
house of the owner of the Sabrina. "Now we shall catch larks," said
he; and dressed in a new suit, whose gray tint set off the smoothness of his
tanned cheek with the color sometimes mantling through the brown, he entered
the house with all the composure of a gentleman used to nothing but high days
and holidays. Not that either the state or ceremony at Mr. Maurice's required
great effort to encounter with composure--trivial enough at its best, wonderful
though it was to the townsfolk, unused to anything beyond. But Andrew had seen
the world in foreign parts, and neither Mr. Maurice's mansion-house and
gardens, nor his gay upholstery, nor his silver tea-service, nor his
condescending manners, struck the least spark of' surprise from Andrew's eyes,
or gave them the least shadow of awe.
"This is some mistake," said the owner graciously, after
preliminary compliment had been duly observed. "How is it that you are
rated on the books as a boy--you as much a man as you will ever be?"
"A long voyage, sir, slow sailing and delays over so many
disasters as befell us, three years out in the stead of a year and a half--all
that brings one to man's estate before his reckoning."
"But the last part of the time you must have done able
seaman's service?"
"The captain and I together," said Andrew with his
bright laugh. "We were officers and crew and passengers, cox'n and cook,
as they say."
"A hard experience," said Mr. Maurice.
"Oh, not at all, but worth its weight in gold--to me, at
least. Why, sir, it taught me how to handle a ship as six years before the mast
couldn't have done."
"Good! We shall see to what purpose one of these days. And
you have had your share of schooling, they tell me?"
"All that the academy had to give, sir."
"And that's enough for any one who has the world to tussel
with. How should you like to have gone through such hard lines, Frarnie?"
turning to his daughter, a pale, moon-faced girl, her father's darling.
"Were you never afraid?" she asked in her pretty
simpering way.
"Not to say afraid," answered Andrew, deferentially.
"We knew our danger--two men alone in the leaky, broken brig--but then we
could be no worse off than we were before; and as for the others--"
"They got their deserts," said Mr. Maurice.
"The poor fellows left us in such a hurry that they took
hardly any water or biscuit; and at the worst our fate could not be so bad as
theirs, under the hot sun in those salt seas."
"Well, well!" said Mr. Maurice, who loved his own ease
too much to like to hear of others' dis-ease. And to turn the conversation from
the possible horrors into which it might lapse, he invited his guest out into
his gardens, among his grapehouses, his poultry and his dogs. It was a long
hour's ramble that they took there, well improved on both sides, for Andrew of
course knew it to be for his interest to please the brig's owner; and Mr.
Maurice, who prided himself on having a singularly keen insight into character,
studied the young man's every word and gesture, for it was not often that he
came across such material as this out of which to make his captains; and to
what farther effect in this instance be pursued his studies might have been
told, by any one keener than himself, through the tone of satisfaction with
which, on re-entering the parlor, he bade his daughter take Andrew down the
rooms and tell him the histories of the surprising pictures there. For Mr. Maurice,
one of the great fortunes of the seaport, being possessed by a mania of belief
that every youth who cast tender eyes upon his daughter cast them not on her,
but on her future havings and holdings, had long since determined to select a
husband for her himself--one who evinced no servile reverence for wealth, one
whom he could trust to make her happy. "And here," he said, "I
am not sure but that I have him."
When Andrew went in to see Louie a moment on his way home that
night, he was in great spirits over the success of his visit, and, dark as it
was, made her blush the color of the rose over the low doorway where they stood
when he asked how she would like to go captain's wife next voyage. And then he
told her of Mr. Maurice's scrutiny and questioning, and the half hint of a ship
of his own to sail some day, and of the pale-faced Miss Frarnie's interest, and
of the long stroll down the parlors among the pictures, the original of one of
which he had seen somewhere in the Mediterranean, when he and a parcel of
sailors went ashore and rambled through the port, and looked in at a church,
where, in the midst of music and incense and a kneeling crowd, they were
shearing the golden locks off of young girls and making nuns of them. And
Andrew forgot to tell of the way in which Miss Frarnie listened to him and hung
upon his words: indeed, how could he? Perhaps he did not notice it himself; but
if he had had a trifle more personal vanity, and had seen how this pale young
girl--forbidden by a suspicious father much companionship with gallants--had
forgotten all difference of station and purse, and had looked upon him, nobly
made, handsome, gay, knowing far more than she did, much as upon a young god
just alighted by her side a moment,--if Andrew had been aware of this, and had
found any words in which to repeat it, then Louie might have had something to
startle her out of her blessedness, and pain might have come to her all the
sooner. But since the pain would have been as sharp then as at any future time,
it was a pitying, pleasant Fate that let her have her happiness as long as
might be. For Louie's love was a different thing from the selfish passion that
any clown may feel: she had been happy enough in her little round of
commonplace satisfactions and tasks before Andrew came and shed over her this
great cloud of delight--happy then just in the enjoyment of that secret love of
hers that went out and sought him every night sailing over foreign sunlit
waters, and hovered like a blessing round his head; and now that he had come
and folded her about and about with such warm devotion, it was not for the new
happiness he gave her that she loved him, but in order to make his own
happiness a perfect thing; and if her heart's blood had been needed for that,
it would have been poured out like water. The pale-faced Frarnie--if question
could be of her--might never know such love as that: love with her could be a
sentiment, a lover one who added to her pleasure, but a sacrifice on her part
for that lover would have been something to tell and sing for ever, if indeed
it were possible that such a thing should be made at all.
So day by day the spell deepened with Louie, and for another week
there was delightful loneliness with this lover of hers--strolls down through
the swampy woods hunting for moss to frame the prints he had brought home
uninjured, and which were to be part of the furnishing of their future home;
others across the salt meadows for the little red samphire stems to pickle;
sails in the float down river and in the creeks, where the tall thatch parted
by the prow rustled almost overhead, and the gulls came flying and piping
around them: here and there, they two alone, pouring out thought and soul to
each other, and every now and then glancing shyly at those days, that did not
seem so very far away, when they should be sailing together through foreign
parts; for Louie's father, the old fisherman, was all her household, and a
maiden aunt, who earned her livelihood in nursing the sick and attending the
dead, would be glad to come any day and take Louie's place in the cottage.
At the end of the week, Mr. Maurice sent for Andrew to his
counting-room; and after that, on one device or another, he had him there the
greater part of every day, employing him in a score of pleasant ways--asking
his advice as to the repairs of the Sabrina, taking him with him in his chaise
jogging through the shipyard, where a new barque was getting ready for her
launching, examining him the while carefully from time to time after his wont;
at last taking him casually home to dinner with him one day, keeping him to tea
the next, and finally, fully satisfied with the result of his studies in that
edition of human nature, giving him the freedom of the family as much as if he
had been the son of the house.
"I've some plans ahead for you, my boy," said he one day
with a knowing shake of the head; and Andrew's innocent brain began to swim
straightway between the new barque and the Sabrina.
"Look at him!" said Mr. Maurice to his wife one evening
as Andrew walked in the garden with Miss Frarnie. "My mind's made up about
him. He's the stuff for a sea-captain, afraid neither of wind nor weather nor
the face of clay--can sail a ship and choose her cargo. He's none of your
coxcombs that go courting across the way: he's a man into the core of his
heart, and as well bred as any gentleman that walks; though Goodness knows how
he came by it."
"These sea-coast people," said his wife, reflectively
(she was inland-born herself), "see the world and learn."
