THE
WOLVES OF GOD
And Other Fey Stories
BY ALGERNON BLACKWOOD
TO THE MEMORY OF OUR
CAMP-FIRES IN THE1. WILDERNESS
CONTENTS
1.The Wolves of God 2.Chinese
Magic 3.Running Wolf 4.First Hate 5.The Tarn of Sacrifice 6.The Valley of the Beasts 7.The Call
8.Egyptian Sorcery 9.The
Decoy 10.The Man Who Found Out 11.The Empty Sleeve 12.Wireless Confusion 13.Confession 14.The Lane That Ran East and West 15.”Vangeance is Mine”
1.THE WOLVES OF GOD
1
AS the little steamer entered the bay of
Kettletoft in the Orkneys the beach at Sanday appeared so low that the houses
almost seemed to be standing in the water; and to the big, dark man leaning
over the rail of the upper deck the sight of them came with a pang of mingled
pain and pleasure. The scene, to his eyes, had not changed. The houses, the low
shore, the flat treeless country beyond, the vast open sky, all looked exactly
the same as when he left the island thirty years ago to work for the Hudson Bay
Company in distant N. W. Canada. A lad of eighteen then, he was now a man of
forty-eight, old for his years, and this was the home-coming he had so often
dreamed about in the lonely wilderness of trees where he had spent his life.
Yet his grim face wore an anxious rather than a tender expression. The return
was perhaps not quite as he had pictured it.
Jim Peace had not done too badly, however, in
the Company’s service. For an islander, he would be a rich man now; he had not
married, he had saved the greater part of his salary, and even in the far-away
Post where he had spent so many years there had been occasional opportunities
of the kind common to new, wild countries[2] where life and law are in the making. He
had not hesitated to take them. None of the big Company Posts, it was true, had
come his way, nor had he risen very high in the service; in another two years
his turn would have come, yet he had left of his own accord before those two
years were up. His decision, judging by the strength in the features, was not
due to impulse; the move had been deliberately weighed and calculated; he had
renounced his opportunity after full reflection. A man with those steady eyes,
with that square jaw and determined mouth, certainly did not act without good
reason.
A curious expression now flickered over his
weather-hardened face as he saw again his childhood’s home, and the return, so
often dreamed about, actually took place at last. An uneasy light flashed for a
moment in the deep-set grey eyes, but was quickly gone again, and the tanned
visage recovered its accustomed look of stern composure. His keen sight took in
a dark knot of figures on the landing-pier—his brother, he knew, among them. A
wave of home-sickness swept over him. He longed to see his brother again, the
old farm, the sweep of open country, the sand-dunes, and the breaking seas. The
smell of long-forgotten days came to his nostrils with its sweet, painful pang
of youthful memories.
How fine, he thought, to be back there in the
old familiar fields of childhood, with sea and sand about him instead of the
smother of endless woods that ran a thousand miles without a break. He was glad
in particular that no trees were visible, and that rabbits scampering among the
dunes were the only wild animals he need ever meet....
Those thirty years in the woods, it seemed,
oppressed his mind; the forests, the countless multitudes of trees, had wearied
him. His nerves, perhaps, had suffered finally. Snow, frost and sun, stars, and
the wind had been his companions during the long days and endless nights in his
lonely Post, but chiefly—trees. Trees, trees,[3] trees! On the whole, he had preferred them
in stormy weather, though, in another way, their rigid hosts, ’mid the deep
silence of still days, had been equally oppressive. In the clear sunlight of a
windless day they assumed a waiting, listening, watching aspect that had
something spectral in it, but when in motion—well, he preferred a moving animal
to one that stood stock-still and stared. Wind, moreover, in a million trees,
even the lightest breeze, drowned all other sounds—the howling of the wolves,
for instance, in winter, or the ceaseless harsh barking of the husky dogs he so
disliked.
Even on this warm September afternoon a slight
shiver ran over him as the background of dead years loomed up behind the
present scene. He thrust the picture back, deep down inside himself. The
self-control, the strong, even violent will that the face betrayed, came into
operation instantly. The background was background; it belonged to what was
past, and the past was over and done with. It was dead. Jim meant it to stay
dead.
The figure waving to him from the pier was his
brother. He knew Tom instantly; the years had dealt easily with him in this
quiet island; there was no startling, no unkindly change, and a deep emotion,
though unexpressed, rose in his heart. It was good to be home again, he
realized, as he sat presently in the cart, Tom holding the reins, driving
slowly back to the farm at the north end of the island. Everything he found
familiar, yet at the same time strange. They passed the school where he used to
go as a little bare-legged boy; other boys were now learning their lessons
exactly as he used to do. Through the open window he could hear the droning
voice of the schoolmaster, who, though invisible, wore the face of Mr.
Lovibond, his own teacher.
“Lovibond?” said Tom, in reply to his question.
“Oh, he’s been dead these twenty years. He went south, you know—Glasgow, I
think it was, or Edinburgh. He got typhoid.”[4]
Stands of golden plover were to be seen as of
old in the fields, or flashing overhead in swift flight with a whir of wings,
wheeling and turning together like one huge bird. Down on the empty shore a
curlew cried. Its piercing note rose clear above the noisy clamour of the
gulls. The sun played softly on the quiet sea, the air was keen but pleasant,
the tang of salt mixed sweetly with the clean smells of open country that he
knew so well. Nothing of essentials had changed, even the low clouds beyond the
heaving uplands were the clouds of childhood.
They came presently to the sand-dunes, where
rabbits sat at their burrow-mouths, or ran helter-skelter across the road in
front of the slow cart.
“They’re safe till the colder weather comes and
trapping begins,” he mentioned. It all came back to him in detail.
“And they know it, too—the canny little
beggars,” replied Tom. “Any rabbits out where you’ve been?” he asked casually.
“Not to hurt you,” returned his brother shortly.
Nothing seemed changed, although everything
seemed different. He looked upon the old, familiar things, but with other eyes.
There were, of course, changes, alterations, yet so slight, in a way so odd and
curious, that they evaded him; not being of the physical order, they reported
to his soul, not to his mind. But his soul, being troubled, sought to deny the
changes; to admit them meant to admit a change in himself he had determined to
conceal even if he could not entirely deny it.
“Same old place, Tom,” came one of his rare
remarks. “The years ain’t done much to it.” He looked into his brother’s face a
moment squarely. “Nor to you, either, Tom,” he added, affection and tenderness
just touching his voice and breaking through a natural reserve that was almost
taciturnity.
His brother returned the look; and something in
that instant passed between the two men, something of understanding[5] that
no words had hinted at, much less expressed. The tie was real, they loved each
other, they were loyal, true, steadfast fellows. In youth they had known no
secrets. The shadow that now passed and vanished left a vague trouble in both
hearts.
“The forests,” said Tom slowly, “have made a
silent man of you, Jim. You’ll miss them here, I’m thinking.”
“Maybe,” was the curt reply, “but I guess not.”
His lips snapped to as though they were of steel
and could never open again, while the tone he used made Tom realize that the
subject was not one his brother cared to talk about particularly. He was
surprised, therefore, when, after a pause, Jim returned to it of his own
accord. He was sitting a little sideways as he spoke, taking in the scene with
hungry eyes. “It’s a queer thing,” he observed, “to look round and see nothing
but clean empty land, and not a single tree in sight. You see, it don’t look
natural quite.”
Again his brother was struck by the tone of
voice, but this time by something else as well he could not name. Jim was
excusing himself, explaining. The manner, too, arrested him. And thirty years
disappeared as though they had not been, for it was thus Jim acted as a boy
when there was something unpleasant he had to say and wished to get it over.
The tone, the gesture, the manner, all were there. He was edging up to
something he wished to say, yet dared not utter.
“You’ve had enough of trees then?” Tom said
sympathetically, trying to help, “and things?”
The instant the last two words were out he
realized that they had been drawn from him instinctively, and that it was the
anxiety of deep affection which had prompted them. He had guessed without
knowing he had guessed, or rather, without intention or attempt to guess. Jim
had a secret. Love’s clairvoyance had discovered it, though not yet its hidden
terms.
“I have——” began the other, then paused,
evidently[6] to
choose his words with care. “I’ve had enough of trees.” He was about to speak
of something that his brother had unwittingly touched upon in his chance
phrase, but instead of finding the words he sought, he gave a sudden start, his
breath caught sharply. “What’s that?” he exclaimed, jerking his body round so
abruptly that Tom automatically pulled the reins. “What is it?”
“A dog barking,” Tom answered, much surprised.
“A farm dog barking. Why? What did you think it was?” he asked, as he flicked
the horse to go on again. “You made me jump,” he added, with a laugh. “You’re
used to huskies, ain’t you?”
“It sounded so—not like a dog, I mean,” came the
slow explanation. “It’s long since I heard a sheep-dog bark, I suppose it
startled me.”
“Oh, it’s a dog all right,” Tom assured him
comfortingly, for his heart told him infallibly the kind of tone to use. And
presently, too, he changed the subject in his blunt, honest fashion, knowing
that, also, was the right and kindly thing to do. He pointed out the old farms
as they drove along, his brother silent again, sitting stiff and rigid at his
side. “And it’s good to have you back, Jim, from those outlandish places. There
are not too many of the family left now—just you and I, as a matter of fact.”
“Just you and I,” the other repeated gruffly,
but in a sweetened tone that proved he appreciated the ready sympathy and tact.
“We’ll stick together, Tom, eh? Blood’s thicker than water, ain’t it? I’ve
learnt that much, anyhow.”
The voice had something gentle and appealing in
it, something his brother heard now for the first time. An elbow nudged into
his side, and Tom knew the gesture was not solely a sign of affection, but grew
partly also from the comfort born of physical contact when the heart is
anxious. The touch, like the last words, conveyed an[7] appeal for help. Tom was so surprised he
couldn’t believe it quite.
Scared! Jim scared! The thought puzzled and
afflicted him who knew his brother’s character inside out, his courage, his
presence of mind in danger, his resolution. Jim frightened seemed an
impossibility, a contradiction in terms; he was the kind of man who did not
know the meaning of fear, who shrank from nothing, whose spirits rose highest
when things appeared most hopeless. It must, indeed, be an uncommon, even a
terrible danger that could shake such nerves; yet Tom saw the signs and read
them clearly. Explain them he could not, nor did he try. All he knew with
certainty was that his brother, sitting now beside him in the cart, hid a
secret terror in his heart. Sooner or later, in his own good time, he would
share it with him.
He ascribed it, this simple Orkney farmer, to
those thirty years of loneliness and exile in wild desolate places, without
companionship, without the society of women, with only Indians, husky dogs, a
few trappers or fur-dealers like himself, but none of the wholesome, natural
influences that sweeten life within reach. Thirty years was a long, long time.
He began planning schemes to help. Jim must see people as much as possible, and
his mind ran quickly over the men and women available. In women the
neighbourhood was not rich, but there were several men of the right sort who
might be useful, good fellows all. There was John Rossiter, another old Hudson
Bay man, who had been factor at Cartwright, Labrador, for many years, and had
returned long ago to spend his last days in civilization. There was Sandy
McKay, also back from a long spell of rubber-planting in Malay.... Tom was
still busy making plans when they reached the old farm and presently sat down
to their first meal together since that early breakfast thirty years ago before
Jim caught the steamer that bore him off to exile—an exile[8] that
now returned him with nerves unstrung and a secret terror hidden in his heart.
“I’ll ask no questions,” he decided. “Jim will
tell me in his own good time. And meanwhile, I’ll get him to see as many folks
as possible.” He meant it too; yet not only for his brother’s sake. Jim’s
terror was so vivid it had touched his own heart too.
“Ah, a man can open his lungs here and breathe!”
exclaimed Jim, as the two came out after supper and stood before the house, gazing
across the open country. He drew a deep breath as though to prove his
assertion, exhaling with slow satisfaction again. “It’s good to see a clear
horizon and to know there’s all that water between—between me and where I’ve
been.” He turned his face to watch the plover in the sky, then looked towards
the distant shore-line where the sea was just visible in the long evening
light. “There can’t be too much water for me,” he added, half to himself. “I
guess they can’t cross water—not that much water at any rate.”
Tom stared, wondering uneasily what to make of
it.
“At the trees again, Jim?” he said laughingly.
He had overheard the last words, though spoken low, and thought it best not to
ignore them altogether. To be natural was the right way, he believed, natural
and cheery. To make a joke of anything unpleasant, he felt, was to make it less
serious. “I’ve never seen a tree come across the Atlantic yet, except as a
mast—dead,” he added.
“I wasn’t thinking of the trees just then,” was
the blunt reply, “but of—something else. The damned trees are nothing, though I
hate the sight of ’em. Not of much account, anyway”—as though he compared them
mentally with another thing. He puffed at his pipe, a moment.
“They certainly can’t move,” put in his brother,
“nor swim either.”
“Nor another thing,” said Jim, his voice thick
suddenly, but not with smoke, and his speech confused, though[9] the
idea in his mind was certainly clear as daylight. “Things can’t hide behind
’em—can they?”
“Not much cover hereabouts, I admit,” laughed
Tom, though the look in his brother’s eyes made his laughter as short as it
sounded unnatural.
“That’s so,” agreed the other. “But what I meant
was”—he threw out his chest, looked about him with an air of intense relief,
drew in another deep breath, and again exhaled with satisfaction—“if there are
no trees, there’s no hiding.”
It was the expression on the rugged, weathered
face that sent the blood in a sudden gulping rush from his brother’s heart. He
had seen men frightened, seen men afraid before they were actually frightened;
he had also seen men stiff with terror in the face both of natural and
so-called supernatural things; but never in his life before had he seen the
look of unearthly dread that now turned his brother’s face as white as chalk and
yet put the glow of fire in two haunted burning eyes.
Across the darkening landscape the sound of
distant barking had floated to them on the evening wind.
“It’s only a farm-dog barking.” Yet it was Jim’s
deep, quiet voice that said it, one hand upon his brother’s arm.
“That’s all,” replied Tom, ashamed that he had
betrayed himself, and realizing with a shock of surprise that it was Jim who
now played the rôle of comforter—a startling change in their relations. “Why,
what did you think it was?”
He tried hard to speak naturally and easily, but
his voice shook. So deep was the brothers’ love and intimacy that they could
not help but share.
Jim lowered his great head. “I thought,” he
whispered, his grey beard touching the other’s cheek, “maybe it was the wolves”—an
agony of terror made both voice and body tremble—“the Wolves of God!”[10]
2
The interval of thirty years had been bridged
easily enough; it was the secret that left the open gap neither of them cared
or dared to cross. Jim’s reason for hesitation lay within reach of guesswork,
but Tom’s silence was more complicated.
With strong, simple men, strangers to
affectation or pretence, reserve is a real, almost a sacred thing. Jim offered
nothing more; Tom asked no single question. In the latter’s mind lay, for one
thing, a singular intuitive certainty: that if he knew the truth he would lose
his brother. How, why, wherefore, he had no notion; whether by death, or
because, having told an awful thing, Jim would hide—physically or mentally—he
knew not, nor even asked himself. No subtlety lay in Tom, the Orkney farmer. He
merely felt that a knowledge of the truth involved separation which was death.
Day and night, however, that extraordinary
phrase which, at its first hearing, had frozen his blood, ran on beating in his
mind. With it came always the original, nameless horror that had held him
motionless where he stood, his brother’s bearded lips against his ear: The
Wolves of God. In some dim way, he sometimes felt—tried to persuade
himself, rather—the horror did not belong to the phrase alone, but was a
sympathetic echo of what Jim felt himself. It had entered his own mind and
heart. They had always shared in this same strange, intimate way. The deep
brotherly tie accounted for it. Of the possible transference of thought and
emotion he knew nothing, but this was what he meant perhaps.
At the same time he fought and strove to keep it
out, not because it brought uneasy and distressing feelings to him, but because
he did not wish to pry, to ascertain, to discover his brother’s secret as by
some kind of subterfuge that seemed too near to eavesdropping almost. Also, he
wished most earnestly to protect him. Meanwhile, in[11] spite of himself, or perhaps because of
himself, he watched his brother as a wild animal watches its young. Jim was the
only tie he had on earth. He loved him with a brother’s love, and Jim,
similarly, he knew, loved him. His job was difficult. Love alone could guide
him.
He gave openings, but he never questioned:
“Your letter did surprise me, Jim. I was never
so delighted in my life. You had still two years to run.”
“I’d had enough,” was the short reply. “God,
man, it was good to get home again!”
This, and the blunt talk that followed their
first meeting, was all Tom had to go upon, while those eyes that refused to
shut watched ceaselessly always. There was improvement, unless, which never
occurred to Tom, it was self-control; there was no more talk of trees and
water, the barking of the dogs passed unnoticed, no reference to the loneliness
of the backwoods life passed his lips; he spent his days fishing, shooting,
helping with the work of the farm, his evenings smoking over a glass—he was
more than temperate—and talking over the days of long ago.
The signs of uneasiness still were there, but
they were negative, far more suggestive, therefore, than if open and direct. He
desired no company, for instance—an unnatural thing, thought Tom, after so many
years of loneliness.
It was this and the awkward fact that he had
given up two years before his time was finished, renouncing, therefore, a
comfortable pension—it was these two big details that stuck with such unkind
persistence in his brother’s thoughts. Behind both, moreover, ran ever the
strange whispered phrase. What the words meant, or whence they were derived,
Tom had no possible inkling. Like the wicked refrain of some forbidden song,
they haunted him day and night, even his sleep not free from them entirely. All
of which, to the simple Orkney farmer, was so new an experience that he knew
not how to deal[12] with it at all. Too strong to be
flustered, he was at any rate bewildered. And it was for Jim, his brother, he
suffered most.
What perplexed him chiefly, however, was the
attitude his brother showed towards old John Rossiter. He could almost have
imagined that the two men had met and known each other out in Canada, though
Rossiter showed him how impossible that was, both in point of time and of
geography as well. He had brought them together within the first few days, and
Jim, silent, gloomy, morose, even surly, had eyed him like an enemy. Old
Rossiter, the milk of human kindness as thick in his veins as cream, had taken
no offence. Grizzled veteran of the wilds, he had served his full term with the
Company and now enjoyed his well-earned pension. He was full of stories,
reminiscences, adventures of every sort and kind; he knew men and values, had
seen strange things that only the true wilderness delivers, and he loved
nothing better than to tell them over a glass. He talked with Jim so genially
and affably that little response was called for luckily, for Jim was glum and
unresponsive almost to rudeness. Old Rossiter noticed nothing. What Tom noticed
was, chiefly perhaps, his brother’s acute uneasiness. Between his desire to
help, his attachment to Rossiter, and his keen personal distress, he knew not
what to do or say. The situation was becoming too much for him.
The two families, besides—Peace and Rossiter—had
been neighbours for generations, had intermarried freely, and were related in
various degrees. He was too fond of his brother to feel ashamed, but he was
glad when the visit was over and they were out of their host’s house. Jim had
even declined to drink with him.
“They’re good fellows on the island,” said Tom
on their way home, “but not specially entertaining, perhaps. We all stick
together though. You can trust ’em mostly.”
“I never was a talker, Tom,” came the gruff
reply. “You know that.” And Tom, understanding more than[13] he understood, accepted the apology and
made generous allowances.
“John likes to talk,” he helped him. “He
appreciates a good listener.”
“It’s the kind of talk I’m finished with,” was
the rejoinder. “The Company and their goings-on don’t interest me any more.
I’ve had enough.”
Tom noticed other things as well with those
affectionate eyes of his that did not want to see yet would not close. As the
days drew in, for instance, Jim seemed reluctant to leave the house towards
evening. Once the full light of day had passed, he kept indoors. He was eager
and ready enough to shoot in the early morning, no matter at what hour he had
to get up, but he refused point blank to go with his brother to the lake for an
evening flight. No excuse was offered; he simply declined to go.
The gap between them thus widened and deepened,
while yet in another sense it grew less formidable. Both knew, that is, that a
secret lay between them for the first time in their lives, yet both knew also
that at the right and proper moment it would be revealed. Jim only waited till
the proper moment came. And Tom understood. His deep, simple love was equal to
all emergencies. He respected his brother’s reserve. The obvious desire of John
Rossiter to talk and ask questions, for instance, he resisted staunchly as far
as he was able. Only when he could help and protect his brother did he yield a
little. The talk was brief, even monosyllabic; neither the old Hudson Bay
fellow nor the Orkney farmer ran to many words:
“He ain’t right with himself,” offered John,
taking his pipe out of his mouth and leaning forward. “That’s what I don’t like
to see.” He put a skinny hand on Tom’s knee, and looked earnestly into his face
as he said it.
“Jim!” replied the other. “Jim ill, you mean!”
It sounded ridiculous.[14]
“His mind is sick.”
“I don’t understand,” Tom said, though the truth
bit like rough-edged steel into the brother’s heart.
“His soul, then, if you like that better.”
Tom fought with himself a moment, then asked him
to be more explicit.
“More’n I can say,” rejoined the laconic old
backwoodsman. “I don’t know myself. The woods heal some men and make others
sick.”
“Maybe, John, maybe.” Tom fought back his
resentment. “You’ve lived, like him, in lonely places. You ought to know.” His
mouth shut with a snap, as though he had said too much. Loyalty to his
suffering brother caught him strongly. Already his heart ached for Jim. He felt
angry with Rossiter for his divination, but perceived, too, that the old fellow
meant well and was trying to help him. If he lost Jim, he lost the world—his
all.
A considerable pause followed, during which both
men puffed their pipes with reckless energy. Both, that is, were a bit excited.
Yet both had their code, a code they would not exceed for worlds.
“Jim,” added Tom presently, making an effort to
meet the sympathy half way, “ain’t quite up to the mark, I’ll admit that.”
There was another long pause, while Rossiter
kept his eyes on his companion steadily, though without a trace of expression
in them—a habit that the woods had taught him.
“Jim,” he said at length, with an obvious
effort, “is skeered. And it’s the soul in him that’s skeered.”
Tom wavered dreadfully then. He saw that old
Rossiter, experienced backwoodsman and taught by the Company as he was, knew
where the secret lay, if he did not yet know its exact terms. It was easy
enough to put the question, yet he hesitated, because loyalty forbade.
“It’s a dirty outfit somewheres,” the old man
mumbled to himself.[15]
Tom sprang to his feet, “If you talk that way,”
he exclaimed angrily, “you’re no friend of mine—or his.” His anger gained upon
him as he said it. “Say that again,” he cried, “and I’ll knock your teeth——”
He sat back, stunned a moment.
“Forgive me, John,” he faltered, shamed yet
still angry. “It’s pain to me, it’s pain. Jim,” he went on, after a long breath
and a pull at his glass, “Jim is scared, I know it.” He waited
a moment, hunting for the words that he could use without disloyalty. “But it’s
nothing he’s done himself,” he said, “nothing to his discredit. I know that.”
Old Rossiter looked up, a strange light in his
eyes.
“No offence,” he said quietly.
“Tell me what you know,” cried Tom suddenly,
standing up again.
The old factor met his eye squarely,
steadfastly. He laid his pipe aside.
“D’ye really want to hear?” he asked in a
lowered voice. “Because, if you don’t—why, say so right now. I’m all for
justice,” he added, “and always was.”
“Tell me,” said Tom, his heart in his mouth.
“Maybe, if I knew—I might help him.” The old man’s words woke fear in him. He
well knew his passionate, remorseless sense of justice.
“Help him,” repeated the other. “For a man
skeered in his soul there ain’t no help. But—if you want to hear—I’ll tell
you.”
“Tell me,” cried Tom. “I will help
him,” while rising anger fought back rising fear.
John took another pull at his glass.
“Jest between you and me like.”
“Between you and me,” said Tom. “Get on with
it.”
There was a deep silence in the little room.
Only the sound of the sea came in, the wind behind it.
“The Wolves,” whispered old Rossiter. “The
Wolves of God.”
Tom sat still in his chair, as though struck in
the[16] face.
He shivered. He kept silent and the silence seemed to him long and curious. His
heart was throbbing, the blood in his veins played strange tricks. All he
remembered was that old Rossiter had gone on talking. The voice, however,
sounded far away and distant. It was all unreal, he felt, as he went homewards
across the bleak, wind-swept upland, the sound of the sea for ever in his
ears....
Yes, old John Rossiter, damned be his soul, had
gone on talking. He had said wild, incredible things. Damned be his soul! His
teeth should be smashed for that. It was outrageous, it was cowardly, it was
not true.
“Jim,” he thought, “my brother, Jim!” as he
ploughed his way wearily against the wind. “I’ll teach him. I’ll teach him to
spread such wicked tales!” He referred to Rossiter. “God blast these fellows!
They come home from their outlandish places and think they can say anything!
I’ll knock his yellow dog’s teeth...!”
While, inside, his heart went quailing, crying
for help, afraid.
He tried hard to remember exactly what old John
had said. Round Garden Lake—that’s where Jim was located in his lonely
Post—there was a tribe of Redskins. They were of unusual type. Malefactors
among them—thieves, criminals, murderers—were not punished. They were merely
turned out by the Tribe to die.
But how?
The Wolves of God took care of them. What were
the Wolves of God?
A pack of wolves the Redskins held in awe, a
sacred pack, a spirit pack—God curse the man! Absurd, outlandish nonsense!
Superstitious humbug! A pack of wolves that punished malefactors, killing but
never eating them. “Torn but not eaten,” the words came back to him, “white men
as well as red. They could even cross the sea....”[17]
“He ought to be strung up for telling such wild
yarns. By God—I’ll teach him!”
“Jim! My brother, Jim! It’s monstrous.”
But the old man, in his passionate cold justice,
had said a yet more terrible thing, a thing that Tom would never forget, as he
never could forgive it: “You mustn’t keep him here; you must send him away. We
cannot have him on the island.” And for that, though he could scarcely believe
his ears, wondering afterwards whether he heard aright, for that, the proper
answer to which was a blow in the mouth, Tom knew that his old friendship and
affection had turned to bitter hatred.
“If I don’t kill him, for that cursed lie, may
God—and Jim—forgive me!”
3
It was a few days later that the storm caught
the islands, making them tremble in their sea-born bed. The wind tearing over
the treeless expanse was terrible, the lightning lit the skies. No such rain
had ever been known. The building shook and trembled. It almost seemed the sea
had burst her limits, and the waves poured in. Its fury and the noises that the
wind made affected both the brothers, but Jim disliked the uproar most. It made
him gloomy, silent, morose. It made him—Tom perceived it at once—uneasy.
“Scared in his soul”—the ugly phrase came back to him.
“God save anyone who’s out to-night,” said Jim
anxiously, as the old farm rattled about his head. Whereupon the door opened as
of itself. There was no knock. It flew wide, as if the wind had burst it. Two
drenched and beaten figures showed in the gap against the lurid sky—old John
Rossiter and Sandy. They laid their fowling pieces down and took off their
capes; they had been up at the lake for the evening flight and six birds were
in the game bag. So suddenly had the storm come up that they had been caught
before they could get home.[18]
And, while Tom welcomed them, looked after their
creature wants, and made them feel at home as in duty bound, no visit, he felt
at the same time, could have been less opportune. Sandy did not matter—Sandy
never did matter anywhere, his personality being negligible—but John Rossiter
was the last man Tom wished to see just then. He hated the man; hated that
sense of implacable justice that he knew was in him; with the slightest excuse
he would have turned him out and sent him on to his own home, storm or no
storm. But Rossiter provided no excuse; he was all gratitude and easy
politeness, more pleasant and friendly to Jim even than to his brother. Tom set
out the whisky and sugar, sliced the lemon, put the kettle on, and furnished
dry coats while the soaked garments hung up before the roaring fire that Orkney
makes customary even when days are warm.
“It might be the equinoctials,” observed Sandy,
“if it wasn’t late October.” He shivered, for the tropics had thinned his
blood.
“This ain’t no ordinary storm,” put in Rossiter,
drying his drenched boots. “It reminds me a bit”—he jerked his head to the
window that gave seawards, the rush of rain against the panes half drowning his
voice—“reminds me a bit of yonder.” He looked up, as though to find someone to
agree with him, only one such person being in the room.
“Sure, it ain’t,” agreed Jim at once, but speaking
slowly, “no ordinary storm.” His voice was quiet as a child’s. Tom, stooping
over the kettle, felt something cold go trickling down his back. “It’s from
acrost the Atlantic too.”
“All our big storms come from the sea,” offered
Sandy, saying just what Sandy was expected to say. His lank red hair lay matted
on his forehead, making him look like an unhappy collie dog.
“There’s no hospitality,” Rossiter changed the
talk, “like an islander’s,” as Tom mixed and filled the glasses.[19] “He
don’t even ask ‘Say when?’” He chuckled in his beard and turned to Sandy, well
pleased with the compliment to his host. “Now, in Malay,” he added dryly, “it’s
probably different, I guess.” And the two men, one from Labrador, the other
from the tropics, fell to bantering one another with heavy humour, while Tom
made things comfortable and Jim stood silent with his back to the fire. At each
blow of the wind that shook the building, a suitable remark was made, generally
by Sandy: “Did you hear that now?” “Ninety miles an hour at least.” “Good thing
you build solid in this country!” while Rossiter occasionally repeated that it
was an “uncommon storm” and that “it reminded” him of the northern tempests he
had known “out yonder.”
Tom said little, one thought and one thought
only in his heart—the wish that the storm would abate and his guests depart. He
felt uneasy about Jim. He hated Rossiter. In the kitchen he had steadied
himself already with a good stiff drink, and was now half-way through a second;
the feeling was in him that he would need their help before the evening was
out. Jim, he noticed, had left his glass untouched. His attention, clearly,
went to the wind and the outer night; he added little to the conversation.
“Hark!” cried Sandy’s shrill voice. “Did you
hear that? That wasn’t wind, I’ll swear.” He sat up, looking for all the world
like a dog pricking its ears to something no one else could hear.
“The sea coming over the dunes,” said Rossiter.
“There’ll be an awful tide to-night and a terrible sea off the Swarf. Moon at the
full, too.” He cocked his head sideways to listen. The roaring was tremendous,
waves and wind combining with a result that almost shook the ground. Rain hit
the glass with incessant volleys like duck shot.
It was then that Jim spoke, having said no word
for a long time.[20]
“It’s good there’s no trees,” he mentioned
quietly. “I’m glad of that.”
“There’d be fearful damage, wouldn’t there?”
remarked Sandy. “They might fall on the house too.”
But it was the tone Jim used that made Rossiter
turn stiffly in his chair, looking first at the speaker, then at his brother.
Tom caught both glances and saw the hard keen glitter in the eyes. This kind of
talk, he decided, had got to stop, yet how to stop it he hardly knew, for his
were not subtle methods, and rudeness to his guests ran too strong against the
island customs. He refilled the glasses, thinking in his blunt fashion how best
to achieve his object, when Sandy helped the situation without knowing it.
“That’s my first,” he observed, and all burst
out laughing. For Sandy’s tenth glass was equally his “first,” and he absorbed
his liquor like a sponge, yet showed no effects of it until the moment when he
would suddenly collapse and sink helpless to the ground. The glass in question,
however, was only his third, the final moment still far away.
“Three in one and one in three,” said Rossiter,
amid the general laughter, while Sandy, grave as a judge, half emptied it at a
single gulp. Good-natured, obtuse as a cart-horse, the tropics, it seemed, had
first worn out his nerves, then removed them entirely from his body. “That’s
Malay theology, I guess,” finished Rossiter. And the laugh broke out again.
Whereupon, setting his glass down, Sandy offered his usual explanation that the
hot lands had thinned his blood, that he felt the cold in these “arctic
islands,” and that alcohol was a necessity of life with him. Tom, grateful for
the unexpected help, encouraged him to talk, and Sandy, accustomed to neglect
as a rule, responded readily. Having saved the situation, however, he now
unwittingly led it back into the danger zone.
“A night for tales, eh?” he remarked, as the
wind came howling with a burst of strangest noises against the[21] house.
“Down there in the States,” he went on, “they’d say the evil spirits were out.
They’re a superstitious crowd, the natives. I remember once——” And he told a
tale, half foolish, half interesting, of a mysterious track he had seen when
following buffalo in the jungle. It ran close to the spoor of a wounded buffalo
for miles, a track unlike that of any known animal, and the natives, though
unable to name it, regarded it with awe. It was a good sign, a kill was
certain. They said it was a spirit track.
“You got your buffalo?” asked Tom.
“Found him two miles away, lying dead. The
mysterious spoor came to an end close beside the carcass. It didn’t continue.”
“And that reminds me——” began old Rossiter,
ignoring Tom’s attempt to introduce another subject. He told them of the
haunted island at Eagle River, and a tale of the man who would not stay buried
on another island off the coast. From that he went on to describe the strange
man-beast that hides in the deep forests of Labrador, manifesting but rarely,
and dangerous to men who stray too far from camp, men with a passion for wild
life over-strong in their blood—the great mythical Wendigo. And while he
talked, Tom noticed that Sandy used each pause as a good moment for a drink,
but that Jim’s glass still remained untouched.
The atmosphere of incredible things, thus, grew
in the little room, much as it gathers among the shadows round a forest
camp-fire when men who have seen strange places of the world give tongue about
them, knowing they will not be laughed at—an atmosphere, once established, it
is vain to fight against. The ingrained superstition that hides in every
mother’s son comes up at such times to breathe. It came up now. Sandy, closer
by several glasses to the moment, Tom saw, when he would be suddenly drunk,
gave birth again, a tale this time of a Scottish planter who had brutally
dismissed a native servant for no other reason than that he disliked him. The
man disappeared[22] completely, but the villagers hinted that
he would—soon indeed that he had—come back, though “not quite as he went.” The
planter armed, knowing that vengeance might be violent. A black panther,
meanwhile, was seen prowling about the bungalow. One night a noise outside his
door on the veranda roused him. Just in time to see the black brute leaping
over the railings into the compound, he fired, and the beast fell with a savage
growl of pain. Help arrived and more shots were fired into the animal, as it
lay, mortally wounded already, lashing its tail upon the grass. The lanterns,
however, showed that instead of a panther, it was the servant they had shot to
shreds.
Sandy told the story well, a certain odd
conviction in his tone and manner, neither of them at all to the liking of his
host. Uneasiness and annoyance had been growing in Tom for some time already,
his inability to control the situation adding to his anger. Emotion was
accumulating in him dangerously; it was directed chiefly against Rossiter, who,
though saying nothing definite, somehow deliberately encouraged both talk and
atmosphere. Given the conditions, it was natural enough the talk should take
the turn it did take, but what made Tom more and more angry was that, if
Rossiter had not been present, he could have stopped it easily enough. It was
the presence of the old Hudson Bay man that prevented his taking decided
action. He was afraid of Rossiter, afraid of putting his back up. That was the
truth. His recognition of it made him furious.
“Tell us another, Sandy McKay,” said the
veteran. “There’s a lot in such tales. They’re found the world over—men turning
into animals and the like.”
And Sandy, yet nearer to his moment of collapse,
but still showing no effects, obeyed willingly. He noticed nothing; the whisky
was good, his tales were appreciated, and that sufficed him. He thanked Tom,
who just then refilled his glass, and went on with his tale. But Tom,[23] hatred
and fury in his heart, had reached the point where he could no longer contain
himself, and Rossiter’s last words inflamed him. He went over, under cover of a
tremendous clap of wind, to fill the old man’s glass. The latter refused,
covering the tumbler with his big, lean hand. Tom stood over him a moment,
lowering his face. “You keep still,” he whispered ferociously, but so that no
one else heard it. He glared into his eyes with an intensity that held danger,
and Rossiter, without answering, flung back that glare with equal, but with a
calmer, anger.
The wind, meanwhile, had a trick of veering, and
each time it shifted, Jim shifted his seat too. Apparently, he preferred to
face the sound, rather than have his back to it.
“Your turn now for a tale,” said Rossiter with
purpose, when Sandy finished. He looked across at him, just as Jim, hearing the
burst of wind at the walls behind him, was in the act of moving his chair
again. The same moment the attack rattled the door and windows facing him. Jim,
without answering, stood for a moment still as death, not knowing which way to
turn.
“It’s beatin’ up from all sides,” remarked
Rossiter, “like it was goin’ round the building.”
There was a moment’s pause, the four men
listening with awe to the roar and power of the terrific wind. Tom listened
too, but at the same time watched, wondering vaguely why he didn’t cross the
room and crash his fist into the old man’s chattering mouth. Jim put out his
hand and took his glass, but did not raise it to his lips. And a lull came abruptly
in the storm, the wind sinking into a moment’s dreadful silence. Tom and
Rossiter turned their heads in the same instant and stared into each other’s
eyes. For Tom the instant seemed enormously prolonged. He realized the
challenge in the other and that his rudeness had roused it into action. It had
become a contest of wills—Justice battling against Love.[24]
Jim’s glass had now reached his lips, and the
chattering of his teeth against its rim was audible.
But the lull passed quickly and the wind began
again, though so gently at first, it had the sound of innumerable swift
footsteps treading lightly, of countless hands fingering the doors and windows,
but then suddenly with a mighty shout as it swept against the walls, rushed
across the roof and descended like a battering-ram against the farther side.
“God, did you hear that?” cried Sandy. “It’s
trying to get in!” and having said it, he sank in a heap beside his chair, all
of a sudden completely drunk. “It’s wolves or panthersh,” he mumbled in his
stupor on the floor, “but whatsh’s happened to Malay?” It was the last thing he
said before unconsciousness took him, and apparently he was insensible to the
kick on the head from a heavy farmer’s boot. For Jim’s glass had fallen with a
crash and the second kick was stopped midway. Tom stood spell-bound, unable to
move or speak, as he watched his brother suddenly cross the room and open a
window into the very teeth of the gale.
“Let be! Let be!” came the voice of Rossiter, an
authority in it, a curious gentleness too, both of them new. He had risen, his
lips were still moving, but the words that issued from them were inaudible, as
the wind and rain leaped with a galloping violence into the room, smashing the
glass to atoms and dashing a dozen loose objects helter-skelter on to the
floor.
“I saw it!” cried Jim, in a voice that rose
above the din and clamour of the elements. He turned and faced the others, but
it was at Rossiter he looked. “I saw the leader.” He shouted to make himself
heard, although the tone was quiet. “A splash of white on his great chest. I
saw them all!”
At the words, and at the expression in Jim’s
eyes, old Rossiter, white to the lips, dropped back into his chair as if a blow
had struck him. Tom, petrified, felt his own[25] heart stop. For through the broken window,
above yet within the wind, came the sound of a wolf-pack running, howling in
deep, full-throated chorus, mad for blood. It passed like a whirlwind and was
gone. And, of the three men so close together, one sitting and two standing, Jim
alone was in that terrible moment wholly master of himself.
Before the others could move or speak, he turned
and looked full into the eyes of each in succession. His speech went back to
his wilderness days:
“I done it,” he said calmly. “I killed him—and I
got ter go.”
With a look of mystical horror on his face, he
took one stride, flung the door wide, and vanished into the darkness.
So quick were both words and action, that Tom’s
paralysis passed only as the draught from the broken window banged the door
behind him. He seemed to leap across the room, old Rossiter, tears on his
cheeks and his lips mumbling foolish words, so close upon his heels that the
backward blow of fury Tom aimed at his face caught him only in the neck and
sent him reeling sideways to the floor instead of flat upon his back.
“Murderer! My brother’s death upon you!” he
shouted as he tore the door open again and plunged out into the night.
And the odd thing that happened then, the thing
that touched old John Rossiter’s reason, leaving him from that moment till his
death a foolish man of uncertain mind and memory, happened when he and the
unconscious, drink-sodden Sandy lay alone together on the stone floor of that
farm-house room.
Rossiter, dazed by the blow and his fall, but in
full possession of his senses, and the anger gone out of him owing to what he
had brought about, this same John Rossiter sat up and saw Sandy also sitting up
and staring at[26] him hard. And Sandy was sober as a judge,
his eyes and speech both clear, even his face unflushed.
“John Rossiter,” he said, “it was not God who
appointed you executioner. It was the devil.” And his eyes, thought Rossiter,
were like the eyes of an angel.
“Sandy McKay,” he stammered, his teeth
chattering and breath failing him. “Sandy McKay!” It was all the words that he
could find. But Sandy, already sunk back into his stupor again, was stretched
drunk and incapable upon the farm-house floor, and remained in that condition
till the dawn.
Jim’s body lay hidden among the dunes for many
months and in spite of the most careful and prolonged searching. It was another
storm that laid it bare. The sand had covered it. The clothes were gone, and
the flesh, torn but not eaten, was naked to the December sun and wind.
2.CHINESE MAGIC
1
DR. OWEN FRANCIS felt a sudden wave of pleasure and
admiration sweep over him as he saw her enter the room. He was in the act of
going out; in fact, he had already said good-bye to his hostess, glad to make
his escape from the chattering throng, when the tall and graceful young woman
glided past him. Her carriage was superb; she had black eyes with a twinkling
happiness in them; her mouth was exquisite. Round her neck, in spite of the
warm afternoon, she wore a soft thing of fur or feathers; and as she brushed by
to shake the hand he had just shaken himself, the tail of this touched his very
cheek. Their eyes met fair and square. He felt as though her eyes also touched
him.
Changing his mind, he lingered another ten
minutes, chatting with various ladies he did not in the least remember, but who
remembered him. He did not, of course, desire to exchange banalities with these
other ladies, yet did so gallantly enough. If they found him absent-minded they
excused him since he was the famous mental specialist whom everybody was proud
to know. And all the time his eyes never left the tall graceful figure that
allured him almost to the point of casting a spell upon him.
His first impression deepened as he watched. He
was aware of excitement, curiosity, longing; there was a touch even of
exaltation in him; yet he took no steps to seek the introduction which was
easily enough procurable. He checked himself, if with an effort. Several times
their eyes[28] met
across the crowded room; he dared to believe—he felt instinctively—that his
interest was returned. Indeed, it was more than instinct, for she was certainly
aware of his presence, and he even caught her indicating him to a woman she
spoke with, and evidently asking who he was. Once he half bowed, and once, in
spite of himself, he went so far as to smile, and there came, he was sure, a
faint, delicious brightening of the eyes in answer. There was, he fancied, a
look of yearning in the face. The young woman charmed him inexpressibly; the
very way she moved delighted him. Yet at last he slipped out of the room
without a word, without an introduction, without even knowing her name. He
chose his moment when her back was turned. It was characteristic of him.
For Owen Francis had ever regarded marriage, for
himself at least, as a disaster that could be avoided. He was in love with his
work, and his work was necessary to humanity. Others might perpetuate the race,
but he must heal it. He had come to regard love as the bait wherewith Nature
lays her trap to fulfill her own ends. A man in love was a man enjoying a
delusion, a deluded man. In his case, and he was nearing forty-five, the theory
had worked admirably, and the dangerous exception that proved it had as yet not
troubled him.
“It’s come at last—I do believe,” he thought to
himself, as he walked home, a new tumultuous emotion in his blood; “the
exception, quite possibly, has come at last. I wonder....”
And it seemed he said it to the tall graceful
figure by his side, who turned up dark eyes smilingly to meet his own, and
whose lips repeated softly his last two words “I wonder....”
The experience, being new to him, was baffling.
A part of his nature, long dormant, received the authentic thrill that pertains
actually to youth. He was a man of chaste, abstemious custom. The reaction was
vehement. That dormant part of him became obstreperous. He[29] thought
of his age, his appearance, his prospects; he looked thirty-eight, he was not
unhandsome, his position was secure, even remarkable. That gorgeous young
woman—he called her gorgeous—haunted him. Never could he forget that face,
those eyes. It was extraordinary—he had left her there unspoken to, unknown,
when an introduction would have been the simplest thing in the world.
“But it still is,” he replied. And the
reflection filled his being with a flood of joy.
He checked himself again. Not so easily is
established habit routed. He felt instinctively that, at last, he had met his
mate; if he followed it up he was a man in love, a lost man enjoying a
delusion, a deluded man. But the way she had looked at him! That air of
intuitive invitation which not even the sweetest modesty could conceal! He felt
an immense confidence in himself; also he felt oddly sure of her.
The presence of that following figure, already
precious, came with him into his house, even into his study at the back where
he sat over a number of letters by the open window. The pathetic little London
garden showed its pitiful patch. The lilac had faded, but a smell of roses
entered. The sun was just behind the buildings opposite, and the garden lay
soft and warm in summer shadows.
He read and tossed aside the letters; one only
interested him, from Edward Farque, whose journey to China had interrupted a
friendship of long standing. Edward Farque’s work on eastern art and
philosophy, on Chinese painting and Chinese thought in particular, had made its
mark. He was an authority. He was to be back about this time, and his friend
smiled with pleasure. “Dear old unpractical dreamer, as I used to call him,” he
mused. “He’s a success, anyhow!” And as he mused, the presence that sat beside
him came a little closer, yet at the same time faded. Not that he forgot
her—that was impossible—but that just before opening the letter from his
friend, he[30] had
come to a decision. He had definitely made up his mind to seek acquaintance.
The reality replaced the remembered substitute.
“As the newspapers may have warned you,” ran the
familiar and kinky writing, “I am back in England after what the scribes term
my ten years of exile in Cathay. I have taken a little house in Hampstead for
six months, and am just settling in. Come to us to-morrow night and let me
prove it to you. Come to dinner. We shall have much to say; we both are ten
years wiser. You know how glad I shall be to see my old-time critic and disparager,
but let me add frankly that I want to ask you a few professional, or, rather,
technical, questions. So prepare yourself to come as doctor and as friend. I am
writing, as the papers said truthfully, a treatise on Chinese thought.
But—don’t shy!—it is about Chinese Magic that I want your technical advice [the
last two words were substituted for “professional wisdom,” which had been
crossed out] and the benefit of your vast experience. So come, old friend, come
quickly, and come hungry! I’ll feed your body as you shall feed my mind.—Yours,
“Edward Farque.”
“P.S.—‘The coming of a friend from a far-off
land—is not this true joy?’”
Dr. Francis laid down the letter with a pleased
anticipatory chuckle, and it was the touch in the final sentence that amused him.
In spite of being an authority, Farque was clearly the same fanciful, poetic
dreamer as of old. He quoted Confucius as in other days. The firm but kinky
writing had not altered either. The only sign of novelty he noticed was the use
of scented paper, for a faint and pungent aroma clung to the big quarto sheet.
“A Chinese habit, doubtless,” he decided,
sniffing it with a puzzled air of disapproval. Yet it had nothing in common
with the scented sachets some ladies use too[31] lavishly, so that even the air of the
street is polluted by their passing for a dozen yards. He was familiar with
every kind of perfumed note-paper used in London, Paris, and Constantinople.
This one was difficult. It was delicate and penetrating for all its faintness,
pleasurable too. He rather liked it, and while annoyed that he could not name
it, he sniffed at the letter several times, as though it were a flower.
“I’ll go,” he decided at once, and wrote an
acceptance then and there. He went out and posted it. He meant to prolong his
walk into the Park, taking his chief preoccupation, the face, the eyes, the
figure, with him. Already he was composing the note of inquiry to Mrs.
Malleson, his hostess of the tea-party, the note whose willing answer should
give him the name, the address, the means of introduction he had now determined
to secure. He visualized that note of inquiry, seeing it in his mind’s eye;
only, for some odd reason, he saw the kinky writing of Farque instead of his
own more elegant script. Association of ideas and emotions readily explained
this. Two new and unexpected interests had entered his life on the same day,
and within half an hour of each other. What he could not so readily explain,
however, was that two words in his friend’s ridiculous letter, and in that kinky
writing, stood out sharply from the rest. As he slipped his envelope into the
mouth of the red pillar-box they shone vividly in his mind. These two words
were “Chinese Magic.”
2
It was the warmth of his friend’s invitation as
much as his own state of inward excitement that decided him suddenly to
anticipate his visit by twenty-four hours. It would clear his judgment and help
his mind, if he spent the evening at Hampstead rather than alone with his own
thoughts. “A dose of China,” he thought, with a smile, “will do me good. Edward
won’t mind. I’ll telephone.”[32]
He left the Park soon after six o’clock and
acted upon his impulse. The connexion was bad, the wire buzzed and popped and
crackled; talk was difficult; he did not hear properly. The Professor had not
yet come in, apparently. Francis said he would come up anyhow on the chance.
“Velly pleased,” said the voice in his ear, as
he rang off.
Going into his study, he drafted the note that
should result in the introduction that was now, it appeared, the chief object
of his life. The way this woman with the black, twinkling eyes obsessed him
was—he admitted it with joy—extraordinary. The draft he put in his pocket,
intending to re-write it next morning, and all the way up to Hampstead Heath
the gracious figure glided silently beside him, the eyes were ever present, his
cheek still glowed where the feather boa had touched his skin. Edward Farque
remained in the background. In fact, it was on the very door-step, having rung
the bell, that Francis realized he must pull himself together. “I’ve come to
see old Farque,” he reminded himself, with a smile. “I’ve got to be interested
in him and his, and, probably, for an hour or two, to talk Chinese——” when the
door opened noiselessly, and he saw facing him, with a grin of celestial
welcome on his yellow face, a China-man.
“Oh!” he said, with a start. He had not expected
a Chinese servant.
“Velly pleased,” the man bowed him in.
Dr. Francis stared round him with astonishment
he could not conceal. A great golden idol faced him in the hall, its gleaming
visage blazing out of a sort of miniature golden palanquin, with a grin, half
dignified, half cruel. Fully double human size, it blocked the way, looking so
life-like that it might have moved to meet him without too great a shock to
what seemed possible. It rested on a throne with four massive legs, carved, the
doctor saw, with serpents, dragons, and mythical monsters generally.[33] Round
it on every side were other things in keeping. Name them he could not, describe
them he did not try. He summed them up in one word—China: pictures, weapons,
cloths and tapestries, bells, gongs, and figures of every sort and kind
imaginable.
Being ignorant of Chinese matters, Dr. Francis
stood and looked about him in a mental state of some confusion. He had the
feeling that he had entered a Chinese temple, for there was a faint smell of
incense hanging about the house that was, to say the least, un-English. Nothing
English, in fact, was visible at all. The matting on the floor, the swinging curtains
of bamboo beads that replaced the customary doors, the silk draperies and
pictured cushions, the bronze and ivory, the screens hung with fantastic
embroideries, everything was Chinese. Hampstead vanished from his thoughts. The
very lamps were in keeping, the ancient lacquered furniture as well. The value
of what he saw, an expert could have told him, was considerable.
“You likee?” queried the voice at his side.
He had forgotten the servant. He turned sharply.
“Very much; it’s wonderfully done,” he said.
“Makes you feel at home, John, eh?” he added tactfully, with a smile, and was
going to ask how long all this preparation had taken, when a voice sounded on
the stairs beyond. It was a voice he knew, a note of hearty welcome in its deep
notes.
“The coming of a friend from a far-off land,
even from Harley Street—is not this true joy?” he heard, and the next minute
was shaking the hand of his old and valued friend. The intimacy between them
had always been of the truest.
“I almost expected a pigtail,” observed Francis,
looking him affectionately up and down, “but, really—why, you’ve hardly changed
at all!”
“Outwardly, not as much, perhaps, as Time
expects,” was the happy reply, “but inwardly——!” He scanned[34] appreciatively
the burly figure of the doctor in his turn. “And I can say the same of you,” he
declared, still holding his hand tight. “This is a real pleasure, Owen,” he
went on in his deep voice, “to see you again is a joy to me. Old friends
meeting again—there’s nothing like it in life, I believe, nothing.” He gave the
hand another squeeze before he let it go. “And we,” he added, leading the way
into a room across the hall, “neither of us is a fugitive from life. We take
what we can, I mean.”
The doctor smiled as he noted the un-English
turn of language, and together they entered a sitting-room that was, again,
more like some inner chamber of a Chinese temple than a back room in a rented
Hampstead house.
“I only knew ten minutes ago that you were
coming, my dear fellow,” the scholar was saying, as his friend gazed round him
with increased astonishment, “or I would have prepared more suitably for your
reception. I was out till late. All this”—he waved his hand—“surprises you, of
course, but the fact is I have been home some days already, and most of what you
see was arranged for me in advance of my arrival. Hence its apparent
completion. I say ‘apparent,’ because, actually, it is far from faithfully
carried out. Yet to exceed,” he added, “is as bad as to fall short.”
The doctor watched him while he listened to a
somewhat lengthy explanation of the various articles surrounding them. The
speaker—he confirmed his first impression—had changed little during the long
interval; the same enthusiasm was in him as before, the same fire and
dreaminess alternately in the fine grey eyes, the same humour and passion about
the mouth, the same free gestures, and the same big voice. Only the lines had
deepened on the forehead, and on the fine face the air of thoughtfulness was
also deeper. It was Edward Farque as of old, scholar, poet, dreamer and
enthusiast, despiser of western civilization, contemptuous of money, generous
and upright, a type of value, an individual.[35]
“You’ve done well, done splendidly, Edward, old
man,” said his friend presently, after hearing of Chinese wonders that took him
somewhat beyond his depth perhaps. “No one is more pleased than I. I’ve watched
your books. You haven’t regretted England, I’ll be bound?” he asked.
“The philosopher has no country, in any case,”
was the reply, steadily given. “But out there, I confess, I’ve found my home.”
He leaned forward, a deeper earnestness in his tone and expression. And into
his face, as he spoke, came a glow of happiness. “My heart,” he said, “is in
China.”
“I see it is, I see it is,” put in the other,
conscious that he could not honestly share his friend’s enthusiasm. “And you’re
fortunate to be free to live where your treasure is,” he added after a moment’s
pause. “You must be a happy man. Your passion amounts to nostalgia, I suspect.
Already yearning to get back there, probably?”
Farque gazed at him for some seconds with
shining eyes. “You remember the Persian saying, I’m sure,” he said. “‘You see a
man drink, but you do not see his thirst.’ Well,” he added, laughing happily,
“you may see me off in six months’ time, but you will not see my happiness.”
While he went on talking, the doctor glanced
round the room, marvelling still at the exquisite taste of everything, the neat
arrangement, the perfect matching of form and colour. A woman might have done
this thing, occurred to him, as the haunting figure shifted deliciously into
the foreground of his mind again. The thought of her had been momentarily
replaced by all he heard and saw. She now returned, filling him with joy,
anticipation and enthusiasm. Presently, when it was his turn to talk, he would
tell his friend about this new, unimagined happiness that had burst upon him
like a sunrise. Presently, but not just yet. He remembered, too, with a passing
twinge of possible boredom to come, that there must be[36] some delay before his own heart could
unburden itself in its turn. Farque wanted to ask some professional questions,
of course. He had for the moment forgotten that part of the letter in his
general interest and astonishment.
“Happiness, yes....” he murmured, aware that his
thoughts had wandered, and catching at the last word he remembered hearing. “As
you said just now in your own queer way—you haven’t changed a bit, let me tell
you, in your picturesqueness of quotation, Edward—one must not be fugitive from
life; one must seize happiness when and where it offers.”
He said it lightly enough, hugging internally
his own sweet secret; but he was a little surprised at the earnestness of his
friend’s rejoinder: “Both of us, I see,” came the deep voice, backed by the
flash of the far-seeing grey eyes, “have made some progress in the doctrine of
life and death.” He paused, gazing at the other with sight that was obviously
turned inwards upon his own thoughts. “Beauty,” he went on presently, his tone
even more serious, “has been my lure; yours, Reality....”
“You don’t flatter either of us, Edward. That’s
too exclusive a statement,” put in the doctor. He was becoming every minute
more and more interested in the workings of his friend’s mind. Something about
the signs offered eluded his understanding. “Explain yourself, old
scholar-poet. I’m a dull, practical mind, remember, and can’t keep pace with
Chinese subtleties.”
“You’ve left out Beauty,” was the
quiet rejoinder, “while I left out Reality. That’s neither
Chinese nor subtle. It is simply true.”
“A bit wholesale, isn’t it?” laughed Francis. “A
big generalization, rather.”
A bright light seemed to illuminate the
scholar’s face. It was as though an inner lamp was suddenly lit. At the same
moment the sound of a soft gong floated in from the hall outside, so soft that
the actual strokes were not[37] distinguishable in the wave of musical
vibration that reached the ear.
Farque rose to lead the way in to dinner.
“What if I——” he whispered, “have combined the
two?” And upon his face was a look of joy that reached down into the other’s
own full heart with its unexpectedness and wonder. It was the last remark in
the world he had looked for. He wondered for a moment whether he interpreted it
correctly.
“By Jove...!” he exclaimed. “Edward, what d’you
mean?”
“You shall hear—after dinner,” said Farque, his
voice mysterious, his eyes still shining with his inner joy. “I told you I have
some questions to ask you—professionally.” And they took their seats round an
ancient, marvellous table, lit by two swinging lamps of soft green jade, while
the Chinese servant waited on them with the silent movements and deft neatness
of his imperturbable celestial race.
3
To say that he was bored during the meal were an
over-statement of Dr. Francis’s mental condition, but to say that he was
half-bored seemed the literal truth; for one-half of him, while he ate his
steak and savoury and watched Farque manipulating chou chop suey and chou om dong most cleverly with chop-sticks, was too
pre-occupied with his own romance to allow the other half to give its full
attention to the conversation.
He had entered the room, however, with a
distinct quickening of what may be termed his instinctive and infallible sense
of diagnosis. That last remark of his friend’s had stimulated him. He was aware
of surprise, curiosity, and impatience. Willy-nilly, he began automatically to
study him with a profounder interest. Something, he gathered, was not quite as
it should be in Edward Farque’s mental composition. There was what might be
called an[38] elusive
emotional disturbance. He began to wonder and to watch.
They talked, naturally, of China and of things
Chinese, for the scholar responded to little else, and Francis listened with
what sympathy and patience he could muster. Of art and beauty he had hitherto
known little, his mind was practical and utilitarian. He now learned that all
art was derived from China, where a high, fine, subtle culture had reigned
since time immemorial. Older than Egypt was their wisdom. When the western
races were eating one another, before Greece was even heard of, the Chinese had
reached a level of knowledge and achievement that few realized. Never had they,
even in earliest times, been deluded by anthropomorphic conceptions of the
Deity, but perceived in everything the expressions of a single whole whose
giant activities they reverently worshipped. Their contempt for the western
scurry after knowledge, wealth, machinery, was justified, if Farque was worthy
of belief. He seemed saturated with Chinese thought, art, philosophy, and his
natural bias towards the celestial race had hardened into an attitude to life
that had now become ineradicable.
“They deal, as it were, in essences,” he
declared; “they discern the essence of everything, leaving out the superfluous,
the unessential, the trivial. Their pictures alone prove it. Come with me,” he
concluded, “and see the ‘Earthly Paradise,’ now in the British Museum. It is
like Botticelli, but better than anything Botticelli ever did. It was
painted”—he paused for emphasis—“600 years B.C.”
The wonder of this quiet, ancient civilization,
a sense of its depth, its wisdom, grew upon his listener as the enthusiastic
poet described its charm and influence upon himself. He willingly allowed the
enchantment of the other’s Paradise to steal upon his own awakened heart. There
was a good deal Francis might have offered by way of criticism and objection,
but he preferred on the whole[39] to keep his own views to himself, and to
let his friend wander unhindered through the mazes of his passionate evocation.
All men, he well knew, needed a dream to carry them through life’s
disappointments, a dream that they could enter at will and find peace,
contentment, happiness. Farque’s dream was China. Why not? It was as good as another,
and a man like Farque was entitled to what dream he pleased.
“And their women?” he inquired at last, letting
both halves of his mind speak together for the first time.
But he was not prepared for the expression that
leaped upon his friend’s face at the simple question. Nor for his method of
reply. It was no reply, in point of fact. It was simply an attack upon all
other types of woman, and upon the white, the English, in particular—their
emptiness, their triviality, their want of intuitive imagination, of spiritual
grace, of everything, in a word, that should constitute woman a meet companion
for man, and a little higher than the angels into the bargain. The doctor
listened spellbound. Too humorous to be shocked, he was, at any rate, disturbed
by what he heard, displeased a little, too. It threatened too directly his own
new tender dream.
Only with the utmost self-restraint did he keep
his temper under, and prevent hot words he would have regretted later from
tearing his friend’s absurd claim into ragged shreds. He was wounded personally
as well. Never now could he bring himself to tell his own secret to him. The
outburst chilled and disappointed him. But it had another effect—it cooled his
judgment. His sense of diagnosis quickened. He divined an idée fixe, a mania possibly. His interest deepened
abruptly. He watched. He began to look about him with more wary eyes, and a
sense of uneasiness, once the anger passed, stirred in his friendly and
affectionate heart.
They had been sitting alone over their port for
some considerable time, the servant having long since left the room. The doctor
had sought to change the subject many[40] times without much success, when suddenly
Farque changed it for him.
“Now,” he announced, “I’ll tell you something,”
and Francis guessed that the professional questions were on the way at last.
“We must pity the living, remember, and part with the dead. Have you forgotten
old Shan-Yu?”
The forgotten name came back to him, the
picturesque East End dealer of many years ago. “The old merchant who taught you
your first Chinese? I do recall him dimly; now you mention it. You made quite a
friend of him, didn’t you? He thought very highly of you—ah, it comes back to
me now—he offered something or other very wonderful in his gratitude, unless my
memory fails me?”
“His most valuable possession,” Farque went on,
a strange look deepening on his face, an expression of mysterious rapture, as
it were, and one that Francis recognized and swiftly pigeon-holed in his now
attentive mind.
“Which was?” he asked sympathetically. “You told
me once, but so long ago that really it’s slipped my mind. Something magical,
wasn’t it?” He watched closely for his friend’s reply.
