THE NINTH VIBRATION
AND OTHER STORIES
by L. Adams Beck
Contents
2.THE INTERPRETER A ROMANCE OF THE EAST 6.THE BUILDING OF THE TAJ MAHAL |
There is a place
uplifted nine thousand feet in purest air where one of the most ancient tracks
in the world runs from India into Tibet. It leaves Simla of the Imperial
councils by a stately road; it passes beyond, but now narrowing, climbing higher
beside the khuds or steep drops to the precipitous valleys beneath, and the
rumor of Simla grows distant and the way is quiet, for, owing to the danger of
driving horses above the khuds, such baggage as you own must be carried by
coolies, and you yourself must either ride on horseback or in the little
horseless carriage of the Orient, here drawn and pushed by four men. And
presently the deodars darken the way with a solemn presence, for—
“These
are the Friars of the wood,
The
Brethren of the Solitude
Hooded
and grave—”
their breath most
austerely pure in the gradually chilling air. Their companies increase and now
the way is through a great wood where it has become a trail and no more, and
still it climbs for many miles and finally a rambling bungalow, small and low,
is sighted in the deeps of the trees, a mountain stream from unknown heights
falling beside it. And this is known as the House in the Woods. Very few people
are permitted to go there, for the owner has no care for money and makes no provision
for guests. You must take your own servant and the khansamah will cook you such
simple food as men expect in the wilds, and that is all. You stay as long as
you please and when you leave not even a gift to the khansamah is permitted.
I had been staying in
Ranipur of the plains while I considered the question of getting to Upper
Kashmir by the route from Simla along the old way to Chinese Tibet where I
would touch Shipki in the Dalai Lama’s territory and then pass on to Zanskar
and so down to Kashmir—a tremendous route through the Himalaya and a crowning
experience of the mightiest mountain scenery in the world. I was at Ranipur for
the purpose of consulting my old friend Olesen, now an irrigation official in
the Rampur district—a man who had made this journey and nearly lost his life in
doing it. It is not now perhaps so dangerous as it was, and my life was of no
particular value to any one but myself, and the plan interested me.
I pass over the long
discussions of ways and means in the blinding heat of Ranipur. Olesen put all
his knowledge at my service and never uttered a word of the envy that must have
filled him as he looked at the distant snows cool and luminous in blue air,
and, shrugging good-natured shoulders, spoke of the work that lay before him on
the burning plains until the terrible summer should drag itself to a close. We
had vanquished the details and were smoking in comparative silence one night on
the veranda, when he said in his slow reflective way;
“You don’t like the
average hotel, Ormond, and you’ll like it still less up Simla way with all the
Simla crowd of grass-widows and fellows out for as good a time as they can cram
into the hot weather. I wonder if I could get you a permit for The House in the
Woods while you re waiting to fix up your men and route for Shipki.”
He explained and of
course I jumped at the chance. It belonged, he said, to a man named Rup Singh,
a pandit, or learned man of Ranipur. He had always spent the summer there, but
age and failing health made this impossible now, and under certain conditions
he would occasionally allow people known to friends of his own to put up there.
“And Rup Singh and I are
very good friends,” Olesen said; “I won his heart by discovering the lost Sukh
Mandir, or Hall of Pleasure, built many centuries ago by a Maharao of Ranipur
for a summer retreat in the great woods far beyond Simla. There are lots of
legends about it here in Ranipur. They call it The House of Beauty. Rup Singh’s
ancestor had been a close friend of the Maharao and was with him to the end,
and that’s why he himself sets such store on the place. You have a good chance
if I ask for a permit.
“He told me the story
and since it is the heart of my own I give it briefly. Many centuries ago the
Ranipur Kingdom was ruled by the Maharao Rai Singh a prince of the great lunar
house of the Rajputs. Expecting a bride from some far away kingdom (the name of
this is unrecorded) he built the Hall of Pleasure as a summer palace, a house
of rare and costly beauty. A certain great chamber he lined with carved figures
of the Gods and their stories, almost unsurpassed for truth and life. So, with
the pine trees whispering about it the secret they sigh to tell, he hoped to
create an earthly Paradise with this Queen in whom all loveliness was perfected.
And then some mysterious tragedy ended all his hopes. It was rumoured that when
the Princess came to his court, she was, by some terrible mistake, received
with insult and offered the position only of one of his women. After that
nothing was known. Certain only is it that he fled to the hills, to the home of
his broken hope, and there ended his days in solitude, save for the attendance
of two faithful friends who would not abandon him even in the ghostly quiet of
the winter when the pine boughs were heavy with snow and a spectral moon stared
at the panthers shuffling through the white wastes beneath. Of these two Rup
Singh’s ancestor was one. And in his thirty fifth year the Maharao died and his
beauty and strength passed into legend and his kingdom was taken by another and
the jungle crept silently over his Hall of Pleasure and the story ended.
“There was not a memory
of the place up there,” Olesen went on. “Certainly I never heard anything of it
when I went up to the Shipki in 1904. But I had been able to be useful to Rup
Singh and he gave me a permit for The House in the Woods, and I stopped there
for a few days’ shooting. I remember that day so well. I was wandering in the
dense woods while my men got their midday grub, and I missed the trail somehow
and found myself in a part where the trees were dark and thick and the silence
heavy as lead. It was as if the trees were on guard—they stood shoulder to
shoulder and stopped the way. Well, I halted, and had a notion there was
something beyond that made me doubt whether to go on. I must have stood there
five minutes hesitating. Then I pushed on, bruising the thick ferns under my
shooting boots and stooping under the knotted boughs. Suddenly I tramped out of
the jungle into a clearing, and lo and behold a ruined House, with blocks of
marble lying all about it, and carved pillars and a great roof all being slowly
smothered by the jungle. The weirdest thing you ever saw. I climbed some fallen
columns to get a better look, and as I did I saw a face flash by at the arch of
a broken window. I sang out in Hindustani, but no answer: only the echo from
the woods. Somehow that dampened my ardour, and I didn’t go in to what seemed
like a great ruined hall for the place was so eerie and lonely, and looked
mighty snaky into the bargain. So I came ingloriously away and told Rup Singh.
And his whole face changed. ‘That is The House of Beauty,’ he said. ‘All my
life have I sought it and in vain. For, friend of my soul, a man must lose
himself that he may find himself and what lies beyond, and the trodden path has
ever been my doom. And you who have not sought have seen. Most strange are the
way of the Gods’. Later on I knew this was why he had always gone up yearly,
thinking and dreaming God knows what. He and I tried for the place together,
but in vain and the whole thing is like a dream. Twice he has let friends of
mine stay at The House in the Woods, and I think he won’t refuse now.”
“Did he ever tell you
the story?”
“Never. I only know what
I’ve picked up here. Some horrible mistake about the Rani that drove the man
almost mad with remorse. I’ve heard bits here and there. There’s nothing so
vital as tradition in India.”
“I wonder’. what really
happened.”
“That we shall never
know. I got a little old picture of the Maharao—said to be painted by a Pahari
artist. It’s not likely to be authentic, but you never can tell. A Brahman sold
it to me that he might complete his daughter’s dowry, and hated doing it.”
“May I see it?”
“Why certainly. Not a
very good light, but—can do,” as the Chinks say.
He brought it out rolled
in silk stuff and I carried it under the hanging lamp. A beautiful young man
indeed, with the air of race these people have beyond all others;—a cold
haughty face, immovably dignified. He sat with his hands resting lightly on the
arms of his chair of State. A crescent of rubies clasped the folds of the
turban and from this sprang an aigrette scattering splendours. The magnificent
hilt of a sword was ready beside him. The face was not only beautiful but
arresting.
“A strange picture,” I
said. “The artist has captured the man himself. I can see him trampling on any
one who opposed him, and suffering in the same cold secret way. It ought to be
authentic if it isn’t. Don’t you know any more?”
“Nothing. Well—to bed,
and tomorrow I’ll see Rup Singh.”
I was glad when he
returned with the permission. I was to be very careful, he said, to make no
allusion to the lost palace, for two women were staying at the House in the
Woods—a mother and daughter to whom Rup Singh had granted hospitality because
of an obligation he must honor. But with true Oriental distrust of women he had
thought fit to make no confidence to them. I promised and asked Olesen if he
knew them.
“Slightly. Canadians of
Danish blood like my own. Their name is Ingmar. Some people think the daughter
good-looking. The mother is supposed to be clever; keen on occult subjects
which she came back to India to study. The husband was a great naturalist and
the kindest of men. He almost lived in the jungle and the natives had all sorts
of rumours about his powers. You know what they are. They said the birds and
beasts followed him about. Any old thing starts a legend.”
“What was the connection
with Rup Singh?”
“He was in difficulties
and undeservedly, and Ingmar generously lent him money at a critical time,
trusting to his honour for repayment. Like most Orientals he never forgets a
good turn and would do anything for any of the family—except trust the women
with any secret he valued. The father is long dead. By the way Rup Singh gave
me a queer message for you. He said; ‘Tell the Sahib these words—“Let him who
finds water in the desert share his cup with him who dies of thirst.” He is
certainly getting very old. I don’t suppose he knew himself what he meant.”
I certainly did not.
However my way was thus smoothed for me and I took the upward road, leaving
Olesen to the long ungrateful toil of the man who devotes his life to India
without sufficient time or knowledge to make his way to the inner chambers of
her beauty. There is no harder mistress unless you hold the pass-key to her
mysteries, there is none of whom so little can be told in words but who kindles
so deep a passion. Necessity sometimes takes me from that enchanted land, but
when the latest dawns are shining in my skies I shall make my feeble way back
to her and die at her worshipped feet. So I went up from Kalka.
I have never liked
Simla. It is beautiful enough—eight thousand feet up in the grip of the great
hills looking toward the snows, the famous summer home of the Indian
Government. Much diplomacy is whispered on Observatory Hill and many are the
lighter diversions of which Mr. Kipling and lesser men have written. But Simla
is also a gateway to many things—to the mighty deodar forests that clothe the
foot-hills of the mountains, to Kulu, to the eternal snows, to the old, old
bridle way that leads up to the Shipki Pass and the mysteries of Tibet—and to
the strange things told in this story. So I passed through with scarcely a
glance at the busy gayety of the little streets and the tiny shops where the
pretty ladies buy their rouge and powder. I was attended by my servant Ali
Khan, a Mohammedan from Nagpur, sent up with me by Olesen with strong
recommendation. He was a stout walker, so too am I, and an inveterate dislike
to the man-drawn carriage whenever my own legs would serve me decided me to
walk the sixteen miles to the House in the Woods, sending on the baggage. Ali
Khan despatched it and prepared to follow me, the fine cool air of the hills
giving us a zest.
“Subhan Alla! (Praise be
to God!) the air is sweet!” he said, stepping out behind me. “What time does
the Sahib look to reach the House?”
“About five or six. Now,
Ali Khan, strike out of the road. You know the way.”
So we struck up into the
glorious pine woods, mountains all about us. Here and there as we climbed
higher was a little bank of forgotten snow, but spring had triumphed and
everywhere was the waving grace of maiden-hair ferns, banks of violets and
strangely beautiful little wild flowers. These woods are full of panthers, but
in day time the only precaution necessary is to take no dog,—a dainty they
cannot resist. The air was exquisite with the sun-warm scent of pines, and here
and there the trees broke away disclosing mighty ranges of hills covered with
rich blue shadows like the bloom on a plum,—the clouds chasing the sunshine
over the mountain sides and the dark green velvet of the robe of pines. I
looked across ravines that did not seem gigantic and yet the villages on the
other side were like a handful of peas, so tremendous was the scale. I stood
now and then to see the rhododendrons, forest trees here with great trunks and
massive boughs glowing with blood-red blossom, and time went by and I took no
count of it, so glorious was the climb.
It must have been hours
later when it struck me that the sun was getting low and that by now we should
be nearing The House in the Woods. I said as much to Ali Khan. He looked
perplexed and agreed. We had reached a comparatively level place, the trail
faint but apparent, and it surprised me that we heard no sound of life from the
dense wood where our goal must be.
“I know not, Presence,”
he said. “May his face be blackened that directed me. I thought surely I could
not miss the way, and yet-”
We cast back and could
see no trail forking from the one we were on. There was nothing for it but to
trust to luck and push on. But I began to be uneasy and so was the man. I had
stupidly forgotten to unpack my revolver, and worse, we had no food, and the
mountain air is an appetiser, and at night the woods have their dangers, apart
from being absolutely trackless. We had not met a living being since we left
the road and there seemed no likelihood of asking for directions. I stopped no
longer for views but went steadily on, Ali Khan keeping up a running fire of
low-voiced invocations and lamentations. And now it was dusk and the position
decidedly unpleasant.
It was at that moment I
saw a woman before us walking lightly and steadily under the pines. She must
have struck into the trail from the side for she never could have kept before
us all the way. A native woman, but wearing the all-concealing boorka, more
like a town dweller than a woman of the hills. I put on speed and Ali Khan, now
very tired, toiled on behind me as I came up with her and courteously asked the
way. Her face was entirely hidden, but the answering voice was clear and sweet.
I made up my mind she was young, for it had the bird-like thrill of youth.
“If the Presence
continues to follow this path he will arrive. It is not far. They wait for
him.”
That was all. It left me
with a desire to see the veiled face. We passed on and Ali Khan looked
fearfully back.
“Ajaib! (Wonderful!) A
strange place to meet one of the purdah-nashin (veiled women)” he muttered.
“What would she be doing up here in the heights? She walked like a Khanam
(khan’s wife) and I saw the gleam of gold under the boorka.”
I turned with some
curiosity as he spoke, and lo! there was no human being in sight. She had
disappeared from the track behind us and it was impossible to say where. The
darkening trees were beginning to hold the dusk and it seemed unimaginable that
a woman should leave the way and take to the dangers of the woods.
“Puna-i-Khoda—God
protect us!” said Ali Khan in a shuddering whisper. “She was a devil of the
wilds. Press on, Sahib. We should not be here in the dark.”
There was nothing else
to do. We made the best speed we could, and the trees grew more dense and the
trail fainter between the close trunks, and so the night came bewildering with
the expectation that we must pass the night unfed and unarmed in the cold of
the heights. They might send out a search party from The House in the
Woods—that was still a hope, if there were no other. And then, very gradually
and wonderfully the moon dawned over the tree tops and flooded the wood with
mysterious silver lights and about her rolled the majesty of the stars. We
pressed on into the heart of the night. From the dense black depths we emerged
at last. An open glade lay before us—the trees falling back to right and left
to disclose—what?
A long low house of
marble, unlit, silent, bathed in pale splendour and shadow. About it stood
great deodars, clothed in clouds of the white blossoming clematis, ghostly and
still. Acacias hung motionless trails of heavily scented bloom as if carved in
ivory. It was all silent as death. A flight of nobly sculptured steps led up to
a broad veranda and a wide open door with darkness behind it. Nothing more.
I forced myself to shout
in Hindustani—the cry seeming a brutal outrage upon the night, and an echo came
back numbed in the black woods. I tried once more and in vain. We stood
absorbed also into the silence.
“Ya Alla! it is a house
of the dead!” whispered Ali Khan, shuddering at my shoulder,—and even as the words
left his lips I understood where we were. “It is the Sukh Mandir.” I said. “It
is the House of the Maharao of Ranipur.”
It was impossible to be
in Ranipur and hear nothing of the dead house of the forest and Ali Khan had
heard—God only knows what tales. In his terror all discipline, all the inborn
respect of the native forsook him, and without word or sign he turned and fled
along the track, crashing through the forest blind and mad with fear. It would
have been insanity to follow him, and in India the first rule of life is that
the Sahib shows no fear, so I left him to his fate whatever it might be,
believing at the same time that a little reflection and dread of the lonely
forest would bring him to heel quickly.
I stood there and the
stillness flowed like water about me. It was as though I floated upon it—bathed
in quiet. My thoughts adjusted themselves. Possibly it was not the Sukh Mandir.
Olesen had spoken of ruin. I could see none. At least it was shelter from the
chill which is always present at these heights when the sun sets,—and it was
beautiful as a house not made with hands. There was a sense of awe but no fear
as I went slowly up the great steps and into the gloom beyond and so gained the
hall.
The moon went with me
and from a carven arch filled with marble tracery rained radiance that revealed
and hid. Pillars stood about me, wonderful with horses ramping forward as in
the Siva Temple at Vellore. They appeared to spring from the pillars into the
gloom urged by invisible riders, the effect barbarously rich and strange—motion
arrested, struck dumb in a violent gesture, and behind them impenetrable
darkness. I could not see the end of this hall—for the moon did not reach it,
but looking up I beheld the walls fretted in great panels into the utmost
splendour of sculpture, encircling the stories of the Gods amid a twining and
under-weaving of leaves and flowers. It was more like a temple than a dwelling.
Siva, as Nataraja the Cosmic Dancer, the Rhythm of the Universe, danced before
me, flinging out his arms in the passion of creation. Kama, the Indian Eros,
bore his bow strung with honey-sweet black bees that typify the heart’s desire.
Krishna the Beloved smiled above the herd-maidens adoring at his feet. Ganesha
the Elephant-Headed, sat in massive calm, wreathing his wise trunk about him.
And many more. But all these so far as I could see tended to one centre panel
larger than any, representing two life-size figures of a dim beauty. At first I
could scarcely distinguish one from the other in the upward-reflected light,
and then, even as I stood, the moving moon revealed the two as if floating in
vapor. At once I recognized the subject—I had seen it already in the ruined
temple of Ranipur, though the details differed. Parvati, the Divine Daughter of
the Himalaya, the Emanation of the mighty mountains, seated upon a throne,
listening to a girl who played on a Pan pipe before her. The goddess sat, her
chin leaned upon her hand, her shoulders slightly inclined in a pose of gentle
sweetness, looking down upon the girl at her feet, absorbed in the music of the
hills and lonely places. A band of jewels, richly wrought, clasped the veil on
her brows, and below the bare bosom a glorious girdle clothed her with loops
and strings and tassels of jewels that fell to her knees—her only garment.
The girl was a lovely
image of young womanhood, the proud swell of the breast tapering to the slim
waist and long limbs easily folded as she half reclined at the divine feet, her
lips pressed to the pipe. Its silent music mysteriously banished fear. The
sleep must be sweet indeed that would come under the guardianship of these two
fair creatures—their gracious influence was dewy in the air. I resolved that I
would spend the night beside them. Now with the march of the moon dim vistas of
the walls beyond sprang into being. Strange mythologies—the incarnations of
Vishnu the Preserver, the Pastoral of Krishna the Beautiful. I promised myself
that next day I would sketch some of the loveliness about me. But the moon was
passing on her way—I folded the coat I carried into a pillow and lay down at
the feet of the goddess and her nymph. Then a moonlit quiet I slept in a dream
of peace.
Sleep annihilates time.
Was it long or short when I woke like a man floating up to the surface from
tranquil deeps? That I cannot tell, but once more I possessed myself and every
sense was on guard.
My hearing first. Bare
feet were coming, falling softly as leaves, but unmistakable. There was a dim
whispering but I could hear no word. I rose on my elbow and looked down the
long hall. Nothing. The moonlight lay in pools of light and seas of shadow on
the floor, and the feet drew nearer. Was I afraid? I cannot tell, but a deep
expectation possessed me as the sound grew like the rustle of grasses parted in
a fluttering breeze, and now a girl came swiftly up the steps, irradiate in the
moonlight, and passing up the hall stood beside me. I could see her robe, her
feet bare from the jungle, but her face wavered and changed and re-united like
the face of a dream woman. I could not fix it for one moment, yet knew this was
the messenger for whom I had waited all my life—for whom one strange
experience, not to be told at present, had prepared me in early manhood. Words
came, and I said:
“Is this a dream?”
“No. We meet in the
Ninth Vibration. All here is true.”
“Is a dream never true?”
“Sometimes it is the
echo of the Ninth Vibration and therefore a harmonic of truth. You are awake
now. It is the day-time that is the sleep of the soul. You are in the Lower
Perception, wherein the truth behind the veil of what men call Reality is
perceived.”
“Can I ascend?”
“I cannot tell. That is
for you, not me.
“What do I perceive
tonight?”
“The Present as it is in
the Eternal. Say no more. Come with me.”
She stretched her hand
and took mine with the assurance of a goddess, and we went up the hall where
the night had been deepest between the great pillars.
Now it is very clear to
me that in every land men, when the doors of perception are opened, will see
what we call the Supernatural clothed in the image in which that country has
accepted it. Blake, the mighty mystic, will see the Angels of the Revelation,
driving their terrible way above Lambeth—it is not common nor unclean. The
fisherman, plying his coracle on the Thames will behold the consecration of the
great new Abbey of Westminster celebrated with mass and chant and awful lights
in the dead mid-noon of night by that Apostle who is the Rock of the Church.
Before him who wanders in Thessaly Pan will brush the dewy lawns and slim-girt
Artemis pursue the flying hart. In the pale gold of Egyptian sands the heavy
brows of Osiris crowned with the pshent will brood above the seer and the veil
of Isis tremble to the lifting. For all this is the rhythm to which the souls
of men are attuned and in that vibration they will see, and no other, since in
this the very mountains and trees of the land are rooted. So here, where our
remote ancestors worshipped the Gods of Nature, we must needs stand before the
Mystic Mother of India, the divine daughter of the Himalaya.
How shall I describe the
world we entered? The carvings upon the walls had taken life—they had
descended. It was a gathering of the dreams men have dreamed here of the Gods,
yet most real and actual. They watched in a serenity that set them apart in an
atmosphere of their own—forms of indistinct majesty and august beauty,
absolute, simple, and everlasting. I saw them as one sees reflections in
rippled water—no more. But all faces turned to the place where now a green and
flowering leafage enshrined and partly hid the living Nature Goddess, as she
listened to a voice that was not dumb to me. I saw her face only in glimpses of
an indescribable sweetness, but an influence came from her presence like the
scent of rainy pine forests, the coolness that breathes from great rivers, the
passion of Spring when she breaks on the world with a wave of flowers. Healing
and life flowed from it. Understanding also. It seemed I could interpret the
very silence of the trees outside into the expression of their inner life, the
running of the green life-blood in their veins, the delicate trembling of their
finger-tips.
My companion and I were
not heeded. We stood hand in hand like children who have innocently strayed
into a palace, gazing in wonderment. The august life went its way upon its own
occasions, and, if we would, we might watch. Then the voice, clear and cold,
proceeding, as it were, with some story begun before we had strayed into the
Presence, the whole assembly listening in silence.
“—and as it has been so
it will be, for the Law will have the blind soul carried into a body which is a
record of the sins it has committed, and will not suffer that soul to escape
from rebirth into bodies until it has seen the truth—”
And even as this was
said and I listened, knowing myself on the verge of some great knowledge, I
felt sleep beginning to weigh upon my eyelids. The sound blurred, flowed
unsyllabled as a stream, the girl’s hand grew light in mine; she was fading,
becoming unreal; I saw her eyes like faint stars in a mist. They were gone.
Arms seemed to receive me—to lay me to sleep and I sank below consciousness,
and the night took me.
When I awoke the radiant
arrows of the morning were shooting into the long hall where I lay, but as I
rose and looked about me, strange—most strange, ruin encircled me everywhere.
The blue sky was the roof. What I had thought a palace lost in the jungle, fit
to receive its King should he enter, was now a broken hall of State; the
shattered pillars were festooned with waving weeds, the many coloured lantana
grew between the fallen blocks of marble. Even the sculptures on the walls were
difficult to decipher. Faintly I could trace a hand, a foot, the orb of a
woman’s bosom, the gracious outline of some young God, standing above a crouching
worshipper. No more. Yes, and now I saw above me as the dawn touched it the
form of the Dweller in the Windhya Hills, Parvati the Beautiful, leaning softly
over something breathing music at her feet. Yet I knew I could trace the almost
obliterated sculpture only because I had already seen it defined in perfect
beauty. A deep crack ran across the marble; it was weathered and stained by
many rains, and little ferns grew in the crevices, but I could reconstruct
every line from my own knowledge. And how? The Parvati of Ranipur differed in
many important details. She stood, bending forward, wheras this sweet Lady sat.
Her attendants were small satyr-like spirits of the wilds, piping and fluting,
in place of the reclining maiden. The sweeping scrolls of a great halo
encircled her whole person. Then how could I tell what this nearly obliterated
carving had been? I groped for the answer and could not find it. I doubted—
“Were
such things here as we do speak about?
Or have
we eaten of the insane root
That
takes the reason captive?”
Memory rushed over me
like the sea over dry sands. A girl—there had been a girl—we had stood with
clasped hands to hear a strange music, but in spite of the spiritual intimacy
of those moments I could not recall her face. I saw it cloudy against a
background of night and dream, the eyes remote as stars, and so it eluded me.
Only her presence and her words survived; “We meet in the Ninth Vibration. All
here is true.” But the Ninth Vibration itself was dream-land. I had never heard
the phrase—I could not tell what was meant, nor whether my apprehension was
true or false. I knew only that the night had taken her and the dawn denied
her, and that, dream or no dream, I stood there with a pang of loss that even
now leaves me wordless.
A bird sang outside in
the acacias, clear and shrill for day, and this awakened my senses and lowered
me to the plane where I became aware of cold and hunger, and was chilled with
dew. I passed down the tumbled steps that had been a stately ascent the night
before and made my way into the jungle by the trail, small and lost in fern, by
which we had come. Again I wandered, and it was high noon before I heard mule
bells at a distance, and, thus guided, struck down through the green tangle to
find myself, wearied but safe, upon the bridle way that leads to Fagu and the
far Shipki. Two coolies then directed me to The House in the Woods.
All was anxiety there.
Ali Khan had arrived in the night, having found his way under the guidance of
blind flight and fear. He had brought the news that I was lost in the jungle
and amid the dwellings of demons. It was, of course, hopeless to search in the
dark, though the khansamah and his man had gone as far as they dared with
lanterns and shouting, and with the daylight they tried again and were even now
away. It was useless to reproach the man even if I had cared to do so. His
ready plea was that as far as men were concerned he was as brave as any (which
was true enough as I had reason to know later) but that when it came to devilry
the Twelve Imaums themselves would think twice before facing it.
“Inshalla ta-Alla! (If
the sublime God wills!) this unworthy one will one day show the Protector of
the poor, that he is a respectable person and no coward, but it is only the
Sahibs who laugh in the face of devils.”
He went off to prepare
me some food, consumed with curiosity as to my adventures, and when I had eaten
I found my tiny whitewashed cell, for the room was little more, and slept for
hours.
Late in the afternoon I
waked and looked out. A low but glowing sunlight suffused the wild garden
reclaimed from the strangle-hold of the jungle and hemmed in with rocks and
forest. A few simple flowers had been planted here and there, but its chief
beauty was a mountain stream, brown and clear as the eyes of a dog, that fell
from a crag above into a rocky basin, maidenhair ferns growing in such masses
about it that it was henceforward scarcely more than a woodland voice. Beside
it two great deodars spread their canopies, and there a woman sat in a low
chair, a girl beside her reading aloud. She had thrown her hat off and the
sunshine turned her massed dark hair to bronze. That was all I could see. I
went out and joined them, taking the note of introduction which Olesen had
given me.
I pass over the
unessentials of my story; their friendly greetings and sympathy for my
adventure. It set us at ease at once and I knew my stay would be the happier
for their presence though it is not every woman one would choose as a companion
in the great mountain country. But what is germane to my purpose must be told,
and of this a part is the personality of Brynhild Ingmar. That she was
beautiful I never doubted, though I have heard it disputed and smiled inwardly
as the disputants urged lip and cheek and shades of rose and lily, weighing and
appraising. Let me describe her as I saw her or, rather, as I can, adding that
even without all this she must still have been beautiful because of the deep
significance to those who had eyes to see or feel some mysterious element which
mingled itself with her presence comparable only to the delight which the power
and spiritual essence of Nature inspires in all but the dullest minds. I know I
cannot hope to convey this in words. It means little if I say I thought of all
quiet lovely solitary things when I looked into her calm eyes,—that when she
moved it was like clear springs renewed by flowing, that she seemed the perfect
flowering of a day in June, for these are phrases. Does Nature know her wonders
when she shines in her strength? Does a woman know the infinite meanings her
beauty may have for the beholder? I cannot tell. Nor can I tell if I saw this
girl as she may have seemed to those who read only the letter of the book and
are blind to its spirit, or in the deepest sense as she really was in the sight
of That which created her and of which she was a part. Surely it is a proof of
the divinity of love that in and for a moment it lifts the veil of so-called
reality and shows each to the other mysteriously perfect and inspiring as the
world will never see them, but as they exist in the Eternal, and in the sight
of those who have learnt that the material is but the dream, and the vision of
love the truth.
I will say then, for the
alphabet of what I knew but cannot tell, that she had the low broad brows of a
Greek Nature Goddess, the hair swept back wing-like from the temples and massed
with a noble luxuriance. It lay like rippled bronze, suggesting something
strong and serene in its essence. Her eyes were clear and gray as water, the
mouth sweetly curved above a resolute chin. It was a face which recalled a
modelling in marble rather than the charming pastel and aquarelle of a young
woman’s colouring, and somehow I thought of it less as the beauty of a woman
than as some sexless emanation of natural things, and this impression was
strengthened by her height and the long limbs, slender and strong as those of
some youth trained in the pentathlon, subject to the severest discipline until
all that was superfluous was fined away and the perfect form expressing the
true being emerged. The body was thus more beautiful than the face, and I may
note in passing that this is often the case, because the face is more directly
the index of the restless and unhappy soul within and can attain true beauty
only when the soul is in harmony with its source.
She was a little like
her pale and wearied mother. She might resemble her still more when the sorrow
of this world that worketh death should have had its will of her. I had yet to
learn that this would never be—that she had found the open door of escape.
We three spent much time
together in the days that followed. I never tired of their company and I think
they did not tire of mine, for my wanderings through the world and my studies
in the ancient Indian literatures and faiths with the Pandit Devaswami were of
interest to them both though in entirely different ways. Mrs. Ingmar was a
woman who centred all her interests in books and chiefly in the scientific
forms of occult research. She was no believer in anything outside the range of
what she called human experience. The evidences had convinced her of nothing
but a force as yet unclassified in the scientific categories and all her
interest lay in the undeveloped powers of brain which might be discovered in
the course of ignorant and credulous experiment. We met therefore on the common
ground of rejection of the so-called occultism of the day, though I knew even
then, and how infinitely better now, that her constructions were wholly
misleading.
Nearly all day she would
lie in her chair under the deodars by the delicate splash and ripple of the
stream. Living imprisoned in the crystal sphere of the intellect she saw the
world outside, painted in few but distinct colours, small, comprehensible,
moving on a logical orbit. I never knew her posed for an explanation. She had
the contented atheism of a certain type of French mind and found as much ease
in it as another kind of sweet woman does in her rosary and confessional.
“I cannot interest
Brynhild,” she said, when I knew her better. “She has no affinity with science.
She is simply a nature worshipper, and in such places as this she seems to draw
life from the inanimate life about her. I have sometimes wondered whether she
might not be developed into a kind of bridge between the articulate and the
inarticulate, so well does she understand trees and flowers. Her father was
like that—he had all sorts of strange power with animals and plants, and
thought he had more than he had. He could never realize that the energy of
nature is merely mechanical.”
“You think all energy is
mechanical?”
“Certainly. We shall lay
our finger on the mainspring one day and the mystery will disappear. But as for
Brynhild—I gave her the best education possible and yet she has never understood
the conception of a universe moving on mathematical laws to which we must
submit in body and mind. She has the oddest ideas. I would not willingly say of
a child of mine that she is a mystic, and yet—”
She shook her head
compassionately. But I scarcely heard. My eyes were fixed on Brynhild, who
stood apart, looking steadily out over the snows. It was a glorious sunset, the
west vibrating with gorgeous colour spilt over in torrents that flooded the
sky, Terrible splendours—hues for which we have no thought—no name. I had not
thought of it as music until I saw her face but she listened as well as saw,
and her expression changed as it changes when the pomp of a great orchestra
breaks upon the silence. It flashed to the chords of blood-red and gold that was
burning fire. It softened through the fugue of woven crimson gold and flame, to
the melancholy minor of ashes-of-roses and paling green, and so through all the
dying glories that faded slowly to a tranquil grey and left the world to the
silver melody of one sole star that dawned above the ineffable heights of the
snows. Then she listened as a child does to a bird, entranced, with a smile
like a butterfly on her parted lips. I never saw such a power of quiet.
She and I were walking
next day among the forest ways, the pine-scented sunshine dappling the dropped
frondage. We had been speaking of her mother. “It is such a misfortune for
her,” she said thoughtfully, “that I am not clever. She should have had a
daughter who could have shared her thoughts. She analyses everything, reasons
about everything, and that is quite out of my reach.”
She moved beside me with
her wonderful light step—the poise and balance of a nymph in the Parthenon
frieze.
“How do you see things?”
“See? That is the right
word. I see things—I never reason about them. They are. For her they move like
figures in a sum. For me every one of them is a window through which one may
look to what is beyond.”
“To where?”
“To what they really
are—not what they seem.”
I looked at her with
interest.
“Did you ever hear of
the double vision?”
For this is a subject on
which the spiritually learned men of India, like the great mystics of all the
faiths, have much to say. I had listened with bewilderment and doubt to the
expositions of my Pandit on this very head. Her simple words seemed for a
moment the echo of his deep and searching thought. Yet it surely could not be.
Impossible.
“Never. What does it
mean?” She raised clear unveiled eyes. “You must forgive me for being so
stupid, but it is my mother who is at home with all these scientific phrases. I
know none of them.”
“It means that for some
people the material universe—the things we see with our eyes—is only a mirage,
or say, a symbol, which either hides or shadows forth the eternal truth. And in
that sense they see things as they really are, not as they seem to the rest of
us. And whether this is the statement of a truth or the wildest of dreams, I
cannot tell.”
She did not answer for a
moment; then said;
“Are there people who
believe this—know it?”
“Certainly. There are
people who believe that thought is the only real thing—that the whole universe
is thought made visible. That we create with our thoughts the very body by
which we shall re-act on the universe in lives to be.
“Do you believe it?”
“I don’t know. Do you?”
She paused; looked at
me, and then went on:
“You see, I don’t think
things out. I only feel. But this cannot interest you.”
I felt she was eluding
the question. She began to interest me more than any one I had ever known. She
had extraordinary power of a sort. Once, in the woods, where I was reading in
so deep a shade that she never saw me, I had an amazing vision of her. She
stood in a glade with the sunlight and shade about her; she had no hat and a
sunbeam turned her hair to pale bronze. A small bright April shower was falling
through the sun, and she stood in pure light that reflected itself in every
leaf and grass-blade. But it was nothing of all this that arrested me,
beautiful as it was. She stood as though life were for the moment suspended;—then,
very softly, she made a low musical sound, infinitely wooing, from scarcely
parted lips, and instantly I saw a bird of azure plumage flutter down and
settle on her shoulder, pluming himself there in happy security. Again she
called softly and another followed the first. Two flew to her feet, two more to
her breast and hand. They caressed her, clung to her, drew some joyous
influence from her presence. She stood in the glittering rain like Spring with
her birds about her—a wonderful sight. Then, raising one hand gently with the
fingers thrown back she uttered a different note, perfectly sweet and intimate,
and the branches parted and a young deer with full bright eyes fixed on her
advanced and pushed a soft muzzle into her hand.
In my astonishment I
moved, however slightly, and the picture broke up. The deer sprang back into
the trees, the birds fluttered up in a hurry of feathers, and she turned calm
eyes upon me, as unstartled as if she had known all the time that I was there.
“You should not have
breathed,” she said smiling. “They must have utter quiet.”
I rose up and joined
her.
“It is a marvel. I can
scarcely believe my eyes. How do you do it?”
“My father taught me.
They come. How can I tell?”
She turned away and left
me. I thought long over this episode. I recalled words heard in the place of my
studies—words I had dismissed without any care at the moment. “To those who
see, nothing is alien. They move in the same vibration with all that has life,
be it in bird or flower. And in the Uttermost also, for all things are One. For
such there is no death.”
That was beyond me
still, but I watched her with profound interest. She recalled also words I had
half forgotten—
“There
was nought above me and nought below,
My
childhood had not learnt to know;
For
what are the voices of birds,
Aye,
and of beasts, but words, our words,—
Only so
much more sweet.”
That might have been
written of her. And more.
She had found one day in
the woods a flower of a sort I had once seen in the warm damp forests below
Darjiling—ivory white and shaped like a dove in flight. She wore it that
evening on her bosom. A week later she wore what I took to be another.
“You have had luck,” I
said; “I never heard of such a thing being seen so high up, and you have found
it twice.”
“No, it is the same.”
“The same? Impossible.
You found it more than a week ago.” “I know. It is ten days. Flowers don’t die
when one understands them—not as most people think.”
Her mother looked up and
said fretfully:
“Since she was a child
Brynhild has had that odd idea. That flower is dead and withered. Throw it
away, child. It looks hideous.”
Was it glamour? What was
it? I saw the flower dewy fresh in her bosom She smiled and turned away.
It was that very evening
she left the veranda where we were sitting in the subdued light of a little
lamp and passed beyond where the ray cut the darkness. She went down the
perspective of trees to the edge of he clearing and I rose to follow for it
seemed absolutely unsafe that she should be on the verge of the panther-haunted
woods alone. Mrs. Ingmar turned a page of her book serenely;
“She will not like it if
you go. I cannot imagine that she should come to harm. She always goes her own
way—light or dark.”
I returned to my seat
and watched steadfastly. At first I could see nothing but as my sight adjusted
itself I saw her a long way down the clearing that opened the snows, and quite
certainly also I saw something like a huge dog detach itself from the woods and
bound to her feet. It mingled with her dark dress and I lost it. Mrs. Ingmar
said, seeing my anxiety but nothing else; “Her father was just the same;—he had
no fear of anything that lives. No doubt some people have that power. I have
never seen her attract birds and beasts as he certainly did, but she is quite
as fond of them.”
I could not understand
her blindness—what I myself had seen raised questions I found unanswerable, and
her mother saw nothing! Which of us was right? presently she came back slowly
and I ventured no word.
A woodland sorcery,
innocent as the dawn, hovered about her. What was it? Did the mere love of
these creatures make a bond between her soul and theirs, or was the ancient
dream true and could she at times move in the same vibration? I thought of her
as a wood-spirit sometimes, an expression herself of some passion of beauty in
Nature, a thought of snows and starry nights and flowing rivers made visible in
flesh. It is surely when seized with the urge of some primeval yearning which
in man is merely sexual that Nature conceives her fair forms and manifests
them, for there is a correspondence that runs through all creation.
Here I ask myself—Did I
love her? In a sense, yes, deeply, but not in the common reading of the phrase.
I have trembled with delight before the wild and terrible splendour of the
Himalayan heights-; low golden moons have steeped my soul longing, but I did
not think of these things as mine in any narrow sense, nor so desire them. They
were Angels of the Evangel of beauty. So too was she. She had none of the
“silken nets and traps of adamant,” she was no sister of the “girls of mild
silver or of furious gold;”—but fair, strong, and her own, a dweller in the
House of Quiet. I did not covet her. I loved her.
Days passed. There came
a night when the winds were loosed—no moon, the stars flickering like blown
tapers through driven clouds, the trees swaying and lamenting.
“There will be rain
tomorrow.” Mrs. Ingmar said, as we parted for the night. I closed my door. Some
great cat of the woods was crying harshly outside my window, the sound receding
towards the bridle way. I slept in a dream of tossing seas and ships labouring
among them.