"Well, what do you say to it? I don't find the flaw in him.
If Heaven had given me a son, I'd have had him be like this one; and since it
didn't, why here's my way to circumvent Heaven."
"Oh, my dear," said the wife, "I can't hear you
talk so. And besides--"
"Well? Besides what?"
"I think it is always best to let such things take their own
course. We did."
"Of course we did," laughed Mr. Maurice. "But how
about our fathers and mothers?"
"I mean," said Mrs. Maurice, "not to force
things."
"And who intends to force them? It's plain enough the young
fellow took a fancy to our Frarnie the first time he laid eyes on her, isn't
it?"
"I mean," said Mrs. Maurice again, "that if Frarnie
should have the same fancy for him, I don't know that there'd be any objection.
He is quite uncommon--quite uncommon when you consider all things--but I don't
know why you want to lead her to like any one in particular, when she has such
a nice home and is all we have."
"Girls will marry, Mrs. Maurice. If it isn't one, it will be
another. So I had rather it should, be one, and that one of my own
choosing--one who, will use her well, and not make ducks and drakes of her
money as soon as we are gone where there's no returning, and without a 'thank
you' for your pains. Look at them now! Should you imagine they thought there
was any one else on earth but each other at this moment? They're fond of each
other, that's plain. They'd be a remarkable-looking couple. What do you think
of it?"
"Frarnie might have that India shawl that I never undid, to
appear out in," said Mrs. Maurice, pensively, continuing her own
reflections rather than directly replying. "And I suppose we needn't lose
her really, for she could make her home with us."
And so the conspiracy advanced, its simple victims undreaming of
its approach--Louie sighing faintly to think she saw so little of Andrew now,
but content, since she was sure it was for his best interest to make the
friendship of the Sabrina's owner; Andrew fretting to see how all this
necessary submission to superiors kept him from Louie, but more than half
compensated with the dazzling visions that danced before his eyes of the
Sabrina in her new rig--of the barque coming down for her masts and sails from
her launching.
The Sabrina had been so badly injured by her disasters that it
took much more time to repair her than had at first been thought. "I'm
going to stand by the old brig," said Andrew to some one--by accident it
was in Mr. Maurice's hearing. "But if I'd known it was going to take so
long to have her whole again, I should have made a penny in taking a run down
the bay, for I had an offer to go second mate on the Tartar."
"I'll go one better than that," said Mr. Maurice then.
"Here's the Frarnie, nearly ready to clear for New Orleans and Liverpool,
with your old captain. You shall go mate of her. That'll show if you can handle
a ship. The Sabrina won't be at the wharf till the round voyage is over and the
Frarnie coming up the stream again. What say you?"
Of course what Andrew said was modest thanks--what he felt was a
rhapsody of delight; and when he told Louie that night, what she said was a
sob, and what she felt was a blank of fright and foreboding. Oh what should she
do? cried the selfish little thing--what should she do in the long, long, weary
days with Andrew gone? But then in a moment she remembered that this was the
first step toward going master of that craft in which her bridal voyage was to
be taken. "And what a long step it is, Andrew!" she cried. "Was
the like of it ever known before? What a long, long step it would be but for
that bitter apprenticeship when you and the captain brought the wreck
home!"
"Ay," said Andrew, proudly: "I served my time
before the mast then, if ever any did."
"And I suppose with the next step you will be master of the
Sabrina? Oh, I should so like it!"
"I don't know," said Andrew, more doubtfully than he had
used to speak. "I'm afraid the owners will think this is enough. This is a
great lift. I'll do my best to satisfy them, though; for I'd rather sail master
of the Sabrina than of the biggest man-of-war afloat."
"We used to play round her when we were children," said
Louie, encouragingly. "Don't you remember leading me down once to admire
the lady on her stern?--like a water-witch just gilded in the rays of some
sunrise she had come up to see, you said."
"Yes; and we used to climb her shrouds, we boys, and get
through the lubber-hole, before we could spell her name out. She's made of
heart of oak: she'll float still when the Frarnie is nothing but sawdust. We
used to watch for her in the newspapers--we used to know just as much about her
goings and comings as the owner did. Somehow--I don't know why--I've always
felt as if my fate and fortune hung upon her. It used to be the top of my
ambition to go master of her. It is now. I couldn't make up my mind to leave
her when the others did that cruel morning after the wreck; and when the
captain said he should stay by her, my heart sprang up as if she had been a
living thing, and I stayed too. And I'd rather sail her than a European steamer
to-day--that I would, by George!"
"Oh, of course you will," said the sympathizing voice
beside him.
"I don't know," said Andrew again, more slowly and
reflectively. "I've the idea--and I can't say how I got it--that there's
some condition or other attached to my promotion--that there's something Mr.
Maurice means that I shall do, and if I don't do it I don't get my lift. It
can't be anything about wages: I don't know what it is!"
"Perhaps," said Louie, innocently, and without a glimpse
of the train her thoughtless words fired--"perhaps he means for you to
marry Frarnie!" laughing a little laugh at the absurd impossibility.
And Andrew started as if a bee had stung him, and saw it all. But
in a moment he only drew Louie closer, and kissed her more passionately, and
sat there caressing her the more tenderly while they listened to a thrush that
had built in the garden thicket, mistaking it for the wood, so near the town's
edge was it, and so still and sunny was the garden all day long with its odors
of southernwood and mint and balm; and he delayed there longer, holding her as
if now at least she was his own, whatever she might be thereafter.
As he walked home that night, and went and sat upon the wharf and
watched the starlit tide come in, he saw it all again, but with thoughts like a
procession of phantoms, as if they had no part even in the possible things of
life, and were indeed nothing to him. How could they have any meaning to
him--to him, Louie's lover? What would the whole world be to him, what the
sailing of the Sabrina, without Louie? And then a shiver ran across him: what
would Louie be to him without the sailing of the Sabrina! for that, indeed, as
he had said, was the top of his ambition, and that being his ambition, perhaps
ambition, was as strong with him as love.