Farque lowered his voice to a whisper almost
devotional:
“The Perfume of the Garden of Happiness,” he
murmured, with an expression in his eyes as though the mere recollection gave
him joy. “‘Burn it,’ he told me, ‘in a brazier; then inhale. You will enter the
Valley of a Thousand Temples wherein lies the Garden of Happiness, and there
you will meet your Love. You will have seven years of happiness with your Love
before the Waters of Separation flow between you. I give this to you who alone
of men here have appreciated the wisdom of my land. Follow my body towards the
Sunrise. You, an eastern soul in a barbarian body, will meet your Destiny.’”
The doctor’s attention, such is the power of
self-interest, quickened amazingly as he heard. His own romance[41] flamed
up with power. His friend—it dawned upon him suddenly—loved a woman.
“Come,” said Farque, rising quietly, “we will go
into the other room, and I will show you what I have shown to but one other in
the world before. You are a doctor,” he continued, as he led the way to the
silk-covered divan where golden dragons swallowed crimson suns, and wonderful
jade horses hovered near. “You understand the mind and nerves. States of
consciousness you also can explain, and the effect of drugs is, doubtless,
known to you.” He swung to the heavy curtains that took the place of door,
handed a lacquered box of cigarettes to his friend, and lit one himself.
“Perfumes, too,” he added, “you probably have studied, with their extraordinary
evocative power.” He stood in the middle of the room, the green light falling
on his interesting and thoughtful face, and for a passing second Francis,
watching keenly, observed a change flit over it and vanish. The eyes grew
narrow and slid tilted upwards, the skin wore a shade of yellow underneath the
green from the lamp of jade, the nose slipped back a little, the cheek-bones forward.
“Perfumes,” said the doctor, “no. Of perfumes I
know nothing, beyond their interesting effect upon the memory. I cannot help
you there. But, you, I suspect,” and he looked up with an inviting sympathy
that concealed the close observation underneath, “you yourself, I feel sure,
can tell me something of value about them?”
“Perhaps,” was the calm reply, “perhaps, for I
have smelt the perfume of the Garden of Happiness, and I have been in the
Valley of a Thousand Temples.” He spoke with a glow of joy and reverence almost
devotional.
The doctor waited in some suspense, while his
friend moved towards an inlaid cabinet across the room. More than broad-minded,
he was that much rarer thing, an open-minded man, ready at a moment’s notice to
discard all preconceived ideas, provided new knowledge that[42] necessitated
the holocaust were shown to him. At present, none the less, he held very
definite views of his own. “Please ask me any questions you like,” he added.
“All I know is entirely yours, as always.” He was aware of suppressed
excitement in his friend that betrayed itself in every word and look and
gesture, an excitement intense, and not as yet explained by anything he had
seen or heard.
The scholar, meanwhile, had opened a drawer in
the cabinet and taken from it a neat little packet tied up with purple silk. He
held it with tender, almost loving care, as he came and sat down on the divan
beside his friend.
“This,” he said, in a tone, again, of something
between reverence and worship, “contains what I have to show you first.” He
slowly unrolled it, disclosing a yet smaller silken bag within, coloured a deep
rich orange. There were two vertical columns of writing on it, painted in
Chinese characters. The doctor leaned forward to examine them. His friend translated:
“The Perfume of the Garden of Happiness,” he
read aloud, tracing the letters of the first column with his finger. “The
Destroyer of Honourable Homes,” he finished, passing to the second, and then
proceeded to unwrap the little silken bag. Before it was actually open,
however, and the pale shredded material resembling coloured chaff visible to
the eyes, the doctor’s nostrils had recognized the strange aroma he had first
noticed about his friend’s letter received earlier in the day. The same soft,
penetrating odour, sharply piercing, sweet and delicate, rose to his brain. It
stirred at once a deep emotional pleasure in him. Having come to him first when
he was aglow with his own unexpected romance, his mind and heart full of the
woman he had just left, that delicious, torturing state revived in him quite
naturally. The evocative power of perfume with regard to memory is compelling.
A livelier sympathy towards his friend, and towards what he was about to hear,
awoke in him spontaneously.[43]
He did not mention the letter, however. He
merely leaned over to smell the fragrant perfume more easily.
Farque drew back the open packet instantly, at
the same time holding out a warning hand. “Careful,” he said gravely, “be
careful, my old friend—unless you desire to share the rapture and the risk that
have been mine. To enjoy its full effect, true, this dust must be burned in a
brazier and its smoke inhaled; but even sniffed, as you now would sniff it, and
you are in danger——”
“Of what?” asked Francis, impressed by the
other’s extraordinary intensity of voice and manner.
“Of Heaven; but, possibly, of Heaven before your
time.”
4
The tale that Farque unfolded then had certainly
a strange celestial flavour, a glory not of this dull world; and as his friend
listened, his interest deepened with every minute, while his bewilderment
increased. He watched closely, expert that he was, for clues that might guide
his deductions aright, but for all his keen observation and experience he could
detect no inconsistency, no weakness, nothing that betrayed the smallest mental
aberration. The origin and nature of what he already decided was an idée fixe, a mania, evaded him entirely. This evasion
piqued and vexed him; he had heard a thousand tales of similar type before;
that this one in particular should baffle his unusual skill touched his pride.
Yet he faced the position honestly, he confessed himself baffled until the end
of the evening. When he went away, however, he went away satisfied, even
forgetful—because a new problem of yet more poignant interest had replaced the
first.
“It was after three years out there,” said
Farque, “that a sense of my loneliness first came upon me. It came upon me
bitterly. My work had not then been recognized; obstacles and difficulties had
increased; I felt a failure; I had accomplished nothing. And it seemed to me I
had misjudged[44] my
capacities, taken a wrong direction, and wasted my life accordingly. For my
move to China, remember, was a radical move, and my boats were burnt behind me.
This sense of loneliness was really devastating.”
Francis, already fidgeting, put up his hand.
“One question, if I may,” he said, “and I’ll not
interrupt again.”
“By all means,” said the other patiently, “what
is it?”
“Were you—we are such old friends”—he
apologized—“were you still celibate as ever?”
Farque looked surprised, then smiled. “My habits
had not changed,” he replied, “I was, as always, celibate.”
“Ah!” murmured the doctor, and settled down to
listen.
“And I think now,” his friend went on, “that it
was the lack of companionship that first turned my thoughts towards conscious
disappointment. However that may be, it was one evening, as I walked homewards
to my little house, that I caught my imagination lingering upon English
memories, though chiefly, I admit, upon my old Chinese tutor, the dead Shan-Yu.
“It was dusk, the stars were coming out in the
pale evening air, and the orchards, as I passed them, stood like wavering
ghosts of unbelievable beauty. The effect of thousands upon thousands of these
trees, flooding the twilight of a spring evening with their sea of blossom, is
almost unearthly. They seem transparencies, their colour hangs sheets upon the
very sky. I crossed a small wooden bridge that joined two of these orchards
above a stream, and in the dark water I watched a moment the mingled reflection
of stars and flowering branches on the quiet surface. It seemed too exquisite
to belong to earth, this fairy garden of stars and blossoms, shining faintly in
the crystal depths, and my thought, as I gazed, dived suddenly down the little
avenue that memory opened into former days. I remembered Shan-Yu’s present,
given to me when he died. His very words came back to me: The Garden of
Happiness in the Valley of the Thousand Temples,[45] with its promise of love, of seven years
of happiness, and the prophecy that I should follow his body towards the
Sunrise and meet my destiny.
“This memory I took home with me into my lonely
little one-storey house upon the hill. My servants did not sleep there. There
was no one near. I sat by the open window with my thoughts, and you may easily
guess that before very long I had unearthed the long-forgotten packet from
among my things, spread a portion of its contents on a metal tray above a
lighted brazier, and was comfortably seated before it, inhaling the light blue
smoke with its exquisite and fragrant perfume.
“A light air entered through the window, the
distant orchards below me trembled, rose and floated through the dusk, and I
found myself, almost at once, in a pavilion of flowers; a blue river lay
shining in the sun before me, as it wandered through a lovely valley where I
saw groves of flowering trees among a thousand scattered temples. Drenched in
light and colour, the Valley lay dreaming amid a peaceful loveliness that woke
what seemed impossible, unrealizable, longings in my heart. I yearned towards
its groves and temples, I would bathe my soul in that flood of tender light,
and my body in the blue coolness of that winding river. In a thousand temples
must I worship. Yet these impossible yearnings instantly were satisfied. I
found myself there at once ... and the time that passed over my head you may
reckon in centuries, if not in ages. I was in the Garden of Happiness and its
marvellous perfume banished time and sorrow, there was no end to chill the
soul, nor any beginning, which is its foolish counterpart.
“Nor was there loneliness.” The speaker clasped
his thin hands, and closed his eyes a moment in what was evidently an ecstasy
of the sweetest memory man may ever know. A slight trembling ran through his
frame, communicating itself to his friend upon the divan beside him—this
understanding, listening, sympathetic friend, whose[46] eyes had never once yet withdrawn their
attentive gaze from the narrator’s face.
“I was not alone,” the scholar resumed, opening
his eyes again, and smiling out of some deep inner joy. “Shan-Yu came down the
steps of the first temple and took my hand, while the great golden figures in
the dim interior turned their splendid shining heads to watch. Then, breathing
the soul of his ancient wisdom in my ear, he led me through all the perfumed
ways of that enchanted garden, worshipping with me at a hundred deathless
shrines, led me, I tell you, to the sound of soft gongs and gentle bells, by
fragrant groves and sparkling streams, mid a million gorgeous flowers, until,
beneath that unsetting sun, we reached the heart of the Valley, where the
source of the river gushed forth beneath the lighted mountains. He stopped and
pointed across the narrow waters. I saw the woman——”
“The woman,” his listener murmured
beneath his breath, though Farque seemed unaware of interruption.
“She smiled at me and held her hands out, and
while she did so, even before I could express my joy and wonder in response,
Shan-Yu, I saw, had crossed the narrow stream and stood beside her. I made to
follow then, my heart burning with inexpressible delight. But Shan-Yu held up
his hand, as they began to move down the flowered bank together, making a sign
that I should keep pace with them, though on my own side.
“Thus, side by side, yet with the blue sparkling
stream between us, we followed back along its winding course, through the heart
of that enchanted valley, my hands stretched out towards the radiant figure of
my Love, and hers stretched out towards me. They did not touch, but our eyes,
our smiles, our thoughts, these met and mingled in a sweet union of unimagined
bliss, so that the absence of physical contact was unnoticed and laid no injury
on our marvellous joy. It was a spirit union, and our kiss a spirit kiss.
Therein lay the subtlety and glory of the[47] Chinese wonder, for it was our essences that met, and for such union there is no
satiety and, equally, no possible end. The Perfume of the Garden of Happiness
is an essence. We were in Eternity.
“The stream, meanwhile, widened between us, and
as it widened, my Love grew farther from me in space, smaller, less visibly
defined, yet ever essentially more perfect, and never once with a sense of
distance that made our union less divinely close. Across the widening reaches
of blue, sunlit water I still knew her smile, her eyes, the gestures of her
radiant being; I saw her exquisite reflection in the stream; and, mid the music
of those soft gongs and gentle bells, the voice of Shan-Yu came like a melody
to my ears:
“‘You have followed me into the sunrise, and
have found your destiny. Behold now your Love. In this Valley of a Thousand
Temples you have known the Garden of Happiness, and its Perfume your soul now
inhales.’
“‘I am bathed,’ I answered, ‘in a happiness
divine. It is forever.’
“‘The Waters of Separation,’ his answer floated
like a bell, ‘lie widening between you.’
“I moved nearer to the bank, impelled by the
pain in his words to take my Love and hold her to my breast.
“‘But I would cross to her,’ I cried, and saw
that, as I moved, Shan-Yu and my Love came likewise closer to the water’s edge
across the widening river. They both obeyed, I was aware, my slightest wish.
“‘Seven years of Happiness you may know,’ sang
his gentle tones across the brimming flood, ‘if you would cross to her. Yet the
Destroyer of Honourable Homes lies in the shadows that you must cast outside.’
“I heard his words, I noticed for the first time
that in the blaze of this radiant sunshine we cast no shadows on the sea of flowers
at our feet, and—I stretched out my arms towards my Love across the river.
“‘I accept my destiny,’ I cried, ‘I will have my
seven[48] years
of bliss,’ and stepped forward into the running flood. As the cool water took
my feet, my Love’s hands stretched out both to hold me and to bid me stay.
There was acceptance in her gesture, but there was warning too.
“I did not falter. I advanced until the water
bathed my knees, and my Love, too, came to meet me, the stream already to her
waist, while our arms stretched forth above the running flood towards each
other.
“The change came suddenly. Shan-Yu first faded
behind her advancing figure into air; there stole a chill upon the sunlight; a
cool mist rose from the water, hiding the Garden and the hills beyond; our
fingers touched, I gazed into her eyes, our lips lay level with the water—and
the room was dark and cold about me. The brazier stood extinguished at my side.
The dust had burnt out, and no smoke rose. I slowly left my chair and closed
the window, for the air was chill.”
5
It was difficult at first to return to Hampstead
and the details of ordinary life about him. Francis looked round him slowly,
freeing himself gradually from the spell his friend’s words had laid even upon
his analytical temperament. The transition was helped, however, by the details
that everywhere met his eye. The Chinese atmosphere remained. More, its effect
had gained, if anything. The embroideries of yellow gold, the pictures, the
lacquered stools and inlaid cabinets, above all, the exquisite figures in green
jade upon the shelf beside him, all this, in the shimmering pale olive light
the lamps shed everywhere, helped his puzzled mind to bridge the gulf from the
Garden of Happiness into the decorated villa upon Hampstead Heath.
There was silence between the two men for
several minutes. Far was it from the doctor’s desire to injure his old friend’s
delightful fantasy. For he called it fantasy,[49] although something in him trembled. He
remained, therefore, silent. Truth to tell, perhaps, he knew not exactly what
to say.
Farque broke the silence himself. He had not
moved since the story ended; he sat motionless, his hands tightly clasped, his
eyes alight with the memory of his strange imagined joy, his face rapt and
almost luminous, as though he still wandered through the groves of the
Enchanted Garden and inhaled the perfume of its perfect happiness in the Valley
of the Thousand Temples.
“It was two days later,” he went on suddenly in
his quiet voice, “only two days afterwards, that I met her.”
“You met her? You met the woman of your dream?”
Francis’s eyes opened very wide.
“In that little harbour town,” repeated Farque
calmly, “I met her in the flesh. She had just landed in a steamer from up the
coast. The details are of no particular interest. She knew me, of course, at
once. And, naturally, I knew her.”
The doctor’s tongue refused to act as he heard.
It dawned upon him suddenly that his friend was married. He remembered the
woman’s touch about the house; he recalled, too, for the first time that the
letter of invitation to dinner had said “come to us.” He was full
of a bewildered astonishment.
The reaction upon himself was odd, perhaps, yet
wholly natural. His heart warmed towards his imaginative friend. He could now
tell him his own new strange romance. The woman who haunted him crept back into
the room and sat between them. He found his tongue.
“You married her, Edward?” he exclaimed.
“She is my wife,” was the reply, in a gentle,
happy voice.
“A Ch——” he could not bring himself to say the
word. “A foreigner?”
“My wife is a Chinese woman,” Farque helped him
easily, with a delighted smile.[50]
So great was the other’s absorption in the
actual moment, that he had not heard the step in the passage that his host had
heard. The latter stood up suddenly.
“I hear her now,” he said. “I’m glad she’s come
back before you left.” He stepped towards the door.
But before he reached it, the door was opened
and in came the woman herself. Francis tried to rise, but something had
happened to him. His heart missed a beat. Something, it seemed, broke in him.
He faced a tall, graceful young English woman with black eyes of sparkling
happiness, the woman of his own romance. She still wore the feather boa round
her neck. She was no more Chinese than he was.
“My wife,” he heard Farque introducing them, as
he struggled to his feet, searching feverishly for words of congratulation,
normal, everyday words he ought to use, “I’m so pleased, oh, so pleased,”
Farque was saying—he heard the sound from a distance, his sight was blurred as
well—“my two best friends in the world, my English comrade and my Chinese
wife.” His voice was absolutely sincere with conviction and belief.
“But we have already met,” came the woman’s
delightful voice, her eyes full upon his face with smiling pleasure, “I saw you
at Mrs. Malleson’s tea only this afternoon.”
And Francis remembered suddenly that the
Mallesons were old acquaintances of Farque’s as well as of himself. “And I even
dared to ask who you were,” the voice went on, floating from some other space,
it seemed, to his ears, “I had you pointed out to me. I had heard of you from
Edward, of course. But you vanished before I could be introduced.”
The doctor mumbled something or other polite
and, he hoped, adequate. But the truth had flashed upon him with remorseless
suddenness. She had “heard of” him—the famous mental specialist. Her interest
in him was cruelly explained, cruelly both for himself and for his friend.
Farque’s delusion lay clear before his eyes. An awakening[51] to
reality might involve dislocation of the mind. She, too, moreover,
knew the truth. She was involved as well. And her interest in himself
was—consultation.
“Seven years we’ve been married, just seven
years to-day,” Farque was saying thoughtfully, as he looked at them. “Curious,
rather, isn’t it?”
“Very,” said Francis, turning his regard from
the black eyes to the grey.
Thus it was that Owen Francis left the house a
little later with a mind in a measure satisfied, yet in a measure forgetful
too—forgetful of his own deep problem, because another of even greater interest
had replaced it.
“Why undeceive him?” ran his thought. “He need
never know. It’s harmless anyhow—I can tell her that.”
But, side by side with this reflection, ran
another that was oddly haunting, considering his type of mind: “Destroyer of
Honourable Homes,” was the form of words it took. And with a sigh he added
“Chinese Magic.”
3.RUNNING WOLF
THE man who enjoys an adventure outside the
general experience of the race, and imparts it to others, must not be surprised
if he is taken for either a liar or a fool, as Malcolm Hyde, hotel clerk on a
holiday, discovered in due course. Nor is “enjoy” the right word to use in
describing his emotions; the word he chose was probably “survive.”
When he first set eyes on Medicine Lake he was
struck by its still, sparkling beauty, lying there in the vast Canadian
backwoods; next, by its extreme loneliness; and, lastly—a good deal later,
this—by its combination of beauty, loneliness, and singular atmosphere, due to the
fact that it was the scene of his adventure.
“It’s fairly stiff with big fish,” said Morton
of the Montreal Sporting Club. “Spend your holiday there—up Mattawa way, some
fifteen miles west of Stony Creek. You’ll have it all to yourself except for an
old Indian who’s got a shack there. Camp on the east side—if you’ll take a tip
from me.” He then talked for half an hour about the wonderful sport; yet he was
not otherwise very communicative, and did not suffer questions gladly, Hyde
noticed. Nor had he stayed there very long himself. If it was such a paradise
as Morton, its discoverer and the most experienced rod in the province,
claimed, why had he himself spent only three days there?
“Ran short of grub,” was the explanation
offered; but to another friend he had mentioned briefly, “flies,” and to a
third, so Hyde learned later, he gave the excuse that his[53] half-breed
“took sick,” necessitating a quick return to civilization.
Hyde, however, cared little for the
explanations; his interest in these came later. “Stiff with fish” was the
phrase he liked. He took the Canadian Pacific train to Mattawa, laid in his
outfit at Stony Creek, and set off thence for the fifteen-mile canoe-trip
without a care in the world.
Travelling light, the portages did not trouble him;
the water was swift and easy, the rapids negotiable; everything came his way,
as the saying is. Occasionally he saw big fish making for the deeper pools, and
was sorely tempted to stop; but he resisted. He pushed on between the immense
world of forests that stretched for hundreds of miles, known to deer, bear,
moose, and wolf, but strange to any echo of human tread, a deserted and
primeval wilderness. The autumn day was calm, the water sang and sparkled, the
blue sky hung cloudless over all, ablaze with light. Toward evening he passed
an old beaver-dam, rounded a little point, and had his first sight of Medicine
Lake. He lifted his dripping paddle; the canoe shot with silent glide into calm
water. He gave an exclamation of delight, for the loveliness caught his breath
away.
Though primarily a sportsman, he was not
insensible to beauty. The lake formed a crescent, perhaps four miles long, its
width between a mile and half a mile. The slanting gold of sunset flooded it.
No wind stirred its crystal surface. Here it had lain since the redskin’s god
first made it; here it would lie until he dried it up again. Towering spruce
and hemlock trooped to its very edge, majestic cedars leaned down as if to
drink, crimson sumachs shone in fiery patches, and maples gleamed orange and
red beyond belief. The air was like wine, with the silence of a dream.
It was here the red men formerly “made
medicine,” with all the wild ritual and tribal ceremony of an ancient day. But
it was of Morton, rather than of Indians, that[54] Hyde thought. If this lonely, hidden
paradise was really stiff with big fish, he owed a lot to Morton for the
information. Peace invaded him, but the excitement of the hunter lay below.
He looked about him with quick, practised eye
for a camping-place before the sun sank below the forests and the half-lights
came. The Indian’s shack, lying in full sunshine on the eastern shore, he found
at once; but the trees lay too thick about it for comfort, nor did he wish to
be so close to its inhabitant. Upon the opposite side, however, an ideal
clearing offered. This lay already in shadow, the huge forest darkening it
toward evening; but the open space attracted. He paddled over quickly and
examined it. The ground was hard and dry, he found, and a little brook ran tinkling
down one side of it into the lake. This outfall, too, would be a good fishing
spot. Also it was sheltered. A few low willows marked the mouth.
An experienced camper soon makes up his mind. It
was a perfect site, and some charred logs, with traces of former fires, proved
that he was not the first to think so. Hyde was delighted. Then, suddenly,
disappointment came to tinge his pleasure. His kit was landed, and preparations
for putting up the tent were begun, when he recalled a detail that excitement had
so far kept in the background of his mind—Morton’s advice. But not Morton’s
only, for the storekeeper at Stony Creek had reinforced it. The big fellow with
straggling moustache and stooping shoulders, dressed in shirt and trousers, had
handed him out a final sentence with the bacon, flour, condensed milk, and
sugar. He had repeated Morton’s half-forgotten words:
“Put yer tent on the east shore. I should,” he
had said at parting.
He remembered Morton, too, apparently. “A
shortish fellow, brown as an Indian and fairly smelling of the woods.
Travelling with Jake, the half-breed.” That[55] assuredly was Morton. “Didn’t stay long,
now, did he?” he added in a reflective tone.
“Going Windy Lake way, are yer? Or Ten Mile
Water, maybe?” he had first inquired of Hyde.
“Medicine Lake.”
“Is that so?” the man said, as though he doubted
it for some obscure reason. He pulled at his ragged moustache a moment. “Is
that so, now?” he repeated. And the final words followed him down-stream after
a considerable pause—the advice about the best shore on which to put his tent.
All this now suddenly flashed back upon Hyde’s
mind with a tinge of disappointment and annoyance, for when two experienced men
agreed, their opinion was not to be lightly disregarded. He wished he had asked
the storekeeper for more details. He looked about him, he reflected, he
hesitated. His ideal camping-ground lay certainly on the forbidden shore. What
in the world, he pondered, could be the objection to it?
But the light was fading; he must decide quickly
one way or the other. After staring at his unpacked dunnage and the tent,
already half erected, he made up his mind with a muttered expression that
consigned both Morton and the storekeeper to less pleasant places. “They must
have some reason,” he growled to himself; “fellows like that
usually know what they’re talking about. I guess I’d better shift over to the
other side—for to-night, at any rate.”
He glanced across the water before actually
reloading. No smoke rose from the Indian’s shack. He had seen no sign of a
canoe. The man, he decided, was away. Reluctantly, then, he left the good
camping-ground and paddled across the lake, and half an hour later his tent was
up, firewood collected, and two small trout were already caught for supper. But
the bigger fish, he knew, lay waiting for him on the other side by the little
outfall, and he fell asleep at length on his bed of balsam boughs,[56] annoyed
and disappointed, yet wondering how a mere sentence could have persuaded him so
easily against his own better judgment. He slept like the dead; the sun was
well up before he stirred.
But his morning mood was a very different one.
The brilliant light, the peace, the intoxicating air, all this was too
exhilarating for the mind to harbour foolish fancies, and he marvelled that he
could have been so weak the night before. No hesitation lay in him anywhere. He
struck camp immediately after breakfast, paddled back across the strip of
shining water, and quickly settled in upon the forbidden shore, as he now
called it, with a contemptuous grin. And the more he saw of the spot, the
better he liked it. There was plenty of wood, running water to drink, an open
space about the tent, and there were no flies. The fishing, moreover, was
magnificent. Morton’s description was fully justified, and “stiff with big
fish” for once was not an exaggeration.
The useless hours of the early afternoon he
passed dozing in the sun, or wandering through the underbrush beyond the camp.
He found no sign of anything unusual. He bathed in a cool, deep pool; he
revelled in the lonely little paradise. Lonely it certainly was, but the
loneliness was part of its charm; the stillness, the peace, the isolation of
this beautiful backwoods lake delighted him. The silence was divine. He was
entirely satisfied.
After a brew of tea, he strolled toward evening
along the shore, looking for the first sign of a rising fish. A faint ripple on
the water, with the lengthening shadows, made good conditions. Plop followed plop,
as the big fellows rose, snatched at their food, and vanished into the depths.
He hurried back. Ten minutes later he had taken his rods and was gliding
cautiously in the canoe through the quiet water.
So good was the sport, indeed, and so quickly
did the big trout pile up in the bottom of the canoe that, despite the growing
lateness, he found it hard to tear himself[57] away. “One more,” he said, “and then I
really will go.” He landed that “one more,” and was in act of taking it off the
hook, when the deep silence of the evening was curiously disturbed. He became
abruptly aware that someone watched him. A pair of eyes, it seemed, were fixed
upon him from some point in the surrounding shadows.
Thus, at least, he interpreted the odd
disturbance in his happy mood; for thus he felt it. The feeling stole over him
without the slightest warning. He was not alone. The slippery big trout dropped
from his fingers. He sat motionless, and stared about him.
Nothing stirred; the ripple on the lake had died
away; there was no wind; the forest lay a single purple mass of shadow; the
yellow sky, fast fading, threw reflections that troubled the eye and made
distances uncertain. But there was no sound, no movement; he saw no figure
anywhere. Yet he knew that someone watched him, and a wave of quite unreasoning
terror gripped him. The nose of the canoe was against the bank. In a moment,
and instinctively, he shoved it off and paddled into deeper water. The watcher,
it came to him also instinctively, was quite close to him upon that bank. But
where? And who? Was it the Indian?
Here, in deeper water, and some twenty yards
from the shore, he paused and strained both sight and hearing to find some
possible clue. He felt half ashamed, now that the first strange feeling passed
a little. But the certainty remained. Absurd as it was, he felt positive that
someone watched him with concentrated and intent regard. Every fibre in his
being told him so; and though he could discover no figure, no new outline on
the shore, he could even have sworn in which clump of willow bushes the hidden person
crouched and stared. His attention seemed drawn to that particular clump.
The water dripped slowly from his paddle, now
lying across the thwarts. There was no other sound. The canvas[58] of
his tent gleamed dimly. A star or two were out. He waited. Nothing happened.
Then, as suddenly as it had come, the feeling
passed, and he knew that the person who had been watching him intently had
gone. It was as if a current had been turned off; the normal world flowed back;
the landscape emptied as if someone had left a room. The disagreeable feeling
left him at the same time, so that he instantly turned the canoe in to the
shore again, landed, and, paddle in hand, went over to examine the clump of
willows he had singled out as the place of concealment. There was no one there,
of course, nor any trace of recent human occupancy. No leaves, no branches
stirred, nor was a single twig displaced; his keen and practised sight detected
no sign of tracks upon the ground. Yet, for all that, he felt positive that a
little time ago someone had crouched among these very leaves and watched him.
He remained absolutely convinced of it. The watcher, whether Indian, hunter,
stray lumberman, or wandering half-breed, had now withdrawn, a search was
useless, and dusk was falling. He returned to his little camp, more disturbed
perhaps than he cared to acknowledge. He cooked his supper, hung up his catch
on a string, so that no prowling animal could get at it during the night, and
prepared to make himself comfortable until bedtime. Unconsciously, he built a
bigger fire than usual, and found himself peering over his pipe into the deep
shadows beyond the firelight, straining his ears to catch the slightest sound.
He remained generally on the alert in a way that was new to him.
A man under such conditions and in such a place
need not know discomfort until the sense of loneliness strikes him as too vivid
a reality. Loneliness in a backwoods camp brings charm, pleasure, and a happy
sense of calm until, and unless, it comes too near. It should remain an
ingredient only among other conditions; it should not be directly, vividly
noticed. Once it has crept within short range, however, it may easily cross the
narrow line between[59] comfort and discomfort, and darkness is an
undesirable time for the transition. A curious dread may easily follow—the
dread lest the loneliness suddenly be disturbed, and the solitary human feel
himself open to attack.
For Hyde, now, this transition had been already
accomplished; the too intimate sense of his loneliness had shifted abruptly
into the worse condition of no longer being quite alone. It was an awkward
moment, and the hotel clerk realized his position exactly. He did not quite
like it. He sat there, with his back to the blazing logs, a very visible object
in the light, while all about him the darkness of the forest lay like an
impenetrable wall. He could not see a foot beyond the small circle of his
camp-fire; the silence about him was like the silence of the dead. No leaf
rustled, no wave lapped; he himself sat motionless as a log.
Then again he became suddenly aware that the
person who watched him had returned, and that same intent and concentrated gaze
as before was fixed upon him where he lay. There was no warning; he heard no
stealthy tread or snapping of dry twigs, yet the owner of those steady eyes was
very close to him, probably not a dozen feet away. This sense of proximity was
overwhelming.
It is unquestionable that a shiver ran down his
spine. This time, moreover, he felt positive that the man crouched just beyond
the firelight, the distance he himself could see being nicely calculated, and
straight in front of him. For some minutes he sat without stirring a single
muscle, yet with each muscle ready and alert, straining his eyes in vain to
pierce the darkness, but only succeeding in dazzling his sight with the
reflected light. Then, as he shifted his position slowly, cautiously, to obtain
another angle of vision, his heart gave two big thumps against his ribs and the
hair seemed to rise on his scalp with the sense of cold that shot horribly up
his spine. In the darkness facing him he saw two small and greenish circles
that were certainly a pair of eyes, yet not the eyes of Indian,[60] hunter,
or of any human being. It was a pair of animal eyes that stared so fixedly at
him out of the night. And this certainly had an immediate and natural effect
upon him.
For, at the menace of those eyes, the fears of
millions of long dead hunters since the dawn of time woke in him. Hotel clerk
though he was, heredity surged through him in an automatic wave of instinct.
His hand groped for a weapon. His fingers fell on the iron head of his small
camp axe, and at once he was himself again. Confidence returned; the vague,
superstitious dread was gone. This was a bear or wolf that smelt his catch and
came to steal it. With beings of that sort he knew instinctively how to deal,
yet admitting, by this very instinct, that his original dread had been of quite
another kind.
“I’ll damned quick find out what it is,” he
exclaimed aloud, and snatching a burning brand from the fire, he hurled it with
good aim straight at the eyes of the beast before him.
The bit of pitch-pine fell in a shower of sparks
that lit the dry grass this side of the animal, flared up a moment, then died
quickly down again. But in that instant of bright illumination he saw clearly
what his unwelcome visitor was. A big timber wolf sat on its hindquarters,
staring steadily at him through the firelight. He saw its legs and shoulders,
he saw its hair, he saw also the big hemlock trunks lit up behind it, and the
willow scrub on each side. It formed a vivid, clear-cut picture shown in clear
detail by the momentary blaze. To his amazement, however, the wolf did not turn
and bolt away from the burning log, but withdrew a few yards only, and sat
there again on its haunches, staring, staring as before. Heavens, how it
stared! He “shoo-ed” it, but without effect; it did not budge. He did not waste
another good log on it, for his fear was dissipated now; a timber wolf was a
timber wolf, and it might sit there as long as it pleased, provided it did not
try to steal his catch. No alarm was in[61] him any more. He knew that wolves were
harmless in the summer and autumn, and even when “packed” in the winter, they
would attack a man only when suffering desperate hunger. So he lay and watched
the beast, threw bits of stick in its direction, even talked to it, wondering
only that it never moved. “You can stay there for ever, if you like,” he
remarked to it aloud, “for you cannot get at my fish, and the rest of the grub
I shall take into the tent with me!”
The creature blinked its bright green eyes, but
made no move.
Why, then, if his fear was gone, did he think of
certain things as he rolled himself in the Hudson Bay blankets before going to sleep?
The immobility of the animal was strange, its refusal to turn and bolt was
still stranger. Never before had he known a wild creature that was not afraid
of fire. Why did it sit and watch him, as with purpose in its dreadful eyes?
How had he felt its presence earlier and instantly? A timber wolf, especially a
solitary timber wolf, was a timid thing, yet this one feared neither man nor
fire. Now, as he lay there wrapped in his blankets inside the cosy tent, it sat
outside beneath the stars, beside the fading embers, the wind chilly in its
fur, the ground cooling beneath its planted paws, watching him, steadily
watching him, perhaps until the dawn.
It was unusual, it was strange. Having neither
imagination nor tradition, he called upon no store of racial visions. Matter of
fact, a hotel clerk on a fishing holiday, he lay there in his blankets, merely
wondering and puzzled. A timber wolf was a timber wolf and nothing more. Yet
this timber wolf—the idea haunted him—was different. In a word, the deeper part
of his original uneasiness remained. He tossed about, he shivered sometimes in
his broken sleep; he did not go out to see, but he woke early and unrefreshed.
Again, with the sunshine and the morning wind,
however,[62] the
incident of the night before was forgotten, almost unreal. His hunting zeal was
uppermost. The tea and fish were delicious, his pipe had never tasted so good,
the glory of this lonely lake amid primeval forests went to his head a little;
he was a hunter before the Lord, and nothing else. He tried the edge of the
lake, and in the excitement of playing a big fish, knew suddenly that it,
the wolf, was there. He paused with the rod, exactly as if struck. He looked
about him, he looked in a definite direction. The brilliant sunshine made every
smallest detail clear and sharp—boulders of granite, burned stems, crimson
sumach, pebbles along the shore in neat, separate detail—without revealing
where the watcher hid. Then, his sight wandering farther inshore among the
tangled undergrowth, he suddenly picked up the familiar, half-expected outline.
The wolf was lying behind a granite boulder, so that only the head, the muzzle,
and the eyes were visible. It merged in its background. Had he not known it was
a wolf, he could never have separated it from the landscape. The eyes shone in
the sunlight.
There it lay. He looked straight at it. Their
eyes, in fact, actually met full and square. “Great Scott!” he exclaimed aloud,
“why, it’s like looking at a human being!” From that moment, unwittingly, he
established a singular personal relation with the beast. And what followed
confirmed this undesirable impression, for the animal rose instantly and came
down in leisurely fashion to the shore, where it stood looking back at him. It
stood and stared into his eyes like some great wild dog, so that he was aware
of a new and almost incredible sensation—that it courted recognition.
“Well! well!” he exclaimed again, relieving his
feelings by addressing it aloud, “if this doesn’t beat everything I ever saw!
What d’you want, anyway?”
He examined it now more carefully. He had never
seen a wolf so big before; it was a tremendous beast, a nasty customer to
tackle, he reflected, if it ever came to[63] that. It stood there absolutely fearless
and full of confidence. In the clear sunlight he took in every detail of it—a
huge, shaggy, lean-flanked timber wolf, its wicked eyes staring straight into
his own, almost with a kind of purpose in them. He saw its great jaws, its
teeth, and its tongue, hung out, dropping saliva a little. And yet the idea of
its savagery, its fierceness, was very little in him.
He was amazed and puzzled beyond belief. He
wished the Indian would come back. He did not understand this strange behaviour
in an animal. Its eyes, the odd expression in them, gave him a queer, unusual,
difficult feeling. Had his nerves gone wrong, he almost wondered.
The beast stood on the shore and looked at him.
He wished for the first time that he had brought a rifle. With a resounding
smack he brought his paddle down flat upon the water, using all his strength,
till the echoes rang as from a pistol-shot that was audible from one end of the
lake to the other. The wolf never stirred. He shouted, but the beast remained
unmoved. He blinked his eyes, speaking as to a dog, a domestic animal, a
creature accustomed to human ways. It blinked its eyes in return.
At length, increasing his distance from the
shore, he continued fishing, and the excitement of the marvellous sport held
his attention—his surface attention, at any rate. At times he almost forgot the
attendant beast; yet whenever he looked up, he saw it there. And worse; when he
slowly paddled home again, he observed it trotting along the shore as though to
keep him company. Crossing a little bay, he spurted, hoping to reach the other point
before his undesired and undesirable attendant. Instantly the brute broke into
that rapid, tireless lope that, except on ice, can run down anything on four
legs in the woods. When he reached the distant point, the wolf was waiting for
him. He raised his paddle from the water, pausing a moment for reflection; for
this very close attention—there were dusk and night yet to come—he certainly
did not relish. His camp was near; he had to land; he felt[64] uncomfortable
even in the sunshine of broad day, when, to his keen relief, about half a mile
from the tent, he saw the creature suddenly stop and sit down in the open. He
waited a moment, then paddled on. It did not follow. There was no attempt to
move; it merely sat and watched him. After a few hundred yards, he looked back.
It was still sitting where he left it. And the absurd, yet significant, feeling
came to him that the beast divined his thought, his anxiety, his dread, and was
now showing him, as well as it could, that it entertained no hostile feeling
and did not meditate attack.
He turned the canoe toward the shore; he landed;
he cooked his supper in the dusk; the animal made no sign. Not far away it
certainly lay and watched, but it did not advance. And to Hyde, observant now
in a new way, came one sharp, vivid reminder of the strange atmosphere into
which his commonplace personality had strayed: he suddenly recalled that his
relations with the beast, already established, had progressed distinctly a
stage further. This startled him, yet without the accompanying alarm he must
certainly have felt twenty-four hours before. He had an understanding with the
wolf. He was aware of friendly thoughts toward it. He even went so far as to
set out a few big fish on the spot where he had first seen it sitting the previous
night. “If he comes,” he thought, “he is welcome to them. I’ve got plenty,
anyway.” He thought of it now as “he.”
Yet the wolf made no appearance until he was in
the act of entering his tent a good deal later. It was close on ten o’clock,
whereas nine was his hour, and late at that, for turning in. He had, therefore,
unconsciously been waiting for him. Then, as he was closing the flap, he saw
the eyes close to where he had placed the fish. He waited, hiding himself, and
expecting to hear sounds of munching jaws; but all was silence. Only the eyes
glowed steadily out of the background of pitch darkness.[65] He closed the flap. He had no slightest
fear. In ten minutes he was sound asleep.
He could not have slept very long, for when he
woke up he could see the shine of a faint red light through the canvas, and the
fire had not died down completely. He rose and cautiously peeped out. The air
was very cold; he saw his breath. But he also saw the wolf, for it had come in,
and was sitting by the dying embers, not two yards away from where he crouched
behind the flap. And this time, at these very close quarters, there was
something in the attitude of the big wild thing that caught his attention with
a vivid thrill of startled surprise and a sudden shock of cold that held him
spellbound. He stared, unable to believe his eyes; for the wolf’s attitude
conveyed to him something familiar that at first he was unable to explain. Its
pose reached him in the terms of another thing with which he was entirely at
home. What was it? Did his senses betray him? Was he still asleep and dreaming?
Then, suddenly, with a start of uncanny
recognition, he knew. Its attitude was that of a dog. Having found the clue,
his mind then made an awful leap. For it was, after all, no dog its appearance
aped, but something nearer to himself, and more familiar still. Good heavens!
It sat there with the pose, the attitude, the gesture in repose of something
almost human. And then, with a second shock of biting wonder, it came to him
like a revelation. The wolf sat beside that camp-fire as a man might sit.
Before he could weigh his extraordinary
discovery, before he could examine it in detail or with care, the animal,
sitting in this ghastly fashion, seemed to feel his eyes fixed on it. It slowly
turned and looked him in the face, and for the first time Hyde felt a
full-blooded, superstitious fear flood through his entire being. He seemed
transfixed with that nameless terror that is said to attack human beings who
suddenly face the dead, finding themselves bereft of speech and movement. This
moment of[66] paralysis
certainly occurred. Its passing, however, was as singular as its advent. For
almost at once he was aware of something beyond and above this mockery of human
attitude and pose, something that ran along unaccustomed nerves and reached his
feeling, even perhaps his heart. The revulsion was extraordinary, its result
still more extraordinary and unexpected. Yet the fact remains. He was aware of
another thing that had the effect of stilling his terror as soon as it was
born. He was aware of appeal, silent, half expressed, yet vastly pathetic. He
saw in the savage eyes a beseeching, even a yearning, expression that changed
his mood as by magic from dread to natural sympathy. The great grey brute, symbol
of cruel ferocity, sat there beside his dying fire and appealed for help.
This gulf betwixt animal and human seemed in
that instant bridged. It was, of course, incredible. Hyde, sleep still possibly
clinging to his inner being with the shades and half shapes of dream yet about
his soul, acknowledged, how he knew not, the amazing fact. He found himself
nodding to the brute in half consent, and instantly, without more ado, the lean
grey shape rose like a wraith and trotted off swiftly, but with stealthy tread,
into the background of the night.
When Hyde woke in the morning his first
impression was that he must have dreamed the entire incident. His practical
nature asserted itself. There was a bite in the fresh autumn air; the bright
sun allowed no half lights anywhere; he felt brisk in mind and body. Reviewing
what had happened, he came to the conclusion that it was utterly vain to
speculate; no possible explanation of the animal’s behaviour occurred to him;
he was dealing with something entirely outside his experience. His fear,
however, had completely left him. The odd sense of friendliness remained. The
beast had a definite purpose, and he himself was included in that purpose. His
sympathy held good.
But with the sympathy there was also an intense
curiosity.[67] “If
it shows itself again,” he told himself, “I’ll go up close and find out what it
wants.” The fish laid out the night before had not been touched.
It must have been a full hour after breakfast
when he next saw the brute; it was standing on the edge of the clearing,
looking at him in the way now become familiar. Hyde immediately picked up his
axe and advanced toward it boldly, keeping his eyes fixed straight upon its
own. There was nervousness in him, but kept well under; nothing betrayed it; step
by step he drew nearer until some ten yards separated them. The wolf had not
stirred a muscle as yet. Its jaws hung open, its eyes observed him intently; it
allowed him to approach without a sign of what its mood might be. Then, with
these ten yards between them, it turned abruptly and moved slowly off, looking
back first over one shoulder and then over the other, exactly as a dog might
do, to see if he was following.
A singular journey it was they then made
together, animal and man. The trees surrounded them at once, for they left the
lake behind them, entering the tangled bush beyond. The beast, Hyde noticed,
obviously picked the easiest track for him to follow; for obstacles that meant
nothing to the four-legged expert, yet were difficult for a man, were carefully
avoided with an almost uncanny skill, while yet the general direction was
accurately kept. Occasionally there were windfalls to be surmounted; but though
the wolf bounded over these with ease, it was always waiting for the man on the
other side after he had laboriously climbed over. Deeper and deeper into the
heart of the lonely forest they penetrated in this singular fashion, cutting
across the arc of the lake’s crescent, it seemed to Hyde; for after two miles
or so, he recognized the big rocky bluff that overhung the water at its
northern end. This outstanding bluff he had seen from his camp, one side of it
falling sheer into the water; it was probably the spot, he imagined, where the
Indians held their medicine-making ceremonies, for it stood out in isolated
fashion,[68] and
its top formed a private plateau not easy of access. And it was here, close to
a big spruce at the foot of the bluff upon the forest side, that the wolf
stopped suddenly and for the first time since its appearance gave audible
expression to its feelings. It sat down on its haunches, lifted its muzzle with
open jaws, and gave vent to a subdued and long-drawn howl that was more like
the wail of a dog than the fierce barking cry associated with a wolf.
By this time Hyde had lost not only fear, but
caution too; nor, oddly enough, did this warning howl revive a sign of
unwelcome emotion in him. In that curious sound he detected the same message
that the eyes conveyed—appeal for help. He paused, nevertheless, a little
startled, and while the wolf sat waiting for him, he looked about him quickly.
There was young timber here; it had once been a small clearing, evidently. Axe
and fire had done their work, but there was evidence to an experienced eye that
it was Indians and not white men who had once been busy here. Some part of the
medicine ritual, doubtless, took place in the little clearing, thought the man,
as he advanced again towards his patient leader. The end of their queer
journey, he felt, was close at hand.
He had not taken two steps before the animal got
up and moved very slowly in the direction of some low bushes that formed a
clump just beyond. It entered these, first looking back to make sure that its
companion watched. The bushes hid it; a moment later it emerged again. Twice it
performed this pantomime, each time, as it reappeared, standing still and
staring at the man with as distinct an expression of appeal in the eyes as an
animal may compass, probably. Its excitement, meanwhile, certainly increased,
and this excitement was, with equal certainty, communicated to the man. Hyde
made up his mind quickly. Gripping his axe tightly, and ready to use it at the
first hint of malice, he moved slowly nearer to[69] the bushes, wondering with something of a
tremor what would happen.
If he expected to be startled, his expectation
was at once fulfilled; but it was the behaviour of the beast that made him
jump. It positively frisked about him like a happy dog. It frisked for joy. Its
excitement was intense, yet from its open mouth no sound was audible. With a
sudden leap, then, it bounded past him into the clump of bushes, against whose
very edge he stood, and began scraping vigorously at the ground. Hyde stood and
stared, amazement and interest now banishing all his nervousness, even when the
beast, in its violent scraping, actually touched his body with its own. He had,
perhaps, the feeling that he was in a dream, one of those fantastic dreams in
which things may happen without involving an adequate surprise; for otherwise
the manner of scraping and scratching at the ground must have seemed an
impossible phenomenon. No wolf, no dog certainly, used its paws in the way
those paws were working. Hyde had the odd, distressing sensation that it was
hands, not paws, he watched. And yet, somehow, the natural, adequate surprise
he should have felt was absent. The strange action seemed not entirely
unnatural. In his heart some deep hidden spring of sympathy and pity stirred
instead. He was aware of pathos.
The wolf stopped in its task and looked up into
his face. Hyde acted without hesitation then. Afterwards he was wholly at a
loss to explain his own conduct. It seemed he knew what to do, divined what was
asked, expected of him. Between his mind and the dumb desire yearning through
the savage animal there was intelligent and intelligible communication. He cut
a stake and sharpened it, for the stones would blunt his axe-edge. He entered
the clump of bushes to complete the digging his four-legged companion had
begun. And while he worked, though he did not forget the close proximity of the
wolf, he paid no attention to it; often his back was turned as he[70] stooped
over the laborious clearing away of the hard earth; no uneasiness or sense of
danger was in him any more. The wolf sat outside the clump and watched the
operations. Its concentrated attention, its patience, its intense eagerness,
the gentleness and docility of the grey, fierce, and probably hungry brute, its
obvious pleasure and satisfaction, too, at having won the human to its
mysterious purpose—these were colours in the strange picture that Hyde thought
of later when dealing with the human herd in his hotel again. At the moment he
was aware chiefly of pathos and affection. The whole business was, of course,
not to be believed, but that discovery came later, too, when telling it to
others.
The digging continued for fully half an hour
before his labour was rewarded by the discovery of a small whitish object. He
picked it up and examined it—the finger-bone of a man. Other discoveries then
followed quickly and in quantity. The cache was laid bare. He collected nearly the
complete skeleton. The skull, however, he found last, and might not have found
at all but for the guidance of his strangely alert companion. It lay some few
yards away from the central hole now dug, and the wolf stood nuzzling the
ground with its nose before Hyde understood that he was meant to dig exactly in
that spot for it. Between the beast’s very paws his stake struck hard upon it.
He scraped the earth from the bone and examined it carefully. It was perfect,
save for the fact that some wild animal had gnawed it, the teeth-marks being
still plainly visible. Close beside it lay the rusty iron head of a tomahawk.
This and the smallness of the bones confirmed him in his judgment that it was
the skeleton not of a white man, but of an Indian.
During the excitement of the discovery of the
bones one by one, and finally of the skull, but, more especially, during the
period of intense interest while Hyde was examining them, he had paid little,
if any, attention to the wolf. He was aware that it sat and watched him, never[71] moving
its keen eyes for a single moment from the actual operations, but of sign or
movement it made none at all. He knew that it was pleased and satisfied, he
knew also that he had now fulfilled its purpose in a great measure. The further
intuition that now came to him, derived, he felt positive, from his companion’s
dumb desire, was perhaps the cream of the entire experience to him. Gathering
the bones together in his coat, he carried them, together with the tomahawk, to
the foot of the big spruce where the animal had first stopped. His leg actually
touched the creature’s muzzle as he passed. It turned its head to watch, but
did not follow, nor did it move a muscle while he prepared the platform of
boughs upon which he then laid the poor worn bones of an Indian who had been
killed, doubtless, in sudden attack or ambush, and to whose remains had been
denied the last grace of proper tribal burial. He wrapped the bones in bark; he
laid the tomahawk beside the skull; he lit the circular fire round the pyre,
and the blue smoke rose upward into the clear bright sunshine of the Canadian
autumn morning till it was lost among the mighty trees far overhead.
In the moment before actually lighting the
little fire he had turned to note what his companion did. It sat five yards
away, he saw, gazing intently, and one of its front paws was raised a little
from the ground. It made no sign of any kind. He finished the work, becoming so
absorbed in it that he had eyes for nothing but the tending and guarding of his
careful ceremonial fire. It was only when the platform of boughs collapsed,
laying their charred burden gently on the fragrant earth among the soft wood
ashes, that he turned again, as though to show the wolf what he had done, and
seek, perhaps, some look of satisfaction in its curiously expressive eyes. But
the place he searched was empty. The wolf had gone.
He did not see it again; it gave no sign of its
presence anywhere; he was not watched. He fished as before, wandered through
the bush about his camp, sat smoking round[72] his fire after dark, and slept peacefully
in his cosy little tent. He was not disturbed. No howl was ever audible in the
distant forest, no twig snapped beneath a stealthy tread, he saw no eyes. The
wolf that behaved like a man had gone for ever.
It was the day before he left that Hyde,
noticing smoke rising from the shack across the lake, paddled over to exchange
a word or two with the Indian, who had evidently now returned. The Redskin came
down to meet him as he landed, but it was soon plain that he spoke very little
English. He emitted the familiar grunts at first; then bit by bit Hyde stirred
his limited vocabulary into action. The net result, however, was slight enough,
though it was certainly direct:
“You camp there?” the man asked, pointing to the
other side.
“Yes.”
“Wolf come?”
“Yes.”
“You see wolf?”
“Yes.”
The Indian stared at him fixedly a moment, a
keen, wondering look upon his coppery, creased face.
“You ’fraid wolf?” he asked after a moment’s
pause.
“No,” replied Hyde, truthfully. He knew it was
useless to ask questions of his own, though he was eager for information. The
other would have told him nothing. It was sheer luck that the man had touched on
the subject at all, and Hyde realized that his own best rôle was merely to
answer, but to ask no questions. Then, suddenly, the Indian became
comparatively voluble. There was awe in his voice and manner.
“Him no wolf. Him big medicine wolf. Him spirit
wolf.”
Whereupon he drank the tea the other had brewed
for him, closed his lips tightly, and said no more. His outline was discernible
on the shore, rigid and motionless, an[73] hour later, when Hyde’s canoe turned the
corner of the lake three miles away, and landed to make the portages up the
first rapid of his homeward stream.
It was Morton who, after some persuasion,
supplied further details of what he called the legend. Some hundred years
before, the tribe that lived in the territory beyond the lake began their
annual medicine-making ceremonies on the big rocky bluff at the northern end;
but no medicine could be made. The spirits, declared the chief medicine man,
would not answer. They were offended. An investigation followed. It was
discovered that a young brave had recently killed a wolf, a thing strictly
forbidden, since the wolf was the totem animal of the tribe. To make matters
worse, the name of the guilty man was Running Wolf. The offence being
unpardonable, the man was cursed and driven from the tribe:
“Go out. Wander alone among the woods, and if we
see you we slay you. Your bones shall be scattered in the forest, and your
spirit shall not enter the Happy Hunting Grounds till one of another race shall
find and bury them.”
“Which meant,” explained Morton laconically, his
only comment on the story, “probably for ever.”
4.FIRST HATE
THEY had been shooting all day; the weather had
been perfect and the powder straight, so that when they assembled in the
smoking-room after dinner they were well pleased with themselves. From
discussing the day’s sport and the weather outlook, the conversation drifted to
other, though still cognate, fields. Lawson, the crack shot of the party,
mentioned the instinctive recognition all animals feel for their natural enemies,
and gave several instances in which he had tested it—tame rats with a ferret,
birds with a snake, and so forth.
“Even after being domesticated for generations,”
he said, “they recognize their natural enemy at once by instinct, an enemy they
can never even have seen before. It’s infallible. They know instantly.”
“Undoubtedly,” said a voice from the corner
chair; “and so do we.”
The speaker was Ericssen, their host, a great
hunter before the Lord, generally uncommunicative but a good listener, leaving
the talk to others. For this latter reason, as well as for a certain note of
challenge in his voice, his abrupt statement gained attention.
“What do you mean exactly by ‘so do we’?” asked
three men together, after waiting some seconds to see whether he meant to
elaborate, which he evidently did not.
“We belong to the animal kingdom, of course,”
put in a fourth, for behind the challenge there obviously lay a story, though a
story that might be difficult to drag out of him. It was.
Ericssen, who had leaned forward a moment so
that[75] his
strong, humorous face was in clear light, now sank back again into his chair,
his expression concealed by the red lampshade at his side. The light played
tricks, obliterating the humorous, almost tender lines, while emphasizing the
strength of the jaw and nose. The red glare lent to the whole a rather grim
expression.
Lawson, man of authority among them, broke the
little pause.
“You’re dead right,” he observed, “but how do
you know it?”—for John Ericssen never made a positive statement without a good
reason for it. That good reason, he felt sure, involved a personal proof, but a
story Ericssen would never tell before a general audience. He would tell it
later, however, when the others had left. “There’s such a thing as instinctive
antipathy, of course,” he added, with a laugh, looking around him. “That’s what
you mean probably.”
“I meant exactly what I said,” replied the host
bluntly. “There’s first love. There’s first hate, too.”
“Hate’s a strong word,” remarked Lawson.
“So is love,” put in another.
“Hate’s strongest,” said Ericssen grimly. “In
the animal kingdom, at least,” he added suggestively, and then kept his lips
closed, except to sip his liquor, for the rest of the evening—until the party
at length broke up, leaving Lawson and one other man, both old trusted friends
of many years’ standing.
“It’s not a tale I’d tell to everybody,” he
began, when they were alone. “It’s true, for one thing; for another, you see,
some of those good fellows”—he indicated the empty chairs with an expressive
nod of his great head—“some of ’em knew him. You both knew him too, probably.”
“The man you hated,” said the understanding
Lawson.
“And who hated me,” came the quiet confirmation.
“My other reason,” he went on, “for keeping quiet was that the tale involves my
wife.”[76]
The two listeners said nothing, but each
remembered the curiously long courtship that had been the prelude to his
marriage. No engagement had been announced, the pair were devoted to one
another, there was no known rival on either side; yet the courtship continued
without coming to its expected conclusion. Many stories were afloat in
consequence. It was a social mystery that intrigued the gossips.
“I may tell you two,” Ericssen continued, “the
reason my wife refused for so long to marry me. It is hard to believe, perhaps,
but it is true. Another man wished to make her his wife, and she would not
consent to marry me until that other man was dead. Quixotic, absurd,
unreasonable? If you like. I’ll tell you what she said.” He looked up with a
significant expression in his face which proved that he, at least, did not now
judge her reason foolish. “‘Because it would be murder,’ she told me. ‘Another
man who wants to marry me would kill you.’”
“She had some proof for the assertion, no
doubt?” suggested Lawson.
“None whatever,” was the reply. “Merely her
woman’s instinct. Moreover, I did not know who the other man
was, nor would she ever tell me.”
“Otherwise you might have murdered him instead?”
said Baynes, the second listener.
“I did,” said Ericssen grimly. “But without
knowing he was the man.” He sipped his whisky and relit his pipe. The others
waited.
“Our marriage took place two months later—just
after Hazel’s disappearance.”
“Hazel?” exclaimed Lawson and Baynes in a single
breath. “Hazel! Member of the Hunters!” His mysterious disappearance had been a
nine days’ wonder some ten years ago. It had never been explained. They had all
been members of the Hunters’ Club together.
“That’s the chap,” Ericssen said. “Now I’ll tell
you[77] the
tale, if you care to hear it.” They settled back in their chairs to listen, and
Ericssen, who had evidently never told the affair to another living soul except
his own wife, doubtless, seemed glad this time to tell it to two men.
“It began some dozen years ago when my brother
Jack and I came home from a shooting trip in China. I’ve often told you about
our adventures there, and you see the heads hanging up here in the
smoking-room—some of ’em.” He glanced round proudly at the walls. “We were glad
to be in town again after two years’ roughing it, and we looked forward to our
first good dinner at the club, to make up for the rotten cooking we had endured
so long. We had ordered that dinner in anticipatory detail many a time
together. Well, we had it and enjoyed it up to a point—the point of the entrée, to be exact.
“Up to that point it was delicious, and we let
ourselves go, I can tell you. We had ordered the very wine we had planned
months before when we were snow-bound and half starving in the mountains.” He
smacked his lips as he mentioned it. “I was just starting on a beautifully
cooked grouse,” he went on, “when a figure went by our table, and Jack looked
up and nodded. The two exchanged a brief word of greeting and explanation, and
the other man passed on. Evidently they knew each other just enough to make a
word or two necessary, but enough.
“‘Who’s that?’ I asked.
“‘A new member, named Hazel,’ Jack told me. ‘A
great shot.’ He knew him slightly, he explained; he had once been a client of
his—Jack was a barrister, you remember—and had defended him in some financial
case or other. Rather an unpleasant case, he added. Jack did not ‘care about’
the fellow, he told me, as he went on with his tender wing of grouse.”
Ericssen paused to relight his pipe a moment.
“Not care about him!” he continued. “It didn’t
surprise me, for my own feeling, the instant I set eyes on[78] the
fellow, was one of violent, instinctive dislike that amounted to loathing.
Loathing! No. I’ll give it the right word—hatred. I simply couldn’t help
myself; I hated the man from the very first go off. A wave of repulsion swept
over me as I followed him down the room a moment with my eyes, till he took his
seat at a distant table and was out of sight. Ugh! He was a big, fat-faced man,
with an eyeglass glued into one of his pale-blue cod-like eyes—out of
condition, ugly as a toad, with a smug expression of intense self-satisfaction
on his jowl that made me long to——
“I leave it to you to guess what I would have
liked to do to him. But the instinctive loathing he inspired in me had another
aspect, too. Jack had not introduced us during the momentary pause beside our
table, but as I looked up I caught the fellow’s eye on mine—he was glaring at
me instead of at Jack, to whom he was talking—with an expression of malignant
dislike, as keen evidently as my own. That’s the other aspect I meant. He hated
me as violently as I hated him. We were instinctive enemies, just as the rat
and ferret are instinctive enemies. Each recognized a mortal foe. It was a case—I
swear it—of whoever got first chance.”
“Bad as that!” exclaimed Baynes. “I knew him by
sight. He wasn’t pretty, I’ll admit.”
“I knew him to nod to,” Lawson mentioned. “I
never heard anything particular against him.” He shrugged his shoulders.
Ericssen went on. “It was not his character or
qualities I hated,” he said. “I didn’t even know them. That’s the whole point.
There’s no reason you fellows should have disliked him. My hatred—our
mutual hatred—was instinctive, as instinctive as first love. A man knows his
natural mate; also he knows his natural enemy. I did, at any rate, both with
him and with my wife. Given the chance, Hazel would have done me in; just as
surely,[79] given
the chance, I would have done him in. No blame to either of us, what’s more, in
my opinion.”
“I’ve felt dislike, but never hatred like that,”
Baynes mentioned. “I came across it in a book once, though. The writer did not
mention the instinctive fear of the human animal for its natural enemy, or
anything of that sort. He thought it was a continuance of a bitter feud begun
in an earlier existence. He called it memory.”
“Possibly,” said Ericssen briefly. “My mind is
not speculative. But I’m glad you spoke of fear. I left that out. The truth is,
I feared the fellow, too, in a way; and had we ever met face to face in some
wild country without witnesses I should have felt justified in drawing on him
at sight, and he would have felt the same. Murder? If you like. I should call
it self-defence. Anyhow, the fellow polluted the room for me. He spoilt the
enjoyment of that dinner we had ordered months before in China.”
“But you saw him again, of course, later?”
“Lots of times. Not that night, because we went
on to a theatre. But in the club we were always running across one another—in
the houses of friends at lunch or dinner; at race meetings; all over the place;
in fact, I even had some trouble to avoid being introduced to him. And every
time we met our eyes betrayed us. He felt in his heart what I felt in mine.
Ugh! He was as loathsome to me as leprosy, and as dangerous. Odd, isn’t it? The
most intense feeling, except love, I’ve ever known. I remember”—he laughed
gruffly—“I used to feel quite sorry for him. If he felt what I felt, and I’m
convinced he did, he must have suffered. His one object—to get me out of the
way for good—was so impossible. Then Fate played a hand in the game. I’ll tell
you how.
“My brother died a year or two later, and I went
abroad to try and forget it. I went salmon fishing in Canada. But, though the
sport was good, it was not like the old times with Jack. The camp never felt
the[80] same
without him. I missed him badly. But I forgot Hazel for the time; hating did
not seem worth while, somehow.