With the sense of a
summons I waked—I cannot tell when. Unmistakable, as if I were called by name.
I rose and dressed, and heard distinctly bare feet passing my door. I opened it
noiselessly and looked out into the little passage way that made for the entry,
and saw nothing but pools of darkness and a dim light from the square of the
window at the end. But the wind had swept the sky clear with its flying bosom
and was sleeping now in its high places and the air was filled with a mild
moony radiance and a great stillness.
Now let me speak with
restraint and exactness. I was not afraid but felt as I imagine a dog feels in
the presence of his master, conscious of a purpose, a will entirely above his
own and incomprehensible, yet to be obeyed without question. I followed my
reading of the command, bewildered but docile, and understanding nothing but
that I was called.
The lights were out. The
house dead silent; the familiar veranda ghostly in the night. And now I saw a
white figure at the head of the steps—Brynhild. She turned and looked over her
shoulder, her face pale in the moon, and made the same gesture with which she
summoned her birds. I knew her meaning, for now we were moving in the same
rhythm, and followed as she took the lead. How shall I describe that strange
night in the jungle. There were fire-flies or dancing points of light that
recalled them. Perhaps she was only thinking them—only thinking the moon and
the quiet, for we were in the world where thought is the one reality. But they
went with us in a cloud and faintly lighted our way. There were exquisite wafts
of perfume from hidden flowers breathing their dreams to the night. Here and there
a drowsy bird stirred and chirped from the roof of darkness, a low note of
content that greeted her passing. It was a path intricate and winding and how
long we went, and where, I cannot tell. But at last she stooped and parting the
boughs before her we stepped into an open space, and before us—I knew it—I knew
it!—The House of Beauty.
She paused at the foot
of the great marble steps and looked at me.
“We have met here
already.”
I did not wonder—I could
not. In the Ninth vibration surprise had ceased to be. Why had I not recognized
her before—O dull of heart! That was my only thought. We walk blindfold through
the profound darkness of material nature, the blinder because we believe we see
it. It is only when the doors of the material are closed that the world appears
to man as it exists in the eternal truth.
“Did you know this?” I
asked, trembling before mystery.
“I knew it, because I am
awake. You forgot it in the dull sleep which we call daily life. But we were
here and THEY began the story of the King who made this house. Tonight we shall
hear it. It he story of Beauty wandering through the world and the world
received her not. We hear it in this place because here he agonized for what he
knew too late.”
“Was that our only
meeting?”
“We meet every night,
but you forget when the day brings the sleep of the soul.—You do not sink deep
enough into rest to remember. You float on the surface where the little bubbles
of foolish dream are about you and I cannot reach you then.”
“How can I compel myself
to the deeps?”
“You cannot. It will
come. But when you have passed up the bridle way and beyond the Shipki, stop at
Gyumur. There is the Monastery of Tashigong, and there one will meet you—
“His name?”
“Stephen Clifden. He
will tell you what you desire to know. Continue on then with him to Yarkhand.
There in the Ninth Vibration we shall meet again. It is a long journey but you
will be content.”
“Do you certainly know
that we shall meet again?”
“When you have learnt,
we can meet when we will. He will teach you the Laya Yoga. You should not
linger here in the woods any longer. You should go on. In three days it will be
possible.”
“But how have you
learnt—a girl and young?”
“Through a close union
with Nature—that is one of the three roads. But I know little as yet. Now take
my hand and come.
“One last question. Is
this house ruined and abject as I have seen it in the daylight, or royal and
the house of Gods as we see it now? Which is truth?”
“In the day you saw it
in the empty illusion of blind thought. Tonight, eternally lovely as in the
thought of the man who made it. Nothing that is beautiful is lost, though in
the sight of the unwise it seems to die. Death is in the eyes we look
through—when they are cleansed we see Life only. Now take my hand and come.
Delay no more.”
She caught my hand and
we entered the dim magnificence of the great hall. The moon entered with us.
Instantly I had the
feeling of supernatural presence. Yet I only write this in deference to common
use, for it was absolutely natural—more so than any I have met in the state
called daily life. It was a thing in which I had a part, and if this was
supernatural so also was I.
Again I saw the Dark
One, the Beloved, the young Krishna, above the women who loved him. He motioned
with his hand as we passed, as though he waved us smiling on our way. Again the
dancers moved in a rhythmic tread to the feet of the mountain Goddess—again we
followed to where she bent to hear. But now, solemn listening faces crowded in
the shadows about her, grave eyes fixed immovably upon what lay at her feet—a
man, submerged in the pure light that fell from her presence, his dark face
stark and fine, lips locked, eyes shut, arms flung out cross-wise in utter
abandonment, like a figure of grief invisibly crucified upon his shame. I stopped
a few feet from him, arrested by a barrier I could not pass. Was it sleep or
death or some mysterious state that partook of both? Not sleep, for there was
no flutter of breath. Not death—no rigid immobility struck chill into the air.
It was the state of subjection where the spirit set free lies tranced in the
mighty influences which surround us invisibly until we have entered, though but
for a moment, the Ninth Vibration.
And now, with these
Listeners about us, a clear voice began and stirred the air with music. I have
since been asked in what tongue it spoke and could only answer that it reached
my ears in the words of my childhood, and that I know whatever that language
had been it would so have reached me.
“Great Lady, hear the
story of this man’s fall, for it is the story of man. Be pitiful to the blind
eyes and give them light.”
There was long since in
Ranipur a mighty King and at his birth the wise men declared that unless he
cast aside all passions that debase the soul, relinquishing the lower desires
for the higher until a Princess laden with great gifts should come to be his
bride, he would experience great and terrible misfortunes. And his royal
parents did what they could to possess him with this belief, but they died
before he reached manhood. Behold him then, a young King in his palace,
surrounded with splendour. How should he withstand the passionate crying of the
flesh or believe that through pleasure comes satiety and the loss of that in
the spirit whereby alone pleasure can be enjoyed? For his gift was that he
could win all hearts. They swarmed round him like hiving bees and hovered about
him like butterflies. Sometimes he brushed them off. Often he caressed them,
and when this happened, each thought proudly “I am the Royal Favourite. There
is none other than me.”
Also the Princess
delayed who would be the crest-jewel of the crown, bringing with her all good
and the blessing of the High Gods, and in consequence of all these things the
King took such pleasures as he could, and they were many, not knowing they
darken the inner eye whereby what is royal is known through disguises.
(Most pitiful to see,
beneath the close-shut lids of the man at the feet of the Dweller in the
Heights, tears forced themselves, as though a corpse dead to all else lived
only to anguish. They flowed like blood-drops upon his face as he lay enduring,
and the voice proceeded.) What was the charm of the King? Was it his stately
height and strength? Or his faithless gayety? Or his voice, deep and soft as
the sitar when it sings of love? His women said—some one thing, some another,
but none of these ladies were of royal blood, and therefore they knew not.
Now one day, the
all-privileged jester of the King, said, laughing harshly:
“Maharaj, you divert
yourself. But how if, while we feast and play, the Far Away Princess glided
past and was gone, unknown and unwelcomed?”
And the King replied:
“Fool, content yourself.
I shall know my Princess, but she delays so long that I weary.”
Now in a far away
country was a Princess, daughter of the Greatest, and her Father hesitated to
give her in marriage to such a King for all reported that he was faithless of
heart, but having seen his portrait she loved him and fled in disguise from the
palaces of her Father, and being captured she was brought before the King in
Ranipur.
He sat upon a cloth of
gold and about him was the game he had killed in hunting, in great masses of
ruffled fur and plumage, and he turned the beauty of his face carelessly upon
her, and as the Princess looked upon him, her heart yearned to him, and he said
in his voice that was like the male string of the sitar:
“Little slave, what is
your desire?”
Then she saw that the
long journey had scarred her feet and dimmed her hair with dust, and that the
King’s eyes, worn with days and nights of pleasure did not pierce her disguise.
Now in her land it is a custom that the blood royal must not proclaim itself,
so she folded her hands and said gently:
“A place in the
household of the King.” And he, hearing that the Waiting slave of his chief
favorite Jayashri was dead, gave her that place. So the Princess attended on
those ladies, courteous and obedient to all authority as beseemed her royalty,
and she braided her bright hair so that it hid the little crowns which the
Princesses of her House must wear always in token of their rank, and every day
her patience strengthened.
Sometimes the King,
carelessly desiring her laughing face and sad eyes, would send for her to wile
away an hour, and he would say; “Dance, little slave, and tell me stories of
the far countries. You quite unlike my Women, doubtless because you are a
slave.”
And she thought—“No, but
because I am a Princess,”—but this she did not say. She laughed and told him
the most marvellous stories in the world until he laid his head upon her warm
bosom, dreaming awake.
There were stories of
the great Himalayan solitudes where in the winter nights the white tiger stares
at the witches’ dance of the Northern Lights dazzled by the hurtling of their
myriad spears. And she told how the King-eagle, hanging motionless over the
peaks of Gaurisankar, watches with golden eyes for his prey, and falling like a
plummet strikes its life out with his clawed heel and, screaming with triumph,
bears it to his fierce mate in her cranny of the rocks.
“A gallant story!” the
King would say. “More!” Then she told of the tropical heats and the stealthy
deadly creatures of forest and jungle, and the blue lotus of Buddha swaying on
the still lagoon,—And she spoke of loves of men and women, their passion and pain
and joy. And when she told of their fidelity and valour and honour that death
cannot quench, her voice was like the song of a minstrel, for she had read all
the stories of the ages and the heart of a Princess told her the rest. And the
King listened unwearying though he believed this was but a slave.
(The face of the man at
the feet of the Dweller in the Heights twitched in a white agony. Pearls of
sweat were distilled upon his brows, but he moved neither hand nor foot,
enduring as in a flame of fire. And the voice continued.)
So one day, in the misty
green of the Spring, while she rested at his feet in the garden Pavilion, he
said to her:
“Little slave, why do
you love me?”
And she answered
proudly:
“Because you have the
heart of a King.”
He replied slowly;
“Of the women who have
loved me none gave this reason, though they gave many.”
She laid her cheek on
his hand.
“That is the true
reason.”
But he drew it away and
was vaguely troubled, for her words, he knew not why, reminded him of the Far
Away Princess and of things he had long forgotten, and he said; “What does a
slave know of the hearts of Kings?” And that night he slept or waked alone.
Winter was at hand with
its blue and cloudless days, and she was commanded to meet the King where the
lake lay still and shining like an ecstasy of bliss, and she waited with her
chin dropped into the cup of her hands, looking over the water with eyes that
did not see, for her whole soul said; “How long O my Sovereign Lord, how long
before you know the truth and we enter together into our Kingdom?”
As she sat she heard the
King’s step, and the colour stole up into her face in a flush like the earliest
sunrise. “He is coming,” she said; and again; “He loves me.”
So he came beside the
water, walking slowly. But the King was not alone. His arm embraced the
latest-come beauty from Samarkhand, and, with his head bent, he whispered in
her willing ear.
Then clasping her hands,
the Princess drew a long sobbing breath, and he turned and his eyes grew hard
as blue steel.
“Go, slave,” he cried.
“What place have you in Kings’ gardens? Go. Let me see you no more.”
(The man lying at the
feet of the Dweller in the Heights, raised a heavy arm and flung it above his
head, despairing, and it fell again on the cross of his torment. And the voice
went on.)
And as he said this, her
heart broke; and she went and her feet were weary. So she took the wise book
she loved and unrolled it until she came to a certain passage, and this she
read twice; “If the heart of a slave be broken it may be mended with jewels and
soft words, but the heart of a Princess can be healed only by the King who
broke it, or in Yamapura, the City under the Sunset where they make all things
new. Now, Yama, the Lord of this City, is the Lord of Death.” And having thus
read the Princess rolled the book and put it from her.
And next day, the King
said to his women; “Send for her,” for his heart smote him and he desired to
atone royally for the shame of his speech. And they sought and came back
saying;
“Maharaj, she is gone.
We cannot find her.”
Fear grew in the heart
of the King—a nameless dread, and he said, “Search.” And again they sought and
returned and the King was striding up and down the great hall and none dared
cross his path. But, trembling, they told him, and he replied; “Search again. I
will not lose her, and, slave though be, she shall be my Queen.”
So they ran, dispersing
to the Four Quarters, and King strode up and down the hall, and Loneliness kept
step with him and clasped his hand and looked his eyes.
Then the youngest of the
women entered with a tale to tell. “Majesty, we have found her. She lies beside
the lake. When the birds fled this morning she fled with them, but upon a
longer journey. Even to Yamapura, the City under the Sunset.”
And the King said; “Let none
follow.” And he strode forth swiftly, white with thoughts he dared not think.
The Princess lay among
the gold of the fallen leaves. All was gold, for her bright hair was out-spread
in shining waves and in it shone the glory of the hidden crown. On her face was
no smile—only at last was revealed the patience she had covered with laughter
so long that even the voice of the King could not now break it into joy. The
hands that had clung, the swift feet that had run beside his, the tender body,
mighty to serve and to love, lay within touch but farther away than the
uttermost star was the Far Away Princess, known and loved too late.
And he said; “My
Princess—O my Princess!” and laid his head on her cold bosom.
“Too late!” a harsh
Voice croaked beside him, and it was the voice of the Jester who mocks at all
things. “Too late! O madness, to despise the blood royal because it humbled
itself to service and so was doubly royal. The Far Away Princess came laden
with great gifts, and to her the King’s gift was the wage of a slave and a
broken heart. Cast your crown and sceptre in the dust, O King—O King of Fools.”
(The man at the feet of
the Dweller in the Heights moved. Some dim word shaped upon his locked lips.
She listened in a divine calm. It seemed that the very Gods drew nearer. Again
the man essayed speech, the body dead, life only in the words that none could
hear. The voice went on.)
But the Princess flying
wearily because of the sore wound in her heart, came at last to the City under
the Sunset, where the Lord of Death rules in the House of Quiet, and was there
received with royal honours for in that land are no disguises. And she knelt
before the Secret One and in a voice broken with agony entreated him to heal
her. And with veiled and pitying eyes he looked upon her, for many and grievous
as are the wounds he has healed this was more grievous still. And he said;
“Princess, I cannot, But
this I can do—I can give a new heart in a new birth—happy and careless as the
heart of a child. Take this escape from the anguish you endure and be at
peace.”
But the Princess, white
with pain, asked only;
“In this new heart and
birth, is there room for the King?”
And the Lord of Peace
replied;
“None. He too will be
forgotten.”
Then she rose to her
feet.
“I will endure and when
he comes I will serve him once more. If he will he shall heal me, and if not I
will endure for ever.”
And He who is veiled
replied;
“In this sacred City no
pain may disturb the air, therefore you must wait outside in the chill and the
dark. Think better, Princess! Also, he must pass through many rebirths, because
he beheld the face of Beauty unveiled and knew her not. And when he comes he
will be weary and weak as a new-born child, and no more a great King.” And the
Princess smiled;
“Then he will need me the
more,” she said; “I will wait and kiss the feet of my King.”
“And the Lord of Death
was silent. So she went outside into the darkness of the spaces, and the souls
free passed her like homing doves, and she sat with her hands clasped over the
sore wound in her heart, watching the earthward way. And the Princess is
keeping still the day of her long patience.”
The voice ceased. And
there was a great silence, and the listening faces drew nearer.
Then the Dweller in the
Heights spoke in a voice soft as the falling of snow in the quiet of frost and
moon. I could have wept myself blind with joy to hear that music. More I dare
not say.
“He is in the Lower
State of Perception. He sorrows for his loss. Let him have one instant’s light
that still he may hope.”
She bowed above the man,
gazing upon him as a mother might upon her sleeping child. The dead eyelids
stirred, lifted, a faint gleam showed beneath them, an unspeakable weariness. I
thought they would fall unsatisfied. Suddenly he saw What looked upon him, and
a terror of joy no tongue can tell flashed over the dark mirror of his face. He
stretched a faint hand to touch her feet, a sobbing sigh died upon his lips,
and once more the swooning sleep took him. He lay as a dead man before the
Assembly.
“The night is far
spent,” a voice said, from I know not where. And I knew it was said not only
for the sleeper but for all, for though the flying feet of Beauty seem for a
moment to outspeed us she will one day wait our coming and gather us to her
bosom.
As before, the vision
spread outward like rings in a broken reflection in water. I saw the girl
beside me, but her hand grew light in mine. I felt it no longer. I heard the
roaring wind in the trees, or was it a great voice thundering in my ears? Sleep
took me. I waked in my little room.
Strange and sad—I saw
her next day and did not remember her whom of all things I desired to know. I
remembered the vision and knew that whether in dream or waking I had heard an
eternal truth. I longed with a great longing to meet my beautiful companion,
and she stood at my side and I was blind.
Now that I have climbed
a little higher on the Mount of Vision it seems even to myself that this could
not be. Yet it was, and it is true of not this only but of how much else!
She knew me. I learnt
that later, but she made no sign. Her simplicities had carried her far beyond
and above me, to places where only the winged things attain—“as a bird among
the bird-droves of God.”
I have since known that
this power of direct simplicity in her was why among the great mountains we
beheld the Divine as the emanation of the terrible beauty about us. We cannot
see it as it is—only in some shadowing forth, gathering sufficient strength for
manifestation from the spiritual atoms that haunt the region where that form
has been for ages the accepted vehicle of adoration. But I was now to set forth
to find another knowledge—to seek the Beauty that blinds us to all other. Next
day the man who was directing my preparations for travel sent me word from
Simla that all was ready and I could start two days later. I told my friends
the time of parting was near.
“But it was no surprise
to me,” I added, “for I had heard already that in a very few days I should be
on my way.”
Mrs. Ingmar was more
than kind. She laid a frail hand on mine.
“We shall miss you
indeed. If it is possible to send us word of your adventures in those wild
solitudes I hope you will do it. Of course aviation will soon lay bare their
secrets and leave them no mysteries, so you don’t go too soon. One may worship
science and yet feel it injures the beauty of the world. But what is beauty
compared with knowledge?”
“Do you never regret
it?” I asked.
“Never, dear Mr. Ormond.
I am a worshipper of hard facts and however hideous they may be I prefer them
to the prismatic colours of romance.”
Brynhild, smiling,
quoted;
“Their
science roamed from star to star
And
than itself found nothing greater.
What
wonder? In a Leyden jar
They
bottled the Creator?”
“There is nothing
greater than science,” said Mrs. Ingmar with soft reverence. “The mind of man
is the foot-rule of the universe.”
She meditated for a
moment and then added that my kind interests in their plans decided her to tell
me that she would be returning to Europe and then to Canada in a few months
with a favourite niece as her companion while Brynhild would remain in India
with friends in Mooltan for a time. I looked eagerly at her but she was lost in
her own thoughts and it was evidently not the time to say more.
If I had hoped for a
vision before I left the neighbourhood of that strange House of Beauty where a
spirit imprisoned appeared to await the day of enlightenment I was
disappointed. These things do not happen as one expects or would choose. The
wind bloweth where it listeth until the laws which govern the inner life are
understood, and then we would not choose if we could for we know that all is
better than well. In this world, either in the blinded sight of daily life or
in the clarity of the true sight I have not since seen it, but that has mattered
little, for having heard an authentic word within its walls I have passed on my
way elsewhere.
Next day a letter from
Olesen reached me.
“Dear Ormond, I hope you
have had a good time at the House in the Woods. I saw Rup Singh a few days ago
and he wrote the odd message I enclose. You know what these natives are, even
the most sensible of them, and you will humour the old fellow for he ages very
fast and I think is breaking up. But this was not what I wanted to say. I had a
letter from a man I had not seen for years—a fellow called Stephen Clifden, who
lives in Kashmir. As a matter of fact I had forgotten his existence but
evidently he has not repaid the compliment for he writes as follows—No, I had
better send you the note and you can do as you please. I am rushed off my legs
with work and the heat is hell with the lid off. And-”
But the rest was of no
interest except to a friend of years’ standing. I read Rup Singh’s message
first. It was written in his own tongue.
“To the Honoured One who
has attained to the favour of the Favourable.
“You have with open eyes
seen what this humble one has dreamed but has not known. If the thing be
possible, write me this word that I may depart in peace. ‘With that one who in
a former birth you loved all is well. Fear nothing for him. The way is long but
at the end the lamps of love are lit and the Unstruck music is sounded. He lies
at the feet of Mercy and there awaits his hour.’ And if it be not possible to
write these words, write nothing, O Honoured, for though it be in the hells my
soul shall find my King, and again I shall serve him as once I served.”
I understood, and wrote
those words as he had written them. Strange mystery of life—that I who had not
known should see, and that this man whose fidelity had not deserted his broken
King in his utter downfall should have sought with passion for one sight of the
beloved face across the waters of death and sought in vain. I thought of those
Buddhist words of Seneca—“The soul may be and is in the mass of men drugged and
silenced by the seductions of sense and the deceptions of the world. But if, in
some moment of detachment and elation, when its captors and jailors relax their
guard, it can escape their clutches, it will seek at once the region of its
birth and its true home.”
Well—the shell must
break before the bird can fly, and the time drew near for the faithful servant
to seek his lord. My message reached him in time and gladdened him.
I turned then to
Clifden’s letter.
“Dear Olesen, you will
have forgotten me, and feeling sure of this I should scarcely have intruded a
letter into your busy life were it not that I remember your good-nature as a
thing unforgettable though so many years have gone by. I hear of you sometimes
when Sleigh comes up the Sind valley, for I often camp at Sonamarg and above
the Zoji La and farther. I want you to give a message to a man you know who
should be expecting to hear from me. Tell him I shall be at the Tashigong
Monastery when he reaches Gyumur beyond the Shipki. Tell him I have the information
he wants and I will willingly go on with him to Yarkhand and his destination.
He need not arrange for men beyond Gyumur. All is fixed. So sorry to bother
you, old man, but I don’t know Ormond’s address, except that he was with you
and has gone up Simla way. And of course he will be keen to hear the thing is
settled.”
Amazing. I remembered
the message I had heard and this man’s words rang true and kindly, but what
could it mean? I really did not question farther than this for now I could not
doubt that I was guided. Stronger hands than mine had me in charge, and it only
remained for me to set forth in confidence and joy to an end that as yet I
could not discern. I turned my face gladly to the wonder of the mountains.
Gladly—but with a
reservation. I was leaving a friend and one whom I dimly felt might one day be
more than a friend—Brynhild Ingmar. That problem must be met before I could
take my way. I thought much of what might be said at parting. True, she had the
deepest attraction for me, but true also that I now beheld a quest stretching
out into the unknown which I must accept in the spirit of the knight errant.
Dare I then bind my heart to any allegiance which would pledge me to a future
inconsistent with what lay before me? How could I tell what she might think of
the things which to me were now real and external—the revelation of the only
reality that underlies all the seeming. Life can never be the same for the man
who has penetrated to this, and though it may seem a hard saying there can be
but a maimed understanding between him and those who still walk amid the
phantoms of death and decay.
Her sympathy with nature
was deep and wonderful but might it not be that though the earth was eloquent
to her the skies were silent? I was but a beginner myself—I knew little indeed.
Dare I risk that little in a sweet companionship which would sink me into the
contentment of the life lived by the happily deluded between the cradle and the
grave and perhaps close to me for ever that still sphere where my highest hope
abides? I had much to ponder, for how could I lose her out of my life—though I
knew not at all whether she who had so much to make her happiness would give me
a single thought when I was gone.
If all this seem the
very uttermost of selfish vanity, forgive a man who grasped in his hand a
treasure so new, so wonderful that he walked in fear and doubt lest it should
slip away and leave him in a world darkened for ever by the torment of the
knowledge that it might have been his and he had bartered it for the mess of
pottage that has bought so many birthrights since Jacob bargained with his
weary brother in the tents of Lahai-roi. I thought I would come back later with
my prize gained and throwing it at her feet ask her wisdom in return, for
whatever I might not know I knew well she was wiser than I except in that one
shining of the light from Eleusis. I walked alone in the woods thinking of
these things and no answer satisfied me.
I did not see her alone
until the day I left, for I was compelled by the arrangements I was making to
go down to Simla for a night. And now the last morning had come with golden
sun—shot mists rolling upward to disclose the far white billows of the sea of
eternity, the mountains awaking to their enormous joys. The trees were dripping
glory to the steaming earth; it flowed like rivers into their most secret
recesses, moss and flower, fern and leaf floated upon the waves of light
revealing their inmost soul in triumphant gladness. Far off across the valleys
a cuckoo was calling—the very voice of spring, and in the green world above my
head a bird sang, a feathered joy, so clear, so passionate that I thought the
great summer morning listened in silence to his rapture ringing through the
woods. I waited until the Jubilate was ended and then went in to bid good-bye
to my friends.
Mrs. Ingmar bid me the
kindest farewell and I left her serene in the negation of all beauty, all hope
save that of a world run on the lines of a model municipality, disease a
memory, sewerage, light and air systems perfected, the charted brain sending
its costless messages to the outer parts of the habitable globe, and at least a
hundred years of life with a decent cremation at the end of it assured to every
eugenically born citizen. No more. But I have long ceased to regret that others
use their own eyes whether clear or dim. Better the merest glimmer of light
perceived thus than the hearsay of the revelations of others. And by the broken
fragments of a bewildered hope a man shall eventually reach the goal and rejoice
in that dawn where the morning stars sing together and the sons of God shout
for joy. It must come, for it is already here.
Brynhild walked with me
through the long glades in the fresh thin air to the bridle road where my men
and ponies waited, eager to be off. We stood at last in the fringe of trees on
a small height which commanded the way;—a high uplifted path cut along the
shoulders of the hills and on the left the sheer drop of the valleys. Perhaps
seven or eight feet in width and dignified by the name of the Great Hindustan
and Tibet Road it ran winding far away into Wonderland. Looking down into the
valleys, so far beneath that the solitudes seem to wall them in I thought of
all the strange caravans which have taken this way with tinkle of bells and
laughter now so long silenced, and as I looked I saw a lost little monastery in
a giant crevice, solitary as a planet on the outermost ring of the system, and
remembrance flashed into my mind and I said;
“I have marching orders
that have countermanded my own plans. I am to journey to the Buddhist Monastery
of Tashigong, and there meet a friend who will tell me what is necessary that I
may travel to Yarkhand and beyond. It will be long before I see Kashmir.”
In those crystal clear
eyes I saw a something new to me—a faint smile, half pitying, half sad;
“Who told you, and
where?”
“A girl in a strange
place. A woman who has twice guided me—”
I broke off. Her smile
perplexed me. I could not tell what to say. She repeated in a soft undertone;
“Great Lady, be pitiful
to the blind eyes and give them light.”
And instantly I knew. O
blind—blind! Was the unhappy King of the story duller of heart than I? And
shame possessed me. Here was the chrysoberyl that all day hides its secret in
deeps of lucid green but when the night comes flames with its fiery ecstasy of
crimson to the moon, and I—I had been complacently considering whether I might
not blunt my own spiritual instinct by companionship with her, while she had
been my guide, as infinitely beyond me in insight as she was in all things
beautiful. I could have kissed her feet in my deep repentance. True it is that
the gateway of the high places is reverence and he who cannot bow his head
shall receive no crown. I saw that my long travel in search of knowledge would
have been utterly vain if I had not learnt that lesson there and then. In those
moments of silence I learnt it once and for ever.
She stood by me
breathing the liquid morning air, her face turned upon the eternal snows. I
caught her hand in a recognition that might have ended years of parting, and
its warm youth vibrated in mine, the foretaste of all understanding, all
unions, of love that asks nothing, that fears nothing, that has no petition to
make. She raised her eyes to mine and her tears were a rainbow of hope. So we
stood in silence that was more than any words, and the golden moments went by.
I knew her now for what she was, one of whom it might have been written;
“I come
from where night falls clearer
Than
your morning sun can rise;
From an
earth that to heaven draws nearer
Than
your visions of Paradise,—
For the
dreams that your dreamers dream
We
behold them with open eyes.”
With open eyes! Later I
asked the nature of the strange bond that had called her to my side.
“I do not understand
that fully myself,” she said—“That is part of the knowledge we must wait for.
But you have the eyes that see, and that is a tie nothing can break. I had
waited long in the House of Beauty for you. I guided you there. But between you
and me there is also love.”
I stretched an eager
hand but she repelled it gently, drawing back a little. “Not love of each other
though we are friends and in the future may be infinitely more. But—have you
ever seen a drawing of Blake’s—a young man stretching his arms to a white swan
which flies from him on wings he cannot stay? That is the story of both our
lives. We long to be joined in this life, here and now, to an unspeakable
beauty and power whose true believers we are because we have seen and known.
There is no love so binding as the same purpose. Perhaps that is the only true
love. And so we shall never be apart though we may never in this world be
together again in what is called companionship.”
“We shall meet,” I said
confidently. She smiled and was silent.
“Do we follow a
will-o’-the wisp in parting? Do we give up the substance for the shadow? Shall
I stay?”
She laughed joyously;
“We give a single rose
for a rose-tree that bears seven times seven. Daily I see more, and you are
going where you will be instructed. As you know my mother prefers for a time to
have my cousin with her to help her with the book she means to write. So I
shall have time to myself. What do you think I shall do?”
“Blow away on a great
wind. Ride on the crests of tossing waves. Catch a star to light the
fireflies!”
She laughed like a
bird’s song.
“Wrong—wrong! I shall be
a student. All I know as yet has come to me by intuition, but there is Law as
well as Love and I will learn. I have drifted like a happy cloud before the
wind. Now I will learn to be the wind that blows the clouds.”
I looked at her in
astonishment. If a flower had desired the same thing it could scarcely have
seemed more incredible, for I had thought her whole life and nature instinctive
not intellective. She smiled as one who has a beloved secret to keep.
“When you have gained
what in this country they call The Knowledge of Regeneration, come back and ask
me what I have learnt.”
She would say no more of
that and turned to another matter, speaking with earnestness;
“Before you came here I
had a message for you, and Stephen Clifden will tell you the same thing when
you meet. Believe it for it is true. Remember always that the psychical is not
the mystical and that what we seek is not marvel but vision. These two things
are very far apart, so let the first with all its dangers pass you by, for our
way lies to the heights, and for us there is only one danger—that of turning
back and losing what the whole world cannot give in exchange. I have never seen
Stephen Clifden but I know much of him. He is a safe guide—a man who has had
much and strange sorrow which has brought him joy that cannot be told. He will
take you to those who know the things that you desire. I wish I might have gone
too.”
Something in the
sweetness of her voice, its high passion, the strong beauty of her presence
woke a poignant longing in my heart. I said;
“I cannot leave you. You
are the only guide I can follow. Let us search together—you always on before.”
“Your way lies there,”
she pointed to the high mountains. “And mine to the plains, and if we chose our
own we should wander. But we shall meet again in the way and time that will be
best and with knowledge so enlarged that what we have seen already will be like
an empty dream compared to daylight truth. If you knew what waits for you you
would not delay one moment.”
She stood radiant
beneath the deodars, a figure of Hope, pointing steadily to the heights. I knew
her words were true though as yet I could not tell how. I knew that whereas we
had seen the Wonderful in beautiful though local forms there is a plane where
the Formless may be apprehended in clear dream and solemn vision-the meeting of
spirit with Spirit. What that revelation would mean I could not guess—how
should I?—but I knew the illusion we call death and decay would wither before
it. There is a music above and beyond the Ninth Vibration though I must love
those words for ever for what their hidden meaning gave me.
I took her hand and held
it. Strange—beyond all strangeness that that story of an ancient sorrow should
have made us what we were to each other—should have opened to me the gates of
that Country where she wandered content. For the first time I had realized in
its fulness the loveliness of this crystal nature, clear as flowing water to
receive and transmit the light—itself a prophecy and fulfilment of some higher
race which will one day inhabit our world when it has learnt the true values.
She drew a flower from her breast and gave it to me. It lies before me white
and living as I write these words.
I sprang down the road
and mounted, giving the word to march. The men shouted and strode on—our faces
to the Shipki Pass and what lay beyond.
We had parted.
Once, twice, I looked
back, and standing in full sunlight, she waved her hand.
We turned the angle of
the rocks.
What I found—what she
found is a story strange and beautiful which I may tell one day to those who
care to hear. That for me there were pauses, hesitancies, dreads, on the way I
am not concerned to deny, for so it must always be with the roots of the old
beliefs of fear and ignorance buried in the soil of our hearts and ready to
throw out their poisonous fibres. But there was never doubt. For myself I have
long forgotten the meaning of that word in anything that is of real value.
Do not let it be thought
that the treasure is reserved for the few or those of special gifts. And it is
as free to the West as to the East though I own it lies nearer to the surface
in the Orient where the spiritual genius of the people makes it possible and
the greater and more faithful teachers are found. It is not without meaning
that all the faiths of the world have dawned in those sunrise skies. Yet it is
within reach of all and asks only recognition, for the universe has been the
mine of its jewels—
“Median
gold it holds, and silver from Atropatene, Ruby and
emerald
from Hindustan, and Bactrian agate, Bright with beryl
and
pearl, sardonyx and sapphire.”—
and more
that cannot be uttered—
the
Lights and Perfections.
So for all seekers I
pray this prayer—beautiful in its sonorous Latin, but noble in all the tongues;
“Supplico tibi, Pater et
Dux—I pray Thee, Guide of our vision, that we may remember the nobleness with
which Thou hast endowed us, and that Thou wouldest be always on our right and
on our left in the motion of our wills, that we may be purged from the
contagion of the body and the affections of the brute and overcome and rule
them. And I pray also that Thou wouldest drive away the blinding darkness from
the eyes of our souls that we may know well what is to be held for divine and
what for mortal.”
“The nobleness with
which Thou hast endowed us-” this, and not the cry of the miserable sinner
whose very repentance is no virtue but the consequence of failure and weakness
is the strong music to which we must march.
And the way is open to
the mountains.
2.THE
INTERPRETER A ROMANCE OF THE EAST
I
There are strange things
in this story, but, so far as I understand them, I tell the truth. If you
measure the East with a Western foot-rule you will say, “Impossible.” I should
have said it myself.
Of myself I will say as
little as I can, for this story is of Vanna Loring. I am an incident only,
though I did not know that at first.
My name is Stephen
Clifden, and I was eight-and-thirty; plenty of money, sound in wind and limb. I
had been by way of being a writer before the war, the hobby of a rich man; but
if I picked up anything in the welter in France, it was that real work is the
only salvation this mad world has to offer; so I meant to begin at the
beginning, and learn my trade like a journeyman labourer. I had come to the
right place. A very wonderful city is Peshawar—rather let us say, two
cities—the compounds, the fortifications where Europeans dwell in such peace as
their strong right arms can secure them; and the native city and bazaar humming
and buzzing like a hive of angry bees with the rumours that come up from Lower
India or down the Khyber Pass with the camel caravans loaded with merchandise
from Afghanistan, Bokhara, and farther. And it is because of this that Peshawar
is the Key of India, and a city of Romance that stands at every corner, and
cries aloud in the market—place. For at Peshawar every able-bodied man sleeps
with his revolver under his pillow, and the old Fort is always ready in case it
should be necessary at brief and sharp notice to hurry the women and children
into it, and possibly, to die in their defense. So enlivening is the
neighbourhood of the frontier tribes that haunt the famous Khyber Pass and the
menacing hills where danger is always lurking.
But there was society
here, and I was swept into it—there was chatter, and it galled me.
I was beginning to feel
that I had missed my mark, and must go farther afield, perhaps up into Central
Asia, when I met Vanna Loring. If I say that her hair was soft and dark; that
she had the deepest hazel eyes I have ever seen, and a sensitive, tender mouth;
that she moved with a flowing grace like “a wave of the sea”—it sounds like the
portrait of a beauty, and she was never that. Also, incidentally, it gives none
of her charm. I never heard any one get any further than that she was “oddly
attractive”—let us leave it at that. She was certainly attractive to me.
She was the governess of
little Winifred Meryon, whose father held the august position of General
Commanding the Frontier Forces, and her mother the more commanding position of
the reigning beauty of Northern India, generally speaking. No one disputed
that. She was as pretty as a picture, and her charming photograph had graced as
many illustrated papers as there were illustrated papers to grace.
But Vanna—I gleaned her
story by bits when I came across her with the child in the gardens. I was
beginning to piece it together now.
Her love of the strange
and beautiful she had inherited from a young Italian mother, daughter of a
political refugee; her childhood had been spent in a remote little village in
the West of England; half reluctantly she told me how she had brought herself
up after her mother’s death and her father’s second marriage. Little was said
of that, but I gathered that it had been a grief to her, a factor in her flight
to the East.
We were walking in the
Circular Road then with Winifred in front leading her Pekingese by its blue
ribbon, and we had it almost to ourselves except for a few natives passing slow
and dignified on their own occasions, for fashionable Peshawar was finishing
its last rubber of bridge, before separating to dress for dinner, and had no
time to spare for trivialities and sunsets.
“So when I came to
three-and-twenty,” she said slowly, “I felt I must break away from our narrow
life. I had a call to India stronger than anything on earth. You would not
understand but that was so, and I had spent every spare moment in teaching
myself India—its history, legends, religions, everything! And I was not wanted
at home, and I had grown afraid.”
I could divine years of
patience and repression under this plain tale, but also a power that would be
dynamic when the authentic voice called. That was her charm—gentleness in
strength—a sweet serenity.
“What were you afraid
of?”
“Of growing old and
missing what was waiting for me out here. But I could not get away like other
people. No money, you see. So I thought I would come out here and teach. Dare
I? Would they let me? I knew I was fighting life and chances and risks if I did
it; but it was death if I stayed there. And then—Do you really care to hear?”
“Of course. Tell me how
you broke your chain.”
“I spare you the family
quarrels. I can never go back. But I was spurred—spurred to take some wild
leap; and I took it. Six years ago I came out. First I went to a doctor and his
wife at Cawnpore. They had a wonderful knowledge of the Indian peoples, and
there I learned Hindustani and much else. Then he died. But an aunt had left me
two hundred pounds, and I could wait a little and choose; and so I came here.”
It interested me. The
courage that pale elastic type of woman has!
“Have you ever regretted
it? Would they take you back if you failed?”
“Never, to both
questions,” she said, smiling. “Life is glorious. I’ve drunk of a cup I never
thought to taste; and if I died tomorrow I should know I had done right. I
rejoice in every moment I live—even when Winifred and I are wrestling with
arithmetic.”
“I shouldn’t have
thought life was very easy with Lady Meryon.”
“Oh, she is kind enough
in an indifferent sort of way. I am not the persecuted Jane Eyre sort of
governess at all. But that is all on the surface and does not matter. It is
India I care for-the people, the sun, the infinite beauty. It was coming home.
You would laugh if I told you I knew Peshawar long before I came here. Knew
it—walked here, lived. Before there were English in India at all.” She broke
off. “You won’t understand.”
“Oh, I have had that
feeling, too,” I said patronizingly. “If one has read very much about a place-”
“That was not quite what
I meant. Never mind. The people, the place—that is the real thing to me. All
this is the dream.” The sweep of her hand took in not only Winifred and myself,
but the general’s stately residence, which to blaspheme in Peshawar is rank
infidelity.
“By George, I would give
thousands to feel that! I can’t get out of Europe here. I want to write, Miss
Loring,” I found myself saying. “I’d done a bit, and then the war came and blew
my life to pieces. Now I want to get inside the skin of the East, and I can’t
do it. I see it from outside, with a pane of glass between. No life in it. If
you feel as you say, for God’s sake be my interpreter!”