But with this new discovery on Andrew's part of Mr. Maurice's
desires, Andrew could only recall circumstances, words, looks, hints: he could
not shape to himself any line of duty or its consequences: enough to see that
Mr. Maurice fancied his simple and thoughtless attentions to Frarnie to be
lover-like, and, approving him, looked kindly on them and made his plans
accordingly; enough to see that if he should reject this tacit proffer of the
daughter's hand, then the Sabrina was scarcely likely to be his; and that in
spite of such probability, the first and requisite thing in honor for him to do
was to tell Mr. Maurice of his marriage engagement with Louie, and then, if the
man had neither gratitude nor sense enough to reward him for his assistance in
saving the brig, to trust to fortune and to time, that at last makes all things
even. As he sat there listening to the lapping of the water and idly watching
the reflected stars peer up and shatter in a hundred splinters with every wash
of the dark tide, he could not so instantaneously decide as to whether he
should make this confession or not. "What business is it of
Maurice's?" he said to himself. "Does he think every one that looks
at his scarecrow of a daughter--" But there he had need to acknowledge to
himself his injustice to Miss Frarnie, a modest maiden who had more cause to
complain of him than he of her, since he had done his best to please her, and
her only fault lay in being pleased so easily. She was pleased with him: he
understood that now, though his endeavors to enlist her had been for a very
different manifestation of interest. Perhaps it flattered him a little: he
paused long enough to consider what sort of a lot it would be if he really had
been plighted to Frarnie instead of Louie. Love and all that nonsense, he had
heard say, changed presently into a quiet sort of contentment; and if that were
so, it would be all the same at the end of a few years which one he took. He
felt that Frarnie was not very sympathetic, that her large white face seldom
sparkled with much intelligence, that she would make but a dull companion; but,
for all that, she would be, he knew, an excellent housewife: she would bring a
house with her too; and when a man is married, and has half a dozen children
tumbling round him, there is entertainment enough for him, and it is another
bond between him and the wife he did not love too well at first; and if she
were his, his would be the Sabrina also, and when the Sabrina's days were over
perhaps a great East Indiaman, and with that the respect and deference of all
his townsmen: court would be paid to him, his words would be words of weight,
he would have a voice in the selection of town-officers, he would roll up money
in the bank, and some day he should be master of the great Maurice mansion and
the gardens and grapehouses. It was a brilliant picture to him, doubtless, but
in some way the recollection of two barelegged little children digging clams
down on the flats when the tide was out, with the great white lighthouse
watching them across the deserted stretches of the long bent eel-grass, rose
suddenly and wiped the other picture out, and he saw the wind blowing in
Louie's brown and silken hair and kissing the color on her cheeks; he saw the
shy sparkle of her downcast eyes, lovely and brown then as they were now; and
as he stood erect at last, snapping his fingers defiantly, he felt that he had
bidden Mr. Maurice's ships and stocks and houses and daughter go hang, and had
made his choice rather to walk with Louie on his arm than as master of the
Sabrina.
It was a good resolution; and if he had but sealed it by speaking
next day to Mr. Maurice of his engagement, there would not have been a word to
say. But, though he valiantly meant to do it, it was not so easy, after all, as
he had thought, and so he put it off for a more convenient season, and the
season did not come, and the day of sailing did. And the outfit that went on
board the Frarnie was made and packed by the hands of Mrs. Maurice and her
daughter--such an outfit as he had never dreamed of; such warm woolens for the
storms, such soft linens for the heats, such finery for port, such dainties and
delicacies as only the first mate of the Frarnie could think to have. And as
for Louie, it was no outfit, no costly gift of gold or trouble either, that she
could give him: she had nothing for him but a long, fine chain woven of her own
hair, and she hung it round his neck with tears and embraces and words that
could not be uttered and sighs that changed to sobs, and then came lingering
delay upon delay, and passionate parting at the last. But when the crew had
weighed anchor and the sails were swelling and the waves beyond the bar crying
out for them, Miss Frarnie and her mother could still be seen waving their
handkerchiefs from an upper window; and half blind with the sorrow and the pain
he choked away from sight, and mad with shame to think he had found no way but
to accept their favors, Andrew felt that their signal must be answered, and
sullenly waved his own in reply; and then the pilot was leaving the barque, and
presently the shore and all its complications, and Louie crying herself sick,
were forgotten in the excitement of the moment and its new duties.
"Didn't say a word of love to Frarnie, eh?" remarked Mr.
Maurice in answer to his wife's communications that evening. "A noble lad,
then! I like him all the better for it. He shall have her all the sooner. He
won't abuse our confidence: that's it. He'll wait till he's bridged over the
gap between them. The first mate of a successful voyage is a better match for
my daughter than the boy who stayed by the Sabrina, brave as he was. He's fond
of her? Don't you think so? There's no doubt about that? None at all! All in
good time--all in good time. I'll speak to him myself. They're going to write
to each other? I thought so."
Short as the trip was that the Frarnie made in that favorable
season, it seemed to Louie an interminable period; but from the cheerful,
hopeful smile upon her lips no one would ever have known how her heart was longing
for her lover as she went about her work; for the little housekeeper had quite
too much to do in keeping the cottage clean, the garden weedless, the nets
mended, to be able to neglect one duty for any love-sick fancies it might be
pleasant to indulge. From morning till night her days were full in bringing
happiness to others: there was her father to make comfortable; there were the
sick old women, of whom her aunt brought word, to concoct some delicacy for--a
cup of custard, to wit, a dish of the water-jelly she had learned how to make
from the sea-moss she gathered on the beach, a broiled and buttered mushroom
from the garden; there were the canaries and the cat to be cared for, and the
dog that Andrew left with her to feed and shower caresses on; and there was the
parrot's toilet to be made and her lesson to be taught, and the single jars of
preserves and pickles and ketchups to be put up for winter, and the herbs to be
dried: there were not, you may see, many minutes to be wasted out of that busy
little life in castle-building or in crying. One day there came a letter with
Victoria's head and the Liverpool stamp upon it: she knew it by heart
presently, and wore it next her heart by night and day; and even if she had
known that Miss Frarnie Maurice received one in the same handwriting by the
same mail, it would hardly have made much difference to her; and one day the
Sabrina, all freshly coppered and painted and repaired, with new masts and
sails, and so much else that it was not easy to say what part of her now
represented the old brig, came round to her old wharf and began to take in
cargo. Louie ran down one evening with her father, and went all over her from
stem to stern, only one old sailor being aboard; and she could have told you
then every rope from clew to ear-ring; and, as if it were all the realization
of a dream, a thousand happy, daring thoughts of herself and Andrew then filled
her fancy like birds in a nest; and so swiftly after that did one day flow into
another for Louie that the Frarnie lay in the mid-stream once more before she
had more than begun to count the days to that on which her Liverpool letter had
promised that she should see its writer come walking into her father's cottage
again.
But she never did see him come walking into her father's cottage
again. That promised day passed and the night, and another--a long, long day
that seemed as if it would never quench its flame in sunset, and a night that
seemed as if it would never know the dawning; but the threshold of the
fisherman's cottage Andrew Traverse crossed no more.
For Mr. Maurice, on his notable errand of circumventing Heaven,
had been ahead of Fate, and had gone down on the pilot-boat to meet the
Frarnie--with no settled designs of course, but in his own impatient pleasure;
and, delighted with the shipmaster's report and with the financial promise of
the voyage, the cargo, the freights, and ventures and all, had greeted Andrew
with a large-hearted warmth and after a manner that no churl could withstand;
and unwilling to listen to any refusal, had taken Andrew up to the
mansion-house with him the moment the ship had touched the wharf.
"You don't ask after her?" said Mr. Maurice when they
were alone in the chaise together. And knowing well enough what he meant,
Andrew blushed through all his bronze--knowing well enough, for had he not gone
below in a mighty hurry and tricked himself out in his best toggery so soon as
he understood there was no escape from the visit? Louie would have been glad
enough to see him in his red shirt and tarpaulin!
"Oh, you scamp!" said Mr. Maurice, quickly then
detecting the blush. "Don't say a word! I've been there myself: I know how
you're longing to see her; and she's been at the window looking through the
glass every half hour, the puss!"
"Mr. Maurice," began Andrew, half trembling, but wholly
resolved, he thought--although it must be confessed that with time, and
distance, and Frarnie's effusive letters and flattering prospects on the other
hand, Louie's image was not so bright at that moment as it had been at others,
and for that very reason Andrew was taking great credit to himself for his
upright intentions--credit enough to tide him over a good deal of baseness if
need were,--"Mr. Maurice--" he began; and there he paused to frame
his sentence more suitably, for it was no easy thing to tell a man that he was
throwing his child at one who did not care for her, and that man the disposer
of his fortunes.
