TALES OF HEARSAY BY JOSEPH CONRAD
Contents:
1.The Warrior Soul
[1917] 2.Prince Roman [1911]
3.The Tale
[1917] 4.The Black Mate [1884]
1.THE WARRIOR'S SOUL (1917)
The old officer with long white moustaches gave rein to his
indignation.
“Is it possible that you
youngsters should have no more sense than that! Some of you had better wipe the
milk off your upper lip before you start to pass judgment on the few poor
stragglers of a generation which has done and suffered not a little in its
time.”
His hearers having expressed
much compunction the ancient warrior became appeased. But he was not silenced.
“I am one of them—one of the
stragglers, I mean,” he went on patiently. “And what did we do? What have we
achieved? He—the great Napoleon—started upon us to emulate the Macedonian
Alexander, with a ruck of nations at his back. We opposed empty spaces to
French impetuosity, then we offered them an interminable battle so that their
army went at last to sleep in its positions lying down on the heaps of its own
dead. Then came the wall of fire in Moscow. It toppled down on them.
“Then began the long rout of
the Grand Army. I have seen it stream on, like the doomed flight of haggard,
spectral sinners across the innermost frozen circle of Dante's Inferno, ever
widening before their despairing eyes.
“They who escaped must have
had their souls doubly riveted inside their bodies to carry them out of Russia
through that frost fit to split rocks. But to say that it was our fault that a
single one of them got away is mere ignorance. Why! Our own men suffered nearly
to the limit of their strength. Their Russian strength!
“Of course our spirit was
not broken; and then our cause was good—it was holy. But that did not temper
the wind much to men and horses.
“The flesh is weak. Good or
evil purpose, Humanity has to pay the price. Why! In that very fight for that
little village of which I have been telling you we were fighting for the
shelter of those old houses as much as victory. And with the French it was the
same.
“It wasn't for the sake of
glory, or for the sake of strategy. The French knew that they would have to
retreat before morning and we knew perfectly well that they would go. As far as
the war was concerned there was nothing to fight about. Yet our infantry and
theirs fought like wild cats, or like heroes if you like that better, amongst
the houses—hot work enough—-while the supports out in the open stood freezing
in a tempestuous north wind which drove the snow on earth and the great masses
of clouds in the sky at a terrific pace. The very air was inexpressibly sombre
by contrast with the white earth. I have never seen God's creation look more
sinister than on that day.
“We, the cavalry (we were
only a handful), had not much to do except turn our backs to the wind and
receive some stray French round shot. This, I may tell you, was the last of the
French guns and it was the last time they had their artillery in position.
Those guns never went away from there either. We found them abandoned next
morning. But that afternoon they were keeping up an infernal fire on our
attacking column; the furious wind carried away the smoke and even the noise
but we could see the constant flicker of the tongues of fire along the French
front. Then a driving flurry of snow would hide everything except the dark red
flashes in the white swirl.
“At intervals when the line
cleared we could see away across the plain to the right a sombre column moving
endlessly; the great rout of the Grand Army creeping on and on all the time
while the fight on our left went on with a great din and fury. The cruel
whirlwind of snow swept over that scene of death and desolation. And then the
wind fell as suddenly as it had arisen in the morning.
“Presently we got orders to
charge the retreating column; I don't know why unless they wanted to prevent us
from getting frozen in our saddles by giving us something to do. We changed
front half right and got into motion at a walk to take that distant dark line
in flank. It might have been half-past two in the afternoon.
“You must know that so far
in this campaign my regiment had never been on the main line of Napoleon's
advance. All these months since the invasion the army we belonged to had been
wrestling with Oudinot in the north. We had only come down lately, driving him
before us to the Beresina.
“This was the first
occasion, then, that I and my comrades had a close view of Napoleon's Grand
Army. It was an amazing and terrible sight. I had heard of it from others; I
had seen the stragglers from it: small bands of marauders, parties of prisoners
in the distance. But this was the very column itself! A crawling, stumbling,
starved, half-demented mob. It issued from the forest a mile away and its head
was lost in the murk of the fields. We rode into it at a trot, which was the
most we could get out of our horses, and we stuck in that human mass as if in a
moving bog. There was no resistance. I heard a few shots, half a dozen perhaps.
Their very senses seemed frozen within them. I had time for a good look while
riding at the head of my squadron. Well, I assure you, there were men walking
on the outer edge so lost to everything but their misery that they never turned
their heads to look at our charge. Soldiers!
“My horse pushed over one of
them with his chest. The poor wretch had a dragoon's blue cloak, all torn and
scorched, hanging from his shoulders and he didn't even put his hand out to
snatch at my bridle and save himself. He just went down. Our troopers were
pointing and slashing; well, and of course at first I myself... What would you
have! An enemy's an enemy. Yet a sort of sickening awe crept into my heart.
There was no tumult—only a low deep murmur dwelt over them interspersed with
louder cries and groans while that mob kept on pushing and surging past us,
sightless and without feeling. A smell of scorched rags and festering wounds
hung in the air. My horse staggered in the eddies of swaying men. But it was
like cutting down galvanized corpses that didn't care. Invaders! Yes... God was
already dealing with them.
“I touched my horse with the
spurs to get clear. There was a sudden rush and a sort of angry moan when our
second squadron got into them on our right. My horse plunged and somebody got
hold of my leg. As I had no mind to get pulled out of the saddle I gave a
back-handed slash without looking. I heard a cry and my leg was let go
suddenly.
“Just then I caught sight of
the subaltern of my troop at some little distance from me. His name was
Tomassov. That multitude of resurrected bodies with glassy eyes was seething
round his horse as if blind, growling crazily. He was sitting erect in his
saddle, not looking down at them and sheathing his sword deliberately.
“This Tomassov, well, he had
a beard. Of course we all had beards then. Circumstances, lack of leisure, want
of razors, too. No, seriously, we were a wild-looking lot in those unforgotten
days which so many, so very many of us did not survive. You know our losses
were awful, too. Yes, we looked wild. Des Russes sauvages—what!
“So he had a beard—this
Tomassov I mean; but he did not look sauvage. He was the youngest
of us all. And that meant real youth. At a distance he passed muster fairly
well, what with the grime and the particular stamp of that campaign on our
faces. But directly you were near enough to have a good look into his eyes,
that was where his lack of age showed, though he was not exactly a boy.
“Those same eyes were blue,
something like the blue of autumn skies, dreamy and gay, too—innocent,
believing eyes. A topknot of fair hair decorated his brow like a gold diadem in
what one would call normal times.
“You may think I am talking
of him as if he were the hero of a novel. Why, that's nothing to what the
adjutant discovered about him. He discovered that he had a 'lover's
lips'—whatever that may be. If the adjutant meant a nice mouth, why, it was
nice enough, but of course it was intended for a sneer. That adjutant of ours
was not a very delicate fellow. 'Look at those lover's lips,' he would exclaim
in a loud tone while Tomassov was talking.
“Tomassov didn't quite like
that sort of thing. But to a certain extent he had laid himself open to banter
by the lasting character of his impressions which were connected with the
passion of love and, perhaps, were not of such a rare kind as he seemed to
think them. What made his comrades tolerant of his rhapsodies was the fact that
they were connected with France, with Paris!
“You of the present
generation, you cannot conceive how much prestige there was then in those names
for the whole world. Paris was the centre of wonder for all human beings gifted
with imagination. There we were, the majority of us young and well connected,
but not long out of our hereditary nests in the provinces; simple servants of
God; mere rustics, if I may say so. So we were only too ready to listen to the
tales of France from our comrade Tomassov. He had been attached to our mission
in Paris the year before the war. High protections very likely—or maybe sheer
luck.
“I don't think he could have
been a very useful member of the mission because of his youth and complete
inexperience. And apparently all his time in Paris was his own. The use he made
of it was to fall in love, to remain in that state, to cultivate it, to exist
only for it in a manner of speaking.
“Thus it was something more
than a mere memory that he had brought with him from France. Memory is a
fugitive thing. It can be falsified, it can be effaced, it can be even doubted.
Why! I myself come to doubt sometimes that I, too, have been in Paris in my
turn. And the long road there with battles for its stages would appear still
more incredible if it were not for a certain musket ball which I have been
carrying about my person ever since a little cavalry affair which happened in
Silesia at the very beginning of the Leipsic campaign.
“Passages of love, however,
are more impressive perhaps than passages of danger. You don't go affronting
love in troops as it were. They are rarer, more personal and more intimate. And
remember that with Tomassov all that was very fresh yet. He had not been home
from France three months when the war began.
“His heart, his mind were
full of that experience. He was really awed by it, and he was simple enough to
let it appear in his speeches. He considered himself a sort of privileged
person, not because a woman had looked at him with favour, but simply because,
how shall I say it, he had had the wonderful illumination of his worship for
her, as if it were heaven itself that had done this for him.
“Oh yes, he was very simple.
A nice youngster, yet no fool; and with that, utterly inexperienced,
unsuspicious, and unthinking. You will find one like that here and there in the
provinces. He had some poetry in him too. It could only be natural, something
quite his own, not acquired. I suppose Father Adam had some poetry in him of that
natural sort. For the rest un Russe sauvage as the French
sometimes call us, but not of that kind which, they maintain, eats tallow
candle for a delicacy. As to the woman, the French woman, well, though I have
also been in France with a hundred thousand Russians, I have never seen her.
Very likely she was not in Paris then. And in any case hers were not the doors
that would fly open before simple fellows of my sort, you understand. Gilded
salons were never in my way. I could not tell you how she looked, which is
strange considering that I was, if I may say so, Tomassov's special confidant.
“He very soon got shy of
talking before the others. I suppose the usual camp-fire comments jarred his
fine feelings. But I was left to him and truly I had to submit. You can't very
well expect a youngster in Tomassov's state to hold his tongue altogether; and
I—I suppose you will hardly believe me—I am by nature a rather silent sort of
person.
“Very likely my silence
appeared to him sympathetic. All the month of September our regiment, quartered
in villages, had come in for an easy time. It was then that I heard most of
that—you can't call it a story. The story I have in my mind is not in that.
Outpourings, let us call them.
“I would sit quite content
to hold my peace, a whole hour perhaps, while Tomassov talked with exaltation.
And when he was done I would still hold my peace. And then there would be
produced a solemn effect of silence which, I imagine, pleased Tomassov in a
way.
“She was of course not a
woman in her first youth. A widow, maybe. At any rate I never heard Tomassov
mention her husband. She had a salon, something very distinguished; a social
centre in which she queened it with great splendour.
“Somehow, I fancy her court
was composed mostly of men. But Tomassov, I must say, kept such details out of
his discourses wonderfully well. Upon my word I don't know whether her hair was
dark or fair, her eyes brown or blue; what was her stature, her features, or
her complexion. His love soared above mere physical impressions. He never
described her to me in set terms; but he was ready to swear that in her
presence everybody's thoughts and feelings were bound to circle round her. She
was that sort of woman. Most wonderful conversations on all sorts of subjects
went on in her salon: but through them all there flowed unheard like a
mysterious strain of music the assertion, the power, the tyranny of sheer
beauty. So apparently the woman was beautiful. She detached all these talking
people from their life interests, and even from their vanities. She was a
secret delight and a secret trouble. All the men when they looked at her fell
to brooding as if struck by the thought that their lives had been wasted. She
was the very joy and shudder of felicity and she brought only sadness and
torment to the hearts of men.
“In short, she must have
been an extraordinary woman, or else Tomassov was an extraordinary young fellow
to feel in that way and to talk like this about her. I told you the fellow had
a lot of poetry in him and observed that all this sounded true enough. It would
be just about the sorcery a woman very much out of the common would exercise,
you know. Poets do get close to truth somehow—there is no denying that.
“There is no poetry in my
composition, I know, but I have my share of common shrewdness, and I have no
doubt that the lady was kind to the youngster, once he did find his way inside
her salon. His getting in is the real marvel. However, he did get in, the
innocent, and he found himself in distinguished company there, amongst men of
considerable position. And you know, what that means: thick waists, bald heads,
teeth that are not—as some satirist puts it. Imagine amongst them a nice boy,
fresh and simple, like an apple just off the tree; a modest, good-looking,
impressionable, adoring young barbarian. My word! What a change! What a relief
for jaded feelings! And with that, having, in his nature that, dose; of poetry
which saves even a simpleton from being a fool.
“He became an artlessly,
unconditionally devoted slave. He was rewarded by being smiled on and in time
admitted to the intimacy of the house. It may be that the unsophisticated young
barbarian amused the exquisite lady. Perhaps—since he didn't feed on tallow
candles—he satisfied some need of tenderness in the woman. You know, there are
many kinds of tenderness highly civilized women are capable of. Women with
heads and imagination, I mean, and no temperament to speak of, you understand.
But who is going to fathom their needs or their fancies? Most of the time they themselves
don't know much about their innermost moods, and blunder out of one into
another, sometimes with catastrophic results. And then who is more surprised
than they? However, Tomassov's case was in its nature quite idyllic. The
fashionable world was amused. His devotion made for him a kind of social
success. But he didn't care. There was his one divinity, and there was the
shrine where he was permitted to go in and out without regard for official
reception hours.
“He took advantage of that
privilege freely. Well, he had no official duties, you know. The Military
Mission was supposed to be more complimentary than anything else, the head of
it being a personal friend of our Emperor Alexander; and he, too, was laying
himself out for successes in fashionable life exclusively—as it seemed. As it
seemed.
“One afternoon Tomassov
called on the mistress of his thoughts earlier than usual. She was not alone.
There was a man with her, not one of the thick-waisted, bald-headed personages,
but a somebody all the same, a man over thirty, a French officer who to some
extent was also a privileged intimate. Tomassov was not jealous of him. Such a
sentiment would have appeared presumptuous to the simple fellow.
“On the contrary he admired
that officer. You have no idea of the French military men's prestige in those
days, even with us Russian soldiers who had managed to face them perhaps better
than the rest. Victory had marked them on the forehead—it seemed for ever. They
would have been more than human if they had not been conscious of it; but they
were good comrades and had a sort of brotherly feeling for all who bore arms,
even if it was against them.
“And this was quite a
superior example, an officer of the major-general's staff, and a man of the
best society besides. He was powerfully built, and thoroughly masculine, though
he was as carefully groomed as a woman. He had the courteous self-possession of
a man of the world. His forehead, white as alabaster, contrasted impressively
with the healthy colour of his face.
“I don't know whether he was
jealous of Tomassov, but I suspect that he might have been a little annoyed at
him as at a sort of walking absurdity of the sentimental order. But these men
of the world are impenetrable, and outwardly he condescended to recognize Tomassov's
existence even more distinctly than was strictly necessary. Once or twice he
had offered him some useful worldly advice with perfect tact and delicacy.
Tomassov was completely conquered by that evidence of kindness under the cold
polish of the best society.
“Tomassov, introduced into
the petit salon, found these two exquisite people sitting on a sofa
together and had the feeling of having interrupted some special conversation.
They looked at him strangely, he thought; but he was not given to understand
that he had intruded. After a time the lady said to the officer—his name was De
Castel—'I wish you would take the trouble to ascertain the exact truth as to
that rumour.'
“'It's much more than a mere
rumour,' remarked the officer. But he got up submissively and went out. The
lady turned to Tomassov and said: 'You may stay with me.'
“This express command made
him supremely happy, though as a matter of fact he had had no idea of going.
“She regarded him with her
kindly glances, which made something glow and expand within his chest. It was a
delicious feeling, even though it did cut one's breath short now and then.
Ecstatically he drank in the sound of her tranquil, seductive talk full of
innocent gaiety and of spiritual quietude. His passion appeared to him to flame
up and envelop her in blue fiery tongues from head to foot and over her head,
while her soul reposed in the centre like a big white rose....
“H'm, good this. He told me
many other things like that. But this is the one I remember. He himself remembered
everything because these were the last memories of that woman. He was seeing
her for the last time though he did not know it then.
“M. De Castel returned,
breaking into that atmosphere of enchantment Tomassov had been drinking in even
to complete unconsciousness of the external world. Tomassov could not help
being struck by the distinction of his movements, the ease of his manner, his
superiority to all the other men he knew, and he suffered from it. It occurred
to him that these two brilliant beings on the sofa were made for each other.
“De Castel sitting down by
the side of the lady murmured to her discreetly, 'There is not the slightest
doubt that it's true,' and they both turned their eyes to Tomassov. Roused
thoroughly from his enchantment he became self-conscious; a feeling of shyness
came over him. He sat smiling faintly at them.
“The lady without taking her
eyes off the blushing Tomassov said with a dreamy gravity quite unusual to her:
“'I should like to know that
your generosity can be supreme—without a flaw. Love at its highest should be
the origin of every perfection.'
“Tomassov opened his eyes
wide with admiration at this, as though her lips had been dropping real pearls.
The sentiment, however, was not uttered for the primitive Russian youth but for
the exquisitely accomplished man of the world, De Castel.
“Tomassov could not see the
effect it produced because the French officer lowered his head and sat there
contemplating his admirably polished boots. The lady whispered in a sympathetic
tone:
“'You have scruples?'
“De Castel, without looking
up, murmured: 'It could be turned into a nice point of honour.'
“She said vivaciously: 'That
surely is artificial. I am all for natural feelings. I believe in nothing else.
But perhaps your conscience...'
“He interrupted her: 'Not at
all. My conscience is not childish. The fate of those people is of no military
importance to us. What can it matter? The fortune of France is invincible.'
“'Well then...' she uttered,
meaningly, and rose from the couch. The French officer stood up, too. Tomassov
hastened to follow their example. He was pained by his state of utter mental
darkness. While he was raising the lady's white hand to his lips he heard the
French officer say with marked emphasis:
“'If he has the soul of a
warrior (at that time, you know, people really talked in that way), if he has
the soul of a warrior he ought to fall at your feet in gratitude.'
“Tomassov felt himself
plunged into even denser darkness than before. He followed the French officer
out of the room and out of the house; for he had a notion that this was
expected of him.
“It was getting dusk, the
weather was very bad, and the street was quite deserted. The Frenchman lingered
in it strangely. And Tomassov lingered, too, without impatience. He was never
in a hurry to get away from the house in which she lived. And besides,
something wonderful had happened to him. The hand he had reverently raised by
the tips of its fingers had been pressed against his lips. He had received a
secret favour! He was almost frightened. The world had reeled—and it had hardly
steadied itself yet. De Castel stopped short at the corner of the quiet street.
“'I don't care to be seen
too much with you in the lighted thoroughfares, M. Tomassov,' he said in a
strangely grim tone.
“'Why?' asked the young man,
too startled to be offended.
“'From prudence,' answered
the other curtly. 'So we will have to part here; but before we part I'll
disclose to you something of which you will see at once the importance.'
“This, please note, was an
evening in late March of the year 1812. For a long time already there had been
talk of a growing coolness between Russia and France. The word war was being
whispered in drawing rooms louder and louder, and at last was heard in official
circles. Thereupon the Parisian police discovered that our military envoy had
corrupted some clerks at the Ministry of War and had obtained from them some
very important confidential documents. The wretched men (there were two of
them) had confessed their crime and were to be shot that night. To-morrow all
the town would be talking of the affair. But the worst was that the Emperor
Napoleon was furiously angry at the discovery, and had made up his mind to have
the Russian envoy arrested.