I really meant what I
said. I knew she was a harp that any breeze would sweep into music. I divined
that temperament in her and proposed to use it for my own ends. She had and I
had not, the power to be a part of all she saw, to feel kindred blood running
in her own veins. To the average European the native life of India is scarcely
interesting, so far is it removed from all comprehension. To me it was
interesting, but I could not tell why. I stood outside and had not the fairy
gold to pay for my entrance. Here at all events she could buy her way where I
could not. Without cruelty, which honestly was not my besetting sin—especially
where women were concerned, the egoist in me felt I would use her, would
extract the last drop of the enchantment of her knowledge before I went on my
way. What more natural than that Vanna or any other woman should minister to my
thirst for information? Men are like that. I pretend to be no better than the
rest. She pleased my fastidiousness—that fastidiousness which is the only
austerity in men not otherwise austere.
“Interpret?” she said,
looking at me with clear hazel eyes; “how could I? You were in the native city
yesterday. What did you miss?”
“Everything! I saw
masses of colour, light, movement. Brilliantly picturesque people. Children
like Asiatic angels. Magnificently scowling ruffians in sheepskin coats. In
fact, a movie staged for my benefit. I was afraid they would ring down the
curtain before I had had enough. It had no meaning. When I got back to my
diggings I tried to put down what I had just seen, and I swear there’s more
inspiration in the guide-book.”
“Did you go alone?”
“Yes, I certainly would
not go sight-seeing with the Meryon crowd. Tell me what you felt when you saw
it first.”
“I went with Sir John’s
uncle. He was a great traveler. The colour struck me dumb. It flames—it sings.
Think of the grey pinched life in the West! I saw a grave dark potter turning
his wheel, while his little girl stood by, glad at our pleasure, her head
veiled like a miniature woman, tiny baggy trousers, and a silver nose-stud,
like a star, in one delicate nostril. In her thin arms she held a heavy baby in
a gilt cap, like a monkey. And the wheel turned and whirled until it seemed to
be spinning dreams, thick as motes in the sun. The clay rose in smooth spirals
under his hand, and the wheel sang, ‘Shall the vessel reprove him who made one
to honour and one to dishonour?’ And I saw the potter thumping his wet clay,
and the clay, plastic as dream-stuff, shaped swift as light, and the three
Fates stood at his shoulder. Dreams, dreams, and all in the spinning of the
wheel, and the rich shadows of the old broken courtyard where he sat. And the
wheel stopped and the thread broke, and the little new shapes he had made stood
all about him, and he was only a potter in Peshawar.”
Her voice was like a
song. She had utterly forgotten my existence. I did not dislike it at the
moment, for I wanted to hear more, and the impersonal is the rarest gift a
woman can give a man.
“Did you buy anything?”
“He gave me a gift—a
flawed jar of turquoise blue, faint turquoise green round the lip. He saw I
understood. And then I bought a little gold cap and a wooden box of jade-green
Kabul grapes. About a rupee, all told. But it was Eastern merchandise, and I
was trading from Balsora and Baghdad, and Eleazar’s camels were swaying down
from Damascus along the Khyber Pass, and coming in at the great Darwazah, and
friends’ eyes met me everywhere. I am profoundly happy here.”
The sinking sun lit an
almost ecstatic face.
I envied her more deeply
than I had ever envied any one. She had the secret of immortal youth, and I
felt old as I looked at her. One might be eighty and share that passionate
impersonal joy. Age could not wither nor custom stale the infinite variety of
her world’s joys. She had a child’s dewy youth in her eyes.
There are great sunsets
at Peshawar, flaming over the plain, dying in melancholy splendour over the
dangerous hills. They too were hers, in a sense in which they could never be
mine. But what a companion! To my astonishment a wild thought of marriage
flashed across me, to be instantly rebuffed with a shrug. Marriage—that one’s
wife might talk poetry to one about the East! Absurd! But what was it these
people felt and I could not feel? Almost, shut up in the prison of self, I knew
what Vanna had felt in her village—a maddening desire to escape, to be a part
of the loveliness that lay beyond me. So might a man love a king’s daughter in
her hopeless heights.
“It may be very
beautiful on the surface,” I said morosely; “but there’s a lot of misery
below—hateful, they tell me.”
“Of course. We shall get
to work one day. But look at the sunset. It opens like a mysterious flower. I
must take Winifred home now.”
“One moment,” I pleaded;
“I can only see it through your eyes. I feel it while you speak, and then the
good minute goes.”
She laughed.
“And so must I. Come, Winifred. Look, there’s an
owl; not like the owls
in the summer dark in England—
“Lovely
are the curves of the white owl sweeping,
Wavy in the
dark, lit by one low star.”
Suddenly she turned
again and looked at me half wistfully.
“It is good to talk to
you. You want to know. You are so near it all. I wish I could help you; I am so
exquisitely happy myself.”
My writing was at a
standstill. It seemed the groping of a blind man in a radiant world. Once
perhaps I had felt that life was good in itself—when the guns came thundering
toward the Vimy Ridge in a mad gallop of horses, and men shouting and swearing
and frantically urging them on. Then, riding for more than life, I had tasted
life for an instant. Not before or since. But this woman had the secret.
Lady Meryon, with her
escort of girls and subalterns, came daintily past the hotel compound, and
startled me from my brooding with her pretty silvery voice.
“Dreaming, Mr. Clifden?
It isn’t at all wholesome to dream in the East. Come and dine with us tomorrow.
A tiny dance afterwards, you know; or bridge for those who like it.”
I had not the faintest
notion whether governesses dined with the family or came in afterward with the
coffee; but it was a sporting chance, and I took it.
Then Sir John came up
and joined us.
“You can’t well dance
tomorrow, Kitty,” he said to his wife. “There’s been an outpost affair in the
Swat Hills, and young Fitzgerald has been shot. Come to dinner of course,
Clifden. Glad to see you. But no dancing, I think.”
Kitty Meryon’s mouth
drooped like a pouting child’s. Was it for the lost dance, or the lost soldier
lying out on the hills in the dying sunset. Who could tell? In either case it
was pretty enough for the illustrated papers.
“How sad! Such a dear boy.
We shall miss him at tennis.” Then brightly; “Well, we’ll have to put the dance
off for a week, but come tomorrow anyhow.”
II
Next evening I went into
Lady Meryon’s flower-scented drawing-room. The electric fans were fluttering
and the evening air was cool. Five or six pretty girls and as many men made up
the party—Kitty Meryon the prettiest of them all, fashionably undressed in
faint pink and crystal, with a charming smile in readiness, all her gay little
flags flying in the rich man’s honour. I am no vainer than other men, but I saw
that. Whatever her charm might be it was none for me. What could I say to
interest her who lived in her foolish little world as one shut in a bright
bubble? And she had said the wrong word about young Fitzgerald—I wanted Vanna,
with her deep seeing eyes, to say the right one and adjust those cruel values.
Governesses dine, it
appeared, only to fill an unexpected place, or make a decorous entry afterward,
to play accompaniments. Fortunately Kitty Meryon sang, in a pinched little
soprano, not nearly so pretty as her silver ripple of talk.
It was when the party
had settled down to bridge and I was standing out, that I ventured to go up to
her as she sat knitting by a window—not unwatched by the quick flash of Lady
Meryon’s eyes as I did it.
“I think you hypnotize
me, Miss Loring. When I hear anything I straightway want to know what you will
say. Have you heard of Fitzgerald’s death?”
“That is why we are not
dancing tonight. Tomorrow the cable will reach his home in England. He was an
only child, and they are the great people of the village where we are the
little people. I knew his mother as one knows a great lady who is kind to all
the village folk. It may kill her. It is travelling tonight like a bullet to
her heart, and she does not know.”
“His father?”
“A brave man—a soldier
himself. He will know it was a good death and that Harry would not fail. He did
not at Ypres. He would not here. But all joy and hope will be dead in that
house tomorrow.”
“And what do you think?”
“I am not sorry for
Harry, if you mean that. He knew—we all know—that he was on guard here holding
the outposts against blood and treachery and terrible things—playing the Great
Game. One never loses at that game if one plays it straight, and I am sure that
at the last it was joy he felt and not fear. He has not lost. Did you notice in
the church a niche before every soldier’s seat to hold his loaded gun? And the
tablets on the walls; “Killed at Kabul River, aged 22.”—“Killed on outpost
duty.”—“Murdered by an Afghan fanatic.” This will be one memory more. Why be
sorry.”
Presently:—
“I am going up to the
hills tomorrow, to the Malakhand Fort, with Mrs. Delany, Lady Meryon’s aunt,
and we shall see the wonderful Tahkt-i-Bahi Monastery on the way. You should do
that run before you go. The fort is the last but one on the way to Chitral, and
beyond that the road is so beset that only soldiers may go farther, and indeed
the regiments escort each other up and down. But it is an early start, for we
must be back in Peshawar at six for fear of raiding natives.”
“I know; they hauled me
up in the dusk the other day, and told me I should be swept off to the hills if
I fooled about after dusk. But I say—is it safe for you to go? You ought to
have a man. Could I go too?”
I thought she did not
look enthusiastic at the proposal.
“Ask. You know I settle
nothing. I go where I am sent.” She said it with the happiest smile. I knew
they could send her nowhere that she would not find joy. I thought her mere
presence must send the vibrations of happiness through the household. Yet
again—why? For where there is no receiver the current speaks in vain; and for
an instant I seemed to see the air full of messages—of speech striving to utter
its passionate truths to deaf ears stopped for ever against the breaking waves
of sound. But Vanna heard.
She left the room; and
when the bridge was over, I made my request. Lady Meryon shrugged her shoulders
and declared it would be a terribly dull run—the scenery nothing, “and only”
(she whispered) “Aunt Selina and poor Miss Loring?”
Of course I saw at once
that she did not like it; but Sir John was all for my going, and that saved the
situation.
I certainly could have
dispensed with Aunt Selina when the automobile drew up in the golden river of
the sunrise at the hotel. There were only the driver, a personal servant, and
the two ladies; Mrs. Delany, comely, pleasant, talkative, and Vanna—
Her face in its dark
motoring veil, fine and delicate as a young moon in a cloud drift—the sensitive
sweet mouth that had quivered a little when she spoke of Fitzgerald—the pure
glance that radiated such kindness to all the world. She sat there with the Key
of Dreams pressed against her slight bosom—her eyes dreaming above it. Already
the strange airs of her unknown world were breathing about me, and as yet I
knew not the things that belonged unto my peace.
We glided along the
straight military road from Peshawar to Nowshera, the gold-bright sun dazzling
in its whiteness—a strange drive through the flat, burned country, with the ominous
Kabul River flowing through it. Military preparations everywhere, and the hills
looking watchfully down—alive, as it were, with keen, hostile eyes. War was at
present about us as behind the lines in France; and when we crossed the Kabul
River on a bridge of boats, and I saw its haunted waters, I began to feel the
atmosphere of the place closing down upon me. It had a sinister beauty; it
breathed suspense; and I wished, as I was sure Vanna did, for silence that was
not at our command.
For Mrs. Delany felt
nothing of it. A bright shallow ripple of talk was her contribution to the joys
of the day; though it was, fortunately, enough for her happiness if we listened
and agreed. I knew Vanna listened only in show. Her intent eyes were fixed on
the Tahkt-i-Bahi hills after we had swept out of Nowshera; and when the car
drew up at the rough track, she had a strange look of suspense and pallor. I
remember I wondered at the time if she were nervous in the wild open country.
“Now pray don’t be
shocked,” said Mrs. Delany comfortably; “but you two young people may go up to
the monastery, and I shall stay here. I am dreadfully ashamed of myself, but
the sight of that hill is enough for me. Don’t hurry. I may have a little doze,
and be all the better company when you get back. No, don’t try to persuade me,
Mr. Clifden. It isn’t the part of a friend.”
I cannot say I was
sorry, though I had a moment of panic when Vanna offered to stay with her—very
much, too, as if she really meant it. So we set out perforce, Vanna leading
steadily, as if she knew the way. She never looked up, and her wish for silence
was so evident, that I followed, lending my hand mutely when the difficulties
obliged it, she accepting absently, and as if her thoughts were far away.
Suddenly she quickened
her pace. We had climbed about nine hundred feet, and now the narrow track
twisted through the rocks—a track that looked as age-worn as no doubt it was.
We threaded it, and struggled over the ridge, and looked down victorious on the
other side.
There she stopped. A
very wonderful sight, of which I had never seen the like, lay below us. Rock
and waste and towering crags, and the mighty ruin of the monastery set in the
fangs of the mountain like a robber baron’s castle, looking far away to the
blue mountains of the Debatable Land—the land of mystery and danger. It stood
there—the great ruin of a vast habitation of men. Building after building,
mysterious and broken, corridors, halls, refectories, cells; the dwelling of a
faith so alien that I could not reconstruct the life that gave it being. And
all sinking gently into ruin that in a century more would confound it with the
roots of the mountains.
Grey and wonderful, it
clung to the heights and looked with eyeless windows at the past. Somehow I
found it infinitely pathetic; the very faith it expressed is dead in India, and
none left so poor to do it reverence.
But Vanna knew her way.
Unerringly she led me from point to point, and she was visibly at home in the
intricacies. Such knowledge in a young woman bewildered me. Could she have
studied the plans in the Museum? How else should she know where the abbot
lived, or where the refractory brothers were punished?
Once I missed her, while
I stooped to examine some scroll-work, and following, found her before one of the
few images of the Buddha that the rapacious Museum had spared—a singularly
beautiful bas-relief, the hand raised to enforce the truth the calm lips were
speaking, the drapery falling in stately folds to the bare feet. As I came up,
she had an air as if she had just ceased from movement, and I had a distinct
feeling that she had knelt before it—I saw the look of worship! The thing
troubled me like a dream, haunting, impossible, but real.
“How beautiful!” I said
in spite of myself, as she pointed to the image. “In this utter solitude it
seems the very spirit of the place.”
“He was. He is,” said
Vanna.
“Explain to me. I don’t
understand. I know so little of him. What is the subject?”
She hesitated; then
chose her words as if for a beginner;—“It is the Blessed One preaching to the
Tree-Spirits. See how eagerly they lean from the boughs to listen. This other
relief represents him in the state of mystic vision. Here he is drowned in
peace. See how it overflows from the closed eyes; the closed lips. The air is filled
with his quiet.”
“What is he dreaming?”
“Not dreaming—seeing.
Peace. He sits at the point where time and infinity meet. To attain that vision
was the aim of the monks who lived here.”
“Did they attain?” I
found myself speaking as if she could certainly answer.
“A few. There was one,
Vasettha, the Brahman, a young man who had renounced all his possessions and
riches, and seated here before this image of the Blessed One, he fell often
into the mystic state. He had a strange vision at one time of the future of
India, which will surely be fulfilled. He did not forget it in his rebirths. He
remembers-”
She broke off suddenly
and said with forced indifference,—“He would sit here often looking out over
the mountains; the monks sat at his feet to hear. He became abbot while still
young. But his story is a sad one.”
“I entreat you to tell
me.”
She looked away over the
mountains. “While he was abbot here,—still a young man,—a famous Chinese
Pilgrim came down through Kashmir to visit the Holy Places in India. The abbot
went forward with him to Peshawar, that he might make him welcome. And there
came a dancer to Peshawar, named Lilavanti, most beautiful! I dare not tell you
her beauty. I tremble now to think-”
Again she paused, and
again the faint creeping sense of mystery invaded me.
She resumed;—
“The abbot saw her and
he loved her. He was young still, you remember. She was a woman of the Hindu
faith and hated Buddhism. It swept him down into the lower worlds of storm and
desire. He fled with Lilavanti and never returned here. So in his rebirth he
fell-”
She stopped dead; her
face pale as death.
“How do you know? Where
have you read it? If I could only find what you find and know what you know!
The East is like an open book to you. Tell me the rest.”
“How should I know any
more?” she said hurriedly. “We must be going back. You should study the plans
of this place at Peshawar. They were very learned monks who lived here. It is
famous for learning.”
The life had gone out of
her words-out of the ruins. There was no more to be said.
We clambered down the
hill in the hot sunshine, speaking only of the view, the strange shrubs and
flowers, and, once, the swift gliding of a snake, and found Mrs. Delany
blissfully asleep in the most padded corner of the car. The spirit of the East
vanished in her comfortable presence, and luncheon seemed the only matter of
moment.
“I wonder, my dears,”
she said, “if you would be very disappointed and think me very dense if I
proposed our giving up the Malakhand Fort? The driver has been giving me in
very poor English such an account of the dangers of that awful road up the hill
that I feel no Fort would repay me for its terrors. Do say what you feel, Miss
Loring. Mr. Clifden can lunch with the officers at Nowshera and come any time.
I know I am an atrocity.”
There could be only one
answer, though Vanna and I knew perfectly well the crafty design of the driver
to spare himself work. Mrs. Delany remained brightly awake for the run home,
and favored us with many remarkable views on India and its shortcomings, Vanna,
who had a sincere liking for her, laughing with delight at her description of a
visit of condolence with Lady Meryon to the five widows of one of the hill
Rajas.
But I own I was
pre-occupied. I knew those moments at the monastery had given me a glimpse into
the wonderland of her soul that made me long for more. It was rapidly becoming
clear to me that unless my intentions developed on very different lines I must
flee Peshawar. For love is born of sympathy, and sympathy was strengthening daily,
but for love I had no courage yet.
I feared it as men fear
the unknown. I despised myself—but I feared. I will confess my egregious folly
and vanity—I had no doubt as to her reception of my offer if I should make it,
but possessed by a colossal selfishness, I thought only of myself, and from
that point of view could not decide how I stood to lose or gain. In my wildest
accesses of vanity I did not suppose Vanna loved me, but I felt she liked me,
and I believe the advantages I had to offer would be overwhelming to a woman in
her position. So, tossed on the waves of indecision, I inclined to flight.
That night I resolutely
began my packing, and wrote a note of farewell to Lady Meryon. The next morning
I furiously undid it, and destroyed the note. And that afternoon I took the
shortest way to the sun-set road to lounge about and wait for Vanna and
Winifred. She never came, and I was as unreasonably angry as if I had deserved
the blessing of her presence.
Next day I could see
that she tried gently hut clearly to discourage our meeting and for three days
I never saw her at all. Yet I knew that in her solitary life our talks counted
for a pleasure, and when we met again I thought I saw a new softness in the
lovely hazel deeps of her eyes.
III
On the day when things
became clear to me, I was walking towards the Meryons’ gates when I met her
coming alone along the sunset road, in the late gold of the afternoon. She
looked pale and a little wearied, and I remembered I wished I did not know
every change of her face as I did. It was a symptom that alarmed my
selfishness—it galled me with the sense that I was no longer my own despot.
“So you have been up the
Khyber Pass,” she said as I fell into step at her side. “Tell me—was it as
wonderful as you expected?”
“No, no,—you tell me! It
will give me what I missed. Begin at the beginning. Tell me what I saw.”
I could not miss the
delight of her words, and she laughed, knowing my whim.
“Oh, that Pass!—the
wonder of those old roads that have borne the traffic and romance of the world
for ages. Do you think there is anything in the world so fascinating as they
are? But did you go on Tuesday or Friday?”
For these are the only
days in the week when the Khyber can be safely entered. The British then turn
out the Khyber Rifles and man every crag, and the loaded caravans move like a
tide, and go up and down the narrow road on their occasions.
Naturally mere
sightseers are not welcomed, for much business must be got through in that
urgent forty eight hours in which life is not risked in entering.
“Tuesday. But make a
picture for me.”
“Well, you gave your
word not to photograph or sketch—as if one wanted to when every bit of it is
stamped on one’s brain! And you went up to Jumrood Fort at the entrance. Did
they tell you it is an old Sikh Fort and has been on duty in that turbulent
place for five hundred years And did you see the machine guns in the court? And
every one armed—even the boys with belts of cartridges? Then you went up the
narrow winding track between the mountains, and you said to yourself, ‘This is
the road of pure romance. It goes up to silken Samarkhand, and I can ride to
Bokhara of the beautiful women and to all the dreams. Am I alive and is it
real?’ You felt that?”
“All. Every bit. Go on!”
She smiled with
pleasure.
“And you saw the little
forts on the crags and the men on guard all along the bills, rifles ready! You
could hear the guns rattle as they saluted. Do you know that up there men
plough with rifles loaded beside them? They have to be men indeed.”
“Do you mean to imply
that we are not men?”
“Different men at least.
This is life in a Border ballad. Such a life as you knew in France but
beautiful in a wild—hawk sort of way. Don’t the Khyber Rifles bewilder you?
They are drawn from these very Hill tribes, and will shoot their own fathers
and brothers in the way of duty as comfortably as if they were jackals. Once
there was a scrap here and one of the tribesmen sniped our men unbearably. What
do you suppose happened? A Khyber Rifle came to the Colonel and said, ‘Let me
put an end to him, Colonel Sahib. I know exactly where he sits. He is my
grandfather.’ And he did it!”
“The bond of bread and
salt?”
“Yes, and discipline.
I’m sometimes half frightened of discipline. It moulds a man like wax. Even God
doesn’t do that. Well—then you had the traders—wild shaggy men in sheepskin and
women in massive jewelry of silver and turquoise,-great earrings, heavy
bracelets loading their arms, wild, fierce, handsome. And the camels—thousands
of them, some going up, some coming down, a mass of human and animal life.
Above you, moving figures against the keen blue sky, or deep below you in the
ravines.
“The camels were swaying
along with huge bales of goods, and dark beautiful women in wicker cages
perched on them. Silks and carpets from Bokhara, and blue—eyed Persian cats,
and bluer Persian turquoises. Wonderful! And the dust, gilded by the sunshine,
makes a vaporous golden atmosphere for it all.”
“What was the most
wonderful thing you saw there?”
“The most beautiful, I
think, was a man—a splendid dark ruffian lounging along. He wanted to show off,
and his swagger was perfect. Long black onyx eyes and a tumble of black curls,
and teeth like almonds. But what do you think he carried on his wrist—a hawk
with fierce yellow eyes, ringed and chained. Hawking is a favourite sport in
the hills. Oh, why doesn’t some great painter come and paint it all before they
take to trains and cars? I long to see it all again, but I never shall.”
“Why not,” said I.
“Surely Sir John can get you up there any day?”
“Not now. The fighting
makes it difficult. But it isn’t that. I am leaving.”
“Leaving?” My heart gave
a leap. “Why? Where?”
“Leaving Lady Meryon.”
“Why—for Heaven’s sake?”
“I had rather not tell
you.”
“But I must know.”
“You cannot.”
“I shall ask Lady Meryon.”
“I forbid you.”
And then the unexpected
happened, and an unbearable impulse swept me into folly—or was it wisdom?
“Listen to me. I would
not have said it yet, but this settles it. I want you to marry me. I want it
atrociously!”
It was a strange word.
What I felt for her at that moment was difficult to describe. I endured it like
a pain that could only be assuaged by her presence, but I endured it angrily.
We were walking on the sunset road—very deserted and quiet at the time. The
place was propitious if nothing else was.
She looked at me in
transparent astonishment;
“Mr. Clifden, are you
dreaming? You can’t mean what you say.”
“Why can’t I? I do. I
want you. You have the key of all I care for. I think of the world without you
and find it tasteless.”
“Surely you have all the
world can give? What do you want more?”
“The power to enjoy
it—to understand it. You have got that—I haven’t. I want you always with me to
interpret, like a guide to a blind fellow. I am no better.”
“Say like a dog, at
once!” she interrupted. “At least you are frank enough to put it on that
ground. You have not said you love me. You could not say it.”
“I don’t know whether I
do or not. I know nothing about love. I want you. Indescribably. Perhaps that
is love—is it? I never wanted any one before. I have tried to get away and I
can’t.”
I was brutally frank,
you see. She compelled my very thoughts.
“Why have you tried?”
“Because every man likes
freedom. But I like you better.” “I can tell you the reason,” she said in her
gentle unwavering voice. “I am Lady Meryon’s governess, and an undesirable. You
have felt that?”
“Don’t make me out such
a snob. No—yes. You force me into honesty. I did feel it at first like the
miserable fool I am, but I could kick myself when I think of that now. It is
utterly forgotten. Take me and make me what you will, and forgive me. Only tell
me your secret of joy. How is it you understand everything alive or dead? I
want to live—to see, to know.”
It was a rhapsody like a
boy’s. Yet at the moment I was not even ashamed of it, so sharp was my need.
“I think,” she said,
slowly, looking straight before her, “that I had better be quite frank. I don’t
love you. I don’t know what love means in the Western sense. It has a very
different meaning for me. Your voice comes to me from an immense distance when
you speak in that way. You want me—but never with a thought of what I might
want. Is that love? I like you very deeply as a friend, but we are of different
races. There is a gulf.”
“A gulf? You are
English.”
“By birth, yes. In mind,
no. And there are things that go deeper, that you could not understand. So I
refuse quite definitely, and our ways part here, for in a few days I go. I
shall not see you again, but I wish to say good-bye.”
The bitterest chagrin
was working in my soul. I felt as if all were deserting me-a sickening feeling
of loneliness. I did not know the man who was in me, and was a stranger to
myself.
“I entreat you to tell
me why, and where.”
“Since you have made me
this offer, I will tell you why. Lady Meryon objected to my friendship with
you, and objected in a way which-”
She stopped, flushing
palely. I caught her hand.
“That settles it!-that
she should have dared! I’ll go up this minute and tell her we are engaged.
Vanna-Vanna!”
For she disengaged her
hand, quietly but firmly.
“On no account. How can
I make it more plain to you? I should have gone soon in any case. My place is
in the native city—that is the life I want. I have work there, I knew it before
I came out. My sympathies are all with them. They know what life is—why even
the beggars, poorer than poor, are perfectly happy, basking in the great
generous sun. Oh, the splendour and riot of life and colour! That’s my life—I
sicken of this.”
“But I’ll give it to
you. Marry me, and we will travel till you’re tired of it.”
“Yes, and look on as at
a play—sitting in the stalls, and applauding when we are pleased. No, I’m going
to work there.” “For God’s sake, how? Let me come too.”
“You can’t. You’re not
in it. I am going to attach myself to the medical mission at Lahore and learn
nursing, and then I shall go to my own people.”
“Missionaries? You’ve
nothing in common with them?”
“Nothing. But they teach
what I want. Mr. Clifden, I shall not come this way again. If I remember—I’ll
write to you, and tell you what the real world is like.”
She smiled, the absorbed
little smile I knew and feared. I saw pleading was useless then. I would wait,
and never lose sight of her and of hope.
“Vanna, before you go,
give me your gift of sight. Interpret for me. Stay with me a little and make me
see.”
“What do you mean
exactly?” she asked in her gentlest voice, half turning to me.
“Make one journey with
me, as my sister, if you will do no more. Though I warn you that all the time I
shall be trying to win my wife. But come with me once, and after that—if you
will go, you must. Say yes.”
Madness! But she
hesitated—a hesitation full of hope, and looked at me with intent eyes.
“I will tell you
frankly,” she said at last, “that I know my knowledge of the East and kinship
with it goes far beyond mere words. In my case the doors were not shut. I
believe—I know that long ago this was my life. If I spoke for ever I could not
make you understand how much I know and why. So I shall quite certainly go back
to it. Nothing—you least of all, can hold me. But you are my friend—that is a
true bond. And if you would wish me to give you two months before I go, I might
do that if it would in any way help you. As your friend only—you clearly
understand. You would not reproach me afterwards when I left you, as I should
most certainly do?”
“I swear I would not. I
swear I would protect you even from myself. I want you for ever, but if you
will only give me two months—come! But have you thought that people will talk.
It may injure you. I’m not worth that, God knows. And you will take nothing I
could give you in return.”
She spoke very quietly.
“That does not trouble
me.—It would only trouble me if you asked what I have not to give. For two
months I would travel with you as a friend, if, like a friend, I paid my own
expenses-”
I would have
interrupted, but she brushed that firmly aside. “No, I must do as I say, and I
am quite able to or I should not suggest it. I would go on no other terms. It
would be hard if because we are man and woman I might not do one act of
friendship for you before we part. For though I refuse your offer utterly, I
appreciate it, and I would make what little return I can. It would be a sharp
pain to me to distress you.”
Her gentleness and calm,
the magnitude of the offer she was making stunned me so that I could scarcely
speak. There was such an extraordinary simplicity and generosity in her manner
that it appeared to me more enthralling and bewildering than the most finished
coquetry I had ever known. She gave me opportunities that the most ardent lover
could in his wildest dream desire, and with the remoteness in her eyes and her
still voice she deprived them of all hope. It kindled in me a flame that made
my throat dry when I tried to speak.
“Vanna, is it a promise?
You mean it?”
“If you wish it, yes.
But I warn you I think it will not make it easier for you when the time is
over.
“Why two months?”
“Partly because I can
afford no more. No! I know what you would say. Partly because I can spare no
more time. But I will give you that, if you wish, though, honestly, I had very
much rather not. I think it unwise for you. I would protect you if I
could—indeed I would!”
It was my turn to
hesitate now. Every moment revealed to me some new sweetness, some charm that I
saw would weave itself into the very fibre of my I had been! Was I not now a
fool? Would it not being if the opportunity were given. Oh, fool that be better
to let her go before she had become a part of my daily experience? I began to
fear I was courting my own shipwreck. She read my thoughts clearly.
“Indeed you would be
wise to decide against it. Release me from my promise. It was a mad scheme.”
The superiority—or so I
felt it—of her gentleness maddened me. It might have been I who needed
protection, who was running the risk of misjudgment—not she, a lonely woman.
She looked at me, waiting—trying to be wise for me, never for one instant
thinking of herself. I felt utterly exiled from the real purpose of her life.
“I will never release
you. I claim your promise. I hold to it.”
“Very well then—I will
write, and tell you where I shall be. Good-bye, and if you change your mind, as
I hope you will, tell me.”
She extended her hand
cool as a snowflake, and was gone, walking swiftly up the road. Ah, let a man
beware when his wishes fulfilled, rain down upon him!
To what had I committed myself? She knew her
strength and had no fears.
I could scarcely realize that she had liking
enough for me to make the
offer. That it meant no shade more than she had
said I knew well. She
was safe, but what was to be the result for me?
I knew nothing—she was
a beloved mystery.
“Strange
she is and secret, Strange her eyes; her
cheeks are
cold as cold sea-shells.”
Yet I would risk it, for
I knew there was no hope if I let her go now, and if I saw her again, some
glimmer might fall upon my dark.
Next day this reached
me:—Dear Mr. Clifden,—
I am going to some
Indian friends for a time. On the 15th of June I shall be at Srinagar in
Kashmir. A friend has allowed me to take her little houseboat, the “Kedarnath.”
If you like this plan we will share the cost for two months. I warn you it is
not luxurious, but I think you will like it. I shall do this whether you come
or no, for I want a quiet time before I take up my nursing in Lahore. In
thinking of all this will you remember that I am not a girl but a woman. I
shall be twenty-nine my next birthday. Sincerely yours, VANNA LORING.
P.S. But I still think
you would be wiser not to come. I hope to hear you will not.
I replied only
this:—Dear Miss Loring,—I think I understand the position fully. I will be
there. I thank you with all my heart. Gratefully yours, STEPHEN CLIFDEN.
IV
Three days later I met
Lady Meryon, and was swept in to tea. Her manner was distinctly more cordial as
she mentioned casually that Vanna had left—she understood to take up missionary
work—“which is odd,” she added with a woman’s acrimony, “for she had no more in
common with missionaries than I have, and that is saying a good deal. Of course
she speaks Hindustani perfectly, and could be useful, but I haven’t grasped the
point of it yet.” I saw she counted on my knowing nothing of the real reason of
Vanna’s going and left it, of course, at that. The talk drifted away under my
guidance. Vanna evidently puzzled her. She half feared, and wholly misunderstood
her.
No message came to me,
as time went by, and for the time she had vanished completely, but I held fast
to her promise and lived on that only.
I take up my life where
it ceased to be a mere suspense and became life once more.
On the 15th of June, I found
myself riding into Srinagar in Kashmir, through the pure tremulous green of the
mighty poplars that hedge the road into the city. The beauty of the country had
half stunned me when I entered the mountain barrier of Baramula and saw the
snowy peaks that guard the Happy Valley, with the Jhelum flowing through its
tranquil loveliness. The flush of the almond blossom was over, but the iris,
like a blue sea of peace had overflowed the world—the azure meadows smiled back
at the radiant sky. Such blossom! the blue shading into clear violet, like a
shoaling sea. The earth, like a cup held in the hand of a god, brimmed with the
draught of youth and summer and—love? But no, for me the very word was
sinister. Vanna’s face, immutably calm, confronted it.
That night I slept in a
boat at Sopor, and I remember that, waking at midnight, I looked out and saw a
mountain with a gloriole of hazy silver about it, misty and faint as a cobweb
threaded with dew. The river, there spreading into a lake, was dark under it,
flowing in a deep smooth blackness of shadow, and everything awaited—what? And
even while I looked, the moon floated serenely above the peak, and all was
bathed in pure light, the water rippling and shining in broken silver and
pearl. So had Vanna floated into my sky, luminous, sweet, remote. I did not
question my heart any more. I knew I loved her.
Two days later I rode
into Srinagar, and could scarcely see the wild beauty of that strange Venice of
the East, my heart was so beating in my eyes. I rode past the lovely wooden
bridges where the balconied houses totter to each other across the canals in
dim splendour of carving and age; where the many-coloured native life crowds
down to the river steps and cleanses its flower-bright robes, its gold-bright
brass vessels in the shining stream, and my heart said only—Vanna, Vanna!
One day, one thought, of
her absence had taught me what she was to me, and if humility and patient
endeavor could raise me to her feet, I was resolved that I would spend my life
in labor and think it well spent.
My servant dismounted
and led his horse, asking from every one where the “Kedarnath” could be found,
and eager black eyes sparkled and two little bronze images detached themselves
from the crowd of boys, and ran, fleet as fauns, before us.
Above the last bridge
the Jhelum broadens out into a stately river, controlled at one side by the
banked walk known as the Bund, with the Club House upon it and the line of
houseboats beneath. Here the visitors flutter up and down and exchange the
gossip, the bridge appointments, the little dinners that sit so incongruously
on the pure Orient that is Kashmir.
She would not be here.
My heart told me that, and sure enough the boys were leading across the bridge
and by a quiet shady way to one of the many backwaters that the great river
makes in the enchanting city. There is one waterway stretching on afar to the
Dal Lake. It looks like a river—it is the very haunt of peace. Under those
mighty chenar, or plane trees, that are the glory of Kashmir, clouding the
water with deep green shadows, the sun can scarcely pierce, save in a dipping
sparkle here and there to intensify the green gloom. The murmur of the city,
the chatter of the club, are hundreds of miles away. We rode downward under the
towering trees, and dismounting, saw a little houseboat tethered to the bank.
It was not of the richer sort that haunts the Bund, where the native servants
follow in a separate boat, and even the electric light is turned on as part of
the luxury. This was a long low craft, very broad, thatched like a country
cottage afloat. In the forepart lived the native owner, and his family, their
crew, our cooks and servants; for they played many parts in our service. And in
the afterpart, room for a life, a dream, the joy or curse & many days to
be.
But then, I saw only one
thing—Vanna sat under the trees, reading, or looking at the cool dim watery
vista, with a single boat, loaded to the river’s edge with melons and scarlet
tomatoes, punting lazily down to Srinagar in the sleepy afternoon.
She was dressed in white
with a shady hat, and her delicate dark face seemed to glow in the shadow like
the heart of a pale rose. For the first time I knew she was beautiful. Beauty
shone in her like the flame in an alabaster lamp, serene, diffused in the very
air about her, so that to me she moved in a mild radiance. She rose to meet me
with both hands outstretched—the kindest, most cordial welcome. Not an eyelash
flickered, not a trace of self-consciousness. If I could have seen her flush or
tremble—but no—her eyes were clear and calm as a forest pool. So I remembered
her. So I saw her once more.
I tried, with a hopeless
pretence, to follow her example and hide what I felt, where she had nothing to
hide.
“What a place you have
found. Why, it’s like the deep heart of a wood!”
“Yes, I saw it once when
I was here with the Meryons. But we lay at the Bund then—just under the Club.
This is better. Did you like the ride up?”
I threw myself on the
grass beside her with a feeling of perfect rest.
“It was like a new
heaven and a new earth. What a country!”
The very spirit of Quiet
seemed to be drowsing in those branches towering up into the blue, dipping
their green fingers into the crystal of the water. What a heaven!
“Now you shall have your
tea and then I will show you your rooms,” she said, smiling at my delight. “We
shall stay here a few days more that you may see Srinagar, and then they tow us
up into the Dal Lake opposite the Gardens of the Mogul Emperors. And if you
think this beautiful what will you say then?”
I shut my eyes and see
still that first meal of my new life. The little table that Pir Baksh,
breathing full East in his jade-green turban, set before her, with its cloth
worked in a pattern of the chenar leaves that are the symbol of Kashmir; the
brown cakes made by Ahmad Khan in a miraculous kitchen of his own invention—a
few holes burrowed in the river bank, a smoldering fire beneath them, and a
width of canvas for a roof. But it served, and no more need be asked of luxury.
And Vanna, making it mysteriously the first home I ever had known, the central
joy of it all. Oh, wonderful days of life that breathe the spirit of
immortality and pass so quickly—surely they must be treasured somewhere in
Eternity that we may look upon their beloved light once more.
“Now you must see the
boat. The Kedarnath is not a Dreadnought, but she is broad and very
comfortable. And we have many chaperons. They all live in the bows, and exist
simply to protect the Sahiblog from all discomfort, and very well they do it.
That is Ahmad Khan by the kitchen. He cooks for us. Salama owns the boat, and
steers her and engages the men to tow us when we move. And when I arrived he
aired a little English and said piously; The Lord help me to give you no
trouble, and the Lord help you! That is his wife sitting on the bank. She
speaks little but Kashmiri, but I know a little of that. Look at the hundred
rat-tail plaits of her hair, lengthened with wool, and see her silver and
turquoise jewelry. She wears much of the family fortune and is quite a walking
bank. Salama, Ahmad Khan and I talk by the hour. Ahmad comes from Fyzabad. Look
at Salama’s boy—I call him the Orange Imp. Did you ever see anything so
beautiful?”
I looked in sheer
delight, and grasped my camera. Sitting near us was a lovely little Kashmiri
boy of about eight, in a faded orange coat, and a turban exactly like his
father’s. His curled black eyelashes were so long that they made a soft gloom
over the upper part of the little golden face. The perfect bow of the scarlet
lips, the long eyes, the shy smile, suggested an Indian Eros. He sat dipping
his feet in the water with little pigeon-like cries of content.
“He paddles at the bow
of our little shikara boat with a paddle exactly like a water-lily leaf. Do you
like our friends? I love them already, and know all their affairs. And now for
the boat.”
“One moment—If we are
friends on a great adventure, I must call you Vanna, and you me Stephen.”
“Yes, I suppose that is
part of it,” she said, smiling. “Come, Stephen.”
It was like music, but a
cold music that chilled me. She should have hesitated, should have flushed—it
was I who trembled. So I followed her across the broad plank into our new home.
“This is our
sitting-room. Look, how charming!”
It was better than
charming; it was home indeed. Windows at each side opening down almost to the
water, a little table for meals that lived mostly on the bank, with a grey pot
of iris in the middle. Another table for writing, photography, and all the
little pursuits of travel. A bookshelf with some well—worn friends. Two long
cushioned chairs. Two for meals, and a Bokhara rug, soft and pleasant for the
feet. The interior was plain unpainted wood, but set so that the grain showed
like satin in the rippling lights from the water.