But Mr. Maurice saved him any such trouble. "I know all
you're going to say," he exclaimed. "I understand your hesitation,
and I honor you for it. But I'm no fool, and there's no need to have you tell
me that you want my Frarnie, for I've known that long ago."
"Mr. Maurice!"
"Yes, I have," answered the impulsive gentleman.
"Mrs. Maurice and I talked it over as soon as we saw which way the wind
lay; but of course we decided to say nothing till we were sure, quite sure,
that it was Frarnie and not her prospects--"
"Oh, sir, you--"
"Tush, tush! I know all about it now. But it becomes a father
to be wary," continued the other, taking the words from Andrew's lips in
spite of himself, and quite wary enough not to mention that in Frarnie's
easily-excited favor a young scapegrace was very likely to supplant Mr. Andrew
if things were not brought to a point at once. "It was my duty to look at
all sides," he said, without stopping for breath. "Now I know you,
and I see you'd rather give the girl the go-by for ever than have her think you
wanted her because she was her father's daughter, and not some poor
fisherman's."
"Indeed, indeed--" began Andrew again, leaning forward,
his cheeks crimson, his very hands shaking.
"Of course, my boy," interrupted his companion as
before--"of course. Don't say a word: you're welcome to her at last. I
never thought I'd surrender her to any one so freely; but if I were choosing
from all the world, Andrew, I don't know any one I'd choose sooner for my son.
She's a sensible girl, my Frarnie is, at bottom. We know her heart: it's a good
heart--only the froth of all young girls' fancies to be blown off. And the
Sabrina always was a pet of mine, and, though I've said nothing of it, I've
meant her for Frarnie's husband this many a day." And before Andrew, in
his flurry and embarrassment and bewilderment, could enunciate any distinct denial
of anything or avowal of anything else, the chaise was at the door, and Mrs.
Maurice was waiting for him with extended hands, and Frarnie was standing and
smiling behind, half turned to run away. And Mr. Maurice cried out:
"Captain Traverse of the Sabrina, my dear! Here, Frarnie, Frarnie! none of
your airs and graces! Come and give your sweetheart an honest kiss!" And
Andrew, doubting if the minister were not behind the door and he should not
find himself married out of hand, irresolute, cowardly, too weak to give up the
Sabrina and that sweet new title just ringing in his ears, was pushed along by
Mr. Maurice's foolish, hearty hand till he found himself bending over Frarnie
with his arm around her waist, his lips upon her cheek, and without, as it
seemed to him, either choice or volition on his part. But as he looked up and
saw the portraits of the girl's grandfathers, where they appeared to be looking
down at him stern and questioning, a guilty shame over the wrong he was doing
their child smote him sorely: he saw that he had allowed the one instant of
choice to slip away; the sense came over him that he had sealed his own doom,
while a vision of Louie's face, full of desolation and horror, was scorching in
upon his soul; and there, in the moment of betrothal, his punishment began. He
stole down to the Sabrina's wharf that evening, after the moon had set, and
looking round to see that it was quite forsaken at that hour, he took from his
neck a long, slender hair-chain to drop over into the deep water there; but as
he held the thing it seemed suddenly to coil round his hand with a caress, as
if it were still a part of Louie's self. He stamped his foot and ground his
heel into the earth there with a cry and an oath, and put the chain back again
whence he had taken it, and swore he would wear it till they laid his bones
under ground. And he looked up at the dark lines of the brig looming like the
black skeleton of an evil thing against the darkness of the night, and he
cursed himself for a traitor to both women--for a hypocrite, a craven, a man
sold to the highest bidder. Well, well, Captain Traverse, there are curses that
cling! And Louie sat in the gloom at the window of the fisherman's cottage down
below the town, and sighed and wondered and longed and waited, but Captain
Traverse went back to the Maurices' mansion.
It is one of the enigmas of this existence how women forgive the
wrong of such hours as came to Louie now--hours of suspense and
suffering--hours of a misery worse than the worm's misery in blindness and pain
before it finds its wings.
At first she expected her lover, and speculated as to his delay,
and fretted to think anything might detain him from her; and now she was
amazed, and now vexed, and now she was forgiving the neglect, accusing herself
and making countless excuses for him; and now imagining a thousand dire
mishaps. But as the third day came and he was still away--he who had been
always wont to seek her as soon as the craft was made fast to wharf--then she
felt her worst forebodings taking bodily shape: he was ill, he had fallen
overboard, he had left the vessel at Liverpool and shipped upon another, and a
letter would come directly to say so; or else he had been waylaid and robbed
and made away with: not once did she dream that he was false to her--to her, a
portion of his own life!
How it was with him there were numberless ways in which she might
have discovered, for every soul of her acquaintance knew Andrew, and must be
aware of the fact if he were missing or ailing, or if any other ill chance had
befallen him. But as often as she tried to address one or another passing by
the window, her voice failed her and her heart, and she asked no questions, and
only waited on. A life of suspense, exclaims some one, a life of a spider! And
when we are in suspense, says another, all our aids are in suspense with us.
Day after day she stayed continually in the house, looking for him to come,
never stirring out even into the garden, lest coming she might miss him. Night
after night she sat alone at her window till the distant town-clocks struck
midnight--now picturing to herself the glad minute of his coming, the quick
explaining words, the bursting tears of relief, the joy of that warm embrace,
the touch of those strong arms--now convinced that he would never come, and her
heart sinking into a bitter loneliness of despair.
It grew worse with her when she knew that he was really in the
town, alive and well; for, from the scuttle in the roof, by the aid of her
father's glass, she could see the Sabrina, and one day she was sure that a form
whose familiar outlines made her pulses leap was Andrew himself giving orders
on the deck there; and after that she tortured herself with conjectures till
her brain was wild--chained hand and foot, unable to write him or to seek him
in any maidenly modesty, heart and soul in a ferment. Still she waited in that
shuddering suspense, with every nerve so tightly strung, that voice or footfall
vibrated on them into pain. If Andrew, in the midst of the gayeties by which he
found himself accepted of the Maurices' friends, was never haunted by any
thought of all this, his heart had grown stouter in one year's time than twenty
years had found and left it previously.
But Louie's suspense was of no long duration, as time goes, though
to her it was a lifetime. A week covered it--a week full of stings and fevered
restlessness--when her father came in one day and said bitterly, thinking it
best to make an end of all at once: "So I hear that a friend of ours has
been paid off at last. Captain Andrew Traverse of the Sabrina is going to marry
his owner's daughter Frarnie. Luck will take passage on that brig!" And
when Louie rose from the bed on which she lay down that night, the Sabrina had
been a fortnight gone on her long voyage--a voyage where the captain had sailed
alone, postponing the evil day perhaps, and at any rate pleading too much
inexperience, for all his dazzling promotion, to be trusted with so precious
thing as a wife on board during the first trip. He had not felt that hesitation
once when portraying the possibilities of the voyage to another.