“When the best of the fishing was over on the
Atlantic side, I took a run back to Vancouver and fished there for a bit. I
went up the Campbell River, which was not so crowded then as it is now, and had
some rattling sport. Then I grew tired of the rod and decided to go after
wapiti for a change. I came back to Victoria and learned what I could about the
best places, and decided finally to go up the west coast of the island. By luck
I happened to pick up a good guide, who was in the town at the moment on
business, and we started off together in one of the little Canadian Pacific
Railway boats that ply along that coast.
“Outfitting two days later at a small place the
steamer stopped at, the guide said we needed another man to help pack our kit
over portages, and so forth, but the only fellow available was a Siwash of whom
he disapproved. My guide would not have him at any price; he was lazy, a
drunkard, a liar, and even worse, for on one occasion he came back without the
sportsman he had taken up country on a shooting trip, and his story was not
convincing, to say the least. These disappearances are always awkward, of
course, as you both know. We preferred, anyhow, to go without the Siwash, and
off we started.
“At first our luck was bad. I saw many wapiti,
but no good heads; only after a fortnight’s hunting did I manage to get a
decent head, though even that was not so good as I should have liked.
“We were then near the head waters of a little
river that ran down into the Inlet; heavy rains had made the river rise;
running downstream was a risky job, what with old log-jams shifting and new ones
forming; and, after many narrow escapes, we upset one afternoon and had the
misfortune to lose a lot of our kit, amongst it most of our cartridges. We
could only muster a few between[81] us. The guide had a dozen; I had two—just
enough, we considered, to take us out all right. Still, it was an infernal
nuisance. We camped at once to dry out our soaked things in front of a big
fire, and while this laundry work was going on, the guide suggested my filling
in the time by taking a look at the next little valley, which ran parallel to
ours. He had seen some good heads over there a few weeks ago. Possibly I might
come upon the herd. I started at once, taking my two cartridges with me.
“It was the devil of a job getting over the
divide, for it was a badly bushed-up place, and where there were no bushes
there were boulders and fallen trees, and the going was slow and tiring. But I
got across at last and came out upon another stream at the bottom of the new
valley. Signs of wapiti were plentiful, though I never came up with a single
beast all the afternoon. Blacktail deer were everywhere, but the wapiti
remained invisible. Providence, or whatever you like to call that which there
is no escaping in our lives, made me save my two cartridges.”
Ericssen stopped a minute then. It was not to
light his pipe or sip his whisky. Nor was it because the remainder of his story
failed in the recollection of any vivid detail. He paused a moment to think.
“Tell us the lot,” pleaded Lawson. “Don’t leave
out anything.”
Ericssen looked up. His friend’s remark had
helped him to make up his mind apparently. He had hesitated
about something or other, but the hesitation passed. He glanced at both his
listeners.
“Right,” he said. “I’ll tell you everything. I’m
not imaginative, as you know, and my amount of superstition, I should judge, is
microscopic.” He took a longer breath, then lowered his voice a trifle.
“Anyhow,” he went on, “it’s true, so I don’t see why I should feel shy about
admitting it—but as I stood there in that lonely valley, where only the noises
of wind and water were audible,[82] and no human being, except my guide, some
miles away, was within reach, a curious feeling came over me I find difficult
to describe. I felt”—obviously he made an effort to get the word out—“I felt creepy.”
“You,” murmured Lawson, with an incredulous
smile—“you creepy?” he repeated under his breath.
“I felt creepy and afraid,” continued the other,
with conviction. “I had the sensation of being seen by someone—as if someone, I
mean, was watching me. It was so unlikely that anyone was near me in that
God-forsaken bit of wilderness, that I simply couldn’t believe it at first. But
the feeling persisted. I felt absolutely positive somebody was not far away
among the red maples, behind a boulder, across the little stream, perhaps,
somewhere, at any rate, so near that I was plainly visible to him. It was not
an animal. It was human. Also, it was hostile.
“I was in danger.
“You may laugh, both of you, but I assure you
the feeling was so positive that I crouched down instinctively to hide myself
behind a rock. My first thought, that the guide had followed me for some reason
or other, I at once discarded. It was not the guide. It was an enemy.
“No, no, I thought of no one in particular. No
name, no face occurred to me. Merely that an enemy was on my trail, that he saw
me, and I did not see him, and that he was near enough to me to—well, to take
instant action. This deep instinctive feeling of danger, of fear, of anything
you like to call it, was simply overwhelming.
“Another curious detail I must also mention.
About half an hour before, having given up all hope of seeing wapiti, I had
decided to kill a blacktail deer for meat. A good shot offered itself, not
thirty yards away. I aimed. But just as I was going to pull the trigger a queer
emotion touched me, and I lowered the rifle. It was exactly as though a voice
said, ‘Don’t!’ I heard no voice, mind you; it was an emotion only, a feeling, a
sudden inexplicable[83] change of mind—a warning, if you like. I
didn’t fire, anyhow.
“But now, as I crouched behind that rock, I
remembered this curious little incident, and was glad I had not used up my last
two cartridges. More than that I cannot tell you. Things of that kind are new
to me. They’re difficult enough to tell, let alone to explain. But they
were real.
“I crouched there, wondering what on earth was
happening to me, and, feeling a bit of a fool, if you want to know, when
suddenly, over the top of the boulder, I saw something moving. It was a man’s
hat. I peered cautiously. Some sixty yards away the bushes parted, and two men
came out on to the river’s bank, and I knew them both. One was the Siwash I had
seen at the store. The other was Hazel. Before I had time to think I cocked my
rifle.”
“Hazel. Good Lord!” exclaimed the listeners.
“For a moment I was too surprised to do anything
but cock that rifle. I waited, for what puzzled me was that, after all, Hazel
had not seen me. It was only the feeling of his beastly
proximity that had made me feel I was seen and watched by him. There was
something else, too, that made me pause before—er—doing anything. Two other
things, in fact. One was that I was so intensely interested in watching the
fellow’s actions. Obviously he had the same uneasy sensation that I had. He
shared with me the nasty feeling that danger was about. His rifle, I saw, was
cocked and ready; he kept looking behind him, over his shoulder, peering this
way and that, and sometimes addressing a remark to the Siwash at his side. I
caught the laughter of the latter. The Siwash evidently did not think there was
danger anywhere. It was, of course, unlikely enough——”
“And the other thing that stopped you?” urged
Lawson, impatiently interrupting.[84]
Ericssen turned with a look of grim humour on
his face.
“Some confounded or perverted sense of chivalry
in me, I suppose,” he said, “that made it impossible to shoot him down in cold
blood, or, rather, without letting him have a chance. For my blood, as a matter
of fact, was far from cold at the moment. Perhaps, too, I wanted the added
satisfaction of letting him know who fired the shot that was to end his vile
existence.”
He laughed again. “It was rat and ferret in the
human kingdom,” he went on, “but I wanted my rat to have a chance, I suppose.
Anyhow, though I had a perfect shot in front of me at easy distance, I did not
fire. Instead I got up, holding my cocked rifle ready, finger on trigger, and
came out of my hiding place. I called to him. ‘Hazel, you beast! So there you
are—at last!’
“He turned, but turned away from me, offering
his horrid back. The direction of the voice he misjudged. He pointed down
stream, and the Siwash turned to look. Neither of them had seen me yet. There
was a big log-jam below them. The roar of the water in their ears concealed my
footsteps. I was, perhaps, twenty paces from them when Hazel, with a jerk of
his whole body, abruptly turned clean round and faced me. We stared into each
other’s eyes.
“The amazement on his face changed instantly to
hatred and resolve. He acted with incredible rapidity. I think the unexpected
suddenness of his turn made me lose a precious second or two. Anyhow he was
ahead of me. He flung his rifle to his shoulder. ‘You devil!’ I heard his
voice. ‘I’ve got you at last!’ His rifle cracked, for he let drive the same
instant. The hair stirred just above my ear.
“He had missed!
“Before he could draw back his bolt for another
shot I had acted.
“‘You’re not fit to live!’ I shouted, as my
bullet[85] crashed
into his temple. I had the satisfaction, too, of knowing that he heard my words.
I saw the swift expression of frustrated loathing in his eyes.
“He fell like an ox, his face splashing in the
stream. I shoved the body out. I saw it sucked beneath the log-jam instantly.
It disappeared. There could be no inquest on him, I reflected comfortably.
Hazel was gone—gone from this earth, from my life, our mutual hatred over at
last.”
The speaker paused a moment. “Odd,” he continued
presently—“very odd indeed.” He turned to the others. “I felt quite sorry for
him suddenly. I suppose,” he added, “the philosophers are right when they gas
about hate being very close to love.”
His friends contributed no remark.
“Then I came away,” he resumed shortly. “My
wife—well, you know the rest, don’t you? I told her the whole thing. She—she
said nothing. But she married me, you see.”
There was a moment’s silence. Baynes was the
first to break it. “But—the Siwash?” he asked. “The witness?”
Lawson turned upon him with something of
contemptuous impatience.
“He told you he had two cartridges.”
Ericssen, smiling grimly, said nothing at all.
5.THE TARN OF SACRIFICE
JOHN HOLT, a vague excitement in him, stood at the door
of the little inn, listening to the landlord’s directions as to the best way of
reaching Scarsdale. He was on a walking tour through the Lake District,
exploring the smaller dales that lie away from the beaten track and are
accessible only on foot.
The landlord, a hard-featured north countryman,
half innkeeper, half sheep farmer, pointed up the valley. His deep voice had a
friendly burr in it.
“You go straight on till you reach the head,” he
said, “then take to the fell. Follow the ‘sheep-trod’ past the Crag. Directly
you’re over the top you’ll strike the road.”
“A road up there!” exclaimed his customer
incredulously.
“Aye,” was the steady reply. “The old Roman
road. The same road,” he added, “the savages came down when they burst through
the Wall and burnt everything right up to Lancaster——”
“They were held—weren’t they—at Lancaster?”
asked the other, yet not knowing quite why he asked it.
“I don’t rightly know,” came the answer slowly.
“Some say they were. But the old town has been that built over since, it’s hard
to tell.” He paused a moment. “At Ambleside,” he went on presently, “you can
still see the marks of the burning, and at the little fort on the way to
Ravenglass.”
Holt strained his eyes into the sunlit distance,
for he would soon have to walk that road and he was anxious to[87] be
off. But the landlord was communicative and interesting. “You can’t miss it,”
he told him. “It runs straight as a spear along the fell top till it meets the
Wall. You must hold to it for about eight miles. Then you’ll come to the
Standing Stone on the left of the track——”
“The Standing Stone, yes?” broke in the other a
little eagerly.
“You’ll see the Stone right enough. It was where
the Romans came. Then bear to the left down another ‘trod’ that comes into the
road there. They say it was the war-trail of the folk that set up the Stone.”
“And what did they use the Stone for?” Holt
inquired, more as though he asked it of himself than of his companion.
The old man paused to reflect. He spoke at
length.
“I mind an old fellow who seemed to know about
such things called it a Sighting Stone. He reckoned the sun shone over it at
dawn on the longest day right on to the little holm in Blood Tarn. He said they
held sacrifices in a stone circle there.” He stopped a moment to puff at his
black pipe. “Maybe he was right. I have seen stones lying about that may well
be that.”
The man was pleased and willing to talk to so
good a listener. Either he had not noticed the curious gesture the other made,
or he read it as a sign of eagerness to start. The sun was warm, but a sharp
wind from the bare hills went between them with a sighing sound. Holt buttoned
his coat about him. “An odd name for a mountain lake—Blood Tarn,” he remarked,
watching the landlord’s face expectantly.
“Aye, but a good one,” was the measured reply.
“When I was a boy the old folk had a tale that the savages flung three Roman
captives from that crag into the water. There’s a book been written about it;
they say it was a sacrifice, but most likely they were tired of dragging them
along, I say. Anyway, that’s what the writer said. One, I
mind, now you ask me, was a priest of some heathen[88] temple that stood near the Wall, and the
other two were his daughter and her lover.” He guffawed. At least he made a
strange noise in his throat. Evidently, thought Holt, he was sceptical yet
superstitious. “It’s just an old tale handed down, whatever the learned folk
may say,” the old man added.
“A lonely place,” began Holt, aware that a
fleeting touch of awe was added suddenly to his interest.
“Aye,” said the other, “and a bad spot too.
Every year the Crag takes its toll of sheep, and sometimes a man goes over in
the mist. It’s right beside the track and very slippery. Ninety foot of a drop
before you hit the water. Best keep round the tarn and leave the Crag alone if
there’s any mist about. Fishing? Yes, there’s some quite fair trout in the
tarn, but it’s not much fished. Happen one of the shepherd lads from Tyson’s
farm may give it a turn with an ‘otter,’” he went on, “once in a while, but he
won’t stay for the evening. He’ll clear out before sunset.”
“Ah! Superstitious, I suppose?”
“It’s a gloomy, chancy spot—and with the dusk
falling,” agreed the innkeeper eventually. “None of our folk care to be caught
up there with night coming on. Most handy for a shepherd, too—but Tyson can’t
get a man to bide there.” He paused again, then added significantly: “Strangers
don’t seem to mind it though. It’s only our own folk——”
“Strangers!” repeated the other sharply, as
though he had been waiting all along for this special bit of information. “You
don’t mean to say there are people living up there?” A curious thrill ran over
him.
“Aye,” replied the landlord, “but they’re daft
folk—a man and his daughter. They come every spring. It’s early in the year
yet, but I mind Jim Backhouse, one of Tyson’s men, talking about them last
week.” He stopped to think. “So they’ve come back,” he went on decidedly. “They
get milk from the farm.”[89]
“And what on earth are they doing up there?”
Holt asked.
He asked many other questions as well, but the
answers were poor, the information not forthcoming. The landlord would talk for
hours about the Crag, the tarn, the legends and the Romans, but concerning the
two strangers he was uncommunicative. Either he knew little, or he did not want
to discuss them; Holt felt it was probably the former. They were educated
town-folk, he gathered with difficulty, rich apparently, and they spent their
time wandering about the fell, or fishing. The man was often seen upon the
Crag, his girl beside him, bare-legged, dressed as a peasant. “Happen they come
for their health, happen the father is a learned man studying the Wall”—exact information
was not forthcoming.
The landlord “minded his own business,” and
inhabitants were too few and far between for gossip. All Holt could extract
amounted to this: the couple had been in a motor accident some years before,
and as a result they came every spring to spend a month or two in absolute
solitude, away from cities and the excitement of modern life. They troubled no
one and no one troubled them.
“Perhaps I may see them as I go by the tarn,”
remarked the walker finally, making ready to go. He gave up questioning in
despair. The morning hours were passing.
“Happen you may,” was the reply, “for your track
goes past their door and leads straight down to Scarsdale. The other way over
the Crag saves half a mile, but it’s rough going along the scree.” He stopped
dead. Then he added, in reply to Holt’s good-bye: “In my opinion it’s not worth
it,” yet what he meant exactly by “it” was not quite clear.
*****
The walker shouldered his knapsack.
Instinctively he gave the little hitch to settle it on his shoulders—much as he
used to give to his pack in France. The pain that[90] shot through him as he did so was another
reminder of France. The bullet he had stopped on the Somme still made its
presence felt at times.... Yet he knew, as he walked off briskly, that he was
one of the lucky ones. How many of his old pals would never walk again,
condemned to hobble on crutches for the rest of their lives! How many, again,
would never even hobble! More terrible still, he remembered, were the blind....
The dead, it seemed to him, had been more fortunate....
He swung up the narrowing valley at a good pace
and was soon climbing the fell. It proved far steeper than it had appeared from
the door of the inn, and he was glad enough to reach the top and fling himself
down on the coarse springy turf to admire the view below.
The spring day was delicious. It stirred his
blood. The world beneath looked young and stainless. Emotion rose through him
in a wave of optimistic happiness. The bare hills were half hidden by a soft
blue haze that made them look bigger, vaster, less earthly than they really
were. He saw silver streaks in the valleys that he knew were distant streams
and lakes. Birds soared between. The dazzling air seemed painted with
exhilarating light and colour. The very clouds were floating gossamer that he
could touch. There were bees and dragon-flies and fluttering thistle-down. Heat
vibrated. His body, his physical sensations, so-called, retired into almost
nothing. He felt himself, like his surroundings, made of air and sunlight. A
delicious sense of resignation poured upon him. He, too, like his surroundings,
was composed of air and sunshine, of insect wings, of soft, fluttering
vibrations that the gorgeous spring day produced.... It seemed that he
renounced the heavy dues of bodily life, and enjoyed the delights, momentarily
at any rate, of a more ethereal consciousness.
Near at hand, the hills were covered with the
faded gold of last year’s bracken, which ran down in a brimming flood till it
was lost in the fresh green of the familiar[91] woods below. Far in the hazy distance swam
the sea of ash and hazel. The silver birch sprinkled that lower world with
fairy light.
Yes, it was all natural enough. He could see the
road quite clearly now, only a hundred yards away from where he lay. How
straight it ran along the top of the hill! The landlord’s expression recurred
to him: “Straight as a spear.” Somehow, the phrase seemed to describe exactly
the Romans and all their works.... The Romans, yes, and all their works....
He became aware of a sudden sympathy with these
long dead conquerors of the world. With them, he felt sure, there had been no
useless, foolish talk. They had known no empty words, no bandying of foolish
phrases. “War to end war,” and “Regeneration of the race”—no hypocritical
nonsense of that sort had troubled their minds and purposes. They had not
attempted to cover up the horrible in words. With them had been no childish,
vain pretence. They had gone straight to their ends.
Other thoughts, too, stole over him, as he sat
gazing down upon the track of that ancient road; strange thoughts, not wholly
welcome. New, yet old, emotions rose in a tide upon him. He began to wonder....
Had he, after all, become brutalized by the War? He knew quite well that the
little “Christianity” he inherited had soon fallen from him like a garment in
France. In his attitude to Life and Death he had become, frankly, pagan. He now
realized, abruptly, another thing as well: in reality he had never been a
“Christian” at any time. Given to him with his mother’s milk, he had never
accepted, felt at home with Christian dogmas. To him they had always been an
alien creed. Christianity met none of his requirements....
But what were his “requirements”? He found it
difficult to answer.
Something, at any rate, different and more
primitive, he thought....[92]
Even up here, alone on the mountain-top, it was
hard to be absolutely frank with himself. With a kind of savage, honest
determination, he bent himself to the task. It became suddenly important for
him. He must know exactly where he stood. It seemed he had reached a turning
point in his life. The War, in the objective world, had been one such turning
point; now he had reached another, in the subjective life, and it was more
important than the first.
As he lay there in the pleasant sunshine, his
thoughts went back to the fighting. A friend, he recalled, had divided people
into those who enjoyed the War and those who didn’t. He was obliged to admit
that he had been one of the former—he had thoroughly enjoyed it. Brought up
from a youth as an engineer, he had taken to a soldier’s life as a duck takes
to water. There had been plenty of misery, discomfort, wretchedness; but there
had been compensations that, for him, outweighed them. The fierce excitement,
the primitive, naked passions, the wild fury, the reckless indifference to pain
and death, with the loss of the normal, cautious, pettifogging little daily
self all these involved, had satisfied him. Even the actual killing....
He started. A slight shudder ran down his back
as the cool wind from the open moorlands came sighing across the soft spring
sunshine. Sitting up straight, he looked behind him a moment, as with an effort
to turn away from something he disliked and dreaded because it was, he knew,
too strong for him. But the same instant he turned round again. He faced the
vile and dreadful thing in himself he had hitherto sought to deny, evade.
Pretence fell away. He could not disguise from himself, that he had thoroughly
enjoyed the killing; or, at any rate, had not been shocked by it as by an
unnatural and ghastly duty. The shooting and bombing he performed with an
effort always, but the rarer moments when he[93] had been able to use the bayonet ... the
joy of feeling the steel go home....
He started again, hiding his face a moment in
his hands, but he did not try to evade the hideous memories that surged. At
times, he knew, he had gone quite mad with the lust of slaughter; he had gone
on long after he should have stopped. Once an officer had pulled him up sharply
for it, but the next instant had been killed by a bullet. He thought he had
gone on killing, but he did not know. It was all a red mist before his eyes and
he could only remember the sticky feeling of the blood on his hands when he
gripped his rifle....
And now, at this moment of painful honesty with
himself, he realized that his creed, whatever it was, must cover all that; it
must provide some sort of a philosophy for it; must neither apologize nor
ignore it. The heaven that it promised must be a man’s heaven. The Christian
heaven made no appeal to him, he could not believe in it. The ritual must be
simple and direct. He felt that in some dim way he understood why those old
people had thrown their captives from the Crag. The sacrifice of an animal
victim that could be eaten afterwards with due ceremonial did not shock him.
Such methods seemed simple, natural, effective. Yet would it not have been
better—the horrid thought rose unbidden in his inmost mind—better to have cut
their throats with a flint knife ... slowly?
Horror-stricken, he sprang to his feet. These
terrible thoughts he could not recognize as his own. Had he slept a moment in
the sunlight, dreaming them? Was it some hideous nightmare flash that touched
him as he dozed a second? Something of fear and awe stole over him. He stared
round for some minutes into the emptiness of the desolate landscape, then
hurriedly ran down to the road, hoping to exorcize the strange sudden horror by
vigorous movement. Yet when he reached the track he knew that he had not
succeeded. The awful pictures were gone perhaps, but the mood remained. It was
as though some new[94] attitude began to take definite form and
harden within him.
He walked on, trying to pretend to himself that
he was some forgotten legionary marching up with his fellows to defend the
Wall. Half unconsciously he fell into the steady tramping pace of his old
regiment: the words of the ribald songs they had sung going to the front came
pouring into his mind. Steadily and almost mechanically he swung along till he
saw the Stone as a black speck on the left of the track, and the instant he saw
it there rose in him the feeling that he stood upon the edge of an adventure
that he feared yet longed for. He approached the great granite monolith with a
curious thrill of anticipatory excitement, born he knew not whence.
But, of course, there was nothing. Common sense,
still operating strongly, had warned him there would be, could be, nothing. In
the waste the great Stone stood upright, solitary, forbidding, as it had stood
for thousands of years. It dominated the landscape somewhat ominously. The
sheep and cattle had used it as a rubbing-stone, and bits of hair and wool
clung to its rough, weather-eaten edges; the feet of generations had worn a cup-shaped
hollow at its base. The wind sighed round it plaintively. Its bulk glistened as
it took the sun.
A short mile away the Blood Tarn was now plainly
visible; he could see the little holm lying in a direct line with the Stone,
while, overhanging the water as a dark shadow on one side, rose the cliff-like
rock they called “the Crag.” Of the house the landlord had mentioned, however,
he could see no trace, as he relieved his shoulders of the knapsack and sat
down to enjoy his lunch. The tarn, he reflected, was certainly a gloomy place;
he could understand that the simple superstitious shepherds did not dare to
live there, for even on this bright spring day it wore a dismal and forbidding
look. With failing light, when the Crag sprawled its big lengthening shadow
across the water, he could well imagine they would give it the[95] widest
possible berth. He strolled down to the shore after lunch, smoking his pipe
lazily—then suddenly stood still. At the far end, hidden hitherto by a fold in
the ground, he saw the little house, a faint column of blue smoke rising from
the chimney, and at the same moment a woman came out of the low door and began
to walk towards the tarn. She had seen him, she was moving evidently in his
direction; a few minutes later she stopped and stood waiting on the
path—waiting, he well knew, for him.
And his earlier mood, the mood he dreaded yet
had forced himself to recognize, came back upon him with sudden redoubled
power. As in some vivid dream that dominates and paralyses the will, or as in
the first stages of an imposed hypnotic spell, all question, hesitation,
refusal sank away. He felt a pleasurable resignation steal upon him with soft,
numbing effect. Denial and criticism ceased to operate, and common sense died
with them. He yielded his being automatically to the deeps of an adventure he
did not understand. He began to walk towards the woman.
It was, he saw as he drew nearer, the figure of
a young girl, nineteen or twenty years of age, who stood there motionless with
her eyes fixed steadily on his own. She looked as wild and picturesque as the
scene that framed her. Thick black hair hung loose over her back and shoulders;
about her head was bound a green ribbon; her clothes consisted of a jersey and
a very short skirt which showed her bare legs browned by exposure to the sun
and wind. A pair of rough sandals covered her feet. Whether the face was
beautiful or not he could not tell; he only knew that it attracted him
immensely and with a strength of appeal that he at once felt curiously irresistible.
She remained motionless against the boulder, staring fixedly at him till he was
close before her. Then she spoke:
“I am glad that you have come at last,” she said
in a clear, strong voice that yet was soft and even tender. “We have been
expecting you.”[96]
“You have been expecting me!” he repeated,
astonished beyond words, yet finding the language natural, right and true. A
stream of sweet feeling invaded him, his heart beat faster, he felt happy and
at home in some extraordinary way he could not understand yet did not question.
“Of course,” she answered, looking straight into
his eyes with welcome unashamed. Her next words thrilled him to the core of his
being. “I have made the room ready for you.”
Quick upon her own, however, flashed back the landlord’s
words, while common sense made a last faint effort in his thought. He was the
victim of some absurd mistake evidently. The lonely life, the forbidding
surroundings, the associations of the desolate hills had affected her mind. He
remembered the accident.
“I am afraid,” he offered, lamely enough, “there
is some mistake. I am not the friend you were expecting. I——” He stopped. A
thin slight sound as of distant laughter seemed to echo behind the unconvincing
words.
“There is no mistake,” the girl answered firmly,
with a quiet smile, moving a step nearer to him, so that he caught the subtle
perfume of her vigorous youth. “I saw you clearly in the Mystery Stone. I
recognized you at once.”
“The Mystery Stone,” he heard himself saying,
bewilderment increasing, a sense of wild happiness growing with it.
Laughing, she took his hand in hers. “Come,” she
said, drawing him along with her, “come home with me. My father will be waiting
for us; he will tell you everything, and better far than I can.”
He went with her, feeling that he was made of
sunlight and that he walked on air, for at her touch his own hand responded as
with a sudden fierceness of pleasure that he failed utterly to understand, yet
did not question for an instant. Wildly, absurdly, madly it flashed across[97] his
mind: “This is the woman I shall marry—my woman. I am her man.”
They walked in silence for a little, for no
words of any sort offered themselves to his mind, nor did the girl attempt to
speak. The total absence of embarrassment between them occurred to him once or
twice as curious, though the very idea of embarrassment then disappeared
entirely. It all seemed natural and unforced, the sudden intercourse as
familiar and effortless as though they had known one another always.
“The Mystery Stone,” he heard himself saying
presently, as the idea rose again to the surface of his mind. “I should like to
know more about it. Tell me, dear.”
“I bought it with the other things,” she replied
softly.
“What other things?”
She turned and looked up into his face with a
slight expression of surprise; their shoulders touched as they swung along; her
hair blew in the wind across his coat. “The bronze collar,” she answered in the
low voice that pleased him so, “and this ornament that I wear in my hair.”
He glanced down to examine it. Instead of a
ribbon, as he had first supposed, he saw that it was a circlet of bronze,
covered with a beautiful green patina and evidently very old. In front, above
the forehead, was a small disk bearing an inscription he could not decipher at
the moment. He bent down and kissed her hair, the girl smiling with happy
contentment, but offering no sign of resistance or annoyance.
“And,” she added suddenly, “the dagger.”
Holt started visibly. This time there was a
thrill in her voice that seemed to pierce down straight into his heart. He said
nothing, however. The unexpectedness of the word she used, together with the
note in her voice that moved him so strangely, had a disconcerting effect that
kept him silent for a time. He did not ask about[98] the dagger. Something prevented his
curiosity finding expression in speech, though the word, with the marked accent
she placed upon it, had struck into him like the shock of sudden steel itself,
causing him an indecipherable emotion of both joy and pain. He asked instead,
presently, another question, and a very commonplace one: he asked where she and
her father had lived before they came to these lonely hills. And the form of
his question—his voice shook a little as he said it—was, again, an effort of
his normal self to maintain its already precarious balance.
The effect of his simple query, the girl’s reply
above all, increased in him the mingled sensations of sweetness and menace, of
joy and dread, that half alarmed, half satisfied him. For a moment she wore a
puzzled expression, as though making an effort to remember.
“Down by the sea,” she answered slowly,
thoughtfully, her voice very low. “Somewhere by a big harbour with great ships
coming in and out. It was there we had the break—the shock—an accident that
broke us, shattering the dream we share To-day.” Her face cleared a little. “We
were in a chariot,” she went on more easily and rapidly, “and father—my father
was injured, so that I went with him to a palace beyond the Wall till he grew
well.”
“You were in a chariot?” Holt repeated. “Surely
not.”
“Did I say chariot?” the girl replied. “How
foolish of me!” She shook her hair back as though the gesture helped to clear
her mind and memory. “That belongs, of course, to the other dream. No, not a chariot;
it was a car. But it had wheels like a chariot—the old war-chariots. You know.”
“Disk-wheels,” thought Holt to himself. He did
not ask about the palace. He asked instead where she had bought the Mystery
Stone, as she called it, and the other things. Her reply bemused and enticed
him farther, for[99] he could not unravel it. His whole inner
attitude was shifting with uncanny rapidity and completeness. They walked
together, he now realized, with linked arms, moving slowly in step, their
bodies touching. He felt the blood run hot and almost savage in his veins. He
was aware how amazingly precious she was to him, how deeply, absolutely
necessary to his life and happiness. Her words went past him in the mountain
wind like flying birds.
“My father was fishing,” she went on, “and I was
on my way to join him, when the old woman called me into her dwelling and
showed me the things. She wished to give them to me, but I refused the present
and paid for them in gold. I put the fillet on my head to see if it would fit,
and took the Mystery Stone in my hand. Then, as I looked deep into the stone,
this present dream died all away. It faded out. I saw the older dreams again—our dreams.”
“The older dreams!” interrupted Holt. “Ours!”
But instead of saying the words aloud, they issued from his lips in a quiet
whisper, as though control of his voice had passed a little from him. The
sweetness in him became more wonderful, unmanageable; his astonishment had
vanished; he walked and talked with his old familiar happy Love, the woman he
had sought so long and waited for, the woman who was his mate, as he was hers,
she who alone could satisfy his inmost soul.
“The old dream,” she replied, “the very old—the
oldest of all perhaps—when we committed the terrible sacrilege. I saw the High
Priest lying dead—whom my father slew—and the other whom you destroyed.
I saw you prise out the jewel from the image of the god—with your short bloody
spear. I saw, too, our flight to the galley through the hot, awful night
beneath the stars—and our escape....”
Her voice died away and she fell silent.
“Tell me more,” he whispered, drawing her closer
against his side. “What had you done?” His heart was[100] racing
now. Some fighting blood surged uppermost. He felt that he could kill, and the
joy of violence and slaughter rose in him.
“Have you forgotten so completely?” she asked
very low, as he pressed her more tightly still against his heart. And almost
beneath her breath she whispered into his ear, which he bent to catch the
little sound: “I had broken my vows with you.”
“What else, my lovely one—my best beloved—what
more did you see?” he whispered in return, yet wondering why the fierce pain
and anger that he felt behind still lay hidden from betrayal.
“Dream after dream, and always we were punished.
But the last time was the clearest, for it was here—here where we now walk
together in the sunlight and the wind—it was here the savages hurled us from
the rock.”
A shiver ran through him, making him tremble
with an unaccountable touch of cold that communicated itself to her as well.
Her arm went instantly about his shoulder, as he stooped and kissed her
passionately. “Fasten your coat about you,” she said tenderly, but with
troubled breath, when he released her, “for this wind is chill although the sun
shines brightly. We were glad, you remember, when they stopped to kill us, for
we were tired and our feet were cut to pieces by the long, rough journey from
the Wall.” Then suddenly her voice grew louder again and the smile of happy
confidence came back into her eyes. There was the deep earnestness of love in
it, of love that cannot end or die. She looked up into his face. “But soon
now,” she said, “we shall be free. For you have come, and it is nearly
finished—this weary little present dream.”
“How,” he asked, “shall we get free?” A red mist
swam momentarily before his eyes.
“My father,” she replied at once, “will tell you
all. It is quite easy.”
“Your father, too, remembers?”[101]
“The moment the collar touches him,” she said,
“he is a priest again. See! Here he comes forth already to meet us, and to bid
you welcome.”
Holt looked up, startled. He had hardly noticed,
so absorbed had he been in the words that half intoxicated him, the distance
they had covered. The cottage was now close at hand, and a tall, powerfully
built man, wearing a shepherd’s rough clothing, stood a few feet in front of
him. His stature, breadth of shoulder and thick black beard made up a striking
figure. The dark eyes, with fire in them, gazed straight into his own, and a
kindly smile played round the stern and vigorous mouth.
“Greeting, my son,” said a deep, booming voice,
“for I shall call you my son as I did of old. The bond of the spirit is
stronger than that of the flesh, and with us three the tie is indeed of triple
strength. You come, too, at an auspicious hour, for the omens are favourable
and the time of our liberation is at hand.” He took the other’s hand in a grip
that might have killed an ox and yet was warm with gentle kindliness, while
Holt, now caught wholly into the spirit of some deep reality he could not
master yet accepted, saw that the wrist was small, the fingers shapely, the
gesture itself one of dignity and refinement.
“Greeting, my father,” he replied, as naturally
as though he said more modern words.
“Come in with me, I pray,” pursued the other,
leading the way, “and let me show you the poor accommodation we have provided,
yet the best that we can offer.”
He stooped to pass the threshold, and as Holt
stooped likewise the girl took his hand and he knew that his bewitchment was
complete. Entering the low doorway, he passed through a kitchen, where only the
roughest, scantiest furniture was visible, into another room that was
completely bare. A heap of dried bracken had been spread on the floor in one
corner to form a bed. Beside it lay two cheap, coloured blankets. There was
nothing else.
“Our place is poor,” said the man, smiling
courteously,[102] but
with that dignity and air of welcome which made the hovel seem a palace. “Yet
it may serve, perhaps, for the short time that you will need it. Our little
dream here is wellnigh over, now that you have come. The long weary pilgrimage
at last draws to a close.” The girl had left them alone a moment, and the man
stepped closer to his guest. His face grew solemn, his voice deeper and more
earnest suddenly, the light in his eyes seemed actually to flame with the
enthusiasm of a great belief. “Why have you tarried thus so long, and where?”
he asked in a lowered tone that vibrated in the little space. “We have sought
you with prayer and fasting, and she has spent her nights for you in tears. You
lost the way, it must be. The lesser dreams entangled your feet, I see.” A
touch of sadness entered the voice, the eyes held pity in them. “It is, alas,
too easy, I well know,” he murmured. “It is too easy.”
“I lost the way,” the other replied. It seemed
suddenly that his heart was filled with fire. “But now,” he cried aloud, “now
that I have found her, I will never, never let her go again. My feet are steady
and my way is sure.”
“For ever and ever, my son,” boomed the happy,
yet almost solemn answer, “she is yours. Our freedom is at hand.”
He turned and crossed the little kitchen again,
making a sign that his guest should follow him. They stood together by the
door, looking out across the tarn in silence. The afternoon sunshine fell in a
golden blaze across the bare hills that seemed to smoke with the glory of the
fiery light. But the Crag loomed dark in shadow overhead, and the little lake
lay deep and black beneath it.
“Acella, Acella!” called the man, the name
breaking upon his companion as with a shock of sweet delicious fire that filled
his entire being, as the girl came the same instant from behind the cottage.
“The Gods call me,”[103] said her father. “I go now to the hill.
Protect our guest and comfort him in my absence.”
Without another word, he strode away up the
hillside and presently was visible standing on the summit of the Crag, his arms
stretched out above his head to heaven, his great head thrown back, his bearded
face turned upwards. An impressive, even a majestic figure he looked, as his
bulk and stature rose in dark silhouette against the brilliant evening sky.
Holt stood motionless, watching him for several minutes, his heart swelling in
his breast, his pulses thumping before some great nameless pressure that rose
from the depths of his being. That inner attitude which seemed a new and yet
more satisfying attitude to life than he had known hitherto, had crystallized.
Define it he could not, he only knew that he accepted it as natural. It
satisfied him. The sight of that dignified, gaunt figure worshipping upon the
hill-top enflamed him....
“I have brought the stone,” a voice interrupted
his reflections, and turning, he saw the girl beside him. She held out for his
inspection a dark square object that looked to him at first like a black stone
lying against the brown skin of her hand. “The Mystery Stone,” the girl added,
as their faces bent down together to examine it. “It is there I see the dreams
I told you of.”
He took it from her and found that it was heavy,
composed apparently of something like black quartz, with a brilliant polished
surface that revealed clear depths within. Once, evidently, it had been set in
a stand or frame, for the marks where it had been attached still showed, and it
was obviously of great age. He felt confused, the mind in him troubled yet
excited, as he gazed. The effect upon him was as though a wind rose suddenly
and passed across his inmost subjective life, setting its entire contents in
rushing motion.
“And here,” the girl said, “is the dagger.”[104]
He took from her the short bronze weapon,
feeling at once instinctively its ragged edge, its keen point, sharp and
effective still. The handle had long since rotted away, but the bronze tongue,
and the holes where the rivets had been, remained, and, as he touched it, the
confusion and trouble in his mind increased to a kind of turmoil, in which
violence, linked to something tameless, wild and almost savage, was the
dominating emotion. He turned to seize the girl and crush her to him in a
passionate embrace, but she held away, throwing back her lovely head, her eyes
shining, her lips parted, yet one hand stretched out to stop him.
“First look into it with me,” she said quietly.
“Let us see together.”
She sat down on the turf beside the cottage
door, and Holt, obeying, took his place beside her. She remained very still for
some minutes, covering the stone with both hands as though to warm it. Her lips
moved. She seemed to be repeating some kind of invocation beneath her breath,
though no actual words were audible. Presently her hands parted. They sat
together gazing at the polished surface. They looked within.
“There comes a white mist in the heart of the
stone,” the girl whispered. “It will soon open. The pictures will then grow.
Look!” she exclaimed after a brief pause, “they are forming now.”
“I see only mist,” her companion murmured,
gazing intently. “Only mist I see.”
She took his hand and instantly the mist parted.
He found himself peering into another landscape which opened before his eyes as
though it were a photograph. Hills covered with heather stretched away on every
side.
“Hills, I see,” he whispered. “The ancient
hills——”
“Watch closely,” she replied, holding his hand
firmly.
At first the landscape was devoid of any sign of
life; then suddenly it surged and swarmed with moving figures. Torrents of men
poured over the hill-crests and down their[105] heathery sides in
columns. He could see them clearly—great hairy men, clad in skins, with thick
shields on their left arms or slung over their backs, and short stabbing spears
in their hands. Thousands upon thousands poured over in an endless stream. In
the distance he could see other columns sweeping in a turning movement. A few
of the men rode rough ponies and seemed to be directing the march, and these,
he knew, were the chiefs....
The scene grew dimmer, faded, died away
completely. Another took its place:
By the faint light he knew that it was dawn. The
undulating country, less hilly than before, was still wild and uncultivated. A
great wall, with towers at intervals, stretched away till it was lost in
shadowy distance. On the nearest of these towers he saw a sentinel clad in
armour, gazing out across the rolling country. The armour gleamed faintly in
the pale glimmering light, as the man suddenly snatched up a bugle and blew
upon it. From a brazier burning beside him he next seized a brand and fired a
great heap of brushwood. The smoke rose in a dense column into the air almost
immediately, and from all directions, with incredible rapidity, figures came
pouring up to man the wall. Hurriedly they strung their bows, and laid spare
arrows close beside them on the coping. The light grew brighter. The whole
country was alive with savages; like the waves of the sea they came rolling in
enormous numbers. For several minutes the wall held. Then, in an impetuous,
fearful torrent, they poured over....
It faded, died away, was gone again, and a
moment later yet another took its place:
But this time the landscape was familiar, and he
recognized the tarn. He saw the savages upon the ledge that flanked the
dominating Crag; they had three captives with them. He saw two men. The other
was a woman. But the woman had fallen exhausted to the ground, and a chief on a
rough pony rode back to see what had delayed[106] the march.
Glancing at the captives, he made a fierce gesture with his arm towards the
water far below. Instantly the woman was jerked cruelly to her feet and forced
onwards till the summit of the Crag was reached. A man snatched something from
her hand. A second later she was hurled over the brink.
The two men were next dragged on to the dizzy
spot where she had stood. Dead with fatigue, bleeding from numerous wounds, yet
at this awful moment they straightened themselves, casting contemptuous glances
at the fierce savages surrounding them. They were Romans and would die like
Romans. Holt saw their faces clearly for the first time.
He sprang up with a cry of anguished fury.
“The second man!” he exclaimed. “You saw the second
man!”
The girl, releasing his hand, turned her eyes
slowly up to his, so that he met the flame of her ancient and undying love
shining like stars upon him out of the night of time.
“Ever since that moment,” she said in a low
voice that trembled, “I have been looking, waiting for you——”
He took her in his arms and smothered her words
with kisses, holding her fiercely to him as though he would never let her go.
“I, too,” he said, his whole being burning with his love, “I have been looking,
waiting for you. Now I have found you. We have found each other...!”
The dusk fell slowly, imperceptibly. As twilight
slowly draped the gaunt hills, blotting out familiar details, so the strong
dream, veil upon veil, drew closer over the soul of the wanderer, obliterating
finally the last reminder of To-day. The little wind had dropped and the
desolate moors lay silent, but for the hum of distant water falling to its
valley bed. His life, too, and the life of the girl, he knew, were similarly
falling, falling into some deep shadowed bed where rest would come at last. No
details troubled him, he asked himself no questions. A profound[107] sense
of happy peace numbed every nerve and stilled his beating heart.
He felt no fear, no anxiety, no hint of alarm or
uneasiness vexed his singular contentment. He realized one thing only—that the
girl lay in his arms, he held her fast, her breath mingled with his own. They
had found each other. What else mattered?
From time to time, as the daylight faded and the
sun went down behind the moors, she spoke. She uttered words he vaguely heard,
listening, though with a certain curious effort, before he closed the thing she
said with kisses. Even the fierceness of his blood was gone. The world lay
still, life almost ceased to flow. Lapped in the deeps of his great love, he
was redeemed, perhaps, of violence and savagery....
“Three dark birds,” she whispered, “pass across
the sky ... they fall beyond the ridge. The omens are favourable. A hawk now
follows them, cleaving the sky with pointed wings.”
“A hawk,” he murmured. “The badge of my old
Legion.”
“My father will perform the sacrifice,” he heard
again, though it seemed a long interval had passed, and the man’s figure was
now invisible on the Crag amid the gathering darkness. “Already he prepares the
fire. Look, the sacred island is alight. He has the black cock ready for the
knife.”
Holt roused himself with difficulty, lifting his
face from the garden of her hair. A faint light, he saw, gleamed fitfully on
the holm within the tarn. Her father, then, had descended from the Crag, and
had lit the sacrificial fire upon the stones. But what did the doings of the
father matter now to him?
“The dark bird,” he repeated dully, “the black
victim the Gods of the Underworld alone accept. It is good, Acella, it is
good!” He was about to sink back again,[108] taking her against
his breast as before, when she resisted and sat up suddenly.
“It is time,” she said aloud. “The hour has
come. My father climbs, and we must join him on the summit. Come!”
She took his hand and raised him to his feet,
and together they began the rough ascent towards the Crag. As they passed along
the shore of the Tarn of Blood, he saw the fire reflected in the ink-black
waters; he made out, too, though dimly, a rough circle of big stones, with a
larger flag-stone lying in the centre. Three small fires of bracken and wood,
placed in a triangle with its apex towards the Standing Stone on the distant
hill, burned briskly, the crackling material sending out sparks that pierced
the columns of thick smoke. And in this smoke, peering, shifting, appearing and
disappearing, it seemed he saw great faces moving. The flickering light and
twirling smoke made clear sight difficult. His bliss, his lethargy were very
deep. They left the tarn below them and hand in hand began to climb the final
slope.
Whether the physical effort of climbing
disturbed the deep pressure of the mood that numbed his senses, or whether the
cold draught of wind they met upon the ridge restored some vital detail of
To-day, Holt does not know. Something, at any rate, in him wavered suddenly, as
though a centre of gravity had shifted slightly. There was a perceptible
alteration in the balance of thought and feeling that had held invariable now
for many hours. It seemed to him that something heavy lifted, or rather, began
to lift—a weight, a shadow, something oppressive that obstructed light. A ray
of light, as it were, struggled through the thick darkness that enveloped him.
To him, as he paused on the ridge to recover his breath, came this vague
suggestion of faint light breaking across the blackness. It was objective.
“See,” said the girl in a low voice, “the moon
is rising.[109] It
lights the sacred island. The blood-red waters turn to silver.”
He saw, indeed, that a huge three-quarter moon
now drove with almost visible movement above the distant line of hills; the
little tarn gleamed as with silvery armour; the glow of the sacrificial fires
showed red across it. He looked down with a shudder into the sheer depth that
opened at his feet, then turned to look at his companion. He started and shrank
back. Her face, lit by the moon and by the fire, shone pale as death; her black
hair framed it with a terrible suggestiveness; the eyes, though brilliant as
ever, had a film upon them. She stood in an attitude of both ecstasy and
resignation, and one outstretched arm pointed towards the summit where her
father stood.
Her lips parted, a marvellous smile broke over
her features, her voice was suddenly unfamiliar: “He wears the collar,” she
uttered. “Come. Our time is here at last, and we are ready. See, he waits for
us!”
There rose for the first time struggle and
opposition in him; he resisted the pressure of her hand that had seized his own
and drew him forcibly along. Whence came the resistance and the opposition he
could not tell, but though he followed her, he was aware that the refusal in
him strengthened. The weight of darkness that oppressed him shifted a little
more, an inner light increased; The same moment they reached the summit and stood
beside—the priest. There was a curious sound of fluttering. The figure, he saw,
was naked, save for a rough blanket tied loosely about the waist.
“The hour has come at last,” cried his deep
booming voice that woke echoes from the dark hills about them. “We are alone
now with our Gods.” And he broke then into a monotonous rhythmic chanting that
rose and fell upon the wind, yet in a tongue that sounded strange; his erect
figure swayed slightly with its cadences; his black beard swept his naked
chest; and his face, turned skywards, shone in the mingled light of moon above
and fire[110] below,
yet with an added light as well that burned within him rather than without. He
was a weird, magnificent figure, a priest of ancient rites invoking his
deathless deities upon the unchanging hills.
But upon Holt, too, as he stared in awed
amazement, an inner light had broken suddenly. It came as with a dazzling blaze
that at first paralysed thought and action. His mind cleared, but too abruptly
for movement, either of tongue or hand, to be possible. Then, abruptly, the
inner darkness rolled away completely. The light in the wild eyes of the great
chanting, swaying figure, he now knew was the light of mania.
The faint fluttering sound increased, and the
voice of the girl was oddly mingled with it. The priest had ceased his
invocation. Holt, aware that he stood alone, saw the girl go past him carrying
a big black bird that struggled with vainly beating wings.
“Behold the sacrifice,” she said, as she knelt
before her father and held up the victim. “May the Gods accept it as presently
They shall accept us too!”
The great figure stooped and took the offering,
and with one blow of the knife he held, its head was severed from its body. The
blood spattered on the white face of the kneeling girl. Holt was aware for the
first time that she, too, was now unclothed; but for a loose blanket, her white
body gleamed against the dark heather in the moonlight. At the same moment she
rose to her feet, stood upright, turned towards him so that he saw the dark
hair streaming across her naked shoulders, and, with a face of ecstasy, yet
ever that strange film upon her eyes, her voice came to him on the wind:
“Farewell, yet not farewell! We shall meet, all
three, in the underworld. The Gods accept us!”
Turning her face away, she stepped towards the
ominous figure behind, and bared her ivory neck and breast to the knife. The
eyes of the maniac were upon her own;[111] she was as
helpless and obedient as a lamb before his spell.
Then Holt’s horrible paralysis, if only just in
time, was lifted. The priest had raised his arm, the bronze knife with its
ragged edge gleamed in the air, with the other hand he had already gathered up
the thick dark hair, so that the neck lay bare and open to the final blow. But it
was two other details, Holt thinks, that set his muscles suddenly free,
enabling him to act with the swift judgment which, being wholly unexpected,
disconcerted both maniac and victim and frustrated the awful culmination. The
dark spots of blood upon the face he loved, and the sudden final fluttering of
the dead bird’s wings upon the ground—these two things, life actually touching
death, released the held-back springs.
He leaped forward. He received the blow upon his
left arm and hand. It was his right fist that sent the High Priest to earth
with a blow that, luckily, felled him in the direction away from the dreadful
brink, and it was his right arm and hand, he became aware some time afterwards
only, that were chiefly of use in carrying the fainting girl and her
unconscious father back to the shelter of the cottage, and to the best help and
comfort he could provide....
It was several years afterwards, in a very
different setting, that he found himself spelling out slowly to a little boy
the lettering cut into a circlet of bronze the child found on his study table.
To the child he told a fairy tale, then dismissed him to play with his mother
in the garden. But, when alone, he rubbed away the verdigris with great care,
for the circlet was thin and frail with age, as he examined again the little
picture of a tripod from which smoke issued, incised neatly in the metal. Below
it, almost as sharp as when the Roman craftsman cut it first, was the name
Acella. He touched the letters tenderly with his left hand, from which two
fingers were missing, then placed it in a drawer of his desk and turned the
key.[112]
“That curious name,” said a low voice behind his
chair. His wife had come in and was looking over his shoulder. “You love it,
and I dread it.” She sat on the desk beside him, her eyes troubled. “It was the
name father used to call me in his illness.”
Her husband looked at her with passionate
tenderness, but said no word.
“And this,” she went on, taking the broken hand
in both her own, “is the price you paid to me for his life. I often wonder what
strange good deity brought you upon the lonely moor that night, and just in the
very nick of time. You remember...?”
“The deity who helps true lovers, of course,” he
said with a smile, evading the question. The deeper memory, he knew, had closed
absolutely in her since the moment of the attempted double crime. He kissed
her, murmuring to himself as he did so, but too low for her to hear,
“Acella! My Acella...!”
6.THE VALLEY OF THE BEASTS
1
AS they emerged suddenly from the dense
forest the Indian halted, and Grimwood, his employer, stood beside him, gazing
into the beautiful wooded valley that lay spread below them in the blaze of a
golden sunset. Both men leaned upon their rifles, caught by the enchantment of
the unexpected scene.
“We camp here,” said Tooshalli abruptly, after a
careful survey. “To-morrow we make a plan.”
He spoke excellent English. The note of
decision, almost of authority, in his voice was noticeable, but Grimwood set it
down to the natural excitement of the moment. Every track they had followed
during the last two days, but one track in particular as well, had headed
straight for this remote and hidden valley, and the sport promised to be
unusual.
“That’s so,” he replied, in the tone of one giving
an order. “You can make camp ready at once.” And he sat down on a fallen
hemlock to take off his moccasin boots and grease his feet that ached from the
arduous day now drawing to a close. Though under ordinary circumstances he
would have pushed on for another hour or two, he was not averse to a night
here, for exhaustion had come upon him during the last bit of rough going, his
eye and muscles were no longer steady, and it was doubtful if he could have
shot straight enough to kill. He did not mean to miss a second time.[114]
With his Canadian friend, Iredale, the latter’s
half-breed, and his own Indian, Tooshalli, the party had set out three weeks
ago to find the “wonderful big moose” the Indians reported were travelling in
the Snow River country. They soon found that the tale was true; tracks were
abundant; they saw fine animals nearly every day, but though carrying good
heads, the hunters expected better still and left them alone. Pushing up the
river to a chain of small lakes near its source, they then separated into two
parties, each with its nine-foot bark canoe, and packed in for three days after
the yet bigger animals the Indians agreed would be found in the deeper woods
beyond. Excitement was keen, expectation keener still. The day before they separated,
Iredale shot the biggest moose of his life, and its head, bigger even than the
grand Alaskan heads, hangs in his house to-day. Grimwood’s hunting blood was
fairly up. His blood was of the fiery, not to say ferocious, quality. It almost
seemed he liked killing for its own sake.
Four days after the party broke into two he came
upon a gigantic track, whose measurements and length of stride keyed every
nerve he possessed to its highest tension.
Tooshalli examined the tracks for some minutes
with care. “It is the biggest moose in the world,” he said at length, a new
expression on his inscrutable red visage.
Following it all that day, they yet got no sight
of the big fellow that seemed to be frequenting a little marshy dip of country,
too small to be called valley, where willow and undergrowth abounded. He had
not yet scented his pursuers. They were after him again at dawn. Towards the
evening of the second day Grimwood caught a sudden glimpse of the monster among
a thick clump of willows, and the sight of the magnificent head that easily
beat all records set his heart beating like a hammer with excitement. He aimed
and fired. But the moose, instead of crashing, went thundering away through the
further scrub and disappeared, the sound of his plunging[115] canter
presently dying away. Grimwood had missed, even if he had wounded.
They camped, and all next day, leaving the canoe
behind, they followed the huge track, but though finding signs of blood, these
were not plentiful, and the shot had evidently only grazed the animal. The
travelling was of the hardest. Towards evening, utterly exhausted, the spoor
led them to the ridge they now stood upon, gazing down into the enchanting
valley that opened at their feet. The giant moose had gone down into this
valley. He would consider himself safe there. Grimwood agreed with the Indian’s
judgment. They would camp for the night and continue at dawn the wild hunt
after “the biggest moose in the world.”
Supper was over, the small fire used for cooking
dying down, with Grimwood became first aware that the Indian was not behaving
quite as usual. What particular detail drew his attention is hard to say. He
was a slow-witted, heavy man, full-blooded, unobservant; a fact had to hurt him
through his comfort, through his pleasure, before he noticed it. Yet anyone
else must have observed the changed mood of the Redskin long ago. Tooshalli had
made the fire, fried the bacon, served the tea, and was arranging the blankets,
his own and his employer’s, before the latter remarked upon his—silence.
Tooshalli had not uttered a word for over an hour and a half, since he had
first set eyes upon the new valley, to be exact. And his employer now noticed
the unaccustomed silence, because after food he liked to listen to wood talk
and hunting lore.
“Tired out, aren’t you?” said big Grimwood,
looking into the dark face across the firelight. He resented the absence of
conversation, now that he noticed it. He was over-weary himself, he felt more
irritable than usual, though his temper was always vile.
“Lost your tongue, eh?” he went on with a growl,
as the Indian returned his stare with solemn, expressionless[116] face.
That dark inscrutable look got on his nerves a bit. “Speak up, man!” he
exclaimed sharply. “What’s it all about?”
The Englishman had at last realized that there
was something to “speak up” about. The discovery, in his present state, annoyed
him further. Tooshalli stared gravely, but made no reply. The silence was
prolonged almost into minutes. Presently the head turned sideways, as though
the man listened. The other watched him very closely, anger growing in him.
But it was the way the Redskin turned his head,
keeping his body rigid, that gave the jerk to Grimwood’s nerves, providing him
with a sensation he had never known in his life before—it gave him what is
generally called “the goose-flesh.” It seemed to jangle his entire system, yet
at the same time made him cautious. He did not like it, this combination of
emotions puzzled him.
“Say something, I tell you,” he repeated in a
harsher tone, raising his voice. He sat up, drawing his great body closer to
the fire. “Say something, damn it!”
His voice fell dead against the surrounding
trees, making the silence of the forest unpleasantly noticeable. Very still the
great woods stood about them; there was no wind, no stir of branches; only the
crackle of a snapping twig was audible from time to time, as the night-life
moved unwarily sometimes watching the humans round their little fire. The
October air had a frosty touch that nipped.
The Redskin did not answer. No muscle of his
neck nor of his stiffened body moved. He seemed all ears.
“Well?” repeated the Englishman, lowering his
voice this time instinctively. “What d’you hear, God damn it!” The touch of odd
nervousness that made his anger grow betrayed itself in his language.
Tooshalli slowly turned his head back again to
its normal position, the body rigid as before.
“I hear nothing, Mr. Grimwood,” he said, gazing
with quiet dignity into his employer’s eyes.[117]
This was too much for the other, a man of savage
temper at the best of times. He was the type of Englishman who held strong
views as to the right way of treating “inferior” races.
“That’s a lie, Tooshalli, and I won’t have you
lie to me. Now what was it? Tell me at once!”
“I hear nothing,” repeated the other. “I only
think.”
“And what is it you’re pleased to think?”
Impatience made a nasty expression round the mouth.
“I go not,” was the abrupt reply, unalterable
decision in the voice.
The man’s rejoinder was so unexpected that
Grimwood found nothing to say at first. For a moment he did not take its
meaning; his mind, always slow, was confused by impatience, also by what he
considered the foolishness of the little scene. Then in a flash he understood;
but he also understood the immovable obstinacy of the race he had to deal with.
Tooshalli was informing him that he refused to go into the valley where the big
moose had vanished. And his astonishment was so great at first that he merely
sat and stared. No words came to him.
“It is——” said the Indian, but used a native
term.
“What’s that mean?” Grimwood found his tongue,
but his quiet tone was ominous.
“Mr. Grimwood, it mean the ‘Valley of the
Beasts,’” was the reply in a tone quieter still.
The Englishman made a great, a genuine effort at
self-control. He was dealing, he forced himself to remember, with a
superstitious Redskin. He knew the stubbornness of the type. If the man left
him his sport was irretrievably spoilt, for he could not hunt in this
wilderness alone, and even if he got the coveted head, he could never, never
get it out alone. His native selfishness seconded his effort. Persuasion, if
only he could keep back his rising anger, was his rôle to play.
“The Valley of the Beasts,” he said, a smile on
his lips rather than in his darkening eyes; “but that’s just what[118] we
want. It’s beasts we’re after, isn’t it?” His voice had a false cheery ring
that could not have deceived a child. “But what d’you mean, anyhow—the Valley
of the Beasts?” He asked it with a dull attempt at sympathy.
“It belong to Ishtot, Mr. Grimwood.” The man
looked him full in the face, no flinching in the eyes.
“My—our—big moose is there,” said the other, who
recognized the name of the Indian Hunting God, and understanding better, felt
confident he would soon persuade his man. Tooshalli, he remembered, too, was
nominally a Christian. “We’ll follow him at dawn and get the biggest head the
world has ever seen. You will be famous,” he added, his temper better in hand
again. “Your tribe will honour you. And the white hunters will pay you much
money.”
“He go there to save himself. I go not.”
The other’s anger revived with a leap at this
stupid obstinacy. But, in spite of it, he noticed the odd choice of words. He
began to realize that nothing now would move the man. At the same time he also
realized that violence on his part must prove worse than useless. Yet violence
was natural to his “dominant” type. “That brute Grimwood” was the way most men
spoke of him.
“Back at the settlement you’re a Christian,
remember,” he tried, in his clumsy way, another line. “And disobedience means
hell-fire. You know that!”
“I a Christian—at the post,” was the reply, “but
out here the Red God rule. Ishtot keep that valley for himself. No Indian hunt
there.” It was as though a granite boulder spoke.
The savage temper of the Englishman, enforced by
the long difficult suppression, rose wickedly into sudden flame. He stood up,
kicking his blankets aside. He strode across the dying fire to the Indian’s
side. Tooshalli also rose. They faced each other, two humans alone in the
wilderness, watched by countless invisible forest eyes.
Tooshalli stood motionless, yet as though he
expected[119] violence
from the foolish, ignorant white-face. “You go alone, Mr. Grimwood.” There was
no fear in him.
Grimwood choked with rage. His words came forth
with difficulty, though he roared them into the silence of the forest:
“I pay you, don’t I? You’ll do what I say,
not what you say!” His voice woke the echoes.
The Indian, arms hanging by his side, gave the
old reply.
“I go not,” he repeated firmly.
It stung the other into uncontrollable fury.
The beast then came uppermost; it came out.
“You’ve said that once too often, Tooshalli!” and he struck him brutally in the
face. The Indian fell, rose to his knees again, collapsed sideways beside the
fire, then struggled back into a sitting position. He never once took his eyes
from the white man’s face.
Beside himself with anger, Grimwood stood over
him. “Is that enough? Will you obey me now?” he shouted.
“I go not,” came the thick reply, blood
streaming from his mouth. The eyes had no flinching in them. “That valley
Ishtot keep. Ishtot see us now. He see you.” The last words he
uttered with strange, almost uncanny emphasis.
Grimwood, arm raised, fist clenched, about to
repeat his terrible assault, paused suddenly. His arm sank to his side. What
exactly stopped him he could never say. For one thing, he feared his own anger,
feared that if he let himself go he would not stop till he had killed—committed
murder. He knew his own fearful temper and stood afraid of it. Yet it was not
only that. The calm firmness of the Redskin, his courage under pain, and
something in the fixed and burning eyes arrested him. Was it also something in
the words he had used—“Ishtot see you”—that stung him into a queer
caution midway in his violence?
He could not say. He only knew that a momentary[120] sense
of awe came over him. He became unpleasantly aware of the enveloping forest, so
still, listening in a kind of impenetrable, remorseless silence. This lonely
wilderness, looking silently upon what might easily prove murder, laid a faint,
inexplicable chill upon his raging blood. The hand dropped slowly to his side
again, the fist unclenched itself, his breath came more evenly.
“Look you here,” he said, adopting without
knowing it the local way of speech. “I ain’t a bad man, though your going-on do
make a man damned tired. I’ll give you another chance.” His voice was sullen,
but a new note in it surprised even himself. “I’ll do that. You can have the
night to think it over, Tooshalli—see? Talk it over with your——”
He did not finish the sentence. Somehow the name
of the Redskin God refused to pass his lips. He turned away, flung himself into
his blankets, and in less than ten minutes, exhausted as much by his anger as
by the day’s hard going, he was sound asleep.