That is the inventory of
the place I have loved best in the world, but what eloquence can describe what
it gave me, what its memory gives me to this day? And I have no eloquence—what
I felt leaves me dumb.
“It is perfect,” was all
I said as she waved her hand proudly. “It is home.”
“And if you had come
alone to Kashmir you would have had a great rich boat with electric light and a
butler. You would never have seen the people except at meal—times. I think you
will like this better. Well, this is your tiny bedroom, and your bathroom, and
beyond the sitting—room are mine. Do you like it all?”
But I could say no more.
The charm of her own personality had touched everything and left its fragrance
like a flower—breath in the air. I was beggared of thanks, but my whole soul
was gratitude. We dined on the bank that evening, the lamp burning steadily in
the still air and throwing broken reflections in the water, while the moon
looked in upon them through the leaves. I felt extraordinarily young and happy.
The quiet of her voice
was soft as the little lap of water against the bows of the boat, and Kahdra,
the Orange Imp, was singing a little wordless song to himself as he washed the
plates beside us. It was a simple meal, and Vanna, abstemious as a hermit never
ate anything but rice and fruit, but I could remember no meal in all my days of
luxury where I had eaten with such zest.
“It looks very grand to
have so many to wait upon us, doesn’t it? But this is one of the cheapest
countries in the world though the old timers mourn over present expenses. You
will laugh when I show you your share of the cost.”
“The wealth of the world
could not buy this,” I said, and was silent.
“But you must listen to
my plans. We must do a little camping the last three weeks before we part. Up
in the mountains. Are they not marvellous? They stand like a rampart round us,
but not cold and terrible, but “Like as the hills stand round about
Jerusalem”—they are guardian presences. And running up into them, high-very
high, are the valleys and hills where we shall camp. Tomorrow we shall row
through Srinagar, by the old Maharaja’s palace.”
V
And so began a life of
sheer enchantment. We knew no one. The visitors in Kashmir change nearly every
season, and no one cared-no one asked anything of us, and as for our shipmates,
a willing affectionate service was their gift, and no more. Looking back, I
know in what a wonder-world I was privileged to live. Vanna could talk with
them all. She did not move apart, a condescending or indifferent foreigner.
Kahdra would come to her knee and prattle to her of the great snake that lived
up on Mahadeo to devour erring boys who omitted their prayers at proper Moslem
intervals. She would sit with the baby in her lap while the mother busied
herself in the sunny bows with the mysterious dishes that smelt so savory to a
hungry man. The cuts, the bruises of the neighbourhood all came to Vanna for
treatment.
“I am graduating as a
nurse,” she would say laughing as she bent over the lean arm of some weirdly
wrinkled old lady, bandaging and soothing at the same moment. Her reward would
be some bit of folk-lore, some quaintness of gratitude that I noted down in the
little book I kept for remembrance—that I do not need, for every word is in my
heart.
We rowed down through
the city next day—Salama rowing, and little Kahdra lazily paddling at the bow—a
wonderful city, with its narrow ways begrimed with the dirt of ages, and its
balconied houses looking as if disease and sin had soaked into them and given
them a vicious tottering beauty, horrible and yet lovely too. We saw the
swarming life of the bazaar, the white turbans coming and going, diversified by
the rose and yellow Hindu turbans, and the caste-marks, orange and red, on the
dark brows.
I saw two
women—girls—painted and tired like Jezebel, looking out of one window carved
and old, and the grey burnished doves flying about it. They leaned indolently,
like all the old, old wickedness of the East that yet is ever young—“Flowers of
Delight,” with smooth black hair braided with gold and blossoms, and covered
with pale rose veils, and gold embossed disks swinging like lamps beside the
olive cheeks, the great eyes artificially lengthened and darkened with soorma,
and the curves of the full lips emphasized with vermilion. They looked down on
us with apathy, a dull weariness that held all the old evil of the wicked
humming city.
It had taken shape in
those indolent bodies and heavy eyes that could flash into life as a snake
wakes into fierce darting energy when the time comes to spring—direct
inheritrixes from Lilith, in the fittest setting in the world—the almost
exhausted vice of an Oriental city as old as time.
“And look-below here,”
said Vanna, pointing to one of the ghauts—long rugged steps running down to the
river.
“When I came yesterday,
a great broken crowd was collected here, almost shouldering each other into the
water where a boat lay rocking. In it lay the body of a man brutally murdered
for the sake of a few rupees and flung into the river. I could see the poor
brown body stark in the boat with a friend weeping beside it. On the lovely
deodar bridge people leaned over, watching with a grim open-mouthed curiosity,
and business went on gaily where the jewelers make the silver bangles for
slender wrists, and the rows of silver chains that make the necks like ‘the
Tower of Damascus builded for an armory.’ It was all very wild and cruel. I
went down to them-”
“Vanna—you went down?
Horrible!”
“No, you see I heard
them say the wife was almost a child and needs help. So I went. Once long ago
at Peshawar I saw the same thing happen, and they came and took the child for
the service of the gods, for she was most lovely, and she clung to the feet of
a man in terror, and the priest stabbed her to the heart. She died in my arms.
“Good God!” I said,
shuddering; “what a sight for you! Did they never hang him?”
“He was not punished. I
told you it was a very long time ago. Her expression had a brooding quiet as
she looked down into the running river, almost it might be as if she saw the
picture of that past misery in the deep water. She said no more. But in her
words and the terrible crowding of its life, Srinagar seemed to me more of a
nightmare than anything I had seen, excepting only Benares; for the holy
Benares is a memory of horror, with a sense of blood hidden under its frantic
crazy devotion, and not far hidden either.
“Our own green shade,
when we pulled back to it in the evening cool, was a refuge of unspeakable
quiet. She read aloud to me that evening by the small light of our lamp beneath
the trees, and, singularly, she read of joy.
“I have drunk of the Cup
of the Ineffable, I have found the key of the Mystery, Travelling by no track I
have come to the Sorrowless Land; very easily has the mercy of the great Lord
come upon me. Wonderful is that Land of rest to which no merit can win. There
have I seen joy filled to the brim, perfection of joy. He dances in rapture and
waves of form arise from His dance. He holds all within his bliss.”
“What is that?”
“It is from the songs of
the great Indian mystic—Kabir. Let me read you more. It is like the singing of
a lark, lost in the infinite of light and heaven.”
So in the soft darkness
I heard for the first time those immortal words; and hearing, a faint glimmer
of understanding broke upon me as to the source of the peace that surrounded
her. I had accepted it as an emanation of her own heart when it was the pulsing
of the tide of the Divine. She read, choosing a verse here and there, and I
listened with absorption.
Suppose I had been wrong
in believing that sorrow is the keynote of life; that pain is the road of
ascent, if road there be; that an implacable Nature and that only, presides
over all our pitiful struggles and seekings and writes a black “Finis” to the
holograph of our existence?
What then? What was she
teaching me? Was she the Interpreter of a Beauty eternal in the heavens, and
reflected like a broken prism in the beauty that walked visible beside me? So I
listened like a child to an unknown language, yet ventured my protest.
“In India, in this
wonderful country where men have time and will for speculation such thoughts
may be natural. Can they be found in the West?”
“This is from the
West—might not Kabir himself have said it? Certainly he would have felt it.
‘Happy is he who seeks not to understand the Mystery of God, but who, merging
his spirit into Thine, sings to Thy face, O Lord, like a harp, understanding
how difficult it is to know—how easy to love Thee.’ We debate and argue and the
Vision passes us by. We try to prove it, and kill it in the laboratory of our minds,
when on the altar of our souls it will dwell for ever.”
Silence—and I pondered.
Finally she laid the book aside, and repeated from memory and in a tone of
perfect music; “Kabir says, ‘I shall go to the House of my Lord with my Love at
my side; then shall I sound the trumpet of triumph.’”
And when she left me
alone in the moonlight silence the old doubts came back to me—the fear that I
saw only through her eyes, and began to believe in joy only because I loved
her. I remember I wrote in the little book I kept for my stray thoughts, these
words which are not mine but reflect my thought of her; “Thine is the skill of
the Fairy Woman, and the virtue of St. Bride, and the faith of Mary the Mild,
and the gracious way of the Greek woman, and the beauty of lovely Emer, and the
tenderness of heart-sweet Deirdre, and the courage of Maev the great Queen, and
the charm of Mouth-of-Music.”
Yes, all that and more,
but I feared lest I should see the heaven of joy through her eyes only and find
it mirage as I had found so much else.
SECOND PART Early in the
pure dawn the men came and our boat was towed up into the Dal Lake through
crystal waterways and flowery banks, the men on the path keeping step and
straining at the rope until the bronze muscles stood out on their legs and
backs, shouting strong rhythmic phrases to mark the pull.
“They shout the Wondrous
Names of God—as they are called,” said Vanna when I asked. “They always do that
for a timid effort. Bad shah! The Lord, the Compassionate, and so on. I don’t
think there is any religion about it but it is as natural to them as One, Two,
Three, to us. It gives a tremendous lift. Watch and see.”
It was part of the
delightful strangeness that we should move to that strong music. We sat on the
upper deck and watched the dream—like beauty drift slowly by until we emerged
beneath a little bridge into the fairy land of the lake which the Mogul
Emperors loved so well that they made their noble pleasance gardens on the
banks, and thought it little to travel up yearly from far—off Delhi over the
snowy Pir Panjal with their Queens and courts for the perfect summer of
Kashmir.
We moored by a low bank
under a great wood of chenar trees, and saw the little table in the wilderness
set in the greenest shade with our chairs beside it, and my pipe laid
reverently upon it by Kahdra.
Across the glittering
water lay on one side the Shalimar Garden known to all readers of “Lalla
Ruhk”—a paradise of roses; and beyond it again the lovelier gardens of
Nour-Mahal, the Light of the Palace, that imperial woman who ruled India under
the weak Emperor’s name—she whose name he set thus upon his coins:
“By order of King
Jehangir. Gold has a hundred splendours added to it by receiving the name of
Nour-Jahan the Queen.”
Has any woman ever had a
more royal homage than this most royal lady—known first as Mihr-u-nissa—Sun of
Women, and later, Nour-Mahal, Light of the Palace, and latest,
Nour-Jahan-Begam, Queen, Light of the World?
Here in these gardens
she had lived—had seen the snow mountains change from the silver of dawn to the
illimitable rose of sunset. The life, the colour beat insistently upon my
brain. They built a world of magic where every moment was pure gold.
Surely—surely to Vanna it must be the same. I believed in my very soul that she
who gave and shared such joy could not be utterly apart from me? Could I then
feel certain that I had gained any ground in these days we had been together?
Could she still define the cruel limits she had laid down, or were her eyes
kinder, her tones a more broken music? I did not know. Whenever I could hazard
a guess the next minute baffled me.
Just then, in the
sunset, she was sitting on deck, singing under her breath and looking absently
away to the Gardens across the Lake. I could catch the words here and there,
and knew them.
“Pale
hands I loved beside the Shalimar,
Where
are you now—who lies beneath your spell?
Whom do
you lead on Rapture’s roadway far,
Before
you agonize them in farewell?”
“Don’t!” I said
abruptly. It stung me.
“What?” she asked in surprise.
“That is the song every one remembers here. Poor Laurence Hope! How she knew
and loved this India! What are you grumbling at?”
Her smile stung me.
“Never mind,” I said
morosely. “You don’t understand. You never will.”
And yet I believed
sometimes that she would—that time was on my side.
When Kahdra and I pulled
her across to Nour-Mahal’s garden next day, how could I not believe it—her face
was so full of joy as she looked at me for sympathy?
“I don’t think so much
beauty is crowded into any other few miles in the world—beauty of association,
history, nature, everything!” she said with shining eyes. “The lotus flowers
are not out yet but when they come that is the last touch of perfection. Do you
remember Homer—‘But whoso ate of the honey-sweet fruit of the lotus, was
neither willing to bring me word again, nor to depart. Nay, their desire was to
remain there for ever, feeding on the lotus with the Lotus Eaters, forgetful of
all return.’ You know the people here eat the roots and seeds? I ate them last
year and perhaps that is why I cannot stay away. But look at Nour-Mahal’s
garden!”
We were pulling in among
the reeds and the huge carven leaves of the water plants, and the snake-headed
buds lolling upon them with the slippery half-sinister look that water-flowers
have, as though their cold secret life belonged to the hidden water world and
not to ours. But now the boat was touching the little wooden steps.
O beautiful—most
beautiful the green lawns, shaded with huge pyramids of the chenar trees, the
terraced gardens where the marble steps climbed from one to the other, and the
mountain streams flashed singing and shining down the carved marble slopes that
cunning hands had made to delight the Empress of Beauty, between the
wildernesses of roses. Her pavilion stands still among the flowers, and the
waters ripple through it to join the lake—and she is—where? Even in the glory
of sunshine the passing of all fair things was present with me as I saw the
empty shell that had held the Pearl of Empire, and her roses that still bloom,
her waters that still sing for others.
The spray of a hundred
fountains was misty diamond dust in the warm air laden with the scent of myriad
flowers. Kahdra followed us everywhere, singing his little tuneless happy song.
The world brimmed with beauty and joy. And we were together. Words broke from
me.
“Vanna, let it be for
ever! Let us live here. I’ll give up all the world for this and you.”
“But you see,” she said
delicately, “it would be ‘giving up.’ You use the right word. It is not your
life. It is a lovely holiday, no more. You would weary of it. You would want
the city life and your own kind.”
I protested with all my
soul.
“No. Indeed I will say
frankly that it would be lowering yourself to live a lotus-eating life among my
people. It is a life with which you have no tie. A Westerner who lives like
that steps down; he loses his birthright just as an Oriental does who
Europeanizes himself. He cannot live your life nor you his. If you had work
here it would be different. No—six or eight weeks more; then go away and forget
it.”
I turned from her. The
serpent was in Paradise. When is he absent?
On one of the terraces a
man was beating a tom-tom, and veiled women listened, grouped about him in
brilliant colours.
“Isn’t that all India?”
she said; “that dull reiterated sound? It half stupefies, half maddens. Once at
Darjiling I saw the Lamas’ Devil Dance—the soul, a white-faced child with eyes
unnaturally enlarged, fleeing among a rabble of devils—the evil passions. It
fled wildly here and there and every way was blocked. The child fell on its
knees, screaming dumbly—you could see the despair in the staring eyes, but all
was drowned in the thunder of Tibetan drums. No mercy—no escape. Horrible!”
“Even in Europe the drum
is awful,” I said. “Do you remember in the French Revolution how they Drowned
the victims’ voices in a thunder roll of drums?”
“I shall always see the
face of the child, hunted down to hell, falling on its knees, and screaming
without a sound, when I hear the drum. But listen—a flute! Now if that were the
Flute of Krishna you would have to follow. Let us come!”
I could hear nothing of
it, but she insisted and we followed the music, inaudible to me, up the slopes
of the garden that is the foot-hill of the mighty mountain of Mahadeo, and
still I could hear nothing. And Vanna told me strange stories of the Apollo of
India whom all hearts must adore, even as the herd-girls adored him in his
golden youth by Jumna river and in the pastures of Brindaban.
Next day we were
climbing the hill to the ruins where the evil magician brought the King’s
daughter nightly to his will, flying low under a golden moon. Vanna took my arm
and I pulled her laughing up the steepest flowery slopes until we reached the
height, and lo! the arched windows were eyeless and a lonely breeze blowing
through the cloisters, and the beautiful yellowish stone arches supported
nothing and were but frames for the blue of far lake and mountain and the
divine sky. We climbed the broken stairs where the lizards went by like
flashes, and had I the tongue of men and angels I could not tell the wonder
that lay before us,—the whole wide valley of Kashmir in summer glory, with its
scented breeze singing, singing above it.
We sat on the crushed
aromatic herbs and among the wild roses and looked down.
“To think,” she said,
“that we might have died and never seen it!”
There followed a long
silence. I thought she was tired, and would not break it. Suddenly she spoke in
a strange voice, low and toneless;
“The story of this
place. She was the Princess Padmavati, and her home was in Ayodhya. When she
woke and found herself here by the lake she was so terrified that she flung
herself in and was drowned. They held her back, but she died.”
“How do you know?”
“Because a wandering
monk came to the abbey of Tahkt-i-Bahi near Peshawar and told Vasettha the
Abbot.”
I had nearly spoilt all
by an exclamation, but I held myself back. I saw she was dreaming awake and was
unconscious of what she said.
“The Abbot said, ‘Do not
describe her. What talk is this for holy men? The young monks must not hear.
Some of them have never seen a woman. Should a monk speak of such toys?’ But
the wanderer disobeyed and spoke, and there was a great tumult, and the monks
threw him out at the command of the young Abbot, and he wandered down to
Peshawar, and it was he later—the evil one!—that brought his sister, Lilavanti
the Dancer, to Peshawar, and the Abbot fell into her snare. That was his
revenge!”
Her face was fixed and
strange, for a moment her cheek looked hollow, her eyes dim and grief-worn.
What was she seeing?—what remembering? Was it a story—a memory? What was it?
“She was beautiful?” I
prompted.
“Men have said so, but
for it he surrendered the Peace. Do not speak of her accursed beauty.”
Her voice died away to a
drowsy murmur; her head dropped on my shoulder and for the mere delight of
contact I sat still and scarcely breathed, praying that she might speak again,
but the good minute was gone. She drew one or two deep breaths, and sat up with
a bewildered look that quickly passed.
“I was quite sleepy for
a minute. The climb was so strenuous. Hark—I hear the Flute of Krishna again.”
And again I could hear
nothing, but she said it was sounding from the trees at the base of the hill.
Later when we climbed down I found she was right—that a peasant lad, dark and
amazingly beautiful as these Kashmiris often are, was playing on the flute to a
girl at his feet—looking up at him with rapt eyes. He flung Vanna a flower as
we passed. She caught it and put it in her bosom. A singular blossom, three
petals of purest white, set against three leaves of purest green, and lower
down the stem the three green leaves were repeated. It was still in her bosom
after dinner, and I looked at it more closely.
“That is a curious
flower,” I said. “Three and three and three. Nine. That makes the mystic
number. I never saw a purer white. What is it?”
“Of course it is
mystic,” she said seriously. “It is the Ninefold Flower. You saw who gave it?”
“That peasant lad.”
She smiled.
“You will see more some
day. Some might not even have seen that.”
“Does it grow here?”
“This is the first I
have seen. It is said to grow only where the gods walk. Do you know that
throughout all India Kashmir is said to be holy ground? It was called long ago
the land of the gods, and of strange, but not evil, sorceries. Great marvels
were seen here.”
I felt the labyrinthine
enchantments of that enchanted land were closing about me—a slender web, grey,
almost impalpable, finer than fairy silk, was winding itself about my feet. My
eyes were opening to things I had not dreamed. She saw my thought.
“Yes, you could not have
seen even that much of him in Peshawar. You did not know then.”
“He was not there,” I
answered, falling half unconsciously into her tone.
“He is always there—everywhere,
and when he plays, all who hear must follow. He was the Pied Piper in Hamelin,
he was Pan in Hellas. You will hear his wild fluting in many strange places
when you know how to listen. When one has seen him the rest comes soon. And
then you will follow.”
“Not away from you,
Vanna.”
“From the marriage
feast, from the Table of the Lord,” she said, smiling strangely. “The man who
wrote that spoke of another call, but it is the same—Krishna or Christ. When we
hear the music we follow. And we may lose or gain heaven.”
It might have been her
compelling personality—it might have been the marvels of beauty about me, but I
knew well I had entered at some mystic gate. A pass word had been spoken for
me—I was vouched for and might go in. Only a little way as yet. Enchanted
forests lay beyond, and perilous seas, but there were hints, breaths like the
wafting of the garments of unspeakable Presences. My talk with Vanna grew less
personal, and more introspective. I felt the touch of her finger-tips leading
me along the ways of Quiet—my feet brushed a shining dew. Once, in the twilight
under the chenar trees, I saw a white gleaming and thought it a swiftly passing
Being, but when in haste I gained the tree I found there only a Ninefold
flower, white as a spirit in the evening calm. I would not gather it but told
Vanna what I had seen.
“You nearly saw;” she
said. “She passed so quickly. It was the Snowy One, Uma, Parvati, the Daughter
of the Himalaya. That mountain is the mountain of her lord—Shiva. It is natural
she should be here. I saw her last night lean over the height—her face pillowed
on her folded arms, with a low star in the mists of her hair. Her eyes were
like lakes of blue darkness. Vast and wonderful. She is the Mystic Mother of
India. You will see soon. You could not have seen the flower until now.”
“Do you know,” she
added, “that in the mountains there are poppies of clear blue—blue as
turquoise. We will go up into the heights and find them.”
And next moment she was
planning the camping details, the men, the ponies, with a practical zest that
seemed to relegate the occult to the absurd. Yet the very next day came a
wonderful moment.
The sun was just setting
and, as it were, suddenly the purple glooms banked up heavy with thunder. The
sky was black with fury, the earth passive with dread. I never saw such
lightning—it was continuous and tore in zigzag flashes down the mountains like
rents in the substance of the world’s fabric. And the thunder roared up in the
mountain gorges with shattering echoes. Then fell the rain, and the whole lake
seemed to rise to meet it, and the noise was like the rattle of musketry. We
were standing by the cabin window and she suddenly caught my hand, and I saw in
a light of their own two dancing figures on the tormented water before us. Wild
in the tumult, embodied delight, with arms tossed violently above their heads,
and feet flung up behind them, skimming the waves like seagulls, they passed.
Their sex I could not tell—I think they had none, but were bubble emanations of
the rejoicing rush of the rain and the wild retreating laughter of the thunder.
I saw the fierce aerial faces and their inhuman glee as they fled by, and she
dropped my hand and they were gone. Slowly the storm lessened, and in the west
the clouds tore raggedly asunder and a flood of livid yellow light poured down
upon the lake—an awful light that struck it into an abyss of fire. Then, as if
at a word of command, two glorious rainbows sprang across the water with the
mountains for their piers, each with its proper colours chorded. They made a
Bridge of Dread that stood out radiant against the background of storm—the
Twilight of the Gods, and the doomed gods marching forth to the last fight. And
the thunder growled sullenly away into the recesses of the hill and the
terrible rainbows faded until the stars came quietly out and it was a still
night.
But I had seen that what
is our dread is the joy of the spirits of the Mighty Mother, and though the
vision faded and I doubted what I had seen, it prepared the way for what I was
yet to see. A few days later we started on what was to be the most exquisite
memory of my life. A train of ponies carried our tents and camping necessaries
and there was a pony for each of us. And so, in the cool grey of a divine
morning, with little rosy clouds flecking the eastern sky, we set out from
Islamabad for Vernag. And this was the order of our going. She and I led the
way, attended by a sais (groom) and a coolie carrying the luncheon basket. Half
way we would stop in some green dell, or by some rushing stream, and there rest
and eat our little meal while the rest of the cavalcade passed on to the
appointed camping place, and in the late afternoon we would follow, riding
slowly, and find the tents pitched and the kitchen department in full swing. If
the place pleased us we lingered for some days;—if not, the camp was struck
next morning, and again we wandered in search of beauty.
The people were no
inconsiderable part of my joy. I cannot see what they have to gain from such
civilization as ours—a kindly people and happy. Courtesy and friendliness met
us everywhere, and if their labor was hard, their harvest of beauty and
laughter seemed to be its reward. The little villages with their groves of
walnut and fruit trees spoke of no unfulfilled want, the mulberries which
fatten the sleek bears in their season fattened the children too. I compared
their lot with that of the toilers in our cities and knew which I would choose.
We rode by shimmering fields of barley, with red poppies floating in the clear
transparent green as in deep sea water, through fields of millet like the sky
fallen on the earth, so innocently blue were its blossoms, and the trees above
us were trellised with the wild roses, golden and crimson, and the ways
tapestried with the scented stars of the large white jasmine.
It was strange that
later much of what she said, escaped me. Some I noted down at the time, but
there were hints, shadows of lovelier things beyond that eluded all but the
fringes of memory when I tried to piece them together and make a coherence of a
living wonder. For that reason, the best things cannot be told in this history.
It is only the cruder, grosser matters that words will hold. The
half-touchings—vanishing looks, breaths—O God, I know them, but cannot tell.
In the smaller villages,
the head man came often to greet us and make us welcome, bearing on a flat dish
a little offering of cakes and fruit, the produce of the place. One evening a
man so approached, stately in white robes and turban, attended by a little lad
who carried the patriarchal gift beside him. Our tents were pitched under a
glorious walnut tree with a running stream at our feet.
Vanna of course, was the
interpreter, and I called her from her tent as the man stood salaaming before
me. It was strange that when she came, dressed in white, he stopped in his
salutation, and gazed at her in what, I thought, was silent wonder.
She spoke earnestly to
him, standing before him with clasped hands, almost, I could think, in the
attitude of a suppliant. The man listened gravely, with only an interjection,
now and again, and once he turned and looked curiously at me. Then he spoke,
evidently making some announcement which she received with bowed head—and when
he turned to go with a grave salute, she performed a very singular ceremony,
moving slowly round him three times with clasped hands; keeping him always on
the right. He repaid it with the usual salaam and greeting of peace, which he
bestowed also on me, and then departed in deep meditation, his eyes fixed on
the ground. I ventured to ask what it all meant, and she looked thoughtfully at
me before replying.
“It was a strange thing.
I fear you will not altogether understand, but I will tell you what I can. That
man though living here among Mahomedans, is a Brahman from Benares, and, what
is very rare in India, a Buddhist. And when he saw me he believed he remembered
me in a former birth. The ceremony you saw me perform is one of honour in
India. It was his due.”
“Did you remember him?”
I knew my voice was incredulous.
“Very well. He has
changed little but is further on the upward path. I saw him with dread for he
holds the memory of a great wrong I did. Yet he told me a thing that has filled
my heart with joy.”
“Vanna-what is it?”
She had a clear uplifted
look which startled me. There was suddenly a chill air blowing between us.
“I must not tell you yet
but you will know soon. He was a good man. I am glad we have met.”
She buried herself in
writing in a small book I had noticed and longed to look into, and no more was
said.
We struck camp next day
and trekked on towards Vernag—a rough march, but one of great beauty, beneath
the shade of forest trees, garlanded with pale roses that climbed from bough to
bough and tossed triumphant wreaths into the uppermost blue.
In the afternoon thunder
was flapping its wings far off in the mountains and a little rain fell while we
were lunching under a big tree. I was considering anxiously how to shelter
Vanna, when a farmer invited us to his house—a scene of Biblical hospitality
that delighted us both. He led us up some break-neck little stairs to a large
bare room, open to the clean air all round the roof, and with a kind of rough
enclosure on the wooden floor where the family slept at night. There he opened
our basket, and then, with anxious care, hung clothes and rough draperies about
us that our meal might be unwatched by one or two friends who had followed us
in with breathless interest. Still further to entertain us a great rarity was
brought out and laid at Vanna’s feet as something we might like to watch—a
curious bird in a cage, with brightly barred wings and a singular cry. She fed
it with fruit, and it fluttered to her hand. Just so Abraham might have
welcomed his guests, and when we left with words of deepest gratitude, our host
made the beautiful obeisance of touching his forehead with joined hands as he
bowed. To me the whole incident had an extraordinary grace, and ennobled both
host and guest. But we met an ascending scale of loveliness so varied in its
aspects that I passed from one emotion to another and knew no sameness.
That afternoon the camp
was pitched at the foot of a mighty hill, under the waving pyramids of the
chenars, sweeping their green like the robes of a goddess. Near by was a half
circle of low arches falling into ruin, and as we went in among them I beheld a
wondrous sight—the huge octagonal tank or basin made by the Mogul Emperor
Jehangir to receive the waters of a mighty Spring which wells from the hill and
has been held sacred by Hindu and Moslem. And if loveliness can sanctify surely
it is sacred indeed.
The tank was more than a
hundred feet in diameter and circled by a roughly paved pathway where the
little arched cells open that the devotees may sit and contemplate the lustral
waters. There on a black stone, is sculptured the Imperial inscription
comparing this spring to the holier wells of Paradise, and I thought no less of
it, for it rushes straight from the rock with no aiding stream, and its waters
are fifty feet deep, and sweep away from this great basin through beautiful low
arches in a wild foaming river—the crystal life-blood of the mountains for ever
welling away. The colour and perfect purity of this living jewel were most
marvellous—clear blue-green like a chalcedony, but changing as the lights in an
opal—a wonderful quivering brilliance, flickering with the silver of shoals of
sacred fish.
But the Mogul Empire is
with the snows of yesteryear and the wonder has passed from the Moslems into
the keeping of the Hindus once more, and the Lingam of Shiva, crowned with
flowers, is the symbol in the little shrine by the entrance. Surely in India,
the gods are one and have no jealousies among them—so swiftly do their glories
merge the one into the other.
“How all the Mogul
Emperors loved running water,” said Vanna. “I can see them leaning over it in
their carved pavilions with delicate dark faces and pensive eyes beneath their
turbans, lost in the endless reverie of the East while liquid melody passes
into their dream. It was the music they best loved.”
She was leading me into
the royal garden below, where the young river flows beneath the pavilion set
above and across the rush of the water.
“I remember before I
came to India,” she went on, “there were certain words and phrases that meant
the whole East to me. It was an enchantment. The first flash picture I had was
Milton’s—
‘Dark
faces with white silken turbans wreathed.’
and it still is. I have
thought ever since that every man should wear a turban. It dignifies the
un-comeliest and it is quite curious to see how many inches a man descends in
the scale of beauty the moment he takes it off and you see only the skull-cap
about which they wind it. They wind it with wonderful skill too. I have seen a
man take eighteen yards of muslin and throw it round his head with a few turns,
and in five or six minutes the beautiful folds were all in order and he looked
like a king. Some of the Gujars here wear black ones and they are very
effective and worth painting—the black folds and the sullen tempestuous black
brows underneath.”
We sat in the pavilion
for awhile looking down on the rushing water, and she spoke of Akbar, the
greatest of the Moguls, and spoke with a curious personal touch, as I thought.
“I wish you would try to
write a story of him—one on more human lines than has been done yet. No one has
accounted for the passionate quest of truth that was the real secret of his
life. Strange in an Oriental despot if you think of it! It really can only be
understood from the Buddhist belief, which curiously seems to have been the
only one he neglected, that a mysterious Karma influenced all his thoughts. If
I tell you as a key-note for your story, that in a past life he had been a
Buddhist priest—one who had fallen away, would that in any way account to you for
attempts to recover the lost way? Try to think that out, and to write the
story, not as a Western mind sees it, but pure East.”
“That would be a great
book to write if one could catch the voices of the past. But how to do it?”
“I will give you one day
a little book that may help you. The other story I wish you would write is the
story of a Dancer of Peshawar. There is a connection between the two—a story of
ruin and repentance.”
“Will you tell it to
me?”
“A part. In this same
book you will find much more, but not all. All cannot be told. You must imagine
much. But I think your imagination will be true.”
“Why do you think so?”
“Because in these few
days you have learnt so much. You have seen the Ninefold Flower, and the rain
spirits. You will soon hear the Flute of Krishna which none can hear who cannot
dream true.”
That night I heard it. I
waked, suddenly, to music, and standing in the door of my tent, in the dead
silence of the night, lit only by a few low stars, I heard the poignant notes
of a flute. If it had called my name it could not have summoned me more
clearly, and I followed without a thought of delay, forgetting even Vanna in
the strange urgency that filled me. The music was elusive, seeming to come
first from one side, then from the other, but finally I tracked it as a bee
does a flower by the scent, to the gate of the royal garden—the pleasure place
of the dead Emperors.
The gate stood
ajar—strange! for I had seen the custodian close it that evening. Now it stood
wide and I went in, walking noiselessly over the dewy grass. I knew and could
not tell how, that I must be noiseless. Passing as if I were guided, down the
course of the strong young river, I came to the pavilion that spanned it—the
place where we had stood that afternoon—and there to my profound amazement, I
saw Vanna, leaning against a slight wooden pillar. As if she had expected me,
she laid one finger on her lip, and stretching out her hand, took mine and drew
me beside her as a mother might a child. And instantly I saw!
On the further bank a
young man in a strange diadem or miter of jewels, bare-breasted and beautiful,
stood among the flowering oleanders, one foot lightly crossed over the other as
he stood. He was like an image of pale radiant gold, and I could have sworn
that the light came from within rather than fell upon him, for the night was
very dark. He held the flute to his lips, and as I looked, I became aware that
the noise of the rushing water was tapering off into a murmur scarcely louder
than that of a summer bee in the heart of a rose. Therefore the music rose like
a fountain of crystal drops, cold, clear, and of an entrancing sweetness, and
the face above it was such that I had no power to turn my eyes away. How shall
I say what it was? All I had ever desired, dreamed, hoped, prayed, looked at me
from the remote beauty of the eyes and with the most persuasive gentleness
entreated me, rather than commanded to follow fearlessly and win. But these are
words, and words shaped in the rough mould of thought cannot convey the deep
desire that would have hurled me to his feet if Vanna had not held me with a
firm restraining hand. Looking up in adoring love to the dark face was a ring
of woodland creatures. I thought I could distinguish the white clouded robe of
a snow-leopard, the soft clumsiness of a young bear, and many more, but these
shifted and blurred like dream creatures—I could not be sure of them nor define
their numbers. The eyes of the Player looked down upon their passionate delight
with careless kindness.
Dim images passed
through my mind. Orpheus—No, this was no Greek. Pan-yet again, No. Where were
the pipes, the goat hoofs? The young Dionysos—No, there were strange jewels
instead of his vines. And then Vanna’s voice said as if from a great distance;
“Krishna—the Beloved.”
And I said aloud, “I see!” And even as I said it the whole picture blurred
together like a dream, and I was alone in the pavilion and the water was
foaming past me. Had I walked in my sleep, I thought, as I made my way hack? As
I gained the garden gate, before me, like a snowflake, I saw the Ninefold
Flower.
When I told her next
day, speaking of it as a dream, she said simply; “They have opened the door to
you. You will not need me soon.
“I shall always need
you. You have taught me everything. I could see nothing last night until you
took my hand.”
“I was not there,” she
said smiling. “It was only the thought of me, and you can have that when I am
very far away. I was sleeping in my tent. What you called in me then you can
always call, even if I am—dead.”
“That is a word which is
beginning to have no meaning for me. You have said things to me—no, thought
them, that have made me doubt if there is room in the universe for the thing we
have called death.”
She smiled her sweet
wise smile.
“Where we are death is
not. Where death is we are not. But you will understand better soon.”
Our march curving took
us by the Mogul gardens of Achibal, and the glorious ruins of the great Temple
at Martund, and so down to Bawan with its crystal waters and that loveliest camping
ground beside them. A mighty grove of chenar trees, so huge that I felt as if
we were in a great sea cave where the air is dyed with the deep shadowy green
of the inmost ocean, and the murmuring of the myriad leaves was like a sea at
rest. I looked up into the noble height and my memory of Westminster dwindled,
for this led on and up to the infinite blue, and at night the stars hung like
fruit upon the branches. The water ran with a great joyous rush of release from
the mountain behind, but was first received in a broad basin full of sacred
fish and reflecting a little temple of Maheshwara and one of Surya the Sun.
Here in this basin the water lay pure and still as an ecstasy, and beside it
was musing the young Brahman priest who served the temple. Since I had joined
Vanna I had begun with her help to study a little Hindustani, and with an
aptitude for language could understand here and there. I caught a word or two
as she spoke with him that startled me, when the high-bred ascetic face turned
serenely upon her, and he addressed her as “My sister,” adding a sentence
beyond my learning, but which she willingly translated later.—“May He who sits
above the Mysteries, have mercy upon thy rebirth.”
She said afterwards;
“How beautiful some of
these men are. It seems a different type of beauty from ours, nearer to nature
and the old gods. Look at that priest—the tall figure, the clear olive skin,
the dark level brows, the long lashes that make a soft gloom about the
eyes—eyes that have the fathomless depth of a deer’s, the proud arch of the
lip. I think there is no country where aristocracy is more clearly marked than
in India. The Brahmans are aristocrats of the world. You see it is a religious
aristocracy as well. It has everything that can foster pride and exclusiveness.
They spring from the Mouth of Deity. They are His word incarnate. Not many
kings are of the Brahman caste, and the Brahmans look down upon them from
Sovereign heights. I have known men who would not eat with their own rulers who
would have drunk the water that washed the Brahmans’ feet.”
She took me that day,
the Brahman with us, to see a cave in the mountain. We climbed up the face of
the cliff to where a little tree grew on a ledge, and the black mouth yawned.
We went in and often it was so low we had to stoop, leaving the sunlight behind
until it was like a dim eye glimmering in the velvet blackness. The air was
dank and cold and presently obscene with the smell of bats, and alive with
their wings, as they came sweeping about us, gibbering and squeaking. I thought
of the rush of the ghosts, blown like dead leaves in the Odyssey. And then a
small rock chamber branched off, and in this, lit by a bit of burning wood, we
saw the bones of a holy man who lived and died there four hundred years ago. Think
of it! He lived there always, with the slow dropping of water from the dead
weight of the mountain above his head, drop by drop tolling the minutes away:
the little groping feet through the cave that would bring him food and drink,
hurrying into the warmth and sunlight again, and his only companion the sacred
Lingam which means the Creative Energy that sets the worlds dancing for joy
round the sun—that, and the black solitude to sit down beside him. Surely his
bones can hardly be dryer and colder now than they were then! There must be
strange ecstasies in such a life—wild visions in the dark, or it could never be
endured.
And so, in marches of
about ten miles a day, we came to Pahlgam on the banks of the dancing Lidar.
There was now only three weeks left of the time she had promised. After a few
days at Pahlgam the march would turn and bend its way back to Srinagar, and
to—what? I could not believe it was to separation—in her lovely kindness she
had grown so close to me that, even for the sake of friendship, I believed our
paths must run together to the end, and there were moments when I could still
half convince myself that I had grown as necessary to her as she was to me.
No—not as necessary, for she was life and soul to me, but a part of her daily
experience that she valued and would not easily part with. That evening we were
sitting outside the tents, near the camp fire, of pine logs and cones, the
leaping flames making the night beautiful with gold and leaping sparks, in an
attempt to reach the mellow splendours of the moon. The men, in various
attitudes of rest, were lying about, and one had been telling a story which had
just ended in excitement and loud applause.
“These are Mahomedans,”
said Vanna, “and it is only a story of love and fighting like the Arabian
Nights. If they had been Hindus, it might well have been of Krishna or of Rama
and Sita. Their faith comes from an earlier time and they still see visions.
The Moslem is a hard practical faith for men—men of the world too. It is not
visionary now, though it once had its great mysteries.”
“I wish you would tell
me what you think of the visions or apparitions of the gods that are seen here.
Is it all illusion? Tell me your thought.”
“How difficult that is
to answer. I suppose if love and faith are strong enough they will always
create the vibrations to which the greater vibrations respond, and so make God
in their own image at any time or place. But that they call up what is the
truest reality I have never doubted. There is no shadow without a substance.
The substance is beyond us but under certain conditions the shadow is projected
and we see it.
“Have I seen or has it
been dream?”
“I cannot tell. It may
have been the impress of my mind on yours, for I see such things always. You
say I took your hand?”
“Take it now.”
She obeyed, and
instantly, as I felt the firm cool clasp, I heard the rain of music through the
pines—the Flute Player was passing. She dropped it smiling and the sweet sound
ceased.
“You see! How can I tell
what you have seen? You will know better when I am gone. You will stand alone
then.”