It was not a long illness, Louie's, though it had been severe
enough to destroy for her consciousness both of pain and pleasure. Her aunt had
left other work and had nursed her through it; but when, strong and well once
more, she went about her old duties, it seemed to her that that consciousness
had never returned: she took up life with utter listlessness and indifference,
and she fancied that her love for Andrew was as dead as all the rest. The poor
little thing, laying this flattering unction to heart, did not call much reason
to her aid, or she would have known that there was some meaning in it when she
cried all day on coming across an old daguerreotype of Andrew. "It isn't
for love of him," she sobbed. "It's for the loss of all that love out
of my life that was heaven to me. Oh no, no! I love him no longer: I can't, I
can't love him: he is all the same as another woman's husband." But,
despite this stout assertion, she could not bring herself to part with that
picture: he was not in reality quite the husband of another woman, and till he
was indeed she meant to keep it. "He is only promised to her yet, and he
was promised first to me," she said for salve to conscience; and meanwhile
the picture grew so blurred with conscious tears, and perhaps with unconscious
kisses, that it might have been his or another's: Miss Frarnie herself, had she
seen it, could not have told whose it was.
Notwithstanding all the elasticity of youth, life became an inexpressibly
dull thing to Louie as the year wore into the next--dull, with neither aim nor
object, the past a pain to remember, the future a blank to consider. She could
live only from day to day, one day like another, till they grew so wearisome
she wondered her hair was not gray--the pretty hair that, shorn from her head
in her illness, had grown again in a short fleece of silky curls--for it seemed
to her that she had lived a hundred years. And because troubles never come
alone, and one perhaps makes the other seem lighter and better to be borne, in
the thick of a long winter's storm they brought home her father, the old
fisherman, drowned and dead.
Captain Traverse knew of the old fisherman's death through the
newspapers that found him in his foreign ports--not through Miss Frarnie's
letters, for she knew almost nothing of the existence or non-existence of such
low people; and therefore, conjecture as he needs must concerning Louie's means
of livelihood now, there was no intelligence to relieve any anxiety he might
have felt, or to inform him of the sale of the cottage to pay the debt of the
mortgage under which it was bought, or of the support that Louie earned in
helping her aunt watch with the sick and lay out the dead: he could only be
pricked with knowledge of the fact that he had no right to his anxiety, or to
the mention of her name even in his prayers--if he said them.
Poor little Louie! A sad end to such a joyous youth as hers had
been, you would have said; but, in truth, her new work was soothing to her: her
heart was simply in harmony with suffering, with death and desolation, and by
degrees she found that comfort from her double sorrows in doing her best to
bring comfort to others which it may be she could never have found had she been
the pampered darling of some wealthy house. Often, when she forgot what she was
doing, Louie made surmises concerning Frarnie Maurice, wondering if she were
the noble thing that Andrew needed to ennoble him--if she were really so strong
and beautiful that the mere sight of her had killed all thought or memory of an
older love; trying to believe her all that his guardian angel might wish his
wife to be, and to acknowledge that she herself was so low and small and
ignorant that she could only have injured him--to be convinced that it was
neither weakness, nor covetousness, nor perjury in Andrew, having met the sun,
to forget the shadows; wondering then if Frarnie cared for him as she herself
had done, and crying out aloud that that could never be, until the sound of her
own sobs woke her from her forbidden dream. But at other times a calm came to
Louie that was more pathetic than her wildest grief: it was the acquiescence in
what Providence had chosen for Andrew, cost herself what it might--it was the
submission of the atom beneath the wheels of the great engine.
It is true that as, late in the night, when all the town was
asleep and only silence and she abroad, she walked home by herself from some
deathbed whose occupant she had composed decently for the last sleep, she used
to wish it were herself lying there on that moveless pillow, and soon to be
sheltered from the cruel light by the bosom of the kindly earth. For now, as
she passed the birches softly rustling in the night wind, and hurried by, she
remembered other times when she had passed them, and had stopped to listen,
cared for, protected, with Andrew's arm about her; and now, as the clocks, one
after another, remotely chimed the hour, the sound smote her with a familiar
sweetness full of pain; and now, as she came along the sea-wall and saw the
dark river glimmering widely and ever the same, while its mysterious tide
flowed to meet the far-off spark of the lighthouse lantern, she recalled a
hundred happy hours when she and Andrew in the boat together had rocked there
in soft summer nights, with sunset melting in the stream and wrapping them
about with rosy twilight; or those when whispers of the September gales swelled
the sail, and the boat flew like a gull from crest to crest of the bar; or
those when misty sea-turns crept up stream and folded them, and drowned the
sparkle of the lighthouse and the emerald and ruby ray of the channel lights,
and left them shut away from the world, alone with each other on the great gray
current silently sweeping to the sea--times when she knew no fear, trusting in
the strong arm and stout heart beside her, before the river had brought death
to her door; when the whole of life seemed radiant and rich--times that made
this solitary night walk trodden now seem colder and drearier and darker than
the grave--that made her wish it ended in a grave.
And so at length the year slipped by, and spring had come again,
and the sap had leaped up the bough and burst into blossom there, and the blood
had bubbled freshly in the veins of youth, and hope had once more gladdened all
the world but Louie. With her only a dull patience stayed that tried to call
itself content, until she heard it rumored among the harbor-people that the
Sabrina was nearly due again, and with that her heart beat so turbulently that
she had to crush it down again with the thought that, though Andrew every day
drew nearer, came up the happy climates of southern latitudes and spread his
sails on favoring gales for home, he only hastened to his wedding-day. And one
day, at last, she rose to see a craft anchored in the middle channel down below
the piers, unpainted and uncleaned by any crew eager to show their best to
shore--a black and blistered brig, with furled sails and silent deck; and some
men called it the fever-ship, and some men called it the Sabrina.
As the news of the brig's return and of her terrible companion
spread through the town, a panic followed it, and the feeling with which she
was regarded all along the shore during that day and the next would hardly be
believed by any but those who have once been in the neighborhood of a
pestilence themselves. Exaggerated accounts of a swift, strange illness, by
many believed to be the ancient plague revived again and cast loose through the
land from Asiatic ships had reached the old port; and aware that they were
peculiarly exposed by reason of their trade, small as it was, the people there
had already died a thousand deaths through expectation of the present coming of
the fever already raging in other parts. Hitherto, the health-officers,
boarding everything that appeared, had found no occasion to give anything but
clean papers, and the town had breathed again. But now, when at last it spread
from lip to lip that the fever lay at anchor in mid-channel, knees shook and
cheeks grew white, and health-officer and port-physician, in spite of the
almost instantaneous brevity of their visit to the infected vessel, were
avoided as though they were the pestilence themselves, and not a soul in all
the town was found to carry a cup of cold water to the gasping, burning men
cared for only by those in less desperate strait than themselves, and who,
having buried two-thirds of their number in deep-sea soundings, were likely to
be denied as much as a grave on shore themselves; while to Mr. Maurice, half
wild with perplexity and foreboding and amazement at Miss Frarnie's yet wilder
terror,--to him the red lantern hung out by the brig at nightfall magnified
itself in the mist into a crimson cloud where with wide wings lurked the very
demon of Fever himself.
Not a soul to carry the cup of cold water, did I say? Yes, one
timid little soul there was, waiting in a fever of longing herself--waiting
that those who had a right to go might do so if they would--waiting till
assured that neither Frarnie Maurice nor her parents had the first intention of
going, though affianced husband and chosen son lay dying there--waiting in
agony of impatience, since every delay might possibly mean death,--one little
brave and timid soul there was who ventured forth on her errand of mercy alone.