The Indian, crouching beside the dying fire, had
said nothing.
Night held the woods, the sky was thick with
stars, the life of the forest went about its business quietly, with that
wondrous skill which millions of years have perfected. The Redskin, so close to
this skill that he instinctively used and borrowed from it, was silent, alert
and wise, his outline as inconspicuous as though he merged, like his
four-footed teachers, into the mass of the surrounding bush.
He moved perhaps, yet nothing knew he moved. His
wisdom, derived from that eternal, ancient mother who from infinite experience
makes no mistakes, did not fail him. His soft tread made no sound; his
breathing, as his weight, was calculated. The stars observed him, but they did
not tell; the light air knew his whereabouts, yet without betrayal....
The chill dawn gleamed at length between the
trees,[121] lighting
the pale ashes of an extinguished fire, also of a bulky, obvious form beneath a
blanket. The form moved clumsily. The cold was penetrating.
And that bulky form now moved because a dream
had come to trouble it. A dark figure stole across its confused field of
vision. The form started, but it did not wake. The figure spoke: “Take this,”
it whispered, handing a little stick, curiously carved. “It is the totem of
great Ishtot. In the valley all memory of the White Gods will leave you. Call
upon Ishtot.... Call on Him if you dare”; and the dark figure glided away out
of the dream and out of all remembrance....
2
The first thing Grimwood noticed when he woke
was that Tooshalli was not there. No fire burned, no tea was ready. He felt
exceedingly annoyed. He glared about him, then got up with a curse to make the
fire. His mind seemed confused and troubled. At first he only realized one
thing clearly—his guide had left him in the night.
It was very cold. He lit the wood with
difficulty and made his tea, and the actual world came gradually back to him.
The Red Indian had gone; perhaps the blow, perhaps the superstitious terror,
perhaps both, had driven him away. He was alone, that was the outstanding fact.
For anything beyond outstanding facts, Grimwood felt little interest.
Imaginative speculation was beyond his compass. Close to the brute creation, it
seemed, his nature lay.
It was while packing his blankets—he did it
automatically, a dull, vicious resentment in him—that his fingers struck a bit
of wood that he was about to throw away when its unusual shape caught his
attention suddenly. His odd dream came back then. But was it a dream? The bit
of wood was undoubtedly a totem stick.[122] He examined it. He
paid it more attention than he meant to, wished to. Yes, it was unquestionably
a totem stick. The dream, then, was not a dream. Tooshalli had quit, but,
following with Redskin faithfulness some code of his own, had left him the
means of safety. He chuckled sourly, but thrust the stick inside his belt. “One
never knows,” he mumbled to himself.
He faced the situation squarely. He was alone in
the wilderness. His capable, experienced woodsman had deserted him. The
situation was serious. What should he do? A weakling would certainly retrace
his steps, following the track they had made, afraid to be left alone in this
vast hinterland of pathless forest. But Grimwood was of another build. Alarmed
he might be, but he would not give in. He had the defects of his own qualities.
The brutality of his nature argued force. He was determined and a sportsman. He
would go on. And ten minutes after breakfast, having first made a cache of what provisions were left over, he was
on his way—down across the ridge and into the mysterious valley, the Valley of
the Beasts.
It looked, in the morning sunlight, entrancing.
The trees closed in behind him, but he did not notice. It led him on....
He followed the track of the gigantic moose he
meant to kill, and the sweet, delicious sunshine helped him. The air was like
wine, the seductive spoor of the great beast, with here and there a faint
splash of blood on leaves or ground, lay forever just before his eyes. He found
the valley, though the actual word did not occur to him, enticing; more and
more he noticed the beauty, the desolate grandeur of the mighty spruce and
hemlock, the splendour of the granite bluffs which in places rose above the
forest and caught the sun.... The valley was deeper, vaster than he had
imagined. He felt safe, at home in it, though, again these actual terms did not
occur to him.... Here he could hide for ever and find peace.... He became[123] aware
of a new quality in the deep loneliness. The scenery for the first time in his
life appealed to him, and the form of the appeal was curious—he felt the
comfort of it.
For a man of his habit, this was odd, yet the
new sensations stole over him so gently, their approach so gradual, that they
were first recognized by his consciousness indirectly. They had already
established themselves in him before he noticed them; and the indirectness took
this form—that the passion of the chase gave place to an interest in the valley
itself. The lust of the hunt, the fierce desire to find and kill, the keen
wish, in a word, to see his quarry within range, to aim, to fire, to witness
the natural consummation of the long expedition—these had all become measurably
less, while the effect of the valley upon him had increased in strength. There
was a welcome about it that he did not understand.
The change was singular, yet, oddly enough, it
did not occur to him as singular; it was unnatural, yet it did not strike him
so. To a dull mind of his unobservant, unanalytical type, a change had to be
marked and dramatic before he noticed it; something in the nature of a shock
must accompany it for him to recognize it had happened. And there had been no
shock. The spoor of the great moose was much cleaner, now that he caught up
with the animal that made it; the blood more frequent; he had noticed the spot
where it had rested, its huge body leaving a marked imprint on the soft ground;
where it had reached up to eat the leaves of saplings here and there was also
visible; he had come undoubtedly very near to it, and any minute now might see
its great bulk within range of an easy shot. Yet his ardour had somehow
lessened.
He first realized this change in himself when it
suddenly occurred to him that the animal itself had grown less cautious. It
must scent him easily now, since a moose, its sight being indifferent, depends
chiefly for its safety upon its unusually keen sense of smell, and the wind
came[124] from
behind him. This now struck him as decidedly uncommon: the moose itself was
obviously careless of his close approach. It felt no fear.
It was this inexplicable alteration in the
animal’s behaviour that made him recognize, at last, the alteration in his own.
He had followed it now for a couple of hours and had descended some eight
hundred to a thousand feet; the trees were thinner and more sparsely placed;
there were open, park-like places where silver birch, sumach and maple splashed
their blazing colours; and a crystal stream, broken by many waterfalls, foamed
past towards the bed of the great valley, yet another thousand feet below. By a
quiet pool against some over-arching rocks, the moose had evidently paused to
drink, paused at its leisure, moreover. Grimwood, rising from a close
examination of the direction the creature had taken after drinking—the
hoof-marks were fresh and very distinct in the marshy ground about the
pool—looked suddenly straight into the great creature’s eyes. It was not twenty
yards from where he stood, yet he had been standing on that spot for at least
ten minutes, caught by the wonder and loneliness of the scene. The moose,
therefore, had been close beside him all this time. It had been calmly
drinking, undisturbed by his presence, unafraid.
The shock came now, the shock that woke his
heavy nature into realization. For some seconds, probably for minutes, he stood
rooted to the ground, motionless, hardly breathing. He stared as though he saw
a vision. The animal’s head was lowered, but turned obliquely somewhat, so that
the eyes, placed sideways in its great head, could see him properly; its
immense proboscis hung as though stuffed upon an English wall; he saw the
fore-feet planted wide apart, the slope of the enormous shoulders dropping back
towards the fine hind-quarters and lean flanks. It was a magnificent bull. The
horns and head justified his wildest expectations, they were superb, a record
specimen, and a phrase—where had he[125] heard it?—ran
vaguely, as from far distance, through his mind: “the biggest moose in the
world.”
There was the extraordinary fact, however, that
he did not shoot; nor feel the wish to shoot. The familiar instinct, so strong
hitherto in his blood, made no sign; the desire to kill apparently had left
him. To raise his rifle, aim and fire had become suddenly an absolute
impossibility.
He did not move. The animal and the human stared
into each other’s eyes for a length of time whose interval he could not
measure. Then came a soft noise close beside him: the rifle had slipped from
his grasp and fallen with a thud into the mossy earth at his feet. And the
moose, for the first time now, was moving. With slow, easy stride, its great
weight causing a squelching sound as the feet drew out of the moist ground, it
came towards him, the bulk of the shoulders giving it an appearance of swaying
like a ship at sea. It reached his side, it almost touched him, the magnificent
head bent low, the spread of the gigantic horns lay beneath his very eyes. He
could have patted, stroked it. He saw, with a touch of pity, that blood trickled
from a sore in its left shoulder, matting the thick hair. It sniffed the fallen
rifle.
Then, lifting its head and shoulders again, it
sniffed the air, this time with an audible sound that shook from Grimwood’s
mind the last possibility that he witnessed a vision or dreamed a dream. One
moment it gazed into his face, its big brown eyes shining and unafraid, then
turned abruptly, and swung away at a speed ever rapidly increasing across the
park-like spaces till it was lost finally among the dark tangle of undergrowth
beyond. And the Englishman’s muscles turned to paper, his paralysis passed, his
legs refused to support his weight, and he sank heavily to the ground....[126]
3
It seems he slept, slept long and heavily; he
sat up, stretched himself, yawned and rubbed his eyes. The sun had moved across
the sky, for the shadows, he saw, now ran from west to east, and they were long
shadows. He had slept evidently for hours, and evening was drawing in. He was
aware that he felt hungry. In his pouchlike pockets, he had dried meat, sugar,
matches, tea, and the little billy that never left him. He would make a fire,
boil some tea and eat.
But he took no steps to carry out his purpose,
he felt disinclined to move, he sat thinking, thinking.... What was he thinking
about? He did not know, he could not say exactly; it was more like fugitive
pictures that passed across his mind. Who, and where, was he? This was the
Valley of the Beasts, that he knew; he felt sure of nothing else. How long had
he been here, and where had he come from, and why? The questions did not linger
for their answers, almost as though his interest in them was merely automatic.
He felt happy, peaceful, unafraid.
He looked about him, and the spell of this
virgin forest came upon him like a charm; only the sound of falling water, the
murmur of wind sighing among innumerable branches, broke the enveloping
silence. Overhead, beyond the crests of the towering trees, a cloudless evening
sky was paling into transparent orange, opal, mother of pearl. He saw buzzards
soaring lazily. A scarlet tanager flashed by. Soon would the owls begin to call
and the darkness fall like a sweet black veil and hide all detail, while the
stars sparkled in their countless thousands....
A glint of something that shone upon the ground
caught his eye—a smooth, polished strip of rounded metal: his rifle. And he
started to his feet impulsively, yet not knowing exactly what he meant to do.
At the sight of the weapon, something had leaped to life in him, then faded
out, died down, and was gone again.[127]
“I’m—I’m——” he began muttering to himself, but
could not finish what he was about to say. His name had disappeared completely.
“I’m in the Valley of the Beasts,” he repeated in place of what he sought but
could not find.
This fact, that he was in the Valley of the
Beasts, seemed the only positive item of knowledge that he had. About the name
something known and familiar clung, though the sequence that led up to it he
could not trace. Presently, nevertheless, he rose to his feet, advanced a few
steps, stooped and picked up the shining metal thing, his rifle. He examined it
a moment, a feeling of dread and loathing rising in him, a sensation of almost
horror that made him tremble, then, with a convulsive movement that betrayed an
intense reaction of some sort he could not comprehend, he flung the thing far
from him into the foaming torrent. He saw the splash it made, he also saw that
same instant a large grizzly bear swing heavily along the bank not a dozen
yards from where he stood. It, too, heard the splash, for it started, turned,
paused a second, then changed its direction and came towards him. It came up
close. Its fur brushed his body. It examined him leisurely, as the moose had
done, sniffed, half rose upon its terrible hind legs, opened its mouth so that
red tongue and gleaming teeth were plainly visible, then flopped back upon all
fours again with a deep growling that yet had no anger in it, and swung off at
a quick trot back to the bank of the torrent. He had felt its hot breath upon
his face, but he had felt no fear. The monster was puzzled but not hostile. It
disappeared.
“They know not——” he sought for the word “man,”
but could not find it. “They have never been hunted.”
The words ran through his mind, if perhaps he
was not entirely certain of their meaning; they rose, as it were,
automatically; a familiar sound lay in them somewhere. At the same time there
rose feelings in him that were equally, though in another way, familiar and
quite natural,[128] feelings he had once known intimately but
long since laid aside.
What were they? What was their origin? They
seemed distant as the stars, yet were actually in his body, in his blood and
nerves, part and parcel of his flesh. Long, long ago.... Oh, how long, how
long?
Thinking was difficult; feeling was what he most
easily and naturally managed. He could not think for long; feeling rose up and
drowned the effort quickly.
That huge and awful bear—not a nerve, not a
muscle quivered in him as its acrid smell rose to his nostrils, its fur brushed
down his legs. Yet he was aware that somewhere there was danger, though not
here. Somewhere there was attack, hostility, wicked and calculated plans
against him—as against that splendid, roaming animal that had sniffed,
examined, then gone its own way, satisfied. Yes, active attack, hostility and
careful, cruel plans against his safety, but—not here. Here he was safe,
secure, at peace; here he was happy; here he could roam at will, no eye cast
sideways into forest depths, no ear pricked high to catch sounds not explained,
no nostrils quivering to scent alarm. He felt this, but he did not think it. He
felt hungry, thirsty too.
Something prompted him now at last to act. His
billy lay at his feet, and he picked it up; the matches—he carried them in a
metal case whose screw top kept out all moisture—were in his hand. Gathering a
few dry twigs, he stooped to light them, then suddenly drew back with the first
touch of fear he had yet known.
Fire! What was fire? The idea
was repugnant to him, it was impossible, he was afraid of fire. He flung the
metal case after the rifle and saw it gleam in the last rays of sunset, then
sink with a little splash beneath the water. Glancing down at his billy, he
realized next that he could not make use of it either, nor of the dark dry
dusty stuff he had meant to boil in water. He felt no repugnance, certainly no
fear, in connexion with these[129] things, only he could not handle them, he
did not need them, he had forgotten, yes, “forgotten,” what they meant exactly.
This strange forgetfulness was increasing in him rapidly, becoming more and
more complete with every minute. Yet his thirst must be quenched.
The next moment he found himself at the water’s
edge; he stooped to fill his billy; paused, hesitated, examined the rushing water,
then abruptly moved a few feet higher up the stream, leaving the metal can
behind him. His handling of it had been oddly clumsy, his gestures awkward,
even unnatural. He now flung himself down with an easy, simple motion of his
entire body, lowered his face to a quiet pool he had found, and drank his fill
of the cool, refreshing liquid. But, though unaware of the fact, he did not
drink. He lapped.
Then, crouching where he was, he ate the meat
and sugar from his pockets, lapped more water, moved back a short distance
again into the dry ground beneath the trees, but moved this time without rising
to his feet, curled his body into a comfortable position and closed his eyes
again to sleep.... No single question now raised its head in him. He felt
contentment, satisfaction only....
He stirred, shook himself, opened half an eye
and saw, as he had felt already in slumber, that he was not alone. In the
park-like spaces in front of him, as in the shadowed fringe of the trees at his
back, there was sound and movement, the sound of stealthy feet, the movement of
innumerable dark bodies. There was the pad and tread of animals, the stir of
backs, of smooth and shaggy beasts, in countless numbers. Upon this host fell
the light of a half moon sailing high in a cloudless sky; the gleam of stars,
sparkling in the clear night air like diamonds, shone reflected in hundreds of
ever-shifting eyes, most of them but a few feet above the ground. The whole
valley was alive.
He sat upon his haunches, staring, staring, but
staring in wonder, not in fear, though the foremost of the great[130] host
were so near that he could have stretched an arm and touched them. It was an
ever-moving, ever-shifting throng he gazed at, spell-bound, in the pale light
of moon and stars, now fading slowly towards the approaching dawn. And the
smell of the forest itself was not sweeter to him in that moment than the
mingled perfume, raw, pungent, acrid, of this furry host of beautiful wild
animals that moved like a sea, with a strange murmuring, too, like sea, as the
myriad feet and bodies passed to and fro together. Nor was the gleam of the
starry, phosphorescent eyes less pleasantly friendly than those happy lamps
that light home-lost wanderers to cosy rooms and safety. Through the wild army,
in a word, poured to him the deep comfort of the entire valley, a comfort which
held both the sweetness of invitation and the welcome of some magical
home-coming.
No thoughts came to him, but feeling rose in a
tide of wonder and acceptance. He was in his rightful place. His nature had
come home. There was this dim, vague consciousness in him that after long,
futile straying in another place where uncongenial conditions had forced him to
be unnatural and therefore terrible, he had returned at last where he belonged.
Here, in the Valley of the Beasts, he had found peace, security and happiness.
He would be—he was at last—himself.
It was a marvellous, even a magical, scene he
watched, his nerves at highest tension yet quite steady, his senses exquisitely
alert, yet no uneasiness in the full, accurate reports they furnished. Strong
as some deep flood-tide, yet dim, as with untold time and distance, rose over
him the spell of long-forgotten memory of a state where he was content and
happy, where he was natural. The outlines, as it were, of mighty, primitive
pictures, flashed before him, yet were gone again before the detail was filled
in.
He watched the great army of the animals, they
were all about him now; he crouched upon his haunches in the[131] centre
of an ever-moving circle of wild forest life. Great timber wolves he saw pass
to and fro, loping past him with long stride and graceful swing; their red
tongues lolling out; they swarmed in hundreds. Behind, yet mingling freely with
them, rolled the huge grizzlies, not clumsy as their uncouth bodies promised,
but swiftly, lightly, easily, their half tumbling gait masking agility and
speed. They gambolled, sometimes they rose and stood half upright, they were
comely in their mass and power, they rolled past him so close that he could
touch them. And the black bear and the brown went with them, bears beyond
counting, monsters and little ones, a splendid multitude. Beyond them, yet only
a little further back, where the park-like spaces made free movement easier,
rose a sea of horns and antlers like a miniature forest in the silvery
moonlight. The immense tribe of deer gathered in vast throngs beneath the
starlit sky. Moose and caribou, he saw, the mighty wapiti, and the smaller deer
in their crowding thousands. He heard the sound of meeting horns, the tread of
innumerable hoofs, the occasional pawing of the ground as the bigger creatures
manœuvred for more space about them. A wolf, he saw, was licking gently at the
shoulder of a great bull-moose that had been injured. And the tide receded,
advanced again, once more receded, rising and falling like a living sea whose
waves were animal shapes, the inhabitants of the Valley of the Beasts.
Beneath the quiet moonlight they swayed to and
fro before him. They watched him, knew him, recognized him. They made him
welcome.
He was aware, moreover, of a world of smaller
life that formed an under-sea, as it were, numerous under-currents rather,
running in and out between the great upright legs of the larger creatures.
These, though he could not see them clearly, covered the earth, he was aware,
in enormous numbers, darting hither and thither, now hiding, now reappearing,
too intent upon their busy purposes to pay him[132] attention like
their huger comrades, yet ever and anon tumbling against his back, cannoning
from his sides, scampering across his legs even, then gone again with a
scuttering sound of rapid little feet, and rushing back into the general host
beyond. And with this smaller world also he felt at home.
How long he sat gazing, happy in himself,
secure, satisfied, contented, natural, he could not say, but it was long enough
for the desire to mingle with what he saw, to know closer contact, to become
one with them all—long enough for this deep blind desire to assert itself, so
that at length he began to move from his mossy seat towards them, to move,
moreover, as they moved, and not upright on two feet.
The moon was lower now, just sinking behind a
towering cedar whose ragged crest broke its light into silvery spray. The stars
were a little paler too. A line of faint red was visible beyond the heights at
the valley’s eastern end.
He paused and looked about him, as he advanced
slowly, aware that the host already made an opening in their ranks and that the
bear even nosed the earth in front, as though to show the way that was easiest
for him to follow. Then, suddenly, a lynx leaped past him into the low branches
of a hemlock, and he lifted his head to admire its perfect poise. He saw in the
same instant the arrival of the birds, the army of the eagles, hawks and
buzzards, birds of prey—the awakening flight that just precedes the dawn. He
saw the flocks and streaming lines, hiding the whitening stars a moment as they
passed with a prodigious whirr of wings. There came the hooting of an owl from
the tree immediately overhead where the lynx now crouched, but not maliciously,
along its branch.
He started. He half rose to an upright position.
He knew not why he did so, knew not exactly why he started. But in the attempt
to find his new, and, as it now seemed, his unaccustomed balance, one hand fell
against his side[133] and came in contact with a hard straight
thing that projected awkwardly from his clothing. He pulled it out, feeling it
all over with his fingers. It was a little stick. He raised it nearer to his
eyes, examined it in the light of dawn now growing swiftly, remembered, or half
remembered what it was—and stood stock still.
“The totem stick,” he mumbled to himself, yet
audibly, finding his speech, and finding another thing—a glint of peering
memory—for the first time since entering the valley.
A shock like fire ran through his body; he
straightened himself, aware that a moment before he had been crawling upon his
hands and knees; it seemed that something broke in his brain, lifting a veil, flinging
a shutter free. And Memory peered dreadfully through the widening gap.
“I’m—I’m Grimwood,” his voice uttered, though
below his breath. “Tooshalli’s left me. I’m alone...!”
He was aware of a sudden change in the animals
surrounding him. A big, grey wolf sat three feet away, glaring into his face;
at its side an enormous grizzly swayed itself from one foot to the other;
behind it, as if looking over its shoulder, loomed a gigantic wapiti, its horns
merged in the shadows of the drooping cedar boughs. But the northern dawn was
nearer, the sun already close to the horizon. He saw details with sharp
distinctness now. The great bear rose, balancing a moment on its massive
hind-quarters, then took a step towards him, its front paws spread like arms.
Its wicked head lolled horribly, as a huge bull-moose, lowering its horns as if
about to charge, came up with a couple of long strides and joined it. A sudden
excitement ran quivering over the entire host; the distant ranks moved in a
new, unpleasant way; a thousand heads were lifted, ears were pricked, a forest
of ugly muzzles pointed up to the wind.
And the Englishman, beside himself suddenly with
a sense of ultimate terror that saw no possible escape, stiffened and stood
rigid. The horror of his position petrified[134] him. Motionless
and silent he faced the awful army of his enemies, while the white light of
breaking day added fresh ghastliness to the scene which was the setting for his
cruel death in the Valley of the Beasts.
Above him crouched the hideous lynx, ready to
spring the instant he sought safety in the tree; above it again, he was aware
of a thousand talons of steel, fierce hooked beaks of iron, and the angry
beating of prodigious wings.
He reeled, for the grizzly touched his body with
its outstretched paw; the wolf crouched just before its deadly spring; in
another second he would have been torn to pieces, crushed, devoured, when
terror, operating naturally as ever, released the muscles of his throat and
tongue. He shouted with what he believed was his last breath on earth. He
called aloud in his frenzy. It was a prayer to whatever gods there be, it was
an anguished cry for help to heaven.
“Ishtot! Great Ishtot, help me!” his voice rang
out, while his hand still clutched the forgotten totem stick.
And the Red Heaven heard him.
Grimwood that same instant was aware of a
presence that, but for his terror of the beasts, must have frightened him into
sheer unconsciousness. A gigantic Red Indian stood before him. Yet, while the
figure rose close in front of him, causing the birds to settle and the wild
animals to crouch quietly where they stood, it rose also from a great distance,
for it seemed to fill the entire valley with its influence, its power, its
amazing majesty. In some way, moreover, that he could not understand, its vast
appearance included the actual valley itself with all its trees, its running
streams, its open spaces and its rocky bluffs. These marked its outline, as it
were, the outline of a superhuman shape. There was a mighty bow, there was a quiver
of enormous arrows, there was this Redskin figure to whom they belonged.
Yet the appearance, the outline, the face and
figure too—these were the valley; and when the voice became
audible,[135] it
was the valley itself that uttered the appalling words. It was the voice of
trees and wind, and of running, falling water that woke the echoes in the
Valley of the Beasts, as, in that same moment, the sun topped the ridge and
filled the scene, the outline of the majestic figure too, with a flood of
dazzling light:
“You have shed blood in this my valley.... I
will not save...!”
The figure melted away into the sunlit forest,
merging with the new-born day. But Grimwood saw close against his face the
shining teeth, hot fetid breath passed over his cheeks, a power enveloped his
whole body as though a mountain crushed him. He closed his eyes. He fell. A
sharp, crackling sound passed through his brain, but already unconscious, he
did not hear it.
His eyes opened again, and the first thing they
took in was—fire. He shrank back instinctively.
“It’s all right, old man. We’ll bring you round.
Nothing to be frightened about.” He saw the face of Iredale looking down into
his own. Behind Iredale stood Tooshalli. His face was swollen. Grimwood
remembered the blow. The big man began to cry.
“Painful still, is it?” Iredale said
sympathetically. “Here, swallow a little more of this. It’ll set you right in
no time.”
Grimwood gulped down the spirit. He made a
violent effort to control himself, but was unable to keep the tears back. He
felt no pain. It was his heart that ached, though why or wherefore, he had no
idea.
“I’m all to pieces,” he mumbled, ashamed yet
somehow not ashamed. “My nerves are rotten. What’s happened?” There was as yet
no memory in him.
“You’ve been hugged by a bear, old man. But no
bones broken. Tooshalli saved you. He fired in the nick of time—a brave shot,
for he might easily have hit you instead of the brute.”[136]
“The other brute,” whispered Grimwood, as the
whisky worked in him and memory came slowly back.
“Where are we?” he asked presently, looking
about him.
He saw a lake, canoes drawn up on the shore, two
tents, and figures moving. Iredale explained matters briefly, then left him to
sleep a bit. Tooshalli, it appeared, travelling without rest, had reached
Iredale’s camping ground twenty-four hours after leaving his employer. He found
it deserted, Iredale and his Indian being on the hunt. When they returned at
nightfall, he had explained his presence in his brief native fashion: “He
struck me and I quit. He hunt now alone in Ishtot’s Valley of the Beasts. He is
dead, I think. I come to tell you.”
Iredale and his guide, with Tooshalli as leader,
started off then and there, but Grimwood had covered a considerable distance,
though leaving an easy track to follow. It was the moose tracks and the blood
that chiefly guided them. They came up with him suddenly enough—in the grip of
an enormous bear.
It was Tooshalli that fired.
The Indian lives now in easy circumstances, all
his needs cared for, while Grimwood, his benefactor but no longer his employer,
has given up hunting. He is a quiet, easy-tempered, almost gentle sort of
fellow, and people wonder rather why he hasn’t married. “Just the fellow to
make a good father,” is what they say; “so kind, good-natured and
affectionate.” Among his pipes, in a glass case over the mantlepiece, hangs a
totem stick. He declares it saved his soul, but what he means by the expression
he has never quite explained.
7.THE CALL
THE incident—story it never was, perhaps—began
tamely, almost meanly; it ended upon a note of strange, unearthly wonder that
has haunted him ever since. In Headley’s memory, at any rate, it stands out as
the loveliest, the most amazing thing he ever witnessed. Other emotions, too,
contributed to the vividness of the picture. That he had felt jealousy towards
his old pal, Arthur Deane, shocked him in the first place; it seemed impossible
until it actually happened. But that the jealousy was proved afterwards to have
been without a cause shocked him still more. He felt ashamed and miserable.
For him, the actual incident began when he
received a note from Mrs. Blondin asking him to the Priory for a week-end, or
for longer, if he could manage it.
Captain Arthur Deane, she mentioned, was staying
with her at the moment, and a warm welcome awaited him. Iris she did not
mention—Iris Manning, the interesting and beautiful girl for whom it was well
known he had a considerable weakness. He found a good-sized house party; there
was fishing in the little Sussex river, tennis, golf not far away, while two
motor cars brought the remoter country across the downs into easy reach. Also
there was a bit of duck shooting for those who cared to wake at 3 a. m. and
paddle up-stream to the marshes where the birds were feeding.
“Have you brought your gun?” was the first thing
Arthur said to him when he arrived. “Like a fool, I left mine in town.”
“I hope you haven’t,” put in Miss Manning;
“because[138] if
you have I must get up one fine morning at three o’clock.” She laughed merrily,
and there was an undernote of excitement in the laugh.
Captain Headley showed his surprise. “That you
were a Diana had escaped my notice, I’m ashamed to say,” he replied lightly.
“Yet I’ve known you some years, haven’t I?” He looked straight at her, and the
soft yet searching eye, turning from his friend, met his own securely. She was
appraising him, for the hundreth time, and he, for the hundreth time, was
thinking how pretty she was, and wondering how long the prettiness would last
after marriage.
“I’m not,” he heard her answer. “That’s just it.
But I’ve promised.”
“Rather!” said Arthur gallantly. “And I shall
hold you to it,” he added still more gallantly—too gallantly, Headley thought.
“I couldn’t possibly get up at cockcrow without a very special inducement,
could I, now? You know me, Dick!”
“Well, anyhow, I’ve brought my gun,” Headley
replied evasively, “so you’ve no excuse, either of you. You’ll have to go.” And
while they were laughing and chattering about it, Mrs. Blondin clinched the
matter for them. Provisions were hard to come by; the larder really needed a
brace or two of birds; it was the least they could do in return for what she
called amusingly her “Armistice hospitality.”
“So I expect you to get up at three,” she
chaffed them, “and return with your Victory birds.”
It was from this preliminary skirmish over the
tea-table on the law five minutes after his arrival that Dick Headley realized
easily enough the little game in progress. As a man of experience, just on the
wrong side of forty, it was not difficult to see the cards each held. He
sighed. Had he guessed an intrigue was on foot he would not have come, yet he
might have known that wherever his hostess was, there were the vultures
gathered together.[139] Matchmaker by choice and instinct, Mrs.
Blondin could not help herself. True to her name, she was always balancing on
matrimonial tightropes—for others.
Her cards, at any rate, were obvious enough; she had laid them
on the table for him. He easily read her hand. The next twenty-four hours
confirmed this reading. Having made up her mind that Iris and Arthur were
destined for each other, she had grown impatient; they had been ten days
together, yet Iris was still free. They were good friends only. With
calculation, she, therefore, took a step that must bring things further. She
invited Dick Headley, whose weakness for the girl was common knowledge. The
card was indicated; she played it. Arthur must come to the point or see another
man carry her off. This, at least, she planned, little dreaming that the dark
King of Spades would interfere.
Miss Manning’s hand also was fairly obvious, for
both men were extremely eligible partis. She was getting on; one or other was to become her husband
before the party broke up. This, in crude language, was certainly in her cards,
though, being a nice and charming girl, she might camouflage it cleverly to
herself and others. Her eyes, on each man in turn when the shooting expedition
was being discussed, revealed her part in the little intrigue clearly enough.
It was all, thus far, as commonplace as could be.
But there were two more hands Headley had to
read—his own and his friend’s; and these, he admitted honestly, were not so
easy. To take his own first. It was true he was fond of the girl and had often
tried to make up his mind to ask her. Without being conceited, he had good
reason to believe his affection was returned and that she would accept him.
There was no ecstatic love on either side, for he was no longer a boy of
twenty, nor was she unscathed by tempestuous love affairs that had scorched the
first bloom from her face and heart. But they understood one another; they were
an honest couple;[140] she was tired of flirting; both wanted to
marry and settle down. Unless a better man turned up she probably would say
“Yes” without humbug or delay. It was this last reflection that brought him to
the final hand he had to read.
Here he was puzzled. Arthur Deane’s rôle in the
teacup strategy, for the first time since they had known one another, seemed
strange, uncertain. Why? Because, though paying no attention to the girl
openly, he met her clandestinely, unknown to the rest of the house-party, and
above all without telling his intimate pal—at three o’clock in the morning.
The house-party was in full swing, with a touch
of that wild, reckless gaiety which followed the end of the war: “Let us be
happy before a worse thing comes upon us,” was in many hearts. After a crowded
day they danced till early in the morning, while doubtful weather prevented the
early shooting expedition after duck. The third night Headley contrived to
disappear early to bed. He lay there thinking. He was puzzled over his friend’s
rôle, over the clandestine meeting in particular. It was the morning before,
waking very early, he had been drawn to the window by an unusual sound—the cry
of a bird. Was it a bird? In all his experience he had never heard such a
curious, half-singing call before. He listened a moment, thinking it must have
been a dream, yet with the odd cry still ringing in his ears. It was repeated
close beneath his open window, a long, low-pitched cry with three distinct
following notes in it.
He sat up in bed and listened hard. No bird that
he knew could make such sounds. But it was not repeated a third time, and out
of sheer curiosity he went to the window and looked out. Dawn was creeping over
the distant downs; he saw their outline in the grey pearly light; he saw the
lawn below, stretching down to the little river at the bottom, where a curtain
of faint mist hung in the air. And on this lawn he also saw Arthur Deane—with
Iris Manning.[141]
Of course, he reflected, they were going after
the duck. He turned to look at his watch; it was three o’clock. The same
glance, however, showed him his gun standing in the corner. So they were going
without a gun. A sharp pang of unexpected jealousy shot through him. He was
just going to shout out something or other, wishing them good luck, or asking
if they had found another gun, perhaps, when a cold touch crept down his spine.
The same instant his heart contracted. Deane had followed the girl into the
summer-house, which stood on the right. It was not the
shooting expedition at all. Arthur was meeting her for another purpose. The
blood flowed back, filling his head. He felt an eavesdropper, a sneak, a
detective; but, for all that, he felt also jealous. And his jealousy seemed
chiefly because Arthur had not told him.
Of this, then, he lay thinking in bed on the
third night. The following day he had said nothing, but had crossed the
corridor and put the gun in his friend’s room. Arthur, for his part, had said
nothing either. For the first time in their long, long friendship, there lay a
secret between them. To Headley the unexpected revelation came with pain.
For something like a quarter of a century these
two had been bosom friends; they had camped together, been in the army
together, taken their pleasure together, each the full confidant of the other
in all the things that go to make up men’s lives. Above all, Headley had been
the one and only recipient of Arthur’s unhappy love story. He knew the girl,
knew his friend’s deep passion, and also knew his terrible pain when she was
lost at sea. Arthur was burnt out, finished, out of the running, so far as
marriage was concerned. He was not a man to love a second time. It was a great
and poignant tragedy. Headley, as confidant, knew all. But more than
that—Arthur, on his side, knew his friend’s weakness for Iris Manning, knew
that a marriage was still possible and likely between them. They were true as steel
to one another, and each[142] man, oddly enough, had once saved the
other’s life, thus adding to the strength of a great natural tie.
Yet now one of them, feigning innocence by day,
even indifference, secretly met his friend’s girl by night, and kept the matter
to himself. It seemed incredible. With his own eyes Headley had seen him on the
lawn, passing in the faint grey light through the mist into the summer-house,
where the girl had just preceded him. He had not seen her face, but he had seen
the skirt sweep round the corner of the wooden pillar. He had not waited to see
them come out again.
So he now lay wondering what rôle his old friend
was playing in this little intrigue that their hostess, Mrs. Blondin, helped to
stage. And, oddly enough, one minor detail stayed in his mind with a curious
vividness. As naturalist, hunter, nature-lover, the cry of that strange bird,
with its three mournful notes, perplexed him exceedingly.
A knock came at his door, and the door pushed
open before he had time to answer. Deane himself came in.
“Wise man,” he exclaimed in an easy tone, “got
off to bed. Iris was asking where you were.” He sat down on the edge of the
mattress, where Headley was lying with a cigarette and an open book he had not
read. The old sense of intimacy and comradeship rose in the latter’s heart.
Doubt and suspicion faded. He prized his great friendship. He met the familiar
eyes. “Impossible,” he said to himself, “absolutely impossible! He’s not
playing a game; he’s not a rotter!” He pushed over his cigarette case, and
Arthur lighted one.
“Done in,” he remarked shortly, with the first
puff. “Can’t stand it any more. I’m off to town to-morrow.”
Headley stared in amazement. “Fed up already?”
he asked. “Why, I rather like it. It’s quite amusing. What’s wrong, old man?”
“This match-making,” said Deane bluntly. “Always
throwing that girl at my head. If it’s not the duck-shooting[143] stunt
at 3 a. m., it’s something else. She doesn’t care for me and I don’t care for
her. Besides——”
He stopped, and the expression of his face
changed suddenly. A sad, quiet look of tender yearning came into his clear
brown eyes.
“You know, Dick,” he went on in a
low, half-reverent tone. “I don’t want to marry. I never can.”
Dick’s heart stirred within him. “Mary,” he
said, understandingly.
The other nodded, as though the memories were
still too much for him. “I’m still miserably lonely for her,” he said. “Can’t
help it simply. I feel utterly lost without her. Her memory to me is
everything.” He looked deep into his pal’s eyes. “I’m married to that,” he
added very firmly.
They pulled their cigarettes a moment in
silence. They belonged to the male type that conceals emotion behind schoolboy
language.
“It’s hard luck,” said Headley gently, “rotten
luck, old man, I understand.” Arthur’s head nodded several times in succession
as he smoked. He made no remark for some minutes. Then presently he said, as
though it had no particular importance—for thus old friends show frankness to
each other—“Besides, anyhow, it’s you the girl’s dying for, not me. She’s blind
as a bat, old Blondin. Even when I’m with her—thrust with her by that old
matchmaker for my sins—it’s you she talks about. All the talk leads up to you
and yours. She’s devilish fond of you.” He paused a moment and looked
searchingly into his friend’s face. “I say, old man—are you—I mean, do you mean
business there? Because—excuse me interfering—but you’d better be careful.
She’s a good sort, you know, after all.”
“Yes, Arthur, I do like her a bit,” Dick told
him frankly. “But I can’t make up my mind quite. You see, it’s like this——”[144]
And they talked the matter over as old friends
will, until finally Arthur chucked his cigarette into the grate and got up to
go. “Dead to the world,” he said, with a yawn. “I’m off to bed. Give you a chance,
too,” he added with a laugh. It was after midnight.
The other turned, as though something had
suddenly occurred to him.
“By the bye, Arthur,” he said abruptly, “what
bird makes this sound? I heard it the other morning. Most extraordinary cry.
You know everything that flies. What is it?” And, to the best of his ability,
he imitated the strange three-note cry he had heard in the dawn two mornings
before.
To his amazement and keen distress, his friend,
with a sound like a stifled groan, sat down upon the bed without a word. He
seemed startled. His face was white. He stared. He passed a hand, as in pain,
across his forehead.
“Do it again,” he whispered, in a hushed,
nervous voice. “Once again—for me.”
And Headley, looking at him, repeated the queer
notes, a sudden revulsion of feeling rising through him. “He’s fooling me after
all,” ran in his heart, “my old, old pal——”
There was silence for a full minute. Then
Arthur, stammering a bit, said lamely, a certain hush in his voice still:
“Where in the world did you hear that—and when?”
Dick Headley sat up in bed. He was not going to
lose this friendship, which, to him, was more than the love of woman. He must
help. His pal was in distress and difficulty. There were circumstances, he
realized, that might be too strong for the best man in the world—sometimes. No,
by God, he would play the game and help him out!
“Arthur, old chap,” he said affectionately,
almost tenderly. “I heard it two mornings ago—on the lawn below[145] my
window here. It woke me up. I—I went to look. Three in the morning, about.”
Arthur amazed him then. He first took another
cigarette and lit it steadily. He looked round the room vaguely, avoiding, it
seemed, the other’s eyes. Then he turned, pain in his face, and gazed straight
at him.
“You saw—nothing?” he asked in a louder voice,
but a voice that had something very real and true in it. It reminded Headley of
the voice he heard when he was fainting from exhaustion, and Arthur had said,
“Take it, I tell you. I’m all right,” and had passed over the flask, though his
own throat and sight and heart were black with thirst. It was a voice that had
command in it, a voice that did not lie because it could not—yet did lie and
could lie—when occasion warranted.
Headley knew a second’s awful struggle.
“Nothing,” he answered quietly, after his little
pause. “Why?”
For perhaps two minutes his friend hid his face.
Then he looked up.
“Only,” he whispered, “because that was our
secret lover’s cry. It seems so strange you heard it and not I. I’ve felt her
so close of late—Mary!”
The white face held very steady, the firm lips
did not tremble, but it was evident that the heart knew anguish that was deep
and poignant. “We used it to call each other—in the old days. It was our
private call. No one else in the world knew it but Mary and myself.”
Dick Headley was flabbergasted. He had no time
to think, however.
“It’s odd you should hear it and not I,” his
friend repeated. He looked hurt, bewildered, wounded. Then suddenly his face
brightened. “I know,” he cried suddenly. “You and I are pretty good pals.
There’s a tie between us and all that. Why, it’s tel—telepathy, or whatever
they call it. That’s what it is.”
He got up abruptly. Dick could think of nothing
to[146] say
but to repeat the other’s words. “Of course, of course. That’s it,” he said,
“telepathy.” He stared—anywhere but at his pal.
“Night, night!” he heard from the door, and
before he could do more than reply in similar vein Arthur was gone.
He lay for a long time, thinking, thinking. He
found it all very strange. Arthur in this emotional state was new to him. He
turned it over and over. Well, he had known good men behave queerly when
wrought up. That recognition of the bird’s cry was strange, of course, but—he
knew the cry of a bird when he heard it, though he might not know the actual
bird. That was no human whistle. Arthur was—inventing. No, that was not
possible. He was worked up, then, over something, a bit hysterical perhaps. It
had happened before, though in a milder way, when his heart attacks came on. They
affected his nerves and head a little, it seemed. He was a deep sort, Dick
remembered. Thought turned and twisted in him, offering various solutions, some
absurd, some likely. He was a nervous, high-strung fellow underneath, Arthur
was. He remembered that. Also he remembered, anxiously again, that his heart
was not quite sound, though what that had to do with the present tangle he did
not see.
Yet it was hardly likely that he would bring in
Mary as an invention, an excuse—Mary, the most sacred memory in his life, the
deepest, truest, best. He had sworn, anyhow, that Iris Manning meant nothing to
him.
Through all his speculations, behind every
thought, ran this horrid working jealousy. It poisoned him. It twisted truth.
It moved like a wicked snake through mind and heart. Arthur, gripped by his
new, absorbing love for Iris Manning, lied. He couldn’t believe it, he didn’t
believe it, he wouldn’t believe it—yet jealousy persisted in keeping the idea
alive in him. It was a dreadful thought. He fell asleep on it.[147]
But his sleep was uneasy with feverish,
unpleasant dreams that rambled on in fragments without coming to conclusion.
Then, suddenly, the cry of the strange bird came into his dream. He started,
turned over, woke up. The cry still continued. It was not a dream. He jumped
out of bed.
The room was grey with early morning, the air
fresh and a little chill. The cry came floating over the lawn as before. He
looked out, pain clutching at his heart. Two figures stood below, a man and a
girl, and the man was Arthur Deane. Yet the light was so dim, the morning being
overcast, that had he not expected to see his friend, he would scarcely have
recognized the familiar form in that shadowy outline that stood close beside
the girl. Nor could he, perhaps, have recognized Iris Manning. Their backs were
to him. They moved away, disappearing again into the little summer-house, and
this time—he saw it beyond question—the two were hand in hand. Vague and
uncertain as the figures were in the early twilight, he was sure of that.
The first disagreeable sensation of surprise,
disgust, anger that sickened him turned quickly, however, into one of another
kind altogether. A curious feeling of superstitious dread crept over him, and a
shiver ran again along his nerves.
“Hallo, Arthur!” he called from the window.
There was no answer. His voice was certainly audible in the summer-house. But
no one came. He repeated the call a little louder, waited in vain for thirty
seconds, then came, the same moment, to a decision that even surprised himself,
for the truth we he could no longer bear the suspense of waiting. He must see
his friend at once and have it out with him. He turned and went deliberately
down the corridor to Deane’s bedroom. He would wait there for his return and
know the truth from his own lips. But also another thought had come—the gun. He
had quite forgotten[148] it—the safety-catch was out of order. He
had not warned him.
He found the door closed but not locked; opening
it cautiously, he went in.
But the unexpectedness of what he saw gave him a
genuine shock. He could hardly suppress a cry. Everything in the room was neat
and orderly, no sign of disturbance anywhere, and it was not empty. There, in
bed, before his very eyes, was Arthur. The clothes were turned back a little;
he saw the pyjamas open at the throat; he lay sound asleep, deeply, peacefully
asleep.
So surprised, indeed, was Headley that, after
staring a moment, almost unable to believe his sight, he then put out a hand
and touched him gently, cautiously on the forehead. But Arthur did not stir or
wake; his breathing remained deep and regular. He lay sleeping like a baby.
Headley glanced round the room, noticed the gun
in the corner where he himself had put it the day before, and then went out,
closing the door behind him softly.
Arthur Deane, however, did not leave for London
as he had intended, because he felt unwell and kept to his room upstairs. It
was only a slight attack, apparently, but he must lie quiet. There was no need
to send for a doctor; he knew just what to do; these passing attacks were
common enough. He would be up and about again very shortly. Headley kept him
company, saying no single word of what had happened. He read aloud to him,
chatted and cheered him up. He had no other visitors. Within twenty-four hours
he was himself once more. He and his friend had planned to leave the following
day.
But Headley, that last night in the house, felt
an odd uneasiness and could not sleep. All night long he sat up reading,
looking out of the window, smoking in a chair where he could see the stars and
hear the wind and watch the huge shadow of the downs. The house lay very still
as the hours passed. He dozed once or twice. Why did he sit up in this
unnecessary way? Why did[149] he leave his door ajar so that the slightest
sound of another door opening, or of steps passing along the corridor, must
reach him? Was he anxious for his friend? Was he suspicious? What was his
motive, what his secret purpose?
Headley did not know, and could not even explain
it to himself. He felt uneasy, that was all he knew. Not for worlds would he
have let himself go to sleep or lose full consciousness that night. It was very
odd; he could not understand himself. He merely obeyed a strange, deep instinct
that bade him wait and watch. His nerves were jumpy; in his heart lay some
unexplicable anxiety that was pain.
The dawn came slowly; the stars faded one by
one; the line of the downs showed their grand bare curves against the sky; cool
and cloudless the September morning broke above the little Sussex pleasure
house. He sat and watched the east grow bright. The early wind brought a scent
of marshes and the sea into his room. Then suddenly it brought a sound as
well—the haunting cry of the bird with its three following notes. And this time
there came an answer.
Headley knew then why he had sat up. A wave of
emotion swept him as he heard—an emotion he could not attempt to explain.
Dread, wonder, longing seized him. For some seconds he could not leave his
chair because he did not dare to. The low-pitched cries of call and answer rang
in his ears like some unearthly music. With an effort he started up, went to
the window and looked out.
This time the light was sharp and clear. No mist
hung in the air. He saw the crimsoning sky reflected like a band of shining
metal in the reach of river beyond the lawn. He saw dew on the grass, a sheet
of pallid silver. He saw the summer-house, empty of any passing figures. For
this time the two figures stood plainly in view before his eyes upon the lawn.
They stood there,[150] hand in hand, sharply defined,
unmistakable in form and outline, their faces, moreover, turned upwards to the
window where he stood, staring down in pain and amazement at them—at Arthur
Deane and Mary.
They looked into his eyes. He tried to call, but
no sound left his throat. They began to move across the dew-soaked lawn. They
went, he saw, with a floating, undulating motion towards the river shining in
the dawn. Their feet left no marks upon the grass. They reached the bank, but
did not pause in their going. They rose a little, floating like silent birds
across the river. Turning in mid-stream, they smiled towards him, waved their
hands with a gesture of farewell, then, rising still higher into the opal dawn,
their figures passed into the distance slowly, melting away against the sunlit
marshes and the shadowing downs beyond. They disappeared.
Headley never quite remembers actually leaving
the window, crossing the room, or going down the passage. Perhaps he went at
once, perhaps he stood gazing into the air above the downs for a considerable
time, unable to tear himself away. He was in some marvellous dream, it seemed.
The next thing he remembers, at any rate, was that he was standing beside his
friend’s bed, trying, in his distraught anguish of heart, to call him from that
sleep which, on earth, knows no awakening.
8.EGYPTIAN SORCERY
1
SANFIELD paused as he was about to leave the
Underground station at Victoria, and cursed the weather. When he left the City
it was fine; now it was pouring with rain, and he had neither overcoat nor
umbrella. Not a taxi was discoverable in the dripping gloom. He would get
soaked before he reached his rooms in Sloane Street.
He stood for some minutes, thinking how vile
London was in February, and how depressing life was in general. He stood also,
in that moment, though he knew it not, upon the edge of a singular adventure.
Looking back upon it in later years, he often remembered this particularly
wretched moment of a pouring wet February evening, when everything seemed
wrong, and Fate had loaded the dice against him, even in the matter of weather
and umbrellas.
Fate, however, without betraying her presence,
was watching him through the rain and murk; and Fate, that night, had strange,
mysterious eyes. Fantastic cards lay up her sleeve. The rain, his weariness and
depression, his physical fatigue especially, seemed the conditions she required
before she played these curious cards. Something new and wonderful fluttered
close. Romance flashed by him across the driving rain and touched his cheek. He
was too exasperated to be aware of it.
Things had gone badly that day at the office,
where he was junior partner in a small firm of engineers. Threatened trouble at
the works had come to a head. A[152] strike seemed imminent.
To add to his annoyance, a new client, whose custom was of supreme importance,
had just complained bitterly of the delay in the delivery of his machinery. The
senior partners had left the matter in Sanfield’s hands; he had not succeeded.
The angry customer swore he would hold the firm to its contract. They could
deliver or pay up—whichever suited them. The junior partner had made a mess of
things.
The final words on the telephone still rang in
his ears as he stood sheltering under the arcade, watching the downpour, and
wondering whether he should make a dash for it or wait on the chance of its
clearing up—when a further blow was dealt him as the rain-soaked poster of an
evening paper caught his eye: “Riots in Egypt. Heavy Fall in Egyptian Securities,”
he read with blank dismay. Buying a paper he turned feverishly to the City
article—to find his worst fears confirmed. Delta Lands, in which nearly all his
small capital was invested, had declined a quarter on the news, and would
evidently decline further still. The riots were going on in the towns nearest
to their property. Banks had been looted, crops destroyed; the trouble was
deep-seated.
So grave was the situation that mere weather
seemed suddenly of no account at all. He walked home doggedly in the drenching
rain, paying less attention to it than if it had been Scotch mist. The water
streamed from his hat, dripped down his back and neck, splashed him with mud
and grime from head to foot. He was soaked to the skin. He hardly noticed it.
His capital had depreciated by half, at least, and possibly was altogether
lost; his position at the office was insecure. How could mere weather matter?
Sitting, eventually, before his fire in dry
clothes, after an apology for a dinner he had no heart to eat, he reviewed the
situation. He faced a possible total loss of his private capital. Next, the
position of his firm caused him grave uneasiness, since, apart from his own
mishandling of the new customer, the threatened strike might[153] ruin
it completely; a long strain on its limited finances was out of the question.
George Sanfield certainly saw things at their worst. He was now thirty-five. A
fresh start—the mere idea of it made him shudder—occurred as a possibility in
the near future. Vitality, indeed, was at a low ebb, it seemed. Mental
depression, great physical fatigue, weariness of life in general made his
spirits droop alarmingly, so that almost he felt tired of living. His tie with
existence, at any rate, just then was dangerously weak.
Thought turned next to the man on whose advice
he had staked his all in Delta Lands. Morris had important Egyptian interests
in various big companies and enterprises along the Nile. He had first come to
the firm with a letter of introduction upon some business matter, which the junior
partner had handled so successfully that acquaintance thus formed had ripened
into a more personal tie. The two men had much in common; their temperaments
were suited; understanding grew between them; they felt at home and comfortable
with one another. They became friends; they felt a mutual confidence. When
Morris paid his rare visits to England, they spent much time together; and it
was on one of these occasions that the matter of the Egyptian shares was
mentioned, Morris urgently advising their purchase.
Sanfield explained his own position clearly
enough, but his friend was so confident and optimistic that the purchase
eventually had been made. There had been, moreover, Sanfield now remembered,
the flavour of a peculiarly intimate and personal kind about the deal. He had
remarked it, with a touch of surprise, at the moment, though really it seemed
natural enough. Morris was very earnest, holding his friend’s interest at
heart; he was affectionate almost.
“I’d like to do you this good turn, old man,” he
said. “I have the strong feeling, somehow, that I owe you this, though heaven
alone knows why!” After a pause he added,[154] half shyly: “It
may be one of those old memories we hear about nowadays cropping up out of some
previous life together.” Before the other could reply, he went on to explain
that only three men were in the parent syndicate, the shares being
unobtainable. “I’ll set some of my own aside for you—four thousand or so, if
you like.”
They laughed together; Sanfield thanked him
warmly; the deal was carried out. But the recipient of the favour had wondered
a little at the sudden increase of intimacy even while he liked it and
responded.
Had he been a fool, he now asked himself, to
swallow the advice, putting all his eggs into a single basket? He knew very
little about Morris after all.... Yet, while reflection showed him that the
advice was honest, and the present riots no fault of the adviser’s, he found
his thoughts turning in a steady stream towards the man. The affairs of the
firm took second place. It was Morris, with his deep-set eyes, his curious
ways, his dark skin burnt brick-red by a fierce Eastern sun; it was Morris,
looking almost like an Egyptian, who stood before him as he sat thinking
gloomily over his dying fire.
He longed to talk with him, to ask him
questions, to seek advice. He saw him very vividly against the screen of
thought; Morris stood beside him now, gazing out across the limitless expanse
of tawny sand. He had in his eyes the “distance” that sailors share with men whose
life has been spent amid great trackless wastes. Morris, moreover, now he came
to think of it, seemed always a little out of place in England. He had few
relatives and, apparently, no friends; he was always intensely pleased when the
time came to return to his beloved Nile. He had once mentioned casually a
sister who kept house for him when duty detained him in Cairo, but, even here,
he was something of an Oriental, rarely speaking of his women folk. Egypt,
however, plainly drew him like a magnet. Resistance involved disturbance in his
being, even ill-health.[155] Egypt was “home” to him, and his friend,
though he had never been there, felt himself its potent spell.
Another curious trait Sanfield remembered,
too—his friend’s childish superstition; his belief, or half-belief, in magic
and the supernatural. Sanfield, amused, had ascribed it to the long sojourn in
a land where anything unusual is at once ascribed to spiritual agencies. Morris
owed his entire fortune, if his tale could be believed, to the magical
apparition of an unearthly kind in some lonely wadi among the Bedouins. A sand-diviner had
influenced another successful speculation.... He was a picturesque figure,
whichever way one took him: yet a successful business man into the bargain.
These reflections and memories, on the other
hand, brought small comfort to the man who had tempted Fate by following his
advice. It was only a little strange how Morris now dominated his thoughts,
directing them towards himself. Morris was in Egypt at the moment.
He went to bed at length, filled with uneasy
misgivings, but for a long time he could not sleep. He tossed restlessly, his
mind still running on the subject of his long reflections. He ached with
tiredness. He dropped off at last. Then came a nightmare dream, in which the
firm’s works were sold for nearly nothing to an old Arab sheikh who wished to
pay for them—in goats. He woke up in a cold perspiration. He had uneasy
thoughts. His fancy was travelling. He could not rest.
To distract his mind, he turned on the light and
tried to read, and, eventually, towards morning, fell into a sleep of sheer
exhaustion. And his final thought—he knew not exactly why—was a sentence Morris
had made use of long ago: “I feel I owe you a good turn; I’d like to do
something for you....”
This was the memory in his mind as he slipped
off into unconsciousness.
But what happens when the mind is unconscious
and[156] the
tired body lies submerged in deep sleep, no man, they say, can really tell.
2
The next thing he knew he was walking along a
sun-baked street in some foreign town that was familiar, although, at first,
its name escaped him. Colour, softness, and warmth pervaded it; there was
sparkle and lightness in the exhilarating air; it was an Eastern town.
Though early morning, a number of people were
already stirring; strings of camels passed him, loaded with clover, bales of
merchandise, and firewood. Gracefully-draped women went by silently, carrying
water jars of burnt clay upon their heads. Rude wooden shutters were being taken
down in the bazaars; the smoke of cooking-fires rose in the blue spirals
through the quiet air. He felt strangely at home and happy. The light, the
radiance stirred him. He passed a mosque from which the worshippers came
pouring in a stream of colour.
Yet, though an Eastern town, it was not wholly
Oriental, for he saw that many of the buildings were of semi-European design,
and that the natives sometimes wore European dress, except for the fez upon the
head. Among them were Europeans, too. Staring into the faces of the passers-by
he found, to his vexation, that he could not focus sight as usual, and that the
nearer he approached, the less clearly he discerned the features. The faces,
upon close attention, at once grew shadowy, merged into each other, or, in some
odd fashion, melted into the dazzling sunshine that was their background. All
his attempts in this direction failed; impatience seized him; of surprise,
however, he was not conscious. Yet this mingled vagueness and intensity seemed
perfectly natural.
Filled with a stirring curiosity, he made a
strong effort to concentrate his attention, only to discover that this
vagueness, this difficulty of focus, lay in his own being, too. He wandered on,
unaware exactly where he was going,[157] yet not much
perturbed, since there was an objective in view, he knew, and this
objective must eventually be reached. Its nature, however, for
the moment entirely eluded him.
The sense of familiarity, meanwhile, increased;
he had been in this town before, although not quite within recoverable memory.
It seemed, perhaps, the general atmosphere, rather than the actual streets, he
knew; a certain perfume in the air, a tang of indefinable sweetness, a vitality
in the radiant sunshine. The dark faces that he could not focus, he yet knew;
the flowing garments of blue and red and yellow, the softly-slippered feet, the
slouching camels, the burning human eyes that faded ere he fully caught
them—the entire picture in this blazing sunlight lay half-hidden,
half-revealed. And an extraordinary sense of happiness and well-being flooded
him as he walked; he felt at home; comfort and bliss stole over him. Almost he
knew his way about. This was a place he loved and knew.
The complete silence, moreover, did not strike
him as peculiar until, suddenly, it was broken in a startling fashion. He heard
his own name spoken. It sounded close beside his ear.
“George Sanfield!” The voice was familiar.
Morris called him. He realized then the truth. He was, of course, in Cairo.
Yet, instead of turning to discover the speaker
at his side, he hurried forward, as though he knew that the voice had come
through distance. His consciousness cleared and lightened; he felt more alive;
his eyes now focused the passers-by without difficulty. He was there to find
Morris, and Morris was directing him. All was explained and natural again. He
hastened. But, even while he hastened, he knew that his personal desire to
speak with his friend about Egyptian shares and Delta Lands was not his single
object. Behind it, further in among as yet unstirring shadows, lay another
deeper purpose. Yet he did not[158] trouble about it, nor make a conscious
effort at discovery. Morris was doing him that “good turn I feel I owe you.”
This conviction filled him overwhelmingly. The question of how and why did not
once occur to him. A strange, great happiness rose in him.
Upon the outskirts of the town now, he found
himself approaching a large building in the European style, with wide verandas
and a cultivated garden filled with palm trees. A well-kept drive of yellow
sand led to its chief entrance, and the man in khaki drill and riding-breeches
walking along this drive, not ten yards in front of him, was—Morris. He
overtook him, but his cry of welcome recognition was not answered. Morris,
walking with bowed head and stooping shoulders, seemed intensely preoccupied;
he had not heard the call.
“Here I am, old fellow!” exclaimed his friend,
holding out a hand. “I’ve come, you see...!” then paused aghast before the
altered face. Morris paid no attention. He walked straight on as though he had
not heard. It was the distraught and anguished expression on the drawn and
haggard features that impressed the other most. The silence he took without
surprise.
It was the pain and suffering in his friend that
occupied him. The dark rims beneath heavy eyes, the evidence of sleepless
nights, of long anxiety and ceaseless dread, afflicted him with their too-plain
story. The man was overwhelmed with some great sorrow. Sanfield forgot his
personal trouble; this larger, deeper grief usurped its place entirely.
“Morris! Morris!” he cried yet more eagerly than
before. “I’ve come, you see. Tell me what’s the matter. I believe—that I
can—help you...!”
The other turned, looking past him through the
air. He made no answer. The eyes went through him. He walked straight on, and
Sanfield walked at his side in silence. Through the large door they passed
together, Morris paying as little attention to him as though he were[159] not
there, and in the small chamber they now entered, evidently a waiting-room, an
Egyptian servant approached, uttered some inaudible words, and then withdrew,
leaving them alone together.
It seemed that time leaped forward, yet stood
still; the passage of minutes, that is to say, was irregular, almost fanciful.
Whether the interval was long or short, however, Morris spent it pacing up and
down the little room, his hands thrust deep into his pockets, his mind
oblivious of all else but his absorbing anxiety and grief. To his friend, who
watched him by the wall with intense desire to help, he paid no attention. The
latter’s spoken words went by him, entirely unnoticed; he gave no sign of
seeing him; his eyes, as he paced up and down, muttering inaudibly to himself,
were fixed every few seconds on an inner door. Beyond that door, Sanfield now
divined, lay someone who hesitated on the narrow frontier between life and
death.
It opened suddenly and a man, in overall and
rubber gloves, came out, his face grave yet with faint signs of hope about it—a
doctor, clearly, straight from the operating table. Morris, standing rigid in
his tracks, listened to something spoken, for the lips were in movement, though
no words were audible. The operation, Sanfield divined, had been successful,
though danger was still present. The two men passed out, then, into the hall
and climbed a wide staircase to the floor above, Sanfield following
noiselessly, though so close that he could touch them. Entering a large, airy
room where French windows, carefully shaded with green blinds opened on to a
veranda, they approached a bed. Two nurses bent over it. The occupant was at
first invisible.
Events had moved with curious rapidity. All this
had happened, it seemed, in a single moment, yet with the irregular effect
already mentioned which made Sanfield feel it might, equally, have lasted
hours. But, as he stood behind Morris and the surgeon at the bed, the deeps[160] in
him opened suddenly, and he trembled under a shock of intense emotion that he
could not understand. As with a stroke of lightning some heavenly fire set his
heart aflame with yearning. The very soul in him broke loose with passionate
longing that must find satisfaction. It came to him in a
single instant with the certain knowledge of an unconquerable conviction.