“Such was De Castel's
disclosure; and though he had spoken in low tones Tomassov was stunned as by a
great crash.
“'Arrested,' he murmured,
desolately.
“'Yes, and kept as a state
prisoner—with everybody belonging to him....'
“The French officer seized
Tomassov's arm above the elbow and pressed it hard.
“'And kept in France,' he
repeated into Tomassov's very ear, and then letting him go stepped back a space
and remained silent.
“'And it's you, you, who are
telling me this!' cried Tomassov in an extremity of gratitude that was hardly
greater than his admiration for the generosity of his future foe. Could a
brother have done for him more! He sought to seize the hand of the French
officer, but the latter remained wrapped up closely in his cloak. Possibly in
the dark he had not noticed the attempt. He moved back a bit and in his
self-possessed voice of a man of the world, as though he were speaking across a
card table or something of the sort, he called Tomassov's attention to the fact
that if he meant to make use of the warning the moments were precious.
“'Indeed they are,' agreed
the awed Tomassov. 'Good-bye then. I have no word of thanks to equal your
generosity; but if ever I have an opportunity, I swear it, you may command my
life....'
“But the Frenchman
retreated, had already vanished in the dark lonely street. Tomassov was alone,
and then he did not waste any of the precious minutes of that night.
“See how people's mere
gossip and idle talk pass into history. In all the memoirs of the time if you
read them you will find it stated that our envoy had a warning from some highly
placed woman who was in love with him. Of course it's known that he had
successes with women, and in the highest spheres, too, but the truth is that
the person who warned him was no other than our simple Tomassov—an altogether
different sort of lover from himself.
“This then is the secret of
our Emperor's representative's escape from arrest. He and all his official
household got out of France all right—as history records.
“And amongst that household
there was our Tomassov of course. He had, in the words of the French officer,
the soul of a warrior. And what more desolate prospect for a man with such a
soul than to be imprisoned on the eve of war; to be cut off from his country in
danger, from his military family, from his duty, from honour, and—well—from
glory, too.
“Tomassov used to shudder at
the mere thought of the moral torture he had escaped; and he nursed in his
heart a boundless gratitude to the two people who had saved him from that cruel
ordeal. They were wonderful! For him love and friendship were but two aspects
of exalted perfection. He had found these fine examples of it and he vowed them
indeed a sort of cult. It affected his attitude towards Frenchmen in general,
great patriot as he was. He was naturally indignant at the invasion of his
country, but this indignation had no personal animosity in it. His was
fundamentally a fine nature. He grieved at the appalling amount of human
suffering he saw around him. Yes, he was full of compassion for all forms of
mankind's misery in a manly way.
“Less fine natures than his
own did not understand this very well. In the regiment they had nicknamed him
the Humane Tomassov.
“He didn't take offence at
it. There is nothing incompatible between humanity and a warrior's soul. People
without compassion are the civilians, government officials, merchants and such
like. As to the ferocious talk one hears from a lot of decent people in war
time—well, the tongue is an unruly member at best and when there is some
excitement going on there is no curbing its furious activity.
“So I had not been very
surprised to see our Tomassov sheathe deliberately his sword right in the
middle of that charge, you may say. As we rode away after it he was very
silent. He was not a chatterer as a rule, but it was evident that this close
view of the Grand Army had affected him deeply, like some sight not of this
earth. I had always been a pretty tough individual myself—well, even I... and
there was that fellow with a lot of poetry in his nature! You may imagine what
he made of it to himself. We rode side by side without opening our lips. It was
simply beyond words.
“We established our bivouac
along the edge of the forest so as to get some shelter for our horses. However,
the boisterous north wind had dropped as quickly as it had sprung up, and the
great winter stillness lay on the land from the Baltic to the Black Sea. One
could almost feel its cold, lifeless immensity reaching up to the stars.
“Our men had lighted several
fires for their officers and had cleared the snow around them. We had big logs
of wood for seats; it was a very tolerable bivouac upon the whole, even without
the exultation of victory. We were to feel that later, but at present we were
oppressed by our stern and arduous task.
“There were three of us
round my fire. The third one was that adjutant. He was perhaps a well-meaning
chap but not so nice as he might have been had he been less rough in manner and
less crude in his perceptions. He would reason about people's conduct as though
a man were as simple a figure as, say, two sticks laid across each other;
whereas a man is much more like the sea whose movements are too complicated to
explain, and whose depths may bring up God only knows what at any moment.
“We talked a little about
that charge. Not much. That sort of thing does not lend itself to conversation.
Tomassov muttered a few words about a mere butchery. I had nothing to say. As I
told you I had very soon let my sword hang idle at my wrist. That starving mob
had not even tried to defend itself. Just a few shots. We had
two men wounded. Two!... and we had charged the main column of Napoleon's Grand
Army.
“Tomassov muttered wearily:
'What was the good of it?' I did not wish to argue, so I only just mumbled:
'Ah, well!' But the adjutant struck in unpleasantly:
“'Why, it warmed the men a
bit. It has made me warm. That's a good enough reason. But our Tomassov is so
humane! And besides he has been in love with a French woman, and thick as
thieves with a lot of Frenchmen, so he is sorry for them. Never mind, my boy,
we are on the Paris road now and you shall soon see her!' This was one of his
usual, as we believed them, foolish speeches. None of us but believed that the
getting to Paris would be a matter of years—of years. And lo! less than eighteen
months afterwards I was rooked of a lot of money in a gambling hell in the
Palais Royal.
“Truth, being often the most
senseless thing in the world, is sometimes revealed to fools. I don't think
that adjutant of ours believed in his own words. He just wanted to tease
Tomassov from habit. Purely from habit. We of course said nothing, and so he
took his head in his hands and fell into a doze as he sat on a log in front of
the fire.
“Our cavalry was on the
extreme right wing of the army, and I must confess that we guarded it very
badly. We had lost all sense of insecurity by this time; but still we did keep
up a pretence of doing it in a way. Presently a trooper rode up leading a horse
and Tomassov mounted stiffly and went off on a round of the outposts. Of the
perfectly useless outposts.
“The night was still, except
for the crackling of the fires. The raging wind had lifted far above the earth
and not the faintest breath of it could be heard. Only the full moon swam out
with a rush into the sky and suddenly hung high and motionless overhead. I
remember raising my hairy face to it for a moment. Then, I verily believe, I
dozed off, too, bent double on my log with my head towards the fierce blaze.
“You know what an
impermanent thing such slumber is. One moment you drop into an abyss and the
next you are back in the world that you would think too deep for any noise but
the trumpet of the Last Judgment. And then off you go again. Your very soul
seems to slip down into a bottomless black pit. Then up once more into a
startled consciousness. A mere plaything of cruel sleep one is, then. Tormented
both ways.
“However, when my orderly
appeared before me, repeating: 'Won't your Honour be pleased to eat?... Won't
your Honour be pleased to eat?...' I managed to keep my hold of it—I mean that
gaping consciousness. He was offering me a sooty pot containing some grain
boiled in water with a pinch of salt. A wooden spoon was stuck in it.
“At that time these were the
only rations we were getting regularly. Mere chicken food, confound it! But the
Russian soldier is wonderful. Well, my fellow waited till I had feasted and
then went away carrying off the empty pot.
“I was no longer sleepy.
Indeed, I had become awake with an exaggerated mental consciousness of
existence extending beyond my immediate surroundings. Those are but exceptional
moments with mankind, I am glad to say. I had the intimate sensation of the
earth in all its enormous expanse wrapped in snow, with nothing showing on it
but trees with their straight stalk-like trunks and their funeral verdure; and
in this aspect of general mourning I seemed to hear the sighs of mankind
falling to die in the midst of a nature without life. They were Frenchmen. We
didn't hate them; they did not hate us; we had existed far apart—and suddenly
they had come rolling in with arms in their hands, without fear of God,
carrying with them other nations, and all to perish together in a long, long
trail of frozen corpses. I had an actual vision of that trail: a pathetic
multitude of small dark mounds stretching away under the moonlight in a clear,
still, and pitiless atmosphere—a sort of horrible peace.
“But what other peace could
there be for them? What else did they deserve? I don't know by what connection
of emotions there came into my head the thought that the earth was a pagan
planet and not a fit abode for Christian virtues.
“You may be surprised that I
should remember all this so well. What is a passing emotion or half-formed
thought to last in so many years of a man's changing, inconsequential life? But
what has fixed the emotion of that evening in my recollection so that the
slightest shadows remain indelible was an event of strange finality, an event
not likely to be forgotten in a life-time—as you shall see.
“I don't suppose I had been
entertaining those thoughts more than five minutes when something induced me to
look over my shoulder. I can't think it was a noise; the snow deadened all the
sounds. Something it must have been, some sort of signal reaching my
consciousness. Anyway, I turned my head, and there was the event approaching
me, not that I knew it or had the slightest premonition. All I saw in the
distance were two figures approaching in the moonlight. One of them was our
Tomassov. The dark mass behind him which moved across my sight were the horses
which his orderly was leading away. Tomassov was a very familiar appearance, in
long boots, a tall figure ending in a pointed hood. But by his side advanced
another figure. I mistrusted my eyes at first. It was amazing! It had a shining
crested helmet on its head and was muffled up in a white cloak. The cloak was
not as white as snow. Nothing in the world is. It was white more like mist,
with an aspect that was ghostly and martial to an extraordinary degree. It was
as if Tomassov had got hold of the God of War himself. I could see at once that
he was leading this resplendent vision by the arm. Then I saw that he was
holding it up. While I stared and stared, they crept on—for indeed they were
creeping—and at last they crept into the light of our bivouac fire and passed
beyond the log I was sitting on. The blaze played on the helmet. It was
extremely battered and the frost-bitten face, full of sores, under it was
framed in bits of mangy fur. No God of War this, but a French officer. The great
white cuirassier's cloak was torn, burnt full of holes. His feet were wrapped
up in old sheepskins over remnants of boots. They looked monstrous and he
tottered on them, sustained by Tomassov who lowered him most carefully on to
the log on which I sat.
“My amazement knew no
bounds.
“'You have brought in a
prisoner,' I said to Tomassov, as if I could not believe my eyes.
“You must understand that
unless they surrendered in large bodies we made no prisoners. What would have
been the good? Our Cossacks either killed the stragglers or else let them
alone, just as it happened. It came really to the same thing in the end.
“Tomassov turned to me with
a very troubled look.
“'He sprang up from the
ground somewhere as I was leaving the outpost,' he said. 'I believe he was
making for it, for he walked blindly into my horse. He got hold of my leg and
of course none of our chaps dared touch him then.'
“'He had a narrow escape,' I
said.
“'He didn't appreciate it,'
said Tomassov, looking even more troubled than before. 'He came along holding
to my stirrup leather. That's what made me so late. He told me he was a staff
officer; and then talking in a voice such, I suppose, as the damned alone use,
a croaking of rage and pain, he said he had a favour to beg of me. A supreme favour.
Did I understand him, he asked in a sort of fiendish whisper.
“'Of course I told him that
I did. I said: oui, je vous comprends.'
“'Then,' said he, 'do it.
Now! At once—in the pity of your heart.'
“Tomassov ceased and stared
queerly at me above the head of the prisoner.
“I said, 'What did he mean?'
“'That's what I asked him,'
answered Tomassov in a dazed tone, 'and he said that he wanted me to do him the
favour to blow his brains out. As a fellow soldier he said. 'As a man of
feeling—as—as a humane man.'
“The prisoner sat between us
like an awful gashed mummy as to the face, a martial scarecrow, a grotesque
horror of rags and dirt, with awful living eyes, full of vitality, full of
unquenchable fire, in a body of horrible affliction, a skeleton at the feast of
glory. And suddenly those shining unextinguishable eyes of his became fixed
upon Tomassov. He, poor fellow, fascinated, returned the ghastly stare of a
suffering soul in that mere husk of a man. The prisoner croaked at him in
French.
“'I recognize, you know. You
are her Russian youngster. You were very grateful. I call on you to pay the
debt. Pay it, I say, with one liberating shot. You are a man of honour. I have
not even a broken sabre. All my being recoils from my own degradation. You know
me.'
“Tomassov said nothing.
“'Haven't you got the soul
of a warrior?' the Frenchman asked in an angry whisper, but with something of a
mocking intention in it.
“'I don't know,' said poor
Tomassov.
“What a look of contempt
that scarecrow gave him out of his unquenchable eyes. He seemed to live only by
the force of infuriated and impotent despair. Suddenly he gave a gasp and fell
forward writhing in the agony of cramp in all his limbs; a not unusual effect
of the heat of a camp-fire. It resembled the application of some horrible
torture. But he tried to fight against the pain at first. He only moaned low
while we bent over him so as to prevent him rolling into the fire, and muttered
feverishly at intervals: 'Tuez moi, tuez moi...' till, vanquished by the
pain, he screamed in agony, time after time, each cry bursting out through his
compressed lips.
“The adjutant woke up on the
other side of the fire and started swearing awfully at the beastly row that
Frenchman was making.
“'What's this? More of your
infernal humanity, Tomassov,' he yelled at us. 'Why don't you have him thrown
out of this to the devil on the snow?'
“As we paid no attention to
his shouts, he got up, cursing shockingly, and went away to another fire.
Presently the French officer became easier. We propped him up against the log
and sat silent on each side of him till the bugles started their call at the
first break of day. The big flame, kept up all through the night, paled on the
livid sheet of snow, while the frozen air all round rang with the brazen notes
of cavalry trumpets. The Frenchman's eyes, fixed in a glassy stare, which for a
moment made us hope that he had died quietly sitting there between us two,
stirred slowly to right and left, looking at each of our faces in turn.
Tomassov and I exchanged glances of dismay. Then De Castel's voice, unexpected
in its renewed strength and ghastly self-possession, made us shudder inwardly.
“'Bonjour, Messieurs.'
“His chin dropped on his
breast. Tomassov addressed me in Russian.
“'It is he, the man
himself...' I nodded and Tomassov went on in a tone of anguish: 'Yes, he!
Brilliant, accomplished, envied by men, loved by that woman—this horror—this
miserable thing that cannot die. Look at his eyes. It's terrible.'
“I did not look, but I
understood what Tomassov meant. We could do nothing for him. This avenging
winter of fate held both the fugitives and the pursuers in its iron grip.
Compassion was but a vain word before that unrelenting destiny. I tried to say
something about a convoy being no doubt collected in the village—but I faltered
at the mute glance Tomassov gave me. We knew what those convoys were like:
appalling mobs of hopeless wretches driven on by the butts of Cossacks' lances,
back to the frozen inferno, with their faces set away from their homes.
“Our two squadrons had been
formed along the edge of the forest. The minutes of anguish were passing. The
Frenchman suddenly struggled to his feet. We helped him almost without knowing
what we were doing.
“'Come,' he said, in
measured tones. 'This is the moment.' He paused for a long time, then with the
same distinctness went on: 'On my word of honour, all faith is dead in me.'
“His voice lost suddenly its
self-possession. After waiting a little while he added in a murmur: 'And even
my courage.... Upon my honour.'
“Another long pause ensued
before, with a great effort, he whispered hoarsely: 'Isn't this enough to move
a heart of stone? Am I to go on my knees to you?'
“Again a deep silence fell
upon the three of us. Then the French officer flung his last word of anger at
Tomassov.
“'Milksop!'
“Not a feature of the poor
fellow moved. I made up my mind to go and fetch a couple of our troopers to
lead that miserable prisoner away to the village. There was nothing else for
it. I had not moved six paces towards the group of horses and orderlies in
front of our squadron when... but you have guessed it. Of course. And I, too, I
guessed it, for I give you my word that the report of Tomassov's pistol was the
most insignificant thing imaginable. The snow certainly does absorb sound. It
was a mere feeble pop. Of the orderlies holding our horses I don't think one
turned his head round.
“Yes. Tomassov had done it.
Destiny had led that De Castel to the man who could understand him perfectly.
But it was poor Tomassov's lot to be the predestined victim. You know what the
world's justice and mankind's judgment are like. They fell heavily on him with
a sort of inverted hypocrisy. Why! That brute of an adjutant, himself, was the
first to set going horrified allusions to the shooting of a prisoner in cold
blood! Tomassov was not dismissed from the service of course. But after the
siege of Dantzig he asked for permission to resign from the army, and went away
to bury himself in the depths of his province, where a vague story of some dark
deed clung to him for years.
“Yes. He had done it. And
what was it? One warrior's soul paying its debt a hundredfold to another
warrior's soul by releasing it from a fate worse than death—the loss of all
faith and courage. You may look on it in that way. I don't know. And perhaps
poor Tomassov did not know himself. But I was the first to approach that
appalling dark group on the snow: the Frenchman extended rigidly on his back,
Tomassov kneeling on one knee rather nearer to the feet than to the Frenchman's
head. He had taken his cap off and his hair shone like gold in the light drift
of flakes that had begun to fall. He was stooping over the dead in a tenderly
contemplative attitude. And his young, ingenuous face, with lowered eyelids,
expressed no grief, no sternness, no horror—but was set in the repose of a
profound, as if endless and endlessly silent, meditation.”
2.PRINCE ROMAN
(1911)
“Events which happened seventy years ago are perhaps rather too
far off to be dragged aptly into a mere conversation. Of course the year 1831
is for us an historical date, one of these fatal years when in the presence of
the world's passive indignation and eloquent sympathies we had once more to
murmur 'Vo Victis' and count the cost in sorrow. Not that we were ever
very good at calculating, either, in prosperity or in adversity. That's a
lesson we could never learn, to the great exasperation of our enemies who have
bestowed upon us the epithet of Incorrigible....”
The speaker was of Polish
nationality, that nationality not so much alive as surviving, which persists in
thinking, breathing, speaking, hoping, and suffering in its grave, railed in by
a million of bayonets and triple-sealed with the seals of three great empires.
The conversation was about
aristocracy. How did this, nowadays discredited, subject come up? It is some
years ago now and the precise recollection has faded. But I remember that it
was not considered practically as an ingredient in the social mixture; and I
verily believed that we arrived at that subject through some exchange of ideas
about patriotism—a somewhat discredited sentiment, because the delicacy of our
humanitarians regards it as a relic of barbarism. Yet neither the great
Florentine painter who closed his eyes in death thinking of his city, nor St. Francis
blessing with his last breath the town of Assisi, were barbarians. It requires
a certain greatness of soul to interpret patriotism worthily—or else a
sincerity of feeling denied to the vulgar refinement of modern thought which
cannot understand the august simplicity of a sentiment proceeding from the very
nature of things and men.
The aristocracy we were
talking about was the very highest, the great families of Europe, not
impoverished, not converted, not liberalized, the most distinctive and specialized
class of all classes, for which even ambition itself does not exist among the
usual incentives to activity and regulators of conduct.
The undisputed right of
leadership having passed away from them, we judged that their great fortunes,
their cosmopolitanism brought about by wide alliances, their elevated station,
in which there is so little to gain and so much to lose, must make their
position difficult in times of political commotion or national upheaval. No
longer born to command—which is the very essence of aristocracy—it becomes
difficult for them to do aught else but hold aloof from the great movements of
popular passion.