The fisherman's old boat still lay rocking in the cove, and the oars stood in
the shed: Louie knew how to use them well, and making her preparations by
daylight, and leaving the rest till nightfall, lest she should be hindered by
the authorities, she found means to impress the little cow-boy into her
service; and after dark a keg of sweet water was trundled down and stored
amidships of the boat, with an enormous block of ice rolled in an old blanket;
a basket of lemons and oranges was added, a roll of fresh bed-linen, a little
box of such medicines as her last year's practice had taught her might be of
use; and extorting a promise from the boy that he would leave another block of
ice on the bank every night after dark for her to come and fetch, Louie quickly
stepped into the boat, lifted the oars, and slipt away into the darkness of the
great and quiet river.
When, three days afterward, Captain Traverse unclosed his eyes
from a dream of Gehenna and the place the smoke of whose torment goes up for
ever, a strange confusion crept like a haze across his mind, tired out and
tortured with delirium, and he dropped the aching lids and fell away into
slumber again; for he had thought himself vexed with the creak of cordage and
noise of feet, stived in his dark and narrow cabin, on a filthy bed in a foul
air, if any air at all were in that noisome place, reeking with heat and the
ferment of bilge-water and fever-smell; and here, unless a new delirium chained
him, a mattress lay upon the deck with the awning of an old sail stretched
above it and making soft shadow out of searching sun, a gentle wind was blowing
over him, a land-breeze full of sweet scents from the gardens on the shore,
from the meadows and the marshes. Silence broken only by a soft wash of water
surrounded him; a flake of ice lay between his lips, that had lately been
parched and withering, and delicious coolness swathed his head, that had seemed
to be a ball of burning fire. The last that he remembered had been a hot, dry,
aching agony, and this was bliss: the sleep into which he fell when waking from
the stupor that had benumbed his power of suffering--a power that had rioted
till no more could be suffered--lasted during all the spell of that fervid noon
sun that hung above the harbor and the town like the unbroken seal of the
expected pestilence. A strange still town, fear and heat keeping its streets
deserted, its people longing for an east wind that should kill the fever, yet
dreading lest it should blow the fever in on them; a strange still harbor, its
great peaceful river darkened only by that blot where the sun-soaked craft
swung at her anchor; a strange still craft, where nothing stirred but one
slender form, one little being that went about laying wet cloths upon this rude
sailor's head, broken ice between the lips of that one, moistening dry palms,
measuring out cooling draughts, and only resting now and then to watch one
sleeper sleep, to hang and hear if in that deep dream there were any breathing
and it were not the last sleep of all. And in Louie's heart there was something
just as strange and still as in all other things throughout that wearing,
blinding day; but with her the calm was not of fear, only of unspeakable joy;
for if Andrew lived it was she that had saved him, and though he died, his
delirium had told her that his heart was hers. "If he dies, he is
mine!" she cried triumphantly, forgetting all the long struggle of scruple
and doubt, "and if he lives, he shall never be hers!" she cried
softly and with that inner voice that no one hears.
And so the heat slipped down with the sun to other horizons,
coolness crept in upon the running river's breast with the dusk, dew gathered
and lay darkly glittering on rail and spar and shroud as star by star stole out
to sparkle in it; and Andrew raised his eyes at length, and they rested long
and unwaveringly on the little figure sitting not far away with hands crossed
about the knees and eyes looking out into the last light--the tranquil, happy
face from which a white handkerchief kept back the flying hair while giving it
the likeness of a nun's. Was it a dream? Was it Louie? Or was it only some one
of the tormenting phantoms that for so many burning days had haunted him? He
tried in vain to ask: his tongue clove to the roof of his mouth; he seemed to
be in the power of one of those fierce nightmares where life depends on a word
and the word is not to be spoken. Only a vision, then: he closed his lids
thinking it would be gone when he lifted them, but he did not want it to be
gone, and looked again to find it as before. And by and by it seemed to him
that long since, in a far-off dream, he had gathered strength and uttered the
one thought of his fever, "Louie, what do you do now?" and she had
answered him, as though she thought aloud, "I stroke the dead;" and
he had cried out, "Then presently me too, me too! And let the shroud be
shotted heavily to bury me out of your sight!" And he was crying it out
again, but while he spoke a mouth was laid on his--a warm, sweet mouth that
seemed to breathe fresh spirit through his frame--his head was lifted and
pillowed on a breast where he could hear the heart beneath flutter like a happy
bird, and he was wrapped once more in slumber, but this time slumber sweet as
it was deep.
Morning was dawning over the vessel's side, a dream of rosy lustre
sifting through the purple and pearly mist, behind which the stars grew large
and lost while it moved away to the west in one great cloud, and out of which
the river gleamed as if just newly rolled from its everlasting
fountains,--morning was dawning with the sweet freshness of its fragrant airs
stealing from warm low fields, when Andrew once more lifted his eyes only to
find that tranquil face above him still, that happy heart still beating beneath
his pillowed head. "Oh, Louie," he sighed, "speak to
me--say--have I died?--am I forgiven?--is this heaven?"
"To me, dear--oh to me!" answered she with the old
radiant smile that used to make his pulse quicken, and that, ill as he yet was,
reassured him as to his earthly latitude and longitude.
"And it was all a dream, then?" he murmured. "And I
have not lost you?" He raised his wasted hand and drew from his breast the
little hair chain that he had hidden there so long ago. "It was a fetter I
could not break," he whispered. "I wrote her all about it long ago. I
wrote her father that he should have his vessel back again--and I would take my
freedom--and not a dollar's wages for the voyage would I ever draw of him. But
I should never have dared see you--for--oh, Louie--how can you ever--"
"Hush, hush, dear!" she breathed. "What odds is all
that now? We have our life before us."
"Only just help me live it, Louie."
"God will help us," she answered. And as she spoke a
sudden rainbow leaped into the western heaven as if to seal her promise, and as
it slowly faded there came a wild salt smell, an air that tingled like a tonic
through the veins: the east wind was singing in from sea, bringing the music of
breaker and shore, and the fever was blasted by its breath throughout the little
Sabrina.
11.Old Sadler's Resurrection:
A Yarn of
the Mexican Gulf
"Talking about ghosts," said the captain, "listen
while I spin you a bit of a yarn which dates back some twenty-five years ago,
when, but a wee bit of a midshipman, I was the youngster of the starboard
steerage mess on board the old frigate Macedonian, then flag-ship of the West
India squadron, and bearing the broad pennant of Commodore Jesse Wilkinson.
"It would hardly interest you to tell what a clever set of
lieutenants and ward-room officers we had, and how the twenty-three reefers in
the two steerage messes kept up a racket and a row all the time, in spite of
the taut rein which the first lieutenant, Mr. Bispham, kept over us. He wore
gold-rimmed spectacles; and I can see him now, with the flat eagle-and-anchor
buttons shining on his blue coat, as he would pace the quarter-deck, eyeing us
young gentlemen of the watch, as demurely we planked up and down the lee side,
tired enough, and waiting for eight bells to strike to rush below and call our
relief. He was an austere man, and, unlike the brave old commodore, made no
allowance for our pranks and skylarking.