Hidden, yet ever waiting, among the broken centuries, there now leaped upon him
this flash of memory—the memory of some sweet and ancient love Time might veil
yet could not kill.
He ran forward, past the surgeon and the nurses,
past Morris who bent above the bed with a face ghastly from anxiety. He gazed
down upon the fair girl lying there, her unbound hair streaming over the
pillow. He saw, and he remembered. And an uncontrollable cry of recognition
left his lips....
The irregularity of the passing minutes became
so marked then, that he might well have passed outside their measure
altogether, beyond what men call Time; duration, interval, both escaped. Alone
and free with his eternal love, he was safe from all confinement, free, it
seemed, either of time or space. His friend, however, was vaguely with him
during the amazing instant. He felt acutely aware of the need each had,
respectively, for the other, born of a heritage the Past had hidden over-long.
Each, it was clear, could do the other a good turn.... Sanfield, though unable
to describe or disentangle later, knew, while it lasted, this joy of full,
delicious understanding....
The strange, swift instant of recognition passed
and disappeared. The cry, Sanfield realized, on coming back to the Present, had
been soundless and inaudible as before. No one observed him; no one stirred.
The girl, on that bed beside the opened windows, lay evidently dying. Her
breath came in gasps, her chest heaved convulsively, each attempt at recovery
was slower and more painful than the one before. She was unconscious. Sometimes
her breathing seemed to stop. It grew weaker, as the pulse[161] grew
fainter. And Sanfield, transfixed as with paralysis, stood watching, waiting,
an intolerable yearning in his heart to help. It seemed to him that he waited
with a purpose.
This purpose suddenly became clear. He knew why
he waited. There was help to be given. He was the one to give it.
The girl’s vitality and ebbing nerves, her
entire physical organism now fading so quickly towards that final extinction
which meant death—could these but be stimulated by a new tide of life, the
danger-point now fast approaching might be passed, and recovery must follow.
This impetus, he knew suddenly, he could supply. How, he could not tell. It
flashed upon him from beyond the stars, as from ancient store of
long-forgotten, long-neglected knowledge. It was enough that he felt confident
and sure. His soul burned within him; the strength of an ancient and
unconquerable love rose through his being. He would try.
The doctor, he saw, was in the act of giving his
last aid in the form of a hypodermic injection, Morris and the nurses looking
on. Sanfield observed the sharp quick rally, only too faint, too slight; he saw
the collapse that followed. The doctor, shrugging his shoulders, turned with a
look that could not express itself in words, and Morris, burying his face in
his hands, knelt by the bed, shaken with convulsive sobbing. It was the end.
In which moment, precisely, the strange
paralysis that had bound Sanfield momentarily, was lifted from his being, and
an impelling force, obeying his immense desire, invaded him. He knew how to
act. His will, taught long ago, yet long-forgotten, was set free.
“You have come back to me at last,” he cried in
his anguish and his power, though the voice was, as ever, inaudible and
soundless, “I shall not let you go!...”
Drawn forward nearer and nearer to the bed, he
leaned down, as if to kiss the pale lips and streaming hair. But[162] his
knowledge operated better than he knew. In the tremendous grip of that power
which spins the stars and suns, while drawing souls into manifestation upon a
dozen planets, he raced, he dived, he plunged, helpless, yet driven by the
creative stress of love and sacrifice towards some eternal purpose. Caught in
what seemed a vortex of amazing force, he sank away, as a straw is caught and
sunk within the suction of a mighty whirlpool. His memory of Morris, of the
doctor, of the girl herself, passed utterly. His entire personality became
merged, lost, obliterated. He was aware of nothing; not even aware of
nothingness. He lost consciousness....
3
The reappearance was as sudden as the
obliteration. He emerged. There had been interval, duration, time. He was not
aware of them. A spasm of blinding pain shot through him. He opened his eyes.
His whole body was a single devouring pain. He felt cramped, confined,
uncomfortable. He must escape. He thrashed about. Someone seized his arm and
held it. With a snarl he easily wrenched it free.
He was in bed. How had he come to this? An
accident? He saw the faces of nurse and doctor bending over him, eager, amazed,
surprised, a trifle frightened. Vague memories floated to him. Who was he?
Where had he come from? And where was ... where was ... someone ... who was
dearer to him than life itself? He looked about him: the room, the faces, the
French windows, the veranda, all seemed only half familiar. He looked, he
searched for ... someone ... but in vain....
A spasm of violent pain burned through his body
like a fire, and he shut his eyes. He groaned. A voice sounded just above him:
“Take this, dear. Try and swallow a little. It will relieve you. Your brother
will be back in a moment. You are much better already.”[163]
He looked up at the nurse; he drank what she
gave him.
“My brother!” he murmured. “I don’t understand.
I have no brother.” Thirst came over him; he drained the glass. The nurse,
wearing a startled look, moved away. He watched her go. He pointed at her with
his hand, meaning to say something that he instantly forgot—as he saw his own bare
arm. Its dreadful thinness shocked him. He must have been ill for months. The
arm, wasted almost to nothing, showed the bone. He sank back exhausted, the
sleeping draught began to take effect. The nurse returned quietly to a chair
beside the bed, from which she watched him without ceasing as the long minutes
passed....
He found it difficult to collect his thoughts,
to keep them in his mind when caught. There floated before him a series of odd
scenes like coloured pictures in an endless flow. He was unable to catch them.
Morris was with him always. They were doing quite absurd, impossible things.
They rode together across the desert in the dawn, they wandered through old
massive temples, they saw the sun set behind mud villages mid wavering palms,
they drifted down a river in a sailing boat of quaint design. It had an
enormous single sail. Together they visited tombs cut in the solid rock, hot
airless corridors, and huge, dim, vaulted chambers underground. There was an
icy wind by night, fierce burning sun by day. They watched vast troops of stars
pass down a stupendous sky.... They knew delight and tasted wonder. Strange
memories touched them....
“Nurse!” he called aloud, returning to himself
again, and remembering that he must speak with his friend about something—he
failed to recall exactly what. “Please ask Mr. Morris to come to me.”
“At once, dear. He’s only in the next room
waiting for you to wake.” She went out quickly, and he heard her voice in the
passage. It sank to a whisper as she[164] came back with
Morris, yet every syllable reached him distinctly:
“... and pay no attention if she wanders a
little; just ignore it. She’s turned the corner, thank God, and that’s the
chief thing.” Each word he heard with wonder and perplexity, with increasing
irritability too.
“I’m a hell of a wreck,” he said, as Morris
came, beaming, to the bedside. “Have I been ill long? It’s frightfully decent
of you to come, old man.”
But Morris, staggered at this greeting, stopped
abruptly, half turning to the nurse for guidance. He seemed unable to find
words. Sanfield was extremely annoyed; he showed his feeling. “I’m not balmy,
you old ass!” he shouted. “I’m all right again, though very weak. But I wanted
to ask you—oh, I remember now—I wanted to ask you about my—er—Deltas.”
“My poor dear Maggie,” stammered Morris,
fumbling with his voice. “Don’t worry about your few shares, darling. Deltas
are all right—it’s you we——”
“Why, the devil, do you call me Maggie?” snapped
the other viciously. “And ‘darling’!” He felt furious, exasperated. “Have you gone
balmy, or have I? What in the world are you two up to?” His fury tired him. He
lay back upon his pillows, fuming. Morris took a chair beside the bed; he put a
hand gently on his wasted arm.
“My darling girl,” he said, in what was intended
to be a soothing voice, though it stirred the sick man again to fury beyond
expression, “you must really keep quiet for a bit. You’ve had a very severe
operation”—his voice shook a little—“but, thank God, you’ve pulled through and
are now on the way to recovery. You are my sister Maggie. It will all come back
to you when you’re rested——”
“Maggie, indeed!” interrupted the other, trying
to sit up again, but too weak to compass it. “Your sister! You bally idiot!
Don’t you know me? I wish to God the nurse wouldn’t ‘dear’ me in that senseless
way. And you,[165] with your atrocious ‘darling,’ I’m not
your precious sister Maggie. I’m—I’m George San——”
But even as he said it, there passed over him
some dim lost fragment of a wild, delicious memory he could not seize. Intense
pleasure lay in it, could he but recover it. He knew a sweet, forgotten joy.
His broken, troubled mind lay searching frantically but without success. It
dazzled him. It shook him with an indescribable emotion—of joy, of wonder, of
deep sweet confusion. A rapt happiness rose in him, yet pain, like a black
awful shutter, closed in upon the happiness at once. He remembered a girl. But
he remembered, too, that he had seen her die. Who was she? Had he lost her ...
again...!
“My dear fellow,” he faltered in a weaker voice
to Morris, “my brain’s in a whirl. I’m sorry. I suppose I’ve had some blasted
concussion—haven’t I?”
But the man beside his bed, he saw, was
startled. An extraordinary look came into his face, though he tried to hide it
with a smile.
“My shares!” cried Sanfield, with a half scream.
“Four thousand of them!”
Whereupon Morris blanched. “George Sanfield!” he
muttered, half to himself, half to the nurse who hurried up. “That voice! The
very number too!” He looked white and terrified, as if he had seen a ghost. A
whispered colloquy ensued between him and the nurse. It was inaudible.
“Now, dearest Maggie,” he said at length, making
evidently a tremendous effort, “do try and lie quiet for a bit. Don’t bother
about George Sanfield, my London friend. His shares are quite safe. You’ve
heard me speak of him. It’s all right, my darling, quite all right. Oh, believe
me! I’m your brother.”
“Maggie...!” whispered the man to himself upon
the bed, whereupon Morris stooped, and, to his intense horror, kissed him on
the cheek. But his horror seemed[166] merged at once in
another personality that surged through and over his entire being, drowning
memory and recognition hopelessly. “Darling,” he murmured. He realized that he
was mad, of course. It seemed he fainted....
The momentary unconsciousness soon passed, at
any rate. He opened his eyes again. He saw a palm tree out of the window. He
knew positively he was not mad, whatever else he might be.
Dead perhaps? He felt the sheets, the mattress, the skin upon his face. No, he
was alive all right. The dull pains where the tight bandages oppressed him were
also real. He was among substantial, earthly things. The nurse, he noticed,
regarded him anxiously. She was a pleasant-looking young woman. He smiled; and,
with an expression of affectionate, even tender pleasure, she smiled back at
him.
“You feel better now, a little stronger,” she
said softly. “You’ve had a sleep, Miss Margaret.” She said “Miss Margaret” with
a conscious effort. It was better, perhaps, than “dear”; but his anger rose at
once. He was too tired, however, to express his feelings. There stole over him,
besides, the afflicting consciousness of an alien personality that was
familiar, and yet not his. It strove to dominate him. Only by a great effort
could he continue to think his own thoughts. This other being kept trying to
intrude, to oust him, to take full possession. It resented his presence with a
kind of violence.
He sighed. So strong was the feeling of another
personality trying to foist itself upon his own, upon his mind, his body, even
upon his very face, that he turned instinctively to the nurse, though unaware
exactly what he meant to ask her for.
“My hand-glass, please,” he heard himself
saying—with horror. The phrase was not his own. Glass or mirror were the
words he would have used.
A moment later he was staring with acute and
ghastly terror at a reflection that was not his own. It was the[167] face
of the dead girl he saw within the silver-handled, woman’s hand-glass he held
up.
*****
The dream with its amazing, vivid detail haunted
him for days, even coming between him and his work. It seemed far more real,
more vivid than the commonplace events of life that followed. The occurrences
of the day were pale compared to its overpowering intensity. And a cable,
received the very next afternoon, increased this sense of actual truth—of
something that had really happened.
“Hold shares writing Morris.”
Its brevity added a convincing touch. He was
aware of Egypt even in Throgmorton Street. Yet it was the face of the dead, or
dying, girl that chiefly haunted him. She remained in his thoughts, alive and
sweet and exquisite. Without her he felt incomplete, his life a failure. He
thought of nothing else.
The affairs at the office, meanwhile, went well;
unexpected success attended them; there was no strike; the angry customer was
pacified. And when the promised letter came from Morris, Sanfield’s hands
trembled so violently that he could hardly tear it open. Nor could he read it
calmly. The assurance about his precious shares scarcely interested him. It was
the final paragraph that set his heart beating against his ribs as though a
hammer lay inside him:
“... I’ve had great trouble and anxiety, though,
thank God, the danger is over now. I forget if I ever mentioned my sister,
Margaret, to you. She keeps house for me in Cairo, when I’m there. She is my
only tie in life. Well, a severe operation she had to undergo, all but finished
her. To tell you the truth, she very nearly died, for the doctor gave her up. You’ll
smile when I tell you that odd things happened—at the very last moment. I can’t
explain it, nor can the doctor. It rather terrified me. But at the very moment
when we thought her gone, something revived in her. She became full of
unexpected life and vigor. She was even violent—whereas, a moment before, she
had not the strength to speak, much less to move. It was rather wonderful, but
it was terrible too.[168]
“You don’t believe in these things, I know, but
I must tell you, because, when she recovered consciousness, she began to babble
about yourself, using your name, though she has rarely, if ever, heard it, and
even speaking—you won’t believe this, of course!—of your shares in Deltas,
giving the exact number that you hold. When you write, please
tell me if you were very anxious about these? Also, whether your thoughts were
directed particularly to me? I thought a good deal about you, knowing you might
be uneasy, but my mind was pretty full, as you will understand, of her
operation at the time. The climax, when all this happened, was about 11 a. m.
on February 13th.
“Don’t fail to tell me this, as I’m particularly
interested in what you may have to say.”
“And, now, I want to ask a great favor of you.
The doctor forbids Margaret to stay here during the hot weather, so I’m sending
her home to some cousins in Yorkshire, as soon as she is fit to travel. It
would be most awfully kind—I know how women bore you—if you could manage to
meet the boat and help her on her way through London. I’ll let you know dates and
particulars later, when I hear that you will do this for me....”
Sanfield hardly read the remainder of the
letter, which dealt with shares and business matters. But a month later he
stood on the dock-pier at Tilbury, watching the approach of the tender from
the Egyptian Mail.
He saw it make fast; he saw the stream of
passengers pour down the gangway; and he saw among them the tall, fair woman of
his dream. With a beating heart he went to meet her....
9.THE DECOY
IT belonged to the category of unlovely
houses about which an ugly superstition clings, one reason being, perhaps, its
inability to inspire interest in itself without assistance. It seemed too
ordinary to possess individuality, much less to exert an influence. Solid and
ungainly, its huge bulk dwarfing the park timber, its best claim to notice was
a negative one—it was unpretentious.
From the little hill its expressionless windows
stared across the Kentish Weald, indifferent to weather, dreary in winter,
bleak in spring, unblessed in summer. Some colossal hand had tossed it down,
then let it starve to death, a country mansion that might well strain the
adjectives of advertisers and find inheritors with difficulty. Its soul had
fled, said some; it had committed suicide, thought others; and it was an
inheritor, before he killed himself in the library, who thought this latter,
yielding, apparently, to an hereditary taint in the family. For two other
inheritors followed suit, with an interval of twenty years between them, and
there was no clear reason to explain the three disasters. Only the first owner,
indeed, lived permanently in the house, the others using it in the summer
months and then deserting it with relief. Hence, when John Burley, present
inheritor, assumed possession, he entered a house about which clung an ugly
superstition, based, nevertheless, upon a series of undeniably ugly facts.
This century deals harshly with superstitious
folk, deeming them fools or charlatans; but John Burley, robust, contemptuous
of half lights, did not deal harshly with them, because he did not deal with
them at all. He[170] was hardly aware of their existence. He
ignored them as he ignored, say, the Esquimaux, poets, and other human aspects
that did not touch his scheme of life. A successful business man, he
concentrated on what was real; he dealt with business people. His philanthropy,
on a big scale, was also real; yet, though he would have denied it vehemently,
he had his superstition as well. No man exists without some taint of
superstition in his blood; the racial heritage is too rich to be escaped
entirely. Burley’s took this form—that unless he gave his tithe to the poor he
would not prosper. This ugly mansion, he decided, would make an ideal
Convalescent Home.
“Only cowards or lunatics kill themselves,” he
declared flatly, when his use of the house was criticized. “I’m neither one nor
t’other.” He let out his gusty, boisterous laugh. In his invigorating
atmosphere such weakness seemed contemptible, just as superstition in his
presence seemed feeblest ignorance. Even its picturesqueness faded. “I can’t
conceive,” he boomed, “can’t even imagine to myself,” he added emphatically,
“the state of mind in which a man can think of suicide, much less do it.” He
threw his chest out with a challenging air. “I tell you, Nancy, it’s either
cowardice or mania. And I’ve no use for either.”
Yet he was easy-going and good-humoured in his
denunciation. He admitted his limitations with a hearty laugh his wife called
noisy. Thus he made allowances for the fairy fears of sailorfolk, and had even
been known to mention haunted ships his companies owned. But he did so in the
terms of tonnage and £ s. d. His scope was big; details were made for clerks.
His consent to pass a night in the mansion was
the consent of a practical business man and philanthropist who dealt
condescendingly with foolish human nature. It was based on the common-sense of
tonnage and £ s. d. The local newspapers had revived the silly story of the
suicides, calling attention to the effect of the superstition upon the[171] fortunes
of the house, and so, possibly, upon the fortunes of its present owner. But the
mansion, otherwise a white elephant, was precisely ideal for his purpose, and
so trivial a matter as spending a night in it should not stand in the way. “We
must take people as we find them, Nancy.”
His young wife had her motive, of course, in
making the proposal, and, if she was amused by what she called “spook-hunting,”
he saw no reason to refuse her the indulgence. He loved her, and took her as he
found her—late in life. To allay the superstitions of prospective staff and
patients and supporters, all, in fact, whose goodwill was necessary to success,
he faced this boredom of a night in the building before its opening was
announced. “You see, John, if you, the owner, do this, it will nip damaging
talk in the bud. If anything went wrong later it would only be put down to this
suicide idea, this haunting influence. The Home will have a bad name from the
start. There’ll be endless trouble. It will be a failure.”
“You think my spending a night there will stop
the nonsense?” he inquired.
“According to the old legend it breaks the
spell,” she replied. “That’s the condition, anyhow.”
“But somebody’s sure to die there sooner or
later,” he objected. “We can’t prevent that.”
“We can prevent people whispering that they died
unnaturally.” She explained the working of the public mind.
“I see,” he replied, his lip curling, yet quick
to gauge the truth of what she told him about collective instinct.
“Unless you take poison in the
hall,” she added laughingly, “or elect to hang yourself with your braces from
the hat peg.”
“I’ll do it,” he agreed, after a moment’s
thought. “I’ll sit up with you. It will be like a honeymoon over again, you and
I on the spree—eh?” He was even interested now; the boyish side of him was
touched perhaps; but his enthusiasm was less when she explained that three was
a better number than two on such an expedition.[172]
“I’ve often done it before, John. We were always
three.”
“Who?” he asked bluntly. He looked wonderingly
at her, but she answered that if anything went wrong a party of three provided
a better margin for help. It was sufficiently obvious. He listened and agreed.
“I’ll get young Mortimer,” he suggested. “Will he do?”
She hesitated. “Well—he’s cheery; he’ll be
interested, too. Yes, he’s as good as another.” She seemed indifferent.
“And he’ll make the time pass with his stories,”
added her husband.
So Captain Mortimer, late officer on a T.B.D., a
“cheery lad,” afraid of nothing, cousin of Mrs. Burley, and now filling a good
post in the company’s London offices, was engaged as third hand in the
expedition. But Captain Mortimer was young and ardent, and Mrs. Burley was
young and pretty and ill-mated, and John Burley was a neglectful, and self-satisfied
husband.
Fate laid the trap with cunning, and John
Burley, blind-eyed, careless of detail, floundered into it. He also floundered
out again, though in a fashion none could have expected of him.
The night agreed upon eventually was as near to
the shortest in the year as John Burley could contrive—June 18th—when the sun
set at 8:18 and rose about a quarter to four. There would be barely three hours
of true darkness. “You’re the expert,” he admitted, as she explained that
sitting through the actual darkness only was required, not necessarily from
sunset to sunrise. “We’ll do the thing properly. Mortimer’s not very keen, he
had a dance or something,” he added, noticing the look of annoyance that
flashed swiftly in her eyes; “but he got out of it. He’s coming.” The pouting
expression of the spoilt woman amused him. “Oh, no, he didn’t need much
persuading really,” he assured her. “Some girl or other, of course.[173] He’s
young, remember.” To which no comment was forthcoming, though the implied
comparison made her flush.
They motored from South Audley Street after an
early tea, in due course passing Sevenoaks and entering the Kentish Weald; and,
in order that the necessary advertisement should be given, the chauffeur,
warned strictly to keep their purpose quiet, was to put up at the country inn
and fetch them an hour after sunrise; they would breakfast in London. “He’ll
tell everybody,” said his practical and cynical master; “the local newspaper
will have it all next day. A few hours’ discomfort is worth while if it ends
the nonsense. We’ll read and smoke, and Mortimer shall tell us yarns about the
sea.” He went with the driver into the house to superintend the arrangement of
the room, the lights, the hampers of food, and so forth, leaving the pair upon
the lawn.
“Four hours isn’t much, but it’s something,”
whispered Mortimer, alone with her for the first time since they started. “It’s
simply ripping of you to have got me in. You look divine to-night. You’re the
most wonderful woman in the world.” His blue eyes shone with the hungry desire
he mistook for love. He looked as if he had blown in from the sea, for his skin
was tanned and his light hair bleached a little by the sun. He took her hand,
drawing her out of the slanting sunlight towards the rhododendrons.
“I didn’t, you silly boy. It was John suggested
your coming.” She released her hand with an affected effort. “Besides, you
overdid it—pretending you had a dance.”
“You could have objected,” he said eagerly, “and
didn’t. Oh, you’re too lovely, you’re delicious!” He kissed her suddenly with
passion. There was a tiny struggle, in which she yielded too easily, he
thought.
“Harry, you’re an idiot!” she cried
breathlessly, when he let her go. “I really don’t know how you dare! And John’s
your friend. Besides, you know”—she glanced round quickly—“it isn’t safe here.”
Her eyes shone happily, her cheeks were flaming. She looked what she was, a[174] pretty,
young, lustful animal, false to ideals, true to selfish passion only.
“Luckily,” she added, “he trusts me too fully to think anything.”
The young man, worship in his eyes, laughed
gaily. “There’s no harm in a kiss,” he said. “You’re a child to him, he never
thinks of you as a woman. Anyhow, his head’s full of ships and kings and
sealing-wax,” he comforted her, while respecting her sudden instinct which
warned him not to touch her again, “and he never sees anything. Why, even at
ten yards——”
From twenty yards away a big voice interrupted
him, as John Burley came round a corner of the house and across the lawn
towards them. The chauffeur, he announced, had left the hampers in the room on
the first floor and gone back to the inn. “Let’s take a walk round,” he added,
joining them, “and see the garden. Five minutes before sunset we’ll go in and
feed.” He laughed. “We must do the thing faithfully, you know, mustn’t we,
Nancy? Dark to dark, remember. Come on, Mortimer”—he took the young man’s
arm—“a last look round before we go in and hang ourselves from adjoining hooks
in the matron’s room!” He reached out his free hand towards his wife.
“Oh, hush, John!” she said quickly. “I don’t
like—especially now the dusk is coming.” She shivered, as though it were a
genuine little shiver, pursing her lips deliciously as she did so; whereupon he
drew her forcibly to him, saying he was sorry, and kissed her exactly where she
had been kissed two minutes before, while young Mortimer looked on. “We’ll take
care of you between us,” he said. Behind a broad back the pair exchanged a
swift but meaning glance, for there was that in his tone which enjoined
wariness, and perhaps after all he was not so blind as he appeared. They had
their code, these two. “All’s well,” was signalled; “but another time be more
careful!”
There still remained some minutes’ sunlight
before the huge red ball of fire would sink behind the wooded hills,[175] and
the trio, talking idly, a flutter of excitement in two hearts certainly, walked
among the roses. It was a perfect evening, windless, perfumed, warm. Headless
shadows preceded them gigantically across the lawn as they moved, and one side
of the great building lay already dark; bats were flitting, moths darted to and
fro above the azalea and rhododendron clumps. The talk turned chiefly on the
uses of the mansion as a Convalescent Home, its probable running cost, suitable
staff, and so forth.
“Come along,” John Burley said presently,
breaking off and turning abruptly, “we must be inside, actually inside, before
the sun’s gone. We must fulfil the conditions faithfully,” he repeated, as
though fond of the phrase. He was in earnest over everything in life, big or
little, once he set his hand to it.
They entered, this incongruous trio of
ghost-hunters, no one of them really intent upon the business in hand, and went
slowly upstairs to the great room where the hampers lay. Already in the hall it
was dark enough for three electric torches to flash usefully and help their
steps as they moved with caution, lighting one corner after another. The air
inside was chill and damp. “Like an unused museum,” said Mortimer. “I can smell
the specimens.” They looked about them, sniffing. “That’s humanity,” declared
his host, employer, friend, “with cement and whitewash to flavour it”; and all
three laughed as Mrs. Burley said she wished they had picked some roses and
brought them in. Her husband was again in front on the broad staircase,
Mortimer just behind him, when she called out. “I don’t like being last,” she
exclaimed. It’s so black behind me in the hall. I’ll come between you two,” and
the sailor took her outstretched hand, squeezing it, as he passed her up.
“There’s a figure, remember,” she said hurriedly, turning to gain her husband’s
attention, as when she touched wood at home. “A figure is seen; that’s part of
the story. The figure of a man.” She gave a tiny[176] shiver of
pleasurable, half-imagined alarm as she took his arm.
“I hope we shall see it,” he mentioned
prosaically.
“I hope we shan’t,” she replied with emphasis.
“It’s only seen before—something happens.” Her husband said nothing, while
Mortimer remarked facetiously that it would be a pity if they had their trouble
for nothing. “Something can hardly happen to all three of us,” he said lightly,
as they entered a large room where the paper-hangers had conveniently left a
rough table of bare planks. Mrs. Burley, busy with her own thoughts, began to
unpack the sandwiches and wine. Her husband strolled over to the window. He
seemed restless.
“So this,” his deep voice startled her, “is
where one of us”—he looked round him—“is to——”
“John!” She stopped him sharply, with
impatience. “Several times already I’ve begged you.” Her voice rang rather
shrill and querulous in the empty room, a new note in it. She was beginning to
feel the atmosphere of the place, perhaps. On the sunny lawn it had not touched
her, but now, with the fall of night, she was aware of it, as shadow called to
shadow and the kingdom of darkness gathered power. Like a great whispering
gallery, the whole house listened.
“Upon my word, Nancy,” he said with contrition,
as he came and sat down beside her, “I quite forgot again. Only I cannot take
it seriously. It’s so utterly unthinkable to me that a man——”
“But why evoke the idea at all?” she insisted in
a lowered voice, that snapped despite its faintness. “Men, after all, don’t do
such things for nothing.”
“We don’t know everything in the universe, do
we?” Mortimer put in, trying clumsily to support her. “All I know just now is
that I’m famished and this veal and ham pie is delicious.” He was very busy
with his knife and fork. His foot rested lightly on her own beneath the[177] table;
he could not keep his eyes off her face; he was continually passing new edibles
to her.
“No,” agreed John Burley, “not everything.
You’re right there.”
She kicked the younger man gently, flashing a
warning with her eyes as well, while her husband, emptying his glass, his head
thrown back, looked straight at them over the rim, apparently seeing nothing.
They smoked their cigarettes round the table, Burley lighting a big cigar.
“Tell us about the figure, Nancy?” he inquired. “At least there’s no harm in
that. It’s new to me. I hadn’t heard about a figure.” And she did so willingly,
turning her chair sideways from the dangerous, reckless feet. Mortimer could
now no longer touch her. “I know very little,” she confessed; “only what the
paper said. It’s a man.... And he changes.”
“How changes?” asked her husband. “Clothes, you
mean, or what?”
Mrs. Burley laughed, as though she was glad to
laugh. Then she answered: “According to the story, he shows himself each time
to the man——”
“The man who——?”
“Yes, yes, of course. He appears to the man who
dies—as himself.”
“H’m,” grunted her husband, naturally puzzled.
He stared at her.
“Each time the chap saw his own double”—Mortimer
came this time usefully to the rescue—“before he did it.”
Considerable explanation followed, involving
much psychic jargon from Mrs. Burley, which fascinated and impressed the
sailor, who thought her as wonderful as she was lovely, showing it in his eyes
for all to see. John Burley’s attention wandered. He moved over to the window,
leaving them to finish the discussion between them; he took no part in it, made
no comment even, merely listening idly and watching them with an air of
absent-mindedness through the cloud of cigar smoke round his head. He[178] moved
from window to window, ensconcing himself in turn in each deep embrasure,
examining the fastenings, measuring the thickness of the stonework with his
handkerchief. He seemed restless, bored, obviously out of place in this
ridiculous expedition. On his big massive face lay a quiet, resigned expression
his wife had never seen before. She noticed it now as, the discussion ended,
the pair tidied away the débris of dinner, lit the spirit lamp for coffee and laid out a
supper which would be very welcome with the dawn. A draught passed through the
room, making the papers flutter on the table. Mortimer turned down the smoking
lamps with care.
“Wind’s getting up a bit—from the south,”
observed Burley from his niche, closing one-half of the casement window as he
said it. To do this, he turned his back a moment, fumbling for several seconds
with the latch, while Mortimer, noting it, seized his sudden opportunity with
the foolish abandon of his age and temperament. Neither he nor his victim
perceived that, against the outside darkness, the interior of the room was
plainly reflected in the window-pane. One reckless, the other terrified, they
snatched the fearful joy, which might, after all, have been lengthened by
another full half-minute, for the head they feared, followed by the shoulders,
pushed through the side of the casement still open, and remained outside,
taking in the night.
“A grand air,” said his deep voice, as the head
drew in again, “I’d like to be at sea a night like this.” He left the casement
open and came across the room towards them. “Now,” he said cheerfully,
arranging a seat for himself, “let’s get comfortable for the night. Mortimer,
we expect stories from you without ceasing, until dawn or the ghost arrives.
Horrible stories of chains and headless men, remember. Make it a night we
shan’t forget in a hurry.” He produced his gust of laughter.
They arranged their chairs, with other chairs to
put their feet on, and Mortimer contrived a footstool by means[179] of
a hamper for the smallest feet; the air grew thick with tobacco smoke; eyes
flashed and answered, watched perhaps as well; ears listened and perhaps grew
wise; occasionally, as a window shook, they started and looked round; there
were sounds about the house from time to time, when the entering wind, using
broken or open windows, set loose objects rattling.
But Mrs. Burley vetoed horrible stories with
decision. A big, empty mansion, lonely in the country, and even with the
comfort of John Burley and a lover in it, has its atmosphere. Furnished rooms
are far less ghostly. This atmosphere now came creeping everywhere, through
spacious halls and sighing corridors, silent, invisible, but all-pervading,
John Burley alone impervious to it, unaware of its soft attack upon the nerves.
It entered possibly with the summer night wind, but possibly it was always
there.... And Mrs. Burley looked often at her husband, sitting near her at an
angle; the light fell on his fine strong face; she felt that, though apparently
so calm and quiet, he was really very restless; something about him was a little
different; she could not define it; his mouth seemed set as with an effort; he
looked, she thought curiously to herself, patient and very dignified; he was
rather a dear after all. Why did she think the face inscrutable? Her thoughts
wandered vaguely, unease, discomfort among them somewhere, while the heated
blood—she had taken her share of wine—seethed in her.
Burley turned to the sailor for more stories.
“Sea and wind in them,” he asked. “No horrors, remember!” and Mortimer told a
tale about the shortage of rooms at a Welsh seaside place where spare rooms
fetched fabulous prices, and one man alone refused to let—a retired captain of
a South Seas trader, very poor, a bit crazy apparently. He had two furnished
rooms in his house worth twenty guineas a week. The rooms faced south; he kept
them full of flowers; but he would not let. An explanation of his unworldly
obstinacy was not forthcoming until Mortimer—they[180] fished
together—gained his confidence. “The South Wind lives in them,” the old fellow
told him. “I keep them free for her.”
“For her?”
“It was on the South Wind my love came to me,”
said the other softly; “and it was on the South Wind that she left——”
It was an odd tale to tell in such company, but
he told it well.
“Beautiful,” thought Mrs. Burley. Aloud she said
a quiet, “Thank you. By ‘left,’ I suppose he meant she died or ran away?”
John Burley looked up with a certain surprise.
“We ask for a story,” he said, “and you give us a poem.” He laughed. “You’re in
love, Mortimer,” he informed him, “and with my wife probably.”
“Of course I am, sir,” replied the young man
gallantly. “A sailor’s heart, you know,” while the face of the woman turned
pink, then white. She knew her husband more intimately than Mortimer did, and
there was something in his tone, his eyes, his words, she did not like. Harry
was an idiot to choose such a tale. An irritated annoyance stirred in her,
close upon dislike. “Anyhow, it’s better than horrors,” she said hurriedly.
“Well,” put in her husband, letting forth a
minor gust of laughter, “it’s possible, at any rate. Though one’s as crazy as
the other.” His meaning was not wholly clear. “If a man really loved,” he added
in his blunt fashion, “and was tricked by her, I could almost conceive his——”
“Oh, don’t preach, John, for Heaven’s sake.
You’re so dull in the pulpit.” But the interruption only served to emphasize
the sentence which, otherwise, might have been passed over.
“Could conceive his finding life so worthless,”
persisted the other, “that——” He hesitated. “But there, now, I promised I
wouldn’t,” he went on, laughing good-humouredly. Then, suddenly, as though in
spite of himself,[181] driven it seemed: “Still, under such
conditions, he might show his contempt for human nature and for life by——”
It was a tiny stifled scream that stopped him
this time.
“John, I hate, I loathe you, when you talk like
that. And you’ve broken your word again.” She was more than petulant; a nervous
anger sounded in her voice. It was the way he had said it, looking from them
towards the window, that made her quiver. She felt him suddenly as a man; she
felt afraid of him.
Her husband made no reply; he rose and looked at
his watch, leaning sideways towards the lamp, so that the expression of his
face was shaded. “Two o’clock,” he remarked. “I think I’ll take a turn through
the house. I may find a workman asleep or something. Anyhow, the light will
soon come now.” He laughed; the expression of his face, his tone of voice,
relieved her momentarily. He went out. They heard his heavy tread echoing down
the carpetless long corridor.
Mortimer began at once. “Did he mean anything?”
he asked breathlessly. “He doesn’t love you the least little bit, anyhow. He
never did. I do. You’re wasted on him. You belong to me.” The words poured out.
He covered her face with kisses. “Oh, I didn’t mean that,” he
caught between the kisses.
The sailor released her, staring. “What then?”
he whispered. “Do you think he saw us on the lawn?” He paused a moment, as she
made no reply. The steps were audible in the distance still. “I know!” he
exclaimed suddenly. “It’s the blessed house he feels. That’s what it is. He
doesn’t like it.”
A wind sighed through the room, making the
papers flutter; something rattled; and Mrs. Burley started. A loose end of rope
swinging from the paperhanger’s ladder caught her eye. She shivered slightly.
“He’s different,” she replied in a low voice,
nestling very close again, “and so restless. Didn’t you notice what he said
just now—that under certain conditions he could[182] understand a
man”—she hesitated—“doing it,” she concluded, a sudden drop in her voice.
“Harry,” she looked full into his eyes, “that’s not like him. He didn’t say
that for nothing.”
“Nonsense! He’s bored to tears, that’s all. And
the house is getting on your nerves, too.” He kissed her tenderly. Then, as she
responded, he drew her nearer still and held her passionately, mumbling
incoherent words, among which “nothing to be afraid of” was distinguishable.
Meanwhile, the steps were coming nearer. She pushed him away. “You must behave
yourself. I insist. You shall, Harry,” then buried herself in his arms, her
face hidden against his neck—only to disentangle herself the next instant and
stand clear of him. “I hate you, Harry,” she exclaimed sharply, a look of angry
annoyance flashing across her face. “And I hate myself. Why do
you treat me——?” She broke off as the steps came closer, patted her hair
straight, and stalked over to the open window.
“I believe after all you’re only playing with
me,” he said viciously. He stared in surprised disappointment, watching her.
“It’s him you really love,” he added jealously. He looked and spoke like a
petulant spoilt boy.
She did not turn her head. “He’s always been
fair to me, kind and generous. He never blames me for anything. Give me a
cigarette and don’t play the stage hero. My nerves are on edge, to tell you the
truth.” Her voice jarred harshly, and as he lit her cigarette he noticed that
her lips were trembling; his own hand trembled too. He was still holding the
match, standing beside her at the window-sill, when the steps crossed the
threshold and John Burley came into the room. He went straight up to the table
and turned the lamp down. “It was smoking,” he remarked. “Didn’t you see?”
“I’m sorry, sir,” and Mortimer sprang forward,
too late to help him. “It was the draught as you pushed the door open.” The big
man said, “Ah!” and drew a[183] chair over, facing them. “It’s just the very
house,” he told them. “I’ve been through every room on this floor. It will make
a splendid Home, with very little alteration, too.” He turned round in his
creaking wicker chair and looked up at his wife, who sat swinging her legs and
smoking in the window embrasure. “Lives will be saved inside these old walls.
It’s a good investment,” he went on, talking rather to himself it seemed.
“People will die here, too——”
“Hark!” Mrs. Burley interrupted him. “That
noise—what is it?” A faint thudding sound in the corridor or in the adjoining
room was audible, making all three look round quickly, listening for a
repetition, which did not come. The papers fluttered on the table, the lamps
smoked an instant.
“Wind,” observed Burley calmly, “our little
friend, the South Wind. Something blown over again, that’s all.” But,
curiously, the three of them stood up. “I’ll go and see,” he continued. “Doors
and windows are all open to let the paint dry.” Yet he did not move; he stood
there watching a white moth that dashed round and round the lamp, flopping
heavily now and again upon the bare deal table.
“Let me go, sir,” put in Mortimer eagerly. He was
glad of the chance; for the first time he, too, felt uncomfortable. But there
was another who, apparently, suffered a discomfort greater than his own and was
accordingly even more glad to get away. “I’ll go,” Mrs. Burley announced, with
decision. “I’d like to. I haven’t been out of this room since we came. I’m not
an atom afraid.”
It was strange that for a moment she did not
make a move either; it seemed as if she waited for something. For perhaps
fifteen seconds no one stirred or spoke. She knew by the look in her lover’s
eyes that he had now become aware of the slight, indefinite change in her
husband’s manner, and was alarmed by it. The fear in him woke her contempt; she
suddenly despised the youth, and[184] was conscious of a
new, strange yearning towards her husband; against her worked nameless
pressures, troubling her being. There was an alteration in the room, she
thought; something had come in. The trio stood listening to the gentle wind
outside, waiting for the sound to be repeated; two careless, passionate young
lovers and a man stood waiting, listening, watching in that room; yet it seemed
there were five persons altogether and not three, for two guilty consciences
stood apart and separate from their owners. John Burley broke the silence.
“Yes, you go, Nancy. Nothing to be afraid
of—there. It’s only wind.” He spoke as though he meant it.
Mortimer bit his lips. “I’ll come with you,” he
said instantly. He was confused. “Let’s all three go. I don’t think we ought to
be separated.” But Mrs. Burley was already at the door. “I insist,” she said,
with a forced laugh. “I’ll call if I’m frightened,” while her husband, saying
nothing, watched her from the table.
“Take this,” said the sailor, flashing his
electric torch as he went over to her. “Two are better than one.” He saw her
figure exquisitely silhouetted against the black corridor beyond; it was clear
she wanted to go; any nervousness in her was mastered by a stronger emotion
still; she was glad to be out of their presence for a bit. He had hoped to snatch
a word of explanation in the corridor, but her manner stopped him. Something
else stopped him, too.
“First door on the left,” he called out, his
voice echoing down the empty length. “That’s the room where the noise came
from. Shout if you want us.”
He watched her moving away, the light held
steadily in front of her, but she made no answer, and he turned back to see
John Burley lighting his cigar at the lamp chimney, his face thrust forward as
he did so. He stood a second, watching him, as the lips sucked hard at the
cigar to make it draw; the strength of the features was emphasized to
sternness. He had meant to stand by the[185] door and listen
for the least sound from the adjoining room, but now found his whole attention
focused on the face above the lamp. In that minute he realized that Burley had
wished—had meant—his wife to go. In that minute also he forgot his love, his
shameless, selfish little mistress, his worthless, caddish little self. For
John Burley looked up. He straightened slowly, puffing hard and quickly to make
sure his cigar was lit, and faced him. Mortimer moved forward into the room,
self-conscious, embarrassed, cold.
“Of course it was only wind,” he said lightly,
his one desire being to fill the interval while they were alone with commonplaces.
He did not wish the other to speak, “Dawn wind, probably.” He glanced at his
wrist-watch. “It’s half-past two already, and the sun gets up at a quarter to
four. It’s light by now, I expect. The shortest night is never quite dark.” He
rambled on confusedly, for the other’s steady, silent stare embarrassed him. A
faint sound of Mrs. Burley moving in the next room made him stop a moment. He
turned instinctively to the door, eager for an excuse to go.
“That’s nothing,” said Burley, speaking at last
and in a firm quiet voice. “Only my wife, glad to be alone—my young and pretty
wife. She’s all right. I know her better than you do. Come in and shut the
door.”
Mortimer obeyed. He closed the door and came
close to the table, facing the other, who at once continued.
“If I thought,” he said, in that quiet deep
voice, “that you two were serious”—he uttered his words very slowly, with
emphasis, with intense severity—“do you know what I should do? I will tell you,
Mortimer. I should like one of us two—you or myself—to remain in this house,
dead.”
His teeth gripped his cigar tightly; his hands
were clenched; he went on through a half-closed mouth. His eyes blazed
steadily.
“I trust her so absolutely—understand me?—that
my[186] belief
in women, in human beings, would go. And with it the desire to live. Understand
me?”
Each word to the young careless fool was a blow
in the face, yet it was the softest blow, the flash of a big deep heart, that
hurt the most. A dozen answers—denial, explanation, confession, taking all guilt
upon himself—crowded his mind, only to be dismissed. He stood motionless and
silent, staring hard into the other’s eyes. No word passed his lips; there was
no time in any case. It was in this position that Mrs. Burley, entering at that
moment, found them. She saw her husband’s face; the other man stood with his
back to her. She came in with a little nervous laugh. “A bell-rope swinging in
the wind and hitting a sheet of metal before the fireplace,” she informed them.
And all three laughed together then, though each laugh had a different sound.
“But I hate this house,” she added. “I wish we had never come.”
“The moment there’s light in the sky,” remarked
her husband quietly, “we can leave. That’s the contract; let’s see it through.
Another half-hour will do it. Sit down, Nancy, and have a bite of something.”
He got up and placed a chair for her. “I think I’ll take another look round.”
He moved slowly to the door. “I may go out on to the lawn a bit and see what
the sky is doing.”
It did not take half a minute to say the words,
yet to Mortimer it seemed as though the voice would never end. His mind was
confused and troubled. He loathed himself, he loathed the woman through whom he
had got into this awkward mess.
The situation had suddenly become extremely painful;
he had never imagined such a thing; the man he had thought blind had after all
seen everything—known it all along, watched them, waited. And the woman, he was
now certain, loved her husband; she had fooled him, Mortimer, all along,
amusing herself.
“I’ll come with you, sir. Do let me,” he said
suddenly. Mrs. Burley stood pale and uncertain between them. She[187] looked
scared. What has happened, she was clearly wondering.
“No, no, Harry”—he called him “Harry” for the
first time—“I’ll be back in five minutes at most. My wife mustn’t be alone
either.” And he went out.
The young man waited till the footsteps sounded
some distance down the corridor, then turned, but he did not move forward; for
the first time he let pass unused what he called “an opportunity.” His passion
had left him; his love, as he once thought it, was gone. He looked at the
pretty woman near him, wondering blankly what he had ever seen there to attract
him so wildly. He wished to Heaven he was out of it all. He wished he were
dead. John Burley’s words suddenly appalled him.
One thing he saw plainly—she was frightened.
This opened his lips.
“What’s the matter?” he asked, and his hushed
voice shirked the familiar Christian name. “Did you see anything?” He nodded
his head in the direction of the adjoining room. It was the sound of his own
voice addressing her coldly that made him abruptly see himself as he really
was, but it was her reply, honestly given, in a faint even voice, that told him
she saw her own self too with similar clarity. God, he thought, how revealing a
tone, a single word can be!
“I saw—nothing. Only I feel uneasy—dear.” That
“dear” was a call for help.
“Look here,” he cried, so loud that she held up
a warning finger, “I’m—I’ve been a damned fool, a cad! I’m most frightfully
ashamed. I’ll do anything—anything to get it right.” He felt cold,
naked, his worthlessness laid bare; she felt, he knew, the same. Each revolted
suddenly from the other. Yet he knew not quite how or wherefore this great
change had thus abruptly come about, especially on her side. He felt that a
bigger, deeper emotion than he could understand was working on them, making
mere[188] physical
relationships seem empty, trivial, cheap and vulgar. His cold increased in face
of this utter ignorance.
“Uneasy?” he repeated, perhaps hardly knowing
exactly why he said it. “Good Lord, but he can take care of himself——”
“Oh, he is a man,” she
interrupted; “yes.”
Steps were heard, firm, heavy steps, coming back
along the corridor. It seemed to Mortimer that he had listened to this sound of
steps all night, and would listen to them till he died. He crossed to the lamp
and lit a cigarette, carefully this time, turning the wick down afterwards.
Mrs. Burley also rose, moving over towards the door, away from him. They listened
a moment to these firm and heavy steps, the tread of a man, John Burley. A man
... and a philanderer, flashed across Mortimer’s brain like fire, contrasting
the two with fierce contempt for himself. The tread became less audible. There
was distance in it. It had turned in somewhere.
“There!” she exclaimed in a hushed tone. “He’s
gone in.”
“Nonsense! It passed us. He’s going out on to
the lawn.”
The pair listened breathlessly for a moment,
when the sound of steps came distinctly from the adjoining room, walking across
the boards, apparently towards the window.
“There!” she repeated. “He did go in.” Silence
of perhaps a minute followed, in which they heard each other’s breathing. “I
don’t like his being alone—in there,” Mrs. Burley said in a thin faltering voice,
and moved as though to go out. Her hand was already on the knob of the door,
when Mortimer stopped her with a violent gesture.
“Don’t! For God’s sake, don’t!” he cried, before
she could turn it. He darted forward. As he laid a hand upon her arm a thud was
audible through the wall. It was a heavy sound, and this time there was no wind
to cause it.[189]
“It’s only that loose swinging thing,” he
whispered thickly, a dreadful confusion blotting out clear thought and speech.
“There was no loose swaying thing at all,” she
said in a failing voice, then reeled and swayed against him. “I invented that.
There was nothing.” As he caught her, staring helplessly, it seemed to him that
a face with lifted lids rushed up at him. He saw two terrified eyes in a patch
of ghastly white. Her whisper followed, as she sank into his arms. “It’s John.
He’s——”
At which instant, with terror at its climax, the
sound of steps suddenly became audible once more—the firm and heavy tread of
John Burley coming out again into the corridor. Such was their amazement and
relief that they neither moved nor spoke. The steps drew nearer. The pair
seemed petrified; Mortimer did not remove his arms, nor did Mrs. Burley attempt
to release herself. They stared at the door and waited. It was pushed wider the
next second, and John Burley stood beside them. He was so close he almost
touched them—there in each other’s arms.
“Jack, dear!” cried his wife, with a searching
tenderness that made her voice seem strange.
He gazed a second at each in turn. “I’m going
out on to the lawn for a moment,” he said quietly. There was no expression on
his face; he did not smile, he did not frown; he showed no feeling, no
emotion—just looked into their eyes, and then withdrew round the edge of the
door before either could utter a word in answer. The door swung to behind him.
He was gone.
“He’s going to the lawn. He said so.” It was
Mortimer speaking, but his voice shook and stammered. Mrs. Burley had released
herself. She stood now by the table, silent, gazing with fixed eyes at nothing,
her lips parted, her expression vacant. Again she was aware of an alteration in
the room; something had gone out.... He watched her a second, uncertain what to
say or do. It[190] was the face of a drowned person, occurred
to him. Something intangible, yet almost visible stood between them in that
narrow space. Something had ended, there before his eyes, definitely ended. The
barrier between them rose higher, denser. Through this barrier her words came
to him with an odd whispering remoteness.
“Harry.... You saw? You noticed?”
“What d’you mean?” he said gruffly. He tried to
feel angry, contemptuous, but his breath caught absurdly.
“Harry—he was different. The eyes, the hair,
the”—her face grew like death—“the twist in his face——”
“What on earth are you saying? Pull yourself
together.” He saw that she was trembling down the whole length of her body, as
she leaned against the table for support. His own legs shook. He stared hard at
her.
“Altered, Harry ... altered.” Her horrified
whisper came at him like a knife. For it was true. He, too, had noticed
something about the husband’s appearance that was not quite normal. Yet, even
while they talked, they heard him going down the carpetless stairs; the sounds
ceased as he crossed the hall; then came the noise of the front door banging,
the reverberation even shaking the room a little where they stood.
Mortimer went over to her side. He walked
unevenly.
“My dear! For God’s sake—this is sheer nonsense.
Don’t let yourself go like this. I’ll put it straight with him—it’s all my
fault.” He saw by her face that she did not understand his words; he was saying
the wrong thing altogether; her mind was utterly elsewhere. “He’s all right,”
he went on hurriedly. “He’s out on the lawn now——”
He broke off at the sight of her. The horror
that fastened on her brain plastered her face with deathly whiteness.
“That was not John at all!” she cried, a wail of
misery and terror in her voice. She rushed to the window and he followed. To
his immense relief a figure moving below[191] was plainly
visible. It was John Burley. They saw him in the faint grey of the dawn, as he
crossed the lawn, going away from the house. He disappeared.
“There you are! See?” whispered Mortimer
reassuringly. “He’ll be back in——” when a sound in the adjoining room, heavier,
louder than before, cut appallingly across his words, and Mrs. Burley, with
that wailing scream, fell back into his arms. He caught her only just in time,
for she stiffened into ice, daft with the uncomprehended terror of it all, and
helpless as a child.
“Darling, my darling—oh, God!” He bent, kissing
her face wildly. He was utterly distraught.
“Harry! Jack—oh, oh!” she wailed in her anguish.
“It took on his likeness. It deceived us ... to give him time. He’s done it.”
She sat up suddenly. “Go,” she said, pointing to
the room beyond, then sank fainting, a dead weight in his arms.
He carried her unconscious body to a chair, then
entering the adjoining room he flashed his torch upon the body of her husband
hanging from a bracket in the wall. He cut it down five minutes too late.
10.THE MAN WHO FOUND OUT
(A NIGHTMARE)
1
PROFESSOR MARK EBOR, the scientist, led a double life, and the only
persons who knew it were his assistant, Dr. Laidlaw, and his publishers. But a
double life need not always be a bad one, and, as Dr. Laidlaw and the gratified
publishers well knew, the parallel lives of this particular man were equally
good, and indefinitely produced would certainly have ended in a heaven
somewhere that can suitably contain such strangely opposite characteristics as
his remarkable personality combined.
For Mark Ebor, F.R.S., etc., etc., was that
unique combination hardly ever met with in actual life, a man of science and a
mystic.
As the first, his name stood in the gallery of
the great, and as the second—but there came the mystery! For under the
pseudonym of “Pilgrim” (the author of that brilliant series of books that
appealed to so many), his identity was as well concealed as that of the
anonymous writer of the weather reports in a daily newspaper. Thousands read
the sanguine, optimistic, stimulating little books that issued annually from
the pen of “Pilgrim,” and thousands bore their daily burdens better for having
read; while the Press generally agreed that the author, besides being an
incorrigible enthusiast and optimist, was also—a woman; but no one ever
succeeded in penetrating the veil of anonymity and discovering that “Pilgrim”
and the biologist were one and the same person.[193]
Mark Ebor, as Dr. Laidlaw knew him in his
laboratory, was one man; but Mark Ebor, as he sometimes saw him after work was
over, with rapt eyes and ecstatic face, discussing the possibilities of “union
with God” and the future of the human race, was quite another.
“I have always held, as you know,” he was saying
one evening as he sat in the little study beyond the laboratory with his
assistant and intimate, “that Vision should play a large part in the life of
the awakened man—not to be regarded as infallible, of course, but to be
observed and made use of as a guide-post to possibilities——”
“I am aware of your peculiar views, sir,” the
young doctor put in deferentially, yet with a certain impatience.
“For Visions come from a region of the
consciousness where observation and experiment are out of the question,”
pursued the other with enthusiasm, not noticing the interruption, “and, while
they should be checked by reason afterwards, they should not be laughed at or
ignored. All inspiration, I hold, is of the nature of interior Vision, and all
our best knowledge has come—such is my confirmed belief—as a sudden revelation
to the brain prepared to receive it——”
“Prepared by hard work first, by concentration,
by the closest possible study of ordinary phenomena,” Dr. Laidlaw allowed
himself to observe.
“Perhaps,” sighed the other; “but by a process,
none the less, of spiritual illumination. The best match in the world will not
light a candle unless the wick be first suitably prepared.”
It was Laidlaw’s turn to sigh. He knew so well
the impossibility of arguing with his chief when he was in the regions of the
mystic, but at the same time the respect he felt for his tremendous attainments
was so sincere that he always listened with attention and deference, wondering
how far the great man would go and to what end this curious combination of
logic and “illumination” would eventually lead him.[194]
“Only last night,” continued the elder man, a
sort of light coming into his rugged features, “the vision came to me again—the
one that has haunted me at intervals ever since my youth, and that will not be
denied.”
Dr. Laidlaw fidgeted in his chair.
“About the Tablets of the Gods, you mean—and
that they lie somewhere hidden in the sands,” he said patiently. A sudden gleam
of interest came into his face as he turned to catch the professor’s reply.
“And that I am to be the one to find them, to
decipher them, and to give the great knowledge to the world——”
“Who will not believe,” laughed Laidlaw shortly,
yet interested in spite of his thinly-veiled contempt.
“Because even the keenest minds, in the right
sense of the word, are hopelessly—unscientific,” replied the other gently, his
face positively aglow with the memory of his vision. “Yet what is more likely,”
he continued after a moment’s pause, peering into space with rapt eyes that saw
things too wonderful for exact language to describe, “than that there should
have been given to man in the first ages of the world some record of the
purpose and problem that had been set him to solve? In a word,” he cried,
fixing his shining eyes upon the face of his perplexed assistant, “that God’s
messengers in the far-off ages should have given to His creatures some full
statement of the secret of the world, of the secret of the soul, of the meaning
of life and death—the explanation of our being here, and to what great end we
are destined in the ultimate fullness of things?”
Dr. Laidlaw sat speechless. These outbursts of
mystical enthusiasm he had witnessed before. With any other man he would not
have listened to a single sentence, but to Professor Ebor, man of knowledge and
profound investigator, he listened with respect, because he regarded this
condition as temporary and pathological, and in some sense a reaction from the
intense strain of the prolonged mental concentration of many days.[195]
He smiled, with something between sympathy and
resignation as he met the other’s rapt gaze.
“But you have said, sir, at other times, that
you consider the ultimate secrets to be screened from all possible——”
“The ultimate secrets, yes,”
came the unperturbed reply; “but that there lies buried somewhere an
indestructible record of the secret meaning of life, originally known to men in
the days of their pristine innocence, I am convinced. And, by this strange
vision so often vouchsafed to me, I am equally sure that one day it shall be
given to me to announce to a weary world this glorious and terrific message.”
And he continued at great length and in glowing
language to describe the species of vivid dream that had come to him at
intervals since earliest childhood, showing in detail how he discovered these
very Tablets of the Gods, and proclaimed their splendid contents—whose precise
nature was always, however, withheld from him in the vision—to a patient and
suffering humanity.
“The Scrutator, sir, well described
‘Pilgrim’ as the Apostle of Hope,” said the young doctor gently, when he had
finished; “and now, if that reviewer could hear you speak and realize from what
strange depths comes your simple faith——”
The professor held up his hand, and the smile of
a little child broke over his face like sunshine in the morning.
“Half the good my books do would be instantly
destroyed,” he said sadly; “they would say that I wrote with my tongue in my
cheek. But wait,” he added significantly; “wait till I find these Tablets of
the Gods! Wait till I hold the solutions of the old world-problems in my hands!
Wait till the light of this new revelation breaks upon confused humanity, and
it wakes to find its bravest hopes justified! Ah, then, my dear Laidlaw——”
He broke off suddenly; but the doctor, cleverly
guessing[196] the
thought in his mind, caught him up immediately.
“Perhaps this very summer,” he said, trying hard
to make the suggestion keep pace with honesty; “in your explorations in
Assyria—your digging in the remote civilization of what was once Chaldea, you
may find—what you dream of——”
The professor held up his hand, and the smile of
a fine old face.
“Perhaps,” he murmured softly, “perhaps!”
And the young doctor, thanking the gods of
science that his leader’s aberrations were of so harmless a character, went
home strong in the certitude of his knowledge of externals, proud that he was
able to refer his visions to self-suggestion, and wondering complaisantly
whether in his old age he might not after all suffer himself from visitations
of the very kind that afflicted his respected chief.
And as he got into bed and thought again of his
master’s rugged face, and finely shaped head, and the deep lines traced by
years of work and self-discipline, he turned over on his pillow and fell asleep
with a sigh that was half of wonder, half of regret.
2
It was in February, nine months later, when Dr.
Laidlaw made his way to Charing Cross to meet his chief after his long absence
of travel and exploration. The vision about the so-called Tablets of the Gods
had meanwhile passed almost entirely from his memory.
There were few people in the train, for the
stream of traffic was now running the other way, and he had no difficulty in
finding the man he had come to meet. The shock of white hair beneath the low-crowned
felt hat was alone enough to distinguish him by easily.
“Here I am at last!” exclaimed the professor,
somewhat wearily, clasping his friend’s hand as he listened to[197] the
young doctor’s warm greetings and questions. “Here I am—a little older,
and much dirtier than when you last saw me!” He glanced down
laughingly at his travel-stained garments.
“And much wiser,” said Laidlaw,
with a smile, as he bustled about the platform for porters and gave his chief
the latest scientific news.
At last they came down to practical
considerations.
“And your luggage—where is that? You must have
tons of it, I suppose?” said Laidlaw.
“Hardly anything,” Professor Ebor answered.
“Nothing, in fact, but what you see.”
“Nothing but this hand-bag?” laughed the other,
thinking he was joking.
“And a small portmanteau in the van,” was the
quiet reply. “I have no other luggage.”
“You have no other luggage?” repeated Laidlaw,
turning sharply to see if he were in earnest.
“Why should I need more?” the professor added
simply.
Something in the man’s face, or voice, or
manner—the doctor hardly knew which—suddenly struck him as strange. There was a
change in him, a change so profound—so little on the surface, that is—that at
first he had not become aware of it. For a moment it was as though an utterly
alien personality stood before him in that noisy, bustling throng. Here, in all
the homely, friendly turmoil of a Charing Cross crowd, a curious feeling of
cold passed over his heart, touching his life with icy finger, so that he actually
trembled and felt afraid.
He looked up quickly at his friend, his mind
working with startled and unwelcome thoughts.
“Only this?” he repeated, indicating the bag.
“But where’s all the stuff you went away with? And—have you brought nothing
home—no treasures?”
“This is all I have,” the other said briefly.
The pale smile that went with the words caused the doctor a second
indescribable sensation of uneasiness. Something was[198] very wrong,
something was very queer; he wondered now that he had not noticed it sooner.
“The rest follows, of course, by slow freight,”
he added tactfully, and as naturally as possible. “But come, sir, you must be
tired and in want of food after your long journey. I’ll get a taxi at once, and
we can see about the other luggage afterwards.”
It seemed to him he hardly knew quite what he
was saying; the change in his friend had come upon him so suddenly and now grew
upon him more and more distressingly. Yet he could not make out exactly in what
it consisted. A terrible suspicion began to take shape in his mind, troubling
him dreadfully.
“I am neither very tired, nor in need of food,
thank you,” the professor said quietly. “And this is all I have. There is no
luggage to follow. I have brought home nothing—nothing but what you see.”
His words conveyed finality. They got into a
taxi, tipped the porter, who had been staring in amazement at the venerable
figure of the scientist, and were conveyed slowly and noisily to the house in
the north of London where the laboratory was, the scene of their labours of
years.
And the whole way Professor Ebor uttered no
word, nor did Dr. Laidlaw find the courage to ask a single question.
It was only late that night, before he took his
departure, as the two men were standing before the fire in the study—that study
where they had discussed so many problems of vital and absorbing interest—that
Dr. Laidlaw at last found strength to come to the point with direct questions.
The professor had been giving him a superficial and desultory account of his
travels, of his journeys by camel, of his encampments among the mountains and
in the desert, and of his explorations among the buried temples, and, deeper,
into the waste of the pre-historic sands, when suddenly the doctor came to the
desired point[199] with a kind of nervous rush, almost like a
frightened boy.
“And you found——” he began stammering, looking
hard at the other’s dreadfully altered face, from which every line of hope and
cheerfulness seemed to have been obliterated as a sponge wipes markings from a
slate—“you found——”
“I found,” replied the other, in a solemn voice,
and it was the voice of the mystic rather than the man of science—“I found what
I went to seek. The vision never once failed me. It led me straight to the
place like a star in the heavens. I found—the Tablets of the Gods.”
Dr. Laidlaw caught his breath, and steadied
himself on the back of a chair. The words fell like particles of ice upon his
heart. For the first time the professor had uttered the well-known phrase
without the glow of light and wonder in his face that always accompanied it.