We had reached that
conclusion when the remark about far-off events was made and the date of 1831
mentioned. And the speaker continued:
“I don't mean to say that I
knew Prince Roman at that remote time. I begin to feel pretty ancient, but I am
not so ancient as that. In fact Prince Roman was married the very year my
father was born. It was in 1828; the 19th Century was young yet and the Prince
was even younger than the century, but I don't know exactly by how much. In any
case his was an early marriage. It was an ideal alliance from every point of
view. The girl was young and beautiful, an orphan heiress of a great name and
of a great fortune. The Prince, then an officer in the Guards and distinguished
amongst his fellows by something reserved and reflective in his character, had
fallen headlong in love with her beauty, her charm, and the serious qualities
of her mind and heart. He was a rather silent young man; but his glances, his
bearing, his whole person expressed his absolute devotion to the woman of his
choice, a devotion which she returned in her own frank and fascinating manner.
“The flame of this pure
young passion promised to burn for ever; and for a season it lit up the dry,
cynical atmosphere of the great world of St. Petersburg. The Emperor Nicholas
himself, the grandfather of the present man, the one who died from the Crimean
War, the last perhaps of the Autocrats with a mystical belief in the Divine
character of his mission, showed some interest in this pair of married lovers.
It is true that Nicholas kept a watchful eye on all the doings of the great
Polish nobles. The young people leading a life appropriate to their station
were obviously wrapped up in each other; and society, fascinated by the
sincerity of a feeling moving serenely among the artificialities of its anxious
and fastidious agitation, watched them with benevolent indulgence and an amused
tenderness.
“The marriage was the social
event of 1828, in the capital. Just forty years afterwards I was staying in the
country house of my mother's brother in our southern provinces.
“It was the dead of winter.
The great lawn in front was as pure and smooth as an alpine snowfield, a white
and feathery level sparkling under the sun as if sprinkled with diamond-dust,
declining gently to the lake—a long, sinuous piece of frozen water looking
bluish and more solid than the earth. A cold brilliant sun glided low above an
undulating horizon of great folds of snow in which the villages of Ukrainian
peasants remained out of sight, like clusters of boats hidden in the hollows of
a running sea. And everything was very still.
“I don't know now how I had
managed to escape at eleven o'clock in the morning from the schoolroom. I was a
boy of eight, the little girl, my cousin, a few months younger than myself,
though hereditarily more quick-tempered, was less adventurous. So I had escaped
alone; and presently I found myself in the great stone-paved hall, warmed by a
monumental stove of white tiles, a much more pleasant locality than the
schoolroom, which for some reason or other, perhaps hygienic, was always kept
at a low temperature.
“We children were aware that
there was a guest staying in the house. He had arrived the night before just as
we were being driven off to bed. We broke back through the line of beaters to
rush and flatten our noses against the dark window panes; but we were too late
to see him alight. We had only watched in a ruddy glare the big travelling
carriage on sleigh-runners harnessed with six horses, a black mass against the
snow, going off to the stables, preceded by a horseman carrying a blazing ball
of tow and resin in an iron basket at the end of a long stick swung from his
saddle bow. Two stable boys had been sent out early in the afternoon along the
snow-tracks to meet the expected guest at dusk and light his way with these
road torches. At that time, you must remember, there was not a single mile of
railways in our southern provinces. My little cousin and I had no knowledge of
trains and engines, except from picture-books, as of things rather vague,
extremely remote, and not particularly interesting unless to grownups who
travelled abroad.
“Our notion of princes, perhaps
a little more precise, was mainly literary and had a glamour reflected from the
light of fairy tales, in which princes always appear young, charming, heroic,
and fortunate. Yet, as well as any other children, we could draw a firm line
between the real and the ideal. We knew that princes were historical
personages. And there was some glamour in that fact, too. But what had driven
me to roam cautiously over the house like an escaped prisoner was the hope of
snatching an interview with a special friend of mine, the head forester, who
generally came to make his report at that time of the day, I yearned for news
of a certain wolf. You know, in a country where wolves are to be found, every
winter almost brings forward an individual eminent by the audacity of his
misdeeds, by his more perfect wolfishness—so to speak. I wanted to hear some
new thrilling tale of that wolf—perhaps the dramatic story of his death....
“But there was no one in the
hall.
“Deceived in my hopes, I
became suddenly very much depressed. Unable to slip back in triumph to my
studies I elected to stroll spiritlessly into the billiard room where certainly
I had no business. There was no one there either, and I felt very lost and
desolate under its high ceiling, all alone with the massive English billiard
table which seemed, in heavy, rectilinear silence, to disapprove of that small
boy's intrusion.
“As I began to think of
retreat I heard footsteps in the adjoining drawing room; and, before I could
turn tail and flee, my uncle and his guest appeared in the doorway. To run away
after having been seen would have been highly improper, so I stood my ground.
My uncle looked surprised to see me; the guest by his side was a spare man, of
average stature, buttoned up in a black frock coat and holding himself very
erect with a stiffly soldier-like carriage. From the folds of a soft white
cambric neck-cloth peeped the points of a collar close against each shaven
cheek. A few wisps of thin gray hair were brushed smoothly across the top of
his bald head. His face, which must have been beautiful in its day, had
preserved in age the harmonious simplicity of its lines. What amazed me was its
even, almost deathlike pallor. He seemed to me to be prodigiously old. A faint
smile, a mere momentary alteration in the set of his thin lips acknowledged my
blushing confusion; and I became greatly interested to see him reach into the
inside breastpocket of his coat. He extracted therefrom a lead pencil and a
block of detachable pages, which he handed to my uncle with an almost
imperceptible bow.
“I was very much astonished,
but my uncle received it as a matter of course. He wrote something at which the
other glanced and nodded slightly. A thin wrinkled hand—the hand was older than
the face—patted my cheek and then rested on my head lightly. An un-ringing
voice, a voice as colourless as the face itself, issued from his sunken lips,
while the eyes, dark and still, looked down at me kindly.
“'And how old is this shy
little boy?'”
“Before I could answer my
uncle wrote down my age on the pad. I was deeply impressed. What was this
ceremony? Was this personage too great to be spoken to? Again he glanced at the
pad, and again gave a nod, and again that impersonal, mechanical voice was
heard: 'He resembles his grandfather.'
“I remembered my paternal
grandfather. He had died not long before. He, too, was prodigiously old. And to
me it seemed perfectly natural that two such ancient and venerable persons
should have known each other in the dim ages of creation before my birth. But
my uncle obviously had not been aware of the fact. So obviously that the
mechanical voice explained: 'Yes, yes. Comrades in '31. He was one of those who
knew. Old times, my dear sir, old times....'
“He made a gesture as if to
put aside an importunate ghost. And now they were both looking down at me. I
wondered whether anything was expected from me. To my round, questioning eyes
my uncle remarked: 'He's completely deaf.' And the unrelated, inexpressive
voice said: 'Give me your hand.'
“Acutely conscious of inky
fingers I put it out timidly. I had never seen a deaf person before and was
rather startled. He pressed it firmly and then gave me a final pat on the head.
“My uncle addressed me
weightily: 'You have shaken hands with Prince Roman S————-. It's something for
you to remember when you grow up.'
“I was impressed by his
tone. I had enough historical information to know vaguely that the Princes
S————- counted amongst the sovereign Princes of Ruthenia till the union of all
Ruthenian lands to the kingdom of Poland, when they became great Polish
magnates, sometime at the beginning of the 15th Century. But what concerned me
most was the failure of the fairy-tale glamour. It was shocking to discover a
prince who was deaf, bald, meagre, and so prodigiously old. It never occurred
to me that this imposing and disappointing man had been young, rich, beautiful;
I could not know that he had been happy in the felicity of an ideal marriage
uniting two young hearts, two great names and two great fortunes; happy with a
happiness which, as in fairy tales, seemed destined to last for ever....
“But it did not last for
ever. It was fated not to last very long even by the measure of the days
allotted to men's passage on this earth where enduring happiness is only found
in the conclusion of fairy tales. A daughter was born to them and shortly
afterwards, the health of the young princess began to fail. For a time she bore
up with smiling intrepidity, sustained by the feeling that now her existence
was necessary for the happiness of two lives. But at last the husband,
thoroughly alarmed by the rapid changes in her appearance, obtained an
unlimited leave and took her away from the capital to his parents in the
country.
“The old prince and princess
were extremely frightened at the state of their beloved daughter-in-law.
Preparations were at once made for a journey abroad. But it seemed as if it
were already too late; and the invalid herself opposed the project with gentle
obstinacy. Thin and pale in the great armchair, where the insidious and obscure
nervous malady made her appear smaller and more frail every day without
effacing the smile of her eyes or the charming grace of her wasted face, she
clung to her native land and wished to breathe her native air. Nowhere else
could she expect to get well so quickly, nowhere else would it be so easy for
her to die.
“She died before her little
girl was two years old. The grief of the husband was terrible and the more
alarming to his parents because perfectly silent and dry-eyed. After the
funeral, while the immense bareheaded crowd of peasants surrounding the private
chapel on the grounds was dispersing, the Prince, waving away his friends and
relations, remained alone to watch the masons of the estate closing the family
vault. When the last stone was in position he uttered a groan, the first sound
of pain which had escaped from him for days, and walking away with lowered head
shut himself up again in his apartments.
“His father and mother
feared for his reason. His outward tranquillity was appalling to them. They had
nothing to trust to but that very youth which made his despair so self-absorbed
and so intense. Old Prince John, fretful and anxious, repeated: 'Poor Roman
should be roused somehow. He's so young.' But they could find nothing to rouse
him with. And the old princess, wiping her eyes, wished in her heart he were
young enough to come and cry at her knee.
“In time Prince Roman,
making an effort, would join now and again the family circle. But it was as if
his heart and his mind had been buried in the family vault with the wife he had
lost. He took to wandering in the woods with a gun, watched over secretly by
one of the keepers, who would report in the evening that 'His Serenity has
never fired a shot all day.' Sometimes walking to the stables in the morning he
would order in subdued tones a horse to be saddled, wait switching his boot
till it was led up to him, then mount without a word and ride out of the gates
at a walking pace. He would be gone all day. People saw him on the roads
looking neither to the right nor to the left, white-faced, sitting rigidly in
the saddle like a horseman of stone on a living mount.
“The peasants working in the
fields, the great unhedged fields, looked after him from the distance; and
sometimes some sympathetic old woman on the threshold of a low, thatched hut
was moved to make the sign of the cross in the air behind his back; as though
he were one of themselves, a simple village soul struck by a sore affliction.
“He rode looking straight
ahead seeing no one as if the earth were empty and all mankind buried in that
grave which had opened so suddenly in his path to swallow up his happiness.
What were men to him with their sorrows, joys, labours and passions from which
she who had been all the world to him had been cut off so early?
“They did not exist; and he
would have felt as completely lonely and abandoned as a man in the toils of a
cruel nightmare if it had not been for this countryside where he had been born
and had spent his happy boyish years. He knew it well—every slight rise crowned
with trees amongst the ploughed fields, every dell concealing a village. The
dammed streams made a chain of lakes set in the green meadows. Far away to the
north the great Lithuanian forest faced the sun, no higher than a hedge; and to
the south, the way to the plains, the vast brown spaces of the earth touched
the blue sky.
“And this familiar landscape
associated with the days without thought and without sorrow, this land the
charm of which he felt without even looking at it soothed his pain, like the
presence of an old friend who sits silent and disregarded by one in some dark
hour of life.
“One afternoon, it happened
that the Prince after turning his horse's head for home remarked a low dense
cloud of dark dust cutting off slantwise a part of the view. He reined in on a
knoll and peered. There were slender gleams of steel here and there in that
cloud, and it contained moving forms which revealed themselves at last as a
long line of peasant carts full of soldiers, moving slowly in double file under
the escort of mounted Cossacks.
“It was like an immense
reptile creeping over the fields; its head dipped out of sight in a slight
hollow and its tail went on writhing and growing shorter as though the monster
were eating its way slowly into the very heart of the land.
“The Prince directed his way
through a village lying a little off the track. The roadside inn with its
stable, byre, and barn under one enormous thatched roof resembled a deformed,
hunch-backed, ragged giant, sprawling amongst the small huts of the peasants.
The innkeeper, a portly, dignified Jew, clad in a black satin coat reaching
down to his heels and girt with a red sash, stood at the door stroking his long
silvery beard.
“He watched the Prince
approach and bowed gravely from the waist, not expecting to be noticed even,
since it was well known that their young lord had no eyes for anything or
anybody in his grief. It was quite a shock for him when the Prince pulled up
and asked:
“'What's all this, Yankel?'
“'That is, please your Serenity,
that is a convoy of footsoldiers they are hurrying down to the south.'
“He glanced right and left
cautiously, but as there was no one near but some children playing in the dust
of the village street, he came up close to the stirrup.
“'Doesn't your Serenity
know? It has begun already down there. All the landowners great and small are
out in arms and even the common people have risen. Only yesterday the saddler
from Grodek (it was a tiny market-town near by) went through here with his two
apprentices on his way to join. He left even his cart with me. I gave him a
guide through our neighbourhood. You know, your Serenity, our people they
travel a lot and they see all that's going on, and they know all the roads.'
“He tried to keep down his
excitement, for the Jew Yankel, innkeeper and tenant of all the mills on the
estate, was a Polish patriot. And in a still lower voice:
“'I was already a married
man when the French and all the other nations passed this way with Napoleon.
Tse! Tse! That was a great harvest for death, nu! Perhaps this
time God will help.'
“The Prince nodded.
'Perhaps'—and falling into deep meditation he let his horse take him home.
“That night he wrote a
letter, and early in the morning sent a mounted express to the post town.
During the day he came out of his taciturnity, to the great joy of the family
circle, and conversed with his father of recent events—the revolt in Warsaw,
the flight of the Grand Duke Constantine, the first slight successes of the
Polish army (at that time there was a Polish army); the risings in the
provinces. Old Prince John, moved and uneasy, speaking from a purely
aristocratic point of view, mistrusted the popular origins of the movement,
regretted its democratic tendencies, and did not believe in the possibility of
success. He was sad, inwardly agitated.
“'I am judging all this
calmly. There are secular principles of legitimity and order which have been
violated in this reckless enterprise for the sake of most subversive illusions.
Though of course the patriotic impulses of the heart....'
“Prince Roman had listened
in a thoughtful attitude. He took advantage of the pause to tell his father
quietly that he had sent that morning a letter to St. Petersburg resigning his
commission in the Guards.
“The old prince remained
silent. He thought that he ought to have been consulted. His son was also
ordnance officer to the Emperor and he knew that the Tsar would never forget
this appearance of defection in a Polish noble. In a discontented tone he
pointed out to his son that as it was he had an unlimited leave. The right
thing would have been to keep quiet. They had too much tact at Court to recall
a man of his name. Or at worst some distant mission might have been asked
for—to the Caucasus for instance—away from this unhappy struggle which was
wrong in principle and therefore destined to fail.
“'Presently you shall find
yourself without any interest in life and with no occupation. And you shall
need something to occupy you, my poor boy. You have acted rashly, I fear.'
“Prince Roman murmured.
“'I thought it better.'
“His father faltered under
his steady gaze.
“'Well, well—perhaps! But as
ordnance officer to the Emperor and in favour with all the Imperial family....'
“'Those people had never
been heard of when our house was already illustrious,' the young man let fall
disdainfully.
“This was the sort of remark
to which the old prince was sensible.
“'Well—perhaps it is
better,' he conceded at last.
“The father and son parted
affectionately for the night. The next day Prince Roman seemed to have fallen
back into the depths of his indifference. He rode out as usual. He remembered
that the day before he had seen a reptile-like convoy of soldiery, bristling
with bayonets, crawling over the face of that land which was his. The woman he loved
had been his, too. Death had robbed him of her. Her loss had been to him a
moral shock. It had opened his heart to a greater sorrow, his mind to a vaster
thought, his eyes to all the past and to the existence of another love fraught
with pain but as mysteriously imperative as that lost one to which he had
entrusted his happiness.
“That evening he retired
earlier than usual and rang for his personal servant.
“'Go and see if there is
light yet in the quarters of the Master-of-the-Horse. If he is still up ask him
to come and speak to me.'
“While the servant was
absent on this errand the Prince tore up hastily some papers, locked the
drawers of his desk, and hung a medallion, containing the miniature of his
wife, round his neck against his breast.
“The man the Prince was
expecting belonged to that past which the death of his love had called to life.
He was of a family of small nobles who for generations had been adherents,
servants, and friends of the Princes S————-. He remembered the times before the
last partition and had taken part in the struggles of the last hour. He was a
typical old Pole of that class, with a great capacity for emotion, for blind
enthusiasm; with martial instincts and simple beliefs; and even with the
old-time habit of larding his speech with Latin words. And his kindly shrewd
eyes, his ruddy face, his lofty brow and his thick, gray, pendent moustache
were also very typical of his kind.
“'Listen, Master Francis,'
the Prince said familiarly and without preliminaries. 'Listen, old friend. I am
going to vanish from here quietly. I go where something louder than my grief
and yet something with a voice very like it calls me. I confide in you alone.
You will say what's necessary when the time comes.'
“The old man understood. His
extended hands trembled exceedingly. But as soon as he found his voice he
thanked God aloud for letting him live long enough to see the descendant of the
illustrious family in its youngest generation give an example coram
Gentibus of the love of his country and of valour in the field. He
doubted not of his dear Prince attaining a place in council and in war worthy
of his high birth; he saw already that in fulgore of family
glory affulget patride serenitas. At the end of the speech he burst
into tears and fell into the Prince's arms.
“The Prince quieted the old
man and when he had him seated in an armchair and comparatively composed he
said:
“'Don't misunderstand me,
Master Francis. You know how I loved my wife. A loss like that opens one's eyes
to unsuspected truths. There is no question here of leadership and glory. I
mean to go alone and to fight obscurely in the ranks. I am going to offer my
country what is mine to offer, that is my life, as simply as the saddler from
Grodek who went through yesterday with his apprentices.'
“The old man cried out at
this. That could never be. He could not allow it. But he had to give way before
the arguments and the express will of the Prince. “'Ha! If you say that it is a
matter of feeling and conscience—so be it. But you cannot go utterly alone.
Alas! that I am too old to be of any use. Cripit verba dolor, my
dear Prince, at the thought that I am over seventy and of no more account in
the world than a cripple in the church porch. It seems that to sit at home and
pray to God for the nation and for you is all I am fit for. But there is my
son, my youngest son, Peter. He will make a worthy companion for you. And as it
happens he's staying with me here. There has not been for ages a Prince S————-
hazarding his life without a companion of our name to ride by his side. You
must have by you somebody who knows who you are if only to let your parents and
your old servant hear what is happening to you. And when does your Princely
Mightiness mean to start?'
“'In an hour,' said the
Prince; and the old man hurried off to warn his son.
“Prince Roman took up a
candlestick and walked quietly along a dark corridor in the silent house. The
head-nurse said afterwards that waking up suddenly she saw the Prince looking
at his child, one hand shading the light from its eyes. He stood and gazed at
her for some time, and then putting the candlestick on the floor bent over the
cot and kissed lightly the little girl who did not wake. He went out
noiselessly, taking the light away with him. She saw his face perfectly well,
but she could read nothing of his purpose in it. It was pale but perfectly calm
and after he turned away from the cot he never looked back at it once.