“You will not go—you
cannot. I have seen how you have loved all this wonderful time. I believe it
has been as dear to you as to me. And every day I have loved you more. I depend
upon you for everything that makes life worth living. You could not—you who are
so gentle—you could not commit the senseless cruelty of leaving me when you
have taught me to love you with every beat of my heart. I have been patient—I
have held myself in, but I must speak now. Marry me, and teach me. I know
nothing. You know all I need to know. For pity’s sake be my wife.”
I had not meant to say
it; it broke from me in the firelight moonlight with a power that I could not
stay. She looked at me with a disarming gentleness.
“Is this fair? Do you
remember how at Peshawar I told you I thought it was a dangerous experiment,
and that it would make things harder for you. But you took the risk like a
brave man because you felt there were things to be gained—knowledge, insight,
beauty. Have you not gained them?”
“Yes. Absolutely.”
“Then, is it all loss if
I go?”
“Not all. But loss I
dare not face.”
“I will tell you this. I
could not stay if I would. Do you remember the old man on the way to Vernag? He
told me that I must very soon take up an entirely new life. I have no choice,
though if I had I would still do it.”
There was silence and
down a long arcade, without any touch of her hand I heard the music, receding
with exquisite modulations to a very great distance, and between the pillared stems,
I saw a faint light.
“Do you wish to go?”
“Entirely. But I shall
not forget you, Stephen. I will tell you something. For me, since I came to
India, the gate that shuts us out at birth has opened. How shall I explain? Do
you remember Kipling’s ‘Finest Story in the World’?”
“Yes. Fiction!”
“Not fiction—true,
whether he knew it or no. But for me the door has opened wide. First, I
remembered piecemeal, with wide gaps, then more connectedly. Then, at the end
of the first year, I met one day at Cawnpore, an ascetic, an old man of great
beauty and wisdom, and he was able by his own knowledge to enlighten mine. Not
wholly—much has come since then. Has come, some of it in ways you could not
understand now, but much by direct sight and hearing. Long, long ago I lived in
Peshawar, and my story was a sorrowful one. I will tell you a little before I
go.”
“I hold you to your
promise. What is there I cannot believe when you tell me? But does that life
put you altogether away from me? Was there no place for me in any of your
memories that has drawn us together now? Give me a little hope that in the
eternal pilgrimage there is some bond between us and some rebirth where we may
met again.”
“I will tell you that
also before we part. I have grown to believe that you do love me—and therefore
love something which is infinitely above me.”
“And do you love me at
all? Am I nothing, Vanna—Vanna?”
“My friend,” she said,
and laid her hand on mine.
A silence, and then she
spoke, very low.
“You must be prepared
for very great change, Stephen, and yet believe that it does not really change
things at all. See how even the gods pass and do not change! The early gods of
India are gone and Shiva, Vishnu, Krishna have taken their places and are one
and the same. The old Buddhist stories say that in heaven “The flowers of the
garland the God wore are withered, his robes of majesty are waxed old and
faded; he falls from his high estate, and is re-born into a new life.” But he
lives still in the young God who is born among men. The gods cannot die, nor
can we nor anything that has life. Now I must go in.”
I sat long in the
moonlight thinking. The whole camp was sunk in sleep and the young dawn was
waking upon the peaks when I turned in.
The days that were left
we spent in wandering up the Lidar River to the hills that are the first ramp
of the ascent to the great heights. We found the damp corners where the
mushrooms grow like pearls—the mushrooms of which she said—“To me they have
always been fairy things. To see them in the silver-grey dew of the early
mornings—mysteriously there like the manna in the desert—they are elfin
plunder, and as a child I was half afraid of them. No wonder they are the
darlings of folklore, especially in Celtic countries where the Little People
move in the starlight. Strange to think they are here too among strange gods!”
We climbed to where the
wild peonies bloom in glory that few eyes see, and the rosy beds of wild sweet
strawberries ripen. Every hour brought with it some new delight, some
exquisiteness of sight or of words that I shall remember for ever. She sat one
day on a rock, holding the sculptured leaves and massive seed-vessels of some
glorious plant that the Kashmiris believe has magic virtues hidden in the seeds
of pure rose embedded in the white down.
“If you fast for three
days and eat nine of these in the Night of No Moon, you can rise on the air
light as thistledown and stand on the peak of Haramoukh. And on Haramoukh, as
you know it is believed, the gods dwell. There was a man here who tried this
enchantment. He was a changed man for ever after, wandering and muttering to
himself and avoiding all human intercourse as far as he could. He was no
Kashmiri—A Jat from the Punjab, and they showed him to me when I was here with
the Meryons, and told me he would speak to none. But I knew he would speak to
me, and he did.”
“Did he tell you
anything of what he had seen in the high world up yonder?”
“He said he had seen the
Dream of the God. I could not get more than that. But there are many people
here who believe that the Universe as we know it is but an image in the dream
of Ishvara, the Universal Spirit—in whom are all the gods—and that when He
ceases to dream we pass again into the Night of Brahm, and all is darkness
until the Spirit of God moves again on the face of the waters. There are few
temples to Brahm. He is above and beyond all direct worship.”
“Do you think he had
seen anything?”
“What do I know? Will
you eat the seeds? The Night of No Moon will soon be here.”
She held out the
seed-vessels, laughing. I write that down but how record the lovely light of
kindliness in her eyes—the almost submissive gentleness that yet was a defense
stronger than steel. I never knew—how should I?—whether she was sitting by my
side or heavens away from me in her own strange world. But always she was a
sweetness that I could not reach, a cup of nectar that I might not drink,
unalterably her own and never mine, and yet—my friend.
She showed me the wild
track up into the mountains where the Pilgrims go to pay their devotions at the
Great God’s shrine in the awful heights, regretting that we were too early for
that most wonderful sight. Above where we were sitting the river fell in a
tormented white cascade, crashing and feathering into spray-dust of diamonds.
An eagle was flying above it with a mighty spread of wings that seemed almost
double-jointed in the middle—they curved and flapped so wide and free. The
fierce head was outstretched with the rake of a plundering galley as he swept
down the wind, seeking his meat from God, and passed majestic from our sight.
The valley beneath us was littered with enormous boulders spilt from the
ancient hollows of the hills. It must have been a great sight when the giants
set them trundling down in work or play!—I said this to Vanna, who was looking
down upon it with meditative eyes. She roused herself.
“Yes, this really is
Giant-Land up here—everything is so huge. And when they quarrel up in the
heights—in Jotunheim—and the black storms come down the valleys it is like
colossal laughter or clumsy boisterous anger. And the Frost giants are still at
work up there with their great axes of frost and rain. They fling down the side
of a mountain or make fresh ways for the rivers. About sixty years ago—far
above here—they tore down a mountain side and damned up the mighty Indus, so
that for months he was a lake, shut back in the hills. But the river giants are
no less strong up here in the heights of the world, and lie lay brooding and
hiding his time. And then one awful day he tore the barrier down and roared
down the valley carrying death and ruin with him, and swept away a whole Sikh
army among other unconsidered trifles. That must have been a soul-shaking
sight.”
She spoke on, and as she
spoke I saw. What are her words as I record them? Stray dead leaves pressed in
a book—the life and grace dead. Yet I record, for she taught me what I believe
the world should learn, that the Buddhist philosophers are right when they
teach that all forms of what we call matter are really but aggregates of
spiritual units, and that life itself is a curtain hiding reality as the vast
veil of day conceals from our sight the countless orbs of space. So that the
purified mind even while prisoned in the body, may enter into union with the
Real and, according to attainment, see it as it is.
She was an interpreter
because she believed this truth profoundly. She saw the spiritual essence
beneath the lovely illusion of matter, and the air about her was radiant with
the motion of strange forces for which the dull world has many names aiming
indeed at the truth, but falling—O how far short of her calm perception! She
was indeed of a Household higher than the Household of Faith. She had received
enlightenment. She beheld with open eyes.
Next day our camp was
struck and we turned our faces again to Srinagar and to the day of parting. I
set down but one strange incident of our journey, of which I did not speak even
to her.
We were camping at
Bijbehara, awaiting our house boat, and the site was by the Maharaja’s lodge
above the little town. It was midnight and I was sleepless—the shadow of the
near future was upon me. I wandered down to the lovely old wooded bridge across
the Jhelum, where the strong young trees grow up from the piles. Beyond it the
moon was shining on the ancient Hindu remains close to the new temple, and as I
stood on the bridge I could see the figure of a man in deepest meditation by
the ruins. He was no European. I saw the straight dignified folds of the robes.
But it was not surprising he should be there and I should have thought no more
of it, had I not heard at that instant from the further side of the river the
music of the Flute. I cannot hope to describe that music to any who have not
heard it. Suffice it to say that where it calls he who hears must follow
whether in the body or the spirit. Nor can I now tell in which I followed. One
day it will call me across the River of Death, and I shall ford it or sink in
the immeasurable depths and either will be well.
But immediately I was at
the other side of the river, standing by the stone Bull of Shiva where he
kneels before the Symbol, and looking steadfastly upon me a few paces away was
a man in the dress of a Buddhist monk. He wore the yellow robe that leaves one
shoulder bare; his head was bare also and he held in one hand a small bowl like
a stemless chalice. I knew I was seeing a very strange inexplicable sight—one
that in Kashmir should be incredible, but I put wonder aside for I knew now
that I was moving in the sphere where the incredible may well be the actual. His
expression was of the most unbroken calm. If I compare it to the passionless
gaze of the Sphinx I misrepresent, for the Riddle of the Sphinx still awaits
solution, but in this face was a noble acquiescence and a content that had it
vibrated must have passed into joy.
Words or their
equivalent passed between us. I felt his voice.
“You have heard the
music of the Flute?”
“I have heard.”
“What has it given?”
“A consuming longing.”
“It is the music of the
Eternal. The creeds and the faiths are the words that men have set to that
melody. Listening, it will lead you to Wisdom. Day by day you will interpret
more surely.”
“I cannot stand alone.”
“You will not need. What
has led you will lead you still. Through many births it has led you. How should
it fail?”
“What should I do?”
“Go forward.”
“What should I shun?”
“Sorrow and fear.”
“What should I seek?”
“Joy.”
“And the end?”
“Joy. Wisdom. They are
the Light and Dark of the Divine.” A cold breeze passed and touched my
forehead. I was still standing in the middle of the bridge above the water
gliding to the Ocean, and there was no figure by the Bull of Shiva. I was
alone. I passed back to the tents with the shudder that is not fear but akin to
death upon me. I knew I had been profoundly withdrawn from what we call actual
life, and the return is dread.
The days passed as we
floated down the river to Srinagar. On board the Kedarnath, now lying in our
first berth beneath the chenars near and yet far from the city, the last night
had come. Next morning I should begin the long ride to Baramula and beyond that
barrier of the Happy Valley down to Murree and the Punjab. Where afterwards? I
neither knew nor cared. My lesson was before me to be learned. I must try to
detach myself from all I had prized—to say to my heart it was but a loan and no
gift, and to cling only to the imperishable. And did I as yet certainly know
more than the A B C of the hard doctrine by which I must live? “Que vivre est
difficile, O mon cocur fatigue!”—an immense weariness possessed me—a passive
grief.
Vanna would follow later
with the wife of an Indian doctor. I believed she was bound for Lahore but on
that point she had not spoken certainly and I felt we should not meet again.
And now my packing was
finished, and, as far as my possessions went, the little cabin had the soulless
emptiness that comes with departure. I was enduring as best I could. If she had
held loyally to her pact, could I do less. Was she to blame for my wild hope
that in the end she would relent and step down to the household levels of love?
She sat by the
window—the last time I should see the moonlit banks and her clear face against
them. I made and won my fight for the courage of words.
“And now I’ve finished
everything—thank goodness! and we can talk. Vanna—you will write to me?”
“Once. I promise that.”
“Only once? Why? I
counted on your words.”
“I want to speak to you
of something else now. I want to tell you a memory. But look first at the pale
light behind the Takht-i-Suliman.”
So I had seen it with
her. So I should not see it again. We watched until a line of silver sparkled
on the black water, and then she spoke again.
“Stephen, do you
remember in the ruined monastery near Peshawar, how I told you of the young
Abbot, who came down to Peshawar with a Chinese pilgrim? And he never returned.”
“I remember. There was a
Dancer.”
“There was a Dancer. She
was Lilavanti, and she was brought there to trap him but when she saw him she
loved him, and that was his ruin and hers. Trickery he would have known and
escaped. Love caught him in an unbreakable net, and they fled down the Punjab
and no one knew any more. But I know. For two years they lived together and she
saw the agony in his heart—the anguish of his broken vows, the face of the
Blessed One receding into an infinite distance. She knew that every day added a
link to the heavy Karma that was bound about the feet she loved, and her soul
said “Set him free,” and her heart refused the torture. But her soul was the
stronger. She set him free.”
“How?”
“She took poison. He
became an ascetic in the hills and died in peace but with a long expiation upon
him.”
“And she?”
“I am she.”
“You!” I heard my voice
as if it were another man’s. Was it possible that I—a man of the twentieth
century, believed this impossible thing? Impossible, and yet—what had I learnt
if not the unity of Time, the illusion of matter? What is the twentieth
century, what the first? Do they not lie before the Supreme as one, and clean
from our petty divisions? And I myself had seen what, if I could trust it,
asserted the marvels that are no marvels to those who know.
“You loved him?”
“I love him.”
“Then there is nothing
at all for me.”
She resumed as if she
had heard nothing.
“I have lost him for
many lives. He stepped above me at once, for he was clean gold though he fell,
and though I have followed I have not found. But that Buddhist beyond
Islamabad—you shall hear now what he said. It was this. ‘The shut door opens,
and this time he awaits.’ I cannot yet say all it means, but there is no Lahore
for me. I shall meet him soon.”
“Vanna, you would not
harm yourself again?”
“Never. I should not
meet him. But you will see. Now I can talk no more. I will be there tomorrow
when you go, and I will ride with you to the poplar road.”
She passed like a shadow
into her little dark cabin, and I was left alone. I will not dwell on that
black loneliness of the spirit, for it has passed—it was the darkness of hell,
a madness of jealousy, and could have no enduring life in any heart that had
known her. But it was death while it lasted. I had moments of horrible belief,
of horrible disbelief, but however it might be I knew that she was out of reach
for ever. Near me—yes! but only as the silver image of the moon floated in the
water by the boat, with the moon herself cold myriads of miles away. I will say
no more of that last eclipse of what she had wrought in me.
The bright morning came,
sunny as if my joys were beginning instead of ending. Vanna mounted her horse
and led the way from the boat. I cast one long look at the little Kedarnath,
the home of those perfect weeks, of such joy and sorrow as would have seemed
impossible to me in the chrysalis of my former existence. Little Kahdra stood
crying bitterly on the bank—the kindly folk who had served us were gathered
saddened and quiet. I set my teeth and followed her.
How dear she looked, how
kind, how gentle her appealing eyes, as I drew up beside her. She knew what I
felt. She knew that the sight of little Kahdra crying as he said good—bye was
the last pull at my sore heart. Still she rode steadily on, and still I
followed. Once she spoke.
“Stephen, there was a
man in Peshawar, kind and true, who loved that Lilavanti who had no heart for
him. And when she died, it was in his arms, as a sister might cling to a
brother, for the man she loved had left her. It seems that will not be in this
life, but do not think I have been so blind that I did not know my friend.”
I could not answer—it
was the realization of the utmost I could hope and it came like healing to my
spirit. Better that bond between us, slight as most men might think it, than
the dearest and closest with a woman not Vanna. It was the first thrill of a
new joy in my heart—the first, I thank the Infinite, of many and steadily
growing joys and hopes that cannot be uttered here.
I bent to take the hand
she stretched to me, but even as they touched, I saw, passing behind the trees
by the road, the young man I had seen in the garden at Vernag—most beautiful,
in the strange miter of his jewelled diadem. His flute was at his lips and the
music rang out sudden and crystal clear as though a woodland god were passing
to awaken all the joys of the dawn.
The horses heard too. In
an instant hers had swerved wildly, and she lay on the ground at my feet. The
music had ceased.
Days had gone before I
could recall what had happened then. I lifted her in my arms and carried her
into the rest-house near at hand, and the doctor came and looked grave, and a
nurse was sent from the Mission Hospital. No doubt all was done that was
possible, but I knew from the first what it meant and how it would be. She lay
in a white stillness, and the room was quiet as death. I remembered with
unspeakable gratitude later that the nurse had been merciful and had not sent
me away.
So Vanna lay all day and
through the night, and when the dawn came again she stirred and motioned with
her hand, although her eyes were closed. I understood, and kneeling, I put my
hand under her head, and rested it against my shoulder. Her faint voice
murmured at my ear.
“I dreamed—I was in the
pine wood at Pahlgam and it was the Night of No Moon, and I was afraid for it
was dark, but suddenly all the trees were covered with little lights like
stars, and the greater light was beyond. Nothing to be afraid of.”
“Nothing, Beloved.”
“And I looked beyond
Peshawar, further than eyes could see, and in the ruins of the monastery where
we stood, you and I—I saw him, and he lay with his head at the feet of the
Blessed One. That is well, is it not?”
“Well, Beloved.”
“And it is well I go? Is
it not?”
“It is well.”
A long silence. The
first sun ray touched the floor. Again the whisper.
“Believe what I have
told you. For we shall meet again.” I repeated—
“We shall meet again.”
In my arms she died.
Later, when all was over
I asked myself if I believed this and answered with full assurance—Yes.
If the story thus told
sounds incredible it was not incredible to me. I had had a profound experience.
What is a miracle? It is simply the vision of the Divine behind nature. It will
come in different forms according to the eyes that see, but the soul will know
that its perception is authentic.
I could not leave
Kashmir, nor was there any need. On the contrary I saw that there was work for
me here among the people she had loved, and my first aim was to fit myself for
that and for the writing I now felt was to be my career in life. After much
thought I bought the little Kedarnath and made it my home, very greatly to the
satisfaction of little Kahdra and all the friendly people to whom I owed so
much.
Vanna’s cabin I made my
sleeping room, and it is the simple truth that the first night I slept in the
place that was a Temple of Peace in my thoughts, I had a dream of wordless
bliss, and starting awake for sheer joy I saw her face in the night, human and
dear, looking down upon me with that poignant sweetness which would seem to be
the utmost revelation of love and pity. And as I stretched my hands, another
face dawned solemnly from the shadow beside her with grave brows bent on
mine—one I had known and seen in the ruins at Bijbehara. Outside and very near
I could hear the silver weaving of the Flute that in India is the symbol of the
call of the Divine. A dream—yes, but it taught me to live. At first, in my days
of grief and loss, I did but dream—the days were hard to endure. I will not
dwell on that illusion of sorrow, now long dead. I lived only for the night.
“When
sleep comes to close each difficult day,
When
night gives pause to the long watch I keep,
And
all my bonds I needs must loose apart,
Must
doff my will as raiment laid away—
With
the first dream that comes with the first sleep,
I
run—I run! I am gathered to thy heart!”
To the heart of her
pity. Thus for awhile I lived. Slowly I became conscious of her abiding
presence about me, day or night It grew clearer, closer.
Like the austere
Hippolytus to his unseen Goddess, I could say;
“Who am
more to thee than other mortals are,
Whose
is the holy lot,
As
friend with friend to walk and talk with thee,
Hearing thy sweet mouth’s music in mine ear,
But
thee beholding not.”
That was much, but
later, the sunshine was no bar, the bond strengthened and there have been days
in the heights of the hills, in the depths of the woods, when I saw her as in
life, passing at a distance, but real and lovely. Life? She had never lived as
she did now—a spirit, freed and rejoicing. For me the door she had opened would
never shut. The Presences were about me, and I entered upon my heritage of joy,
knowing that in Kashmir, the holy land of Beauty, they walk very near, and lift
up the folds of the Dark that the initiate may see the light behind.
So I began my solitary
life of gladness. I wrote, aided by the little book she had left me, full of
strangest stories, stranger by far than my own brain could conceive. Some to be
revealed—some to be hidden. And thus the world will one day receive the story
of the Dancer of Peshawar in her upward lives, that it may know, if it will,
that death is nothing—for Life and Love are all.
3.THE INCOMPARABLE LADY A
STORY OF CHINA WITH A MORAL
It is recorded that when
the Pearl Empress (his mother) asked of the philosophic Yellow Emperor which he
considered the most beautiful of the Imperial concubines, he replied instantly:
“The Lady A-Kuei”: and when the Royal Parent in profound astonishment demanded
bow this could be, having regard to the exquisite beauties in question, the
Emperor replied;
“I have never seen her.
It was dark when I entered the Dragon Chamber and dusk of dawn when I rose and
left her.”
Then said the Pearl
Princess;
“Possibly the harmony of
her voice solaced the Son of Heaven?”
But he replied;
“She spoke not.”
And the Pearl Empress
rejoined:
“Her limbs then are
doubtless softer than the kingfisher’s plumage?”
But the Yellow Emperor
replied;
“Doubtless. Yet I have
not touched them. I was that night immersed in speculations on the Yin and the
Yang. How then should I touch a woman?”
And the Pearl Empress
was silent from very great amazement, not daring to question further but
marveling how the thing might be. And seeing this, the Yellow Emperor recited a
poem to the following effect:
“It is
said that Power rules the world
And
who shall gainsay it?
But
Loveliness is the head-jewel upon the brow of Power.”
And when the Empress had
listened with reverence to the Imperial Poet, she quitted the August Presence.
Immediately, having
entered her own palace of the Tranquil Motherly Virtues, she caused the Lady
A-Kuei to be summoned to her presence, who came, habited in a purple robe and
with pins of jade and coral in her hair. And the Pearl Empress considered her
attentively, recalling the perfect features of the White Jade Concubine, the
ambrosial smile of the Princess of Feminine Propriety, and the willow-leaf
eyebrows of the Lady of Chen, and her astonishment was excessive, because the
Lady A-Kuei could not in beauty approach any one of these ladies. Reflecting
further she then placed her behind the screen, and summoned the court artist,
Lo Cheng, who had been formerly commissioned to paint the heavenly features of
the Emperor’s Ladies, mirrored in still water, though he had naturally not been
permitted to view the beauties themselves. Of him the Empress demanded:
“Who is the most
beautiful—which the most priceless jewel of the dwellers in the Dragon Palace?”
And, with humility, Lo
Cheng replied:
“What mortal man shall
decide between the white Crane and the Swan, or between the paeony flower and
the lotus?” And having thus said he remained silent, and in him was no help.
Finally and after exhortation the Pearl Empress condescended to threaten him
with the loss of a head so useless to himself and to her majesty. Then, in
great fear and haste he replied:
“Of all the flowers that
adorn the garden of the Sun of Heaven, the Lady A-Kuei is the fittest to be
gathered by the Imperial Hand, and this is my deliberate opinion.”
Now, hearing this
statement, the Pearl Empress was submerged in bewilderment, knowing that the
Lady A-Kuei had modestly retired when the artist had depicted the reflection of
the assembled loveliness of the Inner Chambers, as not counting herself worthy
of portraiture, and her features were therefore unknown to him. Nor could the
Empress further question the artist, for when she had done so, he replied only:
“This is the secret of
the Son of Heaven,” and, having gained permission, he swiftly departed.
Nor could the Lady
A-Kuei herself aid her Imperial Majesty, for on being questioned she was
overwhelmed with modesty and confusion, and with stammering lips could only
repeat:
“This is the secret of
his Divine Majesty,” imploring with the utmost humility, forgiveness from the
Imperial Mother.
The Pearl Empress was
unable to eat her supper. In vain were spread before her the delicacies of the
Empire. She could but trifle with a shark’s fin and a “Silver Ear” fungus and a
dish of slugs entrapped upon roses, with the dew-like pearls upon them. Her
burning curiosity had wholly deprived her of appetite, nor could the amusing
exertions of the Palace mimes, or a lantern fete upon the lake restore her to
any composure. “This circumstance will cause my flight on the Dragon (death),”
she said to herself, “unless I succeed in unveiling the mystery. What therefore
should be my next proceeding?”
And so, deeply
reflecting, she caused the Chief of the Eunuchs to summon the Princess of
Feminine Propriety, the White Jade Concubine and all the other exalted beauties
of the Heavenly Palace.
In due course of time
these ladies arrived, paying suitable respect and obeisance to the Mother of
his Divine Majesty. They were resplendent in king-fisher ornaments, in jewels
of jade, crystal and coral, in robes of silk and gauze, and still more
resplendent in charms that not the Celestial Empire itself could equal, setting
aside entirely all countries of the foreign barbarians. And in grace and
elegance of manners, in skill in the arts of poetry and the lute, what could
surpass them?
Like a parterre of
flowers they surrounded her Majesty, and awaited her pleasure with perfect
decorum, when, having saluted them with affability she thus addressed
them—“Lovely ones—ladies distinguished by the particular attention of your
sovereign and mine, I have sent for you to resolve a doubt and a difficulty. On
questioning our sovereign as to whom he regarded as the loveliest of his garden
of beauty he benignantly replied: “The Lady A-Kuei is incomparable,” and though
this may well be, he further graciously added that he had never seen her. Nor,
on pursuing the subject, could I learn the Imperial reason. The artist Lo Cheng
follows in his Master’s footsteps, he also never having seen the favored lady,
and he and she reply to me that this is an Imperial secret. Declare to me
therefore if your perspicacity and the feminine interest which every lady
property takes in the other can unravel this mystery, for my liver is tormented
with anxiety beyond measure.”
As soon as the Pearl
Empress had spoken she realized that she had committed a great indiscretion. A
babel of voices, of cries, questions and contradictions instantly arose.
Decorum was abandoned. The Lady of Chen swooned, nor could she be revived for
an hour, and the Princess of Feminine Propriety and the White Jade Concubine
could be dragged apart only by the united efforts of six of the Palace matrons,
so great was their fury the one with the other, each accusing each of
encouragement to the Lady A-Kuei’s pretensions. So also with the remaining
ladies. Shrieks resounded through the Hall of Virtuous Tranquillity, and when
the Pearl Empress attempted to pour oil on the troubled waters by speaking
soothing and comfortable words, the august Voice was entirely inaudible in the
tumult.
All sought at length in
united indignation for the Lady A-Kuei, but she had modestly withdrawn to the
Pearl Pavilion in the Imperial Garden and, foreseeing anxieties, had there
secured herself on hearing the opening of the Royal Speech.
Finally the ladies were
led away by their attendants, weeping, lamenting, raging, according to their
several dispositions, and the Pearl Empress, left with her own maidens, beheld
the floor strewn with jade pins, kingfisher and coral jewels, and even with
fragments of silk and gauze. Nor was she any nearer the solution of the desired
secret.
That night she tossed
upon a bed sleepless though heaped with down, and her mind raged like a fire up
and down all possible answers to the riddle, but none would serve. Then, at the
dawn, raising herself on one august elbow she called to her venerable nurse and
foster mother, the Lady Ma, wise and resourceful in the affairs and
difficulties of women, and, repeating the circumstances, demanded her counsel.
The Lady Ma considering
the matter long and deeply, slowly replied:
“This is a great riddle
and dangerous, for to intermeddle with the divine secrets is the high road to
the Yellow Springs (death). But the child of my breasts and my exalted Mistress
shall never ask in vain, for a thwarted curiosity is dangerous as a suppressed
fever. I will conceal myself nightly in the Dragon Bedchamber and this will
certainly unveil the truth. And if I perish I perish.”
It is impossible to
describe how the Empress heaped Lady Ma with costly jewels and silken brocades
and taels of silver beyond measuring—how she placed on her breast the amulet of
jade that had guarded herself from all evil influences, how she called the
ancestral spirits to witness that she would provide for the Lady Ma’s remotest
descendants if she lost her life in this sublime devotion to duty.
That night Lady Ma
concealed herself behind the Imperial couch in the Dragon Chamber, to await the
coming of the Son of Heaven. Slowly dripped the water-clock as the minutes fled
away; sorely ached the venerable limbs of the Lady Ma as she crouched in the
shadows and saw the rising moon scattering silver through the elegant traceries
of carved ebony and ivory; wildly beat her heart as delicately tripping
footsteps approached the Dragon Chamber, and the Princess of Feminine
Propriety, attended by her maidens, ascended the Imperial Couch and hastily
dismissed them. Yet no sweet repose awaited this favored lady. The Lady Ma
could hear her smothered sobs, her muttered exclamations—nay could even feel
the couch itself tremble as the Princess uttered the hated name of the Lady
A-Kuei, the poison of jealousy running in every vein. It was impossible for
Lady Ma to decide which was the most virulent, this, or the poison of curiosity
in the heart of the Pearl Empress. Though she loved not the Princess she was
compelled to pity such suffering. But all thought was banished by the approach
of the Yellow Emperor, prepared for repose and unattended, in simple but divine
grandeur.
It cannot indeed be
supposed that a Celestial Emperor is human, yet there was mortality in the
start which his Augustness gave when the Princess of Feminine Propriety
flinging herself from the Dragon couch, threw herself at his feet and with
tears that flowed like that river known as “The Sorrow of China,” demanded to
know what she had done that another should be preferred before her; reciting in
frantic haste such imperfections of the Lady A-Kuei’s appearance as she could
recall (or invent) in the haste of that agitating moment.
“That one of her eyes is
larger than the other—no human being can doubt” sobbed the lady—“and surely
your Divine Majesty cannot be aware that her hair reaches but to her waist, and
that there is a brown mole on the nape of her neck? When she sings it resembles
the croak of the crow. It is true that most of the Palace ladies are chosen for
anything but beauty, yet she is the most ill-favored. And is it this—this
bat-faced lady who is preferred to me! Would I had never been born: Yet even
your Majesty’s own lips have told me I am fair!”
The Yellow Emperor
supported the form of the Princess in his arms. There are moments when even a
Son of Heaven is but human. “Fair as the rainbow,” he murmured, and the
Princess faintly smiled; then gathering the resolution of the Philosopher he
added manfully—“But the Lady A-Kuei is incomparable. And the reason is—”
The Lady Ma eagerly
stretched her head forward with a hand to either ear. But the Princess of
Feminine Propriety with one shriek had swooned and in the hurry of summoning
attendants and causing her to be conveyed to her own apartments that precious
sentence was never completed.
Still the Lady Ma
groveled behind the Dragon Couch as the Son of Heaven, left alone, approached
the veranda and apostrophizing the moon, murmured—
“O loveliest pale
watcher of the destinies of men, illuminate the beauty of the Lady A-Kuei, and
grant that I who have never seen that beauty may never see it, but remain its
constant admirer!” So saying, he sought his solitary couch and slept, while the
Lady Ma, in a torment of bewilderment, glided from the room.
The matter remained in
suspense for several days. The White Jade Concubine was the next lady commanded
to the Dragon Chamber, and again the Lady Ma was in her post of observation.
Much she heard, much she saw that was not to the point, but the scene ended as
before by the dismissal of the lady in tears, and the departure of the Lady Ma
in ignorance of the secret.
The Emperor’s peace was
ended.
The singular circumstance
was that the Lady A-Kuei was never summoned by the Yellow Emperor. Eagerly as
the Empress watched, no token of affection for her was ever visible. Nothing
could be detected. It was inexplicable. Finally, devoured by curiosity that
gave her no respite, she resolved on a stratagem that should dispel the
mystery, though it carried with it a risk on which she trembled to reflect. It
was the afternoon of a languid summer day, and the Yellow Emperor, almost
unattended, had come to pay a visit of filial respect to the Pearl Empress. She
received him with the ceremony due to her sovereign in the porcelain pavilion
of the Eastern Gardens, with the lotos fish ponds before them, and a faint
breeze occasionally tinkling the crystal wind-bells that decorated the shrubs
on the cloud and dragon-wrought slopes of the marble approach. A bird of
brilliant plumage uttered a cry of reverence from its gold cage as the Son of
Heaven entered. As was his occasional custom, and after suitable inquiries as
to his parent’s health, the attendants were all dismissed out of earshot and
the Emperor leaned on his cushions and gazed reflectively into the sunshine
outside. So had the Court Artist represented him as “The Incarnation of
Philosophic Calm.”
“These gardens are
fair,” said the Empress after a respectful silence, moving her fan illustrated
with the emblem of Immortality—the Ho Bird.
“Fair indeed,” returned
the Emperor.—“It might be supposed that all sorrow and disturbance would be
shut without the Forbidden Precincts. Yet it is not so. And though the figures
of my ladies moving among the flowers appear at this distance instinct with
joy, yet—”
He was silent.
“They know not,” said
the Empress with solemnity “that death entered the Forbidden Precincts but last
night. A disembodied spirit has returned to its place and doubtless exists in
bliss.” “Indeed?” returned the Yellow Emperor with indifference—“yet if the
spirit is absorbed into the Source whence it came, and the bones have crumbled
into nothingness, where does the Ego exist? The dead are venerable, but no
longer of interest.”
“Not even when they were
loved in life?” said the Empress, caressing the bird in the cage with one
jewelled finger, but attentively observing her son from the corner of her
august eye. “They were; they are not,” he remarked sententiously and stifling a
yawn; it was a drowsy afternoon. “But who is it that has abandoned us? Surely
not the Lady Ma—your Majesty’s faithful foster-mother?”
“A younger, a lovelier
spirit has sought the Yellow Springs,” replied the trembling Empress. “I regret
to inform your Majesty that a sudden convulsion last night deprived the Lady
A-Kuei of life. I would not permit the news to reach you lest it should break
your august night’s rest.”
There was a silence,
then the Emperor turned his eyes serenely upon his Imperial Mother. “That the
statement of my august Parent is merely—let us say—allegoric—does not detract
from its interest. But had the Lady A-Kuei in truth departed to the Yellow
Springs I should none the less have received the news without uneasiness. What
though the sun set—is not the memory of his light all surpassing?”
No longer could the
Pearl Empress endure the excess of her curiosity. Deeply kowtowing, imploring
pardon, with raised hands and tears which no son dare neglect, she besought the
Emperor to enlighten her as to this mystery, recounting his praises of the lady
and his admission that he had never beheld her, and all the circumstances
connected with this remarkable episode. She omitted only, (from considerations
of delicacy and others,) the vigils of the Lady Ma in the Dragon Chamber. The
Emperor, sighing, looked upon the ground, and for a time was silent. Then he
replied as follows:
“Willingly would I have
kept silence, but what child dare withstand the plea of a parent? Is it
necessary to inform the Heavenly Empress that beauty seen is beauty made
familiar and that familiarity is the foe of admiration? How is it possible that
I should see the Princess of Feminine Propriety, for instance, by night and day
without becoming aware of her imperfections as well as her graces? How awake in
the night without hearing the snoring of the White Jade Concubine and
considering the mouth from which it issues as the less lovely. How partake of
the society of any woman without finding her chattering as the crane, avid of
admiration, jealous, destructive of philosophy, fatal to composure, fevered
with curiosity; a creature, in short, a little above the gibbon, but infinitely
below the notice of the sage, save as a temporary measure of amusement in
itself unworthy the philosopher. The faces of all my ladies are known to me.
All are fair and all alike. But one night, as I lay in the Dragon Couch, lost
in speculation, absorbed in contemplation of the Yin and the Yang, the night
passed for the solitary dreamer as a dream. In the darkness of the dawn I rose
still dreaming, and departed to the Pearl Pavilion in the garden, and there
remained an hour viewing the sunrise and experiencing ineffable opinions on the
destiny of man. Returning then to a couch which I believed to have been that of
the solitary philosopher I observed a depression where another form had lain,
and in it a jade hairpin such as is worn by my junior beauties. Petrified with
amazement at the display of such reserve, such continence, such august
self-restraint, I perceived that, lost in my thoughts, I had had an unimagined
companion and that this gentle reminder was from her gentle hand. But whom? I
knew not. I then observed Lo Cheng the Court Artist in attendance and immediately
despatched him to make secret enquiry and ascertain the name and circumstances
of that beauty who, unknown, had shared my vigil. I learnt on his return that
it was the Lady A-Kuei. I had entered the Dragon Chamber in a low moonlight,
and guessed not her presence. She spoke no word. Finding her Imperial Master
thus absorbed, she invited no attention, nor in any way obtruded her beauties
upon my notice. Scarcely did she draw breath. Yet reflect upon what she might
have done! The night passed and I remained entirely unconscious of her
presence, and out of respect she would not sleep but remained reverently and
modestly awake, assisting, if it may so be expressed, at a humble distance, in
the speculations which held me prisoner. What a pearl was here! On learning
these details by Lo Cheng from her own roseate lips, and remembering the
unexampled temptation she had resisted (for well she knew that had she touched
the Emperor the Philosopher had vanished) I despatched an august rescript to
this favored Lady, conferring on her the degree of Incomparable Beauty of the
First Rank. On condition of secrecy.”
The Pearl Empress, still
in deepest bewilderment, besought his majesty to proceed. He did so, with his
usual dignity.
“Though my mind could
not wholly restrain its admiration, yet secrecy was necessary, for had the
facts been known, every lady, from the Princess of Feminine Propriety to the
Junior Beauty of the Bed Chamber would henceforward have observed only silence
and a frigid decorum in the Dragon Bed Chamber. And though the Emperor be a
philosopher, yet a philosopher is still a man, and there are moments when
decorum—”
The Emperor paused
discreetly; then resumed.
“The world should not be
composed entirely of A-Kueis, yet in my mind I behold the Incomparable Lady
fair beyond expression. Like the moon she sails glorious in the heavens to be
adored only in vision as the one woman who could respect the absorption of the
Emperor, and of whose beauty as she lay beside him the philosopher could remain
unconscious and therefore untroubled in body. To see her, to find her earthly,
would be an experience for which the Emperor might have courage, but the
philosopher never. And attached to all this is a moral:”
The Pearl Empress
urgently inquired its nature.
“Let the wisdom of my
august parent discern it,” said the Emperor sententiously.
“And the future?” she
inquired.
“The—let us call it
parable—” said the Emperor politely—“with which your Majesty was good enough to
entertain me, has suggested a precaution to my mind. I see now a lovely form
moving among the flowers. It is possible that it may be the Incomparable Lady,
or that at any moment I may come upon her and my ideal be shattered. This must
be safeguarded. I might command her retirement to her native province, but who
shall insure me against the weakness of my own heart demanding her return? No.
Let Your Majesty’s words spoken—well—in parable, be fulfilled in truth. I shall
give orders to the Chief Eunuch that the Incomparable Lady tonight shall drink
the Draught of Crushed Pearls, and be thus restored to the sphere that alone is
worthy of her. Thus are all anxieties soothed, and the honours offered to her
virtuous spirit shall be a glorious repayment of the ideal that will ever
illuminate my soul.”
The Empress was speechless.
She had borne the Emperor in her womb, but the philosopher outsoared her
comprehension. She retired, leaving his Majesty in a reverie, endeavoring
herself to grasp the moral of which he had spoken, for the guidance of herself
and the ladies concerned. But whether it inculcated reserve or the reverse in
the Dragon Chamber, and what the Imperial ladies should follow as an example
she was, to the end of her life, totally unable to say. Philosophy indeed walks
on the heights. We cannot all expect to follow it.
That night the
Incomparable Lady drank the Draught of Crushed Pearls.
The Princess of Feminine
Propriety and the White Jade Concubine, learning these circumstances, redoubled
their charms, their coquetries and their efforts to occupy what may be
described as the inner sanctuary of the Emperor’s esteem. Both lived to a green
old age, wealthy and honored, alike firm in the conviction that if the
Incomparable Lady had not shown herself so superior to temptation the Emperor
might have been on the whole better pleased, whatever the sufferings of the
philosopher. Both lived to be the tyrants of many generations of beauties at
the Celestial Court. Both were assiduous in their devotions before the spirit
tablet of the departed lady, and in recommending her example of reserve and
humility to every damsel whom it might concern.