“You have—brought them?” he faltered.
“I have brought them home,” said the other, in a
voice with a ring like iron; “and I have—deciphered them.”
Profound despair, the bloom of outer darkness,
the dead sound of a hopeless soul freezing in the utter cold of space seemed to
fill in the pauses between the brief sentences. A silence followed, during
which Dr. Laidlaw saw nothing but the white face before him alternately fade
and return. And it was like the face of a dead man.
“They are, alas, indestructible,” he heard the
voice continue, with its even, metallic ring.
“Indestructible,” Laidlaw repeated mechanically,
hardly knowing what he was saying.
Again a silence of several minutes passed,
during which, with a creeping cold about his heart, he stood and stared into
the eyes of the man he had known and loved so long—aye, and worshipped, too;
the man who had first opened his own eyes when they were blind, and had led him
to the gates of knowledge, and no little distance along the difficult path
beyond; the man who, in another[200] direction, had
passed on the strength of his faith into the hearts of thousands by his books.
“I may see them?” he asked at last, in a low
voice he hardly recognized as his own. “You will let me know—their message?”
Professor Ebor kept his eyes fixedly upon his
assistant’s face as he answered, with a smile that was more like the grin of
death than a living human smile.
“When I am gone,” he whispered; “when I have
passed away. Then you shall find them and read the translation I have made. And
then, too, in your turn, you must try, with the latest resources of science at
your disposal to aid you, to compass their utter destruction.” He paused a
moment, and his face grew pale as the face of a corpse. “Until that time,” he
added presently, without looking up, “I must ask you not to refer to the
subject again—and to keep my confidence meanwhile—ab—so—lute—ly.”
3
A year passed slowly by, and at the end of it
Dr. Laidlaw had found it necessary to sever his working connexion with his
friend and one-time leader. Professor Ebor was no longer the same man. The
light had gone out of his life; the laboratory was closed; he no longer put pen
to paper or applied his mind to a single problem. In the short space of a few
months he had passed from a hale and hearty man of late middle life to the
condition of old age—a man collapsed and on the edge of dissolution. Death, it
was plain, lay waiting for him in the shadows of any day—and he knew it.
To describe faithfully the nature of this
profound alteration in his character and temperament is not easy, but Dr.
Laidlaw summed it up to himself in three words: Loss of Hope. The
splendid mental powers remained indeed undimmed, but the incentive to use
them—to use them for the help of others—had gone. The character still held[201] to
its fine and unselfish habits of years, but the far goal to which they had been
the leading strings had faded away. The desire for knowledge—knowledge for its
own sake—had died, and the passionate hope which hitherto had animated with
tireless energy the heart and brain of this splendidly equipped intellect had
suffered total eclipse. The central fires had gone out. Nothing was worth
doing, thinking, working for. There was nothing to work for
any longer!
The professor’s first step was to recall as many
of his books as possible; his second to close his laboratory and stop all
research. He gave no explanation, he invited no questions. His whole
personality crumbled away, so to speak, till his daily life became a mere
mechanical process of clothing the body, feeding the body, keeping it in good
health so as to avoid physical discomfort, and, above all, doing nothing that
could interfere with sleep. The professor did everything he could to lengthen
the hours of sleep, and therefore of forgetfulness.
It was all clear enough to Dr. Laidlaw. A weaker
man, he knew, would have sought to lose himself in one form or another of
sensual indulgence—sleeping-draughts, drink, the first pleasures that came to
hand. Self-destruction would have been the method of a little bolder type; and
deliberate evil-doing, poisoning with his awful knowledge all he could, the
means of still another kind of man. Mark Ebor was none of these. He held
himself under fine control, facing silently and without complaint the terrible
facts he honestly believed himself to have been unfortunate enough to discover.
Even to his intimate friend and assistant, Dr. Laidlaw, he vouchsafed no word
of true explanation or lament. He went straight forward to the end, knowing
well that the end was not very far away.
And death came very quietly one day to him, as
he was sitting in the arm-chair of the study, directly facing the doors of the
laboratory—the doors that no longer opened. Dr. Laidlaw, by happy chance, was
with him at[202] the
time, and just able to reach his side in response to the sudden painful efforts
for breath; just in time, too, to catch the murmured words that fell from the
pallid lips like a message from the other side of the grave.
“Read them, if you must; and, if you
can—destroy. But”—his voice sank so low that Dr. Laidlaw only just caught the
dying syllables—“but—never, never—give them to the world.”
And like a grey bundle of dust loosely gathered
up in an old garment the professor sank back into his chair and expired.
But this was only the death of the body. His
spirit had died two years before.
4
The estate of the dead man was small and
uncomplicated, and Dr. Laidlaw, as sole executor and residuary legatee, had no
difficulty in settling it up. A month after the funeral he was sitting alone in
his upstairs library, the last sad duties completed, and his mind full of
poignant memories and regrets for the loss of a friend he had revered and
loved, and to whom his debt was so incalculably great. The last two years,
indeed, had been for him terrible. To watch the swift decay of the greatest
combination of heart and brain he had ever known, and to realize he was
powerless to help, was a source of profound grief to him that would remain to
the end of his days.
At the same time an insatiable curiosity
possessed him. The study of dementia was, of course, outside his special
province as a specialist, but he knew enough of it to understand how small a
matter might be the actual cause of how great an illusion, and he had been
devoured from the very beginning by a ceaseless and increasing anxiety to know
what the professor had found in the sands of “Chaldea,” what these precious
Tablets of the Gods might be, and particularly—for this was the real cause that
had sapped[203] the
man’s sanity and hope—what the inscription was that he had believed to have
deciphered thereon.
The curious feature of it all to his own mind
was, that whereas his friend had dreamed of finding a message of glorious hope
and comfort, he had apparently found (so far as he had found anything
intelligible at all, and not invented the whole thing in his dementia) that the
secret of the world, and the meaning of life and death, was of so terrible a
nature that it robbed the heart of courage and the soul of hope. What, then,
could be the contents of the little brown parcel the professor had bequeathed
to him with his pregnant dying sentences?
Actually his hand was trembling as he turned to
the writing-table and began slowly to unfasten a small old-fashioned desk on
which the small gilt initials “M.E.” stood forth as a melancholy memento. He
put the key into the lock and half turned it. Then, suddenly, he stopped and
looked about him. Was that a sound at the back of the room? It was just as
though someone had laughed and then tried to smother the laugh with a cough. A
slight shiver ran over him as he stood listening.
“This is absurd,” he said aloud; “too absurd for
belief—that I should be so nervous! It’s the effect of curiosity unduly prolonged.”
He smiled a little sadly and his eyes wandered to the blue summer sky and the
plane trees swaying in the wind below his window. “It’s the reaction,” he
continued. “The curiosity of two years to be quenched in a single moment! The
nervous tension, of course, must be considerable.”
He turned back to the brown desk and opened it
without further delay. His hand was firm now, and he took out the paper parcel
that lay inside without a tremor. It was heavy. A moment later there lay on the
table before him a couple of weather-worn plaques of grey stone—they looked
like stone, although they felt like metal—on which he saw markings of a curious
character that might have been the mere tracings of natural forces through the
ages,[204] or,
equally well, the half-obliterated hieroglyphics cut upon their surface in past
centuries by the more or less untutored hand of a common scribe.
He lifted each stone in turn and examined it
carefully. It seemed to him that a faint glow of heat passed from the substance
into his skin, and he put them down again suddenly, as with a gesture of
uneasiness.
“A very clever, or a very imaginative man,” he
said to himself, “who could squeeze the secrets of life and death from such
broken lines as those!”
Then he turned to a yellow envelope lying beside
them in the desk, with the single word on the outside in the writing of the
professor—the word Translation.
“Now,” he thought, taking it up with a sudden
violence to conceal his nervousness, “now for the great solution. Now to learn
the meaning of the worlds, and why mankind was made, and why discipline is
worth while, and sacrifice and pain the true law of advancement.”
There was the shadow of a sneer in his voice,
and yet something in him shivered at the same time. He held the envelope as though
weighing it in his hand, his mind pondering many things. Then curiosity won the
day, and he suddenly tore it open with the gesture of an actor who tears open a
letter on the stage, knowing there is no real writing inside at all.
A page of finely written script in the late
scientist’s handwriting lay before him. He read it through from beginning to
end, missing no word, uttering each syllable distinctly under his breath as he
read.
The pallor of his face grew ghastly as he neared
the end. He began to shake all over as with ague. His breath came heavily in
gasps. He still gripped the sheet of paper, however, and deliberately, as by an
intense effort of will, read it through a second time from beginning to end.
And this time, as the last syllable dropped from his lips, the whole face of
the man flamed with a sudden and terrible anger. His skin became deep, deep
red, and[205] he
clenched his teeth. With all the strength of his vigorous soul he was
struggling to keep control of himself.
For perhaps five minutes he stood there beside
the table without stirring a muscle. He might have been carved out of stone.
His eyes were shut, and only the heaving of the chest betrayed the fact that he
was a living being. Then, with a strange quietness, he lit a match and applied
it to the sheet of paper he held in his hand. The ashes fell slowly about him,
piece by piece, and he blew them from the window-sill into the air, his eyes
following them as they floated away on the summer wind that breathed so warmly
over the world.
He turned back slowly into the room. Although
his actions and movements were absolutely steady and controlled, it was clear
that he was on the edge of violent action. A hurricane might burst upon the
still room any moment. His muscles were tense and rigid. Then, suddenly, he
whitened, collapsed, and sank backwards into a chair, like a tumbled bundle of
inert matter. He had fainted.
In less than half an hour he recovered
consciousness and sat up. As before, he made no sound. Not a syllable passed
his lips. He rose quietly and looked about the room.
Then he did a curious thing.
Taking a heavy stick from the rack in the corner
he approached the mantlepiece, and with a heavy shattering blow he smashed the
clock to pieces. The glass fell in shivering atoms.
“Cease your lying voice for ever,” he said, in a
curiously still, even tone. “There is no such thing as time!”
He took the watch from his pocket, swung it
round several times by the long gold chain, smashed it into smithereens against
the wall with a single blow, and then walked into his laboratory next door, and
hung its broken body on the bones of the skeleton in the corner of the room.
“Let one damned mockery hang upon another,” he[206] said
smiling oddly. “Delusions, both of you, and cruel as false!”
He slowly moved back to the front room. He
stopped opposite the bookcase where stood in a row the “Scriptures of the
World,” choicely bound and exquisitely printed, the late professor’s most
treasured possession, and next to them several books signed “Pilgrim.”
One by one he took them from the shelf and
hurled them through the open window.
“A devil’s dreams! A devil’s foolish dreams!” he
cried, with a vicious laugh.
Presently he stopped from sheer exhaustion. He
turned his eyes slowly to the wall opposite, where hung a weird array of
Eastern swords and daggers, scimitars and spears, the collections of many
journeys. He crossed the room and ran his finger along the edge. His mind
seemed to waver.
“No,” he muttered presently; “not that way.
There are easier and better ways than that.”
He took his hat and passed downstairs into the
street.
5
It was five o’clock, and the June sun lay hot
upon the pavement. He felt the metal door-knob burn the palm of his hand.
“Ah, Laidlaw, this is well met,” cried a voice
at his elbow; “I was in the act of coming to see you. I’ve a case that will
interest you, and besides, I remembered that you flavoured your tea with orange
leaves!—and I admit——”
It was Alexis Stephen, the great hypnotic
doctor.
“I’ve had no tea to-day,” Laidlaw said, in a
dazed manner, after staring for a moment as though the other had struck him in
the face. A new idea had entered his mind.
“What’s the matter?” asked Dr. Stephen quickly.
“Something’s wrong with you. It’s this sudden heat, or overwork. Come, man,
let’s go inside.”[207]
A sudden light broke upon the face of the
younger man, the light of a heaven-sent inspiration. He looked into his
friend’s face, and told a direct lie.
“Odd,” he said, “I myself was just coming to see
you. I have something of great importance to test your confidence with. But
in your house, please,” as Stephen urged him towards his own
door—“in your house. It’s only round the corner, and I—I cannot go back
there—to my rooms—till I have told you.”
“I’m your patient—for the moment,” he added
stammeringly as soon as they were seated in the privacy of the hypnotist’s
sanctum, “and I want—er——”
“My dear Laidlaw,” interrupted the other, in
that soothing voice of command which had suggested to many a suffering soul
that the cure for its pain lay in the powers of its own reawakened will, “I am
always at your service, as you know. You have only to tell me what I can do for
you, and I will do it.” He showed every desire to help him out. His manner was
indescribably tactful and direct.
Dr. Laidlaw looked up into his face.
“I surrender my will to you,” he said, already
calmed by the other’s healing presence, “and I want you to treat me
hypnotically—and at once. I want you to suggest to me”—his voice became very
tense—“that I shall forget—forget till I die—everything that has occurred to me
during the last two hours; till I die, mind,” he added, with solemn emphasis,
“till I die.”
He floundered and stammered like a frightened
boy. Alexis Stephen looked at him fixedly without speaking.
“And further,” Laidlaw continued, “I want you to
ask me no questions. I wish to forget for ever something I have recently
discovered—something so terrible and yet so obvious that I can hardly
understand why it is not patent to every mind in the world—for I have had a
moment of absolute clear vision—of merciless clairvoyance. But I[208] want
no one else in the whole world to know what it is—least of all, old friend,
yourself.”
He talked in utter confusion, and hardly knew
what he was saying. But the pain on his face and the anguish in his voice were
an instant passport to the other’s heart.
“Nothing is easier,” replied Dr. Stephen, after
a hesitation so slight that the other probably did not even notice it. “Come
into my other room where we shall not be disturbed. I can heal you. Your memory
of the last two hours shall be wiped out as though it had never been. You can
trust me absolutely.”
“I know I can,” Laidlaw said simply, as he
followed him in.
6
An hour later they passed back into the front
room again. The sun was already behind the houses opposite, and the shadows
began to gather.
“I went off easily?” Laidlaw asked.
“You were a little obstinate at first. But
though you came in like a lion, you went out like a lamb. I let you sleep a bit
afterwards.”
Dr. Stephen kept his eyes rather steadily upon
his friend’s face.
“What were you doing by the fire before you came
here?” he asked, pausing, in a casual tone, as he lit a cigarette and handed
the case to his patient.
“I? Let me see. Oh, I know; I was worrying my
way through poor old Ebor’s papers and things. I’m his executor, you know. Then
I got weary and came out for a whiff of air.” He spoke lightly and with perfect
naturalness. Obviously he was telling the truth. “I prefer specimens to
papers,” he laughed cheerily.
“I know, I know,” said Dr. Stephen, holding a
lighted match for the cigarette. His face wore an expression of content. The
experiment had been a complete success.[209] The memory of the
last two hours was wiped out utterly. Laidlaw was already chatting gaily and
easily about a dozen other things that interested him. Together they went out
into the street, and at his door Dr. Stephen left him with a joke and a wry
face that made his friend laugh heartily.
“Don’t dine on the professor’s old papers by
mistake,” he cried, as he vanished down the street.
Dr. Laidlaw went up to his study at the top of
the house. Half way down he met his housekeeper, Mrs. Fewings. She was
flustered and excited, and her face was very red and perspiring.
“There’ve been burglars here,” she cried excitedly,
“or something funny! All your things is just anyhow, sir. I found everything
all about everywhere!” She was very confused. In this orderly and very precise
establishment it was unusual to find a thing out of place.
“Oh, my specimens!” cried the doctor, dashing up
the rest of the stairs at top speed. “Have they been touched or——”
He flew to the door of the laboratory. Mrs.
Fewings panted up heavily behind him.
“The labatry ain’t been touched,” she explained,
breathlessly, “but they smashed the libry clock and they’ve ’ung your gold
watch, sir, on the skelinton’s hands. And the books that weren’t no value they
flung out er the window just like so much rubbish. They must have been wild
drunk, Dr. Laidlaw, sir!”
The young scientist made a hurried examination
of the rooms. Nothing of value was missing. He began to wonder what kind of
burglars they were. He looked up sharply at Mrs. Fewings standing in the
doorway. For a moment he seemed to cast about in his mind for something.
“Odd,” he said at length. “I only left here an
hour ago and everything was all right then.”
“Was it, sir? Yes, sir.” She glanced sharply at
him.[210] Her
room looked out upon the courtyard, and she must have seen the books come
crashing down, and also have heard her master leave the house a few minutes
later.
“And what’s this rubbish the brutes have left?”
he cried, taking up two slabs of worn gray stone, on the writing-table. “Bath
brick, or something, I do declare.”
He looked very sharply again at the confused and
troubled housekeeper.
“Throw them on the dust heap, Mrs. Fewings,
and—and let me know if anything is missing in the house, and I will notify the
police this evening.”
When she left the room he went into the
laboratory and took his watch off the skeleton’s fingers. His face wore a
troubled expression, but after a moment’s thought it cleared again. His memory
was a complete blank.
“I suppose I left it on the writing-table when I
went out to take the air,” he said. And there was no one present to contradict
him.
He crossed to the window and blew carelessly
some ashes of burned paper from the sill, and stood watching them as they
floated away lazily over the tops of the trees.
11.THE EMPTY SLEEVE
1
THE Gilmer brothers were a couple of fussy and
pernickety old bachelors of a rather retiring, not to say timid, disposition.
There was grey in the pointed beard of John, the elder, and if any hair had
remained to William it would also certainly have been of the same shade. They
had private means. Their main interest in life was the collection of violins,
for which they had the instinctive flair of true connoisseurs. Neither John nor
William, however, could play a single note. They could only pluck the open
strings. The production of tone, so necessary before purchase, was done
vicariously for them by another.
The only objection they had to the big building
in which they occupied the roomy top floor was that Morgan, liftman and
caretaker, insisted on wearing a billycock with his uniform after six o’clock
in the evening, with a result disastrous to the beauty of the universe. For
“Mr. Morgan,” as they called him between themselves, had a round and pasty face
on the top of a round and conical body. In view, however, of the man’s other
rare qualities—including his devotion to themselves—this objection was not
serious.
He had another peculiarity that amused them. On
being found fault with, he explained nothing, but merely repeated the words of
the complaint.
“Water in the bath wasn’t really hot this
morning, Morgan!”[212]
“Water in the bath not reely ’ot, wasn’t it,
sir?”
Or, from William, who was something of a
faddist:
“My jar of sour milk came up late yesterday,
Morgan.”
“Your jar sour milk come up late, sir,
yesterday?”
Since, however, the statement of a complaint
invariably resulted in its remedy, the brothers had learned to look for no
further explanation. Next morning the bath was hot, the sour
milk was “brortup” punctually. The uniform and billycock hat,
though, remained an eyesore and source of oppression.
On this particular night John Gilmer, the elder,
returning from a Masonic rehearsal, stepped into the lift and found Mr. Morgan
with his hand ready on the iron rope.
“Fog’s very thick outside,” said Mr. John
pleasantly; and the lift was a third of the way up before Morgan had completed
his customary repetition: “Fog very thick outside, yes, sir.” And Gilmer then
asked casually if his brother were alone, and received the reply that Mr. Hyman
had called and had not yet gone away.
Now this Mr. Hyman was a Hebrew, and, like
themselves, a connoisseur in violins, but, unlike themselves, who only kept
their specimens to look at, he was a skilful and exquisite player. He was the
only person they ever permitted to handle their pedigree instruments, to take
them from the glass cases where they reposed in silent splendour, and to draw
the sound out of their wondrous painted hearts of golden varnish. The brothers
loathed to see his fingers touch them, yet loved to hear their singing voices
in the room, for the latter confirmed their sound judgment as collectors, and
made them certain their money had been well spent. Hyman, however, made no
attempt to conceal his contempt and hatred for the mere collector. The
atmosphere of the room fairly pulsed with these opposing forces of silent
emotion when Hyman played and the Gilmers, alternately writhing and admiring,
listened. The occasions, however, were not frequent. The Hebrew only came by
invitation, and both brothers made[213] a point of being
in. It was a very formal proceeding—something of a sacred rite almost.
John Gilmer, therefore, was considerably
surprised by the information Morgan had supplied. For one thing, Hyman, he had
understood, was away on the Continent.
“Still in there, you say?” he repeated, after a
moment’s reflection.
“Still in there, Mr. John, sir.” Then,
concealing his surprise from the liftman, he fell back upon his usual mild
habit of complaining about the billycock hat and the uniform.
“You really should try and remember, Morgan,” he
said, though kindly. “That hat does not go well with that
uniform!”
Morgan’s pasty countenance betrayed no vestige
of expression. “’At don’t go well with the yewniform, sir,” he repeated,
hanging up the disreputable bowler and replacing it with a gold-braided cap
from the peg. “No, sir, it don’t, do it?” he added cryptically, smiling at the
transformation thus effected.
And the lift then halted with an abrupt jerk at
the top floor. By somebody’s carelessness the landing was in darkness, and, to
make things worse, Morgan, clumsily pulling the iron rope, happened to knock
the billycock from its peg so that his sleeve, as he stooped to catch it,
struck the switch and plunged the scene in a moment’s complete obscurity.
And it was then, in the act of stepping out
before the light was turned on again, that John Gilmer stumbled against
something that shot along the landing past the open door. First he thought it
must be a child, then a man, then—an animal. Its movement was rapid yet
stealthy. Starting backwards instinctively to allow it room to pass, Gilmer
collided in the darkness with Morgan, and Morgan incontinently screamed. There
was a moment of stupid confusion. The heavy framework of the lift shook a
little, as though something had stepped into it and then[214] as
quickly jumped out again. A rushing sound followed that resembled footsteps,
yet at the same time was more like gliding—someone in soft slippers or
stockinged feet, greatly hurrying. Then came silence again. Morgan sprang to
the landing and turned up the electric light. Mr. Gilmer, at the same moment,
did likewise to the switch in the lift. Light flooded the scene. Nothing was
visible.
“Dog or cat, or something, I suppose, wasn’t
it?” exclaimed Gilmer, following the man out and looking round with bewildered
amazement upon a deserted landing. He knew quite well, even while he spoke,
that the words were foolish.
“Dog or cat, yes, sir, or—something,” echoed
Morgan, his eyes narrowed to pin-points, then growing large, but his face
stolid.
“The light should have been on.” Mr. Gilmer
spoke with a touch of severity. The little occurrence had curiously disturbed
his equanimity. He felt annoyed, upset, uneasy.
For a perceptible pause the liftman made no
reply, and his employer, looking up, saw that, besides being flustered, he was
white about the jaws. His voice, when he spoke, was without its normal
assurance. This time he did not merely repeat. He explained.
“The light was on, sir, when
last I come up!” he said, with emphasis, obviously speaking
the truth. “Only a moment ago,” he added.
Mr. Gilmer, for some reason, felt disinclined to
press for explanations. He decided to ignore the matter.
Then the lift plunged down again into the depths
like a diving-bell into water; and John Gilmer, pausing a moment first to
reflect, let himself in softly with his latch-key, and, after hanging up hat
and coat in the hall, entered the big sitting-room he and his brother shared in
common.
The December fog that covered London like a
dirty blanket had penetrated, he saw, into the room. The[215] objects
in it were half shrouded in the familiar yellowish haze.
2
In dressing-gown and slippers, William Gilmer,
almost invisible in his armchair by the gas-stove across the room, spoke at
once. Through the thick atmosphere his face gleamed, showing an extinguished
pipe hanging from his lips. His tone of voice conveyed emotion, an emotion he
sought to suppress, of a quality, however, not easy to define.
“Hyman’s been here,” he announced abruptly. “You
must have met him. He’s this very instant gone out.”
It was quite easy to see that something had
happened, for “scenes” leave disturbance behind them in the atmosphere. But
John made no immediate reference to this. He replied that he had seen no
one—which was strictly true—and his brother thereupon, sitting bolt upright in
the chair, turned quickly and faced him. His skin, in the foggy air, seemed
paler than before.
“That’s odd,” he said nervously.
“What’s odd?” asked John.
“That you didn’t see—anything. You ought to have
run into one another on the doorstep.” His eyes went peering about the room. He
was distinctly ill at ease. “You’re positive you saw no one? Did Morgan take
him down before you came? Did Morgan see him?” He asked several questions at
once.
“On the contrary, Morgan told me he was still
here with you. Hyman probably walked down, and didn’t take the lift at all,” he
replied. “That accounts for neither of us seeing him.” He decided to say
nothing about the occurrence in the lift, for his brother’s nerves, he saw
plainly, were on edge.
William then stood up out of his chair, and the
skin of his face changed its hue, for whereas a moment ago it[216] was
merely pale, it had now altered to a tint that lay somewhere between white and
a livid grey. The man was fighting internal terror. For a moment these two
brothers of middle age looked each other straight in the eye. Then John spoke:
“What’s wrong, Billy?” he asked quietly.
“Something’s upset you. What brought Hyman in this way—unexpectedly? I thought
he was still in Germany.”
The brothers, affectionate and sympathetic,
understood one another perfectly. They had no secrets. Yet for several minutes
the younger one made no reply. It seemed difficult to choose his words
apparently.
“Hyman played, I suppose—on the fiddles?” John
helped him, wondering uneasily what was coming. He did not care much for the
individual in question, though his talent was of such great use to them.
The other nodded in the affirmative, then
plunged into rapid speech, talking under his breath as though he feared someone
might overhear. Glancing over his shoulder down the foggy room, he drew his
brother close.
“Hyman came,” he began, “unexpectedly. He hadn’t
written, and I hadn’t asked him. You hadn’t either, I suppose?”
John shook his head.
“When I came in from the dining-room I found him
in the passage. The servant was taking away the dishes, and he had let himself
in while the front door was ajar. Pretty cool, wasn’t it?”
“He’s an original,” said John, shrugging his
shoulders. “And you welcomed him?” he asked.
“I asked him in, of course. He explained he had
something glorious for me to hear. Silenski had played it in the afternoon, and
he had bought the music since. But Silenski’s ‘Strad’ hadn’t the power—it’s
thin on the upper strings, you remember, unequal, patchy—and he said no
instrument in the world could do it justice but our[217] ‘Joseph’-the small
Guarnerius, you know, which he swears is the most perfect in the world.”
“And what was it? Did he play it?” asked John,
growing more uneasy as he grew more interested. With relief he glanced round
and saw the matchless little instrument lying there safe and sound in its glass
case near the door.
“He played it—divinely: a Zigeuner Lullaby, a
fine, passionate, rushing bit of inspiration, oddly misnamed ‘lullaby.’ And,
fancy, the fellow had memorized it already! He walked about the room on tiptoe
while he played it, complaining of the light——”
“Complaining of the light?”
“Said the thing was crepuscular, and needed dusk
for its full effect. I turned the lights out one by one, till finally there was
only the glow of the gas logs. He insisted. You know that way he has with him?
And then he got over me in another matter: insisted on using some special
strings he had brought with him, and put them on, too, himself—thicker than the
A and E we use.”
For though neither Gilmer could produce a note,
it was their pride that they kept their precious instruments in perfect
condition for playing, choosing the exact thickness and quality of strings that
suited the temperament of each violin; and the little Guarnerius in question
always “sang” best, they held, with thin strings.
“Infernal insolence,” exclaimed the listening
brother, wondering what was coming next. “Played it well, though, didn’t he,
this Lullaby thing?” he added, seeing that William hesitated. As he spoke he
went nearer, sitting down close beside him in a leather chair.
“Magnificent! Pure fire of genius!” was the
reply with enthusiasm, the voice at the same time dropping lower. “Staccato
like a silver hammer; harmonics like flutes, clear, soft, ringing; and the
tone—well, the G string was a baritone, and the upper registers creamy and
mellow[218] as
a boy’s voice. John,” he added, “that Guarnerius is the very pick of the period
and”—again he hesitated—“Hyman loves it. He’d give his soul to have it.”
The more John heard, the more uncomfortable it
made him. He had always disliked this gifted Hebrew, for in his secret heart he
knew that he had always feared and distrusted him. Sometimes he had felt half
afraid of him; the man’s very forcible personality was too insistent to be
pleasant. His type was of the dark and sinister kind, and he possessed a
violent will that rarely failed of accomplishing its desire.
“Wish I’d heard the fellow play,” he said at
length, ignoring his brother’s last remark, and going on to speak of the most
matter-of-fact details he could think of. “Did he use the Dodd bow, or the
Tourte? That Dodd I picked up last month, you know, is the most perfectly
balanced I have ever——”
He stopped abruptly, for William had suddenly
got upon his feet and was standing there, searching the room with his eyes. A
chill ran down John’s spine as he watched him.
“What is it, Billy?” he asked sharply. “Hear
anything?”
William continued to peer about him through the
thick air.
“Oh, nothing, probably,” he said, an odd catch
in his voice; “only—— I keep feeling as if there was somebody listening. Do you
think, perhaps”—he glanced over his shoulder—“there is someone at the door? I
wish—I wish you’d have a look, John.”
John obeyed, though without great eagerness.
Crossing the room slowly, he opened the door, then switched on the light. The
passage leading past the bathroom towards the bedrooms beyond was empty. The
coats hung motionless from their pegs.
“No one, of course,” he said, as he closed the
door and came back to the stove. He left the light burning in[219] the
passage. It was curious the way both brothers had this impression that they
were not alone, though only one of them spoke of it.
“Used the Dodd or the Tourte, Billy—which?”
continued John in the most natural voice he could assume.
But at that very same instant the water started
to his eyes. His brother, he saw, was close upon the thing he really had to
tell. But he had stuck fast.
3
By a great effort John Gilmer composed himself
and remained in his chair. With detailed elaboration he lit a cigarette,
staring hard at his brother over the flaring match while he did so. There he
sat in his dressing-gown and slippers by the fireplace, eyes downcast, fingers
playing idly with the red tassel. The electric light cast heavy shadows across
the face. In a flash then, since emotion may sometimes express itself in
attitude even better than in speech, the elder brother understood that Billy
was about to tell him an unutterable thing.
By instinct he moved over to his side so that
the same view of the room confronted him.
“Out with it, old man,” he said, with an effort
to be natural. “Tell me what you saw.”
Billy shuffled slowly round and the two sat side
by side, facing the fog-draped chamber.
“It was like this,” he began softly, “only I was
standing instead of sitting, looking over to that door as you and I do now.
Hyman moved to and fro in the faint glow of the gas logs against the far wall,
playing that ‘crepuscular’ thing in his most inspired sort of way, so that the
music seemed to issue from himself rather than from the shining bit of wood
under his chin, when—I noticed something coming over me that was”—he hesitated,
searching for words—“that wasn’t all due to the music,” he
finished abruptly.[220]
“His personality put a bit of hypnotism on you,
eh?”
William shrugged his shoulders.
“The air was thickish with fog and the light was
dim, cast upwards upon him from the stove,” he continued. “I admit all that.
But there wasn’t light enough to throw shadows, you see, and——”
“Hyman looked queer?” the other helped him
quickly.
Billy nodded his head without turning.
“Changed there before my very eyes”—he whispered
it—“turned animal——”
“Animal?” John felt his hair rising.
“That’s the only way I can put it. His face and
hands and body turned otherwise than usual. I lost the sound of his feet. When
the bow-hand or the fingers on the strings passed into the light, they were”—he
uttered a soft, shuddering little laugh—“furry, oddly divided, the fingers
massed together. And he paced stealthily. I thought every instant the fiddle
would drop with a crash and he would spring at me across the room.”
“My dear chap——”
“He moved with those big, lithe, striding steps
one sees”—John held his breath in the little pause, listening keenly—“one sees
those big brutes make in the cages when their desire is aflame for food or
escape, or—or fierce, passionate desire for anything they want with their whole
nature——”
“The big felines!” John whistled softly.
“And every minute getting nearer and nearer to
the door, as though he meant to make a sudden rush for it and get out.”
“With the violin! Of course you stopped him?”
“In the end. But for a long time, I swear to
you, I found it difficult to know what to do, even to move. I couldn’t get my
voice for words of any kind; it was like a spell.”
“It was a spell,” suggested
John firmly.
“Then, as he moved, still playing,” continued
the[221] other,
“he seemed to grow smaller; to shrink down below the line of the gas. I thought
I should lose sight of him altogether. I turned the light up suddenly. There he
was over by the door—crouching.”
“Playing on his knees, you mean?”
William closed his eyes in an effort to
visualize it again.
“Crouching,” he repeated, at length, “close to
the floor. At least, I think so. It all happened so quickly, and I felt so
bewildered, it was hard to see straight. But at first I could have sworn he was
half his natural size. I called to him, I think I swore at him—I forget
exactly, but I know he straightened up at once and stood before me down there
in the light”—he pointed across the room to the door—“eyes gleaming, face white
as chalk, perspiring like midsummer, and gradually filling out, straightening
up, whatever you like to call it, to his natural size and appearance again. It
was the most horrid thing I’ve ever seen.”
“As an—animal, you saw him still?”
“No; human again. Only much smaller.”
“What did he say?”
Billy reflected a moment.
“Nothing that I can remember,” he replied. “You
see, it was all over in a few seconds. In the full light, I felt so foolish,
and nonplussed at first. To see him normal again baffled me. And, before I
could collect myself, he had let himself out into the passage, and I heard the
front door slam. A minute later—the same second almost, it seemed—you came in.
I only remember grabbing the violin and getting it back safely under the glass
case. The strings were still vibrating.”
The account was over. John asked no further
questions. Nor did he say a single word about the lift, Morgan, or the
extinguished light on the landing. There fell a longish silence between the two
men; and then, while they helped themselves to a generous supply of
whisky-and-soda[222] before going to bed, John looked up and
spoke:
“If you agree, Billy,” he said quietly, “I think
I might write and suggest to Hyman that we shall no longer have need for his
services.”
And Billy, acquiescing, added a sentence that
expressed something of the singular dread lying but half concealed in the
atmosphere of the room, if not in their minds as well:
“Putting it, however, in a way that need not
offend him.”
“Of course. There’s no need to be rude, is
there?”
Accordingly, next morning the letter was
written; and John, saying nothing to his brother, took it round himself by hand
to the Hebrew’s rooms near Euston. The answer he dreaded was forthcoming:
“Mr. Hyman’s still away abroad,” he was told.
“But we’re forwarding letters; yes. Or I can give you ’is address if you’ll
prefer it.” The letter went, therefore, to the number in Königstrasse, Munich,
thus obtained.
Then, on his way back from the insurance company
where he went to increase the sum that protected the small Guarnerius from loss
by fire, accident, or theft, John Gilmer called at the offices of certain
musical agents and ascertained that Silenski, the violinist, was performing at
the time in Munich. It was only some days later, though, by diligent inquiry,
he made certain that at a concert on a certain date the famous virtuoso had
played a Zigeuner Lullaby of his own composition—the very date, it turned out,
on which he himself had been to the Masonic rehearsal at Mark Masons’ Hall.
John, however, said nothing of these discoveries
to his brother William.
4
It was about a week later when a reply to the
letter came from Munich—a letter couched in somewhat offensive[223] terms,
though it contained neither words nor phrases that could actually be found
fault with. Isidore Hyman was hurt and angry. On his return to London a month
or so later, he proposed to call and talk the matter over. The offensive part
of the letter lay, perhaps, in his definite assumption that he could persuade
the brothers to resume the old relations. John, however, wrote a brief reply to
the effect that they had decided to buy no new fiddles; their collection being
complete, there would be no occasion for them to invite his services as a
performer. This was final. No answer came, and the matter seemed to drop. Never
for one moment, though, did it leave the consciousness of John Gilmer. Hyman
had said that he would come, and come assuredly he would. He secretly gave
Morgan instructions that he and his brother for the future were always “out”
when the Hebrew presented himself.
“He must have gone back to Germany, you see,
almost at once after his visit here that night,” observed William—John,
however, making no reply.
One night towards the middle of January the two
brothers came home together from a concert in Queen’s Hall, and sat up later
than usual in their sitting-room discussing over their whisky and tobacco the
merits of the pieces and performers. It must have been past one o’clock when
they turned out the lights in the passage and retired to bed. The air was still
and frosty; moonlight over the roofs—one of those sharp and dry winter nights
that now seem to visit London rarely.
“Like the old-fashioned days when we were boys,”
remarked William, pausing a moment by the passage window and looking out across
the miles of silvery, sparkling roofs.
“Yes,” added John; “the ponds freezing hard in
the fields, rime on the nursery windows, and the sound of a horse’s hoofs
coming down the road in the distance, eh?” They smiled at the memory, then said
good night, and[224] separated. Their rooms were at opposite
ends of the corridor; in between were the bathroom, dining-room, and
sitting-room. It was a long, straggling flat. Half an hour later both brothers
were sound asleep, the flat silent, only a dull murmur rising from the great
city outside, and the moon sinking slowly to the level of the chimneys.
Perhaps two hours passed, perhaps three, when
John Gilmer, sitting up in bed with a start, wide-awake and frightened, knew
that someone was moving about in one of the three rooms that lay between him
and his brother. He had absolutely no idea why he should have been frightened,
for there was no dream or nightmare-memory that he brought over from
unconsciousness, and yet he realized plainly that the fear he felt was by no
means a foolish and unreasoning fear. It had a cause and a reason. Also—which
made it worse—it was fully warranted. Something in his sleep, forgotten in the
instant of waking, had happened that set every nerve in his body on the watch.
He was positive only of two things—first, that it was the entrance of this
person, moving so quietly there in the flat, that sent the chills down his
spine; and, secondly, that this person was not his brother
William.
John Gilmer was a timid man. The sight of a
burglar, his eyes black-masked, suddenly confronting him in the passage, would
most likely have deprived him of all power of decision—until the burglar had
either shot him or escaped. But on this occasion some instinct told him that it
was no burglar, and that the acute distress he experienced was not due to any
message of ordinary physical fear. The thing that had gained access to his flat
while he slept had first come—he felt sure of it—into his room, and had passed
very close to his own bed, before going on. It had then doubtless gone to his
brother’s room, visiting them both stealthily to make sure they slept. And its
mere passage through his room had been enough to wake him and set these drops
of cold perspiration upon his skin.[225] For it was—he felt
it in every fibre of his body—something hostile.
The thought that it might at that very moment be
in the room of his brother, however, brought him to his feet on the cold floor,
and set him moving with all the determination he could summon towards the door.
He looked cautiously down an utterly dark passage; then crept on tiptoe along
it. On the wall were old-fashioned weapons that had belonged to his father; and
feeling a curved, sheathless sword that had come from some Turkish campaign of
years gone by, his fingers closed tightly round it, and lifted it silently from
the three hooks whereon it lay. He passed the doors of the bathroom and
dining-room, making instinctively for the big sitting-room where the violins
were kept in their glass cases. The cold nipped him. His eyes smarted with the
effort to see in the darkness. Outside the closed door he hesitated.
Putting his ear to the crack, he listened. From
within came a faint sound of someone moving. The same instant there rose the
sharp, delicate “ping” of a violin-string being plucked; and John Gilmer, with
nerves that shook like the vibrations of that very string, opened the door wide
with a fling and turned on the light at the same moment. The plucked string
still echoed faintly in the air.
The sensation that met him on the threshold was
the well-known one that things had been going on in the room which his
unexpected arrival had that instant put a stop to. A second earlier and he
would have discovered it all in the act. The atmosphere still held the feeling
of rushing, silent movement with which the things had raced back to their
normal, motionless positions. The immobility of the furniture was a mere
attitude hurriedly assumed, and the moment his back was turned the whole
business, whatever it might be, would begin again. With this presentment of the
room, however—a purely imaginative one—came another, swiftly on its heels.[226]
For one of the objects, less swift than the rest,
had not quite regained its “attitude” of repose. It still moved. Below the
window curtains on the right, not far from the shelf that bore the violins in
their glass cases, he made it out, slowly gliding along the floor. Then, even
as his eye caught it, it came to rest.
And, while the cold perspiration broke out all
over him afresh, he knew that this still moving item was the cause both of his
waking and of his terror. This was the disturbance whose presence he had
divined in the flat without actual hearing, and whose passage through his room,
while he yet slept, had touched every nerve in his body as with ice. Clutching
his Turkish sword tightly, he drew back with the utmost caution against the
wall and watched, for the singular impression came to him that the movement was
not that of a human being crouching, but rather of something that pertained to
the animal world. He remembered, flash-like, the movements of reptiles, the
stealth of the larger felines, the undulating glide of great snakes. For the moment,
however, it did not move, and they faced one another.
The other side of the room was but dimly
lighted, and the noise he made clicking up another electric lamp brought the
thing flying forward again—towards himself. At such a moment it seemed absurd to
think of so small a detail, but he remembered his bare feet, and, genuinely
frightened, he leaped upon a chair and swished with his sword through the air
about him. From this better point of view, with the increased light to aid him,
he then saw two things—first, that the glass case usually covering the
Guarnerius violin had been shifted; and, secondly, that the moving object was
slowly elongating itself into an upright position. Semi-erect, yet most oddly,
too, like a creature on its hind legs, it was coming swiftly towards him. It
was making for the door—and escape.
The confusion of ghostly fear was somehow upon
him so that he was too bewildered to see clearly, but he had[227] sufficient
self-control, it seemed, to recover a certain power of action; for the moment
the advancing figure was near enough for him to strike, that curved scimitar
flashed and whirred about him, with such misdirected violence, however, that he
not only failed to strike it even once, but at the same time lost his balance
and fell forward from the chair whereon he perched—straight into it.
And then came the most curious thing of all, for
as he dropped, the figure also dropped, stooped low down, crouched, dwindled
amazingly in size, and rushed past him close to the ground like an animal on
all fours. John Gilmer screamed, for he could no longer contain himself.
Stumbling over the chair as he turned to follow, cutting and slashing wildly
with his sword, he saw halfway down the darkened corridor beyond the scuttling
outline of, apparently, an enormous—cat!
The door into the outer landing was somehow
ajar, and the next second the beast was out, but not before the steel had
fallen with a crashing blow upon the front disappearing leg, almost severing it
from the body.
It was dreadful. Turning up the lights as he
went, he ran after it to the outer landing. But the thing he followed was
already well away, and he heard, on the floor below him, the same oddly
gliding, slithering, stealthy sound, yet hurrying, that he had heard weeks
before when something had passed him in the lift and Morgan, in his terror, had
likewise cried aloud.
For a time he stood there on that dark landing,
listening, thinking, trembling; then turned into the flat and shut the door. In
the sitting-room he carefully replaced the glass case over the treasured
violin, puzzled to the point of foolishness, and strangely routed in his mind.
For the violin itself, he saw, had been dragged several inches from its
cushioned bed of plush.
Next morning, however, he made no allusion to the
occurrence of the night. His brother apparently had not been disturbed.[228]
5
The only thing that called for explanation—an
explanation not fully forthcoming—was the curious aspect of Mr. Morgan’s
countenance. The fact that this individual gave notice to the owners of the
building, and at the end of the month left for a new post, was, of course,
known to both brothers; whereas the story he told in explanation of his face
was known only to the one who questioned him about it—John. And John, for
reasons best known to himself, did not pass it on to the other. Also, for
reasons best known to himself, he did not cross-question the liftman about
those singular marks, or report the matter to the police.
Mr. Morgan’s pasty visage was badly scratched,
and there were red lines running from the cheek into the neck that had the
appearance of having been produced by sharp points viciously applied—claws. He
had been disturbed by a noise in the hall, he said, about three in the morning,
a scuffle had ensued in the darkness, but the intruder had got clear away....
“A cat or something of the kind, no doubt,”
suggested John Gilmer at the end of the brief recital. And Morgan replied in
his usual way: “A cat, or something of the kind, Mr. John, no doubt.”
All the same, he had not cared to risk a second
encounter, but had departed to wear his billycock and uniform in a building
less haunted.
Hyman, meanwhile, made no attempt to call and
talk over his dismissal. The reason for this was only apparent, however,
several months later when, quite by chance, coming along Piccadilly in an
omnibus, the brothers found themselves seated opposite to a man with a thick
black beard and blue glasses. William Gilmer hastily rang the bell and got out,
saying something half intelligible about feeling faint. John followed him.[229]
“Did you see who it was?” he whispered to his
brother the moment they were safely on the pavement.
John nodded.
“Hyman, in spectacles. He’s grown a beard, too.”
“Yes, but did you also notice——”
“What?”
“He had an empty sleeve.”
“An empty sleeve?”
“Yes,” said William; “he’s lost an arm.”
There was a long pause before John spoke. At the
door of their club the elder brother added:
“Poor devil! He’ll never again play on”—then,
suddenly changing the preposition—“with a pedigree violin!”
And that night in the flat, after William had
gone to bed, he looked up a curious old volume he had once picked up on a
second-hand bookstall, and read therein quaint descriptions of how the
“desire-body of a violent man” may assume animal shape, operate on concrete
matter even at a distance; and, further, how a wound inflicted thereon can
reproduce itself upon its physical counterpart by means of the mysterious
so-called phenomenon of “re-percussion.”
12.WIRELESS CONFUSION
“Good night, Uncle,” whispered the child, as she
climbed on to his knee and gave him a resounding kiss. “It’s time for me to
disappop into bed—at least, so mother says.”
“Disappop, then,” he replied, returning her
kiss, “although I doubt....”
He hesitated. He remembered the word was her
father’s invention, descriptive of the way rabbits pop into their holes and
disappear, and the way good children should leave the room the
instant bed-time was announced. The father—his twin brother—seemed to enter the
room and stand beside them. “Then give me another kiss, and disappop!” he said
quickly. The child obeyed the first part of his injunction, but had not obeyed
the second when the queer thing happened. She had not left his knee; he was
still holding her at the full stretch of both arms; he was staring into her
laughing eyes, when she suddenly went far away into an extraordinary distance.
She retired. Minute, tiny, but still in perfect proportion and clear as before,
she was withdrawn in space till she was small as a doll. He saw his own hands
holding her, and they too were minute. Down this long corridor of space, as it
were, he saw her diminutive figure.
“Uncle!” she cried, yet her voice was loud as
before, “but what a funny face! You’re pretending you’ve seen a ghost”—and she
was gone from his knee and from the room, the door closing quietly behind her.
He saw her cross the floor, a tiny figure. Then, just as she reached the[231] door,
she became of normal size again, as if she crossed a line.
He felt dizzy. The loud voice close to his ear
issuing from a diminutive figure half a mile away had a distressing effect upon
him. He knew a curious qualm as he sat there in the dark. He heard the wind
walking round the house, trying the doors and windows. He was troubled by a
memory he could not seize.
Yet the emotion instantly resolved itself into
one of personal anxiety: something had gone wrong with his eyes. Sight, his
most precious possession as an artist, was of course affected. He was conscious
of a little trembling in him, as he at once began trying his sight at various
objects—his hands, the high ceiling, the trees dim in the twilight on the lawn
outside. He opened a book and read half a dozen lines, at changing distances;
finally he stared carefully at the second hand of his watch. “Right as a
trivet!” he exclaimed aloud. He emitted a long sigh; he was immensely relieved.
“Nothing wrong with my eyes.”
He thought about the actual occurrence a great
deal—he felt as puzzled as any other normal person must have felt. While he
held the child actually in his arms, gripping her with both hands, he had seen
her suddenly half a mile away. “Half a mile!” he repeated under his breath,
“why it was even more, it was easily a mile.” It had been exactly as though he
suddenly looked at her down the wrong end of a powerful telescope. It had
really happened; he could not explain it; there was no more to be said.
This was the first time it happened to him.
At the theatre, a week later, when the
phenomenon was repeated, the stage he was watching fixedly at the moment went
far away, as though he saw it from a long way off. The distance, so far as he
could judge, was the same as before, about a mile. It was an Eastern scene,
realistically costumed and produced, that without an instant’s warning withdrew.
The entire stage went with it, although he did[232] not actually see
it go. He did not see movement, that is. It was suddenly remote, while yet the
actors’ voices, the orchestra, the general hubbub retained their normal volume.
He experienced again the distressing dizziness; he closed his eyes, covering
them with his hand, then rubbing the eyeballs slightly; and when he looked up
the next minute, the world was as it should be, as it had been, at any rate.
Unwilling to experience a repetition of the thing in a public place, however,
and fortunately being alone, he left the theatre at the end of the act.
Twice this happened to him, once with an
individual, his brother’s child, and once with a landscape, an Eastern stage
scene. Both occurrences were within the week, during which time he had been
considering a visit to the oculist, though without putting his decision into
execution. He was the kind of man that dreaded doctors, dentists, oculists,
always postponing, always finding reasons for delay. He found reasons now, the
chief among them being an unwelcome one—that it was perhaps a brain specialist,
rather than an oculist, he ought to consult. This particular notion hung
unpleasantly about his mind, when, the day after the theatre visit, the thing
recurred, but with a startling difference.
While idly watching a blue-bottle fly that
climbed the window-pane with remorseless industry, only to slip down again at
the very instant when escape into the open air was within its reach, the fly
grew abruptly into gigantic proportions, became blurred and indistinct as it
did so, covered the entire pane with its furry, dark, ugly mass, and frightened
him so that he stepped back with a cry and nearly lost his balance altogether.
He collapsed into a chair. He listened with closed eyes. The metallic buzzing
was audible, a small, exasperating sound, ordinarily unable to stir any emotion
beyond a mild annoyance. Yet it was terrible; that so huge an insect should
make so faint a sound seemed to him terrible.
At length he cautiously opened his eyes. The fly
was[233] of
normal size once more. He hastily flicked it out of the window.
An hour later he was talking with the famous
oculist in Harley Street ... about the advisability of starting
reading-glasses. He found it difficult to relate the rest. A curious shyness
restrained him.
“Your optic nerves might belong to a man of
twenty,” was the verdict. “Both are perfect. But at your age it is wise to save
the sight as much as possible. There is a slight astigmatism....” And a
prescription for the glasses was written out. It was only when paying the fee,
and as a means of drawing attention from the awkward moment, that his story
found expression. It seemed to come out in spite of himself. He made light of
it even then, telling it without conviction. It seemed foolish suddenly as he
told it. “How very odd,” observed the oculist vaguely, “dear me, yes, curious
indeed. But that’s nothing. H’m, h’m!” Either it was no concern of his, or he
deemed it negligible.... His only other confidant was a friend of psychological
tendencies who was interested and eager to explain. It is on the instant
plausible explanation of anything and everything that the reputation of such
folk depends; this one was true to type: “A spontaneous invention, my dear fellow—a
pictorial rendering of your thought. You are a painter, aren’t you? Well, this
is merely a rendering in picture-form of”—he paused for effect, the other hung
upon his words—“of the odd expression ‘disappop.’”
“Ah!” exclaimed the painter.
“You see everything pictorially, of course,
don’t you?”
“Yes—as a rule.”
“There you have it. Your painter’s psychology
saw the child ‘disappopping.’ That’s all.”
“And the fly?” but the fly was easily explained,
since it was merely the process reversed. “Once a process has established
itself in your mind, you see, it may act in either direction. When a madman
says ‘I’m afraid Smith will[234] do me an injury,’ it means, ‘I will do an
injury to Smith,’” And he repeated with finality, “That’s it.”
The explanations were not very satisfactory, the
illustration even tactless, but then the problem had not been stated quite
fully. Neither to the oculist nor to the other had all the
facts been given. The same shyness had been a restraining influence in both
cases; a detail had been omitted, and this detail was that he connected the
occurrences somehow with his brother whom the war had taken.
The phenomenon made one more appearance—the
last—before its character, its field of action rather, altered. He was reading
a book when the print became now large, now small; it blurred, grew remote and
tiny, then so huge that a single word, a letter even, filled the whole page. He
felt as if someone were playing optical tricks with the mechanism of his eyes,
trying first one, then another focus.
More curious still, the meaning of the words
themselves became uncertain; he did not understand them any more; the sentences
lost their meaning, as though he read a strange language, or a language little
known. The flash came then—someone was using his eyes—someone else was looking
through them.
No, it was not his brother. The idea was
preposterous in any case. Yet he shivered again, as when he heard the walking
wind, for an uncanny conviction came over him that it was someone who did not
understand eyes but was manipulating their mechanism experimentally. With the
conviction came also this: that, while not his brother, it was someone
connected with his brother.
Here, moreover, was an explanation of sorts, for
if the supernatural existed—he had never troubled his head about it—he could
accept this odd business as a manifestation, and leave it at that. He did so,
and his mind was eased. This was his attitude: “The supernatural may exist.
Why not? We cannot know. But we can watch.” His eyes and brain, at any rate,
were proved in good condition.
He watched. No change of focus, no magnifying or[235] diminishing,
came again. For some weeks he noticed nothing unusual of any kind, except that
his mind often filled now with Eastern pictures. Their sudden irruption caught
his attention, but no more than that; they were sometimes blurred and sometimes
vivid; he had never been in the East; he attributed them to his constant
thinking of his brother, missing in Mesopotamia these six months. Photographs
in magazines and newspapers explained the rest. Yet the persistence of the
pictures puzzled him: tents beneath hot cloudless skies, palms, a stretch of
desert, dry watercourses, camels, a mosque, a minaret—typical snatches of this
kind flashed into his mind with a sense of faint familiarity often. He knew,
again, the return of a fugitive memory he could not seize.... He kept a note of
the dates, all of them subsequent to the day he read his brother’s fate in the
official Roll of Honour: “Believed missing; now killed.” Only when the original
phenomenon returned, but in its altered form, did he stop the practice. The
change then affected his life too fundamentally to trouble about mere dates and
pictures.
For the phenomenon, shifting its field of
action, abruptly became mental, and the singular change of focus took place now
in his mind. Events magnified or contracted themselves out of all relation with
their intrinsic values, sense of proportion went hopelessly astray. Love, hate
and fear experienced sudden intensification, or abrupt dwindling into nothing;
the familiar everyday emotions, commonplace daily acts, suffered exaggerated
enlargement, or reduction into insignificance, that threatened the stability of
his personality. Fortunately, as stated, they were of brief duration; to
examine them in detail were to touch the painful absurdities of incipient mania
almost; that a lost collar stud could block his exasperated mind for hours,
filling an entire day with emotion, while a deep affection of long standing
could ebb towards complete collapse suddenly without apparent cause...!
It was the unexpected suddenness of Turkey’s
spectacular[236] defeat
that closed the painful symptoms. The Armistice saw them go. He knew a quick
relief he was unable to explain. The telegram that his brother was alive and
safe came after his recovery of mental balance. It was a
shock. But the phenomena had ceased before the shock.
It was in the light of his brother’s story that
he reviewed the puzzling phenomena described. The story was not more curious
than many another, perhaps, yet the details were queer enough. That a wounded
Turk to whom he gave water should have remembered gratitude was likely enough,
for all travellers know that these men are kindly gentlemen at times; but that
this Mohammedan peasant should have been later a member of a prisoner’s escort
and have provided the means of escape and concealment—weeks in a dry
watercourse and months in a hut outside the town—seemed an incredible stroke of
good fortune. “He brought me food and water three times a week. I had no money
to give him, so I gave him my Zeiss glasses. I taught him a bit of English too.
But he liked the glasses best. He was never tired of playing with ’em—making
big and little, as he called it. He learned precious little English....”
“My pair, weren’t they?” interrupted his
brother. “My old climbing glasses.”
“Your present to me when I went out, yes. So
really you helped me to save my life. I told the old Turk that. I was always
thinking about you.”
“And the Turk?”
“No doubt.... Through my mind,
that is. At any rate, he asked a lot of questions about you. I showed him your
photo. He died, poor chap—at least they told me so. Probably they shot him.”
13.CONFESSION
THE fog swirled slowly round him, driven by a
heavy movement of its own, for of course there was no wind. It hung in
poisonous thick coils and loops; it rose and sank; no light penetrated it
directly from street lamp or motor-car, though here and there some big
shop-window shed a glimmering patch upon its ever-shifting curtain.
O’Reilly’s eyes ached and smarted with the
incessant effort to see a foot beyond his face. The optic nerve grew tired, and
sight, accordingly, less accurate. He coughed as he shuffled forward cautiously
through the choking gloom. Only the stifled rumble of crawling traffic
persuaded him he was in a crowded city at all—this, and the vague outlines of
groping figures, hugely magnified, emerging suddenly and disappearing again, as
they fumbled along inch by inch towards uncertain destinations.
The figures, however were human beings; they
were real. That much he knew. He heard their muffled voices, now close, now
distant, strangely smothered always. He also heard the tapping of innumerable
sticks, feeling for iron railings or the kerb. These phantom outlines
represented living people. He was not alone.
It was the dread of finding himself quite alone
that haunted him, for he was still unable to cross an open space without
assistance. He had the physical strength, it was the mind that failed him.
Midway the panic terror might descend upon him, he would shake all over, his
will dissolve, he would shriek for help, run wildly—into the traffic
probably—or, as they called it in his North[238] Ontario home,
“throw a fit” in the street before advancing wheels. He was not yet entirely
cured, although under ordinary conditions he was safe enough, as Dr. Henry had
assured him.
When he left Regent’s Park by Tube an hour ago
the air was clear, the November sun shone brightly, the pale blue sky was
cloudless, and the assumption that he could manage the journey across London
Town alone was justified. The following day he was to leave for Brighton for
the week of final convalescence: this little preliminary test of his powers on
a bright November afternoon was all to the good. Doctor Henry furnished minute
instructions: “You change at Piccadilly Circus—without leaving the underground
station, mind—and get out at South Kensington. You know the address of your
V.A.D. friend. Have your cup of tea with her, then come back the same way to
Regent’s Park. Come back before dark—say six o’clock at latest. It’s better.”
He had described exactly what turns to take after leaving the station, so many
to the right, so many to the left; it was a little confusing, but the distance
was short. “You can always ask. You can’t possibly go wrong.”
The unexpected fog, however, now blurred these
instructions in a confused jumble in his mind. The failure of outer sight
reacted upon memory. The V.A.D. besides had warned him her address was “not
easy to find the first time. The house lies in a backwater. But with your
‘backwoods’ instincts you’ll probably manage it better than any Londoner!” She,
too, had not calculated upon the fog.
When O’Reilly came up the stairs at South
Kensington Station, he emerged into such murky darkness that he thought he was
still underground. An impenetrable world lay round him. Only a raw bite in the
damp atmosphere told him he stood beneath an open sky. For some little time he
stood and stared—a Canadian soldier, his home among clear brilliant spaces, now
face to face for the first time in his life with that thing he had so often
read[239] about—a
bad London fog. With keenest interest and surprise he “enjoyed” the novel
spectacle for perhaps ten minutes, watching the people arrive and vanish, and
wondering why the station lights stopped dead the instant they touched the
street—then, with a sense of adventure—it cost an effort—he left the covered
building and plunged into the opaque sea beyond.
Repeating to himself the directions he had
received—first to the right, second to the left, once more to the left, and so
forth—he checked each turn, assuring himself it was impossible to go wrong. He
made correct if slow progress, until someone blundered into him with an abrupt
and startling question: “Is this right, do you know, for South Kensington
Station?”
It was the suddenness that startled him; one
moment there was no one, the next they were face to face, another, and the
stranger had vanished into the gloom with a courteous word of grateful thanks.
But the little shock of interruption had put memory out of gear. Had he already
turned twice to the right, or had he not? O’Reilly realized sharply he had
forgotten his memorized instructions. He stood still, making strenuous efforts at
recovery, but each effort left him more uncertain than before. Five minutes
later he was lost as hopelessly as any townsman who leaves his tent in the
backwoods without blazing the trees to ensure finding his way back again. Even
the sense of direction, so strong in him among his native forests, was
completely gone. There were no stars, there was no wind, no smell, no sound of
running water. There was nothing anywhere to guide him, nothing but occasional
dim outlines, groping, shuffling, emerging and disappearing in the eddying fog,
but rarely coming within actual speaking, much less touching, distance. He was
lost utterly; more, he was alone.
Yet not quite alone—the thing
he dreaded most. There were figures still in his immediate neighborhood. They
emerged, vanished, reappeared, dissolved. No, he was not[240] quite
alone. He saw these thickenings of the fog, he heard their voices, the tapping
of their cautious sticks, their shuffling feet as well. They were real. They
moved, it seemed, about him in a circle, never coming very close.
“But they’re real,” he said to himself aloud,
betraying the weak point in his armour. “They’re human beings right enough. I’m
positive of that.”
He had never argued with Dr. Henry—he wanted to
get well; he had obeyed implicitly, believing everything the doctor told him—up
to a point. But he had always had his own idea about these “figures,” because,
among them, were often enough his own pals from the Somme, Gallipoli, the
Mespot horror, too. And he ought to know his own pals when he saw them! At the
same time he knew quite well he had been “shocked,” his being dislocated; half
dissolved as it were, his system pushed into some lopsided condition that meant
inaccurate registration. True. He grasped that perfectly. But, in that shock and
dislocation, had he not possibly picked up another gear? Were there not gaps
and broken edges, pieces that no longer dovetailed, fitted as usual,
interstices, in a word? Yes, that was the word—interstices. Cracks, so to
speak, between his perception of the outside world and his inner interpretation
of these? Between memory and recognition? Between the various states of
consciousness that usually dovetailed so neatly that the joints were normally
imperceptible?
His state, he well knew, was abnormal, but were
his symptoms on that account unreal? Could not these “interstices” be used
by—others? When he saw his “figures,” he used to ask himself: “Are not these
the real ones, and the others—the human beings—unreal?”
This question now revived in him with a new
intensity. Were these figures in the fog real or unreal? The man who had asked
the way to the station, was he not, after all, a shadow merely?
By the use of his cane and foot and what of
sight was[241] left
to him he knew that he was on an island. A lamppost stood up solid and straight
beside him, shedding its faint patch of glimmering light. Yet there were
railings, however, that puzzled him, for his stick hit the metal rods
distinctly in a series. And there should be no railings round an island. Yet he
had most certainly crossed a dreadful open space to get where he was. His
confusion and bewilderment increased with dangerous rapidity. Panic was not far
away.