“The only other trusted
person, besides the old man and his son Peter, was the Jew Yankel. When he asked
the Prince where precisely he wanted to be guided the Prince answered: 'To the
nearest party.' A grandson of the Jew, a lanky youth, conducted the two young
men by little-known paths across woods and morasses, and led them in sight of
the few fires of a small detachment camped in a hollow. Some invisible horses
neighed, a voice in the dark cried: 'Who goes there?'... and the young Jew
departed hurriedly, explaining that he must make haste home to be in time for
keeping the Sabbath.
“Thus humbly and in accord
with the simplicity of the vision of duty he saw when death had removed the
brilliant bandage of happiness from his eyes, did Prince Roman bring his
offering to his country. His companion made himself known as the son of the
Master of-the-Horse to the Princes S————- and declared him to be a relation, a
distant cousin from the same parts as himself and, as people presumed, of the
same name. In truth no one inquired much. Two more young men clearly of the
right sort had joined. Nothing more natural.
“Prince Roman did not remain
long in the south. One day while scouting with several others, they were
ambushed near the entrance of a village by some Russian infantry. The first
discharge laid low a good many and the rest scattered in all directions. The Russians,
too, did not stay, being afraid of a return in force. After some time, the
peasants coming to view the scene extricated Prince Roman from under his dead
horse. He was unhurt but his faithful companion had been one of the first to
fall. The Prince helped the peasants to bury him and the other dead.
“Then alone, not certain
where to find the body of partizans which was constantly moving about in all
directions, he resolved to try and join the main Polish army facing the
Russians on the borders of Lithuania. Disguised in peasant clothes, in case of
meeting some marauding Cossacks, he wandered a couple of weeks before he came
upon a village occupied by a regiment of Polish cavalry on outpost duty.
“On a bench, before a
peasant hut of a better sort, sat an elderly officer whom he took for the
colonel. The Prince approached respectfully, told his story shortly and stated
his desire to enlist; and when asked his name by the officer, who had been
looking him over carefully, he gave on the spur of the moment the name of his
dead companion.
“The elderly officer thought
to himself: Here's the son of some peasant proprietor of the liberated class.
He liked his appearance.
“'And can you read and
write, my good fellow?' he asked.
“'Yes, your honour, I can,'
said the Prince.
“'Good. Come along inside
the hut; the regimental adjutant is there. He will enter your name and
administer the oath to you.'
“The adjutant stared very
hard at the newcomer but said nothing. When all the forms had been gone through
and the recruit gone out, he turned to his superior officer.
“'Do you know who that is?'
“'Who? That Peter? A likely
chap.'
“'That's Prince Roman
S————-.'
“'Nonsense.'
“But the adjutant was
positive. He had seen the Prince several times, about two years before, in the
Castle in Warsaw. He had even spoken to him once at a reception of officers
held by the Grand Duke.
“'He's changed. He seems
much older, but I am certain of my man. I have a good memory for faces.'
“The two officers looked at
each other in silence.
“'He's sure to be recognized
sooner or later,' murmured the adjutant. The colonel shrugged his shoulders.
“'It's no affair of ours—if
he has a fancy to serve in the ranks. As to being recognized it's not so
likely. All our officers and men come from the other end of Poland.'
“He meditated gravely for a
while, then smiled. 'He told me he could read and write. There's nothing to
prevent me making him a sergeant at the first opportunity. He's sure to shape
all right.'
“Prince Roman as a
non-commissioned officer surpassed the colonel's expectations. Before long
Sergeant Peter became famous for his resourcefulness and courage. It was not
the reckless courage of a desperate man; it was a self-possessed, as if
conscientious, valour which nothing could dismay; a boundless but equable
devotion, unaffected by time, by reverses, by the discouragement of endless
retreats, by the bitterness of waning hopes and the horrors of pestilence added
to the toils and perils of war. It was in this year that the cholera made its
first appearance in Europe. It devastated the camps of both armies, affecting
the firmest minds with the terror of a mysterious death stalking silently
between the piled-up arms and around the bivouac fires.
“A sudden shriek would wake
up the harassed soldiers and they would see in the glow of embers one of
themselves writhe on the ground like a worm trodden on by an invisible foot.
And before the dawn broke he would be stiff and cold. Parties so visited have
been known to rise like one man, abandon the fire and run off into the night in
mute panic. Or a comrade talking to you on the march would stammer suddenly in
the middle of a sentence, roll affrighted eyes, and fall down with distorted
face and blue lips, breaking the ranks with the convulsions of his agony. Men were
struck in the saddle, on sentry duty, in the firing line, carrying orders,
serving the guns. I have been told that in a battalion forming under fire with
perfect steadiness for the assault of a village, three cases occurred within
five minutes at the head of the column; and the attack could not be delivered
because the leading companies scattered all over the fields like chaff before
the wind.
“Sergeant Peter, young as he
was, had a great influence over his men. It was said that the number of
desertions in the squadron in which he served was less than in any other in the
whole of that cavalry division. Such was supposed to be the compelling example
of one man's quiet intrepidity in facing every form of danger and terror.
“However that may be, he was
liked and trusted generally. When the end came and the remnants of that army
corps, hard pressed on all sides, were preparing to cross the Prussian
frontier, Sergeant Peter had enough influence to rally round him a score of
troopers. He managed to escape with them at night, from the hemmed-in army. He
led this band through 200 miles of country covered by numerous Russian
detachments and ravaged by the cholera. But this was not to avoid captivity, to
go into hiding and try to save themselves. No. He led them into a fortress
which was still occupied by the Poles, and where the last stand of the
vanquished revolution was to be made.
“This looks like mere
fanaticism. But fanaticism is human. Man has adored ferocious divinities. There
is ferocity in every passion, even in love itself. The religion of undying hope
resembles the mad cult of despair, of death, of annihilation. The difference
lies in the moral motive springing from the secret needs and the unexpressed
aspiration of the believers. It is only to vain men that all is vanity; and all
is deception only to those who have never been sincere with themselves.
“It was in the fortress that
my grandfather found himself together with Sergeant Peter. My grandfather was a
neighbour of the S————- family in the country but he did not know Prince Roman,
who however knew his name perfectly well. The Prince introduced himself one
night as they both sat on the ramparts, leaning against a gun carriage.
“The service he wished to
ask for was, in case of his being killed, to have the intelligence conveyed to
his parents.
“They talked in low tones,
the other servants of the piece lying about near them. My grandfather gave the
required promise, and then asked frankly—for he was greatly interested by the
disclosure so unexpectedly made:
“But tell me, Prince, why
this request? Have you any evil forebodings as to yourself?'
“Not in the least; I was
thinking of my people. They have no idea where I am,' answered Prince Roman.
'I'll engage to do as much for you, if you like. It's certain that half of us
at least shall be killed before the end, so there's an even chance of one of us
surviving the other.'
“My grandfather told him
where, as he supposed, his wife and children were then. From that moment till
the end of the siege the two were much together. On the day of the great
assault my grandfather received a severe wound. The town was taken. Next day
the citadel itself, its hospital full of dead and dying, its magazines empty,
its defenders having burnt their last cartridge, opened its gates.
“During all the campaign the
Prince, exposing his person conscientiously on every occasion, had not received
a scratch. No one had recognized him or at any rate had betrayed his identity.
Till then, as long as he did his duty, it had mattered nothing who he was.
“Now, however, the position
was changed. As ex-guardsman and as late ordnance officer to the Emperor, this
rebel ran a serious risk of being given special attention in the shape of a
firing squad at ten paces. For more than a month he remained lost in the
miserable crowd of prisoners packed in the casemates of the citadel, with just
enough food to keep body and soul together but otherwise allowed to die from
wounds, privation, and disease at the rate of forty or so a day.
“The position of the fortress
being central, new parties, captured in the open in the course of a thorough
pacification, were being sent in frequently. Amongst such newcomers there
happened to be a young man, a personal friend of the Prince from his school
days. He recognized him, and in the extremity of his dismay cried aloud: 'My
God! Roman, you here!'
“It is said that years of
life embittered by remorse paid for this momentary lack of self-control. All
this happened in the main quadrangle of the citadel. The warning gesture of the
Prince came too late. An officer of the gendarmes on guard had heard the
exclamation. The incident appeared to him worth inquiring into. The
investigation which followed was not very arduous because the Prince, asked
categorically for his real name, owned up at once.
“The intelligence of the
Prince S————— being found amongst the prisoners was sent to St. Petersburg. His
parents were already there living in sorrow, incertitude, and apprehension. The
capital of the Empire was the safest place to reside in for a noble whose son
had disappeared so mysteriously from home in a time of rebellion. The old
people had not heard from him, or of him, for months. They took care not to
contradict the rumours of suicide from despair circulating in the great world,
which remembered the interesting love-match, the charming and frank happiness
brought to an end by death. But they hoped secretly that their son survived,
and that he had been able to cross the frontier with that part of the army
which had surrendered to the Prussians.
“The news of his captivity
was a crushing blow. Directly, nothing could be done for him. But the greatness
of their name, of their position, their wide relations and connections in the
highest spheres, enabled his parents to act indirectly and they moved heaven
and earth, as the saying is, to save their son from the 'consequences of his
madness,' as poor Prince John did not hesitate to express himself. Great
personages were approached by society leaders, high dignitaries were
interviewed, powerful officials were induced to take an interest in that
affair. The help of every possible secret influence was enlisted. Some private
secretaries got heavy bribes. The mistress of a certain senator obtained a
large sum of money.
“But, as I have said, in
such a glaring case no direct appeal could be made and no open steps taken. All
that could be done was to incline by private representation the mind of the
President of the Military Commission to the side of clemency. He ended by being
impressed by the hints and suggestions, some of them from very high quarters,
which he received from St. Petersburg. And, after all, the gratitude of such
great nobles as the Princes S———— was something worth having from a worldly
point of view. He was a good Russian but he was also a good-natured man.
Moreover, the hate of Poles was not at that time a cardinal article of
patriotic creed as it became some thirty years later. He felt well disposed at
first sight towards that young man, bronzed, thin-faced, worn out by months of
hard campaigning, the hardships of the siege and the rigours of captivity.
“The Commission was composed
of three officers. It sat in the citadel in a bare vaulted room behind a long
black table. Some clerks occupied the two ends, and besides the gendarmes who
brought in the Prince there was no one else there.
“Within those four sinister
walls shutting out from him all the sights and sounds of liberty, all hopes of
the future, all consoling illusions—alone in the face of his enemies erected
for judges, who can tell how much love of life there was in Prince Roman? How
much remained in that sense of duty, revealed to him in sorrow? How much of his
awakened love for his native country? That country which demands to be loved as
no other country has ever been loved, with the mournful affection one bears to
the unforgotten dead and with the unextinguishable fire of a hopeless passion
which only a living, breathing, warm ideal can kindle in our breasts for our
pride, for our weariness, for our exultation, for our undoing.
“There is something
monstrous in the thought of such an exaction till it stands before us embodied
in the shape of a fidelity without fear and without reproach. Nearing the
supreme moment of his life the Prince could only have had the feeling that it
was about to end. He answered the questions put to him clearly, concisely—with
the most profound indifference. After all those tense months of action, to talk
was a weariness to him. But he concealed it, lest his foes should suspect in
his manner the apathy of discouragement or the numbness of a crushed spirit.
The details of his conduct could have no importance one way or another; with
his thoughts these men had nothing to do. He preserved a scrupulously courteous
tone. He had refused the permission to sit down.
“What happened at this
preliminary examination is only known from the presiding officer. Pursuing the
only possible course in that glaringly bad case he tried from the first to
bring to the Prince's mind the line of defence he wished him to take. He absolutely
framed his questions so as to put the right answers in the culprit's mouth,
going so far as to suggest the very words: how, distracted by excessive grief
after his young wife's death, rendered irresponsible for his conduct by his
despair, in a moment of blind recklessness, without realizing the highly
reprehensible nature of the act, nor yet its danger and its dishonour, he went
off to join the nearest rebels on a sudden impulse. And that now, penitently...
“But Prince Roman was
silent. The military judges looked at him hopefully. In silence he reached for
a pen and wrote on a sheet of paper he found under his hand: 'I joined the
national rising from conviction.'
“He pushed the paper across
the table. The president took it up, showed it in turn to his two colleagues
sitting to the right and left, then looking fixedly at Prince Roman let it fall
from his hand. And the silence remained unbroken till he spoke to the gendarmes
ordering them to remove the prisoner.
“Such was the written
testimony of Prince Roman in the supreme moment of his life. I have heard that
the Princes of the S————- family, in all its branches, adopted the last two
words: 'From conviction' for the device under the armorial bearings of their
house. I don't know whether the report is true. My uncle could not tell me. He
remarked only, that naturally, it was not to be seen on Prince Roman's own
seal.
“He was condemned for life
to Siberian mines. Emperor Nicholas, who always took personal cognizance of all
sentences on Polish nobility, wrote with his own hand in the margin: 'The
authorities are severely warned to take care that this convict walks in chains
like any other criminal every step of the way.'
“It was a sentence of
deferred death. Very few survived entombment in these mines for more than three
years. Yet as he was reported as still alive at the end of that time he was
allowed, on a petition of his parents and by way of exceptional grace, to serve
as common soldier in the Caucasus. All communication with him was forbidden. He
had no civil rights. For all practical purposes except that of suffering he was
a dead man. The little child he had been so careful not to wake up when he
kissed her in her cot, inherited all the fortune after Prince John's death. Her
existence saved those immense estates from confiscation.
“It was twenty-five years
before Prince Roman, stone deaf, his health broken, was permitted to return to
Poland. His daughter married splendidly to a Polish Austrian grand
seigneur and, moving in the cosmopolitan sphere of the highest
European aristocracy, lived mostly abroad in Nice and Vienna. He, settling down
on one of her estates, not the one with the palatial residence but another
where there was a modest little house, saw very little of her.
“But Prince Roman did not
shut himself up as if his work were done. There was hardly anything done in the
private and public life of the neighbourhood, in which Prince Roman's advice
and assistance were not called upon, and never in vain. It was well said that
his days did not belong to himself but to his fellow citizens. And especially
he was the particular friend of all returned exiles, helping them with purse
and advice, arranging their affairs and finding them means of livelihood.
“I heard from my uncle many
tales of his devoted activity, in which he was always guided by a simple
wisdom, a high sense of honour, and the most scrupulous conception of private
and public probity. He remains a living figure for me because of that meeting
in a billiard room, when, in my anxiety to hear about a particularly wolfish
wolf, I came in momentary contact with a man who was preeminently a man amongst
all men capable of feeling deeply, of believing steadily, of loving ardently.
“I remember to this day the
grasp of Prince Roman's bony, wrinkled hand closing on my small inky paw, and
my uncle's half-serious, half-amused way of looking down at his trespassing
nephew.
“They moved on and forgot
that little boy. But I did not move; I gazed after them, not so much
disappointed as disconcerted by this prince so utterly unlike a prince in a
fairy tale. They moved very slowly across the room. Before reaching the other
door the Prince stopped, and I heard him—I seem to hear him now—saying: 'I wish
you would write to Vienna about filling up that post. He's a most deserving
fellow—and your recommendation would be decisive.'
“My uncle's face turned to
him expressed genuine wonder. It said as plainly as any speech could say: What
better recommendation than a father's can be needed? The Prince was quick at
reading expressions. Again he spoke with the toneless accent of a man who has
not heard his own voice for years, for whom the soundless world is like an
abode of silent shades.
“And to this day I remember
the very words: 'I ask you because, you see, my daughter and my son-in-law
don't believe me to be a good judge of men. They think that I let myself be
guided too much by mere sentiment.'”
3.THE TALE (1917)
Outside the large single window the crepuscular light was dying
out slowly in a great square gleam without colour, framed rigidly in the
gathering shades of the room.
It was a long room. The
irresistible tide of the night ran into the most distant part of it, where the
whispering of a man's voice, passionately interrupted and passionately renewed,
seemed to plead against the answering murmurs of infinite sadness.
At last no answering murmur
came. His movement when he rose slowly from his knees by the side of the deep,
shadowy couch holding the shadowy suggestion of a reclining woman revealed him
tall under the low ceiling, and sombre all over except for the crude discord of
the white collar under the shape of his head and the faint, minute spark of a
brass button here and there on his uniform.
He stood over her a moment,
masculine and mysterious in his immobility, before he sat down on a chair near
by. He could see only the faint oval of her upturned face and, extended on her
black dress, her pale hands, a moment before abandoned to his kisses and now as
if too weary to move.
He dared not make a sound,
shrinking as a man would do from the prosaic necessities of existence. As
usual, it was the woman who had the courage. Her voice was heard first—almost
conventional while her being vibrated yet with conflicting emotions.
“Tell me something,” she
said.
The darkness hid his
surprise and then his smile. Had he not just said to her everything worth
saying in the world—and that not for the first time!
“What am I to tell you?” he
asked, in a voice creditably steady. He was beginning to feel grateful to her
for that something final in her tone which had eased the strain.
“Why not tell me a tale?”
“A tale!” He was really
amazed.
“Yes. Why not?”
These words came with a
slight petulance, the hint of a loved woman's capricious will, which is
capricious only because it feels itself to to be a law, embarrassing sometimes
and always difficult to elude.
“Why not?” he repeated, with
a slightly mocking accent, as though he had been asked to give her the moon.
But now he was feeling a little angry with her for that feminine mobility that
slips out of an emotion as easily as out of a splendid gown.
He heard her say, a little
unsteadily with a sort of fluttering intonation which made him think suddenly
of a butterfly's flight:
“You used to tell—your—your
simple and—and professional—tales very well at one time. Or well enough to
interest me. You had a—a sort of art—in the days—the days before the war.”
“Really?” he said, with
involuntary gloom. “But now, you see, the war is going on,” he continued in
such a dead, equable tone that she felt a slight chill fall over her shoulders.
And yet she persisted. For there's nothing more unswerving in the world than a
woman's caprice.
“It could be a tale not of
this world,” she explained.
“You want a tale of the
other, the better world?” he asked, with a matter-of-fact surprise. “You must
evoke for that task those who have already gone there.”
“No. I don't mean that. I
mean another—some other—world. In the universe—not in heaven.”
“I am relieved. But you
forget that I have only five days' leave.”
“Yes. And I've also taken a
five days' leave from—from my duties.”
“I like that word.”
“What word?”
“Duty.”
“It is horrible—sometimes.”
“Oh, that's because you
think it's narrow. But it isn't. It contains infinities, and—and so———”
“What is this jargon?”
He disregarded the
interjected scorn. “An infinity of absolution, for instance,” he continued.
“But as to this another world'—who's going to look for it and for the tale that
is in it?”
“You,” she said, with a
strange, almost rough, sweetness of assertion.
He made a shadowy movement
of assent in his chair, the irony of which not even the gathered darkness could
render mysterious.
“As you will. In that world,
then, there was once upon a time a Commanding Officer and a Northman. Put in
the capitals, please, because they had no other names. It was a world of seas
and continents and islands———”
“Like the earth,” she
murmured, bitterly.