"Among our crew, made up of some really splendid fellows, but
with an odd mixture of 'Mahonese,' 'Dagos,' 'Rock-Scorpions,' and other
countrymen, there was an old man-of-war's man named Sadler--a little, dried-up
old chap of some sixty years, who had fought under Nelson at Trafalgar, so he
said, and had been up and down, all around and criss-cross the world so often
that he had actually forgotten where he had been, and so had all his geography
lessons, learned by cruising experience, sadly mixed up in his head; which,
although small, with a little old, weazened frontispiece, was full of odds and
ends of yarns, with which he used to delight us young aspirants for naval
honors, as he would spin them to us on the booms on moonlight nights, after the
hammocks had been piped down. How well do I remember the old fellow's
appearance!--his neat white frock and trowsers, his low-quarter purser's shoes,
with a bit of a ribbon for a bow; no socks, save the natural, flesh-tinted
ones, a blue star, done in India ink, gleaming on his instep; his broad blue
collar, decorated with stars and two rows of white tape, falling gracefully
from a neck which, as we youngsters asserted, had received its odd-looking
twist from hanging too long by a grape vine, with which the Isle of Pines'
pirates had strung him up when he was chasing them under old Commodore
Kearney's command. Anyhow, old, sharp-faced, wrinkled and tanned to the color
of a sole-leather trunk, the whole cut of his jib told you at once that he was
a regular man-of-war's man--one of a class whose faults I can hardly recall
while remembering their sense of duty, their utter disregard of danger, and the
reliance with which you can lead them on to attack anything, from a hornet's
nest to an iron-clad.
"Well, it so happened, one hot day, while cruising in the
Gulf of Mexico, that the news came to us that old Sadler was dead; and sure
enough it was so, for the old fellow had quietly slipped his moorings, and, as
we all hoped, had at last gone to where the sweet little cherub sits up aloft
who looks out for the soul of poor Jack. Then, after the doctors had had a shy
at him, to see why he had cleared out so suddenly, his remains were taken in
charge by his messmates, who rigged the old man out in his muster clothes,
sewed him up in his clean white hammock, with an eighteen pound shot at his
feet, and reported to the officer of the deck that the body was ready for
burial. So, about six bells in the afternoon watch, the weather being very hot,
and not a breath of air to ripple the glassy surface of the water, the
lieutenant of the watch directed one of the young gentlemen to tell the
boatswain to call 'All hands to bury the dead;' and soon fore and aft the
shrill whistles were heard, followed by that saddest of all calls to a sailor
at sea--'All hands bury the dead!'
"Our good old boatswain, Wilmuth, seemed to linger on the
words with a feeling akin to grief at parting with an old shipmate, and as the
last man reached the deck, he touched his hat and in a sad sort of way
reported, 'All up, sir,' to the first lieutenant, who in his turn reported,
'Officers and men all on deck, sir,' to the commodore, who thereupon gave an
order to the chaplain to go on with the services.
"The courses were hauled up, main-topsail to the mast, band
on the quarter-deck, colors half-mast, and all hands, officers and men, stood
uncovered, looking silently and sadly upon the body as it lay upon the
gang-boards in its white hammock, ready for the last rites. Solemnly and most
impressively were the services read, and at the words, 'We commit his body to
the deep,' a heavy splash was heard, and poor old Sadler had gone to his long
home for ever. Some of us youngsters ran up in the lee main rigging to see him
go down, and as we watched him go glimmering and glimmering down to a mere
speck, we wondered where he was bound, and how long it would take him to fetch
Davy Jones' locker on that tack.
"'Pipe down, sir,' says the commodore to Mr. Bispham; 'Pipe
down, sir,' says Mr. Bispham to Mr. Alphabetical Gray, who was officer of the
deck; 'Pipe down, sir,' says Mr. Gray to the gentleman of the watch; 'Pipe
down, sir,' says this youngster to the boatswain; and then such a
twitter of pipes followed this order, and all hands were piped down, while poor
old Sadler was still off soundings, and going down as fast as the
eighteen-pound shot would take him.
"Now, you know that people coming from a funeral on shore
always have a gay sort of air, suppressed it may be, but still cropping out;
and just so is it with sailors at sea; for, Sadler's body committed to the
deep, all hands felt better: the fore and main tacks were hauled aboard, the
main yard was filled away, and the jib sheet hauled aft, and we all settled
down into every-day life, which, after all, is not half so monotonous on board
a man-of-war as you might suppose.
"Well, as I have said, the weather was very hot, the surface
of the water was as smooth as a mill-pond, the wind was all up and down the
mast, and so the old ship was boxing the compass all to herself, and not making
a foot of headway.
"At one bell in the first dog watch, Boyle, the ship's cook,
reported the tea-water ready, and after this came the inevitable
evening-quarters--and some old man-of-war's men would think the country was
going to 'Jemmy Square-toes' stern first if they didn't have quarters--then
down hammocks for the night at six bells, and after that just as much of fun,
frolic, dance, song and yarn spinning as all hands wanted until eight bells,
when the watch was called.
"John Moffitt, the sailing master, the best fellow in the
ward-room mess, and a great favorite with the youngsters, was officer of the
deck from six to eight o'clock; and my messmate, Perry Buckner, of Scott
county, Kentucky, the most dare-devil midshipman of us all, was master's mate
of the forecastle; Hammond, Marshall, Smith and I were the gentlemen of the
Watch; Rodney Barlow was quartermaster at the 'con;' the lookouts had just been
stationed; the men were singing, dancing, spinning yarns and otherwise amusing
themselves about the decks, while the old ship was turning lazily around in the
splendid moonlight as if admiring herself.
"Discipline, you know, is the very life of a man-of-war, and
this must account for what now took place. Tom Edwards, a young foretopman, had
the lee lookout, and as seven bells struck he sang out, 'Lee cat-head;' but the
last syllable died away on his lips as his eyes rested upon an object--a white
object--standing bolt upright in the water before him, about a hundred yards
distant and broad off on the lee bow. Suppressing a strong desire to shriek,
and recovering himself, he touched his hat and said, 'Mr. Buckner, will you
step up here, sir, if you please?'
"'What is she, Edwards?' said Buckner, as he quickly mounted
the hammock-rail.
"One look, a dip down, a shiver, and, O Lord! what did he see
but old Sadler standing straight as a ramrod, and heading right for the
ship!
"It took Buck a full minute to recover himself, and then,
with one eye on the lee bow and the other on the quarter-deck, he walked aft
and deliberately touching his cap, reported to Moffitt, 'Old Sadler broad off
on the lee bow, sir.'
"'The d---- he is!' exclaimed Moffitt; but, checking himself,
he said, 'Mr. Hammond, report Sadler's arrival to the commodore; and you, Mr.
M----, report it to the first lieutenant, sir.'
"My eyes were as big as saucers as I rushed down the steerage
ladder and into the ward-room, where I found the first lieutenant quietly
seated reading over the black list; and when, with my heart in my throat, I
said, 'Mr. Bispham, old Sadler is on the lee bow, sir,' he serenely replied,
'Very well, Mr. M---- I'll be on deck directly.'
"'O Lord!' said I to myself--'to take a ghost as easily as
all that!' Bolting up the ladder on my way back to the deck, and trembling lest
I should see the ghost popping his head in through one of the gun-deck ports, I
ran into Hammond, who dodged me like a shot.
"When I got on deck the news was all out, for Tom Edwards
couldn't stand it any longer, but had just yelled out, 'Ghost ho! ghost ho!
Look out! stand from under! here he comes!' and bolted aft, scared out of his
wits.
"In ten seconds all hands were on deck--ship's cook, yeoman,
'Jemmy Legs,' 'Jemmy Ducks,' 'Bungs,' Loblolly boy,' captain of the hold, and,
by this time, all the officers too, with the midshipmen scuttling up the
ladders as fast as their legs and hands could carry them.