He was no longer on an omnibus route. A rare
taxi crawled past occasionally, a whitish patch at the window indicating an
anxious human face; now and again came a van or cart, the driver holding a
lantern as he led the stumbling horse. These comforted him, rare though they
were. But it was the figures that drew his attention most. He was quite sure they
were real. They were human beings like himself.
For all that, he decided he might as well be
positive on the point. He tried one accordingly—a big man who rose suddenly
before him out of the very earth.
“Can you give me the trail to Morley Place?” he
asked.
But his question was drowned by the other’s
simultaneous inquiry in a voice much louder than his own.
“I say, is this right for the Tube station,
d’you know? I’m utterly lost. I want South Ken.”
And by the time O’Reilly had pointed the
direction whence he himself had just come, the man was gone again, obliterated,
swallowed up, not so much as his footsteps audible, almost as if—it seemed
again—he never had been there at all.
This left an acute unpleasantness in him, a
sense of bewilderment greater than before. He waited five minutes, not daring
to move a step, then tried another figure, a woman this time who, luckily, knew
the immediate neighbourhood intimately. She gave him elaborate instructions in
the kindest possible way, then vanished with[242] incredible
swiftness and ease into the sea of gloom beyond. The instantaneous way she
vanished was disheartening, upsetting; it was so uncannily abrupt and sudden.
Yet she comforted him. Morley Place, according to her version, was not two
hundred yards from where he stood. He felt his way forward, step by step, using
his cane, crossing a giddy open space kicking the kerb with each boot
alternately, coughing and choking all the time as he did so.
“They were real, I guess, anyway,” he said
aloud. “They were both real enough all right. And it may lift a bit soon!” He
was making a great effort to hold himself in hand. He was already fighting,
that is. He realized this perfectly. The only point was—the reality of the
figures. “It may lift now any minute,” he repeated louder. In spite of the
cold, his skin was sweating profusely.
But, of course, it did not lift. The figures,
too, became fewer. No carts were audible. He had followed the woman’s
directions carefully, but now found himself in some by-way, evidently, where
pedestrians at the best of times were rare. There was dull silence all about
him. His foot lost the kerb, his cane swept the empty air, striking nothing
solid, and panic rose upon him with its shuddering, icy grip. He was alone, he
knew himself alone, worse still—he was in another open space.
It took him fifteen minutes to cross that open
space, most of the way upon his hands and knees, oblivious of the icy slime
that stained his trousers, froze his fingers, intent only upon feeling solid
support against his back and spine again. It was an endless period. The moment
of collapse was close, the shriek already rising in his throat, the shaking of
the whole body uncontrollable, when—his outstretched fingers struck a friendly
kerb, and he saw a glimmering patch of diffused radiance overhead. With a
great, quick effort he stood upright, and an instant later his stick rattled
along an area railing. He leaned against it, breathless, panting, his heart
beating painfully while[243] the street lamp gave him the further
comfort of its feeble gleam, the actual flame, however, invisible. He looked
this way and that; the pavement was deserted. He was engulfed in the dark
silence of the fog.
But Morley Place, he knew, must be very close by
now. He thought of the friendly little V.A.D. he had known in France, of a warm
bright fire, a cup of tea and a cigarette. One more effort, he reflected, and
all these would be his. He pluckily groped his way forward again, crawling
slowly by the area railings. If things got really bad again, he would ring a
bell and ask for help, much as he shrank from the idea. Provided he had no more
open spaces to cross, provided he saw no more figures emerging and vanishing
like creatures born of the fog and dwelling within it as within their native element—it
was the figures he now dreaded more than anything else, more even than the
loneliness—provided the panic sense——
A faint darkening of the fog beneath the next
lamp caught his eye and made him start. He stopped. It was not a figure this
time, it was the shadow of the pole grotesquely magnified. No, it moved. It
moved towards him. A flame of fire followed by ice flowed through him. It was a
figure—close against his face. It was a woman.
The doctor’s advice came suddenly back to him,
the counsel that had cured him of a hundred phantoms:
“Do not ignore them. Treat them as real. Speak
and go with them. You will soon prove their unreality then. And they will leave
you....”
He made a brave, tremendous effort. He was
shaking. One hand clutched the damp and icy area railing.
“Lost your way like myself, haven’t you, ma’am?”
he said in a voice that trembled. “Do you know where we are at all? Morley
Place I’m looking for——”
He stopped dead. The woman moved nearer and for
the first time he saw her face clearly. Its ghastly pallor, the bright,
frightened eyes that stared with a kind of dazed bewilderment into his own, the
beauty above all,[244] arrested his speech midway. The woman was
young, her tall figure wrapped in a dark fur coat.
“Can I help you?” he asked impulsively,
forgetting his own terror for the moment. He was more than startled. Her air of
distress and pain stirred a peculiar anguish in him. For a moment she made no
answer, thrusting her white face closer as if examining him, so close, indeed,
that he controlled with difficulty his instinct to shrink back a little.
“Where am I?” she asked at length, searching his
eyes intently. “I’m lost—I’ve lost myself. I can’t find my way back.” Her voice
was low, a curious wailing in it that touched his pity oddly. He felt his own
distress merging in one that was greater.
“Same here,” he replied more confidently. “I’m
terrified of being alone, too. I’ve had shell-shock, you know. Let’s go
together. We’ll find a way together——”
“Who are you!” the woman murmured, still staring
at him with her big bright eyes, their distress, however, no whit lessened. She
gazed at him as though aware suddenly of his presence.
He told her briefly. “And I’m going to tea with
a V.A.D. friend in Morley Place. What’s your address? Do you know the name of
the street?”
She appeared not to hear him, or not to
understand exactly; it was as if she was not listening again.
“I came out so suddenly, so unexpectedly,” he
heard the low voice with pain in every syllable; “I can’t find my home again.
Just when I was expecting him too——” She looked about her with a distraught
expression that made O’Reilly long to carry her in his arms to safety then and
there. “He may be there now—waiting for me at this very moment—and I can’t get
back.” And so sad was her voice that only by an effort did O’Reilly prevent
himself putting out his hand to touch her. More and more he forgot himself in
his desire to help her. Her beauty, the wonder of her strange bright eyes in
the[245] pallid
face, made an immense appeal. He became calmer. This woman was real enough. He
asked again the address, the street and number, the distance she thought it
was. “Have you any idea of the direction, ma’am, any idea at all? We’ll go
together and——”
She suddenly cut him short. She turned her head
as if to listen, so that he saw her profile a moment, the outline of the
slender neck, a glimpse of jewels just below the fur.
“Hark! I hear him calling! I remember...!” And
she was gone from his side into the swirling fog.
Without an instant’s hesitation O’Reilly
followed her, not only because he wished to help, but because he dared not be
left alone. The presence of this strange, lost woman comforted him; he must not
lose sight of her, whatever happened. He had to run, she went so rapidly, ever
just in front, moving with confidence and certainty, turning right and left,
crossing the street, but never stopping, never hesitating, her companion always
at her heels in breathless haste, and with a growing terror that he might lose
her any minute. The way she found her direction through the dense fog was
marvellous enough, but O’Reilly’s only thought was to keep her in sight, lest
his own panic redescend upon him with its inevitable collapse in the dark and
lonely street. It was a wild and panting pursuit, and he kept her in view with
difficulty, a dim fleeting outline always a few yards ahead of him. She did not
once turn her head, she uttered no sound, no cry; she hurried forward with
unfaltering instinct. Nor did the chase occur to him once as singular; she was
his safety, and that was all he realized.
One thing, however, he remembered afterwards,
though at the actual time he no more than registered the detail, paying no
attention to it—a definite perfume she left upon the atmosphere, one, moreover,
that he knew, although he could not find its name as he ran. It was associated
vaguely, for him, with something unpleasant, something disagreeable. He
connected it with misery and pain. It[246] gave him a feeling
of uneasiness. More than that he did not notice at the moment, nor could he
remember—he certainly did not try—where he had known this particular scent
before.
Then suddenly the woman stopped, opened a gate
and passed into a small private garden—so suddenly that O’Reilly, close upon
her heels, only just avoided tumbling into her. “You’ve found it?” he cried.
“May I come in a moment with you? Perhaps you’ll let me telephone to the
doctor.”
She turned instantly. Her face close against his
own, was livid.
“Doctor!” she repeated in an awful whisper. The
word meant terror to her. O’Reilly stood amazed. For a second or two neither of
them moved. The woman seemed petrified.
“Dr. Henry, you know,” he stammered, finding his
tongue again. “I’m in his care. He’s in Harley Street.”
Her face cleared as suddenly as it had darkened,
though the original expression of bewilderment and pain still hung in her great
eyes. But the terror left them, as though she suddenly forgot some association
that had revived it.
“My home,” she murmured. “My home is somewhere
here. I’m near it. I must get back—in time—for him. I must. He’s coming to me.”
And with these extraordinary words she turned, walked up the narrow path, and
stood upon the porch of a two-storey house before her companion had recovered
from his astonishment sufficiently to move or utter a syllable in reply. The
front door, he saw, was ajar. It had been left open.
For five seconds, perhaps for ten, he hesitated;
it was the fear that the door would close and shut him out that brought the
decision to his will and muscles. He ran up the steps and followed the woman
into a dark hall where she had already preceded him, and amid whose blackness
she now had finally vanished. He closed the door, not[247] knowing exactly
why he did so, and knew at once by an instinctive feeling that the house he now
found himself in with this unknown woman was empty and unoccupied. In a house,
however, he felt safe. It was the open streets that were his danger. He stood
waiting, listening a moment before he spoke; and he heard the woman moving down
the passage from door to door, repeating to herself in her low voice of unhappy
wailing some words he could not understand:
“Where is it? Oh, where is it? I must get
back....”
O’Reilly then found himself abruptly stricken
with dumbness, as though, with these strange words, a haunting terror came up
and breathed against him in the darkness.
“Is she after all a figure?” ran in letters of
fire across his numbed brain. “Is she unreal—or real?”
Seeking relief in action of some kind, he put
out a hand automatically, feeling along the wall for an electric switch, and
though he found it by some miraculous chance, no answering glow responded to
the click.
And the woman’s voice from the darkness: “Ah!
Ah! At last I’ve found it. I’m home again—at last...!” He heard a door open and
close upstairs. He was on the ground-floor now—alone. Complete silence
followed.
In the conflict of various emotions—fear for
himself lest his panic should return, fear for the woman who had led him into
this empty house and now deserted him upon some mysterious errand of her own
that made him think of madness—in this conflict that held him a moment
spell-bound, there was a yet bigger ingredient demanding instant explanation,
but an explanation that he could not find. Was the woman real or was she unreal?
Was she a human being or a “figure”? The horror of doubt obsessed him with an
acute uneasiness that betrayed itself in a return of that unwelcome inner
trembling he knew was dangerous.
What saved him from a crise that must have had most dangerous results
for his mind and nervous system generally,[248] seems to have been
the outstanding fact that he felt more for the woman than for himself. His
sympathy and pity had been deeply moved; her voice, her beauty, her anguish and
bewilderment, all uncommon, inexplicable, mysterious, formed together a claim
that drove self into the background. Added to this was the detail that she had
left him, gone to another floor without a word, and now, behind a closed door
in a room upstairs, found herself face to face at last with the unknown object
of her frantic search—with “it,” whatever “it” might be. Real or unreal, figure
or human being, the overmastering impulse of his being was that he must go to
her.
It was this clear impulse that gave him decision
and energy to do what he then did. He struck a match, he found a stump of
candle, he made his way by means of this flickering light along the passage and
up the carpetless stairs. He moved cautiously, stealthily, though not knowing
why he did so. The house, he now saw, was indeed untenanted; dust-sheets
covered the piled-up furniture; he glimpsed through doors ajar, pictures were
screened upon the walls, brackets draped to look like hooded heads. He went on
slowly, steadily, moving on tiptoe as though conscious of being watched, noting
the well of darkness in the hall below, the grotesque shadows that his
movements cast on walls and ceiling. The silence was unpleasant, yet,
remembering that the woman was “expecting” someone, he did not wish it broken.
He reached the landing and stood still. Closed doors on both sides of a
corridor met his sight, as he shaded the candle to examine the scene. Behind
which of these doors, he asked himself, was the woman, figure or human being,
now alone with “it”?
There was nothing to guide him, but an instinct
that he must not delay sent him forward again upon his search. He tried a door
on the right—an empty room, with the furniture hidden by dust-sheets, and the
mattress rolled up on the bed. He tried a second door, leaving the first[249] one
open behind him, and it was, similarly, an empty bedroom. Coming out into the
corridor again he stood a moment waiting, then called aloud in a low voice that
yet woke echoes unpleasantly in the hall below: “Where are you? I want to
help—which room are you in?”
There was no answer; he was almost glad he heard
no sound, for he knew quite well that he was waiting really for another
sound—the steps of him who was “expected.” And the idea of meeting with this
unknown third sent a shudder through him, as though related to an interview he
dreaded with his whole heart, and must at all costs avoid. Waiting another
moment or two, he noted that his candle-stump was burning low, then crossed the
landing with a feeling, at once of hesitation and determination, towards a door
opposite to him. He opened it; he did not halt on the threshold. Holding the
candle at arm’s length, he went boldly in.
And instantly his nostrils told him he was right
at last, for a whiff of the strange perfume, though this time much stronger
than before, greeted him, sending a new quiver along his nerves. He knew now
why it was associated with unpleasantness, with pain, with misery, for he
recognized it—the odour of a hospital. In this room a powerful anæsthetic had
been used—and recently.
Simultaneously with smell, sight brought its
message too. On the large double bed behind the door on his right lay, to his
amazement, the woman in the dark fur coat. He saw the jewels on the slender
neck; but the eyes he did not see, for they were closed—closed, too, he grasped
at once, in death. The body lay stretched at full length, quite motionless. He
approached. A dark thin streak that came from the parted lips and passed
downwards over the chin, losing itself then in the fur collar, was a trickle of
blood. It was hardly dry. It glistened.
Strange it was perhaps that, while imaginary
fears had the power to paralyse him, mind and body, this sight of something
real had the effect of restoring confidence. The[250] sight of blood and
death, amid conditions often ghastly and even monstrous, was no new thing to
him. He went up quietly, and with steady hand he felt the woman’s cheek, the
warmth of recent life still in its softness. The final cold had not yet
mastered this empty form whose beauty, in its perfect stillness, had taken on
the new strange sweetness of an unearthly bloom. Pallid, silent, untenanted, it
lay before him, lit by the flicker of his guttering candle. He lifted the fur
coat to feel for the unbeating heart. A couple of hours ago at most, he judged,
this heart was working busily, the breath came through those parted lips, the
eyes were shining in full beauty. His hand encountered a hard knob—the head of
a long steel hat-pin driven through the heart up to its hilt.
He knew then which was the figure—which was the
real and which the unreal. He knew also what had been meant by “it.”
But before he could think or reflect what action
he must take, before he could straighten himself even from his bent position
over the body on the bed, there sounded through the empty house below the loud
clang of the front door being closed. And instantly rushed over him that other
fear he had so long forgotten—fear for himself. The panic of his own shaken
nerves descended with irresistible onslaught. He turned, extinguishing the
candle in the violent trembling of his hand, and tore headlong from the room.
The following ten minutes seemed a nightmare in
which he was not master of himself and knew not exactly what he did. All he
realized was that steps already sounded on the stairs, coming quickly nearer.
The flicker of an electric torch played on the banisters, whose shadows ran
swiftly sideways along the wall as the hand that held the light ascended. He
thought in a frenzied second of police, of his presence in the house, of the
murdered woman. It was a sinister combination. Whatever happened, he must
escape without being so much as even[251] seen. His heart
raced madly. He darted across the landing into the room opposite, whose door he
had luckily left open. And by some incredible chance, apparently, he was
neither seen nor heard by the man who, a moment later, reached the landing,
entered the room where the body of the woman lay, and closed the door carefully
behind him.
Shaking, scarcely daring to breathe lest his
breath be audible, O’Reilly, in the grip of his own personal terror, remnant of
his uncured shock of war, had no thought of what duty might demand or not
demand of him. He thought only of himself. He realized one clear issue—that he
must get out of the house without being heard or seen. Who the new-comer was he
did not know, beyond an uncanny assurance that it was not him
whom the woman had “expected,” but the murderer himself, and that it was the
murderer, in his turn, who was expecting this third person. In that room with
death at his elbow, a death he had himself brought about but an hour or two
ago, the murderer now hid in waiting for his second victim. And the door was
closed.
Yet any minute it might open again, cutting off
retreat.
O’Reilly crept out, stole across the landing,
reached the head of the stairs, and began, with the utmost caution, the
perilous descent. Each time the bare boards creaked beneath his weight, no
matter how stealthily this weight was adjusted, his heart missed a beat. He
tested each step before he pressed upon it, distributing as much of his weight
as he dared upon the banisters. It was a little more than half-way down that,
to his horror, his foot caught in a projecting carpet tack; he slipped on the
polished wood, and only saved himself from falling headlong by a wild clutch at
the railing, making an uproar that seemed to him like the explosion of a
hand-grenade in the forgotten trenches. His nerves gave way then, and panic
seized him. In the silence that followed the resounding[252] echoes he heard
the bedroom door opening on the floor above.
Concealment was now useless. It was impossible,
too. He took the last flight of stairs in a series of leaps, four steps at a
time, reached the hall, flew across it, and opened the front door, just as his
pursuer, electric torch in hand, covered half the stairs behind him. Slamming
the door, he plunged headlong into the welcome, all-obscuring fog outside.
The fog had now no terrors for him, he welcomed
its concealing mantle; nor did it matter in which direction he ran so long as
he put distance between him and the house of death. The pursuer had, of course,
not followed him into the street. He crossed open spaces without a tremor. He
ran in a circle nevertheless, though without being aware he did so. No people
were about, no single groping shadow passed him; no boom of traffic reached his
ears, when he paused for breath at length against an area railing. Then for the
first time he made the discovery that he had no hat. He remembered now. In
examining the body, partly out of respect, partly perhaps unconsciously, he had
taken it off and laid it—on the very bed.
It was there, a tell-tale bit of damning
evidence, in the house of death. And a series of probable consequences flashed
through his mind like lightning. It was a new hat fortunately; more fortunate
still, he had not yet written name or initials in it; but the maker’s mark was
there for all to read, and the police would go immediately to the shop where he
had bought it only two days before. Would the shop-people remember his
appearance? Would his visit, the date, the conversation be recalled? He thought
it was unlikely; he resembled dozens of men; he had no outstanding peculiarity.
He tried to think, but his mind was confused and troubled, his heart was beating
dreadfully, he felt desperately ill. He sought vainly for some story to account
for his being out in the fog and far from home without a hat. No single idea
presented itself.[253] He clung to the icy railings, hardly able
to keep upright, collapse very near—when suddenly a figure emerged from the
fog, paused a moment to stare at him, put out a hand and caught him, and then
spoke:
“You’re ill, my dear sir,” said a man’s kindly
voice. “Can I be of any assistance? Come, let me help you.” He had seen at once
that it was not a case of drunkenness. “Come, take my arm, won’t you? I’m a
physician. Luckily, too, you are just outside my very house. Come in.” And he
half dragged, half pushed O’Reilly, now bordering on collapse, up the steps and
opened the door with his latch-key.
“Felt ill suddenly—lost in the fog ...
terrified, but be all right soon, thanks awfully——” the Canadian stammered his
gratitude, but already feeling better. He sank into a chair in the hall, while
the other put down a paper parcel he had been carrying, and led him presently
into a comfortable room; a fire burned brightly; the electric lamps were
pleasantly shaded; a decanter of whisky and a siphon stood on a small table
beside a big arm-chair; and before O’Reilly could find another word to say the
other had poured him out a glass and bade him sip it slowly, without troubling
to talk till he felt better.
“That will revive you. Better drink it slowly.
You should never have been out a night like this. If you’ve far to go, better
let me put you up——”
“Very kind, very kind, indeed,” mumbled
O’Reilly, recovering rapidly in the comfort of a presence he already liked and
felt even drawn to.
“No trouble at all,” returned the doctor. “I’ve
been at the front, you know. I can see what your trouble is—shell-shock, I’ll
be bound.”
The Canadian, much impressed by the other’s
quick diagnosis, noted also his tact and kindness. He had made no reference to
the absence of a hat, for instance.
“Quite true,” he said. “I’m with Dr. Henry, in
Harley Street,” and he added a few words about his case. The[254] whisky
worked its effect, he revived more and more, feeling better every minute. The
other handed him a cigarette; they began to talk about his symptoms and
recovery; confidence returned in a measure, though he still felt badly
frightened. The doctor’s manner and personality did much to help, for there was
strength and gentleness in the face, though the features showed unusual
determination, softened occasionally by a sudden hint as of suffering in the
bright, compelling eyes. It was the face, thought O’Reilly, of a man who had
seen much and probably been through hell, but of a man who was simple, good,
sincere. Yet not a man to trifle with; behind his gentleness lay something very
stern. This effect of character and personality woke the other’s respect in
addition to his gratitude. His sympathy was stirred.
“You encourage me to make another guess,” the
man was saying, after a successful reading of the impromptu patient’s state,
“that you have had, namely, a severe shock quite recently, and”—he hesitated
for the merest fraction of a second—“that it would be a relief to you,” he went
on, the skilful suggestion in the voice unnoticed by his companion, “it would
be wise as well, if you could unburden yourself to—someone—who would
understand.” He looked at O’Reilly with a kindly and very pleasant smile. “Am I
not right, perhaps?” he asked in his gentle tone.
“Someone who would understand,” repeated the
Canadian. “That’s my trouble exactly. You’ve hit it. It’s all so incredible.”
The other smiled. “The more incredible,” he
suggested, “the greater your need for expression. Suppression, as you may know,
is dangerous in cases like this. You think you have hidden it, but it bides its
time and comes up later, causing a lot of trouble. Confession, you know”—he
emphasized the word—“confession is good for the soul!”
“You’re dead right,” agreed the other.[255]
“Now if you can, bring yourself to tell it to
someone who will listen and believe—to myself, for instance. I am a doctor, familiar
with such things. I shall regard all you say as a professional confidence, of
course; and, as we are strangers, my belief or disbelief is of no particular
consequence. I may tell you in advance of your story, however—I think I can
promise it—that I shall believe all you have to say.”
O’Reilly told his story without more ado, for
the suggestion of the skilled physician had found easy soil to work in. During
the recital his host’s eyes never once left his own. He moved no single muscle
of his body. His interest seemed intense.
“A bit tall, isn’t it?” said the Canadian, when
his tale was finished. “And the question is——” he continued with a threat of
volubility which the other checked instantly.
“Strange, yes, but incredible, no,” the doctor
interrupted. “I see no reason to disbelieve a single detail of what you have
just told me. Things equally remarkable, equally incredible, happen in all
large towns, as I know from personal experience. I could give you instances.”
He paused a moment, but his companion, staring into his eyes with interest and
curiosity, made no comment. “Some years ago, in fact,” continued the other, “I
knew of a very similar case—strangely similar.”
“Really! I should be immensely interested——”
“So similar that it seems almost a coincidence. You may
find it hard, in your turn, to credit it.” He paused again, while O’Reilly sat
forward in his chair to listen. “Yes,” pursued the doctor slowly, “I think
everyone connected with it is now dead. There is no reason why I should not
tell it, for one confidence deserves another, you know. It happened during the
Boer War—as long ago as that,” he added with emphasis. “It is really a very
commonplace story in one way, though very dreadful in[256] another, but a man
who has served at the front will understand and—I’m sure—will sympathize.”
“I’m sure of that,” offered the other readily.
“A colleague of mine, now dead, as I mentioned—a
surgeon, with a big practice, married a young and charming girl. They lived
happily together for several years. His wealth made her very comfortable. His
consulting-room, I must tell you, was some distance from his house—just as this
might be—so that she was never bothered with any of his cases. Then came the
war. Like many others, though much over age, he volunteered. He gave up his
lucrative practice and went to South Africa. His income, of course, stopped;
the big house was closed; his wife found her life of enjoyment considerably
curtailed. This she considered a great hardship, it seems. She felt a bitter
grievance against him. Devoid of imagination, without any power of sacrifice, a
selfish type, she was yet a beautiful, attractive woman—and young. The
inevitable lover came upon the scene to console her. They planned to run away
together. He was rich. Japan they thought would suit them. Only, by some ill
luck, the husband got wind of it and arrived in London just in the nick of
time.”
“Well rid of her,” put in O’Reilly, “I think.”
The doctor waited a moment. He sipped his glass.
Then his eyes fixed upon his companion’s face somewhat sternly.
“Well rid of her, yes,” he continued, “only he
determined to make that riddance final. He decided to kill her—and her lover.
You see, he loved her.”
O’Reilly made no comment. In his own country
this method with a faithless woman was not unknown. His interest was very
concentrated. But he was thinking, too, as he listened, thinking hard.
“He planned the time and place with care,”
resumed the other in a lower voice, as though he might possibly be overheard.
“They met, he knew, in the big house, now[257] closed, the house
where he and his young wife had passed such happy years during their
prosperity. The plan failed, however, in an important detail—the woman came at
the appointed hour, but without her lover. She found death waiting for her—it
was a painless death. Then her lover, who was to arrive half an hour later, did
not come at all. The door had been left open for him purposely. The house was
dark, its rooms shut up, deserted; there was no caretaker even. It was a foggy
night, just like this.”
“And the other?” asked O’Reilly in a failing
voice. “The lover——”
“A man did come in,” the doctor went on calmly,
“but it was not the lover. It was a stranger.”
“A stranger?” the other whispered. “And the
surgeon—where was he all this time?”
“Waiting outside to see him enter—concealed in
the fog. He saw the man go in. Five minutes later he followed, meaning to
complete his vengeance, his act of justice, whatever you like to call it. But
the man who had come in was a stranger—he came in by chance—just as you might
have done—to shelter from the fog—or——”
O’Reilly, though with a great effort, rose
abruptly to his feet. He had an appalling feeling that the man facing him was
mad. He had a keen desire to get outside, fog or no fog, to leave this room, to
escape from the calm accents of this insistent voice. The effect of the whisky
was still in his blood. He felt no lack of confidence. But words came to him
with difficulty.
“I think I’d better be pushing off now, doctor,”
he said clumsily. “But I feel I must thank you very much for all your kindness
and help.” He turned and looked hard into the keen eyes facing him. “Your
friend,” he asked in a whisper, “the surgeon—I hope—I mean, was he ever
caught?”
“No,” was the grave reply, the doctor standing
up in front of him, “he was never caught.”
O’Reilly waited a moment before he made another
remark.[258] “Well,”
he said at length, but in a louder tone than before, “I think—I’m glad.” He
went to the door without shaking hands.
“You have no hat,” mentioned the voice behind
him. “If you’ll wait a moment I’ll get you one of mine. You need not trouble to
return it.” And the doctor passed him, going into the hall. There was a sound
of tearing paper, O’Reilly left the house a moment later with a hat upon his
head, but it was not till he reached the Tube station half an hour afterwards
that he realized it was his own.
14.THE LANE THAT RAN EAST AND WEST
1
THE curving strip of lane, fading into
invisibility east and west, had always symbolized life to her. In some minds
life pictures itself a straight line, uphill, downhill, flat, as the case may
be; in hers it had been, since childhood, this sweep of country lane that ran
past her cottage door. In thick white summer dust, she invariably visualized
it, blue and yellow flowers along its untidy banks of green. It flowed, it
glided, sometimes it rushed. Without a sound it ran along past the nut trees
and the branches where honeysuckle and wild roses shone. With every year now
its silent speed increased.
From either end she imagined, as a child, that
she looked over into outer space—from the eastern end into the infinity before
birth, from the western into the infinity that follows death. It was to her of
real importance.
From the veranda the entire stretch was visible,
not more than five hundred yards at most; from the platform in her mind, whence
she viewed existence, she saw her own life, similarly, as a white curve of
flowering lane, arising she knew not whence, gliding whither she could not
tell. At eighteen she had paraphrased the quatrain with a smile upon her red
lips, her chin tilted, her strong grey eyes rather wistful with yearning—
Into this little lane, and why not knowing,Nor
whence, like water willy-nilly flowing,And out again—like dust along the
waste,I know not whither, willy-nilly blowing.[260]
At thirty she now repeated it, the smile still
there, but the lips not quite so red, the chin a trifle firmer, the grey eyes
stronger, clearer, but charged with a more wistful and a deeper yearning.
It was her turn of mind, imaginative,
introspective, querulous perhaps, that made the bit of running lane
significant. Food with the butcher’s and baker’s carts came to her from its
eastern, its arriving end, as she called it; news with the postman, adventure
with rare callers. Youth, hope, excitement, all these came from the sunrise.
Thence came likewise spring and summer, flowers, butterflies, the swallows. The
fairies, in her childhood, had come that way too, their silver feet and
gossamer wings brightening the summer dawns; and it was but a year ago that
Dick Messenger, his car stirring a cloud of thick white dust, had also come
into her life from the space beyond the sunrise.
She sat thinking about him now—how he had
suddenly appeared out of nothing that warm June morning, asked her permission
about some engineering business on the neighbouring big estate over the hill,
given her a dog-rose and a bit of fern-leaf, and eventually gone away with her
promise when he left. Out of the eastern end he appeared; into the western end
he vanished.
For there was this departing end as well, where
the lane curved out of sight into the space behind the yellow sunset. In this
direction went all that left her life. Her parents, each in turn, had taken
that way to the churchyard. Spring, summer, the fading butterflies, the
restless swallows, all left her round that western curve. Later the fairies
followed them, her dreams one by one, the vanishing years as well—and now her
youth, swifter, ever swifter, into the region where the sun dipped nightly
among pale rising stars, leaving her brief strip of life colder, more and more
unlit.
Just beyond this end she imagined shadows.
She saw Dick’s car whirling towards her,
whirling away again, making for distant Mexico, where his treasure[261] lay.
In the interval he had found that treasure and realized it. He was now coming
back again. He had landed in England yesterday.
Seated in her deck-chair on the veranda, she
watched the sun sink to the level of the hazel trees. The last swallows already
flashed their dark wings against the fading gold. Over that western end
to-morrow or the next day, amid a cloud of whirling white dust, would emerge,
again out of nothingness, the noisy car that brought Dick Messenger back to
her, back from the Mexican expedition that ensured his great new riches, back
into her heart and life. In the other direction she would depart a week or so
later, her life in his keeping, and his in hers ... and the feet of their
children, in due course, would run up and down the mysterious lane in search of
flowers, butterflies, excitement, in search of life.
She wondered ... and as the light faded her
wondering grew deeper. Questions that had lain dormant for twelve months became
audible suddenly. Would Dick be satisfied with this humble cottage which meant
so much to her that she felt she could never, never leave it? Would not his
money, his new position, demand palaces elsewhere? He was ambitious. Could his
ambitions set an altar of sacrifice to his love? And she—could she, on the
other hand, walk happy and satisfied along the western curve, leaving her lane
finally behind her, lost, untravelled, forgotten? Could she face this sacrifice
for him? Was he, in a word, the man whose appearance out of
the sunrise she had been watching and waiting for all these hurrying, swift
years?
She wondered. Now that the decisive moment was
so near, unhappy doubts assailed her. Her wondering grew deeper, spread,
enveloped, penetrated her being like a gathering darkness. And the sun sank
lower, dusk crept along the hedgerows, the flowers closed their little burning
eyes. Shadows passed hand in hand along the familiar bend that was so short, so
soon travelled over and left behind[262] that a mistake
must ruin all its sweetest joy. To wander down it with a companion to whom its
flowers, its butterflies, its shadows brought no full message, must turn it
chill, dark, lonely, colourless.... Her thoughts slipped on thus into a soft
inner reverie born of that scented twilight hour of honeysuckle and wild roses,
born too of her deep self-questioning, of wonder, of yearning unsatisfied.
The lane, meanwhile, produced its customary few
figures, moving homewards through the dusk. She knew them well, these familiar
figures of the countryside, had known them from childhood onwards—labourers,
hedgers, ditchers and the like, with whom now, even in her reverie, she
exchanged the usual friendly greetings across the wicket-gate. This time,
however, she gave but her mind to them, her heart absorbed with its own
personal and immediate problem.
Melancey had come and gone; old Averill,
carrying his hedger’s sickle-knife, had followed; and she was vaguely looking
for Hezekiah Purdy, bent with years and rheumatism, his tea-pail always
rattling, his shuffling feet making a sorry dust, when the figure she did not
quite recognize came into view, emerging unexpectedly from the sunrise end. Was
it Purdy? Yes—no—yet, if not, who was it? Of course it must be Purdy. Yet while
the others, being homeward bound, came naturally from west to east, with this
new figure it was otherwise, so that he was half-way down the curve before she
fully realized him. Out of the eastern end the man drew nearer, a stranger
therefore; out of the unknown regions where the sun rose, and where no shadows
were, he moved towards her down the deserted lane, perhaps a trespasser, an
intruder possibly, but certainly an unfamiliar figure.
Without particular attention or interest, she
watched him drift nearer down her little semi-private lane of dream, passing
leisurely from east to west, the mere fact that he was there establishing an
intimacy that remained[263] at first unsuspected. It was her eye that
watched him, not her mind. What was he doing here, where going, whither come,
she wondered vaguely, the lane both his background and his starting-point? A
little by-way, after all, this haunted lane. The real world, she knew, swept
down the big high-road beyond, unconscious of the humble folk its unimportant
tributary served. Suddenly the burden of the years assailed her. Had she, then,
missed life by living here?
Then, with a little shock, her heart contracted
as she became aware of two eyes fixed upon her in the dusk. The stranger had
already reached the wicket-gate and now stood leaning against it, staring at
her over its spiked wooden top. It was certainly not old Purdy. The blood
rushed back into her heart again as she returned the gaze. He was watching her
with a curious intentness, with an odd sense of authority almost, with
something that persuaded her instantly of a definite purpose in his being
there. He was waiting for her—expecting her to come down and speak with him, as
she had spoken with the others. Of this, her little habit, he made use, she
felt. Shyly, half-nervously, she left her deck-chair and went slowly down the short
gravel path between the flowers, noticing meanwhile that his clothes were
ragged, his hair unkempt, his face worn and ravaged as by want and suffering,
yet that his eyes were curiously young. His eyes, indeed, were full brown
smiling eyes, and it was the surprise of his youth that impressed her chiefly.
That he could be tramp or trespasser left her. She felt no fear.
She wished him “Good evening” in her calm, quiet
voice, adding with sympathy, “And who are you, I wonder? You want to ask me
something?” It flashed across her that his shabby clothing was somehow a
disguise. Over his shoulder hung a faded sack. “I can do something for you?”
she pursued inquiringly, as was her kindly custom. “If you are hungry, thirsty,
or——”
It was the expression of vigour leaping into the
deep[264] eyes
that stopped her. “If you need clothes,” she had been going to add. She was not
frightened, but suddenly she paused, gripped by a wonder she could not
understand.
And his first words justified her wonder. “I have
something for you,” he said, his voice faint, a kind of stillness in it as
though it came through distance. Also, though this she did not notice, it was
an educated voice, and it was the absence of surprise that made this detail too
natural to claim attention. She had expected it. “Something to give you. I have
brought it for you,” the man concluded.
“Yes,” she replied, aware, again without
comprehension, that her courage and her patience were both summoned to support
her. “Yes,” she repeated more faintly, as though this was all natural,
inevitable, expected. She saw that the sack was now lifted from his shoulder
and that his hand plunged into it, as it hung apparently loose and empty
against the gate. His eyes, however, never for one instant left her own. Alarm,
she was able to remind herself, she did not feel. She only recognized that this
ragged figure laid something upon her spirit she could not fathom, yet was
compelled to face.
His next words startled her. She drew, if
unconsciously, upon her courage:
“A dream.”
The voice was deep, yet still with the faintness
as of distance in it. His hand, she saw, was moving slowly from the empty sack.
A strange attraction, mingled with pity, with yearning too, stirred deeply in
her. The face, it seemed, turned soft, the eyes glowed with some inner fire of
feeling. Her heart now beat unevenly.
“Something—to—sell to me,” she faltered, aware
that his glowing eyes upon her made her tremble. The same instant she was
ashamed of the words, knowing they were uttered by a portion of her that
resisted, and this was not the language he deserved.
He smiled, and she knew her resistance a vain
make-believe[265] he
pierced too easily, though he let it pass in silence.
“There is, I mean, a price—for every dream,” she
tried to save herself, conscious delightfully that her heart was smiling in
return.
The dusk enveloped them, the corncrakes were
calling from the fields, the scent of honeysuckle and wild roses lay round her
in a warm wave of air, yet at the same time she felt as if her naked soul stood
side by side with this figure in the infinitude of space beyond the sunrise
end. The golden stars hung calm and motionless above them. “That price”—his
answer fell like a summons she had actually expected—“you pay to another, not
to me.” The voice grew fainter, farther away, dropping through empty space
behind her. “All dreams are but a single dream. You pay that price to——”
Her interruption slipped spontaneously from her
lips, its inevitable truth a prophecy:
“To myself!”
He smiled again, but this time he did not
answer. His hand, instead, now moved across the gate towards her.
And before she quite realized what had happened,
she was holding a little object he had passed across to her. She had taken it,
obeying, it seemed, an inner compulsion and authority which were inevitable,
fore-ordained. Lowering her face she examined it in the dusk—a small green leaf
of fern—fingered it with tender caution as it lay in her palm, gazed for some
seconds closely at the tiny thing.... When she looked up again the stranger,
the seller of dreams, as she now imagined him, had moved some yards away from
the gate, and was moving still, a leisurely quiet tread that stirred no dust, a
shadowy outline soft with dusk and starlight, moving towards the sunrise end,
whence he had first appeared.
Her heart gave a sudden leap, as once again the
burden of the years assailed her. Her words seemed driven out:[266]
“Who are you? Before you go—your name! What is
your name?”
His voice, now faint with distance as he melted
from sight against the dark fringe of hazel trees, reached her but
indistinctly, though its meaning was somehow clear:
“The dream,” she heard like a breath of wind
against her ear, “shall bring its own name with it. I wait....” Both sound and
figure trailed off into the unknown space beyond the eastern end, and, leaning
against the wicket-gate as usual, the white dust settling about his heavy
boots, the tea-pail but just ceased from rattling, was—old Purdy.
Unless the mind can fix the reality of an event
in the actual instant of its happening, judgment soon dwindles into a confusion
between memory and argument. Five minutes later, when old Purdy had gone his
way again, she found herself already wondering, reflecting, questioning.
Yearning had perhaps conjured with emotion to fashion both voice and figure out
of imagination, out of this perfumed dusk, out of the troubled heart’s desire.
Confusion in time had further helped to metamorphose old Purdy into some
legendary shape that had stolen upon her mood of reverie from the shadows of
her beloved lane.... Yet the dream she had accepted from a stranger hand, a
little fern leaf, remained at any rate to shape a delightful certainty her
brain might criticize while her heart believed. The fern leaf assuredly was
real. A fairy gift! Those who eat of this fern-seed, she remembered as she sank
into sleep that night, shall see the fairies! And, indeed, a few hours later
she walked in dream along the familiar curve between the hedges, her own
childhood taking her by the hand as she played with the flowers, the
butterflies, the glad swallows beckoning while they flashed. Without the
smallest sense of surprise or unexpectedness, too, she met at the eastern
end—two figures. They stood, as she with her childhood stood, hand in hand, the
seller of dreams and her lover, waiting since time began, she realized, waiting
with some great unuttered question on[267] their lips.
Neither addressed her, neither spoke a word. Dick looked at her, ambition, hard
and restless, shining in his eyes; in the eyes of the other—dark, gentle,
piercing, but extraordinarily young for all the ragged hair about the face the
shabby clothes, the ravaged and unkempt appearance—a brightness as of the
coming dawn.
A choice, she understood, was offered to her;
there was a decision she must make. She realized, as though some great wind
blew it into her from outer space, another, a new standard to which her
judgment must inevitably conform, or admit the purpose of her life evaded
finally. The same moment she knew what her decision was. No hesitation touched
her. Calm, yet trembling, her courage and her patience faced the decision and
accepted it. The hands then instantly fell apart, unclasped. One figure turned
and vanished down the lane towards the departing end, but with the other, now
hand in hand, she rose floating, gliding without effort, a strange bliss in her
heart, to meet the sunrise.
“He has awakened ... so he cannot stay,” she
heard, like a breath of wind that whispered into her ear. “I, who bring you
this dream—I wait.”
She did not wake at once when the dream was
ended, but slept on long beyond her accustomed hour, missing thereby Melancey,
Averill, old Purdy as they passed the wicket-gate in the early hours. She woke,
however, with a new clear knowledge of herself, of her mind and heart, to all
of which in simple truth to her own soul she must conform. The fern-seed she
placed in a locket attached to a fine gold chain about her neck. During the
long, lonely, expectant yet unsatisfied years that followed she wore it day and
night.
2
She had the curious feeling that she remained
young. Others grew older, but not she. She watched her contemporaries[268] slowly
give the signs, while she herself held stationary. Even those younger than
herself went past her, growing older in the ordinary way, whereas her heart,
her mind, even her appearance, she felt certain, hardly aged at all. In a room
full of people she felt pity often as she read the signs in their faces knowing
her own unchanged. Their eyes were burning out, but hers burned on. It was
neither vanity nor delusion, but an inner conviction she could not alter.
The age she held to was the year she had
received the fern-seed from old Purdy, or rather, from an imaginary figure her
reverie had set momentarily in old Purdy’s place. That figure of her reverie,
the dream that followed, the subsequent confession to Dick Messenger, meeting
his own half-way—these marked the year when she stopped growing older. To that
year she seemed chained, gazing into the sunrise end—waiting, ever waiting.
Whether in her absent-minded reverie she had
actually plucked the bit of fern herself, or whether, after all, old Purdy had
handed it to her, was not a point that troubled her. It was in her locket about
her neck still, day and night. The seller of dreams was an established
imaginative reality in her life. Her heart assured her she would meet him again
one day. She waited. It was very curious, it was rather pathetic. Men came and
went, she saw her chances pass; her answer was invariably “No.”
The break came suddenly, and with devastating
effect. As she was dressing carefully for the party, full of excited
anticipation like some young girl still, she saw looking out upon her from the
long mirror a face of plain middle-age. A blackness rose about her. It seemed
the mirror shattered. The long, long dream, at any rate, fell in a thousand
broken pieces at her feet. It was perhaps the ball dress, perhaps the flowers
in her hair; it may have been the low-cut gown that betrayed the neck and
throat, or the one brilliant jewel that proved her eyes now dimmed beside
it—but most probably it was the tell-tale hands,[269] whose ageing no
artifice ever can conceal. The middle-aged woman, at any rate, rushed from the
glass and claimed her.
It was a long time, too, before the signs of
tears had been carefully obliterated again, and the battle with herself—to go
or not to go—was decided by clear courage. She would not send a hurried excuse
of illness, but would take the place where she now belonged. She saw herself, a
fading figure, more than half-way now towards the sunset end, within sight even
of the shadowed emptiness that lay beyond the sun’s dipping edge. She had
lingered over-long, expecting a dream to confirm a dream; she had been
oblivious of the truth that the lane went rushing just the same. It was now too
late. The speed increased. She had waited, waited for nothing. The seller of
dreams was a myth. No man could need her as she now was.
Yet the chief ingredient in her decision was,
oddly enough, itself a sign of youth. A party, a ball, is ever an adventure.
Fate, with her destined eyes aglow, may be bidden too, waiting among the
throng, waiting for that very one who hesitates whether to go or not to go. Who
knows what the evening may bring forth? It was this anticipation, faintly
beckoning, its voice the merest echo of her shadowy youth, that tipped the
scales between an evening of sleepless regrets at home and hours of neglected
loneliness, watching the young fulfil the happy night. This and her courage
weighed the balance down against the afflicting weariness of her sudden
disillusion.
Therefore she went, her aunt, in whose house she
was a visitor, accompanying her. They arrived late, walking under the awning
alone into the great mansion. Music, flowers, lovely dresses, and bright happy
faces filled the air about them. The dancing feet, the flashing eyes, the swing
of the music, the throng of graceful figures expressed one word—pleasure.
Pleasure, of course, meant youth. Beneath the calm summer stars youth realized itself
prodigally, reckless of years to follow. Under the same calm stars, some fifty
miles away in Kent, her stretch of deserted[270] lane flowed
peacefully, never pausing, passing relentlessly out into unknown space beyond
the edge of the world. A girl and a middle-aged woman bravely watched both
scenes.
“Dreadfully overcrowded,” remarked her prosaic
aunt. “When I was a young thing there was more taste—always room to dance, at
any rate.”
“It is a rabble rather,” replied the middle-aged
woman, while the girl added, “but I enjoy it.” She had enjoyed one duty-dance
with an elderly man to whom her aunt had introduced her. She now sat watching
the rabble whirl and laugh. Her friend, behind unabashed lorgnettes, made
occasional comments.
“There’s Mabel. Look at her frock, will you—the
naked back. The way he holds her, too!”
She looked at Mabel Messenger, exactly her own
age, wife of the successful engineer, yet bearing herself almost like a girl.
“He’s away in Mexico, as usual,”
went on her aunt, “with somebody else, also as usual.”
“I don’t envy her,” mentioned the middle-aged
woman, while the girl added, “but she did well for herself, anyhow.”
“It’s a mistake to wait too long,” was a
suggestion she did not comment on.
The host’s brother came up and carried off her
aunt. She was left alone. An old gentleman dropped into the vacated chair. Only
in the centre of the brilliantly lit room was there dancing now; people stood
and talked in animated throngs, every seat along the walls, every chair and
sofa in alcove corners occupied. The landing outside the great flung doors was
packed; some, going on elsewhere, were already leaving, but others arriving
late still poured up the staircase. Her loneliness remained unnoticed; with
many other women, similarly stationed behind the whirling, moving dancers, she
sat looking on,[271] an artificial smile of enjoyment upon her
face, but the eyes empty and unlit.
Two pictures she watched simultaneously—the gay
ballroom and the lane that ran east and west.
Midnight was past and supper over, though she
had not noticed it. Her aunt had disappeared finally, it seemed. The two
pictures filled her mind, absorbed her. What she was feeling was not clear, for
there was confusion in her between the two scenes somewhere—as though the
brilliant ballroom lay set against the dark background of the lane beneath the
quiet stars. The contrast struck her. How calm and lovely the night lane seemed
against this feverish gaiety, this heat, this artificial perfume, these
exaggerated clothes. Like a small, rapid cinema-picture the dazzling ballroom
passed along the dark throat of the deserted lane. A patch of light, alive with
whirling animalculæ, it shone a moment against the velvet background of the
midnight country-side. It grew smaller and smaller. It vanished over the edge
of the departing end. It was gone.
Night and the stars enveloped her, and her eyes
became accustomed to the change, so that she saw the sandy strip of lane, the
hazel bushes, the dim outline of the cottage. Her naked soul, it seemed again,
stood facing an infinitude. Yet the scent of roses, of dew-soaked grass came to
her. A blackbird was whistling in the hedge. The eastern end showed itself now
more plainly. The tops of the trees defined themselves. There came a glimmer in
the sky, an early swallow flashed past against a streak of pale sweet gold. Old
Purdy, his tea-pail faintly rattling, a stir of thick white dust about his
feet, came slowly round the curve. It was the sunrise.
A deep, passionate thrill ran through her body
from head to feet. There was a clap beside her—in the air it seemed—as though
the wings of the early swallow had flashed past her very ear, or the
approaching sunrise called aloud. She turned her head—along the brightening
lane,[272] but
also across the gay ballroom. Old Purdy, straightening up his bent shoulders,
was gazing over the wicket-gate into her eyes.
Something quivered. A shimmer ran fluttering
before her sight. She trembled. Over the crowd of intervening heads, as over
the spiked top of the little gate, a man was gazing at her.
Old Purdy, however, did not fade, nor did his
outline wholly pass. There was this confusion between two pictures. Yet this
man who gazed at her was in the London ballroom. He was so tall and straight.
The same moment her aunt’s face appeared below his shoulder, only just visible,
and he turned his head, but did not turn his eyes, to listen to her. Both
looked her way; they moved, threading their way towards her. It meant an
introduction coming. He had asked for it.
She did not catch his name, so quickly, yet so
easily and naturally the little formalities were managed, and she was dancing.
The same sweet, dim confusion was about her. His touch, his voice, his eyes
combined extraordinarily in a sense of complete possession to which she yielded
utterly. The two pictures, moreover, still held their place. Behind the glaring
lights ran the pale sweet gold of a country dawn; woven like a silver thread
among the strings she heard the blackbirds whistling; in the stale, heated air
lay the subtle freshness of a summer sunrise. Their dancing feet bore them
along in a flowing motion that curved from east to west.
They danced without speaking; one rhythm took
them; like a single person they glided over the smooth, perfect floor, and,
more and more to her, it was as if the floor flowed with them, bearing them
along. Such dancing she had never known. The strange sweetness of the confusion
that half-entranced her increased—almost as though she lay upon her partner’s
arms and that he bore her through the air. Both the sense of weight and the
touch of her feet on solid ground were gone delightfully. The London room[273] grew
hazy, too; the other figures faded; the ceiling, half transparent, let through
a filtering glimmer of the dawn. Her thoughts—surely he shared them with
her—went out floating beneath this brightening sky. There was a sound of
wakening birds, a smell of flowers.
They had danced perhaps five minutes when both
stopped abruptly as with one accord.
“Shall we sit it out—if you’ve no objection?” he
suggested in the very instant that the same thought occurred to her. “The
conservatory, among the flowers,” he added, leading her to the corner among
scented blooms and plants, exactly as she herself desired. There were leaves
and ferns about them in the warm air. The light was dim. A streak of gold in
the sky showed through the glass. But for one other couple they were alone.
“I have something to say to you,” he began. “You
must have thought it curious—I’ve been staring at you so. The whole evening
I’ve been watching you.”
“I—hadn’t noticed,” she said truthfully, her
voice, as it were, not quite her own. “I’ve not been dancing—only once, that
is.”
But her heart was dancing as she said it. For
the first time she became aware of her partner more distinctly—of his deep,
resonant voice, his soldierly tall figure, his deferential, almost protective
manner. She turned suddenly and looked into his face. The clear, rather
penetrating eyes reminded her of someone she had known.
At the same instant he used her thought, turning
it in his own direction. “I can’t remember, for the life of me,” he said
quietly, “where I have seen you before. Your face is familiar to me, oddly
familiar—years ago—in my first youth somewhere.”
It was as though he broke something to her gently—something
he was sure of and knew positively, that yet might shock and startle her.
The blood rushed from her heart as she quickly
turned her gaze away. The wave of deep feeling that rose with[274] a
sensation of glowing warmth troubled her voice. “I find in you, too, a faint
resemblance to—someone I have met,” she murmured. Without meaning it she let
slip the added words, “when I was a girl.”
She felt him start, but he saved the situation,
making it ordinary again by obtaining her permission to smoke, then slowly
lighting his cigarette before he spoke.
“You must forgive me,” he put in with a smile,
“but your name, when you were kind enough to let me be introduced, escaped me.
I did not catch it.”
She told him her surname, but he asked in his
persuasive yet somehow masterful way for the Christian name as well. He turned
round instantly as she gave it, staring hard at her with meaning, with an
examining intentness, with open curiosity. There was a question on his lips,
but she interrupted, delaying it by a question of her own. Without looking at
him she knew and feared his question. Her voice just concealed a trembling that
was in her throat.
“My aunt,” she agreed lightly, “is incorrigible.
Do you know I didn’t catch yours either? Oh—I meant your surname,” she added,
confusion gaining upon her when he mentioned his first name only.
He became suddenly more earnest, his voice
deepened, his whole manner took on the guise of deliberate intention backed by
some profound emotion that he could no longer hide. The music, which had
momentarily ceased, began again, and a couple, who had been sitting out
diagonally across from them, rose and went out. They were now quite alone. The
sky was brighter.
“I must tell you,” he went on in a way that
compelled her to look up and meet his intent gaze. “You really must allow me. I
feel sure somehow you’ll understand. At any rate,” he added like a boy, “you
won’t laugh.”
She believes she gave the permission and
assurance. Memory fails her a little here, for as she returned his gaze, it
seemed a curious change came stealing over him, yet at[275] first so
imperceptibly, so vaguely, that she could not say when it began, nor how it
happened.
“Yes,” she murmured, “please——” The change
defined itself. She stopped dead.
“I know now where I’ve seen you before. I
remember.” His voice vibrated like a wind in big trees. It enveloped her.
“Yes,” she repeated in a whisper, for the
hammering of her heart made both a louder tone or further words impossible. She
knew not what he was going to say, yet at the same time she knew with accuracy.
Her eyes gazed helplessly into his. The change absorbed her. Within his outline
she watched another outline grow. Behind the immaculate evening clothes a
ragged, unkempt figure rose. A worn, ravaged face with young burning eyes
peered through his own. “Please, please,” she whispered again very faintly. He
took her hand in his.
His voice came from very far away, yet drawing
nearer, and the scene about them faded, vanished. The lane that curved east and
west now stretched behind him, and she sat gazing towards the sunrise end, as
years ago when the girl passed into the woman first.
“I knew—a friend of yours—Dick Messenger,” he
was saying in this distant voice that yet was close beside her, “knew him at
school, at Cambridge, and later in Mexico. We worked in the same mines
together, only he was contractor and I was—in difficulties. That made no
difference. He—he told me about a girl—of his love and admiration, an
admiration that remained, but a love that had already faded.”
She saw only the ragged outline within the
well-groomed figure of the man who spoke. The young eyes that gazed so
piercingly into hers belonged to him, the seller of her dream of years before.
It was to this ragged stranger in her lane she made her answer:
“I, too, now remember,” she said softly. “Please
go on.”[276]
“He gave me his confidence, asking me where his
duty lay, and I told him that the real love comes once only; it knows no doubt,
no fading. I told him this——”
“We both discovered it in time,” she said to
herself, so low it was scarcely audible, yet not resisting as he laid his other
hand upon the one he already held.
“I also told him there was only one true dream,”
the voice continued, the inner face drawing nearer to the outer that contained
it. “I asked him, and he told me—everything. I knew all about this girl. Her
picture, too, he showed me.”
The voice broke off. The flood of love and pity,
of sympathy and understanding that rose in her like a power long suppressed,
threatened tears, yet happy, yearning tears like those of a girl, which only
the quick, strong pressure of his hands prevented.
“The—little painting—yes, I know it,” she
faltered.
“It saved me,” he said simply. “It changed my
life. From that moment I began—living decently again—living for an ideal.”
Without knowing that she did so, the pressure of her hand upon his own came
instantly. “He—he gave it to me,” the voice went on, “to keep. He said he could
neither keep it himself nor destroy it. It was the day before he sailed. I remember
it as yesterday. I said I must give him something in return, or it would cut
friendship. But I had nothing in the world to give. We were in the hills. I
picked a leaf of fern instead. ‘Fern-seed,’ I told him, ‘it will make you see
the fairies and find your true dream.’ I remember his laugh to this day—a sad,
uneasy laugh. ‘I shall give it to her,’ he told me, ‘when I give her my
difficult explanation.’ But I said, ‘Give it with my love, and tell her that I
wait.’ He looked at me with surprise, incredulous. Then he said slowly, ‘Why
not? If—if only you hadn’t let yourself go to pieces like this!’”
An immensity of clear emotion she could not
understand[277] passed
over her in a wave. Involuntarily she moved closer against him. With her eyes
unflinchingly upon his own, she whispered: “You were hungry, thirsty, you had
no clothes.... You waited!”
“You’re reading my thoughts, as I knew one day
you would.” It seemed as if their minds, their bodies too, were one, as he said
the words. “You, too—you waited.” His voice was low.
There came a glow between them as of hidden
fire; their faces shone; there was a brightening as of dawn upon their skins,
within their eyes, lighting their very hair. Out of this happy sky his voice
floated to her with the blackbird’s song:
“And that night I dreamed of you. I dreamed I
met you in an English country lane.”
“We did,” she murmured, as though it were quite
natural.
“I dreamed I gave you the fern leaf—across a
wicket-gate—and in front of a little house that was our home. In my dream—I
handed to you—a dream——”
“You did.” And as she whispered it the two
figures merged into one before her very eyes. “See,” she added softly, “I have
it still. It is in my locket at this moment, for I have worn it day and night
through all these years of waiting.” She began fumbling at her chain.
He smiled. “Such things,” he said gently, “are
beyond me rather. I have found you. That’s all that matters. That”—he smiled
again—“is real at any rate.”
“A vision,” she murmured, half to herself and
half to him, “I can understand. A dream, though wonderful, is a dream. But the
little fern you gave me,” drawing the fine gold chain from her bosom, “the
actual leaf I have worn all these years in my locket!”
He smiled as she held the locket out to him, her
fingers feeling for the little spring. He shook his head, but so slightly she
did not notice it.[278]
“I will prove it to you,” she said. “I must.
Look!” she cried, as with trembling hand she pressed the hidden catch. “There!
There!”
With heads close together they bent over. The
tiny lid flew open. And as he took her for one quick instant in his arms the
sun flashed his first golden shaft upon them, covering them with light. But her
exclamation of incredulous surprise he smothered with a kiss. For inside the
little locket there lay—nothing. It was quite empty.
15.“VENGEANCE IS MINE”
1
AN active, vigorous man in Holy orders, yet
compelled by heart trouble to resign a living in Kent before full middle age,
he had found suitable work with the Red Cross in France; and it rather pleased
a strain of innocent vanity in him that Rouen, whence he derived his Norman
blood, should be the scene of his activities.
He was a gentle-minded soul, a man deeply read
and thoughtful, but goodness perhaps his out-standing quality, believing no
evil of others. He had been slow, for instance, at first to credit the German
atrocities, until the evidence had compelled him to face the appalling facts.
With acceptance, then, he had experienced a revulsion which other gentle minds
have probably also experienced—a burning desire, namely, that the perpetrators
should be fitly punished.
This primitive instinct of revenge—he called it
a lust—he sternly repressed; it involved a descent to lower levels of conduct
irreconcilable with the progress of the race he so passionately believed in.
Revenge pertained to savage days. But, though he hid away the instinct in his
heart, afraid of its clamour and persistency, it revived from time to time, as
fresh horrors made it bleed anew. It remained alive, unsatisfied; while, with
its analysis, his mind strove unconsciously. That an intellectual nation should
deliberately include frightfulness as a chief item in its creed perplexed him
horribly; it seemed to him[280] conscious spiritual evil openly affirmed.
Some genuine worship of Odin, Wotan, Moloch lay still embedded in the German
outlook, and beneath the veneer of their pretentious culture. He often
wondered, too, what effect the recognition of these horrors must have upon
gentle minds in other men, and especially upon imaginative minds. How did they
deal with the fact that this appalling thing existed in human nature in the
twentieth century? Its survival, indeed, caused his belief in civilization as a
whole to waver. Was progress, his pet ideal and cherished faith, after all a
mockery? Had human nature not advanced...?
His work in the great hospitals and convalescent
camps beyond the town was tiring; he found little time for recreation, much
less for rest; a light dinner and bed by ten o’clock was the usual way of
spending his evenings. He had no social intercourse, for everyone else was as
busy as himself. The enforced solitude, not quite wholesome, was unavoidable.
He found no outlet for his thoughts. First-hand acquaintance with suffering,
physical and mental, was no new thing to him, but this close familiarity, day
by day, with maimed and broken humanity preyed considerably on his mind, while
the fortitude and cheerfulness shown by the victims deepened the impression of
respectful, yearning wonder made upon him. They were so young, so fine and
careless, these lads whom the German lust for power had robbed of limbs, and
eyes, of mind, of life itself. The sense of horror grew in him with cumulative
but unrelieved effect.
With the lengthening of the days in February,
and especially when March saw the welcome change to summer time, the natural
desire for open air asserted itself. Instead of retiring early to his dingy
bedroom, he would stroll out after dinner through the ancient streets. When the
air was not too chilly, he would prolong these outings, starting at sunset and
coming home beneath the bright mysterious stars. He knew at length every turn
and winding of the[281] old-world alleys, every gable, every tower
and spire, from the Vieux Marché, where Joan of Arc was burnt, to the busy
quays, thronged now with soldiers from half a dozen countries. He wandered on
past grey gateways of crumbling stone that marked the former banks of the old
tidal river. An English army, five centuries ago, had camped here among reeds
and swamps, besieging the Norman capital, where now they brought in supplies of
men and material upon modern docks, a mighty invasion of a very different kind.
Imaginative reflection was his constant mood.
But it was the haunted streets that touched him
most, stirring some chord his ancestry had planted in him. The forest of spires
thronged the air with strange stone flowers, silvered by moonlight as though
white fire streamed from branch and petal; the old church towers soared; the
cathedral touched the stars. After dark the modern note, paramount in the
daylight, seemed hushed; with sunset it underwent a definite night-change.
Although the darkened streets kept alive in him the menace of fire and death,
the crowding soldiers, dipped to the face in shadow, seemed somehow negligible;
the leaning roofs and gables hid them in a purple sea of mist that blurred
their modern garb, steel weapons, and the like. Shadows themselves, they
entered the being of the town; their feet moved silently; there was a hush and
murmur; the brooding buildings absorbed them easily.