“Yes. What else could you
expect from sending a man made of our common, tormented clay on a voyage of
discovery? What else could he find? What else could you understand or care for,
or feel the existence of even? There was comedy in it, and slaughter.”
“Always like the earth,” she
murmured. “Always. And since I could find in the universe only what was deeply
rooted in the fibres of my being there was love in it, too. But we won't talk
of that.”
“No. We won't,” she said, in
a neutral tone which concealed perfectly her relief—or her disappointment. Then
after a pause she added: “It's going to be a comic story.”
“Well———” he paused, too.
“Yes. In a way. In a very grim way. It will be human, and, as you know, comedy
is but a matter of the visual angle. And it won't be a noisy story. All the
long guns in it will be dumb—as dumb as so many telescopes.”
“Ah, there are guns in it,
then! And may I ask—where?”
“Afloat. You remember that
the world of which we speak had its seas. A war was going on in it. It was a
funny work! and terribly in earnest. Its war was being carried on over the
land, over the water, under the water, up in the air, and even under the ground.
And many young men in it, mostly in wardrooms and mess-rooms, used to say to
each other—pardon the unparliamentary word—they used to say, 'It's a damned bad
war, but it's better than no war at all.' Sounds flippant, doesn't it.”
He heard a nervous, impatient
sigh in the depths of the couch while he went on without a pause.
“And yet there is more in it
than meets the eye. I mean more wisdom. Flippancy, like comedy, is but a matter
of visual first impression. That world was not very wise. But there was in it a
certain amount of common working sagacity. That, however, was mostly worked by
the neutrals in diverse ways, public and private, which had to be watched;
watched by acute minds and also by actual sharp eyes. They had to be very sharp
indeed, too, I assure you.”
“I can imagine,” she
murmured, appreciatively.
“What is there that you
can't imagine?” he pronounced, soberly. “You have the world in you. But let us
go back to our commanding officer, who, of course, commanded a ship of a sort.
My tales if often professional (as you remarked just now) have never been
technical. So I'll just tell you that the ship was of a very ornamental sort
once, with lots of grace and elegance and luxury about her. Yes, once! She was
like a pretty woman who had suddenly put on a suit of sackcloth and stuck
revolvers in her belt. But she floated lightly, she moved nimbly, she was quite
good enough.”
“That was the opinion of the
commanding officer?” said the voice from the couch.
“It was. He used to be sent
out with her along certain coasts to see—what he could see. Just that. And
sometimes he had some preliminary information to help him, and sometimes he had
not. And it was all one, really. It was about as useful as information trying
to convey the locality and intentions of a cloud, of a phantom taking shape
here and there and impossible to seize, would have been.
“It was in the early days of
the war. What at first used to amaze the commanding officer was the unchanged
face of the waters, with its familiar expression, neither more friendly nor
more hostile. On fine days the sun strikes sparks upon the blue; here and there
a peaceful smudge of smoke hangs in the distance, and it is impossible to
believe that the familiar clear horizon traces the limit of one great circular
ambush.
“Yes, it is impossible to
believe, till some day you see a ship not your own ship (that isn't so
impressive), but some ship in company, blow up all of a sudden and plop under
almost before you know what has happened to her. Then you begin to believe. Henceforth
you go out for the work to see—what you can see, and you keep on at it with the
conviction that some day you will die from something you have not seen. One
envies the soldiers at the end of the day, wiping the sweat and blood from
their faces, counting the dead fallen to their hands, looking at the devastated
fields, the torn earth that seems to suffer and bleed with them. One does,
really. The final brutality of it—the taste of primitive passion—the ferocious
frankness of the blow struck with one's hand—the direct call and the straight
response. Well, the sea gave you nothing of that, and seemed to pretend that
there was nothing the matter with the world.”
She interrupted, stirring a
little.
“Oh, yes.
Sincerity—frankness—passion—three words of your gospel. Don't I know them!”
“Think! Isn't it
ours—believed in common?” he asked, anxiously, yet without expecting an answer,
and went on at once: “Such were the feelings of the commanding officer. When
the night came trailing over the sea, hiding what looked like the hypocrisy of
an old friend, it was a relief. The night blinds you frankly—and there are
circumstances when the sunlight may grow as odious to one as falsehood itself.
Night is all right.
“At night the commanding
officer could let his thoughts get away—I won't tell you where. Somewhere where
there was no choice but between truth and death. But thick weather, though it
blinded one, brought no such relief. Mist is deceitful, the dead luminosity of
the fog is irritating. It seems that you ought to see.
“One gloomy, nasty day the
ship was steaming along her beat in sight of a rocky, dangerous coast that
stood out intensely black like an India-ink drawing on gray paper. Presently
the second in command spoke to his chief. He thought he saw something on the
water, to seaward. Small wreckage, perhaps.
“'But there shouldn't be any
wreckage here, sir,' he remarked.
“'No,' said the commanding
officer. 'The last reported submarined ships were sunk a long way to the
westward. But one never knows. There may have been others since then not
reported nor seen. Gone with all hands.'
“That was how it began. The
ship's course was altered to pass the object close; for it was necessary to
have a good look at what one could see. Close, but without touching; for it was
not advisable to come in contact with objects of any form whatever floating
casually about. Close, but without stopping or even diminishing speed; for in
those times it was not prudent to linger on any particular spot, even for a
moment. I may tell you at once that the object was not dangerous in itself. No
use in describing it. It may have been nothing more remarkable than, say, a
barrel of a certain shape and colour. But it was significant.
“The smooth bow-wave hove it
up as if for a closer inspection, and then the ship, brought again to her
course, turned her back on it with indifference, while twenty pairs of eyes on
her deck stared in all directions trying to see—what they could see.
“The commanding officer and
his second in command discussed the object with understanding. It appeared to
them to be not so much a proof of the sagacity as of the activity of certain
neutrals. This activity had in many cases taken the form of replenishing the
stores of certain submarines at sea. This was generally believed, if not
absolutely known. But the very nature of things in those early days pointed
that way. The object, looked at closely and turned away from with apparent
indifference, put it beyond doubt that something of the sort had been done
somewhere in the neighbourhood.
“The object in itself was
more than suspect. But the fact of its being left in evidence roused other
suspicions. Was it the result of some deep and devilish purpose? As to that all
speculation soon appeared to be a vain thing. Finally the two officers came to
the conclusion that it wras left there most likely by accident, complicated
possibly by some unforeseen necessity; such, perhaps, as the sudden need to get
away quickly from the spot, or something of that kind.
“Their discussion had been
carried on in curt, weighty phrases, separated by long, thoughtful silences.
And all the time their eyes roamed about the horizon in an everlasting, almost
mechanical effort of vigilance. The younger man summed up grimly:
“'Well, it's evidence.
That's what this is. Evidence of what we were pretty certain of before. And
plain, too.'
“'And much good it will do
to us,' retorted the commanding officer. 'The parties are miles away; the
submarine, devil only knows where, ready to kill; and the noble neutral
slipping away to the eastward, ready to lie!'
“The second in command
laughed a little at the tone. But he guessed that the neutral wouldn't even
have to lie very much. Fellows like that, unless caught in the very act, felt
themselves pretty safe. They could afford to chuckle. That fellow was probably
chuckling to himself. It's very possible he had been before at the game and
didn't care a rap for the bit of evidence left behind. It was a game in which
practice made one bold and successful, too.
“And again he laughed faintly.
But his commanding officer was in revolt against the murderous stealthiness of
methods and the atrocious callousness of complicities that seemed to taint the
very source of men's deep emotions and noblest activities; to corrupt their
imagination which builds up the final conceptions of life and death. He
suffered———-”
The voice from the sofa
interrupted the narrator.
“How well I can understand
that in him!”
He bent forward slightly.
“Yes. I, too. Everything
should be open in love and war. Open as the day, since both are the call of an
ideal which it is so easy, so terribly easy, to degrade in the name of
Victory.”
He paused; then went on: I
don't know that the commanding officer delved so deep as that into his
feelings. But he did suffer from them—a sort of disenchanted sadness. It is
possible, even, that he suspected himself of folly. Man is various. But he had
no time for much introspection, because from the southwest a wall of fog had
advanced upon his ship. Great convolutions of vapours flew over, swirling about
masts and funnel, which looked as if they were beginning to melt. Then they
vanished.
“The ship was stopped, all
sounds ceased, and the very fog became motionless, growing denser and as if
solid in its amazing dumb immobility. The men at their stations lost sight of
each other. Footsteps sounded stealthy; rare voices, impersonal and remote,
died out without resonance. A blind white stillness took possession of the
world.
“It looked, too, as if it
would last for days. I don't mean to say that the fog did not vary a little in
its density. Now and then it would thin out mysteriously, revealing to the men
a more or less ghostly presentment of their ship. Several times the shadow of
the coast itself swam darkly before their eyes through the fluctuating opaque
brightness of the great white cloud clinging to the water.
“Taking advantage of these
moments, the ship had been moved cautiously nearer the shore. It was useless to
remain out in such thick weather. Her officers knew every nook and cranny of
the coast along their beat. They thought that she would be much better in a
certain cove. It wasn't a large place, just ample room for a ship to swing at
her anchor. She would have an easier time of it till the fog lifted up.
“Slowly, with infinite
caution and patience, they crept closer and closer, seeing no more of the
cliffs than an evanescent dark loom with a narrow border of angry foam at its
foot. At the moment of anchoring the fog was so thick that for all they could
see they might have been a thousand miles out in the open sea. Yet the shelter
of the land could be felt. There was a peculiar quality in the stillness of the
air. Very faint, very elusive, the wash of the ripple against the encircling
land reached their ears, with mysterious sudden pauses.
“The anchor dropped, the
leads were laid in. The commanding officer went below into his cabin. But he
had not been there very long when a voice outside his door requested his
presence on deck. He thought to himself: 'What is it now?' He felt some impatience
at being called out again to face the wearisome fog.
“He found that it had
thinned again a little and had taken on a gloomy hue from the dark cliffs which
had no form, no outline, but asserted themselves as a curtain of shadows all
round the ship, except in one bright spot, which was the entrance from the open
sea. Several officers were looking that way from the bridge. The second in
command met him with the breathlessly whispered information that there was
another ship in the cove.
“She had been made out by
several pairs of eyes only a couple of minutes before. She was lying at anchor
very near the entrance—a mere vague blot on the fog's brightness. And the
commanding officer by staring in the direction pointed out to him by eager
hands ended by distinguishing it at last himself. Indubitably a vessel of some
sort.
“'It's a wonder we didn't
run slap into her when coming in,' observed the second in command.
“'Send a boat on board
before she vanishes,' said the commanding officer. He surmised that this was a
coaster. It could hardly be anything else. But another thought came into his
head suddenly. 'It is a wonder,' he said to his second in command, who had
rejoined him after sending the boat away.
“By that time both of them
had been struck by the fact that the ship so suddenly discovered had not
manifested her presence by ringing her bell.
“'We came in very quietly,
that's true,' concluded the younger officer. 'But they must have heard our
leadsmen at least. We couldn't have passed her more than fifty yards off. The
closest shave! They may even have made us out, since they were aware of
something coming in. And the strange thing is that we never heard a sound from
her. The fellows on board must have been holding their breath.'
“'Aye,' said the commanding
officer, thoughtfully.
“In due course the
boarding-boat returned, appearing suddenly alongside, as though she had
burrowed her way under the fog. The officer in charge came up to make his
report, but the commanding officer didn't give him time to begin. He cried from
a distance:
“'Coaster, isn't she?'
“'No, sir. A stranger—a
neutral,' was the answer.
“'No. Really! Well, tell us
all about it. What is she doing here?'
“The young man stated then
that he had been told a long and complicated story of engine troubles. But it
was plausible enough from a strictly professional point of view and it had the
usual features: disablement, dangerous drifting along the shore, weather more
or less thick for days, fear of a gale, ultimately a resolve to go in and
anchor anywhere on the coast, and so on. Fairly plausible.
“'Engines still disabled?'
inquired the commanding officer.
“'No, sir. She has steam on
them.'
“The commanding officer took
his second aside. 'By Jove!' he said, 'you were right! They were holding their
breaths as we passed them. They were.'
“But the second in command
had his doubts now.
“'A fog like this does
muffle small sounds, sir,' he remarked. 'And what could his object be, after
all?'
“'To sneak out unnoticed,'
answered the commanding officer.
“'Then why didn't he? He
might have done it, you know. Not exactly unnoticed, perhaps. I don't suppose
he could have slipped his cable without making some noise. Still, in a minute
or so he would have been lost to view—clean gone before we had made him out
fairly. Yet he didn't.'
“They looked at each other.
The commanding officer shook his head. Such suspicions as the one which had
entered his head are not defended easily. He did not even state it openly. The
boarding officer finished his report. The cargo of the ship was of a harmless
and useful character. She was bound to an English port. Papers and everything
in perfect order. Nothing suspicious to be detected anywhere.
“Then passing to the men, he
reported the crew on deck as the usual lot. Engineers of the well-known type,
and very full of their achievement in repairing the engines. The mate surly.
The master rather a fine specimen of a Northman, civil enough, but appeared to
have been drinking. Seemed to be recover-ing from a regular bout of it.
“'I told him I couldn't give
him permission to proceed. He said he wouldn't dare to move his ship her own
length out in such weather as this, permission or no permission. I left a man
on board, though.'
“'Quite right.'
“The commanding officer,
after communing with his suspicions for a time, called his second aside.
“'What if she were the very
ship which had been feeding some infernal submarine or other?' he said in an
undertone.
“The other started. Then,
with conviction:
“'She would get off
scot-free. You couldn't prove it, sir.'
“'I want to look into it
myself.'
“'From the report we've
heard I am afraid you couldn't even make a case for reasonable suspicion, sir.'
“'I'll go on board all the
same.'
“He had made up his mind.
Curiosity is the great motive power of hatred and love. What did he expect to
find? He could not have told anybody—not even himself.
“What he really expected to
find there was the atmosphere, the atmosphere of gratuitous treachery, which in
his view nothing could excuse; for he thought that even a passion of
unrighteousness for its own sake could not excuse that. But could he detect it?
Sniff it? Taste it? Receive some mysterious communication which would turn his
invincible suspicions into a certitude strong enough to provoke action with all
its risks?
“The master met him on the
after-deck, looming up in the fog amongst the blurred shapes of the usual
snip's fittings. He was a robust Northman, bearded, and in the force of his
age. A round leather cap fitted his head closely. His hands were rammed deep
into the pockets of his short leather jacket. He kept them there while lie
explained that at sea he lived in the chart-room, and led the way there,
striding carelessly. Just before reaching the door under the bridge he
staggered a little, recovered himself, flung it open, and stood aside, leaning
his shoulder as if involuntarily against the side of the house, and staring
vaguely into the fog-filled space. But he followed the commanding officer at
once, flung the door to, snapped on the electric light, and hastened to thrust
his hands back into his pockets, as though afraid of being seized by them
either in friendship or in hostility.
“The place was stuffy and
hot. The usual chart-rack overhead was full, and the chart on the table was
kept unrolled by an empty cup standing on a saucer half-full of some spilt dark
liquid. A slightly nibbled biscuit reposed on the chronometer-case. There were
two settees, and one of them had been made up into a bed with a pillow and some
blankets, which were now very much tumbled. The Northman let himself fall on
it, his hands still in his pockets.
“'Well, here I am,' he said,
with a curious air of being surprised at the sound of his own voice.
“The commanding officer from
the other settee observed the handsome, flushed face. Drops of fog hung on the
yellow beard and moustaches of the Northman. The much darker eyebrows ran
together in a puzzled frown, and suddenly he jumped up.
“'What I mean is that I
don't know where I am. I really don't,' he burst out, with extreme earnestness.
'Hang it all! I got turned around somehow. The fog has been after me for a
week. More than a week. And then my engines broke down. I will tell you how it
was.'
“He burst out into
loquacity. It was not hurried, but it was insistent. It was not continuous for
all that. It was broken by the most queer, thoughtful pauses. Each of these
pauses lasted no more than a couple of seconds, and each had the profoundity of
an endless meditation. When he began again nothing betrayed in him the
slightest consciousness of these intervals. There was the same fixed glance,
the same unchanged earnestness of tone. He didn't know. Indeed, more than one
of these pauses occurred in the middle of a sentence.
“The commanding officer
listened to the tale. It struck him as more plausible than simple truth is in
the habit of being. But that, perhaps, was prejudice. All the time the Northman
was speaking the commanding officer had been aware of an inward voice, a grave
murmur in the depth of his very own self, telling another tale, as if on purpose
to keep alive in him his indignation and his anger with that baseness of greed
or of mere outlook which lies often at the root of simple ideas.
“It was the story that had
been already told to the boarding officer an hour or so before. The commanding
officer nodded slightly at the Northman from time to time. The latter came to
an end and turned his eyes away. He added, as an afterthought:
“'Wasn't it enough to drive
a man out of his mind with worry? And it's my first voyage to this part, too.
And the ship's my own. Your officer has seen the papers. She isn't much, as you
can see for yourself. Just an old cargo-boat. Bare living for my family.'
“He raised a big arm to
point at a row of photographs plastering the bulkhead. The movement was
ponderous, as if the arm had been made of lead. The commanding officer said,
carelessly:
“'You will be making a
fortune yet for your family with this old ship.'
“'Yes, if I don't lose her,'
said the Northman, gloomily.
“'I mean—out of this war,'
added the commanding officer.
“The Northman stared at him
in a curiously unseeing and at the same time interested manner, as only eyes of
a particular blue shade can stare.
“'And you wouldn't be angry
at it,' he said, 'would you? You are too much of a gentleman. We didn't bring
this on you. And suppose we sat down and cried. What good would that be? Let
those cry who made the trouble,' he concluded, with energy. 'Time's money, you
say. Well—this time is money. Oh! isn't it!'
“The commanding officer
tried to keep under the feeling of immense disgust. He said to himself that it
was unreasonable. Men were like that—moral cannibals feeding on each other's
misfortunes. He said aloud:
“'You have made it perfectly
plain how it is that you are here. Your log-book confirms you very minutely. Of
course, a log-book may be cooked. Nothing easier.'
“The Northman never moved a
muscle. He was gazing at the floor; he seemed not to have heard. He raised his
head after a while.
“'But you can't suspect me
of anything,' he muttered, negligently.
“The commanding officer
thought: 'Why should he say this?'
“Immediately afterwards the
man before him added: 'My cargo is for an English port.'
“His voice had turned husky
for the moment. The commanding officer reflected: 'That's true. There can be
nothing. I can't suspect him. Yet why was he lying with steam up in this
fog—and then, hearing us come in, why didn't he give some sign of life? Why?
Could it be anything else but a guilty conscience? He could tell by the
leadsmen that this was a man-of-war.'
“Yes—why? The commanding
officer went on thinking: 'Suppose I ask him and then watch his face. He will
betray himself in some way. It's perfectly plain that the fellow has been
drinking. Yes, he has been drinking; but he will have a lie ready all the
same.' The commanding officer was one of those men who are made morally and
almost physically uncomfortable by the mere thought of having to beat down a
lie. He shrank from the act in scorn and disgust, which were invincible because
more temperamental than moral.