It will probably occur
to the reader of this unique but veracious story that there is more in it than
meets the eye, and more than the one moral alluded to by the Emperor according
to the point of view of the different actors.
To the discernment of
the reader it must accordingly be left.
A Story of Burma
Most wonderful is the
Irawadi, the mighty river of Burma. In all the world elsewhere is no such
river, bearing the melted snows from its mysterious sources in the high places
of the mountains. The dawn rises upon its league-wide flood; the moon walks
upon it with silver feet. It is the pulsing heart of the land, living still
though so many rules and rulers have risen and fallen beside it, their pomps
and glories drifting like flotsam dawn the river to the eternal ocean that is
the end of all—and the beginning. Dead civilizations strew its banks, dreaming
in the torrid sunshine of glories that were—of blood-stained gold, jewels wept
from woeful crowns, nightmare dreams of murder and terror; dreaming also of
heavenly beauty, for the Lord Buddha looks down in moonlight peace upon the
land that leaped to kiss His footprints, that has laid its heart in the hand of
the Blessed One, and shares therefore in His bliss and content. The Land of the
Lord Buddha, where the myriad pagodas lift their golden flames of worship
everywhere, and no idlest wind can pass but it ruffles the bells below the
knees until they send forth their silver ripple of music to swell the hymn of
praise!
There is a little bay on
the bank of the flooding river—a silent, deserted place of sanddunes and small
bills. When a ship is in sight, some poor folk come and spread out the red
lacquer that helps their scanty subsistence, and the people from the passing
ship land and barter and in a few minutes are gone on their busy way and
silence settles down once more. They neither know nor care that, near by, a
mighty city spread its splendour for miles along the river bank, that the king
known as Lord of the Golden Palace, The Golden Foot, Lord of the White
Elephant, held his state there with balls of magnificence, obsequious women,
fawning courtiers and all the riot and colour of an Eastern tyranny. How should
they care? Now there are ruins—ruins, and the cobras slip in and out through
the deserted holy places. They breed their writhing young in the
sleeping-chambers of queens, the tigers mew in the moonlight, and the giant
spider, more terrible than the cobra, strikes with its black poison-claw and,
paralyzing the life of the victim, sucks its brain with slow, lascivious
pleasure.
Are these foul creatures
more dreadful than some of the men, the women, who dwelt in these palaces—the
more evil because of the human brain that plotted and foresaw? That is known
only to the mysterious Law that in silence watches and decrees.
But this is a story of
the dead days of Pagan, by the Irawadi, and it will be shown that, as the Lotus
of the Lord Buddha grows up a white splendour from the black mud of the depths,
so also may the soul of a woman.
In the days of the Lord
of the White Elephant, the King Pagan Men, was a boy named Mindon, son of
second Queen and the King. So, at least, it was said in the Golden Palace, but
those who knew the secrets of such matters whispered that, when the King had
taken her by the hand she came to him no maid, and that the boy was the son of
an Indian trader. Furthermore it was said that she herself was woman of the
Rajputs, knowledgeable in spells, incantations and elemental spirits such as
the Beloos that terribly haunt waste places, and all Powers that move in the
dark, and that thus she had won the King. Certainly she had been captured by
the King’s war-boats off the coast from a trading-ship bound for Ceylon, and it
was her story that, because of her beauty, she was sent thither to serve as
concubine to the King, Tissa of Ceylon. Being captured, she was brought to the
Lord of the Golden Palace. The tongue she spoke was strange to all the fighting
men, but it was wondrous to see how swiftly she learnt theirs and spoke it with
a sweet ripple such as is in the throat of a bird.
She was beautiful
exceedingly, with a colour of pale gold upon her and lengths of silk-spun hair,
and eyes like those of a jungle-deer, and water might run beneath the arch of
her foot without wetting it, and her breasts were like the cloudy pillows where
the sun couches at setting. Now, at Pagan, the name they called her was
Dwaymenau, but her true name, known only to herself, was Sundari, and she knew
not the Law of the Blessed Buddha but was a heathen accursed. In the strong
hollow of her hand she held the heart of the King, so that on the birth of her
son she had risen from a mere concubine to be the second Queen and a power to
whom all bowed. The First Queen, Maya, languished in her palace, her pale
beauty wasting daily, deserted and lonely, for she had been the light of the
King’s eyes until the coming of the Indian woman, and she loved her lord with a
great love and was a noble woman brought up in honour and all things becoming a
queen. But sigh as she would, the King came never. All night he lay in the arms
of Dwaymenau, all day he sat beside her, whether at the great water pageants or
at the festival when the dancing-girls swayed and postured before him in her
gilded chambers. Even when he went forth to hunt the tiger, she went with him
as far as a woman may go, and then stood back only because he would not risk
his jewel, her life. So all that was evil in the man she fostered and all that
was good she cherished not at all, fearing lest he should return to the Queen.
At her will he had consulted the Hiwot Daw, the Council of the Woon-gyees or
Ministers, concerning a divorce of the Queen, but this they told him could not
be since she had kept all the laws of Manu, being faithful, noble and beautiful
and having borne him a son.
For, before the Indian
woman had come to the King, the Queen had borne a son, Ananda, and he was pale
and slender and the King despised him because of the wiles of Dwaymenau, saying
he was fit only to sit among the women, having the soul of a slave, and he
laughed bitterly as the pale child crouched in the corner to see him pass. If
his eyes had been clear, he would have known that here was no slave, but a
heart as much greater than his own as the spirit is stronger than the body. But
this he did not know and he strode past with Dwaymenau’s boy on his shoulder,
laughing with cruel glee.
And this boy, Mindon,
was beautiful and strong as his mother, pale olive of face, with the dark and
crafty eyes of the cunning Indian traders, with black hair and a body straight,
strong and long in the leg for his years—apt at the beginnings of bow, sword
and spear—full of promise, if the promise was only words and looks.
And so matters rested in
the palace until Ananda had ten years and Mindon nine.
It was the warm and
sunny winter and the days were pleasant, and on a certain day the Queen, Maya,
went with her ladies to worship the Blessed One at the Thapinyu Temple, looking
down upon the swiftly flowing river. The temple was exceedingly rich and
magnificent, so gilded with pure gold-leaf that it appeared of solid gold. And
about the upper part were golden bells beneath the jewelled knee, which wafted
very sweetly in the wind and gave forth a crystal-clear music. The ladies bore
in their hands more gold-leaf, that they might acquire merit by offering this
for the service of the Master of the Law, and indeed this temple was the
offering of the Queen herself, who, because she bore the name of the Mother of
the Lord, excelled in good works and was the Moon of this lower world in
charity and piety.
Though wan with grief
and anxiety, this Queen was beautiful. Her eyes, like mournful lakes of
darkness, were lovely in the pale ivory of her face. Her lips were nobly cut
and calm, and by the favour of the Guardian Nats, she was shaped with grace and
health, a worthy mother of kings. Also she wore her jewels like a mighty
princess, a magnificence to which all the people shikoed as she passed, folding
their hands and touching the forehead while they bowed down, kneeling.
Before the colossal
image of the Holy One she made her offering and, attended by her women, she sat
in meditation, drawing consolation from the Tranquillity above her and the
silence of the shrine. This ended, the Queen rose and did obeisance to the Lord
and, retiring, paced back beneath the White Canopy and entered the courtyard
where the palace stood—a palace of noble teakwood, brown and golden and carved
like lace into strange fantasies of spires and pinnacles and branches where
Nats and Tree Spirits and Beloos and swaying river maidens mingled and met amid
fruits and leaves and flowers in a wild and joyous confusion. The faces, the
blowing garments, whirled into points with the swiftness of the dance, were
touched with gold, and so glad was the building that it seemed as if a very
light wind might whirl it to the sky, and even the sad Queen stopped to rejoice
in its beauty as it blossomed in the sunlight.
And even as she paused,
her little son Ananda rushed to meet her, pale and panting, and flung himself
into her arms with dry sobs like those of an overrun man. She soothed him until
he could speak, and then the grief made way in a rain of tears.
“Mindon has killed my deer.
He bared his knife, slit his throat and cast him in the ditch and there he
lies.”
“There will he not lie
long!” shouted Mindon, breaking from the palace to the group where all were
silent now. “For the worms will eat him and the dogs pick clean his bones, and
he will show his horns at his lords no more. If you loved him, White-liver, you
should have taught him better manners to his betters.”
With a stifled shriek
Ananda caught the slender knife from his girdle and flew at Mindon like a cat
of the woods. Such things were done daily by young and old, and this was a long
sorrow come to a head between the boys.
Suddenly, lifting the
hangings of the palace gateway, before them stood the mother of Mindon, the
Lady Dwaymenau, pale as wool, having heard the shout of her boy, so that the
two Queens faced each other, each holding the shoulders of her son, and the
ladies watched, mute as fishes, for it was years since these two had met.
“What have you done to
my son?” breathed Maya the Queen, dry in the throat and all but speechless with
passion. For indeed his face, for a child, was ghastly.
“Look at his knife! What
would he do to my son?” Dwaymenau was stiff with hate and spoke as to a slave.
“He has killed my deer
and mocks me because I loved him, He is the devil in this place. Look at the
devils in his eyes. Look quick before he smiles, my mother.”
And indeed, young as the
boy was, an evil thing sat in either eye and glittered upon them. Dwaymenau
passed her hand across his brow, and he smiled and they were gone.
“The beast ran at me and
would have flung me with his horns,” he said, looking up brightly at his
mother. “He had the madness upon him. I struck once and he was dead. My father
would have done the same.
“That would he not!”
said Queen Maya bitterly. “Your father would have crept up, fawning on the
deer, and offered him the fruits he loved, stroking him the while. And in trust
the beast would have eaten, and the poison in the fruit would have slain him.
For the people of your father meet neither man nor beast in fair fight. With a
kiss they stab!”
Horror kept the women
staring and silent. No one had dreamed that the scandal had reached the Queen.
Never had she spoken or looked her knowledge but endured all in patience. Now
it sprang out like a sword among them, and they feared for Maya, whom all
loved.
Mindon did not
understand. It was beyond him, but he saw he was scorned. Dwaymenau, her face
rigid as a mask, looked pitilessly at the shaking Queen, and each word dropped
from her mouth, hard and cold as the falling of diamonds. She refused the
insult.
“If it is thus you speak
of our lord and my love, what wonder he forsakes you? Mother of a craven milk
runs in your veins and his for blood. Take your slinking brat away and weep
together! My son and I go forth to meet the King as he comes from hunting, and
to welcome him kingly!” She caught her boy to her with a magnificent gesture;
he flung his little arm about her, and laughing loudly they went off together.
The tension relaxed a
little when they were out of sight. The women knew that, since Dwaymenau had
refused to take the Queen’s meaning, she would certainly not carry her
complaint to the King. They guessed at her reason for this forbearance, but, be
that as it might, it was Certain that no other person would dare to tell him
and risk the fate that waits the messenger of evil.
The eldest lady led away
the Queen, now almost tottering in the reaction of fear and pain. Oh, that she
had controlled her speech! Not for her own sake—for she had lost all and the
beggar can lose no more—but for the boy’s sake, the unloved child that stood
between the stranger and her hopes. For him she had made a terrible enemy.
Weeping, the boy followed her.
“Take comfort, little
son,” she said, drawing him to her tenderly. “The deer can suffer no more. For
the tigers, he does not fear them. He runs in green woods now where there is
none to hunt. He is up and away. The Blessed One was once a deer as gentle as
yours.”
But still the child
wept, and the Queen broke down utterly. “Oh, if life be a dream, let us wake,
let us wake!” she sobbed. “For evil things walk in it that cannot live in the
light. Or let us dream deeper and forget. Go, little son, yet stay—for who can
tell what waits us when the King comes. Let us meet him here.”
For she believed that
Dwaymenau would certainly carry the tale of her speech to the King, and, if so,
what hope but death together?
That night, after the
feasting, when the girls were dancing the dance of the fairies and spirits, in
gold dresses, winged on the legs and shoulders, and high, gold-spired and
pinnacled caps, the King missed the little Prince, Ananda, and asked why he was
absent.
No one answered, the
women looking upon each other, until Dwaymenau, sitting beside him, glimmering
with rough pearls and rubies, spoke smoothly: “Lord, worshipped and beloved,
the two boys quarreled this day, and Ananda’s deer attacked our Mindon. He had
a madness upon him and thrust with his horns. But, Mindon, your true son, flew
in upon him and in a great fight he slit the beast’s throat with the knife you
gave him. Did he not well?”
“Well,” said the King
briefly. “But is there no hurt? Have searched? For he is mine.”
There was arrogance in
the last sentence and her proud soul rebelled, but smoothly as ever she spoke:
“I have searched and there is not the littlest scratch. But Ananda is weeping
because the deer is dead, and his mother is angry. What should I do?”
“Nothing. Ananda is
worthless and worthless let him be! And for that pale shadow that was once a
woman, let her be forgotten. And now, drink, my Queen!”
And Dwaymenau drank but
the drink was bitter to her, for a ghost had risen upon her that day. She had
never dreamed that such a scandal had been spoken, and it stunned her very soul
with fear, that the Queen should know her vileness and the cheat she had put
upon the King. As pure maid he had received her, and she knew, none better,
what the doom would be if his trust were broken and he knew the child not his.
She herself had seen this thing done to a concubine who had a little offended.
She was thrust living in a sack and this hung between two earthen jars pierced
with small holes, and thus she was set afloat on the terrible river. And not
till the slow filling and sinking of the jars was the agony over and the cries for
mercy stilled. No, the Queen’s speech was safe with her, but was it safe with
the Queen? For her silence, Dwaymenau must take measures.
Then she put it all
aside and laughed and jested with the King and did indeed for a time forget,
for she loved him for his black-browed beauty and his courage and royalty and
the childlike trust and the man’s passion that mingled in him for her. Daily
and nightly such prayers as she made to strange gods were that she might bear a
son, true son of his.
Next day, in the noonday
stillness when all slept, she led her young son by the hand to her secret
chamber, and, holding him upon her knees in that rich and golden place, she
lifted his face to hers and stared into his eyes. And so unwavering was her
gaze, so mighty the hard, unblinking stare that his own was held against it,
and he stared back as the earth stares breathless at the moon. Gradually the
terror faded out of his eyes; they glazed as if in a trance; his head fell
stupidly against her bosom; his spirit stood on the borderland of being and
waited.
Seeing this, she took
his palm and, molding it like wax, into the cup of it she dropped clear fluid
from a small vessel of pottery with the fylfot upon its side and the disks of
the god Shiva. And strange it was to see that lore of India in the palace where
the Blessed Law reigned in peace. Then, fixing her eyes with power upon Mindon,
she bade him, a pure child, see for her in its clearness.
“Only virgin-pure can
see!” she muttered, staring into his eyes. “See! See!”
The eyes of Mindon were
closing. He half opened them and looked dully at his palm. His face was pinched
and yellow.
“A woman—a child, on a
long couch. Dead! I see!”
“See her face. Is her
head crowned with the Queen’s jewels? See!”
“Jewels. I cannot see
her face. It is hidden.”
“Why is it hidden?”
“A robe across her face.
Oh, let me go!”
“And the child? See!”
“Let me go. Stop—my
head—my head! I cannot see. The child is hidden. Her arm holds it. A woman
stoops above them.”
“A woman? Who? Is it
like me? Speak! See!”
“A woman. It is like
you, mother—it is like you. I fear very greatly. A knife—a knife! Blood! I
cannot see—I cannot speak! I—I sleep.”
His face was ghastly
white now, his body cold and collapsed. Terrified, she caught him to her breast
and relaxed the power of her will upon him. For that moment, she was only the
passionate mother and quaked to think she might have hurt him. An hour passed
and he slept heavily in her arms, and in agony she watched to see the colour
steal back into the olive cheek and white lips. In the second hour he waked and
stretched himself indolently, yawning like a cat. Her tears dropped like rain
upon him as she clasped him violently to her.
He writhed himself free,
petulant and spoilt. “Let me be. I hate kisses and women’s tricks. I want to go
forth and play. I have had a devil’s dream.
“What did you see in
your dream, prince of my heart?” She caught frantically at the last chance.
“A deer—a tiger. I have
forgotten. Let me go.” He ran off and she sat alone with her doubts and fears.
Yet triumph coloured them too. She saw a dead woman, a dead child, and herself
bending above them. She hid the vessel in her bosom and went out among her
women.
Weeks passed, and never
a word that she dreaded from Maya the Queen. The women of Dwaymenau, questioning
the Queen’s women, heard that she seemed to have heavy sorrow upon her. Her
eyes were like dying lamps and she faded as they. The King never entered her
palace. Drowned in Dwaymenau’s wiles and beauty, her slave, her thrall, he
forgot all else but his fighting, his hunting and his long war-boats, and
whether the Queen lived or died, he cared nothing. Better indeed she should die
and her place be emptied for the beloved, without offence to her powerful
kindred.
And now he was to sail
upon a raid against the Shan Tsaubwa, who had denied him tribute of gold and
jewels and slaves. Glorious were the boats prepared for war, of brown teak and
gilded until they shone like gold. Seventy men rowed them, sword and lance
beside each. Warriors crowded them, flags and banners fluttered about them; the
shining water reflected the pomp like a mirror and the air rang with song.
Dwaymenau stood beside the water with her women, bidding the King farewell, and
so he saw her, radiant in the dawn, with her boy beside her, and waved his hand
to the last.
The ships were gone and
the days languished a little at Pagan. They missed the laughter and royalty of
the King, and few men, and those old and weak, were left in the city. The pulse
of life beat slower.
And Dwaymenau took rule
in the Golden Palace. Queen Maya sat like one in a dream and questioned
nothing, and Dwaymenau ruled with wisdom but none loved her. To all she was the
interloper, the witch-woman, the out-land upstart. Only the fear of the King
guarded her and her boy, but that was strong. The boys played together
sometimes, Mindon tyrannizing and cruel, Ananda fearing and complying, broken
in spirit.
Maya the Queen walked
daily in the long and empty Golden Hall of Audience, where none came now that
the King was gone, pacing up and down, gazing wearily at the carved screens and
all their woodland beauty of gods that did not hear, of happy spirits that had
no pity. Like a spirit herself she passed between the red pillars, appearing
and reappearing with steps that made no sound, consumed with hate of the evil
woman that had stolen her joy. Like a slow fire it burned in her soul, and the
face of the Blessed One was hidden from her, and she had forgotten His peace.
In that atmosphere of hate her life dwindled. Her son’s dwindled also, and
there was talk among the women of some potion that Dwaymenau had been seen to
drop into his noontide drink as she went swiftly by. That might he the gossip
of malice, but he pined. His eyes were large like a young bird’s; his hands
like little claws. They thought the departing year would take him with it. What
harm? Very certainly the King would shed no tear.
It was a sweet and
silent afternoon and she wandered in the great and lonely hall, sickened with
the hate in her soul and her fear for her boy. Suddenly she heard flying
footsteps—a boy’s, running in mad haste in the outer hall, and, following them,
bare feet, soft, thudding.
She stopped dead and
every pulse cried—Danger! No time to think or breathe when Mindon burst into
sight, wild with terror and following close beside him a man—a madman, a short
bright dah in his grasp, his jaws grinding foam, his wild eyes starting—one
passion to murder. So sometimes from the Nats comes pitiless fury, and men run
mad and kill and none knows why.
Maya the Queen stiffened
to meet the danger. Joy swept through her soul; her weariness was gone. A
fierce smile showed her teeth—a smile of hate, as she stood there and drew her
dagger for defense. For defense—the man would rend the boy and turn on her and
she would not die. She would live to triumph that the mongrel was dead, and her
son, the Prince again and his father’s joy—for his heart would turn to the
child most surely. Justice was rushing on its victim. She would see it and live
content, the long years of agony wiped out in blood, as was fitting. She would
not flee; she would see it and rejoice. And as she stood in gladness—these
broken thoughts rushing through her like flashes of lightning—Mindon saw her by
the pillar and, screaming in anguish for the first time, fled to her for
refuge.
She raised her knife to
meet the staring eyes, the chalk white face, and drive him back on the
murderer. If the man failed, she would not! And even as she did this a strange
thing befell. Something stronger than hate swept her away like a leaf on the
river; something primeval that lives in the lonely pangs of childbirth, that
hides in the womb and breasts of the mother. It was stronger than she. It was
not the hated Mindoin—she saw him no more. Suddenly it was the eternal Child,
lifting dying, appealing eyes to the Woman, as he clung to her knees. She did
not think this—she felt it, and it dominated her utterly. The Woman answered.
As if it had been her own flesh and blood, she swept the panting body behind
her and faced the man with uplifted dagger and knew her victory assured,
whether in life or death. On came the horrible rush, the flaming eyes, and, if
it was chance that set the dagger against his throat, it was cool strength that
drove it home and never wavered until the blood welling from the throat
quenched the flame in the wild eyes, and she stood triumphing like a
war-goddess, with the man at her feet. Then, strong and flushed, Maya the Queen
gathered the half-dead boy in her arms, and, both drenched with blood, they moved
slowly down the hall and outside met the hurrying crowd, with Dwaymenau, whom
the scream had brought to find her son.
“You have killed him!
She has killed him!” Scarcely could the Rajput woman speak. She was kneeling
beside him—he hideous with blood. “She hated him always. She has murdered him.
Seize her!”
“Woman, what matter your
hates and mine?” the Queen said slowly. “The boy is stark with fear. Carry him
in and send for old Meh Shway Gon. Woman, be silent!”
When a Queen commands,
men and women obey, and a Queen commanded then. A huddled group lifted the
child and carried him away, Dwaymenau with them, still uttering wild threats,
and the Queen was left alone.
She could not realize
what she had done and left undone. She could not understand it. She had hated,
sickened with loathing, as it seemed for ages, and now, in a moment it had
blown away like a whirlwind that is gone. Hate was washed out of her soul and
had left it cool and white as the Lotus of the Blessed One. What power had
Dwaymenau to hurt her when that other Power walked beside her? She seemed to
float above her in high air and look down upon her with compassion. Strength,
virtue flowed in her veins; weakness, fear were fantasies. She could not
understand, but knew that here was perfect enlightenment. About her echoed the
words of the Blessed One: “Never in this world doth hatred cease by hatred, but
only by love. This is an old rule.”
“Whereas I was blind,
now I see,” said Maya the Queen slowly to her own heart. She had grasped the
hems of the Mighty.
Words cannot speak the
still passion of strength and joy that possessed her. Her step was light. As
she walked, her soul sang within her, for thus it is with those that have
received the Law. About them is the Peace.
In the dawn she was told
that the Queen, Dwaymenau, would speak with her, and without a tremor she who
had shaken like a leaf at that name commanded that she should enter. It was
Dwaymenau that trembled as she came into that unknown place.
With cloudy brows and
eyes that would reveal no secret, she stood before the high seat where the
Queen sat pale and majestic.
“Is it well with the
boy?” the Queen asked earnestly.
“Well,” said Dwaymenau,
fingering the silver bosses of her girdle.
“Then—is there more to
say?” The tone was that of the great lady who courteously ends an audience.
“There is more. The men brought in the body and in its throat your dagger was
sticking. And my son has told me that your body was a shield to him. You
offered your life for his. I did not think to thank you—but I thank you.” She
ended abruptly and still her eyes had never met the Queen’s.
“I accept your thanks.
Yet a mother could do no less.”
The tone was one of
dismissal but still Dwaymenau lingered.
“The dagger,” she said
and drew it from her bosom. On the clear, pointed blade the blood had curdled
and dried. “I never thought to ask a gift of you, but this dagger is a memorial
of my son’s danger. May I keep it?”
“As you will. Here is
the sheath.” From her girdle she drew it—rough silver, encrusted with rubies from
the mountains.
The hand rejected it.
“Jewels I cannot take,
but bare steel is a fitting gift between us two.”
“As you will.”
The Queen spoke
compassionately, and Dwaymenau, still with veiled eyes, was gone without fare
well. The empty sheath lay on the seat—a symbol of the sharp-edged hate that
had passed out of her life. She touched the sheath to her lips and, smiling,
laid it away.
And the days went by and
Dwaymenau came no more before her, and her days were fulfilled with peace. And
now again the Queen ruled in the palace wisely and like a Queen, and this
Dwaymenau did not dispute, but what her thoughts were no man could tell.
Then came the end.
One night the city
awakened to a wild alarm. A terrible fleet of war-boats came sweeping along the
river thick as locusts—the war fleet of the Lord of Prome. Battle shouts broke
the peace of the night to horror; axes battered on the outer doors; the roofs
of the outer buildings were all aflame. It was no wonderful incident, but a
common one enough of those turbulent days—reprisal by a powerful ruler with
raids and hates to avenge on the Lord of the Golden Palace. It was indeed a
right to be gainsaid only by the strong arm, and the strong arm was absent; as
for the men of Pagan, if the guard failed and the women’s courage sank, they
would return to blackened walls, empty chambers and desolation.
At Pagan the guard was
small, indeed, for the King’s greed of plunder had taken almost every able man
with him. Still, those who were left did what they could, and the women, alert
and brave, with but few exceptions, gathered the children and handed such
weapons as they could muster to the men, and themselves, taking knives and
daggers, helped to defend the inner rooms.
In the farthest, the
Queen, having given her commands and encouraged all with brave words, like a
wise, prudent princess, sat with her son beside her. Her duty was now to him.
Loved or unloved, he was still the heir, the root of the House tree. If all
failed, she must make ransom and terms for him, and, if they died, it must be
together. He, with sparkling eyes, gay in the danger, stood by her. Thus
Dwaymenau found them.
She entered quietly and
without any display of emotion and stood before the high seat.
“Great Queen”—she used
that title for the first time—“the leader is Meng Kyinyo of Prome. There is no
mercy. The end is near. Our men fall fast, the women are fleeing. I have come
to say this thing: Save the Prince.”
“And how?” asked the
Queen, still seated. “I have no power.”
“I have sent to Maung
Tin, abbot of the Golden Monastery, and he has said this thing. In the Kyoung
across the river he can hide one child among the novices. Cut his hair swiftly
and put upon him this yellow robe. The time is measured in minutes.”
Then the Queen
perceived, standing by the pillar, a monk of a stern, dark presence, the
creature of Dwaymenau. For an instant she pondered. Was the woman selling the
child to death? Dwaymenau spoke no word. Her face was a mask. A minute that
seemed an hour drifted by, and the yelling and shrieks for mercy drew nearer.
“There will be pursuit,”
said the Queen. “They will slay him on the river. Better here with me.”
“There will be no
pursuit.” Dwaymenau fixed her strange eyes on the Queen for the first time.
What moved in those
eyes? The Queen could not tell. But despairing, she rose and went to the silent
monk, leading the Prince by the hand. Swiftly he stripped the child of the silk
pasoh of royalty, swiftly he cut the long black tresses knotted on the little
head, and upon the slender golden body he set the yellow robe worn by the Lord
Himself on earth, and in the small hand he placed the begging-bowl of the Lord.
And now, remote and holy, in the dress that is of all most sacred, the Prince,
standing by the monk, turned to his mother and looked with grave eyes upon her,
as the child Buddha looked upon his Mother—also a Queen. But Dwaymenau stood by
silent and lent no help as the Queen folded the Prince in her arms and laid his
hand in the hand of the monk and saw them pass away among the pillars, she
standing still and white.
She turned to her rival.
“If you have meant truly, I thank you.”
“I have meant truly.”
She turned to go, but
the Queen caught her by the hand.
“Why have you done
this?” she asked, looking into the strange eyes of the strange woman.
Something like tears
gathered in them for a moment, but she brushed them away as she said hurriedly:
“I was grateful. You
saved my son. Is it not enough?”
“No, not enough!” cried
the Queen. “There is more. Tell me, for death is upon us.”
“His footsteps are
near,” said the Indian. “I will speak. I love my lord. In death I will not
cheat him. What you have known is true. My child is no child of his. I will not
go down to death with a lie upon my lips. Come and see.”
Dwaymenau was no more.
Sundari, the Indian woman, awful and calm, led the Queen down the long ball and
into her own chamber, where Mindon, the child, slept a drugged sleep. The Queen
felt that she had never known her; she herself seemed diminished in stature as
she followed the stately figure, with its still, dark face. Into this room the
enemy were breaking, shouldering their way at the door—a rabble of terrible
faces. Their fury was partly checked when only a sleeping child and two women
confronted them, but their leader, a grim and evil-looking man, strode from the
huddle.
“Where is the son of the
King?” he shouted. “Speak, women! Whose is this boy?”
Sundari laid her hand
upon her son’s shoulder. Not a muscle of her face flickered.
“This is his son.”
“His true son—the son of
Maya the Queen?”
“His true son, the son
of Maya the Queen.”
“Not the younger—the
mongrel?”
“The younger—the mongrel
died last week of a fever.”
Every moment of delay
was precious. Her eyes saw only a monk and a boy fleeing across the wide river.
“Which is Maya the
Queen?”
“This,” said Sundari.
“She cannot speak. It is her son—the Prince.”
Maya had veiled her face
with her hands. Her brain swam, but she understood the noble lie. This woman
could love. Their lord would not be left childless. Thought beat like pulses in
her—raced along her veins. She held her breath and was dumb.
His doubt was assuaged
and the lust of vengeance was on him—a madness seized the man. But even his own
wild men shrank back a moment, for to slay a sleeping child in cold blood is no
man’s work.
“You swear it is the
Prince. But why? Why do you not lie to save him if you are the King’s woman?”
“Because his mother has
trampled me to the earth. I am the Indian woman—the mother of the younger, who
is dead and safe. She jeered at me—she mocked me. It is time I should see her
suffer. Suffer now as I have suffered, Maya the Queen!”
This was reasonable—this
was like the women he had known. His doubt was gone—he laughed aloud.
“Then feed full of
vengeance!” he cried, and drove his knife through the child’s heart.
For a moment Sundari
wavered where she stood, but she held herself and was rigid as the dead.
“Tha-du! Well done!” she
said with an awful smile. “The tree is broken, the roots cut. And now for us
women—our fate, O master?”
“Wait here,” he
answered. “Let not a hair of their heads be touched. Both are fair. The two for
me. For the rest draw lots when all is done.”
The uproar surged away.
The two stood by the dead boy. So swift had been his death that he lay as
though he still slept—the black lashes pressed upon his cheek.
With the heredity of
their different races upon them, neither wept. But silently the Queen opened
her arms; wide as a woman that entreats she opened them to the Indian Queen,
and speechlessly the two clung together. For a while neither spoke.
“My sister!” said Maya
the Queen. And again, “O great of heart!”
She laid her cheek
against Sundari’s, and a wave of solemn joy seemed to break in her soul and
flood it with life and light.
“Had I known sooner!”
she said. “For now the night draws on.”
“What is time?” answered
the Rajput woman. “We stand before the Lords of Life and Death. The life you
gave was yours, and I am unworthy to kiss the feet of the Queen. Our lord will
return and his son is saved. The House can be rebuilt. My son and I were waifs
washed up from the sea. Another wave washes us back to nothingness. Tell him my
story and he will loathe me.”
“My lips are shut,” said
the Queen. “Should I betray my sister’s honour? When he speaks of the noble
women of old, your name will be among them. What matters which of us he loves
and remembers? Your soul and mine have seen the same thing, and we are one. But
I—what have I to do with life? The ship and the bed of the conqueror await us.
Should we await them, my sister?”
The bright tears
glittered in the eyes of Sundari at the tender name and the love in the face of
the Queen. At last she accepted it.
“My sister, no,” she
said, and drew from her bosom the dagger of Maya, with the man’s blood rusted
upon it. “Here is the way. I have kept this dagger in token of my debt. Nightly
have I kissed it, swearing that, when the time came, I would repay my debt to
the great Queen. Shall I go first or follow, my sister?”
Her voice lingered on
the word. It was precious to her. It was like clear water, laying away the
stain of the shameful years.
“Your arm is strong,”
answered the Queen. “I go first. Because the King’s son is safe, I bless you.
For your love of the King, I love you. And here, standing on the verge of life,
I testify that the words of the Blessed One are truth—that love is All; that
hatred is Nothing.”
She bared the breast
that this woman had made desolate—that, with the love of this woman, was
desolate ho longer, and, stooping, laid her hand on the brow of Mindon. Once
more they embraced, and then, strong and true, and with the Rajput passion
behind the blow, the stroke fell and Sundari had given her sister the crowning
mercy of deliverance. She laid the body beside her own son, composing the
stately limbs, the quiet eyelids, the black lengths of hair into majesty. So,
she thought, in the great temple of the Rajput race, the Mother Goddess shed
silence and awe upon her worshippers. The two lay like mother and son—one
slight hand of the Queen she laid across the little body as if to guard it.
Her work done, she
turned to the entrance and watched the dawn coming glorious over the river. The
men shouted and quarreled in the distance, but she heeded them no more than the
chattering of apes. Her heart was away over the distance to the King, but with
no passion now: so might a mother have thought of her son. He was sleeping,
forgetful of even her in his dreams. What matter? She was glad at heart. The
Queen was dearer to her than the King—so strange is life; so healing is death.
She remembered without surprise that she had asked no forgiveness of the Queen
for all the cruel wrongs, for the deadly intent—had made no confession. Again
what matter? What is forgiveness when love is all?
She turned from the
dawn-light to the light in the face of the Queen. It was well. Led by such a
hand, she could present herself without fear before the Lords of Life and
Death—she and the child. She smiled. Life is good, but death, which is more
life, is better. The son of the King was safe, but her own son safer.
When the conqueror reentered
the chamber, he found the dead Queen guarding the dead child, and across her
feet, as not worthy to lie beside her, was the body of the Indian woman, most
beautiful in death.
(Salutation to Ganesa
the Lord of Wisdom, and to Saraswate the Lady of Sweet Speech!)
This story was composed
by the Brahmin Visravas, that dweller on the banks of holy Kashi; and though
the events it records are long past, yet it is absolutely and immutably true
because, by the power of his yoga, he summoned up every scene before him, and
beheld the persons moving and speaking as in life. Thus he had naught to do but
to set down what befell.
What follows, that hath
he seen.
I
Wide was the plain, the
morning sun shining full upon it, drinking up the dew as the Divine drinks up
the spirit of man. Far it stretched, resembling the ocean, and riding upon it
like a stately ship was the league-long Rock of Chitor. It is certainly by the
favour of the Gods that this great fortress of the Rajput Kings thus rises from
the plain, leagues in length, noble in height; and very strange it is to see
the flat earth fall away from it like waters from the bows of a boat, as it
soars into the sky with its burden of palaces and towers.
Here dwelt the Queen
Padmini and her husband Bhimsi, the Rana of the Rajputs.
The sight of the holy
ascetic Visravas pierced even the secrets of the Rani’s bower, where, in the
inmost chamber of marble, carved until it appeared like lace of the foam of the
sea, she was seated upon cushions of blue Bokhariot silk, like the lotus whose
name she bore floating upon the blue depths of the lake. She had just risen
from the shallow bath of marble at her feet.
Most beautiful was this
Queen, a haughty beauty such as should be a Rajput lady; for the name “Rajput” signifies
Son of a King, and this lady was assuredly the daughter of Kings and of no
lesser persons. And since that beauty is long since ashes (all things being
transitory), it is permitted to describe the mellowed ivory of her body, the
smooth curves of her hips, and the defiance of her glimmering bosom, half
veiled by the long silken tresses of sandal-scented hair which a maiden on
either side, bowing toward her, knotted upon her head. But even he who with his
eyes has seen it can scarce tell the beauty of her face—the slender arched
nose, the great eyes like lakes of darkness in the reeds of her curled lashes,
the mouth of roses, the glance, deer-like but proud, that courted and repelled
admiration. This cannot be told, nor could the hand of man paint it. Scarcely
could that fair wife of the Pandava Prince, Draupadi the Beautiful (who bore
upon her perfect form every auspicious mark) excel this lady.
(Ashes—ashes! May
Maheshwara have mercy upon her rebirths!)
Throughout India had run
the fame of this beauty. In the bazaar of Kashmir they told of it. It was
recorded in the palaces of Travancore, and all the lands that lay between; and
in an evil hour—may the Gods curse the mother that bore him!—it reached the
ears of Allah-u-Din, the Moslem dog, a very great fighting man who sat in
Middle India, looting and spoiling.
(Ahi! for the beauty
that is as a burning flame!)
In the gardens beneath
the windows of the Queen, the peacocks, those maharajas of the birds, were
spreading the bronze and emerald of their tails. The sun shone on them as on
heaps of jewels, so that they dazzled the eyes. They stood about the feet of
the ancient Brahmin sage, he who had tutored the Queen in her childhood and
given her wisdom as the crest-jeweled of her loveliness. He, the Twice-born sat
under the shade of a neem tree, hearing the gurgle of the sacred waters from
the Cow’s Mouth, where the great tank shone under the custard-apple boughs;
and, at peace with all the world, he read in the Scripture which affirms the
transience of all things drifting across the thought of the Supreme like clouds
upon the surface of the Ocean.
(Ahi! that loveliness is
also illusion!)
Her women placed about
the Queen—that Lotus of Women—a robe of silk of which none could say that it
was green or blue, the noble colours so mingled into each other under the
latticed gold work of Kashi. They set the jewels on her head, and wide thin
rings of gold heavy with great pearls in her ears. Upon the swell of her bosom
they clasped the necklace of table emeralds, large, deep, and full of green
lights, which is the token of the Chitor queens. Upon her slender ankles they
placed the chooris of pure soft gold, set also with grass-green emeralds, and
the delicate souls of her feet they reddened with lac. Nor were her arms forgotten,
but loaded with bangles so free from alloy that they could be bent between the
hands of a child. Then with fine paste they painted the Symbol between her dark
brows, and, rising, she shone divine as a nymph of heaven who should cause the
righteous to stumble in his austerities and arrest even the glances of Gods.
(Ahi! that the Transient
should be so fair!)
II
Now it was the hour that
the Rana should visit her; for since the coming of the Lotus Lady, he had
forgotten his other women, and in her was all his heart. He came from the Hall
of Audience where petitions were heard, and justice done to rich and poor; and
as he came, the Queen, hearing his step on the stone, dismissed her women, and
smiling to know her loveliness, bowed before him, even as the Goddess Uma bows
before Him who is her other half.
Now he was a tall man,
with the falcon look of the Hill Rajputs, and moustaches that curled up to his
eyes, lion-waisted and lean in the flanks like Arjoon himself, a very ruler of
men; and as he came, his hand was on the hilt of the sword that showed beneath
his gold coat of khincob. On the high cushions he sat, and the Rani a step
beneath him; and she said, raising her lotus eyes:—
“Speak, Aryaputra, (son
of a noble father)—what hath befallen?”
And he, looking upon her
beauty with fear, replied,—
“It is thy beauty, O
wife, that brings disaster.”
“And how is this?” she
asked very earnestly.
For a moment he paused,
regarding her as might a stranger, as one who considers a beauty in which he
hath no part; and, drawn by this strangeness, she rose and knelt beside him,
pillowing her head upon his heart.
“Say on,” she said in
her voice of music.