Ancient and modern, that is, unable successfully
to mingle, let fall grotesque, incongruous shadows on his thoughts. The spirit
of mediæval days stole over him, exercising its inevitable sway upon a
temperament already predisposed to welcome it. Witchcraft and wonder, pagan
superstition and speculation, combined with an ancestral tendency to weave a
spell, half of acceptance, half of shrinking, about his imaginative soul in
which poetry and logic seemed otherwise fairly balanced. Too weary for critical
judgment to discern clear outlines, his mind, during these magical twilight
walks, became the playground of[282] opposing forces,
some power of dreaming, it seems, too easily in the ascendant. The soul of
ancient Rouen, stealing beside his footsteps in the dusk, put forth a shadowy
hand and touched him.
This shadowy spell he denied as far as in him
lay, though the resistance offered by reason to instinct lacked true driving
power. The dice were loaded otherwise in such a soul. His own blood harked back
unconsciously to the days when men were tortured, broken on the wheel, walled
up alive, and burnt for small offences. This shadowy hand stirred faint
ancestral memories in him, part instinct, part desire. The next step, by which
he saw a similar attitude flowering full blown in the German frightfulness, was
too easily made to be rejected. The German horrors made him believe that this
ignorant cruelty of olden days threatened the world now in a modern, organized
shape that proved its survival in the human heart. Shuddering, he fought
against the natural desire for adequate punishment, but forgot that repressed
emotions sooner or later must assert themselves. Essentially irrepressible,
they may force an outlet in distorted fashion. He hardly recognized, perhaps,
their actual claim, yet it was audible occasionally. For, owing to his
loneliness, the natural outlet, in talk and intercourse, was denied.
Then, with the softer winds, he yearned for
country air. The sweet spring days had come; morning and evening were divine;
above the town the orchards were in bloom. Birds blew their tiny bugles on the
hills. The midday sun began to burn.
It was the time of the final violence, when the
German hordes flung like driven cattle against the Western line where free men
fought for liberty. Fate hovered dreadfully in the balance that spring of 1918;
Amiens was threatened, and if Amiens fell, Rouen must be evacuated. The town,
already full, became now over-full. On his way home one evening he passed the
station, crowded with homeless new arrivals. “Got the wind up, it seems,[283] in
Amiens!” cried a cheery voice, as an officer he knew went by him hurriedly. And
as he heard it the mood of the spring became of a sudden uppermost. He reached
a decision. The German horror came abruptly closer. This further overcrowding
of the narrow streets was more than he could face.
It was a small, personal decision merely, but
he must get out among woods and fields, among flowers and
wholesome, growing things, taste simple, innocent life again. The following
evening he would pack his haversack with food and tramp the four miles to the
great Forêt
Verte—delicious name!—and
spend the night with trees and stars, breathing his full of sweetness, calm and
peace. He was too accustomed to the thunder of the guns to be disturbed by it.
The song of a thrush, the whistle of a blackbird, would easily drown that. He
made his plan accordingly.
The next two nights, however, a warm soft rain
was falling; only on the third evening could he put his little plan into
execution. Anticipatory enjoyment, meanwhile, lightened his heart; he did his
daily work more competently, the spell of the ancient city weakened somewhat.
The shadowy hand withdrew.
2
Meanwhile, a curious adventure intervened.
His good and simple heart, disciplined these
many years in the way a man should walk, received upon its imaginative side, a
stimulus that, in his case, amounted to a shock. That a strange and comely
woman should make eyes at him disturbed his equilibrium considerably; that he
should enjoy the attack, though without at first responding openly—even without
full comprehension of its meaning—disturbed it even more. It was, moreover, no
ordinary attack.
He saw her first the night after his decision
when, in a mood of disappointment due to the rain, he came down[284] to
his lonely dinner. The room, he saw, was crowded with new arrivals, from
Amiens, doubtless, where they had “the wind up.” The wealthier civilians had
fled for safety to Rouen. These interested and, in a measure, stimulated him.
He looked at them sympathetically, wondering what dear home-life they had so
hurriedly relinquished at the near thunder of the enemy guns, and, in so doing,
he noticed, sitting alone at a small table just in front of his own—yet with
her back to him—a woman.
She drew his attention instantly. The first
glance told him that she was young and well-to-do; the second, that she was
unusual. What precisely made her unusual he could not say, although he at once
began to study her intently. Dignity, atmosphere, personality, he perceived
beyond all question. She sat there with an air. The becoming little hat with
its challenging feather slightly tilted, the set of the shoulders, the neat
waist and slender outline; possibly, too, the hair about the neck, and the
faint perfume that was wafted towards him as the serving girl swept past,
combined in the persuasion. Yet he felt it as more than a persuasion. She
attracted him with a subtle vehemence he had never felt before. The instant he
set eyes upon her his blood ran faster. The thought rose passionately in him,
almost the words that phrased it: “I wish I knew her.”
This sudden flash of response his whole being
certainly gave—to the back of an unknown woman. It was both vehement and
instinctive. He lay stress upon its instinctive character; he was aware of it
before reason told him why. That it was “in response” he also noted, for
although he had not seen her face and she assuredly had made no sign, he felt
that attraction which involves also invitation. So vehement, moreover, was this
response in him that he felt shy and ashamed the same instant, for it almost
seemed he had expressed his thought in audible words. He flushed, and the flush
ran through his body; he was conscious of heated blood as in a youth of
twenty-five, and when a man[285] past forty knows this touch of fever he
may also know, though he may not recognize it, that the danger signal which
means possible abandon has been lit. Moreover, as though to prove his instinct
justified, it was at this very instant that the woman turned and stared at him
deliberately. She looked into his eyes, and he looked into hers. He knew a
moment’s keen distress, a sharpest possible discomfort, that after all he had expressed
his desire audibly. Yet, though he blushed, he did not lower his eyes. The
embarrassment passed instantly, replaced by a thrill of strangest pleasure and
satisfaction. He knew a tinge of inexplicable dismay as well. He felt for a
second helpless before what seemed a challenge in her eyes. The eyes were too
compelling. They mastered him.
In order to meet his gaze she had to make a full
turn in her chair, for her table was placed directly in front of his own. She
did so without concealment. It was no mere attempt to see what lay behind by
making a half-turn and pretending to look elsewhere; no corner of the eye
business; but a full, straight, direct, significant stare. She looked into his
soul as though she called him, he looked into hers as though he answered.
Sitting there like a statue, motionless, without a bow, without a smile, he
returned her intense regard unflinchingly and yet unwillingly. He made no sign.
He shivered again.... It was perhaps ten seconds before she turned away with an
air as if she had delivered her message and received his answer, but in those
ten seconds a series of singular ideas crowded his mind, leaving an impression
that ten years could never efface. The face and eyes produced a kind of
intoxication in him. There was almost recognition, as though she said: “Ah,
there you are! I was waiting; you’ll have to come, of course. You must!” And
just before she turned away she smiled.
He felt confused and helpless.
The face he described as unusual; familiar, too,
as with the atmosphere of some long forgotten dream, and if beauty[286] perhaps
was absent, character and individuality were supreme. Implacable resolution was
stamped upon the features, which yet were sweet and womanly, stirring an
emotion in him that he could not name and certainly did not recognize. The
eyes, slanting a little upwards, were full of fire, the mouth voluptuous but
very firm, the chin and jaw most delicately modelled, yet with a masculine
strength that told of inflexible resolve. The resolution, as a whole, was the most
relentless he had ever seen upon a human countenance. It dominated him. “How
vain to resist the will,” he thought, “that lies behind!” He was conscious of
enslavement; she conveyed a message that he must obey, admitting compliance
with her unknown purpose.
That some extraordinary wordless exchange was
registered thus between them seemed very clear; and it was just at this moment,
as if to signify her satisfaction, that she smiled. At his feeling of willing
compliance with some purpose in her mind, the smile appeared. It was faint, so
faint indeed that the eyes betrayed it rather than the mouth and lips; but it
was there; he saw it and he thrilled again to this added touch of wonder and
enchantment. Yet, strangest of all, he maintains that with the smile there
fluttered over the resolute face a sudden arresting tenderness, as though some
wild flower lit a granite surface with its melting loveliness. He was aware in
the clear strong eyes of unshed tears, of sympathy, of self-sacrifice he called
maternal, of clinging love. It was this tenderness, as of a soft and gracious
mother, and this implacable resolution, as of a stern, relentless man, that
left upon his receptive soul the strange impression of sweetness yet of
domination.
The brief ten seconds were over. She turned away
as deliberately as she had turned to look. He found himself trembling with
confused emotions he could not disentangle, could not even name; for, with the
subtle intoxication of compliance in his soul lay also a vigorous protest that
included refusal, even a violent refusal given with horror.[287] This
unknown woman, without actual speech or definite gesture, had lit a flame in
him that linked on far away and out of sight with the magic of the ancient
city’s mediæval spell. Both, he decided, were undesirable, both to be resisted.
He was quite decided about this. She pertained
to forgotten yet unburied things, her modern aspect a mere disguise, a disguise
that some deep unsatisfied instinct in him pierced with ease.
He found himself equally decided, too, upon
another thing which, in spite of his momentary confusion, stood out clearly:
the magic of the city, the enchantment of the woman, both attacked a
constitutional weakness in his blood, a line of least resistance. It wore no
physical aspect, breathed no hint of ordinary romance; the mere male and
female, moral or immoral touch was wholly absent; yet passion lurked there,
tumultuous if hidden, and a tract of consciousness, long untravelled, was lit
by sudden ominous flares. His character, his temperament, his calling in life
as a former clergyman and now a Red Cross worker, being what they were, he
stood on the brink of an adventure not dangerous alone but containing a
challenge of fundamental kind that involved his very soul.
No further thrill, however, awaited him
immediately. He left his table before she did, having intercepted no slightest
hint of desired acquaintanceship or intercourse. He, naturally, made no
advances; she, equally, made no smallest sign. Her face remained hidden, he caught
no flash of eyes, no gesture, no hint of possible invitation. He went upstairs
to his dingy room, and in due course fell asleep. The next day he saw her not,
her place in the dining-room was empty; but in the late evening of the
following day, as the soft spring sunshine found him prepared for his postponed
expedition, he met her suddenly on the stairs. He was going down with haversack
and in walking kit to an early dinner, when he saw her coming up; she was
perhaps a dozen steps below him; they must[288] meet. A wave of
confused, embarrassed pleasure swept him. He realized that this was no chance
meeting. She meant to speak to him.
Violent attraction and an equally violent
repulsion seized him. There was no escape, nor, had escape been possible, would
he have attempted it. He went down four steps, she mounted four towards him;
then he took one and she took one. They met. For a moment they stood level,
while he shrank against the wall to let her pass. He had the feeling that but
for the support of that wall he must have lost his balance and fallen into her,
for the sunlight from the landing window caught her face and lit it, and she
was younger, he saw, than he had thought, and far more comely. Her atmosphere
enveloped him, the sense of attraction and repulsion became intense. She moved
past him with the slightest possible bow of recognition; then, having passed,
she turned.
She stood a little higher than himself, a step
at most, and she thus looked down at him. Her eyes blazed into his. She smiled,
and he was aware again of the domination and the sweetness. The perfume of her
near presence drowned him; his head swam. “We count upon you,” she said in a
low firm voice, as though giving a command; “I know ... we may. We do.” And,
before he knew what he was saying, trembling a little between deep pleasure and
a contrary impulse that sought to choke the utterance, he heard his own voice
answering. “You can count upon me....” And she was already half-way up the next
flight of stairs ere he could move a muscle, or attempt to thread a meaning
into the singular exchange.
Yet meaning, he well knew, there was.
She was gone; her footsteps overhead had died
away. He stood there trembling like a boy of twenty, yet also like a man of
forty in whom fires, long dreaded, now blazed sullenly. She had opened the
furnace door, the draught rushed through. He felt again the old unwelcome
spell; he saw the twisted streets ’mid leaning gables and shadowy[289] towers
of a day forgotten; he heard the ominous murmurs of a crowd that thirsted for
wheel and scaffold and fire; and, aware of vengeance, sweet and terrible,
aware, too, that he welcomed it, his heart was troubled and afraid.
In a brief second the impression came and went;
following it swiftly, the sweetness of the woman swept him: he forgot his
shrinking in a rush of wild delicious pleasure. The intoxication in him
deepened. She had recognized him! She had bowed and even smiled; she had
spoken, assuming familiarity, intimacy, including him in her secret purposes!
It was this sweet intimacy cleverly injected, that overcame the repulsion he
acknowledged, winning complete obedience to the unknown meaning of her words.
This meaning, for the moment, lay in darkness; yet it was a portion of his own
self, he felt, that concealed it of set purpose. He kept it hid, he looked
deliberately another way; for, if he faced it with full recognition, he knew
that he must resist it to the death. He allowed himself to ask vague
questions—then let her dominating spell confuse the answers so that he did not
hear them. The challenge to his soul, that is, he evaded.
What is commonly called sex lay only slightly in
his troubled emotions; her purpose had nothing that kept step with chance
acquaintanceship. There lay meaning, indeed, in her smile and voice, but these
were no hand-maids to a vulgar intrigue in a foreign hotel. Her will breathed
cleaner air; her purpose aimed at some graver, mightier climax than the mere
subjection of an elderly victim like himself. That will, that purpose, he felt
certain, were implacable as death, the resolve in those bold eyes was not a
common one. For, in some strange way, he divined the strong maternity in her;
the maternal instinct was deeply, even predominantly, involved; he felt
positive that a divine tenderness, deeply outraged, was a chief ingredient too.
In some way, then, she needed him, yet not she alone, for the pronoun “we” was
used, and there were others with her; in some way, equally, a part[290] of
him was already her and their accomplice, an unresisting slave, a willing
co-conspirator.
He knew one other thing, and it was this that he
kept concealed so carefully from himself. His recognition of it was
sub-conscious possibly, but for that very reason true: her purpose was
consistent with the satisfaction at last of a deep instinct in him that
clamoured to know gratification. It was for these odd, mingled reasons that he
stood trembling when she left him on the stairs, and finally went down to his
hurried meal with a heart that knew wonder, anticipation, and delight, but also
dread.
3
The table in front of him remained unoccupied;
his dinner finished, he went out hastily.
As he passed through the crowded streets, his
chief desire was to be quickly free of the old muffled buildings and airless
alleys with their clinging atmosphere of other days. He longed for the sweet
taste of the heights, the smells of the forest whither he was bound. This Forêt Verte, he knew, rolled for leagues towards the north,
empty of houses as of human beings; it was the home of deer and birds and
rabbits, of wild boar too. There would be spring flowers among the brushwood,
anemones, celandine, oxslip, daffodils. The vapours of the town oppressed him,
the warm and heavy moisture stifled; he wanted space and the sight of clean
simple things that would stimulate his mind with lighter thoughts.
He soon passed the Rampe, skirted the ugly
villas of modern Bihorel and, rising now with every step, entered the Route Neuve. He went unduly fast; he was already above the
Cathedral spire; below him the Seine meandered round the chalky hills, laden
with war-barges, and across a dip, still pink in the afterglow, rose the blunt
Down of Bonsecours with its anti-aircraft batteries. Poetry and violent fact
crashed everywhere; he longed to top the hill[291] and leave these
unhappy reminders of death behind him. In front the sweet woods already
beckoned through the twilight. He hastened. Yet while he deliberately fixed his
imagination on promised peace and beauty, an undercurrent ran sullenly in his
mind, busy with quite other thoughts. The unknown woman and her singular words,
the following mystery of the ancient city, the soft beating wonder of the two
together, these worked their incalculable magic persistently about him.
Repression merely added to their power. His mind was a prey to some shadowy,
remote anxiety that, intangible, invisible, yet knocked with ghostly fingers
upon some door of ancient memory.... He watched the moon rise above the eastern
ridge, in the west the afterglow of sunset still hung red. But these did not
hold his attention as they normally must have done. Attention seemed elsewhere.
The undercurrent bore him down a siding, into a backwater, as it were, that
clamoured for discharge.
He thought suddenly, then, of weather, what he
called “German weather”—that combination of natural conditions which so oddly
favoured the enemy always. It had often occurred to him as strange; on sea and
land, mist, rain and wind, the fog and drying sun worked ever on their side.
The coincidence was odd, to say the least. And now this glimpse of rising moon
and sunset sky reminded him unpleasantly of the subject. Legends of pagan
weather-gods passed through his mind like hurrying shadows. These shadows
multiplied, changed form, vanished and returned. They came and went with
incoherence, a straggling stream, rushing from one point to another, manœuvring
for position, but all unled, unguided by his will. The physical exercise filled
his brain with blood, and thought danced undirected, picture upon picture
driving by, so that soon he slipped from German weather and pagan gods to the
witchcraft of past centuries, of its alleged association with the natural
powers of the elements,[292] and thus, eventually, to his cherished
beliefs that humanity had advanced.
Such remnants of primitive days were grotesque
superstition, of course. But had humanity advanced? Had the individual
progressed after all? Civilization, was it not the merest artificial growth?
And the old perplexity rushed through his mind again—the German barbarity and blood-lust,
the savagery, the undoubted sadic impulses, the frightfulness taught with cool
calculation by their highest minds, approved by their professors, endorsed by
their clergy, applauded by their women even—all the unwelcome, undesired
thoughts came flocking back upon him, escorted by the trooping shadows. They
lay, these questions, still unsolved within him; it was the undercurrent,
flowing more swiftly now, that bore them to the surface. It had acquired
momentum; it was leading somewhere.
They were a thoughtful, intellectual race, these
Germans; their music, literature, philosophy, their science—how reconcile the
opposing qualities? He had read that their herd-instinct was unusually
developed, though betraying the characteristics of a low wild savage type—the
lupine. It might be true. Fear and danger wakened this collective instinct into
terrific activity, making them blind and humourless; they fought best, like
wolves, in contact; they howled and whined and boasted loudly all together to
inspire terror; their Hymn of Hate was but an elaboration of the wolf’s fierce
bark, giving them herd-courage; and a savage discipline was necessary to their
lupine type.
These reflections thronged his mind as the blood
coursed in his veins with the rapid climbing; yet one and all, the beauty of
the evening, the magic of the hidden town, the thoughts of German horror,
German weather, German gods, all these, even the odd detail that they revived a
pagan practice by hammering nails into effigies and idols—all led finally to
one blazing centre that nothing could dislodge nor anything conceal; a woman’s
voice and eyes. To these he knew quite well, was due the undesired[293] intensification
of the very mood, the very emotions, the very thoughts he had come out on
purpose to escape.
“It is the night of the vernal equinox,”
occurred to him suddenly, sharp as a whispered voice beside him. He had no
notion whence the idea was born. It had no particular meaning, so far as he
remembered.
“It had then ...” said the
voice imperiously, rising, it seemed, directly out of the under-current in his
soul.
It startled him. He increased his pace. He
walked very quickly, whistling softly as he went.
The dusk had fallen when at length he topped the
long, slow hill, and left the last of the atrocious straggling villas well
behind him. The ancient city lay far below in murky haze and smoke, but tinged
now with the silver of the growing moon.
4
He stood now on the open plateau. He was on the
heights at last.
The night air met him freshly in the face, so
that he forgot the fatigue of the long climb uphill, taken too fast somewhat
for his years. He drew a deep draught into his lungs and stepped out briskly.
Far in the upper sky light flaky clouds raced
through the reddened air, but the wind kept to these higher strata, and the
world about him lay very still. Few lights showed in the farms and cottages,
for this was the direct route of the Gothas, and nothing that could help the
German hawks to find the river was visible.
His mind cleared pleasantly; this keen sweet air
held no mystery; he put his best foot foremost, whistling still, but a little
more loudly than before. Among the orchards he saw the daisies glimmer. Also,
he heard the guns, a thudding concussion in the direction of the coveted
Amiens, where, some sixty miles as the crow flies, they roared their terror
into the calm evening skies. He cursed[294] the sound, in the
town below it was not audible. Thought jumped then to the men who fired them,
and so to the prisoners who worked on the roads outside the hospitals and camps
he visited daily. He passed them every morning and night, and the N.C.O.
invariably saluted his Red Cross uniform, a salute he returned, when he could
not avoid it, with embarrassment.
One man in particular stood out clearly in this
memory; he had exchanged glances with him, noted the expression of his face,
the number of his gang printed on coat and trousers—“82.” The fellow had
somehow managed to establish a relationship; he would look up and smile or
frown; if the news, from his point of view, was good, he smiled; if it was bad,
he scowled; once, insolently enough—when the Germans had taken Albert, Péronne,
Bapaume—he grinned.
Something about the sullen, close-cropped face,
typically Prussian, made the other shudder. It was the visage of an animal,
neither evil nor malignant, even good-natured sometimes when it smiled, yet of
an animal that could be fierce with the lust of happiness, ferocious with
delight. The sullen savagery of a human wolf lay in it somewhere. He pictured its
owner impervious to shame, to normal human instinct as civilized people know
these. Doubtless he read his own feelings into it. He could imagine the man
doing anything and everything, regarding chivalry and sporting instinct as
proof of fear or weakness. He could picture this member of the wolf-pack
killing a woman or a child, mutilating, cutting off little hands even, with the
conscientious conviction that it was right and sensible to destroy any individual
of an enemy tribe. It was, to him, an atrocious and inhuman face.
It now cropped up with unpleasant vividness, as
he listened to the distant guns and thought of Amiens with its back against the
wall, its inhabitants flying——
Ah! Amiens...! He again saw the woman staring
into his obedient eyes across the narrow space between[295] the tables. He
smelt the delicious perfume of her dress and person on the stairs. He heard her
commanding voice, her very words: “We count on you.... I know we can ... we
do.” And her background was of twisted streets, dark alley-ways and leaning
gables....
He hurried, whistling loudly an air that he
invented suddenly, using his stick like a golf club at every loose stone his
feet encountered, making as much noise as possible. He told himself he was a
parson and a Red Cross worker. He looked up and saw that the stars were out.
The pace made him warm, and he shifted his haversack to the other shoulder. The
moon, he observed, now cast his shadow for a long distance on the sandy road.
After another mile, while the air grew sharper and
twilight surrendered finally to the moon, the road began to curve and dip, the
cottages lay farther out in the dim fields, the farms and barns occurred at
longer intervals. A dog barked now and again; he saw cows lying down for the
night beneath shadowy fruit-trees. And then the scent in the air changed
slightly, and a darkening of the near horizon warned him that the forest had
come close.
This was an event. Its influence breathed
already a new perfume; the shadows from its myriad trees stole out and touched
him. Ten minutes later he reached its actual frontier cutting across the
plateau like a line of sentries at attention. He slowed down a little. Here,
within sight and touch of his long-desired objective, he hesitated. It
stretched, he knew from the map, for many leagues to the north, uninhabited,
lonely, the home of peace and silence; there were flowers there, and cool sweet
spaces where the moonlight fell. Yet here, within scent and touch of it, he
slowed down a moment to draw breath. A forest on the map is one thing; visible
before the eyes when night has fallen, it is another. It is real.
The wind, not noticeable hitherto, now murmured
towards him from the serried trees that seemed to manufacture darkness out of
nothing. This murmur hummed[296] about him. It enveloped him. Piercing it,
another sound that was not the guns just reached him, but so distant that he
hardly noticed it. He looked back. Dusk suddenly merged in night. He stopped.
“How practical the French are,” he said to
himself—aloud—as he looked at the road running straight as a ruled line into
the heart of the trees. “They waste no energy, no space, no time. Admirable!”
It pierced the forest like a lance, tapering to
a faint point in the misty distance. The trees ate its undeviating straightness
as though they would smother it from sight, as though its rigid outline marred
their mystery. He admired the practical makers of the road, yet sided, too,
with the poetry of the trees. He stood there staring, waiting, dawdling....
About him, save for this murmur of the wind, was silence. Nothing living
stirred. The world lay extraordinarily still. That other distant sound had died
away.
He lit his pipe, glad that the match blew out
and the damp tobacco needed several matches before the pipe drew properly. His
puttees hurt him a little, he stooped to loosen them. His haversack swung round
in front as he straightened up again, he shifted it laboriously to the other
shoulder. A tiny stone in his right boot caused irritation. Its removal took a
considerable time, for he had to sit down, and a log was not at once
forthcoming. Moreover, the laces gave him trouble, and his fingers had grown
thick with heat and the knots were difficult to tie....
“There!” He said it aloud, standing up again.
“Now at last, I’m ready!” Then added a mild imprecation, for his pipe had gone
out while he stooped over the recalcitrant boot, and it had to be lighted once
again. “Ah!” he gasped finally with a sigh as, facing the forest for the third
time, he shuffled his tunic straight, altered his haversack once more, changed
his stick from the right hand to the left—and faced the foolish truth without
further pretence.[297]
He mopped his forehead carefully, as though at
the same time trying to mop away from his mind a faint anxiety, a very faint
uneasiness, that gathered there. Was someone standing near him? Had somebody
come close? He listened intently. It was the blood singing in his ears, of
course, that curious distant noise. For, truth to tell, the loneliness bit just
below the surface of what he found enjoyable. It seemed to him that somebody
was coming, someone he could not see, so that he looked back over his shoulder
once again, glanced quickly right and left, then peered down the long opening
cut through the woods in front—when there came suddenly a roar and a blaze of
dazzling light from behind, so instantaneously that he barely had time to obey
the instinct of self-preservation and step aside. He actually leapt. Pressed
against the hedge, he saw a motor-car rush past him like a whirlwind, flooding
the sandy road with fire; a second followed it; and, to his complete amazement,
then, a third.
They were powerful, private cars, so-called.
This struck him instantly. Two other things he noticed, as they dived down the
throat of the long white road—they showed no tail-lights. This made him wonder.
And, secondly, the drivers, clearly seen, were women. They were not even in
uniform—which made him wonder even more. The occupants, too, were women. He
caught the outline of toque and feather—or was it flowers?—against the closed
windows in the moonlight as the procession rushed past him.
He felt bewildered and astonished. Private
motors were rare, and military regulations exceedingly strict; the danger of
spies dressed in French uniform was constant; cars armed with machine guns, he
knew, patrolled the countryside in all directions. Shaken and alarmed, he
thought of favoured persons fleeing stealthily by night, of treachery, disguise
and swift surprise; he thought of various things as he stood peering down the
road for ten minutes after all sight and sound of the cars had died away. But
no solution of the mystery occurred to him.[298] Down the white
throat the motors vanished. His pipe had gone out; he lit it, and puffed
furiously.
His thoughts, at any rate, took temporarily a
new direction now. The road was not as lonely as he had imagined. A natural
reaction set in at once, and this proof of practical, modern life banished the
shadows from his mind effectually. He started off once more, oblivious of his
former hesitation. He even felt a trifle shamed and foolish, pretending that
the vanished mood had not existed. The tobacco had been damp. His boot had
really hurt him.
Yet bewilderment and surprise stayed with him.
The swiftness of the incident was disconcerting; the cars arrived and vanished
with such extraordinary rapidity; their noisy irruption into this peaceful spot
seemed incongruous; they roared, blazed, rushed and disappeared; silence
resumed its former sway.
But the silence persisted, whereas the noise was
gone.
This touch of the incongruous remained with him
as he now went ever deeper into the heart of the quiet forest. This odd
incongruity of dreams remained.
5
The keen air stole from the woods, cooling his
body and his mind; anemones gleamed faintly among the brushwood, lit by the
pallid moonlight. There were beauty, calm and silence, the slow breathing of
the earth beneath the comforting sweet stars. War, in this haunt of ancient
peace, seemed an incredible anachronism. His thoughts turned to gentle happy
hopes of a day when the lion and the lamb would yet lie down together, and a
little child would lead them without fear. His soul dwelt with peaceful
longings and calm desires.
He walked on steadily, until the inflexible
straightness of the endless road began to afflict him, and he longed for a
turning to the right or left. He looked eagerly about[299] him for a woodland
path. Time mattered little; he could wait for the sunrise and walk home
“beneath the young grey dawn”; he had food and matches, he could light a fire,
and sleep—— No!—after all, he would not light a fire, perhaps; he might be
accused of signalling to hostile aircraft, or a garde forestière might catch him. He would not bother with
a fire. The night was warm, he could enjoy himself and pass the time quite
happily without artificial heat; probably he would need no sleep at all.... And
just then he noticed an opening on his right, where a seductive pathway led in
among the trees. The moon, now higher in the sky, lit this woodland trail
enticingly; it seemed the very opening he had looked for, and with a thrill of
pleasure he at once turned down it, leaving the ugly road behind him with
relief.
The sound of his footsteps hushed instantly on
the leaves and moss; the silence became noticeable; an unusual stillness
followed; it seemed that something in his mind was also hushed. His feet moved
stealthily, as though anxious to conceal his presence from surprise. His steps
dragged purposely; their rustling through the thick dead leaves, perhaps, was
pleasant to him. He was not sure.
The path opened presently into a clearing where
the moonlight made a pool of silver, the surrounding brushwood fell away; and
in the centre a gigantic outline rose. It was, he saw, a beech tree that dwarfed
the surrounding forest by its grandeur. Its bulk loomed very splendid against
the sky, a faint rustle just audible in its myriad tiny leaves. Dipped in the
moonlight, it had such majesty of proportion, such symmetry, that he stopped in
admiration. It was, he saw, a multiple tree, five stems springing with
attempted spirals out of an enormous trunk; it was immense; it had a presence,
the space framed it to perfection. The clearing, evidently, was a favourite
resting place for summer picknickers, a playground, probably, for city children
on holiday afternoons; woodcutters, too, had been here recently, for he noticed
piled brushwood ready[300] to be carted. It indicated admirably, he
felt, the limits of his night expedition. Here he would rest awhile, eat his
late supper, sleep perhaps round a small—— No! again—a fire he need not make;
a spark might easily set the woods ablaze, it was against both forest and
military regulations. This idea of a fire, otherwise so natural, was
distasteful, even repugnant, to him. He wondered a little why it recurred. He
noticed this time, moreover, something unpleasant connected with the suggestion
of a fire, something that made him shrink; almost a ghostly dread lay hidden in
it.
This startled him. A dozen excellent reasons, supplied
by his brain, warned him that a fire was unwise; but the true reason, supplied
by another part of him, concealed itself with care, as though afraid that
reason might detect its nature and fix the label on. Disliking this reminder of
his earlier mood, he moved forward into the clearing, swinging his stick
aggressively and whistling. He approached the tree, where a dozen thick roots
dipped into the earth. Admiring, looking up and down, he paced slowly round its
prodigious girth, then stood absolutely still. His heart stopped abruptly, his
blood became congealed. He saw something that filled him with a sudden
emptiness of terror. On this western side the shadow lay very black; it was
between the thick limbs, half stem, half root, where the dark hollows gave easy
hiding-places, that he was positive he detected movement. A portion of the
trunk had moved.
He stood stock still and stared—not three feet
from the trunk—when there came a second movement. Concealed in the shadows
there crouched a living form. The movement defined itself immediately. Half
reclining, half standing, a living being pressed itself close against the tree,
yet fitting so neatly into the wide scooped hollows, that it was scarcely
distinguishable from its ebony background. But for the chance movement he must
have passed it undetected. Equally, his outstretched fingers[301] might
have touched it. The blood rushed from his heart, as he saw this second
movement.
Detaching itself from the obscure background,
the figure rose and stood before him. It swayed a little, then stepped out into
the patch of moonlight on his left. Three feet lay between them. The figure
then bent over. A pallid face with burning eyes thrust forward and peered
straight into his own.
The human being was a woman. The same instant he
recognized the eyes that had stared him out of countenance in the dining-room
two nights ago. He was petrified. She stared him out of countenance now.
And, as she did so, the under-current he had
tried to ignore so long swept to the surface in a tumultuous flood,
obliterating his normal self. Something elaborately built up in his soul by
years of artificial training collapsed like a house of cards, and he knew
himself undone.
“They’ve got me...!” flashed dreadfully through
his mind. It was, again, like a message delivered in a dream where the
significance of acts performed and language uttered, concealed at the moment,
is revealed much later only.
“After all—they’ve got me...!”
6
The dialogue that followed seemed strange to him
only when looking back upon it. The element of surprise again was negligible if
not wholly absent, but the incongruity of dreams, almost of nightmare, became
more marked. Though the affair was unlikely, it was far from incredible. So
completely were this man and woman involved in some purpose common to them both
that their talk, their meeting, their instinctive sympathy at the time seemed
natural. The same stream bore them irresistibly towards the same far sea. Only,
as yet, this common purpose remained concealed. Nor could he define the violent
emotions that[302] troubled him. Their exact description was
in him, but so deep that he could not draw it up. Moonlight lay upon his
thought, merging clear outlines.
Divided against himself, the cleavage left no
authoritative self in control; his desire to take an immediate decision
resulted in a confused struggle, where shame and pleasure, attraction and
revulsion mingled painfully. Incongruous details tumbled helter-skelter about
his mind: for no obvious reason, he remembered again his Red Cross uniform, his
former holy calling, his nationality too; he was a servant of mercy, a teacher
of the love of God; he was an English gentleman. Against which rose other
details, as in opposition, holding just beyond the reach of words, yet rising,
he recognized well enough, from the bed-rock of the human animal, whereon a few
centuries have imposed the thin crust of refinement men call civilization. He
was aware of joy and loathing.
In the first few seconds he knew the clash of a
dreadful fundamental struggle, while the spell of this woman’s strange
enchantment poured over him, seeking the reconciliation he himself could not
achieve. Yet the reconciliation she sought meant victory or
defeat; no compromise lay in it. Something imperious emanating from her already
dominated the warring elements towards a coherent whole. He stood before her,
quivering with emotions he dared not name. Her great womanhood he recognized,
acknowledging obedience to her undisclosed intentions. And this idea of coming
surrender terrified him. Whence came, too, that queenly touch about her that
made him feel he should have sunk upon his knees?
The conflict resulted in a curious compromise.
He raised his hand; he saluted; he found very ordinary words.
“You passed me only a short time ago,” he
stammered, “in the motors. There were others with you——”
“Knowing that you would find us and come after.
We count on your presence and your willing help.” Her voice was firm as with
unalterable conviction. It was persuasive[303] too. He nodded, as
though acquiescence seemed the only course.
“We need your sympathy; we must have your power
too.”
He bowed again. “My power!” Something exulted in
him. But he murmured only. It was natural, he felt; he gave consent without a
question.
Strange words he both understood and did not
understand. Her voice, low and silvery, was that of a gentle, cultured woman,
but command rang through it with a clang of metal, terrible behind the
sweetness. She moved a little closer, standing erect before him in the moonlight,
her figure borrowing something of the great tree’s majesty behind her. It was
incongruous, this gentle and yet sinister air she wore. Whence came, in this
calm peaceful spot, the suggestion of a wild and savage background to her? Why
were there tumult and oppression in his heart, pain, horror, tenderness and
mercy, mixed beyond disentanglement? Why did he think already, but helplessly,
of escape, yet at the same time burn to stay? Whence came again, too, a certain
queenly touch he felt in her?
“The gods have brought you,” broke across his
turmoil in a half whisper whose breath almost touched his face. “You belong to
us.”
The deeps rose in him. Seduced by the sweetness
and the power, the warring divisions in his being drew together. His under-self
more and more obtained the mastery she willed. Then something in the French she
used flickered across his mind with a faint reminder of normal things again.
“Belgian——” he began, and then stopped short, as
her instant rejoinder broke in upon his halting speech and petrified him. In
her voice sang that triumphant tenderness that only the feminine powers of the
Universe may compass: it seemed the sky sang with her, the mating birds, wild
flowers, the south wind and the running streams. All these, even the silver birches,
lent their fluid,[304] feminine undertones to the two pregnant
words with which she interrupted him and completed his own unfinished sentence:
“—— and mother.”
With the dreadful calm of an absolute assurance,
she stood and watched him.
His understanding already showed signs of
clearing. She stretched her hands out with a passionate appeal, a yearning
gesture, the eloquence of which should explain all that remained unspoken. He
saw their grace and symmetry, exquisite in the moonlight, then watched them
fold together in an attitude of prayer. Beautiful mother hands they were; hands
made to smooth the pillows of the world, to comfort, bless, caress, hands that
little children everywhere must lean upon and love-perfect symbol of
protective, self-forgetful motherhood.
This tenderness he noted; he noted next—the
strength. In the folded hands he divined the expression of another great
world-power, fulfilling the implacable resolution of the mouth and eyes. He was
aware of relentless purpose, more—of merciless revenge, as by a protective
motherhood outraged beyond endurance. Moreover, the gesture held appeal; these
hands, so close that their actual perfume reached him, sought his own in help.
The power in himself as man, as male, as father—this was required of him in the
fulfillment of the unknown purpose to which this woman summoned him. His
understanding cleared still more.
The couple faced one another, staring fixedly
beneath the giant beech that overarched them. In the dark of his eyes, he knew,
lay growing terror. He shivered, and the shiver passed down his spine, making
his whole body tremble. There stirred in him an excitement he loathed, yet
welcomed, as the primitive male in him, answering the summons, reared up with
instinctive, dreadful glee to shatter the bars that civilization had so
confidently set upon its freedom. A primal emotion of his under-being, ancient[305] lust
that had too long gone hungry and unfed, leaped towards some possible
satisfaction. It was incredible; it was, of course, a dream. But judgment
wavered; increasing terror ate his will away. Violence and sweetness, relief
and degradation, fought in his soul, as he trembled before a power that now
slowly mastered him. This glee and loathing formed their ghastly partnership.
He could have strangled the woman where she stood. Equally, he could have knelt
and kissed her feet.
The vehemence of the conflict paralysed him.
“A mother’s hands ...” he murmured at length,
the words escaping like bubbles that rose to the surface of a seething cauldron
and then burst.
And the woman smiled as though she read his mind
and saw his little trembling. The smile crept down from the eyes towards the
mouth; he saw her lips part slightly; he saw her teeth.
But her reply once more transfixed him. Two
syllables she uttered in a voice of iron:
“Louvain.”
The sound acted upon him like a Word of Power in
some Eastern fairy tale. It knit the present to a past that he now recognized
could never die. Humanity had not advanced. The hidden source
of his secret joy began to glow. For this woman focused in him passions that
life had hitherto denied, pretending they were atrophied, and the primitive
male, the naked savage rose up, with glee in its lustful eyes and blood upon
its lips. Acquired civilization, a pitiful mockery, split through its thin
veneer and fled.
“Belgian ... Louvain ... Mother ...” he
whispered, yet astonished at the volume of sound that now left his mouth. His
voice had a sudden fullness. It seemed a cave-man roared the words.
She touched his hand, and he knew a sudden
intensification of life within him; immense energy poured[306] through
his veins; a mediæval spirit used his eyes; great pagan instincts strained and
urged against his heart, against his very muscles. He longed for action.
And he cried aloud: “I am with you, with you to
the end!”
Her spell had vivified beyond all possible
resistance that primitive consciousness which is ever the bed-rock of the human
animal.
A racial memory, inset against the forest
scenery, flashed suddenly through the depths laid bare. Below a sinking moon
dark figures flew in streaming lines and groups; tormented cries went down the
wind; he saw torn, blasted trees that swayed and rocked; there was a leaping
fire, a gleaming knife, an altar. He saw a sacrifice.
It flashed away and vanished. In its place the
woman stood, with shining eyes fixed on his face, one arm outstretched, one
hand upon his flesh. She shifted slightly, and her cloak swung open. He saw
clinging skins wound closely about her figure; leaves, flowers and trailing
green hung from her shoulders, fluttering down the lines of her triumphant
physical beauty. There was a perfume of wild roses, incense, ivy bloom, whose
subtle intoxication drowned his senses. He saw a sparkling girdle round the
waist, a knife thrust through it tight against the hip. And his secret joy, the
glee, the pleasure of some unlawful and unholy lust leaped through his blood
towards the abandonment of satisfaction.
The moon revealed a glimpse, no more. An instant
he saw her thus, half savage and half sweet, symbol of primitive justice
entering the present through the door of vanished centuries.
The cloak swung back again, the outstretched
hand withdrew, but from a world he knew had altered.
To-day sank out of sight. The moon shone pale
with terror and delight on Yesterday.[307]
7
Across this altered world a faint new sound now
reached his ears, as though a human wail of anguished terror trembled and
changed into the cry of some captured helpless animal. He thought of a wolf
apart from the comfort of its pack, savage yet abject. The despair of a last
appeal was in the sound. It floated past, it died away. The woman moved closer
suddenly.
“All is prepared,” she said, in the same low,
silvery voice; “we must not tarry. The equinox is come, the tide of power
flows. The sacrifice is here; we hold him fast. We only awaited you.” Her
shining eyes were raised to his. “Your soul is with us now?” she whispered.
“My soul is with you.”
“And midnight,” she continued, “is at hand. We
use, of course, their methods. Henceforth the gods—their old-world gods—shall
work on our side. They demand a sacrifice, and justice has provided one.”
His understanding cleared still more then; the
last veil of confusion was drawing from his mind. The old, old names went
thundering through his consciousness—Odin, Wotan, Moloch—accessible ever to
invocation and worship of the rightful kind. It seemed as natural as though he
read in his pulpit the prayer for rain, or gave out the hymn for those at sea.
That was merely an empty form, whereas this was real. Sea, storm and
earthquake, all natural activities, lay under the direction of those elemental
powers called the gods. Names changed, the principle remained.
“Their weather shall be ours,” he cried, with
sudden passion, as a memory of unhallowed usages he had thought erased from
life burned in him; while, stranger still, resentment stirred—revolt—against
the system, against the very deity he had worshipped hitherto. For these had
never once interfered to help the cause of right; their feebleness was now laid
bare before his eyes. And a two-fold[308] lust rose in him.
“Vengeance is ours!” he cried in a louder voice, through which this sudden
loathing of the cross poured hatred. “Vengeance and justice! Now bind the
victim! Bring on the sacrifice!”
“He is already bound.” And as the woman moved a
little, the curious erection behind her caught his eye—the piled brushwood he
had imagined was the work of woodmen, picnickers, or playing children. He
realized its true meaning.
It now delighted and appalled him. Awe deepened
in him, a wind of ice passed over him. Civilization made one more fluttering
effort. He gasped, he shivered; he tried to speak. But no words came. A thin
cry, as of a frightened child, escaped him.
“It is the only way,” the woman whispered
softly. “We steal from them the power of their own deities.” Her head flung
back with a marvellous gesture of grace and power; she stood before him a
figure of perfect womanhood, gentle and tender, yet at the same time alive and
cruel with the passions of an ignorant and savage past. Her folded hands were
clasped, her face turned heavenwards. “I am a mother,” she added, with amazing
passion, her eyes glistening in the moonlight with unshed tears. “We all”—she
glanced towards the forest, her voice rising to a wild and poignant cry—“all,
all of us are mothers!”
It was then the final clearing of his
understanding happened, and he realized his own part in what would follow. Yet
before the realization he felt himself not merely ineffective, but powerless.
The struggling forces in him were so evenly matched that paralysis of the will
resulted. His dry lips contrived merely a few words of confused and feeble
protest.
“Me!” he faltered. “My help——?”
“Justice,” she answered; and though softly
uttered, it was as though the mediæval towers clanged their bells. That secret,
ghastly joy again rose in him; admiration, wonder, desire followed instantly. A
fugitive memory of[309] Joan of Arc flashed by, as with armoured
wings, upon the moonlight. Some power similarly heroic, some purpose similarly
inflexible, emanated from this woman, the savour of whose physical enchantment,
whose very breath, rose to his brain like incense. Again he shuddered. The
spasm of secret pleasure shocked him. He sighed. He felt alert, yet stunned.
Her words went down the wind between them:
“You are so weak, you English,” he heard her
terrible whisper, “so nobly forgiving, so fine, yet so forgetful. You refuse
the weapon they place within your hands.” Her face thrust
closer, the great eyes blazed upon him. “If we would save the children”—the
voice rose and fell like wind—“we must worship where they worship, we must
sacrifice to their savage deities....”
The stream of her words flowed over him with
this nightmare magic that seemed natural, without surprise. He listened, he
trembled, and again he sighed. Yet in his blood there was sudden roaring.
“... Louvain ... the hands of little children
... we have the proof,” he heard, oddly intermingled with another set of words
that clamoured vainly in his brain for utterance; “the diary in his own
handwriting, his gloating pleasure ... the little, innocent hands....”
“Justice is mine!” rang through some fading
region of his now fainting soul, but found no audible utterance.
“... Mist, rain and wind ... the gods of German
Weather.... We all ... are mothers....”
“I will repay,” came forth in actual words, yet
so low he hardly heard the sound. But the woman heard.
“We!” she cried fiercely, “we will
repay!”...
“God!” The voice seemed torn from his throat.
“Oh God—my God!”
“Our gods,” she said steadily in
that tone of iron, “are near. The sacrifice is ready. And you—servant
of mercy, priest of a younger deity, and English—you bring the power that makes
it effectual. The circuit is complete.”[310]
It was perhaps the tears in her appealing eyes,
perhaps it was her words, her voice, the wonder of her presence; all combined
possibly in the spell that finally then struck down his will as with a single
blow that paralysed his last resistance. The monstrous, half-legendary spirit
of a primitive day recaptured him completely; he yielded to the spell of this
tender, cruel woman, mother and avenging angel, whom horror and suffering had
flung back upon the practices of uncivilized centuries. A common desire, a
common lust and purpose, degraded both of them. They understood one another.
Dropping back into a gulf of savage worship that set up idols in the place of
God, they prayed to Odin and his awful crew....
It was again the touch of her hand that
galvanized him. She raised him; he had been kneeling in slavish wonder and
admiration at her feet. He leaped to do the bidding, however terrible, of this
woman who was priestess, queen indeed, of a long-forgotten orgy.
“Vengeance at last!” he cried, in an exultant
voice that no longer frightened him. “Now light the fire! Bring on the
sacrifice!”
There was a rustling among the nearer branches,
the forest stirred; the leaves of last year brushed against advancing feet. Yet
before he could turn to see, before even the last words had wholly left his
lips, the woman, whose hand still touched his fingers, suddenly tossed her
cloak aside, and flinging her bare arms about his neck, drew him with impetuous
passion towards her face and kissed him, as with delighted fury of exultant passion,
full upon the mouth. Her body, in its clinging skins, pressed close against his
own; her heat poured into him. She held him fiercely, savagely, and her burning
kiss consumed his modern soul away with the fire of a primal day.
“The gods have given you to us,” she cried,
releasing him. “Your soul is ours!”
She turned—they turned together—to look for one
upon whose last hour the moon now shed her horrid silver.[311]
8
This silvery moonlight fell upon the scene.
Incongruously he remembered the flowers that soon
would know the cuckoo’s call; the soft mysterious stars shone down; the woods
lay silent underneath the sky.
An amazing fantasy of dream shot here and there.
“I am a man, an Englishman, a padre!” ran twisting through his mind, as
though she whispered them to emphasize the ghastly contrast of
reality. A memory of his own Kentish village with its Sunday school fled past,
his dream of the Lion and the Lamb close after it. He saw children playing on
the green.... He saw their happy little hands....
Justice, punishment, revenge—he could not
disentangle them. No longer did he wish to. The tide of violence was at his
lips, quenching an ancient thirst. He drank. It seemed he could drink forever.
These tender pictures only sweetened horror. That kiss had burned his modern
soul away.
The woman waved her hand; there swept from the
underbrush a score of figures dressed like herself in skins, with leaves and
flowers entwined among their flying hair. He was surrounded in a moment. Upon
each face he noted the same tenderness and terrible resolve that their
commander wore. They pressed about him, dancing with enchanting grace, yet with
full-blooded abandon, across the chequered light and shadow. It was the
brimming energy of their movements that swept him off his feet, waking the
desire for fierce rhythmical expression. His own muscles leaped and ached; for
this energy, it seemed, poured into him from the tossing arms and legs, the
shimmering bodies whence hair and skins flung loose, setting the very air
awhirl. It flowed over into inanimate objects even, so that the trees waved
their branches although no wind stirred—hair, skins and hands, rushing leaves
and flying fingers touched his face, his neck, his arms and shoulders, catching[312] him
away into this orgy of an ancient, sacrificial ritual. Faces with shining eyes
peered into his, then sped away; grew in a cloud upon the moonlight; sank back
in shadow; reappeared, touched him, whispered, vanished. Silvery limbs gleamed
everywhere. Chanting rose in a wave, to fall away again into forest rustlings;
there were smiles that flashed, then fainted into moonlight, red lips and
gleaming teeth that shone, then faded out. The secret glade, picked from the
heart of the forest by the moon, became a torrent of tumultuous life, a whirlpool
of passionate emotions Time had not killed.
But it was the eyes that mastered him, for in
their yearning, mating so incongruously with the savage grace—in the eyes shone
ever tears. He was aware of gentle women, of womanhood, of accumulated feminine
power that nothing could withstand, but of feminine power in majesty, its
essential protective tenderness roused, as by tribal instinct, into a
collective fury of implacable revenge. He was, above all, aware of
motherhood—of mothers. And the man, the male, the father in him rose like a
storm to meet it.
From the torrent of voices certain sentences
emerged; sometimes chanted, sometimes driven into his whirling mind as though
big whispers thrust them down his ears. “You are with us to the end,” he
caught. “We have the proof. And punishment is ours!”
It merged in wind, others took its place:
“We hold him fast. The old gods wait and
listen.”
The body of rushing whispers flowed like a
storm-wind past.
A lovely face, fluttering close against his own,
paused an instant, and starry eyes gazed into his with a passion of gratitude,
dimming a moment their stern fury with a mother’s tenderness: “For the little
ones ... it is necessary, it is the only way.... Our own children....” The face
went out in a gust of blackness, as the chorus rose with a new note of awe and
reverence, and a score of[313] throats uttered in unison a single cry:
“The raven! The White Horses! His signs! Great Odin hears!”
He saw the great dark bird flap slowly across
the clearing, and melt against the shadow of the giant beech; he heard its
hoarse, croaking note; the crowds of heads bowed low before its passage. The
White Horses he did not see; only a sound as of considerable masses of air
regularly displaced was audible far overhead. But the veiled light, as though
great thunder-clouds had risen, he saw distinctly. The sky above the clearing
where he stood, panting and dishevelled, was blocked by a mass that owned
unusual outline. These clouds now topped the forest, hiding the moon and stars.
The flowers went out like nightlights blown. The wind rose slowly, then with
sudden violence. There was a roaring in the tree-tops. The branches tossed and
shook.
“The White Horses!” cried the voices, in a
frenzy of adoration. “He is here!”
It came swiftly, this collective mass; it was
both apt and terrible. There was an immense footstep. It was there.
Then panic seized him, he felt an answering
tumult in himself, the Past surged through him like a sea at flood. Some inner
sight, peering across the wreckage of To-day, perceived an outline that in its
size dwarfed mountains, a pair of monstrous shoulders, a face that rolled
through a full quarter of the heavens. Above the ruin of civilization, now
fulfilled in the microcosm of his own being, the menacing shadow of a forgotten
deity peered down upon the earth, yet upon one detail of it chiefly—the human
group that had been wildly dancing, but that now chanted in solemn conclave
about a forest altar.
For some minutes a dead silence reigned; the
pouring winds left emptiness in which no leaf stirred; there was a hush, a
stillness that could be felt. The kneeling figures stretched forth a level sea
of arms towards the altar; from the lowered heads the hair hung down in
torrents, against[314] which the naked flesh shone white; the
skins upon the rows of backs gleamed yellow. The obscurity deepened overhead.
It was the time of adoration. He knelt as well, arms similarly outstretched,
while the lust of vengeance burned within him.
Then came, across the stillness, the stirring of
big wings, a rustling as the great bird settled in the higher branches of the
beech. The ominous note broke through the silence; and with one accord the
shining backs were straightened. The company rose, swayed, parting into groups
and lines. Two score voices resumed the solemn chant. The throng of pallid
faces passed to and fro like great fire-flies that shone and vanished. He, too,
heard his own voice in unison, while his feet, as with instinctive knowledge,
trod the same measure that the others trod.
Out of this tumult and clearly audible above the
chorus and the rustling feet rang out suddenly, in a sweetly fluting tone, the
leader’s voice:
“The Fire! But first the hands!”
A rush of figures set instantly towards a
thicket where the underbrush stood densest. Skins, trailing flowers, bare
waving arms and tossing hair swept past on a burst of perfume. It was as though
the trees themselves sped by. And the torrent of voices shook the very air in
answer:
“The Fire! But first—the hands!”
Across this roaring volume pierced then, once
again, that wailing sound which seemed both human and non-human—the anguished
cry as of some lonely wolf in metamorphosis, apart from the collective safety
of the pack, abjectly terrified, feeling the teeth of the final trap, and
knowing the helpless feet within the steel. There was a crash of rending boughs
and tearing branches. There was a tumult in the thicket, though of brief
duration—then silence.
He stood watching, listening, overmastered by a
diabolical sensation of expectancy he knew to be atrocious. Turning in the
direction of the cry, his straining eyes[315] seemed filled with
blood; in his temples the pulses throbbed and hammered audibly. The next second
he stiffened into a stone-like rigidity, as a figure, struggling violently yet
half collapsed, was borne hurriedly past by a score of eager arms that swept it
towards the beech tree, and then proceeded to fasten it in an upright position
against the trunk. It was a man bound tight with thongs, adorned with leaves
and flowers and trailing green. The face was hidden, for the head sagged
forward on the breast, but he saw the arms forced flat against the giant trunk,
held helpless beyond all possible escape; he saw the knife, poised and aimed by
slender, graceful fingers above the victim’s wrists laid bare; he saw
the—hands.
“An eye for an eye,” he heard, “a tooth for a
tooth!” It rose in awful chorus. Yet this time, although the words roared close
about him, they seemed farther away, as if wind brought them through the
crowding trees from far off.
“Light the fire! Prepare the sacrifice!” came on
a following wind; and, while strange distance held the voices as before, a new
faint sound now audible was very close. There was a crackling. Some ten feet
beyond the tree a column of thick smoke rose in the air; he was aware of heat
not meant for modern purposes; of yellow light that was not the light of stars.
The figure writhed, and the face swung suddenly
sideways. Glaring with panic hopelessness past the judge and past the hanging knife,
the eyes found his own. There was a pause of perhaps five seconds, but in these
five seconds centuries rolled by. The priest of To-day looked down into the
well of time. For five hundred years he gazed into those twin eyeballs, glazed
with the abject terror of a last appeal. They recognized one another.
The centuries dragged appallingly. The drama of
civilization, in a sluggish stream, went slowly by, halting, meandering, losing
itself, then reappearing. Sharpest pains, as of a thousand knives, accompanied
its dreadful,[316] endless lethargy. Its million hesitations
made him suffer a million deaths of agony. Terror, despair and anger, all
futile and without effect upon its progress, destroyed a thousand times his
soul, which yet some hope—a towering, indestructible hope—a thousand times
renewed. This despair and hope alternately broke his being, ever to fashion it
anew. His torture seemed not of this world. Yet hope survived. The sluggish
stream moved onward, forward....
There came an instant of sharpest, dislocating
torture. The yellow light grew slightly brighter. He saw the eyelids flicker.
It was at this moment he realized abruptly that
he stood alone, apart from the others, unnoticed apparently, perhaps forgotten;
his feet held steady; his voice no longer sang. And at this discovery a
quivering shock ran through his being, as though the will were suddenly
loosened into a new activity, yet an activity that halted between two
terrifying alternatives.
It was as though the flicker of those eyelids
loosed a spring.
Two instincts, clashing in his being, fought
furiously for the mastery. One, ancient as this sacrifice, savage as the
legendary figure brooding in the heavens above him, battled fiercely with
another, acquired more recently in human evolution, that had not yet
crystallized into permanence. He saw a child, playing in a Kentish orchard with
toys and flowers the little innocent hands made living ... he saw a lowly
manger, figures kneeling round it, and one star shining overhead in piercing
and prophetic beauty.
Thought was impossible; he saw these symbols
only, as the two contrary instincts, alternately hidden and revealed, fought
for permanent possession of his soul. Each strove to dominate him; it seemed
that violent blows were struck that wounded physically; he was bruised, he
ached, he gasped for breath; his body swayed, held upright only, it seemed, by
the awful appeal in the fixed and staring eyes.[317]
The challenge had come at last to final action;
the conqueror, he well knew, would remain an integral portion of his character,
his soul.
It was the old, old battle, waged eternally in
every human heart, in every tribe, in every race, in every period, the
essential principle indeed, behind the great world-war. In the stress and
confusion of the fight, as the eyes of the victim, savage in victory, abject in
defeat—the appealing eyes of that animal face against the tree stared with
their awful blaze into his own, this flashed clearly over him. It was the
battle between might and right, between love and hate, forgiveness and
vengeance, Christ and the Devil. He heard the menacing thunder of “an eye for
an eye, a tooth for a tooth,” then above its angry volume rose suddenly another
small silvery voice that pierced with sweetness:—“Vengeance is mine, I will
repay ...” sang through him as with unimaginable hope.
Something became incandescent in him then. He
realized a singular merging of powers in absolute opposition to each other. It
was as though they harmonized. Yet it was through this small, silvery voice the
apparent magic came. The words, of course, were his own in memory, but they
rose from his modern soul, now reawakening.... He started painfully. He noted
again that he stood apart, alone, perhaps forgotten of the others. The woman,
leading a dancing throng about the blazing brushwood, was far from him. Her
mind, too sure of his compliance, had momentarily left him. The chain was
weakened. The circuit knew a break.
But this sudden realization was not of
spontaneous origin. His heart had not produced it of its own accord. The unholy
tumult of the orgy held him too slavishly in its awful sway for the tiny point
of his modern soul to have pierced it thus unaided. The light flashed to him
from an outside, natural source of simple loveliness—the singing of a bird.
From the distance, faint and exquisite, there had reached him the silvery notes
of a happy thrush,[318] awake in the night, and telling its joy
over and over again to itself. The innocent beauty of its song came through the
forest and fell into his soul....
The eyes, he became aware, had shifted, focusing
now upon an object nearer to them. The knife was moving. There was a convulsive
wriggle of the body, the head dropped loosely forward, no cry was audible. But,
at the same moment, the inner battle ceased and an unexpected climax came. Did
the soul of the bully faint with fear? Did the spirit leave him at the actual
touch of earthly vengeance? The watcher never knew. In that appalling moment
when the knife was about to begin the mission that the fire would complete, the
roar of inner battle ended abruptly, and that small silvery voice drew the
words of invincible power from his reawakening soul. “Ye do it also unto me
...” pealed o’er the forest.
He reeled. He acted instantaneously. Yet before
he had dashed the knife from the hand of the executioner, scattered the pile of
blazing wood, plunged through the astonished worshippers with a violence of
strength that amazed even himself; before he had torn the thongs apart and
loosened the fainting victim from the tree; before he had uttered a single word
or cry, though it seemed to him he roared with a voice of thousands—he
witnessed a sight that came surely from the Heaven of his earliest childhood
days, from that Heaven whose God is love and whose forgiveness was taught him
at his mother’s knee.
With superhuman rapidity it passed before him
and was gone. Yet it was no earthly figure that emerged from the forest, ran
with this incredible swiftness past the startled throng, and reached the tree.
He saw the shape; the same instant it was there; wrapped in light, as though a
flame from the sacrificial fire flashed past him over the ground. It was of an
incandescent brightness, yet brightest of all were the little outstretched
hands. These were of purest gold, of a brilliance incredibly shining.
It was no earthly child that stretched forth
these arms[319] of
generous forgiveness and took the bewildered prisoner by the hand just as the
knife descended and touched the helpless wrists. The thongs were already
loosened, and the victim, fallen to his knees, looked wildly this way and that
for a way of possible escape, when the shining hands were laid upon his own.
The murderer rose. Another instant and the throng must have been upon him,
tearing him limb from limb. But the radiant little face looked down into his
own; she raised him to his feet; with superhuman swiftness she led him through
the infuriated concourse as though he had become invisible, guiding him safely
past the furies into the cover of the trees. Close before his eyes, this
happened; he saw the waft of golden brilliance, he heard the final gulp of it,
as wind took the dazzling of its fiery appearance into space. They were
gone....
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He stood watching the disappearing motor-cars,
wondering uneasily who the occupants were and what their business, whither and
why did they hurry so swiftly through the night? He was still trying to light
his pipe, but the damp tobacco would not burn.
The air stole out of the forest, cooling his
body and his mind; he saw the anemones gleam; there was only peace and calm
about him, the earth lay waiting for the sweet, mysterious stars. The moon was
higher; he looked up; a late bird sang. Three strips of cloud, spaced far
apart, were the footsteps of the South Wind, as she flew to bring more birds
from Africa. His thoughts turned to gentle, happy hopes of a day when the lion
and the lamb should lie down together, and a little child should lead them.
War, in this haunt of ancient peace, seemed an incredible anachronism.
He did not go farther; he did not enter the
forest; he turned back along the quiet road he had come, ate his food on a
farmer’s gate, and over a pipe sat dreaming of his[320] sure belief that
humanity had advanced. He went home to his hotel soon after midnight. He slept well,
and next day walked back the four miles from the hospitals, instead of using
the car. Another hospital searcher walked with him. They discussed the news.
“The weather’s better anyhow,” said his
companion. “In our favour at last!”
“That’s something,” he agreed, as they passed a
gang of prisoners and crossed the road to avoid saluting.
“Been another escape, I hear,” the other
mentioned. “He won’t get far. How on earth do they manage it? The M.O. had a
yarn that he was helped by a motor-car. I wonder what they’ll do to him.”
“Oh, nothing much. Bread and water and extra
work, I suppose?”
The other laughed. “I’m not so sure,” he said
lightly. “Humanity hasn’t advanced very much in that kind of thing.”
A fugitive memory flashed for an instant through
the other’s brain as he listened. He had an odd feeling for a second that he
had heard this conversation before somewhere. A ghostly sense of familiarity
brushed his mind, then vanished. At dinner that night the table in front of him
was unoccupied. He did not, however, notice that it was unoccupied.
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