“So he went out on deck
instead and had the crew mustered formally for his inspection. He found them
very much what the report of the boarding officer had led him to expect. And
from their answers to his questions he could discover no flaw in the log-book
story.
“He dismissed them. His
impression of them was—a picked lot; have been promised a fistful of money each
if this came off; all slightly anxious, but not frightened. Not a single one of
them likely to give the show away. They don't feel in danger of their life.
They know England and English ways too well!
“He felt alarmed at catching
himself thinking as if his vaguest suspicions were turning into a certitude.
For, indeed, there was no shadow of reason for his inferences. There was
nothing to give away.
“He returned to the
chart-room. The Northman had lingered behind there; and something subtly
different in his bearing, more bold in his blue, glassy stare, induced the
commanding officer to conclude that the fellow had snatched at the opportunity
to take another swig at the bottle he must have had concealed somewhere.
“He noticed, too, that the
Northman on meeting his eyes put on an elaborately surprised expression. At
least, it seemed elaborated. Nothing could be trusted. And the Englishman felt
himself with astonishing conviction faced by an enormous lie, solid like a
wall, with no way round to get at the truth, whose ugly murderous face he
seemed to see peeping over at him with a cynical grin.
“'I dare say,' he began,
suddenly, 'you are wondering at my proceedings, though I am not detaining you,
am I? You wouldn't dare to move in this fog?'
“'I don't know where I am,'
the Northman ejaculated, earnestly. 'I really don't.'
“He looked around as if the
very chart-room fittings were strange to him. The commanding officer asked him
whether he had not seen any unusual objects floating about while he was at sea.
“'Objects! What objects? We
were groping blind in the fog for days.'
“'We had a few clear
intervals' said the commanding officer. 'And I'll tell you what we have seen
and the conclusion I've come to about it.'
“He told him in a few words.
He heard the sound of a sharp breath indrawn through closed teeth. The Northman
with his hand on the table stood absolutely motionless and dumb. He stood as if
thunderstruck. Then he produced a fatuous smile.
“Or at least so it appeared
to the commanding officer. Was this significant, or of no meaning whatever? He
didn't know, he couldn't tell. All the truth had departed out of the world as
if drawn in, absorbed in this monstrous villainy this man was—or was not—guilty
of.
“'Shooting's too good for
people that conceive neutrality in this pretty way,' remarked the commanding
officer, after a silence.
“'Yes, yes, yes,' the
Northman assented, hurriedly—then added an unexpected and dreamy-voiced
'Perhaps.'
“Was he pretending to be
drunk, or only trying to appear sober? His glance was straight, but it was
somewhat glazed. His lips outlined themselves firmly under his yellow
moustache. But they twitched. Did they twitch? And why was he drooping like
this in his attitude?
“'There's no perhaps about
it,' pronounced the commanding officer sternly.
“The Northman had
straightened himself. And unexpectedly he looked stern, too.
“'No. But what about the
tempters? Better kill that lot off. There's about four, five, six million of
them,' he said, grimly; but in a moment changed into a whining key. 'But I had
better hold my tongue. You have some suspicions.'
“'No, I've no suspicions,'
declared the commanding officer.
“He never faltered. At that
moment he had the certitude. The air of the chart-room was thick with guilt and
falsehood braving the discovery, defying simple right, common decency, all
humanity of feeling, every scruple of conduct.
“The Northman drew a long
breath. 'Well, we know that you English are gentlemen. But let us speak the
truth. Why should we love you so very much? You haven't done anything to be
loved. We don't love the other people, of course. They haven't done anything
for that either. A fellow comes along with a bag of gold... I haven't been in
Rotterdam my last voyage for nothing.'
“'You may be able to tell
something interesting, then, to our people when you come into port,'
interjected the officer.
“I might. But you keep some
people in your pay at Rotterdam. Let them report. I am a neutral—am I not?...
Have you ever seen a poor man on one side and a bag of gold on the other? Of
course, I couldn't be tempted. I haven't the nerve for it. Really I haven't.
It's nothing to me. I am just talking openly for once.'
“'Yes. And I am listening to
you,' said the commanding officer, quietly.
“The Northman leaned forward
over the table. 'Now that I know you have no suspicions, I talk. You don't know
what a poor man is. I do. I am poor myself. This old ship, she isn't much, and
she is mortgaged, too. Bare living, no more. Of course, I wouldn't have the
nerve. But a man who has nerve! See. The stuff he takes aboard looks like any
other cargo—packages, barrels, tins, copper tubes—what not. He doesn't see it
work. It isn't real to him. But he sees the gold. That's real. Of course,
nothing could induce me. I suffer from an internal disease. I would either go
crazy from anxiety—or—or—take to drink or something. The risk is too great.
Why—ruin!'
“'It should be death.' The
commanding officer got up, after this curt declaration, which the other
received with a hard stare oddly combined with an uncertain smile. The
officer's gorge rose at the atmosphere of murderous complicity which surrounded
him, denser, more impenetrable, more acrid than the fog outside.
“'It's nothing to me,'
murmured the Northman, swaying visibly.
“'Of course not,' assented
the commanding officer, with a great effort to keep his voice calm and low. The
certitude was strong within him. 'But I am going to clear all you fellows off
this coast at once. And I will begin with you. You must leave in half an hour.'
“By that time the officer
was walking along the deck with the Northman at his elbow.
“'What! In this fog?' the
latter cried out, huskily.
“'Yes, you will have to go
in this fog.'
“'But I don't know where I
am. I really don't.'
“The commanding officer
turned round. A sort of fury possessed him. The eyes of the two men met. Those
of the Northman expressed a profound amazement.
“'Oh, you don't know how to
get out.' The commanding officer spoke with composure, but his heart was
beating with anger and dread. 'I will give you your course. Steer
south-by-east-half-east for about four miles and then you will be clear to haul
to the eastward for your port. The weather will clear up before very long.'
“'Must I? What could induce
me? I haven't the nerve.'
“'And yet you must go.
Unless you want to———'
“'I don't want to,' panted
the Northman. 'I've enough of it.'
“The commanding officer got
over the side. The Northman remained still as if rooted to the deck. Before his
boat reached his ship the commanding officer heard the steamer beginning to
pick up her anchor. Then, shadowy in the fog, she steamed out on the given
course.
“'Yes,' he said to his
officers, 'I let him go.'”
The narrator bent forward
towards the couch, where no movement betrayed the presence of a living person.
“Listen,” he said, forcibly.
“That course would lead the Northman straight on a deadly ledge of rock. And
the commanding officer gave it to him. He steamed out—ran on it—and went down.
So he had spoken the truth. He did not know where he was. But it proves
nothing. Nothing either way. It may have been the only truth in all his story.
And yet... He seems to have been driven out by a menacing stare—nothing more.”
He abandoned all pretence.
“Yes, I gave that course to
him. It seemed to me a supreme test. I believe—no, I don't believe. I don't
know. At the time I was certain. They all went down; and I don't know whether I
have done stern retribution—or murder; whether I have added to the corpses that
litter the bed of the unreadable sea the bodies of men completely innocent or
basely guilty. I don't know. I shall never know.”
He rose. The woman on the
couch got up and threw her arms round his neck. Her eyes put two gleams in the
deep shadow of the room. She knew his passion for truth, his horror of deceit,
his humanity.
“Oh, my poor, poor———”
“I shall never know,” he
repeated, sternly, disengaged himself, pressed her hands to his lips, and went
out.
4.THE BLACK MATE (1884)
A good many years ago there were several ships loading at the
Jetty, London Dock. I am speaking here of the 'eighties of the last century, of
the time when London had plenty of fine ships in the docks, though not so many
fine buildings in its streets.
The ships at the Jetty were
fine enough; they lay one behind the other; and the __Sapphire__, third from
the end, was as good as the rest of them, and nothing more. Each ship at the
Jetty had, of course, her chief officer on board. So had every other ship in
dock.
The policeman at the gates
knew them all by sight, without being able to say at once, without thinking, to
what ship any particular man belonged. As a matter of fact, the mates of the
ships then lying in the London Dock were like the majority of officers in the Merchant
Service—a steady, hard-working, staunch, un-romantic-looking set of men,
belonging to various classes of society, but with the professional stamp
obliterating the personal characteristics, which were not very marked anyhow.
This last was true of them
all, with the exception of the mate of the Sapphire. Of him the
policemen could not be in doubt. This one had a presence.
He was noticeable to them in
the street from a great distance; and when in the morning he strode down the
Jetty to his ship, the lumpers and the dock labourers rolling the bales and
trundling the cases of cargo on their hand-trucks would remark to each other:
“Here's the black mate
coming along.”
That was the name they gave
him, being a gross lot, who could have no appreciation of the man's dignified
bearing. And to call him black was the superficial impressionism of the
ignorant.
Of course, Mr. Bunter, the
mate of the Sapphire, was not black. He was no more black than you
or I, and certainly as white as any chief mate of a ship in the whole of the
Port of London. His complexion was of the sort that did not take the tan
easily; and I happen to know that the poor fellow had had a month's illness
just before he joined the Sapphire.
From this you will perceive
that I knew Bunter. Of course I knew him. And, what's more, I knew his secret
at the time, this secret which—never mind just now. Returning to Bunter's
personal appearance, it was nothing but ignorant prejudice on the part of the
foreman stevedore to say, as he did in my hearing: “I bet he's a furriner of
some sort.” A man may have black hair without being set down for a Dago. I have
known a West-country sailor, boatswain of a fine ship, who looked more Spanish
than any Spaniard afloat I've ever met. He looked like a Spaniard in a picture.
Competent authorities tell
us that this earth is to be finally the inheritance of men with dark hair and
brown eyes. It seems that already the great majority of mankind is dark-haired
in various shades. But it is only when you meet one that you notice how men
with really black hair, black as ebony, are rare. Bunter's hair was absolutely
black, black as a raven's wing. He wore, too, all his beard (clipped, but a
good length all the same), and his eyebrows were thick and bushy. Add to this
steely blue eyes, which in a fair-haired man would have been nothing so
extraordinary, but in that sombre framing made a startling contrast, and you
will easily understand that Bunter was noticeable enough.
If it had not been for the
quietness of his movements, for the general soberness of his demeanour, one
would have given him credit for a fiercely passionate nature.
Of course, he was not in his
first youth; but if the expression “in the force of his age” has any meaning,
he realized it completely. He was a tall man, too, though rather spare. Seeing
him from his poop indefatigably busy with his duties, Captain Ashton, of the
clipper ship Elsinore, lying just ahead of the Sapphire,
remarked once to a friend that “Johns has got somebody there to hustle his ship
along for him.”
Captain Johns, master of
the Sapphire, having commanded ships for many years, was well known
without being much respected or liked. In the company of his fellows he was
either neglected or chaffed. The chaffing was generally undertaken by Captain
Ashton, a cynical and teasing sort of man. It was Captain Ashton who permitted
himself the unpleasant joke of proclaiming once in company that “Johns is of
the opinion that every sailor above forty years of age ought to be
poisoned—shipmasters in actual command excepted.”
It was in a City restaurant,
where several well-known shipmasters were having lunch together. There was
Captain Ashton, florid and jovial, in a large white waistcoat and with a yellow
rose in his buttonhole; Captain Sellers in a sack-coat, thin and pale-faced,
with his iron-gray hair tucked behind his ears, and, but for the absence of
spectacles, looking like an ascetical mild man of books; Captain Hell, a bluff
sea-dog with hairy fingers, in blue serge and a black felt hat pushed far back off
his crimson forehead. There was also a very young shipmaster, with a little
fair moustache and serious eyes, who said nothing, and only smiled faintly from
time to time.
Captain Johns, very much
startled, raised his perplexed and credulous glance, which, together with a low
and horizontally wrinkled brow, did not make a very intellectual ensemble.
This impression was by no means mended by the slightly pointed form of his bald
head.
Everybody laughed outright,
and, thus guided, Captain Johns ended by smiling rather sourly, and attempted
to defend himself. It was all very well to joke, but nowadays, when ships, to
pay anything at all, had to be driven hard on the passage and in harbour, the
sea was no place for elderly men. Only young men and men in their prime were
equal to modern conditions of push and hurry. Look at the great firms: almost
every single one of them was getting rid of men showing any signs of age. He,
for one, didn't want any oldsters on board his ship.
And, indeed, in this opinion
Captain Johns was not singular. There was at that time a lot of seamen, with
nothing against them but that they were grizzled, wearing out the soles of
their last pair of boots on the pavements of the City in the heart-breaking
search for a berth.
Captain Johns added with a
sort of ill-humoured innocence that from holding that opinion to thinking of
poisoning people was a very long step.
This seemed final but
Captain Ashton would not let go his joke.
“Oh, yes. I am sure you
would. You said distinctly 'of no use.' What's to be done with men who are 'of
no use?' You are a kind-hearted fellow, Johns. I am sure that if only you
thought it over carefully you would consent to have them poisoned in some
painless manner.”
Captain Sellers twitched his
thin, sinuous lips.
“Make ghosts of them,” he
suggested, pointedly.
At the mention of ghosts
Captain Johns became shy, in his perplexed, sly, and unlovely manner.
Captain Ashton winked.
“Yes. And then perhaps you
would get a chance to have a communication with the world of spirits. Surely
the ghosts of seamen should haunt ships. Some of them would be sure to call on
an old shipmate.”
Captain Sellers remarked
drily:
“Don't raise his hopes like
this. It's cruel. He won't see anything. You know, Johns, that nobody has ever
seen a ghost.”
At this intolerable
provocation Captain Johns came out of his reserve. With no perplexity whatever,
but with a positive passion of credulity giving momentary lustre to his dull
little eyes, he brought up a lot of authenticated instances. There were books
and books full of instances. It was merest ignorance to deny supernatural
apparitions. Cases were published every month in a special newspaper. Professor
Cranks saw ghosts daily. And Professor Cranks was no small potatoes either. One
of the biggest scientific men living. And there was that newspaper
fellow—what's his name?—who had a girl-ghost visitor. He printed in his paper
things she said to him. And to say there were no ghosts after that!
“Why, they have been
photographed! What more proof do you want?”
Captain Johns was indignant.
Captain Bell's lips twitched, but Captain Ashton protested now.
“For goodness' sake don't
keep him going with that. And by the by, Johns, who's that hairy pirate you've
got for your new mate? Nobody in the Dock seems to have seen him before.”
Captain Johns, pacified by
the change of subjects, answered simply that Willy, the tobacconist at the
corner of Fenchurch Street, had sent him along.
Willy, his shop, and the
very house in Fenchurch Street, I believe, are gone now. In his time, wearing a
careworn, absent-minded look on his pasty face, Willy served with tobacco many
southern-going ships out of the Port of London. At certain times of the day the
shop would be full of shipmasters. They sat on casks, they lounged against the
counter.
Many a youngster found his
first lift in life there; many a man got a sorely needed berth by simply
dropping in for four pennyworth of birds'-eye at an auspicious moment. Even
Willy's assistant, a redheaded, uninterested, delicate-looking young fellow,
would hand you across the counter sometimes a bit of valuable intelligence with
your box of cigarettes, in a whisper, lips hardly moving, thus: “The Bellona,
South Dock. Second officer wanted. You may be in time for it if you hurry up.”
And didn't one just fly!
“Oh, Willy sent him,” said
Captain Ashton. “He's a very striking man. If you were to put a red sash round
his waist and a red handkerchief round his head he would look exactly like one
of them buccaneering chaps that made men walk the plank and carried women off
into captivity. Look out, Johns, he don't cut your throat for you and run off
with the Sapphire. What ship has he come out of last?”
Captain Johns, after looking
up credulously as usual, wrinkled his brow, and said placidly that the man had
seen better days. His name was Bunter.
“He's had command of a
Liverpool ship, the Samaria, some years ago. He lost her in the
Indian Ocean, and had his certificate suspended for a year. Ever since then he
has not been able to get another command. He's been knocking about in the
Western Ocean trade lately.”
“That accounts for him being
a stranger to everybody about the Docks,” Captain Ashton concluded as they rose
from table.
Captain Johns walked down to
the Dock after lunch. He was short of stature and slightly bandy. His
appearance did not inspire the generality of mankind with esteem; but it must
have been otherwise with his employers. He had the reputation of being an
uncomfortable commander, meticulous in trifles, always nursing a grievance of
some sort and incessantly nagging. He was not a man to kick up a row with you
and be done with it, but to say nasty things in a whining voice; a man capable
of making one's life a perfect misery if he took a dislike to an officer.
That very evening I went to
see Bunter on board, and sympathized with him on his prospects for the voyage.
He was subdued. I suppose a man with a secret locked up in his breast loses his
buoyancy. And there was another reason why I could not expect Bunter to show a
great elasticity of spirits. For one thing he had been very seedy lately, and
besides—but of that later.
Captain Johns had been on
board that afternoon and had loitered and dodged about his chief mate in a
manner which had annoyed Bunter exceedingly.
“What could he mean?” he asked
with calm exasperation. “One would think he suspected I had stolen something
and tried to see in what pocket I had stowed it away; or that somebody told him
I had a tail and he wanted to find out how I managed to conceal it. I don't
like to be approached from behind several times in one afternoon in that creepy
way and then to be looked up at suddenly in front from under my elbow. Is it a
new sort of peep-bo game? It doesn't amuse me. I am no longer a baby.”
I assured him that if anyone
were to tell Captain Johns that he—Bunter—had a tail, Johns would manage to get
himself to believe the story in some mysterious manner. He would. He was
suspicious and credulous to an inconceivable degree. He would believe any silly
tale, suspect any man of anything, and crawl about with it and ruminate the
stuff, and turn it over and over in his mind in the most miserable, inwardly
whining perplexity. He would take the meanest possible view in the end, and
discover the meanest possible course of action by a sort of natural genius for
that sort of thing.
Bunter also told me that the
mean creature had crept all over the ship on his little, bandy legs, taking him
along to grumble and whine to about a lot of trifles. Crept about the decks
like a wretched insect—like a cockroach, only not so lively.
Thus did the self-possessed
Bunter express himself with great disgust. Then, going on with his usual
stately deliberation, made sinister by the frown of his jet-black eyebrows:
“And the fellow is mad, too.
He tried to be sociable for a bit, and could find nothing else but to make big
eyes at me, and ask me if I believed 'in communication beyond the grave.'
Communication beyond—I didn't know what he meant at first. I didn't know what
to say. 'A very solemn subject, Mr. Bunter,' says he. I've given a great deal
of study to it.”
Had Johns lived on shore he
would have been the predestined prey of fraudulent mediums; or even if he had
had any decent opportunities between the voyages. Luckily for him, when in
England, he lived somewhere far away in Leytonstone, with a maiden sister ten
years older than himself, a fearsome virago twice his size, before whom he
trembled. It was said she bullied him terribly in general; and in the
particular instance of his spiritualistic leanings she had her own views.
These leanings were to her
simply satanic. She was reported as having declared that, “With God's help, she
would prevent that fool from giving himself up to the Devils.” It was beyond
doubt that Johns' secret ambition was to get into personal communication with
the spirits of the dead—if only his sister would let him. But she was adamant.
I was told that while in London he had to account to her for every penny of the
money he took with him in the morning, and for every hour of his time. And she
kept the bankbook, too.