He unfurled a scroll that he had crushed in his
strong right hand, and
read aloud:—
“‘Thus
says Allah-u-Din, Shadow of God, Wonder of the Age,
Viceregent of Kings. We have heard that in the
Treasury of Chitor is a
jewel, the like of which is not in the Four
Seas—the work of the hand
of the Only God, to whom be praise! This jewel
is thy Queen, the Lady
Padmini. Now, since the sons of the Prophet are
righteous, I desire but
to look upon this jewel, and ascribing glory to
the Creator, to depart
in peace. Granted requests are the bonds of
friendship; therefore
lay the head of acquiescence in the dust of
opportunity and name an
auspicious day.’”
He crushed it again and
flung it furiously from him on the marble.
“The insult is deadly.
The sorry son of a debased mother! Well he knows that to the meanest Rajput his
women are sacred, and how much more the daughters and wives of the Kings! The
jackals feast on the tongue that speaks this shame! But it is a threat,
Beloved—a threat! Give me thy counsel that never failed me yet.”
For the Rajputs take
counsel with their women who are wise.
They were silent, each
weighing the force of resistance that could be made; and this the Rani knew
even as he.
“It cannot be,” she
said; “the very ashes of the dead would shudder to hear. Shall the Queens of
India be made the sport of the barbarians?”
Her husband looked upon
her fair face. She could feel his heart labor beneath her ear.
“True, wife; but the
barbarians are strong. Our men are tigers, each one, but the red dogs of the
Dekkan can pull down the tiger, for they are many, and he alone.”
Then that great Lady,
accepting his words, and conscious of the danger, murmured this, clinging to
her husband:—
“There was a Princess of
our line whose beauty made all other women seem as waning moons in the sun’s
splendour. And many great Kings sought her, and there was contention and war.
And, she, fearing that the Rajputs would be crushed to powder between the
warring Kings, sent unto each this message: ‘Come on such and such a day, and
thou shalt see my face and hear my choice.’ And they, coming, rejoiced
exceedingly, thinking each one that he was the Chosen. So they came into the
great Hall, and there was a table, and somewhat upon it covered with a gold
cloth; and an old veiled woman lifted the gold, and the head of the Princess
lay there with the lashes like night upon her cheek, and between her lips was a
little scroll, saying this: ‘I have chosen my Lover and my Lord, and he is
mightiest, for he is Death.’—So the Kings went silently away. And there was
Peace.”
The music of her voice
ceased, and the Rana clasped her closer.
“This I cannot do.
Better die together. Let us take counsel with the ancient Brahman, thy guru
[teacher], for he is very wise.”
She clapped her hands,
and the maidens returned, and, bowing, brought the venerable Prabhu Narayan
into the Presence, and again those roses retired.
Respectful salutation
was then offered by the King and the Queen to that saint, hoary with wisdom—he
who had seen her grow into the loveliness of the sea-born Shri, yet had never
seen that loveliness; for he had never raised his eyes above the chooris about
her ankles. To him the King related his anxieties; and he sat rapt in musing,
and the two waited in dutiful silence until long minutes had fallen away; and
at the last he lifted his head, weighted with wisdom, and spoke.
“O King, Descendant of
Rama! this outrage cannot be. Yet, knowing the strength and desire of this
obscene one and the weakness of our power, it is plain that only with cunning
can cunning be met. Hear, therefore, the history of the Fox and the Drum.
“A certain Fox searched
for food in the jungle, and so doing beheld a tree on which hung a drum; and
when the boughs knocked upon the parchment, it sounded aloud. Considering, he
believed that so round a form and so great a voice must portend much good
feeding. Neglecting on this account a fowl that fed near by, he ascended to the
drum. The drum being rent was but air and parchment, and meanwhile the fowl
fled away. And from the eye of folly he shed the tear of disappointment, having
bartered the substance for the shadow. So must we act with this budmash
[scoundrel]. First, receiving his oath that he will depart without violence,
hid him hither to a great feast, and say that he shall behold the face of the
Queen in a mirror. Provide that some fair woman of the city show her face, and
then let him depart in peace, showing him friendship. He shall not know he hath
not seen the beauty he would befoul.”
After consultation, no
better way could be found; but the heart of the great Lady was heavy with
foreboding.
(A hi! that Beauty
should wander a pilgrim in the ways of sorrow!)
To Allah-u-Din therefore
did the King dispatch this letter by swift riders on mares of Mewar.
After salutations—“Now
whereas thou hast said thou wouldest look upon the beauty of the Treasure of
Chitor, know it is not the custom of the Rajputs that any eye should light upon
their treasure. Yet assuredly, when requests arise between friends, there
cannot fail to follow distress of mind and division of soul if these are
ungranted. So, under promises that follow, I bid thee to a feast at my poor
house of Chitor, and thou shalt see that beauty reflected in a mirror, and so
seeing, depart in peace from the house of a friend.”
This being writ by the
Twice-Born, the Brahman, did the Rana sign with bitter rage in his heart. And
the days passed.
III
On a certain day found
fortunate by the astrologers—a day of early winter, when the dawns were pure
gold and the nights radiant with a cool moon—did a mighty troop of Moslems set
their camp on the plain of Chitor. It was as if a city had blossomed in an
hour. Those who looked from the walls muttered prayers to the Lord of the
Trident; for these men seemed like the swarms of the locust—people, warriors
all, fierce fighting-men. And in the ways of Chitor, and up the steep and
winding causeway from the plains, were warriors also, the chosen of the
Rajputs, thick as blades of corn hedging the path.
(Ahi! that the blossom
of beauty should have swords for thorns!)
Then, leaving his camp,
attended by many Chiefs,—may the mothers and sires that begot them be accursed!—came
Allah-u-Din, riding toward the Lower Gate, and so upward along the causeway,
between the two rows of men who neither looked nor spoke, standing like the
carvings of war in the Caves of Ajunta. And the moon was rising through the
sunset as he came beneath the last and seventh gate. Through the towers and
palaces he rode with his following, but no woman, veiled or unveiled,—no, not
even an outcast of the city,—was there to see him come; only the men, armed and
silent. So he turned to Munim Khan that rode at his bridle, saying,—
“Let not the eye of
watchfulness close this night on the pillow of forgetfulness!”
And thus he entered the
palace.
Very great was the feast
in Chitor, and the wines that those accursed should not drink (since the
Outcast whom they call their Prophet forbade them) ran like water, and at the
right hand of Allah-u-Din was set the great crystal Cup inlaid with gold by a
craft that is now perished; and he filled and refilled it—may his own Prophet
curse the swine!
But because the sons of
Kings eat not with the outcasts, the Rana entered after, clothed in chain armor
of blue steel, and having greeted him, bid him to the sight of that Treasure.
And Allah-u-Din, his eyes swimming with wine, and yet not drunken, followed,
and the two went alone.
Purdahs [curtains] of
great splendour were hung in the great Hall that is called the Raja’s Hall,
exceeding rich with gold, and in front of the opening was a kneeling-cushion,
and an a gold stool before it a polished mirror.
(Ahi! for gold and beauty,
the scourges of the world!)
And the Rana was pale to
the lips.
Now as the Princes stood
by the purdah, a veiled woman, shrouded in white so that no shape could be seen
in her, came forth from within, and kneeling upon the cushion, she unveiled her
face bending until the mirror, like a pool of water, held it, and that only.
And the King motioned his guest to look, and he looked over her veiled shoulder
and saw. Very great was the bowed beauty that the mirror held, but Allah-u-Din
turned to the Rana.
“By the Bread and the
Salt, by the Guest-Right, by the Honour of thy House, I ask—is this the
Treasure of Chitor?”
And since the
Sun-Descended cannot lie, no, not though they perish, the Rana answered,
flushing darkly,—“This is not the Treasure. Wilt thou spare?”
But he would not, and
the woman slipped like a shadow behind the purdah and no word said.
Then was heard the
tinkling of chooris, and the little noise fell upon the silence like a fear,
and, parting the curtains, came a woman veiled like the other. She did not
kneel, but took the mirror in her hand, and Allah-u-Din drew up behind her
back. From her face she raised the veil of gold Dakka webs, and gazed into the
mirror, holding it high, and that Accursed stumbled back, blinded with beauty,
saying this only,—“I have seen the Treasure of Chitor.”
So the purdah fell about
her.
The next day, after the
Imaum of the Accursed had called them to prayer, they departed, and
Allah-u-Din, paying thanks to the Rana for honours given and taken, and
swearing friendship, besought him to ride to his camp, to see the marvels of
gold and steel armor brought down from the passes, swearing also safe-conduct.
And because the Rajputs trust the word even of a foe, he went.
(A hi! that honour
should strike hands with traitors!)
IV
The hours went by,
heavy-footed like mourners. Padmini the Rani knelt by the window in her tower
that overlooks the plains. Motionless she knelt there, as the Goddess Uma lost
in her penances, and she saw her Lord ride forth, and the sparkle of steel where
the sun shone on them, and the Standard of the Cold Disk on its black ground.
So the camp of the Moslem swallowed them up, and they returned no more. Still
she knelt and none dared speak with her; and as the first shade of evening fell
across the hills of Rajasthan, she saw a horseman spurting over the flat; and
he rode like the wind, and, seeing, she implored the Gods.
Then entered the
Twice-Born, that saint of clear eyes, and he bore a scroll; and she rose and
seated herself, and he stood by her, as her ladies cowered like frightened
doves before the woe in his face as he read.
“To the Rose of Beauty,
The Pearl among Women, the Chosen of the Palace. Who, having seen thy
loveliness, can look on another? Who, having tasted the wine of the Houris, but
thirsts forever? Behold, I have thy King as hostage. Come thou and deliver him.
I have sworn that he shall return in thy place.”
And from a smaller
scroll, the Brahman read this:—
“I am fallen in the
snare. Act thou as becomes a Rajputni.”
Then that Daughter of
the Sun lifted her head, for the thronging of armed feet was heard in the
Council Hall below. From the floor she caught her veil and veiled herself in
haste, and the Brahman with bowed head followed, while her women mourned aloud.
And, descending, between the folds of the purdah she appeared white and veiled,
and the Brahman beside her, and the eyes of all the Princes were lowered to her
shrouded feet, while the voice they had not heard fell silvery upon the air,
and the echoes of the high roof repeated it.
“Chief of the Rajputs,
what is your counsel?” And he of Marwar stepped forward, and not raising his
eyes above her feet, answered,—
“Queen, what is thine?”
For the Rajputs have
ever heard the voice of their women.
And she said,—
“I counsel that I die and
my head be sent to him, that my blood may quench his desire.”
And each talked eagerly
with the other, but amid the tumult the Twice-Born said,—
“This is not good talk.
In his rage he will slay the King. By my yoga, I have seen it. Seek another
way.”
So they sought, but
could determine nothing, and they feared to ride against the dog, for he held
the life of the King; and the tumult was great, but all were for the King’s
safety.
Then once more she
spoke.
“Seeing it is determined
that the King’s life is more than my honour, I go this night. In your hand I
leave my little son, the Prince Ajeysi. Prepare my litters, seven hundred of
the best, for all my women go with me. Depart now, for I have a thought from
the Gods.”
Then, returning to her
bower, she spoke this letter to the saint, and he wrote it, and it was sent to
the camp.
After
salutations—“Wisdom and strength have attained their end. Have ready for
release the Rana of Chitor, for this night I come with my ladies, the prize of
the conqueror.”
When the sun sank, a
great procession with torches descended the steep way of Chitor—seven hundred
litters, and in the first was borne the Queen, and all her women followed.
All the streets were
thronged with women, weeping and beating their breasts. Very greatly they wept,
and no men were seen, for their livers were black within them for shame as the
Treasure of Chitor departed, nor would they look upon the sight. And across the
plains went that procession; as if the stars had fallen upon the earth, so
glittered the sorrowful lights of the Queen.
But in the camp was
great rejoicing, for the Barbarians knew that many fair women attended on her.
Now, before the entrance
to the camp they had made a great shamiana [tent] ready, hung with shawls of
Kashmir and the plunder of Delhi; and there was set a silk divan for the Rani,
and beside it stood the Loser and the Gainer, Allah-u-Din and the King,
awaiting the Treasure.
Veiled she entered,
stepping proudly, and taking no heed of the Moslem, she stood before her
husband, and even through the veil he could feel the eyes he knew.
And that Accursed spoke,
laughing.
“I have won-I have won,
O King! Bid farewell to the Chosen of the Palace—the Beloved of the Viceregent
of Kings!”
Then she spoke softly,
delicately, in her own tongue, that the outcast should not guess the matter of
her speech.
“Stand by me. Stir not.
And when I raise my arm, cry the cry of the Rajputs. NOW!”
And she flung her arm
above her head, and instantly, like a lion roaring, he shouted, drawing his
sword, and from every litter sprang an armed man, glittering in steel, and the
bearers, humble of mien, were Rajput knights, every one.
And Allah-u-Din thrust
at the breast of the Queen; but around them surged the war, and she was hedged
with swords like a rose in the thickets.
Very full of wine, dull
with feasting and lust and surprised, the Moslems fled across the plains,
streaming in a broken rabble, cursing and shouting like low-caste women; and
the Rajputs, wiping their swords, returned from the pursuit and laughed upon
each other.
But what shall be said
of the joy of the King and of her who had imagined this thing, instructed of
the Goddess who is the other half of her Lord?
So the procession
returned, singing, to Chitor with those Two in the midst; but among the dogs
that fled was Allah-u-Din, his face blackened with shame and wrath, the curses
choking in his foul throat.
(Aid! that the evil
still walk the ways of the world!)
V
So the time went by and
the beauty of the Queen grew, and her King could see none but hers. Like the
moon she obscured the stars, and every day he remembered her wisdom, her
valour, and his soul did homage at her feet, and there was great content in
Chitor.
It chanced one day that
the Queen, looking from her high window that like an eagle’s nest overhung the
precipice, saw, on the plain beneath, a train of men, walking like ants, and
each carried a basket on his back, and behind them was a cloud of dust like a
great army. Already the city was astir because of this thing, and the rumours
came thick and the spies were sent out.
In the dark they
returned, and the Rana entered the bower of Padmini, his eyes burning like coal
with hate and wrath, and he flung his arm round his wife like a shield.
“He is returned, and in
power. Counsel me again, O wife, for great is thy wisdom!”
But she answered only
this,—
“Fight, for this time it
is to the death.”
Then each day she
watched bow the baskets of earth, emptied upon the plain at first, made
nothing, an ant heap whereat fools might laugh. But each day as the trains of
men came, spilling their baskets, the great earthworks grew and their height
mounted. Day after day the Rajputs rode forth and slew; and as they slew it
seemed that all the teeming millions of the earth came forth to take the places
of the slain. And the Rajputs fell also, and under the pennons the thundering
forces returned daily, thinned of their best.
(A hi! that Evil rules
the world as God!)
And still the earth grew
up to the heights, and the protection of the hills was slowly withdrawn from
Chitor, for on the heights they made they set their engines of war.
Then in a red dawn that
great saint Narayan came to the Queen, where she watched by her window, and
spoke.
“O great lady, I have
dreamed a fearful dream. Nay, rather have I seen a vision.”
With her face set like a
sword, the Queen said,—
“Say on.”
“In a light red like
blood, I waked, and beside me stood the Mother,—Durga,—awful to see, with a
girdle of heads about her middle; and the drops fell thick and slow from That
which she held in her hand, and in the other was her sickle of Doom. Nor did
she speak, but my soul heard her words.”
“Narrate them.”
“She commanded: ‘Say
this to the Rana: “In Chitor is My altar; in Chitor is thy throne. If thou
wouldest save either, send forth twelve crowned Kings of Chitor to die.’”
As he said this, the
Rana, fore-spent with fighting, entered and heard the Divine word.
Now there were twelve
princes of the Rajput blood, and the youngest was the son of Padmini. What
choice had these most miserable but to appease the dreadful anger of the
Goddess? So on each fourth day a King of Chitor was crowned, and for three days
sat upon the throne, and on the fourth day, set in the front, went forth and
died fighting. So perished eleven Kings of Chitor, and now there was left but
the little Ajeysi, the son of the Queen.
And that day was a great
Council called.
Few were there. On the
plains many lay dead; holding the gates many watched; but the blood was red in
their hearts and flowed like Indus in the melting of the snows. And to them
spoke the Rana, his hand clenched on his sword, and the other laid on the small
dark head of the Prince Ajeysi, who stood between his knees. And as he spoke
his voice gathered strength till it rang through the hall like the voice of
Indra when he thunders in the heavens.
“Men of the Rajputs,
this child shall not die. Are we become jackals that we fall upon the weak and
tear them? When have we put our women and children in the forefront of the war?
I—I only am King of Chitor. Narayan shall save this child for the time that
will surely come. And for us—what shall we do? I die for Chitor!”
And like the hollow
waves of a great sea they answered him,—
“We will die for
Chitor.”
There was silence and
Marwar spoke.
“The women?”
“Do they not know the duty
of a Rajputni?” said the King. “My household has demanded that the caves be
prepared.”
And the men clashed stew
joy with their swords, and the council dispersed.
Then that very great
saint, the Twice-Born, put off the sacred thread that is the very soul of the
Brahman. In his turban he wound it secretly, and he stained his noble Aryan
body until it resembled the Pariahs, foul for the pure to see, loathsome for
the pure to touch, and he put on him the rags of the lowest of the earth, and
taking the Prince, he removed from the body of the child every trace of royal
and Rajput birth, and he appeared like a child of the Bhils—the vile forest
wanderers that shame not to defile their lips with carrion. And in this guise
they stood before the Queen; and when she looked on the saint, the tears fell
from her eyes like rain, not for grief for her son, nor for death, but that for
their sake the pure should be made impure and the glory of the Brahman-hood be
defiled. And she fell at the old man’s feet and laid her head on the ground
before him.
“Rise, daughter!” he
said, “and take comfort! Are not the eyes of the Gods clear that they should
distinguish?—and this day we stand before the God of Gods. Have not the Great
Ones said, ‘That which causes life causes also decay and death’? Therefore we
who go and you who stay are alike a part of the Divine. Embrace now your child
and bless him, for we depart. And it is on account of the sacrifice of the
Twelve that he is saved alive.”
So, controlling her
tears, she rose, and clasping the child to her bosom, she bade him be of good
cheer since he went with the Gods. And that great saint took his hand from
hers, and for the first time in the life of the Queen he raised his aged eyes
to her face, and she gazed at him; but what she read, even the ascetic
Visravas, who saw all by the power of his yoga, could not tell, for it was
beyond speech. Very certainly the peace thereafter possessed her.
So those two went out by
the secret ways of the rocks, and wandering far, were saved by the favour of
Durga.
VI
And the nights went by
and the days, and the time came that no longer could they hold Chitor, and all
hope was dead.
On a certain day the
Rana and the Rani stood for the last time in her bower, and looked down into
the city; and in the streets were gathered in a very wonderful procession the
women of Chitor; and not one was veiled. Flowers that had bloomed in the inner
chambers, great ladies jewelled for a festival, young brides, aged mothers, and
girl children clinging to the robes of their mothers who held their babes,
crowded the ways. Even the low-caste women walked with measured steps and
proudly, decked in what they had of best, their eyes lengthened with soorma,
and flowers in the darkness of their hair.
The Queen was clothed in
a gold robe of rejoicing, her bodice latticed with diamonds and great gems, and
upon her bosom the necklace of table emeralds, alight with green fire, which is
the jewel of the Queens of Chitor. So she stood radiant as a vision of Shri,
and it appeared that rays encircled her person.
And the Rana, unarmed
save for his sword, had the saffron dress of a bridegroom and the jeweled cap
of the Rajput Kings, and below in the hall were the Princes and Chiefs, clad
even as he.
Then, raising her lotus
eyes to her lord, the Princess said,—
“Beloved, the time is
come, and we have chosen rightly, for this is the way of honour, and it is but
another link forged in the chain of existence; for until existence itself is
ended and rebirth destroyed, still shall we meet in lives to come and still be
husband and wife. What room then for despair?”
And he answered,—
“This is true. Go first,
wife, and I follow. Let not the door swing to behind thee. But oh, to see thy
beauty once more that is the very speech of Gods with men! Wilt thou surely
come again to me and again be fair?”
And for all answer she
smiled upon him, and at his feet performed the obeisance of the Rajput wife
when she departs upon a journey; and they went out together, the Queen
unveiled.
As she passed through
the Princes, they lowered their eyes so that none saw her; but when she stood
on the steps of the palace, the women all turned eagerly toward her like stars
about the moon, and lifting their arms, they began to sing the dirge of the
Rajput women.
So they marched, and in
great companies they marched, company behind company, young and old, past the
Queen, saluting her and drawing courage from the loveliness and kindness of her
unveiled face.
In the rocks beneath the
palaces of Chitor are very great caves—league long and terrible, with ways of
darkness no eyes have seen; and it is believed that in times past spirits have
haunted them with strange wailings. In these was prepared great store of wood
and oils and fragrant matters for burning. So to these caves they marched and,
company by company, disappeared into the darkness; and the voice of their
singing grew faint and hollow, and died away, as the men stood watching their
women go.
Now, when this was done
and the last had gone, the Rani descended the steps, and the Rana, taking a
torch dipped in fragrant oils, followed her, and the Princes walked after, clad
like bridegrooms but with no faces of bridal joy. At the entrance of the caves,
having lit the torch, he gave it into her hand, and she, receiving it and smiling,
turned once upon the threshold, and for the first time those Princes beheld the
face of the Queen, but they hid their eyes with their hands when they had seen.
So she departed within, and the Rana shut to the door and barred and bolted it,
and the men with him flung down great rocks before it so that none should know
the way, nor indeed is it known to this day; and with their hands on their
swords they waited there, not speaking, until a great smoke rose between the
crevices of the rocks, but no sound at all.
(Ashes of roses—ashes of
roses!—Ahi! for beauty that is but touched and remitted!)
The sun was high when
those men with their horses and on foot marched down the winding causeway
beneath the seven gates, and so forth into the plains, and charging unarmed
upon the Moslems, they perished every man. After, it was asked of one who had
seen the great slaughter,—
“Say how my King bore
himself.”
And he who had seen told
this:—
“Reaper of the harvest
of battle, on the bed of honour he has spread a carpet of the slain! He sleeps
ringed about by his enemies. How can the world tell of his deeds? The tongue is
silent.”
When that Accursed,
Allah-u-Din, came up the winding height of the hills, he found only a dead
city, and his heart was sick within him.
Now this is the Sack of
Chitor, and by the Oath of the Sack of Chitor do the Rajputs swear when they
bind their honour.
But it is only the
ascetic Visravas who by the power of his yoga has heard every word, and with
his eyes beheld that Flame of Beauty, who, for a brief space illuminating the
world as a Queen, returns to birth in many a shape of sorrowful loveliness
until the Blue-throated God shall in his favour destroy her rebirths.
Salutation to Ganesa the
Elephant-Headed One, and to Shri the Lady of Beauty!
6.THE
BUILDING OF THE TAJ MAHAL
In the
Name of God, the Compassionate, the Merciful—the Smiting!
A day
when the soul shall know what it has sent on or kept back.
A day
when no soul shall control aught for another.
And the
bidding belongs to God.
THE KORAN. I
Now the Shah-in-Shah, Shah Jahan, Emperor
in India, loved his wife with a great love. And of all the wives of the Mogul
Emperors surely this Lady Arjemand, Mumtaz-i-Mahal—-the Chosen of the
Palace—was the most worthy of love. In the tresses of her silk-soft hair his
heart was bound, and for none other had he so much as a passing thought since
his soul had been submerged in her sweetness. Of her he said, using the words
of the poet Faisi,—
“How shall I understand
the magic of Love the Juggler? For he made thy beauty enter at that small gate
the pupil of my eye, And now—and now my heart cannot contain it!”
But who should marvel?
For those who have seen this Arjemand crowned with the crown the Padishah set
upon her sweet low brows, with the lamps of great jewels lighting the dimples
of her cheeks as they swung beside them, have most surely seen perfection. He
who sat upon the Peacock Throne, where the outspread tail of massed gems is
centred by that great ruby, “The Eye of the Peacock, the Tribute of the World,”
valued it not so much as one Jock of the dark and perfumed tresses that rolled
to her feet. Less to him the twelve throne columns set close with pearls than
the little pearls she showed in her sweet laughter. For if this lady was all
beauty, so too she was all goodness; and from the Shah-in-Shah to the poorest,
all hearts of the world knelt in adoration, before the Chosen of the Palace.
She was, indeed, an extraordinary beauty, in that she had the soul of a child,
and she alone remained unconscious of her power; and so she walked, crowned and
clothed with humility.
Cold, haughty, and
silent was the Shah-in-Shah before she blessed his arms—flattered, envied, but
loved by none. But the gift this Lady brought with her was love; and this,
shining like the sun upon ice, melted his coldness, and he became indeed the
kingly centre of a kingly court May the Peace be upon her!
Now it was the dawn of a
sorrowful day when the pains of the Lady Arjemand came strong and terrible, and
she travailed in agony. The hakims (physicians) stroked their beards and
reasoned one with another; the wise women surrounded her, and remedies many and
great were tried; and still her anguish grew, and in the hall without sat the
Shah-in-Shah upon his divan, in anguish of spirit yet greater. The sweat ran on
his brows, the knotted veins were thick on his temples, and his eyes, sunk in
their caves, showed as those of a maddened man. He crouched on his cushions and
stared at the purdah that divided him from the Lady; and all day the people
came and went about him, and there was silence from the voice he longed to
hear; for she would not moan, lest the sound should slay the Emperor. Her women
besought her, fearing that her strong silence would break her heart; but still
she lay, her hands clenched in one another, enduring; and the Emperor endured
without. The Day of the Smiting!
So, as the time of the
evening prayer drew nigh, a child was born, and the Empress, having done with
pain, began to sink slowly into that profound sleep that is the shadow cast by
the Last. May Allah the Upholder have mercy on our weakness! And the women,
white with fear and watching, looked upon her, and whispered one to another,
“It is the end.”
And the aged mother of
Abdul Mirza, standing at her head, said, “She heeds not the cry of the child.
She cannot stay.” And the newly wed wife of Saif Khan, standing at her feet,
said, “The voice of the beloved husband is as the Call of the Angel. Let the
Padishah be summoned.”
So, the evening prayer
being over (but the Emperor had not prayed), the wisest of the hakims, Kazim
Sharif, went before him and spoke:—
“Inhallah! May the will
of the Issuer of Decrees in all things be done! Ascribe unto the Creator glory,
bowing before his Throne.”
And he remained silent;
but the Padishah, haggard in his jewels, with his face hidden, answered
thickly, “The truth! For Allah has forgotten his slave.”
And Kazim Sharif, bowing
at his feet and veiling his face with his hands, replied:
“The voice of the child
cannot reach her, and the Lady of Delight departs. He who would speak with her
must speak quickly.”
Then the Emperor rose to
his feet unsteadily, like a man drunk with the forbidden juice; and when Kazim
Sharif would have supported him, he flung aside his hands, and he stumbled, a
man wounded to death, as it were, to the marble chamber where she lay.
In that white chamber it
was dusk, and they had lit the little cressets so that a very faint light fell
upon her face. A slender fountain a little cooled the hot, still air with its
thin music and its sprinkled diamonds, and outside, the summer lightnings were
playing wide and blue on the river; but so still was it that the dragging
footsteps of the Emperor raised the hair on the flesh of those who heard, So
the women who should, veiled themselves, and the others remained like pillars
of stone.
Now, when those steps
were heard, a faint colour rose in the cheek of the Lady Arjemand; but she did
not raise the heavy lashes, or move her hand. And he came up beside her, and
the Shadow of God, who should kneel to none, knelt, and his head fell forward
upon her breast; and in the hush the women glided out like ghosts, leaving the
husband with the wife excepting only that her foster-nurse stood far off, with
eyes averted.
So the minutes drifted
by, falling audibly one by one into eternity, and at the long last she slowly
opened her eyes and, as from the depths of a dream, beheld the Emperor; and in
a voice faint as the fall of a rose-leaf she said the one word, “Beloved!”
And he from between his
clenched teeth, answered, “Speak, wife.”
So she, who in all
things had loved and served him,—she, Light of all hearts, dispeller of all
gloom,—gathered her dying breath for consolation, and raised one hand slowly;
and it fell across his, and so remained.
Now, her beauty had been
broken in the anguish like a rose in storm; but it returned to her, doubtless
that the Padishah might take comfort in its memory; and she looked like a houri
of Paradise who, kneeling beside the Zemzem Well, beholds the Waters of Peace. Not
Fatmeh herself, the daughter of the Prophet of God, shone more sweetly. She
repeated the word, “Beloved”; and after a pause she whispered on with lips that
scarcely stirred, “King of the Age, this is the end.”
But still he was like a
dead man, nor lifted his face.
“Surely all things pass.
And though I go, in your heart I abide, and nothing can sever us. Take
comfort.”
But there was no answer.
“Nothing but Love’s own
hand can slay Love. Therefore, remember me, and I shall live.”
And he answered from the
darkness of her bosom, “The whole world shall remember. But when shall I be
united to thee? O Allah, how long wilt thou leave me to waste in this
separation?”
And she: “Beloved, what
is time? We sleep and the night is gone. Now put your arms about me, for I sink
into rest. What words are needed between us? Love is enough.”
So, making not the
Profession of Faith,—and what need, since all her life was worship,—the Lady
Arjemand turned into his arms like a child. And the night deepened.
Morning, with its arrows
of golden light that struck the river to splendour! Morning, with its pure
breath, its sunshine of joy, and the koels fluting in the Palace gardens!
Morning, divine and new from the hand of the Maker! And in the innermost
chamber of marble a white silence; and the Lady, the Mirror of Goodness, lying
in the Compassion of Allah, and a broken man stretched on the ground beside
her. For all flesh, from the camel-driver to the Shah-in-Shah, is as one in the
Day of the Smiting.
II
For weeks the Emperor
lay before the door of death; and had it opened to him, he had been blessed. So
the months went by, and very slowly the strength returned to him; but his eyes
were withered and the bones stood out in his cheeks. But he resumed his throne,
and sat upon it kingly, black-bearded, eagle-eyed, terribly apart in his grief
and his royalty; and so seated among his Usbegs, he declared his will.
“For this Lady (upon
whom be peace), departed to the mercy of the Giver and Taker, shall a
tomb-palace be made, the Like of which is not found in the four corners of the
world. Send forth therefore for craftsmen like the builders of the Temple of
Solomon the Wise; for I will build.”
So, taking counsel, they
sent in haste into Agra for Ustad Isa, the Master-Builder, a man of Shiraz; and
he, being presented before the Padishah, received his instructions in these
words:—
“I will that all the
world shall remember the Flower of the World, that all hearts shall give thanks
for her beauty, which was indeed the perfect Mirror of the Creator. And since
it is abhorrent of Islam that any image be made in the likeness of anything
that has life, make for me a palace-tomb, gracious as she was gracious, lovely
as she was lovely. Not such as the tombs of the Kings and the Conquerors, but
of a divine sweetness. Make me a garden on the banks of Jumna, and build it
there, where, sitting in my Pavilion of Marble, I may see it rise.”
And Ustad Isa, having
heard, said, “Upon my head and eyes!” and went out from the Presence.
So, musing upon the
words of the Padishah, he went to his house in Agra, and there pondered the
matter long and deeply; and for a whole day and night he refused all food and
secluded himself from the society of all men; for he said:—
“This is a weighty
thing, for this Lady (upon whom be peace) must visibly dwell in her tomb-palace
on the shore of the river; and how shall I, who have never seen her, imagine
the grace that was in her, and restore it to the world? Oh, had I but the
memory of her face! Could I but see it as the Shah-in-Shah sees it, remembering
the past! Prophet of God, intercede for me, that I may look through his eyes,
if but for a moment!”
That night he slept,
wearied and weakened with fasting; and whether it were that the body guarded no
longer the gates of the soul, I cannot say; for, when the body ails, the soul
soars free above its weakness. But a strange marvel happened.
For, as it seemed to
him, he awoke at the mid-noon of the night, and he was sitting, not in his own
house, but upon the roof of the royal palace, looking down on the gliding
Jumna, where the low moon slept in silver, and the light was alone upon the
water; and there were no boats, but sleep and dream, hovering hand-in-hand,
moved upon the air, and his heart was dilated in the great silence.
Yet he knew well that he
waked in some supernatural sphere: for his eyes could see across the river as
if the opposite shore lay at his feet; and he could distinguish every leaf on
every tree, and the flowers moon-blanched and ghost-like. And there, in the
blackest shade of the pippala boughs, he beheld a faint light like a pearl; and
looking with unspeakable anxiety, he saw within the light, slowly growing, the
figure of a lady exceedingly glorious in majesty and crowned with a rayed crown
of mighty jewels of white and golden splendour. Her gold robe fell to her feet,
and—very strange to tell—her feet touched not the ground, but hung a span’s
length above it, so that she floated in the air.
But the marvel of
marvels was her face—not, indeed, for its beauty, though that transcended all,
but for its singular and compassionate sweetness, wherewith she looked toward
the Palace beyond the river as if it held the heart of her heart, while death
and its river lay between.
And Ustad Isa said:—“O
dream, if this sweetness be but a dream, let me never wake! Let me see forever
this exquisite work of Allah the Maker, before whom all the craftsmen are as
children! For my knowledge is as nothing, and I am ashamed in its presence.”
And as he spoke, she
turned those brimming eyes on him, and he saw her slowly absorbed into the
glory of the moonlight; but as she faded into dream, he beheld, slowly rising,
where her feet had hung in the blessed air, a palace of whiteness, warm as
ivory, cold as chastity, domes and cupolas, slender minars, arches of marble
fretted into sea-foam, screen within screen of purest marble, to hide the
sleeping beauty of a great Queen—silence in the heart of it, and in every line
a harmony beyond all music. Grace was about it—the grace of a Queen who prays
and does not command; who, seated in her royalty yet inclines all hearts to
love. And he saw that its grace was her grace, and its soul her soul, and that
she gave it for the consolation of the Emperor.
And he fell on his face
and worshipped the Master-Builder of the Universe, saying,—“Praise cannot
express thy Perfection. Thine Essence confounds thought. Surely I am but the
tool in the hand of the Builder.”
And when he awoke, he
was lying in his own secret chamber, but beside him was a drawing such as the
craftsmen make of the work they have imagined in their hearts. And it was the
Palace of the Tomb.
Henceforward, how should
he waver? He was as a slave who obeys his master, and with haste he summoned to
Agra his Army of Beauty.
Then were assembled all
the master craftsmen of India and of the outer world. From Delhi, from Shiraz,
even from Baghdad and Syria, they came. Muhammad Hanif, the wise mason, came
from Kandahar, Muhammad Sayyid from Mooltan. Amanat Khan, and other great
writers of the holy Koran, who should make the scripts of the Book upon fine
marble. Inlayers from Kanauj, with fingers like those of the Spirits that bowed
before Solomon the King, who should make beautiful the pure stone with inlay of
jewels, as did their forefathers for the Rajah of Mewar; mighty dealers with
agate, cornelian, and lapis lazuli. Came also, from Bokhara, Ata Muhammad and
Shakri Muhammad, that they might carve the lilies of the field, very glorious,
about that Flower of the World. Men of India, men of Persia, men of the outer
lands, they came at the bidding of Ustad Isa, that the spirit of his vision
might be made manifest.
And a great council was
held among these servants of beauty, so they made a model in little of the
glory that was to be, and laid it at the feet of the Shah-in-Shah; and he
allowed it, though not as yet fully discerning their intent. And when it was
approved, Ustad Isa called to him a man of Kashmir; and the very hand of the
Creator was upon this man, for he could make gardens second only to the Gardens
of Paradise, having been born by that Dal Lake where are those roses of the
earth, the Shalimar and the Nishat Bagh; and to him said Ustad Isa,—
“Behold, Rain Lal
Kashmiri, consider this design! Thus and thus shall a white palace, exquisite
in perfection, arise on the banks of Jumna. Here, in little, in this model of
sandalwood, see what shall be. Consider these domes, rounded as the Bosom of
Beauty, recalling the mystic fruit of the lotus flower. Consider these four
minars that stand about them like Spirits about the Throne. And remembering
that all this shall stand upon a great dais of purest marble, and that the
river shall be its mirror, repeating to everlasting its loveliness, make me a
garden that shall be the throne room to this Queen.”
And Ram Lal Kashmiri
salaamed and said, “Obedience!” and went forth and pondered night and day,
journeying even over the snows of the Pir Panjal to Kashmir, that he might
bathe his eyes in beauty where she walks, naked and divine, upon the earth, and
he it was who imagined the black marble and white that made the way of
approach.
So grew the palace that
should murmur, like a seashell, in the ear of the world the secret of love.
Veiled had that
loveliness been in the shadow of the palace; but now the sun should rise upon
it and turn its ivory to gold, should set upon it and flush its snow with rose.
The moon should lie upon it like the pearls upon her bosom, the visible grace
of her presence breathe about it, the music of her voice hover in the birds and
trees of the garden. Times there were when Ustad Isa despaired lest even these
mighty servants of beauty should miss perfection. Yet it grew and grew, rising
like the growth of a flower.
So on a certain day it
stood completed, and beneath the small tomb in the sanctuary, veiled with screens
of wrought marble so fine that they might lift in the breeze,—the veils of a
Queen,—slept the Lady Arjemand; and above her a narrow coffer of white marble,
enriched in a great script with the Ninety-Nine Wondrous Names of God. And the
Shah-in-Shah, now grey and worn, entered and, standing by her, cried in a loud
voice,—“I ascribe to the Unity, the only Creator, the perfection of his
handiwork made visible here by the hand of mortal man. For the beauty that was
secret in my Palace is here revealed; and the Crowned Lady shall sit forever
upon the banks of the Jumna River. It was love that commanded this Tomb.”
And the golden echo
carried his voice up into the high dome, and it died away in whispers of music.
But Ustad Isa standing
far off in the throng (for what are craftsmen in the presence of the mighty?),
said softly in his beard, “It was Love also that built, and therefore it shall
endure.”
Now it is told that, on
a certain night in summer, when the moon is full, a man who lingers by the
straight water, where the cypresses stand over their own image, may see a
strange marvel—may see the Palace of the Taj dissolve like a pearl, and so rise
in a mist into the moonlight; and in its place, on her dais of white marble, he
shall see the Lady Arjemand, Mumtaz-i-Mahal, the Chosen of the Palace, stand
there in the white perfection of beauty, smiling as one who hath attained unto
the Peace. For she is its soul.
And kneeling before the
dais, he shall see Ustad Isa, who made this body of her beauty; and his face is
hidden in his hands.
7.“HOW
GREAT IS THE GLORY OF KWANNON!”
A JAPANESE STORY
(O Lovely One-O thou
Flower! With Thy beautiful face, with Thy beautiful eyes, pour light upon the
world! Adoration to Kwannon.)
In Japan in the days of
the remote Ancestors, near the little village of Shiobara, the river ran
through rocks of a very strange blue colour, and the bed of the river was also
composed of these rocks, so that the clear water ran blue as turquoise gems to
the sea.
The great forests
murmured beside it, and through their swaying boughs was breathed the song of
Eternity. Those who listen may hear if their ears are open. To others it is but
the idle sighing of the wind.
Now because of all this
beauty there stood in these forests a roughly built palace of unbarked wood,
and here the great Emperor would come from City-Royal to seek rest for his
doubtful thoughts and the cares of state, turning aside often to see the
moonlight in Shiobara. He sought also the free air and the sound of falling
water, yet dearer to him than the plucked strings of sho and biwa. For he said;
“Where and how shall We
find peace even for a moment, and afford Our heart refreshment even for a
single second?”
And it seemed to him
that he found such moments at Shiobara.