"Moffitt had hauled up the courses and squared the main yard,
as much to make a diversion as anything else, although the men thought it was
to keep old Sadler from boarding us; and as they rushed up on deck they filled
the booms; lee rigging, hammock--netting and every available spot from which a
sight of the old fellow could be had.
"Very soon they saw that he was not approaching the ship: the
old sinner was just turning and turning around in the water, like a
fishing-cork, dancing away all to himself, while the moonlight, first on one
side, and then on the other, in light and shadow, gave a queer sort of look to
his features, sometimes sad and sometimes funny.
"After watching him for a few minutes, Bill Ellis, the second
captain of the foretop, hailed him thus: 'Sadler, ahoy! What do you want?'
"No answer being received, one of the mizzentop boys
suggested that the old man had come back for his bag and hammock, and that they
ought to be thrown overboard to him; but all this was cut short by the
appearance of the commodore on the quarter-deck, and upon him all eyes were
turned as he stepped upon the port horseblock, where a good view could be had.
"Now, old Jess was as brave an old fellow as ever sailed a
ship, but he did not fancy ghosts, and the knowledge that all hands were
looking at him to see how he took it made him feel a little nervous; but with a
firm voice he called for his night-glass, and when the quartermaster, with a
touch of his hat, handed it to him, he quietly arranged the focus, and, as we
all supposed, was about to point it at Sadler, who was still dancing away for
dear life all to himself. But old Jess was too smart for that: he quietly
directed his glass to another quarter, to gain a little time, and, gradually
sweeping the horizon, brought it at last, with a tremor of mortal dread, to
bear dead upon the ghost. Bless my soul! how the old gentleman shook! But
recovering himself, with a big gulp in his throat he turned to the chaplain and
said, 'Did you read the full service over him to-day, Mr. T----?'
"'I did, sir, as well as I can remember,' replied Mr. T.
"'Then, sir,' said the commodore, turning to Mr. Bispham and
speaking in an authoritative tone, 'we must send a boat and bring him on
board.'
"'O Lord! O Lord!--bring a ghost on board!' groaned the men.
"'Silence, fore and aft!' said Mr. Bispham, 'and call away
the second cutter.'
"'Away there, you second cutters, away!' sung out the
boatswain's mate. But they didn't 'away' one step, and we youngsters could hear
the men growling out, 'What does the commodore want with old Sadler? This isn't
his place: let the old man rip: he is dead and buried all right. We didn't ship
to go cruising after ghosts: we shipped to reef topsails and work the big guns;
and if old Jess wants old Sadler on board, he had better go after him himself.'
Some said he had come back after his bag and hammock, and the best way was to
let him have them, and then he would top his boom and clear out. Others said
the purser had not squared off his account; and one of the afterguard was seen
to tickle the mainmast and whistle for a breeze, to give the old fellow a wide
berth. But it wouldn't do: discipline is discipline; and after a free use of
the colt and a good deal of hazing, the boat's crew came aft, the cutter was
lowered, and the men, with their oars up and eyes upon the ghost, were waiting
the order to shove off, the bow oarsman having provided himself with a
boarding-pike to 'fend off,' as he said, if the old man should fight.
"We youngsters knew that somebody else was
needed in that boat, and that somebody was a midshipman with
his side-arms; but not a boy of us said a word about it, and we were afraid
even to catch the first lieutenant's eye, lest he should be reminded that no
young officer had, as usual, been ordered to go; but the order came at last.
When Moffitt asked the first lieutenant, 'What officer, sir, shall I send in
that boat?' we scattered like a flock of birds, but all too late; for Mr.
Bispham referred the matter to the commodore, who, with a twinkle in his eye,
said, 'Who discovered the ghost, sir?'
"'Midshipman Buckner reported him, sir,' was the reply.
"'Then,' said the commodore, 'by priority of discovery he
belongs to Mr. Buckner, who will take charge of the cutter and bring him on
board.'
"I heard all this from my place behind the mizzen mast, and
you may guess how glad I was not to have been selected; but a groan, a
chattering of the teeth, a trembling and shaking of bones close by my side,
caused me to look around, and there was poor Buck, with his priority honors
thick upon him.
"'Get your side-arms, sir,' said Moffitt: 'take charge of the
cutter and carry out the commodore's order.'
"'Ay, ay, sir!' said Buck, but oh with what a change in his
voice! As he buckled on his sword I could see what a struggle he was making to
feel brave. As he went over the gangway to get into the boat I caught his eye,
and if you could have seen that forlorn look you would have pitied him; for
there was old Sadler turning and turning in the water, looking first this way,
and then the other, and, as Buck thought, just ready to hook on to him and
carry him down among the dead men.
"It is no light matter to go up to a ghost, front face, full
face, and look him in the eye; but what must it be when you have to go up to
him backward, as that cutter's crew had to do while pulling their
oars, leaving only Buck and the cox-swain to face him? They just couldn't do
it, and at every stroke they would suddenly slew around on their thwarts and
look at the old fellow, who seemed to them as big as an elephant, and just
ready to clap on to them, boat and all, as soon as they turned to give another
stroke. Poor fellows! they made but little headway, and what with catching
crabs, fouling their oars, blasting old Sadler's eyes, and denouncing him generally
(one fellow fairly yelled outright when the bow oarsman accidentally touched
him), they had a hard pull of it; but still they made some progress, and when
Buck sang out, 'Way enough,' every oar flew inboard, every man faced suddenly
around, and with this the cutter keeled over, and, her bow touching old Sadler
on his shoulder, ducked him out of sight for a second, at which all hands
shouted, thinking that he had gone for ever; but in a moment more up he popped,
fresh as a lark, higher than ever before, and this time right abreast of the
stern-sheets, where he bobbed and bowed to Buck, at which, with a yell of
terror, all hands went overboard, and, floundering in the water, begged for
mercy. The cutter had some little headway, and this of course brought Sadler
astern on the other quarter, and then there was a wild rush to get back into
the boat, for fear the old fellow was doubling on them to make a grab.
"The commodore, hearing the row and fearing disaster, ordered
another boat to the rescue, but ere it reached the spot, Buck had, in some
manner, quieted his men, who, seeing the ghost still standing bolt upright in
the water and dancing away as if nothing had happened to scare him,
manned their oars again and pulled cautiously toward him; while he, with that
changeable moonlight grin on his face, was bobbing up and down to the boat's
crew, as if Buck were the commodore himself coming to pay him a visit.
"'Stand by, there in the bow, to hook on to him,' sang out
Buck.
"'Ay, ay, sir! I'll fix him;' and with that, and a heavy
expletive in regard to the old fellow's eyes, the bow oarsman slammed his
boarding-pike right into the ghost, just abaft his left leg, and as the sharp
steel touched the body, a whizzing sound, like the escape of steam, was heard,
and without a word old Sadler vanished from sight for ever."
"But, captain, tell us what really brought the old gentleman
back," said one of the auditors.
"Well, just think of that tight white hammock, the light
weight of the shot, and the very hot weather--think, too, how easily a
fishing-cork is balanced in the water by a very small sinker, and lastly how
confined air will buoy up anything--and you have the whole secret of his coming
back. Let that air suddenly escape, and you have the secret of his disappearance.
"Buck used to say that 'priority of discovery' was a good
thing in the days of Columbus, but if it was to be continued in force in the
United States navy, hang him if he should ever report another ghost, even if he
should see him walking the quarter-deck with the speaking-trumpet under his
arm."
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