Bunter (he had been a wild
youngster, but he was well connected; had ancestors; there was a family tomb
somewhere in the home counties)—Bunter was indignant, perhaps on account of his
own dead. Those steely-blue eyes of his flashed with positive ferocity out of
that black-bearded face. He impressed me—there was so much dark passion in his
leisurely contempt.
“The cheek of the fellow!
Enter into relations with... A mean little cad like this! It would be an
impudent intrusion. He wants to enter!... What is it? A new sort of
snobbishness or what?”
I laughed outright at this
original view of spiritism—or whatever the ghost craze is called. Even Bunter
himself condescended to smile. But it was an austere, quickly vanished smile. A
man in his almost, I may say, tragic position couldn't be expected—you
understand. He was really worried. He was ready eventually to put up with any
dirty trick in the course of the voyage. A man could not expect much
consideration should he find himself at the mercy of a fellow like Johns. A
misfortune is a misfortune, and there's an end of it. But to be bored by mean,
low-spirited, inane ghost stories in the Johns style, all the way out to
Calcutta and back again, was an intolerable apprehension to be under. Spiritism
was indeed a solemn subject to think about in that light. Dreadful, even!
Poor fellow! Little we both
thought that before very long he himself... However, I could give him no
comfort. I was rather appalled myself.
Bunter had also another
annoyance that day. A confounded berthing master came on board on some pretence
or other, but in reality, Bunter thought, simply impelled by an inconvenient
curiosity—inconvenient to Bunter, that is. After some beating about the bush,
that man suddenly said:
“I can't help thinking. I've
seen you before somewhere, Mr. Mate. If I heard your name, perhaps Bunter—”
That's the worst of a life
with a mystery in it—he was much alarmed. It was very likely that the man had
seen him before—worse luck to his excellent memory. Bunter himself could not be
expected to remember every casual dock walloper he might have had to do with.
Bunter brazened it out by turning upon the man, making use of that impressive,
black-as-night sternness of expression his unusual hair furnished him with:
“My name's Bunter, sir. Does
that enlighten your inquisitive intellect? And I don't ask what your name may
be. I don't want to know. I've no use for it, sir. An individual who calmly
tells me to my face that he is not sure if he has seen me
before, either means to be impudent or is no better than a worm, sir. Yes, I
said a worm—a blind worm!”
Brave Bunter. That was the
line to take. He fairly drove the beggar out of the ship, as if every word had
been a blow. But the pertinacity of that brass-bound Paul Pry was astonishing.
He cleared out of the ship, of course, before Bunter's ire, not saying
anything, and only trying to cover up his retreat by a sickly smile. But once
on the Jetty he turned deliberately round, and set himself to stare in dead
earnest at the ship. He remained planted there like a mooring-post, absolutely
motionless, and with his stupid eyes winking no more than a pair of cabin
portholes.
What could Bunter do? It was
awkward for him, you know. He could not go and put his head into the bread-locker.
What he did was to take up a position abaft the mizzen-rigging, and stare back
as unwinking as the other. So they remained, and I don't know which of them
grew giddy first; but the man on the Jetty, not having the advantage of
something to hold on to, got tired the soonest, flung his arm, giving the
contest up, as it were, and went away at last.
Bunter told me he was glad
the Sapphire, “that gem amongst ships” as he alluded to her
sarcastically, was going to sea next day. He had had enough of the Dock. I
understood his impatience. He had steeled himself against any possible worry
the voyage might bring, though it is clear enough now that he was not prepared
for the extraordinary experience that was awaiting him already, and in no other
part of the world than the Indian Ocean itself; the very part of the world
where the poor fellow had lost his ship and had broken his luck, as it seemed
for good and all, at the same time.
As to his remorse in regard
to a certain secret action of his life, well, I understand that a man of
Bunter's fine character would suffer not a little. Still, between ourselves,
and without the slightest wish to be cynical, it cannot be denied that with the
noblest of us the fear of being found out enters for some considerable part into
the composition of remorse. I didn't say this in so many words to Bunter, but,
as the poor fellow harped a bit on it, I told him that there were skeletons in
a good many honest cupboards, and that, as to his own particular guilt, it
wasn't writ large on his face for everybody to see—so he needn't worry as to
that. And besides, he would be gone to sea in about twelve hours from now.
He said there was some
comfort in that thought, and went off then to spend his last evening for many
months with his wife. For all his wildness, Bunter had made no mistake in his
marrying. He had married a lady. A perfect lady. She was a dear little woman,
too. As to her pluck, I, who know what times they had to go through, I cannot
admire her enough for it. Real, hard-wearing every day and day after day pluck
that only a woman is capable of when she is of the right sort—the undismayed
sort I would call it.
The black mate felt this
parting with his wife more than any of the previous ones in all the years of
bad luck. But she was of the undismayed kind, and showed less trouble in her
gentle face than the black-haired, buccaneer-like, but dignified mate of
the Sapphire. It may be that her conscience was less disturbed than
her husband's. Of course, his life had no secret places for her; but a woman's
conscience is somewhat more resourceful in finding good and valid excuses. It
depends greatly on the person that needs them, too.
They had agreed that she
should not come down to the Dock to see him off. “I wonder you care to look at
me at all,” said the sensitive man. And she did not laugh.
Bunter was very sensitive;
he left her rather brusquely at the last. He got on board in good time, and
produced the usual impression on the mud-pilot in the broken-down straw hat who
took the Sapphire out of dock. The river-man was very polite
to the dignified, striking-looking chief mate. “The five-inch manilla for the
check-rope, Mr.—Bunter, thank you—Mr. Bunter, please.” The sea-pilot who left
the “gem of ships” heading comfortably down Channel off Dover told some of his
friends that, this voyage, the Sapphire had for chief mate a
man who seemed a jolly sight too good for old Johns. “Bunter's his name. I
wonder where he's sprung from? Never seen him before in any ship I piloted in
or out all these years. He's the sort of man you don't forget. You couldn't. A
thorough good sailor, too. And won't old Johns just worry his head off! Unless
the old fool should take fright at him—for he does not seem the sort of man
that would let himself be put upon without letting you know what he thinks of
you. And that's exactly what old Johns would be more afraid of than of anything
else.”
As this is really meant to
be the record of a spiritualistic experience which came, if not precisely to
Captain Johns himself, at any rate to his ship, there is no use in recording
the other events of the passage out. It was an ordinary passage, the crew was
an ordinary crew, the weather was of the usual kind. The black mate's quiet,
sedate method of going to work had given a sober tone to the life of the ship.
Even in gales of wind everything went on quietly somehow.
There was only one severe
blow which made things fairly lively for all hands for full four-and-twenty
hours. That was off the coast of Africa, after passing the Cape of Good Hope.
At the very height of it several heavy seas were shipped with no serious
results, but there was a considerable smashing of breakable objects in the
pantry and in the staterooms. Mr. Bunter, who was so greatly respected on
board, found himself treated scurvily by the Southern Ocean, which, bursting
open the door of his room like a ruffianly burglar, carried off several useful
things, and made all the others extremely wet.
Later, on the same day, the
Southern Ocean caused the Sapphire to lurch over in such an
unrestrained fashion that the two drawers fitted under Mr. Bunter's
sleeping-berth flew out altogether, spilling all their contents. They ought, of
course, to have been locked, and Mr. Bunter had only to thank himself for what
had happened. He ought to have turned the key on each before going out on deck.
His consternation was very
great. The steward, who was paddling about all the time with swabs, trying to
dry out the flooded cuddy, heard him exclaim “Hallo!” in a startled and
dismayed tone. In the midst of his work the steward felt a sympathetic concern
for the mate's distress.
Captain Johns was secretly
glad when he heard of the damage. He was indeed afraid of his chief mate, as
the sea-pilot had ventured to foretell, and afraid of him for the very reason
the sea-pilot had put forward as likely.
Captain Johns, therefore,
would have liked very much to hold that black mate of his at his mercy in some
way or other. But the man was irreproachable, as near absolute perfection as
could be. And Captain Johns was much annoyed, and at the same time
congratulated himself on his chief officer's efficiency.
He made a great show of
living sociably with him, on the principle that the more friendly you are with
a man the more easily you may catch him tripping; and also for the reason that
he wanted to have somebody who would listen to his stories of manifestations,
apparitions, ghosts, and all the rest of the imbecile spook-lore. He had it all
at his fingers' ends; and he spun those ghostly yarns in a persistent,
colourless voice, giving them a futile turn peculiarly his own.
“I like to converse with my
officers,” he used to say. “There are masters that hardly ever open their
mouths from beginning to end of a passage for fear of losing their dignity.
What's that, after all—this bit of position a man holds!”
His sociability was most to
be dreaded in the second dog-watch, because he was one of those men who grow
lively towards the evening, and the officer on duty was unable then to find
excuses for leaving the poop. Captain Johns would pop up the companion
suddenly, and, sidling up in his creeping way to poor Bunter, as he walked up
and down, would fire into him some spiritualistic proposition, such as:
“Spirits, male and female,
show a good deal of refinement in a general way, don't they?”
To which Bunter, holding his
black-whiskered head high, would mutter:
“I don't know.”
“Ah! that's because you
don't want to. You are the most obstinate, prejudiced man I've ever met, Mr.
Bunter. I told you you may have any book out of my bookcase. You may just go
into my stateroom and help yourself to any volume.”
And if Bunter protested that
he was too tired in his watches below to spare any time for reading, Captain
Johns would smile nastily behind his back, and remark that of course some
people needed more sleep than others to keep themselves fit for their work. If
Mr. Bunter was afraid of not keeping properly awake when on duty at night, that
was another matter.
“But I think you borrowed a
novel to read from the second mate the other day—a trashy pack of lies,”
Captain Johns sighed. “I am afraid you are not a spiritually minded man, Mr.
Bunter. That's what's the matter.”
Sometimes he would appear on
deck in the middle of the night, looking very grotesque and bandy-legged in his
sleeping suit. At that sight the persecuted Bunter would wring his hands
stealthily, and break out into moisture all over his forehead. After standing
sleepily by the binnacle, scratching himself in an unpleasant manner, Captain
Johns was sure to start on some aspect or other of his only topic.
He would, for instance,
discourse on the improvement of morality to be expected from the establishment
of general and close intercourse with the spirits of the departed. The spirits,
Captain Johns thought, would consent to associate familiarly with the living if
it were not for the unbelief of the great mass of mankind. He himself would not
care to have anything to do with a crowd that would not believe in his—Captain
Johns'—existence. Then why should a spirit? This was asking too much.
He went on breathing hard by
the binnacle and trying to reach round his shoulder-blades; then, with a thick,
drowsy severity, declared:
“Incredulity, sir, is the
evil of the age!”
It rejected the evidence of
Professor Cranks and of the journalist chap. It resisted the production of
photographs.
For Captain Johns believed
firmly that certain spirits had been photographed. He had read something of it
in the papers. And the idea of it having been done had got a tremendous hold on
him, because his mind was not critical. Bunter said afterwards that nothing
could be more weird than this little man, swathed in a sleeping suit three
sizes too large for him, shuffling with excitement in the moonlight near the
wheel, and shaking his fist at the serene sea.
“Photographs! photographs!”
he would repeat, in a voice as creaky as a rusty hinge.
The very helmsman just
behind him got uneasy at that performance, not being capable of understanding
exactly what the “old man was kicking up a row with the mate about.”
Then Johns, after calming
down a bit, would begin again.
“The sensitised plate can't
lie. No, sir.”
Nothing could be more funny
than this ridiculous little man's conviction—his dogmatic tone. Bunter would go
on swinging up and down the poop like a deliberate, dignified pendulum. He said
not a word. But the poor fellow had not a trifle on his conscience, as you
know; and to have imbecile ghosts rammed down his throat like this on top of
his own worry nearly drove him crazy. He knew that on many occasions he was on
the verge of lunacy, because he could not help indulging in half-delirious
visions of Captain Johns being picked up by the scruff of the neck and dropped
over the taffrail into the ship's wake—the sort of thing no sane sailorman
would think of doing to a cat or any other animal, anyhow. He imagined him
bobbing up—a tiny black speck left far astern on the moonlit ocean.
I don't think that even at
the worst moments Bunter really desired to drown Captain Johns. I fancy that
all his disordered imagination longed for was merely to stop the ghostly
inanity of the skipper's talk.
But, all the same, it was a
dangerous form of self-indulgence. Just picture to yourself that ship in the
Indian Ocean, on a clear, tropical night, with her sails full and still, the
watch on deck stowed away out of sight; and on her poop, flooded with
moonlight, the stately black mate walking up and down with measured, dignified
steps, preserving an awful silence, and that grotesquely mean little figure in
striped flannelette alternately creaking and droning of “personal intercourse
beyond the grave.”
It makes me creepy all over
to think of. And sometimes the folly of Captain Johns would appear clothed in a
sort of weird utilitarianism. How useful it would be if the spirits of the
departed could be induced to take a practical interest in the affairs of the
living! What a help, say, to the police, for instance, in the detection of
crime! The number of murders, at any rate, would be considerably reduced, he
guessed with an air of great sagacity. Then he would give way to grotesque
discouragement.
Where was the use of trying
to communicate with people that had no faith, and more likely than not would
scorn the offered information? Spirits had their feelings. They were all feelings
in a way. But he was surprised at the forbearance shown towards murderers by
their victims. That was the sort of apparition that no guilty man would dare to
pooh-pooh. And perhaps the undiscovered murderers—whether believing or not—were
haunted. They wouldn't be likely to boast about it, would they?
“For myself,” he pursued, in
a sort of vindictive, malevolent whine, “if anybody murdered me I would not let
him forget it. I would wither him up—I would terrify him to death.”
The idea of his skipper's
ghost terrifying anyone was so ludicrous that the black mate, little disposed
to mirth as he was, could not help giving vent to a weary laugh.
And this laugh, the only
acknowledgment of a long and earnest discourse, offended Captain Johns.
“What's there to laugh at in
this conceited manner, Mr. Bunter?” he snarled. “Supernatural visitations have
terrified better men than you. Don't you allow me enough soul to make a ghost
of?”
I think it was the nasty
tone that caused Bunter to stop short and turn about.
“I shouldn't wonder,” went
on the angry fanatic of spiritism, “if you weren't one of them people that take
no more account of a man than if he were a beast. You would be capable, I don't
doubt, to deny the possession of an immortal soul to your own father.”
And then Bunter, being bored
beyond endurance, and also exasperated by the private worry, lost his
self-possession.
He walked up suddenly to
Captain Johns, and, stooping a little to look close into his face, said, in a
low, even tone:
“You don't know what a man
like me is capable of.”
Captain Johns threw his head
back, but was too astonished to budge. Bunter resumed his walk; and for a long
time his measured footsteps and the low wash of the water alongside were the
only sounds which troubled the silence brooding over the great waters. Then
Captain Johns cleared his throat uneasily, and, after sidling away towards the
companion for greater safety, plucked up enough courage to retreat under an act
of authority:
“Raise the starboard clew of
the mainsail, and lay the yards dead square, Mr. Bunter. Don't you see the wind
is nearly right aft?”
Bunter at once answered “Ay,
ay, sir,” though there was not the slightest necessity to touch the yards, and
the wind was well out on the quarter. While he was executing the order Captain
Johns hung on the companion-steps, growling to himself: “Walk this poop like an
admiral and don't even notice when the yards want trimming!”—loud enough for
the helmsman to overhear. Then he sank slowly backwards out of the man's sight;
and when he reached the bottom of the stairs he stood still and thought.
“He's an awful ruffian, with
all his gentlemanly airs. No more gentleman mates for me.”
Two nights afterwards he was
slumbering peacefully in his berth, when a heavy thumping just above his head
(a well-understood signal that he was wanted on deck) made him leap out of bed,
broad awake in a moment.
“What's up?” he muttered,
running out barefooted. On passing through the cabin he glanced at the clock.
It was the middle watch. “What on earth can the mate want me for?” he thought.
Bolting out of the
companion, he found a clear, dewy moonlit night and a strong, steady breeze. He
looked around wildly. There was no one on the poop except the helmsman, who
addressed him at once.
“It was me, sir. I let go
the wheel for a second to stamp over your head. I am afraid there's something
wrong with the mate.”
“Where's he got to?” asked
the captain sharply.
The man, who was obviously
nervous, said:
“The last I saw of him was
as he-fell down the port poop-ladder.”
“Fell down the poop-ladder!
What did he do that for? What made him?”
“I don't know, sir. He was
walking the port side. Then just as he turned towards me to come aft...”
“You saw him?” interrupted
the captain.
“I did. I was looking at
him. And I heard the crash, too—something awful. Like the mainmast going
overboard. It was as if something had struck him.”
Captain Johns became very
uneasy and alarmed. “Come,” he said sharply. “Did anybody strike him? What did
you see?”
“Nothing, sir, so help me!
There was nothing to see. He just gave a little sort of hallo! threw his hands
before him, and over he went—crash. I couldn't hear anything more, so I just
let go the wheel for a second to call you up.”
“You're scared!” said
Captain Johns. “I am, sir, straight!”
Captain Johns stared at him.
The silence of his ship driving on her way seemed to contain a danger—a
mystery. He was reluctant to go and look for his mate himself, in the shadows
of the main-deck, so quiet, so still.
All he did was to advance to
the break of the poop, and call for the watch. As the sleepy men came trooping
aft, he shouted to them fiercely:
“Look at the foot of the
port poop-ladder, some of you! See the mate lying there?”
Their startled exclamations
told him immediately that they did see him. Somebody even screeched out
emotionally: “He's dead!”
Mr. Bunter was laid in his
bunk and when the lamp in his room was lit he looked indeed as if he were dead,
but it was obvious also that he was breathing yet. The steward had been roused
out, the second mate called and sent on deck to look after the ship, and for an
hour or so Captain Johns devoted himself silently to the restoring of
consciousness. Mr. Bunter at last opened his eyes, but he could not speak. He
was dazed and inert. The steward bandaged a nasty scalp-wound while Captain
Johns held an additional light. They had to cut away a lot of Mr. Bunter's
jet-black hair to make a good dressing. This done, and after gazing for a while
at their patient, the two left the cabin.
“A rum go, this, steward,”
said Captain Johns in the passage.
“Yessir.”
“A sober man that's right in
his head does not fall down a poop-ladder like a sack of potatoes. The ship's
as steady as a church.”
“Yessir. Fit of some kind, I
shouldn't wonder.”
“Well, I should. He doesn't
look as if he were subject to fits and giddiness. Why, the man's in the prime
of life. I wouldn't have another kind of mate—not if I knew it. You don't think
he has a private store of liquor, do you, eh? He seemed to me a bit strange in
his manner several times lately. Off his feed, too, a bit, I noticed.”
“Well, sir, if he ever had a
bottle or two of grog in his cabin, that must have gone a long time ago. I saw
him throw some broken glass overboard after the last gale we had; but that
didn't amount to anything. Anyway, sir, you couldn't call Mr. Bunter a drinking
man.”
“No,” conceded the captain,
reflectively. And the steward, locking the pantry door, tried to escape out of
the passage, thinking he could manage to snatch another hour of sleep before it
was time for him to turn out for the day.