Only one of his great
nobles would His Majesty bring with him—the Dainagon, and him be chose because
he was a worthy and honorable person and very simple of heart.
There was yet another
reason why the Son of Heaven inclined to the little Shiobara. It had reached
the Emperor that a Recluse of the utmost sanctity dwelt in that forest. His
name was Semimaru. He had made himself a small hut in the deep woods, much as a
decrepit silkworm might spin his last Cocoon and there had the Peace found him.
It had also reached His
Majesty that, although blind, he was exceedingly skilled in the art of playing
the biwa, both in the Flowing Fount manner and the Woodpecker manner, and that,
especially on nights when the moon was full, this aged man made such music as
transported the soul. This music His Majesty desired very greatly to hear.
Never had Semimaru left
his hut save to gather wood or seek food until the Divine Emperor commanded his
attendance that he might soothe his august heart with music.
Now on this night of
nights the moon was full and the snow heavy on the pines, and the earth was
white also, and when the moon shone through the boughs it made a cold light
like dawn, and the shadows of the trees were black upon it.
The attendants of His
Majesty long since slept for sheer weariness, for the night was far spent, but
the Emperor and the Dainagon still sat with their eyes fixed on the venerable
Semimaru. For many hours he had played, drawing strange music from his biwa.
Sometimes it had been like rain blowing over the plains of Adzuma, sometimes
like the winds roaring down the passes of the Yoshino Mountains, and yet again
like the voice of far cities. For many hours they listened without weariness,
and thought that all the stories of the ancients might flow past them in the
weird music that seemed to have neither beginning nor end.
“It is as the river that
changes and changes not, and is ever and ever the same,” said the Emperor in
his own soul.
And certainly had a
voice announced to His Augustness that centuries were drifting by as he listened,
he could have felt no surprise.
Before them, as they sat
upon the silken floor cushions, was a small shrine with a Buddha shelf, and a
hanging picture of the Amida Buddha within it—the expression one of rapt peace.
Figures of Fugen and Fudo were placed before the curtain doors of the shrine,
looking up in adoration to the Blessed One. A small and aged pine tree was in a
pot of grey porcelain from Chosen—the only ornament in the chamber.
Suddenly His Majesty
became aware that the Dainagon also had fallen asleep from weariness, and that
the recluse was no longer playing, but was speaking in a still voice like a
deeply flowing stream. The Emperor had observed no change from music to speech,
nor could he recall when the music had ceased, so that it altogether resembled
a dream.
“When I first came
here”—the Venerable one continued—“it was not my intention to stay long in the
forest. As each day dawned, I said; ‘In seven days I go.’ And again—‘In seven.’
Yet have I not gone. The days glided by and here have I attained to look on the
beginnings of peace. Then wherefore should I go?—for all life is within the
soul. Shall the fish weary of his pool? And I, who through my blind eyes feel
the moon illuming my forest by night and the sun by day, abide in peace, so that
even the wild beasts press round to hear my music. I have come by a path
overblown by autumn leaves. But I have come.”
Then said the Divine
Emperor as if unconsciously;
“Would that I also might
come! But the august duties cannot easily be laid aside. And I have no wife—no
son.”
And Semimaru, playing
very softly on the strings of his biwa made no other answer, and His Majesty,
collecting his thoughts, which had become, as it were, frozen with the cold and
the quiet and the strange music, spoke thus, as if in a waking dream;
“Why have I not wedded?
Because I have desired a bride beyond the women of earth, and of none such as I
desire has the rumor reached me. Consider that Ancestor who wedded Her Shining
Majesty! Evil and lovely was she, and the passions were loud about her. And so
it is with women. Trouble and vexation of spirit, or instead a great weariness.
But if the Blessed One would vouchsafe to my prayers a maiden of blossom and
dew, with a heart calm as moonlight, her would I wed. O, honorable One, whose
wisdom surveys the world, is there in any place near or far—in heaven or in
earth, such a one that I may seek and find?”
And Semimaru, still
making a very low music on his biwa, said this;
“Supreme Master, where
the Shiobara River breaks away through the gorges to the sea, dwelt a poor
couple—the husband a wood-cutter. They had no children to aid in their toil,
and daily the woman addressed her prayers for a son to the Bodhisattwa Kwannon,
the Lady of Pity who looketh down for ever upon the sound of prayer. Very
fervently she prayed, with such offerings as her poverty allowed, and on a
certain night she dreamed this dream. At the shrine of the Senju Kwannon she
knelt as was her custom, and that Great Lady, sitting enthroned upon the Lotos
of Purity, opened Her eyes slowly from Her divine contemplation and heard the
prayer of the wood-cutter’s wife. Then stooping like a blown willow branch, she
gathered a bud from the golden lotos plant that stood upon her altar, and
breathing upon it it became pure white and living, and it exhaled a perfume
like the flowers of Paradise, This flower the Lady of Pity flung into the bosom
of her petitioner, and closing Her eyes returned into Her divine dream, whilst
the woman awoke, weeping for joy.
“But when she sought in
her bosom for the Lotos it was gone. Of all this she boasted loudly to her folk
and kin, and the more so, when in due time she perceived herself to be with
child, for, from that august favour she looked for nothing less than a son,
radiant with the Five Ornaments of riches, health, longevity, beauty, and
success. Yet, when her hour was come, a girl was born, and blind.”
“Was she welcomed?”
asked the dreaming voice of the Emperor.
“Augustness, but as a
household drudge. For her food was cruelty and her drink tears. And the shrine
of the Senju Kwannon was neglected by her parents because of the disappointment
and shame of the unwanted gift. And they believed that, lost in Her divine
contemplation, the Great Lady would not perceive this neglect. The Gods however
are known by their great memories.”
“Her name?”
“Majesty, Tsuyu-Morning
Dew. And like the morning dew she shines in stillness. She has repaid good for
evil to her evil parents, serving them with unwearied service.”
“What distinguishes her
from others?”
“Augustness, a very
great peace. Doubtless the shadow of the dream of the Holy Kwannon. She works,
she moves, she smiles as one who has tasted of content.”
“Has she beauty?”
“Supreme Master, am I
not blind? But it is said that she has no beauty that men should desire her.
Her face is flat and round, and her eyes blind.”
“And yet content?”
“Philosophers might envy
her calm. And her blindness is without doubt a grace from the excelling Pity,
for could she see her own exceeding ugliness she must weep for shame. But she
sees not. Her sight is inward, and she is well content.”
“Where does she dwell?”
“Supreme Majesty, far
from here—where in the heart of the woods the river breaks through the rocks.”
“Venerable One, why have
you told me this? I asked for a royal maiden wise and beautiful, calm as the
dawn, and you have told me of a wood-cutter’s drudge, blind and ugly.”
And now Semimaru did not
answer, but the tones of the biwa grew louder and clearer, and they rang like a
song of triumph, and the Emperor could hear these words in the voice of the
strings.
“She is beautiful as the
night, crowned with moon and stars for him who has eyes to see. Princess
Splendour was dim beside her; Prince Fireshine, gloom! Her Shining Majesty was
but a darkened glory before this maid. All beauty shines within her hidden
eyes.”
And having uttered this
the music became wordless once more, but it still flowed on more and more
softly like a river that flows into the far distance.
The Emperor stared at
the mats, musing—the light of the lamp was burning low. His heart said within
him;
“This maiden, cast like
a flower from the hand of Kwannon Sama, will I see.”
And as he said this the
music had faded away into a thread-like smallness, and when after long thought
he raised his august head, he was alone save for the Dainagon, sleeping on the
mats behind him, and the chamber was in darkness. Semimaru had departed in
silence, and His Majesty, looking forth into the broad moonlight, could see the
track of his feet upon the shining snow, and the music came back very thinly
like spring rain in the trees. Once more he looked at the whiteness of the
night, and then, stretching his august person on the mats, he slept amid dreams
of sweet sound.
The next day, forbidding
any to follow save the Dainagon, His Majesty went forth upon the frozen snow
where the sun shone in a blinding whiteness. They followed the track of
Semimaru’s feet far under the pine trees so heavy with their load of snow that
they were bowed as if with fruit. And the track led on and the air was so still
that the cracking of a bough was like the blow of a hammer, and the sliding of
a load of snow from a branch like the fall of an avalanche. Nor did they speak
as they went. They listened, nor could they say for what.
Then, when they had gone
a very great way, the track ceased suddenly, as if cut off, and at this spot,
under the pines furred with snow, His Majesty became aware of a perfume so
sweet that it was as though all the flowers of the earth haunted the place with
their presence, and a music like the biwa of Semimaru was heard in the tree
tops. This sounded far off like the whispering of rain when it falls in very
small leaves, and presently it died away, and a voice followed after, singing,
alone in the woods, so that the silence appeared to have been created that such
a music might possess the world. So the Emperor stopped instantly, and the
Dainagon behind him and he heard these words.
“In me
the Heavenly Lotos grew,
The
fibres ran from head to feet,
And my
heart was the august Blossom.
Therefore the sweetness flowed through the veins of my flesh,
And I
breathed peace upon all the world,
And
about me was my fragrance shed
That
the souls of men should desire me.”
Now, as he listened,
there came through the wood a maiden, bare—footed, save for grass sandals, and
clad in coarse clothing, and she came up and passed them, still singing.
And when she was past,
His Majesty put up his hand to his eyes, like one dreaming, and said;
“What have you seen?”
And the Dainagon
answered;
“Augustness, a country
wench, flat—faced, ugly and blind, and with a voice like a crow. Has not your
Majesty seen this?”
The Emperor, still
shading his eyes, replied;
“I saw a maiden so
beautiful that her Shining Majesty would be a black blot beside her. As she
went, the Spring and all its sweetness blew from her garments. Her robe was
green with small gold flowers. Her eyes were closed, but she resembled a cherry
tree, snowy with bloom and dew. Her voice was like the singing flowers of
Paradise.”
The Dainagon looked at
him with fear and compassion;
“Augustness, how should
such a lady carry in her arms a bundle of firewood?”
“She bore in her hands
three lotos flowers, and where each foot fell I saw a lotos bloom and vanish.”
They retraced their steps
through the wood; His Majesty radiant as Prince Fireshine with the joy that
filled his soul; the Dainagon darkened as Prince Firefade with fear, believing
that the strange music of Semimaru had bewitched His Majesty, or that the
maiden herself might possibly have the power of the fox in shape-changing and
bewildering the senses.
Very sorrowful and
careful was his heart for he loved his Master.
That night His Majesty
dreamed that he stood before the kakemono of the Amida Buddha, and that as he
raised his eyes in adoration to the Blessed Face, he beheld the images of Fugen
and Fudo, rise up and bow down before that One Who Is. Then, gliding in, before
these Holinesses stood a figure, and it was the wood-cutter’s daughter homely
and blinded. She stretched her hands upward as though invoking the supreme
Buddha, and then turning to His Majesty she smiled upon him, her eyes closed as
in bliss unutterable. And he said aloud.
“Would that I might see
her eyes!” and so saying awoke in a great stillness of snow and moonlight.
Having waked, he said
within himself
“This marvel will I wed
and she shall be my Empress were she lower than the Eta, and whether her face
be lovely or homely. For she is certainly a flower dropped from the hand of the
Divine.”
So when the sun was high
His Majesty, again followed by the Dainagon, went through the forest swiftly,
and like a man that sees his goal, and when they reached the place where the
maiden went by, His Majesty straitly commanded the Dainagon that he should draw
apart, and leave him to speak with the maiden; yet that he should watch what
befell.
So the Dainagon watched,
and again he saw her come, very poorly clad, and with bare feet that shrank
from the snow in her grass sandals, bowed beneath a heavy load of wood upon her
shoulders, and her face flat and homely like a girl of the people, and her eyes
blind and shut.
And as she came she sang
this.
“The
Eternal way lies before him,
The
way that is made manifest in the Wise.
The
Heart that loves reveals itself to man.
For
now he draws nigh to the Source.
The
night advances fast,
And
lo! the moon shines bright.”
And to the Dainagon it
seemed a harsh crying nor could he distinguish any words at all.
But what His Majesty
beheld was this. The evening had come on and the moon was rising. The snow had
gone. It was the full glory of spring, and the flowers sprang thick as stars
upon the grass, and among them lotos flowers, great as the wheel of a chariot,
white and shining with the luminance of the pearl, and upon each one of these
was seated an incarnate Holiness, looking upward with joined hands. In the
trees were the voices of the mystic Birds that are the utterance of the Blessed
One, proclaiming in harmony the Five Virtues, The Five Powers, the Seven Steps ascending
to perfect Illumination, the Noble Eightfold Path, and all the Law. And,
bearing, in the heart of the Son of Heaven awoke the Three Remembrances—the
Remembrance of Him who is Blessed, Remembrance of the Law, and Remembrance of
the Communion of the Assembly.
So, looking upward to
the heavens, he beheld the Infinite Buddha, high and lifted up in a great
raying glory. About Him were the exalted Bodhisattwas, the mighty Disciples,
great Arhats all, and all the countless Angelhood. And these rose high into the
infinite until they could be seen but as a point of fire against the moon. With
this golden multitude beyond all numbering was He.
Then, as His Majesty had
seen in the dream of the night, the wood-cutter’s daughter, moving through the
flowers like one blind that gropes his way, advanced before the Blessed Feet,
and uplifting her hands, did adoration, and her face he could not see, but his
heart went with her, adoring also the infinite Buddha seated in the calms of
boundless Light.
Then enlightenment entered
at his eyes, as a man that wakes from sleep, and suddenly he beheld the Maiden
crowned and robed and terrible in beauty, and her feet were stayed upon an open
lotos, and his soul knew the Senju Kwannon Herself, myriad-armed for the
helping of mankind.
And turning, she smiled
as in the vision, but his eyes being now clear her blinded eyes were opened,
and that glory who shall tell as those living founts of Wisdom rayed upon him
their ineffable light? In that ocean was his being drowned, and so, bowed
before the Infinite Buddha, he received the Greater Illumination.
How great is the Glory
of Kwannon!
When the radiance and
the vision were withdrawn and only the moon looked over the trees, His Majesty
rose upon his feet, and standing on the snow, surrounded with calm, he called
to the Dainagon, and asked this;
“What have you seen?”
“Augustness, nothing but
the country wench and moon and snow.”
“And heard?”
“Augustness, nothing but
the harsh voice of the wood-cutter’s daughter.”
“And felt?”
“Augustness, nothing but
the bone-piercing cold.” So His Majesty adored that which cannot be uttered,
saying;
“So Wisdom, so Glory
encompass us about, and we see them not for we are blinded with illusion. Yet
every stone is a jewel and every clod is spirit and to the hems of the Infinite
Buddha all cling. Through the compassion of the Supernal Mercy that walks the
earth as the Bodhisattwa Kwannon, am I admitted to wisdom and given sight and
hearing. And what is all the world to that happy one who has beheld Her eyes!”
And His Majesty returned
through the forest.
When, the next day, he
sent for the venerable Semimaru that holy recluse had departed and none knew
where. But still when the moon is full a strange music moves in the tree tops
of Shiobara.
Then His sacred Majesty
returned to City-Royal, having determined to retire into the quiet life, and
there, abandoning the throne to a kinsman wise in greatness, he became a
dweller in the deserted hut of Semimaru.
His life, like a
descending moon approaching the hill that should hide it, was passed in
meditation on that Incarnate Love and Compassion whose glory had augustly been
made known to him, and having cast aside all save the image of the Divine from
his soul, His Majesty became even as that man who desired enlightenment of the
Blessed One.
For he, desiring
instruction, gathered precious flowers, and journeyed to present them as an
offering to the Guatama Buddha. Standing before Him, he stretched forth both
his hands holding the flowers.
Then said the Holy One,
looking upon his petitioner’s right hand;
“Loose your hold of
these.”
And the man dropped the
flowers from his right hand. And the Holy One looking upon his left hand, said;
“Loose your hold of
these.”
And, sorrowing, he
dropped the flowers from his left hand. And again the Master said;
“Loose your hold of that
which is neither in the right nor in the left.”
And the disciple said
very pitifully;
“Lord, of what should I
loose my hold for I have nothing left?”
And He looked upon him
steadfastly.
Therefore at last
understanding he emptied his soul of all desire, and of fear that is the shadow
of desire, and being enlightened relinquished all burdens.
So was it also with His
Majesty. In peace he dwelt, and becoming a great Arhat, in peace he departed to
that Uttermost Joy where is the Blessed One made manifest in Pure Light.
As for the parents of
the maiden, they entered after sore troubles into peace, having been remembered
by the Infinite. For it is certain that the enemies also of the Supreme Buddha
go to salvation by thinking on Him, even though it be against Him.
And he who tells this
truth makes this prayer to the Lady of Pity;
“Grant
me, I pray,
One
dewdrop from Thy willow spray,
And in
the double Lotos keep
My
hidden heart asleep.”
How great is the Glory of
Kwannon!
A STORY OF THE CHINESE COURT
In the city of Chang-an
music filled the palaces, and the festivities of the Emperor were measured by
its beat. Night, and the full moon swimming like a gold-fish in the garden
lakes, gave the signal for the Feather Jacket and Rainbow Skirt dances.
Morning, with the rising sun, summoned the court again to the feast and
wine-cup in the floating gardens.
The Emperor Chung Tsu
favored this city before all others. The Yen Tower soaring heavenward, the Drum
Towers, the Pearl Pagoda, were the only fit surroundings of his magnificence;
and in the Pavilion of Tranquil Learning were held those discussions which
enlightened the world and spread the fame of the Jade Emperor far and wide. In
all respects he adorned the Dragon Throne—in all but one; for Nature, bestowing
so much, withheld one gift, and the Imperial heart, as precious as jade, was
also as hard, and he eschewed utterly the company of the Hidden Palace Flowers.
Yet the Inner Chambers
were filled with ladies chosen from all parts of the Celestial Empire—ladies of
the most exquisite and torturing beauty, moons of loveliness, moving
coquettishly on little feet, with all the grace of willow branches in a light
breeze. They were sprinkled with perfumes, adorned with jewels, robed in silks
woven with gold and embroidered with designs of flowers and birds. Their faces
were painted and their eyebrows formed into slender and perfect arches whence
the soul of man might well slip to perdition, and a breath of sweet odor
followed each wherever she moved. Every one might have been the Empress of some
lesser kingdom; but though rumours reached the Son of Heaven from time to time
of their charms,—especially when some new blossom was added to the Imperial bouquet,—he
had dismissed them from his august thoughts, and they languished in a neglect
so complete that the Great Cold Palaces of the Moon were not more empty than
their hearts. They remained under the supervision of the Princess of Han,
August Aunt of the Emperor, knowing that their Lord considered the company of
sleeve-dogs and macaws more pleasant than their own. Nor had he as yet chosen
an Empress, and it was evident that without some miracle, such as the
intervention of the Municipal God, no heir to the throne could be hoped for.
Yet the Emperor one day
remembered his imprisoned beauties, and it crossed the Imperial thoughts that
even these inferior creatures might afford such interest as may be found in the
gambols of trained fleas or other insects of no natural attainments.
Accordingly, he
commanded that the subject last discussed in his presence should be transferred
to the Inner Chambers, and it was his Order that the ladies should also discuss
it, and their opinions be engraved on ivory, bound together with red silk and
tassels and thus presented at the Dragon feet. The subject chosen was the
following:—
Describe the Qualities
of the Ideal Man
Now when this command
was laid before the August Aunt, the guardian of the Inner Chambers, she was
much perturbed in mind, for such a thing was unheard of in all the annals of
the Empire. Recovering herself, she ventured to say that the discussion of such
a question might raise very disquieting thoughts in the minds of the ladies,
who could not be supposed to have any opinions at all on such a subject. Nor
was it desirable that they should have. To every woman her husband and no other
is and must be the Ideal Man. So it was always in the past; so it must ever be.
There are certain things which it is dangerous to question or discuss, and how
can ladies who have never spoken with any other man than a parent or a brother
judge such matters?
“How, indeed,” asked
this lady of exalted merit, “can the bat form an idea of the sunlight, or the
carp of the motion of wings? If his Celestial Majesty had commanded a
discussion on the Superior Woman and the virtues which should adorn her, some
sentiments not wholly unworthy might have been offered. But this is a calamity.
They come unexpectedly, springing up like mushrooms, and this one is probably
due to the lack of virtue of the inelegant and unintellectual person who is now
speaking.”
This she uttered in the
presence of the principal beauties of the Inner Chambers. They sat or reclined
about her in attitudes of perfect loveliness. Two, embroidering silver
pheasants, paused with their needles suspended above the stretched silk, to
hear the August Aunt. One, threading beads of jewel jade, permitted them to
slip from the string and so distended the rose of her mouth in surprise that
the small pearl-shells were visible within. The Lady Tortoise, caressing a
scarlet and azure macaw, in her agitation so twitched the feathers that the
bird, shrieking, bit her finger. The Lady Golden Bells blushed deeply at the
thought of what was required of them; and the little Lady Summer Dress,
youngest of all the assembled beauties, was so alarmed at the prospect that she
began to sob aloud, until she met the eye of the August Aunt and abruptly
ceased.
“It is not, however, to
be supposed,” said the August Aunt, opening her snuff-bottle of painted
crystal, “that the minds of our deplorable and unattractive sex are wholly
incapable of forming opinions. But speech is a grave matter for women,
naturally slow-witted and feeble-minded as they are. This unenlightened person
recalls the Odes as saying:—
‘A flaw
in a piece of white jade
May be
ground away,
But
when a woman has spoken foolishly
Nothing can be done-’
a consideration which
should make every lady here and throughout the world think anxiously before
speech.” So anxiously did the assembled beauties think, that all remained mute
as fish in a pool, and the August Aunt continued:—
“Let Tsu-ssu be
summoned. It is my intention to suggest to the Dragon Emperor that the virtues
of women be the subject of our discourse, and I will myself open and conclude
the discussion.”
Tsu-ssu was not long in
kotowing before the August Aunt, who despatched her message with the proper
ceremonial due to its Imperial destination; and meanwhile, in much agitation,
the beauties could but twitter and whisper in each other’s ears, and await the
response like condemned prisoners who yet hope for reprieve.
Scarce an hour had
dripped away on the water-clock when an Imperial Missive bound with yellow silk
arrived, and the August Aunt, rising, kotowed nine times before she received it
in her jewelled hand with its delicate and lengthy nails ensheathed in pure
gold and set with gems of the first water. She then read it aloud, the ladies
prostrating themselves.
To the Princess of Han,
the August Aunt, the Lady of the Nine Superior Virtues:—
“Having deeply reflected
on the wisdom submitted, We thus reply. Women should not be the judges of their
own virtues, since these exist only in relation to men. Let Our Command
therefore be executed, and tablets presented before us seven days hence, with
the name of each lady appended to her tablet.”
It was indeed pitiable
to see the anxiety of the ladies! A sacrifice to Kwan-Yin, the Goddess of
Mercy, of a jewel from each, with intercession for aid, was proposed by the
Lustrous Lady; but the majority shook their heads sadly. The August Aunt,
tossing her head, declared that, as the Son of Heaven had made no comment on
her proposal of opening and closing the discussion, she should take no part
other than safeguarding the interests of propriety. This much increased the
alarm, and, kneeling at her feet, the swan-like beauties, Deep-Snow and Winter
Moon implored her aid and compassion. But, rising indignantly, the August Aunt
sought her own apartments, and for the first time the inmates of the Pepper
Chamber saw with regret the golden dragons embroidered on her back.
It was then that the
Round-Faced Beauty ventured a remark. This maiden, having been born in the
far-off province of Suchuan, was considered a rustic by the distinguished
elegance of the Palace and, therefore, had never spoken unless decorum
required. Still, even her detractors were compelled to admit the charms that
had gained her her name. Her face had the flawless outline of the pearl, and
like the blossom of the plum was the purity of her complexion, upon which the
darkness of her eyebrows resembled two silk-moths alighted to flutter above the
brilliance of her eyes—eyes which even the August Aunt had commended after a
banquet of unsurpassed variety. Her hair had been compared to the crow’s
plumage; her waist was like a roll of silk, and her discretion in habiting
herself was such that even the Lustrous Lady and the Lady Tortoise drew
instruction from the splendours of her robes. It created, however, a general
astonishment when she spoke.
“Paragons of beauty,
what is this dull and opaque-witted person that she should speak?”
“What, indeed!” said the
Celestial Sister. “This entirely undistinguished person cannot even imagine.”
A distressing pause
followed, during which many whispered anxiously. The Lustrous Lady broke it.
“It is true that the
highly ornamental Round-Faced Beauty is but lately come, yet even the
intelligent Ant may assist the Dragon; and in the presence of alarm, what is decorum?
With a tiger behind one, who can recall the Book of Rites and act with
befitting elegance?”
“The high-born will at
all times remember the Rites!” retorted the Celestial Sister. “Have we not
heard the August Aunt observe: ‘Those who understand do not speak. Those who
speak do not understand’?”
The Round-Faced Beauty
collected her courage.
“Doubtless this is
wisdom; yet if the wise do not speak, who should instruct us? The August Aunt
herself would be silent.”
All were confounded by
this dilemma, and the little Lady Summer-Dress, still weeping, entreated that
the Round-Faced Beauty might be heard. The Heavenly Blossoms then prepared to
listen and assumed attitudes of attention, which so disconcerted the
Round-Faced Beauty that she blushed like a spring tulip in speaking.
“Beautiful ladies, our
Lord, who is unknown to us all, has issued an august command. It cannot be
disputed, for the whisper of disobedience is heard as thunder in the Imperial
Presence. Should we not aid each other? If any lady has formed a dream in her
soul of the Ideal Man, might not such a picture aid us all? Let us not be
‘say-nothing-do-nothing,’ but act!”
They hung their heads
and smiled, but none would allow that she had formed such an image. The little
Lady Tortoise, laughing behind her fan of sandalwood, said roguishly: “The
Ideal Man should be handsome, liberal in giving, and assuredly he should
appreciate the beauty of his wives. But this we cannot say to the Divine
Emperor.”
A sigh rustled through
the Pepper Chamber. The Celestial Sister looked angrily at the speaker.
“This is the talk of
children,” she said. “Does no one remember Kung-fu-tse’s [Confucius]
description of the Superior Man?”
Unfortunately none
did—not even the Celestial Sister herself.
“Is it not probable,”
said the Round-Faced Beauty, “that the Divine Emperor remembers it himself and
wishes—”
But the Celestial
Sister, yawning audibly, summoned the attendants to bring rose-leaves in honey,
and would hear no more.
The Round-Faced Beauty
therefore wandered forth among the mossy rocks and drooping willows of the
Imperial Garden, deeply considering the matter. She ascended the bow-curved
bridge of marble which crossed the Pool of Clear Weather, and from the top idly
observed the reflection of her rose-and-gold coat in the water while, with her
taper fingers, she crumbled cake for the fortunate gold-fish that dwelt in it.
And, so doing, she remarked one fish, four-tailed among the six-tailed, and in
no way distinguished by elegance, which secured by far the largest share of the
crumbs dropped into the pool. Bending lower, she observed this singular fish
and its methods.
The others crowded about
the spot where the crumbs fell, all herded together. In their eagerness and
stupidity they remained like a cloud of gold in one spot, slowly waving their
tails. But this fish, concealing itself behind a miniature rock, waited,
looking upward, until the crumbs were falling, and then, rushing forth with the
speed of an arrow, scattered the stupid mass of fish, and bore off the crumbs
to its shelter, where it instantly devoured them.
“This is notable,” said
the Round-Faced Beauty. “Observation enlightens the mind. To be apart—to be
distinguished—secures notice!” And she plunged into thought again, wandering,
herself a flower, among the gorgeous tree peonies.
On the following day the
August Aunt commanded that a writer among the palace attendants should, with
brush and ink, be summoned to transcribe the wisdom of the ladies. She
requested that each would give three days to thought, relating the following
anecdote. “There was a man who, taking a piece of ivory, carved it into a
mulberry leaf, spending three years on the task. When finished it could not be
told from the original, and was a gift suitable for the Brother of the Sun and
Moon. Do likewise!”
“But yet, O Augustness!”
said the Celestial Sister, “if the Lord of Heaven took as long with each leaf,
there would be few leaves on the trees, and if-”
The August Aunt
immediately commanded silence and retired. On the third day she seated herself
in her chair of carved ebony, while the attendant placed himself by her feet
and prepared to record her words.
“This insignificant
person has decided,” began her Augustness, looking round and unscrewing the
amber top of her snuff-bottle, “to take an unintelligent part in these
proceedings. An example should be set. Attendant, write!”
She then dictated as
follows: “The Ideal Man is he who now decorates the Imperial Throne, or he who
in all humility ventures to resemble the incomparable Emperor. Though he may
not hope to attain, his endeavor is his merit. No further description it
needed.”
With complacence she
inhaled the perfumed snuff, as the writer appended the elegant characters of
her Imperial name.
If it is permissible to
say that the faces of the beauties lengthened visibly, it should now be said.
For it had been the intention of every lady to make an illusion to the
Celestial Emperor and depict him as the Ideal Man. Nor had they expected that
the August Aunt would take any part in the matter.
“Oh, but it was the
intention of this commonplace and undignified person to say this very thing!”
cried the Lustrous Lady, with tears in the jewels of her eyes. “I thought no
other high-minded and distinguished lady would for a moment think of it.”
“And it was my intention
also!” fluttered the little Lady Tortoise, wringing her hands! “What now shall
this most unlucky and unendurable person do? For three nights has sleep
forsaken my unattractive eyelids, and, tossing and turning on a couch deprived
of all comfort, I could only repeat, ‘The Ideal Man is the Divine Dragon
Emperor!’”
“May one of entirely
contemptible attainments make a suggestion in this assemblage of scintillating
wit and beauty?” inquired the Celestial Sister. “My superficial opinion is that
it would be well to prepare a single paper to which all names should be
appended, stating that His Majesty in his Dragon Divinity comprises all ideals
in his sacred Person.”
“Let those words be
recorded,” said the August Aunt. “What else should any lady of discretion and
propriety say? In this Palace of Virtuous Peace, where all is consecrated to
the Son of Heaven, though he deigns not to enter it, what other thought dare be
breathed? Has any lady ventured to step outside such a limit? If so, let her
declare herself!”
All shook their heads,
and the August Aunt proceeded: “Let the writer record this as the opinion of
every lady of the Imperial Household, and let each name be separately
appended.”
Had any desired to
object, none dared to confront the August Aunt; but apparently no beauty so
desired, for after three nights’ sleepless meditation, no other thought than
this had occurred to any.
Accordingly, the writer
moved from lady to lady and, under the supervision of the August Aunt,
transcribed the following: “The Ideal Man is the earthly likeness of the Divine
Emperor. How should it be otherwise?” And under this sentence wrote the name of
each lovely one in succession. The papers were then placed in the hanging
sleeves of the August Aunt for safety.
By the decree of Fate,
the father of the Round-Faced Beauty had, before he became an ancestral spirit,
been a scholar of distinction, having graduated at the age of seventy-two with
a composition commended by the Grand Examiner. Having no gold and silver to
give his daughter, he had formed her mind, and had presented her with the sole
jewel of his family-a pearl as large as a bean. Such was her sole dower, but
the accomplished Aunt may excel the indolent Prince.
Yet, before the thought
in her mind, she hesitated and trembled, recalling the lesson of the gold-fish;
and it was with anxiety that paled her roseate lips that, on a certain day, she
had sought the Willow Bridge Pavilion. There had awaited her a palace attendant
skilled with the brush, and there in secrecy and dire affright, hearing the
footsteps of the August Aunt in every rustle of leafage, and her voice in the
call of every crow, did the Round-Faced Beauty dictate the following
composition:—
“Though the sky rain
pearls, it cannot equal the beneficence of the Son of Heaven. Though the sky
rain jade it cannot equal his magnificence. He has commanded his slave to
describe the qualities of the Ideal Man. How should I, a mere woman, do this?
I, who have not seen the Divine Emperor, how should I know what is virtue? I,
who have not seen the glory of his countenance, how should I know what is
beauty? Report speaks of his excellencies, but I who live in the dark know not.
But to the Ideal Woman, the very vices of her husband are virtues. Should he
exalt another, this is a mark of his superior taste. Should he dismiss his
slave, this is justice. To the Ideal Woman there is but one Ideal Man—and that
is her lord. From the day she crosses his threshold, to the day when they
clothe her in the garments of Immortality, this is her sole opinion. Yet would
that she might receive instruction of what only are beauty and virtue in his
adorable presence.”
This being written, she
presented her one pearl to the attendant and fled, not looking behind her, as
quickly as her delicate feet would permit.
On the seventh day the
compositions, engraved on ivory and bound with red silk and tassels, were
presented to the Emperor, and for seven days more he forgot their existence. On
the eighth the High Chamberlain ventured to recall them to the Imperial memory,
and the Emperor glancing slightly at one after another, threw them aside,
yawning as he did so. Finally, one arrested his eyes, and reading it more than
once he laid it before him and meditated. An hour passed in this way while the
forgotten Lord Chamberlain continued to kneel. The Son of Heaven, then raising
his head, pronounced these words: “In the society of the Ideal Woman, she to
whom jealousy is unknown, tranquillity might possibly be obtained. Let prayer
be made before the Ancestors with the customary offerings, for this is a matter
deserving attention.”
A few days passed, and
an Imperial attendant, escorted by two mandarins of the peacock-feather and
crystal-button rank, desired an audience of the August Aunt, and, speaking
before the curtain, informed her that his Imperial Majesty would pay a visit
that evening to the Hall of Tranquil Longevity. Such was her agitation at this
honour that she immediately swooned; but, reviving, summoned all the attendants
and gave orders for a banquet and musicians.
Lanterns painted with
pheasants and exquisite landscapes were hung on all the pavilions. Tapestries
of rose, decorated with the Five-Clawed Dragons, adorned the chambers; and upon
the High Seat was placed a robe of yellow satin embroidered with pearls. All
was hurry and excitement. The Blossoms of the Palace were so exquisitely decked
that one grain more of powder would have made them too lily-like, and one touch
more of rouge, too rosecheeked. It was indeed perfection, and, like lotuses upon
a lake, or Asian birds, gorgeous of plumage, they stood ranged in the outer
chamber while the Celestial Emperor took his seat.
The Round-Faced Beauty
wore no jewels, having bartered her pearl for her opportunity; but her long
coat of jade-green, embroidered with golden willows, and her trousers of palest
rose left nothing to be desired. In her hair two golden peonies were fastened
with pins of kingfisher work. The Son of Heaven was seated upon the throne as
the ladies approached, marshaled by the August Aunt. He was attired in the
Yellow Robe with the Flying Dragons, and upon the Imperial Head was the Cap,
ornamented with one hundred and forty-four priceless gems. From it hung the
twelve pendants of strings of pearls, partly concealing the august eyes of the
Jade Emperor. No greater splendour can strike awe into the soul of man.
At his command the
August Aunt took her seat upon a lesser chair at the Celestial Feet. Her mien
was majestic, and struck awe into the assembled beauties, whose names she spoke
aloud as each approached and prostrated herself. She then pronounced these
words:
“Beautiful ones, the
Emperor, having considered the opinions submitted by you on the subject of the
Superior Man, is pleased to express his august commendation. Dismiss, therefore,
anxiety from your minds, and prepare to assist at the humble concert of music
we have prepared for his Divine pleasure.”
Slightly raising himself
in his chair, the Son of Heaven looked down upon that Garden of Beauty, holding
in his hand an ivory tablet bound with red silk.
“Lovely ladies,” he
began, in a voice that assuaged fear, “who among you was it that laid before
our feet a composition beginning thus—‘Though the sky rain pearls’?”
The August Aunt
immediately rose.
“Imperial Majesty, none!
These eyes supervised every composition. No impropriety was permitted.”
The Son of Heaven
resumed: “Let that lady stand forth.”
The words were few, but
sufficient. Trembling in every limb, the Round-Faced Beauty separated herself
from her companions and prostrated herself, amid the breathless amazement of
the Blossoms of the Palace. He looked down upon her as she knelt, pale as a
lady carved in ivory, but lovely as the lotus of Chang-Su. He turned to the
August Aunt. “Princess of Han, my Imperial Aunt, I would speak with this lady
alone.”
Decorum itself and the
custom of Palaces could not conceal the indignation of the August Aunt as she
rose and retired, driving the ladies before her as a shepherd drives his sheep.
The Hall of Tranquil
Longevity being now empty, the Jade Emperor extended his hand and beckoned the
Round-Faced Beauty to approach. This she did, hanging her head like a flower
surcharged with dew and swaying gracefully as a wind-bell, and knelt on the
lowest step of the Seat of State.
“Loveliest One,” said
the Emperor, “I have read your composition. I would know the truth. Did any aid
you as you spoke it? Was it the thought of your own heart?”
“None aided, Divine,”
said she, almost fainting with fear. “It was indeed the thought of this
illiterate slave, consumed with an unwarranted but uncontrollable passion.”
“And have you in truth
desired to see your Lord?”
“As a prisoner in a
dungeon desires the light, so was it with this low person.”
“And having seen?”
“Augustness, the dull
eyes of this slave are blinded with beauty.”
She laid her head before
his feet.
“Yet you have depicted,
not the Ideal Man, but the Ideal Woman. This was not the Celestial command. How
was this?”
“Because, O versatile
and auspicious Emperor, the blind cannot behold the sunlight, and it is only
the Ideal Woman who is worthy to comprehend and worship the Ideal Man. For this
alone is she created.”
A smile began to
illuminate the Imperial Countenance. “And how, O Round-Faced Beauty, did you
evade the vigilance of the August Aunt?”
She hung her head lower,
speaking almost in a whisper. “With her one pearl did this person buy the
secrecy of the writer; and when the August Aunt slept, did I conceal the paper
in her sleeve with the rest, and her own Imperial hand gave it to the engraver
of ivory.”
She veiled her face with
two jade-white hands that trembled excessively. On hearing this statement the
Celestial Emperor broke at once into a very great laughter, and he laughed loud
and long as a tiller of wheat. The Round-Faced Beauty heard it demurely until,
catching the Imperial eye, decorum was forgotten and she too laughed
uncontrollably. So they continued, and finally the Emperor leaned back, drying
the tears in his eyes with his august sleeve, and the lady, resuming her
gravity, hid her face in her hands, yet regarded him through her fingers.
When the August Aunt
returned at the end of an hour with the ladies, surrounded by the attendants
with their instruments of music, the Round-Faced Beauty was seated in the chair
that she herself had occupied, and on the whiteness of her brow was hung the
chain of pearls, which had formed the frontal of the Cap of the Emperor.
It is recorded that,
advancing from honour to honour, the Round-Faced Beauty was eventually chosen
Empress and became the mother of the Imperial Prince. The celestial purity of
her mind and the absence of all flaws of jealousy and anger warranted this
distinction. But it is also recorded that, after her elevation, no other lady
was ever exalted in the Imperial favour or received the slightest notice from
the Emperor. For the Empress, now well acquainted with the Ideal Man, judged it
better that his experiences of the Ideal Woman should be drawn from herself
alone. And as she decreed, so it was done. Doubtless Her Majesty did well.
It is known that the
Emperor departed to the Ancestral Spirits at an early age, seeking, as the
August Aunt observed, that repose which on earth could never more be his. But
no one has asserted that this lady’s disposition was free from the ordinary
blemishes of humanity.
As for the Celestial
Empress (who survives in history as one of the most astute rulers who ever
adorned the Dragon Throne), she continued to rule her son and the Empire,
surrounded by the respectful admiration of all.
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