Captain Johns shook his
head.
“There's some mystery
there.”
“There's special Providence
that he didn't crack his head like an eggshell on the quarter-deck
mooring-bits, sir. The men tell me he couldn't have missed them by more than an
inch.”
And the steward vanished
skilfully.
Captain Johns spent the rest
of the night and the whole of the ensuing day between his own room and that of
the mate.
In his own room he sat with
his open hands reposing on his knees, his lips pursed up, and the horizontal
furrows on his forehead marked very heavily. Now and then raising his arm by a
slow, as if cautious movement, he scratched lightly the top of his bald head.
In the mate's room he stood for long periods of time with his hand to his lips,
gazing at the half-conscious man.
For three days Mr. Bunter
did not say a single word. He looked at people sensibly enough but did not seem
to be able to hear any questions put to him. They cut off some more of his hair
and swathed his head in wet cloths. He took some nourishment, and was made as
comfortable as possible. At dinner on the third day the second mate remarked to
the captain, in connection with the affair:
“These half-round brass
plates on the steps of the poop-ladders are beastly dangerous things!”
“Are they?” retorted Captain
Johns, sourly. “It takes more than a brass plate to account for an able-bodied
man crashing down in this fashion like a felled ox.”
The second mate was
impressed by that view. There was something in that, he thought.
“And the weather fine,
everything dry, and the ship going along as steady as a church!” pursued
Captain Johns, gruffly.
As Captain Johns continued
to look extremely sour, the second mate did not open his lips any more during
the dinner. Captain Johns was annoyed and hurt by an innocent remark, because
the fitting of the aforesaid brass plates had been done at his suggestion only
the voyage before, in order to smarten up the appearance of the poop-ladders.
On the fourth day Mr. Bunter
looked decidedly better; very languid yet, of course, but he heard and
understood what was said to him, and even could say a few words in a feeble
voice.
Captain Johns, coming in,
contemplated him attentively, without much visible sympathy.
“Well, can you give us your
account of this accident, Mr. Bunter?”
Bunter moved slightly his
bandaged head, and fixed his cold blue stare on Captain Johns' face, as if
taking stock and appraising the value of every feature; the perplexed forehead,
the credulous eyes, the inane droop of the mouth. And he gazed so long that
Captain Johns grew restive, and looked over his shoulder at the door.
“No accident,” breathed out
Bunter, in a peculiar tone.
“You don't mean to say
you've got the falling sickness,” said Captain Johns. “How would you call it
signing as chief mate of a clipper ship with a thing like that on you?”
Bunter answered him only by
a sinister look. The skipper shuffled his feet a little.
“Well, what made you have
that tumble, then?”
Bunter raised himself a
little, and, looking straight into Captain Johns' eyes said, in a very distinct
whisper:
“You—were—right!”
He fell back and closed his
eyes. Not a word more could Captain Johns get out of him; and, the steward
coming into the cabin, the skipper withdrew.
But that very night,
unobserved, Captain Johns, opening the door cautiously, entered again the
mate's cabin. He could wait no longer. The suppressed eagerness, the excitement
expressed in all his mean, creeping little person, did not escape the chief
mate, who was lying awake, looking frightfully pulled down and perfectly
impassive.
“You are coming to gloat
over me, I suppose,” said Bunter without moving, and yet making a palpable hit.
“Bless my soul!” exclaimed
Captain Johns with a start, and assuming a sobered demeanour. “There's a thing
to say!”
“Well, gloat, then! You and
your ghosts, you've managed to get over a live man.”
This was said by Bunter
without stirring, in a low voice, and with not much expression.
“Do you mean to say,”
inquired Captain Johns, in awe-struck whisper, “that you had a supernatural
experience that night? You saw an apparition, then, on board my ship?”
Reluctance, shame, disgust,
would have been visible on poor Bunter's countenance if the great part of it
had not been swathed up in cotton-wool and bandages. His ebony eyebrows, more
sinister than ever amongst all that lot of white linen, came together in a
frown as he made a mighty effort to say:
“Yes, I have seen.”
The wretchedness in his eyes
would have awakened the compassion of any other man than Captain Johns. But Captain
Johns was all agog with triumphant excitement. He was just a little bit
frightened, too. He looked at that unbelieving scoffer laid low, and did not
even dimly guess at his profound, humiliating distress. He was not generally
capable of taking much part in the anguish of his fellow-creatures. This time,
moreover, he was excessively anxious to know what had happened. Fixing his
credulous eyes on the bandaged head, he asked, trembling slightly:
“And did it—did it knock you
down?”
“Come! am I the sort of man
to be knocked down by a ghost?” protested Bunter in a little stronger tone.
“Don't you remember what you said yourself the other night? Better men than
me———Ha! you'll have to look a long time before you find a better man for a
mate of your ship.”
Captain Johns pointed a
solemn finger at Bunter's bedplace.
“You've been terrified,” he
said. “That's what's the matter. You've been terrified. Why, even the man at
the wheel was scared, though he couldn't see anything. He felt the
supernatural. You are punished for your incredulity, Mr. Bunter. You were
terrified.”
“And suppose I was,” said
Bunter. “Do you know what I had seen? Can you conceive the sort of ghost that
would haunt a man like me? Do you think it was a ladyish, afternoon call,
another-cup-of-tea-please apparition that visits your Professor Cranks and that
journalist chap you are always talking about? No; I can't tell you what it was
like. Every man has his own ghosts. You couldn't conceive...”
Bunter stopped, out of
breath; and Captain Johns remarked, with the glow of inward satisfaction
reflected in his tone:
“I've always thought you
were the sort of man that was ready for anything; from pitch-and-toss to wilful
murder, as the saying goes. Well, well! So you were terrified.”
“I stepped back,” said
Bunter, curtly. “I don't remember anything else.”
“The man at the wheel told
me you went backwards as if something had hit you.”
“It was a sort of inward
blow,” explained Bunter. “Something too deep for you, Captain Johns, to
understand. Your life and mine haven't been the same. Aren't you satisfied to
see me converted?”
“And you can't tell me any
more?” asked Captain Johns, anxiously.
“No, I can't. I wouldn't. It
would be no use if I did. That sort of experience must be gone through. Say I
am being punished. Well, I take my punishment, but talk of it I won't.”
“Very well,” said Captain
Johns; “you won't. But, mind, I can draw my own conclusions from that.”
“Draw what you like; but be
careful what you say, sir. You don't terrify me. You aren't a
ghost.”
“One word. Has it any
connection with what you said to me on that last night, when we had a talk
together on spiritualism?”
Bunter looked weary and
puzzled.
“What did I say?”
“You told me that I couldn't
know what a man like you was capable of.”
“Yes, yes. Enough!”
“Very good. I am fixed,
then,” remarked Captain Johns. “All I say is that I am jolly glad not to be
you, though I would have given almost anything for the privilege of personal
communication with the world of spirits. Yes, sir, but not in that way.”
Poor Bunter moaned
pitifully.
“It has made me feel twenty
years older.”
Captain Johns retired
quietly. He was delighted to observe this overbearing ruffian humbled to the
dust by the moralizing agency of the spirits. The whole occurrence was a source
of pride and gratification; and he began to feel a sort of regard for his chief
mate.
It is true that in further
interviews Bunter showed himself very mild and deferential. He seemed to cling
to his captain for spiritual protection. He used to send for him, and say, “I
feel so nervous,” and Captain Johns would stay patiently for hours in the hot
little cabin, and feel proud of the call.
For Mr. Bunter was ill, and
could not leave his berth for a good many days. He became a convinced
spiritualist, not enthusiastically—that could hardly have been expected from
him—but in a grim, unshakable way. He could not be called exactly friendly to
the disembodied inhabitants of our globe, as Captain Johns was. But he was now
a firm, if gloomy, recruit of spiritualism.
One afternoon, as the ship
was already well to the north in the Gulf of Bengal, the steward knocked at the
door of the captain's cabin, and said, without opening it:
“The mate asks if you could
spare him a moment, sir. He seems to be in a state in there.”
Captain Johns jumped up from
the couch at once.
“Yes. Tell him I am coming.”
He thought: Could it be
possible there had been another spiritual manifestation—in the daytime, too!
He revelled in the hope. It
was not exactly that, however. Still, Bunter, whom he saw sitting collapsed in
a chair—he had been up for several days, but not on deck as yet—poor Bunter had
something startling enough to communicate. His hands covered his face. His legs
were stretched straight out, dismally.
“What's the news now?”
croaked Captain Johns, not unkindly, because in truth it always pleased him to
see Bunter—as he expressed it—tamed.
“News!” exclaimed the
crushed sceptic through his hands. “Ay, news enough, Captain Johns. Who will be
able to deny the awfulness, the genuineness? Another man would have dropped
dead. You want to know what I had seen. All I can tell you is that since I've
seen it my hair is turning white.”
Bunter detached his hands
from his face, and they hung on each side of his chair as if dead. He looked
broken in the dusky cabin.
“You don't say!” stammered
out Captain Johns. “Turned white! Hold on a bit! I'll light the lamp!”
When the lamp was lit, the
startling phenomenon could be seen plainly enough. As if the dread, the horror,
the anguish of the supernatural were being exhaled through the pores of his
skin, a sort of silvery mist seemed to cling to the cheeks and the head of the
mate. His short beard, his cropped hair, were growing, not black, but
gray—almost white.
When Mr. Bunter, thin-faced
and shaky, came on deck for duty, he was clean-shaven, and his head was white.
The hands were awe-struck. “Another man,” they whispered to each other. It was
generally and mysteriously agreed that the mate had “seen something,” with the
exception of the man at the wheel at the time, who maintained that the mate was
“struck by something.”
This distinction hardly
amounted to a difference. On the other hand, everybody admitted that, after he
picked up his strength a bit, he seemed even smarter in his movements than
before.
One day in Calcutta, Captain
Johns, pointing out to a visitor his white-headed chief mate standing by the
main-hatch, was heard to say oracularly:
“That man's in the prime of
life.”
Of course, while Bunter was
away, I called regularly on Mrs. Bunter every Saturday, just to see whether she
had any use for my services. It was understood I would do that. She had just
his half-pay to live on—it amounted to about a pound a week. She had taken one
room in a quiet little square in the East End.
And this was affluence to
what I had heard that the couple were reduced to for a time after Bunter had to
give up the Western Ocean trade—he used to go as mate of all sorts of hard
packets after he lost his ship and his luck together—it was affluence to that
time when Bunter would start at seven o'clock in the morning with but a glass
of hot water and a crust of dry bread. It won't stand thinking about,
especially for those who know Mrs. Bunter. I had seen something of them, too,
at that time; and it just makes me shudder to remember what that born lady had
to put up with. Enough!
Dear Mrs. Bunter used to
worry a good deal after the Sapphire left for Calcutta. She
would say to me: “It must be so awful for poor Winston”—Winston is Bunter's
name—and I tried to comfort her the best I could. Afterwards, she got some
small children to teach in a family, and was half the day with them, and the
occupation was good for her.
In the very first letter she
had from Calcutta, Bunter told her he had had a fall down the poop-ladder, and
cut his head, but no bones broken, thank God. That was all. Of course, she had
other letters from him, but that vagabond Bunter never gave me a scratch of the
pen the solid eleven months. I supposed, naturally, that everything was going
on all right. Who could imagine what was happening?
Then one day dear Mrs.
Bunter got a letter from a legal firm in the City, advising her that her uncle
was dead—her old curmudgeon of an uncle—a retired stockbroker, a heartless,
petrified antiquity that had lasted on and on. He was nearly ninety, I believe;
and if I were to meet his venerable ghost this minute, I would try to take him
by the throat and strangle him.
The old beast would never
forgive his niece for marrying Bunter; and years afterwards, when people made a
point of letting him know that she was in London, pretty nearly starving at
forty years of age, he only said: “Serve the little fool right!” I believe he
meant her to starve. And, lo and behold, the old cannibal died intestate, with
no other relatives but that very identical little fool. The Bunters were
wealthy people now.
Of course, Mrs. Bunter wept
as if her heart would break. In any other woman it would have been mere
hypocrisy. Naturally, too, she wanted to cable the news to her Winston in
Calcutta, but I showed her, Gazette in hand, that the ship was
on the homeward-bound list for more than a week already. So we sat down to
wait, and talked meantime of dear old Winston every day. There were just one
hundred such days before the Sapphire got reported “All well”
in the chops of the Channel by an incoming mailboat.
“I am going to Dunkirk to
meet him,” says she. The Sapphire had a cargo of jute for
Dunkirk. Of course, I had to escort the dear lady in the quality of her
“ingenious friend.” She calls me “our ingenious friend” to this day; and I've
observed some people—strangers—looking hard at me, for the signs of the
ingenuity, I suppose.
After settling Mrs. Bunter
in a good hotel in Dunkirk, I walked down to the docks—late afternoon it
was—and what was my surprise to see the ship actually fast alongside. Either
Johns or Bunter, or both, must have been driving her hard up Channel. Anyway,
she had been in since the day before last, and her crew was already paid off. I
met two of her apprenticed boys going off home on leave with their dunnage on a
Frenchman's barrow, as happy as larks, and I asked them if the mate was on
board.
“There he is, on the quay,
looking at the moorings,” says one of the youngsters as he skipped past me.
You may imagine the shock to
my feelings when I beheld his white head. I could only manage to tell him that
his wife was at an hotel in town. He left me at once, to go and get his hat on
board. I was mightily surprised by the smartness of his movements as he hurried
up the gangway.
Whereas the black mate
struck people as deliberate, and strangely stately in his gait for a man in the
prime of life, this white-headed chap seemed the most wonderfully alert of old
men. I don't suppose Bunter was any quicker on his pins than before. It was the
colour of the hair that made all the difference in one's judgment.
The same with his eyes.
Those eyes, that looked at you so steely, so fierce, and so fascinating out of
a bush of a buccaneer's black hair, now had an innocent almost boyish
expression in their good-humoured brightness under those white eyebrows.
I led him without any delay
into Mrs. Bunter's private sitting-room. After she had dropped a tear over the
late cannibal, given a hug to her Winston, and told him that he must grow his
moustache again, the dear lady tucked her feet upon the sofa, and I got out of
Bunter's way.
He started at once to pace
the room, waving his long arms. He worked himself into a regular frenzy, and
tore Johns limb from limb many times over that evening.
“Fell down? Of course I fell
down, by slipping backwards on that fool's patent brass plates. 'Pon my word, I
had been walking that poop in charge of the ship, and I didn't know whether I
was in the Indian Ocean or in the moon. I was crazy. My head spun round and
round with sheer worry. I had made my last application of your chemist's
wonderful stuff.” (This to me.) “All the store of bottles you gave me got
smashed when those drawers fell out in the last gale. I had been getting some
dry things to change, when I heard the cry: 'All hands on deck!' and made one
jump of it, without even pushing them in properly. Ass! When I came back and
saw the broken glass and the mess, I felt ready to faint.
“No; look here—deception is
bad; but not to be able to keep it up after one has been forced into it. You
know that since I've been squeezed out of the Western Ocean packets by younger
men, just on account of my grizzled muzzle—you know how much chance I had to
ever get a ship. And not a soul to turn to. We have been a lonely couple, we
two—she threw away everything for me—and to see her want a piece of dry
bread———”
He banged with his fist fit
to split the Frenchman's table in two.
“I would have turned a
sanguinary pirate for her, let alone cheating my way into a berth by dyeing my
hair. So when you came to me with your chemist's wonderful stuff———”
He checked himself.
“By the way, that fellow's
got a fortune when he likes to pick it up. It is a wonderful stuff—you tell him
salt water can do nothing to it. It stays on as long as your hair will.”
“All right,” I said. “Go
on.”
Thereupon he went for Johns
again with a fury that frightened his wife, and made me laugh till I cried.
“Just you try to think what
it would have meant to be at the mercy of the meanest creature that ever
commanded a ship! Just fancy what a life that crawling Johns would have led me!
And I knew that in a week or so the white hair would begin to show. And the
crew. Did you ever think of that? To be shown up as a low fraud before all
hands. What a life for me till we got to Calcutta! And once there—kicked out,
of course. Half-pay stopped. Annie here alone without a penny—starving; and I
on the other side of the earth, ditto. You see?
“I thought of shaving twice
a day. But could I shave my head, too? No way—no way at all. Unless I dropped
Johns overboard; and even then———
“Do you wonder now that with
all these things boiling in my head I didn't know where I was putting down my
foot that night? I just felt myself falling—then crash, and all dark.
“When I came to myself that
bang on the head seemed to have steadied my wits somehow. I was so sick of
everything that for two days I wouldn't speak to anyone. They thought it was a
slight concussion of the brain. Then the idea dawned upon me as I was looking
at that ghost-ridden, wretched fool. 'Ah, you love ghosts,' I thought. 'Well,
you shall have something from beyond the grave.'
“I didn't even trouble to
invent a story. I couldn't imagine a ghost if I wanted to. I wasn't fit to lie
connectedly if I had tried. I just bulled him on to it. Do you know, he got,
quite by himself, a notion that at some time or other I had done somebody to
death in some way, and that———”
“Oh, the horrible man!”
cried Mrs. Bunter from the sofa. There was a silence.
“And didn't he bore my head
off on the home passage!” began Bunter again in a weary voice. “He loved me. He
was proud of me. I was converted. I had had a manifestation. Do you know what
he was after? He wanted me and him 'to make a seance,' in his own
words, and to try to call up that ghost (the one that had turned my hair
white—the ghost of my supposed victim), and, as he said, talk it over with
him—the ghost—in a friendly way.
“'Or else, Bunter,' he says,
'you may get another manifestation when you least expect it, and tumble
overboard perhaps, or something. You ain't really safe till we pacify the
spirit-world in some way.'
“Can you conceive a lunatic
like that? No—say?”
I said nothing. But Mrs.
Bunter did, in a very decided tone.
“Winston, I don't want you
to go on board that ship again any more.”
“My dear,” says he, “I have
all my things on board yet.”
“You don't want the things.
Don't go near that ship at all.”
He stood still; then,
dropping his eyes with a faint smile, said slowly, in a dreamy voice:
“The haunted ship.”
“And your last,” I added.
We carried him off, as he
stood, by the night train. He was very quiet; but crossing the Channel, as we
two had a smoke on deck, he turned to me suddenly, and, grinding his teeth,
whispered:
“He'll never know how near
he was being dropped overboard!”
He meant Captain Johns. I
said nothing.
But Captain Johns, I
understand, made a great to-do about the disappearance of his chief mate. He
set the French police scouring the country for the body. In the end, I fancy he
got word from his owners' office to drop all this fuss—that it was all right. I
don't suppose he ever understood anything of that mysterious occurrence.
To this day he tries at
times (he's retired now, and his conversation is not very coherent)—he tries to
tell the story of a black mate he once had, “a murderous, gentlemanly ruffian,
with raven-black hair which turned white all at once in consequence of a
manifestation from beyond the grave.” An avenging apparition. What with
reference to black and white hair, to poop-ladders, and to his own feelings and
views, it is difficult to make head or tail of it. If his sister (she's very
vigorous still) should be present she cuts all this short—peremptorily:
“Don't you mind what he
says. He's got devils on the brain.